Omg that's so weird I didn't know that EMDR doesn't work if we are experiencing derealisation, I had the exact same experience it was awkward and I didn't feel safe or right. That's so good to know, I thought I was doing something wrong too.


I’ve been dealing with this for about 4 months now. It’s more bearable now, but I still have it 24/7. I’m trying to get over it but it’s so difficult when it’s always there and nobody has any direct answers.. 😩


I experienced this sort of, after my dad died and my life changed a lot (going to uni, moving away). But it wasnt so strong, just feeling like this wasn't my 'old normal life' and so it just wasn't real. It has gone away mostly now I am busier and seeing friends more. I don't think it was exactly the same but just dissociating and spacing out.


I always thought something was wrong with me, I'm so happy that someone else feels like this


This was very informative! It took me superlong to finish watching this video. I have ADD and since this is just talking and explaining stuff - even though it's interesting and I want to know these things - it was hard to concentrate on it in one go. But the beauty with videos is that I can turn it off, come back later, rewind a minute for context and try again... But this was really really interesting!! I've definitely had depersonalised episodes, not sure about dissociation? And the whole derealisation... well there's something to look into with my therapist next week


I'm getting therapy next week. Yay.

EDIT: OH MY GOSH. I went great... I have two more scheduled this month. I really love my therapist. She's great. 😊 (It also turns out I have bipolar depression!)


Suffered from this around 10 years ago when I was on holiday. Led to me suffering anxiety and panic attacks constantly for years ..
Haven’t suffered for years until last week where I was away with the family and I just zoned out while we were out eating . Next thing I’m having a panic attack :/ the next few days we’re awful. Worst I’ve felt since initial spout .
It’s been 4 days now and the panic attacks have gone probably due to medication but still suffering with derealisation :(


I always feel like I’m not in control of my own body and that I constantly forget what I’m doing or how I got into a situation. It usually happens to me when I’m tired or traveling, but it’s started to happen really often.


this was so helpful! it's help me figure out myself and now I can learn to grow from it !


I have lived with the condition all my life and being undiagnosed is like having a guilty secret.😧 I haven't felt comfortable explaining this disorder with anyone, even a UK doctor. I feel if this is widely discussed and awareness is raised that many sufferers may find relief that their condition is recognised, but some may feel utter embaressment and go on suffering in silence. It would be just another mental illness stigma to them like the anxiety and depression they're already dealing with, these are 2 things that are obviously feeding dp/dr. Then there may be some who think they suffer from it but maybe not fully understand what the condition is as they have only felt a milder temporary version due to a hangover or lack of sleep.  Then the awareness becomes diluted and it creates a situation where people will exaggerate their feeling to gain attention, so true sufferers will go further into their matrix. A bit like those who say they have ocd, when really it's that they're just picky about being tidy or neat, they don't suffer the repetitive habits a true sufferer goes through.  I think when you feel it's truly affecting your daily life to the point you are frightening  yourself e.g driving a car and putting yourself in danger then help must really be sought. I am going to see my Dr soon to try and explain it for the first time. I find this video helpful and appreciate all the coping techniques mentioned. I don't feel Meds are the answer but definitely cutting out caffeine alcohol is recommended, they say excercise is good too. Needless to say I do all the opposite of the above ! 😑😉


Hey dodie,
I think I struggle with depersonalization quite frequently. I only recently found out that what I often feel has a name. For as long as I can remember I have felt my brain move my body away almost like I am floating just behind/above my body whilst I move and continue on. My earliest memory of feeling like this was when I went camping about 10 years ago and I woke up the next morning and it was like I was looking at my body and every time I moved I felt like someone else and everything around me was just so weird and like a dream, just like how you described derealisation.

I've been following you for a while now and have always had that thought in the back of my mind about 'whether I could be experiencing the same thing as you' but I always pushed it to the back of my mind. After watching this video, I'm almost 100% sure I am experiencing it. I'm definitely going to do more research to find out if I do actually experience depersonalization and derealisation.

Thank you so much for making this video and I wish you good luck in dealing with your mental health.
Much Love
Kayleigh x


I can't think of any trauma I've experienced but I used to get derealization / depersonalization ever since I was a kid. Haven't got it in ~a year now though!


I wrote a paper for psychology on derealisation and depersonalisation and this video really helped thank you! I love you DODIE!


I had psychosis due to taking corticosteroids for my auto immune illness, and on top of that I have minor depression which made my psychosis worse... The thing is, after I finished steroids I had to take anti psych meds, along with something to stop my tremors, which was a horrible experience... Since then, I've felt the way you described as "depersenolization", because since I took all of those pills, I felt as though life is just a blurred picture..


1:10 Ahh I have the same 3 :) and yeah at 8:30 touch is amazing, pulls me out too. Thank you so much to the both of you 💕☺ wishing you the best


Thank you so much for this video! I was starting to think this was me. Thank you so much I can't even begin to explain how thankful I am for this video


Dissociation hits hard for me, Not only do I zone out in tough situations, But just randomly in the middle of being with friends, Talking to people, Etc.<br>I didn't know if it was just stress, My terrible sleep schedule, Or something else, But now when I look back on my younger days and remember my parents telling me off for spacing out when I'm stressed over a math question, It makes a lot more sense haha

Dissociation hits hard for me, Not only do I zone out in tough situations, But just randomly in the middle of being with friends, Talking to people, Etc.
I didn't know if it was just stress, My terrible sleep schedule, Or something else, But now when I look back on my younger days and remember my parents telling me off for spacing out when I'm stressed over a math question, It makes a lot more sense haha


i have had dpdr since the beginning of october. it kinda appeared out of nowhere however i do recall having existential thoughts regarding whether or not other people were real or robots when i was very young. i think the dpdr has stemmed from trauma starting when i was 10 when i had issues with predators online multiple times, of which i obsessed over and tortured my self over and constantly worried that someone would show up at my door who found me from online to kidnap me (i still worry about it now) so after 4 years of constantly doing this, i looked in the mirror and didnt recognize myself. my triggers are thinking about the dpdr and death. i have also shown symptoms of high functioning depression. i feel like i can forget about the past and move on but my dpdr is stopping me. i'm scared to tell my parents because me or them would have never guessed that something like this would happen. i think that another reason i have dpdr is cause i've been on my computer every day since i was 7. I like being on my computer cause its like i get sucked into another world and i can forget about all of my problems (i get really bad derealization after a while of being on the computer.) how do i tell my parents?


I hate having derealisation and depersonalisation but it's getting better! Also what treatments do you have ?? ❤❤❤ please reply!<br>I think I got it from trauma of something and that happened 2 years ago and I still have depersonalisation 😭

I hate having derealisation and depersonalisation but it's getting better! Also what treatments do you have ?? ❤❤❤ please reply!
I think I got it from trauma of something and that happened 2 years ago and I still have depersonalisation 😭

@Eseosa Osagiede nope I'm Christian. Felt God's presence. Been on fire for god and loved it. I got traumatised by unpardonable sin took me about a year to get over it. Ever since that trauma I've had this problem.

@La Folia God bless you all Jesus loves you

@sujal sharma im trying to leave DP/DR, i will send u an email

What you guys need is Spiritual intervention because what you’re going through is spiritual. If you feel as though you’re out of your body and in another realm then that’s certainly the case because bible makes that very clear in the book a Ephesians 6:12 that there’s two realms a physical realm and spiritual realm. If you ever find your self out side your body in the realm of the sprit and some else controlling your body in the physical realm then it’s certainly a demon who has possessed your body hence why you find your self watching yourself !!! Jesus Christ can certainly set you free and give you the peace that you’ve so longed for!!!!

Mood stabilizer for migraines, writing, exercise anxiety and talking about it

I've heard of vegetarians using Flax seed oil instead of fish oil, maybe try that instead if you're really against it. I've heard a LOT of supplement regimens for DP/DR and I have a suspicion it depends on what condition is underlying DP/DR. I've heard of people using Melatonin to reset their sleep to bust their way out. I've heard wheatgrass being used by someone who has a Hypothyroidism. I've heard that Low testosterone could be a cause. Low levels of Zinc, Selenium & B6. Inositol & Theanine. I couldn't list them all, but there's a couple more if you havent tried them :)

I'm vegetarian but fish oil is the one exception I allow, I struggled with it for awhile but it's what's best for my health, I got all mine at Whole Foods because they cary really high quality products and are super helpful at pointing out which are the highest quality and work the best, I take them all once a day btw, I hope it helps you!

dodie you replied to my comment technically !

I'm vegan so I cant have fish products but that really helps! :D
Fish get there omega 3 from eating algae and we can have that too!
I'm going to try and find those supplements and see if they help

Magnesium, Gaba Calm, Methyl B12, Methyl Folate, and Fish oil that is formulated specifically for brain health

I have both as well and saw a psychiatrist a couple months ago and she is having me take dietary supplements that are for brain health and it is working so well, my symptoms used to be borderline unbearable and now I feel so much better, I've been doing the supplements for 3 months highly recommend


I actually came to your channel to browse the music (btw, I L.O.V.E it), but found this off topic gem. I used to have this. I was quite the journey to overcome it. God bless anyone going through this and just keep in mind, it gets better!!!


My therapist works with a part of the schema therapy with me and I feel like it's the best thing I tried so far. It helps me a lot.


Wait a minute... is this why I randomly remember/ obsess over things I did/ said, or other people did/ said to me when I was younger? Mind. Blown.


I had really bad derealisation when I was younger, it’s not as common now though. The only thing that is consistent now is that my face looks completely different day to day. That is so true that you can never open your eyes wide enough, when I was younger I would get so frustrated because nothing ever looked real enough, but I eventually just accepted it.


Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?

