I kinda hate self diagnosing but I know exactly what you’re saying and how you feel

@José An theres a big difference between the symptom and the disorder catagory in the DSM. people can have the symptom without having DID, OSDD, DDNOS, or Depersonalization/derealization  Disorder. it lasts shorter period of time and is brought on by stress. thats all this person is saying they've experienced.

@José An why not? dissociation is a symptom of anxiety, depression, every dissociative disorder, every personality disorder, PTSD, ADHD, and like 8 other wholeass catagories in the DSM. dissociation as a phenomenon is something even neurotypical people do under distress. this person said they're not claiming to have this disorder but suffer from the symptom. its no different than describing any other symptom.

saying you suffer feom a symptom isnt self diagnosing but saying you have the disorder is. for example, saying you have depersonalization disorder is self diagnosing. saying you struggle with dissociation and depersonalization is listing symptoms. rhese are symptoms of dozens of different disorders, both psychiatric and general physical ones.


i think it stops being a problem once you are self aware about it and try to control it as much as you can.


Definitely feel a disconnect from my surrounds. My first symptom is my back becomes super straight and they become really light. Next, I feel high(but like she said without the fun). Lastly, I feel as if I'm just watching somebody act out things and I'm just watching from their perspective. Haven't gotten rid of this but it started last year when I started smoking weed so that might have to do with this.... Don't do drugs kids


My heart goes out to everyone who does or has gone through this or anything similar. I haven't felt this before I can only imagine how freaky it must feel. And I'm sorry if you didn't want one of those typical pity comments. But I could only imagine how scary this would be so if you can pull yourself out of this say all I can say is wow.


I’ve been struggling with this condition for the last 2 years since I had brain surgery, and it’s the most difficult condition to talk about! People think I’m genuinely crazy when I tell them “I feel like I’m not here”, and it’s so frustrating. I had a horrible experience recently where I was crossing the street; I felt so spaced out that I felt as though I could’ve walked out into the road in front of a car, get hit, and then wake up in bed as though it was all a dream! It freaked me out to such an extent that I ran home, locked the door, jumped into my bed and played animal crossing for 4 hours straight. Apparently my derealisation is purely due to severe sleep deprivation, and that really bothers me. I haven’t slept for nearly two years, and I can guarantee that my dr/dp would cease if I could actually sleep! However, it’s so comforting to know how common this condition is, and I haven’t felt as alone since Dodie started speaking out about it! You’ve no idea how much you’ve helped me with this, Dodie; thanks chuck💛

Special Kay oh god, i got the same exact thing when i was in london just walking around all day and i hadn't slept for 2 days. at the end of the day i got this feeling like i was disconncted to reality, but i never thought it was something many other people experience or something that's even recognised as a condition. obviously, my experience wasn't severe, it stopped after i slept for a few hours and it hasn't occured again yet, but it's interesting to see that apparently, both sleep deprivation and trauma can trigger this kind of derealisation

I hate when I try to explain how I feel to someone and they just look and talk to me like I’m being hysterical or like I’m overreacting. Not too long ago, when I finally was confirmed to have depression and anxiety, my sister talked to me and genuinely tried to help. However, she didn’t understand what depression was. She kept telling me to “just feel happy” and that I “don’t need to try to feel happy, it just happens.” When I explained that it wasn’t that simple, she cried. It hurts to see her that upset, but it also helped to know that she cared so much. I wish that people talked more about mental health.

mads so glad you could relate to my comment! Hope you’re well💗

I got you pretty well, this sensation of "I don't exist, I'm not here", and not being able to explain how I feel sucks really hard

this is what i get!!!!!!!! i like plan scenarios out in my head but it's like some sort of middle ground between "this isn't going to happen, it's just a scenario in my head" and "this IS going to happen" .. like i KNOW i'm not going to walk into the road when there's cars but i feel like i can kind of ..see it happening bc it doesnt feel like me controlling my body ? and then after i've gotten hit i'll just wake up and my mum will be there telling me it was a dream? sorry this is such a long reply but i've never seen anyone talk about it the same way i feel it :') hoping things get better for you💕💕💕


I had this same thing when I was in ninth grade I felt like the world wasn’t real and I was stuck in a synthetic bubble and that the world was going to end at the end of the year, it was the worst time of my life. The world was gray


I just thought „naw I wished I had watched this video a few years ago back when all my life was about was this scary feeling. Thing is, if I’d have watched this back when derealization and depersonalization were very bad for me, I would have believed that this video is a lie. That it’s something my subconscious has created haha


Omg I've been wondering what is wrong with me all my life and no one would understand my explanation of this I try to snap out of it but I'm still in this dream


Had it strong after school burn out. Was freeking out for little things and feelimg very insecure. Praying really helped though<br> Comming out of it slowly

Had it strong after school burn out. Was freeking out for little things and feelimg very insecure. Praying really helped though
 Comming out of it slowly


I can’t believe so many people actually are experiencing this. Really. I first experienced this around 10 or 11 and the feeling was so foreign. I didn’t even know how to describe it and I genuinely thought I was the only person in the world feeling like that. I am 16 now and chronically for over 5 years I have been dealing with derealization and only a few years ago I discovered the name and that others have it. I feel calmer knowing what it is and that I am not alone, but at the same time I am sad many others have to suffer with it. I am pretty much experiencing it day in and day out so I am desensitized to it, but i hate that it is still there and won’t go away. I am so grateful that Dodie has made a video opening up about it because we really do need more awareness of this condition. I hope very much that a treatment is developed soon for it too.

da da thank you so much for responding to me. I have talked to people online about it before and I found that it helped me feel less anxious about it and even lessened my derealization’s intensity, so thank you for giving me the chance to reach out to you and if I ever need to talk I’ll definitely give you a call! 😄


I have a lot of these symptoms from having chronic migraines with aura :(


i was diagnosed with derealisation and dispersonalisation, but somethings you say i can't relate to, or to the official symptomps, but still i was diagnosed this way. for me it started with smoking weed, then i had panic attacks and anxiety and after i quit smoking the brain fog started (6years now almost 7)ive almost forgotten how it feels to feel normal and that feeling of feeling alive. but i know that the feeling i have right now is not being alive. i feel different though then you discribed. for example, i can see crystal clear without having the feeling of being drunk or black spots, but still i have a feeling that i cant "really " see, much like the sensation you get when you see while being high (but still crystal clear if that makes sense) i do have alot of emotions but i cant seem to live in the moment, like i never value the moment when im in it, its always 3months orso or longer when i think of it as a memory that i can put the memory togheter with some kind of emotion. its like my grandpa is very old en i love him to death and i do alot of stuff with him, but it feels like i did nothing with him because i wasnt in the moment to enjoy it. also when i see a movie i sometimes cant remember what happened (i didnt space out).also when i think back over the last couple of months, it feels like a blurr and feels like i was gone the whole time (again i know i wasnt because i was there but in some weird way i wasnt) if someone tells me an exact activity that we did, i can remember ofcourse. i also daydream alot, like a lot i think i do that to avoid the pain of my current problems i have in life and that its a weird cooping mechanisme or something. but i know i am real, i dont have the feeling that im not in my body like you guys do, so i dont know exactly what i have even though i was diagnosed with it. i feel so frustrated explaining it because as hard as i try i cant seem to put the feeling in to words, en when i look up the symptoms i cant find i right match, somethings i can relate to some not... does anyone understand me or can relate to me? im feeling alone in this situation and some insights would be nice, sorry for my bad english


you actually scared the living shit out of me two years ago when i just started having dpdr and you said you've been having it for so long and nothing worked


i had a really bad disassociation episode once, after watching a movie. it was a sad movie and i cried a lot. i looked away from my laptop screen and i felt like i wasn’t in my room. i ran into my bathroom, feeling convinced i wasn’t real, and when i looked into the mirror, i didn’t see myself, i saw a stranger.


I started experiencing derealisation some time last year, more on a minor scale. Sometimes it goes away for short periods, but it always comes back. When I went through a really depressive episode, I remember taking my dog for a walk and the whole scenery around me felt superimposed; like it wasn't real and I might as well be in front of a green screen. I'm also not too good at taking in situations (especially now). I work in retail and when customers are coming up to me, asking me questions and shouting at me, I almost feel like I'm hallucinating. It's unexplainable.

I first experienced this 'real but not real' thing a few years ago when I was eating  at the dinner table with my family and I got really scared and told my parents. they said I might just need to get more sleep and I did. It went away for a while but sometimes every now and then it creeps up on me

that's actually so relatable to me, especially the taking in situations things, it's so difficult to explain to others though.


Ohhh, yeah. I had this. It was awful. It was never chronic thankfully but I'd go through episodes like this, while at work or something and it's like you disassociate with reality for a bit and oh boy is it fun to deal with :|


I just really wanna check if I have Maladaptive Daydreaming. It's effects my learning and listening so much...


I was on a medicine that made me experience derealization. It was horrible. I couldn't imagine living with it constantly.


first time i watched this i had no idea what you were feeling or talking about, but after getting extremely high twice i’m starting to experience it a lot when sober and with no real triggers. i’m going to give myself a week and if it doesn’t get better i’m probably going to go seek professional help because so far this sucks


And got episodes of this a couple months back. I was super depressed and my anxiety was awful. I couldn’t function as a normal human being. I was injured for 4 months (I just got back to physical activity 3 weeks ago) and my mental state was deteriorating. I have thyroid problems so I had to go on medication for that, and then came a kinda steroid medication for my injury which triggered the episodes. I felt like I was never really alive and was just floating from the high dosage of medication. After being taken off of them for that reason, I kept having these episodes. My anxiety was just getting worse and worse until I finally got medicated for that. The episodes remained for a couple days as my body adjusted to the burst of medication entered my system and stopped for awhile. I was recently upped on the dosage for my anxiety and I dealt with the readjusting and the derealization episodes for three days or so. I don’t remember much, but it was during thanksgiving and my mom read me old stories from my great grandmother so I didn’t have to be in my own head for awhile. I can say I still get small episodes here and there but I am finally feeling alive and worthy again. If you feel hopeless and scared as I was, just get through. I promise you there is help out there and you will find it. I believe in you and I know you will be okay. Thanks for reading this incredibly long comment and I’m so glad to finally feel like I have a life again.

