@Willian Dalsoto dodie rewatches her own videos, so op is saying that she will come back to this when she is feeling sad and watch it and hopefully remember that she'll feel better again. It's like a note to herself in video form
This time last year I was in the worst depressive episode I have ever been in. I was totally convinced that I would be depressed and suffering for the rest of my life and that I did not deserve to be happy. I was either crying or staring at a wall 24/7. I barely ate and I felt SO so alone. The most alone I’ve ever felt. A lot has changed since then. I decided I needed to move back home for a while. It has its challenges, but it’s nice. I’ve got a new job, I’ve made some new friends. I’m going to Cornwall next week. And for the first time in a year, I feel excited and hopeful for the future. One year ago I thought I may as well be dead. But now I am happy, and I know good things are coming. Things DO get better friends. I promise they do. If you told me that this time last year I wouldn’t have believed you. But now I know that joy DOES find its way back home into your soul eventually :)
I am well and I wake up smiling The light in my room looks good today That plant is happy, could do with some water, so could I I quench Mr. Plant and then myself with a big cool glass because we deserve it. Breakfast looks yellow, red, green, tasty, gooey, crunchy. This blanket is very soft. Greta looks beautiful today and I love the way she smiles as if she’s trying to show every tooth. I open a window and I thank god for her beauty. Maybe I’ll call a friend, maybe I’ll have a bath or paint. I’m pleased to be here.
here's the transcript if it helps! um. so when I’m going through a depresssive episode my brain tells me to write down notes to convince myself that this is the truth like everything is bad and nothing is worth it and I just realised like… I’m not depressed at the moment like my mood has been so up for the past few months
Which is wild cause in like January I was sick with depression like I would sit in the dark because i couldn’t see the point in turning on a light
Anyway. I thought I’d try and capture this nice mood as a way to prove to my brain that you don’t have to be depressed (A note - this works individually- for me I know for myself that slipping into bad brain habits and patterns and cycles can make me feel bad so I need to try a little harder to feel gratitude and look after myself) (which is difficult when you’re depressed ) (and future me who is depressed I know it’s more complicated than that - i dont know what situation you’re in right now this is just a reminder that life is very very long and this feeling cant last forever it has an end and can result in something like this!) i wrote this as a way to try and communicate it
I am well and I wake up smiling The light in my room looks good today. That plant is happy. Could do with some water. So could I! I quench mr plant and then myself with a big cool glass because we deserve it. Breakfast looks yellow, red, green, tasty, gooey, crunchy. This blanket is very soft. Greta looks beautiful today and I love the way she smiles as if she’s trying to show every tooth. I open a window and I thank god for her beauty. Maybe I’ll call a friend. Maybe I’ll have a bath. Or paint. I’m pleased to be here.
That all might sound a bit fuckin Disney princessy but it’s just so interesting to live in this truth of like I’m good! Everything is pretty nice. Everything is an opportunity. And I could look deeper but why would I want to ruin this nice mood. I have dark shit all around me to worry about all the time it’s not going anywhere and feeling awful literally doesn’t help anyone. My friend Adam says that everything is always a conversation away and that really soothes my anxiety. :) :D
If you’re in the hole, I know it well, and I’m sorry :( try being kind to yourself. Don’t feel bad if you can’t get here immediately you have to take it baby step by baby step and it’s not a smooth journey you know its up and down all over the place but try and Find one tiny tiny tiny thing you’re grateful for. My mum calls it a positive pot. and the end of the day collect your positive pot and have a look at it. That pile will grow, if you feed it. I promise. okay! just feeling nice. feels nice to feel nice and you know i dont wanna concentrate on it too hard - i dont wanna be happy i dont wanna be sad i just wanna be! you know? just be. okay. okay bye. Gret just showed me The orange. that sounds weird. every tooth.
hey, i know you’ve tried everything and nothing seems to work but i promise GOD can heal you and be the answer to your problems. HE designed us in a way that only HE can fill the void within, but despite that, we still run to things that actually destroy the body and soul. alcohol/drugs/weed etc - liver damage, brain damage, cancer, lowers your ‘vibrations’, alters your state of mind and become entranced, invites evil entities. partying/clubbing - drains the soul of energy, invites evil entities. sexual activities (sex,porn) - leaves you empty, disgusted with self, shameful, creates soul ties (e.g. 10 bodies = 10 soul ties with each individual you had sex with including oral, and whichever evil spirits they have, they become yours also), invites evil entities. secular music - affects your subconscious by its frequency, invites evil entities. i know you believe in a higher power but maybe you just don’t know who that higher power is, but imma tell you that it’s GOD. not no religion, that’s man made, but the creator of the heavens and the earth. you can get to know HIM today. you can begin your journey of faith & spirituality. all you need to do is to ask for forgiveness and accept JESUS as your messiah. once you do that, the Holy Spirit will guide you into all truth. the veil will be lifted 👁 and the truth shall set you free. you’ll become awakened into the reality of this world.. the irreversible gene altering vaccines, the poisoned food and water supply, the 5G frequency manipulation, the government and their agendas, big pharma, truth behind social media, fake news, freemasonry, satanic cabal elites, the pope and religion, the flat stationary earth, the nasa space hoax, the truth behind school and why they indoctrinate us at a young age, the truth behind 9 to 5 jobs, the live to work until death regime, heaven & hell, the spiritual realm where demonic entities and angels operate and all things spiritual. there’s a lot to uncover, unlearn and unpack but the journey to salvation is narrow and only a few make it. choose which pill you will take - the blue pill (accept your fate and live life as it is, walk in the wide path of destruction which many are on) or the red pill (awake to this satanic matrix beast system, walk in the narrow path with CHRIST as your light, lose friends and validation but gain the reward of everlasting life in heaven) .. it’s up to you.
"I'm pleased to be here". A small, simple sentence. And yet it bears so much weight. For us depressed people it's not an easy one. It's a thought that hardly ever crosses our mind. In fact the thoughts that invade our brain are usually the exact opposite. I don't wanna be here. I'm tired. Nothing makes sense. And yet here you are. Saying you're pleased to be here. Living proof that it doesn't always have to be that way. I'm so glad you're happy and able to see the good things in your life. I hope I can get there at some point, it's been quite hard for a long time. I love you. Thank you for this little snippet in your good mood. It makes me happy to know you feel better like it would knowing a friend is doing better. Hope it goes on, god knows you deserve it. ❤️
This may seem rather silly, but I've been going through a depressive episode too. I'm still a teenager so I don't have as many responsibilities as you or other people who might be reading, but it's still hard sometimes. I think right now I'm in that kind of mood you described and this video helped me not to ruin it by anxiously dwelling and questioning. Thank you so much Dodie, I hope you're doing well :) (I also hope it's not weird that I used your name)
Honestly, I think it is very hard in teenage years as well, as you also are less aware of yourself and things that may help you. At least it was like that for me, so please don’t underestimate your pain, depression is not nice for everyone and you deserve to express your hurt even if someone else is suffering more. Just wanted to check in because it sounds very like something I would say and I was neglecting my pain for a long time. And it is something I would really need to hear. Hope it helps. Sending love and support 💖
I honestly think my depression as a pre teen and teenager was so much harder because I was still so young and much to young to know how to cope with such big emotions my best train of thought it poem or what ever to stop myself from that kind of thinking was “it doesn’t matter if you are drowning in a 7 meter deep pool or in an 11 meter deep pool after a certain point the depth of the water beneath you doesn’t matter anymore that pool could be a 100 meters deep and you wouldn’t suddenly be drowning any harder then you already are you’d still just be drowning, people drown in puddles and they are still just as drowned as the person that drowned in an ocean saying you shouldn’t be drowning because the person next to you is in a much deeper pool won’t change the fact that in your very own pool you are drowning so don’t focuse on how deep or not deep the water is beneath you focus on keeping your head above the water, focus on staying alive”
updating my dodie help playlist after this, that old video is almost like a comfort video for me, and including this one, i might feel better, thank you dodie and to you for reminding me
I developed a habit of counting as many of the little good things as I can, even if they're not my things. It's amazing how counting all the little good things can eventually add up to build up memories of good feelings. Love the yellow nails!
The Orange is one of my favorite poems. It’s so grounding to just sit back and think that I love you, I’m glad I exist. Another poem I love with a similar, although sadder energy is the Two-Headed Calf by Laura Gilpin. There is love and wonder always, no matter what lies ahead. Even if we can’t see it now, it will be there, eventually.
hi, dodie. thank you for sharing this. thank you for sharing "the orange" too. i feel this very deeply: the dark times, but also the times where you can exist without overanalyzing that basic source of life that keeps you alive (you know, when it's not so heavy just to be a human being in the world) and find joy in the small things. it feels comforting to know someone else feels it too :)
The poem you wrote reminds me of something I started, called a "happiness journal". I just take notes of all the tiny things in life that make me smile even just a little bit.
"greta looks beautiful today, and i love the way she smiles as if she's trying to show every tooth" that's probably the loveliest way i've heard someone describe a smile
This is honestly a great idea dodie! I'm gonna try something like this soon to try and convince my brain that even if I'm feeling low, there's always a high to come. :) thank you dodie
Literally saw this as I was wondering how to fight this depressive episode. My A level results are looming and I'm so sad all the time. And yet I have incredible friends and family, my boyfriend is wonderful and physically I'm very healthy. My anxiety was getting so much better and now I'm being treated both for that AND depression. I'm stuck right now. But I won't always be.
You educated so much on depression and depersonnalisation and what they meant! My best friend has BLD and suffers so violently from it, and I would always send her your songs or videos when i felt like what she had was similar to some of the things you said. And now, I am so glad I can send her this one, and that it's not just me being hopelessly positive : it can get better❤❤❤
The orange is my favourite poem in the world (literally have a tattoo planned around it) I was about to comment to go read it then the end happened and I died laughing
I keep forgetting that i bought tickets for me and my girlfriend for your Montréal show in February and i get excited all over again every time, i am looking forward to see you and hear you sing live.✨
Being in an awful place currently, I can't relate to any of the positive parts in this. BUT I know, logically, that I'll feel like that again some day. I know it's possible, and even very very likely, that I'll wake up feeling okay again one day. Even if I don't feel the hope right now, I'm at least trying to feel it, and believe in it.
I'm grateful for my crazy neighbour lady who kept us afloat during the most financially difficult times and I'm even more grateful for the opportunity to repay that kindness
THIS IS THE VERY BEST IDEA THANKEE FOR DOING IT. Imma keep responding so I can keep seeing people's responses and because gratitude is always good. That said. I'm grateful that tis not the season right now because I get the big SAD (seasonal affective disorder) from Oct to Feb so I'm grateful that I get to enjoy this part of the year while it's still here...
I’m grateful that my plants are growing tons of new leaves because it means they’re happy and I’m grateful that the sauce I made for my dinner was delicious!
I'm grateful for one of my best friends, they make me feel warm and happy. I'm grateful for the sunshine, and window seats, and cups of coffee. I'm grateful for the small bits of light I get in my day, and that I'm starting to wake up feeling hopeful.
i'm grateful for the fact that i made a friend laugh!
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Mayo Sauce2021-07-15 01:55:27 (edited 2021-07-15 01:58:03 )
I’m grateful for the sun, even though I’ve taken on the task of cleaning my room entirely and I don’t really go outside, when I wake up and see my room bright with sunlight it just fills me with a sense of “today is going to be a good day” vibes.
I’m also grateful for the motivation I’ve had to take on that task, which came out of nowhere (but was welcomed with open arms)
I'm grateful for all of your responses and that you're all sharing your gratitude. From smol things to big, it's important to be grateful for all or any of it. I'm grateful for the Internet and the Algorithm and for you.
i am definitely in The Hole atm but these videos over the past few days and listening to bap have definitely been a little bit of positivity so thank you :)
This wonderful video makes me want to share a technique of my own: I used to be a leader for a body positivity group and one of the things that always stuck to me that we did was going up to a mirror, looking yourself in the eye, and saying "I love you." The first time I did, I found it... weirdly difficult. But it gave me a chance to really just look me for me. It's definitely not an instant revitalizer, but it's something I try to remind myself of every now and again when those intrusive thoughts pop up.
The way you and your friends love each other brings tears to my eyes. I'm so happy you have ppl around you who see your light, even when you feel it's dimming. ✨💜✨
When the washer came on and laid that sick beat I laughed SO HARD that all the heavy feelings I've felt today seemed to fall away... Thank you Dodie, enjoy just being :)
“And I could look deeper but why would I want to ruin this nice mood.” You have put into words something I do to myself constantly. I think this a sentence I need to repeat to myself whenever I’m feeling good
I’ve written my thoughts of gratitude in my notes during times I realized I hadn’t been feeling depressed for a while. Times when I’m back in that depressive state I look back at those notes and at first it kinda feels like talking to someone who isn’t depressed and doesn’t get it but it’s just yourself, of course she gets it! I just look at it as a reason to keep going because I won’t always be feeling depressed :)
I’m so happy that you’re doing better. This video made me feel better. I’ve been very sad for a very long time, but this video changed my perspective on the world. Thank you.
