i remember watching this like eight months ago and being amazed at how accurately i related.
but now looking back on watching this I can't find what bit i related to? which is good i'm so glad i don't feel this way (every day) anymore

what's changed: i now know what SSRI's are and have gone back to camhs (after literally just refusing to go to group therapy 2 years ago) because other certain stuff (not depression) has gotten worse and i'm now more mature about it and realise i need to talk to people without sugar-coating it and refusing help.
i'm glad my mental state depression wise has improved.

i remember watching this like eight months ago and being amazed at how accurately i related.
but now looking back on watching this I can't find what bit i related to? which is good i'm so glad i don't feel this way (every day) anymore

what's changed: i now know what SSRI's are and have gone back to camhs (after literally just refusing to go to group therapy 2 years ago) because other certain stuff (not depression) has gotten worse and i'm now more mature about it and realise i need to talk to people without sugar-coating it and refusing help.
i'm glad my mental state *depression wise* has improved.

like I have a different way of thinking about things now which are more mature because THIS THING has been a long term thing that i've just gotten so fed up of having panic attacks over and crying over


i don’t have to talk to my therapist anymore i’ll just show her this because you just spoke my mind you’re lovely


Depression feels like an Outerbody experience...almost like a movie...it's like your soul talks to you on a daily like why are you feeling like this...and then your brain captures moments when you were at peace ....depression man smh


I feel like this a lot and everyone always just tells me “you’re lazy” or “it’s all in your head”. Sometimes people just don’t understand until they go through it themselves


This may kill the whole point of advocacy and if everyone did it, it would create a ton of embittered unkind receptionists, but if you are desperate to see that specialist, you should be able to ask who you were referred from your primary care give because it may actually be someone specific. I live in Canada with universal health care and work with folks who are low-income, typically have addictions and concurrent health issues, so when I get someone who is like, I cannot wait, I call the health provider who made the referral, ask for the person the referral was made to, and while as a private citizen I can't say whether they will give the contact information out, from just their name you may be able to sus out the contact deats and go ahead with contacting them directly and do the thing of being like, I really need support. Now, all of this may be insurmountable when super depressed or even far to vulberable when not, so possibly having someone else in your life you trust advocating for you may just go a ways. Like, you be there to be like hey, my representative here will talk to you and I give that consent, step out of the room, and then the other person can take over and be like we were wondering where they are in the referral process, if there is an estimation of wait time, and then whatever the response, give a little summary of the need to see someone sooner if it feels too far away. Hell, the person that calls on your behalf, just call em' you advocate. The person on the other line doesn't have to know they are your aunt or some random person. Sometimes even referrals are lost and that is a part of the delay. Just happened today with a client of mine that was referred 3 weeks prior and she now has an appointment for next week (partially because the receptionist feels probably guilty about the referral being missed).


I always feel like this, especially at school due to my Social Anxiety. I constantly have to ask for reassurance from my friends. I also have OCD where I get horrible intrusive and paranoid thoughts. Sometimes when I ask my friends if they hate me they get rude and annoyed but I can't help it...

I just had a friend leave me because they saw me as narcissistic, I can't help having to constantly ask if my friends like me. It's not my fault I cry when everyone else is talking to eachother and nobody is talking to me. I'm not lazy because I decide to miss school from a panic attack. I'm not pathetic if I can't take part in an event after I've had an anxiety attack about how many people are going to be there.

I always feel so pressured in social situations, recently another friend has organized us in a team for a challenge in my business class. We get given £10 and keep whatever profit we get. I find it extremely difficult to say 'No' to things so I agreed. My friend arranged that we go out together to buy tons of cake supplies and set up a stall in town and at school. I tried explaining that I couldn't do it but they got angry at me and said that I wasn't helping at all. I can't help being so scared to leave the house, I don't want to put myself through the countless hours of stress from over worrying about what to wear, who to tell, how to get to the location, what to say, what to make, what to sell, how to act and how to even cope.

I'm sorry if this is unreadable, I think that it's good to unload and rant.


It's crazy watching this and listening to her describe how she sees the world after she posted the video about her derealization.


1:37 YES. I have been trying to find the right words to explain how I'm feeling and I think you said it: messy.


As a psychologist who has never had depression before, I realize that I cannot fully understand what depression is like, but I try very hard to understand what someone is going through. I don't try to solve the problem (I know that can be very frustrating to someone who is depresssed), I just sit down and listen to them and talk to them. I am not a therapist, but I give hugs to anyone who wants them and I try to make people as comfortable as I can. Always seek to understand rather than fix, and remember you never have to apologize for how you feel. :) <3


It’s so good and weird relating to everything she’s saying. It’s never happened before. This feels strangely okay.

Also, bottom right is that Hugsy- Joeys penguin from Friends??


Dodie I'm like you. I enjoy life and all but depression though. I might be all energized and happy one day and then the day after I'm a depressed piece of shit. Honestly I don't know anymore.


laughing so hard you could fall over when anything even slightly funny happened. being so sad inside but trying so hard to compensate by showing the world how happy you are. depression was never an on and off thing, but some days hurt less than others. I'm only praying for the day this weight lifts off of all of us for good, and we achieve happiness once and for all.


