i didnt know what it was at the time but i had long phases of depersonalisation between the ages of 14-16. i thought i was just depressed. i used to sit in the mirror and draw my face over and over. now looking at those drawings is terrifying bc i can feel exactly how i felt in that moment (also because theyre a bit shit lol). i dont know how or why it went away. i think it might have had to do with me starting a new school so my brain was like “cool, a new environment... i feel safer here” but idk. i just hope i never feel like that again


Wait I just realized this is Kati from Shane’s series...

Reading your comment made me realise this


this video really validated my feelings thank you <3


This video was so...educational and interesting. Like even if you don't have derealisation/depersonalization or mental illnesses it's good to watch. Honestly there needs to be more videos on mental illness because people fail to understand that it's not controllable sometimes and that you don't have to have trauma to cause it. It'd be nice if people tried to understand how difficult it is to get up in the morning and sometimes we're incapable of doing things because our own brain stops us from this. I was hit with OCD(a form of anxiety), bipolar depression, and sensory overload(your brain amplifies certain sounds and or visuals like chewing, slurping, plates clanking, high voices, bright lights, etc. and it irritates you to the point of anger and frustration) when growing up. It was the result of genetics, abuse, neglect, and trauma. Dodie was one of the reasons I even got help. My OCD comes into contact with my depression at times. My OCD, when rituals are broken, everything feels uncomfortable and I get angry and smash things or feel like something bad will happen. Then I have a mood swing from sad, happy, or energetic. I'm at my best when I'm energetic but that too can be a problem. I sometimes spend money I don't have or do things I'm incapable of. The depression is extremely difficult and I've endangered my own life numerous times but I'm better now and still getting better. When I first told my doctor about my symptoms I was so scared because my family didn't and still doesn't really understand mental illnesses and I'm thankful for how understanding my doc and therapist is. It's getting better and whatever you're going through, you will get through. If you try. And trust me it's worth trying. It's hard fighting with your own brain everyday but you CAN do it.   💖💖


My trauma is from bullying,in primary school I was bullied every single day, from day one to the last day sometimes only a few comments and sometimes I was beaten up or surrounded by bullies and shouted at, in highschool it was just as bad so for basically years I was bullied non stop, beaten physically on a few occasions and emotionally isolated from my entire peer group, I'm nearly twenty and still have severe night terrors sometimes though not as bad as it used to be, I also have had bad relationships and interactions with other men when I identified as my birth sex, trauma really likes to pile up and it affects me now when I meet new people or talk to anyone, even family.


Thank you, thank you, thank you for this video - from the bottom of my heart. <3


thank you for making me be more aware. thank you for making me research and learn. i love you. thank you.


Going through this right now. And I'd wish to be anywhere else. The people that used to be the closest to me don't seem real, neither do I. It's awful. Thank you so much for this video, it's good to know I'm not alone


I'm coming back to watch these videos for a second time because now I think it relates to me... Lately I haven't been feeling like the world around me is real. And almost every time I speak it doesn't seem like me speaking. It's as though I'm watching myself and my life in a movie. And it's super hard for me to be present in moments and my memory of moments is splotchy and if I do remember some flashes of moments it's as if I'm remembering a scene from a movie, not my own life. Right now it's not too bad but on Wednesday I almost had a panic attack because of how unreal I felt. I've needed therapy for multiple reasons for a long time but I've never seen a therapist. I really really want to get one asap though cause I can't deal with all the anxiety and derealization by myself 😳


I recently realized that I have derealization, but I'm positive that I haven't experienced trauma of any kind that I remember, unless growing up in an argumentative household counts, but now I'm trying to think back if it started when my dad died (I didn't watch him die, but I wasn't able to see him that often when he was alive so it didn't feel real) anyway, it's affecting me a lot in school right now and I didn't know you could go on medication for it.

Also, I have no clue if this is part of it, but my body is numb on the surface level, and if you pinch me real hard it won't hurt.


Just to say, because my counsellor also seemed to think 50mg of Sertraline was a really high dose, it isn't, it's the lowest dose you would be prescribed. If it makes you feel weird straight away, as it has a few people, I've known, stop taking and report that to your GP. For me, it helped at a point when I badly needed lifting out of the mire but yes, it levelled out and numbed a little. I didn't want to read books anymore because I didn't get to care enough about the characters. Though that's a big, big downside, it lifted me enough to start thinking about my situation and what needed to be done about it. The worst thing, I think, has to be, that you're prescribed something and that's it, job done. It needs to be stressed and stressed repeatedly by GPs that this is a way to lift or level your mood and then, more action will be necessary. Provision isn't there in the way that it should be but, ot should be stressed that this is step one on a journey to recovery. I'd spend money in vets bills that I wouldn't spend on therapy before I knew that. Priorities. I still care for my pets, don't worry, it's just, it makes you realise. The provision should be there but isn't. Skimp on something else if you have to. Priorities. If you can't afford to, push for help and for heavens sake, don't feel guilty no matter how much you tell yourself you ought to be fine. You deserve help and it will get better.


Ok but the sudden deep look dodie had in the camera at 8:52 kinda looked unreal like a person in a dream breaking character, breaking the fourth wall, creeply acknowledging you.. but I guess this video really puts you in the mood for stuff like this

this is amazing, i never noticed that! thanks for pointing it out <3


I've never really had depersonalization, but derealization during panic attacks


suffering DP or DR can be so scary but these explanations of each disorder is comforting, it seems so simple and makes sense - after fearing the worst


I'm doing this thing..where I'm creating a little vlog/diary thingy about my mental breakdowns. Like, the dates I'm feeling depressed and wanting to self harm and stuff. I've only recently wanted to officially self harm today. I'm just hoping to go to the doctors and receive a diagnosis because I really don't know what I'm feeling and I just need an explanation.


Im going to therapy, and it's hard for me to say "me" or "I", I usually say "One" like it was another person


Hello dodie <3<br>I was just listening to old Demi songs and stumbled upon 'La La Land'. It would be so perfect if you did a cover, since you love the movie and Demi! Sending lots of love, you're one of my favorite youtubers. <3

Hello dodie <3
I was just listening to old Demi songs and stumbled upon 'La La Land'. It would be so perfect if you did a cover, since you love the movie and Demi! Sending lots of love, you're one of my favorite youtubers. <3


i have depersonalization on a daily basis, but i try to use it to my advantage and i view my life kinda like a tv show, and i think: "if a character on a tv show did this would i think 'no don't do that'?" so idk, when the derealization starts thats paired with the derealization and it sometimes it resembles psychedelics <br>like having a 'bad trip' while sober, only it happens a lot and I've learned to live with it

i have depersonalization on a daily basis, but i try to use it to my advantage and i view my life kinda like a tv show, and i think: "if a character on a tv show did this would i think 'no don't do that'?" so idk, when the derealization starts thats paired with the derealization and it sometimes it resembles psychedelics
like having a 'bad trip' while sober, only it happens a lot and I've learned to live with it


I think i have this. I’ve been trying for years to figure out what was the matter with me. And every time i wake up it all feels weird. I feel like a roam everywhere. Thanks


I think I've been dealing with depersonalisation or derealisation, I also think I have anxiety so that might fuel it. Basically I start to feel like nothing is really real and I'm not really there, I can't think properly if I can think at all (you know that weird little thinking voice you have, sometimes that kind of just,,, doesn't,,, exist,,,). I used to just get a few five minute ish moments, but recently (like today and right now oh god haha) I just haven't been here for hours on end and I can't really focus or do anything properly, I can't even remember anything properly. I found that people holding my hand or playing with my hair helps a lot, idk why but yeah.


I hope she knows how darn adorable she is...


I sometimes wonder if I have derealization/depersonalisation. Because there are times when I feel like I'm trapped inside myself and I want to be there in that moment but suddenly it feels like everything else is distant and I'm just watching things happen from some far corner inside myself. It just happens suddenly. It can last for long periods of time or just come and go in snap and I'm back to being more or less okay. But when that happens, when people try to talk to me or when something happens I go blank like I don't know really know how to respond because it's like whatever is happening isn't really sinking in so even if I'm there it feels like I'm not but the thing is I don't think I've ever experienced something that would cause me any sort of trauma


I had derealization and the whole 9 yards. I remember feeling hopeless last year searching video after video just wanting every thing to end. No one believed Or understood what i was going through not even doctors. I been in your shoes and God sent me to tell you. Everything will be ok, you will be healed. Plz hold on and dont give up. I know your pain! It is scary! But God got you. I never thought i would heal but i healed…If your diet is bad and you dont get enough nutrients plz look into that! Big factor of what cause mine was malnutrition and lacking minerals.. Also idk for sure if candida was the cause but i was taking cold delivered probiotics highy quality..Also exercise is important i would walk around my apartment complex…barely able to walk one lap the first time…because my panic attacks were so bad. If you are lcking nutrient plz be careful with fitness..Also be around love ones it helps so much! I love yall plz dont give up i know the feeling of giving up…but dont your worth more than that!! You can make it out! Also try juicing cucumbers melons apples and stuff high in h3o2. You could be dehydrated. Idk specifically which one is to blame but i focused and those four things. You will be healed I love you dont give up! God put me through it so I could come back and help others! You got this!


Thanks dodie I didn't know what this is called. Really helpful.


what does it mean if i don't really feel like it's a dream but i just feel like... idek how to explain it. like you're watching tv and you're looking at the screen and you know it's real but.. you're just  seeing it through a screen. or you see it and you also feel like you arent seeing it, like you're seeing it in your head. is that... the same thing?

This is similar to how I feel. It's definitely hard to describe. Kinda like everything I'm seeing is through a window like it's there and I can see it but it's on the other side of the window.

I think it's dissociation. You feel like you are present but nothing seems to make any sense. That's what I had like I couldn't see anything as the information registered in my mind.


