I've had times in my life where I've dissociated but I always seem to come back. I think. I've definitely had periods where I feel like I'm dreaming, especially during the night when all the lights are on. I also had a bit of a more scary experience in which I dissociated so far from myself that I couldn't feel any proper emotions and no longer did I recognize myself when I looked in the mirror. It was like seeing a stranger for the first time. I cried a lot during that time. I'm doing better these days I think but I definitely know how it feels


This thing happened in class today where I started day dreaming and then all of a sudden went dizzy and felt like my life was all fake 😳


I have the exact same problem. Your going to be fine. I have derealisation as well remember you are always fine. wear sunny’s, look down. and remember your ganna be fine no matter what. I will go away soon i promise you. It will take time to recover but you will. It’s a spiritual awakening


I get this for months when I'm very stressed. Doctors never seem to know what it is.


I had a really hard period of derealization after a bad edibles trip, now my feeling of derealization is that it feels like i am always always always high. This has turned me from a very social person to someone who simply can not attend parties as every sound and voice seems to cut through it all and i check out of my body


So I watched this a while ago and I was like wow that’s wild Im so sorry that you experience that but actually the other day had a period of derealization for the first time in my life and I would’ve had no idea what was going on without this video.  Because I knew about it I wasn’t so scared or panicky so thanks dodie you’re helping people even a year and a half after this was originally posted


Thank you for sharing your experience. 🌹


I used to have this for like 3 years straight and eventually it faded off with my coping mechanisms. I still get it randomly now but it goes away. <br>How I always explained it to people is when you go see a movie at the cinema and then 2 hours later you walk out of the dark room into the daylight and you still feel so weird for like 10 minutes or so while you’re readjusting

I used to have this for like 3 years straight and eventually it faded off with my coping mechanisms. I still get it randomly now but it goes away.
How I always explained it to people is when you go see a movie at the cinema and then 2 hours later you walk out of the dark room into the daylight and you still feel so weird for like 10 minutes or so while you’re readjusting


For anyone that experiences this, since everyone's different, have you noticed any "triggers" for your derealization? I noticed in another comment someone said they feel like it happens when they have fun for some reason? Or is it a specific sound your hear, or smell that you smell? Or is it 24/7 for you? If you've noticed a trend it'll be awesome to discuss


wow. i feel like this sometimes when i am doing something fun like going to a party or dance or amusement park. i never knew how to explain so i always said i felt like i was dreaming and that i feel light headed and weird.


Wow. Brains are crazy. I totally have no idea how that feels, but I am glad that dodie is open and that people are willing to work to find solutions to such crazy difficulties. I wish her and all people struggling with this all the best. You are important, your health matters, don’t let people disregard your needs


I experience this sometimes, I know it isnt to the extreme (and doesnt feel like to the importantce) of others who experience it all the time but it happens when my dissociation triggers are harder to handle and i dont usually let it happen so if it is handleable then i will blink really hard (I can a barely move my body most of the time) or I will let one of my Headmates take over and thats like being entirely dissociated but when its done it also feels calming and you can also only get a few thoughts in every once in a while that part is the most annoying but we can also feel each others feels so that helps


Oh dude, I’ve had TMS too. IT FEELS SO WEIRD and it didn’t work for me either.


I FEEL LIKE YOU DESCRIBED ALMOST ALL THE TIME AND I NEVER KNEW WHAT IT IS <br>I really think I have it but I'm so afraid to ask for help because my parents don't believe me I have depression and ocd even though I was diagnosed by a professional

I FEEL LIKE YOU DESCRIBED ALMOST ALL THE TIME AND I NEVER KNEW WHAT IT IS
I really think I have it but I'm so afraid to ask for help because my parents don't believe me I have depression and ocd even though I was diagnosed by a professional


This happens to me when I’m really anxious


I am experiencing this right now, as I type this. I haven’t watched the video but I know what it’s like. I wonder if I’ll ever get better.


I have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and i get bouts of Depersonalization and Derealization .

I can get memories of timez of it when i was as young as 5 or 7.

And even going to the nurse because of Depersonalization when i felt floaty and like my legs werent there and that was maybe 2nd or 3rd grade


This feeling has only happened to me once before. I had just gotten out of a <i>really</i> bad case of influenza, (so bad to the point where I had to be hospitalized for three days straight because my temperature was so high and I wasn't able to eat anything without choking on it or throwing it up. Horrible, Horrible times.) Anyway, when I was released from hospital I spent a few days at home to eat and regain my strength. Everything was normal, and I was able to function properly, but there was just something that was...off. When I spoke it didn't sound like my words, it was like it was echoing from another person's mouth instead of my own. Days passed and I began to feel like I was watching myself from the third person, like all my mind could do was imagine a zoomed out image of me on my bed or watching tv, to the point where I couldn't actually see my life from a first person view (it was still there, but my mind didn't focus on it, all it could focus on was the image of my third person view I had created) I told my mom about it and she said it would go away (she wasn't dismissive, we actually had a long talk about it from what I can remember, but that's what it all led up to because I suppose she had no idea what to say.) Once I was ready I went back into school. I got a lot of hugs and hellos, my teachers all greeted me happily because I was a well-liked student and classmate. But all the communicating felt so...weird. I remembered that when I was at home I had thought that going to school and socializing would get me out of this weird experience, but it just made it worse. This all took place over the course of two weeks I believe, but then one day I woke up and the feeling was gone. I felt rejuvenated and everything felt vivid again. I could see through my own eyes and speak through my own mouth, and nothing was weird of unfamiliar. That happened when I was 9 or 10; I'm now 13 and It hasn't happened since, but sometimes when it's quiet and I'm alone with my thoughts, I think about it and if it had ever happened to anyone else. When I watched this video all I could think about was how similar my experience on those two weeks is to Dodie's experience all the time. This is definitely one of my favorite videos on youtube now :)

This feeling has only happened to me once before. I had just gotten out of a _really_ bad case of influenza, (so bad to the point where I had to be hospitalized for three days straight because my temperature was so high and I wasn't able to eat anything without choking on it or throwing it up. Horrible, Horrible times.) Anyway, when I was released from hospital I spent a few days at home to eat and regain my strength. Everything was normal, and I was able to function properly, but there was just something that was...off. When I spoke it didn't sound like my words, it was like it was echoing from another person's mouth instead of my own. Days passed and I began to feel like I was watching myself from the third person, like all my mind could do was imagine a zoomed out image of me on my bed or watching tv, to the point where I couldn't actually see my life from a first person view (it was still there, but my mind didn't focus on it, all it could focus on was the image of my third person view I had created) I told my mom about it and she said it would go away (she wasn't dismissive, we actually had a long talk about it from what I can remember, but that's what it all led up to because I suppose she had no idea what to say.) Once I was ready I went back into school. I got a lot of hugs and hellos, my teachers all greeted me happily because I was a well-liked student and classmate. But all the communicating felt so...weird. I remembered that when I was at home I had thought that going to school and socializing would get me out of this weird experience, but it just made it worse. This all took place over the course of two weeks I believe, but then one day I woke up and the feeling was gone. I felt rejuvenated and everything felt vivid again. I could see through my own eyes and speak through my own mouth, and nothing was weird of unfamiliar. That happened when I was 9 or 10; I'm now 13 and It hasn't happened since, but sometimes when it's quiet and I'm alone with my thoughts, I think about it and if it had ever happened to anyone else. When I watched this video all I could think about was how similar my experience on those two weeks is to Dodie's experience all the time. This is definitely one of my favorite videos on youtube now :)


I suffer from this as well. But then again I struggle with just about every thing so...


I'm glad that I'm not the only one. It happens sometimes and I'm not sure how to make it stop. My family said to lay down, drink water, or some other things that don't work.


I’ve watched this before, but I only realised now I’ve been experiencing that. Shit. I only just got out of depression, and I’ve been wondering what is still wrong.


I could be totally wrong, but my friend had the exact same thing and she figured out it was an allergy to gluten. Might be worth looking into?🌸💕

Sarah Esposito yes definitely I hope that’s all it is!!

Make the world Glossier she could have low iron, i do and i have this same condition at random times. she should have her blood tested all she needs to do is eat differently and take some supplements if that’s the case!


i was so scared when that happened to me it makes me do things bad because i don't actually feel much guilt


I had this conditio for about 6 Months after smoking a Lot of weed.
It was the scariest experience I ever had to Go through and it made me depressed as well.
It defenetly got a Lot better but it has changed me as a person and sometimes i still get verry anctios for no reason.
Cant imagine living like this for multiple years. Stay strong 😘


I had this for about 3 weeks straight. Most horrifying thing I’ve ever experienced. Triggered by a bunch of panic attacks at once and stress, sometimes I worry it will come back after another random panic attack, I absolutely HATED this feeling. I can’t imagine having this forever. Maybe it’s not the same thing I experienced but i can only describe it as feeling like I was in a dream I couldn’t wake up from. I couldn’t focus on anything, was afraid to drive because I couldn’t pay attention, literally felt like I was tipsy exactly like she explained. Wow!


I saw my doctor a while back because I thought I might have narcolepsy... but this seems so much more realistic to how I feel. I’ve been thinking for weeks how I feel so disconnected to what’s going on around me like I’m constantly in a dream... But I didn’t know how to describe it.. my doctor is going to think I’m a crazy self diagnoser 😫


ive has this for a while, but i never knew what it was. thank you, dodie. eg. i was in class today and i just- i just could remember anything that i had just said. thanks again.


okay so write in my note when something happens which feels mentally weird and things like this have been happening for months and i haven’t ever told my therapist about it thinking it wasn’t to big of a deal but now i’m not to sure. i have a therapist for other reasons but i have chronic depression but now i’m thinking this could be another thing to talk about.


Thank you for sharing this.  You are most excellent.


