Listening to this again as a 16 year old is a much more painful experience than when I was 13 wow. Dodie got me through some rough times back when I was 12/13 and in a state of perpetual existentialism but I was always reassured while listening to this that I didn’t really have to worry too much because I wasn’t 16 yet, and wouldn’t regret the time I felt I was wasting back then. Now I don’t really think like that, or at really tho that’s another problem, but the memories this song holds for me will always be really dear to me


Honestly, my fav song from dodieeeeee 💛💛💛💛
I just relate so much and I love the background music tooo
Gives me goosebumps


you're not a cliche and therefore I can actually relate to your songs and just thank you so much for that

Isn't it interesting that the non-cliche song is the song that <b>so</b> many of us can relate to? Because we rarely ever talk about these things in our society, we all just pretend we're not worrying when all of us are

Isn't it interesting that the non-cliche song is the song that *so* many of us can relate to? Because we rarely ever talk about these things in our society, we all just pretend we're not worrying when all of us are


This one is my favorite!!! Love you dodie!!!


happy almost birthday when! this song has helped me so much. thank you dodie.


THIS SONG IS SO PRETTY AND GORGEOUS AND ELEGANT AND EVERYTHING I NEEDED YET DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I NEEDED IT TIL THIS VERY MOMENT!!!!!! THANK YOU

esther I KNOW RIGHT!! Its so light hearted and innocent yet deep and meaningful and that little music break near the end was like an adventure all on its own. Ughhh i wanna go to one of her concerts so bad haha

Your profile picture goes perfectly with your comment


"i think i've been teeling lies,
'cause i've never been in love"
that hurt way more than it should've


honestly my favourite song from you and it feels like it just came out yesterday


I always come back to this and it always makes me cry, I feel it SO much


i can't stop crying bloody hell dodie this is beautiful (and this may be the billionth time watching but i'm still crying)

Abby Stott ive been listening to it on repeat!


this song is SO gorgeous, especially the part around 2:20 where it has the haunting oohs, I absolutely love that section


i first heard this song when i had just turned seventeen a few months prior. now that i'm 20 and feeling like i'm back in the same mental state as when i was sixteen, it hits so much harder


Relistening to this song bc it’s a bop, this year is a mess kinda wanna fast forward button and skip a year so just listening to every Dodie song


I may only be 13 but the amount of times I’ve cried to this song.. it- everything about it is so personal to me. And it’s beautiful


Thank you for getting me through a night of revision dodie


i first listened to this song at 14 while i was in an abusive relationship. i thought i was genuinely in love at the time but in reality it was manipulation and it left me with so much trauma. idk what being in love is supposed to be like and i'm honestly scared to fall in love now. but i long for it like crazy. listening to this song at 19 and now i finally truly understand


this song hits so deep as it’s literally exactly how i feel


Two days until dodie's EP comes out and I can listen to this basically 24/7!

Yessss oh my gosh I'm so excited to have her tracks outside of YouTube


for some reason my heart breaks at the fact that compared to the stars, dodie doesn’t get nearly enough recognition. i mean all these pop stars or other singers, most of them, can’t write songs like she does? don’t get me wrong, i love taylor swift and ariana grande and all but their lyrics seem very thoughtless compared to dodie’s. every line seems so carefully crafted. her music is so dynamic. she’s creating magic which gets buried under songs which seem like repetition of other or the writer’s own songs. and the lyrics are not even half as thoughtful, creative and magical as dodie’s.


I relate so much it hurts...this is such a beautiful song💙


it's nearly been a year and I'm still in love with this song


I'm not even going to lie I'm blubbing like a big ol' baby

Omg I didn't know you watched dodie! (I'm relatively new to your channel though) Hi diane!


This is a brilliant song! Congrats!!! Well done!


This song gives me chills......and feels........

BUT IT IS SO DAMN GOOD AND ITS MY FAVORITE SONG OFF ALL TIME.


I love the line “memories painted with much brighter ink” even though I sometimes long for the past to come back, it wasn’t actually as good as I remember. I’d rather keep moving forward, though sometimes I forget.


i always come back to this song when i feel as though no one understands how i feel. a song has never made me feel as much as this song does. thank you dodie


STOP. I SHAVED LAST NIGHT YOU CANT GIVE ME GOOSEBUMPS LIKE THAT. IT HUUUURTS


Lyrics

I think I've been telling lies
Cause I've never been in love.
Everyone falls for the sunshine disguise, distracted by who they're thinking of.

I'd rather date an idea;
Something I'll never find.
Sure, I'll live in the moment,
But I'm never happy here
I'm surrounded by greener looking time.

Am I the only one
Wishing life away?
Never caught up in the moment
Busy begging the past to stay
Memories painted with much brighter ink;
They tell me I loved, teach me how to think.

I'll take what I can get
Cause I'm too damp for a spark.
Kissing sickly sweet guys
Cause they say they like my eyes
But I'd only ever see them in the dark.

I'm sick of faking diary entries,
Got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again
I'm waiting to live, and waiting to love
Oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.

Am I the only one
Wishing life away?
Never caught up in the moment
Busy begging the past to stay
Memories painted with much brighter ink;
They tell me I loved, teach me how to think.

I'm sick of faking diary entries,
Got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again
I'm waiting to live, and waiting to love
Oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.
Oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when.


I love this. It sounds like it belongs in Lord of the Rings in a way. It's dramatic and sad with just a hint of mystery and wonder.


I've listened to this song so many times but in my teenage moment just now the words finally lit up clearer than they ever have. It's so beautiful.


This song is so beautiful but it hurts so much just because I really don't want to grow up at all. I don't want the future because it terrifies me, I just want the glorified image of the past that I have in my head. But the truth is, it's nothing short of nostalgia and nostalgia is probably one of the biggest liars on the planet. The past is never as good as we think it is.

Iran Leon, I relate so deeply to this. A year and a half ago I moved from Illinois to Colorado, and I love it, but I didn't want to leave at first. It was all I ever knew. So, I need to do one last thing before I left. I did some bad things with a bad guy. My "friends" found out and on my last day of school, they all told me how much they hated me. But I always think about that guy and how in some distorted way I miss him, but I always brush it off, saying that he brought out the bad in me. So, lesson of the story is that I'm doing much better here (even being homeschooled and a loner now) because the 2 friends that I have are genuine.

CallMeMargo That's so true... I often find myself missing the friends I had a few years ago but If I think about them deeply, they weren't good friends, they were always ignoring me, still I quite feel like they were better than the ones I have now, which is not true btw, my friends now care for me truly, I just can't shake that feeling.


this kinda reminds me of when I had anorexia <br>it brings tears to my eyes every time I watch it, reminding me about what I did to myself for months

this kinda reminds me of when I had anorexia
it brings tears to my eyes every time I watch it, reminding me about what I did to myself for months


this is one of the most profoundly beautiful things I have ever heard


This song hits different when you are 16


This reminds me of an old Ellie Goulding song. It gives me chills it's just so beautiful, the lyrics really speak to me


there aren't a lot of love songs about those who aren't in love - for those who are lonely, wondering what's wrong with them, wondering if they are worthy of love. They aren't a lot of these songs, so Dodie, thank you for making this song for those who aren't too sure if they're good enough and for those who are waiting for when they stop asking 'when'. proud of you x.

following my 10 minute freak out of you replying: i love you and i know you are going to amazing things and touch even more people's lives. you are the person i watch when it's 2am and i'm alone in my room overthinking and freaking out, in order to calm down. And I'm not alone in saying that, there are hundreds of thousands of people who seek refuge in your genuine spirit and presence. No matter who breaks your heart or who treats you wrong - remember that you've mended our hearts and treated us right. You're a great soul Dodie and if you EVER need any help in terms of design, merch, posters, or anything at all, I'd be more than happy to help. <333

+ambieliu15 lol I am legit crying at this comment


it's been 6 months and I'm still in love with this 😍


This is amazing and sounds like Olafur Arnold's living room sessions


In a way, this song kinda describes how my love life went. I didn't really fall in love with the guy, I just fell in love with the idea of love.<br>I guess platonic love is more up my alley since my friendships always feel stronger than a romantic relationship.

In a way, this song kinda describes how my love life went. I didn't really fall in love with the guy, I just fell in love with the idea of love.
I guess platonic love is more up my alley since my friendships always feel stronger than a romantic relationship.


This is beautiful. Yes to me putting this in a playlist so I can't lose it


THIS IS INCREDIBLE THIS MIGHT BE MY NEW FAVORITE SONG OF YOURS I'M SO PROUD OF YOU DODIE

Sami Popcornpup Every song Dodie makes becomes my new favorite song of hers


My heart...my heart ughh...I love Dodie so much...I love this song so much...why is she so underrated?? She deserves a lotttttt ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡


gosh this makes me cry every time i listen


I love this song. I think it sums you up pretty well, Dodie.


"I'll never be sixteen again I'm waiting to live, still waiting to love, oh it'll be over, and I'll still be asking when," ....... reading the lyrics of this song and relating it back to your depression, anxiety, depersonalization video on doddlevloggle, and I can hear your feelings in this music! its truly amazing, such great songwriting i luv u so much <3


I’ve never related to a song’s lyrics more. This made me cry 😭


this is my favourite song currently, thank you Dodie


I'm listening to this the day before my 17th birthday bc it popped into my head...Now I'm crying bc I'll never be 16 again <br>Damn you dodie :(

I'm listening to this the day before my 17th birthday bc it popped into my head...Now I'm crying bc I'll never be 16 again
Damn you dodie :(


I just turned 17, and i had months without listening to this. And God I'm in tears


i had so many feelings while listening to this song, mostly feeling of loss, and at the same time, not alone. i cried a bit in a few lines. I knew you really liked going back and thinking about the past, Dodie. So when you sang about "I'll never be sixteen again" I knew it was because you wished to go back to the age. And it's funny, and a bit heartbreaking, because when i heard the same line, my body reacted with a heave of relief. I reached rock bottom during that age, so when i heard it, it's more of "thank god i'll never be sixteen again". Crazy how life and circumstances work and influence  how different everyone's perspective is. Thank you for this song.

I had the same sort of reaction! 16/17 were very bad age sfor me

doddleoddle what made you change your profile picture, I love it it is beautiful!


