This for me is your Novels by Rusty Clanton. I have fallen in love with this song. It is indescribably my life right now.

+Helena add Adored By Him to that list and it is my life

+Molly Cadman same, describes me and my bff....

@Molly Cadman well... i don't think it's so similar to your life like to mine, seriously, not even by far D:

@doddleoddle Ahh you deserve it! Its the most beautiful song in the world :)

@Molly Cadman what a compliment!!!! <333


it hurts so much. i wish i could just look at her like a friend. i can’t. why can’t i?


He has the most amazing eyes. I've done everything to get over him, and somehow he smiles and I fall. He laughs at my jokes and then complains that I have the sense of humor of a crayon. When he makes a joke, he always stops to make sure I'm laughing. He grabs my hand to get my attention and when he lets go my heart breaks. I just stare. I dream I could stop time. He would freeze. Everyone would freeze and they couldn't see me or hear me or feel me, but I'm there and I move. I could kiss him and just cry and just be with him. I pray that none of you have to understand what it feels to look up at someone and see them looking at someone the way you look at them. So I'm here writing an anonymous confession of love that he will never see as it gets buried in a YouTube comment section. I'm here and he's there with his girlfriend and I'm here. He's there.


6 years later and I’m still sad without a girlfriend😭😭


"but to her, I taste of nothing at all" oof man I didn't expect to get called out.


I fell in love with this song the first time I heard it but I'm coming back again and again the last weeks and listen to this on repeat because I can relate to this so much at the moment.. I really need this on Spotify Dodie!

That moment when she(haha) is putting a new ep on spotify including human and she~

Looks like it's happening :) "She" is going to be on spotify!

Yesssss she needs to put more of her songs on Spotify! I love her and her songs

ツUmDaddy woah I just came back to this bc of your comment and saw I have 151 likes on this😅I still really need this song on Spotify Dodie!🙈


I was 11 when I watched this video for the first time. I hated myself deeply for the way I felt and I wanted to bury it so no one had to see. I come back to it 4 years later, comfortable with myself, to tell you that it gets better.

@AG none taken lol, I forget that’s what my user is sometimes

That’s really deep coming from a person with their user as ‘ur mum’


She had long soft dark hair and a beautiful smile. She was kind and she had a sweet laugh, her eyes were bright and sparkly and she was so nice to me. But it never ended up working out


she. smiles and my world brightens. she looks like a goddess even when she isn't trying. she. talks like an angel sent straight from heaven to greet me at my darkest times. she. means so much more than everything to me. its been a month and im already never letting her go.  she has the most beautiful eyes. big faces smiles and loud giggles. she most likely won't see this. but she.

she means everything to me.


i remember listening to this 5 years ago and not thinking much of it, and now im a closeted bisexual who is in love with my best friend who would never think of me any more than a friend


This will sound incredibly stupid and self-centred, but I would love to have someone hear this song and think of me. Just the idea of someone hearing a love song that's so bittersweet and being reminded of me. I don't know I'm just idealistic and self-centred

that sounds funny, u know. i am the opposite. all that i want is to someday, listen to this song and think about someone else. even if this person never accepts me, i wish i could think about them like this (just to be clear, i have no idea of who and where they are, but i like to pretend that i know there is someone out there for me). i think i am the most self-centered one here, but what can i do when all of you talk about such sweet and nice stories and i just want to know how does it feel for once?

deliciousandvicious9 I will think,of you when I hear this song,from,now on, love. and you're not being selfcentered at all, m'dear

deliciousandvicious9 you're not being self-centred or anything! I'm pretty sure a lot of other people (including myself tbh) want to have this kind of song about them like you; you're just the first one to bring it up haha

there is nothing self-centered about wanting a person to think of and love you.

it is idealistic though. and hopelessly romantic.
also, this is a song about unrequited love. that means that one of you doesn't reciprocate those affections. whether from ignorance or conscious choice - one loves while the other does not.

so... maybe this isn't the best song to base romantic daydreams on.

but what do I know, I'm just a push pin with an Internet connection.

💻
📌

deliciousandvicious9 its not self centred to hope that someone thinks the world of you.

Omg same!! I dream about this all the time

deliciousandvicious9 no you don't. Trust me.

i had to rush my comment cause i ran out of room rip but u get my point, i hope

@ all of u replying "never will happen 2 me :///" sHUt up
Ok??
u literally neVer know like seriously im 99% sure that there's soMEONE who thinks about you if they've ever heard this song/they could even jus feel this way abt u w/o hearing the song...my point iS that ur wrong and someone most definitely thinks about you lyk this

take me for example,, ive liked this girl for...a year now?and well i never really knew how special she was until she ended up being in a heck of a lot of my classes @ school nd i literally can't stop looking at her because of how pretty she is and how her laugh is so nice to hear and how she's so funny and how her eyes are this beautiful deep shade of blue,, like...she pretty much is the first thing i think of when i wake up and the last thought that i have before i go to bed which is weird because we've never even talked...she has no clue she means the woRld (and everything more) to me. you could be like her nd have no clue about how much you mean to someone!

deliciousandvicious9 no I feel exactly the same like everyday 😂

deliciousandvicious9 same, but I doubt they will...

deliciousandvicious9 I feel the same way!!

deliciousandvicious9 Its not at all self centered to want to be loved.  Everyone deserves love and passion and never be embarrassed about wanting it

I know exactly who I'd love to hear this song and think of me...

deliciousandvicious9 i can relate, it isnt self centred at all. we all just want to know what it feels like to be strongly loved, but never known about it.

deliciousandvicious9 that's not self centred

deliciousandvicious9 I don't think that's self centered


She’s sweet, so kind, and is my only reason i look forward to going to school. Her eyes are absolutely stunning and they are like an ocean i could just drown in. Her laugh could make me smile even on the darkest days. I love her so much even though i dont know what her sexuality is, and she is so important to me.


Just made a playlist called "dodie is a full on happy mood"

<3


2:21
i’ve listened to this song millions of times, one of my favorite songs, everytime it means something different to me, there’s this one girl i’ve been constantly in and out of a relationship with, idk what to do, she just ended things with me saying it was the last time, today i saw her and we were talking with our friend and i was standing right next to her, but i have never felt so far from her.


I sang this song to my crush and one day I would love for her to be mine one day


my she is in a relationship with someone who isn’t always aware.  I care for her more than they do, and i notice when things are wrong with her before they do.  I’m thinking of sending this song to her anytime soon, probably keep you updated even though you probably will not notice!


I always end up here it's 2:58am and I'm think about her. I know we can't be together and probably won't. It's all memories that never happened but she means everything to me.


I think of my mom when i hear this song 🥰 and my great nan who passed away last year xx


I remember this coming out around the time that I did.


The first girl I admitted to myself I liked was my best friend. Her name was Jessie. She was blonde and freckled. She loved strawberry milkshakes and cats even though she had a dog. She was my muse for everything. She had a boyfriend for eight months of the year and a half we've been friends and it killed me. He was a terrible person and I just wanted her to be with me. I would have treated her right. He never did. She was hopelessly straight though. I was always giving her gifts. I gave her yellow roses and a book of 100 love letters but I didn't tell her I liked her until a month after I got over her. She told me she knew. We're still best friends but she was my She.

Aww. I hope that one day you find someone who looks at you the same way you do them. You deserve it.


I still haven’t found myself a she but I sure am excited to have one. <br>Oh to live in a cozy cottage in the woods with my wife, baking, writing, and singing songs.

I still haven’t found myself a she but I sure am excited to have one.
Oh to live in a cozy cottage in the woods with my wife, baking, writing, and singing songs.


Here's the lyrics if you have a special guy on your mind :)

Am I allowed to look at him like that?
Could it be wrong
When he's just so nice to look at?
And he smells like lemongrass and sleep
He tastes like apple juice and peach
Oh, you would find him in a Polaroid picture
And he...
Means everything to me
Oh, oh
I'd never tell
No, I'd never say a word
And oh, it aches
But it feels oddly good to hurt
And he smells like lemongrass and sleep
He tastes like apple juice and peach
Oh, you would find him in a Polaroid picture
And he...
Means everything to me
Oh-oh (ooh, ooh), ooh-oh
Oh-oh (ooh, ooh), ooh-oh
And I'll be okay
Admiring from afar
'Cause even when he's next to me
We could not be more far apart
And he tastes like birthday cake and story time and fall
But to him
I taste of nothing at all
And he smells like lemongrass and sleep
He tastes like apple juice and peach
Oh, you would find him in a Polaroid picture
And he...
Means everything to me
Yes, he means everything to me
He means everything to me


When this is like all over Tik Tok and your remember when it first came out 💛


i remember listening to this song in 2015, still in the closet because i was in 5th grade and would be scared of what people at school would think since they were really judgy now i’m a sophomore and out as bisexual :)


watched this video for the first time in 2014 anxious i could be gay and now im screaming it every two sec we stan


My ex girlfriend sent me this when we started daiting🤧 I miss her so much😭🥺


I dedicated this song to first girl i fell in love with when i realized i was bi, honestly every single part of the song made sense to me everytime i was with her. I was scared and i thought that probably this would ruin our friendship, and i think in some kind of way it did, now that she´s not anymore in my everyday, i still love her and i really wish her the best of the lucks. Andrea you´ll probaly will never see this but be sure i will always love you and the best thing i can do its let you go.


I just found this and it is amazing !!!!<br>Happy pride month!

I just found this and it is amazing !!!!
Happy pride month!


i accidentally just sang "and she smells like lemongrass and sleep, and she tastes like apple juice and bleach" oops lmao

And I sang “and she smells like lemongrass and sheep”


how she makes me feel

  she’s a vance joy song come to life, soft like emmylou, warm like saturday sun, and as classic as riptide

 spring daffodils and summer cherries

    lavender fields

     stripes and overalls

raspberry lemonade

   doves and clouds and being free

flowers blooming

 snowflakes

   late night rain

  pink and yellow and blue and all her favourite colours in between

        cotton candy

      violet skies

painting with watercolours

      english accents

  fuzzy socks

          bicycle rides

                and old movies about falling in love,

      because they’re so true with her.