Kati Morton it really was; thank you so much 💗

Special Kay ok this is weird, you almost have the same channel name as me😂

Space Dun thank you, you're all so lovely 💗

Elisa In Wonderland I listen to it every day, it's so healing😌

Special Kay if you ever need to talk I'm here xx

listen to i have a secret for the mad. it will get better. xxx

Special Kay thank you, honestly has been a rough day. Hope you are doing ok💖

Katie Gagnon much love from one sufferer to another ❤


I struggled with depersonalisation, dissociation and severe anxiety a few years ago, like you I had it 24/7 and it became such a problem that I couldn't carry on with everyday life. After trying a lot of things, I found that the only thing that would help was distraction and it's eventually what helped me get out of that place.
I'd do things like painting or making bracelets, it really helped me focus on reality and get out of that weird haze.
Sometimes it's really simple things that can make a massive difference!

Thank you for this video, it helped me understand a lot more of what I went through <3


Derealization is the hardest thing I have ever been through. I can't remember anything ever and never feel real. I feel I have a slight headache all the time. Focus is never here and I am very happy when I am focused. School is extremely hard in that way


Omg I had this on a few occasions. Specifically back in 9th grade we went on a field trip and a couple hours in I felt really weird. Like as if I was dreaming. I felt like I was floating but I knew I was walking. Everything around me felt like it was moving too fast for me to understand. I could move my body and whatnot but it was almost like I was telling someone else what to move for me. If that makes any sense. I was in control but not really. I freaked out and told one of my friends during the trip but they thought I was crazy. I’ve had that feeling a few times after that but never as severe.


I think I have moments of dissociation/derealization, where I'll zone out or start thinking too deeply about things going on. I'll start to question myself and be like, "But what if this is all a dream? Is this even real? Am I real? What is reality? What if I'm just some figment of someone else's imagination?" It's like a mini existential crisis. It normally lasts only a few minutes, but I've done this ever since I was a kid (age 26 now). I don't think I've ever experienced depersonalization, but I've definitely felt like I've been in a dream and in a fog moving through life sometimes. I've never felt disconnected from my body before or like the person I see in the mirror isn't me, but I would say I've had derealization throughout my life at times.


I'm literally crying right now. I had no idea that it had a name. I thought I was just stupid and lazy and occasionally losing my damn mind. I totally feel the thing about not being able to open your eyes wide enough. I never even brought that up to anyone because I didn't even know how to explain it. I can't remember anything because I'm just in this constant fog. Feels similar to being high, or like you said drunk, all the time. These feelings are so scary and so isolating (especially the depersonalization) when you don't know what's happening or why or that other people actually feel this bizarre way too and its not just you. Thank you so much for making this.


This has calmed me down, I’ve had a few traumatic experiences but hasn’t really triggered anything until now when I really started to worry about doing my A-Levels and getting into universities. I’ve had close family passing away, everyone around me not being true and sexual assault etc... but going through college has triggered a feeling/ thought of ‘I don’t know myself, this doesn’t feel real anymore, I don’t feel anything’ I also have really happy highs and really sad lows but when I try and describe it it feels more than just being sad or having a mood swing, once I started to try and understand my feels it again feel more than being sad, it feels heavy and familiar, but I’m not sure where to go or who to speak to


I kind of had depersonalisation when the girl I was dating suddenly cut me off. I felt like my mind and body were split. I woke up one night feeling a leg and felt it was really skinny. I then felt their ribs and felt it was boney. I was wondering whose it is and I realised I was sleeping alone and that I was touching my own leg and ribs. It was really scary. I still sometimes experience it when I look at the mirror.


Thank you for sharing. Its been a year since I have depersonalisation/derealisation. Its difficult to cope, I want to feel normal again. If anyone have found the solution please share. It will be a great help. Thanks.


Thank you for making this video, it really helped me to feel less alone


I just spent 2 weeks at a mental hospital and i was brought there because i have really bad Derealisation and depersonalisation. <br>Knowing that dodie also had that, makes me feel a little better about it. This video was like a nice headpat telling me im gonna be fine.

I just spent 2 weeks at a mental hospital and i was brought there because i have really bad Derealisation and depersonalisation.
Knowing that dodie also had that, makes me feel a little better about it. This video was like a nice headpat telling me im gonna be fine.


I'm here because i'm still figuring out what is wrong with me. I really want to seek help but my parents wouldnt let me as they think people that go to psychologists are crazy.
Apparently i'm experiencing what you described about derealization but i feel like there's also an inner fight within my brain.
My derealization part is that during these last years i think i've been surrounded by constant stress especially the whole 2016 and the end of 2017 and start of 2018. The end of 2017 was full of stress because i'm constantly thinking about the future and that freaks me out to the point i cry. Also i had two days straight of constant stress and it had my whole body hurting during a whole week or even a bit more. It was horrible. Then the 2nd of January i became paralyzed for a few minutes but i felt like a dream for a few days straight too.

I have some notes too about some things i wrote back in 2017 that said that i literally felt nothing and I still feel that to this day. Nothing feels real to me and i've kind of lost track of the present bc of this, and i still get anxious about the future. A few weeks ago my safe place (my bedroom) became completely invaded by my brother and now i feel like i have nowhere to hide from myself/the world.

Going back to what i said about the fight within my brain, i'm constantly feeling weird in a sense i can't really describe but that i shout at myself for being how i am (or one part of my brain is). I feel like i have two sides of my brain fighting, and they are complete opposite as if one side was happy but the other one wants the other side to shut up.

I also can't express myself, but i wanted to let it all out and maybe someone out there might find this interesting or something.


@doddleoddle Derealization is talked about in the song "Anziety" by Logic, if you haven't heard it. Thank you for making this video <3


Ahhhh so glad to see you do a video with Kati! FAVES ❤


Years of emotional abuse from infancy caused both my little Ts and big Ts.  There were more explosive moments that very obviously scarred me.  I'm autistic and dealt with a lot of abusive "therapies" and terrible home life situations.  In addition, I used to not have a voice about any of it.  I couldn't advocate for myself.

It's taken me seven years of weekly therapy to get where I am now, and I understand myself much better, but I have a loooong way to go.  The little Ts that built up over time are actually harder to deal with in therapy because you have to dig to even find them before you can actually deal with them.


I have derealization, which to me is very upsetting, I feel as if I am floating through the days and months, I can't remember a lot of September and even October... because of a person, and me devoting all of my emotional and mental capacity to him ... contact for me is key. And the marble analogy almost made me cry... Regardless, thank you dodie


I ended up dissasociating and feeling like nothing was real and I never knew where I was or what was going on after a really hard time and my therapist explaining that it can be "the brains parachute" helped me get over it and realized that I wasn't broken or strange.


Oh my gosh the way she explains trauma makes SO MUCH SENSE!


me: "i have a lot of homework"
dodie uploads
me: "homework? who is she? she can wait"

me: "i have a lot of homework"
*dodie uploads*
me: "homework? who is she? she can wait"

Jadon Armon if only my words could slap you... You would know that slipping into illiteracy is not a brag


This was so interesting and clear, thank you for sharing!!


Stay strong guys, never give up, you are stronger than depersonalization

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Oh my god... I need to go get checked, because I always feel like everything is a blur and sometimes when I panic too much I can't see properly or see even my hands. It's so weird. Thank you dodie 💞


Small T's thing and derealisation thing explained a lot (I knew about depersonalisation but I knew it didn't affect me or at least not frequently but this forced me to think about what I'm feeling and put names to what I didn't know how to explain but I experience) thank you


I never really thought of myself as derealized but now that you've described it, I really associate myself as feeling that way. I'll space out completely and my body will feel like it's been put into a worm hole and my brain will make me feel like I'm suddenly flying backwards and that I'm not really there. I space out easily even though I know what's going on and if someone is talking to me, but it just feels strange. I've felt this way for a while now and idk. Would anyone else think this would explain how I feel???

Equoise I've had anxiety for a long while now and I always seem to feel this way when I either have a panic attack or when I'm having a particularly anxious day. I just kinda learned to try and cope wit the feeling cuz I thought it was normal. I've had a spiraling downhill of medical and mental problems lately and they only seem to be getting worse. I had an entire week of severe depersonalization. My hands felt so strange and I felt like I was going in and out of daydreaming and jolting back every minute or so.

Morgan Cloutier general rule of thumb is that if it's having a significant impact on your life (eg. Making you feel depressed or anxious, stopping you from doing things you need or want to do, generally holding you back) then it's a problem that you should look into getting help for. If not and you feel that you can deal with it, then that's fine, it's normal to feel a bit dissociated every now and then 😊


Thank you for this video! I didn’t know anyone else who had this and I felt crazy.


ive had bad anxiety and panic in my life but I've had one instance of derealization. I felt like I was in the twilight zone, or like a dream and it was really creepy. I felt like everyone was a simulation or robots and just like a really eerie weird feeling. It was so so so weird.


For the first time I dissociated an event this last week. A friend was in a car accident and i witnessed it all in my rearview. It was terrifying- I thought he was dead. I vividly remember detail and images, but throughout the experience never felt present. Even now a week later It doesn't feel like an even that happened. I wonder if derealisation is something that ive had, and this event only magnified it. For some time now I feel somewhat absent minded, and can't remember most of my day or week. Only more recently have I looked into it more but I dont know where I am as far as set label i guess.


I don’t think I’ve ever been in any sort of trauma, but i’m almost certain I have derealization/depersonalization. I constantly feel like I’m dreaming, or like someone else is controlling my body and i’m just watching a movie screen. sometimes i don’t recognize my own voice and i get freaked out but my body keeps talking anyway, or i’ll go to the bathroom and do a double take because i don’t recognize the person in the mirror. i feel like i’m floating and the world is two dimensional and i can barely remember my life. my memories don’t feel like my own. i’m terrified and i tried telling my therapist and she just said it was anxiety and to pay more attention to the things around me. i’m scared to tell my friends and family because i think they’ll laugh or say i’m just exaggerating and to get over it. i feel so alone.

