I see a lot of people in the comments concerned about this dream like feeling. Most people seem to be describing symptoms of derealization.

The feeling of watching your life through a camera, a wall of glass between you and the world, that you are in a simulation, dreaming etc.

If these symptoms are chronic and effecting you quality of life, you should consider seeing a psychiatrist as it may be possible you have a dissociative disorder. ( I do not recommend self diagnosis)

There are 3 types of dissociative disorders

- Derealization/Depersonalization ( DP/DR )

- Dissociative Amnesia

- Dissociative Identity Disorder ( Multiple Personality Disorder)

Though some people do not fit any of these categories. This is called an Unspecified Dissociative disorder

These symptoms are often caused by

- Trauma

- Marijuana ( Psychoactive drugs in general )

- Psychosis

- Other

 And even no Identifiable cause.

These disorders do not have a cure and there are no specific medications for these disorders. However the causes of these disorders may be treatable. Things such as a anti-anxiety and antidepressants. The most beneficial treatment will likely be therapy.

The good news is that this disorder can and often will resolve its self with time. There are absolutely people who have been struggling with these disorders for years or even decades but seeking treatment can vastly improve your prognosis and some recover faster than others. Even if these symptoms persist, they become much less problematic as you acclimate to them. There is absolutely hope for you.

Please check out these links to read up on these problems. I think you will find great comfort to know that these problems have a name and that you are not going crazy. There are a lot of people out there also going through this hell. You are not alone.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_disorder

This forum may be very useful for you if you have questions or simply wish to talk to those who can relate to your problem.

https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/

From a fellow dreamer. Good luck  : )

TL:DR please read this if you relate to the video ( I promise it’s worth it’s )


what a coincidence that this video came in one of my most suicidal weeks of the year - thank you for the video dodie, i'll try to keep in mind what you said but its still hard to really believe in (its not you, its my lack of faith), christmas/new year is a shitty time for me anyway so yeah, i'm glad you're feeling better

You’ve got this! Take it one day at a time, or just one hour at the time, and it will get better, I promise you❤

Louisa Rhodes i know it might not feel like it right now, but I promise it’ll get better Love :) you’ve got so much ahead of you yet, I hope you feel better x

Louisa Rhodes you will make it and you got a whole community behind your back :)

Thank you both, your replies mean a lot <3

You might not believe me, but you can get through this week.

Louisa Rhodes look, if you need a fren, you can talk to me! i know how that hurts ♡


I kinda feel like this a lot as well, is it also like when you look at something and you move your arm and you see your arm and you don’t see your arm as you normally see your arm, it’s hard to explain.

I have the vision thing to, it’s like when there’s a black spot in the middle of your eye and if you try to look at it and it kind of disappears but it’s still there, it’s weird but I’ve never heard anyone talk about it before.


Not to self diagnose but I’m pretty sure I have this has anyone else had the feeling when your visions and seeing sometimes mix up and one is super slow and the other is extra fast and your just there like (slow motion) “i didn’t agree to this 😰”


my derealization when i feel it like my eyes can’t focus one thing and everything is slightly blurry and i feel as if i’m in a movie and the people around me are fake! my depersonalization is like i look in the mirror and i’m like that’s me? my face looks funny, how does it even exist, like that’s not me! also kinda feel 3rd person mode where, i’m liking sitting in the back of my head and i’m just doing what i have to do


I’ve always had the feeling but have never been able to identify what it was. Whenever I spoke to people about it, they thought I was joking.

Same! dodie helped me so much by speaking up about it...I thought I was crazy but now I know its a REAL thing that can be identified


Hey. Do you still suffer from this? My derealisation started a few days ago

This condition is caused by SSRI's, SNRI, Antipsychotics and especially Benzodiazepines


mine is like everything is numb and everything that happens is too much or too little.


Not tryna self diagnose but this seems like me I feel like I'm in a bubble


This sounds so much like me. Not 24/7, but a lot of the time. But no therapist ever guessed something like this. So there must be something else, that makes me feel like a thin cloth is seperating me from reality ...


I usually have my 'episodes' of derealisation in very busy areas, before an anxiety migraine, when stressed or around flashing lights. I've been told that due to my anxiety disorder this is one of the side effects and it is how my body copes with stress. I couldn't imagine living with it daily like you do and for that I admire your strength and how brilliant you are. You're doing so incredibly well to say that you're suffering with this illness daily, it's empowering due to the fact that I cannot stand my episodes and usually find a place to sleep for the episode to pass. You're doing so well and you're so incredibly inspiring, I really do look up to you!

Same 😢 I felt it last month for a week and it was extreme <br>I didn’t really understand  how depersonalization can happen with depression as a symptom until I had the episode last month and saw this video, I mentioned to my doctor and because he doesn’t speak English he didn’t quite get what I was talking about and he just said that what I am feeling is from anxiety too

Same 😢 I felt it last month for a week and it was extreme
I didn’t really understand  how depersonalization can happen with depression as a symptom until I had the episode last month and saw this video, I mentioned to my doctor and because he doesn’t speak English he didn’t quite get what I was talking about and he just said that what I am feeling is from anxiety too

Also before ANYONE gives me hate. I'm NOT self diagnosed, I have been to therapy etc and do have other disorders that can trigger these episodes.


Um Um, I ain’t gonna self diagnose but uh- this is exactly how I feel wtf.


I feel like reality isn't as solid as we think it is. Our life is a blink of an eye compared to the span of the universe, we're here  and then gone, and almost half our life is spent unconscious/dreaming. Where we go after, nobody knows. I feel like this 'condition' is pretty common seen as though the world pretty much could be a dream and we have no way of knowing any better.


I have to much lucid dreams and inside the dream is realy like this symptoms that you discribe. In one night about 3 years ago I wake up from one of those dreams but I was still felling all those symptoms. I tought that I was still dreaming and just carry on with the day but I was never waking up. This goes for about 2 days and I go to sleep and wake up again but this time more normal and not felling like a dream. It wasn’t painful, wasn’t stressful in fact it wasn’t nothin for 2 days. I just can’t imagine what is like this for I don’t know many years..


Ah you're in the UK too. I'm down in Portsmouth, where are you? I also suffer from derealisation. Its the driving force behind my social anxiety x


The comparison to being drunk without the fun is on point. I also suffer from really bad anxiety and derealization at times. The way I deal with both is not to focus on it and distract yourself. Train your brain to go around those troubling thoughts. Trust me it helps. At some times its harder to do than others but for me it works. Stay strong guys.. You are not alone 💗


I don't have this problem but I only have dreams that take place in daily life. I feel like I get up go to school then work and I'm almost always in bed before I wake up.


all of 2018 i felt like this- and just NOW I know what It was?


I don't have that but yesterday I was sat on my sofa and I thought, "omg who's hand is that" but realised it was my hand. It felt weird. 😳


For me is not that bad, i mean at first i was so panicked but i would explain it as i lost taste with reality in sense that i dont experience things how i used to anymore, i could remember me from before, there were types of smells, sensations, nostalgia but i wouldn’t realize that i had it until i lost it


I've found that journaling, though I don't do it enough helps me with my derealisation. It helps with retaining a memory as well and making me more present in the moment. Also trying to not think about how what it used to feel like helps, like what my mentality was like when I was a kid. Its good to have something to compare it to and not loose sight of regaining that feeling, but disconnecting with that idea every now and again helps me :)


I feel this feeling not all the time but when I am stressed or in panic, Does that happen in derealisation? please help me

Depersonalization and/or derealization can happen to anyone under a certain amount of stress or anxiety. Chronic DP/DR is when it happens to you constantly without having to be caused by a momentary state of stress


I feel like im dreaming like i’m floating  time colors feel dull like people talk bad it feels like sound is underwater it’s not everyday but at least twice a month is really bad like a full day some days are just a little bits of time missing


People will think this is “cool” or “trippy” it’s horrifying. I won’t be able to tell if it’s real or not and I’ve done weird or off things. Some days are worse than others but it’s a really scary thing and all you can do is surround yourself with people and make distractions. But even that gets hate because it makes you depressed and then it just makes everything a million times worth. It’s so miserable. Before it happened to me I was outgoing and could talk to anyone about anything I was never shy. Then when it started I forgot how to talk to people and how to be normal. I was always goofy and nothing was funny to me anymore I just wanted to wake up. It’s not “cool” it’s not “trippy” anyone going through this is SUFFERING.

It honestly sounds horrible. I can barely deal with waking up after a long nap, makes me feel groggy and as if I'm not present, so to think about dealing with that all the time sounds like such a struggle.


y’all ever get hit with a giant wave of “whoa holy shit like i’m a person i guess and nobody knows what they are doing and it’s taken millions and billions of years for things to happen and for me to get here and that’s crazy. also this is all weird and bullshit and i cannot believe it’s real” y’all ever feel like that?? or similar???


i just cant snap out of the dream been trying for a year. drank alcohol passed out woke up and been here eversince before this ive had massive anxiety daily guess my brain just is done with me stressing and closed it self. been to doctors they cant find anything im just fuckd up


I'm pretty sure i CHRONICALLY feel like this because i CHRONICALLY maladaptive daydream and have been since like 6th grade.... shit


I had this when I couldn't sleep for some days


I have this too and like let me tell it's not the good kind of dreaming

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Ok so somewhere here I commented that i dont feel good it was actually really bad I COULDNT RECOGNIZE MYSELF IN THE GODDAMN MIRROR beacuse It didnt felt like the real me like my reflection wasnt real
And I cried all day about it that my eyes were red
Fucking.red.
My parents didnt understood me and eventually they just forgot about it
So school started at first it was hard to concentrate bc of the thought of me dreaming but I got used to it
School started giving more work and I didnt had time to think about it,and so here am I with my record of not thinking about it which is 48 hours(amazing right) and when I think about it it's like a moment or two and it doesnt effect my life like before
Never give up and some day you will find light in the tunnel 👍


Hello, i want to ask why does any kind of screens trigger my depersonalization? 🥴


i have this too - depersonalisation disorder


I have it and everyday gets worst what do I do?


yessss. and I don’t know about you- but the moments when I do finally feel plugged into reality, and out of the dream-like state, it feels scary. like I’ll remind myself often that “this isn’t a dream, this is real”. And every once in a while, it clicks and I feel reality, and it scares the shit out of me it’s so real. That’s why getting ‘better’ is so hard. It’s scary. Anyways, we’ll keep trying. Thanks for sharing, love.<br>❤

yessss. and I don’t know about you- but the moments when I do finally feel plugged into reality, and out of the dream-like state, it feels scary. like I’ll remind myself often that “this isn’t a dream, this is real”. And every once in a while, it clicks and I feel reality, and it scares the shit out of me it’s so real. That’s why getting ‘better’ is so hard. It’s scary. Anyways, we’ll keep trying. Thanks for sharing, love.
❤

i thought i was the only one lol. sometimes i even convince myself i don't want to feel real bc of how scary it feels. i hope u feel better and i'm sorry u experience this too 💖💝


I had this.

