I have never had a song hit me so deep. This song makes me cry every time. I don’t even know how to explain how grateful I am to dodie for this song. It’s absolutely perfect to me. Always and forever.


i met her at an outside of school drama group. we never spoke at first, but then we became very close, and she gave me her phone number. we gave each other nick names (she was axolotl, i was flip-flop) and we talked about musicals together.  the thing was, she was two years older then me, but we were still friends. when we met, she gave me a bobble which i kept in my hand until i went to bed, then i put it on my wrist and slept with it. then, when i woke up, i put it back in my hand and went to school, keeping it in my hand until i went to bed, where i put it on my wrist and kept it there. at one point, she was too old for the drama group, so she left and moved up, and i stayed behind. then the summer holidays came around, and i was on holiday when she went to pride. she posted a photo of it and i said how nice she looked and said how sad i was that i couldn't go, and she said we could go next year. then school started up again, and i was realizing that i was falling in love with her. we kept talking, and i would purposefully walk around where she and her friends stood, so i could see her and feel happy again. i also went to an lgbtq+ group that she ran with her friend, which was nice (i was one of the first members and i still go now). to contain my feelings, i wrote letters to her, but i deleted them a while ago. the strange thing was, i didn't want to date her because she was 2 years older then me, and even if i asked her and she said yes, it would feel unnatural and strange, and it would just be awkward, so i never bothered to even plan asking. overtime, i crushed this love i had for her and we stopped talking completely.

it's been 8 months since we first became friends and i still wear the bobble she gave me because it comforts me. i still see her at the club and around school but i don't look at her the way i did before. i saw everyone else talking about their girl crushes, and even though i don't classify her as a 'crush', i still wanted to write this. because i've never explained this to anyone and i think i need to.

thank you.


To my crush, If you happen to be watching this, Nothing brightens my day more then you do. The past 3 years have been so scary for me, especially with me questioning my sexuality. Noting has been as good as the feeling of seeing you and talking to you. I hope that you realise how much you have impacted my life.


This song reminds me of a girl I once knew. We werent together, we never liked each other like that,  and... I didnt want anything from her, I just wanted to be beside her. She was my first friend, and she was... Everything you'd expect to find in a discarded memory of your childhood sweetheart. She was soft, kind and caring, and she, fair in apperance, beautiful in nature, but still, exactly like me... in all the ways I wanted to be. She had really sweet mannerisms, was thoughtful beyond all belief, and... anyone could see how good natured she was. And she... Meant everything to me.

And though people change, and stories end, and as much as it hurts my head to even be writing this to begin with, I would still kill, to just be friends with her one last time

Because it's true. I'd be okay admiring from afar, cause even when she's next to me we could not be more far apart. Cause she tastes like birthday cake and story time and fall... But to her, I taste like nothing at all.


this song really showed me who i am. how it’s okay to have feelings for someone else, and it’s okay for them to not like you back. anytime i see a girl, my heart flutters. they’re beautiful. but i feel as if im not.. the only girls i dated ended up using me as their rebound, being fake, or cheating on me. i just broke up with my boyfriend of almost two years, because i didn’t feel happy in the relationship like i used to. it might be time for something new, even though it’d be hard.. i just don’t know anymore, though. who would wanna date an ugly potato like me. god it sucks.


i can't listen to this without tearing up


Theres this girl in my school shes absolutely amazing and I love her but shes straight and I dont know what to do


I listened to this as a junior, fall 2015. Almost 4 years later and I'm just realizing that I had a crush on my best friend. We're not friends anymore. But I loved her. She meant everything to me. I had another crush on another girl, who was also one of my best friends. "Am I allowed to look at her like that?" That lyric always rang through my head when I was with them. I never told them, and I know it was for the best. I'd like to think that somewhere deep down they knew of these feelings I had for them. I'd like to think that they wouldn't mind. But even so, I kept quiet, and let the friendships fade, slowly disappearing into the past, into the faint memory that becomes of high school. Now I just smile at having gotten the chance to experience feelings like that.


I'm allowed to look at her like that. She smells like mine. We both love Polaroids. She means everything to me. I'd never tell you I'm bi. It feels oddly good to hurt. You would find her in a thousand poloroid picture because she so damn cute. She means the world to me. I'll be okay admiring from afar. Cause she smells like mine. She is my world. Yes. She means everything to me. She. Means. Everything. To. Me.


I REMEMBER THIS AS A KID <br>I’ll always support others but I’m definitely straight

I REMEMBER THIS AS A KID
I’ll always support others but I’m definitely straight


Anyone else listening to this now it’s on Spotify?


"She" hates me and thinking of her whilst listening to this made me cry


Valentine's Day two days ago. My friends spent the entire day talking about their boyfriends and their crushes. I've never had a crush. Never had a boyfriend. I have no longing for either. But I do have a she. So She, if you watch this. <br>That day at Lightwater Valley was the best day of my life. When we sat on the waltzers and you threw your hands up and laughed, the multi-coloured lights reflecting off your face. Running down to the lake to show us the fish. Convincing us to go on the really kiddie rides with you. I love you. You are forever my best friend.

Valentine's Day two days ago. My friends spent the entire day talking about their boyfriends and their crushes. I've never had a crush. Never had a boyfriend. I have no longing for either. But I do have a she. So She, if you watch this.
That day at Lightwater Valley was the best day of my life. When we sat on the waltzers and you threw your hands up and laughed, the multi-coloured lights reflecting off your face. Running down to the lake to show us the fish. Convincing us to go on the really kiddie rides with you. I love you. You are forever my best friend.


My she is one of my best friends, hOw OrIgInaL, anyway, I don’t know if she really is my ‘she’, but here’s the story:<br>I met her at a party, and I instantly fell for her. She was a year older and really cool and pretty, she was really affectionate and it made me crazy. Alot happened, but basically she told me she liked me back, but she didn’t, and Im already trying to get over her for over half a year but,,, uGh idk

My she is one of my best friends, hOw OrIgInaL, anyway, I don’t know if she really is my ‘she’, but here’s the story:
I met her at a party, and I instantly fell for her. She was a year older and really cool and pretty, she was really affectionate and it made me crazy. Alot happened, but basically she told me she liked me back, but she didn’t, and Im already trying to get over her for over half a year but,,, uGh idk


"But to her

I taste of nothing at all"
... so true, so sad.


the first girl I liked thought I was really weird and made fun of me and it hurt so much


I found a reason to live, and to stop cutting. It's you. I know you'll never see this but you make my life worth living. Thank you Z***. -Jeni


Guys I animated this because it was just so personal to me and its so beautiful u can check it out on my channel 🏳🌈


To my 'she'.....She lives far away in the little town I have so many memories in,she has black dyed hair and wears a black headband at the front of her hair.Shes funny moments that make me smile and her lil peep hoodie,shes the time we made out at a sleepover..she smells like smoke and sadness,she has almond eyes and freckles all over her body,she has the prettiest eyes and cutest small smile.She means everything to me,I used to mean that much to her but not anymore


i really want to confess my feelings to bon bon, but she has a boyfriend of two years, and is straight as far as I'm concerned. I think she's weirded out by me all the time since she gives me weird looks when I talk

i don't wanna get rejected

this song reminds me of her a whole lot, especially the bridge

_i really want to confess my feelings to bon bon, but she has a boyfriend of two years, and is straight as far as I'm concerned. I think she's weirded out by me all the time since she gives me weird looks when I talk_

_i don't wanna get rejected_

_this song reminds me of her a whole lot, especially the bridge_


Story time because I need to vent I guess:
There was this girl and I’d been crushing on her for maybe a year and a half, and she knew for most of that time. She also said she felt the same but she had a girlfriend. We are now together and it was everything I hoped it would be. She really is everything to me, even now, despite what’s happened.

She made a group chat with my two best and closest friends to tell them that she liked another person (someone that she met online and has never even heard the voice of) a bit more than me. The first thing my bestie does is screenshot it and send it straight to me while playing along with my gf. I was mad, but not surprised honestly. I know I should break up with my cheating girlfriend but I still love her so much and after so long of liking her I don’t want to throw it all away. She doesn’t know that I know she‘s considering cheating on me and I want it to stay that way honestly. I want to stay with her as long as I can because I don’t want to lose her.

I know you might not want to hear this right now but....i suggest breaking up with her. honey, she's going to break your heart if you don't. you deserve someone so much better, and i know it may be hard to hear, but let her go. it's the right thing.


Cant believe she was just as aesthetic 4 years ago


I remembered this and it reminds me of my closest days and oh man


I’m straight but I cried listening to this

Why does it matter if your straight or not? Its a wonderful song and i get chills every time i listen to it


I lit love this song bit i wanna know what sleep smells like


My 'she' is my best friend. It's absolute torture knowing she's bi, but would never like me back. I've come to realize I'd rather be tortured with her than risk messing up our friendship by telling her.


Is it wrong to relate to this song on so many different levels?


She released this song in 2018 on her human EP.


She is my everything..she is my bestfriend, my soulmate, my everything. The only problem is she is straight as a line..she’s always been there for me, when I needed her. I’m so in love with her but she doesn’t have a clue. To her, I’m her bestie..but I wish I were in her arms, But she also has a boyfriend. She’ll never like me the same way..but I’m fine with that. As long as I’m with her and she loves me in a different way, I’m fine with it. She helps me through so many relationships and breakups and I never realized until a few weeks ago that I’m just in love with her. I never stop thinking about her. Her long silky black hair. Her mesmerizing eyes. Her baby-soft skin. She means everything to me. It breaks my heart knowing She’ll never be mine. but I’m okay with her loving me as a best friend


hey little dodie look how much you have grown


my She is my wonderful girlfriend. She is so kind and wonderful, and She treats me like I mean everything to her. she deals with my issues and my aches, my panics. she is my everything, because she truly understands me and is there for me constantly. I wish I could tell her how much I love her, because I love her so so much.


shoutout to all the closeted girls who put the volume all the way down on this song, and lock yourself in the bathroom sobbing


Does anyone else want to go back and tell this dodie that in 5 years this will be on her third EP and she’s made it :)


reading the 2nd verse. looking at it now at my state. it fucking hurts how true it is. but theres just something missing. but hey.


