I had it for 3 months solid and stilll get it from time to time depends on how I feel ( unwell/ panicked) even badly lit areas are dreamy! My therapist at the time and anorther mental health person told me it’s when your brain is in such a high level of stress it is protecting you by making things seem unreal. It can go away tho


One more thing, I would recommend looking into aboriginal dreamtime.  Reality doesn't always have to emerge from clinical trials.


Oh my god! I get that feeling a lot! I thought that was normal


I had this from ages 10-12. I kept feeling like I would have to monitor myself by scratching my arms to make sure I was still in reality. Since I was so young at the beginning I would even ask other people if I was awake. It feels like you’re absolutely floating out of your own body. I only discovered this past year that it happened to others.


wow I honestly love this. nobody talks about dr/dp enough.


Wow it's like a huge light bulb turned on! Thank you so much for that. I always thought I'm just weirldy tired all the time. I don't know how to describe it but that video helps a lot!


For me it felt like I wasn’t in reality, like shit around me weren’t real. I could sometimes get lost & come back just like that, which is weird. I was so happy to open up this video


Wow I have had these symptoms a lot. It was worse when I was a teen and I have always thought/been told by family that it is depression...


I never heard about that before, how is it different from dissociation? Because that’s what I had my entire childhood and as a young adult ... including A LOT of daydreaming, spacing out etc. I could sit with people at the table and „disappear“ for an hour and switch back into the conversation, not having a clue what they were talking about in the meantime. Same happened constantly in school. I really had to force myself to stay present and it was exhausting.

Sometimes as a child I was observing patterns on the wall or shadows for an entire hour and loose myself into them, until they started to become weird, changing their form, some 2D surfaces with patterns started to form into 3D worlds with different layers that moved around me. It felt as if the physical and energetic world merge.

But it changed very much in the last years and almost went away! Now I can switch it on and off if I want to and only in very extreme stress situations it sometimes happens accidentally for moments. But in order to change that, I had to change my entire life, becoming very aware of what is good for me and what not and then to act on that, f.e. by not being in places I don’t really want to be, not joining conversations or parties that didn’t really interest me, not to surround myself with people I feel uncomfortable around and so on.

Most important key to change that was to experience, that I am the one that forms and creates my own reality, makes decisions and acts on them. Acting rather then reacting. In other words: Since I take care of my well-being, it changed tremendously 😊


I suffer with this as well! I'm happy that it's an actual thing and I'm not going crazy "^^


wow... this video brought me to tears. these feelings have happened to me so many times, and i never knew it had a name or that it was an actual thing. it started for me when i was 15, and whenever i’d be in a stressful or unexpected situation, like during an intense volleyball game, or when i was asked to prom. i could never control it or learn to stop it, and nobody ever could understand what i was talking about when i’d have an episode. it was  just like being in a dream and i couldn’t control my movements or my words. i never ever knew this was an actual condition. wow, thank you dodie for opening up about this. you are amazing ❤ this means so much to me


I am a first year biology student and recently had subjects about the brain, hormones and brain function so this is pretty interesting to me!


I’ve been dissociating since the beginning of my freshman year. I’m a junior now. (High school) some people in the comments are saying that they only experience it sometimes, but I feel this way so constantly. I don’t think I’ve had a break. I can’t remember the last time I went a full day without feeling this way. I feel like I’ve wasted my whole high school years away, because I’ve felt so numb. It’s ruined relationships also because I just can’t be in love or feel strong emotions. I can definitely say weed played a role in the way I feel. I’ve always smoked a lot because of the environment I live in. I get pressured into doing it a lot of the time. I get made fun of by saying no, although it makes me feel even more distant from the world and awful. I officially learned to say “No” a couple weeks ago. I hope I can fully recover, because I miss the way being alive feels, and I remember how amazing life was before this horrible dream like state took over my whole life. I will not smoke weed ever again. It only enhances the feeling to the point where I feel like I’m dying. It is definitely more of a mental thing for me. Although it does make everything look more foggy and unreal. I miss the old me, and the way life was. If anyone can relate to this then feel free to talk to me because I have no one to talk to about this. I know no one in real life who has this or experiences it.


FINALLY, someone who is well known that has the same condition as me.


me constantly!! yess! thank you for putting it into better words that i can


I don't think you will ever understand the impact this video has made on me. I have struggled with the exact same feelings for at least 6 years. I can finally go to the doctors and better explain how it feels.!!!!!!!


I’m not going to lie when you brought up piddling with rough and sharp things to keep tethered I felt so relieved that someone else did it. I always have to be holding something or raking my nails over my skin to stay tied down.


Omggg this has been happening a few weeks now and I thought it was because of sleep. I put a dog down yesterday and it got worse, last night I couldn't focus, I felt high, and I couldn't connect with my physical self even though I was sober. Today it happened again but lasted 4 hours. It usually happens at night in the lobby of my dorm and I just feel slow like how a video moves slow while everything and everyone else is functioning normal.


Once in a while I feel like this. It freaks me out because I couldn’t remember what happened 10 minutes ago


I was young when i started smoking weed (about 13), after i stoped i had derealisiation for a long time. Not like all the time but everytime i listened to music or something really good or really bad happened and sometime just without a reason.
Took about one year till it was "gone" (still happens about 2 a year).
Every one who has drug induced derealisiation, just keep on thinking positive. :)


After traumatic series of events I started to dissociate. I still struggle with it. Nothing has seemed to help.


Interesting video ❤

I’m having those feelings sometimes, cuz of big stress and much to do..
I’m going thought ptsd and other stuff...

But the feeling I have is like floating, unreal and bubbly... Hard to explain.

Yea, gash... when you talk about the eye and the memory...


Omg I genuinely felt like I was slowly dying before this video. I think I might have derealisation and the other one too


I'm so sadly happy that i'm not the only one who feel this! It's sucks a lot and it feels like hell


I get short spells of derealization/depersonalization when my anxiety or depression (or both) get really bad. Usually it's when I'm doing work of some sort, I'll just stop for a second and realize that I don't feel real, nothing feels real. And I can usually combat it by pacing and using positive self talk/grounding techniques to bring myself back to earth haha. But sometimes it takes some real effort. I've brought this up to previous counselors and they all said that as long as I keep up the positive self talk/grounding when these spells do happen and they aren't happening too often, I should be okay. But it definitely is freaky when you sit down to work and then look at the clock and realize you've kind of lost the last few hours and how did it take this long just to do this one assignment/task?


I can totally relate ! I had that feeling of kinda not being there. Things passed by me. I forgot a lot of things my friends told me. And they sometimes seemed to think I just wasn't listening. I couldn't concentrate properly and had blurry vision quite often. Even noe sometimes I look in the mirror and don't recognize me, even get scared sometimes until I remind myself it's just me. So I try not to look in the mirror on those days. Sometimes things seems weirdly dark and I feel like I'm dreaming. Other times, when there are bright lights I feel dizzy and weird.
But I must say it's gotten sooo much better. I stopped drinking coffee and it made like such a difference !! I also stopped chocolate (well not entirely but I try to avoid it) and it really helped. Now I take vitamins regularly and it really helps against the brain fog.
Good luck to you. Hope it gets better 💕


I’ve had this exact same condition and it was the worst. I couldn’t cope with the coping and had severe anxiety attacks. Reading the title I hoped you were speaking in the topic and I’m so glad you are, no one really talks about this and I’m glad more awareness is being shown


Huh this clears up alot the experiences I have been having, when every I get overwhelmed my emotions just suddenly just shut off then I start drifting off feel like I'm floating and everything is fuzzy, it sucks because it happens when I have inportant stuff to do


When I was four my father died and my mother was extremely suicidal. I don't remember almost all of my childhood. I would feel like I was a little girl up in heaven looking down on this little girl who was me. I wouldn't feel in my body. It has not happened as much as it used to but it still happens at certain times. I'm not sure if it would be derealization. I just always have tried to look for answers and talk to people about it but many just think I'm lying or it's just my imagination. I just really would like to know if this could be a slight case of derealization.


To me it DPDR feels like the opposite of deja vu mixed with the feeling of existing but not living.


I feel this way too, not all the time but pretty often.  I feel out of it until at least noon most days but then I'm okay the rest of the day.


i have bipolar type II and i never experienced derealization until i started having hypomanic episodes and it's not as intense but it's nice to have it explained bc when i experienced it for the first time i was glad i had seen this video among others bc instead of thinking "oh god what's wrong with me" i thought "ohh so this is what it's like." (given i was still kind of mentally having a freak out bc a lot of other stuff was going on up in the brain!! found out later it hypomania! psychiatrists are awesome guys!!)


I had the same for a couple months last year and I'm glad it haven't happen since then, but when I recurred to a psychiatrist he told me in a really mean way that I only needed to sleep more and it made me feel like people don't really care about others.<br>Also I don't know how it stopped cause I kept sleeping 3-4 hours a day but I guess it's cause I started to worry less about college and more about myself

I had the same for a couple months last year and I'm glad it haven't happen since then, but when I recurred to a psychiatrist he told me in a really mean way that I only needed to sleep more and it made me feel like people don't really care about others.
Also I don't know how it stopped cause I kept sleeping 3-4 hours a day but I guess it's cause I started to worry less about college and more about myself


Well, I have a problem of thinking I’m awake because I do things in my mind that never ever happened physically. It happens almost every morning.


