I tried explaining to my therapist about my depersonalisation and her response was:
"maybe that's just the way your brain is".

cool.

@Divine Light It' s not that easy for a lot of people. That's great if that works for you.

@LucianCorrvinous Son of Hekaté Are you trying to say that you cant cure it completely?

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@LucianCorrvinous Son of Hekaté "Accept you are just different"

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@REDACTED I have been having it for 3 years....

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@Divine Light How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it

my doctor said I should drink more water 😅

Some “professionals” still don’t know shit about some things. I had my doctor laugh and tell me I didn’t know what I was talking about basically, when I asked for help related to BDD.

same! it's like... yeah, i know, but i want help to learn to manage it

@Schurik This would make sense because whenever I said when my depression was bad this happened, they never knew what I was talking about 😂. So I would just be like well this is how it feels and it's technically under the dissociation umbrella but I feel real just the world and everything else doesn't. Then this makes me feel like I know more than them 🤔 this also happens when I mention selective mutism as part of my mild social anxiety(because it doesn't interfere with my life the way it did as a child so it's not a disorder).

I had one of those and I ditched them. Well, tbh, I ghosted them and retreated into my shell until another crisis made me seek out someone new. But now, oh boy, have I landed a great therapist!

Ugh I hate that! It must’ve been frustrating for you :(

I physically gasped when I read this comment because I literally had the same experience. I tried explaining how I feel like my brain is constantly overwhelmed by my environment, and she just told me that my perception of life might just be like that. Literally almost verbatim .. "maybe that's just how you are"

Accept you are just different and try everything to get the best you, takes awhile but hoping for total cure is nor how it usually goes. Different is not better or worse, just difftent...

Same! She said that it's probably just the way it is when you get older. She also said she couldn't help me so I just dropped out of therapy :/

KERSTIN my therapist said the same thing

She just don't know anything about depersonalization. Your brain is not messed up. You're going to be okay❤ It's a natural reaction that a lot of people go through. I have it and have had it for about a week now, but I'm going through it and staying positive 🙏🏾 We will heal. It's temporary. Just think of it like it's a cold and you will recover from it.

I would highly recommend to see another therapist…

Well that freaks the shite out of me oh ffs

KERSTIN <br>The thing is , most therapists know a shit about Derealization

KERSTIN
The thing is , most therapists know a shit about Derealization

@daddy tabasco so much of mental health is still so misunderstood :(

I hate that. I told my previous therapist and she said, "yeah but this usually occurs because of trauma." and it's hard to talk about because when you have it 24/7 it's hard to explain how you're feeling a way that makes sense

I feel your pain. Most therapists ask me what my diagnoses even are when I tell them what past therapists I met at outpatient clinics diagnosed me with and then I never saw them again cause you can only go for so long to certain ones. I feel lost.


Does any one find it to feel like being high... but without the happy feeling?

Does any one find it to feel like being high... but without the happy feeling?

It feels weird today I woke up with it and today feels like it will never end

It feels weird today I woke up with it and today feels like it will never end

literally I was here to find why this happens

literally I was here to find why this happens

DUDE YES.. .. but it also kinda sucks, but it also at the same time felt like a high and was weird

DUDE YES.. .. but it also kinda sucks, but it also at the same time felt like a high and was weird

@Lauren Baldwin I remember feeling that way too.. I promise you that it’s worth trying your hardest to push through. You’ve got this, and I believe in you. This feeling won’t last forever. You will be ok. Do you have any support right now? Cling to friends, family, or your partner. They are worth it. Life is worth it.

@Elizabeth Collins basically i feel everyday like i want to just end it.. This is just hell on absolute earth this is

@Lauren Baldwin how would you like me to help you?

@Lauren Baldwin how would you like me to help you?

@Elizabeth Collins could you help me please hun

@Elizabeth Collins could you help me please hun

@Lauren Baldwin Hi, Laura! I have recovered. It took me a couple weeks to bounce back, but slowly and surely I made it to the other side. I promise you’ll be ok. Try not to obsess about it, even though I know that it’s difficult to. Try to find ways to distract yourself… don’t Google it obsessively.. and just allow yourself to take a break from worrying about it. You will be ok; this won’t last forever.

@Elizabeth Collins hi i have DPDR cud u help me pls

@Elizabeth Collins hi i have DPDR cud u help me pls

@Lauren Baldwin I just kind of waited for it to subside.. Although, it probably would have been good for me to talk to someone about it. I can’t really say that I was depressed either.

@Elizabeth Collins how do u get rid of it did u hav depression with it

@Elizabeth Collins how do u get rid of it did u hav depression with it

@Lauren Baldwin Yeah, it did.. For me, it lasted for about two weeks at first.. And I had little blips randomly for a while.. But those only last for a few minutes.. It goes away with time.. For me, it helped to get distracted and not focus on it all the time.. Your mind isn’t damaged, and your normal perception will return.. Just try not to obsess over it. I promise you’ll be completely fine in no time.. I know it’s scary, but it doesn’t last forever.

@Elizabeth Collins are thanks did dpdr go away for u

@Elizabeth Collins are thanks did dpdr go away for u

@Lauren Baldwin hey, Lauren. Yes, I’d love to help you out.

@Lauren Baldwin hey, Lauren. Yes, I’d love to help you out.

@Elizabeth Collins hi could u help me please

@Elizabeth Collins hi could u help me please

@Lauren Baldwin heyy and yes I get it every here and there but for the most part I’m doing so much better

@Lauren Baldwin heyy and yes I get it every here and there but for the most part I’m doing so much better

@Pragmatic Addict bro this is exactly what I feel about it

@Pragmatic Addict bro this is exactly what I feel about it

It's like you're not here, but not any where either

It's like you're not here, but not any where either

that's literally exactly how i've been describing it oh my god that's exactly how i feel

that's literally exactly how i've been describing it oh my god that's exactly how i feel

can being high for to long and then getting sober just leave you like this possibly

can being high for to long and then getting sober just leave you like this possibly

@Lucy this is exactly what I feel. Have you become better with this? If so please please reach out and tell me some strategies

I had a high good feeling like the whole world is happy which then led to being high but in not a good way

I had a high good feeling like the whole world is happy which then led to being high but in not a good way

All I know is that if I overcome DP/DR I’m never having a bad trip if I get high again, cuz I literally feel like I’m high all the time💀

yeah when it's like real bad I have that too. Like my orientation in space and time is pure shit and I have to watch my feet while walking because I feel like stuff around me is spinning

but worse like a edible high that’s very aggressive and makes you feel alone and like your gon die, i’m glad i’ve healed from mine i had it for months last year round July but sometimes i feel a bit detached but more like from emotions and that’s explainable with everything going on in the world & stress in my personal life but thank God it’s nothing compared to my June experience which I’m proud of !

@77_Sabal Singh Chahal Hey. Just give it some time.. I promise it will pass. Take care of yourself, and try your hardest not to worry and obsess over it. It will be gone before you know it, and the feelings you’re experiencing now will soon be a distant memory. You will be ok.

Anyone please help me with the solution of this problem?????please

Anyone please help me with the solution of this problem?????please

I just wanna say for the people reading these later.. that it stopped. The feelings came and went for about a week and a half. And I haven’t really felt much since. I have felt it while drinking alcohol, but in my daily life, it’s gone. Thank goodness. I was worried that it wouldn’t go away, but it did. 🙏🏻

This is exactly what I've been going through for the past four days. Have any of you had any resolution to this feeling? How long did it last for you? It seems to come in waves for me... The last time that I smoked was like a week ago, and now, all of a sudden, I've just been feeling slightly high on and off. I absolutely can't stand it, and I'm waiting for it to pass... But I just want to know when it's going to end.