Oh my, I love this song almost as much as I love the woman who wrote it. And that accent (sounding like an American now), I could listen to her read a book on refrigeration engineering, it is so fun to hear!


I see all these sweet comments from people altering the lyrics to make it fit for their situation or telling really cute stories. And it made me wonder, we are all someones she/he/they etc. but maybe one of these comments is about you. Maybe someone you know has written something so sweet for you. And maybe they didn't, maybe they wrote it in their diary or in their head. Just remember you are beautiful and loves and people will have some cute stories about you, just because you don't always hear them doesn't mean they don't exist.


nora
her smile is so bright
her long hair is the color of autumn
her blue eyes sparkle like a diamond
she’s a drop of bright color in a sea of gray
she’s the most gorgeous person in the whole world
loving her is painful when she doesn’t know you exist
but loving her is also beautiful
because she was the one who sparked the rainbow tears
and that is better than any tears of gray


There is something about this song that is so simple...but also genius.


I had a “she”. She is currently my best friend, and i had a crush on her some months ago. I would love hugging her before school, and smell the nice scent of her fresh curly hair. She always grabs me by the wrist to make sure i am listening to her, to tell me something no matter how random or simple it was. We always talk about our favorite shows and movies nonstop. Our sense of humor is only understood by each-other, and we can laugh together for hours on end. When i used to like her, she had a big crush on a guy and ended up making out with him at a party. It hurt having to see it all happen, put on a facade and feel excited for her. Despite feeling jealous, i learned that all i want in the world is to see her happy, and if she didnt see me the same way i saw her, so be it. this song by dodie and “let her go” by passenger was really important to my moving on. I know this was released 5 years ago and this will get lost among the comments, but i just had to get it out of my chest. I hope this song can help others as much as it helped me understand my emotions. :)


My she...

She smelt like sugarcane and dreams.
She tasted like chocolate milk and cotton candy.
You would’ve found her in a misty cherry blossom forest.
She meant, and always will mean, everything to me.


i just want a girlfriend so i can sing this to her </3


I absolutely loved being a part of this - it's turned out so good! thank you dodes ❤


holy frack though, dodie, so fckn stunning.


Is it just me or is this the most beautiful and relatable comment section ever
Literally E V E R

Is it just me or is this the most beautiful and relatable comment section *ever*
Literally *E V E R*


Throwback to my first crush on a girl, I used to listen to this all the time lol


I can’t wait to meet my “she”. Since 3rd grade I’d have several girl crushes but I cant find someone yet. Then again I’m still in 6th grade but that doesn’t mean I cant be in love <3


This is in an awesome Italian series on Netflix about horoscopes and love that I just watched. I'm so glad I heard this 💜


She smelled like colored pencils and fresh air
She tasted like warm sweaters and laughs
Her smile lit up galaxies
Tracing her glasses with my finger
Her hugs when I cried
Her soft voice saying “it’s okay”
Her curly fluffy hair
You could find her with my head in her lap during recess
Me wearing her sweater because I forgot mine
She didn’t care if she was cold
As long as I was warm
The sight of her cuts is imprinted in my mind forever
I don’t know where you are now
I wish I could have saved you
I wish I hadn’t said that
I shouldn’t have said that
If I could go back in time I’d undo those words
My time with my she was so short
Yet it felt like a magical forever
I miss you


to my "she"

you know i loved you, you dont know that i still do. Im happy you found happiness somewhere else, though i wish it couldve been me....im not one to write long romantic texts, i already did that but threw them away because they were all about you.
but if you ever see this, know that ive always thought of you while listening to this
love, your loempia


My she has a laugh so amazing it makes my heart skip a beat, my she is so gorgeous that I stop breathing when I see her, my she makes me laugh when I need to, my she knows when she needs to take things seriously, my she is amazing, my she is a he, and I wasn’t ready for that


I love hearing all of these wonderful stories, but I don’t have a she. I want to be someone’s She


she smells like happiness
she tastes like vimto bonbons
you would find her in the woods in the rain
and she, means everything to me


I'm several years late to the party but I'm reading all thses stories and I want to contribute so here goes.

My she right now isn't straight. I'm not sure what she identifies as, but I know she dates both boys and girls. I found out that we listen to the same music and after I got dumped I realized that she was really pretty. I hadn't told anyone. Still haven't, really. Anyway, I was thinking about making a move when I found out a guy friend of mine started going out with her. This is the second time something like this has happened to me.

Edit: I just got a like on this and its kinda therapeutic to write my thoughts down so to add to this, she said she didn't really like that guy and they broke up. They were still close enough that I was considering making a move because it wouldnt be too weird.

She and I had a moment in the bathroom. It was magical. Somehow, she got hold of a new song that isn't technically out here yet and we listened to it together.

I was really hoping she was into me.

And then she told me that she's started going out with another guy I know. He didn't know that I liked her either, so no hard feelings except that A) he didn't tell me they got together B) I thought he was gay but he's bi so now I feel like a shitty friend for not knowing he's bi and C) I still like her. I'm trying to get over it, but I do.

Life sucks sometimes, but I know it'll be better. There will be girls that I like that like me back that don't have boyfriends. But it still sucks for now.

Edit 2: I'm completely over her now and very confused about another girl.


i’ll come back to this comment when i’ve found my ‘she’


My ‘she’ has been my best friend since we were 9. I had no I fea she was my she. We’ve been through so much together, but I think I’ll just keep admiring from afar.


i can’t wait to think of my “she” listening to this song when i find her


I honestly think she inspires all of us, her songs always feel honest and real <3

Carrie Hope Fletcher <br>U and Dodie inspire me SO much and u 2 r my biggest inspirations!! ❤❤❤

Carrie Hope Fletcher
U and Dodie inspire me SO much and u 2 r my biggest inspirations!! ❤❤❤

Honestly you two are such huge influences in my life and me writing music and <b>excitable screaming</b>

Honestly you two are such huge influences in my life and me writing music and *excitable screaming*

ItsWayPastMyBedTime I love you Carrie!! ❤

The only reason I liked this is because I made it 2017 likes xD

ItsWayPastMyBedTime, Srsly its way past my bed time right now xD its 12:56 right now

Get someone else to listen to it, one of my friends wrote a song and told me it was crap and i listened to it and it was amazing. Get someone to check before you say it's crap. Xx

@EpicGamer37<br>lol, i have a 4 day weekend so i can stay upaslong as iwant on sunday!

@EpicGamer37
lol, i have a 4 day weekend so i can stay upaslong as iwant on sunday!

You both and ed sheeran insire me. I write songs but they are crap.

still waiting for a collab of you two wonderful ladies! xx

your name descirbes me right now.. it sunday and im up at 4:25


I dont know what it is, but the delivery of this song is the saddest but loveliest thing I've ever heard


dear my ‘she’ —

i know i’m not your she. but someone else is, and she looks at you the same way i did. i see you look back at her just the same. don’t break her heart like you did mine. please. ily.


S/o to the song that helped me admit im a huge lesbian.

This song will always have a special place in my heart.

I wouldnt put it past my future self to have this be the first dance my wife and i dance at our wedding.


I was brought here by Liam O'Brian's connecting with the song, and your work is amazing.  I can't wait to share this with my daughter.  I think it will speak directly to her, but it also speaks to the connections of humanity and as much as love is love, unrequited love is unrequited love.  Thank you for this song.


My girlfriend now actually sang this song to me before we were dating and I instantly fell in love with both your song and her XDD guess that makes me super gay


to everyone in the comments, thank you for sharing your beautiful words of your Shes with me. maybe one day i'll be confident enough to talk about mine, but as of now my bisexuality is terrifying due to my strong feelings of love for both girls and Jesus Christ.

i think i relate to you too much for it to be healthy


coming back five years later hits.... harder than it should


She's My Rainy Days on January morning but not like the the bad type of rain but more like that the phenomenon of Sunny rain. She's the one pause in the movie or the song or whatever that just makes you feel amazing, she's bisexual, we're dating... but I hurt her. She might break up with me it's almost been a year to. It's my fault and I'm ready to accept it but I just I listen to this song when I had a crush on her when I first saw her. And when she accidentally told me she liked me my heart s o a r e d and I messed it all up. You haven't talked at all, but I can still feel your pain from this far, I know you want to talk to me but you can't because you're scared, I don't want you to know I love you so much love at the point I might break. I've been made fragile, and I just hope she learns what support is.

P. S. I'll Always Love You even if I'm on the island. Bye.

Edit:she broke up with me but that's okay, we both still love each other very much. And we're still friends. But I still want to be with her and kiss her.


She smells like strawberry and feathers
She tastes like music and laughter
You would find her in a cheap music festival
And she...
Means everything to me


I felt this way for my 'she' for so long, until I got up the courage to tell her.
Turns out we both liked eachother.
We've now been dating for almost two months, and I love her so so so much.
I'm going to do something for her with this song, because she really means everything to me.


This speaks to me on a personal level. Dodie has to keep hittin the feels


I can't tell you how much I love this song❤🌺


She came into my life at such a rough patch for me, but since then has stuck by my side and supported my every decision. With miles upon miles between us it was a risky decision, but we fell for each other, and I don't regret a single thing. Every day i smile a little more. I love you, jow.