I want to expand my conversation I had on JBU about the"truer" brain.   I can't shake the feeling that these so called disorders are just a brain that might register reality a little bit too well.  What you're describing sounds a lot like ego dissolution.  People will travel all the way to the rain forest to gulp down a shaman's concoction to experience this transcendental state.  You have it with out a pharmacological assist.  You are Ayahuasca in a dress!   I think it's scary that a delusional brain may be a more happier brain to the extent we get fooled into thinking this is the more accurate brain.  What if the brain that has the "disturbances" is the truer brain.  In other words, what if it is not hiding stuff from you?  It's not protecting you.  It could be that your brain is peeking behind a code!  Our construction of mental health is ascribed according to how well one gets along in society.  That's the metric.  No one stops to ask if the given society is worthy of operating in with supreme competence.  We forget that there were flourishing members of Nazi society and of American slave holding South.  Were they healthy?  They certainly fit in.   We just assume our societies are models of health because we are too close to them.  Impressionist paintings need distance, not a magnifying glass   Our societies very rarely go on trial with the exception of mild political tweeking, but the stubborn brain will to the point of treatment plans.  What if your brain is putting our form of civilization on trail.  Who has the right to hold the gavel?

Don't misunderstand me, happiness is such a worthwhile thing to possess.  I chase it secretly with just as much gusto as the next man.  I just don't know if we can say that it is an indicator of mental health.

My argument does come apart somewhat with memory loss.  Yet, if I were to be persistent, I might argue that supreme mindfulness does not need the best recording of the past as it really does not exist.  Only a faint trace to frame the present situation may be needed.   Very fascinating!


opposite for me. In dreams I feel like i’m awake even tho I have no control over it. I even sometimes say, “Wow, I can’t read this, I must be dreaming” or just randomly yell in my dream, “I’m dreaming”


I’m glad I’m not the only one. I thought I was going crazy. For me it feels like I’m watching my life from inside my head. Like a really shitty reality tv show.


I thought I was alone... and going crazy in my own little word. It feels like I'm walking around in a model, or a stage set. Nothing is quite real.


Just in case this helps anyone here- I suffered with derealization disorder for five years, it absolutely ruined my life at the time, because i didn't know what it was, wasn't taken seriously by the doctor and couldn't explain it to my family or friends. Randomly one day (after searching for about two years) i typed in my symptoms and found a tonne of videos just like this one. From breaking the cycle of anxiety (thinking i'm going crazy, panicking about leaving my comfort zone, having panic attacks in shops because it would suddenly hit me and i felt like i couldn't see) and simply taking this huge baggage off by being able to call it a label and attribute it to emotional stress (as well as physical injuries guys, don't forget!!) about 70% of my problem immediately went. i still felt weird most of the time, but not panicking about it, and exiting the negative thought cycles, not only do i feel better, but I have allowed myself to rest and almost rewire my brain. I can safely say i feel 90% better, with the occasional spout. I would recommend resting as much as possible, making sure there is nothing wrong physically, constantly relaxing your muscles (baths, massages, acupuncture) its just a coping mechanism from your brain, so you have to reset it- relax your body, and rest your mind, these things will go hand in hand.


I suffered with this really badly when I was on anti-psychotics (which I shouldn't have been put on in the first place). It was hella dangerous. It would often feel like I was teleporting around, in that I would go somewhere, but have no recollection of even leaving the house, let alone making any kind of journey. This was most apparent when I had to go pick up my prescription. It was a 5 mile round trip and I would WALK to go get it. I mean...I assume I did, cos I can't drive, I was often home alone cos everyone else was working, and it is the only rational explanation for having my medication randomly appear in my hands and me being on the wrong side of the front door. Things are slightly better now I'm off meds and in counselling, but I can still (remember...or not) how unsettling that feeling of dissociation can be and deeply sympathise. I hope you are able to find something that helps you. I have also taken up art since coming off meds and giving my hands something so potentially complex to focus on has helped ground me in some semblance of "reality."


i have the same since over 10 years now and it is always there, some days even worse than others... it's the best when i am with my boyfriend where i can totally be myself... i am working in a social job with over 50 people per day... and i am 100% acting, everything i do and everytime i approach somebody i act because normally i would sit in my room and be glad to not talk to someome :D also i can't remember stuff... i have to write everything down.. i can watch a movie and after a year i can watch it again with having forgotten everything which was in the movie so it's like a new movie :D also i forget things which had happened years ago and my friends ask me “do you remember when we....?“ i am always like what i haven't been there xD


i think i might have this... sometimes i can't see properly like my eyes just zone out and a lot of my side of conversations go like "what i forgot to listen" like that's genuinely what i've come to saying now not i didn't hear i actually forgot we were talking at all. it's not as severe as your symptoms because i still recognize myself but other people sometimes i get confused


i can’t tell you how much of a breathe of fresh air it is to hear someone talking about this, for years i felt so alone and in the begginings of it i was so depressed, i think the worst part about derealisation is no one will ever know fully when your experiencing it because you become so accustomed to living your life through another set of eyes, for me it took years to learn how to cope with the situations, staying calm and reminding yourself you do exist and you are on a timeline and living in that moment, i never knew derealisation was the third most common after depression and anxiety i wish i had known this when i was 14 because i can’t describe how alone,sad and scared i felt back then-thank you for bringing some light to this and even though i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy there is a comfort in knowing you really aren’t alone


Her voice is so soothing when she read the book


I think this happens to me from time to time..


I feel like I’m dreaming constantly too... I should ask my therapist if I have this...


Sometimes ill just be sitting there completely conscious, and yet ill wonder if im actually alive. I wonder how I can really prove I am. I usually start waving my arms around just to make sure I am actually experiencing something and have some type of control. Shits weird....


soo I never comment on these videos... but I wanted to share something for anyone who is struggling.
I went through a traumatic experience last year which gave me ptsd. my childhood was also a big contribution to it as my upbringing I went through some crazy shit haha so it was all connected.
 the first 2-3 months after the trauma were the scariest months of my life. where I first experienced depersonalisation/derealisation questioning my existence, and some fucked up thoughts lol. but after learning what I was going through I felt a lot more at ease and my healing process really started to take off.
 its almost been 1 year since the event. and every now and then I get derealisation, but I find what has helped me and reduced this is training my mind not to attach an emotion to it. so when it does happen I will distract myself or treat it as if it were a normal feeling/thought and let it pass on by and accept it. Doing this has slowed it immensely and helped me feel normal again. and my brain is slowly getting rid of this habit and forgetting the feeling.
 you can and will get better, some people will take a lot longer than others. your brain has learnt this habit and its about learning to re training yourself out of it. meditation is something that should be adopted regularly also. If you're in the hard stages of derealisation, stay very distracted and accept this feeling. you will get better.


I’ve been feeling like this for months and i asked my mom for therapy and she doesn’t seem to care :(

i_need_a_life_fr lol ty i literally feel nothing i wish i could feel again or feel better jk

Rotten Angel I’m sorry it isn’t helping :(

Why not im at therapie now and it doesnt help so im just trying to life with it maybe you can ask again or someone different😔

Rotten Angel I love ur pfp and I tried but she doesn’t really listen at all

i_need_a_life_fr lol i have it to just try to talk to her


Okay. Now I understand all of this. I would always feel numb and whatever that word was (derealization??) whenever i went into haunted houses where there’s flashing lights and smoke machines. My vision would get weird and that’s the only way I could explain it. the only way to tell others how I felt was “I felt like i wasn’t me” and that sounds insane but now I know i’m not alone and that’s very comforting


When I watch other people really understand what someone else is talking about and be able to give such intelligent answers like they know what is going on. Because I never can do this! I can’t follow what they are saying.This feels like a little bit like this


When I was younger I has weird days where I felt like this and like I was dreaming and my mum used to get annoyed because I was begging to go home when we went out


Have you every had something like a blury tunnel vision,  while everything slowly goes numb. And waking up from this time to time and thinking you were sleep or some type of dashivu but you were awake the whole time with a plain face and eye just staring ahead and your body is in autopilot.


I experience this alot but i wonder if it's just sleep deprivation/depression/stress. I dissociate alot but don't even realise it or know if I really am or not.<br>Like I'm afraid to even drive because of it.

I experience this alot but i wonder if it's just sleep deprivation/depression/stress. I dissociate alot but don't even realise it or know if I really am or not.
Like I'm afraid to even drive because of it.


My sister was diagnosed with this and this gave me hope that she can get better, thank you.


I know that this is an old video but.. this isn’t a constant state for me but happens when I’m anxious .. like heavily.. I had no idea that it was a thing .. I’m glad I know now.


summer of 2017 some stuff happened and i remember being at a cookout and it was night time and i was in the pool and the moon was full and it was shining on the water and i was just staring at the reflections and i felt like i was actually in a dream and i would stare at the moon and it freaked my sister out and she asked if i was ok and i just started crying randomly and it was very weird. i felt like nothing was real. now i know it was just me coping with whatever happened that summer lol. that was the only experience i’ve ever had though.


I feel like everything isn’t as real as it used to be, like “oh really, this is it?”


I have a condition that makes me feel like I'm watching myself through a screen I can't rll explain it but all I can say is that my eyes feel like there inside my head and when I get it it's hard to show emotion and it's like Im not in in my body like I'm on autopilot


I get this feeling when i am in a crowded place which gives me anxiety


I get This under pressure or when my hearts beating really fast and things are happening fast, it’s like my heart and head is just like, fuck that I’m out of here


This is so hard to believe that I am not the only one who going  threw this


I'm really scared now because i feel like i have this, i've been feeling this way for over 2 years and always thought it would go away but it hasn't. And i want to ask for help and stop feeling this way like i'm not living at all but i don't know how.


Do you guys also expirience deja vu very often but in a bit different way? Its sounds weird (ill try to explain as easy as i can) so deja vu - something happened or you dreamed about it and you think it happened again/or dream got real, but after few seconds you cannot bring back the memory or the „proof” that it happened/you dreamed about it, even tho few second ago you were pretty sure about this feeling


I don't know if this can happen temporarily but I was talking to my family and I found out we went to Disney World about four years ago and I wasn't able to fully remember that trip... I know, I was really surprised because it wasn't a long time ago but I can barely remember what happened and I just remember the pool of the hotel, not the room or what happened on that trip, just like an old dream. I don't really suffer of this symptoms often but I can deduct that it happened because I was struggling with coming out... You know <b>coff</b> gayyy lol So my dad didn't take it to well so probably there were really uncomfortable parts of that trip so my brain decided to just make all that experience really blurry and confusing to me hahaha I'm really impressed of how brain can react in really uncommon ways.