I sing this and my friends think I'm strange cuz I'm only 12 and saying "I will never be 16 again" is strange😂


listening to this on my last night of being sixteen. thank you for such a wonderful song.


everyone crying over the line about never being 16 again, but I never really idealized that part of my life. but "im waiting to live, im waiting to love, it'll be over and I'll still be asking when" fucking shatters me into pieces I'm just always waiting to feel better and it seems like I never will


This is the most touching and most beautiful song that has ever reached my ears


I listen to this song all the time since the day she upload it and I can't believe how much time has passed.. Thank you dodie


i relate to this song so much, it makes me sad that i cannot enjoy things after other fun things. i remember the day after the taylor swift concert i was super depressed even though we were supposed to be having fun that day


This is still my absolute favorite (tied with 6/10) because I just relate to it so much.


Homecoming was a few nights ago, and during it I realized how old I am now. I tend to live in the past, so it hit me like a ton of bricks when I realized it's no longer Freshman year, I'm going to be going to college in a little over a year. I don't like growing up, but I can't stop it from happening, so I need to get it in my head that I need to live in the moment.


dodes. i cant get across how much i love you and everything that you do. i just bloody love you a lot. you posess such unique beauty and talent that just makes me ponder everything and i always remember that no matter what happens i will always have your comforting voice and smile to soothe me and calm me when i an at my most upset. the breathtaking beauty of everything you do and say and make is just amazing to me. and i know you say not to idolise you because you are a problematic human like everyone else, but you are a very special problematic human to me  <3. you're never going to read this but i just wanted to say it.
also, im bisexual too (im 12) and i can really relate you. you are an amazing role model for young girls like me. keep doing what you do.

Lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of love from Evie x

this is beautiful. i wish i was like you.

E S I agree, I would say more both you said everything there is to be said. Also, I'm 12 as well, but pansexual, not bi.

<3 I'm pan and a little older than you(I don't like putting my age on the internet) and I agree with you so much. Dodie, you are such an amazing, talented, beautiful soul and from me and a ton of other young girls like us, thank you. We love you so much.


This song is absolutely brilliant. "Memories painted in much brighter ink" is such an amazing and accurate line.


every time i listen to one of your songs i feel like crying. it's just a wonderful feeling! keep up the great work, dodie!


I was 16 when this song came out and the lyrics just hit a bit different now that I’m almost 19.


This is a very pretty arrangement with the strings backing it makes it so much better 😍


Dodie, please release the sheets for this masterpiece!

Jonathan Lindegaard starup thank you this is great!!

YESS PLEASE DODIE I LOVE  THIS SONG SO MUCH


I love your music Dodie! Great job as usual 💓💓💓💓


My favourite Dodie song, one of my all time favourite songs❤


when she starts to sing the ooo's i get chills and feel like i wanna cry because the strings sound so fricken amazing with her and she sounds regal omg


This song reminds me of a dramatic realisation in the form of a beautiful song in a musical. I seriously listen to this song on repeat, it is so beautiful. Thank you so much


doddie has to be the most underrated youtuber in the world and that makes me so mad i can't even.


shit i turn 22 in less than a week and my heart is aching listening to this


i keep coming back when im at my lowest from time to time, from 2017 til now. i remember finding about dodie and her songs and found huge comfort in them, since i didn't know someone could feel the same way i do. sadly, even after the pandemic, i still feel the same stuck-ness i cannot seem to escape from. i know the answer is in me but i just... can't. im still grateful to now at least im not the only one


J BeAt {To My Own Drum} - Indie Acoustic Music


"I'll take what I can get, cos I'm too damp for a spark, kissing sickly sweet guys because they say they like my eyes, but I'll only ever see then in the dark." Dodie, once again describing what's happening in my life perfectly.


I'm 18 and this fucked me up. honestly, all of these are my thoughts and wow this is so relatable!!! I'm so scared I'll waste my life, I'm 18 and I have never been in love, I never had anyone in love with me, I never went to a party. what am i doing? I'm 18 but all these years I have only dreamed and never really lived

Ellie Smile thank you for such a full answer, was a big pleasure to read! great thoughts! I agree, we shouldn't been forced by the standards and just live. it all comes in its time

I'm 13 , and I agree because its a constantly asked question when I really don't have one people don't believe me because it's like it's required. And people that are in relationships last year lasted like two weeks not even 2 months because they are rushing into it before really getting to know the person, in my opinion, because of peer pressure

I'm only fifteen but I remember when I was twelve when I was asked if I'd ever had a crush and when my answer was no, my friends didn't believe me. By the age of twelve all my friends claimed to have had a crush but I hadn't, and I still haven't really, but it's not something that makes me especially sad. What I'm trying to say is that lots of young people have crushes and start having relationships when they are really young, and others who don't, maybe feel a need or a certain pressure to, just because it's what we are in some cases lead to believe is "living". I have the feeling that in some cases people just get to secondary school and start dating to, in a way, live up to what they've seen on tv, be "cool", say "I have a girlfriend/boyfriend" basically "postureo" as we say in spanish. But that's not something I would like to get caught up in. I'm not saying that young people can't have true, sincere feelings,  but I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't want the rush of life, the feeling that I should have a crush,  trick me into having one, just for the sake of it, in a way. I'd rather wait and be patient and let these things come to me, when I'm ready, when they come, than force myself to like someone, to have had a crush. I've talked about crushes but I guess these ideas can apply to other things,  I guess, I mean don't force yourself to be someone you're not, just because it's what in society we call "living". I don't know if I've made my point very well, but I hope someone can make some sense of this :) also I agree wholeheartedly with some other comments,  but I can also relate to the song and the feelings portrayed in it.

sab li same I'm 19 turning 20 and this hit home hard. Don't worry tho xb baby steps is all we can do for not and hopefully things get better.

i am 19 almost 20 and same, I feel this so much.

Well said, @poeven Each of is a universe of our own and each of us is like one dance of life. We can each hopefully enjoy the music of our own dance.

What I'm trying to say is that you won't have wasted your life basically ever... a life mattered solely because someone lived it not because of what it achieved..

(also I'm 33 myself and still waiting for that really big love which isn't just a fling... maybe it happens maybe it won't, but I'll have had a great life no matter what.. :) )

This comment has already gotten some great responses, but also remember - there is no one right way to live!!

That idea has been created for us/we've created it for ourselves like so many other ideas about e.g. how to look right.
You don't have to have been in love by a certain age. You don't have to go to parties. You don't have to feel a certain way. You don't have to make a certain amount of money. You don't have to look a certain way.
None of that defines your value! It frustrates me that we have so many ideas about how things should be. Our lives are all different - and none of us live in a movie...
You do you sounds very hollow and cliche to me, but really though... Do that! :)

You're welcome. If it's emotional I think, it means it's important and it matters.

Matt Palka Thank you for the Dumbledore reference. That's my outlook on life. This song has wrecked me emotionally, though.

22, single, and in love with so much of my life. I can create so much value for other and myself. Pays well to not dwell on dreams and forget to live and enjoy with gratitude what we have.

At 33 all I can think is "Thank goodness I'll never be 16 again." 16 was hard, teen years are hard. Your brain doesn't even finish forming until you're past your early twenties. You don't stop having a chance to "really live" when you get to your twenties or even your thirties. You figure out what you like and what you don't like and you go for that. As far as relationships go... every relationship ends until one doesn't. Not having loads of relationships doesn't say anything negative about you as a person.

AmeliaDionne yeah, we just gotta look at this positively! 18 is beautiful  :)

I'm 18 too, and have these thoughts too! But then like we are 18 and also have so many years ahead of us to experience everything like that


I love this song

Edit from a year later: God I miss 2018 it was so much earlier than now


the lyrics in this song are so powerful, and the piano and strings background arrangement adds to that level


This song is gorgeous and has helped to me to remember to focus on the present, and all the good things in my life.


Got to get it in my head; I'll never be sixteen again

hit me like a train


i’m just finding this and wow. it’s so good,, it gives me shivers


the more I listen to this the more I love it


I can hear the keys being pressed at the start and it's like a subtle drumbeat its BEAUTIFUL


Whenever I hear Dodie's songs I just want to give her a big hug


I cannot get enough of this song!  It's so beautiful xx


This has been my favorite song of yours since I first heard it when it came out. I listen to it all the time and always came up with one meaning for it in my head. But today I listened to it and it clicked that its about depression and everyone telling you that everything is fine when it's not. When you just want to go back to how you were, but you can't, because she is gone. I can't even remember what I used to think it was about but wow I'm crying all over again now. You are my favorite song writer and you somehow always have a song that relates to me at any given moment. Thank you for sharing your music with us.


every time i listen to this song it's like i'm listening to it for the first time. i still get goosebumps listening to this


I'm just imagining Hazel walking in on this and being like, "I'VE GOT WORK TO DO, DODIE!"

The Ainsley Channel I honestly think she's fast asleep because of how gorgeous this is XDD


This has got to be my favourite song of yours


This is honestly how I feel a lot, dodie expresses it sooooooo well!! I've never known how to express it but this is perfect.<br>I probably shouldn't feel like this tho, i'm not even 16 but i dooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

This is honestly how I feel a lot, dodie expresses it sooooooo well!! I've never known how to express it but this is perfect.
I probably shouldn't feel like this tho, i'm not even 16 but i dooooooooooooooooooooooooooo


I'm gonna be 17 in a week and this song has kinda thrown me through a loop and I am really realizing that I don't get to be 16 again and that I am almost grown and I'm gonna be out on my own soon and that is just a terrifying thought to me but it is probably good that I am realizing it now instead of later...


this song means so much to me

thank you dodie.


A woman in advanced choir sang this song with such emotion, great song 😊


Speaking as a songwriter: I have always wanted to write a song about wanting to go back and having that longing to even have that chance to rewatch my memories, but hearing this song, I couldnt have found a better way to express these feelings. These lyrics touch every bit of my emotions, I love your music, I think "Human" and "Would you be so kind?" stand right next to my new favorite song "When"

Speaking as a musician: The accompaniment for this song is so brilliant and captivating that I could close my eyes and imagine you high up in a tower, over looking the sunset on the ocean, it paints the perfect pictures along with the piano. It deepens the tone of the overall song, and it is amazing.