Then I hit the blunt again and it brought me back.


i go through periods of extreme vividity. and i feel like its because my norm is fuzzy and unfocused. :/


I get this and I don’t know if it’s this or not. It’s really scary especially in school, I’m 16 years old. And i just hope it gets better. And how do u get diagnosed?


as crazy as it sounds, watching this makes me feel like im not crazy. like even though its a mental illness, the way she is able to explain it so well... ive never felt so understood before. ive never been able to describe what its like very well, but i feel like you just described everything ive experienced better than i ever could


I would warn that the 5-htp has a stimulant quality so it causes dependence


NOT GONNA lie ever since I ate too much acid  I have this thing where randomly for untold amounts of time I question if I'm real or alive or dead and if this entire life isn't some cosmic joke at my expense. It's pretty torturous. Get a huge adrenaline spike and other weird symptoms.


I suffer DPDR since I was 7 I would tell my cousin to smack me in the face to wake up but she refuse so I do it to myself but I still keep asking her if I was dreaming when I was kid she was annoyed this happeneds for like a month. But now I'm 12 my dpdr kicks in just sometimes I don't know but when my dpdr kicks in I would ignore and say something I'm my mind "everything is real" loop and would draw or read to calm my dpdr then when I forgot about my dpdr I was okay. My dpdr kicks in when I'm bored or stress lol


Sometimes in school, or other places, i feel like im about to wake up from a 14years long dream. Like im in a coma. Make sence?


Dodie me too. I got diagnosed with this earlier this year, and along with anxiety, it affects me. Honestly, the first time I realized that something was wrong was when I was playing a game. It was a colouring game and my brain just felt so fuzzy like... I guess that's how I could explain it.. I just wasn't able to notice I guess what I was doing, everything looked wrong and I was so confused that I dropped my phone in the middle of class and looked up at my classmates staring at me, I was so confused and my eyes were wrong and I hadn't even known that my  teacher was talking to me... I was so confused I couldn't speak and that was fun. But I got to go to the nurses office and drink  some juice so that's fun stuff


Grounding exercises can help a bit. For me personally it works while I'm focusing but as soon as it's over I'm back into being switched off.

My psychologist gave me the 5,4,3,2,1 exercise. Many people know it with taste at 1, but taste is hard to pin down if you haven't eaten something recently, don't have something to snack on or especially when my senses are dulled by depersonalisation. This version of it is;

5 things you can see

4 things you can feel

3 things you can hear

2 things you can smell

1 good thing about yourself

That last one is really difficult for a reason. It's okay if your one good thing is that 'I woke up this morning' or 'I am trying to ground myself, it might not be working but that's okay'

Like Dodie said, spiky rough surfaces can help, touch is really grounding so someone rubbing your arm or back helps a lot because it reminds you that you do have a body that other people can see, feel, it's real and it takes up space. You need to be careful with spiky surfaces to bring you back though because I don't feel things as well when I'm depersonalising, so I can end up hurting myself without realising it because it didn't hurt at the time.

I also haven't found anything that helps me, but I'm lucky that I have good days and bad days. I'm slowly getting more good days, and I hope if you're reading this you'll get more and more good days too :)


I have a question ....idk if this is common or what but I start to feel like...my soul is not in my body or something like that and I feel really light . Like...yesterday I was just sitting in my table staring the wall and I hear my friend asking stuff , I hear them but their voice soon fainted away and i feel like I can’t speak at all . When I turn around I don’t even realize that I’ve turn around or anything like that . This evening I was doing a  presentation and I was talking in front of everyone , then I feel like I can drop onto the ground at anytime , I feel like I wasn’t even talking and later when I went to my sit a few second later I literally forgot that I’ve done it .

If you can help me please reply it means a lot! I’m sorry if there’s any grammar error I’m not really good at English ..


Has anyone had this through alcohol abuse.? My doctor has said I have derealisation because I have abused alcohol for the day 5 years 😫 someone help 😕 I’m so scared


I knew it before even reading the comments... every single one of you has this disorder. "ZOMG I daydream too! I must have this disorder!"


my god i love that u spread awareness, your doing great ❤❤


Dottie is this even normal to experience this for yrs persistently??


It feels like I'm in a very long trip from acid


My name is Patrick, Im 18 currently born on 10th of October, everything i am going to share in this comment with you is very private and remained unknown by everyone in my everyday normal environment, in other words nobody knows about this and i would be hella embarassed if anyone around me, (or anyone who knows me IRL) knew. Also please excuse any grammar mistakes as my native language is not english: All this started when I was about 11. I have been suffering from this since 2013 or 2014 cannot remember exactly, and that would make 6 - 7 years today. I actually do not know why this happened to me as I am pretty dang sure I did not get this from weed. The funny thing is that I can actually recall how it all started. (Now of course, not every single detail, but the situation in general.) It was during lunchtime about 12 to 14 (2) o clock and I was watching a video on my phone in my room. The fun fact is that I can even recall the youtuber I was watching at that particular moment, and it was a youtuber named "PopularMMOs" who was a minecraft youtuber at that time, I do not know if he still does minecraft but that is besides my point. Like I said I am not quite sure why or how it happened, I was just watching a video and it seemed like all of a sudden a intense rush of unreality came to me, I felt confused and being the child I was back then I had no clue what that feeling was supposed to mean or signalize but it wasnt pleasant. It was like a simple click of a button. For example the switch you push when you want to turn the light on in a room, you push it and boom the light turns on almost in the same moment.

 It happened just like that. One second I was a happy child enjoying his life and not worrying about anything and literally, and I REALLY MEAN LITERALLY the next second for some reason it hit me and I was there. Trapped in this altered state of mind. The 11 year old innocent me at that time had no clue what had just happened and what its  going to turn into. Yes I did feel weird but it was not so bad back then when it all started, so I did not tell anyone about it. It has been nearly 7 years to this day, and I still did not tell anyone about it from my family, not even from my friends, basically noone knows that this is how ive been living my life for the past 7 years. Sometimes I feel like a secret agent living a "two faced" life, ya know like in those movies.  I do not want to scare anyone, the following is just my experience, and I strongly believe it is individual. Over time, the feeling just became worse and worse and I kept on disconnecting and detaching from the reality, from myself and from "common senses" as time passed progressively. Actually as time goes by I dare to say that Im actually losing my mind and sanity. For the entire 7 years I havent seen a psychiatrist, and my illness is "untreated", and it is my fault, so now I have to face the consequences of my actions.

 So this is a message to yall: No matter what the others say (because ive seen people who say that it does fade away after a certain amount of time.) never repeat the same mistake as me, and  tell your parents or your family and start visiting a psychiatrist and go with a psychotherapy. Even if it is individual and does fade away for some people over time, come on, use your common sense, do you think that leaving a mental illness without treatment will make it better? Damn no, it will  just get worse and worse over time and ultimately youll either lose sanity or the illness will force you itself to visit a doctor. But anyway, it all started with just weird feelings of "unreality" to which I didnt really respond as the illness was in an so called "Early state" where I was feeling unreal,  but still was connected strongly enough to the real world which resulted in the symptoms not being so severe. Over time I felt more and more unreal and more symptoms started to kick in, I started having panic and anxiety attacks, existentional crisis, disorganised thoughts, unability to think clearly or make rational decisions, social anxiety, even hormonal problems (i sweat like a pig and no im not overweight.), the weird feeling that your everyday normal environment and people you meet everyday (even family members) suddelny feel unfamiliar to you, extra sensitivity to light, hypochondria (i tend to think i have a heart attack every time i have a panic attack and the fact that it is scientifically proven that people who suffer from anxiety are more likey to have a heart attack doesnt help this at all.), weird tics and delusions , heavily altered perception of time (for example events that happened several hours ago might feel like theyve happened months ago.) and the list goes on. For example, the school system in my country is a bit different and you go to the elementary school for 9 years, and those 9 years are divided into two "degrees".

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My name is Patrick, Im 18 currently born on 10th of October, everything i am going to share in this comment with you is very private and remained unknown by everyone in my everyday normal environment, in other words nobody knows about this and i would be hella embarassed if anyone around me, (or anyone who knows me IRL) knew. Also please excuse any grammar mistakes as my native language is not english: All this started when I was about 11. I have been suffering from this since 2013 or 2014 cannot remember exactly, and that would make 6 - 7 years today. I actually do not know why this happened to me as I am pretty dang sure I did not get this from weed. The funny thing is that I can actually recall how it all started. (Now of course, not every single detail, but the situation in general.) It was during lunchtime about 12 to 14 (2) o clock and I was watching a video on my phone in my room. The fun fact is that I can even recall the youtuber I was watching at that particular moment, and it was a youtuber named "PopularMMOs" who was a minecraft youtuber at that time, I do not know if he still does minecraft but that is besides my point. Like I said I am not quite sure why or how it happened, I was just watching a video and it seemed like all of a sudden a intense rush of unreality came to me, I felt confused and being the child I was back then I had no clue what that feeling was supposed to mean or signalize but it wasnt pleasant. It was like a simple click of a button. For example the switch you push when you want to turn the light on in a room, you push it and boom the light turns on almost in the same moment.

