Dodie, this video was absolutely brilliant. Seriously it's rare to find someone with such a perfect way of describing mental health issues and everything there just struck a chord with me and how I've been the last few months. Seriously proud of you girl and it's lovely to see you slow making your way out of it. There's nothing like it when you start to taste the burger again ;) <br>I wish you all the luck and love I can offer xx

Dodie, this video was absolutely brilliant. Seriously it's rare to find someone with such a perfect way of describing mental health issues and everything there just struck a chord with me and how I've been the last few months. Seriously proud of you girl and it's lovely to see you slow making your way out of it. There's nothing like it when you start to taste the burger again ;)
I wish you all the luck and love I can offer xx


I know that feeling of nerves in your belly. It's a swirly twirly terror of a tornado in your stomach xD not a fun time!


thank you for letting me ride your bus and thanks for riding mine :)


I know you put this out a couple of months ago but I haven't watch it till now, sorryyyy. But thank you, the metaphor you said about the burger, is so completely right. I have felt like complete shit for a couple of years now and it will be an amazing day and it's so great but it just feels so bleak, all grey and crappy and I don't know and I've never understood it I've just thought, "well I'm a weirdo why don't you feel so bloody pumped in this moment". I don't want to claim I have something without diagnosis from a professional but I have felt depressed for the last few years of my life and i haven't particularly told anyone. Well I did, I told my mum this one evening when I was a bit upset but she totally disregarded it and nothing more has happened since. I want to go sort out what's wrong with me and seek proper help but I haven't the guts, I thought by telling my mum she might do something so I could go to the doctors and talk things over to find out what's really wrong with me.

@Lola Lovely You truly are lovely, thank you

+The FaultInOur_Wifi_  It's so sad that you had to defend yourself in this comment bc you're not diagnosed, that you have to fear people won't believe you. But you don't have to defend your feelings as if they aren't real when they aren't written on a paper by some doctor. Just wanted to tell you you are not alone and that you are worth it. Stay strong x


I have felt nothing for... Well, for a while now. I have temporary bursts of happiness, but mostly I feel as if someone has turned off the lights in a big room, and taken the light switch away. It's horrible. But I'm trying to find my own sources of light. Thank you for giving me my temporary bursts of Happiness these past few weeks, I'm waiting for the day I get my true happiness <3


you are literally the only person that helps me with pretty much everything, and i thank you for that. i love you lots dodie.


as a dubliner id like to say that our crowd attitude is loud asf lol good luck at The Button Factory in October (sad i didnt get tickets 😧)


If this video was just a big metaphor, it would be a fucking brilliant metaphor that shows people what life is like. I'm so happy you made this. Too many more bus journeys to come, stay yourself because that's the best you can be :) ( that was cringey soz )


Omg i LOVE LOVE YOUR CHANNELS  so much u are like my favorite  you tuber ever!!!!!!!!!!!!! UR SONG paint is dah bom. And i just sub today and how do u send letters. THXS SO MUCH FOR BEING A YOUTUBER UR AMAZING


I can totally relate to the burger metaphor... Cause there are like days that are special and great and are supposed to be the best days of my life but I don't enjoy them even if I really try and I really want to but  I just don't. But then there are days in which nothing extraordinary happens, it's all the same with the same people and well.. A day like every other, but most of the time days like that end up being like the best days of my life. I don't know why because when I look back to all the joy and fun I had on those days I keep wondering "why was did day so great because.. Nothing extraordinary or special happened?" It's not that I'm complaining but I'm saying that you can find joy in every single day. When you wake up maybe you will have no idea that at the end of that same day you will find yourself smiling and not wanting it to end. I don't even know where I want to get by saying all this soo.. But hey maybe tomorrow could be the best day of ur life who knows


wow i'm just sat here crying now because for the past year or so my bus has been empty. I'm trying to see my life in a better light but its hard when you feel nothing. Maybe i should talk to someone.


i'm in tears right now but okay I know you wont see this because well this is just about 7 months late,., anyways a friend told me about your channel a few weeks ago and I only just started watching you yesterday morning ive been watching so many of your videos (honestly too many I need to chill its been 6 hours) and you seem like such an AMAZING person and you're just wonderful from the way you carry yourself to the way you treat other people, your music is incredible and yeah okay I'm notorious for not being able "to English" and I just kind of suck at wording things in general basically thank you for being dodie and for being a role model to so many people :')


I think all the colour analogies you make are really accurate. Like I've been struggling with depression for about 5 years now, and more recently I'm at a point where everything is just grey. Like from the age of about 15 to like 18 things were like black. And now things are grey. Like I'm not crying all the time or suicidal like I used to be, but I just feel really grey. Like I'm just existing not living. I just really want some bloody colour. Like, don't get me wrong, sometimes I do have colour. Sometime's I'll go like months and everything will be really colourful. But at the moment it's just really grey


I love you and your videos so much ugh I want to be your friend so bad and you were so so lovely when I met you in Birmingham and argh what is this madness


depression suckssss, for me it's like being happy for a while, then suddenly being sad and not really understanding why i'm sad or how to be happy again. but beep beep, can I get on your bus. let's be friends.


Please never forget that your bus will never BE empty, you have lots of people in your life that love you and would do anything to make you feel better, you are loved :)


My brain doesn't work too- but I hope one day it will :)


Omg what was the ice cream you were eating, THAT. LOOKS. AMAZING!


growing up goals = breaking into parks and giant bouncy castles :)


This was really inspiring, my bus is constantly stopping to let people on and off all the time. There's not many people that have stayed since they first got on, even if some of those who joined me are still there now, there has probably been periods where they got off. And that's sad because it's easy for them to just get off. I have been battling depression tonnes, and I find that the people on the bus don't really understand the route my bus has taken. Ugh life


Dodie you seem to be a really positive person and I'm sad that you have to go through this alone and that you couldn't enjoy all the experiencies you lived. I literally cried when I saw the ukelele destroyed, I can imagine how much it mean to you. You are so inspiring, you are the one that encouraged me to start my channel and to follow my passion when everyone said to me that I shouldn't do it. I hope that you feel better know and that the bus is full of loving people. Remember that nobody has to go through difficult times alone. I love you so so much!


This video is so touching...I dont know why.


I'll always be on ur bus Doddie I promise 😘


Hey, you probably wont see this now since this is kind of an old video, but thank you so much for sharing this. I have been feeling so bad and the people around me either dont understand it or are too wrapped up in their own lives to see how awful i'm doing. This video however made me feel better about it like, even though i might feel like crap, i'm not the only one. Also like the fact that you, an amazing person as far as im concerned, have felt this way, makes me feel slightly less crappy? Like i wish you didnt have to deal with it at all, but it does make me feel better :/. So thanks for sharing this :)


Dodie I don't know if you will see this or not but even if you don't this couldn't have helped more I stumbled across this at the right time at uni and I get stressed and panic and really struggle at times today major deadline day and just don't cope very well and I guess I do have good days and bad day but it is videos like this that I'm not on my own that really help get through the rough


Dodie we are all on your bus. You will need a forklift to get me off your bus. I seriously love you because it sometimes felt like you were on the only person on my bus but now I have a full bus and I have to give you credit for it. Metaphors so many metaphors. Is it bad to say this feels like The Fault In Our Stars xxxxx


do you say hello to people at every show? im most likely coming to see you guys at sydney in June and im really excited but im not sure what to expect.


I want to get on your bus but unfortunately I'm too far away and even online I'm always so awkward and at a lost for words 😬 This video taught me a lot and YOU've taught me a lot so thank you for inspiring me to keep on playing the uke (I play guitar and piano like you too hehe) I love you and wish you all the best in the future. You're a young adult now, you've got so much time to experience more, yet you're at the age where you already know a lot and you can do anything you want, so go for it. Wishing you all the happiness in the world xx <3 :)


If you feel anxious lye on the floor it will help your blood flow and calm you down


Depression is shit :( so is anxiety and OCD :( I wish I could just switch brains with someone


I hope you realise your bus was never empty, everyone was just upstairs waiting for you :)


When I first saw this, I had no idea what chibby was but looking back at it now CHIBBY IS LIFE


wow make a song based on this burger metaphor because it rocks


dodie i cannot begin to describe how much you have influenced me. i connect with you in a way that someone should connect with a best friend or a sibling even though we have not properly met. i have suffered from brain issues as well such as migraines, memory issues, mental issues in my brain (depression, anxiety, and panic attacks and stuff) and you truly help me. to calm myself from panic attack i love to listen to your soothing songs (vie en rose, pas de deux, riptide cover, etc.) bc it calms me. (trigger warning-ish) ive suffered from self harm and you have helped me conquer that and be stronger. youre so intelligent, kind, and funny. you inspire me with your vlogs and main channel uploads and i love it. you fill up this whole in my heart and i can never thank you enough. you've inspired me to be a better version of me; to try harder and reach a little higher in life. you've introduced me to music and i love to write music and sing now and i want to be a performer when i grow up. its far fetched but i want to dream big like you have. one day i want to upload covers and reach for the things i want. i want to be happy and care free, i want to be what you've inspired me to start becoming. i love you and you're videos very very much. thank you, love. xx


Where to start ... This Veda is incredible. I mean it's so unique but I understand completely because at 17 I have been on that exact bus. I I can't say i know exactly how you are feeling however I know that feeling and it really isn't nice. Many people have left my bus and I realised that depression will always brake things however it can also make you that little bit stronger. Dancing has kept me going all this years and it there so when do I do feel like this I can take my emotions and I can make one giant routine however I want to whatever music and dance like no one is watching because you just need to have that one thing in life that is there for you. You are so inspirational and you should be extremely proud, because being able to put out a video like that takes courage I know as I've tried but I have never seen some one as determined and outgoing as yourself :) your bus ride will get better, it just takes time !!!!!! Xxxxx hope this helps ( not so great at advice XD)


I want a tattoo in the same place. How much did it hurt though? Like, really, tho


20?!!! Omgod I was sure you were older, you are too wise to be only 20!!


