Pls like this so she’ll see it!! It could really help her!!
Dodie i really hope you‘ll read this because i‘ve been suffering from exactly this for a few years and have finally figured out what it was and how to „treat“ it! And the thing is: this constant brain fog and feeling of drunkness 24/7 is not a mental condition per se, but a way of your body not being able to function properly due to health condition! I mean clearly i don’t know your life and the mental health aspects could be part of it too. But my mental health problems like depression or this depersonalization went away completely since i’ve been working on healing the ‚physical’ things. The first things i was diagnosed with was severe Vitamine D deficiency... reading up on it, the symptoms include brain fog and depression and ever since ive been substituting it its been so so much better! The next big thing, that really really made the difference was finding out i have Histamine Intolerance!! Histamine is the Protein in your body that is responsible for allergic reaction, but a lot of foods contain it as well. When you have Histamine intolerance your body can‘t digest and get rid of the excess histamine from food and it builds up in your body, causing all kinds of problems like: itchy eyes and skin, a runny nose, headaches and : a lot of mental issues. an excess of histamine can block the serotonin receptors in your brain, causing depression and depersonalization! figuring out my diet and these problems were directly connected to my mental health and what ive been going through was a long journey but i have been free of both ever since i‘ve adapted to a histamine free diet. i really suggest you give it a try for 2-3 weeks ( maybe even longer) and see how you feel! it will seem very limiting at first ( it is ngl) but i‘d rather have a limited diet than live in a dream 24/7. there are some good resources out there for histamine free eating ( the histamine free chef for example). so i suggest you read up on it! i am almost 100% sure this is whats causing your problems too...
oh and btw, for me my problems with this have also started when i left puberty at around 17 or 18. a lot of people start to develop histamine intolerance at that age because of  the hormonal shifting.
i really hope you‘ll 1) see this and 2) read up on it and give it a try .... i usually never write comments on videos but i wanted to share what ive learned over the past couple of years

if anyone still reads this, i wanted to add on to my comment, because since i wrote this i changed some things up that made a huge difference. when i wrote this comment first i was still occasionally getting these disassociation days for no apperent reason, and i couldnt find a reason why. so thats when i started taking the vitamin d thing really really seriously. i started taking about 15.000 I.E of vitamin d a day because with the 5000 i was taking before the levels in my blood were still too low (only went from 12 to 19) . and , very importanly!! started supplementing magnesium, calcium and vitamin k which is the one thing that has finally stopped me from having those relapse kind of days. magnesium for example gets used up by the body when converting the supplement form of vitamin d to the one the body can use. thats also the reason some people suddenly get extra tired when taking vitamin d supplements, because they actually get a magnesium defficiancy or further the one they already have.same goes for calcium and vitamin k which are important to other processes in the body, but its quite a lot to explain. if you wanna give this a try i suggest you read up on it. i never thought that these defficiancies could have such a massive effect on my body and my mental health, but somehow they do. i've been so so so much happier and feel healthier and more energetic. i actually have this excitement about life back that i thought i just lost while growing up. i hope some people still read this comment and that i can help other that feel this way ! oh another important change i made is taking probiotics. 75% of your immune system lies in your gut, and if it isnt healthy, all the processes in you body suffer under it. its another really big topic that needs your own research if youre interested but it does make a big difference. ok thats it byeee

marie claire glad you found a way which helps you with the condition!

Funny thing is, I was replying earlier about how I felt like this too, but taking vitamin D did actually help. I still don't feel like my life isn't my own, and that it's completely directionless, but things feel less floaty and surreal when I'm taking those supplements or if I'm getting outside which is harder to do in the winter.

marie claire I would like to add that you guys should make sure that you’re not ODing on supplements either, because I’m (not diagnosed, but I definitely don’t feel like the “average” person, so I generalize and say I’m) depressed, and my dad was once explaining the vitamins in our cupboard at our house, and said that if I’m feeling quite down for a week or two, to take a tablet of vitamin D3 a day and I’ll feel better. I decided to give it a try and it wasn’t working, so I doubled the dose, then found that according to the Internet, I was ODing on it. This may or may not have caused some long term inconveniences for myself, so just in case, check with your doc or be careful when you’re trying new things :) good luck to you all

this is the most important thing i have ever read in my entire life. Thank you so frigging much. This explains so much. I was diagnosed with a vitamin d deficiency around age 16/17 as well, but i think its very possible that this is another situation i might be dealing with and can totally help me.

Well, they are definitely tied into each other. Changing the diet and physical things might be a really good kickstarter to the brain. In fact, the brain, depression, and trauma ARE part of the body. Though people go through temporary derealization episodes without having those other physical problems (sufferers of PTSD probably know this feeling, even for short periods), it isn't a bad idea to try it (though it's possible Dodie's already looked into it).

Paige R yes i know! and that‘s why i said that i don‘t know her personal backstory and  that personal traumatic events can definitely play into it too or be the cause!  i can‘t really speak on that part because i‘ve never experienced something like that myself. but since i went through the same things dodie and many others here are and describing and i‘ve found a way of how to stop it/ the cause of it for me  i thought i‘d share it. your body is more complicated than you think and more often than not mental problems are  symptoms of your body not being able to function properly in a way. i‘ve always wondered how depression starts.. it felt so weird to me that my body would just randomly stop producing enough serotonin without a cause (cause thats how it is for a lot of people) but its not that your body just randomy stops it, its probably that it can‘t do it ... look up any vitamin / nutrient deficiency and one of the symptoms is depression. we think our body is able to handle a lot and eat fries everyday of the week for a month(been there) and think were fine because physically our body still functions but its the mental health that suffers first in my experience. anyways i feel it would help alot of people to get their blood checked and try to eat histamine free as an experiment to see how they feel, because a lot of people have it without ever knowing this intolerance even exists.

I’ve had it since I was about 11 years old and it really does suck. I don’t talk to anyone about it in my life because up until this point I didn’t know how to describe it without sounding like a total lunatic. The only words I could think of to describe it were “I feel like everything isn’t real” even though I KNOW it’s real because when I was younger everything appeared much more vivid and alive, instead of this view of dullness that I see things in right now. I operate and move sort of like a robot...I have this cycle and I just keep following this pattern over and over again...everyday, as if I work in some factory. It’s really depressing, but I just ignore and deal with it because I don’t know what I can do to solve it or “cure” it. Seriously, I miss the days where I could enjoy the times where me and my family gathered together for the holidays, and the joy/sensation you get from opening a present.

This could be true in some cases, but traumatic events often cause depersonalization derealization disorder. I've had it for 5 years and see a therapist for it. Stress and trauma trigger episodes of dpd. A big percentage of  Americans will experience 1-2 episodes in there life time statistically and this disorder is rather common. Mental health and physical health go hand in hand but that does not mean depersonalization is only caused by physical disorders.

Adding on to this, any number of sleep disorders may also be the cause of the fatigue and depression you're talking about. I have narcolepsy, and the 5 years of my life in which I went undiagnosed are a complete blur. I actually clicked on this video because "I feel like I'm dreaming all the time" really resonates with me considering that time and when I get tired even now: often times nothing feels quite real, and for some people, hallucinations can be quite serious. I can relate to your mom: months just lying in bed, sleeping until late in the afternoon on the weekends and through all my classes during school, no motivation, severely depressed. I wish I had the following to make my own PSA, as it's estimated that 75% of people with narcolepsy don't know that they have it. Hoping someone who needs to see this does...

Because I have never experienced or known anyone with Dodie's condition, I'm not going to confirm that it works for that, but I do agree that things like depression and constant tiredness can be very possibly due to Vitamin D deficiency. For months my mom just laid in bed, sleeping until late in the afternoon, had very low motivation, and was severely depressed. My dad didn't know how to treat it at first, and I didn't know about it, so it carried on. Then, about two months ago, she went for a general checkup at the doctor, who took blood samples. Everything was completely normal and healthy, until they got to the Vitamin D part. Ideally, a regular person's Vitamin D level should be about 20-50 (20 being very low, but still sort of in the safe zone). My mom's was 7. The thing is that my family isn't so keen on going out in the sun a lot if we can help it, which is bad on its own (we found that my dad and I are Vitamin D deficient as well). Sun definitely helps, and you are required to get full sun for about 10-20 minutes in the afternoon (the darker your skin, the longer you must stay in the sun). Food isn't a good enough source for the vitamin, so it's either sun or a supplement. My mom and dad are taking Vitamin D3 supplements once a week, and we all can see the improvements. My mom has finally gotten a regular sleeping pattern and her depression has improved tremendously. I'm not in any way saying that the cause of depression is definitely and always a Vitamin D deficiency,  but it is worth checking out your physical health just in case. After all, that awfully cheesy saying of, "A healthy body makes a healthy mind," is actually quite often true.

also if anyone else thats going through this has any questions or needs some advice please feel free to ask me. seeing all those people here that have been feeling exactly like i have for years is quite overwhelming. i always thought i was alone with this and never talked to anyone about this. the times that i did, people didnt understand. i really hope i can maybe help some people with what ive learned so far


Did you ever forget moments in your childhood and simple things like a week ago. I think I may have the same problem. I am always zoned out.