Speaking as a fan: Dodie, you never fail to amaze me with every song that you write, you make me want to pick up my guitar and start again. I'm glad that somebody is standing for the rest of us who may be too small or afraid to speak out. Love you always and I can't wait for the future now that I have had my moment of realization, thanks to this song <3


Thank you for this song, Dodie. Thank you so much.


am I the only one that relates to this song way too much?

Im waiting to love, when everyone has already been in like, many relationships.
I feel like somethings wrong with me,
because im told to live my life.
ive even pretended to love because everyone was talking about it.
and I was almost convinced.
I want to love, but I cant find anyone who gives a burst of color.


will your ep be out before 2017?? where will i be able to get it?? i need it i'm so excited & this is beautiful & yes i love it

twentyøneslugs on the 18th of november to be exact.😁

comes out november 18th! click on the preorder link in the description! :DDD THANK U


21 and this song is honestly me at all times. Painfully, painfully real. Here's to hoping I can soon open my eyes and stop thinking that happiness only exists in the past!!


This song is so beautiful. With the string instruments, the piano, her voice, and her lyrics just go together so smoothly and absolutely gorgeously <3


i feel like im constantly wasting my time and it feels like i will die tommorow, with nothing accomplished, a life denied by love. i know im just a ordinary lonely tennager but sometimes i listen to this and i think the song was made for me.

In a way it was made for you. It was made for everyone who feels from it.


I have actually been listening to this on loop for the last three hours, that's how much I love this song. DODIE IS TOO GOOD.

Goosebumps right from the first note she sung for moi

See, "I'm sick of faking diary entries," is the bit that gives me the goosebumples every time

"I'll never be 16 again"  gets me every time.


Instead of being afraid I'll waste my time now by making mistakes, I'm more afraid I'll do so by not making enough mistakes.
<br>I just come here when I'm scared

Instead of being afraid I'll waste my time now by making mistakes, I'm more afraid I'll do so by not making enough mistakes.
I just come here when I'm scared


this actually makes me cry its so beautiful


Oh my, this song makes my heart hurts. I relate, especially to to the f i rat two voices. And dodie's voice is to emotional and beautiful it brought tears to my eyes.


I absolutely love this song, in fact I preformed it for my talent show 2 weeks ago & the crowd went crazy for it. its on my channel if anyone reading wants to check it out. Dodie is a freaking musical genius & Im so happy I covered/preformed this song


If I just had an 8th of Dodie's talent I would be happy with myself


This is the type of music I wanna listen to eryday


Dodie this is so beautiful! I have nonstop been listening to your ep! Your voice is so pure and soft and I love you so much! When you make your full album I'm so getting it! I hope you have a lovely day, and just know you make me happy everyday.❤


Is it just me who thinks dodies would suit the John Lewis advert so well!? Amazing song. So excited for the EP!! xx

Lucy Laura OMG YES ITS SO PERFECT FOR A JOHN LEWIS AD


oh my GOSH i will never ever get over this song i love it so so much


It sounds like something that would be in a musical :)


Good ass vocals like these make me cry, they make me cry happy tears😱😭😆


i can never cry with this song. i can only sit and feel a dull ache as the idea of this song passes through my head. it's too solid for my heart. i can't carry the weight. i can't.

damn it, dodie, how are you able to bear the weight of your own feelings?

i can never cry with this song. i can only sit and feel a dull ache as the idea of this song passes through my head. it's too solid for my heart. i can't carry the weight. i can't.

damn it, dodie, how are you able to bear the weight of your *own* feelings?


I have never related more to a song in my entire life.


I remember the first time I heard this song. It was a bad day until I play it, you know? Like if you knew it and somehow tell me that everything would be fine.<br>This song makes me feel in a story I've never live. And, Dodie, you just don't know how grateful I am to you for incluided it on your EP. I just... can't explain it all.

I remember the first time I heard this song. It was a bad day until I play it, you know? Like if you knew it and somehow tell me that everything would be fine.
This song makes me feel in a story I've never live. And, Dodie, you just don't know how grateful I am to you for incluided it on your EP. I just... can't explain it all.


First time I heard the lyrics, I thought they were
"Never caught up in the moment,
Busy baking the pasta,
Say never is painted in much brighter ink"
The actual lyrics are much more heartbreaking <3


<b>that moment when you realize that dodie is your coping mechanism</b>

*that moment when you realize that dodie is your coping mechanism*


How is this so incredibly relatable. My goodness I love it


Whenever i feel down,I listen to this and i feel much better! :)


You're are fantastic, amazing, brilliant, awesome, cool and great!


I've waited three years since I've found this song to say "Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be 16 again" and really mean it.


I love youuuu so much its ARGH and this song just hit me right in the feels. seeing how you can't go back to being sixteen again sucks (though I'm not yet 16) but then again, your diction is so powerful. U NEED AN AWARD FOR ALWAYS HITTING MY FEELS


Beautiful song and incredible mixing. Please tell me I'll be able to buy a physical version of your EP online??? I'm one of the weirdos that doesn't like buying downloads :P

same man !! i'm such a cd guy even if i upload them straight to my laptop after buying them. it's just nice to have something physical

Omg I've never had so many likes on a comment on one of Dodie's vids :D haha :P

exfairy I want to have it physical too, just downloading does not feel like actually having it

exfairy I am a CD girl too! I want to be able to hold Dodie's beautiful master piece in my hands

exfairy commenting to see if there is an update on this...

Same, I think she said there will be physical copies but I haven't heard any more about it


this song hits my soul deeply in a place i'm extremely ashamed of


I'm obsessed with this song ugh dodie you've done it again you have made me cry on the bus to school.


Dodie, I love your videos soooo much, your voice is so amazing and you are so talented!!! I love your songs!!!(sorry if i said something wrong, im Brazilian and still learning english)


saw you on September 11th. still so amazed and grateful for what I got to see at my experience of you and Tessa’s concert.


THIS TOTALLY BELONGS ON BROADWAY OR SOMETHING ITS SO BRILLIANT


This song reaaaallyyy hits different now I'm older


this one has to be my all time favourite


Please please PLLLLEEEEEEEAAAASE do a VEVO video on this song!


I'm writing a book, and this song is the one that I imagine as the theme in the film adaptation. I play it on repeat. Thank you for existing.


wOAH DODIE ARE YOU TRYINg to KILL ME WITH THIS AMAZING SONG


This song....every time I listen to it, I feel like a warm blanket is pulled over me in the middle of winter.


So incredibly beautiful!!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!😍😍😍😱😱😱😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕


An instrumental of this song would sound amazing.


this song makes me feel like i need to do more with my life and my youth but i dONT KNOW WHAT


"I'll never be sixteen again." I dont really know why but this lyric hit me hard. I just turned 16 a few weeks ago. I guess it just reminds me that i still have lots of things im gonna experience and i'll always be asking questions about anything and everything. Also that I should be fully present and live in the moment so that i dont regret it. I wont ever be as young as i am right now ever again. This is beautiful dodie. Its 4am and this helps.

Monica Rivera it hit me hard too, I'm about to turn 17 and like honestly I haven't done enough while I was 16

I am almost seventeen, it two months to be precise; and even tho this year has been good, there's always the feeling that you could do more, so much more. I guess is just important to remind that we are far to be eternal and that we have to treasure every single second

now, I only want to get older, but I know that when I'm older, I wanna be younger... but I can't force myself in enjoying life i guess...

Monica Rivera same here, I turned 16 in September, and it suddenly hit me that I'm gonna keep growing and growing and I just want it to stop

Monica Rivera same, I turned sixteen a few weeks ago too and that line had such an impact.

Monica Rivera I turned 16 yesterday so I can relate <3

Monica Rivera Exactly, don't take a single second of it for granted. I know it sucks sometimes but it's so important to fully experience it


The strings add so much........ so moving and beautiful


this is the most beautiful piece of art I'm crying


Honestly, 2:03 to 2:51 is unlike anything I have ever heard before. One of my favourite bits of music ever written. And I actually mean that.


i’m about to turn 17 in a few days and “gotta get it in my head i’ll never be 16 again” is really hitting me

@kayla oh. Well then i'm right on time :)

Angela Liu omg my birthday is today thank u sm

Happy birthday. Im not sure if im late or early. But happy birthday :)


I love this song so much it gives me life


I heard this song on the day you bought it out and today I finally didn't cry! - Just!


I relate to this song, but more towards the relationship stand of it. I really do hope to be in a relationship someday. I'm the biggest shipper you'll ever meet and all adorable romances just cause my heart to swell like a fluffy marshmallow. I've never experienced that feeling in a more personal way, though. I've never dated anyone and I rarely get crushes. I'm not extremely desperate to find someone, it's not all I think about, but things such as this song take me back to my current crush, my longing for the relationships I read about in books and see in movies. It makes me want more than ever to hold someone's hand and cuddle with them while watching a movie, or warm hugs after I've had a bad day. It's not about constantly dating people, it's just about the experience. Perhaps I'll never date again once I do it once. Perhaps knowing what it's like from more than works of fiction or examples from real life will be enough, but nonetheless, I want to be in a relationship at least once.


every time i listen to this i get chills and i cry it's so beautiful and i just love it so much

Panic! At The Pity Party you have an amazing username


God this song is so beautiful, I’m crying


Does anyone know the piano notes for this? I’d love to learn it!


seeing this song live 3 days ago was an absolutely life-altering experience. dodie, you are incredible. seeing you live was one of the experiences i will never, ever forget


To the 16 year olds, a list of my regrets:
-Being too self conscious to openly like what I like
-Thinking rejection from a boy is the worst possible scenario
-Being too shy/quiet in general
-Not taking dual enrollment tbh


I thought 6/10 was the most relatable song I've ever heard...I stand corrected :) Everytime I hear both songs I get a feeling that cannot be explained, only felt.


Everything was beautiful! But let's take sometime to appreciate 2 of the hardest instruments (specially the violin) the vibratos were amazing... I keep on wondering my she keep using her bow tiled to the left instead of straight (I don't play cello... yet) ugh both so good!


This sounds like a Disney princess anthem but it still has like a contemporary feel to it! It's incredible!!!!


i was 16 when i first heard this song now im 21 and it hits even harder now 😭😭💔💔


2:43 Shaky bow strikes again. Amazing song!


This song makes me want to play my cello again.


