"I'd rather date an idea" is now my relationship status.

Echhoooo your the one that made me strat listening to dodie thankyoooouuuu

You’ll get your nice artificial intelligence someday Echo, I believe in you!

AWWW i hope you have a great day and you will find someone soon

from a british vlogger

+Echo Gillette ayy friend nice seeing you here


im listening to this on the night before my 17th birthday and sobbing

I hope life has been kind to you since, Lily.

Things went downhill a few days after my 17th birthday.

Being 17 truly sucks.

I'm turning 18 tomorrow, and I just stumbled upon this comment. I hope we are all going to live our lives and find our happiness.

WHAT THE HELL i'm literally turning 17 tomorrow too what the actual fuck

me too, I'm gonna be 17 in half an hour and I don't know how to feel lol. I'm kinda sad because I feel like this year was just wasted  :<

@lily halward it’s so weird seeing this. I was wishing my life away when I was 16 and things got better. I’m 19 now too. it’s easier to enjoy time now. I couldn’t change things when I was 16 but I have now. :))

wow the response to this comment honestly gives me so much happiness :')) thought i'd reply to my original comment to tell everyone that i am now 19, nearly 20 and it WILL get better! you'll be more focused on the present, you'll start to look to the future more! and the best part is, you will still be the same 16 year old that you were, it's all still there it's just got a coating of maturity and new experiences :))

My last day as 16, I'll never be 16 again :( ive always related to this song so much, but now its just hitting so hard on another level

my 17th birthday is in a week and I hated this year so much I'm sobbing so hard rn

Morgan Irbs same i turned 17 in march when all this started happening and i’m so scared to grow up i miss my childhood

October 31st Ill be 17 and never have I felt more nostalgic of my past than I have this year through the pandemic.

I hope everyone here is happy where they re in life

this video was actually uploaded the day after my 17th birthday and back in the days i was like too soon, too soon dodie

It’s my birthday today & I’m doing the same!

Jackson Sanders I just saw this but ty!!

This was funny in a “haha the lyrics are literally correct” way but this song just reminds me violently of ninth grade and that isn’t what I needed lmao

Skyler Christie happy birthday!!!!!🎂🎂🎂🥳🎁🍰

Aaaand I’m back... and crying... I’m 17 in one minute :,)

@June Carlo Yabut phahaha this is hilarious

i cant understand how i have matched emotions with a random 17 yr old girl even tho im a 21 yr old guy now

That will literally be me in 2 months :,)

Liked your comment 2 years ago and just came back to say that I’m not listening to this a couple days before my 17th and crying

@onlyangelle ‘ it was pretty good, though there are some things I regret

@ari:) my birthday is February 7th, so it's coming up soon

@aetherforest you're probably 17 now, i hope you enjoyed your time being 16 :,)

Well uh, happy early birthday this year haha...

i’m 15 and for some reason on the brink of tears after reading this, my 16th birthday is almost in a month

Lily Halward
Literally me right now
I'm 17 tomorrow


To everyone in the comments saying now you're scared of getting older because that one line in this song freaked you out:

I'm 27, and it's really not that bad. I'd even go so far as to say it's much, much better. Sure, society romanticizes being young because it's freakishly obsessed with youth and is terrified of aging because it can't face it's fear of death, but honestly? You couldn't pay me to be 16 again. You start recognizing patterns and getting to know yourself and why you react to things the way you do, and you start anticipating your own needs and meeting them before they even manifest. You are finally free to meet the needs your childhood home never could - if you grew up in that sort of home - and you can break old beliefs and patterns around this and discover newer, happier paradigms you never knew existed. You get wiser and see through bullshit faster and tolerate less of everything that makes you wilt miserably and you actually know yourself well enough to know what those things are. You start to develop self respect and self esteem.

I mean, there's lots of terrible awful things too, like lows you never knew you could hit and really weird brain states and awful roommates and unbelievably tedious bureaucratic processes. But. You won't stop feel like you are essentially "you," nor will you lose your idealism if you really refuse to unhand it to anyone. My only real advice if you're 16? Learn some hands on skills and share your interests with other people. The enthusiasm and time for learning random skills fades a bit if I'm being real, and the confidence to poke your head out and declare what you love will too unless you nurture it. Okay I'm done being a grandma love you drink some water bye.

Thank you so much for this, it means the world. <3


dodie's music makes me want to live my life to the fullest and be in love and just drink tea with fairy lights and play ukulele and sing with my friends and just be so in love with someone and just be so happy

This cheered me up so muchhhh!! You're absolutely right,, just gotta take life as it comes and try to be as happy as possible as much as we can 💛💛💛

same especially this song. It makes me want to be happy

Hannah Phelps I find it makes me think about how bad life has been in the past but that I need to cherish these happier times


dodie: *opens mouth*
me:STOP MAKING ME CRY

dodie: **opens mouth**
me:STOP MAKING ME CRY

It's such a raw cry though, it's almost healthy. Like crying at her songs relieves some sort of primal screaming for me. Very angsty but genuinely shes magic

LMAO I READ THIS AS “stop making me gay” and it’s still accurate 😂 also I know this is 2 years late but I was rewatching 🥺

Then she plays Instrumental and WE STILL CRY

you didnt see me coming <b>is laughing while crying</b>

you didnt see me coming *is laughing while crying*


When she says "I'll never be 16 again" for the first time it seemed that her voice cracked like she was on the brink of tears and Dodie, so was I

I feel that way and I'm only twelve halp meh

pretentious ukulele just saying.. Michael mell

maybe_a_bean this came out on my 17th birthday and I

Star Whale  I'm petrified of that too my life is so dull and boring I'm afraid I'm wasting every moment

I'm 16 right now and I'm so scared I'll never look back with happiness at my teen years

maybe_a_bean that line makes me emotional. at 16, I was loving, I was getting hurt and I was living. Now I just...don't feel anything. Im constantly thinking about the past and wondering when things are going feel good again

maybe_a_bean that line hits close to home 😔 I've been going back to my memories from 4 years ago wishing i could go relive them. i'd do anything to get back, but time doesn't work that way 😔 it will only be just a distant memory. i love Dodie, she understands. And thanks to her, for the first time, I finally accept the fact that this is life now.

i love dodie so much. like u dont even know.. also i wish dodie will stop by tokyo some day.....

See, this is what I miss from the original performance of sick of losing soulmates, how the guitar reflects her voice cracking, and somehow makes me feel like she's alone

SweetasSugar42 "you never feel grown up" Truest thing ever.

Henry Yau aww thank you! We are a cute little family :) Come join us... We have cookies of all shapes and sizes :D

Enjoy your youth!!! Damn I wish I could be a teenager again

Cal Blackwood, I feel the exact same way. I recently turned fourteen and while I'm happy with my life and I enjoy it I just want to get older. I'm constantly dreaming about what I'll do in the future and how I want to change the world. I know I should focus in the moment but I want so badly to make an impact on the world and that involves looking forward. I just hope I don't regret that when I'm older.

Lol I'm 14 and terrified of being any older :)

It's scary, I've got 9 days left of year eleven and then three terms of year twelve and I don't know what I want to do. I'm only sixteen, I'm not old enough to be contemplating my future

Michaela Janu did you turn 16 today. like november 5th. cause me too and it just seems so unreal everything is going so fast and we're all slowly dying :))

yeah people always to live in the moment and i kinda want to grow up and be independent....but the more i think about it, i really also love being the age i am.

I turned 16 right now ಥ_ಥ i wanna go back. Everything is happening so fast.

I'm only 14 and while I think I want time to go by so I can make a mark, I know that I really should savor the youth.

Abyni Always I turned sixteen before the summer, have a happy birthday and please don't be impatient to grow up. Trust me, you never feel grown up. Good luck :-)

I'm turning 16 this month and I really needed to hear these words. I'm always impatient for things happen.

+LifeAsCam +alittlebitbroadway OMG Dodies community is so cool btw I like both your channels guys they seem awesome :)

LifeAsCam well thank you! You too :) Love from an also small British YouTuber!

IKr i was so sad, btw have the most amazing day and much love from a small british youtuber

maybe_a_bean I thought exactly the same thing. And so was I.

maybe_a_bean I'm 16 and that really hits hard. It's crazy to think about the future.

I always am with that line lol. Thank u <3


I'm 14 and it scares me when I think that in a bit more years, this adolescence stage of mine will be over. Albeit back then I sat and wished I was 9 again, now that I think about it clearly, soon I'll be wishing to be 14 again. I've got to enjoy the time that's being laid in front of me, before it's all over. Sure, there's a bunch of anger and sadness dwelling in our minds at this age, but it's all the more of why our teen years are so amazing. We're experiencing all types of new emotions, and how amazing is it to feel your mind mature? Ok well I'm getting really emotional and all over the place so I'll just leave.

Hi 18 year old user. I hope you’re doing okay 💜

Hi 18 year old user. I hope you’re doing okay 💜

hey! you're 18 now. i really hope you're doing alright

hey, you're 17 now! i hope you're doing alright, i thought it'd be cool to respond to this since Build A Problem's version of when came out today. i hope 16 treated you well <3

Reading this three years later hits different

Reading this three years later hits different

Wow I’m 24 and wish I was this mature at your age. You seem to be very self aware and I’m sure you’ll be just fine with a head like that on your shoulders. I wish you well.

oh hey, i see that this comment was 3 years ago. You're probably 16 or 17 now. I hope you are doing fine. i hope you have been living life the way you want it to be. <3

how are you doing now? do you still need a hug luv?? how were ur birthdays??

This was literally three years ago and I still feel an emotional connection to you, I hope your teenage years treated you well buddy

how'd it go? are you happy yet? how do you get through this?

