I feel your pain. Most therapists ask me what my diagnoses even are when I tell them what past therapists I met at outpatient clinics diagnosed me with and then I never saw them again cause you can only go for so long to certain ones. I feel lost.
I hate that. I told my previous therapist and she said, "yeah but this usually occurs because of trauma." and it's hard to talk about because when you have it 24/7 it's hard to explain how you're feeling a way that makes sense
She just don't know anything about depersonalization. Your brain is not messed up. You're going to be okay❤ It's a natural reaction that a lot of people go through. I have it and have had it for about a week now, but I'm going through it and staying positive 🙏🏾 We will heal. It's temporary. Just think of it like it's a cold and you will recover from it.
Accept you are just different and try everything to get the best you, takes awhile but hoping for total cure is nor how it usually goes. Different is not better or worse, just difftent...
I physically gasped when I read this comment because I literally had the same experience. I tried explaining how I feel like my brain is constantly overwhelmed by my environment, and she just told me that my perception of life might just be like that. Literally almost verbatim .. "maybe that's just how you are"
I had one of those and I ditched them. Well, tbh, I ghosted them and retreated into my shell until another crisis made me seek out someone new. But now, oh boy, have I landed a great therapist!
@Schurik This would make sense because whenever I said when my depression was bad this happened, they never knew what I was talking about 😂. So I would just be like well this is how it feels and it's technically under the dissociation umbrella but I feel real just the world and everything else doesn't. Then this makes me feel like I know more than them 🤔 this also happens when I mention selective mutism as part of my mild social anxiety(because it doesn't interfere with my life the way it did as a child so it's not a disorder).
Some “professionals” still don’t know shit about some things. I had my doctor laugh and tell me I didn’t know what I was talking about basically, when I asked for help related to BDD.
holy shit yes, i thoughtthis before, when i was high one time, i felt like i wasnt there, and i could teleport back or it was a dream, like i was walking in the park then all of a sudden i was at the bus stop then at the park again, but i washigh so i knew it wasnt me, and when i have these things where a period of time like 30 mins, and i feel out of my body or like im being derealized from myslef, i feel like that and i have to sit otherwise i freak the fuck out
Yes !!!! Also being stuck in a constant state of just waking up . How when you wake up you’re super groggy and your brain is very very slow . And the feeling of not being able to open your eyes wide enough .
I’m back rewatching this video bc yesterday I was super disconnected from everything. It was maybe the worst I’ve ever felt it. My head just felt like, heavy like I was about to fall asleep and my motor skills were bad. It was just bad. I was off my meds bc sometimes I forget to take them bc I’m bad at self care
I got high for the first time this year and turned to my boyfriend and said “this is almost exactly how I feel all the time”. I didn’t realise people didn’t feel this way all this time
That’s how I’ve felt since I stopped smoking weed. Now I can’t smoke anymore because it makes it worse. I always feel high, and weird like I’m not really there and time literally flies
Yes 100%. I go through dissociative episodes that can last a couple days. I’m diagnosed with bipolar type 2 and sometimes when I’m going between hypomania and melancholy (both less severe versions of being manic and depressed) my brain will tune out feelings as a way to prepare for the depressive episode. For me at least, I will feel like I can’t emote. Like I will feel as though I’m not able to feel joy or sadness, which in itself is a symptom of depression- however alongside that- because I can’t feel emotion I’ll start feeling as though nothing is real etc etc. When I started smoking weed, it gave me so much anxiety because it gave me the SAME feeling of questioning reality but because I controlled how much I was thinking about reality, it almost prepared my brain for my next dissociative episode. BUT please don’t self medicate with drugs, I wasn’t responsible (still aren’t in some ways)
I’ve never been high but I want to try getting high and seeing if it works the other way so I want to see if me having DPDR i want to see if I get high I will feel normal ? Could that work
Yes!! I have this disorder and I got high for the first time a few weeks ago and I freaked out because it was exactly how I always feel but turned up to 10 and I just couldn’t enjoy it.
JennyHenry yes. and its really frustrating bc its hard for me to comprehend why anyone would ever get rid of their clear brains when i want nothing more than a clear brain.
Ive never been high lmao im 13 but my heart feels like it has glass around it and the happiness is outside of it? The happiness and the cloudiness is on the same level? (Happiness is oil and the cloudiness is water so think about the seperation)
I've never been high, but it does seem like how I'd imagine being high, and I often get called out for looking high when I'm doing worse with my potential dp/dr issues
I feel like I'm not here, I'm not reacting to anything, like my head can't feel the pillow under it and my feet can't feel the ground, I feel like I'm falling but without moving at all, I'm hyperventilating and you know how very anxious people move a lot and are like constantly panicking yeah I do that too but in my mind because I'm so zoned out I talk mentally to myself and cry, but I can't feel my tears rolling down my cheeks it's horrible.
@Madison Curry as Bipolor 1 its not unusual, and you in meds now lithium for me was like this all the time. I call it walking thru peanut butter...disconnection from the world like your watching stuff through a peep bole
No. More like the state between being high and sober but drawn out. The transfer between being sober and high is different. Depends on the drug in question though I suppose.
This is exactly what I've been going through for the past four days. Have any of you had any resolution to this feeling? How long did it last for you? It seems to come in waves for me... The last time that I smoked was like a week ago, and now, all of a sudden, I've just been feeling slightly high on and off. I absolutely can't stand it, and I'm waiting for it to pass... But I just want to know when it's going to end.
I just wanna say for the people reading these later.. that it stopped. The feelings came and went for about a week and a half. And I haven’t really felt much since. I have felt it while drinking alcohol, but in my daily life, it’s gone. Thank goodness. I was worried that it wouldn’t go away, but it did. 🙏🏻
@77_Sabal Singh Chahal Hey. Just give it some time.. I promise it will pass. Take care of yourself, and try your hardest not to worry and obsess over it. It will be gone before you know it, and the feelings you’re experiencing now will soon be a distant memory. You will be ok.
but worse like a edible high that’s very aggressive and makes you feel alone and like your gon die, i’m glad i’ve healed from mine i had it for months last year round July but sometimes i feel a bit detached but more like from emotions and that’s explainable with everything going on in the world & stress in my personal life but thank God it’s nothing compared to my June experience which I’m proud of !
yeah when it's like real bad I have that too. Like my orientation in space and time is pure shit and I have to watch my feet while walking because I feel like stuff around me is spinning
@Lauren Baldwin Yeah, it did.. For me, it lasted for about two weeks at first.. And I had little blips randomly for a while.. But those only last for a few minutes.. It goes away with time.. For me, it helped to get distracted and not focus on it all the time.. Your mind isn’t damaged, and your normal perception will return.. Just try not to obsess over it. I promise you’ll be completely fine in no time.. I know it’s scary, but it doesn’t last forever.
@Lauren Baldwin I just kind of waited for it to subside.. Although, it probably would have been good for me to talk to someone about it. I can’t really say that I was depressed either.
@Lauren Baldwin Hi, Laura! I have recovered. It took me a couple weeks to bounce back, but slowly and surely I made it to the other side. I promise you’ll be ok. Try not to obsess about it, even though I know that it’s difficult to. Try to find ways to distract yourself… don’t Google it obsessively.. and just allow yourself to take a break from worrying about it. You will be ok; this won’t last forever.
@Lauren Baldwin I remember feeling that way too.. I promise you that it’s worth trying your hardest to push through. You’ve got this, and I believe in you. This feeling won’t last forever. You will be ok. Do you have any support right now? Cling to friends, family, or your partner. They are worth it. Life is worth it.
It feels weird today I woke up with it and today feels like it will never end
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I'm literally crying right now. I had no idea that it had a name. I thought I was just stupid and lazy and occasionally losing my damn mind. I totally feel the thing about not being able to open your eyes wide enough. I never even brought that up to anyone because I didn't even know how to explain it. I can't remember anything because I'm just in this constant fog. Feels similar to being high, or like you said drunk, all the time. These feelings are so scary and so isolating (especially the depersonalization) when you don't know what's happening or why or that other people actually feel this bizarre way too and its not just you. Thank you so much for making this.
@Selina S Been with me since 16 now had 2 episodes in which it becomes incredibly though to do daily things compared with social anxiety and sadness(half year apart) and after each the feeling gets worse
I found Dodie while researching derealisation and I remember feeling soo much better after watching her videos. I just felt like I was going crazy so listening to her, being the lovely person that she is, it calmed me down so much. Also having someone to relate to is really helpful
My little sister got scared of me because I randomly started whispering and laughing ,and my family didn’t understand what i was going through.(it was the panic attack part).so yeah basically that made everything worse,I started crying after that.(i felt stupid and i felt like my family hated me)(i left out the rest of what happened,just the worst part of it in)
This is one of the best and most important collabs out there. It brings personal experience to professional experience in the best way without being too intrusive. This video definitely helped me understand depersonalization and derealization a lot better.
derealisation just hits me at random times and it lasts minimum of 5 minutes to one whole day. ive always told my parents that i feel like im in a dream and that nothing feels right, and thanks to my youtube recomendations now i know what it is. thank you dodie for making this video :)
@Gipsi nga flaka nah im like 14 lol. it was probably from too much work because i had regular school, music school so i was too tired. i also experience this when everything's too loud (like at parties)
Yes derealisation is like this for me too! It comes when the stress is too much or a combo of very bright or loud places with a lot of impressions, like when theres a lot of people! Sometimes it lasts, like u said, for 5 mins or a day or the longest I've had was for 1-2 weeks... And for me the scary part is not being sure when you might get derealisation again and how long it will last. It has stopped me from going to school and work bc I can't think clearly and it feels waay too uncomfortable being around people.
To anyone who feels like giving up: For yourself, please don’t. You are your greatest gift and I’m really sorry you’re going through a hard time right now but it’s gonna be ok. Please seek help (talk to a doctor, therapist, friend, and/or family member or call or online chat with the suicide prevention lifeline) and help yourself get better and you WILL feel better with time and perseverance. You are strong and you are not alone.
@Alberto Lombardi honestly still dealing with derealization but it’s a lot easier for me to live with now, it’s more of a passive thing. i’m still grieving but things have gotten better overall! thank you for asking :)
I've had it before, but it was always dismissed. I don't have it anymore, so if it helps anybody, my way of getting rid of it was doing something new each day. I guess because for me, my brain kind of lost itself in the same rotation day by day by day. I hope this helps, and remember, You're loved! <3
@IVAN MAGICAL I've had it for... I'm not sure. It kind of just happened one day after I played this thing which was kind of VR and it made everything seem so.. not real? But if I pinpoint it from that day then aprox. 2 years. I don't have a proper diagnosis but I know what I felt. It was only when I moved to a new school which had a rotating schedule making everything new did it eventually lift. Also, to fully explain what I was feeling is everything that Dodie said and like I would always tell myself "Yeah, in a few hours, I'll be back to sleep." And I just always knew what to expect of the same boring old day which is what ended in my brain feeling like in a looped VR game. Try doing something new each day, basically. It's different for everyone though.
what if i just constantly feel like i’m in another body, even though i recognize i’m in my body? i just feel like i’m disconnected from everything, like everything going on around me isn’t a dream, but i don’t relate to anyone. or anything. it’s just like a certain aloneness. is this still the same thing? feeling alone in my own head?
What about feeling like youre looking through a mask or tunnel vision when under so much stress? Ive gotten that way with arguements and it felt like I wasnt typing anymore but I was watching myself through a mask or with tunnel vision and my fingers were just typing really nasty and angry things.. like is that what that is in my case?
Oh how strange, sometimes I look at people and think "they are a different person, with different views, they can see me but they can't see themselves" and that happens to me.. I don't see why, all those things are common knowledge and for some reason things seem to get really hazy/weird. Another thing is when I'm in a large crowd I feel.. not myself, it's hard to explain but I just feel disconnected from reality
I saw an interesting simulation, this man had his hand in front of the camera and was doing things. He said that you are watching your body move. You aren’t moving, but your body is.
same. there was this one really weird moment when i was deciding on making a risky decision and i said to myself “whatever it’s not my body/life anyways” and i ligit caught myself saying that and i went to my bed and laid down thinking about what just happened.
I grew up with my abusive dad and watching him emotionally abuse my mom and neglect us. I also had so many small traumas. 2 weeks ago, I got to find out smth related to my dad and it kinda triggered me extremely. I sit in my class with kids around me and just stare into space. I feel so alone but I don't think its real. Because it is supposed to hurt but somehow I just block it? So I stop myself from being me
I've basically been in a derealization episode for 2 years and like Dodie even said at it's worse it's depersonalization. It feel like being high but without any of the fun. I know it's from childhood trauma and recent trauma. Weirdly enough things that have helped me to start feeling normal again is talk therapy and yoga. I know it won't help with everyone but I can say it's improved my DR/DP and instead of being constant it seems to come and go more now and I'm starting to feel more normal than not. Working through my issues, allowing myself to feel and trying to be more connected with my body and surroundings have helped substantially. It's a lot of work but I am happy to be working through it!
Dear Dodie, you two are true angels and just saved my day. I had really bad anxiety and epsiodes of DR and DP within the last weeks. I suffer from this for about a year now. Even though it is better now than when it first started, my life has changed for the worse ever since I collapsed on the grass in a park last summer (first severe panic attack out of nowhere). Normally I'm not that sentimental but this video made me cry because I feel so understood from both of you! I try to explain it to my friends and they are wonderful and listen but they don't understand what it means to not live in reality and to not feel your own body from time to time. It is a struggle and it is very real.. Dodie I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing awareness to this mostly unknown condition. It means so much to all of us that suffer!
Thank you and keep going strong. We know how hard it is. You can do it. We can do it! ❤
As someone who also suffers from depersonalization/derealization episodes, I really appreciate you making this video. I couldn’t tell you how great it felt when I found out that I wasn’t alone in how I felt and this video can help others find that connection too ❤️
i suffer from depersonalization derealization, it’s basically where you don’t feel real, or you feel like you’re dreaming all the time. it mostly stems from having panic and anxiety attacks. I recently came out to my mom about how I suffer from it and she didn’t exactly take my seriously.. it gets so bad at times to where I get crescent moons in my palms of my hands. (a lot of depersonalization suffers think that pinching or cutting will help them feel real. I do not cut or anything just get crescent moons every once in awhile when my anxiety kicks in or if I’m really feeling even less real that day.) now I am self diagnosed but when I first started getting the symptoms (feeling like you’re dreaming all time) I started to worry.. when you first get the symptoms you won’t notice it right at first. It WILL take you a day or maybe a few hours maybe even years. anyway, when I first got the symptoms I searched up “why do I always feel like I’m dreaming” the first article that popped up was from a therapist who herself helps people who also suffer from dpr (dpr is depersonalization) and I could relate with all of them. you will feel detached from your body, like you’re floating. I look at my hand and it doesn’t even look like it’s mine. I get my moments where I feel somewhat real and it feels so amazing and I wish that I could savor every moment of it, but it’s gone within a matter of seconds. dpr is a result of over thinking or obsessive thinking. if you do suffer from dpr like I do, just remember.. you will get through this, you’re not mentally ill.. you are in a constant stage of discomfort.. not danger.
dpr is triggered when your body goes into fight or flight mode. EVERYONE has gone through dpr once in their lifetime, meaning it could have been only for a few seconds or like me.. a few days, months, years. when your body goes into fight or flight mode it triggers something in your brain to numb your emotions so you can think effectively to get your way out of the situation. (Many people who smoke weed suffer from dpr)
Dpr is the hardest feeling to describe you have to have gone through it to know how it feels.. and if you’re going through it right now you know exactly what I’m talking about.
Symptoms: Not being able to remember things as easily as you could before.
Life just goes by in a blur.
You feel detached from reality.
Things aren’t as interesting as they were before.
Often mood swings.
Blanking out of conversations often.
Always staying in your head.
now please.. if you suffer from this as well you can get through this. I myself am fighting (hopefully winning) and I know you can fight too. It may be hard at times.. trust me I know.. but if you want to be better you HAVE to push through the hard times because it will be all worth it at the end.
Thank you... just, fucking thank you. I've felt insane, my god I've felt insane. I've felt so alone. It's so so fucking terrifying to me. Something I've never heard someone talk about is that they like... Idk it feels like I almost forget I'm awake during really bad episodes. Like, I start to calm down and my brain starts to forget the situation and then it clicks back on and I go into full on panic and it happens every 10-20 seconds. Its extremely hard to explain and maybe you've experienced that, maybe not? I don't know I still feel crazy and it feels so fucking lonely and you just... you can't describe it. I'm bawling because I feel like I'm the only one who feels this and I still fear and am paranoid I have something else and that I AM just crazy. I can't function when it gets really bad. I can't stand for too long or i'll fall... I don't know. Everything feels weird and it makes me wanna scream. It feels like I'm on some insane drug ( I'm not ). Anyways, this comment helped me so much because someone has felt what I've felt for the most part. I still feel like I'm losing my mind and I hope we BOTH can get through this.
Please stay strong ! I just came out of this and finally feel that I can connect. There is hope. You feel that nobody understands you but one day you will wake up and slowly come back to reality. I thought I was never going to come back to earth and keep feeling empty but it eventually goes away.
Charlie All depends on the person and how well they can manage it. Don’t google other people’s experience, it made mine way worse. Cause you’ll see some who beat it in a week...some who have had it their entire life. It’s all up to you. You got it.
This is the clarity I NEEDED!!! I’ve been going through this on and off for a few months and I’m glad I now know the difference. I literally feel like I’m floating through life right now. Everything is cloudy looking around me, sometimes looking in the mirror Idk who I’m looking at, and when I walk it’s like I’m waking on air. It really scares me because sometimes I think I have passed away and just living through my spirit smhh: someone please tell me I’m not the only one.
it’s scary to think that I experienced a brief moment of depersonalisation when i was probably 7 or 8. I remember looking at my hands and just thinking they, weren’t there, and that they weren’t attached to my body. now blown me 5 ish years later I’m experiencing it all the time! derealisation is something I experienced 24/7, now I experience it less but it’s still there; I just had an episode, probably the worst I’ve had of depersonalisations and it’s the scariest thing I have ever experienced and I absolutely hate it; felt like I was controlling my body from outside of me? Hard to explain, I didn’t feel like anyone, not like me; if I even know what ‘me’ is, looking in the mirror or looking at pictures of ‘me’ I don’t feel like that person, I don’t really feel like anyone. But hey ho gotta keep going I guess
I recently went through TMS for depression. I had never heard of it before. I’m so glad to hear that it isn’t just something I’ve been through. It does help. I hope it helps others as well.
Thank you so much for this video. I always struggled with understanding what's the "big trauma" in my life that caused my derealisation/depersonalisation but this made me realise like it could be small things, and I'm not just being dramatic. thank you. you don't understand how much this video helped me just understand. thank u ! :) u two are my two favourite youtubers :)
Yeah me too! I've realized that I always get derealisation whenever I leave my house, and this video enlightened me that This was probably because when I was little I depended on being with my parents and being all safe at my house, and whenever my mom wasn't around and I wasn't home I would flip out and cry, especially at pre-school. I have had a pretty calm life, and I'm not depressed or even have anxiety (I don't think haha) until this past year. When I realized derealisation was a thing I started to remember me thinking "I'm at home sleeping right now", and "When am I gonna wake up?" when I was like 4 or 5. (I'm almost 16). This video helped open my eyes even more, and realize a reason for how I feel.
I mean I guess you just have to wait it out. It took me a while to kinda get it to click. For a while I thought that I was just overthinking because I have a very active brain, but you like REALLY have to think back. Like Kati said, It could be very small things, and if they're small, maybe you forgot them. But I'm not a therapist or anything, so I might be wrong.
Thank you for sharing this. I have a lot of friends who suffer from things all along the mental illness spectrum, and it really helps to know what could be going on and how i can help. I'm definitely sharing this <3
i'm so glad you talk about this!! i've been struggling with derealization for like 2 years, triggered by weed. at first i thought it was because of something in weed that caused it, but it's the same (permanent) derealization as everyone else. now i know that i need to talk about surpressed things that happened in the past... it's kinda hard to remember or to talk about these, but maybe i'll just talk to my best friend about this - thanks for talking about this and spreading awareness, this is really important. i'll go check out kati's channel now :)
Just realized that I deal with derealization depersonalization a few months back and have been having a hard time explaining to my boyfriend in my own words what it is and how it feels. This video helped a lot. xoxo
Thank you. That’s all I can say. Covering the freeze-derealization as well as schema. Thank you from another "all day derealization-er". (Who actually appreciates the derealization too)
This is a great video! I realize now that even when I was really young, around 5 or 6 I felt both depersonzalization and derealization. I would be sitting in the car with mom while she drives somewhere and just space out and when I realize I spaced out, I would look at myself in the car mirror on the passenger side and just not feel like myself. I always tried to describe it to my pediatrician at the time, but I forget how I tried to describe it.
Before I knew the word, I always said it felt as if "I'm a video game character and I'm not the one controlling my body." I would look at my hands and feel like I was in a first person shooter game and then look at myself in the mirror again and feel like my face wasn't mine and that I'm not me. It always scared me and still does because I feel like the space around me isn't real and I'm in some freaky simulation or something. I want to do something about it, so I'm going to bring up therapy again to my mom. Wish me luck ;^;
I've experienced that a couple of years ago, and it was just terrifying. I had no idea of what was going on and I thought I was about to lose my mind. Now I see I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing that.
Thank you for this video, Doddie! I'm glad i'm not alone although i wouldn't wish this on anyone. Sometimes people explain dissociation/dr/dp as something that happens for a period of time and you snap out of it then you feel real again whereas it's not like that for me. It literally never ends though it gets worse at times
i've been feeling exactly like this the last couple of weeks, i didn't know what it was or why it was happening and i'm not going to self diagnose myself, but thank you for making this video💛
Such a good video. As part of my anxiety disorder, I’ve experienced both of these things and it’s awful. It’s nice to see people talking so frankly about it. I did a video recently talking about my anxiety experience and it was hard to talk about, so I commend you for doing this.
This is very helpful!! I have a dissociative disorder (including derealization/depersonalization) and it's very nice that you opened up about it!! DR/DP is very scary to experience sometimes and it's great that you're spreading knowledge.
Thank you for making this video (and just talking about you're experiences in general dodie), I suffer from all kinds of forms of disassociation and the scariest thing about it at first was that I had no idea what was going on and neither did anyone else so it just makes my heart smile that someone might see this video and be like "oh that's how I've been feeling", well done you guys great video, you're both amazing
I've been experiencing derealization/depersonalizations for as long as I remember. I often compare it to feeling asleep or going into autopilot. My brain has freaked out so much that it can't think anymore, and my body moves on it's own . I've had a few experiences where I'm sitting next to people- and they all seem so whole, they seem like a whole distinctive person that plays a specific role in my own life. Then I look at myself and don't see a whole person, or a real person, like I don't amount to the level of human they are (if that makes sense) I know I'm rambling, but I also experience times when I don't realize that I'm HERE, or present- I feel like if I said something to someone they wouldn't respond, or if I pushed someone nothing would happen. I just don't feel awake in a way- yesterday i wrote in my journal that I miss times that i was present, even if I was too present. I had a fairly rough childhood, I wasn't happy of course, but I felt THERE. It had a routine, with familiar faces and experiences every day. Now though, I'm to spaced out, everything seems unfamiliar and weird. This video helps loads ❤❤❤
this was so incredibly helpful,, thank you. i experience all of these mostly the derealization, the other two come out when i get really panicky. reading the comments has been so gorgeous because i feel not alonnnnne and now have good ways of describing it to people,, thank you dodie and katie :)
Honestly think this is one of my favourite videos you've ever done. It was so informative and it helped me understand derealisation/depersonalisation (which I too "suffer" from) far better than how doctors have explained it to me.
this video has really helped me. I have derealisation with bipolar, and recovering from anxiety disorder. I think it's great to get our voices heard with this!
I've been suffering from dissociation for about three years now. I have watched every single one of Kati's videos on that topic (and many others ofc) and was so relieved when I found out what it is and that other people experience this too. When Dodie started to talk about herself feeling "spaced out" and how she finally got the same diagnosis as me, I was so unbelievably sad because seeing the same distress I am feeling in somebody else somehow made me realize that it really is like... BAD and I am not just over-sensitive and over-reacting.
Kati and Dodie are my favorite YouTubers and having them talk about my mental illness is a bit unreal (lol) but I just want them to know that they have helped me so much to accept and work on my mental health. I hope talking to Kati helped Dodie as much as me because she's so good at explaining ♡
Yeah, that's why it's so important that we as a society can get better at talking about mental health, all ALL types of mental illness. There's nothing scarier that thinking you're alone with what you're feeling and experiencing. Hope you can find a treatment to help you!
@Alberto Lombardi I don't want to be discouraging but I have to admit I haven't recovered yet. But I definitely have learned to live with the condition and I have somewhat accepted my fate.
Crazy to realise I commented this 4 years ago, it feels like only 4 months...
@Alberto Lombardi It is still chronic for me. Let's say I'm doing okay now, but just over one year ago I had to be in therapy and I was miserable. Because life genuinely doesn't feel worth living if you do not feel anything. You look around and everyone is experiencing stuff while you are watching from behind a glass wall. I'm just at a point right now where I have stopped fighting to be normal and just life the only way I know how to.
Hey Dodie! I have anxiety and panic issues and I related to this a lot. I really enjoyed this video as it was talking openly about mental health which is usually avoided. I just wanted to tell you I love you and this video. (your music is always on report) Thank you so much x -Anouk Also were did you get your glasses they're so beautiful!!
Thank you so much. I have been suffering from anxiety for a few years but feelings like this have just started. I feel so much better knowing that there is a name and I am not going crazy. Please make another video about this!
I've been sitting in class for years and being spaced out and being so down I struggle to concentrate and this video has made things a lot clearer about what I may or may not have. Thank you ever so much
This entire video is SO informative and good! The thing I personally really latched onto was when you were talking about where derealization/depression/anxiety are in the brain. Because I get headaches in one specific spot when I've had an especially anxious week and it's the spot you mentioned anxiety lives; I've always wondered if they were connected!
I wasn't going to comment because I don't experience depersonalisation or anything like that (I closed the tab and everything) but then I realised how glad I am that you uploaded this video. As someone with no experience of this, it was really interesting and insightful, especially when some of the literature I've seen on it can be confusing, and now if I ever meet someone in this situation, I'll have at least a basic understanding of what they're going through, and that's awesome. <3
Marie yes! very important, one of the most important things to understand when it comes to supporting friends or loved ones because it can be a VERY uncomfortable time. i know i would’ve had a MUCH larger number of panic attacks this last year during dissociations if i hadn’t explained them to my S/O when we first started dating... he does what he can to comfort me physically and bring me back to reality but sometimes it’s hard because i’m too weirded out / scared / far away to talk to or be touched by anyone, but the biggest help is having someone there who knows what’s happening and IS there for the support WHEN the person experiencing dissociation needs it. Mad respect to you for caring about a hypothetical situation like that, people like you are why i still have faith in humanity
Thank you for this video! I’ve experienced derealization and depersonalization for over a decade now. I have some brief moments of reality. I’ve heard it described as loving behind a water fall and I feel this is the best comparison. When I first began to experience this I was terrified and panic and depression came with it. I’m so grateful that therapy and videos like this offer comfort and I don’t feel alone.
Thank you so much for talking about this so openly. It has made me realise a lot about myself and my own mental health issues. I didn't realise that a lot of stuff that goes on in my head is actually derealisation and a lot of my stuff is anxiety related but you being so open has really helped me, so thank you. Sending lots of love. Xxxx
Thank you for this video. We need to talk about these things more. I have depression and now I think I have ptsd/trauma from a period in my life that was insanely stressful and awful and it's caused me to have anxiety. I've also started to zone out a lot and a lot of time will go by before I realise what's happened.
THANK YOU for bringing this up. After having experienced this (in various degrees) for 8 years, sometimes thinking I was going crazy, I found out what it was about a year ago. Hopefully, now that you made a video about it other people who experience this won't have to wait as long as I did to find out.
i really needed to hear the part about trauma. i experience a lot of symptoms of mental illnesses that come from trauma but i always think i've never really been through anything but maybe there's a lot that i didn't realise. thanks for this video, it helped me quite a bit :)
I never had a word or explanation for the spaced out feeling I get occasionally I had a feeling it was something like what you experience I want to do more research in dissociation so I can know more thank you for sharing this video!❤️
I almost started crying while watching this video because I felt so relieved to have someone clearly explain what I have been feeling for over a year now. I never fully understand why I felt so drawn to Dodie but I think it's because I related to her so much and this further proves that. Thank you for putting yourself out there and talking about something that society has deemed inappropriate to mention in public.
Thank you for sharing this aspect of your life with us Dodie. It takes a special kind of strength and you are helping thousands that won't have the resources to work out all these details for themselves.
I haven't watched yet but thank you for making this!! Videos about mental health issues can really help people with mental illness who want to relate or maybe think they might have a mental illness. It can also help for somebody who has a friend/relative with a mental illness who just wants to understand. Education about mental illness is important.
I've been struggling a lot with disassociation without really realizing it and this video really taught me a lot about what I might be struggling with, so thank you so that. I want to do more research so I can figure out what my next step is, but thank you for giving me this start.
Thank you so much for this video, it was incredibly informative. I cycle in between depersonalization and derealization, but the connection to trauma is something I was never told and it makes things a lot clearer. For example, I'm feeling better than i have in a year right now and I think it's because I just spent a month at home before going back to uni and, while I was home, I found myself reliving an array of traumatic experiences because of physical associations, some times to the point of having incredibly invasive thoughts. But I think that because I took that time and got used to being in that environment /with/ those memories, I now feel more connected to myself and my environment. Just little things, like noticing when there's a breeze, or paying attention to my body-- like realizing I have a head ache and then doing something about it instead of just wallowing without knowing why.
I saw you both at the mental health panel at VidCon last weekend, and I thought it was so somgood. I suffer from anxiety (which can cause depression for me), and have for most of my life, and being able to hear professionals and others who experience similar feelings was really inspiring and informative. So thank you so much ❤️ It was also really lovely to be able to see you in person, Dodie 😊 I hope I can meet you one day xx
You put into words everything I feel and i found out i had depersonalization/derealization a few years ago and when i tried to tell it to my brother he laughed at me because he didn't understand. I tried to tell multiple people yet no one i know experienced it. It's been happening pretty much my whole life because I remember when i was in elementary school I would not even recognize my teacher's face, and my surroundings always felt different even though that's how i spent almost 4 years of my life. It's been worse for the past few months and i don't know how to feel real anymore. Bpd causes dissociation so that's why i thought i had (bc i was diagnosed with bpd) what i had but honestly it never seems to end and i don't have mood swings anymore i just constantly feel detached from reality i feel like i don't exist and idk how to stop this
omg when you were talking about which side of the brain depression and anxiety are on, I realised that when I get chronic headaches/migraines on that side they must be anxiety induced (going to research more now lol). my anxiety is very physical - like I get proper sick. also, I feel like I have suffered a minor form of depersonalisation for years now. it's so interesting learning all of this, because I nod my head and now I'm like "well, shit. that would explain everything lol". like what I said to you on twitter dodie, when I met you on Saturday I was spaced out too. happens all the time. but like you, there are little ways that I come back, an I don't get any disassociation terribly. I love that you talk about it. it is so insightful and it's helping to raise global awareness of these illnesses. xx
Wow, this was pretty eye opening. I always thought the therapist I had went to when I was younger was doing a weird type of CBT which had stopped me from seeking help again in the future cause I hated it so much, but I think it was EMDR instead. Something in your video just clicked and made me look it up and holy shit this changes things. I have been avoiding going to therapy again cause my previous one made me feel like I had to say something after each section and that I was somehow failing it. I might go back now...
dodie, I love these types of videos for (a) you openly telling us viewers about your condition, how it effects your life, and just not saying your always fine. (b) I find things dealing mental illness/disorders fascinating, I love learning what they are, the differences between them. And (c), how you're making these videos to help those people who also deal with derealization/depersonalization or any other mental illness.
@doddlevloggle I wish I would have known years ago that there was a word for not recognizing yourself. I've had this. And I had a few terrible experiences with it. This makes so much sense to me. Thank you for making this a known thing!
dodie thank you so much for making this video - i've been suffering from dissociation during my panic attacks for the past 7-8 years and i've never understood what exactly is happening during my panic attacks. I start to feel as if the world is not real and i feel my mind push into universes and universe away from my body and the only way for me to snap back to reality is by screaming from the sheer fear of the experience. It gets really bad during times of high stress and i've had years of therapy to help talk about my feelings to help destress, but i still get them. I just never knew how to diagnose it and didn't realise that someone, especially someone who i look up as a musician, experiences the same/similar mental illness. so THANK YOU SO MUCH for making this video, you have finally given me closure. ily
Thank you for making this video,i've had this feeling for so long i can't even remember.Everyone wrote it off as an odd little quirk,even my psycologist and i never found proper treatment for it,it would keep me awake at night and often leave me crying for hours before going to sleep,i find that for me it mostly happens when im in isolation with my own thoughts.
I've been rewatching this video and Kati's for the past five days and it is really helping me. For a year leading up to me discovering Dodie I was diagnosed with DP/ Derealisation, Chronic Anxiety, and PTSD. I never felt really understood or connected to someone with my mental state before I found her. Now we're two years into being a regular doddle and I couldn't be happier. I have amazing friends and family that are considerate and tender with my mentality and I am constantly working towards bettering myself and becoming more educated on the subject!
Thank you!! I understand what I've been through the past five years! This have saved my life I guess because I've never understood what it was. I've been through a lot but my mental health is so much better. I needed this knowledge. Love.<33
This video makes me tear up because I remember the first time I was diagnosed with this and started therapy for it. It was the first time I felt understood. Unfortunately my therapist moved and i haven't been able to find another one as good as her since. For anyone going through it, it is utterly terrifying. I have had seizures because of it as well as full out panic attacks. I wish there were more support groups for things like this so we don't feel as though we are so alone.
I really hope you're feeling okay, You deserve absolute endless joy and happiness and you have helped so many people through so much. Please never forget how much you mean to all of us. One day it'll all be okay.
My friend was talking about how she sometimes feels like she's dreaming. She says it usually happens when nothing's happening and then something suddenly does. It never affects her in a negative way, but I'm not sure if it's related to depersonalisation.
I’ve been putting off watching this video for months and I wasn’t sure why until right now that I’ve finished it. Literally I was scared to think I had another problem or issue and I realise through dodie and kati talking about it that I do experience dissociation and that’s real and someone will understand so thank you and I guess I’m gonna see if I can book another appointment to talk about it❤️
Thank you for this, Dodie. You have helped me realize I suffer from derealisation/depersonalization AND dissociation (that I already knew I have), and just THANK YOU SO MUCH. I feel the same on this sooooo much.
I used to think I might have DPDR but then realized I just dissociate when I'm under a lot of stress or have a panic attack sooo... Thank you so much for talking about this! Way more people need to know about it.
Derealization is something that I used to feel constantly until some time after high school. Sometimes it comes back and I hate it and don't miss it. Seeing people in the comments compare it being high is interesting and a relief to me because that's one reason I hate getting high. Dodie is lovely and I'm sorry that she has to deal with this condition. I hope she'll have a treatment help her someday if she hasn't already. It's so nice to be able to have a clear mind. 💜💜💜
I am so thankful for this video! It really helps me feeling like I am not alone, and it is perfectly ok to have derealisation and depersonalisation. Thank you soo much!!
This past year I’ve been diagnosed with ptsd, depression and dissociation. The dissociation always hits me when I speak of my traumas. It really freaks me out, but I’m getting help. If there’s anyone else out there who struggles with similar issues - you’re not alone. You’re strong. You can do this. I believe in you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
WOW this was so educational! Thank you for making a video about this. People should be more aware of these mental illnesses and know how to handle it when they encounter someone with it.
i don't have any of depersonalization or anything at all but i hate when people touch me to calm me. it makes me feel claustrophobic and just annoyed. however, i love touching something. for example, i used to have this shell necklace and whenever i was stressed in anyway i would just put my thumb in it and rub it and it calmed me down a lot.
i used to get that exact thing as a child, and my small cousin has it a lot. His parents realised this and explained this to their doctor. Im not saying this is a bad thing but the doctor said, some cases of minor Autism include these symptoms. (see he hated being with a lot of people at one time, he didnt like people touching him, he fiddled A LOT , and he had OCD (especially with his beloved stationary ) ) and he was hence, diagnosed with autism. IM NOT SAYING YOU HAVE AUTISM. Maybe it could be just a pet-peeve, and sometimes we grow out of those things. Maybe if you suffer from any type of social anxiety, that may affect how you react to that type of empathetic physical contact. Maybe its just belittling to you? Its great that you had something to calm you down that doesn't affect your health though :) i have a necklace as well that i still use to this day :) (rather i use it to relieve my stress when im nervous about an upcoming exam etc.)
halfstar hmm that's very interesting and cool. I also think my thing is more in the lines of social anxiety like u were saying. i hate public speaking of any type and even being in the hallway with everyone pushing and shoving and me trying to get my books and someone trying to talk to me stresses me out. Yes the shell has helped me so much and like u were saying again it doesn't harm me unlike what other people will do.
Same it makes me really uncomfortable but I've never been to therapy before I've never been diagnosed with anything although i feel everything dodie talks about in this video (i will go to therapy when im older probs)
i get that too! or i hate it when people touch me and i always like tense up or flinch away and if it gets to much i get a panic attack (doesn't usually happen often since i usually get too panicky or annoyed that i tell them to stop or just run like 5 feet away) i tried explaining this to people but everyone says that over time i'll be okay or just doesn't take it seriously
julia thornton yeah kinda same but it’s more like I can’t touch anything. Like I need away from everything and something touching me or me touching things makes me feel trapped and can usually cause me to panic more:/
Thanks for this Dodie! Makes me feel less alone to hear from someone who actually knows about what I'm also experiencing. You're a glittering dewdrop on a spring flower-petal 😚🌸 Hope you're coping ok this week. You're really generous to share so much of your life and energy with the public when you have so much to contend with. Keep on blooming, flower; remember to save some of that warmth and light for yourself though, that's really important; unfurl those beautiful petals and flourish for yourself, by yourself, first. Sending big fluffy supportive hugs. Ed xx
Thank you for this. I've had depersonalisation for 2 years now and the need to talk to someone who understands weighs me down so much- this lightens that load and makes me feel less alone. I can't say thank you enough!
Thank you for sharing with us, Dodie, and for being honest and transparent even though it can be scary to share. You talking about your mental health is helping to end the stigma so thank you! xx
I experience very heavy derealization. I watched you a lot a few years back and didn’t really understand what you were taking about when you explained depersonalization/derealization, but now I experience derealization almost constantly. Thank you for talking about this.
I'm starting my first day of therapy tommorow. Someone times in my day I feel like my personality or like my person is disconnected from my body and I feel like I'm watching myself and not actually living. So I'm excited for my therapy here's hoping it works
Thank you for this video. I had never known this was a thing but watching the video I learned about it. Then I experienced a little bit of derealisation for a couple of weeks and I wasn't scared because I knew that someone else had felt it too and there was a name for it. So thank you!!!
I didn't watch this until now because of VidCon and jet lag, but I'm so thankful that this was made. As someone who struggles with all three of those at times, it can feel even more alienating that I don't know anyone else in my personal life who knows what I'm going through. I'm thankful for you talking about hard mental health things, you are incredible.
Omg thank you Dodie. I am new subscriber and have been binge watching your videos. I’m not self diagnosing but now I finally know what that weird feeling of not feeling like myself and feeling like I’m not in my own body or someone else being in my body (depersonalization) I used to have it frequently when I was younger but I thought it was just a part of growing up as well as now I have episodes sometimes and my mother just tells me it’s puberty seeing that I’m 13. 🤷🏽♀️
I just want one day of feeling normal, no dizzyness, not feeling stoned, not having anxiety in my chest and the feeling that my stomach is pulling itself together. I never appreciated soberness when I had it.
This video couldn't have come at a better time. For the past few days, I've been going through I guess disassociation/derealization where everything feels like dream or like I'm not really here. Almost as if everything is on a different frequency than me. I used get episodes like this when I was I think thirteen or fourteen during a rough year of my life. It used to come in bouts throughout high school, but by the time I left, I never really experienced it much. Now I'm going through a lot of stress and anxiety and this episodes are coming back again. This video was really helpful and I suddenly feel like people understand me. I remember in school when I used to explain this to friends and they wouldn't understand.
Dodie inspired me to cut off all my hair and donate it, I’ve been I love with her short hair for ages, however because I have very thin hair, I cut my hair a lot shorter [literally half way up my neck] and I love it so much. I’ve never felt so confident c: I have successfully donated 8 inches of hair to Little Princess Trust. Thank you Dodie <3
After the first minute I was absolutely sure that this is what I'm dealing with right now. Everything feels like a dream, as if I'm not "here". I was getting really scared because I thought I was going completely crazy. But I feel hopeful now, thank you!
It is so crazy to realize that the person that inspires you the most and helps you through your hard times, also is struggling too. Thank you so much for always being the channel I turn to for motivation and inspiration, Dodie.
I was recently told but my psych all my symptoms sound like depersonalization and derealization. I have been to nervous to look more into it and I found your video by looking it up, thank you! It's starting to get even worse for me, when it fist started it was pretty bad I would be thinking I was in a whole another state and then when I came to I didn't know who my coworkers were. I had my first day of internship today and it progressed. I thought there were people in the room when there wasn't and other things happened it's just a lot. My psych didn't give solutions and now I'm in back in school several states away from my psych so I'm going to have to wait for any additional meds or anything. I'm on Zoloft and a high dose for my depression but it doesn't even touch the depersonalization or derealization symptoms it doesn't seem.
this was so interesting,, i've learnt so much and have related to some of the symptoms. i am depressed, i have mild anxiety. i'm not sure whether i should be worried or not?? but hey. thank you for the information, both of you :)
JungkookIsMyBiasYall don't worry :) if you Feel like you have some of this symptoms just talk about it. Maybe with a therapist or just someone you trust. And it can be treated just like any other mental illness
I spend my entire day in a state of derealization. I get so lost in daydreams that I'll suddenly 'wake up' while I'm walking through the grocery store and be startled by where I am. I also escape through video games too much to the point where my body doesn't feel like mine when I stop playing. Trying to work on fixing this now.
thank you for the video, dods♡ I've been having trouble identifying myself and have been getting my dreams and reality mixed up, like i remember seeing something somewhere but idk if it was a dream or reality. I think I might have a lil bit derealisation but maybe not because my understanding of english isn't that great lol. But at least now I know more about my brain and the things that happen to me so I won't get too panicked the next time I space out(usually when I space out it gets really weird and everything's blur but very clear at the same time, and everything moves so quickly but in a not very smooth way(?) and I get scared like "What the heck happened to this world whAt") so yeah thanks for the vid dods♡♡ sorry for ranting and talking about myself too much here haha but I felt like I needed to♡
Omg, my boyfriend has DPDR and this video was so helpful! No wonder he loves my cold hands and surprise-cuddles. And the bracelets! It all makes so much sense. But all jokes aside, as a person trying to support someone with these conditions this video was incredibly informative. Thank you for talking about this!
When I was in school I used to dissociate all the time, but I didn't know what it was until I was in counseling working through my PTSD. I don't dissociate much anymore, but I do deal with depersonalization and panic attacks still.
Not related to the title of the video, but I just wanted to thank Dodie for her music. Lately, life has been so stressful and I pretty much cried all week. But your music, Dodie, helped me cheer up. I haven't felt this too often with other artists. Thanks for both your EP's because nothing has made me happier than these 2 masterpieces. Thank you, Dodie. ❤🌟
I was listening intently - and of course smiling or laughing at the fun / funny parts. But from 07.30 onward - it just hit me so hard that I was crying while watching until the end. (I just finished watching it and would rewatch it and reprocess the thoughts) Thank you so much for sharing this, I know that I have always experienced life differently because of a collection of a lot of little Ts and a couple of big T's. It's just so real - what Kati said - it's how it felt like - like a couple of memory orbs got smashed. And later on when I finally found someone I could trust and love - the traumatic memory was triggered. And a lot of reactions and actions took place after. And until now, to be honest, I deal with all the ts in my past but I tell /remind myself that I can overcome everything that's happened and I can forgive. I hope we can all feel love and hope at the end of each day - no matter how we decide to heal. And yes, talking to a circle helped me lessen the burden or pain that I've felt when I suddenly remembered. Thank you Dodie, Im glad I came across one of your songs last year and lingered and watched most of your videos.
I HAVE THIS. I've had it so often for as long as i can remember I always thought it was normal and kind of weird but normal. Thank you so much for talking about it Dodie or else I never would've known it isn't normal
I most definitely have derealisation and occasionally it elevates to depersonalisation and I believe that it’s been happening to me all of my life as there’s a couple moments I can specifically remember aged 6 for example, where my vision would become extremely blurred and I couldn’t focus on what the teacher was saying and I didn’t feel alive. However I can’t think why as I don’t think I’ve been through any trauma? It happens to me every time I’m at a shopping centre, almost every day at school and to be honest in random places and at random times...
alright i'm just gonna write a few thoughts down. i don't think i have depersonalization/derealisation, it's a little bit different actually. i just feel kinda.. empty? like every day just feels like a routine without any meaning and even when i cry tears of joy or sadness (which happens veery rarely btw) i know i'm crying and i'm supposed to be happy/sad/angry but i just can't experience the emotion that comes with it. what bothers me most about it is that i can't bring myself to care about anything. things that used to bring me joy or sadness are just nothing now. i just feel like laying around all day. i'm just like 'whatever' about literally EVERYTHING and i don't know what to do. when something bad happens or even when something that's supposed to make me really happy happens i just don't care. and i want to so badly. i told my aunt and mom about this and they told me - of course - that it's because of puberty and i shouldn't worry too much about it. i don't feel alive and i don't know what this is. does this even make sense? probably not. please tell me that i'm not the only one. does anyone know what this is? does someone have the same problem? END MY SUFFERING PLEASE
YEAH, I HAVE THAT PROBLEM A LOT! it sounds like depression imo, but i honestly don't know enough about it to say for certain. but you're toootally not alone. it sucks so much ass
pastelblack having gone through disassociation and depression to me that sounds a lot like depression. At least my experiences with depression related to that a lot. You're not alone and I'm sure everything will turn out alright in the end (me and many others are living proof of that!) ❤️
i know how you feel :'( i'm not an expert on this, but it sounds like depression to me. reach out to a doctor/therapist if you can, they'll probably be able to give you the proper diagnosis and give you the help you need
At around 2:45 in the video she says that being "blunted" means you can't feel your emotions and that it can happen as a form of mental illness, maybe that's what your experiencing? My experiences with depression have felt a lot like the emptiness you described, so maybe it's a form of depression? I hope this helps you somehow! I'm sorry your family haven't taken you seriously when you've told them, but I would definitely suggest trying to talk to them again about it. Maybe do some research about how you're feeling and show it to them? You have a wonderful online community of people here including myself who will be here to talk to you about it and give you support, so reach out to us too! <3
pastelblack I'm going through the same thing, it's such a real thing. It's so strange to be empty and like "wow it's my birthday and I'm wearing my favorite outfit and I'm doing something really fun surrounded by people I love" and then you're like... but why? And you're not happy but you're not sad or anything you're just there. You're just a piece in a board game going through life, you don't exactly have a will of your own but you keep going for some reason and things happen but you can't experience any of it really.
Hawk yessssssss it's like I can only see life as some sort of virtual game. Some win some lose. It's like we're coded to perform generic tasks each day and that's it. 0 emotion in anything
Dude you're not the only one iv'e been feeling empty like that for almost 2 years it just feels like everyday i'm going through the motions but not really caring about anything I have no clue what it is or what to do about it :(
I'm only a first year psychology student but to me it definitely sounds like a major depressive disorder. I would recommend you try therapy as soon as you can. Even if it's a student councillor it's a good start. Stuff like this can always be fixed, it might take a while but there's always a solution if you keep trying.
My friend has a similar feeling, or rather lack of, as you and they have depression. It must be awful to hear your worries and pain being dismissed because of puberty or because you're a teenager. It's hard being those ages, no one really takes you seriously and blames things on puberty and claiming it to be a part of growing up. Never forget you're not alone and there are thousands of people willing to help and want you to feel something again. You're reaching out for help which is already a good step! Maybe ask your mum or auntie if you can go to the doctor and see if they can help you. Like Dodie said, record yourself when you're feeling the way you do, there are numbers you can ring for support and maybe there's someone at school who feels a similar way. Sorry for not being much help and recommending the clichés. I wish you all the best 💞
pastelblack definitely sounds like depression. People think depression is about feeling sad but actually it's mostly about not feeling anything, how you describe.
Hey! From what I can see, a lot of your symptoms sound like depression. When I was 18 I didn't know what was wrong with me and essentially, it was exactly what you went through. I talked to my GP and he put me on a small dosage of sertraline, which was life changing for my mood, because without it, the chemicals in my brain just would not give me enough to feel okay, and like you, I would just feel numb, i didn't care, i'd rather be asleep because I was bored of being alive (different to suicidal I'd like to point out), but my medication really did help bring my mood up. It didn't fix me (i've been battling with my mental health for years now), but I know for a fact that that was a form of depression. I'm not diagnosing you at all, but you should definitely go see a doctor, and when you take to them, make sure you talk about energy levels, mood, fluctuation in mood, appetite, physical anxiety, and other things that a GP can recognise (remember they're not a therapist, just your first step into being treated). I hope you find support!!
As others have said your not alone. I feel like that especially a lot more recently. I have bipolar disorder and have struggled with depression but recently I've been feeling what you describe. Empty but it feels different from a depression empty because I don't feel like an ache or sadness or anything. It's just nothing and empty. The only thing I can feel is the emptiness if that makes any sense. Like I feel weight of something but there's nothing there. I also have moments where I'll be happy and then all of sudden like a vacuum sucks me out of the moment and I'll just wont be able to focus on anything and i question why I'm happy and if I'm actually happy. And then all the happiness leaves and this weird sort of anxiety replaces it. Like an invisible anxiety not one that I feel. I don't know if any of this is making sense. Or if you feel the same I just hope it helps to know you aren't the only lost one, everyone else is lost too.
pastelblack I had these emotions when I took antidepressants , I've stopped taking them but I still feel this at times , it definitely sucks , I want so badly to care about something but then I don't, the routine thing definitely gets to me , because I'm kind of bored of my own life and every day is basically the same thing and school doesn't help because most things we learn will never help us in life and hours and hours of listening to things you are not interested in gives you a bit of a numb feeling . But you seem to experience this all the time like I did when I was on meds but I only experience it sometimes now so definitely talk to a psychologist ok?
I've been through the exact same thing. I guess what helps me is that I try to take care of myself in simple ways and I time away from everyone and everything else. I'm not sure how to help but I hope you feel better.
pastelblack that's the strangest thing, because I had that for years and I never knew what it was. I'd ask others if they felt the same thinking everyone was like that and they thought I was weird. Honestly I think looking back it was a bit of depression derived from what I was going through at the time. I'm saying this because i swear to you it does get better and you get the sense of emotion back with the help of loved ones or maybe professional x
The emotional numbness/apathy that you described can be a symptom of depression. I would encourage you to talk to your doctor and ask about seeing a psychiatrist/therapist
pastelblack hiya I can't relate but just know that you will be better one day and this is not permanent. Whether you fight is or embrace it is up to you but know that you have a community here and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers xx
holy fuck i am exactly like this, it really fucking sucks. like with all these hurricanes, my family is in danger and i'm just like :/ ok cool. i know i should care and be worried for them but i don't feel anything.
not to scare you, but that sounds a lot like depression. i´ve been diagnosed with depression about a year ago and what you described is exactly how i experience it (not trying to say you have depression though, it´s different for everybody so you should definetely get professional help if you´ve been experiencing this for a while). especially the part about not caring about literally anything. for me it´s a lot about not being able to experience certain emotions, like you said, if something good is happening i know i should be happy about it but i just can´t feel it and i can´t bring myself to care even if i want to. it takes the meaning out of everything and just kinda flattens your world, if that makes sense. i could list a million other things but i want you to know that you´re not alone with this, that´s so so important. and it´s also unhealthy to brush it off and blame it on puberty, because that´s not gonna help anyone. no matter what the reason is, you should talk to somebody about it and maybe even get professional help because otherwise the baggage on your back is just gonna get heavier and heavier and one day you´re not gonna be able to carry it on your own anymore, which is fine. nobody can do that. so please don´t bottle it all up because trust me, that´s gonna make it even worse. i wish you the best of luck and hope you get the help you need. <3
sounds like an angsty teen or perhaps a symptom of depression. u should take care of yourself. However, it could also just be you a bit sad. Be careful not to get your diagnoses from the comment section, please see a doctor.
depersonalisation is not like that at all , it's much more scary lol
in my personal experience, that sounds like depression. I feel like this when i have my bad days, like everything feels whatever you don't relly care about what happens, and honestly don't even feel like crying or something, it sucks tbh because one of the symptoms of depression is irritation that you feel at everything and sometimes its like the opposite so like i feel like i dont 'fit' in the illness?? idk i went kinda off topic oops
This sounds a lot like a mixture of depression and almost like a disinterest. I actually asked a few other friends about this as well because I have recently been feeling this way as well. They recommend to me is to take a you day! So, maybe this weekend, take a bath and listen to your favorite music, just take some time to relax and leave yourself to just do you things. Do things that you love. And If you need to talk, I have Twitter or Instagram.
pastelblack yes! I went through this when I was in my freshman year of highschool when I have severe depression. I still lowkey have it, but I've worked on it... I'm not sure how to help you, but go to a counselor or doctor or someone who won't just say it's because you're growing.
Yes, yes, yes this a thousand times yes. Omg this is exactly how I feel. It's like there's a barrier between reality & your out side self and your self on the inside. I feel like a ghost in a carapace, like a passenger on a train watching my life go by, interacting with the environment but not feel anything.
pastelblack this is my life, it happens everyday for me, I can pretend to be very happy if sad or mad but I'm not really. I pretend to be very happy and positive around my friends and family, but I'm not really happy. It's horrible and I just don't want to do anything. There are like 5 min of actually feeling things but then, just like that, it's gone. It just started when I started school, 3 weeks ago, back in the routine. It's hard to be happy and that sucks from being a very happy and positive person. I just feel meh, all the time. Idk about you but watching YouTube and hanging around people I love helps me a little also singing (Dodie) quietly in class helps me too. I'm not sure about you but that's just for me.
pastelblack yeah that sounds like depression... please talk to a doctor or a councelor (also if they don't take it seriously talk to someone else or talk about it more. My mom and councelor didn't take me seriously until I talked to a doctor but that's just my case). My tip for this is try to write out what you're feeling (even if it's nothing) and try to be kind to yourself. Don't get angry at yourself for doing nothing or feeling nothing, cherish the small accomplishments like getting out of bed (or opening your eyes if you aren't able to get out of bed, we've all been there). I hope this helps a lil", hang in there champ you're gonna be OK I believe in ya! x I
ALSO: talk to your friends about this. Try to see people, don't isolate yourself because then you are alone with your numbness and that is just the worst.
pastelblack I thought it was just luverty too, until I got a therapist and she told me it was depression. Ask your parents to get you a therapist or at least a visit with the doctor. Backing up your feelings with articles might help too
pastelblack Okay this kind of sounds like something what I get, which I call it 'Ill-minded' where basically I don't feel like doing anything, such as school work, reading, drawing, or just simple things that I ENJOY doing. When I'm in this state I'm not sure what to do and it doesn't happen enough for me to explain it very well. When I'm in this state I usually wait it out, which isn't a very good thing to do. The best thing I can tell you is to maybe do things you enjoy or eat something that you enjoy- anything that you think would help pull you out of this state.
oh my god yes yes yes me too, i have no idea what it is but i just feel emotionless, its horrible and yet no matter what happens i just feel nothing, nothing at all
depression it happened to me too. For me I just thought I am really doing this right now. So I changed myself for the better. I got new friends that support me and love me. And I started becoming more me. lol I am not helping. Sorry about my username my friend pranked me and I can't change it for 90 days😂🌹🌹🌹🍒🍒🍒🍓🍓🍊🍊🍊
you have exactly the same thing as i do, and it is depression. one of the symptoms of depression is the loss of interest in things you usually have interest in.
pastelblack ME TOO. like i don't get excited anymore (but i also don't get anxious). even when i do exciting things. i literally went to japan and didnt feel excited about it at all? it was like "wow im in another country now cool." and it's like that when i do anything
I get it, I HATE it when people tell me whatever I'm feeling is just because of puberty. I feel like that sometimes too, and a lot of other people probably do to, so don't worry too much, it's ok. But it sounds like depression to me.
pastelblack I feel the same and have been feeling that way for a while. You are not alone. If you are able try going to a school consualler if you feel like you can't speak to your parents. You are amazing 💙 stay strong
It's okay. I understand you. i experience the same thing and i hate it. It feels like someone has just scooped everything out of me like my ability to feel or experience any emotion. i feel empty inside. Things that usually make me happy or angry or sad don't anymore. I have no motivation and i don't care about anything. My mum said the same thing; It's just puberty and everyone feels like this sometimes. i feel this along with feelings of depersonalisation and derealisation and anxiety.
I think this is just the symptoms that come with depression ?? Although i am not a doctor and am in no way properly educated/experienced with this. The best advice i can give you is maybe asking your mum if you can go talk to someone. Things will work out and you won't feel this way forever. :) <3
It happened recently with me. I stopped liking everything that made me happy. Sometimes I want to cry because I need to, it's healthy, but I can't. It feels like I'm dead inside. It feels empty. I hate myself for it. I just can't seem to enjoy anything.
pastelblack I definitely can relate to this. At my worst depression and anxiety episodes I feel empty, like hollow I guess. It's like i can't feel anything but I'm still sad and angry and upset and anxious but It feels that it's on the outside and empty on the inside. But I'm still depressed on the outside and the emptiness just increases my depression. No idea if that made any sense
wait i'm not the only one experiencing this???!!!i've struggled with this for a while now and it always bothered me when i just can't feel the emotion when i'm supposed to which is also kind of scary for me because i don't know why it's happening i always thought it was because of what happened in my past but i'm not 100 percent sure.........................(i how in the internet we can connect with people thats going threw the same things and help each other threw it<30
Ya I felt that way for like 6 months, its best to talk to a therapist but for me it was a mix of situational depression and general rage and anger issues. For me, i was really lucky and someone in a similar mental state and with similar pressures moved in with my family and we leaned on each other to get us out, but I guess what I found was best was mainly having someone to lean on and empathize with and having therapy to balance out and keep me and them in check so we don't start dragging each other down
+Hawk the way you explained it is so true Ive currently been having mild depression (according to the millions of doctors I've been to ) and bad anxiety so it's like that but with tons of existential crisis's and stuff like that bc I just feel like nothing is happening and I freak out bc of it. I'm so extremely afraid of death and recently there's been just nothing happy or sad to distract me and tbh I wish I cried more I feel so empty I find things funny but I just don't have pure happiness or sadness and it makes no sense bc I'm living in a perfectly fine household and I'm financially fine and all that I don't understand I just feel fear, frustration and I find crap funny and like that's it it's so weird sorry for the rant I just really needed to get that out😅
pastelblack oh my god I feel EXACTLY the same way. I know what may have caused it - my grandma died a month ago and I'm still grieving - but I just don't give a crap about anything anymore even though I want to. You're not alone, I understand you.
oh my goD I feel exactly the same way. i've been so confused about what is up with me and i tried to write down how I felt in the moment and I wrote something so similar to what you wrote. wow it feels good knowing someone else feels this too
I have the exact same problem except I can experience joy for moments but it stops after suddenly, I feel all most the exact same, my sister for example can't handle stuff that I can very well I'm more or less OK yet I still get annoyed but the only feeling I ever feel is "feeling bad"(- very rarely-) "joy" (- for little at a time -) "annoyance" a lot
Hey, it's alright that you don't know and is confused about this. This, I believe, are symptoms of depression. And I really recommend you(and anyone else who struggles with this) to go see therapy or someone with authority about this topic. That way, you can be help and get better. And I hope that you'll someday do indeed get better. Stay strong.
I feel like that's more depression but whatever it is doesn't need a label, get help anyway and either they will diagnose you or they will just treat you anyway. Good luck!
I'm not like this 24/7 but when I feel that way, it's what I refer to as depressive episodes. So, much like everyone else has said, it's very likely that you're going through depression and you should really get help of any kind. It really sucks. For me there's typically a trigger of some sort and it lasts for about a week or so.
In my day to day life, I feel like I don't really care about most things (unless it affects my social anxiety) and I honestly wouldn't really mind if a speeding car were to come out of nowhere and kill me instantly, but I still experience other emotions like anger, fear, and sadness.
that sounds a lot like a form of depression. trust me, i deal with the same thing every day. my suggestion is that you tell your aunt or mom that you think it might be depression and they should understand and get you some help
pastelblack yeah as several people have mentioned when I feel like my life isn't moving forward and it feels like I'm stuck in an endless cycle where nothing is happening to make me feel emotion, I'm usually experiencing an episode of depression. At it's worse I've laid on my bed feeling completely numb and I'll be crying but I will feel nothing. I have to listen to calming music and wait for my body to go back to normal.
pastelblack I feel the exact same way. It's like every day is exactly the same and I have no control over it. As if I'm just drifting through the hours without actually being here or feeling the things I should feel. I can't even bring myself to talk about it with anyone yet, although it's been happening for well over a year/2 years now. And it's just weird, i guess, that when other people are smiling and happy, or when they're upset, I don't feel that I can relate to them? It's like I don't even remember who or what I am, and as if I never learnt how to feel. IDK.
I don't understand why you have the need to label it. It's bothering you, and its something you feel. Maybe it feels safer when you know there is a sort of group around you of people who understand, but if you can explain what you're feeling so well, then why do you need to put a label on it. like this people will understand. I kind of understand what you're feeling, i think. it sounds similar to some feelings i've had, and the best tip I could give you is to get therapy, and a theraphist with who you feel comfortable. Atleast talk to someone, and next to that, keep trying new things if you have the motivation and energy, take a break from the routine that you're talking about. It helped me.
pastelblack I felt this way for about a year, a few years ago. I described like a hollow tree. I suggest just powering through it. Despite not being able to feel, I swear it will get better. For now, find something that has a spark to you. It could be like a food or a song, but just try. What really helped me though was imagining a world where something was maybe slightly different. Think up stories in your head, and if you don't like it, discard because only you are in control of those stories. Come up with a character that feels emotions severely and try to put yourself in that place. It could anything, maybe a dystopia, or a happy future, it could just be you, but with super powers. These stories helped me feel something, but for now, just fake till you make it.
pastelblack I feel you. I can feel really panicked and negatively at myself, but nothing positive, so I can relate to the numb feeling. Talking to someone about it can help you figure it out and see if there's a way to help it.
I'm not a doctor or ANYTHING, but this really sounds like depression, at least for me. I think I might have depression, because I can kind of relate to what you're saying. The thing is, I sometimes feel really happy and ten seconds later i remember how much I dislike my life, and stuff like that. However, sadness is something I feel a lot, and its a strong feeling. But its not like a 'I want to cry and I wanna be hugged and told everything is gonna be better', it's like this pain that 'kills' me inside, and I don't want to talk about it, I just wanna sleep so I can take my mind off it
pastelblack I experience the same thing. Don't worry, it is because of puberty. Try to get a good deal of physical exercise and stay engaged in things. It will go away eventually. It will come again, every once in a while and you will feel very empty inside. It's kind of a feeling where you wish the world would just stop for a moment and let you breathe. It's okay honey, stay strong xxx
Woah, I didn't know anyone else felt like this. I thought I was just weird. It's nice to know some other people feel the same. (Btw, my parents said the exact same thing to me. I don't know what to do either)
Hi ! Wow ! Finally, I realise I'm not the only one feeling this ! I've been feeling that way for the past 2 years (I'm 20 so I don't think it's because of puberty) and I'm still feeling that way. It comes along with a feeling that I'm not really living, just like if I was not really in control of my life. It feels like things are happening to me but I'm not really living them, just as if I was just a spectator looking at my life. (I hope it makes sense) I really don't know how to deal with it either and whenever I told and tried to explain that feeling to my psychologist, she would just look at me in a weird way. It just made me feel even worst as if I was some kind of freak. I can't help you but I really want to thank you for sharing your feeling, and I really hope you will get better soon ! <3
I have the same thing. Sometimes the hardest part of dealing with something like this is being able to tell someone and then believing you. When my mind isn't with me( which is pretty much everyday) people just yell and think I'm not caring about anything which has caused me to be alone. I don't know exactly what it is however I do know that to help it is to speak up which can sometimes be half the battle💛
i never knew i had this until now. Mine comes and goes and is triggered by stress. The worst episode ive had lasted a month and i thought i was losing my mind. It was terrifying. Thankyou so much for helping me undertsand and figure out whats going on <3
Okay this really helped me sort of understand why I feel detached from the world at times. I've been in a car crash and ever since it's scarred me & stuck with me for the past 8 years. My friends think I'm being dramatic but even I know I'm not being dramatic because I know it was sourced from somewhere. Thank you, Dodie ❤️
AbiSays Damn, after a car crash it is definitely not dramatic! If you experience dr/dp after such a traumatic experience it’s 100% reasonable why your brain would shut off and maybe it just didn’t properly switch back on. Doesn’t sound dramatic at all though. Lol imagine the situation of most of the people who got this out of the blue and have no idea why their brain is acting so strange (me). We can’t really know what made our brain want to switch to a different way of perceiving things but sadly we must accept it..
When I'm in a stressful situation that the way out of is to let time pass until the stressor goes away, if I focus in the right way I can make my vision go dark and it gets hard to move. It's a neat trick because it gives me something painless to focus on and keeps me from saying dumb shit on impulse, but I think it comes from the same source as some of my problems, and I'd be willing to sacrifice it if my other problems went away at the same time.
I've watched both of your channels for different reasons. I LOVE this collab. It kind of reminds me of a therapist/patient session and makes me more comfortable for the next time I'm going to go to my therapist. Perfect. <3
When I was 11/12 I went through the hardest time of my life and I started having panic attacks that were caused by derealisation, I’d have these moment when I was so spaced out out of nowhere that everything around me felt so unfamiliar and I did too and it rlly scared me. I learnt how to deal with it and for a while these moments pretty much disappeared but lately I’ve been feeling pretty spaced out again and the moments are back. I think it’s because of all the uncertainty. Anyways, when I was 12 I discovered you through ur videos about derealisation and it helped me a lot, at the time I also started questioning my sexuality and finding u gave me someone to look up to. I felt less misunderstood and I’m so thankful for that ! 🥺
OMG this is so informative thank you. I had no idea I thought I was just lazy thinking. I lost my sister a few months ago from ovarian cancer, lost my job and sort of lost myself. trying to refocus out of it going to interviews and think positive and good memories of my sister. thank you again.
whenever you make these videos they make me feel so relieved to know that someone as big of a youtuber as you are, that you are imperfect as well. Most you tubers portray a perfect life but that's why I watch you instead of them, thank you so much. I know there are others out there with the same struggles as me when I see these comments on the videos.
I cried watching this. I struggle with derealisation, and literally no one understands when I try to explain, I started doubting it was an actual thing. The thing with touch, like you said, is exactly the same with me, thank you so so much for this❤
I have depersonalization and derealization and I didn’t know how to properly convey it to my mom and I showed her this video and I just wanna thank Doddie for being a sweetheart and making a video that educates others easily on these types of topics
Idk if I have this, but every single day for as long as I remember I feel just faint and distant. Like I don’t realise what’s going on around me but I am aware of it, I know I’m doing things but I feel like I’m not. I get enough sleep and water and I don’t k ow what it is and I tried to explain to to my friends but it’s hard when you don’t really know what it is
WishCandle you didn’t ask me but yes i do. People seem fake or maybe sort of meaningless, which triggers major desperate episodes, because it is scary not to be able to feel connected to the people i love during my derealisation episodes. The world just looks different, like a cold place that is indifferent to your existence or maybe even hostile.
@anna same here, ive been having it for years as well. I try to be present but its very hard. As if everything is out of reach:(. Did you try anything to make yourself feel less detached?
Been feeling like I’ve been floating around in a dream for a while now @anna @noor would love some techniques to feel more grounded and in reality if you figured some out :’33
@Mercedes Menon i didn't really :< sometimes enough sleep makes it a little better. Or meeting someone new/ making new friends. Challenging yourself. But even that does not always work. Its always present in my case.
I had this last year in choir. I had to sing in front of about 15 people. When I started to sing, I realized I wasn't looking out of my own eyes. I felt like I was watching over myself. It was almost like watching a video of yourself, but live. It scared the shit out of me at the time, and I was really nervous. and btw I didn't get in~Im probably not a good singer (/ω＼)
I recently went off my fluvoxamine because last time i went to my GP I mentioned I was feeling down and he did the K-12 test and because it was 1 or 2 point higher than last time, he doubled my dose to 100mg. That day I decided to stop my medication all together. I totally relate to the depersonalization part because I can never feel comfortable with myself or feel like I am supposed to be someone else. I am still dealing with my mental health alot. I can go almost a whole week or being positive, motivated and well organised. But then every now and then theres a day or 3 where all I want to do is lay in bed and do nothing, im a grump, I can be snappy which pushes my partner away but all I really want on the inside if comforting or hugs or help but I can't allow myself to accept how im feeling and expose that part of me infront of others.
Woah this just opened my mind. Lately in multiple ways I haven't been feeling myself. And obviously self diagnosis is incredibly inaccurate at times but this seems to fit part of what I've been going through off and on for a long time.
Dodie, I know it's a couple of years late but I want to thank you for these videos. My sister linked me to the one with the dramatic title maybe a year ago, and beyond a couple of webpages I found (among hundreds) your videos about derealisation are some of the only ones I've found that made me start taking it seriously. I'd read a bit about it before but felt like it was a minor/side thing. Now it feels like if I can take care of this, it'll be much easier to take care of everything else (because at least I'll feel like I'm finally living my life alongside dealing with the rest, right?) This video was incredibly useful, too, because I've never been sure what to ask for from a healthcare professional. So yeah, thanks for the sense of direction in the fog!
hey dodie! ive been diagnosed with derealization disorder and seeing someone i look up to with the same thing as me gives me a lot of hope that some day i’ll always be grounded
i actually cried bc this vid made me realize about whats happening to me since this year. it all kinda makes sense now. thankyou for bringing this to our awareness, dodie 💗
This is the first time that I've heard this explained in a way that makes sense. I've never been able to put it into words. Thank you so much for this.
I rarely comment on videos when on YouTube as I have a lot of anxiety surrounding interaction with people at any level, online or in person but I wanted to share this poem I wrote some time ago, and this community always seems so nice. I think it describes some of the feelings I was going through at one time in my life and watching your videos has made me think I may have been experiencing some form of depersonalization....
Is this face mine? It blinks in time with I When blue it too sinks, to a sadly painted hue In its cheeks
And as I, walk and talk my way through time It too ages with the mind forming every crease and every line I question still: I may be real but is this face mine? Or is it merely borrowed to one day be returned? To trade in all that I have loved and all that I have learned For another soul to grow old, Only to ask a question asked through time Is this face truly mine?
Hey I know you commented this a long time ago but it really is beautiful for what it’s worth you’ve made an impact in my life. You are special and wonderful, and I want you to know that however little it really did your poem has altered my life. Maybe not in a significant way, but you’ve made an impact. Don’t ever stop, you never know how much of an influence you can be
Un-realization , I know it well from having PA`s , I hope you feel better soon. For me what helped my panic attacks was one day I got really mad at my PA , and I literally told myself , not today , you are not going to mess this up. Feeling that way along with meds have helped me the most. Thanks for sharing.
I was in therapy for this and honestly just talking through my traumas was the most useful part, but I was not really offered any treatments for dissociative package and I would go between DR and DP for well over a year, and I figured out on my own how to make things SIGNIFICANTLY better for me by taking that practice home and like journaling about EVERY intense feeling and I had to actually do this for the memory loss and wacky vision because those were traumatic on their own!!!!! The symptoms are traumatic so it's just a huge Paradox. You really have to address why this has been traumatic for you, what you've lost, and you have to grieve over that and find upsides. Personally not having memory means I'm forced to live in the moment. Which is actually nice. For the vision I just tried my best to remain positive and mentally I would focus on things a lot more and try to register what I was seeing and turn it into some connection. I mean over a long time that really seems to have helped. Not leaving the house is the worst thing you can do, but at first I had such intense agoraphobia. JUST KNOW IT WILL GET BETTER.
I watched many videos about depersonalization but only this one made me feel like I'm not alone. I feel a bit hopeful after this video. Thank you a lot <3
Here's my life story that triggered my depersonalization/derealisation. (If you're interested): I lived in the caribbean until i was 6. My twin brother was diagnosed w lymphoma (a type of cancer) at 6 years old. So my family (mum dad bro sis n me) had to travel to Bristol, England to get him treatment. Since me n my bro were British citizens because we could stay in Britain for a longer time however my mother and sister were born in the Caribbean they had to go back for all together 4ish years so I was separated from them alot. But when they were here my parents stayed w my bro in hospital in Bristol but me and my sister had to live in Devon with our horrible auntie and I we had to go to separate schools because she is 6 years older than me. So like back in the day when I was in year one I had this Grenadian British accent thing going on and I wasn't v articulate so my teachers hated me. My bro came to my school in year 2 but still wasn't cancer free. So he's been having check ups until year five. That last time I went to Grenada (where I lived out the Caribbean) was in year three. I practically lived on planes 😂😂. And I am now a 12 year old w crippling depression anxiety depersonalization and I haven't managed to bring back my confidence I had when I was 5 so yeah. But thanks to Dodie, I am just happier and also ppl like Dan and Phil yah kno. I'm still not as happy as I was, but that is my main goal. But I'm getting there I guess. Thank you for making this video, Dodie. 💗💗💗
Best advice I can give is that depersonalisation/derealisation will go away (I promise) as long as you stop fighting it!! As hard as it sounds, you need to stop focusing on your condition so much, this only feeds the anxiety. You need to just let it pass, and let it go- after you’ve had an episode, try not to dwell on it and think about it, just ignore it. Don’t think of it as a threat to block you from doing things you want to do. I know it feels like it will never go away, but I promise you it will. I had this condition from the age of 8 to the age of 13. Im now 18 and I haven’t had an episode since! I don’t fear it anymore, It’s no longer a threat to me like it used to be and I don’t let it control my life. At the time, it consumed me- its all I would think about 24/7. I stopped going to social events (which would trigger it off) and I think the end I stopped leaving the house altogether. But once I forced my condition out of my mind, and started doing what I wanted to do without fear, it stopped. You are never alone in this, and I promise you it will get better ❤️
My Derealisation is also 24/7 and sometimes (mostly in the evenings) my body just feels like its not mine. It is hard to find some sort of treatment because I have no idea where it came from. Then again I think it is also intertwined with depression just like Dodie said. It is now at the point where I can't imagine how it was to not feel like I'm in a dream.
I have DID and I have had derealisation since I was a kid, I can't remember the first time I experienced it, but I had about 8 or 9 personalities and I have experienced true disassociation once and mild versions of it a few times when one of my other personalities take over.
I've done EMDR for some trauma and even though I felt like dodie where it was like "what are you thinking?" "aaahhh idk what" it still worked. I was doing a mixture of normal talking therapy and EMDR. It's help when you with someone your comfortable with whether thats your therapist or someone sitting with you while its happening.
Really?so there's stiil hope! I 'm seeing a therapist and planned to do EMDR because of the glorious reputation it have,but when I heard the blonde woman saying it doesn't work for dr/dp...arghh
So,are there other people with thoses pbs who did Emdr and it worked?The 66 people who liked,does it mean it worked for you?
And,person to wich I comment the comment,can you give more details of ,perhaps ,the reason why you think it worked 4 you,please?
I don't know anything about DPDR but schema therapy really helped me with my depression and anxiety and is extremely insightful. Hope you get feel better, Dodie! xx
This happened to me in 2015. I went through something extremely traumatic Big T. Essentially blamed for someone else’s death. And had immense guilt and pain. For the first week I felt pain like I never knew exited. Wailing and crying to sleep. After the first week I went completely numb and I was losing memories of the trauma. I felt nothing and nothing felt real. No emotions. I was told by a therapist that I was going through Exactly this. You guys did a great job explaining!
I was really stressed in the past week and I felt really tired even though I was sleeping really well. I got this notification and didn't want to watch it, I was really sad I just wanted to sleep. So I finally watch and realised how helpful this is. Thank you.
When I was in a toxic relationship i always had derealisation and depersonalisation episodes and i still do to this day, just less. thank you for this video, very much needed.
Even though I don't have chronic/diagnosable derealization/depersonalization/dissociation this really did help me a lot because from time to time I do feel spaced out/numb to the point where I don't really feel right in that sense, so this put a name to this feeling and I definitely do feel better about being able to handle it as it is pretty frightening. Thank you so much, this was a great video. Luv you bb
I'm so glad I came across more of these types of videos.. I understand my illness now. I found out that I have extremely severe ptsd and I was traumatized even in my mother's womb from her drinking and abusing drugs and my father beating her.. I'm never not having depersonalization and derialization episodes
As a part of my yoga practice I take time to question myself and pay attention to my fears so that I can be aware of them and change my thought patterns. When I've found something new and hard to handle, such as finding the underlying fear of my OCD, that's when I've hit points of feeling depersonalization/derealization but it's a temporary thing and lets me know I need to give the thought time to settle. It sounds like it could happen as a reaction to something conflicting such as the common argument experience when your reality is being challenged and you aren't open to changing it at that moment and get scared and maybe a little lost and cloudy maybe to a point of DP/DR before then choosing if you're going to open up or react in anger self pity, comic relief or numbness.
ive just recently figured out what this is and I'm almost completely sure I have at east one of these and I'm so glad that some one that I know of and look up to has the same thing, thank you for making this video.
I can remember from the time I was little, maybe 6, I would have these moments where I would just feel like I was not really in my body or that I would not process what was going on, but these were very brief occurances. As I got older, I started to experience them more and more. Seeing this now I guess helped me to understand what I have been experiencing for most of my life. Thank you so much for posting this video. Honestly, I've never met anyone who could describe it. 💜
I’m almost certain I have depersonalization, and I never knew my love for fidgeting with things like that could be part of it! Super informative. Thank you for much for making this.
I used to get derealisation when I was younger ALL the time and I didn't know what it was. It felt like I was out of my body and watching my actions from a 3rd person perspective, or like I was dreaming and everything felt kind of blurry and weird. It was quite scary. Thankfully, I haven't had it in some years now but I still remember how unsettling the feeling was.
@vanesa v nothing really:( sadly im not sure there's anything you can do. I think derealization happens usually when we're stressed or anxious or in a difficult period in our lives so i guess trying to fight stress and anxiety would potentially help reducing derealization too
So today was the kind of day where I didn't feel anything. I couldn't feel anything outside of myself. So when I watched this video, it was the first thing I felt all day. Maybe I have issues with dissociation and derealisation, and I didn't think about the possibility until now. Thank you Dodie 💜
I didn't know until today that other people go through this. I've felt very alone and afraid of my own thoughts. I find that listening or feeling others heart beats calms me down. I was scared I was losing it and I worried that it'll never going away but, learning about it today and actually finding out that other people totally go through this has given me hope that this will all pass as I work on my anxiety. (I start therapy tomorrow). I appreciate this video and i appreciate all those who are leaving their stories in the comment section.
I have anxiety and will zone out in certain situations and now that it was mentioned I totally fidget with things, like the ends of my hair or the necklace I'm wearing. I'm going to my first talk therapy session in 2 days ANY advice? EDIT: Okay so she was great and had good advice I opened up to her but I can do that with most. I didn't feel inspired or like she wanted to help me be my best. more like just strategies to get by but she wasn't bad. I can't decide if I should continue seeing her or if I should try someone new?
I got 2 tips for you. The first time will probably be a bit awkward but that's okay it's great that you are seeking help and be honest with you therapist. I'm very proud that you are seeking help!!!
Megan Jensen be honest and open with them about things. You might not understand why they're asking you certain questions, but trust that they know what they're doing. You can always ask why they're asking if it makes you feel more conformable. They're not going to judge you for anything you say, and everything is confidential. You might think of something during the sessions that you've never thought about before, and that you think would be useful to say it. Just say it, even if they didn't ask! Always better to provide them with too much information than not enough. It's important that you understand what they're doing and why, and how it will make you feel better. If at any point they haven't explained it clearly enough or you don't understand, ask them to clarify. You need to understand this to make the therapy have meaning, otherwise it could turn into just a load of question asking that doesn't really help. Keep the most open mind you can, and if you can't answer their questions or can't think of anything to say straight away, don't worry! Take your time, they completely understand, they've given therapy to countless people in your situation before. Just do whatever you need to do to be comfortable to make sure it's working; sit however you want, speak at the pace you want to. I wish you the best of luck!
I don't have any of this, but it's a nice thing to learn about. I've been through big trauma, but I've dealt with it early. This helps me to want to deal with the hard things early. Thank you.
I just had a suicide attempt three weeks ago but this video just makes me feel so much better . Everyday feels so scary and I tried to find more info about it online but there was never nothing. My sense of reality is horrible but I do notice it gets worse when I’m hurting emotionally. Thank you so much for making this video it really makes me less alone in the world.
As someone who's struggled with what (doctors believe) is some forms of disassociation, it's so wonderful to see you talk about it. Practically everyone knows of depression/anxiety/PTSD/etc. but rarely is there any education about dr/dp/etc. Thank you both for sharing your knowledge and helping me understand myself a little better.
I had such bad derealisation/depersonalisation for about 5 years and I felt like I had tried everything to get rid of it (I hadn't I only went to therapy and consulted googled lol) but then slowly slowly it just started going on it's own and now a good 95% of my life I feel 'normal' and it's only when I'm in particularly stressful situations that I feel really spaced out again but it's not nearly as distressing anymore and I know that when I've calmed down I'll be fine again, I guess I just wanted to reassure anyone that's going through the same thing that even though it does feel like it's going to last forever and you're never going to be okay again, it doesn't and you will
Thank you for this bit of hope. This is a new thing for me. I've been dealing with this for a while off and on but it just recently got really bad and it's been so scary, especially because I've had no idea what this is or why I'm feeling this way. It's been so bad that I just feel so hopeless and trapped in this weird dream and I've had the darkest thoughts because of it. Thank you for giving me hope that maybe I'll get better.
This is so helpful!!! The way she talked about the big Ts and the little ts was so important for me, (I had already figured it out for myself lol) but it's very important for people to know that you can have things like this happening without one large event damaging you. I have BPD which is usually explained by childhood abuse which was really confusing to me because I get along really well with my parents, but I realized it's just like she said, little things that didn't seem like a big deal. It was also really helpful to get a definition for disassociation because it's so hard to explain to people when that is happening to me.
hey, its really cool to watch this video! it's like you are having a normal conversation, but the public is included in it! i feel like i am in this conversation with you guys
I can't describe how thankful I am for this video. I happened across it by chance and I knew straight from the title it was exactly what ive always been looking for. Ive complained of these exact symptoms for years but its just so hard to explain
I have this as a symptom of my PTSD and anxiety. Its horrible, thank you for shedding light on this subject and having a professional speak about this. I am thinking the same treatment TMS. You are very strong to talk about this, you are helping so many people.
I suffer with derealisation constantly and depersonalisation occasionally. This video helped me so much! I did not know that there were any treatment options other than therapy. Thank you so much Dodie!!!
I'm 14 and for the past 3 weeks I've been having disassociation and I remember the first time it happened I was walking to the shops with my friends before school and it hit me all of a sudden my heart started going crazy and I felt like I had been Transported to another version of my world and everything was so scary and unfamiliar I also felt as if my soul or concioius was a little bit further back then my body so I felt out of control turns out it runs in my family and my mum gets it but now that I've had multiple amounts of it I've managed to cope with it and I generally channel my feel and unfamiliarities into creative things like making a song on my piano or doodling things I see around me which helps me alot
This was so interesting and enlightening!! Thank you dodie for always posting about issues that have a lot of stigma around then, you educate me in so many ways and I love the way you make these videos💞💞
dodie, thank you for making this video. people need to realize that trauma isn’t always war or car crashes, it’s the little things. thank you for bringing kati on your channel to explain this. you’re such a sweet human and i adore you. thank you for this.
This video was really helpful. I think I have derealisation and I used to have no idea what it was but this video gave me something to relate to. So thanks!
I remember when Dodie first spoke about this I kinda felt like the concept was familiar, but I was too scared to look further into it. However, when I lived a year abroad I started experiencing long periods of time of kinda out of body experiences... it’s kinda like my brain convinces me that I’m watching myself from the outside, like I’ll be in a situation where I might be uncomfortable or sometimes there’s nothing much special, but I’ll start thinking like “who am I?” And suddenly it’s like I’m not really there, I’m like trapped in a tiny room in my brain looking through my eyes, but from a distance, if that makes sense.... and I suddenly don’t really feel anything anymore, because what I see isn’t real, so why should I be sad or upset or even happy? Living abroad was the happiest but also the most stressful year of my life, and I think it developed even more for me because I had so much going on at once. I don’t experience it as randomly anymore, like it doesn’t come suddenly on the train like it used to, but I almost always get it when I’m in a large social setting where I don’t feel entirely comfortable/in control. Sometimes I’ll constantly feel like I’m not “cool” enough to hang out with my friends, and then it comes and I stop feeling anything at all... I don’t really know how to deal with it, I think I’ve tried to avoid it honestly because it’s not constant and I can kinda predict when it’ll come... but it’s just so uncomfortable and every time it comes I feel like I end up seeming empty.
Omg dodie you made me cry. The first one I experienced it I literally thought I was my brother! It took so long to finally get a diagnosis after doctors checked my eyes etc and Mri's for people thinking it's seizures. So helpful to hear someone I admire talk about having the same issues
i'd love to see a follow up video summarising the methods you've tried to help your mental health and what's worked/what hasn't and what you got out from each experience and the impressions they made on you!
It's the first time I'm hearing about the term derealisation and I realised that this could be the word for those weird moments where everything felt like a dream. I do not experience such moments very often, but there were a few situations in my childhood and also at two parties when I was a bit drunk. Those moments which felt like a dream always happened at night when it was dark outside and when there were many people around me. I hate it when this happens, but thankfully it only happened about 7 times in my life. This seems so strange to me, because what could be the reason for those moments of derealisation?
Thank you dodie for just being you. I first found your channel with your other video about depression and depersonalization as its given me a tiny bit of hope. Thank you for letting me not feel alone and have your songs as a way to speak out on how I actually feel when I'm not able to form the words. I'm currently at high school living every day as a blur with no one that I can actually talk to but I know that it would all be worth it in the end and that there is other people out there. 💛
i have depersonalization and derealisation (thankfully not severe) and this is the first time i hear about it from literally anyone and i relate highly to a lot of this, I'm so glad i came across this
This was really helpful. I've been experiencing this a lot through out the last few months. i feel like anytime i talk about whats been going on it grounds me and makes me feel emotional, but it soon passes and the numbing wall goes back up...
I've been experiencing dissociation/derealisation/depersonalisation for 6 years now (thankfuly it's very mild). But I never had thr slightest idea it could be a mental illness, to me it was just something I was experiencing and never thought about much. I stumbled across this video while searching for more of dodie's videos and it helpes me so much to now what it is. The sheer fact of putting a name on this has made a huge difference, I've been able to tell my friends about it so they can help keep me grounded, and I've been able to trace back some of the traumas that might have caused it. It is a big relief to know that it isn't depression, and I've started to know how to deal with it. Thank you so much dodie and Katie for this video, you've helped me put a finger on what has been a problem for me for a long time. I really hope you (dodie) will be able to deal with this. Thank you for this help I didn't know I needed.
i've been dealing with derealisation since the beginning of August. it has brought out a lot of intense and severe anxiety and depression that i thought i got over a long time ago. i don't enjoy going out anymore because everything looks so scary and it terrifies me. my friends don't see me anymore so i feel pretty alone when it comes to that. i loved watching this video, it made me feel less crazy and that other people go through this too. so thank you for that
i went through a time like last year where i think i had derealization and i cannot imagine having to go through it all the time, like this queen named dodie
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Jana Nelles2017-10-20 22:29:02 (edited 2017-10-20 22:30:25 )
dodie, i thank you so much, i dont want to say that anyone deserves a mental disorder - nobody deserves to suffer, just to make clear. But i wanted to tell you that expecially you, you dont deserve all that. you helped me so much. I always thought about my mental disorder (anxiety, depression, derealisation/depersonalisation) as a result of being too weak, too lazy, (...). I hated myself because of that even though i didnt see self-hatred as an effective and fair option. After i listened to you talking about everything that open I'm losing my judgement, i'm not hating myself anymore because of my mental disorder. I'm still learning, but this helps me, not to feel ashamed of myself. I got so much left to say i love you dodie, thanks so much! Jana
Sara Taps2017-10-09 23:25:52 (edited 2017-10-09 23:32:38 )
Hi Dodie! I have an important question. Actually, maybe a few. I've been suffering anxiety lately, and I feel like I've been lying to myself about what I want in the future. I've been stuck between choosing the typical-well-paying-but-not-so-fun-job and the fun-creative-career-but-you-might-not-achieve-and-could-risk-your-survival-in-life. I have amazing friends that are taking risks such as going into the music industry. Another wants to create comic books, and another wants to do something with acting and theater. Then I have some friends who are taking the safer route, with the office type jobs and such and they're content with that. We're all in high school right now, and they seem to have an idea of what they're going for. I don't really know what to do. I prefer the fun route, but it's not as safe as taking the other route. I've been watching your videos for years (and you're my Demi Lovato btw) and I recall that in one of them you said you went against what your parents wanted. You wanted to pursue a career in music, and you did and you're amazing with everything you've produced and all the lovely messages you sent out to others. But how did you push yourself to choose the decision you made? Did you feel any doubts about it? How did you know that that is what you truly wanted? You're brave and work hard to get to where you are now. But you couldn't have known where you would be now. Why did you take the risk? What made it worth it? How did your younger self see it back then when the decision was made? How did you survive in the beginning of this? What was it like to have another job while building this one? Do you think life isn't worth living if it isn't fun? I don't know if you'll ever read this comment. I hope you do. My name's Sara, and I dream of becoming a writer. If you're reading this right now, I need you to know that you've helped me and a lot of my friends through dark times. Thank you for being so open and so you. You talk about insecurities and mental illnesses- and so many people here can connect and it's just a wonderful community in the comments of this channel. Thanks for all bringing us here. I hope you respond. Anyways, have a nice day :)
IT took me a while to watch this, but I am so glad I did. This is such a nice, quiet, educational video. For some reason I do not have derealisation, but I do sometimes have disassociation and depersonalisation and the complete opposite where I suddenly get fully aware of every little thing and it makes being very awkward and loud.
I think I have derealisation but I need to talk to my therapist so thank you sm dodie for making both realize I have such a thing and knowing how to help myself
Wow this is the most lovely and relatable derealization video I have ever watched on youtube you are amazing dodie! It made me feel so much better about my condition I don’t know why
I also wanted to add a symptom that I experience besides from what you’ve mentioned which is slow brain processing .. like when somebody talks to me or asks me a simple question I’m like” ummmmm.....” and I have to pause to think of an answer.. this is almost the most frustrating symptom for me especially affecting my performance in college
i'm so glad i watched this, it had been sitting in my subscription box and i ignored it for so long because i knew there was a chance i had these things or something similar and as i was watching it i've never felt so hopeful and validated before.
I watched this video when it was first posted and it has stuck with me. I fully believe that this is something I struggle with but I want to seek a doctors professional opinion. Dodie totally opened my eyes to better understanding myself
Ok I've been off YouTube for a couple of days now. But I think I never clicked on a video as fast as I did as I just saw you and Kati in the screenshot. So glad about what you both do for so many people, keep doing that. xo
i just wanted to thank you dodie. thanks to you bringing attention to depersonalisation i’ve been properly diagnosed and on my way to recovery. 2 months ago i started having these types of episodes where i just ‘zoned out’ and felt like i was on the verge of passing out, my vision blurred and i had no idea where i was or who i am. i’ve had depersonalisation my whole life, my first memory of it when i was four and i just felt like i wasn’t there but at the same time i was the only one in the room,,? when my mom realised it was recurring she gave it a name, ‘lonely’. at first the doctors thought i was having seizures or there was something wrong with my brain until i saw this video a few weeks ago. when i’m in the middle of an intense depersonalisation episode it scares the shit out of me, i look at my hands and they’re not mine, i look at my friends and i i just can’t recognise them. because i’ve had depersonalisation my whole life i don’t know how i would feel without it. when i was younger it made me feel so different to other kids, i would zone out or just become quiet all of a sudden. having it has damaged me so much and had probably influenced my anxiety and depression to become worse, i felt like there was this whole in my chest, like i was missing something. so thank you dodie for helping me identify my ‘lonely’.
i've always been quite socially anxious, even at a small age. recently i have experienced depression (still have) and derealization. it's shit. I never thought it could be like this; i didn't expect it at all
When I’m clicking on this video I never thought that it’s going to help me really much; I learn by the help of this video that I have derealisation and depersonalization. I experienced situations that you told and I started to think that I’m losing my mental health totally and couldn’t understand it. THANK YOU REALLY MUCH. THAT HELPED SO MUCH THAT I CAN’T EXPRESS MY HAPPINESS WITH WORDS. Because I was suffering for a long time from not understanding what is my problem and how I am supposed to deal with it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I wonder if anyone ever tested Dodie for AD(H)D Inattentive Type. I have both a Dissociative Disorder and AD(H)D, as well as hypothyroidism and insomnia. The overlap of the different brands of fogginess are ever-overlapping and puzzling. I can't imagine that dissociation would spread out to such a degree unless someone was living within directly, actively traumatizing environments. I would try to get different specialists to cross-check whether there are additional, similar health-interferences. Everyone's symptom-clusters and psychological responses differ, but it can really help to re-do diagnosis. They only discovered my AD(H)D last year, at 28. Getting properly medicated turned out to be a basic, quintessential prerequisite to make any progress in psychotherapeutic treatment.
wow i had that happen to me- the feeling i dont belong to my body or my life- and i just thought i was weird! thank you for this :) exercise helped me a lot to reconnect! especially biking for some reason also hugs help a lot :P
This is making so much sense to me that it's painful but it's also good in a sense because there's the relief of knowing I'm not alone and there are people who understand and are helping me to understand
уυgα ѕαкι absolutely. I don't know how to reach out I am surrounded by people who are quick to dismiss things like mental health and make assumptions with little information and I don't know what to do
I had derealization for months. I was so mentally exhausted and finally just said "fuck it". Started partying again, getting shitfaced, drugs etc. The more I socialized, instead of isolating myself and googling my symptoms, the less I cared about them. I ignored it and repressed it. It's not healthy but it worked for me lol.
AAAAAA this is pure happiness, I have been watching Kati for half a year now, I love her. And two days ago I discovered Dodie.....and NOW I see that they had a video TOGETHER <3 <3 YESSSSS
This was so informative and helpful. That shattered marble like clicks perfectly to what sets me off sometimes. I hope that I can find a group near me to just feel the same around and talk about it.
hi dodie! i’d just like to give a huge thanks to you and kati for this video i was lucky enough to have met you on saturday. i’d also been there to see the mental health panel you were both in (which was great, btw!) at the m&g i gave you a letter that included a small paragraph about my personal experience with depersonalisation. it was something that was very close to the heart but at the same time i was still fearful that what i believed i was experiencing was actually something else entirely.
after watching this and having a bit more formal(?) education on the topic i’m now able to see that what i’ve been experiencing is more derealisation than depersonalisation. the feeling of dreaming, and as i described it in the letter, ‘being able to wake up a second time.’ i think i may know what traumatic encounter(s) might have stemmed it too. it feels really nice to hear it from someone who knows exactly what i mean without sounding like i’m crazy (it isn’t the most common diagnosis, after all)
so again, thank you both! i think i might go and try to research a bit more into the therapy that was recommended to see what’s in store and what’s possible for it. have a good night, i hope you have (or are having) a safe flight home! <3
i feel like i might have this?.. things feel not real and i feel like i’m in a stimulation kind of and every minute of my day i observe everything and create random theories in my head and when someone says “oh it’s okay everything is real” i feel like they’re lying to me so i don’t think/know they’re gonna do something to me
this could be a completely different thing but yeah
I feel the same don't worry, I think it was triggered from either using drugs once or smoking weed one time as I had a bad experience with both, or potentially a really bad friendship breakup, im still trying to understand it. Ive had it for 5 months now, and although that seems like a long Time, it doesn't feel that way to me it feels so short. I completely get you in the fact that you think people aren't real, like you probably think im not real right now but I promise you I am, I've heard the same thing from people because they don't understand it as you don't really hear about it as much as depression, anxiety etc but just know everything is going to be okay, it all works out in the end, just take every day at a time <3
I’m watching this video because I feel like I have derealisation. Sometimes I can spend hours in my room, completely spaced out, imagining my life in different almost romantic situations. I constantly feel like nothing’s real, like I’m living in a movie. And everything I do has to be romanticized like in films. I have experienced lots of Big T’s so that might contribute
Thankyouthankyouthankyou for this I needed this so much more than I thought I did and I feel better now about myself And how sometimes I don't recognize myself Dodie thank you :)
I have anxiety and depression and lately I’ve begun to feel like I’m not real, or as if I’m in a movie or dream, kind of like I’m floating. At certain points my fingers decide to not feel like my own, and when I touch them the sensation feels wrong and like I’m not feeling it myself. This video made me feel a lot less scared about it so thank you very much^^ ♡
I’m pretty much experiencing derealisation 24/7 and I disassociate all the time as a result of my anxiety disorders and depression. I really wish I was able to see someone about this because I’m really struggling
i saw katis version of this and i am happy that you realized what caused you to have BPD
my BPD is dormant right now and i couldnt be happier i know what causes it and how to prevent myself from my BPD acting up (i havent dissociated since feb 2017 that month is missing and probably never coming back) i think that months of marbles pretty much rolled off into the black abyss and never coming back again at this point and i am quite fine with that i dont want to know what happened (if i ever remember i wont care and i will deal with whatever happened but i am not looking for answers)
my autism on the other hand just started to act up again but not in a horrible sense just needed to move around more (barre class helps with that) my anxiety attack and sever depression non existent recently so thats a plus i have been very happy and that is from the information below
i am also never using meds i have found coping skills work way better and other forms of therapy people say meds+therapy are the best but not for me i cant even take vitamin D pills without it making me feel suicidal or like shit or make my life worse in some way
i drink milk for my vitamin D problems
dodie you are adorable but you are learning and i am sure having wes in your life will help your brain make more connections the more you can remember him the more the wires can click together it just sucks that you see him when you look in the mirror all i know is he definitely needs you in his life as well even if he is to stupid to realize it
thx for this ha bisky vid i found a family member though youtube as well i have been watching somebody for 8+ years and i had no idea we were related
we compared family trees and it is proven we are most likely cousins from what i can figure out as for how cannon cousins are is unknown because we didnt compare past finding out if we are related
his name is sam seder wes might be more interested in that then you but with my dream job that does matter at least a bit
i love you so much dodie and i am happy that you are at least figuring some things out and that you love wes and can remember him now at least at times
1 1/2 year ago I had many panic attacks. Before a panic attack started, I always felt like everything was not real. I was not real. I think it was a mixture of derealisation and depersonisation, but I'm not sure. I think the reason why it all started was that I felt like I have no controll. At the time my grandma was very ill and my dad had cancer. (English is not my first language and I'm very tired at the moment, so sorry if I made any mistakes.)
i never leave comments but i want to say thanks for making this video.. i struggled with derealisation and depersonalisation for years and sometimes still do. It feels like hell and i wouldnt wish it on anyone. thanks for educating people! i wish i saw this video 5 years ago when i started getting these episodes.
I got that ”blunting” feeling when I first started Lexapro. But I actually liked it, I needed a break from feeling all my emotions. But my emotions came back and they were much more intense and I decided to stop my meds altogether.
Just to shed some light at the end of the tunnel for people dealing with DP/DR.I was struggling with DP/DR, depression, hardcore anxiety, and panic attacks the past three years, but things are looking up and i would say i am 80-85% cured of the DP/DR. I understand how scary it can be sometimes, but "when going through hell, don't stop." Dissasociation is literally your minds way of saying it's overstimulated, so it goes into a sort of standby mode. The things that helped me were finding a less stressful job, getting off social media, getting out of toxic relationships, eating healthier, exercising, reading a lot, and getting out and socializing, getting sunlight, talking with family members and freinds about my issues. No matter how hard these things can be, you need to rewire your brain, and when your body tells you no you need to tell it yes. Get up, get active, and stop focusing on the past and future, just appreciate what you have right now!
This comforted me I haven't recover since something that happened 2 years ago and to bring my brain back too! ❤️ I get headaches and anxiety too! And I fiddle so much and fidgeting since recovering from my trauma but I also might have ADHD too and still have derealisation too but I'm not diagonised but I know I have been going through depersonalisation for 2 years
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K Murph2017-09-26 07:37:12 (edited 2017-09-26 07:40:37 )
Elisa Benaggoune Medical community likes to attach words like ADHD to things they can't understand. You are your own type of normal, everyone is. Nobody is perfect or always right, content, or in a state of constant happiness..no such thing as permanence of any kind. I had an episode of a sort of "awakening" over a year ago and then slipped into this state of what can only be described as DP/DR...a flat state where nothing is ever either good or bad it simply "IS". Don't try to act out as you think you should be. Just be how you are, you will feel more content and it doesn't matter how anyone else See's you, if they have a problem it's theirs not yours. Be as you are it's all you can do.
I was on sertraline, for the same thing dp/dr, it helped i’m coming off now but I also went through therapy and tried to teach myself how to cope... I study psychology so it made it easier
Omg that's so weird I didn't know that EMDR doesn't work if we are experiencing derealisation, I had the exact same experience it was awkward and I didn't feel safe or right. That's so good to know, I thought I was doing something wrong too.
I’ve been dealing with this for about 4 months now. It’s more bearable now, but I still have it 24/7. I’m trying to get over it but it’s so difficult when it’s always there and nobody has any direct answers.. 😩
I experienced this sort of, after my dad died and my life changed a lot (going to uni, moving away). But it wasnt so strong, just feeling like this wasn't my 'old normal life' and so it just wasn't real. It has gone away mostly now I am busier and seeing friends more. I don't think it was exactly the same but just dissociating and spacing out.
This was very informative! It took me superlong to finish watching this video. I have ADD and since this is just talking and explaining stuff - even though it's interesting and I want to know these things - it was hard to concentrate on it in one go. But the beauty with videos is that I can turn it off, come back later, rewind a minute for context and try again... But this was really really interesting!! I've definitely had depersonalised episodes, not sure about dissociation? And the whole derealisation... well there's something to look into with my therapist next week
EDIT: OH MY GOSH. I went great... I have two more scheduled this month. I really love my therapist. She's great. 😊 (It also turns out I have bipolar depression!)
Suffered from this around 10 years ago when I was on holiday. Led to me suffering anxiety and panic attacks constantly for years .. Haven’t suffered for years until last week where I was away with the family and I just zoned out while we were out eating . Next thing I’m having a panic attack :/ the next few days we’re awful. Worst I’ve felt since initial spout . It’s been 4 days now and the panic attacks have gone probably due to medication but still suffering with derealisation :(
I always feel like I’m not in control of my own body and that I constantly forget what I’m doing or how I got into a situation. It usually happens to me when I’m tired or traveling, but it’s started to happen really often.
I have lived with the condition all my life and being undiagnosed is like having a guilty secret.😧 I haven't felt comfortable explaining this disorder with anyone, even a UK doctor. I feel if this is widely discussed and awareness is raised that many sufferers may find relief that their condition is recognised, but some may feel utter embaressment and go on suffering in silence. It would be just another mental illness stigma to them like the anxiety and depression they're already dealing with, these are 2 things that are obviously feeding dp/dr. Then there may be some who think they suffer from it but maybe not fully understand what the condition is as they have only felt a milder temporary version due to a hangover or lack of sleep. Then the awareness becomes diluted and it creates a situation where people will exaggerate their feeling to gain attention, so true sufferers will go further into their matrix. A bit like those who say they have ocd, when really it's that they're just picky about being tidy or neat, they don't suffer the repetitive habits a true sufferer goes through. I think when you feel it's truly affecting your daily life to the point you are frightening yourself e.g driving a car and putting yourself in danger then help must really be sought. I am going to see my Dr soon to try and explain it for the first time. I find this video helpful and appreciate all the coping techniques mentioned. I don't feel Meds are the answer but definitely cutting out caffeine alcohol is recommended, they say excercise is good too. Needless to say I do all the opposite of the above ! 😑😉
Hey dodie, I think I struggle with depersonalization quite frequently. I only recently found out that what I often feel has a name. For as long as I can remember I have felt my brain move my body away almost like I am floating just behind/above my body whilst I move and continue on. My earliest memory of feeling like this was when I went camping about 10 years ago and I woke up the next morning and it was like I was looking at my body and every time I moved I felt like someone else and everything around me was just so weird and like a dream, just like how you described derealisation.
I've been following you for a while now and have always had that thought in the back of my mind about 'whether I could be experiencing the same thing as you' but I always pushed it to the back of my mind. After watching this video, I'm almost 100% sure I am experiencing it. I'm definitely going to do more research to find out if I do actually experience depersonalization and derealisation.
Thank you so much for making this video and I wish you good luck in dealing with your mental health. Much Love Kayleigh x
I can't think of any trauma I've experienced but I used to get derealization / depersonalization ever since I was a kid. Haven't got it in ~a year now though!
I had psychosis due to taking corticosteroids for my auto immune illness, and on top of that I have minor depression which made my psychosis worse... The thing is, after I finished steroids I had to take anti psych meds, along with something to stop my tremors, which was a horrible experience... Since then, I've felt the way you described as "depersenolization", because since I took all of those pills, I felt as though life is just a blurred picture..
Thank you so much for this video! I was starting to think this was me. Thank you so much I can't even begin to explain how thankful I am for this video
Dissociation hits hard for me, Not only do I zone out in tough situations, But just randomly in the middle of being with friends, Talking to people, Etc. I didn't know if it was just stress, My terrible sleep schedule, Or something else, But now when I look back on my younger days and remember my parents telling me off for spacing out when I'm stressed over a math question, It makes a lot more sense haha
i have had dpdr since the beginning of october. it kinda appeared out of nowhere however i do recall having existential thoughts regarding whether or not other people were real or robots when i was very young. i think the dpdr has stemmed from trauma starting when i was 10 when i had issues with predators online multiple times, of which i obsessed over and tortured my self over and constantly worried that someone would show up at my door who found me from online to kidnap me (i still worry about it now) so after 4 years of constantly doing this, i looked in the mirror and didnt recognize myself. my triggers are thinking about the dpdr and death. i have also shown symptoms of high functioning depression. i feel like i can forget about the past and move on but my dpdr is stopping me. i'm scared to tell my parents because me or them would have never guessed that something like this would happen. i think that another reason i have dpdr is cause i've been on my computer every day since i was 7. I like being on my computer cause its like i get sucked into another world and i can forget about all of my problems (i get really bad derealization after a while of being on the computer.) how do i tell my parents?
I hate having derealisation and depersonalisation but it's getting better! Also what treatments do you have ?? ❤️❤️❤️ please reply! I think I got it from trauma of something and that happened 2 years ago and I still have depersonalisation 😭
I have both as well and saw a psychiatrist a couple months ago and she is having me take dietary supplements that are for brain health and it is working so well, my symptoms used to be borderline unbearable and now I feel so much better, I've been doing the supplements for 3 months highly recommend
I'm vegan so I cant have fish products but that really helps! :D Fish get there omega 3 from eating algae and we can have that too! I'm going to try and find those supplements and see if they help
I'm vegetarian but fish oil is the one exception I allow, I struggled with it for awhile but it's what's best for my health, I got all mine at Whole Foods because they cary really high quality products and are super helpful at pointing out which are the highest quality and work the best, I take them all once a day btw, I hope it helps you!
I've heard of vegetarians using Flax seed oil instead of fish oil, maybe try that instead if you're really against it. I've heard a LOT of supplement regimens for DP/DR and I have a suspicion it depends on what condition is underlying DP/DR. I've heard of people using Melatonin to reset their sleep to bust their way out. I've heard wheatgrass being used by someone who has a Hypothyroidism. I've heard that Low testosterone could be a cause. Low levels of Zinc, Selenium & B6. Inositol & Theanine. I couldn't list them all, but there's a couple more if you havent tried them :)
What you guys need is Spiritual intervention because what you’re going through is spiritual. If you feel as though you’re out of your body and in another realm then that’s certainly the case because bible makes that very clear in the book a Ephesians 6:12 that there’s two realms a physical realm and spiritual realm. If you ever find your self out side your body in the realm of the sprit and some else controlling your body in the physical realm then it’s certainly a demon who has possessed your body hence why you find your self watching yourself !!! Jesus Christ can certainly set you free and give you the peace that you’ve so longed for!!!!
That Dude2019-12-17 23:26:52 (edited 2019-12-17 23:27:32 )
@Eseosa Osagiede nope I'm Christian. Felt God's presence. Been on fire for god and loved it. I got traumatised by unpardonable sin took me about a year to get over it. Ever since that trauma I've had this problem.
I actually came to your channel to browse the music (btw, I L.O.V.E it), but found this off topic gem. I used to have this. I was quite the journey to overcome it. God bless anyone going through this and just keep in mind, it gets better!!!
I had really bad derealisation when I was younger, it’s not as common now though. The only thing that is consistent now is that my face looks completely different day to day. That is so true that you can never open your eyes wide enough, when I was younger I would get so frustrated because nothing ever looked real enough, but I eventually just accepted it.
I struggled with depersonalisation, dissociation and severe anxiety a few years ago, like you I had it 24/7 and it became such a problem that I couldn't carry on with everyday life. After trying a lot of things, I found that the only thing that would help was distraction and it's eventually what helped me get out of that place. I'd do things like painting or making bracelets, it really helped me focus on reality and get out of that weird haze. Sometimes it's really simple things that can make a massive difference!
Thank you for this video, it helped me understand a lot more of what I went through <3
Derealization is the hardest thing I have ever been through. I can't remember anything ever and never feel real. I feel I have a slight headache all the time. Focus is never here and I am very happy when I am focused. School is extremely hard in that way
Omg I had this on a few occasions. Specifically back in 9th grade we went on a field trip and a couple hours in I felt really weird. Like as if I was dreaming. I felt like I was floating but I knew I was walking. Everything around me felt like it was moving too fast for me to understand. I could move my body and whatnot but it was almost like I was telling someone else what to move for me. If that makes any sense. I was in control but not really. I freaked out and told one of my friends during the trip but they thought I was crazy. I’ve had that feeling a few times after that but never as severe.
I think I have moments of dissociation/derealization, where I'll zone out or start thinking too deeply about things going on. I'll start to question myself and be like, "But what if this is all a dream? Is this even real? Am I real? What is reality? What if I'm just some figment of someone else's imagination?" It's like a mini existential crisis. It normally lasts only a few minutes, but I've done this ever since I was a kid (age 26 now). I don't think I've ever experienced depersonalization, but I've definitely felt like I've been in a dream and in a fog moving through life sometimes. I've never felt disconnected from my body before or like the person I see in the mirror isn't me, but I would say I've had derealization throughout my life at times.
I'm literally crying right now. I had no idea that it had a name. I thought I was just stupid and lazy and occasionally losing my damn mind. I totally feel the thing about not being able to open your eyes wide enough. I never even brought that up to anyone because I didn't even know how to explain it. I can't remember anything because I'm just in this constant fog. Feels similar to being high, or like you said drunk, all the time. These feelings are so scary and so isolating (especially the depersonalization) when you don't know what's happening or why or that other people actually feel this bizarre way too and its not just you. Thank you so much for making this.
This has calmed me down, I’ve had a few traumatic experiences but hasn’t really triggered anything until now when I really started to worry about doing my A-Levels and getting into universities. I’ve had close family passing away, everyone around me not being true and sexual assault etc... but going through college has triggered a feeling/ thought of ‘I don’t know myself, this doesn’t feel real anymore, I don’t feel anything’ I also have really happy highs and really sad lows but when I try and describe it it feels more than just being sad or having a mood swing, once I started to try and understand my feels it again feel more than being sad, it feels heavy and familiar, but I’m not sure where to go or who to speak to
I kind of had depersonalisation when the girl I was dating suddenly cut me off. I felt like my mind and body were split. I woke up one night feeling a leg and felt it was really skinny. I then felt their ribs and felt it was boney. I was wondering whose it is and I realised I was sleeping alone and that I was touching my own leg and ribs. It was really scary. I still sometimes experience it when I look at the mirror.
Thank you for sharing. Its been a year since I have depersonalisation/derealisation. Its difficult to cope, I want to feel normal again. If anyone have found the solution please share. It will be a great help. Thanks.
I just spent 2 weeks at a mental hospital and i was brought there because i have really bad Derealisation and depersonalisation. Knowing that dodie also had that, makes me feel a little better about it. This video was like a nice headpat telling me im gonna be fine.
I'm here because i'm still figuring out what is wrong with me. I really want to seek help but my parents wouldnt let me as they think people that go to psychologists are crazy. Apparently i'm experiencing what you described about derealization but i feel like there's also an inner fight within my brain. My derealization part is that during these last years i think i've been surrounded by constant stress especially the whole 2016 and the end of 2017 and start of 2018. The end of 2017 was full of stress because i'm constantly thinking about the future and that freaks me out to the point i cry. Also i had two days straight of constant stress and it had my whole body hurting during a whole week or even a bit more. It was horrible. Then the 2nd of January i became paralyzed for a few minutes but i felt like a dream for a few days straight too.
I have some notes too about some things i wrote back in 2017 that said that i literally felt nothing and I still feel that to this day. Nothing feels real to me and i've kind of lost track of the present bc of this, and i still get anxious about the future. A few weeks ago my safe place (my bedroom) became completely invaded by my brother and now i feel like i have nowhere to hide from myself/the world.
Going back to what i said about the fight within my brain, i'm constantly feeling weird in a sense i can't really describe but that i shout at myself for being how i am (or one part of my brain is). I feel like i have two sides of my brain fighting, and they are complete opposite as if one side was happy but the other one wants the other side to shut up.
I also can't express myself, but i wanted to let it all out and maybe someone out there might find this interesting or something.
Years of emotional abuse from infancy caused both my little Ts and big Ts. There were more explosive moments that very obviously scarred me. I'm autistic and dealt with a lot of abusive "therapies" and terrible home life situations. In addition, I used to not have a voice about any of it. I couldn't advocate for myself.
It's taken me seven years of weekly therapy to get where I am now, and I understand myself much better, but I have a loooong way to go. The little Ts that built up over time are actually harder to deal with in therapy because you have to dig to even find them before you can actually deal with them.
I have derealization, which to me is very upsetting, I feel as if I am floating through the days and months, I can't remember a lot of September and even October... because of a person, and me devoting all of my emotional and mental capacity to him ... contact for me is key. And the marble analogy almost made me cry... Regardless, thank you dodie
I ended up dissasociating and feeling like nothing was real and I never knew where I was or what was going on after a really hard time and my therapist explaining that it can be "the brains parachute" helped me get over it and realized that I wasn't broken or strange.
Oh my god... I need to go get checked, because I always feel like everything is a blur and sometimes when I panic too much I can't see properly or see even my hands. It's so weird. Thank you dodie 💞
Small T's thing and derealisation thing explained a lot (I knew about depersonalisation but I knew it didn't affect me or at least not frequently but this forced me to think about what I'm feeling and put names to what I didn't know how to explain but I experience) thank you
I never really thought of myself as derealized but now that you've described it, I really associate myself as feeling that way. I'll space out completely and my body will feel like it's been put into a worm hole and my brain will make me feel like I'm suddenly flying backwards and that I'm not really there. I space out easily even though I know what's going on and if someone is talking to me, but it just feels strange. I've felt this way for a while now and idk. Would anyone else think this would explain how I feel???
Morgan Cloutier general rule of thumb is that if it's having a significant impact on your life (eg. Making you feel depressed or anxious, stopping you from doing things you need or want to do, generally holding you back) then it's a problem that you should look into getting help for. If not and you feel that you can deal with it, then that's fine, it's normal to feel a bit dissociated every now and then 😊
Equoise I've had anxiety for a long while now and I always seem to feel this way when I either have a panic attack or when I'm having a particularly anxious day. I just kinda learned to try and cope wit the feeling cuz I thought it was normal. I've had a spiraling downhill of medical and mental problems lately and they only seem to be getting worse. I had an entire week of severe depersonalization. My hands felt so strange and I felt like I was going in and out of daydreaming and jolting back every minute or so.
ive had bad anxiety and panic in my life but I've had one instance of derealization. I felt like I was in the twilight zone, or like a dream and it was really creepy. I felt like everyone was a simulation or robots and just like a really eerie weird feeling. It was so so so weird.
For the first time I dissociated an event this last week. A friend was in a car accident and i witnessed it all in my rearview. It was terrifying- I thought he was dead. I vividly remember detail and images, but throughout the experience never felt present. Even now a week later It doesn't feel like an even that happened. I wonder if derealisation is something that ive had, and this event only magnified it. For some time now I feel somewhat absent minded, and can't remember most of my day or week. Only more recently have I looked into it more but I dont know where I am as far as set label i guess.
