Watching this in the lib and it feels like I've done sixty emotions before lunchtime


TimH Films oh my god I want to go on tour! Your living my dream haha


Fawaz Shah GOOD PUN I LOVE THE 1975 MY BABIES FOR YEARS


This is genuinely one of the greatest videos I've ever seen.

Honoured to be a part of it gah <3


I am so happy we're friends <3

This video was great, and emotional to watch! It's so great how honest you can be on camera to thousands of people.

That day out was the greatest day I've had in months. Had such an awesome time. Although I cringed so hard at our American accents that I had to pause the video haha!  xxx

@StevenBridges literally same cringed super bad XD eep super great day

@StevenBridges I JUST REALLY LOVE CATS

thank you my best best best chum <3 and thank you for that WONDERFUL day!


I'm rewatching old dodie and it's so weird because she looks so hippy and her hair is so long but it's Dodie Ahhhh.


I will not deny that I cried during this video.... multiple times...

I came down here to like this comments or any comment like it

+ToasterOstriches I cried the entire video, for no good reason.


This was so gorgeous. Really nicely executed and touching through and through. One of the times we want to really genuinely thank you for sharing this with us.


I adore you. <br>You're going to have to remove me from that bus with force if you ever want rid of me, just FYI

I adore you.
You're going to have to remove me from that bus with force if you ever want rid of me, just FYI

+hollyb123isawesome oh my god, did you just...

@doddleoddle, how does it feel to be adored by her?

@candysomething Ah stay on my bliddy bus forever <3


oh fuck i am in tears Dodie you are so intelligent and have the best way with words and you do not give yourself enough credit whatsoever. i would buy a million tickets to ride your bus

+SixtySecond Yoga I literally are you EVERYWHERE!! hehe!

Same lol I would pay basically my life for a bus ticket


As many people have already said, that metaphor hit me hard. Today has just been utter crap, and so has the past few weeks/months/years honestly I've lost track of how long it's been but I've fallen into what I feel may be depression but I don't feel worthy of that title, as if I'm just overreacting and that 'I'm fine' (as I keep telling everyone). I don't think my bus has ever felt so empty, it just feel like I'm existing for the sake of existing and I find myself not wanting to commit suicide, because I'm too much of a coward, but hoping someone can just turn my existence off or let me skip this section of my life to the part where I can wake up on a Sunday in my own house with someone that I love and just be happy, but a big part of me feels that even if I did skip ahead, my life will never be as I hope it to be and that I will just be on this crappy bus ride alone for the rest of my life, driving past all these people on their buses who are happy and colourful and loved.

This is exactly how I feel. I have thoughts of wanting to die/stop existing all the time but of course I'm not actually gonna do anything because I know I'm loved and I would feel guilty making my family & friends hurt that way. I have feelings of worthlessness and I feel like I'll never amount to anything, like my life isn't worth it. And I know of course that there are people out there who have it way worse, who would kill to be in my shoes but I'm such a weak person and I'm being crushed under all the stress of school and my home life. I'm at the point where I would rather die than have to go to school. I also find myself feeling waves of numbness and sometimes I don't even have the will to do anything besides lay down and scroll through my phone to distract myself and it scares me. I just feel that as I approach college and the "real world" I'll never be able to handle it because of the stress and life will never truly be enjoyable. I feel bad because sometimes I get so irritated when I see my friends talking or they try to talk to me and it's not even their fault, they did nothing wrong but then I sometimes also get so lonely it hurts and I don't have anyone to hold me or just tell me it's gonna be alright because I don't want to worry my friends/family if I tell them how I feel. Basically I just feel like a big baby who gets overwhelmed by everything while all the people I know are strong enough to hide it and fake being okay. My immediate family does have mental health issues but I don't want to diagnose myself. I'm gonna try to look for a professional and I hope it doesn't take too long. Sorry for ranting I just needed somewhere to get this down without telling someone I actually know.

Cwiddy1812 hello! i'm thankful to see you have updated, even though you're not feeling well still. i'm so sorry you're in a rough place, but it seems as though you want to be happy and have a colorful bus, which is awesome! although your mental state was written off as "confidence issues", what you're feeling is a problem. just because people are experiencing difficult situations as well, it does not mean that you don't deserve to receive help and learn to cope with all this. you know, the great thing about life is that someone can hop onto our bus at any given moment and show us things we never thought possible. i'm sure there are tons of people waiting to join you for the ride. so please talk to someone and tell them straight up how you feel and that you want so much more than emptiness and anxiety. don't give up on that bus full of color and love and excitement, okay? life is meant to feel that way. i feel so strongly that you're gonna get to a great place soon. if you need to talk, i'm here for you!

Cwiddy1812 i can relate to every sentence. it's like we're in the same bus but im just to awkward to talk???

+Cwiddy1812 I've dealt with social anxiety and depression for seven years now and spend five of them not talking to anyone about the way I feel and keeping it all to myself. The best advise I can give you is to NOT do that. It really isolated me from everyone, especially the people I care about most and I've lost friends and missed out on so much because of my mental health problems. Looking back, I wish I had gone to therapy or just talked to someone about it much sooner because I would not have isolated myself so much and gone through everything alone. Please talk to someone you trust about all of this or look for another doctor/therapist that will take your issues seriously and not just dismiss them because "other people have it worse". Just because some people might suffer more does not mean your suffering is not valid or that you're not worth being listened to or helped, because you are! Simply discussing what's going on in your brain and receiving advise on how to deal with certain situations can really make a difference. I wish you the best of luck! :)

Update: well it's been over a year now and I can't say that I feel any better, if anything I feel worse. For the past year and a bit, I've missed a dangerous amount of school and I'm not falling behind academically but I'll be in a lot of trouble if this carries on and there's a chance of me getting kicked out. I've never been a morning person, even when I was younger I would struggle with getting up but now it feels so much different. I've managed to distance myself from my 'friends' whilst also being isolated and pushed out of the group. Usually your friends are the good part of school but now I find it so hard to find any sort of motivation to go. I've had a blood test and there's isn't anything out of the ordinary physically, so it must be my brain. The other week I went to the doctor because my mum wanted me to talk to her. I was so nervous and my hands and legs were shaking and wobbly beforehand, I thought it would finally be the day that I would get some thing that would help. My only problem was that I couldn't even mention depression- I just sat there and cried. In the end she told me that it was probably 'confidence issues' and that she had 'seen people with bigger problems' which obviously didn't help me whatsoever. I think in the past year or so I've managed to get myself into such a bad brain place and I have a feeling that I might have a bit of social anxiety too because that would explain some of the days where I can't bear the thought of school because when I'm there I feel like everyone is constantly judging me and I hate it. I don't like days where I have food tech because I feel like I'm going to mess it up, I don't like doing tests because I feel like I know nothing and then I panic, I hate having to get into groups or if we don't have a seating plan because I feel like such an inconvenience and that no one wants to be with me.
It was my birthday in December but I didn't do anything to celebrate because I didn't think that my 'friends' would want to come and I thought it would be awkward because I hate having any sort of attention and I felt like people would have joked about how bad it would have been and I doubted if they would even show up, so I didn't do anything. And yes I know that there's group chats that I'm not part of and yes I know that they meet up without me and yes it feels horrible when I know that for everyone else's birthday, we all paid £10 each to get them a decent present and my birthday was ignored and yes I know I sound stupid.
In two weeks I get to see Dodie on tour and I just hope that I get to say thank you to her for making me aware of my mental health and how it's a bit shit, but that I'm not the only one. I hope my bus gets better soon.

I think this describes my situation very well right now...

trapped in a constant state of in between, never really joyful, but never truly depressed.

extremely important tips
1)force yourself to go out of the house to be around as many good people as you can all the time. do it right now. text someone and make plans for tomorrow, to do something or just talk

2)also talk to the person you feel most comfortable talking to about how you feel.

This sounds so stupid but one day your gonna look back on this and think about how much you learned because of this experience. I know you really want to skip to the good parts of life, but atleast when things get bad again you'll have more experience to get through it. And you're not alone in that bus, lots of us are there right now. Together, we can grow and make it off the bus. Although this bus ride is terrible, know that it will, eventually end. Love ya ❤

+Cwiddy1812 If you feel sad constantly but convince yourself that you're making something out of nothing, that is a problem. I know that you said that you think depression is a title you deem yourself unworthy of claiming, but just know that it is something that any of us can have, and you do not need outward justification. I'm not saying one should diagnose, but if you think you have depression, you're not thinking that for no good reason. If you need somebody to talk to, you may contact me if you want. I hope things lighten up for you in due time.


It's been over one year and this vlog has still remained my favorite vlog on the Internet. Thank you, Dodie.


your burger metaphor literally just described depression better then any other cheesy metaphor i have ever heard


I'm not crying, my eyes are just sweating.

Dodie I just want to say that you have impacted my life so much. I started my channel because of you. You are one of the only you tubers who is honest instead of pretending to be cheerful and perfect all the time. I know that telling you to cheer up won't make you any happier, but I just wanted to tell you that you have one hundred thousand people supporting you on this channel and even more on your main. So if you ever just feel like crap and want to vent, we won't judge you. Honestly this video made me tear up so much. It reminded me of when I first found your channel an watched your videos under the covers all night when I was supposed to be sleeping because I wanted to memorize the lyrics. I was in love. But that was when you were Doddleoddle. This is when you are Dodie clark, and I love you even more. Dodie is real. Dodie is a person who pulls you out of the dark to remind you that there are people out there like you. And for a brief moment, you are there. There is no border between you and the screen. Don't feel bad about being yourself. Don't feel like talking to us when you are sad makes us go away. Because other people make us pause, make us forget about our problems, and you help us connect. You help us realize that there are other people like us, who feel the same way, who think the same things. What you are putting out is more than just silly little song videos or funny blogs, It's comfort.

+M O O N S H A R D AMEN. Truetruetrue. Omg you totally put that into words perfectly.