This comment was written two years ago so hows it being 16?

i’m turning 18 in december- i come listen to songs like this when i miss being 14. i wish i was like 12 again. enjoy teenagehood bc it goes so fast

All of these 14 year old comments I’m in the same boat with you! Now that this virus has us locked down I’m scared by the time august comes I won’t even be able to have a normal 15th. And it’s scary. I just wanna live life 😔

oh my god, i just found this comment of mine again. thank you everyone for the bday wishes and questions about how i’m doing! of course, i miss being 14, but i’m cherishing every moment i have right now as well as looking forward to the new moments ahead. the secret to “enjoying the time that’s being laid in front of me before it’s all over”, i’ve found, is to do what you want. your teenage years is what you make of it perception-wise. . .just stay true to yourself and you won’t regret it. there’s so much to look forward to when you’re an adult. although i miss my childhood and early teenage years, i’m no longer scared that this adolescence stage of mine will be over. maturity is the acceptance of not knowing everything; if you keep fearing the experiences ahead, you’ll never come to enjoy life for the rollercoaster it is. anyways, much love to everyone, and i wish you all the best in life! 💗💞

We are 16 I turned 16 today happy birthday

We are 16 I turned 16 today happy birthday

I turn 19 next month and I think back to this time now. I was sad when I turned 18 because it meant my childhood was over but at the same time I know that I'm still young in  the heart. I'll try and go to as many events and take as many chances as I can get before I'm really too old to do them (like physically not being able to do something). If you need me I'll be making the most of the time and resources I have now before I'm too old to create anything anymore.

Adulthood is nothing like what I expected it to be when I was a teenager. I'm 26 now, and I remember all too well feeling scared of the future and mixed up and confused as a teen. The truth is, adulthood is fun. It's like being a teenager but less intense, and with more freedom and respect. The secret is, grown ups are just teenagers with a bit more life experience and a less impulsive brain. We're all just playing house, pretending to know what we're doing and hoping we don't mess up too much. When you realise everyone feels the same, life isn't so scary.

nhuy n i hope life's been good to you <3

nhuy n i hope life's been good to you <3

hey, i hope being a 16 year old's treating you well right now. i believe in you. :)

i believe that you are turning or you have turned sixteen this year. happy early or late birthday!

This comment was written 2 years ago, so... how does it feel being sixteen? Does it give you a different perspective on the song?

You sound like me when I was that age. I'm 22 now, and it gets better. That feeling goes away a little. Not all the way, but I don't regret as much as I used to when I was a teenager. You'll be okay. The best is yet to come.

Oh dear... You must be sixteen now, then :') <br>I hope you have the best year, living the moment, not stuck in the past. Take care of yourself and remember you matter and you're loved!!

Oh dear... You must be sixteen now, then :')
I hope you have the best year, living the moment, not stuck in the past. Take care of yourself and remember you matter and you're loved!!

I would've preferred if my years as a fourteen year old wasn't spent currently friendless, and trying to avoid a breakdown I've been pushing off for four months. I would've preferred if being fourteen wasn't spent locking away my negative emotions and being there for everyone else. I would've preferred if my years as a fourteen year old wasn't spent wishing one of my best friends was still alive.

oh goodness you're probably 16 now.. I'm gonna be 16 next year :/

@Paris Holdich Don't vape or put a cigarette in your mouth, you don't need to do things that may hurt you or don't want to do to make your teenage years worth it. Just don't worry about it too much and stay optimistic even when it hurts to think about growing old. Do what makes you feel happy. You're only a blank canvas if you think of it that way. I know what you're going through, you're not alone. I hope you have a lovely day filled with positivity <3

Oh my god this was two years ago your sixteen now oh my god are you okay

Paris Holdich man that got me in the feels. i feel the same but the only advice i could give would be to, not think? if you get what i mean? don’t think to yourself ‘i should be doing this, why haven’t i done this, i should be living and loving more’...instead take use of these carefree times and really live in the moment. kind of like a dog, not thinking about what just happened or what will happen. <br>hope that helped

Paris Holdich man that got me in the feels. i feel the same but the only advice i could give would be to, not think? if you get what i mean? don’t think to yourself ‘i should be doing this, why haven’t i done this, i should be living and loving more’...instead take use of these carefree times and really live in the moment. kind of like a dog, not thinking about what just happened or what will happen.
hope that helped

@Meow Master 16 doesn't need to be the peak of your life ♥ I'm 20 know, and so much happier than I ever was at 16. You have not wasted the most important part of your life, you will experience so many wonderful things to come, life is just getting started at 16 :)

I read this comment as if it was Dodie singing and it was awesome

Ha you're right about that. I turned 18 back in October and it's terrifying. I feel like.. I'll be 20 soon but..I don't feel ready to be an adult. Life is happening and I'm going to be graduating. It's so scary and I hope in the future when I am 20, I won't feel unfulfilled to what I've done as a teenager.

It's okay... I'm 18, and I still feel like a child who has absolutely no clue about how to exist.

I’m 15 (turning 16 in a few days) but right now, my life doesn’t seem to amount to anything. Whenever I look back to when I was 11 or 13, all I see are the bad parts (mostly stressing over school) , I know that’s bad but what else can I do? All we do as teenagers is stress over school, and the connections I made don’t seem very relevant in my life. And that’s scary for me.
I’m almost 16, I should be at the “peak of my life” but I just feel sad and alone. I feel like I’ve wasted the most important part of my entire life.
I’ve never even had a boyfriend yet (but I’d like one) and I’m surrounded by people in relationships. I haven’t done anything with my life.
I want time to just slow down and wait until I can actually enjoy it. Things move so fast, I can barely keep up.

I’m 14 too... And always tell myself I’m too young to do anything important. I’m  a carer for my mum, and I love looking after her, but sometimes I’d love to have a life of my own- I wish my life away a lot.

I agree with this comment and these replies. It’s like u captured my feelings perfectly.

as a 14 year old myself, the idea of not living hurts. not feeling fulfilled. the world is my oyster yet i can't bring myself to take. never once have i been kissed, i have never put a cigarette in my mouth. never vaped, nothing. im a blank canvas, just waiting to be painted on. i know i dont get mocked but it feels as though im being judged, silently. it hurts, because i have not yet lived. and my carefree days are coming to a close.


I was 14 when Dodie released this song, and hearing it again at 18 really did make a blinding change in my perspective. I watched 15, 16 and 17 fly by and now I’m asking “when?” Despite knowing that those years of my life are over.

That is exactly the same as my situation, down to the ages. I was freshman in high school when this came out and had so much ahead of me. I listened to it every year, consistently. Even sent it to my favorite music teacher.  Now I'm in college and I feel like I just haven't reaped any benefits of what I thought I had. It's like when are they coming? When? I lost everything and still can't even tell if I had anything in the first place. I hope you're doing better now, I know I don't know you but you still deserve the best


"Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again" almost makes me cry. I'm 16 and I feel like I'm wasting my youth. I've has severe depression and anxiety for 5 years now which makes me isolate myself, I barely have any friends. I've never gone to a party, never gotten drunk, never kissed anyone etc like everyone else my age does, all I do is staying at home. It feels like everyone else are having the time of their lives while I'm just glued to my bed. <br>(wow that got deep lmAO)

"Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again" almost makes me cry. I'm 16 and I feel like I'm wasting my youth. I've has severe depression and anxiety for 5 years now which makes me isolate myself, I barely have any friends. I've never gone to a party, never gotten drunk, never kissed anyone etc like everyone else my age does, all I do is staying at home. It feels like everyone else are having the time of their lives while I'm just glued to my bed.
(wow that got deep lmAO)

@hoo hoo I love that you gave an update. I'm glad you're doing better.

I'm here also after 3 years. And I don't know you. But I wish that life has been kind these 3 years. And that you truly accept yourself and embrace the moments of "Not doing". There's something so sweet and nostalgic about pouring yourself a warm bubble bath and being ok with not rushing or going out or clubbing or traveling or just wishing you were doing more. Because some days all you can do is pour yourself a bath. And that's ok. That's enough. Give yourself grace. Going out is not what it is made up to be. It's not for everyone. You are still enough.

I’m 19 now. To anyone who feels this way: it gets better. I promise it does. Your time will come and you will meet your people and so many will love you.

I’m 3 years late but omg you have no idea how much I relate, my life is also like this and I feel very alone sometimes

im 2 years too late to this comment but me too

i am 16 and i have not done any of those things EITHER! and you ARENT "SUPPOSED" TO. life doesnt have a due date, and no matter how many people go to parties (or say they do but dont), or have sex, or make out with their boyfriends in their cars, lots of them are lying, lots of them aren't having the absolute time of their lives, and lots of them are just naturally outgoing. theres nothing wrong with wanting to or not wanting to do those things, but stressing about whether ur normal or not will only make u sadder

I'm doing all this right now, I really cannot say if it's worth it. I think if you don't have the right people to get drunk with, to kiss and to go to parties, it's nearly impossible doing stuff like this. I feel unsure in every aspect of my actions and I don't think that going to parties helps me coping with this.

it's going to get better, I promise. stay alive. <3

I never went to parties or got drunk or kissed anyone when I was 16 (or now for that matter, I'm 20). Do things you enjoy, not what is supposedly "normal". You're avoiding a lot of shitty drama by not going to parties and getting drunk. Best of luck :)

hoo hoo I felt the same way you did. You just have to force yourself into doing things, no matter how many panic attacks it causes you, no matter how much it tortures you at first, because after those first few times, it gets more bearablw


PETITION TO MAKE DODIE THE VOICE OF A DISNEY PRINCESS!!!<br>Someone should do this!

PETITION TO MAKE DODIE THE VOICE OF A DISNEY PRINCESS!!!
Someone should do this!

@Hailey Schlegel nah Jon cozart is a Disney queeennn

Xander F You realize that you can just... do it yourself, right?

Dodie already has the voice of a princess tho

THOMAS SANDERS AS A GAY DISNEY PRINCE WITH DODIE AS THE BEST DAMN DISNEY SIDEKICK EVER??? YES

Give Elsa a girlfriend and make her  Dodie.

lmao she already is a disney princess in our hearts

connor franta wanted to be first gay disney prince and i want dodie to be first bi princess

DUDE WITH HER NEW SONG IN THE MIDDLE THERE SHOULD BE A DISNEY MOVIE WITH HER, THOMAS, AND IDK TESSA OR SOMETHING THAT'S ABOUT HER BEING BI, AND SHE HAS TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THEM AHHHH

SO FARM 2162 PEOPLE ARE AGREEING- THE MORE LIKES, THE MORE PEOPLE WILL NOTICE!

START A RIOT MAKE DODIE THE DAMN DISNEY PRINCESS SHE DESERVES
                                                           TO BE!

Xander F only if Thomas sanders is the prince!!!!