I just sent this video and your other video discussing your experience with derealisation to my psych teacher in hopes she uses it in reference to the chapters on it


Okay, so the feeling that they are describing makes it sound like that you feel like you're having a sort of out of body experience but still seeing through your physical eyes, which is what I feel like more than I'm not. However, I don't understand why they make it seem like it's such a negative thing. I like the way it feels because it helps me do things that I can't normally do when I don't feel like that, such as jump off a bridge, or run into a house that's on fire. It's not that bad


I have this I didn’t know how to describe it till I watched your videos . I tell my close friends and close family members that I don’t feel like I’m me and when I look in the mirror it’s not me and I’m always looking from other people’s eyes and never threw mine. It’s probably the most frustrating thing i’ve ever experienced it’s constant. I don’t feel  like myself and I feel like I’m a stranger and I’ve just recently changed Body’s and this is not me. Looking threw my eyes it feels fuzzy and sunken.


So I know that where I live we have Psych majors in Universities doing therapy programs fit to income and as low as $25 a session. All of their work is overlooked by their profs and I've been told it's a very affordable way of recieving certain types of mental health help. Obviously it's not gonna be the best of the best but if there are people who need to at least start their journey it seems like a good place to begin.


THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCHH IM GOING TO MY FIRST COUNCILING SESSION TOMORROW AND IM SO FUCKING SCAREEDDDDD


I realized I struggled with depersonalization/derealization recently when I took my first dosage of my adhd medication. Day one, about 90 minutes in, I finally felt "present" in my own body. Like I could feel and interact with things and people. I loved existing. Like Ive always felt this "disconnect" from life, almost like those states where you slightly wake up from a dream and the memory is still there but it feels very far away. Like a zoomed out and blurry picture. I felt like I was playing a first person video game of myself (not exactly "out of body", but I didnt feel like I could properly take hold of my own body either).

Recently tho Ive been feeling blank again and idk if it means the medicine isnt working, or if its because of the depressive episode Im in, but its a journey. And its a journey I feel proud to share with so many inspiring people like Dodie and Bo Burnham.

I reduced mine after being stuck in it for 9 years. with 2 simple breathing exercises and a cold shower every day.


For me I feel like I am watching a live recording of someone else’s life through a phone screen, through their eyes, watching it through mine. I know that really it is me, but sometimes I doubt that.

I also constantly feel like I am disconnected from the world, like I’m not really there. Time goes slow and the world around me moves on without me. I rarely feel emotions, and the emotions I do feel aren’t easy to identify. I guess everyone’s brain is like a canvas. Some are painted with bright acrylic paint, and it’s easy to tell what they’re feeling, whereas there is only a bit of paint on mine. On my canvas, there is just a bit of watercolour paint, smudged and faded into the canvas. Sometimes I wonder whether I feel any emotion at all.


Can everyone have depersonalization once in while? I have had it happen to me a couple times since I was younger but I thought it was just like an out of body experience and everyone had those sometimes.


Hey, can Derealization be caused by physical illness? I feel like I’m always dreaming but I’ve thought it’s just because I have health issues.


watching this again I feel like some of shanes fans might come here and be like OmG shEs iN shAnEs jAke pAuL sEriEs instead of watching the actual video you know?


I experience derealization and it can get really annoying
It feels likes the events that are happening are not really happening to me right now

I remember one day I went with my dad to the movies and at that moment I had derealization, I remember he helped me get downstairs (because we were sitting on some stair chairs) and he helped my by holding my hand
And even though I love my dad more than anyone in this world, I felt like that moment was not really happening
I felt like nothing that was happening had any impact in my life
I felt as if I was watching a movie and that didn't happen to me
I wanted to feel guilty, and that is weird to say
But I wanted to feel guilty because I didn't feel anything and my dad means a lot to me
And right now too,
Tomorrow is Monday and something is gonna happen and I've been really excited about it but right now it just can't seem to me that tomorrow is monday

And what makes matters worse is that I have anxiety too
So I don't believe it's Monday tomorrow and it feels like the hours are not passing by and it's not real
But I am also concerned and trying to convince myself that tomorrow is indeed Monday and I'm really concerned


So apt that the advert that popped up is that movie downsizing, as when i go into DP/DR limbo, i get this weird feeling of altered perception of size and spacial

P.s, intregued to see how cbt goes for you on the disassociative front, as i dont feel it'd help me, but could maybe take inspiration if it helped someone else 👍🏽


I have depersonalization and derealization, until now and I keep this to my family, only some of my internet friends knows. I experienced this when I was in 7th grade, I'm really scareed, and super pale that time, bcs me & my friends are talking abt ghost, and yes. I got depersonalization/derealization, bcs of that. On my 8th grade, I deal with it and didn't bother what's going on to me, living my life to the fullest. Summer 2018 (my worst summer) I'm really depressed the WHOLE SUMMER, i got more & more pimples, I don't eat that much, and thinking that I'm living in hell, bcs I feel that I'm not here, i feel everything was dark, and I pray, begged him to heal my mind or rewind those moments, I'm sooo fucked up. I tried thinking that it's better to die, but I'm too afraid to die. I'm too young. Moving on, I'm in 9th grade, and I still have depersonalization/derealization, I always remind myself that the whole things that I see is true, and don't invest your time with depersonalization/derealization thunking that you have those just TRIGGERS your mind, and sometimes i felt sooo unreal, but i know it's all true, and LASTLY God give us these disorder bcs these has purpose, to make us stronger! Ya'll it's 2019, Let's live our life to the fullest!


I know you probably won’t see this but if you do then I’ll just say that for a while I’ve been doing this thing called breathwork, it’s like counselling but instead of talking you do connected breathing and emotions can come up, sometimes they don’t but usually it does. It’s been so great for me so far, I always struggle to get there as my brain is telling me to hide instead of facing my problems but I always feel so relaxed afterwards and more myself and I can feel my body and how great it actually is.
I’d highly suggest it!!! It definitely helps if you feel comfortable with the person leading you through it, I know I wouldn’t enjoy it with anyone other than the lady who takes me through it.
Also I love you so much and how strong you are!! You inspire me so much and your singing is just amazing and makes me wanna put more time into my singing!!
Also I’m from the Blue Mountains in Australia (so I live near Andie and I’ve seen her perform and she’s just amazing!!)
Thank you so much for being you xxxx


Bruh when i hear you talking bout this, <br>im Happy my Depersonalisation is from 100 to maybe 50/60%

Bruh when i hear you talking bout this,
im Happy my Depersonalisation is from 100 to maybe 50/60%


this was a really nice and informative video but also I just have to say that Kati has a very sweet smile like I'm blown away at how cute she is (also Dodie but that's always a Given)


I have never thought about this topic or even heared about derealisation and depersonalization but it sounds so familiar ... I have always felt very strange since i was a kid, time was always something strange for me 30 minutes could be 5 hours. That’s better now, but still i feel very familiar with this topic.
I don’t have lose of eye sight or something like that.
Could it be possible for someone with derealisation or depersonalization to not recognize it ?


i think i might have derealisation. most of the time i feel like nothing is real, or i forget that i exist in the world, and sometimes i feel like i’m floating/disconnected from my surroundings, and i get a feeling of complete numbness.
it’s not too extreme, but it definitely gets worse during my episodes of depression.
i want to get help (more so for depression and anxiety) but i’m scared to talk to my mom about it (she’s says i’m too young to have it), and i’m not sure if i could work up the courage to talk to a therapist :(


holy shit the little t big t thing. makes so much sense thank you


Ok so occasionally I go through these periods of a few hours or si of just being numb and not wanting to do anything except sit there and sometimes cry. And once i was with friends at the time and one second i was fine, and the next I was not and I felt like I just couldn't move or reach to anything. The worst part was how guilty I felt because I felt I should be hangin out with them, but I didn't have enough stregnth to give myself that push to going back to normal. Does anyone have any ideas what causes this or what it is?


I know there is a very small chance of dodie actually reading this but it has to be said. I’m so thankful dodie has made this video. Even speaking about this is so freaking helpful. I’ve been struggling with the same sort of symptoms so I went to my doctor and she thinks I have it. If dodie hadn’t made these videos about depersonalisation derealisation disorder then I wouldn’t of know what it was. I probably would of thought I was going crazy. But I don’t and it’s because she speaks out about it. This is so incredibly useful mostly because even the nhs website doesn’t have information on it about this disorder. This is the video I’ve sent my parents who didn’t understand it because I didn’t know how to explain it. So thank you dodie. You’ve helped so many people and I hope you realise how important and wonderful these videos are :)))))


Thank you for sharing! Made me feel better.


I've had feelings of depersonalization since kindergarten and I told the teacher who called my mom up concerned. I'm 18 and I'm still having those feelings. My mother wont hmbring me to a therapist and I've talked to doctors who dont seen to care. Its really effecting my life and now that I'm suffering with a chronic illness it's gotten worse. I dont know what to do. I feel like I'm watching my life through pov goggles and like I'm not really there and just going through the motions. I think about this is my body that woman is my mom who I love and I almost can't feel those attachments as well. It's scary. I dont know what to do. My mother was abusive and I constantly had to stop her from killing herself from a young age. First time was the 2nd grade when she tried to shoot herself in the head. That's just to name a few. I dont know what I could have forgotten to protect myself if I remeber those things, but I dont feel quite right. I feel like I'm losing my mind and nobody will listen

Bella asdfghjkllkjkjhhfdut hey I hope you are ok. I understand what you are saying. I lived my entire life in a dis functional state and didn’t realize it until I turned 40. I’m 44 now and can comprehend how terrible my family was to me. Get some healing now and don’t give up until you find the help you need. Take care 💞


Can someone help me figure out whats wrong with me?? I have a constant state of feeling like I'm forgetting to do something (when I'm not), or that I should be doing something else. I'm often not content with anything I'm doing or feel uncomfortable with things i accomplish. Sometimes I feel better about it and other times it spikes, often after I go out to have fun or a major important event happens in my life. Can someone associate this with anything?

