Dodie you are my inspiration you are the only thing that can make me happy right now. I love you so much SOO MUCH. I don't know what I would do without you and all your fans. Everyone in your fan base and you have helped me with my mental illness. And I am forever grateful so I just want to say I love you and everyone else. Thank you.

And I know you won't read this but if there is a slight chance you do I want you to know that. And now I'm crying because I've never opened up about my mental illness Ahhhhh help I don't know what I've done. If anyone needs someone to talk to I'm here😘😘😊now I'm crying because dodies crying so many emotions ahhh😭😭😭

Awwww thanks hun.❤❤ I've never been in a fan base as loving as dodies.

aww it's fine you don't have to apologise it was just your comment was really sweet and if you need someone to talk to i'm here!

couldn't think of a good user name I'm sorry I was crying too.


I really liked the videos you made with Tessa on the subject of mental health - I think she has this way of being really honest about it but also really tactful and helpful, and when you're with her you do the same. Though i do think your other videos are helpful as well, and I like watching them as a way to learn more about mental illness.


I love how your not to proud to say "sorry" - many people are struggling with that


Dodie don't be embarrassed❤❤ you are incredible❤thank you for everything you have done for me...believe me...its alot..❤❤


It's a month later, and I've finally decided to respond to this because a favorite photographer of mine shared something today on a similar topic of oversharing that I thought you should see: https://instagram.com/p/BYM1ZxknzAw/

I was sad to see that there were people who felt that you WERE oversharing, since I always felt like you were sharing the right things and right when some of us needed to hear them. It felt good to follow along with what you were doing and how you were feeling.
If you've now decided that sharing a lot isn't always the answer, that's okay. It's up to you to decide when and what to share. Like Wyn says in his post, let's just be there for each other - whether we're in our most vulnerable times or at our highest points.


I wanna say two things: Firstly I think you are being too hard on yourself. You didn't meant to hurt anyone nor did you had any bad intentions. Apologising is okay because you (feel like you) made a mistake, but please try not to eat yourself too much over this (just woke up I hope that is an actual term and I didn't just translate a German term in my head without realising).
Secondly, I am happy you found a way that make you feel more comfortable and I hope it'll work out for you.
love, Jule

I think the English term is beat yourself up too much

Das ist genau das, was ich auch kommentieren wollte! :D

ThatGermanGirl (eating yourself over is a term in English too don't worry) and yeah I totally agree with you


I'm really glad you made this video dodie, an apology was definitely needed. But I really hope that everyone can move on now for the better - including yourself of course - and that I can enjoy your videos again :) (not that I don't already, I've just been avoiding most of them for quite a while because of the reasons you talked about)


When I saw your posts and videos on snapchat made me feel less alone. I could relate so much.


Part of me wants to really commend you tho, for showing what REAL mental illness can look like. Your points that it can be seen as glorifying mental illness and it not wanting to be your brand is so valid. There is a healthy way to talk about it but also- it was real. It was really how you felt and showed the tools you had in the moment to deal with it. I hope you get more and better tools in the future. But also thank you for sharing your experience with it. I related a lot and haven't stopped watching and look forward to what you make moving onward. 😽💛


Sweetie please don't feel embarrassed. You've come to an internal acknowledgment of what's ok to share and what's not, and THAT IS SO GREAT!!! YES!! GOOD!!! Just remember that we enjoy your vulnerable side because it makes you seem like a friend to us all, but ALSO you have the right to keep your feelings to yourself when you need to:)) love u xx


hey, dodie. i really love you, and i love that you talk about mental health. i don't want to be mean, but i did stop watching your snapchats and videos for a while because i found them super upsetting and made me feel shit because they were a bit too real. i think you taking a step back will make you feel a bit better, and i hope things start to get a bit better x


Dodie, you are not glorifying mental illnesses, you're just spilling your thoughts. If it helps you, then talk about your feelings; it helps me too. It's important to talk about what's on your mind because bottling it up makes it much worse. You are much more than your mental illness, and you shouldn't have to worry about it becoming your brand. It is also important for people to love you despite imperfections, and you haven't been ashamed of publicizing them before. You raised awareness of things that were so "taboo" to talk about, that they were basically unknown. Everything that you've done is more than I could ever ask for, and I respect you on your choice to share a little less, but just know that there are people who have grown and felt more understood from your content. Lots of love❤💛💚💙💜


Well done! You are a wonderful person xx


I'm not looking into dodie's eyes with tears pricking my own eyes in a public library you are


Dodie, this was such a brave video to make. More so even than any of your videos about mental health, or your oversharing video, in my opinion. It is so incredibly hard to own up to, and /especially/ to take responsibility for, having made a mistake. Doubly so because of just how public this is. I am so impressed by the dignity and grace that you have handled this with, and as always for being so honest. Your openness and honesty are a huge part of what I love and respect about you as a musician and youtube creator. I can't speak for anyone else, but I just want you to know that everything you've shared online regarding your mental health, and how open you've been about your struggles with it have, for me at least, not been too much or hurtful or anything like that. You say that letting yourself vent online gave you an outlet, made you feel less alone. For the record, it made me feel less alone too. It made being stuck in a brain you can't control, with thoughts and emotions that are completely overwhelming, a little less terrifying. A little more manageable.
So, while I completely respect that you feel that you have crossed a line and that you feel that the level of personal sharing that you have been doing has done more harm than good, for you and others, it is just so important to me that you know that it hasn't been all bad. In fact, for me, it's done more good than I'm sure you will ever know. I sincerely hope that you find a safe and productive outlet for everything you're going through and dealing with. I know struggling with mental illness is hard. It's fucking exhausting, and feels utterly impossible half the time. But for the record? You're really, truly not alone.
I love and admire you so, /so/ much. Thank you for everything you do for your audience, the beautiful music that you make, and all of the hope and light you spread. <3


I'm relly glad you realized this. It's a mature step to take. Something that's helped me is have a journal with a friend. You can spill your worst to someone you trust but it doesn't result in direct confrontation from that friend if you don't want to.


dodie,

I just wanted to say, that I really appreciated you publicly sharing your mental health. It was nice to know that I wasn't alone, and my feelings weren't made up (as I sometimes convince myself they are). It was form of validation to me. Now, I don't want you to feel bad and change your decision just because me and a few other people say we were ok with you sharing, I just wanted to let you know that your good intentions were still good to me (and those few other people). I wish there was a way to continue to see those videos and Instagrams that you would've posted, but still keep it separate from your social media platforms. Obviously this isn't gonna happen, but I wish it could. Anyways, we love you. Keep doing what you're doing, you're on the right track. 💛💛💛

(If you're reading this and agree with me, like so dodie can see.)(If you're dodie reading this, ilysm and I hope you know that.)
:)


Dodie don't feel so bad about yourself.You are strong,brave and an amazing person.


make the videos. film them, edit them, dont post them. I've heard that just talking to a camera helps. so film them, but keep them for yourself<br>its like writing in a journal

make the videos. film them, edit them, dont post them. I've heard that just talking to a camera helps. so film them, but keep them for yourself
its like writing in a journal


don't worry you're amazing, don't be embarrassed you're fantastical, don't feel bad you're astounding.


Yeah, I did have to step away from some of your posts, but they also really help me. And now that you've realized you're over sharing, and learned from it, that's really helpful for me too as well as some of the younger impressionable audience members to see that there is a line for social media that we need to be aware of. So thanks dodie, there were some lessons I got out of this, but I'm sorry you had to experience it . Ily


Dear Dodie,
All of your videos, the deep and sad and the light and happy, have made me throughly enjoy you as a person. You have made me understand that no one is perfect and I shouldn’t try to be. In the past, I have suffered from anxiety and depression. From a traumatic experience with one of my classmates, I had this crippling fear that anyone that I trusted would eventually stab me in the back and humiliate me. This made me isolate myself from my friends and believe that there was something wrong with me. I believed that I wasn’t beautiful because I didn’t wear the right clothes or had a naturally pretty face. It had gotten to the point where I would have a breakdown every time I left my house without make up and stylish clothes. In my pit of darkness, I discovered your channel on YouTube. Your videos that discussed the importance of natural beauty and the troubles of mental illness have truly made myself be confident again. Because of you, I reconnected with my friends and got out of an unhealthy relationship. Although you have been oversharing lately, you will always be my light at the end of the tunnel. Always know that I will love you and your channels because of the messages that you talk about in your videos and that you truly care about your audience.
With Love,
Makayla ❤


"Make yourself a wonderful cup of tea." I was literally swallowing the last of my tea as you said that sentence.


Dodie I really appreciate the lengths you are going to to address this. Not everyone has the same opinion but I think we can all very much appreciate the clarification and to see that you can talk to someone that will talk back and give answers to you in real time makes me so happy for you. Remember that you are loved by so many people, close friends, family, and us. ❤❤❤

And one more thing, it's human to make mistakes and most people would not have apologized as much as you did, which is not a bad thing. Personally I Thank you for sharing and for you thoughts as they have helped me personally but I can see the other side of the spectrum. Making mistakes are a part of life and as long as you can recognize them and act upon them then that means you are just gaining experience and more insight into humanity itself. So anyways just.... Thank you for handling everything the way that you have even though it might not have been easy. Keep at your journaling and diary entrees because it makes a world of difference sometimes. ❤


Dodie you are beautiful and you are loved. It hurts to see you sad so I am sending you my love and hope you get better ♥


we love you too Dodie and I didn't think your posts we're triggering at all but Im sure you made is the right decision :')


Dodie when you share things, it's honest. That's good. That's nothing to be ashamed of. Sure, it's good to understand that what you put online is always there, but it's great that you're reaching out to other people. It's good to realize you're not alone when things are bad, for the audience and you. Never be ashamed of what you're feeling. Thank you for making us not feel alone, dodie.


