I'm incredibly concerned and apprehensive about this book of yours coming out. And I would like to explain to you why.
You seem like a genuinely lovely, troubled person. You're twenty two, so of course you don't have this all figured out yet. Of course you don't see every twist and turn that is your own brain space. I'm two years younger than you, and I've been dealing with depression for six years and I'm still figuring out how to talk about it and how to manuever myself over the little potholes and the canyons that exist in my brain. It's so okay to make mistakes and to flip flop and to have to start over, especially when it comes to mental health because there is no linear equation that directs us to the solid answer of how to be happy. The major difference between me and you, Ms. Dodie Clark, is, obviously, that you have a massive impressionable audience watching your every move, and I most certainly do not. So when you make mistakes, like unintentionally publishing your diary on social media,  or like borderline romanticizing mental illness, or writing cryptic depressing/triggering tweets, it's amplified. And as someone who has maybe 2 1/2 people that read my twitter feed and like my Instagram posts, I'm trying to understand the fact that we're on the same playing field, we're fighting for the same cause (that is, to open up the conversation of mental illness) just got millions of more eyes watching her as she bats, and sometimes misses. Good for her, by the way! That's wonderful! Usually.

But when you announced you're coming out with a book that deals with dealing with mental illness, even when you're under-qualified to give any advice that isn't "seek help" without really actively finding help yourself, I have to draw the line of my understanding. Ms.Clark, I genuinely want to know...What gives you the right to write a book about mental health? That sounds bitchy, but that's not my intention. I genuinely want to know. Because to me there's a difference between writing about your own mental health journey, possibly in a broader autobiography book like other Youtuber's write, one that deals with other subjects, and writing a book that is based on the topic of mental illness. I hold the opinion that if you're not studied and educated with knowledge on how to identify mental illness, and how to actually treat it other than saying "take it easy, go seek professional help" you don't have a right to tell people how to rectify their varying mental illnesses. Because if you're not a professional, if you're not licensed and yet you're giving out advice, you're walking a fine line of doing more harm than doing good to these young viewers of yours.

Especially when you're a young woman, still trying to figure it all out herself, who has proved publicly that you're not taking the best precautions to try and help yourself get better. (By this I mean...Being on medication for one month, drinking and partying in that month according to her snapchat, and then writing off the medication completely, even though most people have to go through several trial and error stages before they find a medication and a dosage that works best for them. That is according to literally every doctor I've spoken to and every other person who has been on some sort of depression/anxiety medication for some time). Not saying that you should keep being on medication. That's totally your choice, and your body. But the way you talked about it almost vilified medication entirely because how you apparently "lost feeling" and immediately got it back when you stopped taking it. (Did you get a doctor's approval to do that, to stop taking it? I genuinely hope so...)
I'm concerned about what you could possibly find to write in your book "Secrets for the mad" that isn't either romanticizing mental illness, or providing skewed advice to young viewers.
I wish you would explain and hold yourself accountable more. It's strange to me that your audience coddles you like you're an immature teenager when in fact you are a young woman doing incredibly well for yourself. And you should be treated like one, both in the best ways, and the not so great ways. In the massive waves of adoration there's got to be at least a few criticizers to keep these public faces in check.  (Only if criticism is, you know, constructive, and not asshats being asshats).
Sorry this is so long. I had a lot of thoughts. I hope this came off respectful because that's how I intended it to be. I appreciate the video's public apology. But the book was written before this public revelation and that I think is what's concerning me the most.


dodie we forgive you!!! it happens, and we out of anyone can understand that. it's all good buddio


Could you set up a private insta or Twitter so that if you do feel the need to pour your heart out to your phone (because it's near or you just prefer it) nobody but you can see it? Seems like a fair compromise

Edited to add: love you too, Dodie ❤


dodie-

i have so so much to say, and i don't know that you'll see it, but thank you. thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. i've struggled with depression for??? probably almost 10 years now (i'm about to be 22) and these past few months have been extremely hard. but in a lot of ways, they haven't. i have gotten up every day and been able to watch a video of yours in which you have opened up and been raw in ways that i can only dream of being. you have tweeted, snapped. and instagramed some really tough things. and most days, i've woken up feeling terrible, and alone, and absolutely nonsensical, for lack of a better word. i've felt like my emotions don't make sense and my thought processes are ridiculous and my existence is a big neon sign saying "WTF". but your sharing has been extremely helpful for me. most days, i've woken up with this giant hole in my heart, but a lot of your content recently has made me feel almost like someone's sitting in that hole with me.

and i know that just because i've benefitted from your content doesn't mean it's been beneficial for other viewers or most importantly yourself. but i just want to gently and kindly remind you that you are Doing Good™. i doubt i'm the only viewer who's felt this way the past few months. you have made a positive impact, dodie. i am so grateful for you and your content. you've been raw and honest in a way that very few people are, and it isn't at all sustainable, but you've tried and it's something that i, personally, have appreciated, deeply. so thank you. x


i love you so much dodie. and its ok. your going to be ok. we are all going to be ok. <3


I love you a lot Dodie.

You help me a lot..I'm getting better?
I can't tell and I'm in an unstable place right now but things have been way worse.

I guess things do get better..?😊

Ahhhh


do what you gotta do to feel better. fuck what people might think of it. we're with you <3


Dodie thanks for being so real and honest♡ love you


Do you have a hospital bracelet-thing on your arm?<br>Also, I'm glad that you are keeping track of what's good for you and what's not. I had to step back for a bit, too. I can't stress about those problems and that I know you aren't okay, and some people have screwed perception, so I felt I was getting into some things that I shouldn't know.

Do you have a hospital bracelet-thing on your arm?
Also, I'm glad that you are keeping track of what's good for you and what's not. I had to step back for a bit, too. I can't stress about those problems and that I know you aren't okay, and some people have screwed perception, so I felt I was getting into some things that I shouldn't know.

WhoCares IDo it looks like an amusement park band not a hospital one. Usually hospitals are more bulky and plastic and shiny but I couldn't be sure.


dodie needs accounts for when she is feeling bad so that people who were helped, still get those posts.<br>Edit: Mm. Interesting thoughts 6 month ago me. I'm just so proud of her for everything. She's grown so much and I think she's found a good balance now.

dodie needs accounts for when she is feeling bad so that people who were helped, still get those posts.
Edit: Mm. Interesting thoughts 6 month ago me. I'm just so proud of her for everything. She's grown so much and I think she's found a good balance now.


There will be a day when you can say you're okay and mean it ❤❤❤


there is a really good app called vent, which helps if you want to write down your feelings that others can read, whilst being completely anonymous at the same time. the community is really supportive and it helps if you don't want people who know you to respond to how you are feeling.


Dodie I love you soooo much.  Every subscriber loves you for you.  We love you for your good parts and bad parts. Don't worry, we all love you. I personally didn't understand what I was  feeling until I came across your channel. I feel similar to you now and before I found your channel. but you and your post helped me feel better and helped me understand more about me and other people. don't blame yourself you have done more good than bad. so don't be sorry

sincerely,
One of your subscribers


Thank you so much I don't even know how to say how much this video means. Love you 💕💕💕


I just wanted to say that honestly for me the videos or posts, weren't too graphic or didn't get to me in a negative way. It was nice for a change to see someone sharing their thoughts on their mental state, rather than keeping all of it to themselves. However I can see where people are coming from, and that many people found those posts "toxic" in a way... Dodie maybe you shouldn't go too intensely into everything, however I think if you share your improvements or where you're at from time to time, it won't be too much for those who found the posts triggering, and it will be nice for people who need to know that they are not alone.


I have to admit I have distanced myself from you recently because of how triggering your posts have been but I know it comes from a place of love and your honesty is truly inspiring so please don't feel like you should stop. Maybe just filter a little bit? ❤


You didn't mess up my friend - its all good in the hood. I can understand why you might feel a bit bad but that's silly and then that just creates a big ol' vicious circle of people feeling bad. It's all cool dude


3:05 "I'm embarrassed that I messed up so much". Kiddo! You made a minor mistake. That definitely does not count as "messing up so much". It's nothing dramatic. We know you plan on changing your behavior.

I really hope you feel better & heal. Take good care of yourself <3

Dodie, sorry if you read that (I don't know how much of the comments you read.  Maybe I'm just arrogant, lol).  I'm so happy for you moving forward, and I pray that you'll reach a better place eventually.  Mental illness absolutely sucks, but hopefully this change will help.

-influences Dodie.  She admitted how the gratification was becoming unhealthy.  For a couple months, this cycle was leading to a worse state for Dodie.  In a bad place, a couple months can feel like a lifetime.

I really hate to say this knowing how uncomfortable or guilty this might make Dodie feel if she reads this, but this mistake isn't as minor as it might be to a normal person.  As a person with an audience, Dodie is being viewed under a microscope.  But that audience is also very young and impressionable, never really taking what Dodie says with a grain of salt.

When I was only a year or two younger and I first found Dodie, I absolutely adored her and everything she made.  I loved how real her videos were.  I lapped up everything that she posted.  If I had been at that phase of absolute adoration when her oversharing really picked up, I know I would have let that affect me.

Dodie has a way with words.  It was so easy to relate to her songs in a way that made me take on that emotion.  That isn't a big deal.  But on instagram, it could make her mental illness appear like something poetic instead of awful.