I always come back to this video when I’m depressed


Being depressed is very new to me. I just feel like I’m existing. I don’t wanna do anything. I don’t care about my school work, the cleanliness of my room, the opinions of my parents. The only thing that kinda makes me feel better is working myself to death.


This is so relatable oh my god! thank you!!!!


I woke up feeling like this. I kept hitting the snooze button for 4 hours. My parents literally had to drag me out of bed at 2:30 pm to take a shower and eat. I’m stuck on my couch not wanting to talk to anyone thinking just like how dodie was thinking here. I deal with depersonalization episodes and that’s happening today as well. I know these days occur. I deal with thyroid problems, anxiety, depression. I’m medicated for all of them. Even though I feel good most of the time now, these days happen. Just gotta wait for the good times to return.


you clearly described how i feel most of the time...should i get worried about myself?


I'm kinda surprised that dodoe goes through my daily and just tries her best and, on the opposite, here I am, negative and tired. Lol


A tip for derealisation/depersonalisation: my therapist taught me to ground myself every time I get caught up in that awful mindset, so I would focus on an object far away and take in exactly how it looks, describing it like I was writing it in a story; then I imagine how it would feel if I was to be holding the object, the temperature, the surface, is it rough or smooth? Then imagine crushing/scratching/generally interacting with the object and think about how that would sound; imagine lifting the object to your nose and giving that guy a whiff, what does it smell like? is it pleasant or offensive? I usually skipped over taste because I would be staring at a leaf or something, but you can imagine tasting the object if you really want. I’m now disassociation free and feeling connected to life and experiencing how I should be :)


Is it bad that I watch this every time I have a day like this?


Tbh iv gotten so much better because of you Dodie Doodle 💙 <br>If you ever need to talk I’m here even though I’m just one more fan who would love to talk to you in any way i can we all seriously care about you

Tbh iv gotten so much better because of you Dodie Doodle 💙
If you ever need to talk I’m here even though I’m just one more fan who would love to talk to you in any way i can we all seriously care about you


Wow I just realised I have depersonalisation, someone actually explaining how I feel I thought I was the only one who got like this


i could never put this into words. thankyou.


Its harder when you're forced to go to school than on weekends or something


i remember watching this with a normal functioning head when i was younger and i never understood this video. now, with my more fucked up head i understand this so much...


i didn't think i would relate to this this much...


my therapist calls my depression "an escape addict" I want to live in bed and not wake up from sleep but I don't want to die. my depression too is physical and I get tension in my head and head aches.sometimes I feel that no one understands and when they don't I get mad and angry dodie please respond


I'm literally crying right now. Maybe I have to talk to someone.


wow-way to put depression into words.. I think I've been depressed for a while now and it has caused me to eat to fill the never-ending hole inside.


Hi, Dodie my depressive state is caused from Schizophrenia.  you are doing honey.


When I’m sad I binge and regret it later, that makes me sad. Lol it’s a vicious cycle


I never knew someone felt the exact same way...


Yep, me. I don't have depersonalisation but when I wake up and my depression kicks in I don't want to leave my bed. But I have to, because I'm twelve and go to school. So, when I go to school I can't focus in my lessons properly. It's not like I'm sad or angry, but just plain emotionless.


Some days when I get so severely depressed I lie in bed all day and cry and cry and cry. My depression can get so bad at times that I can’t even go to school nor get out of bed. :(


Darn now I want some peas in the pod still


Coming from my experience

Depression: just eating thats all it is constant eating and feeling exactly how she explains

Anorexia: dont eat ya fat pig even if ur only 100 pounds when you should be 120

But is depressed all the time so its a constant binge then regret and hatred towards myself


And im here for like 7 days not feeling depressed and say "This don't feel right." I'm not ready to feel fine for a straight 7 days because once you feel depressed again itll feel more bad. This is a record for not feeling depressed. Like literally 7 days without it doesn't feel so right.


When I'm genuinely sad and crying I can't breathe <br>Like the weight in my chest is so bad I can't breathe and I panic and I can't breathe more

When I'm genuinely sad and crying I can't breathe
Like the weight in my chest is so bad I can't breathe and I panic and I can't breathe more


God, I am depressed. I have this wierd feeling all the time and it's been a year but I'm only 16 and I don't want to be... depressed


this actually tells a lot about her condition, like the feeling of being spaced out and not feeling awake etc.


I can relate a lot, i have good days and bad days too, luckily today is a good day and I'm gonna sleep around my friends house which i haven't done in forever since I've been venting for the past year, it's so annoying since last year on new years eve i was supposed to have a good time with my family but i ended up feeling anxious and depressed and just went to my room and hid, hopefully i won't be the same this year aha 😅😊


Last year I think I suffered from depression. I never got diagnosed since I never got help. The doctor asked. I hesitated. Then I lied. I sometimes remember something my dad told me that I guess is true. "You might be upset now but its okay. Youll be bubbly and happy in the morning" theres always this bliss when you first wake up. No matter what goes wrong, there is always a bit of sweetness. That sweet will go sour someday, so you find another place to feel home, where the fruit are fresh and there is new, sweeter berries. Its okay if something goes sour. Just find a new sweet.


This is the most real video I've seen.

