I'm still slightly worried about Tom... He's going through a lot right now and although I know he's a strong person, depression can be really painful.


This was perf and well informed and great


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That is genius! Aghhh suits Dodie so much :3

I thought mine was good, but screw that. Dodie use this, it's adorable.


the science about depression:
so there are these three hormones that are super important for being happy and motivated and just generally being able to do things: serotonin, norepinephrine, and dopamine. when you have depression, your brain does not produce enough of one, two, or all of these. that's bad. you stop wanting to do things, and often it feels completely impossible to do anything at all.

if you don't understand this, that's okay. just realize it's a thing. i personally do not understand being able to just go grocery shopping without any emotional preparation. or make phone calls, or get up in the morning, or... eat. like the only thing that always sounds appealing is sleep because i don't have to consciously experience anything. experiencing things sounds hard.

so we don't understand each other. that's fine. let's just not get upset about it or say really offensive things.

actually let's just use that as a general rule. don't get upset or say offensive things when you don't understand.

How do you figure out if someone depressed?

Thank you for commenting this. Have a great day!

well it's not important to the conversation, but we may as well be scientifically accurate. Hormones and neurotransmitters are both chemical messengers but don't work in the same way in the slightest.

Not really an important distinction in the current discussion, is it?  Whilst neurotransmitters and hormones don't do their jobs in the same way, they are both "chemical messengers".

+Identity Crisis Serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine aren't hormones, they're neurotransmitters.

Interestingly, the role of neuronal pathways in the hippocampus has been shown more recently to have a greater effect than serotonin levels. This could actually be good news, as those pathways can be developed in a more permanent way. Fingers crossed...


I met Ed Sheeran once, but made him uncomfortable because I kept crying :——) I try to repress that memory as well as I can


Tom is so great and his videos have done so much good - don't know him, never will but I'm really protective of tomska cause he deserves so much.
Found myself going through the same kinds of feelings as when an irl friend was trying to cope with depression, you know it's all chemicals so nothing you do will shift them but you still desperately want them to feel ok.
I'm somebody whose immediate response to somebody being sad is to make them a good meal.  The past few months whenever I've made my better then nandos amazing chicken I've wanted to sit tom down at my dinning table and share it with him.

Probably the last thing he needs, with people being so cruel about his weight and all. But he reminds me of my younger brother a bit and it just starts something maternal in me.
Can't stand the lack of empathy I see in some of his comments, but his audience is very young so I known it comes from a place of ignorance. Still hurts to see how just, well wrong they are really.
Depression is a chemical imbalance the same way diabetes is. Nothing annoys me more then people saying somebody needs to get over it.

I love Tom. Meeting him was a highlight of my first MCM and I shall support him for all of time. When he became homeless for a while I found myself wishing I had a place to offer him.


Really sweet and honest video!
I think this is going to mean a lot to Tom.
It's really lovely to know that there are people standing up for him and others.
Wuv Yooo Dodie! Enjoy your fancy camera :)
xxx

D'aw thank you Chloe you wonderful bubble of niceness<br><3333

D'aw thank you Chloe you wonderful bubble of niceness
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Ok so in an attempt to raise awareness (I guess?) or to help people who have never had depression or people who are going through it or have had it in the past and want to understand what is going on in their head and why their brain is going funky all of a sudden, I'm gonna try to explain the science-medical stuff just for anyone who cares to read and maybe learn. Maybe I'm weird like that, but I feel like knowing what's going on inside of me gives me some reassurance or at least it takes away that fear of not knowing. I have had depression and i didn't realize what it was until later on because (being honest here, sorry if i offend anybody :$) i felt like depression was sort of beneath me or something. I didn't understand what it was or how it could feel (or not-feel, if that makes sense) or how serious and common of a thing it is. Now I do know and i wish I could have known before because maybe i could have reached out to somebody and told them what was going on (which always helps even if it doesn't feel that way).

So to anyone who doesn't know and cares to learn here's a really basic rundown:

So the way thought works in your brain is through connections between neurons (brain cells). Usually people say they are electrical connections, which is true: the signal travels through the neuron's body as an electrical pulse, but when it comes to passing the information to the next neuron it happens by chemicals. This whole process of electrical and chemical communication between neurons is called a synapse (which Dodie mentioned:D) and is very complicated but for the purpose of this we will focus on the chemical side. As the electrical pulse reaches the end of the neuron, it triggers the release of thousands of little molecules of these chemicals called neurotransmitters. Neurotransmitters are basically little vessels of information between the neurons. Now there are several kinds of neurotransmitters in the brain and depending of which ones get released they correspond to a different emotion or feeling. This is all very murky, its not like theres one neurotransmitter for every emotion, they are just some that are roughly associated with general positive feelings (like happiness, joy, etc.) or negative feelings (sadness, anger, etc.) sometimes even both depending on the situation.

So these neurotransmitters are released by one neuron, they travel between the cells, and are received by the other neuron using "receptors" that are basically like sensors. Now these sensors can only hold one molecule at a time so the neuron has a mechanism that releases the neurotransmitter once the receptor has received the message so other molecules can take that spot. The molecules that are released are then go back to the first neuron where they get reabsorbed so the neuron can release them again if needed. Basically, our brain is a bit of a nature enthusiast and likes to recycle, just that in this case its not soda cans but neurotransmitters. After all these happens, the neurons are ready to receive more signals and start the process all over again.

Depression can occur if there is a problem with any of these processes, which is why it is so complicated to treat. There only a few drugs and they are not always that effective (not to mention they can have serious side effects). Usually the people that suffer from chronic depression have problems producing the "happy" neurotransmitters like dopamine or epinephrin so they always have an abundance of the "negative" ones. Also it can be that the person produces too much of the "negative" neurotransmitters, but this is rarer. These types of problems usually cause severe depression that can last years if untreated and will come and go often.

Another way depression can occur on more of a spontaneous basis is when the the receptors in the "receiving" neuron fail to release the neurotransmitter molecule that they receive. What ends up happening is that whatever molecule got their first is the only one that can get the message through because it is blocking the receptor. So if this molecule happens to be a "negative" one then the person can experience depression or depression-like symptoms. Another thing that can happen is that reabsorption process (where the "sending" neuron gets all the neurotransmitter it released back into itself so they can be reused) does not happen or is not very efficient for some reason, then all these neurotransmitters get destroyed and it can cause a lack of certain neurotransmitters. So if the neurotransmitters that did not get reabsorbed where the "positive" ones it can also cause depression.

These are just a few ways that we know that depression can happen at a chemical level in the brain but to be honest we don't really know what like really causes it or what causes these problems in the first place, or why some people seem to be fine and some aren't and suffer from it. Its all still a bit of a mystery.

The brain is super weird and super complex and it goes crazy from time to time and maybe in that sense trying to learn about this is a bit of a waste of time, but to me it shows that this is a real physical problem in our brains that does happen and not something people make up or just exaggerate about. It CAN be physically and biologically challenging to "be happy" or to "move on" or "tough it up" if you suffer from these issues or others we don't even know about. So those comments and that mentality are really just not helpful. However, positive comments and love and empathy always help. Even if feels like nothing will "do the trick", love and care always makes people feel a little better <3.

If you read all that, thank you for reading :) I hope you understand a little better or maybe just feel a little wiser lol.

I've been Bill Nye (The Science Guy), you've been your lovely selves, thank you and good bye :)

JohnTheFirst To clarify, the evidence isn't saying that this biological stuff CAUSES depression, it's that it's what can happen in the brain when depressed. So more that depression causes the brain to do this funky stuff, which makes it harder to get out of depression once you're in it.

JohnTheFirst this helps, I didn't know that this would help but knowing about my brain helps...thank you

Lewis Hughes Nope, I don't know what exactly I believe the bio mechanisms of depression to be. haven't studied the bio basis in a long time. Now looking into how it transmits from mothers to their offspring. More interested in talking therapies than the meds side of things

@Josh Harrison
You are correct, Sarah meant hypothesis, because that's what the 'monoamine hypothesis' (AKA 'chemical imbalance' in lay terms) is, its just an unproven hypothesis. Contrary to popular belief, there is no convincing evidence that depressed people suffer from a deficiency of serotonin, or any other neurotransmitter.

Please don't take my word for it, Here's what MIND, the UK's largest and most influential mental health network has to say about the chemical imbalance hypothesis:

'Is depression caused by a chemical imbalance?
No. As antidepressants work by changing brain chemistry, many people have assumed that depression must be caused by changes in brain chemistry which are then ‘corrected’ by the drugs. Some doctors may tell you that you have a ‘chemical imbalance’ and need medication to correct it.
But the evidence for this is very weak, and if changes to brain chemistry occur, we don’t know whether these are the result of the depression or its cause.'

http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/depression/causes/#.WAUVIMmZzC4

If you wish me to provide peer-reviewed academic articles supporting what I'm saying, I will be happy to, but most people simply won't read them. There is an awful lot of pseudo-science surrounding mental illness, and sadly it is often the 'mental health warriors' who propagate it the most.

@Sarah Rohrs In science, theories are based on very strong evidence. Anything less than a theory is a hypothesis. This is in part due to the understanding that we can never really know something, but we can observe what's happening and create an interconnected belief of how those things works.

antidepressants are not Less effective than placebos. When a drug is trialed, it is tested against a placebo. It would not pass clinical trials unless significantly more effective than a placebo (and usually also trialed against other drugs).<br>In a way, neurotransmitters being related to depression is 'just' theory, but not really. These theories are tested through studies.

antidepressants are not Less effective than placebos. When a drug is trialed, it is tested against a placebo. It would not pass clinical trials unless significantly more effective than a placebo (and usually also trialed against other drugs).
In a way, neurotransmitters being related to depression is 'just' theory, but not really. These theories are tested through studies.