I'm happy you're feeling better at the moment. Having this to remind your future self seems like a good idea. Your honesty about how you feel is really helpful, thank you.
i've been trying to be kind to myself these past few days. it actually feels so nice. this video is a perfect way to describe my journey at the moment but not quite completely there yet, which is fine :) love u dodie, & thanks for this vid xx
i'm having an anxiety episode since yesterday and it just hurts and the spiraling is being super hard to control but thank you dodie, i know this is for you but helped me
I’m so happy for you Dodie I am going through a nice light mood right now and it feels very powerful, thank you for talking about it with such gratitude it helps me realize why these times are so important
i love that i watched this on therapy day, where i kept saying how... here i am. not entirely happy, not entirely sad or any other complex emotion. just glad to be here! thank you for sharing such a beautiful feeling, hope you have a bunch more of these types of days in your life. also, greta, i love her smile!!! makes me feel validated bc i also smile like i'm trying to show my entire set of teeth. <3
thank you so much for giving me some motivation, even your songs give me a little sun on pretty dark days. anndd!! i love how you share when you’re happy!! thank youu, it’s really nice to see someone happy :) hope you continue to do well!
ive been watching you since i was in 7th grade, and now I'm starting my first year at college (so that's around 5/6 years now!!) and you've helped me so much with my mental health. and I will watch this video over and over whenever i am not feeling so well. thank you so much Dodie <3
I love how you take note of how everything feels (the lights, food, etc.) ! The very fact that you notice it means that derealization is far away :) Good for grounding :))
I’m sooo happy for you!! Thats so amazing that you got out of that. I want to figure out how to get out of this cycle too. Also ur skin is so clear ugh goddess
I saw your Instagram story and I read the poem to my friend and we started crying together. It was short but it had such a powerful meaning. Thank you for sharing it:)
A quote I love from a meditation teacher I adore named Shawnta Valdes is, “Right now, it’s like this”. I cling to this mantra when I’m feeling my depression the most. Thank you for your vulnerability. I see you and I appreciate you.
I just got out of therapy and my therapist just used those exact words of seeing things as opportunities and feeling gratitude… I feel really seen by this ❤️
that was a bit lovely. i think I’ve just realised that one of my favourite things ever is hearing people talk about their friends in a lovely way. makes my heart go pitter patter pitter patter
The moment you started reading the piece you wrote I started crying. Thank you so much for this. Throughout your time on YouTube, and the years I've followed you, you've been so open and true. You have no idea how much that has helped people feel less alone. Thank you so, so much. You deserve every happiness, and you deserve your own patience and compassion whenever tough times decide to linger about.
been binge watching all of your older videos on here and it’s been such a comfort since i am now 20 like you were at the time. so happy to see how far you’ve come. <3
finally feeling okay makes me look back and realize a big part of feeling in a rut is how I treat myself, so from here on out I'm doing my best to be kind to me.
u have seemed a lot more joyful recently, i’m so happy for u
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sophie vega2021-07-15 15:28:52 (edited 2021-07-15 15:30:41 )
so happy that you’re feeling well, dodes xoxo. love u. i’m in the hole rn. listened to BAP and Human in the ER last night. very calming. thx!! be well <33
Ugggh that cut so deep, I love it!! I am pleased to be here, whether here right now is difficult or not, I’m still pleased to be here! For all the pain and heartache I suffer, I’m still pleased to be here. For the moments I could have missed, for the people I almost didn’t meet. For my nephew and niece who I would have missed loving and teaching, I am so so pleased to be here!!
Dodie you are the reason I’m not depressed (as much) ⟟ honestly love your vibe and your music your so beautiful and such a pure person…. ⟟ love you so much <3
Happiness can be contagious, hope it helps you in the future :) also, just noticed that your eyes are a very pretty colour of brown, something I didn't notice before :)
The other day my partner of nearly 5 years decided we should split and I honestly felt I'd lost everything, I felt there was no point going on if I can't be with him forever. I haven't accomplished anything In my life as I wasn't able to stay in school (mental illness, not behaviour) and I have had no friends since being with him because of past toxic friendships holding me back from being social. The only people I could talk to where his friends and my own parents, sisters. I feel like I've lost everything. But you give me hope Dodie, along with my family you'll be helping me through this shit time I'm in for. I truly love you Dodie, thank you. ❤️ (The only thing I'm looking forward to this year is seeing you for the 3rd time in Manchester I can't wait to see you again)
thank you for sharing your emotions with us, good or bad. I've learned it helps when those bad thoughts have a place to go other than your mind- usually a good cry is helpful but if you can muster a conversation, a journal, or another form of art, it is quite therapeutic. <3
this makes me so happy. i’ve been doing so good lately. it got bad again for a few days but i got out of it quicker than i thought. winter was the hardest time of my life and i’m glad to be past it. the warmer months are really helping. it’s just peaceful which is all i really want. am im super excited to actually be able to see family during the colder months to come. and to do festive things with them. i think part of what made me spiral before was not having things to do or look forward to it people to be around. and now i do. 💗💗💗
the first time i read the orange i was immediately hit with this wave of contentedness, it’s so nice to see it have that same impact for others <3 “i love you. i’m glad i exist.” always gets me.
i think i might have to start leaving "proof" for myself that i can have good days. for now, i will just sit with your proof because i need it at the moment. so thank you. and i hope it helps dodie-in-the-future. i hope you feel loved <3 also the orange is one of my favourite poems
Paul Roberts2021-11-02 10:21:01 (edited 2021-11-05 18:37:48 )
I live with depression every day. And I struggle each and every day.. Dodie’s music gives me moments of joy every day. Greta is beautiful every day. Videos like this give me hope. Dodie and Greta deserve to be worshipped by their those they adore.
I absolutely second this feeling. It's so important! As someone who is also a little bit depressive-y, I was really happy today and it felt so crazy and wild, but it also felt right! Sitting in our rooms, smiling alone because we can is the absolute best feeling, to me.
I'm grateful for the warmth your smiles brought and that you swore and my life is honestly complete because I haven't heard you swear before and for some reason the first few times I hear people swear it makes me giggle. I'm glad your feeling good 🧡🧡🧡
After watching almost all your videos I can say I'm platonically in love with you. I wish you the best, you are a warm light in most of my dark days and I thank you for that.
This was such a wonderful thing to wake up to. (coming from someone currently in the hole.) You are such a kind and understanding person, Dodie, and I hope you remember that.
As someone familiar with the bottom of that well, this is so delightful to see, dodie! 😊 No matter how many times we might fall in, there's always sunlight at the top ☀ P.s. Speaking of beautiful poems, my favourite is "The Starfish Poem". Not sure why, but reading it makes the world feel that bit warmer during a dip.
you’re right with the ‘not looking too deeply into it’ part. the thing i’ve realised is that it’s nice to be happy as you are now, and you don’t need to be terrified of going back down again. i’ve not had anywhere near as bad an experience as you, i dont have depression, but you know, everyone goes through something. i’m happy you’re doing well dodie, for someone who fills everyone else’s lives with light, it’s good you have light to give yourself too (: the future may knock you down again, and that’s okay, because like you said, life is long, and you will rise up once more.
AHHH I've been in the hole for quite a few days now (possibly weeks? haven't been counting) and I only just started thinking about climbing out maybe a couple of hours ago and this perspective means a lot to me rn, thank you so much for this Dodie!!!
I have been doing this same thing for the past few weeks. trying so hard to fight bad patterns and spiral thinking. It truly takes time and not reading too deep into things. Just letting everything slide to protect my own mental.
when i was at my lowest in highschool i made a habit of writing down every little thing that made me happy in a day, even if it was only for a moment. it was all pretty minor stuff, like a rain storm, or a cat i met on a walk, or just something dumb my friend said, but it gave me something physical i could look back on so the days didn't seem so dreary. esp w/ my adhd, it helped me remember the little sparks of light in my life. i'm so grateful that i've gotten to a point where i don't need to do that anymore to remember the good things, that i'm finally in a place where it's all around me. i've /built/ a place where it's all around me
Oof. A lot of hard important stuff in there. Years of therapy and meds, and I still lapse sometimes. It's so hard to remember a lot of this when you're in the hole. Saving this video to help remind me of these things later. Thanks <3
Dodie.. you wont see this. But i want u to know how much impact you and your work and your platform have done for me. You inspired me to do... anything. I picked up a ukulele and learned music because of your songs. You helped me realize that I was bi and embrace that part of me. And now, as i ride a wave of depression, you give me hope that there is land that i can walk on again. Thank you, dodie. For being part of my growth all this time.
I used to work at a psych hospital for teens and I would do absolutely anything to be able to go back and show them this. It's so hard to see a happy future when you're in the trenches but it's times like what you showed here that give me so much hope for them.
1) this is lovely 2) the orange is such a good poem that i did a poetry project on the entire book that it's from and honestly? still my favourite poem of hers but the rest are a fun mix of cynical and comedic. very big fan of Wendy Cope now
I’ve been struggling to comprehend the fact that I’m doing okay right now. it’s weird to think that just a few months ago I was in such a bad place and now I can get out of bed without thinking about it. I’m doing okay and it’s okay if this doesn’t last forever. seasons change. God is with us through it all.
I was at the lowest point in my life and was very depressed during quarantine but now I'm better. I've been better for a few months and I'm proud. Sometimes I feel like I have to be depressed for some reason. But yeah. Thank you dodge, your music was one of the only things that got me through covidm
Also ignore my pfp it was a dare from my friend XD
holy shit i felt the exact same thing today. ive only felt okay for a few days this past week, but this time around i've been writing down my thoughts in permanent ways (texting or social media or even this comment) so that i have inarguable proof of moments that made me happy that i was alive to experience them. i love you dodie, you being open about ur human struggles has always been so comforting and inspiring to me.
Actually, that was a very true expression of hope. There’s no need for cheesy or overblown “all you need to do to feel better is change yourself” type messages or inspirational quotes. It’s sweet without being saccharine. Beautiful Dodie 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
I've been struggling with anxiety for the past year, and it's felt like such a cloud of feeling nothing but anxiety and dread. But I feel like I've been doing better these past couple months. Sometimes the cloud lifts all the way and I feel surges of joy for the people around me, and sometimes it lifts just enough that I can get the motivation to write and paint again. I remember being so afraid that life was always going to be foggy and horrible and unknown, but now (though still a bit unknown) I feel better equipped to get through it. The gratitude poem was so lovely, I might do something similar for myself.
I was in the hole not long ago, and you're so right. My baby steps were calling my mum, spending time with one friend at a time until it was all of them, baking a cake, and meditating. I'm on the tail end of a bad mood that lasted too long and I'm feeling very grateful. I love your vids! and keep well, whoever is reading this! 💓
During my particularly rough depressive episodes, my trick is to always challenge myself to come up with something to laugh about. Whether it be singing in a stupid voice or remembering a specific moment to find the funny of it, I end up remembering that while my feelings in the moment are valid and that my depression isn't going to last, I come to realize once more that depression, sadness, and life in general isn't a death sentence. Depression definitely hurts and I outright envy those that claim to never experience it, but at least within its dark familiarity I can still find that glowing ember of memory that I'm a big, goofy dork and people do love, have loved, and will love me for that...but most importantly, I can love myself for that too.
“it’s not going anywhere” is really comforting to hear actually. like i have time to feel bad about things, and that time doesn’t have to be right now.
I felt every. ounce. of. this. with my soul. Right now is the first time in a very long time where I feel so light, peaceful, appreciative of life. I know difficult things are bound to happen but I feel brave enough to conquer them. Sunsets are so beautiful, I can’t believe we get to have them every day. I don’t feel worried about wondering when I’ll find the right person, because I know as long as I don’t lose myself, the right people will always find their way in at the beautiful right moments. My future feels exciting instead of daunting, and my heart doesn’t hurt. I want to stay in this feeling forever. I hope that by writing this and watching your video it will help me remember to try and hold onto this feeling, or at least have a record of it being possible when it can’t help but slip away for a minute... Thank you for all the things you create Dodie, I love each and every one of them with such an appreciation, you touch my heart and always tug at my emotions so well (in the way that feels good and cathartic) and I’m so glad I’ve been lucky enough to meet you and tell you this a few years back. It all never changes even as you and I do ❤️ xx Emma
thisll probably be a video i watch to remind myself of the lil things & that it does get better. Thank you. :) also i have never heard of that poem i will read it now
i love you so much trying to focus on breaking the negative cycles in our lives when it's the least we could do at the moment is the least can do. life isn't alwaays as bad. we will get through this
This video has brought me such joy. I am glad you are not depressed at the moment. I hope that when the big sad returns, you can face it with a strength of resolve that will carry you back here swiftly!
You keep going and then all of a sudden you forget about how you were before and you’re like “oh wait it’s not shit, when did that happen” and it’s really important to look back at the steps you took to get there and then you’re like “wait I’m kind of amazing”
OMG I wrote a song about that exact feeling of sudden hapiness after a long dark phase... I hope it reaches your ears when it comes out by the end of the year when I release my EP :)
I think Dodie was the one who first made me realize that it's okay to accept your mental health issues and get help and be open about it rather than ashamed. To think I found her over a tea video and she changed my journey with mental health.
You are not alone. Thank you because you are helping me with my depression and now getting divorced. Your music your voice your words all are appreciated. Thank you!