Wow


My depressive episodes are normally spent sleeping. I went to bed at 9:00 on the 25th and woke up now.


Randomly looking on YouTube for videos to cheer me up. I think I've found one


Wanting to go back to who you used to be... Feeling like someone stole a part of you And wondering if you will ever get it back again. I totally that. Thought I was the only one.


"so I woke up today and I'm like yeah, I'm depressed"


Oh dodie. I just wanted to check up on you! I hope you are at your best today! I’m a little late to this vid. But is sure do hope you are feeling better my friend. (and idol but You know)


there was a ad with horses and a guy trying hard and not getting sleep before this vid and it actually helped me with my sleep and made my depression a lil less worse


This is the type of girl I am gonna have to marry. "Normal" girls are too much to handle, lol


Oh my god the depression is my best friend


2:24 to 2:34 bc you just cant. U just cant "choose" happiness.


I am bullied and I am always depressed and that’s my life


“I’m still spaced out. Still don’t feel awake” I started crying ??


Awe who else could see dodies tear  streaks on her face


Depressed dodie swears more.

And watches rick and morty thats kewl


I am always open if you wanna share tips or just talk about this rare condition I also suffer from ♥ never forget you still can live a happy life with it


Huh. I've felt that before. Like once lol. Maybe twice... idk.


I tried to watch this. I REALLY DID. But the mouth noises really kept me from doing it. Someone PLEASE tell me what she talks about


Got any advice for someone dating someone else with depression?


I don’t know what I have. Sometimes I just am struck with me not feeling happiness. I’ll do something and feel not good. Or sometimes One little thing will go wrong and I’ll start hyperventilating and freaking out for no reason and I don’t know why. It doesn’t help that I’m surrounded by negativity either. Or that some of my friends don’t really hang out with me at my house. They would start talking to someone else in particular and start laughing and wheezing and shouting and having fun without realizing that I’m there too. I don’t like to talk about my feelings with other people because they won’t understand. All they’ll do is hug me and say it was something they did and that they would try to do better. It makes me not happy when that happens too me. I already know that once I tell someone something it would go all around school from people telling other people. This probably really boring I’m sorry but I just don’t know what to do or label my self with anything because I feel like it would be too dramatic.


you eat vegtables when you are deppressed.... ooh thats cute....it takes me more than 5 extra kilograms added to my body to get over my deppresion


Normally I'm lucky cause when it kicks in I'm at home but the other day I was at school and one class I was fine then the next one my teacher was late so I just sat on the ground against the wall my friends asking what was wrong and I just didn't wanna answer and then the rest of the day I felt like that, it was great!!!! ( not )
Anyway... if anyone read this, have a nice life!

Normally I'm lucky cause when it kicks in I'm at home but the other day I was at school and one class I was fine then the next one my teacher was late so I just sat on the ground against the wall my friends asking what was wrong and I just didn't wanna answer and then the rest of the day I felt like that, it was great!!!! ( *not* )
Anyway... if anyone read this, have a nice life!


Giiiiiiiiiirl ya purfect!!! fuck them haters. Don't let the haters stop you from doing your thaaaang


I fucking cried. I’m in the middle of a depressive episode. You did and said everything I did... I’m so scared that i will never be okay again. & the hope I once had is gone and im so mad that people say I matter! If I do, then why aren’t they there for me when I had screamed for help? Oh I should snap out of it, right? Cos it’s all in my head? All that don’t let get to your head and be fucking strong bullshit. I seeked help and tried fighting for my own life, and to hear people say that I should be EVEN more stronger than that is fucking insulting.


Then the world says: What a negative attitude you have! Simply pull yourself together. Don't you know only you have the power to change this behaviour?  Decide that you're not going to be like this!  It's a choice!  Change your point of view. Breathe!  Think positive!  Go to the gym! Don't you know it's all in your head?  And always remember, other people have it worse.


I think everyone is a little depressed more so others. I think we all can relate.


You watch Rick and Morty 😄                     me too

You watch Rick and Morty 😄                     me too


>I am depressed today
>today
the absolute current state of """depression"""


Everyone here is like
"Same"

Me
"Can't relate 😐"

Jadeisunderage good for you, you're spared of one of the worst feelings in the world


Dodie: Lol stop killing ur self
Me: laughs crap I’m a bad person I’m going to go die now😅

Dodie: Lol stop killing ur self
Me: *laughs* crap I’m a bad person I’m going to go die now😅


aaaaaaaaah this is so right. This is what it feels like.

I mean in the summer, sometimes I just manage to live in the moment... for like an hour... you know when there are games at the pool that require your full attention and all that. And then, suddenly, when it stops, everything comes back. I remember very well my cousin telling me "but you were having so much fun earlier" yeah but now it's not earlier anymore. And as soon as the cheering voices stopped the music came back into my head, so loud that I had to put in my earphones and listen to it. The music is generally one of the many depressing songs I know by heart. These days I've gone back to the Downward Spiral. Actually today was A Warm Place...

I think I've also reached a new level this year, not being able to get out of bed at times. Like literally unable to get up, provided I'm able to move at all. It's not nice. Not nice at all.