I don't know if this can happen temporarily but I was talking to my family and I found out we went to Disney World about four years ago and I wasn't able to fully remember that trip... I know, I was really surprised because it wasn't a long time ago but I can barely remember what happened and I just remember the pool of the hotel, not the room or what happened on that trip, just like an old dream. I don't really suffer of this symptoms often but I can deduct that it happened because I was struggling with coming out... You know *coff* gayyy lol So my dad didn't take it to well so probably there were really uncomfortable parts of that trip so my brain decided to just make all that experience really blurry and confusing to me hahaha I'm really impressed of how brain can react in really uncommon ways.


Like you’re watching your life go by fast


Holy shit I didn’t know anyone else felt like this too 😭😭😭 fuck I’ve had it for 6 years


I’m afraid I’ll never really feel alive. It makes me wonder if there is any point in living if I feel dead most of the time. <br>I hate this and I hate that I haven’t even been diagnosed with it and no one understands and I’m just done. I’m done.

I’m afraid I’ll never really feel alive. It makes me wonder if there is any point in living if I feel dead most of the time.
I hate this and I hate that I haven’t even been diagnosed with it and no one understands and I’m just done. I’m done.


Oh my God dodie, i didn't know this was a thing... I think I need to see someone...


Try lsd or mushrooms :) I feel like they are a potential real ‘treatment’ you said you were looking for. Derealization has everything to do with your perception of reality, and psychedelics have the chance to change your perception in a profound and deep level that goes beyond understanding. I would be disappointed if anyone reading this were to disregard it in favour of confirmation bias of your own beliefs. Psychedelics allow you to experience something human animal human behaviour does not in a way that can potentially change your life


I don't think I had exactly what you have but when I went on holiday to Spain for a month I had this sense that everything wasn't really real and there was like a lighter tint to everything but I thought it was just the heat when we cane back it didnt really go and I didn't listen to anything said in school. This went on for about 3 years before I became a bit more aware of my surroundings. However I went on holiday when I was about 9. When I went to secondary school I was closed off and dazed for about half a year before I made friends and starting becoming more aware


You're an introvert like me, I had a dream one time like that I thought I was awake but I was literally sleeping. But I would like to sleep next to you, you're pretty


Yeahhh I deal with that a lot to, I usually scratch something rough or count the colors and textures in the room to help ground myself ghgh


This is an actual codition??? When I was younger and was going through some stuff I sometimes felt like I was dreaming but it was SO extremely uncomfortable. I talked to some of my friends and my mom about it but they thought I was lying


I have chronic  Dissociation Syndrome. I've always refused Prozac. I can't stand the idea of being all dressed up and nowhere to go. In my heart, I will go down with this ship unless an anchor presents herself. I can not focus due to being ugly, and too ugly for any anchor (as far as she is concerned). Living in a bell jar is no way to exist.


Man thats depressing to hear lol. I think i may have a little bit of the derealization. I feel very diconnected from things but not depressed? So this explanation would make a lot of sense. Like i cant dance at parties or feel involved with anything. I just constantly feel alienated. The only thing that seems to help me is music and conversing 1on1 or in small groups with people. But that cant be done all the time and i struggle with the vision stuff as well and there doesnt seem to be a fix for that other than just waiting for it to end. I hope you feel better doddle, heres to better times 🥂


The movie thug really freaked me out I thought I was the only one who experiences this😭


Even if it doesn't fix things in the ways you want to talking therapy can help regardless as you get to speak about things and learn coping skills for it. So you could still feel like unreal and dreamy but you will now have skills to deal with it so you can have a normal happy healthy life. <br>I do hope CBT helps fix it but even if it doesn't there's skills you can learn from it that can help you cope and that will give you a significantly better quality of life than you have now so please keep in mind that even if it's not a full sucess it's still able to help and be somewhat sucessful. Also your therapist may work with you for a few weeks and say "I think x therapy might be better for you, I could talk with my colleague who's a x therapist and see if they think it would help and if so you could be transferred to them." So starting therapy regardless of results is ALWAYS a good thing. Good luck.

Even if it doesn't fix things in the ways you want to talking therapy can help regardless as you get to speak about things and learn coping skills for it. So you could still feel like unreal and dreamy but you will now have skills to deal with it so you can have a normal happy healthy life.
I do hope CBT helps fix it but even if it doesn't there's skills you can learn from it that can help you cope and that will give you a significantly better quality of life than you have now so please keep in mind that even if it's not a full sucess it's still able to help and be somewhat sucessful. Also your therapist may work with you for a few weeks and say "I think x therapy might be better for you, I could talk with my colleague who's a x therapist and see if they think it would help and if so you could be transferred to them." So starting therapy regardless of results is ALWAYS a good thing. Good luck.


I have that too it’s called an addiction


Sometimes it's like dropping a roll of toilet paper, if the roll of toilet paper was time, and everything unrolls and you don't know what happened to the last four hours all of a sudden. Or you wash your hair twice and brush it three times in one morning because you couldn't remember if you already did that, or if you did it yesterday. I think it can turn you into a placid and vulnerable person sometimes, I'm slow to ever get angry, and possibly feel more at peace with bad things that happen to me, at least compared to other people I know.


I CLICKED ON THIS IMMIDEATLY BECAUSE ME TOO GIRL


I uh. Didn’t know this was a disorder. Now I know I have that.


i've felt like this since my eating disorder in 2016<br>fuck

i've felt like this since my eating disorder in 2016
fuck


That's called daydreaming. I have it too


Is it normal to have your brain just forget what just happened. Like you just had a conversation with your friend...you blink...bam! That memory is gone. Or when you just kinda sit there....and your mind makes you feel like you are in a videogame or a dream. Like when you realize that you're are just dreaming when you have a nightmare...My brain will be like "you can do anything, there is not consequences!". Is this common for people


i’ve been so detached from reality i thought i died


Actually if you’re outside for a long time and go inside usually for everyone they also see black specs but after they go inside but it goes away shortly


I just thought it was normal... Ha... I would always laugh at myself. And try to touch my surroundings, but I could never register if I was dreaming or not. My head floats lol


I get a bit like this but it’s more like I’m in a bubble and I don’t feel real and it’s really hard to connect with people because they feel like they are on another planet lol. It’s just really weird and scary tbh :(


wait shit maybe this is what I've been experiencing? I only feel like this very very rarely in my day to day life, but almost every time I go far outside my routine, like go to a concert or an event or travel to a new city I feel like it's not real? I just feel really disconnected and I struggle to remember things and focus on what's happening and it's so frustrating, but I didn't think it was actually a thing? I usually get pretty stressed out by these situations, so it makes sense.. maybe I should talk to someone. I guess I just thought it was normal.. or I just didn't think too much about it, because I'm so used to it.

Almu Canta yeah, that makes sense! Maybe that’s what’s happening


I always try and talk to my mom about this but she doesn’t believe me and has no idea what I’m talking about


Have you considered Ayahuasca? I really feel it will help this!


i can't remember things very well and when i do it usually feels like it wasn't me doing that or like i was floating in that memory?? it's like i can see the memory clearly but theres a thick black barrier on the outside as if i'm watching from a cinema, and sometimes when i remember things i see my face and my body as if i'm watching from outside my body?
another thing is like i just can't remember things like certain people coming over last year or going out to the theme park that one time, my family and friends tell me about it and get confused when i don't remember.
can someone help me? is this what she has? when she's talking about it it feels really similar because i feel like i'm living in a simulation or that the people around me aren't real and i'll suddenly get super nervous around them
am i just experiencing something different or is it the same or am i just being weird?? please help


so what’s it like when ur sleeping, do u think you’re still awake??


Meditation helps me to focus on the present moment. Maybe it’ll help you too?


Imagine when you die the store manager walks up to you, takes off the headset and asks “so, how was it?”


This is why I don't drive, I couldn't forgive myself if I spaced out and hurt anyone. I'm hoping for the best with my diet change and eventually I will dive into Quantum Hypnosis to help cure it completely


Yeah I have that since I'm 13 years old. I'm 35 now. Basically just wasting my life and waiting for it to be over.

raiBK just checking in on you, hoping you are doing well. Let me know?


i don’t have that disorder but i do feel like that in public places like beaches, parties, parks, or anything with a lot of people. it’s so weird and a while after it happens, i might forget everything that has happened


Woah. I thought it was just me! I didn't even know this condition was a condition. I'm so slow. 😂 But wow, I'm kinda speechless.


Wait but what if i have it and i just think its normal?
Sometimes when i went to swimming pools it was always very steamy there and alot of times i felt like i was dreaming
could that just be it being steamy or wut?