 It happened just like that. One second I was a happy child enjoying his life and not worrying about anything and literally, and I REALLY MEAN *LITERALLY* the next second for some reason it hit me and I was there. Trapped in this altered state of mind. The 11 year old innocent me at that time had no clue what had just happened and what its  going to turn into. Yes I did feel weird but it was not so bad back then when it all started, so I did not tell anyone about it. It has been nearly 7 years to this day, and I still did not tell anyone about it from my family, not even from my friends, basically noone knows that this is how ive been living my life for the past 7 years. Sometimes I feel like a secret agent living a "two faced" life, ya know like in those movies.  I do not want to scare anyone, the following is just my experience, and I strongly believe it is individual. Over time, the feeling just became worse and worse and I kept on disconnecting and detaching from the reality, from myself and from "common senses" as time passed progressively. Actually as time goes by I dare to say that Im actually losing my mind and sanity. For the entire 7 years I havent seen a psychiatrist, and my illness is "untreated", and it is my fault, so now I have to face the consequences of my actions.

 So this is a message to yall: No matter what the others say (because ive seen people who say that it does fade away after a certain amount of time.) never repeat the same mistake as me, and  tell your parents or your family and start visiting a psychiatrist and go with a psychotherapy. Even if it is individual and does fade away for some people over time, come on, use your common sense, do you think that leaving a mental illness without treatment will make it better? Damn no, it will  just get worse and worse over time and ultimately youll either lose sanity or the illness will force you itself to visit a doctor. But anyway, it all started with just weird feelings of "unreality" to which I didnt really respond as the illness was in an so called "Early state" where I was feeling unreal,  but still was connected strongly enough to the real world which resulted in the symptoms not being so severe. Over time I felt more and more unreal and more symptoms started to kick in, I started having panic and anxiety attacks, existentional crisis, disorganised thoughts, unability to think clearly or make rational decisions, social anxiety, even hormonal problems (i sweat like a pig and no im not overweight.), the weird feeling that your everyday normal environment and people you meet everyday (even family members) suddelny feel unfamiliar to you, extra sensitivity to light, hypochondria (i tend to think i have a heart attack every time i have a panic attack and the fact that it is scientifically proven that people who suffer from anxiety are more likey to have a heart attack doesnt help this at all.), weird tics and delusions , heavily altered perception of time (for example events that happened several hours ago might feel like theyve happened months ago.) and the list goes on. For example, the school system in my country is a bit different and you go to the elementary school for 9 years, and those 9 years are divided into two "degrees".

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@Patrik Hi patrick, Wow 7 years thats a long time. i'm 16 and i'm also very certain that i have this illness, i have been looking for answers for 1 year and 4-5 months since it all started and i think i'm finally close to getting my answer. so where to begin? it all started on the 20th sebtember 2019, the school year just started and everything was going fairly well. then on that morning i woke up feeling like i slept very light and with a strange light headed feeling, i still felt connected to the world and my senses weren't numb, it just felt like being a little drunk. then the next few days/weeks i slept very light and i was doing research and i was convinced i had Fatal Insomnia( a degenerate brain condition that stops you from sleeping and eventually leads to death)<br>i was very anxious about this and had a lot of anxiety and everyone was thinking that im just a hypochondriac. Eventually i got a sleep study done wich proved that nothing was wrong and because of that proof i slept fairly decent again afterwards. But i still felt the lightheaded/foggy feeling in my head wich i hoped would go away once my sleeping went back to normal. but it stayed, live just went on as normal and i tried to not think about it and ignore it. then covid came and schools closed. it was a relief i had a lot less stress and went outside a lot to go longboarding and do photography, i also started astronomy and astrophotography wich now is my greatest passion and it gives me a distraction from my mental problems. but my fog is still there and it hasen't gone away ever since 20 sebtember 2019, it progressed from being a lightheaded feeling to a foggy feeling and now its a disconnected feeling. i can still do all the things in life i did before and act normal to other people but i dont feel fine. my mind is in a constant dreamy disconnected state, i can best explain it like being lost in a heavy daydream but the only diffference is that you cant shake yourself out of that daydream and feel clear and vivid again. this feeling has progressed worse and worse and it is 24/7 while you cant see anything weird on the outside. i've talked to some friends about it and 1 teacher and they are supportive but i dont say a lot to my parents they think im just imagining it all in my head and that im just a hypochondriac. i sincerely hope this feeling will end once and my mind will feel clear and vivid again and that i can expierence reality as reality once again.

@Patrik Hi patrick, Wow 7 years thats a long time. i'm 16 and i'm also very certain that i have this illness, i have been looking for answers for 1 year and 4-5 months since it all started and i think i'm finally close to getting my answer. so where to begin? it all started on the 20th sebtember 2019, the school year just started and everything was going fairly well. then on that morning i woke up feeling like i slept very light and with a strange light headed feeling, i still felt connected to the world and my senses weren't numb, it just felt like being a little drunk. then the next few days/weeks i slept very light and i was doing research and i was convinced i had Fatal Insomnia( a degenerate brain condition that stops you from sleeping and eventually leads to death)
i was very anxious about this and had a lot of anxiety and everyone was thinking that im just a hypochondriac. Eventually i got a sleep study done wich proved that nothing was wrong and because of that proof i slept fairly decent again afterwards. But i still felt the lightheaded/foggy feeling in my head wich i hoped would go away once my sleeping went back to normal. but it stayed, live just went on as normal and i tried to not think about it and ignore it. then covid came and schools closed. it was a relief i had a lot less stress and went outside a lot to go longboarding and do photography, i also started astronomy and astrophotography wich now is my greatest passion and it gives me a distraction from my mental problems. but my fog is still there and it hasen't gone away ever since 20 sebtember 2019, it progressed from being a lightheaded feeling to a foggy feeling and now its a disconnected feeling. i can still do all the things in life i did before and act normal to other people but i dont feel fine. my mind is in a constant dreamy disconnected state, i can best explain it like being lost in a heavy daydream but the only diffference is that you cant shake yourself out of that daydream and feel clear and vivid again. this feeling has progressed worse and worse and it is 24/7 while you cant see anything weird on the outside. i've talked to some friends about it and 1 teacher and they are supportive but i dont say a lot to my parents they think im just imagining it all in my head and that im just a hypochondriac. i sincerely hope this feeling will end once and my mind will feel clear and vivid again and that i can expierence reality as reality once again.

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The first one is from the first year to the fourth year and the second one is from the fifth year to the nineth year, after that you leave to high school. I used to have a very hot biology/chemistry  teacher who I had a massive crush on (and she also happened to be my main teacher), so my ill mind created a delusion in which the school I visited was an "police station", where she would be the chief, (major rank) and I would be a captain ( a rank under her). I would give ranks to all my classmates and act submissive around the teacher because in my dumb mentally ill mind she was the chief of our class, the principal was a general BTW. I started watching a comedy series TV show which main purpose was to make fun of cops and policemen called "Profesionáli", in translation "Professionals" and I would watch that over and over again in the online TV archive of the television ( this has nothing to do with what im trying to say but incase anyone is interested here is a link to the site, if youre english speaking or any other language except slovak speaking you wont understand a thing but the main drawing there are policemen so that should be enough as proof, here it is: https://videoportal.joj.sk/profesionali ), pretending that the school I visit is just like that and trying to somehow make totally absurd connections and straight up serious DELUSIONS between the tv show and my school I visted (not to mention the fact that i literally created some type of weird "tics" or "rituals" which I would perform every single time and day before watching the show like making weird ass sounds in sync with the intro song of the TV show, hitting my leg or clapping to somehow clear the bad mental stuff or "karma" off of me because I did not want to watch it with a soiled mind. Was 12 when started doing this. Once again EXTREMELY INSANELY hard to describe to others as this was a pure and very strong psychological delusion ive created in my mentally ill mind, so completely okay if you dont understand.

 This has stuck to me and I still do these tics to this very day just not so intense and i perform them in my mind which once again puts stress onto it, there is actually much more to it in depth but im not going to describe it because a, i actually cant, it is indescribable with just words, youd have to BECOME ME for one day to understand, there is no way of explaining it accurately to another person with words trust me i know what im talking about and b, i already sound like a crazy ass fu*king mentally ill creep who should be locked in a cage in a mental hospital under some strong drugs and antipsychotics. and worst of all, i used to think that all of this was perfectly normal and nothing was wrong with me.), just to feel good about myself to some extent despite the fact that the logic thinking that has remained in my head was telling me that this is all bs my mind is just making up. This is INSANELY hard to describe with words, and even harder to describe to a person who has not experienced such delusions and feelings before, and to those people I might sound like a crazy ass fu*king lunatic and I completely understand that, in fact that is what I am. Im not kidding this is how bad it was with me, no matter how absurd this sounds it is the truth but luckily I somehow managed to get rid of that  delusion after i left my primary school in the second year of high school.

 (Not to mention the fact that I was literally taking a walk every single day just so I could go around the building that teacher of mine lived in, in a secret hope that I would catch her being outside or walking to her car just so that I could look at her or maybe say "Hello" to her if lucky enough. My massive crush on her had something to do with it im certain. This is exactly the point, this illness is capable of disconnecting you from the real world SO MUCH that youll literally begin to form a new "reality" inside your ill head, where everything makes perfect sense and even if it doesnt, youll still convince yourself that it does which is very dangerous because thats exactly where you start to become delusional and completely off reality, and also this is why the stuff I just wrote will never make sense to a mentally healthy person and Ill sound like a total freak and a mentally wrecked weirdo.