I don't think I'll ever get off your bus, Dodie. Your bus is like those buses with curtains and AC and heating and wifi. Your bus is the best. <3


1. You are so wonderful. 2. This video was beautiful 3. That hamburger metaphor perfectly describes the past two years of my life. 4. The people in the comments of your videos are so lovely which is probably because you attract other intelligent, lovely people. 5. Remember that even though we don't really know you, humans kind of have an intuition, and I can honestly tell you that you are an amazing human being who is very special and creates things that genuinely matter.

This got so soppy but that's just how I feel right now...


Dodie Clark I couldn't be more proud of you for making this. Mental health isn't an easy topic to talk about especially with all the stigma, but I'm really glad you're being open and honest.

hopefully everyone watching this will have the courage to remain strong. we will definitely continue to support you not matter what.

also you've explained it all perfectly with the bus and burger metaphors


Everybody probably thinks I'm just some 12 year old who is over exaggerating but this single video has changed my life for the better. It has made me think the i can have a happy life and i can be what i want to be and nobody can stop me. To be honest for the first tim in about 5 years i feel actually under control of myself, Thank you.


awesome video!
hears the word band mationed I play drums, if you need anyone( who doesnt understand things sometimes) well it, pick me! pick me!

awesome video!
*hears the word band mationed* I play drums, if you need anyone( who doesnt understand things sometimes) well it, pick me! pick me!


"METAPHOR" will be a good title to this vid... damn feels i have to punch a kitten to feel manly again


even me, an asperger without feelings had a quiet moment at the end. 0.0


lmao, I was just watching this video and I noticed that when you were climbing that bed that that's the same hotel that I've stayed in. At least I think lol. It looks so similair. (mine was in New Castle lol) Okay this is random. Love your video's btw <33


I dont even... i cant put this into words...


o.o...Just wow.   You opened up to such an incredible degree, so I'm gonna open up a little bit. I used to have manic depression (self-diagnosed, but only in the last several years. In other words, it took me decades to make new realizations about this). You may or may not have manic depression. Hell, I don't even know what the "current" label for it is. Try to remember that there might not be any external forces making you depressed. In other words, it's your own brain. I don't know how people feel about saying that it is an imbalance of certain brain chemicals, but that's what it is sometimes. Awareness is a good first step. It's just some brain cells in rebellion making a fuss with some chemicals. Part of me believes in feeling your feelings, don't  try to shut them off or deny them. On the other hand, being aware can change how they affect you, kinda put the brakes on them somewhat. I myself slowly grew out of my manic depression over decades. The manic highs were like seeing in color when everyone else sees in black and white. How do you explain color to a person born blind?  Honestly, it's going to sound weird, but I dearly miss those manic highs. One thing to keep in mind: <b>the peaks lead to valleys, and the valleys lead to peaks</b>. You might not have manic depression, but I hope this helps.

o.o...Just wow.   You opened up to such an incredible degree, so I'm gonna open up a little bit. I used to have manic depression (self-diagnosed, but only in the last several years. In other words, it took me decades to make new realizations about this). You may or may not have manic depression. Hell, I don't even know what the "current" label for it is. Try to remember that there might not be any external forces making you depressed. In other words, it's your own brain. I don't know how people feel about saying that it is an imbalance of certain brain chemicals, but that's what it is sometimes. Awareness is a good first step. It's just some brain cells in rebellion making a fuss with some chemicals. Part of me believes in feeling your feelings, don't  try to shut them off or deny them. On the other hand, being aware can change how they affect you, kinda put the brakes on them somewhat. I myself slowly grew out of my manic depression over decades. The manic highs were like seeing in color when everyone else sees in black and white. How do you explain color to a person born blind?  Honestly, it's going to sound weird, but I dearly miss those manic highs. One thing to keep in mind: *the peaks lead to valleys, and the valleys lead to peaks*. You might not have manic depression, but I hope this helps.


Oh my god you went to Belfast?!?!?!!!!  I used to live there but recently moved to Norway 😭😭😭😭😭<br>I'm glad you've found colour😊

Oh my god you went to Belfast?!?!?!!!!  I used to live there but recently moved to Norway 😭😭😭😭😭
I'm glad you've found colour😊


Aww, Dodie... You don't know me and you probably never will. We've met before (at Hedy's old shool and on the first day of comic con) I'll be the girl on the bus in the corner you never notice but will always be there. Mega feels watching this, I love you Dodie, you're the best and you will always have fans like us that will continue to support you through the shadows of our rooms even if it seems like we aren't there.


sooooo much love for this vid omgg loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


I'll ride your bus and I will never ever leave 💕😭


I met some great friends at your meet and greet! Xxx


I am the 1000th comment... Don't know why I wanted you to know that, but it looks like a nice number :)
I love you Dodie... This video was so full of feelings and I have felt it, I know what you mean, cuz I am suffering from this blank feeling these days, it has been for couple of years tbh, but I want to happy, I want to feel that I have some people who are setting next to me in my bus. I wish you happiness and I wish I'll be like you one day :)
Lots of love xx


Yo about Dublin, you should just go to a concert in Dublin and experience being in the crowd because I don't know what it is but like EVERY concert is always like that everyone's always hyped idk what it is?? Sorry if we freaked you out though!! you were fab and it was lovely meeting you again !


I just want to give everyone the biggest hug, I'm the biggest sop


you have a sock bunny! n_n I made a few for my nephew and niece like 2 months ago :D

...the video hasn't started and it was the first thing I noticed, sorry for the offtopicness :P :)


OMG when u cried! <br>Mah poor heart sank :,p

OMG when u cried!
Mah poor heart sank :,p


The music at the end though... Please stop making me cry Dodie!! But I'd but like a trillion tickets for your bus xxx


Dodie,<br>I'm not sure how much this will mean as personally others trying to sympathize with me works either really wonderfully, or really terribly, but hopefully you understand what I mean when I say I understand some of what you're dealing with. You are an absolutely brilliant person. I've been subscribed to your channel for quite some time now, and you're one of the few people that I watch on a regular basis. I absolutely adore you, your music, style, and essentially everything else that is so simply YOU. I am so beyond glad that you've started feeling better, and I hope you continue to feel better!!! You've helped me so much in regards to all my silly luggage, and I can't express that enough. Stay adorable, mkay?:)

Dodie,
I'm not sure how much this will mean as personally others trying to sympathize with me works either really wonderfully, or really terribly, but hopefully you understand what I mean when I say I understand some of what you're dealing with. You are an absolutely brilliant person. I've been subscribed to your channel for quite some time now, and you're one of the few people that I watch on a regular basis. I absolutely adore you, your music, style, and essentially everything else that is so simply YOU. I am so beyond glad that you've started feeling better, and I hope you continue to feel better!!! You've helped me so much in regards to all my silly luggage, and I can't express that enough. Stay adorable, mkay?:)


where did she get her cute duvet cover from? I need to know aghhhhh!!!


The worst is when you know it'll coming back. And then it comes back and you try to ignore it, but it doesn't work... aw. But I try my best to live! :)


Hellooo Hiyaaa yup I felt like I should leave a comment because I may have possibly cried lolwat I am super glad we are becoming friends and stuff it is super great and I am glad you were able to enjoy that day I hope that you are starting to feel better and stuff but yeah that day was sossososo good and needs to happen again ok I shall stop now hopefully seen you soon yup love you byee <3 xxx

ps burger description was very super good amazing way to describe it to people


tfw u cry ur eyes out over a youtube video,, seriously though dodie fvck i love u, we all love u n i hope u realise ur bus is the best in town <33


you're such a cute! and i love how inteligent you're aaaaahhh marry meee.i am sorry abouth that your ukulele..died and all this stuff what happend to you..but MARRY ME ANYWAY<br>bigUp from Czech :)

you're such a cute! and i love how inteligent you're aaaaahhh marry meee.i am sorry abouth that your ukulele..died and all this stuff what happend to you..but MARRY ME ANYWAY
bigUp from Czech :)


Your welcome for being on the bus that everyone else is on, enjoy the ride, admire the view @)----- smell a rose, and have fun. One question.. am i correct on the fact that your best day ended in south bank Australia?  #ilovebrisbane


I want to be on your bus lmao that sounds like a euphemism


the burger metaphor is now my favourite thing ever


Don't worry dodie I was planning on crying anyway


The bus metaphor is the thing that hit me the most. I isolate myself from people and I always have since my dad abandoned me and my family. My bus is the school bus no one wants to get on because they know the hell that bus will take you to but there are those few people who are excited for the journey of that bus not the destination. Many people have not even tried to get on my bus, some people have got on the bus but then I sit next to them and we talk through half of the journey and all of a sudden there's a pothole in the road and people run scared but there's those kind, loyal people who stay on the bus just to see where it takes them. I feel like my bus has been empty for a long time with me just sitting in the back seat but maybe I just need to jump into the drivers seat and let my bus fill up and not care who gets off but care about who stays on. Ly Dodie ❤


I am not a person to cry. But Dodie, this video has made me cry harder than I have cried in years. It pains me to see such wonderful people go through things like this. I guess the reason this video made me so sad is that I relate to it so badly. I got diagnosed with depression when I was 13. I had no clue what depression was, but apparently I had it. Then I got the answer to why I´d been feeling like hell for most of my life. I´m still convinced I grew up too fast, I never felt like I had a childhood. From the very beginning, all I´ve been doing is worrying, and holding things in. A year ago I told myself I´d beaten depression, it was out of my life and it wasn´t coming back. Oh god I was wrong. For a few months now something has been wrong, with both me and my mindset, and it wasn´t until now I realised why. I just feel so lost. I´m lost in a city filled with my demons. I can´t move out before I´m done with my education. That´s five more years of this dreaded place. As I said when I hit my lowest point, I can´t recover in a city filled with memories. Wherever I go my past is there to haunt me. I feel like I am trapped in a box filled with my demons, and there´s no way out. Gosh I´m so sorry, this comment wasn´t even supposed to be about me. Here I was trying to write something about you, Dodie, about how you are one of the strongest and most inspiring people I know about, and it turned in to a huge "woe is me" rant. I´m sorry. I wish you the best of luck and happiness. Dodie, you deserve nothing but the best. I hope you´ll never forget that if you ever feel lost, you have countless friends (and strangers on the internet, like me) to turn to. They will, without a doubt, listen to you, and be a shoulder to cry on. You´re never alone.