I was diagnosed with depersonalization when I was younger but because of how bad it got when I was out of therapy if somehow got to the point I forgot I had it, so when I went back to therapy, it still came as a shock to me.


heyo i've had this for seven years! how do i not be afraid of it? i get anxious from the derealization and then the anxiety gives me MORE derealization and it's just a never-ending shitstorm


Therapy, trauma therapy/ trauma treatment and grounding is very helpful for depersonalization!


Thank you so much for sharing this. Seriously, this means a lot to me

To me too. And I CANNOT BELIEVE she had it.


I’ve had that. It feels awful. I had it after I was anxious non stop


Hey I came across your Video awhile ago when I was researching for myself. As you can imagine I'm feeling mostly the same and felt relieved when I heard I'm not alone.
I went to my therapist and talked about how I felt so that he could make a diagnosis but instead he made me take an ADHD test. Turns out I have ADD. After that I got prescribed a few different stuff for ADD to test out, and Vyvanse. Vyvanse was the last medication I tried out. The first day I tried it out I was in that "dreamy" state you described.. and after a while it was gone.
I had derealisation for 2 years now and the last 6 months I had it every day. The day I took Vyvanse was the first day in 6 Months I wasn't asking myself "Am I awake?" or "Am I present?".
So I went online and searched for some studies on Amphetamines and Derealisation/Depersonalisation. And yeah there are some that say that it is helping against these conditions.
I don't know if you want to ask any of your doctors about it or try it our or anything. But I felt obligated to tell you this since it is definatly something that could help.

(Sorry for my bad english I'm from Germany - In Germany Vyvanse is called Elvanse but in the US it should be called Vyvanse)


I had several days in my whole life like what you've described, but it all fade away thankfully. I actually shudder when I think what would be if this state comes back.


Hello!! Little late to this video, but I’ve been experiencing derealization almost constantly since July 2021, and I can confidently say it’s the worst thing I’ve ever experienced. It took forever to actually figure out what the root cause was, I’m 20 now and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at around 14. It was only a few days ago that I got diagnosed with ADHD, and it seems that much of my mental struggles, specifically the derealization, have stemmed from that. I began taking a low dose<br>or concerta a few days ago, and I’ve already noticed a difference in my levels of depression, anxiety, and Ive only been experiencing the derealization when the medication wears off. I’m still in the early stages of treatment, but I had no idea that I had ADHD until a psychiatrist examined me. According to my psychiatrist, ADHD and DPDR can be connected because the brain gets overwhelmed by anxiety and an inability to fully grasp the environment and what’s going on, and can cause the brain to shut down. Hopefully this helps someone, it sucks and I wouldn’t wish this upon anybody, but you’re not alone :)

Hello!! Little late to this video, but I’ve been experiencing derealization almost constantly since July 2021, and I can confidently say it’s the worst thing I’ve ever experienced. It took forever to actually figure out what the root cause was, I’m 20 now and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at around 14. It was only a few days ago that I got diagnosed with ADHD, and it seems that much of my mental struggles, specifically the derealization, have stemmed from that. I began taking a low dose
or concerta a few days ago, and I’ve already noticed a difference in my levels of depression, anxiety, and Ive only been experiencing the derealization when the medication wears off. I’m still in the early stages of treatment, but I had no idea that I had ADHD until a psychiatrist examined me. According to my psychiatrist, ADHD and DPDR can be connected because the brain gets overwhelmed by anxiety and an inability to fully grasp the environment and what’s going on, and can cause the brain to shut down. Hopefully this helps someone, it sucks and I wouldn’t wish this upon anybody, but you’re not alone :)


I think I might have derealisation. I always feel like I'm dreaming. I feel like I'm living my life in a third person point of view. Like I am playing a character in a video game. I don't feel like I'm there, or anywhere. I space out A LOT and my vision is really blurry. It might just need glasses or I might not. I feel like this the most when my anxiety is the worst because of pressure. If anyone has any advice or tips or anything feel free to share.

Galexis
That is EXACTLY how I feel. I don't have any really helpful tips, but here are some:
1. Don't harm yourself. Iv'e felt like this since I was 8. I used to punch and bite myself to prove myself the world around me exist, that I exist, because I feel pain. NEVER DO THAT. IT'S UNHELPFUL.
2. Ignore it. Don't think about it. I really need to ditch from my phone more- I like being absorbed into the internet. This way I don't feel it that much. I do know now that books are sooo much better for this. Get absorbed in tons of books, not at the same time though, because it's really confusing☺.
3. Don't overeat. Do sports. I go climbing twice a week, it really helps. When you work out the body feels..more. sweaty, hot, sometimes sore from the practice . It's a good thing to do anyways.

Sorry, I don't have any more..

Galexis I totally get that... I have it a lot when I'm anxious or depressed or lonely. Basically, whenever I'm more sensitive to things around me and my emotions are more extreme (mostly on the negative end of the spectrum), I tend to get that way. I totally get the third person video game character thing... That's a good way to put it

Dodie said that she's written a few tips in the description as well. Maybe go check those out as well?

oh my god, you literally described how i feel daily! i never thought of it as derealisation but idk if i want to get diagnosed...

Saame. Especially since it's finals season, it's gotten worse for me. I'm so sorry you feel this way. I talked about it very briefly with my therapist and this didn't work for me, but it might help you: try naming the things around you. like for example I see my laptop and the christmas lights outside my window. I can feel the keyboard keys under my fingers, and the soft feeling of my blanket. Does that make sense? Kind of like you're placing yourself inside of your surroundings, grounding yourself. idk, i'm sorry if that doesn't work, but i really hope you find something that makes you feel better!! if you do happen to find something, please share it with me lol

I don’t know if this will help you, but it helped me so I’m going to share it. My psychiatrist told me that it’s a natural defense mechanism against anxiety and that there is nothing wrong with me. Knowing that has helped me to calm down when it happens, and it now that I am not scared of derealization it happens way less often and doesn’t last nearly as long. And when it does happen I know that it’s because of my anxiety and while there is nothing I can do about the derealization there are lots of coping strategies I can use for reducing my anxiety.

thegirlwarriør I kind of ignore it too and I become used to it but it's still  feels so weird

More natural meaning that I get more used to the feeling kinda...

I'm not sure if I 100% have it but when I'm feeling like that I ignore it and either the feeling goes away or it becomes more natural. For me that feeling doesn't last that long (unless I'm under constant stress)

Young Ugly God I try and not think about it but it's almost impossible not to think about it

Galexis the best way to deal with it is just dont let it scare you a knowledge that it's there but don't let it consume your thoughts

Galexis you definitely have derealization


I’ve had moments like derealisation but only when I was experiencing severe withdrawal from an antidepressant that wasn’t doing me any good at all

For a whole month I got progressively worse and genuinely thought that there was another me inside my head that was evil and was the manifestation of all my negative traits
I had horrible moments where I thought I could “feel” her emerging from my mind like a snake and telling me things that made my question why I was born

It was Avery stressful month and I am so grateful to my boyfriend who let me just get through it and let me cry and have my meltdowns when I needed
There are people who don’t understand though unfortunately but just remember that it’s not your problem

I’m now off of anti depressants and never want to turn back, it’s a horrible experience


I’ve had around like three experiences like this and I felt weirded out because I had no idea about what was going on but i did some research and I feel better now thet I’ve watched your video


i was like that when i was a child, then one day all of a sudden i like, snapped back in to reality, and now listening to this it might've been due to the trauma i went through as a child-early teens, or maybe not and it may happen to everyone during their child hood


This might be something you've already tried, so I apologize for the unsolicited advice, but I have this and I have been taking Seroquel and it has done wonders for me! I believe it is the antihalucinogen properties it has that fixes most of this for me. I was worried at first that it wouldn't help a lot because I wasn't seeing things that weren't there and a lot of the problem was more about how I perceived the outside world rather than what I'm actually seeing in front of me but it's worked really well so far! It hasn't gotten rid of my depression or anything, but it stopped my derealization for the most part and now the world doesn't look fake and disturbing anymore lol


I’m in tears... i had no idea that other people felt this way too.

i have been struggling with this as well for almost a year and had no idea what was happening to me... 2 months later but now im in tears too


I actually found out about derealisation/depersonalisation because of this video last year. It made me cry because I always thought I was just going crazy

Same, i just found out and i’m in tears. I’m very much relieved to know that i’m not alone


Its good to know that you're not the only one going through something. Well I've been depersonalized and derealized for 10 years now. Mine was due to trauma, a lot of crazy stuff happened in my family when I was a kid even till now, it really messed me up. Everything feels like a dream, objects around me are wider and flat and seem farther away from me. I get panic attacks like occasionally. I'm also aggressive towards people even though I don't wanna be. Sometimes I come back to reality, and then I get really scared and start screaming and crying involuntarily cos even though it looks real I'm just so used to seeing everything distorted and then i revert back to the dream state. Also I tend to laugh alot, also find it very hard to focus. I find it really hard to make proper eye contact with people. It's just really crazy.