Ok I wasn’t an amazing fan of your music before this wow, this is actually gorgeous


This should be a musical, like this is the end song and in the musical pas de deux should like be the main frame- the musical could be called pas de deux OMG THIS NEEDS TO HAPPEN AGSHHSAGFH

DeadlyYoshi I actually wanna write this now aaa

DeadlyYoshi oooh
I know
Maybe the musical is about a woman who is inlove but in denial about it
And then she's absolutely SMITTEN about a guy who she knew for a long time but drifted apart (Like in *I knew you once*) and then she the guy and then intertwined happened and Ect
I'm not creative-

DeadlyYoshi oooh
I know
Maybe the musical is about a woman who is inlove but in denial about it
And then she's absolutely *SMITTEN* about a guy who she knew for a long time but drifted apart (Like in *I knew you once*) and then she the guy and then intertwined happened and Ect
I'm not creative-


literally have never heard more of a beautiful song


Whilst I'm having a mental break down this song started playing and I started sobbing so loud AHH


This song has so much meaning to me. I did a cover of it myself and ended up nearly crying my first time through, as I wanted to record it all the way through like she did. It just resonates so much with me, I feel like Dodie has a way of rewriting my life into her songs. Her words are so beautiful.


Dodie, you will never see this, but I just want to tell you that this song has saved my life. I know that this is yours and for you but it rings so true to me and it's just the most beautiful, tasteful thing. I'm so proud of you and watching you and your music grow is lovely. All I can say is thank you really.


For some reason, I feel like this should be in a musical


My favourite part is 2:13 to 2:40, so beautiful and chilling


I cant ever stop listening to this song and the cello part is a part i want to learn so bad ahh so beautiful


I love this song dearly but I have to emotionally prepare myself so I don't break into tears, it's so beautiful.

KyleCantRun TheMile      Same same..... She deserves the world


i seriously can’t comprehend that this was 4 years ago. i wasn’t even 16 when this came out . and now i’m nearly 20. fuck. i was singing this thinking i could relate back then but shocker ! i wanna go back


I love this. I'm tearing up right now. As a cellist and a singer, I'm very happy to see this exists


"I'm sick of faking diary entries" ~that part gets me every time


this song is too damn beautiful, I feel an obsession coming on


honestly her songs are so beautiful. i love that she talks about real things and not just guys/girls. she is a true artist.


I've been stuck living in the past for a year. Turning 17 was one of the most upsetting events in my life because being 16 was the last time I felt I'm living. Regrets are all I have now. <br>But I have promised myself to move on. I have moved on, yet get pulled back in the same bottomless pit several times

I've been stuck living in the past for a year. Turning 17 was one of the most upsetting events in my life because being 16 was the last time I felt I'm living. Regrets are all I have now.
But I have promised myself to move on. I have moved on, yet get pulled back in the same bottomless pit several times


I RELATE TO THIS SO MUCH!  I often cry about how my life has passed by me and how i will never get that time back.


The orchestral part from "am I the only one..." to "teach me how to think" and the oohs is absolutely stunning. Those chords and harmonies are beautiful. This whole song is stunning. <br>dodie, this ep is just the beginning

The orchestral part from "am I the only one..." to "teach me how to think" and the oohs is absolutely stunning. Those chords and harmonies are beautiful. This whole song is stunning.
dodie, this ep is just the beginning


sounds like it should be in a musical tbh it’s really good


listening to this at almost 23 and really really missing when I was 16-20. I feel like I'm wasting my youth and I'm seeing all you actual babies in the comments, y'all have so much time ahead of you

Life is so long. I’m 23 too, and I LOVE life. The idea that all of the good years are at the beginning is a lie, and you have SO much time. 😊 Also, Heaven exists for you if you love Jesus, and eternity in paradise never ever ends. For real.


I felt like 16 was the only age I was good at and every year since I've been slowly drowning. I hate how much I relate to this and I hate that I feel like I'm waiting for my life to start.

Catherine Miner i'm 12 and i want to go back to when i was 9.. ive been up for the past hour crying to this song

Life gets so much better I promise.  I felt the same way at 16 and every year after that until I moved out and started realizing that I am the only one that can define my own happiness. I went through a lot of crap at home and a lot of things I never thought I would get out of. I am 22 now, graduating from college and on to bigger and better things. Things will get better I promise, you just have to look for the good

Catherine Miner I'm 16 and I want to go even further back its so messed up


i found this song when i was 13 and i just thought it sounded so pretty. now i’m almost 19 and terrified of losing my youth, of losing my time. <br>but we’re all still so young and there’s so many good memories ahead. we just need to hang on a little longer and we’ll see that 16 isn’t the last time.

i found this song when i was 13 and i just thought it sounded so pretty. now i’m almost 19 and terrified of losing my youth, of losing my time.
but we’re all still so young and there’s so many good memories ahead. we just need to hang on a little longer and we’ll see that 16 isn’t the last time.


This is probably my favourite dodie song. It makes me feel all kinds of things. I have chills all over my body from this incredible performance! The lyrics and the music are just so stunning.


I love this song I always listen to it, it will never get old because it's sooo true and relatable. We won't be young forever and we need to live but sometimes is hard to tell wether your doing what will make you happy. I love this song so much


Memories painted with much brighter ink. This is actually me. Memories always seem so much more beautiful than the real experience but if you always try to recreate memories you can never simply appreciate the moment. This is something I'm trying to learn, but its so much easier said than done. Thank you for that breathtaking song! Your music never ceases to inspire.


This song reminds me of that one dream I had where an old man was ushering people inside a building to escape from a tornado, but his mind processed things late, so he was swept up by the tornado, but was still ushering people inside.


This song describes me so well right now. The past wasn't perfect, but I miss how some things used to be.


I'm sitting in my university library at 12:49 am crying and listening to this song over and over. So pretty, so moving, so true.


Dodie, you look really cute in those glasses, the song is perfect and your voice is beautiful. Thank you


...When you just turned 17 last week and this song is already super relatable


i absolutely love this song and it's been 3-4 years ever since i first listened to it. i still remember myself wondering what i'd be doing when i was 16.

and the lyric "i'll never be 16 again" hits lowkey hard for me, too. the pandemic started when i was 14 and now i'm turning 16 🧍♂ two years have passed and i feel like i still have the mind and experiences of a 14 year old.

i'm so scared that i'm losing the best years of my life because of this virus. i'm waiting to live, waiting to love. i'm so tired of having to sleep through everyday and go through the same routine at home :( i wish it'd end, or atleast lessen before i even reach 20.


Hi Dodie!
Is there any chance to buy/get the sheet musics for the strings and the piano??
Because we  (two of my friends and myself) would love to play the song in the exact same arrangement for our winter-concert at school!
And this song is so inspiring!!!! <3

Jonathan Lindegaard starup thank you so so so sooo much!!!


as someone who's just recently turned 16 the 'i've gotta get it through my head, ill never be 16 again' line really hits me hard and makes me want to try and make the most of the rest of my teenage years. ugdhsjai this whole song just hits me so hard jesus


AAAAAAAAAAAA
i relate to this so much
everyone i know is in love and i'm always wishing that i could go back in time and fix everything i did when i actually WAS in love,
and i always turn to fictional characters and make characters and ship myself with them then i just hide from people
W H Y


i thought 6/10 was hard to stop crying to but this one had me in tears on the first verse. dammit dodie why you gotta make me cry so much with the relatable feels


i remember the first time i went to therapy i showed them this song and said that's how i feel. because it's the most accurate thing to what i felt.


So I've sort of been listening to this on repeat for a couple hours and I can't stop.<br>Yep, I'd say this is now my favourite piece of music.

So I've sort of been listening to this on repeat for a couple hours and I can't stop.
Yep, I'd say this is now my favourite piece of music.


THESE KIND OF VIDEOS ARE THE REASON I WISH YOUTUBE HAD A LOVE BUTTON


"ill never be sixteen again" i can relate to that so much even tho im still young i get scared when i realize how quick time passes and how much ive changed. <br>this song is so touching <3

"ill never be sixteen again" i can relate to that so much even tho im still young i get scared when i realize how quick time passes and how much ive changed.
this song is so touching <3


Dodie played this live at Playlist Live and I started crying


Toujours aussi plein de grâce et de mystère


These lyrics are absolutely gorgeous, such a talented musician!


this is still too beautiful 2 years later


Hi random person, hope your day is going well, and if not...

mine isn't going well either

Me neither. Had some teeth out yesterday and now I feel disgusting, I'm only 15 and I'm already literally falling apart.

It’s been three years, are you having a good day now?

I hope, so if not be like me and cry listening to Dodie

@laurie ewbank

It’ll get better. Please don’t cut. It’s really dangerous. I got addicted and sometimes I still have urges so I bite my lip or dig my nails in but I haven’t drawn blood in a while. It’s not a good coping mechanism but I think maybe you could use it instead of cutting, at least for the time being. If you need to talk, I’m always here to. If you want better advice, I’d suggest talking to a professional

alex. I know this shouldn’t but it make me laugh pretty hard. Hope you feel better

this had my cracking up, i'm crying and laughing what the heckshjajdh


i dont think there is any other song in the universe that describes my feelings so perfectly


already 2017 and still thinks this deserves a grammy


This hits so different now that I’ve come to terms with my trauma. Like, I’m both sad that my youth is stained by it but also angry. I know I didn’t deserve this, but it still has taken away so much of my potential.


I get chills when she says "I'll never be sixteen again"


About to go to my first mental checkup after realizing and accepting I might have depression or anxiety. This song.. Ive been hearing it but never listening, and today the lyrics clicked and never have I felt so understood. For most that song is Guiltless, for me its When. Im always saying "when Im older" "when I have a car" "when Im in college" but its always a "when" or "if" because Im so scared of having high hopes or my heart on my sleeve. I miss when times were simple, and Im so glad I have that expressed in a song and yet... I can listen to it over and over and fall even more in love with it each time. Im practically emotionless most of the time, but music has always and will always be important to me.


