Hello 20 year old me

for those wondering which channel hit a million it would be this one! this vid is on my second channel :P

5 years sounds like nothing on paper but damn it's a long ass time
crazy how far y've come!

I REMEMBER WATCHING THIS WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT WOW
I've been such a fan of you for so many years; I can't believe how far you've come and I'm so proud to say I've been there for most of your YouTube years! I love you, Dodie! (Also I love your hair long, you looked so pretty in your I Kissed Someone music video) also omg I take spironolactone too

I love how she's kinder to her younger self. I'd be cringing at how stupid I was. lolol

The affection in her voice when she talks about Heidi brought tears to my eyes

this really made me realise that I'm literally still a teenager. like I have so much room to grow, even if it feels like I don't

I think it's sweet that she talks to herself as if she is a younger sister

I remember watching "dear 25 year old me" when I was 15. Now I'm 20 and i realise how fast time flies. I feel like 20y/o dodie in a lot of ways, mostly because i'm so afraid of the future and i feel like i'm getting older faster than i can realize, i just want to stop every moment to really live it, really experience it and capture the feelings. of course i can't do that and i feel like life is passing me by and i'm just standing there, barely realizing what's happening and just like that, time's gone by. anyway, this video inspired me to write a letter to myself to read in 5 years :)

(no one will see this and that's okay lol, this is mostly for me. had to get it off my chest)

This is comforting for 20 year old me.

“I lived in Bath and I worked in Lush”

I know Bath is a place in England but this sentence is so mf FUNNY like she lived in Bath and worked at a soap store

I'm 20 now and I can't believe it's been 5 years since dodie looked like that. It's just so scary to me how quickly time passes and I feel like I missed out on a lot of my teenage years because of my depression :/ hope it won't be like this forever

dodie, thank you for not cutting out the entire bit of you crying and hyperventilating. I know you aren't nearly as comfortable with putting stuff online anymore but I really appreciated the authenticity. i think it's very grounding and comforting to see someone I admire still allow herself to be openly emotional. this is so bizarre for me to watch as well because I had JUST discovered you around this exact time 5 years ago following a really difficult breakup so seeing this made me see not only how much you have grown, but how much I have as well, and it's nice to think that we were on the journey to self-growth together.

as a 16 year old watching this i cried very hard. my future has always been a scary thing to think about and i dont have many visions of myself past 20, so putting myself in your shoes here i felt all of the emotions you did.

dodie is so proud, but overwhelmed with emotions. her face when she looks at her at 20, it just says, “dodie, you did it. you didn’t think you could do it. we did it and we don’t have to worry so much. it was a ride, but thank you for powering through. i’m proud of you.” but..you can see, in her eyes, that question. dodie is wondering, about her younger self. “are you proud of me?”

"it'll be different, but it'll be okay"

that's so powerful and I cried with you

the most genuine and real “reacting to my old videos” ever posted

I love seeing her love herself here. The joy she has when she talks to “herself”.

"you learned to look forward for happiness."
I feel like that's such a powerful statement.

I watched this while taking off my makeup for the night. 7 years ago I remember looking at my reflection in a mirror and being physically afraid for my life by how much hatred I saw in my own eyes. Not like “wow this depression thing has gotten bad and that’s scary” kind of afraid- it was more like I looked at the expression on my face and my body reacted like I’d seen a hungry animal about to pounce, staring me down. It was such primal fear and such primal hatred of myself. I so deeply and venomously hated myself for no reason- just bad brain chemistry. It’s been a long time and a lot of healing and work and it’s not every day, but most days I genuinely love myself now. I looked up from this video while washing and then drying my face and I saw my reflection and just touched my cheek and just started weeping and I still haven’t stopped. It’s just been me and that girl in the mirror tearing each other apart my whole life- and now I’m standing here holding her face and shes looking at me like “I forgive you”

Dodie, pink-and-white in 2015, you were so important to my messy adolescence. I made pink floral bunting for my walls and asked for a uke for christmas in high school- you were like a dear older sister to me, I wanted to be just like you. and woo girl i was right with you on the eyeliner lol (throwback to Paint with Hedi)
but Dodie, green-and-gold in 2020, I have so much respect for you. I'm not quite as tied to youtube as I used to be, but you and your art hold such an important place in my heart. Watching you grow gracefully and untidily and beautifully into a buoyant adult gives me hope. You are familiar to me. Thank you, darling, for letting us grow with you.
Thank you for looking at your precious 20-year-old self kindly. I loved her. I'm learning to love my 17-year-old self that well (and my 22-year-old self for that matter). You lead the charge.

Honestly the most reassuring part of this (as someone who is the same age as our dear dodie) is that she was offended when her younger self was afraid to be her.
Like, bitch, I SURVIVED you! But also I love you and I understand exactly what you mean <3
It gives me hope that 30 year old me will be gentle with the memory of younger me.

Dodie’s reaction to being able to tell her 20yo self that she’s a musician with a band and hit songs is the wholesome content we need. 💜

I think I was around 14 when I watched your initial video, now I am 19. When I was 14, I watched you and listened to your youtube songs every week! Because of that, I associated you and your music with that hard point in my life. This is the first video I’ve watched from you in a very long time, I listen to your songs still, but whenever I see your face I can’t help but reminisce and picture my 14 year old self behind a laptop clinging to the internet for an escape. You were my safe space for a really hard time in my life, thank you 20 year old Dodie.

That was a LOT of tears for everyone still being alive

"You're gonna fall in love,

You're gonna fall apart,

You gonna get back together,"

. . . welp that hit me hard.

“God, I wish I could play them for her” I’m sobbing?

You telling yourself to "chill out"... that was amazing and such a mood. Ugh I love this

anyone else rewatching this after dodie posted her "dear 30 year old dodie" video? So proud of how far she's come and I hope 30 year old dodie is happy and healthy. (Also its so scary that I was around for that video 5 years ago and i thought I was so mature at the time lol no.)

watching this at the age of 20 is beyond emotional, and especially when i watched the original at 15 the day it was posted. thank you for sharing this piece of your journey with us <3

As a 20 year old who keeps looking back at 16, I needed this

man i’m listening to some of your old music that i used to jam to in 6-7th grade, i’m in 10th now and just came across this video. i remember the first one coming out and watching it, resonating with you so much, and being happy i had a role model like you in such a tough time. i was struggling with my identity, my undiagnosed mental illness, and finding a way to cope. “dear happy” was the song that pushed me to get a ukulele, which i still play, but it was my first real instrument and got me into guitar, keyboard, and bass. listening to your music and learning it on my uke was my escape. now, 4-5ish years later, i am out as a transgender gay man starting hormones in 18 days, i’m still going through some mental health issues but i am much better than i was. if i did not have your music, i would not be here today. sure, i went though that cliche dan and phil, dodie, twenty one pilots phase but if i didn’t i wouldn’t have made it past 13. seeing you grow now makes me realize how much i have too. thank you dodie for being such a big part of my life and my growth. :”)

this feels like the end to “secret for the mad”, in a better place than it started, still with some sad things to face, but hopeful and okay :)

I haven’t seen a dodie video in so long and seeing her now and then when I first found her when she was around 20 is absolutely crazy, I still love you dodie 🥺💕

I love how raw and real this is. Thank you for sharing this, Dodie!

i struggle with derealization and depersonalization, too, and it was really comforting to hear that yyou have been through it dodie. this video was like a long warm hug from an old friend

I come back and watch this whenever I feel a certain kind of way and it always helps.

This is so, so powerful. It gives me hope. Seeing Dodie now, she's so much happier and she knows so much more about herself. It actually makes me excited for the future, when I'm usually scared of it.

I'm literally sobbing right now because I realized that I'm so afraid of the future I just don't see myself in like 4 years and I don't know what to do and how to get happy and motivated for life again

I was crying within minutes. The things you said 5 years ago are SO relevant to how I feel now, turning 22 next week. I know everyone is different, but knowing you’ve gotten better genuinely gives me hope. Thank you, Dodie.

I just turned 21 a week ago and I feel just like how 20 year old you did. This gave me hope. When you were sitting there listing out all the things you’ve done I started happy crying. This was so great. Thank you so much for this.

I watched that video at 13 years old, and i remember falling in love with Dodie, and how much I looked up to her at that age. You were one of my first big inspirations, the reason i started writing music and playing instruments, and your videos meant so much to me. And now Im 17 and I have changed so much, and I am nothing like who I thought I would be, but Im happy. Watching you react to this was like watching a part of my past, and I am so happy I got to grow up with your content and your music.
God thats a paragraph oops

Did anyone else just absolutely burst into tears when 20 year old Dodie asked about Hedy and her parents, and 25 year old Dodie had to take a cry break?

when she said depression was more of a friend now .. my heART

this was very cathartic for me, I’ve grown up discovering myself and my own derealization over the past years and watching your videos helped me understand myself in more ways than you can ever know. I’ve been through a lot of similar circumstances, and I appreciate that you still use your platform to share your brain sometimes. Thanks dodie x

Crying and laughing along with you 💞 been with you since day one and hope you stick around (you help a lot, we’re pretty similar...) Stay safe Dodie, and keep being you x

I remember watching the original video when I was 21 years old and getting married. Now I am divorced, in a beautiful relationship and living far away from my hometown. I have changed so much but one thing consistently is that I love your videos. They have always given me so much inspiration and hope. Most importantly, the ability to grow and to continue being your true authentic self just gives me so much hope. I love your music and watching your videos! <3

This is an amazingly creative video. I am 53 and while out walking have often thought about going back and giving my young self a good talking to. Over the years I have learned two things, firstly youth is wasted on youth and secondly your life can change dramatically in an instant. Sending lots of love to all who read this. xx

I love how you can see how she’s grown up and no longer stresses about the small stuff she used to, it gives me hope

dodie oh my god. i’m crying. this has given me so much hope in terms of personal growth and growing up in general. i love you and have been with you for four years. continue to grow and do what you need to. you’re so loved!

"I did take a pregnancy test the other day, but I'm just very bloated." if that's not your mid 20's in a nutshell, I don't know what is!


God, if I could talk to my 20 year old self I would say: you don't realise it yet, but you're in a toxic relationship with someone who's emotionally abusing you. Basically everything he tells you is a lie. You're going to turn into a clone of him and put him before anyone else in your life. You're going to lose connections with people for a while. You're going to be horribly depressed, fat, and anxious. Then once you break up with him those friends and family will pick you up, dust you off, and tell you how much better your life will be without him. You're going to realise you deserve so much better. You'll adopt a beautiful cat, get lots of tattoos and change your mind about a lot of things you want to achieve. But overall you're striving to live the life you want to live, and doing things that make you a better and happier person.You're still getting there, but you're going to be okay.

Please tell me I'm not the only one who started bawling when 20-year-old Dodie asked if 25-year-old Dodie is happy? because just watching Dodie talk about growing over time and learning to be happy just made me bawl my eyes out holy hell

Hi Dodie! I stumbled upon this video bc I was revisiting some of your songs and ahh, this was really thoughtful and hopeful to watch! I’m happy I found this when I did bc it inspires me to look forward to the future too, so thank you :) hope all is well and you’re at peace ❤️

everything about this video is so beautiful. i was around 11-12 when i started watching your videos, and since then i've learned to play instruments wanting to be a musician through your influence and others as well. i composed music and continue to do so extremely slowly. i'm scared i might move on from it though. it's so interesting to me to have grown up and changed just as you have in this video (i do admit i cried a little as i watched). i'm just so proud of you

I cried with you. This is the second video I watched of you, after finding the one for depersonalisation during covid. I just want to thank you for sharing this content...It struck me and inspired me to be less scared about my future. I'm 21 now and pretty much as lost and scared as you were in this first video. I admire you for doing this, and for being so authentic... Sending you love. Take care.

You are amazing. To watch my daughter idolize you is to know that she is in fabulous hands. The world needs art, and it needs artists like you. Thank you.

dodie crying trying to talk about her family is me in every therapy session tbh

I have letters from myself dating back to 7 years old. I turned 21 in April and went back and read through all of them. Some were hilarious, some cringey, others were just painful. I was a different person when I wrote each of them, and I was a different person when I read them. At 15, I didn't think I'd make it to 21. I'm proud to say that I'm thriving and happier than ever, that it did get better. This was so touching and I'm glad to see that other people do this and get to see how much their lives have changed for the better!

for some reason this popped up in my recommendations and i watched it for fun.
i really enjoyed and found it very interesting. so i wanted to hear your music, just to find out that i already do.
spotify also recommended me your songs a few months ago and i have loved them ever since, getting to see the person behind them has just gave them a new meaning.
congrats on the growth and cheers to your incredible music,
a new fan from Argentina

Dodie, I’m so proud of you! You have grown so much the last five years, and it’s so lovely to see you genuinely feel comfortably happy/satisfied with your life! I know how hard you worked to care for yourself emotionally, and as someone who can relate to your health journey on a deep deep level, you deserve to be so so proud! You accomplished so much in the last five years, not just health, but in work, friendships, coming out, ext. You are a queen, and don’t you ever forget it! ❤️💛💜💚💙🧡

I love you, Dodie, and this is so inspiring to watch this! I remember watching the original video years ago, and you've come so far! Here's to many more incredible years of life! :)

when you broke down about your parents no longer being together but being in better places than they were when together made me breakdown ahhhhhhhhh! my parents are also separated, and my mom is in a much happier and healthier
place with her new partner :)

i watched dodie constantly in 2015. I remember that backdrop and that hair!! her music helped me through some of the worst years and inspired me to learn guitar and ukulele, and i still play all her old songs to this day. seeing this was super nostalgic and emotional!! im so happy to have seen you grow - as a musician, as a content creator, and as a person - and to have been able to grow with u :"")

i cried watching this video, and i haven't ever met you!
this was beautiful, and I think I am going to do this and address the video to my 20 year old self :))
thank you so much for being a constant source of inspiration <3

So I'm 22 now, and I just realised that I was quite similar to Dodie at 20 when I was 20. I was also very stuck in the past and wanting to get back to where I was at 15/16, because in my mind I was happier then. Which is kind of true, because I was definitely really sad at 20, but now, only 2 years later, I'm much happier and I do feel like I'm doing really well and I'll be alright. Which is quite a weird thing to think, but I truly believe it'll all be okay, even if it's not the way I expect it to be

I love this so much! Seeing how much you have grown is such a joy. It has been such a privilege and an honor. You are such a beautiful person Dodie and are loved by so many people. Please remember that.

“So 25 year old dodie how are you”
Dodie: is crying

This is so incredibly powerful. Thank you for making my day & probably my week, thank you for helping me cry when I’ve needed to for the longest time (though I haven’t been able to until now), and thank you for being an inspiration. I love your music, and for the first time in months, you’ve also helped me say that I love having feelings. Thank you, Dodie.

I literally cried with you the entire time! this was so emotional to watch, especially because Ive been probably watching you since then. love you dodie, you've come a long way.

I don't even watch your vids but this wrecked me and comforted me and reminded me that the future can bring positivity and things can change for good 🥺

when dodie started crying, i literally started sobbing

I watched dodie so much 5 years ago that “that” dodie is cemented into my brain, I don’t watch her as much but watching this video you can just see how much she has changed. She has become so sure and honest with herself. It is so beautiful to see. And I so related to that feeling of always wanting to be 15/16 again, but as the 25 y.o dodie knows - that feeling passes. I love this Dodie 💗

Being someone that's at 20 who is curious about similar things, watching this has got me full on crying. I'm so proud of how far you've come, and I can only hope I make half that progress in life (and this pursuit of happiness that feels endless) by my 25th

i can’t believe i’ve been watching you for 5+ years. things are so different now. i used to sing your songs horribly in my room, and now i can sing decently. i picked up ukulele because of you and it opened my entire world of music. i met you back in 2017 and you signed the ukulele i bought because of you! i’m so grateful for you dodie; i have passions and memories that stem from you, all because i watched a video sometime back in late elementary school. thank you for all that you do!! :) <3

i love how you so kind and just understandable to yourself. I really inspired by it, i want to learn how to treat myself better and respect ❤️

This means a lot to me, cause its as if im speaking those words, and your my elder sister telling me how itll work out, guiding me. Thanks for having this on your channel

I love how Dodie talks to her 20yr old self like a person in front of herself and gets excited for her

This video was really inspiring! I'm gonna do the same thing. I'm glad you're doing okay Dodie! Hope 30 will be even better :)

This video made me cry 1 minute in! I was still watching you back then! <3 you’re such a strong person Dodie!!!

You’re amazing, Dodie! So many people love you and want to give you so many hugs for how much you’ve gotten through in five years.

This made me realize I’ve been watching Dodie for over five years. Thanks for letting me grow up with you, Dods. All my love <3

I was sat here thinking ‘wow 20 year old Dodie looks like a child’. Then I realised I’m 20. I’m a child

wow this made me BAWL. it's so great to see how far she's come, but also how much she's grown... like emotionally? she's gone through so much and idk man i'm just so proud and so happy for her. just wanna give her a huge hug tbh

Thank you for this. My last year was full of shadows, and seeing this a year later and a year older (21) gives me some patience and tolerance for how slow life moves and how little seems to change at times. You've aged beautifully inside and out, and seeing that makes it a little easier for me to take a deep breath and feel at ease.

honestly i couldn’t stop looking at dodie, shes so genuinely beautiful inside out

i keep coming back to this video because there’s bits that I also have been through and realized that I tackled a lot of bad mental health stuff in the last 5 years too and never opened up about it, I started watching your videos when I was still caught in the deep of it but now it feels so nice like a warm hug to a past self seeing that it is actually okay

Meeting you last week in Philly when I said how your music grew with me was really just the surface level but truly it changed my life and helped me get out of tough times so I can see the good, thank you dodie for being you <3

I started watching your videos when I was 14 and now I’m 20 :)) and it feels so good to still be here

When 20 yo dodie started asking about Hedy and her parents and started crying afterwards, I felt that. I’m going through some challenging times too (divorced parents, change of home, first workplace and life in general) and it’s refreshing to see just how much can and will change in only 5 years.

