I found myself answering the questions you posed to yourself as if I had asked them to me when I was 20, and the things that have changed in my life since that age are astounding. I can’t imagine how she would feel if she had known what she was going to face.


dodie calling her 20 y/o self “babe” is evERYTHING


this video is so comforting it gives me hope that yea ill make it through !!! it gets better and ill be happier, i just need to hold on ☺


I really appreciate that you talked about your parents and didn’t cut it out. My parents are going through something too and it’s so comforting to know that you got through it :)


I’ve followed and grown up along side dodie since 2013 so to say this video made me feel some sort of way would be an understatement


This is made me cried a lot because you helped me deal with my depression at my 20s through your experience. I'm 24 now and I feel so much better now


I’m about to turn 18 soon and I remember watching “dear 25 year old me” when I was 13 and terrified of getting older, graduating high school, planning for college, trying to find love and dealing with my really bad depression, etc. Now watching “hello 20 year old me” and being just almost 18 is nerve racking but so exciting because I’m graduating in May, going to my dream college away from home with the love of my life, and managing my depression so much better than before is absolutely crazy to me. (Dodie saying her depression is almost like a friend now is something I really connected with) I’ve been watching Dodie for sooo many years and to feel like we’ve almost grown up together is something I cherish because she has gotten me through many tough times and she still does to this day. Thank you for reacting to this and giving me comfort and reassurance that the future doesn’t have to be so scary :)

Turned 18 in January and had like a moment of realization lol it was kinda weird like something clicked. Maybe it's a stepping stone thing so maybe it'll happen again at 21 I'm just gonna let time flow, you know bro

I'm 14 now and im so scared but reading this is giving me a bit of confidence with the future

I had a very similar experience, I was 14, I’m 18 now and it’s so weird to see how far we’ve all come. I feel like I’d have a similar reaction as dodie did.

MeganKxy thank you this helped me a lot right now being  16 :)


it feels so bizarre to have been watching your videos this 5 YEARS omg I love that u are better know, you were a lot of comfort for my 13 y/o self. love you


I had never watched such a video. It was a great video idea. You're a true artist, Doodle!


i fell in love with 20 year old dodie, i don't watch her much anymore but this hit a soft spot for me as someone who looked up to dodie five years ago, brb i'm crying


it's so weird not seeing dodie sharing her life anymore but im just happy that she's in a better place and doesn't feel reliant on the internet for validation


I’m also 25 and I’m here to confirm so much change happens and it does get better!!!! THANK YOU DODIE for posting this lol saw you at the LA Palladium show. I didn’t expect there to be so many kids >.< but I still enjoyed my wine in line lol and since you read all your comments I got “6/10” tattooed behind my right arm! ❤❤❤


i watched you 5 years ago and i remember seeing this video. i cried with u even though its not my life. im so happy you and your sister are happy and healthy.


I caught up on all your videos in the past two days and I cant wait for more beautiful music from such an honest soul you are way too precious for this world, Please sit up straight relax your tongue, drop your shoulders and breathe deep, the lightworkers need a positive you


It is wild to watch this. I remember watching the original vid 5 years ago and now stumbling upon this. Cheers to past and present you. It's really amazing to see the growth.


Doddie getting surprised when something hasn’t changed is so cute. It’s like “Oh my god! I do that! Oh wait it’s me”

Good noodle - 100th comment! Hello  good noodle! love your name!


As someone who is also 25, and who  has really struggled with pretty severe depression and mental health issues since some trauma that happened when I was 18, I also spend most of my time wishing I was 15-16 or wishing I was older and at a place in life where Im finally happy. Hearing 20 year old you expressing these sentiments that I so strongly relate to and have done since you said them 5 years ago, and then hearing you say that it gets better and that you've worked through that pain and rewired your brain....I know its a cliche but it gives me so much hope. Im so happy that you are no longer in that place because it truly is a terrible way to live, and I wish you all the best. I hope I can join you on the other side of what seems like an insurmountable obstacle, but knowing you got there too makes it seem a little more manageable. Thank you


I just clicked on this from Recommended. Keep going Dodie. This was the hardest portion of my life, but keep going and it just gets easier and better, I promise.


Damn. I love both dodie's, but this video made me full on cry. Started thinking about my own worries and memories and etc.


I have no idea how many times I have watched this video. I spent years wishing it was 2014 again. Part of me still does truly.<br>I wrote a spoken word piece about it, and got it all out. Once I've performed it (thanks covid) I hope I'll be at peace with it. Thankyou dodie x

I have no idea how many times I have watched this video. I spent years wishing it was 2014 again. Part of me still does truly.
I wrote a spoken word piece about it, and got it all out. Once I've performed it (thanks covid) I hope I'll be at peace with it. Thankyou dodie x


my aesthetic is dodie calling herself “babe”


this video makes me think about how far I've come too. I remember watching the original video right when it was uploaded and thinking about how far away 5 years from then was. I was struggling with depression, and a year later I tried to take my life. It has been a long uphill struggle, but I'm so proud of where I am now. I truly thought I could never have a future, I could never get over my depression and anxiety. Since then, I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and now I can understand why I've felt so up and down and all over the place my whole life. Now I know what to expect and how to prepare and cope when things get bad, and how to push through. I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I just need to hold on until the bad times are over. I have job I love that I've been at for 3 and a half years. I even have been promoted and taken on my first position as a supervisor. I didn't think I could ever do that. I went back to school and am on the path towards getting my degree. I've come out to all my friends and family and been accepted by everyone but my parents. And even though my parents still don't approve, we have a good relationship and no longer fight and yell every day. I graduated from therapy after thinking I could never be well enough to do that. & I'm moving across the country in a few months to live by my older sister in the city I've always wanted to live in. I almost wish I had a made a video like this back then so I could see how much I have really grown, but honestly back then I didn't think I'd live to this age. I'm so so proud of me and how far I've come. I think I might write a letter today for my future self to read. Because unlike me five years ago, I actually believe that I can and will have a future, one filled with love and happiness.


you’re the sweetest soul. you had me crying with you:)


I lost your channel for so long and came back to this video and I’m so emotional 😭  turned 26 in February and I’m still not ok LOL you’re beautiful!!!


That was very interesting to me. I'm 23, somewhere between the 2 versions of you, related to a few things and some got me a bit of peace. Nice to see you grew up well.


"how's mom, how's dad,"
".... Ladies and gentlemen we're gonna take a short break"
Goes to sob in a corner
Most relatable and bittersweet thing I've ever seen

Edit: hOLy sHiEt the likes wth

"how's mom, how's dad,"
".... Ladies and gentlemen we're gonna take a short break"
*Goes to sob in a corner*
Most relatable and bittersweet thing I've ever seen

Edit: hOLy sHiEt the likes wth


I love this. I discovered you 5 years ago  when I was 20 and at university... I was so so jealous of your life and how 'together' you seemed. You were my idol...

 I'll be honest and say I haven't followed your journey that closely in the past 5 years as life has a way of whisking time away... But after seeing this... And your growth and how you now view your beautiful life... I am so proud of you!

I'm now 25 aswell, and this resonates so much with me. And it's made me reflect on my own life in the past 5 years.... And A LOT has happened! In fact I'm due to give birth in 2 weeks 😱 definitely didn't think that was going to happen 5 years ago 😂

But I just want to thank you so much for sharing this with us all Dodie. You're amazing and I cannot wait to see where your journey takes you from here. Thank you and I hope you had a wonderful birthday despite lockdown. -Lucy


you are beautiful, I love your music and how vulnerable it is--it truly speaks to me. Thank you for braving the storm of youtube to reach people like me. God Bless


I really enjoyed this style of video, there was just something very soothing but also very emotional about the way you chose to answer and speak to younger self. Had a little cry but I loved it, truly


You seem much more at peace with life. I'm happy that you're happy. Good vibes and well wishes. Be brave. Be strong. Be you. :)


I love the fact that 20 years old dodie wanted to be happy and okay in a way at 25 and your happy in a different way that she couldn't think of. I cried when you cried bc I feel like your my friend bc of your music and videos but we have never met.<br>You are literally therapy for me so thank you.

I love the fact that 20 years old dodie wanted to be happy and okay in a way at 25 and your happy in a different way that she couldn't think of. I cried when you cried bc I feel like your my friend bc of your music and videos but we have never met.
You are literally therapy for me so thank you.


I cried the whole way through this omg. The parents part hit hard! Made me reflect on how much I’ve grown from when I was 17 till now 😢 literally so much has changed.

And the “are u happy?” Question 🥺 depends on the day past me x


This video came to my life in the right moment because I have already 20 and i feel the same. Thank you.


