for those wondering which channel hit a million it would be this one! this vid is on my second channel  :P

YOU’RE ABOUT TO REACH 2 MILLION SO PROUD

Haha. Yeah, I was like "what have you done to lose so many in three months?!"

Aves aryanna yeah, ikr! Her channel has been growing at such a fast rate!

doddleoddle wow 3 months and youre already at 1.92 million. BIG congrats.

@freedom it's like a human thing to cry, don't know if you ever heard of it: emotions.

Miss dodie this was posted on April 12 which is my birthday ! UwU~.~

doddleoddle I just watching this two weeks after it posted and you need a big hug

Hey Dodie, I've just watched this (and some of your music videos) after seeing you on Mary Spender's livestream yesterday...I've subscribed. You are an amazing talent and most importantly you have a beaut of a soul!

Dodie, could you please do an updated mental health video?? ❤

Ur lovely thx Dodie ur a good influence on the internet

doddleoddle I have been waiting for this for so long ? !

And yet you're about to hit 2M... That's... amazing as much as this hole video. <br>I usually don't comment but... I've just realized I've probably have been following you since that video, and I'm 21, and like it's shocking to see how much a person can change and grow (in like a more mature and secure way) in just five years. I'm also a musician and I'm actually quite scared about my career but, THIS video has given me a lot of hope so... Thank you for that, and for being so... You 🤷 Happy Birthday!

And yet you're about to hit 2M... That's... amazing as much as this hole video.
I usually don't comment but... I've just realized I've probably have been following you since that video, and I'm 21, and like it's shocking to see how much a person can change and grow (in like a more mature and secure way) in just five years. I'm also a musician and I'm actually quite scared about my career but, THIS video has given me a lot of hope so... Thank you for that, and for being so... You 🤷 Happy Birthday!

This was so beautiful to watch, I'm legit astonished. Bless your heart for putting this out there for those of us who need the reminder that everything will be okay soon. <3

Happy Belated Bday! Look forward to 30. It's gonna be amazing, or at least, better. XD

𝗰𝗼𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘂𝘁 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝘀 🥥

Милашка ❤❤🇷🇺

Милашка ❤❤🇷🇺

Максим Леонов

Is that why she keeps crying, or is that a girl thing?<br>Definitely something going on. What is YouTube doing to people?. Only time will tell

Is that why she keeps crying, or is that a girl thing?
Definitely something going on. What is YouTube doing to people?. Only time will tell

I think you might have chronophobia, I do too. You should read about it when you get the chance

What a brilliant idea. That was amazing. I’m going to try a ten year one. You have such an amazingly creative mind. Thank you for sharing!

Tell me if I should make a vid like that on my channel

doddleoddle dodie, somebody left a comment on the ‘Dear 25 year old me’ video telling you to call them when you’re 25:)

Yep, I was wondering at first, but it took me 2 minutes to realize that lol  Congrats!!!!

Have you heard of the '7 up documentary' series?:)

Looks like this channel is nearly at a million as well! 😌👍

Can I just say, you're so beautiful, literally so jealous! 🥺❤

you are so beautiful dodie you glow from the inside out 💛


5 years sounds like nothing on paper but damn it's a long ass time <br>crazy how far y've come!

5 years sounds like nothing on paper but damn it's a long ass time
crazy how far y've come!

Five years is spit in the ocean. It is very little. The human cortex isn’t fully formed until about age 25. You guys have a long time coming.

Absolutely, you can change and grow a lot in 5 years! Especially when you are young!! 😁


I REMEMBER WATCHING THIS WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT WOW <br>I've been such a fan of you for so many years; I can't believe how far you've come and I'm so proud to say I've been there for most of your YouTube years! I love you, Dodie! (Also I love your hair long, you looked so pretty in your I Kissed Someone music video) also omg I take spironolactone too

I REMEMBER WATCHING THIS WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT WOW
I've been such a fan of you for so many years; I can't believe how far you've come and I'm so proud to say I've been there for most of your YouTube years! I love you, Dodie! (Also I love your hair long, you looked so pretty in your I Kissed Someone music video) also omg I take spironolactone too


I love how she's kinder to her younger self. I'd be cringing at how stupid I was. lolol

Working on gentleness and care for your past self is really important! They were working really hard and helped you get to where you are now!

I think you might be surprised at how youd feel about your young self. I saw a video of myself from 2014 and I thought I was a cringy ugly kid at the time but when I saw that recently I just looked like a nice kid..because u was a nice polite kid and I'm so sad i was so pointlessly insecure .

@Sofia Bravo 🤣🤣🤣 see that's what im afraid of

Nicole Morel I am so critical of my 20-year-old self I am 25 now and I finally was able to retrieve all of my memories from when I was in my 20th year and the videos were just so hard to watch I thought I was actually being cute and quirky but it’s just annoying...I was still a teenager🤣🤣🤣


The affection in her voice when she talks about Heidi brought tears to my eyes

@Fraise Des Bois she just got very emotional about how much she has grown and changed I think

@Fraise Des Bois Hedy, doddie's little sister

Who is Heidi? Who is Hedy? And why did it make Dodie cry?

Bad case of stripes was my childhood book XD

@ItsJustHedy To be fair if you've never seen your name written down and don't realise it's short for Heather then I can see how someone might think your name is Heidi since that's also an actual name. Haha.

ItsJustHedy Omg your pfp!! That book was my childhoodd


this really made me realise that I'm literally still a teenager. like I have so much room to grow, even if it feels like I don't

Trust me, you'll look back and realize just how much you've changed. It's usually never really noticeable but when you notice it, it hits hard.

Heads up: Maybe 5, 10, 15 years later, you'll realize the same thing again.

I guess some people do stagnate, but I've always felt like for every 10% older I get, there's 10% more to me, and 10% more I can see in my future. Maybe more. The longer I go, the more life just keeps opening up wider.

Oh my gods yes. Sometimes i feel like failed in everything i want to do. And this sometimes were getting more often. But that’s so wild that i expect so much from myself, when i’m literally at the start of my way

Oh yeah, kid. I'm almost 21 and I've grown & changed so much already. I can only imagine had much we're all going to grow in the next few years, you know?

it's SHOCKING how much i've grown and changed over the past 2 years and i'm still only 18.

Also realize that being an adult is SUCH a long timespan. We hardly think of 40 and 60 year olds as much different but there is a whole 20 years between that! Everything that made you who you are, everything that lead you to where you are now, your entire life until now can fit in there! You can just start an entirely new life, do whatever you want to do in that time, its all yours!

Just keep trying to evolve...small changes will seem big things when you will grow old

Yeah... I’m not even a teen yet and i feel the same

I feel the same way. I’m a teenager and yet I continue to forget that my life is still at the beginning

Yes yes the world is full of options at 20. Seize the day

ok you didn't have to hit  me so hard with this

Kathryn Gray same! Seeing how different she is, I can’t imagine who I’ll be.


I think it's sweet that she talks to herself as if she is a younger sister


I remember watching "dear 25 year old me" when I was 15. Now I'm 20 and i realise how fast time flies. I feel like 20y/o dodie in a lot of ways, mostly because i'm so afraid of the future and i feel like i'm getting older faster than i can realize, i just want to stop every moment to really live it, really experience it and capture the feelings. of course i can't do that and i feel like life is passing me by and i'm just standing there, barely realizing what's happening and just like that, time's gone by. anyway, this video inspired me to write a letter to myself to read in 5 years :)

(no one will see this and that's okay lol, this is mostly for me. had to get it off my chest)

@Benas Stašaitis relate to this so much like it feels like other people are know what to do and you don't and it's like ahhhh but at the same time you're only 18 which is young in the grand scheme of things but still you cant help thinking these things...

@Jovania George
18 here. I feel very similar to you... it's stressful being in-between the adult and teenage phases. feel lost and also feel like I have to figure everything out now, or I already had to...
have dreams, but feel as though I'm too late to the game and it's all too late...
but then again, I'm just 18. that's so stupid to think. Yet I still do..

Jovania George YESS omg exactly the same case for me dude!! its the worst feeling

I’ve felt like this since I was 12. I’m 18 now and I can’t believe it. Time flies days, weeks, months, years come and go. I’m still trying to figure out what I want. I have big dreams but get discouraged to really just give it my all. It’s like yeah I got time, but time’s still running out.

@Chloé Elimam exactly!! of course it's an awful feeling but i'm 'glad' so many people share it and can relate, kinda makes me feel less alone :')

I know exactly what you mean, sometimes I feel like a train is coming at me and I'm just putting out my arms to stop it and I can't do anything

@Júlia Gomes yes exactly! didn't realize it before but now that you've said it, she really is like a big sister in these videos <3 (which is extremely cool for me bc i'm used to being the big sis haha)

gosh, i'm almost 20 now and i feel absolutely the same. it's kinda great to watch it now 'cause it's like she's talking to me about those non-specific topics and the things that go on my mind at my 20s. like a big sister, y'know? <3

@musicsummer12 thank you so much for taking the time to read my comment! and thank you for being so kind, i hope we can both learn to enjoy the moment as it happens and I wish you all the best 💙💙

I'm 22 and I so identify with the way you're feeling. Thank you so much for sharing this, and I hope we both find ways to stay present and just try to treasure the little moments, no matter how fast everything speeds along. <3  <3 <3


Same I just turned 20 yesterday and I feel so old and sad and all I think of is my teen self and wishing to be young again...by watching this I felt inspired to live my next years to the fullest and  do whatever I want instead of wishing  to be younger every time and making myself sick😰😥


“I lived in Bath and I worked in Lush”

I know Bath is a place in England but this sentence is so mf FUNNY like she lived in Bath and worked at a soap store

lol I did the exact same thing, I live in Bath and worked in Lush although not at the same time as Dodie

I could have seen her in there but I wouldn't have known it was her. Oof.

hahaha i didn't realize this until you pointed it out xD

i read it like 'lived in bath & body works and also worked at lush '(bc i didnt hear her say that bit)


I'm 20 now and I can't believe it's been 5 years since dodie looked like that. It's just so scary to me how quickly time passes and I feel like I missed out on a lot of my teenage years because of my depression :/ hope it won't be like this forever

the earth is grateful to have you here, the tides will change for you at some point, and you deserve to be there when they do ♥


dodie, thank you for not cutting out the entire bit of you crying and hyperventilating. I know you aren't nearly as comfortable with putting stuff online anymore but I really appreciated the authenticity. i think it's very grounding and comforting to see someone I admire still allow herself to be openly emotional. this is so bizarre for me to watch as well because I had JUST discovered you around this exact time 5 years ago following a really difficult breakup so seeing this made me see not only how much you have grown, but how much I have as well, and it's nice to think that we were on the journey to self-growth together.


as a 16 year old watching this i cried very hard. my future has always been a scary thing to think about and i dont have many visions of myself past 20, so putting myself in your shoes here i felt all of the emotions you did.