The neurotransmitters being related to depression is actually just a theory that's why there's no test for depression and antidepressants are usually less effective than placebos :/

Please could you provide the academic papers you used to provide this information, I would like to follow it up. Thank you.

wow this was really interesting and helpful. Thank you so much! I hope that you have a lovely day and stay strong. You deserve to be happy so I hope you're in a good place right now.

+JohnTheFirst The part about destroying neurotransmitters was kinda scary but some quick research showed me that they're naturally depleted and repleted quite frequently and that they're made up largely of amino acids found mostly in certain proteins, ergo if you have a bad diet you may not produce sufficient levels of neurotransmitters such as serotonin.

Oh, my God! Thank you so much! This really helps :) also I appreciate the Science Guy bit :D

@doddlevloggle @Linda Loux  Thank you for taking the time and Im glad you found it useful! :) If you have any questions let me know!

I've just read this all the through but I think I may have to read it a few times more
thank you for explaining it as best you could. this is super crazy helpful!
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oh god it looks so long lol. It will only take a couple of minutes to read. I hope that at least someone does and they find it useful or helpful <3


Dodie, this is perfect. Thank you. I know I'm a year late, but i've only just discovered this video, and almost crying with how perfectly this is descried. sometimes it is extremely hard to express why it's so hard, and what is do hard about living with depression. Not enough people in this world truly understand it, and so often are extremely unhelpful in their comments. I have often been told to "snap out of it" or "it's all in your head" or "you dont have depression/anxiety because..." or most recently "Anxiety doesn't really exist" Um what? they honestly do not understand it at all! Thank you for being part of a healthy discussion in making people aware of what it is like. Thank you for caring.


It breaks my heart to think of Tom like that but his fans are so incredible, especially on twitter. It also makes me want to make sure nobody else I care about suffers in the future. That includes you Dodie, even though its hard to believe such a little ball of sunshine could, Ilysm <3


I'm on the younger side of your viewers (I'm almost 15) but I understand a lot of concepts that most people my age have not been able to yet. I absolutely love your videos, they give me such a better understanding on some topics that I'm not as familiar with. This does not go for depression, but I connected so well with what you said in your sexuality video. Thank you so much for that, you seem like an amazing person, I'm subscribing ;)


I'm came to YouTube this very minute to calm myself down from an anxiety outburst and everything you were saying to do with how hard it can be really hit home and made feel better. So even though you weren't talking to me, rather explaining, the fact that someone gets it really made my day. Thank you xx

Haha I did a very similar thing! I suppose Dodie has that warmth about her. :)

I hope things are ok for you right now; anxiety, as you know, comes and goes, but thankfully that means there are good times on the horizon.

Take care! :)


You are one of the sweetest people I know. It's lovely how caring and considerate you are for everyone around you :)

Good video, Dodie


Thank you for this.  It’s interesting, when I was younger people used to tell me you can’t understand depression unless you experience it, I always thought I still could if I thought and empathized hard enough.  But truly the point of depression is that you think differently than people who don’t have it.  I understand that now that I’ve actually experienced it.  It’s very difficult to explain but you did it well and I admire how protective you are of the people you love.  I’m the same way.  I don’t always stand up for myself but I always stand up for my friends.


I only just started watching your videos, doddie, but I think i'm falling in love with your brain. Yup.


I feel like how I'd explain depression is it's like when you feel nothing but this kind of flat and annoying void of sadness that you can't quite seem to get rid of, you feel hollow


When my depression was going through a really bad spot around November-February I lost a hell of a lot of weight, and some people got so much on my nerves saying things like 'urgh don't start getting all anorexic on us, eat some food for gods sake' or 'you should be thankful for food you're so ungreatful' and it's like, wow really? You really think it's okay to comment on what I'm eating like that? You really think it's okay to tell me that when you already know I have issues and you decide to just add to the problem?

Particularly frustrating when the lack of eating is usually a control element -- when you feel so powerless, you try to keep control of something 'small' like your food in-take. At least that's how it was/is for me. So, of course, people trying to butt in on that can only make it worse.

Thankfully it sounds like you're having a better time now though? It would be optimistic to imagine perfection, but it's been a while since February. I hope things are happier for you now. :>


thank you, Dodie, you talk about serious shit so well! I love how much you care. Depression needs to be better understood on the whole. <3<3<3

You could call them doddle's vloggles?


Thank you for making this, it's raising more awareness, I think depression needs to be talked about more openly, because when I first started feeling depressed, I didn't really know what was 'wrong' with me...


Well said Dodie! I've only been watching Tom for a few months and I could see a change in his videos. But I was never thinking "wow he's let himself go!" What I was thinking is how the heck he's still managing to do all that and release a game to keep others happy when it's himself who he needs to be taking care of. Many hats off to Tom! (This video was SO great and it shows what great friends Tom has!) :') xx


Good video, thank you for addressing some of the difficulties of depression. You're well-spoken on the topic, even without a script, and you've made some very good points that I hope everyone will take away when they watch this. :)


Thank you for making this video Dodie! Some people confuse depression with sadness. Depression is not only sadness actually. As a girl suffering from depression myself, I know how it feels like. You feel tired and you don't really feel anything most of the time. I also get sad and cry a lot about pretty much everything. I feel like I am bad at everything and it's my fault. Basically I am so pessimistic. I don't have a nice thought not even once. I always have bad thoughts in my head which cause me to be sad. If I get thousands of compliments I don't think anything of it and I don't really accept them but when someone says one bad word to me I overthink for hours.....<br>And I really reallyyy HATE when people say 'you have a really great life, you are so lucky. You should be happy.' or 'just stop being depressed'...I don't want to be depressed either but I can't change it sorry. What I hate the most is when people say 'You are not depressed, you laugh all the time.' I KNOW but I just try to be happy at school and I laugh at pretty much everything just to distract myself from those thoughts. They don't know how I feel at home..Thank you for this video once again!!! I love you <3

Thank you for making this video Dodie! Some people confuse depression with sadness. Depression is not only sadness actually. As a girl suffering from depression myself, I know how it feels like. You feel tired and you don't really feel anything most of the time. I also get sad and cry a lot about pretty much everything. I feel like I am bad at everything and it's my fault. Basically I am so pessimistic. I don't have a nice thought not even once. I always have bad thoughts in my head which cause me to be sad. If I get thousands of compliments I don't think anything of it and I don't really accept them but when someone says one bad word to me I overthink for hours.....
And I really reallyyy HATE when people say 'you have a really great life, you are so lucky. You should be happy.' or 'just stop being depressed'...I don't want to be depressed either but I can't change it sorry. What I hate the most is when people say 'You are not depressed, you laugh all the time.' I KNOW but I just try to be happy at school and I laugh at pretty much everything just to distract myself from those thoughts. They don't know how I feel at home..Thank you for this video once again!!! I love you <3


This video is amazing and I think that friends like you are the reason that a lot of people are still alive


Im glad that someone is finally saying this. As someone who struggles with depression I am constantly being told to just be happy and you're so right it just doesn't work that way. Thank you.


This video is amazing, I think I had a short period of really bad depression and this just made me feel so much better that I wasn't a quitter and that I couldn't help it because it wasn't me, it was my brain. I've grown to love you lots more this year, your videos are very meaningful and you're a genuinely nice person


I feel like i should tell my story somewhere just to get it off my chest. My depression started a few weeks after i started hanging around with a group of people who i would never normally talk to.They where not the 'cool guy' hard-type, but they where more the 'edgy' smoke weed, death metal type.for a couple of months my life felt empty. Every day felt like the same thing over and over again. I would wake up, get ready, go to school, tag along at the back of the group, go home, eat, do homework, and go to bed. I couldn't see the variety in life, even when it was there. I also couldn't see that i had many real friends who where concerned for me. I wasn't eating as much, i would arrive at school (and at home) late, and my sleep was cut due to the fact i had latched on to this new group and gave them undeserved attention, both online and in person. I started cutting, and to be honest, i can't say why looking back on it. I guess it let me finally feel something that wasn't just emptiness. Eventually, after months of hating myself for being a dick to my real friends and for dropping my marks in school drastically, i finally did what i should have done at the start of year 10. I left that group, and i got help. I believe that it was leaving the negative influences of the group that really helped me recover, although getting help was brilliant, and i thank my friends now for telling teachers about this. What i'm saying is, if you are in a similar situation to what i was, please go and tell somebody. Not just that, but if you feel like you are in one of these groups,  try giving it a break for a few weeks. It could make the difference between losing opportunities in life and living life to the fullest. Now i am in year 11, doing my GCSEs and aiming for A-A*s. Thanks for reading!


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Love ya Dodie!!!


Considering you said you couldn't explain it properly I can honestly say I couldn't have said it better my self. When I had depression one of my best friends kept telling me to go back to how I used to be and I think it made me feel worse because I didn't know how to go back, I'm glad you made this video because someone needed to say it's not easy to "go back". I just feel really sorry for tom and hope he feels better soon x

Aw my lovely <3 I understand completely. It's like trying to get toast back to bread
lol what a rubbish comparison

But I guess we should be thankful your friend doesn't understand :)
<3


Thanks for making this Dodie, a lot of people who have depression get really fed up with hearing "cheer up" and "look on the bright side" it's nice to know that someone gets it.


Depression sucks. I've been dealin with it for almost a year now and it's kind of the worst. It makes you feel hollow, like a shell of who you used to or want to be. It's awful

Seeking for help is never a bad thing to do. You don't have to be depressed to feel like crap.