My 'she' was a close friend. We hadn't known each other all that long, but some how our friendship grew really quickly. Despite knowing(and accepting) that I'm gay, as well as being out to most people, when I started to feel an attraction, I pushed away. At the time it must have seemed really weird to her because one minute I was really open and happy, and the next I was cold and closed off. This wasnt my first 'she' and I felt that I couldn't let my heart be broken again. I was doing my GCSEs that year, so I felt that my grades would be affected if I acknowledged my feelings. All of this happened while I knew that she(at least thought) she was bi. She would talk to me about this girl that she really fancied, and I killed me inside to here her talk about her. After my GCSEs I broke down and wrote her a letter explaining pretty much everything, including my feelings for her. About a month later she told me that she was dating this guy. She also told me that if she wasn't dating him when I told her I liked her then she would have said she liked me back. I was just starting to get over her and it tore the wound right open. A few weeks later she told me that she wasn't bi, and that it was just a phase. We haven't talked since.


oh my god i love my “she” so so much. everything about her, her dark hair, green and blue eyes, her smile, her laugh, she’s so sweet, she is so so caring. she means everything to me, but i mean nothing to her. i see whole galaxies in her eyes and she can’t even see a single star in mine


i remember my first she

i was in 7th grade. i had been friends with this girl for about 1 year. we became really close that year and talked every day. we facetimed every day after school and we hung out every weekend. she had another best friend at the time and they were both boy crazy. i would always get jealous when they went over and talked to all the boys. i wanted her all to myself. i stayed up until 1 in the morning listening to her cry about this boy that she liked and how he liked her best friend. i felt so bad for her, and i just wanted to hold her in my arms as she cried. after winter break, she started to distance herself from me. i was confused because we were good friends before but all of a sudden, she started avoiding me. i was so confused and sad, i had no idea what to do. then, covid hit. we stopped becoming friends and i was heartbroken. during quarantine, i made the discovery that i was queer, and everything made so much sense. i could never tell her how i felt because she is straight, she also doesn’t like me now for whatever reason BAHA. but, i’m over her. and i’ve changed and moved on. i’m a freshman now, it took me a very hard time to accept myself. but now i know that it’s ok to be a gay girl. and i’m happier then i ever was before :)


My boyfriend tells me this song reminds him of me I’m actually crying I love my baby


I've only seen her a couple times and talked to her even less, but she makes me feel like I've got a family of butterflies nesting at the bottom of my stomach😊🥰🥰


I'm not gay or bi but this song is really pretty, and it reminds me of my best friend. She does mean everything to me, but not in that light.


you'll never know now, but i loved you. i loved your warm eyes and your honey skin, your freckles and your smile. i loved the way your brown hair shined auburn in the sun, and your dimples that you gave oh-so-generously. i loved you, i really did.

Enchanted Onyxia why r u guys so rude if he felt this way he felt this way u didn’t go through what he felt doesn’t matter what age so just please stop with the hate

Tori, i guess THE PHANDOM IS FUCKING EVERYWHERE OMG BUT ALSO TRUE

Oh my so touching and poetic! May I make an extended version and turn it into a song?

yoshii I’m sorry but arent you like seven?

A. Drago while I am listening to this song and reading this,  I am crying.  This song is the one that I used to listen to when I got my first girlfriend (first girl) and she broke up with me for a guy,  I still love her even though we. Won't be together and knowing her is enough for me, but this described her perfectly. She is so incredibly beautiful

damn...this punched my feelings in the face, and then gave my feelings a hug XDDD

yoshii Puppy love is very real my friend. And It hurts just as much as immature lovers can

how did u make me cry with a few sentences

A. Drago i fell in. love with that comment

Think I just fell in love with this comment

So deep and eloquent.. I love your writing.

Bobbi more like my high school crush lol...

You know what? That is the same description of my best friend, who I am in love with, and when I read it I started crying because it reminded me of her and I miss her so much...

"you'll never know me" let me guess. a classic case of summer camp? or is she in your school and you can't talk to her?

Ari Drago did you mean <b>Dan Howell</b>

Ari Drago this is so sadly beautiful like poetry


Day 1 of listening to this song every day, until my crush falls in love with me...


her enunciation is so shortened and clear at the same time i love it


This is my fav song from dodie, im discovering myself and i dont know if im bi or hetero. I’m a little bit lost. So this is just so helpful.


this song is as heartbreaking as ever, good to know :D


This hit different but it's so perfect I love this so much and I love you so much


im out to my parents, have had good wlw relationships and do not have a current crush but this song hits me and makes me cry, i love it!


I DID NOOOOTTT... need to start CRYING in the middle of my zoom class... damn I love this song... dangit


Can’t believe TikTok lesbians hate on this song so hard. It’s beautiful


Thank you... a close friend just died she was like the only sibling I had<br>Thank you dodie... you help calm me down... and it isn't the first time I've cried to your songs

Thank you... a close friend just died she was like the only sibling I had
Thank you dodie... you help calm me down... and it isn't the first time I've cried to your songs

@Yeti you’re in literally every reply section

It doesn't get better. But it does get easier.

Shwump Animations it does. Two of my friends passed away this year. It absolutely burns at first, but the pain will fade. You'll never be completely over it, but you won't be broken

Lizzy Symons it's okay...it will get better... I hope


Over this quarantine I started thinking about what I felt and I heard this was a really good song. I listened to it and realized I was thinking of my best friend, who I thought I had lost feelings for. Now whenever I listen to this song I think of her. I'm going to ask her out in a year or two because she said she wasn't ready to date anyone yet. I really hope she feels the same way.


She is my best friend. She constantly in and out of relationships. She loves the rain and snuggles. She smells like warm hugs and blankets. She is a foot taller than me but I don’t care. She has bright blue eyes that transform into the prettiest hazel in the sun. She will never love me like I love her. She breaks my heart but puts it back together at the same time. She is happy. She is my favorite person. She makes me sad but I don’t mind. She will never see me. She.


I’m here crying over a straight girl :’)


She tastes like birthday cake is my favorite line✨🍰


"She" is (most definitely) straight and a Christian and says the word "gay" in a slightly ashamed whisper, and it breaks my heart every time.

Edit: we still haven’t directly talked about it (probably because we both have anxiety and are terrified of losing each other) but we have talked about how cute Ryden (a gay relationship between Ryan Ross and Brendon Urie) could’ve been together, and about other gay ships. So maybe life isn’t as cruel as it can be made out to be - a more hopeful version of the same human 😊

Edit (once again) Months from the first comment: I told her that I’m bi last night, and she replied in all caps, that she was so proud of me, for being able to tell her 😁 I was crying tears of joy from her response. She told me that I wasn’t alone (although she is writing a full response at some point today, because her parents told her to go to bed before she could) I still am convinced sometimes that she is only in my head, because I could not have asked for a better friend - the happiest version of me that I’ve been in quite a long time

Yet another edit: We’re together now 😁 (also, dear past me, your “straight” sister literally just broke up with/completely emotionally destroyed said “straight girl”...yet you are oblivious to all of it)

RYDEN ITS EVERYWHERE I GO OHHHHHHH MY GOSH........ I’m sorry to hear that, I hope she comes to her senses

I've liked this dude like all through elementary school but now we're in high school he acts all Republican and talks shit about gays (I'm pansexual)  and everything but I still like him...

That's soooo shitty. I wonder what it's like to fall in love with a person like that! Sounds terrible. I'm really turned off by that sort of attitude, thank God... Can't fall in love with someone who's presence disgusts you. :)


My first She was my hero. When I came to my new school, she was my first friend -and, I would later discover, my first crush. She was so many first. First person I came out to. First heartbreak. She was so beautiful. Long strawberry blonde hair that fell in waves. Eyes that changed hues. And when she cut her hair to shoulder length, she looked even better. She was like fire, I think. Confident, strong -or at least that's how I saw her. She came out to me first, you know. In fact, her confidence gave me the confidence to come out. As we grew older, she changed and we grew apart. I realized we would never work out. So I let go. I missed who she used to be, what we used to have.

My second She is wild. I've only known her for a few days, yet she's left such an impression on me. She's strong and determined, smart and unafraid. She's loyal and kind. I lo- no, I like her. I like her a lot.


im sorry but- when did dodie get to almost 2 million subs??? ive been here for a long while and... im- im so proud of her...


Found this... I can't stop thinking about my crush 😂 thanks


I think I’m biromantic, my she, my best friend, is so calming to be around. She smells of flowers and sadness. I hug her occasionally and she does the same. Holding on to each other when we need it.

She loves another person though. They are the most adorable people together and I tell her that they look so cute together. I want her to be happy. Maybe in the back of my mind I had a crush on her, I’ve never had one of these crushes, that’s why I think I’m asexual, or maybe I just lack feeling in general.

Perhaps I’m leaning on her for emotional support. Feelings like these make my head a chaotic mess. I think I gave up a long time ago, it’s just that I’m not really sure what I am feeling. Its a mixture of emotions whenever I see her. I admire her and just want her to be happy, because she deserves someone so much more.

I hope that she gets together with her, I will cheer her on and tuck this feeling away.

Sorry this is just a rant on Youtube, I needed to get my feelings into words somehow.


“she” loves me back. she sang this song to me. sometimes my anxiety gets in the way of things, or my brain is just weird and messes things up, but she’s so patient and loving. i love her sooooo much.

at least "she" likes you back. this week im gonna try to hang out with "she" and im gonna kiss her!


this song made me realize that i liked my first ever girlfriend so thanks dode 😎


To my she, you are the most Beautiful person I have ever met. I love you more then you could ever know. Ever since I met you, my days have gotten a little brighter. You are amazing at everything you do, and I have loved you for four years now. You are the best thing in this world and help me everyday to become someone I know you will be proud of. So though I know you will never see this, I love you Mina, with all my heart, I probably won’t ever get the courage to tell you but I hope one day I will.


This makes me think of my best friend who isn't my best friend anymore. She just stopped talking to me and honestly I still love her more than anything on this earth.

Lucy Davey I've been in the same situation with my crush/best friend and I miss talking to her

Lucy Davey this song also reminds me of an ex bestfriend because she introduced me to Dodie and I'm glad she did but I don't regret leaving her at all.

Unicatwhal ugh i had a crush on my friend too but id never say i word to her cause i was afraid something like this would break our friendship but idk i need encouragement

reminds me of my best friend. i had a crush on her before i really knew i was bi. i never told her and she was murdered a year ago so i never will i guess...

PockiePandee same here. We both have a lot stuff to do in school an its just killing me. Plus she have a boyfriend now. I seen her last year in September maybe... and barely texted with her

Reading this made me realize that I'm doing this to my own best friend... I'm slowly starting to talk less and less with her. I love her to bits, but I'm just... Busy, I guess. And she's also busy, but I miss the times when we'd be screaming and having fun just like we did two years ago.

Lucy Davey that is an awful thing to go through.. I had the same thing happen to me a year ago. stay strong

Lucy Davey I've never felt such a connection to comment ever before. i miss her so much..

