I think I might have this too! I had problems in 2012-13 and I was diagnosed with depression anxiety. As mental health progresses overtime,I started spacing out, felt confused, my concentration was really bad like I cant remember what I said 10 seconds ago, felt detached with my surroundings and had a feeling that reality was not reality. Hence I failed my study due lack of concentration/focus. At the moment I try to do some mindfulness meditation as it helps me focus a bit and be more calm. CBT was fairly helpful for me but you have to realise that you need to put effort and create better habits which was so hard for me especially when ur in rock bottom. <br>But thanks for sharing these type of videos as it gave me perspectives , I'm glad I'm not alone either :) xx

I think I might have this too! I had problems in 2012-13 and I was diagnosed with depression anxiety. As mental health progresses overtime,I started spacing out, felt confused, my concentration was really bad like I cant remember what I said 10 seconds ago, felt detached with my surroundings and had a feeling that reality was not reality. Hence I failed my study due lack of concentration/focus. At the moment I try to do some mindfulness meditation as it helps me focus a bit and be more calm. CBT was fairly helpful for me but you have to realise that you need to put effort and create better habits which was so hard for me especially when ur in rock bottom.
But thanks for sharing these type of videos as it gave me perspectives , I'm glad I'm not alone either :) xx


not sure if i have this but yeah, i really hate going to places with bright ass lights, especially shopping centers, everything feels all weird around me and i jus feel like everything’s all blurry n im in a dream or something


I wake up every single day so anxious and I can’t even tell if I’m awake or still dreaming. I feel so lost and confused and disoriented with this. It makes my own home feel so unreal and foreign and my head is severely clouded where I just feel like I’m sleep walking. It’s ruined my life so bad. It’s taken every precious moment from me. I can’t relax in my own home cause it doesn’t feel real and feels so off all the time. Going outside is scary cause I can’t tell if I’m actually walking or just dreaming it all. I feel so cut off from reality and don’t even feel apart of it anymore. I’m like on auto pilot all the time. My body moves and I walk etc but I never feel present anymore and it really makes me so depressed and anxious cause I miss being apart of life and life feeling real. I miss my family feeling real. I cry almost everyday cause it’s the scariest most isolating experience of my life. I honestly don’t know how long I can live like this.

You aren’t alone mine started two months ago it sucks I know I’ve been learning to deal with it I’m getting into some counseling and getting medicine sometime this week just to try it because why not. A lot of people recover from this within 1-3 years as I’ve seen that sounds like a long time I know but you have to try and beat the inner demons life faces you with. I’ve wanted to give up a lot but nope I’m still here until it’s my time. I hope you’re feeling a bit better mine is 24/7 though which sucks but we’ll get over it I know we will nothings forever remember that!


Very fucking real and so necessary in quarantine.


Too give in some context, I used to have severe anxiety the past 2-3 years (all through high school basically) the anxiety got so bad that I had to take self teaching courses in order to complete all my high school credits. But this last year (I’m 18 btw) I’ve smoked quite a bit in the summer and I’m time I accidentally mixed weed and a drug call acutane (a drug used for curing acne) together and I didn’t know that if you mixed the two together it would cause depersonalization. Anyways I took it at my friends party and I I experienced the first time ever and I always going literally crazy. I was freaking out go back and forth, screaming, n over all in shock. My friends tried calming me down but how’d no idea what was going on so they just made it worse. Even now I can only get very small intervals of the feeling. It’s very difficult to describe but I’ll try. Basically it feels like the whole universe is playing a joke on you where everyone that you ever knew (including yourself) isn’t real just fragments of your imagination. I’m pretty sure that’s one of the stages of ego death. I currently experience light depersonalization but it used to be very severe to the point where I’d have these   Intense  melt downs because it was so surreal. I came to the conclusion that the only way to get rid of depersonalization is to embrace it. It can be considered as a cruel curse but in my opinion it can also be a positive. For example I no long have anxiety I can do literally anything I want. I have no fear of being judged of what I say or do. It taught me that I can’t control people’s thoughts and criticisms because of the ego. So please just and embrace and accept it. The harsh reality is that it my never go away and regardless what your opinion is on of depersonalization it most likely will always be there. Also come check out my YouTube I post great content✌😛


THE LIGHT THING I LIKE BRIGHT WHITE LIGHTS NOT YELLOW OMG THIS IS CRAZY


I have it as well its like that for me and all i do know is watch doomer videos on youtube


Ngl Dodie you need to write a fictional book for something


Wait wait wait. Do other people not feel like they’re just in a game or show??


Why am I crying seen this? So well explained :) we can do this.


Is this because you’re the girl of my dreams?

crickets

Is this because you’re the girl of my dreams?

*crickets*


Try this - try whistling  - if you're dreaming you won't have air in your lungs to blow with (or lungs technically )


what does it feel like?

I have no idea if i have it or not but i am very suspicious that i might.

When it hits, its very sudden like a brick wall. One moment you're fine, the next, boom* blown out of reality. Then you suddenly feel like you are just a machine, one which can comprehend factual information. It can see and hear and feel. But it does not feel like you are seeing and hearing and feeling. Ig the closest i can get is like in that movie Avatar where all the humans take on the sensory information of aliens but they know it is not actually them. Idk. Is this dp/dr?

I keep asking myself "where am i where am i what is this place who are these people who am i" even though factually, I know exactly where I am and who is around me


Dissociation with driving...I have no control...feel like I left my body...not like her problem...mine is panic. I love 5htp for depression...but it did not help my panic


hey, does anyone have physical triggers rather than psychological ones? i often get derealisation from strobe lights or when i change the location rapidly and can’t adapt to new lighting etc. it usually makes me feel extremely derealised and it’s a living hell

yup i do usually when i go from a dark place to out on the sun my brain gets comfused


I experience this a lot--not frequently enough to be a disorder, but it sucks. I'm sorry for everyone who feels like this all the time.


You are lucky x I’m really glad you feel this way


Smoke a bowl and see if that alters you back the other way?..


I have had that and depersonalizations since 13 years old and I am now 24. I used to find it very very scary to the point of suicide but just within the last couple months it’s gotten better or I’m just coping with it better. I can’t tell honestly. things have never looked the same or felt the same since I was a pre teen. Good luck girl! there’s no cure that I know of but it does get easier ❤


Some things helping helping me right now with dissociating:

A polaroid camera given to me as a gift to take PHYSICAL pictures of me and my friends and stuff to keep for me to have and look back on. Pictures of my past bring me out of that nebulous dissociative feeling. Especially when I don’t want to look at my phone or social media. Listening to music on vinyl or cassette tapes I can see and touch, look at read rather than just listening to Spotify. These are sorta expensive hobbies but you can buy albums at the thrift store for .50-$1. It seems to a little something to make me feel more grounded and it is also a lot of fun to bring an album over a friends house and spend time just listening and talking about the album playing while looking at the artwork. Its a tangible experience you can share.


I dont know if it was derealization but I went thru depression for years and I dont remember anything that happened during those years except a couple of my therapy sessions. Those years feel like a black hole in my brain, like I lost 3 years of my life by not being present mentally. Im good now but often im scared i might fall back in that pit.. i never wanna be not-present ever again


I always feel like I’m dreaming too! I can’t believe this was recommended to me. Whenever I tell people they tell me it’s not normal


Thank you so much for posting this video. I'm so happy to know I'm not crazy or alone. You made my walls feel a little bit thinner. Thank you.


Omg this is me to a T!! Fee drunk all the time and like my body is not connected to me and sends me into panic attacks! It hits me hard while I’m driving and feel like my legs aren’t attached and I constantly remind myself what to do and my vision is always wonky! Please update us if anything works


This happened to me when I was younger and never knew what had happened. This is the first I've heard anyone mention it. It's such a weird sensation and although it's not as intense now it was a very scary thing. It took some years but eventually I do think it went but I have had moments of it since but just put it down to exhaustion. Did not know it was this x


I used to suffer from really bad depersonalization, the past few months it has faded away.


I never ever thought I would find a way to describe this. Showing this video to my therapist, thank you so much


I feel like this a lot when I struggle with anxiety episodes! Thank you for sharing this. I know grounding techniques help a lot when I feel like this but it’s such a scary and odd feeling when it does happen, I can’t imagine what it’s like to experience it constantly. It must be so exhausting. X


I'd be curious to know if most people experience this at some point in their life. It happens to me maybe once a week but only for a couple of minutes at most, and I usually enjoy it, probably because it is so infrequent and I snap out of it so quickly. Thank you for sharing your experience and spreading awareness <3


I get derealization every now and then when I'm stressed out.  The best way to treat it in my experience is to practice grounding yourself. And too not think or focus on it.  The more you focus in it and pay attention to it,  the longer it lasts (because it is caused from anxiety). <br>The longest episode of this I had was about a month.

I get derealization every now and then when I'm stressed out.  The best way to treat it in my experience is to practice grounding yourself. And too not think or focus on it.  The more you focus in it and pay attention to it,  the longer it lasts (because it is caused from anxiety).
The longest episode of this I had was about a month.


Omg I have been feeling like this for the longest time and I’m really gratefully that u have made a video about it


I remember being dissociated many times, but I couldnt imagine being that way all of the time. I applaud you for dealing with it so well! That's truly amazing


I’m 13 and i have felt like that for 1 year now. This litterly kinda saved my life from being ruined. Thank You!!!!


IVE NEVER SEEN SOMEONE MAKE A VIDEO ON THIS DISORDER, I HAVE IT AS WELL!


I swear this is the first time I’ve seen someone feel the same thing as me


I think its cool how so many people can relate to this. Lets come all together and disassociate 😎


I developed this condition in March of this year and I'm still dealing with it now. Thankfully it's about 75% better now than it was at its worst, but my god was it tough early on. Unfortunately for me seeing my GP was not helpful as they didn't really know what I was talking about. I would very strongly recommend the Depersonalisation Manual by Shaun O'Connor, I would not be doing anywhere as near as well as I am right now if not for it. The good thing is that once you know what DP/DR is you know how to fight it and you stop constantly worrying about it. Anybody can recover from it, just keep on going!