Me too. It sends me into panic attacks so bad and when I pee I feel like I’m wetting the bed even though I’m on the toilet


It's a big relief to know that im not alone even though i feel bad for people who feel this way


I have "brain fog" as a component of chronic fatigue and depression. It is incredibly difficult to describe these afflictions to healthy people. Your description was exceptional and poignant. Very helpful in differentiating the two. ty.


Please try an antipsychotic like abilify. It helped tremendously with my similar symptoms. If you need to talk about it I'd be happy to!


I am 30, working fulltime as a project manager in a digital production company. I probably have a burnout btw, and I think this DP/DR is like a safe modus of my body to cancel out the stimulus that my body can not handle. I only have small episodes on DP/DR, but I had never heard of it before and when I try to explain others they are looking at me as if they see water burning: they don't understand. The DR hits me when I am over stimulated, so it happens for example in the main hall of a train station, but also in a noisy waiting room at the hospital etc. When it overcomes me, my environment gets blurry, as if I am in a bubble and I feel weird. I can still have a conversation with someone, but it takes a huge amount of focus to do so. Also all the emotion get's drawn out of my face, like a pokerface. Precise movements with my hands and fingers become very difficult, so putting in an earring is a huge challenge. It makes me feel out of control of my body, which then leads into anxiety. Until now, it goes away in a couple of hours, followed by a huge drawback the next day where I feel totally exhausted… This video almost has 10k comments at this point and more than 1.5M views. This means so much to me, we are not alone!


I too have this condition and it has improved in the past couple months but now I am weirdly missing the feeling of when it was worse and I do not understand why I miss it.


I feel disconnected from real life a lot of the time, it feels like i'm living inside my head. Sometimes I'm thinking about the future, or when things have been really bad, I've literally created a whole world in my head that I escape to, imagining various scenarios (I've heard this is called maladaptive daydreaming) I don't dissociate when I'm with people, but when I'm alone I go into a dreamworld, hours can pass and it feels like minutes. Also have very debilitating anxiety and have had periods of depression, and often purposely isolate myself sometimes for over a week (easy to do as I work from home) with no real contact with others. I know it's not healthy, but I don't really know where to start or what to call it. Not sure it's the same as this, but perhaps something similar? I so rarely feel present, and it makes it impossible to do things I want to do, and my work suffers greatly due to my daydreaming/ruminating. It feels similar to being in a trance. I also have crazy & super intense dreams every night, often lucid with full range of senses that I can remember vividly when I wake.


Of course I’ve never gone to a doctor or anything for my mental health but I just watched this whole video w my mouth wide open  and the more she explained I have experienced everything she talked ab it’s insane. cuz I’ve been struggling since middle/high school trying to figure out why i suddenly felt so different and nothing felt real and lately it’s only gotten worse where I will have a whole conversation w someone but feel like i wasn’t there for it and it wasn’t real. Luckily I turn 18 in 2 months and I can go to a doctor


I remember watching this video when it first came out and thinking how horrible it must be to have this disorder. Now, almost two years later, I have it. Not being able to cope with the enormous amount of stress I've been put under the past couple of years, not to mention my depression, caused me to develop it. This probably sounds very petty and whiny but it just sucks to think about how sad I was for people who had this disorder, and now I'm one of them.


For the last year and a halo I’ve been feeling this same way as you’ve described I’ve been to the doctor over and over and they kept telling me that nothing was rong and it’s been getting worse these last to 2-3 works it freaked me out and I thought I’ve had a tumor and other things and i really don’t know what to do and it scares me very much most of the time because all I won’t is to run my day without any problems with vision and looking like a complete moron for not remembering the basic things like names and appointments please let me know if you find anything that will help this problem


I used to feel like that when I was like 12 or less, now I’m 14 and i think I haven’t felt like that for a really long time, it just stopped happening idk why


It gets even worse for me the more I think about it and gosh, the few times I feel substantial, it just feels SO GOOD, ugh. Dissociation/Deprsonalization-Derealization sucks.


Recently I've felt so out of touch with everything around me. I feel quieter and more isolated, even when I'm at school with friends, I space out and I find it really hard to come back. And for a few moments I forget where I am, what I'm doing and what I was doing, what day it is, what time it is, and why am I there?
It gives me a lot of anxiety when I don't know where I am or who I'm with in these situations, so I try the grounding technique and it kind of helps, but I look stupid doing it in front of friends and I can't just say "oh, I think I'm disassociating, lol"
Idk what it is. They're little episodes I get but they become more frequent. I'm hoping to talk to a professional soon to help me with this dilemma. Its making me super anxious and kind of depressed due to isolation and hopelessness. This video is helpful. I love you


I told my therapist that I think I experience disassociation a lot and she brushed it off :(
But that was
Many months ago
And it’s still not gone


It only started this year that I started having episodes of derealisation and depersonalization feeling like life is a movie and nothing is really real and it's funny because I think its my first year of not being in chronic depression but I do kinda remember what happens to me because like I said it's like watching a movie and you can always "rewatch" it


I had this when I found out my boyfriend has brain tumor and I guess I didn’t wanted to belive its really happening.
I remember everywhere I was I used to slap myself or poke myself bc I thought its a dream. Mostly at the toilet I was scared to pee bc I thought its a dream and if I wake up I’ll pee in reality.
But it didn’t least for long :D


i honestly feel like derealization is also the reason behind my social anixety. Like every time i go out and interact with people in groups i cant fully focus on them and constantly think "oh no do i sound high or drunk? im not right? do they know that? oh god what am i doing, what are they even saying?" to the point where i dont want to go out anymore... rip ill fix it one day hopefully


I kind of feel like this sometimes, but I'm not sure it's to a large extent. It takes my eyes a long time to adjust to bright or dim lights, which is why I like my room to stay at a medium amount of light spread evenly across the space. I also forget large details of important events, and when retelling the story I often fill in something random even though I know it's not right, but it's my closest guess. And finally i tend to film and photograph when i hang out with my friends, and part of that is probably my love for film and photography, but some of it is also that i space out often and dont want to forget the best moments of my teen years before I miss them all.


Keep your chin up lovie. I feel like this also. Always.


I been feeling like this for the past 4 days. Like a dream I can't wake up from, like and hang over that can't clear up. I dont drink smoke are do drugs and for a second I was wondering if I was drugged? Glad to know I am not alone, I feel disconnected from reality familiar things are strange my memory is fuzzy my thoughts are foggy. I hate it hope it go away soon.


I mainly feel out of my body whenever I’m thinking about it, if I am focused on doing something like basketball or I’m busy doing something I don’t have the feeling, it’s mainly when I’m doing nothing and just thinking about stuff, that’s when the feeling comes over me like my body is just a body that I can control and that I’m not myself


ah yes this was so horrible in middle school for me when i was very depressed. it has basically gone away with the right medication and treatment. i used to have realistic dreams and be confused about whether a dream had actually been a memory of something real, and felt like looking at the world through a pane of glass. but i would like to share that for me it was depression-related and improved immensely as i got that under control. i hope that gives someone hope.  Oh and TMS didn't work for my depression! didn't expect you to mention TMS! sure would be nice if it did...


I feel what your talking about sometimes but it’s temporary for me.


I'm 41. I've had Depersonalization and Derealization since childhood. I shudder remembering how terrified i was as a child. This is a truly awful thing to go through. To STILL go through... <br>Stay strong everyone xxxx

I'm 41. I've had Depersonalization and Derealization since childhood. I shudder remembering how terrified i was as a child. This is a truly awful thing to go through. To STILL go through...
Stay strong everyone xxxx

@ibra józef 🇵🇱 Everybody experiences things differently.  Yes, the intensity of it lessens dramatically. But I always have the Depersonalization feeling. I try to ignore this the best I can. Otherwise fear feeds fear. Making the Derealization show its face. Sadly sometimes no matter what I do. I have a bad time with both.

@ibra józef 🇵🇱 It never went away.  Just is there hanging about waiting to pounce, I have just learnt to accept it and to try and not feed the fear.


I’m on a trip right now and I feel like this 😫


I was diagnosed by my psychiatrist. she prescribed me anti-depressants and anxiety medication.


im suffering with this a lot recently but haven’t been diagnosed, its terrifying i can’t deal with it anymore


i used to / still get this when something bad has happened. the only way i used to connect it with is the feeling of being drunk. it’s very easy to zone out, and it’s very hard to pay attention just like she explained, it literally feels like your dreaming. it’s such an uncomfortable experience.


no i literally ask myself all of the time <b>what if all of this is a dream and when we wake up we repeat the things we did in the dream</b>

no i literally ask myself all of the time *what if all of this is a dream and when we wake up we repeat the things we did in the dream*


I have bouts of this, and people really don't understand when I tell them. It happens when I am overwhelmed, especially in crowds or unfamiliar places. Sometimes just randomly


honestly i thought i was going crazy for so long. it’s hard to just completely wake up one morning & not feel like you’re there. it’s been like 3 years now and it still hasn’t left. i wish i could just go back to the way my life used to feel. it’s irritating to feeling so confused all the time . during school it’s difficult to take information in i feel so stupid bc i don’t feel like i’m understanding. i’m just glad i’m not fully alone w this.


I thought this was normal. I’ve gone through what I would describe in the same way kind of thing since like 5-6 grade, I also started having anxiety since then. I thought this was  just the world lol. I probs don’t have this just, well yeh. That happens.


Every once in a while I feel like I'm looking at myself from outside my body, and feeling pity for "the person who owns that body", like I'm just a spirit or I have nothing to do w it :-/


I don’t know how to explain this but, Whenever I sleep I always know and feel when Im in a dream, it’s like, I can feel it. And When I wanna wake up I always force myself in my dream to wake up and boom im awake..


Holy shit!!! Seeing dark or seeing black around the edges of your vision is common!!! I thought I was going nuts!!