I turned 17 a few weeks ago and with that came one of the best people in my life and damn dodie don't hurt me like this


this sounds like it <i>belongs</i> in Dear Evan Hansen or a really good tearjerking musical like, what the hell this is so perfect

this sounds like it _belongs_ in Dear Evan Hansen or a really good tearjerking musical like, what the hell this is so perfect


It's my 17th birthday and the first thing I did was come back to this gem of a song. I've been a fan of dodie's for nearly 6 years and this has always been my favourite. Turning 17 makes it hit even harder :')


If anyone would like the sheet music I gave it a go here. Hope it's alright :)
https://musescore.com/user/117218/scores/2956536

Wow this is amazing. But oh wow, I don't know how to read that. I'm so useless

I play the piano part on my own, its still beautiful :)

i did the same (also with muse score :D) i wanted to play the song with my dad and my brother but he wont do it and hes the only person i know that plays the cello... so now the song makes me double sad: because of its beauty and the lyrics and because i'm not able to play this on my own...

Julies channel. what do you mean? there is a cello in the sheet music?

Jonathan Lindegaard starup  do you know the sheet music for the cello


One year later, I’m still asking “when?” This song speaks to my soul in ways unimaginable, ways I will never be able to express. One year later, this song is still sweetly poured over my heartache, reminding me that I am alone. Yet I am not, because of you. Thank you, Dodie.


God cellos are amazing. This song is fantastic I've been listening to it on repeat. I just cant get over that beautiful deep cello. it makes the song so much more haunting.


I first listened to this about a year and a half ago now it’s nearly midnight and nearly my 17th birthday so the line of “I’ll never be 16 again” really hit me


you inspire me to live. You make me smile and i understand and truly relate to you i only with you were really in my life dodie


"memories painted with much brighter ink"<br>that line always gives me shivers. thank you.

"memories painted with much brighter ink"
that line always gives me shivers. thank you.


This reminds me of some Broadway song a little, like one of those calm, non-belty heartbreaking ballads that makes people nostalgic (and I'm not even 16 yet) for their teen years.


18 now and I remember thinking I'd be the best version of myself that I'll ever be at 18 when I was 16... Now I just wanna go back there... Also, 20 year-old me, you can be whoever you want to to be. I guess I learnt that expecting too much of future selves is only taking away from their experiences. So no matter where my life leads me, I'm sure I'll be able to find happiness in some way or another, because I'll always have myself and my past selves with me. <3


Yesterday I went to a college party I really wanted to go, but very soon I got pretty sad and I saw everyone having so much fun around me and I just couldn't do it. Right now I'm in bed, don't know how I feel, but I saw someone with "it will be over and I'll still be asking when" tattooed on their arm. These lyrics never hit me so hard because I keep blaming myself for having all these opportunities and not enjoying them, not reaching for them. I really thought I was happy, but sometimes I wonder if I'm just faking it (the happiness and the sadness)


I'm back from the future to say that Dodie is releasing a new EP on August 11th :)


This deserves to be in a movie omg Dodie I'm in love

Omg no wait I'm in love with the song it's so amazing aaaa


“never caught up in the moment, busy begging for the past to stay” i relate to that line so much because i can never get my head around that you are gonna loose people u care abt and it makes me so sad to think abt it


Some girls performed this at our school assembly and it was very nice :')


i'm going to be sixteen in days, but this still hit me alot.


i always come to this song to cry. thanks dods


This should be in a musical.
What I'm saying is you could write a musical, or a film about someone who writes music.
You should write and be in that film.

Seriously though ?! She could do it. Not sure if you saw her recent instastory where she asked people whether the song she was writing should be in 4/4 or 3/4 , I thought that they would be perfect as themes that appeared at different times in a musical and.... AH she's wonderful

omg DONT STEAL MY IDEA 😂 IVE BEEN WRITING THIS MUSICAL SINCE THIS SONG CAME OUT! stay tuned on my channel to see behind the scene vlogs about my Dodie musical !!!

Alicia Bradley honestly I would damn love a musical with all of dodie's songs

+Juce yes and dodie and the other princess are in love

YES PLEASE DAN AND PHIL END UP BEING GAY AND ITS GAY AND I LOVE IT

Disney should make a new animated musical starring nothing but YouTube
voice talent. It could be about two princes (Dan and Phil) who are betrothed to princesses (Dodie and someone else...any suggestions?) but they are actually all gay and in love with each other. With all their trusty
sidekicks (Joe Sugg, Joe Tasker, Jon Cozart, Charlie McDonnell, Tom Ska, Tyler Oakley...this list is endless) they all go on a journey of destiny to be with their true loves.

Someone should make a documentary about Dodie<br>Maybe once she's a little more popular (hopefully a lot more)

Someone should make a documentary about Dodie
Maybe once she's a little more popular (hopefully a lot more)


havent lisent to this song in ages and was doing history homework and just burst in to tears THIS IS TOOOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL.


"I'll never be 16 again" just kind of broke me. At 21, I feel like I've wasted so much of life, and especially only 3 weeks after a rough breakup, I feel that even more.


This is one of my fav songs. Dodie you're such an inspiration for me. You were such an inspiration for the me going through a very bad time. Music saved me so much and you gave me the strenght to hold onto music. I hope to meet you in person and OMG my dream is to be able to sing with you one day. So I wanted to say so many more things, but I'm cherishing them im my heart for a lil more time. I decided to make a cover of this song, since I love it so much, hope you will see it someday and you will see how much I love you and your music. (I still have troubles with the expressions I do while I sing tho)


guess who's listening to this song for the third time in a row crying her eyes out...


love the bass notes on this one. Really great. Inspired to actually start recording again.


this is the most beautiful composition ever


i watched this nearly every day in 7th grade and thought i related because i was sad and alone and the lyrics meant something to me. now i'm 16, a sophomore, coming back to this video because i'm getting really sad again and this is my comfy place.


OMFG dodie I love this!!!! And you of course. Is the piano tune the same to pas de deux??? Which I must say is another one of my faves xxx ilysm xxx


Listening to this the night before my 17th birthday. Wish me luck guys :)


Listened to this on the last day of being 16 and it really hit home. Growing up is scary but I feel like this song perfectly sums up how it feels to move on and accept that things change. It's beautiful.


it was funny, this song came out when i was 13 and in 8th grade. at the time i didn’t realize that it was going to be the start of my life. the start of precious memories that i’ll still think about to this day. now i’m a senior in high school regretting everything i did. i wish would’ve told him how i felt, i wish i would’ve not tried so hard in school, i wish i never dreamt i was different, i wish i never tried so hard. i wish i would have tried harder, i wish that i lived in the moment. now everything is taken away from me, i’m no longer that naive 13 year old. i’m one more year away from being adult, but i just wish that i could stay a little bit longer


i listened this song on my 17th birthday on purpose on the last few minutes of the night. i was in my bed with my headphones. when dodie sang the last “when”, i opened my eyes and the time moved to 00:00. since the first time i heard it i knew i’d have to listen to it when i was about to become 17. the “i’ll never be sixteen again” never really hit me at first, but on those last minutes, it did. cause i realised i’d never be sixteen again. and i’m still desperately asking when.


i just listened to this song for the first time in over half a year and it still makes me cry.


I don't know why but honestly nothing makes me happier than being able to hear little things that you aren't supposed to hear. Like the weights in the piano keys and her breath hitting the microphone. Or when you can hear (in other songs) the sustain pedal.


I burst into tears. I’m waiting to live.


everything about this song is such a masterpiece why is it so underrated like. that orchestral part? fucks me up Real good


God has given you an incredible gift, Dodie. Great awards will be yours when you use your talents for His glory. He loves you<3


I heard this song for the first time on the boncas today and I got goosebumps hearing dodie perform it. I've been worried I'm wasting my time being young lately. this song is making me cry rn. also it was uploaded the day after my sixteenth birthday and I just feel really sad now

Emmi -yay it's the cool people birthday lol


This song is literally me. I have no clue what love feels like and just thinking of being in a relationship with someone makes me so scared because I don’t know if I would love them or if I’m supposed to grow to love them


my heart wrenched when i heard this song


I first listened to this when i was 14 , coming back now as almost 18 ... I’ll never be 16 again ..


This is so emotional and beautiful, I feel like you just sang out all the words from my heart. I love your music so much, thank you Dodie


I can’t even explain how much this describes my deepest thoughts - every single word. it’s actually mental how true this is to me. Wow, Dodie, thank you for articulating what I never could! I love you so much X


When I sing this I always think of 6 not 16, I’m very depressed and I just wish days on end that I could go back to when I was 6 and everything be great and I could change everything. But then I realised I probably wouldn’t have had any of my life now if I didn’t had the bad.


I've had a really bad day today and even Dodie's saddest songs are cheering me up.


Dodie, your songs are always so delightful, and touching, and profound. Sometimes all those things at once. I know I'm not your usual demographic but as someone reaching middle age, the words to this song take on such a different meaning. Thank you for this.


ive listened to this song probably hundreds of times and it brings me to tears every damn time.


first heard this song when I was 16, turning 22 this year. this song hits different now :(


This is so beautiful <3 but could anyone tell me the meaning behind the song?

I mean, I'm not Dodie, but to my understanding it's about some one who feels like the best part of their life is over and lives perpetually waiting for it to get better rather than enjoying what they have.


this song's meaning has changed for me since last listening

Isn't that so COOL


Am I the only one
wishing life away?
Never caught up in the moment
busy begging the past to stay

This song stabbed my heart and these lines just twisted the knife


At the beginning, I took a sharp breath in.. but the moment Dodie started singing it all melted, her music makes me calm and sad and happy and she reminds me so much of my girlfriend its scary


late comment, but do you have sheet music for this? I'd absolutely love to play this on the violon


dodie you need to get in touch with a book writer for and write songs for musicals cause i feel like you would create a literal MASTERPIECE


I watched this when she first posted it and i thought it was beautiful but i couldnt connect, but coming back to it, i now have a sort of connection to it cuz i guess i just relate to it so much more with where i am in life


This song is so powerful and beautiful and honest and relatable... i think everyone has felt like this before and its amazing to hear it put into words... if it hasn't happened already somebody needs to make a lyrical or interpretive type dance to this song... It would be so heartbreakingly beautiful


Woah. I've heard this a dozen times, but I'm only now realizing this is exactly where i am.


AHHHH IS YOUR EP ON SPOTIFY? (PLEASE SAY YES)


i’m 17 now, a senior in high school. i’ve been asking myself “when” for my entire life. when will i be satisfied with my life? when will i be satisfied with who i am? when will i be satisfied with the way i look? when will i be satisfied with my friends? when will i truly start living my life?


