I'm scared for life for that moment I have to leave my house and I'm especially freaked out of the idea mom & dad will eventually move out too. The fact that I will never have a change to go back to my old place where I learned so so much.. A place where I felt save, free and could go to those moments I wanted to shelter me from the outside world. It's the bulding where I first said hi to the world when I was born in mam and dads bed, it's the basis of my childhood memories and the place where I grew tremendously as a person. I  have to accept that I can't stay here forever and that I must leave my home full with memories behind. And that just sucks.


I understand your sadness about leaving that house. Wer recently moved out of the flat that held my complete childhood, and it was hard leaving that behind. However, I didn't cry at all; until I walked into my room the last time and it was completely empty. Seeing the place little Sammy lived in empty and cold was the hardest thing of all. <br>I feel way more at home in our new house, though. I love this place, so I'm kinda okay with leaving my childhood.

I understand your sadness about leaving that house. Wer recently moved out of the flat that held my complete childhood, and it was hard leaving that behind. However, I didn't cry at all; until I walked into my room the last time and it was completely empty. Seeing the place little Sammy lived in empty and cold was the hardest thing of all.
I feel way more at home in our new house, though. I love this place, so I'm kinda okay with leaving my childhood.


Wow i understand this so much. I'm such a hoarder, I have all sorts of bits and pieces (a similar box of notepads and drawings) and if I had to burn that? Oh lord no.That would be SO hard. But admittedly I probably should.


This and little room will make me cry every. single. time. I'm only 15 but time goes so quickly and I can already see myself having to do this. I not ready to grow up yet


God I wish I could talk to and be emotional with my family. All they tell me is that I'm being ridiculous and am too sensitive.


I can't relate because I've never lived in a place for longer than 2 years. But I can say that due to that, I've learned that home isn't where you live, it's definitely where your friends and all that good stuff are. And the memories are still there, so hold onto those, you don't need the actual building to remember the good times you had in it.


i moved out of my childhood home last summer after spending the first seventeen years of my life in it. it was very sad as its the only place i saw both my parents in, happy and loving each other, as well as the place i met my childhood best friend who i've driften apart from. it was like saying goodbye to all those things, those memories and moving into a new place. but now i realise how moving was great, the bare walls are now full of us, my mom is dealing with money better, i have a room to my self.. it just took time to grieve


in your next video (or some point in the month when it hits you) could you talk about how saying goodbye to your childhood house has affected you?


When you put that box in the fire i looked at my box of old diaries and notebooks and i was like i dont want to get rid of them, theres so many memories.


See, my family has lived in three homes and one apartment, so once I move out, I won't feel that sense of sadness, I also don't really have a very close relationship with my family, so it will be weird. The one thing I want to take with me from this place is my cat because she's the best haha.


i moved house a few times when i was younger, but it was only the most recent move that really got me. i guess i was old enough to understand that i would never be in a place where so much of what made me me happened again. i didnt pack up my room until i absolutely had to. i loved that house. god i loved it. i lived around the corner from my best friend, i had neighbor as close as family and the building its self was so old and beautiful and full character.  and now its not mine anymore. theres another family living there and another child in my room and i tell my self where i am now is better. a new country, a new start, ive grown so much. but i still miss it and a piece of me will always stay in those wonky walls of a town house in Brussels.


Moving from state to state and city to city this makes me glad i never lived in one house my whole life.


aww loved the vid!!  just wish i got to see ur family members faces haha


u. r such a sweet person. Love yr video's


I've moved house about 12 times in my life after the 6 or 7th move I disconnected from the feelings of sadness. Every time I moved the most important part of my home moved with me. That would be my conglomeration of sib's and the parental units. In the end a house is just another building. TTFN


I know EXACTLY how you are feeling and you are NOT alone. Back in 2013 i moved away from my house i had lived in all my life and i always said i would never leave it. Unfortunately our situation was also very serious due to various things but i got over it after 7 long, hard months. I would explain it all but there is so much to talk about. Thank you for making this video it really has comforted me about mymass sentimentalness for the past, seeing as im also a guy :) -Mark


I want to say something supportive and reassuring but honestly I can't find anything good to say about the situation. I literally balled my eyes out screaming when she threw her "box of happiness"in the fire. I'd be a really bad person to look to for motivation. Best wishes nonetheless, stay strong Dodie! xxx


I've lived in my current house for the last 13 years of my life, we moved here when i was 5 so i did all of my growing up here, but i know now for a fact that i won't care one jot when i/we move out. A house is just a house to me. I have a small box with all my memorabilia in it, mainly tickets to things etc, and even that i wouldn't be horrendously upset if it went missing. And don't get me wrong, I'm a sentimental person, but my house is not where my happiness lies. Which may be due to me not being an overly happy teenager at all, but even my happy memories in the house won't make me miss the house at all


I'm scared for life for that moment I have to leave my house and I'm especially freaked out of the idea mom & dad will eventually move out too. The fact that I will never have a change to go back to my old place where I learned so so much.. A place where I felt save, free and could go to those moments I wanted to shelter me from the outside world. It's the bulding where I first said hi to the world when I was born in mam and dads bed, it's the basis of my childhood memories and the place where I grew tremendously as a person. I just have to accept that I can't stay here forever and that I must  leave my home full with memories behind. And that just sucks.


ahhh when Dodie cries I start crying i cANT


you are so bloody brave oh my god I couldn't do that


I'm only 19 and I've lived in 9 different houses. The longest I've lived in the same house was 6 years and that one sucked so much to say goodbye too especially cause I didn't know I was saying my last goodbye when I was. (we were suppose to come back to it after living somewhere else for the summer but we didn't and I haven't seen my room in that house sense) there's a lot of stuff I had to get rid of, lots of things that held memories. those things are nice to have but at the end of the day it is just stuff, it's not the memory itself.


i started crying when your happy memories caught on fire


The past is the past you don't need material items to remember the joyful times your brain will hold on to them for you you are strong dodie moving house can be really fucking tough but I know you can do this you may de saying goodbye materialisticly (is that a word😂)but as I said your brain will hold on to the memories it and you want you can and will do this


tha talk you had with your mom at the begining made me cry and made me feel better


My parents are getting divorced and it feels like everything i've ever known is falling apart. My mum moved out and my dad still lives in our family house (so do I) but home doesn't feel like 'home' anymore. I'm so sad about it and this made me cry even more but I get what you're going through!


AW NO this is too depressing! I feel the pain because we had a house in Houston, and we came back to fix it up before we sold it.  I was saying my last goodbyes, and I go in the backyard, go behind our club house and started crying my eyes out because I had been there for most of my life and that was the last time I was going to see it.  It's just so sad leaving your child hood houses and never seeing them again.


your back garden reminds me a lot of my ex boyfriends back garden and it brought back so many memories of me playing in the garden with his brothers, weird haha


Dodie, I know you're not going to see this. But please, if you do. Just know that we don't expect you to post every day, if you're going through a hard time. Take a day off,  I don't want you to feel like you NEED to post vedif for us.

But besides that, I appreciate your strength. I know this must have been be hard for you.


I'm also really sentimental.. When I moved out I  felt so sad, becouse it was like a "chapter" that I was closing...  It always takes me a little bit longer to get used to something new :P


Why am I crying it's not even my house! To be fair I had to go through this same thing when my parents moved out of my childhood home. It was my grandparents home before theirs. The hardest part was painting over where me and my best friend had carved our names and the date into the wall of my closet. I definitely cried as well.


This video makes me so anxious bc I can't deal with getting rid of things and memories. Like the fire part I couldn't even watch I'm so sentimental


as a person who has lived in at least 5 different houses, i wish i could have a place to be attached to


You throwing your box into the fire actually made me cry because I know I'm going to be where you are someday because I know I keep all of everything and I won't be able to keep it all but I just can't get rid of it.. and I know that will be me someday.. ahhh


Today I saw a listing of my grandparents old house they had until about 3 years ago and it was for rent. I don't know how I got there but I'm having the same feelings you are about your childhood home because my grandparents' home was always felt like a place I could run away to. And now it's not. And that really sucks. But I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way because I've been sobbing and irritable for a while and felt like a drama queen (I am but I'm just glad I'm not the only one lol)


I've been in similar situations so many times because every 4 years I change of home but also of country... so I Know that it is very sad to live your home, where you grew up 😕


This made me cry because I've lived in the same house for the first 20 years of my life and I know my parents are going to move somewhere smaller eventually because its a house that was big enough to hold 6 but all 4 of us kids have moved out now and I DONT WANNA SAY GOODBYE EVER MY WHOLE LIFE HAPPENED THERE AHHHHHH


seeing Dodie Crying makes me want to cry <b>cries</b> worth it.

seeing Dodie Crying makes me want to cry *cries* worth it.


i remember you winning the break up song contest. and i then i remember finding you probably a year later and being so excited when i figured out where i knew you from!


Good thing I never have to go through this because I moved so much as a child and I don't have any fond childhood memories lol


i enjoy videos like these ones :') to think that one day, i'll be in my 20s and 30s, & you won't be youtube-ing anymore; & i wouldn't know how your life is going is such a sad thought

sheedah from the 1975 oh no that's literally so sad to think about that just made me cry even harder


soooooo, my parents told me, a couple years ago, that they were thinking of selling The House (the one where we've lived since I was 8), or maybe just the property around it. I cried. More than once. They still haven't sold it. Every time I visit, I'm so grateful that I get to go back again. They still might do it, though. If they do, I will cry soooo much.


