I write myself letters that I read after every major event I had one for the end of school and then one for the end of uni and one for the end of postgrad and my next one is in 5 years. So much changes when you're young, it's hard to know what will happen but you have to trust it will be good.


What a good idea to make such a video. I would have liked to have made such a video to myself. One touching thing is that it tells alot about our fears vs the reallity  and how quick a life change, how we grow up and how the our world spin around us.<br>The 46 yo me would like to say to the 20 yo me to tell the people you love that you love them, cause time goes up in a rush and sometimes there is no time left.

What a good idea to make such a video. I would have liked to have made such a video to myself. One touching thing is that it tells alot about our fears vs the reallity  and how quick a life change, how we grow up and how the our world spin around us.
The 46 yo me would like to say to the 20 yo me to tell the people you love that you love them, cause time goes up in a rush and sometimes there is no time left.


This is such a lovely video. Thank you for this.


I cried with you. And I actually watched this video very late because I was afraid I would cry. Last year I went through "the dip" and am growing so much now. I can really relate to how difficult it is to watch your younger self. I'm just bitter about what she will go through. I was always so happy and positive about the world. But I also know that finally the things I kept pushing away to keep my world a happy one, will not need pushing anymore. That I finally can be more chill (:P). That I have grown and will grow a lot more. I hope I will be there where you are now, and even further, in a place where I am very happy with the growth and the things I've accomplished. Where I am stable in my life. I am so proud of where I am now and I see a lot more in the future: finally my own apartment, I've started writing songs so I'm curious where that will bring me, I want to publish a book (poetry, self-help, or proza), finally have a job, an Asmr Youtube channel. I am 23 going to 24 in a few days (and cutting my hair off ^^). I have a lot of great thing to look forward to :) Thank you for this video!


I’m about to turn 20 and this made me so emotional .. I feel like I really needed to hear this before this huge step and WOW...
You’ve grown so much in 5 years, it’s strange to think I found you 5 years ago and how we’ve sort of grown together. Thank you, dodie.
Wishing you all the best and more, and remember it’s okay to cry 💛


I love this so much. So cool to witness. So real


I think this is my favorite video in the whole world of YouTube, thank you so much


Its so cool to see how much you've changed!


hi, to dodies comment section. i used to be very very obsessed with dodie and evan, and that side of youtube back in middle school, probably around the time that first video was made. this video popped up today, and i figured "hey, why not?". anyway, now im crying. dodie has gotten me through SO many bad times. shes the reason i took up ukulele. the reason i probably act and dress like i do now, tbh. thanks for everything. keep being beautiful and amazing. heres to better times and self improvement :)


when she started crying i literally was covered with chills and I started crying with her


Wow. This really touched me. I’m 20 and I spend most of my time crying over lost time and wishing I were younger again, like 16, because I feel like my life is over and I’m old now and I don’t have time to have fun, make friends and be stupid anymore. It’s just a lot of pressure and the craziest part of it is that I’m the one who’s creating it and putting it on myself but I can’t help it. I just wish it were easier.

Zoe Linked thank you hun! I’ve been in therapy for a few months and it has helped me a lot <3

italiangothsims Aww I’m sorry babe. Have you thought about therapy? It’s been helping me talk through something similar. Hope things go up from here. Your life’s not over; you’ve got a ton left. 💙❤


Crying nonstop while watching this 😭 but let me just say that I am so happy that I stumbled upon your channel five years ago when i was 19 and trying to figure myself out. Cliche to say this but time really flies by so fast and i am  so very proud of you. You've come a long way while also helping people like me thru your music. Love you 💛


this really made me cry my ass out and rolling on the floor drowning in my period blood


you talking about your family just got me and i started sobbing oh my


I’m going to do this for myself, I’m not feeling so good and looking forward to the future gives me hope.


I cried through all of this, and I don't know why.


I really like how well spoken she is Ik I sound strange saying that lmao


even though this is not about my life it just makes me feel so comfoted that dodie keeps saying it's ok


I'm 25 as well and I cant believe I'm this old. I still feel like im 20 :(


I can't watch this video without crying and I can't pinpoint why


i’m so late to this but i’m literally sobbing <br>i remember watching this when you upload it and i’m just so 🥺

i’m so late to this but i’m literally sobbing
i remember watching this when you upload it and i’m just so 🥺


So much shit happened between 20 and 25 for me (I'm 26) and I would never want to return to 20. What a shit time. Every time you cry, I cry. I wish you all the best (just listened to "Human" in my car this morning and got super emotional! Yay!).


crying cause i’m still a teenager and SO MUCH can happen in five years


I want to see Dodie and Hedy together :(


Juat wanted to give you a hug. Hope everythings alright stay safe and take care x jamesie :)


Sometimes when I need a good cry, I watch this


"I did take a pregnancy test the other day, um, but I'm just very bloated" MOOD


I don't know what was going on with me while watching, I cried so hard and then started wheezing cause you put that interlude music on xD


I turned 20yo two weeks ago, but I'm gonna make it now and this the best idea!! Loved it


I still remember watching the first video!!!! Time flies so fast!


i cried with you dodie I remember that video being released


i remember the original video coming out, and now I'm crying too


MA’AM YOU LITERALLY SUNG MY FAV SONG , the one you posted on TikTok that started with ‘missing the way the world used to turn’ JODHDUWNDB LY<3


I watch this at least once a month and cry everytime


i just turned 20 and so far it hurts, this gives me some hope though


DODIE I'M SOBBING THIS IS SO WONDERFUL. Not only am I proud (as a long time follower) to see that you're in a better place, but this also helped me have less fear for my future. Thank you for this.

Hello fellow bi who issettingthingsonfire


i started crying at the same time as u, ilysm


I'm about to be 24 in June, and I feel a dip coming, and I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one.


Almost 2 years ago this was uploaded and i remember watching it when it first came out because I thought it was a cool idea. I was just finishing my freshman year of college. Covid had just hit at the time of this video..


I’ve been watching since the song you did about Charlieissocoollike when Hedy was only tiny! Amazing to see how far you’ve come since then!


i remember watching this being amazed that i will exist in five years and now i’m here. this is insane and i love u so much


Hahahahaha I started crying and after 2 minutes you started crying as well xD I would love to have a video from my 20 year old me... I suppose I will do one from my 27 year old me to my 32 year old me XD Anyway, thanks for sharing this Doodie, bye ^^


Aww having watched the first vid when it came out, this was big fat feels Xx


story: I’m about to turn 20 and I’ve been feeling really weird about it. I don’t know if it’s everything that’s happening right now or if it’s going to college but I feel a lot like 20 year old you. wanting to turn back time to high school. I’m really glad you posted this video though. I’ve been watching your videos since the beginning, and watching how you’ve changed now makes me feel a lot better about looking forward and reminds me that life keeps going. Thanks for posting and doing what you do. From the bottom of my heart!

turning 20 in july and i feel exactly the same😭

I totally understand you in this-I just turned 20 a little over a month ago, and I was so surprised at how much I related to 20 year-old Dodie. I had watery eyes watching her video from 2015 and I had straight tears watching this one. I think I'm gonna make a video or write a letter to my future self too...

20 year old here :( Feel also very stucked in my highschool years, wishing I could go back to when I was 13 and do things the right way... Hope we get out of this one soon & be excited about life again.

things will happen that will be better than high school! eventually that feeling will pass

I'm 29 and my early twenties were the bestttt. You will love the coming years. Sometimes I wish I could redo certain things but I am also excited for my thirties, I think thirties will be my prime. There are new pros and cons in each stage of life!

DuckyDae X if you’re turning 20 this year you’re gen z

smashash123 Yeah it’s weird, like everyone was talking about the new decade and a new ten years and then there’s us millennial babies, literally turning 20 in 2020. Sure, it’s a new decade but it’s a new chapter in our lives, when we’re no longer teenagers.

I get it, i'm turning 20 in November and i'm really not looking forward to suddenly not being a teenager anymore? This year might be my last year of school (had to repeat a year due to health reasons) and it feels so surreal and i dont like change at all but i also struggle with feeling not happy right now. I think i really needed the reminder that time brings change and that that isnt necessarily a bad thing.

I'm 20 and definitely feel the same... I wonder if 25 year old me will feel different...


omg i just landed here on this video. but seriously this is a whole new dimension of feeling emotions. it's weird it's new it's exiting.. it's captivating


"You probably don't have an audience..."
Except, of course, that this video has almost as many likes as Bath has residents...
:)


When you said La La Land it hit me how fast time goes I was like La La Land wasn’t that long ago and low and behold I was in my first year of university and now I’ve graduated 😂😂


how did you find the courage (and motivation!!!) to start a youtube while still doing school?


the way i started crying at the same time you did


Watching this as a 20 year old who watched the first vid when they were 16.. fuk


Okay, anybody else who's afraid of time and growing up, go watch the movie 'Meet the Robinsons'. Just do it. It sounds stupid but transformed my perspective lol ✨


You inspired me to do the same omg I wonder how things will turn out WOw


This is such a hopeful video, I think. I like it a lot!


Who else waited 5 years to see this video?


We worry about such little, insignificant things in our day to day lives, but this is what really matters. That we can look back on our past self and say we've done them proud.


I really wish 25 year old me could talk to me and tell me it's gonna be ok...


I just turned 20 this year. The day this video was uploaded, actually.


Thanks for the video. Very good. Much love.


*main takeaway: **_things will get better_*


Dodie I'm 17 now and the first time i saw the 20 year old video and i was like 13 or 14. 1 minute into this i started sobbing because i realized how we literally grew up together. Thank you for making me the person I am today I love you so much. I hope in the next 5 years you're still proud of the person you are because you should always have that mentality. Bye happy birthday :,) <3


this made me emotional. you can see how much you’ve grown and how much you love learned. i feel so proud?? you’re so chill about things now and it’s nice to see how things can change. it gives me hope for myself honestly


“All of the mess and the memories are gone, therefore everything’s fine” why did this break me. 🥺🥺


Being 20 and feeling a tad lost and clueless and scared like younger Dodie did, but seeing older Dodie reassure her that everything is gonna be okay and she will figure shit out and she is gonna be happy, that really reassures me that things are gonna be better for me when I'm 25 and it's all gonna turn out well


as a scared 20-year-old this is the perspective that I needed

Wonder what would help a scared 34-year-old.