This video shows your audience just how much you care about yourself, and it makes me so happy that you are trying to fix this and that you are mature enough to know to get help. This made me very happy, and I hope you are very happy (permanently) very soon


I think I'm going to write pieces for a book when I'm going through a depressive episode and having a panic attack, because maybe that might help? I don't know. But thank you Dodie for making this video and talking about boundaries and mental illness and the importance of filtered sharing. Thank you so much


I don't think you've done anything really bad, it was a simple mistake and it's good you are overcoming it. I remember sometimes watching your Snapchats would make me feel less isolated and other times, it would make me realise my own falling demise. I loved the video dodie, and I can't wait to see you on tour x


I'm proud of you for realizing the ways you coped were toxic not just to yourself but to other people.I'm proud you've found ways to healthily recover and cope


I don't think you messed up! It really helped me seeing it isn't just me that's like that. I really recommend "the subtle art of not giving a f*ck". It's an amazing book I'm reading right now! Please check it out


Dodie, as someone who is 21 and has struggled with mental illness for years, thank you for sharing both your inner workings, and for these videos/this video where you talk about boundaries and what is appropriate to share. my sense of what is healthy and normal to feel and share is very very skewed and while this is painful for you I am proud of you for growing and thankful you let us see this process because it is helpful for me to hear the perspective of someone I admire as much as you who struggles with similar things and I sincerely hope you continue to grow and get better.


Dodie, your mindset convinced you that sharing these feelings and catching them in the moment was good for you and others. You were not going into this knowing that these graphic descriptions of depression and depersonalization were too much for some viewers. I personally really like watching you in the moment, but to an extent. I think I like watching videos about this (mainly from you) because I do not have a mental illness that is diagnosed, so I like learning about how people are dealing with it and how to be there for people who are suffering. Even though I cannot speak from experience considering I have never suffered from depression/depersonalization, I do have an overwhelming amount of thoughts and it's nice to get inside someone else's head for a little bit to distract yourself from...well ultimately yourself. Even if the mind your distracting yourself, with doesn't necessarily have nice thoughts. after all this, I was just trying to say that you have nothing to be embarrassed about. I actually did turn off my laptop and my phone, and drank some tea and went outside after watching this video and it felt nice. Lots of love to you Dodie.


Dodie, honey, I really like you and your content. I think that your "brand" has more good things to it then bad. This video is very intelligent and self-woke, which is great! What I'm trying to say is don't be too hard on yourself, please ❤💕 be safe


I think that it's best to talk about mental health after your experiences. Yes I know that mental illness is ongoing and it's always there but it's nicer to look back on how you once were compared to how you are now - once you're better.


i love you. you're doing the right thing. stay strong, dodie x


It's okay Dodie this whole fandom is understanding and we all forgive you and love you


We all honestly love you so bloody much dodie.


It's really brave what you're doing. There are no guidelines on how you should handle this and it's normal to make some mistakes. I hope you still share the slightly less detailed stuff as they've definitely helped me along my path of mental health (and the lack of it). I think that I may have been oversharing as well and even though people come to me to say how much they appreciate my blog posts about depression and anxiety, it's kinda hitting me how everyone can read them. My parents, my old teachers, ... and even though it's important to be transparent about some subjects for awareness, there are boundaries I guess. I know that now and you were a part of that realisation with your oversharing video. So thanks for that and still thanks for sharing.


I love you dodie and thank you for everything


dodie, this is one of the first things of yours that i've been able to look at in a while. i am so sorry that it's hurting you so bad but please don't feel bad, we all make mistakes. and your judgement is completely impaired by mental illness. you were not in a mindset where you could logically think about what you were posting or realize the other side of effects it may have. so don't apologize. i know you feel like you need to, so trust me when i say we all forgive you. i'm glad to be able to start watching you again because i truly look up to you so so much. as a 16 year old girl, you've been a role model of mine ever since i subscribed 800K subscribers ago:) i will always support you and pray that things get better for you. just keep breathing and being the dodie we all love and adore. best wishes xoxo.


Oh dodie youtube is a place where you can share anything. I know that I dont care i watch these videos and read those posts because i love you. I love the message you put out and the attitude you have. Don't worry 💗💗


I just wanted to let you know that personally your posts haven't triggered me and I didn't find them glorifying. However I've never been easily triggered, so really your posts have been helping me a lot and I don't feel so alone now. Love u dodie you're being a good adult xoxo


You shouldn't be embarrassed, you're human. Especially when in a hard place it's easy to give into social media as a way to cope. I'm glad you've learned something from this but I have too, it's okay to share and I've had problems with that in the past but I've learned that it's okay to keep some of the bad things out of the public eye just not everything


Dodie, no matter what mistakes you've made in the past, you should be so so proud of yourself for addressing this problem and realizing you needed to fix it. This video and the one you made with Hazel are the best thing you could've done in this situation and I'm quite proud of you for that. It's very easy to get caught up in all your emotions or perhaps lack of emotions and let it all out. It may seem cathartic in the moment, but you've realized that it's not healthy in the long run and your life is going to be greater bc of that realization. Thank you dodie for all you do💕


I'm glad that you're discussing this because the overstating was affecting me in a negative way and I didn't want to have to unfollow your snapchat and insta


Don't be to hard on your self. You've helped me, if that matters💕


I hope you'll feel better dodie. ur such a wonderful human being. ur my inspiration and ur important to me. no pressure. just be yourself and idk... don't do anything you feel bad with


I understand how some are saying these posts are "triggering" and how it's difficult for them to read it. But I don't understand, no matter how in depth and personal and deep your posts get I still manage to read them and they have all helped me through so much and helped me discover myself and understand some of the emotions I feel and why I feel them and just get a better understanding of how other people feel, even though your posts help me they also help me help others as if I see someone that is showing similar "symptoms" or acting similarly then I may know how to help them and understand and care for them better. I feel that you can post whatever you want on the internet and you have freedom of speech. It's others people's decision to read and respond to these posts. Some people may only like to read posts where you're at a high point, others maybe prefer the personal ones where you're on your low point and some, like myself, are honestly happy with anything you want to post and share as it helps me and as you say, it helps you greatly too. So please, keep this all in mind. Thank you dodie for everything you have helped me with, and I'm glad by helping me you've been able to help yourself too❤ I just wanted to get my opinion across


Online hug to Dodie, and to everyone watching.


dodie, you are seriously so so strong and brave and it took a lot to be able to come out and publicly admit this, and apologise. you did the right thing for yourself and your viewers, and you should be proud of that. you are doing good dodie.


I am so happy for you! Congratulations!!


I;m super impressed you made this video and I'm really excited to see what is coming next because if you do stick to what you're saying then I know I'll be here at lot more than I have in recent months because I wont be scared I'm going to walk in on something that will potentially cause me to relapse


Aw dodie... don't be sorry for doing something that secures you mentally. Most of us are trying to understand how hard it is and WE KNOW that this is terrible, and WE KNOW this is hard for you... and you shouldn't be sorry for that. I think you can always fall back into your audience and let us catch you, and that's what you've been doing. I think that it's great that you now understand that your audience will gradually loose their strength and occasionally drop you when you need it most.

I really, really hope you know (you probably do) that your audience is THE MOST utterly beautiful society I've been in. This community is amazing, the comment section on every video is so positive and refreshing, unlike many other comment sections on YouTube which are polluted with hatred. I believe that this society will help you push through, and we will try our best to catch you every time.

Now that you understand that we do loose our footing as well, it's... just wonderful.

I love you dodie, we all do. You've grown and matured into this stunning person. I really do hope that your depersonalisation leaves you alone and you can recover quickly.

But for now, we'll keep trying our best to catch you. So don't worry.


I have DPD (depersonalization disorder) as well. In fact, I knew it was a thing and something to talk to my therapist and psychiatrist about. So thank you for bringing it up to a certain extent. At the same time, it does become almost triggering. But also, I love it. It is something for me to connect with. For me, I frequently would post on snapchat or my finsta all about my stuff and my mental issues. However, I created really scared friends and people thinking I'm crazy. I learned boundaries by getting rid of everything, and slowly allowing it back. I deleted facebook, instagram, twitter, and snapchat from my phone. I didn't let myself go on. So now (as of like 2 weeks ago, lol), I can have some of it, but I am not addicted to using it as a cry for help or a distraction


dodie, i have always wished i could help you and understand your feelings, but the truth is that i don't because i just haven't experienced this sort of mental illness (which is good i guess :) ). however, i think i speak for all your followers to say that we love you because you are so down to earth and real, no flashy lights, no filters, we know it's the real you and your amazing musical talent. therefore, although you may have been oversharing and it's great that you have been able to see that and do something about it, know that we all support you and are watching your videos because we really get you :) thank you for being such an amazing person, especially with all the shit you have been going through. :)))


Dodie I think you're response and apology were done beautifully, but I beg you not to be so hard on yourself. It's difficult to think straight when you're at your lowest. You're an amazing role model for so many and never forget that. We all love you so much.


