alright i'm just gonna write a few thoughts down. i don't think i have depersonalization/derealisation, it's a little bit different actually. i just feel kinda.. empty? like every day just feels like a routine without any meaning and even when i cry tears of joy or sadness (which happens veery rarely btw)  i know i'm crying and i'm supposed to be happy/sad/angry but i just can't experience the emotion that comes with it. what bothers me most about it is that i can't bring myself to care about anything. things that used to bring me joy or sadness are just nothing now. i just feel like laying around all day. i'm just like 'whatever' about literally EVERYTHING and i don't know what to do. when something bad happens or even when something that's supposed to make me really happy happens i just don't care. and i want to so badly. i told my aunt and mom about this and they told me - of course - that it's because of puberty and i shouldn't worry too much about it. i don't feel alive and i don't know what this is. does this even make sense? probably not. please tell me that i'm not the only one. does anyone know what this is? does someone have the same problem? END MY SUFFERING PLEASE

@little hippie ASMR hey cud u help me please

@little hippie ASMR hey cud u help me please

I have the same thing. Sometimes the hardest part of dealing with something like this is being able to tell someone and then believing you. When my mind isn't with me( which is pretty much everyday) people just yell and think I'm not caring about anything which has caused me to be alone. I don't know exactly what it is however I do know that to help it is to speak up which can sometimes be half the battle💛

Hi ! Wow ! Finally, I realise I'm not the only one feeling this ! I've been feeling that way for the past 2 years (I'm 20 so I don't think it's because of puberty) and I'm still feeling that way. It comes along with a feeling that I'm not really living, just like if I was not really in control of my life. It feels like things are happening to me but I'm not really living them, just as if I was just a spectator looking at my life. (I hope it makes sense) I really don't know how to deal with it either and whenever I told and tried to explain that feeling to my psychologist, she would just look at me in a weird way. It just made me feel even worst as if I was some kind of freak.<br>I can't help you but I really want to thank you for sharing your feeling, and I really hope you will get better soon ! <3

Hi ! Wow ! Finally, I realise I'm not the only one feeling this ! I've been feeling that way for the past 2 years (I'm 20 so I don't think it's because of puberty) and I'm still feeling that way. It comes along with a feeling that I'm not really living, just like if I was not really in control of my life. It feels like things are happening to me but I'm not really living them, just as if I was just a spectator looking at my life. (I hope it makes sense) I really don't know how to deal with it either and whenever I told and tried to explain that feeling to my psychologist, she would just look at me in a weird way. It just made me feel even worst as if I was some kind of freak.
I can't help you but I really want to thank you for sharing your feeling, and I really hope you will get better soon ! <3

Woah, I didn't know anyone else felt like this. I thought I was just weird. It's nice to know some other people feel the same.<br>(Btw, my parents said the exact same thing to me. I don't know what to do either)

Woah, I didn't know anyone else felt like this. I thought I was just weird. It's nice to know some other people feel the same.
(Btw, my parents said the exact same thing to me. I don't know what to do either)

pastelblack I experience the same thing. Don't worry, it is because of puberty. Try to get a good deal of physical exercise and stay engaged in things. It will go away eventually. It will come again, every once in a while and you will feel very empty inside. It's kind of a feeling where you wish the world would just stop for a moment and let you breathe. It's okay honey, stay strong xxx

pastelblack it sounds like depression becos depersonalisation is the worse because your brain and you're self can recognise yourself

pastelblack it sounds like depression becos depersonalisation is the worse because your brain and you're self can recognise yourself

I'm not a doctor or ANYTHING, but this really sounds like depression, at least for me. I think I might have depression, because I can kind of relate to what you're saying. The thing is, I sometimes feel really happy and ten seconds later i remember how much I dislike my life, and stuff like that. However, sadness is something I feel a lot, and its a strong feeling. But its not like a 'I want to cry and I wanna be hugged and told everything is gonna be better', it's like this pain that 'kills' me inside, and I don't want to talk about it, I just wanna sleep so I can take my mind off it

pastelblack I feel you. I can feel really panicked and negatively at myself, but nothing positive, so I can relate to the numb feeling. Talking to someone about it can help you figure it out and see if there's a way to help it.

pastelblack I feel you. I can feel really panicked and negatively at myself, but nothing positive, so I can relate to the numb feeling. Talking to someone about it can help you figure it out and see if there's a way to help it.

pastelblack I felt this way for about a year, a few years ago. I described like a hollow tree. I suggest just powering through it. Despite not being able to feel, I swear it will get better. For now, find something that has a spark to you. It could be like a food or a song, but just try. What really helped me though was imagining a world where something was maybe slightly different. Think up stories in your head, and if you don't like it, discard because only you are in control of those stories. Come up with a character that feels emotions severely and try to put yourself in that place. It could anything, maybe a dystopia, or a happy future, it could just be you, but with super powers. These stories helped me feel something, but for now, just fake till you make it.

I don't understand why you have the need to label it. It's bothering you, and its something you feel. Maybe it feels safer when  you know there is a sort of group around you of people who understand, but if you can explain what you're feeling so well, then why do you need to put a label on it. like this people will understand. I kind of understand what you're feeling, i think. it sounds similar to some feelings i've had, and the best tip I could give you is to get therapy, and a theraphist with who you feel comfortable. Atleast talk to someone, and next to that, keep trying new things if you have the motivation and energy, take a break from the routine that you're talking about. It helped me.

pastelblack You've put what I've been feeling for the the past 2 years in words.

pastelblack You've put what I've been feeling for the the past 2 years in words.

Have I related to something more?? probably not. thank you for not making me feel so lonely.

Have I related to something more?? probably not. thank you for not making me feel so lonely.

pastelblack I feel the exact same way. It's like every day is exactly the same and I have no control over it. As if I'm just drifting through the hours without actually being here or feeling the things I should feel. I can't even bring myself to talk about it with anyone yet, although it's been happening for well over a year/2 years now. And it's just weird, i guess, that when other people are smiling and happy, or when they're upset, I don't feel that I can relate to them? It's like I don't even remember who or what I am, and as if I never learnt how to feel. IDK.

im really really similar to this except i also have that quality where i think everything is a dream and i cant tell the difference

im really really similar to this except i also have that quality where i think everything is a dream and i cant tell the difference

It's like I wrote this comment and then lost my memory of doing it

It's like I wrote this comment and then lost my memory of doing it

pastelblack yeah as several people have mentioned when I feel like my life isn't moving forward and it feels like I'm stuck in an endless cycle where nothing is happening to make me feel emotion, I'm usually experiencing an episode of depression. At it's worse I've laid on my bed feeling completely numb and I'll be crying but I will feel nothing. I have to listen to calming music and wait for my body to go back to normal.

that sounds a lot like a form of depression. trust me, i deal with the same thing every day. my suggestion is that you tell your aunt or mom that you think it might be depression and they should understand and get you some help

that sounds a lot like a form of depression. trust me, i deal with the same thing every day. my suggestion is that you tell your aunt or mom that you think it might be depression and they should understand and get you some help

I'm not like this 24/7 but when I feel that way, it's what I refer to as depressive episodes. So, much like everyone else has said, it's very likely that you're going through depression and you should really get help of any kind. It really sucks. For me there's typically a trigger of some sort and it lasts for about a week or so.

In my day to day life, I feel like I don't really care about most things (unless it affects my social anxiety) and I honestly wouldn't really mind if a speeding car were to come out of nowhere and kill me instantly, but I still experience other emotions like anger, fear, and sadness.

I have depression and this is what i feel on a day to day baisis, somits most likely that. :) i hope this helped and you get better soon!

I have depression and this is what i feel on a day to day baisis, somits most likely that. :) i hope this helped and you get better soon!

I feel like that's more depression but whatever it is doesn't need a label, get help anyway and either they will diagnose you or they will just treat you anyway. Good luck!

I feel like that's more depression but whatever it is doesn't need a label, get help anyway and either they will diagnose you or they will just treat you anyway. Good luck!

Hey, it's alright that you don't know and is confused about this. This, I believe, are symptoms of depression. And I really recommend you(and anyone else who struggles with this) to go see therapy or someone with authority about this topic. That way, you can be help and get better. And I hope that you'll someday do indeed get better. Stay strong.

I have the exact same problem except I can experience joy for moments but it stops after suddenly, I feel all most the exact same, my sister for example can't handle stuff that I can very well I'm more or less OK yet I still get annoyed but the only feeling I ever feel is "feeling bad"(- very rarely-) "joy" (- for little at a time -) "annoyance" a lot

oh my goD I feel exactly the same way. i've been so confused about what is up with me and i tried to write down how I felt in the moment and I wrote something so similar to what you wrote. wow it feels good knowing someone else feels this too

oh my goD I feel exactly the same way. i've been so confused about what is up with me and i tried to write down how I felt in the moment and I wrote something so similar to what you wrote. wow it feels good knowing someone else feels this too

pastelblack oh my god I feel EXACTLY the same way. I know what may have caused it - my grandma died a month ago and I'm still grieving - but I just don't give a crap about anything anymore even though I want to. You're not alone, I understand you.

pastelblack oh my god I feel EXACTLY the same way. I know what may have caused it - my grandma died a month ago and I'm still grieving - but I just don't give a crap about anything anymore even though I want to. You're not alone, I understand you.

pastelblack IVE BEEN DEALING WITH THE SAME THING

pastelblack IVE BEEN DEALING WITH THE SAME THING

+Hawk the way you explained it is so true Ive currently been having mild depression (according to the millions of doctors I've been to ) and bad anxiety so it's like that but with tons of existential crisis's and stuff like that bc I just feel like nothing is happening and I freak out  bc of it. I'm so extremely afraid of death and recently there's been just nothing happy or sad to distract me and tbh I wish I cried more I feel so empty I find things funny but I just don't have pure happiness or sadness and it makes no sense bc I'm living in a perfectly fine household and I'm financially fine and all that I don't understand I just feel fear, frustration and I find crap funny and like that's it it's so weird sorry for the rant I just really needed to get that out😅