I have this! I got it from going through a trauma. first signs for me time just felt like eternity then gradually got worse as I was thinking what's happening to me. the more i panicked about it the worse it got and I'd stay in that place for months. My way to get out of it, is medication and to not even think about it. It's much harder done than said. But you're defo not going insane if you tell your self that. Just go with it and accept that it there.


To me when it's really bad it feels excactely as if I'm stuck in a video game. It feels as if I'm this tiny person stuck in the back of my mind, looking through eyes that aren't mine, trying to control this body that isn't mine, and talk to friends that I haven't made. <br>I don't feel like me at all, and I honestly don't feel anything beside constant panick. It feels like I'm stuck in a different dimension than everyone else, as if I'm the only person in the world. Everything looks 2D and there are way to many sounds and colors, that all seem so distant and unreal yet way way too much to take in. My sense of time and place is so fucked up, and my memory gets so bad, and I just feel like I've gone absolutely mad. I have no control over my body, i am so overly concious of every single movement I make, and i don't feel capable of feeling anything but distress. I just fucking want to go back to the real world, and I want my actual self to come back.

To me when it's really bad it feels excactely as if I'm stuck in a video game. It feels as if I'm this tiny person stuck in the back of my mind, looking through eyes that aren't mine, trying to control this body that isn't mine, and talk to friends that I haven't made.
I don't feel like me at all, and I honestly don't feel anything beside constant panick. It feels like I'm stuck in a different dimension than everyone else, as if I'm the only person in the world. Everything looks 2D and there are way to many sounds and colors, that all seem so distant and unreal yet way way too much to take in. My sense of time and place is so fucked up, and my memory gets so bad, and I just feel like I've gone absolutely mad. I have no control over my body, i am so overly concious of every single movement I make, and i don't feel capable of feeling anything but distress. I just fucking want to go back to the real world, and I want my actual self to come back.

Dana Taylor that's what it's like for me

berNII-SAN I MADE ANOTHER COMMENT AND I SAW YOUR COMMENT DESCRIBING IT AS A VIDEO GAME AND OMG THAT’S LIKE AN EXPERIENCE I GET SOMETIMES WOW O.o

I’m gonna copy a little bit of what i commented here too so you can see what i said about the video game thing and compare if you want >\\<

“It got to the point where my face was grinning, but in my head i was somewhere else. It felt like my mind was disjointed from my body, like my brain and my soul were sitting back from the windows of my eyes, staring out through them at the situation in front of me. Like I was pressing buttons on a controller and watching through a TV screen. It felt unreal and it didn’t feel like it was my life at that moment.”

But i’ve not diagnosed or anything and this thing only happens very rarely, usually in high-pressure, serious situations. So idk pwq

weirdly to me it just feels like there is a huge, thick glass panel between myself and reality, like I’m looking through a window at everything.

I thought I was the only one who felt this. It feels like my eyes are disconnected and I can't focus on what people say. It isn't constant and I'm sorry that yours is

me too! thanks for describing it im so bad at describing things

Right! It’s like you recognise you have control of your body but the body seems almost foreign? Like it isn’t yours? I describe this to my friends as it feeling like being in VR/simulation game. Almost as if you’re controlling a body that isn’t yours.

Cecily literrally as if the entire World is a screen! like there’s no other place to look

berNII-SAN i literally allways feel this way 😭😭

When I feel the most disassociated and spacey, I feel like a first person game, like I’m looking intently at a computer screen, I’m so immersed that I’m not paying attention to what’s going on around me and I can’t look away to come back to ‘reality’

this is very much how my dissociation is. When I'm well, it's like the controls are responsive and smooth so that I'm well immersed and there's no issue, but as I start to dissociate, the controls get loose and the screen fuzzy, and, when I'm reeeeally dissociated, it's like I'm tied to the opposite wall with bungee so that even something as simple as raising "my"/the character's arm takes a tremendous amount of effort

I LEGIT EXPERIENCE THIS TOO OH MY GOODNESS

thank you! You've managed to put EXACTLY how I feel into words, something ive never managed to do 💛

Everything you're describing is EXACTLY what I'm feeling and have felt for a while.

SAME. I feel like I'm a tiny person operating a robot inside the robot's head. (I think there was a Fairly Odd Parents episode like that... and a Doctor Who one? It's a pretty common TV trope I think.) Like my mind and body are disconnected or fake or something. I also am just acutely aware of my own existence, yet at the same time paranoid that nothing is really as it seems and I'll wake up from a dream at any moment. It causes me a lot of anxiety as well. I don't really relate to Dodie's descriptions of her symptoms but I can't think of what else it would be besides derealization or depersonalization.

berNII-SAN awwwwwww stay strong and keep on fighting u will break free one day soon just dont give up even tho its soooo bloody hard but always remember its ur body its ur mind and its ur life even if it doesn't feel that way now thier still URS and u will feel the way u used to!!! Stay strong ur not alone!!! Gl xxx


I went through most of my life in a state of being constantly, high stressed (still feel it sometimes). Slowly I noticed myself... Not being myself... I couldn't remember what had happened 3 seconds ago, or much of my childhood, or anything in between. I couldn't have a conversation because I would get lost in my words/mind and forget what was going on and start to panic. I couldn't remember names of close friends. I guess it was my brain cooping with the chronic stress? So much of what you said was relatable. I started going to EMDR therapy about a year ago and I have seen probably a 75% improvement in all of my symptoms. I was scared to try it but I am so grateful that I did.


I wish I could talk to Dodie lmao literally everything she’s saying is right on the spot it’s scary.


This is interesting. I didn’t think what i experience at random times in my day has to do with a named condition


I always described it as being like my eyes were too far away, like i was perceiving the world through my own eyes and ears but my consciousness was settled way at the back of the inside of my head and all the information had to travel a long way to get to me. Like my eyes couldnt open wide enough and my ears couldnt listen hard enough and i was receiving everything in this slow mo delay


This is really comforting to me
Most of the time I feel like I’m not actually living, I can’t remember where I went on vacation, I forget memories that I should remember (I went for skydiving once and I can’t remember anything), my thoughts get really messy and I can’t recognize myself anymore, and I’ve had multiple episodes where I had to stop myself in the middle of the road to do a reality check because my whole body felt numb
Up until now I thought it was because of my depression, but I just realized that maybe it’s something more than that
Thank you for bringing this up, I’m going to do more research about it and hopefully I can help myself now

oh my god your name is Milena too??? IM NOT ALONE IN THE WORLD?!?


Woah, I had to pause the video because it hits so close to home Oo I've been struggling with depression for almost three years, and one of the numerous things that helped diagnose me with depression was this impression of not be present in life. I eventually got better and stopped medication, but the "emptiness" and disconnection is still here. I tell myself I will fully recover and get my emotions back, but now I'm scared it will last longer :'( at least I'm not crazy, but it's tough living and missing out in great sensations and feelings :(


I’m glad I found you. I’ve been dealing with this for years now. When I try explaining this feeling to people no one gets it. I have an appointment to see a therapist tomorrow and I hope this is something they’ve heard of. To be honest I don’t know if I should bring depersonalization/derealization up, because I don’t want them to think I’m trying to self diagnose myself. Anyways if anyone has suggestions on how to cope, please leave a comment below! Also great video 👍


I have been feeling this since like may of this year and I never knew what it was, I always pushed it to the back of my mind and it has affected me, I don't want to self diagnose myself but I know that's something is going on inside my head, im forgetting things easily and I genuinely though that I may have some sort of memory loss, I honestly want to cry, as soon as I get back to school I'm gonna go to my school psychologist and ask her about this.
Edit: I've sometimes wondered if I'm dead and just reliving everything again cause I also feel like I have no control of my actions and that my story is already written and that i can't change it.
I don't know if I really have this I really hope I don't, but at the same time I kind of wish I do because that means that I know what is wrong with me and that I'm not going crazy. I haven't cared about school as much as I did before I feel like I don't have enough time or that time is passing too fast I really hope this can go away because I want to feel alive again. I also sometimes feel like I'm not feeling anything, I don't know how to explain it but it's like I feel happy but deep inside me I don't feel anything, I feel like that's why I felt like I don't feel anything and I said that maybe if I fall in love again it would go away but after I started feeling this way I felt like I don't actually have crushed on people anymore, not like I used to at least, whatever I have whether it's this or something else I really don't wish it on anyone


when you mentioned about feeling drunk but with out the fun part it hit home, i tried explaining to myself how ive been feeling these past few weeks and those were the exact words I used :(


I am so glad you now know what derealisation is now and that you are getting help for it!

