Oh Gosh, I love this video Dodie:) I felt that I was able to connect with you on a whole another level. I feel empty most of the time in situations where I should feel happy, excited. Or something at least. But, I feel none of those things. I look around and see everyone laughing and taking it all in and I just can't help but think, "Am I missing something?" "Why am I not happy? Is there something wrong with me?I wanna feel like that. "And then I start to feel really envious of the people around me who feel happy without even trying and then, the tears start. At the end, I feel even more lost, confused and sad than even before this whole thing started. Finally, the numbness sets in and I learn to live with it. I've been living with this feeling for a few years now and its not getting any better. Thank You for making this video and sharing a little bit of yourself. It has made me feel less alone.<br>p.s. the burger analogy described by situation perfectly.

Oh Gosh, I love this video Dodie:) I felt that I was able to connect with you on a whole another level. I feel empty most of the time in situations where I should feel happy, excited. Or something at least. But, I feel none of those things. I look around and see everyone laughing and taking it all in and I just can't help but think, "Am I missing something?" "Why am I not happy? Is there something wrong with me?I wanna feel like that. "And then I start to feel really envious of the people around me who feel happy without even trying and then, the tears start. At the end, I feel even more lost, confused and sad than even before this whole thing started. Finally, the numbness sets in and I learn to live with it. I've been living with this feeling for a few years now and its not getting any better. Thank You for making this video and sharing a little bit of yourself. It has made me feel less alone.
p.s. the burger analogy described by situation perfectly.


I think you're a fantastic human being and I would love to get on your bus one day <3


You are really beautiful and I love your videos. It's currently 3:20 am and I'm here watching your awesomeness. This video made me cry. Do you know where I can buy a bus ticket?


I love the bus metaphor. A good way of looking at it is seeing how many seats you have to be filled and thinking of all the cool people you can fill them with! (Also, this is my favourite video you've ever done)


I love you.
Thank you so much for this.. I'm really trying to find a ladder but it looks like the hole just keeps getting bigger. It's been three years and only a few months ago I started to search for help.
I dont intend to give up, but having no motivation makes me feel stuck.
Thanks for this video. It made me feel happy for you.


Oh god, i genuinely care for you a lot and i think you're a beautiful and amazing person. Idk why but i never realised you had depression, idk if i maybe haven't seen any videos you've posted about it or if you don't talk about it, but I'd have never thought you had felt or still feel this way. We are here for you, we want you to feel as amazing as we think you are. I know how you feel about finding the happiest times in the 'less interesting' days. I think i find my happiness in those kind of days where i hang out with friends at sixth form as it hits me that I'm being a normal person, something i never thought I'd be. I love you so much and i hope you continue to feel better, but either way we are along for your glorious bus ride ;) x


This video is so beautiful and emotional. The way you depicted how depression feels like so perfectly blows my mind, because I have also been having struggles with my brain for the past few years and don't know how to explain the war inside my brain to others. I am hoping to become a musician one day and you are the ultimate inspiration. Thank you, Dodie, for sharing your story with the YouTube community and to all the people going through the same battles as you. 💕


This video was amazing @doddleoddle, you are so honest and it's genuinely inspiring. I've never heard depression described like that. Being someone who's never experienced it, it's not the easiest thing to get your head around, but you made it so understandable. Hopefully if anyone I know experiences anything like this I can be a better friend to them, and probably point them in the direction of this video aha :P

Anyway, I just wanted to say I hope you always remember how many people's lives you make better, Dodie, and you are never alone <3


I'm not gonna lie.. This teared me up! I'm really happy for you that the colours are brightening for you and that you're enjoying everything you're doing. You deserve everything good and I'm glad it's beginning to show for you!

Some people have bad days, others have bad times. These times doesn't have a limit and can go on for a week, a month, a year or even longer. It's the strong people who get through these bad times and the even stronger people who talks about it and help others through their own experiences.
You inspire me Dodie, there is no other way of putting it. I'm genuinely so happy for you! x


oh my god i love you so much this made me cryyyyyy. i understand completely what youre talking about and i feel like you explained it so great. you put how i feel and how lots of other people into words i love you so much


I love how honest you are, & how you don't pretend to be someone else you're not. Your a big role model for all ages, because you show us to be OURSELVES. YOU ARE THE BESTEST DODIE! xx


Wow. Just wow. You truly are an inspiration Dodie. Very honored to be a fan.


Dodie you put it into words so well and I'm so happy that you do. I'm crying because I love you and I never want you to be unhappy but I realize that you can't help it. No one can. But we love you always and well always be on your bus, even if that metaphor is crap :)


I've been dealing with depression for a very long time and other shit I'll spare you from hearing. But the end. It made realize how much good I actually have. I have this amazing family and loving boyfriend and great friends. <br>Life is terrible yet it's so beautiful and I forgot about the beautiful part. Thank you for reminding me.

I've been dealing with depression for a very long time and other shit I'll spare you from hearing. But the end. It made realize how much good I actually have. I have this amazing family and loving boyfriend and great friends.
Life is terrible yet it's so beautiful and I forgot about the beautiful part. Thank you for reminding me.


You are a beautiful human being with a wonderful spirit and I'm so sorry that you have to deal with depression. I know what it feels like when all of the happiness has gone.... it really sucks, but one day you will wake up and the black cloud will be gone. Your videos make my heart happy. I wish you the best! 😁


oh dodie I never thought someone could put how I feel to words so well.


Tying in with your metaphor, I believe that I am in the groupie bus behind your bus, following your success and wishing you every happiness xxx


Thank you so much for making this video. I have not experienced depression myself, but the burger analogy genuinely put it into perspective so very well. I have a few friends who are or have been depressed and I ALWAYS want to help them but I never truly know what to say or do, and it's really upsetting to see so many people that I care about dealing with grey worlds. Do you have any advice for people seeing depression from an external perspective?

Also, thank you for getting on my bus a few years ago ^_^ it's probably one of the best things that have happened to me


gosh this filemm took a frightfully long time! It was quite worth it nonetheless. I wish you well dodie my dear


This was...I don't know, really. But I'd argue it's one of your best videos, and some of the things you said feel so accurate.


Ive just watched this now and everything has become clear like it's taken a while to try and break the wall down and now it's finally working and this video explains it ily <33


every time i watch this i just feel overwhelmed with everything


I come back to this video literally every week.


this is one of the best videos I've ever seen, seriously I'm sitting here sobbing because of how good it was. I absolutely adore you dodie and I'm so so happy and so so glad you're feeling happier now :') honestly I get you and it sucks so much when there's nothing but happiness and good things around you and you feel like this little dark miserable rain cloud but hey, there's hope I guess. you're absolutely wonderful + one of the best people in the world; I'm so glad you exist


Thanks for the tears Dodie. I'm enjoying this bus ride. Even if I'm nowhere near you. Xx


i still watch this video almost everyday, and it's weird because i don't really know why, i guess it gives me strength or something like that.. :/ ♥


I keep staying way into the am's binging this Chanel over and over... School going down but doddle going strong


I totally understand what you mean with that metaphor! I feel like that right ;-; with exams and everything too which adds soooososososo much more pressure and everything sucks but honestly I'd like you to know that you're absolutely wonderful and your videos always add colours into my grey moods c: <3


Breath and don't let your head take you too far away from yourself ❤


You're so wonderful. You're a light in my cave.


Awwwww.<br>Hi im new to ur channel but that was such a great video and it was so relateable. <3

Awwwww.
Hi im new to ur channel but that was such a great video and it was so relateable. <3


as my familys nickname for me was and always will be dodï it was weird hearing them sing happy birthday but it was also sooo heartwarming


This video made me cry.. a lot! But I'm so happy that you are happy 😊 (p.s Im so sorry we were so loud at the dublin gig we were just very happy to see you Xx☺)


Dodie I don't know you personally but one thing i know is that you're an AMAZING person. You've inspired me a lot and thank you for being so natural and so honest all the time. I frequently feel like i am alone in my bus but with this video, i want to believe that things can get better.
I am living in Paris and I Hope i'll get the chance to see your "bus" one day.
Merci pour tout.


Crying... This was really good dodie.. <3 c:


I feel my brain isn't working at the moment just like you said, and Dodie you just described it the best way and feeling like that is sucky


I cannot express how much I love this girl


God dammit dodie! It's 2am and I'm all emotional now :') this is just so beautiful and honest. I dont think there are many people out there who admit that they're feeling down with themselves even when they "seem" to have everything they could want. I've suffered with depression for as long as I can remember (seriously, I remember being at least under ten and crying myself to sleep for reasons I didn't even know at the time), but you are a real encouragement, and I don't think that I really could've got through depression alive if it wasn't for your videos (it might sound sad since I'm just some person who you don't know behind a laptop) but YouTube has been the only thing that has ever seemed to be on my side. Thank you for the help Dodie, I really hope that you feel better too, I can't stand to see you upset x


Dodie this really spoke to me. Everything from the feeling nothing when everything seems great and people getting off the bus, genuinely brought a tear to my eye. I hope you're happier now because you deserve it so much <3


What an awful metaphor,  but what an awesome video. I can't help but smile watching you on tour, and someday I really wish I will be able to go to see you on one of your tours. :-D


I totally get this thankyou for showing me I'm not the only one ❤


I wonder who told you the bus metaphor. Nevertheless, this video was absolutely beautiful and I'm now sobbing in a little ball of "???". Thank you for this :)


holy moley i love you and your videos and your bravery and i always comment that you 'seem' lovely because I always try to remind myself that we essentially see an edited version of creators on here but god damnit you are just bloody lovely