I really cannot imagine what you are going through. Whenever I remember my dreams (which is kind of rare), it feels like reality.

thats not what dp/dr or dissociation is....


hi dodie! firstly, this video made me cry because well i’m a very emotional human being and because i am really mad at myself. i’m just gonna rant in this comment so feel free to skip this and go get some water and food. so, i’m axel, i’m 15, 16 in 6 days, and im not diagnosed with anything. but i feel like i should. i’ve been feeling very depressed and suicidal since primary school and getting through life is a really difficult thing for me to do. at first i thought it was just me being in my edgy teen phase, like my friends and family would say, but i knew something wasn’t right. i figured that i was a transgender ftm about 3 years ago but i’ve known it since i discovered what gender was and i thought that was it, that’s why i wasn’t feeling “enough”. but hey it wasn’t it. i wouldn’t call it “depression” because again, i am not diagnosed and i’ve never seen a therapist (i really should but i’m afraid to) but i’m not just sad or anything. it’s not sadness, it’s numbness. it’s not crying and getting frustrated because of your lack of feelings. it’s having too much feelings but they’re so big and overwhelming they become nothing. it’s nothingness with everything at the same time. it’s not wanting to get up, it’s not wanting to wake up. ever. it’s so much more but it’s nothing at the same time. it’s hard to live. <br>i don’t remember exactly what happened or when it happened, maybe i was just overthinking like always, but i remember just a click. simple as that. and then, nothing. even less than i already was. i just spaced out. like that. the weirdest thing was to think about it and be like “it was always there, i don’t remember feeling real. i don’t remember what it felt like”. and i lost connection, i feel like floating but being too heavy to fly. i remember not recognizing my friend and being scared of my own reflection; screaming on the inside with a terrified face on the outside. “i remember” yeah right, like if i could remember stuff. it’s weird. i forget. everything and nothing. mostly everything. when something happens, it takes 0.2 seconds for me to forget and be like “did i just imagine that or did it really happen”. it’s worst with sounds. god the sounds. it’s scary. i don’t feel like i’m there or real either. nothing feels real, even if i try my hardest to grip onto reality, it doesn’t work. the click won’t happen again and i hate it. i hate it because it’s awful to feel like i’m just watching a movie all the time, or dreaming, or just looking at someone else’s life. it’s awful to look at reality like i would look at a video game. it’s scary to think that everything is not real because i’m always so angry and i feel like i could do something bad and just be like “yeah but it’s not real, right?”. but i hate it too because i don’t want to get better. in a way ? i don’t want to feel again because i don’t want to get better. i don’t want to be here, to be alive and to enjoy things that i will lose one day. what’s so important about living and being happy if everything will just die with you or through your journey? i don’t know. i’m lost and mad at myself for thinking that way. god. sorry for ranting that much. if you ever see this, thank you for everything you do and now i know that i’m not alone and will never be. even if you’re not dodie or you don’t experience those things, i still care about you and i will never feel alone. have a good day/night everyone, thank you and sorry again for writing all this stuff aha.

hi dodie! firstly, this video made me cry because well i’m a very emotional human being and because i am really mad at myself. i’m just gonna rant in this comment so feel free to skip this and go get some water and food. so, i’m axel, i’m 15, 16 in 6 days, and im not diagnosed with anything. but i feel like i should. i’ve been feeling very depressed and suicidal since primary school and getting through life is a really difficult thing for me to do. at first i thought it was just me being in my edgy teen phase, like my friends and family would say, but i knew something wasn’t right. i figured that i was a transgender ftm about 3 years ago but i’ve known it since i discovered what gender was and i thought that was it, that’s why i wasn’t feeling “enough”. but hey it wasn’t it. i wouldn’t call it “depression” because again, i am not diagnosed and i’ve never seen a therapist (i really should but i’m afraid to) but i’m not just sad or anything. it’s not sadness, it’s numbness. it’s not crying and getting frustrated because of your lack of feelings. it’s having too much feelings but they’re so big and overwhelming they become nothing. it’s nothingness with everything at the same time. it’s not wanting to get up, it’s not wanting to wake up. ever. it’s so much more but it’s nothing at the same time. it’s hard to live.
i don’t remember exactly what happened or when it happened, maybe i was just overthinking like always, but i remember just a click. simple as that. and then, nothing. even less than i already was. i just spaced out. like that. the weirdest thing was to think about it and be like “it was always there, i don’t remember feeling real. i don’t remember what it felt like”. and i lost connection, i feel like floating but being too heavy to fly. i remember not recognizing my friend and being scared of my own reflection; screaming on the inside with a terrified face on the outside. “i remember” yeah right, like if i could remember stuff. it’s weird. i forget. everything and nothing. mostly everything. when something happens, it takes 0.2 seconds for me to forget and be like “did i just imagine that or did it really happen”. it’s worst with sounds. god the sounds. it’s scary. i don’t feel like i’m there or real either. nothing feels real, even if i try my hardest to grip onto reality, it doesn’t work. the click won’t happen again and i hate it. i hate it because it’s awful to feel like i’m just watching a movie all the time, or dreaming, or just looking at someone else’s life. it’s awful to look at reality like i would look at a video game. it’s scary to think that everything is not real because i’m always so angry and i feel like i could do something bad and just be like “yeah but it’s not real, right?”. but i hate it too because i don’t want to get better. in a way ? i don’t want to feel again because i don’t want to get better. i don’t want to be here, to be alive and to enjoy things that i will lose one day. what’s so important about living and being happy if everything will just die with you or through your journey? i don’t know. i’m lost and mad at myself for thinking that way. god. sorry for ranting that much. if you ever see this, thank you for everything you do and now i know that i’m not alone and will never be. even if you’re not dodie or you don’t experience those things, i still care about you and i will never feel alone. have a good day/night everyone, thank you and sorry again for writing all this stuff aha.

It actually does sound like depression in a more severe state. When deeply depressed we can feel numb to things, I see it as my mind's way of trying to protect me from feelings that are too painful - hence the simultaneous feelings that there is just too much emotion. There is not "just" depression, depression can be extremely debilitating. In common usage it is probably seen as something milder that everyone experiences at some point but know that that's not the case.

Axel.... ying and yang - if nothing matters then EVERYTHING matters. You choose which one you want. Life is absolutely beautiful because it has an end. We are here to experience and enjoy.

Check out Dr Jordan Peterson’s work on finding meaning in your life. His work is incredible.

RØSE good luck to you as well, i’m glad i’m not alone in this. 🌟

wow, i feel this way all the time and it's so frustrating because i don't know what it is like it's definitely more than just having anxiety and depression. but yeah idk, just know that you're not the only one feeling this way. hopefully we'll both figure it out and all this pain will come to an end. good luck!

I understand why you wouldn't want to get better or feel real again. It is an extremely daunting thing to go back to; but still would be so wonderful, right?
I am sure that since you feel like you're watching someone else's life or watching a video game, you'll know what all is possible for this amazing and strong person to achieve. I hope, with all my heart, that you'll realise how many quests you can complete with that amazingly messed up brain of yours. I hope you'll find the push to try out therapy sometime and I'm sure it will work out if you decide to give it your best.
May you always have a better day than the bad ones I know you've had. xx

libbycatherine thank you so much that is really sweet of you! i’ll definitely check her out, thank you again. take care ❤

hey happy (early) birthday:) sorry you're going through all of that... maybe check out therapist kati morton if you haven't already? she's got some vids on grounding techniques that might help and a whole bunch of other things. take care<3


Hey, I don't know if you've heard about this, but LENS Neurofeedback might be an option for you!  It's still a new field and isn't recognised by the NHS at the moment, but it's been proven to work better than a placebo for all kinds of things.
It can be hard to find a practitioner, but there is a woman called Dr. Tamsin Arnold who works Fridays at The Bath Practice (in Bath).  I see her then most weeks and I can testify she is absolutely lovely.  She also works in London as well, but I don't know when (sorry).  Most of her work is predominantly with children, but if you reach out I'm sure she won't be opposed to working with you.

Just a suggestion!


okay, can someone help me? sometimes, when i start doing something that's really unusual/new/a bit scary for me, i get this split-second sensation in my head that makes me feel like i don't have control over anything, like i'm frozen. it also can happen when i sing to myself (lol) and hit high notes (maybe, not sure). does anyone know what this is?? anyone else experience it??

I think is the same as Deseralization. I don't actually know, but sometimes i have that feeling too like a snap for a second and all the sudden you feel like you're not there, like you're not controlling anything.


Every time i feel better something pulls me down and im worse every time idk what to do

Elias C talk to your doctor about ketamine therapy


Had this for 2 years, ongoing. It feels like nothing is real and i can't connect w anything or anyone. All of my interests are gone and I never feel like myself. I can't enjoy anything, because every second of every day I feel disconnected. I try to talk to people about it and they don't understand. They support my getting better but there's nothing they or I can do about it. I've been trying to practice self-love, and it's helped w depression; I've also been going out more, meeting new people, so my anxiety is better too. But I can't seem to shake this off. It's a constant hell and my panic attacks keep continuing. I just want to feel normal again, I'm so tired because of it.

Me too, had exactly two years, it's so hard to live like this, I wish I can go back to normal, I can't learn how I used to, learning is a passion of mine, and with this mind cloud in my way it's so hard. Smh

derealization just like all mental disorders are spiritual things that need to be dealt with spiritually and the only way to do that is through Jesus Christ he can and will set you free if you allow him to. i struggled with this for like 2 weeks but got over it after some prayer it went away, this was a couple of weeks ago if you want to know more just reply to my comment i will be happy to help.

@Marlie Tandoc It's also very comforting seeing so many people w the same problems as me. It makes me feel less alone and I hope more people know that it's normal to have this. It's just a coping mechanism.

@Marlie Tandoc Yes!!! The one good thing about dp;dr is the meditative state and intuition it gives. It's much easier to meditate because you aren't really thinking about much ever. It's like I know things are going to happen before they do and it's helped me become more stable and grounded in myself. It made me realize that certain people and situations make me uncomfotable (and therefore dissociated), and what I need in order to get better. It's not exactly clear yet, but I know I need to repair some damaged parts of myself. I didn't even realize I was so broken and easily triggered by certain things until I started figuring out what dp;dr was and what was causing my panic attacks.