This was the most honest and accurate video regarding depression and what those lesser moment are like that I have ever seen. Everything you said struck a chord in me, all of it was recognisable - the emptiness, the lack of feeling, the frustration at that lack of feeling.<br>I'm glad you're starting to feel things again - there's nothing better than realising you can feel the things that others around you have felt for ages once more (:

This was the most honest and accurate video regarding depression and what those lesser moment are like that I have ever seen. Everything you said struck a chord in me, all of it was recognisable - the emptiness, the lack of feeling, the frustration at that lack of feeling.
I'm glad you're starting to feel things again - there's nothing better than realising you can feel the things that others around you have felt for ages once more (:


this is now my favourite vlog of all time. of all youtube, really<br>love you dodie and have a great burger/bus :)

this is now my favourite vlog of all time. of all youtube, really
love you dodie and have a great burger/bus :)


omg when u danced it was so fucking cute????? im dead and gay


I come here every time I remember this video exists. And every time I feel grateful.


Appreciate your honesty and attempts to explain such difficult feellings. Especially being mental health awareness week and all. I've done some very similar explaining recently - I know how hard it is :)

@doddleoddle Perfect timing! Shows we are 2 among many <3

@CrazyBeautifulLife58 is it!!!? ey, this worked out well :) xx


I am currently feeling exactly like you right now: blank and colorless. I constantly feel like I need to either cry or scream do anything to try and get this feeling out of me and prove to myself that I still have emotions. Although I know my buss is not empty, I feel like I am sitting at the back row, all by myself and no one really knows I'm there because they haven't looked around to see me sitting in my own. Well, they must know I'm there because they saw me getting on the buss in the first place but after that the just, sort of forgot. This video is quite old now and by the looks of it you are, hopefully, better or at least getting better. Please can you tell me something, anything to give me some hope that one day soon, someone will turn around and see me sitting on the back seat. X

I know you are probably hoping for Dodie's answer but I'm sorry, it's just me. I just wanted to tell you that you're awesome and that you can do anything you want if you believe in yourself. And you are not alone. You are supported by everyone and we love you. Have a good day ❤


I can really relate to the feeling grey section of this video. I felt/ still feel like all of my life has been a grey patch and I've never been truly happy. For example: I went on a once in a life time trip to America last year and it was a really awesome thing and should have been amazing, but looking back on it, my brain doesn't let me feel that happiness about it and doesn't give me the butterflies of excitement inside. I felt really guilty about it because it cost a lot of money and there are so many people that aren't lucky enough to have this experience and forced myself to feel those emotions I thought I should be feeling, I sometimes I still do.  But I have realised and keep on realising that this is just the way my brain works and it's not my fault. I can't do anything about it other than keep looking for those things in life that give me these emotions and make me feel truly happy


Thanks dodie, now I'm less stressed and you actually made me realize that not every day has to be the best day but that even the simplest days can be the happiest. 😊


I tried to write something in response to this, because this video's pure existence means a lot to me. Then again, just writing that is probably good enough


I love Bry and Candice. They seem like such kind and genuine people.


I had never cried over a burger in my life before


Watching this in 2021 because for me this is ✨nostalgia✨. Realizing I was 16 when I last watched this and living through what I thought would be the hardest part of my life (lol) has got me sobbing. Hahah. A mess. Also, I got a tattoo the day before I turned 20 for the exact same reason but I didn’t know where I had gotten the idea. I can’t believe that idea had been living in my brain subconsciously from this 5 year old video. I miss overdramatic 16 year old me that idolized Dodie. Still love you, Dodie.


Weird, someone seems to be cutting onions every time I watch this video...


Just bought a travel card to stay on your bus please. You're wonderful and I hope you never ever forget that <3


Wow I remember first watching this when it came out I was 13, almost 14 years old. Now I’m 19, turning 20 like dodie in this video. Didn’t think I would make it this far but I’m so glad I did


watched this again in the morning and cried my eyes out<3 dodie, I'm so glad you're finding happiness again, and I'm so happy that I was able to come and see you again ^.^ I love the end of this video as we all look so happy, and that was one of the happiest nights of my life. <br>Hope to see you soon<3 xoxo

watched this again in the morning and cried my eyes out<3 dodie, I'm so glad you're finding happiness again, and I'm so happy that I was able to come and see you again ^.^ I love the end of this video as we all look so happy, and that was one of the happiest nights of my life.
Hope to see you soon<3 xoxo


Quite honestly, this video made me feel nostalgic in a way I never have before. Thank you for helping me see the lives of those around me who are suffering with depression in a more more understanding way. Love you!


I like sitting at the back of your bus and singing 3 part harmonies with you. Maybe one day we'll find more than one song. EH EEEHH??? Lovely to see this in full. Very happy for dodester <3 Hopefully see you soon xxx


aww this video is great💜 I love u Dodie, and ik , depression is hard and can't go away easy. it sticks like glue. it feels like ur drowning and there's no one to save you. it feels like ur in a corn maze trying to find a way out but you can't seem to find a way out. it sucks. especially when ur as young as I. We just need to stay strong,and things WILL be okay💋


You're amazing... You bring so much joy to our lives!! We love you Dodie!!


Candice' reaction was so lovely when you saw your broken uke and she immediately said "You okay?"


I've only recently found you and I instantly fell in love. Also fairly recently I've been starting to understand your burger metaphor A LOT. I feel almost empty, but it's almost like I'm feeling all of these emotions, but they just seem to be dulled within my brain. It's as if my life is a painting. It used to be very bright and colourful, and still is, but to me it seems like it's faded over time. I feel like maybe it's depression but I'm not sure, and I don't want to insult all of the people who know they have it and are highly affected by it by saying that I have it when I don't. You have been such an inspiration to me over the past couple of months and I want to thank you for being so honest and down to earth. I love all of your music, and all of your videos. I am sure that you must get hundreds of messages like this but I think that you can never have too many positive comments. Thank you thank you thank you for everything you do for me and all of the rest of the amazing group of people that watch your videos and can relate to you. Keep doing what you're doing, you are amazing.


Reading the last two lines of that description was a real eye opener. Thank you dodie. You are truly an amazing human.


to this day, this is one of my favorite videos on the internet. i always come back to it when i need it. dodie, you're wonderful.


I always imagine I have fairy lights in my heart. Recently, they have been flickering. I was waiting for the moment I would lose my temper, say something silly, for the fuses in the bulbs to blow; you have just switched the fairy lights on. They are shining with happiness and pride for you. Keep it up Dodie. Let the fairy lights shine on x


This is my favourite video in the whole entire world. Dodie, thank you!


Woah that burger analogy is amazing! I've never really known how describe that feeling other than feeling as hollow as those chocolate bunnies at Easter. I'm glad you're starting to feel better xxx


That metaphor hit me hard. I feel like my bus is empty, and it has been for a long time. Still i tell myself that i'm alright just enjoying the peace an quiet of this bus ride. Maybe that is not so. Maybe I should allow other people in. I guess i avoid thinking about this stuff. I guess i am glad that now i did. Thanks Dodie <3

@MagikarpPoop Your comment hit me hard. It's a tough ride but do your best! <3

@doddleoddle Thanks Dodie. You're the best! <3


ahhh can't stop watching this. Like the 4th time and still makes me well up but feel warm and fuzzy at the same time. Much love and many virtual hugs.


I have been a Doddleoddle fan from Day 1. This is one of my favorite videos of yours.

 Sometimes I feel like my bus is empty too, like I have a really great juicy burger and I don't taste any of it... and I feel so bad because I SHOULD be enjoying it and I SHOULD be having as much of a good time as the people around me seem to be having. Well. This video gave me hope, Dodie. That 1. Other people (like me, all musical and naturally optimistic and wut not) feel this way, and not that it is normal... but at least I am not alone, 2. It's OK to go get a tattoo or do something spontaneous even if you always told yourself you'd never do it, and 3. Being happy depends not on the circumstance, but how you FEEL inside. And sometimes it's alright to jump on a bouncy house and goof off and have good clean innocent fun, and it's also alright to be in crowded sweaty venues playing music for hundreds of strangers.

Anyway. I just wanted to tell you how much your videos mean to me. They are my bright spot. I follow your tweets and posts and vids because we are so similar, and your creativity and general "normal"ness (if that makes sense? Obviously you are not normal, but I mean you kind of are cus youre just feeling your way thru life like the rest of us) makes me happy and feel like I have something in common with someone else on my worst, most isolated days.

 Keep posting and creating. You are an inspiration without trying to be, and honestly that is the best kind. <3


after hearing youve been privatizing some vloggle videos, i immediately came to check on this one. this video means a lot to me; it really started my journey of understanding my own mental health and it plays in the back of my head to this day. of course, i completely get if this isnt one youre comfortable leaving up, i just wanted to let you know how important it was/is to me and to thank you for making it. all the best to you:)


Thank you for posting this Dodie. I just got out of hospital yesterday after being in for a few weeks after my mental illnesses took over my life and I never thought I would survive but somehow I have and it's still so so hard but seeing you talk about it makes me feel so much less alone. Lots of love to you and anyone else struggling 💕xxx


you are super brave for making this video. It was info you didn't have to tell us but chose to. And I hugely appreciate that. :)

I'm working in mental health nursing at the moment and I know how hard depression can be. Good on you for pushing through


Dodie you're so inspiring! I always feel so positive about the future when I watch your videos. Thank you for following your dreams and inspiring us to do the same :)


i periodically come back and watch this video i just love it so much


Everytime i watch this video it makes me smile and feel happy :D


I've completely teared up, you're so wonderful!


thanks dodie. ive been scared cause my family thinks i might have anxiety and that really really really terrifies me and so thanks for cheering me up and everything and i love you so yay :)


Dodie, this was fudging amazing-tastic!!! :D You're so amazing and I feel you so much <3


I cried at this, I'm so happy that you're beginning to feel happier and I think that this video was wonderful <3