This is such a lovely video especially since I'm about to turn 20 so it's so interesting to see you look back like this.


it honestly felt as though you were talking to my younger self, thank you for this video I needed it.


me, in the midst of bawling my eyes out: <b>types “ask doctor about spironolactone” in my notes app</b>

me, in the midst of bawling my eyes out: *types “ask doctor about spironolactone” in my notes app*

Zaina Soliman congrats, the queen noticed u 😮

bro it works i’ve been on it for like 3 years now


I remember watching this back in the day at 19 feeling so so many similar things. So wild how long ago that was. In one way it doesn't feel like that long ago but then again things are so different.<br>Trying not to think about it too much because this is A LOT but this was a cool thing to do and well done for actually doing it. I know it doesn't really fit with who you are now to post a video like this but it was satisfying to see the response to that video and I don't know what I'm trying to say but I found a lot of good in your content back then so 24 year old me thanks you for giving baby me some feeling I wasn't alone. I still feel it now I guess because I'm still loving your music and stuff. you seem to have some really good relationships(but what do i know) and I'm really happy for you for getting this far also you have a mortgage holy poop well done you, so sensible. I just realised you might not see this as the video was put up days ago but i kinda hope you do if this turns out to be a nicer comment. i don't know really i'm a bit teary after this but not in a negative way. okay i'm gonna go eat some banana loaf now i think it has cooled down. x

I remember watching this back in the day at 19 feeling so so many similar things. So wild how long ago that was. In one way it doesn't feel like that long ago but then again things are so different.
Trying not to think about it too much because this is A LOT but this was a cool thing to do and well done for actually doing it. I know it doesn't really fit with who you are now to post a video like this but it was satisfying to see the response to that video and I don't know what I'm trying to say but I found a lot of good in your content back then so 24 year old me thanks you for giving baby me some feeling I wasn't alone. I still feel it now I guess because I'm still loving your music and stuff. you seem to have some really good relationships(but what do i know) and I'm really happy for you for getting this far also you have a mortgage holy poop well done you, so sensible. I just realised you might not see this as the video was put up days ago but i kinda hope you do if this turns out to be a nicer comment. i don't know really i'm a bit teary after this but not in a negative way. okay i'm gonna go eat some banana loaf now i think it has cooled down. x


This video makes me so happy! I'm 25 this year as well and I remember watching 20 year old dodies video!! Wow this is crazy!! 💕


I send you so many virtual hugs, I was in the same place in 2016 and this almost reminds me of myself. I love you so much <3 You're so amazing :D


This touched me. Like a lot. I did not know I was gonna get so emotional… I was crying like 5 times throughout this video and laughing. I’m 20 now and I really relate to some parts of 20 year old you and some things 25 year old you said. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. I guess this helped me somehow. Thank you, Dodie! I’m glad that you are there! Lots of love from Germany. Lena


When you said “I wish I could play [my songs] for her... I wonder what she’d think” I started SOBBING and I don’t even know why! The thought of being able to comfort your past self is... a huge thing. (also I lowkey miss your short hair, like Feb 2017ish, but also I love whatever makes you happy <3 )


This video made me want to subscribe to you. This is so unapologetically you and it’s amazing. Thanks for this it made me feel things about my life in perspective about the past and the future. This was a Great idea! Can’t wait to binge watch your videos...btw your music is amazing 😉


This is such a beautiful idea to 'actually communicate' with your self, I love it!! <3


im 20 rn and i relate so hard to 20 yr old you. all of the things that you're saying bring me so much hope. i may or may not have balled my eyes out to this video but thank you so so so much


This video was beautiful and makes me wish I had done the same thing. The person I was five years ago has no idea how much they would experience between then and now.


I turn 21 in two days and this has inspired me to write a letter to my 25-year-old self!


When I saw you cry, I just wanted to hug you. I don’t know you personally, I probably never will, but I just... empathized? It’s amazing to see how much you’ve grown in a certain way, tho. 🥰


This is strangely comforting... made me have a bit of hope for how much things can change


Had a good cry exactly when you did for same reasons. And hearing you reassure yourself, reeeally felt like you're talking to me, who is 20 rn :] Currently, ive been feeling helpless, like how could anything repair the tears in life right now. But you look so little at 20, I guess thats how I look to others now. Thanks for reminding me that there's so much growth ahead.


it feels like yesterday that dodie had short hair and a fringe😔

I met her that year (the only time I did) and it does feel like yesterday 🥺

sanaia yes same!! the space buns r adorable!!

vending machine oreos righttt i think the one that i immediately did was like the one with the two space buns up top

sanaia omg same dodie inspired me to cut my hair bcos her short hairstyles were all so cute🥺

sanaia ok lmao so did I except I got it cut like 2 months ago

vending machine oreos honestly i remember i cut my hair short and immediately watched her video on short hairstyles for some inspiration. i was so excited


For the past 2 years I've been in this "I wanna go back" mood. It really is wuite difficult to look forward instead of backwards to find happiness


Wow. This gave me so many feelings. I cried with you. I have watched your videos since before you were twenty and now I will be twenty in twenty days. My goodness am I proud of you. Thank you for being here today and doing what you do. Thank you for showing others that there is happiness and hope and even sadness in the world too and that it's all good and okay. I don't have enough words to say how much you and all that you do means to me.


this video made me cry because you are SO forgiving of yourself, you can visibly see it as you reply to yourself. i love this.


leaving in the lil crying bit made me feel so happy & validated about little breakdowns I have sometimes :')) thank you so much for the reality of things <3


I’m going to be 20 soon, and as someone who’s terrified of the future, this was super comforting 💛

It's scary, but after you turn 21 you start to realise that being a proper adult isn't quite as bad as you think it is. You find that you manage just fine, because everyone else your age is in the same boat, no matter how "together" they seem to have it.

Take it from someone turning 22 in July. You're gonna do great~💕

Coming from a 24 year old, you’ll be just fine💖

mariah I’ll be 21 in June ☺ 20 has been the best year of my life (until this weird little quarantine hiccup). I don’t feel any different than I did as a teenager, except a little wiser and a little more aware that things will be okay in the end. I guess there’s some existential dread, but I try to combat that by trying to do something I love every day. I’m still so young & I can’t wait to see where I’ll be 5 years from now!

I dreaded turning 20 but now, like Dodie, 25 this year, I feel so much more settled in life. Its scary, but it also allows you time to be more accepting of who you are, where you are and what you want :)


Hi dodie, I really really hope I could meet you someday! You helped me in pretty much all my bad times since I meet your channel in my early teen years. Right now I'm 20 in a middle of a pandemic :p, it's awful because I was really depressed for so many years and when I finally get better the world got messier. Anyways, everytime I fear the future because of those crazy things that we all been living I comeback to this video to remember that things change for the better :)
Someday I will be brave enough to sing somewhere that's not my bedroom, just like you!
You are a amazing human being, don't forget it ❤❤❤


Wait... I actually remember watching that video when you were 20. Wow, you grew a LOT, not that past Dodie wasn’t super lovely, just ... time progressed and you worked through some shit and it shows in a good way? You can be super proud of yourself. I hope this doesn’t sound offensive....not meant that was at all.


i cried along with dodie while i watched this video. i've been watching her videos since she first started, and i think i also have a bit of a hard time with time passing and things changing. seeing 20 year old dodie and the way she spoke and acted reminded me of the older times on youtube and what my own life was like back then (even further back than 5 years ago, more like 8-10 years ago). youtube was a big part of my life and its so strange seeing dodie grow and change, and of course my life has changed drastically too. just... emotional lol i love you dodie <3


this made me cry at the end because of how relatable old dodie's fear of growing is... i'm 21 and feel like life is running away from me (especially with all this isolation and being in my house basically doing nothing for the past three months)


I come back and watch this video every now and then to remind me of how much things can change and how much better they can get. I’m recording my Dear 30 Year old me video next week, not for YouTube but for me. Love this video Dodie!!


It's only been five months, but my life and mind have changed/grown so much that this video just hits different. I can relate more and I can feel this in my soul in a way I couldn't when I first watched it. I should definitely do this for myself because it's kind of a wonderful idea.


i havent ever followed dodie, but this is still making me emotional <3


I literally cried watching this but it was a completely incredible video. 😭💜


i would do anything for a dear 30-year-old me video. this one really touched my heart and made me reflect. seeing dodie feel how I felt at 20 and reflect like am i now in my life HIT ME HARD!! it reminds me why i subscribed to her in the first place years and years ago. her honesty with her audience means the world to me and im so happy to see her grow on this journey. xx


How odd to think when I began watching you I was 4 years younger than you. I loved "Rain" by the way. Even when it was on the old prerecorded piano with vocals in that garage(?). Welp, I turn 21 next month. I may make a video for 25 year old me. I remember watching your makeup video so I could learn to do that thick eyeliner and brows like you did. 😂 I've viewed you as a big sister through these years, and I'm so proud of you and how far you've come. You're such an inspiration to me, and have been for so many years. Wishing you love and luck. ❤🍀


as someone who just turned 19 and identifies strongly with younger dodie, i hope things go as well for me as they did for you. im in university and i dont feel like i have a purpose yet, but this gave me a lot of hope.


You’re so unique is many ways and this response video is just another reason why I love you so much!  🥺💛 Everyone is scared at one point, but once life happens, it happens. This was incredible. Definitely hope to see one at 30! Hahah


Ty for making wonderful music for me to cry to when the dark shadow of depression comes back :]


The part where you go "you played- oh my god, you've played so many places" instantly makes me tear up because I think this simple section shows so much about your growth as a person. I feel like 20 year old Dodie would have been sad about them being over, but I think you've learned to accept what had passed, and just appreciate what experiences you've had the opportunity to live through. I love seeing you be excited for your past self, knowing what good things are to come, and of course you of all people know how much you deserve it. Ugh, this whole video is so beautiful, I've watched it three times now, and I've already cried countless times Dodie. This is coming from someone who watched you around that time, but I didn't realize it had been 5 years for both of us already. I was personally 13, had the entirety of my high school career ahead of me, and now I've lived through all of it, and I'm simply glad to be in college. I'm still scared of the future, that hasn't changed too much, but I'm no longer holding onto the past, and that's enough of a win for me for now. I understood what you meant when you asked about repairing that one relationship. I've finally learned that some people do not deserve my effort, because for me personally, she could visit her best friend in LA, but she couldn't even send me a text back. And that's okay. I know that I have other people who love and care about me, and by laying that friendship to rest, it allows me to appreciate the people who truly do deserve my love, and I have so much to give, but I also take care of myself now. There's so much more that I can say, but I'll save that for a physical letter to myself. And to anyone who has read this, then thank you, and I hope you have a nice day.

Bomboclat that's long can you summarise it foe me please


Dodie, I hope you read this! Thank you so much for posting this. When I saw your original video to our older self (current self?) it inspired me to do the same thing. So I started recording myself, and I hated it and deleted it. So I ended up writing a letter to myself to look at in five years. I honestly forgot about it until now and both your videos and the letter helped me realize that the future is scary, the unknown is scary, but that we can make it to the other side, better and stronger. I respect the amount of strength it takes to be vulnerable to the void that we call the internet. Dodie, you are an amazing person and I'm so glad that I live in a time where I get the privilege to listen you. Thank you.