I never got to feel high.. ever I just got the bad part

I never got to feel high.. ever I just got the bad part

@Matilda that’s actually super common! It’s so fucking scary tho

@Matilda that’s actually super common! It’s so fucking scary tho

I once smoked weed, and It triggered depersonlazation

I once smoked weed, and It triggered depersonlazation

Not really, but it's different for everyone

Not really, but it's different for everyone

YES this has been the only way I’ve really been able to explain it

YES this has been the only way I’ve really been able to explain it

It honestly feels exactly like a bad high

It honestly feels exactly like a bad high

fvjbfzjb, yep I try not to think about it

fvjbfzjb, yep I try not to think about it

Yea when I got high the other day the only thing I noticed was that my derealisation symptoms were 10 times worse but that's itt

JennyHenry yessss! It’s like having a bad trip while high

JennyHenry yessss! It’s like having a bad trip while high

No. More like the state between being high and sober but drawn out. The transfer between being sober and high is different. Depends on the drug in question though I suppose.

@LucianCorrvinous Son of Hekaté that's the word, thank you

@LucianCorrvinous Son of Hekaté that's the word, thank you

@Madison Curry as Bipolor 1 its not unusual, and you in meds now lithium for me was like this all the time. I call it walking thru peanut butter...disconnection from the world like your watching stuff through a peep bole

@Haley how long were you sober your fat releases for 30 to 45 days...

@Haley how long were you sober your fat releases for 30 to 45 days...

@i am juniper you wouldn't have if you are functional, and its all you know...

@i am juniper you wouldn't have if you are functional, and its all you know...

That sounds r like mania as well, well some mania in some people. Such illness is not by category, it's a spectrum...

Feels like the epitome of a nightmarish trip

Feels like the epitome of a nightmarish trip

@Lucy that is the best way to describe it

@Lucy that is the best way to describe it

Still feel it like it’s just stuck with me ugh

Still feel it like it’s just stuck with me ugh

Yup it happened to me and I’m still goin through it for years everyday

Yup it happened to me and I’m still goin through it for years everyday

BrokenGod Ent. it started for me after the first time i smoked weed too. :/ apparently weed can be a trigger

I feel like I'm not here, I'm not reacting to anything, like my head can't feel the pillow under it and my feet can't feel the ground, I feel like I'm falling but without moving at all, I'm hyperventilating and you know how very anxious people move a lot and are like constantly panicking yeah I do that too but in my mind because I'm so zoned out I talk mentally to myself and cry, but I can't feel my tears rolling down my cheeks it's horrible.

YES! EXACTLY! It started after I'd been smoking way too much weed.

YES! EXACTLY! It started after I'd been smoking way too much weed.

I've never been high, but it does seem like how I'd imagine being high, and I often get called out for looking high when I'm doing worse with my potential dp/dr issues

Ive never been high lmao im 13 but my heart feels like it has glass around it and the happiness is outside of it? The happiness and the cloudiness is on the same level? (Happiness is oil and the cloudiness is water so think about the seperation)

JennyHenry yes. and its really frustrating bc its hard for me to comprehend why anyone would ever get rid of their clear brains when i want nothing more than a clear brain.

Exactly how I feel and I always zone out

Exactly how I feel and I always zone out

Yes!! I have this disorder and I got high for the first time a few weeks ago and I freaked out because it was exactly how I always feel but turned up to 10 and I just couldn’t enjoy it.

@Depressed Alien i tried it and it was sooo overwhelming that i constantly passed out soo be careful!!

@Depressed Alien i tried it and it was sooo overwhelming that i constantly passed out soo be careful!!

Mateusz Wieczorek ok , I won’t then Thank you for telling me !

Mateusz Wieczorek ok , I won’t then Thank you for telling me !

@Depressed Alien Getting high on weed is the worst thing you can do when you have derealization/depersonalization. TRUST ME

I’ve never been high but I want to try getting high and seeing if it works the other way so I want to see if me having DPDR i want to see if I get high I will feel normal ? Could that work

Yes, it feels like someone drugged you but it doesn't go away...

Yes, it feels like someone drugged you but it doesn't go away...

i go crazy and start laughing at random things

i go crazy and start laughing at random things

That’s how I explain it? Though I haven’t been diagnosed I feel like this describes how I feel perfectly

That’s how I explain it? Though I haven’t been diagnosed I feel like this describes how I feel perfectly

Yes that’s why I had to stop smoking after I started experiencing it because I felt like I was getting high and never coming down :/ :/

Yes I slur my words can’t keep up with what I’m saying or remember what I said, I’m also more clumsy.

Yes I slur my words can’t keep up with what I’m saying or remember what I said, I’m also more clumsy.

It started for me after smoking weed, so that's what I associated with until I learned what it was.

It started for me after smoking weed, so that's what I associated with until I learned what it was.

Yes 100%. I go through dissociative episodes that can last a couple days. I’m diagnosed with bipolar type 2 and sometimes when I’m going between hypomania and melancholy (both less severe versions of being manic and depressed) my brain will tune out feelings as a way to prepare for the depressive episode. For me at least, I will feel like I can’t emote. Like I will feel as though I’m not able to feel joy or sadness, which in itself is a symptom of depression- however alongside that- because I can’t feel emotion I’ll start feeling as though nothing is real etc etc. When I started smoking weed, it gave me so much anxiety because it gave me the SAME feeling of questioning reality but because I controlled how much I was thinking about reality, it almost prepared my brain for my next dissociative episode. BUT please don’t self medicate with drugs, I wasn’t responsible (still aren’t in some ways)

Now that I think about i've told my friends that I don't need weed cause im already always high naturally hahahaha

Yes!!!! That's exactly how I always describe it!!!

Yes!!!! That's exactly how I always describe it!!!

That’s how I’ve felt since I stopped smoking weed. Now I can’t smoke anymore because it makes it worse. I always feel high, and weird like I’m not really there and time literally flies

I got high for the first time this year and turned to my boyfriend and said “this is almost exactly how I feel all the time”. I didn’t realise people didn’t feel this way all this time

I’m back rewatching this video bc yesterday I was super disconnected from everything. It was maybe the worst I’ve ever felt it. My head just felt like, heavy like I was about to fall asleep and my motor skills were bad. It was just bad. I was off my meds bc sometimes I forget to take them bc I’m bad at self care

yes yes! that’s how i feel lol everything looks 2D

yes yes! that’s how i feel lol everything looks 2D

Yes !!!! Also being stuck in a constant state of just waking up . How when you wake up you’re super groggy and your brain is very very slow . And the feeling of not being able to open your eyes wide enough .

holy shit yes, i thoughtthis before, when i was high one time, i felt like i wasnt there, and i could teleport back or it was a dream, like i was walking in the park then all of a sudden i was at the bus stop then at the park again, but i washigh so i knew it wasnt me, and when i have these things where a period of time like 30 mins, and i feel out of my body or like im being derealized from myslef, i feel like that and i have to sit otherwise i freak the fuck out

Yes yes yes. Almost as tho you’re completely stoned but not in a good mood you’re just kind of. Not present?

Yes yes yes. Almost as tho you’re completely stoned but not in a good mood you’re just kind of. Not present?

JennyHenry dodie described it once as constantly feeling drunk

JennyHenry dodie described it once as constantly feeling drunk


I'm literally crying right now. I had no idea that it had a name. I thought I was just stupid and lazy and occasionally losing my damn mind. I totally feel the thing about not being able to open your eyes wide enough. I never even brought that up to anyone because I didn't even know how to explain it. I can't remember anything because I'm just in this constant fog. Feels similar to being high, or like you said drunk, all the time. These feelings are so scary and so isolating (especially the depersonalization) when you don't know what's happening or why or that other people actually feel this bizarre way too and its not just you. Thank you so much for making this.

@cozy amy I thought it was just me growing up but then I realized the world cant be so overwhelming and weird

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@Lauren Baldwin no but i think about going to therapy to see if that helps

My little sister got scared of me because I randomly started whispering and laughing ,and my family didn’t understand what i was going through.(it was the panic attack part).so yeah basically that made everything worse,I started crying after that.(i felt stupid and i felt like my family hated me)(i left out the rest of what happened,just the worst part of it in)

I found Dodie while researching derealisation and I remember feeling soo much better after watching her videos. I just felt like I was going crazy so listening to her, being the lovely person that she is, it calmed me down so much. Also having someone to relate to is really helpful

@Selina S With the moment I meant the crying from knowing that the way I felt was something others also went through ;)

@Selina S Been with me since 16 now had 2 episodes in which it becomes incredibly though to do daily things compared with social anxiety and sadness(half year apart) and after each the feeling gets worse

@Luna HET  did it last as long as a moment for you? Because I have had it for the past couple of years and its still there

EXACTLY ME! I had the moment you had 2 days ago...  How have you been since?

