It's been 3 years since I broke up with my abusive ex and this last months I've finally reached the point where I don't want nor I feel the need to talk with him about everything that happened. I can't imagine answering if he reached out now. It was so fucking hard to teach myself that I'm safe now and I won't compromise that for the sake of him or having a last conversation. I can't imagine how that must be for you, lots of strenght!
@plant parent That may or may not be the case, but she clearly says that it's the ex's ex that got in touch and that they had a shared experience with the same ex.
the thing about trauma is -- especially childhood trauma -- is that you don't even realize how traumatic the things that have happened to you are, until it hits you so hard and so fast. but everyone can get through it, and having people to help aid you in your journey is something everyone deserves.
THIS. i spent so long thinking i was okay and then all of a sudden it hit like a ton of bricks like oh wow there was so much trauma all along wasnt there
It's been hitting me full force, especially this semester because I've started to go to therapy. Its so hard to feel present and real. Im constantly on edge and can get forced into flashbacks basically at any moment. Its super difficult to go through but the most healing thing is having someone near you that understands, even if its not all the way. I hate that they can understand, but its incredibly validating
I definitely understand that and am working on it ❤️ The scary part of realizing you had trauma as a child is you worry that you're remembering wrong, or people will be hurt. My trauma is deep, I know it. But then I didn't realize it and it comes so suddenly and differently now that it feels false and angry and sad. But I'll move forward, and find cope and hope and love
I agree. Also I feel like I don't really grasp the magnitude of my trauma until I'm trying to make a relatable comment or joke about things I think most people go through, when those present turn pale or red and many if not all leave the room or go very quiet. I mean what can I do? Bottling everything inside is unhealthy. But if people can't see the vulnerable human side, I'll be unrelatable or seeming to keep people out. Some say comedy is tragedy plus time, but maybe I'm not saying things in a funny enough way for them to be palatable? I don't know, it's just trauma and most people go through some trauma at different parts of their lives. It's not a competition and bonding over shared or similar trauma can feel quite fulfilling. Have any of you had some luck with some of this? What is your approach?
I love how open and honest you are with your feelings, Dodie, but I also admire that you aren't afraid to draw boundaries. There's a reason why I've supported you for 6 years
A lesson we can take from this pandemic is to, well, adjust. It’s not just how we have to wear masks and stay 6 feet apart, it’s with our relationships too. This pandemic has caused a lack of communication, which we have to make okay. To the person reading this, everything will be okay in the end. Everything will turn out okay, even if it might not seem like it now <3
Hey Dodie, I know that this will be buried under all of the comments already here but I had to say thank you. I went through hell a few years ago and spiralled through depression as a result but you have taught me so much about dealing with mental health and being stronger. Thank you for little chats like these
I am so proud of you for being here! dodie has helped me so much too. this comment section is golden. I hope I’m not the only one who cried watching this... then my eyes burned lol. that’s beside the point. WE LOVE YOU DODIE!!
@GreenSteve she hasn't, but it's entirely her prerogative whether she wants to tell it or not. It seems deeply and incredibly personal, so I expect we won't ever hear it (or at least not the full story), but personally I'm okay with that.
i went back to school for the first time in a long while about a week ago, and i forgot my friends were so...nice? i don’t know how i forgot how kind and beautiful and amazing they were, but when i was texting them it wasn’t the same. it was so different and to have them talk to me in real life again was so refreshing. my friend group has shifted, but seeing my friends again has helped, even if i feel as if i’ve changed too much for them. and i have new friends too, and i feel bad that they understand me more. but i’m also happy about it?? i don’t know, friendships are confusing but sometimes the shifting helps. i don’t know what the hell this paragraph has been but WE MOVE ON
Yeah! I felt really lonely during lockdown and then when I came into school it was like a breath of fresh air hearing all my friends and teachers be so kind and relaxed
Thank you, I haven’t been connecting with my old friends during all of this and I feel kind of sad about it, but it’s also shown me who actually cares enough to be the one to reach out first, you know? I don’t think it’ll be the same as it used to be, but maybe that’s okay!
i remember coming back to school and i realised how i put more of myself loose. its felt nice but i always fear i will say something wrong. i fear my friends view of me will change badly and i will drift from my group.
something im afraid of are when i have a feeling that im i could just pull away from a friend. like i dont need them anymore. as bad as it sounds, im trying to stop thinking about it.
awh IM SO EXCITED FOR BUILD A PROBLEM! i hope you all drink water today and get plenty to eat! love you alllll <3
edit: 2:07 HOLY- “i’m friends with my depression at this point” was such a powerful thing to say; it resonated so strongly what on earth your brain is v big dodie
this is really sweet but now i’m sobbing because it really has been 5 years since i’ve been watching you and it’s crazy to see how much you’ve grown as a person oh my god.
I think the first video I watched was the "I'm Going Blind??" video 😆 it's been such a long time, and she's inspired my style, a portion of my music taste, and yeah I got into playing the ukulele because of her 😂 it's been a good several years
This feels like a nice medium between knowing you were uncomfortable with the amount that you were sharing and someone that people might find ~unreachable~ or unreal or something in the way that many "influencers" are viewed, and i do appreciate these little slices ! like peeling an orange and sharing one slice with ur lunch friends. thank u <3
This is such a powerful and beautiful video Dodie <3 As a man, I feel the same sentiment that you mentioned around having to be a certain way, otherwise "I am nothing". Thanks so much for sharing these deep reflections.
i feel you dodie. derealization and dissociation are hard to deal with and it feels like it takes hold of your life for a long time. with the “i am the villain in like 10 people’s stories” i felt that. sometimes the realization just smacks you in the face and it’s hard to come out of that lost feeling. i hope you are doing absolutely swell and that you can find true happiness. ❤️❤️
"YOU can use those words, WE can use those words" Such powerful and truthful words
Edited: Also I'm so so glad dodie you have been able to heal even If its only just a tiny bit, and healing is good and I'm so over the moon you able to get this.
Dear dodie, you have the most comforting voice on the entire universe. The end.
Actually not the end. Also we love you and please take care of yourself as you take care of us with your songs. We love u so much our precious hooman <3
really is just like old times ! it’s crazy to think that we’re all growing as people, you knows? i started watching you 5 years ago now and everything’s changed, but in a good way. thanks for growing up with me dodie :))
Can we all just agree how wholesome she is and honestly she owes us nothing. As someone who lives with depression and major insecurities, this was honestly a really nice video to see someone being honest.
It's so nice to hear your voice in this format again :) fresh and exciting because you're in a different part of your life, but nostalgic and comforting at the same time. Thank you for being here! <3
That said, obviously never any pressure to carry on with anything you don't wanna do. I'm just happy to enjoy what you do choose to share with us :)
Dodie saying “I’m friends with my depression” pretty much convinces me that she’s a real life angel.
I think my depression is this built-in-thing that came with my brain as a weird feature that keeps breaking and bugging. I hate it and I’m pretty sure the rest of my brain hates it, too. A friend? No. A psychopath who needs to be sedated so it doesn’t whisper negativity and nonsense? Yea.
anyone else getting very adult vibes from this? i just love it, i think it makes for such a weird parasocial relationship watching someone grow up online for 6+ years as you grow up yourself, you know? it feels nice to watch adult dodie as adult me
May I just say as someone who also deals with identity issues and derealization, you have been a beacon of hope for me in terms of representation of our mental illnesses in the media, you're a breath of fresh air and you have shown me that it's ok to not feel real
that thing about feeling like a “whiny woman” really struck a chord with me- i’m always there validating the things my loved ones have experienced but struggle to do the same with myself? i start to compare traumas, or think that they have to fit in a certain box to “count” as a trauma. i’ve had to realize that what i dealt with was fucked up, and me denying that fact to myself is only going to hurt myself even more in the future. it’s so hard to acknowledge what the bad parts in my life were like without feeling like a whiny woman.
honestly dodie you could recite a shopping list and i would probably feel at ease. i dont know what it is but as soon as you start speaking im like entranced, and you make my anxiety so much better. thank u, have a good day <3
I've been struggling so much with anxiety and it's gotten to the point where I think that I might need therapy or start taking meds. And to hear you just talk about your therapy experience (even in this small "dose") makes it feel like this isn't an experience I should be ashamed of but something that I should realize might be helpful. So I just want to thank you, not in an idealistic type way but in a way that helps me realize that maybe I need to work on my boundaries (which I truthfully don't really have) and maybe I should work on myself because its something that I should be able to do without feeling so ashamed, so yeh thanks.
There is good help to get from both therapy and meds, I've had both and can function quite ok now. Mental health isn't something you should feel ashamed for, since no one chooses to feel bad. Hope you get better and have a brilliant future! 😊
Hi. I was terrified before my first therapy session but woah it was amazing. She said things that genuinely revolutionised my thinking and will stay in my life forever. Of course, not all therapists are good so make sure you do your research 💜 it's 1000% worth it
Nel U. E.2021-03-22 10:55:35 (edited 2021-04-20 22:15:06 )
Hey there! Your comment catched my eye because we've got similar names :D Society has always made a strong division between mental health and physical health, but we as individuals shouldn't really. Same way if you have a persistent cough you'll go see your doctor, if you're feeling constantly anxious you should do so as well.
I've always kind of been an anxious person (I am ADHD after all), but four years ago I had a spike of anxiety, and I could feel it since I woke up until I went to bed. It would paralise me, it wouldn't let me do almost anything, it was this horrible weight on my chest, painful thoughts drowning me & my nervous system about to explode, all - the - time, and it went on for almost a year. I went to my GP and I asked for help. They put me in a 1 month anxiety workshop (I was terrified at the idea of going with more people rather than having 1 to 1 sessions) and it went AMAZINGLY. They explained what anxiety really is and we did loads of exercises.
Currently I rarely feel anxious (only in very specific moments, and I know what to do), and I've learned to work with my mind rather than against it.
You can totally get better, and seeking help is nothing to be ashamed of (:
Facing the fact that you did something wrong to someone, and became the villain in their story, is incredibly difficult. As people we don’t like to face and see that we’ve done something wrong, but once you start it makes it easier to start changing certain behaviors
@Jane Rohlfing if you can see how you have changed and not make the same mistakes again I think it can be healing to forgive yourself for not knowing what you know now - you can’t know what you haven’t yet learned!
@Jane Rohlfing for some things it took a long time and a lot of learning and self improvement to be able to forgive myself, one day you might be able to too. Until then you can reflect on it- and you already are
the other day i was having a mental breakdown about never being successful/ never reaching my full potential because of the barrier my mental illnesses create within me. and then my friend was like “i can show you so many people that have mental illnesses and are successful, just think of dodie!!” and that really made me feel better because i relate to what you feel but i feel like i don’t handle it well and won’t ever be anything because of it but you show me it’s hard but possible :)) so thank you very much honesty is very refreshing
How can someone feel so kind and strong at the same time, being open about their own mental health online and on social media. My highest respect. You're beautiful.
baby dodie is actually the cutest ever i cant get over her. also i really related when dodie was talking about holding youself to a higher standard then every other woman. it doesnt make sense. i love women and i think they are so beautiful and their physical appearance doesnt matter at all as long as they are beautiful inside. but i am so insecure about my own appearance. it doesnt make sense, but it makes me feel better that someone else feels the same. love u <3
I think now I've been "knowing" you for 10 years. Seriously. One of the few people on that earth I've been knowing for so long. If it was reciprocal... Who knows. Thank you, you feel like something permanent in your peculiar impermanence \o/
This video is absolutely lovely... And this may not be any consolation in the long run, Dodie, but when I discuss your work with other people, I call you a singer/artist, not a YouTuber. You're my favorite dang singer and I'm so proud of how far you've come. <3
Casually dropping stream of consciousness poetic bombs. When the album launches and all is said and done, please consider writing prose again. You have such a talent.
It’s honestly so relieving to see that a person you look up to also struggles and is working on themselves. It makes me feel less alone and more hopeful for the future. Thank you Dodie, stay safe! ❤️
That part hit me quite hard. For years I have held on to something I did when I was 13. Only recently have I actually confronted it in therapy but I still feel a degree of guilt.
This video really showed that you have grown and matured immensely in the way that you're sharing your life and emotions. I'm proud of you and I hope life is treating you well xx
damn i'm early haha. this was such a nice video, being reminded that there are other people out there struggling with/working through their mental health during the pandemic (literally the worst environment for us lol) is healing. also those baby videos were so cuteeeee i'm glad they're helping you take better care of yourself <3 have a nice week
Sometimes it scares me how much I relate to you dodie, but at least now I have someone kind and genuine to look up to. You know nothing about me, and yet I think of you as a friend. What a strange world. Stay safe dodie, (and everyone else) it's a long, quiet journey we're on with ourselves, but it's worth it. All my love, from another little voice x
You're so lovely, I miss videos like this! It's nice to know most people are dealing with similar thoughts and feelings that I'm having. I really relate to what you said about feeling like nothing if you aren't sexy. Thank you for putting this out into the univserse!
me too! it's always hard as a woman to love yourself when everyone puts weight on your appearance but we'll get thru this. everyone deserves love even if they don't feel attractive
This was really insightful, hope you’re ok especially with this second pushback of the album. We’ll all wait as long as it takes and love every second of it! ❤️
talking about how you “take care” of your younger self made me tear up. I feel guilty when I watch home videos and see my younger self because I know I’m not very nice to her sometimes. thanks for the reminder that she’s still there, she still needs me, and I should still work on taking care of her ❤️
Dodie, you are a truly lovely example of humanity and human kindness. I’m tired of the grind, and the rubbish bucket of worms life seems to keep throwing at me, but your videos make me feel calm, and happier and reassured. Thank you ❤️
thank you for this little update. i honestly love hearing people talk about how their lives and their mental health isn’t perfect, but not have them going into a lot of detail about it. i think sometimes it’s easy for me to watch mental health videos and purposefully trigger myself to make my struggles validated. but this way in which you touched upon it without pouring out everything inside of you was just very appreciated by me. so, thank you.
I love dodie so much its unreal (no for real I love your presence whether it be in music or on the internet here, this community feels so soft and comforting)
I can’t lie I’m 19 and watching this video is already helping me open up in a way where I’m realizing the trauma I had to deal with as a kid. I even fucking opened VHS tapes like dodie not too long ago and had the same feelings, it honestly feels like a different world as a kid and you crave for that again because it seemed better not to know than to know. I just really appreciate the raw genuine vague conversation from this video if that makes sense. I know that when I finally find a way to confront my own trauma from my childhood I’ll look back on this video and know I’m not alone. I know that it’ll hit me hard and I’ll have to go through it all piece by piece.
as a fellow almost 26 year old, 25 is such an odd age to be...... i just oscillate wildly between feeling too young to be this Old and too old to be this Young
this video helped me to feel a little less lonely and i’m looking forward to the next!!
This was really nice to watch. You said somethings that I've thought before but have never said out loud. You said somethings that put some of my trauma and past into a different perspective.
I thankyou for the honesty and vulnerability you put in this video. I've got some things to think about now - ❤ Enjoy the day the best you can you beautiful bean
My mom saw someone a few days ago that she thought looked liked dodie, because her hair looked the same and also because her face looked like that of a fairy. And idk but she's right dodie looks and is like a badass fairy<3
that part about connecting with your inner child and specifically rewarching and reliving throught old footage of yourself stirred something in me. I appreciate you for you and being honest with yourself and us. you remind me to give my younger self some love and work through trauma
Dodie, at times you are a youtuber, but that's just one small part of a much richer, complex person. You are greater than the sum of your parts and that's a beautiful thing!
I love you so much. You get told that really often, but I really do mean it. You’re like a big sister and a weird mirror of myself in one. I’m so proud of you and I’ll be here to continue to watch you learn and grow as I do the same.
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cara ☕️2021-03-18 18:18:07 (edited 2021-03-18 18:19:43 )
Day 1 of me commenting on Dodie’s channel for them being one of the most wholesome and funniest people💛
been here for years and i love how you've grown over all this time while i've been growing up as well, it sorta feels like i could join you on your path (sorry sounds cheesy omg) and even now you're still growing and getting better and making such an effort to forgive and understand life <3 i love you dodie and i'm super proud of you!!
aw i've missed these lil chats :') it was very nice to hear from u again in this way ty for this.
and my excitement level for build a problem has been and still is @ the ceiling !! so thrilled
Hi dodie! Im glad that your at least trying to live your best life! I just want to say thank you, your music and videos over the years have helped me feel so valid in my own mental illness and insecurities. So i hope the best for you❤
i’ve been missing you and your content and the time in my life when we were both very much so invested into youtube. this notification put a smile on my face. thank you for doing what you do and what you have done for me. love you dodie <3
everytime you make videos like this it makes me cry because i've been watching you and listening to your music for so long it feels like you're connected with parts of me that i've lost, parts of me that i'm still mourning over. theres a connection with you that's odd and different but theres healing within each of your videos and songs. i appreciate everything you do. plus your voice is so soothing, like a hug.
This was adorable and relaxing and heartfelt and quiet, thank you dodie, I needed this. I hope you continue to do well, and I will never again call you a youtuber if that's not what you want to be called <3
Thank you for being the older sister I never got to have, dodes. You've always been a little ahead of me (I'm 21) and it's so nice to have someone share a little bit of their life lessons with me. I wish you the best :)
Dodie, you've come a very long way in the several years I've been subscribed to you. You are beautiful, and strong, and talented, and wonderful. No, I don't pretend to understand your trauma, but I accept that it's real. In my 51 years on this Earth, I've learned that we're ALL screwed up in one way or another, whether we have the strength to admit it or not. And, if it helps at all to hear it from a dirty old man, you ARE sexy. It's healthy that you have set boundaries on what you share, and humbling that you love us enough to share what you do. Thank you, for bringing us along on this journey. We love you. 💖
Hello. Thank you so much for this. I almost started crying seeing the images of you on youtube throughout the years and wow. I am so lucky to have had you going through all this time and to be with you on this journey. Thank you
i appreciate this video. It made me feel like I was 15 again sitting in my room recharging by listening to Dodie whilst feeling the warmth of having an older sister or even a best friend. Dodie thank you for your transparency. You make me feel safe in all of my melodrama
thank you so much for talking about derealization and depression. it IS validating to hear other people talk about it and understand how it feels or... doesn’t feel.
I really needed this video, I've been going through a depressive episode recently and seeing you be so honest about your experience is very comforting. Thank you for sharing, I know it's hard to do but you have helped so many people by doing it. <3
It was so lovely hearing all of this from you. I can relate to a lot of it. From the inner child work, to the befriending your depression, feeling lonely internally. I hope you find the solace you seek and wish you many jovial breakthroughs in your healing from the trauma you’ve endured. 💖
I’m not sure what I deal with but everything you say I can relate to, I am pretty sure I suffer with depersonalisation as I feel detached from myself and I feel spaced out all the time so maybe I have derealisation. I don’t know but everything you say always helps me figure out something else about me and realise im not alone. So thank you Dodieeeee xx
this is making me feel so nostalgic for your old videos, and i always loved those types of videos bc they made me feel less alone in my problems :,) thank you
Thank you for this! As a 22 year old, learning to live with on and off depression, it was heart warming and reassuring to hear you speak so frankly, dodie. Thank you. It can't be easy, but know that it's truly appreciated. Love you gal x
I want to thank you. Not only are you my favourite musician of all time, your masterpieces helped me discover so much about myself and my life, genuinely. You describing your derealisation helped me come to terms with my dissociations and made me feel so much more at peace with it. Even when I feel so disconnected and far from everyone and everything else, including myself, you remind me that you’re here for me, because you’re connected to me through your music. You convey a magic that I’ve never known anyone else to have, and I hope one day you will know just how much you have changed my life for the better, along with so many other people’s. I love you Dodie, you inspire so many people to be all the best parts of themselves jumbled up into one big lovely ball of happy dough. :)
Loved this video, felt so nostalgic to hear from you like this as a longtime viewer 💓 The art piece of the woman with the beauty mark hanging behind you- did you get that somewhere online? So weird but it looks EXACTLY like me, the nose and mole and everything, so id want to get it if I can!
i really really loved this video, it's crazy to see how much you've grown over the years. i wish you good luck in everything you're trying to accomplish and i'm really grateful that you chose to share this with us <3
We’re here for you Dodie, i think you are a beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for sharing this with us, it really is helpful to us and to you as a connection and an outlet. Sometimes life is just ugghhh but i believe in you and i know that you’re gonna be ok. You’re so brave to spread this with the world and just know that you are so loved. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
I love being able to hear lil updates on you, dodes! I'm in a similar boat with derealization—just trying to sort through it and understand it more. Thank you for being so open about your experience. Because of you, I've learned so much about myself and grown so much. You're an inspiration as heck
I want you to know that I really appreciate these videos where you're just open and honest about so much, in such a casual way. It always leaves me feeling introspective and I need that every now and then. All your calm vlogs feel like warm hugs from a friend <3
I really appreciate you putting words to that lonely feeling you get even when you know you have friends. Grateful for what you've shared, and how you share it. Ever excited for the new album <3
just turned 23 and really want you to know how helpful and touching these videos are to me! it is comforting seeing you walk through life a few steps ahead of me and you give me a lot of hope as I begin to approach my mid20s. best of luck out there dodie!!!!
I have watched you for so long, and I have been there for all your oversharing phases, and, let me say, I am SO proud of you for discovering the value of boundaries. It is so good and so healthy. I love it.
I'm proud of you. How far you've come and all of it. Even when dealing with things, you're open to heal, and that's already a big step ❤️ You are worth more than you could ever imagine
I'M SO EARLYYYY hi dodes <3 i've had such a shit day and i was sooo looking forward for today's video !!! thank you for being so lovely, love love love you 💘
i’m so glad you talk like this, the theme of my life for the past few months has been playing a lot of flat musical chairs and understanding that whilst i have fucked up, other people have fucked me up too. my therapist and i have been connecting me back to my inner child, and the overall feeling has been different shades of loneliness. it’s very soothing to know that someone, even just in a youtube video, could resonate with that it’s a transitional period, and learning that even with your circle constantly changing and mistakes making you feel “tarnished” almost, there will always be one friend that isn’t leaving you — except it’s yourself, and the friend you’re probably the meanest to. and when so much has changed, your self loathing is the only thing that stays consistent, and when it leaves you like everything else, it feels like you’re doing something horribly wrong but your body cares for you, holds you, cleans you, and sits with you through every trauma, the least we can do is appreciate it for that during times like this, as hard as that is
I've been diagnosed this year with dissociation and I always feel lonely despite having people around me, internally lonely definitely describes it <3 This video made me feel really validated :)
wow was not expecting one of these build a problem lead-up videos to feel this,,, monumental ? i'm feeling like eighty emotions all at once lol this was so much.
I love you so much, thank you for sharing these little things, it makes me feel like a dear friend of yours. Also, since you mentioned your home, I think you would like to know that you gave me the extra confidence I needed at 17 to start posting videos of me singing. Not many people saw/see my videos, but it helped me SO MUCH with my confidence. Thank you for that and many other reasons.
Hearing you say "Villain is someone's story" made me realize that I have been the villain more than I was ever the hero. Getting help, being diagnosed bipolar certainly helped me realize what I was doing, but didn't take away what I did. I haven't relished the fact I will grow old alone.
Always been so validating hearing you talk about these things, grown with you since your charlieissocoollike phase and I wish you so much love in life hehe 🥰
Thanks for sharing, Dodie. I’ve been living with my best friend since the Summer, but lately have been feeling lonelier than ever. It’s nice to hear someone else say it too. ❤️
I love being able to hear from you in your videos, this is so weird to say knowing you may read it, but I’ve been watching you for so long that you honestly feel like a family friend or mentor. I’m five years younger than you and I constantly feel like I’m learning how I’m going to be feeling five years from now. I watch your old videos where you’re the age I am now and see how different you are now and it makes me so excited to grow. Anywho, I hope you’re doing well, excited for the album!!
Listening to your stories and experiences truly feels like reconnecting with an old friend! I love hearing from you, specially in these lonely and troubling times of self isolation
thank you for always being open about your derealisation, it's really helped me articulate it to others and also come to terms with the fact that it's just the way I exist, and there's no getting away from it and THAT'S OKAY most of the time <3
i loved this. and it's so lovely to see u flourish into the WONDERFUL musician u are because i've listened to ur music since around 2015. but every damn time something is uploaded on here youtube comes up as a topic, a small part of me SHITS MY PANTS and is like "she's deleting doddlevloggle this is it, it's time to say goodbye OH GOD"
dodie i swear thank you so so much for this video, it really brightened my day. Its been a long old year, good to see your face, i hope the album release goes amazing, you deserve it
i’m so incredibly proud of you. it’s so weird to think that i kinda grew up with you? i was sixteen when i first watched a video of yours. i’m 21 now. it’s weird but it’s also humbling and comforting so thank you
Thank you dodie. I loved that I could relate with this video, and not feel alone in my struggles. I wish the best for you, thank you for all you do. <3
forgot this was happening, so the notification made me both smile and surprised. i love love love the format of filming photos/videos on your phone! makes me feel like i'm hanging out with a friend and they're showing me things in their camera roll <3
Ugh dodie. You set my bi heart on fire. This video is such a breath of fresh air, and I just want to remind you that you're beautiful and creative and fantastic, and I am so so so proud of you for working through your traumas in therapy, and for surrounding yourself with positive people. Those things are huge. That's what healing is all about. And you're modeling it in this video so well, which means you're helping other people who maybe don't know where to go. Thank you. <3
I love these kind of videos, dodie. More than I can even express. Hearing your reflections on life and trauma every so often helps me remember I’m not alone. I wasn’t expecting this one to hit me like it did but talking about finding old family footage messing you up resonated so much. I once found baby photos from before all my trauma began and it made me feel absolutely broken for a bit, but I love the idea of using that to help take care of yourself by taking care of your younger self.
I have missed listening to her just talk about her life so much! I try and catch her Instagram stories but her YouTube videos just make me feel so warm and I miss her
i love that i unknowingly put on my old dodie sweatshirt today. dodie, i have grown up watching you and i so so much appreciate your honesty and openness and it has made me feel welcomed to be more open about my feelings as well. so proud of you and how you have grown <33
please never stop making videos like these. They make me so happy, its like we have a direct connection. Youre helping so many people just by being here. thank you.
Sending you a lot of positive feelings! Also thanks for being there for people and openly talking about your feelings, even if they're not always positive, you're doing a lot of good here, even if you're not aware of people you've helped!
Thank you for this video. I've been on this channel for a couple of years already, so it's really nice to hear your thoughts in a direct honest way, the same way you talked about this topic before. Your channel has always been kinda safe space for me, and I'm really gratefull for that. It's valuable and calming to know that you're not alone on this journey.
Thank you for sharing this video with us, I relate to a massive amount of what you expressed and feel so validated to hear you - someone I admire talk about working through these things. I hope you’re having a lovely day, look after yourself 🌿🌿
Re-watching this because it’s exactly where I am right now—depressive episodes, always lingering, trying to befriend it, and the struggles with body image. And being a villain in other people’s stories. And boundaries. Makes me feel less alone, thank you
You are so incredibly amazing and inspiring. And I honestly just want to say thank you. Thank you for being yourself. You’ve helped me through so much with your videos and especially your music.
I just wanted to say that you playing ukelele and making music on here really inspired me to start playing ukelele as well. I've always loved music and I never thought I could be apart of that world of playing music until I saw your videos. I'm so glad that I saw your videos and got excited about playing music and that I can now do that with a ukelele, so thanks, and know that being a women with a ukelele is badass in my book at least <3
Dodie. Wow. I appreciate this so much. It's been so wonderful to watch you grow and change throughout the years and I almost feel like I've been included in a small but important piece of your life. That is such a gift that I do treasure. Thank you for that gift. I'm so happy that you were able to get to the position you are in now in a healthy way. I remember when you over-shared on the internet and then realized you over-shared and decided to go about fixing things in a healthy way. That's so respectable and mature. I wish more people would learn from you. Setting up that boundary earlier allowed for such a sweet and vulnerable video like this one. Thank you for sharing with us, and thank you for being you.
i love you so much. you got me through the first couple years of my depression when i was 14. you’ve “raised” me in sorts. thank you for being open w us sometimes<3
absolutely ecstatic for your debut album 🖤 i still remember playing your early youtube videos on repeat and going out to buy a uke just to be able to play your songs !! ur an inspiration and legend love you dodes
you probably won’t see this but i found you and your music at a time when i needed you and your words. somehow you always know what i’m thinking. i think it may be because we both have dpdr. i’m thankful i found you and because of you i pushed to get a proper diagnosis because what doctors tried to diagnose me with was never right. thank you for being you, for your music, and all that you do 💗
You are an artist. One of my favourites. I love what you make. I've never really engaged with your social media much, to me you are definitely "artist" first. And a bloody excellent one. x
I feel this soo soo much. Wow, I have not become friends with my depression yet. I am more scared of it. Thank u for posting this. Thank you, thank you
dodie - thank you ❤️ I have suffered with anxiety for years and last year experienced depression for several months for the first time. when I was first properly diagnosed with anxiety, “secret for the mad” brought me peace. when I finally realized that I had been experiencing depression and dissociation, it was thinking about “goblin dodie” that helped me take care of myself again. thank you for sharing your music, and thank you for videos like this. sending so so much love xx
Young Dodie! And baby Dodie <3 It's really nice to see these videos, with open communication in them. They remind us that other people are humans like us. We love you and we support you <3
I want to thank you for talking about dpdr :) this is the first birthday I've spent in my body in over 10 years bc I went to therapy when I heard you talk about it.
I've now come out as trans as I realize what I was running away from was me, thanks dodie ☺️
thanks for this, honestly. every time you talk about your life and your feelings just in total, "total" honestly it makes me feel warm. I'm glad I've been supporting you since almos the very beginning of your YouTube channel because I can see how much you've changed and grown. and also thank you very much for being so inspiring xxx
ur hair looks gorgeous here!! also I've been subbed to u for like 6 years (which absolutely doesn't feel like a long enough amount of time I feel like I've been a dodie stan for at least a decade) and I feel so proud of u! we've watched you grow so much while we have grown along side you 💛 glad we get to grow together dod!!
honestly i’m going back to therapy soon for some ✨intense cbt✨ and watching this video was so comforting and i feel less scared. i’m sure that wasn’t your intention dodie, but thank you for speaking
Growing up with no boundaries and having to learn them in your twenties is such a vibe and it sucks that so many people have to do that (me included). It's good to hear from you Dodie. Glad to see you're taking care of yourself! ❤️
I absolutley love you Dodie. I love everything about you. Your music, my god, is amazing. I love how real you are even with keeping things private. I have been following you for years and years now and I am so proud and happy for you for how far you've come. You've gotten here despite depression, derealization, trauma and much more. I'm always thinking about how you are still able to do the things and reach goals that you have while trying to cope and I really take that to heart for myself. I tend to call you a youtuber because I've followed you before you had any offical music out, but I also call you an artist. You are the most tallented youtuber musical artist. We Love you Dodie and we are here for you. Thank you.