Thank you for sharing this ❤ Last year I was out of school for a little more than a week when it first started and it was so bad. I got tests done, and went to therapy for a while for this same issue. It took me so long to get to where I feel like I'm okay with having it, and how I can tell myself that it's not gonna hurt me and that it's all good. I've learned to find the things that make me feel safe and comfortable. You sharing this has made me feel so much less alone, as well as seeing all the people commenting. Thank you ❤


I get this briefly sometimes, often connected to my anxiety attacks and I can’t even begin to imagine what it must be like for you!! I find it quite scary.


You’re super duper comforting and reassuring :,~)


This sounds like something I have been dealing with lately, particularly since having my recent baby! I am seeking medical help have a ct scan booked because I've been thinking theres something wrong with my brain! I wonder if this is what I am actually dealing with?!


When I used to have intense anxiety I would have very light symptoms of this. Especially if I would wake up in the middle of the night. I also experience it in crowds but it’s different, I’m not necessarily anxious I just kind of in tune with the thousands of people around me and like my self is a cloud around everyone...it’s kind of blissful actually, makes feel living and attentive toward others.

Pro-tip: It is easier said than done but setting aside a time of day to just STOP THINKING or thinking only beautiful or positive thoughts while also repeating affirmations throughout the day really helped me. It took a year to move from a state that felt like a living hell to feeling pretty chill about almost anything. The key is TIME, and your will thoughts will ROAR at you saying it’s not working or that you are crazy, but you’re not, just keep to it and you’ll see the results. I did and I still use these techniques whenever I feel out of wack.


I have this because of PTSD and it drives my anxiety and depression crazy.


I had this just before having a panic attack, or during my depression period (with panic attacks). But fortunately it has came back with a treatment of benzoziadepines.


I have had this in episodes since I was in the third grade and a really big emotionally distressing thing happened in my life, it always comes back when I’m ignoring my own needs and am really stressed. Glad to know I’m not alone.


i have dpdr too and i relate a lot. sending love


Wow. I did not know that this was a thing other people experienced. I’ve often told my friends during times of stress that I feel “floaty” because I couldn’t find a way to describe it. It doesn’t help that I regularly lucid dream and have out of body experiences as well. Thank you for sharing, and best of luck finding treatment that works!!


I used to have derealization so bad but to be honest the thing that helped me the most was not focusing on it. Whenever I would notice that I'm thinking about it, I would put my attention on something else, something that requires engagement. Exercise like running and socializing helped me out so much. It definitely takes time and effort but I once felt so helpless about this, like no one could understand. But just believe that everything will be okay and don't panic, that will only add onto the problem.


Love your life! The drugs will only be temporary. Soon you’ll see. I thought I was going crazy too. We are more sane than most.

Flightrisk yeaaa but this condition makes me unable to enjoy my life. ty for strenght tho. ;) :)


Whoa..I've dissociated in stressful situations too and it's confusing, hard to concentrate, numbing and unsettling. I honestly can't imagine feeling that way all the time. Btw I love your music and now I have yet another reason to admire you. Thank you for sharing 💕


dude wtf this is exactly how i feel i’ve been feeling like there was something wrong with me. i can’t go into a store or outside even without feeling like this. i feel no time at all and am constantly confused


Weed triggered an intense DP/DR for a whole week for me, then it eventually faded away when I stopped smoking, also I felt alcohol helped making me feel grounded and human.

It felt like other people mentioned, that you’re whole life was on a screen, you’re life was a movie, and that I was outside of the movie, inside my head looking out.

Cool for a while but scary asf in the long run glad I’m not alone


I feel like I experience this when I’m talking to someone for awhile and I zone out while staring at them, almost like the sunken place in get out. Is that the same??


i love how people say that dodie romanticizes mental illness when in reality she’s only drawing attention to the fact that these conditions exist. i love her for this reason, i feel very similar and it’s quite comforting to hear an in-depth explanation of someone else’s experience with the same disorder:)


My depersonalization/derealization started when I had a really bad trip on acid I’ve been dealing with it now for 2 months I’ll slowly getting better at controlling it

Manuel Olivas but are you recovered or its still part of your life ?

Kim Dimitri did Dimitri play a part as well???


I remember having serious depersonlisation for months during my worst period of anxiety it was just constant and became the norm to me.
It still happens every few weeks, and just like you ive learnt to live with it and its apart of who i am.
Thank you for the video! When i tried to describe it to my friends none of them believed me. Good to not feel alone!


Amazing, thank you for that video and for sharing.  I swear I thought I was the only one who felt that way.


I thought I was crazy so thank you for sharing!! 🙏


Waw. I didn't know this was a thing. It kind of sounds like how I feel during my existential crisis moments but to be like that all the time must be bizarre.


I think I have it too, everything you're saying is basically my life.<br>I use to think that was my dyslexia

I think I have it too, everything you're saying is basically my life.
I use to think that was my dyslexia


I realized I may have this a few months back & i legit cried because I knew something hasn't been right for years

I've experienced a lot of trauma & am diagnosed with depression, anxiety, fibromyalgia & ptsd - I'm going to see if I can get investigated for derealization because it's getting to much & maybe getting a professional opinion would help

This video was super interesting


I feel like this when I’m in a panicked state. Sometimes that state last for minutes sometimes it lasts for weeks. It kind of feels like I’m an astronaut in space bouncing(and floating) around. I’ve also had lots of trauma but the first time I felt this state was after I had an edible(I never had one before) then I got it for a year after. It would usually be accompanied by panic attacks though. It came back after trauma but comes and goes. Keeping my anxiety down helps, but it’s hard because I can’t avoid half of my triggers.


I get this alot, I've found mood stabilizers rather than SSRIs to be more helpful for treatment.

It still happens sometimes but that's probably never going to change, at least now it's less intense and less frequent.


I get that all the time, I just feel drunk when it happens. I thought this was normal and because I’m always tired. Had no idea it was an actual condition. The first time it happened, I was scared that I was gonna do something embarrassing because I kept talking nonsense but I can kinda control myself now.


Damn my eyesight lowkey just came back just hearing this I just thought I was going blind from past blacklight exposure where I put a blacklight to my eye but then this made me realize I went through a lot in 2017 and that’s really when it started


Sometimes it gets so strong I have cold sweats and have to bring my hand to my face to cover vision. While this is happening I also repeat to myself over and over "I'm not being sucked out of this reality", "just keep walking don't stop it'll pass". Locking myself in the toilet doing some mindfulness works sometimes. It's a very scary condition to have and it does feel like your losing your shit. I hope they find some way of making less intense.


I often experience depersonalisation due to my high levels of anxiety because of my panic disorder from times it will be stronger than others the thing I can't get over yet is when you realize you been gone for a whole day,week ._.


I just came across this video. I always wonder why I can't remember high stressful or depressing moments of my life. I only remember bits of pieces like it happened to someone else. I struggle to follow through with goals cause large amount of stress will put me back in auto-pilot. I call it "zombie mode"


I've had that when I had panic episodes. Everytime I would have a crises, I would feel like I was dreaming for a while. Medication cut that off though.


This happened to me a few times as a child I remember one time I was walking with my cousin and her friend to the milk bar and then all of a sudden I blacked out for a few seconds while walking and I had no idea where I was or what was happening I didn't fall to the ground or anything it happened while I was walking.. I  asked my cousin what just happened where were we what was going on and she looked at me as if I was insane I think she thought I was making it up. And then I had this floating sensation in my head I felt detached from my body and just felt like I was in a dream I didn't feel real I remember I kept pinching myself to see if I could feel pain or whether I was really existing I was so scared and thought maybe I was dead. This sensation came over me so many times when I was young. I would constantly tell my sister, " I feel like I'm in a dream" and crying my heart out I couldn't rationalize what was going on. Sometimes it would take me days to feel like I was back in reality again. I then got the same sensation as an adult a few times but I haven't had it in a while


Suffering DPD since 2013  after my first panic attack resulted into panic disorder and hypochondria. It can be very hard and exhausting, especially when trying to explain to other what you are feeling (or what you are NOT feeling..).


Oh shit this has been me since middle school. I really thought I was the only one with issue. I had no idea it was a disorder


Emotional trauma & their manifestations are extremely difficult to work thru. Persistence, patience & having faith in your ability to heal are vital. Personally,  it has been a dream journal (of my "real' dreams whilst sleeping) that provided me with the guidance & a focal point in waking life. The dreaming you knows more than awake you does... what you think you have forgotten it remembers & any falsities u may be living under will be given clarity..acting on what u learn sometimes means difficult choice but ignoring the message of ur d<br>reams will only further deteriorate you.

Emotional trauma & their manifestations are extremely difficult to work thru. Persistence, patience & having faith in your ability to heal are vital. Personally,  it has been a dream journal (of my "real' dreams whilst sleeping) that provided me with the guidance & a focal point in waking life. The dreaming you knows more than awake you does... what you think you have forgotten it remembers & any falsities u may be living under will be given clarity..acting on what u learn sometimes means difficult choice but ignoring the message of ur d
reams will only further deteriorate you.


I just randomly stumbled onto this video and I somewhat feel like I’m in a dream. All I know is I’m so upset with it, I keep getting told that I will feel better, and nothing is. I’ve been feeling this way for about 3-4 years now and my doctor can’t tell me what’s wrong.


I only feel this way during a panic attack and (rarely) after I suddenly wake up from a nap... It's the worst and I can't imagine dealing with it 24/7.


I have depersonalization, everything you said is how I feel. I did an EMDR treatment back (something really small) in 2017 and that’s when I got diagnosed. During the session I couldn’t find myself in order to ground myself again. I felt lost & couldnt pull back into reality. I consistently feel like I’m not here. I notice the world around me but my body feels lost. I always have to have something in my hands that’s textured. If I have a cut or a scrape, I tend to pick at it because pain is one of the only ways that reminds me that I’m still here.


