I love my nana's house. my family has always been fairly argumentative so there is often a lot of shouting in our home, and as a child it used to really upset me as I hated how loud everything could get. nana's was a refuge - we were all on our best behaviour so there was never any conflict (spare a few times) and it always smelt of cupcakes and her perfume, it was safety for the day or for a weekend. therefore, one of my favourite places in the whole world is the back bedroom with the pink curtains as it was 'my room' when we came to stay and I can't help but feel anything but calm when I'm there. the whole house is just so beautiful, in ways I can't explain to anyone. last summer I lost my granddad; it was difficult but bearable as he had had dementia for many years so really we lost him a long time ago, but I cannot imagine not having my nana around. she's 83 now and has always been remarkably fit, still ice skating twice a week (!!), still driving, and never having any issues with mobility but I do know that losing her is inevitable and so is losing the house. my grandparents bought it as a newbuild, it has never been anyone's but theirs and the idea that someday the curtains will be different and the green sofa will be replaced and the cross stitches will be taken down off the wall is genuinely unbearable to me. one day the wallpaper and carpets will be different and they might change the kitchen where I learned to bake and there is absolutely nothing I can do whatsoever to prevent it from happening.<br>I've left this ridiculously long comment partly as a small therapy for myself (I've had a good cry and I firmly believe that's the best way to deal with difficult emotions sometimes) but also as a thank you for being so honest about your experience. thank you also for being so dramatic, because it reassures me that I'm not being a total idiot by getting so upset. although no two situations will ever be the same with this kind of thing, I feel like we're feeling the same (even though I haven't even begun to think about dealing with it yet) and I want to let you know that I think you're amazing for dealing with it all so well. I'm proud of you, and I know I'll have this video to be able to look back on when I need it :)

I love my nana's house. my family has always been fairly argumentative so there is often a lot of shouting in our home, and as a child it used to really upset me as I hated how loud everything could get. nana's was a refuge - we were all on our best behaviour so there was never any conflict (spare a few times) and it always smelt of cupcakes and her perfume, it was safety for the day or for a weekend. therefore, one of my favourite places in the whole world is the back bedroom with the pink curtains as it was 'my room' when we came to stay and I can't help but feel anything but calm when I'm there. the whole house is just so beautiful, in ways I can't explain to anyone. last summer I lost my granddad; it was difficult but bearable as he had had dementia for many years so really we lost him a long time ago, but I cannot imagine not having my nana around. she's 83 now and has always been remarkably fit, still ice skating twice a week (!!), still driving, and never having any issues with mobility but I do know that losing her is inevitable and so is losing the house. my grandparents bought it as a newbuild, it has never been anyone's but theirs and the idea that someday the curtains will be different and the green sofa will be replaced and the cross stitches will be taken down off the wall is genuinely unbearable to me. one day the wallpaper and carpets will be different and they might change the kitchen where I learned to bake and there is absolutely nothing I can do whatsoever to prevent it from happening.
I've left this ridiculously long comment partly as a small therapy for myself (I've had a good cry and I firmly believe that's the best way to deal with difficult emotions sometimes) but also as a thank you for being so honest about your experience. thank you also for being so dramatic, because it reassures me that I'm not being a total idiot by getting so upset. although no two situations will ever be the same with this kind of thing, I feel like we're feeling the same (even though I haven't even begun to think about dealing with it yet) and I want to let you know that I think you're amazing for dealing with it all so well. I'm proud of you, and I know I'll have this video to be able to look back on when I need it :)


I've always moved house regularly. I used to hate it when I was younger but now I feel like it's kind of a good thing because I'll ever experience losing my childhood home with all of the memories. The memories have moved with me in my mind rather than being attached to a specific place.


I do'nt know why this made me cry! 😭 and i never cry!


Currently holding in tears, moved out of my childhood home of 19 years the summer I was leaving for uni due to financial struggles and my dad being ill. One of the hardest days  (I am also a hoarder and tried to keep everything) xx


My heart is breaking for you. I admit, I moved around a lot as a child, so I never really had that bond with a specific place...but my lord, the stuff we have carried around with us all these years! I can hardly bear to say goodbye to any of it! I've only just thrown away PRIMARY SCHOOL exercise books for goodness sake, and I'm in my third year of university, so I guess I understand how you feel. I hope you feel happier soon and, as always, thankyou for sharing ❤


The hardest goodbye I've ever had to say was when I packed up my house from college and moved out to DC. I was simultaneously saying goodbye to my home, my city, my college life, and my best friends (who were basically family). And I was leaving for a new life where I didn't have a job yet, know the city, or have any personal connections whatsoever. My mom drove the moving van from Columbus to DC, and I remember sitting in the front seat as we drove away and just sobbing. Not a gentle, glistening tear but full-throated sobbing. And my mom speaking gently as I had my breakdown, "I know it's hard sweetie, just let it out. This is just one of those moments." I don't think I've ever felt so desperately heart broken. But I knew that period in my life was over- even if I had stayed in Columbus, or gone to grad school, or tried to cling desperately to the happiest time in my life. It was time for a new adventure.


Dodie I don't think that I could do what u just did so good job👏🏻😘


I grew up with my family in my grandparents basement apartment on a beautiful lake, surrounded by trees where me and my brothers built tree forts, and had adventures. It is the first home I have ever lived in, from the day I was born. It is also the first home that my mom ever lived in. This spring, my grandparents are selling it; I will never again spend an evening staring up at the stars on the deck, or canoeing out to the island where my dad built me and my brother a fort when we were young. I will never be measured on the wall in the storage room that holds heights from back when my mother was my age.
My family moved out of this home when I was ten, and since then we've moved all over the city (and to a different one) and when we moved back, we lived in my grandparent's house for the summer again. While I was there, I realized that I would never again live in my true childhood house. It's hard saying goodbye to a place where you have spent so many fond memories. This house holds some of my happiest years, and now it's gone.
I'm a nostalgic person. I keep all my old journals, letters, schoolwork, and photos. Anything that takes me back to the past, to simpler times, is close to my heart. This can be unhealthy, since it isn't good to dwell on the past and forget about the present, but my soul craves this nostalgia; it feeds off of it, and now I'm letting a large piece of it go, and the nostalgia that feeds my soul is slipping away.


I moved a long way away from my previous home recently and dodie I know exactly how you feel. That place held so many of my memories when growing up. The summers I spent laying in the garden with friends, the winters we spent infront of the warm fire. But my family had to leave that all behind. I left behind my best friend olivia who I am so lost without and even though we text and call it's still not the same as being with her in real life. I left behind my amazing school who treated me so well as a student and they cared so much for everyone.
But everyone's life needs a change. Even if it's as big as this. And I know it's hard and it's tough but it's all a stage in life. Pick yourself up and keep walking don't let it sit in the back of your head because now you and hedy and your mum have so many new opportunities in life that you need to go for.

I know hedy will make so many friends at her new school as she is so sweet and kind hearted and people love that.
Dodie don't let this make you cry, be strong as we are all here for you and we always will be ♥✨


alternate title: take a shot every time dodie cries


Your mam is great, has excellent motherly responses to things. Lots of love. Also now I want pizza


Hey dodie<br>This video made me cry so much because I know exactly what you're feeling right now. My family is moving out of my childhood home but I can't even go back to say goodbye because it's so far away. I didn't know the last time I was there really would be the last time. I feel like I don't currently have a home base and that's a freaky feeling. Anyway it's just somewhat nice to know that another person is as nostalgic and attached to the "good times" as me and going through the same sort of thing. Good luck and thank you for making this ❤

Hey dodie
This video made me cry so much because I know exactly what you're feeling right now. My family is moving out of my childhood home but I can't even go back to say goodbye because it's so far away. I didn't know the last time I was there really would be the last time. I feel like I don't currently have a home base and that's a freaky feeling. Anyway it's just somewhat nice to know that another person is as nostalgic and attached to the "good times" as me and going through the same sort of thing. Good luck and thank you for making this ❤


I relate so much, my childhood home is being sold too and it’s rented to another family now. It’s so easy to cry about it even though I moved out already like 2,5 years ago


i keep coming back to this video and honestly? i could NEVER. my fam and i did move house about two years ago, but i kept my things. and when i move out of here in september, i'll put the things i can't take to london with me. the idea of literally putting these things in a box and burning them and walking away is UNBEARABLE. that takes a lot of strength. the couple who bought our old house broke up and moved out, and since then, it's been empty. so now i can't shake the thought of buying it one day. maybe not even to live in it - although, why not. just to have it. just so it's mine again. because it is! it's my home! i miss it! damnit! - jessie


i think seeing your reaction to this is so interesting and it's made me think about my own childhood home a lot. I just started uni and my mom still lives in the house i grew up in, but we don't own that home. My mom never bought a house, so i've always known that my childhood home would some day never be there. I knew that one day we would rent a different place or my mom would eventually buy a house, and that one day i just would never get to go back there because we wouldn't live there anymore. and it's a shit house, well, its an apartment, and its tiny and i wouldn't really miss living there at all. but seeing you so sad over how you're never gonna have that "home" anymore makes me realize that one day i'm not going to either.  like im gonna be a grown one day and thinking of when i was little and all the memories i made in that house and im never gonna be able to go back there and relive it for a bit. idk, i guess im just suddenly realizing that a big part of what has shaped me into who i am has never been a constant. i hope you're doing well and youve kept a lot of memories from when you were young, and maybe you could do an update a little down the line and just talk about how you feel about it after some time? love u dodie


I love Astrid so much 😂'can you catch me some pokeballs?' 😂😂


I cried watching this, because I'm gonna be doing the same thing in a couple of months when my dad sells my childhood home.