Skylar Lange I don't think I have it, but I don't know


Dodie, thankyou for making this <3 This has really helped me understand even more about this. This was such a honest video and yeah, just thankyou. You are awesome :)


Ed sheeran has been my favorite artist for 4 years, he has literally changed my life


This was so sweet omg and I now have an actual understanding of depression so I can help my sister through it maybe and just wow.

I actually look up to you Dodie <3


gunnarolla did a thing where he failed veda as well but made it last like the whole year while still calling it veda (idk if you watch him but if u check out his channel u will see that). it was pretty interesting and actually quite funny that he stretched it out so long but u could do something like that? also i totally feel you about the whole depression thing. it's so hard for people to understand what you're going through when you have depression and they don't understand why it's so hard for you to like? feel things? and be motivated by things? this was a long comment but i really enjoyed this video dodie keep doin u

I don't watch him but I'm super upset someone has done this before me sob<br>and thank you! good luck ♥

I don't watch him but I'm super upset someone has done this before me sob
and thank you! good luck ♥


AMEN TO THE DEPRESSION PART OF THIS. Thank you, Dodie.


you explained depression SO well! I have chronic depression and I've never been able to explain depression the way you just did and i agree with you 100% js.


Don't know how I've just seen this!! As someone with depression I completely agree with everything to say, thank you so much


I'm so happy I found this video, it's such an important topic to talk about and educate people on how to react to people with depression and the fact that comments can hurt anyone. Thank you Dodie, you did a freaking awesome job :) x


This is so lovely and I'm sure Tom will appreciate it ! This also means a lot to me as I don't know if I have depression but I'm kinda stuck in negative thoughts at the moment and its lovely to hear you explain it to everyone so they understand that it's horrible and kinda uncomfortable. Thank you! 😄


i've just been re watching all of your videos! They're so much fun to watch, even when they're about the not so good things in life, and they make me so happy when I watch them, you're a very inspiring person! When ever i'm in a rut, i'll just watch a lot of your videos whether it be on your main channel or this one, it's just fun and enjoyable for me! So thank you for that Dodie ^-^


You are such a great friend Dodie! I'm sure Tom appreciates it. Love your vedas ! <3


I've honestly spent all day watching old Dodie videos and I don't regret a thing!


I'm so so so happy that someone finally got this said! It's really important to take mental illness seriously 💕


Thank you so much for making this. Really. This was great to watch. Hopefully more people will start treating depression as a serious illness. (Also, your lights are really pretty!)


Whenever I feel extremely empty I just watch your covers and some Evan's vids too. xx


I love you, you are so down to earth! And you make me feel like I'm a part of your friends. ❤


Literally this describes depression so much and it feels amazing that someone actually understands the pain and how you can't just get over it, I actually love this video


I feel as though I often say one of your videos is my new favorite, but THIS is my new favorite. Thank you for talking about this and trying to turn people's minds around about how they see Depression. I appreciate it as a sufferer and just as a viewer. Thank you.

I don't feel like you would've failed VEDA if not for camera & other problems! So, I'd adore it if you did keep on. How about Vloggle Every Doddle, Alright?


Gosh this made me teary. Tom is an amazing person. Thank you for explaining what depression is to people who don't understand it. YOU are also an amazing person. And I'm so jealous you met Ed Sheeran. I saw him in concert once and cried. But anyway, ily. (:


I agree depression is an illness. I have and am fighting this illness. Thank you for being you Dodie and keep making these cool videos. I really enjoy them. Including your singing! I am actually thinking about trying to play uke soon. Hope both of our adventures go fabulously. :)


I've been watching your videos on this channel like, nearly all night at this point, and kind of just sitting in my room and crying a bit haha. Honestly, every emotional video you've made has hit me in a way where I just go "Wow. This is EXACTLY how I feel currently." My feelings/mental health have hit an all time low this past year, and just watching these videos and seeing that even my favorite people, people who inspire me and I look up to, feel this way, really helps me through it. So... Thank you so much for being so honest and posting these videos.


That was a very thoughtful, yet lovely video, and I'm glad you shared your thoughts about this with us.
Luckily I never experienced depression but I can relate to the lack of feeling excitement where there should be some - some times, not all the time, like when you can't feel excited for Christmas for some reason.
I really hope people will see your video and realize their mistake, because there are so many people suffering from depression and these ignorant comments do certainly not make it better.
Hopefully Tom will get better soon, I really wish him feeling joy and excitement again, he's an amazing person.

Video Expressing Daily Awesomeness.
Voldemort Eats Dodie's Armchair. [Don't ask.]


This was so wonderful of you to make :) I'm sure Tom appreciates the support :)


I'm so glad that there's people like you in the world who stick up for their friends and feel so strongly about helping others. Love you Dodie!!


Depression is something very close to my heart and I just wanted to say I really appreciate that you took the time to make this video, thank you :) x


Tom must be so thankful to have a friend like you. I hope he's able to get out of all this depression. He deserves to be happy. Also I'm so jelly of you meeting Ed Sheeran oh my gosh lol btw I love your vids Dodie! :D


you're such a lovely person and you handled this in such a great way


Thank you so much for talking about depression on this public platform - we all need to be talking more about mental health to try to decrease stigma! What I would say is that, in my opinion, how you described depression was quite a narrow definition and that needs to be pointed out. Depression is experienced very differently by different people and these narrow ideas about what depression was, meant that it took me many years to realise that I was suffering from depression and seek the appropriate help. I have a lot of up (I don't mean manic episodes) and downs from day-to-day and the numbness you describe isn't something I personally often feel. I would urge everyone to do their research on the topic (including outside of youtube...)


I just watched this video again and it is a very good video on understanding depression, especially as it was unscripted! I know that Tom will appreciate this video so much to hear that his friends truly do care about him :)) I also wanted to say that I'm always here to try and understand if you ever ever feel like this, love you lots <3333


I have depression at the moment and it forced me to drop out if school. It is horrible and is made 1000 times worse when people make it sound like your doing it to yourself... "Just stop feeling so sorry for yourself and cheer up". I don't blame them because they don't understand but it really does hurt... :/

Understanding of mental illness, particularly among young people, is really awful. It's great that Dodie made a point of saying that it's mostly divorced from whatever's happening around you -- people tend to say things like "well you have X? you don't have anything to be sad about!" But that's the most frustrating thing: the sadness that seemingly has no source.

I hope things are getting better for you, and that you have the support you need. I'm sure you know this already, but talking to someone -- anyone -- can often really help. Thankfully the internet can actually be quite good for that. Take care. :)


Really well said, as someone who has briefly felt depressed this video was really comforting to watch, thank you:)


I've struggled with depression a bunch of times in my life, especially when I was younger, and the way its ended each time is that one day I sat down and said, "Hanna, snap out of it." And it stopped. I know, however, that's not how it works and I think I was able to say that to myself because I was already in a better state of mind, where I remembered what happiness was like and wanted to be happy again. I don't know what helped me get to a better place, but just thought I'd share because it's kind of interesting :)


You're such a lovely friend!
Tom is incredible and I know it must be so so hard for him at the moment, but I hope this video makes him feel a little happier (ik that's not quite how it works with depression but I can't think of the words oops) because it put a smile on my face. :)
Let's make a Defenders of TomSka army.


Video every day... apparently? :)<br>Great video Dodie, it's amazing to hear how caring you are all the time. Big hugs, xxx

Video every day... apparently? :)
Great video Dodie, it's amazing to hear how caring you are all the time. Big hugs, xxx


loved this video, seriously. you're great Dodie!


Vlogs: Extremely Dodie, Always

I'm so thankful that you've made a video like this, talking really strongly about the issue. Unfortunately Tom's brain probably isn't letting him realise what an amazing person and role model he's being right now, but at least we can reap the benefits. And he'll get through it -- he seems to have a lot of good buffers in terms of medical and social help, and these are things that people are eventually able to manage, though the road may be long and winding. We can only hope Tom's situation improves as quickly as possible. <3

[And, also, I remember you talking about a similar difficult patch that happened to you in the recent past. I know you were reticent to label it, given the gravity of terms like depression, but I do hope you're feeling better these days. :> x]


I can just sit and listen to you all day. Currently stressing over final grades and homework and you're voice honestly calms me. You're great. Keep up your positive vibes, love.


Depression (for me) is like being in a room where everything is just dark gray and you cant get out of the room. You have no motivation and can hardly get moving. Seeing people like Dodie who actually talk about mental illnesses and sharing their experience can bring some motivation and color back into life. You can see that you are not alone. To anyone struggling with a mental illness, you are not alone. Thank you Dodie for creating a safe, loving space and sharing your experiences with us.

Charlotte, How are you now? In life there are only 2 problems—mind and the body. To feel better reduce negative thoughts and overthinking.  Your breathing is closely related to the brain [mind] and gives good relief from stress-anxiety.   To relax sit on a chair or lie down, neck straight,  eyes closed  and observe the sensations of your incoming-<del>outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils  for  5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. With daily practice the mind will relax.  No deep breathing needed. Observe your breath sensations when you experience multiple thoughts anywhere-anytime-</del> before sleep, in college, before sleep, in the kitchen, when reading, etc. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a better life. Reduce negative social media, take morning sunlight walks  and avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes--Counsellor.

Charlotte, How are you now? In life there are only 2 problems—mind and the body. To feel better reduce negative thoughts and overthinking.  Your breathing is closely related to the brain [mind] and gives good relief from stress-anxiety.   To relax sit on a chair or lie down, neck straight,  eyes closed  and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils  for  5-10-15 minutes or more. Don’t fight your thoughts. With daily practice the mind will relax.  No deep breathing needed. Observe your breath sensations when you experience multiple thoughts anywhere-anytime-- before sleep, in college, before sleep, in the kitchen, when reading, etc. Like me, make this a lifetime daily habit to have a better life. Reduce negative social media, take morning sunlight walks  and avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Best wishes--Counsellor.


