Sometimes I get this nasty feeling in my stomach like something isn’t right and I’ll feel like I’m in a dream because all I can think about is the room I’m in but the room doesn’t look like it’s supposed. Like i know it’s my living room but it doesn’t feel like my living room. And also when I look at people I know that I know them but I feel very disconnected. I have to force myself to go to sleep or else I feel like I might go crazy because the feeling is so weird and I don’t feel like myself. This has only happened about four times in my life but I’m really curious to know if anyone else experiences it or if it’s some kind of condition.

you commented this a lil while ago but this explains what i experience almost perfectly. as far as i know this is what derealization feels like!! can anyone else confirm?


Glad I seen this video, really had a hard time finding much on this disease and I haven't met anybody else with the same issues as me. But after the shit ive been through its no wonder my body does this to protect itself. Although it has made me pretty much emotionless is stressful situations and I cant say I hate it. I actually like that I dont feel real and I like that I can't really feel emotions in bad situations. It really makes my shitty life a lot easier.


I just found this video, never been to this channel before, so hi lol. But I have the exact same thing. I am glad I've found someone who goes through the same thing I do. It really freaks me out and I'm still learning how to cope with it


thank you for telling us! im not sure if this is the same but i once didn't sleep much during a school night and i believe i felt similar? of course it wasn't as serious but i may have experienced it for like a day, woo. but yeah, it isn't fun lol, i wish you the best and hope you find a cure 💕


I used to have this as a child and people used to make fun of me great.


I feel kind of like that after my father death when i was 10. It feels a little better nowadays.
The visual effect of darkness you showed is (almost) pretty accurate. As a teenager I used to feel like nothing was real or like the oppacity of reality was like 10% and while beeing distracted all the time, being stuck inside my own mind all the time. I managed to get over some of this stuff and got more confident about my feelings. I believe a constant dose of natural (yet not very much probable) dopamin and serotonin dose could get our brain to work better and decide to experience 100% of reality.
I think the excessive use of screens, phones and computer makes it worse.


I have this every day I first encountered it when I was 12 I told my mother it feels like I’m in a dream and I’m not here now being 21 it’s scary at times cause it feels like your soul is gone and you just want to snap back into reality but can’t 😞


I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and Depersonalization/derealization and my psychiatrist put me on Zoloft which has severely calmed me down but from time to time I still get episodes of depersonalization where for a while I just can’t function


you've worked really hard on letting derealisation derail you!! so proud of you:))


I was struggling for about 2 years getting the right diagnose. I saw this video and told my psychologist that this seems to hit very close to home. A few months later I get tested on EVERYTHING like my IQ and all that. Turns out I also have derealisation and only very occasionally depersonalisation. Thanks Dodie for helping me getting this diagnose. I’ve been diagnosed for almost a year now and I still haven’t found a medicine or smthn lol but it’s fine at least I know I’m not the only one.


I have had constant depersonalization and derealization since Freshman year. Hang in there.


I got it too. Then got diagnosed with ADHD and it's definitely a lot better when on meds.


I actually think this is related to our thought patterns. I also have struggled with DR for the past 5 years and usually it's just a sense of unreality for me - almost like my brain cannot fully comprehend reality. But in times where I have felt peace and not been stressed or worried (which sadly is not a lot of the time) it has subsided a little and I feel better.  I also find that if I don't get enough sleep it gets way worse. So I guess the more you look after yourself and the more positive you think then it can be bettered :)  Also I think the reason why some people have this is probably, in my case anyway, is because of overthinking causing your brain to wear out and feel exhausted so it tries to 'disconnect from reality' in order to fully cope with your circumstances and still yet function relatively well. Lastly I think that some personality types are more susceptible to it and also probably some genetic factors contribute but I fully believe that if your brain can get to this state it can, with the right treatment of yourself, be fully diminished.


wow, i tought i was the only one, who experiences this! but i don't feel like this all the time, just only when i'm super excited/scared/tired. i tought I was going crazy. 😂


I have dissociative episodes something but I couldn't imagine living like that forever. But I'm writing this because I can testify to that "floating" feeling.


Hey dodie, i‘ve listen to most of ur music but I never knew about ur mental health and ur illness. Whatever my cousin does have the same illness and I never understand her what it was like when she had her moments. Thank u for explaining it for all of us. For now we don’t talk anymore she is mad at me. Happend a lot at the last few weeks even because of her mental illness.


To everyone struggling with this: you are not alone. For me, derealization was more of a symptom of depression than a separate problem, and as terrible as it was while it lasted, I'm lucky to be free of both of them now. After years of therapy, the fog slowly lifted. Everything can be as beautiful and vivid as it once was, so never lose hope!


Omg! One time (during a very stressful time in my life) I was eating breakfast, and all of a sudden I felt weird. I felt as though my soul had been taken out of my body. Sounds weird/fake, but that’s how I would explain it. It was such a strange sensation! I felt very tired, and as though I was sleep walking? Is this derealsation? Sp?


I know exactly how it feels. It's bizarre. You almost forget where you are and what is going on? It takes a bit to come back


I have it too, after smoking weed, and it also caused depression/anxiety in my case. Next day, after the incident: boom, I had it. Never experienced those feelings before. Was barely able to eat, wanted to sleep all day, going to work was impossible, etc etc. Later on, I also couldn't sleep anymore, sometimes a few hours per night. It really sucks.


I have the same thing and it freaks me out a lot, I am always scared that I pass out or even may leave my body..


This happens to me and i tell my friends i feel like i’m dreaming and they say they don’t know what i’m saying


I've had this on and off for the last 10+ years, it's not constant like yours but very often, especially lately it's been constant and it's so fricken hard to explain it and try to get someone to explain it without saying it's like being tipsy but you're not, seeing through the wrong prescription glasses that are slightly off or something I can't explain it. I only found out the name through my psychiatrist about a month ago so it's nice to have it linked to a diagnosis type thing. Thank you for the video and good luck with your current and future treatments. :)


I’ve defiantly experienced this because of my anxiety, mainly when I start a new job and I have a lot of things to learn and remember and a lot of new people to meet. I’ve been doing internships all year and sometimes it’s so embarrassing because I feel like I just act like an idiot when really I’m just so stressed and anxious I can’t focus. I try not to talk about it much because I just block it out and move on, faking it till I make it.


It happens to me a lot like disconnecting from reality and feeling dizzy sometimes and I put in glasses cause I thought it was this but it wasn’t... I’m not saying I have that condition but I totally know how that feels and that’s why a lot of times I have depression crisis etc


Sometimes I feel like I leave my body. I can still think but my body moves on it's own.

This is just daydreaming...Its not a mental illness, when you are just thinking so much, that you forget reality.


i feel like i'm on a movie sometimes lmao

This literally happened to me today this is how I found this video when I saw this comment I was so happy I was not the only one

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Thats not depersonalization or derealization...

It has a dream effect am I right? It's sorta blurry sometimes, it's confusing.

@Sofia Merida what do you mean not the same thing? it was like that while it was happening too its just in the past now

yung*dead my memory of my first kiss is literally in third person

this happened to me once as a small child I was at swimming pool and during the time my vision was a little darker than usual but I didn’t think much of it I thought just had some water in my eyes and all of a sudden i felt like I was falling backwards a bit and I didn’t even notice I had a body and then I thought I was sitting in the movie theatre watching life through my eyes on a screen and I couldn’t snap out of it


I can’t remember much. And when I do it’s something obsessive that I can’t forget. It’s always something negative of course. But I feel like I’m living life behind the invisibility cloak. My friends always got to pull me out of my own head.


I think I may have this too actually Dodie. I do sometimes space out randomly while I’m having a stressful conversation and just randomly while I’m listening to a teacher at school or something. It’s weird, but pretty much all the symptoms of this so idk. Maybe.


Derealization for me usually comes after depersonalization. I feel like I'm not experiencing things myself, just second hand. I stub my toe but I'm not one in pain, this character I'm following is. Eventually everything gets dreamlike if I don't come out of that feeling after a day or so. Derealization hasn't been as bad lately, but in times of stress I still experience depersonalization.

I tried sleep deprivation therapy, but after only one trial I can't say whether it would work for me or not. Was starting to feel okay, but things were said to me that caused a downward spiral. So I feel like events got in the way of what help it could have done.

Also, weird thing, I feel the most connected with reality when enjoying games, movies, or books. When depersonalized, I feel like I'm actually me sitting in that chair playing that game. As soon as the game turns off, I'm back to just sharing the experiences of this person in the chair I was just in.


Idk if this is even similar, but when I feel overwhelmed or overstimulated, my sights always becomes super unfocused and hazy, and things just seem blurred together and off. I’m not sure if that’s something or just nothing, but it’s incredibly frustrating when I want to actually have a fun experience and memories 🙄


Sometimes I think my dreams are reality and it spooks me 😂 that sounds super spooky

Moo watch the movie Waking Life you'll thank me later


That's an interesting coincidence, I had a major panic attack in 2013 and ive been in a derealized/dissociated state ever since. Obviously after almost 6 years it's way more managed than it was in the first 3 years but this is an INCREDIBLY disabling condition and the frustrating part is you can't really fully encompass or wrap your head around the experience to explain it to people Because that in and of itself is part of the problem since it manipulates your perspective. For me it's felt like every day was waking up inside a different ugly painting, it also affects my short term memory and my ability to mentally multitask. Like before I had it I was able to just kind of jump from one priority to the next, but now its like, if I'm focused on something I'm almosy locked in to where I can't pay attention to anything around me. Either way I'm glad I got it somewhat under control to where I'm able to carry out daily functions without stress. Its all about staying busy and making priorities to work on in your life, your brain will catch up to that and sort of build an immunity around what's happening, it's not meant to stay in that state forever.