Everyone’s commenting about their sexuality so sure I’ll join even tho I don’t have the typical “I’m confused” or whatever. I’m straight and in a happy relationship, but this song touched me when i heard it on the ep. back when I first heard this song I had been brainwashed into being homophobic by my parents. The more lgbtq people I was exposed to, the more I realized “wow these are just humans trying to be happy go them”. I heard this song on the ep and cried. It’s a literal masterpiece. I’ve always been baffled at dodies lyrical genius, but this song is a literal example of how she’s matured over the years. You can hear it in her voice, stronger and more controlled than back then. She had strings in the song, something she probably never thought about being a possibility back when she first wrote this. Not to mention that most of her songs are timeless perfections. This is why I love Dodie


I was in love with her. I realize that now... I still have her eyes memorized. Her hoodies and messy brown hair and her chubbyness and I... I remember how her favorite color went from icy blue to red to teal. I know how her favorite animal was the wolf and how she felt like her home was in the woods. She didn't like hugs. She had personal space issues.... I... I know she was straight. I know she didn't think of me like that. But it doesn't even matter. She's gone. For good. I'd feel better if she was still alive, but you know.

We all are to live on. Survive. It's those who still live on in our hearts would want. :,)

Virus this broke my heart. Be kind to yourself friend and stay strong x

why did this remind me of little red riding hood so much?

@Virus of course i couldn't live without her i can't even imagine what you must have gone through im so sorry

nah I'll be okay. it's been a year and I'm moving on... thanks so much for being concerned though

Oh no omg im so sorry are you okay? I have been through something similar and can't imagine if the girl I'm in love with died


I cry almost everytime I hear this song because holy shit I can relate so much.

I've always fallen in love with straight girls but I think this crush I currently have takes the cake of the most heartbreaking unrequited love I've ever had.

"She" is Hazel. She's a girl who lives in Germany(I know her online, I live in Florida), and even though I don't know a lot about her, I'm head over heels in love with her. She knows I have a crush on her and has for a while and although she's okay with it and stuff, she's straight and would never date a girl. She flaunts the fact that she's straight around like it's a trophy and it slowly hurts me more and more everytime she does it, even if she sometimes says it as a joke. And I know that I can never change who she is and I don't want to change her but sometimes I wonder how me and her would be if she was into girls.

I cry over her a lot, she's all I think about when I listen to music and I see her name everywhere and it's like I can never get a break from the amount of heartache I get when I think of her. I've had a crush on her since september and it was at first a hate crush because I did not like Hazel back then, but then it turned into a full on lovey dovey crush and I don't know what the hell happened, but now it's causing me to cry so much that sadness is all I ever feel anymore. I don't wanna tell her that I cry over her because she's a happy-go-lucky person and I don't want her to be worried about me.

Her personality is so bubbly and lovely that I just want to hug her, kiss her, and protect her, but she'd rather be with a boy. I hate being into girls, especially since most girls I fall in love with end up being straight and I may have only had a crush on her for nearly half a year, I've felt more heartache thinking of her than I have with thinking of anyone else. She's called me cute and adorable and she's said she loves me but I know it's only a friend thing to her, I wish I could straight up tell her that I love her more than anything but I know she doesn't return the feelings so why even say it.

Pretty much everyone we know, even her best friend and ex boyfriend ship me and her together, and she got mad over it because "she only likes boys and will never be gay". It's a shame that everyone else sees what she'll never see. If she ever changes her mind about her sexuality, I'm here, but until then I'm just her friend and nothing more, and that sucks but it's better than nothing. I make cute posts about her on my private account and draw pics of our OC's together(Hazion :') My OC's name is Orion and it's not cannon though because Hazel is straight) to show her my appreciation for the fact that she's in my life but it's a shame she'll never feel the way for me that I feel for her.

"and I'll be okay
Admiring from afar
Cause even when she's next to me
We could not be more far apart
Cause she tastes like birthday cake and storytime and fall
But to her
I taste of nothing at all"

She's also said things like "I swear this fandom is gonna make me bi" and she's said/done things that make me think she might be in the closet, but I don't wanna confront her about it or anything because I'm scared she'd get mad at me, and that would be the worst feeling ever for me. She's so adorable and I would never want to hurt her in any way, even though she's hurt me(mostly without knowing).

Earlier this month she and her best friend(I have forgiven the both of them for what they did but still) were playing T or D and her best friend dared her to say that she's gay for me, and she did it and I thought she was genuine and I could feel my heart blooming, but once she told me it was a dare I just completely lost it and had a mental breakdown. She said she'll never do that again but it still hurts so bad.

The thing is, about her, I can't stay mad at her long because she's the cutest thing ever. I love her wavy dark chocolate hair that ombres to blonde and I love the way she's always so happy about everything and I love how she doesn't mind me no matter how weird I am. I just want to cuddle her and nuzzle her face and place small kisses on her neck and eat ice cream with her. I want to show her how much she deserves to be loved, but she'd rather have  aboy do that just because they have a dick.

I'm scared of her seeing this, really scared. She doesn't watch dodie but she knows I like this song. Although I doubt she's ever gonna look at this song because she's straight and will never be able to relate to a song like this.

Update even though I should probably stop since nobody reads these anymore:

I have a boyfriend now and his name is Louis Lazuli. 👀

Why am I still making updates:

I've started talking to my new "she" more, good news is that she's bisexual, and she called me cute(even tho it most likely was in a platonic way, but I can dream lol). Bad news is that she's supposedly "dating" someone. I wanna tell her but I don't think I ever will. Especially not after the way Hazel and the short lived "he" crush treated me. Because of them both, I have major trust issues and I'm reallly insecure.

I'm in a bit of drama since someone said they were more creative than Lyn(my new she) and that hurt her, and I was high off my ass so I made a stupid story where I basically cussed the person out in an effort to defend Lyn. Lyn says I didn't do anything wrong but i can't help but feel like my decision was a bad one. I deactivated my Instagram(I'll reactivate it in a few days most likely) due to feeling so overwhelmed. The person is popular, with like 9k followers, so nearly 500 people were viewing my stories and I felt sick to my stomach whenever people who weren't my friend mentioned my name so I just deactivated for my own mental health. I just wanted Lyn to be okay, I'm just glad at least she's not mad at me.

UPDATE:

Hazel is officially out of my life. I've had her blocked for over a month now and i officially have a new "she".

My new "she" is a girl named Lyn, she's 21 and she lives in Mexico. She's super out of my league though and she has a crush on someone else who knows her a lot more but I'd like to at least be friends with her. Seeing pictures of her makes my heart race, she's so pretty and sweet and I'm not sure how she feels about herself but she is super beautiful. I wish I didn't fall in love so easily because i can already tell this won't go anywhere but if I could be her friend then I would be the happiest person in the world.

DoReMiRocker I like my best friend who came out to me as bi and she has a crush on one of my other close friends I don’t know if I’m gay or bi but I’m definitely not straight I’m trying to stop liking her because she like someone else but it’s really hard because she knows I’m not straight and she isn’t interested in me in a romantic way :/ but she is so cheerful and happy and I love the way her short blond curls look in the sun ☀ but I feel like it’s not fate.

At this point she just wants you to like her to probably make self feel better and for attention, glad your better now😊😊

DoReMiRocker honestly now at this point it sounds like shes mad that you DONT like her anymore. Thats messedup but i hope hope hope things end well with you and hazel. But just as friends. Good luck with your new He crush though 💚

DoReMiRocker I'm glad you cut her off and you're okay now I'm proud lol

DoReMiRocker Honestly, the things Hazel had done and continues to do are disgusting. This is such a toxic situation and I know I’ve no right to say this but I strongly recommend cutting her out of your life and never looking back. No one has any right to treat you like this, as a friend or whatever else.

DoReMiRocker that girl is toxic. I'm really happy for you though, best wishes ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

UPDATE: Me and Hazel are friends again, but I have a new crush. That crush is a "he" and he's super nice to me. I'm over Hazel but yesterday she snooped through one of my close friend's accounts until she found my private account and snooped into that, and got hella mad at me over posts i made months ago. Like damn, I'm over you now, can you just leave me be? And she shouldn't have been snooping on my friend's account to go through my private account in the first place. There's a reason why my private account was private.

UPDATE: Me and Hazel are no longer friends. I give up, after all she's done to me, I shouldn't be holding on to something so toxic. I feel better now that she's out of my life and I'm definitely finding myself better now that she's not there to absolutely fuck up my emotions. I also appreciate everyone who has messaged me on Instagram, you guys can still dm me because I don't care who I talk about it to at this point, I'm just hoping that nobody else goes through what I went through with her(besides Hazel herself, then maybe she'd understand what she did to me lmfao).

Basically she caught me talking shit about her. While that wasn't a good thing to do on my part, the one chat I had where I could talk about her was really the only place I could really let off steam and vent and such. She says she was betrayed when she saw me talking shit about her yet she emotionally fucked me up for so long and made me hate myself for almost a year, so in reality I'm the one who should feel betrayed. She's lucky I forgave her in the first place, and she says she was trying to trust me again because I exposed her for a very good reason, but if anything, I was the one trying to trust HER again. She has no right to get mad at me for talking shit when that's what she did for so long, while leading me on and pretending to be gay for me.

In case anyone didn't read my last comment, my Instagram is @doremirocker so feel free to hit me up on there.

Love is a wonderful and terrible thing at the same time. It's a good thing you eventually stepped down, because honestly, it really, really sucks when love goes unanswered. I've been there a couple of months ago and I wouldn't wish it upon anybody else.

Now I'm going to assure you that you're not going to end up all alone, as long as you won't ever give up on looking for love! Although breaks are allowed (after another devastating heartbreak for example).

