Hey dodie, if net neutrality ends up being repealed in the US, I just wanted to say how much you’ve helped me this past year. It breaks my heart when I think of not ever getting to listen to your music or watch your videos in the same way ever again. Your videos and songs have kept me afloat when I felt like drowning, and I don’t know where I’d be if it weren’t for you. Thank you so much, you’ve helped me feel again. You’ve helped me figure myself out and made me laugh and cry in the best ways. If by any chance you see this, and if net neutrality ceases to be, goodbye.

Ok y’all when I wrote this i didn’t understand it as well as i Do now, I was scared and I was basically basing my feelings off of rumors. I get it now, and I’m not trying to come across as passive aggressive or anything, but please stop bringing it up, I would really appreciate it. Thank you

Ashley Kane it's for a higher price though bro

do you actually know what net neutrality is?? it sucks that it's being repealed, but you can still access the internet lol

Hopefully congress will see how upsetting and negatively impactful it will be to people... especially those who can't afford to pay for everything

You will still be able to access video just for a bigger price

Rebecca Ogden <br>I'm so sorry..but I don't think this is the end. People are so outraged at this that I don't think it'll last long. But maybe not. And I hope that maybe you'll be able to watch her still, it mostly depends on your internet provider..

Rebecca Ogden
I'm so sorry..but I don't think this is the end. People are so outraged at this that I don't think it'll last long. But maybe not. And I hope that maybe you'll be able to watch her still, it mostly depends on your internet provider..


this was made 2 years ago but i came back to the comments again. a year before this video was made i was diagnosed with derealisation. my friend's phone showed this notification because she is a big fan of your music and videos..i was so happy when i read the notification. most people think i'm crazy when i describe how it feels to them, but knowing other people experience the same things makes me feel better about it. we will get through this! i feel like this comment section is a safe space for me to read other people's stories and how it effects them. you are not alone.


Wow thank you for sharing this! I have never related to a video this much before. I don't know how long I've had this but it feels like I've had it my whole life because time doesn't make sense and I don't know anything other than this feeling (if that makes sense). I also thought it was normal at first.


Thanks for sharing this, because after I went through a series of very stressful events, I started to struggle with derealization constantly. I miss how it felt when I didn’t feel this way, but seeing your video gives me hope.


Its been happening to me for about 2 years now. Ever since i moved into high school and i never knew why but ive just found out that its a genuine thing that other people have and im so releived that i know what it is


oh boy I'm getting a bit teary-eyed and I don't wanna self diagnose, but I've been feeling this for as long as I can remember. It's so relieving to hear that what I might be experiencing is something that is real and shared. I've asked so many people including friends and family, and I've never been able to understand why other people are so normal. I'm almost crying now and I just wanna say thank you so much for putting this information out there.

Im feeling the same, I always thought that maybe it was in my head and I pushed it away but as soon as she said that she needed eye test cause she didn't know what it was I broke down

Elise Beaufeaux I feel the exact same way you have no idea. I’m practically crying and it makes me so happy knowing I’m not the only one

Same imma bout to tell my mother and have a convo for the 2nd time cause my mother thought I was just looking for problems the first time . But now I have more stuff to present and I'm also more confident then 8 months ago so wooo.

Will.J I wouldn’t recommend that to people with this issue at all. LSD made my sensations a LOT scarier. One bad thing happens with LSD and you tend to spiral.

Loved your comment. Thanks for sharing ♡ I have felt so alone and maybe it's not what I have but it's at least getting me a step closer to more answers (I have Bipolar, Panic Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder) Anyway. I got teary eyed too

I wonder if she has wet dreams of my profile picture 😏

Same dude. At fourth grade I always feel like I was drifting and everything seemed like a film. My teacher always called me out for this. He was the best though, made my elementary days lighter.

Elise Beaufeaux, I completely relate to this. I had no idea this was an actual mental diagnosis until my friend sent me this video and explained it. I’ve also felt like this sense, well forever, and I can’t remember a time when I didn’t. I am only a teen and I don’t know how to tell my parents in a way they will understand or seek help. But I’m glad I am not the only one who has felt the same way!


I watched this video when it came out and I was so far into depersonalisation that I didn’t get it but now that I have a diagnosis it hits so different.


Omg! I can't tell you how better, fresher I'm feeling after finding a name for the weirdest feeling I've been having since I know myself. Thank you for making this video and to let me know that I'm not the only one. My whole life (the way I've been living so far with this dreamy feeling) makes sense now. <br>Much love ❤

Omg! I can't tell you how better, fresher I'm feeling after finding a name for the weirdest feeling I've been having since I know myself. Thank you for making this video and to let me know that I'm not the only one. My whole life (the way I've been living so far with this dreamy feeling) makes sense now.
Much love ❤


i just got diagnosed with dpdr literally like two days ago and it feels SO GOOD to know that I’m not going crazy or whatever, but that it’s a Real Thing and that I’m not just making it up. i started having severe symptoms in the spring so it all went quite quickly thanks to some lovely friends that recognised what i was going through when i tried to explain my experiences and encouraged me to seek help. and it’s really great to know that other people feel this way as well. thank you!

If you don’t mind….do they give pills or something


derealisation hits me most when i have my psychotic episodes & honestly it helps me understand why i barely remember my episodes


And you make dreams for others to get lost in. I look forward to hearing more and more of your music, seeing more and more of your delightful videos, and just generally seeing where you take your art.


I never even considered that others might experience this too. Thank you so much for making a video to share your experience. I always thought my brain was just naturally psychedelic, all the time. I have experienced depersonalization intermittently as well, though it has happened less as I've grown older. You channel it into your creativity beautifully, and your Monster with Pomplamoose is simply perfect. Thank you.


This freaked me out watching this and I realize this used to occasionally happen to me when I was in late middle school/ early high school. It was rarely in stressful times but would just randomly happen when I was on a walk, working out, in class on a trampoline, etc. It would only last a few seconds to a few minutes but left me feeling exhausted and confused for hours afterwards.


This is interesting to me bc I’ve been feeling this weird perspective whenever I’m in social situations & I could never explain it. It might be this. The way should she explained it at around 4.40 is similar to how I feel it, it’s like your playing a first person game but for your real life body, where you kinda have control or like movies portraying first person


I have autism, and severe PTSD. I'm also going blind from  a eye disease. Because of Dodie, I found out that my floaty fake-ish feeling wasn't normal. So thank you Dodie 🌻♥

My son has autism and I do as well and I also have severe PTSD.

Mussolini Mozart I really really really like your profile pic

Lianne De Graaf aww, I’m sorry! I have depression and anxiety. We’ll get through, buddy!

big boyyy getting abused by your dad will do that to ya

Lianne De Graaf sending my love to you 💕✨


I was diagnosed with DPDR a few months ago and I didn’t know you had it until now! I’ve loved your music for sooo long and you’re videos make me feel good. I’m so glad I’m not alone


I feel you, I get dissociation when my panic disorder acts up, usually before or after a panic attack episode. For me it lasts hours and usually goes away once I get invested in doing something and my mind becomes too occupied to deal with whatever was triggering my illness.<br>I had what you described, derealization, for a week after I had a drug induced panic attack and had to get put on medication to control it because the panics wouldn’t stop for an entire week. Everything became darker, I felt distant from the world and myself, I was numb everywhere, things I did or said felt as if I was observing myself do it instead of being involved in that action. Scary times, scary scary times

I feel you, I get dissociation when my panic disorder acts up, usually before or after a panic attack episode. For me it lasts hours and usually goes away once I get invested in doing something and my mind becomes too occupied to deal with whatever was triggering my illness.
I had what you described, derealization, for a week after I had a drug induced panic attack and had to get put on medication to control it because the panics wouldn’t stop for an entire week. Everything became darker, I felt distant from the world and myself, I was numb everywhere, things I did or said felt as if I was observing myself do it instead of being involved in that action. Scary times, scary scary times


I just found out that I might have this from my psychiatrist and this video really helped me understand this on a more personal level. Thanks so much for that!


Thank you thank you for giving me words for this! No one had ever understood what I was trying to explain


had derealisation for 3-4 years and now i can say im at least 80% recovered so dont ya worry guys, its not forever and it's there to help you and not harm you, after the period of derealisation is over you will feel everything so strong you will kinda miss being numbed out sometimes haha jk, but yeah i promise you , you WILL feel again

@the Rain Mine isn't based on drugs so I cant relate

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@Lebdrbeb Bdjdjddb Not necessarily what I want but I experience emotional decrease with my derealization because I can be happy for example but no too happy or I can be scared but not too scared

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Johannes Gehrling same, for me lsd triggered it, when they say to not use drugs, you really should listen to them

Took me about 4 years to recover from derealization. It started with smoking weed once and it was the worst at the beginning, where I could rarely live a life and getting better over time with first times feeling normal for several hours after about half a year. The first few weeks to months I felt derealization every single second I was awake since the moment I was high on weed. As of today I'm fully healed for about 4 years. I recovered by living on and not smoking weed ever again for sure. It took time and many many backlashes, but you can totally recover.