I’ve noticed this. Sometimes I can get myself to snap out of it but it only lasts for a couple seconds. Or some days I’ll have rested super well. I won’t have a problem at all, my whole day and all my tasks are clear. Those days are so rare but they’re so crystal clear and eye opening.


When I had my first panic attack probably 4 months ago I had no idea what it was. I struggled with some anxiety for about 2 years leading up to it. I was serving in a restaurant and suddenly became very foggy and couldn’t focus, couldn’t read what was on my notepad or take orders normally. I felt like I could pass out and thought I had low blood sugar and needed to eat so I had some bread and a couple glasses of chocolate milk and it subsided after a while. The second time was BAD. It started in the same setting and lasted hours. I had to stop serving my tables and try to calm down, eventually had my bf drive us home and left my car there. A coworker told me about 10 minutes in that she thought I was having a panic attack. This was after I told her I thought there was physically something wrong, that I thought I was dying. She talked me through it and I realized a panic attack must be what it was which was comforting to know but didn’t help much in the moment. Since then I’ve gone back to the restaurant to eat a few times and had an attack every time, and also started getting them at home and my other job. Now I get what seems to be more mild panic attacks throughout the day that last 1-2 hours typically. I can function but it’s like I’m in fight or flight mode. I describe it as feeling high but not in a good way, disconnected from real life. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one who feels like sometimes I’m living in a movie or nothing around me is real. It’s scary but I push through it. Thank you for the video


This is exactly how I experience jet lag, I was in a dream like state unable to really process anything for 4 days after a 24hr flight years ago. I get it milder on shorter flights. Luckily it doesn't last though. Does everyone experience this with jet lag?


I feel this way a LOT and it can be so overwhelming.. especially in new situations where you have to remained focused and suddenly feel like you're floating above yourself and have to pretend you didn't just do what you did... I feel better with more rest and less stress, but it happens at random. I'm so sorry that this has been such a difficult journey for you. Best of luck. Also, beautiful writing. <3


You should try EMDR therapy! It helps the brain process memories especially for traumatic experiences that can give you derealization


I literally have to write notes on my phone screen to remember the things I need to do. Otherwise I'd space out and forget.Sometimes when people talk to me all I hear is murmur. I thought I had shearing problem but the fuzzy head and things happening around me and the next I don't feel like I even did them


This makes sense... I didn't know this was a thing. I have PTSD and anxiety. And I guess my mind didn't want to deal with the flashbacks and memories so it just  disconnected.. I remember the exact day it became a thing for me.  That was like 5 months ago...


When I'm at work I literally get this do bad, I'm in a corner hanging clothes all day. Sometimes people will walk behind me and I feel like I'm somewhere else and it freaks me out, bright lights and loud noises really get to me also


This video literally made me cry... because it's been 8 months now that I've been dealing with this and I've gone to the dr oover and over, I've gone to a head and neck specialist, and I've gone to my optometrist multiple times because I've been dealing with this thing that I just haven't been able to describe...and I've described it just like that many times "it's like being drunk without actually being drunk" and I've even been told I have vertigo because of that. But watching this video and hearing you describe exactly what I've been going through just blew my mind.... thank you.


I dealt with it for a few years when I was younger, it's disassociation yea, often caused by trauma


I understand you, the sensation it's like being separate of the body but in the body at the same time. Feeling the things but no emotionally. Well I have OSDD and feel like that but adding the feeling of the posesion of the others alters.


I completely understand, it happens often and almost every one of my friends and my parents have heard me say at least once that I feel like I’m looking at things but not actually seeing anything, or that my vision is blurred and when i look in other directions it’s like my brain lags and it takes longer for my brain to see what my eyes have turned onto. I often feel like I’m not real and one thing my mum notices I do is I always look down at my hands and use them as a checkpoint to see if I’m real or that I’m really alive. It’s terrifying honestly and sends me into anxiety attacks that have me almost passing out. I don’t really know what to do at this point. I’m scared I’m not going to get better. I know mine comes from drug related anxiety or dare I say ptsd. I’m coming up to being a year clean and I thought I would be better by now but I’m not. The more anxious I am the more it happens and I’m starting to develop the feeling that the end of the world is about to happen. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.


I experienced it once, my first time ever because I had an intense anxiety last week. It felt like I was floating and it seems I am disconnected to my body. I am so scared and It keeps me thinking that it might happen again but I don't want to. And lastly am I having a DP/DR disorder now or it will be a disorder if this thing might happen frequently or chronically?


Have you checked if you have a vitamin D deficiency? It causes symptoms of depression, anxiety, brain fog, and derealization! It seems very minimal but a such deficiency can cause so many cognitive issues because it’s also a hormone! Hope you feel better soon my love <3


I got diagnosed with depersonalization/derealization disorder about a year ago. It's so important that people like you talk openly about this struggle. I usually don't tell people about my diagnosis because it is so obscure and difficult to comprehend. Even though many people may not understand the true feeling of disassossiating it is very validating to hear an influencer talk so openly about it.


I had something similar 4 years ago, I am fucking grateful that I'm normal now.


Wow, this is great, have you ever thought of teaching yourself wakeful dreaming and developing the eye of awareness. I would look into sunyata, and studies of the 9 yanas. It sounds like your just fighting your next step into evolution


My best friend had depersonalization. She passed away when 4 years ago on a tragic accident.. and i miss her very very much. She was my best friend through the first two years of highschool and we had crushes on each other which was very bitter sweet as well. We hung out every chance we could get and our imaginations and personalities connected perfectly. I experienced her having a very terrible episode one day after school and she didn’t know where she was or who anyone was, we walked her home and she was at home but it wasn’t familiar enough to her. I also recall a sleepover i had with her well before that, where we were both very silent and depresive and didn’t speak to eachother much. It was a bit scary but looking back, i think she was having a small episode and i was just in it there with her. -much love <3


OMG SO WE BOTH BE BI AND HAVE DPDR?! <br>damn! So relatable!

OMG SO WE BOTH BE BI AND HAVE DPDR?!
damn! So relatable!


I've never experienced it but when I had a car accident I felt like that

escape hell you did experience it somewhat still. it was causes by your trauma. its common after traumatic event. im sorry btw, hope you heal. :)


I feel the same but I never told this to anyone...it feels so weird


I never knew I would relate to this so much...


i have never been able to figure this out till i went to doctors and stared researching


This may be more common apparently. I'm  almost crying, because I feel everyday is a struggle to really be in the moment. I have to really try when I speak, and sometimes I get caught up mid-sentence. I know I went to college, but it's like a dream I dont remember much of it and I only graduated 2 yrs ago. I can't really differentiate between the things that have really happened and the things that I've dreamed or thought and I have no real grasp of time. It's hard to tell the difference between 5 minutes and 30 minutes or even an hour. I dissociate when I socialize or when I'm having fun. I went to a water park and got on rides but as soon as they were over it felt like I had been on them yesterday. When i was in college I smoked weed a handful of times and that was about the only times I felt relief and vivid reality even if it was distorted I felt focused in the moment. I've stopped since then, and thought it was just stress or some form of depression but I had never heard of this. Thank you.


i’m a cheerleader. going to basketball games with loud and bright gymnasiums is nothing different than a regular monday for me. last year, one of the last games of the season, we were going over the routine. i started to forget things that we had been working on for months. i was freaking out. it felt like i wasn’t... there? like a dream. i felt like everyone was looking at me. it was like a panic attack, but different than usual. since then i get it all the time. everyone tells me it’s normal. but i know it’s not. it’s good to know that there’s a name for it. thank you.


I just feel weird ever since 1 week ago and I just feel like life isn’t real and it’s a dream, I don’t wanna feel like this anymore. I’m hurting but watching this video gave me a little pick me up to know that life is real and that everything is ok


Hi,  thank you for your video.  My 21 yr old daughter suffers from depersonaliztion and derealization and was diagnosed her 2nd time in a mental health facility for suicidal ideation. So far she's been in a mental health facility 5 times with the last time being just a month ago.  On top.of that she suffers with ocd fears and behaviors and is seeking therapy for all above.  What would you say to someone who has an extreme fear of living in a computer simulation. So far we've tried many different ways to help her and they are all just bandaids. Everything from this is God's creation to its a silly fear.. Obviously the latter was very bad.. Haha.  Thanks in advance! 😍

Oh,  and she has a very high IQ and a lot of life experience so just brushing it off doesn't work.  My brother suffered from the exact same thing and back in 1996 they treated this illness with shock therapy and lithium. He ended up having daily seizures and died.


You are dreaming all the time, this feeling is happening within a dream


I had this during my PTSD times and trust me it sucks


It's just anxiety and OCD making you feel this way

I felt this way for about 8 months a few years ago but then made myself get overwhelmingly busy because it was either that or spiral deeper into depression. After a while I realized that I felt like things were "off" less and less until I finally came to the realization that anything feels strange, even reality, if you constantly keep asking yourself if anything about the subject seems different, or bizarre, or unreal.

I would seriously bet you that you have 4 out of 5 OCD symptoms. You may perhaps have what they call "pure o" OCD which means you only have the obsessive aspect of OCD, i.e. the anxious rumination that you probably experience on a daily basis where you're constantly "checking in" with your thoughts to ask yourself if everything feels normal.


I have this too. How do you deal with it?


I have this but only on occasion, I can't imagine, it feels so freakin weird


I feel like I'm in a dream everyday and its makes me scared cause it makes me bite myself to see if I'm In a dream but yes there is pain I'm used to pain but sometimes I feel like I'll never wake up LIKE NEVER EVER


i have (i guess had now) derealization so bad to the point where i didn’t even want to leave my house because i was scared of leaving my house = more stimulation which = more of a dreaming feeling  and i can confirm that it is the worst and scariest feeling i’ve ever felt in my life. but i actually don’t have it anymore!! i’m not sure what happened or why it stopped happening but i just wanted to comment this to giveother people struggling with it hope. i never thought mine would leave but somehow it did. just stay positive and when you get the feeling try to not panic i know it’s hard but you can just try your best and hope for it to go away.