It's 7:30am. I'm laying in bed bawling after watching this. You're a lovely person Dodie. <3


This is honestly my favourite video ever! I cry every time I watch it :'(! I can't even begin to explain how beautiful the whole thing is! I love you Dodie xx


i love how honest this video is, i can honestly relate so hard to how you feel <3


This was so beautiful and well put together, happy to see you feeling better <3<br>(Also I am actually Dr. Seuss ;)

This was so beautiful and well put together, happy to see you feeling better <3
(Also I am actually Dr. Seuss ;)


dodie i can't put into words how beautiful this is <3 This helped so much, thank you ily


I'm so glad you're feeling better. Thank you for giving me hope Dodie


And your tour sounded mega awesome, and I'm so glad you're feeling happier, and I love every single one of your videos:):)


Seriously Dodie, this video caused so many emotions!<br>I'm so happy that you are getting better and I'm so proud of you❤

Seriously Dodie, this video caused so many emotions!
I'm so happy that you are getting better and I'm so proud of you❤


you getting your uke smashed totally reminds me of Harry Potter's Nimbus 2000 getting crushed in the whomping willow which is sad and OH NOW IM EMOTIONAL


I watch this every time I need something to help me feel motivated or hopeful and it never ever fails


I went through a similar thing last year, I felt pretty lost, this is so inspiring, thankyou for your lovely videos, sending you happy squishy vibes xox


My best friend has been suffering from depression, I'm showing this to her.<br>You are amazing dodie xx

My best friend has been suffering from depression, I'm showing this to her.
You are amazing dodie xx


love you dodie, this was brilliant, I'm oh so very proud of you!


You just said every feeling I've ever had. You're truly my hero and I adore you. Keep driving that beautiful bus love❤


My dearest Dodie, I've seen this video about a hundred times & in May I was able to write a song with someone I love a lot. That song is called "life is a bus ride" because I've never been more inspired than by this beautiful video. I know the feeling you're describing & I feel like I need to say thank you. So thank you Dodie for hopefully not getting off my bus any time soon. X


This actually explains exactly how I've been feeling lately. Thank you for putting it into words. This makes me even prouder of you Dodie. Thank you for this.


That description hit me so hard... Just crying my eyes out because I can relate so much. It's so easy to think you're out of that 'hole' though, then get dragged right back into it. Thanks for being honest Dodie, that's so brave of you but it can influence/ encourage so many people  who need it. I respect you so much, thanks.

@doddleoddle Not fun at all... just gotta fight through it,

@Sally Langan Gah I'm happy but also sorry you can relate!!!! it's not fun <3


I always watch this at my low times and it inspires me to find my ladder. So, thank you for all your videos they really do help. :-)


Dodie honestly i love you so much, I have been going through the same thing you have and this just gave me so much hope to keep trying. Thank you for this, honestly ❤


Thank you for putting into words exactly how I'm feeling at the moment.


As always some of the best content on this site :D. Endless kudos Dodie! This is a damn good bus! Keep your head up high :)


I've seen the whole thing 3 times, it's worth it we love you dodie <3


Dodie, I've cried TWICE during this video. This was sooo good, honestly. Thank you for this 💕


This video is amazing. Sometimes I feel so empty, so done and I can relate to everything you were talking about. I love you Dodie thank you <3


Watching dodie's troubles begin post ankle-death (0:50)

BE MORE SPECIFIC NEXT TIME PLEASE I CRIED FOR AGES BECAUSE I HEARD ON ANOTHER COMMENT SHE WENT TO HOSPITAL AND I THOUGHT SHE DIED OH MY GOODNESS

Also, now having watched the video, ahh that was beautiful. So happy for you


I could just replay that ending forever oml-
dodie you're so amazing.
you are loved by so many people and are such a big inspiration to almost everyone you meet.
you're talented, compassionate, so endearing and you just give off one of the most calm, positive energy.
please never stop doing what you're doing- you're one of the best people ever and I know I'm only one small person out of the entire world but I love you dodie, you're truly someone to admire and look up to <3


I'm so glad you're feeling better. We all love you, and can't wait until you're completely happy again! <3


Frankly, I cannot say I can relate to this video because I am very inexperienced when it comes to life. But I seriously fucking love this video so much. And I have to say Dodie, you're one of my favorite youtubers because you do things like this. It's not like you're sharing your entire life or something but you're showing your viewers things that really do help them through the tough times and it's just really nice. I don't know it just makes you seem more like a real person than just a normal, plastered on smile youtuber. I don't really have much of a point, but this video is important. It's really bloody important.


Doddie you just said it... That's all I can say. Thank you for being you xxx


I honestly really know the feel. This video was beautiful Dodie :) Keep climbing the ladder <3


Well this was pleasant :) I'm so happy you're having a good bus ride and that everything is shaping up. You really lived your life on this tour and all those ups and downs taught you something. Happy for you


THIS HAS CHANGED MY LIFE U ARE AMAZING DONT FORGET THAT and I know mental health issues are crap (I have anxiety ) but keep doing what u love and what makes u happy xx


whenever I'm having an extra bad day or generally feeling like crap I go to this video. It makes me feel less alone and it also helps me believe that one day everything will get better and I'll be the happy, confident person I was before


this is honestly my favorite video you've ever made and it makes me cry every time i watch it i love you soso much


I loved this video Dodie :) Oh and your hair looked absolutely amazing in this!!!


You're never alone Dodie, and don't you forget it. We'll always be right here when you need us.


I feel so happy and tingly and asdfwjbjsdglkv <br>Thank you, Dodie :)

I feel so happy and tingly and asdfwjbjsdglkv
Thank you, Dodie :)


Dodie!! This was so beautiful and amazing and I don't even what to say....this was just perfect ❤❤


I've never seen someone describe this feeling so accurately. What an amazing video, and what an amazing person you are. Thank you.


this was so beautiful. Beyond words, Dottie. Thank you for sharing :)


You're so beautiful, inside and out. <3 Thank you for being so raw with us, and for sharing your story.


This is beautiful. The way she tells her story, how she felt and changed her view on situations (etc), everything about it is worth watching it again and again. I could write so much more.. but I shut up now. <br>(I know she won't read this, but still: ) Thank you for sharing that part of your journey with us. :)

This is beautiful. The way she tells her story, how she felt and changed her view on situations (etc), everything about it is worth watching it again and again. I could write so much more.. but I shut up now.
(I know she won't read this, but still: ) Thank you for sharing that part of your journey with us. :)


I've had a few colourful, happy days myself recently too, and they've made me feel so good! I'm glad your colourful days are great memories for you too look back on, lots of love Xxx


THAT WAS AMAZING AND NOW I FEEL LIKE CRYING AND I NEVER CRY BUT I ACTUALLY LOVE YOUR VIDEOS AND YOUR PERSPECTIVE ON STUFF. Ok bye


Dodie, you're so real and amazing and it's so difficult to find people like you these days and that's why i love you <3


Dodie, this was so raw and beautiful. You know theres an old saying, a tiny patch of blue sky is enough to make a sailor a pair of trousers. Odds are once you finally see that little bit of blue, the weather will fine up and the sun will slowly come out. <br>Im so glad to see that you are slowly finding your little bit of blue sky on a cloudy day.

Dodie, this was so raw and beautiful. You know theres an old saying, a tiny patch of blue sky is enough to make a sailor a pair of trousers. Odds are once you finally see that little bit of blue, the weather will fine up and the sun will slowly come out.
Im so glad to see that you are slowly finding your little bit of blue sky on a cloudy day.


this video is so beautiful dodie thank you for being honest and wonderful <3 much love


Thank you for this, Dodie! Everyone needs that "It Gets Better" message sometimes. Really, thank you. Sending you love and good vibes and happy to be on the bus with you!! <3


This video is amazing! I cried, laughed and smiled like a loon but honestly you have made me feel so comforted and your burger theory and bus metaphor is so relatable! Thank you for being so inspiring and for sharing this video with the world! A huge thank you Dodie!!😘💗


I loved this video! The best part, however, when i opened the description i read your passage. I really saw what kind of person you are...thank you for adding such originality and beauty to this world, keep your head up ! XD


I just..wow. You're such an inspiration to me, Dodie. Love you ^.^ <3


Dodie, it's 1am, I'm crying my eyes out and shaking on the corner of my bed. I just love you so much and I just can't. I'm so proud of you


Thank you so much for sharing this with us. You deserve all the colours in the spectrum :)


Thank you for making this <3 I had an experience similar to the bouncy castle day, when suddenly going on a carousel was like the best thing ever :)


wow as someone with depression this video hit me hard in the best way, I don't know wether to cry or smile :L


What a beautiful and honest video. Sending so much love and so many hugs your way x


This means the world to me, thank you for sharing ❤


I was so into this whole video. u are a beautiful person with an amazing heart<3


Oh my god, this hit me so hard. I've suffered with depression for two years now...and this just gave me an entirely new perspective. No, I won't be cured in a day, but thank you for this video it truly truly made me happier. <br>Love you Dodie

Oh my god, this hit me so hard. I've suffered with depression for two years now...and this just gave me an entirely new perspective. No, I won't be cured in a day, but thank you for this video it truly truly made me happier.
Love you Dodie


I laughed and cryed so much in this video, is not even normal <3 I love you Dodie


I almost cried at the end, I had been feeling the same way lately and this is so relateable to my situation, your videos bring me joy and I aspire to be like you, so, thank you <3 luv ya


I'm glad you're starting to feel better, lovely. and I'm glad you bus is full ^_^

I love you lots and lot and lots

also the adventure time piano is so so so cute

I don't know what else to say. I'm so proud of how far you've come

also #chibby (you cutie)


I know when I'm feeling down, I can come and just watch this video because it is so beautiful Thank you dodie- you have helped soo much!<br>ily xxx

I know when I'm feeling down, I can come and just watch this video because it is so beautiful Thank you dodie- you have helped soo much!
ily xxx


so so glad that you're feeling better now and seeing colour (and loving cats)!

