oh wow wow wow i love this video. i could listen to you talk about your songs and lyrics foreverrrrr


i am FOR SURE going to be tattooing a lyrics of yours this video just convinced me completely


Ever since you teased “arms unfolding” ages ago and you sound like you’re singing when talking I’m like 👀


Omg I love ur music and they help me get tho depression and a lot of trauma so tysm


this explanation gives the songs so much more meaning honestly.


Fun fact: Just before the pandemic, I heard "In the Middle" on my college radio in a dining hall.


IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE.....TURN IT UP!!!


Before the Line & When are my favorites of your most recent songs ❤


The song when allways tears me apart cuz I'm 16 but not having fun when makes me want to tbh. I allways leaned on your music dodie. Since I was 12 I'm now 16 and I've grown up with your music ily ❤


If I'm being honest is a big same for me. Having so much hope it's not healthy and it's just like PLEASE, PLEASE LOVE ME cause grabbing onto that hope is the only thing I want to do even if it hurts cause if loose hope it'll mean it's over.


The way you say certain words sounds a bit… <i>singsongy</i> ms. Clark 👀

The way you say certain words sounds a bit… _singsongy_ ms. Clark 👀


"I hate the world and it doesn't care, we just sit there" is the best description of my depression I've ever heard, thanks Dodie, gonna go have a cry now


Aaa- 'Sorry' really makes me shed some tears. I think I understand that it embodies a person feeling guilty for something they did and are responsible of, but I also notice a second perspective, for me now atleast, it can also embody the guilt for something that was out of your control yet still feeling guilty anout it and feeling nostalgic of the time before it happened.

My cat died almost 2 months ago, she was always there for me ever since I was little when my parents got her. When I had my ups and downs, or whenever I was sick, or just anytime in the daily, she was there. Hurts to say this but she was my childhood pet, though I really wish that I could still just call her my pet in the present. I still miss her, a lot, and still I'm not sure how to heal from it yet if I can, but she was such a caring soul. We got her when I was 2, she lives 12 years, I'm 14 so it was unexpected, I wished for her to atleast live until I was older or heck even 16, but even then, I would never be ready for that, I never was ready either. Sometimes my mum, and I even, would wish for her to live forever. She was basically family to me.

It's odd because I remember I used to listen to all of your songs from the new album with headphones while she was right next to me in my bed, and when 'Sorry' came up I just found it a beautiful song that was a bit mesmerizing (and don't get me wrong I still feel that to this day) but now it hits different in meaning and emotionally aswell. 'When' also hits a spot slightly, when it comes for me begging the past to stay, begging for the time she was still here to come back. For "Sorry" it's almost like, well... there's nothing that I can do anymore, nothing left to say, other than- I'm sorry. Whether it be sorry I didn't do something to keep the memories alive, take more pictures, record more videos, or that it happened to her at all. But it's good to think about the good she did for us and in general, the funny things she sometimes did, and the lessons she had maybe even taught us.

I do adore your songs! The melodies are beautiful, fun, and even emotional in many ways! The meanings in these songs are interesting, even if in just a simple lyric, it was quite interesting to hear your side of the meanings to the lyrics and how you originally thought of them! I'm looking forward to whatever you bring next in the future. 🙏🏻❤


This was a really interesting video! Thank you for sharing. I’ve also always been curious why the line in cool girl “Rolling your eyes, to the back of your heads” specifically pluralizes heads?

@doddlevloggle ooh thank you!! That’s really interesting

i think in my mind i'm like... addressing an army of women ahah


GOD the contrast from “air so sweet” as the opener to the closing of “before the line”. ow. feels like air so sweet was written from the pov of the girl actually present before the line. before the line was written from the girl PAST the line. ow. ow. ow.


Brb gonna use this vid as asmr and later tomorrow as it's actual purpose


I love how you understand and know that you have such an interesting and smart brain, that´s toooo cool. Because sometimes, especially when you have a mental illness you start to think and feel that everything that made you you moved out and your creative thoughts which tend to feel very interesting and exiting don´t bring you that much joy anymore and you don´t have the confidence to give them and yourself a chance to think and tinker on them....But it´s so important to keep trusting in what you have. Reminds me of your lyrics: I take what I can get


This tells me that you don't have to make sense for your listeners all the time when composing a song. Sometimes it's more about you than them and that comforted me somehow.


the little pop noise you made in the intro was so nice I keep repeating it (also thank you for this video it’s cool knowing what things mean to you!!)


what does the line “I’d only ever see them in the dark” in When mean, in reference to the the sickly sweet guys’ eyes?

It reminded me personally, as a gay guy, of guys who would hook up/hang out with me, but only in secret places, only in “the dark”

I wonder what your meaning was!

@fiomba omg I see, yeah, thst their compliment is meaningless because they can’t actually see dodie’s eyes

i'm pretty sure it's talking about her eyes there ("kissing sickly sweet guys, 'cause they say they like my eyes") and the in the dark line means that they knows the guy can't see her eyes well and so it isn't a genuine compliment, but she's taking it because she's "too damp for a spark"

i'm not great at explaining things lol, but i hope i got it across :))


Hate myself hit really hard as someone who's got severe anxiety triggers linked to being given the silent treatment and also rejection sensitive dysphoria bc of being autistic and having ADHD like,,, fuck it's really not good for me when people deal with shit by shutting down and being introspective I need someone to say "hey I'm struggling rn so I'm not gonna talk for a bit"

i'm sorry you've got to deal with such a difficult time when people shut down, that would really suck i imagine. sending lots of love <3


I wasn’t surprised by any of the meanings, I feel like if you really listen and have dealt with similar things you can identify very closely with them.


That's so interesting, I had heard 'I'm still clawing for the strings' as puppet strings! And that you want to feel in control of your reality but it feels very powerless, and yet you're still angry about that. Your balloon thing makes more sense within spaceyness tho :)


Intertwined means so much to me as that is my relationship. Both me and my partner have had some really awful periods with our mental health and it just speaks to how I feel


You touched right on something I'm trying to make a song around dodie!! When you were talking about human and how you just want to eat up this whole new person. I feel like I want a song with imagery about how love is selfish for me almost? Like I feel like I'm eating up someone else's life. It's so hard to describe with words, I have no clue how I'll make lyrics of it. But it's so fascinating to learn about someone you feel so close to. Absolutely love the concept, can't wait to write a song about it. Still can't figure out whether it's going to be a love song or more of a critical song about the ways that I love.


I see. Thank you. "Burned Out" is one of the most contrasting and relatable songs you've ever written, if not the most.


idk about others, but for me this is why we love you, not because you're perfect (no one is) but because you are so thoughtful and you put so so so much of yourself into your lyrics and then you release them and let us take what we need from it and put words to so many big and scary feelings. thank you <3


I feel like When is a song about growing up but missing out on the things you feel should happen - "I'll never be 16 again/I'm waiting to live/still waiting to love/oh it'll be over and I'll still be asking when". personally I take it like waiting and idealizing what teenagehood/growing up is like and when you get there you feel it passing by, or what you get isn't the perfect story you imagine. would I be on the right track here? I really love this song and the way I perceive it means a lot to me but I'm curious the actual meaning behind it. :)


Ouch :’) a lot of old songs on here that got me through a rough time.


always been quite curious about hole in my tooth! ik its pretty short and seems self explanatory but was there ever any deeper meaning or is it just about having a cavity and the dentist being closed lol


Burned Out I related to so much. As the therapy friend for everyone I know, for years I kept everything in so that my friends could fill me up. I prided myself on always being the same for them and being there for them. But I crumbled inside and became hollow. <br>The ending- the swirling motion- oh maybe I'll talk about, I should, Ill never, I cant- I've had that conversation so many times inside.

Burned Out I related to so much. As the therapy friend for everyone I know, for years I kept everything in so that my friends could fill me up. I prided myself on always being the same for them and being there for them. But I crumbled inside and became hollow.
The ending- the swirling motion- oh maybe I'll talk about, I should, Ill never, I cant- I've had that conversation so many times inside.


it's interesting how I interpreted "red pushing down on the green" differently and how it fit to my personal life at the time


Your work has strong parralels with Hozier in some ways. Lyrics which are specific and poetic. Writing about really sexy shit but doing it so gorgeously and poetically you barely realise.


i remember seeing dodie live and her introducing in the middle by saying "this is a song about a threesome" and my mind was blown i couldn't believe that i hadn't made the connection before lmao


thank you for answering my ask, i love all my daughters so much!!


I’ve always viewed burned out as someone in a toxic relationship/friendship and they have someone around them who’s causing them to crack and let the smoke deep in and the smoke is equivalent to depression and anxiety and just mental ick for me


Can’t decide whether to comment on that sick goose you’ve got or the fact you’re gorgeous or on how spectacular your lyrics are


Since you mentioned she lol. I really agree with that line. Actually I saw you live in pheonix and I was bend over sobbing nearly falling over the barrier for the entire song. I was thinking a lot of my long distance girlfriend at the time and just all the aches of loving her but not being with her and not even being able to tell everyone that I had such a wonderful love. I remember I looked up and you looked me in the eye when the song was done after you said "I see there's a lot of girls who like girls in here" you just gave me this comforting half smile, this look of "it'll be okay". 3 months later I came out and it really was okay♡ You saw me as a daughter there I suppose haha. A weird yet broken one with a giant gold star sticker on her forehead bc the other girls were putting the little ones on their cheeks all cutesy but my one(1) braincell went straight to childhood of always wanting the big sticker 😂


Sorry gives me the ultimate chills. I love it so much


I'm so curious about the line "He'll be asked till he's bored, I would know, I've been bored before" from Cool Girl. I wonder about what it means every time I listen to the song.