I hate to think how her audience might have been affected, but the mistake also


Good for you sister.....this is good growth ....


dodie,

i know you probably won't read this but we all appreciate your apology and i am glad that you recognized that even if sharing your bad thoughts online made you feel better in the moment but in the long run it isn't a great coping mechanism. it is so much better to talk to someone you know and in real life than to pour your feelings out online. you don't have to feel embarrassed, everyone makes mistakes. and i know from time to time it sucks, believe me i know, but when you are feeling down or you aren't in a very good mental state, then talk to a friend or a therapist or write it down and then possibly treat yourself to something; a bath, some chocolate or whatever. i'm not very good at giving advice but i hope this helps somebody, even if it's one person because dodie probably won't read this. we love you dodie, stay strong <3


If holding yourself back isn't so efficient I think putting trigger warnings on your videos and such would help a lot :)


It's ok for you to share your emotions. I love that you do that, but I think sometimes you go a little too far though. I'm not mad. 💛


I couldn't possibly understand what it must be like. To you. To those around you. Just know we are so proud of you, and your latest Instagram posts have been so lovely and refreshing, it's wonderful to know that you're in a better place. Sometimes it takes somebody one loves to shake you by the shoulders and yell at you to make you realize that there's always a better path, and I'm so happy somebody did this for you. You're an inspiration and I hope that you and your silly little captions will become truly happier and happier. Bless you <3


I have never thought of you as "glorifying mental illness". I have PTSD, Chronic Anxiety, Depression, and Depersonalization as well. I think you have so much unsung strength sharing all that you do. Your audience loves how open you are. Sometimes you have really dark moments, sometimes you have grey moments, and sometimes you have beautifully bright times; just as everyone else does. I see how much your friends and loved ones care about you but I do think that them telling you that your recent posts and activity being wrong is not right and it isn't fair to you.

Everyone has the choice whether or not to read tweets, posts, or watch videos that you may post that are dark and raw. That is part of why so many people love you. You, Dodie, are strong enough to filter out these periods of life like seasons. You know that you will always be learning, you know you have mental illness, you're conscious of those around you and your audience. I'm just worried you care more about what outsiders think or feel rather than what Dodie thinks and feels.

I say if you want to make a post releasing bottled up emotion and thoughts then do it. You can't win them all, however you can't lose them all either.

Love you- let that spark flourish.

And when I say that I am NOT saying that your friends are being negative. I am just trying to express that I see that their opinions matter ALOT to you and it affects you when they think you are doing something wrong when you are not.


you just could put all my feelings and thoughts out with words and made me feel less alone. I think that's why I liked them mostly. some made me scared for the future to be honest. But i'm gonna miss them.


I went to my first therapy session today. Big steps

Savvy ? Congrats!!!!! Wooooh PARTY 😀🎉🎂🎉🎂🎉🎂🎉🎂🎉🎂🎉🎂

Congrats! You're on the good way! Good luck <3

so so so proud of you. its a really big step

Savvy ? That's awesome. what a great step. hope you found it ok. it can be a bit weird at first. stick with it. :)

It's so important to take that step. I'm so proud of you

the first one's always quite scary, well done !

Yo! High five, boi! I went to my first one yesterday too! <br>Congrats and yis I am also proud of u XD

Yo! High five, boi! I went to my first one yesterday too!
Congrats and yis I am also proud of u XD

Savvy ? I dont even know u but im proud!!!

Good job 😊 hope you feel better about stuff soon

Savvy ? Ommmgggg. That's so cool.
Your so lucky and courageous and stuff and thing.
I'm very proud. Nice!


I've never actually seen you cry dodie. You've probably made many videos like this one but I've leaned away from them. I love you so very dearly and you are the closest to my heart. It absolutely shatters me to know you are feeling this way and you are going through states like this without any supervision etc. I do not believe you should stop posting videos on snapchat about your mental help because the very reason that by you sharing those types of videos, you are helping many people. People like me. I cannot stop nor can I persuade you to keep pursuing these videos, but I can let you know that the content like this is helping people like me and other people in the comments thrive. If people are saying that the impact of your videos on snapchat, Instagram, and YouTube are too strong maybe add a filter on them but I will forever encourage you too pursuer these videos xxx

i got off topic a bunch but you get the picture


Hey so I know this is off topic but does anyone know where to find the sunflower shirt Dodie's wearing? I'm crazy in love with it 💛


thank you, this was incredibly mature of you to admit that you messed up.


I've found all your snapchats and instagrams helpful tbh because it makes me feel less alone and shit but I guess I can see how for some people may be triggering


You might like an app called vent! You can be completely anonymous and write out all your feelings and it really helps me let things go.

Yeah, I just started using TalkLife instead of ranting on Tumblr (which was NOT good for me) and I can already see that it's so much better than what I used to do

ObsessiveSongstress also my username on there is lovetooeasily if anyone wants to talk

ObsessiveSongstress omg yes I absolutely love vent and I use it all the time when I'm at my lowest.

ObsessiveSongstress Talklife is also a really good app too!! It has a similar concept as vent

i love vent so freaking much!!!!! can i drop my username? i love talking to people and making them feel better- ( Limyl )

I love the idea of apps like that but I've found the vast majority of the people on there to be very young and dealing with the typical issues young teenagers have. It's not really a place for the more complex emotions and thoughts that come with real mental illness.

ive used vent on and off, it doesnt work for me - but it is still a wonderful app and I would deffo recommend it to dodie!

ObsessiveSongstress Hey thanks for the tip! Gotta download it asap.

ObsessiveSongstress Vent is really good for me and a lot of my friends who use it.

ObsessiveSongstress I've just downloaded it, intrigued to see if it helps

ObsessiveSongstress TalkLife is good too. It helped me through so much.

I agree, joining Vent was one of  the best decisions I've made


Just a simple suggestion for people who want to, I quite enjoy making poems or general saying everything your thinking as your in tears in bed. I like to use a completely different notebook which I hide when I'm feeling fine and only read when I'm felling bad 😂😂


hi dodie, there is a new app in the making it is called "replika a. i." and it is an artificial intelligence that you can tell everything to and she responds. my friend uses it and he really loves it. the a i learns from everything you say and you basically make it grow the way it fits your needs. <br>i love you, dodie, you are so great.

hi dodie, there is a new app in the making it is called "replika a. i." and it is an artificial intelligence that you can tell everything to and she responds. my friend uses it and he really loves it. the a i learns from everything you say and you basically make it grow the way it fits your needs.
i love you, dodie, you are so great.


I love you dodie you are so pure and lovely please don't feel embarrassed too long because we all forgive you everyone makes mistakes and especially when they are not in their correct head space


oh dodie its okay you dont have to be sorry, sure some people werent comfortable with you "oversharing" and obvs you arent completely fine with it either but youre growing and learning and we love you a lot too and its okay <3


I was quite surprised to not really see any similar responses in the comments  so let me be one of the few to say I am actually grateful for your "over sharing"! As someone who has a brain that sometimes does things I just don't understand I found your posts relatable and human. You helped me to know that I'm not alone for feeling this way and helped me to reach out and get help. I appreciated that you posted some of your dark thoughts that other people may not deem appropriate to be shared. To me it wasn't triggering but constructive as it simultaneously comforted me to know that I'm not crazy for feeling this way (or rather sometimes not feeling any kind of way for a while) while also reminding me that just accepting or ignoring it is no way to spend my life. So THANK YOU DODIE! Do whatever you feel is healthy and right for you but please don't feel as though those posts didn't help anyone!


You're human doodie. We all make mistakes. Don't be hard on yourself. In fact, be proud of yourself that you are now seeing it from the other side. You are still a shinning example for tons of young people and allowing yourself to be transparent through your growth is a beautiful thing to watch ♥


I couldn't love you more even if I tried 💛


i'm so so proud of you dodie!! a coping mechanism is okay to have but obviously not if it hurts you or others. i love you so much. i always loved your instagram posts because they made me feel less alone in my depression and anxiety and it made the fight easier because someone i looked up to was mentally ill. <br>look after YOURself! 💓

i'm so so proud of you dodie!! a coping mechanism is okay to have but obviously not if it hurts you or others. i love you so much. i always loved your instagram posts because they made me feel less alone in my depression and anxiety and it made the fight easier because someone i looked up to was mentally ill.
look after YOURself! 💓


I do this constantly. I can't tell if it's me desperately wanting someone to reach out to me and help me feel less alone, or if it's just me being emotional as fuck and spur of the moment writing things on twitter etc and then straight away after I regret it and wonder why I did it. it's half not wanting to talk to my friends about it but half hoping someone will see and help me?? idk man but its good you recognised what you were doing, maybe i need to take a page out of your book


For me it really does help to talk even if your not talking to anyone, so the little voice memo app on your phone really helps.