You've found only straight girls thus far, so maybe try a different approach. For starters you could look for places where the LGBT+ community flourishes; dating sites, bars, chatrooms... You're certainly not the only one and you don't have to hate yourself for being into girls. You just have to find the right girl for you! ;)

Keep up the good work! I believe in you! :)

DoReMiRocker heyy so i know i am like 4 months late and my comment may as well just be a repeat oc the others

I am glad to see the fact that you distance your self from whats toxic and not good for your health

I hope you doing better and in a better state then you were over these 4 months and the ones before that.

Dont go that hard on Hazel tho because maybe she really didn't know how much she meant to you or how much her actions would hurt you.
(Unless she did than i have nothing against what tou did or told her)

please dont go on to cut yourself you are probably an amazing girl and i believe you can find happiness with someone else someday with somebody who wants you.

I remember a guy had just transferred from i think Rhode island and it was 4th grade( yea i know to young or whatever) but i saw him and melted.
He wasnt super hot or had much good looks but he wore a smile on his face that just lit up the whole room. We only talked a bit for the reason that i am a shy af cherry (wont say tomato because i dont like them and cherries are cuter) and we didnt have a lot in common. Another reason would be the fact that all my friends liked him to so i just let them go and tey to win him over . I cried my self to sleep each night over hime but over the summers when we didnt see each i slowly got over him . He moved this year 7th grade to a town nearby but we stoped talking completely after 6th so... yea

UPDATE: I talked with Hazel and I took everything down yesterday, but if you wanna know what happened you can still dm me on there.

UPDATE: I just exposed her for all the fucked up shit she did to me that made me even more heartbroken then I would've been if she had not, it's stuff I kept my mouth shut about for a long time. The tea is on my Instagram, @doremirocker .

DoReMiRocker You DO deserve somebody. You deserve someone more than Hazel deserves someone. I read everything. You cared so, so much for  her, and you loved her so much...anyone would be so lucky if you liked them. I still cannot believe the way she handled it, I am incredibly sorry for what happened...I hope you find someone who feels the same way you do for them :)

DoReMiRocker this comment is probably going to be Shit but here goes nothing: first of all I cried over your comment. For the first time in about 3 months I cried, maybe I just needed to get it all out but I definitely know that the way you describe this girl and your heartache is so recogniseable. I have felt like this too and I can tell you, this will pass. Another Hazel will come along and the new hazel will be even better than this one. She will treat you right and she won't get angry over you thinking she is GAY. Bc that's honestly a shitty thing to do. Hazel did a shitty thing. She might be a perfect girl in your mind but know that she is not. She ignored all of the beautiful words that you wrote and got angry over 4 words out of a 100. So just believe me when I tell you that you will find happiness. You will forget Hazel and all the heartache she has brought you. Don't worry

im pretty late too but hEy i took my time to read this whole thing because i’m going through the same thing except that my ‘she’ isn’t a ‘hazel’.
sincerely (me), i don’t want to offend you or anything but hazel sounds like a person you don’t deserve.
you took your time to write this, explaining how heartbroken you are (or were, hopefully) and once she reads it she getS MAD AT YOU?? that’s so not right.
try to see all the bad things she has, or sth💛 you deserve better (i don’t know you tho but still).

DoReMiRocker I'm pretty late but you don't deserve someone who hurts you so, you deserve so much more.

Alina알리나 Your comment doesn't suck, I appreciate that you cared enouh to say something tho.

Another update bc why not:

Hazel deactivated her Instagram the day after I showed her this comment(Wednesday morning), with no warning or anything, I feel like she actually hates me or something. She made me cry for a whole hour after I showed her this comment(although I don't think I told her I was crying) and I thought about her today and how she deactivated while I was out at the mall and I ended up crying for about 10 minutes and it was so embarrassing.

She didn't really pay much mind to the fact that I wrote so much about her, she mostly chose to focus on where I was like "she might be closeted" and she chose to get offended at that and talking about how she was "fucking mad". She legit takes being called gay as an insult and I lowkey feel like she has something internalized that she's not telling me. She kinda made a big deal over it instead of focusing on everything else I wrote about her, which literally everyone else thouht was beautiful. The fact that she only focused on me thinking she is closeted shows how little she actually cares about me. Tbh I bet she just wants me out of her life and that's why she deactivated. I feel like I deserve nobody bc I do so much for her and say so much to her yet she takes it with a grain of salt.

DoReMiRocker I just read all of this and to be quite honest I don’t even have any advice or something, I just feel like that I need to say something.
My motto is what happens happens, it’s a bit selfish but that’s how my life taught me to do. I read your comment and somehow I felt sad, I never feel sad for someone who I don’t even know. Saying cheer up will probably not help.
But please keep it up! And Idk why I am even writing this💫I’m sorry if my comment sucks 🌸 🐥

Ok so I just linked her to this and she's readig this comment right now and my heart is actually fucking pounding.

She said she's mad at some parts but she thanked me for the compliments.

Tbh I'm sobbing right now because it's so painful to love her, especially since she likes boys. It doesn't help since I've lowkey had gender dysphoria since 2013, I came out as trans ftm around the first time I commented here. Why the fuck couldn't I have been born as a boy? Why couldn't I just see her as a friend? Why do I have to like girls? Why couldn't I be normal and like boys too like every other girl does? I'm so fucking sick of this heartache. I just wanna be happy. I've already convinced myself that I'll mever find love and tbh I'm okay with being single for the rest of my life but it hurts so bad. I can't stop crying and all I can think about is her. All I want is her, and I can't have her.

UPDATE:

She's still as straight as can be and not interested in me and I'm still madly in love with her, but I've been less depressed over her, I really only get depressed now when I get really in my feelings, especially when I'm high.

I heard her voice for the first time last week, tbh I was blushing and I kept stuttering and shit in the call because I just loved her voice so much, she was nervous about joining the call at first because she rarely actually speaks english, but she speaks it really well and her accent made my heart melt when I heard it. I was constantly complimenting her voice and she was all like "thank you" and honestly she was just so damn cute.

I sang Riptide by Vance Joy for her(coincidentally today I found out Dodie made a cover of Riptide lmao) and she loved it, and honestly I really had a good time in the call with her. I really wanna call her again but I feel like I'd be bothering her if I asked. Idk man, I just wanna hear her lovely voice again. It's the type of voice that would fit perfectly for a princess that's out in nature attracting animals or some fairy tale shit like that, she made my heart swoon when I heard her.

I really hope one day I can end up with her, even though I know it's not likely. God I just love Hazel so fucking much.

You've been so brave and I love you, good luck my friend. I wish you all the best.

I don't know what to say. I don't want to say that you deserve better than hazel because personally i don't know her an can't judge at all. I think all I have to say is that there is someone else out there for you. It sounds crappy and untrue and quite frankly shit but this heartache will pass. Sooner or later, I promise you another Hazel will come along. But at the same time she wont be another Hazel because she will be her and she will be yours. I am painfully aware that this is horrible, crap advice and sounds insincere as fuck,but you are amazing and perfect and fucking beautiful and one day someone will appreciate. I fell in love with one of my close friends when I was younger, and I was so confused about the way I felt, and I felt so abnormally jealous when she showed off her numerous boyfriends and we'd always had this whole flirting thing going on all the time , and sometimes it felt like she was mocking me (although she never knew how i felt), and like all typical ya novels, she kissed me and for a few minutes I was in absolute heaven. And then she started weirdly avoiding me but i was so fucking over the moon that she might like me back. She left a few weeks later to another country and I was so fucking devastated, it hurt more than anything ever could and although it took close to a year, consisting of strained and awkward skype calls and texts, I finally got over her .Very slowly,and very painfully,but I did. And a few weeks ago, I went on a date with an amazing boy with black rounded glasses who smells like coffee and makes me happier than I've been in a long time. That was a pretty fucking long reply but all i want you to know is that it will get better. It has to.


I told my crush, my best friend, that I like her upon being inspired by this song. Apparently, she likes me too! We where just sat there hugging and crying. She kissed me on the lips the other day. It has really been a true happily ever after.


I ended up completely falling in love with my straight best friend, I think of her every night and it's been a year and a half. I think I'm finally ready to lose what I didn't have. When she found out that I loved her, things became awkward between us but tbh I was already awkward.

The annoying thing is I think I have (again) fallen for a straight friend. She is so beautiful and funny and kind but I think she hardly notices me. It's like I'm there, but not.

Sometimes I hate being gay

I hate being bi why do we all have to fall in love with our friends! my friend will never love me... they are bi as well but they only think of me as a friend.


Everything about this song is perfect. It is a jigsaw puzzle of gentle beauty. The deep and soothing guitar chords, the meaningful lyrics, the lifting harmonies, the metaphors, the stop motion lyrics, the background, the tears running down my face, what. Chills, honestly! It sparks joy in the feelings of embrace and love, yet a grey sadness of aching and longing. I keep coming back to this song, not only because the prechorus, chorus, bridge, just everything, is memorable and insightful, but also because it strikes places that are very nestled in my strange, strange head. (I literally bought a lemongrass candle because of this song.)


guess who's cried after just reading the lyrics, i'm going crazy now. "she means everything to me" <3


I want this song to be a scented candle❤

Rosa McLellan And you would try to sell it, never sell out of it, You'd probably only sell one, It'd be to your brother, because you have the same nose, Same clothes.


I always listen to this when I think about my 'she'

It's quite often I do, and it makes me sad. I want to be with her, but I can't. She's my ex girlfriend who used me as an experiment.

Thank you for this young dodie, I really appreciate it.