You're such an inspiration to many, I bet. I'm glad people like you share your stories, they can be very insightful. I love that you came to this realization and shared it with us. Imagine what it would be like if you could put all the happy memories pasted like post-its, all around your mind. And then, burn (or gently discard or lock up somewhere safe) the ones that came from the dark side.
i loved the idea to look at yourself the way you did with the planet, saying to the plant that looks good in the morning and taking care of it. thanks for this i'm gonna try it in my depressed mornings
Such a great reminder that everything is temporary. Happiness is temporary but so is sadness. No matter how low you feel, things will change because life is transient ❤️. Thank you for posting this I am so sure it has reached a lot of people who need it today
i know that i can get to this point one day, and i am over the moon that you have. what a nice thought to think that i could feel contentment again. i will hold on to it tightly
Dearest Dodie, I seldom comment videos from anyone, but my heart feels your struggle. I have battled depression and PTSD from my service in the military. Everyday is a challenge, but like you I have found what works for my mental state too. I hope your own words of encouragement can reach Future Dodie when she needs it the most.
Future Dodie, please listen to the Dodie in this video. She knows what she's talking about. Everything will be okay.
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had a conversation with my psychiatrist a few days ago that just left me feeling utterly hopeless and defeated. you know what i mean? the medicine helps in some ways but its weird and incomplete and i still dont feel good. it's hard to articulate. i dont believe in or deserve happy, but you're right that just being is okay and good. gotta remember that. thanks for the reminder today
My data is refreshing in 2 hours and I’m very glad I’m spending the rest of it watching Dodie 🥰🥰. I’m also not depressed and pretty happy at the moment and it’s weird if you think too hard about it but very nice just to be :) thank u dodie
currently feeling void and a bit empty uhhhh BUT. im happy you are in a good place rn. it makes me happy to remember that life just is that way sometimes and u just gotta wait for the good feelings. may that be all of us sometime soon.
🤍 commenting in the hopes that you see this, I’m seeing you in September and I’m so fucking excited and I love you a lot, thank you for your music and your honesty and your happiness, proud of you for doing well, you’re killing it at ‘mo 🤍
Thank you for shoeing us that it is ok, to not be ok, to struggle and to look on the bright side. Thank you for showing us, that it is ok to be soft towards oneself <3
I struggle with "Oh I am nearly 23 - I should be """over""" it by now. And I am a """failure""'" for not being."
The thinking that led to the happiest and most content moments in my life was the accaptance that it might be impossible to ever be """over""" it. It will always have affacted my life, my growing up. There is time, I have lost - or maybe I haven't. I have lived. In my way.
Thank you, Dodie, for showing us that soft is stable and strong <3
I felt the light in your room and the colors of the breakfast and the softness of your blanket... Very beautifully put. Today I am grateful for how wholesome dodies videos are.
"I'd take my positive pot and smash it into shards, then use said shards and violently shank all of my enemies. From the first body I'd harvest the bones to make a handle. You know to make it easier for myself." Kai 14th July 2021.
I think you're awesome Dodie, your love, passion, rage and beauty isn't a depression. Its choice that stems from your life, your love and your potato waffles, toilet roll, ham. Shit I did this with Gwen, I keep getting my fricking shopping list spliced in with my youtube comments.
What I mean is, your not broken or bruised. You shine which means you notice the dark. Both of which give choice. Choice thats seen from our own perspective not from the dictation of others. If you feel blue, I want you to know that I love you Dodie and I think you're awesome. Thank you for being you.
i know a bunch of ppl may be with me on this one but i need to externalize this feeling anyway.
I feel like I've grown right beside u: I have been watching your lil vlogs and songs since I was 15/16. Now that I'm 21 going on 22 I have this soothing knowing that you were my comfort (artist) for most of my teen years. I started feeling depressed (having depression also) right about the time u came out with 'down' and i listened to it every night to not feel alone. Now after years of therapy and healing I'm right here beside you too: I feel good, I feel happy, life has meaning after all. And this made me cry a lot, cuz it's come full circle. I may be one of your 'daughters' but I feel at peace knowing that you continue to have that special sisterly place i always held for u. You helped me feeling at home and you continue to do it. So thank you and i luv u💘
I saw someone who looked JUST like you in Glasgow today (as in-- I was staring at them for way to long as we walked past each other) and the thought that went through my head was 'but dodie has covid????'
Sometimes slipping into depressive episodes for me is quite gradual, and I tend to realize that I’ve been in a bad place mentally during those more brief moments of clarity where I notice the little things. Gosh there’s a lot of leaves on those trees, that breeze is so comforting, what a nice sound that makes. Sort of like getting new glasses after awhile of wearing an old prescription. You realize just how blurry and dull you’re daily experiences have been recently when you can suddenly feel them more fully and notice the details. I also tend to not listen to much music when I’m not doing well, and only realize once I have a small craving for a certain sound that I haven’t turned on a song in awhile. Lately it’s been your album that bridges that gap for me, so that’s something I’m grateful for. I hope you’re able to rewatch this video now in Feb 2022 while you’re going through some things and remind yourself that contentment is in your future still, as it always has been. Take care, dodie.
if anyone is struggling w/ anxiety or depression, writing in a gratitude journal on your phone at the end of the day can be so rewarding. eventually your pile will grow and the regular little things you've never felt gratitude toward will show up in your journal eventually.
I have a life long policy to examine why I’m feeling irritable, anxious, or angry AND to accept every happy, content, and peaceful moment as the joy it is without questioning it. I’m blessed.
I haven't been depressed for a long time now. And what got me out of it the last few times was trying to remember that I have had a lot of beautiful and good moment in life before life is long odds are I will have more of them. typing this I realize how hard it is to get to that kind of thinking while being in the blackwhole of insignificant. But like Dodie did it's good to make physical reminders for yourself. Be safe, take care and know that you are loved.
funny cause I'm feeling rather well too at the moment when only two days ago I wanted to just stop existing. I still do, but today i can also see the reasons why i am hanging around here and waiting to see what each day is gonna bring
This will be weird but ever since you made video where you were depressed and made those bean snacks I started to eat them as well and everytime I watch you're videos I have to pause it, make tea and microwave beans :) its dumb but brings me comfort
I think that was a brave ( bravey alexi papas)video. You had a tough week so that’s impressive! The comments have been nice! It always worth mentioning accessing support with mental health is always good be it friends family professional or a good psychotherapist. Gratitude is good 👍
What do you do, when you feel like you’re surrounded by death, or can only imagine death? In my case, my pets are old, or the ones that have passed recently. It’s all I can think about for years. I wish I could stop thinking about impending doom for us all. Sorry if this is too deep 🙃
Dear Dodie, as a musician who has battled depression for at least 60 of my 78 years, I find this vid refreshing and wonderfully positive. I've been watching quite a few of your vids, I like very much your songs. My favourite watch at the moment is ' Monster', particularly the version with other favourites, Pomplamoose, although the original, with the band, is really charming, and, should I say 'skippy'? Yes, that'll do it! Also, I've just been finishing a guitar kit, in... orange, and her name shall be 'Mandarina', because that's what I want :)) Keep up the wonderful work. Rich :)
Do you think self isolating (being trapped in an apartment) will make you go backwards? I had covid and I had to stay in my room, no human contact lol and it impacted my physical and mental health severely. I should be more positive, do you have any ways you'll look after yourself while in this lil predicament?
it is such a breath of fresh air coming out of that pit and seeing the world through the eyes of a child and being excited about life again. It happens very seldomly for me nowadays, but i cherish the times when it does happen. i am happy to see that you are feeling happy right now, and i am thrilled to hear that you have been feeling happy for the last several months. cheers, love! ♥
n. the moment you realize that you’re currently happy—consciously trying to savor the feeling—which prompts your intellect to identify it, pick it apart and put it in context, where it will slowly dissolve until it’s little more than an aftertaste.
From the dictionary of obscure sorrows. I thought this was perfect for this video😔
If you had written that bit about being depressed and sitting in the dark because you see no point in turning on the light in a high school English class, chances are the teacher probably would have told you that the metaphor is too on the nose 😂
Incase this is useful to anyone, I recoomend an app called Presently, it's like a super minimal gratitude journal, I like to use it to list as many things as I can think of that I've appreciated or been amused by in the day. On good days I capture my abundance, on bad days i embrace the challenge of squeezing out a silver lining. It's nice to know I have that little pocket of joy on my phone for me. Peace ✌
I'm saying this just to say it - not because of anything said in the video. We do a disservice to ourselves when we think our good-brain days are luck or effortless. All the heart-heavy days are the emotional work that make the good days happen. It's not "choosing happiness."
my dad doesn't let me paint my nails and they made get rid of the color and here i was thinking i would never see that nail polish color again and you appear with the Exact same yellow oh my gawd that made me so happy
Follow those positive brain pathways. In every situation there is a positive and a negative way to look at it. Seems obvious…but the brain’s pathways are like a muscle, and the more you exercise a positive or negative outlook, the stronger those pathways get in every situation. I have slipped down the negative pathways many times (it’s much easier to strengthen the negative pathways unfortunately), but for a few years now I’ve managed to avoid it through a consistent conscious effort to always consider the positive, and be aware that some things just aren’t worth thinking about (those things that show bias towards the negative). So glad to hear that you have got out of the negative pathway! Keep building the positive outlook on everything and if you feel yourself slipping, just keep working on it in your mind; it has the ability to conquer!
At lunchtime I bought a huge orange—
The size of it made us all laugh.
I peeled it and shared it with Robert and Dave—
They got quarters and I had a half.
And that orange, it made me so happy,
As ordinary things often do
Just lately. The shopping. A walk in the park.
This is peace and contentment. It’s new.
The rest of the day was quite easy.
I did all the jobs on my list
And enjoyed them and had some time over.
I love you. I’m glad I exist.
You cannot stagnate in one emotion only all your lifu. When you resist feeling unpleasant emotions, you resist a part of yourself. But just because you push yourself away, doesn't mean this could work any time for long. It might stack up. Until it crumbles.
Point being, you cannot fulfill your younger self's promise. At least not 24/7. Maybe you apologise to each other that you aren't capable of keeping that promise and dissolve it. You could also replace it with a renewed one, that is actually doable. Like, you'll keep flowing with the current of life to the best of your abilities, so that you can bask in the sunshine of happhapp as often as possible. <3
There's not anything 'Disney princessy' about your projection. Its ... * Wize * Informed * Life-embrasing
But most of all, it's true! We humaaaans tend to forget our most present fallacy, to think we see all that is. The truth is that we see very little. The numerous positive available observations are more present than we see ... and tend to be forgotten because of our tendency to confirm the negative.
There are always 10 times more positive than we see, even when we':re happy!
@Lunatic girl playlists It's clear you can read, you picked up almost everything that my name and picture make obvious. Don't stop, I'm so enjoying the comedy.
can someone help me? i can't have access to professional help but i persevere.
i know i should take it slow when dealing with depressive episodes but when i'm depressed, there is an obvious reason that's in front of me. i fret that if i do take it slow, those factors will take over me and make it worse and since i've been in this place before, it's proven that it does. but what should i do instead? i have been trying to distract myself, so long and so well that i forget and slip into depression again. i'm so confused, frustrated and most importantly, want it to stop. my situation disabled me to proceed past distraction and into coping. the only way for it to stop is to be taken out of the situation but i can't right now. because of my moods, i'm not able to properly prepare to escape physically in a smart way and knowing that only makes it worse.
(my "situation" isn't something that came recently or whatever, it's been leading up to this moment since i was born into a toxic, severely dysfunctional family. it's emotional abuse to the highest degree and in the early days, more types of abuse happened to me at a young age as well as even more heightened psychological abuse. i've been fighting this my whole life and i'm tired of it. i've reached the highest point of tiredness multiple times, as crazy as that sounds, i have. as i'm growing as a 16 year old, i could feel myself losing that innocence that's kept me through the years. i do not like where i'm headed and MOST of the time, it feels as if i'm strapped in a chair moving through the experiences i face as i ponder the severity of my emotions only having unsatisfying short breaks until my inevitable demise.)
‘I’m pleased to be here’ such a simple sentence to be causing such a monumentous feeling 🥲
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God when she said that I burst into tears. If I ever get out of this depressive episode I may just get that tattooed on me
15 likes@alenight99 you will, love. We both will. ♥️
7 likes“Everything is an opportunity”, very nicely put 😃🥰
221 likesoh, i LOVE the orange by wendy cope- it’s one of the sweetest, gentlest, most hopeful poems out there. “i love you. i’m glad i exist.”
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I also love it, despite not being much of a poetry fan- its quite an easy one to understand and the last line is so beautiful ✨
10 likesThat line gives me shivers every time 🥲
13 likesThat poem is a guiding light
11 likesthat's my favourite!!!
2 likesIt's so good!
2 likesomg i just left a comment about this poem before i saw this!!!!
2 likesIt's one of my favoritest positive poems ever.
3 likesahhh i was thinking of this poem even before the end of the video and scrolled down to see if anyone else had mentioned it!!
3 likesI cry....this video is pure and wonderful
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Dave, it’s so weird seeing you here, in Brad’s chat on twitch, and creating Fat Stacks. How?!
3 likesP.S.: absolutely agree with your comment.
I’ve recently entered a period of not being depressed after having chronic depression for 10 years! It’s really fucking wonderful.