I'm 14 and I feel like for the past 2-3 years people just write most of the stuff I have off as puberty or "you're just growing up, get over it" and it's so frustrating. Glad I know what it is now


I get more depersonalisation than derealisation (using those lightly because I'm not technically diagnosed 😕) but it sucks


Sometimes I can’t tell the difference between dreaming and real life. Sometimes I’ll be sitting in class and feeling like this is a dream. I deep down know it’s not but I feel the same in dreams. Brains are weird. Dreams are weird. Have a good day.


Derealization makes you incredibly alone. I can be in a room filled with people and feel like I'm by myself. More often than not lately I feel like I'm in this bubble, that isolates me from the rest of the world. I still interact with everyone around me, but it feels like the words that come out of my mouth are meaningless. Sometimes I start thinking about how it's like whatever I say is not of my accord. It just comes out and I don't have control over it. Same with my actions. I just do them, without thinking in my head, then afterwards I start freaking out because I don't understand where the actions came into existence. Sometimes I'll be laying on my bed trying to sleep and I start thinking of the very idea of existence. Am I here? What IS here? And the only thing that stops me from entirely freaking out is holding my hand in front of my face, watching the colors and focus and sharpness of my fingers, reminding myself that there is an image in front of me. I am seeing whatever this is, so its real. Sometimes I have to turn my music up loud through my headphones and tune out the world. But a lot of times, nothing is enough to stop me from getting anxiety. I'm always anxious. My heart is always racing. I shut out people. I've lost all interest and motivation to do anything that used to be important to me.

It's worse over the summer. When the colors are more vivid, I find them overwhelming. I'll be stargazing and the sheer immensity of the stars makes me feel like time has stopped. It's an incredible feeling because I feel above every one else, more connected than those around me. However once the significance of this sets in, my heart goes into overdrive and I just want to cry and scream and wake up from this "dream" that is reality. I can't talk to anyone about this. I feel like it stems off of my atheism. And everyone around me, all my family and literally all my friends except for the one that I have kinda told, are very religious and wouldn't understand. (and would be disappointed, none of them know I don't believe).

I always thought it was just me. I didn't realize this was an actual condition. But more than a condition, it's my perspective of the world. As scary as it is, as isolating as it is, I'm not sure I want it to go away. I feel like it oddly makes me feel incredibly alive while also feeling like being in a dream. It's hard to explain.

Sometimes I can go for periods of time without being bothered. I'll go through the school day and not think about it once. Or I'll spend an evening laughing with friends and it doesn't phase me. But then suddenly it hits. It always does. And I realize I don't remember much from when I was having a carefree time. It's all a haze. My memory is absolutely terrible. I have to sit there and think, "Did I do this?" or "Was that a dream or was it real?" And I'll remark it to a friend/family member and they just laugh about it. In the moment I laugh about it too, but then I start to panic because I should not be feeling this way! And to what extent am I living in a dream? what if existence IS a dream?

It brings a constant, heavy headache. Physical movement is too much. I'm always overthinking everything and it makes my head hurt endlessly.

It's all gotten worse lately. I just want to scream. Cry. Laugh. I just want to feel alive. I feel like I'm trapped, trapped in a mind that is not mine, one step too far from reaching the edge into reality. It's my own living hell. But knowing there's a name to this hell, derealization, is a little more comforting.


Its like sitting back on a couch inside your brain to see your body know exactly what to do like a routine. It feels like a lucid dream or you just watching a blurry movie. Its awful when you have it and you need to snap back into reality to focus on something important, but you just can't and its hard to remember anything (like a dream)


people say that this is a result of stress or trauma, but i've had this for as long as i can remember. i told my friend in 4th grade, but i knew i had it for much longer, like 3 years old. i don't have any other symptoms of trauma and i've had a pretty good childhood, so what could it be?


I feel like I’m dreaming sometimes when I’m really not


THANK YOU FOR YOUR VIDEO
i think the worst part of derealisation is that people and objects look fake and you cant really explain it to people. And even if you do explain it to people, they cant imagine what it is like having derealisation and how frustrating it can be.
Also i stopped comparing it to being drunk/high because its rly making it sound not too bad when it really is sooo scary.. when suddenly everything looks weird and fake and you think you are loosing your mind, running around in a dream you wont wake up from.

my best tips: STOP WATCHING VIDEOS ABOUT IT, STOP TALKING ABOUT IT, STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! i know thats hard especially in the beginning but i trained my brain and its hard work. My Derealisation didn't go away but i can enjoy life again without panikattacks lol. like if ur thinking "omg the sky looks so weird again" instantly replace it with "but its such a beautiful day wow" And for me, the more i accepted my derealisation, the better it was getting. So don't obsess over it, I did that reading hundred articles on how to get rid of it, and believe me it will only make it worse.
Also don't isolate yourself, no matter how weird and scary and unreal your environment looks (i isolated myself and every time when I HAD TO leave the house it was SO BAD) instead do the opposite, when you have a day when your vision is really bad, go outside and meet friends and have fun(at the beginning avoid very crowded places, be with people you trust), show your brain that it doesn't have to be afraid and doesn't have to dissociate/ disconnect with the world(but dont force yourself, like if you're getting panic attacks as soon as you walk out of your door, dont go, or maybe only with people you rly trust) . Also i took off my glasses!! my eyes are not too bad so when i take off my glasses i can still se pretty good but everything will get slightly more blurry and it makes me feel better cause if you see less, it will also look less unreal lol.


I have depersonalization, and the thing that has always scared me the most is the fact that I am unable to recognize my eyes. My eyes look different or empty, like the life is gone. I think our consciousness gives our eyes our light and our soul, but when I go through these episodes my consciousness is out of my body so the "light is out." I conjured this thought when I saw a man tripping at a music festival and his "light" was gone, and then I started to take tabs on what people's eyes look like when they are daydreaming, their "lights" are gone too. I have never tripped before so I cannot analyze why their consciousness is somewhere else, but I do have very vivid daydreams so I can give my theory on this. When we daydream our consciousness leaves our present reality and travels to a different reality, such as a memory or a made up fantasy. When this happens our consciousness essentially leaves our present body making our eyes look dead. Since we have never seen this look in our eyes before we are unable to recognize ourselves and freak out, but it is a completely normal look that daydreamers have. I wrote this to kind of provide closure for any individuals struggling with the self-recognition part of it all, which is what used to affect me the most since it made me feel like a stranger was controlling my body, when it is what my subconscious or animal-like state looks like. I am hoping that this has put some of your minds at ease, and of course I do not know if this is facts it's just my own assumptions that I have accepted as true since I have not found any contradictions to this.


Quite strange, I also, quite regularly am percived as being drunk, when particulary anxious

I have DRDP, or more accurataly was prone to the symptometic idiology  in the year last.


It’s so weird, I think I have something similar but not exactly parallel to this. I go into different head spaces and section out my day then just zone out for a while. I’m really not sure what it is


its hard to ask anyone about this when you're someone with diagnosed adhd :/


Omg your vision is interesting... Everytime when I have a nightmare, I see everything like this and it's the worst thing I could imagine


Let me clarify for some people :) . It’s completely normal to have these symptoms form time to time, in stressful situations. it’s not normal to have these symptoms all the time . It’s all very VERY easy to misdiagnose yourself . And confuse these symptoms with something else . Dpdr is very specific .


It's really hard explaining that I have depersonalization to people because they've never experienced it. They don't know what it's like. One time I explained as kind of always being stoned and my friend said "That sounds awesome! I wish I had that!" Like, no. No you don't. It's terrible and just looking in the mirror can send me into disassociation for hours. It's a terrible way to live but no one knows that. And I'm not blaming them, I'm just envious that they'll never have to go through all of this. Yet, I'm stuck here.


This is EXACTLY how I feel when I’m high. Only did it once and never again. I couldn’t remember anything that happened the second before. I couldn’t recognize my own voice, or understand English/the words I was saying even though I was speaking English and my body felt numb and non existent and I had to keep touching sharp/cold things to bring me back to reality.

gamer guy super helpful!! Thank you for your wisdom 🙏🏼😂

I would stay away from dabs, oils, and edibles at least until you get used to it. Start with a one hitter. Take one hit on occasion. Build up your tolerance. I had a similar problem when I was a teenager. I actually passed out flat on my face. But start by smoking just a hit. Not enough to really feel it. Environment is also a factor. Being with certain people or in certain places can trigger these feelings. Try finding strains that won't provoke anxiety as well. I smoke regularly now and havent had that issue in over 20 years. Hope that helps. Sorry for the paragraph. Lol

gamer guy I thought it might have been the first time too. Ive tried edibles, blunts, and a dab pen and it happens every single time... 😪 I wish I could just enjoy it like most people 😂

That is actually a common side effect from weed. It typically only happens the first time. Being stoned is usually nothing like that. I'm not encouraging you to use, just pointing it out


i recently had an experience that may have triggered this, not sure if i have this but i had sensory overload and i haven't felt awake since, this happened a week or two ago and nothing feels normal. a lot of the time i feel like i go into auto pilot and i can have conversations and answer questions i didn't even hear, it almost feels like when you go to a movie and when you come out it's pitch black and you have no idea what time it is even though it's just an hour or two after you enters the theatre it could have been a year and it wouldn't have made much of a difference. or when you fall asleep right after school and wake up in the middle of the night and it should be morning but it's not. time just feels wrong and unnatural, sometimes it moves to slow and sometimes it moves too fast and i can never tell where i'm supposed to be because i can't seem to remember if i was going to bed or just waking up. i'm not sure if something caused this or it's been waiting for a time to pop up to say hello, i'm a bit nervous to talk about it but i'm sick of not being able to surface above the water when i'm always so close. if anyone has any advice or knowledge about this i would love to hear it but for now i'm kind of in the dark


Movie Theater: After watching a movie in the theater, I am stuck in Derealization theater mode for a while and it's especially noticeable when I walk out to the parking lot to my car. (I'm happy you mentioned this.)