It's not real, someone is impersonating Dodie to post spam (or scam or attack) links. Happens to most big youtubers, sadly.
Always be suspicious and assume a fake identity. Never click the link.
If you want to verify someone's youtube identity, click on the avatar and check it is the right person.
At least on PC, the uploading user has their name highlighted in all their comments.

does she still have depersonalization or is it the same thing as derealization?<br>edit: oop, she answered it.

does she still have depersonalization or is it the same thing as derealization?
edit: oop, she answered it.


I notice when I get really really stressed sometimes I’ll slip into these moments where nothing around me feels real.... I always described to everyone as me being lightheaded or dizzy... as I’ve gotten older it’s gotten worse to where it makes my stomach hurt and gives me this feeling of anxiety... when it happens it can happen in like a small amount where I can work my way through it or a big amount where I have to sit there and just deal with it... it sucks honestly and idk if it’s derealization because my vision doesn’t go dim or anything but my eyes do this weird focus thing


I had this exact feeling when I was 8-10 years old. Around the same time when I developed severe anxiety. I would often wake up in a daze and freak myself out with questions of “am I real? Is this actually happening?” I remember my biggest disassociation happening at a family member’s wedding, and it was terrifying to experience.


I have this. It started last year when i was under a tremendous amount of stress


Thank you so much for sharing this about you.


wait is this not how people normally experience the world?? i just thought that was how the world was?

Sometimes I have to remind myself what’s going on even if I know what’s going on 😂<br>I’m weird lol

Sometimes I have to remind myself what’s going on even if I know what’s going on 😂
I’m weird lol

i have autism, every day is like a nightmare like you see ALOT of stuff you hear ALOT of stuff its really LOUD and that everyday

@VoldiOldie Artichokie Your comment helps me so much, I have this kind of problems for more than one year now. I suffer from anxiety and kind of depression. I don't feel it all the time but it happens sometimes. Taking medicine is hard to me and it's also hard to find a therapist i feel "good" with. I'm going abroad soon, so i have to take the plane... I was really happy and excited about going abroad but lately I feel really anxious because of the plane and I have derealisation and depersonalisation almost all the time, I also can't sleep, that makes things worse + winter which is like THE WORSE PERIOD for people suffering from anxiety, depression and stuff.. Your comment give me hope, I hope it'll get better and this condition will stop soon, i hope the same for all people suffering from any mental disorder and health condition, things will get better !  i'ts so hard to stay focus and enjoy my life when i always feel that the world around me seems to be not real, that i'm dreaming and all... Btw, my English is probably not that good, i'm not a native speaker. Cheer up and thanks again <3

VoldiOldie Artichokie oh shit??? i don't want to feel like this forever wtf do i do


i have a combination of derealization and depersonalization and i just had another panic attack last night because of it, it happens quite often and it scares the shit out of me, thanks for helping me feel like i'm not alone


I came down with this or something similar in 2011. This is the first time I have found anything that comes close to what I'm feeling 24 hrs a day, 7days a week, 365 days a year. I describe it as I'm dreaming all day long. I would like to know if there are any proven treatment for this. I dont recall being so stressed out to cause this to happen. I mean I worked and came home. Trying to explain this to people has always been hard. I have several other conditions as well but after 6 or more MRI's and seeing that I had several brain lesions I guess I thought that the lesions is what caused this. I had severe Vitiman D deficiency and was several fatigued.  It paralyzed the left side of my body. That drs thought maybe I had a stroke however there were no signs. I would be ok medically if I didnt have this going on as well.


I always feel a disconnection from myself and picture myself from an outside view constantly like I'm watching myself on T.V. or something.  Either that or completely phased out like everything goes by without my control.  I don't if that's derealization or depersonalization but that's just something I notice.


i have this symptom as part of my ptsd.. it's very difficult for my brain to process trauma so she spaces out a lot, soon i'll be starting therapy and getting an assistance dog for the ptsd though so that should be good :)


😢 I get this after panic attacks and it's the scariest thing ever. I couldn't even imagine being that way all the time.
You are so strong and brave Dodie. I know you'd rather be cured than an inspiration but I hope that helps a little bit🌞
🎶I promise you it will all make sense again🎶

ahh i've heard about that! it's a sort of safety net after experiencing so much anxiety. remember it's your brain trying to protect you.<br>and thank u friend <333

ahh i've heard about that! it's a sort of safety net after experiencing so much anxiety. remember it's your brain trying to protect you.
and thank u friend <333


I’ve been aware of this condition for some time now. I believe the singer of The Counting Crows (Color Blind <b>*song*</b> Long December *song*) has this. I’ve struggled with anxiety since maybe 8-9 and social anxiety since 6th-7th grade (I moved many times as a youngin- states, not towns) I always perked up while listening to the description of this diagnosis. But, I’ve never felt it was apart of me. I’m very sensitive (in more ways than 1) and I’m not a Dr. runner, hate attention, dislike diagnosing myself... you get it Lol. Anyhow, this video just opened my eyes more than ever on this subject... truly. Great video and cheers to you. Wonderful job.

I’ve been aware of this condition for some time now. I believe the singer of The Counting Crows (Color Blind **song** Long December *song*) has this. I’ve struggled with anxiety since maybe 8-9 and social anxiety since 6th-7th grade (I moved many times as a youngin- states, not towns) I always perked up while listening to the description of this diagnosis. But, I’ve never felt it was apart of me. I’m very sensitive (in more ways than 1) and I’m not a Dr. runner, hate attention, dislike diagnosing myself... you get it Lol. Anyhow, this video just opened my eyes more than ever on this subject... truly. Great video and cheers to you. Wonderful job.


When I was dyeing my hair I used this dye that had, I don't know what was in it, bleach or peroxide? But it smelled very toxic and chemically. I stayed in the bathroom with that smell for I'm not sure how long. I think i can say an hour but the more I inhaled that toxic chemically smell the more I felt like my brain cells were dying or something. I started to feel not dizzy, but hazy and in a daze and floaty. The more I sat in there dyeing my hair I swear the more I thought I could FEEL my brain dying from inhaling that chemical smell. I tried to set a timer for 30 minutes to keep the hair dye in because I did not want to damage my hair but I accidentally put 30 hours. I guess one hour passed, because it said 29 hours and I only noticed because my brother pointed it out. I could have sworn only about 10 or 20 minutes passed? I definitely fucked my brain up somehow inhaling those fumes or something. Only happened a few days ago, I still feel really fuzzy and weird AND my hair didnt even turn out good, the bleach colors didnt add any color all they did was bleach my hair blond ish and damage it. Whoops I guess? Not saying it is anything relating to this, just sharing my stupidity and possible brain damage from said stupidity


I honestly feel like crying watching this. I have felt these things and I always just thought it was my depression/anxiety. And every time I explained it to someone they look at me weird and say “I’m not eating or sleeping well”  or “do some exercise” but even if I do it happens. This is the first time I have felt like I’m not going crazy or the only one that feels this way... thank you so much for this video. This means so much to me...


Holy shit I thought I was the only person that had this, my anxiety got that bad till my head just started going 100 miles n hour and I couldn't even put a sentence together I've been trying to explain to my doc what's up and didn't even know what to say to him and keep getting one prescription after another which only makes me feel worse, just knowing I'm not alone has helped, thank you!


THIS IS A THING?
I HAVE THIS TOO
AND I WENT TO THE COUNSELOR AT SCHOOL FOR IT
THIS MAKES ME FEEL 1620348273567128904 TIMES BETTER

You're all valid af and I hope you get the support you deserve

juliepoolie you are not insane, that’s terrible that you were called that! stay strong 💛💛

i didn't know what it was called until now, and i get this when i'm really stressed

juliepoolie oh my god thats horrible! <br>the counselor at my school said that shed talked to other students with derealization and helps me a lot. dont worry, there are so many people in the comments on this video and just in general that will love you and support you and help you and you are most definitely not insane.

juliepoolie oh my god thats horrible!
the counselor at my school said that shed talked to other students with derealization and helps me a lot. dont worry, there are so many people in the comments on this video and just in general that will love you and support you and help you and you are most definitely not insane.