I really appreciate that you explain your lyrics because as a person who is absolutely incapable of understanding metaphors, it gets really frustrating when I just have to perpetually wonder what anything in a song means. I love hearing what a songwriter "meant" with a lyric even if I spin it a different way for myself later.


i listened to she the other day in the car while the girl i’ve fallen for was driving, that “even when she’s next to me we could not be more far apart” really hit hard that day


There is a wall in my life built by you
You opened a door that a kid shouldn't walk through - guiltless

This song has always resonated with me and I can never pin point why


Now I know that monster isn't supposed to be about parents and kids falling out because of mood swings and hormones and stuff, but that's the only way I'll ever hear it


Analyzing dodie’s lyrics is on the same level as analyzing Taylor Swift’s lyrics because both are incredibly complex and beautiful.


My mummy says to always wear a coat but we're warm and we're heavy and we're trying to float speaks to my deep rooted sense of longing to fly ❤


i always thought of hate myself as around the overall struggle of working hard to impress people, stressing yourself out, to no avail, but I rly like your explanation of it


I was always wondering what BURNED OUT “i am not cartoon” meant tbh so thank you, I genuinely get that.


I always hear hate myself as being in a relationship with someone who is emotionally abusive, like someone who can’t leave this relationship bc they are stuck, they know it hurts but they stay<br>And when they go quiet it means you’ve “disappointed” them and you internalize that

I always hear hate myself as being in a relationship with someone who is emotionally abusive, like someone who can’t leave this relationship bc they are stuck, they know it hurts but they stay
And when they go quiet it means you’ve “disappointed” them and you internalize that


To me "sorry" has always felt like a goodbye letter (suicide note) or someone talking about their death/suicide/life after dying.


I relate to Before the Line oh so much. For me DPDR kinda blurred into my life without a definite line, but this song still hits home. Especially the promise part- everyday I promise myself that I'll be present but surprise surprise that's absolutely impossible.


my interpretations pt. 2
 .  o) "there was the end i couldn't find, found too late" - this song hits me very personally for a reason; just coming out of a relationship, where I knew all along it wouldn't last, but it lasted for 2 whole years, I knew all along something wasn't right - when I finally put it into words, he was like "yeah, you're right. I don't love you any more. we should break up." I could not forgive myself for not finding "the end" sooner when my intuition was right all along, and intertwining my life with his for so long, just to break apart now. There was the end I couldn't find, that took me so long to form into words and ask him about. Found too late, when I could have stopped it much sooner, when I first felt that we're drifting apart.
.    o) all my daughters - i thought that song, much like "burnt out", was about the whole experience of being a singer and having a "fan club" of, well, I suppose mostly girls.
"I’m not who they think I am!
I try too hard not to give a damn,                         - putting up a public image
but I feel it                                                               - but secretly drowning underneath
How they love me
All my daughters                                                    - despite all the love that u get from your fans (like me, haha)
But I’m screaming underwater                             - it doesn't much help heal the scars and pain in your personal life.
.                                                                                pain demands to be felt, as j. green put it
I will hurt you
almost definitely
ask the people
who have left me"                                                  - when you don't want to let anyone too close,
.                                                                                bc you feel guilty and like you will hurt them bc of your own emotions and stuff goin on in your life... idk, something like that
beautiful song btw, love it.
.
"I hate the world, and it doesn’t care
... we just sit there"                                                - I would like to quote something I wrote today:  "Pain, right. Such a universal human experience, and yet, when it's happening to you, you feel so important. You want to be consoled. As if the world had stopped spinning just because you're hurting. Well, guess what. The world doesn't care, or give a shit, and it's spinning. Life goes on, and your pain is not the least, or the worst, that the world has experienced, or will ever experience. Well, it's definitely not that special. But to you, it's everything that you know."
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.
.   o) "it feels oddly good to hurt" - when you're in love, it's both an alluring, strangely rewarding and also painful experience, regardless of how the other person feels. There's always that anticipation at the start... the hope, the longing. But you like it. You let yourself hurt, bc the rewards of being close to that person far outweigh the "costs" of the pain you feel at other times, when something goes amiss.

my interpretations pt. 2
 .  o) "there was the end i couldn't find, found too late" - this song hits me very personally for a reason; just coming out of a relationship, where I knew all along it wouldn't last, but it lasted for 2 whole years, I knew all along something wasn't right - when I finally put it into words, he was like "yeah, you're right. I don't love you any more. we should break up." I could not forgive myself for not finding "the end" sooner when my intuition was right all along, and intertwining my life with his for so long, just to break apart now. There was the end I couldn't find, that took me so long to form into words and ask him about. Found too late, when I could have stopped it much sooner, when I first felt that we're drifting apart.
.    o) all my daughters - i thought that song, much like "burnt out", was about the whole experience of being a singer and having a "fan club" of, well, I suppose *mostly* girls.
"I’m not who they think I am!
I try too hard not to give a damn,                         - putting up a public image
but I feel it                                                               - but secretly drowning underneath
How they love me
All my daughters                                                    - despite all the love that u get from your fans (like me, haha)
But I’m screaming underwater                             - it doesn't much help heal the scars and pain in your personal life.
.                                                                                pain demands to be felt, as j. green put it
I will hurt you
almost definitely
ask the people
who have left me"                                                  - when you don't want to let anyone too close,
.                                                                                bc you feel guilty and like you will hurt them bc of your own emotions and stuff goin on in your life... idk, something like that
beautiful song btw, love it.
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"I hate the world, and it doesn’t care
... we just sit there"                                                - I would like to quote something I wrote today:  "Pain, right. Such a universal human experience, and yet, when it's happening to you, you feel so important. You want to be consoled. As if the world had stopped spinning just because you're hurting. Well, guess what. The world doesn't care, or give a shit, and it's spinning. Life goes on, and your pain is not the least, or the worst, that the world has experienced, or will ever experience. Well, it's definitely not that special. But to you, it's everything that you know."
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.   o) "it feels oddly good to hurt" - when you're in love, it's both an alluring, strangely rewarding and also painful experience, regardless of how the other person feels. There's always that anticipation at the start... the hope, the longing. But you like it. You let yourself hurt, bc the rewards of being close to that person far outweigh the "costs" of the pain you feel at other times, when something goes amiss.


6:56 -7:04 completely relate. On good days I'm very reflective and mature about the events that have shaped me and the I'm stronger now and then on bad days I'm like bull. And cry in self doubt and pity. I love me lol.


Just wanted to say how much I LOVE the song “bored like me”. WOWZA


Omg why are all the lyrics so dirty 😂 I love it hahaha


this maybe sounds weird but dodie explaining "I made a promise but I break it every day" almost just gave me permission to feel that line the way I do? like it just suddenly got through to me in such a direct way because /I/ made a promise too and I wonder if part of the reason why I made it was because I knew I wouldn't be able to keep it forever (which for me ties into how I feel about "I'm still clawing for the strings/ I'd do any fucking thing")<br>anyway I adore before the line and this vid and dodie and also anyone reading this :)

this maybe sounds weird but dodie explaining "I made a promise but I break it every day" almost just gave me permission to feel that line the way I do? like it just suddenly got through to me in such a direct way because /I/ made a promise too and I wonder if part of the reason why I made it was because I knew I wouldn't be able to keep it forever (which for me ties into how I feel about "I'm still clawing for the strings/ I'd do any fucking thing")
anyway I adore before the line and this vid and dodie and also anyone reading this :)


dodie i love you and i want to tattoo the lyric “I’ll never be sixteen again” would you please write it for me in your handwriting??? Or maybe from the first time you wrote when? I love that song with my heart and I love you for writing it<3


You have to be the most underrated contemporary lyricist


Ngl it's super nice. to hear Dodie talk about break ups and realize she had relationships that we her fans didn't know about. Some good boundaries :)


Wooooooooo love you doddie! Thanks for this!!


I adore "Baby I'm a funny thing/I'm walking if it doesn't sting" because to me it's about carrying on and being hopeful even if you're sort of broken. It's got a sort of self-acceptance to it which feels very optimistic


dodie this video was brilliant. thank you.


i still can't quite grasp the meaning of the line "i watched you all ask all your lovers away" in cool girl


the people who make genius lyrics annotations r gonna have a field day with this one lol


you are such an INCREDIBLE songwriter and human


the more she explains before the line, the more i realize how much it belongs in my kin playlist


i used to listen to arms unfolding right after my breakup and fantasize about someday making things work with my ex. since then i've realized many things were wrong with how i was being treated in that relationship, and now i listen to arms unfolding through a lens of self-love -- learning to love myself again after someone taught me otherwise


I always associated Guiltless with my father. he abused me throughout my childhood up until a few years ago when he finally left home after my parent's divorce. he was diagnosed with depression and blamed all of his awful behaviour on it without ever taking responsibility for his actions, "is it real? you believe you're guiltless."  the dark politician line makes me think of him because he now blames me for holding him at arms length because I "can't heal" and isolating him from the family, "end up alone."


i always thought that the "i made a promise but i break it every day" line was kind of a reference to "i promise you it'll all make sense again" from secret for the mad, like saying that maybe secret for the mad was wrong and some things just don't ever get better and make sense again


reminds me of some lyrical ideas from Lily Allen in alright still (a perfect album)


honestly all of hate myself is WILDLY relatable but "no I don't think I can help it" is the line that always gets me


the "it feels oddly good to hurt" reminds me of a line from the anime nana: "...pain comes with love
; because love is painful feeling, to the point of wanting to drown."


I'm curious about "the bitter ones still taste the best" from special girl!!


I love you Dodie. You are a special girl. Spill To Me!


Dodie, we need a 4 Tequilas Down tutorial PLEASE


I wanted this video so badly! Thanks dodieeeee!


Dodie! Hi. Might I ask that you do a similar insight video about the musical arrangements in some of your songs? You're a very clever musician, but I suppose you knew that though, huh? Thanks for doing what you do the way that you do it. It's wonderful!