Kali vom Eigen a year late but feel the exact way, i hope you are doing better :)!! 🌸💕💖🖤🖤


I have suffered from derealisation, but more regularly/strongly depersonalisation, since April 2016. This video helped me so much, thank you <3


I’ve been through multiple different therapists and psychiatrists since I was 13, I’m 18 and I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and severe anxiety but I’ve always tried talking to every single one of these professionals about my feelings of all three of these and every time they avoid addressing what it could be or asking me any questions about that. A lot of them kinda laughed  and make me feel dumb for even mentioning it ... idk oh well, if anyone knows any place/anyone who can help me in Georgia let me know.


How many times do i go back to your videos to figure things out x) Seriously, I had a derealisation episode that lasted 6 hours today and I was very annoyed that it happened again so I just watched you video to figure out tips to get out of this quickly and turns out I should have probably picked my stimtoy (which I had for two month and is already COMPLETELY dead because I use it constantly when i'm situations where there's a lot of people). I should have maybe hugged my parents but they never know when I go through it I just shut up about it so... Yeah (I should test these others coping mecanism to see if it works for me). Also I just discovered that the type of therapy that i'm doing is talk therapy and I should talk more about these episodes. Anyway that must the third time that I post this kind of comment under one of your video, always helps me think. Also sorry for my broken english...


Somatic Experiencing is quite helpful. I would suggest staying away from meditation unless you can do it with your eyes open. Focusing on meditating while you are going about your daily activities is the best!


In 2017, I had my first anxiety attack, and it was big.

I didn't know what was happening at first, but all I knew was my brain was going way past the speed limit and I couldn't stop it no matter what. I tried watching T.V, I woke up my mom, hell I even tried to sleep outside. Nothing worked. My mom realized I was having a panic attack and my dad came out and calmed me down.

After that I started having them everyday. If I woke up in the middle of the night for no reason at all, I would have a panic attack. For a while I wasn't sure I would be able to cope with my anxiety much longer, as it was causing me to starve myself, and falling deeper into depression as my brain consumed me.

I didn't know how to deal with this sort of thing. And one day, I woke up, and I just felt separate. Everything was zoomed out. I could see color but my brain wouldn't consume anything. I wasn't there. I was a zombie. I would just stand there, and silently weep. Standing in the middle of a library desperately searching for anything. Finding nothing.

I didn't know what to do. This went on for a week. I cried every. Single. Day. I considered suicide. My mom had to read me bible verses to calm me down. I didn't know what else to do.

Thankfully I got help and it's over now, but I still never understood what was happening to my brain at that time. But now I know I was experiencing dissociation. Finding Dodie helped me so much with my anxiety. And now thanks to this video I finally found the answer I've been looking for nonstop this past year. Thank you Dodie <3


I've never actually heard of this before but I feel like I might have derealisation because sometimes if I'm having a really negative day (or bad grades or something) I might just zone out for a really long time and not really realise what I'm doing but still go through the motions. The worst of it is probably that it all feels foggy and unreal- like this other time when I zoned out whilst crossing a road. If my mum hadn't dragged me out the way I probably would have been hit.But anyways, thank you very much for posting this! It has indeed been very helpful ^^


I’ve had it for 4 years. Thank you for this


Hey so I’m thirteen and I just randomly was walking home from school and I felt weird. It was kind of like my brain was foggy, and I had a sort of floating sensation. I couldn’t concentrate and was shaking slightly. I looked around I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming or not. It feels like things are moving faster and slower than normal at the same time.
Would this be derealisation?
This was a one time thing for me, and so I don’t think it would be the condition, just a one time brain fog thing.

Happened again, I could compare it I guess to what I would imagine being on drugs is like.


Wow. I have a LOT of issues, lol 😂 but was shocked when you mentioned 50mg and 100mg of Sertraline being a high dose. I’ve been on 200mg for close to 5 years.

I just wanted to add that it’s nice to hear a fellow Brit. Do you also live in the US? Your accent sounds a little softened, like mine has. I look forward to seeing more of your videos xo 🤗


Wow i did not know that this experience has any kind of name until my friend told me about it. You just tell every simptom that I have, it's such a relief that I'm not the only one! :o You helped me a lot, thank you!


interesting. i zone out a lot but never heard of that, i thought everyone else had these moments.  there are many times where i'm brought to reality and i'm looking straight at a professor who's asking me a (sometimes not even important ) question or nodding their heads reassuringly, and then i realise i was out (in classes that i really like). the touching really works as well, it brings me back in a blink of an eye (i'm not a touching person all the time).<br>thank you for this video! i tend to tell myself it's all a matter of concentration but i don't know. weird thing is i think my brother has the same issue, worse when he's asleep/sleeping (i can't tell really)

interesting. i zone out a lot but never heard of that, i thought everyone else had these moments.  there are many times where i'm brought to reality and i'm looking straight at a professor who's asking me a (sometimes not even important ) question or nodding their heads reassuringly, and then i realise i was out (in classes that i really like). the touching really works as well, it brings me back in a blink of an eye (i'm not a touching person all the time).
thank you for this video! i tend to tell myself it's all a matter of concentration but i don't know. weird thing is i think my brother has the same issue, worse when he's asleep/sleeping (i can't tell really)


God I love the internet.<br>I am super thankful to be able to relate to so many people with this experience and not feel like I am going insane

God I love the internet.
I am super thankful to be able to relate to so many people with this experience and not feel like I am going insane


if you would ever make more videos on DP/DR i would watch them all. i find that your videos on this topic have been more helpful simply because they are personal and specific to your experiences rather than trying to encompass the whole spectrum and leaving something crucial out, which then leads me down an anxious spiral where i am completely stuck in DR for the rest of the day. thank you for this


Kati talking about us freezing when we feel like we cant get away is so real. I was conditioned growing up not to run away when I was scared and then when someone actually hurt me as a teenager my body just froze and I wanted to fight but I couldn’t get my arms to move. It didn’t even make sense what was happening to me. I remember just looking at the stars and feeling raindrops bc I was outside and kind of calmly being like “hm. What’s happening?”


I got discharged in 2015, i recently found out, because I dissociated in Group Therapy due to having Avoidant Personality Disorder. They marked me down as not sufficiently motivated. I developed DP months later and its taken them a year to even start anything because of that note. DP has left me feeling hollow, emotionless, devoid of purpose, memory so bad I cant remember the day I've just lived and severed from my soul/identity. The Trauma that underpins my condition is childhood emotional neglect. I find it hard not to believe this is malpractice considering dissociation is so common, they had my history all the way back to childhood and i've never seen group therapy recommended for AvPD. Also I had a reaction to Zoloft so bad it made me never want to touch medication again, and I was also tried on EMDR but I dissociated so it didnt work too :)<br>Basically every time I go to a Therapist or Doctor, they make me measurably worse. I'd laugh through the irony but its really not funny and luckily I don't feel emotions because I'm sure it would be cripllingly depressing.

I got discharged in 2015, i recently found out, because I dissociated in Group Therapy due to having Avoidant Personality Disorder. They marked me down as not sufficiently motivated. I developed DP months later and its taken them a year to even start anything because of that note. DP has left me feeling hollow, emotionless, devoid of purpose, memory so bad I cant remember the day I've just lived and severed from my soul/identity. The Trauma that underpins my condition is childhood emotional neglect. I find it hard not to believe this is malpractice considering dissociation is so common, they had my history all the way back to childhood and i've never seen group therapy recommended for AvPD. Also I had a reaction to Zoloft so bad it made me never want to touch medication again, and I was also tried on EMDR but I dissociated so it didnt work too :)
Basically every time I go to a Therapist or Doctor, they make me measurably worse. I'd laugh through the irony but its really not funny and luckily I don't feel emotions because I'm sure it would be cripllingly depressing.


I’m always derealising. I love your video so so much thank you!!!!


I didn’t know anyone else had this! I deal with depersonalization a lot more than derealization though. I describe it in that it’s like I’ve forgotten I am my own human person. Really scary, it happened to me once when I was first learning to drive and it put me off driving for yeeeeears.


this video is like.. the most seen I have ever felt.  my ex used to tell me that he knew I was getting 'bad' when I'd just repeat to myself 'it's fake, nothing is real,' etc, things like that. I could never remember doing/saying those things though


DODIE YOU ARE SO GOLDEN THIS HAS HELPED ME SO MUCH THANK YOU :)


I'm so glad to find a video about this. Feel super alone with it at times


I see other people doing this, and I don't really have anybody to talk to so why the hell not. I think I may suffer from a mixture of depersonalization and derealization but I'm scared that I'm being over dramatic. It started about a year and a half ago as what I now think was depersonalization, I feel like I'd see a different person every time I looked in the mirror, my mind and body were completely separate, I felt like I was trapped in something I'm not and had a constant feeling of confusion, I thought I was going mad. This lasted for about 4-5 months until it lulled out and I was just left with my regular anxiety, nothing stressful was going on during these months, it seemed to jump out of nowhere. After about a month and a half of normality, I started to notice what I now recognize as more derealization symptoms. Usually when I was out of the house with friends or family I'd feel myself slipping out of the moment and into what I like to call "the test tube" as I felt like I was trapped and completely exposed, just suspended in whatever was going on with no ability to comprehend the situation. I'd struggle to keep my eyes open and everything felt like as you put it, a dream. The lines of reality started to blur and nothing made sense, once I heard my friends whispering, thinking I was high or something because I was so god damn spaced out and too scared to talk about it, I thought I'd gone mad. I'd come home from school everyday and cling onto my dog to feel her warmth and breathing to remind myself that I'm alive, and she's alive and we're here and we're safe and everything's ok. I remember staring at the shower wall completely spaced out, and as I felt it start to fade, I noticed I had tears streaming down my cheeks, I had no clue I was crying. I was so desperate to feel again, so desperate to just be normal I would do things, take risks and hurt myself to see if I could trigger something and be myself again. Thankfully, a few months ago I followed Dodie on snapchat and watched her go through similar experiences, up to that point I'd been too scared to research my symptoms in fear of finding nothing, and surrendering myself to insanity. I know all this sounds dramatic, but if it weren't for Dodie I never would have known this was an actual thing with treatment, and a  less upsetting explanation behind it rather than thinking I was actually insane. Now that I know more about this I really want to get properly diagnosed so I can begin treatment as soon as possible and feel like myself again. Thanks Dodie <3 (and props to whoever actually cared to read this far, you're probably really cool )

livisauraus thanks...yeah I don't know what I'm saying half the time anyway.. it's like maniacal babble most the time so..haha..gotta try and laugh sometimes about it. Good luck to you too we'll make it.. it's actually good to know there are people who can relate to this. Not that I'd ever wish it upon anyone of course.