Dam this hit hard because this sounds exactly the same thoughts I had when I was suffering from the derealizarion/dissociation 4 years ago. I remember thinking it also as a living hell that if I don’t ever get better there is no point living. For me it lasted maybe 6 months, and then it just went away. I know that when you’re in that state it’s hard to ever think positively but it does get better for a lot of people. Second thing, is getting the anxiety/panic attacks under control, I found that really exacerbated my issues. Ik it might sound cliche but mindfulness really helped me... you may realize the feeling of dp/dr actually is very similar to meditation/mindfulness (disconnected state, floating feeling), but what is different is the ANXIETY. For instance using mindfulness techniques I would be able to stop the panic attack and instead focus on things like “weird my hands don’t feel like my own” or “I feel like I’m floating above myself”, but not treat it as a bad thing but as an interesting thing that just passes by. Like a “oh that’s kind of cool, I guess” and over time the symptoms went away... for some it takes longer than others but don’t worry it will pass trust me, but with some changes in thinking about your own thinking and as you said immersing yourself with friends/activities can likely accelerate the process.

I forget everything within seconds of doing it, literally I could be talking to someone and then completely space out and forget who they are, who I am, what year it is, or what planet I'm living on. I never realized how wonderful normality was until I experienced dp;dr. It's a living hell.


omg. i didn’t know this existed. this makes sm sense


This happens to me when Im around more than 2 people at a time, bright lights at night , flashing lights, and other random times. I feel like my brain is shaking, and I also can't focus on one thing. I feel that if I just blink, the feeling will go away, like waking from a dream, but it doesn't work.
 When you described how you felt, I found thats exactly how I felt.
I've told my parents, but they just ignore it when I bring it up ;-;

my best friend is the only person ive told yet, and im so thankful she never gets tired of me asking "am i shaking??" i never am, but it always feels like it...

Abby Marie Not all parents are accepting or helpful when it comes to these things. And you don't need a diagnosis to seek treatment unless your insurance requires it, in which case you get the diagnosis via treatment in the first place.

Nataly Pourkesali you really need to continue to talk to your parents about this, if you actually have this it’s a good idea to get treatment.

I know it sounds weird but I makes me happy when other people talk about this/describe it because it helps me know I'm not alone. I feel the same way and my parents are in denial I guess. They think It'll pass or I'm just being weird or something


yasss<br>I've been waiting for another way to procrastinate

yasss
I've been waiting for another way to procrastinate


Whenever I’m high I feel like this. Like exactly. I don’t like it.


This sounds extremely familiar and though everything sounds like it could be about me I hope it won't be.
I am still in highschool and I have exreme difficulty with remebring anything the teachers have thaught that hour.
Though I honestly try and do work hard, my parents seem to think I am just lazy, as my grades are dropping, but I honestly do not remeber the things I have learned about for weeks prior


The fuzzy specks thing happens to me all the time it sucks and I’m not saying that it is as bad as yours probably is but just saying


I genuinely think I have this, I feel like I can never properly concentrate on things and I keep sort of forgetting that I exist? Idk tho

Neptune .png Yes definitely! My partner and I just stick to "I'm dissociating" rather than describing details so we know where we're at and can be mindful to it. If I think about it too much it triggers it.

Nature and creating things, like drawing helped me. It proves to me that I am real I created something that wasn't there before.

Captain Ford before seeing a professional you have to be aware you have something...

Mim Montague Same. I have already wrote this once but, forgotten what I was gonna say off your comment fully. So, yeah concentration is hard some times. I have NEVER in my entire life felt like I was real or anyone around me are either. And one of the things Dodie said as well relates to me. I see dots of blur sometimes but, never blanking out or anything. Idk.

Captain Ford PLEASE DON'T SELF DIAGNOSE.

See a professional instead of <b>assuming</b> please

See a professional instead of *assuming* please

Mim Montague yep, same. i think you definitely have it, seek treatment if you can whether that's alternative routes or pharmacuetical - whatever works for you ❤


Edit: Quick note, I know that Dodies is a lot worse, and this probably only happens because im sick.

I have had something like this happen to me? Not exactly though. The only things that happen to me are these;
So often, when im sick, I feel like this. Very rarely it happens when im not sick. Basically what happens is that my memory is not as good, so I might ask a question twice. It feels like my head is super light. I also start talking loudly because everything sounds far away.
Now that I write this down I don't think its as normal as I thought before...
But it doesn't really change the way I see things, and its not bad either. Whenever that happens i always start mumbling or humming because everything sounds so weird XD


Omg I have a very similar things except it’s not 24/7 for me


I know being popular youtubers doesn’t mean you’re friends by any means. That being said...
Please do a nail painting and face masks with Daniel Howell where you talk about therapy and mental illness
kthanks ✌🏻❤

peaches preach im tired of phannies bringing them up on nearly every one of dodies and other youtubers videos

i agree with peaches (cof cof p r e a c h) but like can we not blame the people they are fans of? its not dans fault

This person brought up Dan because he suffers from mental health problems and has recently spoken out about it. I agree that it would be great to hear about them both discussing what they have been through.

I'm sure they're not some fan that thinks everything revolves around Dan and Phil. I understand that the phandom is pretty much everywhere but this comment wasn't something completely irrelevant

Preach, peaches. I don't care about the request, but not on this fucking video I mean c o m e  o n

peaches thank you, I love them but honestly their fans sometimes need to realize not everything revolves around them

Only if they're good enough friends that they're comfortable being open and vulnerable with each other! Otherwise it's not a good idea.

Juce // i'd love it if people would not bring up dan or phil on every goddamn video on this platform, especially when the video is about something as serious as someone's personal experiences with mentall illnesses


What if you’re not dreaming 🤔 but see the other side... 🤔🤔🤔


When you said about your vision it felt like a whole lot made sense, but Im gonna stick to smoking weed and blaming it on that


This is very  helpful as a young teen with depression and very confusing life style these type of things help a lot I don't think  I have derealizartion but I'm might have depersonalization dose anyone know what I'm talking about plzhlp


Guess I have to go to the doctor now because FUCK i definitely have this


Hi I’m poppy and I think I’m dreaming all the time but I’m too scared to go to the doctors or tell anyone nice to meet you ok bye

Maria Winchester thankyou so much, I’ll try I don’t know when but I will

Try to ask someone for help, it'll make things better. And if they don't believe you or don't take you seriously, try again with someone else until you find someone. Don't be scared, I promise you'll get through this! I send you the best of lucks :)

hi poppy i'm charlie i am similar and i send you luck


i have random moments where i feel really dizzy a lot and ill space out of reality and when i come back in my vision is all blurry and i feel like i'm going to faint. there are also times where i can just be sitting somewhere and everything is quiet and dark and makes me feel very nauseous and i don't know how to handle it... is this the same as derealization??

Jocelyn Wiebe exactly! like sometimes it's because i'm sick or feeling symptoms but a majority of it it'll just be like any other day

this happens to me too i will just be sitting still and then the room starts to spin and i feel nauseous. i didnt know this could be a part of derealization but maybe it is!

jenna vanellia i thought that this was just me holy moly


IS THIS WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?! I didn't even know this was a thing.....I thought if I just ignored it it would just go away.... oml

Same! I just ignored it. I just figured I was weird or something. I didn’t even feel particularly anxious during these times either that’s why I didn’t question it.

Same with me!!! It started happening to me when I transferred to a new school!!

SAME!!! I've been dealing with this since I was in 4th grade and always wrote it off as an anxiety attack but it never fully felt as though it was an anxiety attack. This is all so new to me!


OMG WTH I JUST BOUGHT THAT BOOK AND NOW YOUTUBE RECOMMENDED THIS TO ME. Why am I being stalked?


I have depersonalization but nobody believes me

Bloody psychiatrists don't even know what it is. Or they pretend they don't know what it is because they haven't found a way to manage it! I feel your pain friend.

You can only defeat or overcome it with mind power

@Raley Wilson brain scans arent going to do anything darling, this is a mind disorder

Isabelle Rollins I also have this <br>I got a MRI and EEG and they said that I’m fine but I’m not fine

Isabelle Rollins I also have this
I got a MRI and EEG and they said that I’m fine but I’m not fine

I'm sorry but diagnoses are shit anyway, they are only existant because they NAME a problem. They dont discuss how to SOLVE the "problem". They give medications for solutions which I find extremely western and wrong. Pills usually dont work like some people think they do. These arent brain disorders these are conditionings of the mind, which is an entity separate from the brain which is only physical.

@ᴏ ɴ ɪ ʙ ᴜ ᴛ ᴛ stop.

@ᴏ ɴ ɪ ʙ ᴜ ᴛ ᴛ stop.

@Funny Fails And Skits I wouldn't worry man it's a thing that happens just try to do things that make you feel again maybe it's a sign of stagnation in your daily life I have those feelings too it's about actually being way more aware than others I imagine you see things that dont catch other people's eyes not that your hallucinating just that you see way more detail than others

Dynqsty if you have depersonalisation/derealisation you would know it’s not self diagnosis as they are symptoms unless you have the disorder

I’ve been to several doctors and they don’t even know what I’m talking about. They say I’m fine but I tell them IM NOT FINE! I hate it so much because nobody understands. I thought I was the only one that gos through this but then I found this video and I feel a lot more comfortable!

Its just you waking up to the lie weve been told, ever heard of the "age of deception"? Were in it!

I got it today because I had an anxiety attack while beeing high and I felt like I'm losing control of myself and that I'm going to die now I'm so glad that I found this👀

@existential dread What about if person x has been feeling down for years and they are afraid to see anyone or tell anyone. Is it just good still let them tell themself that they are fine? Or that they should not even do any research what would be their problem?<br>I do repeat myself: sometimes its Your kinda only option to understand what the hell is going on, and everyone Who is doing it for attention.. What is so beautiful about being ill? Why the hell you have need to feel so special and just seek attention because of that?

@existential dread What about if person x has been feeling down for years and they are afraid to see anyone or tell anyone. Is it just good still let them tell themself that they are fine? Or that they should not even do any research what would be their problem?
I do repeat myself: sometimes its Your kinda only option to understand what the hell is going on, and everyone Who is doing it for attention.. What is so beautiful about being ill? Why the hell you have need to feel so special and just seek attention because of that?