Your video saying 'oversharing ' helped me a lot if made me feel like I'm not the only one feeling these things dealing with these things and that yes when I am feel bad that I'm not in the right mind to react and post things but to be honest it help me a lot I can see where people are coming from but I enjoy your videos and those were your to depressed to function shows me that the way I feel is Normal and I shouldn't apoligize for that your strong and dealing with things thank you so much for the help ❤


Dodie, you've done the right thing. It's ok to be sorry because that means you are growing and learning how to deal with all of this. Reading the comments on your last video really opened my mind to that was happening and showed me that it was not healthy. I'm so glad you've realized it too. I wish you a good journey(life)!


dodieeee b, please don't be sorry for this!
you ARE helping some people by oversharing (example me), even though it's unhealthy to do? even if to some people this is 'inappropriate' and 'too much sharing', who's there to decide what's right and wrong about that?
dodie look at how much of love and appreciation you've grown around you. even with one post you can make some people worry sick, this is how much we all care for you. we've been through this emotional journey WITH you, and we will be with you no matter what happens. seeing you cry like this just made automatic tears fall out of my eyes and that's when i realized, how? much? you? matter? to? me? and how much of an impact you had on my life and how much you helped me. so it's my duty to be with you through out this journey till the end, please be strong dods <3


Hi Dodie, I find that this is a really common thing among a lot of people in the millennial generation. I myself used to post so much and became fixated on the numbers and responses because it feels like attention. But now, I have found that after taking a step back and realizing that it's very easy to click buttons on a screen and it doesn't necessarily have all this power, I am much less inclined to let social media control my life. I also really try to remember my own personal boundaries, because in the end my life is more than what I post or comment or click on and it's not up to others behind a screen to dictate. I know that these lines get blurred because your job is the internet and within that context it's hard not to share yourself with the world, but it's also important to remember that you are not required to let everyone know everything in your life. You are still able to share your art and your heart and your wonderful stories with us without giving up your privacy. Anyway, idk I just think sometimes it's important to go outside and breathe and leave your phone at home, because you can survive and it's nice sometimes to take a break and quiet your mind. Ily, have a good day and take care of yourself. P.s. petting dogs makes everything better


Personally,  I don't mind your  oversharing. I know  it helps you. I  just wish there was a way I could help.  And I guess that's what a lot of your followers feel like too. It's like watching a sister/  friend suffer trough a break down, it's just too much and I guess the first (understandable) instinct it's to run away from that hurt. It ultimately comes down to self preservation. So yeah, I hope you get better and in my humble opinion, you shouldn't stress too much about it  because, after all, it is an ilness and you are not exactly yourself in those moments. Take care and know we love you! <3


i'm so proud of you.  and glad to be your audience. because you not only make mistakes as everyone does, but are brave enough to acknowledge them, and share so openly what you've learnt from them. it not only shows how genuine you are, but its also very inspiring. especially with youtube slowly turning into this fake artificial environment, we are so lucky to have creators like you who are holding onto the roots of this platform which allows the creators to build a connection with the viewers.


the rubber bands on her wrist :( . i love her and i truly hope she is okay . there is no need to apologize for something that helped you through a hard time even if it doesnt seem like it was the best decison now. we all have regrets and it helped at some point in time. All that matters is youve grown since then . And shall continue to


I understand your reasoning and I think it is right for your younger audience. However, your posts have helped me come to terms with my own mental health issues. I always thought depersonalisation was just a symptom of depression and that everyone who was depressed felt the same as I did, but now I know that that's not true. I always found it comforting to see that someone else can be successful whilst also dealing with mental health issues. Maybe a once a month update on your mental health would be good? Either way, I hope your decision is both right for yourself and your audience in the long-term ❤


I found myself agreeing with a lot of the comments on the last video. I don't follow your Snapchat or Insta very closely but from the descriptions being given, I agree that you were oversharing. Even with all good intentions, what you were doing was irresponsible and I'm glad you can see the damage now. You handled this situation very well, so good job 💛💛


Personally, I do not think it is negatively influencing. I understand how it can be triggering but so can any post relating to mentaI health. I  found your first video about depression and depersonalisation SO validating and I've watched it tonnes of times since. Please keep talking, please keep breaking the stigma. It is so important -  this debate about sharing your thoughts shouldn't exist because they are real thoughts. You shouldn't feel guilty. People need to understand that it is a horrible horrible reality. You are not glorifying or romanticising mental illness, you are making people aware. Most of all, I admire how self aware you are. It honestly astonishes and inspires me in the lowest of places. You have helped me so much on my journey with my own mental health issues. Thank you.


Right, you don't know me because I'm a regular fan. But you don't have to apologise for something you use to cope. If people who don't like the things that you post, they shouldn't look at them. If you feel that you need you do something do it, stand by the fact that you do need to step it back with the morbid posts😂. But babes, you have done nothing wrong, we are your fans and we love you, so don't feel that you have to change for a few shitty people who don't like some things you do. Independent little nugget is what you are, so stay like that xx


personally, i did have to unfollow you on instagram, but that it my problem not yours. if the posts were making you feel better you shouldn't have to apologise for that... you find ways to heal that suit you and everyone will try to go with it xxxx pls don't be sorry for trying to get better, and put yourself first 💗we all love you dodie, that's why we still watch.KEEP GOING !!!


You don't have to apologise, everyone learns from their mistakes. You have helped people dodie. Talking does help, but you didn't realise the extent to what you were doing it on social media. We love you dodie, we're all here for you x

Btw, I'm so proud of you for making this video xx


I don't care that you post about it, I mean I do, because I enjoy reading them and knowing what's happening with you. If it helps you do it every once and a while 💛💛💛


I hope you feel better because you are a beautiful person who deserves to be happy!


I drew a really cute picture of a witch for Inktober and now I'm happy :) now I have to study for ap world but I'm still happy 😊


All I wanna do is make Dodie some tea and give her a big ol hug


It's okay, it's really okay. :) It's not necessarily that you made a mistake! I've appreciated a lot of the posts. But maybe it is time for a change, like you have said. Time to step in the light!! :)


Dodie, don't forget we all still love you xx


I also started to over share on snap chat but I realise that it's embarrassing when I look back at my story when I'm no longer feeling as intense as i did when I posted it.. so I record and save and don't post x


Big hugs from us, we love you just the way you are...flaws and perfections


I don't know about younger audience, i mean I'm pretty young but the point is that you help me realize what was happening to me was a problem, what was happening shouldn't be taken like a normal everyday feeling, I always thought that feeling like this every second of my life was okay, it wasn't, when you shared about what you thought was happening to you and how you were feeling and how bad was it, I then knew it wasn't alright and I wasn't as stable as I told myself I was.And yeah it is sensitive stuff, some people can't take it, but there are people who need it, just like me, because it's that sensitive that not many talk about it that's the reason why many are confuse of whether their feelings are normal or unstable.Don't be that hard on you, it was a mistake but just like everything it has a bad and a good impact, overall thank you and have a great day :)<br>I encourage you to make a different space to share this kind of sensitive content, maybe a blog or a different social media account because I know many other people need someone like you to talk about mental illness.i know I need it.

I don't know about younger audience, i mean I'm pretty young but the point is that you help me realize what was happening to me was a problem, what was happening shouldn't be taken like a normal everyday feeling, I always thought that feeling like this every second of my life was okay, it wasn't, when you shared about what you thought was happening to you and how you were feeling and how bad was it, I then knew it wasn't alright and I wasn't as stable as I told myself I was.And yeah it is sensitive stuff, some people can't take it, but there are people who need it, just like me, because it's that sensitive that not many talk about it that's the reason why many are confuse of whether their feelings are normal or unstable.Don't be that hard on you, it was a mistake but just like everything it has a bad and a good impact, overall thank you and have a great day :)
I encourage you to make a different space to share this kind of sensitive content, maybe a blog or a different social media account because I know many other people need someone like you to talk about mental illness.i know I need it.


It's okay Dodie. It is 100% okay.
Don't blame yourself for things like this. What you learn from your experiences is helpful. It's OKAY to make mistakes. It's OKAY, Dodie.
I love you <3


kid,you're so brave and loved by all of us please don't forget about that


I never thought that Dodie’s posts were too much. I related to them a lot and made me feel less alone. Idk, that’s my opinion


Anyone who ever feels this way, there are multiple online forums that help you pour out your emotions anonymously, please give it a try. Sometimes venting out to someone you can't even see can really help. There are online therapy sessions available as well, you don't even have to travel to see someone or wait in the waiting room. There are many options available please seek them out. If you really want to have an online session feel free to get in contact with me here :)


The other side is (and I know it's a bit grim) but you sharing how you feel helps so many people know that they are not alone in this dark day and dark thoughts of course I am not saying keep posting these f**k the other people of course not do what you think is right but don't put all the blame on your self do what you think is best and get well soon 🤷🏻♀💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛


I think it is extremely well to understand that you've been sharing too much and to be upset that you could have caused some painful thoughts for some viewers but it is not good to continue to feel bad about it. One thing I'm horrible at is forgiving myself and I think that once you've realised the wrong and you've apologised, don't let it eat away at you. You've said you're sorry and that you've made a mistake and I appreciate your raw honesty but you mentioned that you "feel so bad" and I hope you don't hold that grudge against yourself. I hope that you forgive yourself and keep working on yourself. This might just be advice for me because I have trouble forgiving myself and I need to learn that yes I've made a mistake and I've said my sorries and that should be the end of it. No more feeling bad about it because you've done all you can do. I hope that this is a step in the right direction and that you can find a therapist that will help you and that you find a method of expression without it being detrimental to anyone, including yourself. I love you immensely Dodie and I hope that you love yourself too. You are so genuine and I don't want you to ever take that the wrong way. You are amazing and real and very human. I love you and I know others do too <3


Don't be embarrassed,we all do things we look back on and think maybe I shouldn't have done that. I am not quoting you on saying "Bad mental health is well shit" <3 You are amazing,nothing more nothing less.


You should try writing your darkest thoughts on a sheet of paper, then dissect the thought and if you can manage to do that, scrumple up the paper and throw it in the bin.