Thank you for clarifying, I must've taken the wrong thing out of your message, I hope you feel ok soon <3

livisauraus I'd like to add that I'm struggling too, maybe trying to be overly positive, I know what you mean by not even registering what people are saying and generally being spaced out, like a 24/7 stoned state...I get it. It's pretty damn debilitating admittedly, and it's not fun or nice in anyway..I can probably relate more than I'd sometimes like to admit. I've struggled with anxiety and general social anxiety in the past but never like this, this is something different and far more dissatisfying, whacked, frightening and I feel like I've gone schizophrenic most of the time, like serious dissociation and a sense of complete and utter voidness and disconnection. I get no satisfaction or pleasure out of anything, just going through the motions in order to survive. That's real..more so than what I previously said.. it's just that most people don't get that at all and just think I'm being overly negative but it seems you probably get what I'm saying.

livisauraus You know who the real mad one's are? The people who are obsessed by celebrity, sex, drugs, money, power..list goes on. It's the society as a whole that is sick. You are simply more aware and awake...because if you start paying attention, what most People talk about is just filler and meaningless conversation, There's nothing wrong with us. I've been in this "state" for a year now. Don't be uncomfortable about it..if others are uncomfortable with it it is only showing their own insecurities. Just be exactly how and what you are in any given situation. I often sit back and observe, listen a little and if there is anything important that actually needs to be said then I will speak, otherwise you are just stressing yourself out in order to not feel left out..forget it, you may even lose friends but that's fine, you don't need them anyway. Everything will fall into place. In other words..be yourself. Don't try to fit in.

Thank you! You have no idea how much your words mean to me, the Dodie fandom is so kind <3

livisauraus just so you know, if you're in the UK, you don't have to be diagnosed with dissociation to get treatment! In fact, a diagnosis will cost quite a lot, and can be quite unnecessary. You also need to make sure that they don't mis-disagnose you with just anxiety/depression if you don't think that that's accurate. That's what happened to me, and the anxiety went away through therapy, but the dissociation stayed. Make sure you're getting the right help! If you want anymore advice from someone who's been through the system and come out the other end, feel free to message me!

livisauraus I really hope you can get some treatment that works!!


The way Kati talks about trauma makes me think of concussions. Yes, having a car accident and getting a huge concussion can cause brain damage. But, like, football players get little concussions over and over again for years and have even worse brain damage ultimately.


i didnt even realize i was derealized until hearing you talk about it <3 thank you


Thank you so much for sharing this Dodie!!


I've been through this for years and years.. Dreams feel more vivid.. Always derealized.. depersonalized comes with less sleep. I've thought about therapy. I hope it goes away. Love and peace to all.


I'm honestly feeling like this is the best community to explain to, and I hope someone understand.

So basically, I've recently been less happy, and I don't feel like I'm myself any more; someone happy and sunshiny, and I don't enjoy anything anymore. I'm not sleeping, and I feel only happy + sad as emotions.

I also have anxiety; I have panic attacks once or twice a week, about things out of my control; often my emotions, my sexuality  (I'm queer) or money/my family's money.

I'm honestly just scared. I don't know anymore. Can someone give advice?


im in a constant state of derealization, but it has recently gotten really bad. so i started looking up things about it and found out what DPDR is. so apparently constantly feeling like your in a dream isn't normal...


I'm glad Dodie was able to talk about this and help so many viewers. There is a lot of love in this comment section and I just want to contribute! For anyone who wants to read, this is just my two cents :)

I've personally experienced these things as well as many other things and I am living proof that you can get out of it! People that struggle with issues like these and anxiety and depression: there is nothing wrong with you! You aren't "sick" or anything! Mental imbalance, not illness, is natural in both a physical and spiritual realm. Experiences like these could be a result of sensitivity to the energy, vibration, and the auras of the people and the world around you. Humans are harmonious with Earth just like all animals are and because the Earth is going through a rough time, it is likely that the sensitive, highly intelligent people are empathizing with the planet. Have you ever heard the saying that there could never exist "a happy genius"? Never be quick to jump to the conclusion that you aren't mentally ill or that it is something bad...you could be going through a period of awakening! Remember that everything ends and when it does something else begins. You may not control the physical things in life but you have complete control of how you handle it. Here's some science: Did you know that water molecules hold memory and have proven, under a microscope, that it is affected by positive and negative energies? Bottled water that was in a room with angry, stressed out people showed to be ugly and warped on a molecular level. Your brain is made up of 90% water, so imagine what it is physically doing to your body! In other words, you manifest your own feelings and you are always in control! Besides, being 'normal' isn't always a good thing. You are never alone and don't let fear overwhelm you, sending love and peace to you all!


Whenever my depression gets worse, I get derealization. But I never knew it was a thing untill this video! I thought I was just going crazy. I remember sitting in my room and nothing felt like it was mine. It felt like I was in some wierd simulation of my own life. I just sat on my bed and cried because I'm used to feeling safe in my room and my house as a whole always feels very homey and it's a comfort for me, but in that moment I didnt have that comfort because nothing felt like mine and it really freaked me out.


I think I depersonalized once, I felt like my body didn't quite hold my soul, like it didn't fit me right. Like my soul was escaping my shape and hanging over my head and nothing felt real. I couldn't really process what was happening or what people said to me so I couldn't hold onto thoughts. I was like that for an entire day and it was horrible so it must really suck to have to deal with that regularly


Watching as I suffer from what I call ‘floaty brain’. Basically if I’m in a situation that I’m very uncomfortable, stressed or sad in, my brain just floats off and won’t focus on anything. I would describe it as like having a camera that just won’t focus and as soon as you get it, the focus is gone again. I’ve been really working on my mental health and anxiety lately and I’ve realized that I’ve been also able to reduce my floaty brain as a bonus!!!


I started having intense (to the point where I panic) derealization episodes since many years ago when I experimented with marijuana. It's always nice to understand that others deal with this and see how others explain it as well

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I realized about three months ago that I might suffer from derealisation. it was really scary at first but then i looked more into it and i think its just stemmed from anxiety. i have never really suffered with depression or serious trauma, so i still dont really understand where it is coming from. it tends to be worse when i am alone, being with my friends i dont really notice it but when i have been alone for a while i tend to just think to myself, oh i feel like i am dreaming right now. this awareness tends to make it worse generally. some days are better, some are worse. a lot of the time it feels like i am watching my life through a screen, its rlly weird. i dont think this is derealisation, but idk, does anyone know what it is?


For me, it's like I'm watching the environment from a distance and I'm disconnected from my body. My limbs go numb and I can't taste, smell, hear, see or feel anything properly. It's frustrating honestly.


this is hugely informative and quite fun, thank you <3


This was so sweet and reassuring to watch. It made me cry, because I didn’t realize how prevalent this “I’m not really here” or “this doesn’t feel real” feeling was in me. I just couldn’t understand why I felt this disconnect. But I think I might be feeling this super regularly, which I’m coming to terms with and it’s pretty scary. You both have such an inviting warm energy, it made me feel so comfortable thank you!


The Big T's and little t's thing suddenly made so much sense to me! I don't suffer from derealization or depersonalization, but a couple years ago I decided to write a short story about a strange experience I had with a sort-of-friend who'd wanted to date me and I'd turned him down. He'd hung a swing at my favorite park for me, and it was a whole mess, but looking back it was funny, so I wanted to record it. Bit by bit, though, while I was writing, I remembered little pieces of things he'd done that fall and another time, things I'd completely forgotten about.

They were moments when he'd made me feel extremely uncomfortable and worried for my safety. Little t's, that had splintered throughout my consciousness that I had entirely suppressed until writing the short story opened the memories back up. They were still jumbled, time-wise, but I now remembered how he'd forced me to sit on the swing so he could push me while he verbally tore me apart for not liking him back, how he stopped the swing at one point with his hot hands on my shoulders and asked if I trusted him.

Another time I drove him home and he wouldn't get out of my car until I undid my seatbelt, and when I did he rested his hand over my heart, despite the fact I was pressed against the driver-side door to get away from him, and told me there'd always be some of him inside me. I'd never thought about self-defense strategies regarding someone I considered a friend before. I thought "if he tries to grab you, break his nose". He didn't. Nothing beyond those moments happened to me. Still, that was enough of a little trauma for me to completely forget it all happened for 6 months.


I never really understood/could make the distinction between these three terms, but this video helped a lot. In fact the definition of depersonalization sounded very familiar.


Love how honestly you talk about mental health, I've just done a video about my anxiety on my channel and REACH 500 SUBS BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS SO THANK YOU!!!!


