Oh no~ I always feel very unreal<br>Like the first time it happened was on the trampoline I started panicking and was like where am I am I real what is- and my "friends" were like what???

Oh no~ I always feel very unreal
Like the first time it happened was on the trampoline I started panicking and was like where am I am I real what is- and my "friends" were like what???


Wait do you go to the doctors if you think you’ve have this? I’ve had this since year 10 so 4 years. But I’ve never been diagnosed🥺


OMG!! Okay thank you so much for making this video because apparently I have this too, it is good to know what it is because I have been really confused at what is happening and I don’t talk to people about it because I feel like I’ll sound insane.. I’m glad I am not the only one.

Sopie B. I get that. I was never able to explain what was happening to me untilnI saw one of her videos. Now I can show this to my friends and tell them: that's what's happening to me. Stay strong, you'll fimd your way to deal with it :)


I really feel like young people (like in their teens) need to have a clear education on what is and isn’t normal. I had severe anxiety and ADHD growing up but I didn’t know what those things looked like because nobody told me, so I just suffered for years. On the flip side of that, I thought I had depression when I was in my teens because of tumblr (thanks tumblr) when it turns out I was just going through puberty and puberty sucks. Now I’m fully educated on anxiety, depression, and ADHD, but that’s only because I had to do a fuck ton of research and trial and error with doctors on my own. Anyway, now I have actual depression so lol.


I suffer with this and it's horrible. I'm young and haven't told my family or anyone yet but I use cold water as a way of coping because it helps for a while. I used to suffer with night terrors which is like sleep paralysis but reverse and like dpdr. It started for me after I got heat stroke and basically had a panic attack and that feeling went and came back and now it just constantly stays with me


Sleep is very important which I recognised, it doesn’t help to get better but lack of sleep makes it much worse for me.


I've had this for a couple of years. It scares me because if I don't remember my own life, even the things that happened the day before, it's like I'm dead even before my physical body stops functioning. It's like I can't live my own life. I wish feelings and memories were as clear as when I was a child, I wish I could see things in focus, I wish I could feel as sharply. I hate living in a dream.


I have moments when I look in a mirror and I’m just convinced that’s not me. Like dead on ‘oh god what that’s a different face now’. I don’t have this condition, just that one last symptom you described, so its horrifying to hear people who feel like that all the time. Stay strong, guys. The world needs you ♥

Same happens to me. I'll look in the mirror and just stare, like it's not really me. It's so weird. Weed doesn't help when I'm in my paranoia depersonalization mode.

Has happened to me since I was a kid. Looking directly at myself in the mirror always brings on a very distressed feeling of not knowing myself.  Very strange.

joschcline Not necessarily. I've had this feeling as well but it's very rare and it only lasts for a few seconds max, so I don't think in this case it's actual depersonalization, more like mini dissociative episodes.

you could be suffering from depersonalization


you know those first person movies ? it feels like you're watching one of those in your brain, only you're the main character and the movie is your life and you feel locked into your weird cloudy brain space.


i had this same problem when i was withdrawing from alcohol and xanax


i didnt know other people went through this. i thought it was just me.


Hey i think i have the same condition.. and honestly all i can say is that im scared and dont know what to do. If you see this message plz DM me 🥺


thank you so much for making this in such a positive way! it is so nice to have somebody talking about mental health without all of the taboo and shame that normally comes along with it. i am in no way saying that mental health should be glorified, but seeing somebody so positive in such a hard time is really refreshing. good job dodie <3


Woah. Wait. I feel like this is what I’ve been feeling. I’ve always felt like I’m watching


one time when i was having a really really bad episode and i saw myself in the mirror and like what she wrote, i was getting freaked out then i like got into this weird trance like thing where i was just standing there staring at myself in the mirror banging on the mirror with my fists and theres still marks there looking back im honestly scared, can any one relate?

Hey! I hope this helps. Don't be afraid it's perfectly normal it happens to me as well. I will avoid mirrors because of the fact that sometimes I'm so familiar but so unfamiliar looking at myself in them. Don't worry I know what you're going through. Try to look at yourself in the mirror and think that this is u and nothing has changed, I hope this helps!


This helped me realize I have derealization


20 years now with DR. No faith will get rid of this one day. Have given up already.


I’ve dealt with this ever since I was a kid. I’m glad you posted this video. I’m in college now, and the feeling gets so intense that Im starting to get heart palpitations now. It’s literally the worst feeling in the world. My whole day feels like a dream, and I have one or multiple panic attacks a day. It’s literally killing me :/

boltoms Our brains can't deal with this society

boltoms Im pretty sure its because we have entered the new age starting in 2013 <br>the age Aquarius is afoot the time for societal change is now

boltoms Im pretty sure its because we have entered the new age starting in 2013
the age Aquarius is afoot the time for societal change is now

me too. but what if we really are in a dream

no matter how hard things get, one thing that always gets me through the most difficult times in my life is prayer, which ever God you pray to, sometimes when we go through these kind of things, we rlly don’t have to keep it to ourselves and if we aren’t comfortable talking to another person, then please don’t forget God is always there. Prayer heals. Depression, Anxiety or whatever it is that’s bothering you

it sounds like you are realizing you are a body. the body itself ..as all its senses, is an anchor of familiar patterns. death is the ultimate unfamiliar pattern. so its all related. come to accept that you are going to still be thinking while dying.. whenever that comes. its possible to realize that the brain is not the arm..leg..or the associsted sensations. its an information processing system..pattern matcher. we cling to comfort. but everyone dies. its just a ruder awakening for those who dont see their body and their brain/sense integrator/center of thought in true perspective

boltoms oh my I am dealing with something very similar! I have tachycardia, heart palpitations, panic attacks and I feel like I'm dreaming a lot. I feel like I'm dying a lot. It's hard. Meditation and yoga has helped me.


Sometimes I feel like my head is a balloon floating high above my body and I’m just there to watch if that makes sense


I feel like I have both depersonalization and derealization, but I have to be diagnosed to be sure


Folks in the comment section who see this in themselves- Hi! I was freaked out by this too as I've gone through trauma, etc BUT I looked into it and ADHD presents itself differently in "women" (whatever that means to you) and- because of sexism- we are often undiagnosed. I'm not hyperactive as in tapping a lot, I'm usually stuck daydreaming and being a bit spacey. Could be something for some of you to look into. Hope you're all okay ❤ If you have any questions or need help please ask!

I have adhd and some type of dissociative disorder. It feels very intensified to say the least


Oh my gosh... just sent this to my girlfriend, I've suffered from this for years but was never able to put to words exactly WHAT it felt like. Trying buspar, fingers crossed!


I love how open you are about mental health problems. It's so important that we destory the stigma around these subjects and make sure people know that mental health is not a weakness and that we need to talk about it. Thank you for helping me realise that its ok to share your feelings and ask for help.


Thank you for this video.. I don't know why but in my country.. Czech Republic, no one talks about this and I did not know for 5 years what is wrong with me.<br>And my therapist don't Care that much about this and said.. Just do normal stuffs and it will disappear.. It does not work

Thank you for this video.. I don't know why but in my country.. Czech Republic, no one talks about this and I did not know for 5 years what is wrong with me.
And my therapist don't Care that much about this and said.. Just do normal stuffs and it will disappear.. It does not work


Genauso ist es. Ich leide seit fast 18 Jahren daran. Depressionen und Ängste quälen mich auch :(


when i was at school... my friend recorded me on her laptop every time this thing happened to me. I would Stare- Blank stare at anything, I would stop blinking, stop moving, stop thinking- it was like my brain froze i wouldn’t remember it unless someone showed me and it’s not like i was zoning out or anything i wouldn’t talk, wouldn’t blink, wounldnt move, my pupils dilated themselves sometimes (i can make my pupils smaller and bigger on command) and i would basically have a complete stop in time and when i do remember them i could move around and everything would be frozen then i would randomly snap back to my seat. The longest recorded of me doing this was 11 minutes and 41 seconds in music class.. i “zoned” on the board. I don’t know what it is but i basically do a whole freeze.


Your description is very relatable,
Trying to explain to someone
That staring at the ceiling for an hour
Is more interesting than actually starting
that one video game my mouse has been hovering over for the last 45 minutes.
Which I played for 3 hours straight the day before,
Forgetting that I was going to get breakfast.
People usually understand one half,
But not the other.
Being demotivated to do something fun
Is not only weird, it's also a sign
That you will not finish what you've started
Unless you are forced to do so.
Since the idea of finishing it one day
Is euphoric, while actually doing so
Is an absolute bore and a letdown.


This happes to me, too, but it's not always when I'm stressed, it just happens sometimes, and often around people, but not always. Is it normal? Should I see someone about it?

I feel like the severity of it varies from case to case. It seems that a lot of people experience this sort of thing, but it isn't bad enough to seek professional help. If it begins to take a negative toll on your daily life, I recommend that you reach out to someone you trust and discuss whether or not treatment is necessary.<br>(but regardless of severity, i think everyone who is able should attend a therapy session every once in a while. your brain deserves checkups too!)

I feel like the severity of it varies from case to case. It seems that a lot of people experience this sort of thing, but it isn't bad enough to seek professional help. If it begins to take a negative toll on your daily life, I recommend that you reach out to someone you trust and discuss whether or not treatment is necessary.
(but regardless of severity, i think everyone who is able should attend a therapy session every once in a while. your brain deserves checkups too!)

This is kind of similar to what happens to me, and even though I do have anxiety it doesn't always happen when I'm anxious. Although lately, I've been feeling like it doesn't really go away that much anymore, which seems a bit concerning to me if I'm being honest...

Meli Moocow if it is affecting you negatively, be sure to seek help. Hope you figure it out and feel positive.


