I was bullied all through elementary school. I was the only fat kid in the class with dark curly frizzy hair. I would get gum, banana, paper put into my hair almost everyday. At recces I would go to the back of one of the sheds in the playground and play alone with my Pokemon cards, the only enjoyment I had at these ages. I would come home and pray and wish that I would wake up skinny with blonde straight hair while I was crying on the bathroom floor. I've been beaten by the boys in the class, smacked, tripped, push and more.. Every time I walked from my seat to the front of the class to sharpen my pencil some people would moo.. I was walking home from school and this boy who I will never forget because he was a common threat to my every day childhood life.. He started to follow me on his bike and tried to run over my toes and feet while stopping me from getting home. I kicked his bike so hard it dented and I ran home as fast as I could. The next day I got a indoor suspension.. I would have told my father because god knows he wouldn't have let that happen but I was just happy to be out of the class for a few days.. I've been called fat, ugly, disgusting etc .. Every name in the book really. A couple months ago I received this message on my Facebook.

"Hey,  i just wanted to say I'm sorry for how i treated you in elementary school...  I could have been better to you for how good of a friend you were to me"

I told her that it was okay and that we were children and that I am okay now. She replied:

"thank you... it still doesn't make any of the things that people or that I did any better"

She's right.. it doesn't but as long as she knows that, that means her kids might know that too.. So someone who is chubby with curly frizzy hair doesn't have to want to change their self at 7 years old.

Good thing that she apologised! Bullies suck, dude.

Good thing that she apologised! Bullies suck, dude.

Much like you, I was overweight and had dark frizzy hair. But I have no idea how it must have felt to be in that situation. Judging by your profile pic, you are very beautiful, and I'm glad you're doing better. :)

I’m chubby with curly frizzy black hair too! That’s how I always was, I never got along. It took me a while to accept who I am and love myself. Well, not really love myself but be ok with myself I suppose. Your story made me smile. :)

Jennism

Don't change yourself your awesome there's this really pretty girl called wengie and she's a YouTuber like with dyed hair and everything and you actually look like her

Alayna Irene

I hope your okay you see I'm a inrevert so I stick to one group of my friends...so yesh BUT I REALLY HOPE YOUR OKAY

SleepyMisya yeah im so sorry to im not like this. It would be nice if i can get to know you. Im just really really sorry.😔

Symone Love you know what? Let's just stop and be friends or never talk again cause it's not working :/, I'm sorry to the one who I called fat and you, bye.

SleepyMisya lol if you didnt know im ten😂

SleepyMisya lol if you didnt know im ten😂

SleepyMisya how about we stop, im sure im giving you a headache because you are giving me a headache lol

SleepyMisya how about we stop, im sure im giving you a headache because you are giving me a headache lol

Symone Love your the one who talked to me at first 🙄, if you don't wanna answer my questions, then don't. As I said "nobody cares when you care" means that I don't care what you say too 🙄

Symone Love Then don't, nobody cares if you care

Symone Love Then don't, nobody cares if you care

SleepyMisya oh yeah,

I don't care DUHHH

SleepyMisya oh yeah,

I don't care DUHHH

Symone Love its have not jave, use some autocorrects

Symone Love its have not jave, use some autocorrects

SleepyMisya What kind of...? Even if someone is slightly overweight you don't say it, actually I thimk the person you called 'fat' is beautiful just the way she is. You're lucky she didn't get offended. That's not something to joke about. Even after seeing the comment and everything you still have the audacity to do that. You're lucky you're behind a screen because if I saw you I would have honestly slapped you. Sorry if I am being rude, but it's just something I don't like. Smh :(

I used to get bullied through elementary school (primary school back here in the UK) for being too big or being new and being a Muslim. I get how you feel and I didn't know what was really wrong with being different but I told my parents and it got sorted out.

I am fat! :) It's fine tho. People who are fat are still worth living.

I am fat! :) It's fine tho. People who are fat are still worth living.

SleepyMisya lol you jave to use the same comback as me lol you are so weak😂😂😂😂

SleepyMisya lol you jave to use the same comback as me lol you are so weak😂😂😂😂

Alayna Irene omg yes  ! Even I was the only fat , frizzy -curly haired girl of my class ... And there used to be whole groups of boys waiting to call names at me during recess ...I hated school until that ended . I'm really glad to know I am not the only one ...

Alayna Irene God bless you and have a safe happy life

Alayna Irene God bless you and have a safe happy life

Bullying sucks. I hope you found happiness. <3 (This is my other account)

Bullying sucks. I hope you found happiness. <3 (This is my other account)

Yeah that's me but my hair is brown now haha !

Yeah that's me but my hair is brown now haha !

Alayna Irene Wow that's... Really sad. I'm sorry you had to go through that. But if that's your in your profile, your hair looks amazing and so do you.

Jennism u r beautiful, ik that it doesn't rly help but u r.

Jennism u r beautiful, ik that it doesn't rly help but u r.

Alayna Irene I was bullied as well, in primary school (upto 11) I was kicked, punched and elbowed and called fat, and a slut when I had a boyfriend, I wasn't the only creative one I'm my class but was the only one who was picked on for it. When I joined second school (12 to 16) I was called fat and had pig noises made at me, one girl said 'u should skip lunch cos ur fat,' my best friend was also slightly larger and would get mad when someone was rude to her, and she'd take it out on me. She was close with one girl who was always horrible, they would talk then my best friend would act different, and rude. I fit in with the music department, and when I was with them I was called weird. I had no one to turn to, even my teachers thought I was fat, I had nowhere to go.

I have no idea what you said you're at such a long paragraph that I don't have the time read that so umm good job forward surviving/thriving I feel bad for whatever pain you probably went through and the good job/bad job depending on how your story is

+Alayna Irene - I have medium length, wavy,  honey blonde hair and abs- you can’t deny that you’re skinny if you have abs 🤷🏼♀bUt just because I’m blonde or tall or skinny doesn’t change who I am! Plus, kids will find any god damn way to bully other people!!! Looks don’t matter it’s what’s on the inside that counts 😊 btw, that was a powerful story and I personally think you are very pretty 💗

Wow. Its amazing how people will remember the bad things that they did in their childhood and randomly text or call the person they were horrible to and apologize. Thats so sweet and I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. By what I can see of you through your profile picture, you are DEFINITELY one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen in my life. I hope that people who read your comment take a moment and think of what they could have done to hurt someone else and apologize to that person. ☺

awww man !! lol too nice haha thanks a lot! (other account!)

awww man !! lol too nice haha thanks a lot! (other account!)

Thank you! soo much means alot. <3 (other account!)

Thank you! soo much means alot. <3 (other account!)

This is horrible and I'm so sorry this happened to you. You're beautiful and amazing. <3

This is horrible and I'm so sorry this happened to you. You're beautiful and amazing. <3

YOU ROCK GIRL AND I LOVE YOUR NAME SO SO SO MUCH and you are amazing and freaking worth it, kids can be shitty people too, it's not an excuse, you are awesome!

Alayna Irene You Are A Very Strong Person

Alayna Irene You Are A Very Strong Person

grace kuo exactly. Idk what makes them make people's lives miserable. But i fear that they r never gonna stop

Awww, i totally would have ung out with you. So glad youre getting better :(

Awww, i totally would have ung out with you. So glad youre getting better :(

I agree being a kid was hard enough .. I like my hair now. :) Thanks for this <3

I agree being a kid was hard enough .. I like my hair now. :) Thanks for this <3

ugh I love this. Thank you <3 SO much haha

ugh I love this. Thank you <3 SO much haha

i know someone just like you everyday i watch this happening to them. its horrible.

i know someone just like you everyday i watch this happening to them. its horrible.

Alayna Irene ONCE I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD... (ITS A SONG)

Alayna Irene ONCE I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD... (ITS A SONG)

You are one of a kind . And that's amazing because you are a much better person than those bullies and that's something you should be proud of.. we are all one of our kinds, noone is the same but your curly hair and stuff that makes other people laugh makes you even more one of a kind and being different is a gift. And when those bullies r gonna have kids and are gonna get bullied, they r gonna remember than THEY were those bullies once.. Rock your looks and don't give a damn about the bullies  . I used to absolutely DESPISE the way I look but then I just figured out ways to love little details on my face like my eyes I guess because you are going to have your body, your face for the rest of your life and you have to learn how to love it. Wow cheesy lol thats so nut wat i actualy am pwufjcsjalpshpwivzblapshpa oh well much love <3

You are *one of a kind* . And that's amazing because you are a much better person than those bullies and that's something you should be proud of.. we are all one of our kinds, noone is the same but your curly hair and stuff that makes other people laugh makes you even more one of a kind and being different is a gift. And when those bullies r gonna have kids and are gonna get bullied, they r gonna remember than THEY were those bullies once.. Rock your looks and _don't give a damn about the bullies_  . I used to absolutely *DESPISE* the way I look but then I just figured out ways to love little details on my face like my eyes I guess because you are going to have your body, your face for the rest of your life and you have to learn how to love it. Wow cheesy lol thats so nut wat i actualy am pwufjcsjalpshpwivzblapshpa oh well _much love_ <3

I relate to this so much! I was skinny with spots and frizzy black hair, that people used to put paper and chewing gum into. I used to dream of waking up with thin, straight, blonde hair, boobs, and clear skin, but of course I never did. Kids shouldn't be taught to hate themself because of their appearance! It's so much extra stress on top of everything else we deal with in life!

Don't Cry! (This is my other channel haha) I'm far over this now. :) Anyone can be as long as they do not let them get to you. I did for YEARS and it does scar but you can't let mean kids control you. I'm sure most of these kids grew up to be good people. It's hard being a kid and like Doodie someone could have found some type of acceptance in bulling me but later come to realize what they were doing was wrong. Like the girl who messaged me! I'm 22 years old. She didn't have to message me but she did and that's important.  :)

Alayna Irene This made me really sad I have brown frizzy hair and I'm glad to say...people like me because of my hair and yeah it hard cuz most people don't have hair like us but that's good! You should feel unique don't look down on yourself I know your older now but I just thought I should say this.