That awkward moment when it's your best friend


I've only ever had one she so I'm not she even counts as a proper she. But she was beautiful in a way boys weren't. Boys were pretty and cool and simple adjectives like 'nice' but she, she was unexplainable and abstract nouns and glow in the dark star stickers. She was straight of course and nice to me in a way people are when they know your name but nothing more. And I fell hard for her for a solid two to three years before she became a little more distant and the butterflies that ran through my body before had fluttered away and I haven't seen them again.


why do i cry every time i listen to this song oh my god


ive been listening to this song for years, so I think I should share my story.
my she.

we've been classmates for 4 years and I've had a crush on her the whole time. she's the smartest girl in my year and she's absolutely amazing at sports. she's one of the popular kids but she never treats others badly, never really talks behind people's back, and is generally a really nice person. 2 years ago someone told the whole class I liked her, and she didn't even laugh at me about it, shrugging it off. it hurt, but her indifference was better than her mocking me.

she always does things that make me wonder "could there be a chance of us getting together?". she sometimes sits next to me when there's plenty of empty seats around. she sometimes walks alone (without her friends) near me. she sometimes leans closer to me than to her friends on the sofa in our school, our shoulders touching. these things always make my heart flutter, cheeks redden and my day a whole lot better.

but then I remember, why on earth would she like me? I'm not a close friend, not even friends if I have to be truthful. I'm weird, loud, silly and awkward. all the things she's not.

it hurts but I really like her.

i know you made this comment a year ago but i relate so much :((


i'm gonna sing this for my girlfriend. i'm not much of a singer but..she deserves it

Charlotte Howelter the best girlfriends/boyfriends sing to the one who deserves it the most. even if they cant


I miss my she :////, I bet she doesn't even think about me at all


This song makes love not suck! Please somebody feel this way about me!


This made me cry. It's so true, I'm bi and I have feelings for my best friend. Sad thing that I could never tell her because she is unbelievably straight.

+Ally catt34105 honey, I don't know what to do myself. I wish you well and good luck :3

@themagicman2010 even if I grow out of my feelings they are still hard to deal with and I still relate to this song. please don't give your opinion on a matter that you may not fully understand, thank you.

Me too, my best friend has a boyfriend. She doesn't know that I'm Bi. She knows nothing about my love for her. And that makes me feel like shit. I want to tell her, but I just can't.

Same exact situation, she is a close friend to me.

Same, my friend is panromantic though. Why couldn't I fall for someone who I'll actually have a chance with. .-.

+Sammy Hunter same here, girl. it really sucks, it's been like this for years and finding this song only made me realize it more, but I can't hate it, too beautiful :)

same sad feeling and to make it worse im even helping her with a guy she likes...

@Paint Artsplash it's so bloody difficult isn't it? :)

Dude, I know how you feel! I did have feelings for one of my friends, and she was straight. I'm Bi, and my other best friend I think is bi.


this song honestly just reminds me of my ex, so it’s mentally bad for me. But at the same time, it’s comforting???


So basically I like this one girl. A cutie, blonde curls, an amazing personality. She is amazing at singing, and just amazing, but idk if she is straight or not. To test this, I’m going to tell her I have a crush on her tomorrow, but if she doesn’t like me I say “ HAHAAHAH APRIL FOOLS”, and will be sad. If she does like me, I will be happy owo.


i'm really not the type to vent online, but you know what? i don't care anymore.

i'm lucky enough to be in a school with a very accepting student body, and my "she" is bisexual. when i became friends with her, i was (to say the least) a confused mess. i met her when we were in grade one but we only became friends during our first year of high school. she sat beside me and we were what one would call "the dream team", people began teasing us together and i sort of just realized that what the hell i'm not straight. i ignored it though, because i was scared of being different. i come from a rather homophobic family and although i didn't care if someone else wasn't straight, i had to be straight; there was no other option.

my family and i are tight knitted and i was afraid of breaking their love, because i'm not stupid - they wouldn't accept me. so as i said, i just ignored my sexuality and kept saying that i was straight. a few months passed and "she" had a girlfriend (or at least a semblance of it). and here's the thing, the girl had the same name as me. our "shipname" became theirs, but i was happy. i was happy, because she was happy.

towards the end of the school year i found out something, a close friend of mine liked her. it felt like the universe was playing with me, because just as i was about to come out to my friend i learn that i can't - because she also likes the girl i am so, so smitten with it.

gray (let's call her gray) broke up with her girlfriend and she had a small thing with my close friend.

long story short, they broke each other.

and god, did it hurt me; because all i want is for the two people i love to be happy.

enter second year of high school, gray gets a new girlfriend and i am still smitten. her girlfriend ends up hating me and when i mentioned it casually to her she shut it down immediately.

i avoided her, not because i was bitter of jealous or any of that. i avoided her because i knew that they had fights about me, and i wasn't going ruin their happiness.

gray cornered me and oh my god, i made her cry. i felt so fucking bad because all i wanted was to make her happy dammit.

we (slowly) became friends again and by the end of the school year we were okay. gray and her girlfriend lasted until the start of our third year, but they eventually broke up.

gray fucked one of my friends over and i was so, so mad at her. i was smitten, but i'm not blind dammit; it was her fault.

as of now we aren't talking, because of two things: 1. she made a terrible decision and 2. i need to get over this damn crush.

nearly 3 years and i'm still smitten.


Eyyyyy
time to cry over the person I love

Eyyyyy
*time to cry over the person I love*


This song is so damn relatable as a young lesbian girl. Since everyone's sharing their story, I think I will too. Last year I met a girl, and within a few months we'd become super close. But as we got closer and closer I fell more and more in love with her. Eventually I told her I had feelings for her and her reaction was positive and we stayed friends. However one 'drunken' night in the summer I told her I really loved her and everything started to go down hill. We parted for two months and it was so horrendously painful, I needed her. Now, we're closer friends than ever and for the most I've moved on because she's too good of a friend to lose, but now she's dating a guy who's another one of my mates and I try to be happy for them, but I still get jealous.. Can anyone relate?


I just wanna fall in love. I know it will be hard and painful after, but I can take it. I waited for too long it's almost like nothing will hurt more than not being in love

@Jaime Lovell still not in love, but okay! thank you

@Lily Ashenden oh that's so nice! thanks!

StarMintaka it is both the best and most painful feeling

Be extra careful: I know the feeling of not being in love and the desire to feel something. I know it aches. But when you finally fall in love thinking you can handle it, and it turns into an ugly spiral of ambiguous back and forth with someone who doesn't really love you back, it's hard to move on. You know it's wrong, you know it's consuming you and that you deserve better. But it's addicting because "it feels oddly good to hurt". Very addicting. It's hard to find the strenght to get a hold of yourself once again when you know what you're leaving behind but don't know when or if you'll feel something like that ever again. And love is not just a feeling. It's a person you don't want to let go. They will always be in your head somehow, it will not just be "hard and painful after". Even when you manage to go on, there's no going back to a point where you were fine on your own. Because deep down you don't want to.<br>When you'll fall in love, because you will, don't lose yourself.

Be extra careful: I know the feeling of not being in love and the desire to feel something. I know it aches. But when you finally fall in love thinking you can handle it, and it turns into an ugly spiral of ambiguous back and forth with someone who doesn't really love you back, it's hard to move on. You know it's wrong, you know it's consuming you and that you deserve better. But it's addicting because "it feels oddly good to hurt". Very addicting. It's hard to find the strenght to get a hold of yourself once again when you know what you're leaving behind but don't know when or if you'll feel something like that ever again. And love is not just a feeling. It's a person you don't want to let go. They will always be in your head somehow, it will not just be "hard and painful after". Even when you manage to go on, there's no going back to a point where you were fine on your own. Because deep down you don't want to.
When you'll fall in love, because you will, don't lose yourself.

StarMintaka me to! Why cant it just happen already?!

@Ataraxia Edits  trust me, i kinda feel the same way. I can't wait till the day that I fall in love, and I'm trying so hard to not let it consume me...

I’m sorry for writing such a long reply but I was desperate to speak and this comment section - on She - is such a wonderfully accepting place - and your comment was in a way similar to mine...

StarMintaka Me too... I want to fall in love, but most of all I want to be fallen in love _with_. I just want someone who I can be totally myself with, who I feel really comfortable with, who makes me happy and giddy when I’m around them. I want them to feel the same way about me. I want cuddles and kisses and someone who I can share everything with, and who can share everything with me.
I’m afraid that by not being in love, but rather in love with the idea of love, I will end up being disappointed when it finally comes along, or expecting it to be perfect when it arrives.
I don’t expect a perfect love. I expect a human love. I just want romantic love.
I have wonderful friends and a wonderful family but, as always, I have to want more.
I see everyone around me with a partner, and I feel like I’m the only one solo. Most people at least love someone, even if that person doesn’t love them back, or they don’t love anyone but they don’t want to.
I loved someone once, for a while, but I doubt he knew. I don’t think anyone did. And then the feeling faded away and left me feeling worse than before because now I had had a face to give the love of my daydreams, that just doesn’t seem natural anymore.

My advice would be to not focus on falling in love with people specifically, fall in love with flowers and sunlight and your reflection when you first wake up, because if you fall in love with life then life will love you back, and people are always attracted to someone who radiates love, for themselves and for everyone around them


so i like this girl from my school thats a year younger than me. she doesnt know me but we are both in glee club and she sees me sometimes everytime she walks the hallway i would just have heart eyes because she is the most cutest person ive ever seen and yet she doesnt know i exist. her short curly hair her glasses is the most cutest thing and she can play piano,guitar, and ukelele and whats more cute is shes taller than me


I’m a closeted lesbian. I had a dream a few nights ago about a girl. She doesn’t really exist but I can’t stop think about her and she was so sweet and I remember every detail of her. I want to see her but I can’t seem to dream about her again. I think I’m psycho for falling in love with a hallucination


my "she" and i met a while back and i remember just falling so incredibly head-over-heels in love with her so quickly. she was one of the only people who i ever cared about... one of the only people who ever cared about me. we would flirt all the time and have the most wonderful conversations and i was so sure that she felt the same way. i was too afraid to specifically tell her how i felt, but to me it felt like we were kind of together already. but then one day she got a boyfriend. and i cried so much. i still do.

later, on the one of the last days of school before we'd be going to school in different cities far away, i told her how i had felt. she smiled at me and told me that she had felt the same but that it was too late. she didn't want to break up with her boyfriend because she liked him too and anyways, we wouldn't even see each other very often when we changed schools.

this song hurts so much to listen to because it not only perfectly describes how i felt and still feel about this girl, this wonderful, special girl, but it also reminds me of the horrible regret that i have over something that i could have done that would have changed everything. but it's too late now.

maybe this is awful. I would cry so much if this was me. Just knowing that you could’ve had the world but it falls through your fingers


I was just listening to the EP version.
WTF it vibrated my colarblade!?!?!