WHY WAS LUKe wearing a Christmas jumper?😂💞


I love the part in the lift at 7:57 onwards. Jokes


you're an adorable precious cinnamon roll kthxbye <3 can't even handle it


Okay so usually I don't write really long comments or comment in general because it can be bleh but there is one thing that I did make up a while back. It was a situation where I nearly lost a friend. At the moment I was in extreme panic and it to all I had in my body to say everything I could but let me get on with it. So let's say the situation or life itself is like a rope of some kind. The rope is tied to the knob of this sealed door. At the moment it can't be opened when your far away. But that's when you grab on to make your first pull. Along the way you get rope burns and sometimes it will get tiring. And that still means your allowed to give yourself a break, but it's important not to let go of the rope. There is always something or someone, (possibly a friendly ghost lol) that's behind you, and it can or cannot be noticeable but it's there. Continuously climbing at your own pace on this rope you can start to notice that the door is unlatching. The minute you notice that it is should at least bring up your strength on that rope. Eventually, you'll get to that door. How you interpret your opening is up to you, but it will definitely be something fresh. Sorry this is length for a semi old video. But I thought it could be helpful and I certainly hope it does seem helpful. One more thing: there is this random quote I found that definitely adds up to all of this "your current situation is not your final destination".


Awww, the meet and greet was at my concert!!


DODIE CLARK HAS BEEN IN THE SAME PARK AS ME OMGGGG


Ironically you're eating a burger. So how did that burger taste this time dodie?


OMG when adventure time is one at the end i started crying it got too much omg


This is weird but when i had covid i ate a burger and it tasted like nothing and the analogy in this video is exactly what i thought of


I know this is a bit random but - where did you get that cool vest from?


i feel like my bus is filled with ghosts, people whom i know are there for me, but i can't seem to reach them. (continuing with the metaphors) idk lately i've just felt like life is moving too fast and i can't keep up with anything. there's bursts of colour in some days, but in others i feel so grey and black, but i feel an obligation towards the people i'm with, that i have to act happy and be funny. thank u for showing me that it's possible to feel grey in moments where u 'should' feel colours. i thought i was the only one (which sounds silly, i know). i'm so so glad that u are on the road of feeling better with your bus full of people, love u ♥


Your bus will NEVER be emty because we all love you no matter what


pls say I'm not the only one who wants to go on the bus and refuse to not leave


I'm wearing the same owl t-shirt right now ^^


Dear Dodie, I know it sucks because I've been there, but I also know how good it feels when you've overcome it and you start feeling good again. Just think about how many people stop their lives for a few minutes to watch your videos, and you're having an impact in all of our lives and we're learning things from you and it's good, it's so good because we (or at least I) don't see you as someone above us, you're more like a friend, and it's great! You're the kind of people I'd love to hang out with! Also, your hair looks amazing, really really amazing!


sorry to hear about Dublin.... i wasnt there, but i know irish people can be really overwhelming. i think we are generally a pretty loud, boistrous people. i hope it wasnt unpleasant for you <3 ily

also, im really sorry about your uke, that sucks. i would cry so much if anything happened to mine.


Your so intelligent with the metaphors! How much for a bus ticket?


14:00 I would submit most people are lying about how good the burger tastes


i have the same shirt as you! Good choice x


kurt cobain had the same felling ;)<br>love u doddle

kurt cobain had the same felling ;)
love u doddle


I have depression and I've been sectioned (section 3) so I'm currently in a adolescent psychiatric unit :( it's shit, I'm here because I tried to kill myself 3 times in a month, two large overdoses and then I went to a multi storey car park and was sat on the edge but police came and grabbed me :( I've been here for 3 months and I have 3 more months until my section ends, but even then I might not be discharged! I'm in a unit in Cambridge but I live in Bournemouth so it's 5/6 hours away. it's such a horrible environment being in a unit, because how can i get better when I'm surrounded by mentally ill people who are (unintentionally) triggering and horrible 😓 I just want to get out lmao but there's no chance of that for another 3 months

+Laura Davies Hey i know my words cant change anything for you but I just thought you should know that right now just this second im giving you a bit of my strength so that maybe you can get out of there faster...


If you're going to leave the cough in then use it to sync the audio. No need for the clap.<br>I have a cold.

If you're going to leave the cough in then use it to sync the audio. No need for the clap.
I have a cold.


my bus feels a bit pointless rn, their's maybe only 3 people on it and no one's sitting beside me. i hope more people get on your bus and only the bad leave. i imagine your bus has a floor that's covered in cushions and everyone sings softly and have heart to hearts. i want to be on that floor of your bus so bad!! and it's white covered in coloured polka dot (sorta like the the plane on come outside lol (i think my bus might actually be a plane; no one can get on bc it's thousands of feet away from people 😕)) i hope you continue getting better, you seem like a lovely, wonderful person!! 💕💗💓


60,000 people is a big bus, but we're all gonna try and get on it if we can :D


how do people with depression live. seriously everyone who has a mental illness should get a pestigious award or something. I have mild to  moderate depression, anxiety, bipolar, and I don't even shower, brush my teeth, or really take care of myself at all. I can not imagine what it is like to have a severe mental illness. my tip: force yourself to be around good people.


I need a girl to hold forever I'm so lonely.

she will come, eventually. but try to enjoy right now. spend as much time as you can with good people


Haha, sammy would be the best boom guy 😂


wow. I have felt like my bus was empty for so long because why let people on when you know they're going to get off again? why would they want to stay on a cold, sad, grey bus when they cold be on a warm, happy, colourful bus? I have felt like shit for the past year or two and this week hasn't been great and this day was pretty horrible but I knew you could cheer me up while I was crying. for years I have felt like no one understood me and that i was completely alone in my cold, sad cave but after watching this video i'm starting to think maybe someone does understand, maybe i'm not alone and maybe I should let people on my bus if they want. I want to thank you dodie, for making me feel better and brightening my day and just being you, I love you so much <3 i'm gonna leave now because this is too cheesy


It's always hard to say goodbye to people who leave the bus... Sometimes it does feel like the bus is empty. I think it's a great metaphor! And good things don't taste as good as they should, sometimes. But even though the bus might seem empty, I've learned that people can seem invisible to you, but that they're actually still there. Okay, some people really leave one way or the other, and don't come back. But some of them are only hiding behind a corner. :) I know that when I feel bad and I actually really need a hug from a friend, I try not to bother anyone with it, I keep it to myself. Which is stupid, of course, but it's something that comes naturally. But friends do not KNOW you need them if you don't tell them. They might not have a clue that you feel sad, if you keep hiding it away and don't let it show. And only if they know, they can give you that much needed HUG and make you feel better. :) I don't say it's easy and I know it's a cliché but asking for help or talking about things can make your heart and head feel lighter. And most importantly it makes you realise that the bus is NOT empty, and friends can appear from behind a corner, who hadn't left you alone in the bus after all. :)
Wow this is long haha. You just got me thinking... which is a sign that this was a very good video and I think you're really brave putting it out on the internet like this! I remember when I turned 20 I felt so old, haha. (I'm 21 - and though it's supposed to be a special birthday, turning 20 felt stranger and more important than turning 21 haha) Have a good 21th year, Dodie! Who knows, some more truly happy days might lie ahead! <3 And ps I'm so sorry about your ukelele, that really really sucks... it looked horrible!! Stupid people who drop boxes on instruments! ^£&""@(%$!!!:'(

It's always hard to say goodbye to people who leave the bus... Sometimes it does feel like the bus is empty. I think it's a great metaphor! And good things don't taste as good as they should, sometimes. But even though the bus might seem empty, I've learned that people can seem invisible to you, but that they're actually still there. Okay, some people really leave one way or the other, and don't come back. But some of them are only hiding behind a corner. :) I know that when I feel bad and I actually really need a hug from a friend, I try not to bother anyone with it, I keep it to myself. Which is stupid, of course, but it's something that comes naturally. But friends do not KNOW you need them if you don't tell them. They might not have a clue that you feel sad, if you keep hiding it away and don't let it show. And only if they know, they can give you that much needed HUG and make you feel better. :) I don't say it's easy -and I know it's a cliché- but asking for help or talking about things can make your heart and head feel lighter. And most importantly it makes you realise that the bus is NOT empty, and friends can appear from behind a corner, who hadn't left you alone in the bus after all. :)
Wow this is long haha. You just got me thinking... which is a sign that this was a very good video and I think you're really brave putting it out on the internet like this! I remember when I turned 20 I felt so old, haha. (I'm 21 - and though it's supposed to be a special birthday, turning 20 felt stranger and more important than turning 21 haha) Have a good 21th year, Dodie! Who knows, some more truly happy days might lie ahead! <3 And ps I'm so sorry about your ukelele, that really really sucks... it looked horrible!! Stupid people who drop boxes on instruments! ^£&""@(%$!!!:'(


I'm just now watching this and kicking myself for not watching it sooner.