<b>Pauses video runs to get tea, sits and listens to dodie while drinking my tea</b>

*Pauses video runs to get tea, sits and listens to dodie while drinking my tea*


I'm also moving away from home..it's very hard leaving the place that witnessed so many memories..that is why it's hard. :(


i am so so proud of u for doing all this but seeing u cry broke me so much oh my god i am so messed up
i hope we both feel better again someday baby
i love you


I've lived in 10 different houses in 20 years so I don't have that concept of a 'childhood home' that I got attached to growing up - we never lived anywhere for too long, basically we moved into one house and were already planning the next move so we were always decluttering to get ready to move again so I didn't have an accumulation of stuff to make me nostalgic. However, at 20 years old I'm back living in the home I was born into (mum kept the house all these years, now I live here alone - I chose to get my tiny box room back I lived in as a baby) and now I'm so attached to this home I can't ever imagine leaving 💕


Cried at: setting happiness on fire in the yard<br>Other times i cried:literally the entire video.

Cried at: setting happiness on fire in the yard
Other times i cried:literally the entire video.


I remember when I had to say goodbye to my childhood home it was terrible. the place was absolute sh*t but what I didn't want to let go was the memories and the friends but the thing with all if that is that all those things stay. its the part of growing up were your scared of letting things go but its sadly a thing that we all have to do eventually.


seeing you and your mom and sister talk so openly about how your current situation isn't good is a such a foreign concept to me. in my household everything is shit but i don't deny it, i know it is. and i feel like here at home our parents are still trying to glue all these broken pieces together but it's just useless; nothing will be the same ever again but that's okay, it doesn't mean we won't be happy ever again, it ju t means we're not a family like we used to be. but they don't want to face it, face the fact that we're broken, we're so broken. they make it aound as if everything is fine, when it is not. i'm done wishing my family weren't the way they are; now i just wish for them to see how messed up we truly are

watching your video made me cry so much bc the topic of family, especially my "home" is my achilles heel as well. and i think that maybe it is time for me to move on with my life too. i don't want to be trapped in the past like they are... it sounds a bit mean to say it like that, like i don't care abt them, but i do. but it's time i care for myself too...

anyways. u'll probs not read this but i truly wish for you to find your home and happiness, and for your mental health to get better. you're so brave for doing what you did and move forward like that. you're more amazing than you think and i know "amazing" is such a vague term but i've always been bad with words but i want you to know that you've been helping me heal myself one video at a time and i'm pretty sure i wouldn't be the person i am if i hadn't come accross in here. and i like myself, i finally like who i am so thank you

just, thank you

(uhh sorry for dumping this huge text in here lmao,,)


i get attached to things and places easily, i'm 15 and already moved 8 times. And now finally we live in a house where we'll stay for the rest of my teenage years but i think this house will be the hardest to say goodbye to when i'm moving out. Allthough i cried for like 6 of the other homes. It's weird to tink that i felt at home in so many other houses. And it's even weirder to go back to that place and not going in the house. I don't know, kinda wanted my thoughts out here hehe


Dodie, I'm 22 and my parents just divorced last year. No one talks about your parents divorcing when you're an adult, but it was the hardest time of my life and I feel that in its own right is a more painful ordeal as an adult. My fear that I kept returning to was the thought that I would never go "home" again, even though my mom was keeping my physical childhood home. It hurt to know that I'd never come home to my mom and dad together again, to be able to walk out of my room and catch glimpses of them in their happiest moments, or to gather at holidays and feel like a unit. It also awoke feelings that my childhood was not as grand as I remember it to be (and I have sad home videos to prove it), and I had a hell of a time mourning the childhood I thought I had, something I had never dealt with. I will tell you, though, that on the other side of it I am the happiest and most at peace that I've ever been. I finally feel like I'm moving forward now and not just making small circles in one spot. I junked a majority of my memories, positive and negative, and it was singlehandedly the most freeing thing I've ever done. I hope you feel better, and cry when you need to! There were many days I was pushing through work to just make it to my car and sob. You'll be in a better place because of the hurt, I promise.


(I'm fairly sure this won't mean much to you dodie) but I just wanted to say I'm really grateful you uploaded this and talked about how you're dealing with it bc 1: I'm exactly the same with pushing stuff down that I don't want to deal with, 2: I'm also extremely sentimental and nostalgic and 3: my childhood house is being sold and I have to get rid of all my old childhood and teenage memories too. It's really comforting and calming to see someone I look up to going through the exact same scenario and seeing you deal with it I think will help me deal with it. I'll miss my house and all the amazing memories I made in it but if you can get through it so can I.  Xxxxxxxx ily dodie ❤❤❤


Seeing dodie burn that box of her memories made me think would I do the same as I also have a box of stuff that Ive collected full my my high school memories 😶😯


I wish I had gotten the chance to say goodbye to my home...


Fuck. i'm gonna be doing this soon as my parents are getting divorced as well. i'm 21 and still live with them because i'm college and it's just so hard. this video makes me feel less alone and less stupid for being so upset by it. thanks for sharing the good and the bad dodie, you are a gem


you took it so well ino as you said you've already said goodbye but it will hurt a little


this is not dramatic or overplayed at all, I'd be bawling my eyes out if the house I grew up in would be sold or anything


I'd forgotten the Rhett & Link thing oh my gosh!! that's funny because I got into dodie because Rhett tweeted a link to Sick of Losing Soulmates a while back and I was instantly hooked


this video made me very calm for some reason


I absolutely dread the day I have to do this


I've actually stopped watching Dodie because it actually gives me pain in my chest. I'm so lonely and Dodie being the perfect person that she is, makes me feel it even more. :(


As Boyz II Men said, "It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday."


Watching this gave me inspo for song lyrics, so thank you aha xxx


Hedy: how do you end these things, just alright bye lol?<br>:D

Hedy: how do you end these things, just alright bye lol?
:D


You have no idea how much I cried during this video, I hate saying goodbye 😔


dodie this isn't my home and all but i'm still crying why must you make me cry i love you


I had to say goodbye to the house I spent all my teenage years in last year and that was difficult. My mum has a new house and I have a shared house at uni but I still don't really feel like I have a home.


if you want a song that fits this experience so well, listen to 'The House That Built Me' by Miranda Lambert - so beautiful! Maybe not right now because it will most certainly make you cry, but it is so beautiful and so fitting :)


As a fellow sentimental person I sat here crying until I noticed you have olives on your pizza and that made me upset in a different way


omg dodie when u started crying i started tearing up ah


DODIE I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. I feel you'd be the type of friend who encourages their friends to show their emotions and express them, the kind of friend to listen and experience it with them, and just be kind and accepting of everyone no matter what their religion or sexuality or gender or ethnicity or anything else! that you'd encourage those parts of them and let them know they're loved. TBH this is what i've gathered from your personality from all the months i've watched you, and IN CONCLUSION i've gathered that you'd make a great friend and that i would like to be your friend. that is all. hahahaha


my family recently moved. we left and throw away so much stuff. so many memories. a lot of stuff we didn't mean to leave and its gone now.


I'm really fucking sentimental (I get it from my mum) and about 3 years ago my family and I moved. I'm in boarding school in a different country so I'm never really at home. It feels like I've moved out and left behind all the happy times because I'm depressed now and my parents have a shit relationship and I have no friends and I always argue with my sister. I'm surrounded by junk from back when everything was good and my mum wants to throw it away but I just can't.

So I understand a little Dodie, I suppose.


i cried so fucking hard at this omg. fuck this made me realise just how much i hate change and saying goodbye. i hate the idea of leaving and 'forgetting' my old life. i moved like 300 miles away from where i had lived for almost 10 years a few years ago and it didn't faze me (because i was like 11) but now when i think about it, i hate it. i hate being so far away from my friends and where i, essentially, grew up.<br>things will be hard for a while, but it will be okay. sometimes holding on is a lot more painful than letting go

i cried so fucking hard at this omg. fuck this made me realise just how much i hate change and saying goodbye. i hate the idea of leaving and 'forgetting' my old life. i moved like 300 miles away from where i had lived for almost 10 years a few years ago and it didn't faze me (because i was like 11) but now when i think about it, i hate it. i hate being so far away from my friends and where i, essentially, grew up.
things will be hard for a while, but it will be okay. sometimes holding on is a lot more painful than letting go


I've moved states eight times, and I'm only sixteen.  I can't even imagine this.


i had to say goodbye to a thing i loved, too. my dog passed away and she felt like part of me for the time being. i am sorry :/


This made me feel so sad for you but also just cannot relate cos I love throwing things away


goodbye little room you served me well

im so sorry :3


you might be saying goodbye to the physical or material but never to the mental. your memories exist for a reason and your brain is your own invincible video camera stored with happy events from your past <3 stay strong doddle ur happiness will come back


I love that your mum just says it like it is, like a 'no shit attitude' get on with crying already


I think leaving my home (AKA childhood home. Still consider myself a child) is my personal idea of hell. I get this awful separation anxiety from people, things. I can't imagine separating myself from the place where practically, a fourth of my life has taken place.


I actually made a short movie on this topic. the meaning of home and homesickness and not being able to be home. :) it's quite an interesting feeling, I believe. x


Agh this is getting to me. I'm a super sentimental person who hates change and also happens to have ocd and hoards everything. I moved when I was in eighth grade and I still think that was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I've moved again since them and I just found out my parent's are getting divorced so more changes are going to be happening. It's hard.