She/you really are my, like, comfort artist if that makes sense. I just always feel so vulnerable when I hear her/you speek in a very good way I loved this video thanks
I like hearing you talk. It feels soothing and it reminds me of a different time. A better time? Maybe. I think I needed this now. I think need some dodie thoughts now and again.
I grew up with you Dodie, and it brings me so much joy so see you on the same journey. We are moving forward and I am so okay with you putting boundaries up for yourself. I am excited for your new music and all that it brings. Hopefully this fucking pandemic will go away so we can have concerts again!! :)))
I also connected with my abusive ex's ex, we are best friends for 4 years now and it's amazing to be able to help each other through it! We both have been going through similar life events and even had the same breast reduction surgery, from the same size to the same size.
This is kinda funny and interesting how much a proper metalhead like me enjoys your music and talent, but also you as a person. I really appreciate your honesty about yourself and about your view on life. Not sure where is the line between being a Youtuber and/or an artist (if there is one), but I guess even if you are a Youtuber, there is nothing wrong with it. In the end Youtube is a great media that allows you to show us your talent and us to hear all these songs and other stuff you share :) Really looking forward to finally hear Build A Problem (yes, I have pre-ordered it). Stay safe :)
Love you Dodie! You helped me through my derealisation. It took me about 4 months to fully recover and I still get it sometimes but to anyone in these comments, derealisation recover is completely possible.
Thanks for sharing, for checking-in. :) I/we were wondering how you’re doing and I’m happy to see that you’re fine (under the circumstances) and that you have such lovely people around you.
Woooooo! Weekly vids! I love your stories and the bits you share with us. Especially this past year which has been a struggle for many. Kind of nice to not feel so alone so thanks. :)
just wanted to say thank you for doing these, and being so open about your struggles and thoughts. Im 20. and a lot of the time i feel like i go through very similar struggles to you. All of your songs feel very close to home. Family trauma. Sexuality. Heck, i just found out i have depersonalization. kinda sucks but hearing you talk about it makes it feel ok. Your songs are such a safe space for me I can't even tell you. i sang "would you be so kind" about my first crush 5 years ago, then "she" when i realized i was bisexual. "secret for the mad" basically saved me from suicidal thoughts in middle school and high school and "guiltless" put something i was never able to describe into words, lyrics. every time people ask me about the abuse and trauma i play guiltless because it says eveyrthing i cant. i find myself growing along with your music which i think is magical. and i love hearing you talk about your experiences because i see myself in you. hope this isnt too weird. thank you for everything.
We love you dodie!!! v excited to see the next few videos in the coming weeks. discovered you only recently and your videos and music help when times are rough !
ive been watching u since i was around thirteen and im turning eighteen this year and i cant quite express how relieving it is to feel seen by someone ive (distantly) grown up with. meaning: parasocial relationships exist and im well aware we r not friends and will not be friends and im definitely okay with that but being able to relate the little bits u share with us to my own story gives me a sense of comfort and familiarity. not in the same way i get when one of my actual friends confides in me or something but still just as important? hearing you speak about being the villain in somebodys story for instance without explaining how or why was very very comforting, because regardless of the story it lets me kno that thats a Thing other people do, in fact, realize about themselves, even if our stories are vastly different. we may not be friends, but ive learned that a person doesnt need to have a personal relationship with someone to find comfort in the person they show me. i dont kno u personally, but im manifesting great things for u dodie :] thank u for all that u have created for us and all that u allow us to kno about ur story 💞💗💖💕💓
thank you so much for sharing your experiences! they always help me better understand myself and not feel alone. im so glad there's people like you out there on youtube
Thank you for sharing, I hope you can find a balance of vulnerability that works for you, and that people will respect your boundaries ❤️ There is definitely a sense of connection that comes with understanding what people whose stuff you like are going through, but it also isn’t your responsibility to provide that
dodie i have so much love and respect for you. you bring me immense comfort because i’m dealing with a lot from all sides right now and just seeing you exist as the empathetic, intelligent, honest human you are gives me a sliver of hope that i can make it through to the other side. thank you ♥︎
dodie, I just want to express how grateful I am for everything you create and have created throughout the years. I know it isn’t uncommon for you to get comments full of gratitude and specific examples of how much you’ve helped during x times but I hope you feel a reminder of the actual weight behind said statement. You are a creative visionary and so fun in expressing your styles (always have been throughout the years, even when you were a flower crown ukulele “walking stereotype” as you called yourself previously lol). seeing videos like these is refreshing and reassuring in knowing that we are not alone. it’s inspiring to see such a great artist care about being genuine with their audience and expressing things.. reminding us in a very grounding sense that you still deal with things you’ve opened up on and that life can still be pretty damn good despite of the bits of mud stuck on one’s boots. and dealing with that mud can look different for everyone. thank you for the little tidbits of happy, of whimsy and reality, of validation and expression and everything weaved in through the years that I’ve followed your content. Your community is one Ive found friends in and one that is thankful. I hope you have a good day :) and that goes for anyone who stuck out this far in reading this little expression as well 🤍
dodie i’ve been watching you since i was like 14 years old and we share very similar mental health experiences. I am 20, almost 21 now, and I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder this year. Obviously you’re older than me, and could have seen this as an option, but every time you explain your feelings and symptoms I can’t help but notice similarly. We love you so much and only want what’s best for you🖤
it was a really weird experience for me to watch this video (good weird, i promise!). I really appreciate that you managed to be so open and honest and vivid about your situation and your thinking process while keeping all the detail to yourself. I feel like you've gotten really better at creating your boundaries, and Im very happy for you that you did (: You are such an interesting person, i found it impossibly fascinating to watch this video, and hear sentence after sentence of strung-together topics and thoughts of yours. You are infinitely interesting and I admire you for your growth and perseverance. Your honest and genuine artistry really gets to me.
this video felt like a nice chat over tea late at night, and I appreciate that you make such comforting videos. I appreciate that you can make me feel so much and so alive, looking at your growth and feeing like I can understand where you're at because i have grown too. It feels nice to recognise some of me in you, the gentleness, the kindness, the patience to oneself, the constant building of maturity and understanding... i really truly appreciate that i can those bits of me in you.
You seem to be doing better, even if always experiencing your own troubles, your energy seems more at ease. I hope you continue to build your happiness even through troubling times!
I haven’t teared up in a good long bit and this was just so raw and true and honest and I respect it so much. The bit about connecting with your inner child was so profound for me and I really hope to incorporate that idea as part of my self care :)
Two things about feeling like a villain. The first: you’re 25! Nobody is perfect at any age, but even more so when we are young we are still learning and growing and the fact you feel that way shows you likely have evolved from your past experiences and wouldn’t make the same choices again. It’s ok. You’re not a villain, you’re just human. My friend told me something which has really stayed with me, and that’s that just because people hurt us doesn’t mean we have been wronged. It goes the other way too — sometimes we hurt people but it doesn’t mean we’ve wronged them, we were simply not in a good place in our own lives or prepared to deal with a complex situation which involved the various needs of others. It’s life. The second thing is that likely you are harder on yourself than others. When I was 25 I had similar feelings and reached out to a girl to apologise to her. And I found out that actually she didn’t blame me at all for what had happened; that she was also going through a difficult period of her life and what happened had almost nothing to do with me (at least she felt that way respectively). We can’t change our past, we can just move forwards with more grace and wisdom 💖💕
Internal Loneliness is SO relatable. I’ve been struggling with a ton of deep identity stuff and processing emotionally abusive friendships I had in my childhood and finding ways to even just have a language and words for all of the crap is so helpful. I LOVE the enneagram (I’m a 4!) and its such a great tool that I use to understand myself better and to find the best ways I can process trauma. Would 100% recommendation Enneagram coaching to anyone!
thank you for this dodie. you speak so beautifully and honestly this video has made me see just how much I've grown myself in watching you over the years and seeing you grow too, I'm so glad you're here <33
This video feels very nostalgic of dodies videos that helped me in some of my darkest times, but grown. It's interesting to see how dodies changed and how I've changed. It gives a very nice and odd sense of comfort
I still remember when I found your channel at the ripe old age of 13. I turned 18 last month. And even tho I am a completely different person than I was five years ago, I still keep coming back to your videos. Not as often anymore, since I don't really have the time but I still come back. I don't know what the point of this comment is but I'm just feeling a bit nostalgic on this fine evening.
Your honesty and open sharing is appreciated. I relate to a lot of what you said and it helped me feel less alone - something that’s extra helpful as I watched this while in a down patch. Thank you 💛
Yay! I love this comfortable place you've gotten to with sharing things about your life, but also working through things in private. I remember the "Am I sharing too much?" video from a couple years ago, and it seemed like sharing had become compulsive and painful for you. I still go back to your old videos that talk about your depression because they help me feel less alone, to be sure. But I also loveee these new videos you've been doing!
Thank you for mentioning your derealization. I appreciate it every time you mention it. You were a huge reason why I knew of derealization so when it happened to me I didn’t think I was going crazy. I appreciate you.
You're so validating for people going through similar conditions. I'm glad you are so open about being zoned out and depresion episodes now and again. You make a lot of us feel much more understood. Thanks, beautiful human!
Thank you dodie hearing you say this really helps because I look up to you and think you’re amazing but I’m struggling too and we’re all just humans with brains and life is beautiful and horrible and let’s just live
Thanks for the video. You did a great job of articulating what the depression feels like and the loneliness that goes with it. It often seems like there isn't anything to do and it will just hang around with us forever, and maybe that's true, but I always think about the video that Philosophy Tube has on depression: "I know how you feel." The most important thing is knowing that you aren't alone in it. I know how you feel. And so do a bunch of us. And it's great to hear it out loud and from someone we admire and enjoy and believe in.
OMG DODIE I've been obsessively listening to all your music, just a constant vibe ❤ and then I'm watching Ginny and Georgia on Netflix and your song is in it! Amazing xxxx
i can’t wait to be okay. i’ve faced things but i don’t think i’ve learned and grown past them. the hard thing is waiting for the time to be okay, because now is not the time for me to be okay. thanks for making a safe space for everyone and yourself dodie <3 truly love you
I really appreciate the transparency with mental health and just reminding that trauma isnt easy to heal from and it can be difficult to even call it trauma. hope you continue living your best life even with all of the ugly stuff woven into it
From what I can see (based on the musings you've posted to date) I think you're doing a fantastic job of raising yourself. Not everyone is self aware or brave enough to embark on an honest journey of self discovery. In doing so you're not just creating value for yourself, but also for those around you. Keep going. It can be tough at times, but is so worth it, and you deserve it.
I hope you know how much you mean to so many people. Thank you so much for just existing and sharing these things. I am crying in the best way right now, I love you 💕
i'm so grateful to dodie that she talked about her abusive ex, i've also been in a toxic relationship and knowing that the person i admire most in the world has come out of it helps me a lot. thank you dodie
These videos always feel like a late night and personal chat between myself and a friend. It’s very real and I appreciate them more and more every time a new one is created.
You being vague about everything you feel or are going through is incredibly relatable for me. I appreciate the courage it took to talk about this, and hope you find as much healing as you need.
I have an opinion! My opinion is that making and uploading this video is incredibly brave and shows a strength and honesty that i only wish I could match. Much love.
Thanks for the honesty, love 💚 refreshing to hear people talk about cPTSD and boundaries. Derealisation and dissociation makes a lot of sense in response to that. Thanks for your music! Your flatmates seem so cool. Honestly that living situation is goals for me rn. And very cool that you have so much footage of child you. I don't have many memories of childhood, myself. Do you? Did you remember the experiences in the videos before looking at the videos?
This put me all in my feelings... I feel trapped in my job and my own mind this year. I think I felt that way for a long time, but the pandemic made it worse and really brought everything to a head. I can’t ignore it anymore because it’s breaking me. To see you and your clips in this video feels so intimate and hurts, in kind of a good way. But it also sucks. Thank you so much for your art. You make me feel painfully seen, but comforted because I don’t feel so alone.
Thank you for sharing 💚 it’s great to hear from you in this way. But at he same time your boundaries are important and they deserve acknowledgement & respect, I’ve been on your page for years. You helped me realise my sexuality & embrace it, you calm & inspire me. But anyway, thanks 💕
Dodie, thank you for sharing this. You have an amazing way of discussing heavy things in your life with a sort of external objectivity, not skirting reality, but not wallowing or being self-indulgent about it. Don't know that I've ever heard anyone else do this like you do. I'm in the 'states, but when you make a video like this, it makes me want to visit London and somehow run into you, and you inexplicably have lots of time, and we just talk for a long while.
I'm friends with my mental health too now and I've been having problems longer than you have been alive Dodie lol. It feels good to accept it as normal.
I've been experiencing a lot of depersonalisation lately and I've been thinking a lot about the things you've said about it, helps me feel less alone. Also the part about taking care of your body in such a manner really resonated with me. Glad you are sharing, as much as you're comfortable with sharing of course.
The video almost made me cry as most of these videos from dodie do but the part about "taking care of your inner child" just hit me so hard. Thats such an interesting way to look at it thank you dodie
I love these types of Dodie vids. :) Thanks for sharing about your mental health stuffs because from the outside looking in it's always like "look at this person having fun with friends, they must not have the same horrible depression I have" and it really helps in feeling less alone in my loneliness, like yo, it's not about how it appears on the outside and I don't have to feel like it's due to external circumstances. Also, be damn proud of playing the uke - I have tried and failed so far because OW HOW DO THE FINGERS EVER GET USED TO DOING THAT. Love to you!
this slice was actually a pie lol - having said that, i think you have been and continue to do something amazing with your space, voice and mind. child dodie deserves you and you deserve child dodie ! you both have the same heart !
I had never heard of dissociation until I found your videos. It helped make sense of soo much of my life and I too have started to accept it and love it as part of myself over the last year. I have also experienced an abusive relationship, and it also took me a long time to start accepting that a lot of the stuff I suffered was actually abuse. Listening to your music really helped me ride out the emotional turmoil of that.
I'm so glad you've shared what you have with the world as its helped me a lot. But I don't want you to share any more with the internet than you actively want to. Being 100% honest with all the people all the time is more than any soul could possibly bear. And if I would wish anything for you it would be to have your bright and beautiful soul nurtured and cared for as much as possible.
dodie, this was lovely. your words speak to me so much, especially since you're so authentic and open. in a way, you're like an older sister to me (no pressure though, just listening to your songs is comforting enough) because i'm going through some very hard relationships right now and even just hearing someone else talk about it is like a weight being lift from my shoulders. your song guiltless for example - i felt seen for once. i bought your book back in 2018 and read it cover the cover and i completely fell apart over how this was the first time i had ever seen somebody be so honest. have you ever considered writing another book? you're a brilliant writer! anyway, i cannot tell you enough how much i appreciate this video. excited for your album :)
I love this video so much. I deal with similar mental health problems and hearing you talk about derealisation and trauma makes me feel less alone. It's helping me realize things, like how I should think what younger me would need. I'm also so glad that you are clearly learning to set clear boundaries and it's allowing you now to share a little more. And the clip at the end at the video is so cute!! 💛
Wow, Dodie, 7mins 16secs and I am filled with thoughts and emotions like I have watched a two hour play... Respect for you finding the strength to be so open and share this with us. You are an artist, come across as an amazing, caring and inspiring human being! Perhaps you were not always that way, but the way that you deal with your past is giving me hope for myself! I wish you good luck in coming to love yourself as you deserve to be loved! Thank you for being you and being here!
"tell me you've been watching dodie for ages without actually telling me you've been watching dodie for ages"
i almost went to your 20th birthday meet and greet in russell square gardens....how the fuck was that 6 years ago??? but its been lovely to watch you & your music grow and evolve :)
Oh gosh 6 years ago(2015.. oh my gosh.. ahhh) I will never forget sitting in 8th grade English "finding" your channel and constantly draining my phone battery while your videos played in the background of class😭 I swear you helped me through my high-school years and now I'm 19 in a spot that I didn't think I would ever be in.. I'm pregnant and with someone who I genuinely love and care about. And though I wished to have waited for this kid for a few more years, I'm thankful. Terrified honestly, but hearing you right now helps. Due 25th of July, I doubt many dodie fans are pregnant or with any children so that feels weird😆 but just know this little one will jam out to in the middle innocently 😭🤣
I'm not that often in the comments here anymore, but I'm still watching and I admire your openness and honesty. you don't owe us anything but still you give so much. I can imagine how helpful it is to have another person to share experiences with.
I'm also glad you have Grets and Martin around.
thanks for sharing your journey, I'm glad I've been around for a while!
we all care about you and want the best for you Dodie :) do what you want and what makes you feel better, we'll support you! also can't wait for the new album!!
one thing you (and anyone out there) need to remember, is the very fact that you are even aware and remorseful of playing the part of "the villain" in someone else's story, is exactly what makes you anything but a villain. love you lots dodie, xo.
Oh dodie, sometimes I wish we could be friends and I know how cliché it is and how many people want to be friends with you, but I feel so spoken too by your videos and you are seem so kind and lovely. I hope you will be at least that lovely to yourself tonight and you can do something to make you feel good :) on another note, yoga is a workout and some light exercise is better than none :D
Dodie ❤ I just. I wanna say that I have been around your chanel for litterally ages now, like many many years, and I want to say that I appreciate your work both in terms of YouTube vids and your amazing music. I love it all. You seem to be such an amazing person, and I know for a fact that you are an amazing musician! I just felt a really really strong urge to HUG you, so I'm sending love and virtual hugs in abundance - would ask for concent if possible but I think you can dodge these virtual hugs should you not want them hehe: 🤗🤗
I'm proud of you for growing so much and communicating so well. I understand how difficult it is to grow up without boundaries and to think that your trauma isn't that bad, but I'm glad you're learning to recognize that you deserve the love you give everybody else. I personally think of you as a musician more than anything else.
I was definitely cryin throughout this video because we are the same age and I felt as though I could feel your feelings through the screen so deeply, and I identify with them big time right now as I always do when you share your emotions with us. Makes me feel much less alone... All the love Dodes, we will just keep growing xx
i had a huge realization of how i feel towards my youger self thus how i feel about myself right now just by seeing those clips of the younger dodie, and if i felt so much love and need to protect towards my younger self why would that stop there? im the same child, just grown i love myself thank you dodie once again, for making me cry and think so deeply❤️
this is so raw and authentic, thank you for sharing
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Such openness and courage in this video 🦋🙏🏽 this is so necessary. For anyone feeling Lonely, even around others, I totally recommend the book "Anatomy of loneliness" by Teal Swan
damn crying when you talk about the old footage videos. I sometimes look to my child self and worry I'm not giving him the best of times, not respectin and honouring his life. I know he could do very well and be an awesome person, but to know that it depends on me it's hella scary. I wish the best for my child self, I just cant always do the best for my "now" self
Aww your so pretty! And lately a lot of your music has been touching me because of some of the things I am going through. You are helping me express my feelings in much healthier ways than before. I know you don't know me, but thank you!
the struggle is hard but we're all so proud of you for still working through it. sending lots of love! also, the album will come out 3 days before my birthday, it super feels like a birthday gift 😭
2:47-3:05 is always floating in my head :/ I should be 20 lbs smaller or at least have a small waist because I want to feel validated in that way- I wanna be attractive yet I don’t think that way about other people because humans are so beautiful, why do we have to do that to ourselves
hey i just wanna say that it's really nice to know i'm not the only one who's spacey all the time. you actually introduced me to like ,, dissociation and stuff and i just think you're really cool so !!!! thank u for doing this sorta stuff <3 <3
I've watched Dodie for years and years and only now realized how close in age we are. She always seemed so much older and wiser than me. She's 25 and I'm 21. My new roommate is 25 and listens what I have to say to her. I wish I could have a conversation with Dodie. It was such a strange experience to be a 20 year old watching her video where she replied to her 20 year old self, when I can remember the video coming out when she was 20. I'm so grateful to her for being someone I can always come back to.
Remember that you are loved. Everyone reading this you deserve love and respect. If you feel like no one loves you or no one cares, yeet that thought out of your noggin! Cause I love you, and I care❤️
Oh dodie, this video makes me want to hug you so tight! I know I've only spent minimal time with you but you're wonderful and beautiful and amazing 🧡 sending all the love x
god, this is so corny, but i feel like dodie connects ME to MY younger self. I remember starting to watch her videos around five or six years ago and I've never seen someone who makes me as comfortable and grounded as she does. dodie is lovely :) (also i love the dodie video comment sections, i forgot how awesome they are lol)
watching you speak and reading these comments make me feel like i’m not stuck in an internet abyss but in a honest community of people who acknowledge their brokenness and are in the process of accepting healing. I really liked the analogy of taking care of your inner child. i think i’m going to use that more often. it’s a great example of the feeling i have when going through an anxious out of body moment. but i take care of her and she thanks me for that. <3
As someone else said, I hope you posted this to help bring peace to yourself and because you wanted to. Equally, I want to thank you enormously for posting this. I’ve been going through a rough time off and on and this helps. It gave me a bit of calm and direction in my time of chaos.
it was one of your videos that I first heard the term derealisation used, and I'm truly not overexaggerating when I say that changed my life. Having a name, having the words to describe how isolated it had always made me feel.... and then having someone say that they felt it too. I don't know you, and you don't know me but you helped me in a small-big way and that's kind of lovely so cheers mate
Ever since I saw your crazy/toxic cover I fell in love and I started to relate to you on another level as the years have go on and you've helped me through so much shit you're truly amazing! 🥰 You inspire me ❤️❤️
i rlly appreciate these little videos just to talk. even though we both are going through very different things, i still feel so heard when you talk about them even if its just a little part of it. makes me feel less like a crazy bitch lol. i hope u are able to make it through somewhat in this god forsaken pandemic and im beyond excited for the album. u better come to the US with a tour once its out >:(((
So glad you found a good balance between sharing your experience and keeping your private life private but I'm also so glad for this little insight into your brain. The nostalgia feels so good as a viewer. Hope you're well xxxx
A whole day late to this video but I’m watching it over and over again. I’ve learned so much from the lessons that you’ve shared, and I just want to say thank you. I’m so glad you’re doing better and learning and growing. And I’m really glad you’ve been finding a balance with your boundaries and how much you share online and been prioritizing yourself. I know I’m basically a stranger to you, but I’m really really proud of you, and I can’t wait for what adventures await you after this pamalamadingdong is over. You’re amazing, and we love you so much. Keep being kind to yourself! xx
I relate to you so much, especially in terms of mental health; it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one experiencing de-realisation/de-personalisation. I actually learned the name of it from you, for years I just referred to it as 'day-dreaming' because it was the only thing I could think to compare it to. I don't know where I'm going with this comment, so I'll just say thank you for being honest and open about mental health and doing your part to normalise talking about it <3
Hi Dodie I hope you see this, I’ve been a fan of you for 5 years and I really relate to you more than ever in terms of mental health. I was diagnosed with depression and on the road to being *hopefully diagnosed with ADHD and lots of people address it differently, I really love the way you describe other people bringing up your struggles and how it’s validating to know people are openly aware and thinking of you. Some people think pushing things under rug will help you deal with it but it’s the opposite, although our mental health struggles don’t define us they are still a big part of us that needs to be acknowledged. Idk I just find a lot of comfort in your words and your song ‘Monster’ really resonates with me, every time I listen to it I clap along during the chorus. Big love and can’t wait for your album!❤️❤️
this feels like an old dodie video but at the same time like the end of something, it makes me feel so weirdly nostalgic, like things aren't like thet used to be, but I love it
this was very comforting. being the same age as you and while our lives are completely different, i can hear my own thoughts in the words you speak. about caring for yourself as you would your younger self to getting to realise that some things in your past were a lot more hurtful than you initially thought. thank you for this video dodie <3
I've always felt weird about commenting on stuff on here but i do it from time to time, just in case you see this I wanted to say that being able to grow up along side you (we're about the same age!) has been not only wild to see how much you've grown, but so validating for myself going through similar things, and feeling self-validation through supporting you. Thank you for sharing little bits of your life with us and I am SO excited for the new album. Keep on keepin' on :)
Hearing you talk about depersonalization/derealization truly blew my mind because I’ve never heard of it before but it fits me so well. I’d love if you made more videos talking about it, I think it would help a lot
Dodie I want you to know that you’re not the only one that applies certain thoughts to yourself and no one else. I also apply feelings about my body and worth to myself that I would never ever think about someone else. I’ve never had much attention from boys and I got bullied by boys, and I’ve always had this idea in my head that without attention from guys and guys being attracted to me, I wasn’t very worthy. I would never think that about someone else. Just wanted you to know it’s not just you <3
you are so loved. you have helped my healing and my living so much. thank you I have a mental illness that is a lot you are so helpful. Gentle, alive. Thank you.
I think this was a really beautiful little bit of information. We aren’t wondering more, we just wanted a little check up on how our Dodie’s been. I just hope she didn’t feel like we felt entitled to know anything, I just want her to feel compelled to share because she wanted too. Sending love!
Even across the world, even though we do not know each other, you sharing helps me hear it all clearly within my own life.
I am so happy you are surrounded by people who love and support you!!! HECK YEAH!
Thank you again for sharing and for being so present. I started making music because of you, and I am really just so grateful for your presence on YouTube in all of its forms ❤️
ahhh new video every thursday this is great thursday’s are draining for me bevasue they are my therapy days and we just started on trauma work after going to this therapist for three years
Thank you for your raw and open honesty. If you are looking for your next read, try "Illusions" by Richard Bach. It's the kind of book that reads differently for everyone. Thanks again for sharing. Take care and be well. Oh, and Happy Birthday :-)
I watched this video the day it came out, I think, or the next day. And since then I have thought about the quote "As a woman, I worry that if I'm not tiny and flexible and fuckable then I am nothing" every. single. day. A lot. Especially every time I've gone out. It is a terrible thing to admit indeed, but it's so special to hear my own feelings (and undoubtedly the feelings of countless women) put into such honest and true words.
Dodie I have been watching you since 2015. I was also 15-16..now I'm a few weeks away from 21 and I have watched you grow and your videos and songs have helped me get through so much in life. In a way you have been like this internet big sister through watching your stuff and following you on social medias, kind of there to be like "hey it's going to be okay, I have survived this and you will too". Its really been incredible to watch you grow as an artist and I'm so so excited for Build a Problem!
i find lots of comfort in participating in dodie's journey along with her, even just as an observer. she is my all-time favourite not-youtuber and musical artist. i've liked her since 2018, although i truly found her in 2020, which did indeed hit me like a truck. things progressively got worse and worse for my mental health as i became the villain in the stories of the people most important to me, and i seeked solace in the echoes of dodie's music and that 1% of her story that she's shared. i've found many similarities in her and i, although that might just be me projecting, but it comforts me. i remember, for a moment, daydreaming as if she was my future self, and it made me feel like i'd be okay. she's not perfect, she still struggles lots, but she's carried herself through and those flaws of hers make her a wonderous being. overall, dodie has really helped me to find myself and get through my own journeys. i'm glad you're still here, and i'm thankful for every moment u spend sharing yourself with us <3
I love that you’ve found your inner child and you talk to her. I refer to myself in the 3rd person a lot because, as women, I find that we’re more likely to stand up for someone else than ourselves. So, it helps me to do that. (i’m also probably crazy and she get that checked out, but i do it and it’s working so i’m rolling with it)
Im having a mental health day after having an awful breakdown last night and seeing this today was so comforting. Like Dodie knew I needed this even though she didnt cause she doesnt know me this still felt like a chat and a check-in with a friend :,)
You can share as much or as little as you want with us, it’s your own thoughts and feelings and we all deal with things differently. I’m sure no matter what you choose to do you will be overwhelmed with support and as long as you’re as happy as you can be everything will be alright.
I didn’t really grow up with boundaries either and it’s something I struggle with too. So I appreciate your 1% that you chose to share because it reminds me of how I’ve been trying to reduce how much I share with others
hi dodie :) you are fab. i am working on complex ptsd and have derealisation too. you are doing amazingly. i know what it feels like to not see yourself as the amazing person you are while your friends see this beautiful flower infront of them. you are amazing <3 thank you for being you :)
I usually don't comment on videos but I've been following you since the beginning. I really appreciated the video you posted and even now. I love seeing you be so honest a raw even if it is just a slice. It's so comforting to see that I'm not the only one experiencing trauma or dark moments. So thank you for that 💕 I'm really excited for your album to be released, congratulations dodie
I also recently found some writing from when I was a kid and I really understand how it can be helpful but also really screw with you. I forget that I am a person with traits and things that make me me and it helped me to remember that, which in turn really helped me to talk to myself nicer and giving myself a break as if I am talking to my younger self and taking care of her. But it is also very sad to think about everything that version of me has yet to go through and how she has yet to see how our family is, as you said, "a fake truth of a family" just waiting to shatter.
I find dodies music and videos so warm and comforting, and dodie as an artist has meant so much to me with becoming a teenager ,since I was about ten Ive been watching dodies videos, and listening to all of her music, im 14 now so I know I haven't been watching for as long as some viewers out there but dodie really really inspired me to start learning instruments and posting YouTube videos even though I was a bit self conscious about myself when I first posted, but I really love it now and watching dodie as a young woman be able to make music and release stuff and be awesome really made me want to do music properly. p.s the dodie fandom are really lovely
So much you can be proud of. Strong and talented in so many ways. Hope you have a great 26th birthday when it rolls around too 🥳. Oh and being tiny and flexible isn’t everything (actually in the grand scheme of things, they’re the least important traits); just be happy being you and you’ll find the people who matter 👌
god dodie i wish i had more words to give you but let me say how much i appreciate the honesty. as someone who is sorting through their own trauma and getting the help i really do need it's videos like this that make me realize that i am not alone 🥺
hello dodie! i suffered from horrendous derealization for 6 months a few years ago and my advice is to just stop thinking about it, i know it’s the opposite of what you should do with any other mental illness but give it a try! it may take a while to work, but it worked for me:)
Hey Dodie. I really hope you're doing well with all the stuff going on. As a subscriber for over four years, I'm really glad that I got to watch you grow the way you have. Yes I'm only seeing your highlight reel and only some of the behind the scenes. But I appreciate seeing anything that you'll give us. Sending my love ❤️
It’s nice to find someone who is very real. I have some similar problems and it’s quite therapeutic to hear another perspective after being in my own fog of nastiness for so long : D
i know you probably get this all the time but i’ve never related to anyone as much as you dodie and my parents divorce / childhood trauma made it both super difficult and weirdly perfect to look back on old video tapes. I just wanted to say thank you for exposing your self doubt to the world because it’s really brave and every time i get spiraly or depersonalised i think about how much you try to be at one with it and it seriously helps. stay wonderfully true to yourself and your inner child 🌈✨
You help me get in touch with my authentic self... I am a bit lost and tired these days and you lift my vulnerable, soft and artistic side... Thank you for all the years of good music dodie.. I don't have enough words to describe how much you helped me express my feelings in difficult times.. I really appreciate you❤️🙏
when you talked about loneliness, i felt so seen. so for anyone feeling the same way, I thought i'd share a quote from nina varela's iron heart that really resonated with me: " "I am always lonely", said Junn. "My heart, if I have one, is a house of empty rooms and empty halls. My thoughts and footsteps echo. Sometimes I feel like a guest in the house of myself. But sometimes, someone's footsteps cross my floor, and that is enough. These days, I luxuriate in my loneliness. I walk through my empty halls naked and singing." Her smile hadn't slipped. "What I really wanted was a reason to stay," she said. "And I got what I wanted." Crier frowned. "Stay... in the palace?" "Hm. Anywhere," said Junn." "
A slice of my our honesty: build a problem will be coming out 3 days after my birthday now and that makes me even more excited than when I was coming out originally 😊 happy little accidents yeah?
