I get what she's saying but why are some of her viewers acting like she's like a innocent child / teenager?? she is right to say sorry because she is like 5 years older than most of her audience that she influences and because of her influencer status now she sort of has a moral obligation to avoid harming her followers. I'd recommend Instead of Instagram, write big posts on your iphone notes ( it helps me) and you could put an uncaptioned pic on Instagram at the same time if you feel the association of that would be comforting

Gosia Berendt 1. Sure, free speech, but once you have a large audience of people who look up to you/are influenced by you, you do morally have an obligation to them. While it may not be acknowledged as such, it is a different position to be in, being a youtuber, compared to just being an ordinary person. They influence people. They are a role model. Often, young people who watch them don't have any other examples of people who deal with, for example, mental illness, so they follow in the youtuber's footsteps. By acknowledging this, Dodie is being responsible and mature.
2. No, no one is perfect, but what? Does that mean people shouldn't seek to learn and grow and be more healthy and improved? No one said Dodie had to be perfect, people just wanted her not to harm anyone.

Gosia Berendt 1. Sure, free speech, but once you have a large audience of people who look up to you/are influenced by you, you do morally have an obligation to them. While it may not be acknowledged as such, it *is* a different position to be in, being a youtuber, compared to just being an ordinary person. They influence people. They are a role model. Often, young people who watch them don't have any other examples of people who deal with, for example, mental illness, so they follow in the youtuber's footsteps. By acknowledging this, Dodie is being responsible and mature.
2. No, no one is perfect, but what? Does that mean people shouldn't seek to learn and grow and be more healthy and improved? No one said Dodie had to be perfect, people just wanted her not to harm anyone.

smoothie criminal I feel like adding to this comment about 'influencing younger viewers". A lot of Dodie's viewers are younger, certainly between 12-17 at least, and while people in this age bracket feel "grown up" they're still children, and they're still learning the ways of the world. At 12 often you still don't know how to act, particularly as you start 'big schools' and the like. At 12 you look up to people and try to act like them because you often don't know that you can be yourself and be liked, and if you see a really successful you tuber who's well loved, then you're going to want to be like them. As for the comments of "parents should stop kids if they don't want them seeing stuff"- teenagers have a way of getting around the locks and codes and stuff, not to mention a lot of Dodie's youtube is mild and much more filtered than social media, so a parent may therefore find her channel to be 'suitable'. Don't get me wrong, I think a lot of what Dodie talks about is really important (mental health awareness, bullying, sexuality etc) and she's a really wonderful musician and singer, but I'm glad she apologised and is learning from her mistakes 💙 (this is really long oops)

+Emma Popcorn I know, that's why I said she was right , I was sorta responding to those commenters who said she didn't have to apologise

and she has owned up to her mistakes!! that's the whole point of this video. she did something wrong, she apologised and now she'll change her behaviour.

smoothie criminal I completely agree! I'm really glad she apologised it's a step in the right direction and it was very much needed. Most of the comments talking about why she doesn't need to apologise are justified by 'because you never triggered me' which isn't sound reason. I hope she doesn't beat herself up about it but at the same time I'm really pleased she is reflecting on this. And I was really glad to find your comment ahhh thank you xxx

smoothie criminal I do the exact thing; write huge notes that is. It really does help me

ehhh...i didn't say she couldn't talk about mental health (or swear or drink??.) I was directly referring to the damaging "oversharing" on instagram and snapchat that this entire video is about...

also what do you mean by  "incase younger viewers are watching" her target audience has always been teens?? (and i do agree that young children shouldn't have unsupervised  internet access )

She is a human being. When you make a youtube channel you don't sign a paper that says  "Now I m gonna be perfect so in case there is a younger viewer watching they will get a good example" That's bullshit. She has a channel where she shares her thoughts. If a child is watching it should be their parents job to restrict it if it's dangerous.  She lives her own life. She can swear, drink and talk about mental health if she wants to.

i agree, there's so many kids in this comment section who need someone to remind them this. dodie is an adult. she is an influencer. she needs to own up to mistakes. she needs to avoid unloading so much on social media because most of her followers are SO MUCH YOUNGER than her. they are not her friend.


People make mistakes and that's just being a human. And that's okay. I get the oversharing thing and I'm proud that you realized that. I hope you don't beat yourself up over this. Think about all the amazing things you've done for so many people. Think about the people dancing in their bedrooms to your songs and forgetting everything for a second. You may not be a perfect person, but nobody is. You changed so many lives, so I'd say that the mistakes you make along the way are worth it. <3


@dodie Try to focus what's good in life, and to act rather than feel. Or maybe to feel what you do, instead of feel what you feel. So emotions are important, and showing them to others - even your fans - helps you/us understand them. But some negative mental states can be self enchanting, and you (and me of course) have to OWN them. Accept things. Doesn't mean we can't think about it, but it shall not decide what our future will be, you yourself must decide that.

Regarding the relation to us, the fans. I think maybe - from what I guess about you - that you 1) want to be loved without argumentation back and 2) that you love without end. This kind of love makes the loving one disregard pain, and when pain comes back it's bigger. I think we need to hold some things holy, and holy and... demonic? at the same time. For example, I love justice, and I really get upset if someone is treated unjust. But I still ACCEPT that this is the case. How could I not accept it? Isn't it this I'm upset about, this that happened?

Also I think it's great if you want to be less dependent on viewers' opinions about you.


I went out side a ran and bit (I love running) and It felt nice cause I haven't done it in a while cause I've been really down.


how about making a second instagram just for posts about your mental health where you can rant and everything? people who want to see that can follow you and people who might find your posts triggering don't have to... if it helps you cope with everything there is nothing wrong with it.

that's still sharing and it could become a kinda oooh this is where I go when I'm feeling crap so it would just make her feel worse maybe, idl

Even though some people might want to read it and see what she has to say, it might be damaging to those reading it especially young people. It's not about whether they want to see it, it's about whether they should.

Anna-Lena Sperber but that doesnt solve her problem - she should start making progress instead of staying in one place. She should work with a therapist and not an online void.

i was thinking along the same lines - a sort of private spam account, not worrying over the theme, just taking a pic and ranting, but i would keep that account private, or at least putting trigger warnings in caps before the rant ?? lmao i use tumblr, reblogging memes and ranting occasionally in the tags :// although this could, like ppl have said above be unhealthy in the long run

while that also might be unhealthy for dodie in the long run, i still don't think it's a good idea, disregarding that!! having a social media account solely based on unleashing her deepest thoughts at her darkest moments for young impressionable people to read is not good!! and yes you might argue that people who would be affected from it can just stay away but like dodie said, there are moments when our perception is skewed and our judgement is bad and if people who are also suffering as much as dodie is stumbles upon this account, they could get addicted to wallowing in the lowest of lows because your head is really hard to fight against. basically, an account dedicated to writing about her bad rants can only breed more negative badness!!

i think what dodie is planning to do is a good step -- filming and talking just as she has been doing but not posting it and instead using it to reflect on for inspiration later :))

(i hope this doesn't sound mean or patronising!!! just trying to share some food for thought)

Anna-Lena Sperber i think what she said she's going to do is better. Writing it down for herself at her worst, giving it some time to just sit and then, when feeling better, check it out and see if it could help people or of it couldn't. She can help people when she's getting better too, it's not always the low points that help other people, because when you write down your thoughts when you are at your worst you just don't care and will probably not write anything but negativity. Waiting a bit before posting something allows you to see what you can learn from it, and adding that in is most likely to help a lot more people.

Melissa Lozano i totally get what you mean and i respect everything you said but it's also important to note that sometimes it feels good to get things off your chest. yes it's unhealthy and not actually helping but you get it out there if you write it down. if you read through the comments on this video you'll see that a lot of people said, dodie helped them realize, that they have a mental illness. so it's not necessarily a bad thing to overshare.

relying on social media for every single time you're feeling low is very unhealthy. Even if no one sees it, it's not healthy. It's the same as what the message dodie recieved that she talked about in her previous video said. They're "empy calories", it might feel good in the moment but it probably doesn't do anything to actually help. It's a coping mechanism and coping mechanisms don't fix the problem.

Anna-Lena Sperber agree. I know I love it.

It's unhealthy on a long term basis! Might feel great at the moment where she's pouring her heart out but exposing her deep emotions when she's in the middle of a bad moment can cause her regret and guilt. It's just like an addiction, and it's not a solution. That was part of the video, she realizes that as well as being bad for other people, it's also bad for her.

local dreamer why?? Why would it be unhealthy for her?? We all like to agree to the idea that people should reach out when they arent feeling well but what, theres an extent to it? Conditions? I have panic disorder, counsellors make it worse because of the condescending tone the majority of them talk in. My friends are great but i hate having to keep on about it to them. Theres something very soothing about telling strangers who wont judge me that im not feeling great and could use support. (Not randomly walking up to people but posting pictures online distracting myself from a panic attack which has brought lovely messages of support from people that have helped me calm down without the after thought of "omg ive annoyed my friends with this again" which ultimately spirals into more anxiety.) distraction is a recommended tool for many mental illnesses. So lads leave the goddamn PC "morals" behind until ye have a clue of what the hell ye are preaching about 😡

Anna-Lena Sperber i think thats an excellent idea!