Xander F and Thomas Sanders or Jon cozart as the prince

yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes

Xander F please please please please please

and thomas the prince!! (not for shipping purposes but bc he NEEDS TO BE A PRINCE)

Xander F WHAT ABOUT A STEVEN UNIVERSE CHARACTER


I am now terrified of wasting my time as a sixteen year old

I turn 18 in a few months and I have done absolutely nothing...

I'm also sixteen, and I wish life was more fun and exciting. After all, this is the time of my life, right? In reality, all I do is sit around dwelling on the past or worrying about the future, instead of truly <i>living...</i>

I'm also sixteen, and I wish life was more fun and exciting. After all, this is the time of my life, right? In reality, all I do is sit around dwelling on the past or worrying about the future, instead of truly _living..._

Hey! How are you doing today? :) Did you make it worthwhile?

My time as a 16 year old was wasted because I had about a month of being 16 before corona happened. I couldn't do anything! Now I'm almost 17.

Haha 15 and I feel like my life is sand through wide open fingertips, and I'm making no effort to catch it back before it's lost in the vast beach of death at my feet.

a global pandemic happened so i definitely lost some time here 😀

Thank you for this I'm 20 and I needed someone to tell me this

I think a lot of young women get stuck dwelling on their teens for a few years, we have this feeling like we've wasted something and will never be young 'enough' again, but I'm 23 now, and there's so much time. There's so much room to grow, and you're going to, and you haven't lost anything.

Hey how’s being 18, hope you’re doing well, best of luck with the next years<br>I’m 13 and turning 14 in 4 days and I feel like I’ve wasted everything but all of us have time to enjoy our lives

Hey how’s being 18, hope you’re doing well, best of luck with the next years
I’m 13 and turning 14 in 4 days and I feel like I’ve wasted everything but all of us have time to enjoy our lives

All you have is now, and you will never have this now again

Raysa i’ve never related to such a sentence.

Marcie Asuncion mate you’re putting immense pressure on yourself, be kind to yourself even if the world isn’t. Trying to force yourself to be what you think is expected will seem so insignificant in even one or two years from now because there’s only so long you can be something that isn’t you or isn’t even achievable in the first place xxx

We all have a different age that we will view the way dodie views being 16. It might be 16 or it might be 40, who knows. There’s no pressure to make it anything special. After all we make the past better in our memories anyways

@yuri aye, youre right. i just feel like a childhood shouldnt have to be as difficult as some poeple have it, and i sort of envy those who have it easy. maybe im just being a brat though :)

Marcie Asuncion don’t stress too much. You’re too young for that. I learned that the hard way. I was like that as a kid but then I found out that it just gets harder and harder so I should’ve just enjoyed life when it wasn’t as difficult as it is now

I'm fourteen and have some grey hairs, stressing over being the perfect smart and sweet child, trying to ignore the fact I have literally no friends where I am, and pushing down emotions.

If I never get to live out what should've been a wild and fun childhood, I'm suing.

I’m not happy now but I’m okay thinking that I’ll be happy one day

@Sine Nomine Long as youre happier wherever you are in life

I'm seventeen and I definitely am both wasting and enjoying my teenage years. They won't help me with my future, but I'm happy?

I AM sixteen! though i keep wasting my time

I know this is late, but please don't feel like you're wasting time. You're young enough to enjoy your mistakes. You have so much time to grow that you're blinded by it - happens to most people in this generation, myself included. I wasted my teenage years on an ideal I had for school and everything else I had to be, and I'm only now, in my early 20's, starting to learn to let go a little. Even I still have oceans of time to learn and find out more about myself, and so do you. Enjoy not knowing now, you have the rest of your life for working.

Turned 16 last week and already wasted it lmfaoooo

You won't. Just enjoy it! ;) Every age gives you something special, every year of our lives is unique. That doesn't mean you have to go out every day and do something amazing, just make sure that you get to do the things that you love. :)


When you thought what you were feeling could never be put to words but then dodie comes along and voices it so nicely. I can't stop coming back to this.


"Oh, yes" by Charles Bukowski

there are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late.

I was crying already but reading this made me cry even more. It's lovely and sad

It’s always too late for everything so why not give up and stop thinking about it

Hey.
Wow.
Fuck this.

(This is beautifully painful, I love it x Thanks for sharing)


listening to this as a senior in high school who is currently sitting and watching time being taken away because of quarantine

same here! graduating this may and the entire year has been online :( we're in this together <3

listening to this as a high-school drop out in limbo bc can't get a job and can't enrol in school 😀🔫


This is giving me serious Dear Evan Hanson vibes

I was getting a vibe from it too, but I couldn't put my finger on it until I saw your comment! Yeah it totally reminds me of DEH


this song.
“i’ll never be 16 again” i feel like i’m wasting my youth.
“memories painted with much brighter ink”
“it’ll be over and i’ll still be asking ‘when?’”
“am i the only one wishing life away? never caught up in a moment, busy begging the past to stay”
a summary of what derealisation is like. i’ve been living with it for about 10 years now and i can barely remember what life without it was like.
“i’d rather date an idea, something i’ll never find” every relationship or date thing (whatever idk) failed and, even though i would love to be in a relationship and even though there was nothing wrong with the people i dated, i was always relieved afterwards.
somehow, this song sums up the things i struggle most with. and yet, it makes me feel better as, finally, i feel less alone, i feel understood.
thank you, dodie, you’re wonderful 💛


I listen to this song when I have panic attacks. I don't know why but it calms me down and I love this song. It will forever hold a place in my heart even as I get older and even if these panic attacks stop.

Dodie helps me during panic attacks too :)


Here ya gooo

I think I've been telling lies,
cause I've never been in love.
Everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they're thinking of.

I'd rather date an idea;
something I'll never find.
Sure, I'll live in the moment,
but I'm never happy here
I'm surrounded by greener looking time.

Am I the only one
wishing life away?
Never caught up in the moment
busy begging the past to stay
Memories painted with much brighter ink;
they tell me I loved, teach me how to think.

I'll take what I can get
cause I'm too damp for a spark.
Kissing sickly sweet guys
cause they say they like my eyes
but I'd only ever see them in the dark.

I'm sick of faking diary entries,
got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again
I'm waiting to live, and waiting to love
oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.

Am I the only one
wishing life away?
Never caught up in the moment
busy begging the past to stay
Memories painted with much brighter ink;
they tell me I loved, teach me how to think.

I'm sick of faking diary entries,
got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again
I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love
oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when
oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.

Awh you didnt need to do that. Always look in the description for dodie songs 🖤


as a 17 almost 18 year old, who’s last year of being a kid was destroyed by this pandemic and many other things, ive gotta get it in my head that i’ll never be 16 again.


I have listened to this song so many times over so many years and felt I related to it because time was going by so fast. However, only recently in a state of derealization, and Dodie saying this song is related to depersonalization and derealization, have I seen it in a new light.

It's not about wishing you were 16 without responsibilities. It's wishing back to a time where you were actually in the moment and looking forward to the future. Don't get me wrong, the best days are 100% in front of us. But if you are living in a fog of derealization, you just wake up one day and months have gone by in an instant. And all the things you looked forward to is gone because it was giving you anxiety at the same time and triggered the derealization and you were "taken" from the moment to protect you of it. Yes, you have the memories because you actually lived them.. But did you truly live them?


returning to say that this is still my favourite dodie song. the idea of wishing for the future but hopelessly clinging to the past, creating a false version of myself in my diary so i can look back and see through rose tinted glasses the ‘best years of my life’. the string arrangement too, it’s perfectly melancholy.


I first listened to this at 15 and never really understood the line “I’ll never be 16 again” because I always thought why would I want to stay like this. Now I’m 18 and I can’t believe just how much I’d give to go back to a few happier times. Growing up is so damn hard.


every time dodie says "got to get it in my head; i'll never be sixteen again" i feel as if i've beEN PUNCHED IN THE HEART

Me too!! I shiver as her voice and the instruments go to the peak on 'head', and then they fall back down, like a deep breath.


"I'll take what I can get, cause I'm too damp for a spark"
Every now and then a line from a song will hit you so hard that you find yourself thinking about it when you f about your day to day life... this line hit me right in the guts...  I have listened to this song every day for as long as i can remember and I still get goosebumps. Only an incredible song can make you question your life and how you live it.
Phenomenal 👌


“They tell me I loved, teach me how to think..” This line gets me every time. It’s like it’s been so long since I’ve felt like an actual person that I don’t even know how to act like one anymore. All my emotions are gone and everything I do feels wrong. I have to use my old memories, from before I was fucked up, as a reference point to tell me how to even function in society.


I used to listen to this when I was sixteen, now I came back to this song and I'm almost twenty... damn... I'm crying


This is now my favorite Dodie song— WOW!!!


i remember watching this at 14 years old and crying because the age 16 scared me shitless.

i'm 18 now. it all went well. just here to tell you that life will get better.

i remember watching this at 14 years old and crying because the age 16 scared me shitless.

i'm 18 now. it all went well. just here to tell you that life *will* get better.


The music is over before she asks "when?" for the last time. I have many favourite parts of this song but I think that last part is one of my favourites for sure! So well done! xoxo


i’m listening to this the night before my 17th birthday and my boyfriend broke up with me less than a week ago. the thing is, i have been in love and i’m wishing to go back to when things were better. this song’s accuracy is beautifully painful


I am so so so ready for the new version of this song on her album! March can’t come soon enough!!


it's been a rough couple of weeks for me and my 17th birthday is coming up more quickly than i realized. this song hits me in all the right spots and im crying at work rn. i love you so much dodie


I showed this to my mom and she loves it. This song made me feel a way I didn't know was possible I looked at the world differently. A song effected me that much. Thank you, dodie it really means a lot.


honestly, this song gets more relatable the older I get, which is a little frightening.


Dodie: * hits one note *

Me: I would die for you. you’re so precious. You must be protected smol bean.

Dodie: * hits one note *

Me: *I would die for you. you’re so precious. You must be protected smol bean.*


Such a refreshing talent. You are going far.