Suvi-Tuuli Allan KFP Gum Under the Table


they're like two completely different people this is so wild.. i might do this when im twenty


It’s actually incredible to see how much you have grown into yourself and developed and learned in the past 5 years. I remember watching this video when it first came out and really hoping you were able to find a way to look more forward instead of back. I am so glad you were able to find more of a social media balance and get to a place where you are much more mentally well ❤


I’m turning 19 this month and oh god I feel 20 years old dodie 😔


I remember when you uploaded this!!! Thanks for growing up with me!!!


"Mum and dad are a lot better than when they were-"<br>lowkey resonates with me

"Mum and dad are a lot better than when they were-"
lowkey resonates with me


This is so wholesome. It’s amazing that you were clever enough to do this and you are so yourself, I honestly felt this video so much! You are so honest which really makes your channel feel so refreshingly HUMAN (not that you should have to feel like you have to share everything in your life because that is ALWAYS up to you) but the fact that you do is so inspiring, personally I relate to you in so many ways I’m really in my feels right now haha. Congratulations on all you have achieved, you are so cool!!! <3


This was very touching doodie. Similar fears connect two persons seemingly very well, without even knowing you. Cried in the same parts as you. I am now the 20 year old. I have alot still to learn, but I hope I can record a video in 5 years and can say similar things that you said. I'll record my little timecapsule now. Tank you for being here on earth in the time were I also exist and can watch your videos. Hope you are pushing through and remember maybe your 30 year old self will say similar things that you worried still to much and maybe you also will criticize your brows again, because taste changes, but that's okay they look very beautiful now. Keep your spirit doodie. Bye bye


why is this making me so emotional and wanting to cry? wow... i have been following you ever since that video or before... fuck... and i remember i was so depressed too and sad and hating on my body and being bulimic and now i'm actually fine too and beat depression as well... this is... something else. and i hope whoever reads this, i know sometimes it really might feel like you have nowhere else to go and it's too hard but it does get better, i promise


Realizing her parents divorced, i started crying because mine did too, but when i was only 16. My cat started to purr and come on my lap to comfort me. But I'm emotional now, I understand how hard it is. Something that was always there for you, a home, is now gone. The love, is suddenly gone or changed and you know that the persons you love most in the entire world will never be together again like they were. I just cannot describe how it feels, but it feels like you never find a new home again. I promise you that you will, despite all that was lost. You'll build a new home and you'll go on with your life. Just...it's...just so hard.

The cat came to me now, not when i was 16 😂 haha


here’s to me turning 20 in 2 days thanks for inspiring me :,)


That bit in the middle scared me, I legit thought to myself "oh God, has Hedi died?"

@Hazel Macaraig Oh yay for no death! lol

black sheep She’s okay hahah. She replied to a comment here so that’s how I know. :D


lmao I love 20 year old dodie having no concept of how long 5 years is


im late and new but Dodie is so cute. She's happy crying!!!! :))


I'm definitely gonna do this. Record some questions for my future self. I should have done it before, because I grew so much, and changed so much. I think I'd probably have a good cry, and a good laugh answering some of my past questions


I feel like a lot of people couldn’t wait to grow up so they could get their independence and be able to drink and drive (Not at the same time) But I was the Opposite I loved my childhood with a strong passion and dreaded getting older. I still remember being terrified of turning 13 because it felt like the beginning of the end. Would give anything to go back & live it all even for a second

I've always had so mixed feeling about growing up.. At five I had literal breakdowns about growing up, but later I couldn't WAIT to get my license from age fourteen. Then an hour before my eighteenth birthday I broke down because "I'm turning into an adult, everything's changing and I can't help it", and now at nineteen I'm kind of exited at soon starting university and start working towards my dream profession. I still fear becoming old, but I still can't wait growing old with someone I love. There's so many feelings surrounding age and time that I can't even understand myself. (Sorry for rambling idk what happened no one cares about this lol)

Yeah I was kinda the same way. Of course there were parts of me that couldn’t wait but overall I was so terrified to let go. I felt the same way when I turned 13 lol


Omg I don’t even know you but it was soooooo hard to see that tear run down your cheek!


Im 20 right now. Watching this, i really want to record a video right now for my future self :)


WHY IS THIS THE LITERAL CUTEST VIDEO I HAVE EVER SEEN :( <3 ilysm


I came here because of Kristen, but wow. I feel like I've known you for much longer. thank you for putting this on the interwebs.


Anyone notice she didn't actually answer the are you happy question? Because Dodie god I really hope you're happy.


HER CRY MAKES ME CRY WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SOUL


CAN I JUST SAY lil dodie didn't do her makeup bad, we all looked like that!


your voice is so soft i need to put earplugs in because 100% without them is just not loud enough


This video broke me a little. I was 19 when you posted this video. I was 19 and engaged and so so sad. I was in such a different place than I am now. I watched you grow with me, as a fan. So close in age and so close in experience (as much as you can tell through videos and social media). I've got your book, I've cry sang your songs and screamed at the top of my lungs when I've celebrated your victories. And here we are, you 25 and me coming up to 25 and realizing how much my life as changed. How much I wanted to be like you, how much I thought I could love you as if I knew you. But I realize I thank you and cherish everything you have done for me without knowing me. You helped me come out as bisexual, without knowing me. Your songs helped me through depression that almost took my life, and here I am with your lyrics tattooed on my arms. So here we are. "There are things to do, there's a life to live." Here's to 25, Dodie and here's to your future 25 in a couple of months, Lyann.


Wowzers.. I remember watching this video and relating so much to it when you first posted it<br>It's crazy how fast time goes in hindsight

Wowzers.. I remember watching this video and relating so much to it when you first posted it
It's crazy how fast time goes in hindsight


I really resonate with feeling nostalgic for your 15-16 y/o self, but lately I’ve thought less about it. It isn’t healthy to obsess, even though it was an incredible time of my life. I’m turning 19 this month. It was when they suddenly split up with me and one said back then that maybe we could see each other again at our graduate (in a couple months). I’m scared that we’ve gone too far down our own paths and won’t be able to connect anymore - maybe that it will be awkward. I maybe should move on and find new friends, but I might never let go of this feeling.


aghhh so cute i want to hug chu, I saw the tear and got emotional myself ahaha


of course i'm crying while watching dodie crying watching dodie


this is crazy i'm turning 20 this year and i wanted to do something similar


I kinda want to try this. Now at 23 years old, maybe I can make a video (gosh I hate seeing myself on video) or write a letter to my 28-year-old self. This'll be interesting!


U literally sound like me! Love your videos and happy 25th birthday 🎂


I’ve recently turned 18 and I should make one of these for my 20 year old self to see how much I’ve changed


“I got nose fillers though” ok here is my formal request for dodie asmr

Morgan Symonds this is the happiest moment of my life

ur in luck friend !! just search that shit and you’ll get some gold content from a year or two ago


The pressing your tongue to the roof does help!! 😂 I do the same thing!


Makes me want to do my first 61 year old doddlevoggle.


Never lose your emotion. Especially in your music. But please try to stop worrying about time. I'm 45 now and I've decided I'd rather be 45 than 35 or 55. But when I'm 55 I would rather be 5 than 65. You are young, and so am I. You are everything you are supposed to be and your past has created that. Never wish that away. And keep writing great music. And just be happy.


I'm 22 and I feel like you at 20 <br>I hope it gets better 🙈👍

I'm 22 and I feel like you at 20
I hope it gets better 🙈👍


Me crying in my room in the middle of Easter
My mom : “okay lets take pictures!”

*Me crying in my room in the middle of Easter*
My mom : “okay lets take pictures!”


wow so I don't really follow your channel like that, but this was very beautiful


Am I the only one who thought the 20 year old Doodie looked beautiful and adorable, "overcurled" hair, eyeliner, nose, and all.


I am 20 and after watching this, I can't wait to be 25.


no way is this video over a year old already. what the fuck is happening to time


You're too cute. I'm sorry this so difficult for you! But remember you have so many memories good and bad, it'll be okay!


Dodie: God you're so afraid in this video.<br>Also Dodie: I'm so afraid to watch this video!!

Dodie: God you're so afraid in this video.
Also Dodie: I'm so afraid to watch this video!!


this video feels like a good ending to your song "when." the answer to when is now!! you've done it!! so proud and happy for you ♥


I did the same thing, last month I sent a future letter to myself in gmail, I scheduled it in 2025 and just like what she did, I told my future self everything I did today, cheer her up and all that. Hahaha now I'm just waiting to read and receive it in 2025


listen your eyeliner tutorial defined my makeup throughout middle school and i'm gonna need an updated version for science reasons


Wow I barely even know who you are but this vid brought me to tears hahah Life really is happening fast now huh, And Im only 20...


The look on 25 y.o. Dodie's face when 20 y.o. Dodie asked if she'd died 😂


everyone is talkin abt how afraid they are to grow up. im only 17, and ig im still kinda hooked on the past, but im so hopeful for the future and this just gives me more hope. ive had so much happen to me and ive been through so many phases, im ready to go through so much more. im so grateful to be alive and experience all these emotions and experience the world changing. everythin gets worse before it gets better, so im just happily striving for my better.

@r i hope u have a good life too 🥺. the small things are always so important. im glad i made u smile !