Update: its back. I’m still injured 9 months on and I feel like this all the time again. 😔


I often get pissed off when I hear people talk about their mental illnesses because I recognize how much of it I experienced as a child. A freaking child, like UNDER the age of 10. I needed help! I needed help and none of my adults noticed or did anything about it!

Now that I'm an adult and have been diagnosed with ADHD, I'm able to understand brain and take care of myself in a way that prevents all these other mental health issues from affecting me. But as a child, unaddressed ADHD led to anxiety attacks, depression,  irrational fears, suicidal thoughts,  and apparently, disassociation. I told my parents,  teachers, and classmates that I felt like I was dreaming so many times that they got tired of it.

I experienced the mirror thing Dodie is talking about. It was scary. I legitimately wondered if a demon was following me around and scaring me on purpose when I looked in a bathroom mirror.
When I was 13 I told a girl that I had no need for drugs or alcohol because my brain sometimes got "high" on it's own.
THIS IS NOT NORMAL!  WHY DIDN'T MY ADULTS HELP ME ?!
I'm honestly lucky I made it to adulthood at all. Now that I'm responsible for myself,  I'm proactive about my mental health. As a child, my parents should have been doing that.


While I don’t have a dissociative disorder, i do have frequent dissociation linked to other mental illnesses I struggle with. My psychiatrist recently suggested to me that through constant obsessing and analyzing and checking up on my brain space, even subconsciously, my mind hits the eject button. There’s something so frustrating and absolutely terrifying about feeling alright, maybe a little peeved, maybe a little nervous, but suddenly everything feels distant, your hands don’t look like yours, turning your head feels like there’s lag, like you can’t take everything in before your body has stopped looking at it and has moved onto something else. I’m working on living with it. It’s not comfortable, but I know I’m fortunate enough that it will pass, and it’s all about waiting out these episodes.

Some things I do to ground:
-Pull and stretch the hem of my shirt in different ways, feeling how the fabric shifts and stretches under my fingers
-Let water drip onto my hands, focus on the feeling of it on my hands, put my hands on my face, focus on the feeling of my hands pressing into my cheeks, and then focus on the water hitting my cheeks
-Press a pillow or a stuffed animal or a comfort item into my chest, the sensation is comforting and the comfort item is obviously... comforting

I hope this could help... literally anyone ♡


I really want to animate the poem for my project 🤕
But it’s been a year
Maybe I’ll compose my own description and I’ll cite this video.
Thank you for inspiring me ( well no one is going to see it though)☺


It feels great knowing I'm not the only one


I hate this feeling so much. I remember during the worst part of my life (when I was going through really bad anxiety) I felt just...wrong. I knew I was alive but I didn’t feel like I was the same person I’ve always been before. When I found out it was due to my anxiety everything made sense and sometimes I do still get these feelings but I’m happy to know that there’s a reason.

Himynameiscarly I’m right here with you. All day. Erry day.


D/R D/P is often down to being in a state of anxiety. I was talking to a friend about this and have read about it since as im going through it too. The way ive heard it put is its down to the fight, flight freeze response. Your brain goes into freeze mode and like a parachute, pulls the rip cord on you to pull you out of reality. My friend gave me this analogy. Imagine a gazelle that's been caught by a lion and is now being dragged back to its den. The gazelle, knowing its in an inescapable position goes into a state of derealisation. Its brain spaces out and disconnects from its situation so as to make its impending death as painless and detatched as possible. Its brain pulls the rip cord as it were. Now while your not a gazelle being dragged to its doom our brains have evolved to to have the same hard wired response to anxiety. Finding ways through anxiety can help with the spacey feeling. That being said, its perfectly fine to feel spaced out and 'floating' through it like floating over a wave and letting it pass can help, allowing your mind to observe the feeling (which is like a meditative technique). Grounding can help when it gets bad. Im no expert but its helped me kind of rationalise this


It wasn't exactly like you described it but I  was like that for a while when I was around 18,19 and I kinda miss a lot of opportunities because of that. <br>Perhaps trying to do too much out of body travel triggered it, it's like one never reintegrated one's body 100% and that's one reason to stop.

It wasn't exactly like you described it but I  was like that for a while when I was around 18,19 and I kinda miss a lot of opportunities because of that.
Perhaps trying to do too much out of body travel triggered it, it's like one never reintegrated one's body 100% and that's one reason to stop.


hey everyone! Anyone freaking out and watching this video thinking they are derealized forever and brain damaged, etc, all the stuff I used to think before, I had SEVERE depersonalization and derealizatjon for six years and came out of it :)

You will , I promise.

Treat yourself for OCD and anxiety and you will come back into reality. I promise.


Yup I have this, it's basically you're body in defensive mode, post anxiety and depression. Mine is slowly going away with self care etc.


Thanks for teaching me something new, it is quite interesting and im sorry you have that. I do recognize the forgetting everything part (and trying to not forget by taking pictures and writing everything i think down.) I actually dont remember anything under the age of 8.<br>I had derealisation a few times but it was when I was tired and stress

Thanks for teaching me something new, it is quite interesting and im sorry you have that. I do recognize the forgetting everything part (and trying to not forget by taking pictures and writing everything i think down.) I actually dont remember anything under the age of 8.
I had derealisation a few times but it was when I was tired and stress

I don't remember my childhood either, or at least it's very foggy for me. This is a symptom of my BPD, which it may or may not be for you, who knows, but it is called dissociative amnesia. x

Wimsem - Tekenen & Knutselen your comments are literally all over youtube, I see you all the time while I’m scrolling through the comments 😂 no hate or anything just a remark haha😘 ik ben ook nederlands btw


I took a 50mg delta 8 edible with my friend exactly a week ago tomorrow (first time doing anything weed related) and now I just can’t zone back in. I kind of feel like I’m still high and no matter what I do, if I sleep or not caffeine, food or not I just stay zoned out. I don’t really forget things as much it just feels like I’m on autopilot.


I had this when I was put on Effexor. Floaty, fuzzy, everything was bright like a television on high contrast, and totally numb and emotionless. Breathing felt like I was breathing like Darth Vader, if that makes any sense. I'm surprised that you're able read or comprehend anything... I was not able to. Triple Magnesium, Vitamin D and the keto diet worked to help me get back to somewhat normal. I still suffer depression, but I cannot take SSRIs because they actually make it worse and squish my good feelings too. That's when i tried suicide. No bueno.


the irony of me having to come back to this video after accepting i'd lied to myself for 4 years. the irony of me watching this back when i had started to experience my chronic dpdr for months and thinking at the time, "pfffff imagine having something like this." my symptoms have been the complete opposite to what most people describe, my world became sharp and 3D and unfamiliar. I hate having it. idk how i'll make peace with it. i had it when i was 13 out of nowhere (i wasnt even stressed or anything)


sometimes i would feel like i was just barely sitting on my chair in class and more like im sort of floating.  my head would get fuzzy (feels like static) and i would start having difficulty concentrating.  it would then feel as though my limbs are numb and i can’t feel them.  then, after a few seconds or minutes, it would stop.<br>does that count as derealization or dissociation at all?

sometimes i would feel like i was just barely sitting on my chair in class and more like im sort of floating.  my head would get fuzzy (feels like static) and i would start having difficulty concentrating.  it would then feel as though my limbs are numb and i can’t feel them.  then, after a few seconds or minutes, it would stop.
does that count as derealization or dissociation at all?


I once described my experience with depersonalization/derealization as if my body was ahead of me, miles... and my spirit was behind me, miles... and i simply didn't existed in the present moment

thats exactly how i think of mine! On some days it's closer together and on others the distance seems huge


Wow! I want to be your friend! I've had this chronical derealisation form almost 15 years! I also cant remeber the summer when this condition never went away (in my childhood I had experienced it and then it disappeared and thene came back...). Also my memory fails and I am sensitive to those changes in light and I get frustrated for not feeling present. Is there any group i can join? Thanks for making this video, its great not being alone. Hugs from Mexico City!!


Last week i was having crazy anxiety and panic attacks, now i am feeling like that all the time, i can see how thats a espcapism for the stress but how do i turn it off

same, i had the worst panic attack of my life 3 weeks ago and have been in a DPDR state ever since. idk when i‘ll ever feel normal again


i feel like i'm always in a video game? like when you're controlling the character and the other people are just kind of around you and they're just NPCs and you can kind of hear them but not really and i'm the character and everyone else is just part of the game.

@i dont know it’s okay and :( I’m so sorry

@Allthelovemara im sorry :/ my dad did the same

I literally explained this to my dad once and he just stared at me like I was crazy

I just want to share this to you guys: it’s alright 😄❤

Kshithi Dilip tysm, that really means a lot. hope the best for you too💕💕

@i dont know ah crap that blows I'm sorry, I hope you find the help you need then 💖 you're not alone and you're so valid 💖

Kshithi Dilip thank u, they told me they couldn't do anything tho and that i just have to "try not to think about it" like what am i supposed to do with that lmao

@i dont know I'm glad you got the help you need 💖💖💖

Kshithi Dilip lmao i forgot about this comment, i'm now professionally diagnosed✨


Derealization can be a really awful feeling. I've got mine in the late August 2021 after a traumatic event. I got invited to a nightclub by my friend who I'm not friends with any more since then. I'm not gonna describe why it has been so bad, but to be brief I got home at around 1:30 a.m., went to use a bathroom and suddenly, I felt like it all has been a dream. I experienced a panic attack due to that feeling. My life has changed, I started researching and found out about derealization. This event has even more inconvenient timing, because I was about to start a very stressful and useless/full of anger final school year on my worth of shit high school, so it made it even worse. But I'm better now, and I hope that when this year finally ends, it will decline.


when i start to feel dissociated it sometimes helps to wash my hands. sounds weird but it sort of brings me back a bit, and the warm water also feels really nice. maybe with a good smelling soap if you have. just a small thing, but it helps me anyway! xx love u dodie, thanks

Yes! showering helps me, also going outside: if you have a balcony at home or a big window that faces the road, open it and step out.

