[Explicit] Totalspark ft. Acarcion - Lost

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Song number two for the EP. First time working with a rapper! Was a fun thing to get done.

Genre: Chill Hip-Hop

Lyrics:

Acarcion: From the beginning I knew I was different
I always let myself think too much
and kept second guessing
everything I was thinking
I never felt empathy
and treated everyone like an enemy
every interaction robotic
Like I’m some broken animatronic
logic abandoned my thoughts
Maybe I should stop
Abandon my post and spread my wings
and fly for the coast
But my wings are tattered from misuse
I refused my freedom and lost it
All I ask is for others watching
when they can to
Just take my time
use it well
cause I’m never gonna use it for myself
it's a waste to be left falling behind
the sands filling the line
causing my anxiety to shoot through my mind
Watching that hourglass fill
I couldn’t stand it anymore
The wasted potential in my sore wounds expelled any hope
so I grabbed a hammer and smashed it till I could take the time and finally cope!
I was left alone!
So in response I armed myself to the bone
Prepared to fight my way out now to find that hope
Armed guards along every wall
I try to tell myself I can fight them all
They pretend to be friendly
I call them enemies
others call them illness
I beat them with the pills I ingest
I can’t separate reality from falseness
and fail every single fucking test
But I digress
This is my life
That's what this system called right

Me: Thinking surely that I've lost myself
to this system we call life
it's not easy when you find yourself
as a victim of this strife

Acarcion: Stuck in a losing battle
Gun drawn locked and cocked
Carefully drawing my direction
But stopped
Pencils broken and pens more permanent than I want
I’m too directionless to make decisions
I’m gonna drive myself up a wall at this point
I’m ready for action but I don’t have anything to shoot towards
My only option is words
Spun in a pattern intrinsic to my soul
To prove to myself I won’t turn this gun
And force others to pay the toll
To make sure I show up to each roll call
And prove to everyone I’m fucking trying
Or maybe I’m lying to myself
And just trying to make excuses
And tug at the heartstring of others
To see if they harmonise with the people and their struggles
And see if someone will will realise me and my trouble
Exposing my soul like this is dangerous though
Because then people might go
What a fucking tool
And shoot a shot right through
Or maybe this is all delusion
A reality cocked up in my brain to keep me guessing
But no, I refuse
I’m gonna Try to find a clue
Something that might
Maybe end the cruel
Labours of the life I delude
the manacles clinging to my side
Trudging down a path
trying to decide
which path, left or right?
The fork driving me to ride
Off the path, because if life's a system
and your decisions are restricted
it's not fucking simpler

Me: Thinking surely that I've lost myself
to this system we call life
it's not easy when you find yourself
as a victim of this strife

Acarcion: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCh6RioCZDN5iXY52pKPA4ZQ

Art: https://derpibooru.org/1486151

My Music: https://totalspark.bandcamp.com/album/times-like-this-ep