I've been going through a really dark time lately, a friend gave me a metaphors on depression and she said it's like a dementor taking away all of your happiness and making you feel unworthy and in loved and this is how I've felt for so long.
Like nothing will be good again but I've just sat and cried at this video because you have me the realisation  that my 'bus' isn't empty and I've got so many people in my life that are good and loving and supportive.
Thank you Dodie for being one of the lights in what seems like this endless tunnel of darkness. What you do matters to so many of try to keep that in mind because there are thousands of people on your bus.
Happy Thoughts :) x


this video helped me create my film :)) thank you dodie!!


i love you and i love you're spirit and you make me feel okay


Stay strong Dodie you're such an inspiration xxx


This video is just... perfect... <b>sends you all the love</b>

This video is just... perfect... *sends you all the love*


I love ur videos and this 1 was pretty awesome xxx


this is the first time ive heard something that totally and utterly describes my situation and brain and im ever so slightly emotional because ive just been like this eating my flavourless burgers for years now and now suddenly i find out people feel the same. thank you dodie, for making me feel less alone i guess :) x


You're videos are amazing Dodie. You can manage to bring colour and joy to us with your music and all the other funky stuff you make, even when you feel shitty. You're so inspiring and wonderful and fabulous and omigosh thank you so much for what you do. Cheers for being a ladder for so many other people ^-^


Congratulations on becoming reanimated xx


Just Thank You. I really just can't thank you enough <3


I think that all I have to say and all that I can say is; thank you. You helped me tonight as I sat alone in my bed, writing song lyrics in my head, I've written one and it's called bus ticket. Thank you for that inspiration and thank you for the happiness I can finally hope to feel x


I am in tears, honestly this sums everything up perfectly. The burger metaphor is perfect! But with the bus thing, I feel like there are plenty of people on my bus but no-one really wants to be there, like a fucking replacement bus service or something. It gives me so much hope to see that you're starting to get better though!xxx


The sweetest thing is when you were about to sing happy birthday to yourself but all your friends appeared and sang it with you


You're always referencing the feelings of nothingness/blank/empty, and I always respect it but never really understand it, but that burger metaphor was actually really helpful to understand what you've been going through for so long.      <3 <3


omg, I've been crying for 2 hours, this really made me think


this video really made me stop and smile so much, life isnt always smiley, some times you've gotta try to really push through the things that are holding you back and everyone who does that needs to recognize how great they are for doing so, and everyone who's struggling right now or in a weeks time, you're stronger than you think, however small or big the steps you take you're doing better than you once were, thank you so much Dodie, I hope you have a great day whether or not you see this


This is my favourite video you has ever posted. I am in awe with how real you are, Dodie. You're are so beautiful and honestly one of my favourite people in the world. I have met you and you were so kind to me and I will never forget when we sung together. Thank you so much for just being you and inspiring me every single day of my life. I love you so much Dodie and I'm glad that you have an amazing beautiful bus. You are definately on my one! Thank you xx<br>love jordern.

This is my favourite video you has ever posted. I am in awe with how real you are, Dodie. You're are so beautiful and honestly one of my favourite people in the world. I have met you and you were so kind to me and I will never forget when we sung together. Thank you so much for just being you and inspiring me every single day of my life. I love you so much Dodie and I'm glad that you have an amazing beautiful bus. You are definately on my one! Thank you xx
love jordern.


Dear Dodie,
I've watched the video (THE WHOLE VIDEO! Some people do watch the whole video) for the third time now. I had to think about the video a lot, because I can really relate to what you are saying actually.. What I want to say is, you can be whoever or whatever the fuck you want to be, no one can tell you what kind of video you should upload or who someone wants you to be. I really needed some time, to think about the video and everything you said, because I once felt the same way (it is better now, but not gone, but I'm good) and I just wanted to remind you that, you don't have to fulfill anyones needs, but yours. Yourself is the one that counts. (Sure, your family and friends n the ones you love <3 , but I mean like; someone who is telling you, what to upload, etc. hope you understand what I mean) You are amazing the way you are. I watch your videos everyday. When I'm feeling bad, your videos and your songs help me to get through a hard day (sounds cheesy but I REALLY mean it.) I just want to say that, whenever someones goes off your bus, it happens for a reason. If they do not want to continue the ride on your bus anymore, you FUCKING don't need them on your bus!! It is YOUR bus, and you can choose whom you want on there. This is what I have learned through the past 3 years. I just wanted to say, that you've done a great job, (even if I don't know you, but what I can see in your videos) and it is okay to not feel good sometimes. If you need someone to talk  (I know you don't know me, and I don't know you but I just want to suggest it to you in case you don't have any to talk to, because they are foodshopping etc) you can talk to me any time!
I love your videos and you the way you are, and I will forever support you here from Germany!
Just remind yourself that you are good enough :)

Love,
Helene

P.S.: I can totally relate to the iceboater going through you veins, before stage!!!!! I ALWAYS DIE BEFORE I GO ON STAGE!!! :D


oh my god dodie you made me cry. i have always always envisioned you as the pinnacle of happiness. whenever i was feeling down i would always watch your videos just to hear your voice. i love you so much and i think its really cool the way you explained this entire experience for you. you are one of my biggest idols and i love you a lot


All throughout the video I didn't really know where you were going with it, but in the end it kinda made me cry. I cried because I know exactly what you're going through, and that's what makes it so hard hitting. So I hope more than anything that you don't have to go through feeling alone for much longer <3


I've been dealing with depression for a while now and I am leaving my school I have been going to for 10 years and when you talked about the bus metaphor I crumbled a little.


I couldn't imagine my ukulele being broken, I'd cry forever


love the bus analogy, feel like it applies to me a lot rn.. great video :)


Dodge Clark, my literal inspratinlon💞 the made me cry... a lot😭 but I really love you😘💖


It really hit me hard at the end,hell,I am still crying while typing this. And it was because I can relate to this so so so much and I just never want any one that I love to ever feel that pain,even if I never get to truely know them,I will forever wish the happiness upon them that they have given me. (:


just found out about Dodie about a week ago and not only could relate to all the lyrics she sings about, but am genuinely proud of how much progress and obstacles she's overcome. DODIE YOU'RE WONDERFUL!


I LOVE THIS AND YOUR FRINGE IS AMAZING X


OMG first video I watched. So touching ❤


Your metaphors make so much sense to me. I've had pretty bad depression for a few years now and I'm slowly starting to feel better about life and myself again. Your videos are always so cute and make me smile and I'm glad you felt brave enough to share this part of yourself with so many people. I hope you continue to go in a positive direction and be the smiley happy Dodie you deserve to be


you are so honest and real with us all dodie, and it's so important to me that I can look up to people who are honest and real so thank you so much <br>you are such a lovely person and trust me even if it's hard to feel like it now, your bus will be full and every passenger will be enjoying amazing dodie burgers (just a name of course cannibalism never helps anyone)

you are so honest and real with us all dodie, and it's so important to me that I can look up to people who are honest and real so thank you so much
you are such a lovely person and trust me even if it's hard to feel like it now, your bus will be full and every passenger will be enjoying amazing dodie burgers (just a name of course cannibalism never helps anyone)


I've felt the same.  I always thought I was a happy person, and yet for most of the past two years, I just haven't felt good.  Not sick, not suicidal, just dreary.  And yet this year and lately, it's felt like a dream.  Sometimes I still feel down, but the moment I do, someone comes by.  A friend telling me a horrid joke, calling about homework and end up talking about nothing for hours, or someone just coming and being beside me without reason.  All I can say if you're not feeling the best is it's okay, and I hope you find that one day you look out and everything just seems bright.


Such a great video!! Thanks for sharing ^.^


Thank you. Thank you, thank you. I just got back to New Jersey from a week in England today, and realized that I spent my entire trip choking down a grey, sludgey burger. And I had a wonderful time, don't get me wrong. But looking back, it doesn't feel like anything. And I didn't know how to talk about it to other people without sounding ungrateful. But this helps so much, and while I'm so sorry that you've ever suffered this way, I want to thank you for sharing the way you feel, because it has made me feel less alone.


hi dodie! i know it's been a long time since you posted this video but i just wanted to say thank you so much. since like last easter (2014) i've felt kind of just empty and sad and as you said, nothing. like i've had great days, like the day i saw you and bethan and met you guys, that was a good day. but the rest of the time i could be doing anything but i'd feel nothing or just really sad, and i still do now. but honestly with this video i watched it and i think it helped me finally understand what's been wrong. so thank you so much, everyone else i've ever known who's suffered with depression has said 'no you're just sad' but yeah thank you for helping me to understand what's going on in my head xx


i just rewatched this and im actually sobbing


I love videos like this because I know I'm not the only one who suffers from anxiety and depression xxx thank you


i don't think i've cried so much this was beautiful


I can't sleep, but your videos make me calm and happy


your letter is very special. thank you for sharing a little piece of you with me. one of my holes fills temporarily filled. thank you so much xo


I love the bus metaphor. I can relate to it soo much.


Oh my, I am glad I didn't watch this at lunchtime. You are honestly one of the nicest you tubers I've ever met and I am so glad you are trying to help mental health. I want to write so much more but hey this isn't meant to be an essay. I am glad your getting your colour back and I hope you have loads of fun finding even better colours!


This made me cry srsly and the letter! thanks for the ladder!


This made me realise that what I have been feeling is most likely depression, however severe it may be. Ever since some of my bestest friends left my school it hasn't been the same. It's like they haven't got off my bus but they don't have a season ticket anymore, I barely ever see them, when I used to see them every day. The friends still at my school, some I barely see anymore, it's like they're on my bus but not very often and the people I end up having to hang around with, they're not dreadful, but i wish that they weren't on my bus all the time, particularly as one of them is quite negative and I think it has an impact on me. I hope this summer, I can fill up my bus again with the people I want, but I worry that I won't and that makes me sad. I feel like everyone around me is in colour and I'm in grey.