I was just listening to the EP version.
*WTF it vibrated my colarblade!?!?!*


This is such a beautiful song I love it ; I like how you open up in to the LGBT community and how you express it in your song (i'm straight ) if you read this have a great day and  stay alive |-/


everyone is commenting, so i guess i should too. i mean, no one’s gonna read this anyway.

so i’m still confused about my sexuality. really, really confused. and rly fucking goddamn scared, because i only liked this one girl and the rest of my crushes were.. boys. let me first describe her :

she has short hair, because she recently got a haircut and i love it so much she’s so pretty ajdjshdhd. she’s like kinda tall, taller than me. she also introduced me to musicals and i love her even more for that 💜. we both have similar interests and i just rly like her.
i’m not really sure why, i just do. i mean, most people in my class would describe her as like a decent person who you can chat with but.. i really really like her ever since i grew feelings for her.

i just love the way she laughs, and how her soft voice sounds like, and i’ve always wanted to hug her or hold her hand or just kiss her cheek. we used to do this thing though, where we would press our foreheads together and giggle afterwards. i didn’t like her back then, so i didn’t rly feel anything when we did that little ‘forehead pact.’ but now.. ugh. everything is so different and i just adore her, and every time i see her my feelings just grow even more.

but i also have this inner voice telling me that i like her just because she’s nice to me. you see, i didn’t have many friends and i considered her one of my very first friends and she’s just so kind and sweet and nice to me. i don’t really know what this feeling is but.. ugh.

i’ve fallen so badly :((


Okay. There may not be many with me here, but..

That fits so well with Max and Chloe from Life is Strange...

EDIT: There are. holy guacamole HELLO PRICEFIELD PEOPLE

voiceappeal I NEVER LOOKED AT IT LIKE THAT BUT NOW I CANT STOP THINKING OF THAT

voiceappeal aH I was just watching poods play that game

I totally thought the same when I first heard the song! It was perfect!

IM GLAD IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO THOUGHT THIS

+voiceappeal FUCK it does aswell im d e ad

And now my heart is broken all over again...

EXPECIALLY THE POLAROID PICTURE PART JSSSSS

I was just about to post this haha. But I wanted to see if anyone thought the same thing :)

+Latiatrolls ALSO ALL THE REFERENCES TO CHILDHOOD AND KNOWING EACH OTHER A LONG TIME

+voiceappeal YES YES YESS THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS

Are you guys Sceptic eyes too? Or was it Markiplier😊

+voiceappeal "you would find her in a polaroid picture" SOMETIMES I WONDER IF THIS SONG WAS MADE FOR PRICEFIELD TBH

when you said that I was like " OMG YES ITS NOT JUST ME!"

Hello!!!!! Literally this could be a song in LIS

You're hella right! :D<br>I love the pairing Max & Chloe so much. ;)

You're hella right! :D
I love the pairing Max & Chloe so much. ;)

PRICEFIELD for life Vioceappeal, PRICEFIELD for life.

Literally what I thought as I listened to it x)

+Noelle “Pandalover255” Donner grahamfield isnt cannon

YASSSSSS (but warren and Max are still cute together) BEST. GAME. EVER.

I literally tough I was te only one who tough about life is strange

+voiceappeal THat's what I was thinking!!!

+voiceappeal I also thought it fitted so well with Lonnie and Sam from Gone Home <3

YESYESYESYESYESYESYES IT REALLY DOES PRICEFIELD FOR LIFE SON<br>Max would be so proud :3

YESYESYESYESYESYESYES IT REALLY DOES PRICEFIELD FOR LIFE SON
Max would be so proud :3

I thought of Life is Strange once I heard 'Polaroid.'

It suits a lot of the type of music in the game too :3

"You would find her in a polaroid picture" aaaah

+voiceappeal ic Aant beleive you jsut did thAT

+voiceappeal DUDE YAS

(Super Max and shaka brah fo-evah)

HOW DID U KNOW WHAY I WAS GOING TO COMMENT

+voiceappeal YESYESYEYS im pricefield af

+voiceappeal YESYESYEYS im pricefield af

+voiceappeal OMGG YESS!! I think the same!!!

+voiceappeal I'm so glad I'm not the only one who think about that :D


God I’m so gay why can’t my crush like me back <br>She literally means everything to me and whenever I sing this song I think of her

God I’m so gay why can’t my crush like me back
She literally means everything to me and whenever I sing this song I think of her


To my she
I could never date you.
Your amazing at sports, always quick with insults, and I've never had a proper conversation with you ,except to ask for the money I was collecting for class prefect.
Your so popular , something i never will or never want to be.
I can picture us , sneaking our after school , sitting together , never talking , but communicating with silence. I'll never have you , but I want you.


in 2016 i met a girl that was my she, but she was toxic , she was bi and had a toxic gf, she had a crush on me when she first met me, she was my first girl crush and made me realize I wasn’t straight, she broke up with her gf after their relationship got too toxic, she jumped into another toxic relationship with a guy, she cried over and over about all these people that didn’t deserve her . I liked her the whole year, and told her over the summer. Then I realized how she played me, how she flirted with me and gave me false hope, and you used me to make her gfs/bfs jealous. She moved schools, and then she came back in Sep. 2017 for a week to my school, I was so angry at her I couldn’t talk to her anymore. I blocked her on everything and cut her off, and she kept apologizing but I just couldn’t. 2018 came and I unblocked her, but we didn’t talk, she was in another city. 2019 we texted a bit and FaceTimed once but she changed a lot, not at all how I remember her and we didn’t talk after. She was the only person who I truly ever felt something for. I don’t like her anymore but there’s a place in my heart where I can’t ever forget about her. To this day, no one has made me feel like she did. She knows I liked her, but doesn’t know I loved her. My heart aches knowing I never got to give her my love, or know about it. She doesn’t even think about me anymore. but to me she was my best friend, my person,  my she.


A few months ago when I first heard this, I was extremely confused about my sexuality. Now I've realized that It doesn't matter who I love. I love my girlfriend with all my heart.


The thing is, is this song means so much to me. I love my best friend so much, but she doesn't realize that I feel this way. I relate to this song so much, because I know I can't ruin our friendship over my feelings. It kinda sucks you know. I love this song so much, thank you Dodie.


oKay so im having a bit of confusion and i know this community is so nice so i might just sort of blurt stuff out if that's okay?
basically, yea, it's the whole i have a crush on my best friend thing, and wow it hurts. im such good friends with her, and i love every minute i spend with her, she honestly makes me so happy, and everything about her is just perfect to me. she's straight, but (i know that it's bad to think) sometimes i feel like there's something? im probably just making it all in my head, i don't know, but i just get a feeling i guess. but i don't know what to do, like i feel weird keeping this massive thing from her, but i reallllly don't want to mess up our friendship because i don't want to lose her.
im so confuseddd

You should tell her, you might have a chance and if she rejects you, she still will be your friend it might be awkward at first but it will get better and you will be comfortable with each other more


PLEASE release the studio version of this or slap this boy on Spotify asap.


This song hurts and I love it.
It hurts to finally realize who you are.
It hurts to realize you aren’t what you and the people around you expect you to be.
It hurts to think you’re not accepted, but just remember
There are others that also hurt.
You’re not the only one.


I am in love
completely and totally
for the first time
She's gay
She's hilarious and adorably awkward and loves horror movies and rock music and drawing and messing with people
We're on a missions trip together, it's one week long
Today it's the last day of the trip
We're from different states, I met her here
And now we have to go home
I'll never see her again
She is perfect and I want to listen to her talk and laugh and tease me for the rest of my life
But tomorrow I have to say goodbye to her for the rest of my life
I haven't told her
I'm not going to
I came out to her
I want her to love me, but I doubt she does
And now I have to say goodbye
To her, the amazing human who I fell in love with, who I never want to leave, who I want to be loved by
And I was going to write "Goodbye" here at the end, but I can't
Hello
Hello laughter and teasing and references and fangirling and falling
I know now why people say you fall in love
I really am falling
But now I have to leave
So who will catch me?
I love you

I'm never going to see her again. We never said goodbye, just see you later, insisting that we would see each other one more time before leaving. I feel confused. Some mistake must have been made. I know I'm supposed to stay with her forever. I know I'm supposed to be with her and all her friends and be one of them and be her's. So why did I have to say goodbye? Why am I not with her? Somebody made a mistake. Somebody gave me the wrong life in the wrong place. I'm supposed to be with her. I'm supposed to be with her, and I'm not. What is happening? I've thought before that I was in love, but I was wrong. This is what being in love feels like. Nothing else matters. I would leave my whole life behind to go and be a part of her's.


There's a certain Connor Oberst-ness to this.

I mean that as a high compliment.


I relate to this so much Dodie (I just had to come back to this song after your "I'm bisexual WOO" video)


This comment will probably get lost in the comment section, but here's my story. Like Dodie, I started to like a girl in my music club. At first, I was stunned by her amazing talent and I wanted to be her best friend badly. She was a year older, she had blue eyes and wavy brown hair. Soon enough, she wouldn't get out of my mind. At this point, I started to believe I was Bi. I couldn't believe it as I thought I'd never feel this way towards a girl, but I guess I was wrong. Me and her were good friends, but we only saw eachother on club days as she was in a different year. I was so confused with my emotions, but I swore not to tell anyone, and so I didn't. To this day, no one knows of my sexuality. And... I still like the same person. Great.

Lizzy Symons Haha, no. I'm on the left, the pink haired one is Connie (Noodlerella on YouTube).

Lil' Dodie Fan is she the girl in your profile picture?