Alayna Irene ooooh shit
I was the bully...in my school
Now i settled down to be that chill person who gives advise

Alayna Irene People were jealous of your cuteness, I wouldn't think that's ugly it's just cute! Girl you had lots of jealous people in your childhood!

We live in a very small town it is very common for children to walk home. I lived about 4 -5 mins away from school.

Why the fuck would you walk home at 7 years old smh

Why the fuck would you walk home at 7 years old smh

Girl :( Don't let anyone bring you down. YOU need to keep going and understand that you're important. School will end and that will be gone. Don't do anything you'll regret.

Agreed! <3 stay you girl and don't let the world tell you who you are.  Let your true self inside shine through and be kind to those people..... and maybe they'll be kind back. :)

Alayna Irene Im naturally skinny, with a natural thigh gap. I have thin straugh natural blonde hair. I hate it. I have social anxiety. I wear baggy pants because I hate my thig gap. I dont look anorexic skinny but my thigh gap does make me look skinnier than I am..idk...Then I have a huge nose, acne but still a sort of baby face. I have to shower every day and ik how bad it is. Im too shy to say hi to people. Im not bullied. Id rather be than being invisible. I start to cry infront of the class when I just have to say a few words in a presentation with others. I wish I could go two days without showering and feel confident. Wake up and see a chubby cute girl with a smaller nose, thighs thats touching! Not a back thats weirdly bent. I mean, no one should be afraid of bending over because you think your back bends really weird?

Since mah thigh aint touching my erm...vagina lips are pretty loose or how to put it. I mean youll see them if I stand up straight. It looks gross! All tose ppl saying oooh my vagina! Its huuge! Then theirs like these small lretty ones. They dont have a thigh gap.

They dont know what its like, to look in the mirror and wanan vomit. What its like looking at peopels legs and seeing their legs touch and thats...not what mine does.

They dont understand how much I wanna speak. I didndt dare to ask for an eraser during a test, and I didnt dare to ask to go get mine. And I didnt dare to scribble iver the wrong answer. Im getting help tho...in math....Im not fialing it but I were close to just a yesr ago, but now they say im the best in the class im in. (A help class for those with F to E)

My mom says: just go up there and speak. My dad once said: Just fricking go and talk as much as you do at home at school then! Then theyll see how sngry and rude you can be! (i pointed out that he was schweing...im not english so idk...too loud at dinner....) youre just a coward! Just open your fu king mouth and speak! Okay he didnt exactly say that (Mostly it was in swedish lol...im swedish) but it made me so sad.

I want do die. I think im going to live one more day tbh...then....I will die. But..I just got. New phone, my mom bought these expensive acne curing products....and we are poor. What we get a month is what one person earns and they even get a bit more, each month. But now dad earned a. It more and they paid for mah phone, I just had to skip one month of getting money (my english is bad sooo yeah...and im too sad to think rn)

If you read it all, thank you.

I dont think ive said a hundred words in school...almost three years in this school now...im 15.

Thanks for the likes everyone. It means so much. (This is my other account ahha) :)

Thanks for the likes everyone. It means so much. (This is my other account ahha) :)

Haha times change! (this is my other account) now everyone likes my hair :)

Haha times change! (this is my other account) now everyone likes my hair :)

:( Man that's disgusting. That teacher should be fired. Don't worry about them.. It will get so much better. I didn't over come "bullying" until my 20s and it still dented me and it always will. lol but it gets better AND you get stronger.

Alayna Irene everyone is being in their own way

Alayna Irene everyone is being in their own way

Alayna Irene Thank you for sharing your story. It was so touching and beautiful. You are such a strong individual and I hope you know how beautiful you really are.

Alayna Irene I just wanted to post a comment so you'd be aware of how many likes you've got

Alayna Irene I just wanted to post a comment so you'd be aware of how many likes you've got

Alayna Irene I love your hair in your profile picture omg

Alayna Irene I love your hair in your profile picture omg

I had a similar problem except people made fun of my asian features. They would never address me by my name they would just call me 'Ling-ling. I am half Egyptian so they would make jokes about me being a terrorist. One memory that really hurt was when i got tripped up in food tech and nobody helped me they all laughed and pushed me when i tried to stand up. Then pushed me near the pan and i burnt myself. The teacher didn't bat an eyelid which made me feel so alone. I cried and begged my mum to let me have plastic surgery because i hated my eyes so much. It was not that big of a deal for them but it was really big for me. I am 15 but i still struggle to look in the mirror and like what i see. I left that school but the memories are still there.

That was beautiful. Bless your soul. You seem like such a lovely person.

That was beautiful. Bless your soul. You seem like such a lovely person.

Thank you so much for this that was so beautiful. It gives me hope that someday my bullies will realise what they have done, and change for the better. I am very much like that rainbow girl (also used to be bullied for having rainbow stuff lol). But I know that everyone can change, and that gives me hope.

Reading this made me cry. Thank you so much for sharing your story, you are a wonderful human being

Reading this made me cry. Thank you so much for sharing your story, you are a wonderful human being

Thanks! Took years to get over it but I'm finally coming to terms with it at 22 haha

Thanks! Took years to get over it but I'm finally coming to terms with it at 22 haha


this was so lovely to watch/listen to xx<br>(also im quite excited i have the same watercolour pan as hedy!)

this was so lovely to watch/listen to xx
(also im quite excited i have the same watercolour pan as hedy!)


aww I cried at the end. her voice is so beautiful and the way she apologized IM 😭❤


please make a tutorial of you drawing with this kind of art style, I would gladly appreciate it I love you so much dodie


I watched this a lot of times, and I also observed how the water changes color. I love your voice, and you gave me a different view in life. Thank you.


That was beautiful, thank you so much it made my day


The painting is just so...... I'm speechless I don't have a word for how awesome and amazing this is.


You draw so good!!! You make it seem so easy :)


I was bullied every single term of high school and even when i moved schools it still happened. It has really affected me now and i can't even go out for a day without overthinking things


This is actually the first video I’ve ever seen of  dodie, and I love it sm.<br>I saw it for the first time around when it was uploaded

This is actually the first video I’ve ever seen of  dodie, and I love it sm.
I saw it for the first time around when it was uploaded


I dealt with a similar thing, and still am going through the phase of it being over but being nervous.<br>I was bullied But never became a bully myself, and it hurt knowing that i felt like couldn't do anything about it. :(

I dealt with a similar thing, and still am going through the phase of it being over but being nervous.
I was bullied But never became a bully myself, and it hurt knowing that i felt like couldn't do anything about it. :(


The girl who didn't really wash her hair, told stories of magic and fairy's and carried around a rainbow bag sounds like she'd be ONE OF MY FAVOURITE YOUTUBERS AND PEOPLE tho xx

ZEDA THOMPSON miles has good manners and that's what matters!

"The girl who didn't really wash her hair, told stories of magic and fairy's and carried around a rainbow bag" <br>Tilly out of 'tots tv'

"The girl who didn't really wash her hair, told stories of magic and fairy's and carried around a rainbow bag"
Tilly out of 'tots tv'

Karupé I think that maybe when she was younger she was more vibrant and colourful. as she matured maybe she started to like more earthy tones.

Azra Kunz I feel like Aurora would be that person but wouldn't really pay attention to anyone being mean to her. She would be to lost in her own world to notice. Her hair would be in a cute little bob and it would be neatly maintained.

I just imagine if I couldn't know her IRL and if she was on youtube I'd love her content :)


I would absolutely love if you made an audiobook version where you narrate your book. Your reading voice is so nice to listen to


Your story and voice was comforting and calm it felt like a little safe space thank you. I loved hearing your story Xx


i first thought dodie was drawing this and i was like why is she so talented, is there anything she can't do?


I can't stop replaying this. It makes me emotional, but gives me hope. So much hope.<br>Thank you so much...

I can't stop replaying this. It makes me emotional, but gives me hope. So much hope.
Thank you so much...


Diddly dudes, i changed my mistake. relax.

ptxhollyx the comment is edited, so they could of quite possibly changed it.


You have the prefect voice for audiobooks. Its so soothing and lovely x


I am so excited for your book. Lots of love. P.s Hedy and Dodie  your both so talented xx


This was lovely! just subscribed to your channel c:


When you said "To the girl with the rainbow bag" I started crying so hard. Dodie, you don't have idea how much your videos and your songs help me out. Thank you so much for every thing you've done, I really value your existence. I really loved this video. Your voice is gorgeous and the art is so pretty and calm. Thank you for the life lesson


HEDY IS SO GOOD AT ART AND YOU ARE SO GOOD AT ART<br>You two tell the most beautiful stories together. Thank you for sharing this with us, Dodie

HEDY IS SO GOOD AT ART AND YOU ARE SO GOOD AT ART
You two tell the most beautiful stories together. Thank you for sharing this with us, Dodie


thank you for the honesty in this so amazing video!


This was beautiful, the story and the drawings


"Everyone is just a collage of their favorite people." I'm really glad that I'm able to watch your videos because you're one of my favorite people! :3


Your voice is so calming, could you please do an audio book ❤❤


When i was in 3rd grade, ive been beaten by boys in my class. Everytime im going to my seat, they wont forget to make me trip down to the floor. I had best friends, but no one actually bullies them. So i decided to talk to the guidance counselor bravely and boom, they never bullied me starting that day.


This reminds me of my childhood as well, I was bullied up till grade three and I bullied another girl I felt bad, then we moved and I still can't forgive myself


Holy shit! Hedy is such a terrific artist.


