The types of videos that you are referring to are the types that I have never seen on youtube. I had never seen anyone go so in depth about depersonalization, and for me personally it felt very validating and important as someone who experiences similar symptoms but doesn't hear them getting talked about-  online or offline. It is worth mentioning that at this point I had a long journey with mental health behind me already and was no longer a teenager. I think the videos you made were important but I understand your decision and your thoughts since I had to go through a very similar process with my friends. I hope you will not feel guilty and that you will be able to navigate these boundaries with ease in the future. Never stop talking about what is important to you! <3


very proud that you acknowledged a problem and so maturely handled it. i'm looking forward to veda! love you dodes!!❤


love you dodie.
you are a lovely soul. keep moving on to find peace and joy. never give up.
your work is valuable and important.


This is very wise, brave, and admirable of you, Dodie. Yeah, It's so important to learn the balance between vulnerability and guarding your heart, and when you find that I believe the way you express your experiences will honor yourself and your audience :) Godspeed


I have watched you since 2014 and think you're wonderful, but it's made me so sad to see how you've been dealing with your mental health lately and I'm so happy you seem to have had a wake up call. Obviously I don't know you at all - none of us do - so it's not really our position to say, but I'm so pleased you've taken this all on board :) Thank you Dodie for realising it's unhealthy and we are all rooting for you ❤


Dodie, you're an amazing person. Please don't feel bad because everyone has our own problems and people have different ways to deal with it. We understand that you aren't in a good mental state and we are all supportive of you no matter what you're going through. We love you so so much and you inspire all of us because you are able to realize if you make a mistake and apologize without coming up with some stupid excuse as to why you did something. We love you, please stay strong <3


Dodie, your videos are very therapeutic for me. When you talk about mental health and vent on your low days it truly does put me at ease. It's somehow like I have someone explaining it for me and I don't have to. Thank you for that. I hope you continue with at least that. I love you <3


dodie we love you so so much. it's okay to make mistakes, everyone does it and it helps you grow. your vulnerability has, in some ways made me feel less alone, but i do agree that it has been far overdone and i am happy to see the future where i can enjoy your posts without feeling the emotions you're expressing. i love you lots and hope that you aren't blaming yourself.


Don't be embarrassed!! You're human. Your art is human, your vlogs are human. I'm new to you, but I love your level of accessibility as an artist and as a person. Censor yourself for YOU not for anyone else; pour it into your art. X


Ahh sweetness I'm so proud of you for making this decision and in my mind I will never link horrible mental illnesses with you because whenever I have a panic attack I listen to your songs and they remind me of all the wonder and beauty in this world that isn't always beautiful xxxx


i am someone who has suffered from depersonalisation for the past 6 years however i didn't know there was an actual medical term for it until your posts brought it to my attention, and for that i can only thank you that you helped me realise that it was a genuine problem which should be talked about to a professional. as graphic as your posts could be they did give me a form of comfort in knowing i wasn't the only person who felt that way (i had doctors tell me they weren't familiar with dissociative disorders and couldn't help me) so by speaking up about mental health, you made my problems seem valid at a point which i would've usually given up. thank you ❤ don't be too hard on yourself dodie, we're all human x

rosie ellen i've had the symptoms for depersonalisation for around 6 months now and now i know that i'm not crazy anymore. i don't know if i have it but i definitely feel so disconnected and not here, and it makes me so delightful that i'm not facing this delirious world alone


I'm so proud of Dodie for this and i really wanted to give a a hug in thisssssss


I don't know why but when she started listing all the things for us 'to do' after we've watched the video, I cried. Not because she said anything wrong, this video was so genuine and sweet. I don't even really know what's going on in my head at the moment, and all I could think whilst listening was 'I remember when I used to go outside' or 'when I used to make tea'. Stupid little things that used to make me happy.


Dodie, thank you. I personally appreciate it so much. Thank you for apologizing, it's hard for everyone to apologize, even people who aren't put in a pedestal by so many. I think that holding back is very admirable. There is nothing wrong with being emotional, everyone is by some degree. Glorifying mental health isn't healthy for anyone, and I think that a bit of madness is not key, you do not need to be mentally ill to create art, nor is you art better or deeper if you are mentally ill. Oversharing might sound fine when not phrased in that way to your mind, and I think you know this, that it's a trap and that once you start you can't stop. You feel like you are giving your audience the "real you" and I understand. The "real you" is more that your lowest low. The real you is all of you lows, but also all of your highs and when you are stable, and well. I don't want this to feel like an attack or like me just pointing out what you did was wrong. I think that not sharing everything is okay and I don't think that it is being closed off. It's not hiding things away from your audience. A lot of your audience can feel powerless it those situations, and something's are more productive if you wait a while to sort them out yourself, and then share them. That's not hiding, that's healthy.  For everyone. I think that you already know this. All in all I just wanted to say thank you for taking a step back and reviewing and changing some things about how you talk about your journey. It means a lot. Thank you.


This 👏🏻 shows 👏🏻 growth 👏🏻 well done dodie bean, proud of u gal x


This is a really mature, impressive approach to a really painful, personal topic. I think if I had thousands of people telling me what I was doing wasn't good, I'd spiral and say "*<b>*</b> this, I'm out". I'm proud of you, you're on a really grueling journey which a lot of us are going through too, and we'll get there. Keep positive and creating awesome stuff.

This is a really mature, impressive approach to a really painful, personal topic. I think if I had thousands of people telling me what I was doing wasn't good, I'd spiral and say "**** this, I'm out". I'm proud of you, you're on a really grueling journey which a lot of us are going through too, and we'll get there. Keep positive and creating awesome stuff.


All I really want to say is that it's okay and I understand. Speaking from my own experiences I can tell social media definitelyis a way to scream out everything you feel. In some way, it's therapy. My twitter account from ages 14 to 18 is full of ranting about mental health problems and I've posted similar things as Dodie and it really has helped me move on - except I have now changed twitter for a therapist. Getting yourself into therapy is harder than it seems. It requires a specific state of mind and there's a long road to follow before you actually reach that state of mind. It's really not as simple as some people argue when they say 'just get yourself a therapist'. The road is hard, and only the person on that road can decide what it good for them and what they need to do and say before they reach the actual therapy part of the road. I don't think you've made a mistake Dodie, I really don't. You did what you feel like you needed to do and that's exactly right. The only difference between me and you is that you have an audience and I don't, and people with an audience are expected to maintain certain responsibilities towards said audience. But your road towards healing is your road, not your audience's. And honestly, how many of us are doing the exact same thing as you but without the pressure of an audience watching? I think opening the discussion about oversharing may have helped you get along the path you need to take to get your mind set on therapy. I think you've reached a long way down the road, and i wish you all the best <3


Proud of you my friend, such good thoughts and such a heartfelt apology. I really admire you for it


That was a really amazong video Dodie - thank you. You did well <3 ("you're a good egg") good thing this whole discussion started, even if now you're hurting, the comments struck you to change something. And change is good - change will help. Xxx


sooooooooo much respect for you dodes - this video was so nice to watch, i feel so proud of you!!!! well done you special lady <333 looking forward to your future videos - keep fighting my dear xx


self censoring is hard but when you are ill then its a choice between oversharing or not at all. I lock up. My close friends get cross with me for not sharing either external or internal problems. I think if I don't say the problems they won't exist this is as unhealthy as 'over sharing' (or at least on the wrong platform). Though I found your vlogs, instagrams helpful if worrying (for you and your health) . Social media is really a powerless blank wall that also makes a lot of noise. I really hope the therapist works out and makes me think I should try to find one.


I love you, Dodie. We will all be here for you. You messed up and that's okay. Everyone does it and that is okay. You are an amazing person and I wish you the best in everything going on in your life. Sending you lots of hugs and love and wishes from Mexico City. Always here for you. xoxo


Thank you for this @dodie, @doddlevloggle . All praise the youtube algorithm, bringing relevant videos to people. I really needed this reminder to respect peoples boundaries and to respect myself and my own boundaries. I also do a few types of oversharing and I find it difficult to balance that and raising awareness around mental illness and just calling for help, really. They all flow into each other and mix, making a massive stinky stew instead of meals for different occasions. It´s like when my bed becomes an all-purpose area for living, eating, communicating, surfing the internet, doing my homework, banking, tossing around with insomnia and so on. I get mixed up, so people get mixed messages and develope mixed feelings towards me. I´m also getting help. I´ve started compartmentalizing more often and getting more order. I´m almost fine. I´m getting there. I´m stabilizing. I hope the message in this video can help others as I feel like it has done for me. I hope readers can get something positive from my wall of text. Best of luck.


I would personally like to thank you for talking about your mental illness because you have helped me with my mental health and you have made me the person i am today. Not someone who wants to sit and cry when i'm low, someone that cares for myself and treats myself when i'm low. So thank you for being there and i love you. <3


I love you and it's so kind of you to think of everyone you're doing so amazingly mental illness sucks I hope with all my heaaaart that new therapist is a good egg I love you dodie good luckkkkkk


Dodie, it's okay, it's just okay... you are growing and learning,  the fact that you realized what is  okay and not okay to share with us, is so amazing.  We are here for you and we love you.


Dodie you are amazing young woman. It takes guts to do what you do every day. Despite what you have to go through every day, you still have the strength to make your videos and share with us your life. You're so beautiful, keep doing what you're doing. I LOVE your accent. I could listen to you talk all day even if it's just about coffee or something simple lol. Have a great day.