Well said Dodie! I've only been watching Tom for a few months and I could see a change in his videos. But I was never thinking "wow he's let himself go!" What I was thinking is how the heck he's still managing to do all that and release a game to keep others happy when it's himself who he needs to be taking care of. Many hats off to Tom! (This video was SO great and it shows what great friends Tom has!) :') xx


i really like these style videos :) It feels much more like a conversation, thanks!


This is so truthful and honest, great vid Dodie :)


Amazing video Dodie, all your VEDAs have been perfect and just really congrats for saying that cause no one else would do people don't understand depression and that's acceptable but don't say anything cause you're probably wrong. Cause if you've broke a leg or somet and someone says 'just do sport it's fine' no it's not you can't do that so if they don't understand it they shouldn't say it. Sorry that's a shit explanation


i like how you talked about depression not being somethin someone "gets over" cause thats so true. ive hadseverve depression for 1 1/2 years and was convinced to get help for it in november and they said i would be "cured" by christmas. well its christmas in two days so fail... i think more people need to realise that it is actually a disease like you mention.<br>thanks for making this <3

i like how you talked about depression not being somethin someone "gets over" cause thats so true. ive hadseverve depression for 1 1/2 years and was convinced to get help for it in november and they said i would be "cured" by christmas. well its christmas in two days so fail... i think more people need to realise that it is actually a disease like you mention.
thanks for making this <3


Wow I have so much respect for you. I think you described depression pretty well. Keep doing what you do! Have a good day :)


You're such a great friend. Your friends are so lucky to have you as their friends. I'm so jealous. <br>LOVE YOU! @doddlevloggle @doddleoddle

You're such a great friend. Your friends are so lucky to have you as their friends. I'm so jealous.
LOVE YOU! @doddlevloggle @doddleoddle


VEDA - video every day almost? Also I love this video, you say things really well Dodie <3


You are so incredibly intelligent Dodie and I love watching you talk about something you feel really passionate about, that's a little weird to say but hey I just wanted to tell ya :)


I found your channel by accident and I've been loving your videos!! You're really inspiring and amazing and Ann ! ( your hair is like mine and it makes me feel happy for some reason ).


I love videos like this, because it shows how strong the YouTube community can be as I know a lot of people want to support tom like you, and all his subscribers but it also shows how sometimes people think they are save behind a screen and they think comments they make have no impact on the youtubers, when they actually really do. Love you dodie x


Really hit the nail on the head here. You're becoming my favorite non-gaming youtuber.  Great video.


Videos Every Day (Almost)? Dodie, I'm glad it's you who explained everything I wasn't able to about depression because it's so flipping accurate!x


Nice video Dodie. I have a lot to thank Tom for, his videos perk me up when I have bad days and I think his ideas are really good and funny! Also he was how I found you! I was watching one of his videos and one of yours was a related video and I clicked on it because I was intrigued. I am a singer-songwriter and I play the ukulele too so it was nice to find someone else who does what I do! You should do VEODA. Vlog Every Other Day in August! That way it doesn't have to be every day! 😊 I literally just made that up so... 🍄💚


PREACHHHHHHH! im trying my little butt of to recover and beat depression and its the hardest thing i have ever done and people are like ugh you must be fine now your 100 days clean!! like bro. NO. just because im not harming myself doesnt mean im miraculously cured!


You always say things so well Dodie. Like, I can't explain what it is, but you're really good at it! <3


Good for you for speaking your mind like this! :) If I was tom I would be/feel  extremely fortunate to have you as a friend.


Really well said Dodie. You're great. I'm currently struggling with depression alongside other mental health issues and its great to hear people talking so intelligently about this disease.


I tried to make daily videos for a month last year and I failed miserably D:<br>You're actually one of the loveliest people I've ever met, and I think it's really cool that you've drawn attention to this, because I think a lot of people just don't understand the consequences of their comments or what those comments actually mean.

I tried to make daily videos for a month last year and I failed miserably D:
You're actually one of the loveliest people I've ever met, and I think it's really cool that you've drawn attention to this, because I think a lot of people just don't understand the consequences of their comments or what those comments actually mean.


this was very sweet! it's so crazy the way people talk in the comments sometimes like they forget that it's a real person's channel and videos they're on and not just some image in a screen and some people say such horrible things. and i think you described depression very well, this was just very sweet and nice to see you sticking up for your friend, i'm sure tom appreciated it!


This was a beautiful video Dodie! You explained it in laments terms which I think is important because we could always use big scientific words to explain but that doesn't mean we understand it anymore! Beautiful job!


Love your way of explaining serious things :)


I discovered your youtube channel just now, and i love you! Youre great. And I love your songs too. #newfan


It's so true, you really don't know unless you've been through it, even doctors. I was told, by a doctor, to 'go out more and get laid' to get over my depression.. yeah.

Dodie, you are fab, I'm so appreciative that Carrie mentioned you one day and I stumbled along and found a new YouTuber. I would really love to get into this and I also play ukulele (it's red and called a ukukayleigh). How does it happen?

Cheers. And warm hugs to all you out there relating to this video!! Talking helps.


I don't know what to say, other you are a beautiful human being. It's so good to know that people like you are out there when it feels like the whole world's full of the kind of people who just don't care. As someone who has been through a lot in the past year, people like you were what kept me going. Tom is a strong person, and his friends will only help that. Thank you for being such a star ★ and as mum always says, you have a size 6 soul :) xx


So I'm a little youtuber and I dedicate my channel mostly to mental health and just want to say thank you for making this video. It's so good to see youtubers with huge followings bringing this subject up! Keep being awesome. :)


Thank you, it's so important that people recognise this as an illness and not someone being weak or lazy or as something that they can snap out of if they would just try harder. I really hope you're right and people will come to learn the error in what they have said because we need progression in how people view this issue rather than the regression you were talking about in this video.


I think you did a great job of explaining what depression is like. I think you explained it well for those people that haven't had it or really don't understand. I wish I was able to explain it like that to my friends who felt me having depression was too much for them. Thank you so much for making this video and you seem like a great person to help out your friend


It's so nice of you to speak out for Tom Dodie! You are honestly one of the most genuinely loveliest people on YouTube, and I think that not just through your videos but through other YouTubers saying that too. Considering how you didn't know how to put it, you described depression perfectly. I've never watched Tom but I'm now going to go send him some love <3


You miss, are Fabulous ^-^ I really enjoy the way you present yourself and the way you act on camera is just, vastly entertaining :3 Just keep doing what your doing, also, from someone also suffering depression, you describe it incredibly well, so good on you :) This is the second video i have seen and you, have earned yourself a Surblurblur ^__________^


Well since I know you will read this comment I will just say how much I enjoy watching your videos on this channel and I hope you continue to do so! Also I am loving the new camera, the picture is very crisp and clean :D


Vlog every day always? I don't know, lol! But I love the video it's great that knowledge on depression is being spread, much love xxx 💕😘


Idek this video put me in a great mood even though I have school tomorrow I guess its just your personality is just really lovely ^.^ and thank you for the depression part, i really feel people need to talk about it more x


Your support for people with depression is so inspiring. I know you probably don't think its a big deal and its what people are supposed to be doing. But when we live in a world that's somewhat ignorant on mental illness, every bit of community support whether it be big or small, means the world. I returned to my drama group today, after 3 months not attending. I explained to everyone that my depression was particularly bad so I wouldn't be attending for sometime. It continued to get worse than I ever expected, luckily I broke out of the worst part. Today I walked in late and there was applause and happy cheering from the group just due to my return. I did not expect this and felt so touched, I refuse to take this community spirit and understanding for granted. Because I know its something that I cant get everywhere. Thank you for making such a wonderful video :)


This was beautiful. Dodie, thank you. Recently more people in the YouTube community have been discussing depression and the fact that it isn't a choice and it's truly great. Everything you said was spot on and wonderful. The fact that people are still misunderstanding that depression is an illness is sad. So sad. I've been diagnosed with depression for the last year and have been battling it for many before that. Only this year have I started to feel better, but nevertheless, it's a constant struggle. I'm beyond glad that there are people in this world like you and Tom and many more who can be advocates for the truth and this really meant so much to me. Thank you so very much! Not only for understanding but for standing up for your friend and raising awareness for something that hits home as much as this. Thank you :)

@Chloe Judd Never been put on medication. What have/are you taking, if you don't mind me asking?

For me I dont find the medication I'm on helps much if at all, it sucks

Matt, haven't seen you around since you were on the MPD Nation about 3 years ago or so :/ What a coincidence. How's 'ThyProwler' going?

It's awesome to hear that medication is making an improvement for you guys :) Also regarding therapy, scientific studies have shown that therapy has about the same success rate in helping with depression as medication does and the two combined have the highest success rate! So give it a shot, it could really help!

Therapy isn't much fun but it's like eating your vegetables I guess?

And thank you! It's my pleasure.

@JamesBookFilm Thank you so much! I'm glad to hear that medication's been helping you! I've been on medication as well as going to therapy which (while it's not my cup of tea) has really made an improvement. Thank you so much! I hope you're doing well too!

Glad to hear that things have been picking up recently! I found that medication was actually a great help; I don't know if it has been the same for you?

Regardless, any improvement is great. Take care!