Wow I was chronic with this as a child
Had a Very abusive childhood
Don’t do it anymore


yeah there was a distinct switch in my entire being in 8th grade. i became depressed and anxious. i starved myself and self-harmed. all the while, my memory was shot (i had a great memory as a kid) and i couldn’t concentrate bc of the cotton feeling in my brain. i sorta figured out on my own it was depersonalization, but i convinced myself i was just crazy. now i’m in a really bad episode of numbness and depression and i realized that it has been depersonalization this entire time. i just need to get some therapy for it.


I'll be with my boyfriend hanging out and doing normal things and ill feel normal, then when he leaves I feel like I didn't really even experience that. or sometimes ill walk around in a big open place and ill feel like I'm not really here, and I'm detached from my body. my friend experiences it too. I think that the reason this started is because of weed, I tried it once and got really bad anxiety, and during me being high I felt unreal and it never went away, sometimes I think "I'm going to wake up soon." but I never wake up, I never feel real. it is the scariest thing I've ever felt and I hate it. I'm glad that there is a disorder or whatever for it because it gives me some but not all relief, I'm still scared because I know that this feeling may never go away and might just follow me till the end and its very scary.


Occasionally i feel like im high (not drunk), and ill realize maybe mid conversion that what i said is real and that its not a dream, sometimes when im happy or when im with certain people, im wondering if i have this? Ive looked up the symptoms and talked to my sister, but she said it was more anxiety/existential, which doesnt sound too good either. I havent been diagnosed with anything, but i have anxiety and i think i might have depression (mild), and i think i could possibly have this? I also have bad memory, but i dont have the vision thing (i dont think) and honestly i cant even remember the rest of the things she said cuz im writing this after i watched it


I was born with this and it’s only getting worse but to me it’s just a normal thing for me but the one thing I can never get use to is having deja vu ALL the time bc I can’t tell dreams from reality so they mix together


Actually thought I was the only one until right now. Thank you


When you tell your school counselor about you having this and she tells you that you’re pretending


I have the same condition and theres one thing that pulls me back into reality and that thing is weed


The best way to describe it to people who don't know what you're talking about is: Deja Vu ... the sensation just as you get Deja Vu that everything around you is suddenly surreal,  that is depersonalisation/derealisation disorder, except that it's all the time for us...


I'm not sure if it's normal, but since past few years I've been feeling kind of... Weird? I mean, I could be in class for example and it's just like I'm losing my sense of reality. For a moment I have no idea where am I, what is happening and I'm weirdly scared. It's hard to explain, I probably make no sense.


It's the brighest time of the day but everything is so dark and blurry. I can hear but i can't listen i can't feel. A drop of tear could have saved me if i could cry. I wait for the nights to run away from this nonsense that i can't be a part of but somehow i still complain that im not gettin any pleasure from life

That's how i would describe it


I tend to embrace the feeling when it comes. If I don't then it triggers a panic attack feeling as if nothing exists. What I do is imagine my vision as watching a screen and checking that I'm still in control of my hands and fingers. Then I think of things like I'm controlling myself like a video game and try to think of the benefits of it. I then feel like I can do a lot more and have more potential to get things done. If I don't feel like me then I imagine that someone I care about is with me in my own mind helping take my stress or pain. Although I admit if my mental state isn't too positive it isn't always great since to make the best of a situation you have to really imagine it being good. I hope this helps anyone who reads it.


oh no that's me

this part of my life is... very stressful.
my body feels lighter than air or sometimes heavier than a whale
and sometimes i feel like the person in the mirror is constantly changing shape, but it still looks a little like me.
all of my memories feel more like things ive seen in a movie rather than things i have experienced.
i know i'm not in the moment and i subconsciously pick at my fingers until they bleed


I'm crying i have been avoiding this video for two years now and i cant help but hate my self for it because i think i need to go get myself checked the ironic thing is that when this video came out i started to stop going to the doctors less and less the last time i went to the doctors was last year around December because i had strep throat the reason I'm sharing this is because i just realized if you think you need help or something is wrong SOMETHING PROBABLY IS WRONG i obviously cant self diagnose myself but i think its time we all start taking better care of our selves and start sharing our stories a little more and a little better to help others who don't believe it until they see that this isn't just something happening to them or something everyone is going threw but something they need to look out for  (yes there are zero periods haha)


Bruh I have this too, it really sucks. I know how terrible it is, my memory is always awful, and I feel like I'm never myself. I wish you the best in dealing with it ❤


I have this. How are you doing? Also do you by chance have the Mirena IUD? Or ever had it? Asking as I relate mine to it.


When im really baked, like, <b>SUPER</b> baked, I feel like i'm in a dream, but not to this extent. I have no idea how you cope with it

When im really baked, like, *SUPER* baked, I feel like i'm in a dream, but not to this extent. I have no idea how you cope with it


I don’t think I have this bc I’ve rarely had the vision thing but I feel like I’m not present all the time except for rare moments to the point where I completely zone out or things don’t feel real and when I was very young (like 7ish or maybe 9) I would constantly feel fake and look at my hands and be like “oh my gosh those are mine” and would go into confusing mind episodes where I felt like everything was fake. Also it makes it harder to deal with things because even in moments where I know I’m supposed to have immense feelings I can’t conjure them because I feel so out of it. One of the only things that really helps me is fiction and watching TV and reading because it makes me feel alive. I don’t know why I just poured my heart out to a bunch of strangers on the Internet I’ve just never really talked about it and I’ve always felt crazy. It’s like I go through extreme moments where I feel too much and everything is heightened and then moments where I don’t feel anything at all.


I had it bad when I was in elementary school but it stopped now I'm in high school and its coming back I have found if I smoke or eat a lot of bud/weed and feel vary vary spaced out when I'm not high anymore it doesn't feel as bad and plus its is experience a few times a week try it a few times and see how you feel trust me


the being drunk all the time description is so fucking perfect omg


Well, here we go.<br>In bigger sutuations, with more people, I'll walk through syrup. Look through a film. Hear everything, smell everything, colors more vibrant. I'll switch from the film syrup to the vibrant colors and hear everything. Its stressful. Anxious.

Well, here we go.
In bigger sutuations, with more people, I'll walk through syrup. Look through a film. Hear everything, smell everything, colors more vibrant. I'll switch from the film syrup to the vibrant colors and hear everything. Its stressful. Anxious.


I found this video by googling why do I feel like that
Things you were saying were true but I was not really sure if this is what I have
And then you said that you see as you were drunk but you do not feel drunk and after that I knew you were talking about the same I experience


I don’t have this all the time, but I get it in the morning, when I walk places, often when I’m walking around school. It’s often like I’m talking and walking and my body’s moving and I’m just watching behind fog and glass and I know I’m talking kinda, I know stuffs going on, but I have no control of my self and I’m not sure what I’m talking about or how I got here or when this started happening. I have no sense of time,  and I have HUGEEEE gaps in memory for years (I’m 16, I can’t remember years 7-9 at school at all, none of year 10). I also have this close friend that I cannot for the life of me remember meeting, or socialising with, or knowing. It’s like I just woke up one day and she was there and my friend. I’m diagnosed with depression and anxiety.

Have you ever heard of dissociative identity disorder? Check out the channel dissociadid


Okay Im not sure if I have this. Idk. It used to happen ALOT at school. But stoped this summer. I would feel exactly as you said . Floating, confused, and It used to scare me, but I learned to tell my self that it is real life and that to keep walking or keep doing what I’m doing. I haven’t experienced this in a while, as I said it only happened at school. Can someone help?


I feel like I'm watching my life like if it was on a tv and I'm not really paying attention to it


I have a dissociative disorder. Mine is no longer as severe as it was. But I was in an interview last week while the woman was talking I began to have an extreme episode of dissociation and was doing everything I could to ground myself. Therapy really helped by giving me steps to stay present. Feeling the fabric on the chair. Focusing on a smell in the air. Having an awareness that it's happening was half the battle for me. Luckily she didn't notice because it was towards the end of the interview and I got the job.


Mine also started since 2012 and it's still here


this is very very late but i feel i need to share this before i forget. since watching this video, i realized as a child ( one of the very few things i can remember ) that i always felt as if i was being controlled in a video game or being in a simulation. and i remember saying things and then immediately not remembering if i said it a second ago or two hours ago. i’ve been experiencing this my entire life. i always thought it was normal. i can barely even remember what i did an hour ago. it’s getting worse. i keep slipping into derealization and slipping back into reality. i don’t understand it


Wow, did anyone else feel themselves drifting away while she was talking?


I started feeling like this around the start of winter, so like november
I live in Norway so it starts getting dark around then like
All the time
Only a couple of hours of sunlight a day
I thought it was that, and I went through the winter thinking I had seasonal depression
I was sure this would go away in the summer, summer makes me happy! It’s always made me happy so why wouldn’t it now
I would cry every day during winter, and more and more snow would come, just making me even more depressed
I wanted to feel alive again, I wanted to know what was happening all the time
I hated having the spacing out things happen
And then before I knew it, after the long winter, the snow started melting
I was still waiting to feel better
Thinking to myself «oh summer hasn’t completely started yet»
Suddenly I could wear shorts outside, and it was july.
I’m still stuck with this feeling
And now after 8 months of it I found this
Thank you, I know I’m not alone anymore. It truly felt like that
I’m going to go to the doctor and like, figure things out


I have the same thing and I have learned to not react or it will get worse


Ummm well this explains why I can’t remember literally anything and how my eyes are dumb and will not focus half the time and how I don’t recognize myself in mirrors like big oop looks like I have this. Yay more stuff that means my brain is a mess.