Hannah Lewis ik im kinda late but why dont u email the chick in the video thats what im doing

Hannah Lewis seems like you are comparing what you do to others thus causing you to feel like you're less than or something. Everyone is the same don't compare yourself to others because no matter how much it seems someone is content and always so called "happy" they aren't. Most people front and suffer in silence. There's nothing wrong with you.

Hannah Lewis I feel the same and I always just attributed that constant state of worry towards anxiety :-/ idk if thats a common thing or nah

Hannah Lewis+ Sounds like it's rooted in anxiety but it really needs a pro to tell that with any confidence. It spiking after positive emotions might be some sort of rebound as your emotional state returns to normal.

Don't worry about whether you're normal (to quote a therapist, "What's normal?") it's whether it creates problems for you that matters. Ruminating on it will probably just make it worse by making you more anxious.


the problem is that the only people i can talk to about it are like my parents but in the past ive gotten bad reactions whenever i was completely honest and thats kind of been one of the trauma things for me


So I think I have derealisation.  I don't feel like I'm dreaming ALL THE TIME, but it happens more often.  But I have no idea why.  I can't remember having experienced anything traumatic.

I also have the feeling that my "seizures" aren't triggered by anything, they're just there sometimes and then I feel weird and then they go away again.  I just want to know if there is such a thing without a trigger and if I am the only one who feels that way or if I am just crazy ?

(I’m from Germany that’s why my english isn’t perfect 😅)


Grateful for all thar vulnerability that is being shared in the comments. It is very courageous of all of you to be reaching out for help. You are strong (and I'll just remind myself too: I am strong) Xx


A loved one just died and when I got the news I felt like i was a passenger in my body. I was watching hands move and it didn't feel like me. I would look at my mother and it almost felt like I was pretending that I had known them my entire life. Overall a very strange thing to experience.


I feel like I don’t really exist. It’s like I’m seeing myself as someone outside of me, like how every person seems to me. I wish I could see myself from their perspective, like a person.

When I look at my mom, it’s difficult for me to believe that she is a living person with her own mind and thoughts... and that everyone else in the world is the same. They all have thoughts and experiences making everyone different and unique.

I wish I could look at myself through another person’s eyes. Maybe then I could see how I’m a person as well, with my own mind and thoughts.

     (I typed the above in the span of... maybe 3 minutes? I just typed what came out of my mind after watching. It may not make sense to you, but I decided to type it anyway, just incase any others may be having the same feelings 🙂 I hope every here is doing well these days :D)

I was actually happy ... because I loved my life, I loved my friends, loved to play, loved to draw and listen to music. It kills me. It is really difficult to be happy with this state! I know it’s difficult, but I’m not going to give up

@nayely perla I honestly forgot about this comment! Since I am only in my early ages, I have not really been able to get help. I actually tried explaining it to two close relatives, but it seems like they don’t experience the same. It may seem like that would put you down or make you feel sad, but really to me I was happy for them and it reminded me that this probably will not last forever!

(Typed about 3 minutes later after getting water:)
Now that I think about it more... maybe it has gotten worse? I had an important test today where I had to physically go to my school, and I felt really disassociated, but I just put it aside. My performance on it could have been better without the spaced out-ness.

(After thinking more:)
Maybe I overthought it. I have no clue anymore and I have gotten lost in my thoughts... This was all over the place. I guess that is a representative of my mental health now 😞 Maybe I just have to go to bed. I hope things brighten up for you ❤

@nayely perla It will all make sense again one day 😞

I feel the same way and i feel like what even is humanity i dont even feel like a person


I’ve been living with this. It helps you save money for drugs and alcohol


i’m watching this while dissociating and i started crying and then panicked because my brain got confused as to why there was water coming out of my eyes LMAO


Honestly sometimes I feel like mental illness is like trying to find peace in a battlefield blind


I cut my hair, and I'm going through depressing depersonalization. I don't feel like me.

I'm not sure if I have one of the others, but sometimes when I'm in water, and I close my eyes for a second, i feel like suddenly I'm drowning, and everything is blank and black and my body has no control over me. It might be because when I was a child i almost drowned, but it scares me a lot.

Sometimes I feel like Im not at my house when I am at my house and I find myself yelling "I want to go home." or not in the place I am, and that might be because of how when I was little I would be dropped off at my grandma's every week and cry because I wasnt at home and I was really scared and lonely, but I'm not sure it's too major.

And sometimes when I see flashing lights, it doesn't hurt my brain, but it makes me feel lost and panicked and I see black and yellow flashing around and my breathing is heavy and I can't feel my body and everything is out of control.. but idk.


Sometimes i think we're twins, you and I, Dodie


Last time I got it again was today. On a car ride home. Out of the blue, Im in a dream. I feel like Im floating outside of my body.

Been having it for 8 years now. Its just hard to explain to people who havent had it


So. Dodie. I recently have been struggling with questioning my sexuality. I'm a Christian in a Christian home and I'm demisexual/asexual and I've always said that I liked boys. But idk. Girls are cute. And sweet and soft and they smell nice and they give soft hugs and AGH. but like. I feel wrong. Like. AGHHH IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN. idk. Okay. Lemme try to make sense of it. Because of my Demi/asexuality it's hard to differentiate between friendly and romantic. Cuz I want to cuddle my best friend and I've kinda wanted her to kiss me before but idk if I wanted it in a romantic or platonic way. Because I don't want to date her. But I love being around her and being with her and cuddling and hugging her and holding her hand. But I don't really wanna like. make out with her or date her. Idk. Help?


Trigger Warning Please please please help. I had my lowest point last night where I thought about getting drunk to numb the pain or running away for the night (I follow all the rules and have never contemplated those things in my LIFE) so I texted the crisis text line. It helped for the night and I didn't do anything irrational.

Today I just feel numb. I feel like I need to tell my mom what's happening. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I went to the bathroom and when I looked in the mirror, I could feel myself losing the nausea, the memory of last night, the guilt, all of it, and it terrified me. It is terrifying me. I don't know what it is and I don't know what to do. I'm having trouble focusing and remembering and I'm scared I'll never feel again.

It's stupid to say, but there's this guy I really like and I want to be able to love him, but I'm scared that if I'm stuck like this, I'll be numb forever and never get to feel the joy I felt before. I want to feel again. All of it. I don't even care if it's bad anymore. I'm just so scared of feeling nothing.

*Trigger Warning* Please please please help. I had my lowest point last night where I thought about getting drunk to numb the pain or running away for the night (I follow all the rules and have never contemplated those things in my LIFE) so I texted the crisis text line. It helped for the night and I didn't do anything irrational.

Today I just feel numb. I feel like I need to tell my mom what's happening. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I went to the bathroom and when I looked in the mirror, I could feel myself losing the nausea, the memory of last night, the guilt, all of it, and it terrified me. It is terrifying me. I don't know what it is and I don't know what to do. I'm having trouble focusing and remembering and I'm scared I'll never feel again.

It's stupid to say, but there's this guy I really like and I want to be able to love him, but I'm scared that if I'm stuck like this, I'll be numb forever and never get to feel the joy I felt before. I want to feel again. All of it. I don't even care if it's bad anymore. I'm just so scared of feeling nothing.


so i have depersonalization, but i’ve kinda got used to it, so i’ve just accepted that i haven’t felt like myself or a real person for a long time and i might not ever. it’s not really that bad, but sometimes i have little spurts of when it gets worse (that only last for like 10 minutes)


can you have all three all at once? I always feel very spaced out and constantly feel like I'm in a dream. However, there have been times (like when I fell face first onto an escalator in the mall, or when I failed my test and my teacher read the score out loud to the whole class) when I have a brief feeling of being spaced out but at the same time all my senses kind of go numb and I don't feel like my hands are my hands or my legs are too long for my body. While all this is happening I also feel like I can't sense anything around me (which also happens constantly throughout my day). So idk if I'm describing something different than dissociation, derealisation, and depersonalization, but it sounds pretty similar so could I be experiencing all three at the same time?


Started first session with another new therapist after years. She thinks I might have this problem. Have been dissociating since being a child. Also have emotional deregulation problems diagnosed years before. I hate these things. I do not like the highs and lows of the emotions at all, there is nothing nice about it whatsoever. Anyways, I really like your channel. Hopefully this therapy will work and therapist thinks EMDR will be beneficial.


WTF!!! You just described something I wish could have been diagnosed that has lasted almost my entire life. I was just randomly watching your vids trying to not feel ill from the stupid amounts of alcohol I've been binging lately (there are like 18 or so empty bottles of wine in the corner of my room atm), then saw one of your vids titles, thought ''Derealization is a cool word, wonder if it's a video game, hope it's on PS4'', or some innocent shit, what I heard on the video was ''Yeah, you know that thing that you've been suffering with badly for your entire life, but couldn't get any doctors to try diagnose you because you're a pleb at explaining, yeah that's this thing mate, lmao''.

I jduganasmddsd... WAT?!!! O_O

I had a traumatic psychotic panic attack like 10 years ago and got sent to a mental hospital against my will thinking that I was being poisoned by my family and the doctors, and that they were trying to kill me. There was no point that I was correctly weaned off the effects of that, and it was shortly after that the Derealization and Depersonalization got worse (there are two points before that where it grew in intensity without reverting). I actually had a few short lived intense bursts of it, one was when playing a game with a friend, it grew so strong (for perhaps a couple minutes) that I actually wasn't sure if I was real, as in, despite being pulled into this weird state from an immediate point of relative normalcy just a moment before, the intensity of the feeling was so strong that I couldn't logically overrule it as me having some weird brain malfunction, so I told my friend that I wasn't sure if I was alive and that I never cared, then I just stopped playing the game and let the enemies hit me while staring blankly off into space before returning to normal. It was a state so strong that if it persisted, I would simply have died shortly after, I would have felt completely indifferent the thought of death and probably would have thrown myself down the stairs out of curiosity of my indifference shortly after. Luckily it reverted as much as it came.