I remember watching this years ago, vaguely relating, but not thinking much of it. If I felt like that I'd obviously notice. I didn't notice because I feel like this ALL the time. I've got DID. fml.

@Vengeful Polititron What am I deflecting, exactly?


Wait so this is a condition? We've been trying to find out what wrong with me for YEARS


I am not one to self diagnose as it affects me when people self diagnose for conditions I have. But I do actually experience this It feels like I’m not actually there and I didn’t realise it was an actual thing that happened to people just thought I was weird


I’ve had it for over a decade (not in one stretch but it would last for hours when it would pop up, and would happen frequently enough to notice). Oddly, the thing that has mostly resolved it is a 9-5 job. I think it was because high school, college, and part-time jobs all have inconsistent schedules and some of our brains probably have trouble processing that. Whereas having structure helps make sense of the world. I also have a short attention span which is probably another factor. I’m interested to know how consistent that is with people.

Stress and probably a lack of sleep likely contribute as well. But the job was the major differing factor. I didn’t get any better sleep after the job, so that wasn’t a factor in it improving. Although I did go to bed at the same time consistently, but I was still only getting 6 hours of sleep or less, and going to bed after midnight. And while stress can and trigger it, I’ve been relaxed before the job and it would still happen frequently.

It still happens on occasion even with a job, but it’s a *drastic* improvement. As an example, it wasn’t until 2 months into the job that I realized “wait, I can’t even remember last time I derealized/depersonalized”. I haven’t had that long of a stretch since, but it still pales in comparison.

So if you’re experiencing this, I suggest (if you can) making a consistent schedule (daily or weekly) and that might help reduce it.

I’ve had it for over a decade (not in one stretch but it would last for hours when it would pop up, and would happen frequently enough to notice). Oddly, the thing that has mostly resolved it is a 9-5 job. I think it was because high school, college, and part-time jobs all have inconsistent schedules and some of our brains probably have trouble processing that. Whereas having structure helps make sense of the world. I also have a short attention span which is probably another factor. I’m interested to know how consistent that is with people.

Stress and probably a lack of sleep likely contribute as well. But the job was the major differing factor. I didn’t get any better sleep after the job, so that wasn’t a factor in it improving. Although I did go to bed at the same time consistently, but I was still only getting 6 hours of sleep or less, and going to bed after midnight. And while stress can and trigger it, I’ve been relaxed before the job and it would still happen frequently.

It still happens on occasion even with a job, but it’s a **drastic** improvement. As an example, it wasn’t until 2 months into the job that I realized “wait, I can’t even remember last time I derealized/depersonalized”. I haven’t had that long of a stretch since, but it still pales in comparison.

So if you’re experiencing this, I suggest (if you can) making a consistent schedule (daily or weekly) and that might help reduce it.


I feel as though I sometimes,  very rarely though, experience this. It usually hits me at a certain time, in a certain space. I am unsure if this is it though, but the way you’re explaining it makes me wonder. You’re an incredible person dodie, thank you, so much.


I've had this since I was aproximattely 8 years old and as a I child I thought my life was a dream and that in reality I was a patient in a coma and I had to wake up, this idea tormented me terribly, I used to cry a lot and didn't tell my parents because I thought they would lie to me to keep me in the dream. 19 years later and I still have that feeling of being in a dream (some years the sensation disappeared luckily) but this year I realised its derealization and naming it and knowing that a lot of people has it helped me a lot. But honestly sometimes I feel like the only way out would be to kill myself because then I would know if I was right and because the sensation is so horrible that I can't think of anything else in the moment. It reminds me a lot of that scene in Inception where (SPOILER ALERT) Cobb's wife Mal is so certain she is in a dream that commits suicide.<br>Anyway THANK YOU A LOT for this video, it really helped me.

I've had this since I was aproximattely 8 years old and as a I child I thought my life was a dream and that in reality I was a patient in a coma and I had to wake up, this idea tormented me terribly, I used to cry a lot and didn't tell my parents because I thought they would lie to me to keep me in the dream. 19 years later and I still have that feeling of being in a dream (some years the sensation disappeared luckily) but this year I realised its derealization and naming it and knowing that a lot of people has it helped me a lot. But honestly sometimes I feel like the only way out would be to kill myself because then I would know if I was right and because the sensation is so horrible that I can't think of anything else in the moment. It reminds me a lot of that scene in Inception where (SPOILER ALERT) Cobb's wife Mal is so certain she is in a dream that commits suicide.
Anyway THANK YOU A LOT for this video, it really helped me.


i go through episodes of depersonalization and i’ve never talked about it with anyone but i kinda just want to put it into words: it feels like you are the narrator of your own life, seeing yourself as a completely separate character in a film. the scariest part is when it doesn’t go away and you almost exit your body (if you have ever played gta it looks exactly like that 3rd person view in my experience) and sometimes it lasts a long time and it feels like you are a trapped observer in your own body but it also doesn’t feel like your body of that makes sense? probably one of my worst fears is i will permanently be stuck in that state never being fully in touch ever again. can anyone relate?

also one thing that helps me get back to reality is working out for some reason


When I get very very anxious I disassociate and it feels like I’m dreaming, but it’s not all the time. I’m assuming that’s what derealization is like, but all the time?


IVE HAD THIS!!! I'm not in it 24/7 but it feels very sickening and dizzy-like you said, "floating". It happens a lot when I'm at school (walking down the halls mainly). Nothing feels real, or it feels unbelievable where you Are, strange to think that anything is real or unbelievable that I'm even alive. Kind of cool but at the same time I often feel like sobbing? At least I'm not the only one.


I go through this all the time Dodie!! Thank you so much for sharing. :)

 What happens to me is that I will look in the mirror or am all alone, "realize" I am a person, and realize that I am me. I will often repeat my name to myself and I feel a sort of detachment from it. Then I get this weird out of body experience where I do not recognize myself.

Usually what helps me is stepping away from the mirror or stopping where I am, closing my eyes, taking a deep breath (or a couple!), and reminding myself that it's in my head and I am overthinking. Just reminding myself that it is okay that I am going through it, but I can get myself out. It's difficult, but over time I have gotten better at it. <3


If there is people hear that had this sensations like 24h and find a way out like a real way out, tell me you'r technique please 🙏🏼❤


I actually hurt myself because I feel like that all the time and I need to feel pain to know I’m alive


If it makes a person energetic and interesting as you don't mess with it too much.


This is a good video and all but implying that derealizing never ends is so damaging. First of all people can have an episode that last minutes or hours or days or weeks or months or years or a life time. Chances are your dissociative episode will seize eventually. Second, dissociative episodes range in severity! Zoning out or day dreaming is a mild form of derealization, and leaving your body is way more intense, it's not always 100% surreal. And finally... everyone, everyone, EVERYONE!!! Experiences some form of dissociation in their life time, for some it's just more persistant than others. It's not hopeless guys!

I have been derealized and depersonalized since 7 yrs old. I remember the day like it was yesterday...the last day of my life...23 years ago.

I also experience derealization almost 100% of the time. How do I know? Because I remember what experiencing the world felt like, and also because I'll have very very rare episodes in which the world feels real again. I do think it has to do with light. I've found that wearing sunglasses makes me feel more comfortable or that sort of assuages the stimuli that gives me anxiety. I even got eye surgery thinking this would solve my problem with perception. It didn't. It's all in the brain and every day I have to deal with it, making me feel stupid because my memory is not great and also because I'm always doubting myself because of my perception. It's fucked and it does cause depression.

Yeah like sometimes I have out of body experiences where I feel like I’m floating and watching myself. Like there’s two screens overlapping each other in my vision, like I can see my first person view and my third person view. It’s really strange and I told my best friend about it, and she is kinda weirded out by it but understands it.

Yea but she said chronic derealization, i mean its kinda in the name, im assuming thats how she got it officially diagnosed?

ur mom right, but it’s YouTube hon.. She’s not a medical professional and most of what we have on YouTube is personal experience. Just take everything with a grain of salt until you see an ACTUAL mental health professional.

@J Kennimer i understand that but you shouldn't make a video if you're uniformed. The claim that it's never going to end is super misleading and yes, even terrifying to think about if you don't know better. She needed to include a disclaimer, like this is my personal experience and yours could be wildy different.

In her defense, there was a time in my 20’s where I thought it wouldn’t ever end. And I’m not going to lie, I’m not sure I wanted it to, because for me, depersonalization was almost like instant, natural Xanax. It wasn’t until I realized what my brain was doing, and dealt with those underlying issues that made me depersonalize, that I figured out “feeling” was far better than not feeling.

Thank you for saying that. I deal with this issue and for her to go and say it’s chronic and constant without expressing that this is her personal experience and derealization is not one size fits all. And not everyone experiences this the same. It’s so damaging that she claims it’s just chronic when that word does not appear ANYWHERE within the definition of derealization. I believe her story but if I happened to watch this during an episode when I first started experiencing this, I would’ve been terrified and would’ve thought this was a chronic disorder that would never stop when that is just not true.😑

For me personally, I had talk therapy and it helped a great deal. My disassociation was a fight or flight response (except my brain would do the “flying”) anytime I felt severe anxiety. It got to where it happened pretty often because I never dealt with some deep childhood issues. It took the loss of my baby at birth to send me to therapy... But at therapy all I could talk about was my crappy abusive childhood. I got stronger and as I got older I stopped disassociating. Now I live life in the moment. Sounds cheesy but you actually can overcome this .

@arlothedino also I'm ace too! Solidarity🖤

@arlothedino  yeah and most mental disorders are like that tbh. Like everyone gets depressed and feels anxiety at some point in their life but if it's interfering with your everyday life, it's time to get help. I'm just saying we need to stop talking about mental things like this in a way that excludes people experiencing it casually. Dissociating, like being anxious, are all part of the human experience.