“Everyone is just a collage of their favourite people”<br>I love this a lot

“Everyone is just a collage of their favourite people”
I love this a lot


Candid, startlingly clear insight - it took me longer to arrive at your leveling out, we all seem to get there eventually.


it takes a lot to be open and honest about times youve hurt others, and i'm really grateful i saw this


Hedy is an AMAZING artist she's gonna go so far with her art in life. love it.

Dodie i wasn't originally going to purchase your book because i don't tend to get youtube merch in any fashion, but if this is what i can expect from it, i'll be buying it the SECOND my mum says she'll let me.

to the girl with the rainbow bag: i used to be you. then i changed myself. i dressed how other people dressed and i hid behind what i thought was how i was supposed to look and act. but right now i'm trying to except myself, my hypothetical rainbow bag, and all.


Thank you so much, it helped me a lot, because I am now in the same situation as you were and now I can understand it more, that you so much, it really helped me ❤


Oh dodie this was so wonderful and powerful and brave- as someone who has been bullied badly through all their years at school, thank you <3 and hedys drawing is absolutely amazing and unique!


You are very brace saying this into the public. Lovely art. ^^


can we agree hedys art style is so beautiful and creative and unique

maisie394 I love her, but her art style it's not creative, look all over Tumblr and you'll find millions so similar


This made me tear up 💛 it’s so beautiful


When the book comes out you should definitely make an audiobook to go with it because this was great!

I know! I was so encaptured! Her voice is so soothing <3

Maddie Flack yes. Just yes. I need this.


I want a rainbow bag! That sounds awesome!❤💛💚💙💜


I love you so much dodie 😍💖 so proud of you xx


This is my story, and I'm still fighting it right now, however I did never bully, I was more of a punching bag


Please make an audio book of your book dodie! 💛


As someone who has also being in both sides of bullying, something I always wonder it is what's worst - the whole insecurities and traumas caused by it or the feeling of guilty to have caused someone the same wounds :c

Speaking as someone whose bullied a lot of people and been bullied as well, I'd have to say being the bully takes the cake for me. Sure, it was my inability to responsibly deal with the feelings that came along with being bullied that made me the bully, but that doesn't change the fact that guilt follows me everywhere. It's turned into a genuine fear that I scare and hurt others simply by being in close proximity to them. It makes me feel as though I'm never worthy of happiness because I've caused others so much pain, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

I think it all comes down to how much a person craves attention and validation. As a child, not only was a I constantly bullied but I also never had a solid group of good friends. If being mean to someone was the way to seek credibility and friendship from the "popular" group of girls, I would do it. Thank god I grew out of this, now it would kill me to even hurt a fly. But sometimes I wonder, if my parents had instilled better independence and I had better self worth if I would've done those things.

rinofthemill This. A thousand times, this.
Many people don't realize the harm they have caused. Others go even further and just naturalize it.
If you have the capacity and awareness to see the damage you are causing, then I agree, known it must be way more painful than being on the other side of the spectrum.

+Sweet Lolita In my experience, the only way I could see to get out of it was to tease others to distract the bullies from myself. By the time I realised what I was doing, it had become habit while around those people, but because they were bullies as well as my "friends" I couldn't shake them. It was selfish and the wrong decision, but when I saw a way out I took it. Of course it didn't STOP the bullying. It just slowed it down so that I didn't break. You're a much better and stronger person than me with the way you handled it :)

Jaycee Same, I don't understand how you can be bullied and then inflict the same torture on somebody else. I was bullied and always vowed and never became a bully.

I've never been a bully but I have been bullied and I think being the bully would be worse since bullies cause so much irreversible harm to others


First and foremost, thank you for the beautiful video and thanks for sharing. Second, please don't keep the paintbrush in the water while you're not using it! It's not good for the brush.


HOW DOES HEDY DRAW PERFECT CIRCLES<br>Also this is such a touching story <3

HOW DOES HEDY DRAW PERFECT CIRCLES
Also this is such a touching story <3


Please, can there be an audiobook version available? Dodie's voice is just too lovely.


Damn, tell Hedy she's absolutely incredibly talented, it's rare to see an art style that isn't Manga that developed at her age, you can already see what an amazing illustrator she'll be! ❤


Is it just me who thought that dodie would be such a good story teller 😍


Is there anything you can't do? Your drawings are amazing


I want to know who disliked this video! I mean how?? Doddie is so inspirational, and vulnerable- I love her!


I would love love LOVE more videos like this💕


When you mentioned the girl with the rainbow bag again I started to tear up because like not only were you apologizing to the girl with the rainbow bag, she was also symbolizing people who don't necessarily fit in and ohmygod the feels


I think everyone can relate to "I was bullied and I was a bully" <br>What she said is relatable. And bloody brave. She makes people think about what they are doing and saying. How it's not all about them.

I think everyone can relate to "I was bullied and I was a bully"
What she said is relatable. And bloody brave. She makes people think about what they are doing and saying. How it's not all about them.


I want my future children to sit down and watch this.


I can most definitely relate to this, now that I have seen this, I will stop bullying other people just because I am bullied, thank you! Although, I can’t really do anything about me being bullied...


This. Is. Important. Dodie this is absolutely beautiful! It allows people to see that nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes. And hedy I love the artwork it's so sweet 💙


I cannot begin to describe how powerful this video is, to me and to so many others who felt this way during our school years, thank you :D


Please make an audio version of the book (if you don't already have one)
Your voice is so soothing
And carries a lot emotion... I teared up near the end


We've all been there, it's ok. I have bullied someone once, for once I felt like I belonged. But I grew up and understood. I was never open minded, I was insecure. I cared about other people's thoughts more than mine. But then I thought "why do I care?" And I guess I'm more open-minded now, but I'm still a little shy. But I'm working on it :)


To anyone like the girl with the rainbow backpack, who is bullied because they're different-You can't be #1 without being odd <3


Hedy has such a pleasing art style I love it


It was so lovely that I actually started crying.


I can really relate to this. I've never been 'bullied' as such, by which I mean there has never been a particular group of people calling me names and stuff over a period of time. However, especially when I started high school, I was often at the receiving end of mean comments. I won't go into detail but my awkward looks and alternative interests meant that I was singled out on a few very serious occassions.

But I have bullied. Well, not 'bullied' by the definition before,  but I have made rude comments about people when I was definitely old enough to know better. I'm trying to minimise my nasty thoughts about people because I know what it is to have people say things about you and I don't know why I ever wanted to inflict that same pain on someone.

And I have been a bully of a kind. And I will always be ashamed of that, I never ever did anything physical and it was only for like three weeks but I was so scared of losing my best friend to this other girl when I was in third grade that I started talking shit about her behind her back, saying how much I hated her and other stuff. Im not proud of it at all. But looking back on it I realize that I was just extremely insecure and frightened of being lonely, I wish more anti bullying campaigns would focus more on the bully, as most have a reason to why they bully


man i can’t believe that this was my first dodie video :’) man i’m so glad i clicked on this


I find this relaxing and inspirational because dodies voice is so soothing


I’ve gotten bullied because I’m different. I like different things I say different words that other people don’t understand and that makes them mad. People say my voice is high and annoying and that I sound of a five year old. I started to tease people to get over it. Granted they were my friends and it was a joke. It hurts to get bullied because you’re different. It’s not right. I’ve been called many names that I don’t have the heart to say. One girl who I thought was my friend started to bully me over text. My mother found out and long story short we never spoke again. I try to please people but it never works. My friends hear other people or other friends say rude things about me. I have one question. What’s wrong with me?

Gurl if any things wrong with anyone here it's me 😂 you seem bloody ace! I was the same as you so don't feel worried at all, you have your whole life ahead of you so go live it! Don't let those sheep bring you down

Galyllis I might be a month late, but I just wanted to say our stories are much alike the only difference is my voice isn't that high. I wish you the best of luck in life and I hope you will have better days than I have had


Amazing story awesome job on the illustration. You've got some talent over there but that was some sloppy watercolour work... Love the video


When i was smaller, I had a pixie cut. When i got my hair done, i was so happy about it. I beamed with joy and excitement when i looked in the mirror with my short and cute hair. Weeks later, fifth grade started. I was eager to get new friends and meet new people. After all, it was a new school. I entered my classroom and got weird looks from other kids, and I honestly didn't know why. Soon after class started, I would find myself stuck in the corner of the giant field at recess, covered by fear and the shadows of teasing children. They laughed away at me, and made fun of my hair. They said I looked dumb, ugly, and like a boy. I would gulp it down and go inside the bathroom, pulling out a sharpie and drawing on my arm and hands. All the joy and pride I had in my looks, faded into anxiety and depression. Then one day, a new student transfered to our class. I was excited, because I wanted to know a new person, and finally have a chance to gain a friend. She wore glasses and wore an anime pin on her jacket. The bullies laughed at her, and called her four-eyes, a weeb, a wannabe anime girl, and blind anime trash. I was scared. I couldn't stand up to them. They would tease me once more. So i did the only thing I could do to gain a friend. I laughed at her too. I played along with the bullies. And we became a group of "friends." Though she got bullied, she didn't cry or run away, she just pretended to ignore it all. But I could see the look on her face. She hurt inside. I began to talk to her, and the bullies didn't notice. I hung out with my -friends-, but I felt out of place, and i was only there because i joined their little teasing game. I tried to escape from them, and talked to that girl, but they trapped me into being a bully once more. Then one day, I decided I couldn't handle it any longer. I got angry when they bullied her, and I took the fiery rage and anger inside me and shouted it all out. Telling them to stop, and that it was immature. I ran away with the girl, and they bullied both of us. But we both smiled, brushed it off, and ignored it entirely. How did we do that? Well, we were together. We were all alone <i>together</i>