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congratulations! i'm so, so pleased for you. i hope you're well <3
5 likesIf you have a feeling about what helped you reach this moment, never forget it, and always come back to it
1 likeI saw the title of this and was instantly filled with delight I'm SO HAPPY FOR YOU EEP
530 likesThe impact that this has when u know dodie watches her videos 😭
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who's videos?
1 like@Willian Dalsoto her own videos
2 likes@SivZaness what do you mean?
0 likes@Willian Dalsoto dodie rewatches her own videos, so op is saying that she will come back to this when she is feeling sad and watch it and hopefully remember that she'll feel better again. It's like a note to herself in video form
44 likes@Rose Lalonde oh, that makes sense, thanks!
6 likesThanks dodie. This will make a difference in someone else's life someday as well.
2 likesThis time last year I was in the worst depressive episode I have ever been in. I was totally convinced that I would be depressed and suffering for the rest of my life and that I did not deserve to be happy. I was either crying or staring at a wall 24/7. I barely ate and I felt SO so alone. The most alone I’ve ever felt. A lot has changed since then. I decided I needed to move back home for a while. It has its challenges, but it’s nice. I’ve got a new job, I’ve made some new friends. I’m going to Cornwall next week. And for the first time in a year, I feel excited and hopeful for the future. One year ago I thought I may as well be dead. But now I am happy, and I know good things are coming. Things DO get better friends. I promise they do. If you told me that this time last year I wouldn’t have believed you. But now I know that joy DOES find its way back home into your soul eventually :)
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2 likesI’m so happy for you! I was also in that place once and felt exactly the same way. You’re doing so great ❤️
0 likesthis made me cry :,)
4 likesTruly scarily relatable. Especially since I'm going to be in Cornwall next week lol.
0 likesI'm so glad you're doing better :)
"I'm pleased to be here." A simple phrase that bears so much weight.
146 likesI've never thought of leaving myself "proof" that there are good days. This is such a good idea
73 likesThe poem :)
61 likesI am well and I wake up smiling
The light in my room looks good today
That plant is happy, could do with some water, so could I
I quench Mr. Plant and then myself with a big cool glass because we deserve it.
Breakfast looks yellow, red, green, tasty, gooey, crunchy.
This blanket is very soft.
Greta looks beautiful today and I love the way she smiles as if she’s trying to show every tooth.
I open a window and I thank god for her beauty.
Maybe I’ll call a friend, maybe I’ll have a bath or paint.
I’m pleased to be here.
hii! subtitles are taking a really long time to process for some reason! they should be with you very soon :)
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here's the transcript if it helps!
167 likesum. so when I’m going through a depresssive episode my brain tells me to write down notes to convince myself that this is the truth like everything is bad and nothing is worth it and
I just realised like… I’m not depressed at the moment like my mood has been so up for the past few months
Which is wild cause in like January I was sick with depression like I would sit in the dark because i couldn’t see the point in turning on a light
Anyway. I thought I’d try and capture this nice mood as a way to prove to my brain that you don’t have to be depressed
(A note - this works individually- for me I know for myself that slipping into bad brain habits and patterns and cycles can make me feel bad so I need to try a little harder to feel gratitude and look after myself) (which is difficult when you’re depressed ) (and future me who is depressed I know it’s more complicated than that - i dont know what situation you’re in right now this is just a reminder that life is very very long and this feeling cant last forever it has an end and can result in something like this!)
i wrote this as a way to try and communicate it
I am well
and I wake up smiling
The light in my room looks good today. That plant is happy. Could do with some water. So could I!
I quench mr plant and then myself with a big cool glass because we deserve it. Breakfast looks yellow, red, green, tasty, gooey, crunchy. This blanket is very soft. Greta looks beautiful today and I love the way she smiles as if she’s trying to show every tooth. I open a window and I thank god for her beauty. Maybe I’ll call a friend. Maybe I’ll have a bath. Or paint. I’m pleased to be here.
That all might sound a bit fuckin Disney princessy but it’s just so interesting to live in this truth of like
I’m good! Everything is pretty nice. Everything is an opportunity. And I could look deeper but why would I want to ruin this nice mood. I have dark shit all around me to worry about all the time it’s not going anywhere and feeling awful literally doesn’t help anyone. My friend Adam says that everything is always a conversation away and that really soothes my anxiety. :) :D
If you’re in the hole, I know it well, and I’m sorry :( try being kind to yourself. Don’t feel bad if you can’t get here immediately you have to take it baby step by baby step and it’s not a smooth journey you know its up and down all over the place but try and Find one tiny tiny tiny thing you’re grateful for. My mum calls it a positive pot. and the end of the day collect your positive pot and have a look at it. That pile will grow, if you feed it. I promise.
okay! just feeling nice. feels nice to feel nice and you know i dont wanna concentrate on it too hard - i dont wanna be happy i dont wanna be sad i just wanna be! you know? just be. okay. okay bye. Gret just showed me The orange. that sounds weird. every tooth.
dont forget to pin it so it wont get drowned in the comments :0
30 likesyou are such a wonderful person for doing this
10 likesthis is the most lovely thing
@doddlevloggle perfect! "i just wanna be" -dodie, 2021
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0 likes@doddlevloggle i’m always so amazed by how much you just get it.
0 likeshey, i know you’ve tried everything and nothing seems to work but i promise GOD can heal you and be the answer to your problems. HE designed us in a way that only HE can fill the void within, but despite that, we still run to things that actually destroy the body and soul. alcohol/drugs/weed etc - liver damage, brain damage, cancer, lowers your ‘vibrations’, alters your state of mind and become entranced, invites evil entities. partying/clubbing - drains the soul of energy, invites evil entities. sexual activities (sex,porn) - leaves you empty, disgusted with self, shameful, creates soul ties (e.g. 10 bodies = 10 soul ties with each individual you had sex with including oral, and whichever evil spirits they have, they become yours also), invites evil entities. secular music - affects your subconscious by its frequency, invites evil entities. i know you believe in a higher power but maybe you just don’t know who that higher power is, but imma tell you that it’s GOD. not no religion, that’s man made, but the creator of the heavens and the earth. you can get to know HIM today. you can begin your journey of faith & spirituality. all you need to do is to ask for forgiveness and accept JESUS as your messiah. once you do that, the Holy Spirit will guide you into all truth. the veil will be lifted 👁 and the truth shall set you free. you’ll become awakened into the reality of this world.. the irreversible gene altering vaccines, the poisoned food and water supply, the 5G frequency manipulation, the government and their agendas, big pharma, truth behind social media, fake news, freemasonry, satanic cabal elites, the pope and religion, the flat stationary earth, the nasa space hoax, the truth behind school and why they indoctrinate us at a young age, the truth behind 9 to 5 jobs, the live to work until death regime, heaven & hell, the spiritual realm where demonic entities and angels operate and all things spiritual. there’s a lot to uncover, unlearn and unpack but the journey to salvation is narrow and only a few make it. choose which pill you will take - the blue pill (accept your fate and live life as it is, walk in the wide path of destruction which many are on) or the red pill (awake to this satanic matrix beast system, walk in the narrow path with CHRIST as your light, lose friends and validation but gain the reward of everlasting life in heaven) .. it’s up to you.
0 likes"I'm pleased to be here". A small, simple sentence. And yet it bears so much weight. For us depressed people it's not an easy one. It's a thought that hardly ever crosses our mind. In fact the thoughts that invade our brain are usually the exact opposite. I don't wanna be here. I'm tired. Nothing makes sense. And yet here you are. Saying you're pleased to be here. Living proof that it doesn't always have to be that way. I'm so glad you're happy and able to see the good things in your life. I hope I can get there at some point, it's been quite hard for a long time. I love you. Thank you for this little snippet in your good mood. It makes me happy to know you feel better like it would knowing a friend is doing better. Hope it goes on, god knows you deserve it. ❤️
162 likesThis may seem rather silly, but I've been going through a depressive episode too. I'm still a teenager so I don't have as many responsibilities as you or other people who might be reading, but it's still hard sometimes. I think right now I'm in that kind of mood you described and this video helped me not to ruin it by anxiously dwelling and questioning. Thank you so much Dodie, I hope you're doing well :) (I also hope it's not weird that I used your name)
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Honestly, I think it is very hard in teenage years as well, as you also are less aware of yourself and things that may help you. At least it was like that for me, so please don’t underestimate your pain, depression is not nice for everyone and you deserve to express your hurt even if someone else is suffering more. Just wanted to check in because it sounds very like something I would say and I was neglecting my pain for a long time. And it is something I would really need to hear. Hope it helps. Sending love and support 💖
13 likesI honestly think my depression as a pre teen and teenager was so much harder because I was still so young and much to young to know how to cope with such big emotions my best train of thought it poem or what ever to stop myself from that kind of thinking was “it doesn’t matter if you are drowning in a 7 meter deep pool or in an 11 meter deep pool after a certain point the depth of the water beneath you doesn’t matter anymore that pool could be a 100 meters deep and you wouldn’t suddenly be drowning any harder then you already are you’d still just be drowning, people drown in puddles and they are still just as drowned as the person that drowned in an ocean saying you shouldn’t be drowning because the person next to you is in a much deeper pool won’t change the fact that in your very own pool you are drowning so don’t focuse on how deep or not deep the water is beneath you focus on keeping your head above the water, focus on staying alive”
0 likesThis was such a heartwarming video, having the ability to acknowledge even an ounce of goodness in life is such a lovely feeling :))
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2 likesits so interesting to see the other side of my depression. maybe one day i’ll be where you are mentally. i aspire to be more like you.
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You will my luv !
8 likes“i feel depressed today” vs this is very Hell Yeah We Are Reaching For Joy <33
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updating my dodie help playlist after this, that old video is almost like a comfort video for me, and including this one, i might feel better, thank you dodie and to you for reminding me
6 likesliving for that nail polish
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maybe the dodie yellow era is back
27 likesOmg, you look exactly like me :o
1 likeAnd yeees, same :D
Dodie yellow :))
2 likesThis was lovely X
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5 likesfaves supporting faves
3 likesThis gives me Secret Of The Mad energy and I love it
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IT DOESS 😭😭
0 likesliterally just got out of therapy talking about expressing gratitude during good days
113 likesI developed a habit of counting as many of the little good things as I can, even if they're not my things. It's amazing how counting all the little good things can eventually add up to build up memories of good feelings. Love the yellow nails!
11 likesThe Orange is one of my favorite poems. It’s so grounding to just sit back and think that I love you, I’m glad I exist. Another poem I love with a similar, although sadder energy is the Two-Headed Calf by Laura Gilpin. There is love and wonder always, no matter what lies ahead. Even if we can’t see it now, it will be there, eventually.
5 likesThat jump from a fairy tale poem into swearing at 1:40 has me dead 💀💀
62 likeshi, dodie. thank you for sharing this. thank you for sharing "the orange" too. i feel this very deeply: the dark times, but also the times where you can exist without overanalyzing that basic source of life that keeps you alive (you know, when it's not so heavy just to be a human being in the world) and find joy in the small things. it feels comforting to know someone else feels it too :)
6 likesThe poem you wrote reminds me of something I started, called a "happiness journal". I just take notes of all the tiny things in life that make me smile even just a little bit.
6 likes"greta looks beautiful today, and i love the way she smiles as if she's trying to show every tooth" that's probably the loveliest way i've heard someone describe a smile
6 likesThis is honestly a great idea dodie! I'm gonna try something like this soon to try and convince my brain that even if I'm feeling low, there's always a high to come. :) thank you dodie
56 likes"I just want to be" is such a good outlook. Don't focus on the bad or the good, focus on the moment you're living in
4 likesLiterally saw this as I was wondering how to fight this depressive episode. My A level results are looming and I'm so sad all the time. And yet I have incredible friends and family, my boyfriend is wonderful and physically I'm very healthy. My anxiety was getting so much better and now I'm being treated both for that AND depression. I'm stuck right now. But I won't always be.
25 likesOOF the orange,,,, no wonder u were crying , that poem gets me lol ily dodie im glad ur happy and i hope it sticks around for u for a while
24 likesYou educated so much on depression and depersonnalisation and what they meant! My best friend has BLD and suffers so violently from it, and I would always send her your songs or videos when i felt like what she had was similar to some of the things you said. And now, I am so glad I can send her this one, and that it's not just me being hopelessly positive : it can get better❤❤❤
4 likesDefinitely one of my favourite new mottos: Everything's a bit fucking Disney Princessy.
18 likesThe orange is my favourite poem in the world (literally have a tattoo planned around it) I was about to comment to go read it then the end happened and I died laughing
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omg I'm also planning on getting a tattoo referring to that poem! but struggling with where on my body I'd want to place an orange hahaha
0 likes@Fenna Lambregts I've had this one planned for like two years now, but it took me so long to figure out where
1 likeIM PLEASED TO BE HERE - my heart needed to hear that and I don’t know why.
4 likesI'm in tears right now, You have no clue how inspiring you are, I love you so much 💜💜💜
3 likesAfter everything that you've been through, you are full of hope and that makes me so happy ❤❤
I hope you're doing well!