@P Lestrange Oof, I heavily relate to the both of u. I'm turning 17 in two months and this video brought me to tears. The future is really scary, the past is cringy lol and a bit fascinating too. A lot of people here keep mentioning writing a letter so I might just do that aswell, it'll be an interesting experience to open it in a couple of years. Thank you, and I wish u both good luck in life, it's going to be alright.

I'm 17, and i feel the exact same- its hard to picture being 20 or 25 and what things will have happened or not happened & where life will be. Its scary as hell. I think writing a letter will terrify me but also hopefully something to look back on and go yeah i did that.


dodie is so proud, but overwhelmed with emotions. her face when she looks at her at 20, it just says, “dodie, you did it. you didn’t think you could do it. we did it and we don’t have to worry so much. it was a ride, but thank you for powering through. i’m proud of you.” but..you can see, in her eyes, that question. dodie is wondering, about her younger self. “are you proud of me?”


"it'll be different, but it'll be okay"

that's so powerful and I cried with you


the most genuine and real “reacting to my old videos” ever posted


I love seeing her love herself here. The joy she has when she talks to “herself”.


"you learned to look forward for happiness." <br>I feel like that's such a powerful statement.

"you learned to look forward for happiness."
I feel like that's such a powerful statement.


I watched this while taking off my makeup for the night. 7 years ago I remember looking at my reflection in a mirror and being physically afraid for my life by how much hatred I saw in my own eyes. Not like “wow this depression thing has gotten bad and that’s scary” kind of afraid- it was more like I looked at the expression on my face and my body reacted like I’d seen a hungry animal about to pounce, staring me down. It was such primal fear and such primal hatred of myself. I so deeply and venomously hated myself for no reason- just bad brain chemistry. It’s been a long time and a lot of healing and work and it’s not every day, but most days I genuinely love myself now. I looked up from this video while washing and then drying my face and I saw my reflection and just touched my cheek and just started weeping and I still haven’t stopped. It’s just been me and that girl in the mirror tearing each other apart my whole life- and now I’m standing here holding her face and shes looking at me like “I forgive you”

Man that made me think. From around the ages of ehh 11 to 15 I just... learned to despise everything about myself. I was so insecure about my body, personality, sense of humor, hell- even the things that made me happy. I dont know where it came from or why it persisted so long, but like you said, it was this primal, connatural hatred. I would nonstop compare myself to my friends, all the while noticing the beauty in them- internally and externally- and never fathoming that anyone would do the same for me. I hated myself with every fiber of my being. I genuinely believed no one could ever love me. And so it was odd and really quite lucky that over the course of a year or so, I managed to unlearn all that hatred without putting too much effort into doing so. Looking back, it was like as easily as it had come on, it was gone. I'm saddened by the time I lost hating myself, but I'm so so grateful that I've learned to laugh at my own jokes, rant about the things that make me happy, dance in the mirror in a crop top and smudged day- old makeup. To this day, I dont know what prompted this change. I still have slip ups, sometimes I still shy away from the mirror or cringe at a joke that fell flat, but now those moments dont define me. I've fallen in love with myself. Who'dve thought :,)

crying my eyes out reading this because it so eloquently explains my most visceral experiences. thank you. I’m so proud of you.

This comment almost made me cry, proud of you internet stranger 💛

I’m so proud of you ♥ i wish you many more days of healing and happiness

I am so proud of you! You Deserve to live, always remember that 💖🌠


Dodie, pink-and-white in 2015, you were so important to my messy adolescence. I made pink floral bunting for my walls and asked for a uke for christmas in high school- you were like a dear older sister to me, I wanted to be just like you. and woo girl i was right with you on the eyeliner lol (throwback to Paint with Hedi)
but Dodie, green-and-gold in 2020, I have so much respect for you. I'm not quite as tied to youtube as I used to be, but you and your art hold such an important place in my heart. Watching you grow gracefully and untidily and beautifully into a buoyant adult gives me hope. You are familiar to me. Thank you, darling, for letting us grow with you.
Thank you for looking at your precious 20-year-old self kindly. I loved her. I'm learning to love my 17-year-old self that well (and my 22-year-old self for that matter). You lead the charge.


Honestly the most reassuring part of this (as someone who is the same age as our dear dodie) is that she was offended when her younger self was afraid to be her.
Like, bitch, I SURVIVED you! But also I love you and I understand exactly what you mean <3
It gives me hope that 30 year old me will be gentle with the memory of younger me.

Honestly the most reassuring part of this (as someone who is the same age as our dear dodie) is that she was _offended_ when her younger self was afraid to be her.
Like, bitch, I SURVIVED you! But also I love you and I understand exactly what you mean <3
It gives me hope that 30 year old me will be gentle with the memory of younger me.


Dodie’s reaction to being able to tell her 20yo self that she’s a musician with a band and hit songs is the wholesome content we need. 💜

Ellis Scott I know i literally felt so proud of her


I think I was around 14 when I watched your initial video, now I am 19. When I was 14, I watched you and listened to your youtube songs every week! Because of that, I associated you and your music with that hard point in my life. This is the first video I’ve watched from you in a very long time, I listen to your songs still, but whenever I see your face I can’t help but reminisce and picture my 14 year old self behind a laptop clinging to the internet for an escape. You were my safe space for a really hard time in my life, thank you 20 year old Dodie.

i feel the same way right now. it’s wild


That was a LOT of tears for everyone still being alive

Death isn't the only negative thing that happens in life.


"You're gonna fall in love,

You're gonna fall apart,

You gonna get back together,"

. . . welp that hit me hard.


“God, I wish I could play them for her” I’m sobbing?


You telling yourself to "chill out"... that was amazing and such a mood. Ugh I love this

@Zemma Craven
so, how's it going? I feel the exact same way, turned 18 back in March. really doesn't feel like I've done enough yet and that I'm already too late if I try to reach my dreams orr learn something new. it's so absurd and stupid, but tell that to my dumbass brain.
2020.12.06

Scrolling thriyfh comments and finding Thomas Sanders<br>Gold

Scrolling thriyfh comments and finding Thomas Sanders
Gold

When you go to look at the comments and Thomas Sanders is there.💕💕💕

i do that all the time but when other people tell me to do it i freak out more 🤭

I’m turning 18 soon and I’m so afraid of it....I feel like I haven’t done enough with my life but Dodie said chill out sooo😂

Some how I read this with your voice.. 😐😐🤷🏽♀😂

I felt so attacked, I have the same fears as younger dodie and wow I really needed to hear both 1. It gets better and 2. "Chill out" LOL

Thomas Sanders Hahahah lOL we are our own biggest critics <br><33

Thomas Sanders Hahahah lOL we are our own biggest critics
<33


anyone else rewatching this after dodie posted her "dear 30 year old dodie" video? So proud of how far she's come and I hope 30 year old dodie is happy and healthy. (Also its so scary that I was around for that video 5 years ago and i thought I was so mature at the time lol no.)


watching this at the age of 20 is beyond emotional, and especially when i watched the original at 15 the day it was posted. thank you for sharing this piece of your journey with us <3


As a 20 year old who keeps looking back at 16, I needed this


man i’m listening to some of your old music that i used to jam to in 6-7th grade, i’m in 10th now and just came across this video. i remember the first one coming out and watching it, resonating with you so much, and being happy i had a role model like you in such a tough time. i was struggling with my identity, my undiagnosed mental illness, and finding a way to cope. “dear happy” was the song that pushed me to get a ukulele, which i still play, but it was my first real instrument and got me into guitar, keyboard, and bass. listening to your music and learning it on my uke was my escape. now, 4-5ish years later, i am out as a transgender gay man starting hormones in 18 days, i’m still going through some mental health issues but i am much better than i was. if i did not have your music, i would not be here today. sure, i went though that cliche dan and phil, dodie, twenty one pilots phase but if i didn’t i wouldn’t have made it past 13. seeing you grow now makes me realize how much i have too. thank you dodie for being such a big part of my life and my growth. :”)

I'm so glad you're alright man, that's awesome! There will always be a special place in my heart for the people and things that helped me stay alive, and dodie is one of those. I still sob every time I hear secret for the mad. Mental illness is one hell of a thing to have to deal with and I'm so proud of us all for making it through. Hope you're doing well and the weather is nice!


this feels like the end to “secret for the mad”, in a better place than it started, still with some sad things to face, but hopeful and okay :)

ellieleat when she told 20 y/o dodie that it eventually got better i immediately though of secret for the mad and it felt like such a fitting song that 25 y/o dodie would dedicate to her past self i started crying it’s nice to know i wasn’t the only one that felt that way

Ok was ok until i read this then i broke down

This is ridiculously true, going to put it on repeat again for the next 3 days


I haven’t seen a dodie video in so long and seeing her now and then when I first found her when she was around 20 is absolutely crazy, I still love you dodie 🥺💕


I love how raw and real this is. Thank you for sharing this, Dodie!


i struggle with derealization and depersonalization, too, and it was really comforting to hear that yyou have been through it dodie. this video was like a long warm hug from an old friend


I come back and watch this whenever I feel a certain kind of way and it always helps.


This is so, so powerful. It gives me hope. Seeing Dodie now, she's so much happier and she knows so much more about herself. It actually makes me excited for the future, when I'm usually scared of it.

I can relate to that.. but at the same time I'm still really really scared.