My learning mentor gave me this idea, and I quite like it. It might not help you but hope it helps you more than social media Xxxxxx

Niamh Carolan yeah that is really good idea 💝💝


damn. you're the most human person here. i really like you. thanks for this video, means a lot. you really don't know how much.


Please don't beat yourself up. We love you and we're with you.


Dodie please do a blog where you can write about it where the people who find you talking about it helpful ! You don't have to cut ties with it just get untangled


dodie dodie it's alright we didn't need this much if an apology and an apology at all, i'm so proud you came to these conclusions and thought about what you've potentially done. your videos when you were feeling low yes made me upset but they also made me feel like i could relate to someone and they calmed me down. i'm glad you found your boundaries but just note that it DID help somebody.


so i made a comment an hour ago. i was told that it wasn't related to the video and that i didn't even watch the video. basically the comment said that it's okay to share, but don't go overboard. so im here to make a new one:

i have anxiety and panic disorder. i honestly don't think that you were glorifying mental illness in anyway. you were oversharing, yeah. but it was a mistake. it wasn't a huge mistake that'll ruin everyone forever. it was a tiny mistake. but you got it all out. you helped me reach out to people. yeah, sometimes it was a little much, but that's okay. you're okay, dodie. and if you ever need a break, take one. we'll support you in anyway you need us to. stay safe and stay alive.


In my opinion you haven't been glorifying mental health problems. You are a good person and I know you have never wanted to hurt anyone. And having someone like you who actually talks about mental health makes me realize there are other people out there who have the type of bad, irrational thoughts as me. Before I started watching you I felt crazy nad alone. It's okay if you want to pull back a bit and maybe you should but please help other people like you did me.


Dodie, I think that there is nothing wrong with sharing how you feel online just as long as you advocate for getting better and for helping people find strength even though I know that it can feel hopeless in that type of mental state. I personally liked your videos and watched them when I was feeling down to relate and to feel less alone but when someone is finally getting out of this mental state they don't want to see a video that just pulls them right back in. I hope that you can in the future find a way to both share how you are feeling and advocate for getting better, I also genuinely hope that you do get better because you deserve to be happy. ❤


Thank you for being so mature about this


I just want to give her a giant hug because mental illness does suck and I know what it feels like to drag someone down with it.

Dodie. You don't need to be sorry because, as you said, when you're in a bad state of mind, your perception is totally screwed up. Everyone makes mistakes in life and, as my dad says, "The stupid (for a better way to put it) people won't learn from mistakes, the average people will learn only from their own mistakes, the cleverest people will learn from other people's mistakes.". Learn from mistakes instead of dwell and sit on them. Which, is what you've basically said in this video. Having your perception screwed with is hard but as long as you work your way through it, it'll be ok in the end.
I'm 14 and look like a pretty normal geeky nerdy girl. But, I'm really not. But I can tell you this. Literally ten minutes before watching this, I was having a breakdown but I listened to secret for the mad and felt so much better. So I'm gonna quote you because it'll work! There will be a day where you can say you're ok and mean it.

Keep going x


Dodie, If you keep your main channel this level of intimacy, we will all understand. But your personal channel shouldn't''t be censored, make sure you're OK, and we'll support you. As long as you believe you fell fine, we will help you. Just tell your audience if you're facing issues and because it's so big, someone will be able to help you


this won't be helpful to you but i enjoy listening to you talk about these things because it's like you're describing me - to me , and it's oddly comforting


I've noticed Dodie has deleted a lot of videos that kind of relate to this; angry about her abuse video and the alcoholism video. So hopefully that means she's dealing and moving on.


I think this was very mature of you. You're posts were never, personally, triggering to me, in fact they did inspire me to write more, which has helped a lot, but I can see how they would be for others. Thinking of what you would/wouldn't say to your little sister is amazing way to go about it. That way it will still be raw, genuine, and personal, but censored (sorry for possible bad wording) and constructive <3 I love you and your channel so much, and good luck in your mental battle, they can be some of the hardest to face!


Dodie, you are wonderful. I don't think you did something really bad. It really helped me to see that I was not alone, that there was someone else who went through the same things as me (although your experience is definitely a lot worse). I think you should mainly think of this as the right decision for you. It's better for you to not get sucked into your phone and share this stuff with us anymore. Dodie Clark, you are a wonderful person and in no way a burden, a disappointment or a bad person. You're just choosing to do what you think is best for you (and when you shared all the things, you were doing the same thing + you were trying to help other people).


I understand why you're stepping back with sharing on social media, but I don't think you've been doing something bad. It helps me, personally, because I see you struggling with mental illness but still living your life. It so often feels life halting to experience, and as if there's this darkness in you that seeps out everywhere and taints everything, but somehow you manage to still live and have friends and create despite your brain working against you. That's comforting and inspiring to see. I find your posts to help me feel less isolated, personally, and they help me find hope that I can still exist with a fairly full life despite my own brain trying to kill me.


Dodie darling would it be possible to have a video discussing how to turn your shit feelings into art without finding it overwhelming?


I feel this so much. Obviously, I don't have as big an audience as you do, but I do have a number of people following me on tumblr, and when I feel like shit (like I do rn lol) I need to express it, it's like I need to let someone know how I feel, I need to let someone know that I'm hurting, and it's so much easier to make a tumblr post or to use whatever social media to express yourself, than to reach out to a friend. I was just about to make a tumblr post about how I feel right now, and then I thought about this video, and I thought about all the people that were going to see this post, about my friends that follow me on tumblr and were going to see this post, and I decided it was better not to do that. I do feel terrible when you (dodie) post something about how low you've been feeling, because I care about you and these posts just make me feel helpless and worse about myself, and I'm NOT saying that's your fault!! I understand your need to share, and I would never want you to lose that opportunity, but I do think I need to take a page out of your book here, and learn to share less, and more importantly to another demographic. Sharing these feelings publicly isn't going to help me, and it affects a lot of people, who may be triggered or just feel helpless the way I do when I see your posts, and I don't want to cause that. So thank you for making that video (those videos, actually), and I hope you find a way to get better. Hope that therapist Lucy recommended is going to be just right for you. It makes me so sad to know that you're hurting, and I dearly hope that those things you're feeling will not get the better of you, and that you will be successful in fighting them off. With all my love and support xx


I totally agree with what you said about oversharing being a symptom as such. I can't explain why, but it is, this need to feel heard and understood, and what better way than to put it out there to a large amount of people where, odds are, someone will empathise and understand. don't get upset because you've made a mistake, because not only have you learned a lesson but you've taught one too, as many young people experiencing mental health issues might not know how much they can and can't share.


We still love you lots. Everyone makes mistakes and there is no guide for mental health and what to and not to do. You are strong. You are beautiful. You are worth it. We love you. I love you.


People make mistakes, and despite your being a youtuber making you seem a bit more famous then human on occasion, that doesn't invalidate your existence as a mistake making human. I'm not saying that "people make mistakes" should be used as an excuse or a way to wave off your bad decisions, but it is a healthy reminder to people who sometimes forget. Dodie, you have made a mistake but you are learning, and your audience cares about you. I care about you and your health and although I was not personally affected by your intense and inappropriate outreach on social media, other people WERE affected. Regardless, I forgive you and I have faith that other people will do the same. xx

much love
-Danielle


I think more people need to realize that Dodie (and other YouTubers in general) are human, too. They make mistakes just the same as we do. They are no greater than we are, and putting them up on pedestals and saying that they have no need to apologize isn't a healthy way to go about it. Yes, she can and should apologize. Should she be so hard on herself? No, because she's human and these things are normal. But don't tell her that everything's okay and she shouldn't be sorry because that's not how life works, not for popular/successful people, not for anyone, really. YouTubers can make mistakes and learn from them. Lots of people in the comment section are contradicting themselves by saying "you're not perfect, everyone makes mistakes!" but then also saying "don't be sorry, you're perfectly fine!" I'm personally very proud of Dodie and think she handled this maturely. I love and respect Dodie, but I also acknowledge that she's just as human as I am. I wish you luck, Dods 😊❤


obviously dont do something if it ultimately makes things worse but please do acknowledge the people you have helped, watching your video on depersonalisation helped me realize that how i was feeling is an actual thing not just me going mad. please dont beat yourself up so much because you make some of us feel less alone :)


Falling into the deep dark hole of depression and whatnot is much easier than clambering out of it. It's so hard to get out of the hole so don't worry, we all f*ck up sometimes ❤


Dodie, I know how it feels to have hit rock bottom, I am currently in a bad state regarding my mental illnesses and I have been for quite a few months. But I just want to let you know that everyone makes mistakes that's just what makes us human. Even the most successful people have made mistakes, but their mistakes have brought them to where you are now. Stay strong Dodie, I love youuu xoxo

+C Montague I guess so, thanks so much :)

When you hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up 💕 Take care!


this video was tough but it's all true and I hope these plans/ideas stick


thank you for this dude, :) well explained :)


I cried watching this, because when dodie cries I do 😭 I'm not even joking 😢


I don't think you need to apologize to anyone but yourself. You have the right to share as much or as little as you want with your audience, and you will get mixed responses no matter what choice you make. What does matter is how it is influencing you. You shouldn't have to tip toe around mental health but maybe you shouldn't have faced it this either for your own good. As someone who has struggled with mental health issues, I really don't think you owe anyone else an apology. You have the right to say what you want, and others have the right to turn away from the discussion if it doesn't make them comfortable. Mental health can be dark and scary and raw and real, no one is ever going to escape that but what you do about it is all YOU.