I keep forgetting that i bought tickets for me and my girlfriend for your Montréal show in February and i get excited all over again every time, i am looking forward to see you and hear you sing live.✨
14 likesBeing in an awful place currently, I can't relate to any of the positive parts in this. BUT I know, logically, that I'll feel like that again some day. I know it's possible, and even very very likely, that I'll wake up feeling okay again one day. Even if I don't feel the hope right now, I'm at least trying to feel it, and believe in it.
5 likesthis is going to sound soppy coming from a 17 year old boy! but i've been really down this last month and this video really gave me hope..thanks dodie
3 likes"I'm pleased to be here" is so utterly profound and raw and wow I love it I want it written on my brain
2 likeslet's have a little recognition of gratitude in the replies of this comment! I'll start: I'm grateful for my comfy desk chair and fairy tales
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im grateful that i was able to finally see a friend that i wanted to talk to for a longer time!
7 likesI'm grateful that I too have been feeling up and that I'm incredibly powerful whenever I'm up here... all I have to do now it use this power for good
7 likesI'm grateful that the sun is shining in London for the first time in a month!
7 likesI'm grateful for my crazy neighbour lady who kept us afloat during the most financially difficult times and I'm even more grateful for the opportunity to repay that kindness
6 likesIm grateful that I am getting over my traumas and learning how to be alone with my thoughts
5 likesTHIS IS THE VERY BEST IDEA THANKEE FOR DOING IT. Imma keep responding so I can keep seeing people's responses and because gratitude is always good.
4 likesThat said. I'm grateful that tis not the season right now because I get the big SAD (seasonal affective disorder) from Oct to Feb so I'm grateful that I get to enjoy this part of the year while it's still here...
I’m grateful that my plants are growing tons of new leaves because it means they’re happy and I’m grateful that the sauce I made for my dinner was delicious!
9 likesi’m grateful for the colourful clothes and sparkly makeup i own <3
6 likesI am grateful for being able to go on vacation to Croatia with my best friends soon!
5 likesi’m grateful for the people that make me happy that don’t know that they do
5 likesi'm grateful that i could see the sky turn beautifully pink while the sun beautifully shone surrounded by soft clouds as it started to go down <3
6 likesI'm grateful for one of my best friends, they make me feel warm and happy. I'm grateful for the sunshine, and window seats, and cups of coffee. I'm grateful for the small bits of light I get in my day, and that I'm starting to wake up feeling hopeful.
7 likesi'm grateful for the fact that i made a friend laugh!
6 likesI’m grateful for the sun, even though I’ve taken on the task of cleaning my room entirely and I don’t really go outside, when I wake up and see my room bright with sunlight it just fills me with a sense of “today is going to be a good day” vibes.
6 likesI’m also grateful for the motivation I’ve had to take on that task, which came out of nowhere (but was welcomed with open arms)
I'm grateful for my mom and being surrounded by people who care
4 likesI'm grateful for all of your responses and that you're all sharing your gratitude. From smol things to big, it's important to be grateful for all or any of it. I'm grateful for the Internet and the Algorithm and for you.
2 likesI'm grateful for pretty clothes
2 likesi have another one! I'm grateful for ice cubes and white chocolate
2 likesI'm grateful for my soft flora bedsheets with raspberry roses and lime leaves.🌺🌿
2 likesI'm grateful I finally managed to decide which college I want to go to!
2 likesI'm grateful for my loved ones who believe in me more than I believe in myself atm
2 likesi'm grateful for my fairy lights :)
0 likesSo happy for your dodie! You've had a long and incredible journey and glad you're at where you're at now 😊😊 so nice to see
2 likesYou're so cute! Be happy at the best you can, dodie! I love seeing you smile
4 likesThe rest of the day was quite easy.
12 likesI did all the jobs on my list
And enjoyed them and had some time over.
I love you. I’m glad I exist.
-WENDY COPE
happy for u sweet x
58 likesi am definitely in The Hole atm but these videos over the past few days and listening to bap have definitely been a little bit of positivity so thank you :)
2 likesYES this is what ive been feeling too!! Realizing you love parts of the world again is such a relief and im so thankful for that
1 like"that all might sound a bit fuckin disney princessy" got me ahahah
5 likesThat poem was so flipping beautiful, genuinely in tears!! Such a beautiful writer you are.
0 likesI love this for you, dodie, that you’re at a good spot and know to just enjoy it and not question. I hold on bc I know I’ll get there again too
0 likesGenuinely so happy for u dodie! Hope everyone here is doing just fine. I love u all❤❤
0 likesThis wonderful video makes me want to share a technique of my own: I used to be a leader for a body positivity group and one of the things that always stuck to me that we did was going up to a mirror, looking yourself in the eye, and saying "I love you." The first time I did, I found it... weirdly difficult. But it gave me a chance to really just look me for me. It's definitely not an instant revitalizer, but it's something I try to remind myself of every now and again when those intrusive thoughts pop up.
1 likeThe way you and your friends love each other brings tears to my eyes. I'm so happy you have ppl around you who see your light, even when you feel it's dimming. ✨💜✨
2 likesWhen the washer came on and laid that sick beat I laughed SO HARD that all the heavy feelings I've felt today seemed to fall away... Thank you Dodie, enjoy just being :)
0 likesPREEEAAACH this was so peaceful to hear! I really appreciate this!
0 likesi’m so happy for you, your mental growth is amazing and i’m so glad you’re doing better! :)🤍
0 likes“And I could look deeper but why would I want to ruin this nice mood.” You have put into words something I do to myself constantly. I think this a sentence I need to repeat to myself whenever I’m feeling good
9 likesI’ve written my thoughts of gratitude in my notes during times I realized I hadn’t been feeling depressed for a while. Times when I’m back in that depressive state I look back at those notes and at first it kinda feels like talking to someone who isn’t depressed and doesn’t get it but it’s just yourself, of course she gets it! I just look at it as a reason to keep going because I won’t always be feeling depressed :)
5 likesWell, this made me bawl but... in a happy way❤️ I'm grateful you're here Dodie. We love you so much.
0 likesI’m so happy that you’re doing better. This video made me feel better. I’ve been very sad for a very long time, but this video changed my perspective on the world. Thank you.
0 likesProof that this lady is wise beyond her years. :-) My Soul appreciates you.
0 likesThis is beautiful, I hope we all get to enjoy just being as much as we can
0 likesI'm happy you're feeling better at the moment. Having this to remind your future self seems like a good idea. Your honesty about how you feel is really helpful, thank you.
0 likesthis makes me so happy and proud. hope it stays for the longest time, dodie 💖.
0 likesand to whoever is feeling like crap i send u all my love and know it will be ok 🌈
im happy 4 u :)) im glad ur getting better nvr forget ur never alone and we love u
1 likei've been trying to be kind to myself these past few days. it actually feels so nice. this video is a perfect way to describe my journey at the moment but not quite completely there yet, which is fine :) love u dodie, & thanks for this vid xx
0 likesyou've been so strong Dodie I'm so proud of you!!
0 likesi’m so happy you’re happy and i’m also happy you seem to be recovering from covid! happy happy happy☺️
0 likesi'm having an anxiety episode since yesterday and it just hurts and the spiraling is being super hard to control but thank you dodie, i know this is for you but helped me
0 likesyou and your music helped me SO MUCH years ago and it’s so nice to see that you’re doing better too<3
6 likesi'm so happy you're doing well mentally bub ! :D this was so cute btw <33
1 likeI’m so happy for you Dodie I am going through a nice light mood right now and it feels very powerful, thank you for talking about it with such gratitude it helps me realize why these times are so important
0 likesWow. I genuinely needed this today. I had to talk to the doctor about depression and medication and this sounds lovely ❤️❤️❤️
0 likesi love that i watched this on therapy day, where i kept saying how... here i am. not entirely happy, not entirely sad or any other complex emotion. just glad to be here! thank you for sharing such a beautiful feeling, hope you have a bunch more of these types of days in your life. also, greta, i love her smile!!! makes me feel validated bc i also smile like i'm trying to show my entire set of teeth. <3
0 likesthis is so sweet :) every year i'm most depressed in the summer and this is a great reminder to express gratitude for what is still good :)
0 likesThank you for this. 💕 I needed this today. And I’m so happy you’re doing well. It makes my heart happy
0 likesthis is so wholesome. I did have a bad day today and this made my day that tiny bit better <3
0 likesthank you so much for giving me some motivation, even your songs give me a little sun on pretty dark days. anndd!! i love how you share when you’re happy!! thank youu, it’s really nice to see someone happy :) hope you continue to do well!
0 likesive been watching you since i was in 7th grade, and now I'm starting my first year at college (so that's around 5/6 years now!!) and you've helped me so much with my mental health. and I will watch this video over and over whenever i am not feeling so well. thank you so much Dodie <3
0 likesThis was soothing for me, i’m happy you feel happy! :-)
0 likesI love how you take note of how everything feels (the lights, food, etc.) ! The very fact that you notice it means that derealization is far away :) Good for grounding :))
0 likesThat feeling is just the best, enjoy dodie 💛
0 likesI listen to Dear Happy every time I fall into a depression to remind me that the moment will happen and pass and that happiness will be back.
0 likesI’m sooo happy for you!! Thats so amazing that you got out of that. I want to figure out how to get out of this cycle too. Also ur skin is so clear ugh goddess
0 likesI saw your Instagram story and I read the poem to my friend and we started crying together. It was short but it had such a powerful meaning. Thank you for sharing it:)
0 likesthis is too uplifting, we are too proud of u dodie, and thank u for making my day so much better ♡
0 likesA quote I love from a meditation teacher I adore named Shawnta Valdes is, “Right now, it’s like this”.
0 likesI cling to this mantra when I’m feeling my depression the most. Thank you for your vulnerability. I see you and I appreciate you.
"I don't wanna be sad, I don't wanna be happy, I just wanna be" I think I've just found my senior quote lmfao
4 likesThis was a blessing. Thanks for the comforting words. Happy for you!
0 likesI just got out of therapy and my therapist just used those exact words of seeing things as opportunities and feeling gratitude… I feel really seen by this ❤️
0 likesthat was a bit lovely. i think I’ve just realised that one of my favourite things ever is hearing people talk about their friends in a lovely way. makes my heart go pitter patter pitter patter
0 likesThe moment you started reading the piece you wrote I started crying. Thank you so much for this. Throughout your time on YouTube, and the years I've followed you, you've been so open and true. You have no idea how much that has helped people feel less alone. Thank you so, so much. You deserve every happiness, and you deserve your own patience and compassion whenever tough times decide to linger about.
0 likesI'm so happy that you're happy ! Your little text is beautiful ❤
0 likesThis was beautiful. Glad you're feeling good! 💛
0 likes✨☀️🎉 THIS IS AMAZING and thank you for doing this for you and others
0 likesbeen binge watching all of your older videos on here and it’s been such a comfort since i am now 20 like you were at the time. so happy to see how far you’ve come. <3
0 likesthis is such a comforting video! thank you for making this dodie, and i’m glad to hear you’re feeling happy :)
0 likesfinally feeling okay makes me look back and realize a big part of feeling in a rut is how I treat myself, so from here on out I'm doing my best to be kind to me.
0 likesThank you for sharing that Dodie! Another important thing is also to allow yourself to feel nice/ good! That also makes a huge difference :D
0 likesWhat a cozy feeling this brought me
4 likesI tend to be happy when other people are.
0 likesSo, thank you Dodes.
I'm so happy for you dodie!!!!! I hope you feel like this for as long as possible 😭💕🥰
1 likeI'm enjoying these so much! Feels like VEDJ / VEDIJ. Hope you are well! Thank you so much!
1 likedodie!!! this is great and we're all so proud of you.
0 likesthis is beautifully written, shot and colored
0 likesI love it so much
your videos make me so happy, they’ve cheered me up on some rough days recently
0 likesu have seemed a lot more joyful recently, i’m so happy for u
0 likesso happy that you’re feeling well, dodes xoxo. love u. i’m in the hole rn. listened to BAP and Human in the ER last night. very calming. thx!! be well <33
0 likesI am pleased to be here…
0 likesUgggh that cut so deep, I love it!! I am pleased to be here, whether here right now is difficult or not, I’m still pleased to be here! For all the pain and heartache I suffer, I’m still pleased to be here. For the moments I could have missed, for the people I almost didn’t meet. For my nephew and niece who I would have missed loving and teaching, I am so so pleased to be here!!
This is really nice. It made me feel nice :)
0 likesTake care and stay safe.