@Lana same with me. I now have it rarely. It kinda stopped with me when I got out of depression.. I don't know if it's linked but with me it looked that it was linked to my depression

@Lebdrbeb Bdjdjddb yeah me too. seems crazy to others when you tell them that you miss feeling sadness but without sadness nothing really matters.

Thank you so much, all I want is too feel sadness again


it is incredibly exciting to see someone with so much influence talk about dp/dr! thank you so much for sharing your experience :)))


I have ptsd after the sudden loss of several family members including my mother. I get dissociative episodes every now and then and ive never heard anyone else talk about it. So thank you for sharing your story. It helps me a LOT.


I'm so happy I found a video about this. I have this and it's such a crazy thing to deal with, and so scary when you first find out.


I've been dealing with this ever since 2013 and making music is the only way I have to cope with it.


<b>when i read the title i was like YEAH FINALLY IM NOT THE ONLY ONE</b>

*when i read the title i was like YEAH FINALLY IM NOT THE ONLY ONE*

Amethyst Reves did it go? I’m literally having the exact same experience as you right now got it from weed too lol

@Violet Honey mine too was just like small episodes now it's the entire day.. it's getting so hard to cope with... it's so scary and overwhelming.. I was recovering and all of a sudden this happened again.. when I travel I feel as if I'm all lost and then when I come to my senses I get overwhelmed

@bingbong I've had it for the past 5 months and I was recovering and enjoying life but for the past few days it as gotten worse like I cany concerned on my daughter and feel as if I'm having cutting episodes of it .. its so damn scary and I got over it before just trying my best to get over it now

I'm glad I found something on this because I have a close enough answer for me to accept it. I always thought I was alone on this because everyone else around me never had it.

chaexic I’m literally crying cause I just went through this like 5 mins ago

Same I feel like I’m going in circles 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 I freak out about every 2min 🤯🤯

Simon Bar Jesus Is this what cured you? I’m so desperate to feel like myself again but I’m starting to feel like it will never go away despite only having it for not even a week but it’s 24/7

So you feel this way 24/7? Mine just popped up after a bad experience with weed. I mean, I had it a few times already here and there  before but it would only lasts a few seconds and now it’s all the time and I’m terrified :( How do you deal with it? How do you avoid panicking and going about living your life as your normally would despite none of it feeling real?

I'm scared to think I'm still dreaming or I'm in a coma and I'll wake up in the next 2 years but I never do it so scary to me do I have this rare condition

Is it weird it just happened few times...It isn't always happening, just few times a year but then I really feel like I am dreaming and I can't explain to people that

Woeful Warlock honestly I always try and explain it to ppl but no one would understand

I have this condition too I’m young and it popped up randomly and I trying to get treatment

Woeful Warlock sameee my friends think im crazy lol


I have this too well i have autism and ptsd so it comes in the package. Very very odd but honestly im glad i have it. Sometimes it can be very soothing to just space out from the world but it also makes you quite vulnerable to bad people. I feel you girl ♡


I never knew anyone else went through these sorts of things like I do.. Thankyou so much from the bottom of my heart for helping me so much


I've had this for 11 years now.
After the 1st year I got used to it and it's just a part of me now.

I'm 100% happy and to be honest, I don't think I could handle it going away, it's who I am and it's what i'm used to.


I watched this video so many times. It's kind of scary to think that I might have dissociated before. But nothing else will describe this feeling I have in my brain. I feel foggy all the time. doesn't matter what I eat, sleep, or do. I can feel happy but that fog is still there. Sometimes at it's worse. It causes me anxiety attacks because of how badly I feel so "Out of it" scared that I might be going crazy. I don't see weird visions but I only have this feeling in my brain this disconnected feeling.

When I try to tell people they think I am being dramatic and makes me feel like I'm overacting... am I?

I just want to understand what my brain is making me feel. This disconnecting in my brain as if a wire has been unplugged. I'm taking anti-depression meds rn to see if I can feel better. Not sure if it's really doing anything but I can wait. it's been 3years since this started.


Oh my goodness.
Dodie.
This is nuts!
As soon as i read the title i freaked out, because i constantly feel this way, especially when I’m in a new place. I always tell my friends “I always feel like my life is a dream” and they tell me I’m crazy and that it will go away and it’s nothing to be depressed about.
Thank you for making reality feel a bit more real for me.💗
Edit: listening to the part in your book about watching a movie made me remember the first time i felt this way. I haven’t thought of this since it happened.
I was 10 and on my class trip to Disney World. One we arrived, nothing felt real, but i was still aware. We went on the Finding Nemo ride, and became entangled in the beauty of the ride. The characters were right there, like i could almost reach my small hand out and touch them. Once we got off, i was in a daze. My body was doing what it was supposed to do. Stick with the group while we walked around visiting the different attractions, laugh with my friends. But my brain felt like mush. I was watching a first person movie, and i was the uncontrollable main character.

Maria Winchester<br>Thank you so much! You are so kind :)

Maria Winchester
Thank you so much! You are so kind :)

EXACTLY but weirdly it wasn't a new place for me ... I went to 6 flags with my best friends and it didn't feel like anything was real and my brain didn't wanna work. I tried to hold onto my friend to ground myself and the cold handlebars but it didn't work... I felt like that for a long time maybe an hour or so

This may sound kinda weird but I really like the way you write. Anyways, I hope you feel better soon!


I got this for about 3 years after getting extremely stonned. Never touched weed ever again


I can relate so well with the "I thought it was part of growing-up"-part. I thought growing up meant: you feel less.


I have never ever in my life felt the same like you do or told in this video. Never. Thank you a lot.


It is incredible to me to watch this again after 3 years. I remember watching this, in tears, when it first came out because It put a name on how I felt a large percentage of the time. Three years later and A LOT of therapy and I RARELY feel this way. The world around me seems more sure and firm. I used to ask my husband daily, “Is this real? Are you real? Are we dreaming?” I now can’t remember the last time I asked him that. It is possible to get better, even when it feels so impossible at times. Of course, I still have moments of confusion and insecurity about reality, but I have trained my brain, as my therapist taught me, to stop believing the doubts! So when a thought comes in of “is this real?”, I tell myself forcefully and with conviction that YES. It is real. Because experience has taught me that I never question reality in my dreams. So if I am questioning, it must be REAL LIFE. Progress is possible, people!


Ahhh I needed this , over the last year my dissociation got really bad, yesterday instead of concreting in class I stared blurrly at a bottle -_-
my vision changes to more of a total blurriness I can't stop like my glasses prescription had  gone wayyyy up, idk if it's like that for others too ...
Anyways It helps alot knowing you're not alone ♥


I feel spoken to. For the longest time, I've felt like you were  dreaming, too 🤯


how i explain my depersonalization is like, you know how when you say a word over and over again and it starts to just sound like nonsense? that's very very similar to how i feel when i look in the mirror. the longer i look in the mirror, the more unsettled i become with the fact that this random, weird looking stranger knows all my thoughts and feelings and memories. and the longer i look at myself in the mirror, the more everything else around me starts to become fuzzy and distorted and wrong. and eventually i just become very numb and blank and sad and lost. it's similar to trying to run in a dream: you become lightheaded and confused and it feels like you're stuck at the bottom of the ocean with weights around your ankles. anyway, hope this helped anyone who was wondering what it felt like :)


OMG! i felt like this for about a week and it got so bad and i almost passed out so my mom brought me to the er, i went to a paediatrician and they gave me a really strong anxiety medication but my mom is too scared for me to take it because her cousin killed himself well he was on it and i’m only 13 😌❤


I think I’m kind of the opposite. I feel like I’m noticing everything. Every sound, every laugh, every eye that looks my way. I feel as if everyone is staring at me all the time. But they’re not. But it feels like they are, like every pair of eyes in the room is staring me down and analyzing me, trying to figure out me, the “quiet girl”. When cars drive past me on my walk to school my heart starts pounding and I look down. When people talk to me I suddenly have nothing to say, even though I practice in my head every night conversations I can have with people. My mind goes blank around people. I feel like ice, when the sun, the sunniness of everyone trying to talk to me and being kind hits me, I melt. I try to hide, and I want to escape and be alone with only the company of myself. I love to draw, but in class, I just can’t. I’m so uncomfortable around people and it makes me sad. I don’t want to be so uncomfortable around people. I don’t want my heartbeat running faster than my body can keep up with and my palms sweaty all the time. I don’t want to start crying in front of the class and begging my teacher if I can present my project or presentation after class privately. I want to be able to talk to people. I don’t know why I’m this way, but I just am. I’ve created different personalities for all of my friends and family and people I know that I talk to, and none of them are really me. Yet when I’m alone I’m suddenly bubbly and comfortable and I feel as if I talked to someone that moment I would be fine. But it never works out that way. I’ve gotten better, I really have, but it brings me down. People think it’s my decision to be quiet, but it’s not. I want to be able to speak to people comfortably without my throat being tight and squeezed and some voice in my brain that isn’t even really me telling me what to say. I have social anxiety disorder. The acronym for my mental disorder is SAD. SAD. It makes sense, because I do feel sad, I do. But I don’t really even understand my own feelings, so whenever I’m feeling sad, or angry, or depressed I tend to bottle it up. I don’t have anyone to talk to my feelings about, and it just feels awkward and uncomfortable to do so. So, here I am, typing out my feelings online in hopes that I will feel, even a little bit better.