I used to have severe episodes which would last for hours as a child. Today, the episodes are very mild and very short.
I have been trying to find ways to induce this in people who don't have it or at least to depict to them what it's like to experience it.
Staring into a large mirror can be a trigger for me because I being to feel as tho I have entered the mirror and and stuck inside it.
Hanging upside down can be a trigger because severe episodes cause me to feel upside down as I'm walking down the street.
During my Dereal episodes, I lose all time and space and it it the most mentally uncomfortable feeling I could ever imagine.
Most every day, I feel as tho I'm dreaming. I don't really know what normal is supposed to feel like or to be perceived as. If it's very mild, I rather enjoy it since it feels like being high. I do not use drugs of any kind except Diphenhydramine occasionally for DR. Alcohol will pull me out of an episode because it relaxes me. However, I do not depend on alcohol, have never had an alcohol problem, and I maintain a very low tolerance to it so that if I really need it, it will work in minutes with only one drink.

Thank you for this video! I've had DR since the age of seven. I am 60 now.


I do not know if you will see this comment but I went Gluten free and cut out almost all sugar and It helps your brain TREMENDOUSLY! Also looking at screens alot throughout the day can cause things to feel off due to eye strain. Just try Gluten free, Cut out sugars and bread. It really does help with the stoumach and brain. God bless you and have a wonderful day :)


I just thought this was normal and how everyone processed things when they get stressed out! I have social anxiety and bipolar depression...I feel like it comes and goes, especially when I’m out in public...so weird


After getting high once I started getting weird instances of depersonalization (similar to derealization) and it’s so scary and off putting

It lasted for a good month and would hit me at random moments. Felt like someone threw me into a video game...? like my eyes were not in my body? Immediately I felt fear and started questioning my existence... I didn’t feel real

In conclusion Im never touching weed again lmao


Ok....I feel like I’m going through something similar but I need to get properly diagnosed


I actually have it to, and sometimes, when i'm stressed, it's worse, and I dont remember all of what happened during the moment I was derealised. I hate it.

ImNoxy you need to look into ketamine treatment or even do extensive research on DXM (poor man's ketamine) could save your life from depression/suicide


but what if it isn't there all the time? I just have moments that are either like 5 seconds or 5 minutes long and it seems like each time it comes it stays longer and longer and I'm terrified at some point it will come and stay and never go away again.

That bit with walking out of the cinema and friends not looking right is exactly how it feels aswell


My mum has cancer and I've been feeling like everything is a dream and in third person for around a year now.... Kinda ready for it to stop


I deal with this 24/7 too and I always feel like i'm in a dream, I feel intoxicated, I don't remember a lot of what happened throughout my day and just looking outside feels bland and not like it used too and spacing out ALL the time. I never live in the moment or see the beauty of the world anymore. I also know exactly how this happened to be as I was in an extremely emotional abusive relationship previously and I know before that I did not ever have a problem with this. I get way more moody then I used too and feel like my life is pointless because of it. Which is sad to say but I truly feel that way a lot.

Forgot to mention that when I ACTUALLY dream I wake up and it feels like that dream actually happened and sometimes it feels so real it becomes a memory of mine that I actually think happened. I have a hard time separating my dreams and my reality.


I can’t afford a mental health professional so i just have to wait to solve this problem but it’s getting worse for me every day I had a breakdown and one day at work my vision had that darkness but it kept getting darker I thought I was gonna pass out. I’ll be fine tho I just have to wait another year or so.


i always thought it was my bad vision that caused this but now i have glasses but i still feel blurry and disconnected :///

I see clearly but I feel disconnected and feel like everything doesnt matter or if everyone isn't real to me or matter even though I know they are or suppose to matter. .. I sometimes feel dizzy when I move my eye sight but like my vision moves very unbalanced but nothing blurry. Sounds do sound louder to me though.

too little dopamine maybe. there could be lot of conditions

Same,it's like there is a fog in your head, and you feel like you're dreaming and it's not reality


I lose hours of everyday , its like im on autopilot and ill come back to reality and a solid 40 minutes have passed and i wont remember what i did or even if i was thinking about anything at all. can relate


Mine started with a heart episode caused by a would be diagnosed WPW genetic heart malfunction. I was 9 years old then and ever since that day, my world was never the same. I went to bed that night, traumatized and hoped to wake up normal. Instead, It just stayed like a dream and it was terrifying and still can be today, at 22 years old. Im still getting used to it and I can still remember when things felt normal and human. I feel artificial or like Im living inside a coma persistently.

Dunno if its derealization, but I dont think it’s really that diagnosable. Meds dont work for it either. When I feel a strong bout, all I want to do is close my eyes and sleep it through. Seems like a healthy and active lifestyle is what I needed to break the anxiety to push through the panic I feel when it happens


Whenever I open my eyes after closing them for a few minutes in a car because the sun is too bright, everything has a blueish tint to it and I feel like my head isn't connected to my body. After looking up at the sky for a while, I sit up and feel like I'm floating. My friends who I'd been chatting to the whole time looked different. They looked like a 3d picture. I stand up and feel like I'm dreaming. I don't take in my friends voices or words, just slightly nodding my head. I have bad anxiety and depression. I sometimes feel I'm not real and space out, feeling like I'm in a simulation, and I'm the character that someone else is controlling. Idk. I'm not diagnosed with derealization or depersonalization and I don't even know if I should be. Someone help ;(


DP and DR occur simoltaneously always just sometimes one is worse than the other


I just can't believe this is real. I thought the same. I thought it would eventually change. I suffer the exact same thing. I feel im dreamig. My family and friend just never understand me and even look at me with those eyes. What i do is to try different things every few weaks so I can feel everithing new and makes me feel focused. As soon as I get used to something, time disappears. I dont know what to do. Thank you very much for this. Im not alone. Im not a ghost u.u. I just, thank you. Time and people use to disappear just in front of my face and I feel lost. Whatever I look, its just long halls and white noise. I feel despair and yet I have to smile to everyone and xontinue going forward, and finally, acting "normal" drains my energy so fast. I just make me wish im in my bed


I have this. I’m only 13 and I really want to tell my parents but I’m scared. I feel like I’m dreaming all the time and I look at my hands and think to myself “am I real? How am I here?” Please help me.


I don't know if it's similar but sometimes I feel like the world isn't real and it's more of a game where everyone but me is an npc. I don't tend to focus on that feeling, because it's trippy and philosophical but I've had that for 10 years at least.<br>Or sometimes I look at my mom and think "this is my mother" and it's such a weird feeling as if I were learning that fact at that moment.

I don't know if it's similar but sometimes I feel like the world isn't real and it's more of a game where everyone but me is an npc. I don't tend to focus on that feeling, because it's trippy and philosophical but I've had that for 10 years at least.
Or sometimes I look at my mom and think "this is my mother" and it's such a weird feeling as if I were learning that fact at that moment.


The only reason I watched this video is because I feel like I'm dreaming all the time lol


People want treatment sometimes I just want acceptance


Oh my god every time there is any kind of change it’s like my whole life goes blurry and it’s so frustrating and it feels like time passes wrong and sometimes it’s okay but it’s like my metaphorical eyes are blurred and I can’t focus them again.


Seeing this rather late sadly. I'm a 28 year old guy and I've been suffering from this very condition since I was around 13. I was originally diagnosed as simply having severe anxiety and depression. Which are a part of my problem yes, along with paranoia and insomnia but all of these stem from my real problem of derealization/depersonalization. I was never truly diagnosed by a therapist but then again I've only seen a small few and they weren't very good. They were the types to generalize and toss a prescription at you instead of listening and truly trying to figure out what's wrong. I was diagnosed by them to have dependent personality disorder but that was a misdiagnosis. They also tried me on a few drugs and I swore off them after the last time, which resulted in my anxiety and overall symptoms growing worse, oh and lovely gushing nosebleeds. It was left up to me to figure out what was wrong with me, I thought I was honestly going crazy and was going to end up unable to function in real life and be committed. I found the resolve to face my problem head on and begin searching for help. I first began be analyzing my symptoms as they would occur and break them down. This took time and was very hard to do but I managed. After I understood my symptoms it became a process of addressing those symptoms and rationalizing them. I did have certain situations and places that would cause me to fall into a sever anxiety attack and launch me deep into basically a state of shock. The same frightening, alien feeling like you're dying or unable to feel sensations or think clearly. Shock is derealization but most people only experience this through some form of extreme trauma. I would experience this just going to a store or being around a large group of people, as my mental illness grew worse in my teenage years I developed more and more triggers for this heightened sense of depersonalization/shock. It became that even certain smells and volumes of sound would trigger it. I could barely function at all in everyday life when I was 17. My illness had pushed me to drop out of school, I couldn't work or drive, I couldn't even get my license. By 18 I knew I needed to start my journey towards getting better. Exposure therapy was my best step forward. I forced myself to endure the shock and focus on going forward. It took around 3 years to get a solid grip on things. By 21 I had been able to get my license, get a G.E.D. and begin working. It's not easy and I still struggle when I have my bad days. Everyday I still feel this way, I'm always tolerating my depersonalization but I've come to accept it and always focus on analyzing and rationalizing when my mind doesn't seem to comprehend the reality of my everyday life. I will look in the mirror and see myself, I do look strange or off, I don't seem like myself or real but that's ok. I understand that's just my mind lying to me, I understand that I'm ok and nothing's wrong. I ignore it and move on, that's all you can do. It gets better with time and experience.