I've had depersonalization/derealization since I was 13 years old. I'm 24 now. For the first 7 years I had little panic attacks, felt hopeless, kept counting the years, thinking that "there has been x time since I haven't been truly living"...but the truth is... We keep living, we keep being here even when we feel we aren't. This is a way of existing in the world as well and the more I focused on other things, the easier it became. This is the first time I thought about it in years, because only now I'm realizing I've been feeling like this for 11 years! I do believe I'll feel "real" again at some point, but until then, I just keep living my life the way I can. I've been using the existential angst that this feeling of unreality is giving me to ask questions about Life, the Universe and Everything, and overall I found that what helped me the most was to live from my heart more than from my mind. More love (for people,  for myself, for everything) - less fear - less anxiety - more purpose, satisfaction and less stopping in the middle of something to question its reality and then go like aaaaaaa. Thanks a lot for this video, when I first started feeling like this there were just a couple of youtubers talking about this, now it's very encouraging to see more people speaking out and also sending positive messages like you do <3


Ever since I've been at secondary school, I've been feeling like I'm flying through time and I used to look around and take everything in. Now when I go to 90 minutes football match, I can't remember what happened. It's really frustrating.

Abby Marie That's what my abusive mom said too. She also told me to stop telling anyone I wanted to kill myself because it made her look like a bad mother lol.

If being a teenager includes so much struggle, even just a little, why is it so awful to want help for it? To want to have a better experience?

Abby Marie I hope so, don't wanna be stuck with this for the rest of my life- it sucks.

Anyway, do you suggest I try and do something about it or should I just wait it out?

Aquatic Doodles that’s pretty much just being a teenager. Not a mental illness.

I'm in year8 and I have decent memory-ish but I'm just so bored! It might've something to do with not having close friends, and not being invited to parties, etc... Sometimes I feel depressed, like, REALLY depressed, maybe it's just puberty being a bitch, I dunno.


Thank you so much for sharing!

I hate to be the one who always claims "I have that too!!" But I've gone through something similar. I always thought of it as a symptom of sleep deprivation. I never thought my anxiety could be the cause. I thought the whole vision thing was normal, and it was just a product of my eyes adjusting. The memory, a product of no sleep.

 Although the worst, most noticable part was the inability to tell dreams from reality. I've gone from days to a couple weeks at a time where I have to check texts, my camera roll, my diary, my homework binder to figure out what I did and didn't dream. My famous line to my friends has become "Did I tell you about that for real? Or was that a dream?" It's not necessarily that I feel like I'm dreaming, but it's that my dreams feel too real.

I'm not saying I have exactly what she does, but it definitely makes me feel less alone.

i understand. for me, my dreams are normal but it’s reality that takes a more dreamy role and dreams that take a reality role

@Ella Marlan It seems to really be affecting your mental health I would suggest bringing it up with your gaurdian because there might be medication or something that could help

DUDE this is happening to me literally more and more often and its scary because I think I'm going crazy like all my friends bash me for it because it is coming more and more common for me to mix up dreams with reality and I am daydreaming more and more each day and I feel so spaced out sometimes it makes me exhausted I also have anxiety. Have you gotten any help for it? pls reply ahaha I feel so alone in what is happening in my brain I just want an explanation for it

@MissMayawl yeah I agree, like, Even if I don't have the condition she does, it's still really comforting to know that the feeling is valid

@Nickolas G the condition she's talking about seems to be connected to anxiety. So yeah, definitely possible, especially if you've been more stressed, tired, or have just changed your ways to cope

I might have this too but I cant say for sure. I have the sysymptoms she is describing. It happened to be about 4 years ago and stopped but has come back about a week ago. Not sure if that is possible with this so I really dont know what it is


I’ve been dealing with this for 5 years. Thank you so much for sharing about this topic 👏


I've got dissociation all the time. It's not as bad, but it's constant. It gets really bad in public at stores or restaurants, or with big groups. My memory has been effected by it too. I've been trying to do things like yoga to ground myself and feel my body, but it's hard.


Yo, I have the same problem, I've had it for years, sometimes the feeling has lead me to start having very reoccurring panic attacks which isn't fun ;-; What usually helps me cope with it is watching youtube tbh.. I just find something I can focus on and help me forget about how I feel cause thinking about it is what leads me to have the panic attacks.


I had dp for five years but it turned into anxiety, and I hadn’t it for two whole years. One month ago I had an episode of dp and two days after an episode derealisation for the first time during panic and now I can’t get over it like i’m going crazy .
Anyways I have some tips for dr, when you have it basically you feel like everything is a dream, not real, or two dimensional, the vision is kind of blurry, you don’t recognise anything for example people or yourself or objects. Yeah but even if your dreaming you are real. I mean an illusion belong to something real. If illusions are illusions it doesn’t make sense. Illusions are SOMETHING.If you believe you are the only human being I swear I am real (still my doubt btw). Your blurred vision is normal if you have anxiety, or if you don’t spend time outside and other thousands reasons. And if you don’t remember a lot things, it happen even to people without dpdr. If you don’t recognise human remember that is just a feeling(yeah every fucking time I see a person I am triggered)like when you repeat too many times a word, it sounds weird. I Hope everyone will get over this
Ps
Don’t read forums or shit, it just make you feel like this will last forever and that’s incorrect because When people get rid of dpdr, updating forums is their last problem


This happens when i go on my bike at night like in the day at 7 pm intill 9 pm and then feel like im floating and i can fly but i can never  lift off the ground .


we love a comment section full of self diagnosing


Thank you for this! Does weed help? Do you take cbd oil?


okay so i’ve dealt with feelings like what you described a few times in my life they’ve all happened at parties when it’s been loud and there’s been lots of lights and i’ve described it to my family about how everything goes blurry and time skips a little bit and they didn’t understand it and i had no idea what it was but after watching this i think it might be derealisation ?? all of what you described is pretty accurate to what i’m feeling and even though it’s only happened a few times throughout my life (my first time was at a friends party in grade three) i feel a lot better about it knowing that i can put a name to it thank you for being so vocal about it :))))


So.... I have... had these symptoms? I don't want to self diagnose but I feel these symptons strongly when I'm in over stimulating places or in situations I'm not used to that invloves a lot of socializing? And I just kinda consider it me being "too tired" or "stressed" and I know everyone considers it really scary, but I've always felt calmer in this dissociation because I don't have to think about what I say or anything because I'm not fully in control of that and I can just let it happen and then go home and calm down. I always end up thinking "wow I really look like that? Thats not what I looked like earlier" though when I see my reflection though lol ^.^;,; maybe I don't have this thing and I'm just weird because I guess being relaxed in this state isn't really how people have said this state of being is


<b>hugs you and everyone else going through this</b>

*hugs you and everyone else going through this*


When this used to happen to me like ALL THE TIME I thought I was just had at focusing so for a very long time I thought I had adhd....oops


This happens to me all the time idk if it’s serious though I never looked into it


You aren't alone, I have the same thing and have for three years now, I'm only 14, I've had depression and my severe anxiety is the reason for being like this. I didn't know others had this before you so thankyou.


i assumed she had aspergers its a lot harder to see in women. i could feel the same personality traits as me sometimes watching the videos, it explains how she acts so well and can sing on pitch,

i guess feeling dreamy when there are a lot of people around, kind of tics a box too because you have to read everyone rather than do it naturally, its instantly tiring.


OK I've had this for 2 years and here's some stuff I've learned  --- I can't tell if it's placebo or not, but what's really helped me, more than anything, is actually getting allergy shots to treat seasonal allergies and dust and animals. I know that seems like it's a totally different issue, but honestly every time I'm in a dusty place or it's pollen season I start having these exact symptoms - I feel drunk, spaced out, like everything is a dream- and NO other symptoms you'd usually get with allergies. I used to feel this way CONSTANTLY and it made me seriously depressed, which led me to believe my depression was the root cause. I think a lot of people don't realize how your sinuses can affect your mind and alter your mood really drastically, since they're basically wrapped all around your brain.<br>I'm not trying to diagnose anyone's mental illnesses and boil it all down to allergies, just wanted to share my experience and what's helped me because I know how insanely suckular it is to go through this. Everyone is different of course, and I hope you all can find something that works for you :)

OK I've had this for 2 years and here's some stuff I've learned  --- I can't tell if it's placebo or not, but what's really helped me, more than anything, is actually getting allergy shots to treat seasonal allergies and dust and animals. I know that seems like it's a totally different issue, but honestly every time I'm in a dusty place or it's pollen season I start having these exact symptoms - I feel drunk, spaced out, like everything is a dream- and NO other symptoms you'd usually get with allergies. I used to feel this way CONSTANTLY and it made me seriously depressed, which led me to believe my depression was the root cause. I think a lot of people don't realize how your sinuses can affect your mind and alter your mood really drastically, since they're basically wrapped all around your brain.
I'm not trying to diagnose anyone's mental illnesses and boil it all down to allergies, just wanted to share my experience and what's helped me because I know how insanely suckular it is to go through this. Everyone is different of course, and I hope you all can find something that works for you :)

I really believe you're on to something. I have terrible allergies & have been dissociating since I was young!

Just had to post a comment saying I think you might be onto something my sinus is always blocked... Lol

Allergies, inner issues, and congested sinuses all exacerbate my feelings of DR. I don't think they cause it, but they definitely make it worse, so you're onto something!

I have OCD and generalized anxiety but I've noticed that my migraines caused that feeling. I literally panicked every time I got a migraine in the back of my head. I googled (despite that usually being bad to do & bad for my OCD) and found that was likely related to my allergies. So anytime I get a migraine I take allergy medicine and my disassociation rarely happens now.


ever tried meditation?  look into dzogchen, zen or doing nothing meditation, those are more intuitive approaches which feel very natural to me


I used to have constantly have episodes of this when I was a teen. It is is really disturbing. At one point, my mother took me to a doctor, but nothing came of this. I had never heard of the term derealization until years later. I realized it's symptoms matched almost exactly the mysterious frightening feelings that I would often experience throughout middle school and high school.