ᴏ ɴ ɪ ʙ ᴜ ᴛ ᴛ

ᴏ ɴ ɪ ʙ ᴜ ᴛ ᴛ self diagnosing can be extremely bad and cause actual mental health problems if you’re wrong. If you can’t go to see someone do not diagnose yourself and stop there. You eventually need to see someone to confirm.

@ᴏ ɴ ɪ ʙ ᴜ ᴛ ᴛ yes but self diagnosing is bad in certain cases (like if you're doing it to feel special)

@Dynqsty sometimes you just dont have other options than self diagnose, for example if no one is taking you seriosly and you know something is wrong or you are just too scared to go see anyone, or it might cost money and you dont have it

ᴏ ɴ ɪ ʙ ᴜ ᴛ ᴛ

You should see a specialist and get diagnosticed, and then people will more easily, it can also be something else and all, that's what people might think

Maya Maya   I can sadly relate and I’m very sorry because nobody deserves that shit.


I may have this---- holy potato I think I kinda do


Omg yess I have this. Mine was due to me trying out weed for the first time. It was so horrible that my brain was like nope you’re staying like this forever. I was so scared and freaked out because I saw everyone around me differently. The faces I once knew were a lot more scary. I was so terrified that I screamed out “I want to die! I don’t want to feel this anymore! Let me die!” I was taken to the ER and the psychiatrist told me that I have drug induced Derealization. While I was told that my heart sank. I had a million questions. What is that? Can I get rid of it? Can I take some pills to numb it? Can I ever be normal again? I researched a lot as soon as I was sent home. I felt so alone I felt like the people I once knew had changed into other people. I was surrounded by strangers. My mom is my mom. But there was something off. It’s like  having an oculus on you at all time. Everything seems so fake and unreal. It’s been a year and I’m used to it now. When I have a panic attack my Derealization spikes up like hell. It’s still so scary but I’m happy that a person I watch a lot has the same issue. :) ❤

lore rodriguez I did smoke afterwards and holy shit it was worse I don’t know if it’s just me. My friend had dp and he was fine after a month or so. And he decided to smoke and he was perfectly fine. I stay away from smoking now. I just take hemp pills to calm down when I need to. Makes me mellow out a bit.

I'm so sorry that really sucks. That happened to me, i got drug induced depersonalization and started getting derealization episodes. it was the worst. turns out i have anxiety, even though some days i feel it more, i train my brain to be more positive when i get scared or anxious. about the dp/dr thing tho, i've tried to ignore it and i dont even feel it anymore. i get slight feeling of it when i think of it, but it helps so much when you distract yourself and try to "get involved" and get "into reality" if that makes sense. im wondering if you smoked after that tho, because i want to, at least for experience, but im scared of that happeneing and doing the whole cycle of getting better (but longer and worse) again.  good luck to you, though!!

Unknown Bih yeah my experience was exactly like that. At the moment it just feels like I’m watching my life in a movie. It’s just sooo cloudy and dreamlike.

I'm so sorry that you feel like that all the time. The last time I smoked weed I felt like that, it felt like I was constantly just waking up, having to remember myself that I was stoned, that my anxiety was just because I thought something could go wrong. I felt everything too intensely, and slow, and also had a sensation of being an expectator, like watching a movie, but not being into reality at all. It was certainly a bad  experience, and not being able to break out from it sounds horrible, I hope you get out of it some day.

kay Steele I think mine will be forever. It’s almost 2 years that I’ve had it now

Kristal R yess and thank you. I’ve been ignoring it and that seems to help

yeah its difficult but you need to stay calm and eventually your body will be more comfortable with it and you wont feel it as much, although im still dealing with it, talking to someone can help but you should be cautious because sometimes it may make it feel worse or more frequent because you keep thinking about it and it feels more present because you have to keep bringing it up to talk about. i think ignoring it helps for me, i am glad you seem to be doing better

kay Steele I did by just simply ignoring it. If I give it attention I’ll start feeling it even more. I feel it 24/7 but it’s not scary anymore. If I’m watching a movie and I look up and realize I’m not a character in the movie freaks me the fuck out it’s like I was taken to a new world once I look away. It’s been 2 years now and it only gets very bad when I have a panic attack. They gave me Klonopin to ease my anxiety.


VeraWhiskers Same here. Too much, unfortunately


It’s horrible. I had it for about three years & I remember the first day I felt normal again. I was sitting in McDonald’s drive thru and I called my mom balling I was so happy. It got to where I couldn’t even smoke weed anymore because it FREAKED ME OUT. Still to this day I can’t smoke weed because it brings the feeling back. Btw it all started after I smoked the fake crap k2 synthetic weed. 🤦🏻♀ yeah I know I’m stupid. But I was young and peer pressured into trying it. Worst high ever.


Try and NDRI and not an SSRI! NDRI's target your dopamine, not your serotonin. I've been diagnosed with a bad case of double depression, with major depression coming to visit often, and I often feel like I'm dreaming or that I'm not a real person when it gets really rough. SSRI's never, EVER have worked for me. I went on bupropion (Wellbutrin) and it's changed my way of life. 10/10!

social engeneering.1 love world system pls help by realising this.


I feel like im alone and the only one who is real in this world and when i die the world just stop existing


Been feeling like this for 9 months I hate it I pray everyday to GOD to make me feel normal again ... this happened because I got laced with PCP it traumatized me my life feels like a dream eversince I hate it I’m always anxious, dizzy , sleepy , heart pounding, short of breathe ... God just take me . Fucklife


This comment section is the perfect example of "HYSTERIA!"<br>WOW! SMH

This comment section is the perfect example of "HYSTERIA!"
WOW! SMH


oh my GOD what the fuck. <br>i thought everyone had the whole vision thing. sometimes you go inside from a really bright summer day really quick and ur eyes won’t adjust or wtfever but i stg damn near every single time i stand up from sitting or bending or crouching ALL SENSES GO BLACK & NONEXISTENT??????? jfc.

oh my GOD what the fuck.
i thought everyone had the whole vision thing. sometimes you go inside from a really bright summer day really quick and ur eyes won’t adjust or wtfever but i stg damn near every single time i stand up from sitting or bending or crouching ALL SENSES GO BLACK & NONEXISTENT??????? jfc.


I just wondering how you got treatment of this

This condition is caused by SSRI's, SNRI, Antipsychotics and Benzodiazepines so if you are taking any of those... The treatment should be to stop before they become worse for you unless you are treating a condition outside of anxiety and depression


I also have this kind of condition but not from the same issues. But from Anemia. When my Anemia strikes i feel like i was dreaming, floating, everything i see is a dream. I wake up still feeling sleepy and hoping that a cold water splash on my face would wake me up. It didn't work.
(If you don't know what Anemia is. Anemia is a a lack of hemoglobin in your body. Usually also cause by lack of iron)
When my anemia strikes:
1. I feel like i'm floating
2. My vision is blurry
3. My hearing is also kinda like late to digest in 0.5 seconds
4. Very hard to concentrate
5. Always feeling exhausted and tired
6. Slow to understand something
7. When i'm being pinch, the reaction of the pain comes slow..

So yeah, it's really annoying sometimes cause i can't concentrate and i can't do my day like normally since i am so fatigue. It usually up to 3 weeks , even though i already ate like iron foods such as spinach, red meat, beans, etc. But still slow process.

And you, with the condition like that everyday it's amazing. I know it's very hard, but you pull it all very well. 🤗

Same omg, especially the heartbeat thing


I hate to self diagnose but I think I may have something similar like  sometimes I can’t tell what’s a dream or a memory and sometimes in class I’ll be awake and feel disconnected from myself and it feels like time is going by really fast or slowly and I won’t comprehend anything and when my depressive episodes passed I still didn’t feel right and time is confusing for me I can’t say how long ago I did something or something happened and my vision after going inside is fuzzy and dark even though I can still see and it sometimes lasts a little longer than usual


the explanation is literally so spot on)838?


Is smoking weed making this worse?<br>I feel like i have it since i smoked my first blunts...

Is smoking weed making this worse?
I feel like i have it since i smoked my first blunts...


Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or hesitant. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of ourselves is about to be revealed.


Okay i feel like I'm different than other people and that I'm not normal that i just like think of something OVER AND OVER and its so random it just be too random and when i space out not like in dreaming Its just like Im not in the real world or as i say "in the wrong place" this was happening for me from the age 6 or smaller and I want explanation can anybody explain it for me :(


Wow... Thank you! I never knew what it was that made me feel that way but it’s good to know it MIGHT be derealisation for me as well. Thanks 💛🌞


I get really bad derealization and depersonalization when my depression and anxiety get bad. I have a period of two years where it was bad and I only remember a few things from that period in time. It comes and goes but I found it has gotten a lot better after learning proper ways to hope with my emotions and practicing being present. It’s a process but I hope you are able to feel normal again 💛


I’ve googled how i feel so many times without getting answers. You explain it SO WELL. Thank you for this, I feel less alone and crazy now :)


Dreaming really feels like a nice way to describe it! I am super scared when I start to derealize, it feels more like a nightmare for me. Hoping I can get to a nice dream state!