Your situation or maybe your life makes me... a bit sad. It hurts to know that you're hurting because of this complex stuff that happened and keeps happening in your life. Though, it makes me relieved because I now know that I'm not the only one dealing with these problems.
I have been a fan of yours for 5 years now and I always re watch your older chatty videos when i’m feeling sad. you always manage to put into words what I feel and seeing someone understand so deeply is such a huge comfort to me. I always have and always will find everything about your online precence, through your videos, music or even just your instagram posts insanley comforting. you were there for me through my move from my childhood home and bullying and being so achingly lonely to some of the best days of my life and i am eternally greatful to you for that. Thank you for this video dodie, it means the world
Dodie, I also have DPDR and I have found Jordan Hardgrave. He has led many people to 100 percent recovery. I am currently working on the program. I hope we can all get through this. I am excited to see where it goes.
I struggle with reality as well, but my time within its grasp is soon done. As someone leaving it soon with an undeserved good ending as it were, I must say, life was entirely worth it for me. You are lovely and talented in ways many of us cannot be. Enjoy it as best you can. Much love
Honestly, I've only ever seen you as an artist. You're one of the most artsy artists I listen to since your music is laced with feelings. To me your music is the kind where you get a picture or create a story in your head and you lose the sense of reality for a while. I get not feeling valid though. But there is a reason there are people constantly wanting to keep seeing where your journey will go. We come for the music, we stay for the dodie vibes.
I understand the 'YouTuber' title dilemma, I do. But personally, and probably selfishly, I would be sad if I couldn't refer to Dodie as a YouTuber anymore because she elevates the very meaning of the term.
It is crazy how much I resonate with so many things that she touched upon here eventhough I am a different person, living in a different country with a completely different life. It does feel somewhat comforting that there are other people in this world dealing with similar things and still finding a way to live on
on the same page with the derealization. thanks for this reminder that other people go through it, can forget about that sometimes. makes me feel a little less detached.
Im literally crying because this is so fucking relatable to my life and I have self diagnosed depression and it has been so hard not telling my parents and friends about it because my mom and dad will just say your growing up or it’s just a phase and you’ll get over it but it’s not that at all to me. I have this inner circle where no one knows about or can get into in my brain except me and that spot hold my deepest secrets like this one and you are like my mentor for helping me deal with it even though you don’t know it. To me my favorite song to listen to when I struggle with it is your song called Burned Out which is one of my favorite songs in the entire world so thank you for sharing this with us it means a lot!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️
I relate to you a lot. I have since I was 15 and I know that as a content creator it's important to feel like you should be relatable and that might have effected that but I still stand by that for almost 6 years whenever you let us in for a minute I go "Holy shit someone else is saying this and she's prettier and smarter then me so I must be less hard on myself because she thinks the same way and yet I know it's not true." I present as a man since I have not even started mtf therapy but I do seriously look at you and go "wow, that's the standard of a woman I want to be... Wait there's no such thing so why am I emparting that onto you?" So then I'm left checking myself.
Also yeah being the villain in other people's stories I 100% understand and similarly due to a lack of understanding boundaries. Its just so nice to know someone as beautiful and inspiring as you still feels as shitty as me. Thank you for your honesty and I hope you heal same as I do.
hi dodie i also struggle with similar things sending you my love 💙 here's a nice quote from doctor strange “We never lose our demons, we only learn to live above them.”
I'm constantly managing my CPTSD & dissociation, and reassing my comfort with it. Elohim called MI "waves," and I continue to find that accurate. Waves come, waves go. Mid-20's-sexuality is a whole mess: You're not alone in the "yearning-detachment" of it. ✌
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I can relate so much with your story. So many stories and lyrics from you give me chills since I can feel them. It is not easy to deal with complex trauma and I give you a huge shoutout to deal with it the way you do. I am shy to write about where I can connect with you since this is a public space - also admitting that this might not even be read by you but maybe by someone else. Just be known: I know how it feels to slide from anxiety to panic to depression, for me it is because of unresolved traumatic experiences - which are currently resolved and the root of the pain is being healed. So I am on a very good way for living my personal potential to the fullest and have overcome panic and depression already. I am sure, you can do this - as we all can . Much love!
for me you are a musician, that got known through youtube and shares her life now and then through youtube to adress her fans and do like this kind of fan-artist interaction. share what you want to share, and dont share what you do not want to share. nobody runs around and talks about there deepest feelings and anxieties.
from about September-December of last year, i was in a terrible dissociative & depressive episode. I couldn’t imagine feeling like that again & frankly I’m scared it if ever happens again. I salute you for being so strong, I don’t know that I could ever do that.
i really admire your slice of honesty, it’s hard to put yourself out there. i think many people forget that we are all human, with the same range of emotions. trauma is a powerful suppressor. i’ve found that my favorite content out there is those who speak their truth. you and other creators inspire me to push outside the box, and be truthful with myself and others. looking forward to hearing more from you.
Oh wow, this was a gem of a video to watch. Sometimes you don't realise the depth of another persons life when you're so wrapped up in your own. @doddleoddle you showed incredible strength in making this and I'm sure your fans will feel closer to you for watching this. Also no doubt others will have found validation in their struggles by you sharing yours. Keep giving your best to the world it's much appreciated!
i say this like ...all the time but i'm literally so fucking proud of you i can't express just how proud i am in a youtube comment but sometimes it just hits me that i grew up with you online and we're both such different people now and you're just so inspiring, relatable, beautiful, and strong. I'm so soso soso fucking proud of you dodie :'-)
Dont be sad dodie it's okay to be depressed everyone goes through this and you are really fun to hangout with so dont let yourself about what others think of you that really helps.
When your face fell at the end I felt that... Some of us go about our days trying to put on a brave face but sometimes even we can't wait for the camera to cut before the mask falls off.
I'm so so so happy you were willing to share your dissociation and are so open about it. If it wasn't for your first video opening up about it, it probably would've taken me and my therapist so long to figure out my own dp/dr because I thought it was NORMAL (which it is, but the fact that not everyone sits in a room feeling like everything is fake from time to time shook me). So thank you for being honest about your mental health. So much. Its really helped me to start healing sooner than I would have. Love, a fellow spacey gal. 💛
I can not tell you how many times I watched "angry". It was one of videos that helped me leave my abuser. Thank you Dodie for you vulnerability I know all too much about growing up with no boundaries. You did a really good job. I hope you can rest soon and grow more memories with boundaries 💓
This was a very refreshing slice of honesty ☺️ though not everything is perfect, you seem like you are in a healthier place and mindset compared to when you did youtube full time. I don't know if that's actually true, but I hope it is ❤️
ngl i was a little curious about the flat situation cuz i've noticed her bedroom is different esp with the window placement but i'm just glad to hear dodie is doing well and living her best life with friends
I just want to say that your pain and feelings and struggles with trauma are all very extremely valid (struggles isn't the best word but I'm bad at words). I also love the stuff you said about your past on youtube. I always get excited about your music when it comes on on my Spotify because I remember when I used to have some of the videos of your songs downloaded so I could listen to them offline, and so my heart gets so happy seeing your music more widely in the world now. Your music carries so much meaning for me and has helped me so much in my life. Plus, your song Human was literally my older brother and his wife's first dance song at their wedding. All in all, I just want to thank you for everything you do. You have a beautiful soul, and it's almost like you inspire joy into the hearts of everyone who hears you💜💜💜
You're such a wonderful, beautiful human being. Trauma is such an awful thing to get through and heal, you'll get there, no matter how long it takes - you've got this!! Remember that you're fabulous, so kind, so wholesome loved by so many and have such a loving energy about you. Thank you for sharing your troubles, for being vulnerable, for being you. You are perfect as you are. Thank you for being you ❤
Dodie, your videos where you talked about your depression and derealisation really helped me process my depression and put a name to an experience I have grown up with and experienced all my life. So, thanks for that. I wouldn't say I'm friends with my depression though...
It's more like a flatmate I don't particularly like or hate. We live together, and sometimes we happen to hang out, but it's never planned... We just sort of end up together. And every time we do, even though I don't like them, there's something about them that just feels a little bit like home.
When you were a young angry teen sharing your hurt online I watched you because I was also a young angry teen who shared my hurt online and desperately wanted someone to understand. Now I'm a early 20's something going through the process of growing and healing, so its very nice to see that even after all these years you are growing and healing with me. <3
If you would value validation as an artist, I listen to your music because of the beauty of the lyrics, the intelligent observation, the clean tone and the wonderful sense of melody and harmony. You are just as good as the other artists I turn to for what art does, talks beyond words (so forgive the words). They are geniuses widely acknowledged, and little people little known, dead 200 years and living still, they are poets and authors, and have this in common: they have an ability to transcend with their bravery, honesty, willingness to speak their truth with transparency. Thank you. To this insignificant human, at least, you are an artist, and I am grateful for your gift. Keep speaking beyond your words, keep singing beyond the music, for it is helping and it is a rare gift.
hoooWEEE i was not expecting for this to be as validating as it was tytytytyty for this but also PLEASE don't feel pressure to continue to share/share more just to help others you gotta help yourself first okAY BESTIE OKAY ILY GN
i have to admit i dont watch youtube as much as i used too n im pretty busy starting my twenties haha, but its nice to click on one of your videos when it pops up now and then. It feels like catching up with someone i just havent seen in a while. mad life
I don't even know if you will read this but: Dodie, I want to say thank you for beeing so kind with us and for talk about personal topics. Is great to see a wondefull artist beeing such a great person. In this times of fakeness, insecurity, fear and lonlyness you provide us a safety place where we can grow up with a little bit more of confident. I just want to say thanks to you for beeing . Greetings from Chile.
I actually liked listening to the old ukulele tunes when I first "found" Dodie on YouTube. It's probably not very PC to say this, but one of my favorites was that one with Dodie's little sister "Paint" which is about using make-up. I just think it was such a fun song and has a memorable melody... I laugh a little every time I happen to hear it when it shows up in my YouTube mix.
Why is every dodie vlog like when you're on a night out and you end up listening to a girl for hours and hours, completely fascinated by her and everything she's got to say, it's the most chilled you've been in your whole life, and you really don't want it to end; then it's like 6am and shit it's getting fucking light outside! XD That, and also, you know for a fact that if she read your tea leaves she would map out the entirety of your life...and be RIGHT.
holy crap, 5:31 this hit me so hard because this is what i've been struggling with. everyone can be kind, but do i have enough strength to prove to other people that we can be?
I've never thought to talk to my child self before. What a beautiful and nurturing idea...I think I'll do this when I'm having depressive moments 💛 I stuck a picture of me at 3 years old by my mirror - I would recommend. Thank you for your honesty, Dodie.
I am a random person on the internet, and I have an opinion about dodie! I think she is a talented, funny, smart, beautiful woman, who fights bravely against inner and outer demons. Dodie is a badass.
If I had to guess, and please know I say this out of compassion and not as a gotcha, I would guess that the truest slice of honesty is at 6:52 - 6:56. I know that moment of dropping the mask you put on for others' sake.
BTW, Dodie, if you're actually reading this, I suffered from a period of derealization myself. It still comes back periodically. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, even people who have been shit to me. It's been ... well, I don't want to say nice, because there's nothing nice about your having it ... but nice to see someone else talk about it. I appreciate that you do. <3
I'm so sorry to hear that your album's release was pushed back (( But also I'm shining to know that it'll come out on my birthday ☺️ I love you so much as an artist and as a person and your I can't think of more exciting thing as living through your music stepping in my 21st year of life - I wish you sunshine during this though times and believe with all my heart that soon enough life will bring you wounderfull flights 💛💛💛
I found you on Spotify first, then found your YouTube when I googled you...my thought process was you were a singer that did YouTube on the side. Had no idea you started on here
I wish I could have the same emotional release you're experiencing now with your ab*ser. When i reached out to his girlfriend to warn her, she didnt believe me. I don't think their relationship was bad the way ours was, which makes me feel more crazy... now we're going to the same college, & i debate trying to talk to him everyday as closure. im glad ur getting urs, I hope i get some too.
Hi dodie! a 4-year subscriber here! I dunno if you'll notice this but, I've been a silent fan from ph, coming back to you every now and then I remember how comforting it is to watch your vlogs and mvs is one of the few moves I do everytime I need someone to be just there. Your songs, your vlogs happy or not, and your sooooothing voice hahahah and most specially you as yourself helped me in overcoming rough areas in life, thank you.
ps: you inspired me to play ukelele pss: I'm still finding my fav video of yours where you talk abt being scared of growing up psss: Cheeers to more of what's to be discovered!
You are such a beautiful honest person you are such a valid person you are a beautiful woman in every way inside and out love you so much dodie that person that abused you took you for granted and lost a precious sweet person
I think that's such an amazing way to think about that. "I'm the villain in at least 10 people's stories." We definitely affect people in different ways and for different things, even bad things. Sometimes we do bad things and it sucks but if it wasn't pure evil, then we have a right to move on from them, too.
What a beautiful video. So much one would want to say to you but it'd just be a buzz in the comments. Good luck with therapy and hope you work things out!
It's impossible to be supportive and effective with a comment here. The complexity of a simple message. The necessity of not being misunderstood. Just "thanks for the honest talk. It always keeps people closer. I hope you can feel it a bit. Have a great day dodie"
I needed this. I've feel like dodies been very distant lately when I'm trying to get hyped for the album. I completely understand why she's distancing herself from the term "youtuber" though. Labels f-ing suck
dodie, you shush! You’re beautiful and fantastic and I have a major crush on you and I know that I will never know the real you and that’s fine and we love you
I cannot even say how much you talking about depersonalisation/derealisation has helped me. Knowing that there are other people out there makes it feel a little less lonely so thank you :)
I don't think you're a youtuber... you are dodie. Thank you for sharing more than most others and healthily doing so! I honestly haven't watched a vlog of yours in a while and just decided on a whim to watch this one... glad I did... I also hope that you continue on the path with your depression/anxiety/derealization towards a space that feels less unpredictable and hectic. Having to learn who you truly are and at the same time build a 'new you' from the core through therapy is exhausting. I hope you are as well as you can be and I can't wait to have fun with my friends at a concert of yours! (I should mention as I'm writing this that I'm thinking of all the wrong words I might've use and that is why I'm going to end it now. :P) Truly a gem of a human <3
Dodie, you'll never read this but you are such a special and beautiful human being. I identify so much with EVERYTHING that you've said. It's so Crazy 'cause I've been following you since i was 15 (now i am almost 21, yikes!) and I have also been to your concert in Milan. I've struggled with anxiety, derealisation and depression as well. Next week, after thinking i finally got rid of that shit I'm going to recover in a mental health hospital, and I'm so scared even if i know it's the right thing. Love you a lot, take care sweet soul. Lot's of love, Isabella.
As someone who was never taught a lot about mental health, people or relationships, I don't understand myself and am terribly anxious around others. Consequently, others are my source of information on how to manage relationships, thoughts and feelings. But people don't open that easily about those things, so this types of videos (and songs :3) are ways for me to learn and better understand myself and others.
I'm forever grateful to be able to watch his. Hearing you admit you were villain to other people without slandering yourself, I may be able to believe it's ok to live fully, even if it means hurting others.
I know you stopped posting these types of chats because you felt you were oversharing but this felt different to before - like a really well thought out, measured update coming from a place of just the right amount of emotional stability and vulnerability. It's been really reassuring to have you share thoughts many of us have ourselves and inspires conversations that are greatly needed.
Dodie. Word for word. Hard relate. Big respect for doing what you need to do for you, sharing what you feel comfortable sharing and holding onto what you want to keep private. You're incredible, we are the generation that are learning to heal ourselves x
Thanks for defending your younger self and also looking at her honestly, that is really cool to see. I think that both are a kindness to yourself, I hope. Gee the nervousness about friend families shifting did hit a little bit though. I am angry often that I cant just scoop up all of my friends and have them all in the same place at the same time eating the same food with the same music. I hate the chapter divisions of my life so far! I want it all at once! I refuse to wait for my wedding (which may not happen) or my funeral (which will be hard for me to enjoy I think) to have my dream. But it's nice to be reminded that I can enjoy the friends I have immediately around me right now and not feel guilty.
I wish you peace in your mind. A lot of what you're thoughts are, in my opinion, are normal for a 20-something year old. Just think by the time you figure out this internal questions you hit your 30s and you get a whole new set. 😜
This might mean nothing to you, but when you were showing clips of your younger self I found myself giving me a hug. My BPD and depression have been bitches to me this week and that was a reminder that sometimes I need to take care of myself as if I was still that little kid because I need that sometimes. Then I saw you were hugging yourself, too. It was really comforting, as everything you upload. Thank you <3
Was recently talking about this kind of loneliness with a friend. It is kind of validating hearing that those thoughts are shared by someone else outside of my circle, so I'm glad you brought it up Dodie. As an underclassman in college, the older I get the more I get concerned about my 'bodily loneliness' as well, but when I tried comforting my friend I realized that I should probably give myself that same kindness...
2:53 ok wow I didn’t know anyone else thought that way•_•I feel so...refreshed ? I’ve been vibin with Dodie for years but I’m relating on a whole new level rn
So strong of you to be honest and speak for such personal things that trouble you. Sorry you are going and went through some tough times. Love you dodo
I’m dealing with derealization/depersonalization as well. It sucks. I love your voice, honesty and style. Any tips for finding/making friends? I’m not very good at it:( I’m lonely as well and don’t have any friends really.
I couldn't help but tear up a bit in the youtube part, because it's so fuckin trueeeeee. You grow up, you learn things, every step is valid, maybe i needed to hear that..... So thanks and u doing amazing sweetieeeee
Dodie is, uhm sexy 26 going on 27 Depression is a constant struggle and its difficult realizing youve truly been a villain in other peoples story, why "monster" resonates with me and helps me cry, Hope you continue to grow Dodie, hugs
So iv commented on a total of 2 of your vids dodie (altho been following you for years). The reaction to 20 vid and now this one. Because I felt compelled both times to tell you how refreshing it is to see your growth and honesty shining on camera. You are truly brave. Much respect and love to you 💕🥰
i relate to the not letting yourself use the right labels thing SO MUCH. i constantly feel guilty using the word trauma for my past experiences. i'm glad to see im not the only one that is going through / that went through not letting themself use the fitting labels
i recently started playing the yje and i feel the same way dodes but it wasn't easy to learn and im decent at it and I'm getting better so thanks for the thing idk
Thank you for the video, idk just felt like saying. Also, random, but your hair looks amazing.
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Andre Heh2021-03-22 15:38:39 (edited 2021-03-22 15:43:42 )
i'm in a similar boat and i feel the same way as a male, but i keep reminding myself and believe in theres someone out there for everyone it takes time and effort to find them (or well that one lucky moment you come across somebody) - unfortunately this is not the time to go out and find these people.. some day about the exercise thing.. if you feel good and confident in your body, youre fine, but if you (really you not any standards set by whoever) aren't happy with your shape or weight, then it might be time to try and change something
I think you're right saying that denying "youtuber" as an identity is being prissy about it. We are all multiple identities simultaneously and there's no way for everyone you interact with to know all of them, there's no problem with "youtuber" being just ONE of yours, alongside things like musician, big sister, abuse survivor, mental health advocate, goofball, etc., etc.
Hearing you say that you treat yourself like your inner child when you’re struggling with your mental health brought me to tears. Hearing you say “I talk to her and say ‘what can I get you? Are you hungry?’” gave me a similar realization of something else that you mentioned; I realized “why don’t /I/ speak this way to myself when I’m hurting? Why do I only apply that to others?” It was an incredibly meaningful reminder, so thank you, dodie. And thank you for your raw, human, honesty. I know we are all thankful for you.
I've realised I've started talking to myself in a cruel way again, a lot of days it's just quietly whispering "what the fuck is wrong with you??" Whenever something from the past creeps up in my head. But talking to my child self instead could actually work lol.
not that you owe it to anyone, but it genuinely helps so much to see someone else taking about the loneliness they feel in trying to work through trauma, i feel like i’m the only one out of my friends that has to do this and working on your mental health is so draining and isolating and you know it’s for a good reason but it all feels very lonely and seeing someone else just say that and not try to hide their sadness makes me also feel really validated and normal. i feel like i’m constantly trying to hide how difficult day to day life is for me because being happy seems like it comes so easily to everyone else
As someone who is trying to get her derealisation/depersonalisation diagnosed (and is currently yelling at the brick wall known as her GP about it) it’s kinda super comforting to know that you’ve found a way of handling it and that’s reassuring to me 💜🥺
my favorite thing about dodie videos is all the comments of people resonating and pouring their hearts out to anyone who will listen. I remember when my only person to turn to was the comforting hug from the void that is a youtube comment section and im so happy that dodie has been that hug for 11 year old me as well as 17 year old me and every step of the way in between. this comment will be buried like all of the others but if you see this know that we love you, that i love you and that you are worthy of every good thing that you have and will recieve. life is still worth it even when the skies are grey <3
Is it strange that I likethese kinds of videos from you? Obviously I don't want you to feel like /this/, but it just makes me feel like someone else is going through many of the same things and I feel connected to that. I hope making them doesn't harm you. In any case, thanks for making this one. It makes me wish I had you as a friend, but I guess a lot of people feel that way about you. And by the way, if 2:45 ever happens again, you can tell those worries about the time a friend of mine asked me what girls I find really attractive and I showed them your channel. ( Writing that last sentence feels very on the edge of being an online creep, please know that I don't mean it to and I wouldn't have brought it up, if it hadn't been something you were talking about) Have a nice evening :)
god I related a little too hard I look back at videos of myself and how funny and weird and full of energy I was and I almost get mad I no longer feel that way like I had a talent and it got taken from me like a toy from like a naughty kid and then like a kid a through a temper tantrum but "that's just life" like that's not fair I don't know it's nice being validated every now and then
I know it likely doesn't help, coming from a stranger, but you don't have to worry about not being appealing to the gender you want to appeal to, whatever gender that may be. I have been in too many relationships that just ended in nothing because it was superficial. While appearances can be important, its not the most important factor. I can say, if you want to be objectified you will have no problems. I think you are beautiful, and all the words you used. I feel there is more worth than just those visual appeals. As for the exercise, I can relate. I am now 27, going on 28, and I definitely feel I don't get enough exercise. I have been going back out to the local park for a nice morning walk, to get those rays and just de-stress with my thoughts. Seeing nature just has a nice calming effect when you can see it up close. I know I can't talk to you, or even try to help with your worries. You may not even see this message. I do want you to know that there are thousands of us out here just wanting to support you and help you any way we can. I wrote so much that I got tears, joys. Anyway, I hope the days get better with time and that you only keep posting these videos if you want to. Don't feel we are owed this.
My ex-boyfriend (a good ex, would give him a good review if he ever needed one) once interviewed Martin at a gig at one of the smaller O2 venues (possibly Islington? Not sure). I was a slightly late plus one, and he seemed very lovely and normal when briefly introduced. I didn't know that you would be there, and I think you'd already performed when I arrived, and I remember seeing Evan and other familiar faces in the lobby, though I didn't dare say hello. And then after Martin Orla was on, and I fell in love! She was amazing live. No idea if you remember that evening as you have performed so many times before and since, but it's very nice that as musicians you are all connected and friends; the music world always seemed more competitive rather than supportive in the past, but what do I know?
If I lived in Brittain and I knew you in person and there was no pandemic... Okay this is getting off the point... I would just want to give you a hug. Like the good healing kind, not the type you give to someone you just met but one of those from a close friend or partner where you can feel the other care for you in that moment that nothing else seems to matter anymore. Since all of the things above don't apply, please, for me, (if you want to of course) find someone to give you this kind of hug :) then I'll work on finding someone to do the same with over here
You being so honest is so fucking healing and validating for so many of us. Thank you. Also, there's a little boy in a red T-Shirt in one of your child videos who looks exactly like my little brother did, so that was cute! My parents recently bestowed upon me 12 boxes of my stuff that had been in the loft for between 13 and 17 years, so I really sympathize with how weird it is to confront who you once we're and to think if they'd like you. I almost don't recognise myself in my teenage diary entries - I'm definitely a better person now! Sending much love xx
About your mental health struggles, i really believe that practicing meditation/mindfulness is so crucial for all mental health problems - it is about developing a sense of yourself beyond your thoughts, as thoughts are really the carriers of human suffering. Developing a distanced and compassionate relationship to thought. I've suffered from dissociation and as i have committed to the practice of mindfulness i have seen it eventually begin to dissolve as a result of the lessening of my mental suffering. It is possible to experience consciousness beyond thought. There's a lot of information/teachings out there about it.
ok wait i have a weird off topic comment/question your hair looks so nice and shiny and healthy in this video! do you have a hair routine or anything or does it just look like that lol. ive always struggled with my hair so i’d really appreciate it 🤡
(if anyone in the comments also has any tips to make their hair look nice, please tell me your secrets lmao)
"the fake truth of a family that shattered" i've never heard someone describe it so aptly before?? (even if our family shatterings are probably vry different/complex.) i've had a similar-ish feeling w child photos, knowing then-me had no idea what kinds of things were happening. u described it in a way that made me like! woah !! yes !!
if it helps dodie, I do see you as a youtuber but also many other things. As a mixed girl I totally get where you’re coming from about feeling like people put you in boxes, so you can only be one thing at a time but IT’S A LIE!! I can be black, and white, just like you can be one of my favourite youtubers and whole damn musician (that composes for beautiful 13 piece string sections 😭). You can own it all, b 💃🏽
It sometimes makes me feel lonely that I don’t find people who are like me; one of the perks of not being like everybody else. At the same time, I learned that it’s always better to be alone than have your loneliness increase by the presence of the wrong people. Now I feel like I’m doing the thing I should do in my life, and even without people around, I still feel very happy every day and live a fulfilled life :). Know yourself, find peace with your past and people, and focus on growth instead of goals; thanks what gave me the reasons to love living.
I’m 62 and feel I’ve wasted my life trying to please others. I suffer with depression and anxiety. I lost my dog 3 weeks ago and have sunk dramatically since. I’ve also had some money stolen from my house. I’ve just spent 3 days looking at the wall. I’ve not even got dressed today. I wish I was 25 as I feel 62 is close to death for me. I live with suicidal thoughts and I feel I may do it one day. I come to bed at 7pm as there is nothing to stay up for. I do enjoy your music though. All I ever wanted was music. But let others ruin it for me.
Send love! Respect your honesty through this crazy world of internet so sorry there no magic pill, may be there couldn't be any magic pill for "happy" health state of mind, but i wish it could be respect your strength to deal with everything everyday Send love!! (to everyone who read this too!!)
I've been together with my abusive ex for 3 years and he had a girlfriend after that for a long time (4 years?) and apparently she went through a bigger hell than I did. He has been in therapy for years now since they split up, it has been 10 years since he and I split up and I'm now 27, he is 29 and we are sort of friends!?
I heard your song I hate myself on radio 1 yesterday and it was so wild because I've been watching you on youtube since you were just making songs in your bedroom and it made me so proud of you I actually teared up a bit, so I'm glad you're living your life well and getting help for you mental health. love you<3
ive found that the only way to fight brain foggyness to the point where it feels like you have contacts on and everythings in plastic wrap his might be dumb but i put like some 50p pure rose water on my face and that can make me feel more like a human. Also long term its the calling you find thats bigger than yourself to dampen it out. stay safe guysxxx
You are the best you I have ever met and if it weren't too over the top creepy I would offer to just hang out on line with you. Skype, Zoom or whatever. But I'm almost 3 times your age and we would have to spend the first 10 years chatting about the different worlds we live in on either side of the pond. Keep doing the hard stuff as you can and give yourself permission to take a week off, or a month for that matter. 💛✨
Will Build a Problem be on vinyl? Also most of the sentiments you have, I have as well. Glad you're breaking down walls where you can and being hoisted over overs when needed.
Dodie, Have you ever struggled with feeling like your mental health problems aren’t actually mental health problems but they’re just something YOU exclusively go through because of the way you have perceived things for a very long time, and your brain just overcomplicated it? Maybe that was too specific but I guess I mean like, have you ever felt like your mental health problems aren’t real because 1) you feel alone in it and 2) you felt like you brought it on yourself? Perhaps very slowly over the course of years? I don’t know. I guess I just relate to you when you talk about mental health and I don’t struggle with depersonalization but in a more broader way I still find myself relating to you a lot. Do you ever feel like there’s a deeper reason or meaning to your mental health problems that your brain tries to convince you, but you have to remind yourself it’s just your mental illness?
Dodie, you saying about yourself that you may just be being “prissy” is again, sexist towards yourself. It’s a gendered term, and it is also you belittling your own label of yourself. Dammit, expect the respect you deserve. You’re not “prissy,” and you deserve to say “I don’t feel the box of ‘youtuber’ fits me,” without feeling like you have to walk back on it or defend/explain yourself. You be you. Stay strong, and thank you for the light you bring 💕
5:31 YES ugh there are too many people in this world who would view someone who is a bit “overbearing” and “has no boundaries” it’s like THEY NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT A LOT OF THE REASON PEOPLE BEHAVE A CERTAIN WAY IS BECAUSE OF THEIR CHILDHOOD/TRAUMA/ETC and people just generally need to have more empathy UGH okay sorry
Dodie one of your songs was used as background music in german love island lol Just wanted to tell you, I thought maybe it's a little fun fact to brighten your day. :)
It's hard to listen to dodie talking about very serious subject, while being so pretty... I just want to focus on her magnificent hair, but her topic is to important
the ukulele thing. I CRIED. a popular artist on youtube called Elise Ecklund inspired me to play the ukulele about 4 years ago when i was 11 and i loved it so much. i have three ukuleles of the three sizes but about two years ago i started playing guitar. i’m not as good on it- obviously- it’s a whole lot harder but my internalised sexism really just wiped the ukulele from my mind and i barely pick up either instrument now. joining my GCSE music class- of about 16 people, i learnt to realise not long ago that when i brought my ukulele into class, people were not making fun of me. people actually liked it. they thought i was so talented. i don’t care if i’m the “ukulele girl” because i know i’m a whole damn more than that. i’m going to pick up my ukulele this afternoon. not for anyone but myself.