I'm literally sobbing right now because I realized that I'm so afraid of the future I just don't see myself in like 4 years and I don't know what to do  and how to get happy and motivated for life again

I tell you i feel exactly the Same way, but we will get trough it and we will be happy.  I just know it !


<b>I was crying within minutes. The things you said 5 years ago are SO relevant to how I feel now, turning 22 next week. I know everyone is different, but knowing you’ve gotten better genuinely gives me hope. Thank you, Dodie.</b>

*I was crying within minutes. The things you said 5 years ago are SO relevant to how I feel now, turning 22 next week. I know everyone is different, but knowing you’ve gotten better genuinely gives me hope. Thank you, Dodie.*


I just turned 21 a week ago and I feel just like how 20 year old you did. This gave me hope. When you were sitting there listing out all the things you’ve done I started happy crying. This was so great. Thank you so much for this.


I watched that video at 13 years old, and i remember falling in love with Dodie, and how much I looked up to her at that age. You were one of my first big inspirations, the reason i started writing music and playing instruments, and your videos meant so much to me. And now Im 17 and I have changed so much, and I am nothing like who I thought I would be, but Im happy. Watching you react to this was like watching a part of my past, and I am so happy I got to grow up with your content and your music.<br>God thats a paragraph oops

I watched that video at 13 years old, and i remember falling in love with Dodie, and how much I looked up to her at that age. You were one of my first big inspirations, the reason i started writing music and playing instruments, and your videos meant so much to me. And now Im 17 and I have changed so much, and I am nothing like who I thought I would be, but Im happy. Watching you react to this was like watching a part of my past, and I am so happy I got to grow up with your content and your music.
God thats a paragraph oops


Did anyone else just absolutely burst into tears when 20 year old Dodie asked about Hedy and her parents, and 25 year old Dodie had to take a cry break?

@Precious Time ur link leads to cavetown?

Yeah I lost it. Made me think about my lil sis growing up.

It was amazing her sharing such a vulnerability like this. I just wanted to hug her.

@gimpy stimpy maybe they split or one or both passed away?

i did man, even if i dont know what happened i could still sense the emotions through the screen and idek why i started crying too :(

Michelle Mah i don’t know anything about her so what happened to her parents?


when she said depression was more of a friend now .. my heART


this was very cathartic for me, I’ve grown up discovering myself and my own derealization over the past years and watching your videos helped me understand myself in more ways than you can ever know. I’ve been through a lot of similar circumstances, and I appreciate that you still use your platform to share your brain sometimes. Thanks dodie x


Crying and laughing along with you 💞 been with you since day one and hope you stick around (you help a lot, we’re pretty similar...) Stay safe Dodie, and keep being you x


I remember watching the original video when I was 21 years old and getting married. Now I am divorced, in a beautiful relationship and living far away from my hometown. I have changed so much but one thing consistently is that I love your videos. They have always given me so much inspiration and hope. Most importantly, the ability to grow and to continue being your true authentic self just gives me so much hope. I love your music and watching your videos! <3


This is an amazingly creative video. I am 53 and while out walking have often thought about going back and giving my young self a good talking to. Over the years I have learned two things, firstly youth is wasted on youth and secondly your life can change dramatically in an instant. Sending lots of love to all who read this. xx


I love how you can see how she’s grown up and no longer stresses about the small stuff she used to, it gives me hope


dodie oh my god. i’m crying. this has given me so much hope in terms of personal growth and growing up in general. i love you and have been with you for four years. continue to grow and do what you need to. you’re so loved!


"I did take a pregnancy test the other day, but I'm just very bloated." if that's not your mid 20's in a nutshell, I don't know what is!

God, if I could talk to my 20 year old self I would say: you don't realise it yet, but you're in a toxic relationship with someone who's emotionally abusing you. Basically everything he tells you is a lie. You're going to turn into a clone of him and put him before anyone else in your life. You're going to lose connections with people for a while. You're going to be horribly depressed, fat, and anxious. Then once you break up with him those friends and family will pick you up, dust you off, and tell you how much better your life will be without him. You're going to realise you deserve so much better. You'll adopt a beautiful cat, get lots of tattoos and change your mind about a lot of things you want to achieve. But overall you're striving to live the life you want to live, and doing things that make you a better and happier person.You're still getting there, but you're going to be okay.

Kind of unfortunate that there doesn't seem to be a large amount of videos directed towards 20 year old girls about how to spot toxic people. I don't know if it's because then it would force them to critically look at their standards and how they can be blinded by attraction. Because presumably it's not like 40% of men are emotionally abusive and lie 100% of the time. (I guess men as a group are extremely bad if that's the case, and I would be surprised how society wouldn't immediately collapse with so many immoral people in the world.) So it seems like a fair amount of the time, women are picking a man who turns out to be abusive rather than the many men who are not abusive. Certain traits women are picking out from the group of men to find a partner seem to be correlated with abusive tendencies, because if you just take a random guy, chances are he's not abusive -- abusiveness is not nearly as ubiquitous as that, so something else seems to be going on. And to think how many years a woman has to suffer because she couldn't see the red flags. And so it could help a lot to have more media that tackles this topic. Instead, the trend seems to be more about, "just pick whoever you want, and don't question your desire, just follow it hedonistically, don't be sexist and question a woman's choices." But that can lead you down a pretty bad path if you're not careful.


Please tell me I'm not the only one who started bawling when 20-year-old Dodie asked if 25-year-old Dodie is happy? because just watching Dodie talk about growing over time and learning to be happy just made me bawl my eyes out holy hell


Hi Dodie! I stumbled upon this video bc I was revisiting some of your songs and ahh, this was really thoughtful and hopeful to watch! I’m happy I found this when I did bc it inspires me to look forward to the future too, so thank you :) hope all is well and you’re at peace ❤


everything about this video is so beautiful. i was around 11-12 when i started watching your videos, and since then i've learned to play instruments wanting to be a musician through your influence and others as well. i composed music and continue to do so extremely slowly. i'm scared i might move on from it though. it's so interesting to me to have grown up and changed just as you have in this video (i do admit i cried a little as i watched). i'm just so proud of you


I cried with you. This is the second video I watched of you, after finding the one for depersonalisation during covid. I just want to thank you for sharing this content...It struck me and inspired me to be less scared about my future. I'm 21 now and pretty much as lost and scared as you were in this first video. I admire you for doing this, and for being so authentic... Sending you love. Take care.


You are amazing. To watch my daughter idolize you is to know that she is in fabulous hands. The world needs art, and it needs artists like you. Thank you.


dodie crying trying to talk about her family is me in every therapy session tbh


I have letters from myself dating back to 7 years old. I turned 21 in April and went back and read through all of them. Some were hilarious, some cringey, others were just painful. I was a different person when I wrote each of them, and I was a different person when I read them. At 15, I didn't think I'd make it to 21. I'm proud to say that I'm thriving and happier than ever, that it did get better. This was so touching and I'm glad to see that other people do this and get to see how much their lives have changed for the better!


for some reason this popped up in my recommendations and i watched it for fun.
i really enjoyed and found it very interesting. so i wanted to hear your music, just to find out that i already do.
spotify also recommended me your songs a few months ago and i have loved them ever since, getting to see the person behind them has just gave them a new meaning.
congrats on the growth and cheers to your incredible music,
a new fan from Argentina


Dodie, I’m so proud of you! You have grown so much the last five years, and it’s so lovely to see you genuinely feel comfortably happy/satisfied with your life! I know how hard you worked to care for yourself emotionally, and as someone who can relate to your health journey on a deep deep level,    you deserve to be so so proud! You accomplished so much in the last five years, not just health, but in work, friendships, coming out, ext. You are a queen, and don’t you ever forget it! ❤💛💜💚💙🧡


I love you, Dodie, and this is so inspiring to watch this! I remember watching the original video years ago, and you've come so far! Here's to many more incredible years of life! :)


when you broke down about your parents no longer being together but being in better places than they were when together made me breakdown ahhhhhhhhh! my parents are also separated, and my mom is in a much happier and healthier <br>place with her new partner :)

when you broke down about your parents no longer being together but being in better places than they were when together made me breakdown ahhhhhhhhh! my parents are also separated, and my mom is in a much happier and healthier
place with her new partner :)

doddleoddle love u and your music so much and happy birthday again💞💞


i watched dodie constantly in 2015. I remember that backdrop and that hair!! her music helped me through some of the worst years and inspired me to learn guitar and ukulele, and i still play all her old songs to this day. seeing this was super nostalgic and emotional!! im so happy to have seen you grow - as a musician, as a content creator, and as a person - and to have been able to grow with u :"")


i cried watching this video, and i haven't ever met you!
this was beautiful, and I think I am going to do this and address the video to my  20 year old self :))
thank you so much for being a constant source of inspiration <3


So I'm 22 now, and I just realised that I was quite similar to Dodie at 20 when I was 20. I was also very stuck in the past and wanting to get back to where I was at 15/16, because in my mind I was happier then. Which is kind of true, because I was definitely really sad at 20, but now, only 2 years later, I'm much happier and I do feel like I'm doing really well and I'll be alright. Which is quite a weird thing to think, but I truly believe it'll all be okay, even if it's not the way I expect it to be


I love this so much! Seeing how much you have grown is such a joy. It has been such a privilege and an honor.  You are such a beautiful person Dodie and are loved by so many people. Please remember that.


“So 25 year old dodie how are you”
Dodie: is crying

“So 25 year old dodie how are you”
Dodie: *is crying*

I saw this comment when it had 420 likes


This is so incredibly powerful. Thank you for making my day & probably my week, thank you for helping me cry when I’ve needed to for the longest time (though I haven’t been able to until now), and thank you for being an inspiration. I love your music, and for the first time in months, you’ve also helped me say that I love having feelings. Thank you, Dodie.


I literally cried with you the entire time! this was so emotional to watch, especially because Ive been probably watching you since then. love you dodie, you've come a long way.