I feel that way too, but with a shower. It's always worse when I wake up, but when I shower it becomes clearer, and my day isn't as foggy as it could be.

Oh, though I can't bear cold showers, so I have a hot shower, then end it with about a minute of cold water that then feels refreshing and perks me up. :)

So interesting.  Warm water makes me feel <i>less</i> alert.  I find that drinking cold water, washing my hands in cold water, brushing my teeth with cold water, and even sometimes splashing my face with cold water helps me focus and feel more present.

So interesting.  Warm water makes me feel _less_ alert.  I find that drinking cold water, washing my hands in cold water, brushing my teeth with cold water, and even sometimes splashing my face with cold water helps me focus and feel more present.

This is so interesting, because I use scented lotions and hand sanitizers to help me feel something during a depressive episode. Funny how brains work, and how those of us with different issues can find solace in the same things.

ingrid Great tip! From my own experience you're absolutely right. Nice to find the simple things that work!

I wonder if I can program a certain scent to trigger me to reconnect with the world & then get that flavor soap. 🤔


I did the third dose of Pfizer this Wednesday, and I felt bad until today: a week after, today I went to my psychologist and she told me it's just a feeling. I'm absolutely sure it's just a feeling, because my brain and my heart went through A LOOOOT of anxiety, tension, feelings of being lost and weak (as I still feel, because this situation in the last days made sleeping impossible for me. Because of this today I'm starting to use chamomiles) depression in recent times. I guess that feeling like this is one of the multiple phases of feeling something new you can't bare with. Much love from Italy, you're a pretty soul 💜🇮🇹

⚜ 𝕬𝖓𝖌𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖈𝖆  ⚜


is it normal to get it from time to time? I don't always have this feeling but sometimes for some reason I get that sensation. Usually because I keep waking up (because of sleep paralysis) and then sleeping again immediately several times. I had trouble sleeping today and got a lot of sleep paralysis and it happened again. My brain keeps wondering "was I dreaming or did me eating lunch just now really happened?". Usually it'll take a full day to recover but I just wanna know is it normal to all of the sudden have it and then not have it. You know how people can be depressed (the mental illness) and they can also be depress from time to time. Is derealisation the same?


i sometimes feel like this myself and idk. sometimes its relaxing and sometimes its just not that fun. i kinda feel drugged


Mine used to be only temporary (specially while at work) but now I’ve been stucked like this for almost a year.


the first time i watched this i cried tbh. i didnt know this was a thing until this video and i thought i was insane or something. this video is rad and im happy you made it


I know what’s around me and what’s in my surroundings, but I feel super disconnected and it feels like i’m in a dream. It’s like I have no feelings and I have no brain, like i’m some type of robot who’s just living in this misery...


I have this and clonazepam has helped me a TON when nothing else helps I highly recommend


I feel like everything around me is one single layer of particles that i should be able to see thru, like im in a matrix determined by what my eyes can see. Sounds seem distant, as if im hearing them in a half-asleep state or underwater. I feel as if my consciousness is not properly attached to my vessel, but like im just watching from an outside perspective, and it has a life of its own. It does its own thing in a sort of autopilot way. Life feels like a dream I'm supposed to be waking up from soon, or a movie that is reaching its end.

Its crippling, and i wish i could enjoy my life here, instead of just waiting to die, with the hope of waking up.


I’ve had this condition for 6 years and my psychiatrist switched up my meds and it’s making me worse.


i just read about this in your book! its awesome that you're talking about your experiences and spreading the word about derealisation. love you dodie!! x


After smoking a lot of weed over a period of 4-5 days (Dam), I had the exact same thing for weeks after I'd stopped. I guess I'm lucky it only lasted about a month or two - but those were undoubtedly the weirdest, foggiest, most dreamlike weeks I've ever had. It felt like I was <b>behind</b> my eyes almost, like 'I' was a tiny person in my head pressing buttons and instructing my body to do things, like a human robot/spaceship. Woke up one morning and it was gone. Had NO CLUE what it was

After smoking a lot of weed over a period of 4-5 days (Dam), I had the exact same thing for weeks after I'd stopped. I guess I'm lucky it only lasted about a month or two - but those were undoubtedly the weirdest, foggiest, most dreamlike weeks I've ever had. It felt like I was *behind* my eyes almost, like 'I' was a tiny person in my head pressing buttons and instructing my body to do things, like a human robot/spaceship. Woke up one morning and it was gone. Had NO CLUE what it was


I have derealization most of the time, but i have moments where i come back into the reality that my life is real and that things matter, I celebrate when i have those short, sometimes hour long moments. But when everything feels unreal i dont really care about anything or anyone. It feels like im just watching everything happen and there are no actual choices to for me make, i feel like im on auto pilot.


I feel like this sometimes. It doesn’t happen that often which means that I probably don’t have a disorder or anything, but it’s very strange. It typically happens when I get very anxious or (for whatever reason) watch conspiracy theory videos? I felt like this a few days ago but now I’m back to feeling “normal” again. It’s odd.


Oh I didn't know this was an actual thing! I get that sometimes but I haven't gotten it like in a year now and I always thought that I was just tired but I guess I wasn't :O


(Just a word of caution on 5-HTP for anyone who is also looking at trying it)

I've personally been using it on and off for quite a while and love it and do find it helps me with depressive symptoms. But if you plan on using it I really recommend doing plenty of research on its interactions and the precautions you need to take while taking it. In the US (and I'd imagine most places) its marketed like a vitamin/ supplement and sold otc in that section of the store, but it can have some fairly nasty side effects over time like any drug.

The big one is to never take it while also taking an antidepressant. That can cause the buildup off too much serotonin in your body which leads to serotonin syndrome. Also 5-HTP over time can lead to some heart valve issues but that's said to be preventable by taking EGCg (usually found in the form of a high quality green tea supplement). The final big thing is that since our brains naturally TRY to find balance with brain chemicals (even if they often fail) supplementing serotonin can throw off and lower levels of dopamine which can also cause depression and mental health issues. Generally taking L-Tyrosine (a precursor to Dopamine) helps with that. Also just cycling on and off of it for periods of time to give your body a break every now and then really helps too.

5-HTP is the precursor to serotonin and L-Tryptophan (different from L-Tyrosine) is the precursor to 5-HTP. L-Tryptophan is a bit safer and doesn't have the same side effects as 5-HTP and I've seen a few people also have success with that.

Above all, do plenty of research and talk to a doctor if you can. Take care of yourself friends. :-)

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*(Just a word of caution on 5-HTP for anyone who is also looking at trying it)*

I've personally been using it on and off for quite a while and love it and do find it helps me with depressive symptoms. But if you plan on using it I really recommend doing plenty of research on its interactions and the precautions you need to take while taking it. In the US (and I'd imagine most places) its marketed like a vitamin/ supplement and sold otc in that section of the store, but it can have some fairly nasty side effects over time like any drug.

The big one is to never take it while also taking an antidepressant. That can cause the buildup off too much serotonin in your body which leads to serotonin syndrome. Also 5-HTP over time can lead to some heart valve issues but that's said to be preventable by taking EGCg (usually found in the form of a high quality green tea supplement). The final big thing is that since our brains naturally TRY to find balance with brain chemicals (even if they often fail) supplementing serotonin can throw off and lower levels of dopamine which can also cause depression and mental health issues. Generally taking L-Tyrosine (a precursor to Dopamine) helps with that. Also just cycling on and off of it for periods of time to give your body a break every now and then really helps too.

5-HTP is the precursor to serotonin and L-Tryptophan (different from L-Tyrosine) is the precursor to 5-HTP. L-Tryptophan is a bit safer and doesn't have the same side effects as 5-HTP and I've seen a few people also have success with that.

Above all, do plenty of research and talk to a doctor if you can. Take care of yourself friends. :-)

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Catalytic thanks a lot!! my mom always tries to get me on all kinds of supplements because according to her there's no side effects, but I knew that it's probably not that easy...

Thanks for this - I was going to comment along similar lines! Mixing SSRIs with 5-HTP is a serious way to trigger serotonin syndrome....be careful, folks!

Catalytic i used to take it for my suicidal thoughts/depressive symptoms and it worked in the very beginning but then made me feel constantly sick usually nauseous so i stopped taking it ://


Lol it happens with me also...sometime while sleeping I had visions in my mind and when I suddenly woke up at night I feel like I was not sleeping I feel like I was thinking all night .....


Sometimes my episodes are so bad that i feel dead literally i call on others around me to check that my voice is heard and check mirrors and my ID card all the time to assure myself that I actually exist i feel odd looking at myself in pictures and bathing/showering is hell it terrifies me


I definitely get this during my severe anxiety or depressivr episodes and sometimes during an argument or extreme stress. I always put it down to my aspergers. It's like somebody has pulled the plug out of my brain and nothing computes properly. My vision goes, I struggle to speak, my memory switches off and I'm confused, i can't feel anything physically and feel like I'm floating outside of myself. Sometimes I would hallucinate or lose chunks of time. There's full years I don't remember. I always wondered if anyone else got this


You know when you have to give a speech or an interview, maybe you’re at a concert and meeting a celebrity you’ve looked up to all your life. You do it and you see yourself do it, but once it’s over you feel as though you can’t remember what had just happened? You know it happened but it was somewhat fuzzy the whole time because of your nerves and the memory of it seems to far away, so much so you question if it really happened or if it was some sort of strange dream. That is because you dissociated; your brain was too stressed and so it shut down temporarily in order to keep you from panicking or becoming overwhelmed and overstimulated. Well, living with this disorder is that feeling ALL THE TIME.