I was going through a lot of mental trouble during the time I saw some of you're Instagram posts. It scared me how similar you're thoughts were to mine but I can't tell u how relieving it is to final be better and literally at the same time you seem to be getting better. I took a break from your videos. I couldn't watch them but I am so much better now! You're inspiring because u overcame it and don't be ashamed that u wear your 💓!


I don't think i've ever looked up to someone and admired someone as much as you. you're so fucking strong. even if you don't see it you are! you're so brave to be sharing anything about this in the first place. i personally haven't been negatively effected by your over sharing but i do see how others could. you're so incredibly amazing dodie. please take a break and do whatever you need to feel better. you're so strong <3


You reached out, apologised, and learned, and that's what you do when something like that happens. Thank you


dodie darling i love you and will always support you, personally you have helped me so much and those people didn't have to be involved in all of that, if it helps you, good. though i wholeheartedly agree with your video here, i hope it doesn't end with you back peddling and getting worse... love you loads and wish you the best in this endeavor ❤


I'm so proud of you for that. For putting up the first video in the first place and for reading the comments and actual listening and reflecting. I'm glad it'll be no longer #nofilter, because it was really difficult. I'm not someone who's online often, but it would affect me when I was and it made me feel so sorry and we just want you to be better, Dodie. We really do. But it wasn't healthy how you dealt with it and I'm glad that you see that. Also that you admitted it to yourself. I'm so proud and I really hope it gets better.
I still hope to get the updates and videos about this stuff, because I've always loved them. But please, not these raw and unfiltered thoughts and feelings. You're very well-spoken, Dodie and I really like when you talk about everything after reflecting. How you talk about it how it felt and what helped you and just - thank you.
I haven't read the other comments yet, but I'm proud of you (which is probably weird because you don't even know me and I only know so much about you) and also thank you for always wanting to improve as a person. That's a great quality. You gonna fight that depression! :)


im so proud of u dodie. no matter what <3


As someone studying counselling and training to look after people and their mental health I actually love reading your posts and learning about what's happening in your mind. Do what makes you happy love ❤


I'm honestly so glad that you talk about everything you go through, because I deal with depersonalization as well. I'm also so proud of you for being able to step away and figure out how to make the most informative and helpful content out of the painful parts of life. I will say that I had to stop watching some of your snaps when I felt bad because of some triggering stuff, but it doesn't stop the part of me that still loves you and sees you as a role model for talking to people about how you feel. You're such a wonderful person, even if you might have messed up a bit. Thank you for sharing the fact that you don't feel as good as most others present


i love you so much - talking about how you feel helps me because i feel like i'm not alone ❤❤❤


I'm very proud of you dodie. We all love you so much. You are so strong, and you inspire me more than you can imagine. I talked to you once on the phone and you told me to keep writing and to not doubt myself. Keep fighting


this was so mature of you. admitting that your actions have not been good for everyone takes a lot and i love that you are going to adjust your behaviour now. makes you very likable <3


Dodie, this video was so mature and honestly I feel like a proud mum. It takes guts to stand up and apologise, and the fact that you just swallowed your pride and didn't try to justify your mistakes is kind of admirable. Lots of love ❤


You're so mature and an amazing person xx


very smart to treat your audience like your little sister. you are learning and growing. I love hearing about your road to recovery and I hope you will continue to share it in an appropriate manner. ❤


you're very brave for admitting to something that is very hard to face... you are still an incredible artist and kind human. keep up the great work!


It's ok to hurt, because it makes the little things in a few weeks time; feel so much more memorable, so much more meaningful.- chin up Dodie sadness isn't forever, there is always a silver lining☺


Thank you so much for everything Dodie, you have helped my self esteem and confidence so much, I can't thank you enough ❤


Dodie! I love you and your videos and posts! I think it is so mature of you to be thinking of your younger audience in this way! I'm also very happy that you are trying a new therapist, all of us (your audience) wants you to get better!


I love you :) I've recently had this same realization on a smaller scale. When I'm feeling unhappy I get my phone and I ramble to my boyfriend and I end up blowing up on him for no reason, making him feel like he's a terrible person and that he's somehow doing things wrong because I'm unhappy and he didn't fix it for me. The most recent time this has happened, I realized I need to keep my rants to myself. I can write in a journal or talk out loud to myself in the car, but I shouldn't "vocalize" these rambling anxious and depressed thoughts, especially over text which doesn't give him the chance to respond to me.

I'm so happy for you that you've figured this out, and that you have this wonderful outlet, when used correctly. Best wishes <3


Honestly Dodie I love that you share your problems and your thoughts. It can help people realise they're not the only ones with the problems that you have. It can also help people understand what mental illnesses  is really like and not just an airbrushed lovely nicer version of what it actually is. I love reading your posts I fund them so realistic and truthful and not this fake fluff people make up. Some people may disagree with me but even though I don't mind your posts I support your decisions on the future of your social media posts etc. Stay strong Dodie 💜💜


Hey Dodie.
I just wanted to say that learning is a part of life, as I'm sure you know. I wanted to say that I am glad and proud of you for learning from this. From taking the best from the situation. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to be dealing with mental illness while you also have such a large audience.
Yeah, I'm just really proud of you. And I forgive you, Dodie. I don't know if that means anything, it probably doesn't. But I just wanted you to know that.


I really needed this right now. I had a huge emotional breakdown and almost took my own life if my friend hadn't found me and forced me to go to the hospital. Im trying to get better and go day by day and dodie I look up to you becuase you're also struggling and showing that you're not perfect and you make mistakes but you re trying and sharing and thank you for that.

suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Always keep that in mind. You could miss out years of joy, love and beauty in a fickle moment so persevere and live life to the fullest. It's the only one you've got.


Another one of the reasons I love Dodie.
She always apologises for her mistakes, and learns from them.
You show how vulnerable and human you are. It’s great to see such a genuine apology.
Love you ✨


Dodie it will be alright, it'll be okay.. just remember we're here for you. we're glad you apologized, but we don't want you to be so upset of course. just remember that we are here for you, if you need breaks we understand, if you need help ask your friends, it'll be okay


You're honestly such an inspiration Dodie. If this has become something hurtful to you, than I'm glad you are trying to change. But still, I'm glad you are willing to share at all. Love you.


I wish I could say something super helpful that would get your attention, dodie, but honestly as a girl who suffers from mental illness myself all I can say is how proud I am of you and how well your handling all this despite what you may think. You are so inspirational in the way that you are not just giving advice but growing with us and taking advice from us and friends. It makes it seem like I'm talking privately to a friend, and I like the intimacy of that. Again, I'm so proud of you! ❤


From my perspective you don't need to be sorry!! I love you so much! you've made me feel so much better!!... Now maybe some people did need this apology but most people I know wouldn't have been able to do what you have done!! And I am very proud of you.. now your sad posts honestly give me so much comfort because they make me feel like I'm not alone, but maybe to some other people it makes them feel worse.. but I am very proud of you dodie and I love you so much!!!!!!!


As a reference: I am a 61 year old man and have been dealing with depression for the last 50 years. I don't follow you Dodie on any other source so I have no knowledge of the posts you mentioned. I do see that you are learning to set limits on the facets of your life that you show to the public and I learned to start doing that at about your age so I don't think anything is too far off of what could be considered normal. You are finding your way in the world and often showing others younger than yourself the path you see before you. That is how we all grow as individuals. Those that do not learn from others are bound to make their own copies of the same mistakes. Young folks that tune in too tightly to others have created other problems for themselves and that has always been the case. Watching you grow will help others to find their own path in their world. There will always be followers of you as well as others that lead you and most will find themselves on their own paths right along side of you. From my perspective you are doing fine and I look forward to watching you become someone I will be proud to know of 30 years from now. <3


i love you so much dodie,, i look up to you so much. you're so wonderful, humors, and beautiful. i hope everything in your life will clear up soon and start feeling perfect. you're such an amazing human being and you deserve to be happy as can be💛🌻


this was a really brave, strong and self-aware thing to do. be kind to yourself. you´re doing well


Aww dodie, we love you to death and we understand you wanting to share these kinds of things online. We know that it helps you sometimes, and more importantly we know that sometimes you need to step back. Love ya dodes 💛💛💛


you are so strong. thank you for doing your best <br>(edit) Thank you for realizing you are influencing so many people, and thank you for being responsible about it. you are growing from the experience and that is wonderful.

you are so strong. thank you for doing your best
(edit) Thank you for realizing you are influencing so many people, and thank you for being responsible about it. you are growing from the experience and that is wonderful.


I think you've handled the topic of oversharing so well. These two videos were so helpful to me in understanding your posts and why I've grown to be put off by them. Thank you for acknowledging all of this. I really really respect you as an artist and as a human. ❤


bless you, you are so strong i love you dodie <3


Seeing you well up a bit hurt me so much that I started crying??? <br>we obviously all forgive you because you've acknowledged your mistakes and have apologized for them. don't be embarrassed, it's life. We make mistakes. I hope you feel a little better soon. Good luck dodie xxx

Seeing you well up a bit hurt me so much that I started crying???
we obviously all forgive you because you've acknowledged your mistakes and have apologized for them. don't be embarrassed, it's life. We make mistakes. I hope you feel a little better soon. Good luck dodie xxx


found out about your vids yesterday cuz my depression came back.<br>Helped loads btw!! Just moved out and was feeling overwhelmed. Ur vids are so helpful, expressing in words what I can't express I strive to be that articulate some day haha

found out about your vids yesterday cuz my depression came back.
Helped loads btw!! Just moved out and was feeling overwhelmed. Ur vids are so helpful, expressing in words what I can't express I strive to be that articulate some day haha


Mana, watching these videos has helped me to understand and being able to go throughout depression myself... I also leaving in London and really, I understand that some people think I also overshare about depression 😥🤐


You are the most amazing, adorable, great, loving and brilliant person EVER!!