I always feel like I’m not real. I play basketball and when we run at pratice it gets really bad, I start to feel really light headed and my entire body feels numb and everything sounds weird. So I have to sit out almost every practice and it’s so embarrassing, I get made fun of a lot. My parents and my doctor think it’s a blood pressure problem, so I’m taking medicine for that and it doesn’t do anything. My parents won’t believe when I say that I might have derealisation or depersonalization. Can someone please tell me what’s wrong with me? 😭


i have this!! i see a psychologist and stuff but i have various other mental health problems and it sucks. i only found out the answer to my questions to why i always felt like i was just floating like a week ago when i brought it up in one of my therapy sessions. for me its anxiety related and only when i get super anxious over something, sometimes my brain just decides to do that rather than go into panic mode, which i am somewhat thankful for (because panic attacks suck) but i basically end up completely zoning out in a way. its hard to explain but i know whats going on around me at the time, i just don't remember what anyone's saying, and this can be a huge problem in class, causing me more stress down the line. anyway what i am trying to say is, you are not alone dodie and you are strong for talking about it because i honestly don't know if i'm going to press that "comment" button.

obviously if you're reading this i did!


DAMN I HAVE HAD THIS FOR 5 DAYS STRAIGHT AND SKSKSK IT FELT WEIRD AF. IT STARTED ON A FIELD TRIP TO AN ISLAND. I fell asleep on the bus and when I woke up, I felt extremely weird. It felt like I was in a dream. Like I could do anything, nobody was watching. I searched it up and it said that its called derealisation. I kind of like the feeling, but don't. Does that even make sense??


'Awakening from the dream' would be a good video to watch on Lynn love channel.


Update, many people believe me, others dont, my life is extremely different now


I think I need to get professional help to actually diagnose me now.


You must not be dreaming because I can definitely see this


This happens to me occasionally and I really don’t like it, my dad got it when he was younger and so did my uncle.<br>I have it rn and I’m not liking it at all

This happens to me occasionally and I really don’t like it, my dad got it when he was younger and so did my uncle.
I have it rn and I’m not liking it at all


I thought everyone felt like this all the time though


Wait, this isn't normal? I sometimes think my life is just a story being told by someone in heaven.


This is fucking crazy. I‘ve been dealing with this for about probably 8 years or so, i never knew if it was actually something wrong with me or if this is very normal and everyone experiences life like this, i thought maybe its just because i‘ve grown up??? Lol.  I‘ve been in therapy for a long time now. Diagnosed with ADHD, taking adderall and all that. I‘ve told my therapist about this problem i had, that everything kinda feels like im in a dream. Like there‘s some sort of filter over everything that makes stuff just kinda... not look real. And that this is the main thing that causes me so much struggle to study and stuff, because i disconnect so easily. Obviously she just told me its because of the adhd, that i drift off easily, because of the lack of motivation for stuff that doesnt seem interesting to me. It was really difficult for me to explain, that i dont think that its because of my adhd. Because every adhd kid i know, has never experienced what i tried to explain to them. They just told me i‘m probably just a really sleepy person and need to have a better sleep pattern and get at least 7hours of sleep a day, etc etc. nobody ever got wtf i was talking about. Not even my therapist. I really started thinking i might go into the direction of getting some psychotic episode or sth, because my thoughts would sometimes mix in with my real life. For example what happens a lot to me lately, is when i greet a random person, i then start to worry that i did not say „hi“ to the person, but actually something really weird like „i love you“ or stuff. Of course i didnt, but my brain makes up weird stuff sometimes, that didnt happen. I really thought i was turning fucking crazy. I‘m not tryna self diagnose right now, because maybe maybe it could be something else, but you‘ve just explained EXACTLY what i feel like all the time. Its like a hit in the face, its crazy that i‘m not the only one. Thank you for making this video, i will show this to my therapist. And also what i‘d like to mention is that you should consider trying out adderall. It really helps with this sensation. I mean, you just kinda feel a little bit more connected to your body and its easier to focus on stuff and makes you feel a little more present, it doesnt fix everything of course. I still feel like i‘m i stuck in this weird kinda liminal space, like i‘m not as much „here“ as other people are. But it helps me out and its pretty cool. Thank you again


I've got this condition too. It's called being a stoner.


I don't know if this is a mental disorder but when I look in the mirror, sometimes I'll feel like my spirit and my body are two separate beings. Like there are two of me. Physical me and Spirit me. Spirit me is my inner thoughts and what controls me, while physical me is what carries out those actions, and the person I am to other people. So when I look in the mirror it's another person because that's not the me in my thought process, like a puppet and the person pulling the strings, except more of a symbiotic relationship... I know it's kinda weird, but sometimes I think about it. I also talk to myself a lot, but I don't know if it's for the same reason.

I totally understand this feeling as someone with derealization and depersonalization, I think it makes absolute sense though, we sort off are two people in a sense (I don't mean multiple personalities), we are our mind and physical being and must work together and treat ourselves with kindness just as we would anyone else around us. We have us, and the manager of us(us and who we would like to be/accomplish), and they need to get along to be productive.


it feels like im on my sleeping pill x10

also i was literally telling my mom that i need to stop taking my sleeping pill because i said it lasts for days omg wtf

Kiki Ambien is a dangerous drug do your own research


i relate to this so much but what happens to me is it comes at random times. Whether im just sitting in my class and looking at someone presenting and completely forget who they are and they look weird and unfamiliar. Or i’m even with my family at disney and feel for a second that i’m with strangers and not sure where i am. it’s crazy it is so scary. it even happens with the time and days when i get so caught up into a book i forget were i am after or whats going on. I also happens with even forgetting who i am or questioning my existence and panicking because of it. this is the best way i can explain what happens because my brain blacks it out after its done so its hard to explain. thank you for sharing this its nice to know i’m not alone.


I feel like I hover above my head like I am high or I am supper tired and feel like I am on auto pilot I am getting help but the only time I feel normal is when I am high because I have a reason to feel this way . It makes it really hard to stop and I have relapsed over and over again. I really hope I don't feel like this forever


Well idk if I ever had that cuz I don't want to self diagnose myself but I wonder if I might have had it. At the time I thought it was part of antidepressant withdraw symptoms. I stopped taking them on accident my first year of college and ended up not being able to leave my dorm for a whole semester I was so stressed and afraid and it's all a blur to me I would often describe my experience that year like a bad dream or like feeling like I was constantly dreaming all the days seemed to meld together I barely remember anything from that time like I was asleep for a couple of years. IDK if anyone has had anything similar


is there a difference between being like this and being spacey? i’m starting to worry now lol. also isn’t this just kind of similar to being high all the time?


Does anyone else suffering from this have trouble keeping a job? Or is it just me? When I "snap out of it" it makes it near impossible for me to function at work.


"when i see you,it feels like a dream"<br>Good isn't it?

"when i see you,it feels like a dream"
Good isn't it?


Maybe try L-Tyrosine. It helped me along with 5HTP.


For me depersonalization is felling disconnected from the world and my body for example my body would move but my thoughts would not be intached if you know what I mean. Sometimes I  try to pinch myself but that doesn’t work..


Derealisation/depersonalisation is insight in the holographic/illusionary nature of reality without having found your true place of perceiving. That is why it is a spiritual issue which has to be treated that way. People having it are right: reality is a kind of dream. It only seems real because we attach to it. But when you have DR/DP you lose your grip on it, which feels awful if you try to get that grip on it. Letting go of gripping is relieving that anxiety and slowly brings you to another kind of perception, in which the world is seen as the mirage that it is, but you yourself as 100% real. And that reality of yourself is so peaceful and fulfilling, that you will begin to lose your desire to hold on to a world which cannot really be held on to anyway, since it is always changing. DR/DP is not a curse. It doesn't have to be.


OMG you describe me! what does that even mean??


I had this, it is terrifying but don't let anyone tell you that you can't better because you can. No matter how long you've had it, how bad you are there is hope. I had it really badly for about a year but I'm fully recovered .


I feel like I can never focus. I recently started working and it has been 2 months so far and people are just getting so tired and frustrated with my slowness. I look up at the screen for the orders and my mind goes blank and when I feel pressured I black out and think more about not messing up that I tend to accomplish that even more :/. I’m not a sad kid I love life and every time I’m having fun a wave of depression hits me that we’re all just gonna die and it makes me so sad even though everyone will go through it. I zone out so much that people think I’m never listening and people call me “slow” which I am. Nothing traumatic has ever happened to me as a kid or anything like that, al though I did have my ups and downs but everyone goes through that. I also want to point out that sometimes I tend to focus on what people are seeing (physically wise) because I don’t know what I actually look like. I take picture and film myself but I could never remember what I actually look like and that gives me anxiety. I constantly worry about if I look ugly or just foolish when I get mad so I tend to shut off because it’s like I NEED to know what I look like. Ugh...

Also I forget things so fast... a customer will say something and I turn around and completely forget, and it happens alll the time. My manager is getting so frustrated with me I’m scared it will affect my life :(.


So I also have this thing... Well kinda. It's not that extreme and it's not always like that, but I'm still worried :/


Derealization/Depersonalization sucks so much. Dissociation in general such a simple sounding, yet SUPER complex experience. To me at least, I have schizophrenia and BPD, it’s really cool to see you advocating for something mental health related that isn’t only about depression and anxiety :)


Wow I am the same... :( I am really corious about what this actually is.... And where this comes from.... Cause it's just so strange and makes it so hard to excist... I wish someone would know the anwser for DR/DP....