I'm going to check out his video right after I finish watching yours. Good on you for expressing how you feel on the topic. Depression isn't a light topic for anyone to discuss and its important to remember that no, change doesn't happen overnight. Things (your mind set, personality, motivation, negative associations with depression) will not just change with time, its a healing process. When I see comments by who you said were most likely young viewers, your right they are probably young and don't know any better but I know that If when I was 15 and on Youtube I wouldn't even bother commenting on something I know nothing about. I am sounding a bit bitter and harsh but its a touchy subject and I'd just like to say good on you for expressing your feels on it. I just came across your side channel as well! I must say I love how down to earth you are and your group of friends I see in your videos!

Side note........woah, you met Ed Sheeran. I saw him in concert this time last month and its was the best night of my life (I even filmed my first Vlog for it :)) I would have completely fan girled when I got home!


I met Tom in SITC, and I watch his videos. I also watched the mental health panel, which he was on in SITC with Beckie0! He was just amazing at getting across what he felt. Even though it was in a mixture of puns and slightly offensive jokes he still managed and it helped me personally. I don't understand people who don't get it that you just can't sed hate to someone no matter what. Even if you don't think they'll see it. Because it'll eventually get to them, and it'll effect them. So please send positivity not hate.


yay i love making up acronym things

video 'er doing anything
vlog everything! ...dont ask
very exciting diarys actually
virtual evenings (with) doodleoddle! Asparagus
vague entertainment, deepthoughts and

ill stop before i go on for hours

I think it's really sweet that you made this video and i think its really good because I still feel like people dont talk about mental illness enough, especially in such an honest and open way. & although the sience might not have been perfect I think you explained the feelings of apathy & depression and such really well.

(also i am sooo jealous that you met Ed. He genuinely seems like the coolest person ever!)

yay i love making up acronym things

video 'er doing anything
vlog everything! ...dont ask
very exciting diarys actually
virtual evenings (with) doodleoddle! Asparagus
vague entertainment, deepthoughts and

*ill stop before i go on for hours*

I think it's really sweet that you made this video and i think its really good because I still feel like people dont talk about mental illness enough, especially in such an honest and open way. & although the sience might not have been perfect I think you explained the feelings of apathy & depression and such really well.

(also i am sooo jealous that you met Ed. He genuinely seems like the coolest person ever!)


Well, the way you pronounce VEDA sounds exactly like the word "vida" which in Spanish means "life", so, you know, vlogs being a fragment of your daily life, you can easily say naming them VIDA would be fitting. (also no one else has done this, so, you know, uniqueness)<br>Tom has been an inspiration to me for over seven years. Thank you for trying to explain his situation to your audience.

Well, the way you pronounce VEDA sounds exactly like the word "vida" which in Spanish means "life", so, you know, vlogs being a fragment of your daily life, you can easily say naming them VIDA would be fitting. (also no one else has done this, so, you know, uniqueness)
Tom has been an inspiration to me for over seven years. Thank you for trying to explain his situation to your audience.


Great video! You're SO sympathetic! And I love love love your eyes <b>-</b>

Great video! You're SO sympathetic! And I love love love your eyes *-*


VEDA: VideoEverynowandthenDunnaActually<br>And with regards to the depression thing, you've done an amazing job of conveying what it is and how people should and shouldn't react to it, and you're doing the right thing by Tom by showing him you are there standing up for him :)

VEDA: VideoEverynowandthenDunnaActually
And with regards to the depression thing, you've done an amazing job of conveying what it is and how people should and shouldn't react to it, and you're doing the right thing by Tom by showing him you are there standing up for him :)


I've been watching you for a while now Dodie and I just love you


Tom is like a legend at my college because that's where he used to study back in the day. You worded this video perfectly, love your second channel videos so much!


Your seriously my favorite. Always a great video from you!(: thanks 👉👉 for the Sheeran surprise


ARGH thank you so much for posting this idk how I didn't see it before.
and I also have been in and out of depression over the last few years but at first I was too young to quite understand what it was.
you explained it perfectly and people
Should never say anything like that to people who really are struggling with depression.
(( okay I'm really bad at explaining what I feel but you get the gist ))


This is such a lovely thing to say about a friend awwww you're so cute dodie


People do need to stop saying "snap out of it" when it comes to depression...

If you're in that place right now, please hold on tight and try to remember that it does get better. Once it's better again, try and get professional help. Fix the roof when the sun is shining (or at least when it's not pissing it down). And always remember that you're not alone.


I saw this thing on Tumblr and I'm going to tell you about it.<br>It started out saying how everyone I starts out with white paint (meaning happy things and being carefree and all that jazz) and then you get a bit of black paint (meaning negativity or depression)  and sometimes it's just a little and you're still very much a very very very light grey, almost white. And then one day your white paint turns black. And no matter how much white paint you put in you'll always be grey. There's no way to have purely white paint after black paint has been mixed in. That's kind of how depression is. One day you'll feel better and think you're "over it" but you're not. It's still there, and might always be there. One day it might come back in a huge wave. and that's kinda what it's like to have depression. (Or at least for me.) Its hard to understand if you haven't experienced it I guess. I hoped that helped someone out.

I saw this thing on Tumblr and I'm going to tell you about it.
It started out saying how everyone I starts out with white paint (meaning happy things and being carefree and all that jazz) and then you get a bit of black paint (meaning negativity or depression)  and sometimes it's just a little and you're still very much a very very very light grey, almost white. And then one day your white paint turns black. And no matter how much white paint you put in you'll always be grey. There's no way to have purely white paint after black paint has been mixed in. That's kind of how depression is. One day you'll feel better and think you're "over it" but you're not. It's still there, and might always be there. One day it might come back in a huge wave. and that's kinda what it's like to have depression. (Or at least for me.) Its hard to understand if you haven't experienced it I guess. I hoped that helped someone out.


I have depression at times and you sort of summed it up- (mine at least.) Throughout this whole video, I was like, "YAS Dodie! Preach please!" My friends have told me in the past to snap out of it and get out there, go out and have a good time. But yeah… when I'm depressed at least, I just feel no happiness or excitement.


I never imagined hearing you talk about synapses.... I really liked this video. Spread love, people


Her definition of depression made me feel like I have depression because I've felt like that for the past (almost) two years..... I've also been considered the chance that I have anxiety recently because I'm always anxious (which isn't usually the case for me at all). But idk for sure, and I don't want to be the person who self-diagnoses themselves and makes a big deal out of it.


I remember when I first watched this and thought "oh I guess I'm just one of those people who just dont get it" and now rewatching this years later I'm like "oh shit, I get it"


Is it bad that this video made me happy to not have experienced depression yet, yes I'm only young but my best friend went through a time where she felt depressed and I'm so glad to have her back to her 'normal' self:) Love you Dodie x

Not bad at all oh my goodness! Feel happy and wonderful and skip around and yayayayay <3


I have depression and it's a bitch(excuse my language!) but it is! And it's soso frustrating when people think it's like a cold which will past! I get angry all the time, that's why I wanna educate people on mental health hah,love your videos per usual Dodie X


I think you described depression quite well. I've had people in my life who just don't understand why I'm depressed nor why I can't just snap out of it. It really hurts when someone you care about thinks you have nothing to be depressed about and who belittles you for it. <br>I guess what I'm trying to say is...thank you😊.

I think you described depression quite well. I've had people in my life who just don't understand why I'm depressed nor why I can't just snap out of it. It really hurts when someone you care about thinks you have nothing to be depressed about and who belittles you for it.
I guess what I'm trying to say is...thank you😊.


Beautifully explained dodie. I think people often forget the people they look up to or enjoy watching/listening to are just like them, they can suffer and get hurt, they are human too.


I really really really really really really love you Dodie ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ sorry this is random and you dont know me but I have watched all of your videos a million trillion times and you are basically one of my best friends. Thank you for being the amazing kind awesome lovely pretty smart messy crazy person you are. You really do make me really make me happy. I hope you find happiness too.


This made me cry.. like.. I don't mind, your awesome, I glad I watched it.. I know I have depression, but I have never noticed how much of an impact on my life  it has on me.. and what you where saying I now notice it really does..


This is so sweet that you're defending your friend and calling people out for their ignorance online. People with mental illnesses need more friends like you, and I'm sure it would mean a lot to him that you've done this. Keep it up xx


You're truly such an inspiration to me, not only musically, but like, as a person in general. What a lovely person you are. Thank you for making this video and all your videos :) xx


you should do vlogging erratic days anyways...i dont know you may as well call it vlog every dodie adventure

also this video is so sweet! i have depression and its nice to know that some people are willing to stand up to ignorant people and try to make them comprehend how hard it is to just "smile and enjoy life"


Really sweet video Doddleoddle! I don't think you overreacted at all about depression because I too feel some people need to just support them not criticize the person for being diagnosed with depression.<br>ALSO I have an idea for what veda could stand for- Vlogging Every Day Adventures/Awesomeness (I couldn't decide on which one for A). I Hope this comment comes in handy!!!

Really sweet video Doddleoddle! I don't think you overreacted at all about depression because I too feel some people need to just support them not criticize the person for being diagnosed with depression.
ALSO I have an idea for what veda could stand for- Vlogging Every Day Adventures/Awesomeness (I couldn't decide on which one for A). I Hope this comment comes in handy!!!


thank you so much.. I really appreciate that someone took the time to explain this. (Tomska is one of my favorites btw)<br>so.. yes, have an amazing day. Thank you.

thank you so much.. I really appreciate that someone took the time to explain this. (Tomska is one of my favorites btw)
so.. yes, have an amazing day. Thank you.


this video was like a BOOM of honesty which made me really warm inside?? idk.. but yes it makes me happy that you are very supportive to your friends and especially Tom because he is going through this :( Much love xx <3


I love you so much! Just yes... Keep being a good human because you're good at it! I really wish I could meet you and maybe even sing with you, but I'm fourteen and I live in America. My parents are talking about taking a trip to England next summer and maybe I would get the chance to meet you. I don't know, I just really love how you can be open and honest about these things and you don't just say fake things in order to stay positive. And even if sometimes yo might not think so, you're amazing and beautiful and I wish I could be just like you.


