don't be too harsh on yourself! <br>do what you need to do to cope with what you've got & don't feel bad for exploring different ways of coping

don't be too harsh on yourself!
do what you need to do to cope with what you've got & don't feel bad for exploring different ways of coping


Dodie my love you're amazing and brave and I adore you


Hi Dodie. Good video - I saw the previous video you did with Hazel about oversharing. If you still feel yourself reaching for your phone, make a DM group with just your friends in it (so Hazel, Dan, Jack, Lucy, etc.) and just write stuff there if you're not feeling OK - it wouldn't be for general public consumption, but it would let your friends know where you're at all at once. Also, you can make private youtube videos if you just wanna talk to a camera about how you feel and then send just your friends the link. Just some other practical ideas in there for you. Also, write a big sign on your wall that says: No matter how I feel, I can always reach out to my friends.


Please don't apologise Dodie! It helped you for a while there was nothing wrong with that. As long as you are happy and taking care of yourself. Wishing you all of the best 💗


I've noticed how in depth your poster were getting, and yes I realized it was worrying me and others, but I just trying to keep comforting you. I even DM'd you, doing what I do best, trying to make people happy, or feel better about themselves, feel loved. But dodes, you scared me so much. I was so worried.
And I didn't want to tell you it was triggering, or wrong to write these things, because I didn't know what mental state you were in, and I didn't want it to seem like I was telling you to shut up. And though it sounds like I'm being defensive, I'm not, all this is to say I'm very very very proud of you. I'm so very proud of you for realizing what you were saying, and that maybe it's not the best for everyone because it's either triggering, or your audience it just too young.
I am so proud of how you made this video as well. You didn't get defensive, you didn't sound like you were blaming us, or anything, you were grown up, vunrable and powerful in your word. And those things might sound like they counteract each other, but they really don't. You can be both at the very same time.
I also want to say that when you said "I don't want to glorify mental illness" the first time, mascara a mess, eyeliner running, you were so very vunrable and so very very powerful in those word. That the whole time I've been typing those words have been echoing in my head.

I struggle with a small chunk of derealization, it comes and it goes,  but it mostly comes when I think about it, and I hate it. It makes me cry at the thought of it, so maybe I can understand, maybe I can't. But I want you to knwoy you aren't alone in whatever you are feeling. Even though not all of the internet might not be a great place for all your words and thoughts a support group, therapist, family member or friend are.
We are in this with you dodes. Not because you've made us, but because we want to.
We love you terribly and want nothing but the best for you. 💛


Dodie! I had noticed that you were different and more down lately  I would constantly say to myself where did dodie go...I found her
We love you dodie with all of our
Heart☾


Firstly, DON'T FEEL SHITTY OR EMBARRASSED ABOUT THIS! As Hazel said, every single one of us has sent that text or tweet we slightly regret but it doesn't help to regret.

I love your vids which share your feelings and experiences in a structured video setting because you give advice and let people know they aren't alone. It's when it gets more like a diary that I struggled. This sounds weird but a thing I struggled with seeing your posts is that I felt like I was dealing with my stuff and your stuff AND I'm more alone than you. Like you post and thousands of people tweet and comment wishing you well and checking you're okay. It can be kinda shitty to see that when you're feeling shit yourself bc you know you won't get the same people reaching out to you? I don't know if I'm making sense but bc YouTube isn't reciprocal, it can make the relationship unhealthy. Normal friends lean on eachother when their mh is bad or for whatever the reason. However, obvs YouTube subscribers and creators aren't the same. So to see and take on such sad descriptions of somebody's mental state (which is triggering itself) in such an unreciprocated manner is hard. It's like just remembering that viewers also have mental health shut to struggle with and youtube can be a very one sided Tool for support. As a 21yo I feel I can handle it but perhaps younger viewers would find it harder.

I LOVED this follow up tho bc you were so undefensive and fab in responding to 'criticism'- I wouldn't be able to do it! X


dodie! do not be sorry that you have feelings and need to express them! everyone at one time or another has bad days and they get through them differently. i am so glad that you share your raw feelings because it makes me feel that i am not totally alone in this world. just know that your fans will love and support you no matter what. have an absolutely lovely day filled with lots of tea :))) love you!! ❤


Turn your feelings into art, that's what I do. When I'm sad, I either scribble, draw a picture, write a poem, write a story, write a song, colour a picture or just do something creative. Sometimes involving my thoughts and sometimes distracting myself from them. That helps me ALOT!! Also, u could try writing your feelings in your iPhone notes, I also do this, and I cry a lot whilst doing it but I feel a lot better afterwards! I hope this helps, and I hope you're okay 💓


You are SO brave. So so brave dodie. Never forget that. We all get kicks and healing from people's comments and words. Do not be ashamed of that x


I suffer from depersonalisation sometimes too, but as you said you ground yourself with your phone even though its an unhealthy coping mechanism I disagree, I've tried to push myself out of these turns I have an it ends up getting worse for it, so distracting myself is the only way I can get through it. However my opinion could be biased because I've never had any real friends until recently so I've learned to deal with my issues alone


i think it's good you can tell people your feelings and thoughts but there is a line and it was crossed. i don't think you should stop you should just lower it if you get me. we're always here for you and don't let this make you worse. seek help from other people and other healthy ways <3


Don't be embarrassed you needed to talk about it and you did what you know how to do best make a video about it because you're comfortable with it. I love you and everything you stand for you are such a wonderful person but don't feel bad about sharing. Sometimes sharing experiences helps people because there are many kids going through the same thing


We love you and wish you the best in life! Know that!❤❤


Dodie. yes, you made a mistake, yes it was wrong but I'm glad that you can realize and acknowledge that. It seems impossible, I know, but you will be happy. Take care :) <3


Dodie, if you need help just ask x say you feel bad, we WILL help you x ❤


I don't think you should be blasted for sharing your feelings and using that to help yourself. I do understand partially how it could affect others but I just feel that you shouldn't have to justify your actions to others you know.  This is so mature though, to admit what you feel that you did wrong and that's such a step! We're all here for you!


love you. look after yourself, and when you need us, we'll be here.


I don't even care honestly, you could always write a blog and pour your emotions out there, then anyone that wants to read can, and no one can complain as it is their choice to go onto the blog and read the entries.


Personally I did not realize that your posts were triggering, I just thought they were things you need to get off your chest while you're not in your best state. However, by bringing up the conversation about this you've made me realized; though it wasn't you, but it was my friend who created an Instagram spam account where she pours whatever thought she has as she is clinically depressed. It's a private account, and I'm one of the few who gets to see the content in it. At first I didn't think much of the bio of her account as she did warn that her contents are graphic. But lately I've had experiences where I felt my anxiety crippling while reading her posts but I've never think much of it. I do talk to her and react to the posts by commenting words of comfort when I can. But yeah thanks for bringing this up. You made me realize that maybe posting things online isn't the best way to treat oneself, and that there are even better ways to get the same effect as posting personal thoughts online. 💕


Stay true to yourself but try to keep it healthy. Don't feel guilty or ashamed for sharing because it can be really helpful and healthy. You should keep in mind that your audience can be younger but you don't need to cater it only to them. Being open and honest will help them as long as it is actually helping you. If you find some good coping mechanisms in the process please share!<br>We love you, Dodie! <3

Stay true to yourself but try to keep it healthy. Don't feel guilty or ashamed for sharing because it can be really helpful and healthy. You should keep in mind that your audience can be younger but you don't need to cater it only to them. Being open and honest will help them as long as it is actually helping you. If you find some good coping mechanisms in the process please share!
We love you, Dodie! <3


Dodie, although I may not entirely get why you feel like you have to make this video, I do partially get it. I too over share, and not all of my friends want to see that because it makes them feel like they're doing a shit job of being a friend. But they aren't, its just me, I can't put myself in a mental state to not put that out there, and when I try to directly talk to them I feel like I am complaining, they have problems, and some of my friends take their problems and do un healthy things with them. One of my friends has cut her thighs. And if I feel like I have failed as her best friend when she  tells me shes done it again, how might she feel when she sees my oversharing. But I want to help you, I want to be the one you vent to, because even though I feel shit too, I always come up with a solution for other people.


v mature dodie! i love u and keep doing good things! 💕💕


omg dodie, you precious creature, love you smol little bean <3


Aw. Watching this made me very sad. I guess just watching dodie cry makes me cry. I absolutely hate that jake Paul and other vloggers are getting so much attention. Dodie is such an amazing person and she's real we can't all be happy and energetic all time


Aw... This is so relatable to everyone. We luv u!


SUMMER IN THE CITY WILL BE A BOP!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOP


No dodie its absolutely fine your posts help me because they tell me that its not just me going through this and when you started crying so did i x


Last time I was this early

dan wasnt on fire

spooky jim wait what? i havent actually watched the video, cant im at school

There's a time and a place and this is not it

Mjcancino Mari Cancino dam it i knew this would happen

Jadeosaurus look my fellow phannies are here :3


Can I just ask an honest question?
What spurs you guys to say awful things? Dodie is one of the sweetest most pure souls on earth, and she doesn't deserve that. She's struggling. So what, on God's great Earth, would make you want to say awful things to her or about her?
Like honestly, I'm so confused. You can't be doing it for personal gain, because what could you possibly gain from bullying an already struggling girl? She's done nothing to you. She's never expressed opinions that would cause drama over differing views and standpoints.
If it's because you're homophobic: don't watch her videos.
You don't like her content? Don't watch her videos.
YOU put yourself in the position of viewing her content, so don't you dare, for even one moment, think you have the right to say something awful simply because you didn't like what you watched. There's no excuse for being mean to Dodie. And while this may not mean much, but all the hate comments I see? I instantly lose all respect and care for the people who write them.