I don't usually write comments, because I'll fuck up them with my English, but when videos of her childhood came I just felt how my eyes got filled with tears???? Like I'm not a constant watcher of Dodie's channel, but still she takes one little space in my heart and things she say are so meaningful for us though she speaks so casually and it always like an important chat with a friend about life. I don't know how I want to lead these thoughts, but damn.. thank you for just being yourself with all your flaws
you looked so much like Matilda as a child. I like to believe that older Matilda would look like you
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Luis Salazar2021-03-18 18:36:57 (edited 2021-03-18 18:38:49 )
Doddie reminds me a girl that i met in the university, she is the most beutiful woman i ever seen in my life, for one thing or another nothing happen beetween us, but you never realize that for other people you represents more that you could understand, just like that girl to me
Hopefully helpful reminder that loneliness doesn't necessarily have to come from isolation (although at the moment it probably does as well) but from feeling disconnected. Maybe you're not as close to the people around you as you want to be or maybe you are self-conscious and don't feel like you fit in or (speaking as a fellow spacey person) maybe you feel disconnected from your life or yourself in general. I often feel lonely even when there are people close to me and I try to find comfort in knowing that they will be there, waiting for me, until I'm ready to reconnect. Take care everyone 💛
Hey Dodie, if it's any consolation (and I know how annoying and unbelievable this sounds in the thick of derealization) there is an end to derealization/depersonalization!! I thought I'd never get out of it after five years but after talking to a councilor about some ~traumatic~ events that I had tried so hard to bury for years, it went away in the matter of a few weeks. When it's over you'll be so struck by the rawness and beauty of everything- it's so much more freeing than anything you can imagine whilst experiencing symptoms
@doddlevloggle Thanks so much, it's been amazing! I always think about everyone experiencing it rn and I'm really routing for you all to overcome it 🖤 I'll be waiting for the day that you announce that it's gone, and until then good luck!
ill cheers to the women playing the ukelele stereotype being rooted in sexism. It's crazy how things that are accessible get bashed, especially in the hands of a young girl.
2:43 - you should join the "Guys posing in front of a mirror thinking they are sexy and buff or they're getting there"-club. And don't worry I can get you in, I'm the president. My (not really beer-)belly is in truth a powerbelly, I recently discovered that, while watching a guy lifting 500kilos of the ground and thinking I'm in my bulking phase right now (without the exercising part), too.
But for real, your level of honesty and openness is probably very helpful for all the young ladies watching. To me it's just inspiring and I hope I can be as honest to myself as you are someday.
im 16 years old and i feel the worst i’ve ever felt. a lot of it i know is just me being dramatic and stuff bc i’m like that but it’s gotten so bad and i can’t communicate what i’m feeling half the time and i’m losing my friends bc i’m turning into what i’ve strived to not be, a bitch. hearing you speak about this stuff genuinely comforts me since i’m not used to feeling so shit for such a long period of time and i’m just trying to get through every day. i think one day everything will be okay .
Don't worry, Dodie, most people are depressed. I am depressed too! (My depression is related only to finding a job though). But you are a brilliant artist! So talented! I love your music so much! In fact, I listen to your music almost every day! lol ... I like yellow Dodie too "Would You Be So Kind?"
I don't believe we have had the virus issue as bad here in Texas as you have had there. There will be no return to the old times but I have become adjusted to my bespoke mask and wear it every where. Texas is now open, sort of, though some places do require masks and spacing. best wishes, spirits and weal.
Reflecting with my younger self is something that I talked about in therapy literally today and I find it so painful but healing. I can’t help but feel at times that she wouldn’t like me. But I’m learning to be okay with that 🤍
I 100% understand that not being tiny and pretty and flexible and fuckable. I literally have a living boyfriend who whenever I say something along those lines reminds me that he loves me the way I am but the thought is still there... niggling it's way to the front of my brain
Thank you for sharing so beautifully and vulnerably with us Dodie!! Your sharing normalizes these feelings and helps to others acknowledge what they're going through as well :)
Dodie, you are Princess Ukelele, Queen of snowboards ice-creams and lonely cats. And I guess you should support Liverpool FC because they are the best.
as much as it sucks that the album is pushed back aGAIN, it now comes out just before my birthday so i’m choosing to think of it as the pandemic making up for everything by gifting me with dodie for my birthday <3
About ur ex, maybe you were always going to be kind about it to yourself at some point and talking to her happened to bring that kindness to you quicker
This is a bit of an odd one, and I don't see a way of not making it sound weird. I record lucid dreams and have encountered incredible synchronicities before.
Is there any chance you've had a dream, possibly last night, in which you were doing some sort of skydiving/controlled safe falling that made you feel really alive and hopeful / joyful. Or did those emotions somehow arise upon wake up stronger than usual?
I am definitely not the villian in some people's stories. Maybe a mean side character in some. But I'm not it enough people's stories to be a villian anywhere.
On the topic of wanting to be the stereotype of the perfect women. What you talk about you hating that you are not sexy or small is what I feel like. I always feel like I take up too much space, but at the same time I feel like my body is not enough. If someone else had my body I would think they are beautiful, but because it’s mine I think it’s disgusting. I’m glad that I’m not the only one feeling this way.
The thing about nurturing your inner child is so important - as in it must be because my therapist keeps telling me that lol - but it's nice to remember that you're in the same body you were in when you were born, aged 7, aged 12, aged 16 etc and therefore you should keep those parts of yourself safe and happy just as much as your adult self. I'm going to do that today by having jelly and ice cream because I haven't had it since primary school and it's bomb.
Not the key point of the video, I know. But if anybody disregards a passion for the ukulele, they're disregarding a part of Geroge Harrison. And that's not a normal thing to do 😁 🎶
I can’t believe someone who seems as nice as you had an abusive ex but then sadly I can because some people are bastards, I came from a screwed up family with a very screwed up father at your age I guess I was screwed up too but we didn’t do therapy in those days one thing I can promise you is it will pass and won’t bother you anymore (whatever ‘it’ is) I’ve ordered your album from Eel Pie Records in Twickenham will be a great present to self to celebrate lockdown ending! Last thing - why do you and so many women I’ve met, some who have become lifelong friends, who are funny and sexy and gorgeous and have great personalities all think they are unattractive to men? (Or women or whatever gender you like) you’re all wonderful and some like you are extremely talented.! There is another girl on You Tube who always ends her videos with ‘Peace Out’ so gonna nick it ... Peace Out!
lmao honestly it’s just a phrase I use a lot which is probably why I titled the song that but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think like o shit maybe i should hide song titles in these vids but
Making friends with your depression ... am there Family tradition... Hank Williams Jr. It’s how I know I’m alive.. looking for a substitute friend... Meh
I live with depression. Depression is not my friend - it's the ugly monster under the bed. The one I fight for my survival. But then again - sometimes - it is the thing I know. And that can sometimes look like a friend. But I have real friends! The best friends. But I'm still lonely - because friends are not always enough. I hope you remember to be strong! And you are a very beautiful woman! Sadly I'm an old, fat guy. Therefore my opinion doesn't really count.
I hope this was made because dodie wanted to make it, and not because she feels she owes us anything.
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same💙
27 likesyes.
15 likesi really hope so :”)
13 likes♥ bless u
310 likesI rly felt like making this! I cut out a lot and that felt good too ♥
THIS!
4 likesExactly what I hope too
1 like@doddleoddle ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
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0 likesDodie’s flats always seem so fun and wholesome, I hope it feels even half the way it looks from the outside
2642 likesThe abusive ex’s ex reaching out thing - just YES. Feel. You. I loved this. Child you is SO cute ohmyGOD xxx
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The exact same thing happened to me, and talking to her was and is so healing.
15 likesIt's been 3 years since I broke up with my abusive ex and this last months I've finally reached the point where I don't want nor I feel the need to talk with him about everything that happened. I can't imagine answering if he reached out now. It was so fucking hard to teach myself that I'm safe now and I won't compromise that for the sake of him or having a last conversation. I can't imagine how that must be for you, lots of strenght!
4 likes@Octavia P It wasn't the ex that reconnected, it was another woman who dated the same abusive person ( the ex's ex)
8 likes@Eytan Zweig dodies ex is a woman I think :)
0 likes@plant parent That may or may not be the case, but she clearly says that it's the ex's ex that got in touch and that they had a shared experience with the same ex.
0 likes“whip out a whistle tone like it’s nothing” is my new favourite phrase
1034 likesthe thing about trauma is -- especially childhood trauma -- is that you don't even realize how traumatic the things that have happened to you are, until it hits you so hard and so fast. but everyone can get through it, and having people to help aid you in your journey is something everyone deserves.
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THIS. i spent so long thinking i was okay and then all of a sudden it hit like a ton of bricks like oh wow there was so much trauma all along wasnt there
17 likesIt's been hitting me full force, especially this semester because I've started to go to therapy. Its so hard to feel present and real. Im constantly on edge and can get forced into flashbacks basically at any moment. Its super difficult to go through but the most healing thing is having someone near you that understands, even if its not all the way. I hate that they can understand, but its incredibly validating
11 likesI definitely understand that and am working on it ❤️
3 likesThe scary part of realizing you had trauma as a child is you worry that you're remembering wrong, or people will be hurt. My trauma is deep, I know it. But then I didn't realize it and it comes so suddenly and differently now that it feels false and angry and sad.
But I'll move forward, and find cope and hope and love
Oof. Hit me like a train when I was 18. Got off track, spent 4 years doing shit, now back on track.
0 likesI agree. Also I feel like I don't really grasp the magnitude of my trauma until I'm trying to make a relatable comment or joke about things I think most people go through, when those present turn pale or red and many if not all leave the room or go very quiet. I mean what can I do? Bottling everything inside is unhealthy. But if people can't see the vulnerable human side, I'll be unrelatable or seeming to keep people out. Some say comedy is tragedy plus time, but maybe I'm not saying things in a funny enough way for them to be palatable? I don't know, it's just trauma and most people go through some trauma at different parts of their lives. It's not a competition and bonding over shared or similar trauma can feel quite fulfilling. Have any of you had some luck with some of this? What is your approach?
1 likeI love how open and honest you are with your feelings, Dodie, but I also admire that you aren't afraid to draw boundaries. There's a reason why I've supported you for 6 years
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me too
2 likesDodie we love the 1% of yourself that you WANT to share so much. Thank you for sharing yourself with us.
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🖤🖤🖤
41 likes“Before the line in my life” she says, knowing in two months time, following her album release, that line would mean so much more :,)
24 likesA lesson we can take from this pandemic is to, well, adjust. It’s not just how we have to wear masks and stay 6 feet apart, it’s with our relationships too. This pandemic has caused a lack of communication, which we have to make okay. To the person reading this, everything will be okay in the end. Everything will turn out okay, even if it might not seem like it now <3
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That's... good advice. Thankyou kind human being, wishing you happiness--- ^-^
5 likesthank you for saying this 🥺😭 my heart needed to read this
4 likesthank you 🥰
2 likes<3
1 likeDon’t mind me here sobbing over you calling your ex abusive and saying “we can use those words....” I needed to hear that
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26 likesi related so hard to this bit i'm sobbing
5 likes@Mars Adams sending love ❤️
3 likesHey Dodie, I know that this will be buried under all of the comments already here but I had to say thank you. I went through hell a few years ago and spiralled through depression as a result but you have taught me so much about dealing with mental health and being stronger. Thank you for little chats like these
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Same sentiments here!!! Thanks, dodie!!! 💝
1 likeI am so proud of you for being here! dodie has helped me so much too. this comment section is golden. I hope I’m not the only one who cried watching this... then my eyes burned lol. that’s beside the point. WE LOVE YOU DODIE!!
1 like"a fake truce of a family that... shattered"
728 likesLord that line hurt me so bad, god
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I had the exact same thought about the same line (though I heard truth not truce, but either way... h*ck).
29 likesit reminded me of sick of losing soulmates
5 likes@emma it reminded me of ‘guiltless’
19 likesThat song always resonated with me on a different level
Wow, there is clearly a story there that I have missed. Or has Dodie never told it?
5 likes@GreenSteve she hasn't, but it's entirely her prerogative whether she wants to tell it or not. It seems deeply and incredibly personal, so I expect we won't ever hear it (or at least not the full story), but personally I'm okay with that.
28 likes"I'm like the villain of 10 people's stories" "I still think about that. A lot" I feel you so fucking much
16 likes“A fake truth of a family that shattered.” Holy fuck, that hit me like an anvil
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hearing that broke me so yeah,,, I relate
6 likesi went back to school for the first time in a long while about a week ago, and i forgot my friends were so...nice? i don’t know how i forgot how kind and beautiful and amazing they were, but when i was texting them it wasn’t the same. it was so different and to have them talk to me in real life again was so refreshing. my friend group has shifted, but seeing my friends again has helped, even if i feel as if i’ve changed too much for them. and i have new friends too, and i feel bad that they understand me more. but i’m also happy about it?? i don’t know, friendships are confusing but sometimes the shifting helps. i don’t know what the hell this paragraph has been but WE MOVE ON
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i can relate to this...change can be a good thing, and so can new friendships! :) i hope you’re doing well
7 likesI relate
3 likesyes! basically the same thing happened to me
3 likesYeah! I felt really lonely during lockdown and then when I came into school it was like a breath of fresh air hearing all my friends and teachers be so kind and relaxed
4 likesThank you, I haven’t been connecting with my old friends during all of this and I feel kind of sad about it, but it’s also shown me who actually cares enough to be the one to reach out first, you know? I don’t think it’ll be the same as it used to be, but maybe that’s okay!
2 likesi remember coming back to school and i realised how i put more of myself loose. its felt nice but i always fear i will say something wrong. i fear my friends view of me will change badly and i will drift from my group.
1 likesomething im afraid of are when i have a feeling that im i could just pull away from a friend. like i dont need them anymore. as bad as it sounds, im trying to stop thinking about it.
anyway thats my struggle so :/
awh IM SO EXCITED FOR BUILD A PROBLEM! i hope you all drink water today and get plenty to eat! love you alllll <3
417 likesedit: 2:07 HOLY- “i’m friends with my depression at this point” was such a powerful thing to say; it resonated so strongly what on earth your brain is v big dodie
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I read this as "people to eat" for a moment, oh no.
4 likesThese little talks always make me feel so safe and seen
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Amen gurl!
0 likesthis is really sweet but now i’m sobbing because it really has been 5 years since i’ve been watching you and it’s crazy to see how much you’ve grown as a person oh my god.
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^^ this, I feel like I’ve aged like 5 years over this pandemic but I’ve been watching Dodie for like 6 years and it feels like such a journey
7 likesyesss same, have been watching her videos for 5 years (plus a couple of months) now too!! i was 16 then and soon i`m turning 22, this is wild
4 likesMe too ❤️ found her through the song "My Face"
4 likesI think the first video I watched was the "I'm Going Blind??" video 😆 it's been such a long time, and she's inspired my style, a portion of my music taste, and yeah I got into playing the ukulele because of her 😂 it's been a good several years
1 likeI love hearing dodie talk about her life: it's very comforting to know that people are all complex and are real you know?
53 likesThis feels like a nice medium between knowing you were uncomfortable with the amount that you were sharing and someone that people might find ~unreachable~ or unreal or something in the way that many "influencers" are viewed, and i do appreciate these little slices ! like peeling an orange and sharing one slice with ur lunch friends. thank u <3
54 likesThis video is maybe sad but it's important to see we're not alone in this situation 😔
253 likesThis is such a powerful and beautiful video Dodie <3 As a man, I feel the same sentiment that you mentioned around having to be a certain way, otherwise "I am nothing". Thanks so much for sharing these deep reflections.
7 likesTo everyone who needs this: I’m so so proud of you and I love you! Remember to drink your water and grab a snack <3
173 likesi feel you dodie. derealization and dissociation are hard to deal with and it feels like it takes hold of your life for a long time. with the “i am the villain in like 10 people’s stories” i felt that. sometimes the realization just smacks you in the face and it’s hard to come out of that lost feeling. i hope you are doing absolutely swell and that you can find true happiness. ❤️❤️
64 likesDodie is so soulful
136 likes"YOU can use those words, WE can use those words"
5 likesSuch powerful and truthful words
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Also I'm so so glad dodie you have been able to heal even If its only just a tiny bit, and healing is good and I'm so over the moon you able to get this.
Dear dodie, you have the most comforting voice on the entire universe. The end.
15 likesActually not the end. Also we love you and please take care of yourself as you take care of us with your songs. We love u so much our precious hooman <3
really is just like old times ! it’s crazy to think that we’re all growing as people, you knows? i started watching you 5 years ago now and everything’s changed, but in a good way. thanks for growing up with me dodie :))
26 likesCan we all just agree how wholesome she is and honestly she owes us nothing. As someone who lives with depression and major insecurities, this was honestly a really nice video to see someone being honest.
32 likes"a fake truth of a family that shattered" that hit hard... ;-;
91 likesIt's so nice to hear your voice in this format again :) fresh and exciting because you're in a different part of your life, but nostalgic and comforting at the same time. Thank you for being here! <3
32 likesThat said, obviously never any pressure to carry on with anything you don't wanna do. I'm just happy to enjoy what you do choose to share with us :)
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yesyesyes to all of this couldn't have said it better myself
2 likesDodie saying “I’m friends with my depression” pretty much convinces me that she’s a real life angel.
22 likesI think my depression is this built-in-thing that came with my brain as a weird feature that keeps breaking and bugging. I hate it and I’m pretty sure the rest of my brain hates it, too. A friend? No. A psychopath who needs to be sedated so it doesn’t whisper negativity and nonsense? Yea.
anyone else getting very adult vibes from this? i just love it, i think it makes for such a weird parasocial relationship watching someone grow up online for 6+ years as you grow up yourself, you know? it feels nice to watch adult dodie as adult me
15 likesI'm looking at this little Dodie and I'm crying like "Nooo! I don't want you to suffer from depersonalization/de realization when you grow up" ☹️
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Oooof ye
26 likesI'm really proud of you dodie for being here and being vulnerable and taking care of yourself. It's all a journey but you seem to be doing so well.
12 likesMay I just say as someone who also deals with identity issues and derealization, you have been a beacon of hope for me in terms of representation of our mental illnesses in the media, you're a breath of fresh air and you have shown me that it's ok to not feel real
15 likesAnd this is why we love dodie, the brutal honesty and genuine respect for other people.
9 likesthat thing about feeling like a “whiny woman” really struck a chord with me- i’m always there validating the things my loved ones have experienced but struggle to do the same with myself? i start to compare traumas, or think that they have to fit in a certain box to “count” as a trauma. i’ve had to realize that what i dealt with was fucked up, and me denying that fact to myself is only going to hurt myself even more in the future. it’s so hard to acknowledge what the bad parts in my life were like without feeling like a whiny woman.
4 likes"I'm the villain in like 10 people's stories" reminds me of the show Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, there's a whole song about that exact thing
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I loove that show! The humor is so on point. You laugh and cry at the same time haha
6 likesthat show is SO FUCKING GOOD id reccomend it to everyone
6 likesGod that show is fantastic, they did such a great job making it different from other typical stories.
0 likesYES OMG I adore that show
0 likesAn internal loneliness is so accurate
160 likeshonestly dodie you could recite a shopping list and i would probably feel at ease. i dont know what it is but as soon as you start speaking im like entranced, and you make my anxiety so much better. thank u, have a good day <3
9 likesI've been struggling so much with anxiety and it's gotten to the point where I think that I might need therapy or start taking meds. And to hear you just talk about your therapy experience (even in this small "dose") makes it feel like this isn't an experience I should be ashamed of but something that I should realize might be helpful. So I just want to thank you, not in an idealistic type way but in a way that helps me realize that maybe I need to work on my boundaries (which I truthfully don't really have) and maybe I should work on myself because its something that I should be able to do without feeling so ashamed, so yeh thanks.
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There is good help to get from both therapy and meds, I've had both and can function quite ok now.
0 likesMental health isn't something you should feel ashamed for, since no one chooses to feel bad.
Hope you get better and have a brilliant future! 😊
Hi. I was terrified before my first therapy session but woah it was amazing. She said things that genuinely revolutionised my thinking and will stay in my life forever. Of course, not all therapists are good so make sure you do your research 💜 it's 1000% worth it
2 likes@Jessie Maisie this really helped a lot I really feel like hearing about others good experiences in therapy really helps a lot thanks
2 likes@Neely Bolick I'm so pleased! Rooting for you 💪💜
1 likeHey there! Your comment catched my eye because we've got similar names :D
3 likesSociety has always made a strong division between mental health and physical health, but we as individuals shouldn't really. Same way if you have a persistent cough you'll go see your doctor, if you're feeling constantly anxious you should do so as well.
I've always kind of been an anxious person (I am ADHD after all), but four years ago I had a spike of anxiety, and I could feel it since I woke up until I went to bed. It would paralise me, it wouldn't let me do almost anything, it was this horrible weight on my chest, painful thoughts drowning me & my nervous system about to explode, all - the - time, and it went on for almost a year. I went to my GP and I asked for help. They put me in a 1 month anxiety workshop (I was terrified at the idea of going with more people rather than having 1 to 1 sessions) and it went AMAZINGLY. They explained what anxiety really is and we did loads of exercises.
Currently I rarely feel anxious (only in very specific moments, and I know what to do), and I've learned to work with my mind rather than against it.
You can totally get better, and seeking help is nothing to be ashamed of (:
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i needed this today <3 you're an angel dodie
7 likesFacing the fact that you did something wrong to someone, and became the villain in their story, is incredibly difficult. As people we don’t like to face and see that we’ve done something wrong, but once you start it makes it easier to start changing certain behaviors
18 likesthis felt like i was sat down just having a conversation about both our lives and it felt so nice, i miss that sense of normality honestly..
13 likeshi dodie, i love you & your honesty always!
7 likesThe idea of being the villain in others stories, thanks for that
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i feel like i can never forgive myself for the way i treated people even though "it wasn't that bad" which is always debatable i still feel awful
15 likes@Jane Rohlfing if you can see how you have changed and not make the same mistakes again I think it can be healing to forgive yourself for not knowing what you know now - you can’t know what you haven’t yet learned!
6 likes@Jane Rohlfing for some things it took a long time and a lot of learning and self improvement to be able to forgive myself, one day you might be able to too. Until then you can reflect on it- and you already are
2 likesthe other day i was having a mental breakdown about never being successful/ never reaching my full potential because of the barrier my mental illnesses create within me. and then my friend was like “i can show you so many people that have mental illnesses and are successful, just think of dodie!!” and that really made me feel better because i relate to what you feel but i feel like i don’t handle it well and won’t ever be anything because of it but you show me it’s hard but possible :)) so thank you very much honesty is very refreshing
15 likesDodie, you have been a source of comfort for me for years and you have benefited my mental health journey, I have so much admiration for you!
11 likesdid dodie’s camera lose focus or was my vision blurry due to the tears in my eyes? we’ll never know
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Maybe even the camera was welling up... that's the story I'm gonna stick to anyway. 😊
22 likesHow can someone feel so kind and strong at the same time, being open about their own mental health online and on social media. My highest respect. You're beautiful.
2 likesbaby dodie is actually the cutest ever i cant get over her. also i really related when dodie was talking about holding youself to a higher standard then every other woman. it doesnt make sense. i love women and i think they are so beautiful and their physical appearance doesnt matter at all as long as they are beautiful inside. but i am so insecure about my own appearance. it doesnt make sense, but it makes me feel better that someone else feels the same. love u <3
8 likesyou have such a way with words. you somehow manage to make everything you say sound poetic.
10 likesyour videos and music have bought me so much comfort during lockdown honestly thank you
7 likesThat thumbnail slideshow was a wave of emotions
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fr felt like i saw the past 10yrs of my life flash before my eyes
4 likesI think now I've been "knowing" you for 10 years. Seriously. One of the few people on that earth I've been knowing for so long. If it was reciprocal... Who knows.
10 likesThank you, you feel like something permanent in your peculiar impermanence \o/
Why does Dodie calm me even though she’s talking about difficult things?? 🥰
2 likesi’ve been rereading your book recently and this gives me the same amount of comfort :) thx for being here hun <3
8 likesThe term "friend-family" is so perfect, I'm totally stealing it ! 😅
25 likesi am so damn excited for this video series dodie :,) we are excited to see you again
5 likesThis video is absolutely lovely... And this may not be any consolation in the long run, Dodie, but when I discuss your work with other people, I call you a singer/artist, not a YouTuber. You're my favorite dang singer and I'm so proud of how far you've come. <3
6 likesCasually dropping stream of consciousness poetic bombs. When the album launches and all is said and done, please consider writing prose again. You have such a talent.
2 likesthis is a great video, it is nice to see someone talking openly about life and mood things that i think we call secretly struggle with
2 likesIt’s honestly so relieving to see that a person you look up to also struggles and is working on themselves. It makes me feel less alone and more hopeful for the future. Thank you Dodie, stay safe! ❤️
5 likesi love how dodie can be so vulnerable with us it honestly makes me feel like i can be vulnerable as well and i like that
2 likesOoo I love the day she chose to release these on. There’s just something so ✨comfy✨ about Thursdays. Not sure why.
2 likes2:22 about the villan is something i needed to hear today and it is nice to know i am not alone in this, i feel like it is a burden mos of us carry
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That part hit me quite hard. For years I have held on to something I did when I was 13. Only recently have I actually confronted it in therapy but I still feel a degree of guilt.
3 likesdodie was so precious and wholesome as a child
11 likesand she still is :^)
This video really showed that you have grown and matured immensely in the way that you're sharing your life and emotions. I'm proud of you and I hope life is treating you well xx
2 likesevery video of yours feels like a beautiful poem, or a movie, or a book. it just feels so safe, and soft. you have such a way with words
2 likesbaby dodie vids pop on screen while dodie talks about taking care of herself
9 likesme: tears
im glad other people know they’re the villain in some stories. makes me feel less alone and horrid
4 likesdamn i'm early haha. this was such a nice video, being reminded that there are other people out there struggling with/working through their mental health during the pandemic (literally the worst environment for us lol) is healing. also those baby videos were so cuteeeee i'm glad they're helping you take better care of yourself <3 have a nice week
1 likeThis is so wholesome, sometimes sharing ur true self can be difficult but it also can be therapeutic, luv u dodie 🤍🤍❤️❤️
1 likeTHE THUMBNAIL MONTAGE I'M SUCH AN OLD FAN I'M CRYING all the nostalgia 🥺
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aaaa me too i loved the ukelele vids
1 likeSometimes it scares me how much I relate to you dodie, but at least now I have someone kind and genuine to look up to.
5 likesYou know nothing about me, and yet I think of you as a friend. What a strange world.
Stay safe dodie, (and everyone else) it's a long, quiet journey we're on with ourselves, but it's worth it.
All my love, from
another little voice x
You're so lovely, I miss videos like this! It's nice to know most people are dealing with similar thoughts and feelings that I'm having. I really relate to what you said about feeling like nothing if you aren't sexy. Thank you for putting this out into the univserse!
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me too! it's always hard as a woman to love yourself when everyone puts weight on your appearance but we'll get thru this. everyone deserves love even if they don't feel attractive
1 like@Muddled Mink Those are such kind & true words! We will get thru this, you are right! Thank you for your sweet reply c:
0 likesThis was really insightful, hope you’re ok especially with this second pushback of the album. We’ll all wait as long as it takes and love every second of it! ❤️
2 likesDodie,, thank you for everything you do ❤ I love you so much dear ❤
5 likestalking about how you “take care” of your younger self made me tear up. I feel guilty when I watch home videos and see my younger self because I know I’m not very nice to her sometimes. thanks for the reminder that she’s still there, she still needs me, and I should still work on taking care of her ❤️
3 likesThis brought me so much comfort. Thank you for sharing:,)<3
2 likesi woke up today rly excited for this video,,, i appreciate you giving me something to keep going for <3
8 likesDodie, you are a truly lovely example of humanity and human kindness. I’m tired of the grind, and the rubbish bucket of worms life seems to keep throwing at me, but your videos make me feel calm, and happier and reassured. Thank you ❤️
2 likesthank you for this little update. i honestly love hearing people talk about how their lives and their mental health isn’t perfect, but not have them going into a lot of detail about it. i think sometimes it’s easy for me to watch mental health videos and purposefully trigger myself to make my struggles validated. but this way in which you touched upon it without pouring out everything inside of you was just very appreciated by me. so, thank you.
1 likeI love dodie so much its unreal (no for real I love your presence whether it be in music or on the internet here, this community feels so soft and comforting)
6 likesI can’t lie I’m 19 and watching this video is already helping me open up in a way where I’m realizing the trauma I had to deal with as a kid. I even fucking opened VHS tapes like dodie not too long ago and had the same feelings, it honestly feels like a different world as a kid and you crave for that again because it seemed better not to know than to know.
1 likeI just really appreciate the raw genuine vague conversation from this video if that makes sense. I know that when I finally find a way to confront my own trauma from my childhood I’ll look back on this video and know I’m not alone. I know that it’ll hit me hard and I’ll have to go through it all piece by piece.
as a fellow almost 26 year old, 25 is such an odd age to be...... i just oscillate wildly between feeling too young to be this Old and too old to be this Young
2 likesthis video helped me to feel a little less lonely and i’m looking forward to the next!!
I didn't realize how much I missed the videos like this. It's nice, even if the mood is kinda sad. It's like talking to an old friend again
1 likeThis was really nice to watch. You said somethings that I've thought before but have never said out loud. You said somethings that put some of my trauma and past into a different perspective.
1 likeI thankyou for the honesty and vulnerability you put in this video. I've got some things to think about now - ❤ Enjoy the day the best you can you beautiful bean
My mom saw someone a few days ago that she thought looked liked dodie, because her hair looked the same and also because her face looked like that of a fairy. And idk but she's right dodie looks and is like a badass fairy<3
7 likesthat part about connecting with your inner child and specifically rewarching and reliving throught old footage of yourself stirred something in me. I appreciate you for you and being honest with yourself and us. you remind me to give my younger self some love and work through trauma
3 likesDodie, at times you are a youtuber, but that's just one small part of a much richer, complex person. You are greater than the sum of your parts and that's a beautiful thing!
4 likesI love you so much. You get told that really often, but I really do mean it. You’re like a big sister and a weird mirror of myself in one. I’m so proud of you and I’ll be here to continue to watch you learn and grow as I do the same.
1 likeDay 1 of me commenting on Dodie’s channel for them being one of the most wholesome and funniest people💛
12 likesbeen here for years and i love how you've grown over all this time while i've been growing up as well, it sorta feels like i could join you on your path (sorry sounds cheesy omg) and even now you're still growing and getting better and making such an effort to forgive and understand life <3 i love you dodie and i'm super proud of you!!
0 likesaw i've missed these lil chats :') it was very nice to hear from u again in this way ty for this.
1 likeand my excitement level for build a problem has been and still is @ the ceiling !! so thrilled
You have such a wonderful and talented circle of friends
9 likesPlaying the short montage of clips while talking about how far you've come really had me tearing up 😭 so proud of you, Dodie
0 likesThe bit about taking care of your younger self made me tear up, I think I should start doing that. Thanks for sharing with us <3
1 likeHi dodie! Im glad that your at least trying to live your best life! I just want to say thank you, your music and videos over the years have helped me feel so valid in my own mental illness and insecurities. So i hope the best for you❤
2 likesDodie I love you so much and I love how you’re always so open with your feelings :)) your videos make me feel so safe aaa
0 likesi’ve been missing you and your content and the time in my life when we were both very much so invested into youtube. this notification put a smile on my face. thank you for doing what you do and what you have done for me. love you dodie <3
0 likeseverytime you make videos like this it makes me cry because i've been watching you and listening to your music for so long it feels like you're connected with parts of me that i've lost, parts of me that i'm still mourning over. theres a connection with you that's odd and different but theres healing within each of your videos and songs. i appreciate everything you do. plus your voice is so soothing, like a hug.