Ah shit this made me cry I was there for the first video I was 14 and holy fuck so much has changed. I’m happy you’ve grown into yourself more and accomplished so many wonderful things :’) Idk what to say I’m just very proud


I didn’t expect to be alive and now seeing this video made me cry too because I was like wow time passes so fast and time truly heals a lot of wounds I IMMA CRY SOME AWE DODIE I SO PROUD I LOVE YOU


oh god oh god the part where you're crying about your family and your parents hit me really hard and now i'm bawling because i know that my family is quickly entering that Mess like Right Now and it's fucking terrifying and i'm so so scared. but also hearing you say that it gets okay is really something i needed to hear so thank you


„this is the face of someone who is not ready to continue“ was the cutest, direct and most honest added text in there

And she still did. It's like life, even when you're not ready for it you still get through


its crazy how long ive been watching dodie, she's honestly like a sister/best friend to my and has helped me through so much and im so incredibly thankful that ive had her through the years. i love her like family and plan on watching her till she grows old and quits youtube.


i started watching you around the time the first video was filmed. i was 13, and i’ve just turned 18 this year. so much has happened in between then and now, and i feel like the last five years have been so out of my control and as if i always let everything that could have been good pass me by. i wasted so much of my adolescence being unhappy. i graduate next week and then i’ll be off to college in the fall. i really hope that in this new part of my life i don’t make the same mistake of waiting to be happy the way that i did and that i can feel as proud of myself as you are in this video.


this made me realise I watched the first video at eleven... and how much I've changed since then... and how much I will change again in the years to come. but most importantly it made me realise that things aren't as bad as they seem and they'll get so, so much better. there's so much I haven't experienced yet.


while i’m sure the next five years will be remarkably different for me, but i’m currently 20 and you talking about learning to look towards the future versus the past really hits home. thank you. i needed to hear that❤❤


I started crying at the same time dodie started crying.
I can’t believe it’s been 5 years since that video - i remember watching it when I was 15. Now I’m 20 and so much has changed, but at the same time not that much. I’m still the same person, going through life, trying my best. I’ve lost a few friends and gained some new ones, lived in new places, started uni, and have come farther in figuring out who I am.
I might write myself a letter. I regret not doing so when I watched the video 5 years ago, but I think now is also a good time.
I’m excited to see what 25 year old me will be like <3

@MO I hold u in the highest respect. thank u

@lindsey the spy I see your a man of culture then

I would like this but it has 69 likes and I'm not gonna be the one to change that


Currently 21 and upset in my room about parent stuff. This gives me hope that in 4 years things will be better.


I turned 20 in 2020, and I sometimes come back to this video because I feel like I'm in a similar place to 20 year old Dodie...I also want to make a video for my future self, at least so I can get some things off my chest, if nothing else.<br>I'm so happy you're doing better nowadays, Dodie, and I've been loving your new music. Keep it up! ❤

I turned 20 in 2020, and I sometimes come back to this video because I feel like I'm in a similar place to 20 year old Dodie...I also want to make a video for my future self, at least so I can get some things off my chest, if nothing else.
I'm so happy you're doing better nowadays, Dodie, and I've been loving your new music. Keep it up! ❤


This is hard to watch with dry eyes. This is so relatable ❤ Thank you cutie


Thank you so much for leaving the crying in and not editing it out (even though you would totally be in the right if you had) because it lets me know that it’s ok to feel like that and cry like that. Thank you xxx


i’m crying because i’m 16 right now and time is going by so fast and i’m scared to grow up            edit: thank you all for the kind comments <3

Also 16 and scared out of my mind but I guess we’ll just have to figure stuff out as we get older cause it’s got us this far already aha

These comments and this video have me crying so hard. I'm 16 tight now too and i know how you feel. It's so reassuring reading all the comments from people older than me, saying it'll be alright. Thank you!

don't be. you have so many amazing things to look forward to. your life is just going to become richer. deeper relationships, bigger experiences, so much more love. for yourself and for other people. more patience, more understanding. it feels really good to get to know yourself.

as a 16 year old I can relate, the concept of being older is so uncomfortable, but these comments are super comforting <3

bruh these comments are so lovely I’m cryin

Kinley Richards I just turned 17 and I miss being 16 :(

I'm 21 and let me tell you it's actually not that bad! A lot of things are different, of course, but I like myself a lot better now than I did 5 years ago. I lost contact with some friends, but I met amazing new ones and I don't know how I could ever live without them! I feel like people always act like your teens will be the best part of your life, and I believed that too when I was younger, but that's absolute bullshit. I mean some things still suck now, and time goes by faster every year, but that's just life I guess xD but you will be fine, trust me <3 (Also turning 18 is hella cool freedom babeyyy)

growing up is hard... but it's worthwhile. you'll know so much more about yourself. you'll realize your strengths & weaknesses, you'll be so much more confident in who you are. you'll learn to love & take care of yourself even more than you ever have.
i'm 21 (so five years older than you, funnily enough) & i'm such a different person compared to who i was at 16. life is different & still a bit scary, but it's better.
just remember that you don't have to get everything right immediately. or at graduation. or when choosing a major or a career. you have so much life ahead of you! everything will work out! figure out what is important to you & put your all into it! & maybe five years from now you'll see that growing up is actually pretty cool 😊

I was the same. I thought the older I got the closer I got to the end, to life being over. But that’s not true. The only thing that you get closer to is change, good, welcome, necessary change. Life is quite long you will have more than enough time to do everything you need and want to do. In five years SO much has changed for me, all of it positive, I know the same will happen for you. Don’t be scared of change it is inevitable. If anything look forward to all the things you’ll get to do that you haven’t done yet. There’s so much time :)

It comes one day at a time 💕 you just keep on keeping on

Kinley Richards hi! I’m 20, and damn! I know 16-year-old-me felt the same way!  But, I say to you (and to my 16 year old self) that I promise it will be okay! No matter what direction your life goes, no matter what the situation is, I promise that you will just know more about yourself as you get older. That’s one thing I didn’t realize at 16 - learning more about yourself is a lifelong journey and it’s hard and scary but also so so so rewarding.

26 year old here! 16 is a beautiful time, but so is 19, and 21, and 26. :) This video is such a great representation of that! There is an incredible wonderful intensity to your teens, but there is also a really beautiful power to your college / uni years and man, your first years out the gate and into real adult world are so much and so life-changing! And then figuring it out, settling into your mid-twenties is so sweet. I’m sitting in my studio apartment right now, eating chocolate, with my foster dog snuggled on my lap, and as Dodie said: I wish younger me could see me now! She’d be so thrilled. Enjoy the journey and trust: there are peaks and valleys but there is so much awesome life ahead of you :)

I'm 17. (turning 18 in July)
Yes growing up is scary but so far it's not that bad.
I don't know about you but from 16-17 my life got a whole lot better so if you're anything like me, you've got amazing things to look forward to.

hiya!! dunno if this feels a lil intrusive but i'm 19 rn so i guess i've pretty much Grown Up™??? i definitely did feel scared when i was younger abt the concept of getting older. like there was a feeling of maybe running out of time?? but honestly i'm so glad to be older now. being 14/15 was definitely the worst time of my life and the further i grow from that time the better i feel.

again soz if this feels like unsolicited advice!! just wanted to give some reassurance that the future doesn't need to feel scary. things have a way of working out (if anyone wants to message me abt this feel free to hmu!!)

attempt to take comfort in the inevitability of change. you are going to grow older and there is absolutely NOTHING you can do about it. instead of dwelling on the fears tied to growing, understand that you have no choice and make the most of it!

I'm 23 and it's hella amazing! I love my flat, I love my friends, I love my work and studies. You'll be fine, don't be afraid. There's a lot of amazing possibilities ahead.

Growing up is scary. You'll crush it though!

Kinley Richards oh my god not to be cliche but that is exactly me time needs to sLOW downnnn


My grandpa is 94! 5 years ago I probably would have asked myself if he would still be here. I am so grateful he is.


Cried because I totally understand feeling the weight of everything thats happened in between. I also suffer from derealization pretty much all the time and I really appreciate having someone else discuss these issues. Its been a major help. Sending lots of love to you and your family. Don't know how I missed this when you posted it. 🌻💛


I used to watch 20-year-old Dodie, but it was hard to see because I’d been struggling through my own, sort of similar issues at the same time as she was. I stopped watching for a few years, and this is the first video of yours I’ve seen since then.

When YouTube suggested this video, even though it had been 4 years since I’d seen anything Dodie, I knew I had to watch it. I loved twenty-year-old Dodie so much. I wanted to know how she’d been doing - I still cared even after 4 or so years. Twenty-year-old Dodie probably didn’t know it, but she was so lovable and wonderful as she was, and I couldn’t forget her. After watching, I have found that, as I suspected, I also love 25-year-old Dodie very much and won’t forget her anytime soon:) I’m so glad you’ve been doing better than then. (I‘m doing better too.)


This video hit me hard, I didn't know we were the same age and seeing the 20 year-old you and all the anxiety and how she was not ready to grow, and I remember being in the exact same place mentally.
 Now I'm soooo much better with myself and i finally want to live and all the thoughts about wanting to end my life ended completely.
Wow we really do change and the most amazing thing is to think about how we went from one person to another, all the things that happen in between that made us who we are nowadays.
Thank you doddie for making us feel such a genuine good feeling, you are very especial to all of us ❤❤❤


This feels like watching a conversation between two different people. I remember watching that dodie. I feel like we´ve all watched so much growth happen while we´ve also grown ourselves. These two people are not the same!


Oh my days I love this video so much. I'm 21 now and DEALING with that. This video made me feel a little less scared.


I'm 23 and still feel like 20-year-old Dodie. I'm so lost. I've been feeling like this for so long. I thought life would be so different by now.


I’m gonna rant sorry :
when I see other people sad or crying I feel myself suddenly feeling sadness with them. Like even if I don’t know them personally. Especially seeing people that I love, such as dodie, cry I just feel my heart fall into my stomach. I’m going to be honest when I say I’ve been avoiding this video for that exact reason because my heart can’t handle seeing her cry 😭😭 and like hearing her talk about her cat made me tear up; my dog passed away not to long ago and we had her since I was 2 years old so it hurt a lottttt

This was still an amazing video and I’m glad I finally watched it. I was thinking of doing a thing like writing a letter to myself and opening it when I’m 26 since I’m 16 so 10 years from now so
sorry for the rant I just feel like this channel is such a safe space for not just me but a lot of people to say what’s been in their hearts :))


"all of the mess and the memories are gone"

That hit hard...