I’m not a psychologist of any kind, but I thought I would share what works for me. I find derealization treatable through grounding techniques. It’s definitely a process, and it takes a long time to get back to ‘normal’, but the best thing to do is engage with your senses. It can be as simple as just touching the cushion of your couch. Note how it feels, its color, does it press down when you push on it? Base senses are the first step. The next step is: how does it make you feel? Would it be nice to lie down on the couch? Is it soft, does it make you feel comfortable and cozy? If you can’t do this right off the bat, it may be easier if you can remember a time when you did feel the world around you more viscerally. Try to recall that time, maybe even a specific time. A nice summer day where you were sitting in the couch, a cool breeze coming in through the windows, maybe you were enjoying some ice cream, watching a movie. This is just an example. Grounding can work with anything; a cold drink, your fuzzy pet, a spicy taco, your own body. Engage with all of your senses, actively, as much as possible. I recommend looking up grounding and mindfulness techniques. It can take a LOT of effort, especially when you’re feeling so fuzzy headed, but practicing a little bit every day has helped me enjoy life so much more.


I have not been diagnosed with this disorder but my psychotherapist says I definitely have the symptoms. I was just wondering if someone else who feels the same way has differing levels of dps and drs, because some days I feel a bit floaty (almost tipsy) whereas other days I feel like I’ve drunk like 5 bottles of wine, my head hurts, i’m overwhelmed, sometimes it gets so bad I forget where I am. Is this fluctuation normal??? thanks fam x


You might want to try self-empathizing. Maybe you've been sort of like thinking outside of yourself too much if that makes sense... Like maybe try to look in the mirror and be like "Ok this ME" and move your arm or something and consciously think or say "I am moving my arm" maybe.  Just a theory. I'm thinking along the lines of grounding exercises. If they seem to work, then maybe do them every day so you get used to it.


You aren’t insane I have it too. You’re just waking up. Reality isn’t real it is a dream, a shared one. Perception friends. Look it up, dive into the truth.


You can't rely on NHS unfortunately. They've failed me time and time again. The attitude towards and the understanding of the mental health is very dated on UK.
I have a friend who recommended something. At universities where they study psychology and therapies, they have to volunteer a lot to gain experience and practice different approaches and working with different patients and issues.
I've only been to three sessions but I've already gained a lot more than what the 6 months of NHS therapy has given me, which is nothing at all.


Oh no. I think I have this. I've only just realised that it isn't normal. Everything just feels weird and it doesn't feel like I'm actually there. I can remember things but it's all in blurry snippets. I can't describe it .


Yeah... I maybe have this too. One day i felt really weird, i had many thoughts and i felt like.. I wasnt me or like in my body or yeah. I cried a lot and did a little things which i didnt even mean to.   It was really scary.. So i guess i have depersonalization. Its not like 24/7 with me but it comes sometimes and goes away i guess. Thanks for making this video and help me to realize it, like when i had the first time those stuff, i remember this video. It helped me a lot! Thanks!^/u/^.. Of course im not 100% sure but im gonna talk about it with my teraphist.

@Trap Jimmy Oh... <b>hug</b> Im sorry that you are going through that. You are not alone though!.. I feel like that way too, im scared that i will go crazy too.. Its very scary thought. Yeah.. To me its not (yet) that hard like.. I dont have it so much (it just started) and yeah.. Mhh.. But remember that there is many humans who have these stuff too and understand ya. You are not alone.. Im here for ya❤.. I have phobias too, like i believe that i have fear of being alone like left alone, eremofobia. Like.. None is with me. Im just all alone.

@Trap Jimmy Oh... *hug* Im sorry that you are going through that. You are not alone though!.. I feel like that way too, im scared that i will go crazy too.. Its very scary thought. Yeah.. To me its not (yet) that hard like.. I dont have it so much (it just started) and yeah.. Mhh.. But remember that there is many humans who have these stuff too and understand ya. You are not alone.. Im here for ya❤.. I have phobias too, like i believe that i have fear of being alone like left alone, eremofobia. Like.. None is with me. Im just all alone.

Mato Herra I feel the exact same way and it’s been happening recently. I’m scared of going crazy and I actually fear of being schizophrenic and losing control :( recently I’ve felt like this and every thought I have i question is this the start of going mad, also ever sound and stuff I hear I wonder if it’s a hallucination. The derealization depersonalization to me feels like I’m watching through a tv and it sucks cause I wonder if I have somethinf completely different from others. Vision gets blurry,  brain is foggy and at night when it’s silent my thoughts just get loud. This is just my experience

@Trap Jimmy Yeah that!.. Like.. I felt like i had many thoughts and every thought were from different person or like.. I dunno.. And i felt really confused because i dunno which thought to listen

Have your thoughts felt like they weren’t yours? Like random thought come and they don’t feel like they’re in your subconscious voice but instead someone else’s?


Let me guess Someone stole your sweetroll


Ok, do you guys ever do something for the first time, so let's say, drank Pepsi for the first time, and when you're drinking it ur like, oh, this is like a new drink you know, it's cool, whatever, and then you think back to that moment, and you think that that's your second time doing it, like you remember already doing it like this happens to me all the time, and everytime I ask people, they don't get what I mean, are they don't have that anything any of that can you please let me know


I have a similar codition but it’s a little more extreme lol save me


BIG QUESTION: Is it the same as living like youre looking at a memory? Like as im walking down the street or talking to friends, it weirdly feels like im looking back at a memory. And when Im in class, the lights are always too bright and cause my eyes to struggle sooo bad to focus on the professor, even though I am front row. I am concious that I am not fully concious in a momenttt? I dont know how to explain it but I kind of understand. I dont want to self diagnois, I am just weirdly relating to these symptoms. Im pretty sure its anxiety, but I kinda see where dodie is coming from.

Yes, it is kind of like that. It’s like a second ago could of happened a really long time ago. I once walked downstairs and then went upstairs when I realized something wasn’t right. I actually asked my parents if they remembered me being downstairs with them.

Daydreaming in class is normal. This issue is a 24/7 thing. Always dreaming, always unable to feel real. If you aren't 24/7 but have issues focusing in class (& are eating enough since an energy problem like lack of protein can make you lose focus), then consider asking to be screened for ADHD. My best friend has it and seeing someone about it helped her be able to concentrate in school.

Oh my god this happens to me too, also when i'm in class light is suddenly to bright for me, my eyes can't focus and everything sounds so far away from me, it scares me so fucking much

I have the same thing maybe because my parnts divorved and made it hard for my brain to get to do things when everythings different. Im 11 and my parents divorced when i was 9 i fell into a sort of deppresion yhen everything came crashing down.😟😞

I don't know if it is the same, but I know that I sometimes have kinda the same things, not focusing, bright light, being less conscious, despite the teacher in front of me and my friends trying to wake me up, but it always mean I'm actually falling mentally asleep, before my body. Does it seem possible ? <br>For me, it obviously come to the depersonalization that making me sleepy, so I doesn't mean you have nothing, but maybe you should also more sleep. :)

I don't know if it is the same, but I know that I sometimes have kinda the same things, not focusing, bright light, being less conscious, despite the teacher in front of me and my friends trying to wake me up, but it always mean I'm actually falling mentally asleep, before my body. Does it seem possible ?
For me, it obviously come to the depersonalization that making me sleepy, so I doesn't mean you have nothing, but maybe you should also more sleep. :)

PeaceOfMyMind derealization is a symptom of anxiety! Dodie is describing a dissociative disorder where the derealization is stand alone, but all the same symptoms can occur in short bouts as symptoms of anxiety or depression!

Omg I have the same as you, that it feels like you're the future you looking back at a memory, except it's not a memory, it's you in the present moment. It's a really weird feeling, but I think it is also derealisation, as you feel disconnected to the present moment. When you look back on something, a memory, you're daydreaming and it feels like you're the future you daydreaming, which now thinking about it totally fucks me up, but alright. And the stuff with the lights I have as well.

lightmountain No man, this is really good information definetly! To me, it really feels like my eyes are a big problem, so ill see if i can find someone other than the main stream doctor to check my eyes. I think this would really help a lot of people in the comments too! It's just for me, it kinda feels like it goes deeper? I hope not, so ill go to someone who can actually diagnous. I hope everyone else does too! Thanks again for this information!:)

PeaceOfMyMind I feel like I have had something very similar to what you are describing. I’ve definitely had the bright light thing. However, I’m not really sure I can completely relate to you because I did have my eyes checked, but not by a mainstream optometrist. Anyway, he has done a bunch of research on eyes and the way light enters the eye and it has something to do with the cones in my eyes being deformed so he gave me glasses with prisms. They have been around for a really long time, but most regular optometrists don’t prescribe them cuz they think it’s kinda hocus pocos cuz it can help headaches, indigestion, balance, and the doctor has had success with a bunch of autistic kids. I’m not saying this is what you have or need, but to me it is like everything is too bright or I can’t see people’s faces properly and I have a hard time focusing. And sometimes it makes things dark too. I just wonder if some people think they have this disorder just because they see things differently, but I’m pretty sure I don’t because I don’t have the memory loss or stuff. I mean zoning out once in a while cuz I’m in my head is normal, and forgetting stuff that happened years ago like is normal as well. So like I guess I’m just confused how much of all this stuff has to correlate in order for someone to be diagnosed, u know? Idk if any of this made sense lol I’m kinda just rambling at this point


It's like your trying to wake up from the Matrix and then you get reprogrammed back into the simulation. Why didn't I take the red pill!


i used to deal with this so much, i still do but not as much. i felt like i would blink and then 15 minutes had passed. i don’t remember any of my freshman year because i was so disconnected for the entirety of it. it’s like there is this block of time missing ?? it sucks


Same here always dreaming but not aware of it, after watching this i can relate to this video. But it really help me in positive way, to spark my creativeness.


