this one kid in kindergarten punched me in the stomach because she thought i lost het money so i kicked her off the slide >:))


those paints are the paints every secondary schooler art student has lol


I really hope the girl with the rainbow bag is alive


I havent or at all been bullied. 😮 but i feel like they talk about me. But who cares! 😏


The last time I was this early

I thought I was straight


“dodecahedron” sounds like a hella cool name don’t know why 🤔


Does the rainbow baged girl watched this???

Pinkmans Psycho I THOUGHT YOU SAID RAINBOW BAGEL 😂


Does anyone know what watercolour palette Hedy used? x


COVER "Fell It Still" By  Portugal. The Man. PLEASE!!💕


Not being mean at all but where's your pants in this


i hope my school library gets it in november


Ugh I can stop watching this video it's actually ridiculous.  If I see it suggested I physically can't not click on it


Hey Id like to say that I was fat in middle school and kids would often stare at me and whisper about how ugly I was, and trip me. Often I would hear people make fun of my art, I had only one friend . Then one day my best friend made a new friend and I was fine with that but then that new friend is a Bully and they would often say how I have no friends and how I live in the sewers and that my best friend was never my friend, she said all that right in front my "best friend" and my friend just laughed and insulted me too. In math class kids would avoid the seat I sat in and one day I had to sit next to the bully they would say "ew look how disgusting they are, can I move? No wonder they have nobody to love them." At that point I had very severe depression and low self esteem, I wanted to kill myself. And I even attempted to, i never felt so worthless in my life. no matter what happens to you be strong, don't let their words hurt you. Telling a teacher just won't help, I had to find that out the hard way, just ignore it and move through. Stay strong.


everyone from the comment section saying they've been bullied but no bully wants admit they were bullies


I did a fucking cry because of you dodie god damn it


I hate the fact that I relate too much at this.


in my school, if you're smart and funny then your popular


suddenly everyone in the comment section is being bullied.

there’s a difference between being bullied and being picked on :/

Well, there’s a really fine line. Bullying and being picked on can definitely be similar or even the same thing. What I (and my family, friends and school) consider bullying, some may not think is that bad. For example, one of my bullied would trick me into trusting her, then tell all of my friends that I’m gay. I am gay, but I trusted her with that, and she’d shout it in the clubs we went to. Then shed pick up my bags and run away with them and take stuff from them, and shove ice lollies down my top. But it took my ages to talk about this because it felt like my fault. Don’t assume other people don’t have big problems. I reckon the reason there are so many bullied people in the comments is because videos like this really appeal to people who have been bullied.

smurficles pay less attention to the people claiming to be bullied and look at all the 10 year olds claiming they they ARE the girl who had the rainbow bag and that they forgive Dodie.

Shut up. This video reaches so many people, and so many people are bullied

<b>ARMY</b> , and yes there's definitely a difference.

*ARMY* , and yes there's definitely a difference.

and there's also the difference of being mentally bullied and physically bullied. Just because it doesn't physically injure you or it wouldn't 'hurt you if you were in his/her shoes', doesn't mean that it's not bully.

The difference doesn't mean shit when both are wrong.

I agree, everyone's so quick to make themselves victims nowadays. And I think that is why people are "bullied". Because some idiot called them fat once and for the rest of their life they will tell people that they were bullied. If you're going through stuff or if someone made a mean comment about you and you need someone to talk to I would suggest friends, teachers or parents. Don't go victimizing yourself on the internet where thousands of people could see your comment. You don't need that much attention do you? Just drink a cup of water, relax and talk to someone else. Get over yourself. Edit: this was 4 weeks ago never mind

Smurficles 'what a shame' sounds pretty sarcastic no matter which way you claim you said it. I never wanted your sympathy its fake anyways, i just dont appreciate you bringing my mom into this when yet again you dont know shit so you shouldnt say stuff when you have no idea what situations im in with them.

Gerard Slay dude i don’t even know you. i wasn’t being sarcastic. ok now leave me alone.

Smurficles you wouldnt say that if you were stood infront of me would you?

Gerard Slay it is meant to be an opinion. if it triggers you so much to waste your time trying to make me feel bad about myself (like bullying) then you should stop being a hypocrite and just leave, ok bye bye again, and don’t come back

Smurficles surely you'd come back with a better argument than 'nope' if you knew you were right. Clearly you arent and now you're stuck. You really aren't worth wasting time on.

and by the way, to everyone who is calling me mean that I don’t think <b>everyone</b> is being bullied, stop saying that bullying is just “when people hurt your feelings.” Because it isn’t. Bullying is when someone hurts your feelings REPEATEDLY. maybe everyday. People are being picked on, and I believe that, but your views of bullying could mean that you’re bullying me because you’re hurting my feelings. But you’re not bullying me.

and by the way, to everyone who is calling me mean that I don’t think *everyone* is being bullied, stop saying that bullying is just “when people hurt your feelings.” Because it isn’t. Bullying is when someone hurts your feelings REPEATEDLY. maybe everyday. People are being picked on, and I believe that, but your views of bullying could mean that you’re bullying me because you’re hurting my feelings. But you’re not bullying me.

eveloux I’m not accusing them of lying, I’m just saying that the ACTUAL definition of bullying isn’t actually very well known. I thought I was being bullied, but I was only being picked on like once every few weeks.

+Smurficles I am late to this comment but I have something I would like to add, yes you may be right, maybe some of these people are playing up their experiences for likes and attention from others in the comment section. However, coming from a person who was bullied for a large portion of their school life, I do not want to deny peoples experiences and shame on the people who are playing them up. But, as +Hana M , +BirdyLovesYou and everyone else have said, videos like this attract a certain type of people and that type is people who have been bullied so please do not deny peoples experience because you don't know if they are lying so don't accuse them of doing so.

Anabelle i completely agree, i was bullied for 3 years and i've always been the target of my year group, i got cornered multiple times by about 20 people from both my group and the year group above who were helping the kids in my yeargroup, constantly threatened, and then my school only dealt with it when i got assaulted last year. Bullying is horrible, i hate when people throw the word about when their experience was just name calling and not fitting in

I personally think there's all types of "being bullied", but if you are wanting to say a lot of people are just being picked on, then please put Dodie in that category too. What she talked about did not seem like bullying; more just like a normal, picked on, insecure child and teenager. It's all part of growing up. Now, of course any type of bullying or picking on is not okay and should be stopped and not ignored.

Smurficles she never said everyone was,she said the video draws attention to people who have an experience with bullying..?

That’s true, I’m bullied, basically thrown around and called names, I get hit a lot and it does bruise. I get thrown things thrown at me in class, including horrible notes. I wish people didn’t lie about being bullied, it’s not fun and I’d give anything to change the way I’m bullied :/

Smurficles You know, maybe all those bullied people came here for Dodie and to hear her story and share theirs.

What hurts you might not hurt another person, or vice versa. What really makes it bullying is when the persons feelings are hurt, or the bullies intention is to hurt their feelings. This video naturally attracts an audience of victims of bullying and most people will feel inclined to comment if they related to the topic. You aren't the only one who can be bullied, or have your emotions hurt. And yes there is a difference between being bullied and picked on, but if you have been picked on repeatedly it counts as bullying.

This profile picture is totally not original

Smurficles just because some people have been through worse, doesn't mean their problems don't exist. What doesn't hurt you might mentally or even physically damage another. They could be lying and but only they know that. If they are lying, thats their guilt alone. If they arent, they don't need you to tell them that What they went through isnt "bullying" because Its not severe enough. Bullying is bullying, no matter how severe it is. Just like sexual harrassment is still sexual harrassment even if it isnt severe.

do you REALLY think someone is gonna comment "i've never been bullied"<br>a majority of people commenting are commenting because they relate !! get over yourself

do you REALLY think someone is gonna comment "i've never been bullied"
a majority of people commenting are commenting because they relate !! get over yourself

Smurficles maybe you're the mean one if u think ppl are making it up for attention

Smurficles, I rather think about it as this video attracts people who have been bullied. Yeah, not everyone has been bullied but the amount of people in the world is a lot. There is a lot of people. People who have been bullied. Yeah, maybe they're just doing it for attention. But not everyone is. And no I'm not saying that's what you think, but I'm sure almost everyone has been bullied in their life. And since a lot of people have (shown in the Comment section) I doubt they're trying to seek attention. They're trying to relate to her, because they have been in that situation. I never said that everyone is being sincere, but I doubt they are all lying. And Anyway, I hardly see that many people saying they have been bullied, so why did you say that everyone was saying that? I wasn't bullied. And I know you were most likely using the word everyone as like a metaphor, but still.

Smurficles, I rather think about it as this video attracts people who have been bullied. Yeah, not everyone has been bullied but the amount of people in the world is a lot. There is a lot of people. People who have been bullied. Yeah, maybe they're just doing it for attention. But not *everyone* is. And no I'm not saying that's what you think, but I'm sure *almost* everyone has been bullied in their life. And since a lot of people have (shown in the Comment section) I doubt they're trying to seek attention. They're trying to relate to her, because they have been in that situation. I never said that *everyone* is being sincere, but I doubt they are *all* lying. And Anyway, I hardly see that many people saying they have been bullied, so why did you say that *everyone* was saying that? I wasn't bullied. And I know you were most likely using the word *everyone* as like a metaphor, but still.

Smurficles I guess, but either way many people's feelings were hurt by someone more than once. Whether it was bullying or not, I think most people can relate.

Hana M no. i doubt EVERYONE is a “victim”of being bullied. they’re just looking for attention.<br>sure a lot of people may have been bullied, but bullied is always used as a loose term, and it’s not being used properly.

Hana M no. i doubt EVERYONE is a “victim”of being bullied. they’re just looking for attention.
sure a lot of people may have been bullied, but bullied is always used as a loose term, and it’s not being used properly.

Smurficles Did you ever think that maybe this video attracts an audience of victims and bullies and not that people were pretending?


I thought she said "miss Jackson" so I started playing miss Jackson by Panic! At The Disco

Btw I'm a Pansexual emo :P


It hate getting bullied....

But you have talent....