I was 16 when this song was released. Now I’m 20, realizing that my youth is over and I’m an adult now. I’ve spent most of my adolescence dealing with depression, anxiety, and PTSD, so I didn’t get to have the stereotypical teenage experience. I find myself not wanting to take on the responsibilities that come with adulthood because I’m trying to cling onto a childhood I didn’t get to have. I remember first hearing this song four years ago and crying. I knew that I’d look back on those years and be sad because I didn’t get to live out “the best years of my life” like I should have. It still hits me hard, but I love this song nonetheless, and I love Dodie too.


i had to revisit this song after watching her video of depersonalization / derealization (the lyrics hit me like a truck more than ever)


going back to this version after listening to when in the ablum is... holy fuck


I first heard this song when I was 16. Hearing it on her new album all these years later really hits different


This song gives me chills every damn time I hear it !!!! So beautiful and sad and unfortunately relatable


the day we stayed up until 6am making snow angels unsure of our feelings is one of the best things to ever happen to me.

seeing you slowly fall for someone else right in front of me is the worst.

thank you for those beautiful memories. i know your feelings have changed but you will always be the first one that i felt the closest thing to love with. i left it until it was too late and im sorry. its my fault & i cant change it or do anything about it. this is my goodbye emily. you have my heart & you can break it a thousand times - i wont care because i love you. -A x


This wasn’t one of my favorites at the time it came out. A good song yes, but it didn’t make it onto any of my playlists. Now going through massive transitions, changing university, moving away from my childhood home, making new friends while old friends move away, this song really really hits different


i had a worse-than-usual mental breakdown over growing up last night (and i'm literally 16 what the heck) anyway, this song is really important to me because it reminds me i'm not alone with this entire hanging on to the past thing. so thank you dodie, you made my crisis slightly better. i love you so much and am so inspired by you every day. please never stop doing what you do! you're gonna change lives


I'm gonna be 21 in 3 months and I'm sitting here, just missing the days back in fall 2017 when I just started college qwq I just want it all to come back: Having a job at the mall even though I was pretty horrible at customer service, collecting all the courage I could by talking to the cute boy in my science class, performing and writing spoken word at every chance I got, pushing myself into these uncomfortable situations to gain confidence, all the lovely classmates and professors I befriended. As much as I love life now, those were some prime days that I don't think I'll get again.<br>I know better days are coming, but ugh I'm just so reminiscent.

I'm gonna be 21 in 3 months and I'm sitting here, just missing the days back in fall 2017 when I just started college qwq I just want it all to come back: Having a job at the mall even though I was pretty horrible at customer service, collecting all the courage I could by talking to the cute boy in my science class, performing and writing spoken word at every chance I got, pushing myself into these uncomfortable situations to gain confidence, all the lovely classmates and professors I befriended. As much as I love life now, those were some prime days that I don't think I'll get again.
I know better days are coming, but ugh I'm just so reminiscent.


cannot WAIT for the reboot of this song in march!!!!!!!!!


For some reason this version hits different


my fav part - her voice is so !!!!! there as well

Carly Richley Yesyesyes this song gets me every time! also "memories painted with much brighter ink"

Carly Richley im too busy crying to be dry tbfh


i haven't listened to this song in two and a half years, and damn it brought back a lot of memories. i listened to this song all the time over the summer of 2017. i remember crying myself to sleep so many times to this song. listening to it again reminds me of how much better I am now. yes i still have problems, and they are worse than the ones i had at that time, but the way i handled them back then was so unhealthy. this song is one of the handful that are time capsules for me.


this is an incredibly moving song, every time i hear it i start yearning for things that haven’t yet happened.


I was freshly 17 when the song first came out, now I'm 21 and couldn't relate more to this...


dodie, thank you so much for this song. i know its from ages ago but t really helps e nonetheless. i recently suffered from a relapse after just getting 'better'.
this song helped me express emotios, get back into singing and feel less alone. this song makes me feel heard and is genuiny just pretty! i wish more people could hear it and i wish more could feel how i feel when i hear this song.
i can confidently say, though still suffering from this relapse, im getting better 9just a little every day). thank you, dodie.


Feels like this should be in a theater production. Too good.

I got that vibe. And also a little bit of Once

Umm maybe she should write her own?!?!????!

I totally felt that too! I can't place the sound but I'm kind of getting Waitress or The Last 5 Years or something

it reminds me so much of The Last 5 Years (and another musical I can't put a name to??)  I think it's because of the strings!!


This is my absolute favorite song of yours. Because I can feel every single word in my heart. It puts my feelings to words so perfectly. I’m sure I left a comment a few years ago when I was 15, talking about how I felt, hoping that one day I’ll look back on it and realize how much I’ve changed. But I don’t think I have. I’m never in the moment,  I’m always either looking back at the past or waiting for the future. I was happy once. I’m not happy now. I’m hoping that one day I’ll be happy again. I’m always in my head, reminiscing on happy times or imagining the happy moments I’ll have in the future, but never really trying to be happy right now. I though back then that this was just because of the major thing that happened in my life that killed my happiness, but now that’s it’s been a few years, I think this has become who I am. I’m constantly escaping to the past or the future and never living in the present. I think that if I’m ever going to be happy again, I need to try harder to face reality and live right now, no matter how difficult it is.


I love this so much. You can tell how much emotion dodie put into this. It sounds like something out of my head, like one of the things I write, and I think one of the reasons I love it may because it may be because it matches my style. The instrumentation is also perfect, and so beautiful, and that also matches me perfectly (I play viola). Overall, I have a feeling I will be rewatching this for the next few days. And probably be crying.


i have this lump in my stomach and listening to this makes me cry, which makes it better. thank you for this masterpiece


i didnt know this was an exsisting song till her audio book , which is GREAT btw listened it over 20 times


I remember when I was sat in your bedroom at 1am and we'd drunk too many drinks and you played me this song and it was so beautiful I wanted to cry because of how raw it was. You never fail to make me proud, this was beautiful <3

Maddy Macdonald i don't think that's any of your business actually

+Maddy Macdonald hey, not coming for you or anything, but its not our business, she was a beautiful song and if dodie doesnt want us to know about who is was, it will stay like that.

Bethan, be honest,<br>Is "She" about you?

It really is a beautiful song. Made me feel happy in a way I haven't felt for a long time.


her voice with those strings..... still goosebumps


This song sounds like it should be I a broadway musical!!!😍😍😍😍😍😍


i haven't listened to this song for at least 4 years and just now i randomly came to think of it, and i remember crying to it those 4 years ago, and cried this time as well


"I'll never be 16 again" makes me cry so bad, I'm 14 and I'm honestly terrified of growing up, everybody says that this should be the best time of my life but I don't feel like it and I'm so afraid of wasting my youth.

They tell you this because society is youth obsessed. It’s a lot of older people (older as in any age) looking back at younger years with rose colored glasses.<br>It honest truth the high school years for most aren’t incredible or even amazing they just can leave cozy memories for most. But if you were to actually ask some people if they would go back to their 16 self they wouldn’t.

They tell you this because society is youth obsessed. It’s a lot of older people (older as in any age) looking back at younger years with rose colored glasses.
It honest truth the high school years for most aren’t incredible or even amazing they just can leave cozy memories for most. But if you were to actually ask some people if they would go back to their 16 self they wouldn’t.


FUCK SAKE, EVAN. WE DON'T HAVE <b>TIME</b> FOR PUNS LIKE THAT

FUCK SAKE, EVAN. WE DON'T HAVE *TIME* FOR PUNS LIKE THAT

Evan Edinger THE PUNS THE PUNS THEY'RE KILLING ME ARRGGGHHHHHH 😂😂

Evan Edinger doesn't own puns.

Oh, actually, yes I do!

ha ha (he types sarcastically) but really good pun, <b>when</b> will you do another, that was a bad pun me

ha ha (he types sarcastically) but really good pun, *when* will you do another, that was a bad pun me

evan well done you made my day good pun 👏👏

Evan Edinger I was literally scrolling down to find ur terrible pun 😂

God damnit Evan you get me every time with your bloody puns...

Leave it to Evan to ruin the beautiful and gentle mood of the song with a pun

Evan Edinger DANGIT EVAN BEAT ME TO THE PUN

Goddammit Evan... Why you gotta make me laugh? xD

rory armstrong WHEN will you stop (when is the name of the song mmk)

+Grace Mascarenhas I thought it was intentional haha

Evan Edinger wait I meant indeed how did I mess up that bad

Hey evan i love your channel so much and i hope you have the best day ever and much love from a small youtuber


Superbly written song, both in terms of musical composition, arrangement, and of course lyric content.


when i first heard this song i was in 8th grade and the lyrics flew right over my head. i'm back now as a senior in high school and i still have all the lyrics memorized, i just finally understand them now. i literally can't stop crying :')


“everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they’re thinking of” WOW


i remember watching this at 14 years old and crying because the age 16 scared me shitless.

i'm 18 now. it all went well. just here to tell you that life will get better.

i remember watching this at 14 years old and crying because the age 16 scared me shitless.

i'm 18 now. it all went well. just here to tell you that life *will* get better.


I remembered this and wanted to listen again, so here I am 2021, the night before my 17th bday, under blanket, not knowing where all those emotions are coming from


When I listened to this song for the first time, I was excited about my teenagehood and thought of many adventures and amazing experiences I will have. This year, I'm turning 17. The lyrics resonate with me so much now that I only have a couple of months left as a 16 because I just feel like I wasted so much of my time. I guess I will continue asking when too.


I REALLY LIKE YOU music and you're voice is so beautiful too


Catherine Kulat <br>I agree. What does that have to do with anything?

Catherine Kulat
I agree. What does that have to do with anything?

laurenateliz how I met your mother was a great show


Whenever I hear someone wants to be my age (in this case, I'm 16) I ask myself "what am I doing wrong?" cause I hate adolescense and I wished it would be over. Not because I'm little and I can't do so much stuff I'm not allowed but because I'm dealing with depression and I blame myself for it. It makes me anxious when people tell me I'm wasting wonderful years doing nothing for myself and withdrawing from my friends (that I think aren't real friends), and I really hope I don't think like that when I'm older. I just wished I grew up thinking "I'm happy where I am now and it's thanks to the things that I learned in the hard times".
But there's something that gives me hope (and if you feel like I do, you should watch it). It's a video called "The importance of an unhappy adolescense" by the school of life.
But sometimes not even that beautiful video eases my mind.
I hope you have a great life💞

Whenever I hear someone wants to be my age (in this case, I'm 16) I ask myself "what am I doing wrong?" cause I hate adolescense and I wished it would be over. Not because I'm little and I can't do so much stuff -I'm not allowed- but because I'm dealing with depression and I blame myself for it. It makes me anxious when people tell me I'm wasting wonderful years doing nothing for myself and withdrawing from my friends (that I think aren't real friends), and I really hope I don't think like that when I'm older. I just wished I grew up thinking "I'm happy where I am now and it's thanks to the things that I learned in the hard times".
But there's something that gives me hope (and if you feel like I do, you should watch it). It's a video called "The importance of an unhappy adolescense" by the school of life.
But sometimes not even that beautiful video eases my mind.
I hope you have a great life💞

If you need to talk, you can talk to me!