That'd still be unhealthy for her though


don't be too hard on yourself i'm crying ❤😭


Dodie you shouldn't apoligise to us .  Yes somethings should be private. But really I don't know how to word this. We all love you xxx  and I hope your mental state gets better ly ❤❤❤


There is an online support group that has a Facebook page where you can write how you feel and people who have been there and who are there can reply to you. It's called the Blurt Peer Support Group. You can join in online through there website and I've been finding it helpful


Omfg Dodie please don't apologise for the posts! You've really helped me understand that I'm not the only one who has gone through this sort of thing and that I'm not alone. I understand why you feel bad, I really do, but the posts and snapchat melt downs, have been kind of comforting in a way idk I'm bad at explaining things but pls don't feel bad ilysm

nikkiireland6 I'm sorry it has a negative effect on you! I totally understand why it's not helpful for some people as it is a very tough subject x

it's great that she has helped you! however it has been harmful/hurtful for others. including me, watching her Snapchat were making me very anxious which ended with me breaking down and having to stop watching her Snapchat etc. I am so glad she has talked about it and addressed it because I 100%understand why she does share so much x

I agree I think she helped more people than she realises. Whilst she probably shouldn't do it again, for the people in her personal life, and for the majority that said she was sharing too much, I think it affected a lot of people positively too.


Dodie NEVER feel sorry for things like this . If that's a way that you feel better, then that's what you have to do. Even if it's just a short term help and you didn't mess up! You live and learn. You are important and loved 😘😘😘😘


I don't know what to say. Obviously if the videos were hurting other people than you should stop and your making the right choice. Honestly, it had a positive affect on me because I found out that I wasn't alone but whatever's best for you and others. Also I'd love to go outside but it's raining, I've been going outside a lot recently and it's been helping me because I finally feel like I'm kind of in control of my life and my illnesses can't stop me from doing things. If you see this Dodie, and you probably won't, I just want to tell you I support you in all your decisions and I hope you feel better. If your not Dodie but your reading this, thank you a lot I hope this helped you in some kind of way, probably not though. I'm gonna go make myself a cake I've been meaning to for a while and my birthdays coming up.


I don't think your mental health problems are your brand, and I don't think you should be embarrassed. I find it helpful to hear your thoughts, it makes me want to express my own, but I understand why there are unhealthy aspects! I don't necessarily think you need to apologize or be embarrassed over something you did! It was a learning curve, and just because it was a public one, doesn't mean it was shameful or anything to be embarrassed by!


as 👏🏼long 👏🏼as it 👏🏼makes you 👏🏼feel better 👏🏼i will 👏🏼watch 👏🏼whatever 👏🏼you👏🏼make 👏🏼because i 👏🏼love 👏🏼and respect👏🏼 you👏🏼

Aidan Horne yah i would have to agree with you guys!

emma but some things can really hurt a younger audience who are sensitive to certain things and can hit too close to some people when they touch on subjects like mental illness and even though sharing some stuff is good and helpful it isnt the best idea to ,like she said, overshare

Aidan Horne I have to agree with you, I'm just not sure I can easily forgive what has happened because it has been so unhealthy for so many people

Not if it's damaging to a young audience. I can't support anyone if they're using their young impressionable audience as a crutch. That's just not fair.


people make mistakes yo. at least you are aware of it and will now change for the better x


I’m crying cause it really really really has been helping me too


It's okay dods, I hope you won't stop sharing completely. A certain amount does help a lot. Don't be embarrassed. We all love you so much. You were trying to help.

And we all appreciate your apology and maturity. You're incredible.


hey its totally okay! we still love you!! its all about moderation! <3 <3


Dodie! i agree with you that you should talk to the people who are affecting you in person instead of spilling it on the internet, because that's just an unhealthy mechanism. BUT, i still believe that you should share what you feel/experience during depressive/depersonalization episodes because we have as much right to exist as others and mental illnesses shouldn't be marginalized; yet, do it without making it seem like mental illnesses are "cute" or "artsy".


Hey dodie...dont worry about making mistakes...thats what being young is like, making mistakes, learning and growing! We are all going to stick by you throughout your stages because we love you!! Every part! Good and bad! Because no one is perfect! Xx but never feel you have to fake being happy for us, be happy be sad!! Just be you! Because thats the person we love xx because you are amazing x your flaws are just as important as your talents..x because thats you, so keep being you! ♡ because thats who we love, always♡♡


Slightly irrelevant, but before I knew who you were I thought it was dodieodie instead of doddleoddle

[insert a creative name] I USED TO THINK THAT TOO HAHA

[insert a creative name] dodieodie sounds so cute aweee


i feel bad now! i didnt do anything but other people are making it sound like you are doing to much and its bad.

its not its ok to talk but talking to much about it is too much, what i do to cope is think to myself about it and accept what has happened  and what i think.
Dont feel like your doing to much its ok if people think its too much they dont have to watch the video you have more then just these types of videos.


please don't apologise, why don't you make private venting account on Insta as there is a lovely and supportive community who are going through the same thing and you are never alone 💛


BLESS YOU
BLESS YOU
Bless you so much you wonderful human


Maybe you should make an anonymous account on the vent app<3 that way you can still get it out but it would be more private. It's saved me from being emotional on my main social media accounts


I don't understand why she's apologizing ? She's amazing and we should say "I'm sorry" that you fell like that 💛


You're so pure and beautiful i just love you so much ❤


Thank you, take care of yourself please <3


Why can tomska be depressed and on medication and talk about it all the time, and have conflicted feeling with guns, not having them to be a good influence, then having them again two vlog after.
And express himself on a vlogs every week for like 30 minutes, which is 5 min a day about what dodie post on snap? (I think)
Ok, tom's vlog is edited, and so he probably gets second opinion from friends before posting them and stuff, but it still is very raw and I think it's wonderful that it is.
He's a like one representation of what a person with mental illness can be, and I think that's important.
Because from a outsider point of view, he still is very functional, the funniest youtuber I know and has been that for like 10 years non stop. And I find that very inspiring.

Why are people saying that Dodie can't do that?
Maybe dodie online presence used to be too bubbly, quirky and cute? Even more on her first channel, I was a little bit surprising when I discovered the 2nd channel and her post on other social media.
But she's a human being and human beings have a wide range of emotions!
And I don't think that we should stop her from being herself on HER social media, I don't want her to have to be someone else in order to talk to us. Social media shouldn't be a place where you just perform 24/7.

But whatever, this is probably none of our buisiness, do whatever makes you happy doddodododododlie dodie.
Love you, and tomska also, don't know if he will read this, but he's my role model and keeps my little depressed ass working hard.

Also, mental health, is a recent trending subject in art, it used to be super taboo and you had to make complicated metaphores and say that's it's the devil and stuff and now, it's getting more and more clear, ok and needed.

From Bo Burnham saying that he tries to give people the hapiness that he can't give himself, to Rick and Morty saying that life is meaning less so let's just watch tv and Twenty One Pilots litteraly asking fans to not kill themselves at every concert (or to stay alive if you phrase it their way).

There is a demand for this kind of content and not everyone can get a therapist, not everyone can talk about it with friends, not everyone can even accept that they have thoses feelings etc
So this kind of content is like a cartarsis for them/us and it feels great!

The rambling point I'm trying to make is that role model shouldn't be one dimensional exemple of success.
So the people following them also don't feel the need to be that?
Don't be perfect, please don't try to be perfect, just be yourself, feel what you have to feel, talk about it if you want, try to stay safe, because whoever you are, you're good enough.

(And stay alive... stay alive, with me I-/ )


you've said stigma twice - this video and last video - AND ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS TAEHYUNG


OH MY GOSH YOU ARE SO LUCKY TO LIVE IN A CITY AND CHOOSE YOUR THERAPISTS!! I live in the middle of nowhere and I have to go to therapy soooo my only option is whoever is stationed at the nearest doctors. and if by some miracle I like them then they only ever stay stationed there for about 4 months


Confused at all the posts saying 'you don't need to apologise!??1'
No, she did need to apologise. And I'm really glad she did, it's the most responsible thing she has done and I was very happy to see this xxx

Edit: please read my clarification below. I am shocked by the cruel and unkind response to my support of Dodie's apology (something which was brave and the right decision on her part)

I agree.  I wasn't personally affected by her posts, but it could have hurt someone.  She is quite obviously a lovely human being and sometimes it is good to let things out.  But some things should remain private.  She learned and apologized and that's good.  Very brave.

what is up with this reply section?? even dodie said in the video that it was not good for her, why were people trying to argue that it was?

I love how you didn’t attack dodie. This comment is so honest and I love it.

Musicfever5 sadly, yes. That's how psychology works.

It wasn't good thing to do, people were not reading her instagrams and watching her snapchats because it was too much. She did do something wrong, and I'm glad she recognized it and apologized. I love Dodie, but sometimes those posts were way too much for me because they went so in depth. And I totally get where she was as well, I used to post a lot about my feelings on tumblr and i realized (actually via the previous video that Dodie and hazel did about this) that i was doing that for the same reason as Dodie. You are 100% allowed to talk about your feelings but there's a point where it's too much and potentially dangerous for other people. I'm glad that Dodie sees that and apologized. As many people have said, there's a lot of people who do this and don't apologize, I've been one of them, so I'm glad that she did.

If people are trying to make themselves mentally ill so they can be more creative, it is because they are mis-informed, do not have proper support to help them make the right choices or they're trying to be edgy. Not because Dodie made this video. Do not put the blame of someone making poor life choices on someone who was not even involved. That would be like me trying to say it's my local bakers fault that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, it's illogical. It is not Dodie's job as an entertainer to stop other people from making poor life choices. Nor is it her responsibility to stop children from watching videos they shouldn't be, or to make child friendly content to avoid them seeing something they shouldn't.