I feel emotional watching this - because I watched the old video come out on the day it came out. I. Am. Emotional. Love u Dodie 🥺💕


I’d love to see a video from you about how your song writing process is.


God, what a damn beautiful soul right there.<br>You are the only one who can make me cry without feeling really bad.

God, what a damn beautiful soul right there.
You are the only one who can make me cry without feeling really bad.


i literally sobbed throughout this entire video i think i’m gonna make one too i love you


it really helped me to watch this. Somehow i dont feel so bad about being lost in my life anymore. Cuz somewhere theres a 25 year old me looking back at me with love and encouragement


i just turned 20 less than an hour ago. i remember when the original video came out and i was so sad and wished i was 20. now i’m here and i’m hoping i come back to this when i turn 25 🤍


damn I remember watching the original video when it came out. and yeah, the growth in 5 years, I relate


I'm just finding this 6 months after the fact.  But it was lovely and heartwarming.  Thank you for sharing it.


dodie i'm sosososo proud of how far you've come you're incredible and such an inspiration <3


Im only a year younger at 24 and I grew up watching and admiring Dodie, and its almost beautiful to really see this. I've seen her grow as I have been. Its so lovely to really really see how mature and how much more confident she is. I almost am in a position where as I get closer to 25 I miss being 21/22. I was happiest then, and its hard to let go of that and let yourself experience life and continue to grow into a slightly different person. I dont know. This video was just so so meaningful to watch. I cried through the whole thing, it was impossible for me not to. Im so happy for her and just hope she continues to grow into the wonderful human she is.


20 year old me is currently not having a very good time. Thanks for the hope Dodie! Loved this video


this ruined me in the best ways, exactly the way I thought it would. 4 years ago when I found you and those videos, I had the same concerns as you, some similar life experiences, etc. and I wish that I had written/recorded something for my future self to look back on now. Being on the other side of a significant time of life is WILD and BEAUTIFUL and BITTERSWEET but so so good. Thank you for this gem ❤


this is so weird to watch bc i've been watching dodie since i was like 14, and now i'm 20 so seeing this and realising where she was at at 20 vs where i'm at at 20 is hard to compute


Does anyone feel like they’re never going to be as mature or wise as Dodie when they’re 25 or even ever?

Fantastic Flora I’m gonna turn 24 soon and YES

The future is an absolute mystery and one can never know how they will be then. All we can do is aim to be the best version of ourselves and be kind to everyone.

unkykun thank you, I was really terrified before see this.

I'm about the same age and I can assure you, you will, life won't let you the choice... Twenty to twenty five is a time where you do learn a lot, but the storm will calm down and you will be fine


it's super weird having just turned 21 and looking at this and remembering where i was 5 yrs ago when dear 25 year old me came out. ty for this dodie <3


imma be honest I cried with this I grew up watching dodie and am now hedy's age it's really weird to see how much has happened and to remember back on what i was doing when you made that video. thankyou dodie.


I just turned 20 a few months ago, and i started watching you dodie when i was about 15 ahhh I'm crying


this video made me cry, made me thing about the 20yo me<br>i follow you since back them and is so nice to see how much you changed and grew, i'm so happy for you

this video made me cry, made me thing about the 20yo me
i follow you since back them and is so nice to see how much you changed and grew, i'm so happy for you


hearing the part about your parents. it hurt a lot. like Hedy, I was 11 when you posted this and I'm 16 now. I think I was probably 12 or 13 when I first watched it. if 11 year old me made a video like this, he would have asked how mom and dad are now. I'm not sure how I would answer him. my old house is gone too. my cat passed too. and my parents aren't together anymore either. I'd like to tell him it gets better. because it kind of does. but its gonna hurt him a lot. and some things will be worse. but its gonna be ok.

same here. i'm nearly 16 n my parents formally divorced after being split for 5 years when i was 12/13. so much has changed in the span of 5 yrs. i remember watching this video in the midst of it. since then, my dad moved out; my mum who has schizophrenia is on new pills; she also had multiple operations on her bad leg from a car crash so she's more mobile; we got in touch w my dad's long lost half brother and stayed on his canal boat; my best friend moved back to indo; and, most recently, my gcses got cancelled due to a global pandemic.. it makes me wonder what else will have happened by the time i get to 25 :0

For me ir hurt too but in a good way¿
I'm just currently strruggling with my parents divorce so it felt like me from the future telling me it's going to be fine.
I guess it gave me hope that i'll figure out how to talk to my parents about it and how to open up in general.


Thank you so much for sharing this, and for responding to your own video! (Also, howdy, Aries babes for the win.) <br>Strangely enough, I really needed this. Life's been really hard for me these past couple of months, but I'm doing my best to move on and look forward. Seeing this, I think I'd like to do a video like this for myself. I'm 25 now, so it'd have to be to 30-year-old-me, but I'd really like to try and see it through.

Thank you so much for sharing this, and for responding to your own video! (Also, howdy, Aries babes for the win.)
Strangely enough, I really needed this. Life's been really hard for me these past couple of months, but I'm doing my best to move on and look forward. Seeing this, I think I'd like to do a video like this for myself. I'm 25 now, so it'd have to be to 30-year-old-me, but I'd really like to try and see it through.


Wow. I'm 27 & just saw this 5 months after you posted it. It's come at the best time in my life when I'm also doing a lot of reflection. Time is scary, but change is good & you're working on being who you want to be. It's not bad to take your time. Yes you'll make mistakes & bad, selfish choices, and should save your money better. But you're still just as lovable & whole now as you were then. Life does get better.


I rarely watch dodie but like she just makes me so happy and smile like crazy every time I watch her video 🥺☺☺💛💛


That perfume part was very wholesome. It felt like a happy moment transcending through time.


"It's gonna be okay, but you know this.
You're gonna write a book, you're gonna write EP's, you're gonna write albums, you're gonna tour the world, you're gonna fall in love, you're gonna fall apart, you're gonna get back together, find new friends, you will fade away from other things;
and it will be so different, but it will be okay."

i think this was exactly what i needed to hear in my own situation. life is changing & there are days when i feel like nothing's going to work out. but things will work out, and it will be okay. and i think, perhaps, in five years i'll be farther along than i ever could have thought possible.


I remember watching the video back then ... and therefore I recall the state I was 5 years ago... I kinda had a retrospection watching this haha ... I like you dodie because I feel like we went through the same (kind-ish) of things ... You came out stronger and that's what important...

A video for your 30 years olf self would be cool, but watching you're comment in the video I don't think you would ...

Nice seeing your evolution through the years :)


wow , at 18 i beat myself up for how little i’ve achieved and how little i know myself and this video gave me so much perspective on how young i really am and how much time i really have. Dodie, you’re beautiful inside and out and this video made me SOB. so much love ❤ - also crazy that i remember religiously watching VEDIM at 13 ???!!! 🤯 feels like yesterday but we’ve changed so much.


I was twelve at the time and just started watching your videos. This video made me cry so much 😭💕


this is so crazy. i remember you being 20. i’m finding myself feeling nostalgic too


bro I'm gonna straight up cry. I'm so scared of "growing up" It genuinely terrifies me. Lol I think I'm gonna record a voice memo or write a letter/poem for 23 year old me.

To whoever is reading this: Ily, you're doing great and you'll make it <3

@Annah Joy Thank you so much! It means a lot!

@Imogen Richmond Awwe! It's true though, you'll get through this, I promise! <3 Lots of Love!!

@sophia I just want to say, I was terrified of growing up at your age too and now at 23 I can confidently say I’m not scared anymore. I know you’ll get there someday too💛

why did the end of this make me cry? <3<3<3

@Amanda Lynn I'll do it!<br>I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, maybe if you wanna chat about that and time/age-related things? I'd be 100% down! xx

@Amanda Lynn I'll do it!
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, maybe if you wanna chat about that and time/age-related things? I'd be 100% down! xx

Do it do it do it do it! If they're around, get a letter from your parents as well, from your best friend, and then seal them away somewhere very safe. My Mom passed away after we buried a time capsule 8 years ago (my best friend and i) that will be opened in 2 years. I can't imagine the state of Me when i read THAT.


This video made me cry! You've accomplished so much


this is the best thing i could have seen right now. i’m 19 and panicking that everything is going to end but here you are, 25 and completely better and much happier. it’s gonna be alright.


Although you’re talking to 20 year old Dodie, I almost feel like you’re talking to me. I can relate a lot with her and her fear for the future and longing for the past. I relate to the longing of an old friendship and although it does not all apply, it still kind of feels like you are in some way giving advice to me.


Does anyone ever just look at this beautiful woman, and just like wow. I can't believe what a beautiful soul she is. My mom asked me what my "type" was today and without skipping a beat I SCREAMED DODIE


I'm turning 18 in less than a month, and in quarantine having a bit of a breakdown about it. I think I'm gonna make a couple of these, or write myself some letters for some other big age milestones. It scares me SO much, but I remember you posting the first video five years ago, and we've both grown so, so much.