It's the same for me. She was my best friend and I still love her. I know she's happier now though, so that makes it easier for me too. Doesn't mean I don't miss her more than anything though

Lucy Davey you will find someone way better. 🌈

Awh I've been in this situation before. Recently I got in a fight with my best friend and she was mad at me, but she meant everything to me. So if you can, then you should have a big chat with her (if you are comfortable) or you can let her know how you feel about her via letter/text. I hope things work out for you like the way it did for me <3

Lucy Davey but if it's hopeless you'll find someone new and sometimes there's reason for loosing people ❤

Lucy Davey oh that's awful :( if she means that much tell her!!

same :-( she just stopped talking to me, and I really miss her so fricking much.

that happened to me but i don't care anymore, i actually am angry at her

Lucy Davey My best friend, who I have liked for ever, recently stopped talking to me because I got a girlfriend. She has a boyfriend though and claims to still like me but I can't date her so why try.

Lucy Davey~~ i relate so much to this it made me cry.

when I read this I started crying.. I just want ny friend back!

this hurts so much. i was in love with my best friend and even if she was horrible to me and i know she didn't deserve my love at all, i still miss her.

Lucy Davey I used to have a best friend and we used to talk everyday and I loved talking to her soo much.She then got a boyfriend and went from only talking about him to bearly texting me and then just not texting me at all. Its been a year already and I miss it a lot everyday.

same for me....i've got better people in my life now though and i'm so much happier than i used to be <3 stay strong

Sam Brink But.... i did and.... we are still not the same as we used to... we... are.... still........... strangers

For everyone who has someone they'd wish to be back in their life— contact them, text them, call them, write them a letter, find them on social media, do it now. Honestly, do it, right now. Stop reading this and do it

Same here. It's been years and I still miss her :(

The same hing happened with me. Oddly the same. For me the person just stopped talking and starting seeing a boyfriend a lot more.

The exact same thing happen to me and I still feel like that

Chicken Bathroom thank you soooo much! it means a lot! hope u find the trust worthy friend! x

+Betsie Lynch one day i hope you'll find someone so much better. just think about it, there's 7billion people in the whole world and probably a couple billion who are dicks so minus 2 billion that's like 5 billion friends -actually i think a lot more ppl are mean but like you still have so many people out there who'd be more than willing to be your friend, i want to say something to my friend but i don't think i ever will. at least you did it, you should be proud

Chicken Bathroom We're in the same situation. I miss my best friend in the whole world! I told her i missed her and she said "i'm sorry...i didn't know....." i walked away crying. When we were best friends.....She was the only one there for me....i am in another world without her... :(

ouch i don't talk to my best friend anymore either
i miss her but it's my fault i was the one who stopped it all, the worst part was that i did it to see if she'd care
and
Well,
she didn't
...or at least she didn't show it


I'm absolutely love this song,it's beautifully gay too:)


My ‘She’ has curly blonde hair that waves in the wind like silk, a sweet smile that shines like the sun, she wears shorts and shirts to every event I see her, her voice sounds like church bells ringing and she is the person I love most in this world.

(Sorry for being sappy qwp)


omg, I just heard this very song in the Italian Netflix series "An Astrological Guide for Broken Hearts" and I am beyond proud! Proud that I knew right away that it was your voice and your song, that's just so cool ❤


just realized this is one of the first songs i found when coming to terms with my bisexuality (2016) and i completely forgot about it. i didn't even start really listening to dodie until this year. this is my first time watching it since and all i remember is having this on repeat, taking each word to heart. i guess i've come full circle


She smells like vanilla sweets
She tastes like cotton candy dreams
Oh you would find her in a forest with the birds
And she.....means everything to me oh~

They never liked me back but it’s okay cuz I moved on

Alison Thanks haha I made it about my crush at the time it is actually based of their interests


im actually thinking of my boyfriend while listening to this.
the whole tune of this song reminds me of his beautiful eyes in the sun
wind making his hair all messy
his loving arms and warm smile
so healthy
happy.
i love you nino.


WAIT I REMEMBER HEARING THIS SONG SOME TIME IN MIDDLE SCHOOL AND NOW SHE’S SO POPULAR SO FJDJSJSISJDHDH


She’s my best friend and we’ve been through ups and downs... but she’s in love with someone else and has been her whole life. I feel safe with her, laughing, being awkward but it’s okay. She thinks she’s ugly but her freckles are beautiful and her eyes sparkle in the golden sun by her window. I know it will never happen, I have no chance, but I can’t stop the way I feel about her. This song just describes everything so perfectly. Me and my crush love each other. But we only love each other as friends, and nothing else. I guess I’ll just have to be hiding my whole life

Sorry for that but all these people in the comment section really made me want to spread my feelings too


Oh man. I really like this girl. She’s so beautiful, so talented, so kind, and unfortunately... so straight. I guess our romance will exist in my dreams :(

probably clarisse try and go for it, maybe she isn’t straight. If she truly is, I’m sorry and I hope you can get over it well and you will remain good friends. ❤


I just asked out my crush, god she's amazing. I'm so glad we're dating now


Oh boy I felt the same about my crush she meant and still means everything to me. Its been more than a year now and Im just so lucky to have her by my side


"But to her I taste of nothing at all" but I think to her I tasted like a friend... and yeah my feelings and emotions broke our friendship. It's really hard not to have feelings for your straight friend.


She has hugs that feel like coffee on a gloomy morning. She smells like rain and and tastes like raspberries. Her eyes are like a blanket in the coldest of winters. Her smile is goofy and sweet and confused. Her thoughts are whimsical and silly. She speaks sunlight and sugar. When she breathes, she breathes in hope. And when she exhales, she exhales comfort. And most importantly, she will never feel the same about me. She will never see me and think of her favourite sweater. She will never smile at the thought of me. She will never ponder if the things in my head. She will never know of the aching I feel in my chest for her. And lastly, she will never know I love her.

@I_Am_Glove i don't think they were intending on judging anyone for their sexuality. they're just frustrated that the person they like could never like them back.

My one of those ^^ is my favorite fucking sweater. I relate so hard m8. Feel better

Awe ..... I sure she does . How’s it going now ?lots of love ❤


She told me she was bi after someone was saying gays are weird. I went over to her house for a sleepover, and I told her while we were swimming. She said “I’m surprised but that” and we just kept swimming. I tried to be cute and send things and she’s not saying anything. I don’t know if she likes me or not, but I hope she knows.

She means everything to me


I'm a straight guy and I love this song.


Gosh this song is so sweet and beautiful


I remember when I first found this sound. I loved it, but it wasn't something I could relate to.<br>Now it hurts how much I can relate which, somehow, makes the song even better which I didn't think was possible.

I remember when I first found this sound. I loved it, but it wasn't something I could relate to.
Now it hurts how much I can relate which, somehow, makes the song even better which I didn't think was possible.

+THE PHANDOM IS EVERYWHERE aha i love the phandom xD we're everywhere

@THE PHANDOM IS EVERYWHERE you literally are everywhere

It's a beautiful song (or should I say beautiPHIL.... I'll leave)

I understand you, but my case is a little bit different. My best friend told her she likes me, and I like her too, but we can't be together because our families are extremely religious and homophobic. It hurts so much, because I know that if I fall in love with her, I wouldn't be able to hide it, and my parents would kick me out of the house... It hurts so fucking much.

I saw the cabinet in the top left corner and knew it was Dan and Phil's kitchen oh god I'm trash

@Phan Girl is it weird that this comment made me cry :´D

@HexxisBR - Voltei \o/ I wish I could help you man but I think maybe you'll just have to stick it out xx

Last week I was with that friend who is her classmate, and she appeared smiling, showing her wrists with cut marks, and my friend said something like "Look, these cuts aren't too recent"
It hurts me because I can't help her, and when I talk about this, she refuses to say how she feels about the cuts
On one hand I want to like her, on the other, liking her, is making me sad and I getting bad to know that I will never have anything with her besides friendship
 Anyway, thanks for saying this...
(Oh, and sorry if I said something wrong because I'm brazilian and my english is bad)

@HexxisBR - Voltei \o/ it'll be okay, you will be happy without her, even if it takes a long time xx

One of my best friends is her classmate, but I didn't come out yet to anyone except my friend Leonardo ( Well, I didn't come out to him but he saw that I was kissing a girl, so...)

She study on my school but my class is in the morning, her class is in the afternoon

I'm hoping she is bi because maaan, how do someone can be so lovely and cute and beautiful and so fucking perfect

@HexxisBR - Voltei \o/  aw I'm sorry friend :( but you'll get over her someday xx

I can't<br>Well, she isn't very close to me and she HAS A FUCKING BOYFRIEND

I can't
Well, she isn't very close to me and she HAS A FUCKING BOYFRIEND

@HexxisBR - Voltei \o/ did you tell her?

Awn <3<br>so,finally u had a happy ending?

I commented this on the day I told her, and she said yes and I love her so much<3

@Carissa H @Phan Girl Carissa,I feel the same now  <br>I understand you </3

@Carissa H @Phan Girl Carissa,I feel the same now
I understand you </3

@Carissa H I know, I relate so much. I love her so much but I can't say anything


Perfectly describes how I felt when I first discovered I like women....


Her hands are always so cold but so soft and she'll ask me to warm them up because mine are always warm. I miss her all of the time, even if she's sat right there. And now I'm crying. Thanks Dodie.

It's funny because she actually smells like lemongrass and sleep. And her hands are skilled but small and warm. And they press hard but lightly upon your skin, her hair is blonde but not TOO blonde, the perfect amount. You're horrible, Dodie. I'm gonna go cry in a corner now. (no hate, love you Dodie <3)


I remember listening to this when it first came out. I had no idea back then


"She means everything to me."

I am a pansexual trans male.
I have had a friend since the begining of 6th grade. Im in 8th grade and we are still friends.
She was the first person i came out to.
I am in a toxic realationship with my boyfriend ive known since i was 4.
We are still friends let alone him being toxic as hell.
I have a crush on my friend who i have known since 6th grade.
She's so pretty and sweet.
I wanna hold her.
But i cant.
She doesnt feel the same.
Ive told her before.
I dont want to ruin our friendship.
She is an absolutely amazing person.
I dont want her to hurt because of me.
This song reminds me of her.
It hurts my heart so much.
We always want what we cant have..