you're the lovliest :)


dodie i just want to let you know that this is one of my favorite videos you have ever posted. you are such a wonderful and inspiring person, and i am so grateful you take time to share your life with us on youtube. i'm so happy you are feeling better. xxxx


This is probably my favourite video. It gives me goosebumps every time and makes me look forward too growing up no matter how scary it may seem. Thank you Dodie xx


On another note, I've been going through much the same thing and have recently had to start going to a therapist for panic attacks and all that crap and she's just making me feel worse 😔

@Isobel Dixon keep going until you find someone who works for you <3


this is incredibly amazing i cried so much o my lord! you described depression so accurately and so beautifully i cant put it into words how much this video means to me, thank you doddie for being so crazy talented and lovely<3


I love the way you explain things in this video - especially the strangely accurate burger metaphor. I felt that really 'resonated' with me (whatever the hell that means). I'm so impressed you have the courage to open up like this and I only hope and pray things continue to turn around and you continue to see the positives and incredible joy in the world around you. :) xx Love from Australia


this is one of the most beautiful things i've seen in a long time...thanks, dodie :)


this was an incredible video. i've felt like this for so long but never been told it's depression or anything but thank you for your life


Oh Dodie this made me cry I love you so much and am glad to be on your bus xxx

@redalert BEA I TOLD YOU TO SLEEP ( I love you )


I loved this so much, I've been feeling this way recently and hopefully after next friday it will settle down a bit. You're not alone my wonderful pretty friend and soon (when I finish Uni) we should go out and chat and laugh and sing and do something wonderful and enjoy our adultness (metaphors n all).

PS. your bus will be a double decker in no time <3


You made me cry, Dodie. My life has been pretty down lately, and I can really relate to what you've said. You've helped me feel better, even if its just a tiny bit. I love you! ♥


This may be my favorite video of yours because it's so genuine. I love the burger metaphor. That's exactly how I've experienced to depression


This made me cry so much but I'm so so SO happy that your feeling hope and pure happiness Dodie. We all love you so much and I'll be on your bus ride forever <3


this is such a wonderful video, so honest and insightful. thanks dodie <3


This is literally exactly how I feel in life right how. With the bus metaphor and everything I just started crying because I can relate to you so much.


Ahh I love this, so incredible and emotional. I love you so much. I would give anything to ride your bus xx


Dodes, this is amazing and this isn't just coming from an empty heart. I found you just recently and it's amazing how you've affected my life :) You inspire me and when I saw you, I thought about how you've been the realest Youtuber so far- that your channel isn't all perfection and etc. That bus has one late passenger, but I'm riding anyway :)


The burger analogy is so accurate. Thank you for being honest and bringing this into discussion without shame. Love you.


You worded this all so perfectly! So many emotions 😝 x


This is like, the 3rd or 4th time I've watched this and it still just makes me feel fuzzy inside and happy and i just love seeing people doing things they've always wanted to and starting to feel better <3


Glad you're feeling colour again and I just wanted to let you know how beautiful you look in this video; the hair, the cardigan, the owl - so gorgeous :)


THIS WAS BEAUTIFUL DODIEEEE THANK YOU SO MUCH


I'm so happy that I got a ticket for your bus. Thank you so much for doing so many things in favor of others Dodie. I love you and your videos.


For some reason it felt so good when you talked about depression and that you actually started feeling again, and had some really good days. It gives me hope for my own future! Thank you dodie!!!! <br>I hope you are well! I love you!

For some reason it felt so good when you talked about depression and that you actually started feeling again, and had some really good days. It gives me hope for my own future! Thank you dodie!!!!
I hope you are well! I love you!


This is how I've been feeling after I started school this year. For most of my life I've always been afraid to show my true colors and really express myself. I hated school because I was so afraid of being judged. But last year at school was one of the best years of my life so far because I had so many friends that loved me for who I am and I felt like I could be myself. Now I am back to being afraid of people judging me. I'm not happy but I'm not sad. I'm just blah. It's hard to be happy when your always paranoid that someone is laughing about you behind your back or judging you. It's hard to be happy when your hiding who you really are.


oh my god dodie I genuinely cried at the end. And I'm not a big crier, I could probably count on my fingers the amount of times something like this has moved me to tears.

I'm so glad you're starting to feel better, and it can only go up from here. Thank you for introducing me to the bus metaphor- it made me realise that although I may be going over some bumpy roads at the moment I have a bus full of amazing and wonderful people to support me! <33

@avengingechelon oh lovely!!! Thank you so much <3 try and enjoy the bumps or some other metaphor that means good luck lol<br><33

@avengingechelon oh lovely!!! Thank you so much <3 try and enjoy the bumps or some other metaphor that means good luck lol
<33


this made me really vvvv emotional. I have a feeling i kinda understand how you feel and i really hope you will feel a lot better as soon as possible.

this was such a beautiful video and i cried my eyes out. i really love you dodie, you're great and please stay happy ♥


i absolutely love the way bry says ,"if you're going to break it, break it right"


I am incredibly happy for you! You are amazing, keep on rocking! I am honoured to have a seat on your bus!


I really admire the strength it must've took to both edit and upload this... I can relate to you so so much. So thank you, this video summed up a lot, and I'm so happy that you're feeling happy!  I'm kinda in awe of you and I really can't fathom the fact that my best friend and I are going to see you and Bri perform here in NZ in like only a months time! AHHHHH x


OKAY I'M GONNA SLEEP NOW BUT I HAVE TEARS DOWN MY EYES I LOVE YOU


I appreciate you so much, every video I watch I fall more in love with your brain. You won't see this, but hey it's the thought that counts (:


Hey Dodie! I'd just like to say thank you so much for this video, because I've been feeling especially shitty lately but watching this video has made me feel a bit better and a lot more hopeful :-)


I came back to this video having watched it 6 years ago . I remember crying and it bringing me so much comfort. Thanks Dodie 🥰


This is such an amazing video, it has inspired me to love myself and I am so relieved that I have stumbled upon it. You have no idea how much I relate to this video, and I am so grateful for it. Thank you for sharing this video, and thank you for talking about everything so beautifully and honestly, and thank you for sharing such an inspirational journey with  awesome metaphors, thank you doddlevloggle. This video means a lot.


this video made me laugh and cry and it was brilliant! I loved every moment of watching it, so thanks for being so honest


Wow, that last part had me in tears and I didn't even see them coming!
You're so brave for telling us this, and I love your metaphors... I just wish I was as brave as you to talk about something that I find quite personal and hard to talk about,
How did you bring up the courage?!
You're an amazing human being Dodie and your videos bring a smile to my face, thank you for being you! xx


I get you so well!! Thank you for sharing your thoughts, it makes me feel less alone. And you're incredibly brave for putting yourself out there so often and in such an immense way even though depression mostly makes you feel like hiding... I hope I can be as brave as you in two years when I turn 20 :) Cute Video!


I love you so much, wow. I relate to what you said so hard and it makes me really happy to know that you're starting to feel better. You're such a beautiful bundle of sunshine. <3


balling my eyes out.
Never have i ever had someone explain how i feel inside, honestly the most relatable video i've seen in a long time. Thank you Dodie! ♡
LOVE YOU


the burger analogy is so true it's the worst thing in the world ever and sometimes I can't even get to the point where the burger feels warm or looks good to me in any way but there are some days that break me out of it a little bit and your birthday was one of them it's one of the happiest times I've had in so long I don't think I've ever been surrounded by so many happy friendly people and getting to meet them and the fact that you seemed like you actually kinda were happy to see me idk man it was just the best time so thank you a lot a lot a lot for that sorry for the long comment idk it's almost 1am thank you sorry bye

@NotJustBlonde oh zAAANNNAAHHHHH I adore you so much! Thank you for keeping my sane on that crazy crazy day <3


That was lovely... I've lost quite a few friends and family as well recently, but your video really helped remind me of the importance of appreciation... You're spectacular; I hope your newfound happiness continues for a really long time <3


The end of this video made me cry so much. You don't deserve to be depressed when all you do is make people smile. You are the best person ever and I hope you don't always feel like poo. <br>Also, can all of us join the bus?

The end of this video made me cry so much. You don't deserve to be depressed when all you do is make people smile. You are the best person ever and I hope you don't always feel like poo.
Also, can all of us join the bus?


I feel like I dont have anyone on my bus at the moment and it's so crappy. This video made a lot of sense, thank you x


I'm so proud of you for sharing this! I am honored to be on your bus. As far as all of the feelings, me too. This is how I've been feeling for a long time.


cant stop watching this video. i really find it difficult to explain what's happening in my damn brain and the way this whole video just flows together gives me a sense of security (ik that sounds super weird bc it's just a video but yeah...)  thank you for everything dodie ^-^


Had no idea Dodie literally in tears, glad you had such a wonderful day!x


I've been so excited for this video since you first mentioned it and I definitely wasn't disappointed, this was so lovely and inspirational and awesome - love you lots 😊


DODIE!!!<br>This video is so amazing and centering and I'm just kinda sitting here paralyzed. Thank you so much for being so freaking honest. The best videos are just sitting and talking. And thank you for just talking to us and showing us a bit of who you are. Love you!

DODIE!!!
This video is so amazing and centering and I'm just kinda sitting here paralyzed. Thank you so much for being so freaking honest. The best videos are just sitting and talking. And thank you for just talking to us and showing us a bit of who you are. Love you!


i love you so much dodie, i feel the same way a lot of the time and this made me feel less alone about it, thank you for making this video.

I love your videos so much! I hope you feel better soon <3

I'm having the worst experience of empty bus right now so I rewatched this. I don't really know what to do anymore it has been like this for the longest time and I don't see myself feeling normal or even happy any time soon. I am just not capable of filling my own bus. NEW ANALOGY i feel like life is like trying the beanboozled challenge (BEAR WITH ME), you don't know whether you'll get the nice tasting bean or the gross tasting one and everyone around you tells you that its worth playing for the few good ones you might come across but your luck sucks and you have a chain of bad tasting ones and for you its better not to even play the game at all, its not worth it.