Hi there like you say that you feel like dreaming all the time, I guess
It's derealization disorder. I have been through this scary mental illness since September 2016. Now I have overcome almost 90% of it but I am curious to get 100% recovery. I believe one must activate willpower to do away with stuff like this..... I request all my loving friends be it boys or girls who are down with this bloody illness that there exists no impossibility provided one doesn't give up and continue struggling untill
Success is achieved.....


I knew I'm the only one dealing with this illiness glad many people are speaking out it's really terrifying condition


Litterally felt like I was going insane and It scaried the living shit out of me


I didn’t know this was a thing and now I know that this is probably what I have. I thought it was just depression and now I know I need to tell my mom about this and I’m incredibly scared.


dodie, thank you. listening to the words roll off your tongue in the very same fashion that i feel so often makes me feel like maybe i’m not completely insane. my only hope is that we spacey dreamers can ground each other some like what you have done for so many by sharing your personal experiences. and maybe, with enough dedication and understanding, we can figure ourselves out together, someday re-enter reality for good together.
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i went to sleep last night thinking of some of my most intense episodes, and i’d like to use this community to share one. if you’re reading this, maybe you can somehow relate, or else find it interesting. anyways, here goes:

it was the start of the summer before last. my family was going to orlando universal studios for the first time, something i had been looking forward to for a good while. note: traveling to anywhere other than what you’re familiar with usually brings out the worse of derealisation, as much as i absolutely adore going to different and new places; if regular routine life feels unreal, imagine how much stranger it is to suddenly wake up in a blank white hotel room. anyways, the first day there, after spending hours of riding rides and wandering through this themed world, around 4 in the evening, while walking through a crowd of colors and sweaty smiles, everything around me suddenly seems to change dimensions. my vision blurs. and it’s as if i’m purely inside of a film, like i can reach out and touch the people moving around me and nothing would effect me at all, like everything was already set and i was just a background actor. my mind spins as the people around me whirl and i turn to my mom with all that’s left that is me and i tell her somethings going on. i could not think clearly. all i could tell her was that something was happening to me and i so desperately wanted it to stop, but in much more fragmented words. she has to guide me to a bench and has me rest, having my dad fetch some icecream. she asked what was going on, and i couldn’t explain it or tell her. i remain this way for 10 minutes or so, and my parents decide to take me back to the hotel room, assuming that i was dehydrated or something. they are both of the medical field and to this day are sure that’s what it was. after hours of laying on the bed, feeling completely drunk (although i’ve never felt that before, i imagine that’s what it’s like), eventually i gain my senses back and if my eyes and mind were a camera, they were focusing back to normal. this happened all 3 days we were there, around 4 in the evening each time. i drank loads of water after the first day, so i’m positive that it was not dehydration. i don’t know what it was, but it grew increasingly terrifying each time, as if maybe this time i wouldn’t come back. the only thing i can trace it back to is all of the simulation rides that i rode (which is the majority of the rides they have there). similar to how dodie talked about having to take a moment to come back to being in the real world after going to the movies, it’s like i was stuck in the simulation mode. maybe it’s because i wanted so badly to remember these memories that i sunk myself into those moments and experiences riding, and after enough of it, switched into it. but to be honest, i really don’t know what happened there, and i just felt so bad for ruining those evenings for my family. i’m not usually someone who likes to draw attention to myself, but it’s hard not to when derealisation demands it.
so, that’s it. someday i plan to do research in psychopathology/social psychology to dig into issues like this that are quite relevant today while such little is known about them.
the other day i tied my usually depressing feelings on reality up in a little bow: I come from a dream of a garden growing, a dream that has yet to end. if you made it to the end of this novel, thank you for reading, i hope you’re well. 💛

i found youuuu and im rlly sorry you have to go thru this. i dont have it so i dont understand but anytime u feel it u can talk to meee


I don't deal with this often, but when I do it usually comes close to triggering a panic attack. Anyone have some tips for helping calm panic attacks? (Besides grounding, cuz I already do that.)


i used to feel this a few years ago but it came and went


I have this sometimes... bright lights trigger me more and specially when I sleep very late.


I feel more depersonalised during the day and more lucid at night, or when I’m drinking.


It's very weird that I happened to just stumble across this video now. I have these kind of feelings a lot, and I notice it especially at my job.

Like my surroundings feel like a dream. And it's odd because I don't experience high stress at my job but it's definitely where I notice it the most.

Maybe because that's when I'm most consumed by my own thoughts? I do a lot of thinking at work whether it's about absolute random-but-connected nonsense or whether I'm doing some critical thinking.. I'm very in my own head at work.. and then I'll kind of take a step out of my thoughts and try to take in my surroundings and everything feels so disengaged.

All the sounds blend together. Almost like if I reached up to my face I would find I was wearing a pair of virtual reality goggles and I could take them off.

Like even though I'm standing and moving around at work, I feel like I'm sitting down and watching myself do it from somewhere else.

This got way too personal but this video definitely hit a personal part of me.

I have only ever experienced this type of thing while having a paranoia-based Panic Attack from being waaaaaay too high. Or just normally high with an over-whelming, stressful thought added. Or maybe it had nothing to do with being high, but since I have never experienced THAT shit Sober, I will gladly just blame it on being too high.

I can't imagine living life like that all the time. Them handful of "life is a dream" moments are way more scary than the scary "real life" shit I know for a fact happened, because yeah, at least there's comfort in not questioning everything that's happening in "that" moment.

The only Advice normal me now would give the me freaking out in that moment is: in the end, you're the only person that could be in control of it, and therefor you're the only person that can put an end to it.

Sometimes I have to look down at my legs and rally concentrate on every footstep whilst I'm walking to try to convince myself that I am actually walking at that present time.

This couldn't be more accurate to how I feel on a regular basis. Especially at work! Feels so good to know that I'm not the only person who gets this, thought I was going crazy at first. This video and the comments have made me feel sooo much better about it!

Duuuddeee, reading this was soo eerie!!! It was like reading a passage from my notebook, this is exactly how I feel, damn. I mean my job is moderately chill too, I just work the longest goddamned hours, sometimes I think that interferes too, that disarraying moment in which all the conversations and silverware movements shift into one clusterfuck of aushaushtinktinkaush and I can't tell any sounds apart from each other anymore. Honestly, all I fucking do is work so sometimes I also think I'm living in my mind due to lack of speaking with people, like I'm dealing with customers all the time but it's very automatic and simulated, very superficial living, I guess I can't even say I'm living in my mind as much as it seems that I'm standing beside myself, like I can't be bothered to occupy my own body lol Anyway, this got waaay too personal too. How do you get yourself to snap out of it?


the example with the cinema is so good. I always have to adapt to reality for like 20 minutes after watching a movie there.


Not knowing how to explain DP is one of the hardest things


I have dealt with this for many years. I just shrug it off because I've dealt with it for so long I thought it was normal for years. Sometimes it makes me act weird and I always wonder if people around me notice. When I mentioned my vision symptoms in conjunction with my mental symptoms,  my therapist didn't seem to understand and told me to get my eyes checked. I have been having it less and less and antidepressants helped a lot. I take Lexapro and it has changed my life for the better which I never ever thought would happen because everyone around me has said antidepressants never worked for them. Life is by no means perfect, but I am grateful for the improvement. There is hope.


I have a weird thing where I catch myself constantly thinking that I'm the only real person in the world. I understand that this is false, but I catch myself subconsciously thinking "she's acting badly" and stuff like that. It's happening a bit less now.


Every once in a while, I only look at what I call the "surface" of life. Everything beyond a few feet in front of me is blurred and distorted. I feel as though I am floating, and I can't move correctly. I get in the way of people and feel stuck there. It's hard to get back to viewing the world like other people. I get all spacey and everything around me is blurred. I have no idea why it happens, but it's been on my mind for a while and I wanted to express myself. Thanks.

I remember having this as a child, like when I was really really young. It stopped after I was like 5

Mike Hunt I always wear my glasses <br>Anyway you don't even know me why are you assuming things about me?

Mike Hunt I always wear my glasses
Anyway you don't even know me why are you assuming things about me?

little human no problem!! let me know if it works!!

little human that's called not weaeing your glasses

Barbara Chlamtacz I've never consciously tried to get out of it before, thanks for giving me an idea <3

its so good to know i'm not alone on this one, i also feel like that a lot but it usually goes away after i clench my fists a little. i've always wondered what it might be and why i might be feeling like that<br>anyways this sucks that its happening to you but at least you know you're not alone!!(sorry for my english:-))

its so good to know i'm not alone on this one, i also feel like that a lot but it usually goes away after i clench my fists a little. i've always wondered what it might be and why i might be feeling like that
anyways this sucks that its happening to you but at least you know you're not alone!!(sorry for my english:-))

Huh that's exactly what I used to feel when I was younger... at least I think. When I look back it just seems like a dream

sharabow it's dissociation not disassociation

I have the same feelings all the time but especially worse during school,I’m pretty sure it’s disassociation

odetojay maybe<br>It really only happens when I'm in public (most often during school)

odetojay maybe
It really only happens when I'm in public (most often during school)


My name is Jodie- hi dodie! I had derealization for almost a whole year back in 2012 , it’s on and off now but how it’s stopped is ... I don’t know how. It just stopped . It only comes on when I’m stressed or in grocery stores


You feel like you're watching a movie, but with one minor detail that can be quite unnerving.

You're the main character.