Dodie, we will always be here for you, you share what you want, to see you cry makes my heart break because I love you so much to see you cry. Just to let you know, we will always be here for you no matter what happens. I hope you are very happy very soon ❤😘


Feel hugged about a thousand times. This is such a good and mature video! I wish I could do anything to help you. It hurts, seeing you feel so bad and I just want to comfort you. :( I hope so much that taking a step back will help you. <3


Personally, your openness really helped me, but I can see how it could be triggering to watch some things you post. Both your ability to be open online and your apology take strength to do, so good for you!


You know funny enough, I like to be depressed by your videos. It keeps my head levelled. As somebody who is overly positive I sometimes just lay down in bed, watch your videos and songs and try to cry (which I weirdly enough haven't really achieved so far but I'm trying). I'm so optimistic that sometimes I really am not in touch with myself and you help me look at the things I'm not happy about or insecure about which I normally just throw away as whatever I don't care sappy bullshit. I'm not saying you should continue overdharing because it is indeed quite unhealthy for impressionable people but I just wanted to tell you it wasn't all bad. Just a positive message from a positive guy to get your head up :)


I'm honestly so proud of you for this. I used to have you on snapchat, but after looking at these dark moments you would have, I just had to take a step back and breathe because it was very overwhelming to me. I'm so proud that you're addressing this issue that some of your viewers have with this "oversharing" and that you know and are willing to improve and get help from a professional! I think your idea of recording those moments privately or writing them into a journal are more healthy ways (as well as a therapist of course) instead of posting those graphic moments online, where young and impressionable (or really any of your viewers young or older) viewers may get influenced or triggered. You have been such an inspiration to me and I love how you openly address this problem and want to understand and find ways to help not only yourself, but also your viewers. You are so strong and beautiful, I wish you the absolute best, Dodie. xo


we love you no matter what you do dodie :) ❤


this is so brave of you, and I understand what others were saying. Meanwhile, I often liked reading your posts because it made me realize that I'm not the only one feeling what I'm feeling, and the way you write is very nice. I hope you aren't too hard on yourself about this! You are fab


Im so proud that you can come to a decision, and that decision is healthy for everyone. It's so important to talk about this to your audience because we care about you and we want to know what's happening and how we can help. I think you are extremely strong for being able to talk about this. I love you ❤❤❤


love you dodie, it'll all be okay and lots of people go through mistakes like this.


Mature, thoughtful and strong, a credit to yourself and viewers x


I'm really happy you recognize this mistake (and apologize) (although you didn't have to) (we truly understand).  Try not to blame yourself  or overthink the situation.

I love you a lot, and i wish you the best <3


Dodieeee OH MY GOD YOU'RE SO CUTE. I cried with you because when I saw you started crying it just HURT MY HEART (in a good way I love you). I hope you feel better and that you follow your friends' advice. So yeah! Much love x


“less pressure to look around me” really illustrates why I shut the world out


Oh dodie you're a wonderful person and I really like you and your videos and it was great that you felt like you could trust us enough to share all that information and I know you will feel better soon and life will finally be ok.💛


Thank you very much for making this video. I think it's a very healthy video and I'm really glad that you're doing things that will not only help and protect you but also help and protect us! I personally appreciate the apology, yet also didn't want you to make it. Yes, you over-shared but that was something that you needed to do and it helped you get to a better place in the end. So please take a second and be proud of the fact that you know better now, but also be proud of the fact that you did something you needed and got to a better place in the end. I'm  sending all sorts of love your way and I can't wait to see what's next on your journey!😙


I don't normally comment on videos, but I feel compelled to do so today.

It's feels so strange to feel so. much. pride for someone who you've never met! Watching your videos and watching you grow as a person has been an absolute privilege, and I think I can speak on behalf of most of us when I say thank you for including us on your journey. It's so inspiring to see someone act human and have emotions and to open up about their success and mistakes. So many people don't think about the consequences of their actions, but the fact that you have taken a step back, analysed it all, and come to a comfortable conclusion is just a testament to your strength and character.

Don't beat yourself up too much as this has been a learning curve for everyone (viewers included). You deserve peace and happiness, and I sincerely hope you truly find it.


going to keep this short as you're probably going to see the same sentiments a thousand times: this is exactly the kind of process you need to go through to heal. you're so lucky to have friends who are being honest and gentle about your oversharing and helping you to see that there are more healthy ways to address your mental health. i know it's hard to see a million critical comments about the worst part of yourself but 1. you put those parts on full display and that is just the consequence of that and 2. most of those criticisms are coming from people who truly care about you and your well being and probably have a hundred compliments for every critical thing. stay strong and disconnect from it if it becomes too much. this community loves you and wants you to heal and succeed.


Man dodie, you've opened my mind. I really, really REALLY loved your mental health posts recently. You saying in this video how your posts could potentially be harmful, has really shown me something. I know that for a pretty long time recently, I've been extremely self destructive. Ive been searching for things online that could trigger me and make me feel even worse, and send me down. It makes me feel better, in a way. Anyway, your posts happened to come along and give me a similar release that the other triggering stuff is fine online, but I didn't realize that it was also doing that, I don't think, and you pointing out that it was hurtful to me, is helpful. You saying that posting those potentially unhealthy things could be bad for people, and that you need to stop, is clearing my mind a bit, maybe. I think my mind is taking what you're saying, and telling me "hey brynn, YOU need to stop hurting yourself like this. You need to stop looking for triggers." And now I'm not saying I'm going to stop, but you've definitely helped by saying that it needs to have a bit of boundaries, so thank you for pointing that out to me (I bet 90% of this made no sense lol woops)


I'm pleased that you've worked this out into something that will hopefully work for you, without the bad things that were coming along with sharing before. I do think you're under a bit more pressure than most people to monitor your online sharing because you have to maintain a certain level of professionalism - it's like the internet is your workplace as well as your social place. And that has to be tough, so well done on handling it!


I know some people think it's too dark, but honestly, I've needed your openness. I really have become aware that I'm not alone in my feelings. I just recently was diagnosed with depression, I started anti-depressants this summer, and your posts and things have made me feel so.. open. I think you need to do what's best for you, but do know that your posts have helped someone. They at least helped me.


We love you Dodie for you. We support you for everything. Don't feel embarrassed just because of your mental health.


Honestly, it makes me feel less alone when you share your struggles. I kind of hate that you have to apologize for sharing how you feel.


you are so strong and wonderful. thank you for owning up to your mistakes like an adult and approaching this so calmly and respectfully. :):)


literally ur my favorite human and you make me feel not alone. just know that we all love u.❤


ohmygod your voice is so calmingggg<br>I'm literally feeling much better just because of your voice. 💛✨👌💕

ohmygod your voice is so calmingggg
I'm literally feeling much better just because of your voice. 💛✨👌💕


Making a mistake and being able to admit to it and apologize is one of the hardest things to learn how to do, and you are amazing for being able to do it. keep on keeping on 💚


this is so sweet <33
it's hard. it's very, very very very hard to apologize,, admit that u
are wrong. Dodie did just that, and i'm very proud of her <3


Proud of you, Dodie. We're all still in pretty uncharted waters when it comes to social media. Figuring out where to draw the line so that both you and your audience is staying or aiming toward healthy was always going to take some trial and error. Mistakes mean growing, and apologizing like this shows a real level of maturity & respect for your audience <3


Dodie, all your posts helped me with all my mental problems. You're being so damn hard on yourself, we all love you and i really care about your mental health. You have never triggered me and i get triggered really easy so please calm down and just do what feels good and i love you too <3


Dear Dodie:<br>I've been watching your videos for a year and a half by now, i know that it's not much but i've found something nice in here. I'm a very very dramatic and emotional person, i've a very severe anxiety and i'm a person who dosen't stick to things a lot. But i've sticked to you. Maybe you won't read this but i hope that you know that i'm thankful for your person and for the beautiful community you have created. You are responsable of me finding a safe place on the internet, you are responsable of me not feeling alone. Yes sometimes, your snapchats can be triggering, but at the same time that i'm learning to be a lisenter and sit down and retain my self for a sad video when i'm sad, i guess you're learning to be on the other side, i guess you never stop learning about anything. Don't be too hard on yourself, i forgive you, i honestly forgive you and i can feel your good intentions. Thank you Dodie for helping me to understand my own feelings, thank you to help me to not feel alone, thank you for your music, and most important thank you for having flaws, and showing them, and for learning from them and showing me (a very perfectionist person) that having flaws it's okay, and it's human, thank you for being so human Dodie.

Dear Dodie:
I've been watching your videos for a year and a half by now, i know that it's not much but i've found something nice in here. I'm a very very dramatic and emotional person, i've a very severe anxiety and i'm a person who dosen't stick to things a lot. But i've sticked to you. Maybe you won't read this but i hope that you know that i'm thankful for your person and for the beautiful community you have created. You are responsable of me finding a safe place on the internet, you are responsable of me not feeling alone. Yes sometimes, your snapchats can be triggering, but at the same time that i'm learning to be a lisenter and sit down and retain my self for a sad video when i'm sad, i guess you're learning to be on the other side, i guess you never stop learning about anything. Don't be too hard on yourself, i forgive you, i honestly forgive you and i can feel your good intentions. Thank you Dodie for helping me to understand my own feelings, thank you to help me to not feel alone, thank you for your music, and most important thank you for having flaws, and showing them, and for learning from them and showing me (a very perfectionist person) that having flaws it's okay, and it's human, thank you for being so human Dodie.