To Dodie: We love you so much. I love you so much. You've given me courage, and because of you I know what I am, and I know who I am. I recently discovered I was bisexual, and you helped me discover that. I've been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, depression, sensory overload disorder, and a bunch of other medical disorders throughout my life, and it makes SO so happy to know that someone out there knows what I'm going through. Your videos and posts about your mental disorders help me so much.
These days, it's so hard to get me to smile, yet every time I watch one of your videos, I just manage a grin.
And it's all thanks to you, love.💖❤💛💚💙💜💖

Can I just ask an honest question?
What spurs you guys to say awful things? Dodie is one of the sweetest most pure souls on earth, and she doesn't deserve that. She's struggling. So what, on God's great Earth, would make you want to say awful things to her or about her?
Like honestly, I'm so confused. You can't be doing it for personal gain, because what could you possibly gain from bullying an already struggling girl? She's done nothing to you. She's never expressed opinions that would cause drama over differing views and standpoints.
If it's because you're homophobic: don't watch her videos.
You don't like her content? Don't watch her videos.
YOU put yourself in the position of viewing her content, so don't you dare, for even one moment, think you have the right to say something awful simply because you didn't like what you watched. There's no excuse for being mean to Dodie. And while this may not mean much, but all the hate comments I see? I instantly lose all respect and care for the people who write them.

To Dodie: We love you so much. *I* love you so much. You've given me courage, and because of you I know what I am, and I know who I am. I recently discovered I was bisexual, and you helped me discover that. I've been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, depression, sensory overload disorder, and a bunch of other medical disorders throughout my life, and it makes SO so happy to know that someone out there knows what I'm going through. Your videos and posts about your mental disorders help me so much.
These days, it's so hard to get me to smile, yet every time I watch one of your videos, I just manage a grin.
And it's all thanks to you, love.💖❤💛💚💙💜💖

Naomi Elias okay but that has nothing to do with why I wrote what I wrote. I wrote it because I've seen people hate on her for several things and I don't like it, and now that I know she's struggling so much I feel really bad that people do that. (I'm not mad at you or anything, I'm just trying to explain why I said that:)

Captain Prism I haven't seen any on this video, but people say mean things on her other videos and Instagram.

I don't think what she references in the vid was exactly <b>hate</b> more like people speaking their minds and having harsh opinions, not expecting her to ever see.

I don't think what she references in the vid was exactly *hate* more like people speaking their minds and having harsh opinions, not expecting her to ever see.

Who's writing hate comments? I haven't seen any (so far)


Sweetheart be strong!!! It's going to be tough but the love inside of you is going to make you fell better bit by bit. I's a process don't be afraid... you are going to be just ok! Wonderful girl! 💓💓💓


Hey Dodie,
(potential trigger warning regarding mental illnesses)
I'm 20, and I am pretty much suffering from (diagnosed) depression since I was 15.
I had my own "breakdown" in November 2015 and had a pretty f*cking hard time for over half a year and eversince then I also live with (diagnosed) anxiety.
I just wanted to say, that because I can relate to you so much regarding just having to live with mental illnesses every single hour, every single day of the year, I personally found it very interesting and helpful wo watch your videos, watch your snapchat stories and read your instagram posts eversince your breakdown.
Even though I don't have diagnosed depersonalisation and depression/anxiety and depersonalisation are defnitely different things, I found it really helpful to be reminded that other people are struggling very hard too. I guess I feel like I can understand you and if we met you could understand me too and for me it is good to know that there are other people that are having such a hard time too. My friends/ family/ boyfriend are here for me, but I feel like they don't get why I am so "nervous" and "over emotional" etc, but your too personal posts were always a reminder for me that these things happen, and that I am not alone.
So I just wanted to say, even though you might never read this, thank you for being so personal about your mental state. I understand and respect your decision and I also think it is right to do that, I just wanted to tell you that I am thankful for you being so personal over the last months. I hope that recommended therapist will work for you!
ily ~ ♥


Dodie you should create a separate account just for mental health so if people don't want to see it they don't have to but it still helps you

self-destruction is very addictive, and I know that if she did that, I would probably be tempted to watch her videos even though I know that could affect me in a negative way,  especially since i pretty much use entertainment as a way to distract me from my issues, and there's also that this isn't just unhealthy for the audience but also unhealthy for herself. this is only my take on it though

Someone said something similar to this on the other video and someone else responded saying that it would still be bad for some people because they would still seek out those Snapchats in order to feel sad, and again the young and impressionable don't know what's unhealthy yet

she's talked about this, not only is oversharing unhelpful to some others to see/read it's also an unhealthy coping mechanism for herself, so creating a separate account where she can overshare isn't the solution since oversharing is the problem in the first place

And dodie we will always love you even if your at your worst


Some people will get "triggered" by the simplest, most innocuous things. It's not the responsibility of everyone else to bite their tongue. Mental illness is rarely anybody's fault and it's generally constructive to spread the feeling of community among people who suffer.

You're doing a good thing, just find a degree to which you're comfortable sharing and we'll be here when you need us.

tho i agree, that a lot of random things can trigger people (like for me it's amusement parks or childerns books), almost all of these people are also triggered by suicide mention, self harm mention etc.

so; of course you can't bite your tongue all the time; but when your talking about mental health stuff: be careful


dear dodie:<br>you probably won't see this, but i have a little bit of advice. learning to know what is appropriate to put online is hard. opening up to people is easy at first, but when you're told you're telling too much, it is very embarrassing. but please, please don't close yourself off completely. because what will happen is you might begin to not trust anyone with what you go through and that is what happened to me. always stay a little open because sometimes you need support from friends and family and even the internet. but learn what to say and how to say it. please don't completely close yourself off, however. that is super duper unhealthy, and situations like these may lead to that. we love you, so much.

dear dodie:
you probably won't see this, but i have a little bit of advice. learning to know what is appropriate to put online is hard. opening up to people is easy at first, but when you're told you're telling too much, it is very embarrassing. but please, please don't close yourself off completely. because what will happen is you might begin to not trust anyone with what you go through and that is what happened to me. always stay a little open because sometimes you need support from friends and family and even the internet. but learn what to say and how to say it. please don't completely close yourself off, however. that is super duper unhealthy, and situations like these may lead to that. we love you, so much.


Sophia Smith Stop stealing my profile photo


DODIE YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING. MENTAL ILLNESSES ARE OKAY. you have helped me so much. You mean so much to me babe. But I can't wait to see you in belfast. You do you boo. 💞


I'm going to give some tough love real quick:

Some people are saying you have no need to be apologetic. But in all honesty, you DO need to be sorry. What you did helped a lot of people, but also harmed many people. Most of us are young, I'm talking 13 years old. And are easily rubbed off on us. I'm not sure if you should stop talking about mental illness, because it does need to be talked about, but you seem to talk about it in the way of "Depression is cute and makes you seem creative" which is NOT IT. I love you, i really do. But we aren't a therapist. Our emotions can be hurt as much as yours can. Please understand that.

I do think she did romanticize depression quite a lot, actually. Maybe thats just me thinking that, I'm not sure.

I know what you all mean, and i do agree with aspects of your argument. All i meant was that this video is necessary. Some people are saying,"Don't be sorry" in saying the fact she didn't need to make this video, which she did. I'm very sorry for not agreeing with your opinion. I'm really not trying to start anything. I'm sorry.

I don't think she has ever said it was cute. AT ALL. Everytime she talked about it, some people said it was even a bit scary. Saying stuff like "I would never wish this on another person" and stuff about being held back constantly and being missing out on basically living is the opposite of romanticizing. Just because she wrote captions about depression on aesthetic pictures it doesn't mean the captions matched the pictures at all. They actually rarely ever even matched.

Ashlyn Kind she NEVER said that unless it was a joke. I agree she may have triggered people seeing her snaps etc but she didn't romanticize it at all at least not intentionally

i agree with what you said here, but, this is essentially what she apologized for and talked about in this video. your point is great, and i think she got it across in her video as well, which is a good thing :)

Ashlyn Kind that's a very good point and I think that's what she was trying to say in this video

Ashlyn Kind she does understand that that's exactly why she made this video. She understands that perfectly well and she has apologized and she is sorry. The people that need to understand that are the ones saying she shouldn't be sorry at all, not her.


Dodie you don't have to be sorry !!!You are a wonderful human being, that is always learning and that's normal to make mistakes !!!!Don't be too hard on yourself ! We love you so much !


Hey mom.

The last time i was this early i didnt read fanfic.


Dodie💙i think you should put up whatever you want. I want to hear everything your going through and im sure your followers will too. Dont care about what people are saying share whatever you like😊ill always support you

jess k She is a youtuber, she does decide what she posts and what she doesn't, you're right. But in this video, she explicitly states that, in order to protect her audience, she will try to keep her most damaging thoughts to herself. It wasn't healthy anymore to share during her panic attacks because, "your perception is blurred." Now, she has decided that she won't post her damaging thoughts on social media in order to protect her young, impressionable audience. Just respect her decision.

Lady Lynn she is a youtube she decides what goes up and if her followers dont want to watch stuff about depression then dont watch her at all it helps me and im sure it helps others

jess k I'm really not trying to be aggressive or anything, I just want people to actually understand the point Dodie is trying to make through this video. Your comment disregarded everything Dodie was trying to apologize for. Not crap, just facts.