So, dissociation in moderation and normal situations is fine. Where it becomes a disorder is when it goes on too long and affects your daily life.

ur mom right. I had pretty bad disassociation/depersonalization in my teens and early adulthood (from severe trauma). It happened less as I got older, and by my late 30’s it didn’t happen anymore. So there’s hope!


i literally felt like i was not real for 3 and a half months and it was literally the worst time in my life


Imagine having so much time that you can afford to sit around and daydream all day


i have had dpdr for gods know how long now. it used to be scary but now its just exhausting and sad


Lion's mane mushroom supplements have been very effective for me for DP/DR


i really love when you put out videos like this because it really brings awareness to certain topics. keep being amazing <3


It's been bad these past couple of days because I've been binge drinking. It's like I have slight tunnel vision on time of "dreamlike" vision. And everyday all day I feel like I'm reliving my days over. It's like my days are repeating. Different things are happening but I feel like they've already happened. Am I tripping?


it makes school awful. I struggle with it occasionally which makes my teachers think sometimes I'm just being lazy, but im not. I haven't found a therapist that even knows what it is because I don't have enough money for a trauma specialist. although it all sucks I found a friend who goes through it too and I've almost finished school

YOU CAN DO IT GIRL, i know sometimes it gets really hard, but you`ve gone so far. Never stop fighting:)


I find it uncomfortable how much i relate to this


I didn’t watch the video, but if you feel as if you’re in a disassociated state, aside from trauma as a cause this absolutely can mean you simply have toxic mold in your body from living or working in a mold environment. Be aware it isn’t visible in many building cases. There are tests you can get done to confirm and then you’re in for a year or two of detoxing.  Dr. Jessica Peatross has an Instagram and website full of further information. Good luck. 👍🏼


Oh my god, I have that too. I got diagnosed recently, and I can't help myself at all. It's not floating or dreaming, for me its more like nothing is real. I've had it for a while. It sounds more like you have Depersonalization, because that's what causes that grey blurry dream like vision.  Aw boy. We in a boat together.

Chloe Renee I feel you so much I thought I was he only one because it’s been happening for years and it’s like no one was there for me because no one knows how it really feels. When I try to explain to someone, I start panicking because it’s extremely hard to.

Same<br>But i believe i can start feeling presence through practice - stopping thoughts and concentrate on outside world and what your body feels about it

Same
But i believe i can start feeling presence through practice - stopping thoughts and concentrate on outside world and what your body feels about it

it is real.. i keep telling myself this so i can at least try to convice myself but actually i just feel that nothing is real..

faith ejdhueueye oh no i need be diagnosed

Angelina Thompson see, record your hand and say "this is how I feel everyday" and just go around and grab things etc. "Nothing feels real. It feels like the screen you're watching on, is how my life is. There's a screen between reality. "

I have felt this way ever sense i went through some stress and moved out of state, I was trying to explain it to my dad today but I couldn’t think of how. I was about to go to bed as I saw the title of this video and I freaked out because I thought I was the only one.

same,i just found out what is was last year in December


Yeah I have been feeling like this aswell


i had it in 2015 till 2017. figured out it was just my mind. start to ignorate and the depersonalization state disappeared completely.


This is super late but wanted to share that you were the only person who has ever been able to describe this before I went to therapy and I felt so seen. Thank you so much for sharing!


And guys dont forget derealisation/depersonalisation is also a symptom of anxiety and depression so keep that in mind most people who cure said depression and anxiety this symptom goes with it.


I have had this since I was 12 years old. I'm 22 now. I never knew what it was until I researched it and stumbled upon the name. I went to a therapist at 16 and was officially diagnosed with it. It's common for people with anxiety.

That explains it then. I have aspergers, depression and anxiety so the sensory processing aspects of my autism are probably amplifying it as well.

Does it ever get better? Mine is non-stop.


i feel like my life is a video game and i'm playing it, i'm talking to people, eating, sleeping, but i don't feel like i'm there, i don't feel like i'm in the video game if that makes sense- i don't wanna self diagnose but do you think this is it?


As someone who had it really bad for 5 years and had no sense of self and felt stuck in a parallel world and felt no emotions and felt like they had no connection to anyone or anything and just wanted to end it all so many times but now is starting to be on the other side of it, I want to give some hope to everyone that it does get better. It's tough don't get me wrong, I still struggle with it on a daily basis and that's after being in therapy for a year and working out my triggers, but with the right support and people around you and the willingness to work on yourself, I can promise you that you will get through this, and taking back your mind and feeling back in reality is just round the corner. And yes, it is hard and takes a lot of effort and it is a very unsettling experience, but just the gradual feeling of starting to have your emotions and your memories and sense of self back and finding out about yourself and your life in general makes it all 2000% worth it once you get there. So please keep plugging away at it and you will reap the rewards; and if you do ever feel lonely or depressed or dissociated don't be afraid to reach out to someone. You are not alone.


When I was six years old my stepmother left me in a doorway with a note saying not wanted.


It made me feel like couldn't trust my eyes I couldn't trust my thoughts I couldn't do anything and it really made me awful it was there for like 5 days I could function normally but not like fully I guess and yeah it's like Ur drunk I'm really sorry u have to go through this Ur not alone buddy


I didn't realize I was experiencing this until there was a moment where I wasn't... It was the most random moment, I had used the toilet (yeah, it was a VERY odd moment) and stood to wash my hands when I realized how bright the whole room was and I could see every corner of my vision (???) and the mirror looked so clear. I just stood there for the longest time at my washroom sink, basking in this feeling that I hadn't felt since childhood.

doddleoddle I wish I knew the right words to say, the right triggers, idek... I just want that happy awake childhood feeling again

Leigh Anne Ely no idea. It was totally random and went away after a few minutes and now I am completely aware of the yucky milk dreamy trapped feeling.

Lettura Traverse looking back on that moment... do you think anything caused the clarity or triggered it or helped it?


I have small scars up and down my arms and legs, from me digging my fingernails into my skin, trying to ground myself in where I am, trying to convince myself that the world around me is real and not a hallucination.

I've had it for as long as I can remember and until recently I mainly associated it with my anxiety and fear of humiliation.
 I've also associated it with my Maladaptive Daydreaming since I spend so much time in my own mental escape, so coming back to reality can leave me feeling disjointed and out of place, and can make me feel like the lines between my mentality and reality are blurred.


This video accurately describes how I pay attention in school...


It's aaaaaawfuuullll to feel like your dreaming!!! Once I got high and felt like everything was a dream and I had a mental breakdown because I felt I lose control of what was happening!!! It was the worst feeling ever!! Like the worst, I cried a lot and recorded everything to make sure I wasn't dreaming, cause my fear was that in reality I was passed out and was dreaming that I was awake and in control, it was in a place that I didn't know every single one so I didn't know what would happen to me if I was actually passed out. Again, worst feeling ever

@Valerie If it only happens when you're high... Pro tip: stop getting high. Problem solved.

This happened to me the very first time I got high and it sucked! I kept yelling at my bf saying things like "I'm high as FUCK right now am I going to FUCKING DIE???"
And I was just shouting at him a lot bc i was so scared but it also felt like I wasn't controlling what i was saying, like i was in a dream. I felt bad bc I've never yelled at him before and we've never had a fight or anything, but kuckily he was very sweet and tried his best to calm me down.
And the PHYSICAL feeling of it was bad too. Like my body was lagging and my brain was trying to get it to move faster than it could.

Getting high and losing connection with reality are completely different. it’s kinda silly if you think about it. I have dissociation and derealization every day and I have came back from an episode and I’m in a random place I’ve never been before, I “blacked out” and walked around for hours spouting nonsense or being completely quite for 2 hours. Getting high is not really that similar to this.

That’s crazy, I literally just commented on this video saying the same thing and saw your comment. I took an edible one time and I felt like that for a whole week or two after

Mandy, I had something very similar happen to me. I was able to come out of it with time and meditation but it was one of the most terrifying times in my life. I hope you are doing better. Thank you for sharing your experience.

Am I the only one that likes this feeling ? lol it gave me time to think and relax. idk I guess I just road out the trip.

@Ally i dont usually reply to comments but i had to reply to yours bc holy shit dude i know exactly what youre talking about the first time i ever experienced a bad trip i described it to my friend as though i felt like i was living in the past and every few seconds i would snap back to the present without any recollection of what i was doing or what i was talking about i also told her that i felt like i was switching between dimensions it was the scariest fucking thing ever

Valerie if your heart is racing and your chest feels tight, it’s a panic attack. Derealization is essentially the “flight” part of fight or flight, or your brain deploying its proverbial “airbag” in response to stress panic or trauma. I suppose you could experience derealization while high, however I think the THC in weed does some of this in your brain on its own.

I’m much older than most of the commenters here... The ONLY time I’ve felt completely comfortable smoking weed is when it’s very high quality and I’m smoking it with a highly trusted friend who is NOT going to mess with me or freak out while high. That’s the only time it’s enjoyable and fun.

Don’t smoke in a group... And don’t smoke alone.

I felt the same too while I was high...I was shooked everyone was "fine" and even scared of me. Is that panic disorder, anxiety attacks or disrealisation? I sometimes loose motivation and feel disconected like i was dizzy but i thought it was normal or becase i havent eat. Help

I’ve had it happen on nitrous at the dentist’s office, too. It was awful. It’s supposed to relax you.

erika ellis doesn’t matter. From the nastiest schwag to high quality hydro, people with true panic disorder have a hard time with most weed.