 Once again, in my personal opinion this all is my fault and couldve been prevented if I didnt leave this untreated and actually told someone about it, so once again PLEASE NEVER REPEAT THIS MISTAKE IVE DONE, AND TRY TO LEARN FROM IT. Sometimes I wonder if I have schyzophrenia because it also includes a feeling of unreality and disorganised thoughts as sympthoms and DP DR can sometimes be a accompanying factor of schyzophrenia or a other more serious mental illness, but as far as I know I dont hallucinate. Anyway, despite the fact that if you suffer from this for long enough, you can get used to this shitty everyday feeling, I still feel like it is becoming too much for me to handle by myself as I am still not under treatment and I am currently in the state of considering a psychiatrist and a therapy. This mental illness can take many years of your life and destroy a part of your personaliy, traits and hobbies if you let it do so you know? That is why it is best to start treating it while it is in its early stage to prevent more damage. I would not recommend doing any drugs, not even weed while suffering from this condition because after I smoked 2 joints with my friend (yes i was stupid enough to do it, and no it didnt trigger this thing, because it happened 4 months ago.) I was totally mentally wrecked and it made me flip out to the point that I was literally unable to talk to anyone for the next 3 days.

Now yeah, it might be individual for everyone but i dont think you want to risk this shxt, amirite? This thing can truly turn your everyday normal life into living hell if you allow it. You want to take a break? That is  cute sweetie :3, such thing does not exist here, once you have it youre stuck with this feeling 24/7 to the point that youll literally start to look forward to going to sleep (of course assuming the illness isnt preventing you from falling asleep due to the racing thoughts and the constant disconnected feeling) because it is the only time it isnt so intense, and your actual dreams start to feel more real to you than the actual reality which can serve as another mental flipout. Ive literally reached the point where id masturbate 3 to 4 times daily just to make the pleasure of orgasm (mostly dopamine) numb the feeling of detachment for at least those god damn 10 seconds it lasted. It was not because I was horny anymore. In some cases it can lead to alcoholism or drug abuse because the  sufferer is desperate to get at least a small and light "break" and "escape" from this living hell. Ah man, sometimes I sit down and wonder, "Damn how does it feel to be normal?" I actually cannot remember how it feels to preceive reality as reality, and not as this. To anyone going through this dont give in to the illness, seek help. And to all the mentally healthy fellas out there, be happy and VALUE your mental health because not everyone is so lucky and there are people out there who would literally sacrifice anything just to get rid of their mental illness and live a normal life once again. Just like eminem sings in his "godzilla" track: "Im beginning to feel like im mentally ill im atilla kill or be killed im a killer..."

It is hard to describe this to a person who has not experienced such feelings ever before. I wouldnt wish this upon my worst enemy, its more than a mental illness, it can be constant 24/7 psychosis if severe enough which becomes a true terror if mixed up with another mental illness. But it actually amazes me, what the human brain is capable of. Your mind is a very powerful tool if used properly, unfortunately it can suck if something goes wrong inside of it.  Nevertheless, Im not  giving up on my life goals and Im not letting this thing ruin the only life I have because pitying yourself aint gonna change much, if youre still reading, then thank you for taking your time to ready my "story", and to anyone who is going through this for more than 15 or 20 or even more years I salute you, youre a veteran. :]

*!CONTINUATION TO MY COMMENT!*

The first one is from the first year to the fourth year and the second one is from the fifth year to the nineth year, after that you leave to high school. I used to have a very hot biology/chemistry  teacher who I had a massive crush on (and she also happened to be my main teacher), so my ill mind created a delusion in which the school I visited was an "police station", where she would be the chief, (major rank) and I would be a captain ( a rank under her). I would give ranks to all my classmates and act submissive around the teacher because in my dumb mentally ill mind she was the chief of our class, the principal was a general BTW. I started watching a comedy series TV show which main purpose was to make fun of cops and policemen called "Profesionáli", in translation "Professionals" and I would watch that over and over again in the online TV archive of the television ( this has nothing to do with what im trying to say but incase anyone is interested here is a link to the site, if youre english speaking or any other language except slovak speaking you wont understand a thing but the main drawing there are policemen so that should be enough as proof, here it is: https://videoportal.joj.sk/profesionali ), pretending that the school I visit is just like that and trying to somehow make totally absurd connections and straight up serious DELUSIONS between the tv show and my school I visted (not to mention the fact that i literally created some type of weird "tics" or "rituals" which I would perform every single time and day before watching the show like making weird ass sounds in sync with the intro song of the TV show, hitting my leg or clapping to somehow clear the bad mental stuff or "karma" off of me because I did not want to watch it with a soiled mind. Was 12 when started doing this. Once again EXTREMELY INSANELY hard to describe to others as this was a pure and very strong psychological delusion ive created in my mentally ill mind, so completely okay if you dont understand.

 This has stuck to me and I still do these tics to this very day just not so intense and i perform them in my mind which once again puts stress onto it, there is actually much more to it in depth but im not going to describe it because a, i actually cant, it is indescribable with just words, youd have to *BECOME ME* for one day to understand, there is no way of explaining it accurately to another person with words trust me i know what im talking about and b, i already sound like a crazy ass fu*king mentally ill creep who should be locked in a cage in a mental hospital under some strong drugs and antipsychotics. and worst of all, i used to think that all of this was perfectly normal and nothing was wrong with me.), just to feel good about myself to some extent despite the fact that the logic thinking that has remained in my head was telling me that this is all bs my mind is just making up. This is *INSANELY* hard to describe with words, and even harder to describe to a person who has not experienced such delusions and feelings before, and to those people I might sound like a crazy ass fu*king lunatic and I completely understand that, in fact that is what I am. Im not kidding this is how bad it was with me, no matter how absurd this sounds it is the truth but luckily I somehow managed to get rid of that  delusion after i left my primary school in the second year of high school.

 (Not to mention the fact that I was literally taking a walk every single day just so I could go around the building that teacher of mine lived in, in a secret hope that I would catch her being outside or walking to her car just so that I could look at her or maybe say "Hello" to her if lucky enough. My massive crush on her had something to do with it im certain. This is exactly the point, this illness is capable of disconnecting you from the real world *SO MUCH* that youll literally begin to form a new "reality" inside your ill head, where everything makes perfect sense and even if it doesnt, youll still convince yourself that it does which is very dangerous because thats exactly where you start to become delusional and completely off reality, and also this is why the stuff I just wrote will never make sense to a mentally healthy person and Ill sound like a total freak and a mentally wrecked weirdo.

 Once again, in my personal opinion this all is my fault and couldve been prevented if I didnt leave this untreated and actually told someone about it, so once again PLEASE NEVER REPEAT THIS MISTAKE IVE DONE, AND TRY TO LEARN FROM IT. Sometimes I wonder if I have schyzophrenia because it also includes a feeling of unreality and disorganised thoughts as sympthoms and DP DR can sometimes be a accompanying factor of schyzophrenia or a other more serious mental illness, but as far as I know I dont hallucinate. Anyway, despite the fact that if you suffer from this for long enough, you can get used to this shitty everyday feeling, I still feel like it is becoming too much for me to handle by myself as I am still not under treatment and I am currently in the state of considering a psychiatrist and a therapy. This mental illness can take many years of your life and destroy a part of your personaliy, traits and hobbies if you let it do so you know? That is why it is best to start treating it while it is in its early stage to prevent more damage. I would not recommend doing any drugs, not even weed while suffering from this condition because after I smoked 2 joints with my friend (yes i was stupid enough to do it, and no it didnt trigger this thing, because it happened 4 months ago.) I was totally mentally wrecked and it made me flip out to the point that I was literally unable to talk to anyone for the next 3 days.

Now yeah, it might be individual for everyone but i dont think you want to risk this shxt, amirite? This thing can truly turn your everyday normal life into living hell if you allow it. You want to take a break? That is  cute sweetie :3, such thing does not exist here, once you have it youre stuck with this feeling 24/7 to the point that youll literally start to look forward to going to sleep (of course assuming the illness isnt preventing you from falling asleep due to the racing thoughts and the constant disconnected feeling) because it is the only time it isnt so intense, and your actual dreams start to feel more real to you than the actual reality which can serve as another mental flipout. Ive literally reached the point where id masturbate 3 to 4 times daily just to make the pleasure of orgasm (mostly dopamine) numb the feeling of detachment for at least those god damn 10 seconds it lasted. It was not because I was horny anymore. In some cases it can lead to alcoholism or drug abuse because the  sufferer is desperate to get at least a small and light "break" and "escape" from this living hell. Ah man, sometimes I sit down and wonder, "Damn how does it feel to be normal?" I actually cannot remember how it feels to preceive reality as reality, and not as this. To anyone going through this dont give in to the illness, seek help. And to all the mentally healthy fellas out there, be happy and *VALUE* your mental health because not everyone is so lucky and there are people out there who would literally sacrifice anything just to get rid of their mental illness and live a normal life once again. Just like eminem sings in his "godzilla" track: "Im beginning to feel like im mentally ill im atilla kill or be killed im a killer..."

It is hard to describe this to a person who has not experienced such feelings ever before. I wouldnt wish this upon my worst enemy, its more than a mental illness, it can be constant 24/7 psychosis if severe enough which becomes a true terror if mixed up with another mental illness. But it actually amazes me, what the human brain is capable of. Your mind is a very powerful tool if used properly, unfortunately it can suck if something goes wrong inside of it.  Nevertheless, Im not  giving up on my life goals and Im not letting this thing ruin the only life I have because pitying yourself aint gonna change much, if youre still reading, then thank you for taking your time to ready my "story", and to anyone who is going through this for more than 15 or 20 or even more years I salute you, youre a veteran. :]


I feel like such an outsider here lmao

But seriously guys, you are fucking awesome. You go through so much and are still standing strong. It will get better, I promise. I know it's hard, but you don't lose anything by having faith dude.