Oh man I'm crying now. I used to cry to your little room song the first time I moved but now it's just agh


This isn't necessarily related to this video, but after watching this, all the recommended videos are you with a huge smile or just goofing around and having fun. And for some reason that's what's making me cry??? Idk, I love you dodie, even though this was posted months ago, haha <33


When you put them books in the fire I cried and I can't explain why I did


dodie we're moving on the 25th (i think) and i've taken down my posters and memory wall and just it sucks and i feel you


Oh Dodie xxx I moved away to go to uni two years ago. Shortly after that, my parents got divorced, and sold the house I grew up in. I was devastated. Everything I had ever known was gone, I was in a new strange place where I didn't know the places or people, and worst of all, I'd convinced myself that I didn't have an actual place to call home. But I was so wrong. When I went back for Christmas and I was on the couch with my dad, with a full belly, cuddled up watching tv, it didn't matter that it was in a place that was foreign. Home is where the people you love (and that love you) are. In that case, you have a home with your mum and Hedy, one with Hazel, and one with us weirdos on the internet. Love you xx


oh dear,  this just makes me wonder if i will ever lose my childhood home. it's a shitty house, but i had a happy childhood and it could've been so much worse. i mean, there's a forest and a huge garden. only the inside is a bit of an architectural mess. i don't know, losing this place would be so weird!


I reeeeaally get this, because my childhood home got sold last August. I miss my home, I miss my room, but to be honest.... it wasn't my home anymore in the end, and I felt like I was just visiting my childhood and my dad and sister. It was still hard af.


Today in chemistry we made lead (II) iodide which is a yellow powder and all I could think for the entire demo was "is it dodie yellow tho"


i really liked this video. but also, it made me realize i don't really have a place that i consider 'home'. like you talked about a place where you felt loved and feel calm and comfortable. i moved out this year for uni, but next year i'll be living somewhere else because i'm in residence. i was so happy to move out bc i really don't feel comfortable in my childhood house, and have a lot of bad memories associated there. it makes me realize i kind of don't have a place where i can feel grounded and truly home. i guess i'm a little bit lost right now.


My family house is being sold too since my dad passed away in june 2015 from cancer, so I'm going to go through what you're experiencing. But my family house is such a happy place, we moved from britain to France and my parents did up a huge old farm and made it into this awesome gîte for bikers as my dad was a biker. It has a swimming pool and a scaletrix and a trampoline and a pool table and a bar and we had loads of animals like chickens and ducks and cats and a dog and guinnie pigs and doves and african land snails... saying goodbye to that place is going to be the hardest thing I'm ever going to have to do after saying goodbye to my dad... I've been going through the same mental health problems as you and having you to relate with has really helped me come to terms with certain things (I'm bi too also...) But no matter how shitty things get, and how many things change, the sun will still shine, the sky will still be blue, and the world will keep on spinning. head up.


I keep so much stuff  like school books and birthday cards and I couldn't do what you did! To me that was so brave! Also, like selling the family home and all the feelings that go with that is unknown to me, my parents split up when I was 6/7 and my mum had to sell the house and we've rented ever since. We're kind of 'between houses' atm (due to the stupid way they now do private renting in the UK) and living at my grandparents in the meantime. We'd been in our previous house for 9 years so it was hard to say goodbye but it wasn't something we had a choice with and I'd moved twice before so was kind of used to it I guess. I still miss that house loads though. I think the main thing to remember is that the memories never go. I've got fond memories from all 3 houses I've lived in before and am sure I'll make more when we move into our new house :)


Dodie, your thoughts remind me a lot of a quote from Garden State: "You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of a sudden even though you have some place where you put your shit, that idea of home is gone. One day when you move out it just sort of happens and it's gone. You feel like you can never get it back. It's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. Maybe it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't ever have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I don't know, but I miss the idea of it, you know. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people that miss the same imaginary place."


a year ago, i was 18 and i had to move out my first and only home, i can't afford to move out from mum but we had to downsize and had to throw everything away, it was the worst. then we got screwed over in our new rented house and had to rush move out after 6 months, get rid of whatever memories and sentimental stuff we had left and were homeless for 5 weeks. then we found another house and after 6 months in the new house i feel lighter but the past 15 months have been the most stressful things ever. i feel your emotions, it's sad saying bye


I'm a borderline hoarder when it comes to sentimental things; I'm 26 and I have a tissue a friend of mine gave me when I was 13 because she said keep this as a memory???? All my life I've moved around a lot;I have lived in three countries and the most I ever stayed in a house was 11 years, so the move from that house (3 years ago) was intense and I did throw away [SOME] of my school notebooks, and apparently I felt fresh and lighter, and then a couple of months ago when we moved again I realised, I really do still have a shitload of things, but I just can't bring myself to throw them. So when you threw that box, my God my tears were just like IT'S OUR TIME! It hit me really hard.


'cause they say home is where your heart is set in stone, is where you go to where you're alone. It's where you go to rest your bones.


this video is making me cry and the comments are making me cry. but you know what? thank you. sometimes its just good to FEEL.


Watching you get made me sad <br>such a beautiful bean shouldn't cry

Watching you get made me sad
such a beautiful bean shouldn't cry


It's so devastating that you watched your happy memories burn. Gahhh 😭 Please tell me you have some digital copy of those photos or something to remember the times you were so happy as a teen?


I had no idea you covered the Breakup Song by Rhett and Link! That's so cool! That's awesome you won the signed picture!


i can never experience this though because ive lived in four different countries and probably wont move back to ireland (where im originally from) until right before or after i graduate which sucks.


I've never had a permanent home, we've just moved quite a lot. We do have a family home in my home country, India, but I don't have anything to associate it with home, except for the fact that I was born in that city and that house was the first one I breathed in. We have another flat in Delhi, in which I spent five years of my life in, which is the longest I have ever lived in a house. The house I am in right now, as a 16 year old, is temporary and will be taken away from us once I leave for college next year. So sometimes I really wish I had a home of this sort, a home with a lot of memories and things to hold onto. Oh well, we gotta live with what we have


This is one of the most reliable things I've ever seen


I feel like I spend half of my life pausing these videos to see what the text on screen says lmfao


all I did was cry...I'm moving from the home I've lived in my entire life this summer because my mom's getting married. I have to start high school as a freshman and I'm not able to help out the people who rely on me in this town (my school's band: every other band kid is too stuck up to do shit when our band needs it). My house, currently, is small, messy, and cramped  but both of my dogs just died and it just feels like everything is ending. Fml I mean everything in my fucking life sucks so much ass rn. Damn I think YouTube comments are my therapy.


I've been in the same position as you my dad it in the r.a.f which means we live on the campus so we constantly move and I have never had a stable home but MATE It's OK I AM JUST THE SLIGHTEST MAD BUT I AM OK 😂


"By the way could you get some pokeballs for me?"


I never ever cry at movies or I'll shed a small tear but if I see dodies eyes start to tear up i will start completely bawling


Okay wow i don't know why this made me cry 😢


i really agree with this video, about this whole being afraid to let go of things because they hold memories.  my dad has critisised me for this before, saying its a mental illness that i hoard everything, but everything holds memories for me and these objects are the trigger for these memories so throwing them away is like throwing away my memories.  it is really hard  to do this though, because my bedroom is baisically a dump that is full of junk that to me, is full of memories, but to other people is just rubbish.  taking photos of things that i will want to remember can help, rather than collecting physical objects, but it is very difficult to throw things away.  i get really sad driving past my old house because i grew up and moulded my personality there.  i became who i am there and even though the house i live in now, i have lived in since year one, i have only developed tha here.  throwing things out is always hard, but especially for me and some others.


sorry if this makes it harder but i have to comment on how nice your childhood house is- v jealous of those fields out the back. have fun making memories in your new family home


Gah I hate that I can relate to this video 😔 when hedy said about driving round the corner for the last time I was like a shit that'll be me and now I'm a wreck lol 😂😂😂😬


ik how you feel.. i used to live in this small ugly house since i was about 6 or 7 and then we moved cause we couldnt pay for it anymore and it made me really upset.. it was the first home i remember being in with my aunt who had passed away.. she also was like a mom to me soo.... it pretty sad. haha but IM OKKK


ooooooh, so sad, dear😢😢 I'll miss that great place too!! wish you stay positive and find out new place happy place!! creative💗 don't be so sad, dear! we love you!


I don't know if I'm missing something or I'm asking a bad question but why was it such a shit home for them?? ❤


It is hard, but it's always good to get rid of things that are linked to hoarding


My childhood House is not being sold and my parents have gotten divorced years ago , but this video in a way inspired me to go through all my stuff ( i'm such a nostalgic hoarder) .If not for me then for my mum who is going through tough time with her own parents . I know going through it will have me aching but in the long run I think it's going to help ..and mum will be happy to reaapropriate some space in her own home too . Anyways thanks dodie you being so open about what is going on inside is a gift to all of us. xoxo


I havent allowed myself to think about how I've basically left everything behind to study in another country (my family, my friends from my co-curriculars who were my entire LIFE [theyve probs forgotten about me already tho]) and I distract myself by scrolling through mindless shit on the internet (unproductive, but I distracts)

And I'm sort of ¿ already broken, its like hairline fractures on my sanity. And the moment I snap and allow my feelings to come flowing through I'll break, I know it.

But whatever, fuck it. We're all slowly dying already so I might as well emotionally do it faster (cause thats what everyone wants isnt it? To be at the head of the rat race?)


I find sentimental value in the tiny little things. My drawers are full of cards and posters and just random pieces of crap that I guess are actually just junk.  I've moved house 7 times in my (nearly) 16 years, so I've never really gotten attatched to a house, just the things in it. All my posessions are tucked away and out of sight and a lot of it I haven't looked at for years but I don't think that it would be easy for me to get rid of. BUT! The big but! In just under 2 years I might be moving across the country for uni. Yes, it's 2 years away, but think about how quickly the last 2 years went! The fact that I'm probably going to have to get rid of all of my sentimental junk is painful and I don't want to think about it, but it's lurking in the back of my mind and really not a lot of fun at all.