Welp time to go see a shrink.
And here was me thinking I was possibly mildly on the autism spectrum. A lot of the general symptoms are quite similar.
Who knows. Could be one or the other, maybe both? Maybe none? 🤷🏼♀


I need... To go to the doctor. I keep telling my mom (im 18 and live at home)that I feel like I'm dreaming and it is getting harder and harder to remember and I can't really remember specific points of my life. I have depression and my eyes are bad so I just thought it was getting worse. I keep having really realistic dreams that seem as vivid as my life and maybe that could be because my life is feeling more like a dream. Im so scared that this is what it is... How do I go about getting a diagnosis or something? Is there a way to test for it??

If you're 18 and maybe going to college soon? They should have psychiatrists there... that's how I was able to start going, since my mom doesn't really think much of my symptoms either

Jacquie Reign uh this does not sound like the disorder me and dodie have

You said "Is there a test for it?" and I felt like I had to make some points straights, that are so important, and that everyone forget.
If it feels like derealization, then go for it. But it's in fact no so important to be sure it is. I can relate to the mom part, because my mom was certain for a really long time that I just couldn't make the difference between being tired and some weird disorder that I was certainly making up in my head. But the fact is; IT'S NOT IMPORTANT.
There is something wrong.
Yes, it's all in your head. But it doesn't make it less real, and less important to take care.
What I mean, is that you just need to see someone, and to tell him what you feel, and if it feel like derealization, tell it because it can help to understand the problem. But everyone feel derealization in different way, and there is no diagnosis, it's just about what you feel.
So don't be pre-occupate aboute having "truly" something or not. It can be comforting to be able to put a name on the thing you're experiencing, but that's all. You're not okay; then there is something wrong. If you feel like you need help, get it, really!
Don't get obsessed on proving you do have it, just cure your problem ^-^
You don't own anything to anyone, no proof, no paper who tell you are truly bad, just take care of yourself, you have the right to be in pain. ^-^

Sorry for the long message, but I could so relate to you in my own mistakes, and I felt I should give my opinion.
Take care, and good luck :)

same boo same! im gladd someone mentioned the super realistic dreams -  almost convinced myself i was a fn psychic okay

Jule Grande oh thank you! I got a few things telling me I was making it up because of the dreams but I'm so surely dreaming that it's hard to even go to sleep... It's unreal how the situations in my deams are so confusing and real that I say all the time that something happened and it never really did... But I'm SO SURE that this vivid memory is a memory... Idk it's hard to make memories now... I'm glad that someone else has those dreams, but I'm sorry that you're experiencing it :(

oh my god ive had this condition for years and i also have extremely vivid dreams!! ist really messing with my brain and i cant grab a clear thought during the day, because sometimes my dreams Keep lingering and idk how to feel about it. its so validating to hear someone else has derealisation AND vivid dreams! until i watched this Video, i thought i was going crazy but for the first time i have hope, it might finally be better one day

I've been experiencing this for years now, and my doctor says it makes sense... The timeline matches my trauma and such. If anything I've been less foggy because I know what to look for now :)

obviously theres a way, and you probably don’t have it it’s probably just paranoia since you just watched this

A journal helps me with the memory thing, even when it's irregular and I skip many weeks. Assessing how you've felt, what works, or just what you enjoyed that day. I know it's not something everyone can do for many reasons, it ends up helping me personally

See a psychologist and bring up derealization

Jacquie Reign Doctors vary but usually if you just explain what you're going through as best you can and use examples they'll diagnose you like that. Sometimes they'll print off a quiz sort of thing to aid in that but it really depends. Either way, even without diagnosis from a doc you're always welcome to look up "dissociation therapy techniques " "dissociation healthy coping strategies" and fb support groups for dealing with symptoms whenever! Support groups on Facebook have helped me a lot.


Me: sees title
Me: “ha dodie’s so great and goofy”
4 minutes into video
Me: “oh gosh”


Dodie: “placebo”
Me:... do you mean...

g a z e b o?
;)

Dodie: “placebo”
Me:... do you mean...

*g a z e b o?*
;)

Marisela Salazar oH OK SORRY LMAO I JUST LOVE GEORGE SALAZAR<br>idk if you know be more chill the musical but if you don’t it’s great

Marisela Salazar oH OK SORRY LMAO I JUST LOVE GEORGE SALAZAR
idk if you know be more chill the musical but if you don’t it’s great

Marisela Salazar wait is salazar your real last name or is your name a mash up with george salazar cuz i’m a mUSICAL THEATRE GEEK OOPS

Haley Perry omg I love your pfp sm 😂😂 finn is amazing


I wish I was dreaming <br>I hate how I'm not satisfied  with reality

I wish I was dreaming
I hate how I'm not satisfied  with reality

But it’s not like being able to control what you’re dreaming. It’s like a nightmare not being able to recognize people you see on a daily basis, memory issues, and one example was while I was trying to be productive at work my mind just took over and tricked me into thinking I was at my school (a complete different state FL) while working in NY on my summer break. I ended up messing up what I was working on and had to ask my boss to leave- it’s not fun and it’s an actual diagnosis not something to wish for.. so be careful what you wish for- I wouldn’t wish this in anyone

Same nothing satisfies me even as a kid I felt like some thing was missing now I just feel constantly neutral and like nothing matters

Fatema Begum Zaman who is satisfied with reality.


So suddenly everyone in the comment section has this too? Right.

I actually never watch Dodie but I searched and found this because I feel the same way.

M Baig You’re  right many people probably do not have it to the point of a mental illness but most people do have episodes of it so they can relate and they are probably glad to see that it is an actual thing and they’re not insane

It's effectively a self-selecting sample. People are more likely to say whether or not they have it if they do have it, so even if the majority of viewers don't have it, you are unlikely to see many comments saying "omg I don't have this", presenting a sample representative of the population.

Considering this video has (at the time of commenting) 635000 views, and derealisation has a lifetime prevalence of 5%, potentially 31750 viewers will experience it at least once in their life.

One can't say how many of them have already had it, but it's likely in the thousands. Of these, I'll assume that there will be several dozens of them commenting about how they have it. These comments get up voted as a show of support, and thus, they're the ones you see.

I'm not trying to make myself sound clever here, because this is really very basic statistics. You just ought to understand this kind of thing.

Ikr, swear she talks about random stuff and everyone suddenly has it even if they don't

Exactly my point! I've seen this happen so many times.

Its because she overshares and her fanbase is mainly 13 year olds who wanna be different, edgy and relatable.

I came to this video for the purpose of figuring out what is going on with me at the moment

they would search for the actual name of the illness then, no?

M Baig maybe most people in the comments “suddenly have it” because since they also have it they clicked the video to hear what someone else has to say about it

This happens with quite a few things but sometimes when someone who might be a big name or popular comes out about something they're dealing with for example this video on her mental health, it's like a copy thing that starts happening. I can't explain it. It's like a domino effect?? Idek why I'm trying to explain, I'm doing terrible but sometimes someone who has a big voice in a community will become open about something and suddenly, people who are a fan/keeping up with their information suddenly feel exactly the same or they convince themselves that they do without knowing that they are. Pfft, fuck it. Take what you want from that.

alondra. I see where you’re coming from but the title makes it seem much more “attractive” than it actually is.

KidsWhoAnimate it’s not that simple you don’t just decide you have a mental illness because you can relate. If you have one you need help and treatment. People that act like that and don’t take mental illness seriously are one of the reasons people that actually have it struggle.

They might've just realized they have it, like I did.

M Baig It is a very common disorder, also many people clicked on it because they can relate to the title. I’m not subscribed to dodie but i clicked on this because i have dpdr as well.


30 seconds in and the next recommended video is “I am depressed today” ??? Subscribed. Love the raw honesty it’s refreshing to see


Strange story of my disassociation experience. I am a Christian and I went to Easter Camp. It's a big spiritual thing and there are lots of tears. I had an amazing time there and no dreamland feelings. I got back and woke up the next morning and felt off. Then I went to church and had a treasure hunt thing in an orchard and then it really started to hit me hard. I was talking to my friends about it but it didn't sound like my voice. I felt like a fly on the wall and the words came from the mouth of somebody behind me. I felt like this for about two days and it was awful. After having that experience I can just appreciate the strength of you and so many other people that can deal with this most or all of the time. I know that disassociation can be triggered by negative experiences but Easter Camp was the best weekend of my life. Has anybody had disassociation triggered by an overwhelming yet extremely positive experience or know why this happened? xxx

That's really interesting, thank you! I have never had disassociation but that makes a lot of sense along with the fact the I had no idea where I was at Easter Camp, there were just 6,000 teens in a bunch of paddocks. I hope all goes well with your dp/dr xxx

I think it can also happen when you return to normal after being in a totally new situation where everything is awesome (Easter Camp). In a new fun place, you can't be on autopilot because you don't know where things are (unlike when you're in your own home) and the constant social interaction and stimulation distracts your brain. However, when things calm down and you go back to a situation that you're used to, the dropoff in activity and the return of familiarity can seem really unsettling and trigger an episode. Of course, I'm not a doctor or anything, this is just what I've noticed for myself. My dp/dr gets a lot worse whenever I go home from college.