Ooo! Yes that’s def next<br>Thank u!!!!!!


In "if I'm being honest" I've understood the "red pushing down on the green" as like, having a crush in elementary school and the moment you talk to them it feels like you're about to throw up from nervousness (green) but the blushing/the shame (red) prevents it. <br>Maybe my crushes were just weird lol

In "if I'm being honest" I've understood the "red pushing down on the green" as like, having a crush in elementary school and the moment you talk to them it feels like you're about to throw up from nervousness (green) but the blushing/the shame (red) prevents it.
Maybe my crushes were just weird lol


my favourite song off of bap is guiltless and my favourite lyric is probably "i'm not bitter, i'm just tired / no use getting angry at the way that you're wired". i'm not sure if i really GET that song because there are parts i absolutely cannot relate to (e.g. "i don't think i'd feel better if i opened your eyes" - i'd feel INFINITELY better if i opened her eyes, i feel like it would solve everything in a way) but THAT line i definitely get. maybe it's because i overshare way way way too much? like i am constantly going around yelling "they fucked me up". i'm curious why you chose "i'll carry your burden 'til the day that you die" instead of "'til the day that i die" but i completely understand if you don't feel comfy explaining that <3


my favourite dodie lyric of allll time is "you blew me up like a big balloon far too soon, i'm left a stuttering teen"<br>i lov the way it rolls off the tongue so smoothly. ALLITERATION, BABEY!!

my favourite dodie lyric of allll time is "you blew me up like a big balloon far too soon, i'm left a stuttering teen"
i lov the way it rolls off the tongue so smoothly. ALLITERATION, BABEY!!


ik it wasn’t discussed in this video but bite back is one of my favourites because the lyrics feel like a conversation im having with my brain: “there are knots that i can help undo, my dear i’m only trying to help you” the depressed/angry side of my brain is too volatile to listen to the other rational, self aware part that understands what is happening. same with “i couldn’t reach you, no not tonight, i’ll try tomorrow and hope you’re kind”; it feels like i’m telling my brain to give it a rest for today and i’ll try again tomorrow and hope the mental fog has cleared up a little. it’s one of my favourite dodie songs :-)


i love Rainbow so much but there are many lines in it that i've been trying to interpret, like "my title just talks over me", "i was not to be trusted / how can i be proud of what a million people shout at me i'm not", or "i'd love to watch you gasp / you'd understand in minute and i like to think you'd miss it / cause so would i". i'd love to hear what you meant while writing those lines!


I always wondered and speculated about Guiltless, but you had already made it very clear that you didn't wanna elaborate on the lyrics even when it first came out, so that is the only song I am "missing" but not actually expecting you to talk about it


I think it’s wild dodie sees her online persona as someone who was perfect and aloof. What gave me hope was seeing someone bend so much and break at times but come up for air to tell us every time that it will be okay. I hope she knows that as someone who was incredibly young and in need when I found her I harbor no resentment towards her imperfection. I am so proud to have been one of her ‘daughters’


I personally interpret Guiltless as a song about parental trauma, and specifically the kind that isn't extreme, but you look at how you're kind of messed up now and realize that it was something your parents did to you (maybe without realizing). You blame them for it obviously, and have that built-up resentment, but you know that if you tried to explain it to them, they would get defensive and deny that they ever did anything to hurt you (even inadvertently).<br>The line "I'm not bitter, I'm just tired / no use getting angry at the way that you're wired" always hit hard in that context because it's a perfect explanation of that complicated relationship and knowing that you'll never be able to change their thought processes.

I personally interpret Guiltless as a song about parental trauma, and specifically the kind that isn't extreme, but you look at how you're kind of messed up now and realize that it was something your parents did to you (maybe without realizing). You blame them for it obviously, and have that built-up resentment, but you know that if you tried to explain it to them, they would get defensive and deny that they ever did anything to hurt you (even inadvertently).
The line "I'm not bitter, I'm just tired / no use getting angry at the way that you're wired" always hit hard in that context because it's a perfect explanation of that complicated relationship and knowing that you'll never be able to change their thought processes.


for me personally, ‘a dark politician will end up alone’ signifies that, generally in life, anyone who tries to dictate all your actions will end up far worse than you will


i love the song All My Daughters but it means a lot different to me than Dodie described. to me "daughters" represent all the sides to myself that i created to fit different peoples' expectations of me. so when the song goes "how they love me, all my daughters but im screaming underwater" means a whole lot to me. Funny how songs and art can take different interpretations to different people.


Damn! I feel like this is not fair to cram all this in one video. Each song needs its own explainer video.


this was the coolest video concept when I saw you post asking to submit lyrics but damn did this turned out so good


Maybe you could make a video on how your attitude toward a track changed over time?


something you've always talked about in burnt out is the line that goes 'but they love you over and over they love you' and how people just sing back to you seeming not to get that that line is about the pressure and whatever that creates, and when that happens all we can do is try and reassure you that we know you're only human. But, when you're in an audience how can you get that across other than saying we love you?


If i could give the video a double like or something I would


I feel like I can share here haha.

Before The Line for me, is basically my trauma from my childhood and just being so angry at who caused it and ‘The Line’ is between me as a child and then me after the shit happened. And im desperately wanting to let go of it but I just can’t. And me wanting to go back and experience a childhood that wasn't tainted.


This is very off topic but my Nan read "secrets for the mad" whilst she came to visit and despite knowing nothing about you, she really liked it and read the whole thing 😊


i don’t belong here really hit me hard and meant a lot to me as a newly diagnosed autistic person, the idea of not fitting in with peoples secret social codes resonates with me so much


This is 100% just an auditory and phonetic thing but i love all the "t" sounds in "Let Go"


I love that you still stick to your guns about not revealing all the details of your trauma. Nobody is owed the details of your trauma. You don't owe your audience your entire existence.


I feel like with guiltless lyrics it’s one of those where if you get it you get it and if you don’t that’s alright but you won’t quite be able to, and it’s tricky / painful to explain

Yeah, the first time I heard that song I started sobbing and sent it to my mom with just the words "it's him". That song helped me understand a part of my life so much better, but I still can't write about that person-- thank god we have dodie to write about it for us lol


i actually wrote down a very similar interpretation for the bridge in hate myself on genius! i'm glad i wasn't just bullshitting that lmfao

here are some lyrics i'm curious about!
bite back - "will you soften to me? / will you not let me be someone else not getting through?"

rainbow - "you'd understand in minutes / and i'd like to think you'd miss it, cause so would i"

bored like me - "i wonder if you love like i love loving you / i'm going in blindly / so make the risk want the risk like i want you to do"

don't gotta explain all of em ^^


Okay I've thought about these a lot so while I'm here, let me note my personal interpretations of them before I listen to you explaining each one of them.

o) Red pushing down on the green - I thought this is like, you're so sick from anxiety that you're green (you want to vomit) but you're also like super shy/ashamed so your face is red and it's just a mix of those things XD just like extreme anxiety and self-consciousness about being in front of your crush
o) i look idiotic with my limbs all knotted, it don't feel right - yup literally imagined, you're hoping so hard that you sort of get carried away and uuhh.. well, basically, you're trying to pull yourself out of it cuz it's kinda shameful (not really but it feels that way when you're crushin, I would know)
o) what in the world do we have at a quarter to four - I guess I thought that meant like a drink:D likeee... it's so late already, past the tipsy stage, but too late to keep drinking; or likee maybe you're trying to think of like "ok how am I going to continue this steaming imagination":D
o) this whrring machine -- the mechanical motions of you knoww... your hand
if you can't cool it down steam is still steam -- even if you can't get the release (assuming it's with someone else now) the process or the imaginary scenario is still hot and steamy and very enjoyable
o) "i am not cartoon" -- ok this one is something that i've thought a lot, bc burned out really struck a chord with me at some point -- basically it sounded like the song was about someone else (like a manager?) putting the weight on your shoulders, asking you to keep producing and um keep doing shows and everything despite the stress of it all; and you're basically saying "don't build hope on something broken, i am not cartoon" because you're a real person with feelings and problems and stuff to deal with outside your musical career, despite it being deeply intertwined, and, you know, you're not a cartoon, you're three-dimensional and you can only take so much before becoming "burnt out" or breaking.
and "i might just leave soon" is like a threat to whoever is putting the weight on you, saying to them that you might just quit the thing entirely if they don't stop and stand back, cool it down with the demands and respect you as a person, giving you room to breathe.
"it seeps through her cracks and so i start to choke" yup, the way you explained it is exactly how I imagined it, too
o) " a dark politician will end up alone" -- two parts to this: someone who likes to debate and conquer, not really caring about what the other person in front of them is feeling or has to say, and is basically manipulative with their words like a politician,  and the other part: you looking back on it and saying now that they will end up alone because of how they treat you and how they are as a person (cruel, guiltless and manipulative).
o) "something in me says that this is ok" -- um okay i just realized that I might need to go listen to this song with a fresh perspective due to a certain situation in my life... but anyway... I guess sometimes the primitive urges take over, esp when you're under the influence, and you're basically convincing yourself that "it'll be fineee, this is ok" but.. then later you realize what a terrible thing you've done, and no, it was not ok, you were just silencing out the voice of reason...

ok i have to stop now, i'm about halfway through but i'll be back later probably

Okay I've thought about these a lot so while I'm here, let me note my personal interpretations of them before I listen to you explaining each one of them.