I don’t think I’ve ever been in any sort of trauma, but i’m almost certain I have derealization/depersonalization. I constantly feel like I’m dreaming, or like someone else is controlling my body and i’m just watching a movie screen. sometimes i don’t recognize my own voice and i get freaked out but my body keeps talking anyway, or i’ll go to the bathroom and do a double take because i don’t recognize the person in the mirror. i feel like i’m floating and the world is two dimensional and i can barely remember my life. my memories don’t feel like my own. i’m terrified and i tried telling my therapist and she just said it was anxiety and to pay more attention to the things around me. i’m scared to tell my friends and family because i think they’ll laugh or say i’m just exaggerating and to get over it. i feel so alone.
I’ve been through multiple different therapists and psychiatrists since I was 13, I’m 18 and I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and severe anxiety but I’ve always tried talking to every single one of these professionals about my feelings of all three of these and every time they avoid addressing what it could be or asking me any questions about that. A lot of them kinda laughed and make me feel dumb for even mentioning it ... idk oh well, if anyone knows any place/anyone who can help me in Georgia let me know.
How many times do i go back to your videos to figure things out x) Seriously, I had a derealisation episode that lasted 6 hours today and I was very annoyed that it happened again so I just watched you video to figure out tips to get out of this quickly and turns out I should have probably picked my stimtoy (which I had for two month and is already COMPLETELY dead because I use it constantly when i'm situations where there's a lot of people). I should have maybe hugged my parents but they never know when I go through it I just shut up about it so... Yeah (I should test these others coping mecanism to see if it works for me). Also I just discovered that the type of therapy that i'm doing is talk therapy and I should talk more about these episodes. Anyway that must the third time that I post this kind of comment under one of your video, always helps me think. Also sorry for my broken english...
Somatic Experiencing is quite helpful. I would suggest staying away from meditation unless you can do it with your eyes open. Focusing on meditating while you are going about your daily activities is the best!
In 2017, I had my first anxiety attack, and it was big.
I didn't know what was happening at first, but all I knew was my brain was going way past the speed limit and I couldn't stop it no matter what. I tried watching T.V, I woke up my mom, hell I even tried to sleep outside. Nothing worked. My mom realized I was having a panic attack and my dad came out and calmed me down.
After that I started having them everyday. If I woke up in the middle of the night for no reason at all, I would have a panic attack. For a while I wasn't sure I would be able to cope with my anxiety much longer, as it was causing me to starve myself, and falling deeper into depression as my brain consumed me.
I didn't know how to deal with this sort of thing. And one day, I woke up, and I just felt separate. Everything was zoomed out. I could see color but my brain wouldn't consume anything. I wasn't there. I was a zombie. I would just stand there, and silently weep. Standing in the middle of a library desperately searching for anything. Finding nothing.
I didn't know what to do. This went on for a week. I cried every. Single. Day. I considered suicide. My mom had to read me bible verses to calm me down. I didn't know what else to do.
Thankfully I got help and it's over now, but I still never understood what was happening to my brain at that time. But now I know I was experiencing dissociation. Finding Dodie helped me so much with my anxiety. And now thanks to this video I finally found the answer I've been looking for nonstop this past year. Thank you Dodie <3
I've never actually heard of this before but I feel like I might have derealisation because sometimes if I'm having a really negative day (or bad grades or something) I might just zone out for a really long time and not really realise what I'm doing but still go through the motions. The worst of it is probably that it all feels foggy and unreal- like this other time when I zoned out whilst crossing a road. If my mum hadn't dragged me out the way I probably would have been hit.But anyways, thank you very much for posting this! It has indeed been very helpful ^^
Hey so I’m thirteen and I just randomly was walking home from school and I felt weird. It was kind of like my brain was foggy, and I had a sort of floating sensation. I couldn’t concentrate and was shaking slightly. I looked around I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming or not. It feels like things are moving faster and slower than normal at the same time. Would this be derealisation? This was a one time thing for me, and so I don’t think it would be the condition, just a one time brain fog thing.
Happened again, I could compare it I guess to what I would imagine being on drugs is like.
Wow. I have a LOT of issues, lol 😂 but was shocked when you mentioned 50mg and 100mg of Sertraline being a high dose. I’ve been on 200mg for close to 5 years.
I just wanted to add that it’s nice to hear a fellow Brit. Do you also live in the US? Your accent sounds a little softened, like mine has. I look forward to seeing more of your videos xo 🤗
Wow i did not know that this experience has any kind of name until my friend told me about it. You just tell every simptom that I have, it's such a relief that I'm not the only one! :o You helped me a lot, thank you!
interesting. i zone out a lot but never heard of that, i thought everyone else had these moments. there are many times where i'm brought to reality and i'm looking straight at a professor who's asking me a (sometimes not even important ) question or nodding their heads reassuringly, and then i realise i was out (in classes that i really like). the touching really works as well, it brings me back in a blink of an eye (i'm not a touching person all the time). thank you for this video! i tend to tell myself it's all a matter of concentration but i don't know. weird thing is i think my brother has the same issue, worse when he's asleep/sleeping (i can't tell really)
if you would ever make more videos on DP/DR i would watch them all. i find that your videos on this topic have been more helpful simply because they are personal and specific to your experiences rather than trying to encompass the whole spectrum and leaving something crucial out, which then leads me down an anxious spiral where i am completely stuck in DR for the rest of the day. thank you for this
Kati talking about us freezing when we feel like we cant get away is so real. I was conditioned growing up not to run away when I was scared and then when someone actually hurt me as a teenager my body just froze and I wanted to fight but I couldn’t get my arms to move. It didn’t even make sense what was happening to me. I remember just looking at the stars and feeling raindrops bc I was outside and kind of calmly being like “hm. What’s happening?”
I got discharged in 2015, i recently found out, because I dissociated in Group Therapy due to having Avoidant Personality Disorder. They marked me down as not sufficiently motivated. I developed DP months later and its taken them a year to even start anything because of that note. DP has left me feeling hollow, emotionless, devoid of purpose, memory so bad I cant remember the day I've just lived and severed from my soul/identity. The Trauma that underpins my condition is childhood emotional neglect. I find it hard not to believe this is malpractice considering dissociation is so common, they had my history all the way back to childhood and i've never seen group therapy recommended for AvPD. Also I had a reaction to Zoloft so bad it made me never want to touch medication again, and I was also tried on EMDR but I dissociated so it didnt work too :) Basically every time I go to a Therapist or Doctor, they make me measurably worse. I'd laugh through the irony but its really not funny and luckily I don't feel emotions because I'm sure it would be cripllingly depressing.
I didn’t know anyone else had this! I deal with depersonalization a lot more than derealization though. I describe it in that it’s like I’ve forgotten I am my own human person. Really scary, it happened to me once when I was first learning to drive and it put me off driving for yeeeeears.
this video is like.. the most seen I have ever felt. my ex used to tell me that he knew I was getting 'bad' when I'd just repeat to myself 'it's fake, nothing is real,' etc, things like that. I could never remember doing/saying those things though
I see other people doing this, and I don't really have anybody to talk to so why the hell not. I think I may suffer from a mixture of depersonalization and derealization but I'm scared that I'm being over dramatic. It started about a year and a half ago as what I now think was depersonalization, I feel like I'd see a different person every time I looked in the mirror, my mind and body were completely separate, I felt like I was trapped in something I'm not and had a constant feeling of confusion, I thought I was going mad. This lasted for about 4-5 months until it lulled out and I was just left with my regular anxiety, nothing stressful was going on during these months, it seemed to jump out of nowhere. After about a month and a half of normality, I started to notice what I now recognize as more derealization symptoms. Usually when I was out of the house with friends or family I'd feel myself slipping out of the moment and into what I like to call "the test tube" as I felt like I was trapped and completely exposed, just suspended in whatever was going on with no ability to comprehend the situation. I'd struggle to keep my eyes open and everything felt like as you put it, a dream. The lines of reality started to blur and nothing made sense, once I heard my friends whispering, thinking I was high or something because I was so god damn spaced out and too scared to talk about it, I thought I'd gone mad. I'd come home from school everyday and cling onto my dog to feel her warmth and breathing to remind myself that I'm alive, and she's alive and we're here and we're safe and everything's ok. I remember staring at the shower wall completely spaced out, and as I felt it start to fade, I noticed I had tears streaming down my cheeks, I had no clue I was crying. I was so desperate to feel again, so desperate to just be normal I would do things, take risks and hurt myself to see if I could trigger something and be myself again. Thankfully, a few months ago I followed Dodie on snapchat and watched her go through similar experiences, up to that point I'd been too scared to research my symptoms in fear of finding nothing, and surrendering myself to insanity. I know all this sounds dramatic, but if it weren't for Dodie I never would have known this was an actual thing with treatment, and a less upsetting explanation behind it rather than thinking I was actually insane. Now that I know more about this I really want to get properly diagnosed so I can begin treatment as soon as possible and feel like myself again. Thanks Dodie <3 (and props to whoever actually cared to read this far, you're probably really cool )
livisauraus just so you know, if you're in the UK, you don't have to be diagnosed with dissociation to get treatment! In fact, a diagnosis will cost quite a lot, and can be quite unnecessary. You also need to make sure that they don't mis-disagnose you with just anxiety/depression if you don't think that that's accurate. That's what happened to me, and the anxiety went away through therapy, but the dissociation stayed. Make sure you're getting the right help! If you want anymore advice from someone who's been through the system and come out the other end, feel free to message me!
K Murph2017-09-26 07:53:02 (edited 2017-09-26 07:53:42 )
livisauraus You know who the real mad one's are? The people who are obsessed by celebrity, sex, drugs, money, power..list goes on. It's the society as a whole that is sick. You are simply more aware and awake...because if you start paying attention, what most People talk about is just filler and meaningless conversation, There's nothing wrong with us. I've been in this "state" for a year now. Don't be uncomfortable about it..if others are uncomfortable with it it is only showing their own insecurities. Just be exactly how and what you are in any given situation. I often sit back and observe, listen a little and if there is anything important that actually needs to be said then I will speak, otherwise you are just stressing yourself out in order to not feel left out..forget it, you may even lose friends but that's fine, you don't need them anyway. Everything will fall into place. In other words..be yourself. Don't try to fit in.
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K Murph2017-09-28 19:36:36 (edited 2017-09-28 19:46:02 )
livisauraus I'd like to add that I'm struggling too, maybe trying to be overly positive, I know what you mean by not even registering what people are saying and generally being spaced out, like a 24/7 stoned state...I get it. It's pretty damn debilitating admittedly, and it's not fun or nice in anyway..I can probably relate more than I'd sometimes like to admit. I've struggled with anxiety and general social anxiety in the past but never like this, this is something different and far more dissatisfying, whacked, frightening and I feel like I've gone schizophrenic most of the time, like serious dissociation and a sense of complete and utter voidness and disconnection. I get no satisfaction or pleasure out of anything, just going through the motions in order to survive. That's real..more so than what I previously said.. it's just that most people don't get that at all and just think I'm being overly negative but it seems you probably get what I'm saying.
Thank you for clarifying, I must've taken the wrong thing out of your message, I hope you feel ok soon <3
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K Murph2017-09-28 19:51:41 (edited 2017-09-28 20:02:07 )
livisauraus thanks...yeah I don't know what I'm saying half the time anyway.. it's like maniacal babble most the time so..haha..gotta try and laugh sometimes about it. Good luck to you too we'll make it.. it's actually good to know there are people who can relate to this. Not that I'd ever wish it upon anyone of course.
The way Kati talks about trauma makes me think of concussions. Yes, having a car accident and getting a huge concussion can cause brain damage. But, like, football players get little concussions over and over again for years and have even worse brain damage ultimately.
I've been through this for years and years.. Dreams feel more vivid.. Always derealized.. depersonalized comes with less sleep. I've thought about therapy. I hope it goes away. Love and peace to all.
I'm honestly feeling like this is the best community to explain to, and I hope someone understand.
So basically, I've recently been less happy, and I don't feel like I'm myself any more; someone happy and sunshiny, and I don't enjoy anything anymore. I'm not sleeping, and I feel only happy + sad as emotions.
I also have anxiety; I have panic attacks once or twice a week, about things out of my control; often my emotions, my sexuality (I'm queer) or money/my family's money.
I'm honestly just scared. I don't know anymore. Can someone give advice?
im in a constant state of derealization, but it has recently gotten really bad. so i started looking up things about it and found out what DPDR is. so apparently constantly feeling like your in a dream isn't normal...
I'm glad Dodie was able to talk about this and help so many viewers. There is a lot of love in this comment section and I just want to contribute! For anyone who wants to read, this is just my two cents :)
I've personally experienced these things as well as many other things and I am living proof that you can get out of it! People that struggle with issues like these and anxiety and depression: there is nothing wrong with you! You aren't "sick" or anything! Mental imbalance, not illness, is natural in both a physical and spiritual realm. Experiences like these could be a result of sensitivity to the energy, vibration, and the auras of the people and the world around you. Humans are harmonious with Earth just like all animals are and because the Earth is going through a rough time, it is likely that the sensitive, highly intelligent people are empathizing with the planet. Have you ever heard the saying that there could never exist "a happy genius"? Never be quick to jump to the conclusion that you aren't mentally ill or that it is something bad...you could be going through a period of awakening! Remember that everything ends and when it does something else begins. You may not control the physical things in life but you have complete control of how you handle it. Here's some science: Did you know that water molecules hold memory and have proven, under a microscope, that it is affected by positive and negative energies? Bottled water that was in a room with angry, stressed out people showed to be ugly and warped on a molecular level. Your brain is made up of 90% water, so imagine what it is physically doing to your body! In other words, you manifest your own feelings and you are always in control! Besides, being 'normal' isn't always a good thing. You are never alone and don't let fear overwhelm you, sending love and peace to you all!
Whenever my depression gets worse, I get derealization. But I never knew it was a thing untill this video! I thought I was just going crazy. I remember sitting in my room and nothing felt like it was mine. It felt like I was in some wierd simulation of my own life. I just sat on my bed and cried because I'm used to feeling safe in my room and my house as a whole always feels very homey and it's a comfort for me, but in that moment I didnt have that comfort because nothing felt like mine and it really freaked me out.
I think I depersonalized once, I felt like my body didn't quite hold my soul, like it didn't fit me right. Like my soul was escaping my shape and hanging over my head and nothing felt real. I couldn't really process what was happening or what people said to me so I couldn't hold onto thoughts. I was like that for an entire day and it was horrible so it must really suck to have to deal with that regularly
Watching as I suffer from what I call ‘floaty brain’. Basically if I’m in a situation that I’m very uncomfortable, stressed or sad in, my brain just floats off and won’t focus on anything. I would describe it as like having a camera that just won’t focus and as soon as you get it, the focus is gone again. I’ve been really working on my mental health and anxiety lately and I’ve realized that I’ve been also able to reduce my floaty brain as a bonus!!!
I started having intense (to the point where I panic) derealization episodes since many years ago when I experimented with marijuana. It's always nice to understand that others deal with this and see how others explain it as well
I realized about three months ago that I might suffer from derealisation. it was really scary at first but then i looked more into it and i think its just stemmed from anxiety. i have never really suffered with depression or serious trauma, so i still dont really understand where it is coming from. it tends to be worse when i am alone, being with my friends i dont really notice it but when i have been alone for a while i tend to just think to myself, oh i feel like i am dreaming right now. this awareness tends to make it worse generally. some days are better, some are worse. a lot of the time it feels like i am watching my life through a screen, its rlly weird. i dont think this is derealisation, but idk, does anyone know what it is?
For me, it's like I'm watching the environment from a distance and I'm disconnected from my body. My limbs go numb and I can't taste, smell, hear, see or feel anything properly. It's frustrating honestly.
This was so sweet and reassuring to watch. It made me cry, because I didn’t realize how prevalent this “I’m not really here” or “this doesn’t feel real” feeling was in me. I just couldn’t understand why I felt this disconnect. But I think I might be feeling this super regularly, which I’m coming to terms with and it’s pretty scary. You both have such an inviting warm energy, it made me feel so comfortable thank you!
The Big T's and little t's thing suddenly made so much sense to me! I don't suffer from derealization or depersonalization, but a couple years ago I decided to write a short story about a strange experience I had with a sort-of-friend who'd wanted to date me and I'd turned him down. He'd hung a swing at my favorite park for me, and it was a whole mess, but looking back it was funny, so I wanted to record it. Bit by bit, though, while I was writing, I remembered little pieces of things he'd done that fall and another time, things I'd completely forgotten about.
They were moments when he'd made me feel extremely uncomfortable and worried for my safety. Little t's, that had splintered throughout my consciousness that I had entirely suppressed until writing the short story opened the memories back up. They were still jumbled, time-wise, but I now remembered how he'd forced me to sit on the swing so he could push me while he verbally tore me apart for not liking him back, how he stopped the swing at one point with his hot hands on my shoulders and asked if I trusted him.
Another time I drove him home and he wouldn't get out of my car until I undid my seatbelt, and when I did he rested his hand over my heart, despite the fact I was pressed against the driver-side door to get away from him, and told me there'd always be some of him inside me. I'd never thought about self-defense strategies regarding someone I considered a friend before. I thought "if he tries to grab you, break his nose". He didn't. Nothing beyond those moments happened to me. Still, that was enough of a little trauma for me to completely forget it all happened for 6 months.
I never really understood/could make the distinction between these three terms, but this video helped a lot. In fact the definition of depersonalization sounded very familiar.
Love how honestly you talk about mental health, I've just done a video about my anxiety on my channel and REACH 500 SUBS BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS SO THANK YOU!!!!
I HATE derealisation! But it is such a relief when I finally found out what to call it because up until very recently I didn't know what it was called and it was impossible to explain to people.
I have dissociation and derealization all the time. I don't remember the first half of my life because of it... it feels like you're super drunk and you can only recall small snippets of the night while forgetting other parts because you've blacked out.
OMG... I think I may have this... I go into this state of mind where it's feels like I'm dreaming and it's hard to control my body and what's going on... and I start to panic before and after it happenes... I have never heard of this and I thought it was just me... but like everyone thinks I'm crazy when I tell them
to me , for some reason, i don’t feel like i have de-personalization attacks. i feel like i’m constantly depersonalized and i have a personalization attack 😂. that’s when i realize that i’m a person and i have been spaced out the entire time. does anyone relate ?
i’m on sertraline !! it sort of helps for me but i’m in the same position with having no emotions rather than the ups and the downs that i used to have. but i’m going to my psychiatrist soon :)
this video was very helpful. I have had a very hard time trying to find people I could connect with or finding out what I've been dealing with. I have struggle with really bad trama and realized as I got older things started to feel less and less real now it has come to a point where I literally feel as if I'm sleeping and I will never wake up. At first this worried me but now I have a better understanding of what it could be or what it might be. I didn't really notice it when I was younger but now that I think back I did struggle with especially after some pretty bad stuff happened. Thank you for such a helpful video.
when im sitting in class i feel like im just someone else whos pretending to be me its not really like im acting its more like a video game and nothing really feels like it matters cause whats the worst thing that could happen if its all just a halluzination? i feels like im reading a book of someone else but im not actually a character in the story i dont have opinions on things i dont enjoy doing things and when i look at myself in the mirror it feels like im looking at someone else i recently felt so disconnected from my childhood pictures and its not like i dont remember being a kid i just dont remember how it felt to be me its almost like i died a while ago and i didnt notice it and now im just viewing the world as a ghost
It's pretty interesting, I thought a few days ago why there seems to be such a huge difference between ''I can'' and ''I can't'' meaning how it feels when you think about something that you wanna do and you say it with one of those. And I'm thinking what if the T from can't actually comes from ''Trauma''.
I think I have both of these diseases, but I have them just in phases. I never got diagnosed with it, so I can't be sure, but what I feel fits perfectly to the description of Derealization and Depersonalisation.
I LOVE U so much I never thought someone would go through the same things n kind of think the same as me u r my inspiration and one of my fav youtubers
my derealisation is always triggered when i'm forced to perform in front of large groups of people whether that be for a drama piece or playing the guitar. this makes it hard for me to remember what im doing because i instantly go into dream mode and everything around me gets number and darker.
I am self diagnosed as a person with depersonalization, I don't really experience derealisation but I guess that doesn't mean anything is wrong. This video was a lot of help
oh gosh i've been struggling with derealisation for nearly four years now and this is the first time i've ever been given any solid advice on how to get help aaaaa thank u both so much!
A thing I do when I'm spaced out is 'grounding'. Find 5 things you can touch, 4 things you can see, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and 1 thing you can taste. It helps me a lot.
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Kim Pi2017-09-11 18:16:41 (edited 2017-09-11 18:17:11 )
Lana Moore that's similar to what i do :) I eat something Really cold or spicey. Or dance while listening to my favourite song. Or pet my cat and Things like that. And I exercise. I don't know Why but sport Really Really helps in those situations. It kind of helps me to Connect with my body and mind and just grounds me :)
i tried talking to a doctor that is specifically taught to deal with mental health problems, i told her my problems about derealization and that it started before covid and then she goes "covid might have caused it, its been a rough 2 years for everyone" alright great when a doctor denies what you feel and says the complete opposite of what you did
I have depersonalization and its really weird. it feels like I'm just not present, but I kind of am. its hard too describe it too someone who doesn't have it, but you explained it perfectly.
I hate Depersonalisation. I zone out, feeling numb and presser on the body then feeling like things are not real and that your body is not real. I had it when I was 5 and up. I can feel it starting up again
Can you have the text stay up for a bit longer on your videos please? I've noticed a few youtubers recently started making text come and go quite quickly and it's not always possible to pause the video fast enough to read the text . Especially important for something that is giving context and Wil make it more accessible to people. Thanks!
My friend came through that, when she was going through anxiety episode, she had plenty panic attacks and couldn’t go out without feeling detached from the world, she told me that she have felt like she was dreaming, like the ground was falling down from her feet and the same with looking in the mirror- she wasn’t recognising herself, she was seeing another woman. Scary as fukkk and honestly after all the conversations I had with my friend I feel so bad for people with panic attacks and disorders mentioned. I mean, I wish my friend didn’t go through this sht and I can’t possibly imagine how it is like to live like this for more than a year or two.
Also, anybody who has this should try meditation. Whenever I haven't meditated I feel more depersonalization than when I ground myself and mediate, still feel it but not as bad.
My latest depressive episode gave me the top two descriptions more than I realized at the time. It's easy to feel suicidal if nothing feels real anyway. I wish my brain was different in a few ways.
I've always said it feels like I'm always dreaming ever since I was little when you mentioned that it made me realize what might be happening in my mind
I have anxiety/ptsd the worse thing ever is "depersonalisation disorder" I get from it. It is so scary that the best way I could describe it is you feel like you are in VR game but you are actually are in the real world but it's scary because you want to turn off vr mode but you can't. But the good thing you can recover from it, I have. It is the body's defence mechanism to disassociate with the world so your mind can cope with the stress. If you continually tell yourself you are OK and make yourself feel good even if you don't, your body will gradually learn you really are ok and then take you off vr mode! But I stress it is gradual because it is a learning behaviour or retraining of the brain that you are not in danger anymore
I have a question. So sometimes when I’m in a car or on a bus, I get this weird feeling. It’s only happened when it’s moving. My brain feels fuzzy, my eyelids feel heavy and I have an extremely difficult time trying to keep them open. I feel kind of disconnected when this happens. When get out of the bus or car it goes away. This has happened for a couple months. Thoughts?
I think I have derealisation and I think I have for alot of my life. For me because of this school can make me quite anxious and to hide how I'm feeling I just tend to act up around my friends and be confident and obnoxious and be a goof because then I don't have to deal with it. I definitely don't have a full blown anxiety disorder though. I think because i feel like I'm always dreaming, I get anxious that I'm going to bump into to someone or say the wrong thing. That sort of thing. And to ground me, I always have my gryffindor scarf as being a huge potter head (and proud) Having a harry potter item helps me to ground and focus.
I found this after searching up about why I feel as if I'm just an audience unpassionately watching the show that is my life and that I'm not the person I see in the mirror and this video has been so useful for thank you!
I was wondering if I have some sort of derealisation or depersonalisation. Sometimes everything around me becomes extremely fast and extremely loud and intense. Time seems to fly and all sounds seem hyper aggressive. At the same time my own movements become super slow. It's so weird and I can't even explain it but I feel very uncomfortable whenever I get it.
my family and i want to consider private, but it’s very expensive so for anyone — like myself — can’t afford it, i’d recommend getting a referral from a gp and finding any kind of specialist. this has a similar effect to private therapy but it’s more affordable :)
i started feeling this like 6 months ago and its been 24/7, ive been drinking heavily everynight for the past 2 years and im almost 99% sure thats what brought it on, but it goes away when i drink
You're explanation is very accessible, and nearly make it sound valid. It's just that last little leap, to believe what you're saying is a valid way of looking at someone's abnormal behaviour.
I disassociate literally almost every day. I told my therapist and she asked me if I heard voices in my head. I think she was thinking of dissociative identity disorder (DID). Should I explain it to her or just kind of leave it?
I'm not gonna say I have this stuff, but I tend to have episodes where everything feels like a dream and very distant. For a while I would have small moments of depersonalization, and during school years, I would have up to almost a month at a time or at least most of a week I will/would just have empty busy times. In those times I just go through life without thinking and barely remember what happens when I come out of it. I get really touchy a lot and I have a friend who used to physically latch onto people and when she did that to me, I got stressed and had that distant feeling and that feeling usually meant in a few days I would have those empty periods of time. I don't know, though. Just don't attack me, because I'm only saying I have similar experiences and am very paranoid and idk why, but I'm not going to diagnose myself.
My doctor prescribed me 50mg Sertraline for anxiety, taking that tablet was one of the worst experiences ive ever had. It was horrendous. The side effects are not worth it.
I have always felt out of place because of how my head and body reacts to things. I can be among friends and then I just leave my body, I am still in control of movements, but talking and laughing and having emotions is impossible. I can just sit and stare, not really feeling like I am myself. I have never heard about depersonalisation or the other two, but now kind of understand what is happening inside of me, and that it is not just me, but that it is a real thing. Thank you for this.
Personally, I was put on Zoloft and started on 50mg and within a month I gradually moved to 200mg. It was terrible. So, I completely understand what you mean.
does anyone know if this can sometimes be linked to sleep paralysis?? I've experienced depersonalzation at night and I don't feel that it's linked to anything traumatic for me. but my brain gets foggy and I can move my hands but they don't feel like mine so I move them way too quickly. it's really trippy so I turn all my lights on and become wide awake before trying to sleep again because I don't want it to lead to sleep paralysis.
I feel as if I own many different personality traits. After googling this the only thing that was relative was the dissociative identity disorder, however I do not feel as if I am the body of many different people as such, and over all I am just well, me. But I have days where I seem to feel like being hardcore about my fitness and I want to be my healthiest and best looking self, yet other days I do not seem to have the slightest worry about my appearance and take on a 'hippie' identity. I also feel like I want to dress with many branded clothing's- stereotypical 'road man' as some may say, however on occasion envy to be 'edgy' and care free, wearing flared trousers and overalls. This results in issues such as the way I want my room to look, for example, when I am feeling spiritual and 'hippie', I want my room to be covered in tapestries and filled with colour, yet when I switch and want to be seen in a 'girly' way, I hate the way I changed my room when I was feeling that specific, initial way the previous day. Many other issues result from this confusion, and so I am determined to find out why this happens to me and if others may feel the same. Any advice or relation would be a huge help. Thankyou:) I posted this to a question and answer website, before coming across this video and I thought it could be what I think I have- which again I do not relate to fully.. Thought I may get some answers on here too?
This made me realize that I was going through this all the time when i was younger like i would look in the mirror and see someone else or i wasnt living my life
This video has really educated me, I feel sorry for dodie because I can't even imagine what it would be like to always be derealized. Like, how does dodie even sing and smile and dance around if she feels like that all the time?? Poor dodie :(
I suffer from Derealistion and sometimes Depersonalisation since I smoked Cannabis. Also, sometimes I have anxiety/depression and on some days insomnia. It was way worse but I still feel it and I really really suffer from it, I wish I could turn back the time to make it unhappen... Its more dangerous than a lot of people think. Be careful. Now it‘s 6 months ago :(
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* Lee *2018-09-22 05:58:16 (edited 2018-09-22 05:58:35 )
Hi there! Thought I might as well share my story and spread hope to those who need it. Sorry that this is so long ;;; I am 12 years old, becoming 13 in about 2 weeks! Last year in 6th grade, I dealt with awful DPDR. October 27th, 2017, around 6-8 pm. Since it was nearing Halloween, my school set up a ‘Harvest Fest’ where you dress up and go hang out with your friends, and play a bunch of games. I was sitting with my mom, after eating some food. I suddenly felt very off, very stressed. I thought I was going to pass out, so I ran outside, my mom following me in annoyance. She was mad because I left my best friend all alone, but I was in the middle of a panic attack, without me even knowing. I didn’t feel the waves of anxiety, because I had barely experienced anxiety until that moment. I couldn’t figure out what I was feeling. I calmed down, and I decided to go find my sister and forget about it. We were waiting in line for something and I suddenly felt like I was in a dream. I sat down, my mom still annoyed because I had wasted so much time dwelling on this feeling. I begged her to go home early, and that I really didn’t feel good. I wish I saw the storm that was going to hit. I thought that it was just exhaustion, after all, I had a long day at school, and I probably didn’t sleep well. My mom was mad that she used money on me, and I spent like an hour there. Also the fact that I ditched my friend. I then went to a maze with my church friends that weekend. In the middle of the maze, I felt that feeling come on again. “Carly, I feel like I’m going to pass out.” I tell my youth leader. She stops and holds my hand until we regroup with the rest of the group. After what felt like ages, we finally got on the bus and left. It’s all a blurry mess. I barely remember it, I just remember the fear I felt when I felt that feeling. That feeling, I called ‘dizziness’, not knowing how to describe it. A few months go by, and I start experiencing panic attacks in the hall ways at school. I didn’t know this was anxiety yet. I kept going to the nurse saying I was ‘dizzy’. My mom set up a plan with my principals because she was concerned about how often my attacks were coming. We had seen multiple doctors, all because I didn’t know what it was. Winter break finally came, and I cracked it. My sister told me about how in her middle school years, she had experienced panic attacks and DPDR. I did my own research, and boom I found my answer. I went back to school from winter break, a shaking ball of anxiety, in fear of my next panic attack. The next few months were incredibly blurry. My anxiety was so severe that I was always shaking and crying and nauseous. I could barely go outside because the derealization made me so terrified. Everytime I looked outside, it all looked unreal. I would skip meals, I would barely eat. I lost a ton of weight, including all my muscle weight. I was nothing but a ball of anxiety. I had a few panic attacks every week. And some weeks I’d get so unlucky that I would have a panic attack a day. School became a nightmare, as I spiraled into more and more panic attacks, eventually bringing my mom to school because I was so scared. I avoided so many classes, such as PE, I avoided recess, lunch, all because I thought that all the noise and chaos would cause me to panic. I now see that I wasn’t actually scared of the noise, I was scared of the panic I would feel. It got so severe (keep in mind that through all of this my family was trying their best to help me, and I was getting counseling) that I lost my personality. I lost my happiness. I lost it all. DPDR overcame my life, every single second of the day was me worrying about that feeling of dreaming. I related panic attacks and DPDR to death.. but wait. There’s always a light ahead. I kept seeing my counselor, I kept visiting with my principals. I never thought that this could happen. But I began to cope with it. I found tricks and tools to distract myself, and my best friend was there for me through it all. She would sit there and hug me as I cried on her shoulder. She would tell me that everything was going to be okay. She made me laugh while I was bawling my eyes out. She made me go outside at recess, which I hated her for that. At first I was so scared, I would not let her leave me alone for more than a minute. I became so dependent on her. But she began to leave me alone more and more, and I obeyed. I let her go and play with her other friends. And she gave me the time I needed to think. Then after recess was over, she’d walk me right back to line and we’d walk inside together. Eventually, I’d wave goodbye to her, as she played with her other friends, and I would visit with some of my friends. Lunch got a lot easier, and I was able to sit with all my other friends. I became stronger, and DPDR would try and ruin it. I put it at the back of my mind. And it worked. I stopped dwelling on it. I got up, and kept walking. Now here I am. Almost a year of suffering with DPDR. Now, when I feel DPDR, I welcome it. I’m not scared of it anymore. It’s so insane how I got so low, that I related this horrible feeling to death. And now I can just say a little “hello, can you leave for a second?” Whenever I feel it come on. It’s hard. But you can get through it. Do not ever give up. DPDR is only a feeling, and it is uncomfortable, but eventually it’ll go away, you just need to let go.
Ruth Webster As someone with very bad DP and DR, I'm very happy you want to learn! :D It's so hard to deal with an illness that isn't as well known as ect depression cause people look at you as if you're insane. You seem like a cool person :)
It's been 4 years for me, thank you thank you for speaking out depersonalization! I relate some much for wanting to feel something familiar. You keep thinking you have to go back, somewhere. Gosh girl keep strong, don't know how you are now but I am wachting this in 2018.
@Lily Stultz hey! I'm still in it for the majority of the day, but I have learned to live with it more, although it is very exhausing especially trying to explain it. Funny I saw this notification coming in just yet. Diet helps, a lot. Why do you ask? Do you experience it was well?
@Pauline Baets yes I’m currently going through it as well for a second time. If I may ask how old were you when it started and what caused it ? What have you tried to help it ?
@Lily Stultz Second time as in an episode? I haven't experienced those, for me it's almost a permanent state. What caused it was a burn-out, but I am almost sure I lived inside my head most of my life, so it's hard to pin-point. I had a moment where I didn't recognize myself when looking back in the mirror it was awful. Since then it has never really gotten to a point where I do, but I am getting closer. I was 22, now just turned 29, a very hard journey. if you want we can talk on telegram? Hope you are doing okay x
@Lily Stultz And before that trauma, I've never had a mom and was left in the hospital after birth for a few months so I think it had to do with me not being able to ground from basically the beginning..
@Pauline Baets I experienced it for the first time when I was 17 for about 2-3 months and recovered, went 2 years without it and now a stressful event triggered it again and it’s been alittle over 3 months and I’m still in the depths of it. Im terrified I won’t recover from it this time.
@Lily Stultz Sounds awful I am sorry to hear it. Look up monocular hydrogen it is helping me currently. I'm doing breathing and drinking the water from Holy Hydrogen, but it's very expensive. It opens op my brain slightly.
What do you experience, like do you forget everything? I do all the time, but it used to be worse. It's scary. You've snapped out of it before so it will happen again at some point! I would say the beginning for me was 90% and now it's about 40%. There are so many versions of depersonalization. If you want to talk more just reach out.
I'm pretty sure I have at least a minor form of derealization cause for a few years I've been feeling so out of it all the time, I constantly feel like I'm asleep, even my vision and hearing seem worse than before (a lot of times when I'm talking it feels like ny voice is coming from somewhere in the distance) and anything I feel or should be feeling is barely existent, I feel numb most of the time. I also always forget things I don't know if it's a side effect, but I literally just forgot what I was writing. The thing is, I can't think of anything that would be the cause of this. The only trauma in my life was my dad leaving us, but I was little and don't remember feeling that terrible or anything.
Yeah I didnt know there was a word for this, it's weird to hear someone explain a phenomenon you experience all the time and have tried to explain to others
oh my god this happened to me for like 2 hours a week ( sometimes more ) at a scout meeting because the people there were people who i didnt get along with ( Whole large can of worms, i promise its a whole lot worse that that ) got it sucked, they kept like almost yelling at me to pay attention and I couldnt get an expression or emotion to appear on my face or for myself, it sucked and I couldnt really feel, and then I would get really sad suddenly for a couple of minutes, and then I was really happy and hyperactive for the rest of the meeting argued w/ my mom after a couple of months but i finally got out of it omg it sucked so bad, but now ( according to my mom ) Im the happiest iv ever been I do feel a lot better tho very grateful my mom got me out of there- O have really bad anger issues and was very close to snapping multiple times
I had this since one month ago because of my first smoke of weed, the right thing it’s that i don’t have it all the day, it just comes whenever it wants to appear like I don’t control it, but i don’t have it all the day so that makes me feel more connected but yeah, i can say that it’s like you’re in someone else’s body but with their information and their remembers.
I’m gonna go this Wednesday to my first therapy I hope it helps to me
You're comment at 2:40 about liking having ups and downs because it at least meant you could feel reminds me of the song "I Miss the Mountains" from Next to Normal. Great show about some really difficult topics. Check it out.
yeahhh i heard you say sertraline and just wanted to add my lil ~two cents~ and say that i was on sertraline for like two years for anxiety and it just kinda suppressed it, basically i could still feel it to the same extent as before but just couldn't really have full anxiety attacks, it would just come out in small daily bursts and i had to stop public school because of it straight up also ruined my mind, my depression flared up rly bad, the cognitive part of my brain kinda stopped working as well (it got really hard to focus and long story short i basically couldn't properly read for a year), i zone out more, and just a lot of bad things bc of it,,, i'm honestly convinced a large part of it is because sertraline isn't FDA approved for general anxiety in my age group (it's only kid-and-teen-approved for OCD)
or just in the words of my music instructor, zoloft and prozac kill creativity
I have both. I've had panic attacks before because of school. I felt like I was floating and dreaming a bit. It was really scary at first. I felt like I was going to pass out.
Im going through derealization right now and it’s definitely a scary experience. I think talking to someone who is going through the same problems as me will help. So hmu
Thanks so much for making this, it's great information. Extra thank you for the TMS clinic link, I'll pass it on as I know of a few people who like me didnt even know if it was available here <3
I literally took edibles and had the most traumatizing experience in my life. Now I feel like I have derealization and I’m not connected with everyone 😭. I feel terrible. It’s just a constant battle with me and my brain including anxiety.
This helped me a lot, I've recently been feeling a lot of depersonalization, I don't feel like myself, when I sing I don't sound like myself when I talk it doesn't seem like my voice, it's such a strange feeling, I just don't feel like me?.
I would always experience derealization a few days after smoking weed, it was absolutely terrible. I stopped completely, thank god. Then again, I could be completely wrong because my childhood was very traumatic.
I've only really come across depersonalisation and derealisation from this channel, and fairly recently. A little while ago I remember an Instagram post from dodie, and the caption was about derealisation, and I remember just thinking.. oh. I never really noticed it before but I kinda of zone in and out of the world without realising, but even then I thought it was just me being spacey until a little while ago. I was sitting in my room, playing just an average, repetitive game, and I suddenly realised how detatched I felt from just.., everything, I guess? It was like my emotions had just disappeared and I was just on autopilot. I played that game (bearing in mind it was iloveyoulikeafatladylovesapples.com) for over half an hour, until I messaged my friends because I thought something might be a bit wrong. I don't know whether I actually have it, but my friend says the symptoms align, and I found that noise really helped me. Like I had zero motivation to talk aloud, but then (this is going to sound sappy I'm sorry) I started playing music, and would you be so kind came on, and I just started quietly singing because it's like instinct for me, and I kinda came to myself a bit more?? Sorry, this post is a mess. But yeah, I think I'm going to look into it a bit more
I’m pretty sure that I fall under the derealization but not depersonalization category (unless I drink, which Im not a big fan of). It’s in waves and especially when I’m driving (probably not the best timing) BUT I enjoy the feeling. I feel calm, safe and separated from reality. I DO have to open my eyes a bit but I’m not sure if I feel like I’ll fall asleep or if I’m trying to wake up?
It IS VERY common that I believe dreams are real memories and vis versa!
It happens also if people are having intense conversations with me and I have to act like I’m intensely listening but I’ve disconnected. It also takes over with sickness but especially death. I never knew it was different than how other people process.. thank you for this informative video
I don’t know if I’ll do anything with the information but just knowing that it’s not as common as I thought is interesting.
Sometimes I feel really detached from my surroundings and my self but I don't think I have dp/dr. Sometimes I wonder if I have social anxiety as I really struggle in social situations, like my stomach knots up and I sometimes I feel like I'm gonna cry or throw up. I don't have many friends because i never speak up or get involved at school and I blush when I do... or maybe I'm just nervous... idk??
Ps this video was lovely and you two are adorable 💗
Anxiety and panic attacks can cause dissociation (which is sort of the umbrella term for DPDR). it can come and go in association with other diagnosis.. I hope that helps and makes sense :) xoxo
Has anyone else experienced this, where you feel insanely disconnected from everything and everyone. Like those few seconds where you’ve questioned life too hard and you suddenly realize that you’re alive and you’re a person and you’re technically insignificant. But then that little spaced out moment grows and suddenly it’s all the damn time. You look at your friends and the connection you have feels like one of a stranger. You look at them like “who are you??” It’s the same with family as well. Like after a good film or book when you’re adjusting back into your own world and everything in reality seems distant. It’s almost like you’re unsure of where your soul lies in your body.
I’ve never done drugs lol.
I’m gonna think about it more and talk to my therapist about this new feeling but I’d like to know if anyone understands.
When I'm in situations that make me anxious (like being in crowds or presenting a speech) I do that thing where you don't feel like you and the words come out of your mouth but it doesn't feel like your actually saying anything or thinking of what your saying or doing it just happens. ? My mind just feels completely disconnected when it happens. Would this be depersonalisation? Knowing what it is would be really helpful
I am currently dealing with the same thing, except I’m not taking any medications. I haven’t told anyone except for a close friend, (who suggested this video to me). I relate greatly to things you have said. I used to have lots of anxiety around people, but now I’m basically watching myself with other people, not controlling myself. I’ll say things and then I’ll think “who is saying this? This isn’t me” and I just can’t control it. I also understand what you mean by not feeling any emotions. I find myself not caring about anything anymore, not feeling that anxiety in my chest when I’m stressed, or feel happy when people tell a funny joke. It’s all just a mask so people don’t get offended if I don’t laugh at a joke, or I just want to make someone feel better and don’t actually physically feel bad for them like I used to. (Physically meaning like if you get that feeling of excitement and your whole body wakes up or when you’re sad and you feel like you’re in the worst health ever.) I feel like one of those androids. That I’m just... a thing. Programmed to have a “personality”. Not feeling emotions. That I’m not a human being. That I’m not alive. That I’m just... there.
If you’ve read this entire thing, I appreciate you taking the time to hear the story of some random person on the internet. I am only a teenager, so I don’t really have the confidence to tell anyone who can actually help me and get a therapist, so I do research like this. I appreciate this video so much, it helps me understand what I am going through.
Ender Wiggins I think that's the normal kinda zoning out you get when you're doing something repetitive? I do that when I draw, and I don't realise until I put my pencil down, but when I get anxious I can literally feel myself disconnect from my own body and sink into the back of my mind. It's a scary feeling when that happens
For me it happens when I’m learning in class, it’s really bad because as I start to panic I scratch my arm until it bleeds because I get really nervous, I need to stop that.
The marble explaination is scarily accurate, one that is very big for me is like if I find a perfume I wore at a period of time and steel it it brings me straight back to how I was feeling at the time and it's very scary
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I've always struggled to understand what is wrong with me, what's happened to me, and I could never understand... Everything in this video has happened to me.. I am scared to ask my mom to go to the doctor for this .. Idk what to do.
Some occasions it happened was two car crashes, stress during exam times and before my driving exam.. but sometimes it'd just happen because if depression
This video was really helpful. I don't feel that I have two personalities, but I often feel as if I've locked another version of myself in a room somewhere and force him to bottle up all of his emotions and never let them out just so I can walk around unburdened and numb. Kind of like automatically numbing all negative emotions and bottling them under extreme pressure and never letting them out, only building more walls around them. If I'm feeling emotionally distressed within an hour or so I will be back to being numb and logical, as if the thing never bothered me at all. Pretending like you feel nothing definitely still hurts you, even if at a subconcious level.
This is probably stemming from emotional trauma I had as a child, and I'm planning on starting therapy next year.
I think I have a small form of depersonalization, when having a panic attack if I look in the mirror I don't look like myself and I just freeze up and stare at my reflection. Can anyone relate? I didn't have a word for it until now.
Lol - I have these and have had them for years. I'm talking from before I was even 11 years old. I have physical illnesses and have been told that they're all due to mental illness before which is not true and so now I'm terrified to talk to a doctor about my mental health problems which has escalated to a point where I have suicidal urges on a daily basis.
@Maša Dragana Stanisavljević mental health is most important. I was in your shoes 9 years ago when i was 15. And i never got help and here i am 9 years later experiencing life through the same glass wall
Wish there was help like Kati out there for everyone =/ I've done 40 sessions of TMS and while it helped my depression unfortunately it doesn't last....
I used to be really depersonalized (is that a word? Lol), but since I started taking b12 supplements I started feeling much better, I hope it works for me. (I’m not saying that works for everybody, but in my specific case it has helped me, since I am vegetarian and was possibly deficient)
Kie T yeah. I think I have derealisation a lot but when I'm not, I'm just nothing. I don't feel. It's weird and lots of my friends have depression so understand what I mean but they don't understand it's confusing and I'm rambling and making no sense.
Lucas M I sometimes feel that way whilst high and have breaks from smoking during those periods (usually when life is hard and i get paranoid af) but rarely feel that way apart from after terrible days or bad news... it sometimes does but i'm not sure it's linked to smoking but stress/anxiety which i suffer from a lot..have you had any treatment or is it solely linked to smoking?
I have cptsd dissociation and when my depression is bad I can get depersonalization & derealization really bad it's like being isolated in a bubble and there is no feeling of reality like watching a tv screen being projected onto another screen it all feels weird and not right. As a little kid I did not recognise myself in the mirror either and hated my reflection, avoided it activily for most of my childhood. Also have a very stong sense of what I look like, and it's not what I really look like outside, internally I see myself totally differntly. I witnessed alot of violent fights between my parents as a very small child.....my dad was alcaholic or self medicating with alcahol and my mum has undiagnosed mental illness so she was always going balistic at him. It often got physical and my mum would often storm out the house screaming she was going to kill herself and drive off like a bat out of hell not retun for hours. I think i was still in diapers then so under 3.....it contiued until i was older, by mid teens it was not as violent anymore but still they argued constanly which triggered me.....i once had to jump out the car as an adult to vomit when home to visit, when they started argueing like they used to in the front of car, an emotional flashback i guess. I also get a very weird thing happen to me sometimes......as I am walking I see someone I look at them and study them I spiral into thoughts about who they are why they are dressed that way speculation about their lives etc and comparing them to me and also making judgements about them. All this happens as they walk by and as they keep going and get further away from me I feel like something inside me is being pulled along with them and I get a physical impulse to follow them and it's a real wrench to pull away and break free of that spell and carry on my own way instead. Is this part of all this......or is that a hyper focus thing?....I also have adhd. I use a small stone or i squeeze my hands alot....maybe that is a way for me to ground. Really fantastic video, thankyou......I was really freaked out when I discovered what this was I was experiencing I am glad I am not alone with it anymore. :)
I get this sometimes,mostly because I feel I fall short. This is why I put so much of my self worth in my employers hands, my boyfriend and your music has helped with this.
I see you have done many on this horrible condition and I thank you. Mine is so bad when I get it I would never be able to smile or talk on camera, so it's strange to me to see someone that is able to do that while having it. I'm guessing there are many different degrees of this condition. And I have never received trauma therapy and never considered small "T"s. I've taken Benzo's for this for many years now. Would love to get to the root of it.
Thank you again for continuing to present educational videos and for being YOU, Katie. When I'm having bad anxiety I will often just turn on some of your videos as you are so calming.
i don't suffer with depersonalisation/derealisation but this video was SO interesting as someone who literally envies kati's job (i'm doing a BSc honours degree in 'psychology with counselling' so maybe one day i'll be a licensed counsellor/therapist!!!) and as someone who has depression and anxiety/ptsd. love love love your mental health vids dodie x
I’m having a bit of a struggle getting my parents to comprehend that depersonalisation is real- if anyone with super strict parents has figured out a way to get treated pls contact meee
After suffering from extreme DP/DR for more than 20 years...i have found the cure. Im like 90% cured. 1. Affirmations (repeating words/phrases that directly address the thing that made you dissociate in the first place) 2. Aswagandha (calms you down) 3. Meditation (re-connects/re-wires your brain and calms you down) 4. C.B.D Oil (calms you down) DP/DR is part anxiety and part trauma. Dealing with anxiety will eliminate most of it if not all
I like that Katie talked about T and t Because looking back on my trauma I think all my traumas where t that just built up and make my disorders. But once talking to my therapist about my trauma her reactions to it made me realize those were a lot of T and then a lot of t
Do you think that derealisation can happen when you're simply tired? Cause I don't have any mental problems (I used to have, so I know that right now I'm ok), but I often feel like everything around me was a dream :P
I always have derealization, its not fun. I dissociate quite a bit as well and sometimes that couples with depersonalization which is quite honestly tortuous for me and I always have just thought something was wrong with me. I've suffered with it since I was about 3 and I have entire chunks of time that I cant recall (ex: I cant recall any of my middle school years.) It is so incredibly relieving to know I'm not alone in this.
i didnt know what it was at the time but i had long phases of depersonalisation between the ages of 14-16. i thought i was just depressed. i used to sit in the mirror and draw my face over and over. now looking at those drawings is terrifying bc i can feel exactly how i felt in that moment (also because theyre a bit shit lol). i dont know how or why it went away. i think it might have had to do with me starting a new school so my brain was like “cool, a new environment... i feel safer here” but idk. i just hope i never feel like that again
This video was so...educational and interesting. Like even if you don't have derealisation/depersonalization or mental illnesses it's good to watch. Honestly there needs to be more videos on mental illness because people fail to understand that it's not controllable sometimes and that you don't have to have trauma to cause it. It'd be nice if people tried to understand how difficult it is to get up in the morning and sometimes we're incapable of doing things because our own brain stops us from this. I was hit with OCD(a form of anxiety), bipolar depression, and sensory overload(your brain amplifies certain sounds and or visuals like chewing, slurping, plates clanking, high voices, bright lights, etc. and it irritates you to the point of anger and frustration) when growing up. It was the result of genetics, abuse, neglect, and trauma. Dodie was one of the reasons I even got help. My OCD comes into contact with my depression at times. My OCD, when rituals are broken, everything feels uncomfortable and I get angry and smash things or feel like something bad will happen. Then I have a mood swing from sad, happy, or energetic. I'm at my best when I'm energetic but that too can be a problem. I sometimes spend money I don't have or do things I'm incapable of. The depression is extremely difficult and I've endangered my own life numerous times but I'm better now and still getting better. When I first told my doctor about my symptoms I was so scared because my family didn't and still doesn't really understand mental illnesses and I'm thankful for how understanding my doc and therapist is. It's getting better and whatever you're going through, you will get through. If you try. And trust me it's worth trying. It's hard fighting with your own brain everyday but you CAN do it. 💖💖
My trauma is from bullying,in primary school I was bullied every single day, from day one to the last day sometimes only a few comments and sometimes I was beaten up or surrounded by bullies and shouted at, in highschool it was just as bad so for basically years I was bullied non stop, beaten physically on a few occasions and emotionally isolated from my entire peer group, I'm nearly twenty and still have severe night terrors sometimes though not as bad as it used to be, I also have had bad relationships and interactions with other men when I identified as my birth sex, trauma really likes to pile up and it affects me now when I meet new people or talk to anyone, even family.
Going through this right now. And I'd wish to be anywhere else. The people that used to be the closest to me don't seem real, neither do I. It's awful. Thank you so much for this video, it's good to know I'm not alone
I'm coming back to watch these videos for a second time because now I think it relates to me... Lately I haven't been feeling like the world around me is real. And almost every time I speak it doesn't seem like me speaking. It's as though I'm watching myself and my life in a movie. And it's super hard for me to be present in moments and my memory of moments is splotchy and if I do remember some flashes of moments it's as if I'm remembering a scene from a movie, not my own life. Right now it's not too bad but on Wednesday I almost had a panic attack because of how unreal I felt. I've needed therapy for multiple reasons for a long time but I've never seen a therapist. I really really want to get one asap though cause I can't deal with all the anxiety and derealization by myself 😳
I recently realized that I have derealization, but I'm positive that I haven't experienced trauma of any kind that I remember, unless growing up in an argumentative household counts, but now I'm trying to think back if it started when my dad died (I didn't watch him die, but I wasn't able to see him that often when he was alive so it didn't feel real) anyway, it's affecting me a lot in school right now and I didn't know you could go on medication for it.
Just to say, because my counsellor also seemed to think 50mg of Sertraline was a really high dose, it isn't, it's the lowest dose you would be prescribed. If it makes you feel weird straight away, as it has a few people, I've known, stop taking and report that to your GP. For me, it helped at a point when I badly needed lifting out of the mire but yes, it levelled out and numbed a little. I didn't want to read books anymore because I didn't get to care enough about the characters. Though that's a big, big downside, it lifted me enough to start thinking about my situation and what needed to be done about it. The worst thing, I think, has to be, that you're prescribed something and that's it, job done. It needs to be stressed and stressed repeatedly by GPs that this is a way to lift or level your mood and then, more action will be necessary. Provision isn't there in the way that it should be but, ot should be stressed that this is step one on a journey to recovery. I'd spend money in vets bills that I wouldn't spend on therapy before I knew that. Priorities. I still care for my pets, don't worry, it's just, it makes you realise. The provision should be there but isn't. Skimp on something else if you have to. Priorities. If you can't afford to, push for help and for heavens sake, don't feel guilty no matter how much you tell yourself you ought to be fine. You deserve help and it will get better.
Ok but the sudden deep look dodie had in the camera at 8:52 kinda looked unreal like a person in a dream breaking character, breaking the fourth wall, creeply acknowledging you.. but I guess this video really puts you in the mood for stuff like this
I'm doing this thing..where I'm creating a little vlog/diary thingy about my mental breakdowns. Like, the dates I'm feeling depressed and wanting to self harm and stuff. I've only recently wanted to officially self harm today. I'm just hoping to go to the doctors and receive a diagnosis because I really don't know what I'm feeling and I just need an explanation.
Hello dodie <3 I was just listening to old Demi songs and stumbled upon 'La La Land'. It would be so perfect if you did a cover, since you love the movie and Demi! Sending lots of love, you're one of my favorite youtubers. <3
i have depersonalization on a daily basis, but i try to use it to my advantage and i view my life kinda like a tv show, and i think: "if a character on a tv show did this would i think 'no don't do that'?" so idk, when the derealization starts thats paired with the derealization and it sometimes it resembles psychedelics like having a 'bad trip' while sober, only it happens a lot and I've learned to live with it
I think i have this. I’ve been trying for years to figure out what was the matter with me. And every time i wake up it all feels weird. I feel like a roam everywhere. Thanks
I think I've been dealing with depersonalisation or derealisation, I also think I have anxiety so that might fuel it. Basically I start to feel like nothing is really real and I'm not really there, I can't think properly if I can think at all (you know that weird little thinking voice you have, sometimes that kind of just,,, doesn't,,, exist,,,). I used to just get a few five minute ish moments, but recently (like today and right now oh god haha) I just haven't been here for hours on end and I can't really focus or do anything properly, I can't even remember anything properly. I found that people holding my hand or playing with my hair helps a lot, idk why but yeah.
I sometimes wonder if I have derealization/depersonalisation. Because there are times when I feel like I'm trapped inside myself and I want to be there in that moment but suddenly it feels like everything else is distant and I'm just watching things happen from some far corner inside myself. It just happens suddenly. It can last for long periods of time or just come and go in snap and I'm back to being more or less okay. But when that happens, when people try to talk to me or when something happens I go blank like I don't know really know how to respond because it's like whatever is happening isn't really sinking in so even if I'm there it feels like I'm not but the thing is I don't think I've ever experienced something that would cause me any sort of trauma
I had derealization and the whole 9 yards. I remember feeling hopeless last year searching video after video just wanting every thing to end. No one believed Or understood what i was going through not even doctors. I been in your shoes and God sent me to tell you. Everything will be ok, you will be healed. Plz hold on and dont give up. I know your pain! It is scary! But God got you. I never thought i would heal but i healed…If your diet is bad and you dont get enough nutrients plz look into that! Big factor of what cause mine was malnutrition and lacking minerals.. Also idk for sure if candida was the cause but i was taking cold delivered probiotics highy quality..Also exercise is important i would walk around my apartment complex…barely able to walk one lap the first time…because my panic attacks were so bad. If you are lcking nutrient plz be careful with fitness..Also be around love ones it helps so much! I love yall plz dont give up i know the feeling of giving up…but dont your worth more than that!! You can make it out! Also try juicing cucumbers melons apples and stuff high in h3o2. You could be dehydrated. Idk specifically which one is to blame but i focused and those four things. You will be healed I love you dont give up! God put me through it so I could come back and help others! You got this!
what does it mean if i don't really feel like it's a dream but i just feel like... idek how to explain it. like you're watching tv and you're looking at the screen and you know it's real but.. you're just seeing it through a screen. or you see it and you also feel like you arent seeing it, like you're seeing it in your head. is that... the same thing?
I think it's dissociation. You feel like you are present but nothing seems to make any sense. That's what I had like I couldn't see anything as the information registered in my mind.
This is similar to how I feel. It's definitely hard to describe. Kinda like everything I'm seeing is through a window like it's there and I can see it but it's on the other side of the window.
I just sent this video and your other video discussing your experience with derealisation to my psych teacher in hopes she uses it in reference to the chapters on it
Okay, so the feeling that they are describing makes it sound like that you feel like you're having a sort of out of body experience but still seeing through your physical eyes, which is what I feel like more than I'm not. However, I don't understand why they make it seem like it's such a negative thing. I like the way it feels because it helps me do things that I can't normally do when I don't feel like that, such as jump off a bridge, or run into a house that's on fire. It's not that bad
I have this I didn’t know how to describe it till I watched your videos . I tell my close friends and close family members that I don’t feel like I’m me and when I look in the mirror it’s not me and I’m always looking from other people’s eyes and never threw mine. It’s probably the most frustrating thing i’ve ever experienced it’s constant. I don’t feel like myself and I feel like I’m a stranger and I’ve just recently changed Body’s and this is not me. Looking threw my eyes it feels fuzzy and sunken.
So I know that where I live we have Psych majors in Universities doing therapy programs fit to income and as low as $25 a session. All of their work is overlooked by their profs and I've been told it's a very affordable way of recieving certain types of mental health help. Obviously it's not gonna be the best of the best but if there are people who need to at least start their journey it seems like a good place to begin.
I realized I struggled with depersonalization/derealization recently when I took my first dosage of my adhd medication. Day one, about 90 minutes in, I finally felt "present" in my own body. Like I could feel and interact with things and people. I loved existing. Like Ive always felt this "disconnect" from life, almost like those states where you slightly wake up from a dream and the memory is still there but it feels very far away. Like a zoomed out and blurry picture. I felt like I was playing a first person video game of myself (not exactly "out of body", but I didnt feel like I could properly take hold of my own body either).
Recently tho Ive been feeling blank again and idk if it means the medicine isnt working, or if its because of the depressive episode Im in, but its a journey. And its a journey I feel proud to share with so many inspiring people like Dodie and Bo Burnham.
For me I feel like I am watching a live recording of someone else’s life through a phone screen, through their eyes, watching it through mine. I know that really it is me, but sometimes I doubt that.
I also constantly feel like I am disconnected from the world, like I’m not really there. Time goes slow and the world around me moves on without me. I rarely feel emotions, and the emotions I do feel aren’t easy to identify. I guess everyone’s brain is like a canvas. Some are painted with bright acrylic paint, and it’s easy to tell what they’re feeling, whereas there is only a bit of paint on mine. On my canvas, there is just a bit of watercolour paint, smudged and faded into the canvas. Sometimes I wonder whether I feel any emotion at all.
Can everyone have depersonalization once in while? I have had it happen to me a couple times since I was younger but I thought it was just like an out of body experience and everyone had those sometimes.
watching this again I feel like some of shanes fans might come here and be like OmG shEs iN shAnEs jAke pAuL sEriEs instead of watching the actual video you know?
I experience derealization and it can get really annoying It feels likes the events that are happening are not really happening to me right now
I remember one day I went with my dad to the movies and at that moment I had derealization, I remember he helped me get downstairs (because we were sitting on some stair chairs) and he helped my by holding my hand And even though I love my dad more than anyone in this world, I felt like that moment was not really happening I felt like nothing that was happening had any impact in my life I felt as if I was watching a movie and that didn't happen to me I wanted to feel guilty, and that is weird to say But I wanted to feel guilty because I didn't feel anything and my dad means a lot to me And right now too, Tomorrow is Monday and something is gonna happen and I've been really excited about it but right now it just can't seem to me that tomorrow is monday
And what makes matters worse is that I have anxiety too So I don't believe it's Monday tomorrow and it feels like the hours are not passing by and it's not real But I am also concerned and trying to convince myself that tomorrow is indeed Monday and I'm really concerned
So apt that the advert that popped up is that movie downsizing, as when i go into DP/DR limbo, i get this weird feeling of altered perception of size and spacial
P.s, intregued to see how cbt goes for you on the disassociative front, as i dont feel it'd help me, but could maybe take inspiration if it helped someone else 👍🏽
I have depersonalization and derealization, until now and I keep this to my family, only some of my internet friends knows. I experienced this when I was in 7th grade, I'm really scareed, and super pale that time, bcs me & my friends are talking abt ghost, and yes. I got depersonalization/derealization, bcs of that. On my 8th grade, I deal with it and didn't bother what's going on to me, living my life to the fullest. Summer 2018 (my worst summer) I'm really depressed the WHOLE SUMMER, i got more & more pimples, I don't eat that much, and thinking that I'm living in hell, bcs I feel that I'm not here, i feel everything was dark, and I pray, begged him to heal my mind or rewind those moments, I'm sooo fucked up. I tried thinking that it's better to die, but I'm too afraid to die. I'm too young. Moving on, I'm in 9th grade, and I still have depersonalization/derealization, I always remind myself that the whole things that I see is true, and don't invest your time with depersonalization/derealization thunking that you have those just TRIGGERS your mind, and sometimes i felt sooo unreal, but i know it's all true, and LASTLY God give us these disorder bcs these has purpose, to make us stronger! Ya'll it's 2019, Let's live our life to the fullest!
I know you probably won’t see this but if you do then I’ll just say that for a while I’ve been doing this thing called breathwork, it’s like counselling but instead of talking you do connected breathing and emotions can come up, sometimes they don’t but usually it does. It’s been so great for me so far, I always struggle to get there as my brain is telling me to hide instead of facing my problems but I always feel so relaxed afterwards and more myself and I can feel my body and how great it actually is. I’d highly suggest it!!! It definitely helps if you feel comfortable with the person leading you through it, I know I wouldn’t enjoy it with anyone other than the lady who takes me through it. Also I love you so much and how strong you are!! You inspire me so much and your singing is just amazing and makes me wanna put more time into my singing!! Also I’m from the Blue Mountains in Australia (so I live near Andie and I’ve seen her perform and she’s just amazing!!) Thank you so much for being you xxxx
this was a really nice and informative video but also I just have to say that Kati has a very sweet smile like I'm blown away at how cute she is (also Dodie but that's always a Given)
I have never thought about this topic or even heared about derealisation and depersonalization but it sounds so familiar ... I have always felt very strange since i was a kid, time was always something strange for me 30 minutes could be 5 hours. That’s better now, but still i feel very familiar with this topic. I don’t have lose of eye sight or something like that. Could it be possible for someone with derealisation or depersonalization to not recognize it ?
i think i might have derealisation. most of the time i feel like nothing is real, or i forget that i exist in the world, and sometimes i feel like i’m floating/disconnected from my surroundings, and i get a feeling of complete numbness. it’s not too extreme, but it definitely gets worse during my episodes of depression. i want to get help (more so for depression and anxiety) but i’m scared to talk to my mom about it (she’s says i’m too young to have it), and i’m not sure if i could work up the courage to talk to a therapist :(
Ok so occasionally I go through these periods of a few hours or si of just being numb and not wanting to do anything except sit there and sometimes cry. And once i was with friends at the time and one second i was fine, and the next I was not and I felt like I just couldn't move or reach to anything. The worst part was how guilty I felt because I felt I should be hangin out with them, but I didn't have enough stregnth to give myself that push to going back to normal. Does anyone have any ideas what causes this or what it is?
I know there is a very small chance of dodie actually reading this but it has to be said. I’m so thankful dodie has made this video. Even speaking about this is so freaking helpful. I’ve been struggling with the same sort of symptoms so I went to my doctor and she thinks I have it. If dodie hadn’t made these videos about depersonalisation derealisation disorder then I wouldn’t of know what it was. I probably would of thought I was going crazy. But I don’t and it’s because she speaks out about it. This is so incredibly useful mostly because even the nhs website doesn’t have information on it about this disorder. This is the video I’ve sent my parents who didn’t understand it because I didn’t know how to explain it. So thank you dodie. You’ve helped so many people and I hope you realise how important and wonderful these videos are :)))))
I've had feelings of depersonalization since kindergarten and I told the teacher who called my mom up concerned. I'm 18 and I'm still having those feelings. My mother wont hmbring me to a therapist and I've talked to doctors who dont seen to care. Its really effecting my life and now that I'm suffering with a chronic illness it's gotten worse. I dont know what to do. I feel like I'm watching my life through pov goggles and like I'm not really there and just going through the motions. I think about this is my body that woman is my mom who I love and I almost can't feel those attachments as well. It's scary. I dont know what to do. My mother was abusive and I constantly had to stop her from killing herself from a young age. First time was the 2nd grade when she tried to shoot herself in the head. That's just to name a few. I dont know what I could have forgotten to protect myself if I remeber those things, but I dont feel quite right. I feel like I'm losing my mind and nobody will listen
Bella asdfghjkllkjkjhhfdut hey I hope you are ok. I understand what you are saying. I lived my entire life in a dis functional state and didn’t realize it until I turned 40. I’m 44 now and can comprehend how terrible my family was to me. Get some healing now and don’t give up until you find the help you need. Take care 💞
Can someone help me figure out whats wrong with me?? I have a constant state of feeling like I'm forgetting to do something (when I'm not), or that I should be doing something else. I'm often not content with anything I'm doing or feel uncomfortable with things i accomplish. Sometimes I feel better about it and other times it spikes, often after I go out to have fun or a major important event happens in my life. Can someone associate this with anything?
Hannah Lewis+ Sounds like it's rooted in anxiety but it really needs a pro to tell that with any confidence. It spiking after positive emotions might be some sort of rebound as your emotional state returns to normal.
Don't worry about whether you're normal (to quote a therapist, "What's normal?") it's whether it creates problems for you that matters. Ruminating on it will probably just make it worse by making you more anxious.
Hannah Lewis seems like you are comparing what you do to others thus causing you to feel like you're less than or something. Everyone is the same don't compare yourself to others because no matter how much it seems someone is content and always so called "happy" they aren't. Most people front and suffer in silence. There's nothing wrong with you.
the problem is that the only people i can talk to about it are like my parents but in the past ive gotten bad reactions whenever i was completely honest and thats kind of been one of the trauma things for me
So I think I have derealisation. I don't feel like I'm dreaming ALL THE TIME, but it happens more often. But I have no idea why. I can't remember having experienced anything traumatic.
I also have the feeling that my "seizures" aren't triggered by anything, they're just there sometimes and then I feel weird and then they go away again. I just want to know if there is such a thing without a trigger and if I am the only one who feels that way or if I am just crazy ?
(I’m from Germany that’s why my english isn’t perfect 😅)
Grateful for all thar vulnerability that is being shared in the comments. It is very courageous of all of you to be reaching out for help. You are strong (and I'll just remind myself too: I am strong) Xx
A loved one just died and when I got the news I felt like i was a passenger in my body. I was watching hands move and it didn't feel like me. I would look at my mother and it almost felt like I was pretending that I had known them my entire life. Overall a very strange thing to experience.
I feel like I don’t really exist. It’s like I’m seeing myself as someone outside of me, like how every person seems to me. I wish I could see myself from their perspective, like a person.
When I look at my mom, it’s difficult for me to believe that she is a living person with her own mind and thoughts... and that everyone else in the world is the same. They all have thoughts and experiences making everyone different and unique.
I wish I could look at myself through another person’s eyes. Maybe then I could see how I’m a person as well, with my own mind and thoughts.
(I typed the above in the span of... maybe 3 minutes? I just typed what came out of my mind after watching. It may not make sense to you, but I decided to type it anyway, just incase any others may be having the same feelings 🙂 I hope every here is doing well these days :D)
@nayely perla I honestly forgot about this comment! Since I am only in my early ages, I have not really been able to get help. I actually tried explaining it to two close relatives, but it seems like they don’t experience the same. It may seem like that would put you down or make you feel sad, but really to me I was happy for them and it reminded me that this probably will not last forever!
(Typed about 3 minutes later after getting water:) Now that I think about it more... maybe it has gotten worse? I had an important test today where I had to physically go to my school, and I felt really disassociated, but I just put it aside. My performance on it could have been better without the spaced out-ness.
(After thinking more:) Maybe I overthought it. I have no clue anymore and I have gotten lost in my thoughts... This was all over the place. I guess that is a representative of my mental health now 😞 Maybe I just have to go to bed. I hope things brighten up for you ❤️
I was actually happy ... because I loved my life, I loved my friends, loved to play, loved to draw and listen to music. It kills me. It is really difficult to be happy with this state! I know it’s difficult, but I’m not going to give up
i’m watching this while dissociating and i started crying and then panicked because my brain got confused as to why there was water coming out of my eyes LMAO
I cut my hair, and I'm going through depressing depersonalization. I don't feel like me.
I'm not sure if I have one of the others, but sometimes when I'm in water, and I close my eyes for a second, i feel like suddenly I'm drowning, and everything is blank and black and my body has no control over me. It might be because when I was a child i almost drowned, but it scares me a lot.
Sometimes I feel like Im not at my house when I am at my house and I find myself yelling "I want to go home." or not in the place I am, and that might be because of how when I was little I would be dropped off at my grandma's every week and cry because I wasnt at home and I was really scared and lonely, but I'm not sure it's too major.
And sometimes when I see flashing lights, it doesn't hurt my brain, but it makes me feel lost and panicked and I see black and yellow flashing around and my breathing is heavy and I can't feel my body and everything is out of control.. but idk.
So. Dodie. I recently have been struggling with questioning my sexuality. I'm a Christian in a Christian home and I'm demisexual/asexual and I've always said that I liked boys. But idk. Girls are cute. And sweet and soft and they smell nice and they give soft hugs and AGH. but like. I feel wrong. Like. AGHHH IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN. idk. Okay. Lemme try to make sense of it. Because of my Demi/asexuality it's hard to differentiate between friendly and romantic. Cuz I want to cuddle my best friend and I've kinda wanted her to kiss me before but idk if I wanted it in a romantic or platonic way. Because I don't want to date her. But I love being around her and being with her and cuddling and hugging her and holding her hand. But I don't really wanna like. make out with her or date her. Idk. Help?
Trigger Warning Please please please help. I had my lowest point last night where I thought about getting drunk to numb the pain or running away for the night (I follow all the rules and have never contemplated those things in my LIFE) so I texted the crisis text line. It helped for the night and I didn't do anything irrational.
Today I just feel numb. I feel like I need to tell my mom what's happening. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I went to the bathroom and when I looked in the mirror, I could feel myself losing the nausea, the memory of last night, the guilt, all of it, and it terrified me. It is terrifying me. I don't know what it is and I don't know what to do. I'm having trouble focusing and remembering and I'm scared I'll never feel again.
It's stupid to say, but there's this guy I really like and I want to be able to love him, but I'm scared that if I'm stuck like this, I'll be numb forever and never get to feel the joy I felt before. I want to feel again. All of it. I don't even care if it's bad anymore. I'm just so scared of feeling nothing.
so i have depersonalization, but i’ve kinda got used to it, so i’ve just accepted that i haven’t felt like myself or a real person for a long time and i might not ever. it’s not really that bad, but sometimes i have little spurts of when it gets worse (that only last for like 10 minutes)
can you have all three all at once? I always feel very spaced out and constantly feel like I'm in a dream. However, there have been times (like when I fell face first onto an escalator in the mall, or when I failed my test and my teacher read the score out loud to the whole class) when I have a brief feeling of being spaced out but at the same time all my senses kind of go numb and I don't feel like my hands are my hands or my legs are too long for my body. While all this is happening I also feel like I can't sense anything around me (which also happens constantly throughout my day). So idk if I'm describing something different than dissociation, derealisation, and depersonalization, but it sounds pretty similar so could I be experiencing all three at the same time?
Started first session with another new therapist after years. She thinks I might have this problem. Have been dissociating since being a child. Also have emotional deregulation problems diagnosed years before. I hate these things. I do not like the highs and lows of the emotions at all, there is nothing nice about it whatsoever. Anyways, I really like your channel. Hopefully this therapy will work and therapist thinks EMDR will be beneficial.
WTF!!! You just described something I wish could have been diagnosed that has lasted almost my entire life. I was just randomly watching your vids trying to not feel ill from the stupid amounts of alcohol I've been binging lately (there are like 18 or so empty bottles of wine in the corner of my room atm), then saw one of your vids titles, thought ''Derealization is a cool word, wonder if it's a video game, hope it's on PS4'', or some innocent shit, what I heard on the video was ''Yeah, you know that thing that you've been suffering with badly for your entire life, but couldn't get any doctors to try diagnose you because you're a pleb at explaining, yeah that's this thing mate, lmao''.
I jduganasmddsd... WAT?!!! O_O
I had a traumatic psychotic panic attack like 10 years ago and got sent to a mental hospital against my will thinking that I was being poisoned by my family and the doctors, and that they were trying to kill me. There was no point that I was correctly weaned off the effects of that, and it was shortly after that the Derealization and Depersonalization got worse (there are two points before that where it grew in intensity without reverting). I actually had a few short lived intense bursts of it, one was when playing a game with a friend, it grew so strong (for perhaps a couple minutes) that I actually wasn't sure if I was real, as in, despite being pulled into this weird state from an immediate point of relative normalcy just a moment before, the intensity of the feeling was so strong that I couldn't logically overrule it as me having some weird brain malfunction, so I told my friend that I wasn't sure if I was alive and that I never cared, then I just stopped playing the game and let the enemies hit me while staring blankly off into space before returning to normal. It was a state so strong that if it persisted, I would simply have died shortly after, I would have felt completely indifferent the thought of death and probably would have thrown myself down the stairs out of curiosity of my indifference shortly after. Luckily it reverted as much as it came.
Apart from 2/3 intense bursts, I've had days where my constant state of Depersonalization is so bad that I refused to enter simple conversations with friends, purely because my head was completely unable to articulate anything other than responses of just a few words, and I'm so scared of actually looking mentally ill. I'm so glad I can now try to get this diagnosed, thank you Dodie, for the first time in a long time, I'm feeling genuine happiness that I can get help with this.
zoloft did something like that for me too. my doctor kept boosting my dose and it just kept making it worse and then they took me off of it and now im still just as bad as when i started meds. so that kinda sucks
It's like a mushroom trip that you are stuck in. But it's like....time stops. It stops and you are so overly aware. You feel everything so deeply and meaningfully. You see everything at face value first...but there is no one there to express this to or reassure you that they feel the same way. You are alone....in everything even when surrounded by people. It feels like everything and everyone that matters around you disappears, and you aren't allowed to be too loud because someone important is sleeping in the next room and they have responsibilities, so you can't even disturb them....even though every morning feels like you are burning in hell for something you can't even remember doing ....and the feeling lasts as each minute passes. It ebbs and flows determining on how distracted you let your mind get. Your only relief is reading books that deal with spirit like the bible, or other religious practices...obsessing yourself with facts and education or work or the abilities of the mind body and soul....trying your hardest not to feel like you're in hell or being punished...or part of some reality that is false from the one you were raised in. Your only feeling of life comes from everything you are thankful for because .....when you allow yourself those moments, you get a brief relief from the ongoing truth that no one knows anything really...everything is a construct....and life is a mystery...and that's okay. I have to remind myself that it's all okay....that I'm blessed to live in a safe country, I have food shelter etc.....and if I open my heart....only good things can come. Even if it's scary. It's the practice of mindfulness....we create our own hell. Being a very aware and loving spirit is a great thing as long as you can find a way to discipline that fire rather than run away from it's intent. We are able to create our own dimensions ranging from hell to heaven etc. We can create our own realities...we do it accumulative, as well as alone. We are powerful beings, we just need to educate ourselves on how to utilize and effectively discipline that energy so it's not be wasted, but dutifully enjoyed. <3
Help, could you please make a video on how to deal with depersonalization derealization disorder at school? I'm a teenage student and going to school is very hard for me, mainly because there's so many people there (i think). also, thought I'd write this down: whenever i come home from literally anywhere, i feel really weird and as if nothing ever happened in the first place... It's hard to explain, especially because English isn't my first language, but it's sort of as if everything that happened became a blur and it was for nothing. i also get that feeling when there's a lot of people around, especially at my house, who I've never met before or who i don't feel comfortable around. The first time i noticed this feeling was, i think, when i was a child and i got home after a long day spent over at my friend's house. another childhood memory is around Christmas when people came to my house to sing me and my family some carols, so i was surrounded by people that i didn't know(which has always been overwhelming for me), and i got a strange feeling as if i couldn't connect to any of them at all. I still get that a lot, and i remember it happening a lot in the past as well, many times during Christmas and just normal days where I'd do what every human does. It's weird.
as a person who has battled depersonalization for about 2 years and and recovered- just every time you have that terrifying thought just embrace it, don't fight it, dont even give it a single bit of attention. just embrace the anxiety and fear of the thought, without pushing it away and just get on with whatever else it is you're doing. as soon as you start pushing it away and thinking about it it comes back stronger and stronger, whereas if you dont give it a thought you start to become accustomed to the thought and the physical symptoms relieve as well. Trust me This is the way out!
and just remember youre not crazy, youre just stuck in this thought loop fucking cycle, you will get out of it it wears away, just a matter of when- which all depends on you just getting on with things and embracing the thoughts and feelings. dont avoid, dont over think, not a spare second dedicated to it and youll get better.
I kind of got this after a philosophy lesson. We were talking about what real knowledge is. So some philosophers think that we only need our 'ratio' to think but I was like huh about what are they gonna think about if we only have our minds. I think we need our senses but senses are subjective so we can't be absolutely sure if that's real knowledge. I overthink in general a lot. But does this mean that I may be the only one in the world because without my senses there's nothing. Well after this lesson I just felt like nothing was real and I was dreaming all the time. Ugh
My depersonalization/derealization was so bad in middle school, I would have moments where I would stop in the middle of the hallway and just have complete amnesia for a few seconds. I know it sounds like bullshit but that was a very bad time of my life, and I think it was my body's way of staying "sane" to just tune out for a couple seconds. I would forget where I was, who I was, and just absolutely everything around me was so surreal and scary. It all came back momentarily, but I never knew when it was going to hit me. Thank god that's over! If anyone out there reading this gets these moments, change your life. If you're in an abusive home, run away. Judge me all you want, people who don't have abusive parents, but I wish i ran away. It took me getting kicked out to realize i needed to get away from there.
I wish all people would just watch this and understand what I mean when I try to explain derealization and dissociation and ugh. Literally no one I have ever met has ever understood what it is except for my mom. It’s just so frustrating especially when people are like “so you dream all the time” like ugh
Guys I know this isn’t super related but if google doesn’t help I go to YouTube so here it goes because I don’t know if this is normal or not: I’m still twelve years old and I can remember anything from my “past” if a twelve year old can even have a past, Ive seen this with old people but I can remember that much of what happens to even just days later and I often only cling on to a few memories that are really sentimental. AND I tend to have some times where I’m really spaced out and in the classroom (when I’m spaced out) it’s hard to focus no matter how hard I try. If you were wondering i have had no bad things have happen to me and my family is amazing. SOMEONE SMART HELP ME.
Riley Brinson adhd? ADD? Ask your parents to take you too a therapist. If money is an issue, most cities have free ones. It isn’t shameful, and they are there to help. Don’t be embarrassed. It’s very common. Good luck!
So I think I have this?? I don't really know, I want to talk to my mom but sometimes she´s like "you are just finding out diseases that you see on the internet" or stuff like that and this really sucks because I can't enjoy my life when I'm spaced out and I really hate it. Thank you so much for doing this video, I'm going to show this to my mom and ask her for help<3
im 23 and i think i have it . my friend was in a car accident and that triggered a panic attack and i believe that triggered this. now im stuck feeling like im me but not me and i just want someone to be like yes i know what youre going through and no your not losing your mind
I have had it for a long time now and I have sorta learnt to control it. I smoked weed last year first time and it gave me a massive attack and took me a while to get over.
i have been searching forever for some sort of treatment for my dissociation/derealization. this is really done well! but i feel like.. nothing triggers my dissociation? i just randomly dissociate throughout the day. especially if i’m bored and i don’t need to use my brain. :/ idk. i’ve had it for a year and it hasn’t gone away. i even have a therapist, but it reaaallly doesn’t help as much as i wish it would.
Idk whether this is derealization, I call it spacing out because I don't like diagnosing. If I've had a panic attack or I'm panicking it feels like my consciousness has been booted out of the back of my head. I had it when I thought about reincarnation or anything to do with anxiety for me- it was an immediate zoom out and I was panicking without feeling anything properly. I hate it. I hate knowing that there is a condition because I feel like I can't ignore it.
I.... think this might actually be what’s up with me???? I have all of these symptoms that don’t fit into things or I was thinking it was like several different things but they ??? literally all fit into this???? Hopefully I can get a therapist soon and then also hopefully they actually know what this is so... agh!! Thank you Dodie <3
i tend to dissociate? or maybe derealise? im not sure which one exactly but i guess i'll say "severely space out" when i'm too stressed about school or a bad social setting (too many people around me and feeling suffocated, for example). my brain just makes me go somewhere else and i feel hazy to get through whatever is stressing me out. but that doesn't sound trauma related to me so i dont know if that's what it really is or if it's an anxiety thing or what
also i have a difficult time accepting my body as my own. i tried to talk to my therapist about this but she didn't exactly get it. :/ when i look in the mirror, my face isnt my face. looking back on old selfies feels surreal. even laying here right now, my legs don't look like they should be mine. this has led to some troubles regarding eating and whatnot because im constantly trying to look like what i think i look like in my head but idek what that is.
sorry for rambling on i just wanna get this out. thank you for making this dodie
I toggle between all of the 3 D's. It gets worse when I'm stressed or tired or upset. I went through a lot of emotional abuse and manipulation as a child. I have moments where I just don't recognize myself. I have to ask people "Is that really what I look like?" I don't have a mental image of what my face or body look like, so I often compulsively look into mirrors to remind myself. I know things like "I'm pale. I have black hair. I have green eyes." But, I can't think about what the features look like specifically. I have to see them to know. I have moments where I feel like I'm having a stroke because my limbs and face tingle, and my brain just feels foggy. I'll be driving somewhere and go into full-on panic mode because my eyes will feel too heavy, and I feel like I can't keep them open enough. I get scared I have a brain tumor or that I'm going insane or that I'm about to go into a seizure. I have to put in genuine effort sometimes to feel emotion or respond to situations. I just feel numb a lot of the time. It's not fun. It makes me feel defective.
i really feel like i have mild disassociation and synesthesia but i don’t want to self diagnose and my family doesn’t believe me. if someone is reading this i just want to ask for your opinion. is association with words and colors and letters and colors some mild form of synesthesia? for example a- red o- blue i- yellow consonants sound quiet and sharp and feel solid but also like airy. however names or words, like: noah- it’s not really blue, it’s like deeper, but not like shade it’s just more bloe than blue like the difference between soprano and baritone sophie- is blue and yellow but not mixed but like swirly it’s not like a taste or visualization it’s just an association. i don’t know what this is but i would love some advice if possible.
i think apart of my periods of derealization has to do with my not being able to focus on anything, due to a.d.d. i’ve been diagnosed with depression and g.a.d., but neither depersonalization/derealization nor a.d.d., so i cant be sure if the a.d.d. is making something that i might not have worse
My husband went blind and left us. It is awful and I’m heartbroken. He was abused as a child and loosing his vision supposedly caused this. It’s so awful he’s has a lot of people who have negatively impacted his recovery. I lost my best friend
I don’t know if this is actually me or not or if I’m being a bit of a hypochondriac at the moment, but I feel like I have derealization. I feel like I’m on auto-pilot all the time, like I don’t control the words that come out of my mouth or my reactions to things, the only time I feel like my brain snaps back into place and I can be aware is if I’m alone or stressed or sad, typically and that kind of sucks because it’s like I’m not “awake” to enjoy the happiness all the time, and I kind of want to be but I also don’t want to deal with having to react to things manually, being disconnected makes it a bit easier.
So I dunno. Maybe I’m just talking myself into it. But something about Dodie and Kate’s explanation rings a bell.
for me physical touch doesn't work, if anything it can be worse, because i don't like touching in general, but when i'm in a state of derealization i don't always control how harsh i can sound so if someone who knows i am not a touchy person touches me i can say something rude and then i feel horrible. i tried to open up to my mother about me experiencing derealization and depersonalization and it didn't go well because she said something like "i knew that something was off of course it's because i raised you" but she's actually the one who often pushes and guilt trips me when i am visibly numb. so i just decided to not talk about it with her any further
I find myself not doing fun things because big crowds give me anxiety and I feel like really dissociated and can’t enjoy it, even if I go to a different crockery store and can’t find something sometimes I feel dissociated it’s so weird, I’m going to try to push past it soon for a music festival but I hate having to deal with it. I even had it as a kid
Long time weed smoking can lead to a whole number of mental health elements depending on the thc vs cbd content.
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I relate alot to this, and I often feel so spaced out and like I am not myself. I told my mam and she just laughed and said I was probably just being dramatic or making it all up, it turned me off telling anyone and I am not even sure if I have it because I don't trust self-diagnoses, but I really don't know what to do!?!?!? Should I tell someone or just get over it (I have been having this for nearly two years now)
I think my worst problem with experiencing derealisation(other than ya know, dissociating for weeks at a time) is that I know exactly what triggered it but it wasn't traumatizing in any way. It was like a switch in my brain which caused panic attacks that lasted so long that I numbed my emotions into derealisation and it's just confusing.
I have told my mum how I feel (like everything is a dream and how I feel like my mind isn't connected with my body) and have told her multiple times but she hasn't done anything. I really want it to stop but hooow?
Maddy Bennett you're mom is not the one who needs to do something, really. If it's to a point where you think you REALLY need help- go to the docter, go to a therapist. You can do those things on your own.
Maddy Bennett If there's a counsellor at your school/college, you can go to them. It's almost totally confidential, your parents do not need to be notified unless they'd like to refer you to a professional therapist or something of the sort.
You could also go to the doctor and ask to talk to them alone. You can then talk a little bit about your experience with depersonalisation/derealisation and they may refer you to a therapist.
I don't feel like I'm living, its like im watching a movie of my life through my own eyes(like a dream) I feel like I may have derealisation but I dont know... it did seem to show up after extremely stressful situations (divorce and then losing a parent). I always start to panic because I cant remember correctly I cant feel correctly, I feel numb but not numb because i do sometimes feel mad or really happy or really sad but I just feel numb again after. short bursts of feeling + dreamlike life = what the hell is happening
Depakote which is a mood stabilizer used to treat migraines actaully really helps I have severe migraines and alot of like anti depressants said may increase disociation episode and so I was getting actaully more depressed and my migraines got worse cause I wasn't eating and they kept me on it started me on depakote and things started to change and when we finally stopped the antidepressant suddenly it was like this relief and I was feeling and connecting and not just floating and watching, I still had anxiety because it still happens alot but the combo of it and an anti anxiety med helped with talk the combination of talk therapy and writing but thank you Dodie for sharing
Some days are so hard but luckily today I'm managing. You'd think I'd be a queen at dealing with this shit after 45 years of having it! At least I know I'm not alone anymore and never will be. The internet has been my lifesaver
It's such a weird thing because it's not something that actively hurts, it just scares you and leaves you hollow because you know it doesn't feel right. Coming from someone who feels it.
I am coming here in 2018, I do not know if anyone shares my situation, in the middle of my degree I completely failed an internship and my semester as a consequence. I feel into a depression and I took a year out, I have been going to therapy, I was diagnosed with depression (Of course) and anxiety disorder. I never truly disconnected from my own body or feel uncomfortable in my own skin, but I have always had times when I was "somewhere else" , or "in another planet"(but confortable with it) and came back thanks to someone waving at me, being ridiculed in class or someone saying something to me to come back, according to my therapist those are casual "depersonalization" techniques my brain has used to deal with my anxiety and that happen as well during very stressful times in my life, including my internship, some essays at uni or exams where I also made a lot of mistakes because I was somewhere else without realizing while still working or writing or listening to something which I confuse myself with afterwards or completely forget. This is a very stressful truth for me and I find it hard to deal with, if anyone feels similar I would really appreciate a comment or something <3.
is it almost like feeling you're in a video game? i get that sometimes when i feel kinda vacant and like i've just been plonked in a virtual environment and it's not actually real and i'm not really there?
oh my goodness, i take zoloft!!! for the first month or so, i had some wild dreams. one that i distinctly remember was where i had woken up from a dream, amd i recognized my bed and my room, but everything seemed too bright. almost instantly i was pulled back into a dream, but i thought it was reality because i noticed that i had "woken up"
I feel like doing certain things can trigger something for me that is like depersonalisation. For example, I absolutely cannot do makeup, even slight things like doing my eye-brows, because when I see myself in the mirror it freaks me out and I don’t feel like myself, and I just can’t put up with it
I have only experienced episodes like this only about 3 times spread out in a long period of time. My most recent one came out of the blue and I think it was due to stress but whatever does it mean? I don't know if it was actually derealization or dissociation because I only got it a few times. Can anyone let me know what they think?
To me it feels like I'm blind even though I can see. I'm constantly scared that my vision will be gone cause I keep questioning everything I see cause nothing seems real and I'm scared that I'll turn blind and that my brain will shut off my vision
oh my god why I've never seen this before ???? I'm a big fan of dodie and katie's videos always help me ASF, especially during a hard time I had a few years ago. why am I watching this so late :(❤️
Hi dodie, you probably won't see this but I just noticed that you haven't uploaded in quite a while now and I hope you're okay. Don't feel pressured into making videos if you feel you can't- just do what's best for you. I really hope you're doing okay, and just remember you're surrounded by people who love you and care about you :)
The visualization about the movie Inside Out really helped me think about somethings.. they should come up with a second movie about something like that..
I wonder if some mental illness things are physical symptoms of spiritual pain. I felt like this today and feel like this sometimes when I feel super tired. Like it's not a tired feeling, it's that everything feels fuzzy. I also just had two tests so I wonder if it's anxiety that doesn't know where to go.
it feels like im stuck in a dream or i might be in a simulation created by aliens to test me. i know that sounds really unrealistic but thats how i feel. i also have very unrealistic thoughts and if i think too much i actually believe it is real and it is the most frightening thing ever. i get so stressed about it everyday and i feel like my thoughts are getting more severe and unrealistic. i need help
dodie i think that I am asexual but I know no one that is and the internet is not the clearest thing and it would really help me and others if you could bring light to that side of lgbtq+
I'm not an expert on asexuality, but I'll give you my limited knowledge as best as I can (I don't label myself as asexual but I do tend towards asexuality) :)
Asexuality is when you don't feel sexual desires or attractions, but you can still feel romantic attraction to certain people. It's not black-and-white though, sometimes asexual people do engage in sex or feel certain sexual attractions.
Sexuality is fluid, so it's not a problem if you end up identifying with something else, and you don't need to stay within the strict "confines" of asexuality. Good luck figuring yourself out! xx
I would consider myself a grey asexual. Thing is, a lot of people don't consider asexuality a thing, they think it's some made up 'special snowflake' gender thing which is sad. A surprising number of people don't even think you can be bisexual, you're either gay or straight. So when or if it comes up in conversation, I tell people that I just am not interested in sex, and don't find people sexually attractive. It sends the message across without the stigma that comes with other names. If someone is nice or more understanding, then I'll tell them I'm a grey asexual.
K Murph2017-09-26 07:45:08 (edited 2017-09-26 07:45:52 )
I'm 30 yrs old now and have zero interest in sex. Only interested in the person and intellectual sorts of things. If it comes up I may use the asexual thing but usually I just say I'm not a sexual person.. I'm a guy also. I tell people just eat chocolate, it fuels the body with the same chemicals that sexual thought or activity does, and saves you the trouble of accidentally having kids or getting some std. If someone doesn't understand it that's their issue.
I just cannot be really really happy when I should. Like, even if something amazing happens I just cannot feel the happiness, even if everyone around me is happy. It's weird, and partially sad, but I often have mood swings switching between super-happy and the "can I just shut down my self-sabotaging brain" mood.
i am experiencing derealization but i don't think its bc of a trauma i went through is that normal or does my brain just denying the trauma ? thats scary af
My head does this thing where I can’t process anything. It’s worse sometimes than others. I could just be in the middle of class and almost fully stop thinking. During the really bad times everything gets fuzzy and tingly and almost dream-like. I usually can’t remember a lot that happened. During a more normal time I space out and have to think about things multiple times to process it. This is a lot less dream-like but still kinda fuzzy. During my best times I usually only think about things once maybe twice and can mostly pay attention. This usually isn’t dream-like and not that fuzzy. It scares me because I feel trapped inside my head. I don’t know what it is but if anyone knows please help.
I think I might have derealisation, but like ive always had it? it's only really bad now and I always feel numb and I space out a lot and nothing feels real. sometimes it's really bad and I'll harm myself just to feel or to feel real. when I'm at school, however, the stimuli helps a lot and I feel more and I feel more real but I still space out or feel disconnected sometimes while I'm there. but I mean, I've never really had any trauma, but idk
most of the time i feel like in a dream and nothing is real like i am about to wake up, sometimes i can’t recognize my hands. also i can have small hallucinations, i’ve had a bit of trauma in my life. I dont know if it could’ve caused derealization. i didn’t know this was a thing until a few months ago, i thought huh i feel like i have this but more recently i’ve been experiencing more my life feels like a dream.
Question: I think I have both. I don't recall any big Ts like being abused or a car crash but could a type of trauma be someone occasionally hitting or shouting at you as a child and then if someone does it when your older but not as harsh could it bring that trauma back and cause dissociation? Also is it normal for me to feel better by self harming as it makes me feel in control and not as numb? Or is that stupid? 😶
I realize this is old so I doubt anyone will reply but please help I have a question, I constantly feel like I'm in my brain I'm never there and I'm a constantly thinking about the past, future, or neither I'm just pretending or hoping to be someone else. Like when you watch a super hero movie and afterwards you feel invincible it's like that but I watch sad movies and animes and shows so I feel like I am that character and I feel as if that everything that's happened to them has happened to me as well when I lived a happy joyfull life. The worst part is ik it's happening but I can't help but feel this emptyness Idk maybe this has nothing to do with it but it would be really nice if someone can help me identify this BC it's gotten pretty bad.
I have this al the time i think :< and its much worse when im tired or when i go somewhere where it's very busy with a lot of noises and colours(the market for example) . As if my brain can not handle it. And that's when it gets much worse all of a sudden
yeah I was only in 5th grade when I got this, I’m in 7th grade now and it’s getting worse. I feel like i’m going crazy and i haven’t told anyone yet. they will think i’m crazy and i’m not a loud person so i don’t talk much. I just want to feel like a normal human. It stated when my parents fought until 12 a night, I heard everything they said.
i watched this video when it first came out and ive been feeling so weird lately. now my hands dont feel like theyre mine and i just feel like im walking round in a daze or a dream and ive just remembered this video:(
Ok but seriously. I have just had a door opened for me. The way you explained this explained how i have felt for a while. I feel like nothing is real. I will look around my room and be extremely confused. I will look in the mirror and think is that really me. I don't know how to explain the feeling how i have when i look in a mirror. It feels like that isn't really me.
I will randomly drift off throughout the day and people will talk to me and i wouldn't have heard a thing they said. I can see their lips moving but i cant hear anything except for mumering and mummbles. Should i tell my therapist about it or is it just me being stupid and not paying attention in life?
Im not sure if i have any of these but i have bad depression and sometimes i feel like im just in a dream floating around it feels as if im not controlling my body or im not me. Theres always kind of this numb feeling but ive never suffered anything super traumatic before so im not sure what it could be
I am beginning to think people's version of derealization is not what I think it is
See I had a phase in like last month (not drug induced - surprisingly), where nothing felt real, there is this undescribable feeling I got, thought it was derealization - it's clearly not and I can't find any words to describe it.. It's like I could feel the worthlessness of everyone around me, like my body generating its own organic cocaine - I would imagine (never done cocaine before)
See its basically a dreamy trance where I have full control and consciousness, I could understand reasons for decisions people made, I could view things from everyone's perspective, understood the workings of life, how everything and everyone reacts to everything else and all their fears, I felt like a king
For the first time I could actually feel mom's love, her fears and worries, how people unconsciously wanted to be treated and misused, a euphoric (yet depressing) rush of absolute awareness, I stare into my lad's eyes and it was like I would be having a conversation with his inner being, I must have looked very awkward, but I didn't care, I could boldly say, I was a god and understood the rules of mental manipulation. I'd like to believe I still do, but I've lost the feeling completely and without the feeling it's really hard to implement any thought into action
It was basically like my dream but with actual consequences. I have been trying to duplicate the feeling ever since - with no success - I heard people got derealised on weed, and considering it is illegal here and with dire potential mental risks (and I've always imagined the weed high to be exactly what I feel when I'm happy, I'm always able to achieve the generic high people get - so I believe) I was willing to try it. But now I see this...
Electricity through your brain or frequencies or something.... Bruh that's some scary shit. Maybe what I experienced wasn't really derealisation
(sorry if there are spelling errors or word misuse - it's too long for me to go over again. 💝)
i don't know why that was suggested to me but i've been thinking about that recently. i feel that i sometimes disconnect from my body completely and it feels like i'm watching from outside hearing myself say things without really having much control over it.
I'm begining to think I'm going through dissociation and derealization, sometimes depersonalization, but I'm scared to actually say I am? I don't want to self diagnose myself, but my parents don't really want me to go back to a therapist (we tried many for depression and anxiety after they found my journal but none were a good fit) and I don't know how to ask to see one or a doctor.
possibly triggering content ahead Many times I feel as though I'm not apart of what's happening. I cant feel and I cant think and talking is really difficult. Its hard to move any part of my body, including blinking, and I find myself staring at a fixed point and I can't look away. It becomes hard to feel any emotion or feel anything, like I cant feel my hands or feet or any part of my body. During these moments it feels like I'm floating and I can't ground myself. They make me so so scared but I think I'm more afraid to talk about it then to just suffer through it.
I honestly don't know what to do but this video kinda...opened my eyes to that 'yeah this might actually be what I'm going through.' But then theres the other side of my head thats just saying its because of my depression but I'm just...not sure. I'm sorry for dumping this in the comments, but I kinda needed to get it off my chest...
Once I was lying in bed. I just... sorta zoned out. And I forgot what I was doing, as I had just packed my suitcase because I was on holiday and about to leave the next day. When I was talking, I didn't realise I was talking, and I didn't know what I was saying. It made sense and it was something I would say, so to the person I was talking to it would've seemed normal, but to me it didn't sound like my voice. It felt like my brain was controlling me without myself having control if you know what I mean. So I would say something, and then suddenly notice that I had said something, and not know what I said.
When I packed my suitcase I didn't acknowledge that I was doing that etc. I just did things, without thinking. Without being able to think.
I’m pretty sure I have this. When I’m either stressed or have just been thinking about life, I feel like I can’t open my eyes wide enough or I’m still half asleep. I can’t focus on anything anyone says and sometimes I even pinch myself to see if I was awake or not. Is that what it is? Even my parents are always like “are u okay? Are u even listening?” Also, I’m like the most forgetful person ever.
I have been suffering from this since July 2020 and things have recently started to get better. Here are a few things I had to say to myself to heal.
1.Life is really just life it is not meant to be understood entirely. 2.Life is very real and you are experiencing it for the first time so therefore it may feel confusing and strange. Because it’s a new experience! 3.Give yourself a break from all your questions. You are a product of life. You coexist with life so therefore you are real. 4.If you weren’t real than you wouldn’t be able to even think. 5. One thing I learned is that I have been repressing my feelings for too long , therefore I faded too far into the background of life ( you reading this you do have feelings as long as you are alive you will have them! So even if they feel numb that’s not true because feeling numb is a feeling too! ) 6. Do the complete opposite of what you feel. Like seriously get up and run, jog or dance if you feel the wave of intensity coming ! Or call someone up! Interact with someone even a pet when you feel an episode happening. This will distract your brain!
This is the beginning of you. This is the start so be kind and nice to yourself. You are experiencing everything for the first time!
I really do love Dodie and I think this will help many in small ways but to be honest, I was kind of scared when she uploaded this because she has so many young fans that like to pretend they have a million different mental illnesses to be “unique” or “edgy.” Believe me, I was one of those kids. But self-diagnosis is never the way to go. It kind of hurts to see all these middle schoolers saying “I think I have depression!” “I have derealization!” “I’m trans!” “I’m pansexual!” and all these things before their minds have fully developed. they could be going through a phase. A lot of times I see the younger generations taking away or stealing the attention from people who actually suffer from such diseases, flipping the idea of what it actually is. Please hear me out, I had gone through some real crap when I was younger, and I do believe I had a severe form of depression. BUT. I also claimed I had bipolar disorder and bulimia and anxiety disorders and the whole shibang. I now know I likely had none of those. I was a lonely kid, I got bullied here and there, and I felt a sense of security in putting so many labels on myself. But the truth is, I was just making other people feel worse about themselves by lying. I didn’t understand what any of those disorders actually were. Anyway, I’m not saying you can’t predict if something is genuinely wrong in your head, but take it easy. Proclaiming all that’s wrong with you on Instagram or Twitter isn’t going to save you. Get some real help, and if you don’t want to, then you’re probably fine. Also, please keep in mind, sometimes symptoms like these disguise themselves as mental illnesses... but they can be underlying health problems, and can be potentially dangerous. So please see a doctor before you start trying to find comfort from strangers. Sincerely, someone who has wrestled with this terrible, terrifying disease for fourteen years. (p.s. if you’re one of those kids I’ve mentioned, don’t take this too personally. I’m just trying to save you from something you might regret later on. if you truly are struggling with something, again, see a doctor. it’s the only way to be sure.)
I feel like I'm feeling everything, like a normal person and I'm making the desisions but that it's my body doing it. My brain feels absent and suprised that my body is doing things. I don't get it. I feel like I'm in my head and everything's cozy and warm but really claustrophobic like I need to get out of my head but I can't cause I'm only partially in control
Stupid idiot question: doesn't everyone have flashes of depersonalisation? Like, you'll all of a sudden be like "woah what is this body who is that in the mirror this is trippy" and then after a few moments of reassuring yourself it goes away?
HeidiBidels I would say no, it's a bit like how getting nervous for a big event is not the same as having anxiety and feeling really down occasionally is not the same as having depression if that makes sense
HeidiBidels almost everyone experiences dissociation like that at some point in their lives, yes, usually resulting from having to deal with a stressful situation. But when it comes chronic (occurs constantly), like in Dodie's case, is when there's a problem that needs to be fixed.
I'd also say there are different attitudes towards it, like the difference between butterflies and a panic attack- sometimes if I'm high I'll exhibit the same symptoms as a bout of derealisation but I'll be ok with it? Its just like "oh, what if everything else is fake? What a funny thought- guess I'll just wander round" (I also realise this can happen sober 😅), whereas an actual bout of derealisation or depersonalization, if nothing else can just be a hell of a lot scarier and harder to accept :-/
Kind of but it's usually if I look at my hands and I'll think "this is actually my body these are actually my hands" but it could be something different
I have derealization and I hate it, but at the same time I feel like I'm getting closer to the ACTUAL reality. Like I feel like everything around me is fake and it's making me think way too deeply, and I know that there has to be something out there past what humans can comprehend because it's driving me insane.
Okay so I have been diagnosed with ptsd, and three weeks ago I just woke up and everything felt wrong, and I thought I was dreaming, and I couldn't feel anything, like when cracking my knuckles I couldn't feel it I could only hear it, and I couldn't remember anything, and there was a bunch of other stuff, even my sense of taste was gone, and it just got worse, and the beginning of this week I was in an art exam (all my previous exams weren't good, because I couldn't understand what was being asked, or what to write but this art exam was the worse) and I started blacking out and I couldn't do anything and everything has just made me panic, including things I love like rally's for equality and stuff. Everythings just getting too much and my counselor said that it was my ptsd causing disassociation, depersonalisation, and derealisation and she said it would pass, even just overnight if I tried really hard, but it's been three weeks and I am scared that this will never pass...
I am in good physical health, but I do have anxiety attacks and depression, and just today I started feeling dizzy and my eyes kept closing and it took a long time to open them up again after blinking and I think this might be what it is...When I get this feeling, I do not feel like I am experiencing life outside of myself, but I do feel like my mind is tricking itself into thinking that my body will shut down as a self soothing technique for my suicidal thoughts, since I know I won't be dying any time soon, but I want to because I feel like dying would be the easiest way to prevent any more emotional pain in my life (although I keep on trying to improve my life and doing what I love despite these thoughts because death is not the answer). This sensation has happened every time I have suicidal thoughts now.
for the past three or four years I've felt like nothing is real at all and my perception of time is altered from what it used to be. i cant recall details of many trips and i sometimes have episodes questioning whether certain people or events in my life are just part of my imagination or not.
I have episodes where for about a week, I'll look in the mirror and feel a different person looking at me, like all of my memories aren't mine and my life belongs to someone who I'm simply standing in for.
i don't have access to a therapist or professional so i can't be tested, diagnosed, or treated. if derealization/depersonalization is what i have, can anyone recommend ways to deal with it on my own?
I take lots of pictures and videos of little things to prove to myself that they happened, but can anyone who knows about these diseases help inform as to how to cope with them?
Can physical chronic illness and extreme stress can cause trauma? I have a lot of derealization and depersonalization but I don’t know what my trauma was...
I have this weird situation. I don't. ...I don't know why but I don't ever want to let go of my mental health issues. It's like I'm attached. It makes me feel safe and I don't understand why I feel the way I do but... I just do. Does anyone feel this way too?
I didnt realize this but I have these phases where I would think my mom is me if that makes since like it would last like an hour and I would just feel mind blown that me and my mom were diffrent people it was so weird. Yeah it would happen like almost everyday and I would have panic attacks because of it it was crazy.
I experience panic attacks but idk what happened to me this one time
I was driving on the freeway and it went into like really deep curve almost like a loop and I hate those and then suddenly i felt kind of sick? like I felt loopy almost, I felt like i wasn't actually driving i felt like the car wasn't actually moving even tho I know I was it didn't feel right I felt weird i don't wanna feel really know how to describe it but that it felt fake. I had to keep driving because there wasn't any exits near me and I didn't wanna crash so I just followed a car in front of me until i felt normal and drove to my house. I had a similar feeling once in my room where I felt fake again it almost felt like I was in a simulation and I knew I was in a simulation so it was like knowing your life and you are fake honestly don't know how else to describe it. I felt like a Barbie doll like my skin was plastic, it very much felt like I was high but scared of everything kind of. anyways I just tried going to sleep or just used my phone. its a really trippy expeience and they don't happen often. idk if it's something I should worry about tho
i have derealization and disassociative amnesia which is where when something or when my body is in high stress and my i pretty much when my brain shuts off during a certain period of time, it could be days, weeks, months and in the worst cases, years, and when your brain turns back on you can't remember anything from when you're brain was off, kind of like a jump in time, the worst was when i was little when i was sexually abused and i skipped for a while, and lately it only happens for a few days fourtunetly, and my derealization only kicks in when i do certain things then it comes up randomly, one time it was so bad i was sobbing and begging my friends for help, and my friend was cuddling me and telling me i was ok and that helped so much. So yea. Thank you for this dodie
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ah fug. say, how do i see if i have dissociation, derealisation and depersonalisation or not? from what you two talked about, i may... have these, possibly the whole the time that i'm awake.. i was already diagnosed with something like chronic depression and acute social anxiety, does that relate? xD
i feel like im dreaming sometimes - it makes me feel like im going to faint or something. my brain feels numb and empty and my eyes feel like they are pricked with tears almost all the time. ive mentioned it to a teacher but they said "i cant help you if you dont have a reason"... there is no reason. i was camping just over a year ago and just felt awful the whole time and i just dont know why. does anyone have any advice? im too scared to go to the doctors because i dont want them to think that im lying because i feel like im lying to myself...
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Actual Trash2018-04-07 21:46:12 (edited 2018-04-07 21:47:57 )
I have derealisation but sometimes if I watch a certain youtuber for long amounts if tine and look in a mirror I start thinking I look like them...its so scary Edit:I don't think I look JUST like them I just see similarities between me and them
I dont know if i have derealisation but sometimes I have like a dejavu strong feeling where some things I do or See I believe that I dreamed them before. Its very weird...
frick okay i never knew what this was, but once you described i really do relate hecK. i never really feel like anything is real, i am in a constant state of feeling like im dreaming. I also have a very bad memory because i dont remember anything bc it doesnt feel real. and i sometimes am like, this isnt me? it doesnt feel like it is me. okay i might have this heck
I had to talk to a student couciler because of my teacher, but when we were talking I was so afraid to talk to her, I felt awkward and afraid, she kept going on about making friends in my class, but I don’t really like my classmates, I don’t have much in common with them, I’m afraid I might have depersonalisation, derealisation and social anxiety, but nobody knows it, nobody knows what’s going on with me, I’m also questioning my sexuality, there’s a lot going on, but the student counciler made me afraid and vulnerable, my only friend in my class, went to a different class because she was to afraid of telling me she doesn’t want to be friends anymore, which really hurt me, I’ve been bullied in the past and my old class that bullied me stopped bullying me for a while but then they started teasing me again, and I was so afraid, nobody knows, what a huge impact that was on my life, and I think that might’ve made the social anxiety even worse. I’m sorry that this is so long I just had to vent
6 months ago I went to a doctor and she told me about a way to ignore the depersonalization symptoms , which is that I press with all the force in my forehead and when I applied it I felt like I was swallowed and my nerves were tight from my neck and stomach and when I press on my stomach comes out of a sound of pain and when I applied it the exercise stopped and then came back Press again then stop and come back Press hard can I stop it but I feel like it doesn't stop 100% can you help me?
I have undiagnosed BFRB ( body focused repetitive behaviour) its a subconscious picking or scratching, got legs full of scars from picking, its embarrassing, I love to swim, its my one joy in life, but I went on holiday recently and was too ashamed to go swimming because I was afraid people may think im injecting in my legs or something, I have all sorts of other things going on, but talking never helps me, as ive talked about problems all my life, but ill also never have drugs for it, I also have emotional blackouts, I don't black out, it just means all emotions go poof.. I am empty, feel nothing what so ever like dead inside in a way. its like an emotional overload
Sometimes I feel my brain is getting out of control .. soo i take a nap or sleep for calming it down .. i can't remember how did actually this happened .. i remember one thing that i knew something is wrong .. sometimes I feel I'm dreaming and not getting that shock in my brain when i open my eyes after closing it for a while ..(excluding sleep) .. sometimes I feel this won't go away .. nothing feels like before .. nothing feels like okay... Sometimes I feel like i told my subconscious mind that I've problems and it happened.. sometimes I just go run out of hopes .. the main thing is I'm drunk but not drunked .. it's like I'm not even scared or ghost or Anything untill shit goes serious .. it's a feeling of not feeling anything .
This is so ironic that I found this today. I am having an awful mental health day because of surfaced memories that I don't want to remember. (I found a splinter) because of how someone treated me at work.
It’s just like a switch. I feel alright and then all of a sudden I feel like everything is unreal and it’s so scary. And after 10 seconds I just kinda slap myself out of it. Could it be a lack of sleep also?
I really need help. For a long time ive always had the sneaking suspicion that I could have DP/DR. But i honestly dont know.
For me, it generally hits in waves, like one minute im totally in the moment, talking with friends or smtn. And then Im hit with a wall and suddenly im in a new place and nobody makes sense and i keep asking "where am i where am i what am i doing here who am i" and i get real scared, heart pounding, sweating...I always hide it from my friends though (but sometimes when i cant, i just get up and leave the table). I dont really get it at home tho which is the only place where it is most mild.
I just dont feel alive sometimes. I just feel like a machine that processes sight and touch and hearing but is not actually living, ya know? I have no idea if this is derealization or what. i dont think it is, but im not sure if that is just me being in denial. Is it supposed to happen in waves or you just feel this way all the time?
I had both reallll bad and couldnt work and my job insurance said they wouldnt pay me cuz its not a real disorder ! And i had a full paper from the doctor LOl
That was amazing! I learn a lot and maybe found something new about me. :) Maybe I should talk with someone, anyone, just know, that its normal, or not. :) Thaks. :)
woah I might have derealisation. But is it possible to only feel spaced out on rare occasions, rather than all the same and/or often? Because I've had a few moments of a dream-like state, similar to this. Where I felt disconnected from my surroundings. Like I was numb and sleepy.
I was depersonalized for about a year. It was the worst thing ever. I'd much rather be the most depressed I have ever been then not feel like myself. Loss of your sense of identity is brutal beyond belief. Weird enough what helped me get out of it was finding out why it happened to me in the first place.
It's weird because everything spoken about in this video is how I feel 24/7 but I ain't gonna self diagnose. I mean yes, I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety but I dunno, I'm on meds and they help alot, with some stuff but I dunno :| at least I guess I'm not alone?
For me it's the WORST I also have HARM ocd (a fear of hurting people) and always get the intrusive thoughts of "what if I killed my mom/brother and it wouldnt matter because this world is fake" and it puts me in another state of panic and is the absolute WORST
K Murph2017-11-27 06:02:18 (edited 2017-11-28 03:44:01 )
Best thing to do here, is forget it, there isn't anything you can do accept to be very true to yourself, honest with yourself, and do not try to "act" as if, Don't act period. You'll find many to think you are somehow selfish, or conceded, whatever word you want to use there, you'll Likely lose old friends, you Don't need them anyway. Don't compromise yourself, and Don't force unnatural tendencies, like being nice all the time because you think you have to. Easier said than done I know. But it'll be just fine. And I'm not for a second suggesting that you not have a certain common decency and simple elementary manners. For your own sanity, you must Be what you are. Even if you don't even Know what that is. So common social and political correctness goes out the door, I function as any other species in a natural way, many people don't understand this, they are caught up in worry, very neurotic, but we are all the same, no different, therefore you can know that we are all thinking of ourselves 90% of the day, thus it doesn't matter what others think of you, I don't give a damn (excuse the language) for what anybody thinks of me I'm singing my own tune and dancing to the beat of my own drum. Give it some time and everything will fall in to it's natural rhythm as long as you aren't acting against your own nature.
my experience with derealization, is weird. because im recovering from anorexia and bulimia. so when i used to throw up, the pain in my stomach and throat was so big that my brain used to turn all my vision completely white and like make me feel like i was high... its weird ik
I’m not sure if I have derealization, or if I’m just tired all the time. My vision occasionally gets blurry, and colors look extremely bright. When I’m really stressed everything gets really loud. I don’t have trauma, no mental illnesses (that I’m aware of) but sometimes reality just feels numb. Is this derealization?
I constantly feel like I'm in a dream. Like I feel like nothing is actually real. It makes me forget so many things because I can't actually remember things actually happening or how I can remember it. I don't know actually what to do. It made me fail most of my GCSE's because I can only remember some of things. 🙁
I know it's been a while but I still have a question. I don't have chronic derealization but I've had two episodes while i was under the effect of marijuana, is that still linked with traumas or was it just a chemical reaction? I don't know if it helps, but I have been diagnosed with major depression, ocd, and anxiety disorder.
Is forgetting things also part of this? Like it's currently 4:40pm and I can't remember anything from today past 10 minutes ago. This happens everyday and I was just wondering if this could be part of it because it feels like today didn't exist
I think that I have derealisation and depersonalisation but my mum thinks that it is just hormones because I'm 11 and starting puberty. I really want to tell her about it but I'm sacred she'll just dismiss it. My school work has also gone down and my teachers can tell, I just say that I'm tired and I want to tell them, but I'm afraid that my peers and family will not believe me. Please can someone help?? I would really appreciate it. 💕💕
I'm pretty sure I have derealisation, I'm probably not the only one in the comments to have a story like this but I think my derealisation originated from a time I smoked tooooooo much weed and now I just feel like constantly tipsy and partially stoned and when I woke up the next morning I thought I had been given a different drug or something because I'd never woken up and still felt like I was dreaming before and I've now been like this for about 3 months. The particular time I believe my disorder came from I had a panic attack after smoking way way way too much so this comment has basically no use accept from to tell you to be careful or to help others have someone to relate to x
I've had depersonalisation with my own body but also with others(?) I mean, some times I would look at my mom's face and it would feel like I didn't recognize her. like, of course I knew she was my mom but it would feel like I couldn't recognize her face features and something was off. Does that make any sence?
dodie please i hope you don't turn into troye (i love him but i miss him so much). you've helped me so much and i feel comfort when i watch your videos when im having attacks or a bad brain day. please don't leave us. i love you.