Lady Lynn wow😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂how long did it take you to wrtie that crap

jess k Like Dodie said in her video, at the beginning sharing her thoughts was a healthy outlet, but the lines between what was meant to be kept personal and public blurred. She began sharing her deepest thoughts to the world instead of keeping it to herself. I'm very very proud of her for opening up, realizing her mistake, and apologizing. It's extremely honorable and sets an amazing impression. But, please, while I completely understand you just want to support her (who doesn't, she's Dodie!), encouraging this behavior is not a supportive action. It's damaging to Dodie and to her audience.

jess k and I have gone through similar things too. I just think it's counter productive to say she shouldn't apologise when she's triggered a handful or people...While it can make people feel less alone, I think it's important to seek proper support and help from people actually close to you, like a therapist, friends or family. Not put it up all online and not work through it healthily, especially because her audience can't really do much to help her. I'm really proud of her for realising this and apologising though. Takes a lot to read some of the comments people were saying .

edwardtwins i understand thats your opinion but i have gone through similar  stuff to dodie and i think we can all benefit from listening to each other

With a big audience, it just doesn't work like this...sorry. Some things should really just be kept in private or talked to with friends and family. No, her audience shouldn't have to hear everything she's going through, because as much as we believe we are close friends of her and know her inside out, we do not.


DON'T BE SORRY DODIE!

Please please please don't be sorry! These videos help me so damn much, you have no idea! If you didn't upload such "graphic" and "intense" videos, I don't think I'd be here today!

Please don't be sorry Dodie, you're an inspiration to us all💛

In saying Dodie should be sorry, <i>YOU'RE</i> speaking for everyone. There are many like myself that completely disagree and think she has nothing to apologize for.

In saying Dodie should be sorry, _YOU'RE_ speaking for everyone. There are many like myself that completely disagree and think she has nothing to apologize for.

I completely agree. Aren't there ways to allow these conversations to exist, without deleting or never posting them completely? Can't there simply be trigger warnings at the beginning, or something?

It's important for her to be sorry because she made a mistake, but she's learning from it and acknowledging it and the effect it's had on her viewers (especially the young ones) which is what matters the most.

Talking for everybody in this way isn't very true. From many comments you can see people are very hurt by her ways. She should be apologetic, honestly. I'm glad she's handling this like an adult, but she does need to be sorry. Maybe not to you, but to others.


please don't think that you can't talk to us at all. we love you dodie. please talk to us if you really need to. i. love. you.


Your friend dan?!
ME: (DANIEL HOWELL????)

Your friend dan?!
ME: (*DANIEL HOWELL????*)

I did think of howell originally but I'm pretty sure it's daniel j layton

god. leave the phandom alone for one video. this is about a serious matter not about daniel bloody howell.

Boi its Daniel J Layton . They're like close friends lol


Dodie, please don't apologise for what you have shared with the world. You are a beautiful and intelligent young woman who is struggling with something that can make anyone feel very alone and confused. It's hard to know what to do with all those feelings, and sometimes, sharing them with friends and relatives can feel a little too personal and too close for comfort.
I know that I, myself, and many people I know have posted feelings and thoughts on social media on several occasions. It's not necessarily a cry for help (and definitely not for attention, for those of you that think that way), it's like putting it out there into the abyss. Almost as if you think that letting it go so far means it won't come back. It doesn't feel like that at the time, but I think that's a deep root of it.
You may feel guilty because you have an audience. You are a musical and internet sensation. However, that doesn't mean you feel things any less than the rest of us, or that you know how to handle it. You can't lock it up inside and I totally get that.
Never feel like you need to say sorry. Never feel like you're putting a downer on anyone's day. And never EVER feel irresponsible. Fuck that. Fuck what people have said to make you feel worse. Maybe it will help you find a new route to recovery, but never let it make you feel guilty.
You are you, and you are hurting. I definitely think there are different ways to go about things, but sometimes we need an instant release. You are only human. You don't know the answer to everything. And you certainly don't know the answers to your mental health. Nobody does. Otherwise there would be no issues.
Despite how you feel inside, you still have a wonderful vibe about you that makes me feel happy whenever I hear you talk about whatever. That's something very special. I know that, to be in your presence, would be a very uplifting experience, and it's just very sad to know you don't feel as bright as you make others feel. I wish you the very best for the future. Better days are coming.
lots of love, beautiful girl. A xx

*Dodie*, please don't apologise for what you have shared with the world. You are a beautiful and intelligent young woman who is struggling with something that can make anyone feel very alone and confused. It's hard to know what to do with all those feelings, and sometimes, sharing them with friends and relatives can feel a little too personal and too close for comfort.
I know that I, myself, and many people I know have posted feelings and thoughts on social media on several occasions. It's not necessarily a cry for help (and definitely not for attention, for those of you that think that way), it's like putting it out there into the abyss. Almost as if you think that letting it go so far means it won't come back. It doesn't feel like that at the time, but I think that's a deep root of it.
You may feel guilty because you have an audience. You are a musical and internet sensation. However, that doesn't mean you feel things any less than the rest of us, or that you know how to handle it. You can't lock it up inside and I totally get that.
Never feel like you need to say sorry. Never feel like you're putting a downer on anyone's day. And never EVER feel irresponsible. Fuck that. Fuck what people have said to make you feel worse. Maybe it will help you find a new route to recovery, but never let it make you feel guilty.
You are you, and you are hurting. I definitely think there are different ways to go about things, but sometimes we need an instant release. You are only human. You don't know the answer to everything. And you certainly don't know the answers to your mental health. Nobody does. Otherwise there would be no issues.
Despite how you feel inside, you still have a wonderful vibe about you that makes me feel happy whenever I hear you talk about whatever. That's something very special. I know that, to be in your presence, would be a very uplifting experience, and it's just very sad to know you don't feel as bright as you make others feel. I wish you the very best for the future. Better days are coming.
lots of love, beautiful girl. *A* xx

Fatima .K I totally get what you mean about the lack of trigger warnings, but other than that, to be fair no one is gonna come out of it and say "the illness I have been struggling to battle relapsed because I watched Dodie's snapchat story". Her raw words helped so many people who felt like they couldn't tell anyone about whatever problem they were facing. And if her Snapchat/Instagram posts were affecting someone THAT much they could've just unfollowed...<br>Sorry if I came across as rude but I feel like this matter has been blown out of proportion, and the fact that Dodie is crying making a video repeatedly apologising breaks my heart :(

Fatima .K I totally get what you mean about the lack of trigger warnings, but other than that, to be fair no one is gonna come out of it and say "the illness I have been struggling to battle relapsed because I watched Dodie's snapchat story". Her raw words helped so many people who felt like they couldn't tell anyone about whatever problem they were facing. And if her Snapchat/Instagram posts were affecting someone THAT much they could've just unfollowed...
Sorry if I came across as rude but I feel like this matter has been blown out of proportion, and the fact that Dodie is crying making a video repeatedly apologising breaks my heart :(

but yeah, I agree that she shouldn't be blaming herself so much for it, she seems to be very guilty about it which makes me sad :(

honestly, it kind of did need to be addressed. it's more than just "putting a downer on someone's day" it's possibly making someone uncomfortable or maybe even triggering someone, especially since there usually aren't any warnings


angel. thank you so much for rethinking this.


I wanna talk to someone irl about the breakdowns and issues I've been having but I can't ;-;


You are wonderful you are not a bad person for doing this you are trying your best to work through your issues and it's hard to realise when your symptoms are present even in moments you think that you're helping. You have a responsibility to not overstate dangerous thoughts to a potentially impressionable audience but you recognise that and you are wonderful and don't be too harsh on yourself you are wonderful


thank u for this i can now enjoy ur content again yay


Don't apologise, say "thank you".

"Sorry" = associated with negative feelings ("I have done something wrong").
"Thank you" = associated with positive feelings ("You have helped me get better").

Saying "sorry" multiple times in a row makes you feel bad. Saying "thank you" mulitple times makes you feel better.
Try it out sometime. Good luck!


i don't have much to say but i don't want to watch this video and not say anything and all i can think of is that i love you so much from the bottom of my heart ♡


ALSO I LOVE YOUR T-SHIRTS WHERE CAN WE BUY IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Please do not feel bad for sharing or feel like you need to apologize to people who want to criticize you. I went through a lot and shared online because my abuser would control me thru social media, and this was me taking it back. Addiction? Release. You are allowed to do that. Unhealthy coping mechanisms? You were doing what you needed to do. Please do not feel badly or let friends make you feel like you needed to share with them and not the media. People do not need to listen if it is hurting them. Of course things need to be private sometimes, but this is your channel and yes you carry a platform but I do not want you to feel badly or be made to feel badly about sharing. You can edit your privacy settings so certain people do not see it. I have changed mine to eliminate all my family members and cousins, so it's helped. Again, not a critique of you or whoever has an opinion on how you share, but believe me, sharing is healthy. In certain settings, maybe not so much, but I hope you know you are loved and not feel shame because of this.