Y'all are awesome.


2017 my BPD that was how I felt

No memories for the most part

I haven't been able to keep up with as much youtube as I would like


well to me it feels like everything is unreal and im just watching a movie


And I thought I was actually going insane...

Because I'm often sat in class surrounding by people who I haven't talked to and im playing with my pen or I'm anxiously just going over my work in pen and it feels like I can't see clearly and like the more I think the more I sink deeper and lower inside my chair not physically not mentally but just....It just feels like it and I only stop it unless I snap back to "reality"

sᴀᴅ sᴍᴏᴏᴛʜɪᴇ


I’m so confused.. I seriously thought everyone experienced this stuff. Should I be concerned oh my god

Don’t be concerned, you’re safe, weirdly enough it’s trying to protect you and I know it’s uncomfortable, but it’s reversible and you can get out of it, all you need is info

I’ve read a bit about it for the last hour and it seems as if almost 50% of the world population has experienced the symptoms of this disorder some time in their lifetime , but only 1-2% have been actually diagnosed. Sure, a lot of people can have it without even knowing it exists, but it’s apparently totally normal to experience once or twice. But if you keep experiencing this time after time you may wanna go see a doctor. But it’s not dangerous in any way and it can’t harm you unless it leads to depression and cause suicidal thoughts (of course). Maybe you want to go look up a therapist to talk to if you want someone to share your thoughts with. I wish you the best of luck!

same i literally thought it was normal all this time

We feel this, but ! No need to panic, this is totally reversible, you’ll be Chillen man I promise, fight the fucking FIGHT ! Much love friend hope you get well soon !

Don’t panic .

@Cosmo Boss Try to stop being so hard with yourself... honestly, you deserve better... stop overthinking and be more positive about life, you deserve it 💓

@Stefan Brockelbank For me, it was due to anxiety!

You should not, a lot of people experience this condition, it is due to anxiety and sometimes because of a lack of sleep! I felt this today, i was outside, it was horrible. Yesterday, before goind to sleep, i had an anxiety attack. It is due to overthinking, your brain practically just tries to protect you of your overthinking...

Don’t be concerned. If you are concerned go see someone and get a bit more information about it. It’s nothing to be worried about, it’s ok. I don’t experience it but I know you’re not alone. It’s ok 👍😊


I have this same condition and sometimes it gets better and sometimes it gets worse it’s not nice when it gets worse I’m just 16 but everything just feels so blurry and empty when I have those episodes I recently had one that got worse due to me breaking up with my girlfriend and after about a 3 months of blurryness I am just getting back into my life and I’m just slowly starting to be more conscious again


I’m 61 and have been depressed all my life. I got married, had kids and hated it. Got divorced at 40 and never found love. Always wanted to be a musician, but marriage ruined that. Conclusion. Never live your life for others. Live for you. If you find true love, take it. I had someone that I should have been with. But got married to another. When I got divorced I looked for the other one, but she had just died of cancer. I now take loads of meds. It’s ruined my life and constantly think of ending it. Don’t be me, find happiness and if you’re unhappy in a relationship. Move on. I’d happily discuss life with anyone.


Dude since 2019 I felt like I’m ina dream  and I cry abt it beacause I don’t like the feeling but I don’t think  I have a condition but idk

Foxy Meny queen is it a constant feeling tho? Please respond!


Thanks for always being so open with us. ❤


I want out. I wanna be free. I hate this mental disorder :,((


I had it for 27 years before it eas gone.<br>Theres hope

I had it for 27 years before it eas gone.
Theres hope


I dissociate by derealisation s a defense mechanism during stress/anxiety. Hate it so much.


Nothing to me feels like it has weight everything feels off somehow.


I've also noticed that i can get derealisation when I don't sleep enough and combined with all the stress it gets soooo bad. So make sure you sleep enough (And eat enough )

yeah.. i feel like i have experienced that when i'm sleep-deprived.

Equoise yeaa i noticed that as well. Lest say a well balanced sleeping pattern would be nice

On the flip side, I've found that it can get worse with too much sleep as well


i got diagnosed wit DPDR couple of weeks ago. i‘m terrified that i will never feel normal again 😔 it makes me depressed and suicidal

@Della  I’m glad I could give u a lil glimpse of hope! Hang in there! And know ur never battling it alone. and if u ever need some more advice or ur feeling lost just reply to my comment again anytime! ☺ ❤✨

@Sadderdaze it’s really hard to believe that i’ll feel normal again when i have never felt this way in my life. i did struggle with anxiety and depression before but this feels like something else it’s so much more intense. i also have weird physical symptoms like tingles in my brain and other body parts which i never had before. when i have a panic attack i get suicidal that is why i have to take medication so that i won’t do anything to myself. i’m trying so hard to control my anxiety but it feels almost impossible. i have to learn how to do that which is what you learn when you do CBT. there’s nothing i want more than to feel at ease and normal again and words like yours give me a little hope thank u ❤

@Della I completely agree about the medication thing. I was always afraid to get formally diagnosed and be put on pills that I would eventually become dependent on. And addiction kinda runs in my family and I know myself to get addicted to things quite easily so medication was never an option for me. And I get you on the zombie like feeling. But having a routine and something to always do really helps. Keeps you grounded and makes you feel normal again. And I’m not too familiar with cbt, but hey I say try it all because you never know what could work for you. Just hang in there, it’s gonna take a while to feel normal again but trust me when I say you will feel normal again and you’ll be able to enjoy life and all it has to offer. I promise. You just have to keep pushing. ❤

@Sadderdaze  i’ve never been worse mentally and it feels like nothing helps. even when i force myself to do stuff i obsess over my derealization and feel like a zombie. but maybe i should continue doing normal stuff and it might get better that way.. i’m just so exhausted😭 the only thing that makes me feel a little better is anti anxiety medication which i have to stop using cause i’m scared i’ll get addicted and that it’s gonna make everything even worse. i hope u feel better too, maybe get professional help. i’m gonna start doing CBT even tho i don’t have high hopes..but it’s worth a try cause i don’t wanna depend on medication

@Della girl I understand you entirely! But your doctor is right, the first step of getting to a better place and feeling better is to accept and acknowledge those feelings. Once you accept it, you have somewhat control over it. And over time you get full control back. I know it’s literally so scary especially when it’s real bad. I mean when you don’t feel real it’s hard to control your emotions and naturally your mind goes to panic. And tbh I’m going through it right at this moment. And I haven’t exactly found one specific thing I use to cope with it. But I have accepted it. And trust me it has gotten better. It’s not as bad as it used to be and I’m able to somewhat enjoy life again. But here are just some small things I used to really help me in those hard times. ASMR, reading, talking to someone you haven’t talked to in a while, watching comedy’s, drinking tea with no caffeine cause caffeine just makes it worse😭, writing/journaling, trying out new outfits, cleaning even if it’s just a small area, working out, making yourself a nice meal, simply watching the sky, literally hugging a tree 😂, try getting some indoor plants that you could take care of, also try starting a morning routine if you don’t already have one in order, dancing by yourself (this is the best helper) , decorate your room, meditate, try yoga, probably won’t be able to go out too much because of the pandemic but maybe try going shopping for yourself, have a skincare day for yourself, go for a run, and I can’t rlly think of too much more rn but if I do I’ll get back to you with them lol. But yeah just doing simple human things make you feel real again. And it’s because it’s the simplest things that your mind begins to process everything around you easier, and soon enough you start understanding life again, and eventually you start to feel the real-ness. I hope this helped 🥺 and I really hope you feel better, just know your not in this alone at all! ❤❤✨

@Sadderdaze thank u❤ i’m really trying not to give up but it’s so hard.. my psychiatrist told me i just have to accept it. but it feels like i can’t. i don’t want this to be permanent. what makes me keep going is the hope that i will feel normal again one day. i don’t have much hope but i don’t want to “just accept” my DPDR cause it’s the worst thing ever. i can deal with my anxiety and all the other issues i have but the derealization makes me feel dead and alone even tho i’m not alone. how can anyone just accept those feelings?😞

hey I feel the same way. I was never formally diagnosed but I know what it feels like. And it rlly does make you feel suicidal, sometimes it’s like the only thing on your mind, but hey you got this 🥺 I can’t tell you it will get better or worse but it will become what you make of it. Whether that be good or bad, you decide. (Rather make it good lol) but hang in there! ❤


shit. uh. i uh. this happens sometimes. to me. but it always goes away after a little bit. it feels like you're all floaty and lightheaded but not, yeah? every sense is heightened, but at the same time they're all dampened. it's odd, isn't it?

something to talk to my psychiatrist about


I don't know what’s wrong with me. I can see everything and I can move and talk and laugh. I just will often times find myself zooming out of a conversation, or whatever moment im in, to look at it from a bigger perspective. Then I look at whatever my hands are doing, and I move them, but it doesn't feel like i'm moving them or in control of the movement. It's not like I’m looking at myself in 3rd person, it's more of like my surroundings becoming completely dream like. Everything looks the same, the colors don't become more or less vivid, just all of a sudden I feel very far away from everything around me. I feel detached. Kind of like I’m day dreaming/in a constant daze. I will then try to scratch my arm or hand, or move my hand to rub my face or eyes. I do this to try and mentally ground myself, and attach my mentality to this body I'm supposedly in control of. Nothing ends up working. Nothing ever brings me back down to reality until I find another distraction. The worst thing is, I don't know if this happens because I obsess over it and become all hypochondriac, or if my brain is playing games with my vision and perspective. I probably sound crazy but idk what to do. I feel so dazed and confused at all of this uncertainty and it’s really fucking frustrating bc there’s nothing I can do. I feel ultimately useless.