But yeah, I've gone into this periodic thing where every... I don't know how long (trying to figure out actually, but I need more time to confirm that I'm right) it'll come back. I guess it's not so much of a natural state, more like of what happens half the time. Well it used to be the normal state. Now I've managed to get it further away. I guess. Now that I think about it it's always present in the back of my mind. But I see it more as weather. Maybe cause the name I put on it was the fog (you know, they advise you to do that, like Churchill called his depression his black dog...). Maybe it's cause I've grown to hate strong winds cause they've been associated too many times with things going wrong and this led me to consider them the bringers of depression. But... it's just... waves. I don't know.

I realise no one's going to read this, it's a comment on Youtube and it's way too long but I'll write it anyways.

Thanks for sharing this Dodie, it's nice to realise I'm not that alone in feeling the way I do.

Somehow I came back to this vid. I was gonna comment, I saw my old comment, I decided to answer to it. So I guess this is an update? Eh.I somehow got 3 likes on the original comment but no one will read this anyways, right?

Yeah. So. SSRI. Been there, done that. Or should I say am there doing that? Escitalopram. Works ok. That anger I realised I mentioned? It's now manageable. Maybe it's also related to my bereavement/grief trauma-like thing that was still very fresh 8 months ago. Maybe I finally moved passed the second stage.

But yeah. Spaced out. Well I don't know if it's gotten worse or if I've just been noticing it more, if it's that I've gone back to uni and the lack of sleep came back contrary to this summer (and last term where I almost never had 9 am lectures) but… it's definitely here. And I'm not sure if it was gradual since a while back or if it started in September when I got on SSRI but it's been kinda around the same time… but then again, so have a lot of things.

Yeah. I know you've tried AD, Dodie, you mentioned it in the derealisation video and you've also mentioned the… magnetic field thing (I can't remember the name). Wish it was easier for me to get access to those but French living in Aberdeen all the way up north in Scotland with no easy access to transport to get to Edinburgh if even some appointment was found there and anyways no time to do so and nothing in my little village in the middle of nowhere back home in France with virtually inexistant public transport and only a month or two at best spent home… well yeah. That's shit.

There's uni counselling. You can't take more than 4 sessions per term. So that's nice. Maybe I'll talk to my GP next term and try to get a therapist if this keeps going on. Idk. Maybe that'd eventually help? Eh.

At least I've got a couple friends to talk to. So that's nice.

I hope that you've been doing better.

I don't know why I'm posting that.

I guess it's to serve as a reminder. Maybe in a couple years I'll stumble upon these and remember. A bit like a journal. But for everyone to see. For once I'm ok with that.

Got more of an anger problem though. Tendency to just go mad after a while when things annoy me. Like I can keep watching shows if they really bore me when I'm depressed cause afterwards they'll just start pissing me off and I'll just want to smash my laptop (or whatever I'm watching the show on) on the wall or throw it out the window. Funny it doesn't do it so much with games though. Those I just lose all energy and cannot play and stop playing. Probably has to do with the difference between passively watching a show against actively playing.

But I do tend to become aggressive when I'm depressed and I'm starting to wonder if there's anything against that.

But I agree with you that when it comes in social situations, it's bad. It tends to happen a lot to me at parties (last year it was almost all the time) and I just shut down and sit in a corner and it gets worse and I just have to leave before I become way too touchy and aggressive or just depressed beyond measure... yeah. Memories of not happy times coming back.

I don't know why this happen, it's weird. And I've done psychology. But I don't have a clue how the fuck this works. How some situations can just turn so bad and everything just feels wrong and boring and annoying...

Hope there'll be a way to make this better one day :/


<b>14 year old females have entered the chat</b>

*14 year old females have entered the chat*

Wow, way to devalue every 14 year old female’s problems. I know they are usually around the age where they feel like shit, but saying that is really demotivating to 14 year old suffering from depression and anxiety or literally anything else. This probably isn’t even a big deal to most people, but I’ve heard too many times that I’m just a 14 year old girl that is just begging for attention. Just my two cents


And than you have to go to school at 7 am


I had to stop the video at 4.36 because i was getting really anxious and uncomfortable 😕


It’s interesting to find out there’s people out there who aren’t depressed every day, and only depressed once in a while. I’ve been continuously depressed everyday, never stops. Had no idea some people with depression don’t experience it every day.

I was diagnosed with clinical depression and have been taking medication for two years now and I experience days where I am depressed and other days when I am more positive or not depressed at all. Maybe seeing a therapist or taking medicine might help because it most certainly helped me. And also, that's because there are different kinds of depression. Mental Illness is a fascinating topic that I think more people should talk about. I do hope you feel better and get help 💞


Like I want to hang out with friends but I don't want to talk to anyone and I'm hungry but I don't see a point in eating when I'm gonna die anyone someday and like I wanna read but I don't wanna finish the book like I feel so dull and nothing is making me laugh and I just can't do anything right now

Liz.L SAME. It’ll pass though. I just always know it’ll come back and I get even more depressed. Death sounds so relaxing


okay but summer smith likes girls and i’m thriving on it


The amount of people self diagnosing in the comment section

I haven’t been diagnosed with depression, because I have been diagnosed with social anxiety and I’m terrified to go get diagnosed. I’m pretty sure I have it. I self harm. I hate myself. Most days I can’t get out of bed. And much much more.