Apart from 2/3 intense bursts, I've had days where my constant state of Depersonalization is so bad that I refused to enter simple conversations with friends, purely because my head was completely unable to articulate anything other than responses of just a few words, and I'm so scared of actually looking mentally ill. I'm so glad I can now try to get this diagnosed, thank you Dodie, for the first time in a long time, I'm feeling genuine happiness that I can get help with this.


zoloft did something like that for me too. my doctor kept boosting my dose and it just kept making it worse and then they took me off of it and now im still just as bad as when i started meds. so that kinda sucks


0:15 "i have a mental health channel"
me too its just 8 minutes a week of me degrading myself

0:15 "i have a mental health channel"
*me too its just 8 minutes a week of me degrading myself*


It's like a mushroom trip that you are stuck in. But it's like....time stops. It stops and you are so overly aware. You feel everything so deeply and meaningfully. You see everything at face value first...but there is no one there to express this to or reassure you that they feel the same way. You are alone....in everything even when surrounded by people. It feels like everything and everyone that matters around you disappears, and you aren't allowed to be too loud because someone important is sleeping in the next room and they have responsibilities, so you can't even disturb them....even though every morning feels like you are burning in hell for something you can't even remember doing ....and the feeling lasts as each minute passes. It ebbs and flows determining on how distracted you let your mind get. Your only relief is reading books that deal with spirit like the bible, or other religious practices...obsessing yourself with facts and education or work or the abilities of the mind body and soul....trying your hardest not to feel like you're in hell or being punished...or part of some reality that is false from the one you were raised in. Your only feeling of life comes from everything you are thankful for because .....when you allow yourself those moments, you get a brief relief from the ongoing truth that no one knows anything really...everything is a construct....and life is a mystery...and that's okay. I have to remind myself that it's all okay....that I'm blessed to live in a safe country, I have food shelter etc.....and if I open my heart....only good things can come. Even if it's scary. It's the practice of mindfulness....we create our own hell. Being a very aware and loving spirit is a great thing as long as you can find a way to discipline that fire rather than run away from it's intent. We are able to create our own dimensions ranging from hell to heaven etc. We can create our own realities...we do it accumulative, as well as alone. We are powerful beings, we just need to educate ourselves on how to utilize and effectively discipline that energy so it's not be wasted, but dutifully enjoyed.  <3


Help, could you please make a video on how to deal with depersonalization derealization disorder at school? I'm a teenage student and going to school is very hard for me, mainly because there's so many people there (i think). <br>also, thought I'd write this down: whenever i come home from literally anywhere, i feel really weird and as if nothing ever happened in the first place... It's hard to explain, especially because English isn't my first language, but it's sort of as if everything that happened became a blur and it was for nothing. i also get that feeling when there's a lot of people around, especially at my house, who I've never met before or who i don't feel comfortable around. The first time i noticed this feeling was, i think, when i was a child and i got home after a long day spent over at my friend's house. another childhood memory is around Christmas when people came to my house to sing me and my family some carols, so i was surrounded by people that i didn't know(which has always been overwhelming for me), and i got a strange feeling as if i couldn't connect to any of them at all. I still get that a lot, and i remember it happening a lot in the past as well, many times during Christmas and just normal days where I'd do what every human does. It's weird.

Help, could you please make a video on how to deal with depersonalization derealization disorder at school? I'm a teenage student and going to school is very hard for me, mainly because there's so many people there (i think).
also, thought I'd write this down: whenever i come home from literally anywhere, i feel really weird and as if nothing ever happened in the first place... It's hard to explain, especially because English isn't my first language, but it's sort of as if everything that happened became a blur and it was for nothing. i also get that feeling when there's a lot of people around, especially at my house, who I've never met before or who i don't feel comfortable around. The first time i noticed this feeling was, i think, when i was a child and i got home after a long day spent over at my friend's house. another childhood memory is around Christmas when people came to my house to sing me and my family some carols, so i was surrounded by people that i didn't know(which has always been overwhelming for me), and i got a strange feeling as if i couldn't connect to any of them at all. I still get that a lot, and i remember it happening a lot in the past as well, many times during Christmas and just normal days where I'd do what every human does. It's weird.


as a person who has battled depersonalization for about 2 years and and recovered-  just every time you have that terrifying thought just embrace it, don't fight it, dont even give it a single bit of attention. just embrace the  anxiety and fear of the thought, without pushing it away and just get on with whatever else it is you're doing. as soon as you start pushing it away and thinking about it it comes back stronger and stronger, whereas if you dont give it a thought you start to become accustomed to the thought and the physical symptoms relieve as well. Trust me This is the way out!

and just remember youre not crazy, youre just stuck in this thought loop fucking cycle, you will get out of it it wears away, just a matter of when- which all depends on you just getting on with things and embracing the thoughts and feelings. dont avoid, dont over think, not a spare second dedicated to it and youll get better.


When she shaid that thing about inside out i was like holyshitosaurus this is amazing.


I kind of got this after a philosophy lesson. We were talking about what real knowledge is. So some philosophers think that we only need our 'ratio' to think but I was like huh about what are they gonna think about if we only have our minds. I think we need our senses but senses are subjective so we can't be absolutely sure if that's real knowledge. I overthink in general a lot. But does this mean that I may be the only one in the world because without my senses there's nothing. Well after this lesson I just felt like nothing was real and I was dreaming all the time. Ugh


i thought this was normal omg this is so scary. dodie thank you so much xxx


My depersonalization/derealization was so bad in middle school, I would have moments where I would stop in the middle of the hallway and just have complete amnesia for a few seconds. I know it sounds like bullshit but that was a very bad time of my life, and I think it was my body's way of staying "sane" to just tune out for a couple seconds. I would forget where I was, who I was, and just absolutely everything around me was so surreal and scary. It all came back momentarily, but I never knew when it was going to hit me. Thank god that's over! If anyone out there reading this gets these moments, change your life. If you're in an abusive home, run away. Judge me all you want, people who don't have abusive parents, but I wish i ran away. It took me getting kicked out to realize i needed to get away from there.


I wish all people would just watch this and understand what I mean when I try to explain derealization and dissociation and ugh. Literally no one I have ever met has ever understood what it is except for my mom. It’s just so frustrating especially when people are like “so you dream all the time” like ugh


Guys I know this isn’t super related but if google doesn’t help I go to YouTube so here it goes because I don’t know if this is normal or not: I’m still twelve years old and I can remember anything from my “past” if a twelve year old can even have a past, Ive seen this with old people but I can remember that much of what happens to even just days later and I often only cling on to a few memories that are really sentimental. AND I tend to have some times where I’m really spaced out and in the classroom (when I’m spaced out) it’s hard to focus no matter how hard I try. If you were wondering i have had no bad things have happen to me and my family is amazing.<br>SOMEONE SMART HELP ME.

Guys I know this isn’t super related but if google doesn’t help I go to YouTube so here it goes because I don’t know if this is normal or not: I’m still twelve years old and I can remember anything from my “past” if a twelve year old can even have a past, Ive seen this with old people but I can remember that much of what happens to even just days later and I often only cling on to a few memories that are really sentimental. AND I tend to have some times where I’m really spaced out and in the classroom (when I’m spaced out) it’s hard to focus no matter how hard I try. If you were wondering i have had no bad things have happen to me and my family is amazing.
SOMEONE SMART HELP ME.

Riley Brinson adhd? ADD? Ask your parents to take you too a therapist. If money is an issue, most cities have free ones. It isn’t shameful, and they are there to help. Don’t be embarrassed. It’s very common. Good luck!


OMGMGG I watch Her ALL the timee, shes the reson I want to be a Licensed therapist


So I think I have this?? I don't really know, I want to talk to my mom but sometimes she´s like "you are just finding out diseases that you see on the internet" or stuff like that and this really sucks because I can't enjoy my life when I'm spaced out and I really hate it.<br>Thank you so much for doing this video, I'm going to show this to my mom and ask her for help<3

So I think I have this?? I don't really know, I want to talk to my mom but sometimes she´s like "you are just finding out diseases that you see on the internet" or stuff like that and this really sucks because I can't enjoy my life when I'm spaced out and I really hate it.
Thank you so much for doing this video, I'm going to show this to my mom and ask her for help<3


im 23 and i think i have it . my friend was in a car accident and that triggered a panic attack and i believe that triggered this. now im stuck feeling like im me but not me and i just want someone to be like yes i know what youre going through and no your not losing your mind


I have had it for a long time now and I have sorta learnt to control it. I smoked weed last year first time and it gave me a massive attack and took me a while to get over.


i have been searching forever for some sort of treatment for my dissociation/derealization. this is really done well! but i feel like.. nothing triggers my dissociation? i just randomly dissociate throughout the day. especially if i’m bored and i don’t need to use my brain. :/ idk. i’ve had it for a year and it hasn’t gone away. i even have a therapist, but it reaaallly doesn’t help as much as i wish it would.


Idk whether this is derealization, I call it spacing out because I don't like diagnosing. If I've had a panic attack or I'm panicking it feels like my consciousness has been booted out of the back of my head. I had it when I thought about reincarnation or anything to do with anxiety for me- it was an immediate zoom out and I was panicking without feeling anything properly. I hate it. I hate knowing that there is a condition because I feel like I can't ignore it.