-9.3.20-
By Mordy


when i was eleven i would listen to this song over and over and try to convince myself that who I was was okay and now I'm sixteen and doing the same thing. its a different girl now and my life has completely flipped on its head. this new girl is pretty and smart and talented and oh so kind and I haven't ever felt like this for someone who I wasn't dating and it hurts. shes one of my best friends and went on a date with one of our guy friends yesterday and I feel like I'm eleven again. i cant look at her without feeling shame, cant hold her hand without feeling guilty, can't joke without feeling like a liar. she deserves to know but I'm not going to ruin what ive built. i hope it works out with our friend and I hope that she's happy, she deserves it.


I think the general summary for anyone listening to this is:
listens
cries

I think the general summary for anyone listening to this is:
*listens*
*cries*

Not really. For me it's like :
cries
listens

I'm weird.

Not really. For me it's like :
*cries*
*listens*

I'm weird.

<b>also hoping that the "she" we fell for feels the same</b>

*also hoping that the "she" we fell for feels the same*

nerissa <b>and wishing falling in love wouldn't hurt so much</b>

nerissa *and wishing falling in love wouldn't hurt so much*


i know how everyone is describing their “she” in the comments but here’s my problem, i don’t know to describe my “she”. she’s just my beautifully complicated “she” and i love that.


shes everything that we love, cottagrs, frogs, bright things, ruby, i love you


3:38 These Cuts are always perfectly timed


I don't have a She, I never have. Just a gal listening to some jolly tunes.


i was joking with my she about how bad i am at singing
and she told me to sing tear in my heart by tøp for her because we are true buds no homo bro
and i told her about this song because it was the only love song that came to my mind
and now two weeks later i realize that this song is literally my feels about her

i was joking with my _she_ about how bad i am at singing
and she told me to sing tear in my heart by tøp for her because we are true buds no homo bro
and i told her about this song because it was the only love song that came to my mind
and now two weeks later i realize that this song is literally my feels about her

ульяна артемова


She smells like linen and brownies

She tastes like lemons and burts bees

You would find her in a Snapchat filter

And she... means everything to me


this song reminds me of the first girl i ever loved and oh god:( if you’re reading this i’m sorry. i’m sorry i messed things up, i’m sorry i don’t text you anymore, i’m sorry we  fell apart and i have moved on and so have you. i’m glad you have, you really deserve the world z, you do. you really did change my summer and made me a better person. i wish things worked better but i don’t think it could have. anyway i’m sorry if u see this i needed to get this out oof


i am not even unhappily in love with anyone, but this song makes me feel like i'm really heartbroken and missing her.

Whom, tho :D
It's such a beautiful song...


the fact that this song came out before her coming out video makes me want to cry, but like, in a good way


I know probably nobody will see this comment, but I don't care.   This song makes me think of this girl who I really like. I love everything abut her, she's so sweet, loving and absolutely amazing.  I can't help, but be attracted to her, but I always thought I was straight. I guess why I like her so much is because {HE} came out as genderfluid, and it makes sense. She/He can portray both genders. Not only does the fact of liking someone not fully male terrify me, she/ he's all of the sudden drifting away from me. Like I understand if you need space but I want to be your friend. I Love You , please don't shut me out.  Like she/he's only like this to me. Its got very distant. I miss my best friend so much.


This, I'm going to sing this to my parents. This is how I'll come out to them.

Lili Madison McDonald thought they already knew and it was fine

Lili Madison McDonald I thought you told them already?? What happened:(

i thought you already did it and it did go well???? what happened??

Lili Madison McDonald GOOD JOB LOVE U PROUD OF U

Lili Madison McDonald I hope it goes well! Good luck 😉

have you done it yet? and how did it go/ i really hope it went well!

Lili Madison McDonald did you do it yet?

Lili Madison McDonald did you do it yet?

+Lili Madison McDonald Congradulations!!!

Lili Madison McDonald great idea! You got this

+Panic! With Paramore BEST TWO BANDS EVER

Lili Madison McDonald you seriously are and nice icon btw fam :))

Kirstie MacLeod i know! I feel loved honestly.

Lili Madison McDonald it's just amazing to see all this support you and others are getting i love this community sm ahh

Lili Madison McDonald i'm reading through all of these replies while listening to this song in the background and no joke tears are streaming down my face. this is so beautiful.

well done anyway thats so brave i never could have done that!!!

late but congrats! Posts like this make me happy af. also I love Melanie

Congratulations on coming out!!! I wish you the best from here on out 💖💖🎉

+Lili Madison McDonald This stream of comments is exactly why I come to this "side" of youtube the happiness, the discussion amd sometimes the sadness but almost never any hatred or hanger always happiness, helpfulness and respect that's why I love fanbases like this one. and massive congratulations Lili

Lili Madison McDonald OMG my best friends name is Lily McDonald! XD Except your name is spelt differently and you have a different middle name :p

@Catherine Hoang They were and I'm v happy about it

Lili Madison McDonald  I hope they accept you for who you are😊

Lili Madison McDonald THATS AMAZING IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU IM SMILING A LOT RN

GUYS GUYS I DID IT IN THE CAFETERIA AND ONE OF MY FRENS NUAT LOOKED AT ME AND WENT "God dammit Lili...We already fucking know." IM CRUYING

Guys guys my parents dont give af so im gonna do it to my frens in the cafeteria. And i got a girlfriend so more surprises for frens lol

YAY CONGRATS ON THEM KNOWING lol ops caps

+Lili Madison McDonald they think it's great right?

Aw, I'm really happy now. I was honestly have a really bad day and now I'm so happy. (:

+Lili Madison McDonald THATS STILL SO AMAZING! thats a big step in the right direction, and its good that they know. i hope things can always be great for you, and the future is so bright. 💘💘

+Lili Madison McDonald that's still great

I haven't done it yet, I'm sorry guys. Turns out my parents already know 😂 Oh well.

i hope things have gone well for you dear, you mean everything to them. remember that, even if they dont understand.

Good luck. Or have you done it? How did it go?


“It feels oddly good to hurt” <br>Genius line. It’s like you are finally being honest with your self, but it hurts because it could never happen and you could never tell anyone. It’s like a feeling that’s awful, but worth it because it’s a feeling you could only get from her- someone you will only meet once in a lifetime. And it aches even more because thinking about it will only remind you how it might never happen.I’ve never related more to a line I don’t think... ♥

“It feels oddly good to hurt”
Genius line. It’s like you are finally being honest with your self, but it hurts because it could never happen and you could never tell anyone. It’s like a feeling that’s awful, but worth it because it’s a feeling you could only get from her- someone you will only meet once in a lifetime. And it aches even more because thinking about it will only remind you how it might never happen.I’ve never related more to a line I don’t think... ♥


I literally didn’t think this was a song about love until I read the comments. Honestly not hating it either. I really thought it was about jealousy, which I guess is just what I think about more than love.


I am best friends with my 'she'. And I am lucky enough to know she feels nearly the same. I'm Panromantic heterosexual and I can safely say I am so lucky. My 'she' knows I care so fricking much about her and she cares right back. Her eyes are everything. Her awkward smile is everything. Her hands and freckles and dreams are everything. And I get to be with her always. I couldn't ask for more.
Good luck to all the lovelies in the comments with their 'she's. I hope you have as much luck as I did. Hearts, hugs, and smiles around.

I also brought milk and cookies so feel free to take some. ♡


watching this vid when it first came out as a kid, it was my favorite. I didn't know why at the time or why I got so emotional when listening to it. I still don't know what it really means. Do I like girls? No, I am extremely boy crazy... Am I bi? I don't know... I do love women but I can't tell if it's admiration or attraction. Could it be both? Both my parents have expressed countless times that they would love me just the same if I was gay or anything of the sort, so what's holding me back? What's making me question things? Am I just touch deprived and therefore think I like girls? No, I've had these thoughts for years.. I don't know, maybe I'll never know...

Don't rush yourself to figure anything out. It's good that your parents will accept you either way. It gives you more time to understand yourself without being held back. I struggled for many many years. It took meeting a girl who really confirmed the feelings I have towards women with the way she makes me feel. Now I feel so amazing knowing a little more about myself. She's my girlfriend now. But I still don't know if I'm gay or bi. I've had many boyfriends, and loved them, but it still can be confusing if maybe I was just trying to validate myself or feel normal or if they were just meant to be best friends. Life's really complicated. At this point, I'm just loving people for people, and that's all. My sexuality is my girlfriend. That's it


reminds me of someone i remember listening to this on repeat damn


Wait at the end there did she “correct” herself to “he” at the end there or was it just a continuation of the word she? Because if it’s the former, that is heartbreaking.

Scoot Scoot it’s just a continuation I think. “She, (breath) eee”


i really am back here once every year leaving a comment for myself to see next time i’m here, aren’t i? lol. this time, this song—the memories associated with it—feel SO far in the past. i’m no longer here because of the girl i liked freshman year. i’m no longer the me that typed something along the lines of “songs about liking a girl” into the youtube search bar and discovered dodie for the first time. so much has happened, so much has changed. i loved a boy a couple years back and i’m still left in pieces. the girl from freshman year and i drifted apart and then back together and then apart again right before i started my first year of college this year. i’ve had ending after ending after ending and i don’t even want love anymore, but i can’t seem to get my brain to understand that. and now i’m here because i miss the me that i was when i first found this song, i miss when life was so much simpler, before oliver and before madhura and before durva. it seems like i’ve been numbing so much for the past few years. i miss back when i let myself feel my feelings, because weirdly enough the beginning of me falling apart was the last time i remember feeling my emotions. it’s weird to look at a time like that and wish i was there, isn’t it? but i do. i so desperately do. because nights like these when i let myself just feel and cry and hurt have become SO fucking rare. all i do is watch twitch stream after twitch stream while barely staying afloat with my school work because i can’t get myself to feel what i need to feel and i can’t get myself to do anything else while there r so many unfelt feelings inside of me. it’s so exhausting

I feel the exact same way and I really hope you start feeling better darling ❤


hey, if you see this you know who you are. i loved you. so much. so much that i couldnt even imagine that my tiny little heart had the capacity.
i know youre mad for not telling you this before but i didnt have the courage. i didnt want to lose our friendship. because you were my best friend bub, you truly were. i couldnt stop thinking about you for a second. you were always in my mind and it felt like a dream actually so i didnt want it to turn into nightmare. at first i thought it was all because of the soulmate friendship thing we had but im pretty sure that i was in love with you. you were the most beautiful person i've ever seen in my life. i always wanted to kiss your rosy cheeks, touch your soft hair and watch your doe eyes forever, but i couldnt. sigh. i just wanted to say that i was completely honest when i supported you with your crushes no matter how it hurt. because i knew we wont be a "thing" and there wont be "we". because to you, i tasted of nothing (at all) :')
i could've texted you this but i dont think you need to hear them since you already have a crush and they love you back, i assume. hope you are happy and hope you will forgive me.