Weethetniet it’s not necessarily a bad thing but it creates a lot of problems for people who are professionally diagnosed with certain types of depression. Stereotypes created by young, immature people who are convinced they are "depressed" can caused others to not take these topics seriously.

Weethetniet its not bad , but it's better to be professionally diagnosed. If you are pessimistic on purpose for attention,  and call yourself depressed , that's not cool. And other times you might have another mental illness that's not depression


YOU'RE NOT DEPRESSED, MAKING A VIDEO IS BEING PRODUCTIVE AND BEING PRODUCTIVE IS A SIGN OF NOT BEING DEPRESSED

Yeah but like,,, there are different levels of severity. Making a youtube video doesn’t mean shes not depressed

@french fries  I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING PAST 6 MONTHS, SIR! I KNOW WHAT IT IS AND STILL GOING THROUGH.

Bipolar Depressed here, you clearly have no idea how depression works lol


I feel like depression is a side product of the capibilty to think deeply.

I think both are right. Yes you overthink a lot in the bad way. The thoughts are negative all the time. But at the same time, it gives u a way to think deeply (of course, in a negative way). However, this is not a good thing for ur head. Putting u down always is frustrating and is really bad

Depression isn’t seeing the world from a gray veil, it’s when you believe that the veil has been taken away and all you can see is the truth. But you’re really just caught up in your head and on your perspective, which is often absolutely irrational and overwhelmingly blown out of proportion. It’s not a beautiful thing, depression is an issue people rarely talk about, which is why I’m glad Dodie made this video. If it just helps one person who doesn’t struggle with depression understand, then it’s awareness.

hannah-joy walker exactly, mental illness it's nothing beautiful

Hunter Adams no, it's not. Depression it's the capibilty of think exaggeratedly pessimistic without any hope so that males you think "why i need to keep trying?"; Is like your mind lying to you about that everything it's wrooong forever but it's not.<br>And Well, you can been sad just for think deeply things. I know it because I had been un both sides.

Hunter Adams no, it's not. Depression it's the capibilty of think exaggeratedly pessimistic without any hope so that males you think "why i need to keep trying?"; Is like your mind lying to you about that everything it's wrooong forever but it's not.
And Well, you can been sad just for think deeply things. I know it because I had been un both sides.


hell no, move to japan or the philippines.

squidward tentacles well my medicine is legal there aka weed 😁

squidward tentacles <br>I also live in a very rough place, but that doesn't naturally translate into the mental state of the people living there. It can hit anyone, anywhere.

squidward tentacles
I also live in a very rough place, but that doesn't naturally translate into the mental state of the people living there. It can hit anyone, anywhere.

Alicia Sydney I'll be happy with more money! I'll buy myself some love too (:

squidward tentacles dude... your living/financial situation often has absolutely nothing to do with your mental health... nothing to do with weakness, just chemical imbalance.

Matty Reymoor yes i do i live in South central haha

+squidward tentacles <br>you obviously don't know what depression is :)

+squidward tentacles
you obviously don't know what depression is :)

lol when i lived in malibu i was at my worst deppression-wise, now i live in london and i've never been happier!

squidward tentacles cali is crazy though


wait... that seemed right for a seccond.

yes, becaues that's whats important about this video and it doesn't happen with literally every video

Teal W. Its cause it only counts a view when you pass 30 seconds I think, and lots of people like before watching it all.


I need the people who are depressed but still achieving things like going to school everyday or maintaining a decent social live and pursuing some hobbies to tell. Me. How do you do that? Are you forcing yourself or do you just have a sheer survival will, how do you manage it? I'm serious I need some advice because I'm trying really hard and nothing seems to work :(


I just feel guilty and sad like i have done something wrong and i feel sick i dunoo


you can't just be depressed one day... i say this as someone who suffered from horrific, crippling depression that led me to be sectioned.

i have chronic depression and there are certainly days that suck harder than normal like dodie's described in the video.

You really can. I mean you seem to feel empty everyday, but that's not how depression works for a lot of people. For a lot of people, including myself, there's some good days and there are days when you're an empty unmotivated piece of shit that isn't really feeling a paticular emotionn, just being miserable. But there definitely can be days where you feel fine.

somersks. it could be off and on, more days are worse than others. It's not like you're all happy and cheery all the time with one bad day. It's always there but sprouts out at certain times.


"I feel this constant longing for something, and I'm not getting it." I know I may get some dislikes for this, but I feel like I was led here to write this comment for someone. If you have a longing for something in your life, I have the answer. Jesus. Jesus fills the void. I and many others can attest for this. But that's not what's important. I just want you to know that Jesus loves you and if you have something missing in your life, it's Him.

I used to be catholic but BOOM this void Dodie talks about unfilled me and now I can't believe in anything...