I just wanna know what y’all are smoking 🤨

Yeah, it’s pretty common for people with severe anxiety to have panic attacks on weed.  Happened to me every time, and took me a while to learn I couldn’t do it anymore..

bruh last time I was high the same thing happened to me I felt like I was disconnnected from my consciousness somehow..I described it as "being in the past like 2 seconds ago and snapping back to the now on and off" idk how to describe it but it for sure was the scariest thing ever

It only happens to me when I’m high and it’s really freaky

let go, no one is in control. our egos are all illusions. The universe (god) is the only thing in control, we are all part of the spontaneous unfolding of life and consciousness. heaven is on the other side of all fears of the ego. let goooooooooooooooooooooo

I had the same thing when I was high on weed the other day.I know what you are saying  Its really bad

Mandy too i thought i was dead until i watched my video back..  meanwhile i got rid off it and u?


I say this all the time. It’s all a big 10 year dream.


Can this be cured somehow? I severely felt like this for four years at one point in my life, where it was hard to recognize friends, I could never tell if I was awake or not, all my dreams felt like they lasted 50 years, my head always felt empty, I was always lightheaded and dizzy, I forgot all the time, I was really miserable and everything I said was emotional, I could barely eat, I could barely sleep... I honestly felt trapped. But now I don't feel that way anymore. I think I had some form of insomnia, so maybe that was it... but maybe I had this too?

Sometimes I also zone out for a really long time.. oh and that vision impaired thing, I can relate to that... all my dreams are extremely vivid and feel real... idk am I just paranoid??


Feeling like this makes it really hard to talk to people for me. I can’t look them in the eye. I never know what to say because I’m so involved in the aspect of feeling out of my body. I can never focus in on anything for that long. Everything definitely seems kind of cloudy and a blur. Like when they say feel foggy. Think about actually trying to see through a light fog and not being able to focus on a single object. Through conversation all I can really say without it being really hard is yeah. Online it’s so much easier because you can read out what you just said. It takes a while. when you lose your train of thought you can pick up right where you left off. In high school I wasn’t like this at all. I was very talkative, well spoken and quick thinking. Had tons of friends. Now it’s really just me and I’ve lost touch with a lot of people just because I can’t quickly process a thought. It’s less exhausting than working really hard on trying to piece together what they’re saying. It’s pretty difficult to talk to a therapist about these things because once I come for the appointment I completely blank on what I wanted to talk about. Or even remember/described an experience I had without having to write it out beforehand.


worse when you have underlying DID - they get really strong in those periods.


DUDE THIS IS ME. I FREAKED OUT WHEN THIS STARTED AND ITS NEVER GONE AWAY. I'VE HAD IT FOR SO LONG. I ALSO THOUGHT IT WAS DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY. WHICH PROBABLY MAKES IT WORSE. ITS NICE TO KNOW SOMEONE ELSE HAS IT

definitely recommend what megan said, you could be lucky and t could be something else

IF YOU THINK THAT YOU HAVE THIS- GO TO A PROFESSIONAL. YOU CAN NOT SELF DIAGNOSE YOURSELF JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU HAVE SOMETHING

i love you guys,  I hope we all can get through this

shit i didnt expect to have this many likes. well shit life wont changed. Everything is still the same

Uzzum i know the feeling. I'm glad you could put it on the backburner. the damn thing made me believe i had lost my mind and my grip on reality to the point that I was questioning if anything in happening in my life was real or if I was asleep somewhere unable to wake up. needless to say, that thought ran my life for a while. i would eat sleep and breathe that question every second of every day. not a great way to live through life. luckily I've made it out of that nightmare. hopefully you will too someday. things got better when I began eating and drinking healthy, exercising and not over sleeping or getting very little sleep. it could have just been a coincidence that I improved after I changed my life style but you never know. maybe give it a try. what's the worst that can happen? if you do give it a chance just know that improvement didmt happen over night for me.  it took a month and a half to see a small improvement. after 6 months it was completely gone. just keep at it. I wish you the best

i rmeme trying to explain to my parents and they thought i was crazy. I never realised what it was and it make me feel so horrible. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't eat. i was so stressed and worried because to the point because i thought i was dying. it caused so much depression and anxiety. i struggle to drive because of it as it feels like I'm not doing anything.

nothing will affect me however everything is real.

its been 5 years now and its gone worse ever since. ive just not worried as much about it.

Flynn Isabella ikr omg i thought i was going crazy 😮

Uzzum literally same and I could never explain to anyone


It feels like someone turned the contrast up, turned on slow motion with additional motion blur and made the pixel response time of my eyes so bad that everything looked like a blur. As well as deja vu. During the episode I would feel like I’m looking through vr at a video game with a full body simulation suit that doesn’t work very well


I keep zoning out and crying for comfort.


I spend most of my time feeling like I'm slightly tipsy, like, slightly dizzy and fuzzy... Is it like that?


The sense of dark murkiness and derealization came on again a few weeks ago. It's like everything was made of frames that kept slipping away constantly. Nothing to grasp, nothing to focus on. Everything just kept slipping by in a slight blur or a slight confusion without anything specific to be confused about. Anyway, there has been a noticing that there was some kind of a resistance or a sense of disturbance to the apparent state of affairs. When there is an apparent letting go or just relaxing into what has not seemed acceptable there seems to be a kind of an "opening" and ease. Even blissfulness. But there still is no one separate experiencing the "suchness of things". No head narrative about depersonalization or derealization either. Just life. Body moving, occasional thoughts, the ordinary seems wondrous and there seems to be a kind of a freedom to everything. The sense of self that seemed to have the problem with derealization or even with depersonalization is absent. That seems like a self-contradiction but that's how it seems. It's almost like depersonalization without the person that could be depersonalized. So there is no problem. Just what is appearing to be happening. There is no problem with it, and life (walking in nature etc.) seems wonderful a lot of the time. And I do know about bipolar disorder and manic phases where everything seems wonderful but this is not it. It's a kind of a quiet contentment or okayness and doesn't have the extreme swings from joy to deep depression... I mean a state of low energy can appear, and it can look like depression but it doesn't come with the depression-thoughts and there is the okayness in the background at the same time. So the okayness is not dependent on any particular state that might be appearing.

Oh, btw. Derealization can also be caused by a problem with the spine. If I remember correctly it can be due to the vagus nerve touching the inner wall of the spine, which it shouldn't be. A chiropractor might be able to fix it if that is the case.


That's interesting, I have this disorder but my development of it was quite different from yours. I got a super intensive chronic version of this disorder when I was 17, triggered by a panic attack. It literally send me into a nightmare version of this world, I lost my emotions, people's faces and presence became distorted, my vision started to glitch out, I started developing intense paranoia, the world around me kind of went into this strange-Lynch-type-slowmotion-movie mode and it was terrifying. I never knew from one second to the next how my perception would begin to mess with me, so I lived in constant fear. The only way I can describe it is that moment in a dream when you suddenly realize something is off but you can't figure out if you're dreaming or not, and this anxiety creeps in  and you know it's about to turn into a nightmate - for me it was like being stuck in that off-putting dream moment 24/7 everyday endlessly with no relief. I lived like this for 2 years before it began to get better. I find it interesting that yours seemed to 'creep in' more subtly, from your symtoms it sounds like it might be a slightly milder form than what I had. Anyway, best of luck with getting better!

CanabalisticKitten it does. I thought I had gone absolutely insane. The mind is a powerful thing, and as she says in the video after speaking with professionals it’s a relief to hear that you aren’t schizophrenic yet you still live in a terrifying dream world.  For some reason your brain thinks that reaction is better than your reality.  I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

Mine was set off just as yours was with a panic attack when I was 17. I’ve lived with it for almost 8 years now. It left me severely agoraphobic for the first couple of years. After seeking treatment for my severe anxiety it gradually went away but always lingered, with the use of anti anxiety and anti depressant medication. Now it’s back yet again and the contrast in my vision has been turned way up. I’m looking into TMS as she described here. It’s a scary place to be. I hope you are doing better.

Alex Volkov same dude, same. I hope you feel better now :<

oh god, i hope you're doing better now!!!

Good god. I have a lot of hypnogogic/hypnopompic hallucinations and my episodes can be very much like that but not that intensely for any long period of time.

But were you aware that it was not real? I don't know how strict the definitions are these days, but usually the difference between these two states that Ive heard is that in derealization you know what is real despite everything suddenly appearing crazy while in a pyschosis you don't know. The symtoms of a psychosis and DR can overlap, but if you remain aware of things then from my knowledge you haven't yet gone to a full on psychosis - sometimes a psychosis may begin with depersonalization/derelization though

I just thought it might've been because I've suffered both.  I have the permanent 24/7 derealisation and I had some small bouts of psychosis.  Derealisation feels more like being stoned and psychosis was experiencing things such as everyone's faces being very uncanny valley and I felt very disturbed all the time in general.  I'd look at a towel and notice that it would look like it was rippling... things like that.

It's not considered a psychosis by definition as during a psychosis a person cannot distinigsh between what reality is and what isn't. I thought I had developed a psychosis at first, but when I researched it I realized I didn't fit the definition. While my world-perception turned nightmarish, I was fully aware of 'reality', I just couldn't percieve it anymore.

When you develop an extreme version of Derealization/Depersonalization that is chronic, it can very much feel like a psychosis, feel like you're losing it, because it wears down your brain and the constant anxiety and visual distortions feed paranoia. However due to the ability of people with dp/dr to recongize reality (despite the perceptional changes) as well as having little impact on other cognitive functions, the disorder has it's own classification that is seperate from a psychosis.

These versions sound more like psychosis to me.