@Amanda Lynn im literally cryin. people like you make me so so happy to be alive. its hard somedays to be easy on myself but i really try to every single day. its my motto and anytime my friends are in distress i always tell them that. ill always remember this comment 💞

Be easy on yourself. I look back at 17 year old Me and she was so sad, so apprehensive,  so sure that any day now "It" would just click & she'd  figure it all out.
Just treat yourself with kindness, wash your face, oh my GOD use YouTube "lightning and rainstorm" videos instead of lying awake all hours of the night in thought spirals. I am so excited for what you have in store for you, @:.stardust.: 💜

Be easy on yourself. I look back at 17 year old Me and she was so sad, so apprehensive,  so sure that any day now "It" would just *click* & she'd  figure it all out.
Just treat yourself with kindness, wash your face, oh my GOD use YouTube "lightning and rainstorm" videos instead of lying awake all hours of the night in thought spirals. I am so excited for what you have in store for you, @:.stardust.: 💜

I’m 16 and this made me smile so much. I don’t know why but this gratefulness to be alive just reminds me to appreciate the small things happening in my life now. I don’t know you, but honestly I hope you have a good life <3


this is the first video ive ever watched of yours and the death of tufty has made me physically cry


I remember watching that video when it came out... It doesn't feel like 5 years have passed


why was i sobbing so hard this entire video 🥺


i’m genuinely feeling so proud of u rn dodie, you’ve come so far since that video i’m so glad that i’ve been able to see u grow over the years as well


I’m literally 20 year old dodie rn waiting to get to 25 year old dodie ugh I hope that I can have that breakthrough but I feel like everyone just goes through this identity crisis and growing pains thing


i watched dear 25 year old me when i was 11.. i went through the whole of highschool waiting for this wow


Im going to be 20 in November and literally freakin out coz i have nothing planned or even close to start in my life..and thats is so sad for me ..like i keep on roaming in circles reaching nowhere🥀


“it’s more of a friend now” i am sobbing


Oh my god I’m actually bawling at this, 20 year old Dodie reminds me so much of me and I really hope 23 year old me is this much happier than 18 year old me


"I wish I could play them for her, I wonder what she'd think" tears


i just want to grab you through the screen and give you a big fat hug 🥺


This is recommended like crazy to me. YouTube, how many times should I watch this? Isn't three times enough? :-D


I've watched this so many times since it came out I just love <br>You

I've watched this so many times since it came out I just love
You


Dodie, i remember watching this video that year ;_; i kinda want to do the same since I am currently 20 now!! ive done private videos like this, but i want to post one 👀


I think I have depersonalization. Im always feeling in a dream like state where nothing is real or Im not real. Thanks for bringing awareness!


I just, I just love and care for you so much.


i literally had the same idea of doing this.. watching this made me feel like.. i dont know..


tell me why i cried through this whole video


okay but as someone who has been watching since 2015 why am i crying oh my


I loveddd this. thank you for doing this video


this gave me so much hope for the future :)


I love that she calls her younger self babe. 😂👍😊💜


ok, but this i genuinely a  bit mad for me. turning 22 in about 26 days and I still remember you looking like that. And i love how far you've come... and that in that time i've actually got to meet you, Daniel (even Hedy randomly) and everyone that brought me so much happiness when i thought i just couldn't be. So much has changed but im so so glad that this was recommended to me... Thank you.


im glad youtube recommended this to me because i kind of needed to see this right now <3


This is weird, but I remember being 13 and watching this and now I'm about to turn 18 growing up is so weird


I wish I'd cared for younger me so much more


i'm 25 this year and this was VERY relatable


I can't believe it's been 2 years since this happened :(


I joke about this with people but it's really true; I'm a cisgender straight black male in his mid 30's from America whose favorite musical genre is rap and I truly think that Dodie may be my spirit animal. Whenever I need to describe my mood to someone, I just send them the song 6/10 and say that it's pretty much that.

Keep living your truth Dodie and being honest in your music. You're touching way more people than you'll ever know. And I say this from experience that you're not a complete project at 25. Life will continue to change in wonderful and weird ways that you'll never truly be able to guess. But if you keep the mindset of trying to be better today than you were yesterday, you'll end up ever better at 30 and wonder why 25 was so naive :)


I could never imagine posting such a personal video of myself like this, wow


just seeing how far dodie has come makes me so incredibly happy, feels like yesterday she posted would you be so kind. She inspires me so much was one of the inspirations to start my youtube channel I have today 💓


this video gives me hope as a twenty year old


I think its physically impossible to meet someone you're peak stanning and NOT act like some sort of invalid


''god i wish i could play them for her I wonder what she'd think'' NAH I'm crying


i cried throughout this whole thing. you’ve grown so much so beautifully. proud of you and your eyebrows


ahhh omg this made me cry! im crying right now lol im 16 and i am SO scared of the future i think i might do a similar thing for 20 year old me lol try and look into the future in a good way and not in a scared way :/


"but then everything is fine, OOP"<br>Is incredibly relatable

"but then everything is fine, OOP"
Is incredibly relatable


20 yr old dodie is probably so fucking proud of you


Hi Dodie, I don’t know I’ll get lost in the comments (lil cringey lol) but I just wanted to say thank you so much for making this. I used to watch your old doddlevloggle videos ALL the time (I was about 10, now I am 15) and my favorite was probably “Dear 25 YO me” and “how to make tea” or something haha. I never knew I’d make it to see you reply to the video and it makes me so happy I got to see it. You were and still are a huge inspiration to me and thank you so much for all you do. This really did make my day...hope you’re doing well. Love you.


Dodie is the equivalent of a red skittle :)


This just gave me so much hope and perspective. I just turned 19 and I’m still feeling just as lost as I was at 15. The only difference that I feel like my mental health has improved so that’s something. But it’s still a battle some days and I don’t really know what I’m supposed to be doing with my life yet, and the not knowing sucks because I don’t want to waste any time that I have here alive. It blows my mind to think of how close 25 is for me yet it feels so very far and I know that life will be so very different, or at least I hope it will be. Seeing this just reminds me to be patient with myself and to allow myself to grow at my own pace, not at the pace of others.


8:45 reminds me of that bojack quote that’s floating around on tiktok when he’s like “it’s just the way it is”....


I feel like I should do this but I refuse to film myself all the time<br> -/////-

I feel like I should do this but I refuse to film myself all the time
 -/////-


i cant believe i've been watching you for five years already


dodie: * starts crying *<br>me: * starts crying *

dodie: * starts crying *
me: * starts crying *


damn, i kinda want to make a video for my future self now. or at least write a letter.


This is such an experience to watch. I remember watching your “dear 25 year old me” video when it first came out. I was 15 then. I just turned 20 this month (my birthday is exactly a week before yours), and the things we’ve both been through in that timespan have been crazy, scary, sad, and wonderful, but all that time, you’ve been making my life better. I’m so grateful to have gotten to watch your journey while going through my own. Thank you for everything you do.


This is an incredibly beautiful video. Wow


Well that was the most substantial thing I've seen in a good  long while. Thank you for that. One wonders what the next five will hold.


when I tell you I CRIED MY EYES OUT
we've been through so much
and everything gets better and will get even better


As someone who is really going through the worst of it right now.. you have no idea how comforting it is to see someone who's mental woes are EXACTLY like yours, tell you it gets better. I hate time passing. I can't think about the future, I can't picture 4 years from now.. but I'm hoping REALLY really hard.. that I too, can get to a point in my life where I can I say I got through it, and that it gets better.

Thanks Dodie!


'anything to do with time passing and things changing gets to me' Honestly same. The song landslide ruins me for that reason haha


God damn crying and wheezing is such a mood


I feel so many similarities from me 5 years ago to now. Ugh.


when you cried about heddy i cried to. you’ve changed my life so much, and so much for the better. i’ve been a fan of you since one of the worst parts in my life and you’ve helped me so so much in so many ways. i met you way back in 2017 and it was one of the best days of my life. thank you for the best 5 years dodie, you’ve changed my life, thank you so much <3


i forgot how much this video makes me cry


I love watching her react to her old self because it’s reminding me of who I used to be when I first started watching her. When I first started watching her, I’d just moved to a new city and I didn’t really know a whole lot of people and her music helped me through that, but now I’ve grown as a person and I have amazing, supportive friends whom I love. It’s just really lovely seeing how dodie’s grown as a person and I feel like, in a way, her fans have grown with her as well and I love that. ❤ Happy Easter by the way haha


Thank you , for a flash from the past..   hope you do continue on seeing a bright future while enjoying the present and still making memories for your future past. With the extra vitamin C fruit juices or multi vitamins.


Dodie makes me cry and im a 20 year old man with a quite macho job


i don't normally comment on things but oh boooyyyyyyyy. while i am so so sure this was a ride for you, it was for me as well. i've been watching your vids for quittteee a long while now, and lemme say i watched that dear 20 video when i myself was 15? 16? and i've just always loved watching your videos and just seeing that little bit of life. definitely went thru some things with you, watched way too many of your snapchat's and life updates, although i'll admit i never got into the instagram stories,, and now i'm sitting here watching this video and i'm 20 now. and i'm remembering what i was like back five years ago right with you and wow. i remember seeing you thru depression shit and i was sitting right there with you, and i remember some stuff into 2017? maybe and honestly just feeling like you and how you talked about your brain and just things hit so hard for me as i had began battling depression in 2014 and continued battling the waves thru to when you were vocal online at least about what you were going through. honestly you were one of the big factors in helping me convince myself to try to get help,, and i can definitely say that led to better things. while you may have felt like,, and i mean maybeeee did, you shared too much, you really helped me to share anything at all, because i really did not tell anyone and had this huge persona i had built to keep people from knowing how much pain i was in, and well dodie, you helped me take that first step to be a little vulnerable every once in while. not sure if your gonna read this, and if anyone else has well thanks for listening to a bit of a sob story. but i just wanted to put a big ol thanks into the universe and hope that somehow dodie knows that her videos have kinda been dominos in a big trail of everyone who's ever watched them. and cheers


Please, i NEED a 30 year old versión of this, ill come black in 5 years...!!!


It is pretty crazy how this video made me feel like I actually really am a part of some mysterious, grand journey. I went from 15 to 20 since watching the first video and, yeah, i was pretty crazy but I cannot wait for what's coming. Also it is pretty nice to reflect on the past but in a positive way. I hope when I'm 25 I can still hear some beautiful demos you post to help me get through life <33


Woah, not gonna lie i just wanted to give her a hug at multiple points in this video :S


did anyone else laugh and cry while dodie laughed and cried?


Ouuuu 😭 ❤ this is beautiful omg I want to do this but I’m SCARED


I don’t normally comment but as a 16-year-old with a huge fear of time passing, this video made me feel a lot better. Looking back at 11-year-old me, whom I somehow both envy and pity, and forward to 21-year-old me, who will be (hopefully) graduating college, fills me with a lot of feelings, few of which I can describe, but this video gave me a lot of hope. Thank you dodie and know that videos like this really do help people♥


When she started sobbing I started tearing up too 😟


I love you, Dodie!
(And Defying Gravity!!!! 12:30)


Hold on. Did you say that learning that you're derealising can lead to things getting better? Is there some kind of technique that helps me to learn to manage this? Or something?