You are a wonderful person Dodie! You help me, through your music of cause but you still help me.


I feel kind of bad now myself, I've been posting every once in a while on my instagram about my mental health. when i'm really upset- whether that be sad or angry- i post on my instagram about everything im feeling. i (just like you said) am numb to what other people might feel reading everything I'm going through. I feel like even though you've never even liked any of my posts or anything, you've helped me learn a valuable lesson and it's almost like we're learning together how to deal with these kinds of things. even though i'm putting these things out to a smaller audience, i'm still putting it out there without thinking who i might be affecting. love ya, dodes, we all do.


It seems like every time I'm having trouble with something, you're there showing me how I'm not alone. I've also had trouble with over sharing but on a more private level and I'm pretty sure I almost fucked up my relationship. So thank you for this clarity.


Dodie you are making me cry right now! i am weeping(the same way i did when i watched la la land). i love that you are standing up  and are strong enough to cut ties with the connection of your mental health and social media. this video has been an amazing new version of you opening up to us in your own way. from the bottom of my heart i love you, and though you have never met me i hope that in any way, shape, or form that you love me as well.(WOW that was cheesy... yet true). please continue being yourself and i think i speak for all us true supporters that as long as you are making content we will be watching it. thank you for all that you have done to help me and many others through our very own troubling times. never give up! <br>Mallory Blair

Dodie you are making me cry right now! i am weeping(the same way i did when i watched la la land). i love that you are standing up  and are strong enough to cut ties with the connection of your mental health and social media. this video has been an amazing new version of you opening up to us in your own way. from the bottom of my heart i love you, and though you have never met me i hope that in any way, shape, or form that you love me as well.(WOW that was cheesy... yet true). please continue being yourself and i think i speak for all us true supporters that as long as you are making content we will be watching it. thank you for all that you have done to help me and many others through our very own troubling times. never give up!
Mallory Blair


dodie is strong
dodie can do this
dodie can get through this
we love you dodie
we love you


you're incredible Dodie. we all only want to see you do well


There's a bunch I want to say to you but I'm just going to keep it short and say IM SO DAMN PROUD OF YOU!


I love you Dodie! Forever my favorite Youtuber💕


Regardless of anything you could have done wrong, you are still my biggest inspiration Dodie


I love you so much dodie. Thank you for spreading so much awareness


Thankyou for being so mature and humble and honest and willing to realize that some things need to change, you addressed this perfectly
We all make mistakes and you have apologised and handled this so well
Love you dodes


We all adore you Dodie. And I love how mature this was and how geniunely sorry you are, I know me personally I always loved how open you were about things cause it was bringing to light things that most people ignore and dont talk about. Mental illness is always a touchy subject and rightfully so. But for me who has pretty bad anxiety your posts als<br>Ways made me feel not so alone and be like hey is Dodie can do this and can get thru all this, so can i.

We all adore you Dodie. And I love how mature this was and how geniunely sorry you are, I know me personally I always loved how open you were about things cause it was bringing to light things that most people ignore and dont talk about. Mental illness is always a touchy subject and rightfully so. But for me who has pretty bad anxiety your posts als
Ways made me feel not so alone and be like hey is Dodie can do this and can get thru all this, so can i.


Awww Dodie, I completely understand everything you're saying, and I think what you just said was actually something important for me to hear because I've started doing the same thing. I don't want people to think of my anxiety when they think of me. I think I glorify it and that's not good, and I have young kids who follow my art accounts on Instagram as well. 💕Love you and we'll all make it through this.


Dodie, you beautiful, gorgeous, emotional, powerful creature. First is first, you are truly an inspiration and love in my life - in all our lives.

Your comment about journalling vs. video posting, was very very important. You were not glorifying mental illness. You were doing what you could in your state, which was all you could. I am so proud of what you have done and achieved in your lifetime - mental, emotional, physical, and in your musical success. What I recommend is making your own video journal - so you still have that feeling of talking to the camera, but not to the audience, and if wanted, share with your 1+1 counselor. I too deal with Depression (GAD too), and I have found that meditation, group and 1+1 therapy have really been good for me. I wish you great luck on your lovely journey on this beautiful earth, and I love you very much. I believe in you, Dodie. You are strong. And beautiful. And unique. Don't give up. We're all here for you. ❤


Dodie please keep sharing because it makes me feel not alone. It also gives me another  perspective of mental health and how you are feeling. X


HEY DODES. It's totally okay to share your feelings online, that's practically what online is for!! but it's also really admirable and responsible of you to realize that you have a lot of young impressionable viewers who might follow in your footsteps of negative thoughts. PROUD OF U. i'm 25 now and i had to learn a lot about what was too much to post online when i was your age too, and I feel a happy medium now! you're awesome. you're doing really good things.


I love you so much Dodie. We all do. We will keep supporting you and loving you despite your flaws and mistakes. Keep fighting. ❤❤❤


I have no idea why I've typed this
Dodie, you have shown me so many sides of mental health that help me understand myself and my friends. I have felt so low and so down, at such a young age, that I felt isolated from everyone. I felt like I was trapped, but your posts and story things on Instagram have made me realise life can change and the highs and lows will change.
When you spoke about getting a therapist, I went straight to my mum and asked to see a counsellor about my mental health because it has gotten to a point where I can't handle it. The counselling does work but there is so much I have bottled up that I forget it but it's still causing me to feel depressed. When you talk about your mental health and ways round it, I feel like it helps and eases the pain in a way.
I have really supportive friends who are there for me, but I feel they still don't fully understand.
Thank you for talking about it when you did.
Just thank you
sorry
No ones going to read this


Dodie, you're probably NOT going to read this comment but i'll try anyway because i think this might help you and your audience, which means us.
So.. Remember that video called "I am depressed today''?
Yeah, that video still helps me when i'm feeling down, or spaced out sometimes, and i think that's because you can describe my feelings and thoughts like no one ever did, and that's the best part of all this, you can understand us (well, a least some of us), and by doing that, you make us feel less lonely, because SOMEONE understands this feeling.

I really don't know why do i have to make things so complicated, i just needed to say that videos like that make me feel better because i know that someone can understand what i feel.

if you read this and agree pls like so she can read and understand the importance of those videos.

well, that's all, i hope we all get better soon.

Dodie, you're probably NOT going to read this comment but i'll try anyway because i think this might help you and your audience, which means *us*.
So.. Remember that video called "I am depressed today''?
Yeah, that video still helps me when i'm feeling down, or spaced out sometimes, and i think that's because you can describe my feelings and thoughts like no one ever did, and that's the best part of all this, you can understand us (well, a least some of us), and by doing that, you make us feel less lonely, because SOMEONE understands this feeling.

I really don't know why do i have to make things so complicated, i just needed to say that videos like that make me feel better because i know that someone can understand what i feel.

if you read this and agree pls like so she can read and understand the importance of those videos.

well, that's all, i hope we all get better soon.


Dodie, I don't expect you to read this (You've grown so popular recently I've been drowned out - which is lovely, because you've so many sweet supporters I get to chat to on twitter and instagram (hi @caoimheforyou twitter mutuals! ILY)) But whether or not this is seen by anyone I wanted to write a little response, for me, maybe, more than anyone.

I saw one of those silly posts today about stereotypes of different musician stans - including dodie stans. One of the things that made me laugh was that Dodie stans all have dodie, as their profile picture. I felt me cheeks flush because I'm a living example of that - three twitter accounts, one a dodie fan account, one a silly account my personals don't know about that I can joke on, and one a personal account. The one thing that unites them all is that each account has dodie as the profile picture. One is black and white, poised perfectly. The second is obvious, dodie with diamonds twinkling on her cheeks and a knowing smile. The third is my favourite. It's a screenshot from one of her old videos, when Evan was doing her makeup, a tiny moment where I wholloped the pause button at warp speed to screenshot it, a genuine grin, unforced, unpractised, makeup-less and so so pretty. (A dumb screenshot of youth?) I'm sure that sounds horribly creepy, me screenshotting a video and using it as my profile picture - Imagine if I did it to a friend! But in that moment Dodie became three dimensional. (You can forget so easily that people online are real people, fact and fiction are so blurred when viewed through a screen)

Does this have a point? Not really, I think all the fairy lights in my dorm inspired me to write something haha, but I don't know, I don't think dodie should feel like she has done anything wrong. The internet is still so new, there are few rules of etiquette, no one knows what they're doing and social interactions online are so different to those offline, it's impossible to know how what you say can affect others - the most positive thing could be negative, the most negative thing could be exactly what someone needs to be positive. She shouldn't feel embarrassed because even IF sharing any deeper thoughts was a bad decision (which I don't think it was - it was just a decision, neither positive or negative - karma and all that, every action has an equal and opposite reaction if you prefer science) dodie has taught each and every person who watched the video a little life lesson (I should have made this a "how many dodie song references can I fit into this mini essay" challenge) And darling, you may think you're bad but there are a million people out there who are ten times worse than dodie when it comes to oversharing online (I'm so guilty of it when I'm feeling low and angsty haha) So don't fret pet x

I'm going to make myself some tea now (even though it's 12:30pm), night x)

i know this is weird but i really loved that paragraph! it's exactly how i feel. we all got our different sides and they might me triggering to other people, but sharing them is like the weight of the world falling off your shoulder, which is good !