I'm a REALLY sentimental person so when she threw that box in the fire I flinched. I actually jumped. I could never do that. I keep so much stuff that holds pointless memories, you are seriously incredible for throwing that away. Oh my god. x


I am incredibly proud of you Dodie. I watched this , you burning the notebooks, getting rid of lanyards and stuff and I realised how much stuff I have. I find it so hard. I crave a minimalist bedroom that has space to breathe but I can't bring myself to do it. I can barely throw out pens that I've  had for years let alone get rid of old toys I don't use or old mementos. It's hard and I'm proud of you as a fellow sentimentalist to be able to do this. Tears are allowed.
I recently listened to "little room" again and I cried. I don't know why as I'm not moving out or anything and I know when it happens it won't be as bad because I've moved a lot throughout my life. However it's the idea of your heart being attached to objects , and I hate my reliance on objects to remember and find joy.
Dodie you bring me joy. Love you x


Oh Dodie I relate so much. When I was away at school my parents decided to sell the house (and get a divorce). It was so hard to go back and pack up all my things and know that my stable home which had always been there was no longer a place for me. This brought back all the feels. Good to know I am not the only person who gets unreasonably attached to material things. Thank you for your candidness, you are a lovely person.


Today I've gotten 4 different types of medicine and an inhaler from my doctor because I have a weak form of bronchitis (-ish I don't really know). I've taken all of the medicine for the first part of today (in which some pills are rhe same size as the tip joint of my pinky) and the medicine has made my heart race and my hands shake (which I don't like) but seeing this video made me calmer and less panicky. I love watching dodie and her videos, they always make me happy!🙂

Sorry if there are typos to whomever reads this, I cannot write or type neatly as my hands are aggressively shaking


DDOOODDDDIIIIIEEEE CLING ONTO THE FUTUREEEEEREEE I LOVE HOW SENTIMENTAL YOU ARE AND ITS OKAY TO CRY AND BE SENTIMENTAL (I know this isn't the right time but your vedif is like an extended snapchat in February) LOVE YOU DODIE


I so admire your willingness to step up and help your mam and Hedy out! Other people at this age may have taken the opportunity to be more independent and self-driven (which is okay it itself, it's just another way to handle things) travelling or cutting ties or whatnot. How amazing is it that you're not only maintaining such a strong relationship with your mam and Hedy, but also doing your share in supporting and "breadwinning" if you will. Such admiration for you, Dodie. You're doing incredibly.


I remember a year or so back when you were on tour (transatlantic tour) and you told us that your house was being sold and now it's actually being sold. I can tell this was hard for you, but I'm proud of you 💕💕💕 I worry now for how I'll deal with all this


Dodie thank you for sharing so much of your life with us it makes all of your videos that much more open and personal and makes it easier to connect with you <3


I'm going through the same thing right now. Last year was one of the absolute years of my life. I've grown apart from my mum so much and this video is a really good representation of how I feel. I've moved house several times, but this is by far the hardest. I'm just so conflicted and I can't even figure out everything I'm feeling I just kinda needed to dump this where no one will read it or see it or care but I'll have it written down


Totally get this feeling. My mum died suddenly a few years ago so I had to move out of my childhood home so quickly and unexpectedly and it was awful. I still technically own the house and rent it out to another family but I've only been back twice cause it's still painful. It doesn't feel like home anymore and just makes me sad, these situations suck.


For a moment at the end I was wondering who's voice is talking, but then I realized it was Hedi. Her voice is growing to sound so mature, it sounded so adult.


as hard as this must have been for you Dodie, I kinda wish I could do the same, but I've never had a place like this. I've moved so many times, and hated a lot of the places, so I've never had a house that felt like home. I've always had the feeling of escaping something whenever I move, which I don't mind. I get to start over a lot, and meet new people in new neighborhoods, but I still feel lost. I wish I had a place that I knew would be there, that was home to me. right now it's my school theatre, because of my lovely teacher and amazing friends I've made there, but its not really mine either.


I feel her so much. the fire tho'.. I just wouldn't be able to do it.


I’m a very sentimental person too. Every time I drive by my childhood home on Birchtree Avenue I still get a little emotional 😢


I'm 17 and I already cling onto every last bit of everything I've lived through because I can feel myself changing and I don't want to let go. Once I've moved out my parents want to take over my room, so I'll have to go through this same thing one day. I'm dreading the day.


You should've done a reprise of Little Room!! I would've literally been a puddle of tears 😭❤


You saying goodbye to your childhood home is reminding me of when my great grandma passed away and we had to sell her house. It wasn't just saying goodbye to my grandma or her house it was saying goodbye to my childhood and knowing that everything was gonna be so different from that point on. I remember on the last day of being in the house, while my family was packing up stuff. I just walked around the empty house crying and trying to get used to the fact that it won't be the same again. ❤😭


is her hair flower dodie yellow? strikes me as also also not dodie yellow


I grew up in a military family, so for the first half of my life we moved every 9-15 months. I went to boarding school from the age of 8, then to uni, then I lived away from home. The closest thing I had to a solid base was my grandparents' house, where they'd lived for 48 years. But a few years ago they sold up to move in with my aunt.

Losing that closest thing to a home was really hard, so I can't imagine how much worse it was when it's where you actually grew up. Chin up, buttercup, everything will be ok. <3


I know how you're feeling. it's so so weird to just let go of everything that's familiar and it's all you've ever really known. and it's hard knowing that the memories are all in this place that is no longer yours. but make the new home your new familiar, and your new vision of "home-y" :) love you dodie, hang in there.

this would be my worst nightmare because I get so so attached to things, but not really the materialistic side of it, but the fact that there is a memory behind nearly everything I own, so letting go of that would be hard. but it's a new chance to make new memories, and just because the house is gone, doesn't mean the memories from it are as well :)


Home is where you feel safe and are surrounded by loved ones.Over our lifetime that physical location will change, but remember no incident or person can take away your home.    You are its creator.


The feels. I would have just taken all my stuff to my new home, which is basically what I did when I moved out of home. Its bad but ya know, can't let go of the nostalgic feelies.


Omg that's the same garden from the ice bucket challenge video 😭


My home burnt down when I was 7 years old,  just like that,  withing an hour or so just four walls were left in its place. My base and everything inside was gone, and still is to this day.
Home for me is a feeling, not a place, home is wherever my family are!  (as cliche as it sounds)
Love you Doodie. Happy VEDIF! (you gotta have a little rain in order to see a rainbow) xx


this took me way back from  the old videos awe 💛


Its okay Dodie  I just moved from my childhood home to another state it's was the best and worst thing that could happen! But now that I'm in my new house I know there will be new things to learn and experience. I was given great advice- hold on to memories because things are the only thing that can be taken away from you!☺


Oh this is a very interesting video to watch, for me. I'm just like Dodie about being attached to the past, but it's more about the memories I hold in my brain.Me and family never had our own house. I've moved to 3 different cities in almost 19 years and 7 different houses, so that what she is feeling is a very strange thing to me. In anyway, change is always a good thing and it's like you're leaving pieces of yourself in every place you've been too, like you're everywhere and a part of everything. Might sound strange. Don't know why I'm commenting this lol


I've moved so many times I can't even count on one hand.
I don't think I've had a home for a long long time. Leaving my childhood was the worst moment of my life but it lead to the best times of my life.
Everything happens for a reason I guess


I had to leave my house recently and I'd lived there for 21 years. It was home and now it's not mine anymore. I'm no longer near my family and I miss them so badly. I'm sobbing now because this video is so relatable and I know exactly how this all feels, seeing your stuff thrown out and gone, leavingnfor the last time. It's hard


I want to reach through the screen and give you a massive hug :(


the view in your garden is so sick, like it's actually awesome I could totally chill there so hard


oh dodie :( this made me tear up, its too familiar. i remember leaving my childhood home after my parents divorced - it was so difficult because i'd never known anywhere else to be home. that was nearly 6 years ago, and since then i've had four additional moves. but, only really one of those were hard on me, because there i'd made a new home, and friends who loved me and a wonderful girlfriend who loved me, and leaving the place felt like i'd lost half my heart and only could be complete when i visited.. but all these moves have taught me that a house is just a mold and that the home is in the memories and the people you love. it won't ever be the easiest thing, leaving someplace dear to you, but it teaches you to adapt and makes you grow stronger. i think one of the plus sides is having something distinct that marks the next chapter/year of your life - when i think about my homes, i get distinct feelings and memories from each of them, and i like how its not all mushed together like the memories from my first home are<br>anyway, i love you dodie and you will get through this and it takes time but one day the new flat will feel warm, familiar, and comfortable - like home - to you

oh dodie :( this made me tear up, its too familiar. i remember leaving my childhood home after my parents divorced - it was so difficult because i'd never known anywhere else to be home. that was nearly 6 years ago, and since then i've had four additional moves. but, only really one of those were hard on me, because there i'd made a new home, and friends who loved me and a wonderful girlfriend who loved me, and leaving the place felt like i'd lost half my heart and only could be complete when i visited.. but all these moves have taught me that a house is just a mold and that the home is in the memories and the people you love. it won't ever be the easiest thing, leaving someplace dear to you, but it teaches you to adapt and makes you grow stronger. i think one of the plus sides is having something distinct that marks the next chapter/year of your life - when i think about my homes, i get distinct feelings and memories from each of them, and i like how its not all mushed together like the memories from my first home are
anyway, i love you dodie and you will get through this and it takes time but one day the new flat will feel warm, familiar, and comfortable - like home - to you


I moved when I was a young child, so moving out isn't hard, but I can see how it is. The objects and the people are my memories, not the place. Ya know?


you and your sis have such a close relationship its refreshing, my sister never really liked me so we never really bonded like you two


I know what it's like to lose your childhood home. I had to when I was 17 and it sucked. I had such a great childhood with great neighbors and it just felt like I wasn't going to have that anymore. And although it was true, I know in my heart it was for the best.