I.... think this might actually be what’s up with me???? I have all of these symptoms that don’t fit into things or I was thinking it was like several different things but they ??? literally all fit into this???? Hopefully I can get a therapist soon and then also hopefully they actually know what this is so... agh!! Thank you Dodie <3


Dear Dodie,
We miss you. Where did you go?
Sincerely, your fans 💜


i tend to dissociate? or maybe derealise? im not sure which one exactly but i guess i'll say "severely space out" when i'm too stressed about school or a bad social setting (too many people around me and feeling suffocated, for example). my brain just makes me go somewhere else and i feel hazy to get through whatever is stressing me out. but that doesn't sound trauma related to me so i dont know if that's what it really is or if it's an anxiety thing or what

also i have a difficult time accepting my body as my own. i tried to talk to my therapist about this but she didn't exactly get it. :/ when i look in the mirror, my face isnt my face. looking back on old selfies feels surreal. even laying here right now, my legs don't look like they should be mine. this has led to some troubles regarding eating and whatnot because im constantly trying to look like what i think i look like in my head but idek what that is.

sorry for rambling on i just wanna get this out. thank you for making this dodie


I toggle between all of the 3 D's. It gets worse when I'm stressed or tired or upset. I went through a lot of emotional abuse and manipulation as a child. I have moments where I just don't recognize myself. I have to ask people "Is that really what I look like?" I don't have a mental image of what my face or body look like, so I often compulsively look into mirrors to remind myself. I know things like "I'm pale. I have black hair. I have green eyes." But, I can't think about what the features look like specifically. I have to see them to know. I have moments where I feel like I'm having a stroke because my limbs and face tingle, and my brain just feels foggy. I'll be driving somewhere and go into full-on panic mode because my eyes will feel too heavy, and I feel like I can't keep them open enough. I get scared I have a brain tumor or that I'm going insane or that I'm about to go into a seizure. I have to put in genuine effort sometimes to feel emotion or respond to  situations. I just feel numb a lot of the time. It's not fun. It makes me feel defective.


i really feel like i have mild disassociation and synesthesia but i don’t want to self diagnose and my family doesn’t believe me. if someone is reading this i just want to ask for your opinion. is association with words and colors and letters and colors some mild form of synesthesia? for example
a- red
o- blue
i- yellow
consonants sound quiet and sharp and feel solid but also like airy.
however names or words, like:
noah- it’s not really blue, it’s like deeper, but not like shade it’s just more bloe than blue like the difference between soprano and baritone
sophie- is blue and yellow but not mixed but like swirly
it’s not like a taste or visualization it’s just an association.
i don’t know what this is but i would love some advice if possible.


i think apart of my periods of derealization has to do with my not being able to focus on anything, due to a.d.d. i’ve been diagnosed with  depression and g.a.d., but neither depersonalization/derealization nor a.d.d., so i cant be sure if the a.d.d. is making something that i might not have worse


im glad snapchat exists so i can see dodie everyday😌😊😌😊


My husband went blind and left us. It is awful and I’m heartbroken. He was abused as a child and loosing his vision supposedly caused this. It’s so awful he’s has a lot of people who have negatively impacted his recovery. I lost my best friend


I don’t know if this is actually me or not or if I’m being a bit of a hypochondriac at the moment, but I feel like I have derealization. I feel like I’m on auto-pilot all the time, like I don’t control the words that come out of my mouth or my reactions to things, the only time I feel like my brain snaps back into place and I can be aware is if I’m alone or stressed or sad, typically and that kind of sucks because it’s like I’m not “awake” to enjoy the happiness all the time, and I kind of want to be but I also don’t want to deal with having to react to things manually, being disconnected makes it a bit easier.

So I dunno. Maybe I’m just talking myself into it. But something about Dodie and Kate’s explanation rings a bell.


for me physical touch doesn't work, if anything it can be worse, because i don't like touching in general, but when i'm in a state of derealization i don't always control how harsh i can sound so if someone who knows i am not a touchy person touches me i can say something rude and then i feel horrible. i tried to open up to my mother about me experiencing derealization and depersonalization and it didn't go well because she said something like "i knew that something was off of course it's because i raised you" but she's actually the one who often pushes and guilt trips me when i am visibly numb. so i just decided to not talk about it with her any further


I just experience depersonalization. It’s crazy how much not like myself I feel.


I find myself not doing fun things because big crowds give me anxiety and I feel like really dissociated and can’t enjoy it, even if I go to a different crockery store and can’t find something sometimes I feel dissociated it’s so weird, I’m going to try to push past it soon for a music festival but I hate having to deal with it. I even had it as a kid


This is so me it only happens when I drive it’s so scary I feel like I’m in a cartoon or that I’m rolling backwards


ive had chronic derealization for 6 years from smoking weed

Long time weed smoking can lead to a whole number of mental health elements depending on the thc vs cbd content.

tomtomjohn14

Unless you got psychosis which is unlikely if you've only smoked it a couple times its more likely you smoked spice if you tripped out


I relate alot to this, and I often feel so spaced out and like I am not myself. I told my mam and she just laughed and said I was probably just being dramatic or making it all up, it turned me off telling anyone and I am not even sure if I have it because I don't trust self-diagnoses, but I really don't know what to do!?!?!? Should I tell someone or just get over it (I have been having this for nearly two years now)


Can  you feel disconnected from your own emotions? And what is it called when you can't feel your emotions anymore


I think my worst problem with experiencing derealisation(other than ya know, dissociating for weeks at a time) is that I know exactly what triggered it but it wasn't traumatizing in any way. It was like a switch in my brain which caused panic attacks that lasted so long that I numbed my emotions into derealisation and it's just confusing.


I have told my mum how I feel (like everything is a dream and how I feel like my mind isn't connected with my body) and have told her multiple times but she hasn't done anything. I really want it to stop but hooow?

Maddy Bennett <br>You're welcome, I hope it works out for you! xx

Maddy Bennett
You're welcome, I hope it works out for you! xx

Sleepy <br>Okay, I think I will do, thanks

Maddy Bennett
If there's a counsellor at your school/college, you can go to them. It's almost totally confidential, your parents do not need to be notified unless they'd like to refer you to a professional therapist or something of the sort.

You could also go to the doctor and ask to talk to them alone. You can then talk a little bit about your experience with depersonalisation/derealisation and they may refer you to a therapist.

I hope it all works out xx

Maddy Bennett you're mom is not the one who needs to do something, really. If it's to a point where you think you REALLY need help- go to the docter, go to a therapist. You can do those things on your own.


I’ve been watching her since like 2012 I love her


I can't even begin to say how important this video is!!!!! Ty!


I don't feel like I'm living,  its like im watching a movie of my life through my own eyes(like a dream) I feel like I may have derealisation but I dont know... it did seem to show up after extremely stressful situations (divorce and then losing a parent). I always start to panic because I cant remember correctly I cant feel correctly, I feel numb but not numb because i do sometimes feel  mad or really happy or really sad but I just feel numb again after. short bursts of feeling + dreamlike life = what the hell is happening


how long have you had derealization??? ive had it for a month so far and its scary


Its hard when u have kids n wife n dealing with this sht for the past 3 years next month


i literally got a panic attack watching this because this is exactly what i feel when i have a panic attack


Zoloft was very bad for me too. But it caused psychosis. I wasn't me. But for the people it works for, it REALLY works for.


Depakote which is a mood stabilizer used to treat migraines actaully really helps I have severe migraines and alot of like anti depressants said may increase disociation episode and so I was getting actaully more depressed and my migraines got worse cause I wasn't eating and they kept me on it started me on depakote and things started to change and when we finally stopped the antidepressant suddenly it was like this relief and I was feeling and connecting and not just floating and watching, I still had anxiety because it still happens alot but the combo of it and an anti anxiety med helped with talk the combination of talk therapy and writing but thank you Dodie for sharing


Some days are so hard but luckily today I'm managing. You'd think I'd be a queen at dealing with this shit after 45 years of having it! At least I know I'm not alone anymore and never will be. The internet has been my lifesaver


Im just watching this now and i didnt read the title and i was is dodie a sociopath but nah. Shane got to my head


It's such a weird thing because it's not something that actively hurts, it just scares you and leaves you hollow because you know it doesn't feel right. Coming from someone who feels it.


I am coming here in 2018, I do not know if anyone shares my situation, in the middle of my degree I completely failed an internship and  my semester as a consequence. I feel into a depression and I took a year out, I have been going to therapy, I was diagnosed with depression (Of course) and anxiety disorder. I never truly disconnected from my own body or feel uncomfortable in my own skin, but I have always had times when I was "somewhere else" , or "in another planet"(but confortable with it) and came back thanks to someone waving at me, being ridiculed in class or someone saying something to me to come back, according to my therapist those are casual "depersonalization" techniques my brain has used to deal with my anxiety and that happen as well during very stressful times in my life, including my internship, some essays at uni or exams where I also made a lot of mistakes because I was somewhere else without realizing while still working or writing or listening to something which I confuse myself with afterwards or completely forget. This is a very stressful truth for me and I find it hard to deal with, if anyone feels similar I would really appreciate a comment or something <3.


is it almost like feeling you're in a video game? i get that sometimes when i feel kinda vacant and like i've just been plonked in a virtual environment and it's not actually real and i'm not really there?


no one ever talks about derealisation! :( I suffer with it (I think it's anxiety related) but most people focus on depersonalisation...


Omg I just realized she is the therapist in Shane’s jake Paul series!


oh my goodness, i take zoloft!!! for the first month or so, i had some <i>wild</i> dreams. one that i distinctly remember was where i had woken up from a dream, amd i recognized my bed and my room, but everything seemed too bright. almost instantly i was pulled back into a dream, but i thought it was reality because i noticed that i had "woken up"

oh my goodness, i take zoloft!!! for the first month or so, i had some _wild_ dreams. one that i distinctly remember was where i had woken up from a dream, amd i recognized my bed and my room, but everything seemed too bright. almost instantly i was pulled back into a dream, but i thought it was reality because i noticed that i had "woken up"


I feel like doing certain things can trigger something for me that is like depersonalisation. For example, I absolutely cannot do makeup, even slight things like doing my eye-brows, because when I see myself in the mirror it freaks me out and I don’t feel like myself, and I just can’t put up with it


I have only experienced episodes like this only about 3 times spread out in a long period of time. My most recent one came out of the blue and I think it was due to stress but whatever does it mean? I don't know if it was actually derealization or dissociation because I only got it a few times. Can anyone let me know what they think?