o) Red pushing down on the green - I thought this is like, you're so sick from anxiety that you're green (you want to vomit) but you're also like super shy/ashamed so your face is red and it's just a mix of those things XD just like extreme anxiety and self-consciousness about being in front of your crush
o) i look idiotic with my limbs all knotted, it don't feel right - yup literally imagined, you're hoping so hard that you sort of get carried away and uuhh.. well, basically, you're trying to pull yourself out of it cuz it's kinda shameful (not really but it feels that way when you're crushin, I would know)
o) what in the world do we have at a quarter to four - I guess I thought that meant like a drink:D likeee... it's so late already, past the tipsy stage, but too late to keep drinking; or likee maybe you're trying to think of like "ok how am I going to continue this steaming imagination":D
o) this whrring machine -- the mechanical motions of you knoww... _your hand_
if you can't cool it down steam is still steam -- even if you can't get the release (assuming it's with someone else now) the process or the imaginary scenario is still hot and steamy and very enjoyable
o) "i am not cartoon" -- ok this one is something that i've thought a lot, bc burned out really struck a chord with me at some point -- basically it sounded like the song was about someone else (like a manager?) putting the weight on your shoulders, asking you to keep producing and um keep doing shows and everything despite the stress of it all; and you're basically saying "don't build hope on something broken, i am not cartoon" because you're a real person with feelings and problems and stuff to deal with outside your musical career, despite it being deeply intertwined, and, you know, you're not a cartoon, you're three-dimensional and you can only take so much before becoming "burnt out" or breaking.
and "i might just leave soon" is like a threat to whoever is putting the weight on you, saying to them that you might just quit the thing entirely if they don't stop and stand back, cool it down with the demands and respect you as a person, giving you room to breathe.
"it seeps through her cracks and so i start to choke" yup, the way you explained it is exactly how I imagined it, too
o) " a dark politician will end up alone" -- two parts to this: someone who likes to debate and conquer, not really caring about what the other person in front of them is feeling or has to say, and is basically manipulative with their words like a politician,  and the other part: you looking back on it and saying now that they will end up alone because of how they treat you and how they are as a person (cruel, guiltless and manipulative).
o) "something in me says that this is ok" -- um okay i just realized that I might need to go listen to this song with a fresh perspective due to a certain situation in my life... but anyway... I guess sometimes the primitive urges take over, esp when you're under the influence, and you're basically convincing yourself that "it'll be fineee, this is ok" but.. then later you realize what a terrible thing you've done, and no, it was not ok, you were just silencing out the voice of reason...

ok i have to stop now, i'm about halfway through but i'll be back later probably


PLEASE DODIE PLEASE WHAT'S "I KNEW YOU ONCE" ABOUT like what kind of a relationship? I've applied it to so many situations and had so many different "you" people but I always always wonder what it's about. My tippy top favourite song of yours. Also..... BLESS YOU FFS


every time you would play the music, i would add  percussion on my pop it :)


unrelated but playing along to special girl on bass gives me so much serotonin i cannot wait to hear it live in August!!!


The anger and frustration in Before The Line...my GOD have I felt that....ugghhh it's incredible how the music and the lyrics just perfectly capture that. Can't tell you how many times I have blasted that in my earphones alone in my room and just raged.


ngl i thought “this whirring machine” meant a vibrator 💀


im gonna say what i thought In the Bed was about because im lowkey proud of it lol but i thought that was about trying to be intamate with someone after sexual assault, like wanting to be with someone but everything inside of you telling you not to or feeling sick about it. the lines that made me feel that way were "Hot little hints/Toe a line between sexy and sick/What's the deal? How much to feel?","Poor lonely mind, it's getting confused", "Disconnected, but beautifully raw". Yeah


Its actually pretty easy to understand what shes saying by her lyrics, the fascinating part is what it means to her. Like guiltless, obviously its someone she knows, but theres no prying. And the demo for let go, im very interested in knowing what her meaning is.


To me Hate Myself is about being very anxious and overanalyzing a relationship with someone you care about. "When you go quiet I hate myself" really hit home for me because I'm often afraid of silence during a conversation. I start to overthink it like "Did I say something wrong?", "What if we're not right for each other?" etc. even when it's just...silence. Like, it's normal and completely fine. The verse "build a problem that neither of us needs, something wrong with me" to me means that, sometimes, my anxiety blows things out of propotion and builds problems for myself that aren't even real. I know that this interpretation might not match the entire lyrics but most of it reminds me of my inner monologue when I get anxious. Listening to it soothes me because it makes me realize that these thoughts sound irrational.

Omg i love this interpretation bc I'm act this too


Watching this makes me so so excited about seeing you live in LA next March!!


This is absolutely me just projecting but I've always wanted in the middle to be about a polyamorous relationship.


omg i relate so much to all the lyrics,,,


i feel like dodie's gonna make another secret song


first coupla times i listened to "if i'm being honest" i thought u were singing about becoming famous and existing as this beautiful desirable public figure and how it soothes your ego but makes you insecure about trying to meet the expectations. "all of my best bits collected displayed" i thought of instagram, "red pushing down on the green" i thought of approval on youtube videos. "could you love this?" hoping people will love the art you're putting out into the world... yeah


So I guessed a lot of them correctly, but for some reason I thought All My Daughters was about like, all the different people you could be, all the different choices you make and how there might be alternate universes where you made different choices, and all those versions of you in these alternate universes are cheering you on during a bad time or something? Like a combination of regretting the decisions you've made so much that it hurts and simultaneously feeling loved by every version of yourself.


I think it feels good to hurt because at least then you know how you feel. if you have mixed emotions you're uncertain


Guiltless is about my dad Dodie wrote it for me so I remember that actually the thing with my dad is real and I won't think "well actually maybe it's all me" and put myself back in harm's way

(Not rly claiming Dodie wrote it for me but that's the effect for me.)


do you write or rather 'focus on' creating the lyrics or the music first? or is it like an amulgamtion of the two?

I'm only able to write instrumental music and have always struggled with lyrics which is why I find interest in how lyricists as incredible as you write your music.


I’ve always thought of the promise in Before the Line as “I promise you it’ll all make sense again” from Secret for the Mad!!!


i know you don't talk about guiltless but that song hurts in such a good way bc on one hand. ouch. that's my ~trauma~ in song form. but on the other hand it feels so validating to have my experience put across so eloquently,, thank u luv u


The minute I saw the pre-order for BAP I knew I was gonna get it I think because I felt there was a story I knew was gonna help me hidden in the lyrics and the names ect.


You could cover your old songs they sounded so good hereeeee


OH also okay last comment I promise - I know you didn’t mention 6/10 on here but I connect with that song the most out of all your songs as someone with social anxiety. The lyrics just hit so close to home and it felt like I could understand them without needing an explanation ,, like I was telling a friend earlier that 6/10 felt like you just took my thoughts out of my brain and put them into a song. I’m really thankful that I’ve found something I can relate to so strongly - so thank you dodie <3 just thought I would let you know about this!


I know she doesn't like to talk about guiltless. but as a songwriter who LOVES deciphering lyrics.. and also.. as someone who (i like to think) relates deeply to guiltless, it's one of the most perfect songs lyrically, and especially the dark politian line. <3 sending love


Dodie should do another ASMR video, I miss them!!! :((


I completely relate to Guiltless, and I understand the dark politician line. It is a privilege to not immediately understand :)<br>Also I totally connect to Hate Myself as a painting of my Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria and chasing of emotionally unavailable male crushes and mentors and friends, but anyone who I think could be annoyed at me and then they go quiet or don't reassure me that they still think positively of me, my anxiety and worst-case scenario-ing goes wild. And then I really love Rainbow from a neurodivergent perspective because discovering I have ADHD explains everythinggg and normal functional life things are a struggle compared to people around me

I completely relate to Guiltless, and I understand the dark politician line. It is a privilege to not immediately understand :)
Also I totally connect to Hate Myself as a painting of my Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria and chasing of emotionally unavailable male crushes and mentors and friends, but anyone who I think could be annoyed at me and then they go quiet or don't reassure me that they still think positively of me, my anxiety and worst-case scenario-ing goes wild. And then I really love Rainbow from a neurodivergent perspective because discovering I have ADHD explains everythinggg and normal functional life things are a struggle compared to people around me


rainbow and let go have been really good like reassuring and relief songs for me if that makes sense so thanks :)


You have you made me feel to be bisexual!


My ex was a deeply wounded and deeply mentally unhealthy person. I thought he would try to improve himself or take steps to get help with support from me, but he allowed himself to spiral into a really toxic person who removed himself from me entirely and ended up cheating on me. The lyric "when you go quiet I hate myself" always made total sense because for the second half of the relationship he never talked to me about his feelings or what he thought at all and it made me feel like I wasn't enough for him and something about his situation was my fault.
I thought it was because he didn't trust me, but really it was because I should never have trusted him.
BTW, dodie, you inspired me to write a song about it - a theme that mixes sympathy with suppressed rage in a melody that sounds melancholy and sentimental.
And then a cute Lil song about my current boyfriend who has helped me heal a lot of hurts and lies I believed by showing me through actions what unselfish love looks like. My friend told me "hey you know 'Absolutely Smitten'? Yeah. That's you. You're gone. You're not in this pain of existence anymore".


Hi! I'm not a fine english speaker but I'll  hope you understand me! I'd like to say that this video was soo interesting. It's almost magical your traduction of feelings into lyrics, and how different we (as listeners) procesate them from u. my question is, have you ever had an interpretation of one song of yours by a fan that has changed your original perception of it? Like, do all of your songs begin and end in the process of writing/producing or have you ever learnt from the re-reading or seen your words differently due to someone's perspective


«Dreams and Ideas should not be the same thing» hit me like a train, cause I used to enter into not great relationships assuming they would last forever, and “you waited smiling for this” is such a perfect nail in the coffin for the realization that your childish optimism was misplaced.


i am very guilty of going quiet and not opening up so now i feel called out lmao

i guess i hadn't listened closely enough, i associated "hate myself" with a very close friendship that ended quite abruptly a couple months ago and feeling guilty about "causing" the void in my life where our conversations and our friendship used to be

(i wrote "causing" in quotation marks because if i'm being objective it's not really 100% my fault, as it rarely is in these situations. i just started a conversation that was long overdue. still feel guilty about it though.)