I hope you continue doing what's right for yourself <3


I JUST WANT TO HUG DODIE THROUGH THE SCREEN IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK


can't you make a special channel where you say what you feel. or make a blog so you can spit out whats stuck in you're mind because you are so interesting and loving. and we all want to help you. because you are worth helping. we love you and we hope you get better❤


It is good that you realize this now and are gonna do something about it. At the same time, I don't think you are to feel so sorry about all this. I think...the part of your audience, that also go through similar experiences and relies on your expression to make them/us feel like we can understand each other, that we are not alone, that 'wow somehow miles and miles away someone I dont know personally managed to put what/how I feel into words, translate my everyday emotional journey into something tangible' did/do benefit from your 'oversharing'. It's only when we're talking in making sense or not, or strictly among rules of being responsible and being someone who have a large following 'should be doing this and that' that somehow it isn't healthy for you or the audience, BUT!!! that's the thing, isn't it? While on the journey to make through another day, be it to recovery or a relapse day, we all make mistake. I can surely recall there were days I so tempted to just pour my darkest thought to a friend or on social media and almost didn't resist. I can surely remember I did regret telling a friend or two about certain things because they won't know how to handle and I felt guilty for leading them kinda away (?) and that's as far as your mistake go. Ultimately, we all have to learn to make decisions of our own, to receive and be exposed to what source of materials and people and that, dodie, that part isn't on you. <3 You deserve all the hugs, blankets and tea we wanna let you have because you let us in on your journey somehow, including this part. We're all gonna make mistake on our way back to recovery, but that's gonna be okay. The world still benefit more as you care and think about it one step at a time. So, thank you and we love you for being exactly how you are and moving onwards. <3


dodie you are absolutely forgiven. we love you. ❤


When dodie sounded like she was starting to cry I started to cry


dont cry!!! youre too good i cant bear to see you cry


I believe all of you posts have been extremely helpful for the right audience.  However, I do agree that they probably cannot be understood properly by your "little sisters" in your large and broad audience.  It's a bit sad that we don't have a forum for actual adult conversation where your willingness to freely share the darkest of the dark can be viewed in the proper light.  Keep up the fight.  You are an inspiration to many.  I have a great deal of respect for your fearlessness and your sensitivity for others as well as yourself.


Dodie, we all make mistakes. I hope you don't begin to beat yourself up about this. You're going through such a shit time, and although at times I have had to avoid your videos because I haven't been feeling too good, I'm glad you have raised awareness of just how shite mental illnesses are. Your audiences love for you has not lessened, only grown. We all feel for you so much. I myself half enjoyed your oversharing, almost felt like we were your safe space, because at times this is mine. On behalf of us all, I wish you absolute possible best... and also wish to give you a cuddle and a bucket load of tea x


you shouldn't be ashamed of how you express your feelings. if you feel that you share too much then do what you feel right for you but you should know that your posts have been helpful for a lot of people. you express feelings and thoughts some of us have but we're not able to put it into words.  I m proud of you and how strong you are and how even at your lowest you find a way to come up ❤❤


I completely understand that people can be 'influenced' or made feel upset by your posts. But some of us (i'm talking about me specifically) love reading and sometimes rely on reading your posts, especially on instagram, to feel related to. I've never seen/ watched or encountered someone who feels like I do, but mainly writes like I do. So while some people maybe need  a bit less, others need IT. love you and all of your works. hope you're well. X


This is probably so late but I have to say it.
I know that your social media is like a journal, I've felt like I'm reading through someone's diary while reading some of your posts. However I really felt less alone while doing so, I felt like someone out there understood what I was feeling and even more impressively managed to put it in a coherent way. I get that it's unhealthy for you so I'm not asking you to keep doing it, do what you think is better and what will help you the most. I just wanted to tell you that not everything that came of your mistake was bad, it gave me a connection to the real world instead of allowing myself to fall on my world of nightmares.
I hope you get better, because you deserve the best.


I think this is a very good response/follow up, please don't blame yourself though!! It's hard to hear that people disagree with something you did, but it by no means was any kind of personal failure. It was just trial and error of how to be candid and connect with your audience and discuss mental health. I think you're doing great and I really appreciate how you keep such an open dialogue with your audience <3


You are I N S P I R I N G! People who don't want to read about your feelings just don't wanna read, but they also don't judge you! Feelings are feelings and you shouldn't be embarrassed of it. I'm calm now because of your posts and videos. <b>great warm hugs and crying with you</b>

You are I N S P I R I N G! People who don't want to read about your feelings just don't wanna read, but they also don't judge you! Feelings are feelings and you shouldn't be embarrassed of it. I'm calm now because of your posts and videos. *great warm hugs and crying with you*

Ника Максвелл


Hey babe,
You don't need to apologise, you expressed your feelings
It got a bit out hand
But that's okay ❤
You thought you were doing good AND YOU WERE!!!
We all love you and want you to be happy OBVIOUSLY I'm 13 and listening and reading your instagram captions are really inspiring and helpful but it's your choice
Love you lots
Stay safe 💙


remember
even tho u messed up
you were genuinely trying to help others
and that is good
even tho the outcome may not have been
(lol love u)


I've been going from bad therapist to bad therapist for near 7 years honestly it's the hardest thing to find a good therapist lmao


"It's well shit"<br>can this be the slogan for mental health because I totally feel dods

"It's well shit"
can this be the slogan for mental health because I totally feel dods


I know everyone is saying this, but I honestly can't explain how much respect and admiration I have for you for posting this video and addressing your mistakes. You are really a very strong and caring person, and I don't think that many people would be willing to do the same. Sending all the love in the world your way!!!  <3


Although we all accept your apology I don't think you should be so sorry that you shared some of your deepest feelings, we all do it!! You just have a bigger audience to see it that's all! We all love you so so soooo much and hope that after feeling so low, when you start to feel a bit better, you will still speak to us and share with us as much as you think appropriate because it actually can help. Just keep doin what's best for you and what you think is right and we will stand by it :)


It's a tough topic, but overall I think you should be able to share what you like, especially if it's what feels true to you.

People are going to react in many different ways to honesty - some get offended/upset by it and some find solace in it.

At the end of the day, you're not responsible for the way people react. But if it feels more honest for you to stop sharing this stuff, then carry on. On the other hand if it feels more honest to share these moments, I think you should go right ahead.


dodie i hate how bad you feel ppl make mistakes it's ok💕 please don't stop sharing because it really does help alot of ppl and we want to know how you are and if we can help. and if reading a load of positive comments does that then don't be afraid to post something saying that you aren't feeling great. we're all here for you. thank you for "oversharing" because personally it helped me. ilysm stay strong 💗


NOO😭😭 please don't be so hard on yourself you don't even understand how much you've helped me and how amazing you've been and I just want you to know you are not doing bad and you do not ever mean to hurt anyone and I just want to stress how much I love you!! The best thing that ever happened to me was watching your video "I'm depressed today" because I didn't know what was wrong with me for sooo long and I thought I was broken but I saw your video and started crying because I related to every single word you said and I didn't know anyone else felt the was I did. I was haven't so much trouble and anxiety trying to put how I felt into words and you literally just did it all for me. I can never thank you enough for the ways you have helped me. You have helped me with me dealing with my mental health, sexuality and literally everything so thank you so much and I love you


I think it's very difficult because nobody talks about the places you have to walk through when you are in the lowest of the lows. And I think that is something positive that comes from you oversharing though because I've had those moments before that you have posted online AND THATS why it's so hard to watch because I know what it's like (and there's the triggering part of it) but think there is a very good version of awareness and way to help people understand by being able to present the lowest of the lows without it being unhealthy to the audience and unhealthy to the sharer. I still thank you for everything you've done within respect of saying your feelings and sharing your illness because it's helped me own my own emotions and experiences with mental health. We all screw up!!! (Especially us early 20 something's because this shit is new and weird)


Honestly though letting out your feelings helps. Also YOU ARE SO PRETTY WITHOUT MAKE UP ON WHAT


I think my thoughts are that I would read your posts and feel a bit helpless bc it scares me that I'm watching you struggle but can't do anything to help


I haven't read those posts. But as someone with GAD, I know how chaotic and dark things can be, and imo such an evil thing shouldnt even exist. But it does and it so unfair to those who have it. I have read somewhere that Mental illnesses are the main cause of disability and I do believe that is true since it prevents a person having them from living a normal life, let alone try to achieve  their dreams. So if sharing helps you, then in my own opinion, you should do it, and never be ashamed of it, as long as you are not encouraging people to jump off bridges or anything like that :)


I feel like everyone needs hugs. so... even though I hate hugs, I give you the glorious internet hug


I just want to take a plan to London, fine Dodie's apartment well flat as  British people say, knock on her door and when she opens it i just give her a big hug and say "It's alright."!

It's heart breaking to see someone you love even if you've never seen them in person and they don't even know you!

Wait did I just say that!?

Yep yes I did!!


Hey Dodie, I don't think that you are doing anything wrong when you share your emotional stuff with the online community. What I do think is that it is all about finding the right way to channel your emotions. You and your art provide people with comfort, not because you promise that everything will be alright but because you let us know that someone else feels the same.

If posting videos like this helps you then do it. Maybe put a disclaimer at the start warning your younger viewers about what they are going to be seeing.

Much love. You are not alone. Go have some tea and toast.