I find it quite concerning that an alarming number of people seem think that the responsibility of protecting your own child is palmed off onto whatever is taking their attention.

And as for the op, so what you're saying is that because you used to blog about mental health that you know best right? I'm sorry but you're being moronic. She did NOT need to apologise. Because there is no such thing as sharing too much. If she needs to get it off her chest, she needs to get it off. Seeing a therapist can't always happen when you need it and even if you see one regularly sometimes you still need to vent about bullshit that a therapist is just going to try and rationalise. Having a mental illness isn't simple, and it isn't pretty. She's allowed to struggle & she's allowed to share it. She can share as much or as little as she want's to. If someone is uncomfortable it is on them not to watch it. Stop trying to silence sufferers. We are allowed to speak up and tell our story and you DO NOT have the right to tell us how much we can share. Stop trying to cover up your personal opinions with fake concern. Dodie did nothing wrong and did not need to apologise.

i feel like everyone is missing the point here. talking is good, but showing mental health in this way and becoming this obsessed with social media, relying on it and it becoming some sort of addiction is BAD. it will inevitably make things worse which isn't what we want! its not because were all too sensitive about it and would just rather not hear it, it was hurting dodie, and thats the problem.

It is very true that young audiences can easily be influenced into thinking that they have a mental health issue when they don't or think that they need to have a mental issue of some sort to be valued or worth anything. I used to feel this way until my mother told me, "just because the people you admire and the people around you have problems, it doesn't mean you do too". I stand by the fact that it is good to speak up abput mental health. But speak about it with the intention of raising awareness that mental health issues exist and news to be dealt with, don't promote or glorify mental health issues. It is so mature and brave of Dodie for apologising for crossing the fine line of oversharing to an impressionable audience. And for the people saying "she didn't need to apologise because if a loved one opened up to you, would you make them apologise? " Please understand that you can't juxtapose those two things and call them the same. If a loved one opens up to you, you support them and offer them a shoulder to lean on or some advice, be there for them. Dodie, as a creator on a public online platform, is sharing personal information to literally anyone who stumbles upon her social media, which means thousands of young, easily persuaded people can read or hear about her personal mental health experiences and be coerced into feeling they are the same even if they are not. Thankfully Dodie realises that there is a limit to her sharing, and is such a respectable human because she is able to realise her mistake and improve herself which is a rare quality to find.

to everyone disagreeing; dodie even said it was unhealthy for her. what she has been doing wasn't good for her and showing it as much as she did and with her influence could make some people think 'why arent i feeling this way?' , spiraling themselves in the same loop. what dodie did was very brave but saying she didnt need to apologize is actually not constructive. she worked really hard to make this video and admit her mistakes. she explained how it wasnt healthy for her or her audience. accepting her apology accepts all that hard work when saying she didnt need to discredits her thoughts and realizations she isn't proud of but is so brave for realizing and opening up about.

by over explicit you mean telling people how she was really feeling??, there is nothing more harming to younger audiences (which has been proven by research, than instagram, but I don't see anyone demanding people who use instagram apologise) And as I said just reading about someone else's mental problems is not going to cause you to become mentally ill - if someone sees a pretty picture along with a post about how she is feeling, they are not going to suddenly be like 'omg, it's so cool to be mentally ill, i think I will develop a mental illness , because no one can CHOOSE to develop a mental illness, so people saying she is trying to make mental illness seem cool, is fucking sick, why would ANYONE want to make it look like having a mental illness which tortures you 24/7 seem like a good thing??. Kids read worse on the news everyday, watch movies with suicide in them... it's not going to cause them to suddenly develop the chemical imbalances which causes mental illness - because it's not possible, no matter how many of dodies instagram posts with pictures of flowers they read.<br>Saying she should apologize is sending out the message that it's not ok to talk about how you are feeling incase it upsets someone else, and that you should instead keep it to yourself - which is very dangerous. I am actually worried about dodie, as she no longer feels she can tell people how she is really feeling because she was made to feel guilty about it, now I'm worried she is going to bottle it up. If anyone is reading this that is going through a tough time - it's ok to speak up about how you are feeling, don't bottle it up and DON'T feel guilty about it.

by over explicit you mean telling people how she was really feeling??, there is nothing more harming to younger audiences (which has been proven by research, than instagram, but I don't see anyone demanding people who use instagram apologise) And as I said just reading about someone else's mental problems is not going to cause you to become mentally ill - if someone sees a pretty picture along with a post about how she is feeling, they are not going to suddenly be like 'omg, it's so cool to be mentally ill, i think I will develop a mental illness , because no one can CHOOSE to develop a mental illness, so people saying she is trying to make mental illness seem cool, is fucking sick, why would ANYONE want to make it look like having a mental illness which tortures you 24/7 seem like a good thing??. Kids read worse on the news everyday, watch movies with suicide in them... it's not going to cause them to suddenly develop the chemical imbalances which causes mental illness - because it's not possible, no matter how many of dodies instagram posts with pictures of flowers they read.
Saying she should apologize is sending out the message that it's not ok to talk about how you are feeling incase it upsets someone else, and that you should instead keep it to yourself - which is very dangerous. I am actually worried about dodie, as she no longer feels she can tell people how she is really feeling because she was made to feel guilty about it, now I'm worried she is going to bottle it up. If anyone is reading this that is going through a tough time - it's ok to speak up about how you are feeling, don't bottle it up and DON'T feel guilty about it.

Mermaid Sea ok, look, it's already been stated a billion times, but if you need it spelled out, it's not that talking about mental health in general is bad. She was being over explicit and relying on her audience too much, and the explicitness  (let's pretend that's a word) can be harming to her younger audience, who can be influenced about her graphic descriptions. It was unhealthy for both her and her audience to be that reliant and graphic. And if all else fails, lEtS aGrEe To DiSaGrEe

everyone is always like 'end mental health stigma' 'speak up, it's okay not to be ok' then someone posts about how they are really feeling and people are like 'omg wtf you need to apologize, didn't you know you have to pretend to happy and that your life is perfect online 24/7????' (which is hilarious seeing as instagram is the no.1 cause of mental health problems in young people, because it makes it seem like everyone's life is perfect and better than yours, and NOT because of the few people like dodie who decide to be brave and post how they are really feeling every now and then) Reading about someone's mental health problems - no matter how graphic, is not going to give you mental illnesses, it's like saying that if a friend who tells you there mental health issues is going to cause you to become mentally unwell for listening to them ( and while on that point, if dodie was your friend and told you exactly how she was feeling, would you demand her to apologize ????)

she did need to apologise, she even said she needed to and I'm very proud she did. it was a VERY unhealthy thing for her to of and you guys are supporting that? you missed the entire point of the video..

Ok look people this person was not being rude. She didn't say she can't share her story, she just shared a little too much so she apologized.

I'm honestly distraught at the nasty replies I have received to my comment. Perhaps I should have been more specific but I didn't realise people would see it? I am so broken that people think I am "disgusting" and are "questioning why I exist" (kind of contradictory to the message you're trying to convey about the intrinsic worth of human beings). I'm a former mental health blogger. I think it's great to share. But Dodie had taken it a bit too far and was sharing some really graphic posts combined with aesthetic Instagram photos, some really intense snapchats etc. I have met Dodie - I love her and I really enjoy her music! But the amount she was sharing was quite concerning. Of course we can choose to stop consuming her content. But was the way she was sharing this aspect of her life helpful to her either? Probably not, as she said it was like "empty calories" etc and there are definitely things she will find more helpful. I am PROUD of Dodie for apologising. It was responsible and the most responsible thing she has done in the course of sharing her mental health journey online. It's a fantastic step forward, so let's reflect on it with her instead of denying there was ever a problem :) xoxox

To the people disagreeing,

Dodie really did need to apologize. And we're all very proud of her for doing so. It was really brave of her to upload this video.

No one is telling her to stop opening up about her feelings. It's just that, social media has become her diary and that's good that she can open up BUT it can cause some problems too. People become influenced by what people say on social media. And Dodie has such a young, impressionable audience. What she says can influence younger people. People can start to get the wrong idea of mental illnesses. They could think that they have a mental illness when they don't or they could start to think that in order to be creative you have to be mentally ill, which you don't. Some of the things that Dodie said could've also been triggering to some people. As she said that some people had to stop following her on social media and shy away from her videos because they were so triggering.

The message that Dodie is trying to get across is that you can open up to someone but you also need to have boundaries. Some things just need to remain private, especially when you're a celebrity with such an influential audience

It is not okay to make someone feel bad about sharing their struggles. She did not need to apologise.

I can not believe you people even exsist. Seriously though? Would you expect your loved ones to apologise for confiding in you? I fucking doubt it.

why would she neeed to apologize????? why are people suddenly trying to silence mental health sufferers just  after it becoming normalized to speak about how you are feeling instead of feeling like you have to pretend to be happy all the time???
are we now thinking it's ok to shame mental health sufferers again and tell them not to post online unless they are happy???? well newsflash some people have to deal with this every day. Should they not be allowed to post online?? or should they only posts posts pretending they are happy? If dodie was your and she told you how she felt and said exactly what she said in her snapchat, would you tell her to apologize to you??? do you think people should just suffer in silence?? you are making people feel like that they should not speak about their mental health issues and keep them to themselves.
if dodie should apologize for being real, then all the models on my instagram 'discover' page should apologize to me for making me feel like shit and depressed today and everyday I go on their.
I feel like the people complaining about dodie sharing her mental health issues are the same people who say ''just smile' to people when they tell them they are depressed.

She did not. At all.