Noooo dodie :( I started crying when you put the box in the fire 😭💕


I'm tearing up watching this video because my grandparents moved house last summer and i didn't get to say goodbye to the house that felt like my second home and i'm kid of glad i didn't because i would have been a huge crying mess.
But when it comes to my family home I can't imagine not returning to the same place where so many big life events of mine happened.
I'm a huge hoarder of stuff and I would struggle with this as well as you are now. It's gonna hurt because like you I hold onto my past so dearly and hate change, but everything will be okay :)


I really like the fact that you say that hurting is good. It is! It really is. It sucks, but it always brings you further. (If you choose to look at it and acknowledge it, that is).

I hope you're doing OK, Dodie. Letting go of the past usually opens up space for new things.

Lots of love from a stranger. :)


One day in second grade I came home all of my family's stuff was in boxes and parents were like we're moving! They had never even mentioned it before that we were moving and I didn't think much of it then but now I realize that it probably wasn't the best way to leave a place.


the fact that you have a childhood home is nice, I've moved so many times that I don't have one


letting go of the past is never easy. i hope for you that the future will eventually bring you as much vivid joy as your past did. god knows you deserve it bby


I really liked how kind of old school this felt, I don't know if that's what you were going for but it made me feel even more touched by the story and as if you were being more honest somehow. I also really like the view over the fields from your back garden, so gorgeous!


I was just like this. Oh my days, this makes me feel so many things. I moved country for a year and that really helped, having two suitcases of things to my name, then when I got back I just wanted to get rid of everything. However, before getting rid of things I also scanned EVERYTHING. Letters, notes, cards, so they're on a huge hard drive. So the physical is gone, but just in case, I have something left.


This made me cry. I also am a very sentimental person. I cry over the smallest of things. Today I cleared out and changed my bedroom in my kinda crappy house and cried for a good half hour or so cause I found my stuff from primary school and last year - my first year at secondary school. I wanted to throw it away cause I needed the space so I started small and still have a long way to go but with everyone, we will get there. Anyway, I am legally allowed to move out in like 5 years but me and my family joke about it. I love living in our house and I don't wanna change anything. Seeing you burn your teenage years literally broke my heart and I'm so glad I have saved so much of my life so far. Good Luck Dodie and everyone else also going through change or a hard time I wish you well xx


i've moved house 14 times, i'm  almost 15 years old. its hard to say goodbye but it's always gonna get better in the end. no matter what 💛

i'm extremely proud of you, i've never had the same home throughout my childhood but i'm sure this must have been really hard ily dodes


As someone who has moved house MANY times, I have to say it's always a bit weird/emotional. You sorta get to a point where the most important things, and the things that make a place 'yours', can fit into one box (especially if you do uni - you have a new room every year and not a lot of space to make it yours, so little things become important). I know it's a bit late giving you this advice now, but if in future you have to do something like this, go through and digitise as much as you can. Take photos of things, scan pages and postcards and letters, then name the files and keep them in a safe spot on your laptop/in the cloud. Digital files, be they in the cloud, on a laptop or an external hard drive or a USB stick, take up a lot less space, and still provide you with those memories <3


Hanako Saito that was my birthday too! We got dancing dodie

Thanks for not giving me comment notifications, YouTube. Thank you all for your lovely words 💜 I had an amazing day spent with my two best friends and it couldn't have been better ^.^ hope you all had a wonderful day too 💜🍰

my birthday was like two days ago <3 happy birthday!

Bryony The Overthinking Pigeon Happy Birthday! 😁

I'm just happy bc I got to watch a dodie video on my birthday XD

it's a video every day what does this mean ?? haha


oh  bless you dodie it's gonner be ok, sending you a big cuddle xx


I relate a lot to your being stuck in the past and some of the things that stuck with me were "it's like getting rid of the last bit of before" like I've felt shit a year, almost two and I felt like after I'd felt like that a year I couldn't get back to the "before" also your mums advice helped me lol thank u mumma dodie xxxx


I'm saying goodbye to my home soon too. I've lived here for my entire life (almost 21 years) and in two or three weeks we'll all be moving (my mum and her bf getting a house together). I've been a complete wreck because of this for a couple of months, which hasn't made my mental health any better. Goodbyes are horrible, especially when you're saying goodbye to your entire past, every memory and the one place in the entire world that feels like home. I'm honestly scared I'll never feel at home ever again. So I feel you Dodie. <b>hugs</b>

I'm saying goodbye to my home soon too. I've lived here for my entire life (almost 21 years) and in two or three weeks we'll all be moving (my mum and her bf getting a house together). I've been a complete wreck because of this for a couple of months, which hasn't made my mental health any better. Goodbyes are horrible, especially when you're saying goodbye to your entire past, every memory and the one place in the entire world that feels like home. I'm honestly scared I'll never feel at home ever again. So I feel you Dodie. *hugs*


I have almost an opposite effect from the past as I can't remember the last time I was happy. I know I was but I just don't know what it felt like. Dodie just know that the past is a chapter of your life book and it was written so wonderfully but you'll never be able to finish this beautiful book if you just keep re reading that chapter. Sure this chapter isn't the same but it's beautiful in a different way.


Is it a bad time to tell you storage units exist?


DODIE!! I know I can´t give you a hug, but let´s pretend! <b>hugs Dodie</b> (:

DODIE!! I know I can´t give you a hug, but let´s pretend! *hugs Dodie* (:


i would have been a mess if i were you. i'm so attached to past it's ridiculous, i'm so nostalgic it requires counselling. stay strong you guys :)


this is so sweet, I relate to much eeeeehh!!!


A couple years ago when I was 16 we sold my childhood home...it was such a weird feeling because I'd never lived anywhere else. It's funny how one place becomes your whole world...its just all you know.


awh dodie for some reason this video really got to me because im at the very beginning of a similar situation, and watching this caused me to shed a few tears. broke my heart a little bit


im so like you. im way to nostalgic for my own good. its terrible,  i always live in the past. I moved out of my family home 1.5 years ago after living there my whole life, 19 years. Im now 20 and it was pretty awful to begin with but i've adjusted now and feel ok about it. It gets better:)


I know how this feels like.  I left my childhood place, the place where I spent 16 years growing  up, and moved to another country (I moved to my country i.e. India, but I wasn't born OR brought up there) and I STILL feel like I can't let go after 5 years of saying goodbye. I remember bottling up and shutting down and hiding whatever I felt using humour, but 2 years in and I broke. That combined with the new school and new routine and what college to pick gave me, what I've recently realized it to be, depression. it sucks


It's interesting to see the different viewpoints of Mother and Daughter because literally, everything your mum said would've bee something my mum said TO A T if I was getting upset or sentimental about something. I think it just goes to shows that as you're younger, everything is so new and fresh it's incredibly easy to attach yourself to the past, especially if it's your childhood home. Even if it doesn't mean anything anymore it still means (or meant) something to you and it's unfair to just assume that those feelings will just go away with the snap of your fingers. These things take time to heal from which I hope you eventually did and If so I am so happy for you, but the contrast of Mother and Daughter is simply strange but a marvel to look at as parents tend to be a lot of logical or level headed when letting go of the past, or at least they try to be.


this made me feel sad. I'm going to be saying good bye to the house that I have lived in my whole life because I'm moving down south in the summer


You seem like me before my citalopram, highly emotional over little things, and easily to cry.


in a way, i know exactly what you're going through. i moved away from my home about a year and a half ago and i was devastated. i didn't want to say goodbye, much like you. while, we didn't burn our things, we got rid of many things, and it felt like a piece of me was gone. i didn't want to say goodbye. it was our home for a good 10 years. a wonderful 10 years. and while the home wasn't as shitty as yours, not that it looked shitty in the video, just that you mentioned it was. anyway, i get  that its not the things in the home you're going to miss. because they are just things. but some where, and some how, this house, will always be home. that home made me feel safe. and calm and i wanted to be there all the time. i still want to be there.  we still own our home from where we moved from, just because no a lot of people are moving to where we live, and my parents are talking about selling it someday. i don't want they too. i want it. i want to live in it again. but i can't. its hard.


Gemini Hey wow you're the first comment. congrats :P


its so hard trying to part with memories and i wouldnt even be able to vlog because change is so hard but you are so stronge and you help us so much we want to do the same


After I watched this video yesterday my mother called me to tell me they've just got home from an appointment with an architect to discuss the impending demolishment of the house I lived in for 20 years. They want to rebuild it into flats. My mum already told me to get rid of anything I don't need when I visit next. My heart is broken. My dad and granddad built that house, and I'm not okay. I moved out a year ago but it's gonna take a while until I accept this :(

But as with you, onwards and upwards! x


i had to do something like this when i ran away from my abusive mom's house almost a year ago. i only was able to pack one suitcase and one duffel bag full of stuff, and it was really hard to sort through all of the things i had accumulated in that house after seventeen years, especially the objects that brought be comfort when my mother was tormenting me. but after leaving, i did feel "lighter" like you said in this video, and it made me learn that i don't need to physically still have an object to keep the memories associated with it. <br>best of luck with everything, and i hope you feel better soon ❤❤❤

i had to do something like this when i ran away from my abusive mom's house almost a year ago. i only was able to pack one suitcase and one duffel bag full of stuff, and it was really hard to sort through all of the things i had accumulated in that house after seventeen years, especially the objects that brought be comfort when my mother was tormenting me. but after leaving, i did feel "lighter" like you said in this video, and it made me learn that i don't need to physically still have an object to keep the memories associated with it.
best of luck with everything, and i hope you feel better soon ❤❤❤


so proud of you, dodie! i hate to see you sad, but i know you'll be doing well in no time. i can't even begin to fathom how difficult this must be for you. happy vedif! all the love xx


My parents moved from my childhood home last year... to 1300 miles away and I still cry about it sometimes. While it is incredibly difficult losing that place you can call "home", you will never lose the times you had there. It may sound cliché, but it's still very true.


This hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. We (being my parents and I) have to move out of our house. The only place I have ever called home. The only place I have ever lived in. And the thing is - I can't ever come back to it once it's done. Because we have to knock everything down. They (being the town I live in) need the ground for flooding purposes. I mean this house isn't great. It's old and we only use half of it because the other half got destroyed when the big flood in 2013 happened. I KNOW this house isn't great. But it's my home. My only home that I have. Everything that has happened in my life - the good and the bad, the friendships and the break-ups, the laughter and the tears - happened here.<br>I have to leave a lot of things behind as well and I honestly don't know if I'm stong enough for it. I can't even write this without crying. You are so strong Dodie. At the moment I wouldn't be able to get out of here. I need more time. That I don't have. The only good thing is that we are gonna build a new house. A new home. But I just know it's not going to be the same. Maybe that is a good thing. I don't know yet. But I'm gonna find it out soon :')

This hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. We (being my parents and I) have to move out of our house. The only place I have ever called home. The only place I have ever lived in. And the thing is - I can't ever come back to it once it's done. Because we have to knock everything down. They (being the town I live in) need the ground for flooding purposes. I mean this house isn't great. It's old and we only use half of it because the other half got destroyed when the big flood in 2013 happened. I KNOW this house isn't great. But it's my home. My only home that I have. Everything that has happened in my life - the good and the bad, the friendships and the break-ups, the laughter and the tears - happened here.
I have to leave a lot of things behind as well and I honestly don't know if I'm stong enough for it. I can't even write this without crying. You are so strong Dodie. At the moment I wouldn't be able to get out of here. I need more time. That I don't have. The only good thing is that we are gonna build a new house. A new home. But I just know it's not going to be the same. Maybe that is a good thing. I don't know yet. But I'm gonna find it out soon :')


Change is sometimes a good thing although your Brain is saying no right now it's because your brain is use to a certain pattern but once your brain accepts the new change it will get easier and it will get bette, hope your okay love you xx 💗


ahahhdhs i actually cried with you when you had to burn that box of old school things because i know how much it would make me cry if i had to just throw everything away. i hoard memories too and it'd kill me if i ever had to do that. im proud of you dodie 💛💛💛


I'm glad she recorded it. We're all so lucky to live in an age where we can digitise memories so we don't have to keep the physical stuff. It's helped me a lot because I've been purging out my room. I've still kept sentimental stuff but only the things that hold a really important place in my heart. Otherwise I will take a picture if needed and throw it away. For anyone who does have to clean out their home, record it and take objects that mean a lot but you can't take with you and record you holding it and talking about what it makes you remember. Sometimes even taking the picture or making the video will help you remember t more even if you never look at it again.


i'm like that! i keep everything because of the memories attached to them. that must have been hard for you to throw it on the fire.


That is the hardest thing. I'm with you. I still have all my old papers and notebooks and photos from high school in my parents home. I know eventually I have to get rid of it all but I just can't think of it actually happening. A box of happiness. I totally feel that.


FairylightsandUkulele aww i'm sorry but also ur username is my room

I love this chain of comments bc I was expecting dodie to respond and being like YAY MY DAY IS BETTER but its people genuinely giving some good advice :) bless

FairylightsandUkulele I hope your day gets better

that's never fun. remember to take care of yourself. 💞💞💞

Awh! Don't worry! Tomorrow is a new day and before you know it it'll be here and you'll feel better. Go do something you enjoy and then take a nice warm bath. Hope you feel better!! 💞

FairylightsandUkulele same... But I hope your day gets better

sending you the best things, hope you feel better soon 💙

FairylightsandUkulele
much love <3
Hope your day brightens a bit, bad days suck.

FairylightsandUkulele here, have a virtual hug. Go drink some tea or eat a cookie. It will get better soon :)

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+<b>fairly local</b> same I hope it gets better for you fren

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FairylightsandUkelele same, I was good, but now...

FairylightsandUkulele 💖💖💖 hope tomorrows better

FairylightsandUkulele same, I've been dealing with some mental health issues :/


This made me cry so hard because I had to do the same thing just a couple months ago


I'm a cancer. Giving up nostalgic objects is literally the hardest thing i could ever do, but honestly it helps so much because I've found its harder to create and explore a new me without doing that. So i'm glad you let yourself give up things in exploration of a new Dodie and i hope everything works out. :)


Aww I  understand how difficult that must be, I left so many things behind when I moved out and I never went back to get anything, it was all thrown away. I didn't leave the first house I lived in in a good place. See, I can't even call it my home, it wasn't my home for a long time before I moved out.


Im really proud of you Doddie that you decided to stop drinking this month, because a lot of people, myself included, drown our sorrows in alcohol. I too am a sentimental person and DREAD the day I will have to get rid of my childhood things.


This video felt like it gave me a big family hug in a way. You can literally picture so easily the joy that happened in that house years ago. When she was talking about Alice come ing around and music in the summer. And the convos you're having is JUST SO WARMING I LOVE THE CLARKS


Oh gosh I'm crying. I still live in my childhood home, but I had another home like place, my grandparent's house, and a few years after my grandfather died, my grandma decided to sell the house, and I never got a formal goodbye to the house that was like a second home to me, and wow this video just brought all that back, and it's been about 5 years since all that happened.


I relate so much to your reluctance to let go of the past. I obsessively try to keep memories, mainly through journaling and pictures. I don't have derealisation or anything like that but I am also incredibly nostalgic. It seems trivial looking back on it now, but when I was 14 we moved like a half mile away from our old house and at first I was devastated, because a lot of aspects of my life were changing then and it felt like one too many. The physical existence of that house felt so important. Now, after four years, I love our new house and can't imagine going back to the old one. We never throw anything away though so I was really proud of you and inspired when you got rid of your old stuff. I hope I can be strong enough to do that with some of my stuff in the future.


It's weird because I just started going through the process of leaving home and while I have the worst memories of abuse and hardship, but it's really the only place I've known. I had a sanctuary in my room will walls filled with inspiration and art and I had to pack it all away, and the stuff that didn't fit got thrown away. I was never old enough to remember what any of this was like growing up, I moved a lot but not recently enough to remember how it feels. It didn't feel real until yesterday when I got a call that I could leave next week. I hadn't cried until then. I don't have advice unfortunately and I don't know the circumstances, but I can promise you that you aren't alone in shedding tears for the past. I mean, at one point it was all we had.


After my parents sold my childhood home (without warning me), I refused to throw anything away, so now their new place has an entire room full of my childhood stuff.


Dodie, you're such a strong person! I know what it's like to lose it all, but just remember crying is okay, it's what makes us human, it's what shows we truly care and if we didn't show emotion then that would be the point?? Just remember, here's to new beginnings and opportunities girl, Were all here to listen even if we are just words on a screen we care about you and your family dearly, and I'm so glad that I found your channel 2 years ago, I've seen you grow as a person, mentally, physically and I've seen your channel grow, from 10 the zeroes just kept adding on, and I feel this year you will reach a million subscribers, you're so close! And girl let me tell you you deserve it, everything you've been through, all your stories are heartwarming and heartbreaking, you bring tears to your audiences eyes in good and bad ways, And Hedy and Astrid have grown so much too, Hedys got her own channel, she's getting better at ukulele and drawing every day, and Astrid, being the most gracious, beautiful mother, she always has the right advice for you all, she's grown on the YouTube community as much as you and Hedy have, and Astrid, Hedy, Dodie, and even Ian, if you read this, You guys are the most beautiful family on YouTube ❤❤


I I completely relate to this strong nostalgia. I have a memory box in my bedroom and as I'm approaching the last few months of school I've looked through it several times just to remember.  It doesn't help that I forget things easily so can't help feeling scared I'll forget all the good times.I'll actually be going off t university in the latter part of 2017, I'm so very excited but it also terrified the crap out of me... To leave the people I see every day and the school I've shared so many of my memories with since I was 4... That'll be hard ... But we'll both get through it. Best of luck to you, lots of love xx


I know that 6 people viewed it but what doesn't make sense is why there are over 835 likes and only 6 views. Well now there's 58,000 and 8,000 likes so I suppose that's a bit more proportionate


i think this is honestly my favorite video of yours


Aww dodie... I remember when I was younger (grade 4) me and my family were moving to a different city/town and I was so sad. My friend was also moving, but across the country so that made it worse. But the thing is she was so excited and I was crying. 😐

And I wish I could go back to that time before we moved. I WAS SO HAPPY.


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This is so interesting, because I moved constantly as a child. Where my parents live is what I consider 'home' I think in the same way you considered this house 'home'.


Dodie, you did it and we are all hear for you as a pal. All of us can relate to this in some way or another and we all know how hard this is for you. You can and will recover. Stay strong little bean xxx


i really liked watching this. i tend to like documentary-style content and the reality dodie showed us was oddly calming despite the emotional turmoil she was going through. ummm idk what i'm trying to say but basically as a viewer this was pleasant and good, but i definitely am not trying to make light of the video's topic.