You’re such an inspirational and admirable person (even when you think you’re not) and it’s so uplifting to hear your story and how you’re able to look back on all that happened. I even might write down a note myself for a future me in 5 years and reflect on how things might change and will have changed by then.

Thank you so much dodie! ❤️

This was great. You made me smile ear ---> ear .. Shared with my daughter who turned 20 today , so what a fluke as I have been following you and just stumbled on this. I shared and urged her to do the same. Thanks for being real!

This made me think a lot about what I would say to myself, 5 years ago. A lot of the same stuff, especially about depression, and how I rewired my brain for the better. There’s something about hearing you say it, that helps. And the way you celebrate being a musician, finally. I aspire towards that. This video made me cry, too.

I remember 6 years ago when I was 19 and watched this video and I remember thinking that it would be forever before the 25 years old video happened and here we are 6 years latter. Time flyes and also lots of things happen (like I understand English so much better f.e.😂)

Your videos are always so close to my heard and when I saw you last year in a concert... I can clearly say that it was the best concert of my life. It was like being home and in a magical place at the same time♥️
Well I'm about to turn 25 and this video has inspired me to do one, just for myself, to my 30 self, I have always thought that dreaming about the future gives me energy and hope 🙈♥️

Thank you for all you have showed over the years, your always in a warm spot in my heart ♥️😊

And just like that I'm taken to the moment I first watched Dodie's “Dear 25 Year Old Me” video 5 years ago. It's crazy how time flies! Dodie, you made 20-year-old Dodie proud. If she were here to see you now, she'd be crying tears of joy, just as we all are 😘

I remember watching “Dear 25 Year Old Me” when I was 12, I’m now 17 and sobbing at how time flies

I love this so much dodie thank u for this. I totally get ur tears when u look back at 5 years ago during such a hard time. I’m so happy to see that ur ok, it always gets better. I used to watch u when you were 20 haha so seeing this is amazing. You are amazing girl ❤️

This was beautiful to watch, thank you for being vulnerable and sharing dodie 💓

I’ve been in a pretty deep spiral lately and this video keeps coming to mind, I’ve rewatched it several times over the last few months and I just wanted to thank you for being so real in making this video. I can’t imagine how hard it must have been, but it’s been really grounding to hear you speak about all the things that have changed in your life. Right now it’s hard to think even a month into the future, but I’ve taken genuine solace in watching this and remembering that someday I’ll be able to look back at 18 year old me and smile, because things finally changed for the better. Thank you for your authenticity, I find it incredibly brave, and utterly comforting.

Okay I'm listening to you talk at 1:44 and it's bringing me so much hope. I'm feeling how 20 year old doddie is feeling and wishing I was 17 again but I'm not. I'm 19 and I felt like I lost myself completely. I'm just trying really hard to push forward and move on to better days

Seeing this makes me realise how much stronger Dodie has become over the past 5 years.

This was very brave and I am so proud of how you have grown. Five years! I remember watching that video and I will remember this one. We are still with you and YES you still have an audience. 💛

It's amazing to see how much Dodie has grown in just 5 years. 💓💞💜

I've waited for this video for 5 years, I am so proud of you Dodie!

I am so happy about you. I came across you and various other singers for the first time about a month ago and have been feeling great joy watching the art and talent being expressed, but more so in seeing you and others experience life. I hope you can feel happy in knowing I feel happy about you as I am sure so many others do as well. Stay magnificent and beautiful. (No more changes to the nose!!)

‘ladies and gentlemen we’re going to take a quick short break’
dodie: hyperventilating
me: crying

You're legit an actual hero. Hate that you go through anything difficult. You're amazing, music aside.

This made me feel much better about growing older. I'm 20 years old right now and the future is terrifying to me but you, at 20, is a lot like me right now. I hope I grow up to be even just a little bit like you. You are wonderful and I am so proud of you. You are the epitome of growth and loveliness. I love you dodie, keep going.

Thank you for sharing with us! this is so special and so vulnerable and I'm honored to have heard it. Thank you. You've grown so much, and I hope you remind yourself of that <3

Thank you for posting this. I can tell it’s personal. I’ve been watching your videos for years and I just turned 20 this month and am terrified. Thank you for sharing your development with little 20-year-old girls like me <3

‘I did take a pregnancy test the other day but I’m just really bloated’ is such a mood

This was beautiful ❤️ Thank you for doing this and sharing it with the world.

this makes me so happy. i’m so proud of you Dodie💓

Everyone has their fears and difficulties - and it's inspiring to see you face yours and be brave everyday. Thank you Dodie! You've brought joy, and given us words and tunes to echo and understand our sadness all these years

Watching you reply to your video from 5 years ago is so heartwarming. It is so great to see how you have grown and how happy you are with everything you have done. I love every one of your songs and when you said "you are a musician", it just put a smile on my face!

When you said “I wish I could play the songs for her” I teared up so extremely. There are so many things that I wish I could tell twenty year old me too. How special to have this video so you can see her again ❤️

I really am so proud of how far youve come. I know it doesnt mean much seeing as im a complete stranger and only 16 but i've been watching you for so long and I remember watching that video and empathizing. I still do. Youre so strong and been through so much. Thank you for making it this far and showing people regardless of who you are it gets better. <3

Genuinely crying with you because I remember when you uploaded the first video and I’m beyond proud of you dodie 🖤

Dude, watching this video made me sob. I’m 20 now and I’m in a really weird spot in my life where I’m questioning a lot of my future with how uncertain everything is and a lot of the things you said to your 20 year old self was exactly what I needed to hear right now 💕 You are so strong and if I become 25 and I’m half the woman you are now, I’ll consider that such a win

This is such a sweet video to watch. I remember watching the first one when it came out, I was just 16 !! And now I'm 21 ! I feel like I've grown up alongside you a lot, in so many ways. I'm so happy you're doing well. <3

Its so weird that I watched "dear 25 year old me" when i was 15, and now im 20 watching "hello 20 year old me". I cant believe its been 5 years.. thats scary

Hey dodie! I am kind of late posting this but anyway, happy quarter of 100. I've been enyoing your videos for probably about 5 years now, learned a few of your songs on uke and kind of grow up in this time too. Ty for this video, seems really personal and I admire your courage for puting yourself out there. I wish you the best and have a good one. Love from Slovenia

Aw man 20 year old dodie, I cant believe how far you've come. I remember watching 20 year old dodie, and I will be sobbing too because look at you now.

this was so lovely to watch, and almost cathartic. I'm so proud of u

Honestly when 20 year old Dodie Clark said “are you happy?....... I hope you’re happy!” That! That set me off crying. 🥺

So here I am, turning 20 in a month, and I can only hope that I can go through half the transformation you did in 5 years <3

I started watching your channel around that time when you were 20 so it's really precious to look back with you at who you were back then <3

I remember when this came out. I was 11! Always loved you and been inspired by you since I’ve started watching you 💗

I watched this video when I was 15 and I based A LOT of my personality around you at this time, you were just everything to me. And five years from then I am now 20 and my hair is in a pixie cut and I write poetry and play games and have a beautiful partner who I live with. And I guess this comment is just to say how grateful I am that I found you when I was 15 because 5 years later I have seen you four times and you have honestly helped me grow and learn about my sexuality and who I am.

An absolutely adorable time capsule dodie! I really love how gentle you are to your younger self and how you react honestly to everything that your younger self asked you, even when it brought tears to your eyes and brought back memories of the events of the past five years!
I didn't start watching your videos until 2017 dodie, but it is clear that you have grown since you were 20 (if the videos are anything to go by), and I consider it a blessing that I get to watch you on YouTube now. You've honestly been my favorite musician for the past two years.
You've been an inspiration to me dodie, I suppose that is something I've always wanted to tell you. I'm studying to take my licensing exam to become a nurse, and your music is on my study playlist, you're someone I go to when I need to hear something heartwarming, and I hope that one day I can meet you and thank you for...honestly, just being you! You rock dodie (both your 20-year-old and 25-year-old self)! :) <3 Here's to many more memories, opportunities, and amazing adventures in the next five years dodie! :) <3

i've never wanted to hug a person through a screen more than right now

I'm 27 💜. I remember when that vid was released. Thank you for bringing beauty into the world. You're an incredible artist.

wow i must have watched the first one of these when i was 15 which is pretty crazy to think. It's lovely to see how youve grown as a person so much in those 5 years and it makes me hopeful for my future so thank you for that 💜

I started crying with you when 20 year old you said “are you happy?”
I’m 20 years old right now and I remember when that video was first posted. I was 15.
I feel like I’ve grown so much with you and I’ve stepped into myself in the past 5 years and I’m glad you were there with me throughout them.
I am happy now I think, I hope you are too. <3

I came back to this as i'm about to turn 20 soon and its crazy to realize I've gone through similar things and am almost where 25 yr old dodie is in her life. Im sure there are many things that will change as I try to adult and many lessons i will learn, but its so surreal seeing someone i looked up to in my teens now being 25 and me relating as if we're closer in age than we actually are, if that makes sense.

My god, I remember when the first one came out- You've inspired me since I found your channel many years ago, and you've been part of my journey in ways you could never know, as I am but one of your many adoring family members who want to support you. I've been to your shows, I've watched your music and EP's come out, and you inspired me to learn the uke and start writing music, and its been amazing to see you grow. I've been watching you since I was 12 years old, I believe, or around then. I deep dove into youtube as my only refuge from my damn complicated and changing world. As my world keeps getting turned upside down and inside out along with the rest of the world at this time, I continue going back to my best friends from the past- you mentored me and cheered me up through my rocky past and have neevr stopped inspiring me. I love you doddie <3
-orion

I suddenly want to record a “20 years old dear me” video and then look back when i am 30 or more. That’s a inspiring idea from dear Dodie~

oh my goodness! i was fifteen when I first watched that video and watching you play it back brought back so many feelings... now I am twenty and it is so odd and cool (and difficult in many ways) to be growing and changing on the internet. thank you dodie

well this destroyed me

This is amazing. Proud of you. I hope you felt better for it. <3

Okay this made me cry quite a bit haha. I’m turning 20 in less than a month (!!) & seeing how a lot of things got better for you, in terms of understanding your mental health more, your creativity & making new close friends, just gives me hope. I’ve been through a pretty rough ol’ time the last year and a half & I really hope that when I get to 25, I’ll be able to say that things got better for me.

Lots of love to you Dodie X

Ps: I’m gonna make one of these videos/write a letter to my future self.

Oh Dodie I remember watching you back in that day and even before, I remember sometimes feeling like oh she needs helps and then finding that you are finding that help, going through the journey of growing with you and know watching this it really awe inspiring but also feels good to see you grow and feel fine about your life :)

This is already really inspiring and I’m hardly a minute in. Thank you so much for being brave enough to share this, I’m sure I’ll feel even more grateful as I continue to watch, but.. basically, after going through something rather life changing recently and feeling suddenly very uprooted and empty, I already think that making a video like this for myself could help me a lot. Just looking forward to 5 years out looking back on 23 year old me and knowing that I was able to keep going and if I can make this me proud or even if I become proud of new things by that age I think it will be like... some coins in a piggy bank to me or something. Some fond memory just of me and for me that I won’t ever have smeared by a loss of friends (what’s just happened) or a bad relationship or whatever.
Idk yet what it would become to me, but already your video has me thinking!

The elevator music during the sobbing intermission was a whole mood

When she went “aw babe” I cried

This was a beautiful video, thank you for showing us to be kind to ourselves and to take our mistakes (and achievements) in stride. The raw honesty and grace is breathtaking.

This is so lovely. Thanks for the eye-opener on how much can change - and how much can improve! - in the span of five years.

You are just so precious in every possible way. I hope you feel happy now. Love ya :*

Dodie: is crying and trying to hold herself together.
Also Dodie: OOP
I love her

Dodie, thank you. I recently turned 18 and I'm terrified of growing up. This gave me a lot of peace. Life is hard, but it gets better. Thank you so much.

i just sobbed with you for this whole video. i’m so happy for you xx

God, I‘m so much like 20 year old Dodie atm. Watching this filled me with a lot of anxiety, but it also reminded me not to be scared of the future.

This video reminded me there is a reason to fighting to stay alive. Thank you, ms Dodie. You have so much love. And it gives me hope. So ill fight just like you. Keep being badass lol

25 year old dodie saying “god I wish I could play my songs to her, she would love them” to 20 year old dodie really GOT ME

I just turned 20 yesterday, and stumbled upon this video. Cried while watching it, and cried while I made my own. Thank you, Dodie, for this idea and experience.

I never thought I'd hear dodie say the words "I took a pregnancy test"
Even I was scared

9:10 You look beautiful at 25, and your face has really come into it's own - I also have noticed my little smiley wrinkles start seeping in, haha, I'm about to turn 23. This whole 20-25 thing freaks me out too. As being 20 feels like a year ago to me. You seem such a lovely person, wish we could be friends! haha, don't cry!

This was really cool to see and it makes me really hopeful as a fellow musician to see where you were five years ago and where you are now. Thanks for sharing and thanks for being vulnerable ❤️

Cried a little at this, I think because I feel a lot like dodie in the 20yr old clip, (derealization, alwasy stuck in the past or future ect) and seeing someone being like "it got better" is what I really needed. I often see people saying like "it gets better" but it's something different seeing someone who went through the same hell and who got to the other side. Thank you.

Thank you for putting this out. Having a hard year...this helps put things in perspective.

It's weird bc I remember watching the original video lmao and now we're here AAAAA
so glad that things have been better for you and that you've exceeded 20yr old Dodie's expectations when it comes to career/passions ~

Didn’t expect this video to be so relatable. I’m 20 now and this made me start to cry. Being fixated on the past and scared of getting old hurts the most.

been watching your videos for years now! I'm 25 as well and I hope you have many many more good times! you are inspiring and have a lovely mind dodie! xx

This is so beautiful. Time flies by so quickly and often it's hard to remember what we've been through. Life is in constant transition and we don't even feel it. It's amazing to see what actually happens in 5 years!

Honestly think we all went through the worst of it in 2016-2017. I felt that one.

Dodie, I'm so happy and proud of you for everything you've overcome! I understand how hard depersonalsation can be
I'm 23 at the moment. And when I was 20 I was also extremely unhappy. I was diagnosed with BPD when I was 21 (I think) and although things are still pretty dark for me I know they'll get better, and thinking back I'd not change anything.

And I'm so happy and glad I found your music! I use to watch your videos but I rarely have the attention span to sit and watch anymore. But your music has helped me alot during bad times.

I'm rambling now and I'm sorry.
I just want you to know how amazing you are and how much you've grown. And just remember there is always happinesses in the future. Much love to you Dodie ♥️♥️

dodie, are you still afraid of time passing? I've come back to this video. I'm 18, turning 19 this year, and changes and time passing are just my biggest fear. does it get easier? I just think I'm gonna wish I was 18 for the rest of my life even though I'm not happy now.

“I’ve got a secret for the mad, in a little bit of time it won’t hurt so bad.... I promise you, it’ll all make sense again.” Wow this got me crying as I thought about who I was five years ago. I’m about to be 20. And 15 year old me hurt a lot. She was desperate to be loved because she didn’t know how to love herself. She got hurt by some people, and there were many times that she cried in the dark and hoped she would disappear by morning. But the sun still rose, and she continued on. She grew stronger, and she found more of herself. The more she found, the more she loved those fragments of self. Now, she’s still growing. But she isn’t hurting that way anymore. She still cries sometimes, but she’s learned how to love herself, and she’s the first one to come to her own defense, she’s the first one to protect. She doesn’t need some boy pretending like he can protect her. She learned how to herself. And now, she tries to protect others, who are where she was, all those years ago. She is about to embark on her greatest adventure, and it hasn’t happened the way 15 had hoped, but it’s happened in ways neither of them could’ve dreamed. 20 is excited. 20 has looked at 15 and said “I love you now, and I’m so sorry I didn’t love you then. You are worthy of love. You are smart, and kind, and good. You are talented. You don’t deserve the things that happened to you. And despite what you might think, they weren’t your fault. I love you. I love you.”

I remember watching this when I was 17. For some reason watching it again reminded me of who I was when I first watched it. So much has happened, I graduated highschool, I've almost finished an arts and science degree, I came out, I became an activist, I made so many amazing new friends. But the biggest and most horrifying change has been loosing my beautiful mother. I couldn't have even imagined that five years ago. I have trouble believing it now. While I hope that I can find a place where I can look to the future for happiness like Dodie, I can't help wishing that I could just wake up as who I was five years ago.

having been watching you through this whole time and seeing you grow has made me so emotional. its so incredible to see where you have been and where you are. so so so incredibly proud of your journey ❤

I am so proud of you for how you have grown and how you treasure your gifts and share them. Seeing your kind heart was healing for me. Thank you!