I literally shared the whole score on a comment? It’s on MuseScore for free!

@pikasfed oh wow! Sheet music would be great

I have transcribed it (full arrangement)<br>what do you prefer, sheet music, video with a piano roll?

I have transcribed it (full arrangement)
what do you prefer, sheet music, video with a piano roll?

@Rebecca Ogden It really is a beautiful arrangement. I'll give it a shot transcribing it (both violin and cello) when I'm free (probably some time this weekend I hope)

@Rebecca Ogden You don't need perfect pitch, you could just listen try one note if it doesn't work try another until it sounds right. A lot of people without perfect pitch learn music like that and it develops their ears.

Try picking them up by ear, that could also improve your ears

@Rebecca Ogden wow... your still here.. you arent dead!

Saloma B I never did, it’s been two years and I swear to god I’ll wait for two more years

@Rebecca Ogden did you ever get your notes? we need to know.

Tom and Jerry do you think I’d die without these frickin violin notes my guy?

Nonthawat Suklerd Please,,,, it’s been so long. I just want to play the lovely song

Please, help this poor guy. He's still searching for notes!

It's funny how nobody who replied to this helped this poor person just trying to learn some violin

Ethan Burns violent is like harsh actions. Someone can be violent.

So? Have you ever TRIED DIFFERENT THINGS


The interaction between the vocal lines and the strings in this song is absolutely beautiful and completely genius, the composition of those two lines working and complimenting each other is nothing short of perfect


I love waking up, grabbing coffee, and listening to this wonderful girl's music<33


excuse my language - but holy absolute fuck this is so captivating. literally in awe.


This song really encompasses what  derealisation and depersonalization does to my anxiety


Esta canción dice todo lo que no soy capaz de decir sin llorar 🙃


Thank you, Dodie, for your music that is just so REAL. Thank you for sharing your heart, happiness, and heartaches with us and for helping us find something special to relate to. You're making a difference in many lives. <3


U played this to me and melanie nearly exactly a year ago today (4 more days lol) and I had a very quiet subtle cry and here I am STILL sheddin a tear over this song


Tomorrow’s my 17th birthday so I shall commemorate my last day as a 16 y/o by listening to this song for the emotional angst woop woop

This hits especially different with the ongoing pandemic too :T


Why do you have to make such relatable songs dodie!?! now I'm crying, I love you 😘


I'm thinking of doing a dance to this? I'm not sure if I'm aloud to use the music but I'm gonna make it about a robot girl who wants to love but also has depression and hatred for herself that becomes over bearing but then she sees love can be anything just through her eyes x


This is my favorite song you've ever written/performed. You're phenomenal, I relate to this song so much, thank you for writing your truth and sharing it with the world. Your music has been my savior for these past few weeks, especially. I haven't been doing so well... listening to your music makes me feel not alone and I love you for that. You're amazing, thank you for everything you do.


I liked the bit where dodie sang and played the piano

Samantha Mcdonald Huh. I find great enjoyment from the part with the music

if you look closely you will see dodie is both playing the piano and singing

quite amazing really

best bit in my opinion

JanskuBansku Owusu sarcasm in the way that you are talking about the entire song, so the word bit would be sarcasm. I don't know if sarcasm is the word for it 🙃


Everything about this song is beautiful, Dodies voice, the meaning of the song, the emotion, everything;) makes me cry every time, thank you Dodie :)


i always come back to this. life really sucks right now i just need a good cry to my  favorite song


this released when i was 14 & i understood to an extent, but now that i’m nearly 20? this song hits different. now excuse me while i sweat through my eyes some more.


Revisting this after the release of the new studio version ❤


"Never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay" I'm shattering.


Wow Dodie <3 Your so incredible!  This is my favourite song of yours, your so incredible and beautiful and talented, i really hope i can meet you one day! Your pretty much the perfect image of who i want to be when i'm older :)  keep on inspiring everyone and  being you! xoxo


We all want to grow up until we do.

Edit: 3 years later and it was just my 17th birthday, lmao I'll never be 16 again

freaky* <del>btw here after build a problem to listen to the original version</del>

freaky* -btw here after build a problem to listen to the original version-

lmao I'm 17 in 2 days and it's freaks that I'm closer to 20 than 14

@Raidyn Morian I feel that, I’m just ready to have some freedom and make nice memories

Naw. I've never regretted it for a second. When all the memories you have are bad, the past isn't the place you want to live.


quarantine started when i was 16, and I'm now 17. this is my new cry song

omg i turned 16 a week or two into quarantine and i feel like i’ve wasted one of the last years of my childhood:/


This songs just taken a new meaning for me. Ive just turned 16 a week ago and I've found out I might never be going back to school because the schools are closing this Friday and no gcses. The sad thing about it is I don't be able to say goodbye to my friends because I'm off on self isolation, I was sat crying for a good 4 hours yesterday at the thought of not going back. Me and my friends "will never be 16 again" we might not see eachother again, the finality and erasable reality is really scary, we cant go back. I know it's a small issue and nothing to cry over compared to the issues in the world right now but I can't help but feel upset at how this school year has possibly ended. If anybody reads this I hope that you are safe and well and that this little rant hasn't brought your mood down. Everything will probably work out eventually, it's just getting thought that's the difficult part. Stay safe, love you ♡♡


"I'm waiting to live; still waiting to love" that line broke me. I have all of these fantasies and dreams and things i want to happen, but I always think that it'll happen "eventually", rather than trying to live in the now.

This is exactly it! The problem is recognizing this issue and then never doing anything about it, I'm still doing the same thing I did when I was 14.

This song prompted me to stop waiting for life to happen and make things happen for me. I believe in fate but at some point, you have to go out and find fate ❤ all my best wishes


Came to listen to this again after the livestream 💛


When anyone asks me, "what song best describes you?" this is the song I always give. From the moment I first heard this song up to now, no other song got me like this. Thank you, Dodie.


I listened to this song first when I was 14. I was sickly afraid of growing up. I didn't want to waste away the beautiful years of my youth. I'm now 18. I'm going to college in a few months and I had a similar crisis to my 14 year old self. Afraid of the unknown, afraid of growing older. Listening to this song reminds me I'm not the only one growing up, I'm not the only one having to live my life. And I can tell my 14 year old self that it's okay; you didn't waste away your youth. It was crazy and wonderful and awful all at the same time and I don't regret a thing. I hope my 23 year old self can say the same thing to me now.


thank you, this is helped me to see although it's not exactly like my life that there are people going through something similar. My childhood has just never seemed exist and my happiness has just disappeared, my life has never seemed to have happy smiles in it. Your songs are all I think about now and they have brought light to the dark dark world I seem to be stuck in. So thank you, as I probably wouldn't be here without you. Never give up <3<3<3


PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS WITH HEADPHONES ON YOU CAN THANK ME LATER


I was not quite 16 when this song came out, and I am now 17 and I feel sometimes like I didn't do anything while I was 16. I know eventually something big and exciting will happen but it seems like I'm just kind of existing and waiting for a big "there it is" moment, yk? and I feel like this song captures that feeling perfectly


i keep coming back to this. when i was seventeen, the first time i heard this, missing my childhood. when i was eighteen, wondering if i should regress as much as i did, isn't it unhealthy? and now, nineteen, unable to adapt to all these new responsibilities -- of course i take care of my duties -- but nothing looks as good as it did through my five year old eyes. nothing looks beautiful. the novelty of this world is gone. and i'm wondering, <b>when</b> is real life beginning? the one people say is exciting, full of love, full of adventures?

i keep coming back to this. when i was seventeen, the first time i heard this, missing my childhood. when i was eighteen, wondering if i should regress as much as i did, isn't it unhealthy? and now, nineteen, unable to adapt to all these new responsibilities -- of course i take care of my duties -- but nothing looks as good as it did through my five year old eyes. nothing looks beautiful. the novelty of this world is gone. and i'm wondering, *when* is real life beginning? the one people say is exciting, full of love, full of adventures?


I remember watching this when I was 14 I loved this song but I never quite related to the song so much until now. I feel like we have this idea planted into our head that when you are 16 that’s the best time of your life. That by then you should be falling in love and enjoying every minute of it when in reality sometimes that’s just not the case.


i remember listening to this right before i turned 17 and now i’m about to turn 20 and it still hits just as hard


This song is so beautifully haunting I love it.


I feel like this could be in a Disney movie


"I'll never be sixteen again" is one of my favorite lines, but it gives me chills to think about it in context with this song and Dodie's depersonalization, since she's said that she started feeling like she was in a dream around 17. Such a raw, emotional song - I listen to this and just cry. Dodie, this song is to me what "Novels" is to you. Thank you for this.


I struggle with dp/dr and dissociation and this helps me so much. Thanks dodie!


"am i the only one wishing life away"
dodie hits me every time i return
thank you


Listened to this when I was 16 coming to terms with my sexuality and realizing I was wasting my time pretending to be in love. I’m 18 now and alone but happier with myself.


i relate to this because i’m constantly wishing for the feeling i had during my childhood and since my memory is so bad it feels like an old and dear friend is dying and i can’t handle it bc my present is so much more desolate than my past. depression sucks ass


i can see Dodie as a disney princess who doesn't have a love interest but she has a little animal companion and writes songs on her spare time


this song always brings me chills. it’s so amaZING!!


I was 16 when this came out. I'm now nearly 21. Strange, time actually exists lol


Dodie, you saved my life. This song just changed me. Please continue writing songs. You uploading makes my mental health improve. Thank you for saving me <3


"I'll never be sixteen again." Such a beautiful piece, Doddie. T_T <3


Re-watching multiple times: so beautiful song; I love it so much!!! xx


coming back to this as an 18 year old after having listened to it religiously being 15 hits different


It's been a while since I've listened to this song. Meant a lot to me in high school. I felt like a background character in my own life, for multiple reasons. And I didn't see a way to live beyond that, even with the love of my partner/datemate/whatever gender-neutral word you want to use.