That makes sense as I had no idea where I was! Thank you and thank you for always being so helpful in life generally ahaha xxx

I get extra spacey when I travel! It might have been your brain’s way of dealing with the change of surroundings/situation. <3


I’ve had this since I was about 10 and now 20 years later, my parents don’t believe me, and say I’m being dramatic. I never got help until I started taking antidepressants. I don’t know if that would help others but it helped me!


idk if this is this or just plain old anxiety and it’s not all the time but i’ll get like weird? like it feels like dreaming but really unsettled and just dissonant and unreal but like i’m like frozen? and like i won’t want to speak of move because it all feels rough(??)  like when you stand up and you get a head rush, it’s that but with shivers and weird like pinprick-y feeling like i feel like static television but unsettled and quiet. idk if that makes sense but like i’ve always wondered what it is bc idk if it’s anxiety or what and it’s so hard to explain it’s just this “somethings wrong, nothings real” type of feeling and what you described was kinda similar so it might be like a mild something similar?

holly when I read this my jaw dropped, I experience this too but I’m not sure if it’s just my anxiety or not.


It's funny how you used the comparison with going out from a movie because that is also a thing I used to compare when I get derealisation episodes. It's like the movie became your reality and now you have to adjust back to real life and remember YOUR real life again but your brain is stuck on the movie for some time and you cannot exactly grasp at the world around you yet. Sometimes it even triggers dissociative episodes for me (which is sad bc I love going to the movies). Anyway I'm happy I have someone to relate to, and not feel completely alone in it as not many people know about it.


I have this, and let me tell you, it’s so difficult to do anything and all I want to do is lay in bed cause I don’t know what is what.

Bridget Tracy I hope that you feel much better soon, stay strong.


emotional repression fucking sucks. When I first started developing depression, I felt numb and blank. Now after exactly a year, I don't feel anything. I can't tell you the last time I cried. Maybe may/June, I dunno. Depression has a lot to do with it. My mental health started affecting when I was physically unable to cry/produce tears. This has caused tremendous amount of stress and anxiety in my life. I feel dull. I feel empty. I don't know what to do about it.

Becca_xx I honestly don't know really what to say except thank you so so much. This is probably one of the best summarizations of self care I've seen. I think a lot of people, especially me, get very overwhelmed with the idea of self care. I think I've been so absorbed in my head that I've forgotten my basic needs. I honestly put that comment out there just to put it out there, not expecting anyone to see it, so for you to reply and give support means a lot to me and I think I needed that wake up call that I'm not alone and there is hope. Thank you

isle of flightless me too. and that’s okay. I’m not gonna pry too much because I don’t think that’s fair on you but self love is extremely important to get you feeling something. It doesn’t have to be beautiful lush baths or peppermint tea. I find myself sitting in the bottom of the shower with the water running, humming a long to a song. It just brings me to  the present and the water acts as white noise and a cheap massage. Not being able to cry is okay, cut yourself some slack. I also find completely small goals is helpful whether that be drinking a glass of water or brushing my hair. It gives you a small smile for a second. And that’s great. I hate to do this but I’m gonna quote dodie here “there will be a day where you say you’re okay and mean it.”


I didn’t know what it was till now oh my god. I have this and I never knew what it was. It doesn’t happen all the time but usually how I feel after a panic attack or even randomly like on 4th of july


i'm so glad i've found someone else that i can look up to who has depersonalization/derealization!! even tho i'm only 14 i've had it for as long as i can remember. i cannot remember anything from the age 10 and earlier because my dad abused me until i was 7 and he passed when i was 8 so i've had trauma lol


I’m here to tell you that i might have the same thing and i should go get tested because i can’t tell time. A year feels like a month ago and a week ago feels like five months ago I don’t remember what I did yesterday or a few minutes ago but I can remember my childhood like it was a few days ago. I feel numb and dream like 24/7 and I can’t tell what is a dream and what isn’t.


I also get this it's like I always feel high and everything is not real


I used to get this almost every day when I went to karate. I would have no thoughts and just kind of do everything for the sake of doing it.  I'd just suddenly realise that it isn't a dream and I am in a gym surrounded by a bunch of people enjoying themselves while I'm here hoping it'll end soon. It's been happening a lot less since I quit karate but it does sometimes come back if I'm really sad and exhausted so I definitely can't say I have it all the time but I think I know what it's like.


All of a sudden everyone has this problem in the comments.

Or maybe, just maybe, there are people who routinely feel like nothing is real, Googled it, and came across this video? Nah, that couldn't possibly be the case (psst I did that, that's why this video turned up in my recommendations-- Google is connected to YouTube)

I think they all came here so that they could find someone they relate to.


That sounds very saddening because you’ll never be able to feel real.

While I had been depressed and sometimes even now I can’t associate reality to dreaming which isn’t visibly like a dream but rather mentally you can’t focus on it being reality, you don’t feel alive and even that time has stopped. I always wanted to be a writer but recently I’ve been what I call “creatively decaying” and it helps cause depression. I don’t even have enough experience to what you go through daily which makes you so strong it’s amazing, I hope you continue happily as you are ♥


She has a different level of consciousnesses. She might live more in the subconscious.


This is basically anxiety. The more you think about how you feel, the worse it gets. I had it for eight months straight- eek! I recommend cognitive behavioral therapy to anyone who ever feels this way.


I just googled the other day on how can I always feel in a dream like state lol


Interesting. I empathize with u. So many people have been coming to a realization that we are in a simulation and our reality is a holographic experience and it is as real as dreaming anyway so if u are experiencing it that way who knows maybe yr more normal than the rest of us.


For me it's like i'm watching a recording of myself, or it's almost like i'm trapped in my own head..if that makes any sense...


Wow, this is totally me and then I get even worse anxiety. It sucks, my eyes don’t want to adjust, I’m always exhausted and don’t remember where I am/what I said. Etc I always feel light headed/not present, 😖


i also have derealization. it’s so hard to explain but sometimes i doze of and I stare off at a random thing and everything gets blurry and i kind of hallucinate and i feel like i cant move and then it makes me cry and feel extremely anxious. then it makes me question every thing and if anything is real and it feels like im on an episode of the twilight zone. it happens randomly. then i look in the mirror and it feels like its not really me. and it feels like everything is off and something bad will happen.


i feel like im missing out on so much stuff which is causing me to not want to do anything because like what is the point if im not going to remember it in 2 hours. watching all my friends have fun when i have no idea whats happening is the worse. this condition is making me so so sad i dont know how much longer i can last.


Ok, so it's not the outline of my eyelids I've been seeing. GREAT. FANTASTIC. BRILLIANT.


If it's caused by stress.. then maybe it could be improved with anxiety medication like clonex?


I had little episodes before but I never thought anything of it but I took some pills and had a bad reaction from it and now it’s everyday haha that’s tuff

SonnyXL be strong 💪we will go through it


I have this. When I tell my doctor they he tells me to call back in a few months and that it should subside. How do I get them to take me seriously and help me?


I feel like when I smoke weed I get some of the symptoms you’re talking about.

That's funny I got this disorder and everyone thinks I'm high but I don't smoke cause I hate this feeling 😂


I look this up because I didn't know what the hell was wrong. Yes I have had extreme traumatic episodes in my life being kidnapped being attacked by a grown man as a child, ripped apart by his Doberman with my skin in its teeth. Very very traumatic episodes but I've gotten through it and now it's 30 plus years later and I feel like I'm falling asleep. Not so much like things are changing with my eyes opened up,  my eyes close. My eyes briefly closed I think and I have awful dreams, they seem like dreams, obviously they are dreams because when my eyes reopen this is not the situation anymore they are dreams within a blink of an eye it feels like. I think my situation is way different than yours I don't know what to call it I don't know if there is a name for it but from your description it is different. Thank you for your video


me too, but i have Adhd. its cause of it. ive had dissociating and derealization to. derealization felt the worst. but i couldnt tell if its dissociating/adhd. adhd is my official diagnosis tho rn.


I need help ........sometimes during the day I feel  like I am re -living a particular moment which has already happened....and  I can clearly remember what is going to happen next. This thing happens to me when I least expect it and when it happens my head starts to hurt. Comment if the same is going on with you so that I can assure myself I'm alright.

Dont worry this happens a lot to me too! My head doesnt hurt after but every other part is accurate


This is a symptom of many diseases....mainly, Lyme. There is no definitive test for it yet, but I’d definitely want to have an evaluation for Lyme.


good luck i have it aswell , 7 years of therapy and clinical treathment nothing help to get it away, still depressed and i still have derealisation


I wish I could dream...not all the time...just most of the time. Not trying to be insensitive, just sick of this real-life stuff all the time! :-)


I dealt with this so bad throughout all of high school thanks to clinical depression. I have almost no memory of my teenage years thanks to this 😢

I also had to ask my mom every once in a while if this was a dream or if something actually happened and wasn’t a dream


People say that we live in a simulation.  Well it turns out that the simulation is running inside of her brain and we all are just part of her dream.


This is very common with people who have been sexually abused as children :(

lady stardust1972 or really any trauma at any times of the life


I have this...  and it is related to anxiety.  However other more unfortunate things have exacerbated it.  I don't see it going away anytime soon.


I got derealization from smoking weed. Had it for about 1 month and 2 weeks but it is not permanent

mX Igor i smoked for 1 year everyday . Then i was drunk on the Next day i woked up with a psychical down . Thought it would be going away . My misstake was to smoke then and since then i feel like smth is wrong .


I thought i was crazy I can’t believe I’m<br>Not the only one .

I thought i was crazy I can’t believe I’m
Not the only one .