You may not be in musical theatre, but I did make a mini musical for school based on your music!! :)


OMG, i loved your video i think you are beautiful. i wish i had made a video for my older me :(


hi dodie ! i started watching you when i was ten , a whole five years ago when i definitely should not have had unrestricted access to the internet.

i've kind of grown up watching you and listening to your music ? you've been one of the only constants in my life for a very long time and im just thankful that you exist.

so thank you dodie, you're kind of the best !

xx

SEULLKOLL - is that the legend that is professor hidgens in your icon??


I watched this when it came out and I <b>can’t</b> believe it’s been 5 years

I watched this when it came out and I *can’t* believe it’s been 5 years


Oh Dodie.... Sweetheart, there are few people on the planet that bring it the nurturing instinct in me the way you do. If you do indeed read these comments, you'll have a long list of positive ones wishing you all the best. And so many people that would hug you through your tearful moments.

This was sweet, thankfully sweet enough to overpower the sad... And God knows life has enough sad to break us down. I'm just glad you found yourself. And as you go forward, when you break again, because you will... You'll know how to glue yourself together again, because you've done it before.
Be well Dodie. 💛


dodie is my main source of serotonin right now


I started crying when you were talking about your grandad around 8 minutes in. <br>This is a hard time for my grandparents at the moment with everything that's going on, and it will be lovely to properly see them soon.

I started crying when you were talking about your grandad around 8 minutes in.
This is a hard time for my grandparents at the moment with everything that's going on, and it will be lovely to properly see them soon.

My nan passed only 4 weeks after this video was released 💔<br>Sobbing now

My nan passed only 4 weeks after this video was released 💔
Sobbing now


i got so confused when she all of a sudden started crying like it cut so suddenly and i was just like woah


Not me sobbing at 1:30 am because YouTube recommended this video to me :’)


who else sobbed throughout the whole video?


why am i crying whole time while watching this video...


Oh my god Dodie, you did it! I'm so proud of you and glad I got to watch this amazing journey and growth. I have learned so much from you, being only a year apart, it's like you're my guiding and caring older sister who has seen me through so much bad that's happened. And I was there, just listening, I don't have much good advice to give, but man am I a heck of a listener. You are my Demi Lovato, I love Demi and her music, but if I had one wish during Quarantine it'd be a facetime with dodie clark. Thank you for sharing this and sharing your emotions, and thank you so so much for letting us be apart of your life. I'm SO so excited to see what happens in the next 5 years! Keep at it! <3


me realizing me and dodie’s sister are the same age and that has me sending wth


I'm about to turn 23... and I'm happy I didn't make one of those videos because I feel like I'd have nothing interesting to tell myself...


Idk, but I literally started crying when she mentioned the cat dying 😢


I sobbed through this whole thing. I'm 28 and I worry about the future a lot, but it helps to imagine an older me sitting down and telling myself that all of this stuff I'm going through now is going to be okay. It helps to see dodie physically do that.


this made me cry way too much for no reason


HEY I THOUGHT THE SONGS AT 20 WERE JUST AS AMAZING <3<3


Watching this on my 30th and crying in tears lol


this makes me feel so... happy? relieved? life really just does go on. it’s terrifyingly amazing. thank u for this video, dodie, and for how awesome u are <3


I'm 20 now and I don't think I'll grow that much in 5 years


I’m turning 20 next month n this made me cry


1:49 and im already sobbing

update: dodie started to cry so i started to cry

last update: this is one of my favourite videos ever.


"Yaknow you eat the chorizo 🤷♀" SAME AS HELL


She hasn't even gotten through the intro and she's crying :') Dodie, you adorable little bean

Oh man that hyperventilation part got me though :'(


this made me emotional i remember watching this when i was 11 years old


I was 15 when the first vid was posted and I was this self insecure child who surrounded myself with awful ppl and hated everything. I’m almost 20 now and I can say SO much has changed. I have so many great people in my life, I actually like myself, I’m confident, I grew out my awful haircut, I’m comfortable with the future, etc. just weird thinking about how much I’ve grown since you’ve grown ❤❤


idk why i thought this but she seems like her breath would smell like applesauce and i mean this in the best way possible


Dodie can you drop the link to that La La Land background, I need that in my life. It’s so good


This is so weird getting this video. I JUST turned 20 yesterday.....
Weird

Kinda wanna do one of these lol


Dodie, seeing how much you’ve grown over the last 5 years is so inspiring - I’m so proud of you. I’m 20 now and things aren’t easy, but this reminds me how much I have to look forward to, so thank you xxx


I have derealization also and that shocked me when u said that because I never really hear about people talking about it but it s a struggle


when you told me the cat died i started bawling


dodies crying face is actually beautiful? I look VILE when i cry sksks


And now i’m crying bc i didn’t know u had a book


oh my goodness-new videos is what we all needed in quarantine<br>and watching this was an emotional rollercoaster... im so glad you're doing better :)

oh my goodness-new videos is what we all needed in quarantine
and watching this was an emotional rollercoaster... im so glad you're doing better :)


She's ten years older than me and I'm not okay with that.


Welp cried my whole way through with you again


Making a video for your future self was a pretty smart move.<br>Will you be repeating the exercise, for the benefit of your 30 year old self?

Making a video for your future self was a pretty smart move.
Will you be repeating the exercise, for the benefit of your 30 year old self?


Life is a journey. It's okay if you're not where you think you should be because you're exactly where you're meant to be.


Dear 20 year old Dodie, you’re going to make so much beautiful music that changed the lives of so many people, you’re going to make so many people feel emotions you haven’t quite felt yourself yet. You’re going to write multiple EPs of incredible art and you’re going to grow up into a beautiful woman who has changed in so many ways. I was 13 when you uploaded that video and I’d just discovered your sound and I’m still with you today but on an entirely different account surrounded by much better people because you taught me that love is more valuable than quantity of friends. You’re going to become an incredible young woman, and you’re going to influence a lot of young people do want to be better and you make a lot of things make a lot more sense to us.       Sincerely, a fan who’s watched you grow and is so proud of you!


thank u so much for this video. i needed this


On the same acne medication and youre soo right


Me being 20 and so much like her 20 year old self.. it feels a lot like she is speaking to me which is strange but strangely comforting🙈


i can't believe i've been a fan for over five years


currently 20 and I’m crying my eyes out at this.


oh god i’m 20 now and in 5 years i’ll be 25 which seems so far (2025 like wtf) but it really isn’t because 2015 was only 5 years ago and that still seems recent 😭 life goes fast


I'm abt to turn 20 and I feel like my mental age is still at 15 years old


I was wondering what to write. I think "Thank you both." is ok.


you couldn't show this video to 20 year old you but 20 year old me is watching it now and needs it for a lot of the same reasons so thank you for making this even if it was difficult


oh Dodie, I am five years younger than you and this video gave me so much hope. It's been amazing following you through the rollercoaster that has been the past five years. I hope that I will have gained as much wisdom by the age of 25 as you have. I respect you so much and this video was just perfect and exactly the hopeful boost that I needed. Thank you!! ♡♡♡


8:48 in the video
Sorry about the poor cat...
I lost two guinea pigs over the cours of exactly two months...
13 aug friday afternoon , and 12 okt 3.30 in the middle of the night..
The way they past on was truely heartbreaking... I cryed my eyes out.
Next tuesday it is three weeks since Stella past away.. It's very hard to tell you this...

Okay,.. Here we go..

In the week of 30 Juli I'd gone to th vet with both one of my guinea pigs because one of them (Mercedes, a sow) had cramps (so I thought).
FF a week, and I saw a lumb on her right elbow. -> Another vissit to the vet. A few days later I got the horrable news..: lymph node cancer, untreatable...
Another week later she was full of large tumors.. She even walked like a young child with dirty diapers that had the mumps.
I couldn't see her live like that any longer... So on the 13th of August I let her put down... I still feel guilty. But she is in a better place now..

On 18 Sept. I went to a guineapig shelter. Because Jelle (a castrated boar), had been alone for almost four weeks now.

The same day I adopted a pair of two super cute sisters. Stella and Bianca. Both had/have "rex"/"teddy" fur

A long story short, Stella wasn't a big eater, and after about two, three-ich weeks, out of the blue she got diarea.
Secondes later there was blood too. That happend on a sunday (out of all days).
I called the animalhospital, and had to cycal 5 miles to get her there. All on the same day. The next morning I got their call: Bladder infection.
I thought of far, FAR wors, but this could be treated. A week later she weighed only 0,599 kg. That was monday 11 okt.

Here comes the sadest part.. I'm sorry in advance.

That evening, Stella began to breathe heavily. She got worse by the minute.. In the middle of the night I woke up of scraching nails from their large cage.

So I got up to look how she was doing.. And there she was, lying on her side, gasping for air.. (sorry for any typos. my hands are shaking)
I lifted her out of the cage, and sat down on the side of my bed with her in my hands. while she was still gasping for air.
And then I started ugly-crying. She died in the palm of my hands a vew minuteslater.. She choked...
I kept crying for 20 minutes straight.

A vew things happened after that. But I think that's not so important.

greets from NL
Bas

I'm still at 8:48 in the video. please give me a moment to coninue watching. I'll comment after the video ended
Edit: I feel sick with sadness when I think about my two poor girls...

Edit 2: A lot happend indeed. Al I can say is, keep the positive side up, cause I can't think of anything els


this kind of feels like the video on the flash drive from the movie eighth grade but like... older


I DO EXACTLY THE SAME THING SINCE I WAS LIKE12 im so happy right now


Wait Dodie it's fucking awesome you are using an anti-testosterone medication acne!


my parents are separated and with other people too. it really shines a light on how much they care for you but also how they have their own lives away from you. and i think that's something we forget as sons/daughters. it's almost ironic; that other peoples happiness can evoke our own sadness. regardless, i hope you are having a very pleasant easter! :):)


Wow, 'When' really was a character development moment.


Do we need a quarantine house tour or what😂❤❤


I've just turned 20 this past March... I don't know if I'm going to make it to 21


I KNOW IM NOT MEANT TO BE CRYING BUT I AM BIG TIME


this video was so therapeutic like uhh WO- no words..!!?


i was 12 when i started watching your videos. holy crap.


this is so beautiful dodie! hope you’re doing good, staying safe and all that. love to you, this is one of the most beautiful, emotional videos i’ve ever watched. you should be so proud of how far you’ve come and who you are today. this was wonderful, love to you xx


Fab... completely honest with yourself.  Perfect


i can't wait for the video on your 30th birthday 'hello 25 year old me'


can you do a video on where you see the direction for this channel going dodie?