Someone needs to help me<br>I’m 14 and when I’m on my phone or concentrated on something I’m okay but when I’m in class etc I zone out then I feel like I’m not real and all that. It’s been like this for about a week and it’s so fucking annoying

Someone needs to help me
I’m 14 and when I’m on my phone or concentrated on something I’m okay but when I’m in class etc I zone out then I feel like I’m not real and all that. It’s been like this for about a week and it’s so fucking annoying


dodie, have you ever had to deal with unexpected death? i havent and my science teacher just committed suicide. if you have dealt with things like that, can you share about it some time in a video? i love how you explain things and i find your words always comforting.
         thanks<3
                    emma

thanks for all your guys’ love and comments on the subject❤

im sorry abour your teacher ): wish you the best

She talks very well about it in her book *this was not a paid advertisement*. Honestly, it is very good and anyone can give you advice about it but Dodie writes so eloquently so I'd check it.

My classmate also recently committed suicide (across the road from the labs we use at my college) after a chain of events and we believe he chose that place for its familiarity. It's definitely such a huge shock although not completely unexpected from him. Sorry to hear about you teacher x

Emma LaRose My best friend was gay and killed himself 4 years ago. No one will ever know for sure why someone decided to commit suicide, the only thing we know for certain is that that person was sick in some way... mentally sick, like depression/anxiety/ptsd ex. Sorry to hear about your Science Teacher, it's a hard and dark thing to go through, but 'tis life. Some people decide when to leave.


Once you started talking about it I related way to much to what you were saying. I haven’t gone through anything traumatic though.


Does anyone else ever able to like when your sitting down to make yourself feel like your going upside down cuz like I can...


i almost didn't watch this video because i have a <b>very</b> serious problem with projecting other's mental health problems onto my own and subconsciously creating mental illnesses in my mind (it's actually how my diagnosed depression started lol), and i was afraid of creating this mental illness for myself. however, i decided to watch it because it's dodie and i love you and honestly i'm so glad i did.

i almost didn't watch this video because i have a *very* serious problem with projecting other's mental health problems onto my own and subconsciously creating mental illnesses in my mind (it's actually how my diagnosed depression started lol), and i was afraid of creating this mental illness for myself. however, i decided to watch it because it's dodie and i love you and honestly i'm so glad i did.

Kenzie Fox I have the exact same problem and it does make it really hard to watch movies and tv shows about mental illness. I mainly wanted this video because I’ve been feeling really off for years and I thought maybe I had this, but then comes the trouble of not knowing if I actually do have it or if I’m just projecting and empathizing about it.

Omg so do I!!!! Found out about depression: was depressed. And much more thx for telling me.

Kenzie Fox apparently so does every one else who watched this.

Kenzie Fox hypochondria is a mental health issue itself and can be incredibly difficult to deal with (I would know) I hope you are ok and everything improves for you dear.


Guys I got it after smoking weed and everybody told me, that it is curable... what do you guys say ?


I’m not sure how this video stumbled across my feed but I’m pretty sure it saved me. I needed this.


We found out a while ago about my déréalisation but for me it seems different. I have the same vision episodes as you during random times but when it becomes very bright I get very bubbly and almost like I’m high xD as you can see I’m trying to see the good side which is comforting g because when my vision gets dark I get panic attacks often. :) maybe someone here can relate

Simmer_Scape I can relate, I get this but maybe in a way that most people experience it...for me, it feels ether really euphoric or really depressing...not sure if this is normal or not?


I had quite terrible derealisation on/off for a while now and I was so down when I felt like I wasn't experiencing your concert in Belfast properly! I felt numb and empty, like time wasn't happening and I was only observing the moment rather than the time that was in reality continuously going and going and going on :( I've been feeling a lot better recently and it's hard to imagine I felt so overwhelmed and hopeless for that long, and I truly hope you feel the liberation of the moment soon dodie! Thank you so much for sharing your emotions in a safe and educational way rather glamourising mental health problems!!! it's truly comforting! (For example: my very real tears of frustration during your performance of Secrets for the Mad)

ava o donnell I’m happy your getting better ,, surround yourself with positive people and find ways to ground yourself back into reality ,, I get it ,, I often scare myself and panic when I feel disconnected but I try to breathe and it sounds weird but I feel stuff around me ,, and I take a break on whatever I’m doing to take the time to try to calm down,,  thanks for taking the time to respond but I’m also learning to cope ,, I’m a happy person I just scare myself I hope your able to overcome most aspects of it :)) wish you luck ,,

stingytv I get that completely! I have felt so much better depression wise but I still get pretty bad panic attacks (but I'm working on it!) I'm happy you reached out it makes me feel less alone (which I know sounds weird because I have friends) sometimes I'm not entirely sure why but I feel like I ament really there, like I'm seeing through my eyes and I can't do anything and I'm just witnessing the moment, people moving and doing things completely set me mad and I just break down, just days ago I was having an episode and I thought I heard my mum crying and I felt fear physically strike and I couldn't move (it was a dog howling) it's annoying how my mind messes with me sometimes and gets to me physically to the extent I get knots and fear stings throughout me irrationally but I truly think I'm getting better :) which I was sceptical of for so long

ava o donnell I’ve had the exact same thing happen to me ,, it happens when I’m around too many people at once and I get this feeling of shock ,, (I don’t know if your familiar with the feeling of shock after something traumatic like a car accident or witnessing something scary ),, but that’s how it feels and I got struck with that feeling in a concert with of course bright lights and loud music I felt unreal ,, I’m glad to know that this is common so I don’t feel so alone :))


Wait,there's a differience between a dream and the real life except you are sleep and feel the dream like a normal life and can't read ?


My issues are causing me to not be able to handle work<br>. How do you get a job or income ?

My issues are causing me to not be able to handle work
. How do you get a job or income ?


I could only describe it as “I feel like a ghost. Like I’m not really here”


i think i have this but i only recognised it for the first time yesterday


I don’t have this as a mental heath issue in its own but as a side affect of a blood disorder called anemia, where I haven’t enough iron in my blood so I can’t get enough oxygen around my boy and brain. For me the feeling of always being in a dream is accompanied by sever headaches, exhaustion, leg cramps and lack of concentration. I am getting treatment but my anemia is a lot more severe than most cases which is why it is so prolonged. It’s hard but I am dealing with it. I just wanted to say this Incase anyone here might not know about anemia and it can be a reason for feeling like you’re in a dream.

I had dp/dr for a long time and even now, after i got better , it still relapses when my blood is taken for exams or when i lose blood by accident

Holy shit thank you. I just found out I had anemia recently and was wondering why I had these dream-like feelings with horrible memory problems. I bought iron supplements and they really help quite a bit. However, my underlying issue has got to be hypothyroidism because I also have low bp, excessive weight with an inability to get rid of it, and a goiter.

low blood pressure and lack of oxygen in the brain usually creates depersonalization/derealization. is a really well documented topic.

I just had my blood tested and that's not the case for me! My blood is perfectly fine and I'm experiencing what was described in the video. In addition,<br>Sometimes I would see drastic changes in color (things turning too light, dark or blue-ish, red-ish, gray-ish) and even looking at a clock I would see 5 pm and later on 3 pm, as if I was lucid dreaming.

I just had my blood tested and that's not the case for me! My blood is perfectly fine and I'm experiencing what was described in the video. In addition,
Sometimes I would see drastic changes in color (things turning too light, dark or blue-ish, red-ish, gray-ish) and even looking at a clock I would see 5 pm and later on 3 pm, as if I was lucid dreaming.

My hands go numb too (and cold) and my vision goes black, sometimes for hours, in patches and my equilibrium is completely wobbly. My doctor is reluctant to help me to check if I'm anemic (for what reason I have no idea), but this sounds just like me because I have physical symptoms sometimes.

I've struggled with this feeling since i was young and I was recently diagnosed with anemia. I am a hyper anxious person and my hands go numb during spells but since I've started taking iron it does seem to help with the numbness and anxiety associated with feeling like I'm dreaming. I think the two are definitely linked in a way


this is a genuine question, not rhetoric and coming from someone who struggles with very similar issues: HOW do you still function? <br>Because I literally just sit in the same spot all day staring at a wall or computer screen and don't get anything done at all.

this is a genuine question, not rhetoric and coming from someone who struggles with very similar issues: HOW do you still function?
Because I literally just sit in the same spot all day staring at a wall or computer screen and don't get anything done at all.

Everybody is different too, it doesn't make you any lesser. Like some people with depression are catonic most of the time and some live almost indistinguishable lives from neurotypicals. I've got chronic fatigue and can't deal with walking up stairs while carrying a backpack, but others with that same condition use wheelchairs to get around on flat surfaces.

you have to push yourself to do something. A mantra that my therapist told me (and that i still have to remind myself of every day): 'motivation follows action not the other way around' ie - you can't sit around waiting for the motivation to do something you have to just do it and the motivation to carry on will follow.<br>if you're struggling with disassociation try some grounding techniques or mindfulness breathing exercises :)

you have to push yourself to do something. A mantra that my therapist told me (and that i still have to remind myself of every day): 'motivation follows action not the other way around' ie - you can't sit around waiting for the motivation to do something you have to just do it and the motivation to carry on will follow.
if you're struggling with disassociation try some grounding techniques or mindfulness breathing exercises :)


is this also nicknamed alice in wonderland syndrome ? or is that a completely different thing?


Sometimes I feel dizzy and my vision is.. weird? I feel like I can’t wake up and I wipe my eyes and I just feel like when I’m in a dream and I just get a weird feeling when in starring at stuff. It’s not constant though. It happened more when I wasn’t eating enough in 7th grade and always skipped lunch ( I won’t get into that stuff ) but now I eat normal and it happens less but it still happens sometimes and idk what’s wrong


I am 14 and when you mentioned the vision thing from your book where everything goes blurry, i thought about when that has happened to me and it has been quite a lot in the past few months. Then i went back and watched the first two points as i wasnt really listening the first time. I dont think they really apply to me but i feel like sometimes i get the first one when i often have a nap when i get back from school or have been woken up by my parents. The cinema one i don think i get 1)as i dont watch films or go the cinema that often 2) because i don’t know what I felt the last time i did.  I am only 14 so I have never drunk so i cant say if the final point has happened and i don’t think I have ever experienced that in normal life.
I always thought that if i felt like connected with someone’s mental health condition, i was probably forcing myself to. But now that i have seen this video and that you know that you have this and notice when it happens makes me realise that i could have something like this.
If anyone has any advice or knows if my observations have any connection to this please let me know as i would really take something from your support.
Dodie you are a huge inspiration to me and hundreds of other, please keep on making the wonderful music and posting such educating videos like this one.