No one's on my bus so I just fill the seats with food. <b>sigh</b>

No one's on my bus so I just fill the seats with food. *sigh*


"Then I called my mum." <br>HeLlo MUm I hAVe A tATtOO

"Then I called my mum."
HeLlo MUm I hAVe A tATtOO


I feel like maybe I should accept that some people have gotten off my bus and that maybe they'll never buy a ticket again. But I need to stay on the bus to reach my destination. Did that makes sense? It did to me. Idk


what's the song she was singing at 3:45? it sounds  so familiar and it's driving me crazy


Dublin....

THE SCREAMS OF DEATH!!!

Dublin...AAAAAAHHHHHHHH


That burger thing though, literally never summed it up better.


Does anyone know where the version of Adventure time that is played at the end of this video is available ?


Depression sucks so bad dodie i know and on sunday night i stsyed up till 5:45 am because i could not sleep at all but if you can feel better i can too xx


I had a ticket for the Aberdeen show, unfortunately I had to work that night so didn't get to go


Does anyone know what song Dodie is dancing to at 5:59?


12:09 Made me check my messenger, silly Dodie :p


can i have a bus ticket to dodieville please?


I've done the exact same thing in that park at southbank


Hey thanks for this and how was that burger?


i just want to find my awesome brilliant bus too


You're younger than me???? Well that was a weird piece of information.


I love you. <br>From: that venezuelan girl you wont see on the coments

I love you.
From: that venezuelan girl you wont see on the coments


She named so many places in Ireland why didn't I know about this, why couldn't I go why! What!


I feel kinda like you but it's not constant. Like I would be fine then I would feel like shit for a few days then I'd be fine again for like a couple days then a few days of shitiness then I'd be fine etc., but it's really annoying and sad and fucking confusing I don't know what I'm feeling half the time and idk. Just wanted to say something. You've really been an inspiration for me, thank you dodie!! :)


What was the song Dodie was dancing to at 5:58?


Honestly, you've explained this better than ANYONE I've ever heard try to explain it before. It's not easy to just "be happy!" like everyone tells you to and sometimes even something that you logically know should be fun or happy or whatever just ISN'T. I think that's something so many people don't realize when they're trying to dole out advice. I'm so glad that you made this video, and even more glad that you're coming out of the depression pit yourself. x


I don't usually cry at things. It's just not something I do. But I think it's the honesty behind this video that gets me...


Dodi this video really touch me because really you are my favorite YouTuber and I love you because you are creative and happy and funny and you give good advice at the end of the video and I sometimes I relate to you and I say you are not alone all of your fans including me love you and if I had munny I would buy lots and lots of ticket to be on the bus with you and even if you don't read this I love you and you're my favorite YouTuber because when I'm BORED or down ill say hey lets see if doddleoddle did a new video and that cheers me up and I got something to say to you keep doing you're videos and you're songs because you are very talented and don't lose hope and yeah love you and have a colorful🌈 , wonderful 😺 and shiny day☀, night🌙, week🌄, year🌅, infinity ⊂x⊃ (I tried to do the infinity sigh but it turned like that.😶😳😏 Oh 🐳)


Where did u get ur dress and cardigan from cause I love it so kick


3:32 I wish they had twisters in America


The bus is empty your on your own the world is gone but the uver part of that metaphor is the bus is never empty and you just have to look to find the others you have a barrier but barriers were meant to be broken and if you look in you will find the way to break that barrier I know how to break mine but I can't, don't do that to your self break free I can see you have the power use it don't give up it will take a long time but to give up will make it harder in the future I Know this and I say this to all with depression good luck to you


wA HEY YOU CAN KIND OF SEE ME AND MY MOTHER IN THE DUBLIN CLIP NICE


6:05 < anybody know what song was playing there?


THE MAN IN THE BACKGROUND IM LAUGHIJOGND


What was the thing you sung with the small group of girls at the beginning?


Whats that piano song in the background at the end?


My bus; it's pretty empty but there's cool music. Yeeh. cx


What does the tattoo look like whaaaat does it look likeeee


What's the name of that person at 2:10? so handsome ♥


and yet we all still here so u must be doing something right 💀💪


Damn... We're the same age O.o I'm a touch older, (had to add that, October here haha) so obviously much smarter ;) moahahaha!


It was soo important that someone would say that depression isn't logical. No matter how great your life is, you just can't enjoy it. Once I told someone about my brain and mindset the person was like "don't be silly and stop feeling sorry for yourself, there are people with real problems". I do know that I'm blessed but I can't just stop feeling crappy, it's not that I once said "Hey let's just start having depressed thoughts!" I just feel like people don't understand that a mental disorder is an illness just like any other illness and no one would tell a visibly sick person to stop complaining. so thank you dodie. thank you so much. i really love your videos and your honesty and i think you are just an incredibly cute and lovely person so thank you for this video and just thank you for being you. sorry if i bored anyone reading this, i just needed to get that out.


They say it gets better but it's not working....


AAHH BRY IN THE BACKGROUND 1:32 I MET HIM IN OCTOBER


Thank you for this Dodie, your honesty and bravery is truly admirable. This video was an eye opener, and the first time I've heard what I am feeling put into such accurate words. I'm glad you are feeling better, and I'm grateful to see that there is still hope out there.


This moved me so much. I'm so glad that you are starting to feel better now, Dodie :)<br>You really are such an amazing and inspiring person! I met you ages ago at George Reece's album launch gathering and you are so approachable and cool :) Take care of yourself!

This moved me so much. I'm so glad that you are starting to feel better now, Dodie :)
You really are such an amazing and inspiring person! I met you ages ago at George Reece's album launch gathering and you are so approachable and cool :) Take care of yourself!


I stayed up for this and then you made me cry dodie why 😂 this was really very beautiful x


this is probably my favourite video that you have ever created, i loved this a lot


I love love love this! Cause I can relate I was kinda going through some brain not working time lately and feel its finally working again :)


Dodie, this is beautiful. I cried when I watched this. Thank you for being on my bus. 😋


Really really loved this ❤❤ The burger metaphor was really great and I love how open you're being! A lot of people will relate to this video, so you might be that little drop of colour for them! 😊<br>Ps I like the rabbit on your bed 😜

Really really loved this ❤❤ The burger metaphor was really great and I love how open you're being! A lot of people will relate to this video, so you might be that little drop of colour for them! 😊
Ps I like the rabbit on your bed 😜


I'm so glad I waited for this, this is honestly one of my favourite videos on YouTube and I know it was probably really hard putting it out there, and I think you're really brave to, I am so glad I waited, it was worth it :)


You continue to amaze and inspire me just by being you and I think that's beautiful. We all love you Dodie x


Just to get this out of the way, I fucking love you. This is the most really and honest video that I have seen yet it meant so much. U are an inspiration with literally everything you do and I just want to thank you for being Dodie <3


ur so amazing dodie. ive had depression for a year now. i thought i was getting better but now im in a slump again. and when youre in a slump, and i slump's not much fun, un-slumping yourself is not easily done. but you have made me remember that you can have good days, and hope and happiness can still be felt, you just have to wait a little while. i wish i could come and meet you in auckland but im not allowed ): so i guess ill have to admire you from a far :) xxxx


I love this video more than any other video on the internet. I can relate so much and I know exactly what you're going through.. I actually shed a little tear towards the end.

P.s. the metaphors were perfect :)


Thank you so much for sharing Dodie, your bravery will never be overlooked :) I remember this feeling well, and I think we both know that things are better on the other side of this stupid uphill climb :) Thank you for sharing your story with those that may really need to hear it now :) <b>hugs</b>

Thank you so much for sharing Dodie, your bravery will never be overlooked :) I remember this feeling well, and I think we both know that things are better on the other side of this stupid uphill climb :) Thank you for sharing your story with those that may really need to hear it now :) *hugs*


I just turned 20 on the 1st of May too and it does feel very weird. I'm glad that you're starting to feel and get better. I got slightly teary at the end I must say. Some people have also got off my bus recently but the ones that have stayed on have been amazing and I've got closer with them. Love you so much. <3


Gods, dodie, this was beautiful.
Ive just watched this before i go to the funeral of a close family member, and . . . I can feel the tingles running up and down my spine.

This was so real and so great . . . Im so glad your bus is full now. And im hoping everyone can have people like the ones you've met, and i hope things continue to get better for you. <3


i adore you, dodie. i relate to that description so much, although i have been getting better lately. your videos (and meeting you at playlist definitely made me happy for a while) helped/are helping in getting me through mental illness soo much and distracting me when i need it/can't sleep and stuff. stay strong <3


you... and this and YOU and ALL OF YOU... have been the sunshine for me on this awfully rainy terribly horrible no good day


I really really hope you feel better soon Dodie <3 here's to many more bouncy castle days! You bring so much happiness to your viewers, you deserve to feel that same happiness yourself. Just remember that some of the best days of your life haven't happened yet - so always look forward to the future! It is full of hope 😊 <3


Dodie you are an amazing inspiring person. Your bus will always be full. Be happy. ^_^


+ well down Dodie for powering through
Keep going
You can get through this
Proud ❤


This is beautiful dodie so so beautifully put :') what isn't so beautiful is the fact I am watching this at 2 in the morning being sick...:) but this has brightened me up, thank you so much :D


you are such a lovely human being and i am so beyond proud of you


im so sorry about your ukulele!! You have inspired me in so many ways and i love metaphors. I loved the one at the end the best


Dodie, this means a lot because I am kind of going through the same thing and I'm stuck.  It's nice to know other people have amazing lives but sometimes just can't appreciate it cause their brain you know is shitty and annoying.  This kind of gave me some much needed hope...so thanks I guess <3<br>-Kay

Dodie, this means a lot because I am kind of going through the same thing and I'm stuck.  It's nice to know other people have amazing lives but sometimes just can't appreciate it cause their brain you know is shitty and annoying.  This kind of gave me some much needed hope...so thanks I guess <3
-Kay


wow that was beautiful. Mental Illness sucks but I'm glad you're starting to feel better. keep doing what u do bro


Omg :( I'd cry for about that long <3 I love my little ukertin


YOU SAID FECK IN THE DESCRIPTION THE IRISH ARE COMING FOR YOU YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW 🍀


I have never heard someone describe how I feel so perfectly. The burger metaphor was the perfect explanation to a lot of grey days in my life that I couldn't explain. And the bus one as well. You have so many people on this bus of yours Dodie, and it almost seems ridiculous to feel alone while on it. But I understand completely. Thank you for truthfully sharing your thoughts <3


dodie i love you! i love how honest you are with us. i love how when you find that bit of colour you are so appreciative and i love how you treat your friends and how you treat your viewers. and i love your adorable voice that you say isn't big or special but which we think is absolutely glorious anyway. i love your stupid sense of humour and your lovely sister and the fact that you wanted to share this with us. and i hate the fact that this message sounds like something out of a crappy film but i'm trying to put across how much i appreciate you. this made me cry, but happy tears, because i'm glad that you're feeling better again. thank you for sharing this.