Oh my god I have been waiting so long to hear someone share an experience this similar to mine. Just before I turned 16, I had a panic attack that felt like someone had pulled my plug from the mains, and knocked me right out of the world. For about a week it was this incredibly awful feeling of not being conscious for half of the time, and then suddenly being conscious and panicking about what had happened - like I was asleep, dreaming, and then would wake up, but be standing in my bedroom, knowing I'd been physically conscious the whole time, and freaking out about it. I couldn't do anything for the whole week but lay in bed and cry, as it was just on a loop - I couldn't break the cycle, and I thought I'd be stuck forever. Lucky it improved, and moved more into what Dodie described, where I just felt a more permanent but less frightening sense of the world not being real. I couldn't really feel any sensation against my skin at all for months. It's been over a year now and I finally feel more grounded and real. I could really have done with knowing other people had similar experiences back then, so thank you for sharing!


tysm for ur video! finally i know my condition are real


I had it in my teen years and could "switch" it on and off, like "i dont want to hear that" and then i wouldnt be there anymore until it was okay. Sometimes i wish i had it now, because my brain protected me this way. But i'm glad my environment isnt as unstable as it was. I dont know. Does this make any sense? I feel Bad for wishing this.


okay, heres a story of mine. ever since i was 11, i  could see colours ( like i consciously realised i could see them, i dont remember if i could see colours before). like i didnt know it was a unique thing to see until i was 15, when i told one of my best friends very casually that "hey, today, akshayas colour was yellow man, it felt good". she freaked out so much, she freaked me out. she was like "what are you talking about" and i told, "hey, u know umm, her colour was nice? maybe she was in her best mood today?" and that was the time i realised that i could see colours, and its just me. that night was terrifying because, i felt alone and pretty much horrified that i perceive the world much differently than others. im 17 now and i still dont know why i see colours around people, but the experience is pretty much overwhelming. for my 10th grade biology project, i did one the condition called "synesthesia". i was able to relate to it pretty much, but i know it wasnt completely it. i didnt tell this to my parents because i know nobody would believe this thing i have. i considered it as a defect in my eye until my other best guy friend came into my life and said "hey, u know about auras right? yea, i think u can see auras" and it is so weird and i refuse to believe such supernatural stuff. i still consider it as a defect but hey, it is a part of me soooo gotta live with it.

and also, umm let me tell about my first crush, because the experience was AMAZING.
okay there was this one guy, in our chemistry lab, myself and my friend were doing titrations and he just came out of his class to help us with his friend. his colour was hot pink, and the moment i felt his colour, i honestly became drunk in his colour. like, his pink made me go wrong in my calculations and my readings. i was even mispelling my words! omg, his pink was like intoxicating me. and the more i saw him, the more i was drawn to him and his colour. it lasted for the entire day. then after i woke up, i think i felt really good, hoping to see him and his colour again.

woah, that’s a really cool thing to be able to see colors around people!


Try telling your brain that your "dream" permissions are too intrusive by becoming a lucid dream master. You could then try to (for example) have a busy person to set a counter app on a tight smart watch with a password. Everytime you fail to be sure, this person has to reset the counter, while you, at night, not wanting to upset this busy person (ppl are nice, she probably wouldnt mind) get lucid dreaming about yourself without the watch in your wrist.   And getting used to not having things your way in real life (in contrast to your lucid dreams) might help


I've had 2 episodes of derealization. The first was the worse. When I had it, I didn't know what it was. I was at the movies with my family, and as soon as we walked out of the movie room, everything was off. Nothing felt real. It was raining heavily which didn't help as the rain itself didn't seem real. I was so out of it, i went in to the parking lot and almost got ran over because I didn't think anything of the car. It wasn't real it seemed, so it couldn't hurt me.  I went home and napped my way out of it. The best way I could explain it was that I felt that nothing was real, everything seems like a dream, so the next day I googled "I feel like nothing is real" and learned what derealization/depersonalization is. <br>I get into times where I think I'm having an episode again, but it isn't the exact same feeling. I'm just tired/out of it. Please don't self-diagnose and if you truly think you have it, go get yourself checked because it truly is one of the scariest feelings I've experienced

I've had 2 episodes of derealization. The first was the worse. When I had it, I didn't know what it was. I was at the movies with my family, and as soon as we walked out of the movie room, everything was off. Nothing felt real. It was raining heavily which didn't help as the rain itself didn't seem real. I was so out of it, i went in to the parking lot and almost got ran over because I didn't think anything of the car. It wasn't real it seemed, so it couldn't hurt me.  I went home and napped my way out of it. The best way I could explain it was that I felt that nothing was real, everything seems like a dream, so the next day I googled "I feel like nothing is real" and learned what derealization/depersonalization is.
I get into times where I think I'm having an episode again, but it isn't the exact same feeling. I'm just tired/out of it. Please don't self-diagnose and if you truly think you have it, go get yourself checked because it truly is one of the scariest feelings I've experienced

Something like this happened to me at the movies too. I'm glad to know I'm not alone.

TheDodge people can get these feelings, even if they don't have derealization. When you get diagnosed it is when its inflicting your life etc.

Something like that happens to me when I'm at parties. I do not understand why, but suddenly the sounds become muffled and I feel I'm not there, as if something were coming off me. Often after this feeling I get a panic attack and it's not nice when you're in a disco, surrounded by people who are having fun. I don't know how to call this feeling, it's not permanent thanks to God, but it's not easy bc this not allow me to have some "normal" fun ugh

glad to know im not the only one with that fear of killing myself from not being able to handle it

TheDodge I had an episode come over me while I was at work of both derealization and depersonalization at the same time. It lasted for 7 days straight. I couldn’t feel my own body, I wasn’t there. I couldn’t tell where things were, like I couldn’t even gauge how far away my hand was from my face. It felt like I was dreaming and I couldn’t remember where I was. Or how long it’s been from one second to the next. Even if I was standing still it felt like if I wasn’t looking at something, it didn’t existed. It was honestly horrifying. I couldn’t think clear or do simple math at my job. I had a panic attack at work and did go see a doctor. It was insanely frustrating not being able to think, I was so afraid, so afraid that I wouldn’t stop feeling like that. So afraid that if it kept going on at such an intense level I’d eventually kill my self because I couldn’t handle not being able to function like how I knew I should have.<br>I hope I never experience it again.

TheDodge I had an episode come over me while I was at work of both derealization and depersonalization at the same time. It lasted for 7 days straight. I couldn’t feel my own body, I wasn’t there. I couldn’t tell where things were, like I couldn’t even gauge how far away my hand was from my face. It felt like I was dreaming and I couldn’t remember where I was. Or how long it’s been from one second to the next. Even if I was standing still it felt like if I wasn’t looking at something, it didn’t existed. It was honestly horrifying. I couldn’t think clear or do simple math at my job. I had a panic attack at work and did go see a doctor. It was insanely frustrating not being able to think, I was so afraid, so afraid that I wouldn’t stop feeling like that. So afraid that if it kept going on at such an intense level I’d eventually kill my self because I couldn’t handle not being able to function like how I knew I should have.
I hope I never experience it again.


one day i was at a roller rink and i was having a lot of fun when suddenly i look up and everything seems kinda dimmed down. i look at my skates and if feels like i shouldn’t have them on. i felt like i was in a dream and tbh was quite excited because i’ve always wanted to lucid dream but i remembered the entire day so i knew it wasn’t the case. i wasn’t even tired so i was so confused. everything just seemed so fake but yeah so raw and real at the same time and i just wanted to wake up. it really is hard to explain but when i saw the title of the video i was thankful i wasn’t just going insane. it hasn’t happened since and it been a couple years so yay?


I felt like this on shrooms once.  It was bizarre.


i’m only 15 and I’ve struggled going to school because of this or even going out in general and i haven’t gone to school for a while , anyone know any suggestions of things that could help x


I didn’t know this existed and don’t know if I had it (don’t wanna self diagnose) but I often have the feeling that I’m not really there. I struggle to talk to people and hold healthy relationships because I am spaced out and don’t remember things. Things just don’t feel real sometimes and I can see it as a way for my brain to cope with ptsd. I know I disassociate a lot and this sounds similar. Anyway. It’s always nice to be able to talk about my mental health even if no one reads this it’s nice to talk about it. Mental health awareness :)


thank you for this, it’s very important and derealisation i feel like is a very underground, not talked about topic when it really needs to be made aware to people. thank you 💕


I dreamt you did a concert at my school, then offered a prize to the person who could recite the Scooby Doo theme song the best.


Omg I get this all the time sometimes it's worse than others I feel not real


this is semi common for people who have trauma, and it stinks ngl, im sorry you have this and i hope the best for u <3


It's not a separate condition, it's a symptom. Welcome to the magical world of dissociative disorders! Of which there are four: BPD, PTSD&cPTSD, BPD, DPD, and DDNOS. There are fugue-ish states that are similar to dissociative states present in other conditions. For example, untreated AD(H)D and the fatigue surrounding chronic sleep dysfunctions.


idk if this is similar but maybe someone will understand.

sometimes I like, kinda disconnect with myself. like, I'll look in the mirror and I'll recognize that it's me but I won't feel like me.

does that make sense?
am I just crazy? 😂

Whaaaaat I feel exactly the same and I describe it exactly the same if anyone asks :OOO

Izzy Dw same with me, i constantly  feel like things that are happening to me arent happening at all and im just watching it

Oh my god that happens to me all the time

《PattiRose》 sometimes I feel like I’m not me but I’m like someone else seeing my life through my eyes and like narrating my life

It is extremely strange 🤨

i feel the exact same way. ugh. it sucks.

《PattiRose》 I think that’s depersonalisation

I've got derealisation constantly for over 2 years now. Sometimes I get episodes of depersonalisation, which feels like what you described. The mirror moment can become kinda creepy, I know.