Im getting bullied right now i get bullied for my close my voice and my face i get called nits i get called a prostatute for wering a black leather jacket and for being dyslexic i get my bag throne out of the 3rd floor window i get yogurt throne all over me and the name i hate the most is fat mistake but one day i also got followed home from primary school bye 2 boys who split up then went the only 2 ways to my houes so i ran away but they still followed me then i finally took a stand and punched 1 of them in the face and ran home and told my mum everything and she said "im proud you stuck up for your self...lets just say the wont bother you again" and they never so the best way for you to stop getting bullied is to stand your ground!


Anyone else think that girl with the rainbow bag is now a fantasy author???

i'd hope she is, because i can relate to rainbow bag girl and i want to be a fantasy author when im older...


Now i feel bad I had a rainbow backpack in elementary school


dodie, you were as strong as the girl with the rainbow bag was. even though you bullied her a little. you were bullied as well. she probably as well was a bully later on. but it is a cycle some of the greatest people have to go through to become who they are today. you probably pushed her to become the amazing person she probably is now. i mean, i was bullied as a kid. it was a lot of tough times but i remember becoming a bully as well. i wouldn't let the "weird" kids talk to me and i would talk down on them. but now today i talk to everyone as if they are all the same humans. i spread love and joy. so you and i are definitely as strong as the girl in the rainbow backpack. we just all had to go through some things. it's life. and i love you dodie.

"The things i and everyone else was going through do not excuse the way we treated you but i hope it'll help you understand that it was never because you did anything wrong" - dodie

I agree with dodie basically.

I know you meant well but this comment just comes off as kind of rude. It's like saying 'well, it's okay that you bullied her because she probably bullied someone too!' even though there's no evidence of that. Also, you can't justify being a bully in the past by saying you probably made them a stronger person because that's not the case sometimes. Read up on teen suicides, alot of them involve bullying somehow.

like their apology means nothing to me. i know we were all kids and whatever but they didnt have to suffer the consequences of making me feel like shit. i paid that price.

i disagree. bullying ruined me. if anything it made me bitter, sad, angry and ashamed. but never did i take it out on others because i knew what it felt like and i couldn't do that to anyone else. it made me defend people who were bullied. there was this one kid who was also being bullied and he liked to take it out on me to turn the bullies' attention away from him i guess - and despite that i defended him from the others cause no one deserves to be bullied!

i was mean to some people occasionally, yes, but only if they treated me in a mean way. this was when i started to fight back and i actually got the bullies to back off. "just ignore them" was some of the worst advice i'd gotten. like you gotta fight back but not get emotional cause that's what they feed on.

oh and if my bullies congratulated themselves for "pushing me to be the person i am today" i'd smack them because "the person i am today" is insecure and anxious and constantly feeling inferior thanks to how they treated me :)

Cec Ellis this is extremely true 👏 I've been bullied before for almost my entire way threw kindergarten and middle school. I never felt the need or urge to bully someone else. And in the long wrong I broke down and still haven't gotten up fully. Anyone that can bully to "fit in" will never have my approval for anything.

kitkatkaitykat productions just because your being bullied does not mean you have to bully other people. Maybe it did make the girl she called a witch stronger, but maybe it didn't. Maybe she was bullied till she broke. We really don't know. I never felt the need in bullying. I never felt satisfaction in fitting in. I was bullied, and it hurt. Never the less I would never try to bring someone else down to boost my own ego. So I can tell you right now, that girl with the rainbow bag to be able to keep her chin up through all the shit she faced is just incredible. No one should resort to bullying no matter how troubled and broken they feel inside. And for all you know, the other kids could have pushed her down a hole that she couldn't climb out of.


I wish to have your book but I live in the PH and shipping is extremely expensive ;-; I'm just gonna die here


Sounds like Sophie from Howl's Moving Castle~ :3 :D


this woman is fabulous at drawing and singing and all i can do is try to kick a ball and trip over it

Sophia Whitsell it's Hedy drawing, Dodie's sister.


I was the girl with the rainbow bag. My name was Zoe, I don’t know if you can remember. I’m now a writer, and I’m studding in uni. I’m okay now.  But every night I was crying. I did look strong but inside I wasn’t.

If you’re gonna lie,  at least be subtle about it. And take down any videos you have up that blatantly contradict your lie. <br>Just delete this comment , please

If you’re gonna lie,  at least be subtle about it. And take down any videos you have up that blatantly contradict your lie.
Just delete this comment , please

If your telling the truth, I quote , from dodie, <b>you are lovable</b>

If your telling the truth, I quote , from dodie, *you are lovable*


same here i was bullied then i bulied someone


she kinda sound like the person who played "Anne Frank" from the movie called "The dearie of Anne Frank"


When she said likeable I thought she had said like a bull at first it just didn't work as well in context


Honestly dodie I usually really enjoy your videos and aesthetic but your latest content has just made me kind of dislike you. I get that you feel bad about having treated this girl badly, but something about making a video and hence money off of this just seems kinda wrong. The girl with the rainbow backpack would deserve that. (Also the self promo in the end ist just aaaargh)
Maybe you should donate some money to an organization that tries to battle bullying.
People make mistakes and that's ok but I cant help but feel that this is you saying look at me I'm so great and don't do this anymore and just justifying yourself and your actions instead of apologizing and actually doing something constructive.

Also most people here will probably only comment nice things since there 16 or whatever and really adore you, but that shouldn't just relieve you of your guilt. It's snapchat all over again. Instant gratification and positive notes from strangers rather than doing something constructive.

Sry this has been so long

bro they've moved on with their life they've probably forgotten like agh

Hey dodie and people,
First of all thx for the responses.
So this opinion was mostly my own reflection of what might be going on subconciously in you having your recent video about oversharing in mind.
Now if you say this totally doesn't apply to you than I'm very happy for you. By no means did I mean to offend anyone. I just shared my insight as a person who's already been dealing with depression, anxiety etc.
Raising awareness is obvs a good thing, I merely didn't point out the obvious in my previous comment. I do stand by me feeling conflicted about the whole making money business.
I also think my phrasing might have been a little harsh. I really enjoy your music and vlogs and they've helped me tremendously during my bouts of depression.
I don't dislike you you just made me feel a lil queesy.
(Also not every 16 yo is stupid, there's just a big part of your audience that consists of impressionable youth)

Ageist much saying that 'people would only comment nice things cause there 16 or whatever'. Also it's they're not there

heya :) So my intention of this chapter is to show why people might bully - in that it's not a reflection of the victim, but of the bully. I also hope that people who pick on people who are different to those might watch this and reconsider after seeing the long lasting effects of bullying too.<br>I think you've sort of missed the point on why I create my content - I'm not looking for gratification or forgiveness of course.

heya :) So my intention of this chapter is to show why people might bully - in that it's not a reflection of the victim, but of the bully. I also hope that people who pick on people who are different to those might watch this and reconsider after seeing the long lasting effects of bullying too.
I think you've sort of missed the point on why I create my content - I'm not looking for gratification or forgiveness of course.

Jason Arik Also I am in my twenties...and I am willing to be critical where I see that it is necessary. Does that mean I am abnormal to dodie's audience? Because to me that sounds like you might be using words in the way you claim to resent. 😯

Jason Arik um.
"Hi Dodie, I normally like you, but not lately."
why so unkind? 😔

im shocked that you fail to see how genuine dodie actually is, she apologized and owned up to her mistakes. some youtubers never do that because they think theyre all high and mighty. shes the sweetest person ever and even if this was to promote her book, the message is still there and shes not trying to show off that shes great. she literally admitted she was a bully and knows that that was wrong of her. shes owning up to it and feels sorry. like the comment above me said, some people are never happy or pleased.

Jason Arik people are never happy are they


The tittle of this video is my life it's so true


Liked how you talked about both being bullied and being a bully. Normally people just talk about being bullied and forget to talk about bad things they have done as well. No one is perfect, and it is human to be insecure and do things you later wish you hadn't done. (Not that bullying is ok... Just trying to make a statement.)


1:48 I am sorry but that is a adorable backpack


Oh, spent the whole video thinking it was Dodie drawing.


Hedy I swear can you just oh my goddddddd


Anyone know what watercolors Hedy is using???


what brand of watercolor did your sister use?


I was bullied at school but I also was a bully towards other people - I didn’t have any friends so I used to hang out with the boys and then my parents forbade me because they are very old-fashioned and thought I should only hang out with the girls. I was completely alone after that and the girls would only let me hang out with them to use me as a messenger when they fell out with each other. I was always angry at the world and I once saw this little girl at the park who seemed so happy and content with her life - I could tell she was clearly a sweet and wonderful person and young me went up to her and said some horrible things for no reason before running off like a coward. I still think about her a lot and I really hope she’s okay - I seriously wish I could go back in time but I can’t erase the past. So here’s my message to that poor girl - I know you will never see this but I just want you to know that I’m so sorry for what I said to you that day and I had no right to take my anger out on you like that. I know you are an amazing, courageous and wonderful human being and I hope you never let assholes like me get in the way of that. You have made me a better person and I so wish I could let you know that. 💔


I hope the girl with the rainbow bag sees this.


2:00 - 2:30 was me and is me still (though less so now.)


I'm so sorry but this is reaaaaally triggering my ASMR oh ma gawd


why didn’t you tell the rainbow girl that speech before when you had a chance ?


i wish to someday find a comment here saying 'i was the girl with the rainbow bag.'


did anyone else just watch the mug every time she washed the paint brush just to see the colour change?


I need to meet the girl with the rainbow backpack


YO! YOOOOO I HEARD U SONG SECRET FOR THE MAD AND IM LIKE SHOOk!! U so pretty


I just now learned the artist is 13... oh my


I don't join bullies...I beat bullies...


Does anyone know what waster coulors she's using


I was the girl with the rainbow bag. You won't believe me, I know. But, it was me.


I have the same story. In 3rd grade my classmates used to bully me because I was too young to be third grade. In fourth grade, I got along with my classmates and bullied 2 girls from third grade( they bullied me in chat sites during the summer). Once 4th grade was over Me and my best friends made a fake account messages the 2 girls mean stuff.For the 2 girls I’m completely sorry for My actions now in 8th grade I have fully matured.