I don't even watch your vids but this wrecked me and comforted me and reminded me that the future can bring positivity and things can change for good 🥺


when dodie started crying, i literally started sobbing


I watched dodie so much 5 years ago that “that” dodie is cemented into my brain, I don’t watch her as much but watching this video you can just see how much she has changed. She has become so sure and honest with herself. It is so beautiful to see.                                          And I so related to that feeling of always wanting to be 15/16 again, but as the 25 y.o dodie knows - that feeling passes. I love this Dodie 💗


Being someone that's at 20 who is curious about similar things, watching this has got me full on crying. I'm so proud of how far you've come, and I can only hope I make half that progress in life (and this pursuit of happiness that feels endless) by my 25th


i can’t believe i’ve been watching you for 5+ years. things are so different now. i used to sing your songs horribly in my room, and now i can sing decently. i picked up ukulele because of you and it opened my entire world of music. i met you back in 2017 and you signed the ukulele i bought because of you! i’m so grateful for you dodie; i have passions and memories that stem from you, all because i watched a video sometime back in late elementary school. thank you for all that you do!! :) <3


i love how you so kind and just understandable to yourself. I really inspired by it, i want to learn how to treat myself better and respect ❤


This means a lot to me, cause its as if im speaking those words, and your my elder sister telling me how itll work out, guiding me. Thanks for having this on your channel


I love how Dodie talks to her 20yr old self like a person in front of herself and gets excited for her

GreekGirl102 ahh thanks for telling me that’s actually quite interesting

I heard or read somewhere that there was a study where when people look at images of themselves from the past, the same part of their brain lights up as when they see other people, i.e. their brain identifies their past selves as a different person.


This video was really inspiring! I'm gonna do the same thing. I'm glad you're doing okay Dodie! Hope 30 will be even better :)


This video made me cry 1 minute in! I was still watching you back then! <3 you’re such a strong person Dodie!!!


You’re amazing, Dodie! So many people love you and want to give you so many hugs for how much you’ve gotten through in five years.


This made me realize I’ve been watching Dodie for over five years. Thanks for letting me grow up with you, Dods. All my love <3


I was sat here thinking ‘wow 20 year old Dodie looks like a child’. Then I realised I’m 20. I’m a child

She also dressed very cute childish which isn’t bad

Same!! It gives me a lot of hope that things will be alright in the future 🥺💖

i’m 20 and certainly feel.. older. when i look back at 15-16 year old me i see a horribly depressed, insecure teen looking for some sort of hope. 17-19 weren’t that long ago but i do feel much different. i think it’s because i turned 20 this year during a pandemic, that can age you quick, that and the fact everyone around me treats me like i’m a grown adult at only 20 😅 however, everyone’s different i suppose

At 20 years old you are an adult not a child 🤦♀ i just turned 22 i do not feel like a child. You are not 17.

this is so unbelievably reassuring... im turning 20 in a few months

I am almost 24 and found a photo from being 19 today. i seriously did look like a baby. you sometimes don't notice until you see a pic

i was thinking that too and i’m 15. i’m guessing it’s cuz her picture is right next to 25 year old dodie so we’re comparing them side by side

Im over 20 years old, but in my Heart im still a Child. And yes, i do some Childish things too, but im very Happy with that 😅

Lol. Must be hard to be an adult woman/man for you. But you stop growing at 18 lol.

@KurooTsuki Every few years for a while you'll look back and realize you were a child the whole time. Puts things into perspective. Be patient with yourself, you're still growing.


wow this made me BAWL. it's so great to see how far she's come, but also how much she's grown... like emotionally? she's gone through so much and idk man i'm just so proud and so happy for her. just wanna give her a huge hug tbh


Thank you for this. My last year was full of shadows, and seeing this a year later and a year older (21) gives me some patience and tolerance for how slow life moves and how little seems to change at times. You've aged beautifully inside and out, and seeing that makes it a little easier for me to take a deep breath and feel at ease.


honestly i couldn’t stop looking at dodie, shes so genuinely beautiful inside out


i keep coming back to this video because there’s bits that I also have been through and realized that I tackled a lot of bad mental health stuff in the last 5 years too and never opened up about it, I started watching your videos when I was still caught in the deep of it but now it feels so nice like a warm hug to a past self seeing that it is actually okay

Meeting you last week in Philly when I said how your music grew with me was really just the surface level but truly it changed my life and helped me get out of tough times so I can see the good, thank you dodie for being you <3

I started watching your videos when I was 14 and now I’m 20 :)) and it feels so good to still be here


When 20 yo dodie started asking about Hedy and her parents and started crying afterwards, I felt that. I’m going through some challenging times too (divorced parents, change of home, first workplace and life in general) and it’s refreshing to see just how much can and will change in only 5 years.

You’re such an inspirational and admirable person (even when you think you’re not) and it’s so uplifting to hear your story and how you’re able to look back on all that happened. I even might write down a note myself for a future me in 5 years and reflect on how things might change and will have changed by then.

Thank you so much dodie! ❤

My parents got divorced two years ago, and thinking about the place I was in then or three years ago, I wish that I could tell myself how much growth I've made to now 💜 There is hope! Things do get better!

Sending support! My parents started getting divorced two years ago, immediately after I started graduate school. I just defended my thesis on Friday. You'll get through this ❤. But I understand how you feel


This was great. You made me smile ear ---> ear .. Shared with my daughter who turned 20 today , so what a fluke as I have been following you and just stumbled on this. I shared and urged her to do the same. Thanks for being real!


This made me think a lot about what I would say to myself, 5 years ago. A lot of the same stuff, especially about depression, and how I rewired my brain for the better. There’s something about hearing you say it, that helps. And the way you celebrate being a musician, finally. I aspire towards that. This video made me cry, too.


I remember 6 years ago when I was 19 and watched this video and I remember thinking that it would be forever before the 25 years old video happened and here we are 6 years latter. Time flyes and also lots of things happen (like I understand English so much better f.e.😂)

Your videos are always so close to my heard and when I saw you last year in a concert... I can clearly say that it was the best concert of my life. It was like being home and in a magical place at the same time♥
Well I'm about to turn 25 and this video has inspired me to do one, just for myself, to my 30 self, I have always thought that dreaming about the future gives me energy and hope 🙈♥

Thank you for all you have showed over the years, your always in a warm spot in my heart ♥😊


And just like that I'm taken to the moment I first watched Dodie's “Dear 25 Year Old Me” video 5 years ago. It's crazy how time flies! Dodie, you made 20-year-old Dodie proud. If she were here to see you now, she'd be crying tears of joy, just as we all are 😘


I remember watching “Dear 25 Year Old Me” when I was 12, I’m now 17 and sobbing at how time flies

bro same <br>"dear 25 year old me" feels like it was so long ago which is terrifying

bro same
"dear 25 year old me" feels like it was so long ago which is terrifying

Same. I'm 16 now. Woooow. How the time flies

same ,I was 10 I'm now 15 ,I've been crying cause it's weird

Same!! I remember watching this when I was 16 and now I'm 21 ... wow


I love this so much dodie thank u for this. I totally get ur tears when u look back at 5 years ago during such a hard time. I’m so happy to see that ur ok, it always gets better. I used to watch u when you were 20 haha so seeing this is amazing. You are amazing girl ❤


This was beautiful to watch, thank you for being vulnerable and sharing dodie 💓


I’ve been in a pretty deep spiral lately and this video keeps coming to mind, I’ve rewatched it several times over the last few months and I just wanted to thank you for being so real in making this video. I can’t imagine how hard it must have been, but it’s been really grounding to hear you speak about all the things that have changed in your life. Right now it’s hard to think even a month into the future, but I’ve taken genuine solace in watching this and remembering that someday I’ll be able to look back at 18 year old me and smile, because things finally changed for the better. Thank you for your authenticity, I find it incredibly brave, and utterly comforting.


Okay I'm listening to you talk at 1:44 and it's bringing me so much hope. I'm feeling how 20 year old doddie is feeling and wishing I was 17 again but I'm not. I'm 19 and I felt like I lost myself completely. I'm just trying really hard to push forward and move on to better days


Seeing this makes me realise how much stronger Dodie has become over the past 5 years.


This was very brave and I am so proud of how you have grown. Five years! I remember watching that video and I will remember this one. We are still with you and YES you still have an audience. 💛


It's amazing to see how much Dodie has grown in just 5 years. 💓💞💜


I've waited for this video for 5 years, I am so proud of you Dodie!


I am so happy about you. I came across you and various other singers for the first time about a month ago and have been feeling great joy watching the art and talent being expressed, but more so in seeing you and others experience life. I hope you can feel happy in knowing I feel happy about you as I am sure so many others do as well. Stay magnificent and beautiful. (No more changes to the nose!!)


‘ladies and gentlemen we’re going to take a quick short break’
dodie: hyperventilating
me: crying


You're legit an actual hero. Hate that you go through anything difficult. You're amazing, music aside.


This made me feel much better about growing older. I'm 20 years old right now and the future is terrifying to me but you, at 20, is a lot like me right now. I hope I grow up to be even just a little bit like you. You are wonderful and I am so proud of you. You are the epitome of growth and loveliness. I love you dodie, keep going.


Thank you for sharing with us! this is so special and so vulnerable and I'm honored to have heard it. Thank you. You've grown so much, and I hope you remind yourself of that <3


Thank you for posting this. I can tell it’s personal. I’ve been watching your videos for years and I just turned 20 this month and am terrified. Thank you for sharing your development with little 20-year-old girls like me <3


‘I did take a pregnancy test the other day but I’m just really bloated’ is such a mood


This was beautiful ❤ Thank you for doing this and sharing it with the world.


this makes me so happy. i’m so proud of you Dodie💓


Everyone has their fears and difficulties - and it's inspiring to see you face yours and be brave everyday. Thank you Dodie! You've brought joy, and given us words and tunes to echo and understand our sadness all these years


Watching you reply to your video from 5 years ago is so heartwarming. It is so great to see how you have grown and how happy you are with everything you have done. I love every one of your songs and when you said "you are a musician", it just put a smile on my face!