If I'm being honest I don't understand anything she just said but I love listening to her talk


An insightful slice of a rare perspective on the human experience.


I have a question, if you have a second! Are the minor shifts in “Before the Line” musically showing the before/after of derealization for you?


The way you think is so interesting! I would love to talk to you and just like talk about random things and what you think about things. You have such a unique view of the world but also there’s so much that I can relate to.


Your music has so many universal feelings that so many relate to, but not many have the courage to put into words.

And hearing someone else put the feelings that you feel into words helps so much more than you can imagine to those who feel unheard and alone.
The past few years I've been coming to terms with and understanding depression that I've lived with for quite a while, and in some of your songs there are these snippets of "yes, another person understands"

So I guess just... thank you?


Ooh dodie, can we have a nail tutorial?? The colours are so fun!


Is there a list of both her released and unreleased (youtube only) songs? Some of these aren't on her albums and I'm trying to figure out just how much is missing. The internet is not being helpful. Thanks!


videos like this make me wish every artist were a youtuber too


'It feels oddly good to hurt' - she

THAT'S COS YOU'RE A 4 BABE


I always thought the promise you broke was in reference to secret for the mad where you promise "it'll all make sense again" and I was surprised it wasn't lol


Just gonna leave this here and say, “Secret of the mad” saved my life


"Talk about your taste in women" - im polyamorous and the first time two of my partners met i kind of expected to be the center of attention because id be the main thing they had in common. They spent an hour talking about Magic the Gathering...


“We both know a break does exactly what it says on the tin” <br>Anyone have any interpretations of this line from Sick of Losing Soulmates?

“We both know a break does exactly what it says on the tin”
Anyone have any interpretations of this line from Sick of Losing Soulmates?

that and the fact people often say "i think we should take a break ", rather than "i'm breaking up with you". the phrase "take a break" implies that the relationship will resume at some point, when in reality it almost never does. people just use that phrase because it's easier to pretend it's a temporary separation, rather than directly facing the fact that this is the end of the line and what they had is well and truly over.

that and the fact people often say "i think we should _take a break_ ", rather than "i'm _breaking up_ with you". the phrase "take a break" implies that the relationship will resume at some point, when in reality it almost never does. people just use that phrase because it's easier to pretend it's a temporary separation, rather than directly facing the fact that this is the end of the line and what they had is well and truly over.

you know when people “take a break” in relationships? i think the lyric is saying that taking a break ends up breaking you or smth like that


ohh i took "the promise" idea as like promising myself "I'll get better one day" or someone else saying "you'll get better." I made this promise and I break it every day, it's not my fault because other people told me that I'll get better too. ya :)


I relate to Monster, Cool Girl, Guiltless, and Before the Line even more now. 💕Maybe I should go back to therapy… 😭

Special girl and Ready Now are more calming/cathartic in my opinion. Thank you so much for writing them Dodie, if you ever read this. 💜


If I'm Being Honest is not how I stumbled into Dodie, but it's a good deal of the reason I come back:
 This getting in a tangle to not appear to be tangled up, that was basically my childhood.

There were harder places.


"a dark politician will end up alone" for me is about my romantic relationship with boris johnson and how i dumped him ( for legal reasons i must claim this is in fact a joke lmao)


"I'm walking if it doesn't sting, a heartbreak only means that it was worth it" I interpret kinda like when you feel like a project isn't good enough if you don't pour your entire heart and soul into it? But like, as a relationship. Like if you aren't burning yourself out to make a relationship work then you didn't really love them

I love that interpretation, I always interpret it to be: if your heart gets broken it means you felt deep love and that makes the pain worth it.<br>It's so interesting how everyone uses their own life experiences and thoughts to apply meaning to dodies lyrics.

I love that interpretation, I always interpret it to be: if your heart gets broken it means you felt deep love and that makes the pain worth it.
It's so interesting how everyone uses their own life experiences and thoughts to apply meaning to dodies lyrics.


Love you doddles the good bad and not so pretty. Thanks for sharing.


i rlly wanna know about "not what i meant" when the lyrics go "oh i'll work a little harder but walk a little less" and "you saw my number and my number wasnt good enough"


A song I put my own meaning to is Rainbow. I know it‘s about your sexuality, and I‘m part of zhe LGBTQ+ comnunity as well, but I‘ve never felt out of place because of my gender or sexuality. <br>I do, however, struggle a lot with my mental health and being neurodivergent. So someone openly not only accepting but praising that part of me just makes me feel all nice and fuzzy.

A song I put my own meaning to is Rainbow. I know it‘s about your sexuality, and I‘m part of zhe LGBTQ+ comnunity as well, but I‘ve never felt out of place because of my gender or sexuality.
I do, however, struggle a lot with my mental health and being neurodivergent. So someone openly not only accepting but praising that part of me just makes me feel all nice and fuzzy.


6/10 has such a special place in my heart b/c 1) my birthday is 6/10 lol and 2) I have such social anxiety around even my longtime close friends that I constantly feel like they hate me and want to make excuses to leave and go back home where I’m comfortable. Even tho I know that’s not true and they assure me of it, I still have the line “I know that you don’t want me here” playing on a loop in my head sometimes when I’m around them 🤷🏽♀


i think dodie talking about the song all my daughters very interesting as a young female fan bc i had no clue what she meant by the term “daughters”, and to find out that it’s about people like me, but in a really weird context is strange


I like the idea of writing songs and then giving them to the world, so they're no longer yours, but theirs. I made your song Guiltless about a very different thing that it was written about; I use it as inspiration/soundtrack while outlining a novel I want to write about artistic gymnastics. Because I want to write a story that is realistic, I don't want gloss over the abuse that happens to young girls in the sport and this song captures that atmosphere so well. The softness of the voice combined with the sadness in the lyrics gives me the perfect "I'm hurting but fighting back is not an option" vibe. The line "you opened a door that no kid should walk through" is perfect for this setting. And the chorus, the acceptance of the trauma and the line "I can tell you believe you're guiltless" fits so well, because so many abusive coaches through history have justified their methods with the amount of medals they produce, or with making "better" gymnasts. The dark politician metaphor also works really well in this context. I love this song and I love how useful it is to me for a completely different purpose than the one intended, I guess. I don't relate to it personally, but it helps me create something new.


My second college essay was just analyzing "If I'm Being Honest" and now I'm thinking I got the whole thing wrong lmao


Very unrelated but Dodie, I think you would make a great mum. Literally. 😭


In 'I Kissed Someone (It Wasn't You),' what did you mean by "put me in a bath, I forget you are gone"? I feel like there are so many different things it could mean.


I always though if I'm being honest was about expectations put on you when you're young and everyone watching you struggle to meet those expectations and trying to figure yourself out and grow up in all of that!


i feel like you’d be the girl that i was sort of friends with in school, but i wanted to be bffs with


The line in "Sick of Losing Soulmates": "which part will you take cus we both know a break does exactly what it says on the tin", help? Like it can't be repaired?


A couple lines in Sick of Losing Soulmates have left me wondering, but mainly "Superglued human of proof"

she mostly explains her lyrics in her tutorial videos! https://youtu.be/DUl75sVtsB0?t=128


The way u say hope sounds a lot like a word in arabic "hop , it is pronounced like that" and it is amazing lol


I always listen to Hate Myself as trying to socialize while being neurodivergent because uhhh ya hit that one on the nail


hiii dodieeee!! okay so i swiped up on your story bUt saw that you posted this video already. i was curious about “my heart’s running out of sellotape/cellotape”. i’ve always wondered what that line meant. side note: i kissed someone it wasn’t you is SO good.


This is my favorite video of the internet.


I always thought 'red pushing down on the green' was the redness of being embarrassed and the greenness of being sick haha


I'm kinda surprised that people asked you about some lyrics because I feel they're very straightforward, even when you use metaphors.

But hey! It's nice to get some reaffirmation! Especially the whole "talk about your taste in women" because OF COURSE you mean yourself. Who else?! I dunno, it made me laugh.


For me - i feel very attached to all my daughters and hate myself

I know that all my daughters is directed at me and others like me - and its feel comforting in a strange way . Like were here growing up and shes here singing about all her problems and stuff yet it can relate to our lives so much

I only really realised what hate myself meant for me recently- at first i didnt get it but now it do . like for me its being so depent on one person’s view of you and wanting them to talk and like you but you have a small inkling that somethings wrong and you don't know why - and the worst part is when they wont open up


“oooh don’t say it’s genetic”. i think ab this one a lot bc it feels like something someone would say to a kid experiencing mental health issues passed down from parents


I feel your guilt in so many of ur songs and it hurts to know how much u hurt on the inside knowing you've done some wrongs or wanting to show the world how imperfect u are. In all my daughters, I felt like u feel unworthy of our love because u think we love this perfect image of u but if we knew ur darker imperfect side, we wouldn't love u as much. I hope u find it in you to forgive yourself and accept that u are so worthy of all that love. I want u to see what we see when we look at u and listen to u. U are such a gem and a beautiful human being. We all have done things we are not proud of but learning to forgive ourselves and see ourselves as worthy of all the love in the world is so essential. Ik many of u are not Christian, but I'd like to share something about how my relationship with God gave me so much confidence and love for myself. Just knowing that He creating me purely out of love and that I am the daughter of the almighty, loving, forgiving God is crazy to me. He told me that I was fearfully and wonderfully made. He told me I'm more beautiful and worthy than the stars in the sky. And I believed Him. And now I believe I am worthy of love regardless of my mistakes.