It makes me not recognise my face and feel nothing for my family.. I just see separate people and titles.. everything they say is expected and I know how I should be but everything feels fake and memories feel like smudged ink on paper.. sometimes I just stop listening to someone by accident and my eyes just go wide. I walk real slow and always tired and just sort off waiting for something.. got a lot of money for where I live as well but I literally spend nothing because nothing entertains me or interests me. I have no social media’s, no one knows I exist. Feel like a hollow shell watching everything from a third perspective

I’m like it now, it’s just 24/7. I just feel like I have no choice so I just carry on and let nature do it’s work


i'm pretty sure it's not the same thing, but i've always tried to describe to people that feeling of staring in the distance where you're focused but not focused. a sleepy but not sleepy feeling. and then something snaps you out of it. but that ZONE that seeing things and not seeing them. it's so nice. also, really good sex. not kidding. same sort of feeling


I have sort of the same problem. Mine is kind of mild tho? I only know that because there was a time when I had a more intense feeling of depersonalization its called? And I felt like I was loosing my mind I felt much more disconnected from everything. I wasnt hallucinating or anything but everything around me just didnt feel real. I went on a raw food diet for a few months and things got much better. Im now eatting "regular" (much more clean but at least one or two cook meals) and im still a little hazy and disconnected, but not as bad as a few years ago. That was really scary.

BTW Mine started around 2012 too. Ill bet a lot of peoples did. Had a dream in February, I think, that we all died in 2012. I dunno, might explain why so many of us feel like were walking around in a dream.


Don’t know if any viewers will be browsing this comment section and this sounds a little crazy but witchcraft has done loads for me to feel more present and grounded in reality. Mostly visualizations and meditation type stuff that connects your energy to the world around you. Also crystals and herbs that stimulate the root chakra and provide clarity are big helpers too, this may not be the demographic for witchy tips but i thought I’d drop them anyways.


If you're dreaming, try becoming lucid.  Just don't jump.


I don't know if i have this but i keep spacing out. I sometimes walk around my house while im day dreaming. I can keep walking for a whole day. The veins on my feet are popping out. And my arms and limbs keep spazzing. I pumch myself accidentally sometimes. I don't know what i have.

I also dig my nails inside my palm when im so stressed. It's kinda like im ready to punch my self


Ok guys I need help so I kinda feel like I’m dreaming ever since I got out of one of those mirror maze things at like a fair that was like 5 months ago It  happens like every day but not all day everyday so anybody know what it could be


Derealisation is at the end of the anxiety spectrum. It is what your brain does to avoid or resist a full blown panic attack. It’s the more passive version of the « fight or flight » response. Your brain needs to dissociate and change the reality of something that is or has (trauma) obviously triggered you too intensely. For me, treating the underlying anxiety has resolved this symptom completely.


I literally have the same thing

IT SUCKS


“Row, Row, Row your boat gently down the stream, Merrily, Merrily, Merrily, Merrily, Life Is But A Dream.”


i had it a few times for like 15 seconds


Has anyone suggested CBD or Kratom? JK seems like there is one person on every health subject suggesting one or the other.
I have DP/DR mine came from tapering off Benzodiazepines. I had the DP/DR really bad for about a year and then it kind of just vanished over the period of a couple weeks. Sadly it has resurfaced recently, I think because of the stress of my taper, as it still gives me a whole host of physical issues.
That first year was terrifying and although it has returned, I’m a bit more at ease.


Oh boy. I think it's time to talk to a doctor


Tbh I  know this was a real but when ever I would talk to someone about I the would look at me weird, it got to a point Every time I use the bathroom, gets to silent (in my head) around me, or I get in a good or a bad place in my life I would have to Literally Pinch or slap my leg really hard to see if I would “wake up” and I would oddly catch myself talking to my self or Pre-predict the future but no don’t would be there... and no I’m not going to the doctor for a Diagnosis it doesn’t always effect my life and it’s probably just all in my head.


I don't know why I am just finding this. Or maybe the universe is finally answering my call or maybe I'm dreaming this, I don't even know. But I have had this issue before and doctors didn't even tell me what it was. O.o


Isn’t this just called depression? Because I have this hella bad... I went to Florida last week and it literally feels like it didn’t happen.. when I was there or felt like it wasn’t real? I’ve always known why i was like that; I knew o was in a constant dissociation. Me and my friend Brooke talk about it all the time. It freaks me out so much. For me, I’ve always had this feeling but it’s gotten really bad the past three years


I have times where i don’t believe it’s actually happening and also have trouble speaking clearly!?!😓pls help


I had this for a year and then it went away.


What if you tried DMT (Joe Rogan feelings) and that makes you stop daydreaming? 🤔


This happened to me when I smoked weed, and I was “stuck” in it for a little while and it comes back. I felt like I was dreaming or in a video game. I was in control of my actions but I didn’t feel like I was, I felt like I was just watching myself preform actions and I had no control

SoursNoodle I also get that feeling and it often makes me paranoid I'm in the Mendella Effect. Or maybe a better way to phrase it is that I feel aware that I have always existed and the Mandela Effect has happened. I'm suddenly aware  that I'm much more than this human body. Kind of a spiritual experience. Has anyone else ever thought of this possible link?

I had a feeling like this when I was 14. I used to smoke alot of weed and one day I just woke up feeling different. like the weed hadn't worn  off. im now turning 30, work in an office, have two kids a failed relationship, a beautiful relationship, chased my dream and moved country. ive moved on from trying to feel normal again. I used to be so aware of things, of time, of touch,smell, light. now everything kind of merges into one. everything is indifferent

This also happens to me when I take edibles, but for me, I take it as a blessing. time slows down so much, I'm able to process through so many thoughts and emotions within a short time span it's insane. Like taking a twix break. I dissociate in real life as well, and have since I was a small child so this may have influenced my opinions on it. But it gets so bad it even causes severe body dysmorphia to the point where I feel like my fingers are huge and my body is like, this spaceship. Idk. I just take it in and accept it as my current reality, and know that I picked a good time to go through with it, and I will be fine in the morning when I wake up.

It happened because you smoked weed. While cannabis seems to help with anxiety. It normally heightens it as you come down from highs. Also when your high there’s really no telling what your brain could do. 🤦🏾♀

Sunny Bay’s Aquarium unfortunately there’s no medication that is made to help with depersonalization. Some people find ssri’s helped but some people say it makes it worse. The best thing for it is taking care of your body and sometimes thing like cognitive behavioral therapy can help. Exercise and eat healthy. Maybe look up Harris Harrington’s how to overcome depersonalization disorder.

Hi I am suffering from this for 8 months and I feel the same ? Is there any medication to feel normal again . Please I feel like I’m stuck in a daydream .  Help I’ve gotten help already I’m taking busparone but I feel more in a daydream on the medication

SoursNoodle it’s called depersonalization

How long did it take you to get out of it

It's called dissociation. Usually happens to me after I have a breakdown.

Jan yes!!! It’s so hard to explain to others and I just don’t get taken seriously then it makes me feel stupid

Weed does this to me. I hate it. I have to find something to distract myself or I start to panic and always believe I may never go back to normal. The idea of you suffering this for years would be my worst nightmare

SoursNoodle same - in HS i used to smoke a lot and whenever i would take a break id still suffer from derealization. Strangely things like opiates make me feel fine, but weed, forget it . Too scary  😂

Jan it happens to me every time u smoke weed, I actually enjoy it it's kinda cool. It's like being split into two half's and living them both at the same time (one half mind one half body)

Anne The funny thing is it was just weed for me, but it felt the same way. I know about mental health stuff so I kinda assumed what was going on, I was like: "shit, I'm dissociating big time" but I still wasn't sure if real life was real at all, I had to convince myself that it was because things seemed familiar. As for the panic attack, I knew it was something anxiety related, but I didn't know it was a full on panic attack till the next day. Analyzing things helped me a bit, but I guess it usually makes things worse and makes you dissociate more because you are supposed to "go with the flow". I underestimated my mental health, though. As you said, I was afraid I trapped myself in that state too, I thought I broke myself and was already imagining my life "as a disabled person disconnected from the world", explaining to my parents what happened, going to doctors who'll try to fix me etc. lmao

My first bad trip was like that, but I'd never expected it to be that bad. I didn't feel connected to my body at all, I lost myself in time, a minute felt like years, like forever. I thought life wasn't real and that nothing ever was or will be real. (I had a panic attack at the same time so that was fun.) It's really hard to explain if you've never experienced it.


I felt like that for 2-3 weeks, I felt like I was wasting my time.

It’s the worsttttt it feels like a constant out of body experience I’m so glad it passed i hope her experience goes away

Molten Kitty me too 😢 but not with depersonalization

Simon Freeby that's how i've been feeling for almost 2 years now(?) along with depersonalization..

Simon Freeby that’s about how long it lasted for me. Felt the same exact way.


This was fascinating, thank you for sharing!

I don't have a disorder like this but I had a similar experience as a side effect from an antidepressant about 4 years back. I had trouble describing it for the longest time so no one took me seriously; my depression had progressively been getting better so my doctor and my mom didn't want to change my medication over what they thought was just "attention issues" (which was a symptom of depression anyway).
Except it wasn't really that, it was more like I'd often feel like everything was unreal, like it was a dream, and I couldn't think properly. Sort of like when you're on the edge of lucid dreaming and you're noticing everything is weird and feels off but at the same time you can't really do anything about it. I couldn't read because I'd forget everything almost immediately (I've only started reading again these past few months, starting with easy things like comics and manga) and even playing games was hard because I'd forget what I was trying to accomplish. Sometimes objects (or my hands, feet, etc.) seemed like the wrong size, or very distant despite actually being close, and I had a persistent mental "fog" all the time. Sometimes I could barely move or talk at the worst points. I looked into dissociation on my own time and found out that what I was experiencing was similar. I didn't do anything about it until I was practicing driving with my mom and had to stop suddenly (in an empty parking lot mind you) because I felt like I could barely see or think straight. That was when she started realizing that it wasn't just some run-of-the-mill limited attention span issue. We eventually got me off the medication.

The issue lingered for a while and it's been less than a year that I've felt normal again, although it progressively got better within the same year I went off the medication. But I spent much of high school feeling disconnected and still haven't gotten my driver's license.


Look for a Pranic Healing healer. You are disconnected energetically and it's just a matter of time before something else pops out and you feel sick again, maybe in a different way,maybe the exact same way. It has been going on for years so you need help healing and figuring out yourself.  If you need more info,just let me know. <br>Sending you and whoever is in need, love and healing energy. May your soul find peace and be surrounded by other loving souls.