I have a huge crush on a girl and it's been going on for a month and she's straight. Listening to this makes me really emotional, but it's nice to know I'm not the only one

Marble Soda i'm in love with one of my closest friends. she's bi too yet there's aNOTHER FRIEND who's also bi and im pretty sure they're in love and i feel so sad whenever they get flirty with each other.

Marble Soda I'm 12 I've liked the same girl for 65 days.... yeh I counted

Im in the same situation, Im here for you

omg same and she also happens to be my best friend... :(


currently is the most i have ever related to this song


'she' makes me smile everyday but she doesn't know it. 'she' has perfect green eyes and long brown hair. 'she' smells like summer and she will never love me the way i love her


"And oh it aches
But it feels oddly good to hurt"
Dear god the feels!!


Hey ! Just wanted to say that you made a MASTERPIECE! i love this song, it's very intense and i can't stop listening to it... :) Greeting From Montpellier, France.

Salut Hermine, j'aime beaucoup tes videos ! :)

@Jesuis Alex Non y'a moi aussi !!! (bon, techniquement j'uis anglaise, mais ca fait les 2/3 de ma vie que je vis a Poitiers donc voila, je me considère parmi vous ^^ )

@TheUnicornPotatoe ben nan y'a moi aussi :)

MERVEILLEUX LE SEUL FRANÇAIS QUI CONNAÎT DODDLEODDLE 😁


...I thought it was just  a crush that'll last for a few months, but hell...I've been in love with a transgender man (biologically female) for a freakin 2 years. Hell, I've even seen him transition from a cute girl, to a strong man : ') Thank you Dodie for this song <3 it helped me let me accept my feelings, when it was hard to ^^

Scared Of People  Wow, that really touched me. Thank you. Yea, I hope he feels proud too ^^ he deserves it :) Tbh I don’t exactly see why people would be weirded out. They’re the same beautiful person whether boy or girl

That’s so amazing. So many people would be weirded out by someone being trans but the fact that you can have feelings for them must make them feel so proud.


Fucking hell, every time i listen to this song i end up in tears and gay-af toughts

Ian Luca Same 😭 Dodies songs remind me of the past and her voice is just so beautiful 😭😭 and the lyrics are so meaningful 😭😭😭😭😭

Ian Luca same it is such a true song a lot of ppl feel like this.

Also i changed she to he and played the song on my guitar and now im crying sooo bad


will admit I have been playing this on repeat for about twenty minutes now

@IlluminatiMustFail its more like 5.5 times because the song is only 3:46 seconds long

That's 3.5 times... You can just say that instead...

@doddleoddle this is by far my favorite of your songs dodie please make an album for all your fans

+Whemsical me too, I'll set up a support group

It's been 2 days I can't stop replaying it send help


ready to sing this around the house and watch as my family falls apart

+MidnightWolf 980 same, untill I get a girlfriend (or if) I'll tell them but if I end up dating a dude what's the point lmao

My family doesn't know I'm bisexual, and I plan on keeping it that way until I... I don't know. Shrivel up and die? All I know is that it will be a while until I am comfortable telling my family.

I just recorded a cover of this on my channel and I'm wondering how it will go down when everyone sees it :X


I know that nobody will read this but anyway.. (btw sorry for the bad English).My “she” is hella straight but god I’m in love with her...we aren’t close friends at all but every time she talk to me My heart goes skdidjfb she don’t even know that I’m pan.. and I’m scared that if she find out she will stay away from me.. <br>i know you will never read this and if you do.. you wouldn’t know that it’s me.. But god I really love you...

I know that nobody will read this but anyway.. (btw sorry for the bad English).My “she” is hella straight but god I’m in love with her...we aren’t close friends at all but every time she talk to me My heart goes skdidjfb she don’t even know that I’m pan.. and I’m scared that if she find out she will stay away from me..
i know you will never read this and if you do.. you wouldn’t know that it’s me.. But god I really love you...


Why tf would ppl dislike this song?? I mean even Homophobes??? This song is so beautiful and just magic!


This kind of sounds like something Ed sheeran would write! Lovely.


to my she-<br>I knew I loved you when we became friends, yet I also knew you would never look at me the same way. I knew what I was getting myself into, falling in love with a straight girl. You were the one that made me realize I was bi, looking at your gorgeous eyes that I could stare at for hours and the caring personality that pulled me in. The way you delicately hug me and the way that you smile at me makes my heart flutter, even though you do it in an innocent friendly way. You’ve put my heart through so much in the past year, seeing you fall in love with someone and get hurt and then now seeing you fall in love again. I’m going to be honest-it hurts like hell to hear you talk about them the same way I talk about you. It hurts to know that you’ll never think of me that way. I’ve been trying to get over you for a year now, however nothing has been successful and your essence is forever stuck in my mind. To my she- I love you, even though you will never love me.

to my she-
I knew I loved you when we became friends, yet I also knew you would never look at me the same way. I knew what I was getting myself into, falling in love with a straight girl. You were the one that made me realize I was bi, looking at your gorgeous eyes that I could stare at for hours and the caring personality that pulled me in. The way you delicately hug me and the way that you smile at me makes my heart flutter, even though you do it in an innocent friendly way. You’ve put my heart through so much in the past year, seeing you fall in love with someone and get hurt and then now seeing you fall in love again. I’m going to be honest-it hurts like hell to hear you talk about them the same way I talk about you. It hurts to know that you’ll never think of me that way. I’ve been trying to get over you for a year now, however nothing has been successful and your essence is forever stuck in my mind. To my she- I love you, even though you will never love me.


This song brings back so many memories. This is the song that got me listening to dodie.. this is also one of the first songs i cried to thinking about girls i liked. i will never nostalgically smile this big with any other song.

brennan inc. me too. so much has changed, it’s fun to delve into the past sometimes. it takes you unexpectedly


Since everyone is spreading their hopeless gay crushes in the comment section I feel the strong urge to follow along so listen up.

My she is a coworker. We work together every day and she started out as more of a role model (she’s also 5 years older than me) but now, as she left the work place for 3 weeks I realized how desperately I need her and how much it aches to be without her but it’s hopeless because she’s about as straight as a ruler and in a relationship.

So what’s the natural reaction for me now? Listen to this song on repeat and cry because I’m miserable.


my she is amazing. she has the most beautiful deep brown hair with eyes which she likes to call green because she thinks hazel is too boring.. but everytime i see them i melt. she is a beacon of light in my life and the human embodiment of the sun, with the softest pale skin and freckles plastered across her face, and the most delicate hands that i very much love to hold. jesus christ im so gay


it's so adorable how everyone in the comments is describing people as "my she"


I’m so happy this is in the new EP! Dodie, you’re one of my favorite artists and I can’t wait to see you grow even more! Love you!


i’m listening to this for the first time in 2019 and i’m actually crying in class. this so creatively describes the whole process of discovering sexuality and all of the struggles wow wow wow didn’t know i could love dodie more <br>edit: the feels are pouring out of every pore

i’m listening to this for the first time in 2019 and i’m actually crying in class. this so creatively describes the whole process of discovering sexuality and all of the struggles wow wow wow didn’t know i could love dodie more
edit: the feels are pouring out of every pore


Rewatching this video again, after listening to the new version on Dodie’s EP. It’s amazing how much her voice has grown and matured. This song still makes me cry and is truely beautiful. <3


Hello I am from the future and your EP just released with this song on it!!! Proud of you dodie 💛💛💛


I had no idea... god when I first listened to this song I had no idea what kind of effect it would have on me. I’m revisiting this song right after her EP is out and I... I guess I never understood the pure innocence and sadness of this song. The simplicity of it all just seems to be... I don’t know there just isn’t a good way to describe it. It’s like running through a field with the person you love being happy with them but then seeing them run into someone else’s arms. But you’re still happy because they’re happy...    i don’t know. Just my thoughts:) love you dodie!


People who disliked this is heartbreaking 💔 This is such a beautiful song 💕


this isn't even an exaggeration i actually tear up so much whenever i hear this


i’ve wanted a studio version of this song for so long and it finally happened ahh. i love both versions a lot


I remember listening to this song on repeat all night, crying, because this was what finally brought me to accept myself.


I just thought of this years after years on seeing this right when it came out. I fell for a girl and this fits perfectly


my she is amazing. she has really deep eyes and freckles and dimples. We're friends, not amazingly close but I can do things like lie on her lap and it doesn't seem weird. I keep taking photos of her. I can't stop, she knows I'm doing it it's not stalkerish but I just can't stop. She looks so amazing all the time. It hurts. I love her so much and she makes me so happy. She wears her socks on the outside of her jeans and puts on lipstick with no other makeup. She looks like someone out of new york. For a while she didn't have a haircut even though she really needed one and it looked amazing. Her hair curled around the side of her neck and it was hard not to fiddle with it. I ended up begging her to get a haircut.


This reminds me of the first girl I fell in love with when I was 13. She was straight and getting over her was very painful. I’m forever grateful for this song and to you for showing me I am not alone


🌻Thank you for putting this song on your beautiful ep album of 2019 🌻


omg this song is such a mood. its just one of those songs that takes you into another world and gives a voice and a melody to everything you feel inside and just makes you feel everything at once... damn im in love with this beautiful song


WOW this song from five years ago actually made to the album!❤


I haven't listened to Dodie's stuff in ages, I forgot how sweet this was ^-^ Such an earnest song, glad I got to hear that again after all these years :)


can we just appreciate this will come out on her tird ep tomorrow.<br>i'm so hyped

can we just appreciate this will come out on her tird ep tomorrow.
i'm so hyped


I told my “she” that I liked her and it went absolutely amazing. She was super chill with it and afterwards we went to McDonald’s and hung out for nearly 3 whole hours. God I love her so much


You dont deserve a paragraph. You deserve a thousand books witten about how amazing you are. You're beautiful and when u smile, its the prettiest thing ive ever seen. I know ive never really made it clear how much i like you, but ive been afraid you wont feel the same. Sometimes i think you're too beautiful for me. I miss you when we dont talk to each other even though we're not even together. I thought id better let you know how i feel. Its pointless keeping these feelings to myself. You deserve to know that u mean the world to me

Edit: Omg thanks for the likes💓

I wish I had the courage to send something like this to my crush. But I know who she has a crush on. It's not me.