@toto oona <br>I went to the pyschiatrist and started taking medication. My life changed completely, I'm so grateful to my psychiatrist. He is awesome and he has helped me so much through the whole process. That's why I'm such a huge supporter of medication.

@toto oona
I went to the pyschiatrist and started taking medication. My life changed completely, I'm so grateful to my psychiatrist. He is awesome and he has helped me so much through the whole process. That's why I'm such a huge supporter of medication.

wootaloo doopsie its also when you want everything to be quiet and when they're not you get agitated

wootaloo doopsie I don't know that much about it but it's when you hear things and they're too loud and you notice small things and they frustrate you easily

oh my god, I never thought someone else felt this way. I just thought it was me!!! Thank you so muchfor sharing this

I think the first part about noticing every detail could be sensory overload which is a side effect of social anxiety, not sure if that's what you have but it might be good to look into it? You're a strong person for being able to deal with it! I hope you don't have to deal with it forever xxx

Yellow Paint wow that’s exactly how I feel 🤭🤯

Yellow Paint I’ve never related to something more

I also feel like this and I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression and am taking anti depressants. I was told by a therapist that my anxiety is mainly social because I can't deal with most social interactions and even sometimes just going outside is a struggle. I know how hard it is even though the whole world don't see it and think you're fine but just the fact that we get up every day and carry on despite simple day to day things being so much harder for us means we're strong and we both can get through this. Chin up, you're not alone ❤

i think this definitely has to do more with social anxiety. i was never really diagnosed with the disorder since my parents are too religious and think every little mental illness is “demons” and “the devil” and things like that, but i have my own experiences. i used to be quite normal until i started noticing little things about myself, such as the way i would walk or speak, and became super self-conscious. i felt like i wasn’t normal. i stopped eating at lunch because i am a messy eater and i didn’t want to embarrass myself. i became a nervous wreck when people would come and talk to me. i felt very wrong. i had changed myself so much to seem normal that i was no longer normal, which is what i realized recently. so what did i do? i pushed myself a little bit. now that i’m in high school more people are approaching me at all corners and i’ve become comfortable with that. i started with the simple “hello” when someone would approach me. every day i set a goal for myself to push myself out of the social anxiety, and right now i feel like i’m in a good state. although there is still part of me that is always anxious, i am no longer the nervous and shy girl i used to be.

Yellow Paint I thought it was just me...

I definitely had a period of my life when I felt this way for about 2 years, and obviously it's hard to compare situations but I had the same thing where I thought everyone was looking at me and judging what I wore and noticing the tiniest details of everything about me. I have since come out of that period, but now I feel almost as if I've gone too far the other way, as I think I have periods of derealisation now. I'm really hoping that at some point soon I can find the balance of noticing everything and noticing nothing, and I'm sure that I will, because I've found out that it is possible to change you're mindset. I don't know how easy it will be, but I'm determined to try.

Yellow Paint I think I feel the same thing or can relate back to it? usually when I have really bad derealization, the room becomes incredibly bright and people’s voices are incredibly loud. You know that feeling when you can “hear silence”. That hummm when a room goes quite, that becomes incredibly loud! Anything someone does seems amplified. I’m not sure if this is what happens to you but I would ask your doctor about derealization, perhaps you have what I and many other people have! I hope you feel better xoxo

this used to be me before i got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder

Yellow Paint wow. You just described what I feel so well. I do almost all of these things but I could never put it into words, and you just described it so accurately.

When I'm in a store, I feel like everyones eyes are on me, looking at what I'm buying and analysing every move I make. I feel very nervous when I have to talk to the person at the cash register. After I say bye, I'll walk out of the store and go back to my bike. About 30 seconds into my walk, I'll notice that I'm walking very fast and I try to slow down, but something tells me I should run, but I don't know what I should be running from. My head is down, avoiding everyone's eyes, hoping that no one is looking at me and wishing that I could just disappear. I take a couple of deep breaths, realize my shoulders and arms are tensed up, my fingers are clenced in fists. I try to relax but I subconciously tense up moments later anyways. I get on my bike and cycle as fast as I possisbly can, the voice in my head still panicking and telling me I have to go. Run away from everyone. When I get home, I'll  release a breath I didn't know I had been holding and I'll wonder why I just did all the things I did.

This is just one of the countless things I do. People tell me to "get over it!" over it and "just talk to people!" But it doensn't work like that. I don't want to be like this. I want it to stop. But I don't know how.

(Sorry for my terrible english and changing the tense I write in alot, it's just hard to describe)

the more you talk to people, the more practise you get just interacting with other humans, the better it gets in the long run. even if at first it feels awful and you get anxious and stressed out and worry about what everyone thinks of you, the more you just do it, the more that stressed feeling will reduce. that's in my experience anyway. you did say in your comment that you've gotten better. hold onto that. it might not always be a smooth ride, and you will need breaks in between the getting better where you just feel like you can't do it any more. but keep going and it really will get easier with practise. x

Yellow Paint You might have avoidance personality disorder. I do.

it will work out, it really will! because you're right Toto oona, we are not alone!

i related to some of what you said, i want you to know that you are most definitely not alone and to keep going to reach good- wherever that may be!

I can relate to this. I haven’t been diagnosed with SAD but with PTSD. In my experience, I really struggle with keeping up the different personalities to different people. When I feel great it’s most oftenly because every part goes “well” I can act that I’m happy and I almost feel like it. But it’s like a bubble and I want to reach for it but when I do it will pop. As soon as the acting out the personalities goes wrong, I stop searching for contact. I feel like I’ve failed (again) and sometimes even that I might not be worth living. Living like this is so hard because I wish I could be myself. The truth is I don’t really know who I am anymore and If that would be socially accepted.<br>Anyway feel free to react to this and I would love to talk to someone who feels this way. We gotta remind ourselves that we are not alone although it feel like is <3

I can relate to this. I haven’t been diagnosed with SAD but with PTSD. In my experience, I really struggle with keeping up the different personalities to different people. When I feel great it’s most oftenly because every part goes “well” I can act that I’m happy and I almost feel like it. But it’s like a bubble and I want to reach for it but when I do it will pop. As soon as the acting out the personalities goes wrong, I stop searching for contact. I feel like I’ve failed (again) and sometimes even that I might not be worth living. Living like this is so hard because I wish I could be myself. The truth is I don’t really know who I am anymore and If that would be socially accepted.
Anyway feel free to react to this and I would love to talk to someone who feels this way. We gotta remind ourselves that we are not alone although it feel like is <3

fuck this is m e. would you say you have scopophobia? because i experience anxiety in almost the same way you do and i feel like that's a more specific descriptor than SAD which feels a little too general (honestly i'm just a mess at self-diagnosis which is a pain because i have no clue where to start when i think about getting therapy).

Wow I feel the same. It sucks not being able to completely be yourself all the time :l

Im so sorry that you have to feel that way 24/7. That must suck. But look, your still here? Youre strong!! Please take care of yourself and I hope you get over this problem. You seem like a pretty chill person, such a shame you of all people have to go through this. Im here for you 💚💙💚 xx

I think that's related to social anxiety, and im really sorry you feel that way alot of the time.