I've had this for as long as I can remember. As a child - not having the articulation skills - I would describe it by saying things like "there are times when I don't know where I am."  - which wasn't quite right.

After a series of tests including EEGs, xrays and everything else under the sun, there was no diagnosis.

It wasn't until years later that I learned that I was suffering from a disasociative disorder brought on by extreme anxiety.

After all this time; however, I've learned to cope with it.

Thank you for sharing this with us. For those of us that suffer with this, It's nice to know we're not alone.


I have this condition where I keep thinking everything is real. It's terrifying.

@Keira Lane it is. Many well respected philosophers and thinkers have suggested that we are living in a dream or some kind of an illusion. In modern culture, physicists and mathematicians have evolved the idea into what's known as simulation theory and it's often portrayed in media ie The Matrix or Vanilla Sky as an answer to the question of what is reality. There are many people who take the idea quite seriously (myself included). The joke was a reversal of the premise of the video and I was playing with the idea that life actually is a dream. It was a pretty good joke in that context but probably not for everyone.


Wait.. is this whats been happening to me ? Omg i always thought it was just short term memory and that my eyes are going bad...

it maybe just because im a preteen and i need lots of sleep but i get 9 hours of sleep everyday now and this still happens, although yeah it may be my horrible sleep pattern

Same, I thought that is was cause of my irregular sleep...actually its possible that I just need to sleep better

I also agree with Alice Chester, please go get this tested out, as it could be something severe and you will never know till you try find out. Good luck and I hope its not really difficult. Peace and love

yeah same, my mom says its just allergies but idk since ive taken so much medicine and its been months at least (it started feeling like this last year)

Just passing by. I would highly recommend consulting someone, mate. One thing about self-diagnosis is that you might be wrong, which is what all the sceptics might reasonably tell you; another thing is that you might be right and thus you gotta go consult a specialist. I also have derealization and I remember thinking that it was all about my eyes, same as you, or that I just didn't get enough sleep. Now, after more than two years of being stuck here, I finally have a therapist and I'm working on this issue. I did try to cope on my own before, but without any guidance, it didn't work and in fact the disorder got worse over those years. So if you think you might have derealization (or any other kind of bullshit!), please try to find a therapist. Stay strong, man! <3


I’ve had dr for like 8 months now went through every symptom. Caused by weed:(


so i still go to school and two weeks ago just a few days after my best friend had a panic attack at school i started again to feel like i was not real. I had this before, but this time it was different and a lot stronger. I felt that everything i said and heard and felt was just not real, as if someone had programmed it, like i was a figure in a game and i was placed in this human body and had to follow human rules i don't want to follow. And my friends tried to talk to me and i couldn't answer. It was in the middle of class, i started to panic inside and wasn't able to breathe, almost passed out, and i just wanted to disappear and get away from this human body. It just felt completely wrong to me. It took my best friend half an hour to get me to say something after class.

Most of the time that i am alone i feel like this and i know that if i don't try to distract myself i will become crazy. i am afraid this feeling comes back and that i won't be able to breathe again. Every day i am afraid to sleep, because i'm scared, that i might wake up the next day and will have to follow all this human stuff i can't relate to.

what is even worse, is that if i forget this feeling for a moment the next time i realize i forgot it, it doesn't feel good. It feels like i betrayed myself.

my best friend is the only person i told this until now. i often feel like i need to go to a therapist, but i'm scared to ask my mother. I'm afraid, she'll ask why. I don't want her to know what's going on with my mind, because she has enough stress having to deal with everything else.


I make the best out of my derealisation. Having very muted responses to things happening has made me really good at technical analysis of charts and trading in general, you just observe and stay detached to make out the most likely outcomes based on objectivity. I don't think you should cope with these things because it can get you more stressed and anxious (i know it made me have alot of breakdowns). Much rather find something you like and something where you can use your way of life to get an advantage to perform even better. E.g. strategy games, chart analysis, <b>mentally</b> skipping time from boring tasks and a bunch of things i probably can't think of that are better done when detached from the situation

I make the best out of my derealisation. Having very muted responses to things happening has made me really good at technical analysis of charts and trading in general, you just observe and stay detached to make out the most likely outcomes based on objectivity. I don't think you should cope with these things because it can get you more stressed and anxious (i know it made me have alot of breakdowns). Much rather find something you like and something where you can use your way of life to get an advantage to perform even better. E.g. strategy games, chart analysis, *mentally* skipping time from boring tasks and a bunch of things i probably can't think of that are better done when detached from the situation


There's some good shows on netflix that discuss our perception of reality. Abstract The Art of Design is very interesting and i found it extremely reassuring when dealing with feelings of 'what is real / reality'. It's indirectly talking about it and doesnt discuss D/R or D/P but just another perspective on how we percieve the world around us


my best friend didn’t know what was wrong with her because her mum told her that she had something wrong with her but she didn’t know what and now by watching this video with her she now realises that this is her condition. thankyou so much dodie. i love you


I felt this after smoking weed a few times, it got even worst with my anxiety 😖


me : aaah this just my feeling because of anxiety and panic
my brain : "then explain the numbness and less of sensations"
me : QUIET PLS
my brain : "what if it was all dream and you actually asleep in high-school class"
me : SHUT UP I AM 29

Yes, i am also obsessed with being that young again.

me : aaah this just my feeling because of anxiety and panic
my brain : "then explain the numbness and less of sensations"
me : *QUIET PLS*
my brain : "what if it was all dream and you actually asleep in high-school class"
me : *SHUT UP I AM 29*

Yes, i am also obsessed with being that young again.

are you still here??<br>I'd like to talk about it... I am lost

are you still here??
I'd like to talk about it... I am lost


This happens to me when I’m in places that I’m not familiar with


I grew up in the ghetto and since I was a kid in high stress situations I would shut out all emotions and see myself almost in 3rd person to deal with the situations. Never knew there are other's like me. We have some fucked up coping mechanisms.


I also struggle with derealisation and depersonalization. This happened to me after the biggest panic attack i've ever had, about 2-3 months ago (happened after I stopped my birth control pill cold turkey). I've been dealing with it ever since. It isn't 24/7 for me, but I have episodes every day. It is so hard, and so scary, it honestly feels like being high all the time or something. But finding videos like yours really helps me realize that i'm not going crazy, that i'm not alone, and that there is hope to come out of this. Because there is! This WILL go away. It is not permanent at all. You just have to figure out how to rewire your thoughts and etc. It will take time, but this isn't forever.

Wow, this has literally been my situation for the past two months now. I'm relieved to hear your comment! How long did it take you to recover and what did you do? I think mine is getting better slowly but it is still a daily struggle because it's such a confusing disorder.

Hey! It happened to me as soon as I stopped birth control as well, it took a few weeks to start but when it did I had a panic attack and then within 20mins I had become trapped in my own spacey head with no way out - it's been over and year and a half now.<br>Hope you feel better soon💗

Hey! It happened to me as soon as I stopped birth control as well, it took a few weeks to start but when it did I had a panic attack and then within 20mins I had become trapped in my own spacey head with no way out - it's been over and year and a half now.
Hope you feel better soon💗


Over 10 years now sometimes I don't think it'll ever go away :(


makes me feel like my brain is higher up than its supposed to be? like a floaty feeling and light headed. it feels like my body can't contain itself and its trying to float away! also makes me feel so numb. like everything is so far away and I can't put any effort into anything. most of the time when I look in the mirror I like recognize the person, I know that the face is familiar but it doesn't feel like mine yk


I watched video about awakening(enlightenment).that video scared me and after that I feel like I'm in dream a littbe bit.I don't have any other symptoms tho.I am depressed and was suicidal in the past.So I think I have thing she's talking about


This makes me feel so much better, I don’t feel like this constantly but as soon as at get anxious I feel like I’m watching a movie, like I’m sat in my head and I’m watching life through my eyes, I look around and I can touch things but not feel them properly and when people talk I feel like I’m in a tunnel, thanks for talking about it cause I just kinda thought I was going insane

Iz S plus I get the tunnel thing and the weird feeling when I touch stuff too

Iz S same though, I get anxious easily and when I do it feels like I’m in a movie or a daydream, like no matter what, I just can’t connect

This happens to me as well sometimes when I talk to people I don’t know -I just completely disconnect from what’s going on and it all kind of feels fake.


I have had this sinds the beginning of 7th grade, but I recently found out it's an actual thing. A couple of days ago I went to a concert and I pinched my self every 5 seconds cause I really wanted to remember it cause I felt like I was watching a movie or something. I don't have or ever had depression or anything like that. But when things get loud and  hectic I just get in that dream.


Another way i can explain is: when you call an uber when lying in bed for a long time and you get in the uber or a taxi and mid driving you feel like you are not in the car.


I really dont know how she seems so optimistic and happy. Dpdr is hellish


my dissociative episodes make me so uncomfortable, i can’t imagine living like that all the time


Oh my gosh you have answered lots my questions! I feel similar sometimes when I feel like I am watching a video if my life kinda like in vr, kinda. It's hard to describe and I don't know if that is exactly what it is so... Yeah. I am also going through times with high levels of stress at the moment so, thank you Dodie!

Thank you for all the replies and likes, I really wasn't expecting this! I don't know how it is for other people but almost an entire year on from when it started- at times it gets better and I can "see" what is infront if me, other times I feel like I have no emotions. Like I'm just drifting through life

@Arealis sorry it took me so long to reply but it sometimes feels like you are disconnected from the reality your eyes are showing you but it doesn't quite connect properly if you get what I mean.

Is it like you are watching TV or you stand few meters behind a screen when you are actually awake?

Freybomb Irvine that’s why YouTube is so addicting

i have been feeling like this for a while to the point where i dont really feel anything. i dont get sad or anything im just here

Freybomb Irvine  yess! I understand you !!