Insane bc of the derealization if that wasnt clear lol

Magical Guinea Pig I went to the school counselor and was called insane so nOpe never again


I take a breathe and go "inside" my body and focus on my feet and imagine gently pulling my energy down to my feet and from my feet into roots (it can be any energy source that is grounding) that I imagine to curl and stem and stretch into the earth and when I open my eyes I find I'm more present.

hope this helps someone else!


i’ve been having this feeling for a couple years it started where i’d feel like i’m dreaming but at a high level even though i’m still there and my brain would’ve process my environment as 3d but rather as flat like i’m looking at a really defined painting but that would only happen every once in a while. but i constantly felt space and dreamy and like there’s a big black dark part of my brain but it’s cloudy in my head like it’s dark but a white cloud. it’s been a little difficult to feel and have emotions but it’s only gotten the worse recently where i literally don’t have emotion i can tell when i love someone like my parents or my best friend but i can’t say i have a crush on someone or that i love someone romantically because i just truly don’t feel it. some days feel more off than others and i just want to cry but my brain can’t fully process why i want to cry it just feels so hard because i used to feel things vividly and i just don’t anymore the fact i know there’s a change but i can’t help it hurts not physically but just it hurts. if i think about it long enough it goes away for a little while and i don’t remember that this is how i constantly feel but then it all comes back. when it started i thought it was just my vision i got it checked a million times seeing if i needed glasses eventually i did but it only helped my vision it did not reconnect me to the world. i only started talking about it this year to my parents and my closest friends my dad doesn’t believe in mental health but my mom asked my doctor and i’m getting an appointment next month so she can refer me to a therapist. i’m happy that it’s a possibility that it can be helped but it’s only so far away. i want to stop feeling this way it feels so unfair. but i’m also scared that it’ll go away at some point and it’ll freak me out and come back but i’m so used to it now i don’t even know what to do. i can think but only about 67% headaches are weird because it hurts physically but it’s cloudy so it feels like it should be soft like i have a cushion for my brain but it doesn’t work that way if you read this thank you <3 i need all tips possible pls


I've had it for a year now, it caused me to have agoraphobia but at least I managed to go to a therapist for the first time last week


It happened to me for almost one year after my mom died in a dramatic and painful way. I also thought it is depression, got my eyes checked and stuff, but I couldn’t find any cure. I paused university and went travelling to India, where the symptoms slowly disappeared, because my general stress level from before of dealing with my moms death AND crazy daily university life became better. <br>So I guess that would be my advice, if you know there was a cause that you need time to deal with...give yourself that time. Take a break from other stressful things.... be your own friend and donˋt compare yourself with others, everyone has a different story.... <3

It happened to me for almost one year after my mom died in a dramatic and painful way. I also thought it is depression, got my eyes checked and stuff, but I couldn’t find any cure. I paused university and went travelling to India, where the symptoms slowly disappeared, because my general stress level from before of dealing with my moms death AND crazy daily university life became better.
So I guess that would be my advice, if you know there was a cause that you need time to deal with...give yourself that time. Take a break from other stressful things.... be your own friend and donˋt compare yourself with others, everyone has a different story.... <3


I’m crying right now, I thought I was crazy or something and I felt alone. Thank you for this video, really, I realize I’m not alone and I feel a lot of relief simply knowing this. <3

I am crying too :( , i thought that i am going crazy or that something bad is happening with my brain, nobody really believe me, my friends don't even know what i am talking about when i tell them how bad i feel with this condition... but we are in this together! And we are enough strong to get rid of it. <3

You and me both. I truly thought I was alone in this

You're not alone hey,i hope you feel better. Also surround yourself with the right kind of people, that will not make you feel shitty


I am also diagnosed with this disorder as well as some others and seriously, I CANNOT tell you how unbelievably grateful I am that you made this video. I’ve never met someone else with this disorder and whenever I explain it to people they tell me how horrible it sounds but they can’t always relate.

Literally everything you described happens to me all the time as well and what’s crazy about it is that I’ve explained it to others in an eerily similar way as you explained it in this video! I am so happy I’m not alone💕I feel so much less “strange” and “weird” now that I see others like you experience exactly what I am.

Lately I’ve been struggling so much with it, it just keeps getting worse and I’m in absolute hell. But I know this video is going to help me cope with it since now I can reassure myself that I’m not the only one and I’m not as weird as I think. Thank you SOOO much again, I hope you are well💕💜

I am also diagnosed with this disorder as well as some others and seriously, I *CANNOT* tell you how *unbelievably* grateful I am that you made this video. I’ve never met someone else with this disorder and whenever I explain it to people they tell me how horrible it sounds but they can’t always relate.

Literally everything you described happens to me all the time as well and what’s crazy about it is that I’ve explained it to others in an eerily similar way as you explained it in this video! I am so happy I’m not alone💕I feel so much less “strange” and “weird” now that I see others like you experience exactly what I am.

Lately I’ve been struggling so much with it, it just keeps getting worse and I’m in absolute hell. But I know this video is going to help me cope with it since now I can reassure myself that I’m not the only one and I’m not as weird as I think. Thank you *SOOO* much again, I hope you are well💕💜


I think I’m stuck in that at the moment. And it’s been like that for a few months now. And it’s scary. I guess I always assume I haven’t been sleeping enough but no matter how much sleep I get, I’m incredibly dissociated.


I have this. Happened when I was 18 and I smoked pot at my graduation party for the first time. Haven't been right since.  Living in a dream, a painting.


finally someone who talks about this!!! I've had this experience for the first time after smoking weed when I was younger. And it was such a super super scary experience. Ever since I have been experiencing it on and off when I am really stressed or under a lot of pressure.
I always felt like I was going crazy, and my anxiety got only worse. After years of not talking about it, I decided to go to the doctor and psych to talk about it.. But they didn't seem to understand what I was talking about :(. So thank you so much for this video.
Makes me feel more comfortable and safe, and knowing that I am not the only one is a really good feeling. /
Thank you so much :)


I think I have this as well. I find it really hard to differ reality from dreams sometimes. And it's gonna sound crazy but it genuinely feels like I can see the future lol. Like I either have dreams or make up situations in my head that end up coming true. Like I feel like I might be losing my mind. XD

Same but only the visions. I could dream or have a vision where I gone out and imagine up scenarios, I snap out and forget what was happening in reality and then when what I dreamed/Imagined comes true I remember dreaming/imagining it and I feel wierd. And this sounds wierd and crazy, but sometimes I will look at something but I won't...see it? Like I don't take in what's around me and it freaks me out a little bit. Idk...I think I'm just a little different


to me it literally feels like the “head empty no thoughts” meme. like there’s nothing going on in my brain or around me and everything is still


If it is originally brought on as a way to deal with stress (I think you said this) my tip is to remind people any kind of stimuli can cause stress. People with hsp can give tips to reduce that kind of stress to better cope with other conditions. WEIGHTED BLANKET is so comforting and helps anchor you to the present. Sunglasses or closing eyes to reduce visual overstimulation. Soft earplugs reduce auditory overstimulation, they also force your attention to stay in the moment to hear what is said, and I think it could improve memory if it helped you to stay in the moment. If I am under a severe amount of stress I know to avoid any place with too much going on and reduce overstimulation.


I feel I’ve waited my whole life for reality to kick in...


I have this really bad and have found a therapist has experience of dissociation and is really helping. I had to look around for ages but am now starting to have days without it or at least with it being reduced. <br>Thank you for talking about it dodie, I discovered this wasn't normal and its name because of your openness which has really helped me :)

I have this really bad and have found a therapist has experience of dissociation and is really helping. I had to look around for ages but am now starting to have days without it or at least with it being reduced.
Thank you for talking about it dodie, I discovered this wasn't normal and its name because of your openness which has really helped me :)


You go through your normal day, when all of the sudden... everything changes. Nothing fully computes in your head and you feel zoned out. Your brain and body feel like two separate things instead of a full working “machine”.

Or at least that’s my experience with derealization.
I talk about it and nobody understands, so to know that there are people like me; it makes all the difference.

Mind*<b>*</b> not brain, your brain is purely a physical organ

Mind**** not brain, your brain is purely a physical organ

Sometimes you’re at work and your mind decides to sign out off your body, your body keeps working like it’s on auto-pilot, it also responds to communication like an auto-response, and your mind is floating - and everything feels surreal, but kinda feel sensitive also..

I mean I’m not gonna say that what I experienced was derealization but there was a time for just one straight month basically I didn’t remember doing anything, that’s not even a good way to describe it like one second I’m thinking oh I’m hungry and the next I’m like downstairs in front of the fridge and I don’t remember telling my body to do that, what I’m trying to say is I lived in a fog for a month hasn’t happened to me since but I remember trying to tell my doctor and all they did was tell me to tell my mom. Hoping it doesn’t happen again because nobody understood what I was talking about

Александър Атанасов This is what i feel sometimes and i fucking alienated to myself when i feel it. Like i feel reincarnated to my own thoughts lol

This is exactly how I feel. I feel so much more comfortable now that I know other people have this same problem!