I moved from my childhood home (though ya know I was still a kid but anyway) interstate ( I'm Australian) and over a bit of ocean, away from all my friends and family. It was horrible, especially since we built the house and planted every last tree. Now, as much as I miss the land and the smell of the grass, I actually miss my childhood more; I was so happy, I had all my friends. I loved the house and everything, and my first year here was terrible, but I miss being little. I miss my little brother being little. I miss the past. <br>I get what you mean about not missing the place, but the memories and time spent there. It's pretty hard saying goodbye to a wall covered in measurements of your height since you could stand.

I moved from my childhood home (though ya know I was still a kid but anyway) interstate ( I'm Australian) and over a bit of ocean, away from all my friends and family. It was horrible, especially since we built the house and planted every last tree. Now, as much as I miss the land and the smell of the grass, I actually miss my childhood more; I was so happy, I had all my friends. I loved the house and everything, and my first year here was terrible, but I miss being little. I miss my little brother being little. I miss the past.
I get what you mean about not missing the place, but the memories and time spent there. It's pretty hard saying goodbye to a wall covered in measurements of your height since you could stand.


I lived in my childhood home from when I was about a month old until I was 18. I'm 22 now. My dad's job transferred him. I had never spent a single day away from my mom or brother in my entire life, and suddenly we were separated. I was at my aunt's house cause I needed to finish school, my brother was like an hour away at his school, my parents were in another state, my dog was at a different aunt's house, and my childhood home was on the market. it was one of the hardest days of my life. this was about three years ago. at the moment I feel like I don't have a home, because their house in another state doesn't feel like home. it feels temporary and not mine. but we've all adjusted, and save for the odd emotional drunken night or tough/scary situation, I'm okay. you'll be, too :)


I've been told I'm a very sentimental person. I still haven't gotten over a friend I had a fight with from three years ago and still have the necklace she made me. I can't stand throwing away things from the past and I always criticized myself for being so sentimental, but seeing that I'm not the only one with this struggle makes me feel a little better. I'm proud of you for moving on from the old house, and speaking of which, maybe I should get on cleaning out some of my stuff too :P


I didn't realize it at first, but when I though about it this relates so much to me. My family just recently moved out of my family home and even though I had already moved out for college I never felt like my dorm was home, I always felt like my home back home was home and now it's gone and honestly I just don't think about it because if I do it makes me sad and I don't like that. And I had to clean out my room as well and I hoard all my stuff and hate to let things go and it was so hard for me, my mom and grandma literally had to just through stuff away for me because I couldn't do it myself. So I hope you get through this and find yourself a new home, because right now I honestly don't feel like I have one.


I'm in my second year of university now. and we moved house away from my 'childhood home' (which I had lived in from the age of 5 until I was 13/14) and it was horrible Despite moving around many times after moving out of there for the first time, and despite the horrible, but great memories my first house had, I will always think of that house when I think of my home. at least until I 'settle down' somewhere after university. I related to this video so much, especially when you were going past the skip and throwing things on the fire with memories from school life. I would love to go back to my childhood house at some point in my future life, because I cycle past it occasionally and it makes me so happy and warm. ≤3


I too left my childhood home.... this video hurt to watch because it brought back the memories of leaving the home i thought would never leave. No matter how long i live in this new house it'll never be my h o m e


while watching this video i realised that i might never feel this ever or at least not until i'm much much older. for my whole life i've moved around i don't really have a home. of course its plenty hard to move from place to place every 2 or 3 years, but when i get there i already know that what i'm building here is temporary. i can't decide whether my constantly changing life is a blessing or a burden.


This was posted on my birthday a couple years back. The last year I lived in my home. The last year I lived with all my memories


isn't it weird, just to see a house like that, just empty without the furniture and decor and photos, all the memories. I have recently been helping my family move stuff  out of my grandpas house (he passed recently) and it's just so weird because the house was always so full and warm but now seeing it empty with everything gone it's so weird it's so open and dark, at first I was very sad ( I still am) I'm saying goodbye to a huge part of my childhood, but now as I write this in this moment I realize, it's just a house, a shell, it's what's inside that matters, and we're whats inside, my family marked that place forever. we made it a home. so it's just a house, but all the marks, dents, scratches, stickers, that's what made it a home. and now we get to do it again, find another house and turn it into a home.


dodie, thank you so, so much for being honest about your home -- that it's not necessarily perfect. i know that's not the point of this video, but as somebody who grew up in a tiny little house with a single mother with mental health issues that stopped her from doing any cleaning at all, thank you for being the honest voice i needed. i've never ever seen anybody admit to having a less-than-clean house. family issues are represented and messy bedrooms are represented, and that's all great, but a properly dirty/messy house is a lot to admit to; it feels somehow like a failure on my part, something shameful, you know? but listening to you talk about your (old) house, and the good things in yours and your family's futures just make me so, so happy. thank you, dodie


I burst out crying when I saw her throw her memories in the fire
I can't imagine doing that
I'm still in high school and I have a few bins full of yearbooks and pen pall letters and bloody hell I just can't imagine how hard that would be
I agggh I wouldn't be able to let go of the past


i always watch your videos with earl grey with two sugars and a glump of milk. and the teabag's in.


watching this was so fucking hard!!
I wanna give you a hug.
I haven't thrown away my school books for the same reason.
I was happy but also, they come in handy.


I know it hurts now, but trust me, everything will feel so much better when you're in your cute little house your mam and hedy <3 (tell them I say hi? xx)


i cried soo much watching this oMg Im stUpid someone stop me... this is just my biggest fear and you handled it so well, im so proud and i wish i could do the same!


dodieee your house is so beautiful :''') the view out my window is a dirty fire escape lol


Seeing Dodie cry and be sad makes me die a little inside


I was crying as I watched this. My parents got divorced when I was younger and we moved away from the county. A few months ago we went back to visit family and my brother and I dragged our mom to the house. It was all over grown. Homeless people had taken it over. Looking through the windows, I found the inside to be graffitied, destroyed. My home. My home. My childhood. All gone. and I'm so sad and angry. As you were burning all those things, I began to cry, and found myself begging you not to do it. I just want to wrap myself in the past, in my own naivety. Thank you for sharing this Dodie. It was horrible to watch. It made me sad. But thank you.


I have to say the backyard furniture fire was my fav part of this video! Such a funky surprise


I understand, I had to say goodbye to the house I grew up in about a year and a half ago.  Despite having already moved out 4 years previously, it was still hard.


1:09 dodie's having an emotional moment and her mum says all the right things and then adds on the end, oh by the way can you get some pokeballs for me. what an icon, i'm unstanning dodie and stanning dodies mum instead lmao


I actually shed tears because I can relate to this on so many levels. this summer we're suppose to sell my grandma's/family house which holds so many memories of mine and even though I didn't exactly grow up there, I can almost remember my whole childhood from just looking at that house. it won't even feel like I'm leaving it behind, but I'll feel like I'm saying good-bye to everything else, to 'little-me'. I dunno know if that even makes sense, but I'm sensitive to the topic and I wanted to tell you dodie that you're not alone.


momma dodlie is so sweet and sympathetic, she reminds me of my mum,, please give her a hug for me


Thank you..... just thank you, for making this video


I moved from my proper childhood home when I was 11. I'm 21 and it still feels weird lol


strangely enough, my parents decided to move out last week and now that im seeing this im so emotional already wtf


I cried a bit... I'm as well so sentimental with places and things, I can understand your sadness :')


When you put your old things on the fire and just stand there all quiet you don't know how much I simply want to give you the biggest hug possible. Honestly I feel sad when your sad :(( I just want to give ya a lil hug just because:)


I want to reach through the screen and give you a hug!


I lived in England from age 10 to 17. I left this April, and had to shove everything of mine, all my memories, an entire seven years, into two suitcases. It broke my heart; I had to throw out so much and I couldn't even.

I miss it so much, it's my home and being away for so long is so hard. All of my friends are there, and my fiancé. I have nothing here, and it kills me.


This is a good thing. I'll probably have to take a month off when my parents move. They've kept so much.


Going through the exact same thing right now, but I'm more of Hedy's pov. My parents got a divorce two years ago and the house has been for sale. It's an amazing house though and I always absolutely loved it, although I already said goodbye with the divorce because it no longer had the magic and good memories it once did. And then I moved out and said goodbye, but now that it's sold it's more like saying goodbye to the part of me and the life that I had in the house, and the feelings it held, and its solidity just by existing and being where I came from. It's a different kind of goodbye.


I moved house when I was 13 (I'm 19 now) and honestly I still don't feel like my 'new house' is home which I know is silly I've lived here for years but my old room is still where I wish I could run too when I'm having a bad  day. It was perfect and it was home it smelt like home and now this one still doesn't and I'm not sure how to deal with it. I guess I've just suppressed everything and watching this has made me admit I feel things still....


I've been gradually doing this for years, I'd managed to accumulate so much stuff at each of my parents houses. I've still got a few things to sort out but I find it quite therepeutic to throw things away. Decluttering my life makes me feel really good, but I'll admit I don't think I could burn anything, though I probably should with my uni notes because it's been over 4 years and I've not looked at them since graduating...


that was immense bloody courage to burn that box. im proud dodes.


I'm afraid for letting go in the future. I hoard so many memories and pictures I don't think I'd ever be able to get rid of those memories.