I had this, super intensely 2 years ago. It was so so scary and lasted for about a year, It still comes back when I'm very stressed


so I recently had a traumatic stress experience and think I’ve developed derealization. I constantly feel like I’m dreaming...like nothings real. It’s carry’s on in my dreams. It’s a dream inside a dream inside a dream situation, so I never know when I’m actually awake which leads to a lot of stress in the mornings. The rest of the day feels almost the same as before the incident, but somethings just off. Hard to take in everything. When I think about it too hard I do into a panic attack. When I don’t think about it, it’s almost like I can forget, but like dodie said, I feel like I constantly have to ground myself. - which even before was a hard thing for me to do. It is very scary. I’ve spent the last couple days just mourning what I have lost. idk this is just all so new to me and I remembered I had watched this video awhile back...The first time I watched it, it didn’t much sense to me..but now I’m wishing it made less.


Dodie I struggle with mental health, and in a psych ward when I first listened to your song secret for the mad, and it really helped me. I really appreciate you and I love you thank you for everything you’re an inspiration to me and many others ❤


i’m honestly so happy i’ve been feeling this way for the past year as it gradually gets worse and it used to happen bad and rarely but now it’s every moment i haven’t felt normal in months actually and i thought i was alone


I never ever considered other people could have this. I thought I was going crazy. I read a comment below that perfectly described my own experience. Feeling a kind of invincibility and not caring as much as usual since the world doesn't really feel real until you "wake up". Like you're watching someone live their/your life through a window. The first few times were extremely disorientating when I woke up. It's gotten less disorientating the more times it has happened.

Echo Nov (I’m not sure if I have the same thing because mines a little weaker) I have a thing where I feel almost like I’m looking at life in 3rd person, but my senses are fine, I just feel dizzy and disoriented..

Echo Nov i can relate., except from that i never “wake up from it” which sucks

I keep reading comments that actually relate to what I’m dealing with and I’ve never been able to find someone dealing with the same thing as me. I feel the same way


I have it since years too, and it was a really hard and long way to a proper diagnosis. Lots of people with ptsd get it


this is very fascinating to me. i genuinely feel for those who deal with this on a regular basis.


I’m so sorry… Mines never went away too..<br>I literally don’t know how to feel feels like I have to find my personality… this can’t be normal experiencing this constantly 24/7 for 11 yrs

I’m so sorry… Mines never went away too..
I literally don’t know how to feel feels like I have to find my personality… this can’t be normal experiencing this constantly 24/7 for 11 yrs

11 years? I’m so sorry to hear that. It sounds like a living hell. I’ve been stuck like this for 2 months and I’m already tired. Have you managed to get better since you posted this?


i’ve been feeling this way for 6 years and it’s very scary sometimes


On a side note.....

DODIE HAS HAD SO MUCH CONTENT LATELY I AM GOING CRAZY! ITS GREATTTTTTT

matt latt I just don’t like to share all that stuff. But I. Am definitely subbed to dodie lol.

Sophia Wilson your even on no views videos of her sure I'm sharing that I also watch them but your just impressive I even start to think you to is recommending videos you've commented on I'll see you as top to second comment even though you will have at most 10 likes XD

Ruqayyah Qadri I’m sorry I can’t help itttt I love me some dodie😂

Sophia Wilson your all over her comments omg Ive seen you so much its registered XD


Wow my dreams always feel so weird that I’m tense and stressed and anxious for like an hour after waking up so I can’t imagine feeling the way I do in my dreams all the time I’m so sorry. If I felt that way while being awake I wouldn’t know how to live so good on you for having such a positive attitude about it. I hope you find something that helps soon.


Oh my goooodddddd.... yes!! My god!! This is accurate. I need to show my mother this because she really doesn't understand that this is how I feel


I feel like I’m cross eyed most of the time :( kinda really sucks, but I’ve learned to cope


I experience depersonalization and it's interesting how some of the syptoms interlap


I can’t thank you enough for making this. When I clicked your video, I was hopeful but doubtful that you’d be talking about what I’ve been experiencing. Halfway through, I burst into tears. I’ve been feeling so scared and alone this past year, because no one I talk to seems to understand it.
I’m an organized, motivated, extroverted person and when these derealization spells hit, it’s like I’m PRETENDING to be all of those things. Doing ordinary tasks is overwhelming. Conversations are like climbing a mountain. And my memory is completely shot- short term and long term.
Again, thank you so much for talking about this. I feel better already just knowing I’m not alone. And to anyone else feeling this way, remember to take a moment to breathe and be kind to yourself ❤

I understand you because the symptoms you listed in this comment are what I feel sometimes! It just hurts to speak sometimes also, like not physically, but it’s hard for some reason, idk it’s hard to explain. But thanks for this comment and you’re not alone 💙

alyciadweeb I thought I was the only one. I thought I had depression, but then I watched this video and I was sooo relieved at how she explained each of the symptoms and it fits me.

@Faith G I know what you mean, days blur together, a whole week will go by and I will not even realize it

I am the same way!! Extroverted and motivated.  At first I thought the disosiation was very interesting, just once in a while, but then it started to worry me after a few weeks of it being constant. I lost my motivation, things stopped mattering. I still cared but couldn't  bring myself to do anything, and nothing felt real, no consiquenses or gains.

alyciadweeb exactly, and time goes by so quickly it’s like you’re already living in the past. You look back at the day and don’t remember doing half the things you did

alyciadweeb oh god I’m so glad I’m not alone holy hell. Peace and love to all of you <3

omg this is literally like reading my own thoughts!

I started crying too, I'm not sure I have depersonalization, but it seems close. I try to keep conversations alive to feel grounded or I completely lose track of time and get lost in thought, or even just blank for a bit. I really hope nothing is wrong with me and that this is normal teenager stuff.


this video literally helped me get diagnosed thank youuuuuuuuuu


I sufferd from this a few years. Never found a real treatment. I think its because its something you have to figure out on your own. Sounds really weird. But my cure was: going to school and get a regular side job. I worked as a waitress and once I started really living in the moment it slowly went away. Also: accept it. It's going to stay with you for a while but it will go away. The best thing is: don't be scared of it. Learn how to live and take control. But this all takes time. Remember: what I'm feeling is fine. Its here, it will be for a while and i'm fine with it. i know, easier said then done. But trying to fight it, is not going to make things better. The sooner you'll accept and embrace, the sooner you won't notice it anymoreTry to distract yourself when feeling down. Tell someone about it and try to stay of meds as much as you can. I gave myself 5 calming pils and I wasn't allowed to get more pills than 5 in a year. Just by knowing i'm able to take a pill, I already calmed down and thought: I have to save one in case is DO need it. 1 year later and I have only used one. <br>I got my DPDR by taking to much spacecake and panicking about it. I stayed of drugs and alcohol for 6 month's and that went great ( I have never been a big drugs user but I liked to smoke a J sometimes). I came back to my self and really living a normal life got me through it all. Having something intense to do for the day made me live in the moment. I did not have time to think about my situation, and that's how i started to trust myself again. Give yourself time to heal and don't give in to it. It's not reality, you will be fine.

I sufferd from this a few years. Never found a real treatment. I think its because its something you have to figure out on your own. Sounds really weird. But my cure was: going to school and get a regular side job. I worked as a waitress and once I started really living in the moment it slowly went away. Also: accept it. It's going to stay with you for a while but it will go away. The best thing is: don't be scared of it. Learn how to live and take control. But this all takes time. Remember: what I'm feeling is fine. Its here, it will be for a while and i'm fine with it. i know, easier said then done. But trying to fight it, is not going to make things better. The sooner you'll accept and embrace, the sooner you won't notice it anymoreTry to distract yourself when feeling down. Tell someone about it and try to stay of meds as much as you can. I gave myself 5 calming pils and I wasn't allowed to get more pills than 5 in a year. Just by knowing i'm able to take a pill, I already calmed down and thought: I have to save one in case is DO need it. 1 year later and I have only used one.
I got my DPDR by taking to much spacecake and panicking about it. I stayed of drugs and alcohol for 6 month's and that went great ( I have never been a big drugs user but I liked to smoke a J sometimes). I came back to my self and really living a normal life got me through it all. Having something intense to do for the day made me live in the moment. I did not have time to think about my situation, and that's how i started to trust myself again. Give yourself time to heal and don't give in to it. It's not reality, you will be fine.

@Celeste <br>I'm damned to hell. I grieve the Holy Spirit through my deliberate sin and now God has turned away from me.

@Celeste
I'm damned to hell. I grieve the Holy Spirit through my deliberate sin and now God has turned away from me.