Dodie makes me feel so fucking happy.. just seeing someone so real and raw, it’s beautiful 🥺

when i saw this i immediately said "uh oh, the feels are comin"

dodie, i've been watching your videos for about 4 years. i love you so much. it's great to see you making videos again. i feel like i've grown up with you. and i just want to say, from the bottom of my heart, i hope you brush your hair❤️

I'm so sad how much more put-together you are a 25 than I am at 32, but I am happy for you too. I haven't watched your videos in ages, but I'm glad I've found you again, I've always thought you're such a lovely person <3 And I found you on YT Music, which is crazy! You've become such a star, and you're only going to rise higher. Stay strong and stay yourself

the irony of watching this at 20 years old while wondering to myself when I’m going to reconnect with my high school friends is a little bit too much for me

so much self-love, this was so nice and inspiring to watch. I've been following you since i was a teenager and this just gives me even more hope

little did 20 year old dodie know that 25 year old dodie would reply while in lockdown in the midst of a global pandemic

this video has moved me in ways I can't even comprehend right now. I'm turning 20 in august and I am going to write a letter to my 25 year old self today. I really needed that. thanks dodie. kisses from Brazil <3

5 years ago I was 14 and I had just gotten my first ukulele because of you! You inspired me to start music and I’m so glad I found you, your channel, and your music. ❤️

So beautiful, so much emotion. I think it is something everyone would benefit from. It will give you clarity as you get older too knowing that whilst everything can change around you, you can and will get through. Much love xxxx

being vulnerable and honesty is beautiful. thank you for showing how it's done and being okay with it <3 thank you

i feel like i now understand that it isn’t this way forever

this actually gives me so much hope. its really inspiring. i've been going through hard times for the past like 7 years and this gives me hope.

gosh i can’t remember the last time i got this emotional watching a video i’m twenty and just as 20 y/o dodie started talking it hit me so hard and when 25 y/o dodie cried 7:06 i cried and just ooof :’)
(i read in the description that you read all the comments, so if you’re reading this right now i need you to know how much this video has helped me, i love you dodie)

I cried like a baby when you talked about tufty </3 Growing up is so hard! It's so nice to hear you reminiscing with 20 year old you... I'm 21 now and it's very comforting to know that I won't always feel this way. Change can be okay <33

omg i was bawling during this whole video. this touched my heart like no other video has. truly, thank you for this. <3

“youre probably gonna feel like that for a while but then- then it actually does get better. genuinely. youll go through the worst of it ... and then youll actually come out feeling a lot better”
“it is the BEST time! i cant believe you have that to look forward to. it will change your life”
“some shit goes down, and everything changes but then everyones fine”
“all of the mess and memories are gone. and everyones okay”
“i think i was pinning a lot of happiness on sort of going back to the past and i think at some point, i dont know when, you learned to look forward for happiness”
“its really not as bad as you think”
“it will be so different and it will be okay”
!!!!!!! this stuff made me tear up oh my god oh my god dodie is so wise and beautiful and amazing im literally so amazed to see how much shes grown its insane. this is so freaking amazing

This video made me cry as well, and it made me super hopeful for the future. I somewhat cried about the fact that I’ve been watching you since I was 12 and I’m 17 now, it makes me hurt for some reason, but in a good way. You remind me a lot of my sister and your videos make me feel so comforted, thank u for this video 🥰

This was such an adorable idea! Thanks for sharing this:)

Musical greetings - full of renewable energy!

this is the first video i've seen of dodies in a long time, and i'm really glad this is the video i come back and see. i can't believe how far thing's have come for you, dodie. i remember when that video was posted 5 years ago and i cant believe how much time has passed. i'm so glad you're doing well. <3

aww dodie I started crying with you! I've been watching you since those days, when you had a smaller following and I remember being gutted that I had to miss a concert where you were playing as support for Bry. Then I got to see you on your 'You' tour a few years later!! It's amazing to see how much you've grown as a person, a musician and a creative individual. Its so strange because now I'm just about to turn 20 next week and I realise how young you were, but I was 15 when watching you and I looked up to you sm as such a wonderful creative person. Man, the nostalgia is real! Thank you for sharing this with us, we all love you so much and we are so proud of you <3

“I did take a pregnancy test the other day, I was just bloated” ME OMG

I’m 19 years old and now I really want to do this for myself. Seeing you having the chance to reflect so much on how far you’ve come is amazing.

Watching this so late... This video is giving me so much hope 😊 I'm 22 soon, feeling a bit less lost as I did at 20, but not where you are yet. Gonna write myself a dear 25 letter

can’t believe i’ve been watching you for a whole 5 years💕 i’m so proud of you (and myself) for overcoming those years!!

Hi Dodie! Just wanted to thank you for your music & your videos. You somehow are always able to calm my anxiety & your songs articulate feelings in a way that I struggle to express myself. Life is hard, but you help me to know that it will be okay. :)

The human-ness is so cutting I don't even know the words to describe it

i turned 20 a few days ago. i remember when this video came out. i really felt this one. thank you dodie.

I’m trying not to cry so hard watching this. It’s so emotional and I can relate to lots of these things and it’s so cute❤️

I wish I'd been able to make a video when I was 20 too for me now to see how different things are.
Thanks for sharing this and well done you. It's great to see how far you've come along in 5 years.

I’ve been watching dodie since I was 17, stumbled upon a video of her and Evan going to Dubai (to show my then 3 year old sister a plane before holiday) I’m now about to turn 23 and oh my does shit happen. But she’s been a constant in that time, comforting and just there. Thank you, dodie❤️

“Ladies and gentlemen we’re gonna take a quick break”

Me at school when I have an anxiety attack

It’s so nostalgic to me that I saw this when it came out. Life is so weird. I remember you and Lucy making vids back in the day (British tag was the first one!) and this is such a blast from the past. Love u Dodes

i remember watching the first video on my bed in my childhood room at 16, and i was just obsessed with you. this is cheesy, but i really feel like we’ve grown up together, we’re both so different than we were 5 years ago. this feels crazy to say, especially since you don’t know me and won’t ever see this, but thank you from the bottom of my heart. i can never thank you enough for how much you’ve taught me through your videos, and how comforting and soft and easy your content was for me when i was so young and scared. it’s because of you that i learned i have dpdr, and how to explain that to others in order to get the help i need. i hope that wherever you are and whatever you’re doing, you’re taking care of yourself in whatever way fits you best. no matter what, i’ll be thinking of you from time to time and sending you so much love. thank you dodie! <3

My sister and I are about the same age gap as you and yours and when you were talking about her I was sobbing - I had to text her and tell her I love her ❤️ I’ve been watching since you filmed Dear 25 year old Dodie, so thank you

Ive been watching you a long time and ive grown up now, with you I suppose and though i dont catch the videos very often, this was nice. I literally turned 20 yesterday so it seemed like a good fit, glad to see youre doing okay Dodie.

The fact that she’s not looking at the camera, it makes it seem like she’s doing an interview and talking to an actual person

this made me so emotional. I remember when this video came out, i was 11 and madly obsessed with watching dodie's videos. I was scared for the future and growing older and becoming independent. I am now 16, and i haven't watched dodie in a while but i saw this and clicked it. I am now sat crying my eyes out haha. It made me look at my own life and how far i've come and how much has changed, and will change. Thank you for this video, it made me remember memories that i'd forgotten and what i felt like when you posted this video x

Big hugs! I only found your channel/music this year so I'm late to the party but I am continually blown away by your music and perhaps even more how you come across, your personality. I'm looking forward to watching all your future successes (and being able to be there, via youtube, for any tough times). Belated happy birthday!

Im so proud of this dodie and past dodie and this genuinely gives me so much hope for my future self, it made me cry happy tears. thanks girl :)

I literally teared up at a couple of points. ‘Are you happy? I hope you’re happy’ that one got me

20 yo dodie: "no offense, sorry"
25 yo dodie: "it's okay!"
It really is :')

It’s taken me some time to finally watch this video but I’m so glad that I did. When I was younger, I used to write letters to my future self. Normally it was for major events, but I haven’t done it in awhile.
I’m 20 now. I’m going to go write a letter for my 25 year old self now.
Thank you, Dodie :)

I feel like I spend my life wishing I was able to go back 5/10 years because depression is helping me waste my life. Does this ever stop??? I'm so glad I'm not the only one. Does anyone else feel like this? I'm 32 which is ancient compared to most Dodie fans but I relate so much to this. Thanks for the tears, you absolute beaut. Be happy chickies ❤

I wrote a letter for my 23 year old self when I finished high school in 2017. I'm excited to read it but a little scared that I won't have lived up to my own expectations

this has kinda inspired me to make a video like this for 25 year old me. crazy how much we grow and learn about ourselves. you're amazing dodie, we're so proud of you <3

when she was talking about being in tour around america, and being with wonderful people and preforming for them , i legitimately started crying. i cried almost as much as i did the night i saw her in concert. i saw dodie in colorado on september 28. it was literally one of the best nights of my life, and hearing her talking about performing on tour just hit something in me and i started crying. i loved every minute of the concert, and cried so much during When. the people there all comforted me and the atmosphere of that whole show was incredible. just let me sob for a minute and realize how much i actually need to see her again

i love this so much! 5 years doesn’t seem like that long but if i think about where i was five years ago and all i’ve been through it is WILD

i haven't really watched you for about 5 years but i watched this one and you seem so much happier. i'm so happy for you!

Aww Dodie I cried so much with you ),; I’ve subscribed to you since then probably and I didn’t really realise how much you’ve grown and matured but I’m so proud of you and all of your achievements and growth (,; you’ve become like a distant friend to me who I learn of her struggles and her interests and everything. Thank you for growing up with me! wish I could give you a hug ❤️

i genuinely don’t think i’ve watched your videos since you were about 20, i went through the whole ukulele girl/dan and phil stage etc, but seeing this complete update on your life makes me really happy i’m so glad you’re doing better, it give me lots of hope for 19 year old me now :)

Love you and wish you the best :)
Ur amazing exactly how you are and have helped so many people and sparked happiness in so many more.

I saw dodie at the roundhouse I cried so much, it was so great to be part of a community of people similar to you, a great experience 😊💖😢

I was 15 when you posted the first one and I'm 20 now... and can I say how reassuring this was <3 I love you always thanks for sharing a bit of your heart with us

I remember when you posted the original video. I'm so proud of how far you've come.

Dodie: has a bit of a cry
Me: also has a bit of a cry because I realise that I can relate to a lot of stuff dodie and the fact she got through it makes me more hopeful that I can

i remember watching the original video 5 years ago when i was 14... i was going through so so much with depression anxiety and so many other things. Watching you look back in time like that makes me realize just how far ive come myself. Sometimes i don’t realize how much ive accomplished these past 5 years and how proud i should feel. I remember having to stop watching your videos for a while because i associated watching you with the horrible time i was going through. But im so glad im back and this video made me realize why i should feel proud for what not only what i have accomplished but you as well. I love you dodie... thanks for growing up with me ❤️

You are so beautiful, dodie. I love you. Thank you for sharing your journey and life with us. I've been your follower for so many years. You've been my style icon... love you. Such a throw back!! ❤

Wow I went on a very similar emotional rollercoaster to you while watching this video and having a lot of the same feelings and fears that 20 year old dodie is experiencing but at least there’s hope

I honestly wish I did this. One of the most amazing things to do for yourself and it helps you feel so many emotions that make you feel human.

"It's not as scary as you think, when it happens. It's just the way it is."

wtf i’ve been watching you for at least 5 years!!! i remember this video ahh. i’m so happy for you and how far you’ve come! <3

Dodie you’re so successful and I love love love your music, I’m so happy for you and I love your voice! Keep it up!

this made me so incredibly emotional. five years ago, i watched that video the day it came out, 12 years old, thinking about how i’d be 17 when i watched it again. i really looked up to 20 year old dodie. you’re so different and so much happier and IM so different, idk if i’m happier, but it’s just wild. i don’t wanna think abt a lot of these questions. i don’t want to think about a lot of these questions, or where i’ll be age 22, because i’m still really frightened. just crazy how much you shaped me as a person and that i’m kinda growing wish you but behind you. wish you the best <3

I can't believe it's been five years, I remember being such a huge fan of yours when the first one came out and I was so excited for you to reply in five years lmao I'm really proud of how far you've come xxxx

I just realised she didn't answer the 'are you happy' question, she just sighed. My heart broke :(

Dodie, you're literally the most beautiful person everrr, but know that we're all here for you and enjoy your videos <33 you're doing so great, and you've come so far and will come so much further in the future <333

I’m 20 right now and I related to too many of the things 20 year old Dodie said, but 25 year old Dodie’s responses made me more hopeful for the future.

The first time I saw dodie likr 5 years ago I knew to my very core that she was gonna make it and I cry everytime I see how much she's grown! I love you so much dodie and I hope you love you just as much!

As a big sister myself I broke down when you started crying and talk about Heidi, sibling relationships are the best ❤️❤️

11:30 when dodie said that she wouldn't go back, i felt so proud and happy for her. i could see SO MUCH change and it was really inspiring to me because she's a real life example of the light at the end of a tunnel. i feel such a deep connection because i grew up with dodie and i'm just gonna keep growing WOw <3

god i haven’t watched you in a hot sec. i just cried to some of your old songs, then wanted to see how you were doing. you are such a beautiful soul and always, always manage to cheer me up or teach me a lesson. i will always have you in my heart, dodie.

I dont normally find a lot of touching videos, but thank you for sharing this with us. Means a lot seeing the tears and smiles over 5 years of memories

Hi dodie! You're so cool and you're such a massive inspiration and you're a hero to me and i have so much love for you and i cant tell you how many times ive listened to your music at 2am during the Dark Times™ and i just, thank you. You mentioned you read all your comments so i hope you read this.

P.S I'm borrowing this idea from my blog i hope thats okay

this made me cry way more than i expected

"We got...animojis?"
*long sigh*
"Alright."

I felt that.

i watched that video when it came out, so to see this now at age 20 is so strange. i was a completely different person, as were you!! thanks for sharing dodie. i hope you have a good day

I remember watching this five years ago when this was posted and rewatching it today seeing the journey dodie has been on while following her and then thinking about the last five years of mY LIFE?!

i think what freaked me out the most was me realizing, while watching this, that like we all kinda grew up together? like i specifically remember this “version” of dodie and exactly who i was when i would watch this “version” of you. you’ve grown so much!! i love you dude!

dear 25 year old me
did you make it to being a 25 year old?

You know that feeling, when you read a really good book, or see a really good movie where the characters have such a good development, you feel that sort of satisfaction, that ease.

i felt that same feeling when i watched this, i was there when 20 year old dodie postes her video rambling abt the future, and im proud to be here watching 25 yr old dodie more mature, still as awesome and wonderful as ever but happier than ever before. Every single one of use who watched you become the person you are now are definitely crying with you while you answer 20 year old dodie's questions.

i know youre probably not going to read this from the amounts of comments you recieve, but, i want you to know that you made me realize that the future is indeed something to look forward to, that it does get better. Thank you dodie. Thanks for being you.

I'm just so happy for you that you've grown into the person you are today!!! <3 <3 <3 I love that you just kept saying "It gets better" and I feel like you really meant it. And I believe in that too :')
It's crazy that I saw you live in AZ last year and that I get to be a part of your journey, even in the smallest way. And you get to be a part of mine!
I'm 21, so I think I'll record a video to my 26 year old self :)

Dodie I haven’t watched your videos since 2015 and I so happy for you and everything that you have achieved in this 5 years, I remembered when I watched you and sometimes I can’t understand because my English was so bad hahaha but I enjoyed your videos so much!
Thanks for doing this video, you helped with not be so afraid of future

This was so tear jerking and so adorable at the same time

Watching this at age 20 is really inspirational. I actually remember watching this video when it came out and I was just 16. Back then I thought about writing a letter to myself, but I decided against it. Sometimes I look back at what 15 y/o me thought my life will like now and although it's really different from what I imagined it to be, I know that I am definitely much happier now, although the last year has been tough. But I always try to live with this thought in the back of my head that my life got better in the past years and so I hope it will get better in the years to come. To see how you are better now than back then just gives me more hope that in 5 years maybe also I'll be a bit happier and less afraid.

OMG I CAN’T BELIEVE I HAVE WAITED FOR THIS FOR FIVE YEARS WHAT DO YOU MEAN FIVE YEARS?????!!!!!! HOW OLD AM I EVEN NOW WTF LMAO HOW TIME FLIES

dodie you are such a pure, kind and wonderful person and you genuinely make me feel like I'm going to be alright and that life will be okay (or at least a bit more okay) in a couple years. You deserve all the happiness and I really hope that one day you find it

i miss the days when you’d post your deepest thoughts, but i’m glad that you are well and don’t need that anymore. this was so emotional, love you dodie

Hello Dodie, I just found you last week and became an instant fan <3 Happy belated birthday

I literally cry at the same point she does in this video every time I watch it. Damn this hurts <3

They say: if you are depressed, you're living in the past. If you are anxious, you're living the the future. If you are at peace, you're living in the present. Don't know why this vid made my think of this hmmm. Loved this video... it's like talking to that friend that completely understands how you feel and see the world XXX

I was smiling through out the video (I sound creepy). But it was because it was really wholesome to see this. Reflection, talking to your youngerself and all, it's cute. I don't watch much of your videos, but this was very heart warming. ❤

Seeing you cry made me want to cry :'( it's been such a journey watching you grow. I'm 19 and I'm trying to figure stuff out for myself, I hope I can say I've gotten myself together like you when I'm 25. Hmm, just thinking about being 25 is so weird. I'm terrified of the future just like past dodie haha. It was great to see you interacting with past dodie in such a friendly way though, makes me want to write my future self a letter too :)

I have not related more to a video in a very long time. I am at 23 now and 20 year old me lived so far in the past too, and we recently also got the answer we needed to find peace and start building our future! I am so happy you are in a better place, and that you've come so far along in your growth. We are on the path living in the now, working for the future and we learnt from the past and stopped living in it. I hope I still agree at 25. Much love.