And then college started. I had the space to be a full person for once, and lots of people around me liked that full person, and they wanted that full person to be around them.

Then my mom died and I pulled myself back into a shell, and when I tried to be a full person again, COVID happened and we had to start social distancing. Haven't physically been around my friends or partner in months.

Discord servers and Zoom calls are okay, but it's so hard to not truly be present with anybody after finding out how good it feels. It's even harder not knowing when I'm going be able to be with the people I love again without hurting them in the process.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I'm just a random 20-year-old, listening to a song that made her cry when she was 16. Had a chance to live and love and now I'm asking when I'll have another chance. Funny how that works.


Oh my gosh! I love this. You are so precious, Dodie.


it’s currently 2019 and no other song could compete with the utter art that is this song PERIODT


THIS SONG MAKES ME CRY!<br>I can relate so much! Its crazyyyy!

THIS SONG MAKES ME CRY!
I can relate so much! Its crazyyyy!


one of my new favorite dodie songs :) can't believe I haven't heard it before!


MY EP COMES OUT TODAYYYY ALL AROUND THE WORLD

MY EP COMES OUT TODAYYYY ALL AROUND THE WORLD

And now think about it... in your first video "rain" did you ever think that you would get this far? ❤

doddleoddle this was a year ago ??? holy crap y'all

doddleoddle this was a year ago ??? holy crap y'all

Winter Smith I actually don't know. I think it's like an album or something..-.

Please come to Brazil, São Paulo! I would love to see your show!

doddleodddle your book is also out today ;)

doddleodddle your book is also out today ;)

thank u! but, even if i weren't a nice person, there is literally no way u could hate dodie. i mean, come on. yes, she is super pretty, but it was never about her looks. for me, its always about the message and the kind of person she is. thats y she deserves everything good.

Julia Minna. You're such a nice person :) and you're right, dodie deserves every good thing coming her way!!!

If someone deserves to be praised, they shall be praised. dodie deserves every good thing coming her way 100% she's talented, she beautiful (inside and out) she's outgoing, and just all around awesome. she shares who she is openly with thousands of people and i think thats super brave. she has done so much to help me in the few months I've been watching her. i appreciate everything she is and does because it makes her unique and thats the best thing anyone could hope for. imagine a whole world full of the same person. its boring isn't it? i mean it 100% when i say thank u to dodie.

Julia Minna. I'm passionate about music too and this is one of my favourite songs from Dodie. I think its great that you show how much you appreciate dodie as well :)

Music is my life. if it was something to joke about, id be a comedian but i am not. i spoke from the heart. i wanted to let dodie know that what she does helps a lot of people and i am one of them. i deeply appreciate the effort she puts in to keep us all entertained or to help us with something. if its something i can say without hurting anyone, I'm going to say it.

I may be very late, but that doesn't change the fact that all of your songs r AMAZING and i relate so much to this one. it made me cry. it touched my heart. its as if u took the words from my head and how i was feeling and put them into the most beautiful song I've ever heard. there is no other way i can explain how this song makes me feel but it makes the world feel real. as if everything makes sense and I'm not as alone as i think i am. if u ever see this comment, weather its in a day, a month, a year, 2 years, i just want u to know that every time this song comes on my playlist i will cry. i will think. i will cry some more. i will smile. ill look around. ill close my eyes. ill cry even more and then i will open my eyes and see the world in whole different light. if there where more people in the world like u it would be amazing. but, there is only one of u. one true dodie. she is the person i relate to and look up to and I'm glad she is because i was in a horrible place before i started listening to your music and watching your videos. this has become way longer than i wanted it to be. one more thing, thank u. thank u so much. i mean this. i have never meant something as much as i mean this. thank u so much. u have impacted my life in such a big way and i support u 100% thank u.

DODIE I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOU CAME OUT WITH TWO EPS WE'RE ALL SO PROUD OF YOU!! KEEP ON DOING THE BEST YOU CAN!! <3 <3

doddleoddle the other one came out yesterday :')

doddleoddle the other one came out yesterday :')

everyone should make a second account to like again

everyone should make a second account to like again

AND YOUR NEW EP COMES OUT IN 4 WEEKS AVAILABLE IN VINYL AND CD

This song almost made me cry What are you doing to me Dodie

doddleoddle I love you Dodie! Your music gives me hope and fills my soul with joy even with all of the crazy things happening because middle school is madness. 💛

doddleoddle this is a beautiful song, keep up the phenomenal work😊!

doddleoddle thanks so much , you inspired me to make my own music , I love every piece you made , there's been tears and smiles , thanks so much

@Tardis! At The Disco It is called Intertwined.I am sure you can find links in the description of her more recent videos

doddleoddle sorry I'm quite new, what's your EP?

doddleoddle sorry I'm quite new, what's your EP?

doddleoddle WE ARE ALL SO FREAKING PROUD OF YOU YEEEESSSSSSS 😙

doddleoddle
Can I please have the instrumentals for this song?
I want to do a cover but I don't play those instruments. I want to do a cover before I am 17. PLEASE!😁

They are so catchy, I'm hearing Sick of Losing Soulmates in a loop :)

How did you choose which songs to record for the EP??? Your have so many great works!!!! Plus when is amazing! Keep going Dodie

doddleoddle Omg I love the Ep so much, you need to release more soon

doddleoddle
Could you give us the instrumentals for this?
I want to do a cover but I don't play those instruments.
PLEASE!!!! I want to do a cover before I turn 17!

doddleoddle staying up until midnight for this YAY DODIE

The Kate Goes Meow so in theory it should be available in 15 mins. Today has been the longest day with all this waiting!

alliswallis the release date it technically the 18th so it should bece available as soon as that is the date in your time zone, at least I think that's how this works. And don't worry, the EP is worth the wait 😊

Oh okay I just thought because Im in England, the same country, it would be available. Well I can sing my heart out tomorrow then, hahah@The Kate Goes Meow

alliswallis it might not be available in your country yet, I'm in Australia so we're a day ahead 😊

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO THE EP ON SPOTIFY OMG I LOVE IT 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

When are you gonna make a Vinyl? that would be amazing!

We're on our way!!!! Too excited for words!!

We're on our way!!!! Too excited for words!!

doddleoddle - is it available for Google play or just iTunes?

doddleoddle i'm so excitedddd. can't wait!! 😊

doddleoddle i'm so excitedddd. can't wait!! 😊

IM SO PROUD OF YOU AHHHH I WATCHED YOU GROW FROM A TINY LIL BEANSPROUT TO A SUCCESSFUL MUSICIAN I AM SO PROUD RN I LOVE YOU

IM SO PROUD IM ACTUALLY CRYING TEARS IM SO PROUD OF U

doddleoddle AAAAHHH IM SO PROUD OF YOU ❤❤❤

doddleoddle AAAAHHH IM SO PROUD OF YOU ❤❤❤


this song hits different after you come out as a lesbian after having exclusively male relationships and constantly being confused about your identity


A superb piece of art! Soulful and smart.


Her voice is honestly both amazing and soothing


2:11 this part is not from this world😍😍
Even Steven Wilson couldn't do this better.


i'm turning 16 in just under 10 minutes, it felt fitting to go back to this. i've seen this song live twice, and no matter how many times i listen to it i always break down at 'gotta get it in my head, i'll never be sixteen again'. growing up is so scary? i'm goingt to be closer to 20 than 10, which i hate. i feel like i'm wasting my teens, and i'm not getting the whole exciting coming of age story that everyone seems to expect. idk i just feel weird and apprehensive about what's going to come next. sorry for ranting i just needed to get this out <3


I’m going to make my sister listen to this the night before her 17th birthday


the album version just doesn't measure up to this one. maybe it's the fact that i had nearly half a decade to cry to this version on loop


it's been 4 years, and I've come full circle to feel like this again


...What is this.. this <b>water</b> coming out of my eye sockets?!??! DODIE THIS IS INCREDIBLE

...What is this.. this *water* coming out of my eye sockets?!??! DODIE THIS IS INCREDIBLE


i remember listening to this when it came out. I was 14 & never thought I’d relate to “gotta get it in my head, I’ll never be sixteen again” as much as I do know, 4 years later. I’m in tears.


Beautiful string arrangement and performance! Love it!


I was about 16 when I went to a youth theatre adaption of "Peter Pan" with my mum. It was not really about the creepy boy who invites children to his island where they take parts in questionably honorous fights, but more about growing up. More or less the play talked about the same thing as this song, living in future and past, fear of what will come, not wanting to let childhood go. I felt very understood, but when we left my mum was shocked. Especially when I confirmed having similar thoughts about growing up.

"But why?", she asked. "Growing up is so much fun! It's an adventure! You gather more and more freedom, you can decide your own life, be independent. I love being an adult."
Now my mum's adulthood has probably been a very happy one, she got to study, found a husband, spend at least half the time in a secure job and got three children. But she also struggled, was unemployed for quite some time, had to fight for her father to support her, studied one of the most exhausting subjects there are, and when she tells me about her studies, it is clear that she had much fun, but not really money to spend. There was already climate change, the cold war, high unemployment; loads of reasons to be worried. But still she tells it like it was an adventure and she is continuing to do so. Life is fun, life is there to be lived.

I find that admirable and I don't know why I struggle to see life the same way my mum does. Why I feel this song so deeply and constantly worry about the future or wish for the past to return. I wish I was more like her, I believe she has found the meaning of life.


it's 2018 and I'm still in absolute tears over this. I know that this isn't what the song is necessarily about but I can't help but listen to this song and think that this is me waking up everyday feeling the same doing the same routine with a face painted on to get through the day only to end up back in my bed wondering when I'll be able to feel alive again. Some days feels so robotic and I'm always wishing for the day I'll somehow wake up and be able to tell the people I've owed explanations to for the longest time of why I seem like today is never enough, and the idea of tomorrow being different seems like something I can no longer have.


I can never get to the end of this song without having to stop it and sob my eyes out cos the lyrics explain how I've been feeling for the past few years and knowing that I'm not the only one who's ever felt this way, is weird and sorta comforting in a way but it also brings a lot of emotions to the surface and idk if that's good or bad.

doddleoddle  your music helps me through a lot 💕 thank you

<3333 I think it's good! p r o c c e s s s s s s s


Did u just open my brain and sing it to me? Yes you did.