Is it possible to have depersonalization but not derealization because I sometimes feel very disconnect from myself at certain times but I've very rarely been disconnected from reality. Also I tend to be very anxious to the point where I've been diagnosed with anxiety but that has led to a lot of self doubt insecurities, that led to me being diagnosed with depression because I just had these compounding thoughts of self hatred. At that point the depersonalization started as a sort of "coping mechanism". I'm doing a little better but I have swings sort of. Advice on dealing with low days/moments ?
I experienced depersonalistion and derealisation this summer and it was horrible! I'm starting to feel like it is going now and feeling so much happier! :D
I took too much cough syrup went to school had a panic attack because i felt weird and i think i got derealization. It pisses me off somethin that stupid can cause this it bothered me for a long time my anxiety was horrible but the weird thing is my anxiety isnt that bad anymore but i still feel like im in a dream i cant think for shit i cant remember nothing(may be the drugs) i feel so spaced out and i have major depression idk if this has anything to do with it. I was born with low dopamine and really low seratonin.
i have derealisation depression and anxiety. i’m afraid to tell my family because i’m scared they won’t believe me. only because i talk a lot some of the time. i still laugh at jokes and i can still have a good time. but that’s why i’m afraid they won’t believe me. i’m afraid they will just say i’m dramatic and i’m just trying to fit in. i really need a therapist but i’m to afraid to speak up. can someone help me what to do?
That jump in Zoloft is... crazy. I don't know Dodie's situation or how intense her depression and derealization are, but going from nothing to 100mg in a MONTH? even with 50 in between? From what I know, that is a LOT in such a short amount of time.
Zoloft is not that "strong" though - I take a different medicament which has a 5mg and 15mg dosages but with zoloft, it's not the same. I had to take it during pregnancy and I went from 0 to 50 in a week and then to 150 a month later during a week again. I think it's fairly common - but everyone reacts differently and to some people, this jump might be too much.
Hello everyone! I have depersonalization and derealizatio and I need to start ising birth control (I have extremely painfull periods that make me unable to stand up and do anything for the rest of the day. I will feel like I am going to faint, puke and cry from the pain so). I am afraid that they will make my depersonalization worse. Has someone experience with them?
Going tru DP and DR last week and i feel horrible ='( i have moments in the day i feel myself i think..i feel confident and doing normal things, but the rest of the day just sucks. it gets worse ate end of the day/night but gets better if i stay awake longer cause i like the silence of the night (does this make sense)? also love the silence int he early morning.. I have a lot of traumas..this year i had two big ones..and i just letf a job that i hated, and now i dont have a routine and i also hate that. I think i'm just too confusing as a person and i'm always thinking in every possible scenario.. Great video btw
I haven't been diagnosed at all and I'm only just starting to look into it but I feel how they're talking about depersonalisation constantly I don't know
they were talking about big t’s and little t’s, and i’m just wondering if trauma from cancer could cause any of this...? i feel like it sounds silly but i feel like i relate to a lot of this and it just hard to wrap my head around.
What I like to do is I would rub my hand when I'm stressed so I can not get you know get pulled into a dream like state EDIT: I talked to my bestfriend
What if you have just been through such horrible stuff, you've spent all your time trying to forget about it and or pretended it wasn't happening you just physicaly can't remedmer all your trama. How do you talk about it or get over it?
Finally people are giving a shit on dp people really need to give more attention to if because it really hurts me sometimes that not much people know about it and its not somrthing easy or something that you can just turn off whenever you want to its way more than that so thank you soooo much for making this video.. you earned a sub and a like and a share and whatever that good and possible
I'm not sure if it would be labelled as bullying , but I had an extremely horrible time in my primary school , everybody their was super mean and I validating to me about all the things I like and my art and imagination , so I kind of disconnected and started basically living in my imagination and 24/7 creating this entire ongoing world in my head . And I havent seen or spoken to anyone from my primary school for a year since I'm now going into year 8 . And a few months ago I realized how bad it was and how desperately I was making myself believe that the magical worlds were 'real' but not real at the same time. And so I have been kinda trying to drag myself into the real world but when I do try to i get extremely depressed , lonely and I think I also have pretty major trust issues because I think everyone secretly out to get and that their not real and I'm in a simulation or asleep and this is all a dream . And it's like super scary when this happens . I havent been diagnosed with anything or seen anyone. And I found out about derealisation and depersonalisation so I went to my mum and was like yo , I think I might have this or atleast I have something , and she was like " stop trying to find problems in yourself and trying to be special " and all that . So I have no idea what I'm supposed to do about this. And it is getting alot worse .
I was gonna mention this but didn't know how to describe it now I do so . I also have these weird thing were when I wake up the say I'm having a dream I'll wake up and I'll know be conscious but the dream will continue and I dont know how to explain how I feel whilst it's happening but I'll just be extremely confused I wont be able to properly do stuff like once my mother abruptly woke me up cause I was late for school and I sat up and had no idea what was going on , I couldn't properly speak and my mother gave me my clothes and ran out the room to do something and I had absolutely no idea how to get the clothes on and was seeing the things from my dream, in my mind their was this little thing dressing me , but in reality I wasnt moving and was just sat up on my top bunk dozily bobbing back and fourth whilst mumbling .but its Waaaaaay worse when it's a nightmare because mine are really bad and I woke up from one a few weeks ago and was pacing around cause I knew it wasnt real but it was , and I was pacing all around my house trying to wake up properly and I was kind of screaming and full on crying my eyes out whilst panicking. Nobody woke up so nobody saw this . But imma try and talk to my mum about it again . Hopefully it works . I'll update
It's so relieving and helpful to hear this. The last year has been terrible, without going into details my girlfriend (I'm not out lol) has been diagnosed with cancer. I've not been able to talk to anyone about it because my parents don't know she exists. My mother could have a reoccurrence of cancer cells and my brother could have some sort of tumour. Basically, its been a rather traumatic time. 'Little T's' from childhood and a combination of the 'Bigger T's' have sent my brain funky. I'll look in the mirror and very often feel what I am seeing doesn't reflect me. I didn't realise that this has a name. I've become a lot more anxious and almost fearful in general- if someone says they've been to the doctors I fear the worst. I guess everything's either black or white? I don't know, I think a combination of many things have meant my brain isn't very good :). I'm trying to talk to my parents about me going to the doctors about the anxiety. It's not like a 'AHHHHHHHHHHH' but it's stopping me from doing things. Anyway, thanks
I think I have this and it gets annoying, I can't pay attention to anything because my mind is always somewhere else. I'm in 10th grade and it's important that I get good grades to go to a good school next year (I live in Norway so the school system is different) and aaah what do I do
....this sounds kinda like how i feel, but i have never been diagnosed with it. i have been told i have anxiety and depression and even once ptsd, but none of them encapsulated how i feel in my body? like for me i can never relate to my own name, and my face feels like it belongs to someone else, and i feel like i'm sort of floating most of the time? i think i have to research this further, because this all sounds so familiar.
Can depersonalization distort memories? Regarding my last comment on here about a shirt appearing on my bed when I turned around, I don’t remember putting it there, I only remember getting my trousers out of my closet. Is there any explanation? Please help. Im doubting everything right now. I seriously need help😭
I'm not sure if I have this. I have never been good at telling how longg something has lasted. It could have been 2 minutes or 2 hours I can never tell. I feel like I need someone with me to tell me how long it has been. I have always felt dazed and most of the time I sort of don't know what's going on. When I'm with a large group of people I especially feel as though I'm not really there. And when I feel like I'm in a dream and I'm having a good time with people I try to force myself to be in the moment so I remember everything that happened the next day. And I usually can't recall anything but bits and pieces.
I think I’ve been having this lately. I have no money to pay for help so I sit inside my house depressed and lonely. Need to fix my life by my self and make my brain happy. Been depressed for over 25 years maybe more
I hate some noises. They make me scream or screech. Some noises make me cry, and people think I'm strange but I can't help it. I do it in movie theaters or in class, and I get so embarrassed or ashamed that I start spacing out and blanking on everything to ignore people.
I am not sure whether or not I have DR or just brain fog from anxiety/racing thoughts. Because it seems as if DR/DP is more of a dream like state. For me I feel fine and alive I just can’t stop thinking and have racing thoughts about life and how everything makes sense. I did some research related to some issues I have including BAD EYESIGHT and BAD NASAL AREA. I suffer from poor eyesight and from a deviated septum. I found that poor eye sight without wearing contacts or glasses can wear down your brain for example looking at screens or too much at once. Your brain can be overwhelmed and not know how to process it all at the same time which can lead to brain fog and confusion. The nose part of it was about SINUSITIS a nasal infection around the cavities outside the nose. It can lead to brain fog and confusion as well as anxiety and stress! So in short I think some people thinking they are dealing with DR/DP may actually be dealing with brain fog and stress/anxiety related issues. Especially if you feel fine just can’t stop your racing thoughts or anxiety. I know not all of you have these vision or nasal issues but if you do take this into consideration! I’m going to see if treatment for one of the two helps at all !
I don't know what it is, but I'm going through a small episode right now that's kinda similar. I feel disconnected from my senses. I hear others speaking to me, and I hear myself reply, but I don't even notice my mouth moving, I don't feel it moving. I can see fine, and recognize myself, but I don't feel myself walk. It's like I'm stuck in my head surrounded by so much haze that my brain can't find itself. Like all of my functions are running themselves while I'm in my head trying to find a way to sort everything back out. I just don't know what to do. My episodes usually aren't bad, just really minor derealization where everything just feels kinda off, like I'm living my day, but in a dream. I haven't had an episode like this since I was like 8 years old. That was half of my lifetime ago. I didn't understand it then, I was at a carnival, I thought it was just because I had motion sickness from all the rides I went on. I don't know what to do about it right now. I guess I'll just stick through and watch videos so I can distract myself enough that it begins to fade back to normal... Hopefully...
I had remembered that this video existed and came back to it, but didn’t remember that I had ever commented. I’m sobbing right now. I’ve been going through really bad episodes for the past year or so. I had completely forgotten how early I started feeling like this. I honestly thought it had been a couple months, but it’s been going on for years. I can almost never remember my emotions from the past, so I always assume that the way I’m feeling is recent. I don’t even know how to process finding this post.
It’s just… not only was I feeling this way when I was 16, but I also used to be able to remember how I felt when I was 8? I have almost no memories from before high school anymore. I can be reminded of stuff, but for the most part, it’s like everything was buried away. I can’t process that I didn’t used to be like that. But I also can’t process that it didn’t start recently.
Sometimes I suddenly just feel really down. Like I'll be laughing or something and then suddenly I just feel sad. Often in times when I SHOULD be happy like at family gatherings or something I get down. Or nearly every time I am alone. Is this depression? Idk plz help :3
I wish wish wish dodie was my older sister and could give me a hug whenever I am sad and I would give her a hug when she felt very bad as well😖💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
i feel like nothing is real around me. i know that i’m real, but nothing else feels real. i feel like i’m moving around in a fake world and working towards the day i get to live in the “real” world. anyone else?
Does anyone know if this is hereditary? I haven’t finished the video yet, but it’s just a genuine question because my sister experienced this for her entire life and i hadnt until I smoked for the first time but now It happens all the time
I also feel like i don’t recognize pain the way I usually do and have to be extra careful with myself because it doesnt hurt the way it’s supposed to. It’s almost like my pain sensors are lowered
Does anyone else start randomly laughing during their episodes?
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Jim Corbeil2017-09-17 01:21:09 (edited 2017-09-17 16:47:59 )
Let me start off by saying that I'm Sorry for not commenting on any of your videos for what seems like forever. A lot of what you share is above my pay grade and I refuse to comment just to comment. In my heart, you Will find happiness, but to say how and to guess when would only make me sound like, idk, a clueless ass. I still believe that the future is bright and you will be quite pleased with what lies ahead. Until then, all I have is that you are Loved beyond measure and that you are Not Alone. Never have been and Never will be. What inspired this comment was that I saw you on Gabbies Vlog and 1) the World just got a little bit smaller, but more importantly, 2) I Loved seeing you laughing and smiling. That's it. I wish you nothing but the best and I look forward to the next time I can comment on your smiling face. Stay Awesome. A fan from Chicago : )
when i tried to explain to my therapist that i felt like this she would tell me “you’re just having panic attacks, it’ll go away by themselves” yet it’s been almost 6 months & i feel so much worse. i don’t even recognize myself. i feel like i’m living a dream but its so uncomfortable and i don’t even feel anything , it’s so weird and i can’t explain it to my mom because i’m scared she’s not gonna believe me or understand & i just need someone to talk to because i feel like i’m alone. i have no more friends because i can’t hang out with them and i can’t be happy , and whenever i would tell them about how i felt they would think i’m crazy , i feel like i’m going insane and i can’t talk to anyone and that’s what makes it so much worse. i’m terrified that i’ll have to live like this for the rest of my life. i’m so scared i just need someone who understands how i feel.
I know how you feel. I had this for about 2-3 years but it just recently got better which I never thought it would. Looking back, it's hard too explain how it felt sometimes during it because most of it feels like it was just a dream, but I know I felt dead and it was the worst time of my life. I wasn't able too hang out with my friends due to the fact I wasn't happy and I wasn't able too miss them because I felt nothing and felt no connection too anything or anyone. My grandma and dad passed away, but I didn't care because it didn't feel real. I couldn't feel sad about it. My mom would tell people that i was depressed, but when I told my mom about what I was actually going through, she called me crazy and said if I left the house more I wouldn't be like this. I dropped out of school, I barely left the house, I couldn't enjoy music, shows or anything a person without this would enjoy. But it got better, I don't know how, but it did. My advice too you would be talk too your mom or somebody. Explain exactly what your going through and make them understand that it's not just a panic attack or whatever else they try and say it is. Though it got better for me, I wish I would have got help, it was just too hard for me too listen too people trying too tell me what's wrong with me or saying I'll get over it. Though not having people understand what you're going sucks and it's hard, try and get help. I hope you do what's best to get better and hopefully my story made you feel less alone.
Sorry for making this so long. I honestly could have wrote a whole book about how this disorder/mental illness has affected me.
bipolar people like myself experience something similar but far more frightening-a waking dreamstate which is fine if one is alone but constant torture if one is subject to the whims of others
family and friends especially, the worst part of mental license is the license it gives others to do what they will, all they must do is hint at ur mental problems and they can get away with anything, that is a serious downside to having so much literal control over reality-experience IS reality, it's all real, this isn't a dream i wish it were
sorry to lecture but i've got serioous ptsd and it seems to happen at certain times of the year, hail LUNA
not direct at folks, it's a warning to the traitors at the MOSAD, CIA, NSA, DOD, MI1-infinity, KGB, GRU, MOSAD, the house of SAUD, duterte, bolonara, putin putin putin putin putin trump, oh vey. (disclaimer:gfy)
I have derealization but not depersonalization. I don’t see someone else when I look in the mirror, I just feel like we’re living in a simulation and I’m the only one who’s cognitive about anything. Think of it like playing Grand Theft Auto, you’re the only real person playing a character and all the other people are computers
Hey can u help me out I think I might have derealization cause when I went to a school trip we went swimming and we got out and I felt like I was not there like I was dreaming or dead even if I don’t know what death feels like . I could’ve walk properly and my voice sounded so weird
I have this and I'm very scared. Every morninh when I'm waking up I feel like in a dream It scares me very much, I can't breath very well bc I have so much stress in my head I hate it!
can you make another channel where we can see how you play ur songs. like ''you", all the chords online don't sound anything like the original. so that could be awsome hihi :)
I got depersonalisation last night it felt like my soul was hiding behind my eyes and it felt like my head was hollow and i slept it off and i dont feel depersonalisation at all idk if it is going to come back or not
i think i have depersonalization/derealization i have gone through trauma for the past yearish i feel like i'm not really me and i'm reading a book? like i can't control anything i'm just observing everything that happens. anyone know which this is?
I have an unlabeled (my therapist doesn’t have enough information) compulsion disorder and sometimes i’ll look away from something and something happens in my brain and I can’t look away or a have took look away because I feel like something is wrong and it normally causes me to have a mini freak out or panic. Ex. Today at dinner I was sitting and I looked up from my plate at my dad and the light in the kitchen behind him was off and it made everything look off (almost zoomed out a blurry) and it made me panic and I almost cried and I kept saying that I didn’t like it/that even though part of my brain was just like “Emma calm down it’s a light” the other part was just screaming in a corner “YOU CANT SEE. WTF IS GOING ON. EVERYTHING IS WRONG”
So that’s my brain. And it’s possibly the thing that embarrasses me the most. I’m constantly freaking out one second and completely calm the next because my logic brain will just turn off my emotional brain until it can calm the fuck down and stop panicking and everyone thinks I’m a psychopath
I think I have this but I don't know how to deal with it. I go to a therapist but only since a few weeks so I don't trust her yet. No one in my family or friendgroups understands this. I suffer from anxiety and really bad depression to. This derealization makes the depression even worse..
I’m questioning myself bee cause I always space out and miss bits of conversations, this gets worse when I get bored or when I’m tired. Is this just daydreaming or...
Ok idk if I have this or not and I'm kinda confused. Not all the time but sometimes I feel like nothing around me is real, like no one is real, everything seems like props or a dream or like a vision and my body and all my movements feel really forigen, but it usually only happens about once or twice a week for about 6 hours at a time (the longest its ever gone on was a day and a half) then it feels fine again, I always feel really uncomfortable when it happens and I don't know what to do.
Sometimes I feel like life isn’t real or if I have an experience with someone later i know it happened but I feel like it didn’t. I wouldn’t say it happens all the time though. I didn’t know it happened to anyone else
Can you feel like both your environment and your self are not real? I feel like nothing is real except for my own consciousness. I also feel like I'm being watched by a higher being who isn't in this fake reality I'm in.
Anyone else find it hard to wear your glasses because it emphasizes the feeling of being like stuck and you don't react fast to things your very slow? I have a hard time driving to because idk how to tell how far things are 😠
i love you make mental heath videos but sadly ones like this hit so close to hope that i feel weirded out that I'm watching them and that i have chosen to watch them I've kinda got depersonalisation in the sense of if I'm typing or reading or anything to do with a world building sort of thing my hand aren't mine and I'm just there looking at them freaking out that there are hands typing infant of me the sam with my feet, but anyway main point its very helpful and i love you
Honestly I don’t think TMS is going to do much for her. I have a neurosurgeon client who’s somewhat a pioneer in the TMS field here in Asia, and although he has told me it has some beneficial and immediate effects for patients with Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s- and I’ve seen the before and after videos- I’ve not heard of it being used for depression or anxiety. it’s a bit of a placebo treatment, utilized by many in the neurological field when they don’t know what else to put on the table. I wouldn’t put too much stock in its efficacy esp as her condition is more likely to be pathological. I think what she needs is time for her brain to heal, and possibly a good therapist, not medicine.
I have a couple of dissociation moments but they happen so randomly and I don't know if it's the same?? They really are just at random moments, like I was lying in bed watching Netflix and suddenly I felt like my brain left my body? like I was watching myself, watching netflix?? But it only lasts a couple of seconds. I really wanna know what it is and if it is the same because its frickin terrifying.
When you guys are trying to sleep do you ever get the feeling that your slowing sinking or like disappearing and it’s like freaky so you can’t sleep cuz that happens to me and I have both. I can’t sleep at night cuz it’s a freaky feeling that my whole body is numb.
I personally had a terrible experience with Zoloft as well. Terrible headaches issued, so I had to be taken off it for one week before trying something else out.
Ok When i was growing up i often feel like this "When i was looking at people i ask myself alot of questions , are they real? how they become who they are, Is this chair real? How is that possible? What is important being alive? It seems and it feels that everything i see is not real it feels like I'm not real I'm just dreaming ,One day my parents noticed that my father ask my mama, "Have you notice our son always dumbfounded?" Cuz I'm thinking about this all the time, Then until my senior high school it became worse, I tried to play my mind because I was always thinking like this I don't even know why I'm thinking like that. then i became like crazy like I was not who i am, I'm always thinking negative all the time that i could not stop it anymore, that year was ugly and i was so fuck up. After graduated in Highschool before i got to college "I told myself i need to change i need to get myself back" I go through life fixing it by myself without google without internet to research to fixing this fucking thinking in my head , that i don't even know by focusing and be energetic in life and just go go! even i still had this thing in my head that never go away until now i'm 26. I graduated college 4 years i took a course that i did not like, because my grade in my last year in high school was so fuck up also that i don't have a choice to pick that course cuz ,that's the only available for my grade. Surprisingly my college life was great i met awesome people that likes to laugh, "When i laugh i feel good i feel confident i feel happy i feel positive" So i was laughing always as much as possible with my good classmates! luckily they like to laugh too, they don't judge me by laughing that hard. there is a lot of story in my college. What i learn in those days "LAUGHING IS REALLY THE BEST MEDICINE WELL MY BEST MEDICINE" then after college i was lonely again i was sad cuz i know i can't go to school anymore, i will never see them again, those happiness was done. i missed them so much i know they move on. After that after 3 years at home i tried to get a job , I worked as a teller in tollgate then after 4 months i got job again i worked as an operator in a factory for 5 months. Now I'm in my parents home again.. I became so much better by doing alot of things like reading books , watching youtube, bulding skill, trying something new, self development, always watching motivation. That fucking thing is always in my head sometimes its gone sometimes it comes again never go away completely. So that's my story i just wanna share, I realize today i think i got that "Deep thinking" by being alone and not so active when i was a kid. Not so busy on the outside world. I wish i can turn back the time.
Hi, um I know this isn't necessarily the best place to go to for help haha, but I just don't know what's going on. I space out so badly to the point of not being able to think at all. Or if it's worse another day, it's to the point where I don't feel like I'm here. I've tried meditation and grounding techniques, and they don't help. I get so scared because i start to question my own sanity. It's much like a dream state and sometimes I just feel like I'm in the background or disconnected from my body, almost like someone looking in. My doctor diagnosed me with depression and anxiety, but then my therapist said that I sounded like the poster child for ADHD in teenage girls. I've been on ADHD stimulants since then, but those only seem to worsen my spacing out moments. They do help me hyper focus, but that's about it. I just don't know if it's derealization or if it's actually ADHD? I explained my spacing out to my therapist and she had never heard of it before, or it being that bad. I just feel hopeless. My grades are dropping and I just can't seem to pull it together. I have experienced trauma, I guess you'd say. My mother is verbally, emotionally, and at times physically abusive. I've had a lot happen and I just feel lost. I'm hoping someone could give me advice or something because I don't know what to do anymore. I love you all.
What is it when you feel bored at things that you know aren’t boring that you used to like and in convos cant focus and just give off a false reaction that u think the other person wants
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lor lor2018-03-18 09:33:43 (edited 2018-03-18 09:34:01 )
So the marble part on how a trauma shoots through all the memories ever had can it misconstrue the events ?
(Asking other people with DP/DR). Do you ever feel like other people don’t actually exist but you have strange realization that there are people. Like I totally lack the feeling of sonder. Is it just me?
So now that’s I’m 21 and been dealing with somethings I think I’ve got derealization I look in the mirror and maybe I just explain it differently than others but it’s not like I’m not looking at me. Cuz like. I know it’s me but I can’t remember what I look like off the top of my head And sometimes my body feels like it’s an incorrect picture of me. Like if someone drew a really realistic picture of me but it’s kinda off in some ways. And I’m constantly disratiing myself with like. Idk. I have no memory but mostly scrolling. Another thing, I have zero memory. Some extra issues cuz I need to vent sorry: And I have zero passion for anything. And I can’t take care of myself. And I’m spending literally all my money. And my jobs giving me less hours w a new manager.
Is to possible to have small episodes and really long episodes, of a mental disorder? Like you can just be feeling fine them slip into an episode and it last for a bit and then it just go and then come back?
I was just watching this video. I kind of had some realizations like shit, what the fuck is really wrong with me. So I kind of had a breakdown because of that realization. Now I'm so scared that I think that someone is watching me. Help.
Does anyone have like feeling where everything feels wrong and different and just off and you can’t think or feel because everything is wrong so that a symptom of depersonalization or that?
I don't know who I am anymore.like I don't know what "I" means when I recall my past memories of myself I feel as if that was someone else and right now I am someone else .when I meet my relatives I feel I have changed as if they are not meeting me as if they are meeting someone else.so is this depersonalization? Also I have never faced any trauma in my life neither have I done drugs all I know is that I feel terrible and depressed because I want to be normal. Can a vitamin deficiency cause this? Please answer
I don't recognize my face.... it's really strange. I don't think I have the feeling of dreaming, I just look at myself and don't see myself in the mirror. I try explain it to my friends and they don't understand what I'm saying but nothing really has happened to spark any of this recently but I do now understand the 'little Ts' thing, it makes sense. I don't know really, I just came back here because I forgot what these were about
so it makes sense now i was crying on my pillow and was wiping my tears then suddenly it occured to me that why do i even have 5 fingers? like who is making me inhale air when i dont want to? its just random questions that just messes my mind
What if you have Depersonalization derealization and asbergers n depression/anxiety :/ I feel so detached and like an alien. I'm going to the doctor again later this month I hope they can help me :( I've been thinking if I cant get help maybe suicide might be the only realistic way out...
So it's like your fight or flight instincts kick in you definitely don't want to fight but have nowhere to flee to so your brain is like imma just leave now bye peace out huh I think I have that sometimes
aghh i wish i could get a therapist but it costs a lot and we don’t have the money for it also every time i bring up my mental health which was one time what am i saying my parents are like oh you shouldn’t self diagnose (which i understand) it’s probably fiiiiine you’re a teenager puberty goes paired with things like that but what i’m too scared to tell them is how bad it really is and okay i’ll stop writing now this is too long if anyone actually read this 1. thank you 2. do you have any tips
idk if i’m just different or it’s something else but i often feel like i take a deep enough breath, i can’t open my eyes wide enough, i feel like i’m zooming out but also trapped in my body. i know what i’m supposed to do eg. put my coat on, charge my phone but i feel very zoned out while doing so almost like i’m dreaming. i feel like i’m watching myself but i can control my actions, i just don’t feel like it’s me doing it
I used to go to this therapist (but she was kinda mean and I didn’t rly trust her (and she was a gay conversion therapist on the side 😬 not good)) and I tried explaining derealization to her. She said « maybe you just have low blood sugar » lol. That was a rough time.
i get this when i get super super high :/ i feel really bad when people get this everyday, i can’t imagine. feels like i’m in a dream and i don’t know what’s real and what’s not
not recognising your friends and family is the worst part. the only way i can describe it is like every time you look at them they have a different face. you know who they are and you have memories of them but you can’t see them there. it’s terrifying.
I think I might have this... but I don't know... like if I'm hanging out with my friends and something happens that upsets me I just clock out.. is that the same thing?
I have to fidget with something spikey in my hands while driving or in a more crowded space like a store so I don’t completely float away. Now I know im not alone. Ummm I’m so grateful to have found you. Now what!?
I'm not sure if anyone is going to see this, but if you do and have dealt with this before, could you please tell me how you tell your family/doctor that you think you may have this without coming across like some kid who's just attention seeking etc? I've had symptoms of this for years and have only just recently discovered it, and I think I need to speak to someone about it. Thank you.
I don't know what I have like I always have time slip through my one ear and the other like I can't remember simple things like conversations I had today and when I look in the mirror for to long I look different, like not myself. Does anyone know what I have?
I’ve never had either of these thank God. But unfortunately my brother had it for 3 months when he was 16. After hearing from my brother about how he felt, research, and YouTube videos. I still have no fucking idea wtf this shit is. And if someone could help me destroy my fear of getting it just by thinking about it you would legitimately be my guardian angel.
OMG I HAVE DEPERSONALIZATION CONSTANTLY ALL THE TIME. NOTHING FEELS REAL. WHEN I TOUCH SOMETHING I FEEL THE SENSATION OF WHAT IT FEELS LIKE BUT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE ITS MY HAND DOING IT. THE SIGHT OF MY HAND TOUCHING IT AND THE FEELING OF THE TOUCH DON'T CLICK IN MY BRAIN. NOTHING HAS FELT REAL FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS. ITS SO WEIRD AND SOMETIMES ITS WORSE THAN OTHERS. It probably derived from me as a child convincing myself that what was happening around me was just what I was seeing and nothing was actually happening. I managed to make myself feel like I wasn't really there. Or maybe it derived from my depression that I recently got over? I don't know... nothing feels real most of the time... what do I do
I also tend to zone out after being embarrassed or getting punished for doing something wrong or after doing something wrong in general. I haven't gone through any super traumatic events but I did have Depression and suicidal thought, though I recently got over those.
my best friend has this but not all the time, so when both of us want have something to say I will now let her go first becausre she then forgets. Ironically I will forget as well if i hear her out first so we are both screwed XD
I have derealization/depersonalization disorder and it’s a horrible struggle full of anxiety attacks and paranoia. It’s 24/7 and hasn’t gone away for since October last year. I have NO idea how to get better and get rid of it
Shit I think I have this I keep spacing out and I can barely focus on anything. I just stare out into nothing and it becomes kinda blurry? idek if that's that but. and I have episodes, where I'll feel either like everything is right and I can't stop smiling and I love this world so much, theeen I'll be super depressed and can't find anything positive and it just feels like nothing. idek it's weird (and also when people touch me it feels painful sometimes)
How can u talk to someone about this? How can I go to my doctors or people at school to talk about this? I feel like this may be me but I’m not sure. How should I talk to people about how I feel or not feeling?
dodie, how do you write a song? Im trying so hard but i cant do it. i have no inspiration on what it should be about and i have no talent with words...
I know this might seem completely random but i was wondering if you could do a cover of a song called I Built A Friend by Alec Benjamin... its a beautiful song and i think you would enjoy it too?
A feel like when I laugh a find it funny for a milla second then overthink it n just feel numb when I drink to everything’s goes so quick even when I don’t
I don't want to sound like I'm self diagnosing myself because I hate when people do that but I think I should look up de realization and depersonalization because I think I might have it. All the time I will be somewhere or doing something or even just at my house and will all a sudden just be like this isn't real this is a dream or a figment of my imagination and I just thought that was some weird way I coped with my anxiety but that makes more sense and the depersonalization would help explain my gender fluidity a lot because I'll look in the mirror and won't see myself in a way like it's not what I'd seen last time if that makes any sense but yeah I just thought it was interesting and the way Dodie explained it felt like an epiphany of some sort.
I feel like I suffer from these every day of my life. It really makes me depressed, but this video helped me feel a little more informed and slightly less alone. Love you Dodie ❤️
I've had derealisation since I was really young but I never knew what was really happening. Lately I've just started to think it was something related to my anxiety. Thank you so much for making this video and explaining all of this it really helped.
Katiiii! I love this woman. Her videos saved my life, particularly her video on intrusive thoughts. I have severe OCD and I had a random spike in 2015 and I was very close to ending my life when I came across Kati's videos. If you're reading this Kati I want to say THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for saving my life. 💕
i love kati!!! her videos have helped me so much on my way through being diagnosed and looking for the right treatment, and also learning how and why things are the way they are. thank you kati! and also dodie! 💖💕💘💗
I've had these since I was in 5th grade and I've always been scared and confused about it and nobody thought anything was wrong with me and I've been scared ever since thank you so much for realizing I'm ok and not alone❤️❤️❤️
I feel so lucky to have never been through anything like this. I wish you all the best Dodie. I find this so interesting as I'm training to be a CBT therapist xx
I really appreciate this video. I only recently felt like I might be experiencing dissociation and it was very discouraging when my therapist told me it sounded like my feelings were normal when I knew it did not feel normal. she did suggest mindfulness, but it hasn't really helped so far, so it matters that dodie and kati put out more options. thank you <3
Dodie, thank you so much for making this video!! I could relate to a few things and you really helped me out. I also had EMDR and it really helped me! :)
Thank you for talking about small traumas as a cause of dp/dr. I used to feel incredibly guilty (which obviously made me feel worse) about having a mental illness because I couldn't identify what had happened to me in my life that was SO bad. 💛
Thanks so much for this! I was kind of watching it just out of interest and didn't realise how much it was going to affect me. I luckily have never experienced derealization or depersonalisation but I suffered a huge trauma when I was 15, and I think I've experienced some dissociation from that. In the 7 years since I've always felt guilty that I'm not caring enough about what happened, or I get frustrated that when I try and remember what happened and it's like seeing it through a layer of cling film. But now I have a word for why that is, and I know that it's just my brain protecting itself. Plus the explanation of traumatic memories shattering and planting themselves everywhere really resonates with me as well, so thank you for the useful explanations :)
I hope everything goes well with the treatments you're exploring, Dodie. I honestly wish you the very very best and hope you see some improvement soon ❤❤❤
Kati reminds me so much of my Thearipist. I've always been one of those people that need to understand the logical cause of things in order to deal with them and she does it in a very unpatronising and caring way ❤
Thanks for this fantastic video! During my worst stages of anxiety I experienced depersonalisation and derealisation for 3 months straight. Luckily through coping techniques and talking through my trauma I overcame it and haven't felt this way in years. You got this Dodie! ❤
I'm a student of music therapy right now, which is a relatively new kind of therapy, but it can be really useful with establishing grounding techniques and works really well, especially when used in conjunction with talk therapy, for dealing with trauma, so that might be something that you, dodie or anyone else reading, might want to look into!
Dodie!!! Thank you and Kati so so much for this!!! I have derealization mostly in chunks of time and usually it's when I'm stressed, and this explained so much :) Thanks so much for explaining about the trauma--I didn't know about that! I think too many things were happening so my brain just spaced out. For some reason, before this, I assumed it was brain chemistry but trauma makes sense! I really hope you get better soon :) and I hope I can work through this too <3
My doctor wanted me to try EMDR but my big-T Trauma happened 7 years ago, so I figure it'd be a bit pointless. Definitely interested in seeing how your therapies go! <3
For my Health and Social Care coursework I chose to focus on depersonalisation and bring more awareness to it. This really helps as I'm using your videos as a source!
thank you for this video....I've been taking medication and attending cbt for anxiety but now I'm wondering If I have derealisation. The idea of coming across a splinter in those panicky moments makes so much sense and I think that idea will help me cope and recognise when to calm down and move past the situation. I'll talk to my doctor about my mental health and derealisation so thank you for addressing it and normalising it for your audience, I can't stress how important you are to particularly anyone struggling with mental health :) 🐝
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M RS2017-09-13 01:01:34 (edited 2017-09-13 01:02:03 )
This was wonderful 'cause I learned so much! Thank you Dodie and Kati!
Im so happy you made this video, it made me feel not alone. Thank you!! Ive had it for a year and a half and ive built my understanding of it so much more and i cant wait to get out of this cloud.
Thank you for making this video I didn't really understand what disassociation or depersonalisation was and was confused whenever you mentioned either or both and this clears up and helps me understand what these mental illnesses are.
Schema therapy is amazing! I have tried a bunch of meds, general talk therapy, CBT, TMS, a bunch of things in an intensive outpatient program, and they helped but none as much as schema therapy.
Wow. I've spoken with therapists about my anxiety and both told me I needed to open up because i honestly could not think of a huge event in my childhood that triggered my panic attacks. Not once did anyone suggest it could have been lots of little things. Thank you Kati and dodie! I'm seeing a new therapist in a few weeks and to be honest had lost a lot of hope in 'fixing' me. Will be great to approach it with this new found knowledge.
you dont know how freeing it is to finally know what has been "wrong" with me lately. I watched the video and it was like it made click, because thats exactly what is happening to me. I am so glad you made this video and gabe information on the topic
When I was in therapy my therapist also gave me some tips and tricks for somatic experiencing. He'd ask me how I was feeling at that exact moment and then he'd ask me to locate that feeling inside my body (anxiety, for example, I mostly experience in my stomach and throat, other feelings I might feel lower in my stomach, my arms, my head etc.). He told me to try that little exercise at different times during the day. This helped me with two things I'm still so thankful for: 1. it's become much easier to recognise how I'm feeling. I can just be like "why does my stomach feel so weird?" and then I remember it's probably because I'm anxious for some reason.With that knowlege I can then decide how I can best act on that feeling. and 2. I can now recongnise patterns in how I feel, when I feel those things, which people make me feel certain things and all that. This has made it so much easier for me to recognise my anxiety and not let myself run away from it. It also helped me to not get inside my head too much. Head is for thinking, body is for feeling. (obv. not 100% true, but it's a little rule I made for myself to prevent getting caught up in feelings in my head). This video was so great! thank you for making it!
That's so important and helpful to know three different types rather than just one. Thank you xx I have experienced derealisation and I just thought I was depressed with a migraine lol (or not) xx
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Fox _2017-09-12 09:31:03 (edited 2017-09-12 09:38:40 )
I've been living in a state of dissociation/derealisation for about 1-2 years after an extremely traumatic event, and I don't hate it or have a desire to get rid of it, mainly because I have extreme anxiety and hypersensitivity too and it helps to numb it, I truly believe if I felt fully connected I wouldn't be able to cope with everyday things that for people without hypersensitivity wouldn't even think twice about- not to mention the stuff that's going on around home I surely would have had a full blown breakdown. Sure it's a pain when everyone around me is just able to take things in when I have to put effort into taking things in and appreciating it but if I didn't feel spaced out and like I was in a haze I probably wouldn't even leave the house.
Let me first say that I love your music and your videos! They make my day better :)
Secondly, I would like to say that I'm a 20 year old Music Education student and I was wondering if music therapy could be an option that you've considered for derealization/depersonalization. I'm not a doctor, but I do strongly believe in the results that music therapy can bring. I'd like to maybe know your thoughts about it too :) Does Britain have any programs like this (I'm from Canada and I do know it's becoming more popular here)? Could this be another helpful thing for people with this disorder?
I don't want to seem bossy or anything; I'm just curious about what you think and I'd like to help in any way that I can haha.
Keep making videos Dodie and keep being an inspiration because you are doing amazing things :) Thanks :)
This video made me realize that I have had moments of derealization and depersonalization in the past. Last year, when I was at school, I just felt like I was floating through a dream that never ended. Youtube has helped me feel those emotions again and all of the sudden the feelings would go away! Something about school triggers it, but I don't know what. With depersonalization, I often, since I was very little, have felt disconnected with my body. I would look at my hands and feel weird, and try stomping my feet to make me feel connected, but nothing would work. I just felt like I was floating separate from my body. Eventually, it would pass, and I never thought much of it. Now, I can put a name to it and try to tell people how I feel! Thank you so much for making this video, it helped me a lot! Lots of love!
thank you dodie for uploading this video. I understand more about derealisation and know there are other mental diseases out in the world noticed. Maybe I do have something or maybe I don't. Overall, you made my eyes open and make me feel real for just at least some minutes.
I took Zoloft a few years ago and it made me way worse. I've tried a few other medications over the years that have really helped and made a huge difference, so I really hope you find a good fit for you! <3
Hi Dodie, I just wanted to ask you how you went about seeking help, i saw a Councillor for a while whilst at university but it reached a point where the person i was seeing believed me to be "cured" which i wasn't i've never been trialed on anything to help with my depersonalisation(dissociation) and i've had it for about 5 years now.
Great video, this is super interesting! I experience a few of these on and off occasionally and im ok with dealing with them a lot but when I'm worse especially when I'm panicked in a situation I can't get out of I get more physical things like painful pins and needles around my face and neck and the feeling like my skin crawling, what feels like really violent shivers down my spine, is this a form of depersonalisation or just a physical manifestation of panic? I've always just called it depersonalisation because it seems like it would be but idk, I've always been curious.
I'd like to try more types therapy though, I want to go back to talk therapy as it helped me a lot, especially with bigger things? but I don't know if other things are worth trying more for the long term. Not excepting all the answers from youtube comments but still 😂❤
This video made me realise what i thought was me being tired, emotionally exhausted, couldnt open my eyes, post anxiety attack or just in general. I would sometimes also look in the mirror and be like is that really me? I do also sometimes look at other people in a way i have never seen before and it makes them look like a stranger when i know perfectly well who they are, so thank you so much for this video! i have spent my whole life thinking i was insane but i suppose thats who we are hahahaa :) THE MUSICALLY INSANE! :):)
Thank you for making this. I think this was a healthy and educational way of explaining what you're dealing with. Thank you for opening up about your metal health struggles and helping others to do the same.
I never thought that anyone could ever experience of understand the 'floaty' and 'spaced out' feeling I feel nearly every day. But, I now think that I'm not so alone. It's so hard to describe how I feel when I'm anxious and/or stressed, but this video described it nicely. Thanks Dodie and Kati! :) x
I'm really reluctant to say that anything's wrong with me given that I'm so young, I've never had anything traumatic happen to me and I generally have a good memory, but I looked up a list of dissociation symptoms on a very reliable health website and I related to 8 out of 10 of them.
This is a great video and, as usual, you have managed to explain everything really well, etc. My only problem is that the only advice for what I should do was that oft-repeated phrase "talk to somebody!" See, although I should probably do all that, I also probably have social anxiety too, so the very idea of talking to somebody terrifies me beyond words. What do I do?
i am soooooo happy that dodie talks about this. this helps me soooo much. just the fact you can recognize these things and not feeling alone! im soo happy with this! there are no words for the gratefullness i feel right now. i love you for that
I also have depersonalisation and derealisation, that's linked to my anxiety and things from my past. This was so helpful, especially to know that I'm not alone. My derealisation makes me panic so much and usually happens in social situations. It's so disorientating that I just have to leave the situation and go home a lot of the time.
i remember seeing a post on tumblr of the behaviors of depersonalization and it hit me that this could be what was wrong with me. i researched it for like a week and saw myself in almost all of the signs. i brought it up to my mom and she didn't even ask why i thought i felt this way. all she said was "you can't believe everything you see on the internet" i'm still very sure i suffer from this. i don't even recognize myself in the mirror or pictures anymore. i almost caught myself asking my friend who this strange girl was in our group photo. i'm so so tired. and i don't know what to do.
this was super interesting to hear about, my knowledge of mental illnesses was super limited up until recently and i find learning new things like this, thought it is sad its kinda at your expense...
dodie, i'm not exactly sure what i hope to gain out of writing you this message, as i'm sure you get tons of messages like this daily. i suppose its more so for me than for you, but i really want you to know what an impact you have had on me. i have been struggling with depersonalization/derealization since i was little, but recently after a car accident was launched into it basically 24/7 for a couple of months now. its truly the scariest thing i've ever had to deal with, and there have been so many times when i have felt so completely alone and ready to give up. just seeing that you also struggle with this and that you still manage to do so much and reach so many people, honestly that keeps me going sometimes. this disorder is truly one of the most devastating things in my opinion, but you are such a bright light. so thank you, for this and for being you ❤️
The bit about the marbles was SO INTERESTING AND EYE-OPENING I never thought of trauma that way. I treated it as a single marble I wouldn't stop picking up instead of something that's been shattered/dispersed through everything.
This helped a lot for me to understand what I'm told I have when ever a panic attack it's going to happen which I guess is a good thing in away because I know when I need to take myself out of something so yeah thanks 😊
i don't know what type of dissociation i suffer from but i believe it's some type of mix between derealisation and depersonalisation. when i experience it (which is quite often) it feels like a different world in my head. it's basically like i'm writing a book/a whole different universe every time i experience it. it is a continuous story but when i get tired of it or when somehow i start "writing" a new world the older one doesn't feel right anymore and it stresses me out to "force" myself to continue with the older one. everybody in my "universe" (i believe that they're called paracosmos in the literature world) has their own set story and life and thoughts and i can project myself onto any of them and "live" as them and that's how i deal with my real life issues - i make up some storyline that somehow makes my character feel in a similar way to the way i'm feeling irl and deal with it by not being myself per say. some characters are reoccurring since i was 14 (i have experienced this since i was 12 but i recall moments when i was 7/8 of very similar situations) and others die with the paracosmos i leave behind (i still remember them and their lives and all of that jazz, and sometimes i bring them back) (characters can stay alive but i change parts of their storyline and you know i make sure they fit into whatever world i picture). it is mostly triggered and stimulated by audio and visuals and when i watch a movie or a tv show and a character from those really speak to certain parts of me i almost always make sure to include parts of them in my paracosmos (i don't know if i'm expressing myself correctly). i also feel very attached and connected to them. i do lose keep track of time and sometimes space when i experience this and i do have gaps in memory because of this. i also have a really weird sense of time like it still feels like 2012 in my head (i was 12 at the time). i also experience this involuntarily when i'm in a not so positive mood and have lots of stress and anxiety or when i'm sad and all that jazz. when i'm happy it cools down a bit and i can sort of choose when to "write" it? like i know that if i listen to music when i'm happy i will dissociate and i know that if i'm walking by myself i will also do it etc. aside from this when i'm living in the real world i do experience feeling like i'm out of my body and i'm not inside of it (specially in social situations and when i have to interact with people) it feels like i'm in a movie you know? there's a lot more stuff that goes around this thing but i feel like i've written too much so i'm going to keep it to myself. also sorry if there are any mistakes i'm not a native english speaker x
Hi! I have a question/need advice: I took a math test yesterday and as I started getting more stressed because of time, I could feel myself getting more and more sucked away. After I came to terms with the fact that I wasn't gonna finish it, I decided to do the easy ones on the back, but I couldn't even remember how to do a simple factoring problem. My mind wasn't there at all. I was wondering how to fix this/bring my mind back when this happens? When it does come back after I get out of that situation, panic attacks come on because everything rushes at me at once. Any ways to bring my mind back to focus WHILE it happens, then not get flooded afterwards?
Hi Dodie, do you think you would be able to keep the text on the screen for a little longer if possible? I never have time to read it all! 🙈 love your videos and thank you for posting stuff like this. I don't suffer from any mental health disorders, but I always find it so interesting hearing about it from a first hand experience!
I had a really intense period of time when I had insomnia for more than 3 weeks, was even unable to catch up on sleep on the weekends, which was something that always kept me from going too far over the side of the cliff, - I was at the point I would fall asleep for brief moments at my desk at work and I was hearing voices and having moments where I didn't know where I was or how I got there, and I felt very spacey and out of it - and one time, I had a moment when I looked at myself in a mirror and didn't recognize myself. As horrible as it was, somehow it actually threw me for such a loop, I actually addressed the problem. I took a week off of work and just, basically self-cared because I can't afford a doctor but it really helped and I hope that never happens again.
wow I've had derealization and depersonalization and I didn't know what was wrong but this helped me out so so much. I just didn't feel like I was there and I didn't feel like I was my self. I have more memories with my derealization because it used to happen A LOT. I never knew what was wrong. During those "episodes" I don't like talking to anyone because it makes me feel more out of myself. Thank you soooo much
I don't have depersonalisation or derealisation but watching this was really interesting and really quite soothing. I feel like when I come to a mental block I can use some of these tips so thank you :-)
last year I had severe depersonalisation. just like you say in the video I would look at my hands and face and not recognize myself, it was terrifying, so terrifying that I couldn't even look in the mirror because I wouldn't recognize the person staring back. I remember looking down as I was walking and there were just legs walking, they were my legs, but I couldn't process that. I also felt derealisation but not as severely as depersonalisation. not knowing what this was, was so so scary and I didn't know how to fix it. now a year later I have researched and figured out how to help it and though I don't have it as severely I still get depersonalised sometimes. thankyou for making people aware of these things Dodie and for telling the world how you're feeling because not many people are brave enough to do so, you're really a blessing.
Dodie, how brave you were at Vidcon. I took my 12 year old daughter to see you on the mental health panel, at her request. She is so inspired by you. Thank you for sharing and being so brave. You help so many young people to talk about mental health. I look forward to watching your journey with my daughter. X
I've been dealing with dissociation and depersonalisation disorder for over a year now. I was scared to watch this video, because Dodie has always been my escape from everything. The world is so unfair for making her feel the same things and struggling with this condition the same way I and many people do. This video was very informative and super accurate, good job girls 👏🏻💕 I still felt hopeless after watching this, like I always do when it comes to dissociation. I just feel like there is no cure for this. Nothing ever works. I feel like I will never feel alive again and I will never get back the contact to myself that I once lost. I don't know who I am, I only know who I once was. But that person in the past is not me anymore. I just wish everything would end and I found myself again. It will be over, but I'll always be asking "when?"
I immediately recognised Kati from that one Always open episode that I put in my then-newly-established "Important things" playlist. So now I have a ton of collab videos in my watch later playlist... Time to get to watching ~
one of the first medications I tried was Zoloft, and it didn't work for me at all. I've been on medication since I was about 13 or 14, and I didn't find (what I think is) the right medication until I was about 16, and even now, my doctor checks with my medication and considers changing my "cocktail" of meds! :) i'm afraid of therapies like TCMS because I'm not really familiar with it and I'm afraid that it will be dangerous! I've only tried CBT, and I didn't feel like it worked for me. I am trying a new therapist at the end of the month, though, so we'll see how that goes!
As someone who also suffers from derealisation and depersonalisation and is constantly told by therapists, "I don't know what's wrong with you," or "I don't know how to help you", this video was endlessly helpful for me. Thank you ❤️
i've struggled with derealisation, depersonalisation and dissociation for years now alongside depression, anxiety and ptsd. i've tried a crazy amount of psychs and therapy styles as well as being inpatient. im on the up now, still struggling with derealisation, depersonalisation and dissociation as well as bouts of depressive episodes and anxiety but im getting there. seeing you talk about something that doesnt get a lot of attention in mental health communities is really refreshing. i was super nervous seeing this in my sub box that you might say some incorrect information or whatever but im really pleased with this video thank you so much for making it dodie x
I have a few kinda medium-sized rather recent traumas, and my therapist did this emdr-esque thing with me when I was having like, constant derealization and flashbacks multiple times a day for weeks where we'd talk about it and then when I'd get too deep and start not to be there she'd stop me and we'd talk about something that gives me comfort in really vivid detail. It was incredibly helpful and my flashbacks basically stopped after that, even though the stimulus that was causing them got worse.
Curious to know your feelings on are there any folks more prone to this type of thing than others? I'm thinking maybe say high-achieving creative types, or is it across the board and we're all equally prone do you think?
I'd really recommend trying schema therapy! I've just done some training for it in London and it's a really incredible and effective model of therapy, especially for traumas (of all sizes)
Wow this video was so good and helpful??? The smashed marble analogy really resonates with me as someone who didn't really have one big trauma but rather several small ones over time.
When I got trama last year in my freshmen year and my way to cope was talking to myself which then turned into a "imaginary friend". This friend then began becoming abusive (since they were my own thoughts) and kept me up at night. I haven't talked about it with anyone cause I'm 15 and I feel like they'll think I've gone mad...
Wow! I didn't know that was a thing! I don't deal with it anymore but for a while when I spoke I didn't recognize my own voice it was very alarming and very uncomfortable. Glad to know there is a term for that if it ever sparks up again
I experience derealization because of a major traumatic experience and sometimes it gets so bad where I become basically unresponsive because I'm just so spaced out and it leads to people getting angry at me because I don't respond to them and when I'm so spaced out it can be scary when someone is yelling at me while I feel like nothing is real.
I've never been diagnosed with mental illness, but I feel like the past two years have held a plethora of mental difficulties, not necessarily disorders in long term. But recently I feel like I'm no longer going through a really rough time (up until now life felt like too much and I couldn't handle it and I was crying and yelling and all over the place) now I feel like time is passing with me being totally neutral and sedated to it, like I'm not actually experiencing anything. I don't seem to get bored anymore because I feel like I'm ten miles away from my own mind whenever it happens. Weird, anyone else have this happen?
I have only felt de realisation a couple of times but it was weird that people describe it like a dream to me because in my dreams, I was always watching myself and NOTHING felt real whilst when I experiences de realisation, I could totally feel myself. I was in tune with myself and what I was feeling and thinking, it was just like everything else around me had turned into a dream. The sky would look painted, I couldn't feel or hear things as well and it's like I just zoomed back into my own brain. Most of it was actually caused by me just only thinking about myself for a while to come to terms with whatever the fuck had just happened to my brain. It was a lot more constant when I was much younger and it didn't seem to be caused by anything, now I hardly get it, now I just get depressed....Yaaaaay. Haha...ha.
It took me 2 years to get a doctor to take me seriously when I described my DPD symptoms. Some even laughed at me and said I just need for sleep... After one doctor referred me, it took another year to be referred to a mental health nurse after which I had to wait 6 months for my first session. It didn't work - so they put me on Sertraline, despite me requesting not to go on it.
I'm sure this worsened my symptoms and has put me in a frame of mind where seeking treatment is futile, so I haven't, even though my medications don't work and I feel worse than I have done for 4 years. But TMS is hopeful, lets hope it makes it on to NHS funding! (doubtful tho).
I think I might ask about derealisation. Both of my parents are doctors so I'll start there. I've had anxiety pop in and out of my life for years (yesterday was a diSASTER) and sometimes have spaced out days, but ever since a tragedy a month and 11 days ago (my grandma died suddenly and we had to fly across the world again having just returned home from Africa the day before and it was the first day of the school term aghhhh) and the whirlwind that followed, I've been increasingly spaced out. I went through a period of utter grief where I cried every day, but now, with exams coming up and school taking away my time to grieve properly, something happened in my brain. I open my eyes and cannot believe what I see. I clap my hands together and I sense the touch but don't feel it in my bones or register that it happened. I see my face in the mirror and it's like a startle. It's so foreign - I used to be someone who made the most of everyday. Now I waste through them and could sit for hours staring into space. I have no track of time at all. The things you described in this video have peaked my interest and I think I might do some asking around and researching. Thanks so much :))
i''ve had depersonalisation since 2012 after being severely bullied online by supposed friends, making friends with one of them again and then that person dying (to put it blunt) without having a chance to have questions answered., i feel like im constantly looking through someone elses eyes a little bit like VR only a virtual reality of life. every thing i touch or feel feels secondry. i find i'm worse when in anxious situations. ive never wanted to be put on anything because if fear of getting worse and feeling less emotion than i have already. a Councillor gave me grounding techniques to do but i found that didnt work for me either. like you i reached a point were i started to tell myself, this is my life now but i also have moments where i want my life back but i dont know how. I also feel my own issues come from problems i faced in childhood too, being bullied by my teacher, due to learning difficulties, too.
I feel like I'm kind of constantly having derealisation (or like feeling like nothing is real and everything is a dream) and I've had it for so long that I've gotten used to it but lately I've been having these little moments where it's like I "wake up" and suddenly realise that everything IS real and I'm a human being that's experiencing it, but since I'm so unaccostemed to feeling like this it makes me freak out and feel like this isn't my life/isn't me and I think maybe from that I get depersonalisation because I feel like my hands aren't really attatched to me and it's somebody else living this life that I've been having and I'm just watching??
It's strange because I've just had a day of feeling spaced out but I feel so much more connected to myself now I'm watching this video, maybe because I relate? Or because it's helping me feel less alone x
When my derealization gets really bad I become paranoid about if my reality is real and feel like I'm trapped in a dream and I'm on the brink of lucidity in the dream, just not quite there. I focus on specific things happening in the environment and with my body and tell myself these are the things I will remember from the dream when I wake up (but I am awake, so when I'm asleep). As a writer, most of the stories I write involve parallel/multi-layered realities, so I've labeled my derealization as moments of "inspiration" because I'm in the head space of the stories I write.
Really enjoyed watching this video. I don't have depersonalisation or anything but hearing kati talk about some of those things were so interesting and make me really want to study psychology. I went through and read to comments and so many people are saying they're struggling. I know this won't help or do anything but I'm so sorry you're having a hard time <3 I hope you get the help you need and I do believe that everything will turn out okay <3 xxx
I think I had derealization as a child. I don't recall having any other kind of mental illness. In fact, I don't recall much of my childhood because everything felt like a dream. I think that because of my derealization I cannot figure out if I had anxiety or depression or anything else and also why I didn't do well in school. What helped me was moving to another city and school. I don't know how but it did because I realized that I was having less moments when I felt like I was in a dream. I hope you can overcome your condition soon because it's quite freaky to feel like that and you don't deserve that feeling.
I don't know if this is exactly what I struggle with, but it seems to be a close match. I do often feel as if everything is a dream and I can't process what real life means, I also struggle with brain fog, which for me feels like pressing up against a window (seeing) and not being able to look behind you, so everything you need you have to put your arms behind you and feel for (thinking) and the bit where you remove yourself from the situation is the worst. it's somewhere between turning yourself into data and having a video game glitch and you're underneath the character and the graphics are wonky. this is such a weird description, but anyways, I'm going to look into it.
Dodie, I really think you should try another kind of medication aswell. Zoloft is in my experience the SSRI that most often causes a feeling of being blunted. Try maybe escitalopram or venlafaxin instead. And give it a bit more time than four weeks. Obviously you don't have to, but I think that it might be worth giving it a shot :) x
I feel like I have dissociation, but it's not during moments of stress or trauma. It's mainly brought on by being awake in the middle of the night. Could being awake really late cause a trigger in my brain?
To me, looking in a mirror is a scarrest part of depersonalisation because you start to realize so well that something is wrong. Luckily I haven't experienced this for a long time like now it happens only when I'm extra tired and sad, it feels like your body tries to protect you
Hey everyone, So I've felt so uncannily similar to how Dodie and Kati were describing but where can I go to get a professional opinion to officially confirm/ deny if I have this problem??? Plz halp!
every time you talk about this, i feel a little less "crazy" because no one in my personal life understands it at all. it makes me feel like it's more real and like i'm not making it up. thank you! x
I think beginning to try and get out of your state ( whatever your "problem" is, wether it's depersonalisation/realisation or anxiety ) is the first step and maybe hardest, for some people, towards healing...
Could you please talk more about the magnetic therapy (or whatever it's called 😂). I'm interested and I want to know a little more about how my brain works. I don't really talk about my mental health because I don't understand what I'm feeling or why. Thanks lyl x
i have derealisation/depersonalisation and i've heard from so many different places that the best thing to do is to talk to someone, but i don't have anyone to talk to. i feel like none of my friends would take me seriously, or even think i made this up for attention. what should i do?
Is it bad that i really enjoy when my hands no longer feel like their mine? Like feeling like I'm just floating through crowds is something I've enjoyed, i never thought it could be my brain coping with stress. Now I'm questioning how much i skip out of reality and if it's healthy
When I get really depressed I don't recognise myself. Like I'll know I'm the one moving my body but it doesn't feel like me and when I look into a mirror I know it's my face because I know I'm looking into a mirror but I don't recognise it. The longest that it has happened for one time was about a week
edit When you were talking about small childhood issues that weren't that big but seemed worse at the time. At one stage the back of my hands were hit with a wooden spoon until my knuckels were bleeding, things like that still dont seem like a small issue
This was so interesting, and Kati is adorable. I don't deal with dissociation often, only very occasionally - it's like i'm hyper aware of my body, but i'm not in it, i'm like a ghost observing it from outside. It's weird, and not very pleasant, but nor is feeling completely stuck in my body while i'm having a panic attack. Not sure what's worse tbh
I don't know how to explain it but I felt what I believe was disassociation for several months towards the begining of the year, it was awful but everyone (psychologists and docters) didn't really seem to know what I was talking about. Months of feeling like I was in a fog, that I couldn't think properly or do school work yet noone understood. I'm glad I haven't been like that much recently, hopefully never again. .
I feel damaged because 2015 until early 2017 I had a friend who had a brother who shut me in my friends room and I yelled help but nobody heard and he once held my hands stuck and I am young and other little things I think that's harassment but he traumatised me
after a huge fire swept where i live my house and family were fine i didnt know why i feklt like that and i walked into the door coming back home cuz i was at a friends house and it was the first time i had been back home since the fire and they moved the couches out of my hosue and the white walls were covered with ash i stood in the door way and it hit like a wave i had no idea where i was or what i was doing i was walking and talking but i didnt k\\now where i was kind of it felt like i wasnt there at alll and it was so bad i cried every night and everyday cuz it wouldnt go away i started sleeping on the floor in my moms room so i wouldnt feel so alone but 3 months later my big sister got in a car crash and i was getting better and it felt like i just got pushed back into a bigger hole in the cold ground and after about another year i started feeling like i was there like i was awake and i got better but it took alot of work and time and i still get waves of it now 3 years on and i have to say it is terrifying like i am walking the halls and everything looked bigger i could use my eyes to make everything look bigger but it didnt go smaller and i would look up and i realised i wasnt here i was there i wasnt anywhere i was just a body walking around i didnt even know where i was going but i kept walking doing things making breakfast and i didnt know what i was doing its honestly so terrifying i thought i ad depression but turns out i must have had some sort of dissociation now the only thing keeping me sane is music lol i use it kinda like a meditation like i sit in the dark crossed legs headphones in listening to a song that i can relate to and i could sit for hours and hours doing that music is timeless for me and its what made me feel better
When I have panic attacks I can't feel anything, last time my friend was hugging me and I didn't know until she told me. It also feels like you've lost your sight? Because you're so out of it it's almost like you can't see in away and you're memory goes away, I don't know but that's what I have
I'm always so confused how you can like “test“ if you have depersonalisation or derealisation because how can I know that I feel spaced out? Like sometimes I feel like in a dream but then I'm like: “ah no it's real“ and that's it idk it's weird
So I feel like something's wrong with me, I go through emotional trauma, I know I should be upset, but I don't feel it. I feel the same as always. Whenever I'm happy, I feel like I'm acting for everyone else's benefit. I don't know why or what is going on. Sometimes I feel completely detached from everything else, like it's not even happening to me, like I'm there but I'm not... then sometimes I feel like myself, like my friends love me and I'm healthy, then something upsetting happens and it's like someone punched me in the stomach, but I can't feel it. I want to cry, I know I should be upset but I can't do it... does everyone go through this? Is it just me?
I don't have depersonalisation but every now and then I can have a Trippy/ strange situation where I look at my hands and they don't feel like me. I say my name over and over in my head and I think 'who is that ' like how is my identity a name ? Just wondered if anyone else has experienced this ?
I don't have derealisation but I have anxiety and I sometimes get spaced out randomly. For example, I will be sitting in class and I will zone out just randomly and the same question pops in my head, what if reality is a dream? I feel like I'm dreaming!
It's very odd. If you have this please could you give me some wise advice because I am very confused lol thanks! Also Dodie I hope you get better soon with your therapy help! I'm not going to give you my pity because I think that that's the worst thing someone can do when your going through something. You kind of just want them to go away😂 Thank you for sharing this video with us! It sure helped me and hopefully a lot of other people! I love you Dodie! x
Hmm...I don't know if I have depersonalization but is it weird that I can relate to some things? Like, I experience them a bit differently but I feel constantly "spaced out" as if I were on weed 24/7. Or I just generally feel empty, no emotions whatsoever. As if I've lost the ability to feel and nothing really matters anymore. I feel like I can barely get up in the morning because mere existence is exhausting. I want to feel, I want to live but I can't and I don't know what's wrong with me. Can someone please tell me if they feel the same? If anyone knows what I could possibly have, please tell me because I can't figure it out.
So I don't think I have depersonalization or derealization but I don't know what is it that keeps happening. I can almost put myself in a certain state where it feels almost like a video game in the sense of where my hands or the wheel of a car seems unreal but I still feel and am responsive. And I snap in and out almost. It also feels like numbing and my body like completely relaxes but inside I panic cause it freaks me out. I'm unsure of what to do really about it.
I don't think I have depersonalization or depression but sometimes I feel so tired of just living -- I'm disappointed that my interactions aren't always amazing and how my schedule is on constant repeat. Is this a young adult life crisis or am I simply tired of being in routine?
I'm getting R.E.M. Therapy for a trauma that I believe caused derealisation? After a period of dramatic realization I became overcame by my emotions and I believe that being overwhelmed by said emotions lead to that parachute. My experience doesn't seem to link up with others, I started to see things in atmospheres almost? It's like I could recognize the world, but it kept changing. Like it was a different season or different year every day, if that makes any sense. I don't know how to feel.
Are there more people that tried emdr but couldnt think back to the memories, because they were to much or something like that? I had that and i feel like it wouldve helped so much if i just dared to think back
no wonder you didn't like medication if you were upped to 100mg so quickly!!! i really you should try meds (loads of different types if sertraline didn't work for you) at 50mg a day, it changed my life and all my family's and there's no shame in it x
holy shit. I think i have derealization. i always feel like i'm not actually 'there' like it was all a dream. i thought it wasn't a mental illness i always thought that it's just me being weird? but i didn't have any traumatic past though. i'm really scared.
I "zone out" when I'm stressed and start to be quiet and sometimes I do it in class and it scares my teacher 😂 ;-; and I todally feel like I'm not here or like life is just a dream when it happens
Okay so this is no way me trying to get sympathy, because I am doing very well mentally. This is mainly out of curiosity. So, summer 2016 I was really really I'll, basically I was in and out of hospital for a month, I had three surgeries and basically lost a lot of weight. Anyway, I went back to school four days after getting out of hospital (only for like an hour a day) and it definitely tired me out a lot. Basically what I'm trying to say is that during my recovery time I'd feel a lot of things described in the video. It wasn't constant (like it is for Dodie) but a lot of the time I'd feel like I was almost in a dream, and nothing really felt real. I wasn't too worried as it didn't happen for long periods at a time and it didn't happen lots. Also my memory of when I was ill is quite foggy and I can't pinpoint specific moments. So, I was wondering if you can get derealisation that only lasts for a short time. Because once I got better it stopped happening. I'm fine now so don't worry, I'm just curious if that's what it was as I'm trying to learn more about mental health illnesses so I can be more helpful to friends who might go through these thing.
ok so i think i might have derealisation ever since school has started (i'm talking kindergarten) i've had moments where i space out. it's almost like my memory is a bunch of folders and all of a sudden 5 of the most recent folders are just burned. it's kinda like falling asleep (?) because i can't remember it starting or ending. like, i'll be in class and the teacher will be talking and it'll happen (i'll space out). a friend will walk up to me and be like "oh do you wanna be partners (?)" and i'll just go "when were we told that?" "literally 5 minutes ago" "wait what she wasn't saying that" blah blah blah memory folders gone. idk
I always had this when I was 8-12 like the dream one and hand one, sorry I can't remember the names. I didn't know what it was I just thought I was weird I also have anxiety
when i was younger i used to feel like i was trapped in my body and that my hands weren't my part of my body and now i'm just realizing i am mentally ill
For some reason I always feel like everything around me is fake and I think back to me walking down the school corridors and know I'm home and getting so confused as it went so fast then I think how fast is life going to go and is it real at all
okay i need help. sometimes i get a feeling that sort of sounds like this but i dont know if it is or not. for example the other night i was in the backseat of my friends' car on the way home from a movie and idk why but she started tickling me as a joke and we were laughing and i was squirming and as i bent over to hide my face from her, i just felt this really weird wave of disconnection. like i was floating outside of my body, and i couldnt feel myself smiling or smell anything and all the sounds around me went hazy, like i was under water. it happened again twice that night when i was just sitting there in the car, not even laughing and moving around anymore. its happened more times for sure but that was the most recent. is this something to look into?
i'm not sure i have dissociation/depersonalization/derealisation? idk, i have long periods where my brain feels disconnected from my body... kinda like,, floating in the space above my head? weird concept i know,, and i don't feel like i have any emotion and every feeling- physical or emotion- is like dulled at the edges and sometimes lights can seem too bright and everything i hear seems like white noise. i don't really have trauma tho so idkkkk i feel like i'm being dramatic and unnecessary
I dont know if this is a mental illness as such, but just in this past year, i just feel like im fake. Like im being me around everyone, i always try to be myself, but i feel like being me, isnt ME. I dont know how to explain it. For example, ill wake up in the morning, ill either feel ok or like shit. There not really an in between (i suffer from depressive episodes), ill get ready for school and ill go to school, ill get my daily education, i have fun with friends, over all, i have a good time. After school ends i go home i feel like somehow i wasnt being honest enough and as my parents get home, i act 'normal' again as the afternoon goes on i feel that same way. Im being myself but somehow its not ME. I go to bed and dont get much sleep because im dwelling over that fact. I just feel like im doings something wrong or pretending to be someone im not. But im not. Im me. But at he same time im not. i feel disconnected. Like im there in the moment with everyone but when i look back on it, its like a dream. its getting harder to tell things that happened and things that didnt apart. Its really bothering me.
I know this sort of isn't on topic but, it kind of is but can trauma as a child cause you illness in your adult life? I had trauma as a child and I am mess without my partner, I have rheumatoid arthritis and a bunch of other fun health issues and they are sending me for a brain scan soon because I keep forgetting things and loads more... would they be able to see anything on my brain scan? Because I know sometimes when you're in pain 24/7 your brain doesn't fully work like is there a way to see trauma is involved too I've not really spoken to anyone about this before xx
I don't know if I have derealisation. I usually feel like nothing and that there is no hope in living anymore. Dark thought come to my mind and they don't scare me. Then other days I'm in a dream like world, like I'm sleepwalking around. I have moments of realising I'm alive and notice whats going on but then I just feel anxious because I don't know what's happened. Most days its either feeling nothing at all, then feeling everything at the same time. I don't see myself in the mirror, its like watching a video of the same person instead of my reflection or my hands look like plastic or from another person. My hands are shaking and I can't control them. I guess this doesn't make sense.
Hi I don't really know why I'm doing this but I guess it's a way to say something and not have anyone knows it's me.Im so sorry if your reading this,this is prosbly gonna suck.So,I'm relatively young(still in high school) and I think (I thiinnkkk) I may need help.Like I need to get medication or go to a therapist and I know I know something is wrong I can feel it in my brain but my mum hasn't noticed anything so I guess in my head it means it can't be that bad.This is getting ridiculously long and I'm sorry but I just wanna scream what's the point of being here any more god damn it
Idek what's wrong with me if can't even form the words to make out what was wrong with me. It could be depression but I know for a fact I have anxiety I just don't know how severe. I went to go talk to a psychologist, but I don't know how to be verbal about my issues bc idk what's wrong. I am soooo confused with how I feel and my parents won't take me to a psychiatrist bc they don't want me on meds. Bc they think that they won't help bc my mom said she took them when she was a child and they made her feel disconnected from the world. But it affects everyone differently. But they don't understand. My mom says it's part of being a teenager and it's all in my head. And idk what to do. Omg I didn't think it was normal to feel this way when you're a "teenager" but my mom seems to have all the answers. And it drive me fucking mad. Bc I can't talk to anyone bc I can't explain what I feel. And jeez. Does anyone have any advice. I'm probably just rambling. My mind feels like mush like its in a haze of some sort. Idk pls help me someone. 😩😳😢
Idk. I don’t wanna assume anything, and I’m rly late to this. I dot wanna talk to my friends on this cause I don’t want them to see me as looking for attention. Whenever I’m really the area of mind. I sorta bunch up a lot and stare at something. If I’m with people I have to back away from the group. It feels like a massive weight has been put inside of my mind which makes everything rly loopy and I don’t rly have any attention span or anything. It’s mainly in the evenings but it can happen during the day. I also seriously forget that I’m even a body. Like I’ll look around me and realise that this thing is me. But that’s probably just normal. I’ve never spoken about this with anyone really. Is it normal? Lol. After the one I had tonight I’m genuinely thinking about getting a therapist, but it is 3am, and as we all know. I’ll have probably forgotten it tomorrow. Ahah.
Honestly, I've been dealing with this feeling of being in a constant dream and I never knew what it was. I thought everyone felt like this, but until you started talking about it and bringing attention to it, I had no clue. So thank you for introducing me to what I haven't been able to find in years.
This video is amazing. I'm experiencing a lot of depersonalisation the past year and this has helped me a lot 👍🏻 thanks for talking about your struggles x
Ah this is so great! Kati seems like a wonderful therapist! I'm getting schema therapy for trauma-based depression and anxiety with dissociation and after almost ten years of therapy, it's the first thing that's actually worked for me!
Thanks for making this. I never really knew what was going on in my brain when sometimes things don't feel "real". It started after I gave birth to my son. I never really thought of it as "trauma" but pushing out a human is pretty traumatic, I guess. It only happens sometimes and I can pull myself back in but it's nice to know it's a thing other people experience and it has a name!
as a person with depersonalization/derealization, this is so true and i love the explanation of this video. wish i had people around me that understands this feeling.
I've been told that I did all of my depression and anxiety and everything else by myself and that nothing that had happened to me when I was young could have caused it. I feel so alone tbh and hearing that I'm not this makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thank ya Dodie you have always helped ❤.
A couple weeks ago I had a minor trauma event where I was left alone. I get super spaced out when i'm left alone and I always try to stay aware of things around me. I didn't know what it was until this video so thank you Dodie <3
Thank you so much for this video Dodie. I've had derealisation for almost 8 years now but have never gotten any treatment for it. I'm going to show this video to my mother who I've been trying to explain this to for all this time, and maybe she'll finally see what I've been talking about. Hopefully it'll encourage her to finally find me a therapist 😕 It's really comforting to know that other people deal with this issue, I've felt very alone in it for a while now so thanks again.
Grounding through the senses has really helped me whether it be with depersonalization/derealization, anxiety, or ptsd! Also, I'm so so so happy the two of you got to sit down and make some helpful vids about this topic. I hope it really helps others who may be struggling. ♥
I found this video so informative Dodie, loved it!! Kati was great at explaining stuff too :) I would really love for you to keep making videos on mental health because I think it helps so much just for people to hear someone talk about what they're going through or want to understand mental health better.love you <3
Thank you so much for this lovely video! I just recently started going to a therapist for my depersonalization/anxiety/depression, and even after just one session I feel so much better simply knowing that somebody professional is helping me. Like many others, I also didn't know that it could be caused by little traumas. Something I repeated over and over in my session was "I've never been through anything huge, like a car crash or sexual assault. There's no real reason why this is happening." But now it makes sense. Thank you so much!!
this is such a helpful video, thank you so much for making it. ive struggled with dissociation and derealization since i was maybe 8 years old, and hearing people explain exactly how ive been feeling for years of my life helps so much & explains so much about myself. thank you so so much for bringing awareness!!
i know you mentioned depersonalization in a passing a while ago and i was like 'hmm. sound's like i feel sometimes.' and after watching this i'm pretty sure i go through mild bouts of depersonalization/derealization, which is good to know for when it happens. thank you! xx
oh my GOD i’ve been trying to explain this FEELING of not being in my own body (sort of?) and feeling distant from reality and sometimes forgetting i’m a person and looking in the mirror and being supersized at my appearance and THIS IS IT. THIS IS MY FEELING. IT HAS BEEN PUT INTO WORDS. IM NOT INSANE. ITS A REAL THING. THANK YOU SO MUCH.
You two were both amazing at VidCon and spoke about things that really resonated with me! Thank you endlessly you wonderful humans! I also gave you a letter which I really hope you get to read. It wasn't much but I meant every word. Thanks again xo
Damn okay so I just cried all the way through this video. As you were both talking, it just connected to me more and more and it all got a bit much I guess. I've been going through a ROUGH derealisation stage since Friday and have been really struggling. This came at a good time. I find comfort in hearing people talking about it. Thanks <3
Damn okay so I just cried all the way through this video. As you were both talking, it just connected to me more and more and it all got a bit much I guess. I've been going through a ROUGH derealisation stage since Friday and have been really struggling. This came at a good time. I find comfort in hearing people talking about it. Thanks <3
wow, thank you both! it was really helpful for me to hear about the "little T's" because i think that has something to do with the 'trama' in my life and why i feel like nothing was a big deal (because i haven't been in a car crash or something like that) so that helped me a lot. i'm trying to get some help and untangle my brain, and thank you dodie for helping me do that.
Dodie you have no idea how glad I am that you made this video. I've told my friends that I don't feel like I feel and I don't process things anymore and I never knew that this is what it is. you described it and it's exactly what I've been dealing with since I was 13. I cried after watching this like you have no idea what this means to me. thank you so much
I've never been diagnosed with mental illness nor do I think I suffer from it, but this was super interesting! especially all the metaphors/allegories for how trauma and stuff works.
Thank you for this video. I have gotten to the point of feeling so elsewhere everyday I can barely speak. Today when I tried to speak I'd just break down crying. I really want to say thank you for making this because every time I see something like this it reminds me I'm not totally alone
I always love watching your videos about mental health awareness they always make me feel less alone and weird about my health. Also intrigued. I've learned so much about my mental health because of your videos and researching stuff right after watching your videos lol but I would've been slumped if you weren't as vocal as you are now :'-) thank ya!
This was so comforting Dodie, knowing that someone I admire also deals with this. I am used to it happening on occasion when I'm to excited. However, I recently dealt with the beasts of derealisation and depersonalization for about a month where it was a constant cloud over my head that I can only really remember two or three moments where I felt like "myself" and that I was emotional human being. It made my already anxious personality worse, and I would attempt to do normal business or hangout with friends and feel like I was watching through a window, like my mind was trapped and my vision often blurred. However, with sleep, medication and therapy I am doing better. It really opened my eyes to what other people go through sometime and all I have to say is if you're in a position to, "get help". It may be hard but if it is difficult to cope with find friends who can listen to you non-judgementally and seek professional help to hopefully help you through the process. I found it hard to put myself and well-being first, but it is important to do so you can enjoy life. Everyone should have that chance to enjoy the things they do.
I literally squealed when I saw thisI've been following Kati since before she was had her liscense and I hadn't been diagnosed with anything yet and I've been following you for god knows how long and I so did not realise how perfect and essential this collaboration was until I sawIt. Thank you for this. I feel exactly like you Dodie and sertralne did not work for Me Either.. at alll. I hope you find what works for you gal and thank you eternallyFor being so open ❤️ Xxx
Such a good video dodie!! Have you tried something like yoga or a dance class? I know for me, dancing relieves a lot of stress and makes you feel more connected to your body, like the word somatic I think. ❤️
I suffer from the three of them. It's awful, specially when you're in college I think. Something that helps me is touching my fingers with my thumb repeatedly, I don't know why, but it works for me. Also DBT abilities, though I know it doesn't work for everyone. I love this video, relatable. Thanks
I'm on 100mg of sertraline atm, I've had that dosage for a few months and was on 50mg for several years before. Oddly I've felt more emotional since being on the higher dose rather than robotic or empty feeling. I've felt totally separate from my body for a while now, but I don't think it's severe enough to be depersonalisation and I think it might just be my low self esteem, and as an anxiety riddled depressive I don't try and work out what's going on with me because it's so muddled
I've never had a therapist who was able to understand what i was trying to describe. Thank you so much for bringing her onto your channel, this was so helpful
I'm on 100mg of sertraline atm, I've had that dosage for a few months and was on 50mg for several years before. Oddly I've felt more emotional since being on the higher dose rather than robotic or empty feeling. I've felt totally separate from my body for a while now, but I don't think it's severe enough to be depersonalisation and I think it might just be my low self esteem, and as any anxiety riddled depressive I don't try and work out what's going on with me because it's so muddled
thanks so much for making this. i cannot self diagnose myself but i deal with derealisation 24/7. when looking into it, i didn't realise how much i've put my brain through and i'm so annoyed that its lead to this horrible feeling. i hope one day i will be able to get further treatment but my social anxiety holds me back.
THIS WAS SO INTERESTING HECK! I've never heard of EMDR before but it sounds like it could be super helpful. I'm about to try some person centred attachment based therapy so we'll see how that goes. If not though I may have an alternative to try next yay. Also I'm not sure if my issues are attachment related or trauma related or both. I do think some of my attachment issues are caused by trauma of sorts though so that's interesting...
thank you so much for this !!! it clears a lot of things up aaaah i actually think i get dissociation a lot i really really want to talk to a therapist but im having difficulty convincing my mom to get me there oof
I just want to say, whenever I am on your channel with videos like this, I always tear up or bawl. Always. It's my way of coping but I never cry in public and it's so hard. I stop crying for maybe a month no matter what but the one time I cry after the long while, I can't stop. It feels like I can't control my body and al the tears were the tears that were held in. I watched this video and finally understood what I recently encountered. School recently started and I also went to a concert. While there, I couldn't process it. It felt like I wasn't there, that it wasn't really happening. It links with my depression, i knew that much. But I started to tear up because you always guide me towards the place I want to know or go. You relate to people who think they're alone, and you openly talk about it and want to get better. I thank you so much.
I got a Master's degree in counseling and sadly, my program clearly wasn't very good because a lot of this was new to me. On the plus side, I do academic advising because I think that's where my strengths lie so I guess it's ok that my degree didn't teach me much. But oh, this was so useful. Thank you Dodie.
i just realized and figured out that feeling disconnected and feeling like i’m in a dream and feeling like everything is fake is actually derealisation i was listening to logic’s song “anziety” and how he described derealisation was how i feel every day. this video helped me. thank you.
That really helped me out, i've been feeling like "something's wrong" since i was a kid, i always felt like i was "fake" in some way, the best way to explain that was that my body was in another dimension, separeted from my soul, and my body knew that was wrong and that he wasn't supoused to be there and he was trying to find my soul back and giving me small hints so everything looked like a dream os not real at all, i never knew quite how to explain that feeling of beeing spaced out, that really helped me out because now i know that what i feel is not strange at all and i can't get some help and explain better what i feel to my psychologist, thank you very much <3
This is really interesting because of recent trauma I have been getting "flash backs" of the trauma and even some of those little t's and I never knew it had a name. I have done EMDR a lot with my therapist and I do think it works but only with those big recent Ts. We tried doing EMDR with past little ts and it was a lot harder because I had to think more into the past in situation that traumatized me but it was long ago so I have no idea what actually happened.
i honestly thought i was going crazy before you put up your first dp video dodie....thank you so much for educating your audience! i didnt know anyone else felt this way and i thought i was alone, so THANK YOU SO MUCH DODIE FOR THIS YOU REALLY HELPED ME A LOT I AM SO GRATEFUL!!!!!!
dodie!!! thank you so much for this. i know a lot of people don't really talk about this sort a thing so thank you for being open about it all. here's my thing, for the longest time i've had this feeling of a dream sorta thing. when i say that I mean that I'll look back on my morings/days/nights and it all seems very hazy and blurry. like it feels as if it was a dream and has a blur to it. As time goes by interactions become more blurred and less clear. i'm not sure if this is derealization/dp but if people could comment what they think (could it be depersonalization) i'd really appreciate it. i'm starting up therapy again which should be good, i just need some support on my end. it's an incredibly frustrating thing. xx
O my goodness! This describes me really well actually! I didnt know there was a word for it I just thought it was something weird that happened with me. But I dont think I ever went through much trauma.... But I will feel like I'm in a dream pretty often and occasionally when I look in the mirror it looks off like I'm not looking at myself. And I get the same type of effect when I look at other people when this happens.
I can't express how comforting it is to see someone successful and well known like yourself come forward with having DPDR. I have been struggling with the same thing for almost five years now, and I constantly feel that my experience is isolated - like there's no one who understands what I'm going through. I actually listened to your music for the first time today on my way to therapy for DPDR; I had no idea that you've been going through the same exact thing! Before today I couldn't have named a single popular artist with this disorder, and I'm so happy to say that has changed. I can't thank you enough for posting this video and spreading awareness about DPDR - you have no idea how much this has encouraged me and other people like me. Thank you so much dodie!!
Watching this video, I think I may have a little bit of dissociation. Nothing extreme, it's just that sometimes when I'm feeling stressed about the things going on around me or the future, my brain becomes mush and I can't really process anything. So, even though I can't imagine dealing with the severity of depo/dereal daily, I feel like I can relate at least a little to feeling out of touch with what's going on around you. thank you for being so open about your feelings and using your platform to educate. I'm sure you're aware, but it's very comforting to me and many others to know that we're NOT the only one fighting these battles
dodie!!! a couple weeks ago right before i had a migraine i had an experience where my body didn't look or feel like i was controlling it (it looked kinda like a first person video game? like i was watching my body from behind the screen and not actually from inside) and it was the WEIRDEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!! but thankfully it went away and i didn't even know it was a thing until I watched this video! i guess having episodes of depersonalization before getting migraines isn't uncommon at all but id just never known! thanks for letting me know i'm not crazy 😅
many times i've been having a really great time (usually with my brother or my friend) and i would feel as if i was in a dream almost. i feel like i'm not there and not making decisions, almost if i was watching a film. i asked my brother if he knew what i was feeling and he just looked confused, i guess i thought everybody experienced it from time to time. it doesn't happen often, only a few hours a month. i never thought about it much before dodie started talking about it. next time it happens i'll talk to somebody.
just to clear up i don't think i have disassociation, depersonalisation, or derealisation. i'm certainly not largely effected by it, but i'd just thought i'd share
Hey! I was on Sertraline for about that amount of time too! It totally sucked for me as well. Kati had the same response that my therapist did. Lots of love to you Dodie, if you're reading this. <3
I have emailed this video to my GP and my therapist as I keep saying 'i think i have depersonalisation/derealisation' and they keep saying that they don't know what it is and don't know how to help me. I was referred to my local hospital and even the doctor there didnt understand. Thank you so much for this video, I really needed some reassurance today that I am not alone in this (especially even when the professionals are saying lol idk what that is). love you dodie xx
I'm so glad you made this video. A lot of people don't know about this and are suffering without knowing the problem. I, personally, found out what dp/dr pretty soon after my first experience with it, but I know many people haven't even found a name for it until recently. Anyway, I just wanted to so thank you so much :)
Omg I've dealt with this on and off for several years, but I didn't know they were linked to trauma. This got me thinking about all my little T's and now I'm freaked out, I don't know if I should talk to someone or not
I'm young, someone who would have to ask their parents to see a therapist. I've done it before, asked to see and seen a therapist, but it's always really nerve racking and takes me forever (sometimes too like) to get up the nerve to talk to them about it. When you were explaining derealisation and especially depersonalization I understood completely, and knew first hand, exactly what that felt like. If anyone has any tips on asking parents to see a therapist or opening up in general, please help!
I just kind of get this feeling where I'm not really myself. Like I feel like I'm not meant to be where I am, with the people I am with, or even myself because of a random moment that's happened. Like when I straighten my hair I feel like I'm not the same person I really am. Or when someone in my family says something off from usual that makes me get this feeling like I'm not the person I actually am and I'm just in someone else's body.
I think I might have this because when I was younger I would always get the 'fuzzy feeling' where I would just not feel like myself. I would hear a ringing noise and I felt like i wasn't in my body. I still get it sometimes but I try and talk to myself or distract myself to bring me back. I'm not sure if that's depersonalization but I think it's something. It got really bad this one time I ate a weed brownie (I know bad... don't do drugs) and it happened like really bad. I couldn't feel my body and I didn't realize I was alive. I thought I was asleep or dreaming or like in a movie because everything felt so odd. I think it could've been laced with something but it reminded me of my "fuzzy feeling" episodes that I used to get. Idk if anyone else gets those so lmk!
I don't think I have a derealisation disorder but I've definitely have had the feeling enough times to know that feeling. It's not often, like one-two times a month when I'm getting ready to start I get that feeling and I often get really depressed too and it's nice to know what im feeling.
When she was talking about inside out and the smashing of the memory, i just started bawling. The thought of someone or something taking your happy memory and SMASHING it really made me sad.
And that's what happened today in 'What makes Dayton cry'
Thank you so so much you have no idea how much this helped thank you for introducing this to me I didn't know why I was feeling sooo detached and numb such an amazing person tysm
(SORRY LONG COMMENT) hello dodie, i want to share my story if it helps because i know what you're going through! i just finished a full tms treatment for anxiety and depression, and the doctor i went to did 35 treatments for each side (spaced out over a month or so of course). i was very hopeless after my 20th-ish treatment because i didn't feel anything different--in fact i felt the way you described being on medication. i sank to the lowest point i've been in years. however, i talked it over with my doc and he said that some patients don't even see results until a month after treatment is done. i'm very happy to say that it eventually stopped maybe 40% of my symptoms! treatment is probably different everywhere you go and they might not have the same effects (especially since we live in different countries), but if tms isn't working after a few tries, don't give up!!! i know it's cheesy, but i know it's difficult to feel like nothing will cure you, i promise there is always a solution. you've inspired me so much during my times of hopelessness, so i hope that these words will encourage you in return :)
my mental illness really got bad when i was in fourth grade, i was admitted into a hospital because of constant anxiety and suicidal thoughts. when i got out they put me on zoloft and i stayed on it for about 4 years. i randomly decided to stop taking it which was not a good decision. i recently went to the doctor and they put me on it again after not taking it for about 6 months maybe? i had already felt alittle depersonalized and the medicine made it SO much worse so i stopped taking it. i went back to the doctor and they prescribed me prozac, because the doctor seems to think i have social anxiety. it's been a journey but i'm slowly getting better :)
I have this weird thing where I always TRY to label myself with different mental dissorders. I don't know why, but it makes things a bit confusing sometimes. But after learing more about derealisation, it seems like I might really have this one? Like, it seems like soemthing I've been struggling with since I was little...Idk
I think I might have derealisation? That's the closest thing to describe how I'll occasionally feel. I can clearly remember the last time it happened, I was having dinner with my dad and his friends at my dads house and in the middle of eating, I suddenly space out and have this overwhelming feeling of hate, like I'm incredibly annoyed with where I am but it also feels like a dream. I'm aware of my body and where I am but I just can't stand being there so I just let this feeling take over for a couple minutes and I come back and act like nothing ever happened.
Hi so I am extremely confused with my feelings because I can't feel them and have been looking for so long to find what I might have and I heard you guys mention mental Illness with not feeling emotions. What is that called? I would love to figure it out!
this video was great people in the internet sometimes don't really teach about mental illness and i'm glad you did this was really great also i love how animated your eyebrows are
Dodie, how do you deal when you really really adore a person but know that you may never get to meet them? I was actually wondering about this as youtube has such a huge effect on people's lives and we absolutely worship the creators. How do we bring ourselves back to Earth and reconnect with our own internal magic? How do we stay content with the now? Thanks :)
i've had depersonalization and derealization, and the thing that really helped me was knowing that these things were called illnesses for a reason. these aren't "normal" or everyday things that humans are supposed to live with. it helped me to know that i could rationalize with it... it wouldn't make any sense at all that the world was "fake" or "unreal", would it?! i'm living with an illness, but i can, at least, try to really think through things. i know where i live and i know where i am currently. i'll try to not let my brain (my illness) take over, because i know that it is just an illness. i am fully aware of where i am at this current second, typing this at my computer. i won't let an illness make me think i'm not. even though it doesn't FEEL real and i don't know who i am/what i'm doing here, i know that it IS REAL. time and "being a human being" is a really weird thing for me, but i know that it IS real, even though it doesn't feel like it at the moment. ^this is just something that helped me, but everyone has their own ways of dealing with depersonalization and derealization. i'm not a medical professional at all hahaha. although, i do hoped that this helped.
I feel like everyone needs to see Inside Out. Especially people with mental issues or people who work with people with mental issues. It just gives a visual image of what goes on in the brain and the labels in the brain. When she talked about the marbles from Inside Out it just blew my mind.
there was a point where after I dyed my hair every time I looked in the mirror I felt like I was looking at someone else, the person in the mirror wasn't me, it didn't look like me. Sometimes when I look at my hands or arms I feel like they look weird, that they don't look normal and that sometimes they don't belong to me, sometimes when I'm walking I'll look around but I'll feel like for some reason I feel like everything isn't real that I'm not really living, and there are some days where I feel overly joyous, I feel on top of the world, optimistic, I feel good, and other days, well most days, I feel sad, depressed, that I'm alone, anxious, that I feel trapped in my body and I wasn't to disconnect somehow... mainly people don't believe me when I say this or I feel really stupid when I say it because when I say it it sounds weird and odd, or people will think I'm faking, or don't understand at all what I'm saying.... I just needed to get that out there, it feels good to write it down.
ah i feel so much less alone and weird in constantly being derealised, dissociative and/or depersonalised it sucks and I'm trying to recover, I have big ts and small ts so its great fun
It'so weird, I'm 99% sure I've had nothing in my life that could have caused my depers./dereal. I feel like my derealization and depersonalisation have gotten a lot better recently, without me doing anything to make them better at all. I still have them tho, and I've gotten so used to it that it seems normal - sometimes I even wonder if life is actually supposed to feel the way it feels for me, if everyone feels the way I do all the time and I'm just exaggerating. What makes me have that thought is, I don't even remember what it's like living without depers./dereal. I have lots and lots of memories from before it started, but I don't remember the feeling of not feeling spaced out, if that makes sense.
Every two months or so I have these weird "tantrums" where I just revert to a little child and start crying over something little. I'm pretty sure this has to do with me being an only child and my parents working a lot, so I do this likely because of attention that I want. However, sometimes when I get really upset and in this fever-y tantrum, I have this weird way of thinking where I feel like my emotions are "fake" and I bully myself into thinking that and just stay in my bed for a good half hour before I feel like doing things "normally" again. I could be dramatizing things, but this may be just a smudge of depersonalization. I don't think I need any professional help, but just identifying things like that is really helpful! Thank you so much, Dodie and Kati!
i get the derealization thing, but only very rarely. Like for a few hours or a few days in the space of a month. I don't know if that's enough to say it's really problem, but there has been times when I've had to take exams in this state, so maybe it is a problem? I don't know, I feel like I have way too much other problems to deal with this too
This will probably not make sense to many people watching this video for a different purpose from me.
Sometimes I think I'm either a highly sensitive person or an empath (still not quite sure which one, don't know if this is even the right term), so watching Dodie's videos like this just sends this wave of emotion to me sometimes, especially while reading the comments here. It's just a different vibe each time. Sometimes strong, sometimes low. but it always results in me building a response, absorbing this information and then applying it in best scenarios in my head.
These videos give me so much insight, but it also makes me wonder when I can help. When can I reach out to these people to see them be happy and free?
i started crying while watching this video, and i don't think i have any type of depersonalization or anything and i started to feel some kind of relation that i wasn't aware of and now i'm crying and my chest is heavy and i almost feel like i'm listening too far in aaaaaaahhhh
I think I experience derealization but I'm not sure. I don't want to just label it that, even though 90% of he symptoms check out for me. The last time I experienced this was the first day of school. I had nobody to talk to, I was very very anxious and my body was kind of numb. I never ever feel happy ever, and I haven't for years. I don't even remember the last time I felt truly happy. When my depression gets bad, I space out so bad. I don't hear anything properly, and it looks like I'm in a dream state, from my pov. It's been like this for 3 years, now that I think about it. I experienced a lot of drama and abandonment before it all got worse and that next year, I never felt like I was there, if that makes sense. Anyway, it can last for a whole day, half a day, maybe even longer than a week and it feels like my brain is mush.
Oh boi this is me. I constantly feel spaced out and it's to the point where I can't remember things? Like I don't reminisce on recent things and the memories aren't associated with emotions even if i had a full on mental breakdown I still don't remember feeling anything. And it's sucks because I go to therapy and they are constantly asking how I feel. Like umm i feel like the world is fake and I don't know who I am anymore because my entire identity was built around being a very empathetic person and now my emotions don't work properly! Also I tried to tell my mom but she thinks I spend to much time googling mental heather stuff and that I'm being some sort of hypochondriac. So no one takes me seriously and I just want to get better.
I don't know if I had dissociation or derealization. i feel like my emotions are all kinda dull. like i can get happy and sad but like i dont get excited anymore. like no excitement or anxiety or anything at all. when i do fun things im like, "wow im doing this thing. cool" lile i know objectively i should be excited and having a good time. but im just, having a time. lmao like not good or bad or anything. idk it's weird. and sometimes my brain feels kinda foggy like theres like a layer between my brain and the real world i dont know how to describe it
okay so watching this... i never really gave thought to derealisation but like now that i now thats what that is i kinda feel like i might have it? i space out a bunch like that where i don't feel like life is real and i thought that might just be a depression thing but like idk? and i can see depersonalisation for me too... just not as much or as often.
i'm already getting treated for depression (and kinda anxiety too bc i take zoloft which is for depression and anxiety thankfully) and i'm in the process of finding a new therapist so maybe i should mention this to them after i get there again?
Idk if someone will actually read this but if you do thanks? I feel like i get spaced out but it's more intense? Like I can't hear anything and it's just me and my thoughts. I go in and out of it all day and I just want to know if it's from my anxiety or depression or a whole different thing. If you know or have any ideas or tips please let me know!! Thanks!
hi i just want to talk abt my experience w smth simillar w derealisation so ive moved fr a house to a small compact apartment and everytime i wake up i dont feel anything and i usually just feel neutral even when smth bad or good had happened i feel neutral or i dont feel anything special and i always feel like the things that are happening to me arent real like moving in to the apartment isnt real or my new uni isnt real like i feel like its all scripted that this is all just a set and then one day ill stop acting and its all going to end. like i feel like this portion of my life is all just play its not real and i guess thats why i feel absolutely nothing bc i think that none of these things even exist it feels like its just painted on or drawn on and idk what to do. i want to smile and say hey i smiled bc im happy, genuinely. or cry bc im sad, genuinely. but lately i feel like i dont feel anything genuinely. ahh can someone tell me what i should do
would you describe derealization/depersonalization as feeling like you're just in a body making it act? (does that make any sense?) Like you're just "driving" the body but it's not you
Um so I've been in the same existential crisis for a while now. I know this isn't anything super serious. But sometimes I feel like I'm just uninterested in everything because of it, I feel worthless because of how large the universe is (and a lot of other thoughts but I won't go into them here) I just feel like what I do doesn't matter, and that causes me to procrastinate and not pursue the things I want to do. The way I deal with it is also quite bad for me, I do it through humor, now usually humor is a good thing but all my humor is just self deprecating and depressing, I've used this humor so much that now I really believe that I am ugly, that I am trash and worthless, that I don't matter and people wouldn't care if I died or disappeared. It's not like I want to die or anything, but I have this little voice in the back of my head that makes the jokes seem real, but that's the only way I cope with all the terrible thoughts going through my head. You people have any advice or something?
I feel kind of bitter when people talk about anxiety and depersonalisation in general especially. I had them both severely (a lot better now I'm 23) since I was 5, and no one kind of believed me and would kind of make fun of me for it until I was maybe 15. People don't really listen to you when you're like 7 and saying 'nothing feels real'. I guess I find the whole "omg support 4 u" stuff on the internet kind of too little too late? I dunno, but for some reason videos like this and other similar ones kinda piss me off because it's support I never had in my hardest times.
Now that you're talking about it, i think i used to have tons of bouts of depersonalization. I would sit there and be like,,, Woah,,,im here? but,,, what why how??? these are...my hands??? why are??? i cna do stuff like im breathing. ANd how I belive im experiencing more dissocaiation and drealization.
Someone please tell me what's wrong with me... I always want to make friends but I'm always so scared to confront people in any way, even if they're my family. The weird part is I'm always loud and crazy around my friends, even around a lot of other people. I also have a feeling that EVERYBODY hates me or thinks I'm annoying in some way and if they are what I believe is a friend, I feel that they hate me and are just trying to make me feel good out of pity. I also don't think highly of myself and feel terrible when people do compliment me and whenever I say something I am always so scared I said something wrong and then x person now hates me. One more thing I do is fidget around a lot, I can't sit still, but I hate when people are really close to me. (Sorry if I'm not making sense, that was a lot of run on sentences😂)
Edit: I forgot to mention that I have terrible memory, I can't read very well, and I am very insecure about it... dunno if that correlates to anything but who cares😂
I'm just gonna write how I'm feeling cause that helps me. Trigger warning I have no control over my emotions. I either am stone cold. I feel nothing. Or I feel too much. I cry and cry and cry. I have no motivation. And then I get insanely anxious. Then I start crying. and then I feel sad. So... Everyone just tells me it's hormones, but I don't think it is. A bunch of random things make me anxious. But I get weirdly happy when i experience these symptoms cause I hate myself so much. It's like a weird form of self harm. Idk It really sucks. Idk what it is. I might be fine or normal but I don't think so.
Hey dodie!! I hate to be a pest but is there anyway that you could put your words higher up on the screen? I was trying to read the definitions of disassociation but my captions made it hard to read. I'm sure it will help other hard of hearing and deaf viewers! Loved the video!
i feel so hopeless because i struggle with this but i feel like all i can do is talk to a therapist but i dont like talking to therapists so idk what to do about it
I have derealisation. It's the most frustrating fucking thing ever omfg. I have it ALL THE TIME. I don't feel it when I'm with my girlfriend though because she's incredible but omg it's horrific
I'm not sure if this is derealisation or anything like that but sometimes it feels like I'm watching myself. Like I'm watching myself do things but not actually controlling them. for example i was eating lunch one day and i couldn't feel the food in my mouth. it was as if i was just watching another person eat but it was me. this probably makes 0 sense but i needed to see if anyone else felt the same, and what i could possibly be?
Just from that description it does sound like depersonalization because you are disconnected from yourself.. thats why you feel like you are watching yourself do everything. I have whole videos on derealization and depersonalization.. you can check those out if you want more info :) xoxo
i'm 100% against spanking children. it is abuse. it is not discipline, in fact, the 1 that does it severely lacks discipline. it is way braver to not do it than to do it. worse, adults can get addicted to the abusive act.
i know this probably sounds attention seeking, but i genuinely need advice ?? i guess ?? aha. i don’t know if what i have is derealization/depersonalization etc. i don’t know if i am depressed/anxious either, as i haven’t been to a doctor or therapist (my family is getting me a therapist soon, they just have to work out insurance issues) but i am suicidal. i actually face anxious feelings on a daily basis, i get this short feeling of extreme fear that basically paralyzes me for a few seconds and causes me to brace myself anytime someone walks by me or if i make eye contact with someone. i also will get lost in thought and forget im me i guess ?? i just don’t feel like a human when it happens. i get so deeply involved with my thoughts and daydreams that i don’t feel human or like i exist... it usually happens every day, for about 30 minutes. then i snap back into reality. i’m sorry for all of this therapist shit, i just need to ask people who have experience with these mental illnesses and stuff. sorry!
Dodie I'm sorry but those .5 second long text things are so frustrating, please make them last longer I hate having to go back and try to pause at exactly the write moment 20 times
I know this might be a stupid question but if anyone with this or knows about it well, but is derealization is that like just dozing off and like daydreaming or is that just not it?
I think I have it and I think the reason is.. Now I will not give out and names but.. my friend once tried to kill herself she didn't and is alive today though still depressed and I'm so thankful but it also put a lot on me because she told me that.. I saved her.. don't get me wrong I love her so much but that can put a lot of stress on me hence yknow... I'm not saying this to make anyone feel bad. This is just my story.
Depression is not true, it all in the mind. It's you and your consciousness, it up to you whether you want to be blissful or miserable. Watch Sadhguru on this topic, it will help. Also if you feel suicidal or depressed just hold your breath. After sometime your body will say Fuck you brain I wanna live and you will start breathing. Your body wants to live.
I have severe derealisation and severe depersonalisation and it is absolute hell. I have not found anyone who is knowledgeable enough to help me and I am not living a life. my days feel like they don't exist and everything is pointless.
I was there for years, but it does get better. It is hell. I never want to feel as I felt at my worst again - ever! Hang in there, it passes. Like a slow thaw from ice bound winter to the first blades of spring grass, to full summer, it slowly becomes something in your past; but, yes, you do have to weather the depths of winter to get there, but you can't let it win.
D Lockyer this makes me so hopeful, thank you!!! Just knowing that it ends eventually makes life worth living for a while longer. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!!
Seeing this collab makes me so so happy!! Two of my favourite, fabulous ladies in one video :) Thank you for raising awareness of this and fighting against the stigma <3 xxxx
I just wanted to say thank you so much for this dodie! Whenever you talk about your derealization/depersonalization I feel so less lonely. Your videos help me out so much when it comes to dealing with it. I also have my derealization 24/7. Thank you so much for spreading awareness about this.
Thank you for posting this Dodie. I have PTSD and dissociation and knowing that other people can be in the same boat as myself, helps those bad times so so much. Here's to hoping that we all get the right treatment one day! You're an amazing human bean xx
Thank you Dodie 💕 Today I've been specially spaced-out which makes me feel very lonely and artificial. This video helped me feel better by reminding I'm not alone. x
I've been experiencing this on and off for about 5 years now and it's weirdly nice to finally know that this thing that's happening isn't only happening to me
last night i told my parents that i've been depressed for the last few years and i kind of regret it because the vibe that i had with my parents has changed and they look at me differently now, but whenever i feel sad or anything i watch your videos. i can't stress how much you've helped me and i don't think i can fully express how grateful i am. thank you so much dodie. thank you.
Thank you so so much for this video. I've been struggling with a mix of dissociation, derealization, and depersonalization for several months now and never fully understood it, which sometimes made the situation worse. But this video filled me with so much knowledge and understanding that I feel like I might be able to handle it a little better now. So thank you so much. I hope things with get better for you soon and that we can all return to reality one day.
I can't explain how helpful and informative this is for me. One of my close friends experiences derealisation, and having this video to learn about what she might be experiencing helps me understand her more than I would without it. (I also experience brief periods of disassociation/depersonalisation, so kind of having this to contextualise those times helps me as well)
This video helped me so much. I've learned that I could have derealisation, which would pair with my anxiety. It isn't a good thing but at least I might know what's wrong me. Thank you, Dodie❤️
That marble analogy is really interesting, and exactly how I've realized I feel when I start getting really anxious. It's hard to convince myself that's what's happening and not something actually threatening, but it does help.
I am SO HAPPY that you hung out with and made a video with Kati! I would love love love to see more of these, because I really love both of you and I was sad when you felt like you couldn't be as real with your online community anymore. I started following you because of how open and honest and vulnerable you were about your struggles, and I understand why you took a step back but I'm relieved that you're finding brilliant ways to still share in a constructive and healthy way.
So I was diagnosed with depersonalization/ derealization 2 weeks ago and this video really helped my visualize and understand what's going on in my head. Thank you so much Dodie this truly helped me and I'll be showing this to my therapist on Thursday when I go see her 😊 thank you again 💚💚
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ian roche2017-09-11 21:29:04 (edited 2017-09-11 21:29:23 )
Hi Dodie. Thank you so much for making videos like this! I've dealt with depression and anxiety for years. Things have been different and worse lately. Don't know if it's derealisation and depersonalisation but getting some help working on it now. Kloveyouthanksbye 😊
After watching this I'm realizing that this is something that I suffer from. Not necessarily depersonalization, but derealization for sure. Thank you for this video Dodie. Much love :)
This is so helpful. When I started uni last year, I felt so strange. I never really talked about it to other people but I kept writing in my journals that it felt like the real me was dead and someone else's soul had been put into my body and given my memories. I felt absolutely mad until Dodie started talking about it and realized it was a diagnosable problem.
Thank you so much dodie for talking about this in your videos. I've had this for the past few years almost every day, and when I talked to anyone about it they were freaked out, which freaked me out. Now I know that it's an actual condition and it makes me feel so much better because I feel like I can be open about it with anyone and not let myself believe them when they say "oh, it's nothing". Thank you so much. I actually cannot thank you enough.
dodie thank you so much for bringing some attention to depersonalization and for making me feel slightly less crazy than i normally do. i know that i'm not alone when i feel like i'm losing my mind
I just want to say thank you! After this video I cried. You put a language to the way I felt and I'm one step closer to understanding what's going on in my head.
this video inspired me to finally seek help for my anxiety/depression/derealization. Thank you for all that you do dodie. i just got off the phone with my unis health center and i'm shaking, but i'm finally going to get help. i love you.
Thanks for talking about this. I experience derealisation and depersonalisation as part of other trauma-related diagnoses, also to the point where it's 100% of the time, and I took forever for me to be able to articulate and recognize that I was dealing with it because I didn't remember ever being able to feel anything else. In the past few months though, I've had some fleeting moments (a couple seconds to a couple minutes) where I feel more real and/or things around me feel more real, and I'm reminded of how I used to feel as a little kid before these issues took over. It's pretty cool. I find it best to work on grounding/awareness/trying to feel things as a little more real when I feel relatively safest. It's like building the muscle (or changing brain pathways) and starting small. It's more encouraging that way, to have some successes every now and then.
This was so interesting and informative. It helps people (like me) understand people suffering from these kind of things. It has really inspired me to find out more, thank you :)
I think this was really brave and an amazing video to make. It was very educational and I needed it. I went through what I'd describe as trauma last year and it has to go through the legal system and whenever I'm in a situation with the police, I find myself almost drifting out my body and watching from the outside. Sounds seem like I'm underwater. It's horrible and I hate being so disconnected from my feelings. I feel so out of it and empty and spaced out. Now, I'm going through a similar experience to what happened last year although it's less serious and when I'm in the situation where it's happening to me, I float out again so that I don't feel. It feels like a defense mechanism but I can't seem to ground myself and I feel like I'm just going to end up floating away for good. I have a counselling session tomorrow but I'm scared to talk about it because I don't want it to seem like I'm self diagnosing. Does anyone have any tips?
Thanks so much for this! It's given me a better insight into what one of my close friends is going through and I'm glad I know how to help a little more.
as a psychology student this is such an interesting vid! even in our psychopathology module, we only cover depression, ocd and phobias (and schizophrenia as a separate module) to it's so cool to hear more about something less well known!!
This video was so interesting and informative, this is very important content. There are so many kinds of therapy and of course not everything works for everyone. I do not suffer with any kind of mental disorders and understand that am not qualified to give advice to those who do, but I would like to share a kind of therapy that I didn't hear in this video, which is EFT tapping. EFT stands for emotional freedom techniques and it is a wonderful mixture of talk therapy and physical tapping. It is also something you can do at home once you've been instructed by a practitioner. It can bring up negative emotions and trauma that is being locked away. I encourage you to look into it and visit support@NeftTI.com if you're interested.
I've been experiencing depersonalization/derealisation since april of this year and i juts thought i was flat out going insane but its comforting to know that I'm not the only one dealing with this. I always try to tell my mom how i feel but she just blows it off because she just thinks I'm trying to get attention or I'm just being weird. hopefully someday i won't have to be going through this anymore.
this is so interesting, thank you!! another treatment you could try is hypnosis therapy (don't know if this is the exact right term in english): i think it's basically like talk therapy but being hypnotised "forces" you to say out loud things that might be buried in your subconscious (my brother has done it bc he had insomnia and it made him realise that it came from the trauma of a car crash he was in a year before, my mom has also done a session and she encourages me to try it for my anxiety but i have to admit i'm a little scared; i might look into tms treatment though)
i've suffered from both depersonalization and derealisation for several years thinking i was the only one who had it because i could never describe it to people properly. i understand that it plays into my anxiety (like how you were talking about panic attacks in the beginning) but it lasts 24/7. there aren't any counselors that specialize in either in my area, but thank you dodie for making me feel less alone <3
Oh buddy this hit me harder than I thought it would. I've been feeling spaced out now for maybe two years. I didn't really know what all of it meant. I was so detached from my body and sometimes from situations I thought I was just going crazy. I was really scared to be honest. I then found dodie and everything clicked together. Unfortunately it got worse after this had a name. For a while I thought I might've been making it up. Not until I talked to my mom a few months ago and I described what I was feeling and it turned out she has very similar symptoms as well. It's hard getting any help in the town I live in. It's not something people know about. There's no treatments here really. I know going to a bigger city would help, but money is always the issue I guess. This is grounding a little scary I think, but I'm hopeful now hearing all the possible treatments out there.
i didn't know derealisation/depersonalization was caused by trauma. no wonder mine is so damn terrible. i've had a lot of big traumas such as.... -car crash (lol) -moving towns and feeling scared -having spinal surgery at 12 -my sister almost dying after a half marathon -having chronic pain from my spine -having this past year and a half [extreme pain due to being severely injured and not well treated (there was nothing to help but pain meds and time)] plus all the tiny things as a kid. i take ADD medicine (my whole fam actually has ADD) and i feel so much more grounded when i take it. this has helped me realize how accurate this diagnosis (self-diagnosed currently) is for me. thank you dodie 💛
I personally don't have any of these disorders but i really love learning about things like this and understanding what other people are going through and what causes it and how to help them so thank you for this video and all of your videos for that matter
Than you for sharing this. Even though I personally can't really relate to any mental health issues (and hopefully i never will) I find mental health to be very interesting and I try to learn about issues more and ways to help people dealing with them so that I can be helpful to my friends and even myself if the situation ever arose. Also I'd like to remind anyone going through a rough time mentally, that it will get better. Maybe not today or tomorrow but it will and there are steps you can take towards making your life better and you aren't alone, there are so many people dealing with similar issues. We all believe in you, you can do this :)
Thank you so much for doing this. I learned something today that is HUGE.. I mean HUGE for me. I learned that EDMS does not work for people with derealization. I had no idea. I actually learned thru Kati about derealization, I don't have it all of the time like Dodie (sorry love :( ) but do have it and distinctively recall the first time it happened. I was in a mall and all of a sudden the noises seemed distant and distorted and the entire.. well everything in my visual got softer, almost blurred in a look of underwater or dreamlike. My feet were disconnected from the floor.. I didn't feel like I was there and even the person standing with me and speaking with me sounded so far away.
I guess I did not realize that it was a separate issue and thought it was part of my PTSD so I hadn't mentioned that feeling to my therapist. I mean, why would I? I thought that he already knew. Then I was beating myself up for not being able to get to the next stage in EDMS. I thought there was something wrong with me, and there is but just not what I thought.
I am trying to work up into going back to therapy and this information is something that I feel will be quite helpful. Thank you both, Kati and Doddie, so much!
PS. @doddlevloggle The link in your video links to the actual video on this page rather than the video on @KatiMorton's page:
medication really depends on the person. Zoloft doesn't work for you, but it does for me ! i've been on zoloft for four months now and i feel better. i do feel derealized 24/7 but my depression got way better :)
this is so important. I experience dissociation/derealisation/depersonalisation and seeing just normal relaxed talking videos on the subject and informative videos is so important.
Such an interesting video dodie. Kate seems like an amazing therapist, she has such a soothing nature. I hope you find the right treatment for you very soon 😘
I was watching loads of Kati's videos yesterday and now this happened! What a coincidence:)
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Kate Anderson2017-09-11 20:21:29 (edited 2017-09-11 20:50:07 )
I've traced mine back to procrastination of schoolwork, so much that I had to do it all on the literal last day of school and it just stressed me out I had a constant feel of 'what am I supposed to be doing? Am I forgetting something?' I've forgotten what reality feels like. So do your work, kids
Also, some stuff that helps ground me are watching videos on DPDR, or reading articles. For me, that makes the situation feel more real, knowing there are other functioning humans dealing with the same thing. Another one is have a thoughtful conversation with a friend. A normal activity can make you feel more normal, and hanging out with friends is fun anyway. Make a cup of tea, play an instrument, write about your day, draw a picture.
This won't last forever, people love you, the world is full of good things, and all that jazz.
Hi dodie, I was just wondering, did your derealisation come on suddenly? I think mind did about 2.5 years ago, one night it was like a switch went off. I've had bad anxiety about it ever since. Also, how do you stay positive? Thanks! Glad I found your channel.
thank you so much for making this video. i have always felt spaced out but never really knew what was going on. when i was younger i would feel spaced out for like 5 seconds or a minute. but now it's 24/7. (WHICH SUCKS SO MUCH LIKE COME ON BRAIN WHAT U DOIN) when you made your video talking about dp/dr for the first time i was like. "omg. this. is what's. happening. to. me." i finally knew that what was happen to me wasn't normal. when kati explained that some people who have derealization feel like they are in a movie, that's what's been happening to me. i've always felt like that. before this gets to long, i just wanted to say thank you for being so open about it cause when you talk about it, it makes me feel not alone. i love you dodie ;
I don't have depersonalizations or derealization but I am very glad dodie openly talks about it. I've never heard of it until her. I think it's important to be educated about it. Thank you dodie for discussing this on your channel. I believe this will help a lot of people who do suffer from them.
i wanted to say something here: two of my friends told me they felt this way and did a wrong self diagnosis based on this video. i love you so much dodie but please next time you do this types of videos bring the message that self diagnosis is dangerous. those friends don't have this illness and i know it. this like they said it's something dodie didn't know much about and got more aware about what she had after going to therapy. to all people watching, if you think you have, go to see someone. don't go around saying you have it. this is part of a group called psychosis and psychosis is often see close to schizophrenia. this obviously doesn't have anything to do with that illness but they are in the same group so please don't do wrong diagnosis and say you have it and put your on words when they MIGHT be wrong and then people that actually have it will feel terribly. i think they made an amazing video about this, they should have only put out there the idea of bad self diagnosis. LOVE YOU A LOT DODIE 💓
I’m so confused bc i had what very closely resembles derealization about 2 years ago BUT it was only one time and a tiny bit (not as intense) afterwards. I don’t know what would’ve caused it bc i really haven’t had trauma. I’ve never heard of it happening only once so :/
I'm little freaked out because I experience the whole "I look in the mirror and don't see myself" thing a lot, but when you said you looked like your brother I was really shocked because it's the EXACT same with me. Not sure if it's a sign or just a coincidence!
Hello fellow Dodie fans. I've been suffering with depression for quite a while now, and I've been taking sertralin for maybe 6 months. And before I cried alot, especially on my dark days. But now I've stopped crying, and I'm so scared. I still feel sad and depressed, and I feel like crying but I just can't. I've felt numb and not like myself. I'm scared
i had a real shit experience with a therapist a while back who totally invalidated all of my feelings, so it was so refreshing to hear kati omg she is so cool
I used to feel so disconected from my body, but lately I haven't felt this way. I have no idea why I spent so long feeling like this and one day it just stoped. I still have to deal with my depression, but I still think I'm kinda lucky cause I don't have to deal with feeling like I do not fit in my own body anymore. I don't really know if the way I was feeling is anything like what you have to experience but I can relate. I hope you can find a treatment that suits you ♥ Ily
thank you, i am going to show this to my mum, so she can maybe understand. thank you so so so much for this dodie, dpd and disassociating makes me feel so fucking crazy. so thank you
I'm derealized every day but I'm at a point where I can't tell if I'm making it up? Like what if reality is just like this? Does anyone else have that issue?
oh my gosh. this is a real thing. it's real. i've been trying to explain this feeling of things not feeling real to people and they just tell me they have no idea what i'm talking about.
oh my gosh, do you know how amazing it is for someone to know what you're experiencing or to explain it??
sometimes i don't feel real, and nothing feels real, and i try to get back and i panic but i can't do anything. i forget i'm real and living and i have to try to say my name to myself over and over.
unless something bad happens and i just accept feeling unreal.
thank you so much, i thought i was going crazy. thank you thank you thank you.