I was in tears watching this entire video, thinking of how proud I am of you and how much happier and more confident you've gotten, but also how much has changed in my life as the years have passed. Thank you for having the balls post this! I'll see how it goes for me in a few years haha

@jo_b I really appreciate that. definitely a comforting thing to hear <3

omg i turn eighteen in less than two weeks and i’m terrified

Hello. I just turned 22 recently and have been weird about it too. When I was 18, I was very into dodie (for years and years) but this is my first video of hers in a while. <br>Just writing to say that I remember what I felt like at 18, and that you have more time to make mistakes than you think you do :)

Hello. I just turned 22 recently and have been weird about it too. When I was 18, I was very into dodie (for years and years) but this is my first video of hers in a while.
Just writing to say that I remember what I felt like at 18, and that you have more time to make mistakes than you think you do :)


I know this was uploaded a month ago but I’ve only just seen it haha. Honestly this is mad! I was watching your channel back then and remember this video. I’m also turning 25 this year and seeing you reflect on how much has changed really made me think and have a little cry. I went through some shit and basically learnt to not be a push over and stand up for myself. Be a do no harm but take no shit kind of person haha. I think I’m basically trying to say thank you for making this. I’ve been feeling a little bit like a failure recently and you made me realise what I had accomplished. Oh and I also learnt to do my brows as well!


so so crazy to watch this cause i remember when u released that video and i was also excited to see how u are at 25 and now seeing u grow up is crazy. glad i’m still a fan since you’ve helped me a lot as well

it’s very crazy cause i remember at that time u released that video, i was also not in such a good place and now even tho i’m still young, i’ve learned a lot and i’ve better myself too and yh. crazy but good crazy


As a 20 year old thank you for making this video ❤


I'm just realized that you and me are the same age. But here I am, picking my nose whilst watching this. So yeah, you're fine! Nothing to worry about.


totally random ramble that i know you won’t see but.... god i remember when you posted the original video. i was in my last year of middle school and everything was so uncertain. i’m about to graduate from high school now. you were there from when i was a confused, insecure little lesbian to now .... still a generally confused lesbian, but proud. this may sound silly but dodie, you’ve been a constant through some of the hardest years of my life and even if i wasn’t fully realizing it, you were growing with me. in that time you went from shy, home based singer song writer to a successful, kind musician. you’re an inspiration. i’m so proud of you. i finally got to see you for the first time in detroit last autumn; i’m so happy that i did. i don’t have the words to thank you. again, i’m so so so so so fucking proud of you and everything you’ve accomplished. now time to actually finish the video before i get too sappy. love u.

literally same wtf, cheers to graduating c:


Being 19, soon turning 20, this gave me so much hope that things will get better and that I don’t have to be perfect right now because I’m still so young. I also seem to have an obsession with the past that I hope I can let go of soon. Thankyou for sharing this Dodie❤


i cried so much watching this, im 17 and im scared of the future, sometimes i dont even think i have a future, 2015-2020, i would say are my teenage years and this video is in the same time period as that, looking back i feel like im 20 year old dodie right now and i really hope i get better, the same to you guys out there, stay strong, thank you dodie for everything youve given us in these 5 years, we love you and we'll keep supporting you until youre 30!


when you started crying i got really emotional and thought about how i would tell my 12 year old self what my family would go through when i turned 14 and up until where we are now... younger us really didnt know what was to come


im currently crying in my bedroom watching this video. i have so many emotions ahhhh i grew up with you i got a uke bc you inspired me to play we have both struggled in similar ways i empathize with you this video make me realize how much i, myself have grown and how much you have grown. i am much younger than you im only 18 but im so glad that i idolized you as an early teen and i wanted to let you know how much you mean to me


I’ve been watching dodie for so long, and I didn’t even realize how much she’d grown up through the years until now. It was nice to have a good cry together there. Dodie, I’m really proud of you for going through so much to be able to become a healthier and happier person. You’ve been such a great inspiration to me while I’ve been growing up as well. I really admire you and I hope that one day I will relate more to this video than your first video. Thank you for sharing this with us. It made me feel like the future can be good for me.


It’s so sweet seeing how you reacted to Hedy. Sister love❤


I promise you, it will all make sense again. I needed this, thanks Dodie


It’s so...comforting to know that at 20, you really wanted to go back to being 15/16 because for the past year (i’m 21 going 22 now) that’s all i’ve wanted and i thought i was really stupid for having let those years pass me by and thank you for the timely reminder that the twentys is still very young and full of change, despite how old i feel💕


Hey dodie,
that' such a pure video.
I'm 20 and this video gives me hope, that things will turn out good. They might unfold in unexpected ways, but at one point I'll be wiser and older and things that bug me now won't matter that much anymore.
Thank you for sharing such a precious and intimate thing (video).
Warm greetings from Germany


I'm gonna hit 20 in a few days and this made me cry way more than I expected . also I deeply  relate to 20 years old Dodie, I am too extremely scared


she is soooooooooo sweet I real life cried sooo much also, man I really really hope you're happy love God I felt sooo much emotions watching this, I love you already!


Oh man, I remember also being 20 and being <b>obsessed</b> with wanting things to go back to how they were when I was 15/16. I'm glad I'm past that now... although I do still think that the late '00s to early '10s were the best time ever to be a teenager. (P.S. I wrote a letter to myself when I was 25 to read when I'm 30. I'm currently 28. I can't remember a single thing I wrote in the letter, so it's gonna be interesting.)

Oh man, I remember also being 20 and being *obsessed* with wanting things to go back to how they were when I was 15/16. I'm glad I'm past that now... although I do still think that the late '00s to early '10s were the best time ever to be a teenager. (P.S. I wrote a letter to myself when I was 25 to read when I'm 30. I'm currently 28. I can't remember a single thing I wrote in the letter, so it's gonna be interesting.)


This is really creative and really cool! I just discovered your videos and you are brilliant!


i had to just like. sit down for this one, and take a minute to watch it. i was here when this video was made, (10 years old!! a little baby) and now im 15. you changed my life in so many ways, and pulled me through so much, and almost every song you have written means something to me and has made me cry Everytime ive heard it. i discovered my sexuality through you (a enby lesbian!) and found how to deal with my mental health better and went through the fucking pits the same time you were dealing with things. i also cut my hair the same as you and felt better about it as our hair grew at the same rate! (little me was very self conscious and needed to be like something i wasn't to feel happy but you genuinely made me become an individual rather follow the same pattern i had for years.) and as time went on, i grew with you in my back pocket at all times. and now here i am, almost 15, and crying to see you realized how much you've changed and lived and me knowing the same about myself and what 20 year old dodie did for younger me. a struggling me and you, making it out to the other end. im still growing, and so are you, but i know a consistent here will be that things will get better and that you are still important to me no matter what stage of life im at right now. im so glad to have seen you grown and changed and become someone new, and proud of myself for still pushing even to this day. thank you dodie, for being such a rock to stand on in my life, and for everything you've done for others and im so so happy you've come so far. hopefully i will keep going farther until i can see you in show. thank you.

with love, jay.

Literally same with me I’ve just turned 15 last week

omg this is kinda weird i also discovered my sexuality through dodie and im the same age as you


Dodie, I haven't seen your videos in yeqrs. It's surprising to see you calmer, despite the breakdown. You seem more unfazed now. It shows how much your putting on a show in your past vids, as if it's a performance (unconsciously). Now it's more, transparent? It's interesting. I'm turning 30 next month and I always felt like I'm still 20. But surely I've changed too, in little ways which may be absolutely apparent to someone whom I haven't seen in years. I'll write myself a letter as well. Thanks for putting this video up and sharing your journey with us. 🥰


You have one of the best smiles. Seeing you cry makes me want to cry


I saw this amazing lady growing up to be the awesomest version of herself. Meanwhile she became my distant friend despite me being non existent. You were there for my smile... my depression... u amazed us. Now are u planning to make us cry buddy?<br>We love u girl.

I saw this amazing lady growing up to be the awesomest version of herself. Meanwhile she became my distant friend despite me being non existent. You were there for my smile... my depression... u amazed us. Now are u planning to make us cry buddy?
We love u girl.


Dodie
I can't imagine what it was like making the original video but doing this must have been so much more of all that AND THEN SOME???

I haven't even finished the video but this was beautiful and thank you for sharing this out here with all of us ❤


Be honest your down here to distract yourself from crying, cause that’s me rn


I just wanted to say that i love you so much.you make great music and you have saved my life on many occasions


Well, I watched thad video when it came out and I can say I was just as scared as you were about future. A lot of things happened, and one thing I HAVE to thank you for is for helping me undestand my dissossiation and despersonalization process. No one talked about it, o one believed it was really something, but you helped me treat  it like something real and look for help. It changed me a lot, and it made me find myself again when I was at the point of literally forgetting who I was. Thank you, Dodie.  <br>PS I'm turning 22 this year if I survive the pandemy (I'm sick), so 17y old me says thank you too

Well, I watched thad video when it came out and I can say I was just as scared as you were about future. A lot of things happened, and one thing I HAVE to thank you for is for helping me undestand my dissossiation and despersonalization process. No one talked about it, o one believed it was really something, but you helped me treat  it like something real and look for help. It changed me a lot, and it made me find myself again when I was at the point of literally forgetting who I was. Thank you, Dodie.
PS I'm turning 22 this year if I survive the pandemy (I'm sick), so 17y old me says thank you too


This is actually the first video I've ever seen of you. What a glow up in confidence.<br>I've written letter to myself in the past, but I just can't stand the cynical cunt that I am, and the fact that i have an elephants brain most often resulted in me just throwing them away.

This is actually the first video I've ever seen of you. What a glow up in confidence.
I've written letter to myself in the past, but I just can't stand the cynical cunt that I am, and the fact that i have an elephants brain most often resulted in me just throwing them away.


I think I have the same problem Dodie has... something about things changing and time in general is just too much for me. This video's got me starting to get all emotional again. I'll be 25 in just over 5 years too. Fucking hell.


"have you written any good songs ??"
me: slams table HECK YES

"have you written any good songs ??"
me: *slams table* HECK YES


We never stop learning, don't we? As long as we're willing, I suppose. What a gem of a human being.


I'm 19 and I often think I wanted my youth and now it's late..<br>After this video I have conflicted feelings, but what I know for sure is that feeling like this doesn't help with depression...

I'm 19 and I often think I wanted my youth and now it's late..
After this video I have conflicted feelings, but what I know for sure is that feeling like this doesn't help with depression...