I learned that I had depersonalization on 2013 and it was the scariest moment of my life. This video is the first time I see someone talk about it on this platform so Thank you so much! I hope we get better eventually :)


hi dodie! i have come back to this video so many times over the years, especially when i feel like there’s no escaping my sucky brain. this video was the first thing that even came close to describing what I had been feeling for months, for years. it made me feel a lot less alone and a “freak” and i’m really grateful for that. thank you 💛


This sounds exactly like how I am, I just generally feel differently than I used to


Thank you so much Dodie! your channel was the first time i finally got clarity and felt understood i literally can relate to everything you are saying- omg this feels so relieving!


i've been watching a bunch of mental illness videos to get an idea of what i could have... thank you for this ❤


Thank you for sharing this. I truly hope you find some relief soon. As an astrology student I must say this immediately sounded like a 12th house or Neptune debilitation (the dream state). Amidst your medical research , you might try consulting an astrologer for possible remedial methods as well. Good luck to you!


thank you for making this video, it's nice to not feel so alone in this


I went through a really rough point when I was around 15ish, I started to dissociate on occassion but it turned into a full on depression when I felt like nothing mattered and nothing was real. I was able to get through it, and eventually I got on meds (which did help a lot) but I really appreciate this video. I had no idea what was happening to me for most of that entire year, and felt so so very alone, so seeing this is really refreshing. I hope you're able to help someone who was in the same situation feel less alone and get some understanding.


Oh that's so crazy cause I use to feel like dreaming when I was a kid, it was such a bad feeling cause I knew I wasn't, I use to cry a lot in that moments. Now it's really rare, but it feels good to know that I'm not the only one.


I sometimes experience similar sensations, and I always get so anxious during it because I feel like I'm losing my vision


I have felt very similar for the last 5 years since my dad passed away.  I haven't known how to describe it except it was like my brain exploded and I haven't been the same since.


i’ve been feeling all of this so much since about 2016, and it’s caused me bad anxiety thinking there was always something wrong with me. i try to talk to others about it but no one gets it, which just makes me freak out more. it comes and goes but it’s always there, everyday. everything you described lines up with exactly what i’ve been through, and i’m happy that i’m not the only one. thank you for shedding light on this, i now know i’m not alone. 🖤


I have spent four years going to the opticians convinced there was something wrong with my eyesight. I knew I struggled with depersonalisation and I usually feel like I'm not really here. I didn't realise the vision problems were part of this. Thank you.


This happens whenever I smoke weed (it can last for days after), as well as sometimes for a few days after drinking alcohol. I have bipolar disorder, but I never thought that that had anything to do with it. I always assumed it was a hangover or a weird side effect of marijuana. Thank you for sharing it’s so good to know I’m not the only one this happens to, I’m sorry you have to deal with it all the time.


FINALLY I’ve never come across someone who has this feeling. I’ve felt this for almost 2 years, non stop. I  wanna bring this up to my doctor to see if I can confirm this, it may help my depression hopefully


I feel you, I used to be housebound due to having agoraphobia (caused by having panic attacks and derealistion) and I'm now back to working almost full-time :-) I still have some moments of derealistion (sometimes multiple times a day) but I came to accept this way of feeling. It won't hurt you and your thoughts will pass too.


We love you know matter what, Dodie ^u^ I mean QUEEN Dodie! You rock, girl!


I have these exact symptoms and I legit thought for the last 3-4 years that I was just nightblind and would never be hydrated enough (even though i'm actually drinking a lot most of the time) and thats why I'm feeling foggy and wasn't able to keep most of my memories but that's making SO MUCH SENSE THANK YOU SO MUCH!! <3


Dodie will never know how much this video changed my life. As I first saw it, i started to search for more informations about this condition... and then i realized that I always had it. For many years i thought i was going crazy, that something is really wrong with me... i can't express how much I'm thankfull for this video


I think I have this as a symptom of my depression and when I’m really stressed, life gets extra difficult because of it. It’s so hard for me to feel in control because the passage of time feels warped so I get even more stressed because I worry about missing assignment deadlines or important dates. Three days can pass and I can literally do nothing because it didn’t feel like the days passed. It’s such an uncomfortable feeling 😟


I went through it several times!
Mindfulness helped me.
And music!
OMD! MUSIC, a quiet room, and ambient light are my best solution!


I think I experienced a bit of depersonalisation last year when I felt really depressed. It only happened a couple of times and lasted like a day each time, but it was honestly just so weird. I felt like I was faking my entire personality and I didn’t feel like I was completely there. It made school kinda difficult.


Just found this and this is really great. I have Depersonalisation Disorder through PTSD. Mine isn’t as intense anymore thankfully after seeking and undergoing intense therapy. But every now and again if I am stressed or tired, it’ll come back.


Thank you so much this has been so helpful especially since I have LHON it really confused me but I found this video very helpful. <br>Thank you once again.

Thank you so much this has been so helpful especially since I have LHON it really confused me but I found this video very helpful.
Thank you once again.


Hey I got this this shit too. It's nice to hear someone else talk about having it. It's honestly kind of hard to feel like things are really real sometimes. I go through episodes about once or twice a month. Especially when I get sick. It's really tough to deal with. But being around people I care about helps a lot.


Thank you so much for addressing this topic. I deal with this as well, and it can be really hard.

derealization just like all mental disorders are spiritual things that need to be dealt with spiritually and the only way to do that is through Jesus Christ he can and will set you free if you allow him to. i struggled with this for like 2 weeks but got over it after some prayer it went away, this was a couple of weeks ago if you want to know more just reply to my comment i will be happy to help.


i think i have this. it happens rarely, but everything you said explained it to a tee. thank you so much for making this video! i used to call it "real life lag"


Have experienced ongoing dissociation   for years. Has kinda been on the back burning as other illness have been taking priority. The floating feeling I especially related to. I also use stem & grounding exercises for to hemp with my Sensory Processing Disorder👁👂


I...I really really feel this. I get these feelings a lot but when I go through periods of major stress my whole life will just feel like a dream, or as if I’m a background character moving through a book or tv show. I didn’t know that it had a name, I thought everyone always felt this way, I’m so relieve do I feel like I might cry right now


This happens to me ALL the time and I was blaming my thyroid!!! Anyone else?


I get this too and mine started when I was 8 years old. I went through multiple traumas that year and I've had it ever since. Now that I know what it is its much more manageable and I know what situations usually trigger it. For me, its the sounds of crowds or fluorescent lighting, or large amounts of stress. Getting enough sleep and food usually can help. It feels like you were watching everything in a TV and then everything is REAL.


I use to have anxiety attacks every time I went out into public and I experienced this often. I also have it at school a lot or driving because I am a new driver so it’s a bit scary.


This happens to me every so often (usually when my mind is over stimulated or something triggers my anxiety) but it reminds me of this one time I pulled an all nighter and then went directly to six flags, rode a bunch of roller coasters, and then had like an out of body experience. It literally felt like a dream. I felt like I was floating, everything was a little blurry and fuzzy, and I felt like I was watching everything from outside of my body. This was because I was sleep deprived, obviously but it’s one situation that I can visually and physically remember, all of my other experiences are sort of gone because usually it’s to cope with anxiety and my mind wants to forget the situation...


Dissociating is so scary. It used to happen to me while driving to school nearly every day


Wow...very brave of you to share such experiences on your channel. I commend you for doing so and find great courage in you doing so. 🤗✌🕉


I didnt even know this was a thing. Thank you for sharing. I can concentrate at all at work, cant hold eyecontact anymore and in many moments i forget if i said my thought out loud or just thought it.. Guess that more an anxiety thing.


Thankful for this video 💕 I’ve had this ever since I experienced my first severe panic attack. I was zoning out really deep into thought, questioning reality and suddenly the lights around me got really bright and my heart started beating so fast I couldn’t see anything and I just felt so weird. I’ve had mostly derealization for the past 2 years now and It’s just weird how it affects you on such a physical note! I’m dizzy all the time now, can’t see properly, memory loss... but anyways it definitely made life harder but it’s getting easier to cope with as well. Stay strong y’all! 💕💕 we’re in this together

@V you sure? The truth will set you free but a lie will keep you in bondage. I'll testify of the Lords healing power, but it's your choice if you want to believe or not. I've shown you the cure whether you don't take it or take it is up to you but I'll recommend the latter.

Other than that i hope you get over this have a blessed day.

Christ's knight im glad that worked for you... but for myself personally there is no correlation and has nothing to do with religion


when my anxiety gets bad ( my anxiety is all about death) I keep thinking what if this is a dream but then I find things around me I can touch,smell,taste etc . It helps keep me present


Thank you so much for this video. Sometimes i think if someday i won't have this condition anymore and how it will feel.


Yup I have this. It’s no fun when you get to work and forgot how you got there, you feel like you could scream at someone because everything feels like a dream. Talking to people during an episode is almost impossible. I felt awful, it really felt like I wasn’t there and nobody was real. But of course I knew it was...it’s happened 3 times, and I hope it never happens ever again.


I have derealization too as well as dissociation and it’s super hard to feel connected to people because of it 😢


I had to deal with derealization for several years after smoking weed ... Glad I came over it, but it was really horrific for a long time and took years to heal. Don't get me wrong, I'm not againsr weed, but for me it's just destroying my brain rapidly. It's a topic about weed that's rarely talked about sadly.


i used to have this ALL THE TIME as a kid. Especially in unfamiliar situations. I still do sometimes and it sucks. I can't imagine what it's like to have it all the time...


I'm glad you haven't given up on treatments, and you are lucky to be able to explore so many different types of treatments. How do you pay for your different therapies though? Are you on disability? Does your family support you? If you work, what challenges does your condition pose to your every day responsibilities? Thank you for bravely sharing your story ❤


I also have derealization.. It's an actual hell. You always want to wake yourself up somehow,but you can't. Hope you feel better now,x.


It’s a weird feeling it really just feels unreal it’s the only way I can think of explaining it


I'm so glad you spoke about this. I get this too and it is really annoying to live with, for me and irritates me all the time. It's good to feel I'm not alone.


It sounds like when you're super stoned, but just all the time :/ I'm glad you're not giving up ♡


thank u youtube recommended..i don’t feel rn and life feels so weird. but my dreams feel so much more real!! like how it used to when i was a kid. this became a part of me after a really bad high where i made myself panic so bad and my anxiety convinced myself i was dying (lol) and since then everything’s been different. sad.