One of the major symptoms of my mental illness is depersonalization and that’s pretty much how I feel a lot. I feel like I’m in a video and everything I do isn’t real and that I’m not real. It’s very weird. It happens more often than t doesn’t.

Freybomb Irvine you guys have depersonalization

Dude...I was searching these questions!!

I've also described it as feeling like your in a dream or watching a movie that your in.

yea the vr, true true i was just commenting about that. it's like those 360º videos

thegirlwarriør Yeah!!! Sometimes it's like I'm in VR and then I realise I'm not??? It's really confusing. It's like you're in your body but at the same time you're not???

OMG YES it does feel like vr that’s the perfect way to describe it for me. Idk if I actually have it but I’ve felt a lot of thing Dodie was talking about so i think ima look into it

VR is a good way to describe it. I describe it as permanently looking through a glass wall.


I get this sometimes, normally before a panic attack or when I'm out and about but it's with colours and shapes instead. I'll be walking by a row of houses that I've walked past a million times but this time, the garden walls seem to tall or the colours in the garden are oversaturated and I feel like I'm In a video game. Its a really weird and horrible feeling and it will only stop once I get back into my house so idk if this is a similar thing or not but yeah...


I always pinch myself to make sure I'm still there.. and I feel like one day I'll wake up from a coma or something like dat.. I went to a doctor and told them and they thought I was just faking, or it was my glasses?!???? <br>HELP

I always pinch myself to make sure I'm still there.. and I feel like one day I'll wake up from a coma or something like dat.. I went to a doctor and told them and they thought I was just faking, or it was my glasses?!????
HELP


It’s almost like I have no impact on the world around me. When I’m driving, walking, working at my job, at the end of the day it feels like I didn’t do any of it


Haha I always get like this before or<br>during exams, it’s so annoying cause I should study but I don’t I just stare at a page and don’t realize that I did it for 2 hours. I started scratching my skin to ground myself in reality but it can’t be the only solution

Haha I always get like this before or
during exams, it’s so annoying cause I should study but I don’t I just stare at a page and don’t realize that I did it for 2 hours. I started scratching my skin to ground myself in reality but it can’t be the only solution


Jesus, this explains how I feel EXACTLY. The "light" thing, where the shopping centre's lights make you feel derealized and things like that, that's exactly what happens to me. I never hear any other derealized people talking about the light thing and I thought it was just something else. Thank you so much for talking about this.

YES YES YES that bright lighting in the stores or in schools just makes me feel so unreal and unpleasant

I avoid shopping centres and bright, busy places for this reason. I end up with headaches when I’m under bright lights, and it makes everything look even more weird.

No, I wasn't trying to get help in the comments. I'll get actual help. Don't comment on something you aren't sure about.

Abby Marie Let mentally ill people comment on YouTube... are we just supposed to stay silent about how we feel and how this video makes us feel less alone?

Wil Page Simpson better to get help than comment about it it’s a actual mental illness you know?

I have been suffering of it since tree years ago.


i keep telling myself that i’m gonna be ok but i’m not ok it’s getting worse everyday i’m so tired of this i feel exactly how you feel but i haven’t seen a doctor for it. in the past i got diagnosed with anxiety and depression and i thought it was that but maybe i’m wrong


I woke up one morning and I felt off and weird like this. At first it was spinning and nausea and that turned into a weird high feeling or drunk feeling. It making life hard. I’ve had it for a little over a month right now and it’s caused depression and suicidal thoughts. Has anyone else felt this and found a way to get better?


Wow. This explains why my friends called me  "crackhead"  and "dopey"  for 4 months straight ( even though they know i don't do drugs ). I never knew this was a thing - I just thought it was me 😂


wait yo that’s a real thing? when I was in elementary it would feel as if I was like- playing a first person POV game and just watching someone play my life if that makes any sense. Cool to know I wasn’t schizophrenic or something.


I have disassociation due to an abrupt formation of anxiety that, after a short period of time, turned into depression, which created the derealization as a coping mechanism. I’m on antidepressants now, but for some reason those have just made the derealization stronger, even though my depression and anxiety are numbed. The weird part is I actually like being spaced out, and I don’t know if that’s healthy. I actually try to stay spaced out by constantly sleeping, delving into fiction of all kinds, and just staying da fuq away from the real world as much as possible. This has made my memory horrible (I used to have a photographic memory) and sucks out any motivation I could have towards accomplishing stuff for school. Should I let myself stay in this dream state (where I’m happy, but unmotivated and stubborn), or should I try to stay in reality?

I have a feeling it’s a side affect of your meds.  Before I was taking ADD meds, my bipolar medicine (to help stabilize my moods) made me kinda flatline emotionally. It made me not care about life in the sense of friends and socializing. It doesn’t help that I was alone a lot during that time either. I think you should mention it to your doctor next time you see them. Also talk to them if you think somethings up.

I'm no doctor but i think it'd be more beneficial in the long run if you slowly try to ease back into reality. maybe tell your doctor that your struggling with coping with reality and see if there's anybody else you can see. just take baby steps. good luck <3

Syd Sschoen - I am 61 years old and have found that we all are just kind of fumbling around in the dark most of the time. We focus when we have to and juggle when we must and pretty much make it up as we go along even long after we have retired from the working world. This method of coping works for you for now but you also know that it won't support you latter when life requires more effort to stay focused for longer periods of time. But worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes and for now just keep trying to work it out as best as you can. Dreaming is fine and we need to take time out to do so when we can. But when the need comes to sit up and take notice and begin and complete a task then that is what we will do to the best of our ability. Just know that you are not alone in what you are going through.

Syd Sschoen I had a really similar experience to this at the start of the year. Moving home after studying abroad and going back to my old school gave me intense anxiety and I had only started experiencing mild symptoms of anxiety around 6 months before that, so it was a totally new experience for my brain, and it ran me down into my worst depression and had me derealized for about 3 months. Personally I never got on medication, which maybe is a good thing because i was able to come out of the depression and also stop derealizing for the most part when I moved back to England for the summer. I would definitely talk to your doctor about the medication making the derealization worse. It might be good to try different options or different dosages to see if maybe you can stay connected to things while still lessening the depression. If you find you really do feel best with your current medication and the derealization along with it you could switch back then.

As you were saying staying in that spaced out place probably isn’t healthy. I hope you try to find a new way to cope such as art, exercise, music, etc. other than coping by falling into your bad mental health. I know it is hard to try to find a new coping skill when you already have one but I can be very helpful. I hope that helped and know that you are valuable.

Sometimes i feel like i am very intertwined with reality and other times i dont. Sometimes im so in tune with things outside of myself i get afraid that i cant handle it so i really try to revert back to feeling “unreal” so i can deal with the task at hand, and get through.

I wouldn’t say that you should make derealization your only view point of your life. If you deal with the real problems you face, your life will turn out to be much more pleasant for you. The way i look at my derealization now is like a superpower that helps me to be able to get through the things that make my life really hard for me, and i use it as a life-handling tool.

Whether you feel real or not, life is happening to you. Times is passing. Days are going by. There is so much beauty around you. When you notice how beautiful life is, you will want to be integrated with the world again. Until then i wish you well.

I relate to the feeling that your antidepressants are contributing to derealization. I took antidepressants for a while and they numbed my anxiety and lessened my deep depressive moods, but my derealization was so bad I had to stop taking them.

edit: I just realise that you said antidepressants numbs out your depressiobmn and anxiety so... maybe it's fine ¿¿¿¿??? or maybe most definitely you should mention this to your doctor 'just in case'

From experience I'll say that it is dangerous to make derealisation and just NOTLIFE your confort zone  because when their is a important deadline if your anything like me you will either miss it (bc time what's that pff i m just gonna take a nap) or have a rush of anxiety/panic attack.<br> For the rest of the time i find that this unhealthy mecanism works and it sucks bc that is probably why I just wont change since 5years now so... yeah I'm just warning it might become (or not) an issue

From experience I'll say that it is dangerous to make derealisation and just NOTLIFE your confort zone  because when their is a important deadline if your anything like me you will either miss it (bc time what's that pff i m just gonna take a nap) or have a rush of anxiety/panic attack.
 For the rest of the time i find that this unhealthy mecanism works and it sucks bc that is probably why I just wont change since 5years now so... yeah I'm just warning it might become (or not) an issue

Syd Sschoen A little bit of both couldn't suck that bad. Just take baby steps back to reality and when you're in a phase where you're just slightly jutting out of your comfort zone. I feel like that position in life is always the most productive and joyful. Good luck!


This makes me feel slightly better about having depersonalization/derealization disorder because I didn’t think there were other people that had it

Sometimes I really don’t like it because I don’t really get to experience life
It sucks sometimes because I just want to feel but I can’t
Like stuff just,,, doesn’t stick
I read things over and over and it doesn’t stick
I read my medication and it doesn’t click what it is
I really try to bring myself back and experience stuff
But it makes me feel slightly better knowing that I’m not alone


One thing I've realised with my derealisation is that it's probably the cause of my chronic nail biting. I've always bit my nails so I passed it off as just a bad habit.

But I realised that it got worse after my depressive episode 4 ago (which is what triggered my derealisation). So I suppose its probably my brain's way of trying to subconsciously feel grounded.

At least I have an excuse now why I compulsively chomp away at my fingers.


im not gonna self diagnose but;
 i have similar issues like dodie’s. in school, sometimes in the middle of doing an assignment, i look around my classroom and i suddenly feel like im lost. physically. i don’t recognize the people around me and such. this never lasts long but still gets me every time. sorta like “where am i?? oh wait- im in math class.”

 also, the vision! this happens wayy too much. i feel like my eyes are squinted where in reality, they are wide open. or something like, i’d be wearing my glasses and then suddenly my vision gets blurry and i zone out to where i cant move. im usually aware that its going on as well. its sorta like- sleep paralysis but without the demons and replace the bed with a school desk and you want to wake up but you cant? i snapped out of it when someone talks to me.

 i havent told anyone about whats happening when it’s happening. people would ask me “are you okay?” and id just reply with “yeah, i just zoned out.”