1 likeThis was adorable and relaxing and heartfelt and quiet, thank you dodie, I needed this. I hope you continue to do well, and I will never again call you a youtuber if that's not what you want to be called <3
0 likesThank you for being the older sister I never got to have, dodes. You've always been a little ahead of me (I'm 21) and it's so nice to have someone share a little bit of their life lessons with me. I wish you the best :)
0 likesi missed this kind of videos so much<3 thanks for sharing dodie we love you
2 likesDodie, you've come a very long way in the several years I've been subscribed to you. You are beautiful, and strong, and talented, and wonderful. No, I don't pretend to understand your trauma, but I accept that it's real. In my 51 years on this Earth, I've learned that we're ALL screwed up in one way or another, whether we have the strength to admit it or not. And, if it helps at all to hear it from a dirty old man, you ARE sexy. It's healthy that you have set boundaries on what you share, and humbling that you love us enough to share what you do. Thank you, for bringing us along on this journey. We love you. 💖
1 likeHello. Thank you so much for this. I almost started crying seeing the images of you on youtube throughout the years and wow. I am so lucky to have had you going through all this time and to be with you on this journey. Thank you
0 likesThis was such a welcomed surprise!! I'm having a hard day and so this felt like such a treat. Hope you're doing well, dodie!
0 likesEVERY THURSDAY?!
2 likesdodie out here giving me reasons to push through my exam stress 😭✨✌️
May 7th is my 20th birthday! I look forward to listening to your album. Thank you for sharing a slice of your healing journey with us.
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no way me too! happy birthday even tho this is 3 months late, i hope the album was a good gift for you too <3
0 likesi appreciate this video. It made me feel like I was 15 again sitting in my room recharging by listening to Dodie whilst feeling the warmth of having an older sister or even a best friend. Dodie thank you for your transparency. You make me feel safe in all of my melodrama
0 likesthank you so much for talking about derealization and depression. it IS validating to hear other people talk about it and understand how it feels or... doesn’t feel.
2 likesI really needed this video, I've been going through a depressive episode recently and seeing you be so honest about your experience is very comforting. Thank you for sharing, I know it's hard to do but you have helped so many people by doing it. <3
0 likesJust finished this video! I hope ur doing well, Dodie <3.
1 likeIt was so lovely hearing all of this from you. I can relate to a lot of it. From the inner child work, to the befriending your depression, feeling lonely internally. I hope you find the solace you seek and wish you many jovial breakthroughs in your healing from the trauma you’ve endured. 💖
0 likesI’m not sure what I deal with but everything you say I can relate to, I am pretty sure I suffer with depersonalisation as I feel detached from myself and I feel spaced out all the time so maybe I have derealisation. I don’t know but everything you say always helps me figure out something else about me and realise im not alone. So thank you Dodieeeee xx
4 likesthis is making me feel so nostalgic for your old videos, and i always loved those types of videos bc they made me feel less alone in my problems :,) thank you
0 likesthis video hits different and tastes bittersweet <3 sending you lots of love, dodie
1 likeThis made me feel very validated and not alone in my internal struggles, thank you
0 likesThank you for this! As a 22 year old, learning to live with on and off depression, it was heart warming and reassuring to hear you speak so frankly, dodie. Thank you. It can't be easy, but know that it's truly appreciated. Love you gal x
0 likesI want to thank you. Not only are you my favourite musician of all time, your masterpieces helped me discover so much about myself and my life, genuinely. You describing your derealisation helped me come to terms with my dissociations and made me feel so much more at peace with it. Even when I feel so disconnected and far from everyone and everything else, including myself, you remind me that you’re here for me, because you’re connected to me through your music. You convey a magic that I’ve never known anyone else to have, and I hope one day you will know just how much you have changed my life for the better, along with so many other people’s. I love you Dodie, you inspire so many people to be all the best parts of themselves jumbled up into one big lovely ball of happy dough. :)
1 likeLoved this video, felt so nostalgic to hear from you like this as a longtime viewer 💓 The art piece of the woman with the beauty mark hanging behind you- did you get that somewhere online? So weird but it looks EXACTLY like me, the nose and mole and everything, so id want to get it if I can!
1 likei really really loved this video, it's crazy to see how much you've grown over the years. i wish you good luck in everything you're trying to accomplish and i'm really grateful that you chose to share this with us <3
0 likesWe’re here for you Dodie, i think you are a beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for sharing this with us, it really is helpful to us and to you as a connection and an outlet. Sometimes life is just ugghhh but i believe in you and i know that you’re gonna be ok. You’re so brave to spread this with the world and just know that you are so loved.
1 like❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
I love being able to hear lil updates on you, dodes! I'm in a similar boat with derealization—just trying to sort through it and understand it more. Thank you for being so open about your experience. Because of you, I've learned so much about myself and grown so much. You're an inspiration as heck
0 likesi can’t wait to see you on tour again you are such a wonderful being and i’m so glad you’re so honest, not with us but with yourself 🤍
0 likesI always get a feeling of catching up with a friend when you upload. Its comfort in form of a video, I love it <3
0 likesthanks for hanging in there, your honesty and music mean so much to me, a guy who's been living with depression for at least 40 years.
0 likesI want you to know that I really appreciate these videos where you're just open and honest about so much, in such a casual way. It always leaves me feeling introspective and I need that every now and then. All your calm vlogs feel like warm hugs from a friend <3
0 likesI really appreciate you putting words to that lonely feeling you get even when you know you have friends. Grateful for what you've shared, and how you share it. Ever excited for the new album <3
0 likesthis is so cute and genuine ☺️ I love how open dodie is
0 likesjust turned 23 and really want you to know how helpful and touching these videos are to me! it is comforting seeing you walk through life a few steps ahead of me and you give me a lot of hope as I begin to approach my mid20s. best of luck out there dodie!!!!
1 likeThis is so, so precious (as are you, dodie). Thank you for this. Much love to you.
0 likesOkay time to get off zoom class to watch a goddess
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I love you dodie you're such an inspiration to me and to many others
3 likesdodie, i'm so proud of you🥺you've come so far and you're so strong! i love u!!
0 likesI have watched you for so long, and I have been there for all your oversharing phases, and, let me say, I am SO proud of you for discovering the value of boundaries. It is so good and so healthy. I love it.
0 likesLove you doddie hope you’re having a nice day. Keep taking care of yourself 🥰
0 likesI'm proud of you. How far you've come and all of it. Even when dealing with things, you're open to heal, and that's already a big step ❤️
0 likesYou are worth more than you could ever imagine
I'M SO EARLYYYY hi dodes <3 i've had such a shit day and i was sooo looking forward for today's video !!! thank you for being so lovely, love love love you 💘
7 likesi’m so glad you talk like this, the theme of my life for the past few months has been playing a lot of flat musical chairs and understanding that whilst i have fucked up, other people have fucked me up too. my therapist and i have been connecting me back to my inner child, and the overall feeling has been different shades of loneliness. it’s very soothing to know that someone, even just in a youtube video, could resonate with that
0 likesit’s a transitional period, and learning that even with your circle constantly changing and mistakes making you feel “tarnished” almost, there will always be one friend that isn’t leaving you — except it’s yourself, and the friend you’re probably the meanest to. and when so much has changed, your self loathing is the only thing that stays consistent, and when it leaves you like everything else, it feels like you’re doing something horribly wrong
but your body cares for you, holds you, cleans you, and sits with you through every trauma, the least we can do is appreciate it for that during times like this, as hard as that is
I've been diagnosed this year with dissociation and I always feel lonely despite having people around me, internally lonely definitely describes it <3 This video made me feel really validated :)
0 likesYou're so inspiring and nice to listen to, watching this made me want to be more open about my traumas now :))
0 likeswow was not expecting one of these build a problem lead-up videos to feel this,,, monumental ? i'm feeling like eighty emotions all at once lol this was so much.
1 likeThank you for your honesty. I can't wait to see you perform later this year. Take care and I'm looking forwards to your album's second release date <3
0 likesI love you so much, thank you for sharing these little things, it makes me feel like a dear friend of yours. Also, since you mentioned your home, I think you would like to know that you gave me the extra confidence I needed at 17 to start posting videos of me singing. Not many people saw/see my videos, but it helped me SO MUCH with my confidence. Thank you for that and many other reasons.
0 likesi really needed an honest video like this today thank you dodie (also your hair looks INCREDIBLE)
1 likeThank you for this, so many lovely and relatable and important points, sending love <3
0 likesI'm so thankful for the fact that dodie shares such personal yet important stuff 🤍
2 likesHearing you say "Villain is someone's story" made me realize that I have been the villain more than I was ever the hero. Getting help, being diagnosed bipolar certainly helped me realize what I was doing, but didn't take away what I did. I haven't relished the fact I will grow old alone.
0 likesAlways been so validating hearing you talk about these things, grown with you since your charlieissocoollike phase and I wish you so much love in life hehe 🥰
0 likesMy bday is May 6th, your album is right on time, thank you. I felt all of this today. I needed it. So thanks again!
0 likesThanks for sharing, Dodie. I’ve been living with my best friend since the Summer, but lately have been feeling lonelier than ever. It’s nice to hear someone else say it too. ❤️
0 likesThank you so much for this dodie. Watching this healed something within me.
0 likesthis video is so beautiful- just the update i was craving from you! keep going dodie, you really got this.. we all really got this ! :D x
0 likesThank you so much for this. It kind of felt like talking to an old friend, it was quite lovely.
0 likesI love being able to hear from you in your videos, this is so weird to say knowing you may read it, but I’ve been watching you for so long that you honestly feel like a family friend or mentor. I’m five years younger than you and I constantly feel like I’m learning how I’m going to be feeling five years from now. I watch your old videos where you’re the age I am now and see how different you are now and it makes me so excited to grow. Anywho, I hope you’re doing well, excited for the album!!
0 likesListening to your stories and experiences truly feels like reconnecting with an old friend! I love hearing from you, specially in these lonely and troubling times of self isolation
0 likesthank you for sharing this i admire your courage a lot, especially since i tend to keep this struggle to myself "mostly"
0 likesthank you for always being open about your derealisation, it's really helped me articulate it to others and also come to terms with the fact that it's just the way I exist, and there's no getting away from it and THAT'S OKAY most of the time <3
0 likesi loved this. and it's so lovely to see u flourish into the WONDERFUL musician u are because i've listened to ur music since around 2015. but every damn time something is uploaded on here youtube comes up as a topic, a small part of me SHITS MY PANTS and is like "she's deleting doddlevloggle this is it, it's time to say goodbye OH GOD"
1 likedodie i swear thank you so so much for this video, it really brightened my day. Its been a long old year, good to see your face, i hope the album release goes amazing, you deserve it
0 likesIt's amazing how well you are coping with all of this. I really hope you can continue making music and doing the things you love.
0 likesi’m so incredibly proud of you. it’s so weird to think that i kinda grew up with you? i was sixteen when i first watched a video of yours. i’m 21 now. it’s weird but it’s also humbling and comforting so thank you
0 likesboy i've missed these. This was exactly the peaceful and tranquil video I needed after stress college all day :)
0 likesI am not sure why, but this honest video gave me hope... Your content brings a little light in my life and for that I am very grateful!
1 likeThank you dodie. I loved that I could relate with this video, and not feel alone in my struggles. I wish the best for you, thank you for all you do. <3
0 likesThanks dodie ! You're such a kind human, we're lucky to have you here :)
0 likesThis feels like catching up with an old friend almost.. very comfy
1 likei turn 18 on the 26th, and this has made me realise that i’ve literally grown up (and am continuing to grow up) with you. thank you, ily <3
0 likesYou're an astounding person, Doddleedo. Thank you for sharing your talent and your honesty. Signed, a random string of ones and zeros on the internet.
0 likesforgot this was happening, so the notification made me both smile and surprised. i love love love the format of filming photos/videos on your phone! makes me feel like i'm hanging out with a friend and they're showing me things in their camera roll <3
0 likesDodie I love you sm, thank you for being so honest and open about what you're going through. Look after yourself❤️
0 likesUgh dodie. You set my bi heart on fire. This video is such a breath of fresh air, and I just want to remind you that you're beautiful and creative and fantastic, and I am so so so proud of you for working through your traumas in therapy, and for surrounding yourself with positive people. Those things are huge. That's what healing is all about. And you're modeling it in this video so well, which means you're helping other people who maybe don't know where to go. Thank you. <3
1 likeI love these kind of videos, dodie. More than I can even express. Hearing your reflections on life and trauma every so often helps me remember I’m not alone. I wasn’t expecting this one to hit me like it did but talking about finding old family footage messing you up resonated so much. I once found baby photos from before all my trauma began and it made me feel absolutely broken for a bit, but I love the idea of using that to help take care of yourself by taking care of your younger self.
0 likesI have missed listening to her just talk about her life so much! I try and catch her Instagram stories but her YouTube videos just make me feel so warm and I miss her
0 likesi love that i unknowingly put on my old dodie sweatshirt today. dodie, i have grown up watching you and i so so much appreciate your honesty and openness and it has made me feel welcomed to be more open about my feelings as well. so proud of you and how you have grown <33
0 likesplease never stop making videos like these. They make me so happy, its like we have a direct connection. Youre helping so many people just by being here. thank you.
0 likesSending you a lot of positive feelings! Also thanks for being there for people and openly talking about your feelings, even if they're not always positive, you're doing a lot of good here, even if you're not aware of people you've helped!
0 likesthese videos always bring a bit of light to my life. Thanks for makin' em
0 likesthis was really really carthartic and comforting to watch, thank you!
0 likesThank you for this video. I've been on this channel for a couple of years already, so it's really nice to hear your thoughts in a direct honest way, the same way you talked about this topic before. Your channel has always been kinda safe space for me, and I'm really gratefull for that. It's valuable and calming to know that you're not alone on this journey.
0 likesThank you for sharing this video with us, I relate to a massive amount of what you expressed and feel so validated to hear you - someone I admire talk about working through these things. I hope you’re having a lovely day, look after yourself 🌿🌿
0 likesYou are insanely talented ... and so many times I listen to you and I'm surprised at how your music speaks to me. Thanks for all of it.
0 likesit's so lovely to hear this kind of stuff from you dodie, you definitely don't have you but we appreciate it so much when you do!!
0 likesRe-watching this because it’s exactly where I am right now—depressive episodes, always lingering, trying to befriend it, and the struggles with body image. And being a villain in other people’s stories. And boundaries.
0 likesMakes me feel less alone, thank you
i loved this so much dodie, thankyou for being so honest and open.
0 likesExcited for Build A Problem! And hopefully another concert soon as well!!! Much love from Texas❤🤠
1 likeGod. I feel all of this. All of it. Being honest is hard. Thank you. 💕
0 likesThis was a really great video, dodie. Thank you. Im not sure what it is about it but I feel like I needed to see it. <3
0 likesHaven’t watched the whole video yet, but I love you, and send you my full support🥺❤️.
1 likeThis was lovely! Hope your week has had some bright spots.
0 likesAs much as I want this album to come out. I can't even begin to explain how great it is to have a video like this again.
0 likesYou are so incredibly amazing and inspiring. And I honestly just want to say thank you. Thank you for being yourself. You’ve helped me through so much with your videos and especially your music.
0 likesI just wanted to say that you playing ukelele and making music on here really inspired me to start playing ukelele as well. I've always loved music and I never thought I could be apart of that world of playing music until I saw your videos. I'm so glad that I saw your videos and got excited about playing music and that I can now do that with a ukelele, so thanks, and know that being a women with a ukelele is badass in my book at least <3
0 likesDodie. Wow. I appreciate this so much. It's been so wonderful to watch you grow and change throughout the years and I almost feel like I've been included in a small but important piece of your life. That is such a gift that I do treasure. Thank you for that gift. I'm so happy that you were able to get to the position you are in now in a healthy way. I remember when you over-shared on the internet and then realized you over-shared and decided to go about fixing things in a healthy way. That's so respectable and mature. I wish more people would learn from you. Setting up that boundary earlier allowed for such a sweet and vulnerable video like this one. Thank you for sharing with us, and thank you for being you.
0 likesi love you so much. you got me through the first couple years of my depression when i was 14. you’ve “raised” me in sorts. thank you for being open w us sometimes<3
0 likesabsolutely ecstatic for your debut album 🖤 i still remember playing your early youtube videos on repeat and going out to buy a uke just to be able to play your songs !! ur an inspiration and legend
0 likeslove you dodes
Love this. I love videos where it’s just you talking about life. It’s very relaxing
0 likesyou probably won’t see this but i found you and your music at a time when i needed you and your words. somehow you always know what i’m thinking. i think it may be because we both have dpdr. i’m thankful i found you and because of you i pushed to get a proper diagnosis because what doctors tried to diagnose me with was never right. thank you for being you, for your music, and all that you do 💗
1 likeYou are an artist. One of my favourites. I love what you make. I've never really engaged with your social media much, to me you are definitely "artist" first. And a bloody excellent one. x
0 likesI feel this soo soo much. Wow, I have not become friends with my depression yet. I am more scared of it. Thank u for posting this. Thank you, thank you
0 likesthis video feels so.. warm and intimate. thank you for sharing, it was nice listening to you ❤️❤️
0 likesThis feels almost like an epilogue for a really good book I’ve been reading for years... except it’s real and it’s your life
0 likesdodie - thank you ❤️ I have suffered with anxiety for years and last year experienced depression for several months for the first time. when I was first properly diagnosed with anxiety, “secret for the mad” brought me peace. when I finally realized that I had been experiencing depression and dissociation, it was thinking about “goblin dodie” that helped me take care of myself again. thank you for sharing your music, and thank you for videos like this. sending so so much love xx
0 likesYoung Dodie! And baby Dodie <3
0 likesIt's really nice to see these videos, with open communication in them. They remind us that other people are humans like us. We love you and we support you <3
thank u for this dodie so many lil wonderful pieces in this and i'm glad you're healing <3
0 likesI want to thank you for talking about dpdr :) this is the first birthday I've spent in my body in over 10 years bc I went to therapy when I heard you talk about it.
0 likesI've now come out as trans as I realize what I was running away from was me, thanks dodie ☺️
thanks for this, honestly. every time you talk about your life and your feelings just in total, "total" honestly it makes me feel warm. I'm glad I've been supporting you since almos the very beginning of your YouTube channel because I can see how much you've changed and grown. and also thank you very much for being so inspiring xxx
0 likesur hair looks gorgeous here!! also I've been subbed to u for like 6 years (which absolutely doesn't feel like a long enough amount of time I feel like I've been a dodie stan for at least a decade) and I feel so proud of u! we've watched you grow so much while we have grown along side you 💛 glad we get to grow together dod!!
0 likeslittle dodie looks like she enjoys life and i'm happy for her, i wish the same for big dodie and for all of us 🥰🥰
0 likeshonestly i’m going back to therapy soon for some ✨intense cbt✨ and watching this video was so comforting and i feel less scared. i’m sure that wasn’t your intention dodie, but thank you for speaking
0 likesGrowing up with no boundaries and having to learn them in your twenties is such a vibe and it sucks that so many people have to do that (me included). It's good to hear from you Dodie. Glad to see you're taking care of yourself! ❤️
0 likesLove the honesty dodie, takes a lot to share but it WILL have helped others. :)
0 likesbut you're the best dodie. your videos make my day, without fail. So every time you feel down, just know that you've made SO many of my days.
0 likesI absolutley love you Dodie. I love everything about you. Your music, my god, is amazing. I love how real you are even with keeping things private. I have been following you for years and years now and I am so proud and happy for you for how far you've come. You've gotten here despite depression, derealization, trauma and much more. I'm always thinking about how you are still able to do the things and reach goals that you have while trying to cope and I really take that to heart for myself. I tend to call you a youtuber because I've followed you before you had any offical music out, but I also call you an artist. You are the most tallented youtuber musical artist. We Love you Dodie and we are here for you. Thank you.
0 likesThis was a great subject thank you dodie you are amazing and I learn more from you every day
0 likesSometimes listening to you is like listening to a more articulate, British version of myself. This is one of those times. Much love to you, Dodie.
1 likeShe/you really are my, like, comfort artist if that makes sense. I just always feel so vulnerable when I hear her/you speek in a very good way I loved this video thanks
0 likesI like hearing you talk. It feels soothing and it reminds me of a different time. A better time? Maybe. I think I needed this now. I think need some dodie thoughts now and again.
0 likesI grew up with you Dodie, and it brings me so much joy so see you on the same journey. We are moving forward and I am so okay with you putting boundaries up for yourself. I am excited for your new music and all that it brings. Hopefully this fucking pandemic will go away so we can have concerts again!! :)))
1 likehearing you talk about stuff that i listen to myself talking about is incredibly comforting; it means so much
0 likesthank you🤍
dodie! hi! it’s good to see you. I hope you’re doing wonderfully 🥰
0 likesI also connected with my abusive ex's ex, we are best friends for 4 years now and it's amazing to be able to help each other through it!
0 likesWe both have been going through similar life events and even had the same breast reduction surgery, from the same size to the same size.
You got this hun, you're an amazing human being !
This is kinda funny and interesting how much a proper metalhead like me enjoys your music and talent, but also you as a person. I really appreciate your honesty about yourself and about your view on life.
1 likeNot sure where is the line between being a Youtuber and/or an artist (if there is one), but I guess even if you are a Youtuber, there is nothing wrong with it. In the end Youtube is a great media that allows you to show us your talent and us to hear all these songs and other stuff you share :)
Really looking forward to finally hear Build A Problem (yes, I have pre-ordered it).
Stay safe :)
Love you Dodie! You helped me through my derealisation. It took me about 4 months to fully recover and I still get it sometimes but to anyone in these comments, derealisation recover is completely possible.
0 likesI love your chat videos they make me feel so calm. thank you for continuing to be here
0 likesThanks for sharing, for checking-in. :) I/we were wondering how you’re doing and I’m happy to see that you’re fine (under the circumstances) and that you have such lovely people around you.
0 likesWow thank you for sharing I honestly learned so much and got a lot of reflection from this. Keep going
0 likesWoooooo! Weekly vids! I love your stories and the bits you share with us. Especially this past year which has been a struggle for many. Kind of nice to not feel so alone so thanks. :)
0 likesjust wanted to say thank you for doing these, and being so open about your struggles and thoughts.
0 likesIm 20. and a lot of the time i feel like i go through very similar struggles to you. All of your songs feel very close to home. Family trauma. Sexuality. Heck, i just found out i have depersonalization. kinda sucks but hearing you talk about it makes it feel ok.
Your songs are such a safe space for me I can't even tell you. i sang "would you be so kind" about my first crush 5 years ago, then "she" when i realized i was bisexual. "secret for the mad" basically saved me from suicidal thoughts in middle school and high school and "guiltless" put something i was never able to describe into words, lyrics. every time people ask me about the abuse and trauma i play guiltless because it says eveyrthing i cant. i find myself growing along with your music which i think is magical. and i love hearing you talk about your experiences because i see myself in you.
hope this isnt too weird. thank you for everything.
I resonated with this video so much thank you so much for being so genuine and down to earth😭
0 likesWe love you dodie!!! v excited to see the next few videos in the coming weeks. discovered you only recently and your videos and music help when times are rough !
0 likesthis is what i look like when i’m talking to myself in the mirror also monkey bars are so hard
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FR i've never been able to do them </3 my plan is to grow tall enough to be able to j walk my way through it
3 likesI've missed just dodie! Thrilled for this month 😊
0 likesI have been watching since I was 16, I'm 21 now. thanks dodie. and I cried during this oof.
0 likessuch a massive difference in 5 years, both for me and for u I think.
Dodie I just want to say that I have lots of love for you, even though I don't know you or anything. I am hoping for your healing. ❤️
0 likesive been watching u since i was around thirteen and im turning eighteen this year and i cant quite express how relieving it is to feel seen by someone ive (distantly) grown up with. meaning: parasocial relationships exist and im well aware we r not friends and will not be friends and im definitely okay with that but being able to relate the little bits u share with us to my own story gives me a sense of comfort and familiarity. not in the same way i get when one of my actual friends confides in me or something but still just as important? hearing you speak about being the villain in somebodys story for instance without explaining how or why was very very comforting, because regardless of the story it lets me kno that thats a Thing other people do, in fact, realize about themselves, even if our stories are vastly different. we may not be friends, but ive learned that a person doesnt need to have a personal relationship with someone to find comfort in the person they show me. i dont kno u personally, but im manifesting great things for u dodie :] thank u for all that u have created for us and all that u allow us to kno about ur story 💞💗💖💕💓
0 likesthank you so much for sharing your experiences! they always help me better understand myself and not feel alone. im so glad there's people like you out there on youtube
0 likesThank you for sharing, I hope you can find a balance of vulnerability that works for you, and that people will respect your boundaries ❤️ There is definitely a sense of connection that comes with understanding what people whose stuff you like are going through, but it also isn’t your responsibility to provide that
0 likesthank you for giving us whatever piece of yourself you’re comfortable with, it’s so appreciated 💕
0 likesdodie i have so much love and respect for you. you bring me immense comfort because i’m dealing with a lot from all sides right now and just seeing you exist as the empathetic, intelligent, honest human you are gives me a sliver of hope that i can make it through to the other side. thank you ♥︎
0 likesthis honesty is so gorgeous and healing. thank you
0 likesdodie,
2 likesI just want to express how grateful I am for everything you create and have created throughout the years. I know it isn’t uncommon for you to get comments full of gratitude and specific examples of how much you’ve helped during x times but I hope you feel a reminder of the actual weight behind said statement. You are a creative visionary and so fun in expressing your styles (always have been throughout the years, even when you were a flower crown ukulele “walking stereotype” as you called yourself previously lol). seeing videos like these is refreshing and reassuring in knowing that we are not alone. it’s inspiring to see such a great artist care about being genuine with their audience and expressing things.. reminding us in a very grounding sense that you still deal with things you’ve opened up on and that life can still be pretty damn good despite of the bits of mud stuck on one’s boots. and dealing with that mud can look different for everyone. thank you for the little tidbits of happy, of whimsy and reality, of validation and expression and everything weaved in through the years that I’ve followed your content. Your community is one Ive found friends in and one that is thankful. I hope you have a good day :) and that goes for anyone who stuck out this far in reading this little expression as well 🤍
dodie i’ve been watching you since i was like 14 years old and we share very similar mental health experiences. I am 20, almost 21 now, and I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder this year. Obviously you’re older than me, and could have seen this as an option, but every time you explain your feelings and symptoms I can’t help but notice similarly. We love you so much and only want what’s best for you🖤
1 likeI missed these slice of life videos. Glad your music career is doing great Dodie <3
0 likesit was a really weird experience for me to watch this video (good weird, i promise!). I really appreciate that you managed to be so open and honest and vivid about your situation and your thinking process while keeping all the detail to yourself. I feel like you've gotten really better at creating your boundaries, and Im very happy for you that you did (:
0 likesYou are such an interesting person, i found it impossibly fascinating to watch this video, and hear sentence after sentence of strung-together topics and thoughts of yours. You are infinitely interesting and I admire you for your growth and perseverance. Your honest and genuine artistry really gets to me.
this video felt like a nice chat over tea late at night, and I appreciate that you make such comforting videos. I appreciate that you can make me feel so much and so alive, looking at your growth and feeing like I can understand where you're at because i have grown too. It feels nice to recognise some of me in you, the gentleness, the kindness, the patience to oneself, the constant building of maturity and understanding... i really truly appreciate that i can those bits of me in you.
You seem to be doing better, even if always experiencing your own troubles, your energy seems more at ease. I hope you continue to build your happiness even through troubling times!
I haven’t teared up in a good long bit and this was just so raw and true and honest and I respect it so much. The bit about connecting with your inner child was so profound for me and I really hope to incorporate that idea as part of my self care :)
0 likesTwo things about feeling like a villain. The first: you’re 25! Nobody is perfect at any age, but even more so when we are young we are still learning and growing and the fact you feel that way shows you likely have evolved from your past experiences and wouldn’t make the same choices again. It’s ok. You’re not a villain, you’re just human. My friend told me something which has really stayed with me, and that’s that just because people hurt us doesn’t mean we have been wronged. It goes the other way too — sometimes we hurt people but it doesn’t mean we’ve wronged them, we were simply not in a good place in our own lives or prepared to deal with a complex situation which involved the various needs of others. It’s life. The second thing is that likely you are harder on yourself than others. When I was 25 I had similar feelings and reached out to a girl to apologise to her. And I found out that actually she didn’t blame me at all for what had happened; that she was also going through a difficult period of her life and what happened had almost nothing to do with me (at least she felt that way respectively). We can’t change our past, we can just move forwards with more grace and wisdom 💖💕
2 likesInternal Loneliness is SO relatable. I’ve been struggling with a ton of deep identity stuff and processing emotionally abusive friendships I had in my childhood and finding ways to even just have a language and words for all of the crap is so helpful. I LOVE the enneagram (I’m a 4!) and its such a great tool that I use to understand myself better and to find the best ways I can process trauma. Would 100% recommendation Enneagram coaching to anyone!
0 likesthank you for this dodie. you speak so beautifully and honestly this video has made me see just how much I've grown myself in watching you over the years and seeing you grow too, I'm so glad you're here <33
0 likesI love you Dodie, thank you for being honest
0 likesThis video feels very nostalgic of dodies videos that helped me in some of my darkest times, but grown. It's interesting to see how dodies changed and how I've changed. It gives a very nice and odd sense of comfort
0 likesI still remember when I found your channel at the ripe old age of 13. I turned 18 last month. And even tho I am a completely different person than I was five years ago, I still keep coming back to your videos. Not as often anymore, since I don't really have the time but I still come back. I don't know what the point of this comment is but I'm just feeling a bit nostalgic on this fine evening.
0 likesYour honesty and open sharing is appreciated. I relate to a lot of what you said and it helped me feel less alone - something that’s extra helpful as I watched this while in a down patch. Thank you 💛
0 likesYay! I love this comfortable place you've gotten to with sharing things about your life, but also working through things in private. I remember the "Am I sharing too much?" video from a couple years ago, and it seemed like sharing had become compulsive and painful for you. I still go back to your old videos that talk about your depression because they help me feel less alone, to be sure. But I also loveee these new videos you've been doing!
0 likesThank you for mentioning your derealization. I appreciate it every time you mention it. You were a huge reason why I knew of derealization so when it happened to me I didn’t think I was going crazy. I appreciate you.
0 likesthank u for sharing some bits of ur life and thoughts again <3 missed + am so grateful for ur words !!!
0 likesYou're so validating for people going through similar conditions. I'm glad you are so open about being zoned out and depresion episodes now and again. You make a lot of us feel much more understood. Thanks, beautiful human!