Thank you, I still think that I could be just forcing myself to think this and you have just sparked me to notice that and consider that it am not like some of my role models<br>Also you like BTS as I see a member in your account photo. And are you an AOT fan as I love that too

Thank you, I still think that I could be just forcing myself to think this and you have just sparked me to notice that and consider that it am not like some of my role models
Also you like BTS as I see a member in your account photo. And are you an AOT fan as I love that too

hague423 please go to a therapist or school counsellor because it’s quite dangerous to self diagnose as you might not actually have the illness but then convince yourself that you do. On the other hand, if you actually do have if, you need to seek help to treat it as soon as possible! Please see a mental health specialist!


Dodie I saw that you said you’re going to try CBT, and I would really recommend you try DBT. it’s more of a real world application and coping skills. idk it’s helped me a lot


Have you been recovering are you almost recovered


THAT WAS ME WHEN I WAS A KID BUT I GREW OUT OF IT?????


I disassociate every time I’m with people because I have severe social anxiety, but I have to in order to cope with it, my memory sucks, and never feel happy, however when I’m home alone and I’m relaxed I feel so confident and powerful,like I could do anything.


I had this same issue for three weeks straight, meditation is key! Within a week I started zoning back in.

No way !! I have always felt like my field of viewing has been zoomed out all the time . So meditation is the  "cure" !!!!


Can you get it at sudden moments of severe anxiety where it comes all of a sudden and only leaves a couple hours later or is that something else? I have the symptoms dodie has but not continuously or spontaneously through a stressful time. I can’t exactly remember it afterwards

MistressKatari ok that makes sense. Thank you!

Melissa h yep. Sounds like you dissociate during panic attacks


Im 14 and have Derealisation and depersonalisation and tbh I think the only way to escape it would be dying but then I think if I'm not real is dying even real so I'm trapped in this world of my own . I'm not experiencing emotions everything is a blur and I've had this since I was 9

I do feel ...I just can't explain it it's neither that I feel as if everything is dream nor anything else it's wierd well I am fade up of it it's just ruining everything .even can't explain what do actually is happening to me 😫 .I feel it might have been better to have any another problem even a severe one but at least I could have explained others what actually is the problem with me.

I have been feeling out of it for a long time. Everything just feels fake, scripted. Everything feels like it was placed just in that exact moment of time just to fuck with me. Everything I say just before the moment after has happened right after, like jinxing or whatever.

Dying? What's the point if I'm only gonna be reborn again? Stuck in this hell forever. I just wanna die. But what if I get reborn into another dimension? Will it be like the stone age? Some weird sci-fi future? I just don't get it. If the things I like now don't exist in some other dimensions then I'm gonna go out and get or do whatever the fuck I want. Hell, this is hell. Just give me what I want! Why won't my dreams come into reality so I can leave this world?

Emotions barely exist within me, at least it feels like it. I only feel aggressive, I'm rarely sad and never really happy. Give me pleasure, happiness. Everything looks blurry. Feels like my eyes are a screen.

Everyone thinks I'm weird, my parents, friends, my classmates thought so too. End it I say. Suffering isn't funny. Haha, really funny, whoever made this world can die.

If you feel like you want/need to talk to anybody about this, I am here. I understand. I have no answers, yet knowing that somebody else understands you is somewhat grounding. I don’t know if you relate, but you can almost feel guilty for how stupid you feel, and because no one around you seems to understand, you feel as though it mustn’t be real or relevant.

I don’t know,

Message me back if you wish sweet x


What's the difference between derealization and dissociation? Or is it the same? I've been calling what I get dissociating. Like when my brain doesn't feel like it's attached to my body and nothing I do matters etc. I asked my bf yesterday if my life is the actually like The Truman Show (all made up and everyone's an actor) during a really bad episode.

I don't have any merit, that's what said our great lord Internet. To be fair, I don't know a lot about dissociation, so if you have explanation etc, I'd be really interested :)

Shizuma974 There is 5 kind of form de dissociation, one of it is indeed depersonalisation :)

@alice garreau So dissociation is like depersonalization?

Actually, it's different, however it often come together. Derealization is the fact that you don't feel connect to the reality, everything seem too tall, too far, too bright, you don't have the connection you had with the world, it all seem like a dream. That's what she is experiencing all the time. <br>Dissociation is the same thing, but with yourself. Your brain seems to not be attached to your body, the people you're suppose to love doesn't make you anything, you don't recognize ourself in the mirror etc... ^-^

Actually, it's different, however it often come together. Derealization is the fact that you don't feel connect to the reality, everything seem too tall, too far, too bright, you don't have the connection you had with the world, it all seem like a dream. That's what she is experiencing all the time.
Dissociation is the same thing, but with yourself. Your brain seems to not be attached to your body, the people you're suppose to love doesn't make you anything, you don't recognize ourself in the mirror etc... ^-^

Dissociation is more physical (can't feel arms or legs) and derealization is more mental (don't know what time it is, don't know who someone is, etc).. they tend to overlap, though

Natalie Violet Dissociation is the umbrella term and derealization falls under it. I usually use the term dissociation because it's not always only derealization for me, like, sometimes there's depersonalization or other issues I can't place that mess with my sense of attachment to myself & the world around me.


I have seizures where I can't speak and I feel like I'm dreaming I feel.that way a lot when I am.nkt having seizures and can talk  too it's really weird


Holy shit, I have the same kind of disorder.  But I don’t think the doctors believe me ;-;

How do you know if you have the same disorder if the doctors don't believe you?


I know I have issues with this but never thought about the lighting connection? Is this why I'm so particular about lighting and about had a mental breakdown when my stepdad replace the light bulb in my room and it was LED instead of warm and threw me off? Is this why when I'm driving, the same exact places look like different places entirely, depending on whether it's daytime or nighttime?

Same! I have colorful lights in my room that make me feel calm. I can't for the life of me walk into a walmart, I instantly get panicky and uncomfortable. And the low lighting makes me feel like I'm fading away too, that's why I can't be at a restaurant with such low and romantic lighting.

+Mary Zan It's weird to hear other people say things like this because that means it's not a common experience people have...I can't do LEDs at all, they make me irritated and hurt my eyes unless I take 800mg of Advil. Low lights make me feel like I'm fading away, like everything is underwater and I might get stuck there with it - I always want to leave and and feel almost high.

On the pleasant side, colorful dispersed lighting makes me feel giddy and really good. I just assumed this was a regular thing for most people and they just put up with LEDs

I feel myself falling into weird distorted dreamworld anytime there is low lighting in  restaurants or those flourescents striplights, but that might be the autism. I am pretty photosensitive.

I relate to that so much. Same for me, expect  warm lights are usually one of the triggers to my derealization while LED has calming effect on me. (But if they're too bright such as in mall then they can trigger my derealization as well)


Have you tried mindfulness meditation ??


I wasn't feeling well before I watched this video. I actually felt really depressed because if (another) failed attempt at talking w/ my loved ones.

And I still don't feel better after reading that description, BUT, but I'm not giving up yet. Because you're right. There IS hope. (Even if I don't feel it right now, but usually I'm composed enough to trick myself into optimisn)

This "depersonalisation" thing sounds vaguely familiar, I experience a disconnection from my self ALL. THE. TIME.

Thank you so much for bringing this to my attention.


I literally developed this after I smoked Salvia.

I’m also a trauma victim too so that could easily have something to do with it too, but I know that it never used to be this way. Lighting is a big thing for me, I’ve noticed certain lights will make me feel like I’m drowning by reality. Or sometimes when I’m doing completely normal things like going to the grocery store or going to the park I’ll just feel like I’m completely zoning out, in a fog, or drowning, without even realizing it. I honestly have to stop myself and then I am aware that things don’t feel right. I’m not sure if this is necessarily something that happens to me all the time or not, but I definitely notice when I have “episodes” or it’s more intense for me. Now I smoke CBD oil and it’s helped me a lot in the sense where I can feel more comfortable with my reality, and definitely the anxiety. But it’s still not necessarily the miracle drug.


Alrighty! I also have this I feel like.. (I match all of the properties as such, but anxiety stops me from telling anyone.. metaphorically.) I love all of you here, so I feel as thought I must help you all out with a few tips I have!! I know it's really long but please take the time to read it to help yourself or a friend out <3

1: This one is really good for me, you can do it on your own and it doesn't involve any treatment or medication. All you have to do is look around you and pick out something you can see, smell, hear, feel and taste. Taste is usually hard but if you're eating then try and pick out what ingredients or what you can taste in what you're eating!
2: Fiddle with something. This makes you realise there is something in your hands, and for me often helps to realise things are real.
3: This can be difficult if you are in a lesson or an exam at school (those at school like me) but just have a conversation with someone. Ask a bunch of random questions or just questions about them, people often like to talk about themselves so don't be worried about them judging you! Asking the questions will mean that they answer, so it can help you realise that the person you are talking to is there.
4: This is more for depersonalisation (I cannot spell rip). Basically, just fell down your arms (don't hurt yourself in any way! That may seem like it helps but please don't. I always used to get really extreme with hurting myself to try and stop it all feeling unreal, but you really shouldn't as things can get infected and then people may see (they did for me... Not fun.)) When you feel along your arms, pick out certain things that you can feel such as small bumps, moles etc. Also, look for certain spots and acne that you had when you knew it was yourself. This will prove whether it is you or not!
5: Close your eyes, and think. Think about the things you love, the things you hate and all your friends. Or just don't think about anything. It often helps just to let your brain and eyes to have a minute.