The apology felt real but some of the parts like " I can't do this! No I have to!" Felt very fake


I WANT TO GIVE YOU A HUG DODIE I LOVE YOU


As far as the problem of your posts triggering people or making people feel down in the dumps, you could try writing a letter about what you're feeling. You could write it to yourself in the future and seal it in an envelope with a time to read it (not a specific time of year or anything, just something like "when I'm not feeling so shit"). I know you don't get the feeling of getting it out there maybe as much in the way that no one else is seeing it, but I find it does help to physically write things out on paper instead of typing. That being said, I don't know if things you write when you're feeling very low would send you back into a spiral if you read them when you're feeling good.


dodie, this may be a stupid suggestion, but have you ever considered starting an anonymous blog? or an anonymous social media account? That way you can just spill everything you're thinking whenever you feel the need to without making boundaries. you don't even have to tell us about it, and whoever finds it will find it, and they don't know its you, so they can't tell you that 'it's too much' <br>i'm sorry if this is stupid but, you can get through this, we believe in you. and we love you x

dodie, this may be a stupid suggestion, but have you ever considered starting an anonymous blog? or an anonymous social media account? That way you can just spill everything you're thinking whenever you feel the need to without making boundaries. you don't even have to tell us about it, and whoever finds it will find it, and they don't know its you, so they can't tell you that 'it's too much'
i'm sorry if this is stupid but, you can get through this, we believe in you. and we love you x


Oh, dude...I feel bad that you feel embarrassed. I think this is a cool lesson that you got to learn, and I think you're on the right track but this is SUUUUUUCH a tiny thing, in the grand scheme of the universe. Not worth embarrassment at all. Just an "oops," at the very most. Just shake it off, regroup, and move on, reminding yourself that the internet has a VERY short term memory, and the number one thing people ACTUALLY remember you for? Your beautiful, beautiful music! I promise! (Aaaaaand Mom Mode off, because why would you take advice from a random internet stranger, anyway?)


All I wanted to do this entire video is giver her a hug


Tbh I used to really love you and ur videos but then it felt like you craved attention and sympathy and it seemed like you made it out like you were the only person in the world going through shit when every person does. It started to get annoying. But it's good that your addressing it and hopefully it will help u get better


i think you should create a secret wattpad. you can put the things youve been putting on your instagram there (thats what i do). then its nowhere near as public and people don't know its YOU but you can still get responses from strangers.


You'er making me cry :( if you cry, i cry :( i love you so much <3


I don't follow you on any social media. Only YouTube. But I can relate to everything you say. I'm not a public figure and I don't have any audience lol. But I have my friends and I'm also learning to set boundaries and to maybe not share everything about me, specially when I'm feeling down because I know I will regret it later when I'm in a different state of mind and things won't look as bad lol. But you are human you know? And I have the same urgency in me to express, to say how I feel and I overreact and sometimes I am melodramatic but fuck it. But I understand, and it is good that you make those mistakes because you learn, and I learn everyday and you are not perfect and nobody is. But I really think that is much better to be too open than too close. Yeah extremes are not good. But being vulnerable is so good and shows how brave you are. It ain't easy to be soooo open when you have a  BIG audience and I also respect that you acknowledge what you did.

You came to the right conclusion and I am so happy for that. I support you 100% 💕


write music everyday. post daily songs...the songs will be cathartic and heal the masses. :)


You are lovely and deserve to feel lovely


you need a hug, i need a hug, everyone needs a hug :)


Don't be embarrassed, people make mistakes and it's okay you've apologised and mental health itself is not embarrassing


But i find it good that you do it . If it helps you then do it. PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW ABOUT IT . If they don't like it then they don't have to watch or look at it


I'm confused. You say you're overhearing the worst and yet also glamorising it? That sounds hard to do at the same time. I feel like that's more people misusing the word glamorising. Yeah maybe creating a side blog or Snapchat for that kind of stuff might be a good idea.


YOU ARE FANTASTIC DODIE.
YOU ALL ARE FANTASTIC DODIE FANS.
I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!


Love you so much Dodie! You've helped me in many ways with my mental health to feel comfortable and not alone! We've all got each other's backs ❤


I'm so proud of you for understanding and learning, we love you so much dodie and i accept your apology. I'm so glad you have found out and are going to fix this issue even though it was painful to discuss. You're amazing Dodes <3


Thank you so much Dodie- this must've been hard for you but I'm so so so happy you've said this ❤❤


Im so proud of you for making this. U r so amazing. Remember we all struggle and thats ok. Use your music to share, write a song about how you feel.


I love you so much Dodie, i am so happy you exist. I am so proud of you for doing this. Thank you.


Awww Dodie I love you so much, you have so much integrity and grace, you're doing so well ❤


Dead Dodie, I've been on and off following you for a couple of years with recently actually subscribing to your channel.
Apart from that I've had a lot of personal struggles throughout my childhood and teenage years. I've honestly just started calming down within my so-called-grown-up-years (I really don't count that as grown-up since I'm 21 but okay).

Anyway, what I wanted to say - I'm really glad that you made a decision to differentiate what you want to share with your followers and to which extent; as well as differentiating what is a part of mental health awareness and what isn't. And in a way I'm really happy for you and proud of you. A lot of people who struggle with mental health issues find it difficult to realize what is for sharing and what isn't. Usually it consists of sharing random, personal things to people you don't really know and it tends to backfire - and once it does you feel pretty shitty about what you did. Your situation was much tougher, since you don't share things with random acquaintances, but with the internet, so your struggle was also much tougher than it usually is.
What my point here is - there is nothing to be sorry for or nothing to feel ashamed about. A lot of people follow that same pattern, yours is just more visible. And nothing about the fact that you do youtube should make you feel more guilty about sharing these things that almost everyone feels the need to share at a certain point in life. Your need is respected and valuable just as much as everyone else's, the platform you use isn't relevant.
And the last point; don't be sorry. Even if you did share things you feel aren't really to be shared with such a young audience, you made a lot of people learn about a lot of stuff. This video where you explain what the problem with oversharing is and how you're trying to find this middle line of it - it teaches people. It helps others that will find themselves in a similar situation.
It's wonderful that you found your ground to stand on and I am tremendously happy about you because of that, but don't be sorry about having your own ups and downs and don't be sorry for actively trying to figure out who you are and where you fit. That's one of the things that makes you human; it makes you a great role-model because you are real and you try to be the best possible version of yourself.
Be proud of yourself for this, not sorry.
Lots of love <3


Stay strong Dodie ❤❤❤ We are all here for you and love you so much . You are special to us so stay strong 💪 💪💪💪💪😘😘😘


For me, having you go into detail (especially when talking about depression) helps me put my feelings into words. I've never been good at explaining how I'm feeling, so having you do it for me is great. I take bits and pieces of your videos and make them my own and use those to describe to my friends how I'm feeling in that moment. I appreciate it.
However, I also understand how it hinders others, or triggers them. And my heart hurts for them.
I don't envy you the situation you're in, having to figure out what you should and shouldn't share. All I can do is let you know that I support you and appreciate you.


You are so wise and strong! Thank you for your apology, you're so brave to say sorry to such a big audience and to openly say you were wrong. I didn't personally feel overwhelmed by your posts (I only follow you on Instagram though) although I do understand how people feel it is too much and think it is an important step for you to be more aware of what your posting. This awareness will be very beneficial for YOU as well as your followers and I'm so impressed with your clear headed thoughts on oversharing. This video was so honest and pure. I admire you're bravery to be so truthful with so many people Dodie! I wish you good luck with oversharing less and the new therapist helps you tackle your feelings in this tough time. We love you. Stay strong 💛💛💛


By opening and sharing you made me realize who I really am and I'm so thankful Dodie. You don't need to feel sorry about the things you did, just move on and stay strong and do what you think you should do. Love you and I'm so thankful, because instead of staying in your comfort zone, you devote yourself to the others in order to help. God you're an angel sweetheart


I am very proud of you! ❤ Please don't feel embarrassed, everyone makes a whole lot of mistakes! You have learned and you will always be the amazing Dodie I love. The Dodie who gives me inspiration to write poetry and make videos. Keep going like this ❤


I just want you to know that I (and probably many, many of us) am super proud of you for making this video. Cutting off coping meganisms is incredibly difficult, especially one that is such a big part of your life (in this case part of your job). I personally believe that you will indeed help and support your audience better by addressing mental ilness in a more censored way, and I am sure that in the end it will benefit you too. Again, I'm super proud of you, and I hope you feel better soon! Xx


Oh sweet sweet Dodie, you are such a wonderful being. I hope with all of my heart that you will find a way to hopefully treat or at least learn to live with your mental health struggles. I can only say that you are an inspiration and that all I see when I watch your videos is a young female trying to cope and finding her path whilst also creating beautiful things. You made mistakes, sure, but everyone does and that's the way we learn and we grow, so we cannot blame you (literally no one can). It has never been clearer to me that you have such a big heart and that you are growing and learning and listening and caring and maturing. And that you are so strong, even if you may not feel that way all the time. I know I don't know you personally, but I know that I do have so much love and admiration for you. You are such a beautiful soul, Dodie. Thank you for staying true to who you are and for sharing this - we all get to learn with you and I think that that's a beautiful thing. Lots of love from The Netherlands x


dodie, i just want you to know that we all love you, i love you and i am always going to be here for you, i understand why you were doing what you were doing and I'm so proud of you for everything, and reacting to the comments very maturely, ilysm.


I love you, and you have helped me through a lot of my own mental illness related problems, so thank you.


Honestly dodie I'm so impressed how you managed to turn this around and into a learning and growing experience even though that must be incredibly hard. You're doing great.


The discussion under the last video and this second video are so great! Dodie, I don't think that you, as you said, 'messed up' , I think that you helped a lot of people, me included, by doing what you do. A lot of the things you said in this video were so smart and I'm glad that you started this oversharing discussion!


I love this and I'm so happy you're taking this mature response. I stopped watching your snapchat story a while ago, because I found it often upsetting (though also because it's so damn long and I don't have time for that) and I really think this is a great step forward. It's important to break down stigma of mental health in our society and it's important to talk about it, but like you said you don't want it to become your "brand". I think talking about it online is pretty unhealthy for you and your audience and when you said you want to treat the audience like a little sister it made me really happy 😊 thanks so much and I hope you get a good therapist!