《PattiRose》 yes it does I feel the same way


I can sympathize. I have a condition called "Severely Deficient Autobiographical Memory" or SDAM for short. And long story short, I don't have the full capability to recall or relive past events in my life like most people do. I can't even remember how a person looked like a few minutes after I spoke to them. My whole memory are factual and not visual, like generalized cliff notes of another life.  Because of this, it's hard for me to personalize anything in my past. I found out about this sometime in the past 5 years, but I don't know specifically when.  The only reason that I'm talking about this is that I recently lost someone I cared about, my best friend from high school. I'm sad that he's gone, but I also have no memories of him to look back on. 21 years of friendship is now lost and I can't even remember his voice. When I try, I get a massive migraine with nothing to gain.


While I don't have this (at least I don't think so), I do find myself zoning out and going floaty and so when I do that I eat frozen fruit. So if anyone wants to try frozen fruit, it's a small method of trying to ground yourself, or at least I have found it helps me :)


For me I'll feel like this for a few days. It's not as bad as what's she's taking about, but I get super bad episodes every so often (it's becoming more often) and then I feel high and I do stupid and reckless things. Or I get panicky and tunnel vision and bad nausea when I look at something close up.  I feel like I have to touch something to make sure it's real, but even then I'm not sure. I don't recognize myself in the mirror, and I don't associate with my personality if that makes sense. Right now I feel like I'm watching life but I'm not really there. I feel like I'm zoned out and I can't snap out of it.

Thank you Dodie! There's little to no information online and hearing your experiences is really helping me and inspiring me to get help.


My dreams always feel so real and reality always feels so fake. I don't know what to do about this, but I hardly feel awake or alive really unless I'm asleep and then everything becomes insanely real.


i can't remember if i actually have a diagnosis for this or not? it's so weird and if i don't i really hope i get it one day


This is just what being conscious is right?


I have narcolepsy and it creates a similar disassociation. I lucid dream every night/nap/sleep attack vividly and remember everything. Before I started treated (all of my youth) I would be asleep for more than half of the entire day. I've since created worlds, timelines, characters. I've induced lucid dream subconcious dives that have rivaled significant mushroom trips. I'm 22 now, before I was self conscious about it, my friends have labeled me the wierd hippy of the group. It was 2019 when I first started treatment and it has opened my eyes to how creative I am and I'm thankful.  I wish you well on your journey!!!!


I went through this through my late teens, I went through a phase I couldn’t even leave my house! But over time I gradually challenged myself to get out my shell, Gym really helped and more than anything interacting with people helped me, stay strong... there’s always light at the end ❤


I’m listening to The Fear right now and the chorus is so relatable to this lol


I  feel like i am Always in a dejavu! :D

I  feel like i am Always in a dejavu! :D


Honestly the Only way I can socialize is when I feel, at least,  a little bit drunk.


Are you getting any kind of disability help from the government? It sounds like you might be able to find relief if you take some time off. It sounds like your equilibrium feels off. I definitely feel distant from... things.  I took a few months off and I feel a little bit better.  Like, just some relief and relaxing.  And space to get reacquainted with yourself and recognize who you know you are because you remember feeling how you used to feel.


We still and will always love you dodie💛


Definitely don't want to self diagnose but I saw this video a.... While ago?.... Idk when oops... and related to it. After more research and stuff and some depressive episodes and shit I've kept coming back to it. And watching this video again makes me think maybe that's what's going on. I don't feel like I'm really here. I'm "completely out of it". That's the only way I can really describe it. But it's pretty much all the time. The thing is, I'm not under a lot of stress or anything.


Im late but..i have this too! I'm also part of a system


I don’t have this all the time, but I never feel quite all the way there. Often it takes me a minute to remember what’s going,on, where I am. Also I often space out for no reason or I realise I haven’t digested anything that is happening around me because I thought I wasn’t really there somehow. I think a lot of it is just normal being a human butwhen I get anxious dissociation goes very nicely with existential OCD. (btw I have been diagnosed with OCD andd dissociation as a symptom of my anxiety by a therapist, but as far as I low I don’t have any full dissociation disorders)


I don’t think I have this disorder, but I most certainly dissociate and experience derealization particularly when I’m super anxious or stressed (had an awful breakdown my sophomore year of college) and the whole looking in the mirror and not knowing who it is is the scariest thing. The vision thing and just being there but not there is too real, and I often think to try and keep myself here which throws me into the verge of panic. It’s totally real, and everyone dissociates every now and again.


this was such a well set out and informative video. i'm really loving the new content dodie!


you should watch The Science of Sleep it’s directed by Michel Gondry, although your condition is absolutely different the description of it sounded a lot like the plot of this movie


For me it's like I'm watching a movie. Or like looking into my eyes from a third person view but knowing I'm not. It's weird. I also have a tendency to ask myself weird questions like "is this a movie?". Idk. I don't like it. It gets scary looking into my eyes sometimes because they seem so dark and scary and unfamiliar.

I’ve had times when I suddenly felt like a passive observer of the own life; it’s quite odd


My God how do you do this. I’m three years into this and I can’t deal.

I was certain I had a brain tumor, or my eyes were failing, or I had diabetes…. Something. Anything. It’s too overwhelming to be just in my brain.

Some days I wish I’d just die and get it over with. I feel crazy and explaining to anyone else doesn’t make sense to them. I used to be so engaged and present in everything I did. Ive even had several bouts of severe clinical depression, but nothing like the hollowed out feeling of derealization.

This is miserable.


this is probably the 5th time ever watching this, its been about a year since i watched it the last time before this. i wouldn't say its gotten better for me but its gotten more manageable, im still writing this with a skewed sense if awareness but im definitely able to function. i'd just like to say i hate this. you related it to alcohol but i feel it as more of the dull sensation of being high. i hate being high because it just brings me back to this place of disconnection.

another update, i just realised that when i have these episodes i tend to look high to other people, given what i had stated prior i hate weed so

and i just realised that it's all i've ever really known, stemming all the way from my traumatic brain injury when i was 7, whoopsie


Oh my GOD! This is what I had!! In high school for a year. I couldn't figure it out, no one could help me, it terrified me, but when it went away it was scarier to me. I became extremely alone and alienated during and I'mmediately after because my family was not supportive at all, and I was afraid my friends wouldn't be either... Although now I feel they probably would have. I barely remember any of half way through 2010 to halfway through 2011. Most is a blur of me trying to stay "awake" or present while feeling like someone else is moving my body in and out Every day. I'd miss conversations that I'd have and find my family strange seeming each morning waking up. I felt like I never woke up and never went to bed...it felt like a constant stream of living...but like...living inside a body I have little control over

VickyVicVicx maybe some kind of treatment could help you?

I actually benefited from it in a few ways though. Though...I'm not sure I'm completely over it. I can still relive that mental fog if I think about the past


I woke up from a dream and started talking, not really sure why, but after waking up more I realised I was talking nonsense. Really very weird... I feel like I sometimes get this every now and then but certainly not like this and is probably caused by a lack of sleep.


I have a friend who has bipolar & since trying psychedelics has been experiencing some similar issues, as well as occasional hallucinations & psychotic symptoms, & she has found CBD very grounding, stabilizing. I hope it’s helping you too. I don’t know what the standard treatments would be (I feel like SSRIs are over-prescribed as the off-label go-to for a lot of conditions they won’t necessarily help), but if there was an obvious go-to I’m sure you’d already know about it.

It’s really great that you haven’t given up on it, & are pursuing whatever forms of treatment you can. Keep on down that path.


I'm like this often but it's a it's worse at work as, about a year ago, I had a very traumatic experience when a customer cornered me in their vehicle when I put the groceries in the car. If I didnt need and love my job as much as I do, I'd quit but I'm trying to get through it.


I’m so happy to see this video. Mine also started in about 2012.. it’s really nice to see I’m not alone. I spent years panicking about it like you until I finally accepted my life with it.. although I hope it goes away for me and you and anybody else struggling.


I don’t have DR/DP (I don’t feel like things aren’t real) but for the last couple of years, I’ve gotten progressively worse brain fog, poorer and poorer memory, and a dwindling sense of hope. Not sure what to do to fix it and not sure what to call it. Could be connected to an underlying condition other than my (diagnosed) depression. Who knows? It’s really difficult to pinpoint exactly what’s wrong with you sometimes.


My brain disassociates too during stress but it’s not all the time like yours. Sorry you have to deal with it it’s very hard to always be daydreaming and not remembering anything after a long drive, not remembering how you got there.


So that's what it's called! I don't think I have the disorder scince it's not 24/7 but I definitely do experience it on some days, I knew something wasn't right lol


i fee this way only when it comes to interacting with people.


I've experienced depersonalization multiple times, mostly in my late teens.. It's scary as hell feeling like a stranger in your own body... I would tell myself over and over i am a human until it went away. It feels like you are looking at yourself from outside your body.
I honestly thought i was going crazy.
Now i am super spiritual and believe it's spirit showing me i am a spiritual being in a body. That this is just a vessel.

Courtney Gardam this is exactly how I felt like last night and I was so freaked out

Sarah Barr yes! I have Depersonalization disorder chronically and it’s really frustrating that my memories don’t feel like mine. With all the other symptoms.. but the memories it’s such a weird thing, like they didn’t happen to me although cognitively I know they did.

Depersonalization or dissociation is soo scary, even if you just experience it once. It happened to me when I got way too drunk and high (on weed, not any other hard drug) at the same time and accidentally crossfaded. I had a whole mental breakdown I’m this hotel because I felt like I was in a literal dream, and that all my friends were dream people, and any second I was going to wake up and realize that they aren’t really my friends and I’m all alone. It was terrifying. My vision tunneled, I couldn’t stop crying, I felt like I was sitting in the back of my head and watching a movie as I walked around. 10 minutes felt like an hour, and I also thought I felt my friends feelings. It was so scary.

everyone, it happens to everyone. It only becomes a disorder if it stops you from living your day to day life. Also please excuse my name

Courtney Gardam Yes I’ve had this feeling before, for some reason everything gets...more far away? Not like super far away but something is off and you can tell.