@Vengeful Polititron Sad to hear. I'm back on this path actually. Sad to see my own feedback and did not listen to it myself. But I'm learning again, to not go over my own boundaries. To not read about it everyday and get to therapie is something that is helping me right now! I'm half a year further now.

thankyou! this is day 1 for me, not fully sure I have it yet
 but this helps.

been reading alot.

https://www.carolynspring.com/blog/feeling-unreal-depersonalisation-derealisation-disorder/


i’ve been diagnosed with depersonalization so i can relate to how you feel


I’m starting to realize lately by talking to a doctor/therapist that I have had depersonalization and derealization in some form since I was 12


It's so refreshing to have someone talking about this, I have never had anyone who truly understands what I am describing. This open dialogue has encouraged me to talk to my mom and get help. Thank you for all of this positive conversation!

Emory Brinson awe thank you!!! Same to you fellow spaced out human 😊

+Rachel Webster I hope everything works out! Sending good vibes :)

Emory Brinson me too my dude. I may just send this video to my mom to help me tell her about it


i've felt as u do for 2 years after a long period of stress with college, between the years 2017 to 2019. I got over that with hipnosis, this year, wich i strongly recommend to all the people with some mental issue


Since the last time I got high (over 3 months ago) I've felt exactly like this. I've been going to doctors and getting blood tests to see what's wrong and they have all said its stress/depression/anxiety. But I'm always a stress-free and happy person and nothing traumatic has happened in my life. This video perfectly describes what I've been feeling cause its so hard to put into words. Thanks Dodie! X


Hello, I know this video is quite old now but I have been dealing with derelization for months now, I havnt been able to figure out what exactly is the reason my brain is reacting to trauma in this way and what that trauma may be but it’s been really hard on me recently. I didn’t know what it was for a long while until recently when I came out to my parents about what has been driving me crazy and my dad showed me an article that explained everything I have been feeling and I guess it is what I have. I have episodes everyday. Some are slight and others get really bad because it just doesn’t feel right and I get so scared that I will never feel the same again. I’ve watched many videos and what you explained here worries me that I might have the long term effects rather than short. Because ive noticed nothing change. My head gets so foggy and hard to focus so much when I have these episodes that my memory has been really really bad. I do things and don’t remember doing them at all without someone reminding me I did it. If you asked me what I did yesterday I could not tell you without thinking super hard. And if I remember my timeline is messed up so I would question if it was yesterday or not. When I try thinking it hurts my head because my mind is so blank and foggy and gross feeling. And I thought I needed glasses when this all started happening too. I didn’t understand what it was and just ignored it. I still believe that maybe a type of glasses could help but maybe that isn’t the case? I also havnt found a cope for it. I just wait around till it goes away.

Meditation and chakra healing. This brought me out of having it for over 11 years. These two things will bring down your anxieties/fears and help you find the answers that are within you.


I remember very specifically when I was younger telling my friends that I felt like my life was a dream or a movie. Like I was just watching myself live. I also avoid my reflection because I don't trust it? if that makes sense lol idk

Also this is a different condition but I deal with dream-reality confusion so I have no idea whether I'm awake or dreaming lol. This could be real or not but oh well I'll just ride this ride out =D


I love that dodie reads the book instead of asking people to go get the book and read it for themselves


I have Maladaptive dreaming, so this video is so relatable. I can't remember stuff, i forget names, i start talking to myself randomly or create scenarios in my head all the time


It's interesting that at 1:44 she feels relieved that it has a name. When, philosophically, the moment a label is introduced, originality is minimized. Dodie, in all her quirkiness, is amazing. To define a quadrant of her personality with an agreed-upon summary does no justice to what her particularly wonderful physiology endows her.


i feel like this sometimes, but i dont think i have the disorder since it happens rarely. but whenever i feel like this i need help, but im too scared and embarrassed to ask my family (more specifically my sister)


Man its crazy how i thought everyone had this chronically before i knew it was a thing i just had and some others


Yes, I had the same type of thing. I'd start shouting in public to know I was awake. Let's just say I eventually lost my job and my apartment, because I didn't think I existed in reality, and what I said out loud was not real because I was dreaming. Never let it get to that.


I thought there was something wrong with me for so long thanks you now I’ve figured it out


Wtf that happens to me a lot, it happens for about 20 seconds where it feels odd and like its not real but not quite like that, its hard to explain but you explained the perfect example of what i feel when that happens. Its always randomly or a couple minutes after a panic attack, the random times are when im walking or I enter a room or sometimes just when im just sitting down doing nothing, same with the brightness things.

I already have severe adhd and severe anxiety and a bit of ocd and tons of compulsive disorders and now this?! Im going to go flush myself down the toilet now-


I had derealization in May for a week and it was the hell. Now I‘m sick and on Vacation and the feeling is here again.<br>I hope it stops soon.

I had derealization in May for a week and it was the hell. Now I‘m sick and on Vacation and the feeling is here again.
I hope it stops soon.


There's something I've read somewhere that helps me "come back", or ground myself to reality when I feel like my surroundings aren't real : around you, you should try to find
- 5 things you can see
- 4 things you can touch (and imagine what the sensation would be)
- 3 things you can hear
- 2 things you can smell
- 1 thing you can taste.
This technique helped me a few times, it forces you to be aware of what's really around you.

agh, i feel so alone. literally my whole body sabotages me. i'm aware of the fact that i'm trying to get away from that feeling of disconnection to reality and whenever i try methods to get away from it, the fact that i'm trying to get away from that feeling is stored in the back of my head. i don't know if that makes sense.

Achlucide my therapist told me to do this for my panic attacks and it helps a lot

I don't have derealization but when I have felt a panic attack coming on, this has helped me immensely


This happened to me in classes and caused me to do poorly and I thought I would try so hard to like pay attention but I couldn’t like be present. I just wasn’t there. And this happens sometimes for a week and like it’s so weird, I never could describe it tho I thought I was just not paying attention enough. I would get so mad at myself and overthink. Thank you for this video!


I suffered from this for years after smoking weed one day when I was 18 and having a panic attack.  After a long 9-10 years later it has faded so much that I don’t even notice or care about it anymore.  I hope you get some peace with your DR


Are you okay to drive? I definitely feel this. And I don't trust myself to drive


I thought it was exhaustion. I have feelings that I try and explain to my friends but basically I don’t feel like I’m there, as if it is a dream and my friends make fun of it as if I’m lying lmao but I don’t blame them it sounds so surreal. I also thought it was a hearing problem as it really didn’t feel like I was present, and I usually felt quite cold. Thanks for this vid bc it felt like I couldn’t relate to others :)


Dodie, this is describing exactly what I feel! You talking about it convinced me to talk to my therapist about this, and things are getting better :) thank you

Aizaibi Yakin sorry for the confusion! She has talked about this in the past (and also in her book)

so josh dun with you hi I'm just curious how its possible that you contacted your therapist and that things are getting better after watching this video despite it being uploaded only literally a minute ago 😕


0:14, 4:44 Thank you so very much for posting this!!!!!  I've been going thru this for 4 years!!!  It's been so scary and traumatizing for me! There's been a lot of confusion and tears and frustration about this for me! 😢😢😢 Its great to know I'm not alone! I've tried alot of different things to fix it! And nothing works! Even antidepressants! Someone suggested to me; try smoking marijuana but, I'm scared of that stuff. Please keep us updated about how you're doing on your next treatment.


You have no idea how happy this video makes me. I was extremely scared that I was going crazy or something when I began experiencing depersonalization and anxiety (including panic attacks) after this extremely stressful even in my life. Depersonalization was just such a scary state to be in. So hazy, feeling like you’re in autopilot. I had been seeing a therapist for depression but just tying to explain my depersonalization was the HARDEST thing ever and you did it so well!

Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone/ going crazy!


Sometimes I don't know which day it is, then i drive on autopilot to my job when I want to go to the store.  I cant remember how I went to sleep, yet I woke up in my bed.  The one thing that helps me is watching Dodie!  And poetry!  I have your book!


a few years ago i went into a haunted house and came out feeling disconnected. eventually it went away and i just brushed it off. a month or so later it happened again and this video helped me realize i’m not insane and after more research i’ve come to the conclusion that it’s probably a severe panic attack for me. there was a period where i was very depressed and anxious and when i looked at people i felt like i didn’t recognize them, like when you look at a picture too long and the person starts to look like a stranger. once in a while i get that floaty feeling like it’s going to happen and i get scared and try to avoid it. i can’t remember the last time it happened but i’m absolutely terrified of it happening again because i know it will someday


I have been absolutely floored by this video.

I can’t believe one of my favourite artists also suffers with a dissociative disorder. I’m only 20 seconds into the video, and the moment you mentioned derealization I almost cried, because I’ve never been able to relate to anybody in some aspects with my DPDR (depersonalization/derealization disorder). I’ve only started seeing somebody other than my counsellor about it very recently, so it’s as if the stars aligned for this video to be uploaded.