0 likesThanks for making this! It makes me feel less alone <3
0 likeswe are all so proud of you dodes <3
0 likesThank you dodie hearing you say this really helps because I look up to you and think you’re amazing but I’m struggling too and we’re all just humans with brains and life is beautiful and horrible and let’s just live
0 likesThanks for the video. You did a great job of articulating what the depression feels like and the loneliness that goes with it. It often seems like there isn't anything to do and it will just hang around with us forever, and maybe that's true, but I always think about the video that Philosophy Tube has on depression: "I know how you feel." The most important thing is knowing that you aren't alone in it. I know how you feel. And so do a bunch of us. And it's great to hear it out loud and from someone we admire and enjoy and believe in.
0 likesOMG DODIE I've been obsessively listening to all your music, just a constant vibe ❤ and then I'm watching Ginny and Georgia on Netflix and your song is in it! Amazing xxxx
0 likesi can’t wait to be okay. i’ve faced things but i don’t think i’ve learned and grown past them. the hard thing is waiting for the time to be okay, because now is not the time for me to be okay. thanks for making a safe space for everyone and yourself dodie <3 truly love you
1 likeI really appreciate the transparency with mental health and just reminding that trauma isnt easy to heal from and it can be difficult to even call it trauma. hope you continue living your best life even with all of the ugly stuff woven into it
0 likesFrom what I can see (based on the musings you've posted to date) I think you're doing a fantastic job of raising yourself. Not everyone is self aware or brave enough to embark on an honest journey of self discovery. In doing so you're not just creating value for yourself, but also for those around you. Keep going. It can be tough at times, but is so worth it, and you deserve it.
0 likesI love it when you upload, I don't care what it is. I'm just happy to see you, and I wish we were friends.
0 likesThis is fascinating. I wish everyone was able to be so eloquent and deep and honest
0 likesthank you for your honesty dodie. I feel inspired to be kinder to myself
0 likesI don't know why but I absolutely loved this video. Hope you're alright Dodie. ♥️
0 likesYou are beautiful <3 and don’t need to change a thing about yourself. We are going through this with you and we all love you so much!! Don’t give up 🥰
0 likesI hope you know how much you mean to so many people. Thank you so much for just existing and sharing these things. I am crying in the best way right now, I love you 💕
0 likesi'm so grateful to dodie that she talked about her abusive ex, i've also been in a toxic relationship and knowing that the person i admire most in the world has come out of it helps me a lot. thank you dodie
0 likesThese videos always feel like a late night and personal chat between myself and a friend. It’s very real and I appreciate them more and more every time a new one is created.
0 likesYou being vague about everything you feel or are going through is incredibly relatable for me. I appreciate the courage it took to talk about this, and hope you find as much healing as you need.
0 likesI have no words for how special you and your music are to me 🥺💓
0 likesi think it's cute that little dodie says "um" the same way today's dodie does :)
1 likeI have an opinion!
0 likesMy opinion is that making and uploading this video is incredibly brave and shows a strength and honesty that i only wish I could match.
Much love.
Every Thursday oh heck yeah!! Also thanks for this slice of honesty and an insight into how you're thinking.
0 likesthis video is so indescribably comforting
4 likesIt's just nice to have you dodie
2 likesThanks for the honesty, love 💚 refreshing to hear people talk about cPTSD and boundaries. Derealisation and dissociation makes a lot of sense in response to that. Thanks for your music! Your flatmates seem so cool. Honestly that living situation is goals for me rn. And very cool that you have so much footage of child you. I don't have many memories of childhood, myself. Do you? Did you remember the experiences in the videos before looking at the videos?
0 likesThis put me all in my feelings... I feel trapped in my job and my own mind this year. I think I felt that way for a long time, but the pandemic made it worse and really brought everything to a head. I can’t ignore it anymore because it’s breaking me.
0 likesTo see you and your clips in this video feels so intimate and hurts, in kind of a good way. But it also sucks.
Thank you so much for your art. You make me feel painfully seen, but comforted because I don’t feel so alone.
Thank you for sharing 💚 it’s great to hear from you in this way. But at he same time your boundaries are important and they deserve acknowledgement & respect, I’ve been on your page for years. You helped me realise my sexuality & embrace it, you calm & inspire me. But anyway, thanks 💕
0 likesI've been dissociating a lot recently and your videos always help so thank you <3
0 likesDodie, thank you for sharing this. You have an amazing way of discussing heavy things in your life with a sort of external objectivity, not skirting reality, but not wallowing or being self-indulgent about it. Don't know that I've ever heard anyone else do this like you do. I'm in the 'states, but when you make a video like this, it makes me want to visit London and somehow run into you, and you inexplicably have lots of time, and we just talk for a long while.
0 likesDodie you are my one of my favorite artists!
0 likesI'm friends with my mental health too now and I've been having problems longer than you have been alive Dodie lol. It feels good to accept it as normal.
0 likes“and i was like 😛eeuughhh😛 im thirsty”
87 likes-baby dodie
You'll probably not read this but I wanna thank you for this video. I'm grateful, it touched me. Thank you for being you. ❤️
0 likesDodie we all love, don't know if that even help... but i think you're an inspiration, thank you for sharing ❤
0 likeslove you stay strong, you're one of the most realest persons i know that i don't know if that makes sense. godspeed
0 likesThis video was very comforting but also made me feel sad because I wish I had the support and friends you have
0 likesthank you for ur honesty dodie, i love you and enjoy listening to u
0 likesI just found you and I love your channel !!! So relatable all that you share here yet so uniquely you💓💓💓💓 looking forward to hearing your album
0 likesThis was such lovely video ❤️
0 likesAldo, I bought your album on vinyl and I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT TO GET IT!! ( But I can wait don't worry)
I've been experiencing a lot of depersonalisation lately and I've been thinking a lot about the things you've said about it, helps me feel less alone. Also the part about taking care of your body in such a manner really resonated with me. Glad you are sharing, as much as you're comfortable with sharing of course.
0 likesThat's a really good way to work through a depressive episode, I might use that :)
0 likesDodie, you are not alone <3 keep taking care of yourself and keeping your friendships close. You got this. It will be okay :) we are here for u
0 likesWonderful content there dodie. Thank you!
0 likesThe video almost made me cry
0 likesas most of these videos from dodie dobut the part about "taking care of your inner child" just hit me so hard. Thats such an interesting way to look at it thank you dodiethank you for this video, it helped me and reminded me that we all struggle
0 likesYou are one of my safe spaces on the internet. Love you Dodie 💛
0 likesI love these types of Dodie vids. :) Thanks for sharing about your mental health stuffs because from the outside looking in it's always like "look at this person having fun with friends, they must not have the same horrible depression I have" and it really helps in feeling less alone in my loneliness, like yo, it's not about how it appears on the outside and I don't have to feel like it's due to external circumstances. Also, be damn proud of playing the uke - I have tried and failed so far because OW HOW DO THE FINGERS EVER GET USED TO DOING THAT. Love to you!
0 likesJust gotta say, that was so nice to listen to. Just enjoyed it alot. <3
0 likesthis slice was actually a pie lol - having said that, i think you have been and continue to do something amazing with your space, voice and mind. child dodie deserves you and you deserve child dodie ! you both have the same heart !
0 likesI had never heard of dissociation until I found your videos. It helped make sense of soo much of my life and I too have started to accept it and love it as part of myself over the last year. I have also experienced an abusive relationship, and it also took me a long time to start accepting that a lot of the stuff I suffered was actually abuse. Listening to your music really helped me ride out the emotional turmoil of that.
0 likesI'm so glad you've shared what you have with the world as its helped me a lot. But I don't want you to share any more with the internet than you actively want to. Being 100% honest with all the people all the time is more than any soul could possibly bear. And if I would wish anything for you it would be to have your bright and beautiful soul nurtured and cared for as much as possible.
dodie, this was lovely. your words speak to me so much, especially since you're so authentic and open. in a way, you're like an older sister to me (no pressure though, just listening to your songs is comforting enough) because i'm going through some very hard relationships right now and even just hearing someone else talk about it is like a weight being lift from my shoulders. your song guiltless for example - i felt seen for once. i bought your book back in 2018 and read it cover the cover and i completely fell apart over how this was the first time i had ever seen somebody be so honest. have you ever considered writing another book? you're a brilliant writer! anyway, i cannot tell you enough how much i appreciate this video. excited for your album :)
0 likesI love this video so much. I deal with similar mental health problems and hearing you talk about derealisation and trauma makes me feel less alone. It's helping me realize things, like how I should think what younger me would need. I'm also so glad that you are clearly learning to set clear boundaries and it's allowing you now to share a little more. And the clip at the end at the video is so cute!! 💛
0 likesWow, Dodie, 7mins 16secs and I am filled with thoughts and emotions like I have watched a two hour play... Respect for you finding the strength to be so open and share this with us. You are an artist, come across as an amazing, caring and inspiring human being! Perhaps you were not always that way, but the way that you deal with your past is giving me hope for myself! I wish you good luck in coming to love yourself as you deserve to be loved! Thank you for being you and being here!
0 likesI wish I was brave enough to be this honest. Thank you!
0 likespatiently waiting for the album 🧚🏽♀️💕 love you dodie
0 likes"tell me you've been watching dodie for ages without actually telling me you've been watching dodie for ages"
0 likesi almost went to your 20th birthday meet and greet in russell square gardens....how the fuck was that 6 years ago??? but its been lovely to watch you & your music grow and evolve :)
Oh gosh 6 years ago(2015.. oh my gosh.. ahhh) I will never forget sitting in 8th grade English "finding" your channel and constantly draining my phone battery while your videos played in the background of class😭 I swear you helped me through my high-school years and now I'm 19 in a spot that I didn't think I would ever be in.. I'm pregnant and with someone who I genuinely love and care about. And though I wished to have waited for this kid for a few more years, I'm thankful. Terrified honestly, but hearing you right now helps. Due 25th of July, I doubt many dodie fans are pregnant or with any children so that feels weird😆 but just know this little one will jam out to in the middle innocently 😭🤣
0 likesI haven’t watched your videos in about a year but this video gave me a new perspective on a lot of things and so so helpful! Thank you
0 likesthank you for these they are very normalising for my own mental health stuff we appreciate you lots <3
0 likesI'm not that often in the comments here anymore, but I'm still watching and I admire your openness and honesty. you don't owe us anything but still you give so much.
0 likesI can imagine how helpful it is to have another person to share experiences with.
I'm also glad you have Grets and Martin around.
thanks for sharing your journey, I'm glad I've been around for a while!
we all care about you and want the best for you Dodie :) do what you want and what makes you feel better, we'll support you! also can't wait for the new album!!
0 likesGod I adore you. I have forever but the more I grow as a person and watching you grow as well is amazing.
0 likesone thing you (and anyone out there) need to remember, is the very fact that you are even aware and remorseful of playing the part of "the villain" in someone else's story, is exactly what makes you anything but a villain. love you lots dodie, xo.
0 likesI wanna say that I'm so jealous of your childhood videos cause I have none, my parents didn't own a camera. As well as photos
1 likeOh dodie, sometimes I wish we could be friends and I know how cliché it is and how many people want to be friends with you, but I feel so spoken too by your videos and you are seem so kind and lovely. I hope you will be at least that lovely to yourself tonight and you can do something to make you feel good :) on another note, yoga is a workout and some light exercise is better than none :D
0 likesugh. i connected with so many things you said in this. i love you dodie!!! thank you
0 likesThis was eloquent and honest and I appreciate your musings but don't feel entitled to it, thanks for sharing this moment with us
0 likesI don't know what to say. You're awesome, Dodie.
0 likesi just love and appreciate you so much<3
1 likeedit: i hope i can someday be friends with my depression as well, damn
Dodie ❤ I just. I wanna say that I have been around your chanel for litterally ages now, like many many years, and I want to say that I appreciate your work both in terms of YouTube vids and your amazing music. I love it all. You seem to be such an amazing person, and I know for a fact that you are an amazing musician! I just felt a really really strong urge to HUG you, so I'm sending love and virtual hugs in abundance - would ask for concent if possible but I think you can dodge these virtual hugs should you not want them hehe: 🤗🤗
0 likesi love you dodie i miss hearing you speak
12 likesI'm proud of you for growing so much and communicating so well. I understand how difficult it is to grow up without boundaries and to think that your trauma isn't that bad, but I'm glad you're learning to recognize that you deserve the love you give everybody else. I personally think of you as a musician more than anything else.
0 likesI was definitely cryin throughout this video because we are the same age and I felt as though I could feel your feelings through the screen so deeply, and I identify with them big time right now as I always do when you share your emotions with us. Makes me feel much less alone... All the love Dodes, we will just keep growing xx
0 likesI judge my body much more harshly than everyone else's, too. Solidarity, and also, you are beautiful, inside + out ❤️
0 likesi had a huge realization of how i feel towards my youger self thus how i feel about myself right now just by seeing those clips of the younger dodie, and if i felt so much love and need to protect towards my younger self why would that stop there? im the same child, just grown
0 likesi love myself
thank you dodie
once again, for making me cry and think so deeply❤️
The dots under her eyes complete me
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i love dodie dots :)
13 likesI love you, Dodie. I hope you feel better. 🥰
0 likesthis is so raw and authentic, thank you for sharing
0 likesSuch openness and courage in this video 🦋🙏🏽 this is so necessary.
0 likesFor anyone feeling Lonely, even around others, I totally recommend the book "Anatomy of loneliness" by Teal Swan
This is so raw and wholesome. I feel a little less empty now. :))
0 likesWait Dodie posted stop everything I need to get some tea and sit down. Ok done. Tell me. Tell me the honesty
19 likesBeautiful you! Your words and your sounds and your thoughts that you bravely share... Beautiful you!
0 likesdamn crying when you talk about the old footage videos. I sometimes look to my child self and worry I'm not giving him the best of times, not respectin and honouring his life. I know he could do very well and be an awesome person, but to know that it depends on me it's hella scary. I wish the best for my child self, I just cant always do the best for my "now" self
0 likesAww your so pretty! And lately a lot of your music has been touching me because of some of the things I am going through. You are helping me express my feelings in much healthier ways than before. I know you don't know me, but thank you!
0 likesthe struggle is hard but we're all so proud of you for still working through it. sending lots of love! also, the album will come out 3 days before my birthday, it super feels like a birthday gift 😭
0 likes2:47-3:05 is always floating in my head :/ I should be 20 lbs smaller or at least have a small waist because I want to feel validated in that way- I wanna be attractive yet I don’t think that way about other people because humans are so beautiful, why do we have to do that to ourselves
12 likeshey i just wanna say that it's really nice to know i'm not the only one who's spacey all the time. you actually introduced me to like ,, dissociation and stuff and i just think you're really cool so !!!! thank u for doing this sorta stuff <3 <3
0 likesThank you. I feel related to and also sort of more alone because of this. Thank you
0 likesLove to hear from you dodie 💖
0 likesI've watched Dodie for years and years and only now realized how close in age we are. She always seemed so much older and wiser than me. She's 25 and I'm 21. My new roommate is 25 and listens what I have to say to her. I wish I could have a conversation with Dodie. It was such a strange experience to be a 20 year old watching her video where she replied to her 20 year old self, when I can remember the video coming out when she was 20. I'm so grateful to her for being someone I can always come back to.
0 likesRemember that you are loved. Everyone reading this you deserve love and respect. If you feel like no one loves you or no one cares, yeet that thought out of your noggin! Cause I love you, and I care❤️
3 likesOh dodie, this video makes me want to hug you so tight! I know I've only spent minimal time with you but you're wonderful and beautiful and amazing 🧡 sending all the love x
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o sweet bab! 🖤
0 likesyou're such a precious human being. your ability to make people feel seen and heard is remarkable. thank you <3
0 likesThis was lovely ♥️ hope you have a nice day!
0 likesgod, this is so corny, but i feel like dodie connects ME to MY younger self. I remember starting to watch her videos around five or six years ago and I've never seen someone who makes me as comfortable and grounded as she does. dodie is lovely :)
0 likes(also i love the dodie video comment sections, i forgot how awesome they are lol)
urban cottage core dream?
27 likesyes-
Loved this. Thanks dodie ❤️
0 likesI really relate to you xx thank you so much for uploading this x
0 likeshenlo dodie this video made me cry but in a cool way i hope that in this present moment you are doing safe and well :))
1 likeI feel you. I had a psychosis and depressive stuff. It’s real. You’re real. You’re exactly where you need to be and this too shall pass.
0 likesoh god i’m scared of honesty
3 likeswatching you speak and reading these comments make me feel like i’m not stuck in an internet abyss but in a honest community of people who acknowledge their brokenness and are in the process of accepting healing.
0 likesI really liked the analogy of taking care of your inner child. i think i’m going to use that more often. it’s a great example of the feeling i have when going through an anxious out of body moment. but i take care of her and she thanks me for that. <3
As someone else said, I hope you posted this to help bring peace to yourself and because you wanted to. Equally, I want to thank you enormously for posting this. I’ve been going through a rough time off and on and this helps. It gave me a bit of calm and direction in my time of chaos.
0 likesThis video has made me feel seen in a way I can not properly explain in this comment. Thanks always, Dodie. :)
0 likesit was one of your videos that I first heard the term derealisation used, and I'm truly not overexaggerating when I say that changed my life. Having a name, having the words to describe how isolated it had always made me feel.... and then having someone say that they felt it too. I don't know you, and you don't know me but you helped me in a small-big way and that's kind of lovely so cheers mate
0 likeswhen your favorite creator is so popular your early but there are already amazing comments
12 likesI'm really thankful for you for making this video. Real gratitude.
0 likesthis video reminds me so much of her older chatty-style update vlogs. but this time it feels healthy.
1 likeEver since I saw your crazy/toxic cover I fell in love and I started to relate to you on another level as the years have go on and you've helped me through so much shit you're truly amazing! 🥰 You inspire me ❤️❤️
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Wow! You’ve been here a while!!!! xxxx
0 likesOh boy, this was v relatable, thanks for sharing dodie
0 likesim in class but i saw the notification and could not resist
15 likesi rlly appreciate these little videos just to talk. even though we both are going through very different things, i still feel so heard when you talk about them even if its just a little part of it. makes me feel less like a crazy bitch lol. i hope u are able to make it through somewhat in this god forsaken pandemic and im beyond excited for the album. u better come to the US with a tour once its out >:(((
0 likessending all the hugs and love and more love that i can cuz we all need sum of that nowadays ♥
0 likesI am so grateful for your vulnerability. It is healing to hear you speak about these things.
0 likesNot sure why but this slice of honesty had me in tears. ❤️
0 likes3:53 Before The Line.... the closer of the album
3 likesSo glad you found a good balance between sharing your experience and keeping your private life private but I'm also so glad for this little insight into your brain. The nostalgia feels so good as a viewer. Hope you're well xxxx
0 likesYour hair looks especially soft and lovely today, dodes :)
1 likeso excited for build a problem and so proud of u <3
0 likesdodie you are like my older sister qwq i love you so much, never give up !! 💕
0 likesDodie's eyes are so pretty holy heck jssjshsbsbsbsg
6 likesA whole day late to this video but I’m watching it over and over again. I’ve learned so much from the lessons that you’ve shared, and I just want to say thank you. I’m so glad you’re doing better and learning and growing. And I’m really glad you’ve been finding a balance with your boundaries and how much you share online and been prioritizing yourself. I know I’m basically a stranger to you, but I’m really really proud of you, and I can’t wait for what adventures await you after this pamalamadingdong is over. You’re amazing, and we love you so much. Keep being kind to yourself! xx
0 likesI relate to you so much, especially in terms of mental health; it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one experiencing de-realisation/de-personalisation. I actually learned the name of it from you, for years I just referred to it as 'day-dreaming' because it was the only thing I could think to compare it to.
0 likesI don't know where I'm going with this comment, so I'll just say thank you for being honest and open about mental health and doing your part to normalise talking about it <3
Hi Dodie I hope you see this, I’ve been a fan of you for 5 years and I really relate to you more than ever in terms of mental health. I was diagnosed with depression and on the road to being *hopefully diagnosed with ADHD and lots of people address it differently, I really love the way you describe other people bringing up your struggles and how it’s validating to know people are openly aware and thinking of you. Some people think pushing things under rug will help you deal with it but it’s the opposite, although our mental health struggles don’t define us they are still a big part of us that needs to be acknowledged. Idk I just find a lot of comfort in your words and your song ‘Monster’ really resonates with me, every time I listen to it I clap along during the chorus. Big love and can’t wait for your album!❤️❤️
0 likesthank you so much. this video hurt all of the right places and felt like a hug in so many different ways.
0 likessneaky before the line....
5 likesthis feels like an old dodie video but at the same time like the end of something, it makes me feel so weirdly nostalgic, like things aren't like thet used to be, but I love it
0 likesdodie this honestly was really nice to hear and i’m really surprised by how much i related to all of the things you said??
0 likesthis was very comforting. being the same age as you and while our lives are completely different, i can hear my own thoughts in the words you speak. about caring for yourself as you would your younger self to getting to realise that some things in your past were a lot more hurtful than you initially thought. thank you for this video dodie <3
0 likesI've always felt weird about commenting on stuff on here but i do it from time to time, just in case you see this I wanted to say that being able to grow up along side you (we're about the same age!) has been not only wild to see how much you've grown, but so validating for myself going through similar things, and feeling self-validation through supporting you. Thank you for sharing little bits of your life with us and I am SO excited for the new album. Keep on keepin' on :)
0 likesi’m so early it feels like 2016
4 likes"--or how it's gotten better. it hasn't. i've just sort of accepted that this is where i'm at."
0 likesahh punched me right in the gut.
god bless you dodie, this little video means a lot to me
0 likesHearing you talk about depersonalization/derealization truly blew my mind because I’ve never heard of it before but it fits me so well. I’d love if you made more videos talking about it, I think it would help a lot
0 likesTHE pressure of being early and commenting something AAAAAA
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yassss
0 likes"You can use those words; We can use those words." OOF hits hard but oh so perfectly.
1 likeDodie I want you to know that you’re not the only one that applies certain thoughts to yourself and no one else. I also apply feelings about my body and worth to myself that I would never ever think about someone else. I’ve never had much attention from boys and I got bullied by boys, and I’ve always had this idea in my head that without attention from guys and guys being attracted to me, I wasn’t very worthy. I would never think that about someone else. Just wanted you to know it’s not just you <3
1 likecan I just say how absolutely GORGEOUS her hair is 🥺💖
0 likesyou are so loved. you have helped my healing and my living so much. thank you I have a mental illness that is a lot you are so helpful. Gentle, alive. Thank you.
0 likesdodie posts
23 likesme: hehehhehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehhe
I think this was a really beautiful little bit of information. We aren’t wondering more, we just wanted a little check up on how our Dodie’s been. I just hope she didn’t feel like we felt entitled to know anything, I just want her to feel compelled to share because she wanted too. Sending love!
0 likesThis video my be my favorite video I've watched today, it made my day. Thanks!
0 likesThis is a very beautifully done video. 🥺
0 likesThanks for introducing us to your new flat mates. They seem lovely. You've come a long way looking in from the outside.
0 likesthe dodie dots aah 🥰
8 likesJust keep on being you :) Love your videos and songs!
0 likesgah thank u for the little peek into how you have been doing as of late. i love u!! can’t wait for the album :’) <33
0 likesEven across the world, even though we do not know each other, you sharing helps me hear it all clearly within my own life.
0 likesI am so happy you are surrounded by people who love and support you!!! HECK YEAH!
Thank you again for sharing and for being so present. I started making music because of you, and I am really just so grateful for your presence on YouTube in all of its forms ❤️
ahhh new video every thursday this is great thursday’s are draining for me bevasue they are my therapy days and we just started on trauma work after going to this therapist for three years
0 likesI have never been this early to a videoooo
3 likesDodie's videos and the comment section is so therapeutic❤
0 likesabout talking with your inner child: that part made me cry. thank you for remind me to be more kind to my own inner child.
0 likesThank you for your raw and open honesty. If you are looking for your next read, try "Illusions" by Richard Bach. It's the kind of book that reads differently for everyone. Thanks again for sharing. Take care and be well. Oh, and Happy Birthday :-)
0 likesI watched this video the day it came out, I think, or the next day. And since then I have thought about the quote "As a woman, I worry that if I'm not tiny and flexible and fuckable then I am nothing" every. single. day. A lot. Especially every time I've gone out. It is a terrible thing to admit indeed, but it's so special to hear my own feelings (and undoubtedly the feelings of countless women) put into such honest and true words.
0 likesBYE NOT THE KATY PERRY HAIRCUT
3 likesThis is so peacefully powerful and I love it
0 likesDodie I have been watching you since 2015. I was also 15-16..now I'm a few weeks away from 21 and I have watched you grow and your videos and songs have helped me get through so much in life. In a way you have been like this internet big sister through watching your stuff and following you on social medias, kind of there to be like "hey it's going to be okay, I have survived this and you will too".
0 likesIts really been incredible to watch you grow as an artist and I'm so so excited for Build a Problem!
Awh Dodie, you are loved and appreciated
0 likesi find lots of comfort in participating in dodie's journey along with her, even just as an observer. she is my all-time favourite not-youtuber and musical artist. i've liked her since 2018, although i truly found her in 2020, which did indeed hit me like a truck. things progressively got worse and worse for my mental health as i became the villain in the stories of the people most important to me, and i seeked solace in the echoes of dodie's music and that 1% of her story that she's shared. i've found many similarities in her and i, although that might just be me projecting, but it comforts me. i remember, for a moment, daydreaming as if she was my future self, and it made me feel like i'd be okay. she's not perfect, she still struggles lots, but she's carried herself through and those flaws of hers make her a wonderous being. overall, dodie has really helped me to find myself and get through my own journeys. i'm glad you're still here, and i'm thankful for every moment u spend sharing yourself with us <3
0 likesI love that you’ve found your inner child and you talk to her. I refer to myself in the 3rd person a lot because, as women, I find that we’re more likely to stand up for someone else than ourselves. So, it helps me to do that. (i’m also probably crazy and she get that checked out, but i do it and it’s working so i’m rolling with it)
0 likesI feel like this is my favortie video of dodie and it's not even music. But I feel like I needed to hear these things right now.
1 likeIm having a mental health day after having an awful breakdown last night and seeing this today was so comforting. Like Dodie knew I needed this even though she didnt cause she doesnt know me this still felt like a chat and a check-in with a friend :,)
0 likesSending you all the love Dodie xx
0 likesYou can share as much or as little as you want with us, it’s your own thoughts and feelings and we all deal with things differently. I’m sure no matter what you choose to do you will be overwhelmed with support and as long as you’re as happy as you can be everything will be alright.
0 likesThis applies to everyone. X
I wish I could like a video 1 million times. Thank you for sharing xx
0 likesI didn’t really grow up with boundaries either and it’s something I struggle with too. So I appreciate your 1% that you chose to share because it reminds me of how I’ve been trying to reduce how much I share with others
0 likesI’ve had so many of these thoughts recently. Glad I’m not alone.
0 likes3:05 not me thinking she's gonna piece together the lyrics to air so sweet in her videos secretly like she did with arms unfolding
0 likeshi dodie :) you are fab. i am working on complex ptsd and have derealisation too. you are doing amazingly. i know what it feels like to not see yourself as the amazing person you are while your friends see this beautiful flower infront of them. you are amazing <3 thank you for being you :)
0 likesI usually don't comment on videos but I've been following you since the beginning. I really appreciated the video you posted and even now. I love seeing you be so honest a raw even if it is just a slice. It's so comforting to see that I'm not the only one experiencing trauma or dark moments. So thank you for that 💕 I'm really excited for your album to be released, congratulations dodie
0 likesI also recently found some writing from when I was a kid and I really understand how it can be helpful but also really screw with you. I forget that I am a person with traits and things that make me me and it helped me to remember that, which in turn really helped me to talk to myself nicer and giving myself a break as if I am talking to my younger self and taking care of her. But it is also very sad to think about everything that version of me has yet to go through and how she has yet to see how our family is, as you said, "a fake truth of a family" just waiting to shatter.
0 likesI find dodies music and videos so warm and comforting, and dodie as an artist has meant so much to me with becoming a teenager ,since I was about ten Ive been watching dodies videos, and listening to all of her music, im 14 now so I know I haven't been watching for as long as some viewers out there but dodie really really inspired me to start learning instruments and posting YouTube videos even though I was a bit self conscious about myself when I first posted, but I really love it now and watching dodie as a young woman be able to make music and release stuff and be awesome really made me want to do music properly. p.s the dodie fandom are really lovely
0 likesgod, we are all so human and I LOVE THAT, even though it's tiring most of the time
0 likesThank you for sharing this....growing up feels scary.
0 likesSo much you can be proud of. Strong and talented in so many ways. Hope you have a great 26th birthday when it rolls around too 🥳. Oh and being tiny and flexible isn’t everything (actually in the grand scheme of things, they’re the least important traits); just be happy being you and you’ll find the people who matter 👌
0 likesThis was so reassuring. As someone who struggles with derealization/depersonalization, this was such a moment.
0 likesgod dodie i wish i had more words to give you but let me say how much i appreciate the honesty. as someone who is sorting through their own trauma and getting the help i really do need it's videos like this that make me realize that i am not alone 🥺
0 likeshello dodie! i suffered from horrendous derealization for 6 months a few years ago and my advice is to just stop thinking about it, i know it’s the opposite of what you should do with any other mental illness but give it a try! it may take a while to work, but it worked for me:)
1 likei'm struggling with my inner child and that little part of the video ripped a sob out of me so fast
0 likesHey Dodie. I really hope you're doing well with all the stuff going on. As a subscriber for over four years, I'm really glad that I got to watch you grow the way you have. Yes I'm only seeing your highlight reel and only some of the behind the scenes. But I appreciate seeing anything that you'll give us. Sending my love ❤️
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1 likeI'm so grateful for this video for too many reasons to count, each one individually too long to explain
0 likesIt’s nice to find someone who is very real. I have some similar problems and it’s quite therapeutic to hear another perspective after being in my own fog of nastiness for so long : D
0 likesThis is lovely dodie thank you
0 likesi know you probably get this all the time but i’ve never related to anyone as much as you dodie and my parents divorce / childhood trauma made it both super difficult and weirdly perfect to look back on old video tapes. I just wanted to say thank you for exposing your self doubt to the world because it’s really brave and every time i get spiraly or depersonalised i think about how much you try to be at one with it and it seriously helps. stay wonderfully true to yourself and your inner child 🌈✨
0 likesThanks so much for sharing; so much to relate to.
0 likesYou help me get in touch with my authentic self... I am a bit lost and tired these days and you lift my vulnerable, soft and artistic side... Thank you for all the years of good music dodie.. I don't have enough words to describe how much you helped me express my feelings in difficult times.. I really appreciate you❤️🙏
0 likes"It's so weird that I only apply that to myself" OMG my internal monologue in a nutshell 😅
0 likeswhen you talked about loneliness, i felt so seen. so for anyone feeling the same way, I thought i'd share a quote from nina varela's iron heart that really resonated with me:
0 likes" "I am always lonely", said Junn. "My heart, if I have one, is a house of empty rooms and empty halls. My thoughts and footsteps echo. Sometimes I feel like a guest in the house of myself. But sometimes, someone's footsteps cross my floor, and that is enough. These days, I luxuriate in my loneliness. I walk through my empty halls naked and singing." Her smile hadn't slipped. "What I really wanted was a reason to stay," she said. "And I got what I wanted."