Sarah Feldhut I probably would have written the exact same comment if I hadnt seen yours before, you exactly discribed how i feel.

Same I thought it was normal to feel like this I hope you're ok though


This is one of the best and most important collabs out there. It brings personal experience to professional experience in the best way without being too intrusive. This video definitely helped me understand depersonalization and derealization a lot better.


derealisation just hits me at random times and it lasts minimum of 5 minutes to one whole day. ive always told my parents that i feel like im in a dream and that nothing feels right, and thanks to my youtube recomendations now i know what it is. thank you dodie for making this video :)

im 14 and i derealise 24/7, all the time. i hope u get better

@Polk Olkj does it help to take more of it?

@Polk Olkj riboflavin? And are you well now?

I suffred from this for a year . The problem is b12 and foltate diffency .

Yes derealisation is like this for me too! It comes when the stress is too much or a combo of very bright or loud places with a lot of impressions, like when theres a lot of people! Sometimes it lasts, like u said, for 5 mins or a day or the longest I've had was for 1-2 weeks... And for me the scary part is not being sure when you might get derealisation again and how long it will last. It has stopped me from going to school and work bc I can't think clearly and it feels waay too uncomfortable being around people.

jacob with a j hdhdjjdjdhsjs sameeee i’m only 13 and it suckksssss

@Gipsi nga flaka nah im like 14 lol. it was probably from too much work because i had regular school, music school so i was too tired. i also experience this when everything's too loud (like at parties)

Why might happened this ? Were you a drug user ?


Sometimes I feel like I’m this tiny version of myself sitting inside my brain just kind of watching a movie that is my life

omgg same I feel so small or just really far from my body


I kept breathing today. I want all of you to keep breathing too.

@Alice H How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it

@BethTheVegetarianChef hi did ur dpdr go away

How are you doing now a couple years later?

To anyone who feels like giving up: For yourself, please don’t. You are your greatest gift and I’m really sorry you’re going through a hard time right now but it’s gonna be ok. Please seek help (talk to a doctor, therapist, friend, and/or family member or call or online chat with the suicide prevention lifeline) and help yourself get better and you WILL feel better with time and perseverance. You are strong and you are not alone.

I needed that. Thank you, kind stranger, for the massage you wrote 2 years ago. I hope you're still breathing today.

Ik this is supposed to be supportive but I hate this cos I started breathing manually


i've been dealing with derealization since my mom died in august and this video is super helpful. thank you dodie <3

@Alberto Lombardi yes i do. i’m hoping it will start to go away with trauma therapy

@peyton teresa glad you feel better! Do you still experience 24/7?

@Alberto Lombardi honestly still dealing with derealization but it’s a lot easier for me to live with now, it’s more of a passive thing. i’m still grieving but things have gotten better overall! thank you for asking :)


I've had it before, but it was always dismissed.
I don't have it anymore, so if it helps anybody, my way of getting rid of it was doing something new each day. I guess because for me, my brain kind of lost itself in the same rotation day by day by day.
I hope this helps, and remember,
You're loved! <3

@IVAN MAGICAL I've had it for... I'm not sure. It kind of just happened one day after I played this thing which was kind of VR and it made everything seem so.. not real? But if I pinpoint it from that day then aprox. 2 years. I don't have a proper diagnosis but I know what I felt. It was only when I moved to a new school which had a rotating schedule making everything new did it eventually lift. Also, to fully explain what I was feeling is everything that Dodie said and like I would always tell myself "Yeah, in a few hours, I'll be back to sleep." And I just always knew what to expect of the same boring old day which is what ended in my brain feeling like in a looped VR game. Try doing something new each day, basically. It's different for everyone though.

Hey  , thanks for your advice ! How long did you have it ? I I have this trouble for now 4 months and trying to find a solution


what if i just constantly feel like i’m in another body, even though i recognize i’m in my body? i just feel like i’m disconnected from everything, like everything going on around me isn’t a dream, but i don’t relate to anyone. or anything. it’s just like a certain aloneness. is this still the same thing? feeling alone in my own head?

@Free Flow How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it

I grew up with my abusive dad and watching him emotionally abuse my mom and neglect us. I also had so many small traumas. 2 weeks ago, I got to find out smth related to my dad and it kinda triggered me extremely. I sit in my class with kids around me and just stare into space. I feel so alone but I don't think its real. Because it is supposed to hurt but somehow I just block it? So I stop myself from being me

same. there was this one really weird moment when i was deciding on making a risky decision and i said to myself “whatever it’s not my body/life anyways” and i ligit caught myself saying that and i went to my bed and laid down thinking about what just happened.

Dang I’ve been feeling kinda like that for the past week

This is exactly how I’ve been feeling too!!

A artist animations omg that’s that happen to me what else sympthoms you have?

I saw an interesting simulation, this man had his hand in front of the camera and was doing things. He said that you are watching your body move. You aren’t moving, but your body is.

Oh how strange, sometimes I look at people and think "they are a different person, with different views, they can see me but they can't see themselves" and that happens to me.. I don't see why, all those things are common knowledge and for some reason things seem to get really hazy/weird. <br>Another thing is when I'm in a large crowd I feel.. not myself, it's hard to explain but I just feel disconnected from reality

Oh how strange, sometimes I look at people and think "they are a different person, with different views, they can see me but they can't see themselves" and that happens to me.. I don't see why, all those things are common knowledge and for some reason things seem to get really hazy/weird.
Another thing is when I'm in a large crowd I feel.. not myself, it's hard to explain but I just feel disconnected from reality

What about feeling like youre looking through a mask or tunnel vision when under so much stress? Ive gotten that way with arguements and it felt like I wasnt typing anymore but I was watching myself through a mask or with tunnel vision and my fingers were just typing really nasty and angry things.. like is that what that is in my case?

Omg I feel so relieved! I have been feeling like this recently and you just described everything I feel rn. I thought I was so alone.

Maybe try a hobby youre really interested in. Or meditating.

Omg it's been put into words. I've felt/feel this so often but could never explain it, i always thought it was just me

Oh! I get this sometimes, I'm getting it less but I used to get it all the time when I was quite young like ages 3-7


I've basically been in a derealization episode for 2 years and like Dodie even said at it's worse it's depersonalization. It feel like being high but without any of the fun. I know it's from childhood trauma and recent trauma. Weirdly enough things that have helped me to start feeling normal again is talk therapy and yoga. I know it won't help with everyone but I can say it's improved my DR/DP and instead of being constant it seems to come and go more now and I'm starting to feel more normal than not. Working through my issues, allowing myself to feel and trying to be more connected with my body and surroundings have helped substantially. It's a lot of work but I am happy to be working through it!


Dear Dodie,
you two are true angels and just saved my day. I had really bad anxiety and epsiodes of DR and DP within the last weeks. I suffer from this for about a year now. Even though it is better now than when it first started, my life has changed for the worse ever since I collapsed on the grass in a park last summer (first severe panic attack out of nowhere).
Normally I'm not that sentimental but this video made me cry because I feel so understood from both of you!
I try to explain it to my friends and they are wonderful and listen but they don't understand what it means to not live in reality and to not feel your own body from time to time. It is a struggle and it is very real..
Dodie I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing awareness to this mostly unknown condition. It means so much to all of us that suffer!