When i was smaller, I had a pixie cut. When i got my hair done, i was so happy about it. I beamed with joy and excitement when i looked in the mirror with my short and cute hair. Weeks later, fifth grade started. I was eager to get new friends and meet new people. After all, it was a new school. I entered my classroom and got weird looks from other kids, and I honestly didn't know why. Soon after class started, I would find myself stuck in the corner of the giant field at recess, covered by fear and the shadows of teasing children. They laughed away at me, and made fun of my hair. They said I looked dumb, ugly, and like a boy. I would gulp it down and go inside the bathroom, pulling out a sharpie and drawing on my arm and hands. All the joy and pride I had in my looks, faded into anxiety and depression. Then one day, a new student transfered to our class. I was excited, because I wanted to know a new person, and finally have a chance to gain a friend. She wore glasses and wore an anime pin on her jacket. The bullies laughed at her, and called her four-eyes, a weeb, a wannabe anime girl, and blind anime trash. I was scared. I couldn't stand up to them. They would tease me once more. So i did the only thing I could do to gain a friend. I laughed at her too. I played along with the bullies. And we became a group of "friends." Though she got bullied, she didn't cry or run away, she just pretended to ignore it all. But I could see the look on her face. She hurt inside. I began to talk to her, and the bullies didn't notice. I hung out with my -friends-, but I felt out of place, and i was only there because i joined their little teasing game. I tried to escape from them, and talked to that girl, but they trapped me into being a bully once more. Then one day, I decided I couldn't handle it any longer. I got angry when they bullied her, and I took the fiery rage and anger inside me and shouted it all out. Telling them to stop, and that it was immature. I ran away with the girl, and they bullied both of us. But we both smiled, brushed it off, and ignored it entirely. How did we do that? Well, we were together. We were all alone _together_


Hedy Is such an amazing artist!!!!!!! her drawing style is so simplistic and adorable! i dont understand how she draws such perfect shapes! im really bad at drawing shapes.............


You should make this an audiobook read by you. Listening to you read your story is so calming... <3


Your story and drawings were amazing Hedy


The first few words pretty much describe me. I should honestly stop trying to make myself a victim.


why are all the most talented people bullied as a little kid?

Christi most people in generall hav been bullied at stages in their life

Christi I’m bullied and I have no talents do your statement isn’t 100% accurate

They get bullied and then realize that they are worth it and they are better

because children think being different is wrong, or weird, or they don't understand why someone does something, or they don't feel good about themselves and they want to put the attention on other people... there's no simple answer, bullying is complicated


I bought secrets for the mad!! It was like a month back now and it still hasn’t come so I’m hoping it will soon, I’m so excited to read it. I love how completely authentic and honest you are. Opening up about being a bully is hard, people’s ego’s always get in their ways and find it impossible to admit that they are flawed too. Also, Hedy is an amazing artist and I’m so happy to see her blossom as a person 💞


i really hope that dodie does an audio book with her voice reading her book


Hedy is such a legend when it comes to drawing, I mean cmon? What's not to love?


DODIE PLEASE START A PODCAST THIS WAS AMAZING AHHHH

CeramicKangaroo she was on dear hank and John


I can relate to this. I was bullied pretty badly when I was younger..and it turned me into a really bitter person..Everytime someone tried to hurt me after the bullying fiasco I lashed out at.. probably worse than I should've.  I held grudges for longer than I should've. And hell , I'm angry at myself for behaving that way. But it was the outcome of bullying..and honestly..I'm so glad Dodie made this video.


Both you, Dodie, and the girl with the rainbow bag inspire me to be myself now in the upcoming year and I'm gonna make sure to be my happiest bubbliest self when I can. Thank you...


i was a bully when i was younger. in 3rd grade, i became friends with my neighbour who was popular at the new school i went to. she bullied a girl named sarah so did all of the kids. due to this reason, she used to play with first grades for the rest of her school years. i remember being so horrible to her, to the point that she'd start crying and i wouldn't feel any sympathy for her. there was a time when i was close to being friends with her but betrayed her. i made up a huge rumour that she called my friend a bitch and she got beaten up. i remember crying at home and not wanting to go to school again. i never stood up to her because i didn't want to be bullied either. i was so selfish. another new girl came to school in 5th grade. her name was melanie and she was bullied for being fat. she was bullied to the point that she had to leave the school. once, me and my friends pushed her down on the snow. in 6th grade, a new guy came in. his name was nick. he was bullied because he was "too smart" or "a-know-it-all". my friend despised him and always got into fights with him and made him feel down but on that year. i have came into realization that what i've done was horrible. i got closer to the guy and knew more about him. till this day, we're still dating. i'm sorry for the ones that i have hurt in their childhood. i am so sorry.


We all need to take a moment and just appreciate Hedy's insane talent, i mean this is drawn so well!


"everyone is just a collage of their favourite parts of other people" i love that


This is what happens when you let others control your life.
I'm happy then you learned, and how you became you not someone you think is "cool"

This is what happens when you let others control your life.
I'm happy then you learned, and how you became *you* not someone you think is "cool"


I read along to Dodie reading this, whilst I read my copy of her book :3

ᴀ ʟ ɪ ᴄ ᴇ Xx


Bullying is something a lot of people face, me being one, so I think this made a great impact on my and most other people, thank you


Very good video! I Love Hedy's art!

Today I found out that the person I like (and I told them I liked them) like My best friend. And they didn't say anything. Great


i'm honestly crying this is too much i love this


i truly love this video ♡ what types of paints are those, by the  way?


I was bullied way to much too. I know how it feels to be bullied


This is wonderfully honest, and Hedy's drawings are amazing


I was rarely bullied, just left out. I just got so used to sitting alone at a table. If there were other people at the table (which thankfully, after time, there were) I was absolutely silent. I wasn't really friends with them. They would blabber over me and I would pick at my peanut butter and jelly sandwich on wheat bread, rarely taking bites. Eventually, in middle school, things got easier, slightly. I was split between 2 friend groups, but to be honest I didn't really fit in with either. I was used to sitting quietly on the seats in the gym as everyone played sports that I utterly sucked at. The anxiety and embarrassment would creep up my chest and strangle me, leaving no words. On the last day of school, it wasn't the fun joyous end surrounded by friends I thought it would be. I left that school when the bell rang, unlike the other kids who were playing spin the bottle or having dance-offs. I wish I had stayed, maybe they would have been nice to me.
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(Hi there! Feel free to share your stories down below, believe me, it feels good to get it out of your system)


she is very talented wow those drawings look awesome. <br>and a very touching story, don't feel bad a lot of people had to "become mean" to stop being bullied themselves and no one is really proid of that but it teaches you a lot

she is very talented wow those drawings look awesome.
and a very touching story, don't feel bad a lot of people had to "become mean" to stop being bullied themselves and no one is really proid of that but it teaches you a lot


I love dodie's voice it's so soft and sweet


Is there going to be an audiobook for 'Secret For The Mad'? I would (and i'm certain others would too) LOVE to listen to it on audible or something. xxx


your voice is so soothing!!! love u dodie xxx


i just watched this and it actually made me tear up a bit


The art to this video with Dodie's  voice is simply so pleasant!


In primary I would hang around with the popular girls. They were your typical air heads and would laugh at any of my real interests to I would pretend to like what they did. They never liked my and I knew but I have a fear of rejection and hate being discarded by anyone so I took their bullying, stoped using my 'big words' and took what was making my self astern plummet.
In the beginning of Secondary school my class would do nothing but bully me as I have a different taste in music and was called an emo. I can't deny that I'm not because I'm your typical run of the mill wear all black and listens to 'the shouty scary music'. Every day other kids would call me names, ask to see my wrists (witch never have or will have cuts on them). I had a friend group of six and I'm still friends with three of them.
I'm only in my second year of secondary school but I will soon be entering my third, where I'll be my self and the first year will repeat but I don't care because as soon as that bell rings I have beautiful amazing friends who put up with my self deprecating jokes and vocabulary. So my next class will bully me but I'd rather that then hide who I am.

Lauren Fox

then therye missing out alot

Lauren Fox

then therye missing out alot

I hate Justin Beiber So I tossed him through the air to see where he might land~!"

You sound like a cool person to be around, actually. :)


I know how you feel. I was always excluded because I was really shy and anxious, but once I started to join people in being mean I was accepted. There was this one girl everyone laughed at, and I thought was pretty cool despite being a little weird. But being a dumb teen I laughed at her like the rest did, to feel accepted. Later on she left school and I think it was due to the bullying, I really hope she's ok now.


you have so much confidence showing your flaws

i couldnt never do something like this!


Oh my gosh her art is amazing! I wish I was as good as her omg i love hedy so much
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Oh my gosh her art is amazing! I wish I was as good as her omg i love hedy so much
*chokes*


"Everyone is just a colage of they favourite parts of other people" That's beautifull.


I remember I called a girl a troll once. She was new to our school, had pink hair, and she was beautiful. I still regret that, even though I was friends with her a few months later. I regret it, because she went over to my house once, and then her father took her away from her mother. Last I heard, her mother had police after her dad, and her father ran away from them, taking the girl with him.
I didn't see her again and as for what happened to her, I have not a clue. The school didn't hear from their family either.
And I still wish I could hear her voice and see her face again. I'll bet she's really beautiful. I really wish I could tell her it was never her. It was me. I was scared of being rejected by the friends I had.
I wish we had known how great a friend you could be at the time.
I found a picture the other day, going through my files. You were holding my brother's guitar, and it was somewhat dark, and we were sitting on the couch laughing. I pulled out a camera, and you posed 'casually'. Model in the making, haha.

Edit: Maybe I'll see your beautiful face and your unusual but nice sounding name that we all had made fun of at the time on the cover of the magazing for some amazing thing. Maybe someday I'll  see you smiling and laughing, no longer alone. I'm positive you don't remember me, and won't, but I hope that you're safe and happy now.