God I needed this, Dodie <3 Thank you for helping even though you didn't know you were, and you probably don't have any ideas on how this helped but just...thank you. Much love xx


Didn't think I'd be tearing up at the end of this video, was worth it though, great video :)


Well, now I'm lying in bed crying because of how beautiful this video was instead if revising or sleeping like a non-internet kid :D


This was so lovely. Like it was sad and happy and it made me feel nostalgic for those kind of days where you just goof around with friends.


Great video Dodie and  the letter in the description was amazing so so so happy you are feeling better <3 <3


awh Dodie im so proud that you made this. i'm glad you're feeling better and i know what its like to be swirling into what feels like a never ending pit of gray. im so glad to have discovered you and i hope one day i get to meet you and tell you how much you've helped me.<br>Thank you Dodie. you are so loved and your bus is overflowing <3

awh Dodie im so proud that you made this. i'm glad you're feeling better and i know what its like to be swirling into what feels like a never ending pit of gray. im so glad to have discovered you and i hope one day i get to meet you and tell you how much you've helped me.
Thank you Dodie. you are so loved and your bus is overflowing <3


This was so well done and so beautiful. It completely captures what depression feels like but also what hope feels like. Xx


Oh my goodness! Dodie I've only started watching your videos the past few weeks but absolutely love your channel and your songs hit me so hard I really feel them resonate within me. You describe some of my feelings that I can't even put words to. You have a voice like an angel and seem like such a lovely person! This video is another I feel the same way as you sometimes, and it's so hard because knowing you're missing out only makes you feel guilty & worse - it sucks an unbelievable amount :( I'm really really happy to hear that you are finding happy times now and those bouncy castles look AWESOME! Wish we had that sort of thing here!

Sending love and best wishes from little old Perth in Australia:) xx


I honestly started crying at this because it's such a raw and personal video but it was still beautifully made. I'm always impressed with what you put out xx


I am going to re watch this video to make me smile!! love seeing Dodie happy


I'm in tears of how brilliantly amazing this is c,:


ah dodie youre such an inspiration! youre one of my favorite youtubers <3 just letting you know that youre amazing and awesome and i know you get told that all the time but still c:


Thankyou. Thankyou so freaking much for summing it all up in such a beautiful and eloquent way. I have felt so completely alone, as though no-body would get how I was feeling at the time, but you have pretty much just described the exact same.
This right here is the reason that I love youtube. Reading the tag last night, watching this video now and seeing a range of others and just seeing that people are out there that actually do understand and they can work through it.
I'm just rambling now because I have 0 cohesive thoughts so I'm sorry but thank you so much again. I hope you're okay and that I can see you again soon! <3

@doddleoddle I need a ticket to your bus xx

@Jamie Faulkner :)! Oh my goodness what a wonderful comment. I love you xx


This video reminds of how much I love just sitting around and having great conversations with people and messing around. Unfortunately that doesn't happen that often but when it does it feels amazing.


This video was the first youtube video I've ever seen where I felt that even though I don't know you, and even though this is just 22 minutes of an entire month of your life, I could feel that you're a real person and not just a face on a screen. Thank you thank you this was the most beautiful touching thing I've ever seen in my life. This video shows how there is always hope in this world, that it's so big and yet the smallest thing can brighten and change your day. Thank you Dodie for sharing this. PS sorry for all the cheese :)


This is an amazing video. It's quite an honest insight into the trials and tribulations of doing something you love. It also shows how genuine you are by being that honest to everyone.

It was devastating to hear the feelings you went through and see the teary-eyed footage but I'm happy to see that you're on the other side of a heavy raincloud.

It was the loveliest thing meeting you after the Dublin gig and having the same high-pitched reaction to seeing each other. I know I may have hopped on the bus only a lil' while ago, but I've got my ticket 'til the last stop. Keep being awesome, Dodie, and keep moving forward. :}


This is my favorite video you have ever made.


i love you dodie! keep being great and i'm glad you're getting better!


Thank you. I need this and it really touched me. I've been having issues with depression and yeah thank you.


thank you for making this. i really needed this. I feel like no one is on my bus right now and it's frustrating. anyway lots of love <3


I'm so glad that you are feeling happier. Depression continues to break me... but I'm truly hoping that I can feel better someday too.


The letter in the description made me tear up a bit. I'm lucky enough to have found my ladder with the help of some amazing people, but that was fairly recently, and one of my biggest fears is finding myself in a cave again.


I lost two family member really suddenly this week and your vedims are a really nice boost to get me through the day thank you so much ilu ❤


I'm so pleased you're starting to feel better. I'm proud of you for uploading this and being so frank and open and lovely. Keep looking after yourself, keep creating beautiful things, surround yourself with people you love. Hugs - you are wonderful! <333


This video is one of the best I've seen, and I've seen A LOT. You are amazing Doddie and this video feels so real. It's just like we got to meet you, or meet a part of you we didn't really knew I guess? I love you and you are such an inspiration to me. Keep it up ! Xxx


Oh my goodness Dodie I just read the description and the tears just came right back. Mental health is so confusing and it is so difficult when this happens to someone. Your video has really made me feel like there are more than only one person in the world that are feeling this way. You have helped me so much and I just want you to always feel happy. I know we have never met and probably never will (😞), but I just want you to know something. There are so many people that you have helped, including me, just by sharing your talent and complete amazingness on the Internet. You are such a wonderful person and someone like you should never have to go through this pain. <br>Xoxo

Oh my goodness Dodie I just read the description and the tears just came right back. Mental health is so confusing and it is so difficult when this happens to someone. Your video has really made me feel like there are more than only one person in the world that are feeling this way. You have helped me so much and I just want you to always feel happy. I know we have never met and probably never will (😞), but I just want you to know something. There are so many people that you have helped, including me, just by sharing your talent and complete amazingness on the Internet. You are such a wonderful person and someone like you should never have to go through this pain.
Xoxo


Nearly cried, a damn good description of depression. Stay strong x


Thank you so much dodie for being  apart of my life. I have been subbed 4 only a short while, but it has been so so amazing. You are one of the realist, best youtubers I know and just thank you for letting me be apart of your bus . xxxx


i love you, dodie. being on your bus has made me a very happy person, even though i've only been on it for about a year. loving the ride so far xx


This video was so extremely beautiful, I'm so sorry that you felt so low in the past but you need the low points to appreciate the high points in your life! (I think or maybe that just sounds stupid idk) This video really inspires me to do want I want, no matter what. You're travelling the world with people you love, sharing music and memories with people who adore you and I don't know its just an eye opener that we can really do anything with our lives. Just know whenever you're sad that I'll always be on your bus and a stranger you can rant to (@adambrxwn) if you need to. I love you and your videos and I'm so glad you're feeling better again! <3


Thank you for this. You put into words what I have difficulty expressing. Depression is ugly, but you give me hope.


That bus metaphor is so sad yet so true. It literally hit me hard in the feels :')


Dodie, ever since I started watching your videos, I've thought of you as this wonderful bright, beautiful and inspiring person. The kind of person who is kind and considerate and grasps every moment and cherishes it. Thank you for sharing all you're going through with us, I feel like your bravery inspires me to try and makes me admire you even more. I know how you feel when you say that your brain won't let you be happy, I'm the same, but the moments of happiness when you remember how strong your hope can be or how beautiful a sun-washed field, the sea or the people around you are, it feels worth it. Everyone deserves to be happy and depression can be so consuming but I feel like the silver lining is, when you have joy, it's simple and special and worth every chest pang and tear. <br>P.s. Sorry for being so sappy and cheesy and I'm so glad your life has colour again.

Dodie, ever since I started watching your videos, I've thought of you as this wonderful bright, beautiful and inspiring person. The kind of person who is kind and considerate and grasps every moment and cherishes it. Thank you for sharing all you're going through with us, I feel like your bravery inspires me to try and makes me admire you even more. I know how you feel when you say that your brain won't let you be happy, I'm the same, but the moments of happiness when you remember how strong your hope can be or how beautiful a sun-washed field, the sea or the people around you are, it feels worth it. Everyone deserves to be happy and depression can be so consuming but I feel like the silver lining is, when you have joy, it's simple and special and worth every chest pang and tear.
P.s. Sorry for being so sappy and cheesy and I'm so glad your life has colour again.


Wonderful video Dodie, I understand what you are going through, and how confusing, hopeless and tiring it can be.
I myself have lived with depression and anxiety for most of my life, depression mainly getting worse in the last five years. But, there is hope, and I am getting better. I have started seeing Physiologists and other mental support people, along with this I am now taking medication (as much as it pains me to rely on medication, for me, it works).
I have felt like I see the world through a grayscale filter for years, like I am never alive, never awake, only dancing the dance of life as an empty shell, a fake facade.
But once again, for the first time in years I am starting to wake up again, remembering that there is happiness, there is life and that I can actually feel things.
I find myself appreciating even sad moments, as for so long I have felt nothing.. nothing but fleeting pain.