I feel the same, what's the cause and the solution?

@agnes that's the exact way I felt the first time I had a mini anxiety attack before mine got bad was I was doing fine then got really spooked by something and I fell off and was detached and now I have to avoid mirrors during them cuz it kinda feels likeim not looking at myself

I get this often too. Every 2 weeks or every week usually

I feel that too, sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy it's so weird. I'm happy that I'm not alone tho

I actually feel the same way. I keep looking stuff up about it but nothing described exactly how I feel until I saw your comment. I'm in middle school and I have that same feeling you do. I think it's getting really bad though. I think I sort of had it my whole life but it was a lot better when I was little but now nothing I feel like is real. I constantly ask myself in my head "woah did I do that it doesn't feel like it". I think it's gotten to the point where it even affects my walking and I feel sort of dizzy and I don't walk orally anymore

Omg I'm late as hell but I'm so glad to see I'm not the only person feeling this. For me, it started the year I nearly drowned. Since then I sometimes feel like I'm dreaming or like I'm in coma. I thought it was gone for a year bur then it just hit me when I was standing in the bus amd I was so scared because I never thought of it for nearly a year.<br>I couldn't really descrip it so I didn't finde anything on the internet and it was freakin me out. Your description is really helpful. Thanks a lot!

Omg I'm late as hell but I'm so glad to see I'm not the only person feeling this. For me, it started the year I nearly drowned. Since then I sometimes feel like I'm dreaming or like I'm in coma. I thought it was gone for a year bur then it just hit me when I was standing in the bus amd I was so scared because I never thought of it for nearly a year.
I couldn't really descrip it so I didn't finde anything on the internet and it was freakin me out. Your description is really helpful. Thanks a lot!

this happened to me since last week i’ve told my parents about it and they just brush it off. i don’t know what is wrong with me. am i dying? idk i feel like shit rn but also relieved that orher people also felt like how i feel rn.

I feel the exact same way. For the longest time I couldn’t describe what I was feeling, but  the descriptions in your comment match what’s going on in my head exactly. And it’s so frustrating because I know I can be in the moment more but nothing I do helps pull me back down to earth.

That sounds like add. I'm always kinda detached when I'm with people I dont know. Its hard to connect with people that are strangers

I've experienced kinda the same sensation as you, and it was because of anxiety issues but I didn't know at the time so i became very paranoid and scared which only worsened my disassociation. The best thing you can do I think is contact a professional and find out which treatment is best for you. Mine was therapy and also meds. But it's different for everyone. Remember that what you're going through is happening for a reason, and you're not crazy (trust me, there's been times where i was convinced i was), you're just recieving symptoms from something bigger that's happened to you in your life. When you start to accept and come to peace with that, and with your mental issues right now, you will find yourself feeling better, bit by bit.❤ there are many people that feel like you and we are not alone!

I’m late as heck, but it’s practically depersonalization. It’s fairly common with anxiety, and the best thing that you can do if ground yourself. 5 things your feel, hear, smell, taste, etc. it really helps!

crystal gem Its just really strange because I can distract myself from it by reading or watching youtube or smth. I’ve learned a lot about mental illness and I have noticed that it’s something you can’t distract your brain from feeling. It makes me wonder if I even have a mental illness at all.

I have a similar thing. It kind of makes me think i'm going crazy. Its like I just zoom out like you said but it feels like "my consciousness" falling backwards, down, deep into my brain/body. I just continue doing whatever I'm doing, but I feel oddly disconnected. I can look at my hands and think they are a lot weirder looking than I remember them to be. I tend to avoid mirrors for the same reason. I know I'm looking at myself, but it feels off and that makes me float away too. I get thoughts like "is this real?" "is anything real?" "What am I?" "how can I know anyone/anything is real?". It all started a few months ago, one day it was just there, and the same day a got an anxiety attack (which is completely new to me) and since then I've felt this way. (i'm making this into a separate comment too)


sometimes when I dream, I feel like I’m on a plane instead of my bed.

I mean when I dream, I don’t feel like I’m on a solid surface.

I hope this is a joke because everybody doesn't dream that they are on a bed.


I was like that for a long time, ended up in psychiatric hospitals, psychiatrists, counsellors, medications etc. Would suddenly feel I was suddenly someone else. Convinced my pupils were growing and shrinking, felt I was disconnected from people around me, bendy walls, jelly legs, reeling sensations, panics. I gave up with getting help and read Claire Weeks and applied it for the first time and started a new journey 24 years ago and it is no longer an issue. I rarely find anyone interested in this!! I had brain/inner ear/heart/blood etc. tests first. All clear. Had various people give theories but.... After a summer in bed thinking I was never going to ever get out of it.... I read Claire Weeks and. . have had 24 years of amazing rich life, and issues with things not being real are not an issue now. Like you say, sometimes I get reeling head but... Well,... Read Claire Weeks, she says it better than me

Ps .. this is 25yrs ago before a lot of modern terminology came about. A psychiatrist decided I had an 'aura' and prescribed largactyl. I read the side effects and decided that on top of valium, atevan and sleeping pills (which just made feel disconnected in a different way and gave me fainting spells of low blood pressure)... that I needed something else... went to the library and got Claire Weeks book .. and I found freedom from it all


What eye condition did you get diagnosed with??


We all go through that, have you tried shoonya meditation to fix the floating.


For me I call it dissociation. I get it from my ptsd and it prevents me from being fully present. I don’t have memory loss like what you described. I know whats going on its just like I’m in a weird fluttery state and things don’t feel real


i got this last year im 11. its really fucking my life up..


I also feel that i am always floating. This is really depressing. Huhu i am really going to talk with someone after corona. I hate this feeling i cant understand anything anymore.


I'm sorry but your voice is so soft it's just 🥺🥺🥺❤


I also suffer from depersonalization... and I have to say, it's something you can't fully comprehend unless you've dealt with it yourself... it's like you're constantly stuck in a 2 dimensional world, and you feel disconnected from your own body. Not every day is as intense as others, but certain situation trigger the major anxiety and that 'weird' feeling that comes with depersonalization... like sudden change or a traumatic event.. or even basic stressful situations can make me feel extra out of it.<br>I had this condition since I was 15 and it hasn't left me since... it's not NEARLY as bad as it used to be, but it's still there. I just learned to live with it and not let it bother me 24/7.

I also suffer from depersonalization... and I have to say, it's something you can't fully comprehend unless you've dealt with it yourself... it's like you're constantly stuck in a 2 dimensional world, and you feel disconnected from your own body. Not every day is as intense as others, but certain situation trigger the major anxiety and that 'weird' feeling that comes with depersonalization... like sudden change or a traumatic event.. or even basic stressful situations can make me feel extra out of it.
I had this condition since I was 15 and it hasn't left me since... it's not NEARLY as bad as it used to be, but it's still there. I just learned to live with it and not let it bother me 24/7.

Kinga depersonalization is worst. ive had some episodes, occurs after emotion trauma. rly rly baaaad. usually i gave adhd/dissociating/anxiety,  mild ocd etc, but depersonalization episodes were baaaad.

Nani Corday 100% agreed. I am 15 now and I have derealisation for a long time now and today I experienced depersonalization for the first time. At the beginning I wasn’t sure if it was it but later it got so much worse. I think I had a panic attack while this because it was so scary or maybe it is just like that. I don’t know yet and I hope I won’t find out myself. I still feel like not me but it’s not that intense now. I’m afraid that it won’t leave me. If not I think I’m gonna go to a doctor. With derealisation it was bad but I could live with it but this is so much worse.


i dont have this and mygod i dont want to sound entitled or whatever but shit im thankful.


Carnivals are terrifying when I feel like this


Disassociative disorders suck. Try to keep a list of the things that help keep you grounded, and speak to your GP or therapist about it.


oml.......how did I not know about this.....I always feel like this when I'm very stressed....wtf

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Bleepboop uncontrollable laugh in a akward/stressy situation is normal

ME TOO! I sometimes get weird experiences like this, as well as uncontrollable laughter, whenever i’m in a high-stress or very serious situation. I made another comment about it too. I wonder if it’s connected.. pwq


Anyone else just feel absolutely nothing.....like I’m in this state of nothing while feeling nothing and just floating through life. Watching it pass by not doing anything about it. Idk just so weird to feel nothing and be nothing all the time.


Don't mind me. Just trying to figure out that why living feels off sometimes, like my soul would want to flee but can't
I'm atm having stressful time so it can be that or something else. I really want to do research about this but when i want to ask about it i'm afraid that others call me crazy.
It feels like this: My mind sometimes drifts off but then i realize it and return. Second thing, i feel like living in stimulation even when i know that i am real.
And third: It feels like that i don't achieve anything and i feel a little bit useless bc idk what to do with my life. I know what i like but i don't know what my job would be. And that stresses me out

This doesn't happen all the time but sometimes life is just blurry. Like i would live inside a bubble

*Don't mind me. Just trying to figure out that why living feels off sometimes, like my soul would want to flee but can't*
I'm atm having stressful time so it can be that or something else. I really want to do research about this but when i want to ask about it i'm afraid that others call me crazy.
It feels like this: My mind sometimes drifts off but then i realize it and return. Second thing, i feel like living in stimulation even when i know that i am real.
And third: It feels like that i don't achieve anything and i feel a little bit useless bc idk what to do with my life. I know what i like but i don't know what my job would be. And that stresses me out

This doesn't happen all the time but sometimes life is just blurry. Like i would live inside a bubble


one time i smoked a year ago and my eyes have never been the same it gives me anxiety everyday and i dont know what to do im suoer scared and im tired of it ive tried medicine i just dont know what to do


Luckily (thank god) I don’t suffer from this. I’ve figured when I’m under high stress levels I begin to disassociate quite a bit. For the past couple days, my mind just hasn’t been working right. It’s not exactly like dreaming- it’s more like waking up. Being shoved into reality, everything’s so real, but like an altered version of reality. This caused me to freak out, which causes frequent panic attacks. Not a very fun thing, but this has only been happening recently (past 5 days or so). Like I mentioned before, I’ve been really heckin stressed lately, so I’m assuming this whole weird brain thing is a result of that. I can’t imagine living the way I do, except magnified by like 10x, and ALL THE TIME. Dear dodie, and all you lil adorable beans suffering from something like this, you guys are amazing. To be able to handle this is so brave, and takes a really strong person to do so. GOOD JOB!:)


How do you deal with this - d'you have to have a carer or someone to make sure you don't wander off, like a senior citizen with cognitive problems?


its like being HIGH all the time, without the fun.