This was such a big thing for you to do Dodie. I'm proud of you that you're able to say this and own up that you've made a few mistakes. I love you very much Dodie and you deserve to be so so happy. I look up to you and if you ever need anything, all of the Dodie fans will help you and stand by you no matter what. ❤💕


I love you a lot too dodie (sincerely). I can't wait to see what you have for us in the future and it's great to know now rather than possibly never. I hope we can all support you in this time of you discovering your boundaries and knowing where and when to share some of your experiences.


~It's ok we still love you Dodie! I feel proud of you <3~


Proud of you dodie for growing and learning from your mistakes! xx


it's ok dodie, I'm here for you, thank you for making this video ^-^


Thankyou so much for this , I've been doing this too recently and I've felt really alone about doing it and knowing that you do it has helped me to be accept that I'm imperfect and that's okay. I'm learning to control and this has really help. So thankyou ❤💕


I've always admired you because you're an excellent role model as you break the stigma of talking about mental health issues which helps a lot of people, including me, and helps you and your audience realise they're not alone. However, I'm also happy that you're now going to learn more about boundaries because when you're at your worst it's not always best to share it :) Thank you Dodie


i'm very happy you've realised this dodie - i suffer from similar issues as you and admittedly had to take a step back from your content because it was bit much to handle. i'm happy for you and happy that i can dive back into enjoying the stuff you make !! this is one of the steps to recovery and we know that you can get there ❤❤ all love and smiles !!


we love you dodie. YOU ARE LOVED. that's all you need to know.<br>❤❤❤

we love you dodie. YOU ARE LOVED. that's all you need to know.
❤❤❤


Love you Dodie 💗 <br>You have helped me so much xx

Love you Dodie 💗
You have helped me so much xx


Oh my gosh dodie. I want to tell you that you are honestly such a good person and pretty brave to be admitting your mistakes and apologising because that's really hard especially to a lot of people that have given you so much criticism. I'm honestly just wowed.


i appreciate this video dodie ❤ you are so strong but i have to admit that i often found myself avoiding your snaps and that sort of stuff. sharing feelings is a very good thing but sometimes there can be a line. im so proud of you and the person you are 💕 and that you are coming up with new ways to deal with your mental illness. love you


Dodie, I think you are so lovely and brave to have made this video. Before watching the 'am i oversharing too much' video I hadn't really thought of your videos and snapchat stories on mental health in the same way that many seem to have, I enjoyed watching them and craved watching more. They made me feel like I'm not alone, and I have a lot of admiration and respect for your for uploading all that you have, because it was and is really brave to show that vulnerable side of yourself and the journey you go through.

I also want to add that I really do understand where people are coming from when they say they found it difficult to watch your videos and snapchat stories or read your Instagram posts and I think uploading an update video like this is amazing and really shows that you genuinely love your audience and care how they feel.

I just want to say that we are all human and we all make mistakes, even if we don't know they are mistakes in the time of making them. Dodie, you are a wonderful person and I admire and appreciate you and your connect so much. And just remember that your audience loves you and will always support you 💛💛💛


a very very mature response, we're all so proud of you. it takes a lot of courage to admit to your mistakes and take the effort to try and make things right, and i'm grateful that you were able to reflect in this video without being defensive or trying to make excuses. you're doing great and we love you lots


I love you SO SO SO Much and your posts helped me a lot.  I will respect and love whatever content you put out as much as I love and respect you Dodie.


I'm super proud of you Dodie. It can be hard to acknowledge what you may have done wrong, but you did it and with such grace. You only had a heart full of good intentions and I appreciate that. I love you 💞


Dodie I love you so much you are such a beautiful soul and it is just so clear you just really care for your audience, your friends and yourself. <3


I wish I was your friend so badly just to tell you that you're great and you're making a really good choice. All the love to you dodie.


Sending love. I think you've made the right decision but have admired your openness over the years but it's good to find the line. You're a wonderful human ❤ xx


my heart goes out to you dodie - i have so much respect for you. the way you have handled yourself in this situation is so mature and wonderful. sending you so much love sweetheart xxxx


Thanks for apologizing Dodie. I love you a lot and until you video with Hazel I didn't even realize why I'd been pulling away from our videos and this was probably why. I'm super proud of you for doing this and being so mature and strong. You're awesome girl.


I just found out that I'm meeting you at sitc and I'm just so happy because I can finally...thank you. Not only for inspiring me with your gorgeous music, but for helping me with my mental health, you showed me that I'm not alone, and that its "normal" to feel this way, normal isn't the best word but I can't think of a better one right now. Of course, anxiety and depression and all that shiz fucking sucks, and nobody deserves to have to live with it, but people do, more often than not, and in a weird way, I find it almost comforting when I find someone else like me, because I feel like I can share stuff. You've gotta be careful, obviously, with what you share, but, please don't feel sorry, please don't feel bad. I understand, we all understand, and, well, I'm not very good and putting my thoughts into words, but just know that you've got heaps of support and love from me, as I'm sure you do with many other people xxx


I understand this feeling so much, writing when you're at your lowest is the best way possible to turn that feeling into something productive. You have something to show for it and in a way you feel like you've won some sort of battle against the thing that cripples you mentally. The only problem is when you share that with someone they assume that is how you feel all the time, which isn't true, but it's the only representation that they get.
Here's the thing, I don't think you 100% need to stop making these posts, I'm not saying you don't need to cut back on the amount of oversharing you do, but it doesn't need to be nil because they do help some people. Instead, it may be equally as good to make sure that the posts have appropriate trigger warnings, and that you don't post them while you're in that mood - go back later and reevaluate how true it is of mental illness.
Thank you so much for making this video because it's made me realise that I need to do a similar thing as an aspiring writer, a page and pen shouldn't be my therapy for the shittiest of my emotions.
Don't beat yourself up about this, you have helped people as well as the negative side, you're just making mistakes and learning like the rest of the fuckin world. We all love you and are here for you ❤


The fact that your apologising when you're the one who's struggling shows how thoughtful you are! You should never ever have to apologise for sharing how you feel it's so normal and I wish people were as comfortable to speak out as you are, it's so brave of you!!! But I understanding taking a step back, especially as you don't want your mental illness to become your identity, as long as you don't feel like you have to close yourself off. You've actually helped me so much by being so open and made me realise it's okay and I'm not alone, take care of yourself!!! 😊


I broke down. I don't want you to apologise for this, I'm sure everybody just wants you to be okay. I hope you're okay Dodie xx


I'm so proud of you dodie, I hadn't realised I was doing it but I had been avoiding reading your instagram captions. I don't want to do that because a lot of your content makes me really happy or gives me amazing advice for when I feel low. You are a wonderful person. I am so glad you've realised what you are doing. I think this decision will help you significantly as well as us, your audience. We love you and support you. Good luck with your new therapist x


personaly, your videos and instagram captions helped me a lot because i feel just the same as you and i feel better seeing someone understands me but on the other hand i can see why some people don't think it's good. i will always support all of your desicions as long as you do what makes you happier💛


You've handled this really maturely, and I think it's difficult to hit a balance between what to say and when to stop. Just don't beat yourself up over this!


oh my goodness dodie! its okay! stop apologising so much!yes i understand the whole thing about over sharing, and this whole video, and why you think you shouldnt be so grafic and get help from an actual therapist. yes, i understand. but dodie!!! its okay!!! im sure everyone understands (i sure do) and that this is all a learning experience. as someone who suffers from mental illness, i understand the fact of just wanting to spill your emotions to your audience, for someone to read, to relate, to understand. ive sometimes had the urge to do that on social media, but never have because i always was afraid of oversharing, or triggering others. i understand! love you dodie, take care of yourself.


I think you're so right and oh my god thank you for acknowledging that.  So many people don't know how to apologize when they've messed up a bit and feel embarrassed, and I think this is a great example for the younger people in your audience.  You've gotta remember that you're young too, you're still learning and it's okay to make mistakes.  There are far worse things you could have done to your audience.  Without you talking about mental health, I would never have realized I have depersonalization, and I never would have reached out for help.  Like you said, I think there's a healthy way of talking about this online.  All the love, and thank you xxx


Stay strong dodie you're an amazing person. The great Littke community you have will help you through this becuase you're helping us through similar problems. (I'm sorry if I didn't make any sense becuase I don't have mental illness I just love dodie and her content)  ❤❤


To me, part of what you're sharing definitely helps because sometimes, mental illnesses feel so damn lonely and what you're doing acts as a reminder that, no we're not alone, there are others who are also hurting and also healing. As well as that, when we see that you're happy, we know that for someone who has hurt so much, you're still capable of being happy which means we could have our happy days too.
On the other hand, the posts leaves me in a state where I feel lost. A little small reminder that I, too, am unwell and  a sense of helplessness to see someone who we care for yet can't physically reach out to and help them, hurt so so much.
To me, it's difficult because I know how much it fucking hurts and it's so difficult to see you go through the same.
Well done for acknowledging and addressing it so honestly, this is a positive to the conversation around YouTube and it in no ways lessen our affections for you. Please take care of yourself <3 x


Honestly if it was me (and has been) I would have denied it. I'm glad you've handled this so maturely and I'm proud of you.✌💟


I'm so so glad that you have decided on this; as i am sorry to say I had to stop watching because I am too sensitive and impressionable. I am so happy that you are doing better. You are so strong Dodie. All my wishes to you.