Courtney Gardam I relate to this so much. When I dissociated a lot, I could also recall my childhood, but everything felt like it didn’t happen to me. Like the memories could have been from reading about it or dreaming about it, but it didn’t directly happen to me.


Sooo, I had what you described wrt the vision (being triggered by patterns and lights) and feeling drunk, and not able to retain information. When this initially happened, the doctors thought I was having a stroke. I had all the symptoms. After months of testing for causes, it was deemed as “Complicated Migraine Syndrome” meaning that apparently I get migraine attacks with all these symptoms without having any pain.I have to stop what I’m doing and lay down and close my eyes because I start to panic due to not being able to see anything (at its worst only outlines and shades- or half a face, the other half is then geometric lines and patterns). I’ve been treated with anitripaline to try to combat this which seems to be helping. I’ve had this for the past 6 years. If I still manage to get sudden onset of symptoms I take razotriptin which kicks in with in 20mins.


I dissociate a lot but idk if this is what I have, I’m looking for more things to try and explain how I feel because I cannot afford therapy, though I’m not self diagnosing, just trying to see what I’m feeling is happening to others as well because it’s hard to believe others feel the same ?


It's like I know I'm here but it doesn't feel that way, my thoughts scare me sometimes like- living is all about feeling right? That's what being human is about, but I feel nothing except for when I'm doing stuff like daydream, read, watch shows or play video games, all the escapism. I don't wanna turn into a shut in or something


Oh my freaking god. I don't want to  say this myself I'm not a doctor but I'm pretty sure I'm this


AWESOMELY WONDERFUL. My sister has this (along with chronic back, knees, hips, and headache pain) and she describes it as " feeling like I'm asleep when I'm awake, and feeling like I'm awake when I'm asleep" and seems stuck somewhere between all the time.  And then, she has lots of anxiety - but we're not really sure if that's a symptom of her condition, or a side effect of the medications, or simply 'real' anxiety because of how stressful living with chronic  chronic derealization is for her. THANK YOU for your open, honest discussion of this. You rock. <3


i think i might have this too 😫 you jsut helped me


Does anyone feel constantly buzzed?
like from drinking alcohol?

4:32 ah, so yes...

I also feel eyes slow-ish, and brain heavy and foggy. less emotional feeling, maybe a little less physical feeling.

this is my first 24hrs, we'll see...

could just be sleep deprivation circadian rhythm oversleep and under sleep alcohol caffeine, and endorphins.

feel like I still know everything and am physically present ( mostly) but mentally unable to access or formulate.

I read this, it helps.
https://www.carolynspring.com/blog/feeling-unreal-depersonalisation-derealisation-disorder/


I feel for you and everyone else who face such and not only you guys have to deal with that you also try and explain to people around you of how it feels and it real and you are not just being nut and crazy (please don't mind me) , I can not truly relate to what you are going through but its weird for me too, I am an artist so my job is actually to observe, but I guess I have been observing too much hence the unnecessary voices up my head and some times bugs in the sky more like vague hallucinations, sometimes I make sure I have done a task but then I realize I have just been thinking about it in my brain.... no idea what this call now,,, I think I am crazy..


I tend to disassociate whenever I don’t want to be somewhere. It’s as if I don’t want to be that person sitting there. I just want to fly away and be someone else for a minute.


I love the positive note you ended it on. So encouraging 💙


I got this after smoking laced marijuana (I didn’t know it was laced at the time) I knew something was wrong when I could see the sound waves coming out of the dogs mouth when it was barking. I flashed through time, there are pockets I still don’t remember what happened. I remember waking up outside in the snow, then flashing again and I was driving home, I saw my own death. Flashed again and I was in my bed, in the dark questioning everything. I then had my first full on panic attack, thought I was having a heart attack so I woke my parents up and they took me to the ER where they said to just try to relax, gave me Valium and sent me home.  The Valium turned me into a zombie, more pockets of time I don’t remember. I still felt like something was seriously wrong with my perception of time and reality, I reflected on everything I thought I knew, I tried to apply logic to it. I came to the conclusion that the laced marijuana was essentially a key to get back stage of the show of life. It got me behind the curtain and I saw all the gears and ropes and pullies, the lights the props, all the things that keep our mind busy from seeing the truth. None of it is real. We will never be able to grasp any of it. It’s all flimsy shallow and fake, but it’s a lot easier to just pretend it’s real and go along with it because otherwise you’re going to feel like an alien and you won’t be able to tell anyone about it without them thinking you’re crazy. And you can’t blame them because it’s impossible to know until you’ve been behind the curtain.  I was DEEP in it for a solid 3 months. My brain and everything I thought I knew was ripped to shreds and though the panic aspect of it has calmed down quite a bit, I still think about what I experienced every day. This happened 16 years ago. Once you cross that line you can’t go back to the life you left behind, at least not fully.


i’m so scared i just want to get out of this. will this ever go away?? 💔

@the vampire diaries are you OK now... I hope you are. I'm going through this now and it sucks ass


Sounds like a form of dissociation to me. Depersonalisation and derealisation are often associated with dissociation (they all fall under the same umbrella and are experienced on a spectrum, some experience more severe symptoms others not quite as severe). Most commonly the result of childhood trauma or adverse childhood experiences such as: physical, emotional/psychological or sexual abuse, physical or emotional neglect, close family member with mental illness or substance abuse (especially if parent), incarcerated parent, divorce, or presence of domestic violence in home. Narcissistic parenting can also result in PTSD symptoms.

Many people downplay the effect early experiences have or are reluctant to label such experiences as adverse, abusive even. Also, missing blocks of memory from childhood often indicates traumatic experiences. Therapies that are trauma informed that include talk therapy, CBT, DBT, group support and grieving losses, including disenfranchised losses, all help to process trauma/adverse early experiences and rewire the brain. Takes time, patience, loads of work and tears, not linear, but works.


hhhh i think i have this. I wouldn't know though, i guess. but i think i experienced this today. it was after my science exam, at lunch. everyone seemed really far away and i couldn't hear them properly, or myself even. i just felt so anxious and stressed, just constantly worrying about what i i think i got wrong in the exam. i could barely stand up afterwards and i felt like i wasn't really there. i had an overwhelming sense that i was about to cry and my vision was fuzzy at the edges. and i know it really doesnt matter-just some dumb exam that i wont even remember in a years time, but still. i felt so, so far away from everyone. it was really bizarre.


I've always been obsessed with drowning myself in warm, cuddly visions that would dance around my classroom. Sometimes my focus leaves the teacher and my mind trickles into a fun action movie. I will find myself in a jungle or a movie scene or sometimes see someone aching in sorrow as I rush over to help them. It's nice to dream but sometimes I get so lost that I find myself not even being able to differentiate my real life to daydreaming. :// Love the video Dodie! 💓

Jessica OMG ME. To me it's also like I can't properly live in "reality". My brain goes off to places and scenarios and people I've never met, or characters of books and I watch them unfold, have a new life. This helps a lot in certain cases bc I write, but then I feel like the rest of my life is nor very real. Like it's in a dimmer light or I'm just waiting for something else. Idk. My brain hurts now hahah

Depending on how real they are it could be any combination of things. ADD/ADHD, DP, visual hallucinations. Not to scare you. If it’s not harmful than don’t get too stressed just talk to you someone or your doctor if your worried don’t be afraid to ask someone for help.

To me it sounds like psychosis (hallucinations). If you really can’t distinguish real life from your visions, and it affecties you, you could go talk to a counselor. I am not diagnosing you at all, I do not have a mental Health degree in any way.

Reminds me of the movie "The Secret Life of Walter Middy". I like the version with Danny Kaye best.

This sounds like Maladaptive Daydreaming! Don't think it's considered a medical condition (yet), but it is fairly common and very real.<br>I'm not sure if this is the same thing, but I once spent at least a year in a similar situation. I'd say that 90-95% of my consciousness was occupied by an imaginary world. It was vivid and felt so real. Images from this constant daydream began to invade the real world around me, and it was distorting/blocking my view of reality. It took a long time to even notice what was happening, and even longer to drag myself out of it. Letting go of it was honestly painful, as I had actually become attached to the characters I had created. Even now, several years later, I still catch myself slipping back into it.

This sounds like Maladaptive Daydreaming! Don't think it's considered a medical condition (yet), but it is fairly common and very real.
I'm not sure if this is the same thing, but I once spent at least a year in a similar situation. I'd say that 90-95% of my consciousness was occupied by an imaginary world. It was vivid and felt so real. Images from this constant daydream began to invade the real world around me, and it was distorting/blocking my view of reality. It took a long time to even notice what was happening, and even longer to drag myself out of it. Letting go of it was honestly painful, as I had actually become attached to the characters I had created. Even now, several years later, I still catch myself slipping back into it.


I have chronic derealization 24 7 for over 30 years.


Like viewing the world through the bottom of a glass jar. Had it for 10 years.


The mind is really complex, we don't even know if we're living normally.


I don't know whats hapenning to me right now. I nearly got hit by a car on my way from school today and ever since I got home I just, I don't feel like I actually survived. Every time I hear an ambulance(which is often since I live on the same street as  a hospital) my heart drops because I feel like I'm kind of in that ambulance in some way and that my mom will soon get a phone call about my death any minute. Can someone tell me what's wrong with me?


Dodie. Seriously thank you so much. This is what I've had since I was a kid & you described it so perfectly. I'm actually tearing up because you've made me feel so much better. Thank you.


This is scary how i have all of those symptoms


I just feel like I cannot tell the difference between dreaming and reality anymore. I can’t even tell if I am in a dream or reality right now! I tell my mother about these things but she just says, “Oh I do too” like Mom I need your helpppppppp


OH MY GOD IVE BEEN WONDERING WHATS WRONG WITH ME FOR THE PAST 8 YEARS AND NOW I FIND OUT THAT ITS REALLY A THING OMG WHAT

Actually even longer than that, pretty much since I can remember. Thank you for the video!