//rant// i hate it so much. i've only just realized what it actually is after many years of just saying that i have constant brain fog or that everything's just "fuzzy" all the time. it's been so long since i've been present without trying. i'm so tired of it.


sometimes i feel like im fake and made up and everything else is real, but the rest of the time, i feel like everything else is fake, and like im floating through nothingness, which causes issues because i struggle to remember that my actions will affect other people and their feelings, or my surroundings.


Try the DP Manual as treatment. It’s like 30 quid but it’s worth it if you want to get better


I do these things called reality checks, sometimes just to make sure I’m really, and the things that I do actually take affect, I’ll do weird things. <br>Sometimes I’ll yell really loud, to make sure people can see me, but the worse one is when I scratch myself till I see blood, because I would need to make sure i was not a robot. Luckily I don’t scratch anymore, and I’ve token up doing other things like throwing a pen at the wall, or drawing really hard on paper.

I do these things called reality checks, sometimes just to make sure I’m really, and the things that I do actually take affect, I’ll do weird things.
Sometimes I’ll yell really loud, to make sure people can see me, but the worse one is when I scratch myself till I see blood, because I would need to make sure i was not a robot. Luckily I don’t scratch anymore, and I’ve token up doing other things like throwing a pen at the wall, or drawing really hard on paper.

I do this too. I always bite my tongue but then think "what if I'm dreaming I'm biting my tongue and I'm actually sleeping"

R3UnionHD I blame YouTube suggesting this to me late 😂

I feel bad for him/her maybe not knowing about those 3 common reality checks till you guys mentioned it like five to six month later 😅

You should just look at a digital clock (if you wear an Apple watch or something similar this works well). If you look at it in a dream, look away, and look back the numbers tend to change. A lot less subtle than yelling in public and less harmful than scratching yourself.

I do these too! I think one that might be less harmful for you is holding your breath and trying to inhale and exhale. Like, hold your breath, plug your nose, try to breathe anyway. If you're dreaming, you'll be able to breathe through it, because your body doesn't stop breathing no matter what you do in a dream. It's how I make sure I'm actually awake because a lot of the time I can't tell the difference.


Dissociation is also something people who are self diagnosing around here should look into (not judging as it's sometimes all you can do, but I'd recommend not OVER diagnosing?). I'm not a great person to share on either but like Dodie mentioned at the beginning what she struggles with is a chronic version of that... If that makes sense?


i have bpd and osdd and i have this constantly


watching this from 2020 -- that's what this year feels like .-.


I feel like this to most of the time after smoking a fat blunt


I have depersonalization.  Sometimes it gets so bad. I hate it. Its really scary . Like i had to go to the hospital for it once.


I’m so glad that you’re talking about this! I’ve had this condition since early 2018, and I haven’t heard anyone else talk about derealization, and I’m so happy you’re bringing this subject to light.


Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream. Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream. You're not crazy. Reality is not real, it's a frequency. - spoken by someone who has tried 5 grams of mushrooms


Ok so sometimes I feel like my mind is one person and my body is someone else’s body and I live in that body and I am trying to leave it’s odd

Its like when I hug myself its like hugging a stranger. My mind and body also feel like different people. Its like I'm observing the world from outside looking in. I don't know if I have depersonalization or not though.

Anthony Priamo yeah, with DP I experience something similar. Like, even when I see myself in the mirror or look down at my hands it’s like cognitively I know it’s me but I don’t feel like me. Even with my own memories like I don’t feel they belong to me... do you feel floaty as well?


I remember when I smoked my first J. I thought I was dreaming.


I'm so scared because I feel like I have this. It used to only happen rarely, but lately I've noticed that it's happening more often than not, and it's frightening the crap out of me. I'm a person who thrives to live in the moment and take in my surroundings (Carpe diem and all that) but I find it almost impossible to do that now and it's messing up my life. I feel so detached from reality, my friends, my family, from work, everything. Idk what to do

I can really relate to that and i'm scared ..

Healthy people have moments of derealization .

god i feel like i‘m gonna cry you are literally describing my life exactly

when my anxiety gets bad ( my anxiety is all about death) I keep thinking what if this is a dream but then I find things around me I can touch,smell,taste etc . It helps keep me present

Esmee H  That's really sweet, thank you :). I wouldn't mind someone to talk to

Karen Elizabeth I understand... if you wish to talk about it, feel free to message me back and I can get in touch xx


i know you may not see this, but i think it's even a slights possibility i may have this or an beginning to have depersonalization. i feel disconnected when i look in a mirror, like i don't really look like that. my past feels like it was someone else i knew, but i know everything about it. i feel like everything and nothing are happening all at once. i don't know if this is depersonalization, a weird feeling, or another lovely mental disorder but if anyone has answers i'd love some help :<


I can switch perspectives from one person to another then back to Me I can’t control it yet. Is this early signs of superpowers?!

@Collin Mintz ive watched her im a big fan however i never do any of the symptoms of DID  like switching personaliyts (god sorry for my bad spelling my eyes are bad today) its mode like i can see through their eyes for a min or too.

That sounds like Dissociative Identity Disorder. I’m not sure though. Check out DissociaDID


I have this issue a lot actually. not constantly, but a lot. to a point where sometimes I cant say anything and I cant think and all I can manage to let out is a few mumbles and I'm not sure of what I was thinking was said out loud or of it was just in my head. and then my vision blurs and it feels like I'm not there, just drifting. I hate it. but it usually only occurs during my depressive episodes


Imagine being in a world where you never find out what your issue is or even that what you have isn't normal for your whole life.

I'm glad we live in such a time where we don't have to always deal with this.


When your crush asks you out and you're together for 2 years:


I'm Autistic, and this not being able to determine time correctly is definitely a thing, as a child I always asked if I was dreaming or awake, and most times getting into trouble I honestly thought it was a memory, I couldn't differentiate memories and reality at the moment..but I also have sensory issues, like seeing static everywhere. Masking for years definitely make a break down and Cptsd.


Found your channel from this vid a long time ago, happy to say its gone now


I’ve had depersonalization for almost a year now and it’s great hearing I’m not alone and someone else feels exactly like I do though I’m sorry you have to go through this. I hope things work out for you and anyone else experiencing this


I have a condition that means I'm different and interesting, not my fault though jus tryna live my life in pursuit of adulation


I pinch myself everytime i wake up so i know i'm alive and awake


thanks for making these sorts of videos dodie, love u ❤


When this video came out I only watched the half of it and then turned it off. Now 4 years later i'm experiencing something similar 😂😂😂<br>So i guess it's time to save some money for a therapist...........

When this video came out I only watched the half of it and then turned it off. Now 4 years later i'm experiencing something similar 😂😂😂
So i guess it's time to save some money for a therapist...........


Hey doodle, maybe you try this. When you close your eyes theres a feeling of still looking, and than try to close that looking eyes and open just your Eyelids.


could you please make an update of this? how are you? did it go away? ;(

doddleoddle awh! i had a period of it but have felt it a lot less recently. i’m so sorry that you are still struggling with dp/dr. i hope that it will eventually go away for you, and i have read up on all the articles you did about it and how you’ve been spreading awareness. i hope knowing that you’re making a HUGE difference to sufferers (past & present) and you help others overcome their struggles makes you feel better. i really hope you recover but at the end of the day, it is what it is  and i’m sure you’ve learnt to appreciate life for how it is. love your videos and thank you ❤


holy crap i have this too! i'm glad i'm not alone. thanks for talking about it :')


Hi! I'm a new subscriber watching from London.


Well yall there is nothing wrong with you. In my humble opinion, it's not a 'disorder' at all. It's a part of you trying to wake you up, shake you up and get you back on the right path. The physical world is not what it seems. There is much more beyond it, where all of our true selves lie. So don't fret, all will be revealed one day and this world will be a thing of the past :D . Learn where you can and keep moving forward, dont worry about feeling a way you think you're 'suppose' to feel. Think. DIFFERENT. find. Truth.


yeet well i might have to bring this up at therapy this week


I had an episode of this the day after I tried weed for the first time. I had a panic attack while high so, that was definately the cause. It really sucked. I felt like I was watching a movie more than being alive. It was so hard to function. I'm glad you finally have an answer and can work towards getting better!


i have to draw on my hands and look around for clocks mirrors and things i could read just in case coz i literally cannot tell if things are real or not but i aksed my friend for help and they said theres a disorder so i looked up and and im here? imma go to a doctor tho 😳


This has been me for the past month?? Am I ok??


sorry my REALLY bad english but i had this thing a whole year, the last year, and now this happen only sometimes, so if u have this too, maybe it's not forever


I have a chronic vestibular illness and derealisation/ depersonalisation have been symptoms of it at times. It’s awful. Brain fog, floating, feeling like I’m looking at life through a window... or virtual reality goggles. Looking at people around the room and feeling like they’re not really there, or like I’m not really a part of life. Feels like my eyes are heavy and they don’t quite look around properly. It does go away eventually. I worked on my stress and anxiety. Mediations, yoga ... etc. Sometimes I notice it still. I mean... vestibular disorders are awful in themselves! But yeah I feel for you!