This was a truly lovely video, the London gig and your birthday were lovely :) (apart from my anxiety but the happiness outweighs it)

I love your bus and all the people on it and I want a life ticket pls :)

Also, that adventure time instrumental was cute af. :3

I am very glad you are starting to feel better and long may it continue :)

xx


I think this is my favourite video of hers of all time.


I've watched this so many times and it never fails to make me cry. Does anyone know the name of the song at the very end of the video?


This is wonderful, Dodie. i will send this video to my friends who don't understand depression and maybe you will help her get it


Dodie, even though you don't know me, and I haven't had the chance to meet you in person, thank you for opening the door and letting me be one of the faceless people on you bus. For allowing all of us on your bus.


The part where everyone sang you happy birthday made me cry I'm so scared I'm so scared I'm going to be and adult someday and I'm going to be old and I'm going to die I'm so afraid what the hell


This is such a wonderful video! You are such a wonderful person! You make so many people happy even when you aren't necessarily happy yourself, that is something you should be incredibly proud of. I often feel alone even though logically I know that I'm not and it is a horrible, suffocating feeling because you want to just shake yourself and say "stop being so silly!!" but your brain just can't understand. <br>I'm glad you're starting to feel happy again ❤

This is such a wonderful video! You are such a wonderful person! You make so many people happy even when you aren't necessarily happy yourself, that is something you should be incredibly proud of. I often feel alone even though logically I know that I'm not and it is a horrible, suffocating feeling because you want to just shake yourself and say "stop being so silly!!" but your brain just can't understand.
I'm glad you're starting to feel happy again ❤


Something about this, like the brain thing, at the end, and the letter in the description, something in me connected, and I wanted to say thank you, for sharing, but it made me feel like someone was on my bus for once, thank you Dodie.x


The last couple days of school I was asked "Who is your hero?" I replied "dodie"

you are my favourite person, I also feel tainted with sadness even on good days, but watching your videos is like a break from it all and I love you so much, you are an amazing person, I wish I could tell you in person but when you were in Ireland I couldn't go to your gigs, really wish I could have gone 😔


What song were you dancing to? <br>Oh and I'm so so so happy for you, Dodie. I don't know what to say honestly... I'll never leave that bus, Dodie (am i even in the bus or..? where can i buy that ticket? haha) I promise. love you loads <3

What song were you dancing to?
Oh and I'm so so so happy for you, Dodie. I don't know what to say honestly... I'll never leave that bus, Dodie (am i even in the bus or..? where can i buy that ticket? haha) I promise. love you loads <3


The metaphor got me...your video related to me, ily so much dodie💓


I hope that you start to have more happy days so that every day is a happy day :)


I really needed to hear all of the things you said at the end of this video. Sometimes, I feel like my bus isn't even functional. I feel like sometimes it is broken down on the side of the road, and even the people on my bus are upset with me. But you're absolutely right, and I know things will get better. Colour will return to my life. I'm so extremely glad you exist, Dodie. You're beautiful, and so wonderful, and I hope you know that. xoxo


i have steadily realized how full each of my days can be, and i don't think i've ever been more content in my life. also - here's another metaphor - i like to think of myself as a kinda sponge (?) and soak up as much of every day as i can. my yesterday's aren't weighing me down anymore.. they're lifting me up. i'm glad you've found a way through your wall too :)


I was fine and then I got to the end and I started sobbing


After just reading the description, here I am slightly crying with a tortilla in hand in my bed at 10 at night. Ugh what is my life


i'm really really really really really proud of you, dodie. you can do this.


The fact that you mentioned my hometown three times, oddly made me happy :) #Dublin


this made me feel. feel a lot, A LOT, of things. first, i wanted to scream and burst into tears because I've been feeling EXACTLY the same lately and it's so relieving to know that I'm not alone in this. then I started feeling sad because of your uke and everything that you had to deal with, but in a second I started feeling very proud and happy because you managed to pull through. it takes a fuck tone of courage and strength so hats off to you, mademoiselle. and now, I feel incredibly content. it's like all the little annoying thoughts in my head that are constantly buzzing about exams and life choices and problems with my family and my friends turning into people I can't talk to anymore just shut up. and I can breathe and think and tell myself I'll be okay. and this is very important and much needed. so, even if you (most definitely) eon't read this, I wanted to say thank you. thank you so much. you are amazing. keep going and never give up, no matter what happens in that bus. xx


I Loved the burger metaphor, it was epic to hear. I could relate so much.


I hope all the adventures you go on are full of color and happiness and that all the grey bits start to fade away


I can relate... SO much. I've been dealing with Depression for a year now and I've almost killed myself thinking this world couldn't offer anything but the grey- and emptiness I've felt because I simply couldn't remember good times. I'm now taking meds and it's slowly getting better although I'm still far from cured and happy :/ It's sad to hear that you have to deal with depression at the moment and I can only tell you: stay strong with me :)


Emotinal 💕💕 But I love you, your fans love you so keep smiling until you really smile ✨✨


Wow.... What a great video. I loved the metaphors so so much they really spoke to me, especially the burger one. I have had several memories like that and it's just like my brain wants to pick out all the bad parts of those times and forget about anything fun, and when my friends talk about those memories I feel emptiness and regret. I'm so glad someone else feels this way and had the courage to share it, it thought no one else felt this! Thanks Dodie, love you ❤


Thanks for that rigger warning actually 😂 I would've cried otherwise


Always a very good thing when people speak openly about mental health. You are amazing and I hope you get your bus mojo back soon x


I cried. I'm sorry, I cried. I go through the same thing so often and I feel like no one around me understands it. My friends just say that if I'm not upset about anything then I'm fine. My mom actually told me that being depressed is stupid and a waste of time, which just made me feel like I was stupid and a waste of time. I've honestly been slowly getting happier since I discovered YouTube. It's full of people who are just like me and have been through the same things as me. It makes me feel far less alone, and far more understood. Every time that someone makes me laugh on YouTube, it makes my heart happy. It may sounds silly, but it makes everything brighter. Slowly my world is turning from complete blackness into a universe of color.


Just finished crying. This video is beautiful.


Dodie your hair looks so lovely here! Do you use anything new?


it's ridiculous how accurate the burger metaphor is, thinkin of u dodie <3


Gorgeous video Dodie. I may not be on your bus, but I like to see it pass by once and a while. We don't know one another, we likely never will, but when I see your videos like this, so honest and open, I can't help but feel love towards a friend. I do hope happiness comes your way more often and you smile more and more each day. Love and blessings, Dodie.
Thanks for being you.


I love the bus metaphor. I kinda feel like there are plenty of people in my bus but they're all sitting in the back together and I'm sitting in the front alone.


I'm a relatively new and therefore insignificant passenger on your bus but this whole video resonated a lot with me and I think you're amazing. Thank you for being so open about yourself and giving me an opportunity to reflect on my own stuff.<br>All the best. <3

I'm a relatively new and therefore insignificant passenger on your bus but this whole video resonated a lot with me and I think you're amazing. Thank you for being so open about yourself and giving me an opportunity to reflect on my own stuff.
All the best. <3


I only just discovered your channel today, you make the most amazing things :P

I can't believe you've been down New Zealand, no one ever comes here, lol! It'd be nice to meet you someday.


I have been much happier since i got on your bus and I'm very glad you are becoming happier too (: you're a wonderul human <3


The honesty in this video, Dodie, was immense. You constantly amaze me (and I'm sure many others will agree) on how you explain the feeling you get when one goes into a depression. You get it. You allow other people to get it. Usually, I see people just bottle these things up and let it get the better of them. But with you having posted this video, you're telling people, as alone they may feel, they're not. :)

Oh man. I just wanna give you a hugemongoose hug, right now! x

The honesty in this video, Dodie, was immense. You constantly amaze me (and I'm sure many others will agree) on how you explain the feeling you get when one goes into a depression. You *get* it. You allow other people to *get* it. Usually, I see people just bottle these things up and let it get the better of them. But with you having posted this video, you're telling people, as alone they may feel, they're not. :)

Oh man. I just wanna give you a hugemongoose hug, right now! x


You can't watch this video and not feel connected to you. And I don't mean to sound cheesy or what not but I think you get it. I'm glad you uploaded this. You're not alone.


i loved that metaphor. i have depression and make metaphors about it :)


I've just realised watching that I have been going through depression for 4 years now. That's 1/5 of my life so far and it's horrible. It's just one of those things that affects everything I do now. I have no motivation to try doing the things I need to do just to get by, let alone the things I want to do, like starting a channel of my own here. I try to enjoy the little things and spend time with my friends when I feel mentally able to, which is becoming less and less as time goes on.

I guess this video has shown me that it genuinely does get better. Dodie, thank you for the songs you've written and your honesty about life. Thank you for the times I've met you and you've just been really kind. Thank you for this video. Than you for everything. If my brain was working correctly I'd probably be crying right now tbh


I was crying over that burger metaphor but then I started thinking of Supernatural when Dean was eating the burger in the leviathan episode and there was all the grey goop in it and I started laughing so hard. This video was an emotional rollercoaster but I LOVE IT so muchb


I think my problem is that I never let people on my bus. I just remain hidden in the back row on my laptop and block out everyone around me. Since I started work with some amazing happy people I think I'm slowly coming to see it's dark back here and I want to be with everyone else. <3


Was diagnosed earlier this year. Depression is shit. My friend taught me that you just had to power through in order to concur this disease. Never give up. I look forward to your Period vlogs (sounds so weird) #drunkenstupor


i cried... i mean it's casual.. but yeah I am just going to hug my cat now. And Dodie, You are wonderful!


I can't even explain how much this video resonated with me Dodie, the burger metaphor, the bus, just your whole outlook on depression and life. You're so inspiring and you make me want to try harder to make my bus an amazing ride :D Thank you, and although I don't know you, from your videos I truly think you're a wonderful person and that you deserve happiness.