I have derealization & De(e)p ersonalization


To me it feels like I'm blind even though I can see. I'm constantly scared that my vision will be gone cause I keep questioning everything I see cause nothing seems real and I'm scared that I'll turn blind and that my brain will shut off my vision


oh my god why I've never seen this before ???? I'm a big fan of dodie and katie's videos always help me ASF, especially during a hard time I had a few years ago. why am I watching this so late :(❤


wow, I got shivers when she was talking about the trauma


Oh my gosh this is the therapist from Shane’s videos


Hi dodie, you probably won't see this but I just noticed that you haven't uploaded in quite a while now and I hope you're okay. Don't feel pressured into making videos if you feel you can't- just do what's best for you. I really hope you're doing okay, and just remember you're surrounded by people who love you and care about you <br>:)

Hi dodie, you probably won't see this but I just noticed that you haven't uploaded in quite a while now and I hope you're okay. Don't feel pressured into making videos if you feel you can't- just do what's best for you. I really hope you're doing okay, and just remember you're surrounded by people who love you and care about you
:)

Isabella Nicole oh... That's embarassing 😅
I don't use social media so I wouldn't know...
oops!

Love Changes Everything! She’s touring! (Check her socials 🤗)


The visualization about the movie Inside Out really helped me think about somethings.. they should come up with a second movie about something like that..


I wonder if some mental illness things are physical symptoms of spiritual pain. I felt like this today and feel like this sometimes when I feel super tired. Like it's not a tired feeling, it's that everything feels fuzzy. I also just had two tests so I wonder if it's anxiety that doesn't know where to go.


it feels like im stuck in a dream or i might be in a simulation created by aliens to test me. i know that sounds really unrealistic but thats how i feel. i also have very unrealistic thoughts and if i think too much i actually believe it is real and it is the most frightening thing ever. i get so stressed about it everyday and i feel like my thoughts are getting more severe and unrealistic. i need help


dodie i think that I am asexual but I know no one that is and the internet is not  the clearest thing and it would really help me and others  if you could bring light to that side of lgbtq+

I'm 30 yrs old now and have zero interest in sex. Only interested in the person and intellectual sorts of things. If it comes up I may use the asexual thing but usually I just say I'm not a sexual person.. I'm a guy also. I tell people just eat chocolate, it fuels the body with the same chemicals that sexual thought or activity does, and saves you the trouble of accidentally having kids or getting some std. If someone doesn't understand it that's their issue.

I'm Ace (Or that's the easiest way to put it)

AShadowWolf same actually, except I prefer the umbrella term asexual.

I would consider myself a grey asexual. Thing is, a lot of people don't consider asexuality a thing, they think it's some made up 'special snowflake' gender thing which is sad. A surprising number of people don't even think you can be bisexual, you're either gay or straight. So when or if it comes up in conversation, I tell people that I just am not interested in sex, and don't find people sexually attractive. It sends the message across without the stigma that comes with other names. If someone is nice or more understanding, then I'll tell them I'm a grey asexual.

Here's a website that I used to clear up my questions about asexuality (I'm demisexual <33) http://wiki.asexuality.org/Main_Page

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I'm not an expert on asexuality, but I'll give you my limited knowledge as best as I can (I don't label myself as asexual but I do tend towards asexuality) :)

Asexuality is when you don't feel sexual desires or attractions, but you can still feel romantic attraction to certain people. It's not black-and-white though, sometimes asexual people do engage in sex or feel certain sexual attractions.

Sexuality is fluid, so it's not a problem if you end up identifying with something else, and you don't need to stay within the strict "confines" of asexuality. Good luck figuring yourself out! xx


I just cannot be really really happy when I should. Like, even if something amazing happens I just cannot feel the happiness, even if everyone around me is happy. It's weird, and partially sad, but I often have mood swings switching between super-happy and the "can I just shut down my self-sabotaging brain" mood.


Derealization is not a bad thing, those weird feeling is very helpful in art (music/drawing) it gives color in life.


There's an anxiety/trauma therapy online course created by Jordan Hardgrave that has helped me a lot with this :-]


dodie you linked to your own video in the description instead of katie's

vee is a bee but now there's a second one


i am experiencing derealization but i don't think its bc of a trauma i went through is that normal or does my brain just denying the trauma ? thats scary af


I have had almost constant derealization for a month now... it is awful.


I never knew about collecting little T's.. I believe that is how I got this disorder..Now I know, thank you


can the trauma be caused by depression or anxiety and just be a completely internal thing?


09:22 bruh imagine having someone you trust amirite


My head does this thing where I can’t process anything. It’s worse sometimes than others. I could just be in the middle of class and almost fully stop thinking. During the really bad times everything gets fuzzy and tingly and almost dream-like. I usually can’t remember a lot that happened. During a more normal time I space out and have to think about things multiple times to process it. This is a lot less dream-like but still kinda fuzzy. During my best times I usually only think about things once maybe twice and can mostly pay attention. This usually isn’t dream-like and not that fuzzy. It scares me because I feel trapped inside my head. I don’t know what it is but if anyone knows please help.


I think I might have derealisation, but like ive always had it? it's only really bad now and I always feel numb and I space out a lot and nothing feels real. sometimes it's really bad and I'll harm myself just to feel or to feel real. when I'm at school, however, the stimuli helps a lot and I feel more and I feel more real but I still space out or feel disconnected sometimes while I'm there. but I mean, I've never really had any trauma, but idk


most of the time i feel like in a dream and nothing is real like i am about to wake up, sometimes i can’t recognize my hands. also i can have small hallucinations, i’ve had a bit of trauma in my life. I dont know if it could’ve caused derealization. i didn’t know this was a thing until a few months ago, i thought huh i feel like i have this but more recently i’ve been experiencing more my life feels like a dream.


Question: I think I have both. I don't recall any big Ts like being abused or a car crash but could a type of trauma be someone occasionally hitting or shouting at you as a child and then if someone does it when your older but not as harsh could it bring that trauma back and cause dissociation? Also is it normal for me to feel better by self harming as it makes me feel in control and not as numb? Or is that stupid? 😶


I realize this is old so I doubt anyone will reply but please help I have a question, I constantly feel like I'm in my brain I'm never there and I'm a constantly thinking about the past, future, or neither I'm just pretending or hoping to be someone else. Like when you watch a super hero movie and afterwards you feel invincible it's like that but I watch sad movies and animes and shows so I feel like I am that character and I feel as if that everything that's happened to them has happened to me as well when I lived a happy joyfull life. The worst part is ik it's happening but I can't help but feel this emptyness Idk maybe this has nothing to do with it but it would be really nice if someone can help me identify this BC it's gotten pretty bad.


I have this al the time i think :< and its much worse when im tired or when i go somewhere where it's very busy with a lot of noises and colours(the market for example) . As if my brain can not handle it. And that's when it gets much worse all of a sudden


yeah I was only in 5th grade when I got this, I’m in 7th grade now and it’s getting worse. I feel like i’m going crazy and i haven’t told anyone yet. they will think i’m crazy and i’m not a loud person so i don’t talk much. I just want to feel like a normal human. It stated when my parents fought until 12 a night, I heard everything they said.


OH MY GOD!! i canny believe this is the same psychologist in the Shane documentry on Jake Paul! WTH


i watched this video when it first came out and ive been feeling so weird lately. now my hands dont feel like theyre mine and i just feel like im walking round in a daze or a dream and ive just remembered this video:(


i loved this it was super helpful thank you


dodie, can you listen to Next to Normal? Its such a beautiful musical about mental illness and I feel like you might enjoy/relate to it.


Ok but seriously. I have just had a door opened for me. The way you explained this explained how i have felt for a while. I feel like nothing is real. I will look around my room and be extremely confused. I will look in the mirror and think is that really me. I don't know how to explain the feeling how i have when i look in a mirror. It feels like that isn't really me.

I will randomly drift off throughout the day and people will talk to me and i wouldn't have heard a thing they said. I can see their lips moving but i cant hear anything except for mumering and mummbles. Should i tell my therapist about it or is it just me being stupid and not paying attention in life?


not really about this buttttt...<br>The other day i had a (small) panic attack for almost missing the bus and it was really weird..

not really about this buttttt...
The other day i had a (small) panic attack for almost missing the bus and it was really weird..

thank you but have you deralisation<br>or something like that

thank you but have you deralisation
or something like that

And i have derealisation i am happy that i have not depersonalisation

That is normal if i miss the bus i dont care


does anybody else’s depersonalisation trigger their panic attacks?


Im not sure if i have any of these but i have bad depression and sometimes i feel like im just in a dream floating around it feels as if im not controlling my body or im not me. Theres always kind of this numb feeling but ive never suffered anything super traumatic before so im not sure what it could be


Did you ever get cured from dp?? This is month 8 of having it and i see no end in sight


I am beginning to think people's version of derealization is not what I think it is

See I had a phase in like last month (not drug induced - surprisingly), where nothing felt real, there is this undescribable feeling I got, thought it was derealization - it's clearly not and I can't find any words to describe it.. It's like I could feel the worthlessness of everyone around me, like my body generating its own organic cocaine - I would imagine (never done cocaine before)

See its basically a dreamy trance where I have full control and consciousness, I could understand reasons for decisions people made, I could view things from everyone's perspective, understood the workings of life, how everything and everyone reacts to everything else and all their fears, I felt like a king

For the first time I could actually feel mom's love, her fears and worries, how people unconsciously wanted to be treated and misused, a euphoric (yet depressing) rush of absolute awareness, I stare into my lad's eyes and it was like I would be having a conversation with his inner being, I must have looked very awkward, but I didn't care, I could boldly say, I was a god and understood the rules of mental manipulation. I'd like to believe I still do, but I've lost the feeling completely and without the feeling it's really hard to implement any thought into action

It was basically like my dream but with actual consequences. I have been trying to duplicate the feeling ever since - with no success - I heard people got derealised on weed, and considering it is illegal here and with dire potential mental risks (and I've always imagined the weed high to be exactly what I feel when I'm happy, I'm always able to achieve the generic high people get - so I believe) I was willing to try it. But now I see this...