I’m so thankful for this video. For the past few years ive gone through time periods where I thought I was suffering from anxiety or depression but after watching this I’m pretty sure this is what I suffer from. It’s like I’ll be fine for a month and then all of a sudden I’ll experience weeks of blurriness where I everything around me feels surreal like I’m in a fantasy movie

Once I went to a Summer camp, and I honestly couldn't remember anything from the four days.

Ross W i used to feel like this all the time and now it comes in waves after a while of feeling okay it's strange right? i'm so thankful dodie opens up about it


I had this for a few months after smoking to much dmt


literally i hate napping because it disorients me so so so so much when i wake up. i couldn't imagine feeling like that all the time.


Do you have any stomach conditions?  Could be something with an underlying cause such as SIBO or a Lyme-type under-the-radar infection....  (I'm not a doctor.)


Have you looked into from the Medical Medium?  Completely physical real health issue that people are healing from!!!!!!!!


I had just gone to therapy earlier and I tried to describe just this. I've heard of it, I know what it is but I didn't want to admit or believe it. I had gone through a long episode of depression all summer along with panic attacks from anxiety. I had been hospitalized because of it and it was horrifying. <br>Then after about a month of that extremely long episode. I've been feeling just this. Nothing feels real. I often get dizzy or even "sick" and causes me more anxiousness. I am getting help and I'm thankful for just that. Remember if you ever feel like your surroundings or just everything in general are unreal try a distraction such as a puzzle, journaling, or try a game of solitaire ( just some examples) remember you are loved ♥

I had just gone to therapy earlier and I tried to describe just this. I've heard of it, I know what it is but I didn't want to admit or believe it. I had gone through a long episode of depression all summer along with panic attacks from anxiety. I had been hospitalized because of it and it was horrifying.
Then after about a month of that extremely long episode. I've been feeling just this. Nothing feels real. I often get dizzy or even "sick" and causes me more anxiousness. I am getting help and I'm thankful for just that. Remember if you ever feel like your surroundings or just everything in general are unreal try a distraction such as a puzzle, journaling, or try a game of solitaire ( just some examples) remember you are loved ♥


i thought everyone experienced this,, time to go to the doctor


Omg there is a name for it?????? Brb heading back to my doctor 😂 shitttt. I seriously thought I was crazy. I’ve been crying weekly because I thought I was going insane!


i have some of these symptoms but they're because of autism for me


Okay but i need a little help. I thought I might have this but Dodie explained it a bit different than how i experience it.

Sometimes i cant focus, no matter how much i try to readjust my eyesight it always feels like im looking at something from a far. The world seems to fast, or too slow, and im going in the opposite speed. That makes me freak out when it happens because i get overwhelmed. My brain cant comprehend certain stuff and i can never focus on one thing without doing it multiple times to try and understand. I also forget easily, and im always out of it. Blanking out, forgetting how much time has passed or what my friend was talking to me about. I often feel unreal, like my hands are made of plastic, or arent my own. It freaks me out so much, but i dont know if its derealization. Can someone help?


I was just exposed to the terms depersonalization and derealization, and this video helped me understand it better (from an emotional standpoint). Thanks.


I have/had that as a symptom with my anxiety. You feel so free when it's not there and so strange when it's there. Hopefully will never have it again 🙏

I'm a maladaptive daydreamer and I also have an insomnia-type-thing that allows me to feel normal when I don't sleep at night but makes me feel light and disconnected when I do sleep.

Rayowag I was thinking this too! I have anxiety and this happens to me. But not constantly. Sometimes in shopping areas. Always cvs! Idk why! Or if I’m done writing a letter, Blog, or song or something.


I suffer from the same condition. I have such a problem with helping people understand it, so I really appreciate someone with an audience bringing light to this issue. It's been just as challenging to get doctors to understand as it is with friends and family, and it has always been a major contributing factor in my depression. Medication has helped, but it's still a journey. Thank you for your openness!


I dont know if this is like the same as this but i could just be sitting there and feeling like im dreaming like im not day dreaming im awake and i could like be talking to someone but i dont feel like its actually happening like im in a dream idk how to explain it its really wierd and it happens all the time does anyone else relate to me?


all of this sounds familiar but I'm not sure... an example of what it feels like; i'll be on a bus and ill look at my surroundings ill tell myself I'm looking at a tree but it won't process that is there and its like my thoughts surround me and that they are the only thing that's happening, I feel as though I'm on autopilot,  that I have a subconscious of what I'm doing and ill look normal to everyone else but I will feel out of it and like I'm watching a video or that I'm dreaming it feels its not happening or that I'm observing it from afar,  its so weird and hard to describe and idk if its normal or if it's me going insane


Oml Ok I’m not tryna self diagnose but I’ve definitely experienced this (or something similar to it) for at least the past 3 years, sometimes on and off. When I tried explaining it to my old therapist she said I just wasn’t eating enough??? So I started bringing granola bars with me to school but it didn’t stop so I just kinda tried to pretend it wasn’t happening?? Idk but at least I’m not alone in this.


holy shit.. ive felt this way for about three years now and was never able to describe it until you read the stuff in your book. My mind is blown because I've never been able to explain it people.


just saw your instagram post, hope you'll be fine soon. being a dummy for research or for anything is scary (from experience, it's dangerous and stressful). also about the fmri thing, mri tests are loud and annoying lol.


i just thought that’s how your brain worked tbh. i thought that’s how your brain reacts to the eyes. i feel like i have this and ocd, but my parents haven’t taken me to a therapist, and i’m scared.

edit- also i’m not depressed. i have anxiety, specifically social anxiety, but i’m an extrovert??

*i just thought that’s how your brain worked tbh. i thought that’s how your brain reacts to the eyes. i feel like i have this and ocd, but my parents haven’t taken me to a therapist, and i’m scared.*

edit- also i’m not depressed. i have anxiety, specifically social anxiety, but i’m an extrovert??

extroverts can have social anxiety, too. the introvert/extrovert distinction is really all about whether you are energized by social situations (extrovert) or depleted by them (introvert).


Ok this is sad but<br>Why didn’t school teach me this tho?

Ok this is sad but
Why didn’t school teach me this tho?


I've had that happened to me before once was when I was walking in school I don't recall if I was heading to my next class or lunch but as I was walking I felt like I was dreaming and I would ask myself, "am I really here?" Then I would answer my own question: "you're actually here right now, relax." I think I recently felt that sensation about a week ago tomorrow. It happeneds from time to time. I have anxiety I read on Wikipedia that having anxiety and if you've had pantic attacks in the past plus having low self-esteem is a few of the reasons why that dreamlike sensation manifest itself.


Lmao, don’t want to self diagnose. But the beginning of 7th grade to now (beginning of 8th grade soon) I’ve felt like I’m in a dream/seeing life through a movie screen. The way Dodie describes it is exactly how I feel, and it scares me because I don’t like it. I’ve had multiple break downs and anxiety attacks because I felt like I wasn’t normal or something was wrong with me. But of course, I haven’t even tried to reach out for help because I’m always too anxious to ask/tell my parents. I’ve gotten more depressed because of it and I want help but feel like I don’t deserve it.


You should not take 5HTP while on SSRI's if you still are, it is quite dangerous.
I take Vyvanse, there is no reason pharmacologically it should help but I feel like it does keep me more alert and aware in the severest of fuzzy times although I think it makes the logging of memories worse or perhaps my memory-logging has just coincidentally gotten worse.
Oddly, if I go off of the Vyvanse for more than a day I experience an episode of hyper-realization where everything feels real and lucid for the first time or like I am waking up from the dream. It is overwhelming...feeling coming back to your hands, clear vision, clear audio, hearing yourself breathing and feeling it...it can be scary and I think that is why my brain keeps me in the dream world.
Best wishes to you.


Hey Dodie, I just want to say I really empathize with your situation. I've struggled with it for a long time myself and I still do struggle occasionally. For me, improving my diet improved my condition a ton. I really believe diet is a huge factor in mental illnesses from my personal experience. I know people get annoyed when people talk about how diet affects mental illness, but I don't think it can be emphasized enough. Processed foods have chemicals that fuck with your brain chemistry like crazy, also animal products have hormones that fuck with your brain, and they're very difficult to digest, and the gut is the second brain so if you have crap sitting in your colon it's gonna fuck with your mental health. I follow a whole-foods vegan diet and I HIGHLY RECOMMEND that you try it too. Best of luck I know it's hard but keep trying you have the right mentality :) <3

Breathing Oxyjenn i don't doubt it. my experience with it stopped after i cut out all junk food, ate healthy and started exercising. don't get me wrong it didn't happen over night but after 6 months of keeping up with my new routine. it was completely gone. i saw my first sign of improvement after about a month and a half and then it slowly started getting better and better

My derelization git word from a vegan diet just saying, like I lost so much weight and just stopped eating so this doesn't always work

Elise M Elise M It's pretty hard to not self diagnose when I have walked into multiple doctors offices and they haven't a clue what I'm on about or how to treat me.
When I was 12 I diagnosed myself with anemia and I then found it I was severely anemic and have had it ever since but all doctors do is give me iron supplements for a while and then when I come off of them I become anemic again.
There has to be a reason WHY i keep becoming anemic, just like there has to be a reason why I feel so bad mentally.
Not saying it is diet, as I said this happened to me after getting the copper coil which has poisoned my body I believe. Doctors refuse to believe this but my nutritional therapist believes this is the case and I have completed tests which prove it, as well as having aluminium poisoning (from vaccinations) and mercury poisoning.
I feel like something in our bodies has to be out of tune or off balance for this to occur and it's just about finding what it is for you whether it's hormones or diet - there has to be something.
I do not believe I fully 'thought' myself into feeling high / drunk 24/7 - to me that is absurd. I do believe it has been a contributing factor though. I think giving my body the correct nutrients and detoxing any horrible toxic matter will help me and I feel if people already haven't then they should do some research on their physical health as well.
The reason I started researching my physical health when this happened to me is because I started feeling tired a lot (even when my blood count was up!), I have become very very sensitive to caffeine when I never was before, I would get headaches and pains in my
joints.
It's really hard but i'll find a way out and hopefully others will too!x

A reaction to chemical makes sense. Diet and exercise does have an impact on brain chemistry. But diet doesn't cause it. I just think a person shouldn't self diagnose because it's tricky. It could be a physical condition, like anemia especially if it's diet related.