Dodie it's ok if you need to get it out you can get it out we all go through this ♥


You shouldn't be afraid to cry... just cry. You need to, it's ok to cry online. It's not always a bad thing.


oh dodie dear! please do not apologize to all of us! we are here for you, we understand.. you shouldn't be embarrassed for sharing how you feel. I know how you feel and I know that isn't much because I'm just me, and you don't know me. but I've always related to all you post. I fully accept and understand your decision. I hope you are doing well on this fine day. we love you, I love you dodie. you're my biggest inspiration!


I just want to say that it is okay to make a mistake and it's very big of you to acknowledge what's been going on. I really love what you do and I think the best thing you can do is to take your own advice that you give out more often. Anytime I'm feeling low I watch your ASMR video to remind myself that I am appreciated. Love you Dodie, please take care of yourself. You shouldn't feel pressured to pump out content either. We will still be here even if you take a break to breathe.


So good. So pure. So real. <br>Mental health warps your perception, best thing to do is sit on things until s better frame of mind arises. Well done dodie

So good. So pure. So real.
Mental health warps your perception, best thing to do is sit on things until s better frame of mind arises. Well done dodie


hey hey just because people feel that they have to step away from your videos doesnt inherently mean youre doing anything terrible! thats their choice and its good that they can make it, and thats exactly why your content doesnt always have to be comfortable for others.  its good to do this self reflection and think of the impressionability of your audience and how they perceive and its effect on you but maybe dont be too quick to label your honesty as dangerous when there is also a dangerous lack of honesty in the world. there are good and bad sides to everything. maybe adding trigger warnings to things is a good way to level the playing field and highlight the significance of exposing some of the horrors of mental illness. either way, i hope you strike a comfortable and mutually healthy balance <3


I'm so happy, that you did this video in order to apologise and point out the risk of sharing such intimate and triggering things via social media. I was a little concerned myself because i had a friend to, who struggled with mental health issues and I really understand what it feels like to worry. Worrying about someone's mental state, worrying all the time. And although you don't know many of your followers personally, there will always be a close relationship between you and them. therefore it can be very dangerous to keep them worrying about you though they can't always help you. I loved how you said that your mental health problems won't be your brand because you are so much more than that. <3


I feel this- I overshare so much to my boyfriend, especially about suicidal thoughts and self harm, and I worry constantly that it will affect him. I'm so visceral with what I say that I scare myself when the thoughts go away the next morning. I'm trying to find a way to vent that's a bit less damaging, but idk how :(


it makes me so sad that you are so sad dodie :(( ❤ i will keep watching im still here for when you do want to post


Dodie, this is the best thing you could have done. I lost a lot of respect for you but you have bouyed that back up in gallons. It takes a lot to admit when you were wrong and to genuinely apologise. It shows extreme maturity and strength. I am glad you have made this video. I hate to see you cry. I hope you get better soon.


<333 love u so much I'm so glad you're working on changing the amount u share with us <333 I hope it goes ok for u x


dodie no matter what you do (unless you like, murder someone¿) you will always have my support and very many others. you are stong. you are lovely. you are beautiful. mistakes are made, and that's okay. mental health is something that is widely spread across the internet and that's somewhat good and somewhat terrible. there's a balance. and you'll find it. stay strong bb we all love you


So proud of you Dodie, for reading all of those comments and taking it all constructively and learning from them

I must admit, I haven't been watching many of your videos lately (i don't know if it's because I found it confronting or if I just didn't happen to watch them though), so I don't really know much about your "online oversharing"

However, from this video and the video before, I gained some new  respect for you because of the way you've handled the realisation that maybe you were oversharing

EDIT: As someone who has a diagnosed mental illness, I have to thank you for actually talking about mental illness. It really does make you feel like you're not alone, and i'm eternally thankful for that


This video made me realize that knowing how to be vulnerable isn't the equivalent to letting out all of your emotions to anyone willing to listen.


I love you so much dodie and yes this you did something and you cant take it back, but you now know and that's all that matters. yiur amazing!!


Dodie it was because of you that I was able to get through Highschool. Your beautiful voice and beautiful personality are what bring me the inspiration to keep going. It makes me know that you're simply human with anxieties, fears, and sadness like I am. I've been having a hard time opening up to others and you've taught me to try and be positive everyday. ^_^ thank you. ❤


I think the way you have thought about this and the decision you made is really wonderful. Being able to step back like that and realize what you've been doing wrong but also the good you've been doing, and then taking steps to only keep the positive parts of your influence is really admirable. That being said, don't beat yourself up about anything you said. Everyone does something they regret later even if it was done without bad intentions. Stay strong, ily <3


Dodie, you are so inspiring and have helped so many people with your music and your channel, including me when I was having trouble finding reasons to do much of anything or talk to anyone, your videos made me feel like the was some kind of tether I could hold on to because I had already drifted so far away from the people I cared about because of anxiety and depression so when I see that you have been feeling so bad, it breaks our hearts. I wish I could just give you a big hug and tell you that everything is going to be alright. Please be strong Dodie, you are amazing.


Thanks for apologizing. As someone who watches your snapchat stories I just want to say that most of the time I'm just worried about you babe. Other times it puts me in a bit of a mood, and sometimes escalates.

While I don't blame you, I think it is important to take that step back. When I'm at a low point, sometimes I don't even realize it so I watch/read things that I can normally deal with (and then I can't whoooops). In those cases, I think it's important to at least write down and plan what you're going to talk about on snapchat, so before you talk about anything potentially triggering, you can warn us :) that way people like me can take a step back and assess if we could handle the topics you're going to talk about  <3

If you read this dodie just know that I love you lots and you've helped me loads. I discovered you after I went through some trauma and your music and videos helped me process it. Also I used tourist/anti tourist (lol) as my audition song for my awesome acapella group yeeee ily <333333


Dodie! I love you so much and there are so many people who love you soooo much! There's no need to feel embarrassed. I know it's hard to believe but everything is going to be ok. Continue sharing your experiences and continue being you because you are an AMAZING person and you are beautiful and kind and just all around incredible. I know sometimes it's hard to believe, trust me, I understand. It has helped me to listen and read what you have posted because it makes me feel less alone. Thank you so much dodie ☺ I love you and I hope from the bottom of my heart that you feel better!❤❤ keep moving and continue incredible!!! Ok I'll stop now but once again I love you so much dodie!! And thank you ☺❤❤


I just want to say that I'm so proud of you how you're handling it right now. You used this to learn from it and grow and that's something to be so proud of honestly. And as long as it's in a healthy way so people can learn from it and that it's relatable it's all right. I'm glad you still want to talk about mental illnesses etc and you want to do it in a healthy way (: I'm proud.


A thought I've expressed before. When you have very impressionable young people hearing their favourite youtubers talk a lot about anxiety and depression it can be harmful depending on how it's conveyed- it can cause children to try to look relate to you and overthink things and actually develop mental problems because of it, as they're constantly surrounded by idols in an unstable state. I remember watching youtubers when I was younger made me feel less confident and made me more anxious and insecure due to the overexposure I had to it, when I was previously more comfortable with myself. I'm glad you're willing to show how everyone had down days and aren't happy always, but I'm glad you've recognised how there's a limit to what is healthy to share. Very proud of you (don't he embarrassed!) this was such a positive and challenging video to make and to acknowledge your mistakes. Love you!!


awww I love you dodie, I too suffer from mental health issues.  Self-Care is super important. xoxoxox


This video has sent me a harsh wake up call. I always vent my emotions and what I’m thinking online but I don’t know if that’s always the right thing to do. I have a fan account on instagram that no one irl knows about. Last year, when my depression was at its worst, i would constantly turn to that account to vent, to write out what I was feeling. Reflecting on that, it probably wasn’t the right thing to do but I was drawn to it. I wanted SOMEONE to listen, to know that I wasn’t okay. I wrote down a lot of depressed shit and it probably wasn’t making the people seeing that feel any better. I don’t think everyone truly understands the word “trigger” because being triggered isn’t just a meme, it could come from a tiny thing that someone says to you. It could even come from a gesture. It’s so easy to get triggered, especially if you’ve not got a stable mental state. Ive finally been on the receiving end of someone else writing down their thoughts etc. My friend sometimes writes down some depressed stuff and it takes me back a step in my recovery. It makes me feel like shit, in so much pain for them and myself. Thank you for making this video dodie and for making me realise:)


hey, don't be sad it's alright. you didn't messed up "so much" mistakes are here to be fixed, and you will try to keep this side of you out of public eye and be healthier about that so please, please, please don't feel bad it's gonna be ok


I cried watching this, because it upset me. I related to the things you did on Snapchat and Instagram -the oversharing and going to deep and descriptive about your mental state at the time that it upset readers and watchers, who had to turn away from reading/watching. I never found those hard to watch or read because I would do this but to my friends, I would message them or call them upset and go see deep about my mental health that it genuinely scared them but I never saw that all I saw was they care and put up with my vents. It become so often I done this and so graphic the way I was telling them that if I ever seemed the tiniest bit sad they would instantly be so concerned and worried because they thought that it might happen again, that I'll breakdown and go so deep that it's like I can't get back out and I'd drag them down with me. So thank you miss dodie Clark for realising your mistakes and helping me realise mine and for being so genuinely sorry about them :) x


one of my biggest role models. though you are not perfect you come through even stronger.