:( i was trying to show i was worth it but it camed out imbarrisingand akward it hurts:(


3:03 that looks slot like that one animal crossing character😂


My sister was the girl with the rainbow backpack, she has subscribed to you and she says she forgives you :)


YOU FORGOT TO PUT A CAPITAL LETTER FOR I OH NOOOO MY TEACHER SAYS IF U DONT DO IT YOU NEED TO DO IT AGAIN


Did any one else think that the end of the video where she was talking about the girl was gonna be really really sad because they thought she was gonna say we're instead of are


I hope that the girl with the rainbow bag saw this... and I hope that she didn't kill herself


I'm always mean to friends,
I don't mean it,
My humor is rude and sarcasm.
But I talk,
I ask,
I wonder,
And it annoys people. Even my friends say to my face that's it's annoying, even my mother calls me mean names time to time of my talking.
Is it karma?
No, I was bullied so much I wanted it to stop, so, my humor changed, my style, my life.
I want it to stop, I want to be innocent again, but that will make them start.
I don't know what to do, I tried everything. I just want people to like me, I just want them to know I actually care about them.
Actually, when look back, I don't talk at all at times. I was quite. Maybe my mom's getting to me.
Tomorrow I'll stay quiet, I'll be nicer, I'll hold the doors for the people who hated me for the rude, innocent jokes the last day.
I'll change into something better.
I'll try harder.
I'll make them happy.
I'll make myself happier.
I'll be healthier.
I'll open something lighter, take hatred off my chest, pick myself up when I fall, kinder and sweeter.

There's always a tomorrow, but let's start today.

I'm always mean to friends,
I don't mean it,
My humor is rude and sarcasm.
But I talk,
I ask,
I wonder,
And it annoys people. Even my friends say to my face that's it's annoying, even my mother calls me mean names time to time of my talking.
Is it karma?
No, I was bullied so much I wanted it to stop, so, my humor changed, my style, my life.
I want it to stop, I want to be innocent again, but that will make them start.
I don't know what to do, I tried everything. I just want people to like me, I just want them to know I actually care about them.
Actually, when look back, I don't talk at all at times. I was quite. Maybe my mom's getting to me.
Tomorrow I'll stay quiet, I'll be nicer, I'll hold the doors for the people who hated me for the rude, innocent jokes the last day.
I'll change into something better.
I'll try harder.
I'll make them happy.
I'll make myself happier.
I'll be healthier.
I'll open something lighter, take hatred off my chest, pick myself up when I fall, kinder and sweeter.

*There's always a tomorrow, but let's start today.*


I LITERALKY HAVE THAT EXACT RAINVOW BAG AND RED HAIR AND TAHT HEIGHT HAIR IM SHOOK😂😂


Hey dodie you're a little quiet, if u could talk louder that'd be nice


and to us your a talented woman....named Dodie


Secondary school really fucking breaks you


icechaii idk probably just a lot of practice

ah okay (thanks) then why is her sister so good at drawing


I define stupid as a false sense of superiority. I usually say someone is being stupid or whatever as in their current behavior is stupid, not them as a person. But I don't really talk to people if I don't want to so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯


The real question is why is dodie only wearing a coat


Guys did u know that she’s on YouTubers react


am i the only one to click on CC and read what she was saying?


me watching ths oh my gawd. *amazing*

also PLEASE get a discord.

*me watching ths* oh my gawd. **amazing**

also *PLEASE* get a discord.


Dodie should make an art called doodleoodle or doddledoodles

watch out rat coming through Hedy did the drawing in this video, not Dodie.


Wow.....so beautiful...I LOVE U SOOO MUCH UR SO GOOD ILASTRATER


I'm re-watching some vids and barley now Ive realized that this vid was posted on my bday 😭😭


This is off topic but... what watercolor thung is that im curious!!


She’s like ash Ketchum, she doesn’t age or change clothes XD


I swear these kids need to get wise and meditate.


Honestly this whole video is me I'm a dick XD


Do you know what happened to the girl with the rainbow bag?


i really really hope we get an audiobook version of the book too, this was so lovely!


Never been here before but the title and the fact you have told the full story inspired me to subscribe 😘👏🏻 ADMIRE YOUR HONESTY


I really love how thoughtful this is. ❤❤❤


This just made me love you even more dodie <3 your one of the few you tubers who show their human side and that they aren't perfect and have made mistakes so thank you so much


i'm on the verge of tears, thank you so much for this beautiful story dodie; thank you for sharing your flaws and personal experiences with the internet. we love you 💛


I relate to this so much! Thanks for sharing Dodie. 🌈🖼


This brought tears to my eyes thank you for shedding light on these types of things 💗


I love how calming and soothing Dodie's voice is... and I love how brave she is at admitting her mistakes and manages to make this inspirational. I'm glad to have Dodie as my favorite youtuber❤


I've watched this like 5,000 times already. HEDY IS SO GOOD AT ART AND DODIE IS A GREAT STORYTELLER!


This is incredibly beautiful Dodie. You are so brave to release this and words can not express how proud I am 💕


Omg this is one of my favourite videos she has ever made <br>Love her so much ❤

Omg this is one of my favourite videos she has ever made
Love her so much ❤


first off, i'm really digging this art style and the speed draw and paint is probably my favorite thing in this video.  Secondly,          R E L A T A B L E    A F   B R O!!!


YOUR PROSE IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO READ IT💗


I seriously loved this video style and narrative so much. Thanks dear! ❤


i've been in this situation as well... i still feel so guilty for picking on someone else after getting bullied myself....
i hope that she's out there somewhere, feeling good about herself.

also these illustrations were super nice~~


The drawings are so lovely oh my god and I'm definitely getting the book


This was so nice and amazing! I can't wait to get your bookb


"Everyone is just a colleague of their favourite parts of other people." Wow 💖


Everything about this was so beautiful!!


This was such a nice video :) and Hedy is so talented!


Dodie is so honest with her viewers, it make me so happy that a youtuber admits her flaws. This video helped me get over the guilt of previous mistakes and made me more confident in dealing with my depression. Thank you Dodie.


This video is amazing, it has given me confidence. Thank you


this was so soothing. please do make videos like this one!!! ❤


this is so beautiful?? hedy is such an amazing artist!!


hedy's art style is so cute im in love oh my!!<br>dodie - im very excited for ur book (v pretty cover btw it's so lovely), i hope ur doing ok rn, lots of love <3

hedy's art style is so cute im in love oh my!!
dodie - im very excited for ur book (v pretty cover btw it's so lovely), i hope ur doing ok rn, lots of love <3


I didn't know until now that Dodie adds captions/sub's in her videos. This is a fantastic inspiring video thank you XXX☀🌻❤


Dodie, when you started talking to the girl with the rainbow bag I almost cried, I felt so touched.
You are absolutely amazing, there are so many things that I would like to tell you that I wouldn't even know where to start, but a huge "thank you" is enough for now.
Everytime I follow your trains of thoughts I realise how similar your mind is to mine, and I would love to meet more people like you in real life; you are one of the best youtubers out there, and you seem like a precious, special and incredibly loving person. We love you so much x


This was so so so so incredible. I could watch it again and again.


Wow thank you so much for this!<br>I was bullied in kindergarten (which sounds ridiculous I know) and know one ever believed me about it. In high school I became the bully (having fake friends, not talking in conversations and all) and still to this day I feel bad about it.

Wow thank you so much for this!
I was bullied in kindergarten (which sounds ridiculous I know) and know one ever believed me about it. In high school I became the bully (having fake friends, not talking in conversations and all) and still to this day I feel bad about it.


Ive watched so many of these videos and it truly makes me realise how uneventful my childhood was


HOLY HECK HEDY IS SUCH A GOOD ARTIST AND SHE'S SO YOUNG AND THIS PASSAGE IS SO BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN AND SPOKEN AND ARGHHH


I just watched your Instagram live stream you did (this video is 3 days old as of today) and it's beautiful. You're an absolutely amazing human who's been through so much. I'm proud that I live on the same world as people such as you, luckily the same country too. I came out today as bi because you inspired me to and be happy of who I am. This story brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for all this Dodie.


OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU DODIE AND EVERYONE READING THIS COMMENT I LOVE YOU TOO! ❤💛💚💙💜


Oh god, this video gives me the chills. I was bullied at school because I'm bisexual and people in my country are extremely homophobic. People like Dodie help me to accept myself and believe that someday the homophobic horror will end. Thank you, dear Dodie. You are my hero <3


I started crying when she said "to the girl in the rainbow bag, you are lovable, you are confident, you are bright, you are brave". - I was bullied at school too and think I needed to hear this. ❤💛💚💙💜 also I can't wait for your book! It will be the first You Tubers book I actually buy!


Your sister's drawings are so beautiful <3


to the girl with the rainbow bag, you are beautiful. you are loved. and you are doing you wonderfully. don't listen to what others say about you. it gets better x


Wow you're the whole package. Sing and can draw!


Oh my god Dodie I literally said something similar the other night.  It was something like "Every pieces of me is just a partial copy of other people and if you take that all away there would be nothing left."  It's so strange and frightening to think about.


Feel it was so relatable ❤ love your sisters drawings as well ☺


I love the draws of Hedy... And your story... I really want that book


This video is helping me with what I'm going through right now because I am bullied by my own family and I sometimes think that picking on someone else will help. But it doesn't. I would become the bully and I would honestly rather be the one picked on than the one doing the picking because it's the beautiful things in life, like flowers, that get plucked.


This was so lovely. Btw, Dodie, will your book be available in the Philippines? :)


I am madly in love with you, platonically of course. Who spoke with courage, and for that I admire you. You are brave, and I thank you for that. You just earned yourself an additional subscriber, with lots of love!


I had the same situation, I just wanted to fit in. but all i did was make myself feel bad. Being a bully never helps, it just made me so insecure of myself that it made me hide from strangers and break my friendships. I would never go outside with kids and I would never join after school clubs because i knew i wouldnt fit in.


i cant wait for your book, im going to probably preorder it in October tho.