So, I think I like a girl. Anytime I hear this song, I just picture her. She is really beautiful, she is everything I want to be. But I think I may want more than to be her. I think I like her, like like her.
Im only 15. But I haven't felt anything quite like this before. I've never written this down, said it aloud, or ANYTHING. But ,
I think I'm bi, and I think I like her. Woah. I don't anyone will read this. I hope not. Or do i. Who knows. Anyway, thanx for letting me get this off my chest dodie. This song means alot to me now.
I'm bi. Yep. 🌈


Very Good original song, thanks for sharing She.


Listened to this song when I finally let myself be comfortable with my sexuality. This song will always be the one I can look back at and remember how much I hated myself. But I’m now happily dating this girl :) I am very very happy to say the least. She’s made me so very comfortable with my sexuality and helped me accept myself more.


AH! I completely missed this when it came out! <br>Such a beautiful song.  I can tell that it meant a lot to you :)

AH! I completely missed this when it came out!
Such a beautiful song.  I can tell that it meant a lot to you :)


so I'm sitting here crying and I just want to hug her and tell her how much she means to me and I don't even know who I am talking about


Im straight but i friggin love this song


even with the new version nothing is just. as Crisp as this if that makes sense


my old crush was one of my friends. i adored her so much. i've moved on, but i tend to think about her every now and then. i remember listening to this song and thinking of her.


To her:

I regret not telling you. At least if I told you, it would give me peace of mind. It has been four years since I last spoke to you and I miss you a lot. I've been trying to forget about you, but it seems that my heart does not want to. I wonder if your first love will always stick with you no matter what. If it does, its terrible inconvenient lol. I hope that you are doing well and that you find your perfect partner and you are happy. If we ever meet each other again, I'll look forward to it


i think im in love with my bestfriend
she smells like my mom
her hair is soft, brown, and so beautiful
her brown eyes are the best thing to get lost in just thinking about what you would do if she were yours
her soft smile is my security blanket that gets me through the day
her warm, tight hugs are like hugging a baby bear
i love holding her soft hands, soft like silk
i love how she can rave on about how she takes care of her nails, her favorite music, anything
she says she loves waist hugs
she loves cute nicknames (my nickname for her is babie)
she loves how i look in her headband
shes the most unorganized person i know
she loves jelly lippies clear lipgloss because it smells like bananas and babies
she loves the thought of a perfect relationship
nobody holds a candle to her


I remember years ago I used to listen to this on loop because I was in love with my best friend who <b>ofc</b> was straight and ofc I did the whole girl falls for her straight best friend and it hurt so bad knowing that she could literally never be mine but I stuck around because she was my best friend we aren’t friends anymore that was years ago but still coming back listening to this song brought out some memories

I remember years ago I used to listen to this on loop because I was in love with my best friend who *ofc* was straight and ofc I did the whole girl falls for her straight best friend and it hurt so bad knowing that she could literally never be mine but I stuck around because she was my best friend we aren’t friends anymore that was years ago but still coming back listening to this song brought out some memories


2020 i am still listening to it. Thank you Doodie🥺🥺🥺🥺


This my first time admitting to this online... I like both genders. I'm so scared of these weird, new feelings I'm getting for my friends of the same gender. I know compared to a lot of people, this isn't so extraordinary. I've always supported the LGBTQ community but never in my life had I ever thought I would be any part of it. Two weeks ago, I finally built up the courage to tell my two friends and I could tell they've been pretty awkward around me after I told them. I really want to tell my best friend but I am terrified that then we'll be awkward too. We are an inseparable pair who've known each other since we were in kindergarten. We've never had many interests that we've related on, but somehow we've managed to be closer than sisters. I really hope if I tell her that won't change. Sorry for rambling and if you're reading this far I really appreciate it. :-)

Same, my family just doesnt understand...

If they do then that's their problem not your's, you are amazing no matter what, bi, straight or gay. They could eventually process the fact that you are bi but it may take time for them to, but if they don't there are lots of people out there who will except you for you! x

I know this was a month ago but this was how I felt 2 years ago and now I'm out to everyone and people are getting used to it and it's not even a big deal anymore . it gets so much easier and it will become 'normal' to you :)

The "I was a fierce ally before knowing I were gay" is a ver common experience actually! And I'm sorry about the awkwardness thing. I'm sure it's hard but remember you have a community online!

I've been exactly there, I know complicated things can be at first... Well, it's always gonna be a bit complicated I guess, but you get used to things after a while. It can be really hard to tell people, especially if you did before and they started to act awkward, but if you really care about each other with your best friend, things are gonna be alright. I had to wait about a year before I was ready to tell my best friend, but thankfully she's been really understanding and supportive, and I hope yours will be too. And even if some people don't understand, know that we do, and fully support you. Good luck, friend:)

its hard doing that especially if you are in love with your best friend and cant bear to separate from her.

It's really hard, I honor you for being able to do that

Same. It's the most scared I've been ever

Everything will be okay!! If you are ready to tell your best friend then you should! If you're not ready yet, thats okay too! You don't have to rush things. Just do you and you'll be okay :D

+Sinnamonie tell her when you start to fell comfortable!! it is definitely a hard thing to come out about to others because of the risk of that awkwardness happening, but trust me, later it will feel as a whole heap of weight has lifted from your shoulders!! i wish you the best of luck although n.n just please remember if anyone disses on you because of your sexuality it is best to just ignore them! no one is 100% something, sexuality is fluid!


she smells like a straight girl that im head over heels for 😍😭


I was showed this song by my best friend that I grew up with and fell in love with but she got a girlfriend and doesn’t really talk to me. Ironic huh?


This song omg,,,,, ever since it came out I've related to it and I means so much to me... my SHE is, I think, the love of my life but I'll never be more than friends with her and I'm coming to terms with that... I love her so much that just thinking about her makes me feel like I'm floating lmao. I love her more than love can ever mean and if we're just friends it's okay because she's worth that good odd ache.


This is exactly how I feel about my best friend. When I came out to her and a couple of other friends as apothisexual and demiromantic, she said "Oh, cool. I'm pretty sure I'm straight." I havent told anyone about my crush on her except for my other best friend but it HURT. SO. MUCH. I'm even going with her to a dance but she invited me to go as friends. 😞 Sorry for dumping my feelings on you all


It is so nice too see, that nearly everyone in the comments found the own perfect she, the own perfect version of a girl that's perfekt and all this girls in the story are completely different but oll of them are loved by someone. Too see this shows how much love is in this world is and that everyone has the possibility to find a perfect person. It don't meters who this is. It can be a she, a he or something else. It also shows that there are so many girls which are falling in love which another girl and that's absolutely ok. Because all of you are perfekt on your own way, don't meters how you look or who you love.


I was listening to this song and my crush texted me about her crush....


No one has to read this but this feels like a safe place to just rant.

I’m head over heals for my best friends who I met through Discord. We planned our first meetup and it was the best thing to ever happen to me, our next one is coming up soon. She’s just so perfect and everything about her makes me smile and blush. I just want to hold her and run my fingers through her hair but she’s clearly stated that we’re just best friends. I’ll always think of her this way even if the feelings are never returned. This song reminds me of her so much so I listen to it constantly but it hurts so much sometimes. Anyways, I just needed somewhere to vent. Have a great day to anyone did end up reading this :)


My She, where do I even begin, she’s dedicated, talented, and such a light. The cutest laugh and the most precious smile. Eyes with a million stars. She reminds me of the warmth of a blanket in winter. But with the beauty of sunlight breaking in water. She’s a year older than me, graduating this school year. Shes my crush for five years.  I’m infatuated but can only look from afar. I know she will probably never know who I am, and will never want to know. But I’d rather feel these wonderful feelings than feel nothing at all, even if it does break my heart. To the she in my life. Having only accepted my sexuality this year, I wish I had a long time ago, to realize that i didn’t want to be your friend, and I didn’t want to be you. But in reality I just had a crush on you. And I still do. I wish I had more time.


Haven't listened to this song since the day I fully came out to myself, but I'm obviously not crying.

Okay that's a lie, my eyes are filled with more water than the fucking ocean right now.


I came out to my parents today, this song hits differently

Chantal Bellmont yay!! I hope everything’s going well xx


My she has light brown hair and wears boys sweaters.she has beautiful nose and rainbow shoes.she is 2-3 years older than me...she means everything to me♥

Ik this is lame I am not good with words😔😟😬


I love the weird sad nostalgia I get remembering how scared , frustrated and awestruck I was when I used to listen to this on repeat back in 2015.It's 5 years , 2 coming outs and many ridiculous crushes later.Reading about other people's crushes in the comments also makes my insides mushy.