Just came back to this video because i just realised i might have some episodes of derealisation when im stressed or something... and im far from not letting it bother me...


I feel for anyone whose dealing with this.


derealisation, I feel like my whole life is a movie .. I make actions and i subconsciously expect from people and from life itself to react to me as in the movies .. In matter of fact .. I subconsciously expect from myself to react to people and to life as in the movies ..<br>It's scary realizing that u cannot count on what u think is a good thing to think of .. U cannot count on what u think is a good thing to say .. U cannot count on what u think is good thing to do .. Just because you can see that you are just imitating some movie scene was programmed in ur subcounscious after re-watching it so many time.

derealisation, I feel like my whole life is a movie .. I make actions and i subconsciously expect from people and from life itself to react to me as in the movies .. In matter of fact .. I subconsciously expect from myself to react to people and to life as in the movies ..
It's scary realizing that u cannot count on what u think is a good thing to think of .. U cannot count on what u think is a good thing to say .. U cannot count on what u think is good thing to do .. Just because you can see that you are just imitating some movie scene was programmed in ur subcounscious after re-watching it so many time.


I had a "friend" that disassociated for a week. She threw a brand new phone away that her parents gave her IN PERSON and said that she thought they were robots and didnt trust them or anyone. We were at work and she sat there for hours changing in and out of her uniform and I asked her if she knows that this is real and she said no I asked her if she thought she was kn a dream and she said yeah as soon as I told her this was real life she gave me a look of disbelief and did trust like I was a talking nonsense. Then a few days later she attacked me and my husband for absolutely no reason. She couldn't even explain it herself. It was insane. She even thought that there were helicopters (at I'm speak ok ng of there were none at all) and that we were going to be raided. Super scary.

RoxxyFly oh ok. Well it probably definitely is something not right chemically in her brain. If she gets help and takes it she will be fine. It’s a lot of mental illness help out here that we all have to take advantage of. It’s much needed. I know we are all so thankful you spoke out.

@Peeress Ma'at shes also living with her parents again so I doubt that shes even smoking anymore let alone doing ANY drugs

@Peeress Ma'at smokes weed. She and I tripped together once or twice but that's all I know of. She was usually always home so I knew what she did if she wasnt she was at work. But we also worked together so that was rare. There was very little time that we were apart so if she did any when we weren't together I'd have no idea what it would be.

@Ashen Rose insaid this if you read the thread. I even mentioned to her parents that she needed help and the shood me off

@Ashen Rose this was almost a year ago. Theres nothing I could do even if i wanted to

thats not dissociation. dissociation doesnt also describe paranpid dellusions. where are you? it may be possible to get her forced into treatment

That is not DP or DR, when you are in those types of states you are actually aware of reality you just have a sensation that you a fake or a robot or feel unfamiliar with your surroundings or yourself but cognitively you know it’s not true and are in touch with reality this is why it’s so scary.

@SheSaidHeroin that's exactly what I said to her parents I said that I didnt call the cops because she was not clearly in her right mind and needs proper help. I felt like me calling the cops would have made things so much worse.

@Acpole_ This is such an overall upsetting situation. I'm sorry you and your husband had to go through that and am glad you are okay. The fact that she didn't remember attacking you only intensifies the possibility of her having a psychotic episode. It obviously isn't your responsibility to take care of her, especially if she is endangering you and it's so awful that her parents didn't  believe you. I hope someone else in her life could get her some help, because from what you said in your original comment, she has completely disconnected from reality and can't be blamed for her actions and most likely needs to be hospitalised and on medication for her to be a functioning human again.

@SheSaidHeroin yeah i thought so. I dont study psychology and have never seen or experienced psychosis but I was pretty sure at the time. We aren't in contact anymore because well.... she attacked me and my husband for no reason at all and completely for got she did it and then the days after that were weird. I told her parents she needed help when they came to move her out, they just dismissed me like I was the one that attacked her.

That is not depersonalisation, but more like a full blown psychosis. Try and get her help before she hurts herself or someone else.

@The Duchess she isn't. She ended up cutting all her hair off and I think that snapped her back to reality because I heard from someone that she regretted it but yeah idk I know she isn't getting help though. Shes too stubborn

This doesnt sound like the same type of disassociation, but more like a breakdown or paranoid delusion :( Is she getting help?


Im absolutely positive I have this in episodes, but my therapist isn’t really listening to me about it and is just saying it’s depression and anxiety :/ what would you say is the best way I can communicate and stress it enough so that they actually help me????

Meet with your doctor and request a meeting with a psychiatrist, they can refer you to one if you have worries about the state of your mental health.   If you can’t meet with your doctor for whatever reason, tell your therapist that you would like to see a psychiatrist. they might not agree with you thinking that you have dpdr, but should allow you to see a psychiatrist for diagnosis if you ask. Also I’d recommend finding a new therapist if at all possible, if the one you’re currently seeing isn’t really listening to your concerns then they probably aren’t helping you very much.


Ok, so i'm not sure if this is a thing, let me know if any of you experience this as well.
I've been researching DDD for a little now, watching videos and reading articles and whatnot, and I highly relate to almost all of the symptoms. I've pretty much felt like this for a very long time, but i've just been sort of smiling and nodding through it for so long i'd almost forgotten that it wasn't normal. Like, I was a little scared when it got worse during some extra spicy times in my life, but even though I felt like I wasn't real, that nothing was real, I made myself a pledge to be as "kind" and "good" as possible, and somehow after that it wasn't as scary? Like, it doesn't matter if I'm real or not, I just don't want to hurt anyone and I want to be kind even if I don't exist. I mean life still sucked but I felt a bit more tethered to the world, just a bit. I still kind of feel like a story that someone else is telling me, but maybe I can help guide my character?

Anyways, this might just be gibberish, but thanks.


I feel like I might have derealisation, but I’m not sure. If it’s too loud, crowded or if there’s a lot of motions like bright flashing lights, I feel like my brain is disconnected from my body and like I’m dreaming. I can hear sounds if someone for example speaks to me, but it feels like my brain/body isn’t taking in the sound. I don’t feel like this all the time, but when it does, I don’t know how long it’ll last. It’s very hard to explain. I’m not very educated on this topic, but maybe someone in the comments is?

Hey I dissociate and this sounds exactly like what it is. It can be a symptom of anxiety and other things as well, but it's definitely dissociation.

imadrinkingicedcoffee - I totally agree, it does feel weird to know that there’s people who understand and may actually be experiencing the same things xx
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imadrinkingicedcoffee - I totally agree, it *does* feel weird to know that there’s people who understand and may actually be experiencing the same things xx
<3

Hermione Granger thank you... to be honest I just though I was being a hypochondriac and I was just tired but it was happening so regularly and the situation was so similar... it feels so weird knowing that other people actually understand and have the same thing as me. Thank you for your lovely message, I hope you recover xx

imadrinkingicedcoffee - Yes, that’s exactly how I feel too. I hope you’ll get better too, but always know that it’s okay to get help if you feel like you need to. Best wishes <3

I’m pretty sure that derealisation is an effect of anxiety. I get exactly the same thing as you, you described it perfectly. I had anxiety/panic disorder when I was 11, about 3 years ago and this problem began then. I most commonly get it in shops or when I’m with a big crowd. I don’t have anxiety anymore but the derealisation that you described hasn’t gone away. I don’t think that I have social anxiety. I have tried to describe this to my family and friends but they just think I’m tired. But how can I be tired every time I go into a shop or stuff like that, for 3 years. This derealisation happens to me every so often but it’s mostly random. When it happens, I feel like I’m in a lucid dream or that I want to go to sleep, I also feel like I can’t be bothered with moving or speaking or anything.... I hope you get better x

i know exactly what you're talking about. it's hard to explain, but it happens to me quite frequently too.

Hanne Thiessen Yeah, I can also get that feeling at the most random of moments. Thank you for the advice, and best wishes to you. You can get the happy life you deserve even if you have any mental health issues :)

Lena Carey Thank you :) You can also live a long, happy life with any mental illness you may have. Best wishes <3

Honestly, this doesn't sound like depersonalization to me. It sounds more like social anxiety or general anxiety. What you describes here seems like a less intense version of the anxiety attacks that I used to get before I got diagnosed with GAD and started medication/seeing a therapist. Disassociation (that movie-like, out of body feeling), disconnect between sound and your brain, and lights getting brighter are all symptoms of an anxiety attack. Then again, this is just based on what I've been through, and you could be totally different! I hope you can find what is wrong and that you can get help and find solace in who you are. You can still live a fulfilling, happy life, and be mentally ill. Best of luck to you <3

That’s actually very interesting.. I’ve been like that my entire life (I always thought I was weird) but I’m also extremely introverted. I have never been able to explain like that and never brought up to any of my specialists that I see but I have been diagnosed with depersonalization/derealization based on other things. I wonder if this makes people more prone to it or if I’m fact it is underpaying symptom of it. If you find it distressing definitely talk to counselor/therapist about it bc I think I’m going to I tried I couple weeks ago but now that I actually have a way of saying it, it might help!


This is what happens sometimes if I were in a place that I've been there I feel like I'm sleeping and all of those things are not real


If this video describes you don’t let it consume you. Instead, find one concrete thing in your life and hold onto it with all your strength. You’ll make it through 🙂


I feel so disconnected and unreal. It seems like I am just floating on surface... I can’t feel the extent of anything, the seriousness of situation, I have no reaction to anything... I can’t form connections because this has resulted in me having a lot of social anxiety. I don’t even feel connected to my boyfriend or family anymore. I don’t know why this is happening to me.