I found myself answering the questions you posed to yourself as if I had asked them to me when I was 20, and the things that have changed in my life since that age are astounding. I can’t imagine how she would feel if she had known what she was going to face.

dodie calling her 20 y/o self “babe” is evERYTHING

this video is so comforting it gives me hope that yea ill make it through !!! it gets better and ill be happier, i just need to hold on ☺

I really appreciate that you talked about your parents and didn’t cut it out. My parents are going through something too and it’s so comforting to know that you got through it :)

I’ve followed and grown up along side dodie since 2013 so to say this video made me feel some sort of way would be an understatement

This is made me cried a lot because you helped me deal with my depression at my 20s through your experience. I'm 24 now and I feel so much better now

I’m about to turn 18 soon and I remember watching “dear 25 year old me” when I was 13 and terrified of getting older, graduating high school, planning for college, trying to find love and dealing with my really bad depression, etc. Now watching “hello 20 year old me” and being just almost 18 is nerve racking but so exciting because I’m graduating in May, going to my dream college away from home with the love of my life, and managing my depression so much better than before is absolutely crazy to me. (Dodie saying her depression is almost like a friend now is something I really connected with) I’ve been watching Dodie for sooo many years and to feel like we’ve almost grown up together is something I cherish because she has gotten me through many tough times and she still does to this day. Thank you for reacting to this and giving me comfort and reassurance that the future doesn’t have to be so scary :)

it feels so bizarre to have been watching your videos this 5 YEARS omg I love that u are better know, you were a lot of comfort for my 13 y/o self. love you

I had never watched such a video. It was a great video idea. You're a true artist, Doodle!

i fell in love with 20 year old dodie, i don't watch her much anymore but this hit a soft spot for me as someone who looked up to dodie five years ago, brb i'm crying

it's so weird not seeing dodie sharing her life anymore but im just happy that she's in a better place and doesn't feel reliant on the internet for validation

I’m also 25 and I’m here to confirm so much change happens and it does get better!!!! THANK YOU DODIE for posting this lol saw you at the LA Palladium show. I didn’t expect there to be so many kids >.< but I still enjoyed my wine in line lol and since you read all your comments I got “6/10” tattooed behind my right arm! ❤️❤️❤️

i watched you 5 years ago and i remember seeing this video. i cried with u even though its not my life. im so happy you and your sister are happy and healthy.

I caught up on all your videos in the past two days and I cant wait for more beautiful music from such an honest soul you are way too precious for this world, Please sit up straight relax your tongue, drop your shoulders and breathe deep, the lightworkers need a positive you

It is wild to watch this. I remember watching the original vid 5 years ago and now stumbling upon this. Cheers to past and present you. It's really amazing to see the growth.

Doddie getting surprised when something hasn’t changed is so cute. It’s like “Oh my god! I do that! Oh wait it’s me”

As someone who is also 25, and who has really struggled with pretty severe depression and mental health issues since some trauma that happened when I was 18, I also spend most of my time wishing I was 15-16 or wishing I was older and at a place in life where Im finally happy. Hearing 20 year old you expressing these sentiments that I so strongly relate to and have done since you said them 5 years ago, and then hearing you say that it gets better and that you've worked through that pain and rewired your brain....I know its a cliche but it gives me so much hope. Im so happy that you are no longer in that place because it truly is a terrible way to live, and I wish you all the best. I hope I can join you on the other side of what seems like an insurmountable obstacle, but knowing you got there too makes it seem a little more manageable. Thank you

I just clicked on this from Recommended. Keep going Dodie. This was the hardest portion of my life, but keep going and it just gets easier and better, I promise.

Damn. I love both dodie's, but this video made me full on cry. Started thinking about my own worries and memories and etc.

I have no idea how many times I have watched this video. I spent years wishing it was 2014 again. Part of me still does truly.
I wrote a spoken word piece about it, and got it all out. Once I've performed it (thanks covid) I hope I'll be at peace with it. Thankyou dodie x

my aesthetic is dodie calling herself “babe”

this video makes me think about how far I've come too. I remember watching the original video right when it was uploaded and thinking about how far away 5 years from then was. I was struggling with depression, and a year later I tried to take my life. It has been a long uphill struggle, but I'm so proud of where I am now. I truly thought I could never have a future, I could never get over my depression and anxiety. Since then, I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and now I can understand why I've felt so up and down and all over the place my whole life. Now I know what to expect and how to prepare and cope when things get bad, and how to push through. I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I just need to hold on until the bad times are over. I have job I love that I've been at for 3 and a half years. I even have been promoted and taken on my first position as a supervisor. I didn't think I could ever do that. I went back to school and am on the path towards getting my degree. I've come out to all my friends and family and been accepted by everyone but my parents. And even though my parents still don't approve, we have a good relationship and no longer fight and yell every day. I graduated from therapy after thinking I could never be well enough to do that. & I'm moving across the country in a few months to live by my older sister in the city I've always wanted to live in. I almost wish I had a made a video like this back then so I could see how much I have really grown, but honestly back then I didn't think I'd live to this age. I'm so so proud of me and how far I've come. I think I might write a letter today for my future self to read. Because unlike me five years ago, I actually believe that I can and will have a future, one filled with love and happiness.

you’re the sweetest soul. you had me crying with you:)

I lost your channel for so long and came back to this video and I’m so emotional 😭 turned 26 in February and I’m still not ok LOL you’re beautiful!!!

That was very interesting to me. I'm 23, somewhere between the 2 versions of you, related to a few things and some got me a bit of peace. Nice to see you grew up well.

"how's mom, how's dad,"
".... Ladies and gentlemen we're gonna take a short break"
Goes to sob in a corner
Most relatable and bittersweet thing I've ever seen

Edit: hOLy sHiEt the likes wth

I love this. I discovered you 5 years ago when I was 20 and at university... I was so so jealous of your life and how 'together' you seemed. You were my idol...

I'll be honest and say I haven't followed your journey that closely in the past 5 years as life has a way of whisking time away... But after seeing this... And your growth and how you now view your beautiful life... I am so proud of you!

I'm now 25 aswell, and this resonates so much with me. And it's made me reflect on my own life in the past 5 years.... And A LOT has happened! In fact I'm due to give birth in 2 weeks 😱 definitely didn't think that was going to happen 5 years ago 😂

But I just want to thank you so much for sharing this with us all Dodie. You're amazing and I cannot wait to see where your journey takes you from here. Thank you and I hope you had a wonderful birthday despite lockdown. -Lucy

you are beautiful, I love your music and how vulnerable it is--it truly speaks to me. Thank you for braving the storm of youtube to reach people like me. God Bless

I really enjoyed this style of video, there was just something very soothing but also very emotional about the way you chose to answer and speak to younger self. Had a little cry but I loved it, truly

You seem much more at peace with life. I'm happy that you're happy. Good vibes and well wishes. Be brave. Be strong. Be you. :)

I love the fact that 20 years old dodie wanted to be happy and okay in a way at 25 and your happy in a different way that she couldn't think of. I cried when you cried bc I feel like your my friend bc of your music and videos but we have never met.
You are literally therapy for me so thank you.

I cried the whole way through this omg. The parents part hit hard! Made me reflect on how much I’ve grown from when I was 17 till now 😢 literally so much has changed.

And the “are u happy?” Question 🥺 depends on the day past me x

This video came to my life in the right moment because I have already 20 and i feel the same. Thank you.

This is such a lovely video especially since I'm about to turn 20 so it's so interesting to see you look back like this.

it honestly felt as though you were talking to my younger self, thank you for this video I needed it.

me, in the midst of bawling my eyes out: types “ask doctor about spironolactone” in my notes app

I remember watching this back in the day at 19 feeling so so many similar things. So wild how long ago that was. In one way it doesn't feel like that long ago but then again things are so different.
Trying not to think about it too much because this is A LOT but this was a cool thing to do and well done for actually doing it. I know it doesn't really fit with who you are now to post a video like this but it was satisfying to see the response to that video and I don't know what I'm trying to say but I found a lot of good in your content back then so 24 year old me thanks you for giving baby me some feeling I wasn't alone. I still feel it now I guess because I'm still loving your music and stuff. you seem to have some really good relationships(but what do i know) and I'm really happy for you for getting this far also you have a mortgage holy poop well done you, so sensible. I just realised you might not see this as the video was put up days ago but i kinda hope you do if this turns out to be a nicer comment. i don't know really i'm a bit teary after this but not in a negative way. okay i'm gonna go eat some banana loaf now i think it has cooled down. x

This video makes me so happy! I'm 25 this year as well and I remember watching 20 year old dodies video!! Wow this is crazy!! 💕

I send you so many virtual hugs, I was in the same place in 2016 and this almost reminds me of myself. I love you so much <3 You're so amazing :D

This touched me. Like a lot. I did not know I was gonna get so emotional… I was crying like 5 times throughout this video and laughing. I’m 20 now and I really relate to some parts of 20 year old you and some things 25 year old you said. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. I guess this helped me somehow. Thank you, Dodie! I’m glad that you are there! Lots of love from Germany. Lena

When you said “I wish I could play [my songs] for her... I wonder what she’d think” I started SOBBING and I don’t even know why! The thought of being able to comfort your past self is... a huge thing. (also I lowkey miss your short hair, like Feb 2017ish, but also I love whatever makes you happy <3 )

This video made me want to subscribe to you. This is so unapologetically you and it’s amazing. Thanks for this it made me feel things about my life in perspective about the past and the future. This was a Great idea! Can’t wait to binge watch your videos...btw your music is amazing 😉

This is such a beautiful idea to 'actually communicate' with your self, I love it!! <3

im 20 rn and i relate so hard to 20 yr old you. all of the things that you're saying bring me so much hope. i may or may not have balled my eyes out to this video but thank you so so so much

This video was beautiful and makes me wish I had done the same thing. The person I was five years ago has no idea how much they would experience between then and now.

I turn 21 in two days and this has inspired me to write a letter to my 25-year-old self!

When I saw you cry, I just wanted to hug you. I don’t know you personally, I probably never will, but I just... empathized? It’s amazing to see how much you’ve grown in a certain way, tho. 🥰

This is strangely comforting... made me have a bit of hope for how much things can change

Had a good cry exactly when you did for same reasons. And hearing you reassure yourself, reeeally felt like you're talking to me, who is 20 rn :] Currently, ive been feeling helpless, like how could anything repair the tears in life right now. But you look so little at 20, I guess thats how I look to others now. Thanks for reminding me that there's so much growth ahead.

it feels like yesterday that dodie had short hair and a fringe😔

For the past 2 years I've been in this "I wanna go back" mood. It really is wuite difficult to look forward instead of backwards to find happiness

Wow. This gave me so many feelings. I cried with you. I have watched your videos since before you were twenty and now I will be twenty in twenty days. My goodness am I proud of you. Thank you for being here today and doing what you do. Thank you for showing others that there is happiness and hope and even sadness in the world too and that it's all good and okay. I don't have enough words to say how much you and all that you do means to me.

this video made me cry because you are SO forgiving of yourself, you can visibly see it as you reply to yourself. i love this.

leaving in the lil crying bit made me feel so happy & validated about little breakdowns I have sometimes :')) thank you so much for the reality of things <3

I’m going to be 20 soon, and as someone who’s terrified of the future, this was super comforting 💛

Hi dodie, I really really hope I could meet you someday! You helped me in pretty much all my bad times since I meet your channel in my early teen years. Right now I'm 20 in a middle of a pandemic :p, it's awful because I was really depressed for so many years and when I finally get better the world got messier. Anyways, everytime I fear the future because of those crazy things that we all been living I comeback to this video to remember that things change for the better :)
Someday I will be brave enough to sing somewhere that's not my bedroom, just like you!
You are a amazing human being, don't forget it ❤️❤️❤️

Wait... I actually remember watching that video when you were 20. Wow, you grew a LOT, not that past Dodie wasn’t super lovely, just ... time progressed and you worked through some shit and it shows in a good way? You can be super proud of yourself. I hope this doesn’t sound offensive....not meant that was at all.

i cried along with dodie while i watched this video. i've been watching her videos since she first started, and i think i also have a bit of a hard time with time passing and things changing. seeing 20 year old dodie and the way she spoke and acted reminded me of the older times on youtube and what my own life was like back then (even further back than 5 years ago, more like 8-10 years ago). youtube was a big part of my life and its so strange seeing dodie grow and change, and of course my life has changed drastically too. just... emotional lol i love you dodie <3

this made me cry at the end because of how relatable old dodie's fear of growing is... i'm 21 and feel like life is running away from me (especially with all this isolation and being in my house basically doing nothing for the past three months)

I come back and watch this video every now and then to remind me of how much things can change and how much better they can get. I’m recording my Dear 30 Year old me video next week, not for YouTube but for me. Love this video Dodie!!

It's only been five months, but my life and mind have changed/grown so much that this video just hits different. I can relate more and I can feel this in my soul in a way I couldn't when I first watched it. I should definitely do this for myself because it's kind of a wonderful idea.

i havent ever followed dodie, but this is still making me emotional <3

I literally cried watching this but it was a completely incredible video. 😭💜

i would do anything for a dear 30-year-old me video. this one really touched my heart and made me reflect. seeing dodie feel how I felt at 20 and reflect like am i now in my life HIT ME HARD!! it reminds me why i subscribed to her in the first place years and years ago. her honesty with her audience means the world to me and im so happy to see her grow on this journey. xx

How odd to think when I began watching you I was 4 years younger than you. I loved "Rain" by the way. Even when it was on the old prerecorded piano with vocals in that garage(?). Welp, I turn 21 next month. I may make a video for 25 year old me. I remember watching your makeup video so I could learn to do that thick eyeliner and brows like you did. 😂 I've viewed you as a big sister through these years, and I'm so proud of you and how far you've come. You're such an inspiration to me, and have been for so many years. Wishing you love and luck. ❤🍀

as someone who just turned 19 and identifies strongly with younger dodie, i hope things go as well for me as they did for you. im in university and i dont feel like i have a purpose yet, but this gave me a lot of hope.

You’re so unique is many ways and this response video is just another reason why I love you so much! 🥺💛 Everyone is scared at one point, but once life happens, it happens. This was incredible. Definitely hope to see one at 30! Hahah

Ty for making wonderful music for me to cry to when the dark shadow of depression comes back :]

The part where you go "you played- oh my god, you've played so many places" instantly makes me tear up because I think this simple section shows so much about your growth as a person. I feel like 20 year old Dodie would have been sad about them being over, but I think you've learned to accept what had passed, and just appreciate what experiences you've had the opportunity to live through. I love seeing you be excited for your past self, knowing what good things are to come, and of course you of all people know how much you deserve it. Ugh, this whole video is so beautiful, I've watched it three times now, and I've already cried countless times Dodie. This is coming from someone who watched you around that time, but I didn't realize it had been 5 years for both of us already. I was personally 13, had the entirety of my high school career ahead of me, and now I've lived through all of it, and I'm simply glad to be in college. I'm still scared of the future, that hasn't changed too much, but I'm no longer holding onto the past, and that's enough of a win for me for now. I understood what you meant when you asked about repairing that one relationship. I've finally learned that some people do not deserve my effort, because for me personally, she could visit her best friend in LA, but she couldn't even send me a text back. And that's okay. I know that I have other people who love and care about me, and by laying that friendship to rest, it allows me to appreciate the people who truly do deserve my love, and I have so much to give, but I also take care of myself now. There's so much more that I can say, but I'll save that for a physical letter to myself. And to anyone who has read this, then thank you, and I hope you have a nice day.

Dodie, I hope you read this! Thank you so much for posting this. When I saw your original video to our older self (current self?) it inspired me to do the same thing. So I started recording myself, and I hated it and deleted it. So I ended up writing a letter to myself to look at in five years. I honestly forgot about it until now and both your videos and the letter helped me realize that the future is scary, the unknown is scary, but that we can make it to the other side, better and stronger. I respect the amount of strength it takes to be vulnerable to the void that we call the internet. Dodie, you are an amazing person and I'm so glad that I live in a time where I get the privilege to listen you. Thank you.

Ah shit this made me cry I was there for the first video I was 14 and holy fuck so much has changed. I’m happy you’ve grown into yourself more and accomplished so many wonderful things :’) Idk what to say I’m just very proud

I didn’t expect to be alive and now seeing this video made me cry too because I was like wow time passes so fast and time truly heals a lot of wounds I IMMA CRY SOME AWE DODIE I SO PROUD I LOVE YOU

oh god oh god the part where you're crying about your family and your parents hit me really hard and now i'm bawling because i know that my family is quickly entering that Mess like Right Now and it's fucking terrifying and i'm so so scared. but also hearing you say that it gets okay is really something i needed to hear so thank you

„this is the face of someone who is not ready to continue“ was the cutest, direct and most honest added text in there

its crazy how long ive been watching dodie, she's honestly like a sister/best friend to my and has helped me through so much and im so incredibly thankful that ive had her through the years. i love her like family and plan on watching her till she grows old and quits youtube.

i started watching you around the time the first video was filmed. i was 13, and i’ve just turned 18 this year. so much has happened in between then and now, and i feel like the last five years have been so out of my control and as if i always let everything that could have been good pass me by. i wasted so much of my adolescence being unhappy. i graduate next week and then i’ll be off to college in the fall. i really hope that in this new part of my life i don’t make the same mistake of waiting to be happy the way that i did and that i can feel as proud of myself as you are in this video.

this made me realise I watched the first video at eleven... and how much I've changed since then... and how much I will change again in the years to come. but most importantly it made me realise that things aren't as bad as they seem and they'll get so, so much better. there's so much I haven't experienced yet.

while i’m sure the next five years will be remarkably different for me, but i’m currently 20 and you talking about learning to look towards the future versus the past really hits home. thank you. i needed to hear that❤️❤️

I started crying at the same time dodie started crying.
I can’t believe it’s been 5 years since that video - i remember watching it when I was 15. Now I’m 20 and so much has changed, but at the same time not that much. I’m still the same person, going through life, trying my best. I’ve lost a few friends and gained some new ones, lived in new places, started uni, and have come farther in figuring out who I am.
I might write myself a letter. I regret not doing so when I watched the video 5 years ago, but I think now is also a good time.
I’m excited to see what 25 year old me will be like <3

Currently 21 and upset in my room about parent stuff. This gives me hope that in 4 years things will be better.