I'm 26 and I literally just came out as queer to some close friends who were really accepting. But I'm terrified that if I come out to my family they will just tell me that I need to "find god"


when you like a straight girl so you come back here again


A lot of people find this song sad or happy, and I can relate since I’m essentially an empath because my brain was wired exactly wrong. But for me, it makes me feel longing because I’ve never been able to find someone who tastes like birthday cake and story time and fall. I’ve never had that hurt that feels so good, or known I taste of nothing to the one who I know smells of sleep. And I just... I want that so bad, and the only thing I have are sad love songs that echo in the hollow part of my soul to remind me it’s waiting for it’s matching puzzle piece.


i always come back to this song. It hurts just right. Torturously beautiful.


to my she,

I don't know her sexuality, but I'm guessing she is straight. She is absolutely stunning, long brunette hair which is usually down or in a braid. She is the most kind person I have met (by the way we both met at theatre). At the moment, we are doing the play Charlotte's Web, she is the role of Wilbur, and my role is Fern. So we spend a lot of time together onstage. We have known each other for a year and a few months. We have talked, but we weren't bestfriends. In fact, when I see with her friends, she seems so fun and cool (I only see her at theatre, we go to different schools). In the show, Fern and Wilbur are like, best friends, at first it was a little awkward because we haven't talked a lot before (although we have) but after a few rehearsals we really connected. When I hug her, u feel butterflies swarm all around me. I am very shy, and quite anti-social. So it is hard for me to make friends :(. So today is opening night of Charlotte's Web, and I am forcing myself to ask her to be friends, because I dont know how else to get closer to her. She is also very quiet, like I am, and a little louder around her friends. Wish me luck!!

(also I know I'm 5 years late on this, so no one will see it but, everyone else is doing this so yeah)


My girlfriend showed me this, saying this is how she felt before we got together. I'm crying, for Christ's sakes, this is beautiful ❤


She's bisexual. She has only told me. She's got brown, medium length hair. She's so funny. She's makes me smile. She's got dark brown hair on her arms. She's got short nails. She's got all the memes. She's watch too much anime. She's great to talk to. She is amazing at drawing. She's really smart. She's hates showing off. She can dance. But she hates being filmed. She's beautiful. She's amazing. She's my best friend... and I can live with that.

I dont know if I have a crush on her as I ignore all those feelings. I like our relationship the way it is.

"I'll be okay admiring from a far"

I love her...

in so many ways.


Dear she
I wish I could just tell you, scream it out, it's been bubbling up for to long. But deep down I know you don't feel the same about me.
~J


my best friend is a girl and I'm dating her I'm so very happy ^^ but for some reason i keep getting upset and down through out the day but she always makes me happy i luv her very much ^^


i caught her listening to this one morning before school, and i know she was thinking about me whenever she listened to this. she means everything to me, quite literally everything. if i ever stopped tasting like her apple juice and peach, my heart will have gone away.


Dodie's voice is like a warm comforting hug. I wish I could disappear into it and fall asleep in her poetry and lose myself in her melodies. No matter what, dodie's songs will always be a comfort for me and they will always bring me to tears.


It's weird that I like this song so much even tho I can't really relate to the content that much being cishet but it is just such a good song


Well I’m a he, and my he is fully straight so yk<br>His name is Drew and we’re barely friends, but every relationship I’m in falls apart because I know in the back of my head that I don’t really care about the person I’m with

Well I’m a he, and my he is fully straight so yk
His name is Drew and we’re barely friends, but every relationship I’m in falls apart because I know in the back of my head that I don’t really care about the person I’m with


Dear Lily,

I know that you'll never read this, but there's so much that I wish I could tell you. You know that I see you as more than a friend but you could never understand just how much I really care about you.

When I first met you, I didn't think of you as someone incredibly special. Over time, that slowly began to change. I realised that you are wonderfully beautiful and kind and funny and clever, but for some reason, I was too nervous to ever tell you.

At the time, I actually had a crush on another girl. When everyone eventually found out, I was hiding in the school library at lunch to get away from the drama. There weren't any empty tables, so I sat near you.

You asked me if the rumours were true, and for some reason, I felt comfortable telling you. You began to ask me if I was gay, but at first I was so ashamed that I told you not to even say it. You respected that and went back to reading.

Then, I felt an urge to tell you, so I did. You were the first person that I ever really came out to. From the way you reacted, I was intrigued to find out more about you. I asked if you were too and at first, you reacted in the same way I had originally. You were so nervous that you told me not to even say it. Then, you nodded. You told me not to tell anyone and I understood. The bell went for lessons and we parted ways.

That was two years ago. In that time, we have become close friends and I love spending time with you. A few weeks ago, I came out to you as non-binary because keeping it inside my head made me feel so trapped and alone. You were so wonderfully supportive and kind, and didn't make it a big deal. When you started to call me Riley, my world felt a little brighter. Thank you for being the most incredible, supportive and wonderful friend. You are the most beautiful person I have met inside and out and I feel so lucky to know you.

Yet, it breaks my heart a little every time you talk about that boy that you like. It hurts every time I think about the fact that you will clearly never see me the way that I see you - but I could never tell you because all that I want is for you to be happy.

Like I said, I know you'll never see this but I just needed to get all of this down.

Love from,

Riley xx


my crush played this song for me and it makes me UwU every time


you'd find her, in a polaroid picture, and she..
means everything to me

_you'd find her, in a polaroid picture, and she.._
*_means everything to me_*


I am inlove with someone over the past 4 years. I will never have the courage of telling her how much she really means to me, of how much I really care for her, of how much I love her. If I tell her all that, I fear that I'll lose our friendship or worse, I would lose her, too. I have no plans on telling her and it brings pain whenever she is with someone, but I can't afford to take a risk. However, she will always have a place in my heart. "No matter where you are or who you’re with, I will always truly, completely love you.”


This was my girlfriend and i's "song", she broke up with me yesterday and the lyrics hit different right now.


It hits different <br>I don’t relate to this anymore and even though this is a great song I cannot remember how and why would I listened to this so much

It hits different
I don’t relate to this anymore and even though this is a great song I cannot remember how and why would I listened to this so much


I know that no one would dedicate this to me, so i’m going to do it myself. self love, bitches...”She smells like storybooks and rain, she tastes like campfires and sage, oh you would find her in a leather-bound journal, and she...means everything to me.”


'am I allowed to look at her like that, could it be wrong when she's just so nice to look at.'<br>hits really close to home for all of the wlw growing up in the closet

'am I allowed to look at her like that, could it be wrong when she's just so nice to look at.'
hits really close to home for all of the wlw growing up in the closet


Whenever I listen to this I change the lyrics to “he” ... and then I start to cry.. hah


my “she” is about three or four years older than me, i see her everyday. our school has a house system with twelve houses based on certain saints, which allowed me to get closer to her. she always noticed me and finds me nice. i may have slipped a love letter at some point, but she probably doesn’t know it’s me.
she’s the kindest and closest senior i have right now.

and she... she’s everything to me...


she says I smells like clouds and look like autumn, she smells like happiness and looks like July 💞<br>she has a bunny I sewed her and named him Cloud, I have an elephant called Seri (seritonin)

she says I smells like clouds and look like autumn, she smells like happiness and looks like July 💞
she has a bunny I sewed her and named him Cloud, I have an elephant called Seri (seritonin)


my she is everything artsy. she has bouncy, curly hair that covers her flawless face. she reminds me of roller skating late at night, painting with big strokes, gazing at the stars and passionate love. she’s magical and mysterious and turns heads when she walks past. she has the best style. she hangs with the cool edgy girly girls, even though i know she doesn’t belong with them. when she speaks she knows everything right to say. she tastes like laughter and a carnival. she smells like sweet flowery shampoo and elegance. and i will be okay, admiring from afar. seven seats away and yet a whole world away. the only thing that connects us is the one time she said hi to me on the train, the soft but intense glances i throw at her when she’s not looking. would she ever go for me, in some universe so far away? maybe, or maybe i’ll never know because i have no courage.


"she" is my best friend. i've known her since we were ten and even though we don't often get the chance to get to hang out because of our different schedules, she talks to me about the shows she's watching and listens when i rant about a toxic friend. she feels like a warm sweater and watching your favourite tv show warm at home while it rains, like a warm hug and "welcome home" after you've left home for a while. she feels like autumn and stardust and i love her so much. she hugs me whenever we pass each other in the hallways and always laughs when i sneak up on her when she has headphones in. she doesn't care about what other people think of her and flows along with everything life throws at her and she means so much to me.


she smells like amber and clean sheets and the open sea. she has hair like gentle sunlight dancing on the sand, and it catches my eye every time. she feels like home and warmth and every time I hear her voice I’m calm again. she tastes like coffee and blueberry muffins.

and she is my best friend in the whole world and she will never know how much I really love her. but it’s ok because she’s MY best friend and that’s all I need


I used to listen to that song when I met a girl and slowly or more like not slowly at all we fell in love. But there was a misunderstanding and she hates me. It's been nearly two years I just dreamt of her.


2 years later and im still obsessed and relating whAt

lol so am I. this song touches my heart. this song is the story of my life.


Ive always wanted a "she". Someone who could make me feel so wonderful and hopeful, someone to make me feel buttery and warm. Someone to make me feel *COMPLETE*. Ive chased after the idea of a "she" many times before, but it was like all my senses were dulled. Nobody would have that taste, that smell, that feeling of a "she", I couldnt find anyone like the person dodie describes or any of the "she"s in the comments. So, Ive accepted myself. I found a way to be okay, and come to peace with how maybe there wont ever be a "she",,,, but I have him with his pun shirts, her little baked goods, them with their fuzzy socks, and her cute doodles... As long as I have those guys, I wont feel incomplete


She is fierce and kind and so cute in everything she is and does


Why the fuck does this song make me cry. I just love it too much. Gosh darn it. And im straight. I think. Lmao


In 8th grade I managed to get a 9th grade girlfriend and I really really liked her but I was constantly telling myself that I couldn’t date a girl and I didn’t want anyone to find out, I hated myself so much and the last thing I wanted was for everyone else to hate me too, so seeking validation I told my two brothers and I got told by one of them  if I ever married a girl that I wasn’t his sister anymore and I wouldn’t be a part of my family anymore. And he used it as blackmail so to avoid being outed I had to force myself to just be straight thus breaking up with my then girlfriend over dm and I constantly regret it. I’m friends with her sister who is in the same grade as me and when ever I run into her she avoids me at all costs and has a girlfriend,I’m in 10th grade now and I have the choice of going to the same high school as her but I just can’t bring myself to do it, the thought of seeing what I could have had just physically hurts my heart.


Listening to this hurts me so much because of how it literally expresses my feelings to a tee. Especially the end 'but to her, I smell of nothing at all'.