Crier frowned. "Stay... in the palace?"
"Hm. Anywhere," said Junn." "
my 2013 heart is so warm. thank you for sitting down with us and just chatting. I missed that.
0 likesWe love you Dodie girl. ❤️
0 likesI totally feel you on the whole putting standards on yourself that you don't put on others situation. I think about it all the time.
0 likesDodie 😭 your album comes out the last day of my finals for school. I’m sad it’s got pushed back, but I least I get that gift 💝 I love you pal
0 likesi want to see more baby dodieeee she's so cute :) love you! <3
0 likesA slice of my our honesty: build a problem will be coming out 3 days after my birthday now and that makes me even more excited than when I was coming out originally 😊 happy little accidents yeah?
1 likei dont know what to say to 7 minutes of wise words, this is just message of support to you doodie ❤️
0 likesYour situation or maybe your life makes me... a bit sad. It hurts to know that you're hurting because of this complex stuff that happened and keeps happening in your life. Though, it makes me relieved because I now know that I'm not the only one dealing with these problems.
2 likesI have been a fan of yours for 5 years now and I always re watch your older chatty videos when i’m feeling sad. you always manage to put into words what I feel and seeing someone understand so deeply is such a huge comfort to me. I always have and always will find everything about your online precence, through your videos, music or even just your instagram posts insanley comforting. you were there for me through my move from my childhood home and bullying and being so achingly lonely to some of the best days of my life and i am eternally greatful to you for that. Thank you for this video dodie, it means the world
0 likesDodie, I also have DPDR and I have found Jordan Hardgrave. He has led many people to 100 percent recovery. I am currently working on the program. I hope we can all get through this. I am excited to see where it goes.
0 likesI struggle with reality as well, but my time within its grasp is soon done. As someone leaving it soon with an undeserved good ending as it were, I must say, life was entirely worth it for me. You are lovely and talented in ways many of us cannot be. Enjoy it as best you can. Much love
0 likesHonestly, I've only ever seen you as an artist. You're one of the most artsy artists I listen to since your music is laced with feelings. To me your music is the kind where you get a picture or create a story in your head and you lose the sense of reality for a while.
0 likesI get not feeling valid though. But there is a reason there are people constantly wanting to keep seeing where your journey will go.
We come for the music, we stay for the dodie vibes.
I understand the 'YouTuber' title dilemma, I do. But personally, and probably selfishly, I would be sad if I couldn't refer to Dodie as a YouTuber anymore because she elevates the very meaning of the term.
1 likeIt is crazy how much I resonate with so many things that she touched upon here eventhough I am a different person, living in a different country with a completely different life. It does feel somewhat comforting that there are other people in this world dealing with similar things and still finding a way to live on
0 likesI just want to let you know how beautiful your energy is.
0 likesYour old uke videos deffo make feel a part of an online family that I quite enjoyed ☺️ x
0 likeson the same page with the derealization. thanks for this reminder that other people go through it, can forget about that sometimes. makes me feel a little less detached.
0 likesIm literally crying because this is so fucking relatable to my life and I have self diagnosed depression and it has been so hard not telling my parents and friends about it because my mom and dad will just say your growing up or it’s just a phase and you’ll get over it but it’s not that at all to me. I have this inner circle where no one knows about or can get into in my brain except me and that spot hold my deepest secrets like this one and you are like my mentor for helping me deal with it even though you don’t know it. To me my favorite song to listen to when I struggle with it is your song called Burned Out which is one of my favorite songs in the entire world so thank you for sharing this with us it means a lot!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️
0 likesI think you''re truly awesome <3
1 likeI needed this so much. Thank you.
0 likesshe's like the wise and jaded older sis I always wish I had and really could've used
0 likesI relate to you a lot.
0 likesI have since I was 15 and I know that as a content creator it's important to feel like you should be relatable and that might have effected that but I still stand by that for almost 6 years whenever you let us in for a minute I go
"Holy shit someone else is saying this and she's prettier and smarter then me so I must be less hard on myself because she thinks the same way and yet I know it's not true."
I present as a man since I have not even started mtf therapy but I do seriously look at you and go "wow, that's the standard of a woman I want to be... Wait there's no such thing so why am I emparting that onto you?" So then I'm left checking myself.
Also yeah being the villain in other people's stories I 100% understand and similarly due to a lack of understanding boundaries.
Its just so nice to know someone as beautiful and inspiring as you still feels as shitty as me.
Thank you for your honesty and I hope you heal same as I do.
hi dodie i also struggle with similar things sending you my love 💙 here's a nice quote from doctor strange “We never lose our demons, we only learn to live above them.”
0 likesThose screenshots of your older videos felt like a splash of nostalgia when I first got into your channel back in 2012. Haha
0 likesYou honestly make my day
0 likesI'm constantly managing my CPTSD & dissociation, and reassing my comfort with it. Elohim called MI "waves," and I continue to find that accurate. Waves come, waves go. Mid-20's-sexuality is a whole mess: You're not alone in the "yearning-detachment" of it. ✌
0 likesI can relate so much with your story.
0 likesSo many stories and lyrics from you give me chills since I can feel them. It is not easy to deal with complex trauma and I give you a huge shoutout to deal with it the way you do.
I am shy to write about where I can connect with you since this is a public space - also admitting that this might not even be read by you but maybe by someone else.
Just be known: I know how it feels to slide from anxiety to panic to depression, for me it is because of unresolved traumatic experiences - which are currently resolved and the root of the pain is being healed. So I am on a very good way for living my personal potential to the fullest and have overcome panic and depression already.
I am sure, you can do this - as we all can .
Much love!
for me you are a musician, that got known through youtube and shares her life now and then through youtube to adress her fans and do like this kind of fan-artist interaction. share what you want to share, and dont share what you do not want to share. nobody runs around and talks about there deepest feelings and anxieties.
0 likeshi :))
0 likesit's nice to get an update, thank u for sharing dodie x
looking forward to BAP
from about September-December of last year, i was in a terrible dissociative & depressive episode. I couldn’t imagine feeling like that again & frankly I’m scared it if ever happens again. I salute you for being so strong, I don’t know that I could ever do that.
1 likeWhat you described is so similar to what I feel I related to a lot of what you said, thanks for sharing now I feel slightly less alienated
0 likesit is so interesting to hear your thoughts
0 likesthank you
dodie i love you so much thank you for sharing :))
0 likesDodie, the way you spoke about depression reminded me of the song 'the darkness' from crazy ex girlfriend (aka the best series of all time)
0 likesWe love you dodie <3
1 likei really admire your slice of honesty, it’s hard to put yourself out there. i think many people forget that we are all human, with the same range of emotions. trauma is a powerful suppressor. i’ve found that my favorite content out there is those who speak their truth. you and other creators inspire me to push outside the box, and be truthful with myself and others. looking forward to hearing more from you.
0 likesI needed this. Thank you 😭
0 likesLove you dodie, keep safe xxx
0 likesthe aesthetic is WONDERFUL. so warm and cozy. thanks for sharing
0 likesOh wow, this was a gem of a video to watch. Sometimes you don't realise the depth of another persons life when you're so wrapped up in your own. @doddleoddle you showed incredible strength in making this and I'm sure your fans will feel closer to you for watching this. Also no doubt others will have found validation in their struggles by you sharing yours. Keep giving your best to the world it's much appreciated!
0 likesthe stuff you said about taking care of your inner child made me tear up, gosh i wish i could go back in time and just hug my child self.
0 likesi say this like ...all the time but i'm literally so fucking proud of you i can't express just how proud i am in a youtube comment but sometimes it just hits me that i grew up with you online and we're both such different people now and you're just so inspiring, relatable, beautiful, and strong. I'm so soso soso fucking proud of you dodie :'-)
0 likesDont be sad dodie it's okay to be depressed everyone goes through this and you are really fun to hangout with so dont let yourself about what others think of you that really helps.
0 likesWhen your face fell at the end I felt that... Some of us go about our days trying to put on a brave face but sometimes even we can't wait for the camera to cut before the mask falls off.
0 likesThis felt very therapeutic, dodie's voice is the only asmr I enjoy
0 likesI'm so so so happy you were willing to share your dissociation and are so open about it. If it wasn't for your first video opening up about it, it probably would've taken me and my therapist so long to figure out my own dp/dr because I thought it was NORMAL (which it is, but the fact that not everyone sits in a room feeling like everything is fake from time to time shook me). So thank you for being honest about your mental health. So much. Its really helped me to start healing sooner than I would have. Love, a fellow spacey gal. 💛
0 likesI can not tell you how many times I watched "angry". It was one of videos that helped me leave my abuser. Thank you Dodie for you vulnerability I know all too much about growing up with no boundaries. You did a really good job. I hope you can rest soon and grow more memories with boundaries 💓
0 likesI love this little slice of honesty :) think I should do this too
0 likesIt is so adorable how you look exactly the same as you did as a child I am unrecognisable
0 likesThis was a very refreshing slice of honesty ☺️ though not everything is perfect, you seem like you are in a healthier place and mindset compared to when you did youtube full time. I don't know if that's actually true, but I hope it is ❤️
0 likesthe comfort i feel in having dodie videos again,,, mmm v nice
0 likesngl i was a little curious about the flat situation cuz i've noticed her bedroom is different esp with the window placement but i'm just glad to hear dodie is doing well and living her best life with friends
0 likesI just want to say that your pain and feelings and struggles with trauma are all very extremely valid (struggles isn't the best word but I'm bad at words). I also love the stuff you said about your past on youtube. I always get excited about your music when it comes on on my Spotify because I remember when I used to have some of the videos of your songs downloaded so I could listen to them offline, and so my heart gets so happy seeing your music more widely in the world now. Your music carries so much meaning for me and has helped me so much in my life. Plus, your song Human was literally my older brother and his wife's first dance song at their wedding. All in all, I just want to thank you for everything you do. You have a beautiful soul, and it's almost like you inspire joy into the hearts of everyone who hears you💜💜💜
0 likesI do the same thing of talking to my child self and it's the most powerful tool I have in my toolbox to gain and maintain stable personal happiness.
0 likesYou're such a wonderful, beautiful human being. Trauma is such an awful thing to get through and heal, you'll get there, no matter how long it takes - you've got this!! Remember that you're fabulous, so kind, so wholesome loved by so many and have such a loving energy about you. Thank you for sharing your troubles, for being vulnerable, for being you. You are perfect as you are. Thank you for being you ❤
0 likesThis is so wonderful I love this video so much
0 likesYou should know you helped me understand that my first boyfriend was abusive much good has been done by you
0 likesSorry to hear about the push-back of your album release date. We are here for you always
1 likedodie i love you you help me reconnect with myself
0 likesDodie, your videos where you talked about your depression and derealisation really helped me process my depression and put a name to an experience I have grown up with and experienced all my life. So, thanks for that. I wouldn't say I'm friends with my depression though...
0 likesIt's more like a flatmate I don't particularly like or hate. We live together, and sometimes we happen to hang out, but it's never planned... We just sort of end up together. And every time we do, even though I don't like them, there's something about them that just feels a little bit like home.
When you were a young angry teen sharing your hurt online I watched you because I was also a young angry teen who shared my hurt online and desperately wanted someone to understand. Now I'm a early 20's something going through the process of growing and healing, so its very nice to see that even after all these years you are growing and healing with me. <3
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0 likesIf you would value validation as an artist, I listen to your music because of the beauty of the lyrics, the intelligent observation, the clean tone and the wonderful sense of melody and harmony. You are just as good as the other artists I turn to for what art does, talks beyond words (so forgive the words). They are geniuses widely acknowledged, and little people little known, dead 200 years and living still, they are poets and authors, and have this in common: they have an ability to transcend with their bravery, honesty, willingness to speak their truth with transparency. Thank you. To this insignificant human, at least, you are an artist, and I am grateful for your gift. Keep speaking beyond your words, keep singing beyond the music, for it is helping and it is a rare gift.
0 likesThis was lovely!
0 likeshoooWEEE i was not expecting for this to be as validating as it was tytytytyty for this
0 likesbut also PLEASE don't feel pressure to continue to share/share more just to help others you gotta help yourself first okAY BESTIE OKAY ILY GN
this makes me wish i could talk to you for real, like actual friends. Kind of a beautiful two way mirror tho.
0 likesi have to admit i dont watch youtube as much as i used too n im pretty busy starting my twenties haha, but its nice to click on one of your videos when it pops up now and then. It feels like catching up with someone i just havent seen in a while. mad life
0 likesI don't even know if you will read this but: Dodie, I want to say thank you for beeing so kind with us and for talk about personal topics. Is great to see a wondefull artist beeing such a great person. In this times of fakeness, insecurity, fear and lonlyness you provide us a safety place where we can grow up with a little bit more of confident. I just want to say thanks to you for beeing . Greetings from Chile.
0 likeslove hearing from you!
0 likesthank you so much for sharing, i love you to bits <3
0 likesdidnt expect to cry today lol, when u talked ab ur inner child i CRIED so much
0 likesI actually liked listening to the old ukulele tunes when I first "found" Dodie on YouTube. It's probably not very PC to say this, but one of my favorites was that one with Dodie's little sister "Paint" which is about using make-up. I just think it was such a fun song and has a memorable melody... I laugh a little every time I happen to hear it when it shows up in my YouTube mix.
0 likesWhy is every dodie vlog like when you're on a night out and you end up listening to a girl for hours and hours, completely fascinated by her and everything she's got to say, it's the most chilled you've been in your whole life, and you really don't want it to end; then it's like 6am and shit it's getting fucking light outside! XD That, and also, you know for a fact that if she read your tea leaves she would map out the entirety of your life...and be RIGHT.
0 likesholy crap, 5:31 this hit me so hard because this is what i've been struggling with. everyone can be kind, but do i have enough strength to prove to other people that we can be?
0 likesI've never thought to talk to my child self before. What a beautiful and nurturing idea...I think I'll do this when I'm having depressive moments 💛 I stuck a picture of me at 3 years old by my mirror - I would recommend. Thank you for your honesty, Dodie.
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1 likeYou are so brilliant and have really helped me describe my derealisation better and be happier. Thankyou❤️❤️❤️
0 likesI am a random person on the internet, and I have an opinion about dodie!
0 likesI think she is a talented, funny, smart, beautiful woman, who fights bravely against inner and outer demons. Dodie is a badass.
These comments are so lovely, I hope you're all taking care of yourselves <3
0 likesThank you for this.
2 likesTi voglio bene <3
baby dodie is the cutest little nugget oh my lord 🥺
0 likesIf I had to guess, and please know I say this out of compassion and not as a gotcha, I would guess that the truest slice of honesty is at 6:52 - 6:56. I know that moment of dropping the mask you put on for others' sake.
0 likesBTW, Dodie, if you're actually reading this, I suffered from a period of derealization myself. It still comes back periodically. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, even people who have been shit to me. It's been ... well, I don't want to say nice, because there's nothing nice about your having it ... but nice to see someone else talk about it. I appreciate that you do. <3
I'm so sorry to hear that your album's release was pushed back (( But also I'm shining to know that it'll come out on my birthday ☺️ I love you so much as an artist and as a person and your I can't think of more exciting thing as living through your music stepping in my 21st year of life - I wish you sunshine during this though times and believe with all my heart that soon enough life will bring you wounderfull flights 💛💛💛
0 likesI found you on Spotify first, then found your YouTube when I googled you...my thought process was you were a singer that did YouTube on the side. Had no idea you started on here
0 likesI wish I could have the same emotional release you're experiencing now with your ab*ser. When i reached out to his girlfriend to warn her, she didnt believe me. I don't think their relationship was bad the way ours was, which makes me feel more crazy... now we're going to the same college, & i debate trying to talk to him everyday as closure. im glad ur getting urs, I hope i get some too.
0 likesI currently have derealisation 24/7 for 3 years I wish u all the best it is nice to know that I’m not the only one going through this
0 likesHi dodie! a 4-year subscriber here! I dunno if you'll notice this but, I've been a silent fan from ph, coming back to you every now and then I remember how comforting it is to watch your vlogs and mvs is one of the few moves I do everytime I need someone to be just there. Your songs, your vlogs happy or not, and your sooooothing voice hahahah and most specially you as yourself helped me in overcoming rough areas in life, thank you.
0 likesps: you inspired me to play ukelele
pss: I'm still finding my fav video of yours where you talk abt being scared of growing up
psss: Cheeers to more of what's to be discovered!
You are such a beautiful honest person you are such a valid person you are a beautiful woman in every way inside and out love you so much dodie that person that abused you took you for granted and lost a precious sweet person
0 likesI think that's such an amazing way to think about that. "I'm the villain in at least 10 people's stories." We definitely affect people in different ways and for different things, even bad things. Sometimes we do bad things and it sucks but if it wasn't pure evil, then we have a right to move on from them, too.
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Learn from, grow, and move on from* those bad things.
0 likesWhat a beautiful video. So much one would want to say to you but it'd just be a buzz in the comments. Good luck with therapy and hope you work things out!
0 likesIt's impossible to be supportive and effective with a comment here. The complexity of a simple message. The necessity of not being misunderstood.
0 likesJust "thanks for the honest talk. It always keeps people closer. I hope you can feel it a bit. Have a great day dodie"
Random guy on the internet <3
I needed this. I've feel like dodies been very distant lately when I'm trying to get hyped for the album. I completely understand why she's distancing herself from the term "youtuber" though. Labels f-ing suck
0 likesI have Derealization and I'm so thankful for this video ❤️
0 likesI have Derealization and I'm so thankful for this video ❤️
0 likesdodie, you shush!
1 likeYou’re beautiful and fantastic and I have a major crush on you and I know that I will never know the real you and that’s fine and we love you
I cannot even say how much you talking about depersonalisation/derealisation has helped me. Knowing that there are other people out there makes it feel a little less lonely so thank you :)
0 likesI don't think you're a youtuber... you are dodie. Thank you for sharing more than most others and healthily doing so! I honestly haven't watched a vlog of yours in a while and just decided on a whim to watch this one... glad I did... I also hope that you continue on the path with your depression/anxiety/derealization towards a space that feels less unpredictable and hectic. Having to learn who you truly are and at the same time build a 'new you' from the core through therapy is exhausting. I hope you are as well as you can be and I can't wait to have fun with my friends at a concert of yours! (I should mention as I'm writing this that I'm thinking of all the wrong words I might've use and that is why I'm going to end it now. :P) Truly a gem of a human <3
0 likesDodie, you'll never read this but you are such a special and beautiful human being.
1 likeI identify so much with EVERYTHING that you've said. It's so Crazy 'cause I've been following you since i was 15 (now i am almost 21, yikes!) and I have also been to your concert in Milan.
I've struggled with anxiety, derealisation and depression as well.
Next week, after thinking i finally got rid of that shit I'm going to recover in a mental health hospital, and I'm so scared even if i know it's the right thing.
Love you a lot, take care sweet soul.
Lot's of love, Isabella.
I love those types of videos.
0 likesAs someone who was never taught a lot about mental health, people or relationships, I don't understand myself and am terribly anxious around others.
Consequently, others are my source of information on how to manage relationships, thoughts and feelings. But people don't open that easily about those things, so this types of videos (and songs :3) are ways for me to learn and better understand myself and others.
I'm forever grateful to be able to watch his. Hearing you admit you were villain to other people without slandering yourself, I may be able to believe it's ok to live fully, even if it means hurting others.
And God, I so wish I could do music.
I know you stopped posting these types of chats because you felt you were oversharing but this felt different to before - like a really well thought out, measured update coming from a place of just the right amount of emotional stability and vulnerability. It's been really reassuring to have you share thoughts many of us have ourselves and inspires conversations that are greatly needed.
0 likesI appreciate the honesty. As you said. It is a world of show. I like that not everyone feels the need to put on a show ALL the time.
0 likesDodie. Word for word. Hard relate. Big respect for doing what you need to do for you, sharing what you feel comfortable sharing and holding onto what you want to keep private. You're incredible, we are the generation that are learning to heal ourselves x
0 likeshave had a rubbish few mental health days, this video was like a virtual hug, thank u :)
0 likesThanks for sharing dodie!
0 likesThis may sound weird but this video is my favourite on the internet right now.
0 likesglad u shared with us in ur own discretion! <3
0 likesThanks for defending your younger self and also looking at her honestly, that is really cool to see. I think that both are a kindness to yourself, I hope. Gee the nervousness about friend families shifting did hit a little bit though. I am angry often that I cant just scoop up all of my friends and have them all in the same place at the same time eating the same food with the same music. I hate the chapter divisions of my life so far! I want it all at once!
0 likesI refuse to wait for my wedding (which may not happen)
or my funeral (which will be hard for me to enjoy I think)
to have my dream. But it's nice to be reminded that I can enjoy the friends I have immediately around me right now and not feel guilty.
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Ahaha !! Do it! After panny d ofc
1 likeBut why not! Have a fake wedding
I know the feel tho
🖤
thank you for sharing this. 🥺
0 likesOh wow! Your album is coming out on my birthday now!!
0 likesI wish you peace in your mind. A lot of what you're thoughts are, in my opinion, are normal for a 20-something year old. Just think by the time you figure out this internal questions you hit your 30s and you get a whole new set. 😜
0 likesThank you for making me feel less alone...
0 likesMan I do really cherrish getting life updates from Doodie in my recommended feed
0 likesyou exude so much comfort, thank you
0 likesThis might mean nothing to you, but when you were showing clips of your younger self I found myself giving me a hug. My BPD and depression have been bitches to me this week and that was a reminder that sometimes I need to take care of myself as if I was still that little kid because I need that sometimes.
0 likesThen I saw you were hugging yourself, too. It was really comforting, as everything you upload. Thank you <3
I don’t really know what to say except that I’m glad I found your channel
0 likesWas recently talking about this kind of loneliness with a friend. It is kind of validating hearing that those thoughts are shared by someone else outside of my circle, so I'm glad you brought it up Dodie. As an underclassman in college, the older I get the more I get concerned about my 'bodily loneliness' as well, but when I tried comforting my friend I realized that I should probably give myself that same kindness...
0 likesAhhh man!!! Your an absolute hero!!! If I was 10 years younger 😜😜😜
0 likesthe little snaps and claps at the beginning brought me back and i love it so much
0 likesi love you and im so proud of you
0 likesThis was amazing, and honest. And amazingly honest. And Amazing BECAUSE honest.
0 likesThis made me cry. In the best way.
0 likesCompletely relate to feeling lonely whilst having friends
0 likes2:53 ok wow I didn’t know anyone else thought that way•_•I feel so...refreshed ? I’ve been vibin with Dodie for years but I’m relating on a whole new level rn
0 likesYou’re so beautiful and strong and honest. You’re doing better than you think love xx 🥰
0 likesSo strong of you to be honest and speak for such personal things that trouble you. Sorry you are going and went through some tough times. Love you dodo
0 likesI’m dealing with derealization/depersonalization as well. It sucks. I love your voice, honesty and style. Any tips for finding/making friends? I’m not very good at it:( I’m lonely as well and don’t have any friends really.
0 likesThe most delightful voice to listen to
0 likesThis video is quite real, thanks for uploading it
0 likes"You can use those words" "WE can use those words." Ugh that is POETRY to me as a survivor.
0 likesthank you for the captions dodie :))
1 likeforgot how healing dodie's voice is
0 likesHearing about your little flat family lights up an almost smothered ember of belief that I can find some sweet humans to live with too.
0 likesI couldn't stop looking at her eyes and eyelashes 😍. They are so beautiful!
0 likesI couldn't help but tear up a bit in the youtube part, because it's so fuckin trueeeeee. You grow up, you learn things, every step is valid, maybe i needed to hear that..... So thanks and u doing amazing sweetieeeee
0 likesI really appreciated this x
0 likesDodie is, uhm sexy
0 likes26 going on 27
Depression is a constant struggle and its difficult realizing youve truly been a villain in other peoples story, why "monster" resonates with me and helps me cry, Hope you continue to grow Dodie, hugs
it probably doesnt matter to anyone but i love the dodie we see today :)
0 likesGreat vid! Sounds like you have amazing housemates.
0 likesstay hydrated tiny dodie <3
0 likesEU TE AMO, MULHER, ENTENDA
0 likesYou are wonderful wackadoodle please never change xxx
0 likesbaby dodie warms my heart omg
0 likesthat thing about taking care of the child inside you. yeah that broke me. that’s. i should probably start doing that. thank you.
0 likesSo iv commented on a total of 2 of your vids dodie (altho been following you for years). The reaction to 20 vid and now this one. Because I felt compelled both times to tell you how refreshing it is to see your growth and honesty shining on camera. You are truly brave. Much respect and love to you 💕🥰
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♥!!!
1 likei relate to the not letting yourself use the right labels thing SO MUCH. i constantly feel guilty using the word trauma for my past experiences. i'm glad to see im not the only one that is going through / that went through not letting themself use the fitting labels
0 likesIt's okay to feel lonely, you don't need to justify it - you can feel lonely but still not be alone
0 likesinternal loneliness yeah i feel that too, i wish you healing 🥺💛
0 likesYou are a very honest person. I hope that is something that never changes.
0 likesYour a wonderful beautiful ball of emotions. Xx
0 likesthe old footage of you made me cry, just thinking about younger me and how she would see me today/think of me today :')
0 likesevery video you make is so comforting
0 likesIt might just be me imagining something but I have the feeling that you’re singing while talking 🤣
0 likesWhat you said about loneliness hit kinda hard.
0 likesBut what can you do. I love you.
I feel the same kinda way about seeing childhood videos. I'm like. Wow! Parents. What's that like?
0 likesI'm 26 and I totally relate to that very first statement of it sometimes not feeling right at all.
0 likes"My friends are still there." Very important to remember!
0 likesi really feel you on the whole 'seeing my child self helps but also triggers me' thing.
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and one of my abusive ex's exes is one of my best friends and has been for almost five years.
0 likesYou're being honest with us!!
0 likesi recently started playing the yje and i feel the same way dodes but it wasn't easy to learn and im decent at it and I'm getting better so thanks for the thing idk
0 likesit's wild to me that your new album is coming out the day before my 21st birthday
0 likesYou're album comes out the week my little baby is due. Just thought I'd say haha
0 likesThank you for the video, idk just felt like saying. Also, random, but your hair looks amazing.
0 likesi'm in a similar boat and i feel the same way as a male, but i keep reminding myself and believe in theres someone out there for everyone it takes time and effort to find them (or well that one lucky moment you come across somebody) - unfortunately this is not the time to go out and find these people.. some day
0 likesabout the exercise thing.. if you feel good and confident in your body, youre fine, but if you (really you not any standards set by whoever) aren't happy with your shape or weight, then it might be time to try and change something
Thank you for sharing. ♡
0 likesI think you're right saying that denying "youtuber" as an identity is being prissy about it. We are all multiple identities simultaneously and there's no way for everyone you interact with to know all of them, there's no problem with "youtuber" being just ONE of yours, alongside things like musician, big sister, abuse survivor, mental health advocate, goofball, etc., etc.
0 likesHearing you say that you treat yourself like your inner child when you’re struggling with your mental health brought me to tears. Hearing you say “I talk to her and say ‘what can I get you? Are you hungry?’” gave me a similar realization of something else that you mentioned; I realized “why don’t /I/ speak this way to myself when I’m hurting? Why do I only apply that to others?” It was an incredibly meaningful reminder, so thank you, dodie. And thank you for your raw, human, honesty. I know we are all thankful for you.
0 likesI've realised I've started talking to myself in a cruel way again, a lot of days it's just quietly whispering "what the fuck is wrong with you??" Whenever something from the past creeps up in my head. But talking to my child self instead could actually work lol.
0 likesGod damn it I can’t watch a dodie video without hearing bits that could be part of a song...
0 likesIt's almost like you were 20 yesterday, it's so weird watching someone you don't know grow up
0 likesnot that you owe it to anyone, but it genuinely helps so much to see someone else taking about the loneliness they feel in trying to work through trauma, i feel like i’m the only one out of my friends that has to do this and working on your mental health is so draining and isolating and you know it’s for a good reason but it all feels very lonely and seeing someone else just say that and not try to hide their sadness makes me also feel really validated and normal. i feel like i’m constantly trying to hide how difficult day to day life is for me because being happy seems like it comes so easily to everyone else
0 likesI’m genuinely in love with you.
0 likesthank you for sharing ❤️
0 likesI have a chro ic illness, im trying ukelele inspired by you ! I hope its accessible for my condition
0 likesAs someone who is trying to get her derealisation/depersonalisation diagnosed (and is currently yelling at the brick wall known as her GP about it) it’s kinda super comforting to know that you’ve found a way of handling it and that’s reassuring to me 💜🥺
0 likesmy favorite thing about dodie videos is all the comments of people resonating and pouring their hearts out to anyone who will listen. I remember when my only person to turn to was the comforting hug from the void that is a youtube comment section and im so happy that dodie has been that hug for 11 year old me as well as 17 year old me and every step of the way in between. this comment will be buried like all of the others but if you see this know that we love you, that i love you and that you are worthy of every good thing that you have and will recieve. life is still worth it even when the skies are grey <3
0 likeswatching baby dodie makes me sad even though i dont know her :(
0 likesthis one is deep.
0 likesI can't really say a word that would mean anything so, please do take care
Ps on a side note this kind of makes me feel empowered to try to deal with my on shit, because boy oh boy, here we are again...
Aww baby Dodie!! 🤗
0 likesDodie: looks like the same person since a baby
0 likesMe: Jealous
Is it strange that I likethese kinds of videos from you? Obviously I don't want you to feel like /this/, but it just makes me feel like someone else is going through many of the same things and I feel connected to that. I hope making them doesn't harm you. In any case, thanks for making this one. It makes me wish I had you as a friend, but I guess a lot of people feel that way about you. And by the way, if 2:45 ever happens again, you can tell those worries about the time a friend of mine asked me what girls I find really attractive and I showed them your channel. ( Writing that last sentence feels very on the edge of being an online creep, please know that I don't mean it to and I wouldn't have brought it up, if it hadn't been something you were talking about)
0 likesHave a nice evening :)
"we can use those words." 😭❤️
0 likesYou would be a great candidate for DBT therapy I think ❤️
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In the way that it’s amazing help for derealization and (I think) the best therapy
0 likesgod I related a little too hard I look back at videos of myself and how funny and weird and full of energy I was and I almost get mad I no longer feel that way like I had a talent and it got taken from me like a toy from like a naughty kid and then like a kid a through a temper tantrum but "that's just life" like that's not fair I don't know it's nice being validated every now and then
0 likesI know it likely doesn't help, coming from a stranger, but you don't have to worry about not being appealing to the gender you want to appeal to, whatever gender that may be. I have been in too many relationships that just ended in nothing because it was superficial. While appearances can be important, its not the most important factor. I can say, if you want to be objectified you will have no problems. I think you are beautiful, and all the words you used. I feel there is more worth than just those visual appeals. As for the exercise, I can relate. I am now 27, going on 28, and I definitely feel I don't get enough exercise. I have been going back out to the local park for a nice morning walk, to get those rays and just de-stress with my thoughts. Seeing nature just has a nice calming effect when you can see it up close. I know I can't talk to you, or even try to help with your worries. You may not even see this message. I do want you to know that there are thousands of us out here just wanting to support you and help you any way we can. I wrote so much that I got tears, joys. Anyway, I hope the days get better with time and that you only keep posting these videos if you want to. Don't feel we are owed this.