Dodie this made me tear up. I definitely needed this.


When I was in school I was bullied. It was started by one of my best friends and continued from 3rd grade to 7th. Because of this I have trouble sharing opinions and I am very shy although I don't act like it. Around 4th grade I gave in and started bullying my best friend in the entire world. We have grown apart, probably because of the bullying, but some how I managed to save our friendship. Then my mom found out what was happening but it didn't help, it made it worse. Thankfully as I got older I made more friends who helped me block out the rude comments about my appearance. Thank you dodie for sharing this story. I thank many people in your audience could relate. And the art is so wonderfully done! Thank you for another wonderful video


"To the girl with the rainbow bag, you are lovable, you are confident, you are bright, and you are brave."


Hedy is genuinely one of the most inspiring kids ever, these illustrations are so beautiful (also sorry to Hedy because she probs hates being called a kid but you/Hedy and me & my lil sister have exactly the same age gap), she reminds me to remind my sister how proud I am of her too ^_^ This was a lovely, honest video and I cannot WAIT for the book!


Hedy's drawing are so amazing! Fucking amazing!


You write so well and it was spoken beautifully. Your sisters watercolors are lovely. I am very excited to read your book! :)


This made me want to start drawing again


Still get so shocked at how talented Hedy is


I cried damn it why are you guys so talented


That child has more talent then I ever will.


HOLY MOLY! That is so relatable ;-; I need your book so bad


I'm doing an Illustration Degree at university and honestly Hedy is so much better/ creative / motivated than I.... she's gunna go far


I knew it was hedy! She's such a talented cutie!!


Sad that I can actually relate to this story


This left me crying.  Wow It was shocking how much I related to this video.
This is very long but I felt better after typing it and so I felt like I should share it (?) :

Growing up,  I was bullied horribly.  It came from those I considered friends (who before we had a teacher talk to the whole school about bullying I didn't think we're being a bully but rather just taking a joke too far)  all the way to my brother's friend/ next door neighbor.  In fourth grade..  My own teacher made of me.  She left me crying in the middle of class,  told me to stop overreacting when I was having a panic attack.  Imagine that,  an 8 year old having a panic attack and instead of being calmed I was called over- dramatic.  My mother never believed me for she thought I was just saying that because I didn't like me teacher... And I didn't but I also didn't make it up.
I grew up with humongous speech problems. When I talked no one would hear me because I mumbled so much.  So much my parents would get mad and told me if I couldn't speak up then I shouldn't talk at all, so I'd go mute and stay mute for long periods of time. hah.  When I did get any attention,  I'd laugh at the kid they also bullied but soon stopped because I'd rather stay silent than make someone feel as low as I did.  The bullying got so bad for another girl that at age 8 she tied her scarf so tight around her neck she passed out... Kids called her a tomato face after because of how red her face looked when she was choking...
In middle school I found friends and I was too naive to see that they themselves were bullies,  I just wanted to finally fit in.  I still didn't.  The popular kids would only talk to me because I was smart and they needed me to get an A on an assignment.
High school (secondary school)  was the worst.  I was "friends" with just about everyone,  except I wasn't. I just knew people who were so it was easy for me to slip in and pretend that they noticed me.  They didn't but that was good enough for me.  Until it wasn't. And I tried to kill myself over and over again until I did right,  and after that doctors did what they were supposed to do and save me. That happened my freshman and sophomore year.
I'm a senior now.  I didn't think I'd live past 16 but I'm going to be 18 soon. I left my old high school but I'm going back now and I know I can handle it because I have real friends there,  and even though it's only four people at least it's four people who care.
The only thing that ever got me through anything was that I am smart, I've always gotten good scores on tests and even was advances extra classes in elementary. I've always have been talented, I play seven instruments, I'm a pretty damn good photographer now and I'm okay with boasting about it because I take pride in it, I'm going to be in choir again this year. And I am worth it and I have to tell myself that because I'm constantly told I'm not,  even by my own patents.  So I have to tell myself I am because I *am*.
And all of you?
You're worth it too

This left me crying.  Wow It was shocking how much I related to this video.
This is very long but I felt better after typing it and so I felt like I should share it (?) :

Growing up,  I was bullied horribly.  It came from those I considered friends (who before we had a teacher talk to the whole school about bullying I didn't think we're being a bully but rather just taking a joke too far)  all the way to my brother's friend/ next door neighbor.  In fourth grade..  My own teacher made of me.  She left me crying in the middle of class,  told me to stop overreacting when I was having a panic attack.  Imagine that,  an 8 year old having a panic attack and instead of being calmed I was called over- dramatic.  My mother never believed me for she thought I was just saying that because I didn't like me teacher... And I didn't but I also didn't make it up.
I grew up with humongous speech problems. When I talked no one would hear me because I mumbled so much.  So much my parents would get mad and told me if I couldn't speak up then I shouldn't talk at all, so I'd go mute and stay mute for long periods of time. hah.  When I did get any attention,  I'd laugh at the kid they also bullied but soon stopped because I'd rather stay silent than make someone feel as low as I did.  The bullying got so bad for another girl that at age 8 she tied her scarf so tight around her neck she passed out... Kids called her a tomato face after because of how red her face looked when she was choking...
In middle school I found friends and I was too naive to see that they themselves were bullies,  I just wanted to finally fit in.  I still didn't.  The popular kids would only talk to me because I was smart and they needed me to get an A on an assignment.
High school (secondary school)  was the worst.  I was "friends" with just about everyone,  except I wasn't. I just knew people who were so it was easy for me to slip in and pretend that they noticed me.  They didn't but that was good enough for me.  Until it wasn't. And I tried to kill myself over and over again until I did right,  and after that doctors did what they were supposed to do and save me. That happened my freshman and sophomore year.
I'm a senior now.  I didn't think I'd live past 16 but I'm going to be 18 soon. I left my old high school but I'm going back now and I know I can handle it because I have real friends there,  and even though it's only four people at least it's four people who care.
The only thing that ever got me through anything was that I am smart, I've always gotten good scores on tests and even was advances extra classes in elementary. I've always have been talented, I play seven instruments, I'm a pretty damn good photographer now and I'm okay with boasting about it because I take pride in it, I'm going to be in choir again this year. And I am worth it and I have to tell myself that because I'm constantly told I'm not,  even by my own patents.  So I *have* *to* tell myself I am because *I* *am*.
And all of you?
*You're* *worth* *it* *too*


PLEASE SAY YOU WILL DO AN AUDIOBOOK AND YOU WILL NARRATE! I WOULD BUY THAT SO FAST!


Basically my life story, bullied becomes the bully. Regret it now so much


Wait... how is this on DODDLEVLOGGLE? this is so beautiful! :o


I hope the girl with the rainbow backpack sees this and hasn't been negatively affected longterm by the bullying she endured. Thank you for admitting your faults and putting a heartfelt apology out there!


same. i got bullied in highschool and took over to bully other people as well. so awful. thank you for sharing this story. ♥ you help me to manage my thoughts a bit better and to understand myself.


What the heck heddyyy how are you so good at drawing!?!!! I am so jealous I think that my skin must be turning green 👽

i think there is a crow curled up inside my skull


AHAGGAHAGAHA DODIE THIS VIDEO WAS SO AMAZING GO YOU GO HEDY YEEES DETS GOOO


Omfg the cover is so damn cute i love it


I was mostly physically bullied by boys who liked me but this one girl spread rumors about me so I cyber bullied her and regret it all now


Ive wacthed this 10000000 times and i love this


This was touching. Your narration over the water color time lapse was very pleasing to watch. As well as the words, "Everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people."


i was also bullied and tried to heal myself by acting assholey and saying savage and sarcastic things to people,most of them werent even the ones that bullied me,but hating myself + others hating me made me really cold and exhausted,trying to get better though,my mental unstability shouldnt affect my behaviour so much,i have friends,but its very hard to act naturally,when you've experienced so much awful things..i feel bad for everyone thats affected by my savageness,i just cant control myself,im always sad


I love dodge even more than before(if that's even possible)


FairPlay to admitting to be a bully not many people do so big up to that


Wow you draw and paint really fast. It's like your speed up the video.


I just wrote in my little book

" Be the girl with
the rainbow bag "


to the girl with the rainbow bag, we were all you at one point. we have been teased for our differences and our ability to look at the world so colorful. you are not alone. everyone has carried a rainbow backpack once in their life. we are and can be strong like you. we stand together and hope you keep being you.


LITERALLY SHOUTED WAIT THAT WAS HEDY AT THE END OMG HEDY WTF SEEEEW TALENTED!!! Ahhhh I'm proud XD actually incredible the whole time i was like woah woah beautiful and woah.
Firstly. I want one on my wall.
Secondly absolute beaut of a story.
Thirdly.Whats a good story without a great image of the story.


I bullied my bully at the same time she was bulling me it was a weird time


Thanks music for changing you and changing people


To the boy who who had a funny looking face, who had a funny way of talking, who was dyslexic and who seemed like a gross person because he picked his nose (and admittedly, did do some gross things, that's not the point tho), Im sorry for making fun of you, even if it wasn't in front of you. You may seem different, but remember that different is special. Even if I wasn't the one bullying you, I still said some mean things about you. I always felt bad about it.
To the other boy who's been in my class for 3 years, who also isn't the most good looking of people, who also seems like a gross person, who also has a funny way of speaking, and who also lost his died when he was a child. I'm sorry for always making fun of you behind your back, Im sorry for being grossed out by you and not wanting to touch you, because even if I said those things, deep down I know you're a very kind person, because you're always kind to me and to the people around ,you've even helped me with work before.
Please accept these mistakes I have made and will continue to make.