I sustained a brain injury in 2015 and I've felt like I haven't been here for two years, like I've been living in a dream. Sometimes it's not nearly as bad as other times and I can feel almost normal, but a lot of the time I feel like I'm living in a completely different world than anyone else. I don't know if this counts as dp/dr because it's the result of a physical injury, even though I am mentally ill as well.
I AM ON ZOLOFT AND ITS WORKING! I know dodie already said this but for depression and anxiety, I'm taking zoloft and its helping, experiences are different for everyone, i don't want people to see this video and rule anything out.
this video gave me the courage to talk to my mom about going back to therapy cause i'm getting seriously concerned i have depersonalization or bpd or something
Pq eu sou uma GRANDE fã dela, mesmo não entendendo mt bem o que ela fala. Tá, uma palavra ou outra eu entendo, mas eu fico muito confusa não dá pra entender direito. Meu inglês é bem básico mesmo, só sei o que aprendi na escola E eu ficaria muito grata mesmo se alguém pudesse traduzir os vídeos dela para mim <3
Espero que meu comentário não suma no meio dos outros
On a day to day I have short periods of dissociation, but if I'm having a really bad day I have depersonalization (it feels like my heart and lungs are in the other room.) But when I look at old pictures of myself I always feel like it's not really a picture of me which i guess is depersonalization too
I have looked at both of these in the past. Didn't think it was very common but I think I have these. Find my self becoming very spaced out 24/7 feeling scared that nothing is real. As much as I love you dodie I can't watch this video as I am unsure as to how this would affect me... I'm 18 now and have been struggling with this for a few years, started when I had depression and anxiety those have got better after the years but not this. I can't watch this video because I find the concept hard to face and understand. But i hope that it allows people to be aware. I haven't been diagnosed because I am scared that things aren't real therefore... whats the point in diagnosed. I can't explain how i feel i sound insane. I'm sorry.
This's the first time that someone named exactly how i feel. And the worst thing is that before watching this, for all this time i thought that i can't speak about this. But today i told my mom and my boyfriend, and they were So supportive. I'm going to find some doctor and i really want to thank you Dodie. You saved me Ps. Sry if i made any mistake but i'm from Poland and you know
this could not have helped me at a better time, i've recently been going through a long period of feeling zoned out all the time and my brain can't focus on things and most recently i've felt like i'm dreaming all the time, its been happening for the past year, i tried looking at youtube videos and googling help and asking friends and the only thing that came up was brain fog, it sounded like what i had but i was doing everything that they said i wasn't doing, i've tried to get a doctors appointment but as i'm only 15 my mum doesn't think that anything is going on with me and that it's probably just a sore head but i've had no idea how to describe it, this has helped me so much, i can't thank you enough everything you said in the video made me feel less scared about it and not freaked out <3
For about 2 years or more I just felt like I was just sitting there as life happened and I wasnt really involved. I just felt empty and I would zone out in the middle of class and at home because I just felt like I was moving and I k ew life was making me move but I was never a fully functioning person which made me feel really scared and depressed. I would literally have anxiety attacks because I was scared I was going crazy. Since I moved it's gotten a little better but I still have quite a few days like that.
Holy shit I literally think I have depersonalisation. Like I'm not even kidding my therapist already told me I sounded like I was dissociated but how you described depersonalisation I'm realizing that's exactly how I feel.
Hi, I don't know if I actually have derealization or depersonalisation I just sometimes feel like I'm in a dream, and the things that I'm doing I'm not actually doing them myself. It just happens for a short period of time, but sometimes it can be for a long time and when that happens I just feel like my mind is in another place and I continue to do stuff but I don't feel connected to myself while doing it. It doesn't usually affect my everyday life (normally I continue doing things until that feeling disappears) but last year in class affected me in a way that I wasn't able to pay attention to anything and the teacher just continued talking but I couldn't listen. It also affects me when I'm reading, i can't concentrate and don't remember anything that I've read... Anyway, thank if someone is actually reading this, I just wanted to share my experience and I feel better now that I have written all of this down. (And sorry for my English, if I made any mistakes, it's just that I'm from Spain and English isn't my first language)
Doddie can you please teach us how you do the intro claps? It's so fast and we all wonna master it. Please make a tutorial on various variations. You are the best! Muah <3
This rlly helped I personally don't have what you have dodie but I have social anxiety and anxiety and a little bit of a.d.d and I get panic attacks occasionally more when I'm in school (which I just started) sooo yeah
Just wanna emphasise that medication isn't for everyone. I was on a low dose of Sertraline for a year and it did very little to help me. Then I was changed to Fluoxetine and that caused me to suffer a sever psychotic episode in which I attempted suicide. After that, I was put on 200mg of Sertraline and it's done so much good, I'm basically not depressed now! So I've had the whole spectrum, a meh experience, a horrible experience and a great experience! Not all medications are gonna work for all people, don't worry.
"what do you think you should do when you think you might have derealisation, depersonalization or whatever?" - "talk to somebody, someone that you trust,.."
qotd: whoop, that's a nice one, although what if there's no one I feel I can trust? 😐 (ehehhh, someone here has a problem with being vulnerable, aka reminded me of some of Tessa's videos)
this was quite interesting, lately i was thinking about it, i do sometimes feel, how can i say, vacant, i need to touch myself to realize that i'm real, and i space out a lot, but that i've been doing for as long as i can remember, i don't think i have derealisation but it does seem to describe a bit those moments i guess. P.S. you put the wrong link to katy's video ahahaahha, it goes to your video <3
I got a singular chain link at my camp and I put it on a chain so I can wear it and keep it with me at all times. I fidget with it all the time. I'll just be in class and instead of clicking my pen or tapping my foot against the desk leg, my hands go right to my chain and I just hold the link and move it around in my hand. It's helpful until at falls out of my hand and onto my desk and kickstarts everything back up.
I guess this is a shout into the void but if there's any chance kati's scrolling through the comment section what would u recommend for someone who experience depersonalisation/derealisation all day everyday but can't think of anything at all traumatic that has happened because I honestly can't even hazard a guess as to what triggered it (I'd say it's been around a year now)
my friends uncle had one of those scans for depression and something went wrong and he lost a lot of memory because of it. (obviously not trying to scare anybody, as i understand it doesnt happen very often)
I really need help but im scared to tell my parents and friends what is happening, I'm always really anxious and I space out a lot (not always, I jump between) but a while ago I started to scratch because I felt helpless and so spaced out that it helped grounded me, it made me feel like it was all real. Recently I started cutting. I don't have the desire to stop, and it doesn't make me cry, it's just there in the back of my mind and nobody knows. Please help me. Anyone. I feel like I'm going insane
in my experience, alcohol has made my depersonalization worse because it gives me a more "out of body" experience and i feel less real. it may be different for everyone though
I didn't know those three terms meant different things. I definitely experience bouts of dissociation then. I'm sure I have little t's from my childhood too, from what exactly? idk.
I didn't know much about this topic before, and when she described dissociation I instantly related and remembered a time when I was in a really heated situation and everything instantly felt unreal, but I thought that was normal to feel like that at the time but now I'm not sure, I don't get into many stressful situations like that one often so that feeling hasn't occurred much. And recently at night when in bed ive had moments where I've felt unreal or like I'm in a dream, that's happened at least once every night for a few days now and I don't know what that means :/ I also have deja vous a LOT and I don't know if that is connected to this dissociated feeling I get occasionally :/ if someone could help out or relate that would he reaaaalllllly helpful bc I'm not sure if it's anything I should be thinking about or if it's normal :/ thankoooo
I also have a terrible memory and can instantly become unfocused from something which can cause me to forget that I've just been asked to do something. and sometimes I even deny something that just happened :/
it's weird that i'm watching a video on this and also having to watch like five times because i'm so disconnected that i can't focus (specifically reading the little inserts lol)
So I'm actually just looking for some help because I'm a bit confused. I don't like diagnosing myself with things as I'm still not sure it's the best thing for me, but I just have a slight query. This year has been tough for me and I've thought a few times that I was depressed. I don't really think that's the case necessarily, as I'm ok, but I still spend a lot of my life feeling empty and lethargic. The main thing is that I can't stand to have nothing planned for the day. If I'm not working or going somewhere, I'm filled with this feeling - dread is too dramatic but definitely unease. It's as if I'm always looking for things to do so that I don't have to sit with myself for a day. Does anyone else have this?
I'm crying right now while watching this because I didn't realise how much I would relate to this oH NO it feels like you're talking about me exactly oops
I don't think I suffer from this? I'm honestly unsure. I recently looked it up and looked into it and i kinda thought maybe? Idk I can't really explain it hah.. I pretty much just have issue with my emotions. A lot of issues. It's hard to be happy and sometimes I just want to break down in tears and never speak to people. I don't know, that's a different thing I guess. Every once in a while I'll just feel nothing. I'll just be there and things will happen but I'll feel like I have no control and nothing makes any sense.. I honestly feel like I'm going crazy some days. Okay, I'm done. That's was way too much
now I really wish my gf didn't live across the ocean so I could get the touch that I need in those situations. I absolutely LOVE when people hold my hand and rub my arm and play with my hair and UGH I wish I had friends who would do that
Hey Dodie! The link in the description that is supposed to take us to the other video isn't the good one, it just takes us back here. Thought I'd mention. ^^
So, perhaps this is completely off, but do u think youtube/filming urself (and often ur friends filming ) all the time could be contributing /connected to the de realisation? Like i feel like living lots of ur life on film and seeing urself on film a lot would potentially make real life seem like a movie/dream....just a thought. I guess becoming famouse is also like this weird thing
No one will really care but I want to share my story. I have really bad depression. I cant feel anything at all. ever. the things that used to make me overwhelmed with joy have no effect on me anymore. For the longest time have felt like I was going through life in third person or like a dream and i just thought it was part of my depression. Turns out I might have derealization. The thing I am most afraid of is I live in a house where mental illness isn't believed in so I'm dealing with all this by myself with parents who don't believe me. I cut my hair really short yesterday hoping it would change something. hoping it would make me happy or make me feel like I was a real person but the joy and slap of reality I was hoping for was just replaced with more sadness and regret. although I like my hair short it didn't give what I wanted. I don't know what will anymore..Idk, no one asked/really cares but I just wanted to see if anyone else is with me in these feeling..?
I don't have this specific mental illness but I do have anxiety disorder but i feel comfortable talking about mental illness in this comment section so... yeah. I have a really hard time talking to my doctor when she asks me questions about my medicine or just how I'm doing and I'm guessing it's because I have such bad anxiety i just have a hard time talking to people in general. When i get home i can easily describe my anxiety but when i need to I just can't. If anyone knows how to fix this please tell me
Anya Popa I suffer from OCD and Social Anxiety. And I know that sometimes its hard to express what you are going through and how you feel. When it comes to my therapist it is kind of easy for me to talk cause i feel like i don't have to explain it to her because she knows what i'm going through. But when it comes to Situations that are hard for me such as phonecalls etc. she told me to practice and write down what i want to say and also how i Feel just so i could understand myself better. So just write down how you Feel in the Moment you Feel these Feelings. I'm sure your doctor doesn't mind. It will help you express yourself which is very important for Therapy:)
Whenever I post a comment saying thankyou for this cos it makes me feel better, no one notices and I know that really selfish but I just end up hating myself and deleting the comment
I've been suffering from dissociation for nearly 5 years now and for me it comes hand in hand with ptsd and intense flashbacks where I completely pass out and start to scream and kick everything around me. This video helped me a lot. Even though I've had it for nearly 5 years now I always felt really insecure and alone about it. Thank you so much xxx
this is scary good timing, i just had my first episode of derealisation today (technically still am having it) and hoo boy is it terrifying. thank you dodie for sharing and making me feel not so alone x
I'm showing this to my counsellor. This is exactly how I feel, I didn't think it was depersonalisation but something else instead. I also have a fair idea of what the trauma was. Thank you for sharing this :)
Dodie, the link you put for the video on Kati's channel just leads back to this one. Great video. I love how committed you are to helping people understand depersonalization/derealization, and I think it's great that you collabed with someone who is a professional therapist and could give some more concrete information on the subject. Love you, you're wonderful!
Thank you for this video! I'm having weird experiences about twice a week, for five hours at a time, which my psychiatrist can only describe as dissociative (in his field) but it could also be complex partial seizures and I'm awaiting a referral from neurology. I've had these experiences for the past four years and am learning to deal with them. It's a feeling of intense discomfort, memory blocks and thoughts of the past/no thoughts at all. Anyway, I really enjoyed this video. I wish you luck with your treatment, Dodie and thank you for your wisdom, Kati :)
I'm really pleased that this has a name! In year 8 I would always feel in a dream state and I could never fully describe the feeling to anyone. It was so frustrating to have no-one understand this feeling of 'floating' or feeling outside the body. My teacher thought I might be diabetic (which wasn't true). I googled it once and the only thing that fit was someone saying "you have a more philosophical mind and tend to space out due to too much thought on the universe". Because no-one understood I was forced to be quiet about it and over the years it came in bouts but faded and I hardly get it now- I have no idea how it passed but I'm bloody well glad it did!
Wow, this was super interesting and showed me just how little I know about the treatment of mental issues. When I think of therapy conserning mental health I always think of either talk therapy or medication. This just showed my I should get more educated on the topic, thanks Dodie!
Thank you for this video. I struggle with this as well and depression and anxiety and its helpful to feel understood and know that my brain is not the only one behaving this way. It's so hard for me to make it though echo day with all this in my head thank you for making me feel a little less alone.
I love her. I was very interested by you, Dodie... I mean really understanding how you feel and this helps. It's a breath of fresh air to see you being understand by someone so easily with words, sometimes it's so difficult to portrait feelings.
Thank you! Definitely going to be using Kati's channel for a resource now as I've dealt with untreated depression and occasional derealisation for several years. I'm so thankful that you're so open about your experiences!
the timing of this video is just right, i really needed this ❤️ i find it so important that people talk about mental health. and it really helps. i feel like something is wrong with me, but i'm too scared to ask for help so these videos make me feel a little bit better.
thank you for this doddie. i have a feeling i've always had depersonalisation, but never seeked professional help. just wanted to run through a few things in case anyone can relate or explain... when i was younger i used to have these weird sort of, i can only describe as, seizures (similar to migraine) but i would be in a dream state, hearing very loud noises which weren't there like a cash register or something random, and everything would go very slowly and i would feel panicky - this would come on randomly and its happened only a few times recently but not as common as when i was younger. also, anyone experience weird uncomfortable dreams where your head feels like cotton wool and your body just feels out of place, and just really surreal. at first i thought this dream thing was just my subconscious being weird, but now its more of an ongoing experience, like i wake up grinding my teeth sometimes and just feeling really 'out of body'. i can only relate the feeling to when you have pins and needles. anyway, thats my weirdness - any comments on this would be appreciated :)
thank you for this doddie. i have a feeling i've always had depersonalisation, but never seeked professional help. just wanted to run through a few things in case anyone can relate or explain... when i was younger i used to have these weird sort of, i can only describe as, seizures (similar to migraine) but i would be in a dream state, hearing very loud noises which weren't there like a cash register or something random, and everything would go very slowly and i would feel panicky - this would come on randomly and its happened only a few times recently but not as common as when i was younger. also, anyone experience weird uncomfortable dreams where your head feels like cotton wool and your body just feels out of place, and just really surreal. at first i thought this dream thing was just my subconscious being weird, but now its more of an ongoing experience, like i wake up grinding my teeth sometimes and just feeling really 'out of body'. i can only relate the feeling to when you have pins and needles. i feel like these experiences somehow tie to my history of identity issues and body dysmorphia...but i've never met anyone who has had similar experiences or can shed light onto it. anyway, thats my weirdness - any comments on this would be appreciated :)
I have derealization ever since a traumatic experience early this year. I'm an actress, the absolute worst thing that can happen (considering my choice of career) is spacing out during an audition, which happened several times. Thank you for this video, it was very insightful.
Thank you so much for this video. I have some form of depersonalization and derealization because I've needed to shut down on some level due to being in a really conservative, homophobic family. This video was helpful because sometimes I don't think I'll ever be able to process everything I've been through or actually feel better. Thanks for the hope and education. <3
I used to have "attacks" of depersonalisation, I remember them starting when I was around 15 but they probably started a lot earlier then that. I would feel like I was trapped in my head and was just watching the world through a control room window, it was so weird and no one I talked to understood. It didn't happen often but it was enough for me to notice something was wrong. This past year I've been having attacks of derealisation and their getting closer and closer together and lasting much longer. I get so disoriented and can't really function properly if at all. I know that I'm triggered by loud and clostraphobic sounds, like a busy supermarket or if the tumbledrier is on. But sometimes it just comes of no where. It's so weird and I just wish it would stop.
This was so interesting and useful. I was very dissociative for a while after I ended a toxic relationship but after about six months, despite still in the recovery process somewhat, I'm feeling a lot better in terms of my derealisation. However because I didn't know much about it or the causes,I was very worried I was making it all up, that it was all in my head and that my de realisation wasn't valid because of how quickly it went compared to other people. However this video taught me a lot about derealisation and how it's caused; and I think the fact that I processed all of my memories over that time was what made me feel better. I still deal with it and other issues sometimes but I'm in the best place I've ever been. Thanks for making amazing content, like always ❤️
I had depersonalization for the longest time and the video you made on it and anxiety accompanied by depression helped me to realise the disorder. The depersonalization is a side effect of my PTSD. You saved my life basically so thank you :)
When my parents were going through a rough patch before their divorce, there was one time my dad shoved my mom against the wall and we left the house for a day, and another time he drove like a crazy person while they were fighting. I don't remember most of these events, so my anxious head has filled in the brain with the worst case scenario. I would have panic attacks in the middle of the night when I stayed at his house. It wasn't until after my mom told me about this that I was able to stop crying on the drive there.
Thank you so much Dodie and Kati for making this video, you're helping many people <3 Since we're talking about mental health here, I kind of want to share my mental heath issues to see if maybe somebody feel the same way I don't know if this is depression or anxiety or anything, but I often get periods where the whole world seems like it's falling apart, I'm terrified of everything, like I'm never going to be able to get married or have good friends or a job... when I'm at that point I feel extreme guilt over absolutely everything I've ever done, things as small as swearing or being open about my feelings with my friends, and I feel the need to tell my mom everything to get some relieve but it usually only works for 2 minutes before the guilt and thought obsessing about everything return. It's not like I WANT to tell my mom about stuff that most teenagers do, it's because my brain feels like it's going to explode if I don't. I also can't sleep, my memory gets really bad, I can't concentrate. I also have had this constant anxious feeling in my chest every day for the last 3 years, but it seemed to have suddenly disappeared about 3 weeks ago (which is kinda terrifying tbh) I had been feeling better than I've had in a long time, but a few days ago I found myself slipping into depression again... Does anybody have the same thing? :( I feel so alone sometimes, like I'm making everything up and none of this is valid
Wow this really made me understand things a lot clearer. It's so interesting to learn about this topic and what going on in people's heads when this happens. I wanted to know more about this topic because before I didn't really get it but I understand a lot clearer now!
Thank you so much for making this video, Dodie and Kati. Ever since I was little I've experienced these things, but in the last few months, things have gotten really bad. I was too scared to Google anything just in case it was something really bad (not saying this is a good thing to have. It's hell for me), then I saw one of your videos talking about it, and I finally had a word/name to this thing. I searched for it and it's exactly what I've been experiencing. I was too scared to talk to anyone about it. Last week I finally told my mum and she was so supportive and she said she's going to help me get the help I need. After watching this, I'm definitely going to send this video to my mum so she has a better understanding. It feels so good to finally know what this is. Thank you so much!
I love this video 💖 I don't suffer from any of these specific problems but it is very interesting to learn about! It's also v important cause it help me(and other people lol) understand what others are going throughh
well, I'm not affected by any of those things. Thankfully, I feel really connected to myself and my body. I do have slight tendencies towards derealisation since I get lost into my thoughts so many times people think I'm not there anymore. Now this is also an effect from my ADD, getting distracted a lot of the time, but I think there's a little more behind it since (I think) I subconsciously choose when to lose interest in reality. Really interesting subject, and I'm definitely going to do some self studying on it :P
I'm definetly going to binge watch Kati's Videos! I do not suffer from mental health issues (I think!), but I am so interested in learning more about mental illnesses and Things of that sort. As a teacher I want to be empathetic and understand the complexity of the human brain as much as I can. Thank you for this informative Video, I enjoyed it very much :)
Thank you so much for this video, you probably won't see this message but i've had the same problem as you for almost two years now and like you i found out not many know what it is, and it's difficult to explain. so i'm really glad you're doing these videos now, because it's helpful for both the people having this problem to understand it, and the friends of these people to understand the issue and how to react accordingly. I always liked your channel and music and now this series of videos is helping me a lot, so thank you for everything dodie, i hope you'll be able to heal soon
When I was in a deep depression last year, I started having despersonalisation and desrealisation. Dissociation I've always had since I was a child, sometimes I space out when I have to deal with something really stressful. It's like I'm not there, and everything slows down and it freaks me out. Now that I'm better (not cured, I still have some ups and downs) despersonalisation and desrealisation don't happen anymore, but I still dissociate sometimes. But I'm learning to deal with it.
Being a person that dissociates more, I've developed some cope mecanisms. One thing that I do is ALWAYS tell my friends that I have this condition, so they can help me. When I dissociate, I can't do anything, it feels awful, so I told them to talk to me when they realize that I'm not "there". Talk to me about puppies, and happy things, or remove the thing that is causing me to "zone out" and then helping me. Having friends that understand what I go through is amazing and helpful so don't be afraid, tell them what you have and if they love you they're gonna help. If it happens when I'm alone, I focus on breathing. I have two ways of breathing that helps me. One is inhaling for four seconds, a pause for 7s, and then exhale for 8s. The other one is doing it as a "box": inhale 4s, pause 4s, exhale 4s, pause 4s. You decide for how long in this one. Then I try things like: a cube of ice in my hand, claping hands in front of a mirror to come back, listening to songs that I love and on earphones so I can really listen to the music and come back.
As I'm getting better, I'm dissociating less, so I recomend looking for professional help too!
Hey Dodie!❤️ I think that I have 'derealisation and/or depersonalisation'. I don't really know what to do🤷🏼♀️ When I talk to my parents about it they just say that I'm drowned in my thoughts, which is sort of true but I really want to seek help, anyone got any advice?🌻
I NEEDED THIS SO MUCH I'm almost certain I feel derealization at school and so many other times. At school I'm around so many people and while being an introvert it makes my whole body want to shut down. I feel like I'm never awake (not tired, but I also am always tired lol) and that nothing I touch is real. I feel like I'm just a robot who's been programmed. I absolutely hate it, but am so glad to maybe have found what it is.
I have a few thoughts so far. Personally, I take Zoloft and it works very well (started on 25 mg then 50). Recently in therapy, I did EMDR for the second time. The first time around, I didn't feel anything from it and felt it wouldn't work (we did an old memory that had lost effect on its own) but the second time, I had a recent episode and we did it and it worked very well. Grounding isn't very effective for me? Idk. I fidget a lot too.
I'm really stuck right now in thought patterns. But what I can manage to say right now, is thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Mental health discussions are SO important!
I loved the inside out marbles comparison. It really helped me visualise and understand what happens. This video was really helpful in general! I sometimes experience the sensation of not really feeling the things happening around me. Its like im in a certain situation but my brain just denies what im seeing and hearing but just shuts off for a bit to process whats going on. I guess thats a bit of dissociation. Its nothing serious but im really glad i understand what happens now. Thank you both for such an amazing video! I hope you finally find a treatment that helps you, good luck ❤
hi. i've suffered through derealization since i was 14. i didn't know it had a name. i was too ashamed to tell anyone about it because i thought i was broken/ruined/crazy. i told my mom when i was around 17, and she was absolutely terrified of me. it made me feel like a monster. and then i started watching your channel... and you made a video on it. you gave it a name. you made me feel human.
i'm 25 now and i finally have the courage to talk about derealization with others, and i'm even going to a counselor now. and here you are now, talking with mental health professionals and helping even more people just like me. kids whose mothers might not understand. adults who never had a name for what they've been carrying.
i don't really know how to thank you for what you've given back to me. you don't even know me. your music helps me all the time – i'm pretty sure you went inside my brain and wrote 'when'– and i just absolutely adore you. thank you, thank you, thank you.
wow this is a really educational and helpful video!! even though i don't experience depersonalisation or derealisation, it did help me think a little differently about my depression!
Hello Dodie! Thank you for talking about such issues, I think it's very brave of you to do so, I don't personally think I could even mention my depressive episodes to any one! But One you put on side notes in your videos, could you leave them on screen for a bit longer? As a non-English native speaker, it's already a bit hard to follow everything, and pausing every now and then makes it hard for me to keep up with the conversation!
That being said, I'd like to mention that I love you very much and that your music has helped me putting real emotions on weird moments of my life! Bless you ! :)
This stuff is so helpful and motivating, like just talking about it and knowing other people are going through it and figuring it out is so nice. It'd be nice to feel my emotions again.
it's so nice knowing other people go through this, like, it makes me so emotional knowing i'm not alone even a lot of the time i truly believe i am... to anyone reading this suffering the same, you're not alone and people love you (including me)! you will be fine and soon you will feel whole again <3
seeing dodie smile and the warm glow in her face when listening to kati was so sweet like i feel that kati is what dodie needs not just because of her profession but because of her being and personality. She obviously feels so comfortable being and talking with her and also since dodie realeased the "am I sharing too much" video I feel she has grown. She may be feeling worse or up and down but she's actively changing the way she approaches the subject and how she feels. I love her so much 💛
From around the age of..7? I've had panic attacks some nights from thinking of death. I don't have them that much (about that) now, I'm 14, and now that I'm watching this, I think I had dearelisation after the panic attacks, mainly when I was younger. Thank you for this video ❤️
I suffer with Derealisation and BPD (Borderline personality disorder). I find that talk therapy with a therapist that specialises in Schema therapy and Somatic therapy works best this type of condition. My therapist will always "check in" with me, she tries to ground me as soon as i sit down with her. She has given me this small white shell to touch and play with whenever i feel separated from my body or my situation. Just being able to talk through a thought or feeling or memory or even just going into detail about what i cooked that day, is enough make my brain learn to feel again. Breathing techniqes may not sound relavant but it certainly helps to refocus yourself out of a bad situation of diconnecing and anxiety. I had a build up of very odd and traumtic events from a baby and again in my early teens and then early 20's. I was misdiagnosed as Bipolar due to my doctors not fully understanding what was happening to me. So its so important that you keep searching for the right people to listen to you. This is one of the best videos you have done on this channel Dodie. its very relatable to thouands of people.
Excellent excellent vid Dodie!!!! Kati was so helpful oh my word. I don't suffer from derealisation thankfully, but I just really found this so interesting in understand where my generalised anxiety might stem from, especially that whole part about trauma being big Ts and Little ts. xxx
omg this is soo helpful!! I struggle with dissociative disorders and sometimes I feel kind a lonly in this area because nobody reallly talks about it, and know anything about it. thanks thanks thanks!!
i suffer from depersonalisation and my friends always have to try and help me actually be there in the moment as appose to with myself in a bubble where time just walks away and i feel like a minute has gone by but really it's been 20 minutes and I'm really lucky to have such great friends and a wonderful life and this video has really helped me connect and let me know I'm not alone in this world of craziness so thank you. I really does mean a lot.
I recently got rid of my depression and anxiety but it's a constant battle, I'd say it's been gone for about three months but every single day I have to fight with myself to get out of bed, to give the day a shot, some days I cry, but most days i'm fine. The thing she said about little T's and big T's really struck a cord with me. During these past two years my mom got depressed and lost her hair, school was very stressful, and during my recovery this year my friend tried to kill herself, my dad got MS and my grandma died. Life is a constant struggle but it's always worth it. If you're experiencing depression or recently got out of it, the song "flowers in the window" by Travis is a very great song when you feel hopeless. The song is about having children, but I like to listen to it as if it's about someone getting happy after a long while of sadness.
I use playing cards to shuffle hen im feeling like im away from myself, that or circling my finger in my palm and tracing my fingers. its grounding and it keeps you feeling. as for trauma therapy ive done a lot of talking with friends and relatives and such. i had to find out ways to do it by myself as the NHS didnt really have much help for me. they helped with depression and anxiety. i still space the hell out and have nothing there at all. Thanks for this video.
i think my experience with mental illness could even if for a little tiny bit benefit you. I did go to a therapist which helped so much but the other significant thing is that i got introduced to a philosopher named Alan Watts and by listening to recordings of his lectures i slowly got better, my view on life changed 100% and i began understanding what it is really like to live, and I think that is very important to help with depersonalisation. He does’t talk about mental illnesses but by seeing the world differently your brain can see a world where it can work better with. if you could only listen to one start with this one titled “The Root of your Anxiety” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nchUv3GhdJ4
what’s different about him is that he’s very humorous and he never said anything like he doesn’t understand. I just hope you’ll listen to this because i really do think it might help, at least to catch your attention into looking further into what he says. Lots of love X.
I think this is such a good way to talk about mental health problems. It helps people who have similar or even the same problems, but it also doesn't drag you down, because it is focused on ways to improve. I really like it, well done!
thankyou for this dodie. i didn't know anything about depersonalisation but listening this felt like a huge realization because for the past two years i've felt like i was watching tv. like nothing is really happening, and now i can look into it and get help thankyou :)
i have derealisation!! thought it was depersonalisation but yea. it often happens after i've had an intense dream for some reason and it can last from 30 minutes to like, 2 hours i think (usually until i get into my routine, specifically when i have to start socializing with classmates and stuff. the ride on the train is always a surreal experience though) i don't think i've ever been thraumatized though. but i've suffered from anxiety and social anxiety all my life and it affected me a lot as a child (one huge symptom was my biting my nails til they bled, i've had 3-4mm long fingernails til just a few years ago). maybe i'm just a bit stressed right now? i'm gonna finish uni next year and i'm feeling a lot of pressure from my family and friends so. idk! it's confusing i used to see a therapist but let's say she wasn't quite helpful, since she mocked me and made me feel bad for how i was feeling so i'm not really open to talking about it with anyone else cause honestly people are gonna think i'm weird or they're gonna tell me i don't have the right to have mental issues since my life isn't so hard...idk. but thanks for the info ily : )
to me it feels like i'm living life through a virtual reality headset. most of the time it's pretty close, but still doesn't feel quite real, and i'm not quite connected to my body. but when it gets bad it's laggy, poorly calibrated, the camera the scenario was filmed with was out of focus, and there was something muffling the mic. additionally, i can get really paranoid about it, thinking that i really am in a dream, or a computer simulation or whatever and i'm seeing the trick being played on me, so grounding techniques don't really work bc I think i'm seeing the truth and whoever's giving me tips is trying to keep me in the dark or under control. which is probably more connected to something other than derealization. :/
I showed this to my mom and she finally understands me I get both of them all the time to the point I have done something and not really relise I'm doing it but doddle I love u and ur channel stay awesome 🤗
oooh this is interesting. i never realised but im fairly sure i was experiencing all three on and off about 2 years ago. i remember writing a poem about how my limbs felt heavy and like they were disconnecting from my body. i would just float from room to room like i was being dragged. my eyelids felt like they were getting thicker and harder to move. sometimes i would just sit on my carpet and stare at the sun but not in a peaceful way more like a numb practically dead way. it was intolerable. mostly because i didnt know why i felt like that. i thought it was just depression. maybe it was? all i know is that im over it hopefully for good.
I have a disorder(?) and it was recognised over a decade ago but it still isn't majorly accepted. Thank you for talking about how you had to take in a letter/wiki page. I'm thinking about going in for help and I was worried that they would turn it down or maybe think I was trying to do their job for them?
When dodie was talking about how depresonilzatuon/derealization is scarce in research, that is what my career is going to be. I'm going to school for neurology and psychology so I can help with the research to help find curing methods and good meds for those who are sick. I love u dodie
Thankfully, I do not suffer from any mental illnesses. I don't have dissociation or derealization. One time though, I was just playing football and out of nowhere something just happened and it felt like everything around me just turned into fiction. I was seeing my friends run around after the ball. I was running after it myself but I just felt like I wasn't there. It lasted for around 10 minutes. I was controlling myself, I could think and speak and move but I just felt weird. I was so terrified. I know this is not the derealization or depersonalisation. What happened does match the spacing out description I've read and heard though. It has only happened once in my entire life, it's not a big deal at all I just wanna say that if THAT is how you feel 24×7, and you still get through it: hats off Dodie. You're a brave brave brave person.
i wish i knew about the fact that EMDR doesn't work if you struggle with dissociation. i always thought i was doing it wrong!! there was one instance where it worked but i still couldn't help but feel like i wasn't doing something right. my therapist told me mine stems from small traumas with a couple big traumas thrown in there, the same as yours, all spanning over the course of a few years. i've always been very spaced out but noticed something was very wrong the last year or so when i became depersonalized and couldn't recognize myself in the mirror. talk therapy helps me most. one day i walked out of a session & was completely grounded for about 20 minutes. it was the happiest i'd ever been.
I had a massive bout of derealisation during my A levels (for me it's a symptom of Confusional Migraines). I start to get paranoid that I'm imagining things and people, and I convince myself that half the stuff (normal things like walls and cars) aren't real. It's really fuckin strange and why I'm never going to experiment with hallucinogenics.
okay thank you so much for explaining that you dont have to have a giant traumatic experience to experience these things. i keep telling myself i have no reason to feel like this and it sucks mann
i could cry at that metaphor for the shattered marble. all my mental illnesses come attached with "as result of a trauma" or "due to a trauma" and i've never had how i feel explained as well as that. thank you so much for introducing us to her, she seems wonderful!
This is so interesting. I am currently studying to become a Trauma Therapist. It's videos and talks like this that inspire me the most. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us, Dodie! Keep going! I know you can do this! I can't wait to be able to help people who have gone through traumas however I can. ❤️❤️
i did EDMR with my therapist for my anxiety. we have stopped doing it for now but i did not like it. i wasn't getting into it and i could see through all her questions and tactics. i also don't like therapy because i felt like i was forced to go so that could have been why i was not cooperating. but that was just for me. i also noticed that i was VERY tired and drained after. having my eyes follow a light for minutes on end. just my experience though.
I was recently diagnosed with depersonlisation/derealisation yet I don't seem to recall any trauma from my childhood. And I have trouble remembering things so if there was any trauma I don't think I'll ever be able to recall it. (Hope this made sense) Does anyone else feel that way?
I've done EMDR, and in my case they did not do the look at the finger thing, but put loud clicks on a headphone. Worked a treat for me. I hope you can try again at some point, but everyone has a different reaction to all those therapies. keep trying!
I told my mom about how I think I have depression and how I want to go to a doctor and see but she keeps saying "it's just hormones" but I know she doesn't want to admit her child might have mental health problems. It's so bad that I'm constantly sucidal and I don't want to feel this way anymore but she doesn't even care
thank you,, this really helped me. i might actually talk to my friend about it and maybe a doctor because i relate to mANY derealisation symptoms. i often have to hold my chair or hold an object and force my brain back into reality whilst im at school and its shit. when i was a child some events happened with my friend having a serious illness and he didnt make it. i think i destroyed those memories ((like smashing the marble balls of memory in inside out like you were talking about)) but,, i do remember everyone planting a tree for him. everyday i think about him,,when i look at trees and the sky. i think im gonna talk to a friend. thank you guys so much <3
i always have this weir feeling when i'm in big crowds like nothing is real and it's all just a dream and everything that happens is sureal. I always thought i'm just weird or something but now i finally know what it is. Thanks dodie!
I'll doubt you'll see this Dodie but I'm just curious, with your Depersonalization, do you ever feel weird looking in the mirror? I know you said you think you look like your brother, but do you ever feel freaked out or super uncomfortable? I experience Depersonalization and I experience this and I just wondered if it's normal. I guess if any of you in the comments have it too, lemme know if you experience this!
Tbh, I had no idead what dp/dr was before, and clicking on the video I didnt expect to hear about such a thing. I really had no clue sth like this can exist. Very, very interesting and sad. I hope for all of you to get through this and hope for myself to never have to experience this (or any other) mental disease during lifetime.
I can't even comprehend what these would feel like, I've had drug induced dissociation and depersonalisation from things like ketamine. Was really strange
i suffer from disassociation and it can really suck. honestly my derealisation doesn't ever bother me that much. I don't think it is that intense, but it is the depersonalisation that gets me. i don't feel like a human and my body becomes numb and cold. doing things like drinking a drink feel really wrong. i feel like i am nothing and it is so bad. i am setting up dates to talk to my therapist about it. my last episode with depersonalisation was really bad and scary. i had known i had it but hadnt researched about it, so i didnt know what was going on. i just counted to 10 like 6 times and took deep breaths and kept telling myself that i would be okay, that started to help try and clear the fog. when i get like that it can just be terrifying
I don't know if I have anything, I haven't been diagnosed but sometimes when I have little panic attacks if I'm about to do something in front of a crowd, when I do it I space out and my mind kind of goes on autopilot and then when I try to remember what happened my memory is always kind of hazy. Or if I'm just with friends I'll space out and feel sad for no reason.
I have never heard of the either of these things but I feel like a light bulb has just gone on in my head. Derealization literally describes all the my "problems".
I don't usually say this because I think it's an overused phrase but this really opened my eyes to what actually goes on, thank you. It's really interesting to see it like inside out. Thank you thank you thank you x
I think touch is helpful with other issues too and we undervalue it. As a single adult it's difficult to come across and yet so powerful in reducing loneliness. Gimme a hug!
i am just at the beginning of this video but what if i constantly feel like everything's not real? and then just in certain periods of time i realize how real everything is and i break down and genuinely feel physically sick.
I would explain depression and depersionalisation kind of like standing on a bus early in a cold morning, and it's raining outside. And you're just staring forward, following the rhytm of the bus, not bored but not enjoying it either, you're all just quietly waiting to step off the bus. And when people kill themselves it's because they never seem to get to their stop, just standing on the bus forever.
I wish my friends and family knew how to help me with my anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. Sometimes I feel like they just don't care when they don't realize that I'm drowning in my feelings and my anxiety but they just don't understand it. They never really will but I wish they'd try more.
i've had glandular fever since april and i have a huge feeling of not existing, not too sure whether it's the glandular fever that is fogging my brain or it's some for of depersonalisation. sometimes i just stand in town for an hour just watching the world go by and it feels like i am not there. my memory is really bad and god i hope i get out of this rut soon. it feels like it's never gonna go away.
I have depersonalisation and it's strange because I don't feel like me. I feel like my mind in someone else's body. It's terrible because I don't feel safe and I feel like I'm only comfortable when I'm away from society and other people who are able to judge me. This sort of stuff isn't a joke. It isn't just made up and it isn't just a little role-play. It is real and affects many people and takes over their lives. We need to increase the awareness of this.
Unrelated but I JUST CUT MY HAIR BECAUSE I REMEMBERED YOU DOING IT AND YOU MADE ME DO IT AFTER 3 YEARS THANKS.
Now related, I feel spaced out a lot... I don't feel like I have depersonalisation although I sometimes get surprised because I forget what I look like. Like I'll look in a mirror and be surprised to see myself lol. But yeah... I don't think I thankfully have that (depression and social anxiety is enough lol) but to anyone who has it regularly, I hope you all will feel better sometime in the near future... And remember it's okay to relapse after a long time of feeling good. I felt happy and non-depressed for almost 6 months and then it came back like a truck so like, don't be dissapointed in yourself when it happens! I (and I'm sure many others) love and support you even if it feels like no one does.
Not sure if this is related at all but this is how I've felt about the world: -Almost all of the time I feel like I'm floating through time, just waiting it out until something happens or I die.
-I often feel like I'm having an out of body experience an that everything is going slowly and I can't open my eyes wide enough or see very well when I'm in a loud environment surrounded by lots of people (although sometimes just loud noises makes me feel like that) this usually puts me in a childlike state I can't come out of for at least 2-4 hours.
-When my depression gets very bad I look at the parts of my body in detail and study them because I get very cold and I start to get very paranoid and believe I'm a robot/being traced/have a tracking device in me. I know im being stupid sometimes and that's impossible to happen but when I get like that it's terrifying and I genuinely believe the government or someone else is watching and monitoring me.
-also often when I get into that state in the last point I view myself as a boy (I'm a cis girl) and I start to feel physically sick when I notice the feminine parts of my body (my boobs, bum and hips are really big so I'm not masculine in any way) i often feel like I'm a trans guy when I get into that state and fantasise about getting surgery and T but then I come out the state after a couple days and I'm fine.
Okay that's almost all my dissociative type things someone help me with wtf this is
i really have no idea how i got derealisation but holy heck do i have it bad!! i had little episodes when i was a kid like mentioned in the video, but it started becoming (i guess chronic?) last winter. i don't know how i got it, i had the flu and i woke up one morning feeling spaced out and it hasn't stopped since. at first i was miserable and i just wanted to feel better, but i guess now that ive had it for almost an entire year im used to it. i think it's starting to fade away but i can't even tell because im sooooooo used to being spaced out that i have no idea what it's like to feel normal. also ive noticed that i drift more into depersonalisation whenever im in social situations like a party or something ?? so yeah that's my story of derealisation it's fucking hell as mine is also combined with depression and anxiety but im getting through it
Can some of these things be caused by mental trauma? Such as mayjor anxiety or intense mental states?? I'm not sure how to explain but I hope that makes sense 😂
Hi. I'm Nikki, I'm 13 years old and I think I'm experiencing the symptoms of dissociation but I feel like my brain is just making it up because I haven't really experienced any trauma recently or anytime I can remember and whenever I talk to my mum about it (she's a GP so if she wanted to she could refer me to a specialist) she doesn't take me seriously and changes the topic for no reason whatsoever. The only advice I can get right now is from the internet and because of this I feel like it's not really happening and it's all just fake. Does anyone have any advice bearing in mind I'm under 16 so I can't go and see a doctor by myself?
this is. the MOST uplifting video holy shit im just like weeping rn i alway thought i was doing sth wrong w emdr and constantly disappointing everyone involved fucking BLESS ok tysm for this video
It takes some serious balls to talk about mental health in a world were unfortunately although treatment and public views have come on leaps and bounds since the only asylum days but there's so...so sooo far to go !! To often it's seen as being weak ....your not strong enough to deal. With life ...now that's the ONLY "CRAZY" thing about mental health issues !! So from the bottom of my heart thank you for being so brand bringing much needed awareness and in a HEALTHY way !! I'm blown away that a young lady going through such a crappy time has the resilience to get on here with a PROFESSIONAL which is the most important bit! Educating in a non intimidating relaxed way means more people will open up and get the right help ! There are lots of people online desperate to help who do videos ONLY TRYING TO HELP! (no criticism at all) but end up giving out dangerous advice etc YOUR BOTH AWSOME and if anyone is still reading life's hard sometimes and sometimes it's outright impossible but remember could be in an hour ...a day..a week remember that feeling when someone makes you laugh even crack a "I'm still pissed at you smile" that's always makes my day ! Could be a friend..stranger ..book ...podcast...a doodie video ...have a nice day y'all xx
I tend to get depersonalisation more than derealisation. It was awful of sertraline for me; if I took my pills even an hour late, I'd be completely derealised for 24 hours or so. I don't get that any more now I'm on venlafaxine, but I still get it occasionally. It sucks balls.
IMPORTANT POINT!!!!!!!! depersonalization/derealization shouldn't be looked at like an illness, and medication isn't a good treatment. It is a learned behaviour that has resulted from your mind being overwhelmed with trauma/worry/negative thoughts etc. Thinking of it as an illness makes it much harder to recover from. I'm in the process of recovering from it as well. Mindset that you are not sick, you are tired and your brain is dealing with it by shutting down means that you can acknowledge that and with therapy and work, retrain your brain to be refreshed more positive.
I'd like to know if it's possible to experience derealisation sometimes and not always ? Because sometimes , it seems , out of nowhere I just completely space out and everything around me seems foggy and like I'm in a dream , it's like I am there but not really , afterwards I usually get a headache and feel a little dizzy and afterwards it still feels like what happened was a dream and I pinch myself a little to see if I'm still there . It's bizarre , this only happens sometimes so I'm not sure what it is. Can someone maybe tell me ?
this video is very important to me because for someone who doesn't understand their mental illness much, and also has friends who don't know or understand my mental illness !!! this means i can send it to my close friends and family and be like "hey dude, this is that thing i have, i hope you understand more" because i find it very difficult when i'm hella s p a c e d out and can't explain it
i don't know if i'm just making excuses or there is actually something wrong with me (it has nothing to do with this), but is always good to learn about mental illness and how i can help.
You keep saying it comes from trauma but I have no memories of any real trauma. I have no real bad memories, to be honest. The worst I can remember is in grade 1 yelling out in gym when the class is silent and getting embarrassed, grade 3 being called up for something my friend was doing and being told to stop when I wasn't doing anything and grade 9 (couple moths ago) not being prepared to be called on and stuttering through an answer that didn't make sense. My grandmothers and one grandfather all died within a year but it wasn't very traumatic, it was more like they just live across the world now. I have no clue what the traumatic event(s) you keep referring to could be.
Dodie, you put a link to a vid on your channel in the description. It's like a loop, you click on the link and you start watching the same video over and over again
Hey Dodie just to tell you the link for Kati's video in this description is the link for this video and not hers. I thought I was losing it for a second lol
i feel bad for posting this but i don't understand how dodie can simultaneously not want her brand to become 'mentally ill dodie' but continuously reference her mental health both on social media and on her channel. i love her content usually but on seeing this i just felt tired. on that note however, i will probably still watch it because i love her unconditionally anyway lmao
Tbh i feel like i have depersonalisation etc but I haven't really had any trauma?? Idk I'm so confused I can't put words on me feelings and I just wanna get help but nothing's working for me so far
so I dont think I have any of those I just feel like I am not conected when I am tired and when I change my routine I just get really scared and I dont feel like I can do anything it is weird
im only a child but I feel like I have a mild mental illness. I can't just go to the doctor and ask for info, but I want to know! can people help me? I'm too young.
I want you to know that this was actually super helpful video It's hard when you're struggling and can't really find anyone who feels the same way but this video really put some of my feelings to words and sorted some little things out. I've been really dissociated lately and I've had hard time focusing on my environment or anythings else. Talking to my friends the other day really helped. I have a buzzcut and my best friend has a habit of petting and touching my head and it reeeally helps and makes me feel more present and comfortable, so that's one nice thing<3 Thank you for this video, really Dodie, thank you
Omg I love Katie's channel so much, thank you for this collab!! I've just graduated high school and I just wanted to say that I am going to be starting therapy for whatever is wrong with me and has been interfering with my life for 3 years (i have no idea what it is lol) and both you and Katie have been a big part of me building up the courage to do that :) thanks dodie love u kbye
This was really interesting, also i now have a word for what I was feeling when I was dealing with grief at the beginning of the year. I felt spaced out and like I was just floating through life, which I now understand as it was a trauma it was dissociation. Thank you for helping me understand that.
This was really great! I've had friends who suffered from depression and it's so interesting to understand how the brain works, like, mental health issues aren't just randomly screwed up brains, there's logic behind it, and a way to treat it. Great video, thanks <3
Thank you for this. I honestly feel a bit better knowing where the emptiness in my brain may have come from and how to deal with it. I love the inside out analogy sm honestly that's such an insightful way to describe it. Thank you for everything dodie ily.
Dodie, I love that you're making these informative videos with a trained professional! Spreading awareness about DR/DP in a responsible and still personal way!
This was really really interesting to watch and I love learning about these things. I think I'm gonna look further into it because I can relate to some things you said. I also really wanna try therapy because I think it would be amazing to just talk to someone that I don't have any relation with and let everything out but then again I'm just really worried about it being really weird and uncomfortable
I loved this so much. I have never experienced any mental illness of any sort, but the past few months I've been really interested in it and been very bothered about how little mental illnesses are talked about and focused on. Learning about it was so interesting and I think after this video I understand at least a bit more of what you were talking about in your videos earlier.
Thank you so much for this Dodie and Kati. This makes me feel less alone and less crazy and gives me hope that things will be okay. You are a wonderful human being. You give hope to lots of people and you shine bright in your own unique ways. Thank you for being you. ❤
Thank you so much for this! I had my first experience with what I believe to be derealization before Christmas, and it was.... Terrifying. I honestly thought I was going crazy and would never get myself back. I know how I can deal with it better now, and seeing as I get it only badly about once every 1-2 months , I'm doing okay :) This video is bound to be extremely helpful so so many people, if not now, then in the future. I don't want anyone to be as scared as I was. 💚
i havent even watched the video yet but already know i'm going to love it. DODIE i really appreciate how much you talk about your mental issues and your everyday struggle. ever since i've found your videos i've felt a lot less alone in my struggle. it's so easy to get yourself into a bad headspace but i always try to be optimistic otherwise i go to deep. i'm not doing that great right now but i'll be fine. i hope but i just wanted to say thanks for unknowingly being there for me. i know you were feeling really down on sunday/satuday(snapchat) and i just wanted to say i love. never feel guilty about how you're feeling and thank you. thank you thank you thank you.
I'm on sertraline and your dosage was so strong! I started on 25mg and gradually rose to 75 over the course of a couple months. The 75 recently has seemed too strong so I went down to 50 I can't imagine how much 100 must've been for you!
This is why I love Dodie so much, her channels are just filled with positivity and even the videos like this that aren't necessarily about a positive subject still have a comforting feel to them and still results in some form of positivity. Dodie Clark is like medication for mental health in human form.
Thank you so much for posting this video! I learned a lot!😊 It was really interesting and it surely is important to talk about mental health issues nowadays especially about the ones that aren't as known☺
This was so informative and interesting. I deal with depersonalization, but I have never gotten a clear and concise explanation/definition between the differences of dissociation, depersonalization, and derealization. I'm going to share this with my therapist this week. Thanks!
Thank you for making this video. I've been thinking that I've been dealing with this but I wasn't sure. Hearing someone explain what I've been feeling really makes me feel valid. How do you go about asking for help without people misunderstanding or thinking I'm crazy?
Omg I swear!!! Dodie is such an amazing, lovely being! Like she put this video up with a PROFESSIONAL THERAPIST to help her subscribers! And she opened up about herself to which is very meaningful and can be hard to do!! I love her so muchhhhh!
Thank you so much for this video! For about a year now, I've notice that something wasn't quite right. Some days, the things happening around me seem like I am watching a movie and that it isn't my reality. Some days I just can't FEEL anything. No fear, sadness (which sounds like it would be a good thing) but also no happiness or peace. I'm glad that I can kind of put a name to what I've been feeling (or a lack thereof) and find ways to help myself. Best wishes to you dodie 💝
I got so excited when I saw Kati because I love watching her videos because she's just so empathetic and her channel really does help to educate me more on mental health and how to take care of myself and just the fact that she made a video with Dodie makes me so happy agdjdk
Thank you so so much for this! I love you both, and the way you described it is just so perfect. Especially the part about putting things in compartments and shattering it!!
Such a good and important video! Thank you so much for talking about your struggles with mental health - it really does make a difference and helps me feel less alone.
I've got anxiety and I tried CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) - it was useless for me, I tried guided self help (you're given the tools and guidance to help yourself) - it was amazing and I feel so much better after it.
Ah yes, I've been slowly trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I've known for sometime that it was most likely anxiety and depersonalisation/realisation, but putting into context of trauma makes so much sense, considering I have allot of violent graphic intrusive thoughts. (And allot of actual large traumas growing up.)
Bless dodie. I knew about dissociation but I didn't know the others/the differences and this video was very helpful! I definitely suffer from derealization quite a lot! It's nice to know things that will help now.
So glad you made this video. I feel have all three and I'm trying so hard to find a way to get help or at least figure out what's wrong so I feel less crazy.
Sometimes I feel as if my hands aren't mine, but I've always just called it Alice in Wonderland Syndrome. I didn't know it was actually a mental illness. I also get the "life feels like a dream" thing and I wrote that off as tiredness.
I've had derealisation off and on since I was 16 (I'm 22 now) I'm all for videos on this because when I tell people I experience this, a lot of people don't even know dissociation/depersonalization/derealisation exists
When you talked about your medication problem, i completely understood and that sounds like me when I was overmedicated and I completely disassociated and felt completely numb. I've moved to Well Butrin (? I cant spell 😂) and it has helped me a lot. Although I still need to start therapy but it's still a step forward. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences openly and really helping start the conversation.
it was so, i don't know, comforting to listen to this. I myself don't suffer from depersonalisation/derealisation, but i do have social anxiety. i always find myself feeling soothed when i listen to people talk about their issues in their head, because it makes me feel less isolated.all those people you see online, those people who lie about having a mental illness because its 'trendy' or whatever make me feel so nervous became not only am i worrying about making a fool out of myself on a day to day basis, i'm apsalotly terefied that if i go to a therepest, they are going to turn round and tell me that im faking it, or that it isn't that big of a deal.
Thank you so much! I know I have something going on in my brain and derealisation sounds sooo like what I have experienced. Maybe this is it? I've been trying to find out for quite a while. So again thank you so so so so much for making this video
wow.. I didn't know this was a thing before dodie talked about it and now I've realised why I'm feeling so weird all the time so thank you so so much for being so open about it <3
Thanks Dodie and Kati! ^_^ I had a weird bout of stage nerves at a performance the other day (fine until not long before a big solo, when my hands started shaking and my wrists locked, which as a drummer is a bad situation!), and after it I felt so angry and then almost trapped within myself.
Will definitely look more into these, I've been considering this label for me for a while now but these recent events pushed me over the edge a bit and I now feel like I want answers.
thank u dodie :') for about 2 months i felt like i was never going to be myself again? i didnt feel anything except when i would get an overwhelming emotional spur. it was seriously all or nothing. and everything i said didnt feel like something i would say, i didnt feel like me. ive come out of that a bit as of now but i know it will come back, it always has, just not that bad. your strength and the effort you put into getting out of where you are is so inspiring to me, and it has helped me through everything thank you dodie.
oh my GOD!! DODIE, this. honestly just helped me describe how ive been feeling for the past.... few weeks ive been put on sertraline for my anxiety/depression and, for a while i felt AMAZING and so happy and sociable.... then it quickly came down and i felt. nothing. and i felt wrong, that i MISSED my anxiety and feeling bad, and i didn't know why but its.... really comforting to know that other people experience the same thing! ; v ;
I have depersonalisation and I only recently discovered it. EMDR didn't work for me, but I am going to therapy and it really helps me. I wanna encourage everyone who is struggling with something to see someone. Anyone at all! Talking might be difficult but I promise it helps. Take care of yourself 💓
I've been sobbing all day because I've felt so discouraged from this. I have both, but more derealization. I just realized I have "little t's". I always thought "oh no I couldn't have it from trauma! I've never been in a wreck or an abusive setting." But now looking back at all the things I've gone through from age 6 to now, it DID all pile up and it DID finally snap. Thank you dodie and kati to help me. I'm going to my first therapist appointment soon. 💛💛💛
Next time somebody says that you can't learn anything from youtube I'm just gonna show them this video. ☺️I have my matriculation examination (the final big test at the end of high school) on health education coming soon and I feel like I can use so much information from this video! This is such an amazing video and definitely something the school textbooks won't teach you. Thank you for always being you 😊💛
Ah man, I think I had several little ts and at least one big T growing up. I don't usually feel depersonalized. But derealization makes a lot of sense to me.
With talk therapies like the ones described, what happens if you don't really remember the specifics of traumas, especially if it happened during early childhood?
I can't imagine how awful it must feel to be constantly in a state of derealisation. I get it occasionally and i sort of go into this state of shock for a few days and I'm terrified to go through it again
I think I have derealization but some of my stuff is different to how dodie describes and I've had a perfect childhood. no trauma that I can think of and nothing recently. Is it still possible that I have it? I also currently suffer from an anxiety disorder. Thanks :) 💜
Dodie, darling, the link in the description leads back to this video. Which I love, btw. Thank you. I just realised I had tons of derealisation phases as a child, and still sometimes now.
Dodie, the link to Kati's vid sends me to this one :'(
You are not the only one struggling with trauma too. I had a lot of dissosiation problems when people seemed to get angry. This happened because domestic violence at home when I was younger and nobody (including my dad, who was the offender) understood where it came from. It got worse the more time went on as well. I hope you find a way that does help you so well the derealisation goes away :D
Dodie, I have PTSD (which for me means there are bits of what you say that resonate a bit), can you one day (only if you are comfortable to) talk about talking therapies you've tried? x
I had a mixture of these growing up, I didn't understand what was going on so i'd always go to my mum and say something along the lines of "the worlds gone weird again" and she'd just dismiss it which I don't blame her for because how would you even know how to respond to that? but I felt like the world around me was in stop motion and my individual body parts were all in different places and different sizes like if i touched my fingers they'd feel long and thin but my legs would be short and wide (which was not the actual case for either of them) after three years of on and off counselling it has become a lot less frequent and only occurs during times when I'm feeling really stressed which is good because when I was younger it'd just sort of come out of nowhere. I'm happy that you've made a video about this kind of stuff because it would have been really helpful to me when I was younger and hopefully it can help other viewers! :)
I think i have depersonalisation and derealisation but it's not like 24/7 as in your case. I can be perfectly fine sometimes and then just that it comes and with it the anxiety. So it's like i don't know when it's gonna come back. But it's great you talk about it, it's great to see you're not the only one feeling like this
Heyy Dodie, my mum is a trauma therapist and a craniosacral therapist (CST). It's a therapy that involves light touches to the head and spine. It helps with anxiety and relaxation. It may help, or it may not. Everyone is different as you said. But it is worth a look into. Lots of love from Switzerland <3
I think I have some kind of derealisation!.. Never had a word for how I feel before but I recognize like everything you said about it.. I have too look into this! :s
I love love LOVEEE the way dodie does her makeup it looks like she's just came inside from a cold winter night and stuck on the fire with her red nose and rosy cheeks (sorry fan girling)
this is so interesting! Stuff like this will be part of a class I´m taking this year. Which means I can show off a little bit with the stuff I already know hehehe
I think I'm might have dissociation. It happens sporadically and not very often but all of a sudden I'll be hanging out with friends and my feelings go numb. I'm disconnected to myself, to them. It's an odd feeling and I've never really thought about it until now.
dodie I think the link to kati's channel is wrong- it keeps bringing me back to this video.. Also, I'm so glad you made this video. it was such a nice way to talk about your mental health and what you know about it with a more outside view.. I found it really educational (: I hope you are feeling better soon!
i don't know if i have derealisation, but sometimes it feels like nothing around me is real and this whole world is all just my imagination. It doesn't happen often but when it does it's scary; i don't feel as responsible for things i do or say, because the people around me "aren't real" and they are all in my head. I don't think that's a thing others struggle with though, probably just too much overthinking and contemplating life on my part. The annoying thing is is that when i'm all caught up in being super stressed from feeling alone and anxious (as i seem to be the only actual person existing), it's hard to snap out of it since no one can prove to me that they are not all just made up in my head.
Can you make the text pop up longer? I usually don't really mind but with these kinds of video's it's pretty useful to get enough time to read all the stuff you write on screen
I don't know still if derealisation is something I have experienced.I had a"episode" two years ago where felt like I was dreaming and i was ancoud snd confused abd i didn't feel like me,basically nothing madesense or felt real.I felt like that for a week. I havent experienced that since but my axienty is worse then it was before I experienced it.
Also this video did help me understand a bit better but I am still confused if that's the case with me.
Can it come from high levels of stress ?
Not everyone experiences chronically right?
Can it happen once?
If anyone can help answer these questions it would very helpful.
I dissociate due to panic attacks and anxiety. It's not 24/7 but it's scary and for those who do experience that constantly, you are incredibly frickin strong. It's an awful feeling yet here you are living life everyday through this foggy dreamlike world.
Shit, you started talking about depersonalisation and I noticed that as a child I had that really badly, especially after something really stressful. I'd look at my hand and just begin to burst out sobbing and it was just horrible. Lucky I'm all good now, but now I know
(only for dodie haha) But actually thank you so much for everything and just videos. and stuff, i mean i know you wont see this but still, i am going through many things and friendship break ups which bother me but not that much cause I know that they didnt need me and im glad that im finding my way? Im not doing any types of treatment or anything im just finding myself- like i said before. haha im sorry im not very talented at writing things. ive been going through hard times and good times my chest just feels empty and i think a lot now which i dont think is very healthy but thats ok. but i just wanted to say thank you so much for everything i mean gosh i really do your videos and music just help me so so much and i love you very much. thank you we all love you dodie!
is depersonalization(or like a form of it) when you look in the mirror and you don't know why you are you? like you question yourself, and why you can't be someone else, you question your name, etc?
my therapist said that i'm just a moody teenager (i didn't completely open up bc i was too scared) and my family//friends don't care or won't help so that's greatttttt
loved this video dodie :) buuuttt when i click the link for the vid on kati's channel it just takes me back to this one? anyone else having this problem/ could tell me kati's channel name so i can find it?
Is there a term or an official mental illness for not being able too see the world we live in as the real world. I mean it's not like a video game but just.... as if there is a snapchat filter on the world so your mind makes it look more pretty as it is. Forgetting the bad things you hear and see and remembering the good and fun ones. But as our mind refreshes itself at night the bad things it decided to throw out turn into nightmares... kinda what I'm experiencing. I have allot of nightmares.
Just so you know Dodie (and it might just be me finding this) the link to your video on Kati's channel links back to your own video. Just maybe check to make sure because my computer is fucked and it's probably just me.
i have really bad constant derealisation and anxiety but my parents aren't very supportive of me and i can't really tell them about my issues because they get mad at me, but i really need help and i'm slowly getting more and more suicidal... does anyone have any advice for me?
is there like.. a time when you're walking, and then just stop, but you still walking and then you think that someone else is jusy controlling your body? is that a thing?
I'm so sorry if i sound ignorant, i have no mean to, but have you tried hypnosis or meditation or something similar? Cuz i feel like meditation is great for (re)connecting with yourself or your environment. Again, just asking, I'm no expert
I loved the video and everything, but this is kind of a non-related note: dodie, the link in the description says "our vid on kati's channel" but i tried to click and it got me to this video again...
Jesus fucking Christ. Why can't my therapist be like her? My therapist said my realisation isn't real because I found it on the internet. Let me tell you lady. ITS FUCKING REAL.
ffs this woman aint a doctor dodie darling speak to a psychiatrist, you gave up on zoloft too quickly. Zoloft afftects everyone like that at the start, you have to give it a longer amount of time to truly test it. Its hard and shitty yes but giving it on meds too quick is a fatal mistake. Hope a doctor you know personally can explain this is more detail.
I tried explaining to my therapist about my depersonalisation and her response was:
1766 likes"maybe that's just the way your brain is".
cool.
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I feel your pain. Most therapists ask me what my diagnoses even are when I tell them what past therapists I met at outpatient clinics diagnosed me with and then I never saw them again cause you can only go for so long to certain ones. I feel lost.
45 likesI hate that. I told my previous therapist and she said, "yeah but this usually occurs because of trauma." and it's hard to talk about because when you have it 24/7 it's hard to explain how you're feeling a way that makes sense
50 likes@daddy tabasco so much of mental health is still so misunderstood :(
12 likesLet's play "YEET THAT THERAPIST!"
25 likesKERSTIN
8 likesThe thing is , most therapists know a shit about Derealization
Well that freaks the shite out of me oh ffs
1 likeI would highly recommend to see another therapist…
8 likesKERSTIN that’s wack
0 likesShe just don't know anything about depersonalization. Your brain is not messed up. You're going to be okay❤ It's a natural reaction that a lot of people go through. I have it and have had it for about a week now, but I'm going through it and staying positive 🙏🏾 We will heal. It's temporary. Just think of it like it's a cold and you will recover from it.
11 likesKERSTIN my therapist said the same thing
0 likesmine too
0 likesSame! She said that it's probably just the way it is when you get older. She also said she couldn't help me so I just dropped out of therapy :/
0 likesAccept you are just different and try everything to get the best you, takes awhile but hoping for total cure is nor how it usually goes. Different is not better or worse, just difftent...
0 likesI physically gasped when I read this comment because I literally had the same experience. I tried explaining how I feel like my brain is constantly overwhelmed by my environment, and she just told me that my perception of life might just be like that. Literally almost verbatim .. "maybe that's just how you are"
1 likeSame.
0 likesUgh I hate that! It must’ve been frustrating for you :(
0 likesI had one of those and I ditched them. Well, tbh, I ghosted them and retreated into my shell until another crisis made me seek out someone new. But now, oh boy, have I landed a great therapist!
0 likes@Schurik This would make sense because whenever I said when my depression was bad this happened, they never knew what I was talking about 😂. So I would just be like well this is how it feels and it's technically under the dissociation umbrella but I feel real just the world and everything else doesn't. Then this makes me feel like I know more than them 🤔 this also happens when I mention selective mutism as part of my mild social anxiety(because it doesn't interfere with my life the way it did as a child so it's not a disorder).
0 likessame! it's like... yeah, i know, but i want help to learn to manage it
1 likeSome “professionals” still don’t know shit about some things. I had my doctor laugh and tell me I didn’t know what I was talking about basically, when I asked for help related to BDD.
1 likemy doctor said I should drink more water 😅
0 likesWhy is she even a therapist...
0 likes@Divine Light How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it
0 likesoh my god yikes
0 likes@REDACTED I have been having it for 3 years....
0 likes@LucianCorrvinous Son of Hekaté "Accept you are just different"
0 likes@LucianCorrvinous Son of Hekaté Are you trying to say that you cant cure it completely?
0 likes@Divine Light It' s not that easy for a lot of people. That's great if that works for you.
0 likesDoes any one find it to feel like being high... but without the happy feeling?
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JennyHenry dodie described it once as constantly feeling drunk
160 likesfor sure
14 likesThat’s exactly how I explain it!!
67 likesYes
8 likesyes yes yes absolutely
14 likesYes yes yes. Almost as tho you’re completely stoned but not in a good mood you’re just kind of. Not present?
104 likesYES
2 likesholy shit yes, i thoughtthis before, when i was high one time, i felt like i wasnt there, and i could teleport back or it was a dream, like i was walking in the park then all of a sudden i was at the bus stop then at the park again, but i washigh so i knew it wasnt me, and when i have these things where a period of time like 30 mins, and i feel out of my body or like im being derealized from myslef, i feel like that and i have to sit otherwise i freak the fuck out
29 likesYes !!!! Also being stuck in a constant state of just waking up . How when you wake up you’re super groggy and your brain is very very slow . And the feeling of not being able to open your eyes wide enough .
41 likesYes!!!!
0 likesYa
0 likesYES
1 likeYes I said this to my mom
0 likesyes yes! that’s how i feel lol everything looks 2D
7 likesI’m back rewatching this video bc yesterday I was super disconnected from everything. It was maybe the worst I’ve ever felt it. My head just felt like, heavy like I was about to fall asleep and my motor skills were bad. It was just bad. I was off my meds bc sometimes I forget to take them bc I’m bad at self care
7 likes@Julia S u feel better now?
0 likesI got high for the first time this year and turned to my boyfriend and said “this is almost exactly how I feel all the time”. I didn’t realise people didn’t feel this way all this time
6 likesThat’s spot on what it’s like
0 likesIt’s how I imagine being high is
0 likesYes
0 likesThat’s how I’ve felt since I stopped smoking weed. Now I can’t smoke anymore because it makes it worse. I always feel high, and weird like I’m not really there and time literally flies
7 likesOh yeah man.. Ketamine for free lol...
1 likeYes!!!! That's exactly how I always describe it!!!
0 likesYES
0 likesOmg yes
0 likesNow that I think about i've told my friends that I don't need weed cause im already always high naturally hahahaha
3 likesYes 100%. I go through dissociative episodes that can last a couple days. I’m diagnosed with bipolar type 2 and sometimes when I’m going between hypomania and melancholy (both less severe versions of being manic and depressed) my brain will tune out feelings as a way to prepare for the depressive episode. For me at least, I will feel like I can’t emote. Like I will feel as though I’m not able to feel joy or sadness, which in itself is a symptom of depression- however alongside that- because I can’t feel emotion I’ll start feeling as though nothing is real etc etc. When I started smoking weed, it gave me so much anxiety because it gave me the SAME feeling of questioning reality but because I controlled how much I was thinking about reality, it almost prepared my brain for my next dissociative episode. BUT please don’t self medicate with drugs, I wasn’t responsible (still aren’t in some ways)
3 likesIt started for me after smoking weed, so that's what I associated with until I learned what it was.
4 likesYes I slur my words can’t keep up with what I’m saying or remember what I said, I’m also more clumsy.
3 likesYes that’s why I had to stop smoking after I started experiencing it because I felt like I was getting high and never coming down :/ :/
2 likesThat’s how I explain it? Though I haven’t been diagnosed I feel like this describes how I feel perfectly
2 likesi go crazy and start laughing at random things
0 likesVery much so
0 likesYes
0 likesYes!
0 likesyees exactly
0 likesYes, it feels like someone drugged you but it doesn't go away...
0 likesI’ve never been high but I want to try getting high and seeing if it works the other way so I want to see if me having DPDR i want to see if I get high I will feel normal ? Could that work
1 like@Depressed Alien Getting high on weed is the worst thing you can do when you have derealization/depersonalization. TRUST ME
5 likesMateusz Wieczorek ok , I won’t then Thank you for telling me !
1 like@Depressed Alien i tried it and it was sooo overwhelming that i constantly passed out soo be careful!!
0 likesYes it's scary
1 likeHaley Marie are u okay now?
0 likesYes!! I have this disorder and I got high for the first time a few weeks ago and I freaked out because it was exactly how I always feel but turned up to 10 and I just couldn’t enjoy it.
2 likesYes!!
0 likesExactly how I feel and I always zone out
0 likesJennyHenry yes. and its really frustrating bc its hard for me to comprehend why anyone would ever get rid of their clear brains when i want nothing more than a clear brain.
1 likeIve never been high lmao im 13 but my heart feels like it has glass around it and the happiness is outside of it? The happiness and the cloudiness is on the same level? (Happiness is oil and the cloudiness is water so think about the seperation)
1 likedefinitely
0 likesI've never been high, but it does seem like how I'd imagine being high, and I often get called out for looking high when I'm doing worse with my potential dp/dr issues
1 likeYES! EXACTLY! It started after I'd been smoking way too much weed.
0 likesJennyHenry I mean...kinda...yeah
0 likesI feel like I'm not here, I'm not reacting to anything, like my head can't feel the pillow under it and my feet can't feel the ground, I feel like I'm falling but without moving at all, I'm hyperventilating and you know how very anxious people move a lot and are like constantly panicking yeah I do that too but in my mind because I'm so zoned out I talk mentally to myself and cry, but I can't feel my tears rolling down my cheeks it's horrible.
3 likesExactly how I describe it
2 likesBrokenGod Ent. it started for me after the first time i smoked weed too. :/ apparently weed can be a trigger
1 likeYup it happened to me and I’m still goin through it for years everyday
0 likesStill feel it like it’s just stuck with me ugh
0 likes@Lucy that is the best way to describe it
2 likesFeels like the epitome of a nightmarish trip
2 likesyeah :(( im crying so much
0 likesJennyHenry yeah!!
0 likesYES yes yes
0 likesThat sounds r like mania as well, well some mania in some people. Such illness is not by category, it's a spectrum...
0 likes@luna disconnected...
0 likes@Jess S high on what!
0 likes@i am juniper you wouldn't have if you are functional, and its all you know...
0 likes@Haley how long were you sober your fat releases for 30 to 45 days...
0 likes@Madison Curry as Bipolor 1 its not unusual, and you in meds now lithium for me was like this all the time. I call it walking thru peanut butter...disconnection from the world like your watching stuff through a peep bole
1 like@LucianCorrvinous Son of Hekaté that's the word, thank you
0 likesYES YES YES
0 likesYES
0 likesYes
0 likesNo. More like the state between being high and sober but drawn out. The transfer between being sober and high is different. Depends on the drug in question though I suppose.
0 likesYes
0 likesYES
1 likeJennyHenry yessss! It’s like having a bad trip while high
1 likeYea when I got high the other day the only thing I noticed was that my derealisation symptoms were 10 times worse but that's itt
0 likesfvjbfzjb, yep I try not to think about it
1 likeyou said it perfectly
0 likesYes!
1 likeYESS
1 likeOf course
0 likesyes yes yes
0 likesIt honestly feels exactly like a bad high
1 likeYes!
0 likesIt's exactly like being high
0 likesYES this has been the only way I’ve really been able to explain it
0 likeskinda yeah
0 likesNot really, but it's different for everyone
0 likesI once smoked weed, and It triggered depersonlazation
2 likes@Matilda that’s actually super common! It’s so fucking scary tho
0 likesYes
0 likesYES
0 likesI never got to feel high.. ever I just got the bad part
0 likesThis is exactly what I've been going through for the past four days. Have any of you had any resolution to this feeling? How long did it last for you? It seems to come in waves for me... The last time that I smoked was like a week ago, and now, all of a sudden, I've just been feeling slightly high on and off. I absolutely can't stand it, and I'm waiting for it to pass... But I just want to know when it's going to end.
0 likesYep
0 likesI just wanna say for the people reading these later.. that it stopped. The feelings came and went for about a week and a half. And I haven’t really felt much since. I have felt it while drinking alcohol, but in my daily life, it’s gone. Thank goodness. I was worried that it wouldn’t go away, but it did. 🙏🏻
0 likesYES
0 likesAnyone please help me with the solution of this problem?????please
1 like@77_Sabal Singh Chahal Hey. Just give it some time.. I promise it will pass. Take care of yourself, and try your hardest not to worry and obsess over it. It will be gone before you know it, and the feelings you’re experiencing now will soon be a distant memory. You will be ok.
0 likes@luna perfect description. It's a pain
1 like@Dahannes indeed
0 likesbut worse like a edible high that’s very aggressive and makes you feel alone and like your gon die, i’m glad i’ve healed from mine i had it for months last year round July but sometimes i feel a bit detached but more like from emotions and that’s explainable with everything going on in the world & stress in my personal life but thank God it’s nothing compared to my June experience which I’m proud of !
1 likeyeah when it's like real bad I have that too. Like my orientation in space and time is pure shit and I have to watch my feet while walking because I feel like stuff around me is spinning
0 likes@luna yess
0 likesyes 1000%
0 likesYep
0 likesExactly
0 likesYes
0 likesAll I know is that if I overcome DP/DR I’m never having a bad trip if I get high again, cuz I literally feel like I’m high all the time💀
0 likesI had a high good feeling like the whole world is happy which then led to being high but in not a good way
0 likesExactly
0 likes@Lucy this is exactly what I feel. Have you become better with this? If so please please reach out and tell me some strategies
0 likescan being high for to long and then getting sober just leave you like this possibly
0 likesyes
0 likesthat's literally exactly how i've been describing it oh my god that's exactly how i feel
1 likeIt's like you're not here, but not any where either
1 like@Pragmatic Addict bro this is exactly what I feel about it
1 likeFax
0 likes@Jackie hey did u recover
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin heyy and yes I get it every here and there but for the most part I’m doing so much better
1 like@Leiley King hi did ur dpdr go away
0 likes@Elizabeth Collins hi could u help me please
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin hey, Lauren. Yes, I’d love to help you out.
0 likes@Elizabeth Collins are thanks did dpdr go away for u
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin Yeah, it did.. For me, it lasted for about two weeks at first.. And I had little blips randomly for a while.. But those only last for a few minutes.. It goes away with time.. For me, it helped to get distracted and not focus on it all the time.. Your mind isn’t damaged, and your normal perception will return.. Just try not to obsess over it. I promise you’ll be completely fine in no time.. I know it’s scary, but it doesn’t last forever.
0 likes@Elizabeth Collins how do u get rid of it did u hav depression with it
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin I just kind of waited for it to subside.. Although, it probably would have been good for me to talk to someone about it. I can’t really say that I was depressed either.
0 likesno
0 likes@Liz did u recover
0 likes@luna hi did u recover
0 likes@Elizabeth Collins hi i have DPDR cud u help me pls
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin Hi, Laura! I have recovered. It took me a couple weeks to bounce back, but slowly and surely I made it to the other side. I promise you’ll be ok. Try not to obsess about it, even though I know that it’s difficult to. Try to find ways to distract yourself… don’t Google it obsessively.. and just allow yourself to take a break from worrying about it. You will be ok; this won’t last forever.
0 likes@Elizabeth Collins could you help me please hun
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin how would you like me to help you?
0 likes@Elizabeth Collins basically i feel everyday like i want to just end it.. This is just hell on absolute earth this is
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin I remember feeling that way too.. I promise you that it’s worth trying your hardest to push through. You’ve got this, and I believe in you. This feeling won’t last forever. You will be ok. Do you have any support right now? Cling to friends, family, or your partner. They are worth it. Life is worth it.
0 likesAbsolutely
0 likesDUDE YES.. .. but it also kinda sucks, but it also at the same time felt like a high and was weird
0 likesyup it fucking sucks
0 likesdefinitely
1 likeliterally I was here to find why this happens
0 likesYes
0 likesYes
0 likesIt feels weird today I woke up with it and today feels like it will never end
0 likesI'm literally crying right now. I had no idea that it had a name. I thought I was just stupid and lazy and occasionally losing my damn mind. I totally feel the thing about not being able to open your eyes wide enough. I never even brought that up to anyone because I didn't even know how to explain it. I can't remember anything because I'm just in this constant fog. Feels similar to being high, or like you said drunk, all the time. These feelings are so scary and so isolating (especially the depersonalization) when you don't know what's happening or why or that other people actually feel this bizarre way too and its not just you. Thank you so much for making this.
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Same I thought it was normal to feel like this I hope you're ok though
9 likesWeed.
2 likesSarah Feldhut I probably would have written the exact same comment if I hadnt seen yours before, you exactly discribed how i feel.
0 likesEXACTLY ME! I had the moment you had 2 days ago... How have you been since?
0 likes@Luna HET did it last as long as a moment for you? Because I have had it for the past couple of years and its still there
1 like@Selina S Been with me since 16 now had 2 episodes in which it becomes incredibly though to do daily things compared with social anxiety and sadness(half year apart) and after each the feeling gets worse
1 like@Selina S With the moment I meant the crying from knowing that the way I felt was something others also went through ;)
0 likesI found Dodie while researching derealisation and I remember feeling soo much better after watching her videos. I just felt like I was going crazy so listening to her, being the lovely person that she is, it calmed me down so much. Also having someone to relate to is really helpful
1 likeMy little sister got scared of me because I randomly started whispering and laughing ,and my family didn’t understand what i was going through.(it was the panic attack part).so yeah basically that made everything worse,I started crying after that.(i felt stupid and i felt like my family hated me)(i left out the rest of what happened,just the worst part of it in)
0 likes@Selina S hi did dpdr go away for j
0 likes@Lauren Baldwin no but i think about going to therapy to see if that helps
0 likes@cozy amy I thought it was just me growing up but then I realized the world cant be so overwhelming and weird
0 likesThis is one of the best and most important collabs out there. It brings personal experience to professional experience in the best way without being too intrusive. This video definitely helped me understand depersonalization and derealization a lot better.
507 likesderealisation just hits me at random times and it lasts minimum of 5 minutes to one whole day. ive always told my parents that i feel like im in a dream and that nothing feels right, and thanks to my youtube recomendations now i know what it is. thank you dodie for making this video :)
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Why might happened this ? Were you a drug user ?
1 like@Gipsi nga flaka nah im like 14 lol. it was probably from too much work because i had regular school, music school so i was too tired. i also experience this when everything's too loud (like at parties)
18 likesjacob with a j hdhdjjdjdhsjs sameeee i’m only 13 and it suckksssss
3 likesYes derealisation is like this for me too! It comes when the stress is too much or a combo of very bright or loud places with a lot of impressions, like when theres a lot of people! Sometimes it lasts, like u said, for 5 mins or a day or the longest I've had was for 1-2 weeks... And for me the scary part is not being sure when you might get derealisation again and how long it will last. It has stopped me from going to school and work bc I can't think clearly and it feels waay too uncomfortable being around people.
3 likesI suffred from this for a year . The problem is b12 and foltate diffency .
0 likes@Polk Olkj riboflavin? And are you well now?
0 likes@Polk Olkj does it help to take more of it?
0 likesWhat is B12
0 likes@Sean Cullen it's a vitamin
0 likesim 14 and i derealise 24/7, all the time. i hope u get better
0 likesSometimes I feel like I’m this tiny version of myself sitting inside my brain just kind of watching a movie that is my life
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YES THIS
3 likesomgg same I feel so small or just really far from my body
2 likesI kept breathing today. I want all of you to keep breathing too.
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Elliott I love your profile pic
9 likesThank you I needed this
16 likesThank you. This is really kind of you.
14 likesThis is so kind, thank you :,)
6 likesElliott stop making me cry like that <3
6 likesIf I have to 😂
0 likesThanks!!
2 likesElliott thanks, love
2 likesOops I’ve forgotten how to
1 likeIk this is supposed to be supportive but I hate this cos I started breathing manually
4 likesI don’t want to 😅😭
0 likes#wowthanksimcured
0 likesI needed that. Thank you, kind stranger, for the massage you wrote 2 years ago. I hope you're still breathing today.
3 likesTo anyone who feels like giving up: For yourself, please don’t. You are your greatest gift and I’m really sorry you’re going through a hard time right now but it’s gonna be ok. Please seek help (talk to a doctor, therapist, friend, and/or family member or call or online chat with the suicide prevention lifeline) and help yourself get better and you WILL feel better with time and perseverance. You are strong and you are not alone.
1 likeHow are you doing now a couple years later?
1 like@Diana Royer hi did ur dpdr go away
0 likes@Lucy Roberts hi did ur dpdr go away
0 likes@BethTheVegetarianChef hi did ur dpdr go away
0 likesthank you
0 likes@Alice H How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it
0 likesi've been dealing with derealization since my mom died in august and this video is super helpful. thank you dodie <3
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peyton talt how are you feeling now?
6 likesflower child same 🥺
1 like💙
2 likes❤️
1 likeHow are you now?
1 like@Alberto Lombardi honestly still dealing with derealization but it’s a lot easier for me to live with now, it’s more of a passive thing. i’m still grieving but things have gotten better overall! thank you for asking :)
0 likes@peyton teresa glad you feel better! Do you still experience 24/7?
1 like@Alberto Lombardi yes i do. i’m hoping it will start to go away with trauma therapy
0 likesI've had it before, but it was always dismissed.
44 likesI don't have it anymore, so if it helps anybody, my way of getting rid of it was doing something new each day. I guess because for me, my brain kind of lost itself in the same rotation day by day by day.
I hope this helps, and remember,
You're loved! <3
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Hey , thanks for your advice ! How long did you have it ? I I have this trouble for now 4 months and trying to find a solution
2 likes@IVAN MAGICAL I've had it for... I'm not sure. It kind of just happened one day after I played this thing which was kind of VR and it made everything seem so.. not real? But if I pinpoint it from that day then aprox. 2 years. I don't have a proper diagnosis but I know what I felt. It was only when I moved to a new school which had a rotating schedule making everything new did it eventually lift. Also, to fully explain what I was feeling is everything that Dodie said and like I would always tell myself "Yeah, in a few hours, I'll be back to sleep." And I just always knew what to expect of the same boring old day which is what ended in my brain feeling like in a looped VR game. Try doing something new each day, basically. It's different for everyone though.
2 likeswhat if i just constantly feel like i’m in another body, even though i recognize i’m in my body? i just feel like i’m disconnected from everything, like everything going on around me isn’t a dream, but i don’t relate to anyone. or anything. it’s just like a certain aloneness. is this still the same thing? feeling alone in my own head?
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Sara Yes, it is.
3 likesOh! I get this sometimes, I'm getting it less but I used to get it all the time when I was quite young like ages 3-7
17 likesOmg it's been put into words. I've felt/feel this so often but could never explain it, i always thought it was just me
22 likesMaybe try a hobby youre really interested in. Or meditating.
1 likeOmg I feel so relieved! I have been feeling like this recently and you just described everything I feel rn. I thought I was so alone.
7 likesWhat about feeling like youre looking through a mask or tunnel vision when under so much stress? Ive gotten that way with arguements and it felt like I wasnt typing anymore but I was watching myself through a mask or with tunnel vision and my fingers were just typing really nasty and angry things.. like is that what that is in my case?
11 likesI feel that too. OMGGG
1 likeYup that's it lol
0 likesOh how strange, sometimes I look at people and think "they are a different person, with different views, they can see me but they can't see themselves" and that happens to me.. I don't see why, all those things are common knowledge and for some reason things seem to get really hazy/weird.
8 likesAnother thing is when I'm in a large crowd I feel.. not myself, it's hard to explain but I just feel disconnected from reality
I saw an interesting simulation, this man had his hand in front of the camera and was doing things. He said that you are watching your body move. You aren’t moving, but your body is.
3 likesSara OMG I FEEL THE SAME
1 likeA artist animations omg that’s that happen to me what else sympthoms you have?
1 likeThis is exactly how I’ve been feeling too!!
0 likesDang I’ve been feeling kinda like that for the past week
0 likessame. there was this one really weird moment when i was deciding on making a risky decision and i said to myself “whatever it’s not my body/life anyways” and i ligit caught myself saying that and i went to my bed and laid down thinking about what just happened.
4 likesI grew up with my abusive dad and watching him emotionally abuse my mom and neglect us. I also had so many small traumas. 2 weeks ago, I got to find out smth related to my dad and it kinda triggered me extremely. I sit in my class with kids around me and just stare into space. I feel so alone but I don't think its real. Because it is supposed to hurt but somehow I just block it? So I stop myself from being me
2 likes@njkk r/thanksimcured
0 likesSara omg me!
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0 likesHow are you
0 likessame this is my exact case:(
0 likes@Free Flow How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it
0 likesI've basically been in a derealization episode for 2 years and like Dodie even said at it's worse it's depersonalization. It feel like being high but without any of the fun. I know it's from childhood trauma and recent trauma. Weirdly enough things that have helped me to start feeling normal again is talk therapy and yoga. I know it won't help with everyone but I can say it's improved my DR/DP and instead of being constant it seems to come and go more now and I'm starting to feel more normal than not. Working through my issues, allowing myself to feel and trying to be more connected with my body and surroundings have helped substantially. It's a lot of work but I am happy to be working through it!
3 likesDear Dodie,
34 likesyou two are true angels and just saved my day. I had really bad anxiety and epsiodes of DR and DP within the last weeks. I suffer from this for about a year now. Even though it is better now than when it first started, my life has changed for the worse ever since I collapsed on the grass in a park last summer (first severe panic attack out of nowhere).
Normally I'm not that sentimental but this video made me cry because I feel so understood from both of you!
I try to explain it to my friends and they are wonderful and listen but they don't understand what it means to not live in reality and to not feel your own body from time to time. It is a struggle and it is very real..
Dodie I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing awareness to this mostly unknown condition. It means so much to all of us that suffer!
Thank you and keep going strong. We know how hard it is. You can do it. We can do it! ❤
As someone who also suffers from depersonalization/derealization episodes, I really appreciate you making this video. I couldn’t tell you how great it felt when I found out that I wasn’t alone in how I felt and this video can help others find that connection too ❤️
5 likesCrying because this sounds like me. I've lived my whole life feeling like an alien, and like no disorder sounded like my experience.
24 likesi suffer from depersonalization derealization, it’s basically where you don’t feel real, or you feel like you’re dreaming all the time. it mostly stems from having panic and anxiety attacks. I recently came out to my mom about how I suffer from it and she didn’t exactly take my seriously.. it gets so bad at times to where I get crescent moons in my palms of my hands. (a lot of depersonalization suffers think that pinching or cutting will help them feel real. I do not cut or anything just get crescent moons every once in awhile when my anxiety kicks in or if I’m really feeling even less real that day.) now I am self diagnosed but when I first started getting the symptoms (feeling like you’re dreaming all time) I started to worry.. when you first get the symptoms you won’t notice it right at first. It WILL take you a day or maybe a few hours maybe even years. anyway, when I first got the symptoms I searched up “why do I always feel like I’m dreaming” the first article that popped up was from a therapist who herself helps people who also suffer from dpr (dpr is depersonalization) and I could relate with all of them. you will feel detached from your body, like you’re floating. I look at my hand and it doesn’t even look like it’s mine. I get my moments where I feel somewhat real and it feels so amazing and I wish that I could savor every moment of it, but it’s gone within a matter of seconds. dpr is a result of over thinking or obsessive thinking. if you do suffer from dpr like I do, just remember.. you will get through this, you’re not mentally ill.. you are in a constant stage of discomfort.. not danger.
99 likesdpr is triggered when your body goes into fight or flight mode. EVERYONE has gone through dpr once in their lifetime, meaning it could have been only for a few seconds or like me.. a few days, months, years. when your body goes into fight or flight mode it triggers something in your brain to numb your emotions so you can think effectively to get your way out of the situation. (Many people who smoke weed suffer from dpr)
Dpr is the hardest feeling to describe you have to have gone through it to know how it feels.. and if you’re going through it right now you know exactly what I’m talking about.
Symptoms:
Not being able to remember things as easily as you could before.
Life just goes by in a blur.
You feel detached from reality.
Things aren’t as interesting as they were before.
Often mood swings.
Blanking out of conversations often.
Always staying in your head.
now please.. if you suffer from this as well you can get through this. I myself am fighting (hopefully winning) and I know you can fight too. It may be hard at times.. trust me I know.. but if you want to be better you HAVE to push through the hard times because it will be all worth it at the end.
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Thank you... just, fucking thank you. I've felt insane, my god I've felt insane. I've felt so alone. It's so so fucking terrifying to me. Something I've never heard someone talk about is that they like... Idk it feels like I almost forget I'm awake during really bad episodes. Like, I start to calm down and my brain starts to forget the situation and then it clicks back on and I go into full on panic and it happens every 10-20 seconds. Its extremely hard to explain and maybe you've experienced that, maybe not? I don't know I still feel crazy and it feels so fucking lonely and you just... you can't describe it. I'm bawling because I feel like I'm the only one who feels this and I still fear and am paranoid I have something else and that I AM just crazy. I can't function when it gets really bad. I can't stand for too long or i'll fall... I don't know. Everything feels weird and it makes me wanna scream. It feels like I'm on some insane drug ( I'm not ). Anyways, this comment helped me so much because someone has felt what I've felt for the most part. I still feel like I'm losing my mind and I hope we BOTH can get through this.
14 likesyeet thanks for the support
2 likesyeet Thank you for giving me a little bit hope again.I feels good to hear some motivating words in this difficult period in my life.🙏🏼
2 likesPlease stay strong ! I just came out of this and finally feel that I can connect. There is hope. You feel that nobody understands you but one day you will wake up and slowly come back to reality. I thought I was never going to come back to earth and keep feeling empty but it eventually goes away.
8 likesNataly Ramirez how long did it last?
2 likesI personally suffer from a dissociative disorder called DID, and the way you described it is perfect.
1 likeConstantly dissociating rlly sucks and it can be rlly difficult to grip reality. Time loss is a huge issue and it can be rlly hard to function
I have had it for 6 months how long does it go for?
2 likesCharlie All depends on the person and how well they can manage it. Don’t google other people’s experience, it made mine way worse. Cause you’ll see some who beat it in a week...some who have had it their entire life. It’s all up to you. You got it.
1 like@D this describes very well how I feel too
0 likesHeyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likes@D and you bro how are you doing now?
0 likes@Nataly Ramirez How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it
0 likes@Zooch How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it
0 likesThis is the clarity I NEEDED!!! I’ve been going through this on and off for a few months and I’m glad I now know the difference. I literally feel like I’m floating through life right now. Everything is cloudy looking around me, sometimes looking in the mirror Idk who I’m looking at, and when I walk it’s like I’m waking on air. It really scares me because sometimes I think I have passed away and just living through my spirit smhh: someone please tell me I’m not the only one.
4 likesI’ve been dealing w derealization for a year now I think and it’s the scariest feeling and knowing someone else has it makes me feel more at ease
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So so true
0 likesme too i need to see a therapist
0 likesHow are you doing now?
0 likes@Lily Stultz How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it
0 likes@Mahmoud Alsaraf I’m going through it currently as well, how long have you had it ?
1 like@Lily Stultz yes I have for one year and you
0 likes@Mahmoud Alsaraf 3 months so far, what caused yours and how old were you when it started
0 likes@Lily Stultz or Facebook
0 likesI love those moments when a therapist explains something and the other persons face just shows them mentally going ohhhhh ya that makes sense
29 likesit’s scary to think that I experienced a brief moment of depersonalisation when i was probably 7 or 8. I remember looking at my hands and just thinking they, weren’t there, and that they weren’t attached to my body. now blown me 5 ish years later I’m experiencing it all the time! derealisation is something I experienced 24/7, now I experience it less but it’s still there; I just had an episode, probably the worst I’ve had of depersonalisations and it’s the scariest thing I have ever experienced and I absolutely hate it; felt like I was controlling my body from outside of me? Hard to explain, I didn’t feel like anyone, not like me; if I even know what ‘me’ is, looking in the mirror or looking at pictures of ‘me’ I don’t feel like that person, I don’t really feel like anyone. But hey ho gotta keep going I guess
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Heyy did you recover?
0 likesI recently went through TMS for depression. I had never heard of it before. I’m so glad to hear that it isn’t just something I’ve been through. It does help. I hope it helps others as well.
1 likeThank you so much for this video. I always struggled with understanding what's the "big trauma" in my life that caused my derealisation/depersonalisation but this made me realise like it could be small things, and I'm not just being dramatic. thank you. you don't understand how much this video helped me just understand. thank u ! :)
850 likesu two are my two favourite youtubers :)
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Yay! I am so glad it was helpful!! xoxo
16 likesYeah me too! I've realized that I always get derealisation whenever I leave my house, and this video enlightened me that This was probably because when I was little I depended on being with my parents and being all safe at my house, and whenever my mom wasn't around and I wasn't home I would flip out and cry, especially at pre-school. I have had a pretty calm life, and I'm not depressed or even have anxiety (I don't think haha) until this past year. When I realized derealisation was a thing I started to remember me thinking "I'm at home sleeping right now", and "When am I gonna wake up?" when I was like 4 or 5. (I'm almost 16). This video helped open my eyes even more, and realize a reason for how I feel.
4 likesi still have no idea what triggered mine & its so annoying ugh
3 likesI mean I guess you just have to wait it out. It took me a while to kinda get it to click. For a while I thought that I was just overthinking because I have a very active brain, but you like REALLY have to think back. Like Kati said, It could be very small things, and if they're small, maybe you forgot them. But I'm not a therapist or anything, so I might be wrong.
2 likesit might not even be one or a few giant things! Could just be ur brain protecting itself from stress
112 likesthankyou <33333333333333333
2 likesThank you for sharing this. I have a lot of friends who suffer from things all along the mental illness spectrum, and it really helps to know what could be going on and how i can help. I'm definitely sharing this <3
1 likei'm so glad you talk about this!!
2 likesi've been struggling with derealization for like 2 years, triggered by weed. at first i thought it was because of something in weed that caused it, but it's the same (permanent) derealization as everyone else. now i know that i need to talk about surpressed things that happened in the past... it's kinda hard to remember or to talk about these, but maybe i'll just talk to my best friend about this - thanks for talking about this and spreading awareness, this is really important.
i'll go check out kati's channel now :)
I struggle with this as well. This video really helped. Thank you🌻🐝
6 likesJust realized that I deal with derealization depersonalization a few months back and have been having a hard time explaining to my boyfriend in my own words what it is and how it feels. This video helped a lot. xoxo
2 likesThank you. That’s all I can say. Covering the freeze-derealization as well as schema. Thank you from another "all day derealization-er". (Who actually appreciates the derealization too)
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How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it
0 likesThis is a great video! I realize now that even when I was really young, around 5 or 6 I felt both depersonzalization and derealization. I would be sitting in the car with mom while she drives somewhere and just space out and when I realize I spaced out, I would look at myself in the car mirror on the passenger side and just not feel like myself. I always tried to describe it to my pediatrician at the time, but I forget how I tried to describe it.
2 likesBefore I knew the word, I always said it felt as if "I'm a video game character and I'm not the one controlling my body." I would look at my hands and feel like I was in a first person shooter game and then look at myself in the mirror again and feel like my face wasn't mine and that I'm not me. It always scared me and still does because I feel like the space around me isn't real and I'm in some freaky simulation or something. I want to do something about it, so I'm going to bring up therapy again to my mom. Wish me luck ;^;
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Caitlin Gomez-Makivirta well, how’s it been since then? i hope you’re doing better!! ^^ 🌸🖤🖤
0 likesI've experienced that a couple of years ago, and it was just terrifying. I had no idea of what was going on and I thought I was about to lose my mind. Now I see I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing that.
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How did you recover from it ?
0 likesThank you for this video, Doddie! I'm glad i'm not alone although i wouldn't wish this on anyone. Sometimes people explain dissociation/dr/dp as something that happens for a period of time and you snap out of it then you feel real again whereas it's not like that for me. It literally never ends though it gets worse at times
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Heyy did you recover?
0 likesi've been feeling exactly like this the last couple of weeks, i didn't know what it was or why it was happening and i'm not going to self diagnose myself, but thank you for making this video💛
0 likesSuch a good video.
0 likesAs part of my anxiety disorder, I’ve experienced both of these things and it’s awful.
It’s nice to see people talking so frankly about it. I did a video recently talking about my anxiety experience and it was hard to talk about, so I commend you for doing this.
This is very helpful!! I have a dissociative disorder (including derealization/depersonalization) and it's very nice that you opened up about it!! DR/DP is very scary to experience sometimes and it's great that you're spreading knowledge.
0 likesThank you for making this video (and just talking about you're experiences in general dodie), I suffer from all kinds of forms of disassociation and the scariest thing about it at first was that I had no idea what was going on and neither did anyone else so it just makes my heart smile that someone might see this video and be like "oh that's how I've been feeling", well done you guys great video, you're both amazing
0 likesI've been experiencing derealization/depersonalizations for as long as I remember. I often compare it to feeling asleep or going into autopilot. My brain has freaked out so much that it can't think anymore, and my body moves on it's own . I've had a few experiences where I'm sitting next to people- and they all seem so whole, they seem like a whole distinctive person that plays a specific role in my own life. Then I look at myself and don't see a whole person, or a real person, like I don't amount to the level of human they are (if that makes sense) I know I'm rambling, but I also experience times when I don't realize that I'm HERE, or present- I feel like if I said something to someone they wouldn't respond, or if I pushed someone nothing would happen. I just don't feel awake in a way- yesterday i wrote in my journal that I miss times that i was present, even if I was too present. I had a fairly rough childhood, I wasn't happy of course, but I felt THERE. It had a routine, with familiar faces and experiences every day. Now though, I'm to spaced out, everything seems unfamiliar and weird. This video helps loads ❤❤❤
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I meant depersonalization lol
0 likesthis was so incredibly helpful,, thank you. i experience all of these mostly the derealization, the other two come out when i get really panicky. reading the comments has been so gorgeous because i feel not alonnnnne and now have good ways of describing it to people,, thank you dodie and katie :)
1 likeHonestly think this is one of my favourite videos you've ever done. It was so informative and it helped me understand derealisation/depersonalisation (which I too "suffer" from) far better than how doctors have explained it to me.
0 likesthis video has really helped me. I have derealisation with bipolar, and recovering from anxiety disorder. I think it's great to get our voices heard with this!
0 likesI love how she said that depersonalization was REAL BAD and yet that’s what I have most frequently of the three 😂
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same omg 😂 and I never brought it up to my therapist bc I’d always either forget or I’d dismiss it as not “bad enough” to talk to my therapist about
3 likesI've been suffering from dissociation for about three years now. I have watched every single one of Kati's videos on that topic (and many others ofc) and was so relieved when I found out what it is and that other people experience this too. When Dodie started to talk about herself feeling "spaced out" and how she finally got the same diagnosis as me, I was so unbelievably sad because seeing the same distress I am feeling in somebody else somehow made me realize that it really is like... BAD and I am not just over-sensitive and over-reacting.
156 likesKati and Dodie are my favorite YouTubers and having them talk about my mental illness is a bit unreal (lol) but I just want them to know that they have helped me so much to accept and work on my mental health. I hope talking to Kati helped Dodie as much as me because she's so good at explaining ♡
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Yeah, that's why it's so important that we as a society can get better at talking about mental health, all ALL types of mental illness. There's nothing scarier that thinking you're alone with what you're feeling and experiencing. Hope you can find a treatment to help you!
1 likeJam Brownies I am so sorry it must be horrible to experience that all the time , I really hope you and Dodie get better , so sorry 💛
0 likesJam Brownies we're literally the same person omg
1 likeAwe :) I am so glad you found the video helpful and it's another reminder that you are not alone..and it can get better :) xoxo
6 likesHeyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
1 like@Alberto Lombardi I don't want to be discouraging but I have to admit I haven't recovered yet. But I definitely have learned to live with the condition and I have somewhat accepted my fate.
0 likesCrazy to realise I commented this 4 years ago, it feels like only 4 months...
@Aro Amygdala so would you say you’re living well with it? And do you still experience it chronically if I may ask?
0 likes@Alberto Lombardi It is still chronic for me. Let's say I'm doing okay now, but just over one year ago I had to be in therapy and I was miserable. Because life genuinely doesn't feel worth living if you do not feel anything. You look around and everyone is experiencing stuff while you are watching from behind a glass wall.
0 likesI'm just at a point right now where I have stopped fighting to be normal and just life the only way I know how to.
@Aro Amygdala did you just now stop fighting the Dp after 4 years?
0 likes@Aro Amygdala if you don’t mind me asking what age did it start for you and what caused it ? Have you seen any improvement?
0 likesHey Dodie!
1 likeI have anxiety and panic issues and I related to this a lot. I really enjoyed this video as it was talking openly about mental health which is usually avoided. I just wanted to tell you I love you and this video. (your music is always on report)
Thank you so much x
-Anouk
Also were did you get your glasses they're so beautiful!!
Thank you so much. I have been suffering from anxiety for a few years but feelings like this have just started. I feel so much better knowing that there is a name and I am not going crazy. Please make another video about this!
5 likesI've been sitting in class for years and being spaced out and being so down I struggle to concentrate and this video has made things a lot clearer about what I may or may not have. Thank you ever so much
0 likesThis entire video is SO informative and good! The thing I personally really latched onto was when you were talking about where derealization/depression/anxiety are in the brain. Because I get headaches in one specific spot when I've had an especially anxious week and it's the spot you mentioned anxiety lives; I've always wondered if they were connected!
0 likesI wasn't going to comment because I don't experience depersonalisation or anything like that (I closed the tab and everything) but then I realised how glad I am that you uploaded this video. As someone with no experience of this, it was really interesting and insightful, especially when some of the literature I've seen on it can be confusing, and now if I ever meet someone in this situation, I'll have at least a basic understanding of what they're going through, and that's awesome. <3
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Marie yes! very important, one of the most important things to understand when it comes to supporting friends or loved ones because it can be a VERY uncomfortable time. i know i would’ve had a MUCH larger number of panic attacks this last year during dissociations if i hadn’t explained them to my S/O when we first started dating... he does what he can to comfort me physically and bring me back to reality but sometimes it’s hard because i’m too weirded out / scared / far away to talk to or be touched by anyone, but the biggest help is having someone there who knows what’s happening and IS there for the support WHEN the person experiencing dissociation needs it. Mad respect to you for caring about a hypothetical situation like that, people like you are why i still have faith in humanity
0 likesThank you for this video! I’ve experienced derealization and depersonalization for over a decade now. I have some brief moments of reality. I’ve heard it described as loving behind a water fall and I feel this is the best comparison. When I first began to experience this I was terrified and panic and depression came with it. I’m so grateful that therapy and videos like this offer comfort and I don’t feel alone.
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Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesThank you so much for talking about this so openly. It has made me realise a lot about myself and my own mental health issues. I didn't realise that a lot of stuff that goes on in my head is actually derealisation and a lot of my stuff is anxiety related but you being so open has really helped me, so thank you. Sending lots of love. Xxxx
0 likesThank you for this video. We need to talk about these things more. I have depression and now I think I have ptsd/trauma from a period in my life that was insanely stressful and awful and it's caused me to have anxiety. I've also started to zone out a lot and a lot of time will go by before I realise what's happened.
0 likesTHANK YOU for bringing this up. After having experienced this (in various degrees) for 8 years, sometimes thinking I was going crazy, I found out what it was about a year ago. Hopefully, now that you made a video about it other people who experience this won't have to wait as long as I did to find out.
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Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesi really needed to hear the part about trauma. i experience a lot of symptoms of mental illnesses that come from trauma but i always think i've never really been through anything but maybe there's a lot that i didn't realise. thanks for this video, it helped me quite a bit :)
3 likesI never had a word or explanation for the spaced out feeling I get occasionally I had a feeling it was something like what you experience I want to do more research in dissociation so I can know more thank you for sharing this video!❤️
0 likesI almost started crying while watching this video because I felt so relieved to have someone clearly explain what I have been feeling for over a year now. I never fully understand why I felt so drawn to Dodie but I think it's because I related to her so much and this further proves that. Thank you for putting yourself out there and talking about something that society has deemed inappropriate to mention in public.
0 likesThank you for sharing this aspect of your life with us Dodie. It takes a special kind of strength and you are helping thousands that won't have the resources to work out all these details for themselves.
1 likeI haven't watched yet but thank you for making this!! Videos about mental health issues can really help people with mental illness who want to relate or maybe think they might have a mental illness. It can also help for somebody who has a friend/relative with a mental illness who just wants to understand. Education about mental illness is important.
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Kitty Crafter praise 🙌🏻
1 likeI couldn't agree more :) xoxo
0 likesI've been struggling a lot with disassociation without really realizing it and this video really taught me a lot about what I might be struggling with, so thank you so that. I want to do more research so I can figure out what my next step is, but thank you for giving me this start.
0 likesThank you so much for this video, it was incredibly informative. I cycle in between depersonalization and derealization, but the connection to trauma is something I was never told and it makes things a lot clearer. For example, I'm feeling better than i have in a year right now and I think it's because I just spent a month at home before going back to uni and, while I was home, I found myself reliving an array of traumatic experiences because of physical associations, some times to the point of having incredibly invasive thoughts. But I think that because I took that time and got used to being in that environment /with/ those memories, I now feel more connected to myself and my environment. Just little things, like noticing when there's a breeze, or paying attention to my body-- like realizing I have a head ache and then doing something about it instead of just wallowing without knowing why.
0 likesI saw you both at the mental health panel at VidCon last weekend, and I thought it was so somgood. I suffer from anxiety (which can cause depression for me), and have for most of my life, and being able to hear professionals and others who experience similar feelings was really inspiring and informative. So thank you so much ❤️
0 likesIt was also really lovely to be able to see you in person, Dodie 😊 I hope I can meet you one day xx
You put into words everything I feel and i found out i had depersonalization/derealization a few years ago and when i tried to tell it to my brother he laughed at me because he didn't understand. I tried to tell multiple people yet no one i know experienced it. It's been happening pretty much my whole life because I remember when i was in elementary school I would not even recognize my teacher's face, and my surroundings always felt different even though that's how i spent almost 4 years of my life. It's been worse for the past few months and i don't know how to feel real anymore. Bpd causes dissociation so that's why i thought i had (bc i was diagnosed with bpd) what i had but honestly it never seems to end and i don't have mood swings anymore i just constantly feel detached from reality i feel like i don't exist and idk how to stop this
2 likesomg when you were talking about which side of the brain depression and anxiety are on, I realised that when I get chronic headaches/migraines on that side they must be anxiety induced (going to research more now lol). my anxiety is very physical - like I get proper sick.
84 likesalso, I feel like I have suffered a minor form of depersonalisation for years now. it's so interesting learning all of this, because I nod my head and now I'm like "well, shit. that would explain everything lol". like what I said to you on twitter dodie, when I met you on Saturday I was spaced out too. happens all the time. but like you, there are little ways that I come back, an I don't get any disassociation terribly. I love that you talk about it. it is so insightful and it's helping to raise global awareness of these illnesses. xx
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dilEmma I personally can not relate but I hope you get better soon. And I'm also glad you are finding ways that help you understand this better. ❤️
2 likesthanks so much lovely ❤️
1 likedilEmma No problem 😊
0 likesor you just don't drink enough water
3 likesWow, this was pretty eye opening. I always thought the therapist I had went to when I was younger was doing a weird type of CBT which had stopped me from seeking help again in the future cause I hated it so much, but I think it was EMDR instead. Something in your video just clicked and made me look it up and holy shit this changes things. I have been avoiding going to therapy again cause my previous one made me feel like I had to say something after each section and that I was somehow failing it. I might go back now...
0 likesdodie, I love these types of videos for (a) you openly telling us viewers about your condition, how it effects your life, and just not saying your always fine. (b) I find things dealing mental illness/disorders fascinating, I love learning what they are, the differences between them. And (c), how you're making these videos to help those people who also deal with derealization/depersonalization or any other mental illness.
0 likes@doddlevloggle I wish I would have known years ago that there was a word for not recognizing yourself. I've had this. And I had a few terrible experiences with it. This makes so much sense to me. Thank you for making this a known thing!
0 likesdodie thank you so much for making this video - i've been suffering from dissociation during my panic attacks for the past 7-8 years and i've never understood what exactly is happening during my panic attacks. I start to feel as if the world is not real and i feel my mind push into universes and universe away from my body and the only way for me to snap back to reality is by screaming from the sheer fear of the experience. It gets really bad during times of high stress and i've had years of therapy to help talk about my feelings to help destress, but i still get them. I just never knew how to diagnose it and didn't realise that someone, especially someone who i look up as a musician, experiences the same/similar mental illness. so THANK YOU SO MUCH for making this video, you have finally given me closure. ily
0 likesThank you for making this video,i've had this feeling for so long i can't even remember.Everyone wrote it off as an odd little quirk,even my psycologist and i never found proper treatment for it,it would keep me awake at night and often leave me crying for hours before going to sleep,i find that for me it mostly happens when im in isolation with my own thoughts.
0 likesI've been rewatching this video and Kati's for the past five days and it is really helping me. For a year leading up to me discovering Dodie I was diagnosed with DP/ Derealisation, Chronic Anxiety, and PTSD. I never felt really understood or connected to someone with my mental state before I found her. Now we're two years into being a regular doddle and I couldn't be happier. I have amazing friends and family that are considerate and tender with my mentality and I am constantly working towards bettering myself and becoming more educated on the subject!
0 likesThank you!! I understand what I've been through the past five years! This have saved my life I guess because I've never understood what it was. I've been through a lot but my mental health is so much better. I needed this knowledge. Love.<33
0 likesThis video makes me tear up because I remember the first time I was diagnosed with this and started therapy for it. It was the first time I felt understood. Unfortunately my therapist moved and i haven't been able to find another one as good as her since. For anyone going through it, it is utterly terrifying. I have had seizures because of it as well as full out panic attacks. I wish there were more support groups for things like this so we don't feel as though we are so alone.
0 likesI really hope you're feeling okay, You deserve absolute endless joy and happiness and you have helped so many people through so much. Please never forget how much you mean to all of us. One day it'll all be okay.
7 likesMy friend was talking about how she sometimes feels like she's dreaming. She says it usually happens when nothing's happening and then something suddenly does. It never affects her in a negative way, but I'm not sure if it's related to depersonalisation.
1 likeI’ve been putting off watching this video for months and I wasn’t sure why until right now that I’ve finished it. Literally I was scared to think I had another problem or issue and I realise through dodie and kati talking about it that I do experience dissociation and that’s real and someone will understand so thank you and I guess I’m gonna see if I can book another appointment to talk about it❤️
0 likesThank you for this, Dodie. You have helped me realize I suffer from derealisation/depersonalization AND dissociation (that I already knew I have), and just THANK YOU SO MUCH. I feel the same on this sooooo much.
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Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesI used to think I might have DPDR but then realized I just dissociate when I'm under a lot of stress or have a panic attack sooo... Thank you so much for talking about this! Way more people need to know about it.
0 likesI found the part about the marble really helpful actually, don't get me wrong, reliving trauma isn't fun, but looking at it that way helped
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I am so glad!! xoxo
39 likesikr! It helped so much :)
0 likesDerealization is something that I used to feel constantly until some time after high school. Sometimes it comes back and I hate it and don't miss it. Seeing people in the comments compare it being high is interesting and a relief to me because that's one reason I hate getting high. Dodie is lovely and I'm sorry that she has to deal with this condition. I hope she'll have a treatment help her someday if she hasn't already. It's so nice to be able to have a clear mind. 💜💜💜
1 likeI am so thankful for this video! It really helps me feeling like I am not alone, and it is perfectly ok to have derealisation and depersonalisation. Thank you soo much!!
0 likesThis past year I’ve been diagnosed with ptsd, depression and dissociation. The dissociation always hits me when I speak of my traumas. It really freaks me out, but I’m getting help. If there’s anyone else out there who struggles with similar issues - you’re not alone. You’re strong. You can do this. I believe in you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
0 likesWOW this was so educational! Thank you for making a video about this. People should be more aware of these mental illnesses and know how to handle it when they encounter someone with it.
0 likesi don't have any of depersonalization or anything at all but i hate when people touch me to calm me. it makes me feel claustrophobic and just annoyed. however, i love touching something. for example, i used to have this shell necklace and whenever i was stressed in anyway i would just put my thumb in it and rub it and it calmed me down a lot.
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i used to get that exact thing as a child, and my small cousin has it a lot. His parents realised this and explained this to their doctor. Im not saying this is a bad thing but the doctor said, some cases of minor Autism include these symptoms. (see he hated being with a lot of people at one time, he didnt like people touching him, he fiddled A LOT , and he had OCD (especially with his beloved stationary ) ) and he was hence, diagnosed with autism. IM NOT SAYING YOU HAVE AUTISM. Maybe it could be just a pet-peeve, and sometimes we grow out of those things. Maybe if you suffer from any type of social anxiety, that may affect how you react to that type of empathetic physical contact. Maybe its just belittling to you? Its great that you had something to calm you down that doesn't affect your health though :) i have a necklace as well that i still use to this day :) (rather i use it to relieve my stress when im nervous about an upcoming exam etc.)
33 likeshalfstar hmm that's very interesting and cool. I also think my thing is more in the lines of social anxiety like u were saying. i hate public speaking of any type and even being in the hallway with everyone pushing and shoving and me trying to get my books and someone trying to talk to me stresses me out. Yes the shell has helped me so much and like u were saying again it doesn't harm me unlike what other people will do.
14 likesim glad i could help a bit :)
3 likesjulia thørntøn I realate it doesn't always annoy me but most of the time yes it feels scary and uncomfortable
3 likesSame it makes me really uncomfortable but I've never been to therapy before I've never been diagnosed with anything although i feel everything dodie talks about in this video (i will go to therapy when im older probs)
3 likesspankeyfish idk if i would go that far but i sometimes feel like it's claustrophobic but with people idk tho i'm no doctor
0 likesSO DO I I just can't stand when people touch me and I don't know why and I hate when people comfort me
0 likesi get that too! or i hate it when people touch me and i always like tense up or flinch away and if it gets to much i get a panic attack (doesn't usually happen often since i usually get too panicky or annoyed that i tell them to stop or just run like 5 feet away) i tried explaining this to people but everyone says that over time i'll be okay or just doesn't take it seriously
0 likesI hug my pillow or any cat. My friend got so confused when I was just petting her cat quietly.
0 likesjulia thornton yeah kinda same but it’s more like I can’t touch anything. Like I need away from everything and something touching me or me touching things makes me feel trapped and can usually cause me to panic more:/
0 likesjulia thornton i get this too. if i’m dissociating or anxious and someone touches me in general i get SUUUUPER stressed and just freak out a little.
0 likesThanks for this Dodie! Makes me feel less alone to hear from someone who actually knows about what I'm also experiencing. You're a glittering dewdrop on a spring flower-petal 😚🌸 Hope you're coping ok this week. You're really generous to share so much of your life and energy with the public when you have so much to contend with. Keep on blooming, flower; remember to save some of that warmth and light for yourself though, that's really important; unfurl those beautiful petals and flourish for yourself, by yourself, first. Sending big fluffy supportive hugs. Ed xx
0 likesThank you for this. I've had depersonalisation for 2 years now and the need to talk to someone who understands weighs me down so much- this lightens that load and makes me feel less alone. I can't say thank you enough!
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Heyyy was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesThank you for sharing with us, Dodie, and for being honest and transparent even though it can be scary to share. You talking about your mental health is helping to end the stigma so thank you! xx
0 likesI experience very heavy derealization. I watched you a lot a few years back and didn’t really understand what you were taking about when you explained depersonalization/derealization, but now I experience derealization almost constantly. Thank you for talking about this.