Hi doddle - I have had this since I was 15, and I'm in my 50s now.   Hope one day there is a cure.  Thanks for making this important video, because knowing there are people out there does help.  The way you describe your condition is exactly as mine. It's still weird hearing people talk about it since I had this before the Internet and doctors I saw never really understood it. So I lived for a couple of decades thinking I was some freak of nature, and it was very isolating.  Diagnosis does help. Hopefully a cure is next because let's face it we have accepted we may have to live with it but we'd rather see normally again.


i feel like i have this or maybe it just happens to me bc im tired. please help if u have felt the same


eat!! strong!! mints!! it really helps me stay grounded if i eat like 10 at a time and then it’s sharp and my mouth hurts and it helps a lot.


hi! um im 13,, i really relate with what your saying,, i feel like this all the time,, i was wondering if teenagers can have this or is it just adults??

Willow Signs go see a doctor. get diagnosed. if u have it thru will put u thru treatment, if u don’t then u won’t.


From wikipedia (yeah I had to look it up): "Feelings of déjà vu or jamais vu are common."

Effing... All. The. Time.


So I struggle with this too and I’m so glad that you’re addressing this because this means so much to me. I never feel like anything is real anymore since I got overwhelmed with depression really badly, I got bullied and starting cutting luckily I don’t anymore but it got to the point where I couldn’t take it. But then we moved things got better but it’s never gone away there is still something horrible there and depressing to the point where it doesn’t feel real anymore. So thank you for all you’ve done! Xx


Someone please give me tips, I absolutely can't take it- my derealization has been a murder and depersonalization happens too much. Idk how to deal with this :/


I sometimes feel like I am alien. I can't taste food, I can't connect with my emotions. It's like you are color blind


I felt like this all the time from earlier 2019..........


I managed to obtain a degree while on highest honors and Dean's Lists. However, I've had derealization for over fifteen years.


I remember being very young (somewhere around grade 3/4) and going outside to play, and feeling like the world was just a little out of reach. Like it wasn’t quite there. I remember asking my friends at the time if they ever had days where they felt like they were dreaming even though they’re awake. They all said no, and I was left feeling like the black sheep. <br>But I’ve always had days like that. Sometimes, it’ll be a result of stress or spending too much time in the internet world (both of which definitely contribute to making days like that more common), but sometimes it’ll happen just out of the blue. It’s not so intense that I lose vision (though things do get a bit... distorted sometimes), but it definitely sucks while it’s happening, not being able to acknowledge that the world around me is touchable and real. But, unlike when I was so young and asking my friends, I am comforted to know that this is something that many people experience. Since Dodie put out one of her other videos distinguishing the difference between derealization and depersonalization, I realized that must be what to call this thing I feel sometimes. I’ve been finding my own tricks to ground myself, but now if they don’t work, I can just accept that I’m dissociating, and continue on without berating myself for it. Thank you so so so much for sharing, Dodie, it really does make a difference.

I remember being very young (somewhere around grade 3/4) and going outside to play, and feeling like the world was just a little out of reach. Like it wasn’t quite there. I remember asking my friends at the time if they ever had days where they felt like they were dreaming even though they’re awake. They all said no, and I was left feeling like the black sheep.
But I’ve always had days like that. Sometimes, it’ll be a result of stress or spending too much time in the internet world (both of which definitely contribute to making days like that more common), but sometimes it’ll happen just out of the blue. It’s not so intense that I lose vision (though things do get a bit... distorted sometimes), but it definitely sucks while it’s happening, not being able to acknowledge that the world around me is touchable and real. But, unlike when I was so young and asking my friends, I am comforted to know that this is something that many people experience. Since Dodie put out one of her other videos distinguishing the difference between derealization and depersonalization, I realized that must be what to call this thing I feel sometimes. I’ve been finding my own tricks to ground myself, but now if they don’t work, I can just accept that I’m dissociating, and continue on without berating myself for it. Thank you so so so much for sharing, Dodie, it really does make a difference.


Wow dodie ! That sounds annoying and difficult… I hope this video did you bettef


hey everyone!

first of all , english is not my first language so please ignore all the mistakes !

since more than 2 years i have been suffering from derealisation and depersonalisation. sometimes when i am really bussy i forget about it and life seems to be normal. but as soon as i remember it , i feel it again. most of the time its like being in trance and stuck in your own head. sometimes i suffer from bad headache because i am always tying to get myself out of my head - i cant describe it logically - sorry! however the hardest for me is that i cant get away from analysing my feelings and thoughts. i am constantly in self-observation and it seperates me more and more from my surrounding. i have already achieved the step of acceptance but now its really hard again and i dont know what to do... i am afraid i'll never be really here again...


For me it feels like everything is getting further away, like voices of people speaking to me, just like I’m floating away from my entire environment


<b>I always feel like I’m dreaming  I didn’t know that was bad ;-;</b>

*I always feel like I’m dreaming  I didn’t know that was bad ;-;*

It's not bad unless it makes you fell upset or uncomfortable


I don’t think i have derealization but childhood for me had feelings and a wholesome vibe and now I usually feel neutral, sorta? Immersed in whats going on, or kinda sad. I dunnu, it may just be me being nostalgic.

[ SomeGoodMemer ] Me. All the time. So relatable.


It should be mentioned you don't start dissociate and have a real dissociative disorder just out of the blue. It's often connected to trauma, depression/anxiety or medications/drugs. I've had a lot of derealisation and depersonalisation episodes, the longest lasting for a week straight, the shorter for a few hours before I get back in my body. For me a medication started it and then it just kept coming as soon as my mind was overloaded, usually in social situation, like a coping mechanism. I have bipolar disorder and was in a really bad state, and it made perfect sense at the time my brain did this dissociation to "help" me cope. It's so much better now that my depresson is better, my brain has recovered some endurance and I'm off that medication. But if you have no problems whatsoever in your life and feel these symptoms relate to you, it's probably nothing to worry about. You always have a reason to dissociate, otherwise the brain wouldn't use this weird coping machanism.


i’ve never been more out if it as i am now ://


i might have derealization and depersonalization because both things that happen in them happen to me quite often and i’ve wondered why i do this i’ve googled it and i’ve told my therapist about them and she has said that i for surly have depersonalization but i haven’t really got around to talking about  derealization and i should tell her about it

i would! even if it's not acutally anything or if it does turn out to be something, it's good to talk about it either way!


I have heard that Naloxone may help with treating it.


this damn disease has been with me for 2 and a half years. used 10 different medications, saw 5 doctors, yet nothing has changed. feels like my brain is about to die. idk what to do, sorry for my bed england

for the people dont know this problem, i can explain like this: i would rather have a cancer instead of this


Fuck, I've been feeling like this for past 6-7 days. When i see someone,  i know who they are but it doesn’t feel like before. I Don't feel hungry or full like i used to. My body doesn’t feel like it used to, i don't understand if I'm tired or energetic. It seem so confusing 😢😢


In a nutshell I'm saying it feels like I've been on autopilot since I'm 13 I'm now 16 and I'm still on autopilot and its really shitty. I always feel like I cant genuinely enjoy something because in my mind it's just like this isn't reality.


When I was young, I just thought everyone experienced this disconnection! But then as I got older, I finally realized and was told that I suffer derealization, which both lifted a weight off my shoulders, but put one back in place. I’m not sure how to make the episodes less bad for myself yet, but connecting with other people who experience the same thing has really helped out!


How can dissociation be a symptom and a result of depression at the same time i hate it


Don't do anti-depressants. They are super risky and can cause serious harm. I know someone who lost their mind due to Anti-depressants so please do not become like them...


Please lets be friends I didn't realise I wasn't on my own


Can ppl like this so dodie sees it!! <br>I’m wanting to use a clip from this video in the background of one of my songs about dissociation but I want to be sure that’s okay with dodie :)

Can ppl like this so dodie sees it!!
I’m wanting to use a clip from this video in the background of one of my songs about dissociation but I want to be sure that’s okay with dodie :)


the relation to coming out of the cinema to derealisation is the most solid description of it i think, that is how i almost constantly feel :/

yeah absolutely (although personaly i can't relate to the feeling of being drunk as I've never been drunk before :D )

I agree like i will be talking to my best friends who I know know me and who I’m incredibly close to but it will feel as though I don’t know hen or shouldn’t know them and I keep trying to look at their face in a different way to try and get myself to recognise them but it’s as if they’re a stranger


I wouldn’t wish this on my own worst enemy. This is such a nasty and awful disorder.


I disassociate but not to this degree, so I understand to some degree.


I am not sure if anyone is here to read this but I found something that helps after I have struggled with it for a long time.

Imagine that this life WAS real, for example, you are actually at death bed right now and suddenly, you time warp to the random day of your life.... And you are here now, suddenly able to live life again. Trivial things start to look charming, and nostalgic, and even the encounter to rude people makes you think "aw, yeah these things happen too". You don't feel so hurt because everything makes you feel warm, the existence of yourself makes you feel warm, and your short comings and weakness are kinda adorable.

Practice this every occasion you remember, and the life feels so much more real.


sometimes i feel like i am too aware sometimes of the world. like a lot of the time my mind just goes “oh wtf your real, he’s real,she’s real,.wtf is this. why are his lips moving. he’s speaking a completely made up language”


Dodes you are beautiful and i'm sorry you have to deal with this, good luck my darling


I might have to ask my doctor about this-


I've had it for 5 months now I want it to be over I didn't do drugs I just want it to stop it's been constant it won't stop I'm going insane


I had a bad experience of derealisation during the time of malaria I don't know because of pills or not can someone help me out.