MinnieMuffins people shouldn't be disliking this. I personally don't believe in any religion, but it doesn't give me the right to not respect others religions. And I think it's great that people can find hope in something.

say it louder for the people in the back


I think i feel like this every day but i dont kjow what is normal


i feel like this is like trying to make depression cute in a weird way. she has her hair all curled and in this cute top bun, a cute sweater, a small little snack and watching tv. depression is not even leaving bed, not showering, eating, etc. it's not cute like this. i understand you had good intentions making this but whatever its not like this for me at least

maybe thats how you think of this; you see the cute of the sweater and the bun and the fun of the tv show and the snack. dodie, at least in this state, probably didn't. depressed people try to do what's normal or amusing for them in an attempt to cheer themselves up. it's like you're playing a character; the 'happy' version of you likes wearing this sweater, so the depressed version of you tries to mimic that.

Bailey Brooks have you watched her other videos please dont leave your opinion from watching a single video


Dodie I don't want to sound patronising or anything so I'm really sorry if this sounds bad I don't mean it to! But for me having a faith & believing in God gives me so much hope and joy and purpose. I look at the universe and I think how can this all be by chance? For me, opening my mind to God is what makes me fulfilled and realise that everything is here for a reason and we have purpose and are loved. Idk just thought I'd throw that out there. Thank you for sharing how you have been feeling on low days because your vids are very raw & real  and I think that's so important. I love you ❤

Beck Styles If that's what you believe, fine.  But don't make their belief seem like such a bad thing.  Thank you for the over all useless input.

annarchy you shouldn't feel ashamed that you found something that makes you happy/ works for you. many people use therapy, medication, exercise, etc... and religion is no different. I personally am not that religious but I hate the stigma people have around those who are.

annarchy karsi 00 I can totally see where both u guys are coming from.  there's a difference (and I seriously don't want to be offensive or patronizing at all) between religion and going to God for relief.  think of it this way: religion says 'do.' it's forceful and rules about how to be 'good.'. God is a voice that knows how to listen and when to speak comfort into someone's life.  so yeah just didn't want to pick between a side or anything and didn't want to make this seem like an argument or anything

i am happy for you that you are feeling better through that, but to me religion kind of ruined me. i still have depression and anxiety but mentally leaving the church (my parents still force me to go and i have to lie about believing) made me feel sooo much better. am i the only one? my life would be so much better if religion wasn't constantly being shoved down my throat (not talking about you im talking about society and my family)

When I was depressed for a few years, the sweetest times were in some of the worst of times- I am thankful that God sits with us in our pain, He cares for every big and small hurt. On the days you can't get out of bed, He loves you most, He's there, caring and giving grace, as ever before.

Juliette, on your most hurting days, remember that there's nothing you could ever do to make Jesus love you more or less, His love for you is and always will be more than we can ever fathom. I hope you're reminded of His love for you tonight.

It's interesting that you say blind faith, and it hurts my heart to hear your experience with faith- Jesus came because we can never "make" our lives worth something- He says we already have great worth! By grace I live, and I don't have to try to be enough. God is in the practical and present with you in the dark hours. He doesn't erase that all right now, but He's here with you and He'll bring you through it. God gives us hope-- but He also gives us therapists, medicine, support... <3

Just something to think on, thanks for sharing your perspective-Kit.

I so value this comment, and most of the responses. Jesus came to give us real life, hope, purpose... and that doesn't mean we don't experience pain or illness (mental included!). In the days you're depressed, that is valid- and God's got truth for you, and He will carry you through it.

Kit It isn't safe to assume that everyone's faith in God is blind.... Through everything that's changed in my life, through depression and losing friends and family and my own self changing, the only constant that's been is God. He's the only thing that has always come back to help me up. All the other stuff you mentioned is absolutely very important, but that doesn't make God any less real or important.

daggernrose your english is perfect there xx

Cassandra Naranjo I know, but to me it sounded like they meant remembering God's plan would make it go away. I was just trying to explain it in a way that encompassed both the reality of depression and the presence of God. Your assessment of it was a lot better than mine, actually, thank you.

She never said to pray her depression away, I'm a Christian and when I struggle with depression the facts that God has purpose for my life and I wouldn't want my family to feel that pain are usually the only things that keep me alive during that time. No matter how purposeless I feel I know the truth and I have something to hold onto.

Rita Leci I agree completely. I'm pretty Christian and have depression, and on bad days I kinda just do what dodie does and accept it, knowing that it'll go away. But also, on those days I can feel God reminding me that you don't have to feel 100% okay 100% of the time! I mean, no one does. I don't like the mantra that being Christian=being happy all the time, because if I never felt down I don't think I'd be able to be very compassionate, and that wouldn't make a very good Christian or just person in general, really.

Kit I agree with you. Religion can help in some sense but depression is an illness of the mind. The chemical imbalance needs to be reset and so do the psychological issues and for both of those therapy is necessary. I know religion can help in times of sadness but please people don't ever tell someone whos depressed to 'pray it away' because just like you can't pray a broken bone away you cannot pray depression away either.

annarchy i believe in God but it doesn't give me any joy or sense of purpose because sometimes I feel like everything is just shit now and it always will be. I'm just waiting for an uncertain death and hoping for a good eternal afterlife but I would still feel depressed because I don't have a choice what if I don't want eternity but would be punished for killing myself ? I didn't ask to be born I have chronic eczema on my face since I was 6 so I hate summer and I've never had any friends so what is my purpose?


Read the new testament. It won't cure your depression but it'll show you the truth of what's going on in our world. Best of luck to all of you. Fight on.