There is life and there is feeling, there is hope and reason to stay alive. Live, love and do anything that makes you feel good, no matter how small. And maybe just maybe it will light the spark inside you once again.

P.s. You are wonderful, and do wonderful things. You're caring, and you help people with videos like this.. even if it's just one of your songs helping them feel just a little bit of light in the dark.


I'm closing on the last week as a 20 year old and know exactly how you feel. When I turned 20, I went to the roof of one of the building at my university and just kinda cried for a little.<br>The bus metaphor is really a really good one, right now at university it feels like theres a constant shuffling of people getting on and off at different times and with such brevity at times that I haven't been able to describe it fully. There's also a lot more inviting people on and being rejected which is very different. Sometimes it feels like people get on and off so fast and now it's just a game of reminding myself that I'm ok riding the bus alone. It's happened before and I will be ok as long as it keeps moving forward.

I'm closing on the last week as a 20 year old and know exactly how you feel. When I turned 20, I went to the roof of one of the building at my university and just kinda cried for a little.
The bus metaphor is really a really good one, right now at university it feels like theres a constant shuffling of people getting on and off at different times and with such brevity at times that I haven't been able to describe it fully. There's also a lot more inviting people on and being rejected which is very different. Sometimes it feels like people get on and off so fast and now it's just a game of reminding myself that I'm ok riding the bus alone. It's happened before and I will be ok as long as it keeps moving forward.


I have panic attacks a LOTTTT and your videos really help me a lot Dodie. You brighten up my day every time you upload a video!


Oh, you are so incredible Dodie. I admire you so so much


Beautiful video. Thank you for sharing your metaphorical bus with us. I'm sure some of this wasn't easy to talk about, but I'm so glad you're starting to feel better!


Its strange to watch this and hear you say this as it feels so close to my own thoughts. Its also so lovely to hear such honesty from you and to hear the truth, which many other youtubers would never share. Im really happy to have you on my bus Dodie and I hope you dont get off any time soon.


Wow Dodie! I'm glad you shared this with us and it has helped me understand depression more. <br>I'm sorry if this is off topic, but are you going to Playlist Live??

Wow Dodie! I'm glad you shared this with us and it has helped me understand depression more.
I'm sorry if this is off topic, but are you going to Playlist Live??


Never comment on anything ever, been a viewer for a while. But this, this video is important. Thank you <33


Dodie, you are one of my favourite people in the world! I can't explain in such few words but you inspire me to be different and kind and to be myself. I'm glad I stumbled across both of your channels because I literally wouldn't be the person I am today. Thank you for being you and thank you for your brilliant and lovely contribution to this world <3 x


I enjoyed every single second of this video


You're a courageous human Dodie, we love you so much and there's a lot a lot a lot of us! I hope it keeps feeling better!

@Charlotte Russell Aw charlotte! thank you xx


I've literally only known your channel for maybe 4 days now and it has become my favorite channel and I cannot stop listening to your songs so I'm glad you are starting to feel better and hopefully it gets better from here because you deserve to feel happy


My absolute favourite video you have ever made! This made a bad night ok again. <3


Dodie,please when you're on tour again and if you end up in Ireland,allow me to give you the biggest hug ever, I hope your bus picks up the bestest passengers and you have the best time with them :)


Dodie Clarke.. You give me hope. I love your video it made me feel better and I adore your metaphors bc now I understand something I didn't before ❤


Omg this had me in tears I've been feeling like shot recently I have no idea what I'm doing with my life and people just seem to jump in and out of my bus when they want a free ride NOT IN A SEXUAL WAY I WAS TRYING TO BE COOL AND INCORPORATE THE METAPHOR


Dodie, this is amazing. To see you feeling depressed makes me so sad to know there's not a lot I can do. But let me tell you this: you've helped me and many people with depression and anxiety. remember your asmr video? I used to pull all-nighters, even with my meds, because of my anxiety and depression. But since you told your audience about that, it's been wonderful sleeping. I don't know how many times I can thank you on behalf of me and tons of others for helping me through this horrible disorder. I hope you feel better soon, I love you.

@stella grace aw man
this means so much to me!
thank you <3


Thank you for sharing this Dodie. I can very much relate to how you were feeling on your birthday w/ the burger metaphor (amazing btw). I've been feeling like that for a long time when in situations I should actually be enjoying. It's made me feel a litter better knowing I'm not alone in the way I feel. I'm happy that you are feeling better now. You deserve to be happy ❤
~
Also I'm 19, turning 20 next year! 😥 I hope this year takes its time! I'm not ready for this lol


This whole video was so full of awesomeness and amazing days and yet you had me crying at the end. You are such a colourful, bubbling person and I'm so sorry you felt grey, sad, tired of everything, alone. I know it's an illness and not necessarily a personal opinion - if that's even the right word for what I mean - but I'm really, really happy you're feeling better and that you know you're not alone. Neither in this state of mind nor on your bus ride. And I'm proud to be a person on this bus, even though I'm way in the background, maybe more of a little bug on one of the windows, sending positive comments. But you'll get through it, and at some point you'll be able to enjoy every single burger again. <br>Love you, okay? xx

This whole video was so full of awesomeness and amazing days and yet you had me crying at the end. You are such a colourful, bubbling person and I'm so sorry you felt grey, sad, tired of everything, alone. I know it's an illness and not necessarily a personal opinion - if that's even the right word for what I mean - but I'm really, really happy you're feeling better and that you know you're not alone. Neither in this state of mind nor on your bus ride. And I'm proud to be a person on this bus, even though I'm way in the background, maybe more of a little bug on one of the windows, sending positive comments. But you'll get through it, and at some point you'll be able to enjoy every single burger again.
Love you, okay? xx

@doddleoddle I'm so proud to be the coolest ladybird on your bus <33 And we'll pass shitty grey tunnels together x

@Wisperwynd you're so on my bus
and you're like
a cool bug
like a ladybird
<333


Wow, thank you so much Dodie, honestly. Your videos have inspired me so much to just try and get out of bed in the morning and face the day, even when I can't. This year has been especially bad for me, I feel like Ive lost my ability to care, I know that I do, but at the same time I can't and so I just push people away so they dont get sucked down with me. Skipping school, failing exams, it just keeps piling on, the stress, self pity, self hate, everything. But your videos help to lift the burden, even in those minute long clips, you make me feel colour, like you said at the end, and you'll never know how much that means to me. Thank you, you'll always have a seat saved next to me on my bus. <3


oh my im crying this was really great actually oh man


I can't tell you how happy I am I randomly came across one of your videos 3 weeks ago. I've barely been watching your videos that long but I know you are an awesome person and you deserve all of your fans. You give me hope whenever you post a video like this so thank you. (:


Dodie, I've watched this video twice now, and it's left me in tears.I've been through similar things. Like while everyone else seems to be having the time if there life, your kind of just sat there thinking "Why is this so amazing? It's kinda cool, but what's the big deal?" For me the worst thing about it all is that, I strive to be independent, and i struggle with trusting people, which makes it really hard to tell the people I love and care about what I feel and what I'm going through. I'm afraid I'll be seen as weak, but I'm slowly beginning to realize, dealing with depression, anxiety, or any mental or physical illness doesn't mean your weak. It's shows you are strong, and that you can keep going. For me, it means that I'm different, in a good way, and that I means that I'll be strong enough to achieve whatever my heart desires. It doesn't mean there's something wrong with me, and I  think it's important to remember that. Being different, in my eyes, is amazing and should be embraced. It show you can do something others can't,so just because you're struggling now, doesn't mean your future will be any less bright. ❤


The best times in life is when we don't expect to be happy, but we are. Sometimes it takes nothing at all, from a stranger being the first person to make you smile, to moving to the other planet, anything can make you feel better, and I'm glad something has. You always seem to put on this front of being happy and energetic, even if you're not. You deserve to be happy Dodie, we all want you to be, we love you. And any and all of us will be here by your side, no matter when, where or what, we will be.


Thank you so so so much for this video Dodie. I too have this wall in front of me and I remember around last year I used to look around my wall, and just see pure happiness and friends. But no matter what I did I couldn't pass this wall and I was stuck in sadness and regret. I'm so happy that I've recently jumped over my wall and living my life like I really should. I think I should thank you Dodie for helping and believing in every single one of us no matter if we were across our wall or not. You even helped some of us jump over our walls. Thank you so much, Dodie.


you really pinpointed how i feel a lot of time v your metaphors :+) i lov this video so much


I was keeping myself from crying during the video but when i read the letter in the description i started crying. and thank you dodie, thanks for being so inspiring and putting a smile on my face when i  watch your videos and see how beautiful, amazing and talented you are. you are such an inspiration and just a lovely human in general. so thanks for being great. xxxxxxxxx


Now i'm sobbing, thanks. I guess I can say my mind has stopped working too. But at least I can join your bus and meet new people to make me happy. Dodie you make me happy. I barley know you I'm just a screen for you but you make me so happy. Thanks <3


Dodie, I've been following you for about 3 years now, and as someone who suffers from depression myself, I have been able to recognize the journey you've been taking. I have always admired you for videos such as these, and I haven't commented anything about them before, but I feel as though I have to now... You have made me feel not alone. You have made me feel less isolated, because I know that someone else out there thinks and feels such horrible things. These videos help me, they help us, and I hope they help you. Your music is medicine, as are you, even though it's hard to feel like it. We're in this together. Thank you for this. Thank you for being.


This is so nice.  I've also struggled with depression, and I could really relate to a lot of this video.  I'm so glad you're feeling better, and I'm so proud of you not only for pushing through but also for sharing your story.  Even though its a bit cliche "it will get better" is such an important message because even when its back for just a day or even a couple hours it feels (to me) like its always been this way and always will, even though thats just not true.  So again, you're so strong and wonderful and I hope your depression stays for a very long time. :)


This is the best video I've seen in a really long time (along side BriBry's latest video on cutcakenotwrists). :3 thank you!