Who Eliza??

Get it cause youre Hamilton...

I'm late but your comment is the cutest thing

this. is adorable omg <b>steals this comment to go tell someone</b>

this. is adorable omg *steals this comment to go tell someone*

@PAY YOUR FUCKING TAXES
Lmao your name is killing me and the mood

@PAY YOUR FUCKING TAXES
Lmao your name is killing me _and_ the mood

Aw! You two know eachother? This sounds adorable <3 <3

this is such a beautiful comment and i agree completely. ILY DODIE

Way too adorable is it ok if I steal this to send to my best friend/crush

that's so sweet, I wish I had someone to sent it to...

Next time someone asks for a paragraph from me in stealing this lol😂


I listen to this every once and a while and it makes me so nostalgic and happy and sad and angry and so emotional I love u dods


I love looking up at my celling and grinning like an idiot thinking about you, and how you've changed me for the better, always being there for me. I appreciate you. Always talking to me about the little things that make you feel better, or things that make you happy like when ever you answer correctly when asked a question. Just hearing your voice, or when ever you smile your right cheek sinks in a little deeper then left or when ever mad or annoyed you brows are slightly raised. You're just so fucking beautiful.


This. Is the first song I have ever heard by Dodie. I was reading something online, and then I saw this song. I listened to it..... And cried. I loved this song.


I just got broken up with by the first girl I've ever been in love with and I'm still in love with her which sucks but every word of this song is perfect for how I feel so I just listened to this like thirty times while looking at my old Polaroids of us kissing (and crying a little bit) this song is beautiful thank you 💕❤💖

Bethany Lowe As awful as you might be feeling right now, you will feel better. Stay strong. And if this girl is the one for you, the universe will find a way to bring you back together


She is probably one of my best friends. I think I’m falling for her. Truth be told I have always loved her. Ever sense I first saw her, I just couldn’t help but be amazed by her beauty. Ramen noodles, I just want to let you know that I will always love you!!


You have such a profound gift with words, Dodie.  The vulnerability and poetry in your songs is so relatable, I find myself smiling and crying at the same time.  Thank you for sharing your gift with a stranger across the world.


i need this on spotify more than anymore


I remember laying in bed listening to this after I got rejected by a girl I liked


i have a she. and she’s my best friend. and she’s straight. i love her so much. i haven’t even come out to her yet.


If I simply only got to have you, I’d be okay.
I love your tan and soft skin, the way it shines under the sunlight and how your beautiful bold, brown eyes glimmer when you’re amused or happy. I love your smile, how every time something funny happens you immediately turn to me, and how your little face scrunches up when we laugh together. Sometimes you even lightly hit your lap in order to express your little outbursts of joy. I love how every time you make me mad, I can’t even stay mad. Even with how stubborn I am you always find a way to make me crack up. I love the way you talk about the things you like, and how excited you get to share your interests with others. I love the way you talk, and how passionate you get when you express something meaningful to you. I love it when you put your arm around me, or when you grab my face and press my cheeks together. I love it when you suddenly grab me by the waist and mess up my hair, and I love the way you tease me yet somehow do it lovingly. I love it when you hug me. The feeling I would get around your arms always calmed me. The warmth you carry with you makes me feel safe. Like I belong in your embrace. I love it when you turn and look at me, and how your glasses slide a little lower to your nose.
I love it how every time you walk into my sight, my heart jumps. I love it how every time you would do something slightly suggestive of your feelings towards me, my heart would stop. But every time you’d lay on her, or hold her hands and look deep in her eyes with that beautiful gaze, my heart would drop.
I spent ages just trying to be enough for you.
Months crying and feeling my heart tear a little more.
School nights where I’d stay up till 4 AM just thinking about everything. Every memory. The day you left me because you figured I wasn’t right for you. And the day you told me you couldn’t be with me because I was leaving. Because you’d be too hurt to let me go.
I always ask myself what I did wrong.
I always hug the bear you’d constantly take from me and hug all for yourself. I can’t sleep without it. I feel like it’s the only comfort and the only piece I have left of you now. I’m so far away. I wish I had never moved. I wish my family could have just been able to stay. Every day I think about you. Every single fucking day I wish I was there, I wonder what it would have been like if it were me and not her. You’re the only real motivation I have to somehow come back. I can’t let you out of my heart. No matter how much I try.
Everything about you is so pure and so beautiful.
Even when you feel like you look your worst you’re still gorgeous to me.
I’ve never loved anyone so deeply.
If love isn’t worth it, you’re the exception.
I love you.
Goddamn it, you’re my she.


I honestly forgot this song existed- when I first heard it, I was questioning. Later that year, I identified as bi and stuck with the label. At the time, I didn't have any crushes on girls at that point. Even now, I'm still closeted towards family and the friends I made this year.

However, I recently met a girl, who to this day, makes me question my label.  She made me question what I identified as and I'm still struggling. Soon enough, I started developing feelings and I'm currently just pining over her.

To my 'she',

You're incredible. You're such a dork but the way you welcome others and seem to want everyone to be happy is just so admirable. Though we don't talk much, your personality just emits a sweet aura that I love so much. We're friends and I think we might just stick as that? Every time you compliment me, I become this flustered mess who can't process anything. You make me fall every time we talk and God, you're just amazing.

I hope that you never find this but h, I'd love to get to know you better <3

- an LGBT+ pining mess


You know, everytime I listen to this I start daydreaming, mostly about if my crush was gay and liked me back, but also about just her, she is such a beautiful and sweet person and I can't


This is such a cute/relatable song I love it


Am I the only one who plugs their ear buds in and turns She on for comfort when they’re crying at 2 AM...


aww i’m reading all these sweet comments about their she. i want a she :(


One of my best friends and I bonded over your music, and she’s straight and I’m mcnot and over time I’ve started to have feelings for her. This song always makes me think of her


i just asked out a girl and she said yes! i used to listen to this song when i liked her and was too scared to tell her, now i’m really crying lol


I can't wait to hear this on the new album. I'm gonna have a good fkn cry


one of my best friends and i planned to duet this while i had a crush on her. i came out to my mom around that time, and it didn’t really go that well. i ended up losing this friend shortly after, and just the thought of this song made me sad. but now, we’re as close as ever and i can only think of her he when i hear it, even though i don’t have a crush on her. love you, v


i listened to this song around the time i first came out. i’m in love w my girlfriend now and i think that’s a cute progression of things. that’s all.


mia, my she, if you're reading this, you mean everything to me. i love you beyond words. you bring an endless amount of light and happiness into my life. you're the best thing that ever happened to me. although things can be scary at times, i am willing to go through them if it means i am with you. you are my angel.


"but to her, I taste like nothing at all" perfectly sums up how a girl I like feels about me


i don’t feel much recently. at least not as much as i used to. it’s been a little while since i’ve felt anything, really. but tonight, reading through all these comments, i remembered what it’s like to really truly feel. and i am so thankful—for dodie and for every single soul that’s in this comment section


So I have this huge crush on this girl. She sits next to me in chemistry (lol rather fitting) and we would talk about the weirdest things. We share the same taste in music, clothing, youtubers, and even school subjects. She’s the only person I can make eye contact with without feeling uncomfortable. She held my hand a few weeks ago (my hand was was apparently warm and hers was “cold”) and I just felt all of my problems fall away for those few seconds. Whenever she talks to me or I see her in the corridor, my heart always does a backflip in my chest. She has the most adorable smile and the best personality. She is always wanting to help you.

Sorry I had to.


God.. This is my favourite song and even though I'm only 13 I wanna use this for my wedding song.. As I'm walking down the aisle and see the love of my life, I want this song playing in the background. <br>😊😘

God.. This is my favourite song and even though I'm only 13 I wanna use this for my wedding song.. As I'm walking down the aisle and see the love of my life, I want this song playing in the background.
😊😘


Why do I sob every FRICKIN time I listen to this . Soon it'll be on the ep and I can cry all the time lol


This describes me and my crush at the moment I wish that that would change between us
Thanks Dodie u have helped me through a lot of things like how to come out to my parents and family as bisexual and listening to ur song has made me stronger and more self excepting I owe a lot to u
THANK YOU DODIE CLARK !!!!!


One of the reasons Dodie is such a good artist is the way she really conveys her emotions in her lyrics and singing style. I can feel the pain and love in this song and I gotta say, it’s bloody amazing.


Can't stop thinking of my she right now.  If you ever see this Imogen, please try and work out who this is- you mean the world to me.


I have a girl crush and people are actually expecting that i do. But i keep on denying it. But even if on the outside, i seem so indiferent about her presence, but inside, whenever im near her, its like a bittersweet taste on my toungue, tingles down my back, and a peacefull feeling that makes all my worries disappear. I love her.


Four years later and its still my favourite


How could a song make u so hurt and sad but warm and valid at the same time❤...


I listened to this on repeat in the 7th grade, I had just come to the realization that I liked women and I couldn't really relate to the song but I loved it anyway. Now I think I just may be in love with a straight girl, the song really speaks to me now. I'd honestly do anything for her, she's just perfect and she makes me really happy. But even if I never end up with her, I hope she'll at least be happy with her whoever she does end up with.