"I'll take what I can get<br>cause I'm too damp for a spark" literally me for the next 100 years

"I'll take what I can get
cause I'm too damp for a spark" literally me for the next 100 years

doddleoddle I FREAKING love you dodie your songs literally always describe me


I’m turning 20 in December and holy damn this song hit me today. All my friends are in love and in these great relationships, some even talking about marriage, and I’ve never been in love or even dated anyone. Oof man.


This is actually something i'm struggling with too.


i'm currently in a relationship yet never felt such a strong connection with it that i cried so much. with the feeling that your attraction towards your partner is slowly growing apart and you're too afraid to either end it or stay due to the consequences of their feeling getting hurt, it hit me so hard when i heard the second verse. i can never get over this song. it's somber but in the most beautiful ways.


Freu ich mich auf alles,was von der Kleinen noch kommt - ein vielversprechendes Talent haben wir da ☝💖👏✌😘🍀


This song makes me internally sob😭 (I don't cry)


This feels a lot like a regina spektor song and I love it


I listened to this for 45min straight on repeat


You absolutely should have strings in more songs. totally compliments your sound. Excellent song!


Not many songs make me think of life and how I should be happy and this does well done dodie this is amazing


I love how everyone gets so into what they are playing. Like if you look at the violin player he just looks so calm and proud to be there. Such a beautiful song, so proud dodie <3


Honestly, y'all are picking single lines that get to you, the entire chorus gets to me... And the verses. And the emotions expressed through the instruments


Darling, recently VR has been taking off in a big way, Wave VR in particular has been host to some amazing performances. Please look into this, I for one would love to watch you on this platform


I'm doing my senior dance solo this year and I kinda wanna use this song...thoughts?


I can’t believe I’m just discovering dodie now.  How could this have happened?  Everything she creates is so beautiful it hurts.


I'M IN LOVE
WITH THIS SONG
I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO IT SEVERAL TIMES A DAY SINCE IT WAS UPLOADED
I AM CRAVING THE SHEET MUSIC FOR THIS
I WANT TO LEARN THIS
OH MY GOD
THE LYRICS HURT MY HEART


This song fucking hits me fuck off damn it 😭


This song nails every insecurity I have right on the head.


I love this song so much Dodie, it really hits when you sing the line "i'll never be 16 again". I'd love to see you on tour when you come to Manchester,  only I don't think my mum will let me go. One day I hope to meet you, and may your musical career continue to grow, as I'm sure it will, I look forward to it 😊❤❤


i had just turned 17 when this song came out and i felt exactly as "i'll never been 16 again" and thought i was being overdramatic

anyway i'm 22 now and i still wish i was 16 again


I just had my 17th birthday and I cried to this song yet again


am i the only one who thinks that it sounds like a disney princess would sing this

I KNEW I RECOGNISED THE STYLE FROM SOMEWHERE

I love Disney Princesses, but this has way more depth and<br>complexity - beautiful and melancholy at the same time

I love Disney Princesses, but this has way more depth and
complexity - beautiful and melancholy at the same time

audrey bates yes! totally!

Also best Profile pic ever! love it and him 🙈

petition for dodie to be the voice for the next disney princess


i'm 16 and this songs hits way too damn hard during quarantine


Honestly, when i hear this song i hear a story of a girl whos been threw alot and at least for me right at that last moment.. she meets someone who sparks something in her heart..


I'm 22 and this song really hits home for me. I sometimes spend my whole life being infatuated with the idea of what I want my life to be, rather than going out and living it.  I get really nostalgic for my teenage years even though at the time they were really painful. The grass always seems greener in any time that isn't the present and that needs to change.


Aah I'm crying. This is so beautiful! I think I've got a new favorite. Thank you for this!!!

Reading the comments, I see I'm not alone haha. You're making us all cry!!


revisited this with a new interpretation and fesh perspective, there were tears


I turn 16 tomorrow and this is exactly how I feel right now. Its this weird mixture of sad nostalgia and anxiety. I'm just don't know what I'm doing or what I am going to do or what I have done.


"I'd rather date an idea. Something I'll never find."<br>Petition to replace the phrase "I have no idea" with this lyric

"I'd rather date an idea. Something I'll never find."
Petition to replace the phrase "I have no idea" with this lyric


ah this song. and when i need it again, it finds me


Personally, I will never be able to relate to youth notelgia due to my depressing origin story but I love this song.<br>.... and I'd date an idea any day.

Personally, I will never be able to relate to youth notelgia due to my depressing origin story but I love this song.
.... and I'd date an idea any day.


THIS IS SO MUCH LIKE A SONG FROM A MUSICAL <br>OMFG IM DYING I LOVE MUSICAL AND I LOVE DODIE LKJFLA;KJFD

THIS IS SO MUCH LIKE A SONG FROM A MUSICAL
OMFG IM DYING I LOVE MUSICAL AND I LOVE DODIE LKJFLA;KJFD


Gotta get it in my head, I'll never be sixteen again.

Yeah I'm 17 now and I feel like this relates to like all of my teen years so far lol... Anxiety really messes shit up

Rainy Day same 16 wasn't a magical year for me, no matter what the books say 😂

I'm 16 and I already have anxiety about it and this doesn't help

I remember listening to this the night before my 17th birthday.

+Jordan maso Hope everything went well today :)

+Jordan maso Hope everything went well today :)

+Lincoln Young thank you. You didn't need to take the time to write all that out for me. So I thank you for taking the time to do so. My first exam is tomorrow and I'm nervous but I hopefully will do fine. Thank you everyone <3

For @jordan maso + anyone else who thinks it applies to them
I'm 17 turning 18 in a few months and found myself in the same position as you.
Driving - It's scary at first. But eventually you get comfortable. The freedom it brings is so worth it in the end.
Studying - Wear a rubber band or hair tie around your wrist and when you start to get worked up, snap it against your skin. It hurts momentarily and its enough to ground you enough to regain some control over yourself.
Good person - Do a random act of kindness for a friend, a family member, and a stranger each day. Make it something that benefits them and the only thing you get out of it is the good feelings as you helped make someones day better/easier
Overall, enjoy life. Be nice to people, but don't take any crap. Don't go out and party with the intent to get smashed or drugged up, you won't remember it and most of the time it end up with bad consequences down the track if not straight away. A small amount of pain now is better than a whole lot of pain further on in life. So enjoy it. That is what this line is about (I'll never be sixteen again"). It's here once and its gone, so don't waste it.
I'll add you to my prayers :)

Jordan maso im almost 16 too, but we have the rest of our lives to make something of it. theres no rush

I turn 16 in a couple months and I'm absolutely afraid. I'm not ready to learn to drive, I have my first exams next week and can barely sit through a studying session without breaking down. I haven't done anything. Nothing at all to make me a good person. I will turn 16 and then pass that age without being anything at all.

Sophia S I change the lyric to "I'll never be fifteen again" because I'm 15 now and I feel like I'm wasting this part of my life because of my depression and doubt. It's a reminder that this is the only time I'll ever be 15 so I have to make the most of it now. But I can relate to everyone here who had a rough year when they were 13- that's when this started for me.

hannah mcmemes, wow, to be abused in a relationship at such a young age is terrible. I hope your ok now. <3

I'm so sorry Hannah. <3 Hope things are better for you now. X

when i was sixteen, i got out of an grooming, manipulative, abusive relationship and spent the rest of the year trying to deal with the dysfunction that person had left on my mental state and my life. personally the line makes me think of how much potential i wasted on an age that's meant to be -- you know, "sweet sixteen", and I spent it miserable and terrified of being found by someone who spent years learning me inside and out to understand how best to hurt me. "i'll never be sixteen again" - my childhood was stolen from me, i'll never have the chance to relive it, and i wish i could go back and redo it but.. i can't.

this song means a lot to me and i can't even express how much. thank you dodie.

i connect completely with every lyric to this song

i connect completely with every lyric to this song

Lauren Power It actually really got to me. This is the first time hearing this song, and the first time realising I've surpassed the moment in life of turning 16. it's scary, growing up. there are so many things I'd like to keep... :'(

May God bless you and give you joy sweet thing :-) Happy Valentine's Day

I'm 16 now. lol I have to wait one year to sing this for it to be accurate.

Oh wow, thank you so much. This is so nice. I really needed to hear this right now.

Madison M  I don't think there is a bigger time waster than worrying so don't be scared, don't worry. And listen, 16 is not this magical age or year. We all grow up at our own pace. 16 might be a good age for some people, it might not be it depends. (Honestly I am kinda glad I'll never be 16 again). If you don't want to wish you could do it again, focus on what is important to you personally and what makes you happy. If it didn't work out This year, try next year it is okay. I don't want you to believe that you only have one chance to do something at a certain age because it is different for everybody. Try to have a fulfilling life time I think that is the ultimate goal.

this line affects me so much because im fifteen and every time i hear this I get choked up, terrified that I might squander my time and end up wishing I could do it over again

Lauren Power I'm so glad I'll never be sixteen again!

Lauren Power every time I listen to this song that one line makes me cry and I don't know why

In a few days I'm turning seventeen and this song has been on repeat the past week. For Some reason I'm Mourning this age, I feel like I need to grasp to it before I let it go. This song really fuCked me up WoW!!!!!

I always change that lyric to "I'll never be eighteen again", even though it was only a year ago for me. I just miss the happy version of myself as I had a more positive mindset and wasn't afraid of life in general. Now, everything just makes me anxious.

That is how I feel like you can get the most of you 16 or 17 or any other age.

I feel like you should find the balance between doing what you need to do in order to succeed in life and doing things that make you happy as well. If you are feeling stuck in a situation change something about it don't stay where you are. Ask for help when you need to, cut ties when you need to. Invest your time in what makes you happy and understand that this time will never come again. And most importantly, take life more slowly. <br>Just few things I learned through my life:)

I feel like you should find the balance between doing what you need to do in order to succeed in life and doing things that make you happy as well. If you are feeling stuck in a situation change something about it don't stay where you are. Ask for help when you need to, cut ties when you need to. Invest your time in what makes you happy and understand that this time will never come again. And most importantly, take life more slowly.
Just few things I learned through my life:)

+AlyCat Videos I'm 15 so I can't really help but like try just taking every opportunity you get but don't get obsessed with not wasting time

How do you make the most of being sixteen? I'll be 17 in 6 months and I'm so excited to be ready to do things with my life, but I don't want to look back and regret not making the most of it or whatever.