Can I just say thank you for sharing your life and your thoughts and feelings so openly with basically a bunch of strangers? You didn't need to be so honest, you could have made a video with all the happy bits and pretended everything was perfect, but you didn't, and I really appreciate it.

@***** ahhh I enjoy sharing my life :) <3 thank you x


I completely know the feeling of just not being able to enjoy anything. When I look back on a trip I took with my marching band from earlier this school year I see this great trip that coulda been great but all I feel is sad because I was I such an awful place & bad stuff sorta happened too. I hope you start having more and more days like that colorful one, Dodie. I love you:)


I think a lot of us can speak from experience and remind you that depression comes and goes but I hope that this wave of yours is little and drains away (and stays away!) fast because you seem so lovely and I wish you the upmost happiness <3

@MancIsSo4YearsAgo I use far too many metaphors

@MancIsSo4YearsAgo the depression was a giant wave! like a friggin tsunami! but I think i'm just bobbing along for now and it's quite nice, and hopefully it'll stay :D


This actually made me really excited to see u and Bri when ur in Adelaide next month. And I know from watching evan's vid to bring u some Redskins! Lol


i've been suffering with depression for a while now. there always seems to be this grey cloud over my head that's keeping me from enjoying the sun i see everyone else in. i can't seem to shake the feeling honesty. i really hope one day i'll be happy again.


I'm bipolar. I've been battleling it for more than ten years now, sometime with success, sometime not so much... Your video shows that mental illnesses happen, that they are something to live with both as a daily fight and as a marathon. I think it's really brave of you to speak about it, to aknowledge the akwardness and vulnerability that comes with it, the magic of the beautifull moments of relief. I wish someone would have talked to me about it when i was younger, i would have felt less lonely and weird at times. It is a shattering realisation when you grow up that there is no "grown up" stage, no certainty or clear path to get the sense of. There is just a slow, very slow, construction of a few convictions about what is life, what is love, what is hapiness... A fragile skeleton on which we all try to gather as much sense about life and good people as we can. That's not much string to cling to but i believe it's enough to make of life, if you're brave enough to be true to it, and we all can see that you are. So, thank you and good luck doddie!


The bus metaphor at the end was beautiful. I'd be lying if I didn't say I teared up a bit.


first off, thank you and I'm so proud of you I can't even put it into words (like OH MY GOD I feel like your mom I'm just so happy that you are happier and getting happier) second, thank you for this. I may or may not have cried a bit towards the end there, but I totally understood it and what you were saying and the little video clips just got me. thank you for just I don't know.. talking about it and being one of my very favorite people ever in the world.

much love 💕


Words cannot describe how I feel about this video. In April,and even this month, I have been depressed. I'm slowly getting better because I have learned that talking to someone or anything, especially a camera, is the best way for me to feel better. Depression frumping sucks but it's all worth the pain when you finally feel happy again.


I've never met you but you're awesome. And all your fans love you, your videos brighten up my day and you're my favourite Youtuber and if I knew you as a person, probably that too.


Good lord I cried so much in this video I think I've created a new river

And I've decided to name it Dodie's happiness because it was all blocked up with grey sludge and now it flows more freely and the water is clean and fresh and sparkly and there are kind good fish swimming in it.

LOL SO CHEESY IM SORRY I'M JUST REALLY REALLY GLAD YOURE FEELING BETTER
LIKE REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY GLAD
#METAPHORESAREACTUALLYTHENEWBLACK


I haven't watched the video yet, as I know I'll end up in pieces and I have a therapy appointment tomorrow, but thank you for this video Dodie. You are truly wonderful person and I'm so happy that you're beginning to feel good again. My ups and downs are less frequent and the positive thoughts are lasting longer than the bad ones so I think I'm starting to get better too. We've got this; we can all kick depression's arse.


I should be sleeping... but it was worth staying up for to see you happier Dodie. This was such a lovely message, that is so important to share. You are fabby... x


Listening to this while writing a ginormous research paper was not a good idea bc now i'm crying and it's hard to see to type. I hope you're feeling better, Dodie! you deserve the whole entire world. And i would like one ticket for the Dodie bus pls. that sounds like a fun bus ride.


I love love love that burger analogy, it hits the nail on the head!!


Dodie, firstly you made me cry and I really want to give you a massive cuddle and say that everything will be okay.
Thank you for posting this video. You just summed up the feeling I've been trying ti understand and more recently explain for a while. I've watched my little brother struggle with Mental Illness for the past 3 and a half years and have seen him try to end his fight when he's got stuck at the bottom of his hole and he has no sign of a ladder. It's not a nice feeling and its very hard to understand how he feels as I 'm not in his brain. More recently I have been feeling grey too ( I like that metaphor). but I too think I've turned a corner and had my day in the sun and found my rainbow of bright and beautiful colours again.

Mental Illness', Stress, Death, Cancer, and all the things that cause people to be depressed are all completely shit. But knowing that there are people around you that love you, that care about you and that make you properly smile when you can't remember how to really makes a difference.

Thank you for posting this video, I think it is very brave and must have taken a lot for you to share this with the world.

Mental illness and in particular depression are stigmitised and shouldn't be. It's important that people understand what they are feeling is being felt by other people too. Nobody is alone. Nobody is beyond help. Nobody should need to end there fight.

Remember it's okay to not be okay.......


Dodie, this is my favourite video of yours. The piano cover of Adventure Time at the end made me feel extremely emotional and was gorgeously played, and even though I know you can never really love someone you don't know because you don't see the real them, you see what they choose for you to see, I really do feel very strongly for you and I love that you trust us enough to share this with us. It's brave and I'm so happy that you're conquering the wall that for all we know could be weeping with cast off ideas and dreams, but there's always time for a new beginning. You're limitless.

I wish I knew why you never notice me. You're my favourite. I can't hold it against you though. You're full of wonder and you bring light to my life. Good luck in the future.


I'm crying, Dodie you are such a wonderful wonderful person and you are so talented and idk I hope you have a lot more colorful days and also was that a piano version of adventure time at the end? <br>


I get this. Depression has been my life for at least 6 years mind you I'm 16 at the moment. I always liked the rubber band metaphor talking about snapping back and it being worse after being happy. I've had an empty bus for most of my life and now because of high school I finally have some people on my bus and it's scary to have people, most don't get it that someone can get used to being alone but I did and I feel like that's how I'm meant to live. I don't know this got strange quickly anyway I want to say I love this video and I hope we are on each other's busses. I love you I hope to meet you one day ❤❤


I didn't know how young you were. Oh my goodness you have so much heart and spirit. I live in a tiny city in the middle of the united states and your life is full of so many adventures.

@Melissa Dudley Should also mention that you're a lovely person, and it's perfectly alright for you to experience times when your brain isn't working. Not that a comment from a random person matters or anything. I just feel love from your feelings and that's why you're so talented and brilliant. <3


right now nobody is really on my bus and the driver seems like a dick, but just watching this, and like, seeing that everything seems to work out in the end gives me so much hope. you might not realise the impact you've had on 17 y/r old boys life, but you've helped. alot. sounds so weird typing this knowing i haven't even spoke to you before and it seems weird to say that only your online persona has helped me through tough times.. its crazy to think you are only 3 years older than me but yet you've helped so many people. I just love this community so much. this probably made no sense, but i had to say something.. so yeah, um, Thank you so much Dodie :')


dodie, dodiedodiedodiedodie....you are amazing and genuine and overall a magical human. i just want to say thanks for everything, and this video along with dotties has made me realize some things about me and my brain and all the mushy gushy feelingy stuff blablahblah
i am happy that you're happy and i hope you continue to be happy, because you deserve it!! you truly do! you make me happy when skies are greyyyy. sry for that ahha but yeah i think vedim was a brilliant idea, keep it up you beautiful human you! be happy, stay true, and dont forget to be awesome! :) xx

dodie, dodiedodiedodiedodie....you are amazing and genuine and overall a magical human. i just want to say thanks for everything, and this video along with dotties has made me realize some things about me and my brain and all the mushy gushy feelingy stuff *blablahblah*
i am happy that you're happy and i hope you continue to be happy, because you deserve it!! you truly do! you make me happy when skies are greyyyy. sry for that ahha but yeah i think vedim was a brilliant idea, keep it up you beautiful human you! be happy, stay true, and dont forget to be awesome! :) xx


Without sounding patronising can I just say how amazing and brave this was. I know there's this weird sense of control that comes from making your life and your brain look shiny and happy on the outside, but I think it's only when you acknowledge how shit everything feels can you start to deal with it.
Obviously I don't know you, but it comes across so naturally that you're just a good person and try really hard to be happy and bring that happiness to other people's lives. Trust me when I say I know that feeling of frustration and devastation when, despite all those efforts, you just can't feel the joy in life. You can see it, objectively as you put it, but it's just outside your realm.
I feel really hesitant saying this, because I feel I have no right to, but sometimes medication is the best option. I was on an antidepressant for 8 months and it was really the best decision I ever made. Sometimes you just need to take a break that sadness and get some perspective.
All the love!

@Eileen g a wonderful, intelligent comment! thank you x


DODIE I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT WITH THE BURGER YOU LIKE LOOK BACK AND YOU'RE LIKE WHY WAS THAT NOT A GOOD DAY FOR ME?? EVERYTHING SHOULD HAVE BEEN SO GOOD AM I BEING STUPID?? BUT YOU JUST WEREN'T QUITE THERE AND EVERYONE ELSE SEEMED TO ENJOY IT SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU DID AND IT MAKES YOU WANT TO CRY BC ALL YOU WANT IS TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A GOOD MEMORY OF THAT DAY BUT YOU DON'T


oh Dodie, you really know how to get me... sitting in here in tears. I'm so so happy that you're starting to feel better. you are one of the most loveliest people I've ever had the privilege to meet and you deserve all the happiness in the world <33

also, the bus metaphor hit me hard. My bus used to be so full, like a party bus, but right now I feel my bus is really empty and I'm on a massive bumpy, curvy country road. I know that one day, hopefully soon, my bus may be busy again but until then I'm so so thankfully for people like you, and bri and candice for all the little things. just the music and videos and tweets and being so lovely to me when I've meet yous, just keeps me going and hoping that, one day, the bus will fill up again and the party will restart <33

@Victoria Maitland make a party in your bus! I'll come!!!