Could you do a live stream and raise money for Mental Heath? It's a positive way. You can help others. You'll put DOWN mental health, and you'll inspire younger fans!

We love you, Dodie!
Be safe!


Please don't stop sharing these things! In some weird way, reading your posts helps others who are struggling with kind of the same things. <br>Maybe just put a trigger warning before your posts or video's where you talk about these things.

Please don't stop sharing these things! In some weird way, reading your posts helps others who are struggling with kind of the same things.
Maybe just put a trigger warning before your posts or video's where you talk about these things.


as someone who is the same age as you I just wanted to let you know that your posts and snapchats about your mental health have helped me a lot. yes, the were very graphic at times, but I don't think I'm as young as the majority of your audience. your posts helped me deal with the fact that I can be a somewhat functioning adult but also be mentally ill at the same time - that they are not mutually exclusive. I've heard from a lot of people that by this stage in my life I should be "over it" by now (lol literally the worst thing you can say to someone with poor mental health) but I guess your posts reassured me that that is not necessarily the case? That being said, I'm glad you're not going to be as explicit as you have been in the past regarding your mental health. I know I wouldn't want my younger brothers (who are 12 and 14 years old) to know or hear about the fucked up thoughts in my head.

diamond bird teenage years are hard enough as it is, although my sister knows about it, it's something she's had to live with virtually all her life and I want the effect of it on her to be as minimal as possible

diamond bird just because I don't openly discuss my depression with my younger siblings doesn't mean that I'm hiding it from them. They know about it and they also know that if they wanted to talk to me about their own mental health they can. the difference between them talking about their problems and me talking about mine is that am the adult in the situation, they are minors. They don't need added problems on top of their own. Even if a minor does have an understanding of mental health issues, they should not have to listen to or feel responsible for how an adult feels. I'm glad you opened up and talked about what was going on in your head and got help! I'm not discouraging that. I am discouraging making a minor feel like they are responsible for helping an adult.

why would you want to hide something so important from an important person when they can possibly help..? im one of those 14 year olds that understands mental health so much and will do things to help, and if something happens to that person and i find out, i would feel like a worthless person and think things like, why wouldnt they open up to me, did i do something wrong that i couldnt be trusted with information that heavy, i couldve helped. ive opened up to people about what thoughts were going through my mind and they helped me. i got better and im not hurt anymore

leah low  what is her snapchat because I want to support her on other social media’s then just YouTube

Yeah same!!! I'm over 18 now and I found dodie's social media so helpful and encouraging, even when she wasn't in a great mental state. I've learnt from this video as well! To be mindful of my audience, and to not use social media as a pressure valve when I'm feeling down. It's such a shame that dodie feels so bad about it... it's ok... we're all learning here bby

leah low 👍🏼👍🏼 and I do the same with my 15 year old sister, I try and keep everything as normal as I can around her

Katie Ahronson I don't necessarily think it's an age thing either, I think young people are perfectly aware that she was being graphic and that being so transparent when she's feeling at her worse wasnt the most healthiest thing to do lol. this lil post was just me saying thanks

Tbh I don't think it's an age thing, I think it was more the format/phrasing

leah low im not her age and they've helped me on so many levels; I think her 'fan base' or whatever you'd like to call us is so so so accepting and sympathetic to others issues and feelings no matter how graphic they may be.💛

Me too. It's a shame she thinks(or is being told) that her being so open is a negative trait of hers, because I honestly related to it beyond words. I think she's doing so much good towards removing stigmas but as you say, I also wouldn't want my young family knowing my darkest thoughts.

I'm around dodie's age as well and I think her posts have helped me at lot too. I sometimes forget that younger people watch her but now that dodie has pointed it out I wouldn't want my little sister to hear graphic descriptions of my depression either


We all understand that it is hard to get out the feelings and that over sharing can be an issue but we still love u soooooooo much and u shouldn't be embarrassed. U have taught me a lot about mental health as a 13 year old girl. U have so many amazing friends who are always there for u. Stay happy. "One day you'll say your OKAY and MEAN it." - Dodie


I struggled with this kind of thing quite a bit when I was younger, especially on my collab channel (fiveawesomegirls) when I was having a particular amount of trouble with my depression. I just kind of stopped posting on my own channel when I was at my lowest, but I'd committed to a schedule on that the other channel and ended up being my very sad self in lots of videos there. I found that that line can take a while to find, and I crossed it a few times before I really placed it and set rules for what I'm willing to share online.

So, so many people told me that sharing my experiences helped them, but the few people who had negative things to say at my weakest points just hurt me too much (I still remember the two directed at my depression that hit me the hardest and it's been 6 or 7 years). My mental health overall has been much better since I drew the right line for me, but I do sometimes feel more alone when I'm having a rough patch and I feel like I can't express myself the way I want to. At the end of the day, I needed a balance and that can take a lot of work to find.


Dear dodie, I have been fan girling over you for nearly a year now, I discovered you because of one of my very very close friends.... you've helped me so much !
As someone who doesn't feel "normal" as you say I struggle with everyday life.... about a year and a half ago my best friend got diagnosed with depression and it's been tough... but I'm scared I also have it and I haven't been to check but every symptom my friend has, I have and I struggle a lot with that and you have been the person who I have turned to when I am in my " dark places" or my "cloud days" as I call them... when I feel my worst I watch your video because they make me so happy. They take me out of what is the real world and put me into a world where everything is happy and colourful and happy... I don't t really know the meaning of this, I guess maybe to say thank you, which is strange because I've never actually meeting you.... I'm seeing you in Glasgow though!!! And I couldn't be more excited.... Thank you so much and I hope one day you'll feel amazing and the amazing feeling of not being spaced out stays and you be a happy perky you 24/7. I love you and even though it's 1 am I hope you're sleeping and I hope you're having good dreams again thank you

Rachael xxxxxx


You know, even though I did feel kind of taken aback and reminded of things I didn't want to be thinking about when you'd make those posts, I liked them. I was okay with the moment of trigger, tbh. Good on you for being conscientious about it, but don't feel too bad. :)


i think you are so brave. you own up to your mistakes and that's the best thing anyone could learn from you. i think what you did was wrong, and there is a line, but the way you dealt with it is just a great example to your audience


(I know this is late but...)
In my opinion, to this day I think you have not done anything wrong. People can say what they need to say but your videos and content helps me understand that I’m not the only person who feels bad about themselves.

Your content is like a therapy to yourself and to many others and if that makes you happy and makes others happy (which it does) you do not need to feel ashamed or upset about what YOU decide to post and not what OTHERS decide YOU need to post.

So yeah this is just my opinion please don’t attack me about it if you think I’m wrong xx


If I didn't love you before, seeing you admit that maybe you shouldn't have shared as much as you did and say sorry up front, has made me have the utmost respect for you 💖💖


You being rational and thinking about your audience like a little sister is so important to me, because your posts were starting to affect me, but then I thought it wasn't your fault, because it wasn't. Thank you for re-evaluating your decisions and thinking about us. Is not your fault, and I love you. Thank you for talking about your thoughts and everything.


you know all these people are writing super long paragraphs blah blah blah i just wanted to say i love you so much and i hope you stay strong (no hate to anyone taking the time to write a message i think it's very wonderful) <3 :)


you’re a fucking angel and i love you <b>soooo</b> fucking much!! you’re a beautiful human deserving of all the love.

you’re a fucking angel and i love you *soooo* fucking much!! you’re a beautiful human deserving of all the love.


Hun, it's ok. I know you have a 'young audience' but please do not forget that you are also young.
You're a good egg. And you're just living your life. And I love you.
X


Dodie :D first, I realy Love you and second  I Love you! Stop saying you're sorry. You are amazing and an inspiration to a lot of People!


Nothing to apologise for, lady. We all make mistakes and we're all making it up as we go. You've done MUCH more good than harm. 😘


You aren't glorifying mental illness and you don't need to be ashamed. You made mistakes and I know it's cheesy and you've heard it a B I L L I O N times but everyone makes mistakes. You did what you thought was right at the time and that's all you can really do. Thank you for trying your best, im so excited for Veda 😘😘


Hello dodie!! I am not normally one to comment on videos, but this one has hit me so close to home that here I am. It saddens me to hear how guilty you are feeling. I don't think you should feel that you've severely messed up, or that you're "glorifying mental health," or "making it your brand." For me, at least, your videos and posts are so speciaI. I find you incredibly real, and relatable, and your words strike a chord with me unlike any other. I completely support your decision to work on boundaries, but I hope you know that for many like me, you have been a great source of help and comfort.  Best of wishes to you, and stay strong as always. 🌻


I just want to wrap you up in blankets and give you tea and tell you everything will be okay ❤ I love you and stay strong xx


dodie, you have no idea how much respect i have for you after this. You are so brave and strong, you acknowledged what you did was unhealthy and apologised which is hard for a lot of people to do. Hope your mental health improves :P, cuz it is well shit to have a mental illness. Sending my love <3


I saw a much more mature and adult side to you in this video Dodie and I'm happy that you did this, but while I'm not too keen on the oversharing your posts about depersonalisation have helped me a lot because it's given me something to relate how I'm feeling to. I also wouldn't say you've messed up, but maybe try and talk about mental health in more of an objective way rather than a subjective way?? But thank you, this was important


This video was perfect. We love you Dodie! ♡


Awweeee Dodie I love youuu 💗 please don't be so hard on yourself about this


Sure something's get intense....but it's sorta refreshing to see something so real. I don't think you need to apologize for being you and talking about these things since that is a very hard thing to do...I think you should be proud of yourself for allowing yourself to be so vulnerable but I support whatever you do...I hope that things get better and that something beautiful comes from it😁


I'm glad you've figured out that the oversharing isn't healthy for you & you're moving forward. I don't think you should feel guilty for being open about mental illness (I also struggle with depersonalisation and it has been really important to me to be able to follow your journey) but I can see that - as you've said - some of your posts crossed a line from discussion/awareness into content that was probably exacerbating your symptoms. I guess I just want to say that I don't think you should feel horrible about the stuff you've shared for your audience's sake, but more because it isn't what was good for you. Good luck anyway. ❤


The oversharing also hurts the person, because it provides something short term that will go away. It becomes like an addiction, requiring more of that short term result.