Thanks for reading guys. I hope this helps. As well as these you can also obviously try medication and tell someone and get help for it, but I feel as though there are many out there like me without the courage and with too much anxiety to tell anyone. I love you all, and thanks for reading!! I really really really hope this helps people because I know I'd really need something like this to help me. Know that you are loved and cared for and people are always there. As Dodie says in Secret For The Mad.. "There are a hundred people who will listen to you cry and I get that they don't get it but they love you so much that you won't regret it" (Go check that beautiful song out btw <3) And it is really true. Sometimes it is just amazing to talk to someone, whether they get what you're going through or not. I love all of you beautiful specimens and I hope you all have an amazing day/evening/morning/night!!!! LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH <3


I.. don’t know where to write this but I need to, I need advice... Lately I’m searching a lot about stuff like "i feel like I’m dreaming". i don’t really know if my symptoms are the same as you, i stuggled with depression stress & anxiety but its mostly ok now? i mean except for stress but well life will be life
I m sorry my english is not the best I’m very tired right now
So I just have this weird episode sometimes where everything like Lights Sounds and Feelings (touch) are emphasized and I zone out a lot, can’t concentrate on conversations (that is so annoying) and sometimes my vision is blurry too for no reason, i have to actually focus my eyes
Idk what this is it’s been happening more and more often i think
Do you think it Could Be derealization? also ive got these moments where i don’t feel like im me, my body is strange and I don’t feel like myself idk how to explain sorry im so tired


You're waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you, but you can't know for sure.


I wonder if my whole life is a dream and some day I am just going to wake up and be a baby again


The jumpy editing in this video makes me feel like a time traveller.


Try Irlen glasses and yoga hip stretches.


i’ve had this feeling that i’m dreaming for a while now, felt very alone and like something was very wrong with me. thank you, sharing your story has really helped me<3


thank you so much. i’ve been feeling exactly like this since i was 11 (i’m now almost 17) and i never knew what it was until a couple months ago. everything feels almost fake and it makes things hard to fully feel and whatnot.


I literally relate so much,when it happens to me my stupid brain starts saying “oh no! It’s happening again! Let’s start panicking!” And then my panic disorder kicks in so it really sucks but I’m starting to finally get some control over it and that’s good.


I thought I was the only one who experienced this oml. Thank you for this, I don’t feel so alone anymore.


I get this feeling sometimes, it used to happen a lot more often before. Now I only get it sometimes. It happened the most in PE class. It was exactly as you described it. Thank you for sharing your story❤


Thank you so much for making this video!!
I never knew I had this, I always thought it was general brain fog from my illness.

What I've done that has really helped is journaling. I have a bit better memory because I write things down, but my sense of time still sucks. :/


Happy to see someone else who deals with some of the same symptoms i do! when my mind is stressed or fatigued (and if there are certain triggers, like nighttime or an unfamiliar location), i start to fall into a dreamlike state so much so where i’ll actually convince myself i AM dreaming. this then snowballs into anxiety and paranoia. not fun.


Omg thankyou for sharing. Some of the things you’ve said really makes sense with how I have felt and I thought it was just a sypmptom of depression!


recently i’ve felt exactly like this. i really thought i was the only one that felt this way and this gave me hope that i wasn’t going insane. :,)


I felt this a few times throughout my life. I remember when I went to Disney land for the first time, it felt like I was dreaming (not like a dream) like I was dreaming so I understand what you mean and that would be awful the whole time.


This is an actual thing...I'm not insane...I can't thank you enough for making this video. I legitimately thought I was being silly but I'm definitely going to get this checked out. This is such a relief to actually have a name for this


I went through a very scary bout of this when I was in an abusive relationship. I also noticed it was much much worse when I used to smoke weed, I felt great when I was high but for several days I would feel completely detached from reality even when sober. The movie Numb with Matthew Perry is a good explication of the emotions you go through while experiencing depersonalization.<br>I also learned that I have Hashimoto’s thyroiditis and not sure if depersonalization/derealization are related to it but since I had surgery and my meds are on the correct levels I feel a lot more cognitive. My memory is still poor when I’m stressed or internalizing things and I still have pretty bad anxiety but it’s better than before.

I went through a very scary bout of this when I was in an abusive relationship. I also noticed it was much much worse when I used to smoke weed, I felt great when I was high but for several days I would feel completely detached from reality even when sober. The movie Numb with Matthew Perry is a good explication of the emotions you go through while experiencing depersonalization.
I also learned that I have Hashimoto’s thyroiditis and not sure if depersonalization/derealization are related to it but since I had surgery and my meds are on the correct levels I feel a lot more cognitive. My memory is still poor when I’m stressed or internalizing things and I still have pretty bad anxiety but it’s better than before.


I have GAD so i've had some episodes similar to that so i really feel you and i know it must be so unpleasant (i've only had it for a couple of minutes each time) so i hope you have gotten better and you have found your way through it all


feels like walking through molasses. Life is syrupy, foggy, confusing and distant - thanks for making this video


i have this and i remember watching it before i got diagnosed with it and I didn't really understand it, until I got diagnosed. I was like "oh wow I have this", but when I watched it I was like "I kind of feel like I have this", but I didn't want to self diagnose myself and now that I have it I can definitely relate with you on a personal level.❤


I'm so happy you made this video,  Im 19 and I just figured the feelings I was having is just part of growing up,  losing excitement in everyday Activityies and settling into mundane. I feel like no matter how hard I concentrate I feel disconnected to all convocations, I know how to talk to people and I can hold a conversation but I feel like once it's over I was just on auto pilot,  that how I always feel,  like auto pilot.  The more I notice it the more it freaks me out. I thought it might be me just being tired but after seeing this I feel I'm not alone and that there is a cause and ways to deal.  You have helped me intencely.


Dodie I love you so much. I know this is an old video, but I struggle with this daily. I have PTSD and this goes hand and hand with it. It’s so hard to deal with and when you first posted this, I was so relieved. Thank you. It’s shitty, but you have really helped by just putting words to it. Thank you.


Me tooo!!!! I thought I was the only one that felt this way now I feel a lot better.


Wow. It is very refreshing to know this is a real condition. I remember feeling like this for a whole year in college. I was very stressed and dealing with a lot. I felt like my brain wasnt working and everything felt like a haze. I kept feeling worse and worse because I thought I had some braing disease and I thought I was going crazy. Eventually summer break came and I was able to get the mental rest I needed and eventually started feeling normal again. I can't imagine what it would've been like if it never went away tho. You are very strong and I really admire your determination. I know you'll find the cure someday and hope it'll be soon :)


It makes so much sense, thank you for sharing!


I don't know if it's something similar but I've also experienced situations like this. I always used to invent stories and kinda live in another world in my mind since I was a child. Like I used to spend a lot of time just laying somewhere and imagining scenarios of a different me in another world. Thanks to depression I became really isolated later and could only deal with real life problems in my parallel world. <br>Now that I'm alright again I often have these situations where I talk to someone or write a text or just go out and then a few minutes later I realize "oh, you just did this in real life. You said that to another person. You made a decision that could influence your future." Or when I'm traveling somewhere I always get kinda lost, like I can't believe that what I'm seeing is real. It's too overwhelming.

I don't know if it's something similar but I've also experienced situations like this. I always used to invent stories and kinda live in another world in my mind since I was a child. Like I used to spend a lot of time just laying somewhere and imagining scenarios of a different me in another world. Thanks to depression I became really isolated later and could only deal with real life problems in my parallel world.
Now that I'm alright again I often have these situations where I talk to someone or write a text or just go out and then a few minutes later I realize "oh, you just did this in real life. You said that to another person. You made a decision that could influence your future." Or when I'm traveling somewhere I always get kinda lost, like I can't believe that what I'm seeing is real. It's too overwhelming.


I admire you so much! I have had episodes of derealisation and it has become my greatest fear. I feel your pain deep down, and wish so much that you find a way to work through this. However, the fact that you have accepted it is something I admire so much! It shows you are strong, and it makes me think you'll find a way through it. Thank you for sharing this, it's a topic that needs to be talked about more. You're amazing!


It’s surprising to see a video about this for once I’ve had dr since I was 7 years old and it’s been a long struggle


It's crazy this video was recommended to me now because today I realized I have the same thing. I have been under immense stress again after a long while and I noticed my vision got blurry. I managed to live for almost a year without it though! Hopefully you'll get rid of it too


Thank you thank you thank you for talking about this. I needed to hear about this.


I feel like I have this condition too I never thought something like this would exist.


I went through a bad case of this my senior year (2017-2018). When I would go to school, it would feel like I wasn't even there. My vision was so cloudy and everything seemed fake. Like I would walk to a class and sit down, and it felt like I never left the previous class. I'm going through it again, but not as bad. It really sucks but it doesn't last forever.


Thank you for sharing this. It might just help someone looking for answers just like you were. Also I just got into your music in the last few months (tardy to the party, I know.)  and it's absolutely addicting.


So I often dissociate when I’m alone at night and one of the best thing I found to ground me is listening to 8d audios and having like a comforting smell with me ( like my girlfriends hoodie or something) I don’t have derealisation (I think) only episodes of it when I’m very down so it might not work with everybody but yeah. This is my little part of help to everyone <3


I have DID but I never knew that I had derealization until recently. I just felt like that for days on and off and I was so confused


I GET THIS SO MUCH and it usually happens after I hit the peak of my anxiety or stress then it feels like I’m in auto pilot and this is a dream and I hate it so much!