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How do you feel now?
0 likesloved the description of the childhood "little Ts" as i've never really thought about it in that way before!
140 likesI'm starting my first day of therapy tommorow. Someone times in my day I feel like my personality or like my person is disconnected from my body and I feel like I'm watching myself and not actually living. So I'm excited for my therapy here's hoping it works
0 likesThank you for this video. I had never known this was a thing but watching the video I learned about it. Then I experienced a little bit of derealisation for a couple of weeks and I wasn't scared because I knew that someone else had felt it too and there was a name for it. So thank you!!!
0 likesThis is so interesting and helpful, I hope you're able to make some progress Dodie!
0 likesI didn't watch this until now because of VidCon and jet lag, but I'm so thankful that this was made. As someone who struggles with all three of those at times, it can feel even more alienating that I don't know anyone else in my personal life who knows what I'm going through. I'm thankful for you talking about hard mental health things, you are incredible.
0 likesOmg thank you Dodie. I am new subscriber and have been binge watching your videos. I’m not self diagnosing but now I finally know what that weird feeling of not feeling like myself and feeling like I’m not in my own body or someone else being in my body (depersonalization) I used to have it frequently when I was younger but I thought it was just a part of growing up as well as now I have episodes sometimes and my mother just tells me it’s puberty seeing that I’m 13. 🤷🏽♀️
1 likeIm in the beginning stages of treatment for derealization and depersonalization currently. Thank you soooo much for making this a video.
0 likesThis was SO wonderful. Your connection is so sweet, really complement each other. Also very validating and insightful. THANK YOU!
1 likeI just want one day of feeling normal, no dizzyness, not feeling stoned, not having anxiety in my chest and the feeling that my stomach is pulling itself together. I never appreciated soberness when I had it.
6 likesThis video couldn't have come at a better time. For the past few days, I've been going through I guess disassociation/derealization where everything feels like dream or like I'm not really here. Almost as if everything is on a different frequency than me. I used get episodes like this when I was I think thirteen or fourteen during a rough year of my life. It used to come in bouts throughout high school, but by the time I left, I never really experienced it much. Now I'm going through a lot of stress and anxiety and this episodes are coming back again.
5 likesThis video was really helpful and I suddenly feel like people understand me. I remember in school when I used to explain this to friends and they wouldn't understand.
Dodie inspired me to cut off all my hair and donate it, I’ve been I love with her short hair for ages, however because I have very thin hair, I cut my hair a lot shorter [literally half way up my neck] and I love it so much. I’ve never felt so confident c:
0 likesI have successfully donated 8 inches of hair to Little Princess Trust. Thank you Dodie <3
After the first minute I was absolutely sure that this is what I'm dealing with right now. Everything feels like a dream, as if I'm not "here".
0 likesI was getting really scared because I thought I was going completely crazy. But I feel hopeful now, thank you!
It is so crazy to realize that the person that inspires you the most and helps you through your hard times, also is struggling too. Thank you so much for always being the channel I turn to for motivation and inspiration, Dodie.
0 likesI was recently told but my psych all my symptoms sound like depersonalization and derealization. I have been to nervous to look more into it and I found your video by looking it up, thank you! It's starting to get even worse for me, when it fist started it was pretty bad I would be thinking I was in a whole another state and then when I came to I didn't know who my coworkers were. I had my first day of internship today and it progressed. I thought there were people in the room when there wasn't and other things happened it's just a lot. My psych didn't give solutions and now I'm in back in school several states away from my psych so I'm going to have to wait for any additional meds or anything. I'm on Zoloft and a high dose for my depression but it doesn't even touch the depersonalization or derealization symptoms it doesn't seem.
0 likesthis was so interesting,,
6 likesi've learnt so much and have related to some of the symptoms. i am depressed, i have mild anxiety. i'm not sure whether i should be worried or not?? but hey. thank you for the information, both of you :)
sending love!!💛🌼
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JungkookIsMyBiasYall don't worry :) if you Feel like you have some of this symptoms just talk about it. Maybe with a therapist or just someone you trust. And it can be treated just like any other mental illness
2 likesI spend my entire day in a state of derealization. I get so lost in daydreams that I'll suddenly 'wake up' while I'm walking through the grocery store and be startled by where I am. I also escape through video games too much to the point where my body doesn't feel like mine when I stop playing. Trying to work on fixing this now.
1 likethank you for the video, dods♡
0 likesI've been having trouble identifying myself and have been getting my dreams and reality mixed up, like i remember seeing something somewhere but idk if it was a dream or reality. I think I might have a lil bit derealisation but maybe not because my understanding of english isn't that great lol. But at least now I know more about my brain and the things that happen to me so I won't get too panicked the next time I space out(usually when I space out it gets really weird and everything's blur but very clear at the same time, and everything moves so quickly but in a not very smooth way(?) and I get scared like "What the heck happened to this world whAt") so yeah thanks for the vid dods♡♡
sorry for ranting and talking about myself too much here haha but I felt like I needed to♡
Omg, my boyfriend has DPDR and this video was so helpful! No wonder he loves my cold hands and surprise-cuddles. And the bracelets! It all makes so much sense. But all jokes aside, as a person trying to support someone with these conditions this video was incredibly informative. Thank you for talking about this!
1 likeWhen I was in school I used to dissociate all the time, but I didn't know what it was until I was in counseling working through my PTSD.
0 likesI don't dissociate much anymore, but I do deal with depersonalization and panic attacks still.
Not related to the title of the video, but I just wanted to thank Dodie for her music. Lately, life has been so stressful and I pretty much cried all week. But your music, Dodie, helped me cheer up. I haven't felt this too often with other artists. Thanks for both your EP's because nothing has made me happier than these 2 masterpieces. Thank you, Dodie. ❤🌟
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•Gaille Britto• I hope you start feeling better soon! Just remember that everything is going to be ok!
1 likeAwwww, thank you! 💕 I hope all your problems are solved and all your dreams come true. Much love to ya! 🌟
0 likesI was listening intently - and of course smiling or laughing at the fun / funny parts. But from 07.30 onward - it just hit me so hard that I was crying while watching until the end. (I just finished watching it and would rewatch it and reprocess the thoughts) Thank you so much for sharing this, I know that I have always experienced life differently because of a collection of a lot of little Ts and a couple of big T's. It's just so real - what Kati said - it's how it felt like - like a couple of memory orbs got smashed. And later on when I finally found someone I could trust and love - the traumatic memory was triggered. And a lot of reactions and actions took place after. And until now, to be honest, I deal with all the ts in my past but I tell /remind myself that I can overcome everything that's happened and I can forgive. I hope we can all feel love and hope at the end of each day - no matter how we decide to heal. And yes, talking to a circle helped me lessen the burden or pain that I've felt when I suddenly remembered. Thank you Dodie, Im glad I came across one of your songs last year and lingered and watched most of your videos.
0 likesI HAVE THIS. I've had it so often for as long as i can remember I always thought it was normal and kind of weird but normal. Thank you so much for talking about it Dodie or else I never would've known it isn't normal
0 likesI feel like someone actually understands.
44 likesI most definitely have derealisation and occasionally it elevates to depersonalisation and I believe that it’s been happening to me all of my life as there’s a couple moments I can specifically remember aged 6 for example, where my vision would become extremely blurred and I couldn’t focus on what the teacher was saying and I didn’t feel alive. However I can’t think why as I don’t think I’ve been through any trauma? It happens to me every time I’m at a shopping centre, almost every day at school and to be honest in random places and at random times...
1 likealright i'm just gonna write a few thoughts down. i don't think i have depersonalization/derealisation, it's a little bit different actually. i just feel kinda.. empty? like every day just feels like a routine without any meaning and even when i cry tears of joy or sadness (which happens veery rarely btw) i know i'm crying and i'm supposed to be happy/sad/angry but i just can't experience the emotion that comes with it. what bothers me most about it is that i can't bring myself to care about anything. things that used to bring me joy or sadness are just nothing now. i just feel like laying around all day. i'm just like 'whatever' about literally EVERYTHING and i don't know what to do. when something bad happens or even when something that's supposed to make me really happy happens i just don't care. and i want to so badly. i told my aunt and mom about this and they told me - of course - that it's because of puberty and i shouldn't worry too much about it. i don't feel alive and i don't know what this is. does this even make sense? probably not. please tell me that i'm not the only one. does anyone know what this is? does someone have the same problem? END MY SUFFERING PLEASE
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YEAH, I HAVE THAT PROBLEM A LOT!
122 likesit sounds like depression imo, but i honestly don't know enough about it to say for certain. but you're toootally not alone. it sucks so much ass
pastelblack having gone through disassociation and depression to me that sounds a lot like depression. At least my experiences with depression related to that a lot. You're not alone and I'm sure everything will turn out alright in the end (me and many others are living proof of that!) ❤️
89 likesi know how you feel :'( i'm not an expert on this, but it sounds like depression to me. reach out to a doctor/therapist if you can, they'll probably be able to give you the proper diagnosis and give you the help you need
46 likesAt around 2:45 in the video she says that being "blunted" means you can't feel your emotions and that it can happen as a form of mental illness, maybe that's what your experiencing? My experiences with depression have felt a lot like the emptiness you described, so maybe it's a form of depression? I hope this helps you somehow! I'm sorry your family haven't taken you seriously when you've told them, but I would definitely suggest trying to talk to them again about it. Maybe do some research about how you're feeling and show it to them? You have a wonderful online community of people here including myself who will be here to talk to you about it and give you support, so reach out to us too! <3
47 likesYou're not alone that's exactly how I've felt for the last few years and I still don't know what's up with me
26 likespastelblack I'm going through the same thing, it's such a real thing. It's so strange to be empty and like "wow it's my birthday and I'm wearing my favorite outfit and I'm doing something really fun surrounded by people I love" and then you're like... but why? And you're not happy but you're not sad or anything you're just there. You're just a piece in a board game going through life, you don't exactly have a will of your own but you keep going for some reason and things happen but you can't experience any of it really.
52 likesHawk yessssssss it's like I can only see life as some sort of virtual game. Some win some lose. It's like we're coded to perform generic tasks each day and that's it. 0 emotion in anything
16 likesDude you're not the only one iv'e been feeling empty like that for almost 2 years it just feels like everyday i'm going through the motions but not really caring about anything I have no clue what it is or what to do about it :(
19 likesI'm only a first year psychology student but to me it definitely sounds like a major depressive disorder. I would recommend you try therapy as soon as you can. Even if it's a student councillor it's a good start. Stuff like this can always be fixed, it might take a while but there's always a solution if you keep trying.
29 likesObviously none of this is a good thing but it's kinda comforting knowing many others are going through it too :/
14 likesMy friend has a similar feeling, or rather lack of, as you and they have depression. It must be awful to hear your worries and pain being dismissed because of puberty or because you're a teenager. It's hard being those ages, no one really takes you seriously and blames things on puberty and claiming it to be a part of growing up. Never forget you're not alone and there are thousands of people willing to help and want you to feel something again. You're reaching out for help which is already a good step! Maybe ask your mum or auntie if you can go to the doctor and see if they can help you. Like Dodie said, record yourself when you're feeling the way you do, there are numbers you can ring for support and maybe there's someone at school who feels a similar way. Sorry for not being much help and recommending the clichés. I wish you all the best 💞
12 likespastelblack definitely sounds like depression. People think depression is about feeling sad but actually it's mostly about not feeling anything, how you describe.
16 likesHey! From what I can see, a lot of your symptoms sound like depression. When I was 18 I didn't know what was wrong with me and essentially, it was exactly what you went through. I talked to my GP and he put me on a small dosage of sertraline, which was life changing for my mood, because without it, the chemicals in my brain just would not give me enough to feel okay, and like you, I would just feel numb, i didn't care, i'd rather be asleep because I was bored of being alive (different to suicidal I'd like to point out), but my medication really did help bring my mood up. It didn't fix me (i've been battling with my mental health for years now), but I know for a fact that that was a form of depression. I'm not diagnosing you at all, but you should definitely go see a doctor, and when you take to them, make sure you talk about energy levels, mood, fluctuation in mood, appetite, physical anxiety, and other things that a GP can recognise (remember they're not a therapist, just your first step into being treated). I hope you find support!!
9 likesAs others have said your not alone. I feel like that especially a lot more recently. I have bipolar disorder and have struggled with depression but recently I've been feeling what you describe. Empty but it feels different from a depression empty because I don't feel like an ache or sadness or anything. It's just nothing and empty. The only thing I can feel is the emptiness if that makes any sense. Like I feel weight of something but there's nothing there. I also have moments where I'll be happy and then all of sudden like a vacuum sucks me out of the moment and I'll just wont be able to focus on anything and i question why I'm happy and if I'm actually happy. And then all the happiness leaves and this weird sort of anxiety replaces it. Like an invisible anxiety not one that I feel. I don't know if any of this is making sense. Or if you feel the same I just hope it helps to know you aren't the only lost one, everyone else is lost too.
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4 likesI can totally relate! Im no professional, but im sorry you're going through this. Its crap. And it will end one day. You'll make it 💜🌸
pastelblack I had these emotions when I took antidepressants , I've stopped taking them but I still feel this at times , it definitely sucks , I want so badly to care about something but then I don't, the routine thing definitely gets to me , because I'm kind of bored of my own life and every day is basically the same thing and school doesn't help because most things we learn will never help us in life and hours and hours of listening to things you are not interested in gives you a bit of a numb feeling . But you seem to experience this all the time like I did when I was on meds but I only experience it sometimes now so definitely talk to a psychologist ok?
2 likespastelblack this sounds a lot like what I call 'numb depression' where you just feel withdrawn from emotions.
2 likesI've been through the exact same thing. I guess what helps me is that I try to take care of myself in simple ways and I time away from everyone and everything else. I'm not sure how to help but I hope you feel better.
3 likespastelblack that's the strangest thing, because I had that for years and I never knew what it was. I'd ask others if they felt the same thinking everyone was like that and they thought I was weird. Honestly I think looking back it was a bit of depression derived from what I was going through at the time. I'm saying this because i swear to you it does get better and you get the sense of emotion back with the help of loved ones or maybe professional x
4 likesThe emotional numbness/apathy that you described can be a symptom of depression. I would encourage you to talk to your doctor and ask about seeing a psychiatrist/therapist
4 likespastelblack hiya I can't relate but just know that you will be better one day and this is not permanent. Whether you fight is or embrace it is up to you but know that you have a community here and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers xx
1 likeholy fuck i am exactly like this, it really fucking sucks. like with all these hurricanes, my family is in danger and i'm just like :/ ok cool. i know i should care and be worried for them but i don't feel anything.
7 likesanhedonia, depression. things like this are horrible, but you can get through it :) x
4 likesnot to scare you, but that sounds a lot like depression. i´ve been diagnosed with depression about a year ago and what you described is exactly how i experience it (not trying to say you have depression though, it´s different for everybody so you should definetely get professional help if you´ve been experiencing this for a while). especially the part about not caring about literally anything. for me it´s a lot about not being able to experience certain emotions, like you said, if something good is happening i know i should be happy about it but i just can´t feel it and i can´t bring myself to care even if i want to. it takes the meaning out of everything and just kinda flattens your world, if that makes sense. i could list a million other things but i want you to know that you´re not alone with this, that´s so so important. and it´s also unhealthy to brush it off and blame it on puberty, because that´s not gonna help anyone. no matter what the reason is, you should talk to somebody about it and maybe even get professional help because otherwise the baggage on your back is just gonna get heavier and heavier and one day you´re not gonna be able to carry it on your own anymore, which is fine. nobody can do that. so please don´t bottle it all up because trust me, that´s gonna make it even worse. i wish you the best of luck and hope you get the help you need. <3
2 likessounds like an angsty teen or perhaps a symptom of depression. u should take care of yourself. However, it could also just be you a bit sad. Be careful not to get your diagnoses from the comment section, please see a doctor.
1 likedepersonalisation is not like that at all , it's much more scary lol
in my personal experience, that sounds like depression. I feel like this when i have my bad days, like everything feels whatever you don't relly care about what happens, and honestly don't even feel like crying or something, it sucks tbh because one of the symptoms of depression is irritation that you feel at everything and sometimes its like the opposite so like i feel like i dont 'fit' in the illness?? idk i went kinda off topic oops
1 likehi honey that's depression
3 likesThats what everyone feels like.
1 likeyouve been oofed Uhhh you might wanna see someone yourself in that case, because this is depression and no not everyone feels like that
4 likespastelblack okay this is me please help
1 likeThis sounds a lot like a mixture of depression and almost like a disinterest. I actually asked a few other friends about this as well because I have recently been feeling this way as well. They recommend to me is to take a you day! So, maybe this weekend, take a bath and listen to your favorite music, just take some time to relax and leave yourself to just do you things. Do things that you love. And If you need to talk, I have Twitter or Instagram.
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pastelblack yes! I went through this when I was in my freshman year of highschool when I have severe depression. I still lowkey have it, but I've worked on it... I'm not sure how to help you, but go to a counselor or doctor or someone who won't just say it's because you're growing.
1 likeAsh Lapworth I love your profile picture. i just wanted to say.
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1 likeit's depression darling
2 likesYes, yes, yes this a thousand times yes. Omg this is exactly how I feel. It's like there's a barrier between reality & your out side self and your self on the inside. I feel like a ghost in a carapace, like a passenger on a train watching my life go by, interacting with the environment but not feel anything.
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2 likespastelblack I literally started crying from the moment I read this because this is exactly how I feel too and it sucks! :(
2 likespastelblack this is my life, it happens everyday for me, I can pretend to be very happy if sad or mad but I'm not really. I pretend to be very happy and positive around my friends and family, but I'm not really happy. It's horrible and I just don't want to do anything. There are like 5 min of actually feeling things but then, just like that, it's gone. It just started when I started school, 3 weeks ago, back in the routine. It's hard to be happy and that sucks from being a very happy and positive person. I just feel meh, all the time. Idk about you but watching YouTube and hanging around people I love helps me a little also singing (Dodie) quietly in class helps me too. I'm not sure about you but that's just for me.
3 likespastelblack I have the same problem I didn't think someone felt like that
2 likeselena thank you!
1 likepastelblack yeah that sounds like depression... please talk to a doctor or a councelor (also if they don't take it seriously talk to someone else or talk about it more. My mom and councelor didn't take me seriously until I talked to a doctor but that's just my case). My tip for this is try to write out what you're feeling (even if it's nothing) and try to be kind to yourself. Don't get angry at yourself for doing nothing or feeling nothing, cherish the small accomplishments like getting out of bed (or opening your eyes if you aren't able to get out of bed, we've all been there). I hope this helps a lil", hang in there champ you're gonna be OK I believe in ya! x I
1 likepastelblack I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL AND IT'S TERRIBLE.
1 likepastelblack ive never related to anything so much in my life
1 likeALSO: talk to your friends about this. Try to see people, don't isolate yourself because then you are alone with your numbness and that is just the worst.
1 likepastelblack I thought it was just luverty too, until I got a therapist and she told me it was depression. Ask your parents to get you a therapist or at least a visit with the doctor. Backing up your feelings with articles might help too
1 likepastelblack Okay this kind of sounds like something what I get, which I call it 'Ill-minded' where basically I don't feel like doing anything, such as school work, reading, drawing, or just simple things that I ENJOY doing. When I'm in this state I'm not sure what to do and it doesn't happen enough for me to explain it very well. When I'm in this state I usually wait it out, which isn't a very good thing to do. The best thing I can tell you is to maybe do things you enjoy or eat something that you enjoy- anything that you think would help pull you out of this state.
2 likesoh my god yes yes yes me too, i have no idea what it is but i just feel emotionless, its horrible and yet no matter what happens i just feel nothing, nothing at all
1 likeI'm no professional but that sounds like depression
3 likesdepression it happened to me too. For me I just thought I am really doing this right now. So I changed myself for the better. I got new friends that support me and love me. And I started becoming more me. lol I am not helping. Sorry about my username my friend pranked me and I can't change it for 90 days😂🌹🌹🌹🍒🍒🍒🍓🍓🍊🍊🍊
2 likesyou have exactly the same thing as i do, and it is depression. one of the symptoms of depression is the loss of interest in things you usually have interest in.
1 likepastelblack ME TOO. like i don't get excited anymore (but i also don't get anxious). even when i do exciting things. i literally went to japan and didnt feel excited about it at all? it was like "wow im in another country now cool." and it's like that when i do anything
1 likeTHATS ME OMG YOURE NOT ALONE OKAY 🖤🖤🖤🖤
1 likepastelblack you just putted to words my entire life, thank you so much
2 likesI get it, I HATE it when people tell me whatever I'm feeling is just because of puberty. I feel like that sometimes too, and a lot of other people probably do to, so don't worry too much, it's ok. But it sounds like depression to me.
2 likespastelblack are you One Punch Man?
0 likespastelblack I feel the same and have been feeling that way for a while. You are not alone. If you are able try going to a school consualler if you feel like you can't speak to your parents. You are amazing 💙 stay strong
1 likeIt's okay. I understand you. i experience the same thing and i hate it. It feels like someone has just scooped everything out of me like my ability to feel or experience any emotion. i feel empty inside. Things that usually make me happy or angry or sad don't anymore. I have no motivation and i don't care about anything. My mum said the same thing; It's just puberty and everyone feels like this sometimes. i feel this along with feelings of depersonalisation and derealisation and anxiety.
0 likesI think this is just the symptoms that come with depression ?? Although i am not a doctor and am in no way properly educated/experienced with this. The best advice i can give you is maybe asking your mum if you can go talk to someone. Things will work out and you won't feel this way forever. :) <3
It happened recently with me. I stopped liking everything that made me happy. Sometimes I want to cry because I need to, it's healthy, but I can't. It feels like I'm dead inside. It feels empty. I hate myself for it. I just can't seem to enjoy anything.
1 likei relate to this very strongly, i hope we all find a solution to this, i am sure we will
2 likespastelblack I definitely can relate to this. At my worst depression and anxiety episodes I feel empty, like hollow I guess. It's like i can't feel anything but I'm still sad and angry and upset and anxious but It feels that it's on the outside and empty on the inside. But I'm still depressed on the outside and the emptiness just increases my depression. No idea if that made any sense
3 likespastelblack I'm no professional but maybe depression? That probably isn't the case but just go to a doctor and ask. It's the best thing.
2 likeswait i'm not the only one experiencing this???!!!i've struggled with this for a while now and it always bothered me when i just can't feel the emotion when i'm supposed to which is also kind of scary for me because i don't know why it's happening i always thought it was because of what happened in my past but i'm not 100 percent sure.........................(i how in the internet we can connect with people thats going threw the same things and help each other threw it<30
2 likesYa I felt that way for like 6 months, its best to talk to a therapist but for me it was a mix of situational depression and general rage and anger issues. For me, i was really lucky and someone in a similar mental state and with similar pressures moved in with my family and we leaned on each other to get us out, but I guess what I found was best was mainly having someone to lean on and empathize with and having therapy to balance out and keep me and them in check so we don't start dragging each other down
1 like+Hawk the way you explained it is so true Ive currently been having mild depression (according to the millions of doctors I've been to ) and bad anxiety so it's like that but with tons of existential crisis's and stuff like that bc I just feel like nothing is happening and I freak out bc of it. I'm so extremely afraid of death and recently there's been just nothing happy or sad to distract me and tbh I wish I cried more I feel so empty I find things funny but I just don't have pure happiness or sadness and it makes no sense bc I'm living in a perfectly fine household and I'm financially fine and all that I don't understand I just feel fear, frustration and I find crap funny and like that's it it's so weird sorry for the rant I just really needed to get that out😅
1 likepastelblack IVE BEEN DEALING WITH THE SAME THING
1 likepastelblack oh my god I feel EXACTLY the same way. I know what may have caused it - my grandma died a month ago and I'm still grieving - but I just don't give a crap about anything anymore even though I want to. You're not alone, I understand you.
1 likeoh my goD I feel exactly the same way. i've been so confused about what is up with me and i tried to write down how I felt in the moment and I wrote something so similar to what you wrote. wow it feels good knowing someone else feels this too
1 likeI have the exact same problem except I can experience joy for moments but it stops after suddenly, I feel all most the exact same, my sister for example can't handle stuff that I can very well I'm more or less OK yet I still get annoyed but the only feeling I ever feel is "feeling bad"(- very rarely-) "joy" (- for little at a time -) "annoyance" a lot
2 likesHey, it's alright that you don't know and is confused about this. This, I believe, are symptoms of depression. And I really recommend you(and anyone else who struggles with this) to go see therapy or someone with authority about this topic. That way, you can be help and get better. And I hope that you'll someday do indeed get better. Stay strong.
1 likeI feel like that's more depression but whatever it is doesn't need a label, get help anyway and either they will diagnose you or they will just treat you anyway. Good luck!
1 likeI have depression and this is what i feel on a day to day baisis, somits most likely that. :) i hope this helped and you get better soon!
1 likeI'm not like this 24/7 but when I feel that way, it's what I refer to as depressive episodes. So, much like everyone else has said, it's very likely that you're going through depression and you should really get help of any kind. It really sucks. For me there's typically a trigger of some sort and it lasts for about a week or so.
3 likesIn my day to day life, I feel like I don't really care about most things (unless it affects my social anxiety) and I honestly wouldn't really mind if a speeding car were to come out of nowhere and kill me instantly, but I still experience other emotions like anger, fear, and sadness.
that sounds a lot like a form of depression. trust me, i deal with the same thing every day. my suggestion is that you tell your aunt or mom that you think it might be depression and they should understand and get you some help
1 likepastelblack yeah as several people have mentioned when I feel like my life isn't moving forward and it feels like I'm stuck in an endless cycle where nothing is happening to make me feel emotion, I'm usually experiencing an episode of depression. At it's worse I've laid on my bed feeling completely numb and I'll be crying but I will feel nothing. I have to listen to calming music and wait for my body to go back to normal.
1 likeSounds like depression
1 likepastelblack catatonia
1 likeIt's like I wrote this comment and then lost my memory of doing it
4 likesThis is exactly what I have....
2 likesim really really similar to this except i also have that quality where i think everything is a dream and i cant tell the difference
1 likepastelblack I feel the exact same way. It's like every day is exactly the same and I have no control over it. As if I'm just drifting through the hours without actually being here or feeling the things I should feel. I can't even bring myself to talk about it with anyone yet, although it's been happening for well over a year/2 years now. And it's just weird, i guess, that when other people are smiling and happy, or when they're upset, I don't feel that I can relate to them? It's like I don't even remember who or what I am, and as if I never learnt how to feel. IDK.
1 likeHave I related to something more?? probably not. thank you for not making me feel so lonely.
1 likepastelblack You've put what I've been feeling for the the past 2 years in words.
2 likesI don't understand why you have the need to label it. It's bothering you, and its something you feel. Maybe it feels safer when you know there is a sort of group around you of people who understand, but if you can explain what you're feeling so well, then why do you need to put a label on it. like this people will understand. I kind of understand what you're feeling, i think. it sounds similar to some feelings i've had, and the best tip I could give you is to get therapy, and a theraphist with who you feel comfortable. Atleast talk to someone, and next to that, keep trying new things if you have the motivation and energy, take a break from the routine that you're talking about. It helped me.
1 likepastelblack I felt this way for about a year, a few years ago. I described like a hollow tree. I suggest just powering through it. Despite not being able to feel, I swear it will get better. For now, find something that has a spark to you. It could be like a food or a song, but just try. What really helped me though was imagining a world where something was maybe slightly different. Think up stories in your head, and if you don't like it, discard because only you are in control of those stories. Come up with a character that feels emotions severely and try to put yourself in that place. It could anything, maybe a dystopia, or a happy future, it could just be you, but with super powers. These stories helped me feel something, but for now, just fake till you make it.
3 likespastelblack I feel you. I can feel really panicked and negatively at myself, but nothing positive, so I can relate to the numb feeling. Talking to someone about it can help you figure it out and see if there's a way to help it.
1 likeI'm not a doctor or ANYTHING, but this really sounds like depression, at least for me. I think I might have depression, because I can kind of relate to what you're saying. The thing is, I sometimes feel really happy and ten seconds later i remember how much I dislike my life, and stuff like that. However, sadness is something I feel a lot, and its a strong feeling. But its not like a 'I want to cry and I wanna be hugged and told everything is gonna be better', it's like this pain that 'kills' me inside, and I don't want to talk about it, I just wanna sleep so I can take my mind off it
2 likespastelblack it sounds like depression becos depersonalisation is the worse because your brain and you're self can recognise yourself
2 likespastelblack I experience the same thing. Don't worry, it is because of puberty. Try to get a good deal of physical exercise and stay engaged in things. It will go away eventually. It will come again, every once in a while and you will feel very empty inside. It's kind of a feeling where you wish the world would just stop for a moment and let you breathe. It's okay honey, stay strong xxx
2 likesWoah, I didn't know anyone else felt like this. I thought I was just weird. It's nice to know some other people feel the same.
1 like(Btw, my parents said the exact same thing to me. I don't know what to do either)
Hi ! Wow ! Finally, I realise I'm not the only one feeling this ! I've been feeling that way for the past 2 years (I'm 20 so I don't think it's because of puberty) and I'm still feeling that way. It comes along with a feeling that I'm not really living, just like if I was not really in control of my life. It feels like things are happening to me but I'm not really living them, just as if I was just a spectator looking at my life. (I hope it makes sense) I really don't know how to deal with it either and whenever I told and tried to explain that feeling to my psychologist, she would just look at me in a weird way. It just made me feel even worst as if I was some kind of freak.
2 likesI can't help you but I really want to thank you for sharing your feeling, and I really hope you will get better soon ! <3
i feel like this too!
1 likeI have the same thing. Sometimes the hardest part of dealing with something like this is being able to tell someone and then believing you. When my mind isn't with me( which is pretty much everyday) people just yell and think I'm not caring about anything which has caused me to be alone. I don't know exactly what it is however I do know that to help it is to speak up which can sometimes be half the battle💛
1 like@little hippie ASMR hey cud u help me please
0 likesBeen dealing with this for 6+ months. I'm glad people are talking about it
1 likei never knew i had this until now. Mine comes and goes and is triggered by stress. The worst episode ive had lasted a month and i thought i was losing my mind. It was terrifying. Thankyou so much for helping me undertsand and figure out whats going on <3
1 likeThank you so much for making this video. I've suffered from this for years and it feels like no one else has this disorder
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Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesFrequently I get the feeling that I am outside of my body, looking in at myself from some sort of window. I tend to feel numb most of the time too.
14 likesOkay this really helped me sort of understand why I feel detached from the world at times. I've been in a car crash and ever since it's scarred me & stuck with me for the past 8 years. My friends think I'm being dramatic but even I know I'm not being dramatic because I know it was sourced from somewhere. Thank you, Dodie ❤️
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AbiSays Damn, after a car crash it is definitely not dramatic! If you experience dr/dp after such a traumatic experience it’s 100% reasonable why your brain would shut off and maybe it just didn’t properly switch back on. Doesn’t sound dramatic at all though. Lol imagine the situation of most of the people who got this out of the blue and have no idea why their brain is acting so strange (me). We can’t really know what made our brain want to switch to a different way of perceiving things but sadly we must accept it..
0 likesWhen I'm in a stressful situation that the way out of is to let time pass until the stressor goes away, if I focus in the right way I can make my vision go dark and it gets hard to move. It's a neat trick because it gives me something painless to focus on and keeps me from saying dumb shit on impulse, but I think it comes from the same source as some of my problems, and I'd be willing to sacrifice it if my other problems went away at the same time.
1 likeI've watched both of your channels for different reasons. I LOVE this collab. It kind of reminds me of a therapist/patient session and makes me more comfortable for the next time I'm going to go to my therapist. Perfect. <3
0 likesWhen I was 11/12 I went through the hardest time of my life and I started having panic attacks that were caused by derealisation, I’d have these moment when I was so spaced out out of nowhere that everything around me felt so unfamiliar and I did too and it rlly scared me. I learnt how to deal with it and for a while these moments pretty much disappeared but lately I’ve been feeling pretty spaced out again and the moments are back. I think it’s because of all the uncertainty. Anyways, when I was 12 I discovered you through ur videos about derealisation and it helped me a lot, at the time I also started questioning my sexuality and finding u gave me someone to look up to. I felt less misunderstood and I’m so thankful for that ! 🥺
1 likeOMG this is so informative thank you. I had no idea I thought I was just lazy thinking. I lost my sister a few months ago from ovarian cancer, lost my job and sort of lost myself. trying to refocus out of it going to interviews and think positive and good memories of my sister. thank you again.
0 likeswhenever you make these videos they make me feel so relieved to know that someone as big of a youtuber as you are, that you are imperfect as well. Most you tubers portray a perfect life but that's why I watch you instead of them, thank you so much. I know there are others out there with the same struggles as me when I see these comments on the videos.
28 likesI cried watching this. I struggle with derealisation, and literally no one understands when I try to explain, I started doubting it was an actual thing. The thing with touch, like you said, is exactly the same with me, thank you so so much for this❤
0 likesGreat job. Thank you so much. This has helped me to understand my DP/DR as never had much help with this in the UK.
1 likeI have depersonalization and derealization and I didn’t know how to properly convey it to my mom and I showed her this video and I just wanna thank Doddie for being a sweetheart and making a video that educates others easily on these types of topics
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Robin Kozloski same here
0 likesIdk if I have this, but every single day for as long as I remember I feel just faint and distant. Like I don’t realise what’s going on around me but I am aware of it, I know I’m doing things but I feel like I’m not. I get enough sleep and water and I don’t k ow what it is and I tried to explain to to my friends but it’s hard when you don’t really know what it is
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I relate... but do you ever feel like people are fake?
33 likes@WishCandle I have thissss!
8 likesWishCandle you didn’t ask me but yes i do. People seem fake or maybe sort of meaningless, which triggers major desperate episodes, because it is scary not to be able to feel connected to the people i love during my derealisation episodes. The world just looks different, like a cold place that is indifferent to your existence or maybe even hostile.
34 likesYou just explained my exact situation
5 likesWishCandle yeah sometimes it’s like watching through a screen
9 likesApril i’m glad im not alone hahah here if you ever wanna talk
2 likes@anna i would love to talk. Where could we talk?
3 likesApril on insta?..??
0 likes@anna dm me @rebsgold
1 likeApril just requested you :)
0 likesThis is really similar to what i experience lol
2 likesi have the same feelings :((
3 likesThis is EXACTLY what happens to me, finally someone else that gets it
2 likesGenna G i hope you’re ok ! it’s so weird seeing this comment i made 2 whole years ago and nothing has changed that much lmao . here to talk if u need
1 like@anna same here, ive been having it for years as well. I try to be present but its very hard. As if everything is out of reach:(. Did you try anything to make yourself feel less detached?
0 likesBeen feeling like I’ve been floating around in a dream for a while now @anna @noor would love some techniques to feel more grounded and in reality if you figured some out :’33
0 likes@Mercedes Menon i didn't really :< sometimes enough sleep makes it a little better. Or meeting someone new/ making new friends. Challenging yourself. But even that does not always work. Its always present in my case.
0 likesMercedes Menon hey , do you have instagram ! i’ll give you some techniques i use :)
0 likes@anna could you send me as well? :p
0 likesInsta is @pluvio_art
0 likesNooor Langen my insta is _annacookk :)
0 likesi feel the EXACT same way. it’s so nice to know it’s not just me.
1 likeI had this last year in choir. I had to sing in front of about 15 people. When I started to sing, I realized I wasn't looking out of my own eyes. I felt like I was watching over myself. It was almost like watching a video of yourself, but live. It scared the shit out of me at the time, and I was really nervous. and btw I didn't get in~Im probably not a good singer (/ω＼)
25 likesThis is extremely helpful thank you so much Dodie. You are truly a blessing.
1 likeI recently went off my fluvoxamine because last time i went to my GP I mentioned I was feeling down and he did the K-12 test and because it was 1 or 2 point higher than last time, he doubled my dose to 100mg. That day I decided to stop my medication all together. I totally relate to the depersonalization part because I can never feel comfortable with myself or feel like I am supposed to be someone else. I am still dealing with my mental health alot. I can go almost a whole week or being positive, motivated and well organised. But then every now and then theres a day or 3 where all I want to do is lay in bed and do nothing, im a grump, I can be snappy which pushes my partner away but all I really want on the inside if comforting or hugs or help but I can't allow myself to accept how im feeling and expose that part of me infront of others.
0 likesOh, thank you so much. I've been depersonalized for a while now and this video is so helpful. 💗
0 likesWoah this just opened my mind. Lately in multiple ways I haven't been feeling myself. And obviously self diagnosis is incredibly inaccurate at times but this seems to fit part of what I've been going through off and on for a long time.
0 likesDodie, I know it's a couple of years late but I want to thank you for these videos. My sister linked me to the one with the dramatic title maybe a year ago, and beyond a couple of webpages I found (among hundreds) your videos about derealisation are some of the only ones I've found that made me start taking it seriously. I'd read a bit about it before but felt like it was a minor/side thing. Now it feels like if I can take care of this, it'll be much easier to take care of everything else (because at least I'll feel like I'm finally living my life alongside dealing with the rest, right?) This video was incredibly useful, too, because I've never been sure what to ask for from a healthcare professional. So yeah, thanks for the sense of direction in the fog!
0 likeshey dodie! ive been diagnosed with derealization disorder and seeing someone i look up to with the same thing as me gives me a lot of hope that some day i’ll always be grounded
0 likesi actually cried bc this vid made me realize about whats happening to me since this year. it all kinda makes sense now. thankyou for bringing this to our awareness, dodie 💗
0 likesThis is the first time that I've heard this explained in a way that makes sense. I've never been able to put it into words. Thank you so much for this.
0 likesI rarely comment on videos when on YouTube as I have a lot of anxiety surrounding interaction with people at any level, online or in person but I wanted to share this poem I wrote some time ago, and this community always seems so nice. I think it describes some of the feelings I was going through at one time in my life and watching your videos has made me think I may have been experiencing some form of depersonalization....
241 likesIs this face mine?
It blinks in time with I
When blue it too sinks, to a sadly painted hue
In its cheeks
And as I, walk and talk my way through time
It too ages with the mind
forming every crease and every line
I question still:
I may be real but is this face mine?
Or is it merely borrowed to one day be returned?
To trade in all that I have loved and all that I have learned
For another soul to grow old,
Only to ask a question asked through time
Is this face truly mine?
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love this!
40 likesThis is so good 💕💕
6 likesi've literally never connected with a poem more omg
9 likesThis is so beautiful 😍
4 likesHey I know you commented this a long time ago but it really is beautiful for what it’s worth you’ve made an impact in my life. You are special and wonderful, and I want you to know that however little it really did your poem has altered my life. Maybe not in a significant way, but you’ve made an impact. Don’t ever stop, you never know how much of an influence you can be
6 likesI know you commented this a while ago bit this is absolutley beautiful xx 💕💕
1 likeMatt Attwaters that would make a GREAT song wow i don’t know if you’re musical but
0 likesUn-realization , I know it well from having PA`s , I hope you feel better soon. For me what helped my panic attacks was one day I got really mad at my PA , and I literally told myself , not today , you are not going to mess this up. Feeling that way along with meds have helped me the most. Thanks for sharing.
0 likesI was in therapy for this and honestly just talking through my traumas was the most useful part, but I was not really offered any treatments for dissociative package and I would go between DR and DP for well over a year, and I figured out on my own how to make things SIGNIFICANTLY better for me by taking that practice home and like journaling about EVERY intense feeling and I had to actually do this for the memory loss and wacky vision because those were traumatic on their own!!!!! The symptoms are traumatic so it's just a huge Paradox. You really have to address why this has been traumatic for you, what you've lost, and you have to grieve over that and find upsides. Personally not having memory means I'm forced to live in the moment. Which is actually nice. For the vision I just tried my best to remain positive and mentally I would focus on things a lot more and try to register what I was seeing and turn it into some connection. I mean over a long time that really seems to have helped. Not leaving the house is the worst thing you can do, but at first I had such intense agoraphobia. JUST KNOW IT WILL GET BETTER.
0 likesI know im late but this video made me realize that I’ve been dealing with dissociation for 6 years. Thank you.❤️
0 likesI watched many videos about depersonalization but only this one made me feel like I'm not alone. I feel a bit hopeful after this video. Thank you a lot <3
0 likesHere's my life story that triggered my depersonalization/derealisation. (If you're interested):
13 likesI lived in the caribbean until i was 6. My twin brother was diagnosed w lymphoma (a type of cancer) at 6 years old. So my family (mum dad bro sis n me) had to travel to Bristol, England to get him treatment. Since me n my bro were British citizens because we could stay in Britain for a longer time however my mother and sister were born in the Caribbean they had to go back for all together 4ish years so I was separated from them alot. But when they were here my parents stayed w my bro in hospital in Bristol but me and my sister had to live in Devon with our horrible auntie and I we had to go to separate schools because she is 6 years older than me. So like back in the day when I was in year one I had this Grenadian British accent thing going on and I wasn't v articulate so my teachers hated me. My bro came to my school in year 2 but still wasn't cancer free. So he's been having check ups until year five. That last time I went to Grenada (where I lived out the Caribbean) was in year three. I practically lived on planes 😂😂. And I am now a 12 year old w crippling depression anxiety depersonalization and I haven't managed to bring back my confidence I had when I was 5 so yeah. But thanks to Dodie, I am just happier and also ppl like Dan and Phil yah kno. I'm still not as happy as I was, but that is my main goal. But I'm getting there I guess. Thank you for making this video, Dodie. 💗💗💗
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ofcourse_i_dnt_read_phanfic I know I'm completely going off subject but do I know you from Instagram?
2 likesI've suffered from depersonalisation my whoooole life without knowing what it was or how to explain. This video is so perfect for it!
0 likesBest advice I can give is that depersonalisation/derealisation will go away (I promise) as long as you stop fighting it!! As hard as it sounds, you need to stop focusing on your condition so much, this only feeds the anxiety. You need to just let it pass, and let it go- after you’ve had an episode, try not to dwell on it and think about it, just ignore it. Don’t think of it as a threat to block you from doing things you want to do. I know it feels like it will never go away, but I promise you it will. I had this condition from the age of 8 to the age of 13. Im now 18 and I haven’t had an episode since! I don’t fear it anymore, It’s no longer a threat to me like it used to be and I don’t let it control my life. At the time, it consumed me- its all I would think about 24/7. I stopped going to social events (which would trigger it off) and I think the end I stopped leaving the house altogether. But once I forced my condition out of my mind, and started doing what I wanted to do without fear, it stopped. You are never alone in this, and I promise you it will get better ❤️
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thank you very much, you give me great hope!
1 likeMy Derealisation is also 24/7 and sometimes (mostly in the evenings) my body just feels like its not mine.
0 likesIt is hard to find some sort of treatment because I have no idea where it came from. Then again I think it is also intertwined with depression just like Dodie said.
It is now at the point where I can't imagine how it was to not feel like I'm in a dream.
I have DID and I have had derealisation since I was a kid, I can't remember the first time I experienced it, but I had about 8 or 9 personalities and I have experienced true disassociation once and mild versions of it a few times when one of my other personalities take over.
0 likesI've done EMDR for some trauma and even though I felt like dodie where it was like "what are you thinking?" "aaahhh idk what" it still worked. I was doing a mixture of normal talking therapy and EMDR. It's help when you with someone your comfortable with whether thats your therapist or someone sitting with you while its happening.
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Mr. Brightside yesss you watch dodie
0 likesReally?so there's stiil hope!
0 likesI 'm seeing a therapist and planned to do EMDR because of the glorious reputation it have,but when I heard the blonde woman saying it doesn't work for dr/dp...arghh
So,are there other people with thoses pbs who did Emdr and it worked?The 66 people who liked,does it mean it worked for you?
And,person to wich I comment the comment,can you give more details of ,perhaps ,the reason why you think it worked 4 you,please?
Thanks,please,answer me
I don't know anything about DPDR but schema therapy really helped me with my depression and anxiety and is extremely insightful. Hope you get feel better, Dodie! xx
0 likesThis happened to me in 2015. I went through something extremely traumatic Big T. Essentially blamed for someone else’s death. And had immense guilt and pain. For the first week I felt pain like I never knew exited. Wailing and crying to sleep. After the first week I went completely numb and I was losing memories of the trauma. I felt nothing and nothing felt real. No emotions. I was told by a therapist that I was going through Exactly this. You guys did a great job explaining!
0 likesI was really stressed in the past week and I felt really tired even though I was sleeping really well. I got this notification and didn't want to watch it, I was really sad I just wanted to sleep. So I finally watch and realised how helpful this is. Thank you.
0 likesWhen I was in a toxic relationship i always had derealisation and depersonalisation episodes and i still do to this day, just less. thank you for this video, very much needed.
0 likesEven though I don't have chronic/diagnosable derealization/depersonalization/dissociation this really did help me a lot because from time to time I do feel spaced out/numb to the point where I don't really feel right in that sense, so this put a name to this feeling and I definitely do feel better about being able to handle it as it is pretty frightening. Thank you so much, this was a great video. Luv you bb
9 likesI'm so glad I came across more of these types of videos.. I understand my illness now. I found out that I have extremely severe ptsd and I was traumatized even in my mother's womb from her drinking and abusing drugs and my father beating her.. I'm never not having depersonalization and derialization episodes
0 likesAs a part of my yoga practice I take time to question myself and pay attention to my fears so that I can be aware of them and change my thought patterns. When I've found something new and hard to handle, such as finding the underlying fear of my OCD, that's when I've hit points of feeling depersonalization/derealization but it's a temporary thing and lets me know I need to give the thought time to settle. It sounds like it could happen as a reaction to something conflicting such as the common argument experience when your reality is being challenged and you aren't open to changing it at that moment and get scared and maybe a little lost and cloudy maybe to a point of DP/DR before then choosing if you're going to open up or react in anger self pity, comic relief or numbness.
0 likesive just recently figured out what this is and I'm almost completely sure I have at east one of these and I'm so glad that some one that I know of and look up to has the same thing, thank you for making this video.
1 likeI can remember from the time I was little, maybe 6, I would have these moments where I would just feel like I was not really in my body or that I would not process what was going on, but these were very brief occurances. As I got older, I started to experience them more and more. Seeing this now I guess helped me to understand what I have been experiencing for most of my life. Thank you so much for posting this video. Honestly, I've never met anyone who could describe it. 💜
0 likesI’m almost certain I have depersonalization, and I never knew my love for fidgeting with things like that could be part of it! Super informative. Thank you for much for making this.
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Heyy did you recover?
0 likesI used to get derealisation when I was younger ALL the time and I didn't know what it was. It felt like I was out of my body and watching my actions from a 3rd person perspective, or like I was dreaming and everything felt kind of blurry and weird. It was quite scary. Thankfully, I haven't had it in some years now but I still remember how unsettling the feeling was.
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what did u do to get over it?
0 likes@vanesa v nothing really:( sadly im not sure there's anything you can do. I think derealization happens usually when we're stressed or anxious or in a difficult period in our lives so i guess trying to fight stress and anxiety would potentially help reducing derealization too
0 likes@NEK oh okay:) thank you so much
0 likesSo today was the kind of day where I didn't feel anything. I couldn't feel anything outside of myself. So when I watched this video, it was the first thing I felt all day. Maybe I have issues with dissociation and derealisation, and I didn't think about the possibility until now. Thank you Dodie 💜
0 likesI didn't know until today that other people go through this. I've felt very alone and afraid of my own thoughts. I find that listening or feeling others heart beats calms me down. I was scared I was losing it and I worried that it'll never going away but, learning about it today and actually finding out that other people totally go through this has given me hope that this will all pass as I work on my anxiety. (I start therapy tomorrow). I appreciate this video and i appreciate all those who are leaving their stories in the comment section.
0 likesI have anxiety and will zone out in certain situations and now that it was mentioned I totally fidget with things, like the ends of my hair or the necklace I'm wearing. I'm going to my first talk therapy session in 2 days ANY advice?
39 likesEDIT: Okay so she was great and had good advice I opened up to her but I can do that with most. I didn't feel inspired or like she wanted to help me be my best. more like just strategies to get by but she wasn't bad. I can't decide if I should continue seeing her or if I should try someone new?
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I got 2 tips for you.
6 likesThe first time will probably be a bit awkward but that's okay it's great that you are seeking help and be honest with you therapist.
I'm very proud that you are seeking help!!!
don't lie, be as honest as possible!
7 likesMegan Jensen be honest and open with them about things. You might not understand why they're asking you certain questions, but trust that they know what they're doing. You can always ask why they're asking if it makes you feel more conformable. They're not going to judge you for anything you say, and everything is confidential. You might think of something during the sessions that you've never thought about before, and that you think would be useful to say it. Just say it, even if they didn't ask! Always better to provide them with too much information than not enough. It's important that you understand what they're doing and why, and how it will make you feel better. If at any point they haven't explained it clearly enough or you don't understand, ask them to clarify. You need to understand this to make the therapy have meaning, otherwise it could turn into just a load of question asking that doesn't really help. Keep the most open mind you can, and if you can't answer their questions or can't think of anything to say straight away, don't worry! Take your time, they completely understand, they've given therapy to countless people in your situation before. Just do whatever you need to do to be comfortable to make sure it's working; sit however you want, speak at the pace you want to. I wish you the best of luck!
6 likesI don't have any of this, but it's a nice thing to learn about. I've been through big trauma, but I've dealt with it early. This helps me to want to deal with the hard things early. Thank you.
0 likesI just had a suicide attempt three weeks ago but this video just makes me feel so much better . Everyday feels so scary and I tried to find more info about it online but there was never nothing. My sense of reality is horrible but I do notice it gets worse when I’m hurting emotionally. Thank you so much for making this video it really makes me less alone in the world.
0 likesAs someone who's struggled with what (doctors believe) is some forms of disassociation, it's so wonderful to see you talk about it. Practically everyone knows of depression/anxiety/PTSD/etc. but rarely is there any education about dr/dp/etc. Thank you both for sharing your knowledge and helping me understand myself a little better.
0 likesThis is so interesting and just makes me want to be a councellor/therapist even more ❤
0 likesI had such bad derealisation/depersonalisation for about 5 years and I felt like I had tried everything to get rid of it (I hadn't I only went to therapy and consulted googled lol) but then slowly slowly it just started going on it's own and now a good 95% of my life I feel 'normal' and it's only when I'm in particularly stressful situations that I feel really spaced out again but it's not nearly as distressing anymore and I know that when I've calmed down I'll be fine again, I guess I just wanted to reassure anyone that's going through the same thing that even though it does feel like it's going to last forever and you're never going to be okay again, it doesn't and you will
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Thank you for this bit of hope. This is a new thing for me. I've been dealing with this for a while off and on but it just recently got really bad and it's been so scary, especially because I've had no idea what this is or why I'm feeling this way. It's been so bad that I just feel so hopeless and trapped in this weird dream and I've had the darkest thoughts because of it. Thank you for giving me hope that maybe I'll get better.
0 likesThis is so helpful!!! The way she talked about the big Ts and the little ts was so important for me, (I had already figured it out for myself lol) but it's very important for people to know that you can have things like this happening without one large event damaging you. I have BPD which is usually explained by childhood abuse which was really confusing to me because I get along really well with my parents, but I realized it's just like she said, little things that didn't seem like a big deal. It was also really helpful to get a definition for disassociation because it's so hard to explain to people when that is happening to me.
0 likeshey, its really cool to watch this video! it's like you are having a normal conversation, but the public is included in it! i feel like i am in this conversation with you guys
0 likesThis video was very interesting. Thanks Dodie for the insightful video, I learnt alot ^^
0 likesHope your treatments/medications work out for you. :)
I can't describe how thankful I am for this video. I happened across it by chance and I knew straight from the title it was exactly what ive always been looking for. Ive complained of these exact symptoms for years but its just so hard to explain
0 likesI have this as a symptom of my PTSD and anxiety. Its horrible, thank you for shedding light on this subject and having a professional speak about this. I am thinking the same treatment TMS. You are very strong to talk about this, you are helping so many people.
0 likesI suffer with derealisation constantly and depersonalisation occasionally. This video helped me so much! I did not know that there were any treatment options other than therapy. Thank you so much Dodie!!!
0 likesI never knew what I've been dealing with had a name. Thank you for this Dodie. I needed this.
0 likesI'm 14 and for the past 3 weeks I've been having disassociation and I remember the first time it happened I was walking to the shops with my friends before school and it hit me all of a sudden my heart started going crazy and I felt like I had been Transported to another version of my world and everything was so scary and unfamiliar I also felt as if my soul or concioius was a little bit further back then my body so I felt out of control turns out it runs in my family and my mum gets it but now that I've had multiple amounts of it I've managed to cope with it and I generally channel my feel and unfamiliarities into creative things like making a song on my piano or doodling things I see around me which helps me alot
0 likesThis was so interesting and enlightening!! Thank you dodie for always posting about issues that have a lot of stigma around then, you educate me in so many ways and I love the way you make these videos💞💞
8 likesdodie, thank you for making this video. people need to realize that trauma isn’t always war or car crashes, it’s the little things. thank you for bringing kati on your channel to explain this. you’re such a sweet human and i adore you. thank you for this.
0 likesThis video was really helpful. I think I have derealisation and I used to have no idea what it was but this video gave me something to relate to. So thanks!
0 likesI remember when Dodie first spoke about this I kinda felt like the concept was familiar, but I was too scared to look further into it. However, when I lived a year abroad I started experiencing long periods of time of kinda out of body experiences... it’s kinda like my brain convinces me that I’m watching myself from the outside, like I’ll be in a situation where I might be uncomfortable or sometimes there’s nothing much special, but I’ll start thinking like “who am I?” And suddenly it’s like I’m not really there, I’m like trapped in a tiny room in my brain looking through my eyes, but from a distance, if that makes sense.... and I suddenly don’t really feel anything anymore, because what I see isn’t real, so why should I be sad or upset or even happy? Living abroad was the happiest but also the most stressful year of my life, and I think it developed even more for me because I had so much going on at once.
0 likesI don’t experience it as randomly anymore, like it doesn’t come suddenly on the train like it used to, but I almost always get it when I’m in a large social setting where I don’t feel entirely comfortable/in control. Sometimes I’ll constantly feel like I’m not “cool” enough to hang out with my friends, and then it comes and I stop feeling anything at all... I don’t really know how to deal with it, I think I’ve tried to avoid it honestly because it’s not constant and I can kinda predict when it’ll come... but it’s just so uncomfortable and every time it comes I feel like I end up seeming empty.
Omg dodie you made me cry. The first one I experienced it I literally thought I was my brother! It took so long to finally get a diagnosis after doctors checked my eyes etc and Mri's for people thinking it's seizures. So helpful to hear someone I admire talk about having the same issues
0 likesi'd love to see a follow up video summarising the methods you've tried to help your mental health and what's worked/what hasn't and what you got out from each experience and the impressions they made on you!
0 likesIt's the first time I'm hearing about the term derealisation and I realised that this could be the word for those weird moments where everything felt like a dream. I do not experience such moments very often, but there were a few situations in my childhood and also at two parties when I was a bit drunk. Those moments which felt like a dream always happened at night when it was dark outside and when there were many people around me. I hate it when this happens, but thankfully it only happened about 7 times in my life. This seems so strange to me, because what could be the reason for those moments of derealisation?
0 likesThank you dodie for just being you. I first found your channel with your other video about depression and depersonalization as its given me a tiny bit of hope. Thank you for letting me not feel alone and have your songs as a way to speak out on how I actually feel when I'm not able to form the words. I'm currently at high school living every day as a blur with no one that I can actually talk to but I know that it would all be worth it in the end and that there is other people out there. 💛
0 likesi have depersonalization and derealisation (thankfully not severe) and this is the first time i hear about it from literally anyone and i relate highly to a lot of this, I'm so glad i came across this
0 likesThis was soooooo helpful and reassuring. You are both blessings ♥️
0 likesThis was really helpful. I've been experiencing this a lot through out the last few months.
0 likesi feel like anytime i talk about whats been going on it grounds me and makes me feel emotional, but it soon passes and the numbing wall goes back up...
Watching this back now and DID NOT KNOW THAT KATIE WAS IN THE SHANE SERIES OMG I KNEW SHE WAS FAMILIAR WTF
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OMG SAMEEEE
2 likesKati**
2 likesso cool to see people talking about this stuff. i have DID and its really nice to see people bring light to these things that i experience daily.
0 likesOh my goodness, Kati just seems so supportive 💛💛💛
61 likesI've been experiencing dissociation/derealisation/depersonalisation for 6 years now (thankfuly it's very mild). But I never had thr slightest idea it could be a mental illness, to me it was just something I was experiencing and never thought about much. I stumbled across this video while searching for more of dodie's videos and it helpes me so much to now what it is. The sheer fact of putting a name on this has made a huge difference, I've been able to tell my friends about it so they can help keep me grounded, and I've been able to trace back some of the traumas that might have caused it. It is a big relief to know that it isn't depression, and I've started to know how to deal with it. Thank you so much dodie and Katie for this video, you've helped me put a finger on what has been a problem for me for a long time. I really hope you (dodie) will be able to deal with this. Thank you for this help I didn't know I needed.
0 likesi've been dealing with derealisation since the beginning of August. it has brought out a lot of intense and severe anxiety and depression that i thought i got over a long time ago. i don't enjoy going out anymore because everything looks so scary and it terrifies me. my friends don't see me anymore so i feel pretty alone when it comes to that. i loved watching this video, it made me feel less crazy and that other people go through this too. so thank you for that
0 likesi went through a time like last year where i think i had derealization and i cannot imagine having to go through it all the time, like this queen named dodie
0 likesdodie, i thank you so much, i dont want to say that anyone deserves a mental disorder - nobody deserves to suffer, just to make clear. But i wanted to tell you that expecially you, you dont deserve all that. you helped me so much. I always thought about my mental disorder (anxiety, depression, derealisation/depersonalisation) as a result of being too weak, too lazy, (...). I hated myself because of that even though i didnt see self-hatred as an effective and fair option. After i listened to you talking about everything that open I'm losing my judgement, i'm not hating myself anymore because of my mental disorder. I'm still learning, but this helps me, not to feel ashamed of myself.
0 likesI got so much left to say
i love you dodie, thanks so much!
Jana
Damn I want her to be my therapist, she seems so nice
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Nicholas says same tho
2 likesHi Dodie! I have an important question. Actually, maybe a few. I've been suffering anxiety lately, and I feel like I've been lying to myself about what I want in the future. I've been stuck between choosing the typical-well-paying-but-not-so-fun-job and the fun-creative-career-but-you-might-not-achieve-and-could-risk-your-survival-in-life. I have amazing friends that are taking risks such as going into the music industry. Another wants to create comic books, and another wants to do something with acting and theater. Then I have some friends who are taking the safer route, with the office type jobs and such and they're content with that. We're all in high school right now, and they seem to have an idea of what they're going for. I don't really know what to do. I prefer the fun route, but it's not as safe as taking the other route. I've been watching your videos for years (and you're my Demi Lovato btw) and I recall that in one of them you said you went against what your parents wanted. You wanted to pursue a career in music, and you did and you're amazing with everything you've produced and all the lovely messages you sent out to others. But how did you push yourself to choose the decision you made? Did you feel any doubts about it? How did you know that that is what you truly wanted? You're brave and work hard to get to where you are now. But you couldn't have known where you would be now. Why did you take the risk? What made it worth it? How did your younger self see it back then when the decision was made? How did you survive in the beginning of this? What was it like to have another job while building this one? Do you think life isn't worth living if it isn't fun? I don't know if you'll ever read this comment. I hope you do. My name's Sara, and I dream of becoming a writer. If you're reading this right now, I need you to know that you've helped me and a lot of my friends through dark times. Thank you for being so open and so you. You talk about insecurities and mental illnesses- and so many people here can connect and it's just a wonderful community in the comments of this channel. Thanks for all bringing us here. I hope you respond. Anyways, have a nice day :)
0 likesIT took me a while to watch this, but I am so glad I did. This is such a nice, quiet, educational video. For some reason I do not have derealisation, but I do sometimes have disassociation and depersonalisation and the complete opposite where I suddenly get fully aware of every little thing and it makes being very awkward and loud.
0 likesI think I have derealisation but I need to talk to my therapist so thank you sm dodie for making both realize I have such a thing and knowing how to help myself
0 likes"can't open your eyes wide enough." That's me sometimes; very occasionally, and not in situations where I'm feeling any anxiety, but it does happen.
2 likesI really needed this. Thank you Dodie, and thank you Kati. <3
0 likesThis made me cry. It's exactly how I've been feeling since last summer
1 likeThank you so much dodie! I have felt like this before and still do now and I never had a name for it before but now I do.❤ Thankyou
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Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesWow this is the most lovely and relatable derealization video I have ever watched on youtube you are amazing dodie!
0 likesIt made me feel so much better about my condition I don’t know why
I also wanted to add a symptom that I experience besides from what you’ve mentioned which is slow brain processing .. like when somebody talks to me or asks me a simple question I’m like” ummmmm.....” and I have to pause to think of an answer.. this is almost the most frustrating symptom for me especially affecting my performance in college
i'm so glad i watched this, it had been sitting in my subscription box and i ignored it for so long because i knew there was a chance i had these things or something similar and as i was watching it i've never felt so hopeful and validated before.
0 likesI watched this video when it was first posted and it has stuck with me. I fully believe that this is something I struggle with but I want to seek a doctors professional opinion. Dodie totally opened my eyes to better understanding myself
0 likesOk I've been off YouTube for a couple of days now. But I think I never clicked on a video as fast as I did as I just saw you and Kati in the screenshot.
1 likeSo glad about what you both do for so many people, keep doing that. xo
i just wanted to thank you dodie. thanks to you bringing attention to depersonalisation i’ve been properly diagnosed and on my way to recovery. 2 months ago i started having these types of episodes where i just ‘zoned out’ and felt like i was on the verge of passing out, my vision blurred and i had no idea where i was or who i am. i’ve had depersonalisation my whole life, my first memory of it when i was four and i just felt like i wasn’t there but at the same time i was the only one in the room,,? when my mom realised it was recurring she gave it a name, ‘lonely’. at first the doctors thought i was having seizures or there was something wrong with my brain until i saw this video a few weeks ago. when i’m in the middle of an intense depersonalisation episode it scares the shit out of me, i look at my hands and they’re not mine, i look at my friends and i i just can’t recognise them. because i’ve had depersonalisation my whole life i don’t know how i would feel without it. when i was younger it made me feel so different to other kids, i would zone out or just become quiet all of a sudden. having it has damaged me so much and had probably influenced my anxiety and depression to become worse, i felt like there was this whole in my chest, like i was missing something. so thank you dodie for helping me identify my ‘lonely’.
0 likesI've got really, really bad derealization. You're the only youtuber I know that also has it. Thank you for this video <3 not so alone anymore.
11 likesi've always been quite socially anxious, even at a small age. recently i have experienced depression (still have) and derealization. it's shit. I never thought it could be like this; i didn't expect it at all
0 likesWhen I’m clicking on this video I never thought that it’s going to help me really much;
0 likesI learn by the help of this video that I have derealisation and depersonalization. I experienced situations that you told and I started to think that I’m losing my mental health totally and couldn’t understand it. THANK YOU REALLY MUCH. THAT HELPED SO MUCH THAT I CAN’T EXPRESS MY HAPPINESS WITH WORDS. Because I was suffering for a long time from not understanding what is my problem and how I am supposed to deal with it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I wonder if anyone ever tested Dodie for AD(H)D Inattentive Type.
1 likeI have both a Dissociative Disorder and AD(H)D, as well as hypothyroidism and insomnia. The overlap of the different brands of fogginess are ever-overlapping and puzzling. I can't imagine that dissociation would spread out to such a degree unless someone was living within directly, actively traumatizing environments. I would try to get different specialists to cross-check whether there are additional, similar health-interferences. Everyone's symptom-clusters and psychological responses differ, but it can really help to re-do diagnosis. They only discovered my AD(H)D last year, at 28. Getting properly medicated turned out to be a basic, quintessential prerequisite to make any progress in psychotherapeutic treatment.
wow i had that happen to me- the feeling i dont belong to my body or my life- and i just thought i was weird! thank you for this :)
0 likesexercise helped me a lot to reconnect! especially biking for some reason
also hugs help a lot :P
This is making so much sense to me that it's painful but it's also good in a sense because there's the relief of knowing I'm not alone and there are people who understand and are helping me to understand
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Ryan Clarke you will get through this, lots of love xx
0 likesnot_so_secret_ unicorns thank you xx
1 likeOh I get it and It's harder when you need help but can't get it
0 likesуυgα ѕαкι absolutely. I don't know how to reach out I am surrounded by people who are quick to dismiss things like mental health and make assumptions with little information and I don't know what to do
0 likesI had derealization for months. I was so mentally exhausted and finally just said "fuck it". Started partying again, getting shitfaced, drugs etc. The more I socialized, instead of isolating myself and googling my symptoms, the less I cared about them. I ignored it and repressed it. It's not healthy but it worked for me lol.
0 likesThank you for this. It's been very helpful in letting me understand my mental health condition
0 likesAAAAAA this is pure happiness, I have been watching Kati for half a year now, I love her. And two days ago I discovered Dodie.....and NOW I see that they had a video TOGETHER <3 <3 YESSSSS
0 likesThis was so informative and helpful. That shattered marble like clicks perfectly to what sets me off sometimes. I hope that I can find a group near me to just feel the same around and talk about it.
0 likeshi dodie! i’d just like to give a huge thanks to you and kati for this video i was lucky enough to have met you on saturday. i’d also been there to see the mental health panel you were both in (which was great, btw!) at the m&g i gave you a letter that included a small paragraph about my personal experience with depersonalisation. it was something that was very close to the heart but at the same time i was still fearful that what i believed i was experiencing was actually something else entirely.
3 likesafter watching this and having a bit more formal(?) education on the topic i’m now able to see that what i’ve been experiencing is more derealisation than depersonalisation. the feeling of dreaming, and as i described it in the letter, ‘being able to wake up a second time.’ i think i may know what traumatic encounter(s) might have stemmed it too. it feels really nice to hear it from someone who knows exactly what i mean without sounding like i’m crazy (it isn’t the most common diagnosis, after all)
so again, thank you both! i think i might go and try to research a bit more into the therapy that was recommended to see what’s in store and what’s possible for it. have a good night, i hope you have (or are having) a safe flight home! <3
i feel like i might have this?.. things feel not real and i feel like i’m in a stimulation kind of and every minute of my day i observe everything and create random theories in my head and when someone says “oh it’s okay everything is real” i feel like they’re lying to me so i don’t think/know they’re gonna do something to me
9 likesthis could be a completely different thing but yeah
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I feel the same don't worry, I think it was triggered from either using drugs once or smoking weed one time as I had a bad experience with both, or potentially a really bad friendship breakup, im still trying to understand it. Ive had it for 5 months now, and although that seems like a long Time, it doesn't feel that way to me it feels so short. I completely get you in the fact that you think people aren't real, like you probably think im not real right now but I promise you I am, I've heard the same thing from people because they don't understand it as you don't really hear about it as much as depression, anxiety etc but just know everything is going to be okay, it all works out in the end, just take every day at a time <3
0 likesI always thought I was the only one feeling it, I am so happy to finally see that I’m not alone
3 likesI’m watching this video because I feel like I have derealisation. Sometimes I can spend hours in my room, completely spaced out, imagining my life in different almost romantic situations. I constantly feel like nothing’s real, like I’m living in a movie. And everything I do has to be romanticized like in films. I have experienced lots of Big T’s so that might contribute
0 likesThankyouthankyouthankyou for this I needed this so much more than I thought I did and I feel better now about myself And how sometimes I don't recognize myself Dodie thank you :)
0 likesI have anxiety and depression and lately I’ve begun to feel like I’m not real, or as if I’m in a movie or dream, kind of like I’m floating. At certain points my fingers decide to not feel like my own, and when I touch them the sensation feels wrong and like
0 likesI’m not feeling it myself.
This video made me feel a lot less scared about it so thank you very much^^ ♡
I’m pretty much experiencing derealisation 24/7 and I disassociate all the time as a result of my anxiety disorders and depression. I really wish I was able to see someone about this because I’m really struggling
0 likesi saw katis version of this and i am happy that you realized what caused you to have BPD
0 likesmy BPD is dormant right now and i couldnt be happier i know what causes it and how to prevent myself from my BPD acting up (i havent dissociated since feb 2017 that month is missing and probably never coming back) i think that months of marbles pretty much rolled off into the black abyss and never coming back again at this point and i am quite fine with that i dont want to know what happened (if i ever remember i wont care and i will deal with whatever happened but i am not looking for answers)
my autism on the other hand just started to act up again but not in a horrible sense just needed to move around more (barre class helps with that) my anxiety attack and sever depression non existent recently so thats a plus i have been very happy and that is from the information below
i am also never using meds i have found coping skills work way better and other forms of therapy people say meds+therapy are the best but not for me i cant even take vitamin D pills without it making me feel suicidal or like shit or make my life worse in some way
i drink milk for my vitamin D problems
dodie you are adorable but you are learning and i am sure having wes in your life will help your brain make more connections the more you can remember him the more the wires can click together it just sucks that you see him when you look in the mirror all i know is he definitely needs you in his life as well even if he is to stupid to realize it
thx for this ha bisky vid i found a family member though youtube as well i have been watching somebody for 8+ years and i had no idea we were related
we compared family trees and it is proven we are most likely cousins from what i can figure out as for how cannon cousins are is unknown because we didnt compare past finding out if we are related
his name is sam seder wes might be more interested in that then you but with my dream job that does matter at least a bit
i love you so much dodie and i am happy that you are at least figuring some things out and that you love wes and can remember him now at least at times
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1 1/2 year ago I had many panic attacks. Before a panic attack started, I always felt like everything was not real. I was not real. I think it was a mixture of derealisation and depersonisation, but I'm not sure. I think the reason why it all started was that I felt like I have no controll. At the time my grandma was very ill and my dad had cancer. (English is not my first language and I'm very tired at the moment, so sorry if I made any mistakes.)
0 likesOMG IT'S KATIIIII!!!!! SHE'S HELPED ME SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! THE COLAB I DIDN'T KNOW I NEEDED!!!
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Yay!! xoxo
4 likesI have been watching this 5 times today, was so cosy to watch this chat with 2 people who are kind and understandable
0 likesi never leave comments but i want to say thanks for making this video.. i struggled with derealisation and depersonalisation for years and sometimes still do. It feels like hell and i wouldnt wish it on anyone. thanks for educating people! i wish i saw this video 5 years ago when i started getting these episodes.
0 likesI got that ”blunting” feeling when I first started Lexapro. But I actually liked it, I needed a break from feeling all my emotions. But my emotions came back and they were much more intense and I decided to stop my meds altogether.
0 likesJust to shed some light at the end of the tunnel for people dealing with DP/DR.I was struggling with DP/DR, depression, hardcore anxiety, and panic attacks the past three years, but things are looking up and i would say i am 80-85% cured of the DP/DR. I understand how scary it can be sometimes, but "when going through hell, don't stop." Dissasociation is literally your minds way of saying it's overstimulated, so it goes into a sort of standby mode. The things that helped me were finding a less stressful job, getting off social media, getting out of toxic relationships, eating healthier, exercising, reading a lot, and getting out and socializing, getting sunlight, talking with family members and freinds about my issues. No matter how hard these things can be, you need to rewire your brain, and when your body tells you no you need to tell it yes. Get up, get active, and stop focusing on the past and future, just appreciate what you have right now!
1 likeThis comforted me I haven't recover since something that happened 2 years ago and to bring my brain back too! ❤️
33 likesI get headaches and anxiety too! And I fiddle so much and fidgeting since recovering from my trauma but I also might have ADHD too and still have derealisation too but I'm not diagonised but I know I have been going through depersonalisation for 2 years
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Elisa Benaggoune Medical community likes to attach words like ADHD to things they can't understand. You are your own type of normal, everyone is. Nobody is perfect or always right, content, or in a state of constant happiness..no such thing as permanence of any kind. I had an episode of a sort of "awakening" over a year ago and then slipped into this state of what can only be described as DP/DR...a flat state where nothing is ever either good or bad it simply "IS". Don't try to act out as you think you should be. Just be how you are, you will feel more content and it doesn't matter how anyone else See's you, if they have a problem it's theirs not yours. Be as you are it's all you can do.
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0 likesI have headaches everyday and bad anxiety
0 likesknowing that other people are suffering from dpd, drd and dad makes me feel a lot less crazy so i’m very thankful for this :)
0 likesThis was so facsniating! I want Kati as my therapist! <3 xoxo Thank you, opened my eyes
0 likesI was on sertraline, for the same thing dp/dr, it helped i’m coming off now but I also went through therapy and tried to teach myself how to cope... I study psychology so it made it easier
0 likesOmg that's so weird I didn't know that EMDR doesn't work if we are experiencing derealisation, I had the exact same experience it was awkward and I didn't feel safe or right. That's so good to know, I thought I was doing something wrong too.
0 likesI’ve been dealing with this for about 4 months now. It’s more bearable now, but I still have it 24/7. I’m trying to get over it but it’s so difficult when it’s always there and nobody has any direct answers.. 😩
0 likesI experienced this sort of, after my dad died and my life changed a lot (going to uni, moving away). But it wasnt so strong, just feeling like this wasn't my 'old normal life' and so it just wasn't real. It has gone away mostly now I am busier and seeing friends more. I don't think it was exactly the same but just dissociating and spacing out.
0 likesI always thought something was wrong with me, I'm so happy that someone else feels like this
1 likeThis was very informative! It took me superlong to finish watching this video. I have ADD and since this is just talking and explaining stuff - even though it's interesting and I want to know these things - it was hard to concentrate on it in one go. But the beauty with videos is that I can turn it off, come back later, rewind a minute for context and try again... But this was really really interesting!! I've definitely had depersonalised episodes, not sure about dissociation? And the whole derealisation... well there's something to look into with my therapist next week
1 likeI'm getting therapy next week. Yay.
11 likesEDIT: OH MY GOSH. I went great... I have two more scheduled this month. I really love my therapist. She's great. 😊 (It also turns out I have bipolar depression!)
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YAY!! So proud of you!! xoxo
5 likesSuffered from this around 10 years ago when I was on holiday. Led to me suffering anxiety and panic attacks constantly for years ..
0 likesHaven’t suffered for years until last week where I was away with the family and I just zoned out while we were out eating . Next thing I’m having a panic attack :/ the next few days we’re awful. Worst I’ve felt since initial spout .
It’s been 4 days now and the panic attacks have gone probably due to medication but still suffering with derealisation :(
I always feel like I’m not in control of my own body and that I constantly forget what I’m doing or how I got into a situation. It usually happens to me when I’m tired or traveling, but it’s started to happen really often.
0 likesthis was so helpful! it's help me figure out myself and now I can learn to grow from it !
1 likeI have lived with the condition all my life and being undiagnosed is like having a guilty secret.😧 I haven't felt comfortable explaining this disorder with anyone, even a UK doctor. I feel if this is widely discussed and awareness is raised that many sufferers may find relief that their condition is recognised, but some may feel utter embaressment and go on suffering in silence. It would be just another mental illness stigma to them like the anxiety and depression they're already dealing with, these are 2 things that are obviously feeding dp/dr. Then there may be some who think they suffer from it but maybe not fully understand what the condition is as they have only felt a milder temporary version due to a hangover or lack of sleep. Then the awareness becomes diluted and it creates a situation where people will exaggerate their feeling to gain attention, so true sufferers will go further into their matrix. A bit like those who say they have ocd, when really it's that they're just picky about being tidy or neat, they don't suffer the repetitive habits a true sufferer goes through. I think when you feel it's truly affecting your daily life to the point you are frightening yourself e.g driving a car and putting yourself in danger then help must really be sought. I am going to see my Dr soon to try and explain it for the first time. I find this video helpful and appreciate all the coping techniques mentioned. I don't feel Meds are the answer but definitely cutting out caffeine alcohol is recommended, they say excercise is good too. Needless to say I do all the opposite of the above ! 😑😉
0 likesHey dodie,
0 likesI think I struggle with depersonalization quite frequently. I only recently found out that what I often feel has a name. For as long as I can remember I have felt my brain move my body away almost like I am floating just behind/above my body whilst I move and continue on. My earliest memory of feeling like this was when I went camping about 10 years ago and I woke up the next morning and it was like I was looking at my body and every time I moved I felt like someone else and everything around me was just so weird and like a dream, just like how you described derealisation.
I've been following you for a while now and have always had that thought in the back of my mind about 'whether I could be experiencing the same thing as you' but I always pushed it to the back of my mind. After watching this video, I'm almost 100% sure I am experiencing it. I'm definitely going to do more research to find out if I do actually experience depersonalization and derealisation.
Thank you so much for making this video and I wish you good luck in dealing with your mental health.
Much Love
Kayleigh x
I can't think of any trauma I've experienced but I used to get derealization / depersonalization ever since I was a kid. Haven't got it in ~a year now though!
0 likesI wrote a paper for psychology on derealisation and depersonalisation and this video really helped thank you! I love you DODIE!
0 likesI had psychosis due to taking corticosteroids for my auto immune illness, and on top of that I have minor depression which made my psychosis worse... The thing is, after I finished steroids I had to take anti psych meds, along with something to stop my tremors, which was a horrible experience... Since then, I've felt the way you described as "depersenolization", because since I took all of those pills, I felt as though life is just a blurred picture..
0 likes1:10 Ahh I have the same 3 :) and yeah at 8:30 touch is amazing, pulls me out too. Thank you so much to the both of you 💕☺️ wishing you the best
0 likesThank you so much for this video! I was starting to think this was me. Thank you so much I can't even begin to explain how thankful I am for this video
0 likesDissociation hits hard for me, Not only do I zone out in tough situations, But just randomly in the middle of being with friends, Talking to people, Etc.
2 likesI didn't know if it was just stress, My terrible sleep schedule, Or something else, But now when I look back on my younger days and remember my parents telling me off for spacing out when I'm stressed over a math question, It makes a lot more sense haha
i have had dpdr since the beginning of october. it kinda appeared out of nowhere however i do recall having existential thoughts regarding whether or not other people were real or robots when i was very young. i think the dpdr has stemmed from trauma starting when i was 10 when i had issues with predators online multiple times, of which i obsessed over and tortured my self over and constantly worried that someone would show up at my door who found me from online to kidnap me (i still worry about it now) so after 4 years of constantly doing this, i looked in the mirror and didnt recognize myself. my triggers are thinking about the dpdr and death. i have also shown symptoms of high functioning depression. i feel like i can forget about the past and move on but my dpdr is stopping me. i'm scared to tell my parents because me or them would have never guessed that something like this would happen. i think that another reason i have dpdr is cause i've been on my computer every day since i was 7. I like being on my computer cause its like i get sucked into another world and i can forget about all of my problems (i get really bad derealization after a while of being on the computer.) how do i tell my parents?
0 likesI hate having derealisation and depersonalisation but it's getting better! Also what treatments do you have ?? ❤️❤️❤️ please reply!
98 likesI think I got it from trauma of something and that happened 2 years ago and I still have depersonalisation 😭
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I have both as well and saw a psychiatrist a couple months ago and she is having me take dietary supplements that are for brain health and it is working so well, my symptoms used to be borderline unbearable and now I feel so much better, I've been doing the supplements for 3 months highly recommend
2 likesInteresting! What supplements?
8 likesMagnesium, Gaba Calm, Methyl B12, Methyl Folate, and Fish oil that is formulated specifically for brain health
4 likesI'm vegan so I cant have fish products but that really helps! :D
3 likesFish get there omega 3 from eating algae and we can have that too!
I'm going to try and find those supplements and see if they help
dodie you replied to my comment technically !
2 likesI need them! :D
1 likeI'm vegetarian but fish oil is the one exception I allow, I struggled with it for awhile but it's what's best for my health, I got all mine at Whole Foods because they cary really high quality products and are super helpful at pointing out which are the highest quality and work the best, I take them all once a day btw, I hope it helps you!
1 likeI've heard of vegetarians using Flax seed oil instead of fish oil, maybe try that instead if you're really against it. I've heard a LOT of supplement regimens for DP/DR and I have a suspicion it depends on what condition is underlying DP/DR. I've heard of people using Melatonin to reset their sleep to bust their way out. I've heard wheatgrass being used by someone who has a Hypothyroidism. I've heard that Low testosterone could be a cause. Low levels of Zinc, Selenium & B6. Inositol & Theanine. I couldn't list them all, but there's a couple more if you havent tried them :)
0 likesMood stabilizer for migraines, writing, exercise anxiety and talking about it
0 likesWhat you guys need is Spiritual intervention because what you’re going through is spiritual. If you feel as though you’re out of your body and in another realm then that’s certainly the case because bible makes that very clear in the book a Ephesians 6:12 that there’s two realms a physical realm and spiritual realm. If you ever find your self out side your body in the realm of the sprit and some else controlling your body in the physical realm then it’s certainly a demon who has possessed your body hence why you find your self watching yourself !!! Jesus Christ can certainly set you free and give you the peace that you’ve so longed for!!!!
2 likes@sujal sharma im trying to leave DP/DR, i will send u an email
0 likes@La Folia God bless you all Jesus loves you
0 likes@Eseosa Osagiede nope I'm Christian. Felt God's presence. Been on fire for god and loved it. I got traumatised by unpardonable sin took me about a year to get over it. Ever since that trauma I've had this problem.
1 likeI actually came to your channel to browse the music (btw, I L.O.V.E it), but found this off topic gem. I used to have this. I was quite the journey to overcome it. God bless anyone going through this and just keep in mind, it gets better!!!
0 likesMy therapist works with a part of the schema therapy with me and I feel like it's the best thing I tried so far. It helps me a lot.
0 likesWait a minute... is this why I randomly remember/ obsess over things I did/ said, or other people did/ said to me when I was younger? Mind. Blown.
14 likesI had really bad derealisation when I was younger, it’s not as common now though. The only thing that is consistent now is that my face looks completely different day to day. That is so true that you can never open your eyes wide enough, when I was younger I would get so frustrated because nothing ever looked real enough, but I eventually just accepted it.
0 likesI needed this today😭🙌🏻
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Special Kay honestly me too
4 likesKatie Gagnon much love from one sufferer to another ❤️
3 likesSpecial Kay thank you, honestly has been a rough day. Hope you are doing ok💖
4 likesmore than i knew....
4 likeslisten to i have a secret for the mad. it will get better. xxx
16 likesSpecial Kay if you ever need to talk I'm here xx
2 likesKatie Gagnon thank you love 💗
1 likeElisa In Wonderland I listen to it every day, it's so healing😌
1 likeSpace Dun thank you, you're all so lovely 💗
2 likesSpecial Kay ok this is weird, you almost have the same channel name as me😂
1 likeSo glad it was helpful!! xoxo
2 likesKati Morton it really was; thank you so much 💗
0 likesSpecial Kaylie holy fudge nuggets 😂
0 likesHeyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesI struggled with depersonalisation, dissociation and severe anxiety a few years ago, like you I had it 24/7 and it became such a problem that I couldn't carry on with everyday life. After trying a lot of things, I found that the only thing that would help was distraction and it's eventually what helped me get out of that place.
0 likesI'd do things like painting or making bracelets, it really helped me focus on reality and get out of that weird haze.
Sometimes it's really simple things that can make a massive difference!
Thank you for this video, it helped me understand a lot more of what I went through <3
Derealization is the hardest thing I have ever been through. I can't remember anything ever and never feel real. I feel I have a slight headache all the time. Focus is never here and I am very happy when I am focused. School is extremely hard in that way
0 likesOmg I had this on a few occasions. Specifically back in 9th grade we went on a field trip and a couple hours in I felt really weird. Like as if I was dreaming. I felt like I was floating but I knew I was walking. Everything around me felt like it was moving too fast for me to understand. I could move my body and whatnot but it was almost like I was telling someone else what to move for me. If that makes any sense. I was in control but not really. I freaked out and told one of my friends during the trip but they thought I was crazy. I’ve had that feeling a few times after that but never as severe.
0 likesI think I have moments of dissociation/derealization, where I'll zone out or start thinking too deeply about things going on. I'll start to question myself and be like, "But what if this is all a dream? Is this even real? Am I real? What is reality? What if I'm just some figment of someone else's imagination?" It's like a mini existential crisis. It normally lasts only a few minutes, but I've done this ever since I was a kid (age 26 now). I don't think I've ever experienced depersonalization, but I've definitely felt like I've been in a dream and in a fog moving through life sometimes. I've never felt disconnected from my body before or like the person I see in the mirror isn't me, but I would say I've had derealization throughout my life at times.
0 likesI'm literally crying right now. I had no idea that it had a name. I thought I was just stupid and lazy and occasionally losing my damn mind. I totally feel the thing about not being able to open your eyes wide enough. I never even brought that up to anyone because I didn't even know how to explain it. I can't remember anything because I'm just in this constant fog. Feels similar to being high, or like you said drunk, all the time. These feelings are so scary and so isolating (especially the depersonalization) when you don't know what's happening or why or that other people actually feel this bizarre way too and its not just you. Thank you so much for making this.
2 likesThis has calmed me down, I’ve had a few traumatic experiences but hasn’t really triggered anything until now when I really started to worry about doing my A-Levels and getting into universities. I’ve had close family passing away, everyone around me not being true and sexual assault etc... but going through college has triggered a feeling/ thought of ‘I don’t know myself, this doesn’t feel real anymore, I don’t feel anything’ I also have really happy highs and really sad lows but when I try and describe it it feels more than just being sad or having a mood swing, once I started to try and understand my feels it again feel more than being sad, it feels heavy and familiar, but I’m not sure where to go or who to speak to
0 likesI kind of had depersonalisation when the girl I was dating suddenly cut me off. I felt like my mind and body were split. I woke up one night feeling a leg and felt it was really skinny. I then felt their ribs and felt it was boney. I was wondering whose it is and I realised I was sleeping alone and that I was touching my own leg and ribs. It was really scary. I still sometimes experience it when I look at the mirror.
0 likesThank you for sharing. Its been a year since I have depersonalisation/derealisation. Its difficult to cope, I want to feel normal again. If anyone have found the solution please share. It will be a great help. Thanks.
0 likesThank you for making this video, it really helped me to feel less alone
0 likesI just spent 2 weeks at a mental hospital and i was brought there because i have really bad Derealisation and depersonalisation.
0 likesKnowing that dodie also had that, makes me feel a little better about it. This video was like a nice headpat telling me im gonna be fine.
I'm here because i'm still figuring out what is wrong with me. I really want to seek help but my parents wouldnt let me as they think people that go to psychologists are crazy.
0 likesApparently i'm experiencing what you described about derealization but i feel like there's also an inner fight within my brain.
My derealization part is that during these last years i think i've been surrounded by constant stress especially the whole 2016 and the end of 2017 and start of 2018. The end of 2017 was full of stress because i'm constantly thinking about the future and that freaks me out to the point i cry. Also i had two days straight of constant stress and it had my whole body hurting during a whole week or even a bit more. It was horrible. Then the 2nd of January i became paralyzed for a few minutes but i felt like a dream for a few days straight too.
I have some notes too about some things i wrote back in 2017 that said that i literally felt nothing and I still feel that to this day. Nothing feels real to me and i've kind of lost track of the present bc of this, and i still get anxious about the future. A few weeks ago my safe place (my bedroom) became completely invaded by my brother and now i feel like i have nowhere to hide from myself/the world.
Going back to what i said about the fight within my brain, i'm constantly feeling weird in a sense i can't really describe but that i shout at myself for being how i am (or one part of my brain is). I feel like i have two sides of my brain fighting, and they are complete opposite as if one side was happy but the other one wants the other side to shut up.
I also can't express myself, but i wanted to let it all out and maybe someone out there might find this interesting or something.
@doddleoddle Derealization is talked about in the song "Anziety" by Logic, if you haven't heard it. Thank you for making this video <3
0 likesAhhhh so glad to see you do a video with Kati! FAVES ❤
4 likesYears of emotional abuse from infancy caused both my little Ts and big Ts. There were more explosive moments that very obviously scarred me. I'm autistic and dealt with a lot of abusive "therapies" and terrible home life situations. In addition, I used to not have a voice about any of it. I couldn't advocate for myself.
0 likesIt's taken me seven years of weekly therapy to get where I am now, and I understand myself much better, but I have a loooong way to go. The little Ts that built up over time are actually harder to deal with in therapy because you have to dig to even find them before you can actually deal with them.
I have derealization, which to me is very upsetting, I feel as if I am floating through the days and months, I can't remember a lot of September and even October... because of a person, and me devoting all of my emotional and mental capacity to him ... contact for me is key. And the marble analogy almost made me cry... Regardless, thank you dodie
0 likesI ended up dissasociating and feeling like nothing was real and I never knew where I was or what was going on after a really hard time and my therapist explaining that it can be "the brains parachute" helped me get over it and realized that I wasn't broken or strange.
0 likesOh my gosh the way she explains trauma makes SO MUCH SENSE!
0 likesme: "i have a lot of homework"
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me: "homework? who is she? she can wait"
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0 likesJadon Armon if only my words could slap you... You would know that slipping into illiteracy is not a brag
0 likesThis was so interesting and clear, thank you for sharing!!
0 likesStay strong guys, never give up, you are stronger than depersonalization
0 likesOh my god... I need to go get checked, because I always feel like everything is a blur and sometimes when I panic too much I can't see properly or see even my hands. It's so weird. Thank you dodie 💞
0 likesSmall T's thing and derealisation thing explained a lot (I knew about depersonalisation but I knew it didn't affect me or at least not frequently but this forced me to think about what I'm feeling and put names to what I didn't know how to explain but I experience) thank you
0 likesI never really thought of myself as derealized but now that you've described it, I really associate myself as feeling that way. I'll space out completely and my body will feel like it's been put into a worm hole and my brain will make me feel like I'm suddenly flying backwards and that I'm not really there. I space out easily even though I know what's going on and if someone is talking to me, but it just feels strange. I've felt this way for a while now and idk. Would anyone else think this would explain how I feel???
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Morgan Cloutier general rule of thumb is that if it's having a significant impact on your life (eg. Making you feel depressed or anxious, stopping you from doing things you need or want to do, generally holding you back) then it's a problem that you should look into getting help for. If not and you feel that you can deal with it, then that's fine, it's normal to feel a bit dissociated every now and then 😊
1 likeEquoise I've had anxiety for a long while now and I always seem to feel this way when I either have a panic attack or when I'm having a particularly anxious day. I just kinda learned to try and cope wit the feeling cuz I thought it was normal. I've had a spiraling downhill of medical and mental problems lately and they only seem to be getting worse. I had an entire week of severe depersonalization. My hands felt so strange and I felt like I was going in and out of daydreaming and jolting back every minute or so.
1 likeThank you for this video! I didn’t know anyone else who had this and I felt crazy.
0 likesive had bad anxiety and panic in my life but I've had one instance of derealization. I felt like I was in the twilight zone, or like a dream and it was really creepy. I felt like everyone was a simulation or robots and just like a really eerie weird feeling. It was so so so weird.
0 likesFor the first time I dissociated an event this last week. A friend was in a car accident and i witnessed it all in my rearview. It was terrifying- I thought he was dead. I vividly remember detail and images, but throughout the experience never felt present. Even now a week later It doesn't feel like an even that happened. I wonder if derealisation is something that ive had, and this event only magnified it. For some time now I feel somewhat absent minded, and can't remember most of my day or week. Only more recently have I looked into it more but I dont know where I am as far as set label i guess.
0 likesI don’t think I’ve ever been in any sort of trauma, but i’m almost certain I have derealization/depersonalization. I constantly feel like I’m dreaming, or like someone else is controlling my body and i’m just watching a movie screen. sometimes i don’t recognize my own voice and i get freaked out but my body keeps talking anyway, or i’ll go to the bathroom and do a double take because i don’t recognize the person in the mirror. i feel like i’m floating and the world is two dimensional and i can barely remember my life. my memories don’t feel like my own. i’m terrified and i tried telling my therapist and she just said it was anxiety and to pay more attention to the things around me. i’m scared to tell my friends and family because i think they’ll laugh or say i’m just exaggerating and to get over it. i feel so alone.
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Kali vom Eigen a year late but feel the exact way, i hope you are doing better :)!! 🌸💕💖🖤🖤
0 likesI have suffered from derealisation, but more regularly/strongly depersonalisation, since April 2016. This video helped me so much, thank you <3
0 likesI’ve been through multiple different therapists and psychiatrists since I was 13, I’m 18 and I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and severe anxiety but I’ve always tried talking to every single one of these professionals about my feelings of all three of these and every time they avoid addressing what it could be or asking me any questions about that. A lot of them kinda laughed and make me feel dumb for even mentioning it ... idk oh well, if anyone knows any place/anyone who can help me in Georgia let me know.
0 likesHow many times do i go back to your videos to figure things out x) Seriously, I had a derealisation episode that lasted 6 hours today and I was very annoyed that it happened again so I just watched you video to figure out tips to get out of this quickly and turns out I should have probably picked my stimtoy (which I had for two month and is already COMPLETELY dead because I use it constantly when i'm situations where there's a lot of people). I should have maybe hugged my parents but they never know when I go through it I just shut up about it so... Yeah (I should test these others coping mecanism to see if it works for me). Also I just discovered that the type of therapy that i'm doing is talk therapy and I should talk more about these episodes. Anyway that must the third time that I post this kind of comment under one of your video, always helps me think. Also sorry for my broken english...
0 likesSomatic Experiencing is quite helpful. I would suggest staying away from meditation unless you can do it with your eyes open. Focusing on meditating while you are going about your daily activities is the best!
0 likesIn 2017, I had my first anxiety attack, and it was big.
0 likesI didn't know what was happening at first, but all I knew was my brain was going way past the speed limit and I couldn't stop it no matter what. I tried watching T.V, I woke up my mom, hell I even tried to sleep outside. Nothing worked. My mom realized I was having a panic attack and my dad came out and calmed me down.
After that I started having them everyday. If I woke up in the middle of the night for no reason at all, I would have a panic attack. For a while I wasn't sure I would be able to cope with my anxiety much longer, as it was causing me to starve myself, and falling deeper into depression as my brain consumed me.
I didn't know how to deal with this sort of thing. And one day, I woke up, and I just felt separate. Everything was zoomed out. I could see color but my brain wouldn't consume anything. I wasn't there. I was a zombie. I would just stand there, and silently weep. Standing in the middle of a library desperately searching for anything. Finding nothing.
I didn't know what to do. This went on for a week. I cried every. Single. Day. I considered suicide. My mom had to read me bible verses to calm me down. I didn't know what else to do.
Thankfully I got help and it's over now, but I still never understood what was happening to my brain at that time. But now I know I was experiencing dissociation. Finding Dodie helped me so much with my anxiety. And now thanks to this video I finally found the answer I've been looking for nonstop this past year. Thank you Dodie <3
I've never actually heard of this before but I feel like I might have derealisation because sometimes if I'm having a really negative day (or bad grades or something) I might just zone out for a really long time and not really realise what I'm doing but still go through the motions. The worst of it is probably that it all feels foggy and unreal- like this other time when I zoned out whilst crossing a road. If my mum hadn't dragged me out the way I probably would have been hit.But anyways, thank you very much for posting this! It has indeed been very helpful ^^
0 likesI’ve had it for 4 years. Thank you for this
0 likesHey so I’m thirteen and I just randomly was walking home from school and I felt weird. It was kind of like my brain was foggy, and I had a sort of floating sensation. I couldn’t concentrate and was shaking slightly. I looked around I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming or not. It feels like things are moving faster and slower than normal at the same time.
1 likeWould this be derealisation?
This was a one time thing for me, and so I don’t think it would be the condition, just a one time brain fog thing.
Happened again, I could compare it I guess to what I would imagine being on drugs is like.
Wow. I have a LOT of issues, lol 😂 but was shocked when you mentioned 50mg and 100mg of Sertraline being a high dose. I’ve been on 200mg for close to 5 years.
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I just wanted to add that it’s nice to hear a fellow Brit. Do you also live in the US? Your accent sounds a little softened, like mine has. I look forward to seeing more of your videos xo 🤗
0 likesWow i did not know that this experience has any kind of name until my friend told me about it. You just tell every simptom that I have, it's such a relief that I'm not the only one! :o You helped me a lot, thank you!
0 likesinteresting. i zone out a lot but never heard of that, i thought everyone else had these moments. there are many times where i'm brought to reality and i'm looking straight at a professor who's asking me a (sometimes not even important ) question or nodding their heads reassuringly, and then i realise i was out (in classes that i really like). the touching really works as well, it brings me back in a blink of an eye (i'm not a touching person all the time).
0 likesthank you for this video! i tend to tell myself it's all a matter of concentration but i don't know. weird thing is i think my brother has the same issue, worse when he's asleep/sleeping (i can't tell really)
God I love the internet.
0 likesI am super thankful to be able to relate to so many people with this experience and not feel like I am going insane
if you would ever make more videos on DP/DR i would watch them all. i find that your videos on this topic have been more helpful simply because they are personal and specific to your experiences rather than trying to encompass the whole spectrum and leaving something crucial out, which then leads me down an anxious spiral where i am completely stuck in DR for the rest of the day. thank you for this
0 likesKati talking about us freezing when we feel like we cant get away is so real. I was conditioned growing up not to run away when I was scared and then when someone actually hurt me as a teenager my body just froze and I wanted to fight but I couldn’t get my arms to move. It didn’t even make sense what was happening to me. I remember just looking at the stars and feeling raindrops bc I was outside and kind of calmly being like “hm. What’s happening?”
0 likesI got discharged in 2015, i recently found out, because I dissociated in Group Therapy due to having Avoidant Personality Disorder. They marked me down as not sufficiently motivated. I developed DP months later and its taken them a year to even start anything because of that note. DP has left me feeling hollow, emotionless, devoid of purpose, memory so bad I cant remember the day I've just lived and severed from my soul/identity. The Trauma that underpins my condition is childhood emotional neglect. I find it hard not to believe this is malpractice considering dissociation is so common, they had my history all the way back to childhood and i've never seen group therapy recommended for AvPD. Also I had a reaction to Zoloft so bad it made me never want to touch medication again, and I was also tried on EMDR but I dissociated so it didnt work too :)
0 likesBasically every time I go to a Therapist or Doctor, they make me measurably worse. I'd laugh through the irony but its really not funny and luckily I don't feel emotions because I'm sure it would be cripllingly depressing.
I’m always derealising. I love your video so so much thank you!!!!
0 likesI didn’t know anyone else had this! I deal with depersonalization a lot more than derealization though. I describe it in that it’s like I’ve forgotten I am my own human person. Really scary, it happened to me once when I was first learning to drive and it put me off driving for yeeeeears.
0 likesthis video is like.. the most seen I have ever felt. my ex used to tell me that he knew I was getting 'bad' when I'd just repeat to myself 'it's fake, nothing is real,' etc, things like that. I could never remember doing/saying those things though
1 likeDODIE YOU ARE SO GOLDEN THIS HAS HELPED ME SO MUCH THANK YOU :)
0 likesI'm so glad to find a video about this. Feel super alone with it at times
0 likesI see other people doing this, and I don't really have anybody to talk to so why the hell not. I think I may suffer from a mixture of depersonalization and derealization but I'm scared that I'm being over dramatic. It started about a year and a half ago as what I now think was depersonalization, I feel like I'd see a different person every time I looked in the mirror, my mind and body were completely separate, I felt like I was trapped in something I'm not and had a constant feeling of confusion, I thought I was going mad. This lasted for about 4-5 months until it lulled out and I was just left with my regular anxiety, nothing stressful was going on during these months, it seemed to jump out of nowhere. After about a month and a half of normality, I started to notice what I now recognize as more derealization symptoms. Usually when I was out of the house with friends or family I'd feel myself slipping out of the moment and into what I like to call "the test tube" as I felt like I was trapped and completely exposed, just suspended in whatever was going on with no ability to comprehend the situation. I'd struggle to keep my eyes open and everything felt like as you put it, a dream. The lines of reality started to blur and nothing made sense, once I heard my friends whispering, thinking I was high or something because I was so god damn spaced out and too scared to talk about it, I thought I'd gone mad. I'd come home from school everyday and cling onto my dog to feel her warmth and breathing to remind myself that I'm alive, and she's alive and we're here and we're safe and everything's ok. I remember staring at the shower wall completely spaced out, and as I felt it start to fade, I noticed I had tears streaming down my cheeks, I had no clue I was crying. I was so desperate to feel again, so desperate to just be normal I would do things, take risks and hurt myself to see if I could trigger something and be myself again. Thankfully, a few months ago I followed Dodie on snapchat and watched her go through similar experiences, up to that point I'd been too scared to research my symptoms in fear of finding nothing, and surrendering myself to insanity. I know all this sounds dramatic, but if it weren't for Dodie I never would have known this was an actual thing with treatment, and a less upsetting explanation behind it rather than thinking I was actually insane. Now that I know more about this I really want to get properly diagnosed so I can begin treatment as soon as possible and feel like myself again. Thanks Dodie <3 (and props to whoever actually cared to read this far, you're probably really cool )
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livisauraus I really hope you can get some treatment that works!!
0 likeslivisauraus just so you know, if you're in the UK, you don't have to be diagnosed with dissociation to get treatment! In fact, a diagnosis will cost quite a lot, and can be quite unnecessary. You also need to make sure that they don't mis-disagnose you with just anxiety/depression if you don't think that that's accurate. That's what happened to me, and the anxiety went away through therapy, but the dissociation stayed. Make sure you're getting the right help! If you want anymore advice from someone who's been through the system and come out the other end, feel free to message me!
1 likeThank you! You have no idea how much your words mean to me, the Dodie fandom is so kind <3
0 likesI hope you recover well 💙💓💞💕💗💖💘
1 likeThank you Cherry xx
0 likeslivisauraus You know who the real mad one's are? The people who are obsessed by celebrity, sex, drugs, money, power..list goes on. It's the society as a whole that is sick. You are simply more aware and awake...because if you start paying attention, what most People talk about is just filler and meaningless conversation, There's nothing wrong with us. I've been in this "state" for a year now. Don't be uncomfortable about it..if others are uncomfortable with it it is only showing their own insecurities. Just be exactly how and what you are in any given situation. I often sit back and observe, listen a little and if there is anything important that actually needs to be said then I will speak, otherwise you are just stressing yourself out in order to not feel left out..forget it, you may even lose friends but that's fine, you don't need them anyway. Everything will fall into place. In other words..be yourself. Don't try to fit in.
0 likeslivisauraus I'd like to add that I'm struggling too, maybe trying to be overly positive, I know what you mean by not even registering what people are saying and generally being spaced out, like a 24/7 stoned state...I get it. It's pretty damn debilitating admittedly, and it's not fun or nice in anyway..I can probably relate more than I'd sometimes like to admit. I've struggled with anxiety and general social anxiety in the past but never like this, this is something different and far more dissatisfying, whacked, frightening and I feel like I've gone schizophrenic most of the time, like serious dissociation and a sense of complete and utter voidness and disconnection. I get no satisfaction or pleasure out of anything, just going through the motions in order to survive. That's real..more so than what I previously said.. it's just that most people don't get that at all and just think I'm being overly negative but it seems you probably get what I'm saying.
0 likesThank you for clarifying, I must've taken the wrong thing out of your message, I hope you feel ok soon <3
0 likeslivisauraus thanks...yeah I don't know what I'm saying half the time anyway.. it's like maniacal babble most the time so..haha..gotta try and laugh sometimes about it. Good luck to you too we'll make it.. it's actually good to know there are people who can relate to this. Not that I'd ever wish it upon anyone of course.
0 likesThe way Kati talks about trauma makes me think of concussions. Yes, having a car accident and getting a huge concussion can cause brain damage. But, like, football players get little concussions over and over again for years and have even worse brain damage ultimately.
0 likesi didnt even realize i was derealized until hearing you talk about it <3 thank you
0 likesThank you so much for sharing this Dodie!!
0 likesI've been through this for years and years.. Dreams feel more vivid.. Always derealized.. depersonalized comes with less sleep. I've thought about therapy. I hope it goes away. Love and peace to all.
0 likesI'm honestly feeling like this is the best community to explain to, and I hope someone understand.
0 likesSo basically, I've recently been less happy, and I don't feel like I'm myself any more; someone happy and sunshiny, and I don't enjoy anything anymore. I'm not sleeping, and I feel only happy + sad as emotions.
I also have anxiety; I have panic attacks once or twice a week, about things out of my control; often my emotions, my sexuality (I'm queer) or money/my family's money.
I'm honestly just scared. I don't know anymore. Can someone give advice?
im in a constant state of derealization, but it has recently gotten really bad. so i started looking up things about it and found out what DPDR is. so apparently constantly feeling like your in a dream isn't normal...
1 likeI'm glad Dodie was able to talk about this and help so many viewers. There is a lot of love in this comment section and I just want to contribute! For anyone who wants to read, this is just my two cents :)
0 likesI've personally experienced these things as well as many other things and I am living proof that you can get out of it! People that struggle with issues like these and anxiety and depression: there is nothing wrong with you! You aren't "sick" or anything! Mental imbalance, not illness, is natural in both a physical and spiritual realm. Experiences like these could be a result of sensitivity to the energy, vibration, and the auras of the people and the world around you. Humans are harmonious with Earth just like all animals are and because the Earth is going through a rough time, it is likely that the sensitive, highly intelligent people are empathizing with the planet. Have you ever heard the saying that there could never exist "a happy genius"? Never be quick to jump to the conclusion that you aren't mentally ill or that it is something bad...you could be going through a period of awakening! Remember that everything ends and when it does something else begins. You may not control the physical things in life but you have complete control of how you handle it. Here's some science: Did you know that water molecules hold memory and have proven, under a microscope, that it is affected by positive and negative energies? Bottled water that was in a room with angry, stressed out people showed to be ugly and warped on a molecular level. Your brain is made up of 90% water, so imagine what it is physically doing to your body! In other words, you manifest your own feelings and you are always in control! Besides, being 'normal' isn't always a good thing. You are never alone and don't let fear overwhelm you, sending love and peace to you all!
Whenever my depression gets worse, I get derealization. But I never knew it was a thing untill this video! I thought I was just going crazy. I remember sitting in my room and nothing felt like it was mine. It felt like I was in some wierd simulation of my own life. I just sat on my bed and cried because I'm used to feeling safe in my room and my house as a whole always feels very homey and it's a comfort for me, but in that moment I didnt have that comfort because nothing felt like mine and it really freaked me out.
0 likesI think I depersonalized once, I felt like my body didn't quite hold my soul, like it didn't fit me right. Like my soul was escaping my shape and hanging over my head and nothing felt real. I couldn't really process what was happening or what people said to me so I couldn't hold onto thoughts. I was like that for an entire day and it was horrible so it must really suck to have to deal with that regularly
0 likesWatching as I suffer from what I call ‘floaty brain’. Basically if I’m in a situation that I’m very uncomfortable, stressed or sad in, my brain just floats off and won’t focus on anything. I would describe it as like having a camera that just won’t focus and as soon as you get it, the focus is gone again. I’ve been really working on my mental health and anxiety lately and I’ve realized that I’ve been also able to reduce my floaty brain as a bonus!!!
0 likesI started having intense (to the point where I panic) derealization episodes since many years ago when I experimented with marijuana. It's always nice to understand that others deal with this and see how others explain it as well
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0 likesI realized about three months ago that I might suffer from derealisation. it was really scary at first but then i looked more into it and i think its just stemmed from anxiety. i have never really suffered with depression or serious trauma, so i still dont really understand where it is coming from. it tends to be worse when i am alone, being with my friends i dont really notice it but when i have been alone for a while i tend to just think to myself, oh i feel like i am dreaming right now. this awareness tends to make it worse generally. some days are better, some are worse. a lot of the time it feels like i am watching my life through a screen, its rlly weird. i dont think this is derealisation, but idk, does anyone know what it is?
0 likesFor me, it's like I'm watching the environment from a distance and I'm disconnected from my body. My limbs go numb and I can't taste, smell, hear, see or feel anything properly. It's frustrating honestly.
3 likesthis is hugely informative and quite fun, thank you <3
0 likesThis was so sweet and reassuring to watch. It made me cry, because I didn’t realize how prevalent this “I’m not really here” or “this doesn’t feel real” feeling was in me. I just couldn’t understand why I felt this disconnect. But I think I might be feeling this super regularly, which I’m coming to terms with and it’s pretty scary. You both have such an inviting warm energy, it made me feel so comfortable thank you!
0 likesThe Big T's and little t's thing suddenly made so much sense to me! I don't suffer from derealization or depersonalization, but a couple years ago I decided to write a short story about a strange experience I had with a sort-of-friend who'd wanted to date me and I'd turned him down. He'd hung a swing at my favorite park for me, and it was a whole mess, but looking back it was funny, so I wanted to record it. Bit by bit, though, while I was writing, I remembered little pieces of things he'd done that fall and another time, things I'd completely forgotten about.
0 likesThey were moments when he'd made me feel extremely uncomfortable and worried for my safety. Little t's, that had splintered throughout my consciousness that I had entirely suppressed until writing the short story opened the memories back up. They were still jumbled, time-wise, but I now remembered how he'd forced me to sit on the swing so he could push me while he verbally tore me apart for not liking him back, how he stopped the swing at one point with his hot hands on my shoulders and asked if I trusted him.
Another time I drove him home and he wouldn't get out of my car until I undid my seatbelt, and when I did he rested his hand over my heart, despite the fact I was pressed against the driver-side door to get away from him, and told me there'd always be some of him inside me. I'd never thought about self-defense strategies regarding someone I considered a friend before. I thought "if he tries to grab you, break his nose". He didn't. Nothing beyond those moments happened to me. Still, that was enough of a little trauma for me to completely forget it all happened for 6 months.
I never really understood/could make the distinction between these three terms, but this video helped a lot. In fact the definition of depersonalization sounded very familiar.
0 likesLove how honestly you talk about mental health, I've just done a video about my anxiety on my channel and REACH 500 SUBS BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS SO THANK YOU!!!!
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0 likesI HATE derealisation! But it is such a relief when I finally found out what to call it because up until very recently I didn't know what it was called and it was impossible to explain to people.
1 likeI have dissociation and derealization all the time. I don't remember the first half of my life because of it... it feels like you're super drunk and you can only recall small snippets of the night while forgetting other parts because you've blacked out.
0 likesThat's so awesome she specializes in self injury and eating disorders, that's so important
0 likesI do have this thing (both) and i’ve had it 24/7 for about 4 years now, it’s good there are treatments
0 likesOMG... I think I may have this... I go into this state of mind where it's feels like I'm dreaming and it's hard to control my body and what's going on... and I start to panic before and after it happenes... I have never heard of this and I thought it was just me... but like everyone thinks I'm crazy when I tell them
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to me , for some reason, i don’t feel like i have de-personalization attacks. i feel like i’m constantly depersonalized and i have a personalization attack 😂. that’s when i realize that i’m a person and i have been spaced out the entire time. does anyone relate ?
1 likei’m on sertraline !! it sort of helps for me but i’m in the same position with having no emotions rather than the ups and the downs that i used to have. but i’m going to my psychiatrist soon :)
0 likesthis video was very helpful. I have had a very hard time trying to find people I could connect with or finding out what I've been dealing with. I have struggle with really bad trama and realized as I got older things started to feel less and less real now it has come to a point where I literally feel as if I'm sleeping and I will never wake up. At first this worried me but now I have a better understanding of what it could be or what it might be. I didn't really notice it when I was younger but now that I think back I did struggle with especially after some pretty bad stuff happened. Thank you for such a helpful video.
0 likeswhen im sitting in class i feel like im just someone else whos pretending to be me
11 likesits not really like im acting its more like a video game and nothing really feels like it matters cause whats the worst thing that could happen if its all just a halluzination?
i feels like im reading a book of someone else but im not actually a character in the story
i dont have opinions on things
i dont enjoy doing things
and when i look at myself in the mirror it feels like im looking at someone else
i recently felt so disconnected from my childhood pictures and its not like i dont remember being a kid i just dont remember how it felt to be me
its almost like i died a while ago and i didnt notice it and now im just viewing the world as a ghost
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I am feeling exatly the same daamn thing ? Did you get over it btw?
0 likessometimes i feel like that too
0 likesIt's pretty interesting, I thought a few days ago why there seems to be such a huge difference between ''I can'' and ''I can't'' meaning how it feels when you think about something that you wanna do and you say it with one of those. And I'm thinking what if the T from can't actually comes from ''Trauma''.
0 likesIt kind of just feels like reality closes down on itself. I’ve started having it more after I had a bad high from smoking
0 likesI think I have both of these diseases, but I have them just in phases. I never got diagnosed with it, so I can't be sure, but what I feel fits perfectly to the description of Derealization and Depersonalisation.
0 likesWe need to talk about this more. Thank you
0 likesI love this video
0 likesDodie is the only youtuber I know who has this and speaks openly about it
I LOVE U so much I never thought someone would go through the same things n kind of think the same as me u r my inspiration and one of my fav youtubers
3 likesmy derealisation is always triggered when i'm forced to perform in front of large groups of people whether that be for a drama piece or playing the guitar. this makes it hard for me to remember what im doing because i instantly go into dream mode and everything around me gets number and darker.
0 likes9 years of this feeling. Just now learned what it is..... Wow
2 likesI am self diagnosed as a person with depersonalization, I don't really experience derealisation but I guess that doesn't mean anything is wrong. This video was a lot of help
0 likesoh gosh i've been struggling with derealisation for nearly four years now and this is the first time i've ever been given any solid advice on how to get help aaaaa thank u both so much!
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Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesA thing I do when I'm spaced out is 'grounding'. Find 5 things you can touch, 4 things you can see, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and 1 thing you can taste. It helps me a lot.
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Lana Moore that's similar to what i do :) I eat something Really cold or spicey. Or dance while listening to my favourite song. Or pet my cat and Things like that. And I exercise. I don't know Why but sport Really Really helps in those situations. It kind of helps me to Connect with my body and mind and just grounds me :)
1 likeLana Moore thank you!!! ❤️
1 likeThank you for sharing!! These are great grounding techniques!! xoxo
1 likei tried talking to a doctor that is specifically taught to deal with mental health problems, i told her my problems about derealization and that it started before covid and then she goes
0 likes"covid might have caused it, its been a rough 2 years for everyone"
alright great when a doctor denies what you feel and says the complete opposite of what you did
I have depersonalization and its really weird. it feels like I'm just not present, but I kind of am. its hard too describe it too someone who doesn't have it, but you explained it perfectly.
0 likesI hate Depersonalisation. I zone out, feeling numb and presser on the body then feeling like things are not real and that your body is not real. I had it when I was 5 and up. I can feel it starting up again
2 likesok im literally in tears right now bc of this video <3 this helped so much
5 likesCan you have the text stay up for a bit longer on your videos please? I've noticed a few youtubers recently started making text come and go quite quickly and it's not always possible to pause the video fast enough to read the text . Especially important for something that is giving context and Wil make it more accessible to people. Thanks!
85 likesMy friend came through that, when she was going through anxiety episode, she had plenty panic attacks and couldn’t go out without feeling detached from the world, she told me that she have felt like she was dreaming, like the ground was falling down from her feet and the same with looking in the mirror- she wasn’t recognising herself, she was seeing another woman. Scary as fukkk and honestly after all the conversations I had with my friend I feel so bad for people with panic attacks and disorders mentioned. I mean, I wish my friend didn’t go through this sht and I can’t possibly imagine how it is like to live like this for more than a year or two.
0 likesI have depersonalization, I am so glad I'm not alone! Can't belive you had this too!
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Also, anybody who has this should try meditation. Whenever I haven't meditated I feel more depersonalization than when I ground myself and mediate, still feel it but not as bad.
0 likesMy latest depressive episode gave me the top two descriptions more than I realized at the time. It's easy to feel suicidal if nothing feels real anyway. I wish my brain was different in a few ways.
0 likesI've always said it feels like I'm always dreaming ever since I was little when you mentioned that it made me realize what might be happening in my mind
1 likeHonestly you have no idea how much it helped me to finally put a name on what I’ve been feeling for the past 2 years
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Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likesI have anxiety/ptsd the worse thing ever is "depersonalisation disorder" I get from it. It is so scary that the best way I could describe it is you feel like you are in VR game but you are actually are in the real world but it's scary because you want to turn off vr mode but you can't. But the good thing you can recover from it, I have. It is the body's defence mechanism to disassociate with the world so your mind can cope with the stress. If you continually tell yourself you are OK and make yourself feel good even if you don't, your body will gradually learn you really are ok and then take you off vr mode! But I stress it is gradual because it is a learning behaviour or retraining of the brain that you are not in danger anymore
1 likethank you for this video♥
0 likesI had derealisation. I was thinking I'm going insane or something. Now I know not alone with it (sorry for my bad english)
I have a question. So sometimes when I’m in a car or on a bus, I get this weird feeling. It’s only happened when it’s moving. My brain feels fuzzy, my eyelids feel heavy and I have an extremely difficult time trying to keep them open. I feel kind of disconnected when this happens. When get out of the bus or car it goes away. This has happened for a couple months. Thoughts?