Hey dodie I just thought I'd like to say that your sharing online helped me aswell.... but I don't have depression, anxiety or depersonalisation. I don't know how that feels and I can't relate to you like that. But your videos and snapchats and Instagram posts showed me what life is really like for you and others in your situation. It helped me see how so many people may be feeling! Of course not everyone is the same but your sharing gave me an insight I'd never had before. This has given me the chance to better understand what it's like to have a mental illness and loose ANY stigma I had around that from before... and for that I am forever grateful to you, loads of love xxx


This is the bravest thing you could do. I've been where you are and I ended up deleting my tumblr (where I was posting) but I continued to do it on my lesser known social media accounts and that's not a good shout because it's also hard for friends to see. It's not going to be easy and you may feel more empty for a while but it is also better for YOU. do not feel bad - you have handled this well and you are allowed to make mistakes - it's what's you do after that matters. All my love xxx

PS I can't wait to give you the biggest hug at SITC


I am so glad this is where your re-evaluation is heading. Like many comments say, I think it shows that you're definitely growing and learning from this period - a growth we can all be inspired by! Thank you for taking the thoughts of the people watching you to heart and then adding your own 2 cents.

I also struggle with mental health, mainly anxiety and depression. You have been such an important part of helping me work through it! I could find comfort in your songs, texts and videos. But recently, yeah, I did have to stop reading your instagram texts and watching your snapchats. They sometimes risked making me go down a bad spiral and they definitely always made me feel so sorry that you were in such a bad place! But I want you to know that it's ok that you overshared. Like you say, when your brain is in that dark dark place, you have no judgement whatsoever and all you try to do is survive through it. Of course, that means you use whatever coping mechanisms you've got - no matter the consequences! It might not always be healthy, but it's definitely so so understandable. I want you to know that many of us don't blame you, we know that it's inexplicably hard to deal with this shit. And most of all: we hope you can find other ways to get the horrible darkness out of your system, ways that also help you in the long run. I wish you all the luck in the world with finding a good therapist! Continue to be brave and please make sure to keep your support system of friends and family close. All the best!


awwww dodie, your posts have helped me a lot though, I know a lot of people thinks it's bad, but it has helped me with my mental health, I feel less alone. But I do understand why you are stopping posting some of it. Love you dodie😊😊


I love how you weren't defensive and it speaks volumes about the kind of person you are, we know that glorification wasn't an intention of yours, but it was a result and I'm glad you recognised that and was brave enough to address this. Please don't feel too embarrassed, we all make mistakes and again the fact that you've addressed this and planned to take care of us and yourself better is a great thing xxx


We understand that we became your hand to hold. We want to be there to hold that hand. You and your channel grew because of how honest and lovely you were. You did help people and I know you will continue to do so. That is the important part. <br>Have a smooth recovery Dodie xxx

We understand that we became your hand to hold. We want to be there to hold that hand. You and your channel grew because of how honest and lovely you were. You did help people and I know you will continue to do so. That is the important part.
Have a smooth recovery Dodie xxx


To me you haven't messed up. Thank you so much for sharing because it helped me with my own scary moments. Reading your posts did for me what they were doing for you. so thank you.


Your heart was always in the right place, just appears your mind got confused in regards to boundaries which are there not just for your audience but for you. So much respect for your lack of defensive attitude in this video and your integrity is so apparent with your apology. So much support & love 💗


Dodie you're such a wonderful person and this just shows how mature you are. I had a similar situation when I was at my worst mental state when I was much younger, I had no idea how to cope so I just overshared too much with people who didn't even care about me and it just made me feel so much worse and I'll always feel embarrassed for it because when I see their faces now I think "they must be judging me, they probably haven't forgotten anything.." I know that in your case its so much more complex because of the people involved but please don't be hard on yourself for this, it's such a normal thing to screw up when you're this ill I understand you very well and I don't blame you for this.
But you're so strong to apologise out loud and I'm really happy that you're working on healthier ways to cope. You inspire me and help me a lot so much I cannot thank you enough.
Big hugs from Spain I love you.


I admire you so much Dodie and I'm so proud of you. Just try not to beat yourself up about this situation, because your brain convinced you that you were helping yourself and other people, and that played a key part in it. We still love you and are proud of you, and just want you to do what's best for you 💗


You are so brave to share this and to apologise, I love you so much really 💕


This is the way people should deal with 'drama' situations. This is why people look up to you, Dodie! You are a responsible, mature and beautiful soul xxx


This might be the most selfish comment left on this video - but I genuinely love the fact that you share so much, Dodie. I've yet to come across a Youtuber who shares so much of themselves in an honest, realist light in the entire time I've been on Youtube, and honestly, it really really helps. Watching some of the most brutally real videos on the days where my own mental health is making everything feel messy has really really helped me, especially on the days where the last thing I want to watch is someone pretending to be happy and smiley when really their head is just as bad as mine. I don't see what you share as 'oversharing', I see it as just sharing - Youtube culture has formed around this era of secrecy and lying and 'this exciting thing is happening that I can't tell you about', and it's so frustrating to watch these people just censor their entire personality and hide some of the best, most human parts of themselves. One of the reasons I've watched Dodie for so long is her honest approach to herself, and her own self awareness. Perhaps I've been exposed to mental illness for too long that nothing you could throw at us would ever be triggering or upsetting for me, but lying about it and sugar coating it really won't help anyone. <br>However - if sharing your thoughts and bad days with your audience is causing more harm than good to your own mental health, then I 100% support your move to restrict how much you share, and hope that this decision only helps to make things better for you. <3

This might be the most selfish comment left on this video - but I genuinely love the fact that you share so much, Dodie. I've yet to come across a Youtuber who shares so much of themselves in an honest, realist light in the entire time I've been on Youtube, and honestly, it really really helps. Watching some of the most brutally real videos on the days where my own mental health is making everything feel messy has really really helped me, especially on the days where the last thing I want to watch is someone pretending to be happy and smiley when really their head is just as bad as mine. I don't see what you share as 'oversharing', I see it as just sharing - Youtube culture has formed around this era of secrecy and lying and 'this exciting thing is happening that I can't tell you about', and it's so frustrating to watch these people just censor their entire personality and hide some of the best, most human parts of themselves. One of the reasons I've watched Dodie for so long is her honest approach to herself, and her own self awareness. Perhaps I've been exposed to mental illness for too long that nothing you could throw at us would ever be triggering or upsetting for me, but lying about it and sugar coating it really won't help anyone.
However - if sharing your thoughts and bad days with your audience is causing more harm than good to your own mental health, then I 100% support your move to restrict how much you share, and hope that this decision only helps to make things better for you. <3


You've learnt from your mistakes and that's okay; don't let this make you feel worse! It's okay, we're okay and you're okay :)


Thank you so much for this video. But remember that your posts are very beneficial for a lot of people (within reason). Perhaps it would be helpful to have some read your post before you post it? A second pair of eyes is always better than one! I really value how open and honest you are, although of course that can be detrimental to some people's health. There have been times where I have seen that you posted (you already know I've got those post notifications on) and have to wait until I am in a good headspace to read it. But never doubt that you have helped many people who struggle with similar things as you do. So many times I have watched your videos to overcome a depressive episode and you have done SO many good things that you shouldn't let this blip take that away. If you read this, I love you, stay strong.


Oh sweetheart, bless you. This is such a mature and introspective take on something that is very difficult to deal with. Good on you for recognising unhealthy behaviour and taking steps to correct it. And I love that you care about all of us so much.

Maybe as a bridge, if you need it, you could have a password protected blog or something? So it's still expressing these thoughts and feelings in a way that is familiar, but without exposing people to them. If you need a way to transition into relying on your phone/social media less.

And please never never feel like you are glorifying mental illness. Even by posting during your absolute worst moments, you are not doing that. And I really hate that the onus is so often on us as mentally ill people to guard against romanticising our conditions, rather than on neurotypicals. I don't know a mentally ill person out there than doesn't think it sucks arse, that wouldn't rather be healthy. Not saying that it's terrible 24/7 =/= romanticising it. I'm not glorifying mental illness just because I can recognise that anxiety benefits me in certain very specific ways that are almost always outweighed by all the negatives

Sorry, that ended up being a rant. Anyway, love you Dodie <3


@dodleodle I'm so happy that you made this video and that your ok and you understand yourself and why you post online and that you are going to do it for you ❤


Please still tell us how you feel, we don't want you to stop, just less graphic ❤❤❤


love you Dodie, take care of yourself xx


Please don't apologize! Every Instagram post, and Snapchat story about your mental illness has helped me so much. I am well messed up too, and hearing that someone else is going through similar stuff in their headspace  was so good for me! I never got the feeling that you were glorifying mental illness, so please don't apologize, it's been so helpful. Made me feel less alone and helpless. So thank you for sharing as much as you did


ah Dodie, you are honestly great. I'd love to know you in real life. Don't be sorry. You reached out for opinions, and obviously the internet is keen to give them (me included) - but don't fret over it. Personally I just was concerned for how it was affecting you, you cant beat yourself up for how other people take things - if that was the case none of us should watch the news or watch horrible films or listen to any music that isnt super happy. YOU ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE. I really hope you feel better soon xxx


dodie stop being so hard on yourself you are amazing the way you are and you are very brave to share this things with us and if anybody thinks that is too much they should fuck off and just not read the posts and watch your snapchats

Мария Йорданова


It won't solve your problems Dodie, but you should know that I love you!


❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ you're learning and growing, as all of us are xxx


I've seen myself """"coming over"""" depression I think it's kind of a pause, it's done completely done but now I know, how to deal with it, with those thoughts and feeling. Was pretty hard, but I'm proud of me when I look back. I was such a mess.
I think everyone is capable of that. I'd like to make videos about my journey but I'm still too shy. - I know it would help but i'm not ready.

I love seeing people """"coming over""" like that. You're not coming over but you noticed that you were doing something triggering for yourself. That is a big big step you've done, Dodie. Be proud of yourself.

I love you all, keep in mind that you are going to be ok.

<3 <3 <3

I've seen myself """"coming over"""" depression -I think it's kind of a pause, it's done completely done- but now I know, how to deal with it, with those thoughts and feeling. Was pretty hard, but I'm proud of me when I look back. I was such a mess.
I think everyone is capable of that. I'd like to make videos about my journey but I'm still too shy. - I know it would help but i'm not ready.

I love seeing people """"coming over""" like that. You're not coming over but you noticed that you were doing something triggering for yourself. That is a big big step you've done, Dodie. Be proud of yourself.

I love you all, keep in mind that you are going to be ok.

<3 <3 <3


dodie this is insane!! u slipped up u didnt kill a man. and you recovered from it so well. give yourself some credit


Dodie it's great that your telling the truth on the internet unlike so many people. You may be oversharring but at least your truthfully talking to us. As someone without mental illnesses I find your videos very interesting and quite emotionly up-lifting. God bless you Dodie and remember we your audience will always love you xx


I know this is simplistic but, I love u Dodie, no matter what. ❤😚


I love you dodie, mental health is never easy to go through. It's hard to realize your putting to much into someone or relying on something to much to help you. It really is healthy to talk to someone about it, but truthfully most people don't know how to deal with that and they do get closed off toward a person dealing with mental health.<br>Just know, your audience adores you and will stand behind you, but this is healthy choice you are making. Can't wait for VEDA!!! 💛💛💛

I love you dodie, mental health is never easy to go through. It's hard to realize your putting to much into someone or relying on something to much to help you. It really is healthy to talk to someone about it, but truthfully most people don't know how to deal with that and they do get closed off toward a person dealing with mental health.
Just know, your audience adores you and will stand behind you, but this is healthy choice you are making. Can't wait for VEDA!!! 💛💛💛


I'm proud of you Dodie, it sounds weird because I don't know you personally but I am. It's hard for people to realise their mistakes and even harder to share that. Being able to switch between over sharing and sharing just enough is a big leap and amazing thing to do, I think that's why I'm proud💕


I have SO much respect for your response to this, most people would have probably been defensive about this but you were so open and engaged in such an important discussion even when it puts you in a bad place, you are unbelievably strong for this. This is the best response you could have had, thank you for being so lovely! <3


I've been online for so long I forgot what genuine apologies look like. They're not a quick, defensive, "I'm sorry YOU got all offended" followed by an explanation of why it wasn't REALLY their fault. It's about calming down, understanding that what you did was wrong and trying to explain why it happened, what you learned, and most importantly saying "I'm sorry I messed up". I mean, I don't think Dodie was glorifying it, however, I have been triggered myself by some of the really dark, frightening stuff she said. She's done a good thing by making this video.

Also, when it comes to anxiety, I find it best to talk about it aloud to myself, and instead of wallowing in how scared I am and how paralysed I feel, I prefer to go back into my head and hide there while I analyse and consider the reasons and possible solutions/things I can do to help. Separating myself from the fear and bad thoughts really seems to help.

I've been online for so long I forgot what genuine apologies look like. They're not a quick, defensive, "I'm sorry YOU got all offended" followed by an explanation of why it wasn't REALLY their fault. It's about calming down, understanding that what you did was wrong and trying to explain why it happened, what you learned, and most importantly saying "I'm sorry *I* messed up". I mean, I don't think Dodie was glorifying it, however, I have been triggered myself by some of the really dark, frightening stuff she said. She's done a good thing by making this video.

Also, when it comes to anxiety, I find it best to talk about it aloud to myself, and instead of wallowing in how scared I am and how paralysed I feel, I prefer to go back into my head and hide there while I analyse and consider the reasons and possible solutions/things I can do to help. Separating myself from the fear and bad thoughts really seems to help.


Dodie you are amazing and have helped so many people by sharing. It hadn't even crossed my mind that what you could be doing wasn't beneficial to everyone. You shouldn't at all be embarrassed or sad, especially with the amount of people you have helped. No one is born knowing how much or little sharing is perfect and I think it's amazing that you care so much about your audience to consider this. Your posts have always helped me and made me feel less alone. Please don't be hard on yourself, you don't deserve to feel unhappy 💕


I'm glad your finding a line about sharing. Please don't feel bad for sharing because most of your fans take it on as part of you but if you feel like you need to step back and stop sharing so much that's okay. Love you dodie. 😘


Dodie MATE, I'm so glad you made this video. I didn't even realise that you may have been spilling too much feelings but we grow, we change and we learn and we make mistakes as a result of that. I'm glad that talking about your feelings to your audience has helped you in the past and I'm glad that you're also finding better ways to deal with it too. Mental health is fucking scary, it's complex and most people don't really know how to deal with it properly, you have nothing to be sorry about. We love and respect you so much❤


I understand. I really fucking do. I read your posts and sometimes they make me cry because I've been in that exact situation, I've felt that way, and I know how much it fucking hurts. I am so glad you have such amazing friends and an amazing space on youtube and instagram where you can share your feelings and people understand you and can bring you up with nice comments. I feel like you're actually my friend when watching your videos. Sorry if this comment is messy I know you read through these sometimes and I hope you read this one I love you so much hopefully soon I'll send you a proper physical letter that you can read. You are such a strong person and if there was one person I would want to have a cup of tea with before I die, it would be you. x


Ohhhh dodie we love u so much don't get sad life is all about growing and learning from mistakes. I'm glad you had this discussion with us because I've been scared to say for a when my true feelings of u over sharing and I didn't want to not watch you anymore because your a lovely creative person but it was getting a tad too much as I see with other people. Doesn't mean you can't share your journey in a postie way just don't make ur brand mental health because you are dodie you aren't just depression and depersonalisation that is is something your dealing with- not what makes you, you. What makes you is your a lovely caring person with a big heart, you have outstanding musical and writing talents and your such a creative soul, don't let your mental health defeat that! Glad to see you making an active effort with over sharing it will be good for us all and I'm looking forward to following you along with videos knowing that they won't make me sad but instead will leave me feeling positive!


i'm currently on a social media break (from twitter, ig, snapchat)... just like you described, i've been very unstable and used social media as an outlet. when i would rant about my mental illness and nobody would reply, it made me feel even worse. i decided yesterday that because nobody was reaching out, there was no point in clogging people's timelines with my posts. i also use art like poetry and painting to get out my emotions, but sometimes i have writer's block or paintings don't turn out how i like them.. and it makes me feel worse that i don't feel good at the things i'm normally good at. hopefully this break from social media helps me out, and if anyone else has any tips and tricks for dealing with things like depression, anxiety, or depersonalization, let me know!


Don't be embarrassed - that's one thing you should never feel about your mental health - becuase of it, you've understood yourself, your audience, and how to manage the boundaries between these two things. Love u lots Dodie xxx keep hopeful xx


dodie !! please don't feel bad about this, don't be embarrassed ! i love that you share how you feel, but i understand that it has been too much. you don't need to hide everything from us, but you don't need to feel obliged to share everything either.


I do like to read those Instagram posts because it does help me come to terms sometimes with how I'm feeling as you almost put it into words for me, however sometimes it can trigger those feelings when I'm not expecting it. So first of all thank you for helping me realise how I was feeling because I was a confused shitty mess a lot of the time but yes it did get to the point of triggering it but that's not your fault at all so don't feel so bad about it, I understand how difficult it is to keep it to yourself because you want to share and to tell people to make them see that it's real not fake and that you're hurting. But it can be so unhealthy as you now know. I hope the new therapist works out for you and that you feel better and that things get better for you because you deserve so much better 💛


I'm so relieved I'm so so relieved but also so sad to see you sad about this. i just want to give you a massive massive hug, I'm glad i can now keep up with you again!! love you!!


Hi Dodie, I follow you because of who you are and mental health problems are all wrapped up in one package along with bad times there are also good times. Your music uplifts me, your voice soothing. So never apologise we all love you THE WHOLE PACKAGE. Find whatever medium is perfect for you and never bottle things up. I noticed that someone said Vent is good, I am going to check it out.


Doodie you are a soft cinammon roll that must be protected!!!! I know that when you are mentally unstable it's tough to work and all that stuff but if you need to take some time that's okay! You deserve to be happy😆.


Please don't be sad Dodie, I hope things get better for you. You don't have to be embarrassed for sharing your feelings online, we (your fans) should be embarrassed for shaming you for it. I love you Dodie, and please don't give up hope.


We love you no matter what, this whole thing wasn't a mistake if you learn from it-which you have xx


I'm gonna go to costa for a smoothie, love you dodie xx


The last bit almost made me cry you're so kind


I absolutely understand that you've done something wrong (obviously), but I also absolutely understand why you've done it.


dodie
i just want to hug you and tell you its okay
i agree that what youve done may not have been the best, but please dont beat yourself up about it, everyone makes mistakes, please dont feel like this is a disaster or that youve done something unforgivable
youre okay, hun, we all have bad days and hard times and we all complain and rant about it
i never stopped watching your videos or reading your ig posts because of that
still love you <3


I don't think anyone else would have apologised like this so that's really nice of you dodie


i love u so much and im proud of you !!!!!! 💙


Its alright dodie, everyone goes through a phase where hope is no longer a word that you can hold onto. I am going to through it right now due to the demise of someone I really really cared about. I know it is really difficult but gotta pull through for her soul to rest in peace. I don't wanna cling to her memories so that she is somehow troubled. May god be with everyone. Amen and take care dodie.