Ya I felt that way for like 6 months, its best to talk to a therapist but for me it was a mix of situational depression and general rage and anger issues. For me, i was really lucky and someone in a similar mental state and with similar pressures moved in with my family and we leaned on each other to get us out, but I guess what I found was best was mainly having someone to lean on and empathize with and having therapy to balance out and keep me and them in check so we don't start dragging each other down

wait i'm not the only one experiencing this???!!!i've struggled with this for a while now and it always bothered me when i just can't feel the emotion when i'm supposed to which is also kind of scary for me because i don't  know why it's happening i always thought it was because of what happened in my past but i'm not 100 percent sure.........................(i how in the internet we can connect with people thats going threw the same things and help each other threw it<30

pastelblack I'm no professional but maybe depression? That probably isn't the case but just go to a doctor and ask. It's the best thing.

pastelblack I'm no professional but maybe depression? That probably isn't the case but just go to a doctor and ask. It's the best thing.

pastelblack I definitely can relate to this. At my worst depression and anxiety episodes I feel empty, like hollow I guess. It's like i can't feel anything but I'm still sad and angry and upset and anxious but It feels that it's on the outside and empty on the inside. But I'm still depressed on the outside and the emptiness just increases my depression. No idea if that made any sense

i relate to this very strongly, i hope we all find a solution to this, i am sure we will

i relate to this very strongly, i hope we all find a solution to this, i am sure we will

It happened recently with me. I stopped liking everything that made me happy. Sometimes I want to cry because I need to, it's healthy, but I can't. It feels like I'm dead inside. It feels empty. I hate myself for it. I just can't seem to enjoy anything.

It happened recently with me. I stopped liking everything that made me happy. Sometimes I want to cry because I need to, it's healthy, but I can't. It feels like I'm dead inside. It feels empty. I hate myself for it. I just can't seem to enjoy anything.

It's okay. I understand you. i experience the same thing and i hate it. It feels like someone has just scooped everything out of me like my ability to feel or experience any emotion. i feel empty inside. Things that usually make me happy or angry or sad don't anymore. I have no motivation and i don't care about anything. My mum said the same thing; It's just puberty and everyone feels like this sometimes. i feel this along with feelings of depersonalisation and derealisation and anxiety.

I think this is just the symptoms that come with depression ?? Although i am not a doctor and am in no way properly educated/experienced with this. The best advice i can give you is maybe asking your mum if you can go talk to someone. Things will work out and you won't feel this way forever. :) <3

pastelblack I feel the same and have been feeling that way for a while. You are not alone. If you are able try going to a school consualler if you feel like you can't speak to your parents. You are amazing 💙 stay strong

pastelblack I feel the same and have been feeling that way for a while. You are not alone. If you are able try going to a school consualler if you feel like you can't speak to your parents. You are amazing 💙 stay strong

I get it, I HATE it when people tell me whatever I'm feeling is just because of puberty. I feel like that sometimes too, and a lot of other people probably do to, so don't worry too much, it's ok. But it sounds like depression to me.

I get it, I HATE it when people tell me whatever I'm feeling is just because of puberty. I feel like that sometimes too, and a lot of other people probably do to, so don't worry too much, it's ok. But it sounds like depression to me.

pastelblack you just putted to words my entire life, thank you so much

pastelblack you just putted to words my entire life, thank you so much

pastelblack ME TOO. like i don't get excited anymore (but i also don't get anxious). even when i do exciting things. i literally went to japan and didnt feel excited about it at all? it was like "wow im in another country now cool." and it's like that when i do anything

pastelblack ME TOO. like i don't get excited anymore (but i also don't get anxious). even when i do exciting things. i literally went to japan and didnt feel excited about it at all? it was like "wow im in another country now cool." and it's like that when i do anything

you have exactly the same thing as i do, and it is depression. one of the symptoms of depression is the loss of interest in things you usually have interest in.

you have exactly the same thing as i do, and it is depression. one of the symptoms of depression is the loss of interest in things you usually have interest in.

depression it happened to me too. For me I just thought I am really doing this right now. So I changed myself for the better. I got new friends that support me and love me. And I started becoming more me. lol I am not helping. Sorry about my username my friend pranked me and I can't change it for 90 days😂🌹🌹🌹🍒🍒🍒🍓🍓🍊🍊🍊

I'm no professional but that sounds like depression

I'm no professional but that sounds like depression

oh my god yes yes yes me too, i have no idea what it is but i just feel emotionless, its horrible and yet no matter what happens i just feel nothing, nothing at all

oh my god yes yes yes me too, i have no idea what it is but i just feel emotionless, its horrible and yet no matter what happens i just feel nothing, nothing at all

pastelblack Okay this kind of sounds like something what I get, which I call it 'Ill-minded' where basically I don't feel like doing anything, such as school work, reading, drawing, or just simple things that I ENJOY doing. When I'm in this state I'm not sure what to do and it doesn't happen enough for me to explain it very well. When I'm in this state I usually wait it out, which isn't a very good thing to do. The best thing I can tell you is to maybe do things you enjoy or eat something that you enjoy- anything that you think would help pull you out of this state.

pastelblack I thought it was just luverty too, until I got a therapist and she told me it was depression. Ask your parents to get you a therapist or at least a visit with the doctor. Backing up your feelings with articles might help too

pastelblack I thought it was just luverty too, until I got a therapist and she told me it was depression. Ask your parents to get you a therapist or at least a visit with the doctor. Backing up your feelings with articles might help too

ALSO: talk to your friends about this. Try to see people, don't isolate yourself because then you are alone with your numbness and that is just the worst.

ALSO: talk to your friends about this. Try to see people, don't isolate yourself because then you are alone with your numbness and that is just the worst.

pastelblack ive never related to anything so much in my life

pastelblack ive never related to anything so much in my life

pastelblack I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL AND IT'S TERRIBLE.

pastelblack I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL AND IT'S TERRIBLE.

pastelblack yeah that sounds like depression... please talk to a doctor or a councelor (also if they don't take it seriously talk to someone else or talk about it more. My mom and councelor didn't take me seriously until I talked to a doctor but that's just my case). My tip for this is try to write out what you're feeling (even if it's nothing) and try to be kind to yourself. Don't get angry at yourself for doing nothing or feeling nothing, cherish the small accomplishments like getting out of bed (or opening your eyes if you aren't able to get out of bed, we've all been there). I hope this helps a lil", hang in there champ you're gonna be OK I believe in ya! x I

pastelblack I have the same problem  I didn't think someone felt like that

pastelblack I have the same problem  I didn't think someone felt like that

pastelblack this is my life, it happens everyday for me, I can pretend to be very happy if sad or mad but I'm not really. I pretend to be very happy and positive around my friends and family, but I'm not really happy. It's horrible and I just don't want to do anything. There are like 5 min of actually  feeling things but then, just like that, it's gone. It just started when I started school, 3 weeks ago, back in the routine. It's hard to be happy and that sucks from being a very happy and positive person. I just feel meh, all the time. Idk about you but watching YouTube and hanging around people I love helps me a little also singing (Dodie) quietly in class helps me too. I'm not sure about you but that's just for me.

pastelblack I literally started crying from the moment I read this because this is exactly how I feel too and it sucks! :(

pastelblack I literally started crying from the moment I read this because this is exactly how I feel too and it sucks! :(

Yes, yes, yes this a thousand times yes. Omg this is exactly how I feel. It's like there's a barrier between reality & your out side self and your self on the inside. I feel like a ghost in a carapace, like a passenger on a train watching my life go by, interacting with the environment but not feel anything.

Yes, yes, yes this a thousand times yes. Omg this is exactly how I feel. It's like there's a barrier between reality & your out side self and your self on the inside. I feel like a ghost in a carapace, like a passenger on a train watching my life go by, interacting with the environment but not feel anything.

Ash Lapworth I love your profile picture. i just wanted to say.

Ash Lapworth I love your profile picture. i just wanted to say.

pastelblack yes! I went through this when I was in my freshman year of highschool when I have severe depression. I still lowkey have it, but I've worked on it... I'm not sure how to help you, but go to a counselor or doctor or someone who won't just say it's because you're growing.

pastelblack yes! I went through this when I was in my freshman year of highschool when I have severe depression. I still lowkey have it, but I've worked on it... I'm not sure how to help you, but go to a counselor or doctor or someone who won't just say it's because you're growing.

This sounds a lot like a mixture of depression and almost like a disinterest. I actually asked a few other friends about this as well because I have recently been feeling this way as well. They recommend to me is to take a you day! So, maybe this weekend, take a bath and listen to your favorite music, just take some time to relax and leave yourself to just do you things. Do things that you love. And If you need to talk, I have Twitter or Instagram.