Beautiful--love it! Keep being yourself, Dodie! :)
0 likesDodie you are the reason I’m not depressed (as much) ⟟ honestly love your vibe and your music your so beautiful and such a pure person…. ⟟ love you so much <3
0 likesHappiness can be contagious, hope it helps you in the future :) also, just noticed that your eyes are a very pretty colour of brown, something I didn't notice before :)
0 likesI’m gonna watch this every morning. Thank you so much
0 likesthis just made my day better thank u :) <3 i'm genuinely happy for u
0 likesIM SO HAPPY FOR YOU DODIE :) i’m so glad that you’re happy right now <33
0 likesI love how you’re so organic in this video, love from Japan 🥰
0 likesI cant wait to feel the same 🥺im happy for u🙌🏻
0 likesdodie you don't understand how much better this made me feel 😭❤
0 likesreally loved this video <3 I hope you continue to not feel depressed and when you do, that you can overcome it again quickly <3
0 likesThe other day my partner of nearly 5 years decided we should split and I honestly felt I'd lost everything, I felt there was no point going on if I can't be with him forever. I haven't accomplished anything In my life as I wasn't able to stay in school (mental illness, not behaviour) and I have had no friends since being with him because of past toxic friendships holding me back from being social. The only people I could talk to where his friends and my own parents, sisters. I feel like I've lost everything. But you give me hope Dodie, along with my family you'll be helping me through this shit time I'm in for. I truly love you Dodie, thank you. ❤️ (The only thing I'm looking forward to this year is seeing you for the 3rd time in Manchester I can't wait to see you again)
3 likesthank you for sharing your emotions with us, good or bad. I've learned it helps when those bad thoughts have a place to go other than your mind- usually a good cry is helpful but if you can muster a conversation, a journal, or another form of art, it is quite therapeutic. <3
0 likesi’m so happy for you dodie!! also, i just got tickets to your london concert for my birthday and i’m so excited 😆
0 likes"That plant is happy. :)" made my day better. :)
0 likesthis makes me so happy. i’ve been doing so good lately. it got bad again for a few days but i got out of it quicker than i thought. winter was the hardest time of my life and i’m glad to be past it. the warmer months are really helping. it’s just peaceful which is all i really want. am im super excited to actually be able to see family during the colder months to come. and to do festive things with them. i think part of what made me spiral before was not having things to do or look forward to it people to be around. and now i do. 💗💗💗
0 likesthe first time i read the orange i was immediately hit with this wave of contentedness, it’s so nice to see it have that same impact for others <3 “i love you. i’m glad i exist.” always gets me.
0 likesIt is really “a conversation away”. But this video did the exact thing for me. Cried a bit. Thank you Dodie.
0 likesI’m having a rough time at the moment but this helped a bit. So thanks :)
0 likesHuge thanks for this upload! Depression is terrible but we can crush it!
0 likesi think i might have to start leaving "proof" for myself that i can have good days. for now, i will just sit with your proof because i need it at the moment. so thank you. and i hope it helps dodie-in-the-future. i hope you feel loved <3 also the orange is one of my favourite poems
0 likesthis is truly so helpful. thank you, dodie.
0 likesI live with depression every day. And I struggle each and every day.. Dodie’s music gives me moments of joy every day. Greta is beautiful every day. Videos like this give me hope. Dodie and Greta deserve to be worshipped by their those they adore.
0 likesIM SO HAPPY FOR YOU DODIE ❤ i hope i get to say that im not constantly sad soon
0 likessaw the title of this video and burst into a smile :”)
0 likesI love this so much and relate so hard ♥️
0 likesI am depressed at the mo and I’m glad for this and for you. Thank you : )
1 likei'm in a depressed episode right now and you make me stand up ^^ thank you <3
0 likesI absolutely second this feeling. It's so important! As someone who is also a little bit depressive-y, I was really happy today and it felt so crazy and wild, but it also felt right! Sitting in our rooms, smiling alone because we can is the absolute best feeling, to me.
0 likesThis video helped me take care of myself this morning! Thank you! I wanna start doing this in the mornings again :)
0 likesOmg great to see your face 💕 im happy you aren’t feeling depressed 💕
1 likeI need to remind myself more often that I deserve basic kindness and care
3 likesI really think prayers are low key answered when videos like this come at the perfectly perfect time for people.
0 likesthank you for this dodie im happy for you 💗
0 likesI'm grateful for the warmth your smiles brought and that you swore and my life is honestly complete because I haven't heard you swear before and for some reason the first few times I hear people swear it makes me giggle. I'm glad your feeling good 🧡🧡🧡
0 likesI love those moments when I realise "oh shit I'm actually feeling really well and content at the moment"
1 likei'm glad you're feeling good at the moment :))
0 likesThis is such a beautiful video, thank you Dodie 💕
0 likesSo good to see you’re feeling good 😌
0 likesAfter watching almost all your videos I can say I'm platonically in love with you. I wish you the best, you are a warm light in most of my dark days and I thank you for that.
0 likesI've been watching your videos since i was 14. I'm really happy to see you happy again.
0 likesThis was such a wonderful thing to wake up to. (coming from someone currently in the hole.) You are such a kind and understanding person, Dodie, and I hope you remember that.
0 likesSo so happy for you☺️☺️☺️ a beautiful bit of joy to inject into the world<3 all da love! Xxx
0 likesAs someone familiar with the bottom of that well, this is so delightful to see, dodie! 😊 No matter how many times we might fall in, there's always sunlight at the top ☀ P.s. Speaking of beautiful poems, my favourite is "The Starfish Poem". Not sure why, but reading it makes the world feel that bit warmer during a dip.
0 likes"i could look deeper, but why would i want to ruin this nice mood?" this. this is beautiful
0 likesThis video is wonderful and makes me happy. Thank you for sharing!
0 likesi haven’t watched this yet but i’m already so so so so so happy for u ahhhh
0 likesyou’re right with the ‘not looking too deeply into it’ part. the thing i’ve realised is that it’s nice to be happy as you are now, and you don’t need to be terrified of going back down again. i’ve not had anywhere near as bad an experience as you, i dont have depression, but you know, everyone goes through something. i’m happy you’re doing well dodie, for someone who fills everyone else’s lives with light, it’s good you have light to give yourself too (: the future may knock you down again, and that’s okay, because like you said, life is long, and you will rise up once more.
0 likesanyway, long rambling message, love you <3
AHHH I've been in the hole for quite a few days now (possibly weeks? haven't been counting) and I only just started thinking about climbing out maybe a couple of hours ago and this perspective means a lot to me rn, thank you so much for this Dodie!!!
0 likesi already know im gonna rewatch this every time im upset, thank you <33
0 likesI have been doing this same thing for the past few weeks. trying so hard to fight bad patterns and spiral thinking. It truly takes time and not reading too deep into things. Just letting everything slide to protect my own mental.
0 likesim having a good day and this made me teary in a good way
0 likesMy heart has actually stopped twice in my life. I do struggle sometimes thinking about it. But then I listen to "build me up" and it all melts away.
0 likesI'm so happy for you... genuinely I am
0 likeshow good !!!!! I love you dodie !!! I hope you’re happy very often <3
0 likesthese videos are so lovely to watch in the morning :) thanks for making them dodie!
0 likeswhen i was at my lowest in highschool i made a habit of writing down every little thing that made me happy in a day, even if it was only for a moment. it was all pretty minor stuff, like a rain storm, or a cat i met on a walk, or just something dumb my friend said, but it gave me something physical i could look back on so the days didn't seem so dreary. esp w/ my adhd, it helped me remember the little sparks of light in my life. i'm so grateful that i've gotten to a point where i don't need to do that anymore to remember the good things, that i'm finally in a place where it's all around me. i've /built/ a place where it's all around me
1 likeOof. A lot of hard important stuff in there. Years of therapy and meds, and I still lapse sometimes. It's so hard to remember a lot of this when you're in the hole. Saving this video to help remind me of these things later. Thanks <3
0 likesamazing! hope the good vibes last but if they don't, that's ok too :)
0 likesyou are so special, dodie. like i know you know this, but you really are 😽💗
0 likesI wish I had people like you in my life. 😭
0 likesi’m so glad for you, dodie. i’m so glad.
0 likesYou don’t know how much this means to so many people ♥️♥️
0 likesDodie.. you wont see this. But i want u to know how much impact you and your work and your platform have done for me. You inspired me to do... anything. I picked up a ukulele and learned music because of your songs. You helped me realize that I was bi and embrace that part of me. And now, as i ride a wave of depression, you give me hope that there is land that i can walk on again. Thank you, dodie. For being part of my growth all this time.
1 likei cried while watching this. i needed this thank you dodie
0 likesI used to work at a psych hospital for teens and I would do absolutely anything to be able to go back and show them this. It's so hard to see a happy future when you're in the trenches but it's times like what you showed here that give me so much hope for them.
0 likesI think when your mom was talking about the “positive pot” she just wanted you to roll a joint xD
0 likesThis was lovely by the way
this is making me so so happy 💛
0 likeswow this video is so grounding thank you dodie
1 likethis is the sweetest thing on my recommended all day. so simple yet so effective
0 likesDodie, I’m so glad you exist 💛
0 likes1) this is lovely 2) the orange is such a good poem that i did a poetry project on the entire book that it's from and honestly? still my favourite poem of hers but the rest are a fun mix of cynical and comedic. very big fan of Wendy Cope now
0 likesI’m so proud of you :D
2 likesI’ve been struggling to comprehend the fact that I’m doing okay right now. it’s weird to think that just a few months ago I was in such a bad place and now I can get out of bed without thinking about it. I’m doing okay and it’s okay if this doesn’t last forever. seasons change.
0 likesGod is with us through it all.
I was at the lowest point in my life and was very depressed during quarantine but now I'm better. I've been better for a few months and I'm proud. Sometimes I feel like I have to be depressed for some reason. But yeah. Thank you dodge, your music was one of the only things that got me through covidm
0 likesAlso ignore my pfp it was a dare from my friend XD
I needed this. this is so needed for my current situation. thank. thank you so much
0 likesi love you dodie, and im so proud of you :D !!
0 likesholy shit i felt the exact same thing today. ive only felt okay for a few days this past week, but this time around i've been writing down my thoughts in permanent ways (texting or social media or even this comment) so that i have inarguable proof of moments that made me happy that i was alive to experience them. i love you dodie, you being open about ur human struggles has always been so comforting and inspiring to me.
1 likeActually, that was a very true expression of hope. There’s no need for cheesy or overblown “all you need to do to feel better is change yourself” type messages or inspirational quotes. It’s sweet without being saccharine. Beautiful Dodie 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
0 likesthanks dodie. this will hopefully help me too someday (if happens ever again but it always does)
0 likesi really needed this❤️ im so happy for u
0 likesthis was so lovely the poem made me cry
0 likesI needed this so much right now. Thank you
0 likesI've been struggling with anxiety for the past year, and it's felt like such a cloud of feeling nothing but anxiety and dread. But I feel like I've been doing better these past couple months. Sometimes the cloud lifts all the way and I feel surges of joy for the people around me, and sometimes it lifts just enough that I can get the motivation to write and paint again. I remember being so afraid that life was always going to be foggy and horrible and unknown, but now (though still a bit unknown) I feel better equipped to get through it. The gratitude poem was so lovely, I might do something similar for myself.
1 likeyour speaking voice is always so calming to me
0 likesOH GOD WHEN THE ORANGE HITS 🧡🍊 help i have had that exact moment... this is peace and contentment its new!!
0 likesthis is actually full filling 💖
1 likeI'm so desperate to get there. It feels so far away but this video has been exactly what I need. Going to start a positive pot ❤️
0 likesthis makes me happy and hopeful :)
0 likesI was in the hole not long ago, and you're so right. My baby steps were calling my mum, spending time with one friend at a time until it was all of them, baking a cake, and meditating. I'm on the tail end of a bad mood that lasted too long and I'm feeling very grateful. I love your vids! and keep well, whoever is reading this! 💓
0 likesthis lil video is so reassuring and lovely, thank you!!
0 likesi'm really really really really happy for you !!!!!
0 likesYour beautiful dodie and you such a beautiful person love you dodie iam always so proud of you
0 likesi'm really happy you're happy dodie :)
0 likesgreat to hear, and greta does have a lovely smile but so do you!
0 likesDuring my particularly rough depressive episodes, my trick is to always challenge myself to come up with something to laugh about. Whether it be singing in a stupid voice or remembering a specific moment to find the funny of it, I end up remembering that while my feelings in the moment are valid and that my depression isn't going to last, I come to realize once more that depression, sadness, and life in general isn't a death sentence.
0 likesDepression definitely hurts and I outright envy those that claim to never experience it, but at least within its dark familiarity I can still find that glowing ember of memory that I'm a big, goofy dork and people do love, have loved, and will love me for that...but most importantly, I can love myself for that too.
Thanks for sharing, Dodie! 💜
“it’s not going anywhere” is really comforting to hear actually. like i have time to feel bad about things, and that time doesn’t have to be right now.
0 likes"i don't wanna be happy, i don't wanna be sad. i just wanna BE." this felt life changing
0 likesnot to sound like a facebook aunt but, i REALLY needed this! thank you dodie :)
0 likesYour hair gets poofier the more positive this video gets:) I like it!
0 likesThis was really nice. I needed this today ☺️ Kia ora x
0 likesI needed that in my day because it's deep here atm, thanks to exist.
0 likesIm so in love with the the way you wrote this !!!!
0 likesStepping out of depression really does feel like seeing colors and textures and the thing around you for the first time in ages.