See you some day or no day,
-C

you know i manged not to cry for this video but dangit this comment killed me


I relate to your story, And I cried because of it because even now Im looked at and talked about but these days I dont even know if it's bad or good.  I deal with anxiety and currently am a bit anxious but watching this lifted my spirits.<br>Thanks for the reminder that we all matter and are loved, love u dodie!~A randomly nervous fan

I relate to your story, And I cried because of it because even now Im looked at and talked about but these days I dont even know if it's bad or good.  I deal with anxiety and currently am a bit anxious but watching this lifted my spirits.
Thanks for the reminder that we all matter and are loved, love u dodie!~A randomly nervous fan


I wasn't bullied a lot as a kid, but with stuff going on at home and my sensitive somewhat fragile mind it was definitely enough to put insecurities in my head, I feel like I became mean before I got confident as well, I just hope that nothing I said hurt anyone


This made my day bc maybe the kids that bully me might just need the attention why thank you dodie


* cough * if you have any free time you should make a new video * cough *

Omg i went to your channel and you liked my dead gay son im hyperventilating

ItsJustHedy how are you so damn good at everything

Your drawing and painting is absolutely amazing. I love your drawing style it's so cute and nice💗

+Not only was she credited in the description, but also the end of the video. Don't go around throwing accusations.

+Undertale Comic Dubs she did the artwork.

Undertale Comic Dubs How? This is the girl that drew all the artwork in the video. Dodie didn't draw it

ItsJustHedy It looked amazing!! Love you!! ❤

Your art style is the cutest, like the kind of pictures in a children's book that give you nostalgia even when you've never seen them before.

ItsJustHedy You're a SUPER awesome artist! Those drawings are incredible💜

Your art is sooooo pretty!! I love it a lot, keep it up ❤

ItsJustHedy your drawing is so damn cute I can't

i love your art so much its so simple and cute!

I'm the 667th like I'm sorry I know it was perfect

ItsJustHedy you are SO freaking talented and i'm so happy more people gets to see that

I cannot believe you are so young yet are so talented and much cooler than myself. <3

Absolutely fantastic Hedy, you must have spent many hundreds of hours practising your art and skills, my hat is off to your dedication!

You're such a good drawer I need you to give me lessons xD <3

Holy cow, Hedy, you are SO TALENTED! Amazing job with this!

I'd love to see you do some sort of tutorial ;D

You're so amazing Hedy! Wish I could draw like you D;

can u pls teach me how to watercolour bcz damn

Dania Ahmed lol my sister's name is Dania (SHOOK)

aH you're style is incredible !! You've inspired me out of my art block,, I love your pieces <3

I'm glad you had fun. You're so talented!!!!!!! I want to see more💞💞💞

You have an amazing talent with art Hedy, keep doing what you're doing :D

Hedy I hope you are aware and proud of how good you are at art bc damn girl

lol it's fun seeing everyone obsess over you in the comments


Whilst I'm sure every intention in this video was pure, and as much as I love you dodie, I can't help but wonder if the girl with the rainbow bag might watch this advertisement for your new book and be left with a sour taste in her mouth


the book is coming out right before my birthday and I showed my mom this video so hopefully she will get it 💙


"Everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people." YES. I've always tried to incorporate the mannerisms and personality traits of other people that I find endearing into my own self. It's really interesting when someone that I've tried to emulate compliments something about me that I "stole" from them. It's like they are approving a piece of their own reflection. But, I suppose they also learned that behavior from someone else. We're all copies in a way. <br>Anyway, great video Dodie and Hedy! Much love.

"Everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people." YES. I've always tried to incorporate the mannerisms and personality traits of other people that I find endearing into my own self. It's really interesting when someone that I've tried to emulate compliments something about me that I "stole" from them. It's like they are approving a piece of their own reflection. But, I suppose they also learned that behavior from someone else. We're all copies in a way.
Anyway, great video Dodie and Hedy! Much love.


Dodie, I have Insomnia, and this helped me a lot, seriously, your voice is perfect as a narrator, and you telling a nonfiction story, made me felt better, thank you,


Hedy, Can I just say, you are amazing at watercolour :)

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don't worry I've been bullied throughout my school life.... it's not  nice... i feel you Dodie ❤💙


Can't wait to read that book and hold the wonderful pages of the Dodie Clark Adventurers in my hands


I'm gonna tell you my experience of being bullied and played.

In year 1, also known as kindergarten, I had joined a school, St Pauls.
I was naive and very shy then and quiet, but smiled a little, I had drama free life until I came there.
It was a stereotypical school and there were these 4 girls, who were the mean girls. There was a tall one,the leader, let's call her Amiela and there was these two cousins in the group two, let's call them Erin and Julie and the Amiela's bestie, Belle.

Belle came up to me and was very nice and calming, and I sat next to her during classes.

Then one day I moved table and got sat next to Amiela. We talked and became best friends and soon forgot about Belle.
Belle got jealous. Really jealous. She called me names behind my back like I was a witch.

Then I met Erin, who wasn't fond of me, she pretended to be my friend, and being in the mean girl group she told me their group name, the 4 degrees.

They added me in and one day when I was at break time( recess) I heard Erin, belle and Julie hanging out, so I decided to go closer to them, but before I went to them I heard them talking about my family and calling the midgets, because I was short.

I went to Amiela and told her everything and she believed me, Belle, being jealous made up a lie of me spreading romours about Amiela,  and then we weren't friends any more, I spent days crying and they bullied me.

Amiela would throw me around on the field, then I pushed her. The worst mistake ever. I remember her saying "oh, you wanna play like that?"

She dived onto me and punched me, giving me a nose bleed and a black eye, and nobody helped, she walked away swearing at me and I told a teacher.

She got detention and gave me a death stare.

I felt alone and afraid.

Amiela.  Would. Kill.me

She told her mom and her mom came stomping into the school and getting angry, yet I was scared to tell my mom.

I was being antisocial and I was scared to tell anyone.

I would cry everywhere, teachers would ask but I was silent.

Amiela being herself laughed at me.

I was a wreck, at the point where I was going to kill my self.

I was 6, thinking to kill my self, and I planned it.

But Amiela apologised.

And we were friends.

Then I went to year 2, (1st grade.)

And Anita left.

But Erin and Julie didn't stop.

I got to know Julie and it was fine but Erin didn't quit, and it came to where Julie and Erin had a fight and ended in detention.

Amiela told me that nothing happened till I came. And they went against me again this carried on until year 4 (3rd grade)
When I said sorry.

I got Amiela's friends against her after a while and changed into her, gossip girl, leader and ultimate primary school mean girl.

We bullied her but worser then she did to me.  And then one day she got them back and bullied me, and she was bragging of how I attempted to bully her.

"Like she cries to me and then we're friends and she attempts to bully me!" That's what she said. I realised what I did was wrong and it wasn't suitable behevior but she didn't have to brag all about it.

I then met a girl Ashley, and we became besties and we never fell out and we are still besties as I type.

Amiela heard about Ashley during lunch with her gossip club. She got jealous and talked crap about Ashley.

We had a fight and of course I lost.

I started to go to kids gym.

Then in year 5 (4th grade)  a new boy Henri came, he was cute and I had a crush on him, but Amiela had a crush on him too and then we had had a typical stare off, we had become arch enemy's now. I shared a desk with Henri so I spent more time with him. And in year 6 (5th grade) on the last day we shared a kiss in front of Amiela.

And then when we were in college( high school) he found me on Facebook and we had a long distance relationship. And he'd come see me some days but yeah.

Then Amiela and Erin transferred to my college.

And they bullied me, I was a joke, until Henri got angry and told them to stop. This is basically my life story. Amiela sometimes comes and makes fun of me but it comes and goes.


You have confidence for posting this saying that you bullied someone.


I hope at least one of the people who bullied you found your channel and bloody regretted what they did to you. I especially hope that the girl with the rainbow bag found this, and forgives you 💛


Dodie should make an audiobook for her entire book and read it herself!!


I cryed. I'm still crying. Even though I have been bullied and am now accepted I always ignored the possibility that I could be hurting someone else


Damn, this was powerful, you seem to be my reflection


This is me in middle school. I am a college graduate now and I still suck at talking to people because  of how I was treated in middle school. Wish I could go back to middle school and just not care but that's just not how the world works.


It's because I look different. But I needed this, Thank you Dodie..


I never related more to a video. I grew up being bullied and I thought a way to get out of this endless cycle was to pick on someone even weaker than me. I called the new kid at school "homeless" because he wore slightly dirty clothes. For months after that everyone started to call him that and suddenly they left me alone. Til this dsy I still feel guilty and think about him. What I did was wrong and til this day it's one of my biggest regrets. Fight hatred with kindness and when people give you reasons to not love anymore, love even more.


dodie please read an audiobook or something haha, its so soothing


I reeeally hope we get an audio book version of this read by you! Your voice is so lovely to listen to 😊


You help me alot because i also get bullied now you help me face my fears of bullying and i understand now who i am what the real world is out there because i am liked and loved so thank you dodie


I love how good the drawing were, and me myself I would say that i was and still is the girl with the rainbow bag


I used to be a bully, I was bullied before in the same school ... and by the end of my time in that school, I had my whole class ganging up on one girl who had joined our class late.


Well I wasn't expecting to get emotional today

hello i would like to tell you that your username is amazing your user is all of my fav music\youtuber but thats all goodbye mon ami see you idk later? i dont know how to socialize bai then hehhee im awkward

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Today I was on the bus home with my friend reminiscing about year 6, when we realised, we were backstabbers. Rebecca had joined our school a year before, and we became 'close' in year 5. I say 'close' because she had no friends, and really liked us, but we would always avoid  her. In year 6, she and her twin Riley got bullied for no reason. We would comfort her, but then talk behind her back at how weak she was, and how annoying she was, and just for no reason. When one of our other friends, Jacinta, slapped Riley, Rebecca confronted her, and Jacinta slapped her too. My friend and I sympathised with Jacinta instead of Rebecca and Riley, and again would talk about them behind her backs, about how it probably didn't hurt, and how they were just exaggerating for attention. She now goes to my high school, and is one of the most amazing person I know. She is a really close friend, and if I could redo any year, it would be that year.