I think as your audience and as people who love and care about you, we all forgive and understand you. Your health has caused you to some things that you don't like and that's okay because you're smart and have seen the problem and you're working towards helping yourself and others which is a beautiful and brave thing. Best of luck x


Why did I start crying when you started crying.<br>Dodie, the stuff you shared on social media on your mental illness has been a bit graphic I guess, but please know that your videos and those type of posts have actually helped me go through mine. I found out that I have depression not too long ago, and the things you've said about your mental problems have made me feel better because I don't feel so alone. I learned that it's normal to be not okay, to cry for no reason, to have my brain not function and that it's not my fault. I love you Dodie, and I'm grateful for everything you've done ❤

Why did I start crying when you started crying.
Dodie, the stuff you shared on social media on your mental illness has been a bit graphic I guess, but please know that your videos and those type of posts have actually helped me go through mine. I found out that I have depression not too long ago, and the things you've said about your mental problems have made me feel better because I don't feel so alone. I learned that it's normal to be not okay, to cry for no reason, to have my brain not function and that it's not my fault. I love you Dodie, and I'm grateful for everything you've done ❤


thank you for your maturity and honest response dodie.


I am so proud of you. You are so strong and its okay that you made a mistake. Your learning and I hope you can feel proud with your self soon. Love you


Wow. This video was, wow. I have my first therapy session tomorrow morning and this was quite comforting and helpful. I don't know how but it was. I love your videos because they're so important to me and people like you and me. Everyone has emotions and when you know you're not alone and when the people like you can make you feel hopeful, it really does a lot. You've also know your mistakes and had basic human decency to apologize for it. Thank you for being an amazing person.


I love you. I love you I love you I love you. Like you, I am the type of person who has no issues being vulnerable with anyone and everyone. I cry in front of other people (often!). Talking about my mental health helps me so much. But, I sometimes feel that I'm annoying others or that my friends are tired of hearing about my mental health. Through your sharing, I have found that I am not the only one who wants to be completely open, and that's okay, but it needs to be controlled. I think you handled this situation in the absolute best way possible. I might ask my friends directly if I overshare with them, and if I'm told that I do, I will send them this video. It's perfect and honest. Thank you. I love you. Don't feel embarrassed. I love you.


I relate a lot to you. I put myself out there and I'm learning to be more private. But we also help SOOO many people by talking about it. Ily so much dodie. Plz know that u have helped people. And help people relate and figure out themselves. Do not be sorry. What you do is fabulous. I don't want you to treat us as your little sister because this is why we ARE going through!!


Dodie, honestly I think this, more than anything, is so very brave to say. It's a hard thing to admit that you've done a bad thing, and try and attempt to fix it, to retrain yourself into dealing with your emotions differently, and - it's just so overpoweringly brave. I'm sitting here watching this thinking 'god she is so strong to be able to say this' and I can feel your guilt I can feel how bad this makes you feel and still you try to fix it honestly, this is courageous. Strong. Bravery at its really. You're an inspiration lovely ❤


aaaa I'm gonna cry (good crying tho) i love you and I'm so proud of you dodie❤


don't be sorry. as a fellow mental illness sufferer i've really appreciated all of your posts, the intense ones too. <3

the way she was doing it couldnt have been good for her either a real addiction and im glad she has realised and i know/hope she will share her experiences when she has grown from then but in a truly dodie style artist way that we inspire many just like this video, i have to say i have alot of respect for especially from this video. this was truly brave

20 something I understand where you're coming from, but I think telling her she shouldn't apologize isn't the right approach.

please don't tell her not to apologise. her posts may not have affected you, but they definitely have negatively impacted much of her audience. also as hazel mentioned in the last video, they've affected her friends. i absolutely love and support dodie, and i definitely do see where you're coming from, but it is very harmful to tell someone, who is apologising to over a million people, that she shouldn't be sorry because she didn't hurt you specifically.

honestly. i never found it too much. and if i had, i would've taken a step away too and then come back later. i still don't think you've done anything wrong.


Speaking for my myself, you oversharing online didn't affect me because my mental health is usually okay, but i can see how certain things could be affecting other people (even young audience). But Dodie i just wanna say this: oversharing could be too much sometimes but i do wanna tell you that you don't have to stop sharing your feelings with us, because you have helped me so much and we can help you. We are here Dodie to fight this battle with you.


I really don't feel like you've done anything wrong at all! I don't know why you're apologising. Not sharing things online to me seems far more dangerous than supposedly oversharing. When you feel low, you don't want to talk to anyone about it, you'd rather show strangers and that's what often saves people's lives by posts they've made.


Thank you dodie I think that I am going to go to my friends instead of keeping to my self and bottling it up. Thank you I love you.


I'm so happy about this. You're an amazing person and I'm so proud of you. I struggle with my mental health as well and while at first your videos and posts about it helped me a lot, I also started to get triggered by them. Wich was a real bummer. But I think maybe this decision is also better for you? Since you won't give your emotions so much weight anymore. I mean, it's always important to respect and recognise emotions, but sometimes it helps more to just accept the feeling exists, instead of dwelling on it. It has actually helped me a lot with my depression to accept my emotions in that moment but also accept that other emotions will come, such as happiness. Meditation has also helped a ton.
I'm so glad for your decision to make your social media a save space, and keep talking about mental health, but in a way you would to your little sister.
I really hope you'll feel better soon as well because it breaks my heart to see you suffering. And it probably breaks yours as well.


I think its good that you shared, because your viewers (us teenagers) need to see the reality of mental health disorders. There are some people my age who think that sadness is depression and feeling nervous is anxiety and to see someone really going through this is really important. I don't think you did anything wrong. If it helped you, i think thats whats important and this is your channel, if it makes people uncomfortable that's fine, like, watching a sex scene with your parents is uncomfortable and you dont have to watch it? I don't know, I understand the other point of view, but really, I think you did a good thing. If no one ever speaks out to the masses, the masses will never know.  Your audience is, yes full fo impressionable teenagers, but if someone elses reality is never shown, you never know that your reality is good. I don't know, I think you did good


I don't usually comment ... but Dodie, good for you. Much love. <3 <3


I hate seeing you so sad Dodie <3 You've apologized enough, sweetheart. It's okay; you've done it enough. Focus on changing your content now. We have forgiven you <3


Doddie I'm late and I'm sorry seeing you crying makes me so sad and I just want to hug you. I love you WE love you it's ok I really want you and me to be ok. Please take care of your self and stay with your good friends and family I love you so much, and I'm sorry you had to apologize. Thank you so much for everything Thank you.


you're a complete babe and i'm really proud of you for handling this with such honesty and integrity, and honestly I was worried about how this might be affecting you so i'm relieved to see you're able to use it positively and move forwards! much love <3

p.s. some of your audience (i.e. me lol) are not so young and impressionable and in fact think of you as a little sister, of whom they are protective and proud :) (not that i have any right to be but ya know) <3


Dodie! Thank you so much for apologising and all that you do for those with mental health! You are invaluable.

However, I would love for you to address the creativity/mental health comments that were made in your previous video. I think those offhand comments are more damaging than you would realise and invalidate mentally healthy creatives as well as discourage recovery/good mental health in creatives with mental health issues.


hey.. props for the candid follow up. You know we still all love you <3


Fuck.
I don't know what to say,
But please don't say sorry. Everybody's learning how to do things right, you're not perfect and you're figuring out how to do things the best way.
Please don't apologise to us. Yes oversharing mental illness online can be dangerous, but don't feel embarrassed about this common confusing mistake.
Love you lots Dods xx


Dodie has such a clear way of wording things, it's very helpful. i now have gained even more respect for her ((is that possible? idk))
im so glad she uploaded this video. i had -  without noticing  - almost detached myself from watching anything off Dodie's social media; its now clicked that it's because i felt like Dodie was exposed, and i had to respect her privacy. i unconsciously refused to listen to her mental illness updates. it was as if they were seeping into my personal health too. at the time i recognised this detachment as 'boredom' from her content, but really it was because of the constant, upsetting messages.

don't be so hard on yourself - you had no purpose/meaning to offend, trigger or hurt anyone.
 thankfully i am now back into the rhythm of reading whatever she posts, and i hope Dodie and anyone reading this long ass paragraph is in (or close to) their best mental state. i wish you the best, goodnight :)

Dodie has such a clear way of wording things, it's very helpful. i now have gained even *more* respect for her ((is that possible? idk))
im so glad she uploaded this video. i had -  without noticing  - almost detached myself from watching anything off Dodie's social media; its now clicked that it's because i felt like Dodie was exposed, and i had to respect her privacy. i unconsciously refused to listen to her mental illness updates. it was as if they were seeping into my personal health too. at the time i recognised this detachment as 'boredom' from her content, but really it was because of the constant, upsetting messages.

don't be so hard on yourself - you had no purpose/meaning to offend, trigger or hurt anyone.
 thankfully i am now back into the rhythm of reading whatever she posts, and i hope Dodie and anyone reading this long ass paragraph is in (or close to) their best mental state. i wish you the best, goodnight :)


So many people have already said this but I am really impressed by such a mature self-aware video this was.  Now, don't for one second feel embarrassed or sad about any of the mistakes you've made.  We all make them and the fact that you can see them and accept them just shows what a strong, amazing person you are.   We all love you Dodie Clark!!