I turned 20 in 2020, and I sometimes come back to this video because I feel like I'm in a similar place to 20 year old Dodie...I also want to make a video for my future self, at least so I can get some things off my chest, if nothing else.
I'm so happy you're doing better nowadays, Dodie, and I've been loving your new music. Keep it up! ❤

This is hard to watch with dry eyes. This is so relatable ❤ Thank you cutie

Thank you so much for leaving the crying in and not editing it out (even though you would totally be in the right if you had) because it lets me know that it’s ok to feel like that and cry like that. Thank you xxx

i’m crying because i’m 16 right now and time is going by so fast and i’m scared to grow up edit: thank you all for the kind comments <3

My grandpa is 94! 5 years ago I probably would have asked myself if he would still be here. I am so grateful he is.

Cried because I totally understand feeling the weight of everything thats happened in between. I also suffer from derealization pretty much all the time and I really appreciate having someone else discuss these issues. Its been a major help. Sending lots of love to you and your family. Don't know how I missed this when you posted it. 🌻💛

I used to watch 20-year-old Dodie, but it was hard to see because I’d been struggling through my own, sort of similar issues at the same time as she was. I stopped watching for a few years, and this is the first video of yours I’ve seen since then.

When YouTube suggested this video, even though it had been 4 years since I’d seen anything Dodie, I knew I had to watch it. I loved twenty-year-old Dodie so much. I wanted to know how she’d been doing - I still cared even after 4 or so years. Twenty-year-old Dodie probably didn’t know it, but she was so lovable and wonderful as she was, and I couldn’t forget her. After watching, I have found that, as I suspected, I also love 25-year-old Dodie very much and won’t forget her anytime soon:) I’m so glad you’ve been doing better than then. (I‘m doing better too.)

This video hit me hard, I didn't know we were the same age and seeing the 20 year-old you and all the anxiety and how she was not ready to grow, and I remember being in the exact same place mentally.
Now I'm soooo much better with myself and i finally want to live and all the thoughts about wanting to end my life ended completely.
Wow we really do change and the most amazing thing is to think about how we went from one person to another, all the things that happen in between that made us who we are nowadays.
Thank you doddie for making us feel such a genuine good feeling, you are very especial to all of us ❤❤❤

This feels like watching a conversation between two different people. I remember watching that dodie. I feel like we´ve all watched so much growth happen while we´ve also grown ourselves. These two people are not the same!

Oh my days I love this video so much. I'm 21 now and DEALING with that. This video made me feel a little less scared.

I'm 23 and still feel like 20-year-old Dodie. I'm so lost. I've been feeling like this for so long. I thought life would be so different by now.

I’m gonna rant sorry :
when I see other people sad or crying I feel myself suddenly feeling sadness with them. Like even if I don’t know them personally. Especially seeing people that I love, such as dodie, cry I just feel my heart fall into my stomach. I’m going to be honest when I say I’ve been avoiding this video for that exact reason because my heart can’t handle seeing her cry 😭😭 and like hearing her talk about her cat made me tear up; my dog passed away not to long ago and we had her since I was 2 years old so it hurt a lottttt

This was still an amazing video and I’m glad I finally watched it. I was thinking of doing a thing like writing a letter to myself and opening it when I’m 26 since I’m 16 so 10 years from now so
sorry for the rant I just feel like this channel is such a safe space for not just me but a lot of people to say what’s been in their hearts :))

"all of the mess and the memories are gone"

That hit hard...

I feel emotional watching this - because I watched the old video come out on the day it came out. I. Am. Emotional. Love u Dodie 🥺💕

I’d love to see a video from you about how your song writing process is.

God, what a damn beautiful soul right there.
You are the only one who can make me cry without feeling really bad.

i literally sobbed throughout this entire video i think i’m gonna make one too i love you

it really helped me to watch this. Somehow i dont feel so bad about being lost in my life anymore. Cuz somewhere theres a 25 year old me looking back at me with love and encouragement

i just turned 20 less than an hour ago. i remember when the original video came out and i was so sad and wished i was 20. now i’m here and i’m hoping i come back to this when i turn 25 🤍

damn I remember watching the original video when it came out. and yeah, the growth in 5 years, I relate

I'm just finding this 6 months after the fact. But it was lovely and heartwarming. Thank you for sharing it.

dodie i'm sosososo proud of how far you've come you're incredible and such an inspiration <3

Im only a year younger at 24 and I grew up watching and admiring Dodie, and its almost beautiful to really see this. I've seen her grow as I have been. Its so lovely to really really see how mature and how much more confident she is. I almost am in a position where as I get closer to 25 I miss being 21/22. I was happiest then, and its hard to let go of that and let yourself experience life and continue to grow into a slightly different person. I dont know. This video was just so so meaningful to watch. I cried through the whole thing, it was impossible for me not to. Im so happy for her and just hope she continues to grow into the wonderful human she is.

20 year old me is currently not having a very good time. Thanks for the hope Dodie! Loved this video

this ruined me in the best ways, exactly the way I thought it would. 4 years ago when I found you and those videos, I had the same concerns as you, some similar life experiences, etc. and I wish that I had written/recorded something for my future self to look back on now. Being on the other side of a significant time of life is WILD and BEAUTIFUL and BITTERSWEET but so so good. Thank you for this gem ❤️

this is so weird to watch bc i've been watching dodie since i was like 14, and now i'm 20 so seeing this and realising where she was at at 20 vs where i'm at at 20 is hard to compute

Does anyone feel like they’re never going to be as mature or wise as Dodie when they’re 25 or even ever?

it's super weird having just turned 21 and looking at this and remembering where i was 5 yrs ago when dear 25 year old me came out. ty for this dodie <3

imma be honest I cried with this I grew up watching dodie and am now hedy's age it's really weird to see how much has happened and to remember back on what i was doing when you made that video. thankyou dodie.

I just turned 20 a few months ago, and i started watching you dodie when i was about 15 ahhh I'm crying

this video made me cry, made me thing about the 20yo me
i follow you since back them and is so nice to see how much you changed and grew, i'm so happy for you

hearing the part about your parents. it hurt a lot. like Hedy, I was 11 when you posted this and I'm 16 now. I think I was probably 12 or 13 when I first watched it. if 11 year old me made a video like this, he would have asked how mom and dad are now. I'm not sure how I would answer him. my old house is gone too. my cat passed too. and my parents aren't together anymore either. I'd like to tell him it gets better. because it kind of does. but its gonna hurt him a lot. and some things will be worse. but its gonna be ok.

Thank you so much for sharing this, and for responding to your own video! (Also, howdy, Aries babes for the win.)
Strangely enough, I really needed this. Life's been really hard for me these past couple of months, but I'm doing my best to move on and look forward. Seeing this, I think I'd like to do a video like this for myself. I'm 25 now, so it'd have to be to 30-year-old-me, but I'd really like to try and see it through.

Wow. I'm 27 & just saw this 5 months after you posted it. It's come at the best time in my life when I'm also doing a lot of reflection. Time is scary, but change is good & you're working on being who you want to be. It's not bad to take your time. Yes you'll make mistakes & bad, selfish choices, and should save your money better. But you're still just as lovable & whole now as you were then. Life does get better.

I rarely watch dodie but like she just makes me so happy and smile like crazy every time I watch her video 🥺☺️☺️💛💛

That perfume part was very wholesome. It felt like a happy moment transcending through time.

"It's gonna be okay, but you know this.
You're gonna write a book, you're gonna write EP's, you're gonna write albums, you're gonna tour the world, you're gonna fall in love, you're gonna fall apart, you're gonna get back together, find new friends, you will fade away from other things;
and it will be so different, but it will be okay."

i think this was exactly what i needed to hear in my own situation. life is changing & there are days when i feel like nothing's going to work out. but things will work out, and it will be okay. and i think, perhaps, in five years i'll be farther along than i ever could have thought possible.

I remember watching the video back then ... and therefore I recall the state I was 5 years ago... I kinda had a retrospection watching this haha ... I like you dodie because I feel like we went through the same (kind-ish) of things ... You came out stronger and that's what important...


A video for your 30 years olf self would be cool, but watching you're comment in the video I don't think you would ...


Nice seeing your evolution through the years :)

wow , at 18 i beat myself up for how little i’ve achieved and how little i know myself and this video gave me so much perspective on how young i really am and how much time i really have. Dodie, you’re beautiful inside and out and this video made me SOB. so much love ❤️ - also crazy that i remember religiously watching VEDIM at 13 ???!!! 🤯 feels like yesterday but we’ve changed so much.

I was twelve at the time and just started watching your videos. This video made me cry so much 😭💕

this is so crazy. i remember you being 20. i’m finding myself feeling nostalgic too

bro I'm gonna straight up cry. I'm so scared of "growing up" It genuinely terrifies me. Lol I think I'm gonna record a voice memo or write a letter/poem for 23 year old me.


To whoever is reading this: Ily, you're doing great and you'll make it <3

This video made me cry! You've accomplished so much

this is the best thing i could have seen right now. i’m 19 and panicking that everything is going to end but here you are, 25 and completely better and much happier. it’s gonna be alright.

Although you’re talking to 20 year old Dodie, I almost feel like you’re talking to me. I can relate a lot with her and her fear for the future and longing for the past. I relate to the longing of an old friendship and although it does not all apply, it still kind of feels like you are in some way giving advice to me.

Does anyone ever just look at this beautiful woman, and just like wow. I can't believe what a beautiful soul she is. My mom asked me what my "type" was today and without skipping a beat I SCREAMED DODIE

I'm turning 18 in less than a month, and in quarantine having a bit of a breakdown about it. I think I'm gonna make a couple of these, or write myself some letters for some other big age milestones. It scares me SO much, but I remember you posting the first video five years ago, and we've both grown so, so much.


I was in tears watching this entire video, thinking of how proud I am of you and how much happier and more confident you've gotten, but also how much has changed in my life as the years have passed. Thank you for having the balls post this! I'll see how it goes for me in a few years haha

I know this was uploaded a month ago but I’ve only just seen it haha. Honestly this is mad! I was watching your channel back then and remember this video. I’m also turning 25 this year and seeing you reflect on how much has changed really made me think and have a little cry. I went through some shit and basically learnt to not be a push over and stand up for myself. Be a do no harm but take no shit kind of person haha. I think I’m basically trying to say thank you for making this. I’ve been feeling a little bit like a failure recently and you made me realise what I had accomplished. Oh and I also learnt to do my brows as well!

so so crazy to watch this cause i remember when u released that video and i was also excited to see how u are at 25 and now seeing u grow up is crazy. glad i’m still a fan since you’ve helped me a lot as well

As a 20 year old thank you for making this video ❤️

I'm just realized that you and me are the same age. But here I am, picking my nose whilst watching this. So yeah, you're fine! Nothing to worry about.

totally random ramble that i know you won’t see but.... god i remember when you posted the original video. i was in my last year of middle school and everything was so uncertain. i’m about to graduate from high school now. you were there from when i was a confused, insecure little lesbian to now .... still a generally confused lesbian, but proud. this may sound silly but dodie, you’ve been a constant through some of the hardest years of my life and even if i wasn’t fully realizing it, you were growing with me. in that time you went from shy, home based singer song writer to a successful, kind musician. you’re an inspiration. i’m so proud of you. i finally got to see you for the first time in detroit last autumn; i’m so happy that i did. i don’t have the words to thank you. again, i’m so so so so so fucking proud of you and everything you’ve accomplished. now time to actually finish the video before i get too sappy. love u.

Being 19, soon turning 20, this gave me so much hope that things will get better and that I don’t have to be perfect right now because I’m still so young. I also seem to have an obsession with the past that I hope I can let go of soon. Thankyou for sharing this Dodie❤️

i cried so much watching this, im 17 and im scared of the future, sometimes i dont even think i have a future, 2015-2020, i would say are my teenage years and this video is in the same time period as that, looking back i feel like im 20 year old dodie right now and i really hope i get better, the same to you guys out there, stay strong, thank you dodie for everything youve given us in these 5 years, we love you and we'll keep supporting you until youre 30!

when you started crying i got really emotional and thought about how i would tell my 12 year old self what my family would go through when i turned 14 and up until where we are now... younger us really didnt know what was to come

im currently crying in my bedroom watching this video. i have so many emotions ahhhh i grew up with you i got a uke bc you inspired me to play we have both struggled in similar ways i empathize with you this video make me realize how much i, myself have grown and how much you have grown. i am much younger than you im only 18 but im so glad that i idolized you as an early teen and i wanted to let you know how much you mean to me

I’ve been watching dodie for so long, and I didn’t even realize how much she’d grown up through the years until now. It was nice to have a good cry together there. Dodie, I’m really proud of you for going through so much to be able to become a healthier and happier person. You’ve been such a great inspiration to me while I’ve been growing up as well. I really admire you and I hope that one day I will relate more to this video than your first video. Thank you for sharing this with us. It made me feel like the future can be good for me.

It’s so sweet seeing how you reacted to Hedy. Sister love❤️

I promise you, it will all make sense again. I needed this, thanks Dodie

It’s so...comforting to know that at 20, you really wanted to go back to being 15/16 because for the past year (i’m 21 going 22 now) that’s all i’ve wanted and i thought i was really stupid for having let those years pass me by and thank you for the timely reminder that the twentys is still very young and full of change, despite how old i feel💕

Hey dodie,
that' such a pure video.
I'm 20 and this video gives me hope, that things will turn out good. They might unfold in unexpected ways, but at one point I'll be wiser and older and things that bug me now won't matter that much anymore.
Thank you for sharing such a precious and intimate thing (video).
Warm greetings from Germany

I'm gonna hit 20 in a few days and this made me cry way more than I expected . also I deeply relate to 20 years old Dodie, I am too extremely scared

she is soooooooooo sweet I real life cried sooo much also, man I really really hope you're happy love God I felt sooo much emotions watching this, I love you already!

Oh man, I remember also being 20 and being obsessed with wanting things to go back to how they were when I was 15/16. I'm glad I'm past that now... although I do still think that the late '00s to early '10s were the best time ever to be a teenager. (P.S. I wrote a letter to myself when I was 25 to read when I'm 30. I'm currently 28. I can't remember a single thing I wrote in the letter, so it's gonna be interesting.)

This is really creative and really cool! I just discovered your videos and you are brilliant!

i had to just like. sit down for this one, and take a minute to watch it. i was here when this video was made, (10 years old!! a little baby) and now im 15. you changed my life in so many ways, and pulled me through so much, and almost every song you have written means something to me and has made me cry Everytime ive heard it. i discovered my sexuality through you (a enby lesbian!) and found how to deal with my mental health better and went through the fucking pits the same time you were dealing with things. i also cut my hair the same as you and felt better about it as our hair grew at the same rate! (little me was very self conscious and needed to be like something i wasn't to feel happy but you genuinely made me become an individual rather follow the same pattern i had for years.) and as time went on, i grew with you in my back pocket at all times. and now here i am, almost 15, and crying to see you realized how much you've changed and lived and me knowing the same about myself and what 20 year old dodie did for younger me. a struggling me and you, making it out to the other end. im still growing, and so are you, but i know a consistent here will be that things will get better and that you are still important to me no matter what stage of life im at right now. im so glad to have seen you grown and changed and become someone new, and proud of myself for still pushing even to this day. thank you dodie, for being such a rock to stand on in my life, and for everything you've done for others and im so so happy you've come so far. hopefully i will keep going farther until i can see you in show. thank you.

with love, jay.

Dodie, I haven't seen your videos in yeqrs. It's surprising to see you calmer, despite the breakdown. You seem more unfazed now. It shows how much your putting on a show in your past vids, as if it's a performance (unconsciously). Now it's more, transparent? It's interesting. I'm turning 30 next month and I always felt like I'm still 20. But surely I've changed too, in little ways which may be absolutely apparent to someone whom I haven't seen in years. I'll write myself a letter as well. Thanks for putting this video up and sharing your journey with us. 🥰

You have one of the best smiles. Seeing you cry makes me want to cry

I saw this amazing lady growing up to be the awesomest version of herself. Meanwhile she became my distant friend despite me being non existent. You were there for my smile... my depression... u amazed us. Now are u planning to make us cry buddy?
We love u girl.

Dodie
I can't imagine what it was like making the original video but doing this must have been so much more of all that AND THEN SOME???