I HATE derealisation! But it is such a relief when I finally found out what to call it because up until very recently I didn't know what it was called and it was impossible to explain to people.


I have dissociation and derealization all the time. I don't remember the first half of my life because of it... it feels like you're super drunk and you can only recall small snippets of the night while forgetting other parts because you've blacked out.


That's so awesome she specializes in self injury and eating disorders, that's so important


I do have this thing (both) and i’ve had it 24/7 for about 4 years now, it’s good there are treatments


OMG... I think I may have this... I go into this state of mind where it's feels like I'm dreaming and it's hard to control my body and what's going on... and I start to panic before and after it happenes... I have never heard of this and I thought it was just me... but like everyone thinks I'm crazy when I tell them

to me , for some reason, i don’t feel like i have de-personalization attacks. i feel like i’m constantly depersonalized and i have a personalization attack 😂. that’s when i realize that i’m a person and i have been spaced out the entire time. does anyone relate ?


i’m on sertraline !! it sort of helps for me but i’m in the same position with having no emotions rather than the ups and the downs that i used to have. but i’m going to my psychiatrist soon :)


this video was very helpful. I have had a very hard time trying to find people I could connect with or finding out what I've been dealing with. I  have struggle with really bad trama and realized as I got older things started to feel less and less real now it has come to a point where I literally feel as if I'm sleeping and I will never wake up. At first this worried me but now I have a better understanding of what it could be or what it might be. I didn't really notice it when I was younger but now that I think back I did struggle with especially after some pretty bad stuff happened. Thank you for such a helpful video.


when im sitting in class i feel like im just someone else whos pretending to be me
its not really like im acting its more like a video game and nothing really feels like it matters cause whats the worst thing that could happen if its all just a halluzination?
i feels like im reading a book of someone else but im not actually a character in the story
i dont have opinions on things
i dont enjoy doing things
and when i look at myself in the mirror it feels like im looking at someone else
i recently felt so disconnected from my childhood pictures and its not like i dont remember being a kid i just dont remember how it felt to be me
its almost like i died a while ago and i didnt notice it and now im just viewing the world as a ghost

I am feeling exatly the same daamn thing ? Did you get over it btw?


It's pretty interesting, I thought a few days ago why there seems to be such a huge difference between ''I can'' and ''I can't''  meaning how it feels when you think about something that you wanna do and you say it with one of those. And I'm thinking what if the T from can't actually comes from ''Trauma''.


It kind of just feels like reality closes down on itself. I’ve started having it more after I had a bad high from smoking


I think I have both of these diseases, but I have them just in phases. I never got diagnosed with it, so I can't be sure, but what I feel fits perfectly to the description of Derealization and Depersonalisation.


We need to talk about this more. Thank you


I love this video <br>Dodie is the only youtuber I know who has this and speaks openly about it

I love this video
Dodie is the only youtuber I know who has this and speaks openly about it


I LOVE U so much I never thought someone would go through the same things n kind of think the same as me u r my inspiration and one of my fav youtubers


my derealisation is always triggered when i'm forced to perform in front of large groups of people whether that be for a drama piece or playing the guitar. this makes it hard for me to remember what im doing because i instantly go into dream mode and everything around me gets number and darker.


9 years of this feeling. Just now learned what it is..... Wow


I am self diagnosed as a person with depersonalization, I don't really experience derealisation but I guess that doesn't mean anything is wrong. This video was a lot of help


oh gosh i've been struggling with derealisation for nearly four years now and this is the first time i've ever been given any solid advice on how to get help aaaaa thank u both so much!

Heyyy Was just wondering if you recovered?


A thing I do when I'm spaced out is 'grounding'. Find 5 things you can touch, 4 things you can see, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and 1 thing you can taste. It helps me a lot.

Thank you for sharing!! These are great grounding techniques!! xoxo

Lana Moore that's similar to what i do :) I eat something Really cold or  spicey. Or dance while listening to my favourite song. Or pet my cat and Things like that. And I exercise. I don't know Why but sport Really Really helps in those situations. It kind of helps me to Connect with my body and mind and just grounds me :)


i tried talking to a doctor that is specifically taught to deal with mental health problems, i told her my problems about derealization and that it started before covid and then she goes
"covid might have caused it, its been a rough 2 years for everyone"
alright great when a doctor denies what you feel and says the complete opposite of what you did


I have depersonalization and its really weird. it feels like I'm just not present, but I kind of am. its hard too describe it too someone who doesn't have it, but you explained it perfectly.


I hate Depersonalisation. I zone out, feeling numb and presser on the body then feeling like things are not real and that your body is not real. I had it when I was 5 and up. I can feel it starting up again


ok im literally in tears right now bc of this video <3 this helped so much


Can you have the text stay up for a bit longer on your videos please? I've noticed a few youtubers recently started making text come and go quite quickly and it's not always possible to pause the video fast enough to read the text . Especially important for something that is giving context and Wil make it more accessible to people. Thanks!


My friend came through that, when she was going through anxiety episode, she had plenty panic attacks and couldn’t go out without feeling detached from the world, she told me that she have felt like she was dreaming, like the ground was falling down from her feet and the same with looking in the mirror- she wasn’t recognising herself, she was seeing another woman. Scary as fukkk and honestly after all the conversations I had with my friend I feel so bad for people with panic attacks and disorders mentioned. I mean, I wish my friend didn’t go through this sht and I can’t possibly imagine how it is like to live like this for more than a year or two.


I have depersonalization, I am so glad I'm not alone! Can't belive you had this too!

Also, anybody who has this should try meditation. Whenever I haven't meditated I feel more depersonalization than when I ground myself and mediate, still feel it but not as bad.


My latest depressive episode gave me the top two descriptions more than I realized at the time. It's easy to feel suicidal if nothing feels real anyway. I wish my brain was different in a few ways.


I've always said it feels like I'm always dreaming ever since I was little when you mentioned that it made me realize what might be happening in my mind


Honestly you have no idea how much it helped me to finally put a name on what I’ve been feeling for the past 2 years<br>Thank you so much

Honestly you have no idea how much it helped me to finally put a name on what I’ve been feeling for the past 2 years
Thank you so much


I have anxiety/ptsd the worse thing ever is "depersonalisation disorder" I get from it. It is so scary that the best way I could describe it is you feel like you are in VR game but you are actually are in the real world but it's scary because you want to turn off vr mode but you can't. But the good thing you can recover from it, I have. It is the body's defence mechanism to disassociate with the world so your mind can cope with the stress. If you continually tell yourself you are OK and make yourself feel good even if you don't, your body will gradually learn you really are ok and then take you off vr mode! But I stress it is gradual because it is a learning behaviour or retraining of the brain that you are not in danger anymore


thank you for this video♥<br>I had derealisation. I was thinking I'm going insane or something. Now I know not alone with it (sorry for my bad english)

thank you for this video♥
I had derealisation. I was thinking I'm going insane or something. Now I know not alone with it (sorry for my bad english)


I have a question. So sometimes when I’m in a car or on a bus, I get this weird feeling. It’s only happened when it’s moving. My brain feels fuzzy, my eyelids feel heavy and I have an extremely difficult time trying to keep them open. I feel kind of disconnected when this happens. When get out of the bus or car it goes away. This has happened for a couple months. Thoughts?


I think I have derealisation and I think I have for alot of my life. For me because of this school can make me quite anxious and to hide how I'm feeling I just tend to act up around my friends and be confident and obnoxious and be a goof because then I don't have to deal with it. I definitely don't have a full blown anxiety disorder though. I think because i feel like I'm always dreaming, I get anxious that I'm going to bump into to someone or say the wrong thing. That sort of thing. And to ground me, I always have my gryffindor  scarf as being a huge potter head (and proud) Having a harry potter item helps me to ground and focus.


I found this after searching up about why I feel as if I'm just an audience unpassionately watching the show that is my life and that I'm not the person I see in the mirror and this video has been so useful for thank you!


I was wondering if I have some sort of derealisation or depersonalisation. Sometimes everything around me becomes extremely fast and extremely loud and intense. Time seems to fly and all sounds seem hyper aggressive. At the same time my own movements become super slow. It's so weird and I can't even explain it but I feel very uncomfortable whenever I get it.


my family and i want to consider private, but it’s very expensive so for anyone — like myself — can’t afford it, i’d recommend getting a referral from a gp and finding any kind of specialist. this has a similar effect to private therapy but it’s more affordable :)


i started feeling this like 6 months ago and its been 24/7, ive been drinking heavily everynight for the past 2 years and im almost 99% sure thats what brought it on, but it goes away when i drink


You're explanation is very accessible, and nearly make it sound valid.  It's just that last little leap, to believe what you're saying is a valid way of looking at someone's abnormal behaviour.


I disassociate literally almost every day. I told my therapist and she asked me if I heard voices in my head. I think she was thinking of dissociative identity disorder (DID). Should I explain it to her or just kind of leave it?


I'm not gonna say I have this stuff, but I tend to have episodes where everything feels like a dream and very distant. For a while I would have small moments of depersonalization, and during school years, I would have up to almost a month at a time or at least most of a week I will/would just have empty busy times. In those times I just go through life without thinking and barely remember what happens when I come out of it. I get really touchy a lot and I have a friend who used to physically latch onto people and when she did that to me, I got stressed and had that distant feeling and that feeling usually meant in a few days I would have those empty periods of time.<br>I don't know, though. Just don't attack me, because I'm only saying I have similar experiences and am very paranoid and idk why, but I'm not going to diagnose myself.