She is struggling and she was sharing her struggles. She does NOT have to apologise for being a fucking human. What is wrong with you.

If anyone is effected by her darker posts it's on THEM not to watch. Sharing these things is important when it comes to spreading awareness for mental health. It is not Dodie's responsability to parent people. She is not romantising anything. AND SHE IS NOT BEING PROBLEMATIC BY POSTING THESE THINGS. GROW UP!! If you don't like it, don't fucking watch.

How dare you.
Would you ask your family members to apologise if they broke down in front of you? No. You wouldn't because that would be selfish. How is this ANY fucking different? Shame on you.

Just because she has an audience doesn't make her any less of a fucking human being with feelings. LET HER BE HUMAN FFS Geez this kinda bs attiude pisses me off. So fucking gross.

I can't believe you have the fucking audacity to say "it's the most responsible thing she has done". You're fucking disgusting. She DID NOT need to apologise for being fucking human.

Romanticising is when an emo kid cuts their wrist and blasts it all over the internet saying how cool they are. THAT IS NOT AT ALL WHAT DODIE IS DOING. SMFH

Chenai Chan it's not a bad thing to talk about it, neccesarily, but she was being really explicit. It was the explicity (idk if that's a word whoops) that was affecting others. There's nothing wrong with talking about this sort of stuff to an extent, but the way she talked about it was the problem, if that makes sense

You people are the reason why people are scared to share their stories...

Musicfever5 it was the way she had been romantisizing her illness. It wasn't just her being sad making others sad, it was her being too forthcoming about what she was facing, which could seriously affect others

so she being sad could make other people feel sad etc?

Musicfever5 it wasn't just honesty that was the problem, she was sharing things that could be harmful to others of her audience... words have a lot of power, especially with how much of her audience is younger and impressionable

why did she need to? did she bother you with her honesty? (not judging, i just dont get it as im a recent viewer :p)


An apology was necessary, but know that you needn't eat yourself up over it. You're a human being, we all make mistakes. Without mistakes, we'd never improve ourselves or the things around us, and always remember that Rome wasn't built in a day. Neither must you be.

I hold the firm belief that we should never stop learning and growing till the day we die.


Awh dodie! Why are you apologising? It's because of you that I have come to understand mental illness and you truly are an inspiration 💜


i tried not to watch this until now and dodie is crying i'm crying i need help oml


Dodie, you don't need to apologise for the past. All you should be thinking about is the present and future. I just wanted to say this because you inspire so many people and the last thing your fans and I want is to see you retracing your steps and not progressing. This comment probably didn't make sense AT ALL but I just felt like I needed to say something, and for all I know my advise could be unwanted bullshit. I love you and your work so much Dodie, and you should be proud of the beautiful things that you have created, and focusing on YOUR happiness.  💕💕💕💕🌈😊😀


Thanks, but i really think that, although it may not be the Healthiest™ option, if you feel better and it helps you as you say, maybe don't definitely stop making this posts, but make them more "family friendly" or less triggering, or (as someone else said down below) maybe have a second Instagram acc just to pour out your thoughts.
Anyway maybe it is for the best, as as you said, the line between awareness and your "brand" it has lately been becoming more and more blurry, and you having a (in majority) not mature audience it may make more damage than help.
But yeah, do whatever it helps to deal with your illness but do it in a healthy way and always aware of the most impressionable part of your audience.
Take care of yourself dodie, and don't be sorry, most of us understand what you're going through; also good luck with your new therapist!! I hope it helps!!!


is it bad that her posts about it all dont phase me and just feel normal


Some things 'trigger' me but I just don't watch them or read them because it's none of my business. I would begrudge apologising for sharing just because a bunch of people want you to. I'd feel so resentful if I had to apologise and then all these people suddenly all happy because they got what they wanted.


dodie : close your laptop and go outside
me : BUT I JUST GOT HOME ;;;;

i'm sorry dodie, i'm not going to follow your advice today x')


Love you love you love you love you love ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Have I mentioned Love you? I am proud of you and just idk ily have a nice day, I am exited for Veda! ❤


im hecka down for being treated like im your lil sister (I'm a 6'3 guy)


You have a little sister??? Omg please introduce us to her!!


I have to say your vids do trigger my mental Health but I enjoy you so I keep watching it's really hard to stop Idk


Depression and mental health problems are so hard to deal with. Its so difficult to go through. You have amazing supportive friends which youre so lucky to have. When I opened up to my friends two of them told me if I wanted to kill myself then I should do it. My friend at that time told me I could talk to her, so I opened up, allowed myself to be vulnerable, broke down in her kitchen and she told me I should just kill myself, she then went to bed leaving me alone in her house in a ball of tears. The night I did attempt suicide my mother had told me she hated me and I was worst thing to happen to her, she then screamed at me for wasting her tablets and didnt speak to me for 4 months, I was in an abusive relationship with a cheating partner at the time while trying to get through my final year of university, it was the worst time in my life. You are so lucky to have people who love you and care about you, people want you to be well and happy and safe, Ive never been so fortunate to have lovely people around me. If I can get through my mental health problems with no support, I have full faith in you that you will come out of this. Youre going to look back on these videos in 10 years from now and realise how far youve come. Dont be so hard on yourself, focus on what you have and the positivity that brings to your life. xx


oh dear, take care of yourself please and let your friends take care of you too, because you're so wonderful and jeez i love you so much honestly i want you to be happy like nothing else in the world, you deserve happiness, it's so painful that i can't help but there are people who can, so it's ok


Don't think of it as messing up. You pushed out your walls, and you pushed until you found the line, and now you just have to pull them back a little bit. You didn't mess up - you learned. That's growth, babe.


the embarrassment and guilt is normal. you've done something you probably shouldn't have, and because you're a good person you feel embarrassed and guilty. it's fine, it's normal. but don't dwell on it too much.
when i was younger, a boy in my class was talking about how his mum didn't care about anything after she started smoking. i, because when im uncomfortable and upset i laugh, laughed. i was told that it wasn't funny and i was a bad person for doing that. i felt guilty and embarrassed, because i knew that was hurtful. but it didn't really harm anyone, that bad. just me.
since then ive found better ways of coping. i don't do thst again. we all learn, dodes. youre only human. you can't be perfect all the time.
lotta love xxxx


Dodie honeyyyy. If it helps you we will all want you to do so! We only want whats best for you. It helps me to knowing someone understands. Its okay to cry and its okay to be unsure about this. But just know that we are here for you and want whats best for you. if it helps do it!


I would go outside .......... but it is pitch black out there

I have to get up early but I am still browsing the internet Lol

The Fluffy Dragon do you live in America?

The Fluffy Dragon I think we're in the same time zone I rounded down


hey dodes :) i have depression and i wanted to say that i did find your posts relatable and they did allow me to feel i wasn't alone and they put into words how i felt which was nice because i could show other people to help them understand what i was going through, but then i started taking meds, and the meds worked, and THEN i found your posts triggering and they pulled me down and i began avoiding reading them. the whole time i thought you were just destigmatising mental illness but now i see after watching this and your vid with hazel that i was subconsciously finding them a bit too much. don't beat yourself up. it was a mistake and mental illness properly fucks up how and what you think so it is completely understandable that you made this mistake. we accept your apology xxxxxxx much love


Unfortunately there's a blurry line between telling people how you feel in a healthy way and oversharing constantly to the point where its almost an obsession. Love you dodie but a lot of everything you do is about how sad you are with pretty filters and feels like romanticing it. Im happy you want to practice cutting back from it a bit

I love your videos but watching some of them when im having a good health day would actually make me upset. I do get that its hard to know where the line is though and honestly theres nothing to apologise for

How can u have done something wrong when no one knows it was wrong in the first place? The Internet is so new especially when it comes to sharing your life like you do

How are any of us to know when somethings not right until its been not right already? It was a mistake that had to happen or else no one would know at all where the line is

Basically its Not your fault and it was something that had to have happened eventually to someone, luckily it was you who could be mature and handle it properly <3


The thing is I want to share online. I want to talk about the shit that goes on my head but I feel like I have but a barrier that doesn't let me do that. In school I am the happy go lucky person. I don't frown, get angry or cry even when I feel like im about to break. In class I sit in the back and scratch at my arms to distract me and when someone asks are you okay I instantly plaster a smile on my face. I just can't bring myself to show my mental state. It's not because I'm proud and don't want to be vulnerable, more like when I put a smile on my face it distracts just enough to push the thoughts to the back of my brain because I'm putting all my strength into acting like I'm fine. When someone asks if I'm okay I want to so bad to break down cry and scream that I'm not but I can't because if I don't who can they go to if they need someone to smile and make them laugh. I want to be the person that they would want to go to when they feel like crying, but in the end there is no one there for me to hold onto when I'm crying.


I agree that you shouldn't go into so much detail about how you're feeling, but you shouldn't force yourself to be positive. That's not helpful for you


dodie looks so beautiful in this video tho


I'm not sure if this is just me but I don't find what you post triggering. I don't have the same area of mental illness as you and I've never experienced depersonnalisation, and if I have I just never associated it with the name, and although I do find what you post a little worrying sometimes I am aware that writting helps. that feeling validated, even just by a few people, is amazing when you're feeling low. and if posting on instagram and snapchat helps just a little then i always viewed it as great because you need to feel better somehow. I know that alot of people disagree with my veiw but I just want you to be ok because somehow I have grown to care a whole lot about you and you feeling better a little each day means alot to me for some reason ( that may sound rude but I deffinetly don't mean it to)
and so I see it as: do whatever makes you feel better. and while you probably should concider revising what you've written/filmed/whatever, post it if you need to and don't if you feel like you can handle not doing so. Dan was probably right. sticking your feeling on the wall is a good idea. you can see how you felt and hopefully in a few years, how you've changed in those feelings.
I hope the new therapist is better than the last ones


Na Dodie, why are you crying? Everything is fine. Do what ever you want to do. We love you what ever you do.  ❤


even though i agree that perhaps you sharing so much is unhealthy i also think that the comments were quite harsh on your last video. You shouldn't feel so terrible about reaching out to your audience.