Videos with you and Hedy make me want to be closer with my sister (she's 26 and I'm about 15). I see her every couple of years (I live in the US and she grew up and currently lives in another country). I've never felt really attached to a house and when  need to say goodbye to something or need advice it's hard to get a hold of her because she's a busy adult in London. Idk why I needed to say that but I needed to get it out I guess lolokbye


Your Mum is so sweet! I hoarder a lot of memories but I hope to make some sort of art with it... Probably going to burn it in a few years if we're honest :D


Oh my, I know this is a silly thing to comment on but it almost made me tear up when your mum asked you to do the Pokestop for her, because whenever I'm in the car with my mum she always asks me to catch the Pokemons and do the Pokestops for her! <br>:') It's our thing and I loved it so much to see that it's also a thing with you and your mum!

Oh my, I know this is a silly thing to comment on but it almost made me tear up when your mum asked you to do the Pokestop for her, because whenever I'm in the car with my mum she always asks me to catch the Pokemons and do the Pokestops for her!
:') It's our thing and I loved it so much to see that it's also a thing with you and your mum!


It's so funny that you posted this video today, because last night I had a dream that I got to go back to my old childhood home that I lived in for 18 years, and live there again. I moved in August, and it wasn't easy, and it still makes me sad to think about it (which is weird because as you said, it's a house, and mine was also full of crap), but it was a sign of safety and support. It gets easier, and it feels more like a distant memory, but it can still definitely be difficult. I doubt anyone will really read this, which is fine, but I just wanted to say to hang in there, and that throwing away things that symbolized your happiness was really incredible.<br>Much love, Dodie <3

It's so funny that you posted this video today, because last night I had a dream that I got to go back to my old childhood home that I lived in for 18 years, and live there again. I moved in August, and it wasn't easy, and it still makes me sad to think about it (which is weird because as you said, it's a house, and mine was also full of crap), but it was a sign of safety and support. It gets easier, and it feels more like a distant memory, but it can still definitely be difficult. I doubt anyone will really read this, which is fine, but I just wanted to say to hang in there, and that throwing away things that symbolized your happiness was really incredible.
Much love, Dodie <3


My childhood home has my dad's new family in it, and I was just told to pack the stuff I wanted to keep before he chucked it all and the kids moved in.


Funny story...<br>When I was fourteen, my family moved out of the house that they had for thirty years. We were all crying and I looked like a mess on the way out. I looked at the marker marks on the wall from my height throughout the years, and I was crying so hard. Two days had past since we moved out of the house, then we get a call from the person that bought it from us. Turns out we forgot to empty a cupboard in the kitchen full of mugs, so we had to go back and get our stuff. I went back in, and I started crying again, while the new owner just looked at me like I was an idiot XD

Funny story...
When I was fourteen, my family moved out of the house that they had for thirty years. We were all crying and I looked like a mess on the way out. I looked at the marker marks on the wall from my height throughout the years, and I was crying so hard. Two days had past since we moved out of the house, then we get a call from the person that bought it from us. Turns out we forgot to empty a cupboard in the kitchen full of mugs, so we had to go back and get our stuff. I went back in, and I started crying again, while the new owner just looked at me like I was an idiot XD


Stay strong, you will feel better after time.


this is so the opposite of me, i wish i could be more sentimental like you


I recently had to move house too.. my gran died and my mum wanted to keep her house so we moved into it but it didn't make moving out of my old house any easier. I'd lived there for over 6 years and the amount of memories I've made in that house made it so hard to just pack everything and see my house empty and ready for someone else to make their memories there. In my bedroom. I'm still not really over it tbh and I haven't cried about it since we moved out nearly 6 months ago but I can't do anything about it which is why thinking about it breaks my heart a bit..


what interesting colour grading you did dodie!


Oh I cried watching this because it made me think of when I said goodbye to my childhood home


Today I was on FaceTime with my friend, and somehow, we both ended up showing each other our old baby photos. At first it was funny, a way to take the piss out of each others foetus faces 😂 But then I found a box of old photos, inside of which was a book my Mum had made to document the first 7 years of my life. When looking through it, I was suddenly overwhelmed but so many memories I didn't even know I had anymore. Then came the big hit. At the bottom of this box was a diary I'd kept a few years ago, and inside were little stories I'd written to cope with the mess my brain had been in at the time, and reading them back out loud on FaceTime to my best friend in the world suddenly opened up a door I had shut long ago, and all the crap came tumbling out. For a few moments, I didn't know what to do, how to cope, but then I heard my friend say 'Read it out, to me, then close the book, and put it back in the box.' And I did, and it was hard, and horrible. But now I'm lying in bed, the box is back on the shelf, and although it contains thousands of memories and thoughts and emotions, I know that I won't open that box for years to come, and by coming to terms with that, looking back, I think I'm okay with that. I can move on.

Dodie, what you did today must have been unimaginably difficult. You hate change, and I completely understand that. I find the hardest thing to do is let things go, it's the worst feeling in the world. But you know what?? If you can do that, everything will be okay, and one day you'll look back, without even realising, almost by accident, and discover you've moved on. And the weirdest part will be when you realise, you really are okay with that, and you're better for it.

Dodie you're an inspiration, I hope you're doing okay. Smile! ☺

- Meg Xxxxxxx


I need to do this. I am almost 27 and I have kept everything from my last 27 years being alive. I just touch these things and I immediately start crying because I think of all the things I wanted to do and still haven't because my anxiety gets in the way. It makes me sad and I don't think I need those reminders of what could have been. I just have so much stuff and it's borderline hoarding.


I still haven't said goodbye, I want to... but I'm forced to go back and get the feels multiple times a year, even though it's filled with terrible memories from the more recent past there are also those amazing memories from when I was a toddler and going through elementary school...


I said goodbye to the house I remember growing up in for 16 years and that just sucked because my dad died while I lived in that house so it was like I was saying goodbye to his memory and presence there. However I am very happy where I am now so it was an overall win. The shock of it kind of sucked but you move forward and it's good.


this was painful because i identify so much, the idea of losing my home and having to get rid of my memories TERRIFIES me - hope you're alright <3


I relate so much!! currently moving house both parents are moving that means 2 houses to declutter and say goodbye too :(


im going off to college soon and once i leave my home is immediately going up for sale because my dad works somewhere else and my mom wants to move back in with him. i think i'll feel a lot like you feel now. the home i live in currently is the first home i was able to grow up in, so its kind of hard to think i'll eventually take my last steps out of that house and never come back. im excited to go off to school, itll just be weird not spending holidays there or seeing my friends during breaks. honestly seeing you do this made me feel strangely okay. maybe its just seeing you move on from the past and still being able to say goodbye at the end if the video. it makes me feel like everything is gonna work itself out, even if it isnt great currently.


This is honestly my worst nightmare watching you go through this made me cry. I'm a hoarder, I hate change and I don't even know how you managed it so well. I know I'm gonna have to do it at some point too but I refuse at this point to get rid of as much stuff as you had to. I know that's not healthy but I don't care it's honestly a nightmare thinking about it.


Dammit Dodie this made me cry so much

Explanation (just me ranting) : I'm going through the exact same thing except I only lived in the house until I was nine and then that got me to thinking why it made me so upset if it was years ago. Then I realized that I was always happy there and because we moved I had to start changing myself to fit in and became someone that I really grew to hate. Luckily I am going back to who I really am but it's just really upsetting that I won't be able to go back to the place where I was so out going and happy.


I know that so well!! My dad used to live in a big house with a huge garden and a lot of animals living in it where I spent half of my childhood. It really was a magical place. When my stepmother died we had to give away the house and most of the animals which was soo so hard! I also lost most of my old toys and books and stuff. I just can't imagine another family living there. I can't drive past the house and see cars I don't know without hurting. Not all memories are good, so that makes it difficult in a different way... All those memories feel so unreal now? But yeah I GET YOU. YOU'RE SO STRONG.


I'm so surprised how easily u talk about what exactly is bothering you to your family, like I just cringe whenever I gotta talk about feelings to my parents. I admire that about you


Saying goodbye to a home, a place where so many memories were made is literally the worst. I recently said goodbye to my grandparents house as they needed somewhere smaller and easier to use. It wasn't were I grew up, it was my mum's house, but it still stung to pack away the toys we played with there or clean the office we used to make our pretend radio show in. It hurt and I cried and I hurt. I wanted to keep every little memory I had from a sheet of paper I drew on when I was 5 to a giant piano (to be fair we did end up taking the piano).<br>Moving on sucks, but sometimes it's for the best and I suppose we just need to accept that and keep living on our lives.

Saying goodbye to a home, a place where so many memories were made is literally the worst. I recently said goodbye to my grandparents house as they needed somewhere smaller and easier to use. It wasn't were I grew up, it was my mum's house, but it still stung to pack away the toys we played with there or clean the office we used to make our pretend radio show in. It hurt and I cried and I hurt. I wanted to keep every little memory I had from a sheet of paper I drew on when I was 5 to a giant piano (to be fair we did end up taking the piano).
Moving on sucks, but sometimes it's for the best and I suppose we just need to accept that and keep living on our lives.


Though I lost my childhood home when I was 5 I get that it's upsetting. The place I've lived since hasn't felt like a home. But my mum is my home so while moving out (when I finally find the money bc my dad won't help for shit) I'll miss her, not the house. I'll miss my mother and brother bc I have lived with them my whole life and it has always been us three since the divorce (well tbh before). As different as my brother and  I are and as much as we annoy each other I know I'll miss him when I move elsewhere. I think that's what will be hard for me. I used to miss my childhood home but the more I got to know my father and how he had hurt us the more I want to forget that home. It holds so many bad memories even though I remember little from it. I know my family was treated like shit in that house and that's why I am glad I don't live there anymore. I would like to visit the neighbourhood one more time though.