"I took a pregnancy test yesterday, turns out I'm just very bloated"<br>LMAOOOOOO

"I took a pregnancy test yesterday, turns out I'm just very bloated"
LMAOOOOOO


<b>this video is the definition of my biggest fear (the passage of time, how cynical) but i really love this</b>

*this video is the definition of my biggest fear (the passage of time, how cynical) but i really love this*


Dodie at 20 and Dodie at 25 are both adorable. But seeing 20 year old Dodie should remind you how amazingly far you've come, in life of course but in your brain and heart. If you can do that in 5 years - the future is so exciting to what you can achieve in another 5, 10 ,20 years. We are all so proud of you. My last 5 years have also been painful, confusing, heartbreaking, amazing, memorable, wild and now I'm pretty settled and would go as far as to say happy. Im happy you're happy and I can't wait to see you continue to grow. Much love xxx


We’re all collectively crying together and I love it


I remember watching this video when I was 13 and now I’m about to turn 18 next month. It makes me think about how much I’ve changed too. Wow.


That is a really cool thing to do. Like a time capsule only a video. You are so beautiful, sweetheart,  just remember it's important that everyone you care about plays a part in his big masterpiece. All movies come to an end, but that doesn't make it a bad movie.


i'm 36. started practicing being good to myself at 30, started practicing being happy at 33, practicing self-compation and  relicing self dought and guilt at 36. every year is a gift i get to find more ways to be more of myself. look forward to the future.


"Hello 25 year old Dodie, im 20 year old Dodie" tell me why I immediately started crying


i already related so much to the original video because i had decided to start a 5-year diary and all the first entries are me writing how horrified i am of what will happen in 5 years, specially the bad stuff, but i think it ends up feeling rewarding seeing how much you've grown and how much has changed

dodie, you got me sobbing with this video, thats for sure! i'm so proud of what you've become and what you've achieved! i'm so glad to see you much happier and proud of your accomplishments, as you should! i'm not in that state of mind yet but you inspire me to keep going and who knows, maybe one day i'll look back at my 20 year old self and i'll be able to say "you don't know it yet, but things will get better"!

thank you dodie, for everything 💖


I’m turning 15 this week and holy crap. I want to do this and watch it when I’m 20. Or next year. I was crying during this whole video. Haha


when i watched this for the first time in 2020 i was sobbing my face off. i'm revisiting it but now I'M 20, which feels fake, it doesn't feel real, i still think i'm like 16 in my head which just isn't the case anymore. so this is hitting much harder this time around (which i didn't know could be possible lol)

might record or write something like this for my 25 year old self. i hope they're doing better than i am right now


no one will read this comment and i'm not even sure why i write this. But i just wanted to say that i think she has one of the most beautiful smiles i've ever seen.


Watching this at 19 is really comforting and makes me chill out a lil bit worrying about the future. What’s gonna happen will happen and it’ll be okay. I just hope I’m not as anxious as I am now. Also I hope I can sew, that’d be cool.


had to hunt down this gem because it inspired me to do the same when i first saw it and im finally about to make mine. love 🙌🏽🧡


u and Hedy's relationship is so so amazing it makes me so happy I cant believe siblings just exist being happy w each other


i think being able to remember any of the bumps in the road at this point is probably a good thing even though they might make you cry uncontrollably


How are you so amazingly... authentic? Gosh I can't believe you. I wanna subscribe to your channel another 100 times!


It's really odd, now. To try and scramble my thoughts into words while I'm crying. I was there for 20 year old Dodie and somehow I'm here for 25 year old Dodie when I didn't think I would be. I think a lot of people feel this way too. I pinned so much hope and heart on you at such a young age and a part of me regret it, like a lot, but I was always growing up with you even when we were and are so far apart. The illusion of thinking I know you has broken but the feeling hasn't quite faded away yet, cause I just know that through a screen has been a woman who's had ups and downs and has led me through mine. I don't know what the future brings, I'm scared to find out, but I'll be here, still listening, still watching probably.

And a strange thing to say but when you’re young you pin hope on the things trust are far away because it feels like you know them but - I grew up and so did you and there should be no regret in learning lessons that humans are humans! I think<br>Anyway I’m so grateful you shared that

And a strange thing to say but when you’re young you pin hope on the things trust are far away because it feels like you know them but - I grew up and so did you and there should be no regret in learning lessons that humans are humans! I think
Anyway I’m so grateful you shared that

This is a beautiful beautiful comment <3 in a way we are all growing up alongside each other and though not connected directly we’re all still here living our lives


Thank you for this. It’s warmed my heart.


ohhh man that was rlly sweet :'( i'm grateful you let us be a part of your life.


I feel like we are the same person, I’m about to be 21, I idolize the days I was 15/16, I’ve been suffering with bad anxiety, depression, and BAD derealization, I think I’m a musician but too scared to really start being one, I’m so self conscious about my body, especially my face lol. I fear death and the future so much. I don’t even know who I am. Obviously you had many trials and errors and falls. But how did you make it through? I want to give up a lot but I also don’t want to. I’m just lost. I’m so glad that things have gotten better and you have figured yourself out more. I have looked up to you for so many years because I’ve felt so close to your situation in so many aspects and I hope that I can make it out on the other side like you did. Thanks for helping me through the past few years by showing me I’m not the only one going through things like you.


I'm almost 30 and a whole lot changes between 25 and 30. For me, I really got the career I wanted after years of hard work, and I also stopped giving a shit about whether people thought I was pretty. I just woke up one day and realise it doesn't matter. At all. I think when you're older you stop stressing about little things like that because you realise you can't please everyone. Some people go to great lengths just to get likes on Instagram and it's sad young people feel they have to get their validation through that. Great if you get that but it shouldn't be the only way you get it, you know?


"God I wish I could play them for her, I wonder what she'd think." I cried. dodie, she'd be so proud. Not only of your music, but also of who you are today. Things will be okay 💛


I hope she react to this video when she's 30


I have never met someone else who has similar triggers to me. I wish I was back being a teen again too at times. Cute video


I remember watching the original video when I was 13 and sort of idolizing you to some extent. I kind of fell off the wagon, but now I'm back on and I totally get the sort of things you talk about in relation to the past.


Geez I watched the original video when I was 14 and now I’m 19. And seeing an older wiser form of foodie talking to herself really reminds me of how naive I was and how much happens in 5 years


myself watching this at 21 feels like a bit of a comforting hug. the way i feel is similar to 20 year old dodie, so this feels kind of like getting some advice and comfort which is nice. it’s a bit of a push to keep going. so! thank you 25 year old dodie! and thank you 20 year old dodie! i find solace in both.


I think you're great <3<br>Also, my mind cannot stop buzzing about how I found you, dunno why.

I think you're great <3
Also, my mind cannot stop buzzing about how I found you, dunno why.


as someone who just turned 20, this is super cute and kinda reassuring to watch :) oh my gosh and when she talks about hedy so cute!


I've been subscribed to since then and seeing this video makes my heart super happy :)


This kind of comforted me, I am also scared of the future and also scared to write or film for my older self. I don't know, I might disappoint her or it's the other way around but I'm learning not to think too much, I need to stay and be here in the present moment


I love how Dodie talked to 20 y/o Dodie like in such a supportive way. I really wish 20 y/o Dodie could hear what Dodie was saying back to her. This video made me cry like a baby :')

best part of growing older is how much you learn to love your past self and all the flaws she has. like she's your younger sister to protect.


I dont know why, but this video has become my comfort video. the first time i watched it, i cried a little with you. the second time i watched it, i resolved that i would make one for myself at fifteen. the third time i watched it, i realized just how much hope it gave me, and why i kept watching it. things DO get better, and i clearly dont know everything yet, and so much will change. now, every time i see it on my recommendations, i watch this video. thank you so much dodie. i think once i make mine at fifteen, i wont watch this video again because i will take inspiration from it, but my goodness dodie. thank you. thank you so much. you inspire me and give me hope. much love <3


I don't know why watching this makes me so emotional!  I think it's because 15 year old me started watching Dodies videos around five years ago and I'm five years older now too. I love that she kept calling herself Babe ❤ I feel like I love my 15-year-old self so much more than I did then. I wish I could give her a hug and tell her that everything falls apart but it gets put back together and so many beautiful things come into your life 💕<br>This was beautiful and made me feel a lot of things.

I don't know why watching this makes me so emotional!  I think it's because 15 year old me started watching Dodies videos around five years ago and I'm five years older now too. I love that she kept calling herself Babe ❤ I feel like I love my 15-year-old self so much more than I did then. I wish I could give her a hug and tell her that everything falls apart but it gets put back together and so many beautiful things come into your life 💕
This was beautiful and made me feel a lot of things.


Wow I remember watching this when I was 15. So crazy how time flies. Now I'm 20 and missing being 15


this is a beautiful video <br>dodie you're so beautiful!!! <3

this is a beautiful video
dodie you're so beautiful!!! <3


this is such a beautiful presentation of self-growth but accepting and appreciating the change!! ee


Dodie, I feel this on so many levels. As an artist, I too have struggled with depression and find it difficult writing happy songs.  But I look at my music as therapy.  A way to release the negative thoughts so they don't eat me alive.  And hopefully I can connect with listeners along the way so they understand they are not alone. Thank you for always being open and transparent with your emotions and thoughts.  It means more than you know.


"And thank god I learned how to do better brows" I was crying when she broke down and then this made me smile a lot


I just bawled my eyes out with you lol 😂 I love this


Take care girl, you are very special, do not ever forget! <3


This is the sweetest video! Why are our twenties so confusing?? Is it the "I'm not a girl not yet a woman" thing??

Hormones, it will save you a lot of heartache sweetheart, if you can manage it and not wreck yourself and others while going through your 20s. cheers.