I almost forgot i had this song in my Phone. I'm relistening to it again ❤


This has quite honestly turned into one of my favorite songs of all time. Every time I come back to this song, I just collapse into tears. The honesty and the rawness is all wrapped up together into one song; it’s truly a moment that brings out all these emotions within me. It’s just so haunting and evocative, but it’s also so calming and soothing.
This song has even inspired me to start writing again and I’m grateful for that little spark of motivation.
Thank you for all you do, Dodie. I appreciate you so much.


im turning 16 in a month...im glad i heard this so i cherish what i have till its gone


i want dodie to be the voice of the next disney princess!


2:17 never fails to give me chills. I remember I first heard this song live and it was just the piano and I was, for lack of a better word, shooketh


I accidentally clicked this and it came on while I was on the verge of tears looking at myself in the mirror as I washed my hands, and it was such an important moment, fuck, this song is amazing


es la canción más hermosa que he oído :,)  <3


I’ve come back here a few days before my 18th birthday lying on the floor at 3am in a state of shock that my childhood passed me by like this. I enjoyed it and didn’t take it for granted but I spent so much of it depressed and suicidal - and while that wasn’t my fault, I’m angry all the same. Existence is fleeting, and I am existential now I’ve been confronted by my own mortality.


im younger than 16 why do i cry at 'i'll never be sixteen again' gO D

well I'm 19 and I've been crying at that for 3 years

@ava.a nice username<br>nOw GivE iT bAcK

It's not about being 16 specifically it's about being younger and happier.

i didn't even think of that and now im older than 16 -- this is my first time hearing this song and i wish i heard it before i was 16

laura sinclair fuck i'm seventeen. This litterally scares me.

Probably because it reminds you that life goes forward and you can't reverse it.

Olivia Militello Did you feel well at thirteen or are you just 14 now? XX

I know what you mean. Maybe it’s because we feel like we’ve grown up too fast already and we’ll never be able to “feel 16” because there’s something about us that just feels like it’s too late. I don’t know. I just feel like even though I’m “young” I don’t feel young and I just always have this feeling that it’s too late... idk maybe that’s just me.

laura sinclair it’s a week till i’m 16 and it scares me that i should appreciate these years as much as i can but all i want is to be older and more independent and out of school but everyone tells me i should want to stay young

I'm 16 rn so it's especially confusing for me

I'm 25 and I still cry about it even tho my life now is SO MUCH BETTER and I got everything I wanted at 16

laura sinclair your profile pic!!!
Preach queen
Sasha velour 👑

Same but I feel like the reason I feel so much older than I am is because I'm going through some stuff at home that's been pretty difficult to deal with and I feel like I've lived life already and that nothing else could happen.

i’m actually sixteen, so for me it is showing that i’ll never be sixteen again after this so i should take advantage of it instead of wallowing in my sorrows

RIGHT?!?!?! IM LITERALLY BAWLING MY EYES OUT XD

Laura Sinclair Me too maybe were just scared to mess everything up when we are 16 or it reminds us that were never any age again.


Kate Bush wrote the song “The man with the child in his eyes” at the age of 15, there’s something similar going on here.


this song used to make me cry, now it shows me how much I’ve grown.


I remember listening to this song when i was 16, when i was in love, grateful for life and looking forward to the future, wondering if my happiness would last by the time i turned 20<br>Now i'm almost 20 seeing everyone around me so put together and organized, in loving and healthy relationships, and i'm the only one who keeps looking back, living in past happiness and asking when

I remember listening to this song when i was 16, when i was in love, grateful for life and looking forward to the future, wondering if my happiness would last by the time i turned 20
Now i'm almost 20 seeing everyone around me so put together and organized, in loving and healthy relationships, and i'm the only one who keeps looking back, living in past happiness and asking when


This is so amazing I came by it on Spotify and can't stop listening to it <3 <3 <3

How the violinist looks at her in the end has me in tears sorry


trin xox ikr my 2 fave channels just interacted


Used to listen to this on repeat, thought i could relate but now it’s really catching up to me. The most impossible version of yourself to reach is what you imagined yourself to grow up to be. 4 years, jesus.


i listened to this as the clock ticked over to my sixteenth birthday... beautiful


This song touches my heart and describes perfectly something I've never been able to explain. Thank you for this❤


I had just turned seventeen when this video came out. Now I’m 21 years old and this hits even harder than it did then.


Dodie, you're the only person in this whole YouTube scene who'd I'd identify as a musician before a YouTuber. I know that other YouTubers try their hand at songwriting and performing, but you deliver so much more, because not only have you got your lyrics down to a tee, but you've also mastered the musical arrangement. I mean, that instrumental bridge from 2:11-2:51 sounds more like a film score than anything. It's sorta like a dark twist in an otherwise sweet song, which reflects the lyrics perfectly. The whole thing is absolutely flawless, and it shows how much you care about giving your lyrics the musical accompaniment they deserve. Bravo.

P.S. This is the first time I've commented on a video in like 2 years lol

lol she didnt do the string arrangement (but yes her songwriting is so amazing and i just love her lyrics so much afhdjjd)


i showed this song to my class for a project when i was a freshmen and i remember telling them that we so often wish for the past to stay. a few years later, i listened to this a few hours before my 17th birthday. the “i will never be 16 again” part brought me to tears bc i’ve always been one “begging for the past to stay.” T__T welp now i’m going to be 18 in a few months /:


This song is so beautifully simple and scarily accurate <3 thank you for making music, it helps me so much in expressing myself and honestly writing music


The line ‘I’ll never be 16 again’ gave me so many emotions


Oh man. I barely cry at anything even when I most feel like it. Even when I feel super emotional I don't cry easily but this one song was an exception. Just a lil tear was managed and I'm so proud. I love dodie's music but this is the first it made me shed a tear. :')


how does she not have 3 million subscribers, honestly?

x XCookies4EverX x pewdiepie is a bit overrated as a YouTuber, but he is a good person, I'd recommend some of the videos he does with Marzia, he is a genuinely nice person

Lowkey Lida No, but, there's this really selfish part of my brain that wants her to not be mainstream and get big. Like her songs are a world entered by a chosen few. Their beauty viewed by the fleeting apparitions that we all are.

traveller well okay this is my opinion obvi, but dodie works so hard on her content (pewdiepie does too) but she as such a great personality, she has been through so much, she is still going through so much,  but either way, she comes to youtube with a smile just to make us, her viewers happy. I personally don't think pewdiepie pie is that good of person but again, my opinion, either way, dodie deserves so much more than what she has.

she <b>should</b> have more than pewdiepie

Hazel Chief-rabbit She's got a million!!! ❤

She's nearly there now, just a few thousand short of a million :)

Everyone has to start somewhere. Less than a year ago she had like 300,000 so I'd say she's well on her way.

Um, you mean atleast 100 million. Pewdiepie gotta got to get on her level

Little Writter how does she not have like, 10 million?


This is my most played song on Spotify for 2017. Totally deserves it.


you didnt see me coming<br>WE'RE ALL CRYING IT'S TOO BEAUTIFUL

you didnt see me coming
WE'RE ALL CRYING IT'S TOO BEAUTIFUL


I was 20 when I first heard this song, and it broke my heart so entirely because I was so sure I had lost something or that I would never be young "enough" again, and growing up was fucking terrifying and lonely and I wasn't ready, and like Dodie I experience different types of dissociation that I didn't understand at the time. But it's been 3 years, and I'm starting to get there, back from 16, so much has changed and it's been hard and scary and I feel so much less trapped than I have felt in my whole life. You guys have so much time. You haven't wasted anything, you were where you had to be, and you have time


this song feels like winter to me and i'm in love with it and all the different feelings it brings


My god...
Found this in my playlist today. I still love it so much I could explode! <3
I hope Dodie never stops making music. It's such a food for the soul.


my friends and i performed this for our music assessment, and it went amazingly! thank you, dodie, for such an amazing piece of music ^^


always will and forever be my favorite song. for how many times i've heard it, tears always come falling down.

thank you, Dodie

always will and forever be my favorite song. for how many times i've heard it, tears always come falling down.

*thank you, Dodie*


It's midnight right now which means it's my birthday which means I'm officially 17. I have to admit I had a big cry when you said "I'll never be 16 again."

Every other age is as great or greater :)


Shit, this is the story of my life. Wonderfully arranged! Haunting vocals. 😍


I am in love with all your music Dodie. I'm bingeing on it this week for your concert. Much love, friend


This music gives me the chills. Great lyrics Dodie. I love you


One of the most relatable songs I've ever heard. Dodie has a way of reaching into your soul and vocalizing everything you feel through music.


Dodie, you probably won't read this. When I was listening to the ep yesterday, I realized something. As of the moment I right this, I am seventeen, even though I have only been seventeen for about 5 minutes now. And I'm realizing that all of my happiest memories are in the past. My choir trip, jam sessions, jazz camp, getting my uke, getting accepted to university with my friends, planning a future in another city with a few of my closest friends. I'm realizing that that excitement will never happen again. I think this song hit hard. I am waiting for so many things while still trying to go back to my few happy moments. This song means a lot to me, because I want to stop faking diary entries and stop waiting to live. Thank you for this song, because it's how I was living. I'll never be sixteen again but as of now I am seventeen and i will try to start to live. Even when I'm depersonalized and gone from the world, I will try to remember that I am alive and even thought my happiest memories were last year, even if I don't fall in love or live an amazing adventure, that I will have good moments. And even though his song fills me with melancholy and worry, I want to thank you for it. Thank you, Dodie. (im still in disbelief that the ep came out the day before my birthday)

Katie Challacombe It's amazing how Dodies songs can hit so many people in so many different ways she is such a talented song writer and should be more well known

i'm totally gonna cry, Dodie's songs make me so emotional and your comment is touching too ahhh.<br>be happy, beautiful person. bet you're the best seventeen out there! xx

i'm totally gonna cry, Dodie's songs make me so emotional and your comment is touching too ahhh.
be happy, beautiful person. bet you're the best seventeen out there! xx


"I'm too damp for a spark" is such an underrated lyric ❤


I come back to this every now and then, I just love the song so much.


i don't think i've ever related to the lyrics of a song so much. just cried for an hour


This sounds like something from a musical


I'm completely in love with this song in particular! I keep listening to the rest of your EP over and over as well. You're so talented and so lovely! I can't wait for all of your future albums!