Ooof i relate to the writing songs about a very specific feeling when you actually have a more differenciated view on the topic but that would be too much for a song... i always have to say that disclaimer to my friends before i show them my songs because otherwise i sound like a complete asshole 😅


what in the world does “I was raised by open mouths and tears eyes, passive wistful lullabies” from special girl mean 👀


the jump from burned out to all my daughters is so cool


I remember the first video I saw of you was your hair tutorial lol

I didn't know you made music, i was just distressed about my hair xD

loveyouDodie


hey dodie have you ever considered adding trigger warnings to your videos? i know there's pros and cons so you don't HAVE to but i just think it would epic if u made a lil' list while editing and popped it at the start of the video and/or in the description - big ones for this vid (and others) would be "toxic relationships & abuse" and also probably "depression", "derealisation" and "suicidal thoughts". hope i'm not oversteppinggggg??? i just think it might be good because convos with such vivid descriptions of these things might be difficult for some ppl


"i watched you all ask all your lovers away" what does this mean please tell me


"she smells like lemongrass and sleep" WHAT DOES SLEEP SMELL LIKE.????


I don’t know why but whenever I listen to sorry my first thought is Snow falling in Edward Scissorhands?


for me, "when you go quiet, i hate myself" is kinda the opposite of what you said... i'm a very quiet person, and the only time i get to think about stuff is when i completely shut down from the world and there's not a single sound from the outside to distract me. so it's like, "when you go quiet" and you finally stop making noise and i can look back to everything you just said, i start to feel bad about those things and "i hate myself".


I love stuff like this YES PLEASE TELL ME THE ANSWERS I HATE CLIFFHANGERS


before the line is a really meaningful song to me because i have has disassociation on and off my whole life and now it’s on and this is the longest it’s been on and i feel like that line is being created for me right now and the song makes me feel not alone in it


1:21 and all this time I thought red pushing down on the green was talking about the blush on someones face being stronger than the sickness in their face... well hell


I’m glad you said the songs are ours now because Four Tequilas Down (or Five Tequilas Down as I often sing) is My Song Now


kind of related but in boys like you i misheard the lyric ‘turns out you’re just good at this’ and thought you were singing ‘turns out you’re just going to piss’

sort of like someone was going to lean in to kiss but moved instead to go piss. took me an embarrassing amount of time to release the real lyric


BITE BACK! what is it about? feels like caught in weird tension with a close friend who you are trying to help


In the bed is just too beautiful for it’s own good. Just wow


Dodie: this is gonna be a long one
Me: okay so like an hour
Video: less than twenty minutes
Me:oh... okay

Dodie: this is gonna be a long one
Me: okay so like an hour
Video: *less than twenty minutes*
Me:oh... okay


Heh... my impression of Monster was a bit darker. 😅 I definitely thought you were talking about placating with your words so that they wouldn't be a true danger to you and no one be able to listen anymore.


does anyone understand the line "write a postcard to you at 84" in party tattoos? I've never grasped if 84 was an age or an address


In intertwined, what do you mean by the phrase 'you create a rarity of my genuine smile'? Is it a good thing? Bad thing? I've always wondered

I always thought of this as being a darker lyric bc it says “rarity” meaning that she rarely smiles genuinely around this person ,, so the relationship isn’t very healthy. (also I think the song may be a bit about being really really dependent on someone almost to an unhealthy point?) At least that’s what I got from it! :)


"my flatmate is pissing... very loud" is going to be a lyric in the next song right?


oh gosh I could listen to you talking for infinity


From this moment on, we are the daughters


i feel guilt about being a fan of somebody's for inadvertently pressuring them w my expectations. having been a long time fan of both you and bo, part of me always thought i should look away bc i'm contributing to a problem. i know it doesn't make sense bc i respect people's boundaries and if an artist is sharing their art they want people to see it, but i still feel the guilt. also i think it's incited me with fear about sharing my art online, i see the negative side affects and worry it's not worth it :-( will i regret not sharing? would i regret sharing? oof idk..


I think about these thoughts all the time... I swear we're twin flames ahhh


Hate myself always was special to me as I often based my self worth on someone else loving me so “if you go quiet I hate myself” meant that as soon as you stop loving me and giving me attention I stop loving me and that I did something wrong i must have done something wrong other wise you wouldn’t be upset/quiet


glad to see everyone asked about all my daughters


HAHAH the shock on ur face when u said “i’m writing myself”


gosh the LIGHTING of this video feels so cozy!!!!


1:27 This is the moment where I realized she says "all fingers" and not "orphan girls"


guess we will never know what dodie meant when she said “green looking time” in when 😔

@Nicolas Neubauer oooh thank you i never thought of  it like that before

I understood it like: The grass is always greener on the other side, and so is the time that is not now.


Sick of losing soulmates hit hard because i attach so deeply to every person i fall for and even when it goes to shlt I try to put it back together bc "theyre my soulmate" and ive lost to many people already. Eventually that turned into detaching from everyone i get feelings for but yeah, and then When was also a monumental song for me bc i experience DP/DR 24/7 and im constantly cursing myself for not actually experiencing life and instead im stuck in this horrid cycle of day to day life without actually living. Anywayyys thanks for making relatable songs that make me feel understood :D


„tell me again about how it hurts being awfully loud for an introvert“


This is my first time watching one of her videos and DAMN SHES PRETTY


Hey dodie, just out of curiosity, is there a trick to you remembering how to play all your songs? I play uke and can never do it without tabs.

LOL I literally had to relearn most of them for this video<br>I forget all the time !!

LOL I literally had to relearn most of them for this video
I forget all the time !!


I always thought of sorry as the follow up to the four tequilas down story 😩


Didn't realize that I was emocional for the same reason she wrote "if i'm being honest", how cool lol


'Sentences sit in her mouth that are templated' Are you kidding? Somebody thought of that? Correction... YOU thought of that! Damn, that's a wicked line! I fucking love your mind!


Always wondered about "to want to know me/is to ask me to ask you to tell but you won't" from bored like me !! I can't figure it out. In other news does anyone know any similar songs to this ?? I really like the wordsoup with the masquerade ball kind of vibe !!!!!!


Why do i understand every single word you said? ✨ 25 years alive is a scary thing for me, ty for making this age semi-ok . I had a massive panick attack inside the hospital 2 days ago. Everything is foggy ☁ and blooby dlobi 〜(꒪꒳꒪)〜. I think that we only at the  beginning.<br>Life is wonderfully weird, ty for existing - you made my disconnected brain to feel that it's ok to fly high without any control and im not the one to blame. ✨

Why do i understand every single word you said? ✨ 25 years alive is a scary thing for me, ty for making this age semi-ok . I had a massive panick attack inside the hospital 2 days ago. Everything is foggy ☁ and blooby dlobi 〜(꒪꒳꒪)〜. I think that we only at the  beginning.
Life is wonderfully weird, ty for existing - you made my disconnected brain to feel that it's ok to fly high without any control and im not the one to blame. ✨


i always rlly resonate with cool girl, i'm quite a loud and probably annoying person and constantly wish i could be the cool calm and collected person that everyone seems to love, i wish i could just be less dramatic abt everything :///


LITERALLY FUCKING BLOODY BRILLIANT YOU ARE. WOOOOWWW


so glad for all the in the bed explanations LMAO


I took cool girl (for me personally) as that but in terms of my gender. im a trans nonbinary person and it just reminds me like cool girl (my assigned gender) being okay with like i don’t know being misgendered and i’ll be easy and quiet and won’t push people to use my proper pronouns or proper name and it’s not a big deal and it’s so damaging and. ouch


It would be sooo cool if you wrote a movie about song composition !
 Like : a band that play some covers for fun together, have a chance to play somewhere cool. The drummer of the band is already in a professionnal band and is like "It's fun but I don't have much time and we only do covers so sorry I don't want to", after some discussion he semi-agreed to participate if there is at least a good original song.

The following would be the main character, you, singer and rythmic guitarist of the band, to write the song.
We would see all of the processing, trial and error, inspiration chasing, fun scene of discovery (you know like you could be in an argument with someone and telling someone something cool, immediatly stop and writing it down while humming like no-one was near, or walking in the forest and then having the melody but nothing to record etc), stuff like that.

And for the third act, I saw videos of Neely where he was preparing for a gig and people said it looked like heist movies. This would be fun to see every one trying to find a place for the rehearsal and convincing the drummer, finding a simpler way for the rythme because there isn't anytime for the 11/8 part (but the bassist will eventually play a part of it at the end of the song and everyone smiles at each other for the private joke), good harmonies at the last minutes and all.

You know, a slice of life movie with some different flavor as the movie progress !

Hope my english isn't too much broken, I'm baguette du fromage sooo...

Anyway, great work ! Have a nice day =)


Ahhh this is the video I've been waiting for, for the longest time lmao. You are so cute ahhh we need to collab!!! ☺


i have now drafted 2 different comments but my head is spacey and they made no sense. beautiful explanations, chill vibes, amazing music. <3


Oooh could you do a video of lines you almost used but decided not to because you just were never happy with the exact wording 😂


I thought the it feels awfully good to hurting was based of the cliché of “I love you so much it hurts”


i think my new wish is to sit down with dodie and talk about what her songs mean to her and what they mean to me


thousands and thousands of eyes just like mine, aching to find who they are. always wondered where the emphasis was. as in them finding themselves or you finding who they are?