If you feel like you still wanna talk about your mental health in your worst state, just talk to yourself. Just pretend someone's listening and just speak out your thoughts - I may not have a mental illness but this tactic does help me when I'm angry or scared or upset ❤❤


Dodie! As someone who does not have any noticeable or debilitating mental health issues, oftentimes when I get overwhelmed by your heavy posts I would think it came from a place of not understanding and difference of opinion on some things. So I took a step back. I unfollowed most of your social media (I honestly don't know if I'm still subscribed to this channel tbh). I would never ever dare post a hate comment because I do not hate you nor your content. I have been following you closely for multiple years now and though I have taken a step or two back, I am very pleased that you are able to recognize a flaw within yourself while still sticking to your beliefs. I am going to subscribe once again (if I did unsub I really don't know) though I still will hold myself at a bit of a greater distance than I once was. I support you and your mental health journey and I truly hope that you one day get well


There's an app called talkspace and it's fairly cheap, and you text a professional on the clock therapist for help and you can voice message them and send videos and it really helps a lot of people I know, and it's good cause you can message them while you're in those states of confusion and anguish because you can talk to someone right away and they can see you in that vulnerable state which is good because it's harder when all they see is you composed and calm while in their office, they don't always get to see you in that situation that can sometimes be very helpful in diagnosis,  treatment and overall understanding, you should check it out!


don't worry dodie! it obviously helped you at the time but it probably wasn't the best decision in the long run. however, we all forgive you and love you. like you said, people have had to stop reading/watching your content as it can be triggering but at least now you know what is and isn't too much for other people to deal with, and it will help you in the long run. this made no sense but oh well. i love you!

also, if you hadn't been so open when talking about mental health, i would've had no idea that i had dpd! your posts have helped me and so many other people, so don't feel like you have to apologise.


i think you're FUCKING COURAGEOUS!  everyone is trying to find their way.  so are you.  perhaps some folks are correct in that the younger, more vulnerable part of your audience might be adversely affected by seeing someone struggling.  but i think if you were to continue to show yourself in your most challenged state, AND THEN demonstrate how you have overcome that challenge, you will continue to be an inspiration to EVERYONE, as well as continue to demonstrate that mental illness is just that, an illness, and with effort and great guidance, you can overcome it.  blessings to you and your courageous little spirit!


hey I'm always going to be here for you. you need people and you are upset. because you can't keep everything to yourself I'll always be here for you, so if you ever need someone to talk to seriously let me know, I will be more than happy to listen to you. I love you so much darling.


Don't apologize for sharing mental health issues!!! So many people post so much worse on the internet, take logan paul for example. <br>If you want to make changes, you do that and do it proudly. But don't apologize for this. Don't apologize for the lessons you learned and how better of a person this made you

Don't apologize for sharing mental health issues!!! So many people post so much worse on the internet, take logan paul for example.
If you want to make changes, you do that and do it proudly. But don't apologize for this. Don't apologize for the lessons you learned and how better of a person this made you


Okay, I have a similar experience. Honey, don't be embarrassed we make mistakes. I'm 15, and bisexual and depressed so we share a couple of things. I like your music and I found out about u from Carrie (even though that doesn't really matter but still I just wanted to share.) I wrote a book, I don't want to boast but it's important to what i'm trying to say. I wrote 500 words a day. Everyday for 139 days, apart from two weeks in christmas. If I missed a day i'd do 1000 instead of 500 and so on and so forth. But it was pretty gruelling and stressful. And for a teenager like me that struggles with dark thoughts and actions it meant that I poured out my feelings into the book more than making it a consistent or good story. Using it more of an outlet for my feelings destroyed it as a book to a point where no one wants to read it and although i'm proud of finishing it it's still...a little bit disappointing. My point is, if you need to take a step back to stop yourself oversharing because you don't want to destroy what you created so be it i'm totally with you xxx


If you want to share the things you have recorded but don't feel them appropriate to just put out there, perhaps save all the clips you've recorded of yourself, and when you're in a healthier part of your life, create a documentary style film that follows, and educates people on, your journey. Being in a better state would make you more rationally be able to see what's appropriate to share and how to share it in the most informative, educational, and supportive way, rather than it just being shared because in your depressed state you've self justified it by convincing yourself it's helping people. You can, and do, help people.


WHERE DO I FIND THE SHIRT IVE LOOKED EVERYWHERE PLEASE HELP


Hi. I've used an app called Talklife. You can post, get some advice or just support others. It has a great trigger-avoidance feature which hides certain posts, so people can choose to avoid certain topics/issues from appearing on there feed.


You did the right thing making this video


"go outside" Dodie, I love you but it's 12:16am and I'm in nothing but my boxers and a panic! hoodie, not happening


I think it's sad how society tries to push breaking the mental health stigma and then when public figured such as yourself actually start a real, raw conversation they get backlash. So now we're right back to where we started. Essentially saying you can talk about it....But just as long as its not too much. I personally think she has nothing to be sorry for. Shes real. Shes a person and she feels just like all of us. Good on you for sharing and being honest and straight up about your personal struggles with mental health. I will continue to be a huge fan and wish you nothing but the best❤

Shoshana Kaim We agree, but for different reasons. You went with more of a personal responsibility and free speech for Dodie approach than I did. I completely agree with you on that as well and had circled but not actually landed on that same feeling myself. Just commenting because I appreciate the perspective. :)

We also agree that it didn't sound like it was healthy for her. I'm so proud of this silly, mixed up, British girl for doing what she thinks is right and good and healthy!

Abominable Snow Panda idk man i feel quite the opposite. if anyone in dodies audience felt triggered or hurt by the content they saw, they shouldve stopped looking at it?? like theres so much fucked up shit on the internet, so everyone needs to draw their own line at whats too much for them. it really shouldnt be dodies responsibility to look out for everyone who sees her content. that said, this isnt a very healthy way for dodie to deal with her mental health struggles. i think its better for her to get real help rather then simply talk about it to an audience that cant do much to help. but that doesnt mean that SHE was in the wrong for sharing this stuff

I couldn't agree more Kaitlynn. As long as she's being honest about it (which of course she was) all she is doing is pointing a flashlight into a dark place. She is not responsible for other people's happiness or lack thereof whether driven by their own mental health issues or just that it was sad to see. You learn a lot more about something if it's uncensored, and Dodie has made me much more interested in mental health than I was before with these posts only amplifying my interest in mental health, my drive to do what I can to help people dealing with such troubles, and my empathy overall.

That said, I can't be anything but happy for her that she reached out to her audience for honest feedback and made her decision based on that. If she feels like shedding light on this in such a raw way isn't the right thing to do because of her audience demographics or because she weighs individuals being triggered as greater than that goal, then I absolutely support her even while disagreeing. I would never expect someone to do something they feel morally wrong about just because it might potentially have a positive impact long-term.

Also, I think based on what she has been saying that it also wasn't helping her own struggle to make those posts and was instead making her dwell deeper in the valley of the natural ebb and flow of her mental states. I also would never expect someone to do something that is essentially harmful to themselves just because it might potentially be a positive thing long-term for others.

I am not at all amused with her feeling like she needs to apologize though. YOU DID NOTHING WRONG DODIE! DON'T APOLOGIZE FOR BEING A DODDLEODDLE!

sorry; but it turned me off watching dodie because all she talks about is being depressed and feeling bad for herself

This isn't about stopping talk around mental health, it's just that we need to have HEALTHY conversations about mental health.

The problem she had with sharing so much online is that there are quite a few people with their own mental health issues who follow her on social media platforms where she has overshared, and they haven't been able to cope and have felt, frankly, shit or worseafter watching her oversharing. Conversely, there have been people who felt better and not as alone but I digress.
I disagree with your statement that we're right back where we started, because Dodie isn't going to stop talking about it, she isn't going to suddenly hide the fact that she has mental health issues, but for her own health she has to stop telling social media so much. This is just as much about Dodie's mental health as it is about her audience's mental health, and that of her friends'.
I love Dodie, and I love what she was doing, and I love what she will continue to do, but she has been oversharing and I'm so proud that she has learnt her boundaries of what is healthy and what is not from this before something terrible happened, and I can only hope that this therapist of hers will help her and give her a new outlet.

Kaitlynn McCaig the issue isn't the stigma. we want her to talk about it, but when she posts on snapchat saying "there's no point in living" to a million young people, it's not helpful and t can be very triggering. she doesn't have to apologize in fact, but it's not healthy for anybody when she posts things like that. and it's okay!! everyone does things and they font know they've done anything worse than normal. but she asked for opinions, and people said they were being pushed down and triggered by her posts. so yeah :) i'm rlly glad she addressed it in fact. have a nice day/night hope this cleared it up (?)