I just want to give you a hug. May I give you a hug? I give you hug. hug
Love you Dodie!

I just want to give you a hug. May I give you a hug? I give you hug. *hug*
Love you Dodie!


Reading through these comments, people are saying like 'You're being too hard on yourself.' and i dont think thats true. I think you had been owing an apology for a long time but the fact you have the guts to speak out on it on youtube and say sorry to people you barely know really shows an amazing personality.


thank you so much for sharing this dodie, it takes a lot of courage to admit so frankly and publicly that you made a mistake, and to own it without trying to justify it. I'm so proud of you!


I personally don't think you've done anything wrong and I mean if you still want to write it you should and maybe just add a trigger warning like "trigger warning: graphic depiction of depersonalization" or something like that anyway I love you and I support you and I think you're doing amazing dodie


The Fluffy Dragon/ ayy we're in the same time zone

Kawaii Kayleigh and yet I'm watching YouTube videos and tidying my room! O.o


Oh, sweetie, I hope you're Okay, and i hope you know you're not alone, and thank you for talking about mental health, It's a thing, we should talk about it, but we need help with it :)


You should make a blog where you share these kind of posts. If you need to write these posts and share them, then maybe this will help? Plus it can be really helpful for others x


don't be embarrassed, we all make mistakes but whatever happens we'll always love you and be there for you, we know your intentions weren't to hurt anyone. To be honest you should be proud of yourself- to be able to step back and evaluate yourself, apologise and recognise that you need to change is a very hard thing to do. You dealt with the situation in a very mature and honest way- something I think we can all learn from and, of course, admire❤


Dodie, I think that if you've shown us your worst, it helps us to appreciate your best. That's not to say that oversharing is good, but we also know now the strength of your character. We miss you, Dodie. I'm sure you do, too. I can't say things that would help, because I don't know what's happening, but let me reassure you: this video shows how much you've progressed. Well done. We all support you, and if you don't, well, I guess that's okay. But I'm here anyway, along with loads of others. (I pray for you before I go to bed. We'll see if that helps.) Xxx -Caitlyn, age 12


You are a astonishing person so no should ever be able to put you down although you may have it it cant stop you for staying a amazing human so yea stay 💪 strong. 👋👋


you felt that this was your escape AND THATS OKAY. you didn't know that it might have a negative effect. there's not need to say sorry, but you can change it to make you and your audience feel better <<3


I know that this oversharing is bad, for you and for vulnerable audience members, but I'd just like to thank you Dodie for putting my feelings into words, and making me feel like I'm not bat shit crazy and that I have a rEAL mental illness that needs to be addressed. Because you're oversharing helped me explain to my closest friends, mother and therapist about how I was feeling, and without you I wouldn't have been able to. So thankyou.


I don't think I ever found your posts/vlogs/snapstories to be trigger so much as.... Informational. Don't get me wrong, I am terribly sorry that you have to go through such things, but it made me feel a bit better to read about it because it made me feel like I wasn't alone. That might be a little... Twisted... I guess, but I just saw you as this super strong figure and on my worst days, I would look at myself in the mirror and think "well if dodie can do it, so can i."
6/10 is one of my favorite songs and it has gotten me through some of my absolutely worst days. You've really helped me feel like I've had an ally in this, though we've never spoken a word.
I understanding the over sharing for sure (as I have done in this entire paragraph) so I don't think you have much reason to feel guilty about what you've done. Your intentions were not to trigger people or make them feel upset by what they were reading. You just wanted to feel better. I don't think anyone should blame you for doing what you felt was right. Just remember that you are not your mistakes. You are not your mental illness. You are not what other people say you are. You did what you thought was best and nobody should ever blame you for that. That's all you ever can do.
(Sorry this was super long and rambley I just had a lot to say)


please don't be embarrassed. everyone makes mistakes it's a part of life. yes you were telling a lot of details but I feel like a lot of people who had mental illnesses like to open up a lot. but hey we still love you no mater what. take care my love. everything will get better I promise 💛


Please don't actually I'm proud of you for sharing n i love you for that...I'm going through bipolar depression and anxiety  n i love what you post it's very helpful. You're my idle love u k💋❤😟


I love you so much, I'm so glad and happy for you.


Don't be too hard on yourself! Yes maybe it wasn't the best way to deal with the problem but you were just trying to deal with your emotions the best you knew how. Just learn from the experience and realize that even people who were pointing out the negatives in the last video were just tying to help you out.


love you Dodie, thank you for apologising


This is tricky because there is no guidebook to mental health + the internet.

Dodie was trying to help herself but in doing so she was treating us (her audience) like a therapist.

At the same time, as viewers we have all the power to close our laptops and exit a video if we don't like it.

Ultimately I'm glad Dodie apologized but I'm not upset with her. Dodie's descriptions of her mental health trouble helped me to be more proactive in my struggles.


Dodie we love you and understand if you are having a harder time if you need take a break if you need just make a few videos or slow down honestly I don't mind listening to your videos or reading your posts in fact I find them helpful and I learn so much about myself but if you want to I support you and I'm sure everyone else does. Stay strong WE LOVE YOU!!!


Dear Dodie, though you don't know there has been a person called Agalya until this moment I've always considered you as my sister. we're the same age and kinda going through the same things.
I don't want you to be sorry abput anything that you've done. And no, you have not glorified mental illness in any way. Be thankful to yourself because you've decided to share your dark thoughts with someone. Because to me, when I'm in that dark place, i don't feel like talking to anyone about my problems because i feel like I'm bothering them and wasting time. And be glad you have amazing friends. All i have is one good friend and we're kinda drifting apart now. So it's me and my suicidal thoughts most of the time.
You're way way talented than you think and you're the person i aspire to become. If i could do one thing, that would be to fly to United Kingdom and hug you till you and I are both feel relieved. I really love you and adore you ❤ stay strong and happy :) sending warm love from Sri Lanka ❤


I love you dearest! Stay strong and amazing! 💕💚💛💙❤


Damn I wish I dodie's friend. I want to be there for her. I love her so much. I hope she's okay. I love her. ❤❤❤❤


oh dodie :(( i truly hate seeing you cry, you deserve the world. im sure everyone completely understands, please do not feel embarrassed !! we love you so much !! just keep in mind it's good to talk about your feelings, but like you said, we aren't trained therapists and we don't always know what we're talking about. im sososo happy lucy recommended someone for you, i know things are going to start getting better soon. we're here for you every step of the way !! WE LOVE YOU DODIE <33


Dodie, you are so beautiful. People will take whatever you say however they want, but at the end of the day you have created a safe space for all of those who are unstable in any way. Sometimes all you need on those super breakdown days are someone to connect with, and you have been this little bridge for all of those in alone land. I'll keep watching whether you share it all or not. Your an inspiration<3


God bless you and I wish you all the luck and love and health in your life! God I sound like a Christian mum but I mean it...


i used to do the same thing but with my friends. i would constantly talk to them about my mental health until it became unhealthy & they had to take a step back from me. i completely understand how you feel when you put how you're feeling out in the open & you shouldn't feel embarrassed! it's not something you can completely control most of the time. just know that we're here for you & we love you so so so much. you don't have to shut down completely, we're not annoyed with you at all. we love you dodes, remember that. 💛


I'm absolutely happy for you to find an unhealthy coping mechanism so you can work on it but please also look out for yourself in a way that you wont feel like you gotta put up a facade for us. We want you to heal! I hope your pain will ease.


i also have depersonalization, it's the worst thing I've ever encountered in my entire life. I've been living with it for a year and a half now, and it still gets to me sometimes. these few recent months I've learned to live with it, but most importantly I've learned to not let it consume my life. whenever the "dizzy" depersonalization thoughts I always avert my thinking and start thinking about something else, something I really enjoy like my friends or my family, and eventually I calm myself down. I also use my phone as a coping mechanism, because it's a solid distraction and I know that it will let me escape from what's going on around me. it's the only thing that makes me completely forget that I have depersonalization. every other task I do it is still lingering in the back of my brain, but when I'm on my phone the only thing I'm thinking about is what's on the screen. I wish I wasn't so absorbed in my phone all the time but it helps take the edge off so much and it makes me feel real.


thank you so much for this dodie. I had to unfollow you because I too was in a bad place and the negativity on your posts was beyond hard for me, I'm very grateful that you apologised and stepped back. I'm not attacking you in anyway at all I partly  understand  your position. this was so brave, I've never been a massive fan, but this is respect so much.


Hey,
You are probably not going to see this. But still, i haven't whatched the video yet. ( i'm on a boat and the wifi is BAD) but i have read some comments. Honestly i don't think its that much of a big deal. Yes maybe the posts were a bit to much, but please ( maybe not in particular those posts) that is what i most love about you besides your music. You are soo open and that helps me so much. I need that. I sometimes need a reminder that i'm not alone.

Sometimes our brains go to a dark place. They think dark and you feel  bad because of that. These feelings eat us from inside, they sting and we keep most of them to our self. But sometimes we need to share them, it is to much. Someone has to see our pain. And we look for understanding, we just want people to listin. One of the most easy ways to get that understanding is with snapchat or instagram or youtube. And that is probably whay you did. You didn't think about "triggering" people. Your Brain thought it was a way to get understanding.