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Your going about curing your depression all wrong you don't eat green peas to cure your depression. You eat ice cream  🍦🍧=happiness

i like to run when i feel extra depressed, because the strain of my body makes me feel something, and i can feel good about doing something that's good for me

Yah i’d get diabetes if i ate ice cream everytime i was depressed

Celestial Demon lol if I ate ice cream whenever I was depressed I would be even fatter than I already am (if that’s possible)

depression doesn't just go away if you eat ice cream. in my experience, it actually makes it worse to sit around pigging out because then at the end of the day i feel even more like absolute garbage


No treatment for depression should be complete if food sensitivities are not considered. Depression is a symptom of gluten sensitivity. Non-organic dairy products can also have the same effect. To know if this is your issue, simply avoid both all wheat products and all conventional dairy products for a week. This will cost you nothing & involves no medication. If necessary, avoid all dairy. A complete elimination diet is also a good idea if needed.  Gluten sensitivity is a frequently misdiagnosed problem because Drs tend to treat only individual symptoms. Meds may not fix them. Good luck.


honestly makes me sick how she’s using it as an adjective to just be thrown out there

She has been diagnosed? She has depersonalization? She has every right to use depressed as an adjective and since she's been experiencing this for such a long time the word has probaboy become not such a big deal

????
Js sorry if this has been repeated
There are different types of depression that can switch on and off. You can have good days and bad days. Shes been diagnosed. Its chemical.  Sorry I don’t really understand What are you implying?

chelsea I don’t think of it like that because she genuinely IS depressed.

chelsea ikr?? She barely had any idea what the medication was all about, surely she would know??

I don't know her personally but she's talked alot about her depression. Also depression and being depressed are different. Depression-a chemical in balance of serotonin and other "happiness" inducing brain fluid. Depressed - a synonym for sad or solemn

To me, depression is like that. Some days it’s like a rose thorn in a bears hand and other days it is the bear. <br>She means how it’s so much worse today. That is so hard to describe.

To me, depression is like that. Some days it’s like a rose thorn in a bears hand and other days it is the bear.
She means how it’s so much worse today. That is so hard to describe.

ikr, i don't have depression and i haven't been diagnosed or anything but it annoys me as well for some reason

She's describing how she feels. She's allowed to say she has Depression or is Depressed, especially if she's been diagnosed with Depression.


Maybe you should try Jesus. He changed my life completely 😊.

abbuturtle Yeah, that was my fault, I'm not exactly the best with words, but i didn't mean to say this person forced anyone to believe in their religion. Sorry!

+Twenty øne Phans im sorry, but may i point out that you used the exact words 'you can't exactly force someone'?? just dont jump to conclusions, please. thanks :)

IvanIsn'tHere
maybe i shouldn't have said "everyone" whoops oh well
anyways have a good day, i am going to go watch more videos about lin-manuel miranda now

IvanIsn'tHere <br>well i mean there are people directly saying no and that God isn't real to this person but ok

IvanIsn'tHere
well i mean there are people directly saying no and that God isn't real to this person but ok

Twenty øne Phans <br>well i mean i didn't rlly direct anything at you srry if it seemed that way and srry that i get ticked off easily lol

Twenty øne Phans
well i mean i didn't rlly direct anything at you srry if it seemed that way and srry that i get ticked off easily lol

amirite Calm down, nobody was being disrespectful at all. We were expressing our opinions just like they were expressing theirs. They can believe in what they want, and so can dodie and everyone else. I was just saying that dodie might not believe in a god and that they should be respectful of that  (though it didn't seem to come out that way, and for that i apologize).

amirite Nobody here is being unsympathetic. Some people are expressing their own views, but nobody is doing it in an angry or hurtful way. People can talk about religion without it being mean and this person isn't receiving hate. <3

Maddie P I can't tell if this is satirical or if you think that He could actually do anything.

IvanIsn'tHere You're fine, not upset just wanted to add

HannahLouisiana I know, I wasn't trying to be mean, it's just that with mental disorders religion will not work for everyone, and there are better ways to try and solve it. I was in no way trying to attack them, sorry if it sounded that way.

I went to reconciliation and I was really scared as I finally told the priest I believe in God and I love Jesus but I don't follow or support the Catholic Church. I thought he would hate me for it but he told me he thought I was very brave and that Jesus is always proud of me and he's my friend and loves me so dearly. I always cried right there and then because this amazing priest totally lifted my burdens

See, the interesting thing about this is that since you're praying to a non-existent god, you're actively putting yourself into a positive mindset without realizing it. Since you think there's a god who loves you, your brain accepts this love and uses it as fuel for happiness.

Me as well. I have anxiety, OCD, derealization, Tourette's and ADD. While you may not feel physically better sometimes, there's a hope in Christ that can lift a weight from you. So in a way, I feel like when you spiritually feel better, you can mentally feel better. Sometimes I pray for God to take away my derealization. Sometimes He does, sometimes He doesn't. But I know His will is perfect, so when the answer is "wait" or "not now", I know it's for a reason, and I can rest in that. :)

same 😊 I'm still insecure and things but Jesus is pretty cool

Wasn't trying to say they did, I just meant faith might not be the right answer for dodie considering she herself doesn't believe

Jesus might not give me physical treatment, but at least he gives me hope :)

Twenty øne Phans No one is forcing anyone. Some suggested therapy. Some suggested medication. Some suggested faith. It doesn't become "forcing" just because it's the one you don't agree with.