Thank you so much, Dodie. This video means a lot to me and the countless other unspoken sufferers of dissociative disorders.

Edit: I made a short film on my channel earlier this year called Permanent Shadows, in which the main character dissociates from reality a couple of times throughout the course the film. Not a perfect depiction of the symptoms, and not what the film is primarily about but just something I feel is relevant.

I have been absolutely floored by this video.

I can’t believe one of my favourite artists also suffers with a dissociative disorder. I’m only 20 seconds into the video, and the moment you mentioned derealization I almost cried, because I’ve never been able to relate to anybody in some aspects with my DPDR (depersonalization/derealization disorder). I’ve only started seeing somebody other than my counsellor about it very recently, so it’s as if the stars aligned for this video to be uploaded.

Thank you so much, Dodie. This video means a lot to me and the countless other unspoken sufferers of dissociative disorders.

*Edit:* I made a short film on my channel earlier this year called Permanent Shadows, in which the main character dissociates from reality a couple of times throughout the course the film. Not a perfect depiction of the symptoms, and not what the film is primarily about but just something I feel is relevant.

I have OCD, anxiety, and a panic disorder and it's so great that Dodie is spreading he message and helping to "normalize" and de-stigmatize mental health and discussions about it

dontlookatluke I could relate to it too! :'( feels good to know.


This used to happen to me a lot back in middle elementary to middle school when I would have severe anxiety attacks. I always just thought I was crazy until someone else has told me they experience the same thing


I've experienced something similar twice. Both at parties in my school, the same occasion, it was carnival.<br>I just felt like I was watching a movie and not actually being there. I was grabbing my friends and trying to concentrate on something so this weird thing would go away, which it did, but for maybe a few seconds before I'd feel like I was not physically there. I remember watching my friend run towards someone and I watched her, feeling like she was disappearing frame by frame. I don't know what it was, but it wasn't really pleasant.

I've experienced something similar twice. Both at parties in my school, the same occasion, it was carnival.
I just felt like I was watching a movie and not actually being there. I was grabbing my friends and trying to concentrate on something so this weird thing would go away, which it did, but for maybe a few seconds before I'd feel like I was not physically there. I remember watching my friend run towards someone and I watched her, feeling like she was disappearing frame by frame. I don't know what it was, but it wasn't really pleasant.


i recently went to one of my fav musicans shows in february and cant remember much about it which is extremely sad cause this artist makes me feel grounded and the fact i completely dissociated the night of the show has taken a toll on my mental health cause it was such an amazing experience and i can only just remember that i was there by looking at the videos i took.


when i first watched this video in 2017, i couldnt imagine what this would feel like. then, in 2019 and 2020, i went through some SHIT and met someone who had this condition. i explained to them how i felt and realized i was disassociating for the past year. during quarantine, it allowed me to finally care for myself and i began a spiritual journey. it has helped my disassociation SO MUCH its insane. this just popped up in my feed and i thought how ironic this was. now, in 2020 i am finally helping and understanding myself


Even though this is a serious issue

I love the fact you’re just getting on with it, not looking for sympathy and making this video purely to educate others and gives tips on how to cope with this😊

I don’t suffer from Depersonalisation or Derealisation but I’m glad you covered this topic to help others 😊💙


wow dodie helping one day at a time. i love you!!!


I have this condition too! I’m only in my early teens so I can tell it’s not getting older! Dodie, just enjoy life and be superior because we are brits and we have the best accent. Plus we spell coloUr and centRE right (😂)


So I had this for about 4 months ish and I’ve really started to come out of it so here are some tips if your feeling a little lost in your this feeling
1) I always found it much easier to cope when I was happy whilst experiencing this , however happiness comes and goes and you can’t always rely on it. however there is one this that will help you even when you are feeling the lowest of lows and that is..... MEANING. This can be hard for a big reason -life has no inherent meaning, however this gives us the freedom of creating our own so I recommend u draw ur self a lil stick figure of yourself and you write all the things that give you hope and meaning this can be extremely difficult( especially if your inclined to existential dread like moi) but this will get you through rough times by having a reminder that you have meaning and purpose. if you feel lost and meaningless  then now is the best time to think about what gives you purpose.

2) ‘living=experiencing’ if you feel really disconnected and spacey just know that that is a state of BEING just as well as joy and hurt and all other feelings you are experiencing therefore you are here and present because of it.

3) you WILL get better! This is really hard to even imagine especially if yours is really bad but if you let it pass and don’t let it overtake you you absolutely will get better. to help me with this I drew a rough graph of my recovery- it has many bumps and many lows but day by day, month by month you will get better. I know because I’ve been there. You can and will overcome this

4) rescue remedy!

5) this is just something that worked personally for me but I found anything science or maths based really good it’s a great distraction and requires lots of focus. In particular biology I found it really grounding- possibly because I’m learning about life.

6) focus on FACTS you are a human that has got a bit to overwhelmed and your brain has decided this is what’s its gonna do for a while. You are experiencing a common coping mechanism your brain uses but your probably thinking about it way to much and it’s the only thing you can think about. It will pass if you simply let it. The coping mechanism was designed to fade away but our “clever” minds decided to ruminate and obsess over this feeling until it becomes controlling. Just experience it when you come out of it you’ll realise how crazy it was to feel like that and how incredibly strong you are

7) write yourself a paragraph to read when it’s really bad this could say things like breathe in and out your just very overwhelmed and this is how your coping, it will pass- For example

8) this is it- this is probably the worst it gets just know that like everything change is inevitable your are coping with dp/dr and living and battling through it. Everyday you chose to live and to breathe is a victory what your dealing with can be an actual nightmare but just know you ( probably) won’t get any worse the only other place to go from here is up ❤

@Alyssa Eve I don’t know if my is caused by stress all what but it’s the first time I’ve felt something like it and it get bad because I’m a reserved person and don’t talk or share about my emotions with anyone,that being said I’ve just been feeling like this and all the people around me don’t even know and sometimes I take pictures of myself and to my surprise I don’t look like anyone who’s feeling that way😬😬😆

@Alyssa Eve your comments means the world to me🥺🥺tired of people just liking my post…..honestly I know that I’ll never take “feeling normal and in the moment” for granted again because all I just pray for every night is a chance to just be myself again and do all those things I know I should’ve done but didn’t want to do👌👌it gives hope knowing that it’ll all be normal again….so right now I’m going on a school trip but it just feels like I’m a passenger😩😩😩

@Nicholas Chuma also from an actually recovery point of view, you just have to keep moving, if your dissociation was caused by stress or trauma then it’s worth seeing a therapist or councillor about that, but if it’s drug induced or somewhat random then do your best to find healthy distractions, I promise it’ll help. Dissociation thrives off of anxiety the more worried you get by it, the more you manically research it the worse it’ll get. I was OBSESSED by my dissociation. I would look up so much about it and It became an identity of sorts. I know it’s incredibly hard but try and avoid this. I found writing down a list that describes who I am completely separate from dissociation. Eg if your artistic or clever etc- find an identity and a grounding point that isn’t dissociation. Honestly the best thing I did is just tell myself to move on and get over it, as harsh as that can seem. I’d laugh at myself when I’d dissociate and remind myself that it was just me being silly and overwhelmed and I’d be fine soon, and this is what actually made me recover. I can’t emphasise it enough , recovery is about letting go and continuing to live your life in spite of how out of it you can feel.

I hope that makes sense feel free to ask more questions!!

@Nicholas Chuma yeah I really relate to this! I think the hardest part is remembering that the way you feel now is temporary and you won’t always feel like this horrible dissociated feeling - I know I felt it was going to be never ending but despite that I just kept telling myself and telling myself that  at some point I would get better. Time really does heal everything but with dissociation at least for me time moved so SLOW and I know that doesn’t help in recovery. When you do recover I promise that you won’t take it for granted- at least I definitely don’t, you’ll see things in a whole new light and you’ll really appreciate feeling normal. For now I’d recommend to just keep living your life as much as possible and don’t limit yourself because of it, I promise it’ll only make it worse when you get into that mindset. I wish u all the best in your recovery, and from one dissociated person to another; you can do this and it will pass <3

@Alyssa Eve I’ve been feeling like this for almost 4 months now…….I can see myself doing stuff but it’s as if I’m just moving through the day and doing nothing productive and just finding ways to get over the day🥺🥺🥺please don’t take feeling normal for granted…..I would love to know how it stopped for you because sometimes I just feel like it ain’t gonna be normal again

@vip yeah a lot of people find general cognitive things a bit harder, memory can also tie into it too so don’t fret it’s all common symptoms!