I haven't even finished the video but this was beautiful and thank you for sharing this out here with all of us ❤️

Be honest your down here to distract yourself from crying, cause that’s me rn

I just wanted to say that i love you so much.you make great music and you have saved my life on many occasions

Well, I watched thad video when it came out and I can say I was just as scared as you were about future. A lot of things happened, and one thing I HAVE to thank you for is for helping me undestand my dissossiation and despersonalization process. No one talked about it, o one believed it was really something, but you helped me treat it like something real and look for help. It changed me a lot, and it made me find myself again when I was at the point of literally forgetting who I was. Thank you, Dodie.
PS I'm turning 22 this year if I survive the pandemy (I'm sick), so 17y old me says thank you too

This is actually the first video I've ever seen of you. What a glow up in confidence.
I've written letter to myself in the past, but I just can't stand the cynical cunt that I am, and the fact that i have an elephants brain most often resulted in me just throwing them away.

I think I have the same problem Dodie has... something about things changing and time in general is just too much for me. This video's got me starting to get all emotional again. I'll be 25 in just over 5 years too. Fucking hell.

"have you written any good songs ??"
me: slams table HECK YES

We never stop learning, don't we? As long as we're willing, I suppose. What a gem of a human being.

I'm 19 and I often think I wanted my youth and now it's late..
After this video I have conflicted feelings, but what I know for sure is that feeling like this doesn't help with depression...

"I took a pregnancy test yesterday, turns out I'm just very bloated"
LMAOOOOOO

this video is the definition of my biggest fear (the passage of time, how cynical) but i really love this

Dodie at 20 and Dodie at 25 are both adorable. But seeing 20 year old Dodie should remind you how amazingly far you've come, in life of course but in your brain and heart. If you can do that in 5 years - the future is so exciting to what you can achieve in another 5, 10 ,20 years. We are all so proud of you. My last 5 years have also been painful, confusing, heartbreaking, amazing, memorable, wild and now I'm pretty settled and would go as far as to say happy. Im happy you're happy and I can't wait to see you continue to grow. Much love xxx

We’re all collectively crying together and I love it

I remember watching this video when I was 13 and now I’m about to turn 18 next month. It makes me think about how much I’ve changed too. Wow.

That is a really cool thing to do. Like a time capsule only a video. You are so beautiful, sweetheart, just remember it's important that everyone you care about plays a part in his big masterpiece. All movies come to an end, but that doesn't make it a bad movie.

i'm 36. started practicing being good to myself at 30, started practicing being happy at 33, practicing self-compation and relicing self dought and guilt at 36. every year is a gift i get to find more ways to be more of myself. look forward to the future.

"Hello 25 year old Dodie, im 20 year old Dodie" tell me why I immediately started crying

i already related so much to the original video because i had decided to start a 5-year diary and all the first entries are me writing how horrified i am of what will happen in 5 years, specially the bad stuff, but i think it ends up feeling rewarding seeing how much you've grown and how much has changed
dodie, you got me sobbing with this video, thats for sure! i'm so proud of what you've become and what you've achieved! i'm so glad to see you much happier and proud of your accomplishments, as you should! i'm not in that state of mind yet but you inspire me to keep going and who knows, maybe one day i'll look back at my 20 year old self and i'll be able to say "you don't know it yet, but things will get better"!
thank you dodie, for everything 💖

I’m turning 15 this week and holy crap. I want to do this and watch it when I’m 20. Or next year. I was crying during this whole video. Haha

when i watched this for the first time in 2020 i was sobbing my face off. i'm revisiting it but now I'M 20, which feels fake, it doesn't feel real, i still think i'm like 16 in my head which just isn't the case anymore. so this is hitting much harder this time around (which i didn't know could be possible lol)

might record or write something like this for my 25 year old self. i hope they're doing better than i am right now

no one will read this comment and i'm not even sure why i write this. But i just wanted to say that i think she has one of the most beautiful smiles i've ever seen.

Watching this at 19 is really comforting and makes me chill out a lil bit worrying about the future. What’s gonna happen will happen and it’ll be okay. I just hope I’m not as anxious as I am now. Also I hope I can sew, that’d be cool.

had to hunt down this gem because it inspired me to do the same when i first saw it and im finally about to make mine. love 🙌🏽🧡

u and Hedy's relationship is so so amazing it makes me so happy I cant believe siblings just exist being happy w each other

i think being able to remember any of the bumps in the road at this point is probably a good thing even though they might make you cry uncontrollably

How are you so amazingly... authentic? Gosh I can't believe you. I wanna subscribe to your channel another 100 times!

It's really odd, now. To try and scramble my thoughts into words while I'm crying. I was there for 20 year old Dodie and somehow I'm here for 25 year old Dodie when I didn't think I would be. I think a lot of people feel this way too. I pinned so much hope and heart on you at such a young age and a part of me regret it, like a lot, but I was always growing up with you even when we were and are so far apart. The illusion of thinking I know you has broken but the feeling hasn't quite faded away yet, cause I just know that through a screen has been a woman who's had ups and downs and has led me through mine. I don't know what the future brings, I'm scared to find out, but I'll be here, still listening, still watching probably.

Thank you for this. It’s warmed my heart.

ohhh man that was rlly sweet :'( i'm grateful you let us be a part of your life.

I feel like we are the same person, I’m about to be 21, I idolize the days I was 15/16, I’ve been suffering with bad anxiety, depression, and BAD derealization, I think I’m a musician but too scared to really start being one, I’m so self conscious about my body, especially my face lol. I fear death and the future so much. I don’t even know who I am. Obviously you had many trials and errors and falls. But how did you make it through? I want to give up a lot but I also don’t want to. I’m just lost. I’m so glad that things have gotten better and you have figured yourself out more. I have looked up to you for so many years because I’ve felt so close to your situation in so many aspects and I hope that I can make it out on the other side like you did. Thanks for helping me through the past few years by showing me I’m not the only one going through things like you.

I'm almost 30 and a whole lot changes between 25 and 30. For me, I really got the career I wanted after years of hard work, and I also stopped giving a shit about whether people thought I was pretty. I just woke up one day and realise it doesn't matter. At all. I think when you're older you stop stressing about little things like that because you realise you can't please everyone. Some people go to great lengths just to get likes on Instagram and it's sad young people feel they have to get their validation through that. Great if you get that but it shouldn't be the only way you get it, you know?

"God I wish I could play them for her, I wonder what she'd think." I cried. dodie, she'd be so proud. Not only of your music, but also of who you are today. Things will be okay 💛

I hope she react to this video when she's 30

I have never met someone else who has similar triggers to me. I wish I was back being a teen again too at times. Cute video

I remember watching the original video when I was 13 and sort of idolizing you to some extent. I kind of fell off the wagon, but now I'm back on and I totally get the sort of things you talk about in relation to the past.

Geez I watched the original video when I was 14 and now I’m 19. And seeing an older wiser form of foodie talking to herself really reminds me of how naive I was and how much happens in 5 years

myself watching this at 21 feels like a bit of a comforting hug. the way i feel is similar to 20 year old dodie, so this feels kind of like getting some advice and comfort which is nice. it’s a bit of a push to keep going. so! thank you 25 year old dodie! and thank you 20 year old dodie! i find solace in both.

I think you're great <3
Also, my mind cannot stop buzzing about how I found you, dunno why.

as someone who just turned 20, this is super cute and kinda reassuring to watch :) oh my gosh and when she talks about hedy so cute!

I've been subscribed to since then and seeing this video makes my heart super happy :)

This kind of comforted me, I am also scared of the future and also scared to write or film for my older self. I don't know, I might disappoint her or it's the other way around but I'm learning not to think too much, I need to stay and be here in the present moment

I love how Dodie talked to 20 y/o Dodie like in such a supportive way. I really wish 20 y/o Dodie could hear what Dodie was saying back to her. This video made me cry like a baby :')

I dont know why, but this video has become my comfort video. the first time i watched it, i cried a little with you. the second time i watched it, i resolved that i would make one for myself at fifteen. the third time i watched it, i realized just how much hope it gave me, and why i kept watching it. things DO get better, and i clearly dont know everything yet, and so much will change. now, every time i see it on my recommendations, i watch this video. thank you so much dodie. i think once i make mine at fifteen, i wont watch this video again because i will take inspiration from it, but my goodness dodie. thank you. thank you so much. you inspire me and give me hope. much love <3

I don't know why watching this makes me so emotional! I think it's because 15 year old me started watching Dodies videos around five years ago and I'm five years older now too. I love that she kept calling herself Babe ❤ I feel like I love my 15-year-old self so much more than I did then. I wish I could give her a hug and tell her that everything falls apart but it gets put back together and so many beautiful things come into your life 💕
This was beautiful and made me feel a lot of things.

Wow I remember watching this when I was 15. So crazy how time flies. Now I'm 20 and missing being 15

this is a beautiful video
dodie you're so beautiful!!! <3

this is such a beautiful presentation of self-growth but accepting and appreciating the change!! ee

Dodie, I feel this on so many levels. As an artist, I too have struggled with depression and find it difficult writing happy songs. But I look at my music as therapy. A way to release the negative thoughts so they don't eat me alive. And hopefully I can connect with listeners along the way so they understand they are not alone. Thank you for always being open and transparent with your emotions and thoughts. It means more than you know.

"And thank god I learned how to do better brows" I was crying when she broke down and then this made me smile a lot

I just bawled my eyes out with you lol 😂 I love this

Take care girl, you are very special, do not ever forget! <3

This is the sweetest video! Why are our twenties so confusing?? Is it the "I'm not a girl not yet a woman" thing??

I've just turned 18 and I've just had a baby girl in december and her father left me for a girl in his work , watching this and seeing 20 year old dodie makes me sob , I find joy and comfort still in you and I always will , depression is hard stuff , I'm not gonna lie , but seeing you then and now is such an amazing highlight of life , you've come so far , and I hope I can be this happy in the future and not hold onto my past like I do , I love you dodie 💞

Is this a thing everyone in their early twenties goes through? I am 22 and cry sometimes because I'm not 16 anymore and think about all the carefree, happy times i had when i was younger :(( I really have a thing about getting older and am DREADING turning 23 this year

this video gives me hope that things will change. i hope they do. ty <3

I find this so weird to watch. I remember watching it when it was uploaded and I feel that I have a lot of similarities with Dodie. I was also born on 11/04/95 for a start also have suffered with depression and derealisation, I’m bi, at around 20 I definitely wished I was 16 again. Anyway these are just some of them. I suppose watching this is like seeing a slightly different version of myself

I was trying to find the words to describe how this video makes me feel. Just so many emotions. This puts in perspective of how everything can change in no time at all and thats sad but hopeful. I wish I could go back in time and talk to my younger self and help him though the next 5 years of his life. Maybe it would have been different, prepare him for some life changing moments. Thank you for this, this is the first video I've seen of yours and wish I found you sooner.

Do this again at 30! It was so interesting to see how you have changed! And also how times have changed.

You look incredible for being 25!😍I thought you were only in your teens still!

I’m watching this video probably for the 100th time but at 1:19 when she says she wishes she was 15/16 again it reminds me of when I was 15/16 and I used to listen to her song When on repeat, just listening to the line “Gotta get it in my head I’ll never be 16 again.” It has a whole different meaning now & im emotional

I love how she looks up to the camera as if she was FaceTiming or sending a video message to herself 🤍🖤

15 Anna loved 20 Dodie with all her heart. She learned all of your songs and you helped her through rough times. Now she's 20 Anna and can't believe all the time that's passed. Thank you Dodie :')

It's so strange to think dodie ever feels bad, coz she's always so bubbly and happy and cute!!

I came back to this and cried. And thats significant because it feels like for a while I didnt have any emotions. And that scared me so much because I love to feel, happy sad, angry, insecure, everything. But I watched this video and bawled, thank you so much dodie for bringing back my tears, you've helped me feel whole again.

dodie getting so excited about knitting makes me so happy

“i hope that there will still be people to see it” i was there when that was posted and i’m still here now! this was really emotional to watch because i’ve watched you grow (albeit mostly online you, i know it’s not the same) for 5 years, and i’ve grown too, and as you started sharing less online i lost touch with how you were doing but watching this i know now that you’re ok and that’s just all i could ask for really

When you said "it's not as scary as you think" about the cat death, something sweetened in my soul, I swear.... 🙏😢

i cry everytime i watch this because i feel exactly like 20 year old dodie and i don't know how to change it

Wow, you know when you discover a new drama on Netflix (other formats are available) and you realise that it’s been running for about 6 seasons and you binge on it 😀?
That’s how I feel at the moment with Dodie! I have only just discovered her due to the self isolation thing that’s going on right now with more time on my hands..
I have to say Dodie, you are amazing 😀 You have so much going on in your head which shows in your emotions but you channel this so well into your work. Don’t ever change, just embrace it and carry on evolving 😀

this video is posted 2 months before my 20th. im so glad i saw this, because i’m going to do it. this was so special, thank you for sharing

I'm 19 right now and I'm not sure why, but I just sobbed my eyes out watching this. In 5 years, I hope I make my past self proud of the person I'll become like you did.

i did not expect to cry at this so hard bro... we grew up together and I'm sad

going through a crisis of self lately, this gave me a lot of hope that things change and thats scary but if i keep working and fighting that change will turn out okay

“It’s got cool new features tho.. it’s got like animojis!......”
thinks
“Alright.”

You are brave! What a wonderful creative mind you have. And yes, while you've written terrific stuff in the past five years (you keep getting better), don't discount your earlier work. 'She' dates from five years ago.

Inventive, quirky, melodic music that is crafted; lyrics that reach right into my heart & mind. They evoke empathy, share sadness but are uplifting at the same time. How do you do that?

And your lyrics are wonderful poetry. I was so moved by 'Down' (also 5 years old):
"Friends float above in the wind; Bright balloons pulling them up as they grin...
It's like walking around with a stone for a heart; People swimming in honey as your life falls apart...
You can never undo the brain; Now it knows of the holes it will fall as it's trained."

Dodie, you're the Leonard Cohen or Joni Mitchell of this generation. And more prolific than either. Is that part of the secret? You've commented that you think volume is important. You get better, and you're more likely to produce gems. I think you're right. And you give us so much to enjoy.

We're grateful. Thank you.

i'm not normally an emotional person but i was teary-eyed this whole video. i remember watching the original video when it came out in 2015 (when i was 13 wow) i'm so happy that you're doing so well, here's to another great 5 years and many more! <3

this was so freaking sweet, loved it, keep on chuggin!

this is very reassuring as a 22 year old whose GOING THROUGH IT and has been for years.

its good to know that you are doing better with your mental health and that you found ways to work on things

my brain is allowing me to remember new trauma but i got some great advice from a guy named zach that helped me deal with it (i think that is the spelling to his name)

I held off on watching this because, basic fear of hearing someone my age talk and someone who has 5 more years of experience talk back to someone like me. and ooh boy. was I right. it was scary but comforting in a confusing way. I'm in a point in my life where one decision I have to make will just. ugh I'll either lose someone I love for the rest of my life, or continue to be in a house that I don't feel safe in. it sucks. but hearing 25 year old Dodie reassuring 20 year old Dodie about depression and home life and love. that helped me a little bit. I had a cry and now I just want to keep living to get to 25 at least. thank you Dodie. I love everyone and anyone who reads this.. I'm sorry I needed to rant

wAIT Wait wait
wait hold up i'm-
The feels and the hapiness and the tears and the realization that I've been enjoying your music and content for over 5 YEARS
Wow okay I was unprepared for this tbh. Like I didn't watch it like you until just now and honestly you've grown so much and I'm so heckin proud of you. To quote Frozen 2, you had to get a little lost on your way to being found, and honestly you truly found yourself. I'm so happy for you.
This kinda makes me think of what I was like 5 years ago... Maybe I'll do something like this when my birthday comes around. I digress though, lol.

happy belated birthday, dodie. we all adore you and the wonderful person you've become.

This is like the best video ever, it's so heartwarming. This is so interesting as well. 💜😊🎵🎶

This is kind of hard to watch and kind of nice to watch at the same time. Hard in the sense that I'm almost nearing 20, and I feel like I've been telling myself that I have everything all figured out, and this video kind of makes me rethink that a bit. Nice in the sense that it's validating to hear about how it's okay to not have handled perfectly as soon as you've moved out and gone off on your own for the first time. It's something I think people don't hear enough of. So, thanks for that.

You're so kind to your 20 year old friend, if only we could all be so kind to our current selves <3

Aww this was soo cute. I just turned 19 and plan on sending sending 20 year old me an email. Maybe in the email I'll suggest she should a video for 25 year old her

sometimes I just come back to this video to have a good cry

I don't know how I came to be here, but I was invested in every minute of this video.

If you're reading this, remember where you came from, and don't forget your future relies on what you do today. It can get better.

I just googled derealization. Yeah, I definitely have that. This symptom especially resonated with me : "A see-through wall or veil is separating you from your surroundings". I don't think it's affecting my behaviour too much, though. It's just a bit weird, and I do become a bit obsessed with properly seeing things without the "vail" again. There was a part of me that was scared that the vail is a normal part of getting older. It's good to know its not true and that the vail is not permanent :)

this made me realize I've been watching dodie since I was 10, that is so strange I'm crying aha

“Oh my god, the songs you write... you would love them then. God, I wish I could play them for her.”

That got to me.

I’m so proud of you I love you so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

I remember watching this original video when I was 13, and damn we have both changed so much

Same here. Time passing and things changing also hits a spot in me... I am 8 years older than my younger sister, recently I had a big cry when I went to sleep remembering how little she was. I just can not comprehand that she is 14 now. Those memories are so real to me if not even more real than this reality now.

I watched this 3 times now, I just love this video so much because I do the same exact thing !!!