Both me and them are alike - we’re all aching to find out who we are and that’s what makes us a community !


i think i find a lot of your lyrics quite self-explanatory but maybe that's just trauma baby


the keyboard playing in the dim room with the red light in the bg gives me MAJOR bo burnham vibes


"In the middle" is about a tree-some ? I thought it was about introducing your bf/gf to your dad


now i need to listen again with this knowledge


"maybe id be a little better if my feet just were more sweet " ( im pretty sure thats the lyric ) I"VE ALWAYS BEEN CONFUSED ABOUT THAT

@doddleoddle oh my god im so sorry ive been listening to it thinking you were talking about your toes thats a great lyric though

Maybe I’d sound a little better if my features were more sweet :”)


My name's Sophia, circa 2015 (my first year of hs). My name beforehand was Sophie, and my line is quite literally drawn by what people call me. I was a sad kid, but the world was still vibrant in its horror. Now, its beige and grey.


when she didn't answer my question about guiltless... honestly yes good for you babe


Genius mind!<br>I never understood the line « chill out if it’s late or every heavy sigh will seal a fate » in Cool Girl, could you explain? 🧐

Genius mind!
I never understood the line « chill out if it’s late or every heavy sigh will seal a fate » in Cool Girl, could you explain? 🧐


damn i thought i couldn’t love before the line more but holy shit


"Oh this lines kind of sweet, I just wanted to ingest them"


Right now cool girl and all my daughters really been speaking to me because I've been trying to be more relaxed and cool and not bother people because lately I felt like a push people away by being too inquisitive or talking too much and even though it's not something that anyone really said to me after reading a bunch of things wondering why I have trouble in a specific area I've been trying to just be more relaxed but it's made me incredibly lonely. I do think I have a history of people pleasing or maybe changing a little to suit people and I'm trying not to do that and being scared to open up to new people now it's just been exhausting. And when Dodie said " a you bad things" I feel bad too because I've been looking back on my past and little mistakes that I made here and there that led to embarrassment and hurt feelings and things I wish I could do over knowing better and that's been really hard for me but also all the childhood trauma that I faced and how I grew up it's really hard not to shut down after all that happened and I tried to keep going and I try to be a bright person and make people feel Joy but then people don't open themselves up to that Joy so I start to feel even more closed off and it's just this endless cycle of trying to do the right thing and trying to be friendly and good and positive and getting shut down.


when you said “one thing turns into being about everything”


i completely respect that the dark politician lyric is personall. but was wondering if it’s a metaphor?


I've always seen All My Daughters as an update or sequel to Burned Out


This video is so special to me oh my god


One thing that I don’t even know if it was intentional but adds so many layers is that at the end of She it sounds like you sing “She... he... means everything to me.” So it makes me think maybe the narrator rewrites the narrative at the last moment, crossing out she to replace with he out of shame or maybe she moved on or maybe the person saying the final he is the she the narrator has been singing about


<3 queerbbby from ig here. I gave that prompt for „a dark politician might end up alone. I appreciate that you put your response in even tho you didn’t elaborate on it :) 💓


You've used the word "gasp" a few times in your songs, like "i gasped for him". What does that mean?


is the specific term "Cool Girl" inspired by gone girl or is it just a coincidence lol


I know we should speculate, but…I think dodie is human and perfectly flawed. She wouldn’t be able to make such magical relatable music if she wasn’t living life, making mistakes, feeling pain, feeling joy and happiness. Most of my favorite songs, the ones that really dig into me, are the really dark sad ones because my darkness recognizes like and is comforted that it isn’t alone. I don’t need more details than that


Before the line was something I thought as 'before the finish line' because I can never reach that finish line


When i heard "would you be so kind"

when you said "how are your lungs? are they in pain?"

my first thought was lung cancer...


Damn dodies mind really do be on sex 90% of the time. And it makes for sick songs


ok. so. you're a lyrical genius. got it.


I asked what does "a dark politician always ends up alone" mean? I genuinely don't know.

A politician is someone who will change their answers and speak so defiantly it makes you feel gaslit and mental !!!


hi ily and can’t wait to see you in october and have loved u since i was like 10 years old and i’m just so thrilled :’)


i thought the lyric ‘talk about your taste in women’ was awesome bc it’s like sneakily <i>it’s me... talk about me 😏</i>

i thought the lyric ‘talk about your taste in women’ was awesome bc it’s like sneakily _it’s me... talk about me 😏_


i kissed someone relates to bipolar manic hypersexuality, and regret that comes from that, for me x


dodie when publishing burned out "I didnt mean leave life!!!1!" , dodie now " someeee suicidal ideationnnn"


everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who theyre thinking of

As someone who spent of lot of life so frustrated that I didn’t get crush’s and thought I was broken this always stung - I wanted so desperately to fall in love


Wow. I have a same "the line" in my life


Not necessarily a lyric question, but did you have a particular visual or scene in mind for “Instrumental”? I love that song so much, it reminds me of a mix of the opening from “Over the Garden Wall” and the instrumental bit from Waitress “Pomatter Pie” but with fairies? I don’t know I was just curious because it feels very much like something that would be in like a play. <br>Side note: Just a huge thank you for all of your incredible music! You give words and sound to feelings that sometimes feel otherwise unspeakable or unheard of. Listening to your work through the pandemic has been so uplifting and helpful, and after watching this there’s honestly new dimension to quite a few of my favorites. “All My Daughters” is one that I deeply identified with, especially the line “but I’m screaming underwater” it’s just amazing! Also it makes me so happy to see you be firm and happy in your boundaries. I started listening to your music when I was fifteen, and I loved when you would make videos about your life because it made me feel validated in what I felt as a young woman, but as I’ve grown I see how important it is in your own life to remember it is your life. You have no obligation to share Your world with The world, and your music is a privilege to peak into the depths of emotions we all share, but they started as yours. Anyway, thank you so so much for your music, your words, and for just being you! I hope you feel better soon!

Not necessarily a lyric question, but did you have a particular visual or scene in mind for “Instrumental”? I love that song so much, it reminds me of a mix of the opening from “Over the Garden Wall” and the instrumental bit from Waitress “Pomatter Pie” but with fairies? I don’t know I was just curious because it feels very much like something that would be in like a play.
Side note: Just a huge thank you for all of your incredible music! You give words and sound to feelings that sometimes feel otherwise unspeakable or unheard of. Listening to your work through the pandemic has been so uplifting and helpful, and after watching this there’s honestly new dimension to quite a few of my favorites. “All My Daughters” is one that I deeply identified with, especially the line “but I’m screaming underwater” it’s just amazing! Also it makes me so happy to see you be firm and happy in your boundaries. I started listening to your music when I was fifteen, and I loved when you would make videos about your life because it made me feel validated in what I felt as a young woman, but as I’ve grown I see how important it is in your own life to remember it is your life. You have no obligation to share Your world with The world, and your music is a privilege to peak into the depths of emotions we all share, but they started as yours. Anyway, thank you so so much for your music, your words, and for just being you! I hope you feel better soon!

Also have you noticed that it's musically very similar to One Last Time Please at the beginning?


the one goddamn lyrik which I really wanted to know about because I feel it way too much and she just goes

"no :)"

but well, "a dark polititian will end up alone", to me, is about how someone is wielding what leverage they have over you emotionally against you and how you promise yourself to leave them over it as soon as you´re able to, for the damage they´ve done, no matter how lonely they´ll end up without you, since thy have brought this upon themselves.


this is off topic but your hair looks so pretty in this video


REALLLYYYY curious about "you all plead and demand, all your needs but you can't, he'll be asked till he's bored, I would know, I've been bored before" from cool girl :))))


Please do a video about all your beautiful dresses and fashion in general!<br>Lol just seen your recent video

Please do a video about all your beautiful dresses and fashion in general!
Lol just seen your recent video


In she when you describe what she taste like then you say "but to her I taste of nothing at all" what exactly do you mean by that.


I don't know how to describe this but like-- is dodie getting more saturated??? Like she's still the soft under the covers nighttime toned dodie but just more color?


2:12 - "I'm inviting people to have a lil look at my ✨ b o d y ✨"


I promise you
It will all make sense again
Is a lyric of yours that completely changed my life. The night I found your music I hadnt left the house at all in two years was in a really dark place staying up all night sleeping all day not eating, hadnt taken care of myself at all had a lit of input from services but that was all same old same old "your own fault" or if not mine my families. Quite frankly I wanted to leave the world, nobody understood me I had just been diagnosed as autism something which at the time I seen as a terrible thing as the only autism I'd ever seen was ya know rainman and I thought I was then that persona of autism. I searched and searched for music or something to describe what i was feeling then i found you, I would easily say you saved me. To see someone else struggle was a real eye opener, I didnt get better myself I was sectioned in a traumatic way, only after not eating for 20 odd days,  and in a psych ward for 6 months. I introduced my best friend to your music and I left the psych ward in october 2018. It took a long time to bring myself back to life but slowly buy surely I got there, i started a ASN school in feb 2019, celebrated my 17th birthday on march 1st and march 15th seen you live, my birthday present from my best friend, I cried during secret for the mad and 6/10 remembering how far I'd come and knowing how hard it must've been for you to even imagine those lyrics. Since 2018 I have met a lot of people who struggle with their own mental health and in their moments of need I use that line so please.. you might not see it now but it really does get better things will make sense again the broken jigsaw that is your life will be a whole again it takes time to heal and it takes courage but you can get through this and one day you will be the one saying I promise this gets better, I promise it will all make sense again 💖


yeah I was wondering what the line in "?" means, the one that goes "mmmmMMMMMMMMMM aaaaaaAAaaaaAaa"


Red pushing down on the green was a definite unknown for me


this is the video i have always wanted from u


Is Guiltless about trauma? I just wanna make sure I’m hearing it right


that line in guiltless was the only one I asked about dodie whyyy (jk I completely respect you not sharing 💖)


Oh noooo I was so excited for "a dark politician will end up alone"


i thought the whirring machine was a vibrator


Cool Girl has become my chronic illness anthem


NO WAY I'VE BEEN WAITINH FOR THIS SO LONg


16:19 Recycling single teaser ideas again, are we?


I mean, do you have those harmonies in your head and do you try to make sense of something?

ok sometimes it hurts but it's not you it's your songs they have life


Im sorry for asking about the guiltless line😳


Fuuuck 12:38 pierced me in the heart
14:07 too


It’s only been 24 hours since I saw you in Seattle yet here I am already ugh miss u


i feel so attacked by some of these explanations


Dang okay I knew the promise bc I made the same promise 😬


am I the only one who thought of harry potter, when she talked about growing bones and how it was painful?