It's good that you got to voluntarily say goodbye to those physical things from your childhood my house burned down recently and though I've only been living in it for a little while I had all of my journals and books and trophies and stuff from my life so far and all of it I mean all of it is completely gone my mom has her old pictures but all the stuff I saved is just gone I'm only 15 and I'm sure I'll make many more memories but all the ones from my earlier childhood have just disappeared


What the heck! you didn't have to burn them, I have kept all my old school books etc for good memories and to look back on in the future, u didn't have to burn your childhood away, let it be there to refer back to and move on happily without erasing it from your life x


"thank you little room you served me well" -yoi


It's not on the same scale but my sister is moving out of our room at the moment and everything is changing in the house, and she's getting rid of a lot of stuff and altering everything. I find it so hard because I'll keep anything, and break my heart over throwing away train tickets and receipts, so whole rooms disintegrating feels weird in the not fun way. Our house is so small and so full of things, so objectively I know this is a good change, but I still hurt a lot over it. I guess part of it is because my friendship with my sister used to be so strong and now the connection just isn't there like it was. Like you said in your description, her moving out just feels like stepping further away from the things that made me truly happy. I find the loss of her friendship to be a kind of constant and domestic devastation. We don't fight much, it just kind of leaks out in unmade tea and silent rooms.

I'm rambling... oops, haha. Thank you for the note of hope in the description Dodie. I'm fairly sure you're not really sure about getting better, but I suppose it's the uncertainty that will make it all the better when it happens. Like, you'll wake up feeling a little better, and because that pleasantly surprises you, you feel even better about it. And then maybe it's kind of an upward spiral that continues, and it could never have happened if happiness was a foregone conclusion. If it leaps suddenly, it has the most powerful effect, maybe.

Rambling again! I'm the worst! Thank you for the video <3 in this weird time, it felt like solidarity. You're the best!


this video makes me emotional and it's not even my house lol


I'm so sorry dodie I really fell bad but it will pay of soon :)


I don't think I would be able to burn a pile of old notebooks and cards aah I'm also too attached to these things. But well done you! (Did you take out the most important pieces though? )


this is so sad I would never burn my school notes and stuff I would find a storage building or a safe for it omg


I hope you kept that Rhett and Link picture! I always wondered who won it.


i didn't really HAVE a childhood home.
i mean, i did, but we moved a whole lot for personal reasons. every new house wasn't a permanent home.
so all im saying is, i have no idea what you're going through. but i genuinely hope that you'll be very VERY happy soon. :)


don't forget about trying not to romanticize the past, it will make you cry even more! the best is yet to come honey


this would be my absolute worst nightmare. I've had 3 hellish years and my home has been so safe. I get to crawl into my bed and feel safe, like the hurt can't touch me. It is so incredibly brave and strong of you to be leaving that behind. But you guys hate that house. You'll be living somewhere so beautiful and while moving on is terrifying and painful, it's through pain that we heal and get stronger. Much love to you dodie, finding your new safe, happy home. And to hedy of course.


Oh my God I also cried when you burnt that stuff cause I know I could never bring myself to burn my diaries and letters and photos and all


Also that random old school picture of you looks soooo much like Hedy hahaha


Memories are in your heart, not in material things.


knowing that this will be me makes my heart ache


"Far better things lie ahead than what ever lie behind"


I can't stand throwing things out because of all the memories and sentiment attached to it.


She burnt her memories. I'm obssesed with time and teenage memories, so just looking at she burning her stuff gave me a headache. So brave, though. I couldn't do it, I'm so attached to the idea of keeping my life inside objects to take care of as if they were a part of myself. It's bad, and sick.


god i get that about keeping all those things...i have boxes and boxes of just notebooks and papers from school that are ultimately meaningless and should have been trashed years and years ago just because i've felt like i needed to have them around. even though i'm away at college and i'm there more than my actual house, i do feel as if it's my "base ground," as you put it. i know the day's going to to come soon that my dad will want to sell the house and i can't imagine what that's going to feel like. this was a very beautiful and honest video <3


I just teared up a little as I hate the town I'm from and my first "home" was a shitty little flat so I never cared for it but then me and my mum moved into this house which visually is shit but it's my base and I moved to London for uni and then moved back home after a year and next year I'm officially moving to London. I won't miss the physicality of the house but my mum, memories it's gonna be hard. London is my home. I felt it when I first moved, it's gonna be fine.


This is not the happiest of stories but I really do relate to pretty much everything you say in this video. I had a box exactly like the one you put in the fire. It had notebooks, drawing, notes with friends, little random objects that were from very important times in my life. We moved house when I was 13 and I put all that stuff in that box and marked it with: Memories do not throw away. I was not so much upset to move out of my childhood home because there were some horrible things that happened to me in that house that I am still trying to sort through in my head, but it was the whole idea of leaving the memories that were made while I was living in that house. Anyway, once we moved I was still going to school and I went on a school camp for a week, while I was gone my Mother decided to clean my room and sort through everything for me (after all these years I do see that she was doing out of the goodness of her heart), but when she was cleaning she threw out my memories box, and I came home to a clean room but when I tried to find the box to put the piece of twine I had threaded into a fishtail braid for my friend, it wasn't there. And I started freaking out. I can still remember that feeling in my chest, just absolute emptiness and horror at the idea of all my memories gone, just like that, they were gone. But after all of these years I finally realise that I can still have those memories but they are just not in physical form anymore. Seeing you burn that box made me burst into tears because I remember exactly how it felt to leave all those memories behind. Stay Strong Dodie. we love you, xx.


Oh dodie. Watching you burn the cardboard box and everything in it made me really sad.


This made me think about "The house that built me" by Miranda Lambert


Why the fuck am I crying right now?
My family had to move a lot when I was a child and then my parents got divorced and my mum and I lived at my grandmas house for like a year until we found a really shitty flat that was kind of affordable. And while that moving with my mum happened, my older brother lived alone in our old house but he couldn't maintain a house so big at the age of 18 so my dad sold it because he already lived with his girlfriend.
What I want to say is, that I was really young and I just didn't deal with all that shit because I just couldn't but now I think about all that and it makes me kind of sad that I never said goodbye to that house because I loved it so much and it breaks my heart when I see it on my way to school and see what the new owner does with it.
So yeah, I kinda know how you feel and I also can't say goodbye to things or people so yeah. That's great.


This made me cry  alot but I don't know why because i've never spent more than a two years in the same home. we moved across the country from my fourth family home when I was six and we've moved seven times since then. nearly every time we move, another collection of memories from our first family home is chucked and I don't care too much because I'm used to it. Every year we go back to my hometown and it's like we never left. I just have so much love and memory attached to it even though I spend so little time there. I think the reason this video made me so emotional was because I could identify so strongly with that attachment to things from the past and things that I have been apart of for so long.

also well done for this Dodie u deserve a good long hug and a rub on the back.


I appreciate that across the pond, you don't have to throw you're stuff out, you can just set that shit on fire in your backyard.  At least in my particular state, you need a license for a fire pit.


I kind of wish I could feel like this? I've moved house seven times and I wish I had a specific home with happy memories (I know there's bad memories too but I don't have any specific happy memories in any of my houses) so it kind of sucks?


I have the exact same problem that you do. I can't let go of the past but the issue is, my parents moved/move a lot. I had no way of physically keep up with or visiting my past. There was one small town in particular that I was really attached to because I thought that that place was where I did the most growing and I thought that place was the peak of my childhood.
Eventually, just a few months ago me and my husband took a road trip back to that town so I could show him where I grew up for a while.
The crazy thing to me was how anxious I was the whole trip. I was kind of scared and I didn't know why.
After all was said and done, I found my closure. I realized that the reason I felt I had grown so much in that one place was because I lived there before my problem with living in the past developed. Eventually I realized I am better off where I am and that I need to live now.
I feel like maybe down the road you can come back one day to the area of the house, relive your past for the day and realize you don't miss it.
I don't know though. I know that people are all different in how they handle things and I just wish you well, Dodie ❤

Also, there is no problem with appreciating the past. I think that's a good thing. 😂


Tear drop 😥 idk this video made me sad but I liked it lol 😂


Fuck that hit me in the feels. This summer my parents moved to Egypt. Now, we've moved house before, but this time saying goodbye was like saying goodbye to a 'base' in the UK. One that I could go to when down or stressed or ill. I hated that house when we moved there (I had a load of friends in the place where we lived before, and the house we moved to was in the middle of nowhere - we genuinely had a bus that would take us to town on a Wednesday and return in a Friday) but now that I can't go back... It's terrifying. It's like I'm a proper adult, who has to make their own base in a city, on their own, without that safety net. They moved in August and I still think about the woods by our house, and taking our dog for walks when I was super down or stressed, and sitting and just watching birds and deer and rabbits. It's weird to mourn a house - and I guess I mourning my dog and the fact my parents buggared off to a different country - but when that place is your 'home' it's hard. Really hard. I hope you're new place is lovely. And if it's not, write a poem about all its faults (like the fact your bedroom door won't close, the heating doesn't work or there's on one bloody bus to Carlise every week), and I'm sure you'll grow to love it ❤


is it alright to ask why you both think the house is so horrible? it looks beautiful to an outsider


trying not to cry in the school library because i was literally in the exact same situation a few months ago, my mum was just as unsympathetic lol but i guess it's easier for our mums now because they see it as getting rid of the clutter and life getting easier, just herself and the children. but FUCK it was hard for me to move, and to watch this video lol


my mum also makes me tap all the pokestops when we're driving


oh my god my mum does the same thing with the pokemon haha love her


I've never lived in the same place more than 3 years soooooooooooo. But I still love you


i think that home is the people you're with, not the place you sleep in. you have your wonderful family so in a way you'll always have a home :) ily Dodie xx


it looks like you're living on a farm. cowgirl!dodie


I will never have this. Ive had to move around every few years for all of my childhood... I can't get attached to things anymore


This is so sweet. Watching you put your memories on the fire reminded me of when I moved away for my childhood home. You're so wonderful Dodie ❤


Oh my god your backyard of burning memories!