Thank you and keep going strong. We know how hard it is. You can do it. We can do it! ❤


As someone who also suffers from depersonalization/derealization episodes, I really appreciate you making this video. I couldn’t tell you how great it felt when I found out that I wasn’t alone in how I felt and this video can help others find that connection too ❤


Crying because this sounds like me. I've lived my whole life feeling like an alien, and like no disorder sounded like my experience.


i suffer from depersonalization derealization, it’s basically where you don’t feel real, or you feel like you’re dreaming all the time. it mostly stems from having panic and anxiety attacks. I recently came out to my mom about how I suffer from it and she didn’t exactly take my seriously.. it gets so bad at times to where I get crescent moons in my palms of my hands. (a lot of depersonalization suffers think that pinching or cutting will help them feel real. I do not cut or anything just get crescent moons every once in awhile when my anxiety kicks in or if I’m really feeling even less real that day.) now I am self diagnosed but when I first started getting the symptoms (feeling like you’re dreaming all time) I started to worry.. when you first get the symptoms you won’t notice it right at first. It WILL take you a day or maybe a few hours maybe even years. anyway, when I first got the symptoms I searched up “why do I always feel like I’m dreaming” the first article that popped up was from a therapist who herself helps people who also suffer from dpr (dpr is depersonalization) and I could relate with all of them. you will feel detached from your body, like you’re floating. I look at my hand and it doesn’t even look like it’s mine. I get my moments where I feel somewhat real and it feels so amazing and I wish that I could savor every moment of it, but it’s gone within a matter of seconds. dpr is a result of over thinking or obsessive thinking. if you do suffer from dpr like I do, just remember.. you will get through this, you’re not mentally ill.. you are in a constant stage of discomfort.. not danger.

dpr is triggered when your body goes into fight or flight mode. EVERYONE has gone through dpr once in their lifetime, meaning it could have been only for a few seconds or like me.. a few days, months, years. when your body goes into fight or flight mode it triggers something in your brain to numb your emotions so you can think effectively to get your way out of the situation. (Many people who smoke weed suffer from dpr)

Dpr is the hardest feeling to describe you have to have gone through it to know how it feels.. and if you’re going through it right now you know exactly what I’m talking about.

Symptoms:
Not being able to remember things as easily as you could before.

Life just goes by in a blur.

You feel detached from reality.

Things aren’t as interesting as they were before.

Often mood swings.

Blanking out of conversations often.

Always staying in your head.

now please.. if you suffer from this as well you can get through this. I myself am fighting (hopefully winning) and I know you can fight too. It may be hard at times.. trust me I know.. but if you want to be better you HAVE to push through the hard times because it will be all worth it at the end.

*i suffer from depersonalization derealization, it’s basically where you don’t feel real, or you feel like you’re dreaming all the time. it mostly stems from having panic and anxiety attacks. I recently came out to my mom about how I suffer from it and she didn’t exactly take my seriously.. it gets so bad at times to where I get crescent moons in my palms of my hands. (a lot of depersonalization suffers think that pinching or cutting will help them feel real. I do not cut or anything just get crescent moons every once in awhile when my anxiety kicks in or if I’m really feeling even less real that day.) now I am self diagnosed but when I first started getting the symptoms (feeling like you’re dreaming all time) I started to worry.. when you first get the symptoms you won’t notice it right at first. It WILL take you a day or maybe a few hours maybe even years. anyway, when I first got the symptoms I searched up “why do I always feel like I’m dreaming” the first article that popped up was from a therapist who herself helps people who also suffer from dpr (dpr is depersonalization) and I could relate with all of them. you will feel detached from your body, like you’re floating. I look at my hand and it doesn’t even look like it’s mine. I get my moments where I feel somewhat real and it feels so amazing and I wish that I could savor every moment of it, but it’s gone within a matter of seconds. dpr is a result of over thinking or obsessive thinking. if you do suffer from dpr like I do, just remember.. you will get through this, you’re not mentally ill.. you are in a constant stage of discomfort.. not danger.*

*dpr is triggered when your body goes into fight or flight mode. EVERYONE has gone through dpr once in their lifetime, meaning it could have been only for a few seconds or like me.. a few days, months, years. when your body goes into fight or flight mode it triggers something in your brain to numb your emotions so you can think effectively to get your way out of the situation. (Many people who smoke weed suffer from dpr)*

Dpr is the hardest feeling to describe you have to have gone through it to know how it feels.. and if you’re going through it right now you know exactly what I’m talking about.

Symptoms:
Not being able to remember things as easily as you could before.

Life just goes by in a blur.

You feel detached from reality.

Things aren’t as interesting as they were before.

Often mood swings.

Blanking out of conversations often.

Always staying in your head.

now please.. if you suffer from this as well you can get through this. I myself am fighting (hopefully winning) and I know you can fight too. It may be hard at times.. trust me I know.. but if you want to be better you HAVE to push through the hard times because it will be all worth it at the end.

@Zooch How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it

@Nataly Ramirez How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it

Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?

@D this describes very well how I feel too

Charlie  All depends on the person and how well they can manage it. Don’t google other people’s experience, it made mine way worse. Cause you’ll see some who beat it in a week...some who have had it their entire life. It’s all up to you. You got it.

I have had it for 6 months how long does it go for?

I personally suffer from a dissociative disorder called DID, and the way you described it is perfect.

Constantly dissociating rlly sucks and it can be rlly difficult to grip reality. Time loss is a huge issue and it can be rlly hard to function

Please stay strong ! I just came out of this and finally feel that I can connect. There is hope. You feel that nobody understands you but one day you will wake up and slowly come back to reality. I thought I was never going to come back to earth and keep feeling empty but it eventually goes away.

yeet Thank you for giving me a little bit hope again.I feels good to hear some motivating words in this difficult  period in my life.🙏🏼

Thank you... just, fucking thank you. I've felt insane, my god I've felt insane. I've felt so alone. It's so so fucking terrifying to me. Something I've never heard someone talk about is that they like... Idk it feels like I almost forget I'm awake during really bad episodes. Like, I start to calm down and my brain starts to forget the situation and then it clicks back on and I go into full on panic and it happens every 10-20 seconds. Its extremely hard to explain and maybe you've experienced that, maybe not? I don't know I still feel crazy and it feels so fucking lonely and you just... you can't describe it. I'm bawling because I feel like I'm the only one who feels this and I still fear and am paranoid I have something else and that I AM just crazy. I can't function when it gets really bad. I can't stand for too long or i'll fall... I don't know. Everything feels weird and it makes me wanna scream. It feels like I'm on some insane drug ( I'm not ). Anyways, this comment helped me so much because someone has felt what I've felt for the most part. I still feel like I'm losing my mind and I hope we BOTH can get through this.


This is the clarity I NEEDED!!! I’ve been going through this on and off for a few months and I’m glad I now know the difference. I literally feel like I’m floating through life right now. Everything is cloudy looking around me, sometimes looking in the mirror Idk who I’m looking at, and when I walk it’s like I’m waking on air. It really scares me because sometimes I think I have passed away and just living through my spirit smhh: someone please tell me I’m not the only one.


I’ve been dealing w derealization for a year now I think and it’s the scariest feeling and knowing someone else has it makes me feel more at ease

@Mahmoud Alsaraf 3 months so far, what caused yours and how old were you when it started

@Lily Stultz yes I have for one year and you

@Mahmoud Alsaraf I’m going through it currently as well, how long have you had it ?

@Lily Stultz How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it


I love those moments when a therapist explains something and the other persons face just shows them mentally going ohhhhh ya that makes sense


it’s scary to think that I experienced a brief moment of depersonalisation when i was probably 7 or 8. I remember looking at my hands and just thinking they, weren’t there, and that they weren’t attached to my body. now blown me 5 ish years later I’m experiencing it all the time! derealisation is something I experienced 24/7, now I experience it less but it’s still there; I just had an episode, probably the worst I’ve had of depersonalisations and it’s the scariest thing I have ever experienced and I absolutely hate it; felt like I was controlling my body from outside of me? Hard to explain, I didn’t feel like anyone, not like me; if I even know what ‘me’ is, looking in the mirror or looking at pictures of ‘me’ I don’t feel like that person, I don’t really feel like anyone. But hey ho gotta keep going I guess


I recently went through TMS for depression. I had never heard of it before. I’m so glad to hear that it isn’t just something I’ve been through. It does help. I hope it helps others as well.