You bullied me back in Leventhorpe - I avoid videos with you in now. But I clicked on this video and it made me realise I too am better for it - more confident, and happier. I am not the girl with the rainbow back pack - you probably don't remember me from Fame, but I forgive you, not that it makes much difference. I hope you, like me, make the best of this life.


this was beautiful and you made me cry. i love you.


Thanks for this video. It really resonated.


And after 20 years I finally just realized why I am the way I am.


i love your soft voice and with the amazing water colour it made this video lovely


this video made me cry, i am going through what dodie was. i was bullied and was so done to the point where i just joined their crowd to escape their bullying and bullied my old fake friend who used to always bully me, i regret it. i did as a way to get for all the times she bullied me and in the end i left the bullies and had no one to go to but thank god i was starting high school. it was a new place for me to start fresh and use my mistakes to become the person i shouldve been.

and now without my old fake friend and the bullies, i made new friends who were like me, weird, nerdy and all the stuff i tried to hide in primary school. i finally felt at home and free to be myself. school became something to look forward to and not something to hide from. and i finally could say i was truly happy and found some real friends. and its all weird to me how much can change in a year.

- twelve year old from perth, aus 💞


I would love to one day meet dodie, ask her to write down in hand "Everyone is just a collage of their favourite people." and then get it tattooed.


The girl that Dodie called a witch sounds like a muggle version of Luna Lovegood, she also sounds like the type of person I would love to be friends with


It's really hard when you're going through heaps of crap and you turn to your friends for support, but in such a horrible negative way because when you're mentally unwell, you don't see how you're effecting the people around you and the people you care about. The struggle of realising you've done something so wrong and damaging but you're left unsure of how to fix it. Bullying is unnecessary and terrible but it's worse when you realise you are the bully


"Everyone is just a collage of their favorite people" is my new fav quote


I understand your pain I was bullied my whole life


I relate to the bullying part and how I'm insecure infront of strangers


great job you made a girl feel like trash good on you m8 yes i know that you were bullied yourself but you really screwed up.


Dodie, well done for owning up and admitting that you did wrong


I suffer from a little bit of depression because I get bullied and I don't know what to say so I try to ignore it but sometimes that doesn't work.. and I have Social Anxiety so I can't make more then one friend and people say that I'm a loner and no one will love me..

I don't know why but I felt like sharing that.


In 5th grade, I had met a girl who shared the same interests as me and thought my drawings were good. I already knew this girl, as she was my friends friend and she was in my 3rd grade class. We would sit together at lunch and hangout in the swings at recess, until she started to be a bit more distant towards me, I brushed it off thinking she just wanted to hang out with her other friends that were in the class too.

During that time, I became more social awkward and not having any friends besides the girl who was ignoring me. I only had one other friend who I found annoying at the time and didn't want to be around with as much {we are now great friends lol}

The girl soon started to say some nasty things to me like "your art is ****" while as before she had loved my art and complimented it a lot, she had called me a weeb for watching anime {which she had watched too} and called me other names I don't feel like mentioning. Things just seemed to get worse, she told me to kill myself all.the.time and she would yell at me and call me even more nasty names when I asked her simple questions and told somethings.

The bullying continued and got worse and worse. I didn't want to tell my parents or teachers out of fear she would retaliate and turn my other friends against me, so I became more violent and would slap her and step on her toes when she was under the table.

Even though she was being rude to me, she would still try to make conversation and be extremely nice, I was confused and still hung out with her because when she was nice, we would always enjoy each other.

She was really rude and once completely plagiarized a drawing I had put time and effort into making.

After that school year was over, I finally told my mom, she was upset that I hadn't told her sooner.

I hadn't heard much from the girl until recently, when she sent me a DM on instagram, we had some friendly talk and I never really texted her again

So yeah that was my bullying story


i cant get over how much i love this video


i like the way you said that everyone is just a collage of their favourite parts of other people because I've been thinking about that part of me and thinking I can never be myself because I have no original trait as these are just stuff or traits I see from others as well and just owning them...thanks for it...finally found an answer to one of my life-long questions....


what a beautiful video. seriously i really needed this right now. because you’re someone who inspires me in so many ways, is insanely talented, is so kind hearted, and is so open and accepting of her feelings, sometimes it blinds you into believing you’re better than you are. and that you don’t make as many mistakes as the average human being. but knowing that you could make mistakes like this, and then still turn out to be the wonderful woman you are, it’s very reassuring. because it gives me hope that even though i make all the crazy mistakes that i do, maybe i’ll LEARN from those mistakes, and turn out just fine in the end.


I was bullied hard... and I meant  like someone punched me into a locker and left me there over night knowing  that I did NOT LIKE SMALL SPACES the other day I punched that girl in the face I ended up in the front desk but it was worth it.


Man when I read this in your book for the first time I could hear your voice narrating it haha.


WATCHING THIS AND READING HER BOOK AT THE SAME TIME IS MAKING MY BRAIN MELT WHAT THIS IS SO COOL


I've noticed how elitist I've gotten lately. I had to tell myself that I am not worth more than others because I am articulate, but its so hard to not go above and beyond, because, without my eloquence I feel I may disappear. I talk all the time because I need to feel like I matter, and I need to feel wanted, but I end up isolating myself because I dont know how to listen. I know its not the same as making fun of others, but I still feel guilty for all the times I thought people were lesser than me because I new how to use "effervescent" in a sentence. We can grow out of our old selves into something new, something better. And we really appreciate your honesty. 💞💓💕💖


Omg why is Hedy so good at art can she just give some of the talent to me ok thank you 😊❤😂


My friend and I sat on a park bench, the first time we'd ever gone out together, we look at each other spilling out our deepest secrets.
'It's like when Dodie said...oh what did she say, she wanted attention as a kid'
Me suddenly excited I hadn't known she liked Dodie until then.
'She didn't realise that seeking sympathy and attention wasn't the way to make friends'

We sit for a while talking about how we'd both been like that as children, even though we both are still 'children' in a way...


This video really hits home, I have almost the same story. I was bullied, as most kids are. One of my insecurities was how short I was. But there was one boy in our year who was significantly shorter than me, so I used to call him "midget" and it made him furious. I feel so guilty to say that it made me feel better at the time. Looking back now, I'm so ashamed of how I acted but I actively try to avoid doing that ever again. I wish I could apologise to him now.


Anybody out there struggling with bad vibes, I just want to remind you.. You are not alone. You are a beautiful person who is just going through a rough patch. Better days are coming your way and you must be there to see them so, Struggle for now but thrive later. ♥


Wow this choked me up a bit the combination of the beautiful illustrations and narration brought a tear to my eye wow .


When I was five years old, my best friend was also my bully. I was a total pushover. When we didn't agree on something, which was practically every day, she would physically bully me to the point of tears. But I still couldn't find it in me to break up as friends. It never even crossed my mind. All of the older kids and teachers loved me, but never did anything about it. She moved away, and in the third grade, I made a new best friend. Her name was London. One time we were messing around, horse-playing, and I accidentally hurt her. I hit her in the breadbasket (A point in the middle of your chest that makes you sick to your stomach if hit.) I immediately felt this surge of power. It started becoming a regular thing. I enjoyed it. At some points, she would fight back, which I'm proud of her for looking back. But the teachers did nothing. The students did nothing. They just watched. Eventually, she was walking to the pick-up area and I caught up with her and said, "One more?" She gave in and opened up her arms and I hit her. Her mother saw that and walked over. She was the first person to stand up for her and guilt washed over me. Her mother told the school and I was given a lecture about "personal space" by our health teacher. My parents grounded me for two weeks, which I totally deserved. But I would have kept going if no one found out. It wasn't a matter of being mean, it was an addiction. It made me feel powerful. If you are being bullied, let someone know. Don't be afraid.


NO! it’s not fair that you can be beautiful, have a even more (somehow🙂) singing voice, and now you’re an amazing artist? WHAAAAAA!?!?!


I dont know why but tears fell from my eyes watching this. You made me realise how its okay if you weren't the best person in the past, what matters is that you realise your mistakes and overcome it to be a better person now. Ive spent years feeling guilty for once being a child who had strong jealousy and envy towards everyone for some reason and treating them unfairly for that reason. I was also always guilty of being sort of manipulative as a child, always trying to change other kid's minds about something. Maybe that has something to do with me being raised to play as the pity poor girl because of my household situation and my mother teaching me what to say to my father that had cut ties with us and how to sound sad and pitiful to make him feel sorry for us and give us some sort of financial support. I knew i never wanted to do that but i had to cause if i didnt she'd guilt trip me and id feel guilty. I didnt want people to keep looking at me like i was a disappointment. In the end i was way too annoying and get way too attached to anyone who was nice to me/interracted with me. Also, i for some reason always felt like i was bullied, but for some reason ive also felt that what happened to me wasnt "bullying". People always glare at me, looking at me with a sneer. Always projecting how they think about me with the way they look at me. They'd make fun of my grades, make fun of my clothes. Made fun of me being on my period making me feel insecure about everything. Id even hide in the toilets when i was on my period (people had to go for some sort of prayer and people on their periods are excluded) cause i was terrified of them finding out i was on my period. My "best friend" at the time told me "its okay, ill still be your friend even though you're not smart" and i actually somewhat thought that im so lucky she was humble enough to be friends with the piece of shit that is me. But at the same time i felt kind of hurt. Then the teachers would always make fun of me, make fun of how i look, make fun of how slow i am at catching up with the rest of the class. Telling me how its pitiful that i became lazy and ditch school, even though i was always absent because i was suffering from depression. I felt like i was bullied but ive always wondered if it counts as bullying if its a grown adult making you feel that way.


"Everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people" <br>wow, blown away by the sheer poetic genius of this line <3

"Everyone is just a collage of their favorite parts of other people"
wow, blown away by the sheer poetic genius of this line <3


I one time ate my friends kit Kat and he caught me and was upset and that still lives on in my mind and haunts me 😂


Maybe I'm speaking of my own bias, but I find more depth in bullies that have been bullied than plain victims or bullies.