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youve been oofed Uhhh you might wanna see someone yourself in that case, because this is depression and no not everyone feels like that

youve been oofed Uhhh you might wanna see someone yourself in that case, because this is depression and no not everyone feels like that

in my personal experience, that sounds like depression. I feel like this when i have my bad days, like everything feels whatever you don't relly care about what happens, and honestly don't even feel like crying or something, it sucks tbh because one of the symptoms of depression is  irritation that you feel at everything and sometimes its like the opposite so like i feel like i dont 'fit' in the illness?? idk i went kinda off topic oops

sounds like an angsty teen or perhaps a symptom of depression. u should take care of yourself. However, it could also just be you a bit sad. Be careful not to get your diagnoses from the comment section, please see a doctor.

depersonalisation is not like that at all , it's much more scary lol

sounds like an angsty teen or perhaps a symptom of depression. u should take care of yourself. However, it could also just be you a bit sad. Be careful not to get your diagnoses from the comment section, please see a doctor.

depersonalisation is not like that at all , it's much more scary lol

not to scare you, but that sounds a lot like depression. i´ve been diagnosed with depression about a year ago and what you described is exactly how i experience it (not trying to say you have depression though, it´s different for everybody so you should definetely get professional help if you´ve been experiencing this for a while). especially the part about not caring about literally anything. for me it´s a lot about not being able to experience certain emotions, like you said, if something good is happening i know i should be happy about it but i just can´t feel it and i can´t bring myself to care even if i want to. it takes the meaning out of everything and just kinda flattens your world, if that makes sense. i could list a million other things but i want you to know that you´re not alone with this, that´s so so important. and it´s also unhealthy to brush it off and blame it on puberty, because that´s not gonna help anyone. no matter what the reason is, you should talk to somebody about it and maybe even get professional help because otherwise the baggage on your back is just gonna get heavier and heavier and one day you´re not gonna be able to carry it on your own anymore, which is fine. nobody can do that. so please don´t bottle it all up because trust me, that´s gonna make it even worse. i wish you the best of luck and hope you get the help you need. <3

anhedonia, depression. things like this are horrible, but you can get through it :) x

anhedonia, depression. things like this are horrible, but you can get through it :) x

holy fuck i am exactly like this, it really fucking sucks. like with all these hurricanes, my family is in danger and i'm just like :/ ok cool. i know i should care and be worried for them but i don't feel anything.

holy fuck i am exactly like this, it really fucking sucks. like with all these hurricanes, my family is in danger and i'm just like :/ ok cool. i know i should care and be worried for them but i don't feel anything.

pastelblack hiya I can't relate but just know that you will be better one day and this is not permanent. Whether you fight is or embrace it is up to you but know that you have a community here and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers xx

pastelblack hiya I can't relate but just know that you will be better one day and this is not permanent. Whether you fight is or embrace it is up to you but know that you have a community here and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers xx

The emotional numbness/apathy that you described can be a symptom of depression. I would encourage you to talk to your doctor and ask about seeing a psychiatrist/therapist

The emotional numbness/apathy that you described can be a symptom of depression. I would encourage you to talk to your doctor and ask about seeing a psychiatrist/therapist

pastelblack that's the strangest thing, because I had that for years and I never knew what it was. I'd ask others if they felt the same thinking everyone was like that and they thought I was weird. Honestly I think looking back it was a bit of depression derived from what I was going through at the time. I'm saying this because i swear to you it does get better and you get the sense of emotion back with the help of loved ones or maybe professional x

I've been through the exact same thing. I guess what helps me is that I try to take care of myself in simple ways and I time away from everyone and everything else. I'm not sure how to help but I hope you feel better.

I've been through the exact same thing. I guess what helps me is that I try to take care of myself in simple ways and I time away from everyone and everything else. I'm not sure how to help but I hope you feel better.

pastelblack this sounds a lot like what I call 'numb depression' where you just feel withdrawn from emotions.

pastelblack this sounds a lot like what I call 'numb depression' where you just feel withdrawn from emotions.

pastelblack I had these emotions when I took antidepressants , I've stopped taking them but I still feel this at times , it definitely sucks , I want so badly to care about something but then I don't, the routine thing definitely gets to me , because I'm kind of bored of my own life and every day is basically the same thing and school doesn't help because most things we learn will never help us in life and hours and hours of listening to things you are not interested in gives you a bit of a numb feeling . But you seem to experience this all the time like I did when I was on meds but I only experience it sometimes now so definitely talk to a psychologist ok?

pastelblack
 I can totally relate! Im no professional, but im sorry you're going through this. Its crap. And it will end one day. You'll make it 💜🌸

pastelblack
 I can _totally_ relate! Im no professional, but im sorry you're going through this. Its crap. And it will end one day. You'll make it 💜🌸

As others have said your not alone. I feel like that especially a lot more recently. I have bipolar disorder and have struggled with depression but recently I've been feeling what you describe. Empty but it feels different from a depression empty because I don't feel like an ache or sadness or anything. It's just nothing and empty. The only thing I can feel is the emptiness if that makes any sense. Like I feel weight of something but there's nothing there. I also have moments where I'll be happy and then all of sudden like a vacuum sucks me out of the moment and I'll just wont be able to focus on anything and i question why I'm happy and if I'm actually happy. And then all the happiness leaves and this weird sort of anxiety replaces it. Like an invisible anxiety not one that I feel. I don't know if any of this is making sense. Or if you feel the same I just hope it helps to know you aren't the only lost one, everyone else is lost too.

Hey! From what I can see, a lot of your symptoms sound like depression. When I was 18 I didn't know what was wrong with me and essentially, it was exactly what you went through. I talked to my GP and he put me on a small dosage of sertraline, which was life changing for my mood, because without it, the chemicals in my brain just would not give me enough to feel okay, and like you, I would just feel numb, i didn't care, i'd rather be asleep because I was bored of being alive (different to suicidal I'd like to point out), but my medication really did help bring my mood up. It didn't fix me (i've been battling with my mental health for years now), but I know for a fact that that was a form of depression. I'm not diagnosing you at all, but you should definitely go see a doctor, and when you take to them, make sure you talk about energy levels, mood, fluctuation in mood, appetite, physical anxiety, and other things that a GP can recognise (remember they're not a therapist, just your first step into being treated). I hope you find support!!

pastelblack definitely sounds like depression. People think depression is about feeling sad but actually it's mostly about not feeling anything, how you describe.

pastelblack definitely sounds like depression. People think depression is about feeling sad but actually it's mostly about not feeling anything, how you describe.

My friend has a similar feeling, or rather lack of, as you and they have depression. It must be awful to hear your worries and pain being dismissed because of puberty or because you're a teenager. It's hard being those ages, no one really takes you seriously and blames things on puberty and claiming it to be a part of growing up. Never forget you're not alone and there are thousands of people willing to help and want you to feel something again. You're reaching out for help which is already a good step! Maybe ask your mum or auntie if you can go to the doctor and see if they can help you. Like Dodie said, record yourself when you're feeling the way you do, there are numbers you can ring for support and maybe there's someone at school who feels a similar way. Sorry for not being much help and recommending the clichés. I wish you all the best 💞

Obviously none of this is a good thing but it's kinda comforting knowing many others are going through it too :/

Obviously none of this is a good thing but it's kinda comforting knowing many others are going through it too :/

I'm only a first year psychology student but to me it definitely sounds like a major depressive disorder. I would recommend you try therapy as soon as you can. Even if it's a student councillor it's a good start. Stuff like this can always be fixed, it might take a while but there's always a solution if you keep trying.

Dude you're not the only one iv'e been feeling empty like that for almost 2 years it just feels like everyday i'm going through the motions but not  really caring about anything I have no clue what it is or what to do about it :(

Dude you're not the only one iv'e been feeling empty like that for almost 2 years it just feels like everyday i'm going through the motions but not  really caring about anything I have no clue what it is or what to do about it :(

Hawk yessssssss it's like I can only see life as some sort of virtual game. Some win some lose. It's like we're coded to perform generic tasks each day and that's it. 0 emotion in anything

Hawk yessssssss it's like I can only see life as some sort of virtual game. Some win some lose. It's like we're coded to perform generic tasks each day and that's it. 0 emotion in anything

pastelblack I'm going through the same thing, it's such a real thing. It's so strange to be empty and like "wow it's my birthday and I'm wearing my favorite outfit and I'm doing something really fun surrounded by people I love" and then you're like... but why? And you're not happy but you're not sad or anything you're just there. You're just a piece in a board game going through life, you don't exactly have a will of your own but you keep going for some reason and things happen but you can't experience any of it really.

You're not alone that's exactly how I've felt for the last few years and I still don't know what's up with me

You're not alone that's exactly how I've felt for the last few years and I still don't know what's up with me

At around 2:45 in the video she says that being "blunted" means you can't feel your emotions and that it can happen as a form of mental illness, maybe that's what your experiencing? My experiences with depression have felt a lot like the emptiness you described, so maybe it's a form of depression? I hope this helps you somehow! I'm sorry your family haven't taken you seriously when you've told them, but I would definitely suggest trying to talk to them again about it. Maybe do some research about how you're feeling and show it to them? You have a wonderful online community of people here including myself who will be here to talk to you about it and give you support, so reach out to us too! <3

i know how you feel :'( i'm not an expert on this, but it sounds like depression to me. reach out to a doctor/therapist if you can, they'll probably be able to give you the proper diagnosis and give you the help you need

i know how you feel :'( i'm not an expert on this, but it sounds like depression to me. reach out to a doctor/therapist if you can, they'll probably be able to give you the proper diagnosis and give you the help you need

pastelblack having gone through disassociation and depression to me that sounds a lot like depression. At least my experiences with depression related to that a lot. You're not alone and I'm sure everything will turn out alright in the end (me and many others are living proof of that!) ❤

pastelblack having gone through disassociation and depression to me that sounds a lot like depression. At least my experiences with depression related to that a lot. You're not alone and I'm sure everything will turn out alright in the end (me and many others are living proof of that!) ❤

YEAH, I HAVE THAT PROBLEM A LOT!<br>it sounds like depression imo, but i honestly don't know enough about it to say for certain. but you're toootally not alone. it sucks so much ass

YEAH, I HAVE THAT PROBLEM A LOT!
it sounds like depression imo, but i honestly don't know enough about it to say for certain. but you're toootally not alone. it sucks so much ass


Been dealing with this for 6+ months. I'm glad people are talking about it


i never knew i had this until now. Mine comes and goes and is triggered by stress. The worst episode ive had lasted a month and i thought i was losing my mind. It was terrifying. Thankyou so much for helping me undertsand and figure out whats going on <3


Thank you so much for making this video. I've suffered from this for years and it feels like no one else has this disorder

Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?