I can't wait to see you at your show in southampton!


I can't tell if this is pre covid, mid covid or post covid dodie..


“we won’t eat our words. they don’t taste so good.”-monster

Here's my interpretation:<br>"Eating your words" means regretting what you've said and wishing you could take it back. If the things you've said are particularly bitter, you literally don't want to eat them because they won't taste good, and it would feel better to get them out and direct them at the other person and not regret it, and just go full monster in their eyes.

Here's my interpretation:
"Eating your words" means regretting what you've said and wishing you could take it back. If the things you've said are particularly bitter, you literally don't want to eat them because they won't taste good, and it would feel better to get them out and direct them at the other person and not regret it, and just go full monster in their eyes.


hate myself is sort of about social anxiety for me. constantly worrying about saying or doing something wrong, thinking I'm insane for feeling like this, and when I fuck up the conversation, or talking with people, they go quiet and I hate myself


i was right abt the meaning of if i’m being honest

i literally resonate w all her music so much


what does "show me the eyes" from Sorry mean?


“Superglued human of proof” from Sick of Losing Soulmates?? pleaseeee


It's been years and I still can't seem to get "I'm sick of faking diary entries" from When

to me, it feels like lying (even to yourself, in something so private and personal as a diary) about how you’re doing and feeling (like feeling so unable to face your reality that you’re trying to fake a different one to cope)


I WISH I HAD KNOWN ABOUT THIS VIDEO Oh my word


A lot of these comments are telling me that not is Dodie very smart/clever so are all of you!


i always thought sorry was the follow up to four tequilas - like the woman got caught cheating and this was to the other woman


I can't wait to see u in the concert :''((((


I hate when artists say decide your own meaning. Most of the time I have no clue what a song is supposed to be about because artists use all these random metaphors and I have no context, so just tell me what it’s supposed to be about so it can actually mean something and not just be pretty sounds and a jumble of words


TIL Dodie is a lot hornier than i expected.


When I see her I just think of the song paint ONLY OGs


unrelated but what polish are you using? it's so subtle and cute 🥰


what about “put me in a bath/i’ll forgot you are gone” from I kissed someone it wasn’t you? I can’t seem to figure it out lol x

It’s like ! In a drunken night you’re like oh do whatever you want with me like someone tell me what to do
Take me home and bathe me because I clearly can’t look after myself

And then I’ll forget you are are gone is just like a route thought in thay


@doddlevloggle "Do me a favour, can your heart rate rise a little" from "would you be so kind". I thought it was "Do me a favour,can your heart re-write a little" I made a TikTok you commented on. hi.I love you


UR TELLING ME /I'M/ THE DAUGHTER????? IM CRYING


i'm very tired and only have two braincells but... what if dodie and bo burnham like............ made a song....


has there been a Build a Problem dance party vid, or did i just miss it ????


That last comment:   ‘My Flatmate is pissing very loudly…’.       That is an experience everyone has eventually..   future song lyrics?


reading these comments...isn’t music just so fucking cool. how everyone interprets it slightly differently but it’s just as meaningful regardless. <33


Looooove your Genius &glorious Music humor divine expression 🙏 Not talking about my taste in women 💪❤ UR a gift to Allofus😍🎶💞🗽💞💎💯🎉 Thank U for sharing from the heart 💞Love U☀


mental disorders are rude sometimes :( hope you feel better now.


rolling your eyes to to backs of your heads surely you know to close them instead. I thought it meant close them as in when you kiss someone you should close your eyes!


what “am i missing something vital here?” in don’t quite belong means?


oh jeez i relate to special girl far too much...and cool girl...(so many girls) and human...and sorry...and hate myself...<br>maybe I should go back to therapy

oh jeez i relate to special girl far too much...and cool girl...(so many girls) and human...and sorry...and hate myself...
maybe I should go back to therapy


I want to write you, I just don't know how lol If anyone could tell me where to send the damn thing...  I would very much appreciate it.


NO I GENUINELY DON'T KNOW WHAT "MY SUGA GOT AN EGGY BUM" MEANS AND IDK IF YOU'RE TEASING OR NOT??? is it like...about farts or somethin? please. I need to know what I'm randomly singing around the house


I still can't make out what the line after "I'm only proving how" is in Hate Myself lol

she's proving how the relationship isn't going to work out, the only person will have to loose her "im only worth loosing now"


I find If I’m Being Honest about looking back on your past self and just kind of apologising


It’a kinda not attractive when people are so in love with themself.


This is unrelated but i really like your nails and idk how you did them


I feel an idiot for not understanding that half the lyrics are sexual LMAO


a dark politician will end up alone was mine lolll


because... Im really smart! Gosh i loved that!


i dont listen to- i mean i listened to a couple songs i- i just- i was just staring. at. hair. and. everything else.


how do u feel now after covid? hope ur betterr


PLEASE what is the placement/meaning behind . and ? on the album. please. why were they positioned right there? what does it mean?


What does 'does exactly what it says on the tin'  mean?

It means that something literally does what it is called. You use a hairbrush to brush hair. It does what it says on the tin.

Someone else wrote a comment about how the line is like wordplay, where taking a break/pause causes your heart to break.


WHY DIDNT U EXPLAIN A DARK POLITICIAN WILL END UP ALONE I WANT TO UNDERSTAND IT


I feel dumb bc I still don't understand the Sorry lyrics properly loool


In "would you be so kind" what does "let's swap chests today" mean??

not her obviously, but i think it means something along the lines of "having this crush on you is making me short of breath, and if you could feel that, you could feel how serious i am about you, and how good it is to care about someone"


Ouch ouch ouch ouch the promise wrecked me


tw: s*icide mention
From ‘Sorry’
‘Let me go back/show me the eyes/so I’d really know/just what it looks like/there was the end/I couldn’t find/found too late (and then all of the next bit which is just cinematic I can hear colours when I listen to that)
right so maybe I have a dark mind or maybe i mould words to fit what I need them to say but I interpreted this as someone facing their family after a s*oxide attempt. Seeing their eyes, seeing there was hope all along. The end (to their pain) they couldn’t find, they found it too late having done something they now deeply regret. Then it goes into ‘didn’t want to believe such a monster in me’ and on and on and it fits so well like that self hatred afterwards, the shame, the guilt. And then the beautiful strings coming in at the end like, I’m alive I’m alive I’m alive oh thank god and I am so sorry and I am feeling so ashamed but simultaneously grateful
yeah so that’s why I sob uncontrollably at it

also I have a line from Ready Now tattooed
‘a promise of hope is enough to feel free’
In my darkest moments, even though it would anger me so much I always have this little sticky bit of hope that prevents me from disaster. I am naturally optimistic, possibly a little doe eyed and sheltered, but I have unwavering hope and as long as it’s there I can get through anything
A promise of hope is enough to feel free!


cw/sexual & physical abuse, (please dont read if you think these topics will do you more harm than good to read about !! go stream build a problem instead!!).
but for me, cool girl is about the sexual exploitation ive been through / am going through.
"i carry the time we don't talk in a backpack",
when i tried to ignore/not respond to men who were hurting me, it weighed down on me sometimes, partly because i'd get punished later for not doing what i was supposed to.
"leave it on the side with the nights you didnt call me back,"
but when i had times when i wasn't being demanded to do things, or getting threatened, it was a weight off.
"& all the ideas & the hope i'd never ask him for, i'll throw them away, its okay, without a second thought,"
sometimes when i was younger & the adults who were there & paying attention to me & saying they were proud of me, were the ones who would also force me into sex. i had to put up those boundaries in my head as to not get attached, not build hope on these people who only want me for my body, even though it would be easy to lean into the comfort of them acting like they care.
...(skipped a bit),
"rolling your eyes to the backs of your heads, surely you know to close them instead,"
when i was being abused by multiple men in a night, or very intense sexual things happening non-consentually, it was really intense pain. i felt like i couldnt exist inside my brain. pain so bad to make your eyes roll back. but no, instead, i'd try to close my eyes & wait for it to stop & think of a person who i knew would save me if she could. 🌿
"cool girl, i'll be different, i'll be quiet, i'll be easy."
i wasnt very good at obeying orders & doing what men demanded of me. & i told myself, i gotta get better at this, at doing what they say, i'll be different. & quiet & easy like they want me to be.
"how much of a tongue can i bite until they notice blood, just spit to the left, carry on, just smile & say ur good."
it didnt matter if i was bleeding or in pain, it carried on anyway, so it was easier emotionally for me to act like i was okay, than to beg for it to stop cos of the pain & not be listened to. & specifically spitting to the left, reminded me of my very particular ways i deal with it.
"you all plead & demand all your needs but you can't help be asked til he's bored."
people demanding me things & hurting me & physically abusing me sorta cos it was something to do.
"chill out if its late, or every heavy sigh will seal her fate,"
had to some how make my body chill out & be okay with the fact that sexual things were happening to me & i didnt want them to. the more i'd heavy sigh, the more forced & hurt i'd get.
(gonna stop there ,, but for me the song is about tryna be a "cool girl" cos i was taught that i was good & they were proud of me if i let them use me & stayed still & quiet about the abuse, & i kinda felt like that was the right thing to do).


the typos is the closed caption makes it better


i wish there was a lil door in the back of their head so that i can have a lil peak at the genius that is dodie


I still never got my answer to a dark politician will end up alone. english isn't my first language dodie please help me out here what does itMEAN /hj


“‘Cause I’m really smart!” Heck YEAH you are!


dodie post. click on dodie face. i am here


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Not trying to be rude, but what’s on the bottom of your eyelids? Are they tear tattoos? Because that would be cool!


Ello im the most early ive been for any of these videos