You've got the freckles that you've always wanted!


u make me wish i had an older sister :'''''


Doddle, you're wonderfully vulnerable. I fought Cancer twice and lost a big piece of my face to amputation. A tumor ate up my jaw and I was labeled an ugly freak. I started over from scratch, and started a YouTube channel to inspire others who feel ugly and not good enough for this superficial world.. my face will not define me. with positive projection you can overcome any mental or physical hurdle. go check me out and subscribe if you want to help me grow. i want to give people a spark of change and join me on my journey!


This is probably the best video I've ever watched.


Everyone here is like, "I'm now twenty." Or something and I'm over here. I've been watching since I was six. Heh. I'm thirteen... Heheh.


i have the same fears about the future rught now and its so strange to be watching this video. im crying so much right now

im back a year later. few things make me cry as much as this video. i hope 25 year old me is as kind to 20 year old me as dodie is to her younger self


okay, since everyone is sharing their thoughts on here i'll share mine as well.

i watched that video of yours when i was 13. i'm 18 now. although i kind of drifted away from social media, i'm still as dedicated to dodie as how i was before. at 13, i battled the same anxiety that 20 year-old dodie had, but in kind of like a reverse way. i was a complete nothing battling probably the lowest stage of my life. for some reason i was unhappy and dwelled on “what ifs.” growing up terrified me because i saw how it troubled you so much. i went through a shit load of things and now that i'm a little older, i realize that things really do get better. the lyrics “in a little bit of time, it won't hurt so bad” from secret of the mad made so much sense, and i'm glad that i grew with a bit of dodie's help. her songs are what fueled me inside and she as a whole is just an inspiration to me. at 18, i'm still a nothing, but i'm happier now. seeing dodie grow made me want to improve myself as well. so, thank you, dodie.


'What if you've died' I feel bad for laughing  😂


can i love a video more than life it self?


6:47 Watching Dodie cry and have a lil meltdown is such a mood

I can't click that time capture, cuz it got me to tear a little, and it's fine. I don't want no more, even though it's happy tears.


I barely watch your videos but seeing you cry made me cry. What is this!


You really should talk to your 30 year old self. You can ask if you've written a musical by then. I've been hearing it for years. I hear London/Broadway all the time. It's gonna happen one of these days.


Just yesterday I found a letter I had written 4 years ago, I thought I was gonna start HRT and get surgery and I haven't yet but I remember at that time it felt like I would die if I didn't and now looking back it's okay? the wait, and yeah I would love it if it had happened but it didn't and I'm not too mad about it. Also, I had started the letter by saying "hope you're well and loving someone" and I have been dating the guy I liked at that time for 2 years now. It's amazing how time passes, I responded myself and will read my letter in a few years/months.<br>Good vibes for everyone, hope you've all achieved your goals, or starting working towards them ♥

Just yesterday I found a letter I had written 4 years ago, I thought I was gonna start HRT and get surgery and I haven't yet but I remember at that time it felt like I would die if I didn't and now looking back it's okay? the wait, and yeah I would love it if it had happened but it didn't and I'm not too mad about it. Also, I had started the letter by saying "hope you're well and loving someone" and I have been dating the guy I liked at that time for 2 years now. It's amazing how time passes, I responded myself and will read my letter in a few years/months.
Good vibes for everyone, hope you've all achieved your goals, or starting working towards them ♥


It's crazy, I'm the same age as Heather but I still remember being 9 (10 in a couple weeks after dear 25 year old me was uploaded) and laying on my bed watching this on my iPad 4 with a pink flip cover. I loved Dodie's short hair with the curly fringe and polka dots everywhere. I remember watching Heather's Q&A video when she had the football hair. Now I'm 15 years old (16 in a couple weeks after this video came out) and I'm laying on my bed watching this on my phone with a blue rose and yellow sky flip case, I follow Heather on IG and tiktok and she inspires me so much, I hope to go to marches in London and inspire people. I love Dodie's plants and her long poofy unbrushed hair and her whole grey thing where she stacks up the layers in winter while still looking cute. I love the whole 70s vibe that Heather has and I've developed my own style (even though I don't own the clothes in that style). Essentially Dodie has been a part of my life since I was a child and now I'm one quarantine ending away from going into sixth form while my heroes are out being an inspiration for us all. Thank you Dodie for striving forward and facing your hardships, I know that you don't want to share as much online but what you have shared had saved my life.

@elis z Well happy belated birthday to you too! It's so crazy how they've impacted so many lives and that there are so many individuals out there with a similar story 😚

I am also the same age as you and Hedy (just a little bit older in January and also early happy birthday !!) and watched this video when it first came out in the same state as you did, inspired by the both of them and still inspired by all that they have become and are still going through. Crazy how we really do be living sorta the same lives out here 😛 but ah anyways, that’s all. Just scrolling through the comments and seeing how much their journeys have impacted our own lives and whatnot, it’s beautiful, really.


Dang this video hit me hard with that quarter life crisis


first, comment here verified person, after 9 months. I'm waiting for my prize


watch this video every few months for good cries

dang its only been a month and I'm back already


I love how the sense of privacy has been so wholesome from you, as an influencer. I am happy I got the privilege to watch this meta video.


i remember watching the first video 5 years ago,, holy shit


fuck this was an emotional rollercoaster🙇🏼♀ was a og-fan from the start but eventually I unsubscribed because it wasn’t my kinda style anymore, anyway, it’s really weird how much everything has changed since then🙇🏼♀ Really glad to hear you tackled your derealisation 😇 Also just realized how much of an impact you had on my coming out🙃 it’s just really mindblowing how much things have changed😯 I know you prob won’t read this but I still wish you the best of luck in your coming years😇


Now you've gotta do one for your 30 year old self!


<b>having a mental breakdown while elevator music is playing in the background</b>

*having a mental breakdown while elevator music is playing in the background*


I want to make a video of me too and watch it after 5 or 10 years.


Daaammnn even I got emotional there for a sec!


Can't wait for charliissocoollike to post his reaction to his 'Dear 30 Year Old Me' video


the phone that 20 year old dodie has is what I currently have haha


Honestly this would be so interesting. Such a good idea.


Ohmygod, I saw the old vid go live... it's been 5 years already?!


Okay when she asked “Are you happy?” I had to pause it because I just started sobbing


this made me so sad and nostalgic for some reason


HOLY SHIT
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT I'VE HEARD MY NAME OUTSIDE OF. MYSELF
"with Bethan"
WHY DID THAT GIVE ME LIKE. HAPPINESS???
I DON'T
ASDHAHE
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

For context: I changed my name to Bethan a few months ago.


dodie if you need a hug i shall give you the biggest virtual hug that you've ever had. 🤗💖💞🤗 LoveAlways fr me in🇨🇦🍁 💙😌 KareBear

(i hope you are okay~but if you're not that is okay) 🙁 (it's difficult to see you cry, i'm so sorry dodie, everything will be alright..truly) please stay safe and take care! 💗

*dodie if you need a hug i shall give you the biggest virtual hug that you've ever had.* 🤗💖💞🤗 *LoveAlways* *fr me in🇨🇦🍁* 💙😌 *KareBear*

*(i hope you are okay~but if you're not that is okay)* 🙁 *(it's difficult to see you cry, i'm so sorry dodie, everything will be alright..truly)* *please stay safe and take care!* 💗


the amount of growth in five years is astounding we’re so proud of you dodie 💛💛


i remember that vid comin out n thinkin 5 yrs was so long away


I just have to say that i know you read the comments and OH GOD I am so proud and seing you grow has been amazing and this is my new favorite vid out of aaaall of your videos and probably all youtube :)<br>Dodie you are so important to A LOT of people and the fact that you are still living and letting people see a tiny bit of your life brightens up many people's lives

I just have to say that i know you read the comments and OH GOD I am so proud and seing you grow has been amazing and this is my new favorite vid out of aaaall of your videos and probably all youtube :)
Dodie you are so important to A LOT of people and the fact that you are still living and letting people see a tiny bit of your life brightens up many people's lives


I soooo want to be able to relate to depression being a friend. Hopefully one day I will be able to but right now it’s like a clingy ‘friend’


god i remember watching this video when it came out.


I watched this five years ago. Im now 21. So strange.


i started crying 2 minutes in.<br>"I wish I could show you-" Man that got me.

i started crying 2 minutes in.
"I wish I could show you-" Man that got me.


holy shit. i remember that. this is crazy.


i remember watching this at the first i was balling and now i’m balling


wow the FEELS this made me think about how fast and weird the passing of time is like i’m almost 16 and i do NOT feel like it also the way she called her past self babe was so adorable

make a video for yourself! you dont have to post it but i think u would love to see the change in urself! <3


Omg I remember that video!!! Never thought I would see this.


why am i crying<br>edit: i was at like 30 secs in, what a fool i was

why am i crying
edit: i was at like 30 secs in, what a fool i was


shit i remember watching the 20 year old one when i was 15


Wow, I'm 20 now! I wonder what's gonna be like at 25. If all goes to plan I'll have graduated and worked for a full year. There'll be another presidential election in 2022.

Oof, time is a bit scary. Oh well, it's gonna pass whether I like it or not. Better make the most of it.

Wow, I'm 20 now! I wonder what's gonna be like at 25. If all goes to plan I'll have graduated and worked for a full year. There'll be another presidential election in 2022.

Oof, time *is* a bit scary. Oh well, it's gonna pass whether I like it or not. Better make the most of it.


i kept crying while watching this just like wow i ya


Awh I wish ppl would find my music , love this video :)


then in 5 years(2025) she reacts to this video an after she react to his reaction of his reaction an everybody cries


me crying coz  im turning 20 n i havent achieve anything T . T


Watching Dodie through this journey and not even realising how incredible her growth has been is just amazing... So happy for you. The ‘I hope you’re happy’ broke my heart and to see in your eyes that you are was the most heartwarming thing ever. You deserve it so much, dodie.