Frequently I get the feeling that I am outside of my body, looking in at myself from some sort of window. I tend to feel numb most of the time too.


Okay this really helped me sort of understand why I feel detached from the world at times. I've been in a car crash and ever since it's scarred me & stuck with me for the past 8 years. My friends think I'm being dramatic but even I know I'm not being dramatic because I know it was sourced from somewhere. Thank you, Dodie ❤

AbiSays Damn, after a car crash it is definitely not dramatic! If you experience dr/dp after such a traumatic experience it’s 100% reasonable why your brain would shut off and maybe it just didn’t properly switch back on. Doesn’t sound dramatic at all though. Lol imagine the situation of most of the people who got this out of the blue and have no idea why their brain is acting so strange (me). We can’t really know what made our brain want to switch to a different way of perceiving things but sadly we must accept it..


When I'm in a stressful situation that the way out of is to let time pass until the stressor goes away, if I focus in the right way I can make my vision go dark and it gets hard to move. It's a neat trick because it gives me something painless to focus on and keeps me from saying dumb shit on impulse, but I think it comes from the same source as some of my problems, and I'd be willing to sacrifice it if my other problems went away at the same time.


I've watched both of your channels for different reasons. I LOVE this collab. It kind of reminds me of a therapist/patient session and makes me more comfortable for the next time I'm going to go to my therapist. Perfect. <3


When I was 11/12 I went through the hardest time of my life and I started having panic attacks that were caused by derealisation, I’d have these moment when I was so spaced out out of nowhere that everything around me felt so unfamiliar and I did too and it rlly scared me. I learnt how to deal with it and for a while these moments pretty much disappeared but lately I’ve been feeling pretty spaced out again and the moments are back. I think it’s because of all the uncertainty. Anyways, when I was 12 I discovered you through ur videos about derealisation and it helped me a lot, at the time I also started questioning my sexuality and finding u gave me someone to look up to. I felt less misunderstood and I’m so thankful for that ! 🥺


OMG this is so informative thank you. I  had no idea I thought I was just lazy thinking.  I lost my sister a few months ago from ovarian cancer,  lost my job and sort of lost myself.  trying to refocus out of it going to interviews and think positive and good memories of my sister.  thank you again.


whenever you make these videos they make me feel so relieved to know that someone as big of a youtuber as you are, that you are imperfect as well. Most you tubers portray a perfect life but that's why I watch you instead of them, thank you so much. I know there are others out there with the same struggles as me when I see these comments on the videos.


I cried watching this. I struggle with derealisation, and literally no one understands when I try to explain, I started doubting it was an actual thing. The thing with touch, like you said, is exactly the same with me, thank you so so much for this❤


Great job. Thank you so much. This has helped me to understand my DP/DR as never had much help with this in the UK.


I have depersonalization and derealization and I didn’t know how to properly convey it to my mom and I showed her this video and I just wanna thank Doddie for being a sweetheart and making a video that educates others easily on these types of topics


Idk if I have this, but every single day for as long as I remember I feel just faint and distant. Like I don’t realise what’s going on around me but I am aware of it, I know I’m doing things but I feel like I’m not. I get enough sleep and water and I don’t k ow what it is and I tried to explain to to my friends but it’s hard when you don’t really know what it is

i feel the EXACT same way. it’s so nice to know it’s not just me.

Mercedes Menon hey , do you have instagram ! i’ll give you some techniques i use :)

@Mercedes Menon i didn't really :< sometimes enough sleep makes it a little better. Or meeting someone new/ making new friends. Challenging yourself. But even that does not always work. Its always present in my case.

Been feeling like I’ve been floating around in a dream for a while now @anna @noor would love some techniques to feel more grounded and in reality if you figured some out :’33

@anna same here, ive been having it for years as well. I try to be present but its very hard. As if everything is out of reach:(. Did you try anything to make yourself feel less detached?

Genna G i hope you’re ok ! it’s so weird seeing this comment i made 2 whole years ago and nothing has changed that much lmao . here to talk if u need

This is EXACTLY what happens to me, finally someone else that gets it

This is really similar to what i experience lol

@anna i would love to talk. Where could we talk?

April i’m glad im not alone hahah here if you ever wanna talk

WishCandle yeah sometimes it’s like watching through a screen

WishCandle you didn’t ask me but yes i do. People seem fake or maybe sort of meaningless, which triggers major desperate episodes, because it is scary not to be able to feel connected to the people i love during my derealisation episodes. The world just looks different, like a cold place that is indifferent to your existence or maybe even hostile.

I relate... but do you ever feel like people are fake?


I had this last year in choir. I had to sing  in front of about 15 people. When I started to sing, I realized I wasn't looking out of my own eyes. I felt like I was watching over myself. It was almost like watching a video of yourself, but live. It scared the shit out of me at the time, and I was really nervous. <b>and btw I didn't get in~Im probably not a good singer (/ω＼)</b>

I had this last year in choir. I had to sing  in front of about 15 people. When I started to sing, I realized I wasn't looking out of my own eyes. I felt like I was watching over myself. It was almost like watching a video of yourself, but live. It scared the shit out of me at the time, and I was really nervous. *and btw I didn't get in~Im probably not a good singer (/ω＼)*


This is extremely helpful thank you so much Dodie. You are truly a blessing.


I recently went off my fluvoxamine because last time i went to my GP I mentioned I was feeling down and he did the K-12 test and because it was 1 or 2 point higher than last time, he doubled my dose to 100mg. That day I decided to stop my medication all together. I totally relate to the depersonalization part because I can never feel comfortable with myself or feel like I am supposed to be someone else. I am still dealing with my mental health alot. I can go almost a whole week or being positive, motivated and well organised. But then every now and then theres a day or 3 where all I want to do is lay in bed and do nothing, im a grump, I can be snappy which pushes my partner away but all I really want on the inside if comforting or hugs or help but I can't allow myself to accept how im feeling and expose that part of me infront of others.


Oh, thank you so much. I've been depersonalized for a while now and this video is so helpful. 💗


Woah this just opened my mind. Lately in multiple ways I haven't been feeling myself. And obviously self diagnosis is incredibly inaccurate at times but this seems to fit part of what I've been going through off and on for a long time.


Dodie, I know it's a couple of years late but I want to thank you for these videos. My sister linked me to the one with the dramatic title maybe a year ago, and beyond a couple of webpages I found (among hundreds) your videos about derealisation are some of the only ones I've found that made me start taking it seriously. I'd read a bit about it before but felt like it was a minor/side thing. Now it feels like if I can take care of this, it'll be much easier to take care of everything else (because at least I'll feel like I'm finally living my life alongside dealing with the rest, right?) This video was incredibly useful, too, because I've never been sure what to ask for from a healthcare professional. So yeah, thanks for the sense of direction in the fog!


hey dodie! ive been diagnosed with derealization disorder and seeing someone i look up to with the same thing as me gives me a lot of hope that some day i’ll always be grounded


i actually cried bc this vid made me realize about whats happening to me since this year. it all kinda makes sense now. thankyou for bringing this to our awareness, dodie 💗


This is the first time that I've heard this explained in a way that makes sense. I've never been able to put it into words. Thank you so much for this.


I rarely comment on videos when on YouTube as I have a lot of anxiety surrounding interaction with people at any level, online or in person but I wanted to share this poem I wrote some time ago, and this community always seems so nice. I think it describes some of the feelings I was going through at one time in my life and watching your videos has made me think I may have been experiencing some form of depersonalization....

Is this face mine?
It blinks in time with I
When blue it too sinks, to a sadly painted hue
In its cheeks

And as I, walk and talk my way through time
It too ages with the mind
forming every crease and every line
I question still:
I may be real but is this face mine?
Or is it merely borrowed to one day be returned?
To trade in all that I have loved and all that I have learned
For another soul to grow old,
Only to ask a question asked through time
Is this face truly mine?

Matt Attwaters that would make a GREAT song wow i don’t know if you’re musical but

I know you commented this a while ago bit this is absolutley beautiful xx 💕💕

Hey I know you commented this a long time ago but it really is beautiful for what it’s worth you’ve made an impact in my life. You are special and wonderful, and I want you to know that however little it really did your poem has altered my life. Maybe not in a significant way, but you’ve made an impact. Don’t ever stop, you never know how much of an influence you can be

i've literally never connected with a poem more omg


Un-realization , I know it well from having PA`s , I hope you feel better soon. For me what helped my panic attacks was one day I got really mad at my PA , and I literally told myself , not today , you are not going to mess this up. Feeling that way along with meds have helped me the most. Thanks for sharing.


I was in therapy for this and honestly just talking through my traumas was the most useful part, but I was not really offered any treatments for dissociative package and I would go between DR and DP for well over a year, and I figured out on my own how to make things SIGNIFICANTLY better for me by taking that practice home and like journaling about EVERY intense feeling and I had to actually do this for the memory loss and wacky vision because those were traumatic on their own!!!!! The symptoms are traumatic so it's just a huge Paradox. You really have to address why this has been traumatic for you, what you've lost, and you have to grieve over that and find upsides. Personally not having memory means I'm forced to live in the moment. Which is actually nice. For the vision I just tried my best to remain positive and mentally I would focus on things a lot more and try to register what I was seeing and turn it into some connection. I mean over a long time that really seems to have helped. Not leaving the house is the worst thing you can do, but at first I had such intense agoraphobia. JUST KNOW IT WILL GET BETTER.