Elise M

I have chronic derealization and it started when I came off of the pill and then got the copper coil (which I believe has poisoned me).

When I eat good, I feel good.
I agree that it is to do with diet.
What we fuel our bodies with is so crucial to our health. Our gut is the place where all our nutrients (and toxins) are absorbed so it is 100% acceptable to believe this is the case.
I have started clean eating - mostly vegan with no grains. And I have been drinking fermented cabbage and honestly the amount of weird stuff my body has been purging is crazy.
Our brain, our thoughts and feelings are all just chemicals/chemical reactions and so if the chemicals are off balance in our body due to diet then why would it not affect our brain / mind.
I was really skeptical of this protocol but honestly I have been in such a dark place for so long, trying to hard to 'snap out of it'.
Many people on this page are talking about their experiences with many different symptoms and how they're being reversed (including anxiety, depression, memory issues, brain fog etc).
I'll link it incase anyone would like to look.
There are around 50,000 members and many seeing unreal results.
It's not for money, it's just information, you have nothing to lose.
And I can firmly say it's been helping me and I think this may be my way out of this nightmare

https://m.facebook.com/profile.php?id=197663030736437&ref=content_filter


Dave Long Dont mind me I'm just gonna go have an existential crisis


Yooooo like nobody else ever talks about this or seems to have it, it sucks so much.


Omg,so THAT'S WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME! I literally was crying tears of joy as i watched your video,My condition isn't EXACTLY like yours but it is quite similar.I have trouble forming close bonds with others because i daydream and zone out.And i just don't mean a little bit or from time to time.I daydream A LOT,TOO MUCH IN FACT,too much to the point where it requires FOCUS to focus,and that being in my head is normal.I get overwhelmed in large crowds,as i don't have enough space to walk around and let my mind wander.Sometimes,and please don't laugh at me,i'll go into the bathroom walking around for 45 minutes because i feel like it.No.I FEEL like i NEED too.Just so i can be alone.Not only do i daydream and have attention(I don't focus well,which causes me to have this unintentional desire to procrasinate) problems,I ALWAYS have to be moving.I shift from side to side,position to position when i stand or sit.I'll roll over or change position while laying down.I pace back and forth a lot.If i can't move,i'll become anxious.I also can only remember certain things,and like you said,i'm bad at telling the time without a clock in my face.Did i mention i'll go nuts if i don't listen to any kind of music at least ONCE a day?I tried to tell my parents,here's what they think-

"Stop lying"
"Stop making excuses"
"Whose fault is that?"
"Your doing this to yourself"
"There's nothing wrong with you,your just lazy"
"Your making stuff up"
"Nobody acts like that"(OBVIOUSLY,HELP!)

I hope anybody with mental disablities will fight this war with me,for any one,on any mental illness,so that we can all live in peace as we get help from those who are consider,well,"normal".

FamilyGuy FreakFanatic I can relate the constantly need to be moving thing. When I lived at my parents I would constantly be on the swingset so I could move all I want without being in anyones way and stay in my daydreams for long periods of time.


it feels like being high all the time, without any drugs though. it’s not fun, i desperately want my old reality back. i see the world in a different way now and it sucks, everything around me feels so fake including people. people just seem like robots


I was so shocked to see the title of this video while scrolling through my feed. I feel like I’m dreaming as well. It’s not all the time, like yours, and it’s not depression related. It just randomly happens but what upsets me is that it happens during moments I want to remember. When I’m in this dream like state everything is blurry and I cant remember what happens. It feels like I could get hit by a bus and just laugh it off, I feel so numb, untouchable. I just want to be able to enjoy moments and know that they are actually happening without feeling like I can do anything, because I do really stupid things when I feel like this, I think I’m invincible and I don’t want to harm myself or others because of my silly brain. I told people about this and they just think I’m crazy. <br>And for the people who might reply, saying they’re offended that I’m self diagnosing myself with derealisation, I’m not. I know I don’t have it, but I know that there’s something similar and that gives me comfort.

I was so shocked to see the title of this video while scrolling through my feed. I feel like I’m dreaming as well. It’s not all the time, like yours, and it’s not depression related. It just randomly happens but what upsets me is that it happens during moments I want to remember. When I’m in this dream like state everything is blurry and I cant remember what happens. It feels like I could get hit by a bus and just laugh it off, I feel so numb, untouchable. I just want to be able to enjoy moments and know that they are actually happening without feeling like I can do anything, because I do really stupid things when I feel like this, I think I’m invincible and I don’t want to harm myself or others because of my silly brain. I told people about this and they just think I’m crazy.
And for the people who might reply, saying they’re offended that I’m self diagnosing myself with derealisation, I’m not. I know I don’t have it, but I know that there’s something similar and that gives me comfort.

MarliesMega so is being critical of someone's feelings they've been dealing with

Panicking Pilots It's okay to self dx if it helps you figure out what's going on, and everyone saying otherwise is just a jerk. 💜 I hope you get the support and comfort you deserve.


Dodie,or anyone else in the comments,I would just love s bit of advice,I'm quite young in terms of being diagnosed with a mental illness so I'm not really sure if its just my stupid,dramatic brain or if I'm really feeling derealisation. I found dodie's channel after researching my symptoms online,which,I know isn't the best idea but what else would I do? And I really do feel like this is it.I nearly constantly feel like I'm not here or their is some of that strange wavy glass or fog separating me and the world around me,I get terrible migraines too and even growing up when I was very small I remember always being a very happy child and always praised by my parents and teachers for my "brilliant memory" that now won't even allow me to remember what I did yesterday.I also feel like I can't just concentrate or just focus on literally anything,whether its writing an essay for school or going to get something from a separate room,I just always get distracted and can't remember what I was doing.This all started after quite a lot of stressful things happened to me all at once and I could just never focus at the task at hand,I was always worring.I also feel like I can't really tell my parents as I don't want to worry them and I'm 99.9% sure they will never of hear of it before and just say something like "your probably just stressed over school" or.. "its because your on your phone too much" its not because they're unsupportive,they just wouldn't understand.I'm sorry if I have bored anyone but this really has helped me,just writing this down in these conments,it feels very positive and supportive here💗so if anyone has any advice,suggestions or tips please share them xxx

i'm so sorry you don't have someone to tell this about. i started to feel this when i was very young too and thought i was going crazy. your feelings are valid. you know your mind and your feelings better than any other person so trust yourself! for me reading and drawing grounds me and soothes me because i'm touching a physical object and distracting my mind from the paranoid thoughts lol. i hope you find something that grounds u and i hope u get better

If you ever talk to someone and they write it off because they don’t understand, i’m so sorry. It really sucks, and it’s hard to not take it personally. But you can do it!! don’t let them discourage you! Do your best to remember that they probably mean well and really just don’t understand mental health!:( Know that you know yourself better than anyone else, and you deserve to find help to feel better! You will not be stuck in one place or one state forever, and you will be okay. Out of all the humans on this earth, i can almost guarantee someone, or even many people, around the world are feeling the same way you do! You’re not alone in any big or small thing. One day at a time! You got this 💗

Katie Kat any feelings, big or small, that you have are completely valid, regardless of your age! You’re not overreacting.<br>I encourage you to talk to your doctor or a school counselor about your symptoms so you can be referred to and get some help from an expert! That’s their job!  This is really really helpful and a quite a few of my friends have done it. And if a doctor ever tells you that you’re over reacting or that you’re too young to see a psychologist/seek treatment, find a new one. They should never write off someone’s feelings or think of them as invalid because of age. Everyone’s mental heath is important. What you’re experiencing may be disassociation or it may be something else. I have add/adhd and some of those symptoms seem familiar! But psychologists know so much about that stuff, so they’re the ones to ask if you would like. Can’t hurt! And if you feel comfortable, know that your parents love you and genuinely would want you to be happy. Letting them know you are struggling should not an inconvenience, because you deserve to find some help! We all do. They would honestly probably be glad you felt as though you could talk to them. Everyone deserves to feel better both mentally and physically, regardless of whether their concerns are big or small. If you had the flu, they would take you to get some treatment, so you could definitely guide them along that path for your mental health. It takes courage to talk about that stuff, especially if your parents don’t know much about mental health, but don’t give up! So, so many others have been in your position. This might sound a bit cheesy but you can do this!!  You won’t feel like this forever. Everyone deserves to get help if they would like it and take care of their mental health!

Katie Kat any feelings, big or small, that you have are completely valid, regardless of your age! You’re not overreacting.
I encourage you to talk to your doctor or a school counselor about your symptoms so you can be referred to and get some help from an expert! That’s their job!  This is really really helpful and a quite a few of my friends have done it. And if a doctor ever tells you that you’re over reacting or that you’re too young to see a psychologist/seek treatment, find a new one. They should never write off someone’s feelings or think of them as invalid because of age. Everyone’s mental heath is important. What you’re experiencing may be disassociation or it may be something else. I have add/adhd and some of those symptoms seem familiar! But psychologists know so much about that stuff, so they’re the ones to ask if you would like. Can’t hurt! And if you feel comfortable, know that your parents love you and genuinely would want you to be happy. Letting them know you are struggling should not an inconvenience, because you deserve to find some help! We all do. They would honestly probably be glad you felt as though you could talk to them. Everyone deserves to feel better both mentally and physically, regardless of whether their concerns are big or small. If you had the flu, they would take you to get some treatment, so you could definitely guide them along that path for your mental health. It takes courage to talk about that stuff, especially if your parents don’t know much about mental health, but don’t give up! So, so many others have been in your position. This might sound a bit cheesy but you can do this!!  You won’t feel like this forever. Everyone deserves to get help if they would like it and take care of their mental health!