OH MY GOD YOUR VOICE IS SO DAMN BEAUTIFUL IT MAKES ME CRY ON THE INSIDE! YOU ARE GREAT KEEP GOING


This actually the most underrated song EVER ❤This means so much to me


Thank you Dodie, for making me realize something with this. I can't explain how much this opened my eyes on my feelings. Thank you.


I liked it before the music even started playing💕


Out of all of the amazing and creative and touching songs she has ever written... this song always makes me cry the most and it’s honestly in my opinion her best song


This song speaks to my soul. GOOSEBUMPS. The strings and your voice is GOLD <3


"I think I've been telling lies
Cause I've never been in love.
Everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they're thinking of."

me, who called myself bisexual for about three years in hopes that maybe one day I would fall in love and is now coming out as aro/ace: 👁👄👁


I always seem to find myself coming back to this song every few months. It's so sad how hard I can relate to this


This song is so beautiful!😍 I love it and the lyrics are amazing...


Every time I hear this I think: "Wow, two of my favorite things, Dodie and Cello"!


I obviously love all the beauty and sadness of this song but I can never unhear "busy begging the past to stay" as "busy begging the pasta 'stay!'"


Just hearing the opening for this song makes me want to cry it's SO GOOOD AHHH


"Sure I'll live in the moment, but I'm never happy here"

"Never caught up in the moment"

"Im waiting to live, been waiting to love"

"It'll be over and I'll still be asking *when*"

As a person who knows what chronic DRDP feels like, the level of relation is uncanny.


this sounds like it could be on the frozen soundtrack! 😊 i love you so much dodie 💛 xxxx


This is so wonderful! One of my absolutely favourites, dodie. You are amazing! And one of my role models <3


i've been listening to this song since it has came out; it was the first song i listened to on my 16th birthday. dodie has been a consistent part of my life for over five years; her music, even when i was too young to understand a lot of it, has gotten me through some extremely tough times - and she honestly saved my life, because her music made me feel like i was heard. but at age 16, this song has become my favorite again. i have always found comfort in the fact that 'well, at least i'm not sixteen. i still have time,' and this song really helps grasp my fear of growing older. i feel like i've wasted so much time, but hearing someone who is twenty, also feel like this, i'm sure that i'm not alone. thank you, dodie.


I'm not sure how I missed this when it first came out.  Thank you spotify.

such a heart wrenching theme.


wow. i was 15 when i first heard this song. i am now 19 and still love it - although it has very different feelings behind it now


By far my all time favourite Dodie song <3


This is such a vast step up in production. I said it before but holy hell, this EP is gonna be huge.


I love this song ❤ I can relate to all of your songs!!! ❤❤❤


oh my goodness dodies voice with those awesome string I’m my heart is POUNDING


this song breaks my heart every time. its so amazingly beautiful but also so painfully close to home


this song killed me physically and emotionally thank you and goodbye


I'm just imagining Hazel walking in on the mini string quartet happening in the living room and just going "sigh, alright..."

Madeleine Rose heh, i know, hence the "mini" ;) the comment was sort of a refrence to Hazel's last tipsy talk with dodie where she called it that :P


If you're 16 and listening to this please enjoy it. You might feel like shit, but you don't know how much you'll miss it. Or maybe I'm just romantizing it.


one day before my 17th i was crying a lot listening to this<br>why am i not living my best life?

one day before my 17th i was crying a lot listening to this
why am i not living my best life?


How have I only heard this now? ?I've just bawled my eyes out! This got me good in the heart ! 😢😢


SARO i watch your vids! keep up the great work!


Every dodie song is a spiritual experience. Wow.


this was My song when i was 16, and now I'm almost 20 and i hate how much i still relate to it


I think this is my favourite song of yours AND I LOVE ALL YOUR SONGS


This song is so beautiful and underrated. When has the most amazing, relatable and true lyrics everyone feels. "Wishing life away, never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay." <br>I feel like this all the time, and I'm sure we all wish our lives away, especially when we're young, and don't realise what we have until it's gone. Musically, this song is also genius. I think Dodie composed the parts for violin and cello as well. It's sad and nostalgic and soft. It's raw. My favourite part is the bit where the key changes and it goes all dark and strange and you get goosebumps even if you've heard it loads of times. Honestly, this song is a masterpiece, and will always remain a favourite of mine.❤

This song is so beautiful and underrated. When has the most amazing, relatable and true lyrics everyone feels. "Wishing life away, never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay."
I feel like this all the time, and I'm sure we all wish our lives away, especially when we're young, and don't realise what we have until it's gone. Musically, this song is also genius. I think Dodie composed the parts for violin and cello as well. It's sad and nostalgic and soft. It's raw. My favourite part is the bit where the key changes and it goes all dark and strange and you get goosebumps even if you've heard it loads of times. Honestly, this song is a masterpiece, and will always remain a favourite of mine.❤


I'm not even sixteen yet but I relate to the song. Yeah I'm like 2 years old I haven't lived life blah blah but I still get nostalgic. To times when I was actually happy

@Mad Bell woah, i love you youre amazing.

Just because you aren't 16 doesn't mean you can't relate. You are allowed to relate and have feelings as a kid or teenager. Often times adults say "This is nothing, there is much worse in the world" and while this may be true, when we have no life experience, this is the worst thing that's happened to us. This is the end of our world and one day when we're 20 somethings we will say "there is much worse" and mean it. But relate. Cry and breathe and laugh and live while you can and do things for the first time. As for the reason you may relate, I hope your worries and pain ease soon. Goodnight friends.


This song, along with Party Tattoos, helped me realise how to stop wishing to be beautiful and talented. All your songs have taught me self love and I know this is cheesy but I need to say thanks because from the place that you brought me up from, my life could have been in danger. Thanks to you, I love myself. You saved me. 💖


This is so GOOD!! I love Dodie so fricking much

(Also this song really fits Lance Mclain :3)


This still remains as my favorite song you have ever written.


this song still makes me so emotional but not in the way it used to. I'm only just 16 now, and while things aren't perfect I'm a lot happier than I was when I first heard this song. to anyone who is crying to this song because they're afraid, i promise you it does get better. you still have so much time, you haven't peaked and there is SO much you're going to get to do. hang in there <3


why do i relate to this song so !!! much !!! like im just waiting for things to happen but it's like i need to make them happen bc no one's gonna do it for me ugh

Don't worry, stranger. You're not the only one waiting for undefined stuff to happen


This is honestly the one Dodie song I can relate to the most, you are a beautiful soul girly💕💫


I've played this song so many times, I love it so much


Just hearing this for the first time....I'm blown away how beautiful and haunting this is! Chills


I miss 2014. Sure, it doesn't seem that long ago, but so much has changed. Back then, I was so much happier and less worried. My parents didn't argue, or at least not enough for me to notice. My studies never stressed me out and I actually enjoyed school. Even my friendships were at its strongest, and conversations weren't hard to make. Piano still felt like a passion, not something I was forced to do. Oh, the things I would to go back. Sorry for a bit of a ramble. Long story short, I relate to this song so much.Thank you, Dodie.

Lol I'm in the exact same situation. I don't even know when I started being dysfunctional but now I'm unable to do anything.

Omg I can relate even though I found out my Nan had cancer she was still here I remember saying aged 8 to my mum this was the best year of my life and then next year everything went wrong and my happiness left me

This might be a little or a lot late but I know how u feel I play piano and it's like I have to do it or I feel like ppl (my family) are disappointed in me  and I'm not close to 16 yet but I can sort of relate to ur situation

Hey, me too. I play cello but it definitely feels the same. It feels forced and pushed and faked. And I love music, but it doesn't feel like love anymore. Now it just feels like something to pass the time. School isn't enjoyable. I have friends but they just don't feel as real I guess. I just feel lost. I'm so tired of feeling lost and this song, for a minute, makes me feel understood. I hope things are going better for you now, though. Good luck

Dorothy The Procrasinator wtf are we the same person


This is entirely me. I can't believe how well you've captured all the same feelings I have into one song.


This song, I don’t even know how to phrase it, it flows through my veins when I hear it, so powerful, so amazing x


This song is slowly turning into one of my all time favourites. So flipping good.


this song is life :') I love your voice so much


Dodie, this is beautiful. So many feelings in such a short time, thank you for creating and uploading this. We need more music like yours in the world <3

@erizosinpua Eso es muy bonito <3 ¡Y tú también tienes muy buen gusto! ^^

Isel Pehache (te veo comentar en todos los vídeos de chupy y si ya me encantabas ahora que veo que también te gusta dodie molas aún mas ♡)


i listen to this song today and get so much nostalgia. late bus rides home looking out the window through thick condensation. walks home in my big yellow coat and the street lamps lighting my path because the sun has set at 4pm. feeling of being inadequate and isolated from people who loved the most. christmas lights and snow days. i have this deep pit where certain dodie songs just surge up from and give me this sense of nostalgy


Omg I love this song soooo much!!its absolutely beautiful!!💛💛😭😭


this is seriously one of the most beautiful songs ever written. It's so wonderful to listen to and you're a great singer.


I keep coming back to this it’s the most amazing thing I LOVE this


Dodie, please please PLEASE share the sheet music with us fellow musicians! Love you and your music you are an inspiration to me and many others as well. <3

Jonathan Lindegaard starup wow thats super awesome! I love the effort you put in writing it all out :D

@Jonathan Lindegaard starup OMG that's perfect!! Dodie would be so proud ❤❤❤

yessss, that violin part would be so nice

Just a Potato yes please!! I need this cello part


Absolutely beautiful!! I love it, keep doing what you're doing Dodie!!!❤


i literally listened to this once and it was instantly my favorite song


I’ve been on a dodie binge for the past 2 months. Is it healthy? I don’t know. Do I care? Not one bit. Carry on precious girl


wow Dodie... I've never cried at a song before, but you've done it. I hope you're proud of this wonderful masterpiece

LiterallyLily the phandom is everywhere :D


wow. this is breathtaking oh my good god i’m in shock.<br>this deserves 10000x more appreciation and recognition

wow. this is breathtaking oh my good god i’m in shock.
this deserves 10000x more appreciation and recognition


When the meaning of this song hit me, i started sobbing. I’m scared of growing up, I want to stay young forever.