Oh, Dods. Thank you for this wonderful video. I've been trying to explain this to people in my life and now I have a video to send that makes sense and isn't confusing! Love love LOVE you very much xx


idk if anybody out there can relate in my situation but i have this kind of thing. It all started when I take Magic mushrooms and got highdoze of it. its been a month since my last trip but still i got this kind of dreaming feeling


I've had this come and go too. For me shamanistic healing and other types of healing modalities have really helped (but I get that its not for everyone). In a shamanistic perspective, when we go through trauma we can loose parts of the soul making it harder to stay in the body and feel "whole". Also grounding in nature with gardening and stuff without this manmade matrix world around can help.


I felt like this today after napping in my hot room when i was tired of homework


When I first watched this video (a couple years ago) I REALLY didn't get it. But I have had a couple of episodes since then and BOY IS IT HARD TO FUNCTION WHEN YOU'RE SPACED OUT


i've had a similar thing since i had a panic attack 2 years ago. i was diagnosed with depersonalization-derealisation disorder not long ago. i've been struggling with depression & suicidal thoughts because of this. when you find a video with someone with a similar mental condition it's so heartwarming. i subbed.

soph I hope everything gets better for you! I also hate to see all these people in the comments self diagnosing themselves with this because it makes them different when there is people truly struggling.


(hi Im only 3-4 years late)
I used to feel like this all the time a few years ago and was going through a lot of stuff but it's gradually disappeared. It was always the strongest when I was outside or taking a walk and I couldn't comprehend any steps that I took or anything at all and I was always like pinching myself to keep myself in reality. Only times when I feel disconnected now is when I've sat by my computer for a long time and I go on a walk... But now it usually disappears after a while of walking or just distracting myself... :3
I don't have as much anxiety and I don't have this,, a lot anymore so... yey


I feel like this sometimes but not 24/7 <br>It’s usually because of my bad sleeping habits though

I feel like this sometimes but not 24/7
It’s usually because of my bad sleeping habits though


For me, derealization feels like there is a thin film between me and what I see in front of me all the time. I've had it for long enough that I've gotten used to it and it doesn't really freak me out. But sometimes, in stressful or overwhelming or overstimulating situations, the thin film will thicken and it's more like there is a wall between me and reality; I am very aware that what's happening in front of me and all around me is real, but I feel so disconnected from it. It's good when I'm in a negative situation that is too stressful for me to mentally handle bc the derealization just kicks in and I feel less stressed. But when I'm at a party or social gathering or a concert and the derealization comes on,  it kind of sucks. I want to be present in those moments, but I can't control it. But like Dodie said, you just gotta try and enjoy your life, even if it doesn't feel real.

Things that have helped me deal with derealization:
- Don't fight it. Allow it to come when it does and accept that it's happening. Fighting it honestly just makes you feel worse and less in control of your body. When it comes, let it, and work with it rather than trying to shut it off (bc you probably can't).
- Mindful meditation helps me feel very present during and for a little bit afterward. I haven't done it for long enough that I can say it's improved my derealization, but I would definitely try it out for yourself.
- Journaling helps me recall what I did during the day and clarifies my memory a little bit.
- Exercise is GREAT and forces you to be aware of what your body is physically doing and helps ground you (lifting helps me the most).
- This ones a lil weird, but I have bad eyesight. However, when I take my glasses off and everything is blurry, everything looks real. It's like the thin film has disappeared and although I can't see anything at all, everything becomes "clearer."

Please feel free to message me! I love talking about this stuff with other people who experience it often/daily like myself!!

Every time I wake up i expect it to be gone but it's still there and always will be 🙁


Hey you! Yes you, reading this comment. Please eat well, drink something and take your meds because you are beautiful and you need to keep living, even if it feels like the world is against you. ♡

armand tamzarian Not thoese exact words but something very similar. :)

have you ever said that to someone in real life?


I saw the title and I felt that so much. my mom won't let me go to someone about it tho. she says it's "ados" as in "attention deficit- oooh shiny" 😒<br>btw I'm not self diagnosing but I know what I experience is super close to what this is and it's scary. I was just writing my experience here

I saw the title and I felt that so much. my mom won't let me go to someone about it tho. she says it's "ados" as in "attention deficit- oooh shiny" 😒
btw I'm not self diagnosing but I know what I experience is super close to what this is and it's scary. I was just writing my experience here


Hello, i really needed to share this since it deeply hurt me when it happened but i really don't know if it's the appropriate feeling, so im sorry if it's off topic or something. Last week i went to my friend's classroom, i saw the teacher of the class and and wanted to talk to him a little. We talked, then i looked around because it all looked very bright to me. I couldn't see my friend and got confused for a second. I turned to the teacher and said "Sir do you know where she is?" and he answered "She's not here." and at that moment i got a feeling like electricity going down from my body. Terrifyingly similar to the same feeling of waking up from falling down. I looked around, couldn't recognize anything. I knew few people from her classroom and i could see them on their desks but couldn't actually... "recognize" them, i'm not sure how to explain what i experienced at that moment. And i just said "Where am i?", realizing i said it out loud later. The teacher looked at me very concerned, i looked at him but couldnt figure out who he is for a second, i then apologized and left the classroom. Do you think this might anything close to daydreaming or maybe derealization? I don't have such physical symptoms as my sight getting darker so often but other things you said sounded similar. I constantly forget things and do them robotically(?). As if life just goes and my body automatically goes with it but my mind is not there. I rarely have a hard time recognizing myself on the mirror but often can't believe it's me and go "Huh, it's weird i'm actually a body." Im so tired of the experience and nobody seems to get it.


i try looking around to come to reality but everything starts going in slowmo and it freaks me out and now i’m crying my eyes out.


Wait this isn't normal? Time to go to my neurologist again!


I had depersonalization for almost 1 year and still do! It was October 2020 when it started and I was only 10 years old and I feel like I’m dreaming all the time and I just get more and more anxiety thinking that the world isn’t real and I’m not real it’s really getting bad right now and I want to die like WHEN WILL IT END


i think i may have this disorder? for the past couple years i’ve been experiencing these symptoms and i thought it was just anxiety, but when i would search up panic attack symptoms mine weren’t necessarily the  same... sometimes i’ll be in class and feel like everything i see is distorted, too big or too small, blurry outline around people, over saturated colours, feeling like i’m not actually living in the present moment, feeling like everyone around me is speaking in an echo/whisper/muffled voices and feeling as if i’m spectating the world in that moment. sometimes this lasts me minutes, hours or i’ve experienced this before for over 2 weeks once. I’m relieved because i finally found what could possibly be my disorder but worried because idk what to do now. anyways yeah hope u enjoyed my rant


Thought this was only me.. thank you for posting.


I often feel like I'm in autopilot. I don't know if this is something everyone feels as they grow older, or if it's a condition. This causes me to forget about things that people have told me, which affects my relationships, and it causes me to forget to do things, which affects my job. I work in a mine site, and I've forgotten my tag on the board multiple times, which will get me fired (if you have a question about that, I'll answer it in a reply). I set reminders that lose their effectivity over time, so I try to get important things done first, but this isn't always possible.

I never heard of your condition before, but I find this video relatable. Thanks for posting this. I'm on a waiting list for a psychological evaluation, so I should find out if anything's wrong soon, but this made me realize more of what I should talk about when the time comes.


you have changed my life. i honestly cannot thank you enough for how you helped me accept and identify my mental illness and realise that i dont have to feel ashamed...

thank you dodie,
from a girl who is slowly healing <3


How about the feeling when you look at someone you’ve known for literal years and see every day and you think “who the fuck are you?” You recognize them obviously and they haven’t changed and they’re not acting strange or out of the normal, but they seem strange to you, like unreal.


Mostly common for people that smokes weed. I’m constantly dreamy

I used a spinning toy on my Johnson, for the first time.. which I think made new links in my brain, then I got drunk. and I was very stressed cause I just maybe tore something in my leg at work, don't wanna get fired, and the part you won't believe....

life as we know it, is over within a year or so, and the world is ending.
(I know this because I've studied philosophy Science History theology... I know God is real and the truth about real life and who is controlling the show and the secret evil going on)

so I guess I finally snapped under the stress of it all, plus mind altering stuff like seckstoy experience, cumming chemicals in the brain, plus alcohol, and stress.

or anyone who has depression, anxiety, a personality disorder, ptsd, or a lot of stress

Thanks for the video. I smoked up yesterday and I went through some crazy shit. I thought I was going mentally crazy. I smoked and 30seconds later I closed my eyes and opened them back and my brain thought I was asleep however I was awake the whole time and I thought i was dreaming and thought everything was fake/unreal. I never felt like that till the first high I got which was yesterday. I'm okay now however I'm still thinking, what if I'm still asleep now? and all this is just a dream. I'm trying to persuade my self its real lol


I have this feeling- except the vision thing- for like 2 weeks and i felt it before, but like not all the time. I don't know wether it's that, but i really dont like it. Maybe it's caused by stress or something like that.


for me, my vision just gets really blurry. the lights don't change, but it feels like when you're so relaxed that your vision defocuses and you have to concentrate to make everything sharp again, except that it takes way more effort (if i can get it at all). i will say that cold is a grounding tool that works really well for me. when i'm feeling extra foggy or i especially need to be present, i sit somewhere cold/against a cold surface or eat/drink something cold. that really helps me.


It's so relieving and it makes me cry knowing that you're going through the same things that I am

This is the first video I've seen on someone explaining it really well! I also have derealization disorder an it's been a long road of thinking that I'm alone!


I feel like this all the time, but I've never noticed.


Poor me i first got it when i was 9 we were hiking in the mountains and I thought it was just blood pressure but i’m 17 now and it still here with panic attacks disorder too i hope one day i’ll get better and live my life just like everyone else sometime I would cry myself to sleep praying to god only for one day i would feel normal for just one day