Thank you so much for this video. I always struggled with understanding what's the "big trauma" in my life that caused my derealisation/depersonalisation but this made me realise like it could be small things, and I'm not just being dramatic. thank you. you don't understand how much this video helped me just understand. thank u ! :)<br>u two are my two favourite youtubers :)

Thank you so much for this video. I always struggled with understanding what's the "big trauma" in my life that caused my derealisation/depersonalisation but this made me realise like it could be small things, and I'm not just being dramatic. thank you. you don't understand how much this video helped me just understand. thank u ! :)
u two are my two favourite youtubers :)

it might not even be one or a few giant things! Could just be ur brain protecting itself from stress

I mean I guess you just have to wait it out. It took me a while to kinda get it to click. For a while I thought that I was just overthinking because I have a very active brain, but you like REALLY have to think back. Like Kati said, It could be very small things, and if they're small, maybe you forgot them. But I'm not a therapist or anything, so I might be wrong.

i still have no idea what triggered mine & its so annoying ugh

Yeah me too! I've realized that I always get derealisation whenever I leave my house, and this video enlightened me that This was probably because when I was little I depended on being with my parents and being all safe at my house, and whenever my mom wasn't around and I wasn't home I would flip out and cry, especially at pre-school. I have had a pretty calm life, and I'm not depressed or even have anxiety (I don't think haha) until this past year. When I realized derealisation was a thing I started to remember me thinking "I'm at home sleeping right now", and "When am I gonna wake up?" when I was like 4 or 5. (I'm almost 16). This video helped open my eyes even more, and realize a reason for how I feel.


Thank you for sharing this. I have a lot of friends who suffer from things all along the mental illness spectrum, and it really helps to know what could be going on and how i can help. I'm definitely sharing this <3


i'm so glad you talk about this!!
i've been struggling with derealization for like 2 years, triggered by weed. at first i thought it was because of something in weed that caused it, but it's the same (permanent) derealization as everyone else. now i know that i need to talk about surpressed things that happened in the past... it's kinda hard to remember or to talk about these, but maybe i'll just talk to my best friend about this - thanks for talking about this and spreading awareness, this is really important.
i'll go check out kati's channel now :)


I struggle with this as well. This video really helped. Thank you🌻🐝


Just realized that I deal with derealization depersonalization a few months back and have been having a hard time explaining to my boyfriend in my own words what it is and how it feels. This video helped a lot. xoxo


Thank you. That’s all I can say. Covering the freeze-derealization as well as schema. Thank you from another "all day derealization-er". (Who actually appreciates the derealization too)

How are you now and is this feeling gone forever What do you advise me to get rid of it


This is a great video! I realize now that even when I was really young, around 5 or 6 I felt both depersonzalization and derealization. I would be sitting in the car with mom while she drives somewhere and just space out and when I realize I spaced out, I would look at myself in the car mirror on the passenger side and just not feel like myself. I always tried to describe it to my pediatrician at the time, but I forget how I tried to describe it.

 Before I knew the word, I always said it felt as if "I'm a video game character and I'm not the one controlling my body." I would look at my hands and feel like I was in a first person shooter game and then look at myself in the mirror again and feel like my face wasn't mine and that I'm not me. It always scared me and still does because I feel like the space around me isn't real and I'm in some freaky simulation or something. I want to do something about it, so I'm going to bring up therapy again to my mom. Wish me luck ;^;

Caitlin Gomez-Makivirta well, how’s it been since then? i hope you’re doing better!! ^^ 🌸🖤🖤


I've experienced that a couple of years ago, and it was just terrifying. I had no idea of what was going on and I thought I was about to lose my mind. Now I see I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing that.


Thank you for this video, Doddie! I'm glad i'm not alone although i wouldn't wish this on anyone.  Sometimes people explain dissociation/dr/dp as something that happens for a period of time and you snap out of it then you feel real again whereas it's not like that for me. It literally never ends though it gets worse at times


i've been feeling exactly like this the last couple of weeks, i didn't know what it was or why it was happening and i'm not going to self diagnose myself, but thank you for making this video💛


Such a good video.
As part of my anxiety disorder, I’ve experienced both of these things and it’s awful.
It’s nice to see people talking so frankly about it.  I did a video recently talking about my anxiety experience and it was hard to talk about, so I commend you for doing this.


This is very helpful!! I have a dissociative disorder (including derealization/depersonalization) and it's very nice that you opened up about it!! DR/DP is very scary to experience sometimes and it's great that you're spreading knowledge.


Thank you for making this video (and just talking about you're experiences in general dodie), I suffer from all kinds of forms of disassociation and the scariest thing about it at first was that I had no idea what was going on and neither did anyone else so it just makes my heart smile that someone might see this video and be like "oh that's how I've been feeling", well done you guys great video, you're both amazing


I've been experiencing derealization/depersonalizations for as long as I remember. I often compare it to feeling asleep or going into autopilot. My brain has freaked out so much that it can't think anymore, and my body moves on it's own . I've had a few experiences where I'm sitting next to people- and they all seem so whole, they seem like a whole distinctive person that plays a specific role in my own life. Then I look at myself and don't see a whole person, or a real person, like I don't amount to the level of human they are (if that makes sense) I know I'm rambling, but I also experience times when I don't realize that I'm HERE, or present- I feel like if I said something to someone they wouldn't respond, or if I pushed someone nothing would happen.  I just don't feel awake  in a way- yesterday i wrote in my journal that I miss times that i was present, even if I was too present. I had a fairly rough childhood, I wasn't happy of course, but I felt THERE. It had a routine, with familiar faces and experiences every day. Now though, I'm to spaced out, everything seems unfamiliar and weird. This video helps loads ❤❤❤


this was so incredibly helpful,, thank you. i experience all of these mostly the derealization, the other two come out when i get really panicky. reading the comments has been so gorgeous because i feel not alonnnnne and now have good ways of describing it to people,, thank you dodie and katie :)


Honestly think this is one of my favourite videos you've ever done. It was so informative and it helped me understand derealisation/depersonalisation (which I too "suffer" from) far better than how doctors have explained it to me.


this video has really helped me. I have derealisation with bipolar, and recovering from anxiety disorder. I think it's great to get our voices heard with this!


I love how she said that depersonalization was REAL BAD and yet that’s what I have most frequently of the three 😂

same omg 😂 and I never brought it up to my therapist bc I’d always either forget or I’d dismiss it as not “bad enough” to talk to my therapist about


I've been suffering from dissociation for about three years now. I have watched every single one of Kati's videos on that topic (and many others ofc) and was so relieved when I found out what it is and that other people experience this too. When Dodie started to talk about herself feeling "spaced out" and how she finally got the same diagnosis as me, I was so unbelievably sad because seeing the same distress I am feeling in somebody else somehow made me realize that it really is like... BAD and I am not just over-sensitive and over-reacting.

Kati and Dodie are my favorite YouTubers and having them talk about my mental illness is a bit unreal (lol) but I just want them to know that they have helped me so much to accept and work on my mental health. I hope talking to Kati helped Dodie as much as me because she's so good at explaining ♡

@Aro Amygdala if you don’t mind me asking what age did it start for you and what caused it ? Have you seen any improvement?

@Aro Amygdala did you just now stop fighting the Dp after 4 years?

@Alberto Lombardi It is still chronic for me. Let's say I'm doing okay now, but just over one year ago I had to be in therapy and I was miserable. Because life genuinely doesn't feel worth living if you do not feel anything. You look around and everyone is experiencing stuff while you are watching from behind a glass wall.<br>I'm just at a point right now where I have stopped fighting to be normal and just life the only way I know how to.

@Alberto Lombardi It is still chronic for me. Let's say I'm doing okay now, but just over one year ago I had to be in therapy and I was miserable. Because life genuinely doesn't feel worth living if you do not feel anything. You look around and everyone is experiencing stuff while you are watching from behind a glass wall.
I'm just at a point right now where I have stopped fighting to be normal and just life the only way I know how to.

@Aro Amygdala so would you say you’re living well with it? And do you still experience it chronically if I may ask?

@Alberto Lombardi I don't want to be discouraging but I have to admit I haven't recovered yet. But I definitely have learned to live with the condition and I have somewhat accepted my fate.

Crazy to realise I commented this 4 years ago, it feels like only 4 months...

Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?