I do think you're doing a good thing by starting to share less but I'd like you to know that your posts have made me realise that it's ok (well not ok but that it doesn't make you a bad person) to have lots of bad days and I'm thankful for that. I love you Dodie and I hope your mental health improves


Dodie you're so beautiful and kind, I love you, and so many other people love you... People who do hate you, have honestly no good reason to. Sure, you have flaws, but nobody is perfect. You don't want attention, you aren't awful at singing, you're not ugly... You want someone to understand, you are an amazing singer with your own voice and style, and you are adorable and gorgeous and you are so lovely. Please know you are worth so much more than you think, and deserve to be happy and respected. Love you Dodie, I hope I helped a little <3


awwwwww I want to hug you so much dodie! <b>hugs</b> I deal with anxiety too, I think this is a really really important thing to talk about, thank you!

awwwwww I want to hug you so much dodie! *hugs* I deal with anxiety too, I think this is a really really important thing to talk about, thank you!


I am so glad you put this up. I would watch some of your videos that would trigger things in me and I would read about your symptoms and then get anxious because I would experience something similar. I would then in turn go through episodes of depression and depersonalization. I'm not blaming my mental issues on you. I read the titles. I watched the videos. I thought depersonalization was something everyone experienced and you helped me realize something was wrong but you also kind of made me panic with how down and out you were and realize I wasn't as bad as you were maybe I was making it all up. I doubted myself. This video made me realize everyone experiences different symptoms. Thank you for helping me.


Well done Dodie. Have some soup and a bubble-bath. You've made good decisions and we're proud of you. 😊


Dodie, I understand how talking about this stuff so explicitly could trigger some people, but it helps some of us as well. Of course we feel less lonely in what we're going through...but I hadn't even heard about depersonalization until you spoke about it and that really put into words how I was feeling. Because of you being so open about mental illness, I was able to realise my problems and seek help for them.


I've been there on my Facebook - I've been unfriended due to it, and unfollowed. I think its just pure desperation to feel better and be surrounded by support (probably way heightened for you because of your following!) Also, it feels so much easier to just throw something out, than to actually contact someone and ask for specific help - and yeah while its not ideal I totally understand it.
Also its great to make put together videos about mental illness, but I think sometimes you need shocking truths to have impact, so I'm sure you have done some good raising awareness with it (not saying everyone should go pouring their souls out so everyone knows everything all the time, just I'm sure it did help shed some much needed light - gotta find those positives!)
Don't beat yourself up though - we're all learning with this social media stuff. Move on how you want to be you, and accept the past is as it is :)


I feel 100% that your low videos have still done good Dodie!! It shows how shit you feel and how your views and the way you see the world can completely change when you have a mental illness and are going through a low, it shows the harsh reality of what a mental illness has on your brain. I hate seeing you feel so sad and I hope you don't feel like your oversharing did no good at all, you would explain and talk about how you were feeling and say it in such a way that made me, personally, not feel so alone in some of the dark thoughts I would have when going through a low. Love you so much, please don't beat yourself up 💖💖💖


As you speak about your depersonalization makes me realize that my depression includes the same sort of aspects. I did the same thing with my phone and catch myself doing that now still when I'm  in a worse place. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being a mature person and realizing the criticism of your friends is valid. Thank you for being such a true person online, both with your vaunerabilities and with your mistakes.


This is so good dodie! I watched your other video just now and read through the comments and I did agree with the vast majority. Honestly though, I've been where you are. I write online and have had annual public journals for the past three years, where I post feelings, songs and funny stuff. Although my following on those is meeeeeeeeeagre compared to yours, I have TOTALLY posted stuff when I was feeling out of whack which I have come to regret later. Agh I went through a tough time at the end of 2015 and I am going through the journal now and editing out the completely outrageous posts I made when I was feeling low; and which I still often do it without thinking. Because my keyboard is just there; it's so easy. But often, us writers can get carried away. Not necessarily exaggerate, but very intensely describe it in a place where anyone can see it. I have never been diagnosed with a serious mental disorder or illness but I have had panic attacks in the past, triggered by people mistreating others or mistreating me. And they were terrible, but I got better with time and as much as writing can be an outlet, it can often be unhealthy. My sister suggests always going on a run, or kickboxing, or even climbing a hill is fun and beneficial and healthy; and that way, instead of ending up sitting in front of a sad song or a sad caption, you feel mentally and physically better (unless your legs are chicken legs like mine and die within the first few kms of a run.) I follow you on social media and I think that the fact that you have realised you have made a mistake and stepped back from it, thought about it, learned from it, says a lot about you, dear friend. You have the humility to learn and take effective steps to ensure future success. You are a wonderful person and I always listen to you and admire you. You probably won't see this but meh. Love you buddy ❤


I'm glad you've addressed the glorifying and romanticising mental illness especially towards being creative,  since that's been one of the main triggers I've had towards your oversharing as being an artist with mental illness myself. I'm so glad that you're starting to search for a healthy balance Dodie, we're all here for you when you're in a time that you're ready to know how's best talk about it for you. Love you Dodie!


Absolutely true. I love you for being so honest, self-critical, good at listening to yourself and others and you're 'life-clever'. You always want to learn about life and we all learn with you while you do. :) Even when you mess up a bit, I always feel safe in your little corner of the internet (sounds a bit weird, I know).


You shouldn't censor yourself. As someone with depression, I appreciate your realism and your breaking of barriers.


Dodie. We are all human and we all mess up :) it's ok. now that you've acknowledge it and apologized (the hardest step), you can breathe and move forward. that's how we learn and grow. from each other and together. <3


Those posts and snapchats helped me, I know I should say it but I related to most all of the posts. If you hadn’t brought up some of the mental health issues you had i wouldn’t have realised what my problems were. Not saying you combined me I have issues but it’s like I had a name or a label for something that’s been in my brain for years, I have depersonalisation and if yo hadn’t shared what you’ve been feeling, I wouldn’t have known why I felt the way I do and I wouldn’t have sought out professional help for it. I know it’s not meant for younger audiences but it really helped me... so thank you Dodie


You are such an inspiretion, honestly. I do understand the theme of what are you and what aren't you meant to share online, that's a journey I'm taking as well... But, I believe, if you're thinking about it you will figure out the way to go!


Dodie, I just wanna say I love you so much and I'm proud of you. You may not feel like that right now, but know, we will always love you. I will always love you. You are an amazing person and I'm proud of you, for coming to understand? I myself am 17, I still have so much to learn about the world, but you see you are also learning. We all are. And I'm proud of us, you, for keep on learning. There are no mistakes, only moments to learn from.


As someone who has struggled with anxiety and has been watching a lot of your recent posts on social media, I thought this was a super mature response to recent events and I'm really happy for you; also try not to be too hard on yourself, sharing ones life over the internet is a relatively new phenomenon and I think a lot of us are trying to understand what the appropriate boundaries are in the digital age!  Bravo for finding yours :)


Dear Dodie, no matter what you want to share now on, your posts have helped me dealing with my mental health. You always seemed as a very creative and active person despite your mental health issues and sharing the dark moments showed me that one can be a beautiful, optimistic, creative person even if they feel like crap at times. Thank you so much for showing me that <3


I've always loved that you talk about your mental illness so openly. You've helped me realize I didn't have to be alone with my depression, anxiety and depersonalization when before I found you, I ignored all of my weaknesses... I completely understand how being embarrassed or regretting something you've said or done while in the pits is a thing because I've been there haha but I haven't ever thought that you were glamorizing mental illnesses. I always thought that you showed people how it is in normal everyday life when you suffer with something like you do. Maybe others saw it as glamorizing and I can see where they're coming from but that wasn't how you came off in my eyes.. I love you dodie ❤ I hope you find a healthy balance between all of this❤😘😍✌

you just put all my thoughts into words!!! thank youuuu

Victoria Pyle can I like this 70000000 times i just agree so much❤


I'm glad you've taken a step back to think about these things and you seem to have done a very good job doing it (??) if that makes any sense. It kind of made me take a moment to think about the content I'm consuming while in a bad mental state and how that intersects. Looking back, I might have been a bit more affected by triggering content than I tell myself. But like, everyone is better off when we take time to consider stuff like this. And we all make mistakes. It's fine!


Dodie, if someone really wanted to get to know you they would want to know the deepest darkest places in your mind. your should not feel bad about your issuses what you should be doing is resoving them. your fans belieive in you.  BTW theres lots of spelling mistakes and im way to lazy to fix them because its midnight in florida and im sleepy. goodnight!!!


It's funny how much I can relate to Dodie, in the songs she make and even in that "sharing problems".. problem.. probably she won't see this, but if she does.. I just wanna say.. thank you, you helped me a lot.


I love you so much and I am super proud of you for this video !!


Nobody's perfect dodie, just because you're in the eye of the public doesn't change that. I'm proud you've come to this realization not just for your audience but for yourself too. We accept your mistakes and appreciate that you're human like anyone else. Lot's of love dodie! keep being you


i love you angel, this was incredibly brave ❤


Oh Dodie,
I just want to give you a big hug.
We all love you. 💛


It might have been oversharing, but I understand you felt like you needed it at the time. I do enjoy when you put a positive spin on things though, a lot of your posts have helped me a lot. I understand how it is to go off the deep end temporarily every so often because of mental illness. I'm so proud of you for this step forward in your life!! ♥


dodie, i'm so in awe of how you were able to humbly take responsibility for some not okay actions and apologize for them in such a public way. i've never been good with apologies, even when i know i'm wrong. i hope because you were able to admit this to yourself, and to us as an audience, you can grow mentally and start to feel a bit better :)


Really, REALLY respect you for this Dodie.