0 likesI think I have derealisation and I think I have for alot of my life. For me because of this school can make me quite anxious and to hide how I'm feeling I just tend to act up around my friends and be confident and obnoxious and be a goof because then I don't have to deal with it. I definitely don't have a full blown anxiety disorder though. I think because i feel like I'm always dreaming, I get anxious that I'm going to bump into to someone or say the wrong thing. That sort of thing. And to ground me, I always have my gryffindor scarf as being a huge potter head (and proud) Having a harry potter item helps me to ground and focus.
0 likesI found this after searching up about why I feel as if I'm just an audience unpassionately watching the show that is my life and that I'm not the person I see in the mirror and this video has been so useful for thank you!
0 likesI was wondering if I have some sort of derealisation or depersonalisation. Sometimes everything around me becomes extremely fast and extremely loud and intense. Time seems to fly and all sounds seem hyper aggressive. At the same time my own movements become super slow. It's so weird and I can't even explain it but I feel very uncomfortable whenever I get it.
0 likesThis is so helpful! Thanks Dodie ^-^
0 likesmy family and i want to consider private, but it’s very expensive so for anyone — like myself — can’t afford it, i’d recommend getting a referral from a gp and finding any kind of specialist. this has a similar effect to private therapy but it’s more affordable :)
0 likesi started feeling this like 6 months ago and its been 24/7, ive been drinking heavily everynight for the past 2 years and im almost 99% sure thats what brought it on, but it goes away when i drink
0 likesYou're explanation is very accessible, and nearly make it sound valid. It's just that last little leap, to believe what you're saying is a valid way of looking at someone's abnormal behaviour.
0 likesI disassociate literally almost every day. I told my therapist and she asked me if I heard voices in my head. I think she was thinking of dissociative identity disorder (DID). Should I explain it to her or just kind of leave it?
0 likesI'm not gonna say I have this stuff, but I tend to have episodes where everything feels like a dream and very distant. For a while I would have small moments of depersonalization, and during school years, I would have up to almost a month at a time or at least most of a week I will/would just have empty busy times. In those times I just go through life without thinking and barely remember what happens when I come out of it. I get really touchy a lot and I have a friend who used to physically latch onto people and when she did that to me, I got stressed and had that distant feeling and that feeling usually meant in a few days I would have those empty periods of time.
7 likesI don't know, though. Just don't attack me, because I'm only saying I have similar experiences and am very paranoid and idk why, but I'm not going to diagnose myself.
My doctor prescribed me 50mg Sertraline for anxiety, taking that tablet was one of the worst experiences ive ever had. It was horrendous. The side effects are not worth it.
0 likesI have always felt out of place because of how my head and body reacts to things. I can be among friends and then I just leave my body, I am still in control of movements, but talking and laughing and having emotions is impossible. I can just sit and stare, not really feeling like I am myself. I have never heard about depersonalisation or the other two, but now kind of understand what is happening inside of me, and that it is not just me, but that it is a real thing. Thank you for this.
0 likesPersonally, I was put on Zoloft and started on 50mg and within a month I gradually moved to 200mg. It was terrible. So, I completely understand what you mean.
0 likesThis is so informative! Thanks Dodie!
0 likesdoes anyone know if this can sometimes be linked to sleep paralysis?? I've experienced depersonalzation at night and I don't feel that it's linked to anything traumatic for me. but my brain gets foggy and I can move my hands but they don't feel like mine so I move them way too quickly. it's really trippy so I turn all my lights on and become wide awake before trying to sleep again because I don't want it to lead to sleep paralysis.
0 likesI feel as if I own many different personality traits. After googling this the only thing that was relative was the dissociative identity disorder, however I do not feel as if I am the body of many different people as such, and over all I am just well, me. But I have days where I seem to feel like being hardcore about my fitness and I want to be my healthiest and best looking self, yet other days I do not seem to have the slightest worry about my appearance and take on a 'hippie' identity. I also feel like I want to dress with many branded clothing's- stereotypical 'road man' as some may say, however on occasion envy to be 'edgy' and care free, wearing flared trousers and overalls. This results in issues such as the way I want my room to look, for example, when I am feeling spiritual and 'hippie', I want my room to be covered in tapestries and filled with colour, yet when I switch and want to be seen in a 'girly' way, I hate the way I changed my room when I was feeling that specific, initial way the previous day. Many other issues result from this confusion, and so I am determined to find out why this happens to me and if others may feel the same. Any advice or relation would be a huge help. Thankyou:) I posted this to a question and answer website, before coming across this video and I thought it could be what I think I have- which again I do not relate to fully.. Thought I may get some answers on here too?
0 likesThis made me realize that I was going through this all the time when i was younger like i would look in the mirror and see someone else or i wasnt living my life
0 likesThis video has really educated me, I feel sorry for dodie because I can't even imagine what it would be like to always be derealized. Like, how does dodie even sing and smile and dance around if she feels like that all the time?? Poor dodie :(
1 likethank you for educating us
6 likesI suffer from Derealistion and sometimes Depersonalisation since I smoked Cannabis. Also, sometimes I have anxiety/depression and on some days insomnia. It was way worse but I still feel it and I really really suffer from it, I wish I could turn back the time to make it unhappen... Its more dangerous than a lot of people think. Be careful. Now it‘s 6 months ago :(
0 likesHi there! Thought I might as well share my story and spread hope to those who need it. Sorry that this is so long ;;;
0 likesI am 12 years old, becoming 13 in about 2 weeks! Last year in 6th grade, I dealt with awful DPDR.
October 27th, 2017, around 6-8 pm. Since it was nearing Halloween, my school set up a ‘Harvest Fest’ where you dress up and go hang out with your friends, and play a bunch of games. I was sitting with my mom, after eating some food. I suddenly felt very off, very stressed. I thought I was going to pass out, so I ran outside, my mom following me in annoyance. She was mad because I left my best friend all alone, but I was in the middle of a panic attack, without me even knowing. I didn’t feel the waves of anxiety, because I had barely experienced anxiety until that moment. I couldn’t figure out what I was feeling. I calmed down, and I decided to go find my sister and forget about it. We were waiting in line for something and I suddenly felt like I was in a dream. I sat down, my mom still annoyed because I had wasted so much time dwelling on this feeling. I begged her to go home early, and that I really didn’t feel good. I wish I saw the storm that was going to hit.
I thought that it was just exhaustion, after all, I had a long day at school, and I probably didn’t sleep well. My mom was mad that she used money on me, and I spent like an hour there. Also the fact that I ditched my friend.
I then went to a maze with my church friends that weekend. In the middle of the maze, I felt that feeling come on again.
“Carly, I feel like I’m going to pass out.” I tell my youth leader. She stops and holds my hand until we regroup with the rest of the group. After what felt like ages, we finally got on the bus and left. It’s all a blurry mess. I barely remember it, I just remember the fear I felt when I felt that feeling.
That feeling, I called ‘dizziness’, not knowing how to describe it. A few months go by, and I start experiencing panic attacks in the hall ways at school. I didn’t know this was anxiety yet. I kept going to the nurse saying I was ‘dizzy’. My mom set up a plan with my principals because she was concerned about how often my attacks were coming. We had seen multiple doctors, all because I didn’t know what it was. Winter break finally came, and I cracked it. My sister told me about how in her middle school years, she had experienced panic attacks and DPDR. I did my own research, and boom I found my answer. I went back to school from winter break, a shaking ball of anxiety, in fear of my next panic attack. The next few months were incredibly blurry. My anxiety was so severe that I was always shaking and crying and nauseous. I could barely go outside because the derealization made me so terrified. Everytime I looked outside, it all looked unreal. I would skip meals, I would barely eat. I lost a ton of weight, including all my muscle weight. I was nothing but a ball of anxiety. I had a few panic attacks every week. And some weeks I’d get so unlucky that I would have a panic attack a day. School became a nightmare, as I spiraled into more and more panic attacks, eventually bringing my mom to school because I was so scared. I avoided so many classes, such as PE, I avoided recess, lunch, all because I thought that all the noise and chaos would cause me to panic. I now see that I wasn’t actually scared of the noise, I was scared of the panic I would feel. It got so severe (keep in mind that through all of this my family was trying their best to help me, and I was getting counseling) that I lost my personality. I lost my happiness. I lost it all. DPDR overcame my life, every single second of the day was me worrying about that feeling of dreaming. I related panic attacks and DPDR to death..
but wait. There’s always a light ahead.
I kept seeing my counselor, I kept visiting with my principals. I never thought that this could happen. But I began to cope with it. I found tricks and tools to distract myself, and my best friend was there for me through it all. She would sit there and hug me as I cried on her shoulder. She would tell me that everything was going to be okay. She made me laugh while I was bawling my eyes out. She made me go outside at recess, which I hated her for that. At first I was so scared, I would not let her leave me alone for more than a minute. I became so dependent on her. But she began to leave me alone more and more, and I obeyed. I let her go and play with her other friends. And she gave me the time I needed to think. Then after recess was over, she’d walk me right back to line and we’d walk inside together. Eventually, I’d wave goodbye to her, as she played with her other friends, and I would visit with some of my friends. Lunch got a lot easier, and I was able to sit with all my other friends. I became stronger, and DPDR would try and ruin it. I put it at the back of my mind. And it worked. I stopped dwelling on it. I got up, and kept walking.
Now here I am. Almost a year of suffering with DPDR. Now, when I feel DPDR, I welcome it. I’m not scared of it anymore.
It’s so insane how I got so low, that I related this horrible feeling to death. And now I can just say a little “hello, can you leave for a second?” Whenever I feel it come on.
It’s hard. But you can get through it. Do not ever give up. DPDR is only a feeling, and it is uncomfortable, but eventually it’ll go away, you just need to let go.
I especially liked the part beginning at 7:23...
0 likesA truly helpful visualization!
I have depersonalization and derealization too ❤️️❤️️✊🏼
0 likesI don't have derealisation/depersonalisation nor does anyone I know but I'm here ready to LEARN
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Ruth Webster As someone with very bad DP and DR, I'm very happy you want to learn! :D It's so hard to deal with an illness that isn't as well known as ect depression cause people look at you as if you're insane. You seem like a cool person :)
12 likesHECK YEAH
2 likesIt's been 4 years for me, thank you thank you for speaking out depersonalization! I relate some much for wanting to feel something familiar. You keep thinking you have to go back, somewhere. Gosh girl keep strong, don't know how you are now but I am wachting this in 2018.
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How are you doing now?
0 likes@Lily Stultz hey! I'm still in it for the majority of the day, but I have learned to live with it more, although it is very exhausing especially trying to explain it. Funny I saw this notification coming in just yet. Diet helps, a lot. Why do you ask? Do you experience it was well?
0 likes@Pauline Baets yes I’m currently going through it as well for a second time. If I may ask how old were you when it started and what caused it ? What have you tried to help it ?
0 likes@Lily Stultz Second time as in an episode? I haven't experienced those, for me it's almost a permanent state. What caused it was a burn-out, but I am almost sure I lived inside my head most of my life, so it's hard to pin-point. I had a moment where I didn't recognize myself when looking back in the mirror it was awful. Since then it has never really gotten to a point where I do, but I am getting closer. I was 22, now just turned 29, a very hard journey. if you want we can talk on telegram? Hope you are doing okay x
0 likes@Lily Stultz And before that trauma, I've never had a mom and was left in the hospital after birth for a few months so I think it had to do with me not being able to ground from basically the beginning..
0 likes@Lily Stultz How old are you?
0 likes@Pauline Baets I experienced it for the first time when I was 17 for about 2-3 months and recovered, went 2 years without it and now a stressful event triggered it again and it’s been alittle over 3 months and I’m still in the depths of it. Im terrified I won’t recover from it this time.
1 like@Lily Stultz Sounds awful I am sorry to hear it. Look up monocular hydrogen it is helping me currently. I'm doing breathing and drinking the water from Holy Hydrogen, but it's very expensive. It opens op my brain slightly.
0 likesWhat do you experience, like do you forget everything? I do all the time, but it used to be worse. It's scary. You've snapped out of it before so it will happen again at some point! I would say the beginning for me was 90% and now it's about 40%. There are so many versions of depersonalization. If you want to talk more just reach out.
Kati, what do you think about Exposure therapy, when having derealisation/depersonalisation?
0 likesI'm pretty sure I have at least a minor form of derealization cause for a few years I've been feeling so out of it all the time, I constantly feel like I'm asleep, even my vision and hearing seem worse than before (a lot of times when I'm talking it feels like ny voice is coming from somewhere in the distance) and anything I feel or should be feeling is barely existent, I feel numb most of the time. I also always forget things I don't know if it's a side effect, but I literally just forgot what I was writing.
0 likesThe thing is, I can't think of anything that would be the cause of this. The only trauma in my life was my dad leaving us, but I was little and don't remember feeling that terrible or anything.
what a wonderfully coherent and educational video!
0 likesThose 10.5 minutes ended and I was like WHAT. THAT'S IT. I could have listened for three more hours.
83 likesYeah I didnt know there was a word for this, it's weird to hear someone explain a phenomenon you experience all the time and have tried to explain to others
0 likesoh my god this happened to me for like 2 hours a week ( sometimes more ) at a scout meeting because the people there were people who i didnt get along with ( Whole large can of worms, i promise its a whole lot worse that that ) got it sucked, they kept like almost yelling at me to pay attention and I couldnt get an expression or emotion to appear on my face or for myself, it sucked and I couldnt really feel, and then I would get really sad suddenly for a couple of minutes, and then I was really happy and hyperactive for the rest of the meeting
0 likesargued w/ my mom after a couple of months but i finally got out of it omg it sucked so bad, but now ( according to my mom ) Im the happiest iv ever been
I do feel a lot better tho
very grateful my mom got me out of there- O have really bad anger issues and was very close to snapping multiple times
this video is what made me realize i wasn't going crazy. i had this for nearly 2 years before watching this and finding out what it was.
0 likesI had this since one month ago because of my first smoke of weed, the right thing it’s that i don’t have it all the day, it just comes whenever it wants to appear like I don’t control it, but i don’t have it all the day so that makes me feel more connected but yeah, i can say that it’s like you’re in someone else’s body but with their information and their remembers.
1 likeI’m gonna go this Wednesday to my first therapy I hope it helps to me
You're comment at 2:40 about liking having ups and downs because it at least meant you could feel reminds me of the song "I Miss the Mountains" from Next to Normal. Great show about some really difficult topics. Check it out.
3 likesyeahhh i heard you say sertraline and just wanted to add my lil ~two cents~ and say that i was on sertraline for like two years for anxiety and it just kinda suppressed it, basically i could still feel it to the same extent as before but just couldn't really have full anxiety attacks, it would just come out in small daily bursts and i had to stop public school because of it
0 likesstraight up also ruined my mind, my depression flared up rly bad, the cognitive part of my brain kinda stopped working as well (it got really hard to focus and long story short i basically couldn't properly read for a year), i zone out more, and just a lot of bad things bc of it,,, i'm honestly convinced a large part of it is because sertraline isn't FDA approved for general anxiety in my age group (it's only kid-and-teen-approved for OCD)
or just in the words of my music instructor, zoloft and prozac kill creativity
I have both. I've had panic attacks before because of school. I felt like I was floating and dreaming a bit. It was really scary at first. I felt like I was going to pass out.
0 likesOmggg it's Kati AND dodie! I love you both and have watched your videos before, didn't know you knew each other!!!?! What a lovely surprise
0 likesThis happened to me for about a month. Everything felt weird and fake, Like a dream. I never had any trauma, so why did it happen to me?
2 likesIm going through derealization right now and it’s definitely a scary experience. I think talking to someone who is going through the same problems as me will help. So hmu
0 likesThanks so much for making this, it's great information. Extra thank you for the TMS clinic link, I'll pass it on as I know of a few people who like me didnt even know if it was available here <3
0 likesI literally took edibles and had the most traumatizing experience in my life. Now I feel like I have derealization and I’m not connected with everyone 😭. I feel terrible. It’s just a constant battle with me and my brain including anxiety.
0 likesSome people say the Linden method helps . Thanks for explaining why the mind creates feelings of unreality as a response to things being overwhelming
0 likesThis helped me a lot, I've recently been feeling a lot of depersonalization, I don't feel like myself, when I sing I don't sound like myself when I talk it doesn't seem like my voice, it's such a strange feeling, I just don't feel like me?.
0 likesI would always experience derealization a few days after smoking weed, it was absolutely terrible. I stopped completely, thank god. Then again, I could be completely wrong because my childhood was very traumatic.
0 likesI've only really come across depersonalisation and derealisation from this channel, and fairly recently. A little while ago I remember an Instagram post from dodie, and the caption was about derealisation, and I remember just thinking.. oh. I never really noticed it before but I kinda of zone in and out of the world without realising, but even then I thought it was just me being spacey until a little while ago. I was sitting in my room, playing just an average, repetitive game, and I suddenly realised how detatched I felt from just.., everything, I guess? It was like my emotions had just disappeared and I was just on autopilot. I played that game (bearing in mind it was iloveyoulikeafatladylovesapples.com) for over half an hour, until I messaged my friends because I thought something might be a bit wrong.
0 likesI don't know whether I actually have it, but my friend says the symptoms align, and I found that noise really helped me. Like I had zero motivation to talk aloud, but then (this is going to sound sappy I'm sorry) I started playing music, and would you be so kind came on, and I just started quietly singing because it's like instinct for me, and I kinda came to myself a bit more?? Sorry, this post is a mess. But yeah, I think I'm going to look into it a bit more
I’m pretty sure that I fall under the derealization but not depersonalization category (unless I drink, which Im not a big fan of).
0 likesIt’s in waves and especially when I’m driving (probably not the best timing) BUT I enjoy the feeling.
I feel calm, safe and separated from reality. I DO have to open my eyes a bit but I’m not sure if I feel like I’ll fall asleep or if I’m trying to wake up?
It IS VERY common that I believe dreams are real memories and vis versa!
It happens also if people are having intense conversations with me and I have to act like I’m intensely listening but I’ve disconnected. It also takes over with sickness but especially death.
I never knew it was different than how other people process..
thank you for this informative video
I don’t know if I’ll do anything with the information but just knowing that it’s not as common as I thought is interesting.
Sometimes I feel really detached from my surroundings and my self but I don't think I have dp/dr. Sometimes I wonder if I have social anxiety as I really struggle in social situations, like my stomach knots up and I sometimes I feel like I'm gonna cry or throw up. I don't have many friends because i never speak up or get involved at school and I blush when I do... or maybe I'm just nervous... idk??
12 likesPs this video was lovely and you two are adorable 💗
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Anxiety and panic attacks can cause dissociation (which is sort of the umbrella term for DPDR). it can come and go in association with other diagnosis.. I hope that helps and makes sense :) xoxo
4 likesKati Morton wow, thank you I never knew that! Thank you so much for your reply, you're lovely 💗
1 likeHas anyone else experienced this, where you feel insanely disconnected from everything and everyone. Like those few seconds where you’ve questioned life too hard and you suddenly realize that you’re alive and you’re a person and you’re technically insignificant. But then that little spaced out moment grows and suddenly it’s all the damn time. You look at your friends and the connection you have feels like one of a stranger. You look at them like “who are you??” It’s the same with family as well. Like after a good film or book when you’re adjusting back into your own world and everything in reality seems distant. It’s almost like you’re unsure of where your soul lies in your body.
0 likesI’ve never done drugs lol.
I’m gonna think about it more and talk to my therapist about this new feeling but I’d like to know if anyone understands.
Absolutely brilliant, thank you so much for posting, going to check both your channels 👍🏻
0 likesWhen I'm in situations that make me anxious (like being in crowds or presenting a speech) I do that thing where you don't feel like you and the words come out of your mouth but it doesn't feel like your actually saying anything or thinking of what your saying or doing it just happens. ? My mind just feels completely disconnected when it happens. Would this be depersonalisation? Knowing what it is would be really helpful
0 likesI am currently dealing with the same thing, except I’m not taking any medications. I haven’t told anyone except for a close friend, (who suggested this video to me). I relate greatly to things you have said. I used to have lots of anxiety around people, but now I’m basically watching myself with other people, not controlling myself. I’ll say things and then I’ll think “who is saying this? This isn’t me” and I just can’t control it. I also understand what you mean by not feeling any emotions. I find myself not caring about anything anymore, not feeling that anxiety in my chest when I’m stressed, or feel happy when people tell a funny joke. It’s all just a mask so people don’t get offended if I don’t laugh at a joke, or I just want to make someone feel better and don’t actually physically feel bad for them like I used to. (Physically meaning like if you get that feeling of excitement and your whole body wakes up or when you’re sad and you feel like you’re in the worst health ever.) I feel like one of those androids. That I’m just... a thing. Programmed to have a “personality”. Not feeling emotions. That I’m not a human being. That I’m not alive. That I’m just... there.
0 likesIf you’ve read this entire thing, I appreciate you taking the time to hear the story of some random person on the internet. I am only a teenager, so I don’t really have the confidence to tell anyone who can actually help me and get a therapist, so I do research like this. I appreciate this video so much, it helps me understand what I am going through.
I disassociate a lot when I run, but I never find it unpleasant. It's actually nice because I don't feel the pain of running.
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Ender Wiggins I think that's the normal kinda zoning out you get when you're doing something repetitive? I do that when I draw, and I don't realise until I put my pencil down, but when I get anxious I can literally feel myself disconnect from my own body and sink into the back of my mind. It's a scary feeling when that happens
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0 likesFor me it happens when I’m learning in class, it’s really bad because as I start to panic I scratch my arm until it bleeds because I get really nervous, I need to stop that.
0 likesYour videos help me so much. This feeling is too much. I feel so helpless
0 likesThe marble explaination is scarily accurate, one that is very big for me is like if I find a perfume I wore at a period of time and steel it it brings me straight back to how I was feeling at the time and it's very scary
0 likesI've always struggled to understand what is wrong with me, what's happened to me, and I could never understand... Everything in this video has happened to me.. I am scared to ask my mom to go to the doctor for this .. Idk what to do.
0 likesSome occasions it happened was two car crashes, stress during exam times and before my driving exam.. but sometimes it'd just happen because if depression
This video was really helpful. I don't feel that I have two personalities, but I often feel as if I've locked another version of myself in a room somewhere and force him to bottle up all of his emotions and never let them out just so I can walk around unburdened and numb.
1 likeKind of like automatically numbing all negative emotions and bottling them under extreme pressure and never letting them out, only building more walls around them. If I'm feeling emotionally distressed within an hour or so I will be back to being numb and logical, as if the thing never bothered me at all. Pretending like you feel nothing definitely still hurts you, even if at a subconcious level.
This is probably stemming from emotional trauma I had as a child, and I'm planning on starting therapy next year.
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THIS
0 likesFor me my dreams and real life are so mixed and when I look at myself I look so different
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Bvaddie :c same
0 likesI think I have a small form of depersonalization, when having a panic attack if I look in the mirror I don't look like myself and I just freeze up and stare at my reflection. Can anyone relate? I didn't have a word for it until now.
1 likeI learned a lot from this. Thanks!
0 likesThank youuuu this was so helpful to me and I've sent it to my boyfriend so he can understand better
0 likesLol - I have these and have had them for years. I'm talking from before I was even 11 years old. I have physical illnesses and have been told that they're all due to mental illness before which is not true and so now I'm terrified to talk to a doctor about my mental health problems which has escalated to a point where I have suicidal urges on a daily basis.
1 likeI would really like to see a doctor to see if I actually have this. But my parents would be mad at me for asking... Idk what to do!!!
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Your mental health is what matters most!
6 likesI feel the SAME WAY ! Help
2 likesAww try to ask n say it’s something else then when u get into a therapist tell them the real reason
1 like@Maša Dragana Stanisavljević mental health is most important. I was in your shoes 9 years ago when i was 15. And i never got help and here i am 9 years later experiencing life through the same glass wall
2 likesDepersonalisation is what happens to me since i can remember myself and when i was little i thought that it happened to everyone little did i know.
0 likesOH my goodness. This helps me so much, thank you for sharing!!!
0 likesWish there was help like Kati out there for everyone =/
0 likesI've done 40 sessions of TMS and while it helped my depression unfortunately it doesn't last....
It helped a lot!!Thank you❤❤❤❤
1 likethank you so much for this, dodie! ❤️💙💚💛💜🖤💗💝
3 likesI had derealisation for 10 months. It gets better and now i no longer deal with it. Guys it does get better, so just keep going.
0 likesI used to be really depersonalized (is that a word? Lol), but since I started taking b12 supplements I started feeling much better, I hope it works for me.
0 likes(I’m not saying that works for everybody, but in my specific case it has helped me, since I am vegetarian and was possibly deficient)
I remember I would get dissociated or feel derealized all the time about a year or two ago, it sucked pretty bad.
0 likesHi Dodie, I suggest you try Yoga and meditation. It helps with grounding and being in the now. It helps me a lot. Love you.
0 likesI feel like I have derealisation allll the time I feel like I'm in a dream all the time and my friends think I'm weird for it...anyone else?
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Kie T yeah. I think I have derealisation a lot but when I'm not, I'm just nothing. I don't feel. It's weird and lots of my friends have depression so understand what I mean but they don't understand it's confusing and I'm rambling and making no sense.
1 likeLucas M I sometimes feel that way whilst high and have breaks from smoking during those periods (usually when life is hard and i get paranoid af) but rarely feel that way apart from after terrible days or bad news... it sometimes does but i'm not sure it's linked to smoking but stress/anxiety which i suffer from a lot..have you had any treatment or is it solely linked to smoking?
0 likesI have cptsd dissociation and when my depression is bad I can get depersonalization & derealization really bad it's like being isolated in a bubble and there is no feeling of reality like watching a tv screen being projected onto another screen it all feels weird and not right. As a little kid I did not recognise myself in the mirror either and hated my reflection, avoided it activily for most of my childhood. Also have a very stong sense of what I look like, and it's not what I really look like outside, internally I see myself totally differntly. I witnessed alot of violent fights between my parents as a very small child.....my dad was alcaholic or self medicating with alcahol and my mum has undiagnosed mental illness so she was always going balistic at him. It often got physical and my mum would often storm out the house screaming she was going to kill herself and drive off like a bat out of hell not retun for hours. I think i was still in diapers then so under 3.....it contiued until i was older, by mid teens it was not as violent anymore but still they argued constanly which triggered me.....i once had to jump out the car as an adult to vomit when home to visit, when they started argueing like they used to in the front of car, an emotional flashback i guess. I also get a very weird thing happen to me sometimes......as I am walking I see someone I look at them and study them I spiral into thoughts about who they are why they are dressed that way speculation about their lives etc and comparing them to me and also making judgements about them. All this happens as they walk by and as they keep going and get further away from me I feel like something inside me is being pulled along with them and I get a physical impulse to follow them and it's a real wrench to pull away and break free of that spell and carry on my own way instead. Is this part of all this......or is that a hyper focus thing?....I also have adhd. I use a small stone or i squeeze my hands alot....maybe that is a way for me to ground. Really fantastic video, thankyou......I was really freaked out when I discovered what this was I was experiencing I am glad I am not alone with it anymore. :)
0 likesI get this sometimes,mostly because I feel I fall short. This is why I put so much of my self worth in my employers hands, my boyfriend and your music has helped with this.
0 likesI see you have done many on this horrible condition and I thank you. Mine is so bad when I get it I would never be able to smile or talk on camera, so it's strange to me to see someone that is able to do that while having it. I'm guessing there are many different degrees of this condition. And I have never received trauma therapy and never considered small "T"s. I've taken Benzo's for this for many years now. Would love to get to the root of it.
0 likesThank you again for continuing to present educational videos and for being YOU, Katie. When I'm having bad anxiety I will often just turn on some of your videos as you are so calming.
thank you so much for this, 💛
6 likesIve had dpdr for a while and it's finally Fading and I feel a bit more connected idk if I'll ever get there fully but at least it's getting better
0 likesI love videos like this as some therapists just sit there and listen and don’t explain things like this...
0 likesAlso be aware that it could be caused by an underlying disease like autonomic dysfunction
1 likei don't suffer with depersonalisation/derealisation but this video was SO interesting as someone who literally envies kati's job (i'm doing a BSc honours degree in 'psychology with counselling' so maybe one day i'll be a licensed counsellor/therapist!!!) and as someone who has depression and anxiety/ptsd. love love love your mental health vids dodie x
0 likes😊 Kati seems so lovely and kind
18 likesthis is so helpful, thank u so much~ glad i'm not the only one feeling this way.
0 likesI’m having a bit of a struggle getting my parents to comprehend that depersonalisation is real- if anyone with super strict parents has figured out a way to get treated pls contact meee
0 likesAfter suffering from extreme DP/DR for more than 20 years...i have found the cure. Im like 90% cured.
0 likes1. Affirmations (repeating words/phrases that directly address the thing that made you dissociate in the first place)
2. Aswagandha (calms you down)
3. Meditation (re-connects/re-wires your brain and calms you down)
4. C.B.D Oil (calms you down)
DP/DR is part anxiety and part trauma. Dealing with anxiety will eliminate most of it if not all
Ah hey it's Kati, when I watched Shane's series I completely forgot I'd seen her before in dodie's video
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Holy Howell SAME
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1 likeSame but I'm confused between the sociopath thing and this
3 likesOmg I was looking to see if anyone else noticed this
0 likesI like that Katie talked about T and t
0 likesBecause looking back on my trauma I think all my traumas where t that just built up and make my disorders. But once talking to my therapist about my trauma her reactions to it made me realize those were a lot of T and then a lot of t
Do you think that derealisation can happen when you're simply tired? Cause I don't have any mental problems (I used to have, so I know that right now I'm ok), but I often feel like everything around me was a dream :P
0 likesI always have derealization, its not fun. I dissociate quite a bit as well and sometimes that couples with depersonalization which is quite honestly tortuous for me and I always have just thought something was wrong with me. I've suffered with it since I was about 3 and I have entire chunks of time that I cant recall (ex: I cant recall any of my middle school years.) It is so incredibly relieving to know I'm not alone in this.
0 likesi didnt know what it was at the time but i had long phases of depersonalisation between the ages of 14-16. i thought i was just depressed. i used to sit in the mirror and draw my face over and over. now looking at those drawings is terrifying bc i can feel exactly how i felt in that moment (also because theyre a bit shit lol). i dont know how or why it went away. i think it might have had to do with me starting a new school so my brain was like “cool, a new environment... i feel safer here” but idk. i just hope i never feel like that again
0 likesWait I just realized this is Kati from Shane’s series...
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YES
2 likesI JUST DID THE SAME THING
1 likeno wonder she looks familiar
5 likesReading your comment made me realise this
1 likethis video really validated my feelings thank you <3
0 likesThis video was so...educational and interesting. Like even if you don't have derealisation/depersonalization or mental illnesses it's good to watch. Honestly there needs to be more videos on mental illness because people fail to understand that it's not controllable sometimes and that you don't have to have trauma to cause it. It'd be nice if people tried to understand how difficult it is to get up in the morning and sometimes we're incapable of doing things because our own brain stops us from this. I was hit with OCD(a form of anxiety), bipolar depression, and sensory overload(your brain amplifies certain sounds and or visuals like chewing, slurping, plates clanking, high voices, bright lights, etc. and it irritates you to the point of anger and frustration) when growing up. It was the result of genetics, abuse, neglect, and trauma. Dodie was one of the reasons I even got help. My OCD comes into contact with my depression at times. My OCD, when rituals are broken, everything feels uncomfortable and I get angry and smash things or feel like something bad will happen. Then I have a mood swing from sad, happy, or energetic. I'm at my best when I'm energetic but that too can be a problem. I sometimes spend money I don't have or do things I'm incapable of. The depression is extremely difficult and I've endangered my own life numerous times but I'm better now and still getting better. When I first told my doctor about my symptoms I was so scared because my family didn't and still doesn't really understand mental illnesses and I'm thankful for how understanding my doc and therapist is. It's getting better and whatever you're going through, you will get through. If you try. And trust me it's worth trying. It's hard fighting with your own brain everyday but you CAN do it. 💖💖
0 likesMy trauma is from bullying,in primary school I was bullied every single day, from day one to the last day sometimes only a few comments and sometimes I was beaten up or surrounded by bullies and shouted at, in highschool it was just as bad so for basically years I was bullied non stop, beaten physically on a few occasions and emotionally isolated from my entire peer group, I'm nearly twenty and still have severe night terrors sometimes though not as bad as it used to be, I also have had bad relationships and interactions with other men when I identified as my birth sex, trauma really likes to pile up and it affects me now when I meet new people or talk to anyone, even family.
0 likesThank you, thank you, thank you for this video - from the bottom of my heart. <3
1 likethank you for making me be more aware. thank you for making me research and learn. i love you. thank you.
3 likesGoing through this right now. And I'd wish to be anywhere else. The people that used to be the closest to me don't seem real, neither do I. It's awful. Thank you so much for this video, it's good to know I'm not alone
0 likesI'm coming back to watch these videos for a second time because now I think it relates to me... Lately I haven't been feeling like the world around me is real. And almost every time I speak it doesn't seem like me speaking. It's as though I'm watching myself and my life in a movie. And it's super hard for me to be present in moments and my memory of moments is splotchy and if I do remember some flashes of moments it's as if I'm remembering a scene from a movie, not my own life. Right now it's not too bad but on Wednesday I almost had a panic attack because of how unreal I felt. I've needed therapy for multiple reasons for a long time but I've never seen a therapist. I really really want to get one asap though cause I can't deal with all the anxiety and derealization by myself 😳
0 likesI recently realized that I have derealization, but I'm positive that I haven't experienced trauma of any kind that I remember, unless growing up in an argumentative household counts, but now I'm trying to think back if it started when my dad died (I didn't watch him die, but I wasn't able to see him that often when he was alive so it didn't feel real) anyway, it's affecting me a lot in school right now and I didn't know you could go on medication for it.
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Also, I have no clue if this is part of it, but my body is numb on the surface level, and if you pinch me real hard it won't hurt.
0 likesJust to say, because my counsellor also seemed to think 50mg of Sertraline was a really high dose, it isn't, it's the lowest dose you would be prescribed. If it makes you feel weird straight away, as it has a few people, I've known, stop taking and report that to your GP. For me, it helped at a point when I badly needed lifting out of the mire but yes, it levelled out and numbed a little. I didn't want to read books anymore because I didn't get to care enough about the characters. Though that's a big, big downside, it lifted me enough to start thinking about my situation and what needed to be done about it. The worst thing, I think, has to be, that you're prescribed something and that's it, job done. It needs to be stressed and stressed repeatedly by GPs that this is a way to lift or level your mood and then, more action will be necessary. Provision isn't there in the way that it should be but, ot should be stressed that this is step one on a journey to recovery. I'd spend money in vets bills that I wouldn't spend on therapy before I knew that. Priorities. I still care for my pets, don't worry, it's just, it makes you realise. The provision should be there but isn't. Skimp on something else if you have to. Priorities. If you can't afford to, push for help and for heavens sake, don't feel guilty no matter how much you tell yourself you ought to be fine. You deserve help and it will get better.
0 likesOk but the sudden deep look dodie had in the camera at 8:52 kinda looked unreal like a person in a dream breaking character, breaking the fourth wall, creeply acknowledging you.. but I guess this video really puts you in the mood for stuff like this
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this is amazing, i never noticed that! thanks for pointing it out <3
0 likesI've never really had depersonalization, but derealization during panic attacks
0 likessuffering DP or DR can be so scary but these explanations of each disorder is comforting, it seems so simple and makes sense - after fearing the worst
0 likesI'm doing this thing..where I'm creating a little vlog/diary thingy about my mental breakdowns. Like, the dates I'm feeling depressed and wanting to self harm and stuff. I've only recently wanted to officially self harm today. I'm just hoping to go to the doctors and receive a diagnosis because I really don't know what I'm feeling and I just need an explanation.
0 likesIm going to therapy, and it's hard for me to say "me" or "I", I usually say "One" like it was another person
16 likesHello dodie <3
0 likesI was just listening to old Demi songs and stumbled upon 'La La Land'. It would be so perfect if you did a cover, since you love the movie and Demi! Sending lots of love, you're one of my favorite youtubers. <3
i have depersonalization on a daily basis, but i try to use it to my advantage and i view my life kinda like a tv show, and i think: "if a character on a tv show did this would i think 'no don't do that'?" so idk, when the derealization starts thats paired with the derealization and it sometimes it resembles psychedelics
0 likeslike having a 'bad trip' while sober, only it happens a lot and I've learned to live with it
I think i have this. I’ve been trying for years to figure out what was the matter with me. And every time i wake up it all feels weird. I feel like a roam everywhere. Thanks
0 likesI think I've been dealing with depersonalisation or derealisation, I also think I have anxiety so that might fuel it. Basically I start to feel like nothing is really real and I'm not really there, I can't think properly if I can think at all (you know that weird little thinking voice you have, sometimes that kind of just,,, doesn't,,, exist,,,). I used to just get a few five minute ish moments, but recently (like today and right now oh god haha) I just haven't been here for hours on end and I can't really focus or do anything properly, I can't even remember anything properly. I found that people holding my hand or playing with my hair helps a lot, idk why but yeah.
0 likesI hope she knows how darn adorable she is...
22 likesI sometimes wonder if I have derealization/depersonalisation. Because there are times when I feel like I'm trapped inside myself and I want to be there in that moment but suddenly it feels like everything else is distant and I'm just watching things happen from some far corner inside myself. It just happens suddenly. It can last for long periods of time or just come and go in snap and I'm back to being more or less okay. But when that happens, when people try to talk to me or when something happens I go blank like I don't know really know how to respond because it's like whatever is happening isn't really sinking in so even if I'm there it feels like I'm not but the thing is I don't think I've ever experienced something that would cause me any sort of trauma
0 likesI had derealization and the whole 9 yards. I remember feeling hopeless last year searching video after video just wanting every thing to end. No one believed Or understood what i was going through not even doctors. I been in your shoes and God sent me to tell you. Everything will be ok, you will be healed. Plz hold on and dont give up. I know your pain! It is scary! But God got you. I never thought i would heal but i healed…If your diet is bad and you dont get enough nutrients plz look into that! Big factor of what cause mine was malnutrition and lacking minerals.. Also idk for sure if candida was the cause but i was taking cold delivered probiotics highy quality..Also exercise is important i would walk around my apartment complex…barely able to walk one lap the first time…because my panic attacks were so bad. If you are lcking nutrient plz be careful with fitness..Also be around love ones it helps so much! I love yall plz dont give up i know the feeling of giving up…but dont your worth more than that!! You can make it out! Also try juicing cucumbers melons apples and stuff high in h3o2. You could be dehydrated. Idk specifically which one is to blame but i focused and those four things. You will be healed I love you dont give up! God put me through it so I could come back and help others! You got this!
0 likesThanks dodie I didn't know what this is called. Really helpful.
0 likeswhat does it mean if i don't really feel like it's a dream but i just feel like... idek how to explain it. like you're watching tv and you're looking at the screen and you know it's real but.. you're just seeing it through a screen. or you see it and you also feel like you arent seeing it, like you're seeing it in your head. is that... the same thing?
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yes, its hard to describe buddy.
1 likeI think it's dissociation. You feel like you are present but nothing seems to make any sense. That's what I had like I couldn't see anything as the information registered in my mind.
3 likesThis is similar to how I feel. It's definitely hard to describe. Kinda like everything I'm seeing is through a window like it's there and I can see it but it's on the other side of the window.
0 likesthat’s how i feel rn
0 likesI just sent this video and your other video discussing your experience with derealisation to my psych teacher in hopes she uses it in reference to the chapters on it
0 likesOkay, so the feeling that they are describing makes it sound like that you feel like you're having a sort of out of body experience but still seeing through your physical eyes, which is what I feel like more than I'm not. However, I don't understand why they make it seem like it's such a negative thing. I like the way it feels because it helps me do things that I can't normally do when I don't feel like that, such as jump off a bridge, or run into a house that's on fire. It's not that bad
0 likesI have this I didn’t know how to describe it till I watched your videos . I tell my close friends and close family members that I don’t feel like I’m me and when I look in the mirror it’s not me and I’m always looking from other people’s eyes and never threw mine. It’s probably the most frustrating thing i’ve ever experienced it’s constant. I don’t feel like myself and I feel like I’m a stranger and I’ve just recently changed Body’s and this is not me. Looking threw my eyes it feels fuzzy and sunken.
0 likesSo I know that where I live we have Psych majors in Universities doing therapy programs fit to income and as low as $25 a session. All of their work is overlooked by their profs and I've been told it's a very affordable way of recieving certain types of mental health help. Obviously it's not gonna be the best of the best but if there are people who need to at least start their journey it seems like a good place to begin.
0 likesTHANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCHH IM GOING TO MY FIRST COUNCILING SESSION TOMORROW AND IM SO FUCKING SCAREEDDDDD
4 likesI realized I struggled with depersonalization/derealization recently when I took my first dosage of my adhd medication. Day one, about 90 minutes in, I finally felt "present" in my own body. Like I could feel and interact with things and people. I loved existing. Like Ive always felt this "disconnect" from life, almost like those states where you slightly wake up from a dream and the memory is still there but it feels very far away. Like a zoomed out and blurry picture. I felt like I was playing a first person video game of myself (not exactly "out of body", but I didnt feel like I could properly take hold of my own body either).
0 likesRecently tho Ive been feeling blank again and idk if it means the medicine isnt working, or if its because of the depressive episode Im in, but its a journey. And its a journey I feel proud to share with so many inspiring people like Dodie and Bo Burnham.
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I reduced mine after being stuck in it for 9 years. with 2 simple breathing exercises and a cold shower every day.
0 likesFor me I feel like I am watching a live recording of someone else’s life through a phone screen, through their eyes, watching it through mine. I know that really it is me, but sometimes I doubt that.
0 likesI also constantly feel like I am disconnected from the world, like I’m not really there. Time goes slow and the world around me moves on without me. I rarely feel emotions, and the emotions I do feel aren’t easy to identify. I guess everyone’s brain is like a canvas. Some are painted with bright acrylic paint, and it’s easy to tell what they’re feeling, whereas there is only a bit of paint on mine. On my canvas, there is just a bit of watercolour paint, smudged and faded into the canvas. Sometimes I wonder whether I feel any emotion at all.
Can everyone have depersonalization once in while? I have had it happen to me a couple times since I was younger but I thought it was just like an out of body experience and everyone had those sometimes.
0 likesHey, can Derealization be caused by physical illness? I feel like I’m always dreaming but I’ve thought it’s just because I have health issues.
0 likeswatching this again I feel like some of shanes fans might come here and be like OmG shEs iN shAnEs jAke pAuL sEriEs instead of watching the actual video you know?
37 likesI experience derealization and it can get really annoying
0 likesIt feels likes the events that are happening are not really happening to me right now
I remember one day I went with my dad to the movies and at that moment I had derealization, I remember he helped me get downstairs (because we were sitting on some stair chairs) and he helped my by holding my hand
And even though I love my dad more than anyone in this world, I felt like that moment was not really happening
I felt like nothing that was happening had any impact in my life
I felt as if I was watching a movie and that didn't happen to me
I wanted to feel guilty, and that is weird to say
But I wanted to feel guilty because I didn't feel anything and my dad means a lot to me
And right now too,
Tomorrow is Monday and something is gonna happen and I've been really excited about it but right now it just can't seem to me that tomorrow is monday
And what makes matters worse is that I have anxiety too
So I don't believe it's Monday tomorrow and it feels like the hours are not passing by and it's not real
But I am also concerned and trying to convince myself that tomorrow is indeed Monday and I'm really concerned
So apt that the advert that popped up is that movie downsizing, as when i go into DP/DR limbo, i get this weird feeling of altered perception of size and spacial
0 likesP.s, intregued to see how cbt goes for you on the disassociative front, as i dont feel it'd help me, but could maybe take inspiration if it helped someone else 👍🏽
I have depersonalization and derealization, until now and I keep this to my family, only some of my internet friends knows. I experienced this when I was in 7th grade, I'm really scareed, and super pale that time, bcs me & my friends are talking abt ghost, and yes. I got depersonalization/derealization, bcs of that. On my 8th grade, I deal with it and didn't bother what's going on to me, living my life to the fullest. Summer 2018 (my worst summer) I'm really depressed the WHOLE SUMMER, i got more & more pimples, I don't eat that much, and thinking that I'm living in hell, bcs I feel that I'm not here, i feel everything was dark, and I pray, begged him to heal my mind or rewind those moments, I'm sooo fucked up. I tried thinking that it's better to die, but I'm too afraid to die. I'm too young. Moving on, I'm in 9th grade, and I still have depersonalization/derealization, I always remind myself that the whole things that I see is true, and don't invest your time with depersonalization/derealization thunking that you have those just TRIGGERS your mind, and sometimes i felt sooo unreal, but i know it's all true, and LASTLY God give us these disorder bcs these has purpose, to make us stronger! Ya'll it's 2019, Let's live our life to the fullest!
0 likesI know you probably won’t see this but if you do then I’ll just say that for a while I’ve been doing this thing called breathwork, it’s like counselling but instead of talking you do connected breathing and emotions can come up, sometimes they don’t but usually it does. It’s been so great for me so far, I always struggle to get there as my brain is telling me to hide instead of facing my problems but I always feel so relaxed afterwards and more myself and I can feel my body and how great it actually is.
0 likesI’d highly suggest it!!! It definitely helps if you feel comfortable with the person leading you through it, I know I wouldn’t enjoy it with anyone other than the lady who takes me through it.
Also I love you so much and how strong you are!! You inspire me so much and your singing is just amazing and makes me wanna put more time into my singing!!
Also I’m from the Blue Mountains in Australia (so I live near Andie and I’ve seen her perform and she’s just amazing!!)
Thank you so much for being you xxxx
Bruh when i hear you talking bout this,
3 likesim Happy my Depersonalisation is from 100 to maybe 50/60%
Thank you for this video 💜
0 likesthis was a really nice and informative video but also I just have to say that Kati has a very sweet smile like I'm blown away at how cute she is (also Dodie but that's always a Given)
0 likesI have never thought about this topic or even heared about derealisation and depersonalization but it sounds so familiar ... I have always felt very strange since i was a kid, time was always something strange for me 30 minutes could be 5 hours. That’s better now, but still i feel very familiar with this topic.
0 likesI don’t have lose of eye sight or something like that.
Could it be possible for someone with derealisation or depersonalization to not recognize it ?
i think i might have derealisation. most of the time i feel like nothing is real, or i forget that i exist in the world, and sometimes i feel like i’m floating/disconnected from my surroundings, and i get a feeling of complete numbness.
0 likesit’s not too extreme, but it definitely gets worse during my episodes of depression.
i want to get help (more so for depression and anxiety) but i’m scared to talk to my mom about it (she’s says i’m too young to have it), and i’m not sure if i could work up the courage to talk to a therapist :(
holy shit the little t big t thing. makes so much sense thank you
25 likesOk so occasionally I go through these periods of a few hours or si of just being numb and not wanting to do anything except sit there and sometimes cry. And once i was with friends at the time and one second i was fine, and the next I was not and I felt like I just couldn't move or reach to anything. The worst part was how guilty I felt because I felt I should be hangin out with them, but I didn't have enough stregnth to give myself that push to going back to normal. Does anyone have any ideas what causes this or what it is?
0 likesI know there is a very small chance of dodie actually reading this but it has to be said. I’m so thankful dodie has made this video. Even speaking about this is so freaking helpful. I’ve been struggling with the same sort of symptoms so I went to my doctor and she thinks I have it. If dodie hadn’t made these videos about depersonalisation derealisation disorder then I wouldn’t of know what it was. I probably would of thought I was going crazy. But I don’t and it’s because she speaks out about it. This is so incredibly useful mostly because even the nhs website doesn’t have information on it about this disorder. This is the video I’ve sent my parents who didn’t understand it because I didn’t know how to explain it. So thank you dodie. You’ve helped so many people and I hope you realise how important and wonderful these videos are :)))))
0 likesThank you for sharing! Made me feel better.
0 likesI've had feelings of depersonalization since kindergarten and I told the teacher who called my mom up concerned. I'm 18 and I'm still having those feelings. My mother wont hmbring me to a therapist and I've talked to doctors who dont seen to care. Its really effecting my life and now that I'm suffering with a chronic illness it's gotten worse. I dont know what to do. I feel like I'm watching my life through pov goggles and like I'm not really there and just going through the motions. I think about this is my body that woman is my mom who I love and I almost can't feel those attachments as well. It's scary. I dont know what to do. My mother was abusive and I constantly had to stop her from killing herself from a young age. First time was the 2nd grade when she tried to shoot herself in the head. That's just to name a few. I dont know what I could have forgotten to protect myself if I remeber those things, but I dont feel quite right. I feel like I'm losing my mind and nobody will listen
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Bella asdfghjkllkjkjhhfdut hey I hope you are ok. I understand what you are saying. I lived my entire life in a dis functional state and didn’t realize it until I turned 40. I’m 44 now and can comprehend how terrible my family was to me. Get some healing now and don’t give up until you find the help you need. Take care 💞
0 likesCan someone help me figure out whats wrong with me?? I have a constant state of feeling like I'm forgetting to do something (when I'm not), or that I should be doing something else. I'm often not content with anything I'm doing or feel uncomfortable with things i accomplish. Sometimes I feel better about it and other times it spikes, often after I go out to have fun or a major important event happens in my life. Can someone associate this with anything?
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Hannah Lewis+ Sounds like it's rooted in anxiety but it really needs a pro to tell that with any confidence. It spiking after positive emotions might be some sort of rebound as your emotional state returns to normal.
11 likesDon't worry about whether you're normal (to quote a therapist, "What's normal?") it's whether it creates problems for you that matters. Ruminating on it will probably just make it worse by making you more anxious.
Hannah Lewis I feel the same and I always just attributed that constant state of worry towards anxiety :-/ idk if thats a common thing or nah
5 likesHannah Lewis seems like you are comparing what you do to others thus causing you to feel like you're less than or something. Everyone is the same don't compare yourself to others because no matter how much it seems someone is content and always so called "happy" they aren't. Most people front and suffer in silence. There's nothing wrong with you.
1 likeHannah Lewis woahh this happens to me
1 likeHannah Lewis ik im kinda late but why dont u email the chick in the video thats what im doing
0 likesthe problem is that the only people i can talk to about it are like my parents but in the past ive gotten bad reactions whenever i was completely honest and thats kind of been one of the trauma things for me
0 likesSo I think I have derealisation. I don't feel like I'm dreaming ALL THE TIME, but it happens more often. But I have no idea why. I can't remember having experienced anything traumatic.
0 likesI also have the feeling that my "seizures" aren't triggered by anything, they're just there sometimes and then I feel weird and then they go away again. I just want to know if there is such a thing without a trigger and if I am the only one who feels that way or if I am just crazy ?
(I’m from Germany that’s why my english isn’t perfect 😅)
Grateful for all thar vulnerability that is being shared in the comments. It is very courageous of all of you to be reaching out for help. You are strong (and I'll just remind myself too: I am strong) Xx
0 likesA loved one just died and when I got the news I felt like i was a passenger in my body. I was watching hands move and it didn't feel like me. I would look at my mother and it almost felt like I was pretending that I had known them my entire life. Overall a very strange thing to experience.
0 likesI feel like I don’t really exist. It’s like I’m seeing myself as someone outside of me, like how every person seems to me. I wish I could see myself from their perspective, like a person.
4 likesWhen I look at my mom, it’s difficult for me to believe that she is a living person with her own mind and thoughts... and that everyone else in the world is the same. They all have thoughts and experiences making everyone different and unique.
I wish I could look at myself through another person’s eyes. Maybe then I could see how I’m a person as well, with my own mind and thoughts.
(I typed the above in the span of... maybe 3 minutes? I just typed what came out of my mind after watching. It may not make sense to you, but I decided to type it anyway, just incase any others may be having the same feelings 🙂 I hope every here is doing well these days :D)
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I feel the same way and i feel like what even is humanity i dont even feel like a person
1 like@nayely perla It will all make sense again one day 😞
0 likes@Cookie Comment how do you feel now?
1 like@nayely perla I honestly forgot about this comment! Since I am only in my early ages, I have not really been able to get help. I actually tried explaining it to two close relatives, but it seems like they don’t experience the same. It may seem like that would put you down or make you feel sad, but really to me I was happy for them and it reminded me that this probably will not last forever!
0 likes(Typed about 3 minutes later after getting water:)
Now that I think about it more... maybe it has gotten worse? I had an important test today where I had to physically go to my school, and I felt really disassociated, but I just put it aside. My performance on it could have been better without the spaced out-ness.
(After thinking more:)
Maybe I overthought it. I have no clue anymore and I have gotten lost in my thoughts... This was all over the place. I guess that is a representative of my mental health now 😞 Maybe I just have to go to bed. I hope things brighten up for you ❤️
I was actually happy ... because I loved my life, I loved my friends, loved to play, loved to draw and listen to music. It kills me. It is really difficult to be happy with this state! I know it’s difficult, but I’m not going to give up
1 like@кайсар i know you could do it!
0 likesI’ve been living with this. It helps you save money for drugs and alcohol
0 likesi’m watching this while dissociating and i started crying and then panicked because my brain got confused as to why there was water coming out of my eyes LMAO
1 likeHonestly sometimes I feel like mental illness is like trying to find peace in a battlefield blind
0 likesI cut my hair, and I'm going through depressing depersonalization. I don't feel like me.
0 likesI'm not sure if I have one of the others, but sometimes when I'm in water, and I close my eyes for a second, i feel like suddenly I'm drowning, and everything is blank and black and my body has no control over me. It might be because when I was a child i almost drowned, but it scares me a lot.
Sometimes I feel like Im not at my house when I am at my house and I find myself yelling "I want to go home." or not in the place I am, and that might be because of how when I was little I would be dropped off at my grandma's every week and cry because I wasnt at home and I was really scared and lonely, but I'm not sure it's too major.
And sometimes when I see flashing lights, it doesn't hurt my brain, but it makes me feel lost and panicked and I see black and yellow flashing around and my breathing is heavy and I can't feel my body and everything is out of control.. but idk.
Sometimes i think we're twins, you and I, Dodie
3 likesLast time I got it again was today. On a car ride home. Out of the blue, Im in a dream. I feel like Im floating outside of my body.
0 likesBeen having it for 8 years now. Its just hard to explain to people who havent had it
So. Dodie. I recently have been struggling with questioning my sexuality. I'm a Christian in a Christian home and I'm demisexual/asexual and I've always said that I liked boys. But idk. Girls are cute. And sweet and soft and they smell nice and they give soft hugs and AGH. but like. I feel wrong. Like. AGHHH IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN. idk. Okay. Lemme try to make sense of it. Because of my Demi/asexuality it's hard to differentiate between friendly and romantic. Cuz I want to cuddle my best friend and I've kinda wanted her to kiss me before but idk if I wanted it in a romantic or platonic way. Because I don't want to date her. But I love being around her and being with her and cuddling and hugging her and holding her hand. But I don't really wanna like. make out with her or date her. Idk. Help?
0 likesTrigger Warning Please please please help. I had my lowest point last night where I thought about getting drunk to numb the pain or running away for the night (I follow all the rules and have never contemplated those things in my LIFE) so I texted the crisis text line. It helped for the night and I didn't do anything irrational.
2 likesToday I just feel numb. I feel like I need to tell my mom what's happening. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I went to the bathroom and when I looked in the mirror, I could feel myself losing the nausea, the memory of last night, the guilt, all of it, and it terrified me. It is terrifying me. I don't know what it is and I don't know what to do. I'm having trouble focusing and remembering and I'm scared I'll never feel again.
It's stupid to say, but there's this guy I really like and I want to be able to love him, but I'm scared that if I'm stuck like this, I'll be numb forever and never get to feel the joy I felt before. I want to feel again. All of it. I don't even care if it's bad anymore. I'm just so scared of feeling nothing.
so i have depersonalization, but i’ve kinda got used to it, so i’ve just accepted that i haven’t felt like myself or a real person for a long time and i might not ever. it’s not really that bad, but sometimes i have little spurts of when it gets worse (that only last for like 10 minutes)
0 likesThankyou Dodie x
7 likescan you have all three all at once? I always feel very spaced out and constantly feel like I'm in a dream. However, there have been times (like when I fell face first onto an escalator in the mall, or when I failed my test and my teacher read the score out loud to the whole class) when I have a brief feeling of being spaced out but at the same time all my senses kind of go numb and I don't feel like my hands are my hands or my legs are too long for my body. While all this is happening I also feel like I can't sense anything around me (which also happens constantly throughout my day). So idk if I'm describing something different than dissociation, derealisation, and depersonalization, but it sounds pretty similar so could I be experiencing all three at the same time?
0 likesStarted first session with another new therapist after years. She thinks I might have this problem. Have been dissociating since being a child. Also have emotional deregulation problems diagnosed years before. I hate these things. I do not like the highs and lows of the emotions at all, there is nothing nice about it whatsoever. Anyways, I really like your channel. Hopefully this therapy will work and therapist thinks EMDR will be beneficial.
0 likesWTF!!! You just described something I wish could have been diagnosed that has lasted almost my entire life. I was just randomly watching your vids trying to not feel ill from the stupid amounts of alcohol I've been binging lately (there are like 18 or so empty bottles of wine in the corner of my room atm), then saw one of your vids titles, thought ''Derealization is a cool word, wonder if it's a video game, hope it's on PS4'', or some innocent shit, what I heard on the video was ''Yeah, you know that thing that you've been suffering with badly for your entire life, but couldn't get any doctors to try diagnose you because you're a pleb at explaining, yeah that's this thing mate, lmao''.
0 likesI jduganasmddsd... WAT?!!! O_O
I had a traumatic psychotic panic attack like 10 years ago and got sent to a mental hospital against my will thinking that I was being poisoned by my family and the doctors, and that they were trying to kill me. There was no point that I was correctly weaned off the effects of that, and it was shortly after that the Derealization and Depersonalization got worse (there are two points before that where it grew in intensity without reverting). I actually had a few short lived intense bursts of it, one was when playing a game with a friend, it grew so strong (for perhaps a couple minutes) that I actually wasn't sure if I was real, as in, despite being pulled into this weird state from an immediate point of relative normalcy just a moment before, the intensity of the feeling was so strong that I couldn't logically overrule it as me having some weird brain malfunction, so I told my friend that I wasn't sure if I was alive and that I never cared, then I just stopped playing the game and let the enemies hit me while staring blankly off into space before returning to normal. It was a state so strong that if it persisted, I would simply have died shortly after, I would have felt completely indifferent the thought of death and probably would have thrown myself down the stairs out of curiosity of my indifference shortly after. Luckily it reverted as much as it came.
Apart from 2/3 intense bursts, I've had days where my constant state of Depersonalization is so bad that I refused to enter simple conversations with friends, purely because my head was completely unable to articulate anything other than responses of just a few words, and I'm so scared of actually looking mentally ill. I'm so glad I can now try to get this diagnosed, thank you Dodie, for the first time in a long time, I'm feeling genuine happiness that I can get help with this.
zoloft did something like that for me too. my doctor kept boosting my dose and it just kept making it worse and then they took me off of it and now im still just as bad as when i started meds. so that kinda sucks
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6 likesme too its just 8 minutes a week of me degrading myself
It's like a mushroom trip that you are stuck in. But it's like....time stops. It stops and you are so overly aware. You feel everything so deeply and meaningfully. You see everything at face value first...but there is no one there to express this to or reassure you that they feel the same way. You are alone....in everything even when surrounded by people. It feels like everything and everyone that matters around you disappears, and you aren't allowed to be too loud because someone important is sleeping in the next room and they have responsibilities, so you can't even disturb them....even though every morning feels like you are burning in hell for something you can't even remember doing ....and the feeling lasts as each minute passes. It ebbs and flows determining on how distracted you let your mind get. Your only relief is reading books that deal with spirit like the bible, or other religious practices...obsessing yourself with facts and education or work or the abilities of the mind body and soul....trying your hardest not to feel like you're in hell or being punished...or part of some reality that is false from the one you were raised in. Your only feeling of life comes from everything you are thankful for because .....when you allow yourself those moments, you get a brief relief from the ongoing truth that no one knows anything really...everything is a construct....and life is a mystery...and that's okay. I have to remind myself that it's all okay....that I'm blessed to live in a safe country, I have food shelter etc.....and if I open my heart....only good things can come. Even if it's scary. It's the practice of mindfulness....we create our own hell. Being a very aware and loving spirit is a great thing as long as you can find a way to discipline that fire rather than run away from it's intent. We are able to create our own dimensions ranging from hell to heaven etc. We can create our own realities...we do it accumulative, as well as alone. We are powerful beings, we just need to educate ourselves on how to utilize and effectively discipline that energy so it's not be wasted, but dutifully enjoyed. <3
1 likeyou are getting me through right now
0 likesHelp, could you please make a video on how to deal with depersonalization derealization disorder at school? I'm a teenage student and going to school is very hard for me, mainly because there's so many people there (i think).
0 likesalso, thought I'd write this down: whenever i come home from literally anywhere, i feel really weird and as if nothing ever happened in the first place... It's hard to explain, especially because English isn't my first language, but it's sort of as if everything that happened became a blur and it was for nothing. i also get that feeling when there's a lot of people around, especially at my house, who I've never met before or who i don't feel comfortable around. The first time i noticed this feeling was, i think, when i was a child and i got home after a long day spent over at my friend's house. another childhood memory is around Christmas when people came to my house to sing me and my family some carols, so i was surrounded by people that i didn't know(which has always been overwhelming for me), and i got a strange feeling as if i couldn't connect to any of them at all. I still get that a lot, and i remember it happening a lot in the past as well, many times during Christmas and just normal days where I'd do what every human does. It's weird.
as a person who has battled depersonalization for about 2 years and and recovered- just every time you have that terrifying thought just embrace it, don't fight it, dont even give it a single bit of attention. just embrace the anxiety and fear of the thought, without pushing it away and just get on with whatever else it is you're doing. as soon as you start pushing it away and thinking about it it comes back stronger and stronger, whereas if you dont give it a thought you start to become accustomed to the thought and the physical symptoms relieve as well. Trust me This is the way out!
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and just remember youre not crazy, youre just stuck in this thought loop fucking cycle, you will get out of it it wears away, just a matter of when- which all depends on you just getting on with things and embracing the thoughts and feelings. dont avoid, dont over think, not a spare second dedicated to it and youll get better.
0 likesWhen she shaid that thing about inside out i was like holyshitosaurus this is amazing.
15 likesI kind of got this after a philosophy lesson. We were talking about what real knowledge is. So some philosophers think that we only need our 'ratio' to think but I was like huh about what are they gonna think about if we only have our minds. I think we need our senses but senses are subjective so we can't be absolutely sure if that's real knowledge. I overthink in general a lot. But does this mean that I may be the only one in the world because without my senses there's nothing. Well after this lesson I just felt like nothing was real and I was dreaming all the time. Ugh
0 likesi thought this was normal omg this is so scary. dodie thank you so much xxx
0 likesMy depersonalization/derealization was so bad in middle school, I would have moments where I would stop in the middle of the hallway and just have complete amnesia for a few seconds. I know it sounds like bullshit but that was a very bad time of my life, and I think it was my body's way of staying "sane" to just tune out for a couple seconds. I would forget where I was, who I was, and just absolutely everything around me was so surreal and scary. It all came back momentarily, but I never knew when it was going to hit me. Thank god that's over! If anyone out there reading this gets these moments, change your life. If you're in an abusive home, run away. Judge me all you want, people who don't have abusive parents, but I wish i ran away. It took me getting kicked out to realize i needed to get away from there.
0 likesI wish all people would just watch this and understand what I mean when I try to explain derealization and dissociation and ugh. Literally no one I have ever met has ever understood what it is except for my mom. It’s just so frustrating especially when people are like “so you dream all the time” like ugh
0 likesGuys I know this isn’t super related but if google doesn’t help I go to YouTube so here it goes because I don’t know if this is normal or not: I’m still twelve years old and I can remember anything from my “past” if a twelve year old can even have a past, Ive seen this with old people but I can remember that much of what happens to even just days later and I often only cling on to a few memories that are really sentimental. AND I tend to have some times where I’m really spaced out and in the classroom (when I’m spaced out) it’s hard to focus no matter how hard I try. If you were wondering i have had no bad things have happen to me and my family is amazing.
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Riley Brinson adhd? ADD? Ask your parents to take you too a therapist. If money is an issue, most cities have free ones. It isn’t shameful, and they are there to help. Don’t be embarrassed. It’s very common. Good luck!
1 likeOMGMGG I watch Her ALL the timee, shes the reson I want to be a Licensed therapist
1 likeSo I think I have this?? I don't really know, I want to talk to my mom but sometimes she´s like "you are just finding out diseases that you see on the internet" or stuff like that and this really sucks because I can't enjoy my life when I'm spaced out and I really hate it.
0 likesThank you so much for doing this video, I'm going to show this to my mom and ask her for help<3
im 23 and i think i have it . my friend was in a car accident and that triggered a panic attack and i believe that triggered this. now im stuck feeling like im me but not me and i just want someone to be like yes i know what youre going through and no your not losing your mind
0 likesI have had it for a long time now and I have sorta learnt to control it. I smoked weed last year first time and it gave me a massive attack and took me a while to get over.
0 likesDamn.. this hit me right in the heart
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Kate Norton I hope your okay ❤️
0 likesJames Cousins Thank you very much ❤
1 likei have been searching forever for some sort of treatment for my dissociation/derealization. this is really done well! but i feel like.. nothing triggers my dissociation? i just randomly dissociate throughout the day. especially if i’m bored and i don’t need to use my brain. :/ idk. i’ve had it for a year and it hasn’t gone away. i even have a therapist, but it reaaallly doesn’t help as much as i wish it would.
0 likesIdk whether this is derealization, I call it spacing out because I don't like diagnosing. If I've had a panic attack or I'm panicking it feels like my consciousness has been booted out of the back of my head. I had it when I thought about reincarnation or anything to do with anxiety for me- it was an immediate zoom out and I was panicking without feeling anything properly. I hate it. I hate knowing that there is a condition because I feel like I can't ignore it.
0 likesI.... think this might actually be what’s up with me???? I have all of these symptoms that don’t fit into things or I was thinking it was like several different things but they ??? literally all fit into this???? Hopefully I can get a therapist soon and then also hopefully they actually know what this is so... agh!! Thank you Dodie <3
0 likesDear Dodie,
6 likesWe miss you. Where did you go?
Sincerely, your fans 💜
i tend to dissociate? or maybe derealise? im not sure which one exactly but i guess i'll say "severely space out" when i'm too stressed about school or a bad social setting (too many people around me and feeling suffocated, for example). my brain just makes me go somewhere else and i feel hazy to get through whatever is stressing me out. but that doesn't sound trauma related to me so i dont know if that's what it really is or if it's an anxiety thing or what
0 likesalso i have a difficult time accepting my body as my own. i tried to talk to my therapist about this but she didn't exactly get it. :/ when i look in the mirror, my face isnt my face. looking back on old selfies feels surreal. even laying here right now, my legs don't look like they should be mine. this has led to some troubles regarding eating and whatnot because im constantly trying to look like what i think i look like in my head but idek what that is.
sorry for rambling on i just wanna get this out. thank you for making this dodie
I toggle between all of the 3 D's. It gets worse when I'm stressed or tired or upset. I went through a lot of emotional abuse and manipulation as a child. I have moments where I just don't recognize myself. I have to ask people "Is that really what I look like?" I don't have a mental image of what my face or body look like, so I often compulsively look into mirrors to remind myself. I know things like "I'm pale. I have black hair. I have green eyes." But, I can't think about what the features look like specifically. I have to see them to know. I have moments where I feel like I'm having a stroke because my limbs and face tingle, and my brain just feels foggy. I'll be driving somewhere and go into full-on panic mode because my eyes will feel too heavy, and I feel like I can't keep them open enough. I get scared I have a brain tumor or that I'm going insane or that I'm about to go into a seizure. I have to put in genuine effort sometimes to feel emotion or respond to situations. I just feel numb a lot of the time. It's not fun. It makes me feel defective.
0 likesi really feel like i have mild disassociation and synesthesia but i don’t want to self diagnose and my family doesn’t believe me. if someone is reading this i just want to ask for your opinion. is association with words and colors and letters and colors some mild form of synesthesia? for example
0 likesa- red
o- blue
i- yellow
consonants sound quiet and sharp and feel solid but also like airy.
however names or words, like:
noah- it’s not really blue, it’s like deeper, but not like shade it’s just more bloe than blue like the difference between soprano and baritone
sophie- is blue and yellow but not mixed but like swirly
it’s not like a taste or visualization it’s just an association.
i don’t know what this is but i would love some advice if possible.
Hellooooooo I love you dodie ❤️
4 likesi think apart of my periods of derealization has to do with my not being able to focus on anything, due to a.d.d. i’ve been diagnosed with depression and g.a.d., but neither depersonalization/derealization nor a.d.d., so i cant be sure if the a.d.d. is making something that i might not have worse
0 likesim glad snapchat exists so i can see dodie everyday😌😊😌😊
2 likesMy husband went blind and left us. It is awful and I’m heartbroken. He was abused as a child and loosing his vision supposedly caused this. It’s so awful he’s has a lot of people who have negatively impacted his recovery. I lost my best friend
0 likesI don’t know if this is actually me or not or if I’m being a bit of a hypochondriac at the moment, but I feel like I have derealization. I feel like I’m on auto-pilot all the time, like I don’t control the words that come out of my mouth or my reactions to things, the only time I feel like my brain snaps back into place and I can be aware is if I’m alone or stressed or sad, typically and that kind of sucks because it’s like I’m not “awake” to enjoy the happiness all the time, and I kind of want to be but I also don’t want to deal with having to react to things manually, being disconnected makes it a bit easier.
0 likesSo I dunno. Maybe I’m just talking myself into it. But something about Dodie and Kate’s explanation rings a bell.
Oh I've missed you ❤️
20 likesfor me physical touch doesn't work, if anything it can be worse, because i don't like touching in general, but when i'm in a state of derealization i don't always control how harsh i can sound so if someone who knows i am not a touchy person touches me i can say something rude and then i feel horrible. i tried to open up to my mother about me experiencing derealization and depersonalization and it didn't go well because she said something like "i knew that something was off of course it's because i raised you" but she's actually the one who often pushes and guilt trips me when i am visibly numb. so i just decided to not talk about it with her any further
1 likeI just experience depersonalization. It’s crazy how much not like myself I feel.
0 likesI find myself not doing fun things because big crowds give me anxiety and I feel like really dissociated and can’t enjoy it, even if I go to a different crockery store and can’t find something sometimes I feel dissociated it’s so weird, I’m going to try to push past it soon for a music festival but I hate having to deal with it. I even had it as a kid
0 likesThis is so me it only happens when I drive it’s so scary I feel like I’m in a cartoon or that I’m rolling backwards
2 likesive had chronic derealization for 6 years from smoking weed
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0 likesUnless you got psychosis which is unlikely if you've only smoked it a couple times its more likely you smoked spice if you tripped out
Long time weed smoking can lead to a whole number of mental health elements depending on the thc vs cbd content.
0 likesI relate alot to this, and I often feel so spaced out and like I am not myself. I told my mam and she just laughed and said I was probably just being dramatic or making it all up, it turned me off telling anyone and I am not even sure if I have it because I don't trust self-diagnoses, but I really don't know what to do!?!?!? Should I tell someone or just get over it (I have been having this for nearly two years now)
0 likesCan you feel disconnected from your own emotions? And what is it called when you can't feel your emotions anymore
0 likesI think my worst problem with experiencing derealisation(other than ya know, dissociating for weeks at a time) is that I know exactly what triggered it but it wasn't traumatizing in any way. It was like a switch in my brain which caused panic attacks that lasted so long that I numbed my emotions into derealisation and it's just confusing.
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0 likesI have told my mum how I feel (like everything is a dream and how I feel like my mind isn't connected with my body) and have told her multiple times but she hasn't done anything. I really want it to stop but hooow?
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Maddy Bennett you're mom is not the one who needs to do something, really. If it's to a point where you think you REALLY need help- go to the docter, go to a therapist. You can do those things on your own.
2 likesMaddy Bennett
0 likesIf there's a counsellor at your school/college, you can go to them. It's almost totally confidential, your parents do not need to be notified unless they'd like to refer you to a professional therapist or something of the sort.
You could also go to the doctor and ask to talk to them alone. You can then talk a little bit about your experience with depersonalisation/derealisation and they may refer you to a therapist.
I hope it all works out xx
Sleepy
0 likesOkay, I think I will do, thanks
Maddy Bennett
0 likesYou're welcome, I hope it works out for you! xx
I’ve been watching her since like 2012 I love her
0 likesI can't even begin to say how important this video is!!!!! Ty!
0 likesI don't feel like I'm living, its like im watching a movie of my life through my own eyes(like a dream) I feel like I may have derealisation but I dont know... it did seem to show up after extremely stressful situations (divorce and then losing a parent). I always start to panic because I cant remember correctly I cant feel correctly, I feel numb but not numb because i do sometimes feel mad or really happy or really sad but I just feel numb again after. short bursts of feeling + dreamlike life = what the hell is happening
0 likeshow long have you had derealization??? ive had it for a month so far and its scary
0 likesIts hard when u have kids n wife n dealing with this sht for the past 3 years next month
12 likesi literally got a panic attack watching this because this is exactly what i feel when i have a panic attack
0 likesZoloft was very bad for me too. But it caused psychosis. I wasn't me. But for the people it works for, it REALLY works for.
0 likesDepakote which is a mood stabilizer used to treat migraines actaully really helps I have severe migraines and alot of like anti depressants said may increase disociation episode and so I was getting actaully more depressed and my migraines got worse cause I wasn't eating and they kept me on it started me on depakote and things started to change and when we finally stopped the antidepressant suddenly it was like this relief and I was feeling and connecting and not just floating and watching, I still had anxiety because it still happens alot but the combo of it and an anti anxiety med helped with talk the combination of talk therapy and writing but thank you Dodie for sharing
0 likesSome days are so hard but luckily today I'm managing. You'd think I'd be a queen at dealing with this shit after 45 years of having it! At least I know I'm not alone anymore and never will be. The internet has been my lifesaver
0 likesIm just watching this now and i didnt read the title and i was is dodie a sociopath but nah. Shane got to my head
4 likesIt's such a weird thing because it's not something that actively hurts, it just scares you and leaves you hollow because you know it doesn't feel right. Coming from someone who feels it.
0 likesI am coming here in 2018, I do not know if anyone shares my situation, in the middle of my degree I completely failed an internship and my semester as a consequence. I feel into a depression and I took a year out, I have been going to therapy, I was diagnosed with depression (Of course) and anxiety disorder. I never truly disconnected from my own body or feel uncomfortable in my own skin, but I have always had times when I was "somewhere else" , or "in another planet"(but confortable with it) and came back thanks to someone waving at me, being ridiculed in class or someone saying something to me to come back, according to my therapist those are casual "depersonalization" techniques my brain has used to deal with my anxiety and that happen as well during very stressful times in my life, including my internship, some essays at uni or exams where I also made a lot of mistakes because I was somewhere else without realizing while still working or writing or listening to something which I confuse myself with afterwards or completely forget. This is a very stressful truth for me and I find it hard to deal with, if anyone feels similar I would really appreciate a comment or something <3.
1 likeis it almost like feeling you're in a video game? i get that sometimes when i feel kinda vacant and like i've just been plonked in a virtual environment and it's not actually real and i'm not really there?
2 likesno one ever talks about derealisation! :( I suffer with it (I think it's anxiety related) but most people focus on depersonalisation...
0 likesOmg I just realized she is the therapist in Shane’s jake Paul series!
3 likesoh my goodness, i take zoloft!!! for the first month or so, i had some wild dreams. one that i distinctly remember was where i had woken up from a dream, amd i recognized my bed and my room, but everything seemed too bright. almost instantly i was pulled back into a dream, but i thought it was reality because i noticed that i had "woken up"
0 likesI feel like doing certain things can trigger something for me that is like depersonalisation. For example, I absolutely cannot do makeup, even slight things like doing my eye-brows, because when I see myself in the mirror it freaks me out and I don’t feel like myself, and I just can’t put up with it
0 likesI have only experienced episodes like this only about 3 times spread out in a long period of time. My most recent one came out of the blue and I think it was due to stress but whatever does it mean? I don't know if it was actually derealization or dissociation because I only got it a few times. Can anyone let me know what they think?
0 likesAwwww I love these two together 💕
0 likesI have derealization & De(e)p ersonalization
8 likesTo me it feels like I'm blind even though I can see. I'm constantly scared that my vision will be gone cause I keep questioning everything I see cause nothing seems real and I'm scared that I'll turn blind and that my brain will shut off my vision
0 likesoh my god why I've never seen this before ???? I'm a big fan of dodie and katie's videos always help me ASF, especially during a hard time I had a few years ago. why am I watching this so late :(❤️
0 likeswow, I got shivers when she was talking about the trauma
0 likesOh my gosh this is the therapist from Shane’s videos
4 likesHi dodie, you probably won't see this but I just noticed that you haven't uploaded in quite a while now and I hope you're okay. Don't feel pressured into making videos if you feel you can't- just do what's best for you. I really hope you're doing okay, and just remember you're surrounded by people who love you and care about you
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Love Changes Everything! She’s touring! (Check her socials 🤗)
0 likesIsabella Nicole oh... That's embarassing 😅
0 likesI don't use social media so I wouldn't know...
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The visualization about the movie Inside Out really helped me think about somethings.. they should come up with a second movie about something like that..
0 likesI wonder if some mental illness things are physical symptoms of spiritual pain. I felt like this today and feel like this sometimes when I feel super tired. Like it's not a tired feeling, it's that everything feels fuzzy. I also just had two tests so I wonder if it's anxiety that doesn't know where to go.
0 likesit feels like im stuck in a dream or i might be in a simulation created by aliens to test me. i know that sounds really unrealistic but thats how i feel. i also have very unrealistic thoughts and if i think too much i actually believe it is real and it is the most frightening thing ever. i get so stressed about it everyday and i feel like my thoughts are getting more severe and unrealistic. i need help
0 likesdodie i think that I am asexual but I know no one that is and the internet is not the clearest thing and it would really help me and others if you could bring light to that side of lgbtq+
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6 likesI'm not an expert on asexuality, but I'll give you my limited knowledge as best as I can (I don't label myself as asexual but I do tend towards asexuality) :)
Asexuality is when you don't feel sexual desires or attractions, but you can still feel romantic attraction to certain people. It's not black-and-white though, sometimes asexual people do engage in sex or feel certain sexual attractions.
Sexuality is fluid, so it's not a problem if you end up identifying with something else, and you don't need to stay within the strict "confines" of asexuality. Good luck figuring yourself out! xx
Here's a website that I used to clear up my questions about asexuality (I'm demisexual <33) http://wiki.asexuality.org/Main_Page
4 likesI would consider myself a grey asexual. Thing is, a lot of people don't consider asexuality a thing, they think it's some made up 'special snowflake' gender thing which is sad. A surprising number of people don't even think you can be bisexual, you're either gay or straight. So when or if it comes up in conversation, I tell people that I just am not interested in sex, and don't find people sexually attractive. It sends the message across without the stigma that comes with other names. If someone is nice or more understanding, then I'll tell them I'm a grey asexual.
3 likesAShadowWolf same actually, except I prefer the umbrella term asexual.
1 likeI'm Ace (Or that's the easiest way to put it)
0 likesHello, fellow ace! You're not alone! <3
0 likesI'm 30 yrs old now and have zero interest in sex. Only interested in the person and intellectual sorts of things. If it comes up I may use the asexual thing but usually I just say I'm not a sexual person.. I'm a guy also. I tell people just eat chocolate, it fuels the body with the same chemicals that sexual thought or activity does, and saves you the trouble of accidentally having kids or getting some std. If someone doesn't understand it that's their issue.
0 likesI just cannot be really really happy when I should. Like, even if something amazing happens I just cannot feel the happiness, even if everyone around me is happy. It's weird, and partially sad, but I often have mood swings switching between super-happy and the "can I just shut down my self-sabotaging brain" mood.
0 likesThat was amazing, thank you! <3
0 likesDerealization is not a bad thing, those weird feeling is very helpful in art (music/drawing) it gives color in life.
0 likesThere's an anxiety/trauma therapy online course created by Jordan Hardgrave that has helped me a lot with this :-]
0 likesdodie you linked to your own video in the description instead of katie's
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Rea Keebz HHAHHA yup thats dodie
10 likesall right, she changed it 😂
8 likesD O D I E Y O U D O O F
0 likesi am experiencing derealization but i don't think its bc of a trauma i went through is that normal or does my brain just denying the trauma ? thats scary af
1 likeI have had almost constant derealization for a month now... it is awful.
0 likesI never knew about collecting little T's.. I believe that is how I got this disorder..Now I know, thank you
0 likescan the trauma be caused by depression or anxiety and just be a completely internal thing?
0 likes09:22 bruh imagine having someone you trust amirite
4 likesMy head does this thing where I can’t process anything. It’s worse sometimes than others. I could just be in the middle of class and almost fully stop thinking. During the really bad times everything gets fuzzy and tingly and almost dream-like. I usually can’t remember a lot that happened. During a more normal time I space out and have to think about things multiple times to process it. This is a lot less dream-like but still kinda fuzzy. During my best times I usually only think about things once maybe twice and can mostly pay attention. This usually isn’t dream-like and not that fuzzy. It scares me because I feel trapped inside my head. I don’t know what it is but if anyone knows please help.
0 likesI think I might have derealisation, but like ive always had it? it's only really bad now and I always feel numb and I space out a lot and nothing feels real. sometimes it's really bad and I'll harm myself just to feel or to feel real. when I'm at school, however, the stimuli helps a lot and I feel more and I feel more real but I still space out or feel disconnected sometimes while I'm there. but I mean, I've never really had any trauma, but idk
0 likesmost of the time i feel like in a dream and nothing is real like i am about to wake up, sometimes i can’t recognize my hands. also i can have small hallucinations, i’ve had a bit of trauma in my life. I dont know if it could’ve caused derealization. i didn’t know this was a thing until a few months ago, i thought huh i feel like i have this but more recently i’ve been experiencing more my life feels like a dream.
0 likesQuestion: I think I have both. I don't recall any big Ts like being abused or a car crash but could a type of trauma be someone occasionally hitting or shouting at you as a child and then if someone does it when your older but not as harsh could it bring that trauma back and cause dissociation? Also is it normal for me to feel better by self harming as it makes me feel in control and not as numb? Or is that stupid? 😶
0 likesI realize this is old so I doubt anyone will reply but please help I have a question, I constantly feel like I'm in my brain I'm never there and I'm a constantly thinking about the past, future, or neither I'm just pretending or hoping to be someone else. Like when you watch a super hero movie and afterwards you feel invincible it's like that but I watch sad movies and animes and shows so I feel like I am that character and I feel as if that everything that's happened to them has happened to me as well when I lived a happy joyfull life. The worst part is ik it's happening but I can't help but feel this emptyness Idk maybe this has nothing to do with it but it would be really nice if someone can help me identify this BC it's gotten pretty bad.
4 likesI loved this video so so much!!
0 likesI have this al the time i think :< and its much worse when im tired or when i go somewhere where it's very busy with a lot of noises and colours(the market for example) . As if my brain can not handle it. And that's when it gets much worse all of a sudden
0 likesyeah I was only in 5th grade when I got this, I’m in 7th grade now and it’s getting worse. I feel like i’m going crazy and i haven’t told anyone yet. they will think i’m crazy and i’m not a loud person so i don’t talk much. I just want to feel like a normal human. It stated when my parents fought until 12 a night, I heard everything they said.
1 likeThis is the Kati I know and love!!
0 likesOH MY GOD!! i canny believe this is the same psychologist in the Shane documentry on Jake Paul! WTH
5 likesi watched this video when it first came out and ive been feeling so weird lately. now my hands dont feel like theyre mine and i just feel like im walking round in a daze or a dream and ive just remembered this video:(
0 likesi loved this it was super helpful thank you
0 likesdodie, can you listen to Next to Normal? Its such a beautiful musical about mental illness and I feel like you might enjoy/relate to it.
0 likesOk but seriously. I have just had a door opened for me. The way you explained this explained how i have felt for a while. I feel like nothing is real. I will look around my room and be extremely confused. I will look in the mirror and think is that really me. I don't know how to explain the feeling how i have when i look in a mirror. It feels like that isn't really me.
1 likeI will randomly drift off throughout the day and people will talk to me and i wouldn't have heard a thing they said. I can see their lips moving but i cant hear anything except for mumering and mummbles. Should i tell my therapist about it or is it just me being stupid and not paying attention in life?
not really about this buttttt...
4 likesThe other day i had a (small) panic attack for almost missing the bus and it was really weird..
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That is normal if i miss the bus i dont care
0 likesAnd i have derealisation i am happy that i have not depersonalisation
0 likessexyyy llamasss i like your name
1 likethank you but have you deralisation
0 likesor something like that
does anybody else’s depersonalisation trigger their panic attacks?
0 likesIm not sure if i have any of these but i have bad depression and sometimes i feel like im just in a dream floating around it feels as if im not controlling my body or im not me. Theres always kind of this numb feeling but ive never suffered anything super traumatic before so im not sure what it could be
0 likesDid you ever get cured from dp?? This is month 8 of having it and i see no end in sight
0 likesI am beginning to think people's version of derealization is not what I think it is
0 likesSee I had a phase in like last month (not drug induced - surprisingly), where nothing felt real, there is this undescribable feeling I got, thought it was derealization - it's clearly not and I can't find any words to describe it.. It's like I could feel the worthlessness of everyone around me, like my body generating its own organic cocaine - I would imagine (never done cocaine before)
See its basically a dreamy trance where I have full control and consciousness, I could understand reasons for decisions people made, I could view things from everyone's perspective, understood the workings of life, how everything and everyone reacts to everything else and all their fears, I felt like a king
For the first time I could actually feel mom's love, her fears and worries, how people unconsciously wanted to be treated and misused, a euphoric (yet depressing) rush of absolute awareness, I stare into my lad's eyes and it was like I would be having a conversation with his inner being, I must have looked very awkward, but I didn't care, I could boldly say, I was a god and understood the rules of mental manipulation. I'd like to believe I still do, but I've lost the feeling completely and without the feeling it's really hard to implement any thought into action
It was basically like my dream but with actual consequences. I have been trying to duplicate the feeling ever since - with no success - I heard people got derealised on weed, and considering it is illegal here and with dire potential mental risks (and I've always imagined the weed high to be exactly what I feel when I'm happy, I'm always able to achieve the generic high people get - so I believe) I was willing to try it. But now I see this...
Electricity through your brain or frequencies or something.... Bruh that's some scary shit. Maybe what I experienced wasn't really derealisation
(sorry if there are spelling errors or word misuse - it's too long for me to go over again. 💝)
Other people)I’m going to play outside!!
5 likesMe)Hahahahahaha..........No imma be on YouTube 24/7
i don't know why that was suggested to me but i've been thinking about that recently. i feel that i sometimes disconnect from my body completely and it feels like i'm watching from outside hearing myself say things without really having much control over it.
0 likesI'm begining to think I'm going through dissociation and derealization, sometimes depersonalization, but I'm scared to actually say I am? I don't want to self diagnose myself, but my parents don't really want me to go back to a therapist (we tried many for depression and anxiety after they found my journal but none were a good fit) and I don't know how to ask to see one or a doctor.
0 likespossibly triggering content ahead
Many times I feel as though I'm not apart of what's happening. I cant feel and I cant think and talking is really difficult. Its hard to move any part of my body, including blinking, and I find myself staring at a fixed point and I can't look away. It becomes hard to feel any emotion or feel anything, like I cant feel my hands or feet or any part of my body. During these moments it feels like I'm floating and I can't ground myself. They make me so so scared but I think I'm more afraid to talk about it then to just suffer through it.
I honestly don't know what to do but this video kinda...opened my eyes to that 'yeah this might actually be what I'm going through.' But then theres the other side of my head thats just saying its because of my depression but I'm just...not sure. I'm sorry for dumping this in the comments, but I kinda needed to get it off my chest...
Once I was lying in bed. I just... sorta zoned out. And I forgot what I was doing, as I had just packed my suitcase because I was on holiday and about to leave the next day. When I was talking, I didn't realise I was talking, and I didn't know what I was saying. It made sense and it was something I would say, so to the person I was talking to it would've seemed normal, but to me it didn't sound like my voice. It felt like my brain was controlling me without myself having control if you know what I mean. So I would say something, and then suddenly notice that I had said something, and not know what I said.
2 likesWhen I packed my suitcase I didn't acknowledge that I was doing that etc. I just did things, without thinking. Without being able to think.
>♡<
I’m pretty sure I have this. When I’m either stressed or have just been thinking about life, I feel like I can’t open my eyes wide enough or I’m still half asleep. I can’t focus on anything anyone says and sometimes I even pinch myself to see if I was awake or not. Is that what it is? Even my parents are always like “are u okay? Are u even listening?” Also, I’m like the most forgetful person ever.
0 likesWhen you realize this is that same lady from Shane's series
5 likesIs it possible for synthetic hormones to trigger this? I have never dealt with this until I took Depo Provera over a year ago...
0 likesI have been suffering from this since July 2020 and things have recently started to get better. Here are a few things I had to say to myself to heal.
1 like1.Life is really just life it is not meant to be understood entirely.
2.Life is very real and you are experiencing it for the first time so therefore it may feel confusing and strange. Because it’s a new experience! 3.Give yourself a break from all your questions. You are a product of life. You coexist with life so therefore you are real. 4.If you weren’t real than you wouldn’t be able to even think.
5. One thing I learned is that I have been repressing my feelings for too long , therefore I faded too far into the background of life ( you reading this you do have feelings as long as you are alive you will have them! So even if they feel numb that’s not true because feeling numb is a feeling too! )
6. Do the complete opposite of what you feel. Like seriously get up and run, jog or dance if you feel the wave of intensity coming ! Or call someone up! Interact with someone even a pet when you feel an episode happening. This will distract your brain!
This is the beginning of you. This is the start so be kind and nice to yourself. You are experiencing everything for the first time!
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Thank you for this, you stopped me in my tracks from going further downhill.
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0 likesI really do love Dodie and I think this will help many in small ways but to be honest, I was kind of scared when she uploaded this because she has so many young fans that like to pretend they have a million different mental illnesses to be “unique” or “edgy.” Believe me, I was one of those kids. But self-diagnosis is never the way to go. It kind of hurts to see all these middle schoolers saying “I think I have depression!” “I have derealization!” “I’m trans!” “I’m pansexual!” and all these things before their minds have fully developed. they could be going through a phase. A lot of times I see the younger generations taking away or stealing the attention from people who actually suffer from such diseases, flipping the idea of what it actually is. Please hear me out, I had gone through some real crap when I was younger, and I do believe I had a severe form of depression. BUT. I also claimed I had bipolar disorder and bulimia and anxiety disorders and the whole shibang. I now know I likely had none of those. I was a lonely kid, I got bullied here and there, and I felt a sense of security in putting so many labels on myself. But the truth is, I was just making other people feel worse about themselves by lying. I didn’t understand what any of those disorders actually were. Anyway, I’m not saying you can’t predict if something is genuinely wrong in your head, but take it easy. Proclaiming all that’s wrong with you on Instagram or Twitter isn’t going to save you. Get some real help, and if you don’t want to, then you’re probably fine. Also, please keep in mind, sometimes symptoms like these disguise themselves as mental illnesses... but they can be underlying health problems, and can be potentially dangerous. So please see a doctor before you start trying to find comfort from strangers. Sincerely, someone who has wrestled with this terrible, terrifying disease for fourteen years. (p.s. if you’re one of those kids I’ve mentioned, don’t take this too personally. I’m just trying to save you from something you might regret later on. if you truly are struggling with something, again, see a doctor. it’s the only way to be sure.)
0 likesI feel like I'm feeling everything, like a normal person and I'm making the desisions but that it's my body doing it. My brain feels absent and suprised that my body is doing things. I don't get it. I feel like I'm in my head and everything's cozy and warm but really claustrophobic like I need to get out of my head but I can't cause I'm only partially in control
1 likeStupid idiot question: doesn't everyone have flashes of depersonalisation? Like, you'll all of a sudden be like "woah what is this body who is that in the mirror this is trippy" and then after a few moments of reassuring yourself it goes away?
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HeidiBidels yeah I get that sometimes too dodie's is an everyday thing though
2 likesHeidiBidels I would say no, it's a bit like how getting nervous for a big event is not the same as having anxiety and feeling really down occasionally is not the same as having depression if that makes sense
7 likesHeidiBidels almost everyone experiences dissociation like that at some point in their lives, yes, usually resulting from having to deal with a stressful situation. But when it comes chronic (occurs constantly), like in Dodie's case, is when there's a problem that needs to be fixed.
8 likesI'd also say there are different attitudes towards it, like the difference between butterflies and a panic attack- sometimes if I'm high I'll exhibit the same symptoms as a bout of derealisation but I'll be ok with it? Its just like "oh, what if everything else is fake? What a funny thought- guess I'll just wander round" (I also realise this can happen sober 😅), whereas an actual bout of derealisation or depersonalization, if nothing else can just be a hell of a lot scarier and harder to accept :-/
0 likesKind of but it's usually if I look at my hands and I'll think "this is actually my body these are actually my hands" but it could be something different
2 likesNope, that doesn't happen to me
0 likesI have derealization and I hate it, but at the same time I feel like I'm getting closer to the ACTUAL reality. Like I feel like everything around me is fake and it's making me think way too deeply, and I know that there has to be something out there past what humans can comprehend because it's driving me insane.
0 likesThank you for this 💕❤️
1 likeSo helpful 💖
0 likes1 minute in and she just described how I feel as if she read my mind wtf. Derealisation? How do you fix that?
0 likesI sometimes look at my hands and am just so confused
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😂😂 how are you now?
0 likesSame!
0 likesOkay so I have been diagnosed with ptsd, and three weeks ago I just woke up and everything felt wrong, and I thought I was dreaming, and I couldn't feel anything, like when cracking my knuckles I couldn't feel it I could only hear it, and I couldn't remember anything, and there was a bunch of other stuff, even my sense of taste was gone, and it just got worse, and the beginning of this week I was in an art exam (all my previous exams weren't good, because I couldn't understand what was being asked, or what to write but this art exam was the worse) and I started blacking out and I couldn't do anything and everything has just made me panic, including things I love like rally's for equality and stuff. Everythings just getting too much and my counselor said that it was my ptsd causing disassociation, depersonalisation, and derealisation and she said it would pass, even just overnight if I tried really hard, but it's been three weeks and I am scared that this will never pass...
0 likesI am in good physical health, but I do have anxiety attacks and depression, and just today I started feeling dizzy and my eyes kept closing and it took a long time to open them up again after blinking and I think this might be what it is...When I get this feeling, I do not feel like I am experiencing life outside of myself, but I do feel like my mind is tricking itself into thinking that my body will shut down as a self soothing technique for my suicidal thoughts, since I know I won't be dying any time soon, but I want to because I feel like dying would be the easiest way to prevent any more emotional pain in my life (although I keep on trying to improve my life and doing what I love despite these thoughts because death is not the answer). This sensation has happened every time I have suicidal thoughts now.
0 likesIts not as extreme for me I feel like Im shrinking and growing when I get really stressed out.
0 likesDodie is the best person ever😭
1 likeEarlyyyy, was sick at school today. Again 🖤✨
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Betsy Epic feel better soon :((💓
1 likeOMG me too
2 likesHey pham
0 likesGet well soooon x
1 likeBetsy Epic get well soon!
1 likeHope you feel better 💛💛💛
2 likesBetsy Epic owch that happened to me too, sick buds?
1 likeThank yuu guys xx I have the day off today which is good 😂
2 likesWhenever it happens to me I have to look in the mirror to get comfortable again
1 likefor the past three or four years I've felt like nothing is real at all and my perception of time is altered from what it used to be. i cant recall details of many trips and i sometimes have episodes questioning whether certain people or events in my life are just part of my imagination or not.
0 likesI have episodes where for about a week, I'll look in the mirror and feel a different person looking at me, like all of my memories aren't mine and my life belongs to someone who I'm simply standing in for.
i don't have access to a therapist or professional so i can't be tested, diagnosed, or treated. if derealization/depersonalization is what i have, can anyone recommend ways to deal with it on my own?
I take lots of pictures and videos of little things to prove to myself that they happened, but can anyone who knows about these diseases help inform as to how to cope with them?
Also, if you have depersonalization I hear you can’t feel emotions. So if you have derealization does that mean can still feel emotions?
0 likesI’ve been putting off watching this until now but it actually helped me
0 likeswhere is she boi, actually, ill go follow her twitter lmao
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Gianna Meme lol me, add her on the snap bc she posts like every second on there.
0 likesthis is so helpful!! thank you
0 likesCan physical chronic illness and extreme stress can cause trauma? I have a lot of derealization and depersonalization but I don’t know what my trauma was...
0 likesI have this weird situation. I don't. ...I don't know why but I don't ever want to let go of my mental health issues. It's like I'm attached. It makes me feel safe and I don't understand why I feel the way I do but... I just do. Does anyone feel this way too?
0 likesI didnt realize this but I have these phases where I would think my mom is me if that makes since like it would last like an hour and I would just feel mind blown that me and my mom were diffrent people it was so weird. Yeah it would happen like almost everyday and I would have panic attacks because of it it was crazy.
0 likeshey it’s that therapist from shanes series
6 likesI experience panic attacks but idk what happened to me this one time
1 likeI was driving on the freeway and it went into like really deep curve almost like a loop and I hate those and then suddenly i felt kind of sick? like I felt loopy almost, I felt like i wasn't actually driving i felt like the car wasn't actually moving even tho I know I was it didn't feel right I felt weird i don't wanna feel really know how to describe it but that it felt fake. I had to keep driving because there wasn't any exits near me and I didn't wanna crash so I just followed a car in front of me until i felt normal and drove to my house. I had a similar feeling once in my room where I felt fake again it almost felt like I was in a simulation and I knew I was in a simulation so it was like knowing your life and you are fake honestly don't know how else to describe it. I felt like a Barbie doll like my skin was plastic, it very much felt like I was high but scared of everything kind of. anyways I just tried going to sleep or just used my phone. its a really trippy expeience and they don't happen often. idk if it's something I should worry about tho
i have derealization and disassociative amnesia which is where when something or when my body is in high stress and my i pretty much when my brain shuts off during a certain period of time, it could be days, weeks, months and in the worst cases, years, and when your brain turns back on you can't remember anything from when you're brain was off, kind of like a jump in time, the worst was when i was little when i was sexually abused and i skipped for a while, and lately it only happens for a few days fourtunetly, and my derealization only kicks in when i do certain things then it comes up randomly, one time it was so bad i was sobbing and begging my friends for help, and my friend was cuddling me and telling me i was ok and that helped so much. So yea. Thank you for this dodie
0 likesthis was the newest video of dodie’s i found i think soo
0 likesDODIE YOU NEED TO GO SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL LITTLE LADY CALLED UKULILI, SHE JUST DID A DODIE MASHUP AND IT WAS WONDERFUL AND YOU MUST GO SEE IT💛💛💛love ya✨
I have weird triggers like a light turning off or on or something happened too quick. Everything around me feels fake, noise, vision all seem fake
1 likehi i love dodie hi how are you?
27 likesI am worried about Dodie. She hasn't uploaded in ages. I know she has been posting on Instagram and Twitter but I miss her <3
0 likesDODIE do you know if perhaps you are deficient in some nutrients and it might exacerbate this? My first thought goes to perhaps anemia?
0 likesI don't deal with derealization or depersonalization but this video helped me so fukn much and it answered so many questions!
0 likesdp/dr squad 🙋🏼♀️
3 likesI remember sometimes i would just be on a bench looking around and its like theres a screen between me and reality ! Like im watching a movie
0 likesah fug.
0 likessay, how do i see if i have dissociation, derealisation and depersonalisation or not? from what you two talked about, i may... have these, possibly the whole the time that i'm awake.. i was already diagnosed with something like chronic depression and acute social anxiety, does that relate? xD
This is so helpful thankyou xx
0 likesPor favor põe legenda em seus vídeos, sou brasileiro e não sei falar inglês
0 likesAnd goodbye homework.
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1 likeShe seems like a really good and sweet therapist
0 likesi feel like im dreaming sometimes - it makes me feel like im going to faint or something. my brain feels numb and empty and my eyes feel like they are pricked with tears almost all the time. ive mentioned it to a teacher but they said "i cant help you if you dont have a reason"... there is no reason. i was camping just over a year ago and just felt awful the whole time and i just dont know why. does anyone have any advice? im too scared to go to the doctors because i dont want them to think that im lying because i feel like im lying to myself...
0 likesI have derealisation but sometimes if I watch a certain youtuber for long amounts if tine and look in a mirror I start thinking I look like them...its so scary
0 likesEdit:I don't think I look JUST like them I just see similarities between me and them
I dont know if i have derealisation but sometimes I have like a dejavu strong feeling where some things I do or See I believe that I dreamed them before. Its very weird...
0 likeswoah the same therapist in shane dawsons vid
33 likesfrick okay i never knew what this was, but once you described i really do relate hecK. i never really feel like anything is real, i am in a constant state of feeling like im dreaming. I also have a very bad memory because i dont remember anything bc it doesnt feel real. and i sometimes am like, this isnt me? it doesnt feel like it is me. okay i might have this heck
0 likesI had to talk to a student couciler because of my teacher, but when we were talking I was so afraid to talk to her, I felt awkward and afraid, she kept going on about making friends in my class, but I don’t really like my classmates, I don’t have much in common with them, I’m afraid I might have depersonalisation, derealisation and social anxiety, but nobody knows it, nobody knows what’s going on with me, I’m also questioning my sexuality, there’s a lot going on, but the student counciler made me afraid and vulnerable, my only friend in my class, went to a different class because she was to afraid of telling me she doesn’t want to be friends anymore, which really hurt me, I’ve been bullied in the past and my old class that bullied me stopped bullying me for a while but then they started teasing me again, and I was so afraid, nobody knows, what a huge impact that was on my life, and I think that might’ve made the social anxiety even worse. I’m sorry that this is so long I just had to vent
0 likes6 months ago I went to a doctor and she told me about a way to ignore the depersonalization symptoms , which is that I press with all the force in my forehead and when I applied it I felt like I was swallowed and my nerves were tight from my neck and stomach and when I press on my stomach comes out of a sound of pain and when I applied it the exercise stopped and then came back Press again then stop and come back Press hard can I stop it but I feel like it doesn't stop 100% can you help me?
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0 likesI have undiagnosed BFRB ( body focused repetitive behaviour) its a subconscious picking or scratching, got legs full of scars from picking, its embarrassing, I love to swim, its my one joy in life, but I went on holiday recently and was too ashamed to go swimming because I was afraid people may think im injecting in my legs or something, I have all sorts of other things going on, but talking never helps me, as ive talked about problems all my life, but ill also never have drugs for it, I also have emotional blackouts, I don't black out, it just means all emotions go poof.. I am empty, feel nothing what so ever like dead inside in a way. its like an emotional overload
0 likesOMG I KNEW SHE LOOKED FERMILLIAR IN THE SHANE VIDEO'S
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lana 123 same
0 likesSometimes I feel my brain is getting out of control .. soo i take a nap or sleep for calming it down .. i can't remember how did actually this happened .. i remember one thing that i knew something is wrong .. sometimes I feel I'm dreaming and not getting that shock in my brain when i open my eyes after closing it for a while ..(excluding sleep) .. sometimes I feel this won't go away .. nothing feels like before .. nothing feels like okay... Sometimes I feel like i told my subconscious mind that I've problems and it happened.. sometimes I just go run out of hopes .. the main thing is I'm drunk but not drunked .. it's like I'm not even scared or ghost or Anything untill shit goes serious .. it's a feeling of not feeling anything .
1 likeHey Dodie, I recommend you look into headspace for some meditation and mindfulness Xxx
0 likesi highly reccomend emdr and ketamine therapy for anyone struggling with any amount of anxiety or depression <3
0 likesThese are natural things to feel actually. But your mind is trying to hold on too much. People havent learned to deal with these experiences.
0 likesWOAH I KNEW I HAD SEEN SER SOMEWHERE
15 likesThis is so ironic that I found this today. I am having an awful mental health day because of surfaced memories that I don't want to remember. (I found a splinter) because of how someone treated me at work.
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Ps. This was so helpful.
0 likesI thought that I might have derealisation so I talked to my mom and she said that it was probably just puberty and that it was normal..
0 likesIt’s just like a switch. I feel alright and then all of a sudden I feel like everything is unreal and it’s so scary. And after 10 seconds I just kinda slap myself out of it. Could it be a lack of sleep also?
0 likesMines phycadelic related, had a very terrifying mushroom trip and i guess i just stuck with me 😭
0 likesITS--ITS THE WOMAN FROM SHANE
3 likesYou are so amazing and my favorite YouTube of all time
0 likesI really need help. For a long time ive always had the sneaking suspicion that I could have DP/DR. But i honestly dont know.
2 likesFor me, it generally hits in waves, like one minute im totally in the moment, talking with friends or smtn. And then Im hit with a wall and suddenly im in a new place and nobody makes sense and i keep asking "where am i where am i what am i doing here who am i" and i get real scared, heart pounding, sweating...I always hide it from my friends though (but sometimes when i cant, i just get up and leave the table). I dont really get it at home tho which is the only place where it is most mild.
I just dont feel alive sometimes. I just feel like a machine that processes sight and touch and hearing but is not actually living, ya know? I have no idea if this is derealization or what. i dont think it is, but im not sure if that is just me being in denial. Is it supposed to happen in waves or you just feel this way all the time?
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I deal with this too
0 likesHey, I tried EMDR and I dissociated / left my body is that normal?
0 likesI had both reallll bad and couldnt work and my job insurance said they wouldnt pay me cuz its not a real disorder ! And i had a full paper from the doctor LOl
0 likessuper early squaddd x
6 likesI saw your book in Waterstones yesterday! 💛
0 likesThat was amazing! I learn a lot and maybe found something new about me. :) Maybe I should talk with someone, anyone, just know, that its normal, or not. :) Thaks. :)
0 likesi don’t have derealisation but i do get dissociation when i’m scared or in trouble, i got it really bad today
0 likesUgh I've been dealing with this everyday on and off for like a month but now it's just here to stay and I cant sleep bc I get so scared
0 likesoH. ToUchINg. thAT MaKEs SeNSE.
5 likeswoah I might have derealisation. But is it possible to only feel spaced out on rare occasions, rather than all the same and/or often?
0 likesBecause I've had a few moments of a dream-like state, similar to this. Where I felt disconnected from my surroundings. Like I was numb and sleepy.
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I also haven't had any noticeable trauma... idk
0 likesOmg I love the inside out analogy 😲
0 likesThe sad thing is I watched this in 2017, half way through 2018 I began to have episodes of derealisation =(
0 likesEven as a kid I would have moments when I would “flip” and suddenly “realize” that the world was made of Play-doh including myself.
0 likesIts the lady from Shane’s video
12 likesI was depersonalized for about a year. It was the worst thing ever. I'd much rather be the most depressed I have ever been then not feel like myself. Loss of your sense of identity is brutal beyond belief. Weird enough what helped me get out of it was finding out why it happened to me in the first place.
0 likesIt's weird because everything spoken about in this video is how I feel 24/7 but I ain't gonna self diagnose. I mean yes, I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety but I dunno, I'm on meds and they help alot, with some stuff but I dunno :| at least I guess I'm not alone?
0 likesFor me it's the WORST I also have HARM ocd (a fear of hurting people) and always get the intrusive thoughts of "what if I killed my mom/brother and it wouldnt matter because this world is fake" and it puts me in another state of panic and is the absolute WORST
0 likesCan you do more vids on both of your channels Pleaseee!!!!❤️❤️❤️💗💗💗💗💗💗❤️❤️❤️❤️
2 likesEYYYY THE GIRL IN SHANES NEW SERIES
3 likesBest thing to do here, is forget it, there isn't anything you can do accept to be very true to yourself, honest with yourself, and do not try to "act" as if, Don't act period. You'll find many to think you are somehow selfish, or conceded, whatever word you want to use there, you'll Likely lose old friends, you Don't need them anyway. Don't compromise yourself, and Don't force unnatural tendencies, like being nice all the time because you think you have to. Easier said than done I know. But it'll be just fine. And I'm not for a second suggesting that you not have a certain common decency and simple elementary manners. For your own sanity, you must Be what you are. Even if you don't even Know what that is. So common social and political correctness goes out the door, I function as any other species in a natural way, many people don't understand this, they are caught up in worry, very neurotic, but we are all the same, no different, therefore you can know that we are all thinking of ourselves 90% of the day, thus it doesn't matter what others think of you, I don't give a damn (excuse the language) for what anybody thinks of me I'm singing my own tune and dancing to the beat of my own drum. Give it some time and everything will fall in to it's natural rhythm as long as you aren't acting against your own nature.
0 likesmy experience with derealization, is weird. because im recovering from anorexia and bulimia. so when i used to throw up, the pain in my stomach and throat was so big that my brain used to turn all my vision completely white and like make me feel like i was high... its weird ik
0 likesI relate to EVERYTHING!
0 likesProbably why I am depression and Anxiety and NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME AND ITS ANNOYING!
Oof
Im glad its getting more attention
0 likesShane Dawson!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 likesthis is so interesting and helpful
0 likesI’m not sure if I have derealization, or if I’m just tired all the time. My vision occasionally gets blurry, and colors look extremely bright. When I’m really stressed everything gets really loud. I don’t have trauma, no mental illnesses (that I’m aware of) but sometimes reality just feels numb. Is this derealization?
0 likesI’ve had this for almost a year now and it’s getting worse :(
0 likesWow I thought I was the only one feeling this way.
0 likesWhere are you dodie?
5 likesI constantly feel like I'm in a dream. Like I feel like nothing is actually real. It makes me forget so many things because I can't actually remember things actually happening or how I can remember it. I don't know actually what to do. It made me fail most of my GCSE's because I can only remember some of things. 🙁
0 likesI feel like i live in my head butt im not really a person, and i just watch the outsider world. It also feels like i cant really controle my actions
0 likesthankyou so much for this video, this really helped me
0 likesI love all Katy's little saying. Like the parachute thing love love
0 likesShane Dawson therapist
3 likesI know it's been a while but I still have a question. I don't have chronic derealization but I've had two episodes while i was under the effect of marijuana, is that still linked with traumas or was it just a chemical reaction? I don't know if it helps, but I have been diagnosed with major depression, ocd, and anxiety disorder.
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Sorry if the names are wrong, English is not my native language
0 likesThank you so much ...this video came just at the right time..
0 likesI just started watching your videos and a platonic love has sprouted in my heart for you.... It's weird but I mean hey :\
0 likesyez. luv me some kati.
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xoxo
1 likeI know what I need to bring up to my therapist!!
0 likesanxious finger guns
two of my favorite women on youtube <3
1 likeMusic and Animals can heal everything in your soul, I m sure.
1 likeHey dodie my advise from a tall guy from Luxembourg. MORE ASMR all the time 24/7 :D
0 likesIt's been one empty month on your youtube page
6 likesVery interesting video loved it xxx
0 likesI get this during my panic attacks
0 likesIs forgetting things also part of this? Like it's currently 4:40pm and I can't remember anything from today past 10 minutes ago. This happens everyday and I was just wondering if this could be part of it because it feels like today didn't exist
0 likesPeople often say you get it after panic attacks or something similar, but I never have that they just seem to come randomly. :o
0 likesEarly squad where u @
3 likesIve had this permanentely the last 3 years, i dont know if itll ever go away... it was HORRIFIC when i first got it
0 likesI think that I have derealisation and depersonalisation but my mum thinks that it is just hormones because I'm 11 and starting puberty. I really want to tell her about it but I'm sacred she'll just dismiss it. My school work has also gone down and my teachers can tell, I just say that I'm tired and I want to tell them, but I'm afraid that my peers and family will not believe me. Please can someone help?? I would really appreciate it. 💕💕
1 likeI'm pretty sure I have derealisation, I'm probably not the only one in the comments to have a story like this but I think my derealisation originated from a time I smoked tooooooo much weed and now I just feel like constantly tipsy and partially stoned and when I woke up the next morning I thought I had been given a different drug or something because I'd never woken up and still felt like I was dreaming before and I've now been like this for about 3 months. The particular time I believe my disorder came from I had a panic attack after smoking way way way too much so this comment has basically no use accept from to tell you to be careful or to help others have someone to relate to x
0 likesanyone here after the Jake Paul series?
6 likesi related to this so much without even knowing i would before
1 likeI dissociated almost every week now.
0 likesMy problem is I can't leave reality I am too aware of everything going on and everybody around me 😕
0 likesshe shares a resemblance to chloë sevigny in looks and in the way she speaks aswell as her tone of voice, great vid dods
0 likesOMG ITS THE GIRL FROM SHANES VIDEO WTFF
3 likesEMDR is like teaching someone to swim by throwing them overboard. Whoever came up with that nonsense was a hack.
1 likeI experience depersonalisation sometimes
0 likesI've had depersonalisation with my own body but also with others(?) I mean, some times I would look at my mom's face and it would feel like I didn't recognize her. like, of course I knew she was my mom but it would feel like I couldn't recognize her face features and something was off. Does that make any sence?
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Yess!!!
0 likesdodie please i hope you don't turn into troye (i love him but i miss him so much). you've helped me so much and i feel comfort when i watch your videos when im having attacks or a bad brain day. please don't leave us. i love you.
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3 likesIs it possible to have depersonalization but not derealization because I sometimes feel very disconnect from myself at certain times but I've very rarely been disconnected from reality. Also I tend to be very anxious to the point where I've been diagnosed with anxiety but that has led to a lot of self doubt insecurities, that led to me being diagnosed with depression because I just had these compounding thoughts of self hatred. At that point the depersonalization started as a sort of "coping mechanism". I'm doing a little better but I have swings sort of. Advice on dealing with low days/moments ?
0 likesI experienced depersonalistion and derealisation this summer and it was horrible! I'm starting to feel like it is going now and feeling so much happier! :D
0 likesThis is amazing thank you
0 likesI took too much cough syrup went to school had a panic attack because i felt weird and i think i got derealization. It pisses me off somethin that stupid can cause this it bothered me for a long time my anxiety was horrible but the weird thing is my anxiety isnt that bad anymore but i still feel like im in a dream i cant think for shit i cant remember nothing(may be the drugs) i feel so spaced out and i have major depression idk if this has anything to do with it. I was born with low dopamine and really low seratonin.
0 likesWhere are youuuu?
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Laney Somewhere else...
0 likesi have derealisation depression and anxiety. i’m afraid to tell my family because i’m scared they won’t believe me. only because i talk a lot some of the time. i still laugh at jokes and i can still have a good time. but that’s why i’m afraid they won’t believe me. i’m afraid they will just say i’m dramatic and i’m just trying to fit in. i really need a therapist but i’m to afraid to speak up. can someone help me what to do?
0 likesI think I have derealization, I have all the symptoms but I don’t think I have depersonalization at all
1 likeThat jump in Zoloft is... crazy. I don't know Dodie's situation or how intense her depression and derealization are, but going from nothing to 100mg in a MONTH? even with 50 in between? From what I know, that is a LOT in such a short amount of time.
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Zoloft is not that "strong" though - I take a different medicament which has a 5mg and 15mg dosages but with zoloft, it's not the same. I had to take it during pregnancy and I went from 0 to 50 in a week and then to 150 a month later during a week again. I think it's fairly common - but everyone reacts differently and to some people, this jump might be too much.
0 likesHello everyone!
0 likesI have depersonalization and derealizatio and I need to start ising birth control (I have extremely painfull periods that make me unable to stand up and do anything for the rest of the day. I will feel like I am going to faint, puke and cry from the pain so).
I am afraid that they will make my depersonalization worse.
Has someone experience with them?
EARLY
3 likesGoing tru DP and DR last week and i feel horrible ='( i have moments in the day i feel myself i think..i feel confident and doing normal things, but the rest of the day just sucks. it gets worse ate end of the day/night but gets better if i stay awake longer cause i like the silence of the night (does this make sense)? also love the silence int he early morning..
0 likesI have a lot of traumas..this year i had two big ones..and i just letf a job that i hated, and now i dont have a routine and i also hate that. I think i'm just too confusing as a person and i'm always thinking in every possible scenario..
Great video btw
I haven't been diagnosed at all and I'm only just starting to look into it but I feel how they're talking about depersonalisation constantly I don't know
0 likesI’ve only ever had Derealization. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced depersonalization. Zoloft caused my shit
0 likesthey were talking about big t’s and little t’s, and i’m just wondering if trauma from cancer could cause any of this...? i feel like it sounds silly but i feel like i relate to a lot of this and it just hard to wrap my head around.
0 likesWhat I like to do is I would rub my hand when I'm stressed so I can not get you know get pulled into a dream like state
0 likesEDIT: I talked to my bestfriend
What if you have just been through such horrible stuff, you've spent all your time trying to forget about it and or pretended it wasn't happening you just physicaly can't remedmer all your trama. How do you talk about it or get over it?