I'm not gonna say I have this stuff, but I tend to have episodes where everything feels like a dream and very distant. For a while I would have small moments of depersonalization, and during school years, I would have up to almost a month at a time or at least most of a week I will/would just have empty busy times. In those times I just go through life without thinking and barely remember what happens when I come out of it. I get really touchy a lot and I have a friend who used to physically latch onto people and when she did that to me, I got stressed and had that distant feeling and that feeling usually meant in a few days I would have those empty periods of time.
I don't know, though. Just don't attack me, because I'm only saying I have similar experiences and am very paranoid and idk why, but I'm not going to diagnose myself.


My doctor prescribed me 50mg Sertraline for anxiety, taking that tablet was one of the worst experiences ive ever had. It was horrendous. The side effects are not worth it.


I have always felt out of place because of how my head and body reacts to things. I can be among friends and then I just leave my body, I am still in control of movements, but talking and laughing and having emotions is impossible. I can just sit and stare, not really feeling like I am myself. I have never heard about depersonalisation or the other two, but now kind of understand what is happening inside of me, and that it is not just me, but that it is a real thing. Thank you for this.


Personally, I was put on Zoloft and started on 50mg and within a month I gradually moved to 200mg. It was terrible. So, I completely understand what you mean.


does anyone know if this can sometimes be linked to sleep paralysis?? I've experienced depersonalzation at night and I don't feel that it's linked to anything traumatic for me. but my brain gets foggy and I can move my hands but they don't feel like mine so I move them way too quickly. it's really trippy so I turn all my lights on and become wide awake before trying to sleep again because I don't want it to lead to sleep paralysis.


I feel as if I own many different personality traits. After googling this the only thing that was relative was the dissociative identity disorder, however I do not feel as if I am the body of many different people as such, and over all I am just well, me. But I have days where I seem to feel like being hardcore about my fitness and I want to be my healthiest and best looking self, yet other days I do not seem to have the slightest worry about my appearance and take on a 'hippie' identity. I also feel like I want to dress with many branded clothing's- stereotypical 'road man' as some may say, however on occasion envy to be 'edgy' and care free, wearing flared trousers and overalls. This results in issues such as the way I want my room to look, for example, when I am feeling spiritual and 'hippie', I want my room to be covered in tapestries and filled with colour, yet when I switch and want to be seen in a 'girly' way, I hate the way I changed my room when I was feeling that specific, initial way the previous day. Many other issues result from this confusion, and so I am determined to find out why this happens to me and if others may feel the same. Any advice or relation would be a huge help. Thankyou:) I posted this to a question and answer website, before coming across this video and I thought it could be what I think I have- which again I do not relate to fully.. Thought I may get some answers on here too?


This made me realize that I was going through this all the time when i was younger like i would look in the mirror and see someone else or i wasnt living my life


This video has really educated me, I feel sorry for dodie because I can't even imagine what it would be like to always be derealized. Like, how does dodie even sing and smile and dance around if she feels like that all the time?? Poor dodie :(


I suffer from Derealistion and sometimes Depersonalisation since I smoked Cannabis. Also, sometimes I have anxiety/depression and on some days insomnia. It was way worse but I still feel it and I really really suffer from it, I wish I could turn back the time to make it unhappen... Its more dangerous than a lot of people think. Be careful. Now it‘s 6 months ago :(


Hi there! Thought I might as well share my story and spread hope to those who need it. Sorry that this is so long ;;;
I am 12 years old, becoming 13 in about 2 weeks! Last year in 6th grade, I dealt with awful DPDR.
October 27th, 2017, around 6-8 pm. Since it was nearing Halloween, my school set up a ‘Harvest Fest’ where you dress up and go hang out with your friends, and play a bunch of games. I was sitting with my mom, after eating some food. I suddenly felt very off, very stressed. I thought I was going to pass out, so I ran outside, my mom following me in annoyance. She was mad because I left my best friend all alone, but I was in the middle of a panic attack, without me even knowing. I didn’t feel the waves of anxiety, because I had barely experienced anxiety until that moment. I couldn’t figure out what I was feeling. I calmed down, and I decided to go find my sister and forget about it. We were waiting in line for something and I suddenly felt like I was in a dream. I sat down, my mom still annoyed because I had wasted so much time dwelling on this feeling. I begged her to go home early, and that I really didn’t feel good. I wish I saw the storm that was going to hit.
I thought that it was just exhaustion, after all, I had a long day at school, and I probably didn’t sleep well. My mom was mad that she used money on me, and I spent like an hour there. Also the fact that I ditched my friend.
I then went to a maze with my church friends that weekend. In the middle of the maze, I felt that feeling come on again.
“Carly, I feel like I’m going to pass out.” I tell my youth leader. She stops and holds my hand until we regroup with the rest of the group. After what felt like ages, we finally got on the bus and left. It’s all a blurry mess. I barely remember it, I just remember the fear I felt when I felt that feeling.
That feeling, I called ‘dizziness’, not knowing how to describe it. A few months go by, and I start experiencing panic attacks in the hall ways at school. I didn’t know this was anxiety yet. I kept going to the nurse saying I was ‘dizzy’. My mom set up a plan with my principals because she was concerned about how often my attacks were coming. We had seen multiple doctors, all because I didn’t know what it was. Winter break finally came, and I cracked it. My sister told me about how in her middle school years, she had experienced panic attacks and DPDR. I did my own research, and boom I found my answer. I went back to school from winter break, a shaking ball of anxiety, in fear of my next panic attack. The next few months were incredibly blurry. My anxiety was so severe that I was always shaking and crying and nauseous. I could barely go outside because the derealization made me so terrified. Everytime I looked outside, it all looked unreal. I would skip meals, I would barely eat. I lost a ton of weight, including all my muscle weight. I was nothing but a ball of anxiety. I had a few panic attacks every week. And some weeks I’d get so unlucky that I would have a panic attack a day. School became a nightmare, as I spiraled into more and more panic attacks, eventually bringing my mom to school because I was so scared. I avoided so many classes, such as PE, I avoided recess, lunch, all because I thought that all the noise and chaos would cause me to panic. I now see that I wasn’t actually scared of the noise, I was scared of the panic I would feel. It got so severe (keep in mind that through all of this my family was trying their best to help me, and I was getting counseling) that I lost my personality. I lost my happiness. I lost it all. DPDR overcame my life, every single second of the day was me worrying about that feeling of dreaming. I related panic attacks and DPDR to death..
but wait. There’s always a light ahead.
I kept seeing my counselor, I kept visiting with my principals. I never thought that this could happen. But I began to cope with it. I found tricks and tools to distract myself, and my best friend was there for me through it all. She would sit there and hug me as I cried on her shoulder. She would tell me that everything was going to be okay. She made me laugh while I was bawling my eyes out. She made me go outside at recess, which I hated her for that. At first I was so scared, I would not let her leave me alone for more than a minute. I became so dependent on her. But she began to leave me alone more and more, and I obeyed. I let her go and play with her other friends. And she gave me the time I needed to think. Then after recess was over, she’d walk me right back to line and we’d walk inside together. Eventually, I’d wave goodbye to her, as she played with her other friends, and I would visit with some of my friends. Lunch got a lot easier, and I was able to sit with all my other friends. I became stronger, and DPDR would try and ruin it. I put it at the back of my mind. And it worked. I stopped dwelling on it. I got up, and kept walking.
Now here I am. Almost a year of suffering with DPDR. Now, when I feel DPDR, I welcome it. I’m not scared of it anymore.
It’s so insane how I got so low, that I related this horrible feeling to death. And now I can just say a little “hello, can you leave for a second?” Whenever I feel it come on.
It’s hard. But you can get through it. Do not ever give up. DPDR is only a feeling, and it is uncomfortable, but eventually it’ll go away, you just need to let go.


I especially liked the part beginning at 7:23...
A truly helpful visualization!


I have depersonalization and derealization too ❤❤✊🏼


I don't have derealisation/depersonalisation nor does anyone I know but I'm here ready to LEARN

Ruth Webster As someone with very bad DP and DR, I'm very happy you want to learn! :D It's so hard to deal with an illness that isn't as well known as ect depression cause people look at you as if you're insane. You seem like a cool person :)


It's been 4 years for me, thank you thank you for speaking out depersonalization! I relate some much for wanting to feel something familiar. You keep thinking you have to go back, somewhere. Gosh girl keep strong, don't know how you are now but I am wachting this in 2018.

@Lily Stultz Sounds awful I am sorry to hear it. Look up monocular hydrogen it is helping me currently. I'm doing breathing and drinking the water from Holy Hydrogen, but it's very expensive. It opens op my brain slightly.

What do you experience, like do you forget everything? I do all the time, but it used to be worse. It's scary. You've snapped out of it before so it will happen again at some point! I would say the beginning for me was 90% and now it's about 40%. There are so many versions of depersonalization. If you want to talk more just reach out.

@Pauline Baets I experienced it for the first time when I was 17 for about 2-3 months and recovered, went 2 years without it and now a stressful event triggered it again and it’s been alittle over 3 months and I’m still in the depths of it. Im terrified I won’t recover from it this time.

@Lily Stultz And before that trauma, I've never had a mom and was left in the hospital after birth for a few months so I think it had to do with me not being able to ground from basically the beginning..

@Lily Stultz Second time as in an episode? I haven't experienced those, for me it's almost a permanent state. What caused it was a burn-out, but I am almost sure I lived inside my head most of my life, so it's hard to pin-point. I had a moment where I didn't recognize myself when looking back in the mirror it was awful. Since then it has never really gotten to a point where I do, but I am getting closer. I was 22, now just turned 29, a very hard journey. if you want we can talk on telegram? Hope you are doing okay x

@Pauline Baets yes I’m currently going through it as well for a second time. If I may ask how old were you when it started and what caused it ? What have you tried to help it ?

@Lily Stultz hey! I'm still in it for the majority of the day, but I have learned to live with it more, although it is very exhausing especially trying to explain it. Funny I saw this notification coming in just yet. Diet helps, a lot. Why do you ask? Do you experience it was well?