Ah dodie, rewatching this again bc I can relate, and I'd totally forgotten about me being in it at 21.50, in your absolutely smitten top, with the biggest fkn smile on my face. i miss your n I miss you guys, but honestly just looking back on this, it gives me the same sense of happiness that I did in that moment. standing in a circle singing with three of my favourite people in the world (you, bry n my sister Rachel). I just keep thinking about how lucky I am.<br>ah I'm a sentimental mess. hopefully see you soon<33

Ah dodie, rewatching this again bc I can relate, and I'd totally forgotten about me being in it at 21.50, in your absolutely smitten top, with the biggest fkn smile on my face. i miss your n I miss you guys, but honestly just looking back on this, it gives me the same sense of happiness that I did in that moment. standing in a circle singing with three of my favourite people in the world (you, bry n my sister Rachel). I just keep thinking about how lucky I am.
ah I'm a sentimental mess. hopefully see you soon<33


this helps quite a lot, especially your letter. Thanks


I understand exactly what your saying and it's like wow I'm not alone in this wut ✨


Love you Dodie, you've got this. Things can get pretty sucky for no reason sometimes, but (though I know I'm one of thousands) I'm here for you. :)
Best wishes,
Another internet buddy.


I like the metaphors. They were actually quite clear. They made me remember that even when I've gone off burgers (like real life ones - sometimes you'd just just prefer a taco), I always bounce right back to Byron, even if it takes a long time. (Other burger chains are available).


I wish I could sit on your bus.
Thank you for making me feel not alone.
xxx


aw Dodie this is a very touching video! how you feel better like soon!


I love you so much Dodie. I am amazed at how honest and strong you are on camera in this video. Yes there were clips that just looked like awful breakdowns but what made them strong is the clips later of you trying and doing things for yourself and asdkagh aghh you're such a special, lovely human. I never knew you had depression, and I'm honestly in shock because I became a fan months ago, and just recently binge watched most of your videos.. still not knowing about this absolute terrible grayness you have to live with. Thanks so much for all the metaphors because judging by all the comments from the gang it has helped massively. Remember everyday exactly what you said in the description about it getting better, and know we all appreciate what you do everyday. Love love love x ps, my birthday is april 11th as well c:


Aawwwww this video it was so truthful and amazing


19:28 has me dying laughing help omg idk why it killed me so much


oh god dodie I just realized that we are the same age.... I was sat here this entire time thinking that you were like 3 ears older than I am but nO

my life has been filled with such unsuccess


you're so bloody cute, Dodie. you have my full support. I've been there. And you're going to have to push me off your bus because I wont be leaving any time soon <3

ps soz about topshop


I'm so glad you are feeling better Dodie, you deserve to be the happiest girl in the world. You spend so much time making other people happy, you deserve to be too. Thank you for all you have done and for always putting a smile on my face even on a day when my burger tasted like mush <3 you're such an inspiration x


this video actually helped me a crap ton. I'm only twelve and i have already been diagnosed with anxiety and depression and I'm already on meds (yada yada yada). The description below the video describes how i've been feeling for the past 8 months now. I'm an only child with pretty awful friends but INCREDIBLE family. All my life i've wanted to move near my cousins and my mom and dad always say stuff like, "we'll talk about it later. It's most likely not happening, though." I know deep down that running away from my friends and town is just going to arouse larger problems, but I can't seem to think of any other idea! Today I asked my mom about moving and she said, "If we can get your anxiety sorted out by the end of the summer, then we'll talk." It was the stupidest thing to cry over but I felt like a bajillllliiiooonn weights had been lifted off of my shoulders. All I'm saying is that this video showed me that there are multiple ways to deal with depression etc. and that I should never completely give up. Thank you so much Dodie. You are my biggest inspiration.


oh @doddleoddle i had no idea you were feeling this way .i hope the good feelings from tour stay with you for while !<br>ps.can i get on the bus?

oh @doddleoddle i had no idea you were feeling this way .i hope the good feelings from tour stay with you for while !
ps.can i get on the bus?


I know how that feels, last year everyone got off my bus but one friend and my family and it felt like I had no-one, but really they were just getting off to make room for the amazing people who got on, I just had to wait a few stops :) metaphors metaphors


Well now I think every one of your subscribers has just fallen in love with you so..there's that. <3

@***** On a serious note though Dodie, I'm glad you're beginning to see the light around you. I know depression likes to blind people, or like how you said takes away the taste on what should be a good thing, I can only say we all support and love you. :) x <3


I really want to see more of the tour footage


I've played in that park at the end so many times :) never broken in though. Beautiful video. I want to be on your bus forever. 🌈😁🌸🌞


this made me cry wow. This video actually kind of opened my eyes, that burger metaphor that you talked about is how I've been feeling quite a lot recently, but I never understood what I'm feeling, and just left it to simmer in my brain, trying to ignore it. It's a bit scary considering I'm only 16 and my life is great, just like that burger (beautiful A* metaphor there by the way), but it just feels empty sometimes. I hate myself for saying it though, because as I said, my life is so great and I have everything to be thankful for. I just keep having a great opportunity and then I don't enjoy it and feel like I've wasted it and ruined it for other people. My friends ask 'How was it?' and I fake a laugh and say it was great but it really wasn't. Ugh I just feel like I sound selfish whenever I think or say it. ANYWAY sorry for the rant to anyone who bothers to read this, but I feel like writing it down might help, so even if no one reads it, I might feel better ;)


Your honesty and the way you worded everything and just everything about this video has left me in tears. I'm not great at wording things as beautifully and intelligently as you do but I just wanna say it's amazing that you're feeling better and I love you and your bravery and honesty and amazingness so much :) x


That ending really friggen got me cause I'm currently floating in that grey, blank, empty bus, but someday it will be full again, just like yours


Its a Wednesday morning, and I hate Wednesdays and this video has given me hope that maybe today wont suck and that life isn't all bad and I love you and this made me cry a lot thanks for being so amazing with words :)


the description is actually so relatable <3


This video has hit me hard. I don't suffer from depression, but your videos always make me so god damn happy and I just never gave a second thought that you might not be feeling this genuine happiness too. I am so glad that colour is seeping back into your life and I hope it continues to increase in vibrancy and brightness. I know this video will help so many feel less alone, and make everyone else realise that they need to be more aware of those suffering around them. I hope your happiness grows so that you can feel as happy as you've made so many of your audience. I admire your courage so much Dodie <3


I call depression the greatest (as in biggest, not best) battle of them all: a battle against yourself.

Still, I've never had it diagnosed so maybe don't know what I'm on about, but whatever on Earth or Gallifrey I went through last year, I can relate to quite a bit of what some people say about it.


i needed this video at this exact moment


Please make a newer update! I loved this so so much


I finally got around to watching this lol<br>The burger analogy really hit home for me. This past weekend I performed my last marching band show of the year in a huge dome and I was so excited to feel this rush of excitement and pride and bittersweet, and throughout the performance I kept waiting and waiting but it never came. And when the show was over I was just like, "okay, that was fun, I guess." But I didn't really feel anything and it wasn't what I had hoped to feel and it was just disappointing

I finally got around to watching this lol
The burger analogy really hit home for me. This past weekend I performed my last marching band show of the year in a huge dome and I was so excited to feel this rush of excitement and pride and bittersweet, and throughout the performance I kept waiting and waiting but it never came. And when the show was over I was just like, "okay, that was fun, I guess." But I didn't really feel anything and it wasn't what I had hoped to feel and it was just disappointing


I shouldn't have watched this at 22:41 because I'm crying now and I probably can't stop. Thank you so much Dodie (!!!!!) for this message, I don't know why because I'm not feeling great but I know this will help me! need some sleep I think... x


Dodie I love you more than I can put in words


I wanna give you a hug but I live in California 😔 Thanks for that Bus Ride Metaphor it makes sense to me (sad Ikr)  A lot of people have left my bus and I'm sitting alone which sucks 😩... I also deal with depression and I'm getting help now 🤗 and I enjoy seeing your videos and singing with a ukulele (I bought myself a ukulele because of you and I love it) 💕you are beautiful and amazing and you make my day better💖


The bus metaphor is everything I've ever tried to say and I cried because I've felt alone for so long recently and even though you don't actually know me, it feels like you do :) xx


I've been thinking about this all day. I think just by circumstance my bus has become a bit empty. I'm going to uni soon though and I'm hoping that will be a chance to fill it up again.


Dodie I love your videos and I love you.


i felt this video so deep down in my soul. you pretty much put into words what i couldn't say for the past four years. just before watching this video i had a conversation with a friend telling her that i feel like i'm in a hole i can't get out of. it's not that i don't try to be happy, believe me I do. but everytimes something stops me and at some points i couldn't even imagine what i would be without the sadness. it is really hard and sadly not a lot of people truly understand what it feels like. thank you for this video, stay strong, you're a wonderful human being ❤


I also have bouts of depression so I know how you feel Dodie, but just keep swimming :')


You're amazing.  Keep that bus going, moving. xo


Dodie, this is one of the best videos I have ever seen, but please stop making my cry in front of my friends :) I'd do anything to get a ticket to ride your bus :)


THIS IS MY FAVOURITE VIDEO ON THE ENTIRE INTERNET


I've only just found you on this wonderful crazy thing called YouTube and honestly I feel like I've none you my whole life. I'm in tears because for so long I've had this feeling but I didn't know what to call it or how to explain it to anybody until now. I felt crazy and stupid because I couldn't find anyone who could understand or comprehend what was going on. But this video...this video says it all. Thank you for this . Thank you for showing me I'm not crazy and maybe one day I can you in person and give you a big hug ✨💕ps kinda love that bus metaphor.


This gave me hope for a better 'bus ride' in the future. :') Thank you...