Dodie, I completely understand. I have no idea if this'll help you or not, but I wanted to quickly share... basically I am extremely similar to you. I was a super happy child and LOVED my house and my siblings and my parents and I thought everything was amazing. Things started to go to shit when I was around 12 or 13, my sister developed a severe mental illness and I was old enough to realize there were issues between my folks and my dad was bipolar and angry and lots of wonderful stuff, and then my mom died when I was 15. That was the start of saying goodbye to my home, but then my dad remarried two years later (2014) and everything got even shittier. I was blessed with full blown severe social anxiety as a result of my mom dying, which then turned into a full blown anxiety disorder by the time my dad remarried. I met a boy and we dealt with a lot of crap and he helped me cope with the hell that happened when my step mom moved in (a story for another time). that boy and I struggled a lot to make things work but he is wonderful and now we're getting married. <3 But basically, I've cried buckets of tears and felt my heart break over letting this home go, first because my mom died and then because my step mom changed it-- the first time she cleaned the living room i went and sobbed for an hour because the clutter had been part of my life always and it felt like I was losing my mom and my childhood all over again. I really cannot express how hard it was to say goodbye, even while I was still living there. I think I'm finally coming to a sense of peace about it though. This house isn't my home anymore, my home is in my soon-to-be-house with my soon-to-be-husband, even though I'm living with my family for a couple more months now. I've said my goodbyes and even though I have a few more tears to cry I'm sure, Dodie you will get there eventually. It's okay to be heartbroken over this but you will heal. I love you <3 --someone who really understands


I'm a bit dramatic too and in fact I love dramatic dodie


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You see, I will never get the feeling that you have about this house, because I have moved at least once every year I have lived! I'm 14. I do miss previous houses because I did have good times there however I feel like I have never had a childhood home. It becomes hard for me to feel at home sometimes because I just judge the house as a "non-permanent house just for now" kinda house. I do wish I had a childhood home and something I can store all my childhood memories but I can't because I never had one. So consider yourself lucky aha. This is why, when I am older and have a family I am going to stay put in one house while my child grows up, (if I can) and that way my child or children will have a childhood home.


your cat is louder because of the empty house ... in other words the acoustics are different.  Um, Dodie looks like Tori Amos meaning that as a compliment.


Hi there. I'm not on my actual account cause I can't find my phone so this is my cousins account. If this makes you feel better you still look nice when you cry.... and that's impossible because I look like a dying cat but you look like a stunning creature that's just fluttered through the forest of beautifulness.


i started crying when you mentioned alice, ugh i just can't  ;-;


I have no memories of when I was younger and that really scares me like when you guys were talking at the end I just don't think I'll ever have that cause I just don't have any memories and it's so depressing but at the same time I'm glad cause when I was younger a lot of stuff happened that I'm glad I don't remember idek. I like being able to just write here and if people want to read it they can but if not it will just get lost in the sea of comments


Dodie can I just tell you how fucking happy I am for this? of course, not the ending of your home (it's not really) but for the moving on. I am just so fucking happy you're finally moving on. and if it took you to burn all your past memories to just move on then fuck yeah it was worth it. if this helped you and if you thought this was a good thing, then I'm so fucking glad. dear Dodie life cannot be lived if you're always thinking about your past achievements and goals and fun times. you have to think about the present and yes the future too. if this is a step to your moving on and focusing on the present and/or future then good fucking thing. seriously, your mum is so right, about fucking time you got on. this isn't to be mean, I'm trying to congratulate you. yes it's hurting, everything hurts. but it will be good for you. you'll become this amazing person, not that you're not already, and you'll not get sad over your past but you'll be excited for your present. putting goals so you can reach them is important too. Omg you have no fucking idea how happy I am for you. continue your amazing YouTube channel, flash us with awesome videos and vlogs and MUSIC. the best of luck ❤❤❤ I'll still obviously watch you in other videos, this is not goodbye lolz


im really sentimental as well but i also hate hording so its kind of conflicting. my best friend gave me an acorn AN ANCORN when i moved away from where he lived and i kept it for like 7 years until i finally lost it recently and it was so upsetting.


I would be crying.. the whole video would have been my crying lmao 😿😿 im sorry


i remember that backyard when hedy did the ice bucket challenge :)


Epping is only up the road to me, BUT I need to know what was on your pizza because I stared for ages and I couldn't work it out aha


I live in the neighbouring town, Harlow!!!! much love xx 🖤


My old house got knocked down and we built on top of it my new house and now it feels more like home here


I shouldn't be watching this too many emotions aaahhh


I was told to burn things  that mean the most to you..letters of love etc etc.Weeks ago I was clearing out my stuff and writings from the past and wish I could have burnt them. It seems to easy to discard things...but I'm contemplating starting a new life far away from home and I know I cannot take everything (question is....what should you take?!!) but throwing away stuff is throwing away things that you had memories with,things that shaped you as you are now.Grrrr lol...


I'm 16 and never moved. My house isn't necessarily the memories, but this town. I could never leave this town. In reality, this city isn't all that great, every one of my friends just talks about getting out of hear one day. But I don't think I could live without the trails and downtown city side walks. I love this town so much and I've begged my brothers and my friends to never leave it because I cherish it and my memories of it to much. I can't help crying at this video because I know this feeling. I keep scrapbooks and pictures and boxes full of everything because I'm scared of forgetting it all, but the one thing I can't stick on a paper or a letter or a box is this house in this neighbourhood in this town. I love travel and love exploring new things, but I struggled even letting my parents renovate a room because it was nothing like the memories I had, I don't know how I will ever move to an unfamiliar town with unfamiliar people well my childhood gets dumped in the bin.


I'm going to be doing the same thing soon, this summer actually, I hate the thought of thinking about it. I came here (to America) when I was like, 7 or 6, and now, (7 or eight years later) I have to say goodbye to eVERYTHING. My room, my friends, my belongings, and my home. Im terrified.


I could never burn my childhood omg I just couldn't physically gbddhjhn I'm so nostalgic


I honestly cant relate to this, because I moved so many times as a child. I dont have a childhood "home".


Fuck, I became emotional over leaving a house I've never eVEN SEEn


I'm kind of glad that I never had one childhood house... I've moved in and out of small NYC apartments all my life.


You didn't have to make it such a final thing, if you had just ignored it and moved on with your life that might have been less painful x


when she asks you to catch Pokémon to distract you 😂💛


Live in Buckhurst Hill and loads of my family lives in epping and I love it there


dodie and I are in sync with periods, shh important stuff


Also dodie doing what you're doing is unbelievably SHIT so you're allowed to be "dramatic" (your not) it hurts. It's ok for it to hurt. let it hurt be dramatic and help you and your family get through all this shite lmao


Anyone else heart break a little during this video...


1:34 that is a nice Dodie yellow tarp you got there in the dumpster


I don't have anything from high school or primary school left. As soon as I left high school I threw it all away. I had the polar opposite experience of Dodie, I hated every waking moment of school, when I left. I felt free, I dumped everything that reminded me of school because I still have PTSD from shit that happened (yes I'm diagnosed). Why would I ever keep anything that reminds me of the worst time of my life.


I'm burning the memories <br>burning the letters...

I'm burning the memories
burning the letters...


am i the only one who noticed how similarly hedy speaks to dodie? like the way they form their sentences and how they speak is so similar. idk just a lil thing i noticed


how do you talk so normal about your feelings?
i don't
i don't get family love like what


I get depersonalisation (I think Dodie has it as well) and so because I don't feel a lot right now, I focus on the past, before I got this thing that messes up my feelings. I remember the past and think of it as the times when I could be happy. The one constant home in my life is my Grandparents farm, and I can't imagine throwing away the objects that hold my memories. Yay rant about my shit mental health and how I hate it :)


Aw dodie

Also I hate to seem heartless but I was watching the progression of the pizza


I 100% relate to being a sentimentalist, even about the smallest and stupidest of things, so I would find what you're going through hard too. I just want to send you like a billion hugs rn <3 x


a home is not a place, a home is the family that you have.


Can I just like hug your mum, you and Hedy please? Can I just give your mum a big hug with you in the middle and Hedy in the middle with a cat please?


doodie dont eat pizza while recording i cant focus on wat u r saying my mind is thinking all the way since i saw that pizza of what does it taste like and that i want one right now!


aww your momma is so sweet <3 ((also me with pokemon go))   :))


I got to 3:03 before just pausing and sobbing


I know this is probably not what Dodie wants to hear and I know she probably checked before doing this - is she gonna regret getting rid of any photos or letters? Like especially if they made her happy?


Omg did you say Milly Molly Mandy books? Those were my favourite as a child!


omg what on earth your garden is the nicest view


It took me too long to realize that was Hedy at the end.


there is so much irony with you being dorothy from the wizard of oz..... and i love it. weird how life is huh?


Omfg i love how her mum plays Pokemon go, that's so awesome!


i hope my parents sell this house that would be too much for me to handle


3:08 at the bottom corner of the poster is that the dog that PJ used in his first animation? FUNNY


how come she always talks about hedy and has her in her videos but this is like the first time we even hear about ian


wow this timing is a weird coincidence but ha Im moving in a few months across the country, and geez im not ready to drive down all these roads I know for the last time.


we won't place any stock in old days<br>let's save up for something new <3

we won't place any stock in old days
let's save up for something new <3


why did i watch “sad gogglebox moments” and then this? i’m sobbing


omg I need that jumper , where did you get it from !!! 💞


I started crying because I hate my home but the day I say bye to it will be hard


I was like nooooo when she put the box in the fire


I've been in the exact same situation and it's horrible ,weird and aghhhh but it's all ok in the end


'How many times have you said goodbye to your room?!'