Tbh sometimes it is worse than this. You feel disconnected even from your brain, like you are not sure if the thoughts are really yours. If there is even you at all

Александър Атанасов

Same! The only person I know who knows this feeling is a friend I have, and we don’t even talk a lot. Whenever I bring it up to my friends they look at me like I’m nuts

This one almost made me teary eyed, thank you so much for describing this so well.

SOS Save Our Seas right?! it’s so nice to feel safe in a community like this— even though it might not be an in person conversation, it’s still a convo with a real person who understands the real experience! (Sorry for the long sentence reply- i’m a bit insane lol)

I feel that a lot too! My best friend is the only one who knows and I plan to tell other friends soon but yeah. It’s really strange.


BECAUSE OF YOU I was able to tell my psychiatrist years ago about my dissociating and get help for it


I feel like this for at least a couple minutes whenever i go to a party. It's not stress or anxiety thats causing it, i just kinda feel like that lol


I'm 14 I've had it for a year now, it started on Easter of last year. I remember eating candy and then going to church but right when I walked into the church I had a massive headache and started puking. After that it only got worse, it's hard to remember things tho almost like I'm looking at my life through a glass window


Being home all day makes it worse for me, but talking with friends/playing video games .. Distractions help 🖤 i have really bad dp/dr too


Tips!!<br>I’ve learned to realize when its happening. If you can’t yet, you can still try this whenever you want for practice. When I do realize it’s happening, I tend to focus on the air around me. How is it moving? is it windy or still. What does the temperature feel like? is it humid or dry? then i focus on anything else that happens to be touching me. My clothes, my hair, the ground against my feet etc. Usually at this point I can kinda snap out of it. If its still happening, try to heighten your awareness of specific things around you one by one. Hope this helps!

Tips!!
I’ve learned to realize when its happening. If you can’t yet, you can still try this whenever you want for practice. When I do realize it’s happening, I tend to focus on the air around me. How is it moving? is it windy or still. What does the temperature feel like? is it humid or dry? then i focus on anything else that happens to be touching me. My clothes, my hair, the ground against my feet etc. Usually at this point I can kinda snap out of it. If its still happening, try to heighten your awareness of specific things around you one by one. Hope this helps!


i’ve felt this way for about two years now, although i can’t actually remember how it felt before. my therapist told me it’s just how my brain deals with stress and anxiety, it tries to escape. i call it being zoomed out as that’s what it feels like to me, zoomed out from reality. it feels like my brain is floating away and my body isn’t my body and my life isn’t the life i know. when it gets really bad it feels like my ears are stuffed with cotton, i hear things, but i don’t listen, the information doesn’t register. school is hard lol

i’m still hoping i’ll just snap out of it one day.

Did u snap out of it? If yes can you please tell me how


i've had almost all of these symptoms for awhile, i just hadn't seen myself different in the mirror.<br>self diagnosed not entirely sure.

i've had almost all of these symptoms for awhile, i just hadn't seen myself different in the mirror.
self diagnosed not entirely sure.


I feel bad for you and I hope you feel better and find a solution for this . I wish the best for you ! ☺


the background is so lovely (and so are you) <3

Wait.. Then how do you know that you feel like your dreaming, if you never know what  not dreaming is?


I vividly remember a point when I was about 7/8 years old and I was staring into a mirror. I had this feeling that it was the first time I was seeing myself despite having a mirror in my room for years. The body I saw wasn’t me except it moved when I did. Since then I’ve had multiple other occurrences of dp but I more commonly experience the feeling that I’m in a dream and the life I’m living is secondary to a real world and I fear making a mistake in the real world by following my dream life, almost like a true dream and bathrooms. However, one of my most common sensations is being engrossed in a book and looking up, I’m suddenly disoriented and the page gets smaller, the text is minuscule compared to a second ago and there’s no way I was just reading this book. My memory of reading the last few pages before my attention left is blurry but my eyes physically won’t refocus. It feels almost like a flashback instead of an actual experience.


I spent years .. many days, staying daydreaming for Hours and hours... <br>I still have that drealisation when I am stressed even with the low sense of stress

I spent years .. many days, staying daydreaming for Hours and hours...
I still have that drealisation when I am stressed even with the low sense of stress


I got that for 8 months and that was a really difficult time.<br>Love and positive vibes from France

I got that for 8 months and that was a really difficult time.
Love and positive vibes from France

@Della The trigger was boredom from school and mostly anxiety generated by an existantial crisis. I got away with accepting the fact that we live in an absurd wolrd, and taking care of myself (reducing the anxiety and depression mood). Most of the time depersonalisation is caused by anxiety, it's like a protection so if you decrease the stress and the anxiety, it will get better.

what was the trigger and how did it go away?


I have this during panic attacks. Almost like I’m an observer of myself. For me it goes away after the attack, although it’s always the very last symptom to fade away. Horrible feeling, you’re super brave and strong for living with that constantly. Good luck!


my terapist told me 10 days ago that i have depersonalization too. im kinda freaked out because it sucks and what you say about it makes me so scared because i dont think that mine is too bad yet. i hope it doesnt get worse bc it is already really hard to handle.

I’m sorry. It sounds like you are going through a really hard time. I don’t want to diminish at all how terrifying this must be. But if it’s any help, one of my psychiatrists told me that it is a natural defense mechanism against anxiety and that there is nothing wrong with me. Knowing that had helped me relax when it happens, and being less anxious about it has helped it happen less often and when it does happen it doesn’t last as long now.

Congrats on getting help! I hope you feel better soon :)

João Pedro Galindo obrigada!! espero que tu esteja melhor hoje

Nevaeh Carey thank you it means a lot to me! i hope you get better 💛

I've been through that and it got really worse at some point, and I think you can handle it

isabella I have it too. Don't worry, a tip on how to cope, what I always do is when ever I feel stressed and then go into the dream mode thing, I always squeeze something and say "this is reality, this is reality" over and over


I've had this condition for about 20 years. Its like the lights are on but no one is home at times. I often don't recognise myself and don't feel present. Memories and time are all over the shop. This all sounds exactly what I've been going through. I read somewhere it may be connected to vestibular issues. It also goes hand in hand with some so called disturbances of personality.


the way i describe part of it to my mom is that i feel like i am watching my life happen through a VR screen


Can one have a less prevalent version of this? I often feel like I am the observer and not the interacter. I often loos contact with the meaning of things and words, and have to rebuild them. And I rarely remember happenings with any precision, almost like trying to recall a dream in the morning. Don't think anyone notes my struggles though, I probably have a bunch of coping mechanisms that I'm not even aware of.

It sounds like you are having symptoms of Depersonalization.

Here is a great way to help others understand your symptoms:

Ask them to repeat a word over and over until it losses it’s meaning. It becomes a sound rather than a word.

You separate the meaning that sound has to your brain and it simply becomes sound not a word. The same way foreign languages are just sound to you but words to them.

You remove the association you brain has connected to the sound, hence the name Disassociation.

PS: You are correct in assuming it is a coping mechanism as it helps separate you from your anxiety/trauma etc.

I hope things improve. Good luck

: )


I have this a lot of the time....not always, but I really hope mine doesn’t get worse, cus it’s very scary. You’re very strong, it drives me crazy


people saying "I kinda feel like ive had this" or "ive had this when I was tired" its not the same thing. Being tired means you lack concentration and awareness, its nothing like depersonalisation, trust me. Im only 30 seconds into the video and wanted to look at comments so before I press play again - DP/DR is like living in a dream, its like youre watching yourself play an actor in the movie, and although you sort of know you're here, it does NOT feel like it, and its impossible to just "shake off". Its the scariest thing ive been though and honestly id rather break both legs and arms than go though it again. I hope anyone going though it currently is having a good and productive day.

i DO feel like this. I need to see someone

i DO feel like this. I need to see someone

Considering Dissociative Disorders are a feature of both the DSM-5 and the ICD-10, including Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder (DSM) or Depersonalization-Derealization Syndrome (ICD), your understanding is clearly very poor.

lemon waffle whilst I appreciate your effort to locate where I’m going wrong I’m afraid my current understanding is that depersonalisation does not exist at all and is the creation of a demographic of adolescents seeking to feel quasi-unique/scapegoat their failures

SpiceeeMelone I'VE LITERALLY SAID "feeling out of myself" BEFORE I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS I THING!!! AHH! AND THAT DESCRIBES IT SO PERFECTLY! I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL DUDE

WELL THANK YOU CAUSE I THINK I MIGHT HAVE IT AND IT MIGHT BE HAPPENING RIGHT NOW XD HAAheAhehrrrre

I definitley have this. I never knew the name of it and I try to tell my parents about it but they look at me like im stupid. And they say that I'm so logical and I shouldn't be thinking like this. But its always been like this. feeling out of myself.