This was one of the most honest and incredible videos I have ever seen. I'm not going to pretend I know you well, but from what I have seen, I think you are truly wonderful human. Thank you for sharing this video with us, from the bottom of my heart I wish you the best.


So I'm now going to be late since I'm sitting on my bed in tears after this ❤ never forget how much we all love you and there are so many of us who understand the type of feelings you have gone through 💕✨


I wish I was on your bus :) you seem like such a lovely human. thank you for uploading this dodie x


Oh wow, crying a lot rn. <br>Thank you for letting me get on the bus, it's been the best journey I've ever been on :) love u x

Oh wow, crying a lot rn.
Thank you for letting me get on the bus, it's been the best journey I've ever been on :) love u x


Your Manchester gig was incredible Dodie! I had such a great time, you were so lovely and yeah, keep it up beautiful, you're seriously fantastic. xx


Dodie,<br>I really appreciate you posting this video. I was going through a period of not feeling much at all and it was rough. It helped to see someone express my feelings exactly in a way that I couldn't explain to myself. I'm happy to say that I'm starting to taste the burger again. Thank you so much.

Dodie,
I really appreciate you posting this video. I was going through a period of not feeling much at all and it was rough. It helped to see someone express my feelings exactly in a way that I couldn't explain to myself. I'm happy to say that I'm starting to taste the burger again. Thank you so much.


I feel like in the moment where dodie says, "what an awful metaphor" we see some of the most true dodie...


Dodie this was amazing. It's also something that you now have to keep, forever and look back on whenever you want or need! I really enjoyed watching the little journey you took us all on, and we are all here to support you whatever road your bus goes down next! HUGS! XX


I love this video so much. You put into words so many of my feelings. I was at the Dublin gig, sorry if we overwhelmed you. I didn't get to say hi but I completely understand why. I glad you are starting to feel better and I want to give you a really big hug.


Dodie, this was beautiful. Thank you for sharing how you actually feel instead of pretending to be okay. Depression is the worst feeling in the world, but you, I, and many other people, can get better. Because the world is amazing, and bright, and happy. It's full of adventures and wonderful friends- we just have to know where to look :) xx


Your videos have felt very different since you got back, in a great, weird, interesting way and I hope you are feeling better Dodie! So proud of you!


This is one of my favourite videos of yours dodie :) you are so amazingly brilliant! I'm actually crying😂. Anyone who is on your bus is extremely lucky :)


I reallyreallyreally need to go to bed so I can't watch this BUT I did read your little letter in the description and like honestly how dare you make me tear up like that? No but seriously, you're such a great human and I can't wait to watch this first thing tomorrow morning because you are greatgreatgreat

@doddleoddle HELLO update I just watched the video and honestly you're one of my favourite creators on this entire website and this video was GREAT, I'm so glad you're feeling a bit better!

@Margot Vandersmissen sleeeeeep indeed! thank you for reading the letter :D I hope you like it tomorrow!


Thankyou so much for sharing. It's nice to know you're not alone :) so beautiful to see you happy Dodie x


I cried and smiled from this video. Thank you dodie for all the videos you've given everyone of us. It's not easy to openly say things like this but when you did and became happier I felt happy too and just thank you so much dodie :)


The thing that got me through my teenage years, especially the later ones, was having an older friend who'd suffered much the same, but he'd come out on the other side okay and told me it would get better. And it did. And it still is. Things aren't perfect, but I'm 23 now, and rarely experience the deep dark depression I used to feel.

I feel it's important to get that message out there, that it does get better. It's probably one of the most helpful things you can believe, even if not always.

Stay strong, you'll make it through =)


I really really appreciate this video and your honesty and your somewhat awe inspiring look on life. Keep being you Dodie! Much love x


I am so in awe of how honest and real you are. Thank you so much dodie.


GIVES YOU A HUGE HUG
I know that feeling, I'm happy you're feeling better now :)

*GIVES YOU A HUGE HUG*
I know that feeling, I'm happy you're feeling better now :)


Oh dodie this made me cry 😢 I'm so so over the moon that you are happy, thank you for tour because it was one of the best nights and I hope to see you again really soon xxxx


oh dodie i have so so so much love and respect for you <3


I've never enjoyed watching a 20 minute youtube video so much. The editing, sharing little details such as the tattoo, but most of all the fact that everything you said here was so beautiful and the way you explained and shared the way you feel was htgrwefaibnjrsf. Keep doing what you do and stay strong, you clearly have many people who love you :)


this is honestly one of my favourite videos on the internet i love it so much


I honestly had no idea how much I needed this video in my life. It's my new favorite. I will always come back to it whenever I'm having "those days". It has such great messages and agh I love it so much. Thank you so so much Dodie. Xxx


It's nearly 5 am where I am and I'm just sat here on my bed crying my eyes out I'm so happy for you Dodie I'm not really sure what to say you just describe everything perfectly and your videos help me a lot thanks also I love you


Your videos make me so happy!! this is my favourite one yet! the burger metaphor was literally perfect aha I could relate so much. please carry on making videos like this you are a lovely human <3


This metaphor describes my entire life! Thank you for being so raw, first time I've properly related about this :) <3


I'm 25....and i feel so so old :( Btw i think this is one of my fav vids of yours simply because it feels very honest and true.


This vlog is so amazing and inspiring. I really love it. I admire your courage. Sometimes I get stage fright just by watching big crowds in youtube videos lol .... Hundreds of people gives me anxiety, what's wrong with me? lol .. . Poor uke btw. that was horrible!! I know I'm a musician.


this is now my favourite vlog of all time. of all youtube, really<br>love you dodie and have a great burger/bus :)

this is now my favourite vlog of all time. of all youtube, really
love you dodie and have a great burger/bus :)


Only just seeing this and I'm so proud of you! Remember all of us on on your bus and we're never getting off. You can't get rid of us that easy ;)


I appreciate you're ability to be vulnerable to help the community with an issue such as depression. It is difficult to articulate and so is misconstrued, people avoid discussing it as a result. But using your platform to raise awareness on personal issues is brave and so I just wanted to say, Thank you xx


This made me cry so much, I hope you're happy dodie and I wish you all the luck in life


It's so crazy watching this video back. I still relate to this so much and I think it really links to both depression and depersonalisation. This is exactly how I'm currently feeling about comic con, and I'm so scared because I want to enjoy it so much. This burger analogy explains my head very well, as do most of your analogies. I just wanna say, thank you for helping explain my own brain as well in addition to your own. You've helped me understand myself more, and become slightly more comfortable with what is actually possibly wrong with me. You've gr9 Dodie!


Is that a piano cover of BriBry's Adventure Time I'm hearing in the background...? Anywaaays loved this video and watched all of it. You're a fantastic person Dodie.


I think my heart just cried a little...the amount of things you said that I related to...I surprised myself. Thank you so much for making this, Dodie. From the bottom of my heart. Luf u <3


Holy shit this was incredible! This honestly was one of the best videos on YT I have ever seen (and I've seen a lot). How do you do it that you just stay genuine and yourself I love that. You are such an amazing person and a youtuber. You deserve it all and more and even though I've never even met you I feel so happy for you and "your bus full of lovely people" :)


Thank you so much for sharing that Dodie, such an honest and beautiful video. Congrats! (You are so awesome and no one hates you!)


As someone who feels their bus is empty after everyone I've sat with has gotten off, this is really refreshing and nice to hear, thank you so much!


Oh dodie this literally hits me so hard i've been having such a rough rough time and seeing people like you and how you get through things calms me down so so much. People like you are such great things in this world, you serve as a reminder that no matter what things will get atleast a little bit better. Thank you, thank you for being here


I have to get up for my exams in 5 hours, and I'm sat here crying my eyes out. I find it so hard to explain what's going on in my brain sometimes, and it scares me when people find those words and I relate to them. It makes everything seem so much more real.
I'm terrified I'm not going to find my ladder, because every time I think I'm getting better, it gets so much worse.
I'm just glad I have someone as brave and amazing as you to look up to

Just know that it will get better. Keep pushing through. Try not to think in 'nevers' - try to change it to an if or a when. If you feel lonely on your bus, know that there are a million and one other people who know how you feel. They might be strangers, but they could be that person on the bus who gives up their seat because you look tired and that you should sit down.
One of the best things about YouTube is that there is a huge community of people who you don't necessarily know, but are ready and willing to help you if ever you need it.
Stay strong. <3

@Emily Pickup It may not mean much, but I saw this and had to say, that I have not so long ago felt EXACTLY how you feel.
It seems endless, it's so tiring, and it is so dark. But things can change so quickly, and you can feel good again.
Find someone, anyone, anywhere that understands you, and talk to them. In life, on the internet, even if it's in your head for now! Talk it through with someone who gets it.
And good luck.

I've tried Dodie, I've spoken to friends, I've seen counselors, nothing helps and inevitably I end up feeling worse because of it.<br>Maybe I'm just one of those people destined to not be happy.

I've tried Dodie, I've spoken to friends, I've seen counselors, nothing helps and inevitably I end up feeling worse because of it.
Maybe I'm just one of those people destined to not be happy.

@Emily Pickup TRUST ME
you will find a ladder!!!! if it's been a while and you can't find it please oh please book an appointment, reach out to someone
my friends helped me back up, but don't you dare stop until you find someone else who can help you!

xxx


The burger-depression analogy IS SO GOOD. I'm going to start using it when people don't understand, thanks dodes


I've been there. It's a pretty dark hole. But it's always great when you grow some wings and fly up out of it!! :) I'll always be thinking of you and I'm so happy for everything you've achieved x


I know I'm late finding your videos but this video is amazing. So raw. Great cuts. Full of emotions.