IF YOU DON'T DO THE NARRATION FOR THE AUDIO BOOK VERSION THEN HUN WYD

Was literally about to comment this word for word

Macanacat 66 it means what (are) you doin


i got to this part in your book so i decided to listen to it and follow along. After hearing it before it was enough to make me sad and rethink the things i've done before, but following along in the book just made it seem so more real. Being able to see and physically touch the words made them feel realistic that this was an actual experience that someone has gone through and not just some words through a screen. thank you so much dodie for sharing these storis and experiences with your audience. <3


Omlll you have no idea how hyped I am for this book!!!


I was bullied when I was younger and often times it does make you more likely to be a bully yourself. I didn’t even know I was doing it, but the lasting pain and my horrible mental state made me take it out on others. And they took their anger out on me. I’m currently trying to be a better person and not talk about people or take out my sadness on people I call my friends. Bullying from my past has made me insecure and scared of my friends, not because they were my bullies, but because my bullies pretended to like me and then proceeded to crush me. And I started treating my friends in similar ways because I was scared. And I am scared. But I’m trying not to be.


I feel talent coming through the screen and hopefully transferring to me. We love you dodecahedron ❤ <b>sorry sorry</b>

I feel talent coming through the screen and hopefully transferring to me. We love you dodecahedron ❤ *sorry sorry*


I think you are beautiful just the way you are. You dont have to change for anyone else.


Hedy and her talented drawings. I lerrvv it!!!


I did a book talk on secrets for the mad and read this story as my excerpt.


You're voice is so soothing and you are so amazing Dodie. AND WOW HEDY YOU ARE AMAZING AT ART!!!!!!!!


I was bullied in first grade then a few years later I found myself bullying a girl who did nothing to me. I didn't want to make the same mistake as my bully so I apologized. We did turn out to be great friends but she left the school, everyday I apologized to her and today I'm still sorry. Then in 5th to 6th I bullied boys. Some of them thought it was ok, to just tougher them up so I did have good friends who had faith in me of what I do. Right now I'm trying to stop so I'm holding my tongue when I want to say something. It's working but it's not working much. I just hope that I can still be noticed at school and that I still have friends.


I love that Dodie had the courage to speak about how she was bullied and then gathered even more of that courage to tell us how she'd bullied someone before too. And then apologized to that specific girl.<br>I applaud to you Dodie, not many people have that courage

I love that Dodie had the courage to speak about how she was bullied and then gathered even more of that courage to tell us how she'd bullied someone before too. And then apologized to that specific girl.
I applaud to you Dodie, not many people have that courage


One of the actions I regret most of my childhood was when I made a girl cry because I teased her for being tomboy-ish. Looking back, I was a real piece of shit growing up (not all the time, but I did some really disgusting things every now and then).


I've watched this video to many times and know it word by word


I have those watercolours and that brush set !! I feel connected


It's strange how not only you or I but many people in the world have dealt with bullying. Even if it's at school, work or your household. Everyone goes through things differently. I myself at the very start and end of Primary school I was bullied. Why? I haven't the slightest clue. I was different and that's for sure i loved art, I loved any sport that had a racket involved. I liked singing and dancing. I enjoyed history. But I started to question myself a lot. I questioned my upbringing. My sexuality. My look, style or just the way I talk. When I got to the age of six I began to start hating myself. I would look in the mirror each morning and tell myself that no one liked me and that I was stupid. I would come sometimes crying and collapsing in amongst my mothers arms. My family were all that I lived for. They're my everything. I grew up without true friends. Most of them used me. But what for? I started to change myself not for me but for others. I had fear in being rejected and unexcepted. It was simple. I just wanted to had friends who actually liked me for once. I made people feel sorry for me. People began to like me. It felt wrong but at least I had friends... Right? Wrong. It was half a year later and I hated the fact that I changed for people who would only like me for the themselves and for the wrong reasons. I faded away from the group of people, and felt... Happy? Something I hadn't felt for quite some time. I was called fake, a lier, and a backstabber. It hurt and I was in amongst the two walls. Confusion and Understatement. A few years later I had made it to High school. One of the worst places on earth in my opinion. It took me 5 years to meet people who were considered to be losers and outsiders. I decided to join these people one day for Lunch. And we had decided to ditch school for that one day. We went to a fish and chip shop and got silly drinks. We had so much in common, yet I isolated myself from people then, and, somehow they understood. They had been in the exact some predicament as I had been in. I felt. Joyful. I thought to myself that this would only last for these few moments. 2 years later and and are closer then ever. It can take quite some time to find people in your life who are willing to show their true colours. And well. They're lit up like neon gold. I guess what I have learnt over the years is that, things take time, and that if you turn what was a negative into a positive you'll find that the positive is what you yourself have become. You learn and you grow though experience. You become a better person. So to end on that note. Thank you Dodie for telling us your story. And thank you Hedy for your wonderful drawings. We're all human. We all make mistakes. But how are we supposed to learn if we don't make few hic-cups here, now and than.


The girl with the rainbow bag sounds like my dream girl, honestly. Creative and imaginative, not caring about anyone's opinions of her.


When I was in prep (the year before grade one, after kindergarten) I was really rude to my two friends... I was a bully. After my stupidity repeated for two years I was confronted by a teacher but the things she said I did were way worse than what I actually did, like sometimes
I'd ask to trade lunch but they told people I stole it. I was the biggest one there so everyone took their side. Since then we aren't friends and now I am the victim
Of bullying. Karmas a bitch. Just don't listen to rude things others say and be who you want to be.


to the girl who didn't really wash her hair, told stories of magic and fairies, and had the cutest rainbow bag; i was you, i changed for people when i shouldn't have, but you stood your ground, thank you for being so brave when me and many others like you couldn't be ❤💛💚💙💜


I'm from the US
Alot of ourselves see ourselves as the victim,hero or the one in the right whether out of pride,fear,or power and don't want to admit we were bullies too. I can totally relate to this and simply love people speaking out about their experiences in school. I was bullied in middle school and 8th grade was the worst year. but Looking back I treated alot of people like crap in 7th grade because I had a victim mentality out of paranoia so I would snitch on people for the pettiest of things in fear they would do something and I broke alot of friendships that way. You could say I was the annoying class monitor. In 8th grade I tried fitting in but people saw through me and no one liked me and I snitched alot but only because I was getting pencils and rocks thrown at me. The entire class yelling at me and calling me names for simple mistakes and being the scapegoat for the class. It didn't help that I took everything seriously and it only increased the bullying. I would sit alone in lunch and people would only sit with me to insult me and mock me.

High school was a fresh start and even when people didn't like me they left me alone. People would dislike me when I did nothing but others didn't and the trauma from middleschool would eventually get to me to get diagnosed with depression at 17 in my junior year of high school. Ironically it is there where I made some lifelong friends and made me feel better.


I love this! And the drawings are very cute! Good luck with the book sales!💙


hedy’s art style is So cute i love it so much


This video is very relatable... this happened to me... I was bullied, I bullied... which I didn't mean.


this is absolutely beautiful. Most people don't have the guts to admit things theyre ashamed of. Hats off to you Dodie.


I love this video and all the messages behind it. I wish I could be as strong and proud as the girl with the rainbow bag as I could never hope to show my personality to everyone I know. I have been mute for a few years now, for many personal reasons, and I am teased and bullied a lot for it, but I am not strong enough to stand up for myself. If I was, maybe I could be more like Dodie and push through the hate. I know so many probe are going through worse than me, so I don't want to sound like I'm begging for attention, but the internet is literally the only way I can voice my opinions. Thank you for the amazing video Dodie and Hedy's art is so amazing! <3

Sophia Swartbrick I really hope you can break free of whatever is keeping you from voicing your opinions! Someone who talks less, thinks more and more deeply. Amd I bet you have an awesome Angelina Jolie voice anyway. Best of luck.😊


I really hope the girl with the rainbow bag has seen this video <3


HOW IS THIS SO GOOD THE HANDS ARE SO GOOD AND AAAA THIS IS SO GOOOOOD. I LOVE IT!


Hedy is so talented, I love her so much ;) 💛


I LOVE YOUR ART STYLE <3

and i love you

I LOVE YOUR ART STYLE <3

and i love you


OMG WHAT I DID NOT KNOW HEDY WAS DRAWING I THOUGHT IT WAS YOU SHE IS SOOOOOOO TALENTED❤❤❤❤


This is so beautiful it makes me want to cry...


This was so beautiful. I love you Dodie. You are literally my everything and have changed my whole perspective on this crazy thing called "Life". My music taste is a collage of yours. Thank you so much for helping me get through so much, making me laugh, and making me feel a sense of comfort. You will always have a soft spot in my heart <3 Lots of love from an awkward, young girl, who thinks your awesome and brave :3


You honestly have the nicest voice ever.


Ever since 3rd grade I’ve never kept a friend for a long time. All of my friends would backstab me and be rude. It has left me with trust issues and being insecure... i was also popular, it was miserable cause I was a bully so I backed away but now I’m actually getting bullied...


I love this because everyone always talks about getting bullied
but no one ever talks about being the bully
I know loads of people who are similar (me being one)


Oh boy I can already tell this will make me emotional. I apologized to my bully two days ago and she apologized back. And honestly it felt like my pain was taken away a bit. I'm starting to get over those about 9 years of bullying that I didn't even realize was going on, I thought it was normal to be treated so poorly. It is not. I'm so sorry for anyone who has gone through bullying, we can make it through the past or the present ok. You are lovable. All of you. Thank you Dodie for making this video

rinofthemill I lied to them about a little thing and I was the one feeling as about it although it made no sense. So I decided that if I apologized first I had nothing to lose and they might also realize how wrong they'd done. A bad plan but it somehow worked out

Outo ninjalapsi Kana I wish you a bright future as well, thank you! I found it very interesting to hear that other people experience the same thing. I am much better now though I'm still not the most popular person. I wish there was no bullying but sadly people do not change so to everyone who is getting bullied: You are strong. You can do this. Don't let your bullies decide about your life and your future. I love you.