Has anyone told you how beautiful you are? I'm sure they have. I'm telling you again. Your'e a babe.


the way she almost loses it when she mentions shannon


I can't believe I've been watching you for five years now, I can't stop crying watching this video. I'm turning 20 in 3 days and I've been watching you since I was 14, it's just a lot. Thank you so much for being a very important part of shaping me into who I am today. I love you.


I'm turning 15 next year, should I do this too?


5 years sounds like nothing on paper but damn it's a long ass time <br>crazy how far y've come!

5 years sounds like nothing on paper but damn it's a long ass time
crazy how far y've come!


Oh god my pillow is SOAKED i didn't even realize i cried that much??? "just anything to do with time passing, and things changing, just really kind of hits something in me", GOD, why am i still crying i need to go to sleep


oh man, this was an emotional ride. i remember seeing that upload five years ago and being so excited to see your response to her. to think that so many of us have been able to watch you grow and change over this period is simply wonderful. it has been so lovely following you on your journey and i can’t wait to see you grow even more 💕


i can't believe it's been over a year since this video


this is the most gorgeous  video ive seen today


The last 3 years I've been living in the past. Now I can't stop


oh my god I remember watching that when it came out


“It’s more of a friend now” thats actually a REALLY good way of putting it


Wow. You're 25. Wow. It feels weird in my brain.


I didn’t realize it’s been 5 years, I’ve been here a minute


You remind me of Minnie Driver in Good Will Hunting <3


Why does YouTube recommend me videos like this when its so late 😭😭😭😭

I feel like I'm unravelling a little this week. Its so hard existing atm.


I can relate about the scariness of time passing but it’s weird because I’m about to turn 14 so I haven’t really seen much of ‘life’ yet but I get really scared that I’m going to forget about everything?? I write diaries and record journals on voice memo everyday and just talk about everything and everyone in massive detail just so that I will remember it all, YouTube and writing songs help but yeah, I just get a .bit scared about all of that. Happy birthday dodie :) I hope you enjoy being 25

Wow, this got way more responses than I thought it would, thank you so much for everyone’s advice I really appreciate it :) x

I feel you! I was the same way when I was 14 (and I still am a little bit) and that's okay! (I hope you're okay with me giving some unasked for advice here) But the most valuable thing I learned in the years since then is that it's also really important to just allow yourself to just exist. Trust me when I say that that scared me s o much when I was younger, because I didn't want to forget anything, ever. But the (kinda harsh) truth is that it's impossible to remember everything. And that's okay! It's okay to just enjoy things! Lots of things have happened in my life since I was 14 (god, weird to think about) and I definitely don't remember all of them, or document everything, but I'm okay. I have a lot more thoughts about this but I don't want to share all over your comment (whoops), so I'll end it here. I hope you find peace and have a nice day :D (things will be okay!)

Meg Curl Music keep writing them! I have a terrible memory and have forgotten so much about my early teens lol, wish i still had them. I've started writing stuff down now but I never feel like there's enough

I'm 20 and due to trauma, I have bad memory loss. I record everything in diaries and in YouTube videos! I wish I did more but I often forget my camera or forget to write my diary. There's so much to learn and grow from! 14 feels like so so long ago!

I also had the feeling in my teens (now 25) of being very afraid of losing the memories and myself, and feeling like adulthood was selling out or somehow lesser than how I was then. It's okay though :) I'm glad I don't remember every moment of living with an untreated and festering mental illness. I'm glad that I have changed - because I've kept what was important about me (my curiosity and kindness) but grown out of what was less good (my judgemental tendencies and arrogance). It's good to want to remember and I am glad I still have old playlists and poems and diary entries; but I don't want to look at them very much. Look forward to growth and enjoy the present if you can :)

Its weird looking back on your teens, you kind of remember The Vibe of the times, and you'll stumble over old playlists with the songs you used to love and it'll bring you right back to then. You'll have weird discussions with new friends about the stuff you used to do in summer and it'll bring back lots of small pockets of memories and the cringes and stuff you thought was so important then but you've forgotten about now. You will find all your old diaries and laugh at your past self and remember how important those things were bc that's just how big your world was then. You'll be relieved you don't have homework when you come home from a long day at work and you'll be able to do whatever you want (which will be scary and weird) but you'll wake up one day and you'll be okay. <br>- from a 24 year old who's still weirded out about being an "adult"

Its weird looking back on your teens, you kind of remember The Vibe of the times, and you'll stumble over old playlists with the songs you used to love and it'll bring you right back to then. You'll have weird discussions with new friends about the stuff you used to do in summer and it'll bring back lots of small pockets of memories and the cringes and stuff you thought was so important then but you've forgotten about now. You will find all your old diaries and laugh at your past self and remember how important those things were bc that's just how big your world was then. You'll be relieved you don't have homework when you come home from a long day at work and you'll be able to do whatever you want (which will be scary and weird) but you'll wake up one day and you'll be okay.
- from a 24 year old who's still weirded out about being an "adult"

I wrote a bunch of journals at 14 too! Looking back is nice, but some of my best memories are from when I let go of worrying about recording every detail and instead just let myself live for a bit

I was also very scared of one day forgetting about my friends, my school, and just everything that was important when I was about 13-14, so I wrote a lot of things down back then because of it. I am 16 now and I really want to tell you, its ok to forget! we are all born to forget! it was rlly not as scary as I anticipated when I couldn't recount details about what I used to love, because there are new things that I love now <3

I hear you. I'm 20, and due to really bad sleep deprivation, my short term memory is so bad. Like, I've gotta write in my journal 😂😅 it's crazy


I wish we could get young dodies response lol


I had to mentally prepare myself for a week before watching this


I remember when that video came out when I was 12. I’m now a couple months away from 18 and so much has changed since then. I still watch Dodie though since she’s got me though a lot and I finally saw her live. Her music is the soundtrack to my life. This video was an emotional rollercoaster for me as well. Thank you, Dodie


I only liked your comment because yes I did come from Kristen's vid, but you're pfp is Joji and I respect that.


Watching this after the release of “When”... did she take “I’ll never be sixteen again” from this video? 1:20


Dodie does have abs wtf have you SEEN your insta


Dodie, film one for your 20 year old self!!!!


I completely feel the "feeling like you rewired your brain", but during this quarantine I've relapsed, and I'm just not sure what I can do now...

If I did something, I could just try them again but I didn't do anything, it just happened, and now I don't think it could just happen like that again


scared to make this video , scared to watch this video ahahha<br>you are so so cutee!

scared to make this video , scared to watch this video ahahha
you are so so cutee!


This calmed me down and I was hoping to have a breakdown 'cause I also don't like this time passing stuff


I saw this when it came out, and I saw this again today when it was recommended.


yes! I am on the same medicine for my acne.


I was 14 when I watched the “dear 25 year old me” video. I’m now 19. I feel so proud of you Dodie. You’ve battled so much and it truly warms my heart seeing how brave and strong you are. Sending you my love 💛


I want to come and comfort u when u were crying and hyperventilating.  ❤ I will make some tea.


Does anyone grow up on this channel or are we always 16 years old?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ( Excuse me for being a little late )


Gosh this girl was and is such a hugh part of my life and I am so glad to see this video from 2015 answered in such a positive way - even when you were crying I only got the message: it's getting better. This takes so many of the fears I (19) have at the moment. I think I am also going to write a letter like that to an older version of me.<br>Thanks a lot dodie,  I love you

Gosh this girl was and is such a hugh part of my life and I am so glad to see this video from 2015 answered in such a positive way - even when you were crying I only got the message: it's getting better. This takes so many of the fears I (19) have at the moment. I think I am also going to write a letter like that to an older version of me.
Thanks a lot dodie,  I love you


There's a website called FutureMe.org if you do want to write yourself that letter!! Self-harming, suicidal 15 yo me wrote one for my 18th bday and I cried when I got it lol. I was so proud because I'd survived and was clean. I'd made it to adulthood. I'm 22 now and have written a couple others to be sent at various ages since. 😊😂


thank God for your little breakdown halfway through


Its really hard to be ask by yourself if you are happy


not me watching this at twenty and pulling out my phone rn to do one too


How did you keep this video somewhere where it wouldnt get lost but not so obviously open that you sere tempted to watch it?!


when dodie has a little cry, i felt like i needed a little cry too ;(


I remember I watched La La Land because of you :)
<br>And it made me a sad bitch.. Still love it though

I remember I watched La La Land because of you :)
And it made me a sad bitch.. Still love it though


The heckin elevator music omg ahhhhh now when I have the a panic attack I’m gonna hear that


0:02 seconds in and I’m already tearing up 😭


Derealization is a condition? I think it is an amazing gift


im the same age as hedy too. frankly enough i'm going through some heavy stuff that'll definitely weigh on some decisions made. it's pretty rough. :< but seeing this video, i definitely see you as this inspiring woman and super creative who grew and keeps on growing~ no matter how much we all hate yt sometimes and how much scary it is, dodie we need you here~ your positivity and care~ and we love you~


I turned 25 this month and if I could tell my 20 year old me anything it is this: (Warning it's rather long, I go on about my mental health issues and I still have horrible grammar) seek help a bit more than you do because that year you'll get diagnosed with anxiety and a few years later, diagnosed with depression. You'll have more breakdowns than you already have had, even if you didn't know they were breakdowns. Be a bit more wary about things. 2020 your mental health will take the biggest hit it has ever taken, mostly because most of your fears have come true and you have another phobia to add to your list but you're so much luckier, happier and grateful for the things that you have and you hope you never take anything for granted ever again. By 2020 you are a lot more confident and you've volunteered in your local library a lot, so much so it feels like your first proper job and you absolutely love it and miss it so much. You'll take up a sport but probably not one you would think especially as it's usually a sport played by an older demographic, you miss that as well and despite ever changing guidelines, you don't think you'll be playing your first proper match as a member this year. 20 year old me will have a real rollercoaster ride to 25 but it's a much happier time when she gets there, despite the circumstances that goes on in the year in which she turns 25.


I really like the color of your eyes. So beautiful


When younger you asked about Hedy, that’s when I started to cry, too. My sister is your age and I’m like a year older than Hedy. It just put me in a perspective of if my sister was to talk about me. Also my sister met you so that’s cool for her, but yeah lol


does anyone else watch this video on a regular basis?