When you said “I wish I could play the songs for her” I teared up so extremely. There are so many things that I wish I could tell twenty year old me too. How special to have this video so you can see her again ❤

reminds me of the song She by Selena Gomez


I really am so proud of how far youve come. I know it doesnt mean much seeing as im a complete stranger and only 16 but i've been watching you for so long and I remember watching that video and empathizing. I still do. Youre so strong and been through so much. Thank you for making it this far and showing people regardless of who you are it gets better. <3


Genuinely crying with you because I remember when you uploaded the first video and I’m beyond proud of you dodie 🖤


Dude, watching this video made me sob. I’m 20 now and I’m in a really weird spot in my life where I’m questioning a lot of my future with how uncertain everything is and a lot of the things you said to your 20 year old self was exactly what I needed to hear right now 💕 You are so strong and if I become 25 and I’m half the woman you are now, I’ll consider that such a win


This is such a sweet video to watch. I remember watching the first one when it came out, I was just 16 !! And now I'm 21 ! I feel like I've grown up alongside you a lot, in so many ways. I'm so happy you're doing well. <3


Its so weird that I watched "dear 25 year old me" when i was 15, and now im 20 watching "hello 20 year old me". I cant believe its been 5 years.. thats scary

aras ne Honestly!!!! So weird right? we all really should

I first watched that video when I was 12 years old, It is so strange to think that this time 5 year ago my life was so different

Same but with 14 and 19.... Bruh I am in university now shit's crazy

Me too!!! Same ages and everything as you. ❤💌

You're like 20 year old Dodie haha! It'll be okay

Me too! It's so weird thinking of where I was at 15

same sis! I remember watching the original at 15 like woah when she replies I'll be 20 MAD

Same! I can't believe it's been 5 years, it doesn't seem that long! Xx


Hey dodie! I am kind of late posting this but anyway, happy quarter of 100. I've been enyoing your videos for probably about 5 years now, learned a few of your songs on uke and kind of grow up in this time too. Ty for this video, seems really personal and I admire your courage for puting yourself out there. I wish you the best and have a good one. Love from Slovenia


Aw man 20 year old dodie, I cant believe how far you've come. I remember watching 20 year old dodie, and I will be sobbing too because look at you now.


this was so lovely to watch, and almost cathartic. I'm so proud of u


Honestly when 20 year old Dodie Clark said “are you happy?....... I hope you’re happy!” That! That set me off crying. 🥺


So here I am, turning 20 in a month, and I can only hope that I can go through half the transformation you did in 5 years <3


I started watching your channel around that time when you were 20 so it's really precious to look back with you at who you were back then <3


I remember when this came out. I was 11! Always loved you and been inspired by you since I’ve started watching you 💗


I watched this video when I was 15 and I based A LOT of my personality around you at this time, you were just everything to me. And five years from then I am now 20 and my hair is in a pixie cut and I write poetry and play games and have a beautiful partner who I live with. And I guess this comment is just to say how grateful I am that I found you when I was 15 because 5 years later I have seen you four times and you have honestly helped me grow and learn about my sexuality and who I am.


An absolutely adorable time capsule dodie! I really love how gentle you are to your younger self and how you react honestly to everything that your younger self asked you, even when it brought tears to your eyes and brought back memories of the events of the past five years!
I didn't start watching your videos until 2017 dodie, but it is clear that you have grown since you were 20 (if the videos are anything to go by), and I consider it a blessing that I get to watch you on YouTube now. You've honestly been my favorite musician for the past two years.
You've been an inspiration to me dodie, I suppose that is something I've always wanted to tell you. I'm studying to take my licensing exam to become a nurse, and your music is on my study playlist, you're someone I go to when I need to hear something heartwarming, and I hope that one day I can meet you and thank you for...honestly, just being you! You rock dodie (both your 20-year-old and 25-year-old self)! :) <3 Here's to many more memories, opportunities, and amazing adventures in the next five years dodie! :) <3


i've never wanted to hug a person through a screen more than right now

i remembered i wrote a comment this time, but i forgot what i wrote, and also that i replied to myself. can't wait until 3 months from now, when i reply to this comment again

oh i forgot you wrote this comment already i was about to write it again, guess i don't need to lol


I'm 27 💜. I remember when that vid was released. Thank you for bringing beauty into the world. You're an incredible artist.


wow i must have watched the first one of these when i was 15 which is pretty crazy to think. It's lovely to see how youve grown as a person so much in those 5 years and it makes me hopeful for my future so thank you for that 💜


I started crying with you when 20 year old you said “are you happy?”
I’m 20 years old right now and I remember when that video was first posted. I was 15.
I feel like I’ve grown so much with you and I’ve stepped into myself in the past 5 years and I’m glad you were there with me throughout them.
I am happy now I think, I hope you are too. <3


I came back to this as i'm about to turn 20 soon and its crazy to realize I've gone through similar things and am almost where 25 yr old dodie is in her life. Im sure there are many things that will change as I try to adult and many lessons i will learn, but its so surreal seeing someone i looked up to in my teens now being 25 and me relating as if we're closer in age than we actually are, if that makes sense.


My god, I remember when the first one came out- You've inspired me since I found your channel many years ago, and you've been part of my journey in ways you could never know, as I am but one of your many adoring family members who want to support you. I've been to your shows, I've watched your music and EP's come out, and you inspired me to learn the uke and start writing music, and its been amazing to see you grow. I've been watching you since I was 12 years old, I believe, or around then. I deep dove into youtube as my only refuge from my damn complicated and changing world. As my world keeps getting turned upside down and inside out along with the rest of the world at this time, I continue going back to my best friends from the past- you mentored me and cheered me up through my rocky past and have neevr stopped inspiring me. I love you doddie <3 <br>-orion

My god, I remember when the first one came out- You've inspired me since I found your channel many years ago, and you've been part of my journey in ways you could never know, as I am but one of your many adoring family members who want to support you. I've been to your shows, I've watched your music and EP's come out, and you inspired me to learn the uke and start writing music, and its been amazing to see you grow. I've been watching you since I was 12 years old, I believe, or around then. I deep dove into youtube as my only refuge from my damn complicated and changing world. As my world keeps getting turned upside down and inside out along with the rest of the world at this time, I continue going back to my best friends from the past- you mentored me and cheered me up through my rocky past and have neevr stopped inspiring me. I love you doddie <3
-orion


I suddenly want to record a “20 years old dear me” video and then look back when i am 30 or more. That’s a inspiring idea from dear Dodie~


oh my goodness! i was fifteen when I first watched that video and watching you play it back brought back so many feelings... now I am twenty and it is so odd and cool (and difficult in many ways) to be growing and changing on the internet. thank you dodie


@Pitman856 of course she is, she wears trainers

It's nice to remember how much we can grow tho


This is amazing. Proud of you. I hope you felt better for it. <3


Okay this made me cry quite a bit haha. I’m turning 20 in less than a month (!!) & seeing how a lot of things got better for you, in terms of understanding your mental health more, your creativity & making new close friends, just gives me hope. I’ve been through a pretty rough ol’ time the last year and a half & I really hope that when I get to 25, I’ll be able to say that things got better for me.

Lots of love to you Dodie X

Ps: I’m gonna make one of these videos/write a letter to my future self.


Oh Dodie I remember watching you back in that day and even before, I remember sometimes feeling like oh she needs helps and then finding that you are finding that help, going through the journey of growing with you and know watching this it really awe inspiring but also feels good to see you grow and feel fine about your life :)


This is already really inspiring and I’m hardly a minute in. Thank you so much for being brave enough to share this, I’m sure I’ll feel even more grateful as I continue to watch, but.. basically, after going through something rather life changing recently and feeling suddenly very uprooted and empty, I already think that making a video like this for myself could help me a lot. Just looking forward to 5 years out looking back on 23 year old me and knowing that I was able to keep going and if I can make this me proud or even if I become proud of new things by that age I think it will be like... some coins in a piggy bank to me or something. Some fond memory just of me and for me that I won’t ever have smeared by a loss of friends (what’s just happened) or a bad relationship or whatever.<br>Idk yet what it would become to me, but already your video has me thinking!

This is already really inspiring and I’m hardly a minute in. Thank you so much for being brave enough to share this, I’m sure I’ll feel even more grateful as I continue to watch, but.. basically, after going through something rather life changing recently and feeling suddenly very uprooted and empty, I already think that making a video like this for myself could help me a lot. Just looking forward to 5 years out looking back on 23 year old me and knowing that I was able to keep going and if I can make this me proud or even if I become proud of new things by that age I think it will be like... some coins in a piggy bank to me or something. Some fond memory just of me and for me that I won’t ever have smeared by a loss of friends (what’s just happened) or a bad relationship or whatever.
Idk yet what it would become to me, but already your video has me thinking!


The elevator music during the sobbing intermission was a whole mood

@Precious Time Thank god I wasn't rick rolled lol


This was a beautiful video, thank you for showing us to be kind to ourselves and to take our mistakes (and achievements) in stride. The raw honesty and grace is breathtaking.


This is so lovely. Thanks for the eye-opener on how much can change - and how much can improve! - in the span of five years.


You are just so precious in every possible way. I hope you feel happy now. Love ya :*


Dodie: is crying and trying to hold herself together.
Also Dodie: OOP
I love her


Dodie, thank you. I recently turned 18 and I'm terrified of growing up. This gave me a lot of peace. Life is hard, but it gets better. Thank you so much.


i just sobbed with you for this whole video. i’m so happy for you xx


God, I‘m so much like 20 year old Dodie atm. Watching this filled me with a lot of anxiety, but it also reminded me not to be scared of the future.


This video reminded me there is a reason to fighting to stay alive. Thank you, ms Dodie. You have so much love. And it gives me hope. So ill fight just like you. Keep being badass lol


25 year old dodie saying “god I wish I could play my songs to her, she would love them” to 20 year old dodie really GOT ME


I just turned 20 yesterday, and stumbled upon this video. Cried while watching it, and cried while I made my own. Thank you, Dodie, for this idea and experience.


I never thought I'd hear dodie say the words "I took a pregnancy test"<br>Even I was scared

I never thought I'd hear dodie say the words "I took a pregnancy test"
Even I was scared


9:10 You look beautiful at 25, and your face has really come into it's own - I also have noticed my little smiley wrinkles start seeping in, haha, I'm about to turn 23. This whole 20-25 thing freaks me out too. As being 20 feels like a year ago to me. You seem such a lovely person, wish we could be friends! haha, don't cry!