Would you potentially be able to make a cut version of this? I watched the whole thing but I would love to have 20:36-22:19 to send to one of my best friends. It really hit home and perfectly describes how I've felt about a handful of people who have stuck by me through my depression and mental health problems. This video was lovely and I hope you find the tools you need to cope and find joy in life as well! <3


Sometimes when there is something amazing that's happening or something remotely happy I just feel meh. Like kinda sad. It's so annoying bc I want to experience it to the fullest with everyone else who feels elated but I just don't feel happy. I know how you feel


eyes are welling up a tad... mostly because (and i know we aren't feeling the same thing because everyone is different) but you explained exactly how I'm feeling :) gotta hate a bland burger.


when you said ice water inside my veins I understood my own feelings and omg


AHHH TESSA! <3 was not expecting her to pop up in this video! :)


This was an awesome video. The bus thing was hella rad.


i forgot that i watched this video in its entirety and while watching it I realized that i did but I NEEDED TO SEE IT AGAIN. reading the description made me tear up (i would cry but i feel weak when i cry so my brain programmed itself not to do that. im overly self conscious BUT ANYWAY) because I'm getting out of this cave to see the sun. AAAAAAAAAAAAAA TALKING ABOUT DEPRESSION AND MENTAL ILLNESS STUFF IS WEIRD BUT I LOVE THAT YOU'VE BEEN DOING THAT MORE OFTEN AND IT COMFORTS ME KNOWING THAT YOU (someone who travels and sings and makes music and videos for a living while having great friends) CAN STILL FEEL THESE THINGS. sorry for typing in all caps, i just wanted to let u know that u inspire me to talk about my mental illness and are one of the ppl who help me embrace my true self. thank you dodie <3


This video made me so emotional at the end for many reasons . I just wanted to say thank you too, you helped inspire me to start uploading on my own YouTube channel and do things I never thought I would like learn new instruments! I lie being creative on YouTube and hope one day I can be as good as you :) x


A few months ago, me and my friend joined a school comedy show. We had a skit making fun of The Voice, a popular U.K talent show. Went on, and my friend completely forgot his lines. I just nearly passed out and we had to stop after about two lines. I haven't able to go on stage since and, as person who is about to join a theatre group, I am sincerely fucked. Why did I leave this comment? I'm so weird....


Dodie, I think you are a pure and wonderful human being


Your bus will never be empty because you have us! c: we love you!! <3


I'll always be on your bus with you Dodie.  <3


You're so great and lovely and beautiful and you don't know how many people would love to be on your bus <3


<br>I graduated high school today..and in the beginning I was happy, excited, and just ready to start a new chapter in my life. But it came towards the night and I just couldn't get myself to enjoy it. I didn't understand . I was surrounded by friends ( friends I consider family ) and laughter and just having a good time but I couldn't get myself to fully enjoy any of it. The problem isn't that I wouldn't see my friends again because I'll see them almost everyday , just a car ride away. The problem is .. I don't know the problem . I just can't enjoy today which makes me so mad I cry . This is the day I'm suppose to remember forever and tell me kids but I just can't fully be happy...


Dodie this was beautiful. And all of your metaphors that you use are all too true and I can relate to all of them (I hate using that phrase in this instance but I can't think of any other).


You beautiful, beautiful person, I wish you all the happiness in the world


I can't get enough of your videos, Dodie. They genuinely mean so much to me. I'll listen to your music or watch your vlogs when I'm feeling sad or just when I'm bored. Your songs strike such a chord in me. I just.. care about you I guess, almost like a friend although, realistically you don't know me. And I appreciate you and all you do. You talk about things that are really near to my heart. I guess thank you is all, I hope you're doing well, always. ♥


Oh my GOD DODIE! Im in tears, NEVER KICK ME OFF YOUR BUS DX


has anybody else noticed a huge difference between dodie before short hair and dodie after short hair?


You are a beautiful person, and although you may not realise it yet, you are making amazing changes in yourself and to those around you. Embrace the wonderful journey and enjoy it.


I feel like crap when I do this. My thoughts are the deepest and most empathetic when I'm tired af and in bed at 3 am, which also turns out to be when I feel closest to what I feel depression is like, because any other time of day I'm still thinking deep but mostly about other things (like youtubers and stuff) so I do not stop to check over myself and see if I have a serious problem or if I'm just sad at the moment. So sadly the problems that always come to me late at night (or really really early in the morning) are caused by what I forgot to do in the day. Sorry that was a random comment which I don't think belongs here but I just feel like showing my nighttime emotions before I fall asleep, wake up, and check if I should take my feelings seriously


Dodie your bus will never be empty!! Even though I've never met you, you are too much of a thoughtful, kind, loving, caring and wonderful person to ever not have someone on their bus. People come in and out of our lives for a reason and it's sucky when someone leaves but that's just leaves more room for the best people 💜 It makes me so happy to see that you're feeling the colours and joy of life again, because you bring so much joy to other people, so you undoubtedly deserve it! It's actually because of you that I'm going to try to learn the ukulele after my exams ^.^ music is already a big part of my life (I play flute and piano) and I just wish I could be as talented as you! Much love x


Dodie you make me smile. This video was incredible and your way with words is incredible and how genuine and sincere youre being with us is incredible. Like many people, unfortunately, I have been and still am where you were with your depression and sadness an emptiness. There's something about you that always makes me smile for no reason and honestly I can't even thank you enough for giving me a reason to smile even when there was no reason at all. Keep pushing through and it'll all get better and we will always be here for you, forever riding your bus. I love you so much and I'm really happy that you're feeling happy <3 xxx


I just wanna hug you and ahh, just all the emotions. I admire you a lot Dodie and this has just increased that admiration! You are special! :) definitely one of my favourite YouTubers. I hate having those days where nothing is wrong but you can't help but feel like shit.
I am so glad to see you are becoming more happy!! :)
I do really admire you Dodie! Please never stop making videos, from ones like this to covers. You are amazing!


i think i'm finely coming closer to the ladder. Thanks for some extra hope. (⌒.⌒) I wish you the best xx


My bus is almost empty. Love you Dodie .


Dodie, I never really comment on youtube videos but I feel like I need to say thank you. This video didn't help me in the hugest way, but I just got back from my biology GCSE exam which I don't think went well, despite loads of revision over the past few months. I watched this video in my pyjamas while painting my nails to cheer myself up, and it was so uplifting (and my nails dried just as the video ended, which was satisfying). Obviously that isn't a particularly emotional or interesting story, but I felt the need to say that I'm glad you're feeling better, and I'm glad you make other people like me happy. Whoever ends up on your bus will be lucky to know you.


I may or may not have cried

But Dodie i love you so much and i really hope you see more of those colourful happy days that are anything but blank. I'm here rooting for you :)


thankyou so much for your description, you have no idea how much this video how much YOU have helped thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou


This video is important. Thank you for sharing.


The burger thing. God I relate. Sometimes I can't even cry because there's so much nothing..


dodie Clark you beautiful human. I hope u are good now and I relate to a lot of the things u said In this and a lot of my friends have said the same. u have done really well to allow urself to be happy and u have Inspired me to stay happy💟


THE END IS MAKING ME NEED TO CRY BUT I CANT AND IM GETTING SO MAD


I didn't think I'd be crying this hard but here I am


Again, I am SO SORRY for how everyone was in Dublin. I get that everyone was excited, but some people were just plain rude...


Just think you need a big hug Dodie. Sending you a hug xxx


I'm so so happy that you're feeling as if your getting better ^-^

I have symptons of depression and have told a couple of friends about it but they seem to brush it off as their idea of depression is that you have to cut. So idk whether I do have depression or not. The symptons are getting worse but still idk if it's depression. I'm honestly so confused. But it's getting worse slower that is would have gone if people like you didn't exist to brighten my day and give a moment of happiness, even if it's brief.

Thank you so much Dodie, not just from me but also from others feeling this way. x


I feel hope watching this Dodie. My bus is quite empty right now, but that isn't permanent.


This has made me sob... WHY DODIE?! Oh my


may your bus be always filled with happiness and color! :)


I have had a rubbish day and I probs failed my gcse French ( but who needs gcse French anyway !!) this video has made my day a lot better - thanks Dodie for making videos which make me smile :) but now back to revision .... <br>


ahhhhh. ah ah ah. this was super nice and it's actually kind of even nicer because i was having a not so good day, and then i watched this video and for the first two thirds i was like 'hey. this is making me feel a lot better. i am getting a lil bit of colour back today for now this is rly nice i hope this stays.' and then u started to talk abt feeling grey and i was like OH because i hadn't read the description yet, and i hadn't realised it was gonna go there, and so i started to cry when u got into talking abt that but it wasn't for bad reasons (well, depends ur point of view), it was like "oko kok kok this is exactly how i feel...oK" and i was freaking out a lil bit because i'd never related to anyone abt it before. and then at the end when u said u were feeling better everything had such a nice and warm feeling and my day ended up being a rAINBOW of colour when it seemed to be one of those days where nothing, not even six puppies and two kittens could take away the greyness. idk this whole comment has been a ramble but i sort of wanted to say that like a thank you? or something? idk thank u this was a rly cool thing to say (the description as well x) and ur. amazing. :)


thankyou for sharing this dodie, i understand that this must not have been easy for you but i appreciate this so much. i understand that even when you're surrounded by people, you can still feel alone, still feel crap and i'm not going to say that i thought i was the only one, because i know i'm not, but it makes me feel so much better to know that someone i look up to is going through the same thing and making it through. you sharing this 22 minute video has given me something to look back at when i feel like this and realise i'm not alone and that i can do it too. you're so amazing dodie and i appreciate you so much, thank you for showing me it's more than possible, and that it does get better❤


Depression is like walking down a dark tunnel. others can see the light at the end of the tunnel which gives them motivation to carry on. While some can't see the light. when you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, you become hopeless and began to lose faith.<br>Metaphors..... :(

Depression is like walking down a dark tunnel. others can see the light at the end of the tunnel which gives them motivation to carry on. While some can't see the light. when you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, you become hopeless and began to lose faith.
Metaphors..... :(


This came at just the right time for me. I'm currently sat in the depression cave contemplating suicide and thinking about all the benefits it would bring to my fiends and families lives. But thank you for telling me about the ladder. I hope that I find mine soon.