I know im late but this video made me realize that I’ve been dealing with dissociation for 6 years. Thank you.❤


I watched many videos about depersonalization but only this one made me feel like I'm not alone. I feel a bit hopeful after this video. Thank you a lot <3


Here's my life story that triggered my depersonalization/derealisation. (If you're interested):<br>I lived in the caribbean until i was 6. My twin brother was diagnosed w lymphoma (a type of cancer) at 6 years old. So my family (mum dad bro sis n me) had to travel to Bristol, England to get him treatment. Since me n my bro were British citizens because we could stay in Britain for a longer time however my mother and sister were born in the Caribbean they had to go back for all together 4ish years so I was separated from them alot. But when they were here my parents stayed w my bro in hospital in Bristol but me and my sister had to live in Devon with our horrible auntie and I we had to go to separate schools because she is 6 years older than me. So like back in the day when I was in year one I had this Grenadian British accent thing going on and I wasn't v articulate so my teachers hated me. My bro came to my school in year 2 but still wasn't cancer free. So he's been having check ups until year five. That last time I went to Grenada (where I lived out the Caribbean) was in year three. I practically lived on planes 😂😂. And I am now a 12 year old w crippling depression anxiety depersonalization and I haven't managed to bring back my confidence I had when I was 5 so yeah. But thanks to Dodie, I am just happier and also ppl like Dan and Phil yah kno. I'm still not as happy as I was, but that is my main goal. But I'm getting there I guess. Thank you for making this video, Dodie. 💗💗💗

Here's my life story that triggered my depersonalization/derealisation. (If you're interested):
I lived in the caribbean until i was 6. My twin brother was diagnosed w lymphoma (a type of cancer) at 6 years old. So my family (mum dad bro sis n me) had to travel to Bristol, England to get him treatment. Since me n my bro were British citizens because we could stay in Britain for a longer time however my mother and sister were born in the Caribbean they had to go back for all together 4ish years so I was separated from them alot. But when they were here my parents stayed w my bro in hospital in Bristol but me and my sister had to live in Devon with our horrible auntie and I we had to go to separate schools because she is 6 years older than me. So like back in the day when I was in year one I had this Grenadian British accent thing going on and I wasn't v articulate so my teachers hated me. My bro came to my school in year 2 but still wasn't cancer free. So he's been having check ups until year five. That last time I went to Grenada (where I lived out the Caribbean) was in year three. I practically lived on planes 😂😂. And I am now a 12 year old w crippling depression anxiety depersonalization and I haven't managed to bring back my confidence I had when I was 5 so yeah. But thanks to Dodie, I am just happier and also ppl like Dan and Phil yah kno. I'm still not as happy as I was, but that is my main goal. But I'm getting there I guess. Thank you for making this video, Dodie. 💗💗💗

ofcourse_i_dnt_read_phanfic I know I'm completely going off subject but do I know you from Instagram?


I've suffered from depersonalisation my whoooole life without knowing what it was or how to explain. This video is so perfect for it!


Best advice I can give is that depersonalisation/derealisation will go away (I promise) as long as you stop fighting it!! As hard as it sounds, you need to stop focusing on your condition so much, this only feeds the anxiety. You need to just let it pass, and let it go- after you’ve had an episode, try not to dwell on it and think about it, just ignore it. Don’t think of it as a threat to block  you from doing things you want to do. I know it feels like it will never go away, but I promise you it will. I had this condition from the age of 8 to the age of 13. Im now 18 and I haven’t had an episode since! I don’t fear it anymore, It’s no longer a threat to me like it used to be and I don’t let it control my life. At the time, it consumed me- its all I would think about 24/7. I stopped going to social events (which would trigger it off) and I think the end I stopped leaving the house altogether. But once I forced my condition out of my mind, and started doing what I wanted to do without fear, it stopped. You are never alone in this, and I promise you it will get better ❤

thank you very much, you give me great hope!


My Derealisation is also 24/7 and sometimes (mostly in the evenings) my body just feels like its not mine.
It is hard to find some sort of treatment because I have no idea where it came from. Then again I think it is also intertwined with depression just like Dodie said.
It is now at the point where I can't imagine how it was to not feel like I'm in a dream.


I have DID and I have had derealisation since I was a kid, I can't remember the first time I experienced it, but I had about 8 or 9 personalities and I have experienced true disassociation once and mild versions of it a few times when one of my other personalities take over.


I've done EMDR for some trauma and even though I felt like dodie where it was like "what are you thinking?" "aaahhh idk what" it still worked. I was doing a mixture of normal talking therapy and EMDR. It's help when you with someone your comfortable with whether thats your therapist or someone sitting with you while its happening.

Really?so there's stiil hope!
I 'm seeing a therapist and planned to do EMDR because of the glorious  reputation it have,but when I heard the blonde woman saying it doesn't work for dr/dp...arghh

So,are there other people with thoses pbs who did Emdr and it worked?The 66 people who liked,does it mean it worked for you?

And,person to wich I comment the comment,can you give more details of ,perhaps ,the reason why you think it worked 4 you,please?

Thanks,please,answer me


I don't know anything about DPDR but schema therapy really helped me with my depression and anxiety and is extremely insightful. Hope you get feel better, Dodie! xx


This happened to me in 2015. I went through something extremely traumatic Big T. Essentially blamed for someone else’s death. And had immense guilt and pain. For the first week I felt pain like I never knew exited. Wailing and crying to sleep. After the first week I went completely numb and I was losing memories of the trauma. I felt nothing and nothing felt real. No emotions. I was told by a therapist that I was going through Exactly this. You guys did a great job explaining!


I was really stressed in the past week and I felt really tired even though I was sleeping really well. I got this notification and didn't want to watch it, I was really sad I just wanted to sleep. So I finally watch and realised how helpful this is. Thank you.


When I was in a toxic relationship i always had derealisation and depersonalisation episodes and i still do to this day, just less. thank you for this video, very much needed.


Even though I don't have chronic/diagnosable derealization/depersonalization/dissociation this really did help me a lot because from time to time I do feel spaced out/numb to the point where I don't really feel right in that sense, so this put a name to this feeling and I definitely do feel better about being able to handle it as it is pretty frightening. Thank you so much, this was a great video. Luv you bb


I'm so glad I came across more of these types of videos.. I understand my illness now. I found out that I have extremely severe ptsd and I was traumatized even in my mother's womb from her drinking and abusing drugs and my father beating her.. I'm never not having depersonalization and derialization episodes


As a part of my yoga practice I take time to question myself and pay attention to my fears so that I can be aware of them and change my thought patterns. When I've found something new and hard to handle, such as finding the underlying fear of my OCD, that's when I've hit points of feeling depersonalization/derealization but it's a temporary thing and lets me know I need to give the thought time to settle.  It sounds like it could happen as a reaction to something conflicting such as the common argument experience when your reality is being challenged and you aren't open to changing it at that moment and get scared and maybe a little lost and cloudy maybe to a point of DP/DR before then choosing if you're going to open up or react in anger self pity, comic relief or numbness.


ive just recently figured out what this is and I'm almost completely sure I have at east one of these and I'm so glad that some one that I know of and look up to has the same thing, thank you for making this video.


I can remember from the time I was little, maybe 6, I would have these moments where I would just feel like I was not really in my body or that I would not process what was going on, but these were very brief occurances. As I got older, I started to experience them more and more. Seeing this now I guess helped me to understand what I have been experiencing for most of my life. Thank you so much for posting this video. Honestly, I've never met anyone who could describe it. 💜


I’m almost certain I have depersonalization, and I never knew my love for fidgeting with things like that could be part of it! Super informative. Thank you for much for making this.


I used to get derealisation when I was younger ALL the time and I didn't know what it was. It felt like I was out of my body and watching my actions from a 3rd person perspective, or like I was dreaming and everything felt kind of blurry and weird. It was quite scary. Thankfully, I haven't had it in some years now but I still remember how unsettling the feeling was.

@vanesa v nothing really:( sadly im not sure there's anything you can do. I think derealization happens usually when we're stressed or anxious or in a difficult period in our lives so i guess trying to fight stress and anxiety would potentially help reducing derealization too


So today was the kind of day where I didn't feel anything. I couldn't feel anything outside of myself. So when I watched this video, it was the first thing I felt all day. Maybe I have issues with dissociation and derealisation, and I didn't think about the possibility until now. Thank you Dodie 💜


I didn't know until today that other people go through this. I've felt very alone and afraid of my own thoughts. I find that listening or feeling others heart beats calms me down. I was scared I was losing it and I worried that it'll never going away but, learning about it today and actually finding out that other people totally go through this has given me hope that this will all pass as I work on my anxiety. (I start therapy tomorrow). I appreciate this video and i appreciate all those who are leaving their stories in the comment section.


I have anxiety and will zone out in certain situations and now that it was mentioned I totally fidget with things, like the ends of my hair or the necklace I'm wearing. I'm going to my first talk therapy session in 2 days ANY advice?<br>EDIT: Okay so she was great and had good advice I opened up to her but I can do that with most. I didn't feel inspired or like she wanted to help me be my best. more like just strategies to get by but she wasn't bad. I can't decide if I should continue seeing her or if I should try someone new?

I have anxiety and will zone out in certain situations and now that it was mentioned I totally fidget with things, like the ends of my hair or the necklace I'm wearing. I'm going to my first talk therapy session in 2 days ANY advice?
EDIT: Okay so she was great and had good advice I opened up to her but I can do that with most. I didn't feel inspired or like she wanted to help me be my best. more like just strategies to get by but she wasn't bad. I can't decide if I should continue seeing her or if I should try someone new?