Just love it.


god Dodie you're so awesome xD! Super proud of you talking to people when feeling down, you're doing life right :)

- lots of love from a random stranger who doesn't know you but admires you loads for some reason xx


I totally understand the burger analogy.<br>But I think that this goes for me as well as other people, but its like you spend the rest of your teenagehood trying to figure out which burger you want. You pick burgers after burgers and you keep sending them back because you don't like them. But the people around you suggest which burger that you should get and you try them out. All of your friends seem to be really happy with their burgers and your parents seem to order the same thing. You still don't know which one you want and once you finally figure out which burger you want, its time to leave the restaurant and they urge you to go to a, I don't know, Mexican restaurant. So you decide to take the burger out- to finish with other restaurants. And, yeah when you look back, you wish you kept the burgers. In the moment, the burger seemed really bland and gross but when you look back, it was the greatest burger you've ever tasted.

I totally understand the burger analogy.
But I think that this goes for me as well as other people, but its like you spend the rest of your teenagehood trying to figure out which burger you want. You pick burgers after burgers and you keep sending them back because you don't like them. But the people around you suggest which burger that you should get and you try them out. All of your friends seem to be really happy with their burgers and your parents seem to order the same thing. You still don't know which one you want and once you finally figure out which burger you want, its time to leave the restaurant and they urge you to go to a, I don't know, Mexican restaurant. So you decide to take the burger out- to finish with other restaurants. And, yeah when you look back, you wish you kept the burgers. In the moment, the burger seemed really bland and gross but when you look back, it was the greatest burger you've ever tasted.

@whoishahong oh yeah, and if that burger is the best burger you've ever tasted but then you realize it wasn't even a really good burger after all? that's what i'm most afraid of. you hear people saying teenage years and high school years are the best days of your life and i sit here thinking what if i'm wasting my time and it will all just get even worse from here and what if in 5 or 10 years i don't even have anything to look back on? ugh scary stuff

@whoishahong DAMMIT WE SHOULD HAVE SOMETHING LESS EXPENSIVE


SO PROUD OF YOU! :) I love you!! <3 xx Stay safe xx


This was 20 min?!?!?!? I didn't even notice - I enjoyed every second of it. So raw and heartfelt <3


Me and my friend are in this video😁💖, I loved yours and BriBry's 2015 tour, and I love your tattoo, love you both💖


oh dodie i'm crying! this last week, i've started feeling good again, for the first time in a number of months. it feels like the dial's been switched back up, i don't know how or why this happened, but im so glad that it has. i could really relate, thank you for this video xxx


i've watched this video like a dozen times and every time i watch it want to give dodie a hug and talk to her about life like we're just two friends who trust each other with our thoughts and feelings


I try not to define my emotions so much by using the words of others but that burger metaphor and pretty much everything you said in this video was hard hitting as hell. I really cannot stress enough how vastly I appreciate your vulnerability.


I enjoyed this so much, Dodie. You're such an exceptional person and when I watch anything you make I feel like a sponge soaking up all kinds of nutritious goodness.

AND DAT PRETTY LADY AT 15:00 MADE MY HEART GO BOOM BOOM.


Thank you for taking us along on your virtual bus ride - wherever it goes, I am glad to be on it with you!


So that video made me cry. Really well-spoken and candid and I can relate a lot. Thank you for sharing! I'm glad you had a great time on tour!


dodie you make me so happy :) my world feels so much more colorful every time you show up in it!


12:20 "I'd had lines for weeks"

Dodie for drug addict confirmed.

@doddleoddle Now I feel sorry for posting something silly when everybody else is writing deep feels. It's amazing how you're replying to everybody! You're very good for that.<br>Tell you what, 3 or 4 years ago, I felt pretty bad without showing much of it. I would be sad alone, and come back the next day without seeming any different. Last year or so, things have picked up so much. The people I'm around are much more supportive than they used to be, and negativity I do feel just isn't as bad. My ladder was a rather slow one, but thankfully I'm fine for now.

@doddleoddle Now I feel sorry for posting something silly when everybody else is writing deep feels. It's amazing how you're replying to everybody! You're very good for that.
Tell you what, 3 or 4 years ago, I felt pretty bad without showing much of it. I would be sad alone, and come back the next day without seeming any different. Last year or so, things have picked up so much. The people I'm around are much more supportive than they used to be, and negativity I do feel just isn't as bad. My ladder was a rather slow one, but thankfully I'm fine for now.


This is definitely one of my all time favourite dodie videos


!8:31 YESSSS thank you that made my day, it sums up what a large part of youtube has become!! Love you Dodie!!


I just really love steven okay like he is always so positive and happy in dodie's vlogs omG


watching this again <3 STOP MAKING ME CRY DODIE! xx


I love this video, but I also really love your letter in the description! It does get better and the world is nice!


I love this video , I love that you found some happiness because you deserve that and so much more. So cheesy sorry but I love you x


aw it makes me so happy that you were able to finish the tour feeling genuinely happy. awk I feel like your mother even though I'm like 6 years younger than you aaghh


I watched this video at exactly the right time, I can see a bit more hope now than before. thank you for giving me a little push towards it xox


OMG I'm actually in tears right now, you have such a good way of putting words. My life goal is to one day collab with you, no joke. I love you so much Dodie!!!

And ps:
I would buy a million tickets just to be on that bus☺❤


This video spoke a lot to me, thank you for making it, Dodie.


This made me tear up a little, because maybe now I understand myself and my feelings a little better... Anyways, a beautiful video, enjoyed it very much!


I'm so flippin proud of you for uploading this! ^-^


It's the second time I watch this and I love it, one of your best videos. :)


This explained things that have been happening in my head... Thank you


This is just beautiful! Absolutely beautiful.


5 months later. Hope that happy feeling is still popping in, and staying for a while.


you have such a wonderful way with words Dodie! I'm sorry you've felt like this, I have depression too and it is the worst thing ever but I'm glad we're both starting to see in colour now. This video gives me hope, really appreciate hearing your beautiful voice and the kind words you share <3


I was all happy and smiley and thought this was super cute and kinda sad and then you got to the end it just...struck a chord in me and now I'm crying.


I'm in tears. This video was amazing. I think it may be one of my favourite videos you have ever put up.everyone I watch you, I get really empathetic and its kind of amazing. When you talked about the call from Bri about your ukulele I got anxious and worried and when I saw it i genuinely felt down and sad because it's everywhere on your channel. When you went to the up and go event and out with friends I felt genuinely happy and excited. Your videos are amazing. Stay strong and keep up the amazing work.


Beautifully thoughtful video! <br>Not enough videos like this around!

Beautifully thoughtful video!
Not enough videos like this around!


This explains so greatly how depression is like and I think it would be a great message for people who don't take mental health seriously enough..

 I wish you the best and we'll be on the bus if you're looking for us ♥ ♥


I watch this video a lot when I feel like I'm about to cry because it makes me feel better


This Is Just Amazing. I Love You So Much. I Struggle With Depression And A Load Of Other Things. You Give Me Hope. I Love You.


This was so ridiculously beautiful and heart-warming because it just felt so real. You're amazing, and I'm sorry you've had to go through all the shit that you've felt for the last few years. I'm sorry for everyone who has. Hell, everyone goes through shit, and there's no way around it, it's shit. So so glad you feel more optimistic now. I can't imagine how hard it must be to go through all this but also have so many people who love you but also rely on you. It must be tough being so amazing to all of us, but then being stuck with feeling shitty the moment you end the video. I just want you to know that we all love you, and I think you're amazing for being so open with us. It will help so many people. And if there's one thing I've learned in my 19 years hanging around this planet, is that there's nothing better than helping others. For them and for you. So much love sent your way :) xxx

@doddleoddle you're so very welcome :) <3


just thought i would let you know that you look incredibly lovely dodie x


I just went through so many emotions in such a short space of time gaaahhhh. Thank you for being so honest. You are wonderful and although I could feel your pain whilst watching that, I'm so glad that you're beginning to find your way back out of the hole. I think I am too, slowly, after 7 or so years. It's so refreshing. Keep going, fill that bus, and if anyone else gets off, remember that just leaves space for someone else to get on at the next stop xxx


It's sad, but the only people I've found who can really understand depression are people who've had depression themselves :( This was a great video, Dodie xx


ur metaphors are on point

but seriously this was wonderful, i'm so glad things are looking up for you


#chibby same

but dodie, I want you to know you mean the world to me. my life has been so very grey for so very long, but you really have added little dabs and tiny brushstrokes of colour to my grey empty canvas, and I hope that one day those little seemingly insignificant brushstrokes will build up, creating a vivid, colourful masterpiece.

see you soon, I hope to get off my empty bus and join you on your bus, that is, if I can find a space to sit down.


This video is so beautiful, I'm crying💖💖


Thank you for uploading this. Like you said, depression isn't a quick fix, but your bus is never empty, you'll always have support <3


That was a lovely video; can I say that when it deals with depression ? I think I should as you share the emotional battle of depression in a remarkably honest manner and you are amazing for doing so :)


Thank you for this video. It gave me... hope, I guess it's what it is. Thank you so much for that!


I had never seen a video that had made me feel like I was so connected to someone until I watched this. I honestly felt like I've known you for years. Your ups and downs and everything in between. You are an absolutely amazing and inspiring woman. Might I mention that I play the uke because of you?! You are beautiful, intelligent, kind, and talented. I know a few words from someone you've never met won't make depression go away, but I have hope it will help you feel better. Keep on doing amazing things Dodie! I hope that one day I'll be able to meet you and give you the biggest hug that I've ever given anyone, not only because I'll be over the moon excited to see you, but also as a thank you, for being there for me, even though you don't know me. Love ya!! <3

Omg I just found this comment again and it actually made me tear up. Little did I know I'd actually meet you a month after I posted that, and give you a huge hug and tell you how much you mean to me, and even get your signature and a few pictures. Thank you Dodie for being such a gem of a human being ❤


This made me cry Dodie.<br>Next time you feel alone remember that i'm in your bus xx

This made me cry Dodie.
Next time you feel alone remember that i'm in your bus xx


This was such a real and emotional video but in the most comforting way. I can relate to a lot of the things you said and to hear that you're starting to feel better gives me hope too xxx<br>p.s. where can I buy a ticket for your bus?