Look for a Pranic Healing healer. You are disconnected energetically and it's just a matter of time before something else pops out and you feel sick again, maybe in a different way,maybe the exact same way. It has been going on for years so you need help healing and figuring out yourself.  If you need more info,just let me know.
Sending you and whoever is in need, love and healing energy. May your soul find peace and be surrounded by other loving souls.


This is kinda like what happens when I get migraines. Like my vision is kinda blind, so on the edges of my vision there's just nothing there. And then I can feel myself doing things like running or talking to people but it's kind of like a simulation and I'm just watching myself from up above. I also can't concentrate as well both because of the pain and because of the simulation thing. So I get super spacy. But possibly the worst thing about migraines is the period of waiting for the pain reliever to kick in. The best way I've found to combat this is the second I have an aura, I call home so I can get picked up (if it's at school). Otherwise, I try to get home as soon as possible. Then, take pain medication and drink some water. I'll go into my room, to take off my pants and bra and lay in my bed with the door locked and the blinds closed so it's completely dark and try to fall asleep. Mostly, I'll sleep for 2-4 hours and be fine. Sometimes I'm nauseous but the pain stuff helps with that. If you have migraines,  stay strong! I'm sorry, I know it sucks, but it'll be ok. lol I guess this got kinda off topic and long but idc soz


I have the exact name thing its really scary😭 but how I cope with it I pull at the fat flab under my chin and scratch it and rub it


i have ptsd and dissociation for me has stemmed from abuse endured when i was a kid. i definitely relate to your struggles because even after i was out of that environment for years i had periods of weeks and months where everything felt like a dream and i remember talking to people and going through my days, but feeling that floating feeling you spoke about. after lots of therapy and cbt and medication i have stabilized and learned to cope with my mental illness and the derealization and dissociation has lessened tremendously. i still don’t really remember most of that time in my life, but i’ve learned to cope with it. so, i’m just here to tell you that there is hope for recovery and that i wish you luck on your journey. 💜💕


PLEASE, EVERYBODY READ THIS!<br>Okay, so since so many of us have experienced something along these lines, I’d like to offer a place where everybody can comment to say what HELPED them. Please, if anybody has figured out a way to diminish this or kick it altogether, what was it that helped? Meditation? Journaling? Better sleep? Thank you in advance — I’m sure this will help a lot of people!

PLEASE, EVERYBODY READ THIS!
Okay, so since so many of us have experienced something along these lines, I’d like to offer a place where everybody can comment to say what HELPED them. Please, if anybody has figured out a way to diminish this or kick it altogether, what was it that helped? Meditation? Journaling? Better sleep? Thank you in advance — I’m sure this will help a lot of people!

Geneva for me I had very similar symptoms and it turned out to be diet related. Once I stopped gluten it stopped.

I just distract myself as soon as I start feeling depersonalization. I’ll start reading something or watch a YouTube video , anything that will stop my brain from over analyzing my surroundings

find a place that you remember best and go there during a bad episode. or meditation/guided imagery

I adopted a dog, she is my whole world, I credit her to getting me out of my first bout of dp/dr (however has since come back due to stress/anxiety). also I forced myself to get out in the world and do things, taking walks, running, I ran ~10 miles a day and I ate healthier. I became closer with the people around me as they distracted me from those feelings. that all combined helped me.

For me, live life as you would otherwise the best you can, and accept that the only cure is time.

I catch myself when im starting to go into a dreamy state. I start thinking about something and I completely zone out and I forget where I am. Ill be staring into space. I have to catch myself as soon as I start thinking and losing awareness of the things actually in front of me or itll be a while before I “wake up”. Usually when someone asks me a question or theres a sudden noise

Music helps me a lot. I sing and play guitar. Somehow that brings me back to reality and to life itself

I have had it for 7 months now beginning in may and it was so bad back then but when I started running cross country in august which had workouts and long distance running I can honestly say I have improved so so so much. I know that exercise helps people with depression improve their concentration and memory so I am sure that it has to be connected to dp/dr. I highly recommend exercise :)

Meditating, use it as a tool to find your true self.

Meditating, use it as a tool to find your true self.

Honestly i find writing unapologetic poetry helps me materialise my feelings and that sort of helps me get a slight grasp on reality.

I tried nofap, no change.
I sleep more than enough.
I sometimes feel fresh after meditating but it barely lasts a second.

I got rid off it in 3 moths by talking and ignoring it... i could make u forget this feeling 😁

what helps me is laying down in bed at the end of the day and thinking about everything I did. for example: I think about what I ate where I went how I got to places and small things like that. I do this because personally I will forget what happened by the end of that week almost completely and ill just remember what I did and not how I felt or little details(if I went to the mall with my friends I wouldn't remember what stores or what we did I would just remember that I went) this helped me tremendously stay strong <3

The more sleep I got the more these feelings diminished! Also I realised that these feeling are horrible but - they are just feelings. Even though feel unreal and that I'm dying doesn't mean that I am dying.

@L S as long as you're focused on something - chatting, working or watching a movie its not. But if you start feeling lazy and dizzy I'd say take a break asap

Exercise, running in particular - worked for me and one more person I know. Also glasses if you need them. Also saying no to anything that makes you feel numb like too much food or sleeping. The less carbs the better.

Raphael Vasconcellos in my case alcohol triggers it, after the occasional night of heavy drinking I’ll spend the whole day (sometimes even two days) feeling “off”, disconnected from reality and feeling like I’m not properly responding to my environment. It usually also comes with a lack of desire to do anything, it’s kind of derealised depression

On days where my anxiety and depersonalization is bad I will wear long sleeves to work, to me it helps not being able to see my arms and constantly thinking that I'm not real. It isn't a cure but it can help! Hope that makes sense and I don't sound too crazy lol I have yet to really find any successful coping for my derealization, i wISH something as simple as sleeves would help

Learning to love (or at least like) myself helped a lot because I'm always so in my own head

-getting thyroids checked
-getting all the vitamin levels checked
- I take vitamin b12 and NIACIN , vitamin d drops and it helped me so much
-Yoga , meditation
-finding a good homeopathic doctor
-reincarnation therapy did miracles with me
-talking talking talking
- if you go deeper into spirituality and you talk to Shamans they will tell you how special you are and that this “sickness” is a gift it means your third eye is open you see everything in a other vibration .
So understand you are not crazy ,
You don’t have to fit in a “normal” box it’s crazy to be normal .

We are all different and that is good !
There is nothing you have to be scared of you are not alone with this .

I have Derealisation/depersonalisation/anxiety /panic attacks / depression since almost 10 years . And all of this helped me so good and is still helping .

Everyday is different and without the shadow you wouldn’t recognise the light .

You are strong ♥

I find that lying down and closing my eyes whilst not talking or moving for a couple of minutes usually helps it to go away quicker.

I had 2 episodes of that and I still don't know the cause of it, even if I am always a bit stressed... What can help me (but I'm not 100% sure) is: meditation and sleep A LOT (I can sleep maybe 12-15 hours a day when I feel derealised)

Don't think of yourselves as crazy. I feel that a lot of us feel that something is "wrong" so you begin to panic. I've dealt with this my entire life and didn't even know it was a thing until watching this video, and I didn't begin to feel bad about it until I read  comments about people panicking about it, which I see happens alot with people who struggle with personality disorders. And that is a completely valid response, but I feel that if we see it as something being a part of our experiences verses something negative that's happening to us, we'll feel a lot better about it and be able to handle it. That is, if it isn't affecting how you function day to day. I never want to be dismissive anybody's experiences .  Speak to someone if you feel that it isn't manageable  alone, or overwhelming. I hope you all find what you need for yourselves. Much love.

I had the start of a very small episode once, and I did as many "normal" things as possible..the one thing that brought me back was when I was brushing my teeth. ..

What helps me is have an ear bud in one ear (dont wear both cause it triggers it more in fear i wokt hear something) and listen to either music or youtube stories

Raphael Vasconcellos I’ve noticed. Yet I’ve always wondered why.

Venus weed is the number one trigger to dp/dr

Venus weed is the number one trigger to dp/dr

I quit smoking weed. I totally tried to distract myself and got lost in life and have FUN . It all eventually went away after months of agony and suicidal thoughts.

For me, and for our host in the video as well, nothing really helps it go away. I have learned to live with it. It took me a long time to come to terms and accept it and embrace it. But what helps me get through it is knowing that it will not last. That I will get moments of clarity. And when I do finally get my rare moments of clarity, omigosh do I make the most of it! I enjoy it and feel grateful for it. Because I know my brain fog will come back soon. Sadly, exercise can exacerbate the symptoms for me . But that is no reason NOT to exercise. I still do it because it's good for your body in the long run. But anything you can do for your mind and body that are healthy and balancing are still important and I would encourage everyone who has this condition to really take care of themselves. If you don't take care of yourself the symptoms only get worse.

wearing sunglasses really helps with my derealization and anxiety

For me it was sitting outside in the sun and just breathing and taking lots and lots of hot bubble baths. It helped that my boyfriend was so understanding and he really helped me get through it. My mind was literally consumed with how I felt and the only thing that could help me get past it was time. I could not breathe and it was worse at night and I didn't know why I was having anxiety. I would wake up all throughout the night with panic attacks and jolts running down my body. It was terrifying. I went to the dr and made my mom take me to the ER to have all sorts of test done. I remember when the "dream state" hit me and I kept asking my boyfriend if I was just asleep or if I passed out idk I was so confused. I haven't felt the same since.

meditation! yoga, running, hiking, being in nature!! surfing!! and most importantly talking about it!

talking about it a lot, lying in the sun, writing about it.


It has a name!? I need to make an appointment with my doctor ASAP

You can find the symptoms on Wikipedia or in the DSM. It's so frustrating :/


Sometimes when I have to talk in front of people I won't be able to remember what I did/kinda almost black out and have to ask "did I do good? Did I do it right?"