0 likesDidn't know how much I needed this, thank you
0 likesI felt every. ounce. of. this. with my soul. Right now is the first time in a very long time where I feel so light, peaceful, appreciative of life. I know difficult things are bound to happen but I feel brave enough to conquer them. Sunsets are so beautiful, I can’t believe we get to have them every day. I don’t feel worried about wondering when I’ll find the right person, because I know as long as I don’t lose myself, the right people will always find their way in at the beautiful right moments. My future feels exciting instead of daunting, and my heart doesn’t hurt. I want to stay in this feeling forever. I hope that by writing this and watching your video it will help me remember to try and hold onto this feeling, or at least have a record of it being possible when it can’t help but slip away for a minute... Thank you for all the things you create Dodie, I love each and every one of them with such an appreciation, you touch my heart and always tug at my emotions so well (in the way that feels good and cathartic) and I’m so glad I’ve been lucky enough to meet you and tell you this a few years back. It all never changes even as you and I do ❤️ xx Emma
0 likesproud of you,, this is really nice
0 likesim so happy for u dodes!
0 likesLove you dodie!❤
0 likesthisll probably be a video i watch to remind myself of the lil things & that it does get better. Thank you. :) also i have never heard of that poem i will read it now
0 likesanother orange poem: oranges by gary soto :)
i love you so much
0 likestrying to focus on breaking the negative cycles in our lives when it's the least we could do at the moment is the least can do. life isn't alwaays as bad. we will get through this
This video has brought me such joy. I am glad you are not depressed at the moment. I hope that when the big sad returns, you can face it with a strength of resolve that will carry you back here swiftly!
0 likesi'm so glad you're well bc i am too ! :) love you !!
0 likesYou keep going and then all of a sudden you forget about how you were before and you’re like “oh wait it’s not shit, when did that happen” and it’s really important to look back at the steps you took to get there and then you’re like “wait I’m kind of amazing”
1 likeIM SO HAPPY FOR YOU YAYYYY <333
0 likesOMG I wrote a song about that exact feeling of sudden hapiness after a long dark phase...
0 likesI hope it reaches your ears when it comes out by the end of the year when I release my EP :)
yay dodie!!!! so happy for you!
0 likesI think Dodie was the one who first made me realize that it's okay to accept your mental health issues and get help and be open about it rather than ashamed. To think I found her over a tea video and she changed my journey with mental health.
0 likesThanks for the reminder to take note of the happy highlights besides just letting the negativity become the only outlet.
0 likesoh I’m absolutely doing a version of this video for myself in my future depressive episodes
0 likesYou are not alone. Thank you because you are helping me with my depression and now getting divorced. Your music your voice your words all are appreciated. Thank you!
0 likesThis is beautiful ❤️
0 likesYou're such an inspiration to many, I bet. I'm glad people like you share your stories, they can be very insightful. I love that you came to this realization and shared it with us. Imagine what it would be like if you could put all the happy memories pasted like post-its, all around your mind. And then, burn (or gently discard or lock up somewhere safe) the ones that came from the dark side.
0 likesThank you❤ I will save this for a bad brain day
0 likesI needed this :< thanks dodie
0 likesI am so happy for you :)
0 likesLife is so up and down. I hope "Disney princessy" moments come along more often than being in the hole, for anyone reading this :)
0 likesGet some sunshine on your skin, the vitamin D will help! Or so I've been told! It helps battle the down feelings! Up up and away! Love you! 💘
0 likesi loved the idea to look at yourself the way you did with the planet, saying to the plant that looks good in the morning and taking care of it. thanks for this i'm gonna try it in my depressed mornings
0 likesSuch a great reminder that everything is temporary. Happiness is temporary but so is sadness. No matter how low you feel, things will change because life is transient ❤️. Thank you for posting this I am so sure it has reached a lot of people who need it today
0 likesMakes me think of John Green's gratitude journaling!
0 likesAlso sick beats
Thank you, I needed this right now.
0 likesWow I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!! <3
0 likesI wanna feel like this too sjkdf
Thank you for sharing this❤
0 likesi know that i can get to this point one day, and i am over the moon that you have. what a nice thought to think that i could feel contentment again. i will hold on to it tightly
0 likesBeautifully said ❤️
0 likesthis makes me so happy 🥺
0 likesi am very happy for you <3
0 likesWell done Dodie :))
0 likesi am cryinggggg. so grateful to get to share your happy moment.
0 likesWow. This video makes me feel so alive!
0 likesso many Dodie videos love it , love you <3
0 likesThis is great I hope more people that haven't past the brink see this.
1 likeDearest Dodie,
1 likeI seldom comment videos from anyone, but my heart feels your struggle. I have battled depression and PTSD from my service in the military. Everyday is a challenge, but like you I have found what works for my mental state too. I hope your own words of encouragement can reach Future Dodie when she needs it the most.
Future Dodie, please listen to the Dodie in this video. She knows what she's talking about. Everything will be okay.
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Thank you for this comment
1 likehad a conversation with my psychiatrist a few days ago that just left me feeling utterly hopeless and defeated. you know what i mean? the medicine helps in some ways but its weird and incomplete and i still dont feel good. it's hard to articulate. i dont believe in or deserve happy, but you're right that just being is okay and good. gotta remember that. thanks for the reminder today
0 likesMy data is refreshing in 2 hours and I’m very glad I’m spending the rest of it watching Dodie 🥰🥰. I’m also not depressed and pretty happy at the moment and it’s weird if you think too hard about it but very nice just to be :) thank u dodie
0 likescurrently feeling void and a bit empty uhhhh BUT. im happy you are in a good place rn. it makes me happy to remember that life just is that way sometimes and u just gotta wait for the good feelings. may that be all of us sometime soon.
1 likea lovely video. I will be watching this when I'm really low.
0 likeshi dodie! if u want another poem recommendation, i think u will love "don't hesitate" by mary oliver!!
0 likesThat Was Lovely. Thank You
1 likeThank you Dodie this helps
0 likes🤍 commenting in the hopes that you see this, I’m seeing you in September and I’m so fucking excited and I love you a lot, thank you for your music and your honesty and your happiness, proud of you for doing well, you’re killing it at ‘mo 🤍
2 likesThank you for shoeing us that it is ok, to not be ok, to struggle and to look on the bright side.
0 likesThank you for showing us, that it is ok to be soft towards oneself <3
I struggle with "Oh I am nearly 23 - I should be """over""" it by now. And I am a """failure""'" for not being."
The thinking that led to the happiest and most content moments in my life was the accaptance that it might be impossible to ever be """over""" it. It will always have affacted my life, my growing up. There is time, I have lost - or maybe I haven't. I have lived. In my way.
Thank you, Dodie, for showing us that soft is stable and strong <3
(Already looking forward to your next concerts!)
Thank you so much for this video! <3
0 likesI felt the light in your room and the colors of the breakfast and the softness of your blanket... Very beautifully put. Today I am grateful for how wholesome dodies videos are.
0 likes"I'd take my positive pot and smash it into shards, then use said shards and violently shank all of my enemies. From the first body I'd harvest the bones to make a handle. You know to make it easier for myself." Kai 14th July 2021.
1 likeI think you're awesome Dodie, your love, passion, rage and beauty isn't a depression. Its choice that stems from your life, your love and your potato waffles, toilet roll, ham. Shit I did this with Gwen, I keep getting my fricking shopping list spliced in with my youtube comments.
What I mean is, your not broken or bruised. You shine which means you notice the dark. Both of which give choice. Choice thats seen from our own perspective not from the dictation of others. If you feel blue, I want you to know that I love you Dodie and I think you're awesome. Thank you for being you.
Love Kai x
Im feeling really depressed today and that makes me cry :(
0 likesThis is beautiful, in fact you're beautiful
0 likesyou are ✨hecking beautiful✨ dodie ily 🥺💞
0 likesWENDY COPE !!! an icon everyone should read her poetry collection 'serious concerns'
0 likesthat was absolutely lovely thank you
0 likesSuch a nice poem, the best way to put it. Just exactly it
0 likesLove this so much 🥺
0 likesi know a bunch of ppl may be with me on this one but i need to externalize this feeling anyway.
0 likesI feel like I've grown right beside u: I have been watching your lil vlogs and songs since I was 15/16. Now that I'm 21 going on 22 I have this soothing knowing that you were my comfort (artist) for most of my teen years. I started feeling depressed (having depression also) right about the time u came out with 'down' and i listened to it every night to not feel alone.
Now after years of therapy and healing I'm right here beside you too: I feel good, I feel happy, life has meaning after all. And this made me cry a lot, cuz it's come full circle.
I may be one of your 'daughters' but I feel at peace knowing that you continue to have that special sisterly place i always held for u. You helped me feeling at home and you continue to do it. So thank you and i luv u💘
"just be." thank you, dodie. <3
0 likesday by day , night by night , second by second ... the sun always lights the horizon and life is everywere :)
1 likeIt's quite square when you're not there. Linger, loiter, & lounge - I'm glad you're aRound.
1 likeI do the positive pot thing too! I never actually had a name for it, but it does help me sleep soundly.
0 likesI sit in the dark when I am depressed too.
1 likei'm always so in love with Greta's no eyebrows look
0 likesThe title alone is worth a like💕 happy for you!
0 likesThis video makes me so so happy
0 likesI noticed in you latest isolation videos that you've seemed happy :) happy 4 u
0 likesThis makes me so happy
0 likesthank you for reminding me to water my plants <3
1 likeI saw someone who looked JUST like you in Glasgow today (as in-- I was staring at them for way to long as we walked past each other) and the thought that went through my head was 'but dodie has covid????'
0 likesI love this and I love you so much!
0 likesYour openness about your mental health is inspiring
0 likesoh dodes this video makes me so happy <3 ily
0 likesSometimes slipping into depressive episodes for me is quite gradual, and I tend to realize that I’ve been in a bad place mentally during those more brief moments of clarity where I notice the little things. Gosh there’s a lot of leaves on those trees, that breeze is so comforting, what a nice sound that makes. Sort of like getting new glasses after awhile of wearing an old prescription. You realize just how blurry and dull you’re daily experiences have been recently when you can suddenly feel them more fully and notice the details. I also tend to not listen to much music when I’m not doing well, and only realize once I have a small craving for a certain sound that I haven’t turned on a song in awhile. Lately it’s been your album that bridges that gap for me, so that’s something I’m grateful for. I hope you’re able to rewatch this video now in Feb 2022 while you’re going through some things and remind yourself that contentment is in your future still, as it always has been. Take care, dodie.
0 likesif anyone is struggling w/ anxiety or depression, writing in a gratitude journal on your phone at the end of the day can be so rewarding. eventually your pile will grow and the regular little things you've never felt gratitude toward will show up in your journal eventually.
0 likeslet's feed this positiv pot. thanks for beeing around!
0 likestill next time. much love from germany :)
I feel the same. It's so weird to feel delighted and even be there for 60% instead of 30%... but I try not to question it ^^
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1 likeI have a life long policy to examine why I’m feeling irritable, anxious, or angry AND to accept every happy, content, and peaceful moment as the joy it is without questioning it. I’m blessed.
0 likesIt makes me happy to see other people happy
0 likesi hope i feel this way soon :)
0 likesThis is beautiful Dodie
0 likesI haven't been depressed for a long time now. And what got me out of it the last few times was trying to remember that I have had a lot of beautiful and good moment in life before life is long odds are I will have more of them. typing this I realize how hard it is to get to that kind of thinking while being in the blackwhole of insignificant. But like Dodie did it's good to make physical reminders for yourself. Be safe, take care and know that you are loved.
0 likesFeeling awful doesn't help anyone
0 likesThis one quote is what I needed to hear, rlly
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
0 likesoh i do also read the orange by wendy cope when i'm feeling bad! that poem reminds me where i want to be
0 likesIf you don't get depressed or anxious while you are recovering from COVID, you are making progress. :)
0 likesTHE ORANGE BY WENDY COPE!!!! that is my favorite poem!!! i dyed my hair orange for halloween so i could dress up as the orange :DD
0 likesdodie thank u so much :)
1 likeBetween this and Nick DiRamio coming out, I’m feeling very blessed today 🥲
0 likesNeeded this today. Thanks.
0 likesSame here and what a lovely feeling it is x
0 likesi just instantly started sobbing ahhhh
0 likesany more tips on how to get to this happy place in life?
2 likesfeels WILD to relate to this video aH i love that for us
0 likesi love dancing to the beat of my washer and dryer too
0 likesI'm not crying, you're crying!
1 likefunny cause I'm feeling rather well too at the moment when only two days ago I wanted to just stop existing. I still do, but today i can also see the reasons why i am hanging around here and waiting to see what each day is gonna bring
0 likesYeahh, I'm in this mood too :))
0 likesyou're so amazing
0 likesthis gives me so much hope
0 likesThis will be weird but ever since you made video where you were depressed and made those bean snacks I started to eat them as well and everytime I watch you're videos I have to pause it, make tea and microwave beans :) its dumb but brings me comfort
0 likesFeeling good for you.
0 likesI think that was a brave ( bravey alexi papas)video.
0 likesYou had a tough week so that’s impressive! The comments have been nice!
It always worth mentioning accessing support with mental health is always good be it friends family professional or a good psychotherapist. Gratitude is good 👍
thanks dodie that was like a lil hug :D x
0 likesa beautiful poem of affirmations and love
0 likes"A BIT ALL FUCKING DISNEY PRINCESS-Y!"
the emphasis on fucking was class
I start therapy soon and I hope I can start having more good days
1 likeWhat do you do, when you feel like you’re surrounded by death, or can only imagine death? In my case, my pets are old, or the ones that have passed recently. It’s all I can think about for years. I wish I could stop thinking about impending doom for us all. Sorry if this is too deep 🙃
0 likesi love her so damn much
0 likesgot my vaccine todayyyy i am so relieved but also
0 likesp a i n
so thank u for this
THE ORANGE POEM!!!! I LOVE THAT POEM
0 likesGood for you!!!