I don't think that you should feel embarrassed and/or sorry for doing something that was helping you cope and deal with the things you were going through. Personally, I related to a lot of what you said in your Insta posts and it did indeed make me feel less alone. But I can see how it became an oversharing problem, and I believe you have all the right to feel like you need to stop that problematic behavior. But please don't feel bad for it! Take care, dodie :)


From the point of view of someone who hasn't felt triggered by your posts on any of your social media. Well done. I think it's amazing that you have shared such raw emotion, and even if it has been a bit too close to home for some people, it will have at least demonstrated that someone who is strong and talented and successful can be all that and also be struggling. That struggling is not unique and you can still do so much in spite of it. I also agree that maybe it is no bad thing to hold back on some of that in-the-moment sharing with your audience, but please don't feel embarrassed by what you have shared. As you have only said out loud what many of us feel. And lastly, I always found your posts encouraging.  Weird maybe. But you always managed to round off a depressive monologue with hope, not defeat. And that is the MOST important thing. Thought are with you and everyone else! Can't wait for August! X


Firstly, you're amazing. I actually love hearing about how you are, if you're low, it's so raw to me. I love how unfiltered it all is and graphic,  many people do tend to shy away from showing that side of them because they're in the public eye. Maybe it is too graphic for some people or maybe it's just the consistency of you're posts that became too much, but honestly I'm overwhelming thankful for you because you made me talk about my brain and its oddities, so thank you Dodie for it all.


Thank you for this. So much love & respect for you, Dodie!


I'm so proud of you, Dodie. I love the idea of writing or filming when you're in a dark place and then sitting on it for a while to see if it's usable. I think I should start doing that myself. I'm trying to find a way to share about my own experiences with mh issues, and your openness in this video has been really encouraging. I learned a lot from you in your last few videos, and I am also going to make an effort to continue talking about mental health in healthy, appropriate ways. Lots of love.


Words can't describe how much I love you, and admire you ❤ stay strong Dodie!


i just got to watch this now, oh gosh i love you so much, i've been thinking some of this stuff about you for a while and i'm so happy you're brave and genuine enough to acknowledge it and apologise. good luck with your brain, you deserve the world <3


Hey Dodie if you see this (you probably won't though) let me just say this. Everything happens for a reason even if we can't even figure out what the reason is! Its a funny story how I first heard this quote but I know from that moment it was the best quote in history!! :)


Proud of you Dodie! I just started therapy again as well. We can do it together.


I just want you to know that I really enjoyed your sharing :) I found it helpful and relatable so I don't think you should feel like you did anything wrong :) you are wonderful dodie! I also try think of my audience like my younger sister as well


You are so wonderful Dodie and we are proud of you for realizing your mistake! I hope to see all the amazing content you will make and no one is mad at you and we are happy you are taking steps to make your life better!


i love you dodie and i hope you get through this! And we are all here to help you ❤


Dodie, your heart is in the right place and i am so proud of you for growing and righting your wrongs. Keep being the fabulous human bean that I know you are <33


I know this would be hard to create so I am so PROUD of You! Realising your mistakes and saying sorry is the most MATURE response. WELL DONE! Lots of love ❤


And Dodie! It's okay! You can tell us anything, we're here for you, though I appreciate you understand that we might find it too much or upsetting, but if there's no one irl you can talk to (which is unlikely) we are here, just remember that!


this is a great response, you can see you've really thought this through~ tbh i was one of the fans who had to take a step back from your content for a while but im super glad to watch this video; stay healthy, look after yourself dodie 💜


im so proud of you, youre truly amazing holy crap<br>you deserve so much.

im so proud of you, youre truly amazing holy crap
you deserve so much.


This is something I can really identify with (though with my friends/acquaintances, not a public audience). I've had to learn when it's appropriate to share and when it's not and as a <b>massive oversharer</b> this has been complicated. This is such a kind & brave move xxx

This is something I can really identify with (though with my friends/acquaintances, not a public audience). I've had to learn when it's appropriate to share and when it's not and as a *massive oversharer* this has been complicated. This is such a kind & brave move xxx


That was really mature and impressive Dodie. I have so much respect and love for you <3


Oh, Dodie! Please stay strong and do what you have to! I (and I'm sure the other million on your channel) will stand behind you every step of the way! Love you so much, and you are really inspiring and beautiful and your songs are moving! <br>Love, Jana - from South Africa ❤❤

Oh, Dodie! Please stay strong and do what you have to! I (and I'm sure the other million on your channel) will stand behind you every step of the way! Love you so much, and you are really inspiring and beautiful and your songs are moving!
Love, Jana - from South Africa ❤❤


i've seen all of your videos and to be quite frank, i appreciate you opening up about how you feel. it makes me feel like my favorite youtuber is a real fucking human being, you have a life and you're so brave to show the world your state of mind. unlike other people who only show the fans what they want their fans to see which is so wrong. i love you so so much dodie please don't feel like you're disappointing your fandom or whatever because you're really not. i'm here for you x -tala


you're still a huge inspiration for me and while u may have been oversharing, it helped me to evaluate my own mental health issues and i feel like i'm getting better at knowing myself. thank you for doing what you do. ur amazing.


This is why you're so wonderful. I was scared watching your previous video with Hazel as my own mental health is fragile... But after watching Melanie's response, and now this apology... Wow, you are really incredible. Owning up to your feelings like that is no easy task, and I am very happy to see you'll be seeking help again. <3 wishing you the very best


Aw Dodieee. Thank you for doing this. You're posts and videos have helped me and other people. But there's a fine line and I'm glad you're on the path to stop crossing it. I understand how you feel and if I was in you're position I'd be over sharing too. Thank you for taking a step back. 💖


I wish you all the best for your new therapy. I really hope it helps you <3 And btw, you're pretty awesome Dodie. I can imagine that reading about yourself in such detail is painful and weird. (I also felt really weird commenting on the last video, because I felt kind of intrusive and like a smartass... mmh). The way you deal with this is really mature and takes guts.<br>Greetings from a stranger on the internet :-*

I wish you all the best for your new therapy. I really hope it helps you <3 And btw, you're pretty awesome Dodie. I can imagine that reading about yourself in such detail is painful and weird. (I also felt really weird commenting on the last video, because I felt kind of intrusive and like a smartass... mmh). The way you deal with this is really mature and takes guts.
Greetings from a stranger on the internet :-*


you are so amazing. the strength it takes to deal with the amount of just overwhelmingly negative thoughts that come with depersonalization, and then  post it on line, and then realize that you posted too much online, and then apologize and admit you made a mistake really shows that you have a good heart + soul. and sometimes, that's better than a good brain.


I LOVE YOU!!! And I'm so proud of you ❤❤ just wanted to say that. I'll support you through whatever mistakes and successes you'll be going through in the future because you're human, and nobody's perfect, and it is okay. I love you I love you I love you.


My darling dodie...I absolutely love how you are so open and so loving and gentle. The fact that through snap chat you talk and shear your life and your thoughts openly can actually be so beneficial to not only you but to so many other people...for a long time I (and I'm sure many other people) felt alone with either mental illness or even life situations and events. The fact that you have confidence in showing how human you are and how vulnerable and funny you normally are is beautiful and so rare because we life in a very self-conscious and scared world. If you truly want to become less vulnerable and "serious" ( I didn't know what other word) I will support you just promise me that you will keep being yourself. People will love you loads more when you are just being you because you are amazing😊😊. The amount of people who love you and your work and you posts and your tweets and snapchats is a lot larger and far more supportive then the people who think the opposite. I have been praying for you and your mental illness and I hope that one day it will all be gone😘😘


boundaries, woo! I've recently started saying to myself, whenever I see some kind of shitty transphobic news or posts (being a trans guy),

"y'know what? I'm not going to put myself through this today. I'm not going to set myself off and I'm not going to make myself feel even worse by looking at this."

and it has helped a lot. it's helped me to figure out what sets me off and it's helped to keep my mood stable. I have less and less days where I feel existentially awful about everything, and I'm more productive and generally happier. go boundaries!

boundaries, woo! I've recently started saying to myself, whenever I see some kind of shitty transphobic news or posts (being a trans guy),

"y'know what? I'm not going to put myself through this today. I'm not going to set myself off and I'm not going to *make* myself feel even *worse* by looking at this."

and it has helped a *lot*. it's helped me to figure out what sets me off and it's helped to keep my mood stable. I have less and less days where I feel existentially awful about everything, and I'm more productive and generally happier. go boundaries!


hey dodie! i'm so sorry that it gets so bad. please know that we love you dearly ! you have been such an incredible source of inspiration for me , even though i got to know you quite late. i just want you to know that we are here for you always no mater where in the world we may be . you must know that you are loved , even by people who don't know you or seen like my brother , he said that you were the cute girl with the uke who sang beautifully. i honestly was the happiest person in the world ( because i was blaring your ep from my room)  .i know , i have started feeling quite low too , even though generally i am a happy person due to the loss of the people i loved just within this year . its people like you who become up lifting and give hope. i love you soo much and i'm sending you the biggest hug ever! please take care of yourself . oxox


You're amazing. We are all here to support you. Since I turned 18 a few years ago, the way I combat depression is by becoming depersonalized, and I stop reaching out to friends/family for support. I don't write or sing either, which is awful. It's hard, but you have to keep writing music. Spend time with yourself. Learn what gives you little highs so you can finish out your day. It's so so hard. I watch your snapchats every day, and I understand exactly how you've been feeling. There was a point where I honestly didn't think people ever got that way like I did, and I've even been called lazy before because of it. You are lucky you are so self-aware. Definitely looking forward to watching you grow as a person and an artist from all of this. We've all got your back!!!!! <3


You are so strong and so caring and so helpful in so many ways, I am very happy that you found a better way to deal with mental health issues. Love you <3