Thoughts i'll give if you're moving: if you have the option to go back to a place that you were comfortable in or loved when you know it will have changed, you can decide. I went back to my childhood home and it had exit signs, new floors, different furniture, and i wanted to get out. But that helped me loosen hold of that place and come to terms with change. I have only seen the outside of my teenage home, and while it has drastically changed it didnt feel personal at all. Just my two cents, you can decide :)


This made me cry because my family and I are moving out of my home of eleven years and I don't want to leave


Ahhh Dodie I did the exact same damn thing like two months ago :( it sucks ass, to be quite honest. I always thought my childhood home would be there to welcome me back, even though it wasn't a happy childhood and I wasn't a joyful child like you, I still wanted it to be there. I'd painted on my walls and had my friends all sign a cloud on the wall and the pieces of clay and stretchy hands my brother and I had gotten stuck to the ceiling were still there and I could walk through it with my eyes closed in the dark and know where I was. It wasn't a home though, not really. It didn't make me happy at the end, it was just the home of a terrible divorce that had been a long time in the making and a lot of sadness and stress, overwhelming stress. It still is awful though, throwing out your childhood things, notebooks and pictures you don't need but love looking back at. But now I have a home and it's not what I thought and it's not what I would've picked but it's a real home with my mom and a room that makes me happy and countless plants and my big fat cat. I hope you find a home soon ❤ (lol now I'm gonna cry)


:( we are selling my old house that I grew up in and I visited it today and I started to cry. Then I remembered this video and now I'm crying again


Another thing, losing a house is like losing a loved one, the pain never truly goes away, you repress it. but you smile because of the memories you made there with amazing people.


I'm probably moving out in about a years time and leaving everything and everyone I've ever known behind, and it's quite sad. It's like an impending doom waiting to happen. I've always lived in this house, I love it, and I'd like never leave and get a job in town, but I know I'd be missing out on so many opportunities. There's less than a thousand people living in a ten kilometer radius, so we don't have a lot of ''fun'' things in town.

It's really weird, but I'd like to live in a town or city big enough to at least have a tattoo parlor or an arcade or something, I think that would be a lot of fun, especially the arcade.

Nervous as heck and I'll probably have a panic attack the day I leave, but also at least a bit excited.


watching you throw that box on the fire was really hard. God I<br>can't even explain why but my heart hurt and the tears were.flowing.. like you say.. it's so easy to cry.

watching you throw that box on the fire was really hard. God I
can't even explain why but my heart hurt and the tears were.flowing.. like you say.. it's so easy to cry.


I am a hoarder, like majorly. But the one thing my dad always says that rings so true it makes me cry is that the things aren't the memories. The objects or the place or the person, thats not the memory. The memory is what we hold inside our head and our heart. It's the emotion we feel when we remember, its the picture inside of us. Not an object. <br>Sending love you're way <3

I am a hoarder, like majorly. But the one thing my dad always says that rings so true it makes me cry is that the things aren't the memories. The objects or the place or the person, thats not the memory. The memory is what we hold inside our head and our heart. It's the emotion we feel when we remember, its the picture inside of us. Not an object.
Sending love you're way <3


I moved out of my family home on the first of December 2014. We then moved back in from April 2016- late august 2016. When we had our last night there I cried and cried and cried. That place is still my home, and it's strange to think that there is a little girl sitting in my room on the bench by my window and climbing up the apple trees and playing the Wendy house. That place is the best house in the world. I want to live in no other place, but because I'm still a child I have no say. Every night I miss it. Every day I think back longingly to home, and it's so vivid, like I was there only 2 hours ago. But then I'll open my eyes and see my bright new bedroom, and remember that they own it now. And it's not ours to do what we want to it. I hate them. But I can't do anything and I wish more then anything to be back there now. Sorry for the ramble


the way she talks on the verge of tears made me so sad dODIE STOP;-;💞


As a person who has lived in 13 houses before I turned 18, it's really weird for me that people would be upset about leaving a house. I can't wrap my head around someone being upset that a house isn't there anymore. I have things from each house and the memories but I have no feelings about the houses themselves.


i love the raw editing style of this video..and i love your mum for playing pokemon go xo


Change is a large part of my life. My parents are in the millitary and we move every 2 years at most. I am happy I will never have to experence this. (Loosing a childhood home, i mean). I've had 15 homes in my 13 year life, so I'm used to change. Honestly can't live without it. I give you the best of luck getting over this hard time. Much love.


When I was 10 and I had to move from my childhood home that held so many good memories in it into a new house that was so strange and the first year and a half we lived in the new house (our current house) I had nightmares and night terrors and I became depressed and angry at everything and sad and etc, I've made a lot of bad memories in this house and I think back to the memories in the old house and how nice is it was and when my parents were still happy together and yeah. I've suffered from depression and anxiety for a long time now and I've been going to therapy for about 4 years now and I'm okay now, I'm in a good place (I'm now a freshmen in High school) and I have loving family and friends that who care and love me. (Sorry this is so long, just wanted to share my experience(: )


this is scarily relatable. my mom is also moving right now. and like i barely live there anymore but it's super scary and weird


I relate so much to you dodie I experience dissociation and have had family issues (probs why I have it) it scares me that I can't remember the last time I felt I was really here and not floating around like I'm trapped in jelly lol I rlly hope things will get better for you! fingers crossed for tha both of us :-))


I don't think my parents are planning on moving out of the one and only home I've ever known...but if they ever do. Oh dear. <3


Your Mum was sounding all wise and grown up and then, "Could you get some pokeballs for me?" Honestly just like my Mum haha


Oh my god, I could never burn my journals, this is almost actually painful D:


I'm now in my teenage years but I've already said goodbye to two childhood homes. The first I honestly can't remember because was three but my mum still has pictures of me there so I don't feel sad, I feel happy. The second one however has probably been the worst experience of my life. No joke. Maybe it was my headspace during the time we moved (my parents had just divorced and we were selling the house because I was moving with my dad up to Kent (where I live now)) I think it also made it worse because all the seven years I lived there I was remembering everything, even now I can look at something and remember a time I was in my room. I think I made it worse for myself though, because I always think of ideal paths in my life and don't like thinking about the negatives, when a negative does happen, I AM NOT prepared. I sometimes hole myself up and don't eat properly when something bad happens (thank god nothing has happened recently) but because of that I thought that 'this will always be my home' 'this is the one place I can always count on being there' ect. That was all destroyed so quickly and that made t worse. I'm not really sure what the point of this was but I think I'm trying to say, that sometimes saying goodbye is one of the hardest things a person can do, but because it's so hard, it's ultimately better for that person. While I'm still sad about my old home not being there, I try to remember of all the really good memories and instead of feeling sad someone else lives there now, I feel happy because they will hopefully experience the same joy I did.

Wow that was really long it was only meant to be 4 sentences whoops.


THIS MADE ME TEAR UP AND IT ISN'T EVEN MY HOME OMG


This video hit me so hard, I am currently crying, because I'm the same way. I absolutely hate change, keep all of my old notebooks and doodles, and random crap, and even thinking about having to leave my childhood home when I'm older will destroy me. Completely destroy me emotionally. Ugh... I just... Uh


Okay but where has Hedy been? I want more of her videos too.


So I moved out almost three years ago now from my childhood home. My mom stayed for a couple of months to sell the place while I moved 500 miles away with my dad. It was very hard for me to say goodbye because I spent 14 out of my 16 years of existence there. I recently learned that the people living there now are renting it out and I'm very tempted to rent it for a bit with my four siblings but of course that is ridiculous. I had so many amazing memories in that house and spent the best years of my life there. I really hope that things turn out for the better and that I will feel the same about this house in the future.


i would never be able to throw out all my old notebooks and stuff, seriously well done


The little flower in dodie's hair is so cute.


okay so... i can sympathise with you very much because i am constantly trying to get back a feeling from the past and trying to relive it and it's horrible sometimes but sometimes i get like a little deja vu and it lasts for a second but it means so much to feel it again. my fixation is on 2017; that year means so much and i know i'll never feel the entirety of it but watching your videos from 2017 helps so much so i guess thank you! so much thank you <3

hey, it's the same for me too.2017 was something else, wasn't it. :(


This made me sad :(( it reminded me of when my parents got divorced and we left the house that I spent a good bit of my life in memories with my friends and family gatherings on Christmas and Easter having to take all my stuff and sort through what I couldn't keep old toys and blankets and I couldn't take the trampoline and swing set I had with me so many memories I've had with those two things it breaks my heart just thinking about it I have pets buried in that backyard I had friends in that neighborhood I miss it so much I remember being so happy and I can't go back and visit and I will never be able to go back to those moments and re-live them


this made me kinda sad, because I know that someday this is going to be something I'll have to deal with. It's weird to think that where I'm living now will no longer be mine anymore, or even my family's. The thought of things changing terrifies me and thinking about change is usually quite damaging to my mental state. I've been through a lot of changes this past year (none of which will compare to what I'll have to face in the future) and at times I've found it so utterly hard to deal with. Nostalgia often consumes me and it can hold me down for weeks, and that's what reflection on the past year did to me. I fear for the future for that reason. The future will be bright but it'll be so so tough.


i know how you feel, i had to move out of my family home a couple years ago and it was the worst feeling ever, like it was the shittiest apartment ever but it was my home and i grew up there


i cried with dodie all the way through this. ive had to move multiple times becasuse of parents jobs or school or other things. i get that getting rid of child hood is difficult 💓💓


the first paragraph of the thing u wrote, i relate to soo much. it feels like my life is changing. i was getting used to it, and i was liking it. and now things are changing idk


Watching you burn that box made me physically hurt, I can't imagine what you're going through


yessssss rhett and link they're the reason i got into youtube


I'm relating to this a lot because me and my parents are moving from my childhood home this year, and I haven't really excepted it because I'm so excited to be moving. But it's also really sad because it's not so much the house that I'm gonna miss, (which I will because I have a great backyard) but it's more of the fact that I won't be seeing the place where I made so many memories. Idk it's weird but this video helped me realize how I'm feeling about moving, thank you dodie & I hope things get easier for you :)


dodie that made me cry. cause i can sympathize with you and i can't imagine having to leave my home rn...