Kati, what do you think about Exposure therapy, when having derealisation/depersonalisation?


I'm pretty sure I have at least a minor form of derealization cause for a few years I've been feeling so out of it all the time, I constantly feel like I'm asleep, even my vision and hearing seem worse than before (a lot of times when I'm talking it feels like ny voice is coming from somewhere in the distance) and anything I feel or should be feeling is barely existent, I feel numb most of the time. I also always forget things I don't know if it's a side effect, but I literally just forgot what I was writing. <br> The thing is, I can't think of anything that would be the cause of this. The only trauma in my life was my dad leaving us, but I was little and don't remember feeling that terrible or anything.

I'm pretty sure I have at least a minor form of derealization cause for a few years I've been feeling so out of it all the time, I constantly feel like I'm asleep, even my vision and hearing seem worse than before (a lot of times when I'm talking it feels like ny voice is coming from somewhere in the distance) and anything I feel or should be feeling is barely existent, I feel numb most of the time. I also always forget things I don't know if it's a side effect, but I literally just forgot what I was writing.
 The thing is, I can't think of anything that would be the cause of this. The only trauma in my life was my dad leaving us, but I was little and don't remember feeling that terrible or anything.


what a wonderfully coherent and educational video!


Those 10.5 minutes ended and I was like WHAT. THAT'S IT. I could have listened for three more hours.


Yeah I didnt know there was a word for this, it's weird to hear someone explain a phenomenon you experience all the time and have tried to explain to others


oh my god this happened to me for like 2 hours a week ( sometimes more ) at a scout meeting because the people there were people who i didnt get along with ( Whole large can of worms, i promise its a whole lot worse that that ) got it sucked, they kept like almost yelling at me to pay attention and I couldnt get an expression or emotion to appear on my face or for myself, it sucked and I couldnt really feel, and then I would get really sad suddenly for a couple of minutes, and then I was really happy and hyperactive for the rest of the meeting
argued w/ my mom after a couple of months but i finally got out of it omg it sucked so bad, but now ( according to my mom ) Im the happiest iv ever been
I do feel a lot better tho
very grateful my mom got me out of there- O have really bad anger issues and was very close to snapping multiple times


this video is what made me realize i wasn't going crazy. i had this for nearly 2 years before watching this and finding out what it was.


I had this since one month ago because of my first smoke of weed, the right thing it’s that i don’t have it all the day, it just comes whenever it wants to appear like I don’t control it, but i don’t have it all the day so that makes me feel more connected but yeah, i can say that it’s like you’re in someone else’s body but with their information and their remembers.

I’m gonna go this Wednesday to my first therapy I hope it helps to me


You're comment at 2:40 about liking having ups and downs because it at least meant you could feel reminds me of the song "I Miss the Mountains" from Next to Normal.  Great show about some really difficult topics.  Check it out.


yeahhh i heard you say sertraline and just wanted to add my lil ~two cents~ and say that i was on sertraline for like two years for anxiety and it just kinda suppressed it, basically i could still feel it to the same extent as before but just couldn't really have full anxiety attacks, it would just come out in small daily bursts and i had to stop public school because of it
straight up also ruined my mind, my depression flared up rly bad, the cognitive part of my brain kinda stopped working as well (it got really hard to focus and long story short i basically couldn't properly read for a year), i zone out more, and just a lot of bad things bc of it,,, i'm honestly convinced a large part of it is because sertraline isn't FDA approved for general anxiety in my age group (it's only kid-and-teen-approved for OCD)

or just in the words of my music instructor, zoloft and prozac kill creativity


I have both. I've had panic attacks before because of school. I felt like I was floating and dreaming a bit. It was really scary at first. I felt like I was going to pass out.


Omggg it's Kati AND dodie! I love you both and have watched your videos before, didn't know you knew each other!!!?! What a lovely surprise


This happened to me for about a month. Everything felt weird and fake, Like a dream. I never had any trauma, so why did it happen to me?


Im going through derealization right now and it’s definitely a scary experience. I think talking to someone who is going through the same problems as me will help. So hmu


Thanks so much for making this, it's great information. Extra thank you for the TMS clinic link, I'll pass it on as I know of a few people who like me didnt even know if it was available here <3


I literally took edibles and had the most traumatizing experience in my life. Now I feel like I have derealization and I’m not connected with everyone 😭. I feel terrible. It’s just a constant battle with me and my brain including anxiety.


Some people say the Linden method helps .  Thanks for explaining why the mind creates feelings of unreality as a response to things being overwhelming


This helped me a lot, I've recently been feeling a lot of depersonalization, I don't feel like myself, when I sing I don't sound like myself when I talk it doesn't seem like my voice, it's such a strange feeling, I just don't feel like me?.


I would always experience derealization a few days after smoking weed, it was absolutely terrible. I stopped completely, thank god. Then again, I could be completely wrong because my childhood was very traumatic.


I've only really come across depersonalisation and derealisation from this channel, and fairly recently. A little while ago I remember an Instagram post from dodie, and the caption was about derealisation, and I remember just thinking.. oh. I never really noticed it before but I kinda of zone in and out of the world without realising, but even then I thought it was just me being spacey until a little while ago. I was sitting in my room, playing just an average, repetitive game, and I suddenly realised how detatched I felt from just.., everything, I guess? It was like my emotions had just disappeared and I was just on autopilot. I played that game (bearing in mind it was iloveyoulikeafatladylovesapples.com) for over half an hour, until I messaged my friends because I thought something might be a bit wrong. <br>I don't know whether I actually have it, but my friend says the symptoms align, and I found that noise really helped me. Like I had zero motivation to talk aloud, but then (this is going to sound sappy I'm sorry) I started playing music, and would you be so kind came on, and I just started quietly singing because it's like instinct for me, and I kinda came to myself a bit more?? Sorry, this post is a mess. But yeah, I think I'm going to look into it a bit more

I've only really come across depersonalisation and derealisation from this channel, and fairly recently. A little while ago I remember an Instagram post from dodie, and the caption was about derealisation, and I remember just thinking.. oh. I never really noticed it before but I kinda of zone in and out of the world without realising, but even then I thought it was just me being spacey until a little while ago. I was sitting in my room, playing just an average, repetitive game, and I suddenly realised how detatched I felt from just.., everything, I guess? It was like my emotions had just disappeared and I was just on autopilot. I played that game (bearing in mind it was iloveyoulikeafatladylovesapples.com) for over half an hour, until I messaged my friends because I thought something might be a bit wrong.
I don't know whether I actually have it, but my friend says the symptoms align, and I found that noise really helped me. Like I had zero motivation to talk aloud, but then (this is going to sound sappy I'm sorry) I started playing music, and would you be so kind came on, and I just started quietly singing because it's like instinct for me, and I kinda came to myself a bit more?? Sorry, this post is a mess. But yeah, I think I'm going to look into it a bit more


I’m pretty sure that I fall under the derealization but not depersonalization category (unless I drink, which Im not a big fan of).
It’s in waves and especially when I’m driving (probably not the best timing) BUT I enjoy the feeling.
I feel calm, safe and separated from reality. I DO have to open my eyes a bit but I’m not sure if I feel like I’ll fall asleep or if I’m trying to wake up?

It IS VERY common that I believe dreams are real memories and vis versa!

It happens also if people are having intense conversations with me and I have to act like I’m intensely listening but I’ve disconnected. It also takes over with sickness but especially death.
I never knew it was different than how other people process..
thank you for this informative video

I don’t know if I’ll do anything with the information but just knowing that it’s not as common as I thought is interesting.


Sometimes I feel really detached from my surroundings and my self but I don't think I have dp/dr. Sometimes I wonder if I have social anxiety as I really struggle in social situations, like my stomach knots up and I sometimes I feel like I'm gonna cry or throw up. I don't have many friends because i never speak up or get involved at school and I blush when I do... or maybe I'm just nervous... idk??

Ps this video was lovely and you two are adorable 💗

Kati Morton wow, thank you I never knew that! Thank you so much for your reply, you're lovely 💗

Anxiety and panic attacks can cause dissociation (which is sort of the umbrella term for DPDR). it can come and go in association with other diagnosis.. I hope that helps and makes sense :) xoxo


Has anyone else experienced this, where you feel insanely disconnected from everything and everyone. Like those  few seconds where you’ve questioned life too hard and you suddenly realize that you’re alive and you’re a person and you’re technically insignificant. But then that little spaced out moment grows and suddenly it’s all the damn time. You look at your friends and the connection you have feels like one of a stranger. You look at them like “who are you??” It’s the same with family as well. Like after a good film or book when you’re adjusting back into your own world and everything in reality seems distant. It’s almost like you’re unsure of where your soul lies in your body.

I’ve never done drugs lol.

I’m gonna think about it more and talk to my therapist about this new feeling but I’d like to know if anyone understands.


Absolutely brilliant, thank you so much for posting, going to check both your channels 👍🏻


When I'm in situations that make me anxious (like being in crowds or presenting a speech) I do that thing where you don't feel like you and the words come out of your mouth but it doesn't feel like your actually saying anything or thinking of what your saying or doing it just happens. ? My mind just feels completely disconnected when it happens. Would this be depersonalisation? Knowing what it is would be really helpful


I am currently dealing with the same thing, except I’m not taking any medications. I haven’t told anyone except for a close friend, (who suggested this video to me). I relate greatly to things you have said. I used to have lots of anxiety around people, but now I’m basically watching myself with other people, not controlling myself. I’ll say things and then I’ll think “who is saying this? This isn’t me” and I just can’t control it. I also understand what you mean by not feeling any emotions. I find myself not caring about anything anymore, not feeling that anxiety in my chest when I’m stressed, or feel happy when people tell a funny joke. It’s all just a mask so people don’t get offended if I don’t laugh at a joke, or I just want to make someone feel better and don’t actually physically feel bad for them like I used to. (Physically meaning like if you get that feeling of excitement and your whole body wakes up or when you’re sad and you feel like you’re in the worst health ever.) I feel like one of those androids. That I’m just... a thing. Programmed to have a “personality”. Not feeling emotions. That I’m not a human being. That I’m not alive. That I’m just... there.