I saw you in the car because you used to live near me and i didn't believe it was you today but now i realise it was you


why i am crying so much at this lol help


Can someone tell me what she said at the end? "Happy Vedif??!" I just started watch Dodie. Love it! But what?! Vedif?!


I wanted there to be a little room (reprise) so bad


The way i see time, i think, is that everything that has happened, the past, does technically not exist. like, the only thing that does exist is right now, not the future, not the past. it not something i often think about, i wouldn't say that i completely live in the now all the time, i think everyone needs to look back and forward every now and again. But i see it as that everything constantly change, maybe just the smallest details, and everything that is will never be again. so in a way, with every second or millisecond if you will (time is just a construct blah blah blah) youre saying goodbye to something. im not gonna pretend that i would be more fine if i had to go through something like this. its still saying goodbye to something huge, you dont own this house anymore so its not your home. but what has happened has still happened, all your memories of this place exist just as much as before you sold the house. selling the house doesnt change the memories. im just trying to sort out my thoughts of this video, feel free to not care <3


i cried and its not my stuff , im scared of letting go as well


When Dodie put her teenager stuff in the fire it was so sad v.v


OMG i didn't know that you won a competition of a Rhett and Link song! Cool stuff...


omg you burning that box. im afraid I might have to do that one day too


Omg I'm cryyyiiinnnggggg I don't wanna grow up and say goodbye to my own hommeeeeeeee😓😓😓😓😓


she just....tossed it...in the fire<br>im so sad for u, good luck bud. i get nostalgic from time to time, but my childhood, wasn't bad, just nothin' special to miss too much.

she just....tossed it...in the fire
im so sad for u, good luck bud. i get nostalgic from time to time, but my childhood, wasn't bad, just nothin' special to miss too much.


"It's a pretty shit home anyway."

"There's your childhood... In the skip"

ASTRID I ADORE YOU ❤


I'm only 14. I have not moved out of this place, and I used to plan to never move out I loved it so much. But with my prick brother and my parents who never really help me with any of my problems, this is the worst place to be. So I often get home and get on the computer, put on my headphones, and drown them out, all the way until I go to bed. Daily. Its very unhealthy. And all I want to do is move 800km away and live with my aunt. My favourite one.


Please tell me I'm not the onlyone who thought that Ed Sheeran will suddenly appear in the yard singing castle on the hill


Once there was a way... To get back homeward..


8 month befor I moved out of my parents house, they moved. I didn't want that. the new home was only 3km from my old home away but there was nothing it was a house in the middle of nothing. it wasn't easy to meet friends or go to partys 'cause you always needed a car. and now I don't have a real home anymore, I live in my own apartment and it it's nice but not home


+doddleoddle holy crap you're from Epping! I used to live in Gants Hill and go to Epping Forest as a kid!


I love that your mom wants you to play Pokémon Go for her lol


I'm crying so bad... why IM NOT SUPPOSED TO THIS IS NOT MY HOUSE OR SOMETHING


this is so sad :(( could dodie not have taken some notebooks ect to her flat or the new house and stored it away? xo


YOU HAVE SUCH A NICE HOUSE LIKE THE PLACE YOU LIVE IS IN THE COUNTRY I LIVE IN FUCKING SHEFFIELD WHERE MY LUNGS DIE EVERYDAY


my mom still plays pokémon go as well and it's the funniest thing 😂😂


it hurts my heart that you burned all that paper instead of recycling it aaah


ugh you took this way better than I would have had. LITERALLY BURNING YOUR HAPPINESS WTF I WOULD HAVE JUST BOUGHT ONE WHOLE SEPARATE HOUSE JUST TO KEEP A BUNCH A USELESS CRAP THAT I HAD WHEN I WAS A KID.


God is was so difficult for me to move out


I know this is serious and sad but at the same time the fact theRE'S JUST A FUCKING FIRE IN THE BACKYARD 😂😂😂


how old is your sister? she's so mature wtf


so how long did you actually live in the house for?


I can't believe you live so near to me :) xx


is that flower in your hair Dodie yellow?


The thing is, I don't think people ever really let go of past things such as their former home. There will ALWAYS be something that reminds you of it whether it be a picture, a sound, a smell etc. Saying goodbye is hard, but just know (happily) that you'll always remember your home....I don't really know where I was or am going with that and I could have said it much better, but I am like you Dodie, I hold on to the past. It's good to say goodbye and it can be sad, but be happy that you'll always have memories of it If this made any sense to anyone bravo


You could have kept your childhood stuff... I mean, if it brought you that much joy. :( But I'm sorry you had to go through all that.


is that flower in her hair #Dodieyellow?


my house is rented so this is my worst fear lol


Whattt rhett and link why my favorite YouTubers are all related that feels so strange


I was hoping Little Room would play in the background


I've just found out that I'm moving house in a month


Your mum '...but it's a shit home' - hilarious!


Why do all mothers have that same flip phone case haha


OH MY GOD YOU HAD A PICTURE SIGNED BY RHETT AND LINK !!!


When hedy first started talking I thought it was tessa lol


(WARNING: I am an over emotional peice os shit and thing is something youshould probably skip past) When i watched this i was just so emotional. 5 years ago I left my family house i was only eight but I think it was one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. I would play games with my dad and help my mum cook dinner i was happy all the time and would always be around my family. But then my parents split and we had to sell the house. Me being so young and wanting to keep all my toys and gifts my mum decided it was better that she dealt with it and chucked them all out. It was a supposed "fresh start" but afterward I just felt awful. I would never talk to my parents and they would never talk to each other. Everyone distanced themselves from each other. My dad has moved five times in the past year so with him nothings really felt like home and as for my mum we have had one house but again for some reason I don't call it home. I don't feel happy and I haven't felt happy in a long time. I have just realized while watching this video that i have felt down the past 5 years of my life and I really wish I still had my home back


My room floods, because its in the basement, and its been like ten fucking years and my parents havent taken the problem seriously (because we/they never have any damn money) and it finally got to the point that it soaked the cardboard boxes that had some books and tapes in them, like Little Golden Books, probably gems, worth something. And the ones we couldnt save we set on fire. Or at least my parents kind of set them on fire. But then they never did the job properly and now they are covered in snow and ice and the sodden box stares at me when i look out my window. But the other stuff, less precious, barbies, rusted toys,  homework i could never quite throw away are all fine. I really should get rid of them.  Its not like any of my brothers or sister will be having kids, and the kids wont want our shitty used toys lol. I still have a few porcelain dolls and stuffed animals i keep in my room. One of them is Pongo from 101 Dalmations. These i have no intention of ever getting rid of.


But, Dodie, I'm just wondering why you burnt everything ? Couldn't you keep your boxes ?


this made me sad and its not even my house


i can't believe you put all that in the fire. i would've just like made a scrapbook or something. wow. that hurt me watching you do that. i can't even imagine how you felt.


What did Hedy say at 4:05? "mum, can you please stop ..." ?


I watched "When" 15 million times after this


Don't you just wish sometimes that you could relate less?


i don't understand why you berned all your happy memories from your teenage years :'(


OMG my mom does the exactly same thing with pokemon go ."

Anyway, I don't speak english very well, so I'm not sure if I understood what's going on:
Why does she have to get rid of all those memories? Is it because the new house is too little or what else?
Then, I don't want to be tactless, but what happened to her father?

I know it's not my business, but she is sharing it with the world so...?

OMG my mom does the exactly same thing with pokemon go -.-"

Anyway, I don't speak english very well, so I'm not sure if I understood what's going on:
Why does she have to get rid of all those memories? Is it because the new house is too little or what else?
Then, I don't want to be tactless, but what happened to her father?

I know it's not my business, but she is sharing it with the world so...?


Didn't have to burn everything, just keep it


what city are you moving to? did you live in London before?


But for real I'm glad you're dealing with it and not suppressing it forever, I'm proud of you


I need to do that. Move on and such. yeah...


if that was Tess in the background towards the end she's one grown alot and two sounds a little American


em i sitting next to me crying over this so thIS SHOULD BE A FUN VIDEO


Why couldn't you bring the box of your memories and keep it in a cupboard or something in your flat? x


I move every 2 years, i don't understand why someone gets attached to a house, can someone educate me?


I also noticed some good refreshments... 1:45  lol


I don't understand why you can' just keep some stuff. I feel like burning it is a bit over dramatic


dodie; <b>is crying</b> her mum; can you get the pokeballs please we're at a pokestop

dodie; *is crying* her mum; can you get the pokeballs please we're at a pokestop


Oh but wait why did you have to burn everything? Could you keep some stuff?? :((


Does someone knows where Ian (the brother) is? Because I really want to know idk


A little girl grew up in here. She's far too  grown up to live here anymore.


your not obligated to answer this because im sure you have valid reasons but i only wondered why youre throwing so much away instead of say giving some away?


dodie where are you moving to( kinda creepy sounding, weird question but still curious)


Where abouts is that house. I ask out of curiosity as I think I live kinda near in Walthamstow


Home is not the place, home is the people.


Sorry, why did you throw that stuff away? Honestly, this is just creating a problem so you can be dramatic. Who doesn't just love diving into a box of memories? You'll regret burning that when your older.


Is that Hedy speaking in the background?


also I love that your mom plays pokemon go


Im the same...i hate change and I don't like letting go


Your mum plays Pokemon go aw that's so cute


Love you and your music Dodie! You're such a big inspiration to me, thank you for all you have done! <3 <br>stay positive ;)

Love you and your music Dodie! You're such a big inspiration to me, thank you for all you have done! <3
stay positive ;)


I'm feeling awfully anxious today, so thank you, Dodie, for posting this. Your videos always make me less stressed and more at ease <3


Oh, dodie, your videos make me so happy. Even though this one's a bit sad. I hope everything goes well for you in the future. Much love xx


I love you Dodie and I hope everything continues to be good <3


What a lovely end to the day. Dodie you always brighten my day xx


I'm actually SO in love with the bit where Dodie sits on the floor and eats pizza and just chats with her mom and sister. It's such an adorable little window into her (their) life and it's just a really cute moment okay


dodie I feel the same way and I know it's hard to let go of memories


your mum is so great i love how she tried to reassure you and make you laugh. she's great. hope all gets well soon. much love <3


Hedy is so smart and mature! Tons of hugs for both of you ❤


I fully empathise with the tears. I cry at thought of having to say goodbye to my home one day when my sister and I have left.