I'm crying omg Dodie you are literal perfection like you know just how to put these random thoughts into words so perfectly and omg. Like I cannot even describe how perfect the end of this video was. I'd give anything to be able to just sit and talk too you about life. You have so much life experience and just seem like you'd be an absolutely amazing person to speak with. I love you so much, and please never stop doing what you do<3


Your description box is really something <3


You are your own person and that makes you beautiful. Don't feel down, instead try to see the beauty that this world holds. Every day can be as beautiful and filled with happiness as that one special day off that you had.  :)


MY GOD THIS VIDEO WAS AN EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER


The ending really got to me and I would be lying if I said I didn't tear up. Thank you dodie for being so open and also I'm just genuinely so happy that you're starting to get back on your own two feet. There's nothing that makes me happier than when the people who make me feel better are getting better themselves. You've gone through so much and you aren't finished yet but you figuring this all out seems to be working well. <3


I'm so glad she has her little group of friends


oh gosh I didn't think this would make me emotional an yet I'm sat here crying my little eyes out! This video was so reassuring as I've had many days like these and it's weird and it feels like it's just me. like everyone else doing fine and I'm the odd one. (Which obviously isn't true but that's how it feels.) and I'm not sure where I'm going with this but I guess I'm just really glad I decided to watch this video as it made me feel as if this state that I'm in is only temporary and that's what I needed right now.


Nerves are the shittest feeling but it's also sooo satisfying for me because it makes me a bit hyper and just happy which is really not like me cuz I'm really shy so nerves are shitty but great for me 😂


your videos are making me cry way too much


The fact that I realised you were at the side of the academy 2/3 at the bit where you were talking about getting a tattoo, makes me realise i've spent way too many hours round there waiting for bands and queing for gigs. Worth it though, gutted I couldn't go to this tour :( looks like it was so fun!


Years ago I was with my family going to the London Dungeons and freaked and ran away to that park while they went in but went back and didn't run away last year!!!!


Dodie, if you ever feel like you're sitting on a bus with no one else next to you and you're all alone. Think about who's driving the bus. Get up, and start driving, Missy. <3


I cried at the end without really realizing first. I'm not somebody who cries a lot but the thing is I always had a small bus and I love that bus but I finished schooo now and I'm scared that bus will be left with just me


That was an amazing metaphor. I have realized that I'm kind of going through the same thing.. I've been very unhappy for the past few months. I've been putting on a hypothetical mask. This mask is a fake personality. It's got bits and pieces of me but there just scraping the surface. I stay in my room to try and breathe. Take off my mask and just breathe. My family doesn't like it. They think I'm just staying on the Internet and wasting my time. I don't know how to tell them. I feel like if I tell them then I'm sounding like a drama queen. I don't want to tell them so I have to let go of people. I try not to get close so I spill. I have only cried in front of one of my friends and someone passed away. I don't like this person. I'm way to mature for her and she makes me so infuriated. My family doesn't like to see me sad so I only cry when their gone or when I'm supposed to be going to sleep. It might come from my fear of expressing myself. I'm not a doctor/therapist.

{Again} I isolate myself when I can't take it anymore. I cry and cry and think. Whenever someone finds me crying I make up excuses. It's not fun doing this. I hate it. I just want to wake up one day and not put on the mask and everything be okay. No stupid sympathy. I want to hop back on the same train with the same people and everyone be happy. So thank you for making me realize what I'm feeling is real. Thank you so so much. I can't express it enough. Thank you.💕<br>-Payton

{Again} I isolate myself when I can't take it anymore. I cry and cry and think. Whenever someone finds me crying I make up excuses. It's not fun doing this. I hate it. I just want to wake up one day and not put on the mask and everything be okay. No stupid sympathy. I want to hop back on the same train with the same people and everyone be happy. So thank you for making me realize what I'm feeling is real. Thank you so so much. I can't express it enough. Thank you.💕
-Payton

(It wouldn't let me type anymore) I don't want to see one. I know if I do I'll have to tell everyone because I'll change. Then I'll start to lose people. People will start being all nice to me and being all sappy and crap. I don't need your sympathy. It makes me mad because their just being all sweet but it gets annoying. I have some close friends that I almost pour out on. I don't though because I'm too mature for them and if I cry they won't react well. Their guys. They aren't comfortable being a shoulder to lean on. All of the girls are drama queens. I don't know who to talk to. I was a VERY big liar as a kid so my parents don't have much trust. I don't like crying. I don't. It makes me feel weak and frail. I'm a strong person. I usually just pull through the tears. It's gotten harder. I'm crying writing this. Whenever one of my family members catches me crying they always ask why I'm crying. I don't want to tell them so I say that I don't know.


i'm just a few years older than u but i remember when i was closer to your age a lot of people were getting off my bus too. i think its just that point in your life and your friends' lives where everybody is really becoming who they're going to be for the rest of their lives and it's just how things are going to be from now on. it helped me find more of the really good ones too tho. and i cant say i made the wrong decision in getting rid of the bad ones, even if it hurts more than anything else


Thank you for getting on my bus Dodieeeee


I was diagnosed with minor depression in December last year. It was a bit of an emotional day, and weeks after that. People didn't believe me, one of my closest friends said "at least it's not major depression and you don't need counselling like me." From a friend, this hurt so much. I haven't had the same approach with her since. I don't like her as much at all anymore. Dodie, this video made me feel better about the situation I've been in with people recently, and the thoughts I have just constantly had throughout. I love everything you do, and you're such an outgoing person and seem so happy. The way you explained the last bit of this video about depression made it so relatable, and to know there is someone else out there who is basically feeling / felt the same, makes me feel a little better. Dodie, thank you for this video. You're an amazing person ❤ With hugs, abi x x x


Dodie I am feeling exactly the same way right now and I really don't know what to do. It feels as if all my friends are happy but I am sad and it is not even about anything in particular. I really don't know what to do and I am so confused about it all. Glad you are feeling better. Watching your videos is the only bit of happiness I get in a day. Thank you so much for the little bit of sunshine you share that helps me to get up in the morning


That bus metaphor hit so close to home. I feel like my bus is currently pretty empty & I really, really hope there'll be people joining me soon.


You were so good in Belfast. I am so sorry to hear about your uke its really sad. I'm very sentimental with my guitar so if that happened to me I would probably cry. (A lot)<br>By the way cute tattoo

You were so good in Belfast. I am so sorry to hear about your uke its really sad. I'm very sentimental with my guitar so if that happened to me I would probably cry. (A lot)
By the way cute tattoo


the bit where you showed you guys walking around near the london eye and sneaking into the park filled me with this great sense of like, fantastical adventure. i don't know how to describe it really, i just know i've had that feeling myself whenever me and my friends would find ourselves getting into things and just being young and carefree and whimsical. as someone who suffered from depression and depersonalization in the past, those were the times that were just so emotionally healing, like big bright spots of light shining in through the clouds. it made life interesting; adventurous. even though this was over two years ago, i'm glad you got to experience something like that. once you feel that kind of light, it's always there in your memory, even if it's toned with sadness from nostalgia. you can recognize how amazing that time was while it happened and appreciate it for all it was. i'm only 22 but i feel like that sense of youth i had at 19/20 is gone. it was such a special time for growth and i'm hoping to get that feeling again someday soon.


I think one of the most important things about depression is talking about it, because even though you don't want to do anything, I Know from my own experience that it's when your at the bottom of the pit that you need people the most. My depression was a result of ocd and anxiety and for me, being alone was the worst thing (even though normally I don't mind being in my own company) talking about it is so underrated. I hope you're doing ok Dodie :) xxxx


You are so right about the feeling of depression being like, never ending. That was the hardest thing for me to explain to people- there was no silver lining or light at the end of the tunnel. It was dark and I thought it always would be.

I'm in a good, stable place. For me, counseling helped a lot! And I got it for free through my school! So thankful for it to this day. Thanks for your honesty!


I've never officially been diagnosed with any form of depression, but over the course of this year, I've had way more dips in mood than I've recognised having before, and I feel like it could well be a possibility that I've been experiencing it.

I do like the bus metaphor, but for me, the worry I have is that the bus is moving slowly and I have no idea where it's taking me. And I have people on this bus who are telling me that I have the power to drive it to where I want to go, but any time I pick up speed, I worry I'll crash and burn and have to stop myself.

What I mean is, I feel I can relate to this more than I would have in another time of my life. I guess part of being an adult is recognising that, as long as you have the right people on your bus, the ride can be a little bit easier. And seeing the friends you have, they seem like good people to me.


I've watched this whole video too many times.


Please read the description guys. xxx I love you dodie


Your best video in a long time, or ever.


holy crap! my friends and I have been hooligans in that playground late at night too


thats my fav metaphor now thanks for making me emotional


I have no words. I love this and you so much.


hi, i don't know if you will ever read this, but i just wanted to say that you are such an amazing person, your videos all ways put a smile on my face :) but i know that i could never help how you are felling but you have helped me a lot. i understand how you felling and i;m glad you are finally seeing light and felling happy.. this video is so sad but so is the description..