Sounds like that might be dissociation caused by heightened stress

Raina Pink I feel that way all the time. Apparently (for me) it's a combination of derealizarion and ADD


i really don’t know how to explain what i experience. I just start feeling like my life is going in fast forward and i start panicking and crying and telling my dad somethings wrong but he doesn’t know what to do so he just tells me to try to sleep but that doesn’t work most of the time. i can’t go to sleep when this is happening, i can’t do pretty much anything. and then it suddenly goes away

Makenzie Lombardi yeah it sounds like a panic attack

I've an obscure word for that:
zenosyne: a sense that time keeps going faster.
And another:
adomania: the sense that the future is arriving ahead of schedule.

Hey lovely, telling yourself that it's "just that thought" again can really help (it's helped me heaps), know that derealization is a coping mechanism for your body to deal with anxiety. I've done tons of research on it and your brain thinks you're in a "fight or flight" situation, so it pretty much shuts down in order for you to cope! Also, for me I find that touching things around me and using all of my senses really calms me down. That way you know you're in the world around you, and not just in your head. I know how scary it can be, you can get through this 💗

something like that happened to  me when i have a high fever


Why don’t you have ATLEAST  1M subs bc tbh u deserve like 10M subs


Ok is this really a thing? I’ve convinced myself I’ve got dementia but this is much more fitting....but idk


I’ve had a few episodes of this before and it was scary:( I wasn’t sure what it was and everyone around me was like “it’s ok” and didn’t understand it at all. Thank you for bringing this to us!!😊❤ also I am not self diagnosing myself I just would like to share because I was nervous when this happened. Stay strong!


thanks for making such an informational video! i love that you are so open about this, it really helps.. also you look super cute today <3 xx


Welp Im not gonna self diagnose but it is definitely time to see my doctor haha oops


I kinda hate the fact that this is not really commonly researched, and especially with kids. I'm currently 13, and I've experiences derealization/deperonalization all my life and I can usually find some sources about it for the general public, but I can't find anything on experiencing it as a kid, and I'd never know how I could deal with it, that isn't in pov of a parent. I never knew what I was feeling had a name and I never had enough trust to tell anyone and my whole life was kinda in isolation.


I’m so happy I’m not the only one who feels this way


My therapist says it’s just a part of my schizophrenia


Isn’t the visual aspect normal? I thought it happened when the lighting changed suddenly?


Still doctor couldn’t understand my problem. This vision problem is killing me. God only know when i will come to real world


Between the realms of 3D and 5D
🙏💞💜🕊💜💞🙏
Much Love to All


Just the other day on Friday I felt like I was dreaming while I was wide awake. To explain it, it feels like your floating or not in control over what is going on. Like yeah, I I wanted to pick up a paper...I could, but it didn't feel like I was doing it myself, more like someone was controlling me. A while ago, I felt this For over the span of like a week. I told my mom and everything, but she kept saying "it's going to go away" and it didn't for a while until it just disappeared. Weird right?


Wow. So interesting! You look like me,too.


I know what it's called I'm pretty sure it's called "Air Duster"


Fish oil helps a bit just be patient it will go away .


I’ve felt like this my whole life, for years doctors thought I just had depression but I knew it was different! I didn’t feel real, my body didn’t feel like my own, and I couldn’t tell the difference between being in a dream and being awake. I found antidepressants helped me be calmer, however nothing has actually helped me feel ‘real’ again. It’s so uplifting knowing other people feel the same! This aspect has helped me so much, knowing I’m not alone 😊


you opened me up to this idea and made me realize that i have it too! i saw this video years ago and ever since the idea has been nagging in the back of my mind, and now i’m diagnosed and being treated! thank you!!


I can relate to this so much. Sometimes I would even ask my friends to give me slap in the face because I felt like my soul was floating somewhere else. Or I would feel like I'm moving in slow motion, couldn't feel my limbs either sometimes.


I definitely feel this at times. Most of the time I blame it on weed that can still be in my body or deficiency in vitamins or minerals. After watching ‘limitless’, I was scared shitless. Watching these types of YouTube videos are really frightening lol.


This happens to me when I am extremely sleep deprived.

Grace C omg i was waiting fpr someone to said it that happens to me too


This makes me want to cry but thank you so much for explaining it so well.


Thank you so much for helping me realize I’m not the only one! 💖 I have had chronic depression since I was 12 years old due to traumatic experiences and I’ve also had symptoms of what you are describing. My vision has been bad but every time I see and optometrist my vision is “fine”?


i have just been told i have this so i came back to your video to re watch it because i remember watching it when you first posted it ♥


Thank you! I think I’ve realised what happened to be after exams now.  I was so scared that I was losing my mind and being left behind by everyone because my brain couldn’t keep up with what was going on around me. Thank you for making realise I’m not alone.


I feel like that all the time. This is helping me a lot


Thanks for sharing your story ! Pretty sure you gonna help a lot of people . I will definitly buy your book. Best regards !


Hi,

Thanks for the tips. I had a major depression for a few years and a few months ago I even tried to commit suicide. In a clinic I got diagnosed with a schizoaffective disorder. I also experience permanent derealisation and it really destroys my feelings. Thanks for raising awareness as I might not have to explain it that much anymore. Good luck with the treatments!


it always happen to me during my panic attacks or my mental breakdowns


I have a constant undertone of being afraid of everything. I told my mom everything feels unreal like I pressed a reset button and I can't feel things I used to feel. Something feels off all the time, it's, scary. She doesn't believe it's important, it makes me want to die.


Hello! Thank you for sharing your story. When I was 10 years old I was diagnosed with disrealization and depersonalisation.<br>At 11 years old I started to feel very numb also caused by my disrealization and I started to self harm to make myself feel pain. I started to feel really depressed and anxious and nobody understood. I explained it as hard as I possibly could but nobody understands. I did have a very traumatic childhood and maybe that caused it. But disrealization and depersonalisation is the worst thing ever. 😭💔

Hello! Thank you for sharing your story. When I was 10 years old I was diagnosed with disrealization and depersonalisation.
At 11 years old I started to feel very numb also caused by my disrealization and I started to self harm to make myself feel pain. I started to feel really depressed and anxious and nobody understood. I explained it as hard as I possibly could but nobody understands. I did have a very traumatic childhood and maybe that caused it. But disrealization and depersonalisation is the worst thing ever. 😭💔


Wow. Thank you for making this video. I have suspected I have something like derealisation-but-all-the-time for years, but always settled back on dysthymia/Persistent Depressive Disorder and anxiety and social anxiety and ADHD (all without a diagnosis, yeah yeah).
Yesterday after a long time in a new situation I was presented with a more familiar experience, and it motivated me to read more about this feeling of being in a constant dream/drunk-lite state. Instead of searching for derealisation and depersonalisation like I usually have done in the past, I searched "autopilot feel like I'm dreaming" and got a result where someone called Suzanne described my experience perfectly. (I'd been put off derealisation as a diagnosis before because it was always so general and the symptoms seemed very specifically related to an 'out of body experience' or 'feeling like you're watching yourself from the outside', which isn't my experience. But this Suzanne person experienced the same disconnectedness that I do.)
I messaged my sister because we like to talk about our mental health pretty openly with each other, and she linked me your video after I explained that I'm taking this whole derealisation thing more seriously at last. What I told her reminded her of what you'd said here. And holy crap (as I said to my sister twice) this is it. Wow.
So yeah, thank you for describing it so eloquently and giving me a bit of hope that my brain isn't as much of a tapestry of tangled dysfunctions as I thought, and that this might explain things better than all of my previous guesses, without feeling like there's 'something wrong' but 'wronger', if that makes sense. (If not: I mean that whenever I read about other diagnoses I'm like "yeah, like that, but wronger", and that just makes me feel hopeless. Like, if there weren't diagnostic criteria to explain my brain accurately, then what the hell is wrong with me?)
So, to see something I experience described so exactly has already helped me feel a little better than I have done for a long while and I'm very grateful. This also explains why I always get a little bit uncomfortable when people talk about mindfulness and being present. :')
Sorry for the long comment by the way, this is just a bit of a climactic revelation!


Thank you for the word that describes my dream like safe place at home, but when going out into the madness of the real world, i can't wait to get home to that comfort zone. 💋


This video helped me so much. I first watched it during a mental breakdown caused by symptoms of derealization and it convinced me to get help and speak up and get diagnosed. I'm now getting help and of course it's still hard but it's so much easier knowing that I'm not crazy and other people experience this too. Even now watching this video makes me tear up a bit because I've felt alone with this for so long and someone finally gets it. I'm so grateful for this video :)


Ive just started feeling everything you described last week, its the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my life. I find I get into a mental loop, my anxiety triggers this brain fog and my brain fog triggers my anxiety. I feel like I'm going INSANE I question who I actually am. It was comforting to watch this video and know Im not the only one dealing with this.


Felt this, when certain things trigger me I have these dissociative anxiety attacks that can be really really scary. Now I take medicine and rarely have them.


I’ve experienced something like this once and it was on a school camp and the whole time I felt as if I was in a dream and like no one was real and that it was just me at the camp even though I was surrounded by a bunch of people, I remember we were at breakfast and I was putting my plate away and all of a sudden I completely forgot where I was and everything went sort of black. We also had to watch performances and stuff at the camp and the whole performance night I just felt completely detached from reality and everyone around me, weirdest 3 days of my life


This was extremely helpful and informative.  Thank you so much.


I watched this video about a year ago. Thinking when i was first watching it that it would be awful to live with this. And recently have been having episodes of derealization. And to my former self. You were right this is awful.


why am i only just finding this video?? oh my gosh I’ve been feeling all of those symptoms around six years and I’ve dabbled in the idea of derealisation n I know it exists but I honestly thought I was just losing a part of my brain that I need to actually feel like I’m living. thank u, dodie!!!