Awe :) I am so glad you found the video helpful and it's another reminder that you are not alone..and it can get better :) xoxo

Jam Brownies we're literally the same person omg

Jam Brownies I am so sorry it must be horrible to experience that all the time , I really hope you and Dodie get better , so sorry 💛

Yeah, that's why it's so important that we as a society can get better at talking about mental health, all ALL types of mental illness. There's nothing scarier that thinking you're alone with what you're feeling and experiencing. Hope you can find a treatment to help you!


Hey Dodie!
I have anxiety and panic issues and I related to this a lot. I really enjoyed this video as it was talking openly about mental health which is usually avoided. I just wanted to tell you I love you and this video. (your music is always on report)
Thank you so much x
-Anouk
Also were did you get your glasses they're so beautiful!!


Thank you so much. I have been suffering from anxiety for a few years but feelings like this have just started. I feel so much better knowing that there is a name and I am not going crazy. Please make another video about this!


I've been sitting in class for years and being spaced out and being so down I struggle to concentrate and this video has made things a lot clearer about what I may or may not have. Thank you ever so much


This entire video is SO informative and good! The thing I personally really latched onto was when you were talking about where derealization/depression/anxiety are in the brain. Because I get headaches in one specific spot when I've had an especially anxious week and it's the spot you mentioned anxiety lives; I've always wondered if they were connected!


I wasn't going to comment because I don't experience depersonalisation or anything like that (I closed the tab and everything) but then I realised how glad I am that you uploaded this video. As someone with no experience of this, it was really interesting and insightful, especially when some of the literature I've seen on it can be confusing, and now if I ever meet someone in this situation, I'll have at least a basic understanding of what they're going through, and that's awesome. <3

Marie yes! very important, one of the most important things to understand when it comes to supporting friends or loved ones because it can be a VERY uncomfortable time. i know i would’ve had a MUCH larger number of panic attacks this last year during dissociations if i hadn’t explained them to my S/O when we first started dating... he does what he can to comfort me physically and bring me back to reality but sometimes it’s hard because i’m too weirded out / scared / far away to talk to or be touched by anyone, but the biggest help is having someone there who knows what’s happening and IS there for the support WHEN the person experiencing dissociation needs it. Mad respect to you for caring about a hypothetical situation like that, people like you are why i still have faith in humanity


Thank you for this video! I’ve experienced derealization and depersonalization for over a decade now. I have some brief moments of reality. I’ve heard it described as loving behind a water fall and I feel this is the best comparison. When I first began to experience this I was terrified and panic and depression came with it. I’m so grateful that therapy and videos like this offer comfort and I don’t feel alone.


Thank you so much for talking about this so openly. It has made me realise a lot about myself and my own mental health issues. I didn't realise that a lot of stuff that goes on in my head is actually derealisation and a lot of my stuff is anxiety related but you being so open has really helped me, so thank you. Sending lots of love. Xxxx


Thank you for this video. We need to talk about these things more. I have depression and now I think I have ptsd/trauma from a period in my life that was insanely stressful and awful and it's caused me to have anxiety. I've also started to zone out a lot and a lot of time will go by before I realise what's happened.


THANK YOU for bringing this up. After having experienced this (in various degrees) for 8 years, sometimes thinking I was going crazy, I found out what it was about a year ago. Hopefully, now that you made a video about it other people who experience this won't have to wait as long as I did to find out.


i really needed to hear the part about trauma. i experience a lot of symptoms of mental illnesses that come from trauma but i always think i've never really been through anything but maybe there's a lot that i didn't realise. thanks for this video, it helped me quite a bit :)


I never had a word or explanation for the spaced out feeling I get occasionally I had a feeling it was something like what you experience I want to do more research in dissociation so I can know more thank you for sharing this video!❤


I almost started crying while watching this video because I felt so relieved to have someone clearly explain what I have been feeling for over a year now. I never fully understand why I felt so drawn to Dodie but I think it's because I related to her so much and this further proves that. Thank you for putting yourself out there and talking about something that society has deemed inappropriate to mention in public.


Thank you for sharing this aspect of your life with us Dodie. It takes a special kind of strength and you are helping thousands that won't have the resources to work out all these details for themselves.


I haven't watched yet but thank you for making this!! Videos about mental health issues can really help people with mental illness who want to relate or maybe think they might have a mental illness. It can also help for somebody who has a friend/relative with a mental illness who just wants to understand. Education about mental illness is important.


I've been struggling a lot with disassociation without really realizing it and this video really taught me a lot about what I might be struggling with, so thank you so that. I want to do more research so I can figure out what my next step is, but thank you for giving me this start.


Thank you so much for this video, it was incredibly informative. I cycle in between depersonalization and derealization, but the connection to trauma is something I was never told and it makes things a lot clearer. For example, I'm feeling better than i have in a year right now and I think it's because I just spent a month at home before going back to uni and, while I was home, I found myself reliving an array of traumatic experiences because of physical associations, some times to the point of having incredibly invasive thoughts. But I think that because I took that time and got used to being in that environment /with/ those memories, I now feel more connected to myself and my environment. Just little things, like noticing when there's a breeze, or paying attention to my body-- like realizing I have a head ache and then doing something about it instead of just wallowing without knowing why.


I saw you both at the mental health panel at VidCon last weekend, and I thought it was so somgood. I suffer from anxiety (which can cause depression for me), and have for most of my life, and being able to hear professionals and others who experience similar feelings was really inspiring and informative. So thank you so much ❤ <br>It was also really lovely to be able to see you in person, Dodie 😊 I hope I can meet you one day xx

I saw you both at the mental health panel at VidCon last weekend, and I thought it was so somgood. I suffer from anxiety (which can cause depression for me), and have for most of my life, and being able to hear professionals and others who experience similar feelings was really inspiring and informative. So thank you so much ❤
It was also really lovely to be able to see you in person, Dodie 😊 I hope I can meet you one day xx


You put into words everything I feel and i found out i had depersonalization/derealization a few years ago and when i tried to tell it to my brother he laughed at me because he didn't understand. I tried to tell multiple people yet no one i know experienced it. It's been happening pretty much my whole life because I remember when i was in elementary school I would not even recognize my teacher's face, and my surroundings always felt different even though that's how i spent almost 4 years of my life. It's been worse for the past few months and i don't know how to feel real anymore. Bpd causes dissociation so that's why i thought i had (bc i was diagnosed with bpd) what i had but honestly it never seems to end and i don't have mood swings anymore i just constantly feel detached from reality i feel like i don't exist and idk how to stop this


omg when you were talking about which side of the brain depression and anxiety are on, I realised that when I get chronic headaches/migraines on that side they must be anxiety induced (going to research more now lol). my anxiety is very physical - like I get proper sick.<br>also, I feel like I have suffered a minor form of depersonalisation for years now. it's so interesting learning all of this, because I nod my head and now I'm like "well, shit. that would explain everything lol". like what I said to you on twitter dodie, when I met you on Saturday I was spaced out too. happens all the time. but like you, there are little ways that I come back, an I don't get any disassociation terribly. I love that you talk about it. it is so insightful and it's helping to raise global awareness of these illnesses. xx

omg when you were talking about which side of the brain depression and anxiety are on, I realised that when I get chronic headaches/migraines on that side they must be anxiety induced (going to research more now lol). my anxiety is very physical - like I get proper sick.
also, I feel like I have suffered a minor form of depersonalisation for years now. it's so interesting learning all of this, because I nod my head and now I'm like "well, shit. that would explain everything lol". like what I said to you on twitter dodie, when I met you on Saturday I was spaced out too. happens all the time. but like you, there are little ways that I come back, an I don't get any disassociation terribly. I love that you talk about it. it is so insightful and it's helping to raise global awareness of these illnesses. xx

dilEmma  I personally can not relate but I hope you get better soon. And I'm also glad you are finding ways that help you understand this better. ❤


Wow, this was pretty eye opening. I always thought the therapist I had went to when I was younger was doing a weird type of CBT which had stopped me from seeking help again in the future cause I hated it so much, but I think it was EMDR instead. Something in your video just clicked and made me look it up and holy shit this changes things. I have been avoiding going to therapy again cause my previous one made me feel like I had to say something after each section and that I was somehow failing it. I might go back now...


dodie, I love these types of videos for (a) you openly telling us viewers about your condition, how it effects your life, and just not saying your always fine. (b) I find things dealing mental illness/disorders fascinating, I love learning what they are, the differences between them. And (c), how you're making these videos to help those people who also deal with derealization/depersonalization or any other mental illness.