Great video, you explained it really well


You're such a great friend. Your friends are so lucky to have you as their friends. I'm so jealous. <br>LOVE YOU! @doddlevloggle @doddleoddle

You're such a great friend. Your friends are so lucky to have you as their friends. I'm so jealous.
LOVE YOU! @doddlevloggle @doddleoddle


hey you, you're kinda awesome. and you really brighten up my days. so thanks.

whenever i feel sad or alone or angry i just go to youtube and watch videos. it's funny when you think about it. watching a stranger talking about things makes me forget my downs. you people make me happy. it's strange. i don't know you. and i probably never will.

oh well, everything is possible.

just, um, thank you again. for being there for me. you're kinda awesome.


We need more rambling its what we love and need, it makes me happy :))


Your VEDA wasn't a fail at all, some vlogs were perfect. In the opening you described depression so well.  Btw. I think you don't read this comments anymore lol and that's fine lol


OH MY GOD YOU MET ED LUCKYYYYYYY <3<br>Also, sometimes I just don't understand YouTube comments, because they can be so unnecessarily hateful. You're completely right about depression, and I'm sure Tom appreciates the video [veda].

OH MY GOD YOU MET ED LUCKYYYYYYY <3
Also, sometimes I just don't understand YouTube comments, because they can be so unnecessarily hateful. You're completely right about depression, and I'm sure Tom appreciates the video [veda].


I really love your videos stay awesome xx


I have an idea: VEDA= video every day (almost) idkkkk


It's refreshing to see someone as angry as me at the comments on his video. I love TomSka so much. This was brilliant Dodie. Thank you.


Veda wasn't a fail, i enjoyed every singel one (and i am happy for every video). Thank you lovely Dodie.


I love this video so much. You're so kind and thoughtful and I love you a lot.

I'm definitely protective of the youtubers I watch just like I am of my friends because I really fee like youtubers ARE my friends. It makes me so upset that people would say stuff like that. I mean, I know maybe a lot of them don't understand, but I think every comment you post should be a positive one. I know i've never had depression, but I've had friends who've been through it and It's 100% not fun 0/10 crap time no thanks.

I also really really loved your VEDA this year (I loved last year's too). I like the idea of all-the-time-veda a whole lot. You could call it: (and I thought long and hard about this!)
Videos
Everyonceinawhile
Dabbling
Arbitrarily!


Very Excellent Dodie Announces. Or something, bearing in mind you don't always announce. Er... <br>You explain depression very well, btw. I would add that it's often triggered by a bad experience, such as prolonged bullying (the younger me) or fighting in a war (my dad). Anyway, getting stuck in a groove of negative thoughts pretty much sums it up, and it never completely leaves you. Good on you for being so supportive. That takes patience and understanding.

Very Excellent Dodie Announces. Or something, bearing in mind you don't always announce. Er...
You explain depression very well, btw. I would add that it's often triggered by a bad experience, such as prolonged bullying (the younger me) or fighting in a war (my dad). Anyway, getting stuck in a groove of negative thoughts pretty much sums it up, and it never completely leaves you. Good on you for being so supportive. That takes patience and understanding.


Your so right well done PREACH! Btw you look stunning here :* x


This was way to spot on.
I am pretty sure you have experienced depression or something very similar.
You might have talked about this in another video of yours idk i'm pretty new to your channels (they both are freaking awesome bytheway :3)
What I think I am trying to say is, good luck?? I, I dunno, simply hope you are doing okay (yes I know this video is about a year old, nonetheless) and idk, hope you are healthy and feel good. Same goes for Thomas Tomska Ridgewell, he should really call himself 'The Ridge' or maybe really not, I am not sure yet. I wonder how he's doing. hope great :3

Goodnight and such and lots of love and such and please keep making awesome videos, it makes hard days go by a little bit faster (and easy days as well, it's a curse and a blessing)

Bye!


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I've suffered with depression. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I felt terrible for Tom when I saw his vlog, but I'm glad of the friends he does have to support him.


Wonderfully said Dodie, I think that while mental illness is slowly becoming more understood and people are starting to realize that depression and anxiety are more chemical and embedded in us than emotions that can be cured with a cup of tea and a good book, most people who don't have it find it hard to wrap their brain around. Mental diseases come with so much humiliation and horrors and it's nice to hear someone defend those who struggle with it. Bless ya Dodie, looking a forward to more VEDAs!! (Very Excellent Dodie Attractions??)


I'd describe it as numbness. That's how I'd describe it. Different for everyone. How you described it is probably how a lot of other people experience it.

Thankfully happy again now. Still get panic attacks, but feeling emotions, which I nice :)


Dodie, thank you for making this video. While i haven't ever experienced depression, there have been so many people in my life who have gone through it. As i have learned more about it, i have gotten the same way you have,incredibly defensive of them whether or not they are there and i just wanted to thank you for showing people the importance of supporting others as they go through this illness.


This was really nice to watch.
Tom is just an awesome person no matter what he does and it is sad that he's going through such a massive illness and people dont seem to be understanding that he cannot control that he feels this way.
I have complete respect for Tom for being able to make every one else smile and laugh even if he might not be able to and I completely respect you, Dodie, for making a video explaining that. I feel like everyone should have a friend like you.


I get what Tom is going through I was depressed for 2 years. It isn't something you just snap out of and its great that you are trying to enlighten people about and give Tom all love of the doddlers, is that what we're called what ever if not we should be,anyway  thanks you 're the best.


I suffer from depression. There should be more friends like you who try/choose to understand it rather than just run away. Thank you Dodie.


Thanks for telling people about depression, now I know what my friend is going through


I'm very proud that TomSka is able to have the motivation to be able to get on a camera and inform people on his condition, i don't understand how people have the motivation to film


Quality video, I'd happily listen to your micro rants as a new everyday Veda thing :)


The amount of personality you have is crazy, I wonder if I'll even meet someone like you.


few years back when i've finally mustered the courage to open up to someone (it was a friend) about my depression she just replied with a "you need to stop with this depression shit". after that i find it really hard to open up to people and i never talk abt my depression again


We feel the same way about friends, I get really protective about my friends. It just angers, me as the people that say things like that don't know what going on in the other person's brain. The one thing that angers me most is when someone insults or says something even remotely offensive to a persons sexuality. I totally agree with you xx <3


I HAVE BEEN LIVING WITH DEPRESSION AS LONG AS I REMEMBER I THANK YOU FOR YOUR VIDEOS MY FACE  PAINT LITTLE MOSQUITO AND THIS ONE I DON'T HAVE ANY ONE THAT UNDER STANDS THANK YOU


Dodie ur completely right , depression is not an "easy" thing , and i think more people should do the same sharing their thoughts like u do , love ur veda's <3


doddleoddle, I am someone who really never comments nor really talks much in my real life. It annoys me so much when I see comments like what you are describing because depression is something that people are constantly battling and is impossible to really get out. So, I thank you for this lovely video and having people understand at least a glimpse of depression.... Because jeevus knows I really do not understand my own


Theres no easy way to describe depression even when you been through it the easiest way to put it is that it sucks you feel alone even when your surrounded by do much .....ive been there its on and off really but great video and beautiful eyes


I heard this thing once: "Depression is not the opposite of happiness; it's the opposite of vitality"


Hey!
Hello. so i haven't been watching your videos long, but for some reason this one got to me more than the rest.
(not the your other videos didn't, they're great as well :)
but this one kind of just made me happy i guess. made me feel better about my situation? yes, that's it.
and i just wanted to tell you, and......and yes, that's it :) just thanks i guess. don't know what for, most likely
for being freaking awesome, but i know that i'm thankful ^_^


dodie you are the best. thank you, thank you, thank you.


This video made me feel so much better. And you are so right. To expand on your point I have been suffering from depression for over a year now, and even though I have gotten a lot better (some 'betterness' coming forming working my ass off, and some of it just coming naturally) I am still not back to how it was. My case wasn't very serious and I don't know if i will ever be back to normal. Huge thanks Dodie, I am glad to here someone else explain how others feel similar to how i do. :)


It's when people say things like "just be happy," "life isn't fair" "there's always someone worse of than you," "stop feeling sorry for yourself" or "what have you got to be depressed about". It's just like noooo.

I'd say I've never been depressed, but I can totally understand that it isn't someones choice, that it's chemical reactions, and that it isn't easy to just "be happy". And I feel that saying things like that could seriously harm people, especially younger people who will think that they should just be quiet about it, because they'll just get that sort of response.

I really hope people will start talking more, like in this video and not just about depression, but about everything that is misunderstood or has a taboo around it.


aw Dodie, you're such a cutie! I really enjoyed this video.. miss you! Hope you come back to Amsterdam soon! proud of you :)


Lovly video! I very much like how your always truthful about things. If there sad or happy! And u always are happy and fun! I love your vids-Vedas (lol) keep up the good work!


this is a great video, so honest, you have showed a kindness that should be distilled in everyone. Love your videos I have become a doddleoddler? doddlevlogger-ler? wot? anyways. i like you. lolz


As someone who suffered from depression mixed with anxiety-ridden OCD for about two years, I tend to take the subject of depression very much to heart. It's hard to explain for those who haven't felt it, and it gets frustrating when people have decided that they are right no matter what, that they know best without even experiencing it first-hand.