@HungryBurger619 <br>Thanks for your comment I actually did, I started fully recovering in the new year and I’ve honestly never been more happy to just feel normal. I very rarely get feelings of dissociation now and when I do I kind of have fun with it and I’m not scared about it (which ironically makes the feeling go completely away) so yeah I would say I completely recovered

@HungryBurger619
Thanks for your comment I actually did, I started fully recovering in the new year and I’ve honestly never been more happy to just feel normal. I very rarely get feelings of dissociation now and when I do I kind of have fun with it and I’m not scared about it (which ironically makes the feeling go completely away) so yeah I would say I completely recovered


I've missed your honest ass so much, dodes.


Hey. I can really recommend doing bodyscans. It's the one thing that's really starting to help me with my derealisation. When you first uploaded this video 2 years ago I stumbled across it and that was the first time I really heard someone else talk about something that strongly reminded me of what I myself was experiencing and it kind of was a great relief and the starting point of my ongoing journey of getting to know myself better. Been in therapy now for 1 and a half years and started doing bodyscans about two months ago. There are hundreds of videos on You Tube an once you get used to it you can also just do them yourself without a video. Basically what you're doing is focusing on one body part at a time and trying to feel what's really there. There is a form of therapy that only focuses on bodyscans - you are doing 30 to 45 minutes of bodyscans every day for 8 weeks or so - and according to my therapist it helps people with all different kinds of issues to an astonishing extend. I was a bit sceptical at first but after I've done a bodyscan each and every day for the last two months I can really say that it is helping me. It takes some days in the beginning to notice a change but after 3 weeks or so I could already see a big difference from when I started. Helps me being more inside my body and less inside my brain. Handling emotional situations with emotions instead of my head trying to make sense of it and shutting the emotions out. I also find it more easy to be in the moment instead of either thinking about the future or the past. I feel like that was exactly what's keeping me from experiencing my life as real. I've also come to the realisation recently that maybe my habit of waiting for the future where I'll enter my "real" life again is what's keeping me from getting there. Because my real life is happening right now at the spot where I'm at. And the future is in the future. <br>Well, that comment is a little bit all over the place. Just wanted to share what has helped me - especially the thing with the body scans. I'm actually quite surprised how something like that can have such a positive impact and actually change something. Through therapy I learned to better cope with my derealisation but felt like I never actually got to the core of the problem. With the bodyscans I finallyfeel like it's possible that I'll live without derealisation at some point. But you do need to be consistant for it to really work though. If at all possible do it every day for at least 8 weeks. Hope someone finds this helpful. You're not alone!

Hey. I can really recommend doing bodyscans. It's the one thing that's really starting to help me with my derealisation. When you first uploaded this video 2 years ago I stumbled across it and that was the first time I really heard someone else talk about something that strongly reminded me of what I myself was experiencing and it kind of was a great relief and the starting point of my ongoing journey of getting to know myself better. Been in therapy now for 1 and a half years and started doing bodyscans about two months ago. There are hundreds of videos on You Tube an once you get used to it you can also just do them yourself without a video. Basically what you're doing is focusing on one body part at a time and trying to feel what's really there. There is a form of therapy that only focuses on bodyscans - you are doing 30 to 45 minutes of bodyscans every day for 8 weeks or so - and according to my therapist it helps people with all different kinds of issues to an astonishing extend. I was a bit sceptical at first but after I've done a bodyscan each and every day for the last two months I can really say that it is helping me. It takes some days in the beginning to notice a change but after 3 weeks or so I could already see a big difference from when I started. Helps me being more inside my body and less inside my brain. Handling emotional situations with emotions instead of my head trying to make sense of it and shutting the emotions out. I also find it more easy to be in the moment instead of either thinking about the future or the past. I feel like that was exactly what's keeping me from experiencing my life as real. I've also come to the realisation recently that maybe my habit of waiting for the future where I'll enter my "real" life again is what's keeping me from getting there. Because my real life is happening right now at the spot where I'm at. And the future is in the future.
Well, that comment is a little bit all over the place. Just wanted to share what has helped me - especially the thing with the body scans. I'm actually quite surprised how something like that can have such a positive impact and actually change something. Through therapy I learned to better cope with my derealisation but felt like I never actually got to the core of the problem. With the bodyscans I finallyfeel like it's possible that I'll live without derealisation at some point. But you do need to be consistant for it to really work though. If at all possible do it every day for at least 8 weeks. Hope someone finds this helpful. You're not alone!


oh my gosh dodie thank you so much for making this video


I remember way back when I watched this I was very well, disbelieving, I didn't think this was real until around this year and last year I started having derealization disassociating alot, blacking out in places became a thing and staying in a constant blur and forgetting things right after doing them, even if it was consistant hours of talking to a friend in the phone will leave me every time. I learned it was a symptom of ptsd, Something they wanted to diagnose me with before but I kept denying my traumas were traumas. Until now I realized I started negatively affecting my actual daily task, including school. Which the strength of the disassociating increased with new challenges as I moved and started a new school for the 5th time. I think what I'm trying to say in this comment is this is alot for me to take in realizing this is what I've dealt with this whole time and thought what your saying wasn't real. It is real, and it's alot, sometimes scary. Thank you for explaining your situation for everyone to be educated. In the end I had to learn the hard way, but it's nice to know I'm not alone.


Currently undergoing therapy, but I've been going through DP/DR for almost two months now, and it is one of the worst things I have ever experienced. I remember in the first week I would almost be brought to tears because nothing around me felt real. Another time I felt like I could see through a table, like it didn't exist or it was invisible, but of course thay wasn't actually the case.

I suffer from anxiety and depression alongside it, constant fatigue washing over me. I can collect energy to get me through a few hours, then I want to lay down. It's a very helpless feeling when you're in public, because you can't escape. I don't have many visual distortions in reality, like the world tilting or things becoming darker, but I get easily sensitive to light, and things feel farther or closer than they are.

It really does suck, and even when I get out of severe episodes, it always seems to linger in the back of my head and make it heavy. Even if some of my experiences are different, it is still so comforting to have people who feel this way too. I don't feel as crazy. Thank you  Dodie for giving me a space to talk about this. ❤


I almost got chills when you said something about Christmas lights. I first had an "episode" of depersonalization and derealization at a Christmas lights show when I was only TEN years old. I felt like I was going insane. I took me so long to find out I wasn't alone, but I've never connected to any of the symptoms people had mentioned until this video. Thank you so SO much. This video has, and I really mean it, changed my life.

I don't think i have ever related to a comment like i just have.Everything you said resonates with me and I can see many similarities

I dont think I have this but the Christmas Lights and a few other things I could relate to


I have lived with this for 30 years, thanks for sharing.


This is how I feel right now during this quarantine and on top of that I feel all over the place with a baby and dealing with a business that I help manage and take my mom to work everyday I feel all over the place it feels like I’m not here anymore. But I have to keep pushing 🙇🏻♀


Damn, I feel you. <br>I used to think maybe we really are in a Matrix.

Damn, I feel you.
I used to think maybe we really are in a Matrix.


This happens to me- and I never knew what it was. I always thought it was just me. I described it as seeing the world from a third person point of view, like a movie, or a dream. It doesn't seem real.


I might actually have this so thank you for this. I thought I have been going blind and I was very depressed but this might be my problem. Thank you

im so glad millions of people have this (not saying its a good thing) im just saiyng im glad im not alone and that i was nt the only one feeling like this or going through this badp roblem i think its mostly from stress so they said its a "defense mechanism" to keep you from that stress, or otherwise you would be devastated by that stress, my mom told me

Merlin Brennt its not rare, it's the 3rd most common mental disorder after depression and anxiety

I've been having similar problems. I thought I was getting some sort of dementia at  the age of 20, had problems remembering a lot of things with an IQ of 160, forgot where I was, wondered who I was, I don't know if this could be the cause. My family seems connected to a lot of disorders and genetic dysfunctions, so this wouldn't suprise me. But anyway, self diagnosing is a dangerous practice. I'd go see a doctor if you experience problems like these, only that way you can get treatment if that's actually the case.

I’m still a student at school and I’ve always felt the same in like class for example but I just only thought it was me until I stumbled across this video, now I know it’s a real thing I feel so relieved

I mean if you think you are going blind , you really need to see someone. A gp.