Iwanttodie See, where you've gone wrong is that you understood this as being "a tad spaced out". It's not. Generalising (a mild version of) the feeling of drunkenness or tiredness is not gonna lead you to the right answer. People wouldn't be so afraid of it if that were the case, as I'm sure most know it. Don't you think?

Luna Lovegood thank you for saying this. Some people just think you can shake off mental dissorders like it is nothing. I live with depesstion and anxiety. I also think I may have this when I'm having mental break downs. It is so hard to fear your own mind. Also with this mental disorder it is very hard to come back to reality.

Megan Buckland I think I may have this. I have a very difficult time telling fantasy from reality. They also mix and it is very hard to unmix them.

McDoucheybag Woah fuck I thought you’d gone

McDoucheybag Woah fuck I thought you’d gone

Iwanttodie<br>Nice one. For someone making fun of edgy people, you're pretty edgy yourself. When I said nobody cares, I was talking about your lectures about grammar and real education, because you know oh so well how to live life the right way. Yes, my family and friends do love me, and I'm sure yours love you too.

Iwanttodie
Nice one. For someone making fun of edgy people, you're pretty edgy yourself. When I said nobody cares, I was talking about your lectures about grammar and real education, because you know oh so well how to live life the right way. Yes, my family and friends do love me, and I'm sure yours love you too.

Luna Lovegood I think you will find I can very easily say it is not a real condition and the reasons you give for why it is are about as watertight as your spelling and grammar 😎.<br>Something is not a condition on the basis that it is an experience a lot of people can relate to. Taking a hard shit is an experience. I also find it scary and would assert its effects are markedly more severe than feeling a tad spaced out, yet I doubt I would be diagnosed with the condition ‘too much fibre in my diet’. You argue that it would be pretty hard to describe the symptoms perfectly if it wasn’t a real condition, yet I imagine most people could describe the symptoms of being a small glass of orange squash pretty accurately, yet for some reason that’s not a recognised condition? Hmm, strange. As for the idea that because I don’t have it I can’t say it doesn’t exist, that seems like the kind of logic that might lead one to have an imaginary friend in their 30’s, and furthermore, because if you do claim to have derealisation you are part of an infinitesimal minority, I would argue that just because you do have it doesn’t mean you can just say it is real.

Luna Lovegood I think you will find I can very easily say it is not a real condition and the reasons you give for why it is are about as watertight as your spelling and grammar 😎.
Something is not a condition on the basis that it is an experience a lot of people can relate to. Taking a hard shit is an experience. I also find it scary and would assert its effects are markedly more severe than feeling a tad spaced out, yet I doubt I would be diagnosed with the condition ‘too much fibre in my diet’. You argue that it would be pretty hard to describe the symptoms perfectly if it wasn’t a real condition, yet I imagine most people could describe the symptoms of being a small glass of orange squash pretty accurately, yet for some reason that’s not a recognised condition? Hmm, strange. As for the idea that because I don’t have it I can’t say it doesn’t exist, that seems like the kind of logic that might lead one to have an imaginary friend in their 30’s, and furthermore, because if you do claim to have derealisation you are part of an infinitesimal minority, I would argue that just because you do have it doesn’t mean you can just say it is real.

Annie Ru could you give me empirical support for that beyond a LOT of self diagnosing introspective wet dishcloth teenagers who spend their time playing ukuleles and dreaming of a future where they can be their own whiny media charity case?

Avery Richards you aren't. It's your brains way of coping with heightened anxiety. Completely normal and if anything it means your brain is working properly

So my friend legit just showed because I told her a story that happened the other day and I watched this and then saw your comment and thought “holy shit. This is exactly what happened to me” this doesn’t happen a lot to me it’s usually when I change houses or when I stay in a hotel. It’s not usually when I’m at my house but when it is it’s extra scary. I honestly feel like you just told my most untold stories in that comment. Seeing this made me feel like I’m not crazy. My mom used to tell me that it was something haunting me or something like that but I never believed that. I always vividly remember these dreams I have before I “wake” up. I don’t remember any dreams at all besides the ones I have before I feel this. In these I always feel like I am flouting above myself and watching myself kinda freak out. I feel like I can hear ever single noise. Oh my god my hands are shaking. I’ve only told like one person this and I honestly thought I was crazy. So I don’t know if it’s really a true true that’s happening but every thing you described happens to me but not every single day. Please tell me I’m not crazy

I get this on odd days not when I'm tired but not all the time. it happens at random and its so weird. i do suffer from depression so this might be connected idk but finding out about this made me feel better because i know wtf was going on when nothing felt real/ like i was watching life through a screen everything is oddly crisp like a really HD TV nothing you see or hear feels real or right. also really dark like the contrast is really low or your dreaming cause ya know your dreams are always like darker vignette than real life.

Iwanttodie derealization is a VERY real condition and it affects a LOT of people.

Iwanttodie it is a real condition! People can relate! That fact that you come in here and declare that it isn't a real condition is atrocious! It is real and severe and scary and you can't just say that it isn't real! It is a real disorder and the fact that you would come in here and call someone inexperienced and then prove that you are even more inexperienced by saying it isn't a real condition is terrible! This person is obviously experienced and you are unavle to recognize it. They have managed to describe the symptoms perfectly and it would be prpetty hard to do that if it wasn't a real condition and they were inexperienced. You are spreading lies and being horribly mean. It is a real condition that many many people suffer from. Just because you don't have it doesn't mean you can just say it isn't real.

Megan Buckland thank you for recognizing this. I get very bad falshes of exactly what you described (I have been previously diagnosed) and I hate that some people are saying things like "Oh yes sometimes I get this when I am tired but I usually just shake it off and come back to reality." It isn't like that, it is a terrifying experience that you can't just get rid of like that.

Megan Buckland i think im going through this but i dont think so, i think im dreaming rn HAI

And adding on to this once it gets deep enough you start to question if you're even alive, maybe you died and this is you as a ghost because that is how unreal you are, i have only struggled with this a short amount of time, maybe a year now, but its like living in constant pain because its so hard to deal with. And people do experience it briefly if they are in a very stressful or anxiety ridden state, because it is a defense mechanism for your brain.

Megan Buckland I’ve dissociated before during bad depressive episodes, and I freaked out everytime. So I have a little taste of it. She’s very strong for dealing with this.

this has happened to me from withdrawals from antidepressants and mood stabilizers

Wild Flower also you shouldn’t be using language like that at your age

Wild Flower also you shouldn’t be using language like that at your age

Wild Flower a person who isn’t introspective to the point they feel they have to categorise/label the way they function

Brooke Thole *you’re. Please see my above comments for a short guide on this

Brooke Thole *you’re. Please see my above comments for a short guide on this

I'm 14 and I've had this since something traumatic happened when I was little and things trigger me into derealization. It really sucks. I can have it for a couple days weeks or even months.

Dude, I'm so with you. It's a big pet peeve of mine when people sort of... dismiss it??  DP drove me to the literal edge and it really hurts when people don't take these things a bit more seriously. :-(

This happens to me when I am in high levels of stress. I usually have to sit down and do some math in my head to come back to reality. It’s like your brain detaches from your mine or something ridiculous.

Lilyfloss oh yeah, definitely. I certainly don’t have depersonalization 24/7 but I do have it quite often and I’m just thankful that I’m not alone in this and that it’s an actual thing and I’m not going crazy lol

I understand your point, but it is definitely possible to experience moments or short periods of derealisation now and then.

Megan Buckland How can you possibly know what another person is feeling though? Do you have some kind of device that allows you to be inside another person’s mind and body? No

Iwanttodie lmao what?? I have a job.  I’m an interior designer.  Why are you so salty? 😂😂😂 people are hearing her story and relating wth it which is totally fine.  Relating and connecting and sharing was the whole goddamn point of this video.  You’re response makes sense because you know you’re argument is invalid and you have nothing to throw back at me but an insult.  Have a lovely evening sweetie.  You’re doing great 👌🏻

So what then? No one is aloud to relate?

So what then? No one is aloud to relate?

Caius Cassius perhaps some of the people do, but it's like everyone self diagnosing depression. A bad day isn't depression, it's a bad day. That shit FEELS different. DP/DR isn't a maybe, it's not something that's halfway there or something that happens once in a blue moon. It's ongoing. Whenever you're awake it's happening. It's not just something that you turn on and off as people are describing.