I was fine the whole video and then I started crying when she asked herself if she was happy cause I'm definitely happier than 5 years ago when I was 15 but I'm not quite all the way there so I really fucking hope that in 5 years I'll be happier and be able to say it confidently.

oh wow, i did not expect to cry watching this video. like at all. but when you got excited and emotional talking about going on tour i started sobbing, and continued doing so for the rest of the video. i'm 17 and thinking of the future scares me so much for so many reasons, the main one being that when i was a kid i'd imagine being 17 to soo different (and better) than it actually is, and i'm sad of having let younger me down. i don't want to have 17 year old me down. i hope 25 year old me is doing well, and is happy, and has close friends and all these things but i'm scared that won't be the case (imagining me at 25 brings on so many emotions i can't even describe it wow)

The Tuftie part made me reach down and pet our 19 year old cat (who's older than me) in my lap.

You're beautiful Dodie. You were beautiful then. You're beautiful now. You'll always be beautiful.

omg wow i remember this time period of dodie, i was 13 and in middle school and now i’m in college... wow thats crazy

looking at the thumbnail: "oh no the video is gonna get sad, dodie its ok"
then you start the video and she already has that face

watching doddie at her 30's doing part 2 would be so interesting

i cried at this... it doesn't help that its the depths of the night but i felt dodie's emotions immensely and very very quickly. that moment where she has a little cry i started crying too, knowing how hard times can be in someone's life and looking back on my own experiences. this was a reality check and it's scary growing up..

at 1:27 I just paused the video to sob. idk why but I just relate to her nostalgia for her younger years so much. I used to watch her videos a lot during a time that I now look back on and wish I could relive it. idk so many emotions ...

oh you beautiful beautiful beautiful humannnnnnn, watching this video was such a unique experience, I think I could see myself trough both of you in a certain way, you literally help me heal.

20 year old dodie: speaks
25 year old dodie: sobbing
i love u dodie! so proud of ur growth

kinda late to comment here, but I started crying when you started crying. Totally missed your videos Dodie, love you! 💕

Ive been 21 for a few months now but this makes me wanna film myself interview myself for each year

Woah. You were my favorite YouTuber when you posted the original video 5 years ago. I distinctly remember watching it... Pretty strange to be transported back to that time along with you. I would have been 17 then, and I remember thinking, like, "I will have to do this when I turn 20!" Of course, I forgot to do it. Classic me. Maybe I'll make myself a video or write a letter to myself when I turn 23 next month for when I'm 28. Not quite as nice as 20 -> 25, but whatever.
Anyway. Curious if anyone else remembers watching Dodie's first video when it came out as well. Youtube can function as a time capsule for creators but for viewers, too. Hope to come back to Dodie's channel in another 5 years to see another one ;)

oh my i remember when you made this!!!! crazy how time goes by, i was 15 then, and 20 now, i think i should make one of these 😬

The most shocking thing for me was
dodie: ~i have a mortgage~

As a 20 year old who knows when I'll own a home in this economy

oh wow, i did not expect to cry watching this video. like at all. but when you got excited and emotional talking about going on tour i started sobbing, and continued doing so for the rest of the video. i'm 17 and thinking of the future scares me so much for so many reasons, the main one being that when i was a kid i'd imagine being 17 to soo different (and better) than it actually is, and i'm sad of having let younger me down. i don't want to have 17 year old me down. i hope 25 year old me is doing well, and is happy, and has close friends and maybe even have a relationship?? have experience in relationships?? please?? and all these things but i'm scared that won't be the case (imagining me at 25 brings on so many emotions i can't even describe it wow) like, i'll be 25 in less than 8 years. and less than 8 years ago i was in 4th grade and... that feels like ages ago but also not long ago at all? i can't beleive there's as much time since when i was 9 to when i'll be 25. that's insane to me..... somehow?? i don't even know what this comment is anymore, it's not like i'm expecting anyone to read it i'm just writing it for me. i'll leave now

The day I first watched this video I wrote a letter to my future self, but even in the few months between then (April) and now (October) things have changed so much. It's crazy how much time goes by without you realising it. Back then I didn't know stuff that literally defines who I am today and I was naive and ignorant of things that keep me awake at night, but I was kind of a hermit then. I'm honestly not sure if I'll make it to when I set for the letter to be opened but I hope I do, I really hope I do. See you the future

Depression creeps up and is more of a "hello darkness my old friend". Sorry, sorry, I had to. I think this sentiment is why that song is so relatable and great.

I'm so glad I was 20 way before social media was even an idea!

and you just keep getting more beautiful inside and out every year

You read every comment? Wow, dodie, props to you for wanting to make the effort x

Here because of Kristen McAtee and im so happy even tho i cant stop crying
I kinda get this feeling. looking at something you wrote years ago hits you.
With me it was that I was so happy when i was younger and grew to become very sad
I always wish I was just as happy as before and past all the bullshit. takes a lot of time

I think I relate to dodie so much when she was young because she was also scared of the future and wanted to go back to being a child. The young video of her is exactly how I am to my counselor

Whosoever holds this hammer, if he be worthy, shall possess the power of dodie’s eyebrows.

"How's teenage Hedy?" has a whole breakdown

💖Thank you for sharing this part of you with me (us).

I cried during this video as well. I have been watching your yt channel since i can remember!!!! and i clearly do remember the video you react to in this vid. I hate to say this but i kind of feel like nothing has changed for me since then...

I really loved this, thanks for sharing - Maybeeeeee I'll do this myself even tho im 22!!

I remember watching the original video at age 9/10. Damn. Time flies

„ooooh you havent SEEN La La Land yet?“ I love how excited present Dodie is for past Dodie to be able to experience so much that is in front of here and being able to tell her she is a musician ohh my heart

I think I just fell in love with you 🥺

Edit: belated happy birthday!!! 🥰

haven’t shed a tear for like a while but this video really made me do it i’m turning 20 next year and i just couldn’t process it in yet lmao

I can't believe I missed your birthday :-( I am happy to find out that you're only three years younger than me LOL I've had a huge crush on you for a couple years and I felt like a creep, but you are such an amazing person, you're so strong and so in touch with yourself, its hard not to find that attractive lol

i’m 23 and this made me so hopeful lmao all i’ve been doing this quarantine is live in the past

You are soo amazing 😉 that’s all that I can say!!!

Thankyou for sharing your story, it really helps

balled my eyes out watching this. You don't cry alone lmao

10:59 Funnily enough, I remember that there were flip phones that has a tiny projector all the way back in 2008.
I thought the concept was kind of cool, but it didn't sell well, hence we don't have those features on our smartphones right now. I think it's not that useful in application, since you can just directly send your files to other phones via Google Drive, SMS, etc.

“it does get better” oh my goodness gracious i’m so proud of you dodie

awww this is adorable. I hope you’re happy

I’ve never seen any of your videos but this made me cry. Up until 20 year old you said “what if you’ve died!!” 😂😂

You are such a beautiful soul. The world is a better place because you're in it. ❤️

god this made me weep like nothing else. thank you

I was fifteen when dodie made that video. I’m almost 20 and I remember thinking “I’ll do that when I’m twenty. I’ll write a letter to my 25 year old self”
It’s my birthday this Friday. 4 days away. Should I do it?

im violently sobbing my god im so proud of u

I will be 20 in... An hour or so. I would be lying if I said that leaving my teenage years behind didn't scare me. It's weird. The world is so crazy now that who know what will be happening by the time I'm 25. Maybe we'll all be dead. Who knows. Anyway, thanks Dodie for sending me into a deep hole of existential worry (but also giving me hope to make the next five years count)

It would drive me insane to record/write a message to my future self knowing that it will be answered, but simultaneously knowing that I will never receive the answer. I imagine that side of the experience to be so much worse than the side having to review the material. o_o"

i cried with you, god i love you so much thank you for this

I absolutely love this. I remember finding "She" at the age of 14 and realizing that I loved my bestfriend (as much as a 14 year old can love someone), we went through a tough time and we ended our friendship. I thought I'd never get over it. I remember watching this exact video at 15 and wondering the same thing "Are you happy?" 5 years from now. At the age of about 15 or 16 I met my bestfriends (who are still my best friends five years later), who were just as in love with you and your songs as was. Some of my favorite memories with them are us singing along to your songs all cuddled up on the couch or driving in the car. Its amazing to me how much of my life you have been a part of. I've never been to a concert but I know I would ball my eyes out the entire time. When you released the song "Secret for the mad" in 2016 I was going through a really tough time, I had that song on repeat practically 24/7. Now, I'm turning 21 in 3 months and so much has changed. I am happier than I was 5 years ago, and I think 5 years from now I will hopefully be even happier. I think that, as we grow into ourselves, we begin to understand how to be happy. Your youtube videos and your music have been such a huge pillar in my life and I thank you so much for that.

I write myself letters that I read after every major event I had one for the end of school and then one for the end of uni and one for the end of postgrad and my next one is in 5 years. So much changes when you're young, it's hard to know what will happen but you have to trust it will be good.

What a good idea to make such a video. I would have liked to have made such a video to myself. One touching thing is that it tells alot about our fears vs the reallity and how quick a life change, how we grow up and how the our world spin around us.
The 46 yo me would like to say to the 20 yo me to tell the people you love that you love them, cause time goes up in a rush and sometimes there is no time left.

This is such a lovely video. Thank you for this.

I cried with you. And I actually watched this video very late because I was afraid I would cry. Last year I went through "the dip" and am growing so much now. I can really relate to how difficult it is to watch your younger self. I'm just bitter about what she will go through. I was always so happy and positive about the world. But I also know that finally the things I kept pushing away to keep my world a happy one, will not need pushing anymore. That I finally can be more chill (:P). That I have grown and will grow a lot more. I hope I will be there where you are now, and even further, in a place where I am very happy with the growth and the things I've accomplished. Where I am stable in my life. I am so proud of where I am now and I see a lot more in the future: finally my own apartment, I've started writing songs so I'm curious where that will bring me, I want to publish a book (poetry, self-help, or proza), finally have a job, an Asmr Youtube channel. I am 23 going to 24 in a few days (and cutting my hair off ^^). I have a lot of great thing to look forward to :) Thank you for this video!

I’m about to turn 20 and this made me so emotional .. I feel like I really needed to hear this before this huge step and WOW...
You’ve grown so much in 5 years, it’s strange to think I found you 5 years ago and how we’ve sort of grown together. Thank you, dodie.
Wishing you all the best and more, and remember it’s okay to cry 💛

I love this so much. So cool to witness. So real

I think this is my favorite video in the whole world of YouTube, thank you so much

Its so cool to see how much you've changed!

hi, to dodies comment section. i used to be very very obsessed with dodie and evan, and that side of youtube back in middle school, probably around the time that first video was made. this video popped up today, and i figured "hey, why not?". anyway, now im crying. dodie has gotten me through SO many bad times. shes the reason i took up ukulele. the reason i probably act and dress like i do now, tbh. thanks for everything. keep being beautiful and amazing. heres to better times and self improvement :)

when she started crying i literally was covered with chills and I started crying with her

Wow. This really touched me. I’m 20 and I spend most of my time crying over lost time and wishing I were younger again, like 16, because I feel like my life is over and I’m old now and I don’t have time to have fun, make friends and be stupid anymore. It’s just a lot of pressure and the craziest part of it is that I’m the one who’s creating it and putting it on myself but I can’t help it. I just wish it were easier.

Crying nonstop while watching this 😭 but let me just say that I am so happy that I stumbled upon your channel five years ago when i was 19 and trying to figure myself out. Cliche to say this but time really flies by so fast and i am so very proud of you. You've come a long way while also helping people like me thru your music. Love you 💛

this really made me cry my ass out and rolling on the floor drowning in my period blood

you talking about your family just got me and i started sobbing oh my

I’m going to do this for myself, I’m not feeling so good and looking forward to the future gives me hope.

This is so pure! 💙

I cried through all of this, and I don't know why.

I really like how well spoken she is Ik I sound strange saying that lmao

even though this is not about my life it just makes me feel so comfoted that dodie keeps saying it's ok

I'm 25 as well and I cant believe I'm this old. I still feel like im 20 :(

I can't watch this video without crying and I can't pinpoint why

i’m so late to this but i’m literally sobbing
i remember watching this when you upload it and i’m just so 🥺

So much shit happened between 20 and 25 for me (I'm 26) and I would never want to return to 20. What a shit time. Every time you cry, I cry. I wish you all the best (just listened to "Human" in my car this morning and got super emotional! Yay!).

crying cause i’m still a teenager and SO MUCH can happen in five years

I want to see Dodie and Hedy together :(

Juat wanted to give you a hug. Hope everythings alright stay safe and take care x jamesie :)

Sometimes when I need a good cry, I watch this

"I did take a pregnancy test the other day, um, but I'm just very bloated" MOOD

I don't know what was going on with me while watching, I cried so hard and then started wheezing cause you put that interlude music on xD

I turned 20yo two weeks ago, but I'm gonna make it now and this the best idea!! Loved it

I still remember watching the first video!!!! Time flies so fast!

i cried with you dodie I remember that video being released

i remember the original video coming out, and now I'm crying too

MA’AM YOU LITERALLY SUNG MY FAV SONG , the one you posted on TikTok that started with ‘missing the way the world used to turn’ JODHDUWNDB LY<3

I watch this at least once a month and cry everytime

i just turned 20 and so far it hurts, this gives me some hope though

DODIE I'M SOBBING THIS IS SO WONDERFUL. Not only am I proud (as a long time follower) to see that you're in a better place, but this also helped me have less fear for my future. Thank you for this.

i started crying at the same time as u, ilysm

I'm about to be 24 in June, and I feel a dip coming, and I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one.

Crying. But I’m so proud of you! 🤍

Almost 2 years ago this was uploaded and i remember watching it when it first came out because I thought it was a cool idea. I was just finishing my freshman year of college. Covid had just hit at the time of this video..

I’ve been watching since the song you did about Charlieissocoollike when Hedy was only tiny! Amazing to see how far you’ve come since then!

i remember watching this being amazed that i will exist in five years and now i’m here. this is insane and i love u so much

Hahahahaha I started crying and after 2 minutes you started crying as well xD I would love to have a video from my 20 year old me... I suppose I will do one from my 27 year old me to my 32 year old me XD Anyway, thanks for sharing this Doodie, bye ^^

Aww having watched the first vid when it came out, this was big fat feels Xx

story: I’m about to turn 20 and I’ve been feeling really weird about it. I don’t know if it’s everything that’s happening right now or if it’s going to college but I feel a lot like 20 year old you. wanting to turn back time to high school. I’m really glad you posted this video though. I’ve been watching your videos since the beginning, and watching how you’ve changed now makes me feel a lot better about looking forward and reminds me that life keeps going. Thanks for posting and doing what you do. From the bottom of my heart!

omg i just landed here on this video. but seriously this is a whole new dimension of feeling emotions. it's weird it's new it's exiting.. it's captivating

"You probably don't have an audience..."
Except, of course, that this video has almost as many likes as Bath has residents...
:)

When you said La La Land it hit me how fast time goes I was like La La Land wasn’t that long ago and low and behold I was in my first year of university and now I’ve graduated 😂😂

why am I crying sm

how did you find the courage (and motivation!!!) to start a youtube while still doing school?

this was beautiful💞

the way i started crying at the same time you did

Watching this as a 20 year old who watched the first vid when they were 16.. fuk

Okay, anybody else who's afraid of time and growing up, go watch the movie 'Meet the Robinsons'. Just do it. It sounds stupid but transformed my perspective lol ✨

Aww dodie I love this 😭 :)

You inspired me to do the same omg I wonder how things will turn out WOw

This is such a hopeful video, I think. I like it a lot!

Who else waited 5 years to see this video?

i went to Lush in Bath in 2015...

I think your BEAUTIFUL !!

We worry about such little, insignificant things in our day to day lives, but this is what really matters. That we can look back on our past self and say we've done them proud.

aww cute xo

You are so enneagram 4 💙💙💙💙

I hope you're okay Dodie x

happy belated birthday Dodie

Omg I have been waiting for this. 💞

I really wish 25 year old me could talk to me and tell me it's gonna be ok...

I just turned 20 this year. The day this video was uploaded, actually.

Have you matured yet?

This video is so incredibly wholesome.

Thanks for the video. Very good. Much love.

main takeaway: things will get better

Dodie I'm 17 now and the first time i saw the 20 year old video and i was like 13 or 14. 1 minute into this i started sobbing because i realized how we literally grew up together. Thank you for making me the person I am today I love you so much. I hope in the next 5 years you're still proud of the person you are because you should always have that mentality. Bye happy birthday :,) <3

this made me emotional. you can see how much you’ve grown and how much you love learned. i feel so proud?? you’re so chill about things now and it’s nice to see how things can change. it gives me hope for myself honestly

“All of the mess and the memories are gone, therefore everything’s fine” why did this break me. 🥺🥺

Being 20 and feeling a tad lost and clueless and scared like younger Dodie did, but seeing older Dodie reassure her that everything is gonna be okay and she will figure shit out and she is gonna be happy, that really reassures me that things are gonna be better for me when I'm 25 and it's all gonna turn out well

as a scared 20-year-old this is the perspective that I needed

You’re precious and I love this

they're like two completely different people this is so wild.. i might do this when im twenty

It’s actually incredible to see how much you have grown into yourself and developed and learned in the past 5 years. I remember watching this video when it first came out and really hoping you were able to find a way to look more forward instead of back. I am so glad you were able to find more of a social media balance and get to a place where you are much more mentally well ❤️

you are amazing and such an inspiration

I’m turning 19 this month and oh god I feel 20 years old dodie 😔

I remember when you uploaded this!!! Thanks for growing up with me!!!