It's okay to make mistakes dodie, as long as you correct them. We'all always love you.


Dodie, I'm a new fan and have been binge watching your videos to get to know you more outside of your music (WHICH I LOVE). I don't know you, but I'm just proud of you as an individual. Accountability is something lots of adults NEVER grasp, and here you are publicly pouring your soul and willing to accept when you mess up. Thank you for sharing your life with us, I'm so grateful for the music alone but I feel even more joy to watch your videos!


Personally I feel like as your audience, we are just as much to blame for your social media becoming a place where you were over sharing because we encouraged it so much. I feel like the people saying you've been glorifying mental illness are fans who've put you on a pedestal. From watching your Snapchats and reading your posts it's always been clear (to me at least) that your mental health is something you've struggled with and not an enjoyable part of your life, which is why I feel that your position as someone that people admire for so many other reasons has lead to them glorifying this aspect of you, more so than you doing it yourself. And like I said this might just be my opinion but personally I think the problem here isn't necessarily with how you've been presenting your struggles but the fact that even before you started talking about all of this you had an audience who looked up to you so when you did start talking about it people tried to use it as a way to connect with you and to an extent, in turn feel as if they were like the person they admire so much, which led to an over encouragement for you to share which ultimately lead to it becoming too much for some. I never had any issues with watching your snapchats but I think from the posters point of view, it would be better to talk to someone who you can actually open up to and create a more specific conversation in a way that you can't with such a huge audience.

I didn't mean to make it seem as though I was shifting the blame onto anyone, more so trying to say that the blame doesn't rest solely with dodie. I understand that some of dodie's audience is a bit younger than I am and everyone responds to hearing about struggling with mental illness in different ways. But just like you say we shouldn't place blame on a young impressionable audience because its no ones fault, my point is that it is no ONE person's fault. This isn't solely dodie's fault. Dodie was going through some stuff and started to talk about it and yes for many people it may have been too graphic or too much or whatever, but I think that the reason it ended up becoming so confronting for some people is because so many people encouraged her to keep talking about it and wanted to hear her talk about it, which is what lead to the oversharing.

Anna Smith sorry, you're wrong. in a way, her fans did encourage it. by giving her such positive reactions to her oversharing and making her feel like what she was doing was good, it made dodie believe that. though it wasn't intentional

Yes I do agree that with this audience due to us admiring dodie - ppl have also ended up admiring her mental illness = pedestal = oversharing. And for that - to dodie. For all of us- I'm sorry

i mean i guess?? but youve got to realize that it was toxic especially with a large part of dodies demographic being so young. i remember when i was surrounded and listened to stuff like that because i was someones friend or whatever but i feel like having a constant stream of unhealthy mental things and such things for me to listen and watch when i was younger led to having my own problems and unhealthy coping issues, and what i went through wasnt coming from someone i admired or anything. If you read up on psychology of Young teens and teens in general, you cant really blame young kids for supporting dodie and what im sure they didnt realize was an unhealthy coping mechanism, especially when so many of young fans look up to and admire her. i just think that we should be proud of dodie for acknowledging her issues and proud that she is taking steps to fix it and help herself and reach out to her friends. i dont think it correct and i dont think anyone (regardless of whether you are a fan of dodies or not) should shift blame on to  impressionable kids for an unhealthy coping mechanism. like its not healthy for anyone of her fans who tried to encourage her, like her fans or audience, to feel like they contributed to it, like its no ones fault. things just happen and sometimes it's unhealthy and you learn from it and try to pick yourself up and fix it.

taratara1312 shit you really worded this well. this is exactly my thoughts

taratara1312 this comment is so important, i do agree with it too. Some of us in her audience kind of encouraged the sharing, and it isnt entirely dodie's fault.


I know this is a bit late now, but I just wanted to say: thank you for your apology. I think that we (at the very least most of us) were mostly sharing concerns due to a concern for you and a concern for our own mental states, not out of any desire to attack you. I personally wouldn't have been as concerned until I heard that Hazel and Zannah were also concerned because they're your friends and obviously thus know you better than I do.

I think you're so right that sharing mental health is so important, but it's also important to not post to a large audience like you have when you're at your very worst state. I think (and I could be wrong) that it's better to wait a little while to post it and see if you still think it's worth it. (Maybe even try the app Later which lets you pre-write Instagram posts?)

I also had this struggle but on a much smaller scale (because I have a much smaller audience) about how much to share of my mental health and how much would help people versus how much was me choosing this outlet instead of one that would help me more.

In any case, sending you so much love! Please never feel like you can't give us updates and talk to us honestly or be your beautiful, emotional self xx


Dodie,<br>i think it is very important for me to share my experience with being subscribed to you and to make you realize that while many people might be right with what they criticize you for, some are clearly over reacting. I used to be an active member of the phandom twitter community back in 204/15 and that's also when I first heard about you. I thought you were so nice and lovable and just in general a very kind person. And you still are. But back then a movement started forming in stan twitter that kinda meant it was 'cool' to downgrade overly emotional people on youtube, for example emma blackery and others from that friendship group. I always sat back and just observed cause I don't like 'hating' on someone I don't know personally. I don't like hating on anyone at all but that's a different story. What I'm trying to say with all of this is that yes, you should be listening to your audience and yes, it's necessary to record videos like this one where you apologize but if the response isn't 100% positive then that's not because people hate you or the things you've done but most people that say negative stuff are the ones that do it without thinking. I realize I'm rambling right now and I'm not sure if I managed to bring my point across but basically all I really wanted to say is that you're doing great and that the people who are able to give constructive criticism and who are free from having a judgmental personality will know that you are a good person (who might made a mistake or two but hey, we've all made mistakes, maybe more, maybe less than you). Hang in there, don't let the negativity get to you. I believe in the good in you and so do so many more people who truly care about you and your happiness. I don't know if you'll read this but I still felt it was necessary to share my view on it. (I'm also sorry if some parts didn't make sense cause english isn't my first language). Love u, Fran xx

Dodie,
i think it is very important for me to share my experience with being subscribed to you and to make you realize that while many people might be right with what they criticize you for, some are clearly over reacting. I used to be an active member of the phandom twitter community back in 204/15 and that's also when I first heard about you. I thought you were so nice and lovable and just in general a very kind person. And you still are. But back then a movement started forming in stan twitter that kinda meant it was 'cool' to downgrade overly emotional people on youtube, for example emma blackery and others from that friendship group. I always sat back and just observed cause I don't like 'hating' on someone I don't know personally. I don't like hating on anyone at all but that's a different story. What I'm trying to say with all of this is that yes, you should be listening to your audience and yes, it's necessary to record videos like this one where you apologize but if the response isn't 100% positive then that's not because people hate you or the things you've done but most people that say negative stuff are the ones that do it without thinking. I realize I'm rambling right now and I'm not sure if I managed to bring my point across but basically all I really wanted to say is that you're doing great and that the people who are able to give constructive criticism and who are free from having a judgmental personality will know that you are a good person (who might made a mistake or two but hey, we've all made mistakes, maybe more, maybe less than you). Hang in there, don't let the negativity get to you. I believe in the good in you and so do so many more people who truly care about you and your happiness. I don't know if you'll read this but I still felt it was necessary to share my view on it. (I'm also sorry if some parts didn't make sense cause english isn't my first language). Love u, Fran xx


dodie i love you so much and i completely understand everything youve said. i hope these realizations dont stop you from sharing at all. i agree that you shouldnt post in your lowest moments but remember what hazel said, and share when youre about midway. when you can describe how youre feeling but be able to control how the post goes. i also would love for you to start reaching for your phone when youre in your happiest moments. it seems like you only step back and asses the moment when youre feeling bad, but you should instead be able to recognize the good times, and think to post then instead of the bad times. and also, dont be defined by your mental health. youve made yourself to be the mentally unhealthy girl online, but you are so much more than that, so dont forget to express that. dont constantly remind yourself and everyone else how bad it is, but dont be afraid to remind us of how bad it can be. and try not to creativity to madness. it makes it seem desirable and cute. only a creative person can make something beautiful out of madness. a mad person doesnt automatically become creative. make sure you make that clear. i love you dodie. i really wish i could be there for one of those low moments, to help you back up. you have no idea.


i love you dodie, thank you for sharing. i've had to stop posting when in sad bc a lot of my friends have asked me to stop


Dodie please don't be embarrassed! I know it is easy to post on Instagram your feelings but it hadn't become right and i am proud of you that you have realised that, you have stopped doing that because you are no longer thinking about how this helps you and is a good effect on you but you are now thinking about your audience. I know when you're at your lowest state it's easy to just think about yourself and how it's never going to get better but you've come out this bubble and are turning it into something positive that you can work on. Thank you for everything I love you so much and I'm very excited to see you in newcastle on the 20th of October!!!!!