This was such a real and emotional video but in the most comforting way. I can relate to a lot of the things you said and to hear that you're starting to feel better gives me hope too xxx
p.s. where can I buy a ticket for your bus?


I get what you're saying, Dodie - I've done that plenty of times, when your brain just doesn't wanna connect with your emotions


I think your really great, inspirational, pretty, funny and cute and well you deserve better than what you have to deal with xx


stayed up for this even though I've got exams, I'm dedicated... hahaha


I am glad you found a bright day in the darkness of depression.  I struggled with severe depression and understand the hopelessness it can force upon you, the rollercoaster ride of bleak and bright. Here is to many more days of color!

Also, I love the green hair your friend has.


Dodie this is probably my favorite video youve ever made:)


Wow can relate so much to this. I love you Dodie!


I'm so glad and happy for you that you're starting to feel better and I would really like to sit on your bus (n_n) take care!!


Genuinely cried there reading your letter in the description box. This video is amazing and I feel you, depression is really aweful and difficult. :( I've been so down lately that even my body started reacting strangely, my period stopped and I'm crying and having panic attacks all the time... Even though supposedly everything is fine. I'm 20, I study music, I'm co-directing and starring in an amazing musical, I'm going to Canada next year.. But I just can't seem to have my brain working. :( Thanks for this video <3


I don't know what to say other than I love you so much Dodie.<3


Depression just kills me inside. I don't suffer from it but I was once very close to someone who was and I have a great understanding and empathy towards it and seeing you and this and the way you described it only enhanced my understanding and it kills me that people have to go through feeling that. The idea of it being inescapable and that someone is trapped without being able to do anything, just twists my insides and my heart. It hurts me to see someone go through this, I sincerely hope that the colour stays in your life, Dodie, I really do...

@doddleoddle You have nothing to be sorry to me about, Dodie. Hang in there and stay strong! :)

@scottissuperawesome I'm holding on to it! Thank you so much and I'm sorry <3


Dodie I love your videos so much! I also struggle with depression. I few years ago, I was the worst I have ever been. This video is such an amazing explanation of what that time in my life felt like. And even that bit at the end about the color coming back and looking at the pictures with happiness really hits me. There are still moments when I feel the depression kicking in but honestly it has made me so much more grateful for everything. I think of it as an unfortunate blessing because even though it was so hard and I didn't think I'd make it through the darkness, I have learned to live every day like it's the last. I know that's super cheesy and cliche. It's just when you cone so close to no longer being here...it makes every day a bit more spectacular. Thank you for being you and for being so inspirational and wonderful. <3 I really appreciate that you shared this with all of us :)


Oh dodie, you're absolutely gorgeous, your videos have been touching me right in the tingles lately and I feel like we're similar, it's nice to see other people my age feeling like I do, I'm turning 20 in April this year, and I just wanted to tell you how much you inspire me <3 lots of love, Bonnie :)


I've never had depression and every day I appreciate that. However even for someone who has never experienced that kind of feeling over such a stretch of time I found that this still struck a chord with me. Perhaps its because I have seen people go through depression and overcome it, and I think that that is one of the most inspiring and beautiful things to witness. To see a persons strength and drive to overcome something like depression is truly humbling, so Dodie your video both humbled me and brought me to tears.


This was the best 22. minuets and 19 seconds of my life.


Actually probably one of the BEST youtube videos I have EVER seen :) I hope one day I get the pleasure of meeting you, you adorable, wonderful person, you!!!


i'm in tears like literally, i always feel like i can't enjoy the moment or i can't be happy, you resumed my life in the 2 last minutes of your video. I'd like to buy a ticket to get on your bus forever, to support you no matter what because you make me feel happy and i can't thank you enough. Love you so much and thank you


I have severe anxiety, I can hardly leave my house. I look back on last Summer so fondly because I was so happy, but all of my friends have gone to uni or gone travelling and I feel so lonely on my bus. I hope you feel better soon, I hope I do too. This video was wonderful x


goosebumps and tears. i love you so much dodie💘


Ur channel is one of the best things ever. It's so amazing.


Videos like this are why YouTube should exist. Thank you for sharing this with us!


This video is beautiful in every way, just like you <3 <3


I love that you can talk about your depression so openly. I have depression and I try and use my music to help me and I love your original songs and covers. Also your channel is awesome! :P


I'm actually crying. I've felt this way for so long, years, and it just doesn't seem to be getting any better. Thank you for the smidgen of hope. I'll be back here daily.


You are one of my favourite youtubers 💕 btw I was at the Dublin show in the front row and I saw myself in the vlog also it was so lovely meeting you


This has to be one of the best, most honest and understated videos. That was just beautiful and so happy that you're happy now. Sending you hugs xx


This made me feel, and cry, and I haven't felt anything or cried in what, 3 years? and this made me feel so.. hopeful. thank you. so much.


That was so honest... Ty. We love you Dodie <3


First of all, Dodie I really love you. Honestly one of my favourite youtubers ever!

Second, I love the font in the thumbnail. Does anyone know what it is? I want to make my hand writing like it.
Thanks :)


i have severe anxiety. i live my life in constant fear and forever looking over my shoulder. i avoid anything that makes me feel worried and seeing you social and really talkative to people, i envy you so much. i know there isn't anything you can do to help me or give me advice but i would like to ask you if you could, in anyway, advice me to be social despite of my social and general anxiety


i cried multiple times and am still crying. thank you for being you.


17:51 excuuse me, who is that handsome tanned guy?! ;D

Thanks Dodie for being so honest. It's brave and I love what you wrote in the description. You are gonna be making others feel less alone.


I just love you Dodie. You are simply amazing.


Ollie, Sam&Luke have a special place in my heart❤😊


Any one else thinking about "the incident" when she jumped down from the hotel bunk bed?
1:03

this video was posted before she fell off the bed :)

+Anamika Mahesj recently she sprained her ankle jumping down from her loft bed, she passed out from the pain and when she got to the hospital they didn't even give her a splint to put it in or crutches


That funny random day is something you and bribry helped create for us, if I didnt go to that gig by myself then I wouldn't of met up with my mad friends and had the funniest train station moments and seen the bright colours around me.  <3 thank you! X


This is one of my favourite videos of all time, it takes so much courage to speak about your feelings to people, especially when it's thousands of people. I'm so happy for you, that you're starting to see how full your bus is and starting to see all the colours around you. Your metaphors and explanations hit home and it made me feel a lot better. Thank you for being so honest, and thank you for being you. xx


Thanks dodie for talking about things that no one else seems to, it makes me feel a little less crazy to know I'm not the only one


@LaurenAquilinaMusic ah lauren words will never describe how much i lUV u
thank YOU for being just the bestest
<3

i actually can't even deal with how unintentionally amazing this video it is. maybe its more unique to me because i've been in that exact tour world and stuff which is quite a weird thing to do anyway, but like i just related to everything you said like i've never related to anyone talking about this before? and also maybe i should just be texting you this or something but i feel like the world should know just HOW GR8 I THINK YOU R DODIE omg its like 2.23am wtf is going on ily goodnight xxx


oh dodie. how i cry at this video. you are so amazing <3


3rd time I've watched this ❤ I cry every time!!!


All the metaphors in this hit home for me. I really hope you feel great as soon as possible. I hope you get as happy as you make people. I love you and so do lots more of us.


Just had a little sob. Dodie, you are one beautiful person. Thank you.


oh my lorddd dodie noo u sweet little fluffy donut


I literally love you.  You inspire me a looooot.  I feel my bus is empty, but there is one person that still has there ticket.  But that person has just got on.  I hope he will stay on for the rest of my miserable life.  You help me get over with whatever is truly wrong with me.  I am depressed.  I don't want to live anymore.  Im sick and tired of being ran over and treated like a maid or servant.  I want to leave this world and just float where the wind takes me.  But you Doddleoddle make me (:


gosh thank you so so much. years in the past and your videos still make me cry. please never stop doing this, your videos really help me to figure out my depression and all that comes with it. I love you and wish you the best x


this vid is so sweet and I love this omg I love you dodie


Dear doddle,
I sometimes feel just like you!
And I'm genuinely afraid that depression will beat me.
Whenever I go through these episodes, I think of committing suicide, and I'm scared that one day I will. But this video gave me hope to defeat this shit, so thank you soooooo much for making it.
ily <3


Dodie. Keep moving through the dark ally way. I promise you, you will get through it. <3 I cried multiple times while watching this . xx Keep Strong!


wow dodie this was beautiful YOU are beautiful!!! I hope you can always look back at this and feel this same happiness that somehow shines through all the darkness of yesterday.. so much love for you <333


'my brain hasn't been working for the past year or two' this explains it perfectly, everytime you try to fix it and be happy, you can't because you brain doesn't allow you to, it just doesn't work and it's so frustrating because you can't understand why<br>thank you for this video dodie, it felt like a warm hug which i very much needed <3

'my brain hasn't been working for the past year or two' this explains it perfectly, everytime you try to fix it and be happy, you can't because you brain doesn't allow you to, it just doesn't work and it's so frustrating because you can't understand why
thank you for this video dodie, it felt like a warm hug which i very much needed <3


I am not crying. Not crying. Not at all. Gosh.. I love you Dodie. I really do.

Dobby, you are all over dodie's channel :))


Dodie this video literally made my day, I love you and your videos and you just make me feel, well I can't explain how you make me feel but it feels so amazing, you just have something about you that makes me feel happy and uplifted x your beautiful, have a gorgeous voice and have the cutest personality. Don't worry about the people who have "left your bus" you have amazing friends who will be there for you any time and you have amazing fans! I'm pretty sure it is illegal to be as amazing as you are, but somehow you get away with it, just remember you're Dodie and there is no way anyone could possibly not love you <3 I know this probably makes no sense but I really can't explain it! love you loads Dodie, -Audrey


Wow. This just makes it so clear. I've never suffered with depression and I know that because of that I won't understand it properly. I find not being able to understand so difficult because all I want to be able to do is help. You, Dodie, are the first person I've seen who has explained depression in a way that makes people who haven't suffered from it feel as though they aren't so far away from supporting those who are suffering. Thank you for helping us to understand more.