Hi this is something I’ve been struggling with for about 6 months. If anyone has any tips on dealing with paranoia or slight agoraphobia while adjusting to this sensation, please reply!


I have derealization as well. I also have OSDD so it kind of goes together, but my derealization is constant. Just sometimes it’s not as intense as other times.


I’m crying at how much this is me. I thought I was just broken and dumb


I have dissociation when I'm in those periods of time where I experience zero anxiety (dissociation probably replaces it).  It's not as severe as lasting for hours like depersonalization. It's just like how a panic attack would be. But it happens when I'm entering a place for the first time. Or at the airport. I also have synesthesia so my brain just convinces itself that I'm on LSD or some shit and then I get extreme paranoia that someone poisoned me. They confirmed it's not bipolar disorder. But, luckily, I have a highly effective way of relieving it. Deep pressure therapy. In fact, my doctor contacted my insurance so that I may get a weighted blanket to help me (cuz it affects me the most when I wake up and inhibits my ability to digest things). I personally suggest a weighted blanket to try because it applies sensory information without causing harm (granted the one you get isn't too heavy). I still can't take pills cuz my doctors are waiting until I get my autism testing. My insomnia is a huge factor in it. In fact, I'm pretty sure my insomnia is one of the major reasons why I dissociate. You know, my brain hasn't caught up with the fact that I'm awake so it just gets confused and dissociates.


TW: I dissociate to the point of losing control of my motor skills and actions. It's very scary. One time I overdosed involuntarily after disociating in a moment of high distress, I literally saw myself overdosing but I couldn't control any of it, my body just did it. I feel myself going into dissociation over a period of a week or so and then something will bring on a point of dissociation where I lose control, literally. I had something happen during a disociative episode where I was feeling depersonalized and derealized for about a week, nothing felt real and I felt like I was in a fog, and I wasn't in like the same time zone as everyone else. It brought me into a psychotic state and I heard a lot of scary thoughts while I was also feeling like I wasn't actually alive. Then something traumatic happened and I started seizing but I was conscious and i was and screaming help me, I don't want to die, it hurts. I couldn't control any of it, what I was saying and what my body was doing. I dissociated to the point of having an unconscious flashback and that was my bodies response, my mind was not connected to what my body was doing. My eyesight is all messed up when I'm dissociating. I feel like I'm looking through fog or a filter. Mental health is very complicated. You are not alone.


I usually have episodes of this, like in school when we're going on a trip or something not ordinary, I feels like a dream, it deels like it's not happening, and then the days after is so confusing because we talk about and I kind of realize it actually happened.

 A few days ago we had a school trip, we sat on a bus for 2 hours and then we went to a museum, we stood and listened to one of the "museum people" and my head ran through all sorts of things (I had a lot of things on my mind/stress) and I just fainted (I didn't realize it actually happened it felt like I just thought about "what if it happened" and it was so confusing because I tried to just "zone in" again to the museum man who was talking, but I couldn't because it was actually happening) and I came to myself and there I was, actually sitting in a chair by my shocked friends and teacher, confused about what actually happened. I remember the  moment I fainted like a dream...

Would you say that  this is derealisation?


holy fuck i am so happy to find someone else who feels this way because i am constantly in a state of disconnection from reality. the beginning of the video connects so hard because i am constantly snapping and doing little things to try to connect myself with reality. its such a terrifying way to live when I think about it.


Ok so the first time this happend to me was yesterday, nd im 19. At first I thought that i was just high nd now i found this video. Thank you so much for sharing and now i am just trying to learn how to love myself as who i am


I just ran into this video.. and it’s really interesting to me because I was diagnosed with derealization and disassociation a few years back. And I didn’t know there was something wrong because I’ve had it since I was a kid. I don’t remember my childhood from before I was 11ish. And everything from then till now is blurry. So it’s always felt like it was a normal thing, until I decided to go to a physiologist for help with what I believe to be depression (which it is). But I have never thought about how it must be for someone who got once they were older and are able to remember their childhood.


I had this for 7 months and it was the most terrifying time in my life. As soon as I read the title I knew that it was about DR. I’m mostly recovered, but I’ll sometimes have moments where I’m scared my DR has returned but they pass quickly.<br>Anyone who has to deal with this is so strong. It is literally like being stuck in a nightmare, no way to get out, doubting the realness of everything. Keep fighting 💕

I had this for 7 months and it was the most terrifying time in my life. As soon as I read the title I knew that it was about DR. I’m mostly recovered, but I’ll sometimes have moments where I’m scared my DR has returned but they pass quickly.
Anyone who has to deal with this is so strong. It is literally like being stuck in a nightmare, no way to get out, doubting the realness of everything. Keep fighting 💕


I don't have derealisation, but I've always zoned out in lessons, lectures and while reading books. I have autism so I'm wondering if it's connected with that. Or is it something separate? I dunno.🤦🏻♂😂


i just realized this happens to me almost every time i swim/when i’m underwater.


Omg I have this too! It is terrible and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.


Dodie I have been in this state for about the past 6 months and am getting to the point where I don't know if I can handle it much longer. Does yours come and go? Or being chronic does it stay constantly? My dr has called it derealisation/dissociation too


I have ptsd and i feel this way,ive cried 2 years,ive accepted this as my new normal, i know one day it will go away and one day I'll wake up feeling like me again and i can resume my life,everyone please be patient..u will cry but god is with you,you are your only medicine,cherish the light that you have still within you,and regain it back over time.. please live by this if this works for you.❤


Well, this is new. I guess that's another one to add to my list of mental illnesses.<br>God I'm just a bundle of joy aren't I

Well, this is new. I guess that's another one to add to my list of mental illnesses.
God I'm just a bundle of joy aren't I


I've had something similar, but not really that. it all started when i was depressed, anxious, and smoked a loooot of weed. Everything in my life seemed like it already happened, every movement, every emotion, not just mine but from everyone. Obviously i couldnt know the future, just all that was happening felt like i knew it would happen. Basicly i was having DEJA VU all the time. And in the moments when my depresion or anxiety got worse deja vu would get 10× more real... It was extremley scary. i stopped smoking weed because i thought i fucked my brain up with it, and it didnt go away. i was sober for 2-3 months. I was terrifyed of smoking again because i didnt know what to expect, i thought it would get worse. Then some bad things happened and i said "fuck it" and smoked a joint. Suprisingly, it calmed me down, and then when i started to get my life back in order slowly, noticable changes started and deja vu finally left my head a month later. Terrifying times. Still sometimes from time to time i would get a moment of that old feeling and it would scare me to death.


Im so glad that I'm not the only one who has experienced this. I've had those little dream episodes ever since elementary school, typically whenever something out of the ordinary was happening (like being at school at night because of a winter concert or something). It felt like I was detached from my body, not a true "out of body" experience where you see yourself from above, but as a passenger in my skull that has no control over the words coming out of my mouth. I would dread whenever someone would come and talk to me because I feared my brain on autopilot would say something that didn't make sense (and often times it did). During these dream episodes, I would always try to communicate to others that I was in this dreamlike state and I have a feeling that they didn't truly understand. But typically these episodes would only last for an hour (at least I think so, its hard to keep track of time in this state). I can't imagine what it would feel like to be trapped in that state for a day.


in october i had fainted twice, and after that i feel so sensitive to everything. like in november i had this feeling i was in a dream or a coma (not what u had) and my glasses had really hurt my eyes. but it’s gone away now, the only thing that’s happens is when i’ve been laying down awhile and quickly get up i feel like i’m going to faint but i don’t.


I have anxiety and sometimes I dissociate too<br>Not particularly while having anxiety attacks but also sometimes when I’m just chilling

I have anxiety and sometimes I dissociate too
Not particularly while having anxiety attacks but also sometimes when I’m just chilling


Everyone is saying this exact same thing and I’m just mind blown that there’s an actual disorder for it.... I actually didn’t know everyone didn’t feel like this until recently. I worked in a really fast paced restaurant and a few times a month I’d just like “come to” ? Like all the sudden everything around me was so real and that was the only way to describe it. Almost like everything has been fuzzy and it went crystal clear for a few seconds. I asked my husband if he ever does that and he had no idea what I was talking about... also the visual part. If I’ve worked a long shift, driving home is an ACTUAL nightmare. Sometimes I don’t even remember half the drive home and I’ve always wondered if everyone feels that way driving home and how they aren’t terrified of driving like I am!


oh, my god, I needed this. I thought I was alone on this and I just. thank you so fucking much for talking about this, is all I can say without starting to ramble and getting all sappy.


This is actually how I felt 2016 and 2017 might be because they weren't vey good years for me but I didn't know this was a thing and when you said that your vision gets blurry and showed how it looked like I was just sitting here like that's exactly how I see most things. I'm not going to say I have it because you shouldn't self diagnose but maybe I should look into it more.


omg ive always though its something i just make up because none of my friend has ever understood when ive explained but wow this is a real thing


I feel the same way, very out of touch and floating. I've tried to bring it up with my team but no one will listen.


Oh my god... I feel like this constantly too but I thought it was something completely different. Maybe I should look into seeing someone about how i'm feeling.


I get this feeling only after traveling by plane. I always have. Even if there is no significant time difference between the countries. And I'm not afraid of flying, I actually enjoy it. For longer flights the aftereffect lasts longer. It can last from a few hours up to 2-3 days. So it might have something to do with the ears/pressure/balance? I do have a minor issue with those. Just saying.


Thank you!! I just thouht I was going crazy!

One example is that I have to constantly tell my self that im alone in a public bathroom, the door is looked and that im not standling around people who will watch me pee myself, im only going to the bathroom, not the center of peoplemass.. It drives me crazy sometimes, I almost pee myself bc i have to sheck that there really are walls around me and a looked door etc...


First thought: I feel like this a lot too. Maybe I have something like this.