Electricity through your brain or frequencies or something.... Bruh that's some scary shit. Maybe what I experienced wasn't really derealisation

(sorry if there are spelling errors or word misuse - it's too long for me to go over again. 💝)


Other people)I’m going to play outside!!<br>Me)Hahahahahaha..........No imma be on YouTube 24/7

Other people)I’m going to play outside!!
Me)Hahahahahaha..........No imma be on YouTube 24/7


i don't know why that was suggested to me but i've been thinking about that recently. i feel that i sometimes disconnect from my body completely and it feels like i'm watching from outside hearing myself say things without really having much control over it.


I'm begining to think I'm going through dissociation and derealization, sometimes depersonalization, but I'm scared to actually say I am? I don't want to self diagnose myself, but my parents don't really want me to go back to a therapist (we tried many for depression and anxiety after they found my journal but none were a good fit) and I don't know how to ask to see one or a doctor.

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Many times I feel as though I'm not apart of what's happening. I cant feel and I cant think and talking is really difficult. Its hard to move any part of my body, including blinking, and I find myself staring at a fixed point and I can't look away. It becomes hard to feel any emotion or feel anything, like I cant feel my hands or feet or any part of my body. During these moments it feels like I'm floating and I can't ground myself. They make me so so scared but I think I'm more afraid to talk about it then to just suffer through it.

I honestly don't know what to do but this video kinda...opened my eyes to that 'yeah this might actually be what I'm going through.' But then theres the other side of my head thats just saying its because of my depression but I'm just...not sure. I'm sorry for dumping this in the comments, but I kinda needed to get it off my chest...

I'm begining to think I'm going through dissociation and derealization, sometimes depersonalization, but I'm scared to actually say I am? I don't want to self diagnose myself, but my parents don't really want me to go back to a therapist (we tried many for depression and anxiety after they found my journal but none were a good fit) and I don't know how to ask to see one or a doctor.

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Many times I feel as though I'm not apart of what's happening. I cant feel and I cant think and talking is really difficult. Its hard to move any part of my body, including blinking, and I find myself staring at a fixed point and I can't look away. It becomes hard to feel any emotion or feel anything, like I cant feel my hands or feet or any part of my body. During these moments it feels like I'm floating and I can't ground myself. They make me so so scared but I think I'm more afraid to talk about it then to just suffer through it.

I honestly don't know what to do but this video kinda...opened my eyes to that 'yeah this might actually be what I'm going through.' But then theres the other side of my head thats just saying its because of my depression but I'm just...not sure. I'm sorry for dumping this in the comments, but I kinda needed to get it off my chest...


Once I was lying in bed. I just... sorta zoned out. And I forgot what I was doing, as I had just packed my suitcase because I was on holiday and about to leave the next day. When I was talking, I didn't realise I was talking, and I didn't know what I was saying. It made sense and it was something I would say, so to the person I was talking to it would've seemed normal, but to me it didn't sound like my voice. It felt like my brain was controlling me without myself having control if you know what I mean. So I would say something, and then suddenly notice that I had said something, and not know what I said.

When I packed my suitcase I didn't acknowledge that I was doing that etc. I just did things, without thinking. Without being able to think.

>♡<


I’m pretty sure I have this. When I’m either stressed or have just been thinking about life, I feel like I can’t open my eyes wide enough or I’m still half asleep. I can’t focus on anything anyone says and sometimes I even pinch myself to see if I was awake or not. Is that what it is? Even my parents are always like “are u okay? Are u even listening?” Also, I’m like the most forgetful person ever.


<b>When you realize this is that same lady from Shane's series</b>

*When you realize this is that same lady from Shane's series*


Is it possible for synthetic hormones to trigger this? I have never dealt with this until I took Depo Provera over a year ago...


I have been suffering from this since July   2020 and things have recently started to get better. Here are a few things I had to say to myself to heal.

1.Life is really just life it is not meant to be understood entirely.
2.Life is very real and you are experiencing it for the first time so therefore it may feel confusing and strange. Because it’s a new experience! 3.Give yourself a break from all your questions. You are a product of life.  You coexist with life so therefore you are real. 4.If you weren’t real than you wouldn’t be able to even think.
5. One thing I learned is that I have been repressing my feelings for too long , therefore I faded too far into the background of life ( you reading this you do have feelings as long as you are alive you will have them! So even if they feel numb that’s not true because feeling numb is a feeling too! )
6. Do the complete opposite of what you feel. Like seriously get up and run, jog or dance if you feel the wave of intensity coming ! Or call someone up! Interact with someone even a pet when you feel an episode happening. This will distract your brain!

This is the beginning of you. This is the start so be kind and nice to yourself. You are experiencing everything for the first time!

Thank you for this, you stopped me in my tracks from going further downhill.


I really do love Dodie and I think this will help many in small ways but to be honest, I was kind of scared when she uploaded this because she has so many young fans that like to pretend they have a million different mental illnesses to be “unique” or “edgy.” Believe me, I was one of those kids. But  self-diagnosis is never the way to go. It kind of hurts to see all these middle schoolers saying “I think I have depression!” “I have derealization!” “I’m trans!” “I’m pansexual!” and all these things before their minds have fully developed. they could be going through a phase. A lot of times I see the younger generations taking away or stealing the attention from people who actually suffer from such diseases, flipping the idea of what it actually is. Please hear me out, I had gone through some real crap when I was younger, and I do believe I had a severe form of depression. BUT. I also claimed I had bipolar disorder and bulimia and anxiety disorders and the whole shibang. I now know I likely had none of those. I was a lonely kid, I got bullied here and there, and I felt a sense of security in putting so many labels on myself. But the truth is, I was just making other people feel worse about themselves by lying. I didn’t understand what any of those disorders actually were. Anyway, I’m not saying you can’t predict if something is genuinely wrong in your head, but take it easy. Proclaiming all that’s wrong with you on Instagram or Twitter isn’t going to save you. Get some real help, and if you don’t want to, then you’re probably fine. Also, please keep in mind, sometimes symptoms like these disguise themselves as mental illnesses... but they can be underlying health problems, and can be potentially dangerous. So please see a doctor before you start trying to find comfort from strangers. Sincerely, someone who has wrestled with this terrible, terrifying disease for fourteen years. (p.s. if you’re one of those kids I’ve mentioned, don’t take this too personally. I’m just trying to save you from something you might regret later on. if you truly are struggling with something, again, see a doctor. it’s the only way to be sure.)


I feel like I'm feeling everything, like a normal person and I'm making the desisions but that it's my body doing it. My brain feels absent and suprised that my body is doing things. I don't get it. I feel like I'm in my head and everything's cozy and warm but really claustrophobic like I need to get <b>out</b> of my head but I can't cause I'm only partially in control

I feel like I'm feeling everything, like a normal person and I'm making the desisions but that it's my body doing it. My brain feels absent and suprised that my body is doing things. I don't get it. I feel like I'm in my head and everything's cozy and warm but really claustrophobic like I need to get *out* of my head but I can't cause I'm only partially in control


Stupid idiot question: doesn't everyone have flashes of depersonalisation? Like, you'll all of a sudden be like "woah what is this body who is that in the mirror this is trippy" and then after a few moments of reassuring yourself it goes away?

Kind of but it's usually if I look at my hands and I'll think "this is actually my body these are actually my hands" but it could be something different

I'd also say there are different attitudes towards it, like the difference between butterflies and a panic attack- sometimes if I'm high I'll exhibit the same symptoms as a bout of derealisation but I'll be ok with it? Its just like "oh, what if everything else is fake? What a funny thought- guess I'll just wander round" (I also realise this can happen sober 😅), whereas an actual bout of derealisation or depersonalization, if nothing else can just be a hell of a lot scarier and harder to accept :-/

HeidiBidels almost everyone experiences dissociation like that at some point in their lives, yes, usually resulting from having to deal with a stressful situation. But when it comes chronic (occurs constantly), like in Dodie's case, is when there's a problem that needs to be fixed.

HeidiBidels I would say no, it's a bit like how getting nervous for a big event is not the same as having anxiety and feeling really down occasionally is not the same as having depression if that makes sense

HeidiBidels yeah I get that sometimes too dodie's is an everyday thing though


I have derealization and I hate it, but at the same time I feel like I'm getting closer to the ACTUAL reality. Like I feel like everything around me is fake and it's making me think way too deeply, and I know that there has to be something out there past what humans can comprehend because it's driving me insane.


1 minute in and she just described how I feel as if she read my mind wtf. Derealisation? How do you fix that?


I sometimes look at my hands and am just so confused <br>Like tf  are those

I sometimes look at my hands and am just so confused
Like tf  are those


Okay so I have been diagnosed with ptsd, and three weeks ago I just woke up and everything felt wrong, and I thought I was dreaming, and I couldn't feel anything, like when cracking my knuckles I couldn't feel it I could only hear it, and I couldn't remember anything, and there was a bunch of other stuff, even my sense of taste was gone, and it just got worse, and the beginning of this week I was in an art exam (all my previous exams weren't good, because I couldn't understand what was being asked, or what to write but this art exam was the worse) and I started blacking out and I couldn't do anything and everything has just made me panic, including things I love like rally's for equality and stuff. Everythings just getting too much and my counselor said that it was my ptsd causing disassociation, depersonalisation, and derealisation and she said it would pass, even just overnight if I tried really hard, but it's been three weeks and I am scared that this will never pass...