Hey Dodie, I'm a huge fan of yours! Personally I never minded your posts, as I find them all relatable, and nothing ever seemed that graphic to me and never romanticizing of anything. (However, I feel like I've been desensitized to a lot of things, which is just a personal thing for me.) You've been a really big inspiration to me and a lot of other people. I think that writing and recording videos seems like a good coping skill for you. If you want to stop posting so much about your mental health, that's your decision, and I very much respect you for it. I think that taking a step back for your sake, not anyone else's, might be healthy as you've mentioned. Don't be too hard on yourself. You're an amazing and strong person.

As a mentally ill person myself, I often write based on those experiences (I don't share my work often because I'm sorta nervous) but it helps me cope and I enjoy reading content with similar themes. So I definitely know where you're coming from. Mental illness can take up so much room in someone's life, and artists often create from their life experiences.

Overall, what I'm saying to say is: I'll always support you. I think you are an incredibly brave, talented, kind, and intelligent person. Keep going, keep creating. Taking a step back might be healthy for you, so give it a try. Maybe try out some new healthy coping skills. In the meantime, I'll always love and admire you.

You have taught me to be brave and accept myself, and you continue to do so each day.

P.S. I'm sorta tired as I'm writing this, and it's all stream of consciousness so I apologize if it doesn't make sense. But I felt the need to put my two cents in


Dodie we love you
Don't worry
I just want to hug you
Talk to you
Love you


Hey Dodie! I'm currently reading an interesting book that I feel is loosely related to the topic of mental health. It's called The Secret of Letting Go by Guy Finley. It kinda reads like a children's book, but there are a good couple of interesting thoughts in every chapter. Check it out if you're interested. (Of course it's not to say that therapy is a bad idea - quite the opposite. I just thought you might wanna look at it.)


I agree with your point in this video however the silver lining i see is that you have made me aware that i have done the same thing as you. It's good to admit mistakes and learn from them. So thanks for sharing.


Dodie, please consider doing something like opening an extra channel / account for venting! I understand that people might feel triggered, but there are people (like me) who can really relate to you and honestly, even though we dont know each other, when I feel down and watch your videos about you going through the same - i feel like i am listening to a close friend or sister. Now of course you are free to put out whatever you want on the internet. But to me personally, it seems that describing your thoughts and feelings to us gave you release - and there are many people who would watch your videos and follow your social media.

Its your decision of course and we have to respect that. Just stay safe please :)


dodie you're a human, JUST LIKE ALLLLL OF US! yes, what you've done was a mistake but you have realized what your mishaps were and apologized! there's nothing else you can do, DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP OVER IT! we all love you, and we need to realize that you're a feeling human as well who does not deserved to be put up on a pedestal and forced to repent violently. again, YOU ARE A HUMAN WHO MAKES MISTAKES, and that's why we love you :).

stay healthy my friends


hi dodie, this is a big step for you and ofcours, do what feels right for you, but i wanted to share my point of view. i'm sixteen and it helped me so much to watch your videos. i was amazed, that someone could be so honest and close about theire mental health. this is the reason i never felt alone, you showed how to cope with your own and other demons. it's understandable that it hurts, that people don't want to see this things, because they don't understand, or are reminded of theire own sadness. but it's the truth and nothing but the truth and it helped you too because in this community we are not alone. this is what i like about youtube. so, this is my way to thank you, thank you for making me aware of things and thanks for staying. now learn for yourself and find a way that works for you, do, but please, don't be sorry. you didn't do anything bad. <br>love from germany

hi dodie, this is a big step for you and ofcours, do what feels right for you, but i wanted to share my point of view. i'm sixteen and it helped me so much to watch your videos. i was amazed, that someone could be so honest and close about theire mental health. this is the reason i never felt alone, you showed how to cope with your own and other demons. it's understandable that it hurts, that people don't want to see this things, because they don't understand, or are reminded of theire own sadness. but it's the truth and nothing but the truth and it helped you too because in this community we are not alone. this is what i like about youtube. so, this is my way to thank you, thank you for making me aware of things and thanks for staying. now learn for yourself and find a way that works for you, do, but please, don't be sorry. you didn't do anything bad.
love from germany


I did the same sort of thing around a few years ago with a friend I had who was a few years younger than me. She was around 8 and I was 11, my anxiety and my mental state got really really bad and I shared a lot of that with this particular friend but it got dark and I ended up pretty much graphically describing panic attacks and suicidal thoughts to this 8 year old often times whilst I was having them. Soon enough her mum found out and we ended up drifting away from each other. Now I’m 13 and I’ve seen a councillor and although it’s not perfect, my anxiety has gotten a lot better because of it. Talking to people and reaching out to friends is obviously good but like everything it’s all in proportion


Dodie, it is okay. You made a mistake and you were trying to help yourself get and feel better (you were also trying to help others as well). It is totally okay that you messed up because people make mistakes, and the great thing is is that you understand that you were oversharing. I love you and I hope you are feeling better <3


I'm grateful for your post , it makes me realize that I'm not the only one having these thoughts and feelings


I honestly find your videos and posts about mental issues very helpful. I think it's helpful for me to see that other people who i admire struggles(?) as well it really pulls me back down to earth and makes me feel like I'm sort of worth something and that's really helpful for me, but I know and agree that you should stop posting online for the health of yourself and others. I, myself, have a jar and every time I'm having a "moment" I'll write it down and curl it into a spiral and put it in a jar. And also, know that your audience forgives you entirely.


I forgive you and thank you for making a positive space to learn as we all try to figure out the human experience.


Now the last video and this one actually came as a shock to me, funnily enough. I was someone who quite 'enjoyed' - now that is a horrible word, but I don't mean it like that, obviously, so shall we say benefitted instead - your snapchats and instagram posts. I found them calming, knowing that someone out there was also struggling with the same things I was. Of course, I can just look a comments or forums, but it's not the same thing, you know? Just pixels on a screen. So seeing someone verbalize it, someone you look up to as well, was.. nice - nothing I experience on a daily basis, as nobody I know, have the same struggles as myself. Also of course worrying as I do want you, and everybody, to be happy, but still.
But I do get the point that you're saying, and the rest of your followers are; it was graphic and probably not suitable for a 12 year old, as they could have been triggering. So that you're listening to your audience says a lot about you Dodie - it shows that you do care, and also can admit that you have made a mistake. That takes a lot of guts! Also don't beat yourself up too much up - I don't think anyone in this little community are cross or what's worse.
So in conclusion; you need to know that you did help some people, myself included (as I've stated before, my struggles being very similar to yours, and maybe also because I'm closer to your age, than most on here) and probably also a lot others. But it is very admirable that you are listening to the majority of your audience, who was triggered. Takes a great person to do as such, even though it might be hard!


Aw Dodie I too have to sometimes stop watching/reading because it's too much but you shouldn't feel embarrassed because it's something we've probably all done to some extent and I've even done it a bit but not on social media x


Your videos and Instagram posts actually kind of help me, it makes me feel like I'm not the only one who feels feeling I feel like I shouldn't? I don't know, I'm not saying that it's good to feel this way, it's certainly not, but the way you're so open about the way you feel is inspiring, so thank you


i love you dodie. we all love you. you are a strong, strong woman you will get through this


Good job dodie. It takes a lot of courage and humility to do this vid I and say that your sorry and that you've made a mistake. So many people these days don't have the guts to admit their mistakes and end up with very little joy because they don't learn from them. So points to you dodie. It's a step in the right direction.


I'm really proud. You are not in a good place, and we know that. That system really wasn't healthy, for you or us. So this is a thank you for apologising because it did need to happen. I hope this therapist works!


thank you so much. this means so much, dodie i love you but i had to step back. and now i feel like i can be close with you again! i love you so much. thank you thank you thank you!!