I love videos like these but then I dokt want to watch them because I know i’ll find anything to relate to and then think I have it and feel bad


Sometimes I randomly start feeling like everything is fake. Like today during dinner, someone started talking and I was looking at them and all of a sudden everything felt fake. Like we're not real and nothing we do is our decision. Maybe we are really just stories aliens tell for fun, or simply maybe there really is a god or a similar being that controls all of us (I'm an atheist). I've had thoughts like that since I can remember, and sometimes they randomly come along with the strange feeling I get with them, or I'm thinking of random stuff and it goes back to those thoughts.

The feeling is harder to describe, I wouldn't say any of this is nearly as bad as described in the video. I guess it could be described as a feeling of being very far away and distant from everything. Obviously not in a physical sense, but yeah. It also feels like things aren't right.

I'm wondering if this is considered the same thing or something else. I guess what I experience could be a lesser version of derealization, but I don't know, and I feel like there are a lot of differences


Is it depersonalization if, sometimes, you don't recognise the voice you are hearing as yours when you talk?

aw crap. i forgot i made this comment and upon researching more the topic of depersonalization i watched this video again and found it. didn't know it was a symptom, and now i'm kinda worried. sometimes i feel like i'm in a stranger's body, i look in the mirror and i don't recognize my face as my own, i talk and i'm almost surprised when i hear what must be my voice. does anyone know what this might be? could it be depersonalization?

i just feel like i’m in another persons pov listening to myself, except that the other person is nonexistent, and i just feel like i’ve floated out of my body. nothing is happening

That’s me , it’s really weird , and becomes really frustrating and confusing sometimes

Nelly ΤheBunny yes!! I have it and that happens all the time. It’s never just that on its own, though.


something similar has happened to me before but im unsure if that is precisely the same condition. I remember i was heading out of a cinema with a few friends and when we got out i couldn't really see my friends' faces. It's like i knew who everyone was but i didn't. And so i tried several things to get out of this dream i was in, but when my friend started talking to me i suddenly felt ok again. idk. weird.

It certainly could be a similar state of mind. It's actually quite usual to dissociate after a deep movie/book or when you're tired. It's a natural response.


This disorder is the worst thing I've so far dealt with. I have complex PTSD and the fabulous shit that correlates with my disorder, including derealisation disorder. I will literally wake in the middle of the night, sleeping next to my partner and lose my mind. I plummet fast into not recognizing myself whilst I have a shower at 2am, in an effort to rid my mind of unfamiliarity. Who really is the person sleeping next to me and why did they choose a life with me? Who am I, like really? I have this mind and body but what for? Why am I here if I am going to die? Will I die tomorrow? Everything can feel so petty and unnecessary. I'm in a little state now I guess. You lose track of most feelings, as well as goals and aspirations. Want to know the best part? I developed derealisation as a child to cope with childhood trauma. This is all I know. If someone could please assign me a family that will love me as their own, without bias on gene involvement I would forever be grateful. To feel as if I actually belong, I can only imagine how that must feel.


For some reason a brightly lit room with a lot of activity or in the evening causes me to dissociate 🤷♀

I was diagnosed with this condition when I went to the psych ward last year and I just started my new school. The lights are so damn bright and I just sit there thinking maybe this isn’t real and Im trying to make out what’s around me and what helps me come back is naming my surroundings, like “that’s a book, this is my pencil” I don’t know what else to do for it 🤷♀

Plannysam
That’s a very long run-on sentence you got there, buddy. (If you can’t tell, this is a joke.)
Other than that, that’s actually really interesting to think about.

You wanna know why, it makes you nervous, it’s all controlled by your nervous system and it wants to defend you from this stress, you also keep looking for it meaning you keep asking yourself weather it’s happening or not, I’ve learned that you just have to accept, don’t fight it, it’s not horrible, it’s uncomfortable, you need to understand that accepting makes it a lot easier to deal with and you need to enjoy the feeling and laugh because it releases dopamine which sends signals to your nervous system to say that you are okay and it will go. Just don’t keep checking to see if it’s happening, just live like nothing is wrong because nothing is.

opposite for me, dark lighting me feel more alienated dreamy from reality

Same. Waiting rooms in the hospital and train stations/squares are triggers for me.

yeah bright lights, open rooms ( especially empty, crowded rooms just cause my eyes to race nd just extreme anxiety), small talk, walking somewhere, LITERALLY doing anything i just start zoning out and blank and then suddenly im on a whole other video

Yessss, bright lights, busy places and strobing lights causes me to dissociate. It always ends up with me having a panic attack when I get it.

Same it sucks because in my basketball games it’s bright in there and I can barely think while I play and then my coach gets on to me! I hate it so mucch

rain asdfghjkl OMG I thought I was the only one 😮


I don’t think I have it as bad, but I think I have an issue with disassociation. I feel like I spend my entire life asleep, sounds and sights don’t process properly, my memory is generally awful (I couldn’t repeat a sentence back to you unless I really concentrated) (but for some reason I remember useless information like hotel wifi passwords), I feel like my field of view is really small and monochrome but I barely notice it because it has pretty much been that way for years now. I struggle to get attached to people or things or important deadlines that my future rides on because they just seem distant. Also, sometimes I just spend about an hour in the small hours of the morning just standing there looking in the bathroom window at a face I don’t know. I know I just sound like a self-diagnosing snowflake and no one cares but it just feels good to get it out there.

Edit: looks like lots of people in the comments are the same, but no solutions. I have an idea for what could be the source of the problem for most people at least, and based off that I have an idea for what could work,  but I’m just not in the position to do it.

MEMSUS writing, grounding, find things that are strong in sensation like citrus, sour or soft, acting helps a bit naming things in the room honestly the tips they give you for grounding yourself with anxiety or PTSD about grounding yourself in reality work really well

MEMSUS some of those symptoms also sound like depression. Please go talk to a professional if you can. x


Another good vitamin is chaste berry (idk if it’s spelled right) and it does a BUNCH for me,
Levels moods
Evens out menstrual cycles
Makes me less sleepy(depression makes me want to sleep all the time)
And more so yeah..•~•

I looked it up and it's apparently called chaste berry or monk's pepper, because it's supposed to reduce sexual desire. :p  It's also good for cyclical breast tenderness and PMS so you chose the right supplement!


I oftenly space out but when I come back to reallity i forget that I just spaced out so I kind of (when im around friends) wonder "why is everyone ignoring me?" and sometimes I would take like 10-15 seconds to rember my family/ long time friends names or just who they actually are... I would oftenly make up stories in my mind and think they really happend <br> I dont really know what is wrong I oftenly think that everyone has this (and some more) things that happen to them so idk am I ill or just fine

I oftenly space out but when I come back to reallity i forget that I just spaced out so I kind of (when im around friends) wonder "why is everyone ignoring me?" and sometimes I would take like 10-15 seconds to rember my family/ long time friends names or just who they actually are... I would oftenly make up stories in my mind and think they really happend
 I dont really know what is wrong I oftenly think that everyone has this (and some more) things that happen to them so idk am I ill or just fine

I'm the same way with my friends I'll make up some story and it will seem more real than any actual memories... might be why they never stick around haha

I'm both a maladaptive daydreamer and I have an insomnia-type-thing that causes me to feel like I'm dreaming basically every day. It's weird, because I feel best on the days that I don't sleep, when I do sleep I feel awfully tired and disconnected the entire day. It's terrible.

Kaili King u should probably go see a doctor

No worries! Analyzing my daydreams/internal life helped me to understand a lot about myself and what I felt was missing from my external life.

Shae Summers I did. Thanks for telling me I probably wouldnt know something like that exists

I have the mixing fantasy things with reality, tho I mix dreams with reality too. I don’t think is normal since my parents think is weird. But at least now I know I’m not alone :3 I think we should go to the psychologist...


I wanna throw up. I know everyone is like happy because they know what's going on but I feel horrible I feel absolutly horrible because I need a CURE I NEED A CURE


What if you woke up and you only made this video in your dream


I'm 13 and I always feel like I'm floating or unreal like I was at the mall with my friend and I was like "I don't feel alive" or as if I'm not there :/

I think you and the others who experience this should get help from a professional so it doesn’t affect you for the worse. Please talk to your parents or school nurse/psychiatrist

Okay paige I’m 13 and the same things happen to me. Actually sometimes I get so lost with trying to think and “come back to reality” I won’t realize if I’m walking or sitting or just laying down. I feel hollow and still even if I’m moving. Trying to explain is so hard for people that don’t understand or don’t have it. It happened kinda close to when I first got my depression and then I realized it which I think took part in my anxiety(some small part)


I think I have this... omg thank you so much for speaking about it I’m not crazy!


Can I just say how weird it feels to discover that another person has a rare condition that affects their life so strongly. I have a serious condition and it has basically ruined my life (chronic fatigue secondary to POTS and HEDS). People think that its all just made up and i'm just pathetic and weak. Just because a condition affects you mentally doesn't mean it isn't real.

Whenever a youtuber comes out about something like this it is always depression or serious anxiety, which I truly believe is awful, it just makes me feel even weirder that nobody is affected by anything unusual.

I have POTS too! sucks ass. and because of it I have been suffering with depersonalization, ocd, anxiety and just feeling stuck in a far away place and super tired with no energy all the freaking time! Its so relieving to hear other people in similar situations, because god does it get lonely and scary, thinking you're the only one that feels this shitty and distant all the time. I really hope it gets better for you.

hi, I have PoTS, MCAS, not sure if hEDS or vEDS. you are definitely not alone. ♥

ilu could you please explain to me what POTS is? Or if not guide me to a good website which explains so?