Well go to a doctor to get a proper diagnoses

A few years ago I have personalization and derealization for months and when it first started happening I remember I got home and was just crying to my grandma about how my eyes weren’t working and it was the scariest thing ever
And I actually discovered one of my friends has had this sense she remembers so that was nice I don’t get derealization almost ever anymore and I get depersonalization sometimes but if I destruct myself with something I will forget about it and it just goes away
But when it first happened i was just in bed trying to distract my mind for months not really about to do anything then I got my first job and it started to go away but that first year was just scary

I have social anxiety but my parents think that it's just me being nervous every single day

Michelle Ponce I think I might have mild derealization, i often start fantasising I'm somewhere, and then all my senses go away and I'm there, like a daydream but also not, and also some things she describes, like sometimes everything getting darker or brighter and never taking information in from when it happens

Merlin Brennt not rare at all, it’s even a symptom of panic attacks which could also explain why many people have it.

Merlin Brennt it's the third most common mental health problem, didn't you watch the video? She never called it rare.

Merlin Brennt i hate it when people self diagnose too

wow so everybody has this rare condition now, interesting

Michelle Ponce I see you everywhere! Weird to see we share more than just the same last name but also the same taste in videos!

Solo Potato maybe show them this video? My parents might ne sending me to a counselor to get help

Same. I told my parents but they said I was fine. She was describing exactly how I feel

Same here! Its been getting worse the past couple weeks for me and I thought it might be depression or epilepsy but im glad that im not going blind or anything


So this video made me think about similar experiences i have.
Sometimes i lay down in bed or on the floor for no apparent reason, mostly while listening to music bc i always do that, after some time i kind of "wake up", i dont know how much time has passed (sometimes it was a few hours, sometimes 30 min), everything feels unreal and as if i just wasnt there, but when i look through the songs that were played while i was in that state i clearly remember hearing it.
Next one, i look in the mirror and i know that the person i'm looking at is me, but somehow they dont look like me, it feels like they are just blankly staring at me and i cant believe that i could ever look so lifeless. I walk away from the mirror  and most of the time when i come back it looks like me again and i can recognise the face as my own.


Our story is same/ had depression due to this and then I found name :) now everytime my anxiety triggers I get into this state like lost n head is gone crazy / weird symptoms :/


this is the most accurate description of it i’ve ever heard. notbing works for me either and i feel it every second and it makes me really sad too


God and writing always helps me when I get down. You are an excellent writer! When you are feeling this way, I recommend that you keep describing it through your writing. It will not only help with your anxiety, but it will also create an amazing work of art. I used to have HORRIBLE and vivid nightmares. However, I started to use them to my advantage by creating horror stories based on my dreams. It really helped me cope with the terror, and I actually started looking forward to having nightmares because my stories were so cool! Lol! So, in conclusion: I recommend that you use it to stimulate your creativity, but at the same time, you should always pray to God for guidance and clarity. I will pray for you as well!! 🙏


I saw this video a few years back and I stumbled upon it again and I realized I’m not alone. thank you.


I had a few depersonalisation experiences when I had panic attacks. I had no idea what it was which made it really frightening. Sat around afterwards not knowing if it had gone or still lingering, was only ever brief so I can't imagine how it must be for people that suffer with it. Yeah the brain can do some strange things.


I watched this video a few years ago and was confused because that was normal for me but I just got diagnosed and everything makes so much more sense.


i remember watching this at the time and thinking 'wow that must suck' and coming back to it now, after doing a LOT of research and finally reaching out to my GP, i'm pretty sure i have it. i was right, it does suck!!! i've not felt real for months!!!


If you are suffering from a mental health problem, DON'T GIVE UP ON TREATMENT! Treatment is very personal, so it can take time to find what works for you. Hang in there! Don't give up! You are a strong, valid human being.

omg it does take time and im already giving up. I feel like, as long as it doesnt affect my life, ill get used to it, hoping that im gonna be fine.

Treatment might not always work on certain people

So true. took me years to find the right type of treatment.


Wow never knew this had a name. I recognize this for some parts in my life. The worst thing experienced was loosing understanding of language for a short time. For me it is stress related.


For me, the disconnect makes me feel like I'm in my own world, and in my world all the people look scary. I feel like they're robots or puppets being controlled, and everything they're doing is programmed. One time I met eyes with my mother and I couldnt look at her because she seemed so foreign and scary. It was like I couldn't recognize her.


the first time i ever felt this i was in grade 3 in a swimming class with my pe teacher yelling at me. i have C-PTSD and my main trigger is sound. my therapist described it being the easier route for my brain to take rather than going into a panic so it makes me disconnect from reality. i've never been scared of it but it negatively impacts my memory in my classes at school and definitely my focus. i often still have a panic attack after these episodes so :/


I’ve felt this way for 2 years, and it is just my new normal now. The only way i can tell i still have it is my memory issues and how my feelings feel strange, i can be crying my eyes out; yet not feel sad at the same time.


Can I just say: your videos on this have been so, so helpful to me. I've had depersonalisation for years but I never understood what it was until you started making videos about it. I just assumed it was an anxiety thing. But it was so scary feeling like I couldn't focus my eyes on things, and I couldn't remember things, and feeling like nothing was real, and having no idea why. It helped and comforted me so much to learn what it was and to know there are other people that have this too, and I'm not just weird. Thank you, dodie xx

I'm so sorry you're suffering with it. To be honest, I don't really know what helps.The only real thing I've found is removing myself from the situation; I think I'm much more likely to experience it when something is really stressing me out so I try to find some space by myself, stop, breath for a little bit and focus deeply on things that are concrete (like the way my hand feels when it's resting on my arm, or something small like that) and wait for it to pass. Otherwise, I find that my anxiety makes it worse. So I just try to keep my anxiety in check by doing meditation (I use the free sessions from the HeadSpace app) and sleeping enough. I wish I could be more helpful. Best of luck xx

Christy Anne Jones Hi sorry if this is kinda out of the blue but I was wondering if you've found anything that helps make it any better? I have a pretty severe case of it and relate to everything you mentioned - so yeah was wondering if there was any way out..?


Every single day i feel like if im in a dream it makes it alot harder when im at school.

And Im doing sports but it doesn't help completely but it can slowly decrease it but it would probably take a very long time

Кристиян Трънбашев

I have headaches , mood swings and exhaustion that come with my DP/DR

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I feel like I've definitely experienced some of these things to a lesser level in my life and I also sometimes feel like (as I put it) like I'm behind a glass wall. Like, I'm not sure its quite the condition that is derealisation because it doesn't entirely match up with what you are saying but there's something. To be honest it may just be because I have anxiety, and that's what I've always thought it was, and I still think it is, but it is interesting to think could be something separate


Do you guys experience sometimes when whatever is happening, that you feeling it like remembering a memory? like it's not happening atm, but in the past and you're remembering it. and then you realize it's actually happening NOW and it's a really weird and scary feeling. like it's ACTUALLY *HAPPENING*, AT THE MOMENT it's something that i just can't warp my mind aroung

yea i feel like that sometimes too because i zone out all the time my mind is always in a different place but when i snap out of it i freak out "oh sh*t i'mactually here i have to do something" so you're not alone i think!!


awareness around this is becoming super good!, ive discovered you a week ago by your songs and now i see that you have the same issue that ive had for a year now.. after smoking weed, which didnt go that well.

sucks that weed triggered it and by reading the comments, it triggers this "illness" alot.. but well, life goes on, even if its hard and specially the beginning of it was so terryfing.. its like, your whole world which you lived in for 23 years is turned upside down on an instant, its scary and hard to deal with.. also you are more turned inwards instead of outwards in terms of your "focus", like having more connection to your Soul and whats going on. hard to describe..

the feeling of unrealness, of depersonilisation.. people suddenly feeling distant, unreal, not familiar, like not emotionally connected to them, umm.. hard to deal with in the family and stuff

Imagine waking up and every color you knew is non-existand anymore and there is new colors instead of the old ones you knew, kinda like that :-)

life goes on and we´ve learned alot from that ! :-)


i needed this. i thought i was going insane but finally seeing someone publicly address it is so comforting & makes me feel less alone.


Is it possible to experience this in small amounts? Because I feel like I definitely experience these symptoms but in small bouts — like a few hours or less on random days — and usually connected to some sort of stress or anxiety.


When it’s been two years since watching Dodie and you start to feel like Dodie. It’s so exhausting.


when i start to float away i tend to think about my future self. i’m going to the 12th grade this year and this entire summer my thoughts have been on my future. My anxiety was really bad this summer but i’m not going to allow that to get to me. i’m happy that i was able to learn about this. i’m hoping to get help real soon


I have had this since I was 6 and I used to cry about it all the time. I was always terrified that everything wasn't real or it was a dream. It got worse when my mom died when I was 8. I am now 15 and still haven't been properly diagnosed. But I dont need a doctor to tell me I dissociate because I know I do. You dont really need a diagnosis when you never feel real😕