Dear dodie,
Please listen to "maggie Rodgers" on Spotify
This artist has helped me with my Anxiety,and just basic stress so i really recommend this💚💙


Okay i know Dodie wont see this, but her videos and posts have actually helped me so much over the past two years, and i know it has done the opposite for some people. I started to struggle with my own mental issues a few years back and I actually thought I was just crazy. When I found Dodie I actually took such a sigh of relief because I realized I am not the only one feeling this way. She taught me about depersonalisation, she has helped me better cope with my anxiety and her music has been so incredibly close to my heart because of the relatable lyrics; When, 6/10 and Secret for the Mad in particular. Shes helped me sort of find myself again and I love her so much for it. So, thank you Dodie. You allowed me to better understand my mental state, myself, and made me realize that I needed to get help from professionals rather than dealing with this alone.


I agree, and there are some videos that I don't really want to have seen, but I think it is healthy for you to have an output and an opportunity for you to realise that millions of people care for you, wish you the best and want you to know that we're here for you through it all.


I agree that somethings you shared where not appropriate but I'm happy to see you've realised your errors and that you're not in denial about it. On a side note, your skin looks fantastic! ❤


Ok, this this might be a bit long lol but I just want you to know that you should not feel guilty about sharing online, you started using it as an outlet but then you began to over share. I want to say that I believe you should not post in depth descriptions about everything you feel when you are not feeling well but it is very importantly to get it out, so like you said, write it down, record it in the voice memos app or just talk to a close friend. Once you feel better, then talk about it with your audience if you want. Just DO NOT feel bad that you shared those things, you were just trying to help yourself and maybe help some of us too. In the end, we love you and don't want you to feel bad about something you did in the past. And btw i really enjoyed learning about your brain and relating to it. I have something called postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (PoTs) which is an autoimmune disease and along with it comes depression, anxiety and depersonalization so it's really nice to see someone who I can relate to. Just know it's ok to share just there are some things that should not be said online when you are not feeling well. Once you feel better, talk about all you want! Anyway, I love you 💕


I'm not diagnosed but I'm pretty damn sure I have depersonalisation/derealisation too and it freaks me out. Not feeling at home in your body and your own reality is some of the scariest shit ever. I don't even know you personally but I can tell you are a good person and would never mean to cause harm to anyone. Keep being you :)


This is so important. I've legit seen people post actual pictures of them cutting themselves. It was really triggering and when confronted they said they wouldn't stop because it helped them etc. I couldn't put into words how unhealthy and unhelpful it was for them to do this, but this video did it. So thank you.


You are such an amazing person and so courageous. Idk i feel like this should be a very empowering video for you. i love you so much xxxxxxx


i respect and love you so much, stay strong :))


hey, don't be too hard on your self. To be honest, yes, you have been sharing a lot. but when you're in this kind of state, it's hard not to over share. sometimes you don't even realize what you are doing, until someone tells you. It's not your fault that you feel this way, and it's not your fault for sharing about it. We all love you so much and you have helped me and so many people. try to take care of yourself 💛


I feel like I'm the only one who appreciated her raw sharing of things. I, personally, don't think she needed to apologize, but instead just addressing it and explaining how she felt. I don't really understand the people who are like "tysm for apologizzinng" because, honestly, this isn't one of the worst thing a YouTuber has done and if she just explained how she felt, we would understood and the apology wouldn't be needed. But I guess it's the end of an era. I really don't know how I'll feel anymore.


So.... I'm having trouble trying to turn my thoughts into words lol. In truth I'm not really sure what my thoughts are at the moment either. But I know I want to say something! And I suppose that something would be that.... I forgive you dodie.
I am someone who is fortunate enough to not have mental illness and in my life I've never really met or been exposed to it previously. So when I started following you on social media and I listened to your videos about mental illness and read your posts on depersonalization, they were real eye openers for me. They enlightened me on an issue that I was previously uneducated on and I am grateful to you for that! The more you know in this world the better off you are to help yourself and help others. Perhaps it is because I don't have mental illness, or maybe because of time zones so I didn't see the worst of your videos, but I never thought of your videos as graphic or triggering. However, that doesn't change the fact that they were for others or that they've hurt you more than they've helped in the long run.
I enjoy watching your videos. I love your songs, and I like to hear you talk about things you're passionate about. You're a bright soul and you always seem to bring a smile to my face! So seeing you hurting and upset makes me upset too and I want to help! tho I don't know how. I also acknowledge tho that I'm a stranger on the internet so maybe it's not my place to help either. So I shall compromise with leaving a few kind words that will hopefully make you smile at least a little; in return for all the times you've unknowingly comforted me when I am down.
We forgive you! We love you too! We're glad you're feeling happy and hopeful! And when you need a place to share your thoughts in a healthy way for both you and us, your audience, believe me we will still be here listening. :)
Best Wishes Dodie <3
a friend


You have inspired me so much. I just started watching you but I  understand you so much. I go through the samething. Thank you for sharing. You have no idea!!!!


SHES SO DAMN PURE AHHHHH PROTECT HER ALWAYS


Never loved you more. It's SO HARD to know what to say when!! It's more than ok to slightly misjudge it xxx


Hi Dodie! As a 27yo that went through a 'dumb patch' after a few really crappy things in quick succession.. I can only agree with you! With so many people talking about mental health issues (particularly depression/anxiety) online, people have started to believe that it's ok. WHEN IT'S NOT OK! It's not ok to be stuck in that rut. It's not ok to not seek help. It's not ok to let it affect your future... yet somehow, through people 'normalising' these issues. It has sometimes become ok. And people are falling deeper. Not getting help. Sharing negative thoughts and vibes. IMO, mental health issues should only be discussed alongside the message that 1. You need to, and will get back out of the hole in your head. 2. Self help/professional help suggestions and advice. <br>Sorry for the essay. Have a great weekend everyone. You deserve to feel great.

Hi Dodie! As a 27yo that went through a 'dumb patch' after a few really crappy things in quick succession.. I can only agree with you! With so many people talking about mental health issues (particularly depression/anxiety) online, people have started to believe that it's ok. WHEN IT'S NOT OK! It's not ok to be stuck in that rut. It's not ok to not seek help. It's not ok to let it affect your future... yet somehow, through people 'normalising' these issues. It has sometimes become ok. And people are falling deeper. Not getting help. Sharing negative thoughts and vibes. IMO, mental health issues should only be discussed alongside the message that 1. You need to, and will get back out of the hole in your head. 2. Self help/professional help suggestions and advice.
Sorry for the essay. Have a great weekend everyone. You deserve to feel great.


dodie i know you probably won't read this but i am so happy that you made this video. i have been watching you for awhile and trust me i care about you as much as someone can who has never met you. and it is so so important to talk about the dark and twisty feelings so please do not stop. but i am so happy because you addressed the fact that oversharing online can be dangerous and triggering for those who also struggle with mental health issues and also feel dark and twisty sometimes. so thank you for acknowledging this and please continue to be the kind, brilliant and talented person that you are. i love you.


This was a brave video to make. Its all a matter of learning. For you and for us.


You should film yourself in your worst but bin it after and think of it as throwing a bad dream away

i agree with this. sometimes when im in a really bad state i'll make a voice recording or write it down but right away afterwards i'd listen to/read it back n overanalyze it which would make me feel soo much worse so deleting straight afterwards is a great idea n sounds like.. yea, its just a good idea :)


Hi dodie
I am so grateful to you. I am a person who has seen depression in so many of my family members and friends around me and seeing them struggle has made me fearful of the thing called depression. I am scared. I am a person who feels extremely. I can feel very happy but then the bads are so bad. Recently I have been feeling nothing but bad. I feel like I am drowning. I am trying to breath but I just can't. A lot of this heaviness comes from the fear of the label of depression. The fear was holding me down. But your videos snap chats post and music has helped me realize that depression suckes. But being scared of my self and my feelings and my lows is just digging me deeper. So I understand why you are sorry but I wanted to let you know that you have helped one person.
-love Caz


I know it’s been awhile since this came out, but I just watched it... I watched your video with Hazel when you uploaded it, & I realized that I was being triggered by your posts. Therefore, I took a step back (as you said some people have), but now I watched this & I feel much better. I’m with you, Dodie. Love you 💕


honestly tysm for posting this.  its so hard to admit when youve done bad things!! im so so bad at that and it feels like the end of the world and i overcompensate so much.  this was so mature of you, idk if i couldve done this


We are human. Thank you. Not for everything, but most things. Especially for learning with us. Happy to be your little sister. Love and healing and love again!


Thank you. So much. I love you dodie x don't worry about how you cope. Just the idea that you are coping is more than amazing.

I hope you stay healthy, but don't feel like the world isn't here to help you xx ⭐


thank you for being so mature. you are so strong.