I've recently started to try 5htp and like you it hasnt helped with my derealisation but i am finding i am sleeping better and seem happier so at least its doing something. I am doing a project with fixers who work with itv about the subject of desociative disorders and as a way of raising awareness, i mentioned that you had been talking about the subject matter on your channel and I believe they have since been in touch with you.


I accually don't even know how people know rather if there dreaming or it really is happening


IT HAS GONE MIDNIGHT BABE WHY ARE YOU STILL AWAKE, LOOK AFTER YOURSELF

yeah i appreciate different time zones but where i live in england, as does dodie, it was midnight

PenguinIsFarts no they’re right, i live in england like dodie and its 1am roughly :)

PenguinIsFarts where I live it's 1:47 pm. It's probably a different time for her


oh i cant believe i forgot to say this but sleeping is really important. i wouldn't want to sleep because i'd dream and the dream would  make me dissociate when i woke up but the lack of sleep made me dissociate nd so on djsjd sleeping a good amount and eating healthy food helps A LOT. also getting off my phone and trying to look at the details of where i am helps a lot too. ok now i'm done sorry sjdjsjf

I’ve always hated dreaming because when I’d wake up, I’d feel drained from the dream. I’m not sure if this works for anyone else, but I would tell myself before I slept that I didn’t want to dream and I would keep my thoughts on that, and I now “don’t” dream (I don’t remember my dreams when I wake up and don’t feel drained when I awake, I suppose.) I dont dream very often anymore. It’s been quite a few years by now, at least 5, and sometimes I start constantly dreaming again, but I just remind myself before I sleep that I don’t want to dream, and I’m good again. Maybe this will help you guys, and if not, good luck on your travels to feeling a little better

cactuslegs yas is that Park Chiminiee? 😂

Im not a doctor i just have a lot of health problems good luck !

partofyourworld i've seen so many people saying it's brain fog. brain fog feels distinctly different. it's not brain fog.

hmm are u on any cold/flu meds like benadryl, nyquil tylenol or even some birth control types give me that its called Brain Fog i think

cactuslegs for me sleep made it worse and worse and worse. it would make my haze deeper, i couldn't even remember if i'd done anything that day. it would erase everything rather than just feel like i was dreaming

Sharon Wah someone has the name Park Chim Chim? interesting

THANK YOU FOR HELPFUL TIPS <3 I hope it gets better for you soon.

alsoisthatparkchimchim

cactuslegs that may be lucid dreaming - like an out of body feelin where u are conscious but sleepin and cant wake up - it happens to me every now and than. Gettin enough sleep and eating healthy actually helps


i dont wanna diagnose myself or whatever bcos im very uneducated on this matter but i feel like i might have experienced it a few times? like i remember i was in class and i was fully paying attention and was very active but then suddenly it was just like my brain stopped working? i just lost all thoughts and couldn’t figure out what i was doing but i was aware of what happened and i tried to get my focus back but i couldnt idk and there was another time when i was trying on my clothes and after i looked at myself in the mirror i was like “whoa what” and again i lost all my thoughts


I think this is from looking at screens and reacting to social media daily for more than a decade now.


Ive been feeling like this im 14 and i dont know what to do pleasse help me.


I never knew that this had a name. I’ve always known the feeling, but Ive never known how to describe it or how often others felt it too. Thank you Dodie


On our way back from home from a music festival, my friends and I almost got into a car accident because the tyre blew, we were going 100 in the freeway, basically lost control of the car, almost crashing on the bridge we were driving under.

I found out last night about derealisation and that traumatic events can sometimes cause it. For months I thought I was having a psychotic break.

Finding this video has calmed me down in a way I haven’t been since that day.


Thank you for making this video. I had these experience a few times in my live and I also didn't knew what it was, until I saw this.


im so glad that someone finally made a video on this! i dont feel as alone anymore💛


Coming off my anti depressants and in result have relapsed incredibly with my derealisation and depersonalisation. Came here to reassure myself that I'm not alone. Feeling better. Thank you so much for this. thank you.


I’m getting treatment for my mental health symptoms in CT and it’s called neuro feedback! It’s not a common practice, but it really helped my sibling drastically. I deal with disassociation with my depression so I’m hoping to see that diminish as I go through the sessions.


I remember watching this when it came out and it's crazy that 2 years later I struggle with it


Thank you for sharing this! I am diagnosed with schizoeffective  disorder (which is bipolar with symptoms of schizophrenia) and always had trouble explaining what I experience. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone, differentiating between what’s real and what isn’t is essential for the treatment process.


Dodie, I thought you might like to know, I wrote a poetry piece about derealization based on you talking about it and your experiences. I'd like to thank you for talking about it a lot because I ended up getting 4th place!


That sounds terrifying. I hope you can find ways to deal with this. ❤


i remember watching this when you first posted it and even when you’d talk about it prior to this video and thinking about how awful it must feel to live with this condition. a couple years on and i’m back, sitting here bawling my eyes out because now, i can (unfortunately) relate to how you’re feeling. i’ll forever be thankful for this video because it made me feel like i’m not alone. i love you dodie and although i haven’t been following you as closely for the last few months, i hope you’re doing well. ♡


OMG!!! I’ve been in that state before. Lucky my psychologist just thought it was depression and it went away.


Lots of love and thank you for sharing! 💚


Oh Dodie thank you for putting a name to what I am feeling.You or anybody reading this will never understand how much this is.No really like I'm almost crying


I dissociate a lot and this brought me to a realization. I hope eventually I can talk to a doctor about it. Ty


Woah, okay, I actually feel this constantly. I never knew there was a name for it. Of course I'm not going to self-diagnose but this is far too accurate to not be it. Guess it's time to talk to a doctor


I keep coming back to this video.. I remember watching it a long time ago (or at least that's what it feels like) and  I didn't think much of it; obviously it's a serious thing that a lot of people struggle with, but I hadn't thought much into it at all because I didn't think that it related to me in any way. How wrong I was..

So, my sister struggles with dissociation, how often I'm not sure, but when she started talking with me about how she felt when she was in a state of dissociation struck a chord with me. That felt.. familiar to me. The way she described feeling out of herself, like a bystander from a distance looking at her body doing things. How her body didn't feel like her own, and rather she felt like she wasn't in it. Now, we've had several conversations about that, and I came to the conclusion that I too felt that way sometimes. But I didn't realize thst there are many different ways of dissociating.

Over time, I've noticed how I've felt in new places, or familiar places. I've felt like I'm watching a movie play out, as if I'm not real. The place I am at isn't real, and I'm about to wake up in a bed after a nap. It's only this past week that I noticed this and thought more deeply about it. And that's when I started searching about how I felt; I've always had an abnormally bad memory, as if there are cotton balls blocking the memories from being brought up. And I realized that I've always felt like that. And then I read about depersonalization and derealization, about how they can cause amnesia of sorts. And they're heavily rooted to emotional abuse, or a parent with bad mental health in your childhood. This has made me rethink everything I've ever felt, and why I can't remember most of my childhood. So, here I am worrying that this will last forever and when all of my loved ones die, my mind will think that none of them ever even existed. I don't want to be like this, and I most certainly would never wish this feeling upon anyone. Thankfully I'll see my therapist soon and will definitely bring this up, but in the meantime, I'm left in a whirlwind of overthinking everything in my life..


Thank you for taking the time to apeak about this. Ive been dealing with this since I was a child and no one could ever help me becauae The only way I was ever able to explain it was " everything looks different, like I am still dreaming" and my parents never took me seriously.. Just recently last year I found out there is a name for it and I am not crazy. So I appreciate you. Thank you.


I know this vid is old but this helped so much. I'm fifteen and i havent felt real since i was seven. Thank you for making me realise im not crazy.


I am so glad someone could assure me that I wasn't going crazy.


I cant relate but I have the utmost sympathy! I wish you peace and love and comfort in this difficult journey!💓💓💓💓💓💓💓


I definitely think that I’ve developed something similar to this. Everybody around me says that I walk around like a zombie, and I don’t have ADHD, but my eyes drift around a lot and I definitely don’t take in as much as I probably should. Just today I noticed a giant clock that took up almost the entire wall in my girlfriend’s house, and she said it’s always been there.


OmG.... its sooo good to know that I havnt been going completely crazy for the past two years

The amount of times I Have to ask/ check whether i’m dreaming or not is insane to the point where I have been using Analog clocks in the house despite how much their sound/ vibration annoys me... but they help me feel safe
For anyone wondering why the analog clocks... i was always told that they only exist in real life.... so i’m holding on real tight to that bit of information as I’m someone who has always dreamt and they’ve always been extremely vivid
Every lil helps ehh


I’ve been dealing with this for quite a while now but I’ve just come to realize it. I always describe it as going on “auto pilot”


this helped me so much. HOW HAVE I ONLY FOUND THIS! but also i can’t afford any kind of therapy so what should i do?


i also experience episodes of derealisation! for the longest time i labeled them as panic attacks because no one talks about derealising. now, i talk about it in therapy which is really helpful. as far as grounding, i find that water on my hands helps a lot, as well as laying on the floor until the sensation passes


I watched this video back when it came out and thought I slightly could relate but was like, nah.
Fast forward to more recently I’ve been feeling EXACTLY THIS WAY! And only last week I remembered this video and thought it might be able to help me.
And oh my god Dodie thank you! This really helps, I thought it was just me.
Personally it not only sends me into depressive states but has given me incredibly bad existential crisis’s which absolutely sucks.
I hope this can put me onto a better path instead of suffering in silence.

And luckily i have a friend who helps me through my existential crisis’s and has also suffered from them and depressive states and has been convincing me to seek help, and after seeing this again I certainly think I will. ❤❤❤


have had depersonalization since i was 16, almost 20 now, still hoping it eventually fades away, doing my best!