0 likesFinally people are giving a shit on dp people really need to give more attention to if because it really hurts me sometimes that not much people know about it and its not somrthing easy or something that you can just turn off whenever you want to its way more than that so thank you soooo much for making this video.. you earned a sub and a like and a share and whatever that good and possible
0 likesI'm not sure if it would be labelled as bullying , but I had an extremely horrible time in my primary school , everybody their was super mean and I validating to me about all the things I like and my art and imagination , so I kind of disconnected and started basically living in my imagination and 24/7 creating this entire ongoing world in my head . And I havent seen or spoken to anyone from my primary school for a year since I'm now going into year 8 . And a few months ago I realized how bad it was and how desperately I was making myself believe that the magical worlds were 'real' but not real at the same time. And so I have been kinda trying to drag myself into the real world but when I do try to i get extremely depressed , lonely and I think I also have pretty major trust issues because I think everyone secretly out to get and that their not real and I'm in a simulation or asleep and this is all a dream . And it's like super scary when this happens .
2 likesI havent been diagnosed with anything or seen anyone. And I found out about derealisation and depersonalisation so I went to my mum and was like yo , I think I might have this or atleast I have something , and she was like " stop trying to find problems in yourself and trying to be special " and all that .
So I have no idea what I'm supposed to do about this. And it is getting alot worse .
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I was gonna mention this but didn't know how to describe it now I do so . I also have these weird thing were when I wake up the say I'm having a dream I'll wake up and I'll know be conscious but the dream will continue and I dont know how to explain how I feel whilst it's happening but I'll just be extremely confused I wont be able to properly do stuff like once my mother abruptly woke me up cause I was late for school and I sat up and had no idea what was going on , I couldn't properly speak and my mother gave me my clothes and ran out the room to do something and I had absolutely no idea how to get the clothes on and was seeing the things from my dream, in my mind their was this little thing dressing me , but in reality I wasnt moving and was just sat up on my top bunk dozily bobbing back and fourth whilst mumbling .but its Waaaaaay worse when it's a nightmare because mine are really bad and I woke up from one a few weeks ago and was pacing around cause I knew it wasnt real but it was , and I was pacing all around my house trying to wake up properly and I was kind of screaming and full on crying my eyes out whilst panicking. Nobody woke up so nobody saw this . But imma try and talk to my mum about it again . Hopefully it works . I'll update
1 likeSorry for ranting btw
1 likeIt's so relieving and helpful to hear this. The last year has been terrible, without going into details my girlfriend (I'm not out lol) has been diagnosed with cancer. I've not been able to talk to anyone about it because my parents don't know she exists. My mother could have a reoccurrence of cancer cells and my brother could have some sort of tumour. Basically, its been a rather traumatic time. 'Little T's' from childhood and a combination of the 'Bigger T's' have sent my brain funky. I'll look in the mirror and very often feel what I am seeing doesn't reflect me. I didn't realise that this has a name. I've become a lot more anxious and almost fearful in general- if someone says they've been to the doctors I fear the worst. I guess everything's either black or white? I don't know, I think a combination of many things have meant my brain isn't very good :). I'm trying to talk to my parents about me going to the doctors about the anxiety. It's not like a 'AHHHHHHHHHHH' but it's stopping me from doing things. Anyway, thanks
0 likesI think I have this and it gets annoying, I can't pay attention to anything because my mind is always somewhere else. I'm in 10th grade and it's important that I get good grades to go to a good school next year (I live in Norway so the school system is different) and aaah what do I do
0 likesI love Kati... so now I must subscribe to you too
0 likesthis video was really important thank you :)
0 likeswow, everything makes so much sense now
0 likesI feel like sometimes I have this for like 5 seconds a month it's really weird
0 likesI HAVE JUST FOUND THIS CHANNEL I LOVE IT
0 likesBTW that marble metaphor helped me make so much sence out of my condition.
0 likes....this sounds kinda like how i feel, but i have never been diagnosed with it. i have been told i have anxiety and depression and even once ptsd, but none of them encapsulated how i feel in my body? like for me i can never relate to my own name, and my face feels like it belongs to someone else, and i feel like i'm sort of floating most of the time? i think i have to research this further, because this all sounds so familiar.
0 likesCan depersonalization distort memories? Regarding my last comment on here about a shirt appearing on my bed when I turned around, I don’t remember putting it there, I only remember getting my trousers out of my closet. Is there any explanation? Please help. Im doubting everything right now. I seriously need help😭
0 likesi rememeber that once i was 90ft up i was told i had to jump i just froze and cried then struggled to breath...is that depersonilation??
0 likesI'm not sure if I have this. I have never been good at telling how longg something has lasted. It could have been 2 minutes or 2 hours I can never tell. I feel like I need someone with me to tell me how long it has been. I have always felt dazed and most of the time I sort of don't know what's going on. When I'm with a large group of people I especially feel as though I'm not really there. And when I feel like I'm in a dream and I'm having a good time with people I try to force myself to be in the moment so I remember everything that happened the next day. And I usually can't recall anything but bits and pieces.
0 likesCan you only get this only when you're happy and feel perfectly fine
0 likesI think I’ve been having this lately. I have no money to pay for help so I sit inside my house depressed and lonely. Need to fix my life by my self and make my brain happy. Been depressed for over 25 years maybe more
0 likesDoes anyone here have any advice for helping someone suffering from depersonalisation? My cousin is suffering from it and she asked for my help
0 likesThank you 💜
0 likesI hate some noises. They make me scream or screech. Some noises make me cry, and people think I'm strange but I can't help it. I do it in movie theaters or in class, and I get so embarrassed or ashamed that I start spacing out and blanking on everything to ignore people.
0 likesI am not sure whether or not I have DR or just brain fog from anxiety/racing thoughts. Because it seems as if DR/DP is more of a dream like state. For me I feel fine and alive I just can’t stop thinking and have racing thoughts about life and how everything makes sense. I did some research related to some issues I have including BAD EYESIGHT and BAD NASAL AREA. I suffer from poor eyesight and from a deviated septum. I found that poor eye sight without wearing contacts or glasses can wear down your brain for example looking at screens or too much at once. Your brain can be overwhelmed and not know how to process it all at the same time which can lead to brain fog and confusion. The nose part of it was about SINUSITIS a nasal infection around the cavities outside the nose. It can lead to brain fog and confusion as well as anxiety and stress!
0 likesSo in short I think some people thinking they are dealing with DR/DP may actually be dealing with brain fog and stress/anxiety related issues. Especially if you feel fine just can’t stop your racing thoughts or anxiety. I know not all of you have these vision or nasal issues but if you do take this into consideration! I’m going to see if treatment for one of the two helps at all !
this was so helpful
0 likesI had weird episodes when I felt like I was dreaming but only like 5 times
0 likesi love these two!!
0 likesI don't know what it is, but I'm going through a small episode right now that's kinda similar. I feel disconnected from my senses. I hear others speaking to me, and I hear myself reply, but I don't even notice my mouth moving, I don't feel it moving. I can see fine, and recognize myself, but I don't feel myself walk. It's like I'm stuck in my head surrounded by so much haze that my brain can't find itself. Like all of my functions are running themselves while I'm in my head trying to find a way to sort everything back out. I just don't know what to do. My episodes usually aren't bad, just really minor derealization where everything just feels kinda off, like I'm living my day, but in a dream. I haven't had an episode like this since I was like 8 years old. That was half of my lifetime ago. I didn't understand it then, I was at a carnival, I thought it was just because I had motion sickness from all the rides I went on. I don't know what to do about it right now. I guess I'll just stick through and watch videos so I can distract myself enough that it begins to fade back to normal... Hopefully...
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I had remembered that this video existed and came back to it, but didn’t remember that I had ever commented. I’m sobbing right now. I’ve been going through really bad episodes for the past year or so. I had completely forgotten how early I started feeling like this. I honestly thought it had been a couple months, but it’s been going on for years. I can almost never remember my emotions from the past, so I always assume that the way I’m feeling is recent. I don’t even know how to process finding this post.
0 likesIt’s just… not only was I feeling this way when I was 16, but I also used to be able to remember how I felt when I was 8? I have almost no memories from before high school anymore. I can be reminded of stuff, but for the most part, it’s like everything was buried away. I can’t process that I didn’t used to be like that. But I also can’t process that it didn’t start recently.
Im really sorry that i cant relate to you but this video helped me to understand, thanks!
0 likesSometimes I suddenly just feel really down. Like I'll be laughing or something and then suddenly I just feel sad. Often in times when I SHOULD be happy like at family gatherings or something I get down. Or nearly every time I am alone. Is this depression? Idk plz help :3
0 likesthis is veryy helpful, thank you
0 likesI feel like I have a mild case of all three
0 likesI wish wish wish dodie was my older sister and could give me a hug whenever I am sad and I would give her a hug when she felt very bad as well😖💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
0 likesthank you both of youuu <3
0 likesDodie, do you take medication and do therapy? Or just therapy?
0 likesi feel like nothing is real around me. i know that i’m real, but nothing else feels real. i feel like i’m moving around in a fake world and working towards the day i get to live in the “real” world. anyone else?
0 likesDoes anyone know if this is hereditary? I haven’t finished the video yet, but it’s just a genuine question because my sister experienced this for her entire life and i hadnt until I smoked for the first time but now It happens all the time
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I also feel like i don’t recognize pain the way I usually do and have to be extra careful with myself because it doesnt hurt the way it’s supposed to. It’s almost like my pain sensors are lowered
0 likesLove you Dodieee!!
2 likesDoes anyone else start randomly laughing during their episodes?
0 likesLet me start off by saying that I'm Sorry for not commenting on any of your videos for what seems like forever. A lot of what you share is above my pay grade and I refuse to comment just to comment. In my heart, you Will find happiness, but to say how and to guess when would only make me sound like, idk, a clueless ass. I still believe that the future is bright and you will be quite pleased with what lies ahead. Until then, all I have is that you are Loved beyond measure and that you are Not Alone. Never have been and Never will be. What inspired this comment was that I saw you on Gabbies Vlog and 1) the World just got a little bit smaller, but more importantly, 2) I Loved seeing you laughing and smiling. That's it. I wish you nothing but the best and I look forward to the next time I can comment on your smiling face. Stay Awesome. A fan from Chicago : )
0 likeswhen i tried to explain to my therapist that i felt like this she would tell me “you’re just having panic attacks, it’ll go away by themselves” yet it’s been almost 6 months & i feel so much worse. i don’t even recognize myself. i feel like i’m living a dream but its so uncomfortable and i don’t even feel anything , it’s so weird and i can’t explain it to my mom because i’m scared she’s not gonna believe me or understand & i just need someone to talk to because i feel like i’m alone. i have no more friends because i can’t hang out with them and i can’t be happy , and whenever i would tell them about how i felt they would think i’m crazy , i feel like i’m going insane and i can’t talk to anyone and that’s what makes it so much worse. i’m terrified that i’ll have to live like this for the rest of my life. i’m so scared i just need someone who understands how i feel.
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I know how you feel. I had this for about 2-3 years but it just recently got better which I never thought it would. Looking back, it's hard too explain how it felt sometimes during it because most of it feels like it was just a dream, but I know I felt dead and it was the worst time of my life. I wasn't able too hang out with my friends due to the fact I wasn't happy and I wasn't able too miss them because I felt nothing and felt no connection too anything or anyone. My grandma and dad passed away, but I didn't care because it didn't feel real. I couldn't feel sad about it. My mom would tell people that i was depressed, but when I told my mom about what I was actually going through, she called me crazy and said if I left the house more I wouldn't be like this. I dropped out of school, I barely left the house, I couldn't enjoy music, shows or anything a person without this would enjoy. But it got better, I don't know how, but it did. My advice too you would be talk too your mom or somebody. Explain exactly what your going through and make them understand that it's not just a panic attack or whatever else they try and say it is. Though it got better for me, I wish I would have got help, it was just too hard for me too listen too people trying too tell me what's wrong with me or saying I'll get over it. Though not having people understand what you're going sucks and it's hard, try and get help. I hope you do what's best to get better and hopefully my story made you feel less alone.
0 likesSorry for making this so long. I honestly could have wrote a whole book about how this disorder/mental illness has affected me.
I have DPDD and EMDR IS working for me.
0 likesThere is a name to this? I told my mom when I started feeling like this randomly and she told me I was just tired. How do I get it to stop?
0 likesSo what do you do if u have talked through it all and it didnt change anything mentally
0 likesI have all of this but I haven't had any childhood trauma's
0 likesbipolar people like myself experience something similar but far more frightening-a waking dreamstate which is fine if one is alone but constant torture if one is subject to the whims of others
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family and friends especially, the worst part of mental license is the license it gives others to do what they will, all they must do is hint at ur mental problems and they can get away with anything, that is a serious downside to having so much literal control over reality-experience IS reality, it's all real, this isn't a dream i wish it were
0 likessorry to lecture but i've got serioous ptsd and it seems to happen at certain times of the year, hail LUNA
ps. kishelemukong clan own all ur base, we want our shit back
1 likenot direct at folks, it's a warning to the traitors at the MOSAD, CIA, NSA, DOD, MI1-infinity, KGB, GRU, MOSAD, the house of SAUD, duterte, bolonara, putin putin putin putin putin trump, oh vey.
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I have derealization but not depersonalization. I don’t see someone else when I look in the mirror, I just feel like we’re living in a simulation and I’m the only one who’s cognitive about anything. Think of it like playing Grand Theft Auto, you’re the only real person playing a character and all the other people are computers
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Hey can u help me out I think I might have derealization cause when I went to a school trip we went swimming and we got out and I felt like I was not there like I was dreaming or dead even if I don’t know what death feels like . I could’ve walk properly and my voice sounded so weird
0 likespleaseeeee make an internet support group kinda like dan howell! love yoouuu
0 likesThis was interesting never heard of that before
0 likesDO A VIDEO SHOWING THEIR TATOOS AND TELLING REASONS
2 likesWhy do I sometimes feel like I've lost all emotions for a bit like im an empty husk with a collection of fake made up emotions.
0 likesi’ve done EDMR therapy with my therapist
0 likesI have this and I'm very scared. Every morninh when I'm waking up I feel like in a dream
0 likesIt scares me very much, I can't breath very well bc I have so much stress in my head
I hate it!
this makes so much sense
0 likesI think I learned something about myself for this
0 likescan you make another channel where we can see how you play ur songs. like ''you", all the chords online don't sound anything like the original. so that could be awsome hihi :)
1 likeI got depersonalisation last night it felt like my soul was hiding behind my eyes and it felt like my head was hollow and i slept it off and i dont feel depersonalisation at all idk if it is going to come back or not
0 likesshe reminds me so much of my therapist lmao
0 likesi think i have depersonalization/derealization
0 likesi have gone through trauma for the past yearish
i feel like i'm not really me and i'm reading a book?
like i can't control anything i'm just observing everything that happens.
anyone know which this is?
I have an unlabeled (my therapist doesn’t have enough information) compulsion disorder and sometimes i’ll look away from something and something happens in my brain and I can’t look away or a have took look away because I feel like something is wrong and it normally causes me to have a mini freak out or panic. Ex. Today at dinner I was sitting and I looked up from my plate at my dad and the light in the kitchen behind him was off and it made everything look off (almost zoomed out a blurry) and it made me panic and I almost cried and I kept saying that I didn’t like it/that even though part of my brain was just like “Emma calm down it’s a light” the other part was just screaming in a corner “YOU CANT SEE. WTF IS GOING ON. EVERYTHING IS WRONG”
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So that’s my brain. And it’s possibly the thing that embarrasses me the most. I’m constantly freaking out one second and completely calm the next because my logic brain will just turn off my emotional brain until it can calm the fuck down and stop panicking and everyone thinks I’m a psychopath
0 likesthis was a really helpful video!!! thank u dodie
0 likesTHIS WAS EXCELLENT IM DEFINITELY SUBBING HER
0 likesIt's the worst feeling, when you feel like you're dreaming and you're not a real person
0 likesI have anxiety also. Is it an aspect of anxiety disorder or something entirely to its on?
0 likesI think I have this but I don't know how to deal with it. I go to a therapist but only since a few weeks so I don't trust her yet. No one in my family or friendgroups understands this. I suffer from anxiety and really bad depression to. This derealization makes the depression even worse..
0 likesI get that with my migraines
0 likesAHHH I LOVE THIS VIDEO SO MUCH
0 likesI’m questioning myself bee cause I always space out and miss bits of conversations, this gets worse when I get bored or when I’m tired. Is this just daydreaming or...
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Little did i know that Maladaptive Daydreaming was a thing
0 likesIs it bad at this point that I like being able to mentally clock out? It's protection for me at this point
0 likesI also thought that dissociation is like your brain in stress is like well,,, if you ain't leaving I sure am lol bye enjoy your exam xox
0 likesOk idk if I have this or not and I'm kinda confused. Not all the time but sometimes I feel like nothing around me is real, like no one is real, everything seems like props or a dream or like a vision and my body and all my movements feel really forigen, but it usually only happens about once or twice a week for about 6 hours at a time (the longest its ever gone on was a day and a half) then it feels fine again, I always feel really uncomfortable when it happens and I don't know what to do.
0 likesSometimes I feel like life isn’t real or if I have an experience with someone later i know it happened but I feel like it didn’t. I wouldn’t say it happens all the time though. I didn’t know it happened to anyone else
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I can see how it would be related to trauma though because it usually happens when I don’t want to deal with something going on in my life
0 likesI always feel like my body isn’t my body!
0 likesCan you feel like both your environment and your self are not real? I feel like nothing is real except for my own consciousness. I also feel like I'm being watched by a higher being who isn't in this fake reality I'm in.
0 likesAnyone else find it hard to wear your glasses because it emphasizes the feeling of being like stuck and you don't react fast to things your very slow? I have a hard time driving to because idk how to tell how far things are 😠
0 likesI just cut my hair short af and this is absolutely unrelated but now I'm happy
0 likesi love you make mental heath videos but sadly ones like this hit so close to hope that i feel weirded out that I'm watching them and that i have chosen to watch them I've kinda got depersonalisation in the sense of if I'm typing or reading or anything to do with a world building sort of thing my hand aren't mine and I'm just there looking at them freaking out that there are hands typing infant of me the sam with my feet, but anyway main point its very helpful and i love you
0 likesDodie please cover Matt Maltese's new song called "Comic Life" it's great!
0 likesCan't believe I get to meet you at your Manchester book tour😭💛
0 likesHonestly I don’t think TMS is going to do much for her. I have a neurosurgeon client who’s somewhat a pioneer in the TMS field here in Asia, and although he has told me it has some beneficial and immediate effects for patients with Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s- and I’ve seen the before and after videos- I’ve not heard of it being used for depression or anxiety. it’s a bit of a placebo treatment, utilized by many in the neurological field when they don’t know what else to put on the table. I wouldn’t put too much stock in its efficacy esp as her condition is more likely to be pathological. I think what she needs is time for her brain to heal, and possibly a good therapist, not medicine.
0 likesthe woman is sooo cute I loved her body language and facial expressions and her soothing way of talking
0 likesthe two loveliest humans💛
1 likeI have a couple of dissociation moments but they happen so randomly and I don't know if it's the same?? They really are just at random moments, like I was lying in bed watching Netflix and suddenly I felt like my brain left my body? like I was watching myself, watching netflix?? But it only lasts a couple of seconds. I really wanna know what it is and if it is the same because its frickin terrifying.
0 likesYour super chill I love it
0 likesOmg I never new this was a thing I thought it was just me!!! I just thought I was crazy
0 likesWhen you guys are trying to sleep do you ever get the feeling that your slowing sinking or like disappearing and it’s like freaky so you can’t sleep cuz that happens to me and I have both. I can’t sleep at night cuz it’s a freaky feeling that my whole body is numb.
0 likesI personally had a terrible experience with Zoloft as well. Terrible headaches issued, so I had to be taken off it for one week before trying something else out.
0 likesi wish talk therapists were more like this woman
0 likesi got it i was the medic that responded to my parents car accident
0 likesI had to literally pause this video so many times and go back because my brain would go somewhere else
0 likesthank you for this.
0 likesidk if this is like really mellow depersonalization but recently when i look in the mirror i dont feel like myself ?? who knows lmao
0 likesOk When i was growing up i often feel like this "When i was looking at people i ask myself alot of questions , are they real? how they become who they are, Is this chair real? How is that possible? What is important being alive? It seems and it feels that everything i see is not real it feels like I'm not real I'm just dreaming ,One day my parents noticed that my father ask my mama, "Have you notice our son always dumbfounded?" Cuz I'm thinking about this all the time, Then until my senior high school it became worse, I tried to play my mind because I was always thinking like this I don't even know why I'm thinking like that. then i became like crazy like I was not who i am, I'm always thinking negative all the time that i could not stop it anymore, that year was ugly and i was so fuck up. After graduated in Highschool before i got to college "I told myself i need to change i need to get myself back" I go through life fixing it by myself without google without internet to research to fixing this fucking thinking in my head , that i don't even know by focusing and be energetic in life and just go go! even i still had this thing in my head that never go away until now i'm 26. I graduated college 4 years i took a course that i did not like, because my grade in my last year in high school was so fuck up also that i don't have a choice to pick that course cuz ,that's the only available for my grade. Surprisingly my college life was great i met awesome people that likes to laugh, "When i laugh i feel good i feel confident i feel happy i feel positive" So i was laughing always as much as possible with my good classmates! luckily they like to laugh too, they don't judge me by laughing that hard. there is a lot of story in my college. What i learn in those days "LAUGHING IS REALLY THE BEST MEDICINE WELL MY BEST MEDICINE" then after college i was lonely again i was sad cuz i know i can't go to school anymore, i will never see them again, those happiness was done. i missed them so much i know they move on. After that after 3 years at home i tried to get a job , I worked as a teller in tollgate then after 4 months i got job again i worked as an operator in a factory for 5 months. Now I'm in my parents home again.. I became so much better by doing alot of things like reading books , watching youtube, bulding skill, trying something new, self development, always watching motivation. That fucking thing is always in my head sometimes its gone sometimes it comes again never go away completely. So that's my story i just wanna share, I realize today i think i got that "Deep thinking" by being alone and not so active when i was a kid. Not so busy on the outside world. I wish i can turn back the time.
0 likesoh. OH. wait. so thats. oh no i thought it was alexithymia this whole time but absolutely everything described is EXACTLY what its like for me oh NO
1 likeReally helpful
0 likesI use a rubik's cube as a fidget toy, and it works really well!
1 likesometimes when im in class suddenly i feel like im in a dream or im like a ghost between ppl that feeling happens to me rarly
0 likesThat marble metaphor I'm crying that is so real
0 likesNo way I must have discovered Kati through u dodie
0 likesYou should react to in a heartbeat even tho it’s kinda less relevant now but still beautiful.
0 likesI LOVE YOU ❤❤❤ Thanks for this vídeo
0 likesI watched this when you first posted it because I was a fan but now I have it and wanna learn more oops
0 likeswhy did i cry throughout this entire video
1 likeWhere are u dodie we miss you 🌷 i hope ure happy and healthy and enjoying life 😍
0 likesHey is there a way we can talk? I was just recently diagnosed with this
0 likesKatie Morton is the best!
0 likesZoloft did that to me too even at only 20 mg
0 likesHi, um I know this isn't necessarily the best place to go to for help haha, but I just don't know what's going on. I space out so badly to the point of not being able to think at all. Or if it's worse another day, it's to the point where I don't feel like I'm here. I've tried meditation and grounding techniques, and they don't help. I get so scared because i start to question my own sanity. It's much like a dream state and sometimes I just feel like I'm in the background or disconnected from my body, almost like someone looking in. My doctor diagnosed me with depression and anxiety, but then my therapist said that I sounded like the poster child for ADHD in teenage girls. I've been on ADHD stimulants since then, but those only seem to worsen my spacing out moments. They do help me hyper focus, but that's about it. I just don't know if it's derealization or if it's actually ADHD? I explained my spacing out to my therapist and she had never heard of it before, or it being that bad. I just feel hopeless. My grades are dropping and I just can't seem to pull it together. I have experienced trauma, I guess you'd say. My mother is verbally, emotionally, and at times physically abusive. I've had a lot happen and I just feel lost. I'm hoping someone could give me advice or something because I don't know what to do anymore. I love you all.
0 likesI also have chronic derealisation
0 likesOmg amazing collaboration!
0 likesSUCH an important video
0 likesLiterally the two cutest women in the world! :3
1 likewhat do you do when grounding doesn't work?
0 likesdodie you should make a video entirely in your best american accent
0 likesWhat is it when you feel bored at things that you know aren’t boring that you used to like and in convos cant focus and just give off a false reaction that u think the other person wants
0 likesSo the marble part on how a trauma shoots through all the memories ever had can it misconstrue the events ?
0 likesI've only had derealization
1 likeI think I have Depersonalization/ de realisation tbh :(
0 likes(Asking other people with DP/DR). Do you ever feel like other people don’t actually exist but you have strange realization that there are people. Like I totally lack the feeling of sonder. Is it just me?
0 likesSo now that’s I’m 21 and been dealing with somethings I think I’ve got derealization
0 likesI look in the mirror and maybe I just explain it differently than others but it’s not like I’m not looking at me. Cuz like. I know it’s me but I can’t remember what I look like off the top of my head
And sometimes my body feels like it’s an incorrect picture of me. Like if someone drew a really realistic picture of me but it’s kinda off in some ways.
And I’m constantly disratiing myself with like. Idk. I have no memory but mostly scrolling. Another thing, I have zero memory.
Some extra issues cuz I need to vent sorry:
And I have zero passion for anything. And I can’t take care of myself. And I’m spending literally all my money. And my jobs giving me less hours w a new manager.
Is to possible to have small episodes and really long episodes, of a mental disorder? Like you can just be feeling fine them slip into an episode and it last for a bit and then it just go and then come back?
0 likesCongrats on 700k!!!
1 likeI was just watching this video. I kind of had some realizations like shit, what the fuck is really wrong with me. So I kind of had a breakdown because of that realization. Now I'm so scared that I think that someone is watching me. Help.
0 likesThank you !!!
0 likesdoes any1 else find it where u feel like ur in a similulation?
2 likesDoes anyone have like feeling where everything feels wrong and different and just off and you can’t think or feel because everything is wrong so that a symptom of depersonalization or that?
0 likesI don't know who I am anymore.like I don't know what "I" means when I recall my past memories of myself I feel as if that was someone else and right now I am someone else .when I meet my relatives I feel I have changed as if they are not meeting me as if they are meeting someone else.so is this depersonalization? Also I have never faced any trauma in my life neither have I done drugs all I know is that I feel terrible and depressed because I want to be normal. Can a vitamin deficiency cause this? Please answer
0 likescan you pretty please do a cover of Sweater Weather by the Neighborhood?!?!?!?!?
0 likesI don't recognize my face.... it's really strange. I don't think I have the feeling of dreaming, I just look at myself and don't see myself in the mirror. I try explain it to my friends and they don't understand what I'm saying but nothing really has happened to spark any of this recently but I do now understand the 'little Ts' thing, it makes sense. I don't know really, I just came back here because I forgot what these were about
0 likesi feel like im just here sometimes and that its like a dream that im just living if that makes sense. marijuana makes it worse.
0 likesso it makes sense now
0 likesi was crying on my pillow and was wiping my tears then suddenly it occured to me that why do i even have 5 fingers? like who is making me inhale air when i dont want to?
its just random questions that just messes my mind
What if nothing traumatic has happened?
0 likesHave you watched the movie 'Numb' starting Matthew Perry? it's all about depersonalisation.
0 likesI really wish I'd seen this a few years ago
0 likeswoah i also get depersonalisation what, when i look in the mirror sometimes i don’t know who that is
0 likesI have all 3 of them lmao
0 likesMostly I just feel numb to it, and if not then in some sort of negation, I’ve been there so long I don’t even realize about anymore?
0 likesHOLY FEEAKING HELL!!!!! MY TWO FAVORITE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
0 likesWhat if you have Depersonalization derealization and asbergers n depression/anxiety :/ I feel so detached and like an alien. I'm going to the doctor again later this month I hope they can help me :( I've been thinking if I cant get help maybe suicide might be the only realistic way out...
0 likesI literally knew I recognized her from somewhere in Shane’s video (other than her channel) and THIS WAS IT OMG
1 likethis was really good for me.
0 likesSo it's like your fight or flight instincts kick in you definitely don't want to fight but have nowhere to flee to so your brain is like imma just leave now bye peace out huh I think I have that sometimes
1 likeeverytime i dissociate i have to close my eyes bc my sight doesnt match up with feeling and hesring
0 likeswoah. rewatching this after shane's series on jake paul and DOCTOR MORTON
1 likeThe comment sections here are so respectful aww
0 likesI get depersonalisation and derealisation but I don't (to my knowledge) have any trauma?? Like I have no clue what caused this
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@Rachael Watkins very helpful mate
0 likesGod I never realised Kati Morton was in a Dodie video.
0 likesaghh i wish i could get a therapist but it costs a lot and we don’t have the money for it
0 likesalso every time i bring up my mental health which was one time what am i saying my parents are like oh you shouldn’t self diagnose (which i understand) it’s probably fiiiiine you’re a teenager puberty goes paired with things like that
but what i’m too scared to tell them is how bad it really is and okay i’ll stop writing now this is too long if anyone actually read this 1. thank you 2. do you have any tips
thank you <3
0 likesZoloft has been amazing for me
0 likesAFTER WATCHING SHANE’S SERIES I JUST NOTICED THAT ITS KATY OMG.
2 likeshowever i haven’t really been through any traumas
0 likesidk if i’m just different or it’s something else but i often feel like i take a deep enough breath, i can’t open my eyes wide enough, i feel like i’m zooming out but also trapped in my body. i know what i’m supposed to do eg. put my coat on, charge my phone but i feel very zoned out while doing so almost like i’m dreaming. i feel like i’m watching myself but i can control my actions, i just don’t feel like it’s me doing it
1 likeI used to go to this therapist (but she was kinda mean and I didn’t rly trust her (and she was a gay conversion therapist on the side 😬 not good)) and I tried explaining derealization to her. She said « maybe you just have low blood sugar » lol. That was a rough time.
0 likesIf anyone needs help and advice from an ex-DP sufferer, reply and ill tell you how we can talk, ( i will help you get rid of it for good)
0 likesGot depersonalization from a bad weed trip
0 likesYOU SHOULD HAVE WON THAT STREAMY
0 likesholy crap it all makes sense now
0 likescan dodie be the 13th doctor's companion pls
0 likesI feel all this in the comments but I feel like I’m unreal and like I’m not there/ I don’t exist what bothers me is I can’t explain it
1 likeYou're not alone!
0 likesI always feel like I am watching myself in a 3rd person view
0 likesi get this when i get super super high :/ i feel really bad when people get this everyday, i can’t imagine. feels like i’m in a dream and i don’t know what’s real and what’s not
0 likesCan u do a draw my life !?!?
0 likesPlease look at Emotional Freedom Technique it is very good
0 likesI just realized this is the lady from Shane's video 😁❤️
1 likeEMDR saved my life.
0 likesDODIE ITS THE FIRST BIT BACK AT SCHOOL WHERE ARE YOU TO GIVE ME EMOTIONAL SUPPORT
0 likesnot recognising your friends and family is the worst part. the only way i can describe it is like every time you look at them they have a different face. you know who they are and you have memories of them but you can’t see them there. it’s terrifying.
0 likesI’m so confused :( I’m just trying to figure out what it was I experienced for 10 years
0 likesI think I might have this... but I don't know... like if I'm hanging out with my friends and something happens that upsets me I just clock out.. is that the same thing?
0 likesI have to fidget with something spikey in my hands while driving or in a more crowded space like a store so I don’t completely float away. Now I know im not alone. Ummm I’m so grateful to have found you. Now what!?
0 likesoh my gosh i have disrealisation this is so weird woah
0 likesmine is so bad I can't even process what people are saying to me when they're trying to help me come down from it.
0 likesI'm not sure if anyone is going to see this, but if you do and have dealt with this before, could you please tell me how you tell your family/doctor that you think you may have this without coming across like some kid who's just attention seeking etc? I've had symptoms of this for years and have only just recently discovered it, and I think I need to speak to someone about it. Thank you.
0 likesSometimes I get this so bad I can’t stand up, just me?
0 likesStudy. Immersion. Therapy. Diet. Personal. Nature. Bath. Heat. Good conversation.🐝
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these really do help!
0 likesthank you
0 likesBretahwork/Wim Hof is very effective as well. IF you are able to remember!
0 likesI feel slightly drunk all the time
0 likesI feel like im spectating myself right now!
0 likesSertraline made it worse for me (*sertreline?)
0 likesthis is so interesting
0 likesi love how your videos have a purple tone!
0 likesI have had it for like 3 years i didnt think it was a problem until i searched it up on youtube i dont know what to do😥😭
0 likesI love Kati 😍
0 likesWhat if you have no one to trust because I’m going through some friend problems
0 likesi have this :,)
0 likeseducate us sis!
0 likesOmg I thought she looked familiar from Shane’s series but I couldn’t figure out why and now I know!!!
0 likesI don't know what I have like I always have time slip through my one ear and the other like I can't remember simple things like conversations I had today and when I look in the mirror for to long I look different, like not myself. Does anyone know what I have?
0 likesCould you do a cover of diving bell/ any song by super glu
0 likesThe two kindest women
0 likesA concept: dodie doing a cover of truce
0 likesI'm sobbing rn because I had no idea this stuff had a name n shit because I thought I was just going insane
0 likesDidnt realize this wasnt something everyone felt... yeesh
1 likeIdk if its appropriate to say , given the context of the video but the girl in the glasses looks a lot like Fran Menses (she is an artist on YouTube)
0 likesomg i was one of the very few people tha had it thanks
0 likes"All we can do is leave in our brain"
0 likesThis hits me.
I’ve never had either of these thank God. But unfortunately my brother had it for 3 months when he was 16. After hearing from my brother about how he felt, research, and YouTube videos. I still have no fucking idea wtf this shit is. And if someone could help me destroy my fear of getting it just by thinking about it you would legitimately be my guardian angel.
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You don't want it. Was stuck in it for almost 9 years
0 likesCan you cover Never Let Me Go by Florence and the Machine?
0 likesI have it 24/7 to Dodie
0 likeshands up who else rewatched this cos dis sister is also featured in shane's series lol
0 likesIt would be cool if you did jacksfilms fixed version of "Look what you made me do" by Taylor Swift
0 likesI can't even get in a car without panicking
0 likesOMG I HAVE DEPERSONALIZATION CONSTANTLY ALL THE TIME. NOTHING FEELS REAL. WHEN I TOUCH SOMETHING I FEEL THE SENSATION OF WHAT IT FEELS LIKE BUT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE ITS MY HAND DOING IT. THE SIGHT OF MY HAND TOUCHING IT AND THE FEELING OF THE TOUCH DON'T CLICK IN MY BRAIN. NOTHING HAS FELT REAL FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS. ITS SO WEIRD AND SOMETIMES ITS WORSE THAN OTHERS. It probably derived from me as a child convincing myself that what was happening around me was just what I was seeing and nothing was actually happening. I managed to make myself feel like I wasn't really there. Or maybe it derived from my depression that I recently got over? I don't know... nothing feels real most of the time... what do I do
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I also tend to zone out after being embarrassed or getting punished for doing something wrong or after doing something wrong in general. I haven't gone through any super traumatic events but I did have Depression and suicidal thought, though I recently got over those.
0 likesmy best friend has this but not all the time, so when both of us want have something to say I will now let her go first becausre she then forgets. Ironically I will forget as well if i hear her out first so we are both screwed XD
0 likesI know this is early and nothing to do with this video but could you please do vlogmas ❤ xxx
0 likesit is better to forget it, or to accept?
0 likesLmao people have literally thought of everything to diagnose themselves with
0 likesI've always wondered, what does her arm tattoo say?
0 likeswoww thank you!!
0 likes100% have this
0 likesbought your boom today !!!
0 likescan you do an update video?
0 likes8:57
0 likesI usually fidget with an old blunt pen knife coz it has a sharp(ish) edge, but won't hurt me.
The therapist very much reminds me of Arizona Robbins
0 likesI really wanted to watch this and the information was great, but I feel with all the jump-cuts I was missing out on info. It was really distracting.
0 likesthis is the person in sahnes sociopath series!
1 likeI have derealization/depersonalization disorder and it’s a horrible struggle full of anxiety attacks and paranoia. It’s 24/7 and hasn’t gone away for since October last year. I have NO idea how to get better and get rid of it
0 likesCAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHERE DODIE GOT HER GLASSES AND IF HER GLASSES ARE PRESCRIPTION GLASSES
0 likesPlease cover Forest fire by Brighton💛
0 likesHow is schema different from dbt?
0 likes❤️❤️❤️
0 likesI miss ya, Dodie dear
0 likes"I am not a doctor"...Ok...good to know
0 likesTHE MARBALS PART OH MY GOSH
0 likesShit I think I have this
0 likesI keep spacing out and I can barely focus on anything. I just stare out into nothing and it becomes kinda blurry? idek if that's that but. and I have episodes, where I'll feel either like everything is right and I can't stop smiling and I love this world so much, theeen I'll be super depressed and can't find anything positive and it just feels like nothing. idek it's weird (and also when people touch me it feels painful sometimes)
How can u talk to someone about this? How can I go to my doctors or people at school to talk about this? I feel like this may be me but I’m not sure. How should I talk to people about how I feel or not feeling?
0 likesThe therapist reminds me of a patient from Scrubs so bad
0 likesdodie, how do you write a song? Im trying so hard but i cant do it. i have no inspiration on what it should be about and i have no talent with words...
0 likesAnyone know what camera dodie uses xx
0 likesI know this might seem completely random but i was wondering if you could do a cover of a song called I Built A Friend by Alec Benjamin... its a beautiful song and i think you would enjoy it too?
0 likesI have depersonalization. It sucks.
1 likethank you
0 likesplease upload i need to be happy and you help with that
0 likesim so scared. what if it never stops😓
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It will
0 likes9:00 this sounds a lot like stimming :o!
0 likes💛
0 likesI have both... will it ever go or end
1 likeomg this was kati morton!
0 likesA feel like when I laugh a find it funny for a milla second then overthink it n just feel numb when I drink to everything’s goes so quick even when I don’t
0 likesam i aloud to like this video? i don't know if i should...
0 likesim so scared that God is going to end my life early because he knows I dont want to live with this forever. do you think im overthinking?
0 likesI don't want to sound like I'm self diagnosing myself because I hate when people do that but I think I should look up de realization and depersonalization because I think I might have it. All the time I will be somewhere or doing something or even just at my house and will all a sudden just be like this isn't real this is a dream or a figment of my imagination and I just thought that was some weird way I coped with my anxiety but that makes more sense and the depersonalization would help explain my gender fluidity a lot because I'll look in the mirror and won't see myself in a way like it's not what I'd seen last time if that makes any sense but yeah I just thought it was interesting and the way Dodie explained it felt like an epiphany of some sort.
0 likesAnd that's the tea sis
0 likesI have depersonalisation hard
0 likesI believe I have both and I'm only twelve. Is that bad?
0 likesPlease just upload again dodie please
1 likeI love you 😍 please listen to clean by Taylor swift- I’m sure you’d love it- I love your music
0 likesi miss dodie
0 likesDODIE WHERE DID YOU GET YOUR GLASSES PLEASE
0 likesHelp I want to cut my hair like yours but a bit shorter but my mom was screaming at me bc I want to cut my hair but she won't let me what do I do
0 likesI have both yay
0 likesI don't know if I have it but I used hunger to try to feel but I have to eat now and I feel horrible 😖
0 likesOh damn shes the therapist from shanes channel
0 likesDodie you are my she
0 likesI only have derealization
1 likewhere can someone buy the toys she’s talking about?
0 likesi feel like ive got a tiny bit of dissociation
0 likesbut the question is
y tho
im only 12 like uh brain what the heck r u ok
O___ U have a new fan & subscriber !!
0 likesReally interesting, thanks for educating me!
0 likesI love you both ! Great video !
2 likesI feel like I suffer from these every day of my life. It really makes me depressed, but this video helped me feel a little more informed and slightly less alone. Love you Dodie ❤️
0 likesI've had derealisation since I was really young but I never knew what was really happening. Lately I've just started to think it was something related to my anxiety. Thank you so much for making this video and explaining all of this it really helped.
0 likesKatiiii! I love this woman. Her videos saved my life, particularly her video on intrusive thoughts. I have severe OCD and I had a random spike in 2015 and I was very close to ending my life when I came across Kati's videos. If you're reading this Kati I want to say THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for saving my life. 💕
0 likesi love kati!!! her videos have helped me so much on my way through being diagnosed and looking for the right treatment, and also learning how and why things are the way they are. thank you kati! and also dodie! 💖💕💘💗
0 likesI've had these since I was in 5th grade and I've always been scared and confused about it and nobody thought anything was wrong with me and I've been scared ever since thank you so much for realizing I'm ok and not alone❤️❤️❤️
0 likesI feel so lucky to have never been through anything like this. I wish you all the best Dodie.
0 likesI find this so interesting as I'm training to be a CBT therapist xx
I really appreciate this video. I only recently felt like I might be experiencing dissociation and it was very discouraging when my therapist told me it sounded like my feelings were normal when I knew it did not feel normal. she did suggest mindfulness, but it hasn't really helped so far, so it matters that dodie and kati put out more options. thank you <3
0 likesDodie, thank you so much for making this video!! I could relate to a few things and you really helped me out. I also had EMDR and it really helped me! :)
0 likesThank you for talking about small traumas as a cause of dp/dr. I used to feel incredibly guilty (which obviously made me feel worse) about having a mental illness because I couldn't identify what had happened to me in my life that was SO bad. 💛
0 likesThanks so much for this! I was kind of watching it just out of interest and didn't realise how much it was going to affect me. I luckily have never experienced derealization or depersonalisation but I suffered a huge trauma when I was 15, and I think I've experienced some dissociation from that. In the 7 years since I've always felt guilty that I'm not caring enough about what happened, or I get frustrated that when I try and remember what happened and it's like seeing it through a layer of cling film. But now I have a word for why that is, and I know that it's just my brain protecting itself. Plus the explanation of traumatic memories shattering and planting themselves everywhere really resonates with me as well, so thank you for the useful explanations :)
0 likesI hope everything goes well with the treatments you're exploring, Dodie. I honestly wish you the very very best and hope you see some improvement soon ❤❤❤
Kati reminds me so much of my Thearipist. I've always been one of those people that need to understand the logical cause of things in order to deal with them and she does it in a very unpatronising and caring way ❤
0 likesThanks for this fantastic video! During my worst stages of anxiety I experienced depersonalisation and derealisation for 3 months straight. Luckily through coping techniques and talking through my trauma I overcame it and haven't felt this way in years. You got this Dodie! ❤
0 likesShe is so incredibly interesting! I could listen to her for hours. and this video kinda explains what I've been feeling for a while. ❤️
0 likesThank you dodie for this video. its great how you are using your platform to bring awareness to these mental health issues 💛
0 likesThis helped so much! can't thank both of you enough! Much love ❤️❤️❤️
0 likesI'm a student of music therapy right now, which is a relatively new kind of therapy, but it can be really useful with establishing grounding techniques and works really well, especially when used in conjunction with talk therapy, for dealing with trauma, so that might be something that you, dodie or anyone else reading, might want to look into!
0 likesThank you so much, Dodie. I have been struggling with this for so long and it comforts me to know that I'm not the only one out there.
0 likesWow this explains so much for me. I've struggled with all of these due to mental illness and trauma since I was a child. Thank you for this video.
0 likesIt''s so wonderful to hear anyone talking about derealization on such a big platform, thank you so much.
0 likesDodie!!! Thank you and Kati so so much for this!!! I have derealization mostly in chunks of time and usually it's when I'm stressed, and this explained so much :) Thanks so much for explaining about the trauma--I didn't know about that! I think too many things were happening so my brain just spaced out. For some reason, before this, I assumed it was brain chemistry but trauma makes sense! I really hope you get better soon :) and I hope I can work through this too <3
0 likesMy doctor wanted me to try EMDR but my big-T Trauma happened 7 years ago, so I figure it'd be a bit pointless. Definitely interested in seeing how your therapies go! <3
0 likesFor my Health and Social Care coursework I chose to focus on depersonalisation and bring more awareness to it. This really helps as I'm using your videos as a source!
0 likesthank you for this video....I've been taking medication and attending cbt for anxiety but now I'm wondering If I have derealisation. The idea of coming across a splinter in those panicky moments makes so much sense and I think that idea will help me cope and recognise when to calm down and move past the situation. I'll talk to my doctor about my mental health and derealisation so thank you for addressing it and normalising it for your audience, I can't stress how important you are to particularly anyone struggling with mental health :) 🐝
0 likesThis was wonderful 'cause I learned so much! Thank you Dodie and Kati!
0 likesThis is amazing. I truly understand and also deal with this. Dissociation is so hard and scary.
0 likesIm so happy you made this video, it made me feel not alone. Thank you!! Ive had it for a year and a half and ive built my understanding of it so much more and i cant wait to get out of this cloud.
0 likesThank you for making this video I didn't really understand what disassociation or depersonalisation was and was confused whenever you mentioned either or both and this clears up and helps me understand what these mental illnesses are.
0 likesSchema therapy is amazing! I have tried a bunch of meds, general talk therapy, CBT, TMS, a bunch of things in an intensive outpatient program, and they helped but none as much as schema therapy.
0 likesWow. I've spoken with therapists about my anxiety and both told me I needed to open up because i honestly could not think of a huge event in my childhood that triggered my panic attacks. Not once did anyone suggest it could have been lots of little things. Thank you Kati and dodie! I'm seeing a new therapist in a few weeks and to be honest had lost a lot of hope in 'fixing' me. Will be great to approach it with this new found knowledge.
0 likesHey dodie - thank you so much for this video! I feel much better seeing someone else (and professional) that knows what im feeling! Thank you <3
0 likesyou dont know how freeing it is to finally know what has been "wrong" with me lately. I watched the video and it was like it made click, because thats exactly what is happening to me. I am so glad you made this video and gabe information on the topic
0 likesI love this. I love Kati, she was so understanding i loved everything about this. so calming. thank you
0 likesWhen I was in therapy my therapist also gave me some tips and tricks for somatic experiencing. He'd ask me how I was feeling at that exact moment and then he'd ask me to locate that feeling inside my body (anxiety, for example, I mostly experience in my stomach and throat, other feelings I might feel lower in my stomach, my arms, my head etc.). He told me to try that little exercise at different times during the day. This helped me with two things I'm still so thankful for: 1. it's become much easier to recognise how I'm feeling. I can just be like "why does my stomach feel so weird?" and then I remember it's probably because I'm anxious for some reason.With that knowlege I can then decide how I can best act on that feeling. and 2. I can now recongnise patterns in how I feel, when I feel those things, which people make me feel certain things and all that. This has made it so much easier for me to recognise my anxiety and not let myself run away from it. It also helped me to not get inside my head too much. Head is for thinking, body is for feeling. (obv. not 100% true, but it's a little rule I made for myself to prevent getting caught up in feelings in my head). This video was so great! thank you for making it!
0 likesThat's so important and helpful to know three different types rather than just one. Thank you xx I have experienced derealisation and I just thought I was depressed with a migraine lol (or not) xx
0 likesI've been living in a state of dissociation/derealisation for about 1-2 years after an extremely traumatic event, and I don't hate it or have a desire to get rid of it, mainly because I have extreme anxiety and hypersensitivity too and it helps to numb it, I truly believe if I felt fully connected I wouldn't be able to cope with everyday things that for people without hypersensitivity wouldn't even think twice about- not to mention the stuff that's going on around home I surely would have had a full blown breakdown. Sure it's a pain when everyone around me is just able to take things in when I have to put effort into taking things in and appreciating it but if I didn't feel spaced out and like I was in a haze I probably wouldn't even leave the house.
0 likesHi Dodie!
0 likesLet me first say that I love your music and your videos! They make my day better :)
Secondly, I would like to say that I'm a 20 year old Music Education student and I was wondering if music therapy could be an option that you've considered for derealization/depersonalization. I'm not a doctor, but I do strongly believe in the results that music therapy can bring. I'd like to maybe know your thoughts about it too :) Does Britain have any programs like this (I'm from Canada and I do know it's becoming more popular here)? Could this be another helpful thing for people with this disorder?
I don't want to seem bossy or anything; I'm just curious about what you think and I'd like to help in any way that I can haha.
Keep making videos Dodie and keep being an inspiration because you are doing amazing things :) Thanks :)
This video made me realize that I have had moments of derealization and depersonalization in the past. Last year, when I was at school, I just felt like I was floating through a dream that never ended. Youtube has helped me feel those emotions again and all of the sudden the feelings would go away! Something about school triggers it, but I don't know what. With depersonalization, I often, since I was very little, have felt disconnected with my body. I would look at my hands and feel weird, and try stomping my feet to make me feel connected, but nothing would work. I just felt like I was floating separate from my body. Eventually, it would pass, and I never thought much of it. Now, I can put a name to it and try to tell people how I feel! Thank you so much for making this video, it helped me a lot!
0 likesLots of love!
thank you dodie for uploading this video. I understand more about derealisation and know there are other mental diseases out in the world noticed. Maybe I do have something or maybe I don't. Overall, you made my eyes open and make me feel real for just at least some minutes.
0 likesI took Zoloft a few years ago and it made me way worse. I've tried a few other medications over the years that have really helped and made a huge difference, so I really hope you find a good fit for you! <3
0 likesHi Dodie, I just wanted to ask you how you went about seeking help, i saw a Councillor for a while whilst at university but it reached a point where the person i was seeing believed me to be "cured" which i wasn't i've never been trialed on anything to help with my depersonalisation(dissociation) and i've had it for about 5 years now.
0 likesGreat video, this is super interesting! I experience a few of these on and off occasionally and im ok with dealing with them a lot but when I'm worse especially when I'm panicked in a situation I can't get out of I get more physical things like painful pins and needles around my face and neck and the feeling like my skin crawling, what feels like really violent shivers down my spine, is this a form of depersonalisation or just a physical manifestation of panic? I've always just called it depersonalisation because it seems like it would be but idk, I've always been curious.
0 likesI'd like to try more types therapy though, I want to go back to talk therapy as it helped me a lot, especially with bigger things? but I don't know if other things are worth trying more for the long term. Not excepting all the answers from youtube comments but still 😂❤
This video made me realise what i thought was me being tired, emotionally exhausted, couldnt open my eyes, post anxiety attack or just in general. I would sometimes also look in the mirror and be like is that really me? I do also sometimes look at other people in a way i have never seen before and it makes them look like a stranger when i know perfectly well who they are, so thank you so much for this video! i have spent my whole life thinking i was insane but i suppose thats who we are hahahaa :) THE MUSICALLY INSANE! :):)
0 likesThank you for making this. I think this was a healthy and educational way of explaining what you're dealing with. Thank you for opening up about your metal health struggles and helping others to do the same.
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0 likesI never thought that anyone could ever experience of understand the 'floaty' and 'spaced out' feeling I feel nearly every day. But, I now think that I'm not so alone. It's so hard to describe how I feel when I'm anxious and/or stressed, but this video described it nicely. Thanks Dodie and Kati! :) x
0 likesI'm really reluctant to say that anything's wrong with me given that I'm so young, I've never had anything traumatic happen to me and I generally have a good memory, but I looked up a list of dissociation symptoms on a very reliable health website and I related to 8 out of 10 of them.
0 likesThis is a great video and, as usual, you have managed to explain everything really well, etc. My only problem is that the only advice for what I should do was that oft-repeated phrase "talk to somebody!" See, although I should probably do all that, I also probably have social anxiety too, so the very idea of talking to somebody terrifies me beyond words. What do I do?
0 likesi am soooooo happy that dodie talks about this. this helps me soooo much. just the fact you can recognize these things and not feeling alone! im soo happy with this! there are no words for the gratefullness i feel right now. i love you for that
0 likesI got a little teary at Kati's Inside Out explanation. Something hit me deep inside with that. This is such a great video Dodi!
0 likesI also have depersonalisation and derealisation, that's linked to my anxiety and things from my past. This was so helpful, especially to know that I'm not alone. My derealisation makes me panic so much and usually happens in social situations. It's so disorientating that I just have to leave the situation and go home a lot of the time.
0 likesthat was so educating and well illustrated, i love it!!
0 likesthis helps me understand my own experiences more, thank you <3
0 likesI cannot tell you enough how much this type of videos helped me! Really, really from the bottom of my heart thank you.
0 likesi remember seeing a post on tumblr of the behaviors of depersonalization and it hit me that this could be what was wrong with me. i researched it for like a week and saw myself in almost all of the signs. i brought it up to my mom and she didn't even ask why i thought i felt this way. all she said was "you can't believe everything you see on the internet" i'm still very sure i suffer from this. i don't even recognize myself in the mirror or pictures anymore. i almost caught myself asking my friend who this strange girl was in our group photo. i'm so so tired. and i don't know what to do.
0 likesthis was super interesting to hear about, my knowledge of mental illnesses was super limited up until recently and i find learning new things like this, thought it is sad its kinda at your expense...
0 likesdodie, i'm not exactly sure what i hope to gain out of writing you this message, as i'm sure you get tons of messages like this daily. i suppose its more so for me than for you, but i really want you to know what an impact you have had on me. i have been struggling with depersonalization/derealization since i was little, but recently after a car accident was launched into it basically 24/7 for a couple of months now. its truly the scariest thing i've ever had to deal with, and there have been so many times when i have felt so completely alone and ready to give up. just seeing that you also struggle with this and that you still manage to do so much and reach so many people, honestly that keeps me going sometimes. this disorder is truly one of the most devastating things in my opinion, but you are such a bright light. so thank you, for this and for being you ❤️
0 likesThe bit about the marbles was SO INTERESTING AND EYE-OPENING I never thought of trauma that way. I treated it as a single marble I wouldn't stop picking up instead of something that's been shattered/dispersed through everything.
0 likesThis helped a lot for me to understand what I'm told I have when ever a panic attack it's going to happen which I guess is a good thing in away because I know when I need to take myself out of something so yeah thanks 😊
0 likesi don't know what type of dissociation i suffer from but i believe it's some type of mix between derealisation and depersonalisation. when i experience it (which is quite often) it feels like a different world in my head. it's basically like i'm writing a book/a whole different universe every time i experience it. it is a continuous story but when i get tired of it or when somehow i start "writing" a new world the older one doesn't feel right anymore and it stresses me out to "force" myself to continue with the older one. everybody in my "universe" (i believe that they're called paracosmos in the literature world) has their own set story and life and thoughts and i can project myself onto any of them and "live" as them and that's how i deal with my real life issues - i make up some storyline that somehow makes my character feel in a similar way to the way i'm feeling irl and deal with it by not being myself per say. some characters are reoccurring since i was 14 (i have experienced this since i was 12 but i recall moments when i was 7/8 of very similar situations) and others die with the paracosmos i leave behind (i still remember them and their lives and all of that jazz, and sometimes i bring them back) (characters can stay alive but i change parts of their storyline and you know i make sure they fit into whatever world i picture). it is mostly triggered and stimulated by audio and visuals and when i watch a movie or a tv show and a character from those really speak to certain parts of me i almost always make sure to include parts of them in my paracosmos (i don't know if i'm expressing myself correctly). i also feel very attached and connected to them. i do lose keep track of time and sometimes space when i experience this and i do have gaps in memory because of this. i also have a really weird sense of time like it still feels like 2012 in my head (i was 12 at the time). i also experience this involuntarily when i'm in a not so positive mood and have lots of stress and anxiety or when i'm sad and all that jazz. when i'm happy it cools down a bit and i can sort of choose when to "write" it? like i know that if i listen to music when i'm happy i will dissociate and i know that if i'm walking by myself i will also do it etc. aside from this when i'm living in the real world i do experience feeling like i'm out of my body and i'm not inside of it (specially in social situations and when i have to interact with people) it feels like i'm in a movie you know? there's a lot more stuff that goes around this thing but i feel like i've written too much so i'm going to keep it to myself. also sorry if there are any mistakes i'm not a native english speaker x
0 likesYAY KATI!!!! I can't believe you two collabed!!! This made me so happy when I saw this video in my sub box
0 likesHi! I have a question/need advice:
0 likesI took a math test yesterday and as I started getting more stressed because of time, I could feel myself getting more and more sucked away. After I came to terms with the fact that I wasn't gonna finish it, I decided to do the easy ones on the back, but I couldn't even remember how to do a simple factoring problem. My mind wasn't there at all. I was wondering how to fix this/bring my mind back when this happens? When it does come back after I get out of that situation, panic attacks come on because everything rushes at me at once. Any ways to bring my mind back to focus WHILE it happens, then not get flooded afterwards?
Hi Dodie, do you think you would be able to keep the text on the screen for a little longer if possible? I never have time to read it all! 🙈 love your videos and thank you for posting stuff like this. I don't suffer from any mental health disorders, but I always find it so interesting hearing about it from a first hand experience!
0 likesThis is super interesting and it actually helped me understand a few things about myself.
0 likesI had a really intense period of time when I had insomnia for more than 3 weeks, was even unable to catch up on sleep on the weekends, which was something that always kept me from going too far over the side of the cliff, - I was at the point I would fall asleep for brief moments at my desk at work and I was hearing voices and having moments where I didn't know where I was or how I got there, and I felt very spacey and out of it - and one time, I had a moment when I looked at myself in a mirror and didn't recognize myself. As horrible as it was, somehow it actually threw me for such a loop, I actually addressed the problem. I took a week off of work and just, basically self-cared because I can't afford a doctor but it really helped and I hope that never happens again.
0 likeswow I've had derealization and depersonalization and I didn't know what was wrong but this helped me out so so much. I just didn't feel like I was there and I didn't feel like I was my self. I have more memories with my derealization because it used to happen A LOT. I never knew what was wrong. During those "episodes" I don't like talking to anyone because it makes me feel more out of myself. Thank you soooo much
0 likesI don't have depersonalisation or derealisation but watching this was really interesting and really quite soothing. I feel like when I come to a mental block I can use some of these tips so thank you :-)
0 likeslast year I had severe depersonalisation. just like you say in the video I would look at my hands and face and not recognize myself, it was terrifying, so terrifying that I couldn't even look in the mirror because I wouldn't recognize the person staring back. I remember looking down as I was walking and there were just legs walking, they were my legs, but I couldn't process that. I also felt derealisation but not as severely as depersonalisation. not knowing what this was, was so so scary and I didn't know how to fix it. now a year later I have researched and figured out how to help it and though I don't have it as severely I still get depersonalised sometimes.
0 likesthankyou for making people aware of these things Dodie and for telling the world how you're feeling because not many people are brave enough to do so, you're really a blessing.
Dodie, how brave you were at Vidcon. I took my 12 year old daughter to see you on the mental health panel, at her request. She is so inspired by you. Thank you for sharing and being so brave. You help so many young people to talk about mental health. I look forward to watching your journey with my daughter. X
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0 likesI've been dealing with dissociation and depersonalisation disorder for over a year now. I was scared to watch this video, because Dodie has always been my escape from everything. The world is so unfair for making her feel the same things and struggling with this condition the same way I and many people do. This video was very informative and super accurate, good job girls 👏🏻💕 I still felt hopeless after watching this, like I always do when it comes to dissociation. I just feel like there is no cure for this. Nothing ever works. I feel like I will never feel alive again and I will never get back the contact to myself that I once lost. I don't know who I am, I only know who I once was. But that person in the past is not me anymore. I just wish everything would end and I found myself again. It will be over, but I'll always be asking "when?"
0 likesI immediately recognised Kati from that one Always open episode that I put in my then-newly-established "Important things" playlist. So now I have a ton of collab videos in my watch later playlist... Time to get to watching ~
0 likesone of the first medications I tried was Zoloft, and it didn't work for me at all. I've been on medication since I was about 13 or 14, and I didn't find (what I think is) the right medication until I was about 16, and even now, my doctor checks with my medication and considers changing my "cocktail" of meds! :) i'm afraid of therapies like TCMS because I'm not really familiar with it and I'm afraid that it will be dangerous! I've only tried CBT, and I didn't feel like it worked for me. I am trying a new therapist at the end of the month, though, so we'll see how that goes!
0 likesAs someone who also suffers from derealisation and depersonalisation and is constantly told by therapists, "I don't know what's wrong with you," or "I don't know how to help you", this video was endlessly helpful for me. Thank you ❤️
0 likesi've struggled with derealisation, depersonalisation and dissociation for years now alongside depression, anxiety and ptsd. i've tried a crazy amount of psychs and therapy styles as well as being inpatient. im on the up now, still struggling with derealisation, depersonalisation and dissociation as well as bouts of depressive episodes and anxiety but im getting there. seeing you talk about something that doesnt get a lot of attention in mental health communities is really refreshing. i was super nervous seeing this in my sub box that you might say some incorrect information or whatever but im really pleased with this video thank you so much for making it dodie x
0 likesThank you so much for this video! It was really helpful to me and interesting to me, thank you thank you ❤❤
0 likesI have a few kinda medium-sized rather recent traumas, and my therapist did this emdr-esque thing with me when I was having like, constant derealization and flashbacks multiple times a day for weeks where we'd talk about it and then when I'd get too deep and start not to be there she'd stop me and we'd talk about something that gives me comfort in really vivid detail. It was incredibly helpful and my flashbacks basically stopped after that, even though the stimulus that was causing them got worse.
0 likesCurious to know your feelings on are there any folks more prone to this type of thing than others? I'm thinking maybe say high-achieving creative types, or is it across the board and we're all equally prone do you think?
0 likesI'd really recommend trying schema therapy! I've just done some training for it in London and it's a really incredible and effective model of therapy, especially for traumas (of all sizes)
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Thank you so much for sharing!! xoxo
0 likesOOH. Can I ask where lol?
0 likesthank you. i really needed to hear this today, knowing that im not alone and that what i feel is valid <3
0 likesWow this video was so good and helpful??? The smashed marble analogy really resonates with me as someone who didn't really have one big trauma but rather several small ones over time.
0 likesWhen I got trama last year in my freshmen year and my way to cope was talking to myself which then turned into a "imaginary friend". This friend then began becoming abusive (since they were my own thoughts) and kept me up at night. I haven't talked about it with anyone cause I'm 15 and I feel like they'll think I've gone mad...
0 likesThank you so much for explaining, now i understand it better and i dont feel like a drama queen or something anymore
0 likesWow! I didn't know that was a thing! I don't deal with it anymore but for a while when I spoke I didn't recognize my own voice it was very alarming and very uncomfortable. Glad to know there is a term for that if it ever sparks up again
0 likesI experience derealization because of a major traumatic experience and sometimes it gets so bad where I become basically unresponsive because I'm just so spaced out and it leads to people getting angry at me because I don't respond to them and when I'm so spaced out it can be scary when someone is yelling at me while I feel like nothing is real.
0 likesI've never been diagnosed with mental illness, but I feel like the past two years have held a plethora of mental difficulties, not necessarily disorders in long term. But recently I feel like I'm no longer going through a really rough time (up until now life felt like too much and I couldn't handle it and I was crying and yelling and all over the place) now I feel like time is passing with me being totally neutral and sedated to it, like I'm not actually experiencing anything. I don't seem to get bored anymore because I feel like I'm ten miles away from my own mind whenever it happens. Weird, anyone else have this happen?
0 likesI have only felt de realisation a couple of times but it was weird that people describe it like a dream to me because in my dreams, I was always watching myself and NOTHING felt real whilst when I experiences de realisation, I could totally feel myself. I was in tune with myself and what I was feeling and thinking, it was just like everything else around me had turned into a dream. The sky would look painted, I couldn't feel or hear things as well and it's like I just zoomed back into my own brain. Most of it was actually caused by me just only thinking about myself for a while to come to terms with whatever the fuck had just happened to my brain. It was a lot more constant when I was much younger and it didn't seem to be caused by anything, now I hardly get it, now I just get depressed....Yaaaaay. Haha...ha.
1 likeIt took me 2 years to get a doctor to take me seriously when I described my DPD symptoms. Some even laughed at me and said I just need for sleep... After one doctor referred me, it took another year to be referred to a mental health nurse after which I had to wait 6 months for my first session. It didn't work - so they put me on Sertraline, despite me requesting not to go on it. I'm sure this worsened my symptoms and has put me in a frame of mind where seeking treatment is futile, so I haven't, even though my medications don't work and I feel worse than I have done for 4 years. But TMS is hopeful, lets hope it makes it on to NHS funding! (doubtful tho).
0 likesI think I might ask about derealisation.
0 likesBoth of my parents are doctors so I'll start there. I've had anxiety pop in and out of my life for years (yesterday was a diSASTER) and sometimes have spaced out days, but ever since a tragedy a month and 11 days ago (my grandma died suddenly and we had to fly across the world again having just returned home from Africa the day before and it was the first day of the school term aghhhh) and the whirlwind that followed, I've been increasingly spaced out. I went through a period of utter grief where I cried every day, but now, with exams coming up and school taking away my time to grieve properly, something happened in my brain. I open my eyes and cannot believe what I see. I clap my hands together and I sense the touch but don't feel it in my bones or register that it happened. I see my face in the mirror and it's like a startle. It's so foreign - I used to be someone who made the most of everyday. Now I waste through them and could sit for hours staring into space. I have no track of time at all. The things you described in this video have peaked my interest and I think I might do some asking around and researching. Thanks so much :))
i''ve had depersonalisation since 2012 after being severely bullied online by supposed friends, making friends with one of them again and then that person dying (to put it blunt) without having a chance to have questions answered., i feel like im constantly looking through someone elses eyes a little bit like VR only a virtual reality of life. every thing i touch or feel feels secondry. i find i'm worse when in anxious situations. ive never wanted to be put on anything because if fear of getting worse and feeling less emotion than i have already. a Councillor gave me grounding techniques to do but i found that didnt work for me either. like you i reached a point were i started to tell myself, this is my life now but i also have moments where i want my life back but i dont know how. I also feel my own issues come from problems i faced in childhood too, being bullied by my teacher, due to learning difficulties, too.
0 likeswow that was useful. whenever i had dissociation, i would call it dreamscape because everything felt floaty and dreamy but in a bad way.
0 likesSo informative and helpful thanks lovely girls x
0 likesI feel like I'm kind of constantly having derealisation (or like feeling like nothing is real and everything is a dream) and I've had it for so long that I've gotten used to it but lately I've been having these little moments where it's like I "wake up" and suddenly realise that everything IS real and I'm a human being that's experiencing it, but since I'm so unaccostemed to feeling like this it makes me freak out and feel like this isn't my life/isn't me and I think maybe from that I get depersonalisation because I feel like my hands aren't really attatched to me and it's somebody else living this life that I've been having and I'm just watching??
0 likesIt's strange because I've just had a day of feeling spaced out but I feel so much more connected to myself now I'm watching this video, maybe because I relate? Or because it's helping me feel less alone x
0 likesThis helped me understand so much. Thank you. X
0 likesWhen my derealization gets really bad I become paranoid about if my reality is real and feel like I'm trapped in a dream and I'm on the brink of lucidity in the dream, just not quite there. I focus on specific things happening in the environment and with my body and tell myself these are the things I will remember from the dream when I wake up (but I am awake, so when I'm asleep). As a writer, most of the stories I write involve parallel/multi-layered realities, so I've labeled my derealization as moments of "inspiration" because I'm in the head space of the stories I write.
0 likesReally enjoyed watching this video. I don't have depersonalisation or anything but hearing kati talk about some of those things were so interesting and make me really want to study psychology. I went through and read to comments and so many people are saying they're struggling. I know this won't help or do anything but I'm so sorry you're having a hard time <3 I hope you get the help you need and I do believe that everything will turn out okay <3 xxx
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0 likesI think I had derealization as a child. I don't recall having any other kind of mental illness. In fact, I don't recall much of my childhood because everything felt like a dream. I think that because of my derealization I cannot figure out if I had anxiety or depression or anything else and also why I didn't do well in school. What helped me was moving to another city and school. I don't know how but it did because I realized that I was having less moments when I felt like I was in a dream. I hope you can overcome your condition soon because it's quite freaky to feel like that and you don't deserve that feeling.
0 likesI love Kati so much! thank you for this video!
0 likesI don't know if this is exactly what I struggle with, but it seems to be a close match. I do often feel as if everything is a dream and I can't process what real life means, I also struggle with brain fog, which for me feels like pressing up against a window (seeing) and not being able to look behind you, so everything you need you have to put your arms behind you and feel for (thinking) and the bit where you remove yourself from the situation is the worst. it's somewhere between turning yourself into data and having a video game glitch and you're underneath the character and the graphics are wonky. this is such a weird description, but anyways, I'm going to look into it.
0 likeswow kati is such a lovely calming presence (can't believe i've never heard of her before??) <3 tysm for this vid!! love u
0 likesDodie, I really think you should try another kind of medication aswell. Zoloft is in my experience the SSRI that most often causes a feeling of being blunted. Try maybe escitalopram or venlafaxin instead. And give it a bit more time than four weeks. Obviously you don't have to, but I think that it might be worth giving it a shot :) x
0 likesI was on Zoloft and It made things worse I would 10/10 recommend what I'm currently on call cytrolopram it's helped tremendously love you lots babes
0 likesI feel like I have dissociation, but it's not during moments of stress or trauma. It's mainly brought on by being awake in the middle of the night. Could being awake really late cause a trigger in my brain?
0 likesTo me, looking in a mirror is a scarrest part of depersonalisation because you start to realize so well that something is wrong. Luckily I haven't experienced this for a long time like now it happens only when I'm extra tired and sad, it feels like your body tries to protect you
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1 likeSo I've felt so uncannily similar to how Dodie and Kati were describing but where can I go to get a professional opinion to officially confirm/ deny if I have this problem??? Plz halp!
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You can ask to see a therapist or psychologist in your area :) They can help! xoxo
1 likeThank you Kati!!! I've been checking out your channel and you have a new subscriber :D
0 likesevery time you talk about this, i feel a little less "crazy" because no one in my personal life understands it at all. it makes me feel like it's more real and like i'm not making it up. thank you! x
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1 likeI have derealization and depersonalization and it's really hard but your videos help me.
0 likesi don't know why i'm crying halfway through but thank you for this. <3
0 likesI think beginning to try and get out of your state ( whatever your "problem" is, wether it's depersonalisation/realisation or anxiety ) is the first step and maybe hardest, for some people, towards healing...
0 likesThis was really helpful, thank you!
0 likesCould you please talk more about the magnetic therapy (or whatever it's called 😂). I'm interested and I want to know a little more about how my brain works. I don't really talk about my mental health because I don't understand what I'm feeling or why. Thanks lyl x
0 likesi have derealisation/depersonalisation and i've heard from so many different places that the best thing to do is to talk to someone, but i don't have anyone to talk to. i feel like none of my friends would take me seriously, or even think i made this up for attention. what should i do?
0 likesthis was so helpful, thank you so much <33
0 likesI am so so so happy these videos happened!!!!!
0 likesIs it bad that i really enjoy when my hands no longer feel like their mine? Like feeling like I'm just floating through crowds is something I've enjoyed, i never thought it could be my brain coping with stress. Now I'm questioning how much i skip out of reality and if it's healthy
0 likesthank you so so much for making this💕
0 likeswhat i wouldnt give to have someone like kati in my life
0 likesWhen I get really depressed I don't recognise myself. Like I'll know I'm the one moving my body but it doesn't feel like me and when I look into a mirror I know it's my face because I know I'm looking into a mirror but I don't recognise it.
0 likesThe longest that it has happened for one time was about a week
edit When you were talking about small childhood issues that weren't that big but seemed worse at the time. At one stage the back of my hands were hit with a wooden spoon until my knuckels were bleeding, things like that still dont seem like a small issue
This was so interesting, and Kati is adorable. I don't deal with dissociation often, only very occasionally - it's like i'm hyper aware of my body, but i'm not in it, i'm like a ghost observing it from outside. It's weird, and not very pleasant, but nor is feeling completely stuck in my body while i'm having a panic attack. Not sure what's worse tbh
0 likesI don't know how to explain it but I felt what I believe was disassociation for several months towards the begining of the year, it was awful but everyone (psychologists and docters) didn't really seem to know what I was talking about. Months of feeling like I was in a fog, that I couldn't think properly or do school work yet noone understood. I'm glad I haven't been like that much recently, hopefully never again. .
0 likesI feel damaged because 2015 until early 2017 I had a friend who had a brother who shut me in my friends room and I yelled help but nobody heard and he once held my hands stuck and I am young and other little things I think that's harassment but he traumatised me
0 likesi had a panic attack today in class and i didnt know what was going on but now i know it was dissociation
0 likesafter a huge fire swept where i live my house and family were fine i didnt know why i feklt like that and i walked into the door coming back home cuz i was at a friends house and it was the first time i had been back home since the fire and they moved the couches out of my hosue and the white walls were covered with ash i stood in the door way and it hit like a wave i had no idea where i was or what i was doing i was walking and talking but i didnt k\\now where i was kind of it felt like i wasnt there at alll and it was so bad i cried every night and everyday cuz it wouldnt go away i started sleeping on the floor in my moms room so i wouldnt feel so alone but 3 months later my big sister got in a car crash and i was getting better and it felt like i just got pushed back into a bigger hole in the cold ground and after about another year i started feeling like i was there like i was awake and i got better but it took alot of work and time and i still get waves of it now 3 years on and i have to say it is terrifying like i am walking the halls and everything looked bigger i could use my eyes to make everything look bigger but it didnt go smaller and i would look up and i realised i wasnt here i was there i wasnt anywhere i was just a body walking around i didnt even know where i was going but i kept walking doing things making breakfast and i didnt know what i was doing its honestly so terrifying i thought i ad depression but turns out i must have had some sort of dissociation now the only thing keeping me sane is music lol i use it kinda like a meditation like i sit in the dark crossed legs headphones in listening to a song that i can relate to and i could sit for hours and hours doing that music is timeless for me and its what made me feel better
0 likesWhen I have panic attacks I can't feel anything, last time my friend was hugging me and I didn't know until she told me. It also feels like you've lost your sight? Because you're so out of it it's almost like you can't see in away and you're memory goes away, I don't know but that's what I have
0 likesI'm always so confused how you can like “test“ if you have depersonalisation or derealisation because how can I know that I feel spaced out? Like sometimes I feel like in a dream but then I'm like: “ah no it's real“ and that's it idk it's weird
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if day to day life isn't causing you a problem then I guess it's best not to question it :P
0 likesSo I feel like something's wrong with me, I go through emotional trauma, I know I should be upset, but I don't feel it. I feel the same as always. Whenever I'm happy, I feel like I'm acting for everyone else's benefit. I don't know why or what is going on. Sometimes I feel completely detached from everything else, like it's not even happening to me, like I'm there but I'm not... then sometimes I feel like myself, like my friends love me and I'm healthy, then something upsetting happens and it's like someone punched me in the stomach, but I can't feel it. I want to cry, I know I should be upset but I can't do it... does everyone go through this? Is it just me?
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This is soooooooo helpful thankyou so much 😊💖
0 likesthis video made me realize how my big T has splintered into different experiences THANK YOU SO MUCH
0 likesi love kati she's so great
0 likesI don't have depersonalisation but every now and then I can have a Trippy/ strange situation where I look at my hands and they don't feel like me. I say my name over and over in my head and I think 'who is that ' like how is my identity a name ? Just wondered if anyone else has experienced this ?
0 likeswhen Kati said mindfulness, it made me wonder ... have you tried/considered trying meditation?
0 likeswow this was so interesting and helpful, thank you
0 likesAlso, does these 3 D's, so to speak, fit under PTSD?
0 likesok i'm crying at this video. i think i understand it a bit better now! ♥️
0 likesI don't have derealisation but I have anxiety and I sometimes get spaced out randomly. For example, I will be sitting in class and I will zone out just randomly and the same question pops in my head, what if reality is a dream? I feel like I'm dreaming!
0 likesIt's very odd. If you have this please could you give me some wise advice because I am very confused lol thanks! Also Dodie I hope you get better soon with your therapy help! I'm not going to give you my pity because I think that that's the worst thing someone can do when your going through something. You kind of just want them to go away😂 Thank you for sharing this video with us! It sure helped me and hopefully a lot of other people! I love you Dodie! x
Hmm...I don't know if I have depersonalization but is it weird that I can relate to some things? Like, I experience them a bit differently but I feel constantly "spaced out" as if I were on weed 24/7. Or I just generally feel empty, no emotions whatsoever. As if I've lost the ability to feel and nothing really matters anymore. I feel like I can barely get up in the morning because mere existence is exhausting. I want to feel, I want to live but I can't and I don't know what's wrong with me. Can someone please tell me if they feel the same? If anyone knows what I could possibly have, please tell me because I can't figure it out.
0 likesSo I don't think I have depersonalization or derealization but I don't know what is it that keeps happening. I can almost put myself in a certain state where it feels almost like a video game in the sense of where my hands or the wheel of a car seems unreal but I still feel and am responsive. And I snap in and out almost. It also feels like numbing and my body like completely relaxes but inside I panic cause it freaks me out. I'm unsure of what to do really about it.
0 likesI don't think I have depersonalization or depression but sometimes I feel so tired of just living -- I'm disappointed that my interactions aren't always amazing and how my schedule is on constant repeat. Is this a young adult life crisis or am I simply tired of being in routine?
0 likesAhhh kati and dodie in one video💛💛
0 likesdodie's created footnotes for video format and i love it
0 likesI'm getting R.E.M. Therapy for a trauma that I believe caused derealisation? After a period of dramatic realization I became overcame by my emotions and I believe that being overwhelmed by said emotions lead to that parachute. My experience doesn't seem to link up with others, I started to see things in atmospheres almost? It's like I could recognize the world, but it kept changing. Like it was a different season or different year every day, if that makes any sense. I don't know how to feel.
0 likesAre there more people that tried emdr but couldnt think back to the memories, because they were to much or something like that?
0 likesI had that and i feel like it wouldve helped so much if i just dared to think back
I am an art therapist and I think maybe art- or musictherapy can be helpful too
0 likesno wonder you didn't like medication if you were upped to 100mg so quickly!!!
0 likesi really you should try meds (loads of different types if sertraline didn't work for you) at 50mg a day, it changed my life and all my family's and there's no shame in it x
That Inside Out analogy was so perfect
0 likesholy shit. I think i have derealization. i always feel like i'm not actually 'there' like it was all a dream. i thought it wasn't a mental illness i always thought that it's just me being weird? but i didn't have any traumatic past though. i'm really scared.
0 likesI "zone out" when I'm stressed and start to be quiet and sometimes I do it in class and it scares my teacher 😂 ;-; and I todally feel like I'm not here or like life is just a dream when it happens
0 likesEMDR is so frigging strange. I did it and it worked but man, that was a weird experience.
0 likesOkay so this is no way me trying to get sympathy, because I am doing very well mentally. This is mainly out of curiosity. So, summer 2016 I was really really I'll, basically I was in and out of hospital for a month, I had three surgeries and basically lost a lot of weight. Anyway, I went back to school four days after getting out of hospital (only for like an hour a day) and it definitely tired me out a lot. Basically what I'm trying to say is that during my recovery time I'd feel a lot of things described in the video. It wasn't constant (like it is for Dodie) but a lot of the time I'd feel like I was almost in a dream, and nothing really felt real. I wasn't too worried as it didn't happen for long periods at a time and it didn't happen lots. Also my memory of when I was ill is quite foggy and I can't pinpoint specific moments. So, I was wondering if you can get derealisation that only lasts for a short time. Because once I got better it stopped happening. I'm fine now so don't worry, I'm just curious if that's what it was as I'm trying to learn more about mental health illnesses so I can be more helpful to friends who might go through these thing.
0 likesok so i think i might have derealisation
0 likesever since school has started (i'm talking kindergarten) i've had moments where i space out. it's almost like my memory is a bunch of folders and all of a sudden 5 of the most recent folders are just burned. it's kinda like falling asleep (?) because i can't remember it starting or ending.
like, i'll be in class and the teacher will be talking and it'll happen (i'll space out). a friend will walk up to me and be like "oh do you wanna be partners (?)" and i'll just go "when were we told that?" "literally 5 minutes ago" "wait what she wasn't saying that" blah blah blah memory folders gone.
idk
very helpful. thanks a lot :)
0 likesI didn't even know that these were things wow thanks Dodie I learnt something knew
0 likesI always had this when I was 8-12 like the dream one and hand one, sorry I can't remember the names. I didn't know what it was I just thought I was weird I also have anxiety
1 likewhen i was younger i used to feel like i was trapped in my body and that my hands weren't my part of my body and now i'm just realizing i am mentally ill
0 likesI like studying/get more information about these stuff.. probably gonna be a psychologist/psychiatrist in the future o.o
0 likesGive logic's song Anziety a listen it's such a beautiful song and discusses derealisation
0 likesI HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS TO HAPPEN
0 likesTHANK YOU FOR THIS VIDEO
0 likesFor some reason I always feel like everything around me is fake and I think back to me walking down the school corridors and know I'm home and getting so confused as it went so fast then I think how fast is life going to go and is it real at all
0 likesOHHH MY GOD I LOVE THISSO MUCH I LOVE KATY SO MUCH AND I LOVE DODIE SO EFFING MUCH ARGHA
0 likesokay i need help. sometimes i get a feeling that sort of sounds like this but i dont know if it is or not. for example the other night i was in the backseat of my friends' car on the way home from a movie and idk why but she started tickling me as a joke and we were laughing and i was squirming and as i bent over to hide my face from her, i just felt this really weird wave of disconnection. like i was floating outside of my body, and i couldnt feel myself smiling or smell anything and all the sounds around me went hazy, like i was under water. it happened again twice that night when i was just sitting there in the car, not even laughing and moving around anymore. its happened more times for sure but that was the most recent. is this something to look into?
0 likesI have no memory of my childhood, my brain repressed every memory because of a really big trauma that happened to me when I was 5
0 likestbh the inside out analogy made a lot of sense
0 likesmy? two? favorite? people? in? one? video???? I'm shook , I lo ve y a l l 💕
0 likesi was just wondering as somebody who doesnt have depersonalisation do you find that music or like playing ukulele helps to focus/ground you?
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kind of! Usually more like a distraction from feeling it I guess - but definitely when I'm absorbed in music I feel better
1 likeThis was just fascinating
0 likesNo way I love Kati Morton omggggg
0 likesYOU GUYS KNOW EACH OTHER!? AAAHHHHHHHHH I LOVE YOU BOTH AAAAHHHHHHHHH
0 likesoh my god wait i understand myself now thank you so much
0 likeshow i finally understand the line in the twenty one pilots song holding on to you. left side brain, the part of your brain that depression festers.
0 likesI just realized I must have something like this. Omg.
0 likesI have the same glasses, but in pink :))
0 likesyesss! i love kati ahhh
0 likesi'm not sure i have dissociation/depersonalization/derealisation? idk, i have long periods where my brain feels disconnected from my body... kinda like,, floating in the space above my head? weird concept i know,, and i don't feel like i have any emotion and every feeling- physical or emotion- is like dulled at the edges and sometimes lights can seem too bright and everything i hear seems like white noise. i don't really have trauma tho so idkkkk i feel like i'm being dramatic and unnecessary
0 likesso should i fake feelings when im disconnected?
0 likesWelp I relate
0 likesI dont know if this is a mental illness as such, but just in this past year, i just feel like im fake. Like im being me around everyone, i always try to be myself, but i feel like being me, isnt ME. I dont know how to explain it. For example, ill wake up in the morning, ill either feel ok or like shit. There not really an in between (i suffer from depressive episodes), ill get ready for school and ill go to school, ill get my daily education, i have fun with friends, over all, i have a good time. After school ends i go home i feel like somehow i wasnt being honest enough and as my parents get home, i act 'normal' again as the afternoon goes on i feel that same way. Im being myself but somehow its not ME. I go to bed and dont get much sleep because im dwelling over that fact. I just feel like im doings something wrong or pretending to be someone im not. But im not. Im me. But at he same time im not. i feel disconnected. Like im there in the moment with everyone but when i look back on it, its like a dream. its getting harder to tell things that happened and things that didnt apart. Its really bothering me.
0 likesI'M NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING
0 likesI couldn't stop staring at Kati. She has something mesmerizing, I don't know if it's the way she talks, acts, her mimics... is that weird ? XD
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lol no same she's so calming!
0 likesI know this sort of isn't on topic but, it kind of is but can trauma as a child cause you illness in your adult life? I had trauma as a child and I am mess without my partner, I have rheumatoid arthritis and a bunch of other fun health issues and they are sending me for a brain scan soon because I keep forgetting things and loads more... would they be able to see anything on my brain scan? Because I know sometimes when you're in pain 24/7 your brain doesn't fully work like is there a way to see trauma is involved too I've not really spoken to anyone about this before xx
0 likesI don't know if I have derealisation. I usually feel like nothing and that there is no hope in living anymore. Dark thought come to my mind and they don't scare me. Then other days I'm in a dream like world, like I'm sleepwalking around. I have moments of realising I'm alive and notice whats going on but then I just feel anxious because I don't know what's happened. Most days its either feeling nothing at all, then feeling everything at the same time. I don't see myself in the mirror, its like watching a video of the same person instead of my reflection or my hands look like plastic or from another person. My hands are shaking and I can't control them. I guess this doesn't make sense.
0 likesOk idk if this is anything but whenever I'm in a happy experience I feel like I'm not taking it in idkis that normal
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0 likesI don't really know why I'm doing this but I guess it's a way to say something and not have anyone knows it's me.Im so sorry if your reading this,this is prosbly gonna suck.So,I'm relatively young(still in high school) and I think (I thiinnkkk) I may need help.Like I need to get medication or go to a therapist and I know I know something is wrong I can feel it in my brain but my mum hasn't noticed anything so I guess in my head it means it can't be that bad.This is getting ridiculously long and I'm sorry but I just wanna scream what's the point of being here any more god damn it
Idek what's wrong with me if can't even form the words to make out what was wrong with me. It could be depression but I know for a fact I have anxiety I just don't know how severe. I went to go talk to a psychologist, but I don't know how to be verbal about my issues bc idk what's wrong. I am soooo confused with how I feel and my parents won't take me to a psychiatrist bc they don't want me on meds. Bc they think that they won't help bc my mom said she took them when she was a child and they made her feel disconnected from the world. But it affects everyone differently. But they don't understand. My mom says it's part of being a teenager and it's all in my head. And idk what to do. Omg I didn't think it was normal to feel this way when you're a "teenager" but my mom seems to have all the answers. And it drive me fucking mad. Bc I can't talk to anyone bc I can't explain what I feel. And jeez. Does anyone have any advice. I'm probably just rambling. My mind feels like mush like its in a haze of some sort. Idk pls help me someone. 😩😳😢
0 likesyeahhh sertraline sucked for me too rip
0 likesFastest 10.5 minutes of my life
0 likesWOW I JUST REALISED KATIE IS IN SHANES NEW SERIES WOW THATS KINDA COOL
1 likeWell..... I've learnt a lot... HeLpMe
0 likesHow can you look at people in the eyes if I do I feel like I'm looking at an aliens and feels so unreal in a bad way
0 likesIs hppd and dpdr Same?
0 likesthought i just had an iron deficiency thanks
0 likesI def have both I think Derealization more!!!!!
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Me too! And I’ve been deep in it for 4 years. What scares me is that people say it’s a sign of schizophrenia 😩
0 likesI have been dealing with it for 20 years, it’s not a good feeling, I hate it, I am from Saudi Arabia
0 likeshaving anxiety is having mental illness?
0 likesI suffer with derealization since I've been poisoned by MERCURY I will nev r be the same
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Shante Hodges hey did you ever try medication or therapy ?
0 likesthis was made at playllst☹️ i miss it so much
0 likesI AM SO CONFUSED I DON'T KNOWIF IA HAVE DEREALISATION OR DEPERSONALISATION LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHHHH (i know i have one, but not which one)
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Tori me too, you may have botg
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0 likesHeyyy was just wondering if you recovered?
0 likeslast night I woke up and I was seeing visions
0 likesIdk. I don’t wanna assume anything, and I’m rly late to this. I dot wanna talk to my friends on this cause I don’t want them to see me as looking for attention. Whenever I’m really the area of mind. I sorta bunch up a lot and stare at something. If I’m with people I have to back away from the group. It feels like a massive weight has been put inside of my mind which makes everything rly loopy and I don’t rly have any attention span or anything. It’s mainly in the evenings but it can happen during the day. I also seriously forget that I’m even a body. Like I’ll look around me and realise that this thing is me. But that’s probably just normal. I’ve never spoken about this with anyone really. Is it normal? Lol. After the one I had tonight I’m genuinely thinking about getting a therapist, but it is 3am, and as we all know. I’ll have probably forgotten it tomorrow. Ahah.
0 likesHi. I am crying seeing this video.
0 likesHonestly, I've been dealing with this feeling of being in a constant dream and I never knew what it was. I thought everyone felt like this, but until you started talking about it and bringing attention to it, I had no clue. So thank you for introducing me to what I haven't been able to find in years.
0 likesThis video is amazing. I'm experiencing a lot of depersonalisation the past year and this has helped me a lot 👍🏻 thanks for talking about your struggles x
0 likesAh this is so great! Kati seems like a wonderful therapist!
0 likesI'm getting schema therapy for trauma-based depression and anxiety with dissociation and after almost ten years of therapy, it's the first thing that's actually worked for me!
Thank you so much for this Dodie, I've been struggling with these and it means literally so much that you talk openly about it
0 likesThanks for making this. I never really knew what was going on in my brain when sometimes things don't feel "real". It started after I gave birth to my son. I never really thought of it as "trauma" but pushing out a human is pretty traumatic, I guess. It only happens sometimes and I can pull myself back in but it's nice to know it's a thing other people experience and it has a name!
0 likesas a person with depersonalization/derealization, this is so true and i love the explanation of this video. wish i had people around me that understands this feeling.
0 likesI've been told that I did all of my depression and anxiety and everything else by myself and that nothing that had happened to me when I was young could have caused it. I feel so alone tbh and hearing that I'm not this makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thank ya Dodie you have always helped ❤.
0 likesA couple weeks ago I had a minor trauma event where I was left alone. I get super spaced out when i'm left alone and I always try to stay aware of things around me. I didn't know what it was until this video so thank you Dodie <3
0 likesThank you so much for this video Dodie. I've had derealisation for almost 8 years now but have never gotten any treatment for it. I'm going to show this video to my mother who I've been trying to explain this to for all this time, and maybe she'll finally see what I've been talking about. Hopefully it'll encourage her to finally find me a therapist 😕 It's really comforting to know that other people deal with this issue, I've felt very alone in it for a while now so thanks again.
0 likesGrounding through the senses has really helped me whether it be with depersonalization/derealization, anxiety, or ptsd! Also, I'm so so so happy the two of you got to sit down and make some helpful vids about this topic. I hope it really helps others who may be struggling. ♥
0 likesI just told my mom about my depressive feelings. Thank you for giving me the courage to open up to her
0 likesI found this video so informative Dodie, loved it!! Kati was great at explaining stuff too :) I would really love for you to keep making videos on mental health because I think it helps so much just for people to hear someone talk about what they're going through or want to understand mental health better.love you <3
0 likesThank you so much for this lovely video! I just recently started going to a therapist for my depersonalization/anxiety/depression, and even after just one session I feel so much better simply knowing that somebody professional is helping me. Like many others, I also didn't know that it could be caused by little traumas. Something I repeated over and over in my session was "I've never been through anything huge, like a car crash or sexual assault. There's no real reason why this is happening." But now it makes sense. Thank you so much!!
0 likesthis is such a helpful video, thank you so much for making it. ive struggled with dissociation and derealization since i was maybe 8 years old, and hearing people explain exactly how ive been feeling for years of my life helps so much & explains so much about myself. thank you so so much for bringing awareness!!
0 likesThank you for discussing mental health on your channel in a more 'healthier' way for yourself and us as viewers Dodie.
0 likesi know you mentioned depersonalization in a passing a while ago and i was like 'hmm. sound's like i feel sometimes.' and after watching this i'm pretty sure i go through mild bouts of depersonalization/derealization, which is good to know for when it happens. thank you! xx
0 likesoh my GOD i’ve been trying to explain this FEELING of not being in my own body (sort of?) and feeling distant from reality and sometimes forgetting i’m a person and looking in the mirror and being supersized at my appearance and THIS IS IT. THIS IS MY FEELING. IT HAS BEEN PUT INTO WORDS. IM NOT INSANE. ITS A REAL THING. THANK YOU SO MUCH.
1 likeYou two were both amazing at VidCon and spoke about things that really resonated with me! Thank you endlessly you wonderful humans! I also gave you a letter which I really hope you get to read. It wasn't much but I meant every word. Thanks again xo
0 likesDamn okay so I just cried all the way through this video. As you were both talking, it just connected to me more and more and it all got a bit much I guess. I've been going through a ROUGH derealisation stage since Friday and have been really struggling. This came at a good time. I find comfort in hearing people talking about it. Thanks <3
0 likesDamn okay so I just cried all the way through this video. As you were both talking, it just connected to me more and more and it all got a bit much I guess. I've been going through a ROUGH derealisation stage since Friday and have been really struggling. This came at a good time. I find comfort in hearing people talking about it. Thanks <3
0 likeswow, thank you both! it was really helpful for me to hear about the "little T's" because i think that has something to do with the 'trama' in my life and why i feel like nothing was a big deal (because i haven't been in a car crash or something like that) so that helped me a lot. i'm trying to get some help and untangle my brain, and thank you dodie for helping me do that.
0 likesDodie you have no idea how glad I am that you made this video. I've told my friends that I don't feel like I feel and I don't process things anymore and I never knew that this is what it is. you described it and it's exactly what I've been dealing with since I was 13. I cried after watching this like you have no idea what this means to me. thank you so much
0 likesI've never been diagnosed with mental illness nor do I think I suffer from it, but this was super interesting! especially all the metaphors/allegories for how trauma and stuff works.
0 likesThank you for this video. I have gotten to the point of feeling so elsewhere everyday I can barely speak. Today when I tried to speak I'd just break down crying. I really want to say thank you for making this because every time I see something like this it reminds me I'm not totally alone
0 likesThank you dodie I struggle with depersonalization and this video helped me you are so lovely 💕
0 likesI always love watching your videos about mental health awareness they always make me feel less alone and weird about my health. Also intrigued. I've learned so much about my mental health because of your videos and researching stuff right after watching your videos lol but I would've been slumped if you weren't as vocal as you are now :'-) thank ya!
0 likesKati has helped me so much through out the years❤️
0 likesThis was so comforting Dodie, knowing that someone I admire also deals with this. I am used to it happening on occasion when I'm to excited. However, I recently dealt with the beasts of derealisation and depersonalization for about a month where it was a constant cloud over my head that I can only really remember two or three moments where I felt like "myself" and that I was emotional human being. It made my already anxious personality worse, and I would attempt to do normal business or hangout with friends and feel like I was watching through a window, like my mind was trapped and my vision often blurred. However, with sleep, medication and therapy I am doing better. It really opened my eyes to what other people go through sometime and all I have to say is if you're in a position to, "get help". It may be hard but if it is difficult to cope with find friends who can listen to you non-judgementally and seek professional help to hopefully help you through the process. I found it hard to put myself and well-being first, but it is important to do so you can enjoy life. Everyone should have that chance to enjoy the things they do.
0 likesI literally squealed when I saw thisI've been following Kati since before she was had her liscense and I hadn't been diagnosed with anything yet and I've been following you for god knows how long and I so did not realise how perfect and essential this collaboration was until I sawIt. Thank you for this. I feel exactly like you Dodie and sertralne did not work for Me Either.. at alll. I hope you find what works for you gal and thank you eternallyFor being so open ❤️ Xxx
0 likesI love the inside out idea of the marble smashing and getting into other memories and experiences because thats so accurate!! I'm going to use that!!
0 likesSuch a good video dodie!! Have you tried something like yoga or a dance class? I know for me, dancing relieves a lot of stress and makes you feel more connected to your body, like the word somatic I think. ❤️
0 likesI suffer from the three of them. It's awful, specially when you're in college I think. Something that helps me is touching my fingers with my thumb repeatedly, I don't know why, but it works for me. Also DBT abilities, though I know it doesn't work for everyone. I love this video, relatable. Thanks
0 likesThank you so much for having me on your channel and for being brave enough to share your story :) xoxo
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THANKS FOR COMING FRIEND
1 likeZoloft didn't work for my mom, but luckily Zoloft helped me so much! I'm so thankful that you are so open about it, it makes me feel almost normal!
0 likesSuch a great video!! Learned a lot!! Thank you so much Doddie xx
0 likesOH my gosh I love Kati and Dodie! Thanks for this unexpected collab ily guys❤️❤️❤️
0 likesThis was so interesting and I hope it can help people, thank you. Good luck with your derealisation/depersonalisation
0 likesAhh, I love seeing this talked about <33. I have this nearly every day.
0 likesThis video was SUPER helpful! Thank you SO SO much for making this. <3
0 likesI'm going through some minor derealisation after some news I got today so I needed this video thank you so much
0 likesI'm on 100mg of sertraline atm, I've had that dosage for a few months and was on 50mg for several years before. Oddly I've felt more emotional since being on the higher dose rather than robotic or empty feeling. I've felt totally separate from my body for a while now, but I don't think it's severe enough to be depersonalisation and I think it might just be my low self esteem, and as an anxiety riddled depressive I don't try and work out what's going on with me because it's so muddled
0 likesI've never had a therapist who was able to understand what i was trying to describe. Thank you so much for bringing her onto your channel, this was so helpful
0 likesI'm on 100mg of sertraline atm, I've had that dosage for a few months and was on 50mg for several years before. Oddly I've felt more emotional since being on the higher dose rather than robotic or empty feeling. I've felt totally separate from my body for a while now, but I don't think it's severe enough to be depersonalisation and I think it might just be my low self esteem, and as any anxiety riddled depressive I don't try and work out what's going on with me because it's so muddled
0 likesthanks so much for making this. i cannot self diagnose myself but i deal with derealisation 24/7. when looking into it, i didn't realise how much i've put my brain through and i'm so annoyed that its lead to this horrible feeling. i hope one day i will be able to get further treatment but my social anxiety holds me back.
0 likesdodie this was such a nice video ❤️ very insightful and very helpful
0 likesTHIS WAS SO INTERESTING HECK! I've never heard of EMDR before but it sounds like it could be super helpful. I'm about to try some person centred attachment based therapy so we'll see how that goes. If not though I may have an alternative to try next yay. Also I'm not sure if my issues are attachment related or trauma related or both. I do think some of my attachment issues are caused by trauma of sorts though so that's interesting...
0 likesI'm totally babbling sorry lol I'll stop
Thank you so much for this dodie! You are an actual angel!
0 likesThis was such a helpful and informative video. Thank you guys so much!!
0 likesthank you so much for this !!! it clears a lot of things up aaaah
0 likesi actually think i get dissociation a lot i really really want to talk to a therapist but im having difficulty convincing my mom to get me there oof
I just want to say, whenever I am on your channel with videos like this, I always tear up or bawl. Always. It's my way of coping but I never cry in public and it's so hard. I stop crying for maybe a month no matter what but the one time I cry after the long while, I can't stop. It feels like I can't control my body and al the tears were the tears that were held in. I watched this video and finally understood what I recently encountered. School recently started and I also went to a concert. While there, I couldn't process it. It felt like I wasn't there, that it wasn't really happening. It links with my depression, i knew that much. But I started to tear up because you always guide me towards the place I want to know or go. You relate to people who think they're alone, and you openly talk about it and want to get better. I thank you so much.
0 likesI got a Master's degree in counseling and sadly, my program clearly wasn't very good because a lot of this was new to me. On the plus side, I do academic advising because I think that's where my strengths lie so I guess it's ok that my degree didn't teach me much. But oh, this was so useful. Thank you Dodie.
0 likesi just realized and figured out that feeling disconnected and feeling like i’m in a dream and feeling like everything is fake is actually derealisation i was listening to logic’s song “anziety” and how he described derealisation was how i feel every day. this video helped me. thank you.
0 likesI have had a few depersonalized moments several times and it's such an odd feeling and it's very scary sometimes.
0 likesThat really helped me out, i've been feeling like "something's wrong" since i was a kid, i always felt like i was "fake" in some way, the best way to explain that was that my body was in another dimension, separeted from my soul, and my body knew that was wrong and that he wasn't supoused to be there and he was trying to find my soul back and giving me small hints so everything looked like a dream os not real at all, i never knew quite how to explain that feeling of beeing spaced out, that really helped me out because now i know that what i feel is not strange at all and i can't get some help and explain better what i feel to my psychologist, thank you very much <3
0 likesThis is really interesting because of recent trauma I have been getting "flash backs" of the trauma and even some of those little t's and I never knew it had a name. I have done EMDR a lot with my therapist and I do think it works but only with those big recent Ts. We tried doing EMDR with past little ts and it was a lot harder because I had to think more into the past in situation that traumatized me but it was long ago so I have no idea what actually happened.
0 likesi honestly thought i was going crazy before you put up your first dp video dodie....thank you so much for educating your audience! i didnt know anyone else felt this way and i thought i was alone, so THANK YOU SO MUCH DODIE FOR THIS YOU REALLY HELPED ME A LOT I AM SO GRATEFUL!!!!!!
0 likesdodie!!! thank you so much for this. i know a lot of people don't really talk about this sort a thing so thank you for being open about it all. here's my thing, for the longest time i've had this feeling of a dream sorta thing. when i say that I mean that I'll look back on my morings/days/nights and it all seems very hazy and blurry. like it feels as if it was a dream and has a blur to it. As time goes by interactions become more blurred and less clear. i'm not sure if this is derealization/dp but if people could comment what they think (could it be depersonalization) i'd really appreciate it. i'm starting up therapy again which should be good, i just need some support on my end. it's an incredibly frustrating thing. xx
0 likesO my goodness! This describes me really well actually! I didnt know there was a word for it I just thought it was something weird that happened with me. But I dont think I ever went through much trauma.... But I will feel like I'm in a dream pretty often and occasionally when I look in the mirror it looks off like I'm not looking at myself. And I get the same type of effect when I look at other people when this happens.
0 likesI can't express how comforting it is to see someone successful and well known like yourself come forward with having DPDR. I have been struggling with the same thing for almost five years now, and I constantly feel that my experience is isolated - like there's no one who understands what I'm going through. I actually listened to your music for the first time today on my way to therapy for DPDR; I had no idea that you've been going through the same exact thing! Before today I couldn't have named a single popular artist with this disorder, and I'm so happy to say that has changed. I can't thank you enough for posting this video and spreading awareness about DPDR - you have no idea how much this has encouraged me and other people like me. Thank you so much dodie!!
0 likesWatching this video, I think I may have a little bit of dissociation. Nothing extreme, it's just that sometimes when I'm feeling stressed about the things going on around me or the future, my brain becomes mush and I can't really process anything. So, even though I can't imagine dealing with the severity of depo/dereal daily, I feel like I can relate at least a little to feeling out of touch with what's going on around you. thank you for being so open about your feelings and using your platform to educate. I'm sure you're aware, but it's very comforting to me and many others to know that we're NOT the only one fighting these battles
0 likesI went on sertrailine for my DP/DR and it's been helping a little bit and making it more tolerable.
0 likesthe same thing happened to me taking zoloft! i was either at 100% of one emotion or had none at all
0 likesIncredibly informative and entertaining. Great job!
0 likesdodie!!! a couple weeks ago right before i had a migraine i had an experience where my body didn't look or feel like i was controlling it (it looked kinda like a first person video game? like i was watching my body from behind the screen and not actually from inside) and it was the WEIRDEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!! but thankfully it went away and i didn't even know it was a thing until I watched this video! i guess having episodes of depersonalization before getting migraines isn't uncommon at all but id just never known! thanks for letting me know i'm not crazy 😅
0 likesLove you Dodie. Sending good vibes your way bb 🌻
0 likesmany times i've been having a really great time (usually with my brother or my friend) and i would feel as if i was in a dream almost. i feel like i'm not there and not making decisions, almost if i was watching a film. i asked my brother if he knew what i was feeling and he just looked confused, i guess i thought everybody experienced it from time to time. it doesn't happen often, only a few hours a month. i never thought about it much before dodie started talking about it. next time it happens i'll talk to somebody.
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just to clear up i don't think i have disassociation, depersonalisation, or derealisation. i'm certainly not largely effected by it, but i'd just thought i'd share
0 likesHey! I was on Sertraline for about that amount of time too! It totally sucked for me as well. Kati had the same response that my therapist did. Lots of love to you Dodie, if you're reading this. <3
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Haha how funny. Meds buds!
1 likeAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M SO HAPPY KATIE MORTON IS MY FAVORITE YOUTUBER OF ALL TIME I'M SO HAPPY YOU DID THIS VIDEO WITH HER. I LOVE U DODIE💗💗💗
0 likesI have emailed this video to my GP and my therapist as I keep saying 'i think i have depersonalisation/derealisation' and they keep saying that they don't know what it is and don't know how to help me. I was referred to my local hospital and even the doctor there didnt understand. Thank you so much for this video, I really needed some reassurance today that I am not alone in this (especially even when the professionals are saying lol idk what that is). love you dodie xx
0 likesI'm so glad you made this video. A lot of people don't know about this and are suffering without knowing the problem. I, personally, found out what dp/dr pretty soon after my first experience with it, but I know many people haven't even found a name for it until recently. Anyway, I just wanted to so thank you so much :)
0 likesThis was so helpful for me to understand why i feel this way
0 likesOmg I've dealt with this on and off for several years, but I didn't know they were linked to trauma. This got me thinking about all my little T's and now I'm freaked out, I don't know if I should talk to someone or not
0 likesI'm young, someone who would have to ask their parents to see a therapist. I've done it before, asked to see and seen a therapist, but it's always really nerve racking and takes me forever (sometimes too like) to get up the nerve to talk to them about it. When you were explaining derealisation and especially depersonalization I understood completely, and knew first hand, exactly what that felt like. If anyone has any tips on asking parents to see a therapist or opening up in general, please help!
0 likeshope you're okay dodie ❤️ we love you
1 likeI just kind of get this feeling where I'm not really myself. Like I feel like I'm not meant to be where I am, with the people I am with, or even myself because of a random moment that's happened. Like when I straighten my hair I feel like I'm not the same person I really am. Or when someone in my family says something off from usual that makes me get this feeling like I'm not the person I actually am and I'm just in someone else's body.
2 likesI think I might have this because when I was younger I would always get the 'fuzzy feeling' where I would just not feel like myself. I would hear a ringing noise and I felt like i wasn't in my body. I still get it sometimes but I try and talk to myself or distract myself to bring me back. I'm not sure if that's depersonalization but I think it's something. It got really bad this one time I ate a weed brownie (I know bad... don't do drugs) and it happened like really bad. I couldn't feel my body and I didn't realize I was alive. I thought I was asleep or dreaming or like in a movie because everything felt so odd. I think it could've been laced with something but it reminded me of my "fuzzy feeling" episodes that I used to get. Idk if anyone else gets those so lmk!
0 likesI don't think I have a derealisation disorder but I've definitely have had the feeling enough times to know that feeling. It's not often, like one-two times a month when I'm getting ready to start I get that feeling and I often get really depressed too and it's nice to know what im feeling.
0 likesWhen she was talking about inside out and the smashing of the memory, i just started bawling. The thought of someone or something taking your happy memory and SMASHING it really made me sad.
0 likesAnd that's what happened today in 'What makes Dayton cry'
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awww!!! That is sad!!
0 likesThank you so so much you have no idea how much this helped thank you for introducing this to me I didn't know why I was feeling sooo detached and numb such an amazing person tysm
0 likesI'm also derealized like 24/7 and this is so important, so many people don't know about it.
0 likes(SORRY LONG COMMENT) hello dodie, i want to share my story if it helps because i know what you're going through! i just finished a full tms treatment for anxiety and depression, and the doctor i went to did 35 treatments for each side (spaced out over a month or so of course). i was very hopeless after my 20th-ish treatment because i didn't feel anything different--in fact i felt the way you described being on medication. i sank to the lowest point i've been in years. however, i talked it over with my doc and he said that some patients don't even see results until a month after treatment is done. i'm very happy to say that it eventually stopped maybe 40% of my symptoms! treatment is probably different everywhere you go and they might not have the same effects (especially since we live in different countries), but if tms isn't working after a few tries, don't give up!!! i know it's cheesy, but i know it's difficult to feel like nothing will cure you, i promise there is always a solution. you've inspired me so much during my times of hopelessness, so i hope that these words will encourage you in return :)
0 likesI love Kati seeing this is my subscription box made me so happy!💕
0 likesmy mental illness really got bad when i was in fourth grade, i was admitted into a hospital because of constant anxiety and suicidal thoughts. when i got out they put me on zoloft and i stayed on it for about 4 years. i randomly decided to stop taking it which was not a good decision. i recently went to the doctor and they put me on it again after not taking it for about 6 months maybe? i had already felt alittle depersonalized and the medicine made it SO much worse so i stopped taking it. i went back to the doctor and they prescribed me prozac, because the doctor seems to think i have social anxiety. it's been a journey but i'm slowly getting better :)
0 likesI have this weird thing where I always TRY to label myself with different mental dissorders. I don't know why, but it makes things a bit confusing sometimes. But after learing more about derealisation, it seems like I might really have this one? Like, it seems like soemthing I've been struggling with since I was little...Idk
0 likesI think I might have derealisation? That's the closest thing to describe how I'll occasionally feel. I can clearly remember the last time it happened, I was having dinner with my dad and his friends at my dads house and in the middle of eating, I suddenly space out and have this overwhelming feeling of hate, like I'm incredibly annoyed with where I am but it also feels like a dream. I'm aware of my body and where I am but I just can't stand being there so I just let this feeling take over for a couple minutes and I come back and act like nothing ever happened.
0 likesI love just listening to you talk it's so relaxing
0 likesHi so I am extremely confused with my feelings because I can't feel them and have been looking for so long to find what I might have and I heard you guys mention mental Illness with not feeling emotions. What is that called? I would love to figure it out!
0 likesI don't have derealisation/ depersonalization but this is actually pretty interesting to learn about.
0 likesthis video was great people in the internet sometimes don't really teach about mental illness and i'm glad you did this was really great also i love how animated your eyebrows are
0 likesDodie, how do you deal when you really really adore a person but know that you may never get to meet them? I was actually wondering about this as youtube has such a huge effect on people's lives and we absolutely worship the creators. How do we bring ourselves back to Earth and reconnect with our own internal magic? How do we stay content with the now? Thanks :)
0 likesI love Kati and Dodie this is a dream come true :')
0 likesi've had depersonalization and derealization, and the thing that really helped me was knowing that these things were called illnesses for a reason. these aren't "normal" or everyday things that humans are supposed to live with. it helped me to know that i could rationalize with it... it wouldn't make any sense at all that the world was "fake" or "unreal", would it?! i'm living with an illness, but i can, at least, try to really think through things. i know where i live and i know where i am currently. i'll try to not let my brain (my illness) take over, because i know that it is just an illness. i am fully aware of where i am at this current second, typing this at my computer. i won't let an illness make me think i'm not. even though it doesn't FEEL real and i don't know who i am/what i'm doing here, i know that it IS REAL.
0 likestime and "being a human being" is a really weird thing for me, but i know that it IS real, even though it doesn't feel like it at the moment.
^this is just something that helped me, but everyone has their own ways of dealing with depersonalization and derealization. i'm not a medical professional at all hahaha. although, i do hoped that this helped.
for everyone else with dp/dr, keep fighting. xx
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love this
1 likeI take Zoloft for anxiety 100 dose and I feel a bit crazier like sometimes I don't have a filter and feel hyper... anyone else feel that way?
0 likesi just found out that something ive been feeling almost all of my life has a name, thank you <3
0 likesYah, thanks for this dodie!!💕
0 likesI feel like everyone needs to see Inside Out. Especially people with mental issues or people who work with people with mental issues. It just gives a visual image of what goes on in the brain and the labels in the brain. When she talked about the marbles from Inside Out it just blew my mind.
0 likesthere was a point where after I dyed my hair every time I looked in the mirror I felt like I was looking at someone else, the person in the mirror wasn't me, it didn't look like me. Sometimes when I look at my hands or arms I feel like they look weird, that they don't look normal and that sometimes they don't belong to me, sometimes when I'm walking I'll look around but I'll feel like for some reason I feel like everything isn't real that I'm not really living, and there are some days where I feel overly joyous, I feel on top of the world, optimistic, I feel good, and other days, well most days, I feel sad, depressed, that I'm alone, anxious, that I feel trapped in my body and I wasn't to disconnect somehow...
0 likesmainly people don't believe me when I say this or I feel really stupid when I say it because when I say it it sounds weird and odd, or people will think I'm faking, or don't understand at all what I'm saying.... I just needed to get that out there, it feels good to write it down.
ah i feel so much less alone and weird in constantly being derealised, dissociative and/or depersonalised
0 likesit sucks and I'm trying to recover, I have big ts and small ts so its great fun
It'so weird, I'm 99% sure I've had nothing in my life that could have caused my depers./dereal.
0 likesI feel like my derealization and depersonalisation have gotten a lot better recently, without me doing anything to make them better at all. I still have them tho, and I've gotten so used to it that it seems normal - sometimes I even wonder if life is actually supposed to feel the way it feels for me, if everyone feels the way I do all the time and I'm just exaggerating. What makes me have that thought is, I don't even remember what it's like living without depers./dereal. I have lots and lots of memories from before it started, but I don't remember the feeling of not feeling spaced out, if that makes sense.
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Also, that feeling of looking at your own body parts and thinking "wait, whose are these?" is so damn creepy and scary
0 likesI love her!!
0 likesI watch her videos all the time
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YAY!!! xoxo
1 likeSo happy you guys did a collab!!!
0 likesman i've been dealing with that for literally 7 years lmao
0 likesvery great, educational video ! learned so much.
0 likesdodie! one thing the really helped me was trauma desensitization because it helps you a lot with my little t's
0 likesI've never had the way I felt be put into words... Wow.. I'm speechless. Truly.
0 likesEvery two months or so I have these weird "tantrums" where I just revert to a little child and start crying over something little. I'm pretty sure this has to do with me being an only child and my parents working a lot, so I do this likely because of attention that I want. However, sometimes when I get really upset and in this fever-y tantrum, I have this weird way of thinking where I feel like my emotions are "fake" and I bully myself into thinking that and just stay in my bed for a good half hour before I feel like doing things "normally" again. I could be dramatizing things, but this may be just a smudge of depersonalization. I don't think I need any professional help, but just identifying things like that is really helpful! Thank you so much, Dodie and Kati!
0 likesthis was so wonderful, thank you!
0 likesi get the derealization thing, but only very rarely. Like for a few hours or a few days in the space of a month. I don't know if that's enough to say it's really problem, but there has been times when I've had to take exams in this state, so maybe it is a problem? I don't know, I feel like I have way too much other problems to deal with this too
0 likesHonestly this was all so helpful.
0 likesmy brother walked past and thought i was watching oitnb lmao but rlly great and interesting video i feel way more educated than before :)
0 likesThank you both so, so much <3
0 likesThank you both so, so much <3
0 likesThis will probably not make sense to many people watching this video for a different purpose from me.
0 likesSometimes I think I'm either a highly sensitive person or an empath (still not quite sure which one, don't know if this is even the right term), so watching Dodie's videos like this just sends this wave of emotion to me sometimes, especially while reading the comments here. It's just a different vibe each time. Sometimes strong, sometimes low. but it always results in me building a response, absorbing this information and then applying it in best scenarios in my head.
These videos give me so much insight, but it also makes me wonder when I can help. When can I reach out to these people to see them be happy and free?
Just a penny for a thought.
So many things make sense now.... great video.
0 likesi started crying while watching this video, and i don't think i have any type of depersonalization or anything and i started to feel some kind of relation that i wasn't aware of and now i'm crying and my chest is heavy and i almost feel like i'm listening too far in aaaaaaahhhh
0 likesoh my gosh Dodie and Katie in a vid together, yes please!!!
0 likesI think I experience derealization but I'm not sure. I don't want to just label it that, even though 90% of he symptoms check out for me. The last time I experienced this was the first day of school. I had nobody to talk to, I was very very anxious and my body was kind of numb. I never ever feel happy ever, and I haven't for years. I don't even remember the last time I felt truly happy. When my depression gets bad, I space out so bad. I don't hear anything properly, and it looks like I'm in a dream state, from my pov. It's been like this for 3 years, now that I think about it. I experienced a lot of drama and abandonment before it all got worse and that next year, I never felt like I was there, if that makes sense. Anyway, it can last for a whole day, half a day, maybe even longer than a week and it feels like my brain is mush.
0 likesIt's nice to get some validation
0 likesOh boi this is me. I constantly feel spaced out and it's to the point where I can't remember things? Like I don't reminisce on recent things and the memories aren't associated with emotions even if i had a full on mental breakdown I still don't remember feeling anything. And it's sucks because I go to therapy and they are constantly asking how I feel. Like umm i feel like the world is fake and I don't know who I am anymore because my entire identity was built around being a very empathetic person and now my emotions don't work properly! Also I tried to tell my mom but she thinks I spend to much time googling mental heather stuff and that I'm being some sort of hypochondriac. So no one takes me seriously and I just want to get better.
0 likesI don't know if I had dissociation or derealization. i feel like my emotions are all kinda dull. like i can get happy and sad but like i dont get excited anymore. like no excitement or anxiety or anything at all. when i do fun things im like, "wow im doing this thing. cool" lile i know objectively i should be excited and having a good time. but im just, having a time. lmao like not good or bad or anything. idk it's weird. and sometimes my brain feels kinda foggy like theres like a layer between my brain and the real world i dont know how to describe it
0 likesWaaoo this is so helpful! thank you so much !