"Mum and dad are a lot better than when they were-"
lowkey resonates with me

This is so wholesome. It’s amazing that you were clever enough to do this and you are so yourself, I honestly felt this video so much! You are so honest which really makes your channel feel so refreshingly HUMAN (not that you should have to feel like you have to share everything in your life because that is ALWAYS up to you) but the fact that you do is so inspiring, personally I relate to you in so many ways I’m really in my feels right now haha. Congratulations on all you have achieved, you are so cool!!! <3

This was very touching doodie. Similar fears connect two persons seemingly very well, without even knowing you. Cried in the same parts as you. I am now the 20 year old. I have alot still to learn, but I hope I can record a video in 5 years and can say similar things that you said. I'll record my little timecapsule now. Tank you for being here on earth in the time were I also exist and can watch your videos. Hope you are pushing through and remember maybe your 30 year old self will say similar things that you worried still to much and maybe you also will criticize your brows again, because taste changes, but that's okay they look very beautiful now. Keep your spirit doodie. Bye bye

why is this making me so emotional and wanting to cry? wow... i have been following you ever since that video or before... fuck... and i remember i was so depressed too and sad and hating on my body and being bulimic and now i'm actually fine too and beat depression as well... this is... something else. and i hope whoever reads this, i know sometimes it really might feel like you have nowhere else to go and it's too hard but it does get better, i promise

Realizing her parents divorced, i started crying because mine did too, but when i was only 16. My cat started to purr and come on my lap to comfort me. But I'm emotional now, I understand how hard it is. Something that was always there for you, a home, is now gone. The love, is suddenly gone or changed and you know that the persons you love most in the entire world will never be together again like they were. I just cannot describe how it feels, but it feels like you never find a new home again. I promise you that you will, despite all that was lost. You'll build a new home and you'll go on with your life. Just...it's...just so hard.

here’s to me turning 20 in 2 days thanks for inspiring me :,)

That bit in the middle scared me, I legit thought to myself "oh God, has Hedi died?"

lmao I love 20 year old dodie having no concept of how long 5 years is

im late and new but Dodie is so cute. She's happy crying!!!! :))

I'm definitely gonna do this. Record some questions for my future self. I should have done it before, because I grew so much, and changed so much. I think I'd probably have a good cry, and a good laugh answering some of my past questions

I feel like a lot of people couldn’t wait to grow up so they could get their independence and be able to drink and drive (Not at the same time) But I was the Opposite I loved my childhood with a strong passion and dreaded getting older. I still remember being terrified of turning 13 because it felt like the beginning of the end. Would give anything to go back & live it all even for a second

Omg I don’t even know you but it was soooooo hard to see that tear run down your cheek!

Im 20 right now. Watching this, i really want to record a video right now for my future self :)

WHY IS THIS THE LITERAL CUTEST VIDEO I HAVE EVER SEEN :( <3 ilysm

I came here because of Kristen, but wow. I feel like I've known you for much longer. thank you for putting this on the interwebs.

Anyone notice she didn't actually answer the are you happy question? Because Dodie god I really hope you're happy.

HER CRY MAKES ME CRY WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SOUL

CAN I JUST SAY lil dodie didn't do her makeup bad, we all looked like that!

your voice is so soft i need to put earplugs in because 100% without them is just not loud enough

This video broke me a little. I was 19 when you posted this video. I was 19 and engaged and so so sad. I was in such a different place than I am now. I watched you grow with me, as a fan. So close in age and so close in experience (as much as you can tell through videos and social media). I've got your book, I've cry sang your songs and screamed at the top of my lungs when I've celebrated your victories. And here we are, you 25 and me coming up to 25 and realizing how much my life as changed. How much I wanted to be like you, how much I thought I could love you as if I knew you. But I realize I thank you and cherish everything you have done for me without knowing me. You helped me come out as bisexual, without knowing me. Your songs helped me through depression that almost took my life, and here I am with your lyrics tattooed on my arms. So here we are. "There are things to do, there's a life to live." Here's to 25, Dodie and here's to your future 25 in a couple of months, Lyann.

Wowzers.. I remember watching this video and relating so much to it when you first posted it
It's crazy how fast time goes in hindsight

I really resonate with feeling nostalgic for your 15-16 y/o self, but lately I’ve thought less about it. It isn’t healthy to obsess, even though it was an incredible time of my life. I’m turning 19 this month. It was when they suddenly split up with me and one said back then that maybe we could see each other again at our graduate (in a couple months). I’m scared that we’ve gone too far down our own paths and won’t be able to connect anymore - maybe that it will be awkward. I maybe should move on and find new friends, but I might never let go of this feeling.

aghhh so cute i want to hug chu, I saw the tear and got emotional myself ahaha

I wish you genuine happiness 💜

of course i'm crying while watching dodie crying watching dodie

this is crazy i'm turning 20 this year and i wanted to do something similar

I kinda want to try this. Now at 23 years old, maybe I can make a video (gosh I hate seeing myself on video) or write a letter to my 28-year-old self. This'll be interesting!

U literally sound like me! Love your videos and happy 25th birthday 🎂

I’ve recently turned 18 and I should make one of these for my 20 year old self to see how much I’ve changed

“I got nose fillers though” ok here is my formal request for dodie asmr

The pressing your tongue to the roof does help!! 😂 I do the same thing!

Makes me want to do my first 61 year old doddlevoggle.

Never lose your emotion. Especially in your music. But please try to stop worrying about time. I'm 45 now and I've decided I'd rather be 45 than 35 or 55. But when I'm 55 I would rather be 5 than 65. You are young, and so am I. You are everything you are supposed to be and your past has created that. Never wish that away. And keep writing great music. And just be happy.

I'm 22 and I feel like you at 20
I hope it gets better 🙈👍

Me crying in my room in the middle of Easter
My mom : “okay lets take pictures!”

wow so I don't really follow your channel like that, but this was very beautiful

Am I the only one who thought the 20 year old Doodie looked beautiful and adorable, "overcurled" hair, eyeliner, nose, and all.

I am 20 and after watching this, I can't wait to be 25.

no way is this video over a year old already. what the fuck is happening to time

I'm so happy you're ok.

You're too cute. I'm sorry this so difficult for you! But remember you have so many memories good and bad, it'll be okay!

i cried so hard at this video omg DODIE

Dodie: God you're so afraid in this video.
Also Dodie: I'm so afraid to watch this video!!

this video feels like a good ending to your song "when." the answer to when is now!! you've done it!! so proud and happy for you ♥️

I did the same thing, last month I sent a future letter to myself in gmail, I scheduled it in 2025 and just like what she did, I told my future self everything I did today, cheer her up and all that. Hahaha now I'm just waiting to read and receive it in 2025

listen your eyeliner tutorial defined my makeup throughout middle school and i'm gonna need an updated version for science reasons

Wow I barely even know who you are but this vid brought me to tears hahah Life really is happening fast now huh, And Im only 20...

The look on 25 y.o. Dodie's face when 20 y.o. Dodie asked if she'd died 😂

everyone is talkin abt how afraid they are to grow up. im only 17, and ig im still kinda hooked on the past, but im so hopeful for the future and this just gives me more hope. ive had so much happen to me and ive been through so many phases, im ready to go through so much more. im so grateful to be alive and experience all these emotions and experience the world changing. everythin gets worse before it gets better, so im just happily striving for my better.

this is the first video ive ever watched of yours and the death of tufty has made me physically cry

I remember watching that video when it came out... It doesn't feel like 5 years have passed

why was i sobbing so hard this entire video 🥺

aw i love this, you're so cool :)

i’m genuinely feeling so proud of u rn dodie, you’ve come so far since that video i’m so glad that i’ve been able to see u grow over the years as well

I’m literally 20 year old dodie rn waiting to get to 25 year old dodie ugh I hope that I can have that breakthrough but I feel like everyone just goes through this identity crisis and growing pains thing

i watched dear 25 year old me when i was 11.. i went through the whole of highschool waiting for this wow

Im going to be 20 in November and literally freakin out coz i have nothing planned or even close to start in my life..and thats is so sad for me ..like i keep on roaming in circles reaching nowhere🥀

“it’s more of a friend now” i am sobbing

Oh my god I’m actually bawling at this, 20 year old Dodie reminds me so much of me and I really hope 23 year old me is this much happier than 18 year old me

"I wish I could play them for her, I wonder what she'd think" tears

Dodie is a precious treasure

i just want to grab you through the screen and give you a big fat hug 🥺

This is recommended like crazy to me. YouTube, how many times should I watch this? Isn't three times enough? :-D

I've watched this so many times since it came out I just love
You

Dodie, i remember watching this video that year ;_; i kinda want to do the same since I am currently 20 now!! ive done private videos like this, but i want to post one 👀

I think I have depersonalization. Im always feeling in a dream like state where nothing is real or Im not real. Thanks for bringing awareness!

This warms my heart

I just, I just love and care for you so much.

i literally had the same idea of doing this.. watching this made me feel like.. i dont know..

tell me why i cried through this whole video

okay but as someone who has been watching since 2015 why am i crying oh my

I loveddd this. thank you for doing this video

this gave me so much hope for the future :)

I love that she calls her younger self babe. 😂👍😊💜

ok, but this i genuinely a bit mad for me. turning 22 in about 26 days and I still remember you looking like that. And i love how far you've come... and that in that time i've actually got to meet you, Daniel (even Hedy randomly) and everyone that brought me so much happiness when i thought i just couldn't be. So much has changed but im so so glad that this was recommended to me... Thank you.

im glad youtube recommended this to me because i kind of needed to see this right now <3

This is weird, but I remember being 13 and watching this and now I'm about to turn 18 growing up is so weird

I wish I'd cared for younger me so much more

i'm 25 this year and this was VERY relatable

I can't believe it's been 2 years since this happened :(

I joke about this with people but it's really true; I'm a cisgender straight black male in his mid 30's from America whose favorite musical genre is rap and I truly think that Dodie may be my spirit animal. Whenever I need to describe my mood to someone, I just send them the song 6/10 and say that it's pretty much that.


Keep living your truth Dodie and being honest in your music. You're touching way more people than you'll ever know. And I say this from experience that you're not a complete project at 25. Life will continue to change in wonderful and weird ways that you'll never truly be able to guess. But if you keep the mindset of trying to be better today than you were yesterday, you'll end up ever better at 30 and wonder why 25 was so naive :)

I could never imagine posting such a personal video of myself like this, wow

just seeing how far dodie has come makes me so incredibly happy, feels like yesterday she posted would you be so kind. She inspires me so much was one of the inspirations to start my youtube channel I have today 💓

I sobbed through this!!

this video gives me hope as a twenty year old

I think its physically impossible to meet someone you're peak stanning and NOT act like some sort of invalid

''god i wish i could play them for her I wonder what she'd think'' NAH I'm crying

i cried throughout this whole thing. you’ve grown so much so beautifully. proud of you and your eyebrows

so raw and genuine, thank you

ahhh omg this made me cry! im crying right now lol im 16 and i am SO scared of the future i think i might do a similar thing for 20 year old me lol try and look into the future in a good way and not in a scared way :/

"but then everything is fine, OOP"
Is incredibly relatable

20 yr old dodie is probably so fucking proud of you

you're an amazing person..

Hi Dodie, I don’t know I’ll get lost in the comments (lil cringey lol) but I just wanted to say thank you so much for making this. I used to watch your old doddlevloggle videos ALL the time (I was about 10, now I am 15) and my favorite was probably “Dear 25 YO me” and “how to make tea” or something haha. I never knew I’d make it to see you reply to the video and it makes me so happy I got to see it. You were and still are a huge inspiration to me and thank you so much for all you do. This really did make my day...hope you’re doing well. Love you.

this video gives me hope in life

Dodie is the equivalent of a red skittle :)

This just gave me so much hope and perspective. I just turned 19 and I’m still feeling just as lost as I was at 15. The only difference that I feel like my mental health has improved so that’s something. But it’s still a battle some days and I don’t really know what I’m supposed to be doing with my life yet, and the not knowing sucks because I don’t want to waste any time that I have here alive. It blows my mind to think of how close 25 is for me yet it feels so very far and I know that life will be so very different, or at least I hope it will be. Seeing this just reminds me to be patient with myself and to allow myself to grow at my own pace, not at the pace of others.

8:45 reminds me of that bojack quote that’s floating around on tiktok when he’s like “it’s just the way it is”....

I feel like I should do this but I refuse to film myself all the time
-/////-

i cant believe i've been watching you for five years already

dodie: * starts crying *
me: * starts crying *

This made me straight up cry

damn, i kinda want to make a video for my future self now. or at least write a letter.

you're the sweetest human being oh god

This is such an experience to watch. I remember watching your “dear 25 year old me” video when it first came out. I was 15 then. I just turned 20 this month (my birthday is exactly a week before yours), and the things we’ve both been through in that timespan have been crazy, scary, sad, and wonderful, but all that time, you’ve been making my life better. I’m so grateful to have gotten to watch your journey while going through my own. Thank you for everything you do.

I just cried through this whole thing

This is an incredibly beautiful video. Wow

Well that was the most substantial thing I've seen in a good long while. Thank you for that. One wonders what the next five will hold.

i'm 20 atm and i can't stop crying

when I tell you I CRIED MY EYES OUT
we've been through so much
and everything gets better and will get even better

As someone who is really going through the worst of it right now.. you have no idea how comforting it is to see someone who's mental woes are EXACTLY like yours, tell you it gets better. I hate time passing. I can't think about the future, I can't picture 4 years from now.. but I'm hoping REALLY really hard.. that I too, can get to a point in my life where I can I say I got through it, and that it gets better.


Thanks Dodie!

'anything to do with time passing and things changing gets to me' Honestly same. The song landslide ruins me for that reason haha

God damn crying and wheezing is such a mood

I feel so many similarities from me 5 years ago to now. Ugh.

when you cried about heddy i cried to. you’ve changed my life so much, and so much for the better. i’ve been a fan of you since one of the worst parts in my life and you’ve helped me so so much in so many ways. i met you way back in 2017 and it was one of the best days of my life. thank you for the best 5 years dodie, you’ve changed my life, thank you so much <3

This is so beautiful!<333333333333

i forgot how much this video makes me cry

This is beautiful 😭🦋 I love you

I love watching her react to her old self because it’s reminding me of who I used to be when I first started watching her. When I first started watching her, I’d just moved to a new city and I didn’t really know a whole lot of people and her music helped me through that, but now I’ve grown as a person and I have amazing, supportive friends whom I love. It’s just really lovely seeing how dodie’s grown as a person and I feel like, in a way, her fans have grown with her as well and I love that. ❤️ Happy Easter by the way haha

Thank you , for a flash from the past.. hope you do continue on seeing a bright future while enjoying the present and still making memories for your future past. With the extra vitamin C fruit juices or multi vitamins.

Dodie makes me cry and im a 20 year old man with a quite macho job

i don't normally comment on things but oh boooyyyyyyyy. while i am so so sure this was a ride for you, it was for me as well. i've been watching your vids for quittteee a long while now, and lemme say i watched that dear 20 video when i myself was 15? 16? and i've just always loved watching your videos and just seeing that little bit of life. definitely went thru some things with you, watched way too many of your snapchat's and life updates, although i'll admit i never got into the instagram stories,, and now i'm sitting here watching this video and i'm 20 now. and i'm remembering what i was like back five years ago right with you and wow. i remember seeing you thru depression shit and i was sitting right there with you, and i remember some stuff into 2017? maybe and honestly just feeling like you and how you talked about your brain and just things hit so hard for me as i had began battling depression in 2014 and continued battling the waves thru to when you were vocal online at least about what you were going through. honestly you were one of the big factors in helping me convince myself to try to get help,, and i can definitely say that led to better things. while you may have felt like,, and i mean maybeeee did, you shared too much, you really helped me to share anything at all, because i really did not tell anyone and had this huge persona i had built to keep people from knowing how much pain i was in, and well dodie, you helped me take that first step to be a little vulnerable every once in while. not sure if your gonna read this, and if anyone else has well thanks for listening to a bit of a sob story. but i just wanted to put a big ol thanks into the universe and hope that somehow dodie knows that her videos have kinda been dominos in a big trail of everyone who's ever watched them. and cheers

Please, i NEED a 30 year old versión of this, ill come black in 5 years...!!!

It is pretty crazy how this video made me feel like I actually really am a part of some mysterious, grand journey. I went from 15 to 20 since watching the first video and, yeah, i was pretty crazy but I cannot wait for what's coming. Also it is pretty nice to reflect on the past but in a positive way. I hope when I'm 25 I can still hear some beautiful demos you post to help me get through life <33

Woah, not gonna lie i just wanted to give her a hug at multiple points in this video :S

did anyone else laugh and cry while dodie laughed and cried?

This is so inspiring

Ouuuu 😭 ❤️ this is beautiful omg I want to do this but I’m SCARED

I don’t normally comment but as a 16-year-old with a huge fear of time passing, this video made me feel a lot better. Looking back at 11-year-old me, whom I somehow both envy and pity, and forward to 21-year-old me, who will be (hopefully) graduating college, fills me with a lot of feelings, few of which I can describe, but this video gave me a lot of hope. Thank you dodie and know that videos like this really do help people♥️

When she started sobbing I started tearing up too 😟

I love you, Dodie!
(And Defying Gravity!!!! 12:30)

Hold on. Did you say that learning that you're derealising can lead to things getting better? Is there some kind of technique that helps me to learn to manage this? Or something?

This is the cutest thing of my life <3

Love you lots, you're the best xx

You may not be in musical theatre, but I did make a mini musical for school based on your music!! :)

Thanks for sharing this. 💕