As someone who is about to start EMDR for trauma, it is really heartwarming to know that you were able to do some brain rewiring and feel much better. Really gives me hope for what my brain will be like later. Much love dodie ♥


never have i related to anyone more than when dodie started sobbing thinking abt how her sister has grown over the past 5 years :') i cried so hard at my sisters graduation bcus i was (and still am!) so so proud of her. cheers dodie


Dodie: is crying in the middle of the video
me: IT'S OKAY GIRL I'M CRYING TOO

Dodie: *is crying in the middle of the video*
me: IT'S OKAY GIRL I'M CRYING TOO


This is the saddest and sweetest and cutest and most inspiring thing. Dodie, I love watching you love yourself. The wait has been worth it.


It really hits how you guys "talk to each other" with such personal feeling and passion. I'm gonna cry xD


I remember watching the first video, its crazy how far you've come. So proud of everything you've done and who you've become❤


Thank you for sharing! It's amazing and inspiring to see how 5 years can change so much. This video really reminds us that there're so many things we can look forward to, which we don't know yet!


oh god. here we go. i was a mess while i watched this. i was crying so hard. i’ve been watching you for as long as i can remember. either 2013 or 2014. you have inspired me so much. your music has helped me through some of the hardest times of my life. especially the song “when”. i am turning 15 on sunday (aka april 19th). i went to see you in chicago in september 17th, 2019. and that is the best day of my life to date. as soon as i heard the first note of when, i lost it. is was bawling. i had to give my phone to my friend who i was there with so that she could record it for me. speaking of that concert, my friends dad took as right after we got out of school. we were waiting in line for so long but the excitement to see you made it feel a lot shorter. despite being the huge line, we were able to get very close to the front. we were about 4 rows back from the stage. i cried a little bit for some other songs but when made me lose it. afterwards, i got to meet and talk to adam which was so amazing. i wish i would’ve been able to see you too but we had to go make a 3 hour car ride back home and i’m pretty sure you didn’t come out at all. i got a shirt (the tour date shirt) and i still wear it so much. i got home around 1am and i just sat on my bed thinking about that night and how it was the best night of my life. thank you so much for everything dodie. you truly mean the absolute world to me and i love you so much.


i was in such a weird place when i watched the first video, and i’ve grown a lot by the time this one has come out, and it’s just crazy the nostalgia that comes with it all. definitely cried with you the entire time


This just saved me, in a way. I’m 23 and I’m in that stage you went through at 20 where you just want to badly to be 15/16 again. I’m so happy to see 25 year old you telling yourself that you wouldn’t go back and that it DOES get better. Thank you, Dodie❤


It’s my 15th birthday today and I now want to make one for when I’m twenty! This was so special and inspiring. I love all your music and the lovely person that you are. Happy birthday girl!


Crazy to think I watched that video when it was was uploaded and to really reflect how far dodie has come. I won't lie i cried along with her. I'm so proud of you Dodie, we all are <3


It's incredible to see how much you've grown! I remember watching the other video back when it came out, and it's crazy to see how much has happened since. I'm proud of you and sending love! 💜


My granddad past away last year, a week earlier my parents split up. I was 24...this one really got me. Thanks for sharing Dodie. It was genuinely cathartic to watch you express how it can still feel for me, under similar circumstances. Appreciated!!!


I’ve recently had the same feeling of panicking about aging and the future. I’ve never really watched any videos of yours but this one put it into perspective for me. Thank you ❤


I remember watching this video a long time ago. Its crazy because I'm 20 now and I have so many of the same fears as 20 yr old Dodie and hearing that it gets better is really nice.


I’m 40 seconds into the video and I just have to say... I remember watching the first video when it came out. I turned 21 today and it really hit me when your 20 year old face popped up how much I’ve changed since seeing that video. I feel the same as you do, Dodie, when it comes to change and growing up. I hope I can look at those things in the future and feel happy about the growth. I’m going to finish the rest of the video now. ❤


W O W. I remember watching that first video when I was 19 actually <3 Dodie, you've grown and blossomed so much. ^-^ 25 sounds wonderful for you.


I love this so much. I love the growth and perspective you've gained. This is inspiring and the best part is, is that its just life being lived and fought for. I watched you so much in my younger years, it's been great growing up together :)


I watched this video an instantly started sobbing. I’m about to be 20 but watching this made me feel like I wasn’t alone. This made me so much braver for the years to come and I hope you know that you make such an inspiration in my life <br>Thank you dodie 💖💖

I watched this video an instantly started sobbing. I’m about to be 20 but watching this made me feel like I wasn’t alone. This made me so much braver for the years to come and I hope you know that you make such an inspiration in my life
Thank you dodie 💖💖


I love you Dodie! and I love this video!  So very meaningful to you and to me as an audience who watched the first video when you first released. It's been six years, you are still in my life! Your music and videos have helped me touched happiness and peace through hard times in my life. Seeing you all grown up while I myself are grown-up brings back too many memories, good, bad, and bittersweet. I am truly glad and grateful because you are still here, making music and being yourself. <3 <3 <3


This is genuinely so wholesome. Thanks for sharing this with us💙


As one of many who watched that video from five years ago when you uploaded it, I definitely sobbed through most of this. Crazy how much can change in 5 years.


it's crazy how so many of us have been here watching you grow from when you made that video 5 years ago to this one and we've all grown and changed and had our ups and downs during that time.


this hits hard because we’re only a month apart in age and i rememeber watching “dear 25 year old me” feeling a lot of the same things you were feeling at the same age. and now watching this again, at 25, it’s just so surreal. i laughed, i sobbed, i feel like we’ve grown together in a way? everything hurts but in the greatest way possible. i hope you see this. thank you for the years of relatable and comforting content and for being sort of like a long distance friend. here’s to many more. ❤


thank you for making this video! this is exactly how i should be introduced to a great artist :)


i havent watched your videos in quite a few years but omg i was smiling the whole way thru this im so glad to see youre more content and honest with yourself :)


I’ve waited 5 years for this!! I remember watching 20 year old you in my bedroom at my mom’s wondering if I’d ever finish writing my novel, almost done drafting! So excited!!


Happy belated beautiful girl!!!! Thank you for spreading endless joy!!


i just started bawling when she said "it genuinely got better" and i'm only a minute in


I love you dodie!😭😭and I love this video, it’s so amazing girl. So wonderful hearing about your life like this. :’(💖


Thank you 20 year old Dodie. i'm 27 now and somehow what you went through, i could relate to it. Ahhh I feel like crying but it's also comforting to know that things will pass and i'll get to the 25 year-old Dodie someday.


This is so crazy it’s been so long. I watch your turning 20 video when I was 14 and now I’m almost 20 too. It’s been so crazy how much has changed ,how much I’ve seen you grow and how much I’ve seen myself grow too. This video made me emotional because I’ve been watching you for so long. I’ve seen your growth and I’ve grown with you. I just want to tell you how proud I am. You’re a musician, a more developed person and a staple of my young teen years. I hope that someone sees the same growth in me as I did in you. You’re so beautiful, creative and  not afraid to be yourself. I’m so glad to have an eccentric role model. Thank you


this is so sweet and incredible. all the love to you dodie


now makes me feel a lot better about looking forward and reminds me that life keeps going. Thanks for posting and doing what you do. From the bottom of my heart!


I remember watching the original video the day it was uploaded! I can not believe that it was a while ago, but it's still pretty cool to see how much you have grown and how privileged I am to have seen it happen!!! You are such an amazing person whos music I will love and admire for a long time, I mean we've all been here since then so I don't think we're stopping anytime soon! LOVE YOU Doddie!!!!


Wow. I remember watching dear 25-year-old me when it came, the same age as you were. I remember feeling like we were so alike back then. Now I'm also turning 25 in an matter of days, and oh my what a ride the last five years have been. I'm happy we're both in a better place now than we were then, and thank you for this video and the wave of reflecting it caused!


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DODIE! Hope you had a good one 🧡


god this is so special. I remember watching dear 25 year old me when i was 15, and now I'm 20 and watching this and feeling so many feels.  This made me feel better inside about getting older. thank u for growing up with me


Can't imagine what it'll be like to lose my cat. First pet. Had her since I was 15, im now 20. I imagine she'll be with me until my late 20s or early 30s. Wow. I can't imagine what a complete wreck I'll be like the week she dies.

@sidrawithluv This. I have a video of my family dog "singing" (howling) with me over the phone, and it's one of my favorite things. Always makes me smile when I miss her.

my cats both passed away in april... one was 15 and the other one was 9 months old... i don't have a lot of pictures of them and i regret it.. i miss them everyday. i can still hear them walking through my house.. it was so unexpected. please don't take anything for granted..

coming from someone who lost their best cat friend: take as many photos, videos, artwork etc. of them and give them as much love as possible. photos and videos really help when you miss them, especially audio of their meows and purrs

Oh i'm with you there. I've had my cat since I was 7 and I'm now 20 so my cat is 13 right now. I've had many pets of every kind and I have never connected with a pet more than I have with my cat. I'll be heartbroken when she goes and I can't imagine not having her in my life. I hope your cat lives a long and happy life with you. :)


i remember watching this back in high school at 16, during probably the happiest year of my life. i'm now 21. i grew up with you dodie 🥺❤


As someone who not long ago turned 20, this definitely made me feel better about life. Thank you


I literally got tears in my eyes and I only just started the video. You're really the realest person, thank your for being there!


I did this same thing from 20-25! I responded to it last year! It’s so cool to see how far you come!


Hearing you talk about your sister is the most heart wrenching thing. The pure love there is wonderful ❤


I just turned 20. I have been watching your videos since 2014 and I have always chickened out of commenting on any video because I have no idea how to tell you what you and your music means to me. I still don't. I saw you in concert in atlanta last fall with my best friend and it was one of the most memorable days of my life. I remember "dear 25 year old me" coming out when I was 15 and hoping incessantly for the future. now, being 20, I am terrified of the same future. this video just helped me feel ok about it. I feel so fortunate to be able to grow up beside a lovely soul like you and I admire so much how you've grown. and all i know to say to you is, thank you. thank you for everything, through all these years. <3


being almost 20 right now im completely terrified of the future. this is reassuring.