People think that depression is just a state of extreme sadness, but it's not. It's literally feeling emotionally numb to everything good around you. My friends would always offer sympathy, but never really 'got it' in terms of what I was feeling, because I literally couldn't take in any positive emotions from others and make myself feel better, I just had no understanding anymore of what happiness meant or how being truly loved felt. And not being able to take that in made me feel more guilty because I felt like I made my friends feel unappreciated by me, even though I loved them to death.

If anyone out there suffers from depression and is reading this, please don't try and win it over just through sheer willpower and positive thinking. I know it's easy to believe that you have to do it yourself, or that you don't deserve to be helped. I used to feel that way too. But go to people who can help you, they won't judge you, they're there to help you find your way again. As someone who survived and made it to the other side thanks to medical and therapeutic help, all I can say is: Come over, everything's bright and colorful again!

The most scary thing I suffered through was the lack of hope, and I can safely say that I have hope now, and it's beautiful. And if you can't see the light right now, just keep walking through the fog, or take someone's hand and let them lead you!

No idea where this comment was actually going, I just went with it. Hope anyone reading felt some positive emotion from this. And Dodie, keep being wonderful! Your videos still make me smile. <3


I have been diagnosed with severe depression and I hate it when my friends say snap out of it or stop being sad so I know what that feels like and its horrible.


Oh my gosh, finally- this video needed to happen I've been looking at those comments and they're terrible-good job Dodie!

Oh my gosh, *finally*- this video needed to happen I've been looking at those comments and they're *terrible*-good job Dodie!


This was sweet I liked it c: you described depression so well ;-; you're adorable ^-^


I go through depression as well. It can be tough, but today is one of the good, lighter days. :)


this is just exactly how i feel all the time.
its like nothing is worth it my life, it wouldn't make any difference if i died tomorrow or something.
but also, i'm really silly when it comes to laughing at things, therefore people don't even think about the things that i feel and make me go through things that i don't want to go through.
and there's also the fact that sometimes i'm just so full of shit that i just don't go out for more than a month or so (except when i go to school) and people are like "you are so down lately, you should go out" and drag me to places that only: 1st: make me miss my bed and my tv shows even more and 2nd: "lately"? i think i've been like this for the past idk two years or more.
but yeah i don't have anyone to talk about this bc no one gets it so i felt the need to write all this. and i love you for doing this and i love tom even if i don't know him. goodbye <3.


I love this video so much. I have clinical depression and bad anxiety and the amount of times I've been told to snap out of it or try and think happy thoughts. I'm just like, urmmm really. If it was that easy I would have done it a long time ago. They make it seem like it's a choice and I want to be this way! Sorry, it just makes me cross! I hope toms doing okay, I met him at sitc and he was the sweetest guy, tom if your reading this I'm thinking of you! Sending positive energy your way! And anyone else whose suffering right now, I love you all! X


I suffer from depression and am in a bad space at the moment and Dodie is 100% right in saying it's not something that is easy to live with or "Get over it".

I am doing better. Thanks for thinking of me. Hugs <3

Cheryl Jolly hope you're feeling better |-/


VEDA = Vlog Every Day… All-the-time?

Timely that I came across this particular VEDA(S?), as the last few days, hope has dwindled. Thanks Dodie :)


You have once again spoken my mind. Thank you for saying words n stuff.


Thank you for this. :-) I'm in the middle of depression.


Once again you have tackled quite a series tissue perfectly with amazing intelligence


I don't personally understand depression. I've never had it. BUT I do understand that it is an illness and without help, it can be fatal. So... Yeah. BTW Dodie I really liked your new camera(at the time) with the focus thing!!!! I am constantly impressed by your level headed and purposeful videos. Even when they are unscripted. xoxo<br>


you literally are so much like me my wife started to cry watching your videos knowing how much it was me you took all the words out of my mouth in your videoabout depersonalization and i would die if i could just talkk to you have someone who understands i cant do it alone and i just idk please follow me and dm me it would change my life @my_w0nd3rland_


Very Entertaining Dodie, Almost on schedule

P.S for someone who doesn't understand depression, the best way I can describe it is, you know when you get up after a nap and it's like whaaat where am i whats the time why doesn't anything make me happy i feel so weirddd


to still call it VEDA you could call it 'vlog every day anyway'...as in ;who cares it's not august anymore'...? ahaha maybe idk just an idea :') i also really love this video and respect you massively for it. i hate how narrow minded and ignorant people can be, even if they dont understand something. you've summed it up really well, especially something you said in reply to a comment below about bread and toast haha i liked that one ;) oh and ed is adorable


Wait wait wait... you do actually read your comments? Seriously? Yay.
In that case, I just want to let you know that all your videos are wonderful and magnificent and they have helped me through a lot of stuff. And your singing is also perfection. And I really really appreciate this video because there aren't nearly enough people who actually acknowledge depression for what it is, and that it's an actual serious illness, not just "oh, i'm sad"
anyway sorry for the rant. I dunno. I'm dumb.


Your videos are Uplifting , Your Energy encourages Us to be Happy , Thank You :) .     Depression , I have it , I say that Depression is "Illogical" because , "Kyle , get out of bed or You're going to lose Your job"  , I say "I just can't care right now , I can't care enough at this moment"    it goes against Logic .      Thank You for letting You Happy Energy rub off onto Us .      Take Care Sweet Doddle Person  :)  , Be Happy , You Deserve it :) , We Luv U  .


I suffered from depression you just lose basically everything.....you just feel nothing or sadness.You just have so many bad things planted in your brain. Everything good means nothing. It really is hard to understand what someone is exactly going through when you are not close to them. But anyone who is reading this I got to say,it does get better no matter how bad you are,it truly does get better. It does take time to heal your brain from the damage it took. Depression is tuff but stay strong and try your best to hope for better things. Your life has meaning so make it meaningful <3-Danika


This is such an important point! It's /so/ irritating when people don't understand, but it pretty much is just because they've never been through it. Thankyou so much Dodie <3


You may actually not read this as this is a vvvv old video but I discovered your channel a few weeks back and I admire you . You're just amazing and I don't understand why people are so hateful. Thanks :) xxx


Someone said depression is like drowning while everyone around you is breathing fine. As someone struggling with it now I find that it describes anxiety better. Depression is more like continually being in that state between being awake and asleep. Where you begin to lose sense of everything around you. You can't care less about the world around. And no matter what you do you just can't wake up.


My family has a huge history of mental illness and because they're all tough farmers they don't deal with it, they think suffering silently is better than making some noise so they can get better. My mum has anxiety but refuses to deal with it for fear of looking weak. Seeking help doesn't show weakness it shows courage. If you try to pretend somethings not there is its not going to go away it's just going to grow and grow.


i know there’s 100 more of these comments but here i go :

all emotions and thoughts we have are chemicals and electricity running through our brains, so when we have something like depression it’s because of an imbalance of these chemicals, and that hold true when you’re talking about any mental illnesses. When it comes to “happy” and positive emotions you have your chemicals like norepinephrine , serotonin which is your happy good day hormone and dopamine which is your reward hormone. A normal brain has an equalized amount of these chemicals running at one time with spikes here and there - when you accomplish a task , think about your crush , etc - but a depressed brain has a lowered amount of these hormones and obviously that can cause an unbalance not only in the way you feel but in the way your body works as a whole . everything we feel is tangible , thats why we call dope dope , it’s shooting victory into your veins or up your nose . Now there can also be too much of these hormones which gets you into manic disorders or narcissism , or unbalance of both which gets you bipolar disorder - and then when we talk about anxiety disorders we see an excess of adrenaline and cortisol - the Stress hormone .

and the science is cool and all and hopefully you see how that makes this an illness and not just a bad day , but , of course illnesses aren’t people - people have illnesses .
Dealing with depression is like trying to move around with weights on your legs and arms and neck , with tar in your bones and all you can really think is “wow what’s the point”. And the difference between a person with a mental illness or disorder and someone who does not is basically the fact that these feelings of worthlessness or despair , stress or anxiety , victory or feeling invincible - it’s all magnified x100000 . yes you’ve felt sad too yes you’ve been stressed out yes you’ve felt on top of the world - but that isn’t feeling depressed . you haven’t had a panic attack . you’ve never been through a manic episode .

and whether or not it makes sense now , the bottom line is that real people experience this everyday for years . If you “believe” it or not doesn’t change the fact that it’s real and it costs people their lives , fatally or socially . It is a problem and if you know someone with a mental illness or disorder , tell them you love them and that you’re proud if them for being here and that you support them - and mean it. half of the battle is with the people who look you in your face and tell you that what youre experiencing isn’t real and it’s not that bad . be a decent person and care about others , especially those close to you . educate yourself and others . be a supporter .


Another aspect of depression (that I've personally noticed, idk) is the absence of energy. For example, I lay in bed all day after school and do no homework. It goes hand in hand with the excitement part, I guess.