Am I the only one who was grateful for the deep posts or? Like when I read them I was like yes I am not the only one who feels so bad etc and now I feel like it's bad for me to want to share how i feel idk


The oversharing felt ok to me, yea it made me feel really sad reading that such an amazing person was so upset. Yet it made me feel really close to her and want to be there for her, the oversharing shocked me because I didn't think a creator could be so open. It made me feel close to her as a person...


dodie, you don't need to feel embarrassed about this. It's true that sometimes it's bad to tell everyone how you feel as some people take it in the wrong way (like attention seeking but I don't think you'd ever do that) but it was an honest mistake. People make mistakes, and that's what makes us human.
virtually hugs stay strong dodie
-Justina xoxo

dodie, you don't need to feel embarrassed about this. It's true that sometimes it's bad to tell everyone how you feel as some people take it in the wrong way (like attention seeking but I don't think you'd ever do that) but it was an honest mistake. People make mistakes, and that's what makes us human.
*virtually hugs* stay strong dodie
-Justina xoxo


this reminds me of what Charlotte Perkins gilman said after publishing yellow wallpaper.

she basically said that people with healthy brains will find it depressing and will feel like they're going mad while people with sick brains will identify with it and find joy in sharing their experiences. (paraphrasing but yeah)

I understand what you mean, and I agree that it should be her decision. However, (and this is going to sound patronizing, though I don't mean it like that) not everthing you want in the moment is good for you, or what you really want? I've wondered several times while watching her snapchat "dodie, are you sure you want to be sharing this? This is very personal, have you stopped and thought about it first?". So while I agree that she should be able to share what she wants, snapchat allows you to share without thinking it through first. So it's good that she maybe takes a step back and evaluates if this is really what she wants/ good for her. <br>She should also consider her audience, since many of them are young. No, she shouldn't be shamed, but in my opinion, you are to a certain degree responsible for what you post online when you have such a large audience. And several of the people who have been giving her feedback are her friends too, and they have told her the truth, even though it might be uncomfortable. I think you can get quite used to sharing a lot, without considering the consequences or questioning if you really want to, so I think it is good for dodie to take a step back at this point, because some of the things she has shared are too private, and she needs to be vulnerable, but she also needs to protect herself.

I understand what you mean, and I agree that it should be her decision. However, (and this is going to sound patronizing, though I don't mean it like that) not everthing you want in the moment is good for you, or what you really want? I've wondered several times while watching her snapchat "dodie, are you sure you want to be sharing this? This is very personal, have you stopped and thought about it first?". So while I agree that she should be able to share what she wants, snapchat allows you to share without thinking it through first. So it's good that she maybe takes a step back and evaluates if this is really what she wants/ good for her.
She should also consider her audience, since many of them are young. No, she shouldn't be shamed, but in my opinion, you are to a certain degree responsible for what you post online when you have such a large audience. And several of the people who have been giving her feedback are her friends too, and they have told her the truth, even though it might be uncomfortable. I think you can get quite used to sharing a lot, without considering the consequences or questioning if you really want to, so I think it is good for dodie to take a step back at this point, because some of the things she has shared are too private, and she needs to be vulnerable, but she also needs to protect herself.

squeegy29 you have some valid points, but it should be her decision whether or not she shares moments with us. And this video feels as if she is being forced into it because of what viewers have said. She is blaming herself for doing something wrong, when her talking and sharing shouldn't be viewed as wrong if it's what she needed at the moment. Of course she should also be getting help from friends and professionals, but she should feel free to share with us, and she shouldn't be shamed for it.

Ralalaize what? no one wants her to shove it all inside and share nothing. the point people have made is that she has overshared and relied on social media too much, which is unhealthy. she should be able to share... but not so heavily on social media. we aren't her friends, we are just viewers. she admitted to talking for ages on snapchat when hazel was just in another room, unaware of her feelings. thats unhealthy. so she needs to reflect and work out what is. literally no one is saying never talk about your feelings to anyone, just not so much online.

I don't think the point is that she should not talk about the darker things, just that she shouldn't always talk about them with her audience? She should still see a therapist and talk to her friends. And she can still share about mental health, but maybe not in a medium so immidiate as snapchat? As mentioned in her last video, she did post some snapchats when she was very low and said life wasn't worth living, and that was, as a viewer, quite scary, because you didn't know if she had someone with her at that moment who could help her and make sure she was safe. If she later wanted to share how she was feeling at that moment, maybe in a post where she could take her time and consider her words, I think that would be fine. But the internet and thousands of people don't need to see her most intimate and personal moments as they are happening. And I think that goes for her happiest as well. This isn't (just) about her cencoring away the bad, it's about protecting yourself and what is private. Some things don't need to be on display, and some things don't need to be on display straight away. Using snapchat to document this, makes it harder to decide what you really want to share. And that goes for both difficult and happy things. Sometimes yourself needs to experience things in the moment, and then when you have had time to process them, then you can share them with your audience :)

Sam Mach I'm so glad someone else agrees with me. It seems almost everyone wants her to shove all the "darker stuff" inside, which is so unhealthy. If dodie wants to share, she should be able to share. Sure, add trigger warnings to the posts or something, but she shouldn't feel like she has to stop completely. People's reactions actually have me quite angry.

Lisa Kealhofer Agree 100%! I identified so much with her experience and it was good to know that a person had the same struggles. I don't like how people are telling her to stop sharing the "dark things", gosh, it's so horrible, it's the censorship that the mentally ill get: "keep it to yourself! be happy! i don't want to know you're suffering!"
it makes me pissed.
dodie, you can still keep sharing your mental struggles, maybe do it on tumblr with an alias, on the tags of people who have similar issues, and PLEASE KEEP TALKING about it here, even if to a lesser degree or in a more informative way, THIS NEEDS TO BE TALKED ABOUT.

Lisa Kealhofer honestly, I don't agree with this! Although it makes sense in principle in practice it can cause people who have/are experiencing it to feel down, like, triggered I guess? I've read a few posts saying people who read about depression when they're not in a depressive state can be pulled back due to reading stuff about it. I'm sure for some people it does though! The problem is Dodie can't pick and choose who the social media posts go through to :)


Your honesty actually helped me so so much but I respect your choice to share less of what you think/feel.


Sending you virtual butterflies to lift your heart when it's too heavy to hold!<br>ps I hurt lots too sometimes. You are strong, beautiful, likable, and love able. Mistakes and all. And your apology couldn't be more quickly forgiven at least from me.

Sending you virtual butterflies to lift your heart when it's too heavy to hold!
ps I hurt lots too sometimes. You are strong, beautiful, likable, and love able. Mistakes and all. And your apology couldn't be more quickly forgiven at least from me.


But if you hadn't have shared loads of people wouldn't know about Depersonalization and I heard you on radio 1 at work and I stopped and felt so proud and happy that mental health was reaching front media, especially a metal health that isn't talked about enough. Your over sharing is compensating for the lack ❤


ilysm im so happy you are acknowledging this and fixing it


One of the strongest things you will learn is how to acknowledge your emotional boundaries, but also the boundaries of others, and that honesty does not need to be heard by everyone to be honest. Xxxx


dodie it ok to share there's nothing wrong with it we all love and care about you and also your closest friends and if you're feeling really bad maybe write a storie or a poem in a journal I love you very much and you are a great inspiration💛


Hey. You're getting this a lot probably, but this is really strong and mature of you to do. I really appreciate you giving a real heartfelt apology, even though i know  it has to to be hard. I feel like you're actually messing up in a place that's very important to you, and very close to your heart. I mess up a lot in those kinds of areas, so i feel like the remorse and humiliation you're feeling must be... intense. This video must have been really hard. You can feel that it was really hard, and that you obviously see the importance of pushing through all that. I literally love you for that. A real, lonely, video apology is really special here. <br>so thanks.

Hey. You're getting this a lot probably, but this is really strong and mature of you to do. I really appreciate you giving a real heartfelt apology, even though i know  it has to to be hard. I feel like you're actually messing up in a place that's very important to you, and very close to your heart. I mess up a lot in those kinds of areas, so i feel like the remorse and humiliation you're feeling must be... intense. This video must have been really hard. You can feel that it was really hard, and that you obviously see the importance of pushing through all that. I literally love you for that. A real, lonely, video apology is really special here.
so thanks.


honestly, Dodie sharing all of this never affected me. and while I can't say it for everyone, I believe that sharing it with others is a good option. but as you said, there are a lot of other people who could be affected or triggered by it, so it's not healthy for the other side of the internet. In my opinion, try holding it back from the internet for as long as you can, but if you really feel the need to share something horrible going on with you online because you need the support, or feel that it's an efficient way AND HEALTHY way to let your pain out, I'd say you should just add trigger warnings on Instagram and yt, and avoid using sc to express those emotions.


Wow I don't think you've messed up at all.....but then I'm 42 and have and do suffer from depression. I'm a proper grown up apparently so I can cope with all your wonderful thoughts.  It's important you're truthful to yourself and those around you, it's real and it's you. Don't feel like you've done something bad, you're helping people who are suffering also. Makes you realise you're not alone. Mental health is very important to talk about. Balance is good but don't hide it all away and don't apologise. At the end of the day people don't have to watch. Stay strong xx


I don't watch dodie anymore but I'm glad she acknowledged all of this it's good of her


This was so big of you Dodie. To be able to look back and say to yourself and followers "I was wrong, I'm going to change," takes guts and compassion. I think your over sharing was for a reason: to have this moment to learn from and show your fans, especially the whipersnappers, that it's healthy to share, but don't share when you're down since that's not healthy. So proud of you, such a beautiful post that shows how you're growing each day.


Dodie please don't be sorry

Just know that I love you and I'm hugging you through the screen

Maddy I totally I agree I do realize how she can make an negative impact I just hope she knows it's ok to make mistakes and that we will continue supporting her

i love your support, but it's really harmful to tell her not to be sorry. as we saw in the comments of the last video, and what hazel said, dodie has been negatively impacting her audience and friends with her content. we'll definitely keep loving and supporting her, but it's bad of us to tell her that she doesn't need to apologise; she needs to learn and grow from this experience, and that's what her apology allows. xxx


For me I found the posts and the videos incredibly important and we need to get some perspective from people in their lowest