I am in good physical health, but I do have anxiety attacks and depression, and just today I started feeling dizzy and my eyes kept closing and it took a long time to open them up again after blinking and I think this might be what it is...When I get this feeling, I do not feel like I am experiencing life outside of myself, but I do feel like my mind is tricking itself into thinking that my body will shut down as a self soothing technique for my suicidal thoughts, since I know I won't be dying any time soon, but I want to because I feel like dying would be the easiest way to prevent any more emotional pain in my life (although I keep on trying to improve my life and doing what I love despite these thoughts because death is not the answer). This sensation has happened every time I have suicidal thoughts now.


Its not as extreme for me I feel like Im shrinking and growing when I get really stressed out.


Earlyyyy, was sick at school today. Again 🖤✨

Thank yuu guys xx I have the day off today which is good 😂

Betsy Epic owch that happened to me too, sick buds?


Whenever it happens to me I have to look in the mirror to get comfortable again


for the past three or four years I've felt like nothing is real at all and my perception of time is altered from what it used to be. i cant recall details of many trips and i sometimes have episodes questioning whether certain people or events in my life are just part of my imagination or not.

 I have episodes where for about a week, I'll look in the mirror and feel a different person looking at me, like all of my memories aren't mine and my life belongs to someone who I'm simply standing in for.

i don't have access to a therapist or professional so i can't be tested,  diagnosed, or treated.  if derealization/depersonalization is what i have, can anyone recommend ways to deal with it on my own?

 I take lots of pictures and videos of little things to prove to myself that they happened, but can anyone who knows about these diseases help inform as to how to cope with them?


Also, if you have depersonalization I hear you can’t feel emotions. So if you have derealization does that mean can still feel emotions?


I’ve been putting off watching this until now but it actually helped me


where is she boi, actually, ill go follow her twitter lmao

Gianna Meme lol me, add her on the snap bc she posts like every second on there.


Can physical chronic illness and extreme stress can cause trauma? I have a lot of derealization and depersonalization but I don’t know what my trauma was...


I have this weird situation. I don't. ...I don't know why but I don't ever want to let go of my mental health issues. It's like I'm attached. It makes me feel safe and I don't understand why I feel the way I do but... I just do. Does anyone feel this way too?


I didnt realize this but I have these phases where I would think my mom is me if that makes since like it would last like an hour and I would just feel mind blown that me and my mom were diffrent people it was so weird. Yeah it would happen like almost everyday and I would have panic attacks because of it it was crazy.


hey it’s that therapist from shanes series


I experience panic attacks but idk what happened to me this one time

I was driving on the freeway and it went into like really deep curve almost like a loop and I hate those and then suddenly i felt kind of sick? like I felt loopy almost, I felt like i wasn't actually driving i felt like the car wasn't actually moving even tho I know I was it didn't feel right I felt weird i don't wanna feel really know how to describe it but that it felt fake. I had to keep driving because there wasn't any exits near me and I didn't wanna crash so I just followed a car in front of me until i felt normal and drove to my house. I had a similar feeling once in my room where I felt fake again it almost felt like I was in a simulation and I knew I was in a simulation so it was like knowing your life and you are fake honestly don't know how else to describe it. I felt like a Barbie doll like my skin was plastic, it very much felt like I was high but scared of everything kind of. anyways I just tried going to sleep or just used my phone. its a really trippy expeience and they don't happen often. idk if it's something I should worry about tho


i have derealization and disassociative amnesia which is where when something or when my body is in high stress and my i pretty much when my brain shuts off during a certain period of time, it could be days, weeks, months and in the worst cases, years, and when your brain turns back on you can't remember anything from when you're brain was off, kind of like a jump in time, the worst was when i was little when i was sexually abused and i skipped for a while, and lately it only happens for a few days fourtunetly, and my derealization only kicks in when i do certain things then it comes up randomly, one time it was so bad i was sobbing and begging my friends for help, and my friend was cuddling me and telling me i was ok and that helped so much. So yea. Thank you for this dodie


this was the newest video of dodie’s i found i think soo<br>DODIE YOU NEED TO GO SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL LITTLE LADY CALLED UKULILI, SHE JUST DID A DODIE MASHUP AND IT WAS WONDERFUL AND YOU MUST GO SEE IT💛💛💛love ya✨

this was the newest video of dodie’s i found i think soo
DODIE YOU NEED TO GO SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL LITTLE LADY CALLED UKULILI, SHE JUST DID A DODIE MASHUP AND IT WAS WONDERFUL AND YOU MUST GO SEE IT💛💛💛love ya✨


I have weird triggers like a light turning off or on or something happened too quick. Everything around me feels fake, noise,  vision all seem fake


I am worried about Dodie. She hasn't uploaded in ages. I know she has been posting on Instagram and Twitter but I miss her <3


DODIE do you know if perhaps you are deficient in some nutrients and it might exacerbate this? My first thought goes to perhaps anemia?


I don't deal with derealization or depersonalization but this video helped me so fukn much and it answered so many questions!


I remember sometimes i would just be on a bench looking around and its like theres a screen between me and reality ! Like im watching a movie


ah fug. <br>say, how do i see if i have dissociation, derealisation and depersonalisation or not? from what you two talked about, i may... have these, possibly the whole the time that i'm awake.. i was already diagnosed with something like chronic depression and acute social anxiety, does that relate? xD

ah fug.
say, how do i see if i have dissociation, derealisation and depersonalisation or not? from what you two talked about, i may... have these, possibly the whole the time that i'm awake.. i was already diagnosed with something like chronic depression and acute social anxiety, does that relate? xD


Por favor põe legenda em seus vídeos, sou brasileiro e não sei falar inglês


She seems like a really good and sweet therapist


i feel like im dreaming sometimes - it makes me feel like im going to faint or something. my brain feels numb and empty and my eyes feel like they are pricked with tears almost all the time. ive mentioned it to a teacher but they said "i cant help you if you dont have a reason"... there is no reason. i was camping just over a year ago and just felt awful the whole time and i just dont know why. does anyone have any advice? im too scared to go to the doctors because i dont want them to think that im lying because i feel like im lying to myself...


I have derealisation but sometimes if I watch a certain youtuber for long amounts if tine and look in a mirror I start thinking I look like them...its so scary<br>Edit:I don't think I look JUST like them I just see similarities between me and them

I have derealisation but sometimes if I watch a certain youtuber for long amounts if tine and look in a mirror I start thinking I look like them...its so scary
Edit:I don't think I look JUST like them I just see similarities between me and them


I dont know if i have derealisation but sometimes I have like a dejavu strong feeling where some things I do or See I believe that I dreamed them before. Its very weird...


woah the same therapist in shane dawsons vid


frick okay i never knew what this was, but once you described i really do relate hecK. i never really feel like anything is real, i am in a constant state of feeling like im dreaming. I also have a very bad memory because i dont remember anything bc it doesnt feel real. and i sometimes am like, this isnt me? it doesnt feel like it is me. okay i might have this heck


I had to talk to a student couciler because of my teacher, but when we were talking I was so afraid to talk to her, I felt awkward and afraid, she kept going on about making friends in my class, but I don’t really like my classmates, I don’t have much in common with them, I’m afraid I might have depersonalisation, derealisation and social anxiety, but nobody knows it, nobody knows what’s going on with me, I’m also questioning my sexuality, there’s a lot going on, but the student counciler made me afraid and vulnerable, my only friend in my class, went to a different class because she was to afraid of telling me she doesn’t want to be friends anymore, which really hurt me, I’ve been bullied in the past and my old class that bullied me stopped bullying me for a while but then they started teasing me again, and I was so afraid, nobody knows, what a huge impact that was on my life, and I think that might’ve made the social anxiety even worse. I’m sorry that this is so long I just had to vent


6 months ago I went to a doctor and she told me about a way to ignore the depersonalization symptoms , which is that I press with all the force in my forehead and when I applied it I felt like I was swallowed and my nerves were tight from my neck and stomach and when I press on my stomach comes out of a sound of pain and when I applied it the exercise stopped and then came back Press again then stop and come back  Press hard can I stop it but I feel like it doesn't stop 100% can you help me?

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I have undiagnosed BFRB ( body focused repetitive behaviour) its a subconscious picking or scratching, got legs full of scars from picking,  its embarrassing, I love to swim, its my one joy in life, but I went on holiday recently and was too ashamed to go swimming because I was afraid people may think im injecting in my legs or something, I have all sorts of other things going on, but talking never helps me, as ive talked about problems all my life, but ill also never have  drugs for it,  I also have emotional blackouts,  I don't black out, it just means all emotions go poof.. I am empty, feel nothing what so ever like dead inside in a way. its like an emotional overload


OMG I KNEW SHE LOOKED FERMILLIAR IN THE SHANE VIDEO'S


Sometimes I feel my brain is getting out of control .. soo i take a nap or sleep for calming it down .. i can't remember how did actually this happened .. i remember one thing that i knew something is wrong .. sometimes I feel I'm dreaming and not getting that shock in my brain when i open my eyes after closing it for a while ..(excluding sleep) .. sometimes I feel this won't go away .. nothing feels like before .. nothing feels like okay... Sometimes I feel like i told my subconscious mind that I've problems and it happened.. sometimes I just go run out of hopes .. the main thing is I'm drunk but not drunked .. it's like I'm not even scared or ghost or Anything untill shit goes serious .. it's a feeling of not feeling anything .


Hey Dodie, I recommend you look into headspace for some meditation and mindfulness Xxx


i highly reccomend emdr and ketamine therapy for anyone struggling with any amount of anxiety or depression  <3