Lovely video and you are an amazing person :) ily


The mailman looked quite confused, and even scared perhaps, by the size of my large box of love for Tomska :-)
I went to some friends, asking for a little, they gave me plenty, so I hope it gets there soon :-D

Anyhow, what cam do you have now!?
(Next month, VEDO)


Dodie, just to say explain ^.^ depression is linked to an inbalanance of seritonin levels, seritonin being a neurotransmitter, which affects how the brain functions :) (yay a level psychology!) I hope Tom is okay, depression is a horrible place to be in! I think a lot of people don't think about how their words will affect others, because you can't see the person at the other end of the screen when you're online. Thank you for the video :) <3


i think you explained that very well! at least i understand it a bit better now (and i'm 23)<br>my mom had this after pregnancy depression after she had me, she told me aout it last year and i didn't really get what she was trying to say and had to think about it for a while :/

i think you explained that very well! at least i understand it a bit better now (and i'm 23)
my mom had this after pregnancy depression after she had me, she told me aout it last year and i didn't really get what she was trying to say and had to think about it for a while :/


thank you for explaining that depression is NOT just feeling sad its just not feeling and when you do feel anything it's negative 99.999% of the time it's like being stuck in a pencil drawing it could be the most beautiful piece of art ever made but no matter which way you look at it every part of that drawing is grey... sorry not as good at metaphors as you are doddle but yeah you catch my drift okay so i have no idea where this is going so bye and thanks again x


I had no clue that you were friends with Tom! Well, I look at most youtubers as though they were my friends (which is actually rather sad oh well!) and seeing tom fall apart is the worst thing ever! I have no means of contacting him (being a random fan and him a crazy famous guy) so, if you see this then, would you please encourage him and give him a hug from me and all the other worried people out there that want him to be okay, just hug all the sadness out of him and let him know that his fans love him dearly. Thank you!


Do you know how hard it is living with depression like no one understands and gets you at all? If the answers no then then thank you! Thank you for being honest because I can only tell you how many times people I know and also people I don't think they know what's in my head YOU DON'T!!! Depression is an illness and as Dodi says it isn't something you can just tell someone to 'get over it' or 'pull yourself together' seriously? You think I want to think about death most of the time? You think I like the fact I haven't slept a full nights sleep in about five years? You think I like not being alone? No I don't! I don't wish depression on anyone as its awful its probably the hardest things i've ever dealt with...And i've dealt with a lot! But it would be nice for people to understand. So today I sit here before you depressed and I can't change believe me I would if I could. Don't judge me you don't know me! You now know my name but you will never know all of my story. Thanks again Dodi xx


don't apologise dodie, we need people like you explaining depression to those who misunderstand the condition :)


I'm not depressed, but when you described it, I very much relate to your definition and now I'm confused so thanks for that.. 😐😂😐


in experience, depression isnt feeling sad 24/7 and being emo or whatever. you could have the most amazing surroundings and still get it. wherever you go, u just want to fall asleep and never wake up. and its always on the back of tou mind. this dark grey cloud called depression is just there. and everything is just average. but trust me, it can hit hard at points, u can go from feeling neutral to stepping out on a ledge or going into your medicine cabinet. i hope tom is feeling better. i just want people to know that its not a choice. its an illness.


As someone who's had a very close friend attempt suicide, it's so important to me that people like you discuss these issues. I love the fact that these issues are getting discussed more, and I want to thank you from the bottom of my little heart for putting this little video up on the video for thousands of young people to see. This is a really sensitive topic for me, and it's just so moving to see you and others tackle it. I love you for it <3


It's a chemical imbalance in your brain that causes depression. My dad has fought it for quite a while, and medication really really helps.


this is amazing and although it was ages ago it's significant


It's just like your burgers not tasting of anything :-) Thumbs up to anyone that gets that reference!

+Sydney Pope It's from Dodies other video about her brain, the tour diary one i think. :)

+QuirkyCat I KNOW THAT BUT I CANT REMEMBER WHERE FROM


Perfect, cheered up my rainy day :) (it's not raining but I'm just upset)


I started scratching my nose at exactly the same time as Dodie ^_^


I love Ed Sheeran but there's something uncomfortable about him whenever I see him in things, he seems very awkward. I'm sure he's lovely though and he makes damn fine music. :D


Very Exciting - Dodie's Abstracts!
Okay so not my best but it's just a sugestion:')
Great video btw, keep up the love :)


Not a lot of people going though depression can talk about it like your friend does but good on him and good on you for being a good person and talking about it! Depression is hard and it takes a lot out of very strong people and makes them weak! But there is always help!


The groove in your brain explanation I think does serve this topic quite well.  When you think a certain way, your brain strengthens those connections and those feelings.  I think trying to FORCE your feelings away, or having people tell you that's what you need to do, is really destructive to your emotional health, ESPECIALLY if there's mental factors that are actually out of your control to begin with.  For instance, to quote the ASDF videos, "DON'T THINK ABOUT CATS!!"...what did you do think about?  Let's try another one.  "DON'T BE DEPRESSED!!"....just by thinking that way, you automatically visualize the feeling, and if you're very well versed in what it feels like, TADA.  The more you push away your feelings...the more they lurk, waiting for some kind of attention and love.  I think indifference and apathy can be some of the most dangerous emotions, especially in a culture that treasures those who get a lot accomplished.  You'll start to feel like something is wrong with you.  Then a whole new "schema" i.e. "mental groove" is created for you to get stuck in over time :\ making depression worse than it already is


you literally are so much like me my wife started to cry watching your videos knowing how much it was me you took all the words out of my mouth in your videoabout depersonalization and i would die if i could just talkk to you have someone who understands i cant do it alone and i just idk please me and dm me it would change my life my_w0nd3rland_


I think I'm depressed but I don't know for sure. I don't feel excited anymore and there are only a few days where I look back on and I feel happy but all the other days I feel nothing. I took a test on the internet it says I have above average depression but I don't know whether or not to trust it. I have self harmed my self too. But a part of my brain is telling me that I do to get noticed but the other part of my brain says it feels good and and it helps make me feel better I don't know which part to trust

If you have any concerns about your mental health, especially when it gets to self harm, you really should talk to someone. Therapy can be very helpful, even if you don't have a major or even minor mental health problem. It's just really nice to have someone to talk you who can both understand you and professionally help you/give you advice. Even going in for one session can help you find out what's going on or how serious it is. Good luck


Kind of learnt about the science of depression in GCSE Biology. Basically it's the lack of seretonin being transmitted between synapses (which are gaps between neurons) Seretonin is a chemical that makes you feel happy.


This video has made a difference in the world for the better. It shows that you're an incredibly caring person as well. I love you Dodie and thanks for being so great. i hope you are okay, as well as tom.


I don't usually comment on videos but I felt a need to because many don't know what it's like to have depression or feel depressed and I would like to explain what it's like on a person level. It's like feeling numb to any emotion and not necessarily being extremely sad but it's the feeling of not being able to be happy And it's having no motivation to do anything. Please tell me I'm not the only one that interprets it this way.


Idk how old this vid is but u brought up a great point I have been dealing with depression for two yrs going on 3 next yr. and it's a fight now am not good at texting so am not going to expand too much on the subject but I just want to say, the beginning is the hardest and depending on what ether Tom or anyone for that matter has dealt with there is going to be a real down day (lack of a better word) it's pretty much the day u start thinking of ending ur self. So it's cross roads if you are going to do it, and that moment is one of the hardest. So thank u doodle for bringing this part of the subject to light ummm I wish I could talk more on this but I don't like texting that much so am trying to end it lol umm but ya shout out to Tom thank u for hanging in there I don't know how deep his depression is but keep recognizing that there are people who are thinking about u and want to see the best. Doodle love channel started watching last month ur awesome keep it up.  😁👍😎☺😘😊 much lov


this is like THE BEST explanation of depression


The saddest thing about this video was the spillage of a perfectly good brew :(


I'd say that I'm not necessarily depressed as in I'm always feeling it.
i'd explain it by saying random things (not having any fun in a v game i loved a week ago/my friends aren't responding and i get paranoid  they're ignoring me on purpose etc). and every time one of these happens i fall in a small well

it is small and maybe i can climb out of it, but why should i? ill get to the top and fall into another well. i'll have days where i just sit at my computer staring into my Steam library or the youtube homepage just crying and i don't know why i'm crying.

@***** we're pretty damn alike in that case. i said almost the exact same thing on emma blackery's video on depression (sorry can't remember the exact name).

i described it like that a while ago. did you come up with that description yourself or see it on an emma blackery video and click with it?


Dodie I know exactly what you mean... I have idolized Tessa Violet for so many yrs, when I met her I finally had a momentary glimpse of happiness and when you skyped me, all my friends get upset cause they want the old jojo back, the happy one, the one that helps everyone... Depression wore me down so much, and has actually started to kill me and I'm only 20. Your video made me cry doo much and I'm so blessed to have talked to you, hope you read this (i know you do haha just a joke) hugs from jojo

Hi! It sounds like you've been through a really awful time. :( I hope you're getting the support that you need and deserve.

Fortunately you're following Dodie who is, as you must agree, BLOODY AMAZING, and certainly this second-channel community will always be here to support you. :>


Oh how I love you - you just seem to get it and that is a very beautiful thing to be able to do!


My old favourite band came to my country last week; i had a ticket, but i lost all interest for it, i already knew that I've been depressed for a while, but not going to a concert is next level bad.


I had depression and I just started TRYING to find my true self and happiness. I faked a smile for everyone so others could be happy. I never cared about myself, Only others. I had(or have) it sense age 9 to 12. I'm 12 right now and I know very young but that's just how it was. I hope I can find the true me and happiness...


Aweeee I'm intelligent 😁😁😁 Yissss😁 I am actually, if I do say do myself 😏 <br>I love your thoughtful videos Dodie, you are suchhhh a great and caring person from what we see on videos. Xox

Aweeee I'm intelligent 😁😁😁 Yissss😁 I am actually, if I do say do myself 😏
I love your thoughtful videos Dodie, you are suchhhh a great and caring person from what we see on videos. Xox


Sometimes even people whove had depression dont understand it, my mum has/had depression and so do i, im not ashamed of that bc its quite common really but like my answer to anything she says like "why do you feel this way" is "i dont know" and its so frustrating because she constantly asks me whata going on in my brain when i dont even know either


Love you Dodie (Veda-Vlog everyday, anytime)