Megan Jensen be honest and open with them about things. You might not understand why they're asking you certain questions, but trust that they know what they're doing. You can always ask why they're asking if it makes you feel more conformable. They're not going to judge you for anything you say, and everything is confidential. You might think of something during the sessions that you've never thought about before, and that you think would be useful to say it. Just say it, even if they didn't ask! Always better to provide them with too much information than not enough. It's important that you understand what they're doing and why, and how it will make you feel better. If at any point they haven't explained it clearly enough or you don't understand, ask them to clarify. You need to understand this to make the therapy have meaning, otherwise it could turn into just a load of question asking that doesn't really help. Keep the most open mind you can, and if you can't answer their questions or can't think of anything to say straight away, don't worry! Take your time, they completely understand, they've given therapy to countless people in your situation before. Just do whatever you need to do to be comfortable to make sure it's working; sit however you want, speak at the pace you want to. I wish you the best of luck!

I got 2 tips for you.
The first time will probably be a bit awkward but that's okay it's great that you are seeking help and be honest with you therapist.
I'm very proud that you are seeking help!!!


I don't have any of this, but it's a nice thing to learn about. I've been through big trauma, but I've dealt with it early. This helps me to want to deal with the hard things early. Thank you.


I just had a suicide attempt three weeks ago but this video just makes me feel so much better . Everyday feels so scary and I tried to find more info about it online but there was never nothing. My sense of reality is horrible but I do notice it gets worse when I’m hurting emotionally. Thank you so much for making this video it really makes me less alone in the world.


As someone who's struggled with what (doctors believe) is some forms of disassociation, it's so wonderful to see you talk about it. Practically everyone knows of depression/anxiety/PTSD/etc. but rarely is there any education about dr/dp/etc. Thank you both for sharing your knowledge and helping me understand myself a little better.


This is so interesting and just makes me want to be a councellor/therapist even more ❤


I had such bad derealisation/depersonalisation for about 5 years and I felt like I had tried everything to get rid of it (I hadn't I only went to therapy and consulted googled lol) but then slowly slowly it just started going on it's own and now a good 95% of my life I feel 'normal' and it's only when I'm in particularly stressful situations that I feel really spaced out again but it's not nearly as distressing anymore and I know that when I've calmed down I'll be fine again, I guess I just wanted to reassure anyone that's going through the same thing that even though it does feel like it's going to last forever and you're never going to be okay again, it doesn't and you will

Thank you for this bit of hope. This is a new thing for me. I've been dealing with this for a while off and on but it just recently got really bad and it's been so scary, especially because I've had no idea what this is or why I'm feeling this way. It's been so bad that I just feel so hopeless and trapped in this weird dream and I've had the darkest thoughts because of it. Thank you for giving me hope that maybe I'll get better.


This is so helpful!!! The way she talked about the big Ts and the little ts was so important for me, (I had already figured it out for myself lol) but it's very important for people to know that you can have things like this happening without one large event damaging you. I have BPD which is usually explained by childhood abuse which was really confusing to me because I get along really well with my parents, but I realized it's just like she said, little things that didn't seem like a big deal.  It was also really helpful to get a definition for disassociation because it's so hard to explain to people when that is happening to me.


hey, its really cool to watch this video! it's like you are having a normal conversation, but the public is included in it! i feel like i am in this conversation with you guys


This video was very interesting. Thanks Dodie for the insightful video, I learnt alot ^^<br>Hope your treatments/medications work out for you. :)

This video was very interesting. Thanks Dodie for the insightful video, I learnt alot ^^
Hope your treatments/medications work out for you. :)


I can't describe how thankful I am for this video. I happened across it by chance and I knew straight from the title it was exactly what ive always been looking for. Ive complained of these exact symptoms for years but its just so hard to explain


I have this as a symptom of my PTSD and anxiety. Its horrible, thank you for shedding light on this subject and having a professional speak about this. I am thinking the same treatment TMS.  You are very strong to talk about this, you are helping so many people.


I suffer with derealisation constantly and depersonalisation occasionally. This video helped me so much! I did not know that there were any treatment options other than therapy. Thank you so much Dodie!!!


I never knew what I've been dealing with had a name. Thank you for this Dodie. I needed this.


I'm 14 and for the past 3 weeks I've been having disassociation  and I remember the first time it happened I was walking to the shops with my friends before school and it hit me all of a sudden my heart started going crazy and I felt like I had been Transported to another version of my world and everything was so scary and unfamiliar I also felt as if my soul or concioius was a little bit further back then my body so I felt out of control turns out it runs in my family and my mum gets it but now that I've had multiple amounts of it I've managed to cope with it and I generally channel my feel and unfamiliarities into creative things like making a song on my piano or doodling things I see around me which helps me alot


This was so interesting and enlightening!! Thank you dodie for always posting about issues that have a lot of stigma around then, you educate me in so many ways and I love the way you make these videos💞💞


dodie, thank you for making this video. people need to realize that trauma isn’t always war or car crashes, it’s the little things. thank you for bringing kati on your channel to explain this. you’re such a sweet human and i adore you. thank you for this.

twenty one pilots who are falling out at the disco


This video was really helpful. I think I have derealisation and I used to have no idea what it was but this video gave me something to relate to. So thanks!


I remember when Dodie first spoke about this I kinda felt like the concept was familiar, but I was too scared to look further into it. However, when I lived a year abroad I started experiencing long periods of time of kinda out of body experiences... it’s kinda like my brain convinces me that I’m watching myself from the outside, like I’ll be in a situation where I might be uncomfortable or sometimes there’s nothing much special, but I’ll start thinking like “who am I?” And suddenly it’s like I’m not really there, I’m like trapped in a tiny room in my brain looking through my eyes, but from a distance, if that makes sense.... and I suddenly don’t really feel anything anymore, because what I see isn’t real, so why should I be sad or upset or even happy? Living abroad was the happiest but also the most stressful year of my life, and I think it developed even more for me because I had so much going on at once.<br>I don’t experience it as randomly anymore, like it doesn’t come suddenly on the train like it used to, but I almost always get it when I’m in a large social setting where I don’t feel entirely comfortable/in control. Sometimes I’ll constantly feel like I’m not “cool” enough to hang out with my friends, and then it comes and I stop feeling anything at all... I don’t really know how to deal with it, I think I’ve tried to avoid it honestly because it’s not constant and I can kinda predict when it’ll come... but it’s just so uncomfortable and every time it comes I feel like I end up seeming empty.

I remember when Dodie first spoke about this I kinda felt like the concept was familiar, but I was too scared to look further into it. However, when I lived a year abroad I started experiencing long periods of time of kinda out of body experiences... it’s kinda like my brain convinces me that I’m watching myself from the outside, like I’ll be in a situation where I might be uncomfortable or sometimes there’s nothing much special, but I’ll start thinking like “who am I?” And suddenly it’s like I’m not really there, I’m like trapped in a tiny room in my brain looking through my eyes, but from a distance, if that makes sense.... and I suddenly don’t really feel anything anymore, because what I see isn’t real, so why should I be sad or upset or even happy? Living abroad was the happiest but also the most stressful year of my life, and I think it developed even more for me because I had so much going on at once.
I don’t experience it as randomly anymore, like it doesn’t come suddenly on the train like it used to, but I almost always get it when I’m in a large social setting where I don’t feel entirely comfortable/in control. Sometimes I’ll constantly feel like I’m not “cool” enough to hang out with my friends, and then it comes and I stop feeling anything at all... I don’t really know how to deal with it, I think I’ve tried to avoid it honestly because it’s not constant and I can kinda predict when it’ll come... but it’s just so uncomfortable and every time it comes I feel like I end up seeming empty.


Omg dodie you made me cry. The first one I experienced it I literally thought I was my brother! It took so long to finally get a diagnosis after doctors checked my eyes etc and Mri's for people thinking it's seizures. So helpful to hear someone I admire talk about having the same issues


i'd love to see a follow up video summarising the methods you've tried to help your mental health and what's worked/what hasn't and what you got out from each experience and the impressions they made on you!


It's the first time I'm hearing about the term derealisation and I realised that this could be the word for those weird moments where everything felt like a dream. I do not experience such moments very often, but there were a few situations in my childhood and also at two parties when I was a bit drunk. Those moments which felt like a dream always happened at night when it was dark outside and when there were many people around me. I hate it when this happens, but thankfully it only happened about 7 times in my life. This seems so strange to me, because what could be the reason for those moments of derealisation?


Thank you dodie for just being you. I first found your channel with your other video about depression and depersonalization as its given me a tiny bit of hope. Thank you for letting me not feel alone and have your songs as a way to speak out on how I actually feel when I'm not able to form the words. I'm currently at high school living every day as a blur with no one that I can actually talk to but I know that it would all be worth it in the end and that there is other people out there. 💛


i have depersonalization and derealisation (thankfully not severe) and this is the first time i hear about it from literally anyone and i relate highly to a lot of this, I'm so glad i came across this


This was soooooo helpful and reassuring. You are both blessings ♥


This was really helpful. I've been experiencing this a lot through out the last few months.<br>i feel like anytime i talk about whats been going on it grounds me and makes me feel emotional, but it soon passes and the numbing wall goes back up...

This was really helpful. I've been experiencing this a lot through out the last few months.
i feel like anytime i talk about whats been going on it grounds me and makes me feel emotional, but it soon passes and the numbing wall goes back up...


Watching this back now and DID NOT KNOW THAT KATIE WAS IN THE SHANE SERIES OMG I KNEW SHE WAS FAMILIAR WTF


so cool to see people talking about this stuff. i have DID and its really nice to see people bring light to these things that i experience daily.