I really wish were friends. I feel like we relate on so many levels and it's a shame that we'll probably never get the chance to become friends because if we did I think we'd become great friends.


Dodie, I just want you to know that you made a girl in Brasil happier :)


can you make a video about friendship? and brain not workingness? and making friends? Please ;-;


This video is so beautiful, honest, and just everything. I understand how you feel so bad, and I just want to say thank you. Thank you Dodie for talking about this I appreciate it so much. I've quite a lot going on at the moment and my mood goes up and down all the time. And yes ''this should be fun, right?'' yes, for other people maybe, but I'm not enjoying it and I don't know why. I try to enjoy things and sometimes it works out, sometimes it doesn't. But, Dodie, I appreciate your honesty, I've always done. You always make me feel better, so thank you. I'm glad you see positive things again, I slowly start seeing them as well and I hope everyone slowly does, I really do. We all deserve to live. <3


Thank you so much for saying this, it's nice to know I'm not alone with these feelings. You will get to that place of happiness and genuineness. I promise, because you are just that awesome. I don't pretend to know you but you drive for emotions. You try to live to the fullest. You have no idea how much ur videos help me. Thank you


Thank you I needed this video so much right now
Keep strong and I will try to do the same
btws I love u


I know you probably won't read this this but I just want to say~

I love you so much.  Since I started watching your videos, I've felt so much better.  Your videos have helped me (and many others) to feel happier and less alone. Thank you.  I hope that you feel better very soon, as you deserve to be the happiest you can.  We all love you so much, please never forget that.


Yay congrats on 300,000 subscribers on this channel xx


Oh Dodie, you made me cry but im so flippin happy for you. ily and all your content so much and youre just so amazing. <33


Dodie you're an absolute Darling and i'm so proud of you xxxx


I didn't know a bus could make me cry so much.


Wow, this video will mean more to people than you might ever know. Keep thinking colorfully dodie <3


that lovely day you talk about, i can see that that day must be special. It looked lovely, i hope you have more days like that one, i hope everyone does. That day would have been my favorite day too. Stay happy dodie xx


dodie,i love you so much. This video is so good and i just have no words for this comment,i'm speechless <3


I genuinely finished watching this about twenty minutes ago and I didn't cry and I've been reading the comments and OH GOD NOW IM SOBBING


I missed you in Dublin!!!!!! Sorry!!!! I am crying literally😭


Thank you Dodie, you absolute sweetheart you


That ending really friggen got me cause I'm currently floating in that grey, blank, empty bus, but someday it will be full again, just like yours


i'm watching this two years later and it still makes me cry


dodie I'm so glad I found your channel!!


Jesus that Facebook messenger sound freaked me out I thought someone was hiding in my room

+raisinthief i replayed the part a solid 3 times to see if it was the video.. i was spooked xD


thank you dodie. this resonates with me right now


totally amazing, down to earth true video, one of very few i have seen from youtubers. I hope your life stays full now for long. i chose to say life instead of bus ;) xx


This is your best video ever made and the end bit made me cry. It's so nice to finally find someone who understands and has the same things going on inside their head


Let's ignore the fact that i've cried for a thousand years <br>Your hair looks so good in this video wow, all fluffy<3

Let's ignore the fact that i've cried for a thousand years
Your hair looks so good in this video wow, all fluffy<3


the burger thing reminds me of that spongebob episode


i almost teared up when i saw your ukulele that must have been heartbreaking


DODIE YOU'LL ALWAYS HAVE A SPOT ON MY BUS


Wow. That's all I can say really just.....wow. You are such an inspiration Dodie (cheesy yes I know) but it's true. I'm so glad that you had a good time on tour and that you are feeling better. Thank-you so much for your honesty and then positivity. And you're very right, mental disorders do suck! All I can say is that I am so happy for you and I'm so glad I am on your bus xox


THIS IS ADORABLE AND CUTE AND SAD ALL AT ONCE OH MY GOD


crying everywhere. favourite video ever you're such a wonderful person dodie and you deserve so much x


This was so beautiful, your description was such a gentle yet highly accurate approach to these darker feelings. This really struck a chord with me as I've followed your channel for three years now (Jesus Christ that's a while) and I am so happy you are starting to feel the warm bubbly feeling inside once more because honestly I know how feeling that after such a long time of feeling grey is so wonderful. <3


this video just made my life. thank you for being an amazing person and youtuber. we all love you dodie<3<3<3<3<3<3


what the fUCK IS THE SONG AT 5:55 (And yes I know I'm a peace of shit for commenting that on a video so serious)

If you were still wondering I believe it's CARE by Bry :)


i've been binge watching all your videos, and it's been a bit of a rough time for me. it's a kind of sadness, but i don't quite think it's depression. i've seen descriptions of what it is for other people, and one of the ones that struck out to me, was "It's as if the world is so grey that you can't breathe."

but that's not what it is for me. for me, it's like i'm colorblind. and sometimes i have those glasses that fix it, but other time's i'll sit and stare at a door just wanting to think about something, but my mind is blank. or i'll stare at my lights until they start to blur because i want to see that not all change is bad.

but i don't know if it's depression or just my head.


Dodie we all love you and really hope you do continue seeing the colour...I mean there's a whole freaking rainbow of colours out there, and that's only the spectrum that we can see! I hope that life throws up rainbows on you and that you're like covered in that happy multicoloured slime. Like go swim in that slime Dodie. What an awful metaphor, Eh? @doddleoddle @doddlevloggle <br>


nice video, but one complaint. why no Shakira?

I think it's an inside joke but I'm not 100% sure. She's always been asked to sing shakira. 😄


This is the most relatable video i have ever seen. Literally everything you said at the end is how i feel. I'd like to buy a ticket to be on your bus pls


It makes me so incredibly happy that 3 of my favourite youtubers are now doing monthly  Vlogs! :D I really admire how you were able to talk about what you're going through. I mean, a lot of people with depression find it hard to talk to even their best friend, and you just opened up to thousands of people. Also this vlog  was just really well edited and really thought provoking and just incredible! Well done! :) <3


The other day there was a talent show and me and my friend had too perform in front of the class and the class is all like people i know and everyone in my class is really nice and everything but for some reason I nearly fainted! I swear XD And like i could feel my legs "disappearing" and the adrenaline in my body just stoped honestly


this video genuinely made me happy<br>thank you

this video genuinely made me happy
thank you


Definitely should be studying, but instead I watched all of this and this video is amazing and the last bit made me tear up a bit <3 Dodie you are lovely, and loved :)


Dodie, I have enjoyed quite a few of your music videos and some of your other stuff, but this was... simply amazing! I haven't been so moved by a YT video in a long time. You are an amazing person and expanding your thoughts here for 20+ minutes, using simple but very effective metaphors... Brilliant! Hang in there, girl! You're doing great!


I want to give this video a million likes!
So brave to share things like this so openly, even if it has taken a couple of years to figure stuff out,  you're at the point where you can share and that is the biggest stepping stone for anyone in this hole!
😘😘😘😘much love Dodie!


i love dodie so much, this video was great ahh!


I know this is old and I'm late but posts and texts about deppresion don't actually help me but i cried reading yours dodie. Thank you so much for putting words in such a strong order.


I feel you. I wish I could have shared that day with you. Have a great beautiful wonderful life.


I have been watching your videos for the last 3 years now and although I have never met you I feel that you have been a part of my life. I remember the first video of yours that I watched was your "Your Song" cover. I honestly watched that video at least 15 times! I have always looked up to you and respect just how real you are willing to be on your channel. I know there is still a lot of stuff you do not share but I appreciate just how public you have been with your music and your life. I personally do not know what it is like to have depression but my 2 closest friends have it and I am so glad that things are getting better for you <3 I think you are the most adorable and wonderful person on youtube and I hope the best for you. I hope to one day meet you but for now have a wonderful life :)

-Frank


It's currently 7:23 am and I haven't gone to sleep at all, because I've of been binge watching your videos. I don't regret a single thing :) also this video has to be my favourite on the internet, it brings memories from I went to those venues


I'm currently travelling New Zealand with a friend and I'm having a really hard time enjoying this trip because I'm just g r e y  and oh my god it felt s o good to watch this video because now I know that I'm not alone in this, thank u dodie-from-the-past u give me hope


I really needed to hear this right now, thankyou x


Dodie I love this. I've been feeling the same the last few years, and I'm lucky enough to feel like my bus is filling up too! Life goes up and down soo much, so to people who are on an up- that's amazing, be in love with that, and don't be afraid of going down again, it happens but you will he okay and you will get back up. And people who feel like your bus is empty and that things are grey- you are strong and amazing and you never know what/who is ahead, you will get through it!


I'm watching this again because I need it, you described my last 8 months perfectly, I've been a mess and I get angry at myself for it because my life is amazing and everything is fine, but my brain keeps telling me that's not. A few days ago I started to see hope in things and have really amazing days with friends, and I hope that those feelings came to stay. I'm here with you Dodie, thanks for reminding me that I'm not alone <3


im half way through my geography assessment and now i just have random tear stains on my page from watching this. we are all here <3333333 love love love


Dodie, you are the sweetest thing, if I ever meet you I will hug you so much (if that's okay of course).. and I can deffo relate to what you're saying!! xx


No thank you Dodie it's officially the BEST bus 🌸❤


It's so good for you to share this story, it has such potential to help others. Well Done Dodie, you absolute star x


The metaphor about the bus made me cry. Literally,I've felt like that quite often and I know how bad it is.


Thank you for uploading this. I feel less alone.