Not being annoying but can people like this comment so dodie can see and tell her how proud we are of her xxx


this video was even better than the original and actually made me emotional in a good way at the end, look after urself too xx


You are wonderful and strong and I admire you so much for listening to (sometimes harsh) criticism and then processing it and learning from it. You are so brave. And I know it must've been en must be very hard and it is very easy, or at least easier to be defensive and protect yourself or isolate yourself or not look at the comments. I'm not sure if I would've been able to be so strong and mature and wonderful like you have been. Please don't beat yourself up over past events. Don't blame yourself. Don't take this criticism and the honesty of other people as criticism on you as a being. You did some things that you could've done differently and now you're learning from it - which is good. But you did those things with good intentions. You did it to cope and you were very brave and very open and very wonderful. Please don't ever tell yourself that you are a bad person. I've read some awful comments and I want you to know that you are not a bad person. You are amazing. Don't stop talking about how you're feeling (it's okay to be a little more selective with what you put out on the internet, but it's okay to say you're not doing well). Don't lie. Don't pretend to be fine or okay. Please accept help and love from those who surround you. Ask for help when you need it. Don't stop sharing. Dealing with mental health is such a lonely road. Don't walk it alone. Please. We care about you. Even if we're just names on a screen, let it be valuable. We are here.


i'm really proud of you dodie for doing this. the thing is, you did kinda make mental illness your brand, and you did glorify mental illness. friends around me started watching your videos and decided they were going to be sad too!!!!! but i'm glad you've accepted you were doing the right thing and it's very mature. i hope we can all fix ourselves.


Dodie I love you and I was apart of the group who had to step back for a bit. I would watch your videos and start questioning myself and my mental state. I would take everything you said to heart and I would want to help you, but I would worry about myself. After watching many of your videos I realized it wasn't healthy for me to watch your More in depth videos due to them causing me to question myself. I would watch them and think that what you were saying described me. I felt as if every word that left your mouth described how I was feeling. Some of what you said did describe what I felt but a lot of what you said didn't. I would convince myself that I was feeling that way. It causes me to think poorly of myself. I started thinking I wasn't good enough and that your videos were the only thing I could relate to. After about a month of this I realized it was wrong. I stepped back and stopped watching. I unfollowed you on all social media with the fear that you would post something very deep about yourself. I have so much respect for you and I do really hope you stop posting your diary online. Please don't think I think less of you cause' I don't. I think very highly of you and what you do. I think that this was so amazing. You are being so responsible for recognizing what you did. It's amazing you have understood that you have such a young impressionable audience. I hope you feel better.


This was a very adult decision and I'm really proud of you Dodie. I'm so happy that as a 16 year old, I have a role model like you. Please give yourself credit because you honestly changed my life for the better.


i love you. dodie, you can make it through this. i know you can.


i love u and i support u and i forgive u! sending best wishes your way. super happy that you addressed this and handled it in such a mature way, you're so brave and i hope u never stop fighting this illness ✨


Oh gosh, I think I’m doing kind of the same thing, except it’s with my friends

I think I tend to rely on my friends when I’m anxious and ESPECIALLY when I’m spaced out (I have sort of the same problem as Dodie) and rely on them to ground me. I do that all of the time, and I think I’ve merged my private thoughts with my vents to friends. Thanks Dodie for opening my eyes, I’m gonna try to build better boundaries and be more reliant on other things


Dodie, I think you're a good person. Yeah we all share too much sometimes, but you've stepped back and realized it. You have good intentions, and it shows through. Love you and hope you get through this fast because you're strong <3


(from description) 'and thousands of people who will drink it up instantly'
you are almost speaking in intertwined lyrics
which
which is revealing of how this has made you feel, dodie.

we all know that you were doing what you felt was right.
you're self aware now, and that's such a breakthrough.
we love you.
we love you we love you we love you.
we love you.

(from description) 'and thousands of people who will *drink* it up instantly'
you are almost speaking in intertwined lyrics
which
which is revealing of how this has made you feel, dodie.

we all know that you were doing what you felt was right.
you're self aware now, and that's such a breakthrough.
we love you.
we love you we love you we love you.
we love you.


I respect this video so so much. I respect your opinions so so much. I respect you so so much. You do what you believe will make it better, and I will be happy. I love you, Dodie <3


We all make mistakes. The most important thing is to learn from them. It is wonderful to see you grow as a person, I hope all the best to you in future. You are an amazing and genuine person, keep up growing! 💕


Dodie, this broke my heart, don't beat yourself up too much, everyone makes mistakes :)


Oh my gawd. This honestly could've been my video, if I made any. I am so terrible at not sharing all these awful feelings and complex thoughts with everyone around me and I can guarantee that if I started vlogging, many of my videos would just be about how shit I'm feeling. I just don't know how to put up healthy boundaries, you know. But I'm learning, and you're learning, and we all are. I think it takes a lot of guts to apologize like this, I know how hard it feels to be ashamed and/or embarrassed of a mistake you've made, and knowing the fact that you may have hurt people. But its okay <3 you're a good person dodie, and your videos make me very happy and relax me when I'm feeling really shit. So, thanks.


I'm really proud of you Dodie, I think you handled this (this meaning the realization of the problem and apologizing) really well. I don't have snapchat and tend to not read super long instaposts, so when I watched your last video I wasn't sure how to feel, because your videos on mental health on YouTube are so important to me, and have helped me a lot, and I'm so passionate about breaking the stigma surrounding mental illness, but I guess there's a fine line between breaking the stigma and romanticizing it.

As for moving on to your fifth therapist, don't give up! I've had seven shit therapists/bad matches until I had a good one, and now I'm on number nine,  and she's the best one I've ever had. I had so little faith left in therapy but now I'm SO GLAD I didn't give up. Therapy has become such a source of stability for me and when I feel weak and unstable the prospect of being able to talk to my therapist about it helps me hold on until the next session. Therapy is a bit of a lottery and it's all about matching, but when you do find a good match, it is SO worth it and it can truly become a safe space. Best of luck with number five, I hope they'll be your number nine. :)


We love you Dodie, and everyone makes a mistake. You are going through things, and it's not uncommon to make some mistakes like that. You were trying to make yourself feel better, and you forgot to think about what all of that really meant. You will do better, we are not mad, we are not upset. People just want to help you. Again, we love you and forgive you and we are not mad.


Dodie, I think that you have handled this situation very well and really maturely. I do agree with you saying that you have overshared and that you do not want your mental illness to become part of your "brand". However, like you also stated, talking about mental illness and trying to get rid of the stigma around it is very important and I think it is great that you do talk about it and I hope that you will continue to discuss it, but on your higher days where you feel leveled and in control enough to talk about it in a way that will not be triggering. <br>Thank you Dodie for being such a kind, emotional, and amazing person to all of us. We love you.

Dodie, I think that you have handled this situation very well and really maturely. I do agree with you saying that you have overshared and that you do not want your mental illness to become part of your "brand". However, like you also stated, talking about mental illness and trying to get rid of the stigma around it is very important and I think it is great that you do talk about it and I hope that you will continue to discuss it, but on your higher days where you feel leveled and in control enough to talk about it in a way that will not be triggering.
Thank you Dodie for being such a kind, emotional, and amazing person to all of us. We love you.


Mental health is so important... I've learned the hard way. This needed to be recognised, and you've built upon it sooo well. I recently commented on ur am I oversharing too much, I'll admit it was quite harsh, but truthful. Well done dodie, you've come so far and ur symptom remains but is maintained. We r all so proud of you, and now I feel like I can without a pretentious caution fan girl over your social media; with no hesitation! Really proud of you and keep up the good work!!


I love the thought of going outside and meditating but British summer finished about 3 weeks ago and it's raining now, I'll just have to stick to the cup of tea thank you :D


Dodie, you nailed it with this video.

All the love. xxx


Awee dodie.
Personally you posting this stuff has helped me as i was in the same place it made me feel like i wasent alone on my journey to getting better.
And I never have let mental illness define you.
When i think of dodie i think of talent.
There are some shitty comments and i know they can be rough.
This is a good lesson of boundaries and as always, know you have so much people who support and love you. 🌻💛☀🌺


If it makes you feel any better, reading and listening to you talk really has helped me release some stigma i've had with my own mental health. it's helped me be able to feel better because i'm really new to anxiety and depression and maybe even depersonalizations and it made me feel less alone. it's not best for everyone but you helped at least one person


I've been thinking about this, since your last video.  If sharing helps you that's good.  Don't be embarrassed.  I'm possibly twice your age, but I have anxiety and depression too.  I share very little with my friends about it.  I admit to feeling bad if the conversation comes up, but it's easier to make how I feel make coherent sense, when the lowest part has passed because I can think clearer about what I want to share with them and what I feel safer keeping to myself.  My friends and family are a massive part of my life, but I don't want to me asked "How is your mental health? every time I see them because then I start to think Oh God How is my mental health?  I forgot to check today.  The way I look at it now is yes I will have really bad days, but rest and kindness to myself, as I would treat someone else in the same situation helps.  If recording helps you do it.  Trust that you don't need to upload it until you are through to the other (clearer) side of it, and then decide if it would help to upload.  When you feel well, happy, write those notes down too.  What made you giggle, smile, feel even a tiny bit good and have those on your wall like a positive mood board for when you feel bad.  You will recognise your own handwriting so will trust that you do enjoy, like, love the lists, and you just have to wait, and breathe and wait and breathe and eventually things will look, feel and be more manageable.  Trust that you have so many virtual supporters, but even more important people who will sit with you, until things become more manageable.  You do not have to tackle 24 hours at a time, you just can take one breath at a time. X


There's no need to apologise. We all understand how hard this is for you. Don't feel embarrassed. It's ok. If anything this has helped you grow


I LOVE YOU, gosh thank you for inciting the most genuine and beautiful feelings in my heart. It just feels like breathing. I wrote the longest comment to your "oversharing video" acting like a know-it-all fucking ass. I worked on it for hours, cause I can't speak english very well, I sent my comment  and somehow felt immediatly bad about it. So I went through your old content, honestly looking for some evidences that I did good. What I saw was just you being eloquent and incredibly clever ( no surprise at this pont) but then: BOOM I learned about the abusive relationship you've been through. I went back to my comment and deleted it, thinking : "You don't have lessons to give her, she's the one who can teach you what it needs to be strong". Then, here you are AGAIN, being mature and so wise! I'm sorry too, take care of you :)


I need to find a way to climb through the screen and hug you, Dodie. You are amazing, we love you and mental health is important. Your mental health is in your control and don't stress if you are oversharing too much because you will find you're not alone. I luv you.