Yes it wassn't the best move. But that is how humans work! Our lives contain making desicions and making mistakes. But the world doesn't end after a mistake. (That would mean that the world had died around 10.000 times in 1 day probably)

This is hard for u i can totaly feel  and see that. But there are still people who love you, familie friends and followers. I love you, you are an inspiration for me. How you deal with your illness and still stuff that makes you happy. I love your musical and i listen to it daily. Please my dear dodie, see that people love you! Stay strong my love! 💙💙💙


Dodie, I don't think you're making your mental illness a brand. I think that would mean that us fans would enjoy watching you being sad a that´s not how it goes. When i think of you i think about how such a creative and emotional human you are, i always think of you as happy Dodie and as a human who isn´t perfect and it´s being supportive to people living with similar problems. <br>*note: sorry for my english, love from Guatemala.

Dodie, I don't think you're making your mental illness a brand. I think that would mean that us fans would enjoy watching you being sad a that´s not how it goes. When i think of you i think about how such a creative and emotional human you are, i always think of you as happy Dodie and as a human who isn´t perfect and it´s being supportive to people living with similar problems.
*note: sorry for my english, love from Guatemala.


i really appreciate your snapchats about mental health, they really really help me!!


do you ever feel it really strongly in ur chest that someone needs a hug cos I really need to act on that rn dodie needs a hug


i just need to say that the stuff you post helps me soooo much


I think what YouTubers should do is if they do decide to talk about the low points (not necessarily when you're in the dark places but perhaps when you've just come out of it) I think there should be a trigger warning at the beginning and in the description there should be links that may be useful (such as mind or therapyforyou) so if members of your audience are struggling they can start to seek help. Even if it's just a reminder that if they're feeling that bad they should see a dr I think encouraging treatment and support as opposed to just wallowing (not that I'm saying you were doing that) is a lot more productive.


I've had the exact same problem. What I did was that I created a private instagram account which only my closest friends were allowed to follow (or no-one if you want). There I could feel free to write big ass captions about anything and everything. I highly recommend that for all the people who instantly reach for their phone when they're feeling anxious! (and for you especially, dodie, i really think this might help) <3


Just keep close to your friends so when you can't fall back on social media you will still be OKAY


okay on an unrelated note she's got a really good mic. it almost sounds like a voice over


Its ok, although you are right about sharing personal feelings not being the best coping mechanism. But when people feel really down, they can't really think strait and occasionally do things that they may regret ( believe me I've been there.) So what you did wasn't intentionally wrong, but that's ok. You and many others including myself can learn from this. And I hope you (if you ever read this) are having a wonderful day. And sorry for the really long comment.


I can write only those two words after this video. Love you.


It's not something you should feel bad for or apologize for, I believe that it wasn't fully healthy to always post about it cause it would become too much but I feel you are free to talk about it and I think honestly you should make like another account to talk about it cause you really should be able to talk about it. That way you can talk about both and not gain an obsession with it, ofcourse on the other account you won't always post on it but when you are as you two said "up there" you can post on it so you can vent as well as have a open mind and ensure that they are better constructive and less mopey. In the sense you still cover it but not as depressing like and more helpful to yourself as well as the people who find internet in the video. I know how hard it can be cause I struggle with mental illness too but I also know it helps to write down and talk about it more but it's also usually better to talk about it with others when you aren't deep down cause then you have a more clear mind and can be more understanding as well as not seem always down and no up. Everyone who has depression knows you always have downs and up, you can always share a laugh with your friend one day while watching hanging out and another day you can feel no one ever likes you and you'll never be happy and that is normal for people who have depression. I know few people will read this but I am always open for discussion on talking about mental illnesses of all kinds as well as my own experience so if anyone here wants to talk about it wether to discuss, learn, compare, seek guidance or just to talk then just reply to me down below and if needed we can exchange kik or Facebook or snapchat or whatever so we can talk on private message board and not on public comments.


Please dont be embarrassed dodie. You are in the process of growing and learning and HEALING above all else. You are wonderful and we are all different and it is very hard to deal with mental illness in general let alone when you have such a large audience. Dont take on more than you can handle please, get a cup of tea and forgive yourself because we forgive you and love you as well ❤


dodie seems like the person who would glorify mental illness but then actually suffer from it and regret all of it


your trauma is valid you dont need to explain yourself to others xoxoxo


sending you alllll the support!!!!!!! love love love


im probs just in the same state as you but your posts help me and i somewhat understand why you shouldn't do it but it still does help some people


dodie youre such a sweetheart, chin up buttercup, we love you <3


i love you so much and i accept your apology. it was really brave of you to admit your mistakes and look to fix them !! i look up to that so much 💓💓


i started crying because my smol dodie started crying


No need 2  b embarrassed  lovely.i hope  u realize this now. It is all part of the learning process.u are amazing


I understand why people don't like that dodie vents so much on instagram and snapchat. Even though it is too much for many people, it has helped me.
I have struggled with mental health since I was thirteen, long before I knew dodie. And it has helped me to see it's okay to not be mentally ill, I felt like I am okay, like I am not terrible person for having a sick brain.
But I understand that it can be triggering for many people and that for some people it will become "dodie's brand" which I understand she doesn't want. If dodie sees it as unhealthy for her and us, as an audience, it is good that she will think her posts through more, I want her to feel as good as possible and not guilty about what she does.
But I hope the mental health related things will not completely stop because they helped me feel more okay and normal, which is a thing I'm giving up on.
Hope you'll feel better dodie, ily 💛


DODIE STOP! MY CHEEKS ARE COMPLETELY WET FROM MY TEARS YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE SORRY WE LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT!


Thank you for saying sorry. It takes guts to do that.


I wish virtual hugs where real <b>bear hug</b>

I wish virtual hugs where real *bear hug*


:(( dodie i love you a lot, thank you for saying sorry, i appreciate you a lot <33


No need to apologize Dodie, you're only human doing what you felt was right at the time. Thank you for caring about your impact on your veiwers but you really don't owe us anything. You're still growing and learning, you did the thing, it was great for a while but now it backfired, oops. Now you know to not do that thing again, it's the only way we learn and become better. To be on such a large platform with many people that care about you, it's hard not to feel like sharing will be helpful to you and your audience, which it is for sure, but to an extent and I'm so glad you've come to that realization now.


I appreciate that you realize that talking rashly when you're upset can be harmful to younger viewers, I just wish you realized it on your own without having a bunch of people tell you.


Your such an inspiration for me and this video makes me want to hug you because we are kinda alike I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much ❤


Dodie! There is an app called Vent where people talk about mental health in a space where people are prepared to read the things you post. You can use it anonymously or have an account which you share with your audience. Maybe you could use that to cope with your bad days?


my stance on this situation was that the posts weren't triggering me or anything of the sort, but it made me very worried and i wanted to be able to give you a hug and be there for you but i obviously couldn't because we aren't close friends or even know each other in real life so i was just very worried so i hope that this makes things a lot healthier and better for you!


It's ok. We forgive you. We all love you and we all want to help you and I love you too. I'm glad you decided to help yourself and I'm glad you're taking these steps. You inspire me and (yes I know I'm rambling) I hope you are well with whatever you do. Love you soooo much. I wish I could meet you❤


Dodie, I was one of the ones who did think that you were oversharing, and honestly, dealing with mental health issues myself, they did affect me sometimes. I was beginning to kind of lose interest in your videos, mostly bc the vibe coming from you was honestly too similar to my own at some stage and it made me kind of sad and frustrated. Also, I really felt that ur mental health issues were becoming part of your brand, which made me kind of uncomfortable. But this video completely changed my mind - you were totally vulnerable "in the right way", you were genuine about change, self aware, and every inch the kind, endearing, smart, sensitive person I subscribed to. Thank you for this video, it takes real character, strength, and bravery to do this, and I just hope you continue to fix any mistakes you may have made and to grow as a person and creator. I love you so much Dodie <3 :) 💖💕💖😊 and I'm sure everything will turn out great, you are truly a special and amazing human being, if you commit yourself to growth. ✨


Dodie - please... don't beat yourself up about this. Yes, you've made a mistake, and you should acknowledge this and try to make things better but everyone is human and you were well meaning and did help loads of people. I hope you feel better as soon as possible!


it makes me so sad to see you like this <3


When you cry it breaks my heart please don't cry. You have survived this in the pass you are strong so you can get out this. Everyone makes mistakes and its okey


dodie dodie dodie. you are the most wonderful person ever and this video is such strong proof of it. you owe up to your mistakes and take responsibility for your actions and im simply thankful to have you to look up to.


Dodie, I really hope you read this.  You mean the world to me, and to so many people. You are a brave and kind soul, you have used your resources wisely in my opinion on how you have gotten out of certain things.  You give me hope when you talk about what you're going through it makes me feel as if I am going to make it through these shitty teenage years.  I have never had to take a step back, but you noticing something about yourself is good that you want to change it! I hope to see you in a better state soon, good luck with your new therapist! love you xo!


My love, all I want to do is wipe your tears! Honestly, sometimes you just can't help it. There's so many ways to seek help, and get thoughts out of your brain, and it's more than okay to not know what way of unloading works best. You are not doing anything wrong love, you are a human trying to find out how to take care of herself, and that means mistakes and success will be mixed in there. You are so much like me, in that we both need to get out what's going on in our head to someone. Things will become somewhat clearer, soon in life, and a light will open up for you, no matter how crazy it is now. Thats why life is a journey, there really is no "destination." Love you so so much.