@doddlevloggle I wish I would have known years ago that there was a word for not recognizing yourself. I've had this. And I had a few terrible experiences with it. This makes so much sense to me. Thank you for making this a known thing!


dodie thank you so much for making this video - i've been suffering from dissociation during my panic attacks for the past 7-8 years and i've never understood what exactly is happening during my panic attacks. I start to feel as if the world is not real and i feel my mind push into universes and universe away from my body and the only way for me to snap back to reality is by screaming from the sheer fear of the experience. It gets really bad during times of high stress and i've had years of therapy to help talk about my feelings to help destress, but i still get them. I just never knew how to diagnose it and didn't realise that someone, especially someone who i look up as a musician, experiences the same/similar mental illness. so THANK YOU SO MUCH for making this video, you have finally given me closure. ily


Thank you for making this video,i've had this feeling for so long i can't even remember.Everyone wrote it off as an odd little quirk,even my psycologist and i never found proper treatment for it,it would keep me awake at night and often leave me crying for hours before going to sleep,i find that for me it mostly happens when im in isolation with my own thoughts.


I've been rewatching this video and Kati's for the past five days and it is really helping me. For a year leading up to me discovering  Dodie I was diagnosed with DP/ Derealisation, Chronic Anxiety, and PTSD. I never felt really understood or connected to someone with my mental state before I found her. Now we're two years into being a regular doddle and I couldn't be happier. I have amazing friends and family that are considerate and tender with my mentality and I am constantly working towards bettering myself and becoming more educated on the subject!


Thank you!! I understand what I've been through the past five years! This have saved my life I guess because I've never understood what it was. I've been through a lot but my mental health is so much better. I needed this knowledge. Love.<33


This video makes me tear up because I remember the first time I was diagnosed with this and started therapy for it. It was the first time I felt understood. Unfortunately my therapist moved and i haven't been able to find another one as good as her since. For anyone going through it, it is utterly terrifying. I have had seizures because of it as well as full out panic attacks. I wish there were more support groups for things like this so we don't feel as though we are so alone.


I really hope you're feeling okay, You deserve absolute endless joy and happiness and you have helped so many people through so much. Please never forget how much you mean to all of us. One day it'll all be okay.


My friend was talking about how she sometimes feels like she's dreaming. She says it usually happens when nothing's happening and then something suddenly does. It never affects her in a negative way, but I'm not sure if it's related to depersonalisation.


I’ve been putting off watching this video for months and I wasn’t sure why until right now that I’ve finished it. Literally I was scared to think I had another problem or issue and I realise through dodie and kati talking about it that I do experience dissociation and that’s real and someone will understand so thank you and I guess I’m gonna see if I can book another appointment to talk about it❤


Thank you for this, Dodie. You have helped me realize I suffer from derealisation/depersonalization AND dissociation (that I already knew I have), and just THANK YOU SO MUCH. I feel the same on this sooooo much.

Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?


I used to think I might have DPDR but then realized I just dissociate when I'm under a lot of stress or have a panic attack sooo... Thank you so much for talking about this! Way more people need to know about it.


I found the part about the marble really helpful actually, don't get me wrong, reliving trauma isn't fun, but looking at it that way helped


Derealization is something that I used to feel constantly until some time after high school. Sometimes it comes back and I hate it and don't miss it. Seeing people in the comments compare it being high is interesting and a relief to me because that's one reason I hate getting high. Dodie is lovely and I'm sorry that she has to deal with this condition. I hope she'll have a treatment help her someday if she hasn't already. It's so nice to be able to have a clear mind. 💜💜💜


I am so thankful for this video! It really helps me feeling like I am not alone, and it is perfectly ok to have derealisation and depersonalisation. Thank you soo much!!


This past year I’ve been diagnosed with ptsd, depression and dissociation. The dissociation always hits me when I speak of my traumas. It really freaks me out, but I’m getting help. If there’s anyone else out there who struggles with similar issues - you’re not alone. You’re strong. You can do this. I believe in you. ❤❤❤❤❤


WOW this was so educational! Thank you for making a video about this. People should be more aware of these mental illnesses and know how to handle it when they encounter someone with it.


i don't have any of depersonalization or anything at all but i hate when people touch me to calm me. it makes me feel claustrophobic and just annoyed. however, i love touching something. for example, i used to have this shell necklace and whenever i was stressed in anyway i would just put my thumb in it and rub it and it calmed me down a lot.

julia thornton  i get this too. if i’m dissociating or anxious and someone touches me in general i get SUUUUPER stressed and just freak out a little.

julia thornton yeah kinda same but it’s more like I can’t touch anything. Like I need away from everything and something touching me or me touching things makes me feel trapped and can usually cause me to panic more:/

I hug my pillow or any cat.  My friend got so confused when I was just petting her cat quietly.

i get that too! or i hate it when people touch me and i always like tense up or flinch away and if it gets to much i get a panic attack (doesn't usually happen often since i usually get too panicky or annoyed that i tell them to stop or just run like 5 feet away) i tried explaining this to people but everyone says that over time i'll be okay or just doesn't take it seriously

SO DO I I just can't stand when people touch me and I don't know why and I hate when people comfort me

spankeyfish idk if i would go that far but i sometimes feel like it's claustrophobic but with people idk tho i'm no doctor

Same it makes me really uncomfortable but I've never been to therapy before I've never been diagnosed with anything although i feel everything dodie talks about in this video (i will go to therapy when im older probs)

julia thørntøn I realate it doesn't always annoy me but most of the time yes it feels scary and uncomfortable

halfstar hmm that's very interesting and cool. I also think my thing is more in the lines of social anxiety like u were saying. i hate public speaking of any type and even being in the hallway with everyone pushing and shoving and me trying to get my books and someone trying to talk to me stresses me out. Yes the shell has helped me so much and like u were saying again it doesn't harm me unlike what other people will do.

i used to get that exact thing as a child, and my small cousin has it a lot. His parents realised this and explained this to their doctor. Im not saying this is a bad thing but the doctor said, some cases of minor Autism include these symptoms. (see he hated being with a lot of people at one time, he didnt like people touching him, he fiddled A LOT , and he had OCD (especially with his beloved stationary ) ) and he was hence, diagnosed with autism. IM NOT SAYING YOU HAVE AUTISM. Maybe it could be just a pet-peeve, and sometimes we grow out of those things. Maybe if you suffer from any type of social anxiety, that may affect how you react to that type of empathetic physical contact. Maybe its just belittling to you? Its great that you had something to calm you down that doesn't affect your health though :) i have a necklace as well that i still use to this day :) (rather i use it to relieve my stress when im nervous about an upcoming exam etc.)


Thanks for this Dodie! Makes me feel less alone to hear from someone who actually knows about what I'm also experiencing. You're a glittering dewdrop on a spring flower-petal 😚🌸 Hope you're coping ok this week. You're really generous to share so much of your life and energy with the public when you have so much to contend with. Keep on blooming, flower; remember to save some of that warmth and light for yourself though, that's really important; unfurl those beautiful petals and flourish for  yourself, by yourself, first. Sending big fluffy supportive hugs. Ed xx


Thank you for this. I've had depersonalisation for 2 years now and the need to talk to someone who understands weighs me down so much- this lightens that load and makes me feel less alone. I can't say thank you enough!

Heyyy was just wondering if you recovered?


Thank you for sharing with us, Dodie, and for being honest and transparent even though it can be scary to share. You talking about your mental health is helping to end the stigma so thank you! xx


I experience very heavy derealization. I watched you a lot a few years back and didn’t really understand what you were taking about when you explained depersonalization/derealization, but now I experience derealization almost constantly. Thank you for talking about this.

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loved the description of the childhood "little Ts" as i've never really thought about it in that way before!


I'm starting my first day of therapy tommorow. Someone times in my day I feel like my personality or like my person is disconnected from my body and I feel like I'm watching myself and not actually living. So I'm excited for my therapy here's hoping it works


Thank you for this video. I had never known this was a thing but watching the video I learned about it. Then I experienced a little bit of derealisation for a couple of weeks and I wasn't scared because I knew that someone else had felt it too and there was a name for it. So thank you!!!