You'll always have us lot as a home and an anchor, if that helps in any way 💜 Also Hedy and your mum are so awesome, I had a good old chortle at "there's your childhood, in the skip". Lots of love and hugs 💛


Honestly, I can't wait till that year, that Vlog, when Dodie realises that she's beaten a lot of her struggles and doesn't live in before and after a crappy brain because her brain will not be crappy and she will be happy which is all we really want, right? Even though she's still the most adorable human being now, dodie deserves to be happy aLL the time <3


I could never do any of this, YOUR so strong dodie! I congratulate you! (I may or may not have cried while watching this realizing I'll have to do this)


I cannot tell you how much I can relate to this. Thank you Dodie for sharing this, I love you. God bless!


Oh what i wouldn't give to just go and give her a big warm calming hug ❤ So so proud of you dodie 😘 stay strong 💪


I'm sorry about everything going on Dodie, I hope you'll feel better, ❤❤❤ you


i get really nostalgic all the time, but i usually take the feeling and pour it into a song, and cry. crying helps so much, because its like you're releasing the feelings from inside with tears. idk just how i see it. love your vids dodie❤✨👍


Oh I got a little teared up.. I had this connection with my older home when I was younger. I didn't want to move, it was my playground to discover so many things. Sometimes when I ride by it and see it I'm like ya thats my home and it will always be my home. I don't care who lives there now, it was mine and it will still have my memories. hugs for you dodie <3


I've lived in the same house for all the 16 years of my life. And although I haven't left yet, I know that when I do it will be so hard. Each bit of chopped paintwork and furniture scuff has meant something at some point. But your video resonates with me because I know I need to get better at dealing with change - it is my biggest and ultimately my worst fear. And leaving home would be a HUGE change. I hope I can look back on it as you have with happy memories. Much love Dodie x


Hedy is so young but so mature, it's so beautiful :')


nostalgia is such a beautiful and melancholic feeling


Life pro tip: Take pictures before throwing things away, that way you can relive your letters/see your past possessions and not forget them.


No matter the video, Dodie's videos just make me smile, even today which has been very rough, so thankyou <3


I feel you dodie. I moved last summer out of my childhood home. Even tho I moved like 10 minutes away, I felt like a wreck. I was a mess but aye I made it 🙃🙃


awww poor dodes, i wish i could give you cuddles and love♥


this feels so relevant bc my family and i are in the process of moving out of my childhood home due to family stuff and it's hard saying goodbye to how solid the place is and what it represents. even though i feel like i said goodbye when i left for college, it sucks to have to pack up your life and leave somewhere you've always lived :(


You'll always have the memories though regardless of the tangible stuff! It's healthy to let go, I've pretty much only kept photos from my childhood (backup up in like a billion places cause paranoia)


This was so hard to watch D: I keep every one of my scripts from shows, every ticket from concerts I've been to, memories from travels, and I write down every happy memory every day.. I'd rather burn furniture and clothes to make room than burn my memories tbh you're so strong


so many feelings!
thank you for sharing this!
i dread the day i leave my home, since i struggle with letting go too. but i need to remember that all my memories, and my family will still be with me! just in a different location.
again thank you for sharing this and i love your cat
yeah


The last house I lived in is the house I have my earliest memories in. It was definitely hard to let it go, but I had 2-3 years to say goodbye (We struggled to get this new one). The thing that I miss the most about the last house I lived in is the memories that were made in it. The house was too small to fit my whole family and my Grandma in. There were three of us sleeping in one room which is very cramped and leads to many disagreements. The kitchen was super tiny, and the only place you could be alone was the bathroom. I don't miss the house, I miss the things we did together in the house. Not the fights or any of the bad times, but the Christmas's and the birthdays. The times different family members would come over or the holidays we'd spend together. It's definitely difficult to let go of the place that reminds you of those memories all the time, but you never lose the memories themselves.<br>Anyways, love you Dodie <3

The last house I lived in is the house I have my earliest memories in. It was definitely hard to let it go, but I had 2-3 years to say goodbye (We struggled to get this new one). The thing that I miss the most about the last house I lived in is the memories that were made in it. The house was too small to fit my whole family and my Grandma in. There were three of us sleeping in one room which is very cramped and leads to many disagreements. The kitchen was super tiny, and the only place you could be alone was the bathroom. I don't miss the house, I miss the things we did together in the house. Not the fights or any of the bad times, but the Christmas's and the birthdays. The times different family members would come over or the holidays we'd spend together. It's definitely difficult to let go of the place that reminds you of those memories all the time, but you never lose the memories themselves.
Anyways, love you Dodie <3


I am actually sobbing. This reminded me of when I moved out of my first home around one and a half years ago. The home I loved so much and the one place that was stable, was going away. It seemed like that old house had been so full of happy memories and this new one full of nothing but depression, fear, and resentment. But thinking that way is terrible. This house will have its own lovely memories just as that one did, it just might take a bit more time. I've only got 4(ish) years left here, so I'd better make the most of it!

idk what this comment was I just thought I'd share my experience with moving house. :)

saying goodbye is also ma big trig we have this in common


oh dodes, my heart broke when you put your box on the fire. I'm sorry you had to do this and feel so much pain. We love you x


"Thank you little room, you've served me well
I'm sorry for all the nail polish and tea I've spilled
You've seen my secrets, my fears, my best friend, my tears
My loved and lost encased inside these walls
A little girl grew up in here
She's far too grown up to live here any more."
...
I'M SORRY IF THIS MADE YOU MORE SAD IT JUST ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT. 😭❤ WE LOVE YOU DODIE.


i feel this SO SO much, exactly the same thing happened 2 years ago with the apartment i grew up in, and i'm still not over it. to have that place where you had all those lovely memories and to know you can always return to it if things don't go too well always gave me that sense of security. hope you can make your current home a place like that, too :3 anyway i really felt you hurting, hugsss


Too real. One of my biggest fears is my dad leaving my childhood home and having to get rid of everything, especially my mam's things (she died 5 years ago). Hope you're okay Dodie <3


This almost made me cry. I'm probably gonna have to do the same soon, maybe in a year or two (seems far away but!!) and it'll be so hard to say goodbye to this house i've always lived in... i know i'm gonna react the same way you did, so watching you almost prepared me a bit in a way.


I'm super sentimental, so I totally get it. Hope you feel better soon!


I actually kinda cried a little bit bc of how lovely Dodie and her mother's relationship seems to be


This hit a nerve for me ngl I cried so much watching this


Dodie my dear, I know I; for one, relate &would do just as much. My heart ached when you threw your happiness box into fire. Letting go gets easier by time. We love you, &Hedi &your mom.


this vid is just sweet in that way. i dont know when you literally were burning a box of your old memories, just damn. saying goodbye to the past sucks, but good job!! you're working through it and things will be okay !!


I wanted to hug you so bad throughout this video :(, love you so much babe hope you're feeling better soon xxx


even though i totally can not say that i know you, i feel like i do kinda, and i can not describe how much i want everything to be okay for you and your family. you are literally such a fighter and so strong and so giving, and i just hope that you know that and feel that. this is so cheesy to write, but i just hope that you get the message. i adore you


oh dodie you're so sweet i understand how sentimental you are because i am too. but everyone sells their childhood homes and it's emotional but that's okay


Oh my fucking godddd I am so happy for you, I mean, you change your life, make many for help your family and yourself. I admire you like a freakin lot :)))

I fucking adore you, woman. thanks for share you life with all of us :)))) really. Love you, Dodie. I know that you will be as happy as you were in your childhood, is the least that you deserve just for being the most lovely, charming and beautiful human that I have ever see :)


so beautiful and sad. I love you Dodie, you'll be fine.


I love looking back at my past because I think that I was so much happier when I was younger. But the only problem with memories, I think, is that they change over time and seem nicer now then they actually were. It probably wasn't as good as you think I guess


Awww. I've never really stayed in 1 house for too long. My dad was in the army and the navy. We recently moved so his drive to work is only 1 hour and now he's in Iraq for his new job(still working with the army) so we're always moving around. It's kinda sad, but I don't remember most of the places I lived.😢❤


how can anyone dislike this?! :(

it's kind of funny, i love letting go of stuff, but i'm still super nostalgic and sometimes i regret letting go of too much stuff...and i still now and then visit the place where i felt the happiest, the least, uhm, 'mad' i guess, when things seemed ok etc and i still cry every time (i go there like once every year or every second year). thanks for sharing this dodie <3


your videos give me a breath from my life.


shit now I'm emotional.
My family moved from what I'd consider my "childhood home" into a new home when I was in 9th grade. I consider our current house my home, and I'm so grateful for that.
But I'm in college, so now I'm dealing with viewing a dorm building as a home and realizing that I'm not going to live with my hallmates after this year. Hell, I thought I'd at least be living with my roommate next year but that didn't work out (no hard feelings though! it was the best decision for both of us (: ).
I struggle with feelings of inadequacy and loneliness, and that's all culminated in me wanting to consider this place a home, but also not wanting to get too attached because I'll leave it all behind at the end of this year. All the familiarity, the comfort, the home-iness of my room will be stripped away, and someone that I'll never meet will live here next year. And I'll have to make a new home once again.