I remember watching this at 15 and I’m twenty now and it has me feeling some kind of a way 🤧


i have been watching u for so long i feel like i see myself in you and u inspired me to learn uke and piano and improve my voice


it’s so beautiful and sweet how dodie talks to her past self. like the way that she knows what she’ll go through as if she will experience it and hasn’t already, and in the most gentle way. it’s really touching.


woof i needed this! I'm 24, and the last 5 years were sooooo rough. love you!


you've really grown and yes five years doesn't seem like a long time but it sure as hell is, you've achieved so much in five years and i'm incredibly proud of you and 20 year old you is surely even prouder. i love you.


I was inspired by your original video to start writing myself letters to open every two years! I get to open my next one in May on my birthday! Very cool to see your reply to your old video :)


Thanks for sharing♥ nice to hear about your world now and know you're in a better place
Me and my friend was growing up watching your videos she is your age and I'm a year older..
P.s.- I'm married five years later 🥰

שירה וקנין- אדלר


Such a lovely video. I'm definitely going to write a letter for 20 year old me (I am 15 currently  (almost 16!)). I've watched your channel for a long time and you've grown so much! Wow I just think you're one of those people who have really impacted me. I've played around more with music and you've shown me that you can be sweet and softly spoken but also passionate and curious ugh! I hope you are doing better and you continue to feel better. Still gutted that my brother got to meet and hug you at summer in the city a few years ago and I didn't! Maybe some time in the future I will get to see you in concert... Lots of love <3


this is so sweet and pure and just what i needed in quarantine thank you


Learning eventually that you had derealization was probably a really big thing. For me, pinpointing my mental things really helped me so much.


I remember watching Dodie alot when I was 14 and seeing this video. It’s so strange how quickly time has passed. I just turned 19 and it’s crazy

btw Dodie you have inspired me to learn the piano and I’m currently learning how to sing so thank you


This was so beautiful. I had a lump in my throat the whole time.


i just turned 20 and i related with her so much.... thanks for talking directly to me 😭❤


I remember watching that video. It was right after I had discovered your channel. I was 15 at the time. 15 year old me had wayyyy different expectations for where 20 year old me would be... I'm ok just not as cool and independent as I thought I would be... haha


I just came back to your channel and I must have seen that  video being 17 in my first flat at uni (sitting there alone buying a ukulele in my first week because of you) and I felt that part of 20yo growing dodie so hard when turning 18 in a physics lecture, turning 20 in a maths lecture and not knowing any of the feelings that i feel, not knowing my place in all the situations and so on. I hope I'll come out in 3 yrs like this and look back at myself the way you looked at 20 y/o "babe" dodie. I hope i am on a good road.<br>Thanks dodie!

I just came back to your channel and I must have seen that  video being 17 in my first flat at uni (sitting there alone buying a ukulele in my first week because of you) and I felt that part of 20yo growing dodie so hard when turning 18 in a physics lecture, turning 20 in a maths lecture and not knowing any of the feelings that i feel, not knowing my place in all the situations and so on. I hope I'll come out in 3 yrs like this and look back at myself the way you looked at 20 y/o "babe" dodie. I hope i am on a good road.
Thanks dodie!


I almost feel like I'm learning and growing along with you


I just started crying as you were, and it kinda hurt watching this, I don’t know why..

I’m honestly scared for who I’m gonna be when I’m at least twenty. I don’t know what’s happened with you and your roller coaster but I’m glad your better..? This helped in a way and I don’t know how, but really and honestly, thank you. Thank you so much.


I turned 20 this year and I don't know what to expect. I guess I'll be just like dodie and live my life the best way I know


Gahhhhdd I realized I was there when you made the video and now we're all here and you're so much happier and I'm sitting here sobbing WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME DODIE


wow this made my whole heart explode 😭 but it also made me feel a little better about growing up i just turned 21 and i am a f r a i d 😂


I wanna do this when I turn twenty later this year. I think it's a great way to reflect back.


Omg dodie you are incredible this video is so precious and emotional ❤

ps: what? you don’t have abs?!? your instagram photos contradict you 😉


Feels good to watch this. I'm the 20-year-old pinning a lot of happiness on the past.. it's gonna work out


This hit hard. I watched that first video when I was twelve years old. Time is scary.


im 20 now and im crying so hard...i relate to 20 year old you so much and i hope i can overcome as much as you


aw this makes me want to make one of these when I turn 20 in a few months :)


this made me a little more hopeful for the future. it’s been rough, but maybe things can improve


I turned 20 a couple weeks back. This is a brilliant video. What a beautiful person, inside and out. I don't really watch your videos, but I have been subscribed for a while. I have a habit of that - I haven't really watched you bar about 2 videos.  <br>You seem like a pretty great person though. So happy you were smiling all the way through this. Chin up, not just because you've got a "pudge thing" going on, but because you deserve it.

I turned 20 a couple weeks back. This is a brilliant video. What a beautiful person, inside and out. I don't really watch your videos, but I have been subscribed for a while. I have a habit of that - I haven't really watched you bar about 2 videos.
You seem like a pretty great person though. So happy you were smiling all the way through this. Chin up, not just because you've got a "pudge thing" going on, but because you deserve it.


I cried too, I watched this when it came out so it's werid. Your video about derealisation made me go to the doctors and I got diagnosed with it. I want to be at the point where I can rewire my brain. I'm 20 and I kinda want to do this idea... But it scares me hahaha


This is crazy because I’m almost 20 and I relate to 20 year old dodie. I’m excited to be 25 year old me like you are and learn all the lessons you have! :,) (also, I remember that dodie! I can’t believe I’ve been watching you for 5+ yrs!)


i watched that when i was 13 :'( i was in such a calm but depressed state of mind and it was peaceful back then


I’m 17, I’ll be 18 in a month and a half. I remember watching “dear 25 year old me" when I was 12 and being in a really bad place. I remember being so scared of the coming years, I didn’t think i’d make it past 15. I’m so much better now, I found a medication that works, an amazing therapist, a boyfriend who i love beyond words, i’m in such a better place now. Although this quarentine is kicking my ass and i feel like i may be going downhill but i know it wont last long. I’m so proud of myself for how far i’ve come, it’s crazy how much has happened in 5 years. Wow. I’m crying watching this, I’m so beyond proud of you and myself. Haha. Wooh thank you for making this.


sobbing along with dodie when ur harry concert was rescheduled is the mood i wanted today


i'm so exited to get older thanks to this. i hope it gets better


awww, I so hoped you'd make a video for your 30 year old self.. cause you seem much less afraid for the future, I think it would be very different.. it's crazy to see the woman you grew into!


It was amazing to watch, thank you for sharing😊


I got half way through the video before realising I'm nearly 20 year old Dodie's age (so yes, 20) and had some ~feelings~


Fuck. This isn't even me and I BAWLED. Love you Dodie, love you too 20 year old Dodie <3


I am 20 now if I could go back and tell myself how amazing it will be. Even if things are still shitty. I would definitely tell my 18 year old. self. Things may be hard now but after this storm it's going to beautiful.


damn i remember watching the original video. we're all getting on in life. it's kinda funny how at least the phones are pretty much the same though lmao


You're the cutest and most inspirational human being😍☀


watching this just made me realize that i've been with you for 5 years and that was weird


this is beautiful and lovely and everything I need 💕


I have never seen your videos before this one, but man I related so hard to this!!


i started crying too why am i crying ahh i love you dodie


I didn't realize how long ago this was. I'm 19, and so many of my friends are 20. I thought 20 was so old but that you was basically my age.


Great video! Glad you thought of the recording when you were 20. Happy birthday,


Im just wondering how her subscribers went down... shes amazing 😭😍


Man... I remember watching this video as a new upload. That’s crazy. Thank you.


PLEASE show us how you made your knit jumper!  I need something to do while in quarantine and it is just SO CUTE


if i had a dollar for every time i tried to reach for the screen to hug her i would have money :,


I believe, as a man once said:<br>Things can only get better.

I believe, as a man once said:
Things can only get better.


You score for string parts?? Like in movies and stuff???? That’s so fucking cool man


I was 10 when I watched this, I turn 15 next week🥺❤


"are you happy? i hope youre happy" i hope she's  happy, too. and i hope ill be happy when im 22 cos im certainly not happy rn.


Been reading a blog by Carse Blanton, a musician here in New Orleans, that, like you are, is tremendously self aware and painfully candid. Here I was at your age, during the best time of my life, heinously oblivious to any sort of self awareness. Maybe it's just a guy thing or just me, but damn, in hindsight, finding myself feeling jealous though I'll admit somewhat not jealous of the journey you made to get there.


20 years old me thought the 25 y/o me would be dating/to be married and out of the weird feeling of not being right/normal. ~Then 24 y/o found out that we are aro/ace, and we made peace with it.


me turning 20 in a few days and getting emotional about what I would say to my 25 year old self & not accomplishing what I hope I will :(


laughing and crying simultaneously while watching this


DODIE SOMEHOW YOU GOT EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL!!!


Haven't seen your videos in a while. I missed you 💜


Ahhhh the roundhouse!!! I was there and it was soooo amazing😍😍


I remember watching you when you were 20 omg 🥺


I'm turning 20 in just over a month and I'm so terrified of growing older. I fought turning 18 as much as I could and 20 just feels too old, like I was supposed to stop aging or existing at 17. I think it's gonna be okay, though, after all this current shit stops. It's taken me a long time to be okay, and I know I'm just gonna keep getting better. That's the one thing keeping me going; knowing that one day, I'll be happy with where I am. I'll be happier in general. I kinda have the urge to make a "dear 25yo me" video now

There's a website called FutureMe where you can send a letter to your future self!<br>I just turned 20 and I feel exactly the same. I didn't really plan to exist at this age so now I'm a little stuck with no direction to go in, but I'll get there! You will too and everything will fall into place :)

There's a website called FutureMe where you can send a letter to your future self!
I just turned 20 and I feel exactly the same. I didn't really plan to exist at this age so now I'm a little stuck with no direction to go in, but I'll get there! You will too and everything will fall into place :)


I'm gonna be 24 this year, damn it I should have done a video 4 years ago hahaha


Moral of the story? 20 year old you, it's ok, it's going to be ok. 25 year old you, it's still ok and going to be ok. Life happens, you get through it, things change but it's ok.


i have been waiting for this video and i’m also crying