Oh my goodness, Kati just seems so supportive 💛💛💛


I've been experiencing dissociation/derealisation/depersonalisation for 6 years now (thankfuly it's very mild). But I never had thr slightest idea it could be a mental illness, to me it was just something I was experiencing and never thought about much. I stumbled across this video while searching for more of dodie's videos and it helpes me so much to now what it is. The sheer fact of putting a name on this has made a huge difference, I've been able to tell my friends about it so they can help keep me grounded, and I've been able to trace back some of the traumas that might have caused it. It is a big relief to know that it isn't depression, and I've started to know how to deal with it. Thank you so much dodie and Katie for this video, you've helped me put a finger on what has been a problem for me for a long time. I really hope you (dodie) will be able to deal with this. Thank you for this help I didn't know I needed.


i've been dealing with derealisation since the beginning of August. it has brought out a lot of intense and severe anxiety and depression that i thought i got over a long time ago. i don't enjoy going out anymore because everything looks so scary and it terrifies me. my friends don't see me anymore so i feel pretty alone when it comes to that. i loved watching this video, it made me feel less crazy and that other people go through this too. so thank you for that


i went through a time like last year where i think i had derealization and i cannot imagine having to go through it all the time, like this queen named dodie


dodie, i thank you so much, i dont want to say that anyone deserves a mental disorder - nobody deserves to suffer, just to make clear. But i wanted to tell you that expecially you, you dont deserve all that. you helped me so much. I always thought about my mental disorder (anxiety, depression, derealisation/depersonalisation) as a result of being too weak, too lazy, (...). I hated myself because of that even though i didnt see self-hatred as an effective and fair option. After i listened to you talking about everything that open I'm losing my judgement, i'm not hating myself anymore because of my mental disorder. I'm still learning, but this helps me, not to feel ashamed of myself.
I got so much left to say
i love you dodie, thanks so much!
Jana


Damn I want her to be my therapist, she seems so nice


Hi Dodie! I have an important question. Actually, maybe a few. I've been suffering anxiety lately, and I feel like I've been lying to myself about what I want in the future. I've been stuck between choosing the typical-well-paying-but-not-so-fun-job and the fun-creative-career-but-you-might-not-achieve-and-could-risk-your-survival-in-life. I have amazing friends that are taking risks such as going into the music industry. Another wants to create comic books, and another wants to do something with acting and theater. Then I have some friends who are taking the safer route, with the office type jobs and such and they're content with that. We're all in high school right now, and they seem to have an idea of what they're going for. I don't really know what to do. I prefer the fun route, but it's not as safe as taking the other route. I've been watching your videos for years (and you're my Demi Lovato btw) and I recall that in one of them you said you went against what your parents wanted. You wanted to pursue a career in music, and you did and you're amazing with everything you've produced and all the lovely messages you sent out to others. But how did you push yourself to choose the decision you made? Did you feel any doubts about it? How did you know that that is what you truly wanted? You're brave and work hard to get to where you are now. But you couldn't have known where you would be now. Why did you take the risk? What made it worth it? How did your younger self see it back then when the decision was made? How did you survive in the beginning of this? What was it like to have another job while building this one? Do you think life isn't worth living if it isn't fun? I don't know if you'll ever read this comment. I hope you do. My name's Sara, and I dream of becoming a writer. If you're reading this right now, I need you to know that you've helped me and a lot of my friends through dark times. Thank you for being so open and so you. You talk about insecurities and mental illnesses- and so many people here can connect and it's just a wonderful community in the comments of this channel. Thanks for all bringing us here. I hope you respond. Anyways, have a nice day :)


IT took me a while to watch this, but I am so glad I did. This is such a nice, quiet, educational video. For some reason I do not have derealisation, but I do sometimes have disassociation and depersonalisation and the complete opposite where I suddenly get fully aware of every little thing and it makes being very awkward and loud.


I think I have derealisation but I need to talk to my therapist so thank you sm dodie for making both realize I have such a thing and knowing how to help myself


"can't open your eyes wide enough."  That's me sometimes; very occasionally, and not in situations where I'm feeling any anxiety, but it does happen.


I really needed this. Thank you Dodie, and thank you Kati. <3


This made me cry. It's exactly how I've been feeling since last summer


Thank you so much dodie! I have felt like this before and still do now and I never had a name for it before but now I do.❤ Thankyou

Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?


Wow this is the most lovely and relatable derealization video I have ever watched on youtube you are amazing dodie!
It made me feel so much better about my condition I don’t know why

I also wanted to add a symptom that I experience besides from what you’ve mentioned which is slow brain processing .. like when somebody talks to me or asks me a simple question I’m like” ummmmm.....”  and I have to pause to think of an answer.. this is almost the most frustrating symptom for me especially affecting my performance in college


i'm so glad i watched this, it had been sitting in my subscription box and i ignored it for so long because i knew there was a chance i had these things or something similar and as i was watching it i've never felt so hopeful and validated before.


I watched this video when it was first posted and it has stuck with me. I fully believe that this is something I struggle with but I want to seek a doctors professional opinion. Dodie totally opened my eyes to better understanding myself


Ok I've been off YouTube for a couple of days now. But I think I never clicked on a video as fast as I did as I just saw you and Kati in the screenshot.<br>So glad about what you both do for so many people, keep doing that. xo

Ok I've been off YouTube for a couple of days now. But I think I never clicked on a video as fast as I did as I just saw you and Kati in the screenshot.
So glad about what you both do for so many people, keep doing that. xo


i just wanted to thank you dodie. thanks to you bringing attention to depersonalisation i’ve been properly diagnosed and on my way to recovery. 2 months ago i started having these types of episodes where i just ‘zoned out’ and felt like i was on the verge of passing out, my vision blurred and i had no idea where i was or who i am. i’ve had depersonalisation my whole life, my first memory of it when i was four and i just felt like i wasn’t there but at the same time i was the only one in the room,,? when my mom realised it was recurring she gave it a name, ‘lonely’. at first the doctors thought i was having seizures or there was something wrong with my brain until i saw this video a few weeks ago. when i’m in the middle of an intense depersonalisation episode it scares the shit out of me, i look at my hands and they’re not mine, i look at my friends and i i just can’t recognise them. because i’ve had depersonalisation my whole life i don’t know how i would feel without it. when i was younger it made me feel so different to other kids, i would zone out or just become quiet all of a sudden. having it has damaged me so much and had probably influenced my anxiety and depression to become worse, i felt like there was this whole in my chest, like i was missing something. so thank you dodie for helping me identify my ‘lonely’.


I've got really, really bad derealization. You're the only youtuber I know that also has it. Thank you for this video <3 not so alone anymore.


i've always been quite socially anxious, even at a small age. recently i have experienced depression (still have) and derealization. it's shit. I never thought it could be like this; i didn't expect it at all


When I’m clicking on this video I never thought that it’s going to help me really much;<br>I learn by the help of this video that I have derealisation and depersonalization. I experienced situations that you told and I started to think that I’m losing my mental health totally and couldn’t understand it. THANK YOU REALLY MUCH. THAT HELPED SO MUCH THAT I CAN’T EXPRESS MY HAPPINESS WITH WORDS. Because I was suffering for a long time from not understanding what is my problem and how I am supposed to deal with it. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

When I’m clicking on this video I never thought that it’s going to help me really much;
I learn by the help of this video that I have derealisation and depersonalization. I experienced situations that you told and I started to think that I’m losing my mental health totally and couldn’t understand it. THANK YOU REALLY MUCH. THAT HELPED SO MUCH THAT I CAN’T EXPRESS MY HAPPINESS WITH WORDS. Because I was suffering for a long time from not understanding what is my problem and how I am supposed to deal with it. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤


I wonder if anyone ever tested Dodie for AD(H)D Inattentive Type.<br>I have both a Dissociative Disorder and AD(H)D, as well as hypothyroidism and insomnia. The overlap of the different brands of fogginess are ever-overlapping and puzzling. I can't imagine that dissociation would spread out to such a degree unless someone was living within directly, actively traumatizing environments. I would try to get different specialists to cross-check whether there are additional, similar health-interferences. Everyone's symptom-clusters and psychological responses differ, but it can really help to re-do diagnosis. They only discovered my AD(H)D last year, at 28. Getting properly medicated turned out to be a basic, quintessential prerequisite to make any progress in psychotherapeutic treatment.

I wonder if anyone ever tested Dodie for AD(H)D Inattentive Type.
I have both a Dissociative Disorder and AD(H)D, as well as hypothyroidism and insomnia. The overlap of the different brands of fogginess are ever-overlapping and puzzling. I can't imagine that dissociation would spread out to such a degree unless someone was living within directly, actively traumatizing environments. I would try to get different specialists to cross-check whether there are additional, similar health-interferences. Everyone's symptom-clusters and psychological responses differ, but it can really help to re-do diagnosis. They only discovered my AD(H)D last year, at 28. Getting properly medicated turned out to be a basic, quintessential prerequisite to make any progress in psychotherapeutic treatment.


wow i had that happen to me- the feeling i dont belong to my body or my life- and i just thought i was weird! thank you for this :)
exercise helped me a lot to reconnect! especially biking for some reason
also hugs help a lot :P


This is making so much sense to me that it's painful but it's also good in a sense because there's the relief of knowing I'm not alone and there are people who understand and are helping me to understand

уυgα ѕαкι absolutely. I don't know how to reach out I am surrounded by people who are quick to dismiss things like mental health and make assumptions with little information and I don't know what to do

Oh I get it and It's harder when you need help but can't get it

Ryan Clarke you will get through this, lots of love xx


I had derealization for months. I was so mentally exhausted and finally just said "fuck it". Started partying again, getting shitfaced, drugs etc. The more I socialized, instead of isolating myself and googling my symptoms, the less I cared about them. I ignored it and repressed it. It's not healthy but it worked for me lol.