I feel like this but i havent told anyone


I don’t have derealisation but I do dissociate a lot and sometimes it feels like I’m watching myself on tv a lot of the time when I dissociate I’m still so I just feel disconnected from the world but when I’m moving it’s like I’m watching someone on tv like I can see I’m moving but I don’t feel like I’m in control or there my first memory of this was when I was in year 5 and everytime I had a race because I used to be a competitive runner and when I got towards the end of a race and could see the finish line my body would just disconnect I wasn’t there anymore I was still running I have no clue how fast I was going because I couldn’t feel any of it it was like when you watch shows and people are running and you see it from the angle of the person who’s running so it looked like I was watching myself on tv through my eyes if that makes any sense and I didn’t realise what it was at the time I told people about it but I just thought that it was me getting in the zone or something but now I’ll just walk round the house dissociate end up putting whatever I had in my hand down somewhere then coming back and not being able to find that thing


I'm a (depressed) maladaptive daydreamer and a lot of the time I also feel like I'm dreaming, but never this bad. To bear this is one of the most difficult things I can imagine and I'm always amazed at how strong you are. When I was reading your book, I was always either crying because I related so much and I was so relieved someone else understood, or I was crying because I couldn't believe you've had to fight demons this horrible.

You are so so precious and incredible and inspiring and imperfectly perfectly openly human.

Thank you for existing and doing what you do <3


I call this my brain going into low-power mode


Life is not real, you cant take it with you, thats all i gotta say about that


Wait.... if you think your dreaming and your dreaming then... You would be lucid dreaming!


I'm just curious, are you an INFP? I deal with this too :/


You are walking around in the freeze response which is basically a traumatized state, you should defenitely check out jordan hardgrave's course


yay im crying now because ive felt like this for so long and i want to die


She spelled it with an s. I don't know why but that makes that word so cute for some reason.


I've had chronic dpdr for 4 years and its recently been getting worse. It's absolute torture. I tried to end my own life a couple of weeks ago. Your videos calm me down somewhat and its refreshing to hear someone else's POV. Thanks. Xx


i feel like i’m real but everything else around my is fake or a dream. so then i think why is there a point of trying if this really is a dream. then i get kinda depressed i can’t excape this feeling. plus i get anxiety and panic when i can’t excape. i also don’t think of it and it doesn’t happen but when i do think of it, it happens. what do you think this is ?


Its not a medical thing I'm pretty sure, its your soul wandering trying to just leave the physical, grounding doesnt help your vision but it does seem to help your focus and kinda helps your memory


wow u have a way with word. very descriptive.


I’ve been wondering if I have this because I feel like this so often, especially when I recall certain accounts or am having a really stressful/anxious time. I’m trying to learn all I can so I can ask my doctor about the things I’m experiencing. I’ve been so terrified of my own body sometimes and I noticed changes in my vision a few months ago. I wish I had seen this then. It would have helped me a lot more than all the panicking I did about it haha. Thanks Dodie!


Thank you so much, I really appreciate you talking about this, not just so I feel less alone with derealisation, I will show my family this so they can understand better. Thankyou.


how do you get rid of it I've had this for so long and it's so terrible


it feels like im playing a hyperrealistic vr game


Sometimes I feel like I can’t understand what people are a<br>Saying even though they are speaking perfect English. I’ve felt a lot like I’m not awake or existing. Like sometimes I’m like I know this is real but I don’t feel real. I’ve been incredibly dizzy and I feel like my hyperactivity and impulsivity no longer are under my control and I keep saying things without meaning them because I just can’t say anything else

Sometimes I feel like I can’t understand what people are a
Saying even though they are speaking perfect English. I’ve felt a lot like I’m not awake or existing. Like sometimes I’m like I know this is real but I don’t feel real. I’ve been incredibly dizzy and I feel like my hyperactivity and impulsivity no longer are under my control and I keep saying things without meaning them because I just can’t say anything else

Ariella Russ YES THIS IS THE SAME THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME IT WAS SO FREAKY


Ik this is late, and that this isn't really a medical advice page, but is it possible to have it without it being triggered by previous trauma?


Something I feel kinda like this except I have a pulsating head ache and a stomach ache but then I throw up and I am fine


Sometimes I'm just going about my business, and as if it's in the snap of your fingers, I feel like the world doesn't exist. As if I'm not real, and nobody is real, and nothing has ever been real. I don't know how to describe it. It's like a mini black out, like a full body throb. It doesn't last very long for me, maybe 1 to 6 seconds, and usually only happens once every month or two. I don't know what it is.

Oooooooo that happens to me. I’m literally just sitting their listening isn’t to the teacher than I feel like I’m not present there. So creepy

Oh thats just Thanos, I hate when that happens.

SOS save our seas <br> Thanks, it's been quite a ride since I can now put a name to those moments where I dissociate and a name to the derealization episodes. It's interesting to see how an article online explains this vs. This video, and how that article failed to sort of thoroughly explain the sensation the way someone who has expirienced it can. Fascinating how having a personal connection to the topic can yield more insightful explanations rather that someone who's only studied it and never felt it.

SOS save our seas
 Thanks, it's been quite a ride since I can now put a name to those moments where I dissociate and a name to the derealization episodes. It's interesting to see how an article online explains this vs. This video, and how that article failed to sort of thoroughly explain the sensation the way someone who has expirienced it can. Fascinating how having a personal connection to the topic can yield more insightful explanations rather that someone who's only studied it and never felt it.

Amalia gamer : I’m sorry this happens to you. I’m somewhat similar but I think it’s derealization

For me, I get these episodes once a month and it's a nightmare, a real living nightmare. I think i may some sub version of this because I've noticed that i am startled awake from a 1 second nap, which led me to investigate sleep disorders( i don't think i have any except perhaps insomnia) and suddely the episode begins. This is also the reason i avoid baps at all costs.  I don't like to think, far worse talk about it because it's like taboo for me which is the worst part since i feel as though i can't analyze the episode without most likely losing my mind for a good 10 minutes. So I'm actually afraid I'll get another episode right now because i feel as though its taboo.

So basically,( I'm having a hard time remembering since i repress these memories) i wake up and it really is like the world isn't real. Legit like it always happens around people and so they want to talk to me but I'm really uncomfortable and terrified because my worst episode ever, I was jolted awake from a 1 second nap at dinner and my mother and brother were conversing with me and (here's the worst of it) i genuinely wanted to talk to them to not feel as though I'm not real, i FELT AS THOUGH I DIDN'T KNOW THEM, LIKE I SORT OF KNEW WHO THEY ARE,  THEY ARE MY CLOSEST FAMILY BUT NOT FEELING A BOND,  THE WAY ONE KNOWS 1+1=2 BUT NOT MAKING SENSE WHY.  I thought, "they're your family, why dont you FEEL A BOND," it was horrible. I hid in the bathroom trying to sort myself out and then escaped to my room because i didn't want to feel like i know them but i don't, its the worst thing I've ever experienced mental health wise. I used to wait it out, but now i try to ground myself since that episode, and its been effective. I also try to stay calm and not remember that episode by breathing and telling myself i will be alright. The next step of my journey seems to have begun with the discovery of this video: Reaching A Diagnosis

Oh my when she started talking about how you feel as though things dont feel real, i had an epiphany of sorts. I've always known that this isn't normal, but i still feel as though, oh my I'm dissociating again, ok ok, i still feel as though my family would judge me and well yeah. Since I've been aware that this isn't normal, I've tried and looked around for somethi g that sounds like what i experience, and as a result I've gotten into how Dissociative Identity Disorder works, but it was definitely not me. After years if constant struggle to put a name to these symptoms and a name to the episodes, I've found something very similar to what I experience: Derealization.

Only ones I do remember are when I was drunk, for example looking into the mirror, and when I was peeing it felt like I was in a dream and peed my pants but it was irl. Maybe this was just because of alcohol?

When I hear see other people here telling their experiences I can't remember any moment like that but I just have a feeling that it has happened.

That is very similar to what happens to me... like I'm in a dream and want to wake up (I can't of course :p), and I just need to take a second to close my eyes and focus on my... conscience I guess? tell myself I am real. Everything around me is _real_. And well... sometimes I can just brush it off (since I'm getting it more often) but sometimes I can't help but panic really bad
Sorry for hijacking your comment... it's just nice that someone feels like me

That is very similar to what happens to me... like I'm in a dream and want to wake up (I can't of course :p), and I just need to take a second to close my eyes and focus on my... conscience I guess? tell myself I _am_ real. Everything around me is _real_. And well... sometimes I can just brush it off (since I'm getting it more often) but sometimes I can't help but panic really bad
Sorry for hijacking your comment... it's just nice that someone feels like me


see what i go is my mind is weird and i’m technically not the only one


I have episodes of derealization/depersonalization? During states of mania, and depression.

I dissociate all the time.
😑🙈


Please tell me if anyone feels the same . I think i am alone feeling this way.
 (What i feel is i am not alive it's like i dont exist. When i feel i dont exist it's a sad sigh that i dont care anything. When i am severaly hurt by someone or something i feel even happy by a childish thinking i am not even alive. During middle of gossip and  talk i  feel like i am not talkin or it's feel unreal. Even sometimes i have to hit myself just to be sure that it's not dream it's reality. When it rains or every phenomena i feel like it's unreal. Everything around me feels it's unreal. Most importantly i feel I AM IN FRONT OF GOD and he is showing me the deeds i did on earth  and  i am SEEING ALL MY LIFE (even now too commenting) IN A BIG TV. Means i feel i don't exist )
  Only pains, hardships,cuts, bruises and love are making me feel Alive. I personally i i don't exist at all and the world around me is fake and WHAT I AM DOING NOW is writing a comment and this too i am seeing myself in a tv (from different dimensions )