I need to buy the book
Time for a novel about me being bullied and being a bully
When I was in kindergarten- so only about four years old- I took karate. The main thing the instructors told us, though, was not to do it on others. However, I used to be a classroom bully. I'm not sure if I started it, or the other kids in my small class did, but there were constant remarks, and I would get physical. I punched kids, shoved kids, and was all around awful. Like most kids, though, I didn't really know what I was doing. One of the key moments that made me stop acting in such a way was when my kind-of-friend came into class with stitches in his eyebrow; I say "kind of" because I bullied him, as well. He was one of the younger kids, and I somehow got this image of me causing him to have those stitches. Today, I'm fully aware I didn't do it, but my mom has informed me that I used to get night terrors, and that must've been one of them. Somehow, I very vividly remember hitting his head against the sink in the bathroom. This fear of what I was capable of steered me away from physically harming those around me, but I didn't stop being cruel. Now, as a 13-year-old, I've grown more anxious and depressed. Overall, I'm not as happy to speak to others, anymore. Being in a school in which everyone seems to be two-faced and lying doesn't quite help that feeling. Though I've never gotten into a fight, I've seen kids, I've heard stories. As a short, pansexual agender kid with emotional issues, lots of acne, and crooked teeth, most people don't take me very seriously- shocker. So I guess it's come full-circle. Thinking back to first grade, not long after I was the class bully, I started feeling ashamed for who I am, and who I was. I hurt people. My empathy just started sinking in, and I faced how cold I was to everyone. Maybe that's why I am how I am today, but I still could never look at my old friends the same. As I've moved many times, I've moved back to my hometown before, and seen the few kids that spoke to me back then. When I lived home again, I tried to reconnect, but it failed. We'd changed, and inevitably drifted apart. I cried so many nights over my Pre-K friend's note to me; it was filled with how she felt replaced, and would no longer talk to me. Somehow, I was the bully again. It had happened, whether it was intentional or not. I don't quite understand how it all unfolded the way it did, but that's my life.


to the girl who didn't like to wash her hair, who liked to tell stories abiut being magical and carried round a rainbow bag.<br>strut your shit. if you didnt end up growing up, we'd be best friends.

to the girl who didn't like to wash her hair, who liked to tell stories abiut being magical and carried round a rainbow bag.
strut your shit. if you didnt end up growing up, we'd be best friends.


I was bullied, and I was a bully.
I was fat when i was younger, and was bullied for it for 6 years. I was diagnosed with body dismorphia and bulimia at age 12, and lost a lot of weight. I was very insecure. There was this girl who did not like me, but she kept it to herself. One day she saw that i ate fries, something i hadnt done in months. She said, probably not menaing no be hurtful, "are you really gonna eat that?".
I was so full of anger from the previous bullying and from the eating disorder, and I started using her as something to unleash my anger. I could pull her hair or lay mean comments. She moved to another country before i could realise that I was doing something wrong.


I've already watched this about 10 times...


I started crying when you spoke to the girl with the rainbow bag


to the girl with the rainbow bag: i used to be you in elementary school. no care in the world what people said about me and what i wore and liked. it changed in middle school. me being in a small private school meant small classes. my friends thought because we were a small grade and we all knew eachother, it was okay to make fun of everyone. like, no hard feelings. it hurt me though. in 5th grade, i stopped going to my favorite children's store and moved onto where my friends shopped. my style became duller. i wasn't unique. i was one of them because i was afraid to be judged. i wish i could be like you. more brave. but, oh well.


"I secretly became a collage of my favorite parts of other people..." dodge dives deep man.


I read this as "I was buried and I was a bulky"


If you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares back


it made me tear up omg, I want your booook


i so relate to 2:09-2:30. i hate social anxiety


I cried. Dodie is so kind and pure and I fucking love her way to much. I don't know what I would've done without her. I would be sinking in my insanity and giving a flying fuck about anything, but I discovered dodie and her music and then I realized that music keeps me sane. I lover you dodie you've inspired me too much.


To the girl who can show what most people can't
Our flaws
We tend to hide our flaws but what we don't realize is the only way to grow as people is to embrace them. Which is hard. Very hard. Dodie along with all of us struggle. Some more than others. It's hard if you have these self esteem problems because you simply can not talk to unknown faces. I hate that sometimes I don't like the way I look, but I do and that can't be changed. People say to be strong and just try but they don't realize how hard it is to do those things. To be "normal" and to fit in. Also social anxiety really sucks. Any kind of anxiety or depression sucks. You can't escape it. You can do things to numb the pain but it's always there. So to the 1% that will see this.... Find something to numb the pain because I trying to get rid of it is wasted energy doing something you love. Take care❤


There is a reason to this as a vast majority of kids who are bullied fear it will start again so bully others to stop it happening to themselves


Im still "bullied" so i bully them back lol


I don't know if that girl will watch this video, but I don't think this is enough to fix the problem. Maybe she has problems with her self esteem now. No hate, nor appreciation for this.


Wow <br>this was what party tattoos was about

Wow
this was what party tattoos was about


~My mummy said to always wear a coat, but it's warm and it's heavy and we're trying to float.~


What water colours did hedi use? (I don't know how to spell her name sorry if it's spelt wrong😂)


im not crying, you're crying.

hA sike we're all crying because you're a fucking genius and i love you wow


Not most people, people who deserve to be bullied get bullied like kids with disabilities lol


Who's excited for VEDAAAAA TOMORROWWWW I CAN'T WAIT


+  Dodie .... If I weren't already married ..... (and 40 years older than you....)  <3


Dodecahedron LMAO. Also this was uploaded on my birthday.


anyone else hope the girl with the rainbow book bag sees this ?


Was she bullied by groups of Asian children?


Is your book going to be translated to Spanish?


I'm a witch I don't know if I should be offended or not

квартал Беларусі


Not only can she sing but she is pretty and she can draw... HOW

Maddiewhal02 10 Her sister drew, but the rest is true!


I didn't see the last picture from my tears what


Ooooooh
Dumb Question:
If everyone is a collage of their favorite people then...who's the original? 😮😮😮😮😮😱😱😱😱


anyone knows what watercolours hedy used? ;u;


To the girl with the rainbow backpack, why did you not scream and and fight back at them? Why did you not act like them to be approved? Because you are strong, smart, and braver than I will ever be. You are a witch, you are the most magical witch I have ever seen. The magical witch, with the rainbow backpack.


I know most people don't care but i just need to get this off my chest. I just started a new school, it's a boarding school. People hate me there. They call me names and insult my parents (who are the only people i really have in my life). I met one boy who is very nice, but he gets bullied as well. I hate my life right now. People buly me but they don't even know me. They insult mt parents but my dad is so busy working just to take care of my mum who is terribly ill. I really don't know what to do or how to handle this situation.


Same.. I always get bully before.. but now, I became a bully.. idk just to revenge?


I hope i don't get bullied in Middle School.... In the weird type so...


you learn about dodecahedron in primary school?? wtf?


The boys in My class bulies me beacuse I have short hair and like "boys" clothes. They taunt me whit their mean words about My aperence. But I like how I look and so does My few friends. But beacuse of the bullying I get sad and show It to the world as I am grumpy and beacus of that it is hard to make new friends, and the bullying continue. Try to be strong but I don't know how....


...why did they call you a dodecahedron..?


My childhood bully is now my very best friend


I have a raindow bag with animals on it. Just thought I would tell u that. Oh and I get bullied ish


Wait, what if that girl with the rainbow bag watched this or something


What if the girl with the rainbow is watching or reading the book?


I love watercolor  first i thought the water color was pastel


I really am a collage of my favourite people :/


What is this fluid coming out of my eyes oh god


I wonder if the girl with the rainbow bag saw this


Is there only 0 comments for me? Also great art!


Everyone on YouTube has a crazy or emotional background and there is me: sleep food and watch YouTube xd


Dodie your videos bring me so much joy. I was bullied in elementary school and it always hurt me so much. As I developed into middle school switching schools the bullying stopped for a long long time. Recently becoming a junior, The bullying started again and my insecure little girl feelings have resurfaced. You are so inspired and I love you.


Beautiful drawings hedy is so talented! Also I loved the positive message at the end. Book cover looks good too


I'm so exited for the book to come out!! Dodie is such an interesting person..I love her stories. Lovely art, too!


I honestly love this so much, dodies voice is calming and wise and hedys drawings are beautiful, amazing <3


Hedy is just amazing. Props to her, beautiful illustrations


This is beautiful, thank you for sharing your amazing story! <3


HEDDY'S ART HAS GROWN SO MUCH AND IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY I LOVE HER AND I LOVE YOU


when she was done talking i was like "nooooo pls i wanna hear more" and then she said it was an extract from her book and i am so happy to hear that! i've just pre-ordered. dodie, i love you. this was wonderful.


this is the best thing I've seen. i love the art. the art is beautiful. bodies voice os so calming and i love how she tells things. i would love an audio book from you, or more videos like this :)


This is beautiful!! ;-; I've already preordered your book AND I AM SO EXCITED TO READ IT!! :D you inspire me


This was a beautiful video! I absolutely loved it. Hedy is so talented as well! It's quite amazing and I'm only a little bit jealous. Just a little bit.


I literally love this. This is so relateable and so worth watching.


I keep watching this and it gets me every time. Well done dodie.


wow wow wow this is gorgeous. the words, the art, the raw emotion. i can't WAIT to get my hands on that book, i know it's gonna be incredible


that was really beautiful story with beautiful illustrations. I would like to read and have this book but it will probably be hard and expensive from Poland. but well. I bet it's absolutely breathtaking and I hope I'll have a chance to hold it and to read it. thank you dodie for everything ❤❤


This comment section is so beautiful I'm actually crying. This is al so meaningful and wonderful. I love the community around here. Thank you dodie for bringing these wonderful people to this nice place and giving us comfort in talking about our thoughts and express ourselves through here. I am so excited for your book wow.


I relate to you so much Dodie. I think you're my favorite YouTuber now


I'm excited for the book, the cover is so cute❤


I could literally listen to you speak all day. You have a really calming voice I don't know what it is.


This was a really beautiful video. I know I can relate to it and a lot of others will relate to it too!!


The whole way through this I was like "wow dodie is great at drawing I didn't know she was this good!"<br>And then the end was just like ...oh

The whole way through this I was like "wow dodie is great at drawing I didn't know she was this good!"
And then the end was just like ...oh


I honestly god chills from listening to this, looking forward to the release of the book


I straight up started bawling at the end, bloody hell. That apology really got me. I hope all that have been bullied take dodies lovely advice


Hedy! I adore your art so freaking much but lil tip: don't leave the brush in the water when its not in use because over time it can hurt the bristles!