Lauren Power I'm actually really glad that I'll never be 16 again. That was a rough year for me. I'm glad to be moving on.

As a 19 year old about to move away to uni next year I love this lyric.<br>Make the most of being 16.

As a 19 year old about to move away to uni next year I love this lyric.
Make the most of being 16.

I've just turned 16, and I totally relate to you both

I've just turned 16, and I totally relate to you both

@Sophia S I have quite a few friends who are 13 and I just think I wasted that time of my life and I miss it. I'm still pretty depressed now, but when I was 13 I started just crying all day every day and I wish I appreciated when I could've been happy or carefree and just wasn't. I hate seeing how happy I could've been, I think that's why I'm friends with 13 year olds, I wasted that time.

@Lauren Power im 15 too! i think of it as thirteen also?? like more in the sense of now im kinda really depressed and back when i was 13-14 i was so carefree and happy all the time and i wish that i appreciated that more and i could have that again

+Sophia S same and I'm 15, but I kinda think of it as 13 since I wasted all that time terribly depressed and anxious so I don't know how I'm in year 11 or 15 it's all a blur and I just want to go back


(I'm late, but I love this song now.)<br>I'm 16 rn, and it scares me I'm not being grateful enough :'/

(I'm late, but I love this song now.)
I'm 16 rn, and it scares me I'm not being grateful enough :'/


Never realised how much I relate to this till now wowie


ok so i just had a 5 hour art exam, and obviously this song was stuck in my head

but the lyric i kept thinking was "i'll take what i can get, because i'm too DANK for a spark"

anyway this song helped me through it, thanks


So you wish dodie was in your living room? Me to, btw


The song doesn't hit as hard now that I turned 17


So this has been out for ages and everything but this song acc inspired my New Years resolution of stop wishing to be somewhere else/in a different time just appreciate what I have because wishing won’t get me anywhere and the past will always seem better, thank you dodie 💛


the fact that i remember the day this was posted and it’s been posted for over four years boggles my mind


this was bloody brilliant live. everyone crying, strangers hugging and holding one another.
until the end of the concert when everyone stopped giving a fuck about being nice to each other and we trampled each other to get to the bar to get water
still one of the best nights of my life. thank you dodie xx


Out of most of dodie's songs, this one really gets to me


this is probably the most beautiful thing I've ever heard


i feel like such a fan girl right now! been listening for years dodie and you are simply a gift to this earth....truly are and shaping up to be one of the great song writers of a generation. THANK YOU GOD FOR SENDING YOUR ANGELS TO EARTH TO REACH OUR HEARTS!

love from across the pond


It's 2019, and I still can't get over this song.


this is how i feel. my disassociation. it’s frustrating and this explains it perfectly


this sounds like a disney princess song! I love this so much

I mean not all of the lyrics, but like the tune and the aesthetic


awe shes such a smol bean the way she lifts her entire leg when using the sustain pedal :')


i'm trying to work out the cello part by ear and want to die WELP


i don't think i'm going to cope hearing this live tbh


Dude, almost no one else’s songs get to me more


your performance at the boncas was beautiful


You could write an entire musical with just Dodie's songs and it would be flipping perfect


So it’s 11:50 the night before I turn 17. One year ago, I listened to “Fifteen” by Taylor Swift right before midnight cause I thought it was cool. This year, the only song I could remember that said 16 was this one. I’m sobbing now, as I always do with this song, but this time it’s good tears. Because I know that I was actually happy all year, and I still am happy as I’m going into 17. I feel fulfilled and like I did live in the moment. This song just made me think and feel a lot, and kind of properly grieve and say goodbye to 16. And inside, I know I’m always gonna be a little kid. Thank you, dodie, for the absolute cinematic emotional masterpiece that is this song. :)

This is incredibly late but happy belated birthday!!


I’m listening to this a few weeks before my seventeenth birthday.  I’m kind of anxious that I’m not appreciating being a teenager as much as I should be and soon I’ll be an adult and have wasted so much time.  I’ve been so eager for high school to end and to get out on my own since grade nine but now that I’m nearing the end I’m panicking.


i was 14 when this came out.
now i'm sixteen.
and damn, i'll never be sixteen again and it's making me want to cry because i'm feeling real down as a 16-year-old


I feel like dodie should be hired by Disney and be singing/voice acting in their films


who arranged the string parts?? they are a genius!


How do I associate with all of your songs!? 😭💕


2009, man. What a time to be alive. Even though I may have been too young, I was aware. It was a good time.


I am melting. this is so gorgeous dodie thank you??? im crying ?????????????? pls help

TimeTraveling Toaster you're the best virtual bff ever

crafting project of the day: tape the mouths of anyone who does not want to talk about dodie clarks mcfreaking ep with me.

Jordan B <b>hands virtual tissue</b> there there, let it all out *hugs*❤

Jordan B *hands virtual tissue* there there, let it all out *hugs*❤


This song is so atmospheric... I'm honestly awestruck.


Damn you can write,  call BS on yourself and fall in love, the one is out there, don’t accept less!


Anyone else with MaDD relate to this sooooo much


I don’t know where my brain short circuited because I could’ve sworn it went “Kissing sickly sweet boys cause they say they like my accent” and I cannot believe myself rn. ☠


the words "I'll never be sixteen again" really hit me and showed me how much time i spend reliving the past


I'm 26... still living in my 16... got to get it in my head


I had to listen to this twice because the first time I could only listen to the sounds together not the words, it is such a beautiful song and music always has a way of making me feel more then anything else


Me and my friend made a song using the lyrics from this song and it’s pretty fucking awesome (not trying to sound bigheaded or anything but I prefer our version to the original)

American Horror Story I want hear it lol


I wonder how the neighbors felt listening to it :^


absolutely buzzing because i get to see this girl in april on tour. <3 <3

im definitely gonna cry when she performs this


this sounds like a song from a musical, yo what if dodie made a musical that would be amazing


I listen to this song literally every day and idky but it makes me so calm???


I usually can't fully empathize with your songs and I still love them but it's like I'm changing with your songs. Every song you post I relate to it even more

They all make me think. that's the kind of music I love


that's funny because I've been listening to this song thousands of time, and at the very moment I am very drunk and in a very low point in my life, and just now I fully understood the lyrics...


I've been crying, but listening to your songs helps, because they hit so close home.  It's a bit therapeutic and it hurts at the same time.


as an aro person, the beginning verse always hits me hard. "I think I've been telling lies cause I've never been in love" there's been so many times that I've thought I had feelings for someone and then didn't, "I'd rather date an idea" i want a romance. I want to be able to live out the fantasy ideal put on the pedestal by society but that's not real even for people who can love. Every time I imagine a future where I'm in love, my partner doesn't have a face. It's the shimmering ideal with none of the substance.<br>I'm still waiting to love, but i don't know When it'll happen. Maybe never. But that's hard to swallow

as an aro person, the beginning verse always hits me hard. "I think I've been telling lies cause I've never been in love" there's been so many times that I've thought I had feelings for someone and then didn't, "I'd rather date an idea" i want a romance. I want to be able to live out the fantasy ideal put on the pedestal by society but that's not real even for people who can love. Every time I imagine a future where I'm in love, my partner doesn't have a face. It's the shimmering ideal with none of the substance.
I'm still waiting to love, but i don't know When it'll happen. Maybe never. But that's hard to swallow


Just turned 16 today and thought id come back to this


I connect with this song so much that I got that feeling where you wonder if the song was written about you.

One of my friends told me about your music and I am so glad I startes listening. Your music is lovely and inspiring and you yourself are such a precious human being--I am happy that someone like you exists. (I apologize if that sounds rather objectifying or demeaning; it was not my intention.)

I hope you have a pleasant day!


I love Dodie so much because her songs are so relatable and I feel so comfortable when listening to her. It’s nice to know someone understands and is going through it too 💛


dodie deserves so much more recognition for what she does. there was so much emotion in this song. stuff like this needs to be on the charts rather than bs cookie cutter pop music.


ya ni puedo dar like a nada por que todo se lo toman personal :😴 pero me encanta y me identifico en algo


Listening to this, years later, I just wanna slide some sneakers on and hop on my bike or something. Go for a ride around my neighborhood and watch the sunset. But I can’t. It’s cold. It’s dark. The world is more sad for me at this time. And that’s all I’m thinking about.


dodie, when you performed this at your london show it made me cry so much because of how much i relate. thank you so much for this song


If you listen to When then Human; you realize that the lyric in When “I’d rather date an idea” relates to human so much.


As someone who isn’t quite 16 yet, this song gives me the feeling of what it’s like to live for other people.


No you've been listening to this on repeat since it practically came out


Kira Henders thank you so much, thats so kind of you 💙💙💙

+itsmemoony good luck on those tests! I bet you'll do well!

tomorrow and the day before I have two tests that will get me into college and im really nervous and anxious, but this made me happy and calm, so thank you, Dodie, once more


That line "I'll never be 16 again" cuts me deep


I remember 2 years ago when a was 14 (2017) thinking that 17 was so far from me. Now I just turned 17 and I feel like I'm doing okay, not the best life I could, but I'm thankful for what I have. This past 2-3 years I had thought of that lyric "I never be 16 again" and now it's true.


Every time I watch this I think of Hazel sitting just off camera wiping away a tear.


I'm 28 now and I've never related to a song more, I feel like my teenage years were my best. I've been told that your 30's are the best years of your life, I'm just trying to do what I can to make the last year and 3 months of my 20's worth talking about. The words to this beautiful song just explain how I've felt for so long, I wish I'd known of this song much earlier so I wouldn't have felt so alone.


I learned this on violin. took a while but now I'm satisfied.