This was really cool to see and it makes me really hopeful as a fellow musician to see where you were five years ago and where you are now. Thanks for sharing and thanks for being vulnerable ❤


Cried a little at this, I think because I feel a lot like dodie in the 20yr old clip, (derealization, alwasy stuck in the past or future ect) and seeing someone being like "it got better" is what I really needed. I often see people saying like "it gets better" but it's something different seeing someone who went through the same hell and who got to the other side. Thank you.

@Romy Caverly your definitely not, we gonna make it out of this

I was about to comment but you literally said everything I wanted to say. So...It's nice to know I'm not so alone


Thank you for putting this out. Having a hard year...this helps put things in perspective.


It's weird bc I remember watching the original video lmao and now we're here AAAAA <br>so glad that things have been better for you and that you've exceeded 20yr old Dodie's expectations when it comes to career/passions ~

It's weird bc I remember watching the original video lmao and now we're here AAAAA
so glad that things have been better for you and that you've exceeded 20yr old Dodie's expectations when it comes to career/passions ~


Didn’t expect this video to be so relatable. I’m 20 now and this made me start to cry. Being fixated on the past and scared of getting old hurts the most.


been watching your videos for years now! I'm 25 as well and I hope you have many many more good times! you are inspiring and have a lovely mind dodie! xx


This is so beautiful. Time flies by so quickly and often it's hard to remember what we've been through. Life is in constant transition and we don't even feel it. It's amazing to see what actually happens in 5 years!


Honestly think we all went through the worst of it in 2016-2017. I felt that one.


Dodie, I'm so happy and proud of you for everything you've overcome! I understand how hard depersonalsation can be
I'm 23 at the moment. And when I was 20 I was also extremely unhappy. I was diagnosed with BPD when I was 21 (I think) and although things are still pretty dark for me I know they'll get better, and thinking back I'd not change anything.

And I'm so happy and glad I found your music! I use to watch your videos but I rarely have the attention span to sit and watch anymore. But your music has helped me alot during bad times.

I'm rambling now and I'm sorry.
I just want you to know how amazing you are and how much you've grown. And just remember there is always happinesses in the future. Much love to you Dodie ♥♥


dodie, are you still afraid of time passing? I've come back to this video. I'm 18, turning 19 this year, and changes and time passing are just my biggest fear. does it get easier? I just think I'm gonna wish I was 18 for the rest of my life even though I'm not happy now.


“I’ve got a secret for the mad, in a little bit of time it won’t hurt so bad.... I promise you, it’ll all make sense again.” Wow this got me crying as I thought about who I was five years ago. I’m about to be 20. And 15 year old me hurt a lot. She was desperate to be loved because she didn’t know how to love herself. She got hurt by some people, and there were many times that she cried in the dark and hoped she would disappear by morning. But the sun still rose, and she continued on. She grew stronger, and she found more of herself. The more she found, the more she loved those fragments of self. Now, she’s still growing. But she isn’t hurting that way anymore. She still cries sometimes, but she’s learned how to love herself, and she’s the first one to come to her own defense, she’s the first one to protect. She doesn’t need some boy pretending like he can protect her. She learned how to herself. And now, she tries to protect others, who are where she was, all those years ago. She is about to embark on her greatest adventure, and it hasn’t happened the way 15 had hoped, but it’s happened in ways neither of them could’ve dreamed. 20 is excited. 20 has looked at 15 and said “I love you now, and I’m so sorry I didn’t love you then. You are worthy of love. You are smart, and kind, and good. You are talented. You don’t deserve the things that happened to you. And despite what you might think, they weren’t your fault. I love you. I love you.”

Morgan Felt i don’t think I’ve ever related more 🤍🥺

You're so strong and such a huge inspiration. It is so so hard to do what you did and I hope you know that you are absolutely amazing. I hope you love you as you should now, keep being amazing❤💕

hi i’m that fifteen year old in a lot of ways thank u

I feel you in so many ways like I can feel every word that you wrote, sometimes I just remember who I was and god I'm now in a different level with myself ❤ so proud of you

Im turning 20 this year too and i really hope i could my 15 year old self a hug ;v;

this is beautiful! i’m so happy that you were able to grow and become content with yourself. sending you lots of love and hope!

I was about to write almost the exact same comment but you said it more eloquently than I ever could. cheers to going through it 5 years ago and coming out stronger <3

Geez this got me tearing up. I'm 15 and this really hits close to home. I hope that I can grow and blossom like you said, but for now I've just got to roll with the shit and take life as it goes. Love yall

Morgan Felt i read this in dodie’s voice

Wtf, like u don’t know me but I’m so proud of you. Always keep growing  ❤

Thank you for this. Youve written it so beautifully. Honestly such a good reminder ❤


I remember watching this when I was 17. For some reason watching it again reminded me of who I was when I first watched it. So much has happened, I graduated highschool, I've almost finished an arts and science degree, I came out, I became an activist, I made so many  amazing new friends. But the biggest and most horrifying change has been loosing my beautiful mother. I couldn't have even imagined that five years ago. I have trouble believing it now. While I hope that I can find a place where I can look to the future for happiness like Dodie, I can't help wishing that I could just wake up as who I was five years ago.


having been watching you through this whole time and seeing you grow has made me so emotional. its so incredible to see where you have been and where you are. so so so incredibly proud of your journey ❤


I am so proud of you for how you have grown and how you treasure your gifts and share them. Seeing your kind heart was healing for me. Thank you!


Dodie makes me feel so fucking happy.. just seeing someone so real and raw, it’s beautiful 🥺


when i saw this i immediately said "uh oh, the feels are comin"

kissingthimbles same. (also i love your picture)


dodie, i've been watching your videos for about 4 years. i love you so much. it's great to see you making videos again. i feel like i've grown up with you. and i just want to say, from the bottom of my heart, i hope you brush your hair❤


I'm so sad how much more put-together you are a 25 than I am at 32, but I am happy for you too.  I haven't watched your videos in ages, but I'm glad I've found you again, I've always thought you're such a lovely person <3 And I found you on YT Music, which is crazy!  You've become such a star, and you're only going to rise higher.  Stay strong and stay yourself


the irony of watching this at 20 years old while wondering to myself when I’m going to reconnect with my high school friends is a little bit too much for me


so much self-love, this was so nice and inspiring to watch. I've been following you since i was a teenager and this just gives me even more hope


little did 20 year old dodie know that 25 year old dodie would reply while in lockdown in the midst of a global pandemic


this video has moved me in ways I can't even comprehend right now. I'm turning 20 in august and I am going to write a letter to my 25 year old self today. I really needed that. thanks dodie. kisses from Brazil <3


5 years ago I was 14 and I had just gotten my first ukulele because of you! You inspired me to start music and I’m so glad I found you, your channel, and your music. ❤


So beautiful, so much emotion. I think it is something everyone would benefit from. It will give you clarity as you get older too knowing that whilst everything can change around you, you can and will get through.  Much love xxxx


being vulnerable and honesty is beautiful. thank you for showing how it's done and being okay with it <3 thank you


i feel like i now understand that it isn’t this way forever

doddlevloggle I- NAHDIDWOOSJDBDBWJOOSND OH MY GOD

deep breath thank you for the hope you’ve given me

doddlevloggle I- NAHDIDWOOSJDBDBWJOOSND OH MY GOD

*deep breath* thank you for the hope you’ve given me

The thing that brought that home the most for me was some of the more visceral stuff that has changed in 5 years—there’s a different house, different hair, and a whole album and tour that 20yo dodie hadn’t even dreamed of! Those are some big shifts, it’s cool to see how far you can go in just a short five years.

It really isn’t<br>If one thing on this earth is true it’s that things change!

It really isn’t
If one thing on this earth is true it’s that things change!


this actually gives me so much hope. its really inspiring. i've been going through hard times for the past like 7 years and this gives me hope.


gosh i can’t remember the last time i got this emotional watching a video i’m twenty and just as 20 y/o dodie started talking it hit me so hard and when 25 y/o dodie cried 7:06 i cried and just ooof :’)
(i read in the description that you read all the comments, so if you’re reading this right now i need you to know how much this video has helped me, i love you dodie)


I cried like a baby when you talked about tufty </3 Growing up is so hard! It's so nice to hear you reminiscing with 20 year old you... I'm 21 now and it's very comforting to know that I won't always feel this way. Change can be okay <33


omg i was bawling during this whole video. this touched my heart like no other video has. truly, thank you for  this. <3


“youre probably gonna feel like that for a while but then- then it actually does get better. genuinely. youll go through the worst of it ... and then youll actually come out feeling a lot better”
“it is the BEST time! i cant believe you have that to look forward to. it will change your life”
“some shit goes down, and everything changes but then everyones fine”
“all of the mess and memories are gone. and everyones okay”
“i think i was pinning a lot of happiness on sort of going back to the past and i think at some point, i dont know when, you learned to look forward for happiness”
“its really not as bad as you think”
“it will be so different and it will be okay”
!!!!!!! this stuff made me tear up oh my god oh my god dodie is so wise and beautiful and amazing im literally so amazed to see how much shes grown its insane. this is so freaking amazing

happy slightly belated anniversary to the the day i got perceived by dodie

thank u for writing these up!! I loved her wisdom here too. I cried with Dodie in there. And now while I'm writing this lol. My parents divorced a few years ago and last year we sold the house I grew up in and got rid of all the mess and the memories so that kind of hit me hard. I'm only 22 and I still worry a lot about whether I'll ever be, like, okay. this video honestly gave me a lot of hope. I'm graduating from university soon so it seems a good a time as ever to write a letter to future me.

it’s incredible how much she’s grown and how positively and calmly she handled something this heavy.