"Home" is such a weird concept. There's no standard definition, for everyone views their home slightly differently. You might see your home as the people you're with, the memories you make, or you might not consider your current living situation as your home. Nevertheless, I hope whoever reads this finds their home. Cherish the people and places where you're the most "you" <3


I'm really sick right now (I was throwing up all night) so I watched this video and just sobbed. I know I'm emotional right now but I can really relate. I moved around a lot when I was younger but it still hurt leaving. Not even that I didn't want to move on but those places I lived were so familiar to me, I knew every floorboard and every room had so many memories. My family was really settled where we live now and I now we aren't moving anytime soon but sitting in our living room I couldn't help but cry.


this made me feel really sad because i have to leave a lot of things behind kinda soon (yay) but it made me kinda feel better to move on from things

ily dodie


Literally cried for you all the way through


I completely understand.. While my parents had basically separated by the time I was born and I never exactly had a typical 'mother, father, sibling' situation going on, I get your sentimentality. I am the most sentimental person you could find (I still keep cinema tickets from the movies I find memorable). In my childhood home there's still stickers on the wall after I had gone on a sticking spree around the house aged 3, even remnants of Tippex I once tipped over onto the stairs from the first floor. When I moved out of that house I took nearly everything I had. If you look hard enough at any part of my current home you'll see that I've kept nearly everything from my childhood: birthdays cards, (rubbish) drawings, school copy books from when I was in primary school. All of it completely pointless but for some reason the thought of letting go of it all is heartbreaking. I'm lucky that I still have family living in my childhood home so maybe I don't truly get how you feel. I just want to say that I admire you undoubtedly for your courage to let go. Love you Dodie ❤


a tear sprang up in my eye when dodie was throwing the box in the fire i can t cry my mum is looking at me


I have literally lived in the same home since before i was born and i can't imagine what it's going to be like when i move out, let alone if my parents ever sell the place. I've kept all of my old things as well - notebooks, and concert passes, and such and i can't imagine how i'd ever be able to literally burn all of it like you did. All that to say, it's an understandably emotional day even if that house hasn't been your "home" for a while. I have no place just giving out advice as i don't actually know you, dodie, and i certainly don't know anything about your personal/family life so i won't pretend that i have any/do but i'm sending you tons of warmth and light and just as much general positivity as i can ♥


Dodie don't worry. We will be near you in your house like a happy family. We will make you have loads more memories that you'll never forget.


when dodie threw her box on the fire i started crying cause i also have a box of happy mems :,)


As soon as you said Epping, I was immediately focused on trying to recognise things in the background. Strange to think you lived so close to me! :D


i just moved out of my family home as well. it is the absolute weirdest feeling ever. but i promise it gets better. promise promise <3


Every time i see your sad face i say "awwww, dont be sad :("


and now i'm crying, 'cause i know i'm gonna have to say goodbye to my family house someday too. shit


AWWWW Dodie. We love you. Take care of yourself


I just watched the Last Five Years so I was already shakey as shit and normally this would never have upset me just given me a feeling of disconnected interest but like rn I'm in bits watching this


This is so real for me right now. I move out with my boyfriend next Thursday and I'm ecstatic but also petrified. I'm so close with my family I feel like I'm almost grieving for them it's so weird. I'm also so annoyed to be leaving my two family cats at home. It's just gonna be so bloody weird. Ugh!


Dodie, I completely understand. I moved out of my parents' house last year and it was so easy. I moved to my favourite city, in a big beautiful and spacious apartment. I moved out of my mom's clutter, her being a teacher with a lot of paperwork but not the capacity to throw anything away, it honestly felt like sometimes i was living in an episode of hoarders. However, once my younger brother moves out, in two or three years... i don't know how long it will be before my parents move into a house suited for two instead of four. And when that day comes, i don't know how i'll be able to say goodbye to the room i grew up from the age of 6 to 18. I was a child in there, i became a teen in there, i had my year and a half of depression and suicidal tendencies in there, i healed in there, i got better and healthier in there, i started making art in there and i'm now a happy, complex and beautiful person because of everything i went through in my room, in my house. i sympathise with you so much Dodie and i hope this experience will be positive for you in the long run. Closing chapters like this is an opportunity to start a new one, a brighter one. Thank you for vedif, Dodie x


you and your family are so genuine and nice


It was almost the same situation for me a year ago because i always thought i move out and then i can come back in my old room and just spend some time where my childhood was but it all became different and of certain circumstances we had to move out,  i didn’t want to and i didn’t expect i had to so it was especially hard but now a year later i come to terms that yes i spend most of my life in this house and have so many memories there but it's just a house, i still have the people i love around me and that makes me feel like i'm home 😊👍 <br>But it's still hard so i understand your pain but it will get better,  stay strong 😘

It was almost the same situation for me a year ago because i always thought i move out and then i can come back in my old room and just spend some time where my childhood was but it all became different and of certain circumstances we had to move out,  i didn’t want to and i didn’t expect i had to so it was especially hard but now a year later i come to terms that yes i spend most of my life in this house and have so many memories there but it's just a house, i still have the people i love around me and that makes me feel like i'm home 😊👍
But it's still hard so i understand your pain but it will get better,  stay strong 😘


I just understand this so well omg. Even being away and knowing you're not going to live there permanently again its just a safety blanket knowing that its still there and the house itself as you remember it is still there, even if you're not. I always used to wonder if I felt so attached to our family home because we moved in just before my 2nd birthday so its literally all I've ever known but I think its just that, like you, I'm a very sentimental person and what's more sentimental than a place I have literally spent more time in than I have anywhere else on the planet. I guess I just wanted to remind you that you're definitely not alone in finding it so hard to say goodbye to a house you've already really said goodbye too. Also your family seem so amazing, your mum seems to know exactly the right things to ask to help you figure things out on your own x


Dude, secondary school me would have DEFINITELY had crush on secondary school Doddie. Also, I recently had to say goodbye to my childhood home. Don't worry, it get's infinitely easier. Especially when you realize that your childhood home isn't the only constant in an ever changing world.


Bless your cotton socks ❤ lotta love sent your way ma sweetie


I'm such a hoarder of memories too, but when I went to college, I cleared out all of my old school stuff. I kept some, like old writing portfolios and cards, but the rest I threw into the recycling bin. Something about my good memories/proof of my hard work being made into new things made me feel a lot better about it, think.


When you said "Im just looking for somewhere..." and I automatically thought over the rainbow. Since you were talking about the wizard of oz you should do a cover of over the rainbow! Pleeeeeeeeeeeze dodie ❤❤❤


At the start of this video i already knew what this was about and i had to stop myself from crying because ive gone through this not even a month ago. You have been living like outside of that home for a while. Ive also lived for 20 years in the same place in the same home and especially the last two years were so important. I turned 20 there and now ive moved to a new house with my parents still (because im just to broke to live alone) and ive only been here for a month. Im feeling good though. 2017 started moving out and moving into the new home. Even though i still miss the place with all the old memories and the place that has my best friends grave and the place i had my first kiss and the place where i cried over dodie clark originals and the place where i f*cking grew up. I think, no im 100% sure that you have helped me through this. Ive said this before and you never noticed me but thank you thank you thank you (oh my god i barely ever cry and ive been crying throughout this whole proces of me writing the comment) (im dutch btw sorry for the spelling)


I literally cried so much during these few five minutes. I cried at the caption, I cried during the video, and I cried watching your snapchat, which is beside the point. I remember moving away from my home town across the country a few years ago. It was horrible. It was just awful. Goodbyes are just the ABSOLUTE thing for me, and I felt like having to say goodbye to my entire childhood and my memories and the special rooms and windows and backyard and furniture was just... completely unbearable. And still, when we go back up there and just drive by and I see how different it is and remember how I'll never be able to see those memories the same again I start tearing up.
But even through all of that, I cannot IMAGINE how hard it must be for you. I never had to burn my stuff or completely get rid of everything.
So, Dodie, I am so sorry you're going through this, but I just want you to know you aren't alone. I'm sorry for ranting, it just kind of... Came out. Love you


Awwww dodie let me hug you <b>sends internet hugs</b>

Awwww dodie let me hug you *sends internet hugs*


I hope you have a fabulous day, anyone who reads this 😘


Thank you for showing what bravery and strength looks like. Can I somehow give you a virtual hug? Or when you come to Amsterdam will you hang out with me and share a real hug? :) (I'm not going to Vidcon, so can you come to my house? :D)


I've moved last year and I loved that home because it was so near the woods and the last place where my dad lived (he died almost six years ago) and when we left and turned the corner for the last time, I was a mess. I still miss it, but my new home is nice as well.


the biggest con of being a really nostalgic person is that it literally hurts so much when you've had such a great past and a shitload of happy memories etc and you know you don't feel that way now and you constantly look back and dwell over those times as to where you are in life now and make constant comparisons; in other words, i feel ya dodie

ugh life o m g


Oh Dodie, I'm sorry. Just know that stuff is exactly that, just stuff. And you're still gonna have all those  memories.  You'll be alright.💛


Dodie, my house was turned into a Dentistry. I saw 7 years of my life shoved into a small bedroom that I can't even go into because of allergies. I returned home and was told I can only keep a box of my memories and I was heartbroken. I also recall more than half of the ORIGINAL pictures of 7 years of my childhood being washed away in a flood. I'm sure I do not understand what you're going through, but I know you are strong enough to get through it. X


i'm experiencing something the same rn. my family has decided to move houses and we have lived here for 18 years. i don't like it here, but i am going to cry when we leave. it's not home but it's the closest i've gotten to one. i grew up here and so many things have happened just in my tiny room. i'm gonna miss all those memories.


your mummm is so niceee~ like im in love with you and hedy and your mum <3