Love you Dodie; I hope you feel better soon ♥


You should definitely still talk about depression though, because it's helpful to hear about the way someone who has more experience in life is dealing with it. <br>We all love you Dodie 💛

You should definitely still talk about depression though, because it's helpful to hear about the way someone who has more experience in life is dealing with it.
We all love you Dodie 💛


You really helped me with your posts because it was nice knowing other ppl were feeling the same as me, but I never post stuff when I'm down, I go to look at your songs and look at ppl playing games and just look at stuff....<br>I wish you only the best Dodie, you do what's best for you

You really helped me with your posts because it was nice knowing other ppl were feeling the same as me, but I never post stuff when I'm down, I go to look at your songs and look at ppl playing games and just look at stuff....
I wish you only the best Dodie, you do what's best for you


Thanks for making these two videos Dodie. Because I completely know you never had any intention of hurting anyone the idea didn't even cross your mind. But there definitely was a fine line between sharing to get it out and going way in depth and to be honest I was worried for not only you but your younger viewers too. Mainly just a little worried for you cuz your awesome dodes :) but also thinks for letting us know even if it was a bit much. It takes courage to put those kinds of posts up and also a lot of courage to stop doing something that had for so long given you comfort and help in a way. I hope that coming to this realization helps you in the long run. Also I just want to say that I see someone regularly when I want to talk about what's going and it really does help. They are always on your side in a way and always understanding but also sometimes say what needs to be said. I love you lots Dodie! <br>:)

Thanks for making these two videos Dodie. Because I completely know you never had any intention of hurting anyone the idea didn't even cross your mind. But there definitely was a fine line between sharing to get it out and going way in depth and to be honest I was worried for not only you but your younger viewers too. Mainly just a little worried for you cuz your awesome dodes :) but also thinks for letting us know even if it was a bit much. It takes courage to put those kinds of posts up and also a lot of courage to stop doing something that had for so long given you comfort and help in a way. I hope that coming to this realization helps you in the long run. Also I just want to say that I see someone regularly when I want to talk about what's going and it really does help. They are always on your side in a way and always understanding but also sometimes say what needs to be said. I love you lots Dodie!
:)


Dear Dodie, I love you and your work so much. It is devastating watching you cry. I'm heartbroken, but I will always support you, always. Though you have been talking a lot, perhaps too much, about your emotions and mental health, you shouldnt regret it - at one point it was exactly what you needed.


Honestly im so proud of you Dodie. Im really happy that you understand that sometimes things can go too far. This video has really made me happy and really hopeful because i feel like anyone can get better. not because they were struggling really really hard, but because everyone knows themselves better than anyone. Example: Dodie, you know your boundaries and you know what your audience needs. not because they tell you but more or less because they are here because they love you and support you. I just want to thank you for being so strong and so inspiring and so helpful in many many ways. I love you Dodie Clark


You can do this dodie ... I love you ... stay strong!!!


Hugs for Dodie! Love you very much Dodie, I hope you have a delightful day. <3<br>~Lu

Hugs for Dodie! Love you very much Dodie, I hope you have a delightful day. <3
~Lu


We all want u to feel safe and happy. It's okay to mess up once in a while, u learn from it afterwards. Even if it's in front of people who don't know you that well there are moments where this happens. We luv u <3


honestly Dodie, no matter what you tell us, we love you unconditionally and we will always be there when you need someone to listen ❤


i wanna give a biiiig hug! i can relate to a lot of things you tell us about you and your mental health/illness. it makes me feel less alone in this "crazy" place. i didn't feel triggered by it, though i didn't see/watch everything - but i do understand that other people do feel triggered and therefore thank you for taking this in concern and doing something about it. ♥


first time i've cried when watching one of your posts. usually on snapchat i'm like, 'oh, i feel bad for dodie. oh well, this is every day.' and i shouldn't say that but it's been like this for a long time. but this video was so honest and so... emotional . but in a different way. you probably won't see this but, my heart hurts with you this time, and i'm so confident that this is such a good decision for you :)


dodie were here for you. we will always try our best to make you happy and help you overcome what you're going through. love you <3


thank you for this video Dodie. if i'm gonna be honest i was really mad at you when i read the comments on your last video stating how many fans couldn't even watch your videos anymore and then your initial reaction on snapchat was like "yeah it was too much but i can't be objective in these situations i just don't care then" because having an audience like this means you HAVE to care. it's your responsibility and if you can't do it then you can't be on the internet. i'm glad you are realizing that now so thank you again


thank you so much for your apologies for posting too graphic of content, we all love and appreciate that you want to keep your content healthy. but dodie, don't ever ever forget that we are not mad at you for doing that. if we were we all would have unsubscribed and unfollowed. we are all worried about you. and we love you. and speaking for myself, as someone going through a very tough time with my depression and especially my depersonalization, seeing someone else in the thick of it has given me a weird sort of comfort. we know you were trying to do something good and we know you will always be trying to be better. we love you. i love you.


Hello Dodie,

First of all, I just wanted to say how much of an inspiration and human wonder you are. It is clear from your responses and audience that you are helping a lot of people. The way you word things and the way you describe your experiences, good and bad is like taking a breath of fresh air. I know that you will continue to make fantastic videos and songs.

Second of all, there is no way I or anyone else will know how you are feeling. Only you can know how you feel, so I am not going to say the cliché, "I understand" or "I totally know what you are saying" because that would be a big fat lie. All I can say is that, I hope you can find the help and support you and I'm sure a lot of other people with mental health are craving. I can also offer to be a pair of ears to listen to what you have to say as I have done with all of your videos and posts through the years of following you. I realise that talking aloud about how you are feeling and knowing that people are listening is a comforting thought, which I hope it is. :)

May I make a suggestion to an idea I had? You mention that you keep a journal, which is a great friend to have. Your journal will always be there to encourage and invite any kind of emotion that you are feeling. But whilst watching this video it occurred to me that you enjoy recording your feelings at the time because talking aloud makes you feel better too. My suggestion is this... you could perhaps make a video diary? Not one for public eyes and ears but just for your own. That way you can play it back to yourself. Again, this would just be for your benefit, no one else's. :)

If you decide to try it out, I hope it helps. :) Thank you again for your openness and honesty. That is one of the things that I and I'm sure most of your audience love about you. Also, you are hilarious and talented amongst many other things.

I wish you all the best. Keep smiling, the smiles look great on you! :)

Thanks again. Much love, Aimée 💛🌻 xxxx


Dodie, it's okay. everyone makes mistakes and I totally understand you.
You don't have to feel bad about it and I am glad, that this video helped you realise what an impact you have. but it's okay now. we still love you. we really do.
feel hugged. <3


We love you, Dodie. Going into that much depth in your posts might not have been great, but just look at how you've realised that and dealt with it; so many people would have reacted negatively to the criticism, unable to push past their personal feelings, but you have shown your audience that you care so much, and that is not something to be underestimated. You're an incredibly brave and special sunflower 💜


I love you Dodie and you don't need to be sorry! Though I am glad you've realised that sharing mental illness so deeply is not always the best thing to do. As someone who is recovering from anxiety and depression, it's sometimes super hard to read your instagram posts and as much as I love and support all that you do, I've had to take a step back recently and stop reading them because it brings back memories. At the same time, I can see from the comments how helpful your posts have been to those who are currently suffering, which is great that people have taken something from it and you have had an outlet for your feelings (or lack of, isn't depression fun!) Your heart is always in the right place with everything you do so there's no need to be sorry! ❤


for me it really help to see you talk about how you felt. It really help me realise that I had a problem and I weren't just being ridicules and what I felt was real. it helped me come to terms with my mental health problem.


Dodie seeing you cry makes me cry omg. I love you so much and will always support you 💛💛💛


the way you've spoken about derealization helped me understand what it is. I understand it can be triggering though. Take care Dodes, we love you


Well done Dodie! It's hard to admit you're wrong, especially when all you were trying to do was good. I'm so happy cause I am one of those people who has had to take a step back from what you've been posting online. It started to feel like your mental problems were becoming 'your brand' which was really disheartening because you are so much more than your mental illness. You have a lot more to share. I hope the therapy works out this time! 🖤


Oh dodes 💛 I'm sorry for the way you're feeling and how hard it is. I love you :)


I'm so, so proud of you. The posts that you posted never bothered me, but I always worried about you. You may not even read this, but seriously, Dodie Clark, you are one of the strongest people in the world, and I'm so proud that you've taken a step forward in handling your illness. I'm going through depression and anxiety, and I constantly worry if I'm sharing too much or if I'm not sharing enough, and I'm constantly learning just like you are. We love you, Dodie. It all gets better. In the meantime, I sincerely look forward to VEDA and other content that you make, because you're fucking brilliant and the world is a better place with you in it. Much love <3


I think of anxiety and depression (for me personally) as an anxious and upset friend- so I remind myself to be kind and say positive words. Be kind to yourself and others <3 (Love you dodie) xx


you've handled this so maturely, i love you


Thanks for this it was really strong to apologise and say this, it's appreciated x


Ok time to share my thoughts now. <br>Yo I don't know if I really comment all that much but im so proud of you for being so mature and not being rude or defensive. That's why we love you Dodie. As someone who struggles with mental health I too used to post a lot of stuff when I was at my worst. Maybe not on YouTube but on Facebook and Pinterest and other places. And I look back on it and I feel like it wasn't good to do that. When at the time it seemed so helpful. We love you Dodie❤

Ok time to share my thoughts now.
Yo I don't know if I really comment all that much but im so proud of you for being so mature and not being rude or defensive. That's why we love you Dodie. As someone who struggles with mental health I too used to post a lot of stuff when I was at my worst. Maybe not on YouTube but on Facebook and Pinterest and other places. And I look back on it and I feel like it wasn't good to do that. When at the time it seemed so helpful. We love you Dodie❤


I warned you about this on Twitter when you first started talking about finding a therapist. It's so important to keep certain things to yourself and work through them in private, with a maximum of a couple close people, especially given your public job. I suppose this is a demonstration of how sharing your life as your job can become a problem. I hope you find a better path.