0 likesGreat video, thank you! Just wanted to let you know that the link to the video on Kati's channel is actually a link to this video!
0 likesOh my god this is SO helpful!
0 likesokay so watching this... i never really gave thought to derealisation but like now that i now thats what that is i kinda feel like i might have it? i space out a bunch like that where i don't feel like life is real and i thought that might just be a depression thing but like idk? and i can see depersonalisation for me too... just not as much or as often.
0 likesi'm already getting treated for depression (and kinda anxiety too bc i take zoloft which is for depression and anxiety thankfully) and i'm in the process of finding a new therapist so maybe i should mention this to them after i get there again?
I orderd a dodge shirt coming in the mail sooooooon super excited!!!☺️
0 likesIdk if someone will actually read this but if you do thanks?
0 likesI feel like i get spaced out but it's more intense? Like I can't hear anything and it's just me and my thoughts. I go in and out of it all day and I just want to know if it's from my anxiety or depression or a whole different thing. If you know or have any ideas or tips please let me know!! Thanks!
This was neato.
0 likesI liked this a lot.
Thanks dodie :3
hi i just want to talk abt my experience w smth simillar w derealisation so ive moved fr a house to a small compact apartment and everytime i wake up i dont feel anything and i usually just feel neutral even when smth bad or good had happened i feel neutral or i dont feel anything special and i always feel like the things that are happening to me arent real like moving in to the apartment isnt real or my new uni isnt real like i feel like its all scripted that this is all just a set and then one day ill stop acting and its all going to end. like i feel like this portion of my life is all just play its not real and i guess thats why i feel absolutely nothing bc i think that none of these things even exist it feels like its just painted on or drawn on and idk what to do. i want to smile and say hey i smiled bc im happy, genuinely. or cry bc im sad, genuinely. but lately i feel like i dont feel anything genuinely. ahh can someone tell me what i should do
0 likesThank you so much for this!
0 likesthis actually made me cry WOW this is too real
0 likesJust listening to all these different methods for therapy makes me realise how shit my psychologist is lmao
0 likesi ADORED both of you on the panel at DC (:
0 likesI was diagnosed with depersonalization disorder two days ago
0 likeswould you describe derealization/depersonalization as feeling like you're just in a body making it act? (does that make any sense?) Like you're just "driving" the body but it's not you
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Yes! You can definitely describe it like that. xoxo
0 likesUm so I've been in the same existential crisis for a while now. I know this isn't anything super serious. But sometimes I feel like I'm just uninterested in everything because of it, I feel worthless because of how large the universe is (and a lot of other thoughts but I won't go into them here) I just feel like what I do doesn't matter, and that causes me to procrastinate and not pursue the things I want to do. The way I deal with it is also quite bad for me, I do it through humor, now usually humor is a good thing but all my humor is just self deprecating and depressing, I've used this humor so much that now I really believe that I am ugly, that I am trash and worthless, that I don't matter and people wouldn't care if I died or disappeared. It's not like I want to die or anything, but I have this little voice in the back of my head that makes the jokes seem real, but that's the only way I cope with all the terrible thoughts going through my head. You people have any advice or something?
0 likesI feel kind of bitter when people talk about anxiety and depersonalisation in general especially. I had them both severely (a lot better now I'm 23) since I was 5, and no one kind of believed me and would kind of make fun of me for it until I was maybe 15. People don't really listen to you when you're like 7 and saying 'nothing feels real'. I guess I find the whole "omg support 4 u" stuff on the internet kind of too little too late? I dunno, but for some reason videos like this and other similar ones kinda piss me off because it's support I never had in my hardest times.
0 likesTalk about EMDR therapy because I'm going to go through that soon, my therapist of a year recommended it.
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I actually have a whole video about it if you are interested :) xoxo
0 likesNow that you're talking about it, i think i used to have tons of bouts of depersonalization. I would sit there and be like,,, Woah,,,im here? but,,, what why how??? these are...my hands??? why are??? i cna do stuff like im breathing.
0 likesANd how I belive im experiencing more dissocaiation and drealization.
Someone please tell me what's wrong with me... I always want to make friends but I'm always so scared to confront people in any way, even if they're my family. The weird part is I'm always loud and crazy around my friends, even around a lot of other people. I also have a feeling that EVERYBODY hates me or thinks I'm annoying in some way and if they are what I believe is a friend, I feel that they hate me and are just trying to make me feel good out of pity. I also don't think highly of myself and feel terrible when people do compliment me and whenever I say something I am always so scared I said something wrong and then x person now hates me. One more thing I do is fidget around a lot, I can't sit still, but I hate when people are really close to me. (Sorry if I'm not making sense, that was a lot of run on sentences😂)
0 likesEdit: I forgot to mention that I have terrible memory, I can't read very well, and I am very insecure about it... dunno if that correlates to anything but who cares😂
I'm just gonna write how I'm feeling cause that helps me. Trigger warning I have no control over my emotions. I either am stone cold. I feel nothing. Or I feel too much. I cry and cry and cry. I have no motivation. And then I get insanely anxious. Then I start crying. and then I feel sad. So... Everyone just tells me it's hormones, but I don't think it is. A bunch of random things make me anxious. But I get weirdly happy when i experience these symptoms cause I hate myself so much. It's like a weird form of self harm. Idk It really sucks. Idk what it is. I might be fine or normal but I don't think so.
0 likesThank you so much mom <3
0 likesI need to show this to my family and everyone who is unsure and is like "WTH IS THAT?!" Whenever I bring it up -_-
0 likesThat Inside Out metaphor already almost healed my brain goddamn
0 likesHey dodie!! I hate to be a pest but is there anyway that you could put your words higher up on the screen? I was trying to read the definitions of disassociation but my captions made it hard to read. I'm sure it will help other hard of hearing and deaf viewers! Loved the video!
0 likesi feel so hopeless because i struggle with this but i feel like all i can do is talk to a therapist but i dont like talking to therapists so idk what to do about it
0 likesI really needed this video today
0 likesI have derealisation. It's the most frustrating fucking thing ever omfg. I have it ALL THE TIME. I don't feel it when I'm with my girlfriend though because she's incredible but omg it's horrific
0 likesI'm not sure if this is derealisation or anything like that but sometimes it feels like I'm watching myself. Like I'm watching myself do things but not actually controlling them. for example i was eating lunch one day and i couldn't feel the food in my mouth. it was as if i was just watching another person eat but it was me. this probably makes 0 sense but i needed to see if anyone else felt the same, and what i could possibly be?
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Just from that description it does sound like depersonalization because you are disconnected from yourself.. thats why you feel like you are watching yourself do everything. I have whole videos on derealization and depersonalization.. you can check those out if you want more info :) xoxo
1 likeTHIS IS THE BEST COLLAB EVER
0 likesomg i love Kati!!
0 likesthank you dodie.
0 likeshey the link in the description redirects you to this video! haha, this was so nice to watch, thank you!!
0 likeswhen you're on a really high dose of prozac and don't feel your feelings...... should i look into this?? probably.... will i.....???
0 likesWow I loved this
0 likesKati sounds wonderful!
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Awe thanks :) xoox
0 likesthank u for this.
0 likesKati ❤️❤️❤️❤️
0 likesDodie would love to be friends with me then, I love giving people massages, anytime, so rubbing someone's back to help is like my forte
0 likesAwesome video.
0 likesDodie can u plz do a video on how u do ur glitter cheeks😂😆
0 likesi'm 100% against spanking children. it is abuse. it is not discipline, in fact, the 1 that does it severely lacks discipline. it is way braver to not do it than to do it. worse, adults can get addicted to the abusive act.
0 likesthis was a rlly good video
0 likesHoly shit, I'm not a speed reader, Dodie. Still love ya though.
0 likesi know this probably sounds attention seeking, but i genuinely need advice ?? i guess ?? aha. i don’t know if what i have is derealization/depersonalization etc. i don’t know if i am depressed/anxious either, as i haven’t been to a doctor or therapist (my family is getting me a therapist soon, they just have to work out insurance issues) but i am suicidal. i actually face anxious feelings on a daily basis, i get this short feeling of extreme fear that basically paralyzes me for a few seconds and causes me to brace myself anytime someone walks by me or if i make eye contact with someone. i also will get lost in thought and forget im me i guess ?? i just don’t feel like a human when it happens. i get so deeply involved with my thoughts and daydreams that i don’t feel human or like i exist... it usually happens every day, for about 30 minutes. then i snap back into reality. i’m sorry for all of this therapist shit, i just need to ask people who have experience with these mental illnesses and stuff. sorry!
0 likesI didn't know Kristen Wiig was also a therapist 👉
0 likeswho is this woman and why do I have the overwhelming need for her to adopt me
0 likesyou looked so cute in this vid dodie i ❤ u
0 likesMY TWO FAVES !!!!! STAN
0 likesBabe the link in the description to Kati's channel just links to this one xx
0 likesthank you.
0 likestwo ladies I love very much
0 likesFun fact: I'm watching this whilst looking up cupcake recipes ?
0 likesdodie, that link in the description just goes back to this video!
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just changed it!!! Thank u for reminding me!!!
1 likei love kati :)
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xoxo
0 likesI have made videos on this topic please check it out x
0 likesDodie I'm sorry but those .5 second long text things are so frustrating, please make them last longer I hate having to go back and try to pause at exactly the write moment 20 times
0 likesEMDR was garbage for me. Try CBT/DBT- made the world of difference for me.
0 likesI know this might be a stupid question but if anyone with this or knows about it well, but is derealization is that like just dozing off and like daydreaming or is that just not it?
0 likesomg yes finally
0 likesHey Dodes I don't think the link for katis vid in the description is right?
0 likesDodie you accidentally linked your own video in the description lol
0 likesI think I have it and I think the reason is.. Now I will not give out and names but.. my friend once tried to kill herself she didn't and is alive today though still depressed and I'm so thankful but it also put a lot on me because she told me that.. I saved her.. don't get me wrong I love her so much but that can put a lot of stress on me hence yknow... I'm not saying this to make anyone feel bad. This is just my story.
0 likes:')
0 likesyay kati morton!!!
0 likesDepression is not true, it all in the mind. It's you and your consciousness, it up to you whether you want to be blissful or miserable. Watch Sadhguru on this topic, it will help. Also if you feel suicidal or depressed just hold your breath. After sometime your body will say Fuck you brain I wanna live and you will start breathing. Your body wants to live.
1 likeI have severe derealisation and severe depersonalisation and it is absolute hell. I have not found anyone who is knowledgeable enough to help me and I am not living a life. my days feel like they don't exist and everything is pointless.
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I was there for years, but it does get better. It is hell. I never want to feel as I felt at my worst again - ever! Hang in there, it passes. Like a slow thaw from ice bound winter to the first blades of spring grass, to full summer, it slowly becomes something in your past; but, yes, you do have to weather the depths of winter to get there, but you can't let it win.
0 likesD Lockyer this makes me so hopeful, thank you!!! Just knowing that it ends eventually makes life worth living for a while longer. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!!
0 likesFuck this therapist seems like an incredible person.
0 likesGood to know now why emdr didn't work for me
0 likesI always find a British-American accent uncomfortable 🤷♂️
0 likesDoes anyone feel like they are doing this on purpose
0 likesand also can nofap cure this?
I’m I the only one who notice the expert signed language through the vid or at 7:05 especially
0 likesWHAT THE FUCK WHEN WAS THUS VIDEO MADE ?? TWO OF THE BEST PEOPLE I KNOW IN THE SAME VIDEO TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING AM INTRESTED IN
0 likesDoes anyone else get very forgetful? Earlier a shirt appeared on my bed when I was getting dressed and I don’t remember putting it there. Anyone else?
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yeah that happens to me often
0 likesthis is literally hell
0 likesomg doddie trendin
0 likesI LOVE YOU
0 likesdoes this also some kinda DIZZINESS
0 likesWhat mic do you use
0 likesbeen a waitin for this
0 likesI have depersonalsation bad.
0 likesSeeing this collab makes me so so happy!! Two of my favourite, fabulous ladies in one video :) Thank you for raising awareness of this and fighting against the stigma <3 xxxx
0 likesThis was AMAZING!!! Thank you Dodie! Thank you Kati! I feel especially fortunate I got to see the mental health panel on Sunday ❤️❤️❤️
0 likesI just wanted to say thank you so much for this dodie! Whenever you talk about your derealization/depersonalization I feel so less lonely. Your videos help me out so much when it comes to dealing with it. I also have my derealization 24/7. Thank you so much for spreading awareness about this.
0 likesThank you for posting this Dodie. I have PTSD and dissociation and knowing that other people can be in the same boat as myself, helps those bad times so so much. Here's to hoping that we all get the right treatment one day!
0 likesYou're an amazing human bean xx
Thank you Dodie 💕 Today I've been specially spaced-out which makes me feel very lonely and artificial. This video helped me feel better by reminding I'm not alone. x
0 likesI've been experiencing this on and off for about 5 years now and it's weirdly nice to finally know that this thing that's happening isn't only happening to me
0 likeslast night i told my parents that i've been depressed for the last few years and i kind of regret it because the vibe that i had with my parents has changed and they look at me differently now, but whenever i feel sad or anything i watch your videos. i can't stress how much you've helped me and i don't think i can fully express how grateful i am. thank you so much dodie. thank you.
0 likesThank you so so much for this video. I've been struggling with a mix of dissociation, derealization, and depersonalization for several months now and never fully understood it, which sometimes made the situation worse. But this video filled me with so much knowledge and understanding that I feel like I might be able to handle it a little better now. So thank you so much. I hope things with get better for you soon and that we can all return to reality one day.
0 likesI can't explain how helpful and informative this is for me. One of my close friends experiences derealisation, and having this video to learn about what she might be experiencing helps me understand her more than I would without it. (I also experience brief periods of disassociation/depersonalisation, so kind of having this to contextualise those times helps me as well)
0 likesThis video helped me so much. I've learned that I could have derealisation, which would pair with my anxiety. It isn't a good thing but at least I might know what's wrong me. Thank you, Dodie❤️
0 likesThat marble analogy is really interesting, and exactly how I've realized I feel when I start getting really anxious. It's hard to convince myself that's what's happening and not something actually threatening, but it does help.
0 likesI am SO HAPPY that you hung out with and made a video with Kati! I would love love love to see more of these, because I really love both of you and I was sad when you felt like you couldn't be as real with your online community anymore. I started following you because of how open and honest and vulnerable you were about your struggles, and I understand why you took a step back but I'm relieved that you're finding brilliant ways to still share in a constructive and healthy way.
0 likesSo I was diagnosed with depersonalization/ derealization 2 weeks ago and this video really helped my visualize and understand what's going on in my head. Thank you so much Dodie this truly helped me and I'll be showing this to my therapist on Thursday when I go see her 😊 thank you again 💚💚
0 likesHi Dodie. Thank you so much for making videos like this! I've dealt with depression and anxiety for years. Things have been different and worse lately. Don't know if it's derealisation and depersonalisation but getting some help working on it now. Kloveyouthanksbye 😊
0 likesAfter watching this I'm realizing that this is something that I suffer from. Not necessarily depersonalization, but derealization for sure. Thank you for this video Dodie. Much love :)
0 likesThis is so helpful. When I started uni last year, I felt so strange. I never really talked about it to other people but I kept writing in my journals that it felt like the real me was dead and someone else's soul had been put into my body and given my memories. I felt absolutely mad until Dodie started talking about it and realized it was a diagnosable problem.
0 likesThank you so much dodie for talking about this in your videos. I've had this for the past few years almost every day, and when I talked to anyone about it they were freaked out, which freaked me out. Now I know that it's an actual condition and it makes me feel so much better because I feel like I can be open about it with anyone and not let myself believe them when they say "oh, it's nothing". Thank you so much. I actually cannot thank you enough.
1 likeThis really opened my eyes. I relate to a lot of what you said. Thank you Dodie <3 much love
0 likesdodie thank you so much for bringing some attention to depersonalization and for making me feel slightly less crazy than i normally do. i know that i'm not alone when i feel like i'm losing my mind
0 likesokay this is so eye opening. and i think i understand myself and what i'm dealing with better ❤️ thank you so much. keep pushing dodie:)
0 likesI just want to say thank you!
0 likesAfter this video I cried. You put a language to the way I felt and I'm one step closer to understanding what's going on in my head.
this video inspired me to finally seek help for my anxiety/depression/derealization. Thank you for all that you do dodie. i just got off the phone with my unis health center and i'm shaking, but i'm finally going to get help. i love you.
0 likesThanks for talking about this. I experience derealisation and depersonalisation as part of other trauma-related diagnoses, also to the point where it's 100% of the time, and I took forever for me to be able to articulate and recognize that I was dealing with it because I didn't remember ever being able to feel anything else. In the past few months though, I've had some fleeting moments (a couple seconds to a couple minutes) where I feel more real and/or things around me feel more real, and I'm reminded of how I used to feel as a little kid before these issues took over. It's pretty cool. I find it best to work on grounding/awareness/trying to feel things as a little more real when I feel relatively safest. It's like building the muscle (or changing brain pathways) and starting small. It's more encouraging that way, to have some successes every now and then.
0 likesThis was so interesting and informative. It helps people (like me) understand people suffering from these kind of things. It has really inspired me to find out more, thank you :)
0 likesUgh I love both of you!
0 likesThis was so informative bc I struggle with dissociation
Dodie I love you so much i've been fully experiencing this recently I thought I was going crazy. Thank you ❤
0 likesI think this was really brave and an amazing video to make. It was very educational and I needed it. I went through what I'd describe as trauma last year and it has to go through the legal system and whenever I'm in a situation with the police, I find myself almost drifting out my body and watching from the outside. Sounds seem like I'm underwater. It's horrible and I hate being so disconnected from my feelings. I feel so out of it and empty and spaced out.
0 likesNow, I'm going through a similar experience to what happened last year although it's less serious and when I'm in the situation where it's happening to me, I float out again so that I don't feel. It feels like a defense mechanism but I can't seem to ground myself and I feel like I'm just going to end up floating away for good.
I have a counselling session tomorrow but I'm scared to talk about it because I don't want it to seem like I'm self diagnosing.
Does anyone have any tips?
Thanks so much for this! It's given me a better insight into what one of my close friends is going through and I'm glad I know how to help a little more.
0 likesI'm on anti anxiety medication and I definitely feel like it lessens my panic responses to anxiety but it doesn't go away completely
0 likesas a psychology student this is such an interesting vid! even in our psychopathology module, we only cover depression, ocd and phobias (and schizophrenia as a separate module) to it's so cool to hear more about something less well known!!
0 likesAs a subscriber with DPD, I'm so glad to have such a big YTber talking about this. thank you!! I loved it
0 likesThis video was so interesting and informative, this is very important content. There are so many kinds of therapy and of course not everything works for everyone. I do not suffer with any kind of mental disorders and understand that am not qualified to give advice to those who do, but I would like to share a kind of therapy that I didn't hear in this video, which is EFT tapping. EFT stands for emotional freedom techniques and it is a wonderful mixture of talk therapy and physical tapping. It is also something you can do at home once you've been instructed by a practitioner. It can bring up negative emotions and trauma that is being locked away. I encourage you to look into it and visit support@NeftTI.com if you're interested.
0 likesI've been experiencing depersonalization/derealisation since april of this year and i juts thought i was flat out going insane but its comforting to know that I'm not the only one dealing with this. I always try to tell my mom how i feel but she just blows it off because she just thinks I'm trying to get attention or I'm just being weird. hopefully someday i won't have to be going through this anymore.
0 likesthis is so interesting, thank you!!
0 likesanother treatment you could try is hypnosis therapy (don't know if this is the exact right term in english): i think it's basically like talk therapy but being hypnotised "forces" you to say out loud things that might be buried in your subconscious (my brother has done it bc he had insomnia and it made him realise that it came from the trauma of a car crash he was in a year before, my mom has also done a session and she encourages me to try it for my anxiety but i have to admit i'm a little scared; i might look into tms treatment though)
i've suffered from both depersonalization and derealisation for several years thinking i was the only one who had it because i could never describe it to people properly. i understand that it plays into my anxiety (like how you were talking about panic attacks in the beginning) but it lasts 24/7. there aren't any counselors that specialize in either in my area, but thank you dodie for making me feel less alone <3
0 likesOh buddy this hit me harder than I thought it would. I've been feeling spaced out now for maybe two years.
0 likesI didn't really know what all of it meant. I was so detached from my body and sometimes from situations I thought I was just going crazy. I was really scared to be honest.
I then found dodie and everything clicked together. Unfortunately it got worse after this had a name. For a while I thought I might've been making it up. Not until I talked to my mom a few months ago and I described what I was feeling and it turned out she has very similar symptoms as well. It's hard getting any help in the town I live in. It's not something people know about. There's no treatments here really. I know going to a bigger city would help, but money is always the issue I guess.
This is grounding a little scary I think, but I'm hopeful now hearing all the possible treatments out there.
i didn't know derealisation/depersonalization was caused by trauma. no wonder mine is so damn terrible. i've had a lot of big traumas such as....
2 likes-car crash (lol)
-moving towns and feeling scared
-having spinal surgery at 12
-my sister almost dying after a half marathon
-having chronic pain from my spine
-having this past year and a half [extreme pain due to being severely injured and not well treated (there was nothing to help but pain meds and time)]
plus all the tiny things as a kid. i take ADD medicine (my whole fam actually has ADD) and i feel so much more grounded when i take it. this has helped me realize how accurate this diagnosis (self-diagnosed currently) is for me. thank you dodie 💛
Thank you so much for this video. I recognise so many things from when I was still on medication and therapy.
0 likesThis woman is brilliant. Oh my gosh. I need more of this. Explanation really helps!
0 likesThis was incredibly informative and very interesting to watch. I didn't know about half of those treatments.
0 likesNow I know what I have. I've been trying to figure it out for years and when I watched this video, I started bursting into tears. Wow. Thank you.
0 likesI have my second EMDR therapy session tomorrow and I'm really excited but nervous. thanks for this video.
0 likesI personally don't have any of these disorders but i really love learning about things like this and understanding what other people are going through and what causes it and how to help them so thank you for this video and all of your videos for that matter
0 likesThan you for sharing this. Even though I personally can't really relate to any mental health issues (and hopefully i never will) I find mental health to be very interesting and I try to learn about issues more and ways to help people dealing with them so that I can be helpful to my friends and even myself if the situation ever arose. Also I'd like to remind anyone going through a rough time mentally, that it will get better. Maybe not today or tomorrow but it will and there are steps you can take towards making your life better and you aren't alone, there are so many people dealing with similar issues. We all believe in you, you can do this :)
0 likesGreat video!
0 likesThank you so much for doing this. I learned something today that is HUGE.. I mean HUGE for me. I learned that EDMS does not work for people with derealization. I had no idea. I actually learned thru Kati about derealization, I don't have it all of the time like Dodie (sorry love :( ) but do have it and distinctively recall the first time it happened. I was in a mall and all of a sudden the noises seemed distant and distorted and the entire.. well everything in my visual got softer, almost blurred in a look of underwater or dreamlike. My feet were disconnected from the floor.. I didn't feel like I was there and even the person standing with me and speaking with me sounded so far away.
I guess I did not realize that it was a separate issue and thought it was part of my PTSD so I hadn't mentioned that feeling to my therapist. I mean, why would I? I thought that he already knew. Then I was beating myself up for not being able to get to the next stage in EDMS. I thought there was something wrong with me, and there is but just not what I thought.
I am trying to work up into going back to therapy and this information is something that I feel will be quite helpful. Thank you both, Kati and Doddie, so much!
PS. @doddlevloggle The link in your video links to the actual video on this page rather than the video on @KatiMorton's page:
https://youtu.be/3xcuTRwBNCs
medication really depends on the person. Zoloft doesn't work for you, but it does for me ! i've been on zoloft for four months now and i feel better.
0 likesi do feel derealized 24/7 but my depression got way better :)
this is so important. I experience dissociation/derealisation/depersonalisation and seeing just normal relaxed talking videos on the subject and informative videos is so important.
0 likesSuch an interesting video dodie. Kate seems like an amazing therapist, she has such a soothing nature. I hope you find the right treatment for you very soon 😘
0 likesthis is great i feel like i'm being actually helped! like i haven't been able to go to therapy because of rEaSoNs but this is sorta helpful lol
0 likesI was watching loads of Kati's videos yesterday and now this happened! What a coincidence:)
0 likesI've traced mine back to procrastination of schoolwork, so much that I had to do it all on the literal last day of school and it just stressed me out
0 likesI had a constant feel of 'what am I supposed to be doing? Am I forgetting something?' I've forgotten what reality feels like.
So do your work, kids
Also, some stuff that helps ground me are watching videos on DPDR, or reading articles. For me, that makes the situation feel more real, knowing there are other functioning humans dealing with the same thing. Another one is have a thoughtful conversation with a friend. A normal activity can make you feel more normal, and hanging out with friends is fun anyway. Make a cup of tea, play an instrument, write about your day, draw a picture.
This won't last forever, people love you, the world is full of good things, and all that jazz.
This was wonderful and helped me loads thanks dodes❤️❤️❤️❤️
0 likesHi dodie, I was just wondering, did your derealisation come on suddenly? I think mind did about 2.5 years ago, one night it was like a switch went off. I've had bad anxiety about it ever since. Also, how do you stay positive? Thanks! Glad I found your channel.
0 likesthank you so much for making this video. i have always felt spaced out but never really knew what was going on. when i was younger i would feel spaced out for like 5 seconds or a minute. but now it's 24/7. (WHICH SUCKS SO MUCH LIKE COME ON BRAIN WHAT U DOIN) when you made your video talking about dp/dr for the first time i was like. "omg. this. is what's. happening. to. me." i finally knew that what was happen to me wasn't normal. when kati explained that some people who have derealization feel like they are in a movie, that's what's been happening to me. i've always felt like that. before this gets to long, i just wanted to say thank you for being so open about it cause when you talk about it, it makes me feel not alone. i love you dodie ;
0 likesI loved this video, it's helped me soo much 💖
0 likesI don't have depersonalizations or derealization but I am very glad dodie openly talks about it. I've never heard of it until her. I think it's important to be educated about it. Thank you dodie for discussing this on your channel. I believe this will help a lot of people who do suffer from them.
0 likesi wanted to say something here: two of my friends told me they felt this way and did a wrong self diagnosis based on this video. i love you so much dodie but please next time you do this types of videos bring the message that self diagnosis is dangerous. those friends don't have this illness and i know it. this like they said it's something dodie didn't know much about and got more aware about what she had after going to therapy. to all people watching, if you think you have, go to see someone. don't go around saying you have it. this is part of a group called psychosis and psychosis is often see close to schizophrenia. this obviously doesn't have anything to do with that illness but they are in the same group so please don't do wrong diagnosis and say you have it and put your on words when they MIGHT be wrong and then people that actually have it will feel terribly. i think they made an amazing video about this, they should have only put out there the idea of bad self diagnosis. LOVE YOU A LOT DODIE 💓
0 likesKati is ❤ thank you for this Dodie x love her necklace x
0 likesOkay it hasn't started yet but I'm so excited for this video. Dodie helped me realize(lol) my derealization/depersonalization.
0 likesI’m so confused bc i had what very closely resembles derealization about 2 years ago BUT it was only one time and a tiny bit (not as intense) afterwards. I don’t know what would’ve caused it bc i really haven’t had trauma. I’ve never heard of it happening only once so :/
0 likesI'm little freaked out because I experience the whole "I look in the mirror and don't see myself" thing a lot, but when you said you looked like your brother I was really shocked because it's the EXACT same with me. Not sure if it's a sign or just a coincidence!
0 likesYour mental health panel at vidcon made me cry so hard it was so raw and real
0 likesAlmost cried when relating to all these things💛
0 likesThis seemed very healthy, keep it up, proud of ya
0 likesHello fellow Dodie fans.
0 likesI've been suffering with depression for quite a while now, and I've been taking sertralin for maybe 6 months.
And before I cried alot, especially on my dark days. But now I've stopped crying, and I'm so scared.
I still feel sad and depressed, and I feel like crying but I just can't.
I've felt numb and not like myself.
I'm scared
i had a real shit experience with a therapist a while back who totally invalidated all of my feelings, so it was so refreshing to hear kati omg she is so cool
0 likesI've always wanted you to do a video together! I love Kati
0 likesI used to feel so disconected from my body, but lately I haven't felt this way. I have no idea why I spent so long feeling like this and one day it just stoped. I still have to deal with my depression, but I still think I'm kinda lucky cause I don't have to deal with feeling like I do not fit in my own body anymore. I don't really know if the way I was feeling is anything like what you have to experience but I can relate. I hope you can find a treatment that suits you ♥ Ily
0 likesAmazing video and thanks a lot for saving my Monday!🌹❤️
0 likesReally like that you show different views and really try to inform your followers by inviting an expert
0 likesthank you, i am going to show this to my mum, so she can maybe understand. thank you so so so much for this dodie, dpd and disassociating makes me feel so fucking crazy. so thank you
0 likesyou have impeccable timing !!
0 likesi've had horrible derealisation lately and it really sucks :((
I'm derealized every day but I'm at a point where I can't tell if I'm making it up? Like what if reality is just like this? Does anyone else have that issue?
0 likesYay!!!! Love you guys, great idea for a collaboration! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
0 likesoh my gosh.
0 likesthis is a real thing. it's real.
i've been trying to explain this feeling of things not feeling real to people and they just tell me they have no idea what i'm talking about.
oh my gosh, do you know how amazing it is for someone to know what you're experiencing or to explain it??
sometimes i don't feel real, and nothing feels real, and i try to get back and i panic but i can't do anything. i forget i'm real and living and i have to try to say my name to myself over and over.
unless something bad happens and i just accept feeling unreal.
thank you so much, i thought i was going crazy. thank you thank you thank you.
I sustained a brain injury in 2015 and I've felt like I haven't been here for two years, like I've been living in a dream. Sometimes it's not nearly as bad as other times and I can feel almost normal, but a lot of the time I feel like I'm living in a completely different world than anyone else. I don't know if this counts as dp/dr because it's the result of a physical injury, even though I am mentally ill as well.
0 likesI AM ON ZOLOFT AND ITS WORKING! I know dodie already said this but for depression and anxiety, I'm taking zoloft and its helping, experiences are different for everyone, i don't want people to see this video and rule anything out.
0 likesthis video gave me the courage to talk to my mom about going back to therapy cause i'm getting seriously concerned i have depersonalization or bpd or something
0 likesTem algum brasileiro por aqui?
0 likesPq eu sou uma GRANDE fã dela, mesmo não entendendo mt bem o que ela fala. Tá, uma palavra ou outra eu entendo, mas eu fico muito confusa não dá pra entender direito. Meu inglês é bem básico mesmo, só sei o que aprendi na escola
E eu ficaria muito grata mesmo se alguém pudesse traduzir os vídeos dela para mim <3
Espero que meu comentário não suma no meio dos outros
dodie tysm!! this was rly interesting and enlightening to watch!!!
0 likesOn a day to day I have short periods of dissociation, but if I'm having a really bad day I have depersonalization (it feels like my heart and lungs are in the other room.) But when I look at old pictures of myself I always feel like it's not really a picture of me which i guess is depersonalization too
0 likesThis video made me realise I'm not alone ❤️❤️ thaaaaaaank you 💕
0 likesI have looked at both of these in the past. Didn't think it was very common but I think I have these. Find my self becoming very spaced out 24/7 feeling scared that nothing is real. As much as I love you dodie I can't watch this video as I am unsure as to how this would affect me... I'm 18 now and have been struggling with this for a few years, started when I had depression and anxiety those have got better after the years but not this. I can't watch this video because I find the concept hard to face and understand. But i hope that it allows people to be aware. I haven't been diagnosed because I am scared that things aren't real therefore... whats the point in diagnosed. I can't explain how i feel i sound insane. I'm sorry.
0 likesCan I use this for a presentation? I feel like many people could learn a lot from this! I won't without your permission! X
0 likesThis's the first time that someone named exactly how i feel. And the worst thing is that before watching this, for all this time i thought that i can't speak about this. But today i told my mom and my boyfriend, and they were So supportive. I'm going to find some doctor and i really want to thank you Dodie. You saved me
0 likesPs. Sry if i made any mistake but i'm from Poland and you know
thank you dodie ♥ this is wonderful
0 likesDodie is a goddess. Enough said! 🖤🖤🖤
0 likesthis could not have helped me at a better time, i've recently been going through a long period of feeling zoned out all the time and my brain can't focus on things and most recently i've felt like i'm dreaming all the time, its been happening for the past year, i tried looking at youtube videos and googling help and asking friends and the only thing that came up was brain fog, it sounded like what i had but i was doing everything that they said i wasn't doing, i've tried to get a doctors appointment but as i'm only 15 my mum doesn't think that anything is going on with me and that it's probably just a sore head but i've had no idea how to describe it, this has helped me so much, i can't thank you enough everything you said in the video made me feel less scared about it and not freaked out <3
0 likesFor about 2 years or more I just felt like I was just sitting there as life happened and I wasnt really involved. I just felt empty and I would zone out in the middle of class and at home because I just felt like I was moving and I k ew life was making me move but I was never a fully functioning person which made me feel really scared and depressed. I would literally have anxiety attacks because I was scared I was going crazy. Since I moved it's gotten a little better but I still have quite a few days like that.
0 likesThis makes me feel less like a weirdo knowing that other people have it
0 likesI was wondering if they were gonna do a Colab!!! I love this ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
0 likesschema therapy is the most successful treatment I've had so far but now I'm just struggling with the physical low mood :(
0 likesHoly shit I literally think I have depersonalisation. Like I'm not even kidding my therapist already told me I sounded like I was dissociated but how you described depersonalisation I'm realizing that's exactly how I feel.
0 likesHi, I don't know if I actually have derealization or depersonalisation I just sometimes feel like I'm in a dream, and the things that I'm doing I'm not actually doing them myself. It just happens for a short period of time, but sometimes it can be for a long time and when that happens I just feel like my mind is in another place and I continue to do stuff but I don't feel connected to myself while doing it. It doesn't usually affect my everyday life (normally I continue doing things until that feeling disappears) but last year in class affected me in a way that I wasn't able to pay attention to anything and the teacher just continued talking but I couldn't listen. It also affects me when I'm reading, i can't concentrate and don't remember anything that I've read...
0 likesAnyway, thank if someone is actually reading this, I just wanted to share my experience and I feel better now that I have written all of this down. (And sorry for my English, if I made any mistakes, it's just that I'm from Spain and English isn't my first language)
Doddie can you please teach us how you do the intro claps? It's so fast and we all wonna master it. Please make a tutorial on various variations. You are the best! Muah <3
0 likesThis rlly helped I personally don't have what you have dodie but I have social anxiety and anxiety and a little bit of a.d.d and I get panic attacks occasionally more when I'm in school (which I just started) sooo yeah
0 likesYes Dodie!! This was so great!
0 likesJust wanna emphasise that medication isn't for everyone. I was on a low dose of Sertraline for a year and it did very little to help me. Then I was changed to Fluoxetine and that caused me to suffer a sever psychotic episode in which I attempted suicide. After that, I was put on 200mg of Sertraline and it's done so much good, I'm basically not depressed now! So I've had the whole spectrum, a meh experience, a horrible experience and a great experience! Not all medications are gonna work for all people, don't worry.
0 likes"what do you think you should do when you think you might have derealisation, depersonalization or whatever?"
0 likes- "talk to somebody, someone that you trust,.."
qotd: whoop, that's a nice one, although what if there's no one I feel I can trust? 😐 (ehehhh, someone here has a problem with being vulnerable, aka reminded me of some of Tessa's videos)
All of the stuff about the little t's makes so much sense. I feel shit like that so often.
0 likesthis is incredibly helpful & important
0 likesthis was quite interesting, lately i was thinking about it, i do sometimes feel, how can i say, vacant, i need to touch myself to realize that i'm real, and i space out a lot, but that i've been doing for as long as i can remember, i don't think i have derealisation but it does seem to describe a bit those moments i guess. P.S. you put the wrong link to katy's video ahahaahha, it goes to your video <3
0 likesI love Dodie so much. This video is obviously not for views its just here to help herself and her audience! Thank you so much for this.
0 likesi love this video omg i love learning about the brain
0 likesI experience derealization quite often
0 likesI got a singular chain link at my camp and I put it on a chain so I can wear it and keep it with me at all times. I fidget with it all the time. I'll just be in class and instead of clicking my pen or tapping my foot against the desk leg, my hands go right to my chain and I just hold the link and move it around in my hand. It's helpful until at falls out of my hand and onto my desk and kickstarts everything back up.
0 likesThis is very interesting like I feel like I learnt so much
1 likethis topic 100% needs more attention because it's a very real part of many people's lives and it's not understood by so many people :-(
0 likesJesus Kati has been teaming up with so many other youtubers I follow and it blows my mind everyone
0 likesi finally have a word for what i'm feeling; i thought i was crazy. ty
0 likesI guess this is a shout into the void but if there's any chance kati's scrolling through the comment section what would u recommend for someone who experience depersonalisation/derealisation all day everyday but can't think of anything at all traumatic that has happened because I honestly can't even hazard a guess as to what triggered it (I'd say it's been around a year now)
0 likesmy friends uncle had one of those scans for depression and something went wrong and he lost a lot of memory because of it. (obviously not trying to scare anybody, as i understand it doesnt happen very often)
0 likesI really need help but im scared to tell my parents and friends what is happening, I'm always really anxious and I space out a lot (not always, I jump between) but a while ago I started to scratch because I felt helpless and so spaced out that it helped grounded me, it made me feel like it was all real. Recently I started cutting. I don't have the desire to stop, and it doesn't make me cry, it's just there in the back of my mind and nobody knows. Please help me. Anyone. I feel like I'm going insane
0 likesThat is like the best video ever. Thank you!
0 likesSo what happens when you've had alcohol do you feel still depersonalised?
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in my experience, alcohol has made my depersonalization worse because it gives me a more "out of body" experience and i feel less real. it may be different for everyone though
0 likesI didn't know those three terms meant different things. I definitely experience bouts of dissociation then. I'm sure I have little t's from my childhood too, from what exactly? idk.
0 likesthe inside out metaphor was just brilliant
0 likesUghhhh, been here! Nice to hear somebody else explain it :)
0 likesI've been dealing with this for years it's so,,,, annoying
0 likesYOU UPLOADED WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL WHY :( but now i can watch it, thank you for making this ✨
0 likesglad to know there's a definition
0 likesI didn't know much about this topic before, and when she described dissociation I instantly related and remembered a time when I was in a really heated situation and everything instantly felt unreal, but I thought that was normal to feel like that at the time but now I'm not sure, I don't get into many stressful situations like that one often so that feeling hasn't occurred much. And recently at night when in bed ive had moments where I've felt unreal or like I'm in a dream, that's happened at least once every night for a few days now and I don't know what that means :/ I also have deja vous a LOT and I don't know if that is connected to this dissociated feeling I get occasionally :/ if someone could help out or relate that would he reaaaalllllly helpful bc I'm not sure if it's anything I should be thinking about or if it's normal :/ thankoooo
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I also have a terrible memory and can instantly become unfocused from something which can cause me to forget that I've just been asked to do something. and sometimes I even deny something that just happened :/
0 likesit's weird that i'm watching a video on this and also having to watch like five times because i'm so disconnected that i can't focus (specifically reading the little inserts lol)
0 likesfun w/ dissociation
When she said tms didn't work with people with depersonalizeation I got really mad😂
0 likesThis was so nice I wanna cry...
0 likesSo I'm actually just looking for some help because I'm a bit confused. I don't like diagnosing myself with things as I'm still not sure it's the best thing for me, but I just have a slight query. This year has been tough for me and I've thought a few times that I was depressed. I don't really think that's the case necessarily, as I'm ok, but I still spend a lot of my life feeling empty and lethargic. The main thing is that I can't stand to have nothing planned for the day. If I'm not working or going somewhere, I'm filled with this feeling - dread is too dramatic but definitely unease. It's as if I'm always looking for things to do so that I don't have to sit with myself for a day. Does anyone else have this?
0 likesI'm crying right now while watching this because I didn't realise how much I would relate to this oH NO it feels like you're talking about me exactly oops
0 likesI don't think I suffer from this? I'm honestly unsure. I recently looked it up and looked into it and i kinda thought maybe? Idk I can't really explain it hah.. I pretty much just have issue with my emotions. A lot of issues. It's hard to be happy and sometimes I just want to break down in tears and never speak to people. I don't know, that's a different thing I guess. Every once in a while I'll just feel nothing. I'll just be there and things will happen but I'll feel like I have no control and nothing makes any sense.. I honestly feel like I'm going crazy some days. Okay, I'm done. That's was way too much
0 likesThis helped me I think I have depersonalization
0 likesomg I have a rubber bracelet that I ALWAYS fidget with when I'm feeling especially anxious or zoned out
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now I really wish my gf didn't live across the ocean so I could get the touch that I need in those situations. I absolutely LOVE when people hold my hand and rub my arm and play with my hair and UGH I wish I had friends who would do that
0 likesYESSSS ID LOVE TO SAY I WAS WAITING FOR THIS COLLAB BUT I WASNT BUT NOW ITS HERE ITS LIKE YESSS
0 likesGood video, ladies! Kati is so lovely
0 likesi appreciated this a lot
0 likesi love kati so much ahh this is so interesting
0 likesi have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder,) im clinically depressed and i have chronic derealization and depersonalization. it's not very fun :(
0 likesTHAT INSIDE OUT ANALOGY I WAS LIKE i can see every equation
0 likesDodie the link in the description isn't to the vid on Kati's channel, it just brings you back to this one!!! (At least for me) x
0 likesthis is such a good video.
0 likesmid way through the video I broke down crying
0 likesHey Dodie! The link in the description that is supposed to take us to the other video isn't the good one, it just takes us back here. Thought I'd mention. ^^
0 likesYASSSS MY TWO FAVORITE PEOPLE 🙏🏻
0 likesThank you sososo much!!!! if anyone has anymore help/advice plz reply need help :): xxxxxx
0 likesThanks mom ❤️
0 likesI love Kati!
0 likesTHE best combination omg 😍
0 likesI HAVE DEPERSONALISATION THANK U
0 likesNO WAY MY TWO FAVORITE PERSONS IN ONE VIDEO
0 likesKati is the bomb!
0 likesOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHH EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE NOW
0 likesSo, perhaps this is completely off, but do u think youtube/filming urself (and often ur friends filming ) all the time could be contributing /connected to the de realisation? Like i feel like living lots of ur life on film and seeing urself on film a lot would potentially make real life seem like a movie/dream....just a thought. I guess becoming famouse is also like this weird thing
0 likesNo one will really care but I want to share my story. I have really bad depression. I cant feel anything at all. ever. the things that used to make me overwhelmed with joy have no effect on me anymore. For the longest time have felt like I was going through life in third person or like a dream and i just thought it was part of my depression. Turns out I might have derealization. The thing I am most afraid of is I live in a house where mental illness isn't believed in so I'm dealing with all this by myself with parents who don't believe me. I cut my hair really short yesterday hoping it would change something. hoping it would make me happy or make me feel like I was a real person but the joy and slap of reality I was hoping for was just replaced with more sadness and regret. although I like my hair short it didn't give what I wanted. I don't know what will anymore..Idk, no one asked/really cares but I just wanted to see if anyone else is with me in these feeling..?
0 likesI FUCKING LOVE KATI
0 likesThese two ❤️
0 likesWhen she mentioned using rubber bands... I thought that was a self harm thing?
0 likesi cried during this video
0 likesi tthink u put the link to your own vid in the description :'O anyway this was really fuckin helpful
0 likesMY FAVORITE TWO CHANNELS
0 likesI don't have this specific mental illness but I do have anxiety disorder but i feel comfortable talking about mental illness in this comment section so... yeah. I have a really hard time talking to my doctor when she asks me questions about my medicine or just how I'm doing and I'm guessing it's because I have such bad anxiety i just have a hard time talking to people in general. When i get home i can easily describe my anxiety but when i need to I just can't. If anyone knows how to fix this please tell me
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Anya Popa I suffer from OCD and Social Anxiety. And I know that sometimes its hard to express what you are going through and how you feel. When it comes to my therapist it is kind of easy for me to talk cause i feel like i don't have to explain it to her because she knows what i'm going through. But when it comes to Situations that are hard for me such as phonecalls etc. she told me to practice and write down what i want to say and also how i Feel just so i could understand myself better. So just write down how you Feel in the Moment you Feel these Feelings. I'm sure your doctor doesn't mind. It will help you express yourself which is very important for Therapy:)
1 likeThanks I think I'll try that
0 likesWhenever I post a comment saying thankyou for this cos it makes me feel better, no one notices and I know that really selfish but I just end up hating myself and deleting the comment
0 likesVery good video! Your link to Kati's channel is wrong though
0 likesI LOVE YOU MOM
0 likesThe link to Kati's video in the description goes straight back to this one:(
0 likesYESSS MY TWO FAVORITE PEOPLE
0 likesTHE link in the description just brings you to this videoooo
0 likesI'm pretty certain I have derealisation and dissociation because of cHiLdhOoD tRaUmA
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Definitely depersonalisation too hahahahahahah
0 likesThe link for your video in Kati's channel links to this one here :(
0 likeswhat is EMDR?
0 likesIs the link for Kati's channel bringing anyone else back to Dodie's video?
0 likesKati! :D
0 likesdodes the link isn't Kati's it goes back onto yours?
0 likesCan you put it up pls :)
Dodie. Ily!
0 likesIm on like 150 on certulean
0 likesI think I have derealisation....
0 likesAm i the only Indonesian who knows Dodie? Pretty sure there are others? Idk?
0 likesProgress!
0 likesWhere's the love button
0 likes"pin the.... tail on the donkey"
0 likes?? katie morton and dodie??? thats like 2 faves??? omg???
0 likeswasn't she in Shane's video. She is very cool.
0 likesWho's here from Shane :)
1 likeA mind the day a woke up and felt like my eyes were weird felt like a was in a dream
1 likeWhat if I have no one to talk to it about...
0 likesIsn't it annoying when you have to go back and pause the writing that's on the screen for 2 seconds for comic effect
0 likes❤ 🙏❤🌟💗🌙🌠😍
0 likesDang ok I didn’t know this was a thing
0 likesOh my goodness...:(
0 likesOmg I love her???
0 likesAnyone suggest for the solution of this problem!!!please anyone
0 likesI want to get rid of this thing
In the thumbnail the girl on the left looked a bit like Paige from pll
0 likesI feel like after I smoke I feel like this .. damn
1 likeHey it’s the girl from Shane’s series lol
2 likesand shes in shanes video now ooo
1 likeI have dissociation. eep.
0 likesi love you.
0 likesOmg I thought it was pheobe bridges!
0 likeswhere are you??? i miss dodie lmao
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doge bread saaaame
0 likesdoes anyone else feel 'numbness' in yr arms or whatever like it not there BUT it is there? idk some1
0 likesWhere are your videos, I miss you!!!!
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we miss you dodie! i hope to see her soon!
1 likedodie i think you linked her video as yours because its not working for me and its just sending me back to this video, or it could just be my computer
0 likesCould you help me out please i have depersonalization
0 likesHey Dodie. Thanks for helping me feel like my mental illness is more normal than it is abnormal. Love you for that
0 likesI've been suffering from dissociation for nearly 5 years now and for me it comes hand in hand with ptsd and intense flashbacks where I completely pass out and start to scream and kick everything around me. This video helped me a lot. Even though I've had it for nearly 5 years now I always felt really insecure and alone about it. Thank you so much xxx
0 likesthis is scary good timing, i just had my first episode of derealisation today (technically still am having it) and hoo boy is it terrifying. thank you dodie for sharing and making me feel not so alone x
0 likesI'm showing this to my counsellor. This is exactly how I feel, I didn't think it was depersonalisation but something else instead. I also have a fair idea of what the trauma was. Thank you for sharing this :)
0 likesDodie, the link you put for the video on Kati's channel just leads back to this one.
1 likeGreat video. I love how committed you are to helping people understand depersonalization/derealization, and I think it's great that you collabed with someone who is a professional therapist and could give some more concrete information on the subject. Love you, you're wonderful!
Thank you for being so open about your mental illness! You have helped me (and probably many others) a lot! xx
0 likesThank you for this video! I'm having weird experiences about twice a week, for five hours at a time, which my psychiatrist can only describe as dissociative (in his field) but it could also be complex partial seizures and I'm awaiting a referral from neurology. I've had these experiences for the past four years and am learning to deal with them. It's a feeling of intense discomfort, memory blocks and thoughts of the past/no thoughts at all. Anyway, I really enjoyed this video. I wish you luck with your treatment, Dodie and thank you for your wisdom, Kati :)
0 likesI'm really pleased that this has a name!
0 likesIn year 8 I would always feel in a dream state and I could never fully describe the feeling to anyone. It was so frustrating to have no-one understand this feeling of 'floating' or feeling outside the body. My teacher thought I might be diabetic (which wasn't true).
I googled it once and the only thing that fit was someone saying "you have a more philosophical mind and tend to space out due to too much thought on the universe". Because no-one understood I was forced to be quiet about it and over the years it came in bouts but faded and I hardly get it now- I have no idea how it passed but I'm bloody well glad it did!
been suffering for nearly two years now. diagnosed a few months ago. your videos make it that bit easier; thank you dodie xxx
0 likesWow, this was super interesting and showed me just how little I know about the treatment of mental issues. When I think of therapy conserning mental health I always think of either talk therapy or medication. This just showed my I should get more educated on the topic, thanks Dodie!
0 likesThank you for this video. I struggle with this as well and depression and anxiety and its helpful to feel understood and know that my brain is not the only one behaving this way. It's so hard for me to make it though echo day with all this in my head thank you for making me feel a little less alone.
0 likesI'm doing a project in school on this to try and educate my fellow students. You're my inspiration Dodie! This video is great. Thank you.
0 likesI love her. I was very interested by you, Dodie... I mean really understanding how you feel and this helps. It's a breath of fresh air to see you being understand by someone so easily with words, sometimes it's so difficult to portrait feelings.
0 likesThank you! Definitely going to be using Kati's channel for a resource now as I've dealt with untreated depression and occasional derealisation for several years. I'm so thankful that you're so open about your experiences!
0 likesthe timing of this video is just right, i really needed this ❤️ i find it so important that people talk about mental health. and it really helps. i feel like something is wrong with me, but i'm too scared to ask for help so these videos make me feel a little bit better.
0 likesthank you for this doddie. i have a feeling i've always had depersonalisation, but never seeked professional help. just wanted to run through a few things in case anyone can relate or explain...
0 likeswhen i was younger i used to have these weird sort of, i can only describe as, seizures (similar to migraine) but i would be in a dream state, hearing very loud noises which weren't there like a cash register or something random, and everything would go very slowly and i would feel panicky - this would come on randomly and its happened only a few times recently but not as common as when i was younger. also, anyone experience weird uncomfortable dreams where your head feels like cotton wool and your body just feels out of place, and just really surreal. at first i thought this dream thing was just my subconscious being weird, but now its more of an ongoing experience, like i wake up grinding my teeth sometimes and just feeling really 'out of body'. i can only relate the feeling to when you have pins and needles.
anyway, thats my weirdness - any comments on this would be appreciated :)
thank you for this doddie. i have a feeling i've always had depersonalisation, but never seeked professional help. just wanted to run through a few things in case anyone can relate or explain...
0 likeswhen i was younger i used to have these weird sort of, i can only describe as, seizures (similar to migraine) but i would be in a dream state, hearing very loud noises which weren't there like a cash register or something random, and everything would go very slowly and i would feel panicky - this would come on randomly and its happened only a few times recently but not as common as when i was younger. also, anyone experience weird uncomfortable dreams where your head feels like cotton wool and your body just feels out of place, and just really surreal. at first i thought this dream thing was just my subconscious being weird, but now its more of an ongoing experience, like i wake up grinding my teeth sometimes and just feeling really 'out of body'. i can only relate the feeling to when you have pins and needles.
i feel like these experiences somehow tie to my history of identity issues and body dysmorphia...but i've never met anyone who has had similar experiences or can shed light onto it.
anyway, thats my weirdness - any comments on this would be appreciated :)
I have derealization ever since a traumatic experience early this year. I'm an actress, the absolute worst thing that can happen (considering my choice of career) is spacing out during an audition, which happened several times.
0 likesThank you for this video, it was very insightful.
Thank you so much for this video. I have some form of depersonalization and derealization because I've needed to shut down on some level due to being in a really conservative, homophobic family. This video was helpful because sometimes I don't think I'll ever be able to process everything I've been through or actually feel better. Thanks for the hope and education. <3
0 likesloved this video, it's very interesting to listen to you both and it's good to educate people about this!! also, loved the small comments you added 💛💛
0 likesI used to have "attacks" of depersonalisation, I remember them starting when I was around 15 but they probably started a lot earlier then that. I would feel like I was trapped in my head and was just watching the world through a control room window, it was so weird and no one I talked to understood. It didn't happen often but it was enough for me to notice something was wrong. This past year I've been having attacks of derealisation and their getting closer and closer together and lasting much longer. I get so disoriented and can't really function properly if at all. I know that I'm triggered by loud and clostraphobic sounds, like a busy supermarket or if the tumbledrier is on. But sometimes it just comes of no where. It's so weird and I just wish it would stop.
0 likesThis was so interesting and useful. I was very dissociative for a while after I ended a toxic relationship but after about six months, despite still in the recovery process somewhat, I'm feeling a lot better in terms of my derealisation. However because I didn't know much about it or the causes,I was very worried I was making it all up, that it was all in my head and that my de realisation wasn't valid because of how quickly it went compared to other people. However this video taught me a lot about derealisation and how it's caused; and I think the fact that I processed all of my memories over that time was what made me feel better. I still deal with it and other issues sometimes but I'm in the best place I've ever been. Thanks for making amazing content, like always ❤️
0 likesI can relate to your mental state so well its crazy.
0 likesI feel you Dodie. ❤
I had depersonalization for the longest time and the video you made on it and anxiety accompanied by depression helped me to realise the disorder. The depersonalization is a side effect of my PTSD. You saved my life basically so thank you :)
0 likesWhen my parents were going through a rough patch before their divorce, there was one time my dad shoved my mom against the wall and we left the house for a day, and another time he drove like a crazy person while they were fighting. I don't remember most of these events, so my anxious head has filled in the brain with the worst case scenario. I would have panic attacks in the middle of the night when I stayed at his house. It wasn't until after my mom told me about this that I was able to stop crying on the drive there.
0 likesit's so important that you make these videos! it's so great that you help give her a platform to spread awareness!
0 likesThank you so much Dodie and Kati for making this video, you're helping many people <3
0 likesSince we're talking about mental health here, I kind of want to share my mental heath issues to see if maybe somebody feel the same way
I don't know if this is depression or anxiety or anything, but I often get periods where the whole world seems like it's falling apart, I'm terrified of everything, like I'm never going to be able to get married or have good friends or a job... when I'm at that point I feel extreme guilt over absolutely everything I've ever done, things as small as swearing or being open about my feelings with my friends, and I feel the need to tell my mom everything to get some relieve but it usually only works for 2 minutes before the guilt and thought obsessing about everything return. It's not like I WANT to tell my mom about stuff that most teenagers do, it's because my brain feels like it's going to explode if I don't. I also can't sleep, my memory gets really bad, I can't concentrate. I also have had this constant anxious feeling in my chest every day for the last 3 years, but it seemed to have suddenly disappeared about 3 weeks ago (which is kinda terrifying tbh)
I had been feeling better than I've had in a long time, but a few days ago I found myself slipping into depression again... Does anybody have the same thing? :( I feel so alone sometimes, like I'm making everything up and none of this is valid
I cannot tell you how thankful I am for you guys making this video, I've had this 10 years 24/7. Horrendous disorder.
0 likesWow this really made me understand things a lot clearer. It's so interesting to learn about this topic and what going on in people's heads when this happens. I wanted to know more about this topic because before I didn't really get it but I understand a lot clearer now!
0 likesThank you so much for making this video, Dodie and Kati.
0 likesEver since I was little I've experienced these things, but in the last few months, things have gotten really bad.
I was too scared to Google anything just in case it was something really bad (not saying this is a good thing to have. It's hell for me), then I saw one of your videos talking about it, and I finally had a word/name to this thing.
I searched for it and it's exactly what I've been experiencing.
I was too scared to talk to anyone about it.
Last week I finally told my mum and she was so supportive and she said she's going to help me get the help I need.
After watching this, I'm definitely going to send this video to my mum so she has a better understanding.
It feels so good to finally know what this is.
Thank you so much!
P.S. I love you! You're amazing!
I love this video 💖 I don't suffer from any of these specific problems but it is very interesting to learn about! It's also v important cause it help me(and other people lol) understand what others are going throughh
0 likeswell, I'm not affected by any of those things. Thankfully, I feel really connected to myself and my body. I do have slight tendencies towards derealisation since I get lost into my thoughts so many times people think I'm not there anymore. Now this is also an effect from my ADD, getting distracted a lot of the time, but I think there's a little more behind it since (I think) I subconsciously choose when to lose interest in reality. Really interesting subject, and I'm definitely going to do some self studying on it :P
0 likesI'm definetly going to binge watch Kati's Videos! I do not suffer from mental health issues (I think!), but I am so interested in learning more about mental illnesses and Things of that sort. As a teacher I want to be empathetic and understand the complexity of the human brain as much as I can. Thank you for this informative Video, I enjoyed it very much :)
0 likesI find you mental health videos so helpful!! Thank you so much for making them, they really help me ❤️
0 likesThank you so much for this video, you probably won't see this message but i've had the same problem as you for almost two years now and like you i found out not many know what it is, and it's difficult to explain. so i'm really glad you're doing these videos now, because it's helpful for both the people having this problem to understand it, and the friends of these people to understand the issue and how to react accordingly. I always liked your channel and music and now this series of videos is helping me a lot, so thank you for everything dodie, i hope you'll be able to heal soon
0 likesWhen I was in a deep depression last year, I started having despersonalisation and desrealisation. Dissociation I've always had since I was a child, sometimes I space out when I have to deal with something really stressful. It's like I'm not there, and everything slows down and it freaks me out. Now that I'm better (not cured, I still have some ups and downs) despersonalisation and desrealisation don't happen anymore, but I still dissociate sometimes. But I'm learning to deal with it.
0 likesBeing a person that dissociates more, I've developed some cope mecanisms. One thing that I do is ALWAYS tell my friends that I have this condition, so they can help me. When I dissociate, I can't do anything, it feels awful, so I told them to talk to me when they realize that I'm not "there". Talk to me about puppies, and happy things, or remove the thing that is causing me to "zone out" and then helping me. Having friends that understand what I go through is amazing and helpful so don't be afraid, tell them what you have and if they love you they're gonna help. If it happens when I'm alone, I focus on breathing. I have two ways of breathing that helps me. One is inhaling for four seconds, a pause for 7s, and then exhale for 8s. The other one is doing it as a "box": inhale 4s, pause 4s, exhale 4s, pause 4s. You decide for how long in this one. Then I try things like: a cube of ice in my hand, claping hands in front of a mirror to come back, listening to songs that I love and on earphones so I can really listen to the music and come back.
As I'm getting better, I'm dissociating less, so I recomend looking for professional help too!
Hey Dodie!❤️ I think that I have 'derealisation and/or depersonalisation'. I don't really know what to do🤷🏼♀️ When I talk to my parents about it they just say that I'm drowned in my thoughts, which is sort of true but I really want to seek help, anyone got any advice?🌻
0 likesI've been describing how I feel for so long and now I finally know it's called derealisation
0 likesI NEEDED THIS SO MUCH
0 likesI'm almost certain I feel derealization at school and so many other times. At school I'm around so many people and while being an introvert it makes my whole body want to shut down. I feel like I'm never awake (not tired, but I also am always tired lol) and that nothing I touch is real. I feel like I'm just a robot who's been programmed. I absolutely hate it, but am so glad to maybe have found what it is.
I have a few thoughts so far. Personally, I take Zoloft and it works very well (started on 25 mg then 50). Recently in therapy, I did EMDR for the second time. The first time around, I didn't feel anything from it and felt it wouldn't work (we did an old memory that had lost effect on its own) but the second time, I had a recent episode and we did it and it worked very well. Grounding isn't very effective for me? Idk. I fidget a lot too.
0 likesgood god i love you dodie. thank you for making this mental illness more talked about. it's nice to not be alone
0 likesi get derealization and i'm so happy it's being recognized
0 likesI'm really stuck right now in thought patterns. But what I can manage to say right now, is thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Mental health discussions are SO important!
0 likesI loved the inside out marbles comparison. It really helped me visualise and understand what happens. This video was really helpful in general! I sometimes experience the sensation of not really feeling the things happening around me. Its like im in a certain situation but my brain just denies what im seeing and hearing but just shuts off for a bit to process whats going on. I guess thats a bit of dissociation. Its nothing serious but im really glad i understand what happens now. Thank you both for such an amazing video! I hope you finally find a treatment that helps you, good luck ❤
0 likeshi. i've suffered through derealization since i was 14. i didn't know it had a name. i was too ashamed to tell anyone about it because i thought i was broken/ruined/crazy. i told my mom when i was around 17, and she was absolutely terrified of me. it made me feel like a monster. and then i started watching your channel... and you made a video on it. you gave it a name. you made me feel human.
0 likesi'm 25 now and i finally have the courage to talk about derealization with others, and i'm even going to a counselor now. and here you are now, talking with mental health professionals and helping even more people just like me. kids whose mothers might not understand. adults who never had a name for what they've been carrying.
i don't really know how to thank you for what you've given back to me. you don't even know me. your music helps me all the time – i'm pretty sure you went inside my brain and wrote 'when'– and i just absolutely adore you. thank you, thank you, thank you.
wow this is a really educational and helpful video!! even though i don't experience depersonalisation or derealisation, it did help me think a little differently about my depression!
0 likesHello Dodie! Thank you for talking about such issues, I think it's very brave of you to do so, I don't personally think I could even mention my depressive episodes to any one! But One you put on side notes in your videos, could you leave them on screen for a bit longer? As a non-English native speaker, it's already a bit hard to follow everything, and pausing every now and then makes it hard for me to keep up with the conversation!
0 likesThat being said, I'd like to mention that I love you very much and that your music has helped me putting real emotions on weird moments of my life! Bless you ! :)
This stuff is so helpful and motivating, like just talking about it and knowing other people are going through it and figuring it out is so nice. It'd be nice to feel my emotions again.
0 likesSuch an interesting video, Kati is so clear explaining things, I hope you find a way to live better with this illnesses Dodie 💛💛💛
0 likesit's so nice knowing other people go through this, like, it makes me so emotional knowing i'm not alone even a lot of the time i truly believe i am... to anyone reading this suffering the same, you're not alone and people love you (including me)! you will be fine and soon you will feel whole again <3
0 likesOh my gosh I never imagined such a combination!!! Thank you so much for making this video!
0 likesthis was so helpful, thank you for making this❤️
0 likesUgh! thank you guys for talking about these things! so helpful and interesting :)
0 likesseeing dodie smile and the warm glow in her face when listening to kati was so sweet like i feel that kati is what dodie needs not just because of her profession but because of her being and personality. She obviously feels so comfortable being and talking with her and also since dodie realeased the "am I sharing too much" video I feel she has grown. She may be feeling worse or up and down but she's actively changing the way she approaches the subject and how she feels. I love her so much 💛
0 likesFrom around the age of..7? I've had panic attacks some nights from thinking of death. I don't have them that much (about that) now, I'm 14, and now that I'm watching this, I think I had dearelisation after the panic attacks, mainly when I was younger. Thank you for this video ❤️
0 likesI suffer with Derealisation and BPD (Borderline personality disorder). I find that talk therapy with a therapist that specialises in Schema therapy and Somatic therapy works best this type of condition. My therapist will always "check in" with me, she tries to ground me as soon as i sit down with her. She has given me this small white shell to touch and play with whenever i feel separated from my body or my situation. Just being able to talk through a thought or feeling or memory or even just going into detail about what i cooked that day, is enough make my brain learn to feel again. Breathing techniqes may not sound relavant but it certainly helps to refocus yourself out of a bad situation of diconnecing and anxiety. I had a build up of very odd and traumtic events from a baby and again in my early teens and then early 20's. I was misdiagnosed as Bipolar due to my doctors not fully understanding what was happening to me. So its so important that you keep searching for the right people to listen to you. This is one of the best videos you have done on this channel Dodie. its very relatable to thouands of people.
0 likesThank you so much this was so informative and helpful, especially because this topic isn't talked about very often.
0 likesI realised so many things in this video thank you so much for making this xx
0 likesReally enjoyed this video, even though I don't suffer from any of these conditions. I thought it was really thoughtful - thanks dodie :)
0 likesI really needed this. Thank you dodie.
2 likesExcellent excellent vid Dodie!!!! Kati was so helpful oh my word. I don't suffer from derealisation thankfully, but I just really found this so interesting in understand where my generalised anxiety might stem from, especially that whole part about trauma being big Ts and Little ts. xxx
0 likesomg this is soo helpful!! I struggle with dissociative disorders and sometimes I feel kind a lonly in this area because nobody reallly talks about it, and know anything about it. thanks thanks thanks!!
0 likesi suffer from depersonalisation and my friends always have to try and help me actually be there in the moment as appose to with myself in a bubble where time just walks away and i feel like a minute has gone by but really it's been 20 minutes and I'm really lucky to have such great friends and a wonderful life and this video has really helped me connect and let me know I'm not alone in this world of craziness so thank you. I really does mean a lot.
0 likesI recently got rid of my depression and anxiety but it's a constant battle, I'd say it's been gone for about three months but every single day I have to fight with myself to get out of bed, to give the day a shot, some days I cry, but most days i'm fine. The thing she said about little T's and big T's really struck a cord with me. During these past two years my mom got depressed and lost her hair, school was very stressful, and during my recovery this year my friend tried to kill herself, my dad got MS and my grandma died. Life is a constant struggle but it's always worth it. If you're experiencing depression or recently got out of it, the song "flowers in the window" by Travis is a very great song when you feel hopeless. The song is about having children, but I like to listen to it as if it's about someone getting happy after a long while of sadness.
0 likesI use playing cards to shuffle hen im feeling like im away from myself, that or circling my finger in my palm and tracing my fingers.
0 likesits grounding and it keeps you feeling.
as for trauma therapy ive done a lot of talking with friends and relatives and such. i had to find out ways to do it by myself as the NHS didnt really have much help for me. they helped with depression and anxiety.
i still space the hell out and have nothing there at all.
Thanks for this video.
kati makes me feel so calm and at ease that i actually started crying watching this lol
0 likesi think my experience with mental illness could even if for a little tiny bit benefit you. I did go to a therapist which helped so much but the other significant thing is that i got introduced to a philosopher named Alan Watts and by listening to recordings of his lectures i slowly got better, my view on life changed 100% and i began understanding what it is really like to live, and I think that is very important to help with depersonalisation. He does’t talk about mental illnesses but by seeing the world differently your brain can see a world where it can work better with. if you could only listen to one start with this one titled “The Root of your Anxiety” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nchUv3GhdJ4
0 likeswhat’s different about him is that he’s very humorous and he never said anything like he doesn’t understand. I just hope you’ll listen to this because i really do think it might help, at least to catch your attention into looking further into what he says.
Lots of love X.
I think this is such a good way to talk about mental health problems. It helps people who have similar or even the same problems, but it also doesn't drag you down, because it is focused on ways to improve. I really like it, well done!
0 likesIt's nice to see dodie learning about her issues and how to help them, as well as teach the public without scaring or egging anyone on.
0 likesomg i love kati moreton!!! she's an inspiration to me, since i want to become a therapist one day :)
0 likesthankyou for this dodie. i didn't know anything about depersonalisation but listening this felt like a huge realization because for the past two years i've felt like i was watching tv. like nothing is really happening, and now i can look into it and get help thankyou :)
0 likesi have derealisation!! thought it was depersonalisation but yea. it often happens after i've had an intense dream for some reason and it can last from 30 minutes to like, 2 hours i think (usually until i get into my routine, specifically when i have to start socializing with classmates and stuff. the ride on the train is always a surreal experience though)
0 likesi don't think i've ever been thraumatized though. but i've suffered from anxiety and social anxiety all my life and it affected me a lot as a child (one huge symptom was my biting my nails til they bled, i've had 3-4mm long fingernails til just a few years ago). maybe i'm just a bit stressed right now? i'm gonna finish uni next year and i'm feeling a lot of pressure from my family and friends so. idk! it's confusing
i used to see a therapist but let's say she wasn't quite helpful, since she mocked me and made me feel bad for how i was feeling so i'm not really open to talking about it with anyone else cause honestly people are gonna think i'm weird or they're gonna tell me i don't have the right to have mental issues since my life isn't so hard...idk.
but thanks for the info ily : )
to me it feels like i'm living life through a virtual reality headset. most of the time it's pretty close, but still doesn't feel quite real, and i'm not quite connected to my body. but when it gets bad it's laggy, poorly calibrated, the camera the scenario was filmed with was out of focus, and there was something muffling the mic. additionally, i can get really paranoid about it, thinking that i really am in a dream, or a computer simulation or whatever and i'm seeing the trick being played on me, so grounding techniques don't really work bc I think i'm seeing the truth and whoever's giving me tips is trying to keep me in the dark or under control. which is probably more connected to something other than derealization. :/
0 likesI showed this to my mom and she finally understands me
0 likesI get both of them all the time to the point I have done something and not really relise I'm doing it but doddle I love u and ur channel stay awesome 🤗
Thank you so much for this video this was so helpful!! Xoxo
0 likesoooh this is interesting. i never realised but im fairly sure i was experiencing all three on and off about 2 years ago. i remember writing a poem about how my limbs felt heavy and like they were disconnecting from my body. i would just float from room to room like i was being dragged. my eyelids felt like they were getting thicker and harder to move. sometimes i would just sit on my carpet and stare at the sun but not in a peaceful way more like a numb practically dead way. it was intolerable. mostly because i didnt know why i felt like that. i thought it was just depression. maybe it was? all i know is that im over it hopefully for good.
0 likesTHANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS VIDEO!
0 likesThis is soooo helpful
I have a disorder(?) and it was recognised over a decade ago but it still isn't majorly accepted.
0 likesThank you for talking about how you had to take in a letter/wiki page. I'm thinking about going in for help and I was worried that they would turn it down or maybe think I was trying to do their job for them?
When dodie was talking about how depresonilzatuon/derealization is scarce in research, that is what my career is going to be. I'm going to school for neurology and psychology so I can help with the research to help find curing methods and good meds for those who are sick. I love u dodie
0 likesThankfully, I do not suffer from any mental illnesses.
0 likesI don't have dissociation or derealization.
One time though, I was just playing football and out of nowhere something just happened and it felt like everything around me just turned into fiction.
I was seeing my friends run around after the ball. I was running after it myself but I just felt like I wasn't there. It lasted for around 10 minutes. I was controlling myself, I could think and speak and move but I just felt weird. I was so terrified.
I know this is not the derealization or depersonalisation.
What happened does match the spacing out description I've read and heard though.
It has only happened once in my entire life, it's not a big deal at all
I just wanna say that if THAT is how you feel 24×7, and you still get through it: hats off Dodie. You're a brave brave brave person.
i wish i knew about the fact that EMDR doesn't work if you struggle with dissociation. i always thought i was doing it wrong!! there was one instance where it worked but i still couldn't help but feel like i wasn't doing something right. my therapist told me mine stems from small traumas with a couple big traumas thrown in there, the same as yours, all spanning over the course of a few years. i've always been very spaced out but noticed something was very wrong the last year or so when i became depersonalized and couldn't recognize myself in the mirror. talk therapy helps me most. one day i walked out of a session & was completely grounded for about 20 minutes. it was the happiest i'd ever been.
1 likeKati reminds me so much of my psychologist who helped me a kot in the past and it's giving me a really warm feeling, thaaanks
0 likesoh my god when I saw her in the background of one of your stories I really hoped there would be a collab YAY. kati's channels is one of my favorite.
0 likesI had a massive bout of derealisation during my A levels (for me it's a symptom of Confusional Migraines). I start to get paranoid that I'm imagining things and people, and I convince myself that half the stuff (normal things like walls and cars) aren't real. It's really fuckin strange and why I'm never going to experiment with hallucinogenics.
0 likesI don't have derealization or depersonalization but this was very insightful and educating of what other peoples lives could be like.
0 likesokay thank you so much for explaining that you dont have to have a giant traumatic experience to experience these things. i keep telling myself i have no reason to feel like this and it sucks mann
0 likesi could cry at that metaphor for the shattered marble. all my mental illnesses come attached with "as result of a trauma" or "due to a trauma" and i've never had how i feel explained as well as that. thank you so much for introducing us to her, she seems wonderful!
0 likesThis is so interesting. I am currently studying to become a Trauma Therapist. It's videos and talks like this that inspire me the most. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us, Dodie! Keep going! I know you can do this! I can't wait to be able to help people who have gone through traumas however I can. ❤️❤️
0 likesi did EDMR with my therapist for my anxiety. we have stopped doing it for now but i did not like it. i wasn't getting into it and i could see through all her questions and tactics. i also don't like therapy because i felt like i was forced to go so that could have been why i was not cooperating. but that was just for me. i also noticed that i was VERY tired and drained after. having my eyes follow a light for minutes on end. just my experience though.
0 likesI have this and I never knew what it was, I'm so glad I've watched this so I now I know that it's not only me that has it.
0 likesDodie ! I have found that talk therapy with a therapist who kind of talks through trauma from all years of life has been helpful for me !
0 likesI was recently diagnosed with depersonlisation/derealisation yet I don't seem to recall any trauma from my childhood. And I have trouble remembering things so if there was any trauma I don't think I'll ever be able to recall it. (Hope this made sense)
0 likesDoes anyone else feel that way?
I've done EMDR, and in my case they did not do the look at the finger thing, but put loud clicks on a headphone. Worked a treat for me. I hope you can try again at some point, but everyone has a different reaction to all those therapies. keep trying!
0 likesI told my mom about how I think I have depression and how I want to go to a doctor and see but she keeps saying "it's just hormones" but I know she doesn't want to admit her child might have mental health problems. It's so bad that I'm constantly sucidal and I don't want to feel this way anymore but she doesn't even care
0 likesTHE COLLAB I NEVER EXPECTED BUT DEEPLY NEEDED KATI IS THE DAMN BEST
0 likesYour friend seems like an amazing psychologist, she is so good !
0 likesthank you,, this really helped me. i might actually talk to my friend about it and maybe a doctor because i relate to mANY derealisation symptoms. i often have to hold my chair or hold an object and force my brain back into reality whilst im at school and its shit. when i was a child some events happened with my friend having a serious illness and he didnt make it. i think i destroyed those memories ((like smashing the marble balls of memory in inside out like you were talking about)) but,, i do remember everyone planting a tree for him. everyday i think about him,,when i look at trees and the sky. i think im gonna talk to a friend. thank you guys so much <3
0 likesi always have this weir feeling when i'm in big crowds like nothing is real and it's all just a dream and everything that happens is sureal. I always thought i'm just weird or something but now i finally know what it is. Thanks dodie!
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twenty one chemical phall out boys! at the disco that's probably caused by anxiety. Your mind is taking you away from things so you don't panic
0 likes3 D i never thought i had anxiety...
0 likesI'll doubt you'll see this Dodie but I'm just curious, with your Depersonalization, do you ever feel weird looking in the mirror? I know you said you think you look like your brother, but do you ever feel freaked out or super uncomfortable? I experience Depersonalization and I experience this and I just wondered if it's normal. I guess if any of you in the comments have it too, lemme know if you experience this!
0 likesDODIE! Thank you! I understand myself a little better now ^^
0 likesTbh, I had no idead what dp/dr was before, and clicking on the video I didnt expect to hear about such a thing. I really had no clue sth like this can exist. Very, very interesting and sad. I hope for all of you to get through this and hope for myself to never have to experience this (or any other) mental disease during lifetime.
0 likesthis is a beautiful video dodi it shows your vunerability and your strength I know you will find the right thearpy that suits you best love you dodi
0 likesI can't even comprehend what these would feel like, I've had drug induced dissociation and depersonalisation from things like ketamine. Was really strange
0 likesi suffer from disassociation and it can really suck. honestly my derealisation doesn't ever bother me that much. I don't think it is that intense, but it is the depersonalisation that gets me. i don't feel like a human and my body becomes numb and cold. doing things like drinking a drink feel really wrong. i feel like i am nothing and it is so bad. i am setting up dates to talk to my therapist about it. my last episode with depersonalisation was really bad and scary. i had known i had it but hadnt researched about it, so i didnt know what was going on. i just counted to 10 like 6 times and took deep breaths and kept telling myself that i would be okay, that started to help try and clear the fog. when i get like that it can just be terrifying
0 likesI don't know if I have anything, I haven't been diagnosed but sometimes when I have little panic attacks if I'm about to do something in front of a crowd, when I do it I space out and my mind kind of goes on autopilot and then when I try to remember what happened my memory is always kind of hazy.
0 likesOr if I'm just with friends I'll space out and feel sad for no reason.
I have never heard of the either of these things but I feel like a light bulb has just gone on in my head. Derealization literally describes all the my "problems".
0 likesI don't usually say this because I think it's an overused phrase but this really opened my eyes to what actually goes on, thank you. It's really interesting to see it like inside out. Thank you thank you thank you x
0 likesI think touch is helpful with other issues too and we undervalue it. As a single adult it's difficult to come across and yet so powerful in reducing loneliness. Gimme a hug!
0 likesi am just at the beginning of this video but what if i constantly feel like everything's not real? and then just in certain periods of time i realize how real everything is and i break down and genuinely feel physically sick.
0 likesTWO OF MY FAVOURITE YOUTUBERS TOGETHER UGH MY HEART ❤️❤️
0 likesthis is insane. i was going through this last night and then heres the video today. crazy how the world works
0 likeswow, i actually don't know a lot about this. glad to learn some more about this stuff today!
0 likesI would explain depression and depersionalisation kind of like standing on a bus early in a cold morning, and it's raining outside. And you're just staring forward, following the rhytm of the bus, not bored but not enjoying it either, you're all just quietly waiting to step off the bus. And when people kill themselves it's because they never seem to get to their stop, just standing on the bus forever.
0 likesI wish my friends and family knew how to help me with my anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. Sometimes I feel like they just don't care when they don't realize that I'm drowning in my feelings and my anxiety but they just don't understand it. They never really will but I wish they'd try more.
0 likesim so happy you made this video!! tysm dodie ily
0 likesI LOVE BOTH OF YOU TOGETHER!!!! MY FAVES
0 likesi've had glandular fever since april and i have a huge feeling of not existing, not too sure whether it's the glandular fever that is fogging my brain or it's some for of depersonalisation. sometimes i just stand in town for an hour just watching the world go by and it feels like i am not there. my memory is really bad and god i hope i get out of this rut soon. it feels like it's never gonna go away.
0 likesI have depersonalisation and it's strange because I don't feel like me. I feel like my mind in someone else's body. It's terrible because I don't feel safe and I feel like I'm only comfortable when I'm away from society and other people who are able to judge me. This sort of stuff isn't a joke. It isn't just made up and it isn't just a little role-play. It is real and affects many people and takes over their lives. We need to increase the awareness of this.
0 likesUnrelated but I JUST CUT MY HAIR BECAUSE I REMEMBERED YOU DOING IT AND YOU MADE ME DO IT AFTER 3 YEARS THANKS.
0 likesNow related, I feel spaced out a lot... I don't feel like I have depersonalisation although I sometimes get surprised because I forget what I look like. Like I'll look in a mirror and be surprised to see myself lol. But yeah... I don't think I thankfully have that (depression and social anxiety is enough lol) but to anyone who has it regularly, I hope you all will feel better sometime in the near future... And remember it's okay to relapse after a long time of feeling good. I felt happy and non-depressed for almost 6 months and then it came back like a truck so like, don't be dissapointed in yourself when it happens! I (and I'm sure many others) love and support you even if it feels like no one does.
Don't give up! <3333
I love that you talk about things like that because I never knew that that's a thing
0 likesNot sure if this is related at all but this is how I've felt about the world:
0 likes-Almost all of the time I feel like I'm floating through time, just waiting it out until something happens or I die.
-I often feel like I'm having an out of body experience an that everything is going slowly and I can't open my eyes wide enough or see very well when I'm in a loud environment surrounded by lots of people (although sometimes just loud noises makes me feel like that) this usually puts me in a childlike state I can't come out of for at least 2-4 hours.
-When my depression gets very bad I look at the parts of my body in detail and study them because I get very cold and I start to get very paranoid and believe I'm a robot/being traced/have a tracking device in me. I know im being stupid sometimes and that's impossible to happen but when I get like that it's terrifying and I genuinely believe the government or someone else is watching and monitoring me.
-also often when I get into that state in the last point I view myself as a boy (I'm a cis girl) and I start to feel physically sick when I notice the feminine parts of my body (my boobs, bum and hips are really big so I'm not masculine in any way) i often feel like I'm a trans guy when I get into that state and fantasise about getting surgery and T but then I come out the state after a couple days and I'm fine.
Okay that's almost all my dissociative type things someone help me with wtf this is
i really have no idea how i got derealisation but holy heck do i have it bad!! i had little episodes when i was a kid like mentioned in the video, but it started becoming (i guess chronic?) last winter. i don't know how i got it, i had the flu and i woke up one morning feeling spaced out and it hasn't stopped since. at first i was miserable and i just wanted to feel better, but i guess now that ive had it for almost an entire year im used to it. i think it's starting to fade away but i can't even tell because im sooooooo used to being spaced out that i have no idea what it's like to feel normal. also ive noticed that i drift more into depersonalisation whenever im in social situations like a party or something ?? so yeah that's my story of derealisation it's fucking hell as mine is also combined with depression and anxiety but im getting through it
0 likesI have both but mainly depersonalisation. I will put my hand in front of my face and think "woah, is this who I actually am?" It's pretty odd
0 likesCan some of these things be caused by mental trauma? Such as mayjor anxiety or intense mental states?? I'm not sure how to explain but I hope that makes sense 😂
0 likesAfter watching this video I think I have derealization I didn't know it was a thing other people had I thought I was weird
0 likesHi. I'm Nikki, I'm 13 years old and I think I'm experiencing the symptoms of dissociation but I feel like my brain is just making it up because I haven't really experienced any trauma recently or anytime I can remember and whenever I talk to my mum about it (she's a GP so if she wanted to she could refer me to a specialist) she doesn't take me seriously and changes the topic for no reason whatsoever. The only advice I can get right now is from the internet and because of this I feel like it's not really happening and it's all just fake. Does anyone have any advice bearing in mind I'm under 16 so I can't go and see a doctor by myself?
0 likesthis is. the MOST uplifting video holy shit im just like weeping rn i alway thought i was doing sth wrong w emdr and constantly disappointing everyone involved fucking BLESS ok tysm for this video
0 likesKatie Morton is brilliant her videos on personality disorders are brilliant
0 likeswowow i find kati's voice so calming brb watching her vids
0 likesIt takes some serious balls to talk about mental health in a world were unfortunately although treatment and public views have come on leaps and bounds since the only asylum days but there's so...so sooo far to go !! To often it's seen as being weak ....your not strong enough to deal. With life ...now that's the ONLY "CRAZY" thing about mental health issues !! So from the bottom of my heart thank you for being so brand bringing much needed awareness and in a HEALTHY way !! I'm blown away that a young lady going through such a crappy time has the resilience to get on here with a PROFESSIONAL which is the most important bit! Educating in a non intimidating relaxed way means more people will open up and get the right help ! There are lots of people online desperate to help who do videos ONLY TRYING TO HELP! (no criticism at all) but end up giving out dangerous advice etc YOUR BOTH AWSOME and if anyone is still reading life's hard sometimes and sometimes it's outright impossible but remember could be in an hour ...a day..a week remember that feeling when someone makes you laugh even crack a "I'm still pissed at you smile" that's always makes my day ! Could be a friend..stranger ..book ...podcast...a doodie video ...have a nice day y'all xx
0 likesOoo I love Kati. Go check out her channel she's amazing 💙💙
0 likesI tend to get depersonalisation more than derealisation. It was awful of sertraline for me; if I took my pills even an hour late, I'd be completely derealised for 24 hours or so. I don't get that any more now I'm on venlafaxine, but I still get it occasionally. It sucks balls.
0 likesIMPORTANT POINT!!!!!!!! depersonalization/derealization shouldn't be looked at like an illness, and medication isn't a good treatment. It is a learned behaviour that has resulted from your mind being overwhelmed with trauma/worry/negative thoughts etc. Thinking of it as an illness makes it much harder to recover from. I'm in the process of recovering from it as well. Mindset that you are not sick, you are tired and your brain is dealing with it by shutting down means that you can acknowledge that and with therapy and work, retrain your brain to be refreshed more positive.
0 likesI'd like to know if it's possible to experience derealisation sometimes and not always ? Because sometimes , it seems , out of nowhere I just completely space out and everything around me seems foggy and like I'm in a dream , it's like I am there but not really , afterwards I usually get a headache and feel a little dizzy and afterwards it still feels like what happened was a dream and I pinch myself a little to see if I'm still there . It's bizarre , this only happens sometimes so I'm not sure what it is. Can someone maybe tell me ?
0 likesI HAVE A TANGLE AND IT HELPS ME SO MUCH
0 likesthis video is very important to me because for someone who doesn't understand their mental illness much, and also has friends who don't know or understand my mental illness !!! this means i can send it to my close friends and family and be like "hey dude, this is that thing i have, i hope you understand more" because i find it very difficult when i'm hella s p a c e d out and can't explain it
0 likesWhat a great video!! xx
0 likesThank you, dodie :)
0 likesi don't know if i'm just making excuses or there is actually something wrong with me (it has nothing to do with this), but is always good to learn about mental illness and how i can help.
0 likesIve wanted to know about this for SO LONG
0 likesthis would've been better to learn than being bored in science
0 likesYou keep saying it comes from trauma but I have no memories of any real trauma. I have no real bad memories, to be honest. The worst I can remember is in grade 1 yelling out in gym when the class is silent and getting embarrassed, grade 3 being called up for something my friend was doing and being told to stop when I wasn't doing anything and grade 9 (couple moths ago) not being prepared to be called on and stuttering through an answer that didn't make sense. My grandmothers and one grandfather all died within a year but it wasn't very traumatic, it was more like they just live across the world now. I have no clue what the traumatic event(s) you keep referring to could be.
0 likesI don't know why but just knowing that dodie is trying to get better even if the things she tried didn't work, it makes me happy???
0 likes"Pin the tail in the dog" - best quote ever! XD
0 likesyou helped me so much.
0 likesYou're literally my spirit animal
0 likesthis video just had such a nice calm vibe
0 likesMy two faves 🌼❤️
0 likesThis was super interesting!!
0 likesI space out when I'm nervous and my anxiety has sky rocketed is that the same things??
0 likesdodie you've linked this video in the description instead of kati's!! <3
0 likesI love when you talk about mental health ahhhhhhhhhhhh
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Doesn't sound normal
0 likesI FREAKING LOVE KATI YAAAAS
0 likesthankyou, so much so so sooooo much ❣️
0 likesKati for me looks like Delphine from Orphan Black. (idk why) Is it only me? o.o
2 likesgreat video!
0 likesDodie, you put a link to a vid on your channel in the description. It's like a loop, you click on the link and you start watching the same video over and over again
0 likesHey Dodie just to tell you the link for Kati's video in this description is the link for this video and not hers.
0 likesI thought I was losing it for a second lol
i feel bad for posting this but i don't understand how dodie can simultaneously not want her brand to become 'mentally ill dodie' but continuously reference her mental health both on social media and on her channel. i love her content usually but on seeing this i just felt tired. on that note however, i will probably still watch it because i love her unconditionally anyway lmao
0 likesThank youuuuuu
0 likesMY 2 FAVORITE YOUTUBERS TOGETHER
0 likesI did emdr and it kinda helped but I feel like talking was the most helpful idk. Emdr was indeed very weird and it would tire me out a lot.
0 likesso important!!!
0 likesYes Kati and Dodie!!!
0 likesSounds like I have real bad derealisation but I thought it was normal?
0 likesTbh i feel like i have depersonalisation etc but I haven't really had any trauma?? Idk I'm so confused I can't put words on me feelings and I just wanna get help but nothing's working for me so far
0 likesdodie, you don't know how necessary was this video
0 likesUrgh why are you so perfect omg
0 likesI just looked it but thanks for the video
0 likesAnswer: a torture your mind does to you
0 likesJust a heads up, the link in the description appears to redirect to this video!
0 likesso I dont think I have any of those I just feel like I am not conected when I am tired and when I change my routine I just get really scared and I dont feel like I can do anything it is weird
0 likesMy two fav people omggg ☺️☺️☺️
0 likesand kati is great!
0 likesWhen dodie posts during school
0 likesdodie you linked your own video in the description lol
0 likesNotice how Kati said "we"
0 likesWhat is EMDR?
0 likesIt's like you've been reading my google searches from yesterday...
0 likesI know this isn't related to the subject but Kati kinda looks like Kristen Wiig
0 likesHey the link in the description isn't working for me on mobile, but what is the name of the other lady's channel called?
0 likesYour link to Kati's channel links back to this video, just a heads up.
0 likesThe link to kati's channel doesn't seem to work for me. What's her channel's name?🤔
0 likesAHH YOU COLLABED WITH THE HERO KATIE
0 likesDodie is it the right link in the description box or is my ipad just not working?
0 likesAm I crazy or did you link this video instead of Katis?
0 likesOMG no way
0 likesjust 2 let you know the link that you put for kati's channel just comes back to this video so u might wanna fix that
0 likesJust me or does that top link to Katie's channel go back to this video?
0 likes(the link to kati's video is just a link to your video)
0 likesim only a child but I feel like I have a mild mental illness. I can't just go to the doctor and ask for info, but I want to know! can people help me? I'm too young.
0 likesS o c i o p a t h
1 likeHey, I think the link to the video on Katie's channel is just another link to your video?
0 likesdodie u silly sausage i think you've linked the wrong video in the description
0 likesWow.
0 likesRight now I don't feel alive or like I exist
0 likesI have this right now horrible
0 likesi have no feelings :(
0 likesWhen does this go away??? What can help me its been a year already??? This sucks man for real
0 likesthe link in the description just links back to this video?
0 likesI want you to know that this was actually super helpful video
2 likesIt's hard when you're struggling and can't really find anyone who feels the same way but this video really put some of my feelings to words and sorted some little things out. I've been really dissociated lately and I've had hard time focusing on my environment or anythings else. Talking to my friends the other day really helped. I have a buzzcut and my best friend has a habit of petting and touching my head and it reeeally helps and makes me feel more present and comfortable, so that's one nice thing<3 Thank you for this video, really Dodie, thank you
Omg I love Katie's channel so much, thank you for this collab!! I've just graduated high school and I just wanted to say that I am going to be starting therapy for whatever is wrong with me and has been interfering with my life for 3 years (i have no idea what it is lol) and both you and Katie have been a big part of me building up the courage to do that :) thanks dodie love u kbye
0 likesThis was really interesting, also i now have a word for what I was feeling when I was dealing with grief at the beginning of the year. I felt spaced out and like I was just floating through life, which I now understand as it was a trauma it was dissociation. Thank you for helping me understand that.
0 likesThis was really great! I've had friends who suffered from depression and it's so interesting to understand how the brain works, like, mental health issues aren't just randomly screwed up brains, there's logic behind it, and a way to treat it.
0 likesGreat video, thanks <3
I love how relaxed dodie is in these videos...it just makes the watching of this video so much easier
0 likesKati helped me so much during my self harming and I've always really appreciated her help. I love that these guys are collab in! 👍👍thanks guys
0 likesThank you for this. I honestly feel a bit better knowing where the emptiness in my brain may have come from and how to deal with it. I love the inside out analogy sm honestly that's such an insightful way to describe it. Thank you for everything dodie ily.
0 likesDodie, I love that you're making these informative videos with a trained professional! Spreading awareness about DR/DP in a responsible and still personal way!
0 likesThis was really really interesting to watch and I love learning about these things. I think I'm gonna look further into it because I can relate to some things you said. I also really wanna try therapy because I think it would be amazing to just talk to someone that I don't have any relation with and let everything out but then again I'm just really worried about it being really weird and uncomfortable
0 likesI loved this so much. I have never experienced any mental illness of any sort, but the past few months I've been really interested in it and been very bothered about how little mental illnesses are talked about and focused on. Learning about it was so interesting and I think after this video I understand at least a bit more of what you were talking about in your videos earlier.
0 likesThank you so much for this Dodie and Kati. This makes me feel less alone and less crazy and gives me hope that things will be okay. You are a wonderful human being. You give hope to lots of people and you shine bright in your own unique ways. Thank you for being you. ❤
0 likesThank you so much for this! I had my first experience with what I believe to be derealization before Christmas, and it was.... Terrifying. I honestly thought I was going crazy and would never get myself back. I know how I can deal with it better now, and seeing as I get it only badly about once every 1-2 months , I'm doing okay :)
0 likesThis video is bound to be extremely helpful so so many people, if not now, then in the future. I don't want anyone to be as scared as I was. 💚
i havent even watched the video yet but already know i'm going to love it. DODIE i really appreciate how much you talk about your mental issues and your everyday struggle. ever since i've found your videos i've felt a lot less alone in my struggle. it's so easy to get yourself into a bad headspace but i always try to be optimistic otherwise i go to deep. i'm not doing that great right now but i'll be fine. i hope but i just wanted to say thanks for unknowingly being there for me. i know you were feeling really down on sunday/satuday(snapchat) and i just wanted to say i love. never feel guilty about how you're feeling and thank you. thank you thank you thank you.
0 likesI'm on sertraline and your dosage was so strong! I started on 25mg and gradually rose to 75 over the course of a couple months. The 75 recently has seemed too strong so I went down to 50 I can't imagine how much 100 must've been for you!
0 likesThis is why I love Dodie so much, her channels are just filled with positivity and even the videos like this that aren't necessarily about a positive subject still have a comforting feel to them and still results in some form of positivity. Dodie Clark is like medication for mental health in human form.
0 likesEndlessly proud of you, Dodes 💛 Stay strong.
0 likesThank you so much for posting this video! I learned a lot!😊 It was really interesting and it surely is important to talk about mental health issues nowadays especially about the ones that aren't as known☺
0 likesThis was so informative and interesting. I deal with depersonalization, but I have never gotten a clear and concise explanation/definition between the differences of dissociation, depersonalization, and derealization. I'm going to share this with my therapist this week. Thanks!
0 likesThank you for making this video. I've been thinking that I've been dealing with this but I wasn't sure. Hearing someone explain what I've been feeling really makes me feel valid. How do you go about asking for help without people misunderstanding or thinking I'm crazy?
0 likesOmg I swear!!! Dodie is such an amazing, lovely being! Like she put this video up with a PROFESSIONAL THERAPIST to help her subscribers! And she opened up about herself to which is very meaningful and can be hard to do!! I love her so muchhhhh!
1 likeThank you so much for this video! For about a year now, I've notice that something wasn't quite right. Some days, the things happening around me seem like I am watching a movie and that it isn't my reality. Some days I just can't FEEL anything. No fear, sadness (which sounds like it would be a good thing) but also no happiness or peace. I'm glad that I can kind of put a name to what I've been feeling (or a lack thereof) and find ways to help myself. Best wishes to you dodie 💝
0 likesI struggle with this so much and this was so interesting and helpful to learn about. Thank you!
0 likesI got so excited when I saw Kati because I love watching her videos because she's just so empathetic and her channel really does help to educate me more on mental health and how to take care of myself and just the fact that she made a video with Dodie makes me so happy agdjdk
0 likesso grateful for this, it is always comforting to know that there is information out there and that we are not alone 💞
0 likesThank you so so much for this! I love you both, and the way you described it is just so perfect. Especially the part about putting things in compartments and shattering it!!
0 likesSuch a good and important video! Thank you so much for talking about your struggles with mental health - it really does make a difference and helps me feel less alone.
0 likesI love kati!! 😀 im so glad you have done a video with her dodie, two of my favourite youtubers combined into the one video ❤
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YAY!! xoxo
0 likesI've got anxiety and I tried CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) - it was useless for me, I tried guided self help (you're given the tools and guidance to help yourself) - it was amazing and I feel so much better after it.
0 likesSuch a lovely video. Really helps those experiencing mental health problems (or not!) understand more and be educated!! 💛💛💛
0 likesAh yes, I've been slowly trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I've known for sometime that it was most likely anxiety and depersonalisation/realisation, but putting into context of trauma makes so much sense, considering I have allot of violent graphic intrusive thoughts. (And allot of actual large traumas growing up.)
0 likesKati is so friggin adorable I'm so glad you guys colabbed I've been binge watching both of your videos for weeks
0 likesBless dodie.
0 likesI knew about dissociation but I didn't know the others/the differences and this video was very helpful! I definitely suffer from derealization quite a lot! It's nice to know things that will help now.
I love Kati so much! This made me so happy to see this collab!!!
0 likesSo glad you made this video. I feel have all three and I'm trying so hard to find a way to get help or at least figure out what's wrong so I feel less crazy.
0 likesMy two favorite youtubers 😭❤️ how did we get so lucky! You both are beautiful souls ❤️❤️⭐️⭐️
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Awe xoxo
1 likeSometimes I feel as if my hands aren't mine, but I've always just called it Alice in Wonderland Syndrome. I didn't know it was actually a mental illness. I also get the "life feels like a dream" thing and I wrote that off as tiredness.
0 likesI've had derealisation off and on since I was 16 (I'm 22 now) I'm all for videos on this because when I tell people I experience this, a lot of people don't even know dissociation/depersonalization/derealisation exists
0 likesWhen you talked about your medication problem, i completely understood and that sounds like me when I was overmedicated and I completely disassociated and felt completely numb. I've moved to Well Butrin (? I cant spell 😂) and it has helped me a lot. Although I still need to start therapy but it's still a step forward. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences openly and really helping start the conversation.
0 likesit was so, i don't know, comforting to listen to this. I myself don't suffer from depersonalisation/derealisation, but i do have social anxiety. i always find myself feeling soothed when i listen to people talk about their issues in their head, because it makes me feel less isolated.all those people you see online, those people who lie about having a mental illness because its 'trendy' or whatever make me feel so nervous became not only am i worrying about making a fool out of myself on a day to day basis, i'm apsalotly terefied that if i go to a therepest, they are going to turn round and tell me that im faking it, or that it isn't that big of a deal.
0 likesThank you so much! I know I have something going on in my brain and derealisation sounds sooo like what I have experienced. Maybe this is it? I've been trying to find out for quite a while. So again thank you so so so so much for making this video
0 likesI never knew what I was experiencing until this video, I genuinely thought I was going crazy. Thank you so much.
0 likesThis was so informative and very interesting to watch, thanks dodie!
0 likeswow.. I didn't know this was a thing before dodie talked about it and now I've realised why I'm feeling so weird all the time so thank you so so much for being so open about it <3
0 likesThanks Dodie and Kati! ^_^
0 likesI had a weird bout of stage nerves at a performance the other day (fine until not long before a big solo, when my hands started shaking and my wrists locked, which as a drummer is a bad situation!), and after it I felt so angry and then almost trapped within myself.
Will definitely look more into these, I've been considering this label for me for a while now but these recent events pushed me over the edge a bit and I now feel like I want answers.
thank u dodie :') for about 2 months i felt like i was never going to be myself again? i didnt feel anything except when i would get an overwhelming emotional spur. it was seriously all or nothing. and everything i said didnt feel like something i would say, i didnt feel like me. ive come out of that a bit as of now but i know it will come back, it always has, just not that bad. your strength and the effort you put into getting out of where you are is so inspiring to me, and it has helped me through everything thank you dodie.
0 likesThis video is so amazing. Very informative and interesting. Your friend seems so clever and nice! Good for you to be doing these stuff :)
0 likesThis was so helpful! Thank you so much Dodie!
0 likesoh my GOD!! DODIE, this. honestly just helped me describe how ive been feeling for the past.... few weeks
0 likesive been put on sertraline for my anxiety/depression and, for a while i felt AMAZING and so happy and sociable.... then it quickly came down and i felt. nothing. and i felt wrong, that i MISSED my anxiety and feeling bad, and i didn't know why but its.... really comforting to know that other people experience the same thing! ; v ;
I have depersonalisation and I only recently discovered it. EMDR didn't work for me, but I am going to therapy and it really helps me. I wanna encourage everyone who is struggling with something to see someone. Anyone at all! Talking might be difficult but I promise it helps. Take care of yourself 💓
0 likesAnd yet again i found a video that makes me want to study psychology even more😂❤
0 likesAUGH I SAW HER STORY LAST NIGHT AND IT ENDED UP HER CRYING I CANT WITH THIS TAKE YOUR TIME DODIE YOURE GOOD ENOUGH WERE THE ONES THAT DONT DESERVE YOU
0 likesBeing a therapist is my dream! Psychology is the most interesting thing to me and I can't wait to study it!! Nice vid
0 likesI've been sobbing all day because I've felt so discouraged from this. I have both, but more derealization. I just realized I have "little t's". I always thought "oh no I couldn't have it from trauma! I've never been in a wreck or an abusive setting." But now looking back at all the things I've gone through from age 6 to now, it DID all pile up and it DID finally snap. Thank you dodie and kati to help me. I'm going to my first therapist appointment soon. 💛💛💛
0 likesThanks for this video, dodie. I have both DPD and DRD.
0 likesNext time somebody says that you can't learn anything from youtube I'm just gonna show them this video. ☺️I have my matriculation examination (the final big test at the end of high school) on health education coming soon and I feel like I can use so much information from this video! This is such an amazing video and definitely something the school textbooks won't teach you. Thank you for always being you 😊💛
0 likesYeah it's really annoying when this happens but thank you for talking about this
1 likei really needed this today dodie. thank you so much❤❤
1 likeAh man, I think I had several little ts and at least one big T growing up. I don't usually feel depersonalized. But derealization makes a lot of sense to me.
0 likesher channel is awesome. i'm so glad to see her here. :D
0 likesWith talk therapies like the ones described, what happens if you don't really remember the specifics of traumas, especially if it happened during early childhood?
1 likeI can't imagine how awful it must feel to be constantly in a state of derealisation. I get it occasionally and i sort of go into this state of shock for a few days and I'm terrified to go through it again
0 likesI think I have derealization but some of my stuff is different to how dodie describes and I've had a perfect childhood. no trauma that I can think of and nothing recently. Is it still possible that I have it? I also currently suffer from an anxiety disorder. Thanks :) 💜
0 likesI understood a lot of things about myself, thanks a lot !
0 likesI don't personally get these feeling but learning about it is so interesting! Lovely video !
0 likesDodie, darling, the link in the description leads back to this video. Which I love, btw. Thank you. I just realised I had tons of derealisation phases as a child, and still sometimes now.
0 likesI've struggled with similar things for ages and I didn't know it was caused by trauma??!?! Whaaat everything makes so much more sense now.
0 likesDodie, the link to Kati's vid sends me to this one :'(
0 likesYou are not the only one struggling with trauma too. I had a lot of dissosiation problems when people seemed to get angry.
This happened because domestic violence at home when I was younger and nobody (including my dad, who was the offender) understood where it came from. It got worse the more time went on as well.
I hope you find a way that does help you so well the derealisation goes away :D
Dear everyone who is suffering:
0 likesStay strong. That's all I can ask of you. You're beautiful and amazing, no matter if anyone says otherwise.
Dodie, I have PTSD (which for me means there are bits of what you say that resonate a bit), can you one day (only if you are comfortable to) talk about talking therapies you've tried? x
0 likesabsolutely wonderful. the imagery of the splintered marble actually made me cry because I resonate with that so hard.
0 likesOmg I tried EMDR too and it was sooooo awkward. I love talk therapy but I think it might just be 'cause I'm so comfortable with it now.
0 likesYay for awareness! I need to talk about this shit on my channel as well (my personal experience) 🤔
1 likeI only have very mild anxiety and I have mild waves of depression, but I found this so facinating x
0 likesThis is so helpful!! Thank you💜💜
0 likesWhatttttttttt this makes me so happy!! I love Kati and Dodie so much. Today is a good day.
0 likesI had a mixture of these growing up, I didn't understand what was going on so i'd always go to my mum and say something along the lines of "the worlds gone weird again" and she'd just dismiss it which I don't blame her for because how would you even know how to respond to that? but I felt like the world around me was in stop motion and my individual body parts were all in different places and different sizes like if i touched my fingers they'd feel long and thin but my legs would be short and wide (which was not the actual case for either of them) after three years of on and off counselling it has become a lot less frequent and only occurs during times when I'm feeling really stressed which is good because when I was younger it'd just sort of come out of nowhere.
0 likesI'm happy that you've made a video about this kind of stuff because it would have been really helpful to me when I was younger and hopefully it can help other viewers! :)
I don't have any mental health problems but I found this video incredibly interesting, thank you!
0 likesi think I might be suffering from dissociation, so this is great!
0 likesI think i have depersonalisation and derealisation but it's not like 24/7 as in your case. I can be perfectly fine sometimes and then just that it comes and with it the anxiety. So it's like i don't know when it's gonna come back. But it's great you talk about it, it's great to see you're not the only one feeling like this
0 likesHeyy Dodie, my mum is a trauma therapist and a craniosacral therapist (CST). It's a therapy that involves light touches to the head and spine. It helps with anxiety and relaxation. It may help, or it may not. Everyone is different as you said. But it is worth a look into. Lots of love from Switzerland <3
0 likesI've only experienced derealisation(?) 4 or 5 times, I can't imagine being like that all the time,,, I'm sorry dodie ://
0 likesi cried when they talk about inside out. thats so true. talking and friends helps me the most. a hand on your shoulder can do wonder.
0 likesThis makes me so happy 💙 I love these humans so very much
0 likesI think I have some kind of derealisation!.. Never had a word for how I feel before but I recognize like everything you said about it.. I have too look into this! :s
0 likesIncredible video!!!! Made me feel so much better
0 likesI love love LOVEEE the way dodie does her makeup it looks like she's just came inside from a cold winter night and stuck on the fire with her red nose and rosy cheeks (sorry fan girling)
0 likesHey Dodiie thanks so much for this vid, I didn't know all of that at all and it was super interesting!
0 likesPS : For Kati's channel you put the link of the video you made on your channel haha ^^
this is so incredibly insightful, Thank you <3
0 likesthis is so interesting!
0 likesStuff like this will be part of a class I´m taking this year. Which means I can show off a little bit with the stuff I already know hehehe
wow. Perhaps it is cheesy to say but you do a lot of good with your channel. Well done, very well done.
0 likesThis was really helpful, Thankyou dodie
0 likesI think I'm might have dissociation. It happens sporadically and not very often but all of a sudden I'll be hanging out with friends and my feelings go numb. I'm disconnected to myself, to them. It's an odd feeling and I've never really thought about it until now.
0 likesI suffer from this. It has take me years to get a diagnosed x
0 likesdodie the video link on kati's channel is wrong haha! also i LOVE how kati described with marble what a traumatic memory is like
0 likesdodie I think the link to kati's channel is wrong- it keeps bringing me back to this video.. Also, I'm so glad you made this video. it was such a nice way to talk about your mental health and what you know about it with a more outside view.. I found it really educational (: I hope you are feeling better soon!
0 likeskati seems like the most comforting person like she has so much warmth in her voice :)))
0 likesAmazing video, thanks for this 💛
0 likesSeems my brain is still picking up pices...ha-ha..
1 likeAlso thank you Dodie and Kati for education! :)
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Of course! I hope it was helpful!! xoxo
2 likeshi im in class, and thanks for educating us instead of focusing on our work dOdIE
1 likeWatching dodie and a new dodie video comes up- this is my life
1 likei don't know if i have derealisation, but sometimes it feels like nothing around me is real and this whole world is all just my imagination. It doesn't happen often but when it does it's scary; i don't feel as responsible for things i do or say, because the people around me "aren't real" and they are all in my head. I don't think that's a thing others struggle with though, probably just too much overthinking and contemplating life on my part. The annoying thing is is that when i'm all caught up in being super stressed from feeling alone and anxious (as i seem to be the only actual person existing), it's hard to snap out of it since no one can prove to me that they are not all just made up in my head.
0 likesOH MY GOD I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD MAKE A VIDEO WITH KATI ABOUT MENTAL ILLNESS BUT I ALWAYS HIGHKEY WANTED YOU TO YES
0 likesCan you make the text pop up longer? I usually don't really mind but with these kinds of video's it's pretty useful to get enough time to read all the stuff you write on screen
0 likesthis was so informative and caring and calm whoooooooop
1 likeKati Morton is so knowledgeable :)
0 likesThe smashing marble metaphor was amazing. Explains a lot.
0 likesDodie, I don't know if it's just my computer but the link to Kati's video just brings me back here. I really enjoyed this video! xx
0 likesI don't know still if derealisation is something I have experienced.I had a"episode" two years ago where felt like I was dreaming and i was ancoud snd confused abd i didn't feel like me,basically nothing madesense or felt real.I felt like that for a week. I havent experienced that since but my axienty is worse then it was before I experienced it.
0 likesAlso this video did help me understand a bit better but I am still confused if that's the case with me.
Can it come from high levels of stress ?
Not everyone experiences chronically right?
Can it happen once?
If anyone can help answer these questions it would very helpful.
I loved this video, defo gonna check out Kati's channel <3
0 likesI dissociate due to panic attacks and anxiety. It's not 24/7 but it's scary and for those who do experience that constantly, you are incredibly frickin strong. It's an awful feeling yet here you are living life everyday through this foggy dreamlike world.
0 likesTWO OF MY ABSOLUTE FAVOURITE PEOPLE ❤️❤️
0 likesShit, you started talking about depersonalisation and I noticed that as a child I had that really badly, especially after something really stressful. I'd look at my hand and just begin to burst out sobbing and it was just horrible. Lucky I'm all good now, but now I know
0 likesDo I have depersonalization? I zone out a lot when I'm going through too much🤔
0 likes(only for dodie haha) But actually thank you so much for everything and just videos. and stuff, i mean i know you wont see this but still, i am going through many things and friendship break ups which bother me but not that much cause I know that they didnt need me and im glad that im finding my way? Im not doing any types of treatment or anything im just finding myself- like i said before. haha im sorry im not very talented at writing things. ive been going through hard times and good times my chest just feels empty and i think a lot now which i dont think is very healthy but thats ok. but i just wanted to say thank you so much for everything i mean gosh i really do your videos and music just help me so so much and i love you very much. thank you we all love you dodie!
0 likesis depersonalization(or like a form of it) when you look in the mirror and you don't know why you are you? like you question yourself, and why you can't be someone else, you question your name, etc?
0 likesThis helps a lot Sadly I can’t mention to anyone that I have this so I am trying to take care of it my self
0 likesThis is such a helpful video
1 likeTwo of my favourite youtubers ❤️
0 likesthis is really helpful thank you
0 likesBTW the top link for the video on Kati's channel is wrong, it sends you back to this video! (can you like this so she sees?)
0 likesLoved the video, really interesting to hear you talk more about this :) I hope one of the treatments works for you!
my therapist said that i'm just a moody teenager (i didn't completely open up bc i was too scared) and my family//friends don't care or won't help so that's greatttttt
0 likesgosh that inside out metaphor about the marbles just helped me figure out some things about myself i just had a revelation lmao
0 likesTHE COLLAB I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED
0 likesloved this video dodie :) buuuttt when i click the link for the vid on kati's channel it just takes me back to this one? anyone else having this problem/ could tell me kati's channel name so i can find it?
0 likesWhen I saw Katie in your snaps I thought omg I hope they collab and you did yay
0 likesEMDR helped me so much🌷 thank you so much for this Video
0 likesOh my gosh this just helped me so much
0 likesim so appreciative u made this...
0 likeswhen she mentioned Inside Out i suddenly realised her voice is actually a lot like Joy's!
0 likesI WAS TALKING TO MY MUM ABOUT THIS 5 MINUTES AGO !
0 likesI WAS TALKING TO MY MUM ABOUT THIS 5 MINUTES AGO !
0 likesI WAS TALKING TO MY MUM ABOUT THIS 5 MINUTES AGO !
0 likesI spend the majority of dodies videos going back and pausing to read the little things she writes lol
0 likesah, this was fascinating. thank you!
0 likesThank you 💜
0 likesIs there a term or an official mental illness for not being able too see the world we live in as the real world. I mean it's not like a video game but just.... as if there is a snapchat filter on the world so your mind makes it look more pretty as it is. Forgetting the bad things you hear and see and remembering the good and fun ones. But as our mind refreshes itself at night the bad things it decided to throw out turn into nightmares... kinda what I'm experiencing. I have allot of nightmares.
0 likesJust so you know Dodie (and it might just be me finding this) the link to your video on Kati's channel links back to your own video. Just maybe check to make sure because my computer is fucked and it's probably just me.
0 likesi have really bad constant derealisation and anxiety but my parents aren't very supportive of me and i can't really tell them about my issues because they get mad at me, but i really need help and i'm slowly getting more and more suicidal... does anyone have any advice for me?
0 likesi interrupted my friends marathon for this and 100% worth it
0 likesthis is so interesting oh my gosh 🌻
0 likesthis was so interesting i feel woke
2 likesReally helped
0 likeswhat's the thing when you feel constantly tired and your there but not really there... it's hard to explain
0 likesI love Kati!
0 likesWell now I know I have derealisation, lol
2 likesI was in the middle of texting and got the notification for this, i still havent texted them back.... whoops 😹❤️
0 likesis there like.. a time when you're walking, and then just stop, but you still walking and then you think that someone else is jusy controlling your body? is that a thing?
0 likesAlready liked it without watching yet :3
0 likesjesus i relate??? for some reason wow does this mean i have the stuff?? :/
0 likesI didn't know that. Thank you
0 likesFantastic video...though the link in the description returns to this one!
0 likesthank you so much , oh my gosh
0 likesDodieee I love you 💛💛💛🌈🌈💛💛
0 likesI'm sure you did this by accident but the link to Kati's video links back to here. Thought you should know, friend <3
0 likes~i learned something todayyyyyy~ isn't that exciting?
0 likesKatie! <3
0 likesI think you've put the wrong link in the description dodie it keeps bringing me back to this one :) x
0 likesOmg two youtubers i looovee😍
0 likesYESSS EDUCATION
0 likesaaah my two faves!
0 likes❤️
0 likesthe link in the description redirects to this video, not her video :)
0 likesI'm so sorry if i sound ignorant, i have no mean to, but have you tried hypnosis or meditation or something similar? Cuz i feel like meditation is great for (re)connecting with yourself or your environment. Again, just asking, I'm no expert
0 likesI know you put words up really quickly for comedy effect but I can't read that quick hahaha! 😂🙈
0 likesthis video is so intesting
0 likeshey, the video link to Kati's channel just links you back to this one.. cONSPIRACYYYYY!
0 likesI love ur hair omg
0 likesMy 2 fave youtubers yassssss
0 likesthe only person i have is my mum and i dont feel comfortable talking to her i feel so alone and stuck
0 likesthe link in de description isn't the link to the video on kati's channel :)
0 likesI loved the video and everything, but this is kind of a non-related note:
0 likesdodie, the link in the description says "our vid on kati's channel" but i tried to click and it got me to this video again...
thank you for ttjos video
0 likessertraline sucked for me too smH
0 likesI love katie
0 likesWhat sickos disliked this video!!
0 likesthe link for her channel is the link for your video 😉
0 likeswhat is katies channel? the link takes me to your video lol :)
0 likesI've had depersonalisation since I was 8 and it sUCKS
0 likesDodie and Kati omgomgomg
0 likes!!!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSS
0 likesThe link to her channel isn't working for me what's her username?? X
0 likesthe link on the description to Kati's channel is wrong, Dodie. It leads to this video again.
0 likesDoes the link to katis channel not work for anyone else?!
0 likesMY TWO FAVOURITE PEOPLE AGISJDBDOSK
0 likesThe link is wrong, soo what was the name of Kati's channel?
0 likesI thought everyone felt derealisation before this vid hahahahaha fuck
0 likesthe link in the description doesn't work
0 likesthe link is to your video dodes, not hers
0 likesp.s. dodie the video link in description is wrong
0 likesJesus fucking Christ. Why can't my therapist be like her? My therapist said my realisation isn't real because I found it on the internet. Let me tell you lady. ITS FUCKING REAL.
0 likesIs that glitter highlights
0 likesFavoritttteeessss
0 likeswhat about weed induced dpdr
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Yes drugs can cause dpdr like symptoms. They usually will go away as the high fades, but if it doesn't, please talk to a psychiatrist!! xoxo
0 likesive had it since february and its reaaally there
0 likesffs this woman aint a doctor dodie darling speak to a psychiatrist, you gave up on zoloft too quickly. Zoloft afftects everyone like that at the start, you have to give it a longer amount of time to truly test it. Its hard and shitty yes but giving it on meds too quick is a fatal mistake. Hope a doctor you know personally can explain this is more detail.
0 likesthat women is so lovely
0 likesSparkles tho. ✨
0 likesIt's like you're not here but not any where either
0 likesthe link in the description is the link to this video so i can't find kati's channel rip
0 likesthe captions went too quickly! DX
0 likesMy hands feel fuzzy and not real
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