I've just turned 18 and I've just had a baby girl in december and her father left me for a girl in his work , watching this and seeing 20 year old dodie makes me sob , I find joy and comfort still in you and I always will , depression is hard stuff , I'm not gonna lie , but seeing you then and now is such an amazing highlight of life , you've come so far , and I hope I can be this happy in the future and not hold onto my past like I do , I love you dodie 💞


Is this a thing everyone in their early twenties goes through? I am 22 and cry sometimes because I'm not 16 anymore and think about all the carefree, happy times i had when i was younger :(( I really have a thing about getting older and am DREADING turning 23 this year

Same, 23 this year too and starting my career as a lawyer soon, I keep wishing I was younger and still staying with my parents and had no financial responsibilities 😭


this video gives me hope that things will change. i hope they do. ty <3


I find this so weird to watch. I remember watching it when it was uploaded and I feel that I have a lot of similarities with Dodie. I was also born on 11/04/95 for a start also have suffered with depression and derealisation, I’m bi, at around 20 I definitely wished I was 16 again. Anyway these are just some of them. I suppose watching this is like seeing a slightly different version of myself


I was trying to find the words to describe how this video makes me feel. Just so many emotions. This puts in perspective of how everything can change in no time at all and thats sad but hopeful. I wish I could go back in time and talk to my younger self and help him though the next 5 years of his life. Maybe it would have been different, prepare him for some life changing moments. Thank you for this, this is the first video I've seen of yours and wish I found you sooner.


Do this again at 30! It was so interesting to see how you have changed! And also how times have changed.


You look incredible for being 25!😍I thought you were only in your teens still!


I’m watching this video probably for the 100th time but at 1:19 when she says she wishes she was 15/16 again it reminds me of when I was 15/16 and I used to listen to her song When on repeat, just listening to the line “Gotta get it in my head I’ll never be 16 again.” It has a whole different meaning now & im emotional


I love how she looks up to the camera as if she was FaceTiming or sending a video message to herself 🤍🖤


15 Anna loved 20 Dodie with all her heart. She learned all of your songs and you helped her through rough times. Now she's 20 Anna and can't believe all the time that's passed. Thank you Dodie :')


It's so strange to think dodie ever feels bad, coz she's always so bubbly and happy and cute!!


I came back to this and cried. And thats significant because it feels like for a while I didnt have any emotions. And that scared me so much because I love to feel, happy sad, angry, insecure, everything. But I watched this video and bawled, thank you so much dodie for bringing back my tears, you've helped me feel whole again.


dodie getting so excited about knitting makes me so happy


“i hope that there will still be people to see it” i was there when that was posted and i’m still here now! this was really emotional to watch because i’ve watched you grow (albeit mostly online you, i know it’s not the same) for 5 years, and i’ve grown too, and as you started sharing less online i lost touch with how you were doing but watching this i know now that you’re ok and that’s just all i could ask for really


When you said "it's not as scary as you think" about the cat death, something sweetened in my soul, I swear.... 🙏😢


i cry everytime i watch this because i feel exactly like 20 year old dodie and i don't know how to change it


Wow, you know when you discover a new drama on Netflix (other formats are available) and you realise that it’s been running for about 6 seasons and you binge on it 😀?
That’s how I feel at the moment with Dodie! I have only just discovered her due to the self isolation thing that’s going on right now with more time on my hands..
I have to say Dodie, you are amazing 😀 You have so much going on in your head which shows in your emotions but you channel this so well into your work. Don’t ever change, just embrace it and carry on evolving 😀


this video is posted 2 months before my 20th. im so glad i saw this, because i’m going to do it. this was so special, thank you for sharing


I'm 19 right now and I'm not sure why, but I just sobbed my eyes out watching this. In 5 years, I hope I make my past self proud of the person I'll become like you did.

I’m 19 as well and you just voiced all my thoughts


i did not expect to cry at this so hard bro... we grew up together and I'm sad


going through a crisis of self lately, this gave me a lot of hope that things change and thats scary but if i keep working and fighting that change will turn out okay


“It’s got cool new features tho.. it’s got like animojis!......”
thinks
“Alright.”

“It’s got cool new features tho.. it’s got like animojis!......”
*thinks*
“Alright.”


You are brave! What a wonderful creative mind you have. And yes, while you've written terrific stuff in the past five years (you keep getting better), don't discount your earlier work. 'She' dates from five years ago.

Inventive, quirky, melodic music that is crafted; lyrics that reach right into my heart & mind. They evoke empathy, share sadness but are uplifting at the same time. How do you do that?

And your lyrics are wonderful poetry. I was so moved by 'Down' (also 5 years old):

"Friends float above in the wind; Bright balloons pulling them up as they grin...

It's like walking around with a stone for a heart; People swimming in honey as your life falls apart...

You can never undo the brain; Now it knows of the holes it will fall as it's trained."

Dodie, you're the Leonard Cohen or Joni Mitchell of this generation. And more prolific than either. Is that part of the secret? You've commented that you think volume is important. You get better, and you're more likely to produce gems. I think you're right. And you give us so much to enjoy.

We're grateful. Thank you.


i'm not normally an emotional person but i was teary-eyed this whole video. i remember watching the original video when it came out in 2015 (when i was 13 wow) i'm so happy that you're doing so well, here's to another great 5 years and many more! <3


this was so freaking sweet, loved it, keep on chuggin!


this is very reassuring as a 22 year old whose GOING THROUGH IT and has been for years.


its good to know that you are doing better with your mental health and that you found ways to work on things

my brain is allowing me to remember new trauma but i got some great advice from a guy named zach that helped me deal with it (i think that is the spelling to his name)


I held off on watching this because, basic fear of hearing someone my age talk and someone who has 5 more years of experience talk back to someone like me. and ooh boy. was I right. it was scary but comforting in a confusing way. I'm in a point in my life where one decision I have to make will just. ugh I'll either lose someone I love for the rest of my life, or continue to be in a house that I don't feel safe in. it sucks. but hearing 25 year old Dodie reassuring 20 year old Dodie about depression and home life and love. that helped me a little bit. I had a cry and now I just want to keep living to get to 25 at least. thank you Dodie. I love everyone and anyone who reads this.. I'm sorry I needed to rant


wAIT Wait wait
wait hold up i'm-
The feels and the hapiness and the tears and the realization that I've been enjoying your music and content for over 5 YEARS
Wow okay I was unprepared for this tbh. Like I didn't watch it like you until just now and honestly you've grown so much and I'm so heckin proud of you. To quote Frozen 2, you had to get a little lost on your way to being found, and honestly you truly found yourself. I'm so happy for you.
This kinda makes me think of what I was like 5 years ago... Maybe I'll do something like this when my birthday comes around. I digress though, lol.

happy belated birthday, dodie. we all adore you and the wonderful person you've become.


This is like the best video ever, it's so heartwarming. This is so interesting as well. 💜😊🎵🎶


This is kind of hard to watch and kind of nice to watch at the same time. Hard in the sense that I'm almost nearing 20, and I feel like I've been telling myself that I have everything all figured out, and this video kind of makes me rethink that a bit. Nice in the sense that it's validating to hear about how it's okay to not have handled perfectly as soon as you've moved out and gone off on your own for the first time. It's something I think people don't hear enough of. So, thanks for that.


You're so kind to your 20 year old friend, if only we could all be so kind to our current selves <3


Aww this was soo cute. I just turned 19 and plan on sending sending 20 year old me an email. Maybe in the email I'll suggest she should a video for 25 year old her


sometimes I just come back to this video to have a good cry


I don't know how I came to be here, but I was invested in every minute of this video.

If you're reading this, remember where you came from, and don't forget your future relies on what you do today. It can get better.


I just googled derealization. Yeah, I definitely have that. This symptom especially resonated with me : "A see-through wall or veil is separating you from your surroundings". I don't think it's affecting my behaviour too much, though. It's just a bit weird, and I do become a bit obsessed with properly seeing things without the "vail" again. There was a part of me that was scared that the vail is a normal part of getting older. It's good to know its not true and that the vail is not permanent :)


this made me realize I've been watching dodie since I was 10, that is so strange I'm crying aha


“Oh my god, the songs you write... you would love them then. God, I wish I could play them for her.”

That got to me.


I’m so proud of you I love you so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺


I remember watching this original video when I was 13, and damn we have both changed so much


Same here. Time passing and things changing also hits a spot in me... I am 8 years older than my younger sister, recently I had a big cry when I went to sleep remembering how little she was. I just can not comprehand that she is 14 now. Those memories are so real to me if not even more real than this reality now.


I watched this 3 times now, I just love this video so much because I do the same exact thing !!!


I was fine the whole video and then I started crying when she asked herself if she was happy cause I'm definitely happier than 5 years ago when I was 15 but I'm not quite all the way there so I really fucking hope that in 5 years I'll be happier and be able to say it confidently.


oh wow, i did not expect to cry watching this video. like at all. but when you got excited and emotional talking about going on tour i started sobbing, and continued doing so for the rest of the video. i'm 17 and thinking of the future scares me so much for so many reasons, the main one being that when i was a kid i'd imagine being 17 to soo different (and better) than it actually is, and i'm sad of having let younger me down. i don't want to have 17 year old me down. i hope 25 year old me is doing well, and is happy, and has close friends and all these things but i'm scared that won't be the case (imagining me at 25 brings on so many emotions i can't even describe it wow)


The Tuftie part made me reach down and pet our 19 year old cat (who's older than me) in my lap.