I love you dodie you will always have my love and support even though it probably doesn't mean much


I am so proud of you for realising that the way you shared your problems wasn't always healthy and learning from it. This apology is one of the only honest apologies I've seen someone make after they've realised they made a mistake and it is so important that you made this.


aesthetically talking, personally, i think your long posts on instagram are so grammatically flawless and emotionally deep that they truly make each one of your posts so unique and just intresting to read and appreciate... But, seriously talking, all you sayd in this video is right, we all make mistakes, and you came to such a perfect solution, that's definitely a doodie level up, congrats!


You don't have to apologise for being yourself! You're a wonderful human and if you feel like sharing how you feel create another account to vent it all out. God damn it Dodie! Why you so amazing and making us cry with you 😢


im very glad you've come to this realisation❤


when you almost cried i started crying dodie noo we love you 💛💛although it was a bit of oversharing it really helped me! it was so refreshing and helpful to see a youtuber i look up to that went through similar things as me. i really hope you do those things, i do a diary and it helps so much oh my goodness. yeah anyway ily and you are forgiven


I honestly didn't mind your posts at all. I was going through a semi ok time when u were posting them and they didn't cause me to think about things too much or 'trigger' me. I just liked to know how u were doing really. Now i'm going through a worse time and starting medication and therapy. I look back at your posts and just read because i find it nice to know your going through the same thing and it helps me to read about it. I've posted alot about my mental health on twitter which may have been too much but honestly it's my way of coping. Just wanted to let you know im sure im not the only person who isn't affected by your sharing of your mental health. I don't want you thinking it's everyone who is following you on social media :) Much Love <3


Thank you. I think I needed to hear this too. 💕


I love you, so keep your head up high dodie ❤


honestly, it doesn't trigger ME at all. your videos are quite helpful, actually. but i understand completely and it's so nice of you to acknowledge the issue. you're amazing


Everyone messes up sometimes, I understand every word you are saying. It's not your fault, the brain can mess with our ideas on what is healthy and what is not. Much love, you are truly an amazing person Doddie.


i love u doddie,
i've been watching u for like a week,
and you made my week again. i was so sad about something
that happened in my week, but u made me smile again,
and i wanna than you so much for that.:)
like, you're my favourite youtuber in like a fucking week, lol.
and its actually kinda funny, but thank u so much,
for making me smile <3
and i want you to feel the same.
you are strong, ad we all believe in you.
and we all love you <3


We all deal with things differently. We all heal differently. Mental illness consumes you so much so that the only release is sometimes social media. You shouldn't be embarrassed by how you dealt with your brains toxic moments in that moment. We all still love your videos and support you. You've been empowered by making this decision 😊


I just wanted to say that, at least for me, I never felt triggered or anything by your videos. It just kind of felt like listening to a friend. But I do think that this change will be healthier for you & I wish you good luck. Love you bunches ❤❤


You and tomska are very brilliant for showing your mental health publically and this video shows just more of your integrity and strength than anything else. Very lovely


Thank you. Thank you for being who you are. You are caring to all of us and protective of us. Don't worry about what you do, everyone is still learning. If life was easy and nobody learnt anything from it - way would be the point? Keep living, keep learning and stay true to you. We don't want to see anyone other than you.


Honest I really liked when you posted on Snapchat when you weren't in your best because it made me feel like  I wasn't alone with my state of mental health. If I ever met you I'd thank you for all of the help that you have given me in the past few years and in helping me realize that I'm not alone with my mental illness and that I can always talk about it


We love you Dodie. Remember, you're only human.


Your candor is really brave and it's also brave to reevaluate how healthy your habits are. Good on ya.


I think you're pretty cool ☺ thanks for always willing to share and be vulnerable and such. You cool girl you cool ❤


I just wanna hug you and don't let go until you're ready and happy. Please never stop existing. I love you and everyone on this channel loves you. <3 Write down/record yourself everything you need, just don't share it with everyone. Sometimes that helps a lot.


Love you kid ! The storm will pass! And the fairies will come ! 💛


Hi Dodie, to me, I do think what you share is in depth and I see how it could trigger sone people but to just show you the other side, I have learnt so much with your snapchat and Instagram. I'm lucky enough to not have struggled with mental illness so watching/reading something that really shows how you feel helped me understand what people suffering from it actually go through. It's taught me how mental health effects people, and shows just how scary it can be. It really proved to me how real these illnesses are and how getting help should not be shamed in anyway.

Obv, graphic and intense descriptions could very easily trigger people so I totally understand why you'd stop. I just wanted to thank you for sharing what you did because it really helped me learn.

Side note, mental illness will not become your brand. Your music is fucking kickass and I love everything about it. The art you create is beautiful and don't ever stop.  ♥


it's a good good thing that you can admit your mistakes and apologise for them so maturely. we just want you to take care of yourself Dodie and nobody gets taught how to be a YouTube celebrity. you weren't really given lessons on this and it's ok to mess up, thank you for still putting the effort into talking about mental health and thank you also for showing us how to own up to our mistakes.


Agreed. To everything you said but please don't beat yourself up over it. We can't change the past we can only keep moving forward. You have accepted it and now stay in motion. You're a wonderful human being! Stay strong. 💖


You make a mistake, you learn, you do better. It's okay dodie


My god, it makes me so sad that you are this sorry. You have made me feel so much less alone. The "graphic" content may have been difficult for some people & for your friends but in a world where social media is full of "perfect" images, you gave us the truth.
Like you said in your other video mental health / sickness is so much more difficult to prove than having a cold etc, and in a post of a video you mentioned that you can be in the thick of it, of a dark moment and still wonder at yourself, wonder if you're lying and faking it all, because the jungle of your own darkness has got you so turned around you don't know what is true and you don't know if you can trust your own thoughts anymore. So in this world, where mental sickness is literally your own personal pit & the solace of our distracting phones brings us images of "perfect bodies" and lives, lives to which we do not know the pain or the struggles and only see the sunshine, not the rain, you showed us the rain. You solidified and confirmed my experience. That I am not crazy, not lying to myself, that my thoughts are bad and have a hold on me and immobilise me... You demonstrated that. You demonstrated what deamons do, they keep you in your flat alone, they stop you from showering, so on, so forth. Dodie I am saddened to see you apologise for that because your videos were raw and real (not too raw, not too far for me) you showed what other people were afraid to and I am so grateful. To know that I am not alone. To be shown someone who is a rising star has days just like me, where walking, moving, where going out the door is just a mountain you don't have the motivation to climb. Thank you for a window into your darkness as well as your light. Your videos were not heavy on me, they made me lighter, they reflected some of me, they stole my breath because I thought I was totally alone in my madness but you showed me and told me enough , enough to prove I was not the only one.

Before you I was alone. After your videos, I am not. Thank you


Doodie you are so strong and the fact that you can admit you were wrong shows great character  and very inspired.


Please don't feel guilty for sharing. You are doing so much good in social media for people with mental health issues. Please don't dwell on oversharing and forget all the people you've helped already and all the people who love you. You're one of my favorite people. Please rise above this rather than letting it drag you down. I love you!!!


Sweetheart, you don't have to apologize you even shouldn't have to. I watch your videos because it helps me to see someone being so honest about something a lot of us are scared to talk about but are living. Mental health can be very taboo. People watch your videos to criticize you afterwards, knowing that your mental state can be delicate? Shame on them. They should be the ones to blame. You are who you are with your amazing personality and voice. You have the courage to talk about difficult subjects and I can tell you that it's helping a lot of us. You are beautiful and I love who you are. Your are rightful to feel what you feel when you feel it and to express it when you want to and if you want to. Please don't be sorry. The ones that judge don't deserve that. <3


the fact that you accept criticism instead of defending yourself and pointing out your wrongs shows so much about your amazing character ilysm dodie <3


I think it's good that you are sharing your journey. Another people going through the same thing sometimes feel like they are alone in the world and seeing your posts can help people know they aren't alone. I agree that there should be a line between your journals and your posts. You are an amazing and beautiful human and I look up to you. You are strong and I'm glad you share these little things


Honestly I don't mind you being so open and talking about very deep things. Over the 7 years of my experience going to therapists, undergoing self esteem classes and being sent to hospital,  I do get the negative vibe when reading some of your posts, but on the other hand I've been doing what you did for some time. I go over the paperwork I've done with therapists etc and it keeps my mind sane. I don't mind you going into deep posts. But a large majority of your audience are teens, it's right that you did admit you were wrong to share the deep posts especially cause some fans are so young.


I'm happy that you've reached a point of reflection and understanding. I hadn't been disappointed in your actions or anything. Yes you were making me avoid your snapchats. But ultimately I was just more concerned for you like person-to-person not bc you're a YouTuber. I could tell it was becoming an addiction for you to post all this stuff. It was becoming your outlet and coping mechanism for you. It wasn't the big issue with me that ppl will watch and experience whatever. It was that I worried for you becoming dependent on that release and the feedback from others instead of other healthier ways to cope. Hope that therapist works out xx