•chiiru chuu• same it always makes me cry

•chiiru chuu• same thats my favourite lyric even though its so painful


My She is small and sweet. She has such long, long, dark brown hair that’s always windswept from the sea breeze. She’ll tie it up in a messy ponytail when it gets in her way of working and the way it tumbles down around her face and over her shoulders makes her look even more beautiful than she is all the time. She has warm brown eyes behind her adorably oversized round glasses and she’s so smart but so modest. She’s the kindest person I know and will always help you out and make you feel appreciated when no one else will - or even when everyone else will. I fell in love with her the day I met her, 5 years ago, and now we’re parting ways without her even knowing. We’re friends now, but still not very close ones. I want to become closer friends, at least, but I don’t know what to say. She’s bi, and I she’s mentioned twice in the past two months an aspect of her “type” of girl - I fall into that category, but it doesn’t seem to apply to me. I want to ask her to go to pride with me next week; if nothing else, as a goodbye, but hopefully as a way to bring us closer. I worry so much over what to say that I end up saying nothing at all, and I don’t want that to happen. I need to say something, before it’s too late to say anything, but it’s so scary. I just don’t want to screw up what we do have.


My she smells like cigarettes and rebellion. She has the prettiest laugh I've ever heard and honey coloured eyes. She makes my heart stop.


the guitar on this song sounds like the muffled pelting of rain.


This is my “she’s” favourite song I don’t even know if she cares about me but I think I might have a crush on her because every time she texts me back I get all excited and so nervous when I write back I hope she likes me too


this version is honestly better than the cleaned up studio version on spotify


oof years later and i still have the feels...


no ones is ever going to see this comment but i’ve never had someone’s music make me feel so much emotion. dodies music is pretty much the closest thing to heaven i’ve got. thank u dodie for making hard times easier. 💓

@Lily Muha its about falling in love with a girl who doesn't love you back

What is this song about a boy sent it to me


This is making me think of my crush who thinks of me as a friend..... 😢


I love this song. I mean i cant write music and she over here writing BARS


my she is my best friend. i cant tell if i have feelings for her or i just want her as a friend. i love her. i love her so much.

zee, if you see this, i love you. i dont know what i would do without you.


i have a crush on this girl in my english class and i only have 3 weeks until the semester ends to try to talk to her and i most likely will never see her again 😰 it's because of her that i came to terms with the fact that i'm a lesbian 🥺


IM AWARE THIS IS OLD BUT I NEED IT ON SPOTIFY

It’s out in like 30 mins I’m getting it straight away!!

YOU GOT UR WISH ! ! ! !  its on her new EP and its stunning !!!

UPDATE: TODAY IS WEDNESDAY EVENING WHERE I AM AND HER EP DROPS IN 21 hours!! ON FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

I can’t wait for the release. I hope she puts it out early like she did for human.

<b>ahhhhh</b> I cant believe it actually is!!

*ahhhhh* I cant believe it actually is!!

good news for you dodie will renew it with her new EP ahhhh

AmethystAkita64 ITS HAPPENING IT GONNA BE ON THE EP


She told me she likes me and wants a relationship but She also has a boyfriend who hates me


i wanted to say this last night but you comments are off on the official audio but listening to this song was the only thing that calmed me down last night when i was starting to have a panic attack so thankyou...you are truly amazing...


this is without a doubt the best song you've ever written, for me, it resonates infinitesimally.  it will never grow old.


how did this come out 2 years before she officially came out??? did no one suspect anything??


This is going to get lost in the comments but oh well

My girl. Well i wish you were
Your so stunning in every way
How your hair comes to a fine curl
They way you glance my way
The way your eyes get small when you smile
The way your beauty stretches upon miles
The way i can just watch you be you
The way i wish we were one but we are two
Your fresh loving smell freshens the air
I love you and you know i care
It pains me to know you will never feel the same
My love for you is like losing a hopeless game
We have had our moments in the past
But i now know nothing is going to last
Your straight
And now im carrying all this dead weight
You will always be my best friend

I just wish to be with you in the end


I heard this a few years ago. It made me really uncomfortable because I thought that if I liked it I was gay. I avoided listening to it because the words hit home so much for me, but I didn't want them to. That was the first day I realized I was bisexual, and I didn't even know what that meant. I just knew that Dodie's voice sent shivers up my spine, and that I just couldn't handle the I'd that I, ME, a good Christian kid, liked girls


My she

My she is one of my best friends. My she is who made me figure out I was bisexual. My she has a smile that can literally make me feel like everything’s going to be better. My she bakes the best cookies and always gives me an extra one. My she gets really excited whenever we talk about neuroscience or music together. My she will jump up on the cafeteria table whenever she hears us talking. My she bites her lip whenever she’s playing the cello or writing something down. My she will get really excited whenever she gets an answer right. My she will make make jokes about my British accent. My she calls me a google maps because I’m good at geography. My she will say my name in a really high pitched voice and it makes me feel all warm and loved inside. My she will put peace signs up whenever she sees me and smiles like a maniac. My she is dating a boy who I think is perfect for her, but that doesn’t stop me from being jealous.


i remember watching this in 5th grade and i just watched it over and over until i realized i'm probably not straight lol


She smells like coconut and rain
She tastes like coffee and cream
You would find her singing in her car
And she means everything to me


dodie, <br>in about 7 and a half years you’re going to perform this song in san francisco for thousands of people, creating a once in a life time moment for all of them, probably not entirely understanding how much your words have touched them

dodie,
in about 7 and a half years you’re going to perform this song in san francisco for thousands of people, creating a once in a life time moment for all of them, probably not entirely understanding how much your words have touched them

oh, and youll be wearing a cheap pair of rainbow light-up glasses :)


My She is a girl I love so much already even though we couldn’t meet yet. We only know us from writing, voice calls and video chats because there’s a literal ocean between us. I didn’t plan on falling so deep for her but when she admitted she has feelings too it washed over me like a wave of excitement but also fear since I don’t know if we’ll ever able to move together. I want to touch her soft skin so badly and I wish I knew how she smells like. She’s my first girlfriend and so far even my family doesn’t know because she is so sacred to me. I’m maybe able to visit her this summer if we’re allowed to meet and I’m so happy but also afraid I’ll break in two when I have to leave again.


She’s my best friend since high school. We don’t even need to talk to get each other’s idea. When she looks at me, i feel like i’m having a severe heart attack. I don’t want to lose her and i hope she knows. One day, when we were chatting over the phone, she said that if one day, i passed away earlier than she did, will i remember her in my afterlife, i said, probably no, since we would’ve be too sad to remember each other and i’d rather not having an afterlife if there’s no her companion in my life. She cried so hardly and said the same to me. I probably won’t have any other new best friend, cos she means everything to me. And i know i mean everything to her as well.


This is just so lovely. Thank you for sharing it! :)


She smells like roses and leaves
She tastes like chocolate and sweets
You would find her in  a  autumn carnival
And she means everything to me


I can relate kinda.<br>Falling for straight girls makes me sad cuz I can love some one so much but they'll never love me the same

I can relate kinda.
Falling for straight girls makes me sad cuz I can love some one so much but they'll never love me the same


God imagine someone thinking about you this way 🥺


I haven't revisited this video since the new version came out but the original just hits so much harder, this was all I'd listen to when i was first figuring myself out. It brings back a lot of hurt memories but it's kind of nice to know how much happier ive gotten. This song reminds me of the first girl i fell in love with, which btw wasnt reciprocated at the time. i miss her, i miss what was there and our friendship. maybe, hopefully I'll be able to look back on this comment and know how things changed :) thanks for reading kind stranger


If this isn’t on her next album, I’m going to shit a brick. Please Dods 💛


She

She was my cousins best friend, she was dating my best friend, she was all i thought about for 2 years. She smells like a rainy day in summer. She is my everything. We have been together for a month


In some ways I personally think of this as loving someone who is aro


I recognized YESTERDAY that im bi, and when i listen to this song I feel so sad, cause I know "she" is never going to even be my FRIEND... ❤🏳🌈


yes i actually confessed to her and now it's been 2 months and a little more since we started dating


For me, this song is bittersweet. I don't have a She. It hurts me that I don't love somebody this much; love someone enough to be my She. And it hurts even more that I don't know if I'll ever be anybody's She.

Trashcan't thank you for putting it into words. i am so afraid i will never be enough for someone to love this much. i am so afraid to end up hurting someone i care about because i can’t reciprocate their feelings.


to my “she”

caroline, i still haven’t gotten over you. i know im the one that ended it but i wish i hadn’t. i’ve regretted it since the day i did it even though it’s been almost a year.

you’re the most beautiful person i’ve ever met. i could stare into your eyes for hours.  they are just so pretty and when you smile, they just light up. your skin is so soft and i just want to hold your hand again so badly. your lips look so sweet i wish i could kiss them so badly. you’re seriously the best person i’ve ever met in my life, you stand up for yourself, you’re so so passionate about what you believe in, you don’t let others bring you do, you are sweet to everyone unless they hurt you.

everytime  i see you crying or upset i just want to hug you and tell you everything will be okay but i can’t because i feel like you’ll judge me even though we are best friends and it just hurts so badly to see your tears i want to wipe them and hold you.

i know you don’t like me anymore and it breaks my heart everyday seeing you flirt with someone else. everyone realizes you like him and they won’t shut up about it and just hearing his name feels like a stab in the chest

sorry if i repeated myself a lot but yeah

anyways
i know you’ll never see this
but if you do

caroline, i love you, and i always will

        -love, kayelee


She is one of my best friends.
Always happy.
She helps me when I’m broken.
I help her. But she will never like me more than a best friend.
We text every morning and night.
We hang out so often.
But she won’t like me.
But I’m okay with that.
She means everything to me.


damn the memories of my ex girlfriend are flowing back like a wave


A girl and i both really like eachother, but im scared to ask her out because i dont know if she would want to be seen with me. I cant even understand how she could like me. Shes so perfect and im.....not.


This is so extra precious after watching her 'I'm bi' video, okay iT BRINGS A FUCKING TEAR TO MY EYE


Blows my mind when this comes back into my suggested videos after seeing it years ago and forgetting it even existed.


i come back to this song every time i like a new girl