She means everything to me. Her laugh, her voice, the way she readjusts her glasses. Everything she does makes me fall in love even more and I wish she knew that. Every time I get a notification from her, I smile. I cannot help it. I love her...


here because the human ep comes out tomorrow @ midnight and this is my favorite dodie song, i've even got my own little story tied to it, which is weird because so does everybody else??

i found this song back in the beginning of 8th grade. i had just met a girl, she was in my gym class. she had this pretty, unique smile, and a goofy laugh that always made me grin. she had short brown hair and the prettiest dark brown eyes. i was always too scared to talk to her in person, she was always with her best friend, and i was scared he wouldn't like me. one day she posted about being insecure on her instagram, and i left a comment, not thinking much of it. we soon began messaging each other, quite often. and one day we walked together on the track during gym, we talked about movies that frightened us when we were younger and our religious family members and it was a lovely hour. i continued to harbor this crush for her, it was obvious but i pretended it wasn't. she went on to have a boyfriend, one that didn't go to our school, but we continued talking and their relationship didn't last long. eventually i went out and bought flowers and a stuffed bunny from the dollar store with my close friend. (it sounds silly, but i was determined to ask this girl to this dance) i painted her a picture and wrote a note on the back, with her name written on it. the morning that i planned to ask her i got too scared, i crumpled the painting and shoved it in an empty desk, hid the flowers and the plush bunny in my bag, and went on with my day. i was approached by her later, she was holding the note. our history teacher was cleaning out her desks and found it, saw her name on it, and gave it to her. she immediately knew it was from me. i confessed that it was from me and we laughed it off, she politely turned me down, saying that she didn't know me well enough, and we went on to become closer friends. the semester was soon over and we both now had art together. our art teacher knew we were friends and sat us next to each other, and we would always giggle and talk about our childhoods.
after a month or 2 she asked ME out. i was so happy and i spent every minute that we were together smiling and i would always look forward to seeing her. we made each other bracelets out of yarn and during our clay projects i sculpted a crab who we called geoffrey with a g. before we knew it the end of the school year came. at our middle school the last day we always sat on the track and they played music and kids would just hang out and eat pineapple whip. i remembered sitting in a circle with her friends, i was barefoot and i had my head laying in her lap and we looked at eachother and i would grin. she kept insisting on giving me a piggyback ride and she did (i'm rather small so it worked out pretty well lol) at the end of the day we hugged eachother tightly and cried and said our goodbyes. she was going to visit her grandma for half of the summer so we wouldn't see each other until july. but we called almost every night at around 1-2am, i would always walk out to my backyard and try to show her the fireflies on my phone camera, we talked about her coming over and us catching them together, but it would never work because my phone camera sucked. another night we were texting each other, and i sent her this song and told her about how it always made me think of her. she suggested that it be our song. before she came back she broke up with me. she told me she wanted to start high school single, which i understood. that didn't mean i didn't spend the entire month of july crying into my tub of icecream. i'm over it now and we're cool, i just miss it sometimes and wonder if it could have gone differently.


Why are girls pretty? Why do they make me love them?


she she's omg she's my girlfriend. and our one month anniversary will be on valentine's oml. she's so cute oh god i've been with her for a day and she's everything to me


I listen to this song and I always, always, <b>always</b> cry simply because this is the song my girlfriend and I dedicated to each other.. cliche and sappy. But I don't think outsiders of the relationship understand how much it makes your heart flutter when you know that with a specific song you're being thought about.. and the thought about her makes me giddy.

I listen to this song and I always, always, *always* cry simply because this is the song my girlfriend and I dedicated to each other.. cliche and sappy. But I don't think outsiders of the relationship understand how much it makes your heart flutter when you know that with a specific song you're being thought about.. and the thought about her makes me giddy.


To all of you girls watching this who can relate right now. I was in your place years ago and now I have a wonderful girlfriend who I love with all my heart. Some day you will meet someone who feels the same for you as you do for them.


She smells like lemongrass and sleep I just love that line


"And I'll be okay
Admiring from afar
Cause even when she's next to me
We could not be more far apart
Cause she tastes like birthday cake and storytime and fall
But to her
I taste of nothing at all"

my "she" is my first love and doesn't even like me, but i love her. she's straight. but we kissed twice and, she wasn't my first girl, but it was so fucking magical, i felt so many things that i never thought could ever feel something like that before. it was only a kiss, you know? but, it was something else. we talked a few times and she is just the most intelligent and most beautiful that i ever saw. its been six months and i think of her every fucking day and hurts so bad. she knows about my feelings because she's friends of some friends of mine but what can she do, right? i'm just some stupid girl who fell in love with her, it's not her fault. i'm SO dumb and SO in love with her. i see her everyday on school but she doesn't talk to me, but yesterday was saturday and i saw her then she said "hello" to me and give me a smile and i just fucking lost it because she's everything to me. i love her
this song is 100% me... about her
about my "she"
i just hope that feeling go away soon, cause its been 6 months and still cry about it.

*"And I'll be okay*
*Admiring from afar*
*Cause even when she's next to me*
*We could not be more far apart*
*Cause she tastes like birthday* *cake and storytime and fall*
*But to her*
*I taste of nothing at all"*

my "she" is my first love and doesn't even like me, but i love her. she's straight. but we kissed twice and, she wasn't my first girl, but it was so fucking magical, i felt so many things that i never thought could ever feel something like that before. it was only a kiss, you know? but, it was something else. we talked a few times and she is just the most intelligent and most beautiful that i ever saw. its been six months and i think of her every fucking day and hurts so bad. she knows about my feelings because she's friends of some friends of mine but what can she do, right? i'm just some stupid girl who fell in love with her, it's not her fault. i'm SO dumb and SO in love with her. i see her everyday on school but she doesn't talk to me, but yesterday was saturday and i saw her then she said "hello" to me and give me a smile and i just fucking lost it because she's everything to me. i love her
this song is 100% me... about her
about my "she"
i just hope that feeling go away soon, cause its been 6 months and still cry about it.

ok im not im love anymore thank gos but this is cute


My 'she' found out she was my 'she' in the worst way possible, it's was out of my control and basically forced out of me. In front of her. I have been hopelessly in love with her for a long while now, and I've stayed silent in my pain. But the knowledge that she doesn't feel the same is the hardest feeling of them all, harder than staying silent. I don't think I'll ever get over her, and I've never wished more that I had those magic tears like in the Disney films that would solve all my problems. Cause with the amount I've been crying, I'd have plenty to share. This song has been my favourite Dodie song for years, and has seen me from crush to crush, but never one this intense or heartbreaking. Thank you Dodie for putting my brain into a coherent song, you are one of the most talented musicians in the industry.


i just told my friend i like her and she sent me this song


I'm about to cry because I feel this way about a girl from my school and I'm pretty sure she's straight. It's so hard to be her friend and know that she'll never think of me the way I think of her. And my heart aches because I joined stage crew to hang out with her more and she just thinks I'm one of her best friends. I wish I could send this to her, but I'm scared she won't like me back and I'll lose her as a friend.


I love your creativity your inspire me
Your my inspiration
I wanna be like you
I can't explain how inspired I am😣😳😳


Just finding this now, but I need a safe place to talk about my “she”...

She’s absolutely beautiful. She has beautiful dark hair that just lays perfectly every time. She has a birthmark on her cheek that looks like a  : . She hates it, but it the cutest thing about her. When she smiles at me, I feel my stomach lift into my chest. She’s short and slim. She smells like ice cream. Her laugh is so beautiful and real and I don’t know if I could go a week without hearing it. She’s smart and is amazing at writing. She has perfect handwriting. There’s always been something about her that drew me closer. Recently, she came out to me as bi and I couldn’t have been happier. Even though I don’t think she likes me, it’s nice knowing that at least she trusts me. I still haven’t come out to her, but i think she knows. She doesn’t know I like her and probably never will. She’s just perfect.


this is for my own she

i love ur skin. it’s as clear as your eyes. your eyes shine like honey pots in the sun and you smell like musk sticks and warm lazy weekends. the way your hair is all fluffy makes my heart skip a beat or two. you’re the sound of lonely summers and late night candlelit baths. to me you’re everything I love. Apple and cinnamon, and gentle hugs. itchy funky socks and laughing so hard you can’t hear yourself choke on your own joy.

every time you’re near me it’s magical. it’s like a kid on christmas, staying up to see Santa. It’s like tossing a coin into a wishing well and waiting for the sound of it reaching somewhere you couldn’t ever see.

you make my heart smile and my face smile more.


my favorite thing about this song, is everyone in the comments can relate about their ‘she’. we all found something to bring us together and its beautiful despite the heartbreak we talk about.

my ‘she’ is bisexual, but she has never reciprocated the feelings i have for her back. she simply see’s me as a friend and it hurts, knowing in some alternate reality we could have something real, but we don’t. maybe thats okay & maybe it worked out for the best. despite that, i’ll still wallow in my pain and listen to my heart breaking haha.


um ... so im watching this on a human ep playlist. i guess its fitting that i realized the playlist was made by someone with my crush’s name while listening to this song. im rather afraid that this song won’t sound as good on the ep bc how could it be improved ? it’s perfect and so accurately captures the emotions of many who listen to it.


I was reluctant to make a comment on this video, because it will most likely get lost, but this video helped me come to terms about my "she." I've known her for fourteen months and I've loved her for a few months. I was so infatuated, I used to write these long letters to her and then bury them in my drawers and never show anyone. She is the source of sunlight in my life, she is happiness and sweetness when I'm sarcastic and cynical. Everything she does makes my heart race. I love her so much, but she always talks about her boy crushes to me and it hurts so much. She sometimes holds my hand or squeezes my knee, and I dont know what to think It was killing me keeping it to myself, so I gave her one of my notes last week explaining my feelings. She said she might feel the same way, but all week at school she's been cold and distant with me. She would never do it out of cruelty, so I'm worried that I've made her uncomfortable and she just said she might like me to not hurt my feelings. It hurts my heart and I want so desperately to be over her, but I can't.


My first love. She was beautiful and funny and everything started out perfect but it quickly turned bad. I was emotionally abused and we always fought, but I loved her and wanted to make it work. She didn’t want to try at all. <br>6 months post breakup I still miss the little things and just the other day she messaged me and actually apologized for everything. I’ll be seeing her soon, wish me luck

My first love. She was beautiful and funny and everything started out perfect but it quickly turned bad. I was emotionally abused and we always fought, but I loved her and wanted to make it work. She didn’t want to try at all.
6 months post breakup I still miss the little things and just the other day she messaged me and actually apologized for everything. I’ll be seeing her soon, wish me luck


listening to this after a while of not. the "hElLO eVeRyoNE!" actually made me jump.