I'm 17 tomorrow so I'm going to play this song for it to say "I'll never be 16 again" at midnight because I've been crying at this song and contemplating life because of it so it seems fitting ❤

@Danny wait i didn't see this but ahh thank you!! (the song hit different at midnight on my birthday)


For me, the line “I’ll never be sixteen again,” is me telling myself stop wasting my life right now


I am relating to her lyrics too hard..."rather date an idea" because you have too high of expectations. Something about the sweet simplicity of her songs is amazing. I usually would find someone else being simple boring. But I love her


Doddie, why isn't "she" in your EP? I think it is one of the most beautiful song you wrote, I get so inspired by it, and I wanted to download it.

I'm hoping that we might see more eps in the future tbh

saaame. I was CRUSHED 'one for the road' wasn't included, but alas life goes on

Oh I love all of her songs, even the ones on the EP, I just meant there are a lot she's done that I like even better and was hoping would be on it

I don't dislike the songs, tbh I like all of them a lot, but She is my favorite, and I wanted to download it.

Ikr, it's great that she's releasing an EP but tbh like half the songs on it are some of my least favorite ones she's done.


I just realised I met Maddie Cutter the Cellist in an orchestra project, she was so lovely!


I wish I could like this a thousand times


I was absentmindedly writing a paper when this started in the background and I kid not thought it was "You Will Be Found" from Dear Evan HAnsen then I realized it wasn't and was like OMG I cant believe they sound so similar!!! ;) <3 love you dodie


Fun fact, Dodie has been alive for 8,092 days!


dodie im sobbing this is so beautiful fuck


how did I only find out about this song now? and how was Dodie able to get into my heart and write this? holy shit this is EXACTLY how I've been feeling, word for word. Dodie, if you're reading this, thank you so much for putting this into words.


2 years later and I still absolutely sob at this song


damn, ive cried on every music video that dodie has made...


my boyfriend broke up with me a week after my 17th birthday, “i’ll never be 16 again” really hits home lol


Elena's arrangement creates warm shivers.


Like many others I have cried to this song I'm in pain I'm just a warrior fighting to survive so I must cry tears heal


after 2 years im still not sixteen but i still get so hurt at “i’ll never be sixteen again”


And I come back here, years later, understanding


I love watching this and remembering what Hazel said 😂


now at nineteen, diagnosed with a thought processing disorder, this song speaks to me so loudly


So I’m turning 17 in half an hour and I’ve now just realised how much I should have cherished being 16


It's my last day of being 16 today and the lyric about never being 16 again is rlly getting to me I love this song so so much


I've only just realized how true this is for me.. oh god


PERFECTION DOES EXIST YOU GUYS. YOU JUST FREAKING EXPERIENCED IT.


This is the most relatable lyrics I've ever listened to...when she says "am I the only one wishing life away? Never caught up in the moment, busy begging the past to stay, memories painted with much brighter ink" Man... That really got to me, and when she says "it will be over and I'll still be asking when" is something I also think about a lot, I'm always afraid that my life will end before it starts..


i have to write down all the parts of this song, and honestly writing down the cello is so hard, because sometimes i don't even hear it that well D:


I want to love. I want to feel like a person. Someone that genuinely matters. <br>But its suffocating, it's hard.

I want to love. I want to feel like a person. Someone that genuinely matters.
But its suffocating, it's hard.


"ill never be sixteen again" and "never caught up in the moment, too busy begging the past to stay" really made me think


iv'e got derealisation and I fucking bawled at this, to real :( especially as it came on just after I turned 17 haha


Im in the car with my parents listening to this and im trying so hard not to cry


Honestly I found this song a month or two after I turned 16.
Im turning 17 in just over 3 months.
I'm terrified go grow up.
Over this year so much has changed and it made me realise how little childhood I have left.
I never really got to be a kid as my mum was ill when I was younger and I had to take care of her and my brother (parents are divorced and she's single).
It was only in the past few months I decided I'm gonna set some boundaries so I don't regret all of my adolescent years.
I've been a kid more in the past 2 months than I have in the past 16 years.
But of course I couldn't keep that up forever, now I'm back to being like the second parent to my brother.
I feel like I've already had kids and all that with how involved I am here. I keep trying to remember "you only get one shot".
I won't get to do anything over. And I'm so scared. I don't know what I want to do in my life. I don't have any goals set. I'm just making everything up as I go hoping that I don't run into a wall, but every time I do hit that wall, it knocks me out for months.


ahaha i commented on this a year ago, right before my 16th about how i was afraid, and ooooh boy now im turning 17 in a couple weeks and crying at 1 am about how im terribly afraid to age lmao.


this song perfectly encountered my life at the most ideal time. thanks dodie.


Dodie, you almost just made me cry. This song speaks to me on a very personal level, not so much the lyrics but just the way you sing it and some parts just break me down. It's amazing how music can make us feel, make us cry, make us laugh, and reflect in our personality. I'm not wishing life away, I'm just dealing with a lot right now and I don't exactly know what my brain is doing. I can't see a therapist, and I don't want to. I'm only 13 and I can't put that stress on my family. More people have mental issues than not in my family. All I can say is thank you, Dodie, for being you, influencing so many people, and your gift of music.


Okay tbh my friend sent me a Snapchat by her and she was watching avatar so that's why I added her. She told me she was a good singer. I brushed it off. Im freaking crying 😭


“Am I the only one wishing life away” Dang.


This songs hits even harder when you’ve watched her disassociation video


I just turned 17 and this songs makes me cry so hard


My music teacher for 3 years was my favorite teacher ever. The year I went to 6th grade (she taught 3-5), her daughter drowned. Jordyn would have been 16 next year around. While some will never be sixteen, some like Jordy will never be 16. :(


i’m 17 in a few hours it’s time for this song to turn more somber


I'm scared to listen to this song too many times because I don't think I'll ever find anything else that recreates the pure, raw utter authenticity in her breakdown. She's not even singing words but it's so clearly heartbreaking. Anyone can see how honest she is in her videos, but when she sings the breakdown, there's something really special happening


This is the video when you really see how serious things have gotten...<b>when</b> a string couplet makes itself present in Dodie's living room! I <3 it.

This is the video when you really see how serious things have gotten...*when* a string couplet makes itself present in Dodie's living room! I <3 it.


Gotta get it in my head. I'll never be 16 again. I'm crying. I'm done. Good day sir


Okay so, this really hit close to home for me. This song basically put my struggles into words. Also I play the violin so the cello and violin literally left me shook.


Today‘s my last day of high school. I’ve waited all my life for this moment, asked myself when it would arrive but now that it‘s here I just feel really nostalgic and sad. <br>Did I wish my life away? Should I have apreciated it more? What will happen to me and the people that are now so close to me? Probably, yes, I don‘t know. But what I do know is that your song Dodie sums this up perfectly. This mixture between kind of hopeful and kind of very very sad.

Today‘s my last day of high school. I’ve waited all my life for this moment, asked myself when it would arrive but now that it‘s here I just feel really nostalgic and sad.
Did I wish my life away? Should I have apreciated it more? What will happen to me and the people that are now so close to me? Probably, yes, I don‘t know. But what I do know is that your song Dodie sums this up perfectly. This mixture between kind of hopeful and kind of very very sad.


well... I certainly don't remember asking to be hit by a brutally honest feelings bus. in love with this Dodie ❤


Last year I was feeling sososo bad, and sad and hopeless and I felt alone and I was scared to talk about how I was feeling because I was scared no one else would understood. And then you released this song, and it explained so well how I was feeling that I listened to it all the time, because I felt like you understand Dodie; we've never talked, probably never will but, thank you so much for this song, for making me feel like someone out there understood how I was feeling. It helped me so much. Thank you sososo much Dodie.


this one hit a little too close to home haha


i feel like i kept putting off my childhood thinking that ‘once i get this done’ or ‘once i pass this exam’ i’ll get around to enjoying being a kid.

i never really realized i lived out my childhood being an adult. that i’ll never be a kid again and i spent it being grown up. that i’ll never be able to fool around. i’ll never get in trouble. i’ll never mess around with friends or do dumb things or walk home together or sleepover- that i’ll never be 16 again.

i’ll be turning 17 in a bit and it’s hard to admit as much as i’m terrified that i wasted away, i’m a little disgusted with myself that i’m the smallest bit glad. that high school worries will be over. that maybe i’ll find happy as an adult. i hope i will. i don’t know what i’ll do if i wasted my childhood.

but the real world is coming and coming fast. and i don’t think i really truly grew up enough for that.


This song hits so close to home for me, I'm 16 and since I was 9 I've had Chronic fatigue syndrome, I became recluse and alone, hopeless and helpless, I didn't get to go to school, make or keep friends, I've missed out on so much and will continue to as it constantly relapses,  this makes me nostalgic for the memories I could have had and will never have, I'm so full of dream, hopes and aspirations like being an author and travelling that I won't be able to accomplish, If only I could stay 16.

Thank you Dodie, for such a fantastic song that can connect to so many people


when she said "ill never be sixteen again", oh my god my heart


Dodie Clark, you break me with your beautiful melodies and lyrics that are somehow both incredibly relatable and unique.


This is that song that you listen too at 1am in the summer in a old squeaky chair by your window while the humid wind blows your hair and you just cry.


i absolutely love dodie, and i love all her songs. but i just have this weird feeling when i listen to this one, and its not a good one.  i just dont like it. idk. its weird


You just keep getting better and better.


STOP IT! I'm crying. This is too good. So excited for the EP! <3


"i'll never be sixteen again" my heart is crying


I'm 18, but I still feel like I'm still 15, age is a state of mind truly.


every single word of it hits right in. if i had to write a song describing everything I feel I wouldn't be ever able to do it better. so relatable. crazy. thank you for this. I just keep on coming back every once in  a while.


"Oh it'll be over and I'll still be asking when" This. Oh my god Dodie you are literally the definition of art


"got to get it in my head... i'll never be sixteen again" my 20 year old self is fucked up honey


I'm 16 right now, I'll turn 17 soon. And tbh it was the worst and yet the best time of my life.

And dude this song is the best, I'm feeling like the lyrics all the time and the song made me feel okay-ish about myself. Thank you Dodie <3 And thanks to this amazing orchestra!


I say this for each and every one of your videos, but this is beautiful oh my god. The violin and cello sound amazing and so does the piano. I'm just so happy right now and so proud of you. kk i'll wipe my tears now. Thank you for being you and expressing yourself in the most beautiful way. love you


as a four, I feel understood by this song


The vocals, the melodies, the strings holy SHITTTT