First of all, both you and Hedy are so talented! I wish I can be as artistic as you two are. Second, my favorite thing said in this video is "we are just a collage of our favorite people." It's something we don't normally think about, but it's so true. We pick traits we like about others and mold that into our personalities (which isn't a bad thing. It's a part of life and finding who we are). Thank you so much for sharing your story! I hope that I can buy your book and read more about your experiences ☺💛


I think we've all been participants of some kind when it comes to bullying, it's true that kids are mean. When you are a child you just really want to fit in, no matter at what cost. But, it is also true that there really isn't any excuse to do any of those things just to feel more adequate. Hedy's drawings are stunning!


as i  watched this i was just thinking about how similar your experiences are to mine. Also this was calming and aesthetic :)


Hedy is so so talented and Dodie I loved this so much, something about it just makes it so calming and relieving that no one should judge anyone.. There's no justification to it, and I love that you grew up and matured to become such a respectful and lovable young lady :) I love you both so much xx


I've watched this so many times. I love it.


hedy is so amazing and so are you dodie, you girls are both lovely xx


I've been bullied and a bully too, thx for posting this. I just wanted others to hurt like I was at home, I felt so angry and unleashed my pain on people who didn't deserve it. I'm sorry to everybody I've damaged, and I hope you're surrounded by support and are happy.


And now I am crying (: But it's worth it, thank you for this Dodie.


I cried watching this 😭😭💛💛 it was so beautiful ❤❤


Soooo nice!!! :D I love collabs of you and Hedy! But also ones of you alone of course.


This touched my heart and soul so much. 💛🌻


I love your voice in this video! I would love if you read your Instagram captions more or uploaded SFTM as an audiobook <3


Your voice is nice to hear when telling a story. This story is so personal but was needed to be said.


Hedy slays life. Honestly i love her so much. She is a huge insporation to me because we're the same age and ahhhh just love her


Can we appreciate the art, though? A great story, not to undermine it, but that was also some amazing art!


I'm amazed at how much I can "relate" to this. Dodie, it's okay if you don't ever read this, but if you do then thank you for your songs and honest videos like these that have helped me so so much over the years <3


I am just binge watching Dodie's videos to go to sleep :3 and Hedy's watercolor speedpaint calms for an odd reason


God, that brought me to tears. How I would like my bullies to say I did nothing wrong, but maybe it's too late and they're not mature enough to tell me so.


IM STILL NOT OVER DODIES NEW BOOK! MAN AM I EXCITED, another good read to look forward too😄 well done dods💗


Aww I love this it was cute and it helped me out. Thank you 😊


This video is so aesthetically pleasing like the wood in the background and the watercolours and the drawing and dodies soothing voice


Will there be an audible version? Hearing you read from your book would make me more emotional than me reading it in my head to myself I feel


These are so beautiful, I can't deal!!!!


"we are all just a collage of our favourite parts of other people"  I love that


Awww the book cover is so cute! I love it!


I was about to go in on this video, because I get so utterly, incredibly disgusted and disappointed when people who have gone through something bad force someone else to go through the same thing. I watched it, and you turned it in to an awareness lesson, which is a really good thing to do. As a previously bullied kid it still makes me really sad that the world is able to do things like this to us, leaving others behind to avoid the mean words at least for the day, or an hour.


The part about being a collage of different people really hit me because that's how I feel a lot and it helped me understand that that's normal and everyone absorbs things they like from other people and it just helps you grow as a person


I did the same thing. I was treated pretty crap most of the time, but for a couple years we had girls who were "less cool" than I was and i treated them like shit because at least i was being included


Holy shit. I always think how I am a collage of others. It has made me doubt who I am so much. Am I really me, or am I just everyone else? The parts that I admire most about others? When people say that they like my style or personality, is it even me they are complimenting? I definitely feel like a fraud. But you're right Dodie. I didn't stop to think that others might be that way, too.


I love Hedy like, she's just so talented! She inspired me, and I'm getting better at drawing!

Btw, don't judge my username I'm going to change it in three months cause that how long you can change your username.


first of all: hedy's my age and i adore her. second-my story: in about second grade i became friends with a girl named Celia. Celia was the only person who'd play with me, but she'd often call me fat and too wide to play with the other kids. At the time, my dad would also call me fat and i stopped eating swet foods. Foods in general. In middle school is when i began to really have a problem with bulimia. Now i'm recovering and videos like this help me a lot. Thanks if you read this all lolz <3


I love your voice and I love your sister's drawings😍


I've been bullied and I've been a bully. And I'm glad to call myself a friend to the person I've bullied. She is more than the names I called her, she is more than my actions towards her. She is strong and she is kind, and I am sure that I would be the same for my bullys. <br>Btw: DODIE I LOVE YOU! Please make sure to get this book to internacional borders, excited to read it here in Brazil! ❤

I've been bullied and I've been a bully. And I'm glad to call myself a friend to the person I've bullied. She is more than the names I called her, she is more than my actions towards her. She is strong and she is kind, and I am sure that I would be the same for my bullys.
Btw: DODIE I LOVE YOU! Please make sure to get this book to internacional borders, excited to read it here in Brazil! ❤


"everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people" <br>wow. that part honestly got to me. i've never noticed that's exactly the case

"everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people"
wow. that part honestly got to me. i've never noticed that's exactly the case


"I was just secretly a collage of my favorite parts of other people. I felt guilty about that for a while but then I realized that everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people" I'm

That's

Me

And

Wow

I'm not alone


I went to a very small school when I was in primary school - there was 14 people in my whole year because of this you had to be friends with everyone there was one girl who constantly picked on me to the point where her words still effect me to this day but I needed her to like me so I stuck by her side and I bullied the others in our grade I just didn't want to be the one on the other side of it - this continued into highschool as those girls went to the same school only I went to a very small school when I was in primary school - there was 14 people in my whole year because of this you had to be friends with everyone - there were constant fights and constant bullying and I regret to say that I bullied other people bc I didn't want to be the one on the other side of it - this continued into highschool as those girls went to the same school only now there wasn't 14 people there was 200 - but even with 200 people I sat alone at lunch and because of that people thought I was strange and would make sure there was no seats left at their table- it wasn't until I was 16 that I found a little shred of confidence and sat with the people I liked rather than the people I wanted to be like and now they are the greatest friends I could ask for but I find myself doing things I don't want to bc I still just want people to like me even 4 years from that - although I feel like I'm better at making friends with people that build me up rather than put me down (sorry just poured my heart out in the comments don't mind me)


I love Hedy's drawing style so much wowwww

and I cANnOt waiT to read Secrets For The Mad yeeeeeee


When I was in elementary school, I was never really saw much bullying. I wasn't popular, but I had a good group of friends, and at that point all I ever saw was most people getting along with most people. I remember riding the bus and talking with the kids on the bus. We always made fun of this one girl. I'm not really sure why she was a popular target to this kind of stuff, but she was. I never heard anyone say anything to her face, but we all talked about her behind her back. Then came middle school. I strayed away from my childhood friends and found a new friend group of people who understand me. And I happened to become friends with that girl, the one we made fun of years back. We're not super close, but she's a lovely girl who's is cool and funny and random, and an all around amazing person. I feel awful I ever said anything mean about her. But people make mistakes and learn, and I guess thats just what I did.

p.s. Hedy's art in this video is marvelous!


this was the most calming thing please read your entire book for us


awe i love hedy (and dodie ofc)!! she's so skilled


It is so unfortunate how we treat each other but I assure you our differences are what truly make us individuals...


Dodie thank you, this video is something a lot of people needed, like me. this will probably get lost in a sea of comments but oh well, i have bullied people in the past and it was because i wasnt liked much and bullied a bit (i was an annoying kid i dont blame them too much) so i made fun of this one poor girl and it breaks my heart that i did and that i made her cry, she was proably nice and we could have been friends if i wasnt going through a bad spot in my life, we could be friends now. and it saddens me, to any people feeling guilty about what you did, dont, look back at your mistakes and learn from them and grow, im still quite young but those short years ago i was such a different person and will be in the future, everyone has made mistakes but you will learn to accept them and grow into a person that one day you will be proud of, once again dodie thank you for this video and all those people reading this i hope you are well and if not i know you will be in the future


Omg hedy's drawing is so cute I love her style


Okay so when I was in 6th grade I bought a snoopy back pack for school. When I saw it I was so excited and I immediately knew that that one was the one, without thinking what my peers might think. My dad supported me and was proud that I didn't care and I love him for that. My mom on the other hand told me everything that might go wrong and fed my insecurities. She told me if I was sure I wanted to take it to school, or she would tell me people will laugh at me, or tell me that's a bold move and I shouldn't take it. I started having second thoughts about it and was actually thinking on getting another bag. On the first day of school though, I thought "I don't care and if people make fun of it I don't care" and I took it. So many people at school complimented me on how cute my back pack was and how they wish they had it and I'm glad I took that risk because I really loved that bag. So anyone out there that's insecure on what they like. Don't be. Cause you are a beautiful, smart, and amazing person and anything YOU like is all that matters. Don't care what other people think cause who knows....... people might actually like it.


god you and hedy are both so talented...


this had me crying, in a positive way tho


this is why i love dodie. she admits that she has flaws, tells us those flaws, and i think that's why i was surprised that she told about this. all other youtubers cover up their flaws but dodie lets hers out. they aren't pretty, but no flaws are. she seems more human than most youtubers to me.


Dodie are you reading your book for an audiobook? Because you're voice is so nice to listen to and is love to hear your whole book just like this passage! I'm so excited for it and for you!!