This is so interesting and helpful, I hope you're able to make some progress Dodie!


I didn't watch this until now because of VidCon and jet lag, but I'm so thankful that this was made. As someone who struggles with all three of those at times, it can feel even more alienating that I don't know anyone else in my personal life who knows what I'm going through. I'm thankful for you talking about hard mental health things, you are incredible.


Omg thank you Dodie. I am new subscriber and have been binge watching your videos. I’m not self diagnosing but now I finally know what that weird feeling of not feeling like myself and feeling like I’m not in my own body or someone else being in my body (depersonalization) I used to have it frequently when I was younger but I thought it was just a part of growing up as well as now I have episodes sometimes and my mother just tells me it’s puberty seeing that I’m 13. 🤷🏽♀


Im in the beginning stages of treatment for derealization and depersonalization currently. Thank you soooo much for making this a video.


This was SO wonderful. Your connection is so sweet, really complement each other. Also very validating and insightful.  THANK YOU!


I just want one day of feeling normal, no dizzyness, not feeling stoned, not having anxiety in my chest and the feeling that my stomach is pulling itself together. I never appreciated soberness when I had it.


This video couldn't have come at a better time. For the past few days, I've been going through I guess disassociation/derealization where everything feels like dream or like I'm not really here. Almost as if everything is on a different frequency than me. I used get episodes like this when I was I think thirteen or fourteen during a rough year of my life. It used to come in bouts throughout high school, but by the time I left, I never really experienced it much. Now I'm going through a lot of stress and anxiety and this episodes are coming back again. <br>This video was really helpful and I suddenly feel like people understand me. I remember in school when I used to explain this to friends and they wouldn't understand.

This video couldn't have come at a better time. For the past few days, I've been going through I guess disassociation/derealization where everything feels like dream or like I'm not really here. Almost as if everything is on a different frequency than me. I used get episodes like this when I was I think thirteen or fourteen during a rough year of my life. It used to come in bouts throughout high school, but by the time I left, I never really experienced it much. Now I'm going through a lot of stress and anxiety and this episodes are coming back again.
This video was really helpful and I suddenly feel like people understand me. I remember in school when I used to explain this to friends and they wouldn't understand.


Dodie inspired me to cut off all my hair and donate it, I’ve been I love with her short hair for ages, however because I have very thin hair, I cut my hair a lot shorter [literally half way up my neck] and I love it so much. I’ve never felt so confident c:
I have successfully donated 8 inches of hair to Little Princess Trust. Thank you Dodie <3

Dodie inspired me to cut off all my hair and donate it, I’ve been I love with her short hair for ages, however because I have very thin hair, I cut my hair a lot shorter [literally half way up my neck] and I love it _so_ much. I’ve never felt so confident c:
I have successfully donated 8 inches of hair to Little Princess Trust. Thank you Dodie <3


After the first minute I was absolutely sure that this is what I'm dealing with right now. Everything feels like a dream, as if I'm not "here". <br>I was getting really scared because I thought I was going completely crazy. But I feel hopeful now, thank you!

After the first minute I was absolutely sure that this is what I'm dealing with right now. Everything feels like a dream, as if I'm not "here".
I was getting really scared because I thought I was going completely crazy. But I feel hopeful now, thank you!


It is so crazy to realize that the person that inspires you the most and helps you through your hard times, also is struggling too. Thank you so much for always being the channel I turn to for motivation and inspiration, Dodie.


I was recently told but my psych all my symptoms sound like depersonalization and derealization. I have been to nervous to look more into it and I found your video by looking it up, thank you! It's starting to get even worse for me, when it fist started it was pretty bad I would be thinking I was in a whole another state and then when I came to I didn't know who my coworkers were. I had my first day of internship today and it progressed. I thought there were people in the room when there wasn't and other things happened it's just a lot. My psych didn't give solutions and now I'm in back in school several states away from my psych so I'm going to have to wait for any additional meds or anything. I'm on Zoloft and a high dose for my depression but it doesn't even touch the depersonalization or derealization symptoms it doesn't seem.


this was so interesting,,
i've learnt so much and have related to some of the symptoms. i am depressed, i have mild anxiety. i'm not sure whether i should be worried or not?? but hey. thank you for the information, both of you :)

sending love!!💛🌼

JungkookIsMyBiasYall don't worry :) if you Feel like you have some of this symptoms just talk about it. Maybe with a therapist or just someone you trust. And it can be treated just like any other mental illness


I spend my entire day in a state of derealization.  I get so lost in daydreams that I'll suddenly 'wake up' while I'm walking through the grocery store and be startled by where I am.  I also escape through video games too much to the point where my body doesn't feel like mine when I stop playing.  Trying to work on fixing this now.


thank you for the video, dods♡
I've been having trouble identifying myself and have been getting my dreams and reality mixed up, like i remember seeing something somewhere but idk if it was a dream or reality. I think I might have a lil bit derealisation but maybe not because my understanding of english isn't that great lol. But at least now I know more about my brain and the things that happen to me so I won't get too panicked the next time I space out(usually when I space out it gets really weird and everything's blur but very clear at the same time, and everything moves so quickly but in a not very smooth way(?) and I get scared like "What the heck happened to this world whAt") so yeah thanks for the vid dods♡♡
sorry for ranting and talking about myself too much here haha but I felt like I needed to♡


Omg, my boyfriend has DPDR and this video was so helpful! No wonder he loves my cold hands and surprise-cuddles. And the bracelets! It all makes so much sense. But all jokes aside, as a person trying to support someone with these conditions this video was incredibly informative. Thank you for talking about this!


When I was in school I used to dissociate all the time, but I didn't know what it was until I was in counseling working through my PTSD. <br>I don't dissociate much anymore, but I do deal with depersonalization and panic attacks still.

When I was in school I used to dissociate all the time, but I didn't know what it was until I was in counseling working through my PTSD.
I don't dissociate much anymore, but I do deal with depersonalization and panic attacks still.


Not related to the title of the video, but I just wanted to thank Dodie for her music. Lately, life has been so stressful and I pretty much cried all week. But your music, Dodie, helped me cheer up. I haven't felt this too often with other artists. Thanks for both your EP's because nothing has made me happier than these 2 masterpieces. Thank you, Dodie. ❤🌟

Awwww, thank you! 💕 I hope all your problems are solved and all your dreams come true. Much love to ya! 🌟

•Gaille Britto• I hope you start feeling better soon! Just remember that everything is going to be ok!


I was listening intently - and of course smiling or laughing at the fun / funny parts. But from 07.30 onward - it just hit me so hard that I was crying while watching until the end. (I just finished watching it and would rewatch it and reprocess the thoughts) Thank you so much for sharing this, I know that I have always experienced life differently because of a collection of a lot of little Ts and a couple of big T's. It's just so real - what Kati said - it's how it felt like - like a couple of memory orbs got smashed. And later on when I finally found someone I could trust and love  - the traumatic memory was triggered. And a lot of reactions and actions took place after. And until now, to be honest, I deal with all the ts in my past but I tell /remind myself that I can overcome everything that's happened and I can forgive. I hope we can all feel love and hope at the end of each day - no matter how we decide to heal. And yes, talking to a circle helped me lessen the burden or pain that I've felt when I suddenly remembered. Thank you Dodie, Im glad I came across one of your songs last year and lingered and watched most of your videos.


I HAVE THIS. I've had it so often for as long as i can remember I always thought it was normal and kind of weird but normal. Thank you so much for talking about it Dodie or else I never would've known it isn't normal


I feel like someone actually understands.


I most definitely have derealisation and occasionally it elevates to depersonalisation and I believe that it’s been happening to me all of my life as there’s a couple moments I can specifically remember aged 6 for example, where my vision would become extremely blurred and I couldn’t focus on what the teacher was saying and I didn’t feel alive. However I can’t think why as I don’t think I’ve been through any trauma? It happens to me every time I’m at a shopping centre, almost every day at school and to be honest in random places and at random times...