I get what she means about the phone thing , whenever I'm anxious or just sad I rely on my phone and without it I am lost


Hey! Hey, dodie don't cry. I forgive you x


I kinda get it, but now I've been drawning away from Dodie lately because she's been showing so much. Im kind of expecting to hear about Dodie's mental health even in little videos like doing instagram makeup or something like that. And that's pretty crazy. I agree with you Dodie, it's getting too much.


i still feel its more blurry than this, i dont know, youre vulnerable, i hate that as a vulnerable person you have to say sorry, idk its not a well rounded thought just an uneasy feeling in my tummy<br>and i love you so much, be safe dove

i still feel its more blurry than this, i dont know, youre vulnerable, i hate that as a vulnerable person you have to say sorry, idk its not a well rounded thought just an uneasy feeling in my tummy
and i love you so much, be safe dove


I think that she should be allowed to post what she wants to, and not feel confined to monitor and be forced to hold back. But a filter (to a point) is needed. And I think she may have been falling into a dangerous pattern and damaging herself further in the process, as well as affecting those around her. It's a difficult thing to interact and share with a countless audience


Friend be strong you show us what is real and how we can feel better and good


Keep posting, it helps me understand myself


Personally, I've never found your posts triggering but rather just quite worrying. I thought that it was interesting to hear your thoughts on what you were dealing with, and it gave me something to think about. I do feel you probably did unintentionally over share sometimes however I really don't think you need to be so apologetic for not having censored thoughts you feel you perhaps should have. On some level people know what they were signing up for, and it's not like they wouldn't be able to find similar content elsewhere should they had the desire to. But it's also completely understandable for not wanting to contribute to said content. I think it's good that you care so much about your audience.

CookieCreamCrumble don't get me wrong, this is VERY TRUE. But it's good to know that there are multiple views and it didn't negatively affect absolutely everyone. I just wanted to show that this was my personal experience, sorry if it seemed like I was trying to say this was the one and only true effect of her oversharing.

That's one perspective; it's hardly the only one. What about the danger of perpetuating an image-driven culture in which all discussions of any real depth or meaning are perpetually constrained to back rooms and hushed tones, in which "mental health" is the dirtiest of all four letter words? Because it seems like the latter is to me where we're all really at.

i disagree, with a platform as big as dodie's she has a moral responsibility to know what is and is not appropriate to post to an audience that is essentially public. with a million followers you don't know how triggering some content can be to someone in a bad head space (and yes to some extent you do know what you're getting into when you follow her, but to say a 13 year old in a depressive episode you can't think straight). and it's a learning curve, there is no guidebook to youtube, we as her audience understand her position. but i think she was right to apologise because it is a real issue that people have been pointing out. she is an adult, and she's acting like one now.

Green Giraffe well I was going to comment the exact same thought in probably a less well written way, so instead Ill just say that I second this 100% :)


It's a learning process, life is! Don't feel horrible about this, we understand xx


You are so amazing dodie. Everyone makes mistakes and you're just trying to find your way. We love you and we are proud of you ❤


Dodie, yes, I did notice how personal your captions get and to be honest, I don't mind because I'm at a better place now. But yes, it might be triggering for others. By no means should you stop talking about mental health issues, but hold them until one day you're better again. I know, it's hard to say that anyone who's been through depression would ever be okay again, I know this because from time to time I still feel like I'm not okay again. But really, we can't really help you and it's heartbreaking for everyone to feel like we're not helping you. Idk if this is even possible for you to do, but do start a private account. Have your dearest friends on there, but no one else. Spill everything you want to spill, whether they respond or not, leave it up to them. It's a personal vulnerable space, temporary, yet valid. I've been doing this for a while and honestly it's much easier than going up and talking to a friend(it sometimes gets intimidating), and it gives your friends and you a little more space for everything. As always we care about you dearly and wish you the best 💛


hi im pretty new to this channel and got kind of curious of what informations dodie shared on instagram. can somebody give me some examples or something?


you should get the app "what's up" it's a mental health app, it has a forum where you can share in dept your feelings with others experiencing it and they can reply. you can also write to yourself on there if more helpful, and rate how you're feeling - to see your improvements. it also tells you thinking patterns and gives you ways to ground yourself. we all make mistakes and we all still love you. <3 .


HI Dodie when ur gifted as ur in many ways. a sacrifice is demanded as your  brain cannot cope its all part of your growth into life and as a musician best of luck wonderful lady xx


I think everyone is guilty at some time or another of oversharing and it can be very theraputic.... but it's the kind of thing you have to forgive yourself for because sometimes you just gotta. tru story. but it's also good to hold back a bit, just don't hold back too much. too far in either direction isn't healthy. It's all about balance. Just find the middle ground that works best.


Dodie, I haven't seen your instagram or the comments on your previous video but from what you've said here you have nothing to apologise for. As a 30 year old who has only just come to terms with her own mental health issues I know that there are no rules when it comes to sharing about mental health. On paper I should have no reason to be depressed - I have just got a PhD, landed an amazing job and live in one of the nicest parts of the world, but that means nothing to my brain. I have to say I saw a previous video you did where you said you were depressed today and I did worry at that point that it was sending the wrong message (I knew what you meant but thought it could also be taken as you can just be depressed for one day rather than it being a condition). But seeing you recently in your more vulnerable state my heart goes out to you. I am not very prolific on social media myself but in my worst times over the last year I have finally found relief in sharing instead of bottling it up. I always immediately regret it as sharing too much but two recent posts have prompted a couple of male friends to message me and share their mental health issues - something that no-one else knew about. I no longer regretted the posts. Of course I didn't share anything that they'd told me with anyone else but I knew what triggered bad episodes and so could subtly guide people on what to say/not say to them. I know I'm going on but this is a really important subject to me, not just because of my own mental health but also because just over a year ago I lost one of my best friends to suicide. I felt incredible guilt as I was the only person he spoke to about his issues but I couldn't help him. I really wish he had felt he could be more open about his issues and not feel the stigma. I think it is really good to step back and look at what you are doing and you are in a unique position of having a lot of followers, many of whom are very young. But I just hope you are looking at it from the perspective of number one what actually helps you and then number two are you helping others (even if its only a few people). If sharing helps you then carry on - as I said I haven't seen some of what you've been talking about but maybe make it clear to younger fans that this is not something to aspire to and if they don't have mental health issues then they are the lucky ones. Of course if sharing is making you feel worse then stop. When I was at school social media wasn't a thing but being "depressed" was a phase that a lot of girls went through because it was seen as the in thing - what I'm trying to say is that you are not the reason why some people might see it that way, it will always be there. In videos where you sanitise your feelings there is actually more risk of this happening. In the ones where you show the real dirty, unpleasantness of mental health there is no glamourising - just honesty.  I hope I don't see many more videos like this for one reason, which is that I hope you start to get better. A few months ago I was in hopeless despair and thought I'd never feel better, now after getting help I feel like normal me again - still a little bit crazy but happy and hopeful. You are clearly a very kind and thoughtful person with a lot of talent, just remember that and never feel embarrassed. All the best Dodie.

<333 I am proud of you, and I'm proud that you've been able to open up a little more and that you're learning like me. I hope you don't feel any more guilt about your friend, you don't deserve to. Thank you <333


I love you💜 thank you for sharing this💕 sending hugs your way


dodie its okay, breathe its fine, well i mean its not but, just breathe. go smell a bunch of flowers and put stars on your ceiling. why? idk it'll look cool. okay just breathe. ily


Please dont hold back.Dodie! you are not too much, i can handle you...always....love you


I don't usely post under your videos, and this is probably the only time I will. I just wanned to let you know my point of view.
I don't have snapchat or instagram, and I guess it did prevent me from seen how bad your mental health was, but I do watch what you post online, especially on Youtube.
I don't think that any of your content was misplaced. I am pretty young ( 16 ), and yet, haven't found anything that shocked or traumatised me.
  I love your videos. I even refere to them when I need to explain how I feel to someone. If you still consern on how your yonger audience might react, you could forbidden some of them to the under 18. Still, I wish that you will continue making videos like the " I am depressed today ", or the one about the depersonalisation, because someone has to talk about those things here on youtube. And you do such a great job at it... You give us things to think about, you made me question myself, witch is great !
 Just think what is the best for you, witch probably include what's best for the viewers !
Courage, les français t'aiment aussi <3

I miss you and your music Dodie. I want to hear about everything that happens with you. Know you are never alone.


Dodie is wonderful like if you agree 💛💛💛


you are right, it IS "well shit", stay strong


I get why you're sorry, and I get that some people will get triggered by what you say. I never felt triggered because your posts really helped me. I feel like I experience the same thing as you, and reading you while you're in a bad state is nearly comforting because I then know I'm not alone, and you are putting words on the feeling I have.
But some people have been triggered, and it's really mature (or nice) of you to listen to these people.
I personally never felt like you were glorifying mental illness. It's not because you put beautiful words on it that it is beautiful.
Clearly, exteriorizing helps you a lot. Dan's idea is really good, I've been doing this for a few months and it really helps me.
I'm glad that you found a therapist, and I really hope he will be as good as you friend says he is. I also hope you realize you are not alone, even though you feel lonely. I know it can be really tough sometimes.
I guess you won't read the comments under this video, and you're right I think, but I felt the need to tell you that. And I don't know, if someone has read all my silly nonsense, there might be a chance that they needed to hear what I said just like I needed your words.
Have a nice day everyone, enjoy the sky and your pet. I love you


while i know that i can handle all of your pouring out, some others cannot. i am glad to see that instead of turning to your phone during your times of need you are turning to your friends.