Damn I'm crying <3 That book MUST get to Argentina or I will cry some more (and if you want to come too, better <3 )


I LOVED THIS AND I LOVE YOU AND HEDY DAMN


hedy is so talented but also this is such a good video/written thingy


How do your videos, happy or sad, always make me cry? ;-;


I didn't notice at first until I couldn't see and I was like "why is my face wet?" There were so many tears streaming from my eyes and my heart started to ache. I never had REAL friends until I reached 8th grade (I'm currently in 9th grade). I always was bullied and I could do nothing about it. Iw as so confused because my twin brother had so many friends and my older sister is so talented. I would try to be like them and tag along to what they did. I would buy my friendship and give, never getting back. I would hurt others and hurt myself just to get a few laughs. I lied about my sexuality and "dated" people who were considered popular but didn't even care about me. Now looking back I was wrong and unproductive. The time spent trying to be like others could have been spent being my own person. I'm learning to work on myself and bring my anxiety to an end. With the new amazing friends I have and will never let go, hopefully one day I can be proud of something I've done for the world.


Heather and Dorothy are such wonderful names. Bless your parents.


OMG I LOVE AND WANT YOUR BOOK SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH RIGHT NOW ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤


HEEDDYYYYY YOUR ART GETS BETTER AND BETTER EVERYTIME I SEE IT AAAAA


I really hope you can look back to that day, and to that girl with the rainbow backpack, and know that the mean comment was said by the old you. Know that you're better now, that you've changed to become a better person. I usually overthink things and can't get rid of the feeling that one bad thing I made on the past make me a bad person, and that this thing defines me. I've forced myself everytime to think that I'm not like that anymore,  and try everytime to convince me that I need to live with that, that forgetting isn't maybe the best choice. But maybe I'm still learning. Hopefully it's easier for you. If you read this and have a tip to avoid thinking too much, please, I'm listening... or reading.
YOU ARE BRAVE, DODIE. And you're a very talented person that inspires a lot of people, me included. Thank you, thank you, thank you❤
PS: sorry for the long comment and all the possible English mistakes, have a happy day, and a better life😊


I kinda cried when she said an apology for the rainbow backpack girl :,)


Perhaps it's because I don't watch a lot of mainstream youtubers but I've only ever seen youtubers admitting they were bullied and it's nice to see someone admit they were a bully once too and made an effort to change and improve. It proves that it's true that you can't just blame people for everything. Chances are you've done some messed up shit too. It's really brave of dodie to own up to it


I'm getting her book for my birthday!!! so excited!!!!


i still feel bad for making my mum buy expensive branded trainers for PE after i was made fun of for having ones from tesco, why are kids so obsessed with shoes and coats and bags


Did this video make anyone else cry when she said sorry to the rainbow girl? So powerful Dodie, thank you ❤


This is not the first time I have cried at one of Dodie's videos. The first was her cover of 'here comes the sun' and the tears were mainly from enjoyment and bliss as I listened carefully to a song I cherished when I was younger (because it appeared in the parent trap which I used to watch over and over again) sung by a person I had quickly grown to enjoy listening to. It was also partially the realisation that the carefree days of wanting to show all my friends a film I would learn to call my favourite were over, exams were approaching soon and I would have to deal with harsh reality. As I watched this video, once again silent tears fell from my eyes as I saw so much of myself in this video. However much I hate myself for it now, I was a bully. Ridiculing people I sometimes called my friend among others because they were doing it too. I wouldn't call myself popular now or then but in those early days my best friend was and I often mistook the people wanting to be around her as also wanting to be around me. The most vivid example of this that has stuck with me through all these years is falling out temporarily with my best friend for one stupid reason or another and watching all the girls crowd around to comfort her whilst I stood alone the other side of the playground with one friend taking my side in it all. We made up before the end of lunch as most silly arguments are and that was that but a part of me has never forgotten that I was the one alone welling up because I thought I had lost my closest friend until someone saw me. Entering high school I reminisced on my ridiculing and believed I should never do it again. I was in a different crowd now and I thought I was doing well but this one girl who is the kindest, sweetest person I know was different in the way she acted and her interests and soon enough harsh words were spoken behind her back. In a plea for acceptance, I joined in thinking that it was fine. As I look back I feel horrified by my own actions, these past few years people changed their ways and me with them but I still hear words spoken across classrooms. Though I had troubles of my own from people I called my friends I feel that I took my pain out on this girl to, as Dodie said, be on the other side of it. On a happier note, I've been trying to be more myself and distance from the hate and trying to be a person I want to be. Surrounding myself with brighter colours and people whose company I want to be in.

(As a side note to anyone who read all of that I really just needed to write that out so to order my thoughts and stop the tears from coming down. Please share your experiences if you want, if like, me you think it will help)


I hope the girl with the rainbow bag sees this 💖


Everyone has had mean things happen to them, everyone has done mean things to someone else. I like this vid 'cause she didn't just act like the victim like so many people do; she took responsibly for her actions as well. People need to do this more often. Instead of trying to change other people and get other people in trouble we should try and change our selves and receive the consequences too.


Almost cried with the book cover  don't know why


Don't mind me I'm just sobbing and wanting to hug everyone in sight. <b>*hugs everyone in the chat*</b>

Don't mind me I'm just sobbing and wanting to hug everyone in sight. **hugs everyone in the chat**


i thought these were hedy's drawings!!! so cute!!!!


dodie, will your book be available internationally? like for example, India??


Cries bc I'm not as talented as either of these two


IIIIIIIIIIII WANT YOUR BOOK SO BAD. SO. BAD. I love you dodie, so very much. You make me think twice about my unnecessary choices I make because my brain is screaming at me and my heart is telling me to give in (if you can't tell I did that recently. In fact I did that last night. Oh boy.). You're voice is calming and makes me smile. You're beautiful in every way, I especially like your face. Very lovely. This was amazing, you are amazing, I am amazed. 💕💕


I'm moving to new york in a week and I went to pre-order this and was like
1) I'm broke af hahah
2) i'm still going to pre-order it but it will be sent to my NEW YORK address
which if you don't know me you're like what wow so exciting :| but GUYS this is amazing for me. I am so
terrified, and
scared
but
I'm glad we have someone like dodie to cheer us up and make us feel strong.
that is all
much love <3

OMG!Have fun and stay strong,going to new york is on my bucket list but living there is a dream...have a wonderful life <3


"everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people"


When you loved this extract but you can't get the book. ;~;


Honestly, Dodecahedron is kind of a baller nickname


I flippi'n swear (but i don't...) that the part about secondary school (middle school?) is exactly me.  I'm sitting w/ my frens, a sentence comes into my head, and I want to say it but "oh it's too late they've moved on" or "nah it was a stupid thought anyway."  Or if I do say it I'll have to repeat myself cuz I'm so quiet and nobody can hear me and I'll feel embarrased.  don't do that, it'l ruin u... i know


She is really talented and I hope people don't mind me asking, but does anyone know what paint pallet she is using?


Dodie I know you may not see this but hey I'll try anyways!

 This video is a reminder,its a reminder that even if Im not famous or cool me being kind to others and being myself matters more! That if I had the chance to crack a joke about anyone else I'd  swallow my tounge and avoid it because it's not worth the pain I'll cause to them. I always try my best to stay away from talking about others because I know it will hurt me if I was in their place! Remember guys we could all just be a memory in someone's life so let's try to be the best one possible.

Loved the video so much!!♥

ps.HEDY HOW ARE YOU SO TALENTED I CAN BARELY DRAW A CIRCLE WITHOUT IT BEING WOBBLY😂😂💗


Did anyone else think dodie was drawing the whole time until she said somebody else did


As a strange, quiet, secretive child... I too was made fun of. I didn't do anything about it and ran away... Eventually I met someone called Gabriel, we became friends talking about our nerdy hobbies and games, in year 3 I took up violin and played for years... I'm not sure why, I just did. My teacher would also be calling me names and lowering my convidence... Eventually I quit. I decided to move school for personal reasons, in my new school I did the Clarinet... And I also met someone very special to me... Her name is India, she understood me, and I to her; we would often sing songs together that would trend around the school and even around a campfire on a school trip. We laughed, we smiled, we sang... I loved, I loved her... Sadly she doesn't feel the same way but we will always be the best of friends. I'm not in school anymore, I get depression amd anxiety to the point where I forget how to function. I am working on myself but my friends standing by me makes it better... I don't want to be the child I used to be... I want to adopt a new personality that I already had deep inside :) thank you for reading


What do you mean most people were bullied? I guess it depends what you mean by bullied but I'd say only like a third of people were actually bullied at school


I don't usually get audio books but if you record an audio version of your book I will SNATCH THEM BOTH UP


how am I the same age as hedy and she is MUCH more talented then me??????


Being called names isn't being bullied, if it is everyone has been bullied which trivialises it really


WHY ARE ALL THE BULLIES BLACK HMMMM DODIE!?!?!??!? nah i kid, love you dodie xx p.s. can i buy that picture of the bag at the end?


I feel like I'm the only homeschooler here.


Does anyone know what watercolor pallet that was??? Or can someone recommend me one?? ((:


i love you so much, te amo, come to Brazil


I thought it was your sister LOL me like her sister draw very well~


I hope the girl with the rainbow bag saw this


Here I was thinking that I was a horrible human being and a bully because years ago I kept on stealing food from a girl in my class and insisting it was all fun. She told the teacher and Ive regretted it ever since. Its nice to know that other people that are good have been in the same situation and its gave me a bit of hope that what happened was a little bit more forgivable than I think. I wish I could undo it...


Some of the script was used for captions on her Instagram posts


I've got the same watercolour pallet <b>-</b>

I've got the same watercolour pallet *-*


uhm hello your sister such a good artist


I'd totally date the girl with the rainbow bag


I would love to see where the girl with the rainbow backpack is now


I have been both the kid with the rainbow backpack and Dodie.


my mummy said to always wear a coat <br>But it's warm and it's heavy and we're trying to float

my mummy said to always wear a coat
But it's warm and it's heavy and we're trying to float


Shushsushhsbs Hedy is so fucking talented


well this got deep quick some pencil but!


Ngl I love that blue jacket and yellow boots


Its true, i am just a complete collage of dan and phil and dodie

Everyone hates me for that


WHO THE HECK IS CUTTING ONIONS BESIDE ME?!


Guys I kinda want to find the rainbow-bag-girl.


I'm trying to watch this video but your voice is encouraging me to sleep ... =_=


wait so it's not a real story or it is...?