How can you be the authority on who has a mental illness and who doesn't? Maybe these people who say they've felt like they've experienced DPD before actually have, seeing as it's a very common disorders/symptoms of a larger disorder. You have no place to judge whether someone does have something or not.


omg this happens to me periodically like I just shift in and out of realities :0

And im super worried this is going to start happening more often. Saying that most of these comments are explaining how this used to only happen a few times and now it happens on the daily

Me as well, I often shift out when I get excited or something super fun is happening, or when im scared. And even before and during getting a needle. It honestly kind of scares me. I have not visited a doctor or really talked about this subject, I thought everyone experiences this at times, and i find myself asking people "you know that feeling when things seem like a dream" and everyone just nods and I never get in detail with how im actually experiencing things. This doesnt happen to often to me but when it does it makes me scared and feel like i cant control anything im doing.


I have this. I have been diagnosed a few years ago.

Its rough. Some things make it worse. Like, too much stimuli at once.

Thats why its hard to go outside sometimes for a extended period of time.

I find night is easier to tolerate.


we have a similar condition! we have a condition called dissociative identity disorder. it’s pretty terrible, but it’s interesting at times. you should look it up.


This is me whenever I'm stressed and I'm currently at a point where I am at my worst so woo brain no workies


I have never had derealisation but it sounds crazy scary!

Kamila Jimenez this is exactly how i feel.

It can be. I don’t know if you’ve ever done cannabis but to me it feels like when you get really high and you get super anxious and nothing feels real like all of your sensory input is too overpowering and time seems to slow down and you can’t think straight and you get paranoid everybody knows you are high. Only the difference is you can more or less choose when to use cannabis but you don’t have any control over when derealization happens. It’s like your life is a low budget daytime television series on an ultra HD tv.

It's not that scary to me it's just like I try really hard to get back in but there's like a wall that I can't get through. Depersonalisation to me is like I'll be thinking and it's like there are two brains and they are trying to connect again. It does suck but after a while you kind of just get used to it.

Having it for a long time like I did the start of this year was awful. I couldn't FEEL things properly, everything was so distorted. No concentration, attention span, hunger signals or memory. Honestly I couldn't tell you what happened Jan-April at all. SO weird. But yeah shorter periods of it are just kinda funny odd. But yeah I guess sometimes its like when your drunk and your like 'I shouldn't be this drunk, I need to stop now' and its unsettling. But you can't really worry in that moment because your 'drunk' and feel so disconnected.


i've just realised i relate to some of those symptoms, but for me i think it's more related to autism. The senses being too much or not enough is sensory processing disorder, not recognising faces, or faces seeming strange or unfamiliar can be face blindness, which is common in autism. but i don't feel like im dreaming necessarily.


I’ve had it for 9 years now. It goes away sometimes, but it happens every day and lasts for hours.


I can seriously relate.<br>I self-diagnosed myself with ‘something weird’ that was happening to my knees. After almost 3 years of seeing different doctors and specialists I was diagnosed with a rare condition. This condition made my knees dislocate at random times for random reasons. For some reason finding out what it was called was very comforting🤷🏻♂

I can seriously relate.
I self-diagnosed myself with ‘something weird’ that was happening to my knees. After almost 3 years of seeing different doctors and specialists I was diagnosed with a rare condition. This condition made my knees dislocate at random times for random reasons. For some reason finding out what it was called was very comforting🤷🏻♂

I have severe patella Alta (4.9 cm left, 3.6 cm right.) I had surgery about 2 months ago to graft a tendon into my left knee to stop it from dislocating, and if it’s successful I’ll have it done to my right knee too

This happens to me too!!! Now it happens less but a few years it ws really bad


I felt like this for like a month or two after smoking synthetic weed. It scared the shit out of me and I felt like I was never gonna feel myself again. Thankfully I did.


I don’t have vision problems<br>but I frequently feel like my brain is so muddled and that I am not myself. it’s more of a mental feeing than physical I guess. I have such a hard time feeling present EVER. I’m always seeking experiences that make me feel alive and real but I’m too tired to pursue them. idk what to do:/

I don’t have vision problems
but I frequently feel like my brain is so muddled and that I am not myself. it’s more of a mental feeing than physical I guess. I have such a hard time feeling present EVER. I’m always seeking experiences that make me feel alive and real but I’m too tired to pursue them. idk what to do:/

I know this my seem not connected to it. But get your body checked. I felt the same for a long time. Started taking supplements and stopped drinking coffee and I have way more energy now. Like it's crazy. ! Vitamins & Nutrition are so crucial to your brains ability to function properly. And if you don't get all the vitamins you need then that cab happen.

Maybe a weird or misplaced comment, but i've had this for 2 years when I was taking the birth controll pill. I stopped and it went away. Just wanted to let you know that that could also be causing this  in case you are taking that.

I feel the same way. I’m diagnosed with anxiety and especially in social situations I can feel myself not present mainly because I’m not mindful everyone points out that I look like I’m in my own world and I guess there’s some truth to that lol

I feel the same!!! When I'm with people it's not so apparent to me but when I'm alone I feel like I'm floating around, and everything's a tiny bit out of focus in my brain but I can see everything fine

It's so great to not feel alone, thanks for sharing. Exactly what I get

Same!!!!! I never felt that i am existing in the present and i am just floating. And that my body and my brain are two different things.

I would recommend watching Infinite Waters

Accept bordem. There's so much pressure from ourselves to be entertained all the time.  What changed things for me is reading 'the suble art of not giving a fu*k' I really recommend that.


I’ve always felt very connected in the world until this past year. I’m 20 and I have AVPD (avoidant personality disorder) and it’s gotten extremely bad this year, to the point that the only people I talk to is my immediate family and one of my classmates in college. I had two best friends but I only text them 2-3x a month, if I’m lucky. I’ve always been a maladaptive daydreamer, so that’s not new, but my feelings about life have become so distorted. I feel like the world doesn’t exist anymore. I feel like I’m a robot and everything doesn’t matter. I used to be a huge Christian, and I still want to be, but nothing feels real.

Time doesn’t feel real, my memories don’t feel real, everything feels static. I feel like I’m living in a simulation. Even my life seems so odd. My parents all a sudden have a ton of money and keep splurge buying stuff. I thought I would like this but it all feels fake. My brother ran away from home with his girlfriend and we haven’t talked to him in two months. But for some reason, I don’t even feel anything, even though he was my best friend. I’m going to school for a career but I don’t even feel like I’ll be alive in three years. I just sit in my room and watch more and more videos. I have so many nice and fancy things but it feels so artificial. I have a fancy car, fancy house, fancy phone, fancy clothes, and yet I don’t give a shit. When my family was poor, I always thought these things would make my life better, but they just make my life monotone. And on top of that I don’t even care about human interaction anymore. I feel like everything is pointless

The way you described derealization makes a lot more sense than what the DSM-5 describes it as. I felt that way about a lot of mental symptoms. For example, I recently started getting severe panic attacks (never had them before) and I felt like I was actually dying. My entire body felt like it was on fire and there was an electric shock feeling running up and down my arms. I couldn’t breathe, my heart was beating EXTREMELY fast, and it was triggered by nothing (I wasn’t even stressed that day). It lasted in intervals for 8 hours. I couldn’t get out of bed the entire day and I felt the most weak I had ever been. It took me three months to realize they were panic attacks because I couldn’t find my description of symptoms anywhere. I thought that panic attacks meant that you were scared, had a fast heart rate, and maybe quick breathing, not literally feeling like you’re about to die. The DSM-5 makes panic attacks seem SO much more gentle and different.


I have experienced this since I was 10, It was weird and I tried to explain it to my parents.


What has helped me were Zoloft/Ritalin or Strattera. I do have adhd and depression (dad's and mom's side respectively) though which cause the derealzation bc that combo is just very anxiety inducing.


Meeeee toooooo. As part of my PTSD... Problem is when I 'un'-dissociate I just dissociate in a different way because I feel like my life isn't real (because I don't recognise it lol)<br>This is so relatable...

Meeeee toooooo. As part of my PTSD... Problem is when I 'un'-dissociate I just dissociate in a different way because I feel like my life isn't real (because I don't recognise it lol)
This is so relatable...


Is it just me.. or has dodie been uploading A LOT lately??!! It makes me SOOO happy!!


I forget I’m me sometimes. Then I have a mini existential crisis but hey, I focus better. I’m not really sure exactly how it affects me but yeah.

Alina Nechiporenko do you know the name of it?


does anybody experience this when they are tired? I would like to know!


Describing DP/DR is exactly how you put it, like when you wake up from a nap and feel disoriented and not connected to what time of day it is.<br>I also describe it to people it feels a lot like you're wearing a VR headset...or if you've been day drinking and you sober up in the evening. Hopefully you can understand ONE of these examples!

Describing DP/DR is exactly how you put it, like when you wake up from a nap and feel disoriented and not connected to what time of day it is.
I also describe it to people it feels a lot like you're wearing a VR headset...or if you've been day drinking and you sober up in the evening. Hopefully you can understand ONE of these examples!