0 likesDodie you're voice is the only thing holding me down right now lol
0 likesmwah im so proud of you
1 likelove you dodie <3
0 likesMy ex-boyfriend (a good ex, would give him a good review if he ever needed one) once interviewed Martin at a gig at one of the smaller O2 venues (possibly Islington? Not sure). I was a slightly late plus one, and he seemed very lovely and normal when briefly introduced. I didn't know that you would be there, and I think you'd already performed when I arrived, and I remember seeing Evan and other familiar faces in the lobby, though I didn't dare say hello. And then after Martin Orla was on, and I fell in love! She was amazing live. No idea if you remember that evening as you have performed so many times before and since, but it's very nice that as musicians you are all connected and friends; the music world always seemed more competitive rather than supportive in the past, but what do I know?
0 likesIf I lived in Brittain and I knew you in person and there was no pandemic... Okay this is getting off the point... I would just want to give you a hug. Like the good healing kind, not the type you give to someone you just met but one of those from a close friend or partner where you can feel the other care for you in that moment that nothing else seems to matter anymore. Since all of the things above don't apply, please, for me, (if you want to of course) find someone to give you this kind of hug :) then I'll work on finding someone to do the same with over here
0 likesthis is so exciting for me too bc my birthday is May 6!!! so I feel like this is my countdown too c:
0 likesWishing you the best!
0 likesthat was so calming
0 likesYou being so honest is so fucking healing and validating for so many of us. Thank you. Also, there's a little boy in a red T-Shirt in one of your child videos who looks exactly like my little brother did, so that was cute!
0 likesMy parents recently bestowed upon me 12 boxes of my stuff that had been in the loft for between 13 and 17 years, so I really sympathize with how weird it is to confront who you once we're and to think if they'd like you. I almost don't recognise myself in my teenage diary entries - I'm definitely a better person now!
Sending much love xx
You are pefect sweetie. As this world is as it was intended with all it's uniqueness.
0 likesRelate to the 'whinning' feeling 💗
0 likeshi dodes! i think for one of these you should do another taylor swift cover😁
0 likesI do the thing where you take care of your inner child thing too! It's weird sometime, but it helps I guess :)
0 likesseriously i have nothing but love for this woman
0 likesAbout your mental health struggles, i really believe that practicing meditation/mindfulness is so crucial for all mental health problems - it is about developing a sense of yourself beyond your thoughts, as thoughts are really the carriers of human suffering. Developing a distanced and compassionate relationship to thought. I've suffered from dissociation and as i have committed to the practice of mindfulness i have seen it eventually begin to dissolve as a result of the lessening of my mental suffering. It is possible to experience consciousness beyond thought. There's a lot of information/teachings out there about it.
0 likesok wait i have a weird off topic comment/question
0 likesyour hair looks so nice and shiny and healthy in this video! do you have a hair routine or anything or does it just look like that lol.
ive always struggled with my hair so i’d really appreciate it 🤡
(if anyone in the comments also has any tips to make their hair look nice, please tell me your secrets lmao)
thank you for making this
0 likesi've never thought of dodie as a youtuber
1 likethis made me miss the innocence of being young
0 likesI think parenting your inner child is the most difficult and weirdest self-care thing a person can do (speaking from my experience at least)
0 likesMY LORD i love you dodes. Have the best day - love, me 💛
0 likesIk how hard it is for your album release to be pushed back. But May 7 is my birthday, and I can’t think of a better present. So thank you
0 likes"the fake truth of a family that shattered" i've never heard someone describe it so aptly before?? (even if our family shatterings are probably vry different/complex.) i've had a similar-ish feeling w child photos, knowing then-me had no idea what kinds of things were happening. u described it in a way that made me like! woah !! yes !!
0 likesI wish I could like this moe than once...❤️
0 likesits so nice to hear you talk up the ukelele girl trope. dont let anybody talk shit
0 likesif it helps dodie, I do see you as a youtuber but also many other things. As a mixed girl I totally get where you’re coming from about feeling like people put you in boxes, so you can only be one thing at a time but IT’S A LIE!! I can be black, and white, just like you can be one of my favourite youtubers and whole damn musician (that composes for beautiful 13 piece string sections 😭). You can own it all, b 💃🏽
0 likesBaby Dodie is so pure 😍
0 likesahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just like old times indeed. missed this format so much, it definately feels like a good thing
0 likesi really needed this today! thank u
0 likesI also feel a bit lonely on the inside. I miss my friends a lot. I wish I could go see them
0 likesThis video is so therapeutic for me
0 likesthis was very comforting
0 likesI love the way you speak and that artsy thing behind you so much
0 likesIt sometimes makes me feel lonely that I don’t find people who are like me; one of the perks of not being like everybody else. At the same time, I learned that it’s always better to be alone than have your loneliness increase by the presence of the wrong people. Now I feel like I’m doing the thing I should do in my life, and even without people around, I still feel very happy every day and live a fulfilled life :). Know yourself, find peace with your past and people, and focus on growth instead of goals; thanks what gave me the reasons to love living.
0 likesi love you dodie <3
0 likesI’m 62 and feel I’ve wasted my life trying to please others. I suffer with depression and anxiety. I lost my dog 3 weeks ago and have sunk dramatically since. I’ve also had some money stolen from my house. I’ve just spent 3 days looking at the wall. I’ve not even got dressed today. I wish I was 25 as I feel 62 is close to death for me. I live with suicidal thoughts and I feel I may do it one day. I come to bed at 7pm as there is nothing to stay up for. I do enjoy your music though. All I ever wanted was music. But let others ruin it for me.
0 likesYou don't need a box, but if "youtuber" is not right, "Artist" and "Storyteller" are. I could listen to you for hours.
0 likesI really felt that when you said that thing about 'Just a girl with a ukulele' ...
1 likeSend love! Respect your honesty through this crazy world of internet
0 likesso sorry there no magic pill, may be there couldn't be any magic pill for "happy" health state of mind, but i wish it could be
respect your strength to deal with everything everyday
Send love!! (to everyone who read this too!!)
I love her sm 🥺🥺
0 likesIt's really good to see you
0 likesMy god Dodie I love you so much I have no words
0 likesI've been together with my abusive ex for 3 years and he had a girlfriend after that for a long time (4 years?) and apparently she went through a bigger hell than I did. He has been in therapy for years now since they split up, it has been 10 years since he and I split up and I'm now 27, he is 29 and we are sort of friends!?
0 likesI heard your song I hate myself on radio 1 yesterday and it was so wild because I've been watching you on youtube since you were just making songs in your bedroom and it made me so proud of you I actually teared up a bit, so I'm glad you're living your life well and getting help for you mental health. love you<3
0 likesI'm so grateful to you
0 likesYour hair looks so healthy and luscious xxx
0 likesive found that the only way to fight brain foggyness to the point where it feels like you have contacts on and everythings in plastic wrap his might be dumb but i put like some 50p pure rose water on my face and that can make me feel more like a human. Also long term its the calling you find thats bigger than yourself to dampen it out. stay safe guysxxx
0 likesYou are the best you I have ever met and if it weren't too over the top creepy I would offer to just hang out on line with you. Skype, Zoom or whatever. But I'm almost 3 times your age and we would have to spend the first 10 years chatting about the different worlds we live in on either side of the pond. Keep doing the hard stuff as you can and give yourself permission to take a week off, or a month for that matter. 💛✨
0 likesThe thing about "friend family shifting" every few years but still being freaked about it... that is so real
0 likesThis video feels like the epitome of strong
0 likesOMG Little Dodie is the cutest thing!
0 likesThanks for that. I needed that today :)
0 likesI love your honesty
0 likesIt may be just me, but when I see you I think "if someone told me Dodie was closely related to Karen Gillan it wouldn't surprise me at all".
0 likesHow do I even know if i'm depressed or it's just my period, how do I even know if i'm just over reacting?
0 likesYour videos are so comfy!!
0 likesWill Build a Problem be on vinyl? Also most of the sentiments you have, I have as well. Glad you're breaking down walls where you can and being hoisted over overs when needed.
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the pre-orders for vinyl have been out for. while now! there is one on her website and then exclusives on both H&M and rough trade! 🎉
0 likes@adlixon PURCHASED! Thanks!
0 likesDodie,
0 likesHave you ever struggled with feeling like your mental health problems aren’t actually mental health problems but they’re just something YOU exclusively go through because of the way you have perceived things for a very long time, and your brain just overcomplicated it? Maybe that was too specific but I guess I mean like, have you ever felt like your mental health problems aren’t real because 1) you feel alone in it and 2) you felt like you brought it on yourself? Perhaps very slowly over the course of years? I don’t know. I guess I just relate to you when you talk about mental health and I don’t struggle with depersonalization but in a more broader way I still find myself relating to you a lot. Do you ever feel like there’s a deeper reason or meaning to your mental health problems that your brain tries to convince you, but you have to remind yourself it’s just your mental illness?
Idk, Dodie seems so lovely and good and like,, chooses that lovely and good? And it's so nice to see
0 likesAnyone gonna talk about how cuteeee baby dodie looks 🥰
0 likesDodie is so gorgeous - inside and out.
0 likesMORE BABY DODIE PLEEASE!!!
0 likesDodie, you saying about yourself that you may just be being “prissy” is again, sexist towards yourself. It’s a gendered term, and it is also you belittling your own label of yourself. Dammit, expect the respect you deserve. You’re not “prissy,” and you deserve to say “I don’t feel the box of ‘youtuber’ fits me,” without feeling like you have to walk back on it or defend/explain yourself. You be you. Stay strong, and thank you for the light you bring 💕
0 likesI think this is a new fave for so many reasons
0 likesUkulele is 11/10 the best instrument!
0 likesi feel like i've been growing with you
0 likesAlbums coming three days before my birthday hell yeah!!
0 likes5:31 YES ugh there are too many people in this world who would view someone who is a bit “overbearing” and “has no boundaries” it’s like THEY NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT A LOT OF THE REASON PEOPLE BEHAVE A CERTAIN WAY IS BECAUSE OF THEIR CHILDHOOD/TRAUMA/ETC and people just generally need to have more empathy UGH okay sorry
0 likesplease stay safe <3 im sending u all the love
0 likesWow, you're a great person
0 likesDerealioso! I made it up it means = I'm thinking of you and your depersonalisation, I appreciate you and your music, I admire you and I thank you.
0 likesThis was really touching
0 likes3:00 I feel that all the time
0 likesDodie one of your songs was used as background music in german love island lol
0 likesJust wanted to tell you, I thought maybe it's a little fun fact to brighten your day. :)
It's hard to listen to dodie talking about very serious subject, while being so pretty... I just want to focus on her magnificent hair, but her topic is to important
1 likeI love your make uuuup! you look stunning✨
1 likeAww mini Dodie ♥️
0 likesthank you for letting me cry
0 likes2:40
0 likesIt's probably like an internal loneliness... and a BODILY LONELINESS
OH LAWDY 🙃
the ukulele thing. I CRIED. a popular artist on youtube called Elise Ecklund inspired me to play the ukulele about 4 years ago when i was 11 and i loved it so much. i have three ukuleles of the three sizes but about two years ago i started playing guitar. i’m not as good on it- obviously- it’s a whole lot harder but my internalised sexism really just wiped the ukulele from my mind and i barely pick up either instrument now. joining my GCSE music class- of about 16 people, i learnt to realise not long ago that when i brought my ukulele into class, people were not making fun of me. people actually liked it. they thought i was so talented. i don’t care if i’m the “ukulele girl” because i know i’m a whole damn more than that. i’m going to pick up my ukulele this afternoon. not for anyone but myself.
0 likesYou are simply splendid.
0 likesI don't usually write comments, because I'll fuck up them with my English, but when videos of her childhood came I just felt how my eyes got filled with tears???? Like I'm not a constant watcher of Dodie's channel, but still she takes one little space in my heart and things she say are so meaningful for us though she speaks so casually and it always like an important chat with a friend about life. I don't know how I want to lead these thoughts, but damn.. thank you for just being yourself with all your flaws
0 likesI KEEP LISTENING FOR A SHIFT IN KEY BECAUSE OF WHEN SHE HID A SONG IN HER VIDEOS AND THEN I REMEMBER THAT IT'S LITERALLY BEEN YEARS WHAT-
0 likesyou looked so much like Matilda as a child. I like to believe that older Matilda would look like you
0 likesDoddie reminds me a girl that i met in the university, she is the most beutiful woman i ever seen in my life, for one thing or another nothing happen beetween us, but you never realize that for other people you represents more that you could understand, just like that girl to me
0 likesHopefully helpful reminder that loneliness doesn't necessarily have to come from isolation (although at the moment it probably does as well) but from feeling disconnected. Maybe you're not as close to the people around you as you want to be or maybe you are self-conscious and don't feel like you fit in or (speaking as a fellow spacey person) maybe you feel disconnected from your life or yourself in general.
0 likesI often feel lonely even when there are people close to me and I try to find comfort in knowing that they will be there, waiting for me, until I'm ready to reconnect.
Take care everyone 💛
Im digging this dodie in 4K thing
1 likeYou’re my favorite 🥰
0 likesthis video felt like a hug
0 likesI swear I’ve adapted your mannerisms so much
0 likesLeave a like if you think Dodie is the most precious being of our time!!
0 likesHey Dodie, if it's any consolation (and I know how annoying and unbelievable this sounds in the thick of derealization) there is an end to derealization/depersonalization!! I thought I'd never get out of it after five years but after talking to a councilor about some ~traumatic~ events that I had tried so hard to bury for years, it went away in the matter of a few weeks. When it's over you'll be so struck by the rawness and beauty of everything- it's so much more freeing than anything you can imagine whilst experiencing symptoms
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Waaaow! That’s what I’m trying! Am so happy for u <3
2 likes@doddlevloggle Thanks so much, it's been amazing! I always think about everyone experiencing it rn and I'm really routing for you all to overcome it 🖤 I'll be waiting for the day that you announce that it's gone, and until then good luck!
0 likesthe felt like catching up with a friend <3
0 likesthank you for everything. i love you!
0 likesill cheers to the women playing the ukelele stereotype being rooted in sexism. It's crazy how things that are accessible get bashed, especially in the hands of a young girl.
0 likes2:43 - you should join the "Guys posing in front of a mirror thinking they are sexy and buff or they're getting there"-club. And don't worry I can get you in, I'm the president.
0 likesMy (not really beer-)belly is in truth a powerbelly, I recently discovered that, while watching a guy lifting 500kilos of the ground and thinking I'm in my bulking phase right now (without the exercising part), too.
But for real, your level of honesty and openness is probably very helpful for all the young ladies watching. To me it's just inspiring and I hope I can be as honest to myself as you are someday.
Oh my gosh you look the same as you did when you were little. Such a cutie!
0 likesim 16 years old and i feel the worst i’ve ever felt. a lot of it i know is just me being dramatic and stuff bc i’m like that but it’s gotten so bad and i can’t communicate what i’m feeling half the time and i’m losing my friends bc i’m turning into what i’ve strived to not be, a bitch. hearing you speak about this stuff genuinely comforts me since i’m not used to feeling so shit for such a long period of time and i’m just trying to get through every day. i think one day everything will be okay .
0 likesWe're going to be turning 26 on the same day. I'm so anxious about it
0 likesDon't worry, Dodie, most people are depressed. I am depressed too! (My depression is related only to finding a job though). But you are a brilliant artist! So talented! I love your music so much! In fact, I listen to your music almost every day! lol ... I like yellow Dodie too "Would You Be So Kind?"
0 likesi love you so much dodie <3333333
0 likesI missed your ethereal chorus opening :(
0 likesi love this so much
0 likesLittle Dodie awakes the inner child in all of us
0 likeslove you bby hope you’re happy <3 <3
0 likesLove the openness
0 likesthis videos aesthetic feels so cozy
0 likesI don't believe we have had the virus issue as bad here in Texas as you have had there. There will be no return to the old times but I have become adjusted to my bespoke mask and wear it every where. Texas is now open, sort of, though some places do require masks and spacing. best wishes, spirits and weal.
0 likesHair is looking 10/10!!!
0 likespetition for dodie to cover Amanda Palmer's Ukelele Song!!!!
0 likesi missed this! feels like i'm catching up with a friend
0 likesReflecting with my younger self is something that I talked about in therapy literally today and I find it so painful but healing. I can’t help but feel at times that she wouldn’t like me. But I’m learning to be okay with that 🤍
2 likesI 100% understand that not being tiny and pretty and flexible and fuckable. I literally have a living boyfriend who whenever I say something along those lines reminds me that he loves me the way I am but the thought is still there... niggling it's way to the front of my brain
1 likeThank you for sharing so beautifully and vulnerably with us Dodie!! Your sharing normalizes these feelings and helps to others acknowledge what they're going through as well :)
0 likesDodie, you are Princess Ukelele, Queen of snowboards ice-creams and lonely cats. And I guess you should support Liverpool FC because they are the best.
0 likesMy only opinion on your life is that YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS AND TALENTED
0 likesLove you dods
0 likesYOU ARE VALID DODIE
0 likesi love this video. thank u
0 likesI am flying from Alaska to see you. I will be the travelling Birthday Boy. You are awesome!!
0 likesall I can hear is arms unfolding whenever she pronounces words help
0 likesI can't be the only one who noticed when she sung barely lol
1 likeI tHoUgHt yOu SaiD NeVeR aGaIn
as much as it sucks that the album is pushed back aGAIN, it now comes out just before my birthday so i’m choosing to think of it as the pandemic making up for everything by gifting me with dodie for my birthday <3
0 likesim not sure what this is about yet but you look stunning dodie ily
0 likesLove your music. I suggest getting a job. OU course.Train.Make yourself useful.
0 likesAbout ur ex, maybe you were always going to be kind about it to yourself at some point and talking to her happened to bring that kindness to you quicker
0 likesThis is a bit of an odd one, and I don't see a way of not making it sound weird. I record lucid dreams and have encountered incredible synchronicities before.
0 likesIs there any chance you've had a dream, possibly last night, in which you were doing some sort of skydiving/controlled safe falling that made you feel really alive and hopeful / joyful. Or did those emotions somehow arise upon wake up stronger than usual?
As I said, sounds odd and I apologise. Much love.
the thumbnail slideshow... i’m sobbing
0 likessmall dodie is so cute <3
0 likesI love you dodie
0 likesAwe I missed these kinds of videos
0 likesI play ukulele and I'm a boy, I don't care that it's not 'manly' or whatever, I just love playing musical instruments
0 likesOmg, tiny baby Doodie.
0 likes♥️stay strong bby
0 likesI really miss your second Build Me Up Buttercup cover ☀️🌸🌼
0 likesi love this. <333333
0 likesLittle dodie is the cutest thing ever
0 likesyou are loved ❤️
0 likesHugs, Dodie >:)<
0 likesYayyy ukulele player solidarity :D
0 likesthank you dodie
0 likesoh my god smol dodie is adorableeeeee
0 likesLots of love ❤️❤️
0 likesThe whole stereotype of girls playing ukuleles. Someone finally said it! I think it's so sexist.
0 likesi love u sm dodie :(((
0 likesdamn...theres always those 8 people that dislike videos like this....
0 likesThe aesthetic of this video
0 likesI’m not entirely sure why I’m crying but I’m crying so... hey 👋🏻
1 likeShe’s saying SONG TITLES in the video “before the line”... I SEE U DODIE
0 likesawww baby dodie is so cute tho
1 likethis is quite the poetry
0 likesKid Dodie is super cute, adult Dodie is a gem of the human race.
0 likesShe's back🤸♀️
0 likestag yourself in the birthday party scene, im the pickle that falls to the ground :|
0 likesHows is Dodie almost 26??? Does this means I'm 21?? They had told me no one gets old on the pandemic
0 likeslove the vid dodie!! also-
0 likesCLIPS OF BABY DODIE OH MY GAAAHHHHDDDDDDD-
Ily dodie <3
0 likeslow key loving that hair tho
1 likeI am definitely not the villian in some people's stories. Maybe a mean side character in some. But I'm not it enough people's stories to be a villian anywhere.
0 likesOn the topic of wanting to be the stereotype of the perfect women. What you talk about you hating that you are not sexy or small is what I feel like. I always feel like I take up too much space, but at the same time I feel like my body is not enough. If someone else had my body I would think they are beautiful, but because it’s mine I think it’s disgusting. I’m glad that I’m not the only one feeling this way.
0 likesChild dodie 😭🎉
0 likesWhy is baby dodie so much more British than adult dodie someone who understands accents and/or children please educate me
0 likesThe thing about nurturing your inner child is so important - as in it must be because my therapist keeps telling me that lol - but it's nice to remember that you're in the same body you were in when you were born, aged 7, aged 12, aged 16 etc and therefore you should keep those parts of yourself safe and happy just as much as your adult self. I'm going to do that today by having jelly and ice cream because I haven't had it since primary school and it's bomb.
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🖤🖤🖤!
1 like3:58 she said BEFORE THE LINE (one of her unreleased songs)
0 likesim sitting here trying to listen for words that sound like a melody.. cause of her secret song in her videos ahahaha
0 likesBaby dodie looks like Matilda change my mind
0 likeslove u !! best person on this app
0 likesi love this so muchhhh
0 likesLittle Dodie 🥺🥺🥺
0 likes💖💖💖🥰✨🌱🌿🌿😍 I just want to send you hope and love
0 likesthis video reminded me of "if I'm being honest".
0 likesbaby dodie 🥺🥺🥺
0 likesNot the key point of the video, I know. But if anybody disregards a passion for the ukulele, they're disregarding a part of Geroge Harrison. And that's not a normal thing to do 😁 🎶
0 likesYooo that villian comment struck a cord with me that I've never thought of before. I gotta do some rethinking
0 likesliteral soulmate. love
0 likesThat was nice. Thans for sharing. Got pretty rare. Take care
0 likes"Youtuber" is such a broad term nowadays but people stereotype it so much :/
1 likehey dodie! i love you
0 likesmuch luv dodieeee <3333 mwah mwah mwah
0 likesBaby Dodie is everything
0 likesBless - love the video.
0 likesThey're so cool
0 likesthank you. for everything
0 likesI think she might be doing another song building by video thing
0 likesFor some reason I thought the title said “a slice of honey” for like and hour
0 likesI LOVE HER SM OMDS
0 likes'The villain in other people's stories' - ouch!
0 likesThat guy is so lucky for sure! lol
0 likesA few more days till the album
0 likesor, right, and I know this is wild but just hear me out, ~you keep posting even after the release~ 🥺
0 likesIs it just me or is she singing again?
0 likesI can’t believe someone who seems as nice as you had an abusive ex but then sadly I can because some people are bastards, I came from a screwed up family with a very screwed up father at your age I guess I was screwed up too but we didn’t do therapy in those days one thing I can promise you is it will pass and won’t bother you anymore (whatever ‘it’ is) I’ve ordered your album from Eel Pie Records in Twickenham will be a great present to self to celebrate lockdown ending! Last thing - why do you and so many women I’ve met, some who have become lifelong friends, who are funny and sexy and gorgeous and have great personalities all think they are unattractive to men? (Or women or whatever gender you like) you’re all wonderful and some like you are extremely talented.! There is another girl on You Tube who always ends her videos with ‘Peace Out’ so gonna nick it ... Peace Out!
0 likes"A fake truth of a family that shattered" owie owie owie
0 likesyour hair oh my god its so pretty
0 likesweird to be watching a dodie video and learn that martin lives with her...
0 likesawww baby dodie
0 likesOh my god I'm in love with you, am I bi? I might be bi?
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Or am I pan?
0 likesMy enneagram 4 self LOVED this
0 likesWE LOVE U
0 likesvery brave video
what do you do for a living? I mean have you always done music or?
0 likesShe is so human but also like so angelic
1 likeI'm going to get May 7th tattooed on my body so it can't change
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LOL
1 likeLittle dodie is so cute
0 likesLittle dodie looks exactly like matilda
0 likesI didn't know you lived with greta, i love her
0 likes@2:45 erm... you definitely are all of those things. You're a wee stunner.
1 likeIf it’s any help, the 7th is my birthday, so as sad as it is that’s it’s delayed, it’s made it a birthday present for me 😂
0 likes"I faked truth of a family... that shattered." ouch
0 likesI know this is a stupid question but do you drive?😂
0 likesdodie 🧡
0 likes💜
0 likes3:58 “before the line” is that a build a problem reference? wink wink
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lmao honestly it’s just a phrase I use a lot which is probably why I titled the song that but
0 likesI’d be lying if I said I didn’t think like o shit maybe i should hide song titles in these vids but
I cAnT bE aRsEd
@doddlevloggle asjudhasudjsa u are so cool! cant wait for bap
0 likesACHEI O COMENTÁRIO 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭
0 likes@isitthemoon oi amigooooooo iasjsdaoksdsakidsa
0 likes@jpsgomes eu ia dizer rolê aleatório mas eu que decidi ir atrás do comentáriokkkkkkk tenha uma boa tarde 😗✌
0 likesi'm not crying i'm not crying
0 likesyou worry about being 2:50 ? 🔥🔥🔥
0 likesWOO ITS DODIE THURSDAY
0 likescrying! thanks
0 likesmy adhd brain trying to listen to her but gets distracted by her hair constantly moving all directions
0 likesEvery Thursday Let's goooo!
0 likesno feeling is final
0 likesI’m be honest I read that as honey and I was really fucking confused
0 likesoh wow i am so very early and i love you dodie
1 likeMaking friends with your depression ... am there
0 likesFamily tradition... Hank Williams Jr.
It’s how I know I’m alive.. looking for a substitute friend...
Meh
❤️
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0 likesI want to move to London but how to find such good flatmates? 🧐🧐
0 likesI live with depression. Depression is not my friend - it's the ugly monster under the bed. The one I fight for my survival. But then again - sometimes - it is the thing I know. And that can sometimes look like a friend. But I have real friends! The best friends. But I'm still lonely - because friends are not always enough. I hope you remember to be strong! And you are a very beautiful woman! Sadly I'm an old, fat guy. Therefore my opinion doesn't really count.
0 likes💜💜💜
0 likesI love you so much.
0 likes🙂💕
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0 likesthis editing >>>>
0 likesThat was very nice
0 likesDodie! Listen to Ukulele Anthem by Amanda Palmer. Just do it.
0 likes<3
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0 likesI'm so here for this message but is anyone else getting hints of another scrapbook song?
0 likes❤❤❤
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0 likesCAN I JUST HUG YOU???
1 likeThankyou - thankyou.
0 likes2:47 mood
0 likes<3 :)
0 likesI kinda think about you more as a musician than a youtuber.
0 likesThough it's maybe just another label, huh?
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"Nice creative person" may be more precise.
0 likesi missed u <33
0 likesI love so much
0 likes💛💛💛💛💛
1 like❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
0 likesyou look so stunning
0 likes💗🧡💛💚💙💜
0 likesWait did I miss a video...May 7th?!?!?!
0 likesohh i love your hair!!
0 likesTE AMO
0 likesthank you.
0 likesi love you x
0 likeschild dodie kinda looks like matilda!!
0 likesthank you
0 likeshair goals
0 likeshugs from Sweden
0 likesi love u sm
1 likehi dodie 🥺
1 likehi dodie 🥺
1 likeThanks!
0 likesBABY DODIE LOOKS LIKE MATILDA WHAT
0 likesPRE ORDER BUILD A PROBLEM OUT MAY 7th
0 likesBeing a young adult right now is so fucking bizarre. I promise you are so not alone in these feelings and realities.
0 likeshang on HANG ON. I'M not brave, I'M not honest, and I'm certainly not funny >:(
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Tehe
0 likes@doddlevloggle i hope u know my sister and i quote this all the time.. british accent and all
0 likesGUYS DODIE WAS LITERALLY 21 LIKE A WEEK AGO WDYM SHES NOT 25 I DONT BELIEVE IT
0 likesSo mad so cute
0 likesWhat's "the line" at 3:58? Anyone know a video where that's referenced?
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O sorry I just mean there’s a line in my life where trauma happened! A before and after
1 likeugh, i'm thirsty too, kid
0 likesI've got nothing to say honestly other than the obvious, the common.
0 likesi love you so much
0 likesi love you so much
0 likes'an am like um im thirsty'
0 likes3:06 Is this a song again?
0 likesow i'm here early!
0 likeslove from brazil 🇧🇷
How did you talk to me in my sleep?
0 likes💐💐💐💐💐💐💐
0 likesYO MATT BE SO CUTE SMH
0 likesomg!! :D
1 likelove you
0 likesI love u so much
0 likes:)))
1 likeSee you next thursday xx
0 likesBABY DODIE
0 likesDID I HEAR YOU SAY BEFORE THE LINE IS THIS A HINT
0 likesBABY DODIE
0 likesShe said something about the song “angry” and a abusive ex...can anyone tell me what song that is?
0 likesHugs!
0 likesDo you need a hug?
0 likesDying channels r so sad 😢
0 likes💞💞💞💞💞💞💞
0 likesNo views, 307 likes, and 34 comments. Gotta love Youtube :)
0 likesOf all the clips. Of ALL the clips...
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U love it
1 likei love you
0 likesDODIE
0 likesHmmm I feel like this is dumb but are u okay?
0 likesyou should probably just go work out, that's all there's to it. And shit you do to others, that's your cross.
0 likesYOU ARE SO UNNECESSARILY CUTE
0 likesDodie?? 26!?!?! Wildin
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Proud of u. You’re doing so well. Coping is hard but youre doing a good job
0 likeshappy thursday #1
1 likeyay!!
0 likesTake care
0 likes:O smol dodie
0 likesListen to ukelele anthem by Amanda Palmer
0 likesdodie this is very unrelated but r ur flowers dead?
1 likeMay 7th now??? 😭😭
0 likesme too.
0 likesI saved it
0 likes:o
2 likesFound the INFx
0 likesoh hey, I was just thinking about you.
0 likesi'm sooooooon yay
0 likes:D D:
1 likeHi dodie
0 likesBRUH
0 likesI'M EARLY
0 likesI like you
0 likes!!!!!!!
1 likeOoh first comment!! 💕
1 likeHey bestie baes
1 likehelo dodie
0 likeswho the heck disliked show urselves
0 likeshi babe i miss u
0 likes33 seconds ago and no views hell yeah
0 likesdotto
0 likesr u back?
0 likesgamer
0 likesHi. ✊💗
0 likesEarly aha
0 likestheres no way im the first here
0 likesEloooo
0 likesHello!
1 likehiiiio
0 likesyau
1 likefirst!!!!!!!}
0 likesFirst
1 likeFirst I think
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