<3333


Thank you for making this. I hope the burger stays delicious.


I reaaaallly should be sleeping now, but ohh well haha. I didn't know you that you have depression until this video, I'm the same here- I have it and it runs in the family along with anxiety. I'm so glad you found the ladder, I hope I will too soon (and hopefully before my last 5 years of being a teenager are gone). Also wooo cats (^_^)~


<b>*trigger warning*</b> Thank you for talking about this. The way you described/illustrated being depressed was great, I relate so so much! You really are incredibly inspiring, dodie. You've given me a lot of positivty through your videos, and now knowing you've dealt with these types of issues, I'm even more appreciative. I also deal with depression, and I actually almost committed suicide in January and ended up at an mental health facility where I was diagnosed. Since then I've gotten on medication and started therapy.But I am just now in the last few weeks truly starting to remember what life is about, and feel happy again. To anyone who's struggling, I promise you even when depression has you going through hell, things WILL turn around for your, and that burger will be HELLA delicious with extra cheese and bacony goodness. <3

**trigger warning** Thank you for talking about this. The way you described/illustrated being depressed was great, I relate so so much! You really are incredibly inspiring, dodie. You've given me a lot of positivty through your videos, and now knowing you've dealt with these types of issues, I'm even more appreciative. I also deal with depression, and I actually almost committed suicide in January and ended up at an mental health facility where I was diagnosed. Since then I've gotten on medication and started therapy.But I am just now in the last few weeks truly starting to remember what life is about, and feel happy again. To anyone who's struggling, I promise you even when depression has you going through hell, things WILL turn around for your, and that burger will be HELLA delicious with extra cheese and bacony goodness. <3


I'm so sorry to see that happen to your uke. I know the connection I have between me and my uke and would be devastated if it was destroyed.


I feel like i've been in the same place for awhile now too. of course i've had days that have lifted me up and i've seen some color but then it's gone. it's back to grey and bleh and it's frustrating. i've gotten better since the end of 2014 but i've always felt doubt and i've left most of the past but sometimes i can't help but to revisit the past and let it haunt me for a bit. so i do know how you've felt and oh my goodness does it suck. but enough of that. you're videos bring me happiness and they fill me with hope. you remind me of the friends i have and the places i want to see and the things i want to do. now go get some sleep, and love you <3


This really hit home. Such a beautiful video. Crying.


This resonates with me so much. I feel greyness sometimes and the struggle feels quite intense, especially when you can't explain it to everyone else or be good for everyone else. I think you sum the feeling up pretty well, and I can see so much hope in your voice. I hope the feeling lasts, or that if you struggle with the grey again, at least you will still have the memory of vivid colour. I'm with you on this one Dodie, proud to be a subscriber. <3

+Isy I don't know if anyone has seen this but I've just realised that, for the first time in my life, I'm able to admit I might have depression. I was looking for videos on depression/sadness made by my favourite creators and I came back across this. I'm going to the GP in the next few days, funny how the world works. Thank you so much Dodie, really. <br>Lots of love from Edinburgh, Is x

+Isy I don't know if anyone has seen this but I've just realised that, for the first time in my life, I'm able to admit I might have depression. I was looking for videos on depression/sadness made by my favourite creators and I came back across this. I'm going to the GP in the next few days, funny how the world works. Thank you so much Dodie, really.
Lots of love from Edinburgh, Is x


not so much a bus ride as a Magical Mystery Tour!


Oh my gosh Dodie this is so nice ily xxxxxxxxxxxxx


I lost it at your little note at the bottom. At first I didn't know why I was crying, then I realized I was just so happy that you were finally feeling better because I have been in the same shitty place for the past couple of months. For me things are starting to look a little brighter as well. Although my brain is not working completely quite yet, you've helped me see that this can't and won't last forever. I cannot thank you enough for changing my life. Keep on doin you :)


"or you've written your username wrong ..don't do that"
im so sorry #me

also I'm so glad u can see yourself getting happier, even if it is only a little bit at a time bc u are so wonderful and u deserve to be happy and mental illness sucks. I love u soso much and I am so proud of u !!

@Zoë Walker lol yes you

ahahah thank you zoe!! x


Dodie, omg, you've responded to most all of the comments on here and that, to me makes you Queen BAE. Don't respond to this. Get your sleep. The content of the video and your letter has filled me up w/hope. Pinky swear accepted, thank you.


Dear Dodie, you are one of the most truly inspirational Youtubers I have ever ever seen and I am so glad I get to watch you grow into such a strong, more confident, really lovely person, inside and out (oh god I sound a bit paedophillic(if that's even a word)) aHhhh you are a God damned fabulous human being, even when you have every reason to be upset, you still smile and aLwAySs put others before yourself and wow, there's not many people like you left on this cruel earth.. Hmm I wonder if we could make loads of Dodie clones and I swear the world would be a much much much (multiplied by 183837743838) better place ahhhh ...if only💭💭 but then there's all the ethical issues with cloning and all that jazzzzz.... (Biology revision brain sorry) wow, you're such a blooming inspiration to everyone, you show us that, yes, mental illnesses DO suck, however there's always going to be a ladder to climb out of the deep abyss of feelings and thoughts and that ladder may be hard to reach, but you CAN reach it (metaphors are life m8) ps you'll always be a part of my amazing bus of amazing people, and I'll never leave that bus... Ah, and people will come and leave our buses, some who we thought would stay forever and never leave our sides... And then there are some who we put so much time and effort into and then we don't get it back, welllll, they can hop off at the next stop! AHHH SORRY FOR THE RAMBLING DEEPNESS BUT I CAN't EXPRESS HOW STRONG YOU ARE, WELL DONE FOR NOT GIVING UP, SEE, YOU C A N do THIS AND YOU ARE WORTH EVERY PLACE IN THIS WORLD, STAY SNAZZY XxxxX


God Dodie your letter hit me right there... This video kind of opened up my eyes a little bit. I am surrounded by all these awesome freaking people that love me and want me to be happy but I just can't bring myself to do it. Smiling seems like a hardship, let alone enjoying myself which feels like a chore. People ask me what's wrong and I just don't know what to say because there really is nothing wrong. I'm being sad for the sake of being sad and it's just such a part of my human nature now that I don't know how to stop. I love you so much, and your videos are one of the little rays of sunshine in my life, and it kills me that you're going through this. I'm so happy that you're getting better though, because people like you shouldn't have to deal with this. <br>Geez sorry I just wrote a book but thanks if you stuck with me. Love you Dodie. <3333

God Dodie your letter hit me right there... This video kind of opened up my eyes a little bit. I am surrounded by all these awesome freaking people that love me and want me to be happy but I just can't bring myself to do it. Smiling seems like a hardship, let alone enjoying myself which feels like a chore. People ask me what's wrong and I just don't know what to say because there really is nothing wrong. I'm being sad for the sake of being sad and it's just such a part of my human nature now that I don't know how to stop. I love you so much, and your videos are one of the little rays of sunshine in my life, and it kills me that you're going through this. I'm so happy that you're getting better though, because people like you shouldn't have to deal with this.
Geez sorry I just wrote a book but thanks if you stuck with me. Love you Dodie. <3333


you wonderful person, its good to hear things are getting better. Also is the piano version of adventure time you had in the background at the end something you did or can it be found somewhere else?


Dodie are you ever going to tour in America?! I adore you and your music but I live all the way over in New York! Just curious, no pressure!<br>I had the same 'burger feeling' after my bat mitzvah. I never really understood it but you manage to put it in to words so thank you!! <3

Dodie are you ever going to tour in America?! I adore you and your music but I live all the way over in New York! Just curious, no pressure!
I had the same 'burger feeling' after my bat mitzvah. I never really understood it but you manage to put it in to words so thank you!! <3


Sometimes a candle shines brighter than a strobe light.

What I mean is, sometimes it's the simple things that show us how awesome the bigger things are. For me, it was seeing the finale of Poirot and the same year meeting David Suchet that really cemented in my mind that I'm definitely getting better. I keep going because I know there are more things in my life to look forward to like that. Big things, like meeting people who inspire me, and little things, like sunny days, starry nights, and lazy afternoons.

Okay, Winnie-the-Pooh reference wasn't fully intentional. But fitting. So so fitting.


You shared so many things on this single video, that a proper comment would have to be a wall of text, so to keep it tight and actually readable:

You are a very mature person, conscious of your feelings, and knows how to put yourself into other people's shoes. It's amazing how you apologize about not being able to spend more time with your fans, even though I'm sure that most likely all of them appreciated their time with you a lot. I need to add that it's nice to see you embracing the beginning of your adulthood. Many people kinda freakout when this happens.

It's awesome to know how much you could enjoy so much the day you broke into the park. One thing is getting a day off but still having some part of your work with you, maybe putting some pressure onto your shoulders, but that day looked like you could enjoy yourself and your friends with no worries at all, and that makes a big difference.

To finish this huge comment that I was planning to be a lot shorter, let me take a ride into the bus metaphore (badjokeisbad) and say that you're a captivating person, and you don't need to worry because as you said, your bus is full of people who'll always wish you the best that's out there for you to have.

I'm sorry if I couldn't write anything shorter, but after going through 20 mins of your feelings and experiences, this is the shortest I could write.

@brianpso I really enjoyed reading this, actually :) thank you!


I love you. Bit much to say in a comment but after that video... wow.