This takes a lot of courage to make this video dodie we love you too


You're trying your best! And you've learned. Please forgive yourself as well. You're finding a balance. Keep going ❤


we love you dodie. it's ok. we understand. you are an amazing human. everyone feels like this.


I never felt like you shared too much but I also am 23 years old and relatively neurotypical so that probably explains why lol. I'm very proud of you for being so honest and self aware and happy that you have friends who are honest with you like in your last video. I hope this new therapist works out and that you're able to comfortably find the line you're looking for 😊 much love and support 🤗❤


I just want to say thank you for these videos because they made me think about my mental health and all that jazz


I've struggled with mental illness before and it's so easy to go straight to social media, and I couldn't agree more with what you say in this video ☺ one thing I did use and do still on the odd occasion is have a private twitter account in which I don't accept followers on I tweet my own thoughts good and bad just so it feels as though it's out there and gone, although no one will actually see it, hope this helps anyone in a low place xx


DODIE!!❤I will never stop watching your videos!!


Ok Dodie, here we go:

As someone who also suffers with depression, anxiety, and chronic migraines that suck literally all physical energy from me.. I want to tell you that your videos do help me. The happy and the sad ones. We're all learning and we all make mistakes... we're still SO young and we're learning. Your videos have motivated me to get a therapist. But just because many of us can relate to those videos, that doesn't mean you have to be pressured to keep making them. I love you with all my heart and soul.. and we all want you to get better. So go to therapy, drink your tea, post when you feel like.. go live your life and then share with us what you want to share ..

 ok now I'm going to drink some tea too because that sounds amazing right now  and I need it <3

You should totally get a therapist! I used to have migraines too (idk with what frequency you have them but I used to have them once a month) As soon as I started therapy, they stopped. At worst, I have one once a year, and it's waaaay less intense. So yeah, keep fighting!

Dodie you made one mistake, We all love you and care for you SO It’s just one little mistake I have done so many stupid things, and I love how you had discovered your mistake and solved them. I love you dodie

Ps YAY I can be your sister!!!

Nicky Xoxo this is so sweet!! Thank you so much! ❤ I hope your day/life is also amazing, and your brother's too! ❤

Sophie Lambros My brother is also on the autism spectrum, so I understand how difficult it can be :( but the fact that you can write all of his shows how self aware you are of your feelings which I think is amazing progress... you're a complete stranger but I LOVE YOU!! I truly hope you have an amazing life ❤

me too, I'm here if you ever need anything. My insta is the same as my user on this xo

Nicky Xoxo as someone who doesn't have any extreme metal illnesses like depression or depersonalisation, I actually find your videos super interesting. I know people who have the same sort of things and it's hard for them to open up and how in depth you go it can help me understand these sorts of things better and can help other people understand these that don't have depression or anxiety etc. However I think there's always a cut of point of how in depth you can go because your brain is always in a different state when you're in your lowest and highest moments. (Also glad that you now know the depths you can go into) ❤❤

Nicky Xoxo ^^^^ this comment !!! ❤❤❤ I agree! Me too!

I have Asperger's Syndrome/Autistic Spectrum Disorder which means that I feel very intense, distant, like I don't fit in to this world, and like I'm an alien.

There are times when (I'm lying. It's permanent) I have genuinely completely persuaded myself that I'm not human, not from this planet, and don't deserve any of the people or things on this planet. Depression has been extremely bad since age 7, and anxiety as well.

Watching Dodie's videos and hearing her speak is so comforting and it 'gets' through to me when not everything does. I feel connected with her, like she is my/our big sister, who we can talk to and listen to.
(Not trying to make anything about myself - but I want to show that Dodie is not alone, and that some of us with all our different feelings, can be really helped by her!)

Her videos - happy AND sad, keep me going and are comforting.
bUT
It is definitely a good and strong decision to take a break from it, and I'm proud of her for making that decision.

We should all sit back and make tea! Because we all deserve something nice ❤

<b>sing it with me</b> We're all in this together!

*sing it with me* We're all in this together!

eyyyy, i have them too, we're in this together guys

Nicky Xoxo yessss to the chronic migraines and anxiety! They're both so difficult to deal with!


I fucking love you so much, you’re such a smart, strong, brave, inspiring person and I really hope you’re feeling alright 💕💕


seeing u crying made me cry. dodie i wish i could give you a big big hug. You are an amazing person and i hope u know that.


Dodie it's alright if you post it I will always support you in anything your post have helped me to understand how people like you with mental illnesses like my friends and it helps me say hey this is what you need to do you have been so good love you ;)


long heartfelt comment alert Dodie I LOVE the conclusions you've come to as a result of all this. Everyone has already said how much we are proud of you and how admirable it is that you've been so honest in apologising, i love that too- so much! But I just wanted to say how amazingly you seem to have dealt with it, you appear to be taking it to heart but in a GOOD way, as in taking it seriously and wanting to make a difference, not as in taking it to heart and letting it push you down. I love you for that. You can get through this! <3 Also, I found it really interesting that you said you'd be "cutting ties with it being integrated with you" (5:05). Because that's how I've had to think about some of my mental health stuff too! I met you after one of your gigs and specifically thanked you for your video about cutting ties with people. (At Shepherds bush hall gig in the intertwined EP tour a few days after the cutting ties video.) Naturally you thought I'd recently had a break up or something but I said "no, I was relating it to my mental health". We didn't chat any more about it because other people wanted to meet you but basically: I found your advice about how to put a person out of your life in a healthy way fitted perfectly with what I needed to be reminded about (from CBT therapy and talking to other people I trust) for letting go of the control my body-focused-repetitive-behaviour-disorder(s) has over me, even to the extent that I wrote it letters, before you then suggested doing that in your vid! Not sure where I'm going with this. I guess just to share experiences and say that you've encouraged me in dealing with some of my stuff, and I love love LOVE that you're seeking healthy ways to deal with yours. And I hope and pray that you find the therapist who's right for you, because i know that can make a MASSIVE difference. I feel like there was another point I was going to make, maybe someone else will pick it up >.< anyway, love you dodie, thank you for this video xx

*long heartfelt comment alert* Dodie I LOVE the conclusions you've come to as a result of all this. Everyone has already said how much we are proud of you and how admirable it is that you've been so honest in apologising, i love that too- so much! But I just wanted to say how amazingly you seem to have dealt with it, you appear to be taking it to heart but in a GOOD way, as in taking it seriously and wanting to make a difference, not as in taking it to heart and letting it push you down. I love you for that. You can get through this! <3 Also, I found it really interesting that you said you'd be "cutting ties with it being integrated with you" (5:05). Because that's how I've had to think about some of my mental health stuff too! I met you after one of your gigs and specifically thanked you for your video about cutting ties with people. (At Shepherds bush hall gig in the intertwined EP tour a few days after the cutting ties video.) Naturally you thought I'd recently had a break up or something but I said "no, I was relating it to my mental health". We didn't chat any more about it because other people wanted to meet you but basically: I found your advice about how to put a person out of your life in a healthy way fitted perfectly with what I needed to be reminded about (from CBT therapy and talking to other people I trust) for letting go of the control my body-focused-repetitive-behaviour-disorder(s) has over me, even to the extent that I wrote it letters, before you then suggested doing that in your vid! Not sure where I'm going with this. I guess just to share experiences and say that you've encouraged me in dealing with some of my stuff, and I love love LOVE that you're seeking healthy ways to deal with yours. And I hope and pray that you find the therapist who's right for you, because i know that can make a MASSIVE difference. I feel like there was another point I was going to make, maybe someone else will pick it up >.< anyway, love you dodie, thank you for this video xx


Dodie I love you!
We love you!
Everyone makes mistake
I wish my words would help
But I'm horrible at expressing myself through words
If I was there by you though
I would hug you
Have a nice day! <3


Thank you for this video. I like you, struggle with working out exactly what is and isn't appropriate to share with who in terms of my mental health. On an opposite end of the critism you have been recieving I loved your stories but did pull away simply because I felt as though it wasn't for me to see. Your story would feel like a conversation I would have with a close friend while we cuddle up and share a drink at 4am in a crisis. It would feel like something for you to talk through with Hazel or Dan, not me someone you have never met but said hi through a camera to on the santa monica pier. You're beautiful, You are loved and I hope you're well.


don't be so hard on yourself, you are a human ! we all do it, you just happen to have a bigger audience watching! your mistakes do not define you! I love you dodie, you've done so much good for me and so many others! this video was very brave, I love you! take care of yourself


I'm proud of you. This is very brave. All I want is for you to be happy. That's what I found most upsetting about the things you shared. It's frustrating to see you struggling when I can help. But don't be too hard on yourself. We love you and hate to see like this


Dodie, we love you. We want to help you. I am happy you feel like you can share with us. And we forgive you! We love love love love you!! (Also where did you get ur shirt)