This is also one of ma big trigs lol. When you've moved as often as I have and been through as much as I have, it's really hard to let go of every little thing, because you're never quite sure HOW important it may become later on when you don't have it. But here's the silly thing! I didn't have a happy childhood or teenagedom. I certainly had happy moments, but overall it wasn't good. So I've clung on to every memory and trinket that reminds me of those happier times. It got even worse sometime after I turned 16 or 17, when my parents made it pretty clear they didn't want me around anymore, so I was shuffled from friend's house to friend's house until I could finally afford my own place. It wasn't until after this that I found out my parents were throwing out most of my childhood or baby things. For some reason this hurt immensely and my "hoarding" problem (quotes because it's not TRUE hoarding where I'm keeping literal garbage) has only gotten worse. I know this hurt you a ton but I hope to get to where you are someday, because we all need to learn to let go. We'll become stronger for it, I promise you.


When I was 15 my parents divorce so we have to sell the house (and later move to Australia... from freaking Hanoi lmao). I still recall the last day when I sit in the middle of my emptied room, looking at my emptied shelf, we used to have quite a book collection that I have to let go.<br>Left me with a scar till this f*king day. Parting with our childhood house is fucking hard.

When I was 15 my parents divorce so we have to sell the house (and later move to Australia... from freaking Hanoi lmao). I still recall the last day when I sit in the middle of my emptied room, looking at my emptied shelf, we used to have quite a book collection that I have to let go.
Left me with a scar till this f*king day. Parting with our childhood house is fucking hard.


when I was moving out of my old apartment, my parents made me throw away all of the little things that reminded of good stuff in my life. I didn't really cry at the time, but now I really want all those things back ;c


I recently just moved all the way across the country. away from my family and friends. And I'm finding it so difficult being alone. But I know that this place can be my home. It's just scary


I think I missed the queue for sentimentality.  My parents recently moved out of the home they had built to bring me home from hospital to when I was born.  I lived there my whole childhood and early adulthood. I thought it would be hard and I would be sad but it was so business like on the day, there was never a right time to feel teary and nostalgic.  I think the fact that my parents were so excited to move on helped.  The thing is.....I still have all the memories.  I didn't lose them.  I've never even been back to look at the house again, it's just a house, it means nothing to me now.  Someone else lives there.  The memories came with us.


My mom always said "this too shall pass"

Moms are important, people.


Can I put out a request for a video with Hedy sometime soon? She's so cool


Dodie, i understand completely what you mean when you explain 'home'. Whenever I'm in pain, or I'm sick, or I'm just completely done with life, I say to myself "I want to go home, please take me home" because even if I am in my house, if I don't feel comfort, if I don't feel loved, if I feel hurt mentally or physically I am of home. Home is an emotion to me, any postitive emotion is home to me, love care happiness comfort, that is home.


This is so me i actually started crying <br>Like we moved to England 5 years ago and i havent been back home in 3 but the thought of our old house suddenly not being there anymore scares me so much i hope my parents will never ever sell it cos idk how i would deal

This is so me i actually started crying
Like we moved to England 5 years ago and i havent been back home in 3 but the thought of our old house suddenly not being there anymore scares me so much i hope my parents will never ever sell it cos idk how i would deal


Omg why am I crying??? It will probably be a while before this happens to me but it makes me so sad to think that this will happen one day. I hope you are all happy and starting a new and exciting chapter xxxxxxxxxxx


When you threw the box in the fire I couldn't help but start crying


Urgh. This got me bad because I moved around a bit growing up so I've never had a home like 'this is base' to fall back on. Can't imagine how odd that must be to say goodbye to somewhere you've associated with base for so long but I can understand the whole moving in general thing. You'll be fine. In a year or so 😜🙈


Your mum seems great, such a typical mum of like "get over yourself" but also "I am here"


Ahhh i'm going off to uni next year and I'm like you. I keep everything from when I was young and happy. My mum is telling me to get rid of all the stuff i don't need but i just can't. I want to take it all with me to uni but I know my student accommodation will be too small to do that- ughhh. I've completely lined all 4 walls of my room with photos and memories- blank walls just make me sad.


The quick little mention of when you moved out and said goodbye the first time, got me. That's going to be me relatively soon and I'm not ready and just dreading it. I still haven't listened to your song about your room, because of this. Just, I can relate to having to say goodbye and having that moment hurt, but at the same time, it opens up chances for new adventures and memories, so the pain will soon be gone, but boy am I not looking forward to that goodbye, because that is going to hurt.


I'm too scared of the possibility of this happening to me, I've lived in the same house all my life yikes. so I'm blocking it out, and cannot stop thinking about the fact there's a station called "theydon bois"


I just had to move out from the house I lived during 19 years and parents during 30 years last saturday, it feels like losing a part of your life, like if those years just vanished.


I'M CRYING SO MUCH RN?!?!???? OH MY GOD I RELATE TO YOU A LOT I'M REALLY NOSTALGIC TOO I CAN'T LEAVE THE PAST I COULDN'T HAVE DONE IT


your mum seems so lovely, i like how she helped to distract you by playing pokémon go when you were upset


Just now as I glanced thru these comments, my brother called to say we've sold the house we (and our mother) grew up in. I was last in it 15 years ago (we've had a tenant since then, who recently died), and time and wear and tear have drained nearly all the monetary value out of it. Sure, one looks back, but home isn't there anymore. Memories of home are just that, memories. A house is a house. Home is a living thing that we have to feed daily by taking care of the the people and the relationships and the things we value, and ourselves.  Best of luck with yours, Dodie.


never known anyone to be so emotional over so little


I'm also a bit on the sentimental side for my stuff that really made me happy.  This day will come for me too :-/


i moved a few months ago with my parents and my old house is still ours, my sibling still go there all the time and my sister still lives in it, and honestly it will be so hard to move out of there completely. it feels so hard already because i see it once in 3 months, but if well sell it it will just feel like im letting go of an entire era of my life where i made memories there. and i really relate because it'll feel like im letting go of an entire part of my life where i was just happy all the time, never even doubting that, which now is just the complete opposite.


It hurt my heart when your mum said "but this already isn't your home anymore." I understand the getting rid of the before in a different context but I hope once you push through the sadness you will be so happy and feel so much better.


What I miss the most about my childhood home is the markings on the wall of me and my sister's height as we were growing up.also friggin Hedy having her shit together all the time smh how dare she be functional and emotionally stable


My parents are just as sentimental as I am when we move I don't think we are gonna be able to get rid of anything let alone burn it :/ I feel kindof sorry for dodie but I do think moving forward is a good thing especially if she finds it hard to let go of the past as she said in a previous video. I hope her parent': new home is lovely :)


my family have never really stayed in the same place or bought a house until last year. the thought of not moving again is weird but reassuring. thorughout my life 'home' has been transportable and easy to move and being tied down to one place freaks me out a bit. for me home is where my family is.


i moved out of my first childhood home when i was about 9 or 10. i moved into a trashy house in the middle of nowhere and that was awful. but i stayed with my grandparent's for about a year before then. we moved into a lovely home two years ago but it burned down in august 2016. right now i'm trying my hardest to get through this with my family. this is so complicated not living in a permanent home and staying with my grandparent's who hate us. it's a complicated time.


I started crying when she threw the box in the fire, It was so sad! And she also made me feel hungry when eating that pizza....


My parents are gonna sell my home when I transfer out of community college and this video makes me so scared to leave my childhood behind.


god im gonna have to go through this soon since after i graduate im moving states with my mom and hhhhh its gonna be hard to just pick up and leave

i hate my house for all the same reasons but i was born and raised here and there are SO many memories, not looking forward to leaving it all behind


I'm somewhat of the complete opposite to you haha I hate keeping memories (especially when they've become bad ones - I experienced something rather traumatic as a teen) because I feel the past is always dragging me down and I still feel stuck in it... I really wish I could let go more easily. When I see other people's childhood pictures and memories I think it's the cutest thing and I sometimes wish I hadn't gotten rid of my own, because it's harder to remember what you are made of. The good thing about it is that you reinvent yourself more easily :)


I been thinking for a while ago the moment that I will leave my house, like move to their city and stuff. I have many years in the house I'm today. I have many memories, not only the ones that I made here (with my friends and family) but for me my bedroom feels like home. I feel comfortable, I made it so personal, like in the walls, with photos of my friends and me and the things I'm passionate about. I'm gonna cry myself out the moment I walk out forever from this house.


I moved across the country from my childhood home right before high school and it killed me as much as it killed you. I sat on the floor of my empty room and just cried and cried. It felt like a piece of me was getting stomped on and abandoned. I still cry thinking about it. But I understand that what makes a home are the people I love and everything else is arbitrary. Memories don't have to be physical like a house or little souvenirs. That's hard to accept but I'm getting there. I hope you can too :)


this honestly made me cry so much wathcing you cry while going through all this


Your mother is the most adorable lil dove


Oh Dodie, you deserve the worlds supply of tea!