Same. Even reading this comment made me tear up again


This video made me cry as well, and it made me super hopeful for the future. I somewhat cried about the fact that I’ve been watching you since I was 12 and I’m 17 now, it makes me hurt for some reason, but in a good way. You remind me a lot of my sister and your videos make me feel so comforted, thank u for this video 🥰


This was such an adorable idea! Thanks for sharing this:)

Musical greetings - full of renewable energy!


this is the first video i've seen of dodies in a long time, and i'm really glad this is the video i come back and see. i can't believe how far thing's have come for you, dodie. i remember when that video was posted 5 years ago and i cant believe how much time has passed. i'm so glad you're doing well. <3


aww dodie I started crying with you! I've been watching you since those days, when you had a smaller following and I remember being gutted that I had to miss a concert where you were playing as support for Bry. Then I got to see you on your 'You' tour a few years later!! It's amazing to see how much you've grown as a person, a musician and a creative individual. Its so strange because now I'm just about to turn 20 next week and I realise how young you were, but I was 15 when watching you and I looked up to you sm as such a wonderful creative person. Man, the nostalgia is real! Thank you for sharing this with us, we all love you so much and we are so proud of you <3


“I did take a pregnancy test the other day, I was just bloated” ME OMG


I’m 19 years old and now I really want to do this for myself. Seeing you having the chance to reflect so much on how far you’ve come is amazing.


Watching this so late... This video is giving me so much hope 😊 I'm 22 soon, feeling a bit less lost as I did at 20, but not where you are yet. Gonna write myself a dear 25 letter


can’t believe i’ve been watching you for a whole 5 years💕 i’m so proud of you (and myself) for overcoming those years!!


Hi Dodie! Just wanted to thank you for your music & your videos. You somehow are always able to calm my anxiety & your songs articulate feelings in a way that I struggle to express myself. Life is hard, but you help me to know that it will be okay. :)


The human-ness is so cutting I don't even know the words to describe it


i turned 20 a few days ago. i remember when this video came out. i really felt this one. thank you dodie.


I’m trying not to cry so hard watching this. It’s so emotional and I can relate to lots of these things and it’s so cute❤


I wish I'd been able to make a video when I was 20 too for me now to see how different things are.<br>Thanks  for sharing this and well done you. It's great to see how far you've come along in 5 years.

I wish I'd been able to make a video when I was 20 too for me now to see how different things are.
Thanks  for sharing this and well done you. It's great to see how far you've come along in 5 years.


I’ve been watching dodie since I was 17, stumbled upon a video of her and Evan going to Dubai (to show my then 3 year old sister a plane before holiday) I’m now about to turn 23 and oh my does shit happen. But she’s been a constant in that time, comforting and just there. Thank you, dodie❤


“Ladies and gentlemen we’re gonna take a quick break”

Me at school when I have an anxiety attack

just hide in the bathroom and listen to dodie. that used to help a lot but then my anxiety got too bad so now i’m homeschooled 😍😍


It’s so nostalgic to me that I saw this when it came out. Life is so weird. I remember you and Lucy making vids back in the day (British tag was the first one!) and this is such a blast from the past. Love u Dodes


i remember watching the first video on my bed in my childhood room at 16, and i was just obsessed with you. this is cheesy, but i really feel like we’ve grown up together, we’re both so different than we were 5 years ago. this feels crazy to say, especially since you don’t know me and won’t ever see this, but thank you from the bottom of my heart. i can never thank you enough for how much you’ve taught me through your videos, and how comforting and soft and easy your content was for me when i was so young and scared. it’s because of you that i learned i have dpdr, and how to explain that to others in order to get the help i need. i hope that wherever you are and whatever you’re doing, you’re taking care of yourself in whatever way fits you best. no matter what, i’ll be thinking of you from time to time and sending you so much love. thank you dodie! <3


My sister and I are about the same age gap as you and yours and when you were talking about her I was sobbing - I had to text her and tell her I love her ❤ I’ve been watching since you filmed Dear 25 year old Dodie, so thank you


Ive been watching you a long time and ive grown up now, with you I suppose and though i dont catch the videos very often, this was nice. I literally turned 20 yesterday so it seemed like a good fit, glad to see youre doing okay Dodie.


The fact that she’s not looking at the camera, it makes it seem like she’s doing an interview and talking to an actual person

hehe true that, I viewed it as her addressing her 20yr old self :)


this made me so emotional. I remember when this video came out, i was 11 and madly obsessed with watching dodie's videos. I was scared for the future and growing older and becoming independent. I am now 16, and i haven't watched dodie in a while but i saw this and clicked it. I am now sat crying my eyes out haha. It made me look at my own life and how far i've come and how much has changed, and will change. Thank you for this video, it made me remember memories that i'd forgotten and what i felt like when you posted this video x


Big hugs! I only found your channel/music this year so I'm late to the party but I am continually blown away by your music and perhaps even more how you come across, your personality. I'm looking forward to watching all your future successes (and being able to be there, via youtube, for any tough times). Belated happy birthday!


Im so proud of this dodie and past dodie and this genuinely gives me so much hope for my future self, it made me cry happy tears. thanks girl :)


I literally teared up at a couple of points. ‘Are you happy? I hope you’re happy’ that one got me


20 yo dodie: "no offense, sorry"
25 yo dodie: "it's okay!"
It really is :')


It’s taken me some time to finally watch this video but I’m so glad that I did. When I was younger, I used to write letters to my future self. Normally it was for major events, but I haven’t done it in awhile.
I’m 20 now. I’m going to go write a letter for my 25 year old self now.
Thank you, Dodie :)


I feel like I spend my life wishing I was able to go back 5/10 years because depression is helping me waste my life. Does this ever stop??? I'm so glad I'm not the only one. Does anyone else feel like this? I'm 32 which is ancient compared to most Dodie fans but I relate so much to this. Thanks for the tears, you absolute beaut. Be happy chickies ❤


I wrote a letter for my 23 year old self when I finished high school in 2017. I'm excited to read it but a little scared that I won't have lived up to my own expectations


this has kinda inspired me to make a video like this for 25 year old me. crazy how much we grow and learn about ourselves. you're amazing dodie, we're so proud of you <3


when she was talking about being in tour around america, and being with wonderful people and preforming for them , i legitimately started crying. i cried almost as much as i did the night i saw her in concert. i saw dodie in colorado on september 28. it was literally one of the best nights of my life, and hearing her talking about performing on tour just hit something in me and i started crying. i loved every minute of the concert, and cried so much during When. the people there all comforted me and the atmosphere of that whole show was incredible. just let me sob for a minute and realize how much i actually need to see her again

Maggie Bishop thats crazy! what a small world haha

I saw her at The Depot in Salt Lake City on Monday, September 30. I've never cried herder in my life. I'd give everything and anything to go back and just live in those moments forever


i love this so much! 5 years doesn’t seem like that long but if i think about where i was five years ago and all i’ve been through it is WILD


i haven't really watched you for about 5 years but i watched this one and you seem so much happier. i'm so happy for you!


Aww Dodie I cried so much with you ),; I’ve subscribed to you since then probably and I didn’t really realise how much you’ve grown and matured but I’m so proud of you and all of your achievements and growth (,; you’ve become like a distant friend to me who I learn of her struggles and her interests and everything. Thank you for growing up with me! wish I could give you a hug ❤


i genuinely don’t think i’ve watched your videos since you were about 20, i went through the whole ukulele girl/dan and phil stage etc, but seeing this complete update on your life makes me really happy i’m so glad you’re doing better, it give me lots of hope for 19 year old me now :)


Love you and wish you the best :)<br>Ur amazing exactly how you are and have helped so many people and sparked happiness in so many more.

Love you and wish you the best :)
Ur amazing exactly how you are and have helped so many people and sparked happiness in so many more.


I saw dodie at the roundhouse I cried so much, it was so great to be part of a community of people similar to you, a great experience 😊💖😢


I was 15 when you posted the first one and I'm 20 now... and can I say how reassuring this was <3 I love you always thanks for sharing a bit of your heart with us


I remember when you posted the original video. I'm so proud of how far you've come.


Dodie: has a bit of a cry<br>Me: also has a bit of a cry because I realise that I can relate to a lot of stuff dodie and the fact she got through it makes me more hopeful that I can

Dodie: has a bit of a cry
Me: also has a bit of a cry because I realise that I can relate to a lot of stuff dodie and the fact she got through it makes me more hopeful that I can


i remember watching the original video 5 years ago when i was 14... i was going through so so much with depression anxiety and so many other things. Watching you look back in time like that makes me realize just how far ive come myself. Sometimes i don’t realize how much ive accomplished these past 5 years and how proud i should feel. I remember having to stop watching your videos for a while because i associated watching you with the horrible time i was going through. But im so glad im back and this video made me realize why i should feel proud for what not only what i have accomplished but you as well. I love you dodie... thanks for growing up with me ❤


You are so beautiful, dodie. I love you. Thank you for sharing your journey and life with us. I've been your follower for so many years. You've been my style icon... love you. Such a throw back!! ❤


Wow I went on a very similar emotional rollercoaster to you while watching this video and having a lot of the same feelings and fears that 20 year old dodie is experiencing but at least there’s hope


I honestly wish I did this. One of the most amazing things to do for yourself and it helps you feel so many emotions that make you feel human.


"It's not as scary as you think, when it happens.  It's just the way it is."

I needed that quote. My cats are old and I have small flares of anxiety a few times as week as I think about losing them and always hoping I have more time with them. I know it will be heart breaking, but those words help ease my current worries

I lost my childhood pet recently and I really wish I had heard those words before. It really isn’t as scary as it seems. It’s awfully tragic and horrible and sad but it’s also very serene and peaceful in a way that only death can be. Idk. Very weird and surreal, but yeah, not scary.


wtf i’ve been watching you for at least 5 years!!! i remember this video ahh. i’m so happy for you and how far you’ve come! <3


Dodie you’re so successful and I love love love your music, I’m so happy for you and I love your voice! Keep it up!


this made me so incredibly emotional. five years ago, i watched that video the day it came out, 12 years old, thinking about how i’d be 17 when i watched it again. i really looked up to 20 year old dodie. you’re so different and so much happier and IM so different, idk if i’m happier, but it’s just wild. i don’t wanna think abt a lot of these questions. i don’t want to think about a lot of these questions, or where i’ll be age 22, because i’m still really frightened. just crazy how much you shaped me as a person and that i’m kinda growing wish you but behind you. wish you the best <3


I can't believe it's been five years, I remember being such a huge fan of yours when the first one came out and I was so excited for you to reply in five years lmao I'm really proud of how far you've come xxxx


I just realised she didn't answer the 'are you happy' question, she just sighed. My heart broke :(

@Peach Plastic Yep. It helped a lot when I realized happy is more a feeling than a state of being. I learned to be more...content...in the present while continuing to reach for goals. It's that realization that the present of two sentences ago is already the past, and it is good to learn from and honor the past but not live in it. I WISH I had the mental health I do now in my 20s, even my 30s. At 25 my life was upended when I became permanently disabled after being hit by a hit and run driver on a training run. My daughter was 3. She is now 25 and married, trying to have a baby during a pandemic. Domestic violence, divorce, a fucking head injury that left me cognitively defective, my dad's death, a fire, A LOT of life has happened since 25, even in this last year. Yes, especially this last year.