I don't really know how to put this into words, but this video, it gives me hope, I seem to always come back to this. It's like you give me the energy through video (wHaT?!) and I can kind of see things clearer, the bus metaphor, I'm still waiting for more people to hop on; I've lost more or less all my passengers, especially over the past 2 months, but I'll be moving on to a new chapter in September; and I really hope that'll get things moving
I hope you're okay dodie, and I'm so glad that you have shared this with us; it gives me satisfaction that there is a broken community all around me, and that I will eventually be able to reach out; things will get better, even if I don't know when.
Thank you for always being that person that can give me hope, and for sharing this small broken part of you. It has helped me so much so far, and I'm hoping you'll continue to help me in the future
(n ya this was posted over a year ago but bruh I'm still loving it) ❤❤xxxxxxxx


I went to the park you broke into with my school in primary school 3 years ago. Jesus Christ nostalgia


19:48 Dodie I think you're sounding more Irish than American :'D

In all seriousness, this is my favourite video of you so far. <3
I'm very often afraid that, at certain moments, I won't be able to appreciate my burger as much as other people. Well, I'm technically terrified of people pointing out their excitement and try to avoid it by all means. It is becoming an issue lately, and I need to sort it out. Thank you for sharing!


I don't really know who you are. I just randomly found you one day and started watching your videos. You are so fun and vibrant, despite your brain's greyscale issues. You remind me of a good friend of mine who passed away a few years back. You look and act just like her. This was very powerful and inspiring. I just want to say that you make a difference and I hope that means something to you. Don't waste it. You are incredible. You are insecure. You are human. Keep inspiring.


18:30

im glad dodie was able to enjoy that burger that day （╹◡╹）♡


I turned 20 recently 10th April to be exact hahaa. i Felt exact same panic that oh gosh i'm not a teen i'm an adult lol... R.I.P Ukulele  Glad you had a nice birthday and such a sweet tatoo!


Dodie Clark I love you so damn much. Believe me I know that depression is not an easy thing to deal with, let alone come out of. I just wanted to let you know that you are a beautiful, successful and original you, and that's what's brilliant. As you say, people may get off your bus, but just by looking at the comments you can tell that there are many people that never will. Candice and BriBry are such lovely people and I'm sure they will love you forever more.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that no matter if you see it or not, your bus will always be full of people prepared to paint your world in vibrant, beautiful colour once again <3333


i related so much to the burger metaphor
and you looked adorable in the bouncy castles!!
keep being you!!
love you!!

finished the video, im crying now. i want to hug you so much. and i hope someday we all find the ladder


Fuckkkk that message in the description box. Today I have been feeling like crap and reading that made me feel so fucking good. THANK YOU.


to this day i still cry watching this video just cauz i relate to a few things in it ily dodie <3 (also i would like to apologise for dublin...... i was one of the screaming people.... I KEPT TELLING PEOPLE TO BE QUIET THOUGH SO I COULD HEAR YOU!!!) So i guess i kinda helped??? :'D ino this was from may like last year but when i went to the concert i felt like i was in one big family because everyone one was so lovely and kinda help me forget about a few things that still kinda 'haunt' me today if youd say that. so thank you (and bry + candice) for everything because if it wasnt for yous i wouldnt have found the best friends i could possibly have! lol cya at sitc 2016 ;D


I literally let out so many tears watching this, good ones and bad ones. What you've said in this video is completely relatable to me and probably many others. & Life sometimes (although great and wondrous and exciting) just doesn't seem happy or right or anything at all, but sometimes you get those days that push you forward and make you stronger. & dodie, just to add, you are such an inspiration and the amazing things you do make you so strong and courageous. Gosh if I had to get up on stage dodie I think i'd break down even if just 1 person was in the crowd >.< so yeah umm... I don't know where I was going with this but I wanted to say it. You're not alone. There is always light in the darkness. &btw your London show was fantabulous, Thank you for the experience, I grant myself lucky that I was able to hear and see you in person. c: xx


Aaaarrrggh thank you for that letter - the video was a little long, but I watched it all and it was good :) - but that letter? That was what I needed


I'm still crying and I watched this an hour ago. I get the bus metaphor Dodie I ride on the damn thing every day. I have a great life I know this but all I ever feel is shit so I spend a lot of time trying to make others happy here and on my social media stuff. I have clinical depression, if you even think you have depression go and talk to someone. Talk to a school counselor, a doctor, a minister, whoever you trust. It will help I promise. TTFN. Oh Thanks Dodie now I really, really, really like you.


loved the video so much!!! i gotta ask what is the piano song that starts around 20:40? it's so pretty i need to know


i know a lot about the torturous, prolonged silence of this.  i hope you are okay.


As a fellow, but also younger performer who has social anxiety lol. This video meant so much to me, especially considering that loads of people think performers can't be anxious, but it's different. You're an entirely different on stage (or in front of a camera)
Needless to say.
I love you. You're great. Thanks for making this.


I'm honestly so happy for you dodie :)xxx


depression is the worse thing thats happened to me but recovery and seeing the colour back in my life is hands down the best decision i have ever made! x


that burger thing was a very good analogy.  On my birthday I had a lot of...anxiety I guess which was a little bit new to me because i'd never had anything that bad.  I would just have small waves of shakiness and my face getting really red and it being a little hard to breath on tests and when I was worried about something big and intense.  But from when the day started I just felt like I was out of it and I was living through everything but their was a big foggy bubble excluding me out.  A lot of people were wishing my a happy birthday and my whole english class even sung to me even though all of them really didn't know who I was.  Then all of my amazing friends decorated my locker to the most extravagant thing ever.  But then i just felt so isolated and out of it, not to mention I was really shaky and just kind of scared all day.  When I told my mom about this she really didn't understand why it affected me so much.  I loved that everyone cared about me and was so nice but I would have been fine with one little happy birthday from my closest friends and then have the day go on normally.  It was just very overwhelming because this year is my first at a new, really big school and I just wanted people to forget I existed for a little bit so it could go back to normal.  I just wanted to be alone.  I'm not sure I really understood what happened either because everything was so nice but I just wanted no part of it. Does anyone know what this means?


It's so, so lovely to see someone who understands what it's like. Obviously, everyone's experience of depression/mental illness is different, but I could relate to this video so, so much and I am so happy you uploaded this. I'm not very good with words and I know I don't know you in real life, I can only see the side of you that you choose to show the internet, but this video gave me so much hope for the future, especially considering this is exam period (in my final year of sixth form). You are truly a sweet, amazing person and you just made me so, so happy. I hope you stay happy as well, you really deserve it. So much love for you right now, Dodie <3


I don't know what to say... I can't tell you I know exactly what you mean and be all #relatable because fuck I'm not you, I don't have a huge fan base and all of this pressure to be amazing. I want to tell you that you are amazing, I don't even know whether that will help or add to the pressure or just blow over your head like 'meh'. But I feel like I should end this with a metaphor though, one that my Fairy Godmother Sally told me when I was suffering.
When eating and elephant, do it in small chunks. Just do it one step at a time. Some days you won't be able to eat a whole lot, and that's okay. Some days you'll feel like eating more than you should, and that's okay too. Eat the elephant however you feel fit, don't worry about what other people think of you, they're not you, and they're living their life in their own way just like you are.

P.s. I'm actually a vegetarian so please don't eat an elephant.


I don't really have a way with words and I find it really hard to express myself in english, but I'll try.
Dodie,
You are so special. You are my favourite person on youtube and I know I don't really know you or have spoken to you directly , we're like a shitload of miles away but you give my life so much colour. Depression is hard to define but you expressed it perfectly. Just this big black hole inside of you that you try to ignore because your life is fine as it is but really you don't see it and everyone's happy and cheerful and no one understands. But you do, and you make it so much better and much less darker. Your videos give me so much hope, and I'm so glad you're feeling better because you deserve all the happiness in the world. So so much. Don't ever think otherwise and remember all the people who love you and are here for you. Thanks for making my hamburger a little bit tastier. love you.


Hope that you are doing well, Dodie!This made my morning from a horrible night of mental problems, thanks for sharing your videos on the interwebs.


This is brave of you to talk about dodie. It's so important for people to talk about this topic and I'm so pleased that you're talking about it. Your explanation of depression at the end was perfect. Thank you, I'm sure this will help so many! Keep fighting, your days will get brighter and stay brighter!


the burger analogy wow i feel this so hard !!


Dodie thank you for this video. I really relate to what you're going through and I'm in a big deep dark hole right now. But this video has made me feel a bit better knowing I'm not alone in this blank tasteless world. You're really brave and strong for telling all of us what you're going through and it gives me hope. maybe I'll be able to get over the fear of telling others about this hole I'm in and being abandoned . You really do touch peoples lives with your words and songs and I want you to know that you are amazing and I love you. You are truly inspiring


This should totally be a main channel series dude


That bus metaphor fits my life perfectly right now. All my life my bus has been empty and sad then one day, not that long ago, it suddenly started to fill and it was happy and everything was good. But now everyone is getting of the bus and those who are still on it are only on it when it suits them. My bus is never good enough for them. The few months where people were riding my bus were the happiest months of my life.


you just made me cry. I recently turned 20 and lets say my birthday was a mess. Not that it couldn't have been good there were people who wanted to spend time with me and everthing but at some point i just kind of snaped and everything went downhill. I came home and as soon as the door shut i startet crying not knowing why. Thank you for talking openly and beeing so cute :) and also excuse my shitty english


Thank you for being the best bus ride companion :)


this video,I cannot describe my feelings towards it. I have these phases of where I feel just empty,grey and just empty. and I find myself sitting or walking through the school corridors for example,completely blank. I'm not happy and I'm not sad I'm just,empty. and at the moment I'm happy,and I'm scared these empty feelings will come back. but I come poetry relate to the bus analogy oh my goodness I relate to it so much to it. I cried at the end of this video,it was so so true and ah I can't.