If you’ve read this entire thing, I appreciate you taking the time to hear the story of some random person on the internet. I am only a teenager, so I don’t really have the confidence to tell anyone who can actually help me and get a therapist, so I do research like this. I appreciate this video so much, it helps me understand what I am going through.


I disassociate a lot when I run, but I never find it unpleasant. It's actually nice because I don't feel the pain of running.

For me it happens when I’m learning in class, it’s really bad because as I start to panic I scratch my arm until it bleeds because I get really nervous, I need to stop that.

Ender Wiggins I think that's the normal kinda zoning out you get when you're doing something repetitive? I do that when I draw, and I don't realise until I put my pencil down, but when I get anxious I can literally feel myself disconnect from my own body and sink into the back of my mind. It's a scary feeling when that happens


Your videos help me so much. This feeling is too much. I feel so helpless


The marble explaination is scarily accurate, one that is very big for me is like if I find a perfume I wore at a period of time and steel it it brings me straight back to how I was feeling at the time and it's very scary


I've always struggled to understand what is wrong with me, what's happened to me, and I could never understand... Everything in this video has happened to me.. I am scared to ask my mom to go to the doctor for this .. Idk what to do.

Some occasions it happened was two  car crashes,  stress during exam times and before my driving exam.. but sometimes it'd just happen because if depression


This video was really helpful. I don't feel that I have two personalities, but I often feel as if I've locked another version of myself in a room somewhere and force him to bottle up all of his emotions and never let them out just so I can walk around unburdened and numb.
Kind of like automatically numbing all negative emotions and bottling them under extreme pressure and never letting them out, only building more walls around them. If I'm feeling emotionally distressed within an hour or so I will be back to being numb and logical, as if the thing never bothered me at all. Pretending like you feel nothing definitely still hurts you, even if at a subconcious level.

This is probably stemming from emotional trauma I had as a child, and I'm planning on starting therapy next year.


For me my dreams and real life are so mixed and when I look at myself I look so different


I think I have a small form of depersonalization, when having a panic attack if I look in the mirror I don't look like myself and I just freeze up and stare at my reflection. Can anyone relate? I didn't have a word for it until now.


Thank youuuu this was so helpful to me and I've sent it to my boyfriend so he can understand better


Lol - I have these and have had them for years. I'm talking from before I was even 11 years old. I have physical illnesses and have been told that they're all due to mental illness before which is not true and so now I'm terrified to talk to a doctor about my mental health problems which has escalated to a point where I have suicidal urges on a daily basis.


I would really like to see a doctor to see if I actually have this. But my parents would be mad at me for asking... Idk what to do!!!

@Maša Dragana Stanisavljević  mental health is most important. I was in your shoes 9 years ago when i was 15. And i never got help and here i am 9 years later experiencing life through the same glass wall

Aww try to ask n say it’s something else then when u get into a therapist tell them the real reason

Your mental health is what matters most!


Depersonalisation is what happens to me since i can remember myself and when i was little i thought that it happened to everyone little did i know.


OH my goodness. This helps me so much, thank you for sharing!!!


Wish there was help like Kati out there for everyone =/ <br>I've done 40 sessions of TMS and while it helped my depression unfortunately it doesn't last....

Wish there was help like Kati out there for everyone =/
I've done 40 sessions of TMS and while it helped my depression unfortunately it doesn't last....


thank you so much for this, dodie! ❤💙💚💛💜🖤💗💝


I had derealisation for 10 months. It gets better and now i no longer deal with it. Guys it does get better, so just keep going.


I used to be really depersonalized (is that a word? Lol), but since I started taking b12 supplements I started feeling much better, I hope it works for me.<br>(I’m not saying that works for everybody, but in my specific case it has helped me, since I am vegetarian and was possibly deficient)

I used to be really depersonalized (is that a word? Lol), but since I started taking b12 supplements I started feeling much better, I hope it works for me.
(I’m not saying that works for everybody, but in my specific case it has helped me, since I am vegetarian and was possibly deficient)


I remember I would get dissociated or feel derealized all the time about a year or two ago, it sucked pretty bad.


Hi Dodie, I suggest you try Yoga and meditation. It helps with grounding and being in the now. It helps me a lot. Love you.


I feel like I have derealisation allll the time I feel like I'm in a dream all the time and my friends think I'm weird for it...anyone else?

Lucas M I sometimes feel that way whilst high and have breaks from smoking during those periods (usually when life is hard and i get paranoid af) but rarely feel that way apart from after terrible days or bad news... it sometimes does but i'm not sure it's linked to smoking but stress/anxiety which i suffer from a lot..have you had any treatment or is it solely linked to smoking?

Kie T yeah. I think I have derealisation a lot but when I'm not, I'm just nothing. I don't feel. It's weird and lots of my friends have depression so understand what I mean but they don't understand it's confusing and I'm rambling and making no sense.


I have cptsd dissociation and when my depression is bad I can get depersonalization & derealization really bad it's like being isolated in a bubble and there is no feeling of reality like watching a tv screen being projected onto another screen it all feels weird and not right. As a little kid I did not recognise myself in the mirror either and hated my reflection,  avoided it activily for most of my childhood. Also have a very stong sense of what I look like, and it's not what I really look like outside, internally I see myself totally differntly. I witnessed alot of violent fights between my parents as a very small child.....my dad was alcaholic or self medicating with alcahol and my mum has undiagnosed mental illness so she was always going balistic at him. It often got physical and my mum would often storm out the house screaming she was going to kill herself and drive off like a bat out of hell not retun for hours. I think i was still in diapers then so under 3.....it contiued until i was older, by mid teens it was not as violent anymore but still they argued constanly which triggered me.....i once had to jump out the car as an adult to vomit when home to visit, when they started argueing like they used to in the front of car, an emotional flashback i guess. I also get a very weird thing happen to me sometimes......as I am walking I see someone I look at them and study them I spiral into thoughts about who they are why they are dressed that way speculation about their lives etc and comparing them to me and also making judgements about them. All this happens as they walk by and as they keep going and get further away from me I feel like something inside me is being pulled along with them and I get a physical impulse to follow them and it's a real wrench to pull away and break free of that spell and carry on my own way instead. Is this part of all this......or is that a hyper focus thing?....I also have adhd. I use a small stone or i squeeze my hands alot....maybe that is a way for me to ground. Really fantastic video, thankyou......I was really freaked out when I discovered what this was I was experiencing I am glad I am not alone with it anymore. :)


I get this sometimes,mostly because I feel I fall short. This is why I put so much of my self worth in my employers hands, my boyfriend and your music has helped with this.


I see you have done many on this horrible condition and I thank you. Mine is so bad when I get it I would never be able to smile or talk on camera, so it's strange to me to see someone that is able to do that while having it. I'm guessing there are many different degrees of this condition. And I have never received trauma therapy and never considered small "T"s. I've taken Benzo's for this for many years now. Would love to get to the root of it.

Thank you again for continuing to present educational videos and for being YOU, Katie. When I'm having bad anxiety I will often just turn on some of your videos as you are so calming.


Ive had dpdr for a while and it's finally Fading and I feel a bit more connected idk if I'll ever get there fully but at least it's getting better


I love videos like this as some therapists just sit there and listen and don’t explain things like this...


Also be aware that it could be caused by an underlying disease like autonomic dysfunction


i don't suffer with depersonalisation/derealisation but this video was SO interesting as someone who literally envies kati's job (i'm doing a BSc honours degree in 'psychology with counselling' so maybe one day i'll be a licensed counsellor/therapist!!!) and as someone who has depression and anxiety/ptsd. love love love your mental health vids dodie x


this is so helpful, thank u so much~ glad i'm not the only one feeling this way.


I’m having a bit of a struggle getting my parents to comprehend that depersonalisation is real- if anyone with super strict parents has figured out a way to get treated pls contact meee


After suffering from extreme DP/DR for more than 20 years...i have found the cure. Im like 90% cured.
1. Affirmations (repeating words/phrases that directly address the thing that made you dissociate in the first place)
2.  Aswagandha (calms you down)
3. Meditation (re-connects/re-wires your brain and calms you down)
4. C.B.D Oil (calms you down)
DP/DR is part anxiety and part trauma. Dealing with anxiety will eliminate most of it if not all


Ah hey it's Kati, when I watched Shane's series I completely forgot I'd seen her before in dodie's video

Omg I was looking to see if anyone else noticed this

Same but I'm confused between the sociopath thing and this


I like that Katie talked about T and t <br>Because looking back on my trauma I think all my traumas where t that just built up and make my disorders. But once talking to my therapist about my trauma her reactions to it made me realize those were a lot of T and then a lot of t

I like that Katie talked about T and t
Because looking back on my trauma I think all my traumas where t that just built up and make my disorders. But once talking to my therapist about my trauma her reactions to it made me realize those were a lot of T and then a lot of t


Do you think that derealisation can happen when you're simply tired? Cause I don't have any mental problems (I used to have, so I know that right now I'm ok), but I often feel like everything around  me was a dream :P


I always have derealization, its not fun. I dissociate quite a bit as well and sometimes that couples with depersonalization which is quite honestly tortuous for me and I always have just thought something was wrong with me. I've suffered with it since I was about 3 and I have entire chunks of time that I cant recall (ex: I cant recall any of my middle school years.) It is so incredibly relieving to know I'm not alone in this.