Personally I wouldn’t like to ask myself am I happy, because what is happiness ? I’d rather ask my self if I’m at peace, am I appreciating the blessings around me. Happiness is a tricky word cuz it’s a big thing it’s just so hard to say I’m happy because no one is happy all the time. That’s why feeling at peace and satisfaction is more important to me.

i noticed it too but she did say it's better :(

I don't think it's so bad not to be happy. I'm happy when my mind is in peace.

@Peach Plastic ha they're right, when you're growing up you think happiness is a consequence of ticking boxes, you think it comes after you achieve or obtain things, like the day you have your first kiss, get into uni, find the girl, get the dream career, get the car, the house... but that's not it man. These things are all really great, but they're really all just milestones, markers along a much longer path consisting of all the work, progress and steps that went towards finally getting there. When you get a little bit older, you realise that most of your life isn't the thrill of getting there, most of your life isn't the day you lose your virginity, or graduate, or the day your first-born arrives, or the day you retire, or buy a massive yacht... most of your life is basically a Wednesday afternoon. Even for the person with the most exciting life, the majority of it is just a string of very normal moments.

And so the real question is revealed - what's your normal? How happy are you when you wake up in the morning? Before you’ve looked at your phone and had that good morning text, or before you’ve waltzed into the kitchen and realised you forgot to wash last night's dishes, how happy are you? Like I said, most days are normal days, and for most people, normal days are mundane. If you can open your eyes wide enough to see all the great things that the world has to offer, and let that seep into your bassline, maybe you could make your normal days good and your good days great.

That's what I think an overarching feeling of happiness is. If I had to put it into a sentence (maybe this sounds unrelated but I think it's all connected), I'd say that it's a lack of worry, it's having the knowledge that whatever happens in your life, it'll be alright in the end, and if it's not alright then that's also fine, because you've got the tools to deal with it and crack on

lmao hope you all enjoyed my lil rant

@Peach Plastic Happiness isn't a momentary feeling. Sounds like you may not have found it yet. Good luck.

I’m not to happy either but I’m sure it’ll get better soon...

We'll never be totally happy... all our emotions are holy and as worthy as 'happiness'

@Peach Plastic I guess it's more about overall fulfillment then, I suppose

@Peach Plastic damn. haven't even thought about it like that. damn

Eh, I mean, it's hard to set a momentary feeling as a universal life goal.


Dodie, you're literally the most beautiful person everrr, but know that we're all here for you and enjoy your videos <33 you're doing so great, and you've come so far and will come so much further in the future <333


I’m 20 right now and I related to too many of the things 20 year old Dodie said, but 25 year old Dodie’s responses made me more hopeful for the future.


The first time I saw dodie likr 5 years ago I knew to my very core that she was gonna make it and I cry everytime I see how much she's grown! I love you so much dodie and I hope you love you just as much!


As a big sister myself I broke down when you started crying and talk about Heidi, sibling relationships are the best ❤❤


11:30 when dodie said that she wouldn't go back, i felt so proud and happy for her. i could see SO MUCH change and it was really inspiring to me because she's a real life example of the light at the end of a tunnel. i feel such a deep connection because i grew up with dodie and i'm just gonna keep growing WOw <3

Me too I feel so happy seeing her content with herself


god i haven’t watched you in a hot sec. i just cried to some of your old songs, then wanted to see how you were doing. you are such a beautiful soul and always, always manage to cheer me up or teach me a lesson. i will always have you in my heart, dodie.


I dont normally find a lot of touching videos, but thank you for sharing this with us. Means a lot seeing the tears and smiles over 5 years of memories


Hi dodie! You're so cool and you're such a massive inspiration and you're a hero to me and i have so much love for you and i cant tell you how many times ive listened to your music at 2am during the Dark Times™ and i just, thank you. You mentioned you read all your comments so i hope you read this.

P.S I'm borrowing this idea from my blog i hope thats okay


this made me cry way more than i expected


"We got...animojis?"
*long sigh*
"Alright."

I felt that.

"We got...animojis?"
**long sigh**
"Alright."

I felt that.

Ruhi Soni lol I laughed when younger Dodie asked what phones were like now. Just the same, young Dodie, except bigger and faster. Cameras are better. That’s it


i watched that video when it came out, so to see this now at age 20 is so strange. i was a completely different person, as were you!! thanks for sharing dodie. i hope you have a good day


I remember watching this five years ago when this was posted and rewatching it today seeing the journey dodie has been on while following her and then thinking about the last five years of mY LIFE?!


i think what freaked me out the most was me realizing, while watching this, that like we all kinda grew up together? like i specifically remember this “version” of dodie and exactly who i was when i would watch this “version” of you. you’ve grown so much!! i love you dude!


dear 25 year old me<br>did you make it to being a 25 year old?

dear 25 year old me
did you make it to being a 25 year old?

you will! this video is PROOF that life does get better but it can take a year or two until you recognise that you're in a totally different place, keep fighting and life will soon be okay xxxx


You know that feeling, when you read a really good book, or see a really good movie where the characters have such a good development, you feel that sort of satisfaction, that ease.

i felt that same feeling when i watched this, i was there when 20 year old dodie postes her video rambling abt the future, and im proud to be here watching 25 yr old dodie more mature,  still as awesome and wonderful as ever but happier than ever before. Every single one of use who watched you become the person you are now are definitely crying with you while you answer 20 year old dodie's questions.

i know youre probably not going to read this from the amounts of comments you recieve, but, i want you to know that you made me realize that the future is indeed something to look forward to, that it does get better. Thank you dodie. Thanks for being you.

@doddlevloggle woke up to this notif :( love u, hope you're blessed alwayssss <3


I'm just so happy for you that you've grown into the person you are today!!! <3 <3 <3 I love that you just kept saying "It gets better" and I feel like you really meant it. And I believe in that too :')
It's crazy that I saw you live in AZ last year and that I get to be a part of your journey, even in the smallest way. And you get to be a part of mine!
I'm 21, so I think I'll record a video to my 26 year old self :)


Dodie I haven’t watched your videos since 2015 and I so happy for you and everything that you have achieved in this 5 years, I remembered when I watched you and sometimes I can’t understand because my English was so bad hahaha but I enjoyed your videos so much! <br>Thanks for doing this video, you helped with not be so afraid of future

Dodie I haven’t watched your videos since 2015 and I so happy for you and everything that you have achieved in this 5 years, I remembered when I watched you and sometimes I can’t understand because my English was so bad hahaha but I enjoyed your videos so much!
Thanks for doing this video, you helped with not be so afraid of future


This was so tear jerking and so adorable at the same time


Watching this at age 20 is really inspirational. I actually remember watching this video when it came out and I was just 16. Back then I thought about writing a letter to myself, but I decided against it. Sometimes I look back at what 15 y/o me thought my life will like now and although it's really different from what I imagined it to be, I know that I am definitely much happier now, although the last year has been tough. But I always try to live with this thought in the back of my head that my life got better in the past years and so I hope it will get better in the years to come. To see how you are better now than back then just gives me more hope that in 5 years maybe also I'll be a bit happier and less afraid.


OMG I CAN’T BELIEVE I HAVE WAITED FOR THIS FOR FIVE YEARS WHAT DO YOU MEAN FIVE YEARS?????!!!!!! HOW OLD AM I EVEN NOW WTF LMAO HOW TIME FLIES

glad to know we’re all having the same feelings watching this

it do really be like the years start comin and they don't stop comin


dodie you are such a pure, kind and wonderful person and you genuinely make me feel like I'm going to be alright and that life will be okay (or at least a bit more okay) in a couple years. You deserve all the happiness and I really hope that one day you find it


i miss the days when you’d post your deepest thoughts, but i’m glad that you are well and don’t need that anymore. this was so emotional, love you dodie


Hello Dodie, I just found you last week and became an instant fan <3 Happy belated birthday


I literally cry at the same point she does in this video every time I watch it. Damn this hurts <3


They say: if you are depressed, you're living in the past. If you are anxious, you're living the the future. If you are at peace, you're living in the present. Don't know why this vid made my think of this hmmm. Loved this video... it's like talking to that friend that completely understands how you feel and see the world XXX

@Esther Fichtenholz yeah like they said, my anxiety are all caused because of things in the past but my fear is cored in the "what if it happens again?" Or even sometimes "what if people find out?"

@Esther Fichtenholz you've probably turned those past issues into fears about how the future will pan out. Like you view things differently due to the past and it's changed your expectations

That's stupid, so much of my anxiety stems from things that happened a while ago


I was smiling through out the video (I sound creepy). But it was because it was really wholesome to see this. Reflection, talking to your youngerself and all, it's cute. I don't watch much of your videos, but this was very heart warming. ❤


Seeing you cry made me want to cry :'( it's been such a journey watching you grow. I'm 19 and I'm trying to figure stuff out for myself, I hope I can say I've gotten myself together like you when I'm 25. Hmm, just thinking about being 25 is so weird. I'm terrified of the future just like past dodie haha. It was great to see you interacting with past dodie in such a friendly way though, makes me want to write my future self a letter too :)


I have not related more to a video in a very long time. I am at 23 now and 20 year old me lived so far in the past too, and we recently also got the answer we needed to find peace and start building our future! I am so happy you are in a better place, and that you've come so far along in your growth. We are on the path living in the now, working for the future and we learnt from the past and stopped living in it. I hope I still agree at 25. Much love.