You are such a refreshment in my life right now I know that sounds a little wacky and I'm not quite sure why I used that word but you are. I'm dealing with people in my life who I have loved trusted and built friendships with who are now feeling far away and fake the best way I could describe it...is all of the ppl I felt knew me and I thought were my best friends now feel like first level strangers. And you have this utmost realness to you that can only be described as refreshing. Thank you for making me feel very much not alone:) you bring a greatness to YouTube that seemed unattainable.


I'm gonna be honest, I don't really comment on youtube videos ever but this time I had to, this video is possibly the most creative, honest and beautiful film I have seen on this sight, videos like this are the reason that I still have hope for this website, the internet really can provide people with beautiful things and dodie, your creativity and the work that went into this is inspiring, thank you for always trying. x


i am watching this before school and i am sobbing how dare you


hey! this was uploaded on my birthday :D very nice video. very sad about your uke


I feel like I may have depression. Recently I just feel like when I look back on things, I can't think of anything happy. I feel like every day is just trying to make it to the next one without an emotional breakdown. It's gotten to the point where there are only 2 people I actually like to be around and even then if I had to choose between them and watching youtube videos all day, I would probably pick youtube. I honestly think I have some kind of mental disability but when I talk to my parents about getting help they say "Aww you're fine...

you're only 12"

+Bella Loperena Hey. So I don't know if that will help you in any way but I just wanted to remind you you are beautiful and you'll get through this. Stay strong, you ARE loved. :)

Thanks so much it really means a lot. Honestlyy life feels like a train wreck right now but honestly I've just been looking forward and hoping for the best. :D Thanks stranger on the Internet.

I know this comment is kinda old and you might be all better now or whatever but I just wanted to say 12 year old me could totally relate to you. I just want to tell you something that I really wish I could tell 12 year old me. Talk to someone about your feelings. They may not be exactly depression but whatever they are they're valid and they mean something. Talk to your friends and let them know how you're doing. Keeping things inside isn't good. Your mental health is super duper important. Hang in there. I know it doesn't seem like it but it gets better. Anyway, there's your random piece of advice from this stranger on the Internet. You are loved and you deserve to be happy :)


Love u. Let's all stay on this bus as long as possible.


I think you are one of the most inspirational people I have ever seen. This video alone has helped me, with its 'awful' metaphors and bouncy castles. For a long time, I didn't really feel like doing things, no matter how fun they sounded. This video has made me both say yes to more things and know that I'm not going to feel completely better after one attempt. It's amazing how one video has made me feel like this, because there was a point when I didn't think anything could make me feel better.


I enjoy when people can words especially when they are so poetically and beautifully said and written. Even more so I enjoy that the words resonate so deeply in my mind/soul. Even if I find myself unable to verbalize or explain my situation, hearing yours is so nice and comforting. It makes me feel like feeling like this (or not feeling) is legitimate and more importantly, okay. Thank you for existing and blessing the world of me and others with your internet/tangible presence.


Please come to America, your singing is magical<3


I love you so much Dodie! If you ever want to remove me from your bus you are going to have to use a lot of force..but I hope you won't x


Its 12 at night and I have school tomorrow but watching this video was so worth it! I've been in a dark place the past couple months because someone I knew for years and who I cared about deeply decided to hop off my bus but then come back and leave again. He played mind games and left me feeling useless and worthless. I was so used to crying myself to sleep it felt unnatural not to but recently I've been feeling better and the other day I found myself crying because I was so happy. Just genuinely happy. A Couple of months ago I would have never believed that I would be out of the dark hole but I am! It takes awhile but you get there in the end! Thank you for posting this video! It helped me realize that we're not alone, I love you and your music and just everything! Thank you for being you :)


A lot of the time it feels like I am riding that bus alone too and I've felt that most of my teenage life, but I'm trying to be more open and to allow things to run unplanned  - I am not a spontaneous person at all. It's hard to try and fix yourself when what caused the fear and pain was my mind's way of protecting myself, but these past few days something has clicked inside of me and I have managed to avoid massive panic attacks which allowed me to experience the world a little differently. And I am massively proud of myself.<br>I think it's hella cool that you were so open in this video because it's nothing anyone should be ashamed about. From great heights one must fall but when you begin to get better you become so much stronger. x

A lot of the time it feels like I am riding that bus alone too and I've felt that most of my teenage life, but I'm trying to be more open and to allow things to run unplanned  - I am not a spontaneous person at all. It's hard to try and fix yourself when what caused the fear and pain was my mind's way of protecting myself, but these past few days something has clicked inside of me and I have managed to avoid massive panic attacks which allowed me to experience the world a little differently. And I am massively proud of myself.
I think it's hella cool that you were so open in this video because it's nothing anyone should be ashamed about. From great heights one must fall but when you begin to get better you become so much stronger. x


This is really amazing! Does anyone know the song at 5:56 ?

@karatemonkey124 Yeah true. So frustrating it sounds like such a lovely song!

@arcticstrokes That song sounds extremely chill, yet no one in the comments seems to know the title of it...


JESUS CHRIST when the sad piano music started playing and you started explaining how your brain hasn't been working properly and when the depression hits you and you start crying it made me start crying too DAMNIT. I love you so so much dodie and it physically pains me to see you be immensely depressed and sad i wish it would just go away damnit you don't deserve any of this i wish you the best and i really REALLY more than anything want you to feel that genuine happiness all the time D: xxxx


It's amazing how young are you and still have that vision for life(not only your great methaphors :D I love your videos on sexuality for example and your song 'paint', that clearly shows how u feel about make up). I found your chanel and that video a month ago, no I watch that video again because it's brilliant. I cried, because I feel your pain. It feels like so many people are depressed that sometimes I sit in my room and wonder what is wrong, am I wrong? I think "what if it's your imagination" but I realize-there is no imagination its all real. Worst of all u can't know what it is. It's just grey, and not 50 shades of grey-simply one stupid shade that makes your heart and your brain hurt. I t's not even pain. It's like a big mash-up of guilt, sadness and insecurity, and rearly you have those days when you feel happy, Your vids really helped to find a new view of life, one really close to mine. One that made me feel normal, because, honestly I often asked myself if i was crazy... I loe your original songs, I love your covers. I love it all. Thank you for everything. You are one truely inspiring person! <3


Damn, girl.  Might have to file this video in with Allie Brosh's comics.  Hopefully your brain has caught up to the fact that good Dodies shouldn't feel bad.


I really want my bus to feel full again.


Yeah, people come and go from our lives. It's hard, but we gotta get used to it. :D


I relate a lot to your video and the bus and burger metaphors. I hope this doesn't sound rude, but it's kind of comforting to have someone I look up to, to be able to indirectly help me with this situation, because they've been through it. And ever though you don't know me, and you probably never will, I want to thank you for being one of the rings on my small ladder, and for being on my bus, even if you're not aware of it. And I hope to one day have friends as amazing as yours. Thankyou for everything Dodie.

Love Killian. :3


Last year my depression was really bad. I couldn't really feel happy anymore, and that caused social anxiety cause I didn't know how to hang out with my friends. Then one day it was my friend's birthday party and I had to go even though I didn't want to, and it was one of the best decisions I've ever made.

It was a turning point for me? I felt happy again. It wasn't that everything was magically better, but it made me realize that I could be happy.

I'm so sorry for what you've been going through, but I'm glad you're finding your little moments of happiness :)


I truly hope you have a long and happy life.  I hope i have one too.  But i might not live for so long since i have diabetes.  I am very young but i am in pain mentally and physically.   You help me get through it all.  You are a wonderful person.  I hope one day i get ti meet you in person.  That would be a dream come true.  Please respond back.  My name is Michelle (:


Ok so I haven't had depression but like most people, I've had them days where the burger is no where near as tasty as it should be, and the days where the bus feels empty now and then (I love these metaphors, I've never heard any as understandable and  #relatable  before). Luckily, I've always found the ladder quickly. But this video is so lovely to know your experiences and also to be aware of that if it ever did happen, I'm not alone.

This video made be tear up so bad (at college too!!) and in parts it was sad tears because no one should have to feel that way and it should always be the best burger ever and a bus full of the best people ever, but sometimes it just isn't and its heartbreaking to see you, someone I admire and love so much, to go through this - its what make us all human I suppose. BUT there were happy tears because you are climbing that ladder and god damn I know you'll reach the top!! You are surrounded by so many lovely people that will help and support you and love you so much and I hope they continue to do that for you. I hope you're reaching the stage that every burger is the best burger ever, and that the bus is full but only of the people you truly want in your life that will always be there for you when the burger loses its taste now and then.

BASICALLY, this video was brilliant and I love it when you're your self and with the people are truly a blessing to you. I love you lots and lots, thank you for everything, and here for you <333333

p.s  #chibby  is the best ship ever and thank you for being the reason i talk to so many wonderful people online including them xoxoxoxox


I can relate so much to this video 💜 The metaphors weren't crap you summed it up just perfect I love you dodie and I love this video I apologise for the loudness at the Dublin gig my ear drums were sore too 😂 I spent most of my time thinking Shh I can't hear Dodie 😂 Hope you liked your chipsticks I loved meeting you for the second time and not crying like a complete spanner this time 😁 I will forever be on your bus and follow you on your journey


You'd think the happy birthday would be more in tune. So cute tho XD


I'm turning 19 this week and i am freaking out!!!!


I listened to a poem on someone who loved their friend and the friend was suicidal. I started to cry because its so hard to not want to hurt anyone but you feel so stuck, and you know it will get better, but it will be a while, like YEARS until it will DEFINITELY be better. And I know that it may be sooner than that but its too blurry to know. I love you so much and I'm sorry that mental illness has to be such a bitch!! I have anxiety and I know you posted this video a LONG time ago and you probably won't see this but you help me with your songs and covers and videos in general, so...thanks :)