Leo Zebra oh my god that is really relatable while also being horrible. It's funny what our brains can do, I was humiliated in front of the whole school twice without even realizing. It's really good to know your not alone although no one probably wishes this upon anyone. Thank you for sharing your story, and I'm so sorry. I wish you a bright future.

Outo ninjalapsi Kana oh my god i relate too much to not really realizing being bullied. I was so used to being constantly laughed at and being left out that I thought it was normal. I was used to being the fat geeky kid who talked to the teachers more than to their classmates because bullies used every chance they got to call me names. I was used to spending recess alone in the library while the other kids played outside. I thought that was normal from grade 1 to 9. Only looking back I realize how terrible it was. I think that is a coping mechanism when your brain just cant bare the truth of the bullying and loneliness


Gosh darn it why do I have to cry every time I listen to this.


I'm literally standing on my couch wearing a zipped up hoodie with a coat hanger in the hood pretending to be a star I would love to know who this beautiful collage has come from


Is it bad that I laughed at dodecahedron

No, Dodie laughs at it too and it was her nickname XD

Zaina Soliman I did too friend, I did too.

That sounds like the best kind of nickname.

A dodecahedron is a 12 sided shape and DODEcahedron. But I interpreted that they called her it bc she was clever too and in primary school knowing what a nonagon or decagon or dodecahedron is was seen as clever and they called her it bc she was intelligent but also because of DODEcahedron, idk tho💛

Zaina Soliman I'm too slow to get it lmao help my poor soul

RIP ORIGINAL CLUBPENGUIN, YOU WILL BE MISSED

I did too... loving the club penguin icon except it's making me sad


Her voice is so calming I could listen to her voice while I fall asleep... I hope that didn't come off as creepy ^^;


I'm so confused, I have never experienced this bullying, I've never bullied or been bullied. Im not aware of any bullying happening at my school either. Perhaps I'm too nieve to notice


PLLLEEEAAASEEEEE do an audio book for Secrets For The Mad ! Your voice is really calming when I feel anxious or scared xox

Ellie Mason true. i love reading but i'd honestly rather listen to her voice.

Ellie Mason YES THAT WOULD BE AMAZING!!!


I never was bullied, neither do I get bullied, and I'm a pretty confident person, but I feel quite sorry for all those of you out there who are going through this every single day. I'm honestly envious of your strength if you keep up with it, and I honestly believe and hope that it will get better, everyone deserves to be happy without feeling a certain weight of fear or discomfort on your shoulders. Being bullied and insecure is a hard thing to go through, but I'm sure that ever single one of you can do it. I might be a complete stranger to you, who are reading this, but I still believe in you c:


The end killed me<br>Holy fuck I hope the girl with the rainbow bag sees it

The end killed me
Holy fuck I hope the girl with the rainbow bag sees it


I’m in this exact situation right now.  I’m bullied and laughed at so I bully and laugh back.  It’s gotten me in some trouble and if I don’t get some serious help soon I think I’m going to do something stupid or dangerous.  I want to be okay and I know it gets better but I just want it to be better now.


She can draw, sing, do creative writing and is pure.

People: The perfect person doesn't exi--

Me: Um ExCuSe Me!!!!

Actually the person drawing is her sister Heather!


I have never been bullied before. But I know what it feels like


I was bullied for 6 years straight. I was so sad all the time, and the same bully would really lower how I felt about myself. I used to have so much confidence, I was smart, and I felt like I was going to be amazing and stunning one day. Eventually, I started to feel like I was nothing, I was taking up space in the world. I felt like I didn't have the humor, confidence, and kindness I had before. I loved watching YouTube, I would come home, feeling like I was nowhere, and seeing people laugh on the screen made me laugh too. I one day felt like somebody, I was laughing and having so much fun. The day school came, the girl multiplied almost everyone in the school except my best friend. I didn't know anything was up, till people came up to me saying, "God! You know (Her name) told us so much about you! Get out of this world and school, you don't belong here!" I felt empty. I felt cold. I felt sad. And more importantly, worthless. I came home that day, and banged my head so hard, that I almost passed out. The next week, I was  assigned a new seat in class., and I met a guy. He was so sweet and enjoyed the things I liked, I eventually asked the teacher if I could sit next to him, and she said yes! He made me feel special, and told me one day he would get a computer to play online with me! Until one day he looked at me with voided eyes. I asked him what was wrong, he said this thing exactly, "I'm moving away to a different school, I'm sorry." I felt like I was falling and sinking at the same time. I said, "You are? Can you call me? Or text me? I can give you my phone number!" He told me he couldn't because he didn't have a phone, which explained a lot. Before that I met another guy, who played games with me, after the guy who I grew attached with left, I felt a void grow inside me. The guy I played with, he liked me... and I told him "No, I can't. I'm sad can't you see? He left me here in this school where everyone hates me! He had to move and I don't blame him, and your asking me to be your girlfriend? No, is my answer." He looked at me then left. The guy who was moving gave me one last smile, and I ran up and hugged him. I said, "Friends for life?" He replied, "Yes, friends for life." It gave me some time to here this and I felt happy for a minute. He hugged me and it felt so nice, but a part of me was voided. The next day, I was beat up. The guy who I rejected was upset, and would punch me and kick me and throw stuff at me. I felt worthless yet again, and so powerless. He was in wrestling and I was in nothing but sports. Day after day I was hurt, and nobody said a word. My fake bff (Not the one that I mentioned) would just scream my name. During that summer from all that pain I told her exactly what she was. Not my friend for not helping me. I would cry and go home early from school, and the next year was worse. He got another friend to hurt me, and if I wasn't getting hurt physically, I was emotionally getting hurt. I decided I had enough of the girl who started this, and made a YT account to go spread hate on her YouTube channel. My mom found out and made me take it down. I was a bully. A heartless person, my only question was, why? The next year we moved up, and it's been better. I forgave people who shouldn't have been forgiven. The people who beat me up, and the girl who ruined my life. I'm friends with them. And when I go up to my locker and see my Crush, he doesn't say anything, but I know he takes extra time at his locker, while I rush up to my locker and my BFF talks to me, and then leave because I know I'm going to say something stupid. I'm not voided or feel bad. My confidence is just starting up again, and when I look in the mirror now, I sometimes see my scars, but I also see me. After all this time it's still me. Littlemouse. I now draw and watch YouTube. I check twitter, and try to help the people who are giving me my confidence back. I enjoy other games then Minecraft and Roblox, I love UnderTale, and although I feel my bruises still, I do cry and think, I'm always going to be me, I'm always going to be Littlemouse. My parents are also helping my Confidence. They tell me when I grow up, I'm going to look like Jennifer Lopez. I don't really believe it but hey, it still helps. Thank you for the people who took the time to read this. Have a great day/night :)


wow your voice is so soothing and peaceful


Omg dodie no matter what you have done, just focus on the future, because you are such a good person. Ground yourself to what you love, not what you've done wrong. keep being strong, because ily so much. please live forever, you pure angel.


I had no idea Hedy could draw, what can't this girl do


I love your voice and
I love Hedy's art
<3


I personally believe that there are many girls with rainbow bags out there, and I can say will ful certainty, that at least one of them has seen this.


i can relate kinda...everyone was mean around me so i copied them and became one of them and got in a lot of trouble for it and i have to go to high school with them so you can imagine how they r now as they think there tuff and more important


I just typed an essay on my experience with bullies and how it's effected me. My laptop glitched and deleted it and I'm salty but I guess it was just a sign to not be annoying and stuff.

KZL no it wasn't it was probably just some test from the universe or something like that


I love her voice it reminds me of a movie I watched Anne Frank


This brings me back memories (haha I even cried. )


my insecurities through bullying has effected me in many ways because I like boring things and for my weight and how I look , nowadays it seems I cannot obtain at least one friendship without my thoughts thinking that everyone will one day hurt me just like the past. That is why I stick to having no friends..


I don't know if this is just something that doesn't happen where I live but there's never been  a situation like that in my school. if you don't like kids in my school you don't bully then you just avoid them.


i didnt cry the first dozens of times i watched this, but my eyes got teary wathing this for the seventh time today


I was bullied and was the bully too in elementary and I still guilt myself for it to this day. I’ve apologized to this girl in my head multiple times but it doesn’t change the feeling. And it affects me in my everyday life but I hope I can be like you someday. Elementary school was such a blur by now from me constantly trying to forget but I know I probably said some mean things and it wasn’t even to impress anyone it was just because I was mad and upset and picked up the bad things that were dished at me I guess.


"Drawn by..@its--"

"Please follow my sister, she's so incredibly talented--"

Me: HEDY


i was cyber bullied for a year and didn’t tell anyone until it got out of hand. 😔


1:58-2:31 .. every word of it legit describes me exactly


I can relate to everyone in this story. Both dodie and her side characters whether it was the name-callers or the girl with the rainbow bag. We can all make terrible decisions; being persuaded by society that it will make us a better person through the eyes of others or letting other people think that way. Decisions like that, though, shouldn't define who we are and or who we should become. Sure things may seem unforgivable, but it takes all kinds of truces, understandings, and mutual grounds to accept what was once was and shiz.

<3 from Oahu Hawaii

The Here and Nao Lol it was a midnight thought but you have no idea long it took for me to word this without getting out of hand. Thanks though! :D

a few months ago i took i made fun of a friend cos everyone else was, at the time i was going through some hard things and i was being bullied, i lost a friend and forever regret what i have done,i feel an enormous amount of guilt, i tried apologising but i got no response  i dunno what to do theres nothing for i can do