I can't hear you but nice drawings though


2:27
2 people to the right of dodie, the guy with blue hair, he looks like DanTDM


I was bullied in 4 th grade to I'm in 6th grade now and I'm better


Just like you but I just don't agree with everybody what they think about other people I'm just I'm so type of the whole way you seen that much I just can't make conversations friends I come from a very rough childhood so I am a type of girl that's emo and don't talk that much can't read that well and I get bullied a lot and tell him this how I ask sometimes I come off of one hand rude and loud but it's just how I am I'm not typical who goes to somebody and say hi and I'm the type of girl forced to sit back and just let somebody else do something Pacifico who Lisk so I just sabacc and just so people really swing please and also I'm 9 years old and I haven't people can't say it right or anything else and it doesn't bother me people just give me nicknames for my grandma Call my T my old teachers to call me ttgg survival my name Sesame things to me my name is Timmara Cash city of people usually call me awkward for you to call them the weirdest car ever but that never gets me down I always come back stronger than ever then before I was like you heard I'm before I come from a very very hard life two three different School 1 Asbury one by my grandma and one here yeah my mom and my dad got a divorce when I was about zuo there were never together they're just different girlfriend and boyfriend only on Fridays I get to see him I feel my mom boyfriend over me a lot the number to play down but the disc causes and my emo yeah but that's my story and that's how I am and I'm also black black and white because my father was black and it mom was like so yeah I know how you feel and I know how it can hurt you in a young age but don't forget I could have one I been called tell jealous impales week old black witch


Oh, know i know why i have no friends :)


HEDY'S ART IS IMPROVING SO MUCH AND IM SO PROUD OF BOTH OF YALL


i love the way dodie talks. i was feeling very anxious and this video helped me calm down. also, i love the art!


Just pre-ordered your book! I am so proud of how far you've come, and I am sure this book will be as creative as you are ❤ Well done for everything! :)


This video is beautiful, and great job to Hedy for the art! I love her art style!


Dodie is legitimately my hero she's soo kind ❤❤❤


1.  This video is beautiful: Your voice, your writing style and Hedy's drawings
2. It's such an important message more people need to hear
3. You should put it on doddleoddle
4. I repeat: this is art


how can someone's voice be so calming and soothing. This is one of the most loveliest things I have ever had the joy of watching. Thank you Dodie. Not only for sharing something that you are probably embarrassed about but telling us the transparent truth, not the opaque truth where things are made up and you make yourself look like the best person in this situation and make yourself look like queen bee and for also expressing your thorough thought about this problem you had to deal with. -amber


What a beautiful message! Your words and Hedy's paintings are a perfect pair! 💖


This was beautiful and I really can't wait for your book (and EP!) ❤


This video is very cool and I'm glad you actually talk about bullying others, this is a subject that is well avoided and shouldn't be.  Also, HEDY IS SO FREAKING TALENTED MY GOD


Dodie, being a victim of continuous bullying, I've been in the position where no matter where I go, I'll always face the idea of being unlikable, and that I'm unwanted, it can be difficult.

To anyone who does read this, who may be going through the same fate I am. You're strong, beautiful, loveable and important. You're all, all of these adjectives because you've not given up, you've not been any sort of ridiculous as to join the bullying, and I know it's tough to be going through some shit in your life, but please, if any of you need to speak with me for anything, there will be a video going up on my channel soon about where to find me, or any other numbers you can use to talk to someone about being bullied.

This shouldn't be seen as a shameless promotion, but, if you do need a friend to turn to. I'll always be there for you.


I've never pre-ordered a book before on amazon, but today is the day I can tick it off my bucket list ♡♡


That was beautiful. Definitely gonna pre-order the book. You have a very beautiful voice, and your sister is amazing at drawing.


Brilliant. Absolutely love your voice and the way you storytell. Thank you for sharing your honest feelings. Well done!


This is beautiful and honest and I am close to tears x Thank you dodie for saying these things because I have close similarities within this


I was bullied and I was a bully too. Thank you for this video. You are a beautiful human being 💙 and Hedy is so talented! Talent runs in the family💙 sending you hugs💙


I really like Hedy's drawing style. She's extremely talented


firstly, beautiful storytelling, i cant wait for the book and secondly, hedy is so talented


beautiful story dodie, so proud of you. <3 but i just want to commend hedy omg!!! my smol bean!! such a talented baby bean!!! i love both of you!!


amazing video, i'm so proud of you and also great work from hedy!


this nearly made me cry. i love this so much. thank you for sharing this.


This really touched me, and was painfully reminiscent of my own experiences, although I never really turned on any one else. I know I am still affected by the years of bullying every day, even though I present as confident and self-assured.


this was soooo good ! i can't wait to get your book !


It's lovely to see this from the perspective of a bully, it helps us understand why we were bullied when so often I would ask myself "why me?" when really the question should have been "why not me?" because really, it was not about me. It was about them. It took me a long time to realise that, as Dodie says, it wasn't that I'd done anything wrong. x


I always feel like dodie is in another time  ❤


The part at 2:09 literally made me cry because I've never related so much to something. I'm exactly like that now and it's really nice to feel like I'm not alone.


I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. you inspired me, and you make me feel more human and real. Its refreshing and it feels as if we're friends. It's quite insane that the from the day I found you, I found more and more of myself. I don't ever think I'll be able to thank you enough for that, but it should be heard. you are an AMAZING person and I can't wait to hear more of your book. and more from you :)


Already preordered it. SO exited, can't wait❤🙆🏼


Dodie thank u for making my day ! Yur wonderful, luve u ❤


This made me tear up a little, it was like hearing a slightly changed version of my own story, thank you Dodie 💛<br>To the girl with the rainbow bag: I hope you never gave up on yourself or others, and I hope you always feel bright and happy every single day ❤💛💚💙💜

This made me tear up a little, it was like hearing a slightly changed version of my own story, thank you Dodie 💛
To the girl with the rainbow bag: I hope you never gave up on yourself or others, and I hope you always feel bright and happy every single day ❤💛💚💙💜


Will there be an audiobook as well? I love your voice and that would be so amazing<3


Your writing style is very calming somehow. It's really soothing to read a style that's exactly the authors voice when they speak. I can't wait to read your book and own that beautiful cover!


Wow this was amazing. 👌illustration I love the art style.


YOU HAVE SUCH A SOOTHING VOICE AND HEDY HAS IMPROVED WITH HER ART SO SO SOOOO MUCH I LOVE BOTH OF YALL SO MUCH


I really loved this style of video and i can't wait to read your book


Just in response to your previous videos alongside this one- this is a really good way to express your feelings and your struggles with mental health. It is self analytical, honest, but also hopeful- even if you could not back then, you are righting your wrongs and moving on. I am looking forward to the book dodie. It is going to be helpful to many I think, in the right way.


this is beautifully and the drawings are amazing


amazing video. everything you said and your sister's work. beautiful


Well soon as I'm not finished with school yet, I'm going to say something. I don't think I have bullied many people. there was this one girl but we didn't really bully each other. We argued viscously I did hurt her, frequently.
I would run out of lessons, but it's important to know that at the time my depression was kicking in, my family was dying around me (luckily not my close family) plus the teachers would not  do anything about my misbehaving tricking my mind into everything being ok, of couse though what I was doing, and the things happening to me, were not ok.

I eventually got kicked out (expelled with no paperwork) I wanted to leave the school, but I still cried in public (something I hadn't done for 3 years)
 I went to a different school, a school I was happy going to despite it not being what I expected when I got there.
For the first term I wouldn't do games because I was too scared to disappoint people, I did eventually but I vowed to never do rugby.
I was always shaken especially for the first week of two, I was so scared to talk to people, everything happening at the time was a bit much.
The people were a lot more accepting at the new school, though they were a little bit racist (even if it was a joke it could be uncomfortable.)
I was constantly stressed because I had to keep up this fake smile attitude, then people started questioning my sexuality, which is something I find uncomfortable, despite telling them this, they continued, and the same for them calling me an emo asking about the time I tried to kill myself, I was talking to a trusted friend about it, but someone I didn't trust overheard.
It was at this point I needed a excuse, so I started self identifying as emo, I listened to the music already, but it helped with the bullying, but the jokes I had to make to keep it up would drive me into my thinking about things I shouldn't think about.

Oh, there was another child I bullied once, he was a nerd who would complain about not getting 100% in a exam, he was extremely violent but I think that's because of the way we teased him. I do regret bullying him but at the time it felt like self defence.

I also had problems with so called 'love', at the time I joined my second school.
rejected\dumped four times for the simple reason that I didn't look good, I became so nervous that I would not talk to any girl at all, only when one opened up to me about there sob story did I become comfortable.

Though now I was juggling three fake personas, 'the emo' for my friends, 'the kind heart' for the more fragile people (which at my school was like half the girls) and 'happy jokey' for my breaking family.

Life really wasn't fun, still isn't, but it's getting better, partly because of Dodie (don't now how to spell it though) and partly because of the girl who opened up to me.

Now I've shared my sob story, why doesn't someone share there's.

Oh and if you see this Dodie, your amazing I wish I could buy your book but my parents would judge me to much and if my friends found it they would to. Plus I dont hunk I could buy easily.


This was beautiful and made me cry, I think I will keep it close to my heart


I'm proud of you and who you are and who you will be. I would love the chance to tell the girl with the rainbow backpack the same. Nobody deserves to be bullied and while nobody should ever bully, people still do and will and I'm proud of you for sharing that side of your story as well. P.s. Secrets For The Mad looks and sounds wonderful.


I LOVE THIS VIDEO! I LOVE THE STYLE, AND HEDYS PAINTINGS!  I! LOVE! THIS! VIDEO!


good on you for speaking up. power to you


would you ever consider doing an audiobook for Secrets For The Mad? I think It'd be nice to have the author read out their own writing, and this video is so nice... only do it if you want to though :) much love


This video helped me so much. As someone in school who isn't the most confident, I could really empathise. Thank you 😊


Hedy is such a talented artist those drawings look like something that belong in a children's book


Is anyone going to talk about how talented Hedy is? 😍