I loved your little oversharing because I found it relatable. I shouldn't be something to help me more then it is to help you but I felt less alone too. But if you feel it is the best for you to be healthy then it is fine.


My friends recently added to our discord channel to have a group therapy chat. We can say if we want comments or help or if we want no one to comment on what we say. This way we can vent if we want and it to just be known, or we can ask for help. It's lovely.


I used to share way too much personal issues/feelings on twitter instead of going to friends. It was graphic and I was way too honest about how I was feeling. I'm not saying I completely understand or that we're going through the same thing at all. I just know what it's like to turn to social media and let out more than you should and more than what's healthy.

I love you and I wish all the love and happiness possible to surround you and embrace you.
See you in October Dodie, I love you 💛


You shouldn't have to explain yourself dodie. This is your channel and it's your Instagram and your snapchat and you choose what to put out there. If someone doesn't want to read about this then they should just unfollow, but those who do get something out of these posts will always remain loyal and supportive. We love you dodie! ❤❤❤❤❤


I just wanted to say that it's not completely your fault at all. Social media and Youtube haven't been around for very long and no one knows what the rules are yet, we're just finding our way through it all, as we go. This is such a new field, untouched by sociologists, philosophers, psychologists, people with expert knowledge who can give us insights that can help us navigate our way through it all. <br>Best of luck with everything Dodie! All my love <3

I just wanted to say that it's not completely your fault at all. Social media and Youtube haven't been around for very long and no one knows what the rules are yet, we're just finding our way through it all, as we go. This is such a new field, untouched by sociologists, philosophers, psychologists, people with expert knowledge who can give us insights that can help us navigate our way through it all.
Best of luck with everything Dodie! All my love <3


You are wonderful... please stop feeling ashamed about sharing yourself with the world.. im pretty sure that it helped a lot of people...


we love u so much u are so strong dods. thank u💘


dodie makes me feel so much better about myself, I did the same with posting stuff online that maybe I shouldn't and people were mostly responding quite negatively to it as they just thought I was looking for attention which was horrible because I couldn't really talk about it one to one but posting it seemed to help. I'm more careful now with what I post but it's not such a terrible thing if it makes you feel okay


Please don't apologize for that. It gives you a sense of reality. There's nothing wrong with realizing you did something wrong but don't hold yourself accountable. You are a lovely, sweet girl no matter what you tell yourself.

So many people love you sweetie. I hope that you can start feeling better again. It's a rollercoaster 💛 but you can do it, I promise you! 🐇🌱


You HAVE been helping people. You've helped me so damn much. Don't apologize to the assholes who are giving you a hard time. You're not glorifying mental illenss. Don't put a filter on your feelings because other people are uncomfortable with metal illness. They're just perpetuating the stigma behind sharing your feelings and it makes people want to keep issues to themselves, which just bottles it up and applies mental pressure until you pop. Fuck those assholes who made you feel bad for doing something that helps you feel less alone. It's YOUR channel, NOT theirs, and you can talk about whatever you damn well want to. If they take issue with that, they can just stick to your main channel. This one is for vlogs, for personal thoughts. It's for you to say how you've been feeling. Don't be shamed into filtering  your soul.


I think I speak for everyone here when I say all I want right now is to wrap you in a blanket and hold you <3


Im glad you spoke about this because it was coming to the point where i was convinced you were just romantisicing mental health and being edgy. This helps me, but rather than writing why don't you type it on your laptop? It's much less time consuming, and usually where typing is much faster you can just vent all in one go. You don't need to post it anywhere, maybe just keep a file of your vents, or print them and stick them on your wall so when your in a better mental state and you see them you can just think 'what the hell was I thinking?', and you'll feel so much better (idk tho it helps me)


Tbh we love you, and is really hard to.understand you, since im not a celebrity, but I do know the pain and the struggling. Drink green tea, get a dog, or a cat, or something, It helps so much to be responsible for someone else's life. My dog changed me, I'm still depressed, but I go out, I walk, I have a shedule, and even manage to study and get into the uni I wanted. Because you see the simplicity of life, our natural instincts, and meet new people, everything builds up. Idk, you can even adopt an animal so people can rescue it and then give it to someone.

Also getting into philosophy, and especially stoicism is the best.

Love you dearly

An 19 years old depressed, anxious, secretly an extrovert, Chilean girl.
💛💙💜💛💙💜💛💙💜💛💙💜


YES SO MANY UPLOADS SO QUICKLY IM FALLING INTO A VORTEX OF LA LA LAND AND DODIE YELLOW 💛


I hope those people who pointed out your flaws feel horrible, We love you dodie😘


I get what you mean completely because I do the same thing . I think the problem with over sharing is that a lot of people get triggered by talking about it and because there aren't any trigger warnings its hard for people to know what to watch/look at / read. We all care about you and we want to know if youre ok and knowing that you aren't makes us sad? I'm not saying close off completely I'm just saying when youre feeling down you have so many friends you can reach out to. We all love you .


You're such a considerate and kind person. Don't dwell on past decisions, it's all part of learning. And you listened to those around you and looked at yourself - and that's not someone everyone can manage (healthily) while also dealing with their own feelings and own pointy fingers of self-deprecation. I wish you all the best and I do think that's what you'll get, because you're good, you seem inherently good. And the universe can't be that fucked up that it would ignore that. "Here's to the hearts that ache, here's to the mess we make" - stay strong, you're beautiful.


Your previous video was very disappointing to me to be honest and i agreed with the general negative response to your attitudes in it as well as your online posting habits. however this is very mature and responsible of you and i highly respect you for it. It shows a lot about your character, please do not beat yourself up about it you are a good and brave person. you are loved dearly x


I think my heart broke a bit, don't be sorry for trying to get healthier. However if you think that you need to take a step back. Then we are all with you! Love ya.


i'm so proud of you dodie and understand that taking a step back is what's good and healthy for you, but honestly i still respected you even when you talked so graphically about your mi because no one else online did. no one 'normalised' it as much as you, which really helped me to come to terms with my own problems and not feel as if i had to be ashamed of them because all the people i looked up to online hid them away. so now it's good that you're taking a step back to stop the unhealthy behaviour and turning instead to your friends which should be really beneficial, but know that you don't need to be ashamed of how you acted, because you did help people.


I started crying when Dodie broke down. :(


Dont be fucking sorry for  doing what makes you feel stable Dodie, youve helped people and drawn them away,. Focus on the people youve helped!!


I made that mistake before. I usually rant in my notes and delete it after I feel better. It makes me feel better


It's really weird but I did what you discriped, I stepped back because of these posts but I never realised like, conscious? I didn't watch the oversharing video and I guess because of that as well. And I feel sorry for it.<br>You are so strong and I love you so much. Even if you have these problems you are on the right track (seeking help, living life to the fullest nontheless) and I often thing of your 'letter to the future'(?) when you were unsure about the future and think 'past Dodie would be so happy to know how great her life will be' - of course I just know what I see and not your whole life but.. yeah. youllmaybenotreadthisbutiloveyou

It's really weird but I did what you discriped, I stepped back because of these posts but I never realised like, conscious? I didn't watch the oversharing video and I guess because of that as well. And I feel sorry for it.
You are so strong and I love you so much. Even if you have these problems you are on the right track (seeking help, living life to the fullest nontheless) and I often thing of your 'letter to the future'(?) when you were unsure about the future and think 'past Dodie would be so happy to know how great her life will be' - of course I just know what I see and not your whole life but.. yeah. youllmaybenotreadthisbutiloveyou


you dont have to be embarrassed, talking about mental health is important- but try to pour out to your friends instead of the audience as you dont know who will see it. I hope that you will find your happiness and peace, best wishes and sending you lots of love and support xxx


The deepest of the dark should be heard and should have light brought to it . Just maybe put a trigger warning ⚠ there's no use in censoring something that many people don't understand because if it is hidden they will never understand


Thank you I can tell you how much I love you and really appreciate what you do. So thank you .. so much


i want to hug you so much and youre so brave xx


I know this might to be helpful but, I love when you post something about you mentally State. it helps me but hear what you say, honestly i now see i have a addiction. when I'm down I go searching for people that are down. then that leads to my unhealthy thoughts but, I can't not look at that stuff because I rely on it witch is not healthy again but I can't talk to anyone so that why


You are 100% an awesome human being and should for sure not feel embarrassed about making a mistake. 1) people build wisdom on making their own mistakes and watching others mistakes so now you have learnt something valuable. (Geek time: learned behaviour and attitudes, Social Learning Theory, Albert Bandura, 1963 or something) 2) you're only bloody 22 😂 I'm 21, almost 22 and have recently graduated. I was looking at all these adults who seem to have everything together and was asking myself 'why am I not like that'. It's because I have barely even begun to adult yet. Same with you. There is so much pressure for us to get things right all the time but to get things right sometimes we need to make a mistake first. 3) social media and specifically YouTube is a new platform and our generation don't really have anyone to learn from on 'how to use it'. There's no Dummy handbook on it. We are therefore going to be making more mistakes because we are learning first hand.

Never forget you are worth it. Never forget that you are loved.
You have done an amazing thing in listening to your friends and acting on it thoughtfully which is an incredible skill not everyone has.