0 likesfeels nice to feel nice :)
0 likesidk why but i felt like crying when you said "im sorry"
0 likesEnjoy the mo, Do. :)
0 likesi love this thank you
0 likesNeeded this. Thanks. X
0 likesdodie making me fucking sob, once again. gonna have to bring this one up in therapy lmao
0 likesDear Dodie, as a musician who has battled depression for at least 60 of my 78 years, I find this vid refreshing and wonderfully positive. I've been watching quite a few of your vids, I like very much your songs. My favourite watch at the moment is ' Monster', particularly the version with other favourites, Pomplamoose, although the original, with the band, is really charming, and, should I say 'skippy'? Yes, that'll do it! Also, I've just been finishing a guitar kit, in... orange, and her name shall be 'Mandarina', because that's what I want :)) Keep up the wonderful work. Rich :)
0 likesYou are so pure, I thank god you are you 🥵
0 likesDo you think self isolating (being trapped in an apartment) will make you go backwards? I had covid and I had to stay in my room, no human contact lol and it impacted my physical and mental health severely. I should be more positive, do you have any ways you'll look after yourself while in this lil predicament?
0 likesYAAY SO HAPPY!!!
0 likesBeautiful!
0 likesthe orange just Hits doesnt it fhskhfkshf i cried too when i first read it 🥺🥺
1 liketoday i had a shower, i only had the energy to wash my hair but i sure did shower. i also made some pasta. i am proud
0 likes"That all might sound a bit f***in' disney princessie" is now my favourite dodie quote!
0 likesi'm not depressed as well, my brain just wants to go to bed now ... lol
0 likesadam melch coming through with such nice advice GAH love the mullet man
0 likesThank you for this video
0 likes<3 love this.
0 likesYou can be the opportunity you are waiting for.
0 likeslove this for you truly
0 likesI like, want to marry Dodie and make her smile all the time. I just want to gift her things to see her smile.
1 likeit is such a breath of fresh air coming out of that pit and seeing the world through the eyes of a child and being excited about life again. It happens very seldomly for me nowadays, but i cherish the times when it does happen. i am happy to see that you are feeling happy right now, and i am thrilled to hear that you have been feeling happy for the last several months. cheers, love! ♥
0 likesI really believe that DODIE could read Beatrice Potter books and they would be so aesthetically pleasing, the reading in the video proved it!
0 likesur lovely and I appreciate this reminder
0 likeswe r so human, n i luv you and ur poetry, so real
0 likesI long for this feeling
0 likesThat sick washing machine beat 💀
0 likesThis is good :) this is a good thing :)
0 likesHope you have a good day!
0 likesI really needed this
0 likesi am now crying : , )
0 likescan't wait to see you queen
0 likesThis video makes me really sad, I'm so jealous
0 likesim happy for u
0 likesI do that tooooo re: depressed self basically feeling like my non depressed self doesn't get it! Lol
0 likesthis is v wendy-cope-the-orange-adjacent and i love that for u 🥺♥️
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omfg i just saw the end !!!!!!!!!!
0 likesDear Dodie,
1 likeyour life is like a Wes Anderson characters.
For this I admire you greatly.
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Perfect description~
0 likes@SeerOfTime TYVM.
1 likeJust the way she was describing breakfast reminded me of many sequences in his movies.
Also the fact that yeah…. She practically is..,.
@IceTusestube I adore Wes Anderson, and, yes, I would say that Dodie is almost a walking representation of Anderson’s tranquil, charming style.
1 like@SeerOfTime me too ! pretty much like one of those edgy female creatives like in TRT or MK
1 likePeaceful 🌸
0 likesthe best way to spend my love island break :D
0 likeskairosclerosis :
0 likesn. the moment you realize that you’re currently happy—consciously trying to savor the feeling—which prompts your intellect to identify it, pick it apart and put it in context, where it will slowly dissolve until it’s little more than an aftertaste.
From the dictionary of obscure sorrows. I thought this was perfect for this video😔
Ikr isn’t it lovely!!
0 likesIf you had written that bit about being depressed and sitting in the dark because you see no point in turning on the light in a high school English class, chances are the teacher probably would have told you that the metaphor is too on the nose 😂
0 likesI'm crying in the club
0 likesEarly 2021 was very very rough for me as well.
0 likesConcept: a song version of this with the washer beat underpinning it.
2 likesdodie would be an amazing disney princess, as-is
0 likesPlease I just started into an episode and am so thankful for this
0 likesis ….. that dodie yellow nail polish… am i… in a fever dream?
2 likesjust what i needed ,, i feel so seen lol
0 likesI needed this
0 likesIncase this is useful to anyone, I recoomend an app called Presently, it's like a super minimal gratitude journal, I like to use it to list as many things as I can think of that I've appreciated or been amused by in the day. On good days I capture my abundance, on bad days i embrace the challenge of squeezing out a silver lining. It's nice to know I have that little pocket of joy on my phone for me. Peace ✌
0 likesfuuuuuuuck thank you for making things dodie
0 likesAnd don't feel bad for not feeling bad. Be you. Nice video.
0 likesgirlie tell me while i’m crying
0 likesI'm saying this just to say it - not because of anything said in the video. We do a disservice to ourselves when we think our good-brain days are luck or effortless. All the heart-heavy days are the emotional work that make the good days happen. It's not "choosing happiness."
0 likesNgl I think the sun and good weather helps massively in feeling better and British winters are the most depressing shit
0 likesthat's beautiful
0 likeswhy did this make me cry
0 likesGood :D
0 likesI am also not depressed at the mo
lol imagine you're boutta have a bo burnham watching himself moment
0 likesUr dope :) so r ur vids
0 likesDear dodie could you please consider doing a cover of Love Everybodys gotta live
0 likesyou talk about the sun and the light and colours and nature and I'm like 'yeah and? am I supposed to care?" and I HATE IT I WISH I COULD FEEL
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You’ll get there sweet peach 🖤 I’m sorry it’s hard right now
0 likesThis videos are so comfy
0 likesexcuse me why did that make me cry
1 likeUr glowing babe :)
0 likesthank you 🌺
0 likesJesus Loves you ! He took my depression away! Step by step he’s here for you!
0 likes❤️❤️❤️
1 likeare you on medication? have you ever been on antidepressants?
0 likesi love you so sO much
2 likesmy dad doesn't let me paint my nails and they made get rid of the color and here i was thinking i would never see that nail polish color again and you appear with the Exact same yellow oh my gawd that made me so happy
0 likesi guess i needed this
0 likesLiving for the next coffee
0 likesFollow those positive brain pathways. In every situation there is a positive and a negative way to look at it. Seems obvious…but the brain’s pathways are like a muscle, and the more you exercise a positive or negative outlook, the stronger those pathways get in every situation. I have slipped down the negative pathways many times (it’s much easier to strengthen the negative pathways unfortunately), but for a few years now I’ve managed to avoid it through a consistent conscious effort to always consider the positive, and be aware that some things just aren’t worth thinking about (those things that show bias towards the negative). So glad to hear that you have got out of the negative pathway! Keep building the positive outlook on everything and if you feel yourself slipping, just keep working on it in your mind; it has the ability to conquer!
0 likesThe Orange
0 likesAt lunchtime I bought a huge orange—
The size of it made us all laugh.
I peeled it and shared it with Robert and Dave—
They got quarters and I had a half.
And that orange, it made me so happy,
As ordinary things often do
Just lately. The shopping. A walk in the park.
This is peace and contentment. It’s new.
The rest of the day was quite easy.
I did all the jobs on my list
And enjoyed them and had some time over.
I love you. I’m glad I exist.
-Wendy Cope
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😭
0 likesim coming to the eventim apollo on September 21st very excited please sing special girl a million times
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YES SIR
0 likesdodie yellow is back!
1 like💜
0 likesI cannot wait for this to be me bro
0 likesI’m the complete opposite at the moment
1 likethat nail polish is cute
1 likeis it really dodie yellow tho?
You cannot stagnate in one emotion only all your lifu.
0 likesWhen you resist feeling unpleasant emotions, you resist a part of yourself.
But just because you push yourself away, doesn't mean this could work any time for long.
It might stack up.
Until it crumbles.
Point being, you cannot fulfill your younger self's promise. At least not 24/7.
Maybe you apologise to each other that you aren't capable of keeping that promise and dissolve it. You could also replace it with a renewed one, that is actually doable. Like, you'll keep flowing with the current of life to the best of your abilities, so that you can bask in the sunshine of happhapp as often as possible.
<3
hi sad doddie its going to be ok
0 likesWhy are you crying at the end of the video!? Confused ❤️✊
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0 likes❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
0 likes"A bit fucking Disney princessy". Savage 😆
0 likesWish I could say the same
0 likes(return of the dodie dots!!)
0 likesits nice to just be
0 likesi'm crying
0 likessick beat hahahaha
0 likesthank you
0 likes<3
0 likes<3
0 likes<3
0 likes<3
0 likesWhy are you so cuuuuuuuute sobs in sobs
0 likesI agree!!
0 likesme seeing dodie's nails....
0 likesis it though?
the dodie yellow naiiilllsss!!!
0 likes1:08 (for future reference)
0 likesur nail polish looks lovely
0 likeshugs <3
0 likesThis was nice, but damn did the sick washer beat scare me. Sounded like there was knocking on the wall behind me.
0 likesthat's good x
0 likes💘
0 likesانا فخوره بيكي و بحبك
0 likes<3 <3 <3
0 likesjust because something is simple, doesn't mean it isn't real and deep and good enough :)
3 likesI'm just curious about your micrphone.. please tell me huhu loveyy 😊😘
0 likesi love you
0 likesi love you
0 likesi love you
0 likeswell i'm jeaous
0 likesI lov u sm :(
0 likesI will try step 1
0 likesI love your accent but i have no idea where its from...
0 likesplease someone help me lol
Yaay, woop woop 👍🏼😁
0 likespasta is good life is good!
0 likesThere's not anything 'Disney princessy' about your projection. Its ...
1 like* Wize
* Informed
* Life-embrasing
But most of all, it's true!
We humaaaans tend to forget our most present fallacy, to think we see all that is.
The truth is that we see very little. The numerous positive available observations are more
present than we see ... and tend to be forgotten because of our tendency to confirm the negative.
There are always 10 times more positive than we see, even when we':re happy!
Love your channel!
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@Lunatic girl playlists It's clear you can read, you picked up almost everything that my name and picture make obvious. Don't stop, I'm so enjoying the comedy.
0 likesThat must be nice
0 likes:)
0 likesYay!
0 likesyay :)
0 likes:D
0 likesI want what she has
0 likescan someone help me? i can't have access to professional help but i persevere.
0 likesi know i should take it slow when dealing with depressive episodes but when i'm depressed, there is an obvious reason that's in front of me. i fret that if i do take it slow, those factors will take over me and make it worse and since i've been in this place before, it's proven that it does. but what should i do instead? i have been trying to distract myself, so long and so well that i forget and slip into depression again. i'm so confused, frustrated and most importantly, want it to stop. my situation disabled me to proceed past distraction and into coping. the only way for it to stop is to be taken out of the situation but i can't right now. because of my moods, i'm not able to properly prepare to escape physically in a smart way and knowing that only makes it worse.
(my "situation" isn't something that came recently or whatever, it's been leading up to this moment since i was born into a toxic, severely dysfunctional family. it's emotional abuse to the highest degree and in the early days, more types of abuse happened to me at a young age as well as even more heightened psychological abuse. i've been fighting this my whole life and i'm tired of it. i've reached the highest point of tiredness multiple times, as crazy as that sounds, i have. as i'm growing as a 16 year old, i could feel myself losing that innocence that's kept me through the years. i do not like where i'm headed and MOST of the time, it feels as if i'm strapped in a chair moving through the experiences i face as i ponder the severity of my emotions only having unsatisfying short breaks until my inevitable demise.)
Do you still have dp/dr?
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Ye
1 like@doddleoddle well, that sucks
1 likeyall wanna talk about just being
0 likesJust be a bee
0 likespi time hehe
1 likeTHAT MOIT SOUND A BI' OLL FAKIN DISNAY PRINCEESY
0 likesThats very nice..... but.....please don't eat ketchup with bananas that sounds like torture
0 likesare ur nails dodie yellow tho?
0 likesWhat are those dots?
0 likes:D
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:D
1 likeThank u for helping me thru it
0 likesEverything is, sounded so sing song
0 likesily
0 likesI'm trying.
0 likesYay
0 likesCannot relate
0 likesat least somebodys not
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sorry first thing that came to mind
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1 likeHope you feel better soon! Depression is a bitch. Can I offer you some tea, sunlight, a walk? Sending lovely thoughts your way.
5 likes@Emmy Noether thank u !! i'll absolutely do at least one of these today
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Her girlfriend, I believe.
1 like@Bethany Van Hecke HAHHA no Gret is just my flatmate and I lov her !
1 likeOh no, I am so sorry! I made a wrong assumption.
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0 likesbit fuckin disney princessy tbh
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