Thank you for this. It's been very helpful in letting me understand my mental health condition


AAAAAA this is pure happiness, I have been watching Kati for half a year now, I love her. And two days ago I discovered Dodie.....and NOW I see that they had a video TOGETHER <3 <3 YESSSSS


This was so informative and helpful. That shattered marble like clicks perfectly to what sets me off sometimes. I hope that I can find a group near me to just feel the same around and talk about it.


hi dodie! i’d just like to give a huge thanks to you and kati for this video
i was lucky enough to have met you on saturday. i’d also been there to see the mental health panel you were both in (which was great, btw!)
at the m&g i gave you a letter that included a small paragraph about my personal experience with depersonalisation. it was something that was very close to the heart but at the same time i was still fearful that what i believed i was experiencing was actually something else entirely.

after watching this and having a bit more formal(?) education on the topic i’m now able to see that what i’ve been experiencing is more derealisation than depersonalisation. the feeling of dreaming, and as i described it in the letter, ‘being able to wake up a second time.’ i think i may know what traumatic encounter(s) might have stemmed it too. it feels really nice to hear it from someone who knows exactly what i mean without sounding like i’m crazy (it isn’t the most common diagnosis, after all)

so again, thank you both! i think i might go and try to research a bit more into the therapy that was recommended to see what’s in store and what’s possible for it. have a good night, i hope you have (or are having) a safe flight home! <3


i feel like i might have this?.. things feel not real and i feel like i’m in a stimulation kind of and every minute of my day i observe everything and create random theories in my head and when someone says “oh it’s okay everything is real” i feel like they’re lying to me so i don’t think/know they’re gonna do something to me

this could be a completely different thing but yeah

I feel the same don't worry, I think it was triggered from either using drugs once or smoking weed one time as I had a bad experience with both, or potentially a really bad friendship breakup, im still trying to understand it. Ive had it for 5 months now, and although that seems like a long Time, it doesn't feel that way to me it feels so short. I completely get you in the fact that you think people aren't real, like you probably think im not real right now but I promise you I am, I've heard the same thing from people because they don't understand it as you don't really hear about it as much as depression, anxiety etc but just know everything is going to be okay, it all works out in the end, just take every day at a time <3


I always thought I was the only one feeling it, I am so happy to finally see that I’m not alone


I’m watching this video because I feel like I have derealisation. Sometimes I can spend hours in my room, completely spaced out, imagining my life in different almost romantic situations. I constantly feel like nothing’s real, like I’m living in a movie. And everything I do has to be romanticized like in films. I have experienced lots of Big T’s so that might contribute


Thankyouthankyouthankyou for this I needed this so much more than I thought I did and I feel better now about myself And how sometimes I don't recognize myself Dodie thank you :)


I have anxiety and depression and lately I’ve begun to feel like I’m not real, or as if I’m in a movie or dream, kind of like I’m floating. At certain points my fingers decide to not feel like my own, and when I touch them the sensation feels wrong and like
I’m not feeling it myself.
This video made me feel a lot less scared about it so thank you very much^^ ♡


I’m pretty much experiencing derealisation 24/7 and I disassociate all the time as a result of my anxiety disorders and depression. I really wish I was able to see someone about this because I’m really struggling


i saw katis version of this and i am happy that you realized what caused you to have BPD

my BPD is dormant right now and i couldnt be happier i know what causes it and how to prevent myself from my BPD acting up (i havent dissociated since feb 2017 that month is missing and probably never coming back) i think that months of marbles pretty much rolled off into the black abyss and never coming back again at this point and i am quite fine with that i dont want to know what happened (if i ever remember i wont care and i will deal with whatever happened but i am not looking for answers)

my autism on the other hand just started to act up again but not in a horrible sense just needed to move around more (barre class helps with that) my anxiety attack and sever depression non existent recently so thats a plus i have been very happy and that is from the information below

i am also never using meds i have found coping skills work way better and other forms of therapy people say meds+therapy are the best but not for me i cant even take vitamin D pills without it making me feel suicidal or like shit or make my life worse in some way

i drink milk for my vitamin D problems

dodie you are adorable but you are learning and i am sure having wes in your life will help your brain make more connections the more you can remember him the more the wires can click together it just sucks that you see him when you look in the mirror all i know is he definitely needs you in his life as well even if he is to stupid to realize it

thx for this ha bisky vid i found a family member though youtube as well i have been watching somebody for 8+ years and i had no idea we were related

we compared family trees and it is proven we are most likely cousins from what i can figure out as for how cannon cousins are is unknown because we didnt compare past finding out if we are related

his name is sam seder wes might be more interested in that then you but with my dream job that does matter at least a bit

i love you so much dodie and i am happy that you are at least figuring some things out and that you love wes and can remember him now at least at times

kazooga1234

i saw katis version of this and i am happy that you realized what caused you to have BPD

my BPD is dormant right now and i couldnt be happier i know what causes it and how to prevent myself from my BPD acting up (i havent dissociated since feb 2017 that month is missing and probably never coming back) i think that months of marbles pretty much rolled off into the black abyss and never coming back again at this point and i am quite fine with that i dont want to know what happened (if i ever remember i wont care and i will deal with whatever happened but i am not looking for answers)

my autism on the other hand just started to act up again but not in a horrible sense just needed to move around more (barre class helps with that) my anxiety attack and sever depression non existent recently so thats a plus i have been very happy and that is from the information below

*i am also never using meds i have found coping skills work way better and other forms of therapy* people say meds+therapy are the best but not for me i cant even take vitamin D pills without it making me feel suicidal or like shit or make my life worse in some way

i drink milk for my vitamin D problems

dodie you are adorable but you are learning and i am sure having wes in your life will help your brain make more connections the more you can remember him the more the wires can click together it just sucks that you see him when you look in the mirror all i know is he definitely needs you in his life as well even if he is to stupid to realize it

thx for this ha bisky vid i found a family member though youtube as well i have been watching somebody for 8+ years and i had no idea we were related

we compared family trees and it is proven we are most likely cousins from what i can figure out as for how cannon cousins are is unknown because we didnt compare past finding out if we are related

his name is sam seder wes might be more interested in that then you but with my dream job that does matter at least a bit

i love you so much dodie and i am happy that you are at least figuring some things out and that you love wes and can remember him now at least at times

kazooga1234


1 1/2 year ago I had many panic attacks. Before a panic attack started, I always felt like everything was not real. I was not real. I think it was a mixture of derealisation and depersonisation, but I'm not sure. I think the reason why it all started was that I felt like I have no controll. At the time my grandma was very ill and my dad had cancer. (English is not my first language and I'm very tired at the moment, so sorry if I made any mistakes.)


OMG IT'S KATIIIII!!!!! SHE'S HELPED ME SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! THE COLAB I DIDN'T KNOW I NEEDED!!!


I have been watching this 5 times today,  was so cosy to watch this chat with 2 people who are kind and understandable


i never leave comments but i want to say thanks for making this video.. i struggled with derealisation and depersonalisation for years and sometimes still do. It feels like hell and i wouldnt wish it on anyone. thanks for educating people! i wish i saw this video 5 years ago when i started getting these episodes.


I got that ”blunting” feeling when I first started Lexapro. But I actually liked it, I needed a break from feeling all my emotions. But my emotions came back and they were much more intense and I decided to stop my meds altogether.


Just to shed some light at the end of the tunnel for people dealing with DP/DR.I was struggling with DP/DR, depression, hardcore anxiety, and panic attacks the past three years, but things are looking up and i would say i am 80-85% cured of the DP/DR. I understand how scary it can be sometimes, but "when going through hell, don't stop." Dissasociation is literally your minds way of saying it's overstimulated, so it goes into a sort of standby mode. The things that helped me were finding a less stressful job, getting off social media, getting out of toxic relationships, eating healthier, exercising, reading a lot, and getting out and socializing, getting sunlight, talking with family members and freinds about my issues. No matter how hard these things can be, you need to rewire your brain, and when your body tells you no you need to tell it yes. Get up, get active, and stop focusing on the past and future, just appreciate what you have right now!


This comforted me I haven't recover since something that happened 2 years ago and to bring my brain back too! ❤ <br>I get headaches and anxiety too! And I fiddle so much and fidgeting since recovering from my trauma but I also might have ADHD too and still have derealisation too but I'm not diagonised but I know I have been going through depersonalisation for 2 years

This comforted me I haven't recover since something that happened 2 years ago and to bring my brain back too! ❤
I get headaches and anxiety too! And I fiddle so much and fidgeting since recovering from my trauma but I also might have ADHD too and still have derealisation too but I'm not diagonised but I know I have been going through depersonalisation for 2 years

I have headaches everyday and bad anxiety

Elisa Benaggoune Medical community likes to attach words like ADHD to things they can't understand. You are your own type of normal, everyone is. Nobody is perfect or always right, content, or in a state of constant happiness..no such thing as permanence of any kind. I had an episode of a sort of "awakening" over a year ago and then slipped into this state of what can only be described as DP/DR...a flat state where nothing is ever either good or bad it simply "IS". Don't try to act out as you think you should be. Just be how you are, you will feel more content and it doesn't matter how anyone else See's you, if they have a problem it's theirs not yours. Be as you are it's all you can do.


knowing that other people are suffering from dpd, drd and dad makes me feel a lot less crazy so i’m very thankful for this :)


This was so facsniating! I want Kati as my therapist! <3 xoxo Thank you, opened my eyes


I was on sertraline, for the same thing dp/dr, it helped i’m coming off now but I also went through therapy and tried to teach myself how to cope... I study psychology so it made it easier