You're beautiful Dodie. You were beautiful then. You're beautiful now. You'll always be beautiful.


omg wow i remember this time period of dodie, i was 13 and in middle school and now i’m in college... wow thats crazy


looking at the thumbnail: "oh no the video is gonna get sad, dodie its ok"
then you start the video and she already has that face

looking at the thumbnail: "oh no the video is gonna get sad, dodie its ok"
then you start the video and she *already has that face*


watching doddie at her 30's doing part 2 would be so interesting


i cried at this... it doesn't help that its the depths of the night but i felt dodie's emotions immensely and very very quickly. that moment where she has a little cry i started crying too, knowing how hard times can be in someone's life and looking back on my own experiences. this was a reality check and it's scary growing up..


at 1:27 I just paused the video to sob. idk why but I just relate to her nostalgia for her younger years so much. I used to watch her videos a lot during a time that I now look back on and wish I could relive it. idk so many emotions ...


oh you beautiful beautiful beautiful humannnnnnn, watching this video was such a unique experience, I think I could see myself trough both of you in a certain way, you literally help me heal.

omg when that first THICCC tear fell.. my heart


20 year old dodie: speaks
25 year old dodie: sobbing
i love u dodie! so proud of ur growth

20 year old dodie: *speaks*
25 year old dodie: *sobbing*
i love u dodie! so proud of ur growth


kinda late to comment here, but I started crying when you started crying. Totally missed your videos Dodie, love you! 💕


Ive been 21 for a few months now but this makes me wanna film myself interview myself for each year


Woah. You were my favorite YouTuber when you posted the original video 5 years ago. I distinctly remember watching it... Pretty strange to be transported back to that time along with you. I would have been 17 then, and I remember thinking, like, "I will have to do this when I turn 20!" Of course, I forgot to do it. Classic me. Maybe I'll make myself a video or write a letter to myself when I turn 23 next month for when I'm 28. Not quite as nice as 20 -> 25, but whatever.<br>Anyway. Curious if anyone else remembers watching Dodie's first video when it came out as well. Youtube can function as a time capsule for creators but for viewers, too. Hope to come back to Dodie's channel in another 5 years to see another one ;)

Woah. You were my favorite YouTuber when you posted the original video 5 years ago. I distinctly remember watching it... Pretty strange to be transported back to that time along with you. I would have been 17 then, and I remember thinking, like, "I will have to do this when I turn 20!" Of course, I forgot to do it. Classic me. Maybe I'll make myself a video or write a letter to myself when I turn 23 next month for when I'm 28. Not quite as nice as 20 -> 25, but whatever.
Anyway. Curious if anyone else remembers watching Dodie's first video when it came out as well. Youtube can function as a time capsule for creators but for viewers, too. Hope to come back to Dodie's channel in another 5 years to see another one ;)


oh my i remember when you made this!!!! crazy how time goes by, i was 15 then, and 20 now, i think i should make one of these 😬


The most shocking thing for me was
dodie: ~i have a mortgage~

As a 20 year old who knows when I'll own a home in this economy

The most shocking thing for me was
dodie: ~i have a mortgage~

As a 20 year old who knows when I'll own a home in *this economy*

I live in Spain and I definitely think I will be a renter for the rest of my life

Yeah I mean like, Dodie's job is quite lucrative compared to many other fields, so it makes sense. I'm her age and I'm def gonna be a renter for a long while hahaha


oh wow, i did not expect to cry watching this video. like at all. but when you got excited and emotional talking about going on tour i started sobbing, and continued doing so for the rest of the video. i'm 17 and thinking of the future scares me so much for so many reasons, the main one being that when i was a kid i'd imagine being 17 to soo different (and better) than it actually is, and i'm sad of having let younger me down. i don't want to have 17 year old me down. i hope 25 year old me is doing well, and is happy, and has close friends and maybe even have a relationship?? have experience in relationships?? please?? and all these things but i'm scared that won't be the case (imagining me at 25 brings on so many emotions i can't even describe it wow) like, i'll be 25 in less than 8 years. and less than 8 years ago i was in 4th grade and... that feels like ages ago but also not long ago at all? i can't beleive there's as much time since when i was 9 to when i'll be 25. that's insane to me..... somehow?? i don't even know what this comment is anymore, it's not like i'm expecting anyone to read it i'm just writing it for me. i'll leave now


The day I first watched this video I wrote a letter to my future self,  but even in the few months between then (April) and now (October) things have changed so much. It's crazy how much time goes by without you realising it. Back then I didn't know stuff that literally defines who I am today and I was naive and ignorant of things that keep me awake at night, but I was kind of a hermit then. I'm honestly not sure if I'll make it to when I set for the letter to be opened but I hope I do, I really hope I do. See you the future


Depression creeps up and is more of a "hello darkness my old friend". Sorry, sorry, I had to. I think this sentiment is why that song is so relatable and great.


I'm so glad I was 20 way before social media was even an idea!


and you just keep getting more beautiful inside and out every year


You read every comment? Wow, dodie, props to you for wanting to make the effort x


Here because of Kristen McAtee and im so happy even tho i cant stop crying
I kinda get this feeling. looking at something you wrote years ago hits you.
With me it was that I was so happy when i was younger and grew to become very sad
I always wish I was just as happy as before and past all the bullshit. takes a lot of time


I think I relate to dodie so much when she was young because she was also scared of the future and wanted to go back to being a child. The young video of her is exactly how I am to my counselor


Whosoever holds this hammer, if he be worthy, shall possess the power of dodie’s eyebrows.


"How's teenage Hedy?" <b>has a whole breakdown</b>

"How's teenage Hedy?" *has a whole breakdown*

I literally almost started crying with her.


💖Thank you for sharing this part of you with me (us).


I cried during this video as well. I have been watching your yt channel since i can remember!!!! and i clearly do remember the video you react to in this vid. I hate to say this but i kind of feel like nothing has changed for me since then...


I really loved this, thanks for sharing - Maybeeeeee I'll do this myself even tho im 22!!


I remember watching the original video at age 9/10. Damn. Time flies


„ooooh you havent SEEN La La Land yet?“ I love how excited present Dodie is for past Dodie to be able to experience so much that is in front of here and being able to tell her she is a musician ohh my heart


I think I just fell in love with you 🥺

Edit: belated happy birthday!!! 🥰


haven’t shed a tear for like a while but this video really made me do it i’m turning 20 next year and i just couldn’t process it in yet lmao


I can't believe I missed your birthday :-( I am happy to find out that you're only three years younger than me LOL I've had a huge crush on you for a couple years and I felt like a creep, but you are such an amazing person, you're so strong and so in touch with yourself, its hard not to find that attractive lol


i’m 23 and this made me so hopeful lmao all i’ve been doing this quarantine is live in the past


You are soo amazing 😉 that’s all that I can say!!!


Thankyou for sharing your story, it really helps


balled my eyes out watching this. You don't cry alone lmao


10:59 Funnily enough, I remember that there were flip phones that has a tiny projector all the way back in 2008.
I thought the concept was kind of cool, but it didn't sell well, hence we don't have those features on our smartphones right now. I think it's not that useful in application, since you can just directly send your files to other phones via Google Drive, SMS, etc.


“it does get better” oh my goodness gracious i’m so proud of you dodie


awww this is adorable. I hope you’re happy


I’ve never seen any of your videos but this made me cry. Up until 20 year old you said “what if you’ve died!!” 😂😂


You are such a beautiful soul. The world is a better place because you're in it. ❤


god this made me weep like nothing else. thank you


I was fifteen when dodie made that video. I’m almost 20 and I remember thinking “I’ll do that when I’m twenty. I’ll write a letter to my 25 year old self”<br>It’s my birthday this Friday. 4 days away. Should I do it?

I was fifteen when dodie made that video. I’m almost 20 and I remember thinking “I’ll do that when I’m twenty. I’ll write a letter to my 25 year old self”
It’s my birthday this Friday. 4 days away. Should I do it?

I was 10 in 2003 and wrote a letter to myself to open at 20 in 2013 because of a prompt in a kids magazine. Reading it at 20 was amazing. I laughed so hard and cried. Then I wrote another letter to open at 30 in 2023. I totally recommend doing it too! It's such a great way to reflect!

I’m also turning 20 this week but on Sunday, i also discovered her at 15! It’s awesome to meet others similar x it’s definately an awesome idea to make a video like these I think!

For a senior project we all wrote a latter to ourself 5 years later, and I’m interested to see what I wrote come June! I know a bit of what’s changed, and a lot that has not, and will probably write a new letter to myself for my birthday, after reflecting on what’s changed, and where I want to be.
But after seeing this video, and reflecting on that assignment, I can better see the importance than I did back then, and encourage you to take that step!
Happy early Birthday though!

Aah I feel you! I'm turning 20 this year too and I'm really tempted to make it too. If you feel like you want to, you should! Happy early birthday btw :)

I believe you should. I wish I had a video like this uploaded 5 years ago. You can decide if you make it public or not, but wouldn't it be nice to go back to it and reflect on every question and small detail? I'm petty sure no diary can match a video experience like this 😵 💚

I think you should, it’s always nice to see how far we’ve come. Even if it’s hard to think about or write about, I think it would still be worth it. Also, happy early birthday! 💛💛💛


im violently sobbing my god im so proud of u


I will be 20 in... An hour or so. I would be lying if I said that leaving my teenage years behind didn't scare me. It's weird. The world is so crazy now that who know what will be happening by the time I'm 25. Maybe we'll all be dead. Who knows. Anyway, thanks Dodie for sending me into a deep hole of existential worry (but also giving me hope to make the next five years count)


It would drive me insane to record/write a message to my future self knowing that it will be answered, but simultaneously knowing that I will never receive the answer. I imagine that side of the experience to be so much worse than the side having to review the material. o_o"


i cried with you, god i love you so much thank you for this


I absolutely love this.  I remember finding "She" at the age of 14 and realizing that I loved my bestfriend (as much as a 14 year old can love someone), we went through a tough time and we ended our friendship.  I thought I'd never get over it.  I remember watching this exact video at 15 and wondering the same thing "Are you happy?" 5 years from now.  At the age of about 15 or 16 I met my bestfriends (who are still my best friends five years later), who were just as in love with you and your songs as was.  Some of my favorite memories with them are us singing along to your songs all cuddled up on the couch or driving in the car.  Its amazing to me how much of my life you have been a part of.  I've never been to a concert but I know I would ball my eyes out the entire time.  When you released the song "Secret for the mad" in 2016 I was going through a really tough time, I had that song on repeat practically 24/7.  Now, I'm turning 21 in 3 months and so much has changed.  I am happier than I was 5 years ago, and I think 5 years from now I will hopefully be even happier.  I think that, as we grow into ourselves, we begin to understand how to be happy.  Your youtube videos and your music have been such a huge pillar in my life and I thank you so much for that.

@Scout Forbes I promise you will! Friends come and go, but the friends that are permanent make an effort to stay!  Coming from someone who has gone through depression and an eating disorder and got out, it gets better.  Over time you will learn that change is a necessary part of growth.  I wish you all of the luck in your next five years and so on <3

Olivia Rogers I’m 15 now and this was really encouraging to read, I don’t feel like I’ve met the friends I will have forever yet, and I’m really hoping to do that. I hoping to be happier too