+Twenty øne Phans they're not forcing anyone lol.

I love this comment bc I was raised Christian. Jesus fucked me up man. That shit is too deep.

You can't exactly force someone to believe in someone they don't believe in, plus religion isn't going to magically cure a mental illness such as depression, you need physical medical aid for that. I understand you're trying to help though :D

IvanIsn'tHere They were just making a suggestion based on personal experience.

agreed. I found hope in life from God. everything made sense and i feel less scared and sad and angry of the world with Him. its so much more better, even with occasional depression its infinitely better than before. Im a Jesus freak! stay alive |-/

IvanIsn'tHere yes, it does. If you truly let God into your life He changes everything completely and if you ask him to help you with anything he will.

Jesus, therapy, medication, and a community of people who love me changed my life completely!!!!!!!!

Religion is wonderful. But faith doesn't always heal everything. Depression is an illness and should be treated. But I love being Christian because it gives me hope...it gives me purpose. It makes me happy. And isn't that worth it?

Santiago Lizarazo Religion does not solve problems like these for everybody. Maybe it helped you, but it's more than just a choice.


Sorry, but I always feel like if people who say they're depressed but still can get themselves to talk and make a video or even write a book about it, it can't be that bad. In my experience a main symptom of depression is that you can't do ANYTHING but lie in bed and try to sleep forever. As long as you still can go on with your day somehow it's "only" a light version. Just my personal opinion with no claims to being right or whatever.

Natalie Binns oh man, serenity now. Seems to me you want to  be inflamed or whatever you call that. I can only try so many times to explain that what you're claiming is not what I'm doing, that's why it seems like I'm repeating myself. Well, I feel most of the commentators get how I mean it. So let's leave it at that since we're obviously communicating on different wavelengths.

Claudius Buser to be honest I think you are being deliberately inflammatory as many people above have explained why you are so mislead and you are still not getting it. There is also a WEALTH of information available on and off the net so you can educate yourself further rather than going on on and saying the same things.<br>But in short, just because you can function sometimes does not make your depression 'better' 'worse' or 'lucky'. A person can work day in and day out and then take their own life. They might appear to be functioning but the depression is still there. It is really not that hard to understand.

Claudius Buser to be honest I think you are being deliberately inflammatory as many people above have explained why you are so mislead and you are still not getting it. There is also a WEALTH of information available on and off the net so you can educate yourself further rather than going on on and saying the same things.
But in short, just because you can function sometimes does not make your depression 'better' 'worse' or 'lucky'. A person can work day in and day out and then take their own life. They might appear to be functioning but the depression is still there. It is really not that hard to understand.

I'm not sure. I mean, it depends on how you look at it. I certainly don't have that, I keep quitting things and restarting and quitting and restarting again as my depression comes and goes--and sometimes I feel like people with high-functioning depression are lucky because they still manage to get their shit together. But from what I read, people with high-functioning depression could be just as unhappy and even as suicidal (clinical depression is about chemical imbalance in your brain so how things work is probably different in everyone?) which means it could be more dangerous.

Disa Tannos exactly what I'm trying to say. If you've got the high functioning kind you're " in luck".

Hi! Try googling high-functioning depression, that might help :)

Natalie Binns well ok, please elaborate, at least a bit. Don't just tell people they're wrong and leave it at that. Not very helpful.

I know, depression symptoms can't be quantified as stated several times. again, I'm not talking about her, but in general that's my observation.
If one symptom of major depression is you can't't do ANYTHING BUT LIE IN BED, CAN'T GET UP etc
so if you can get on with your day and studies and whatnot as if you were not depressed, then you are lucky and got a kind that doesn't have those debilitating symptoms...Or you are strong enough to fight them, then I say more power to you, fortune favors the brave.

If you're not trying to invalidate her depression, I don't understand why you felt the need to write this comment. To me, it sounds like you're trying to say that she's not as bad as she's making out to be, or that there are people out there who have 'worse' depression than her (judging from where you say 'it can't be that bad', in reference to people who can make videos while depressed, such as Dodie can). But the way I see it, you can't say that some people's depression is 'worse' than others, as, like many people have pointed out, everyone has different symptoms, and you can't understand how bad someone else's depression is, even if you're going through it yourself, as you probably have difference symptoms. Even during the epitome of my depression when I wanted to die, I was still able to go to school and get work done, and come out of it with decent grades. I think this is a case in point that some people are able to motivate themselves, even in the height of depression, to do things for whatever reason. While many people do have the 'lie in bed and try to sleep forever' symptom set, those people do not necessarily have 'worse' depression than those who don't.

Kit everything I state is only my personal truth or experience with no claim of being true for anyone else.

WritingSchiozo101 as stressed several times, I'm not invalidating anything.

Lucy Wallis Sorry but it sounds like you're invalidating her depression. Even a series of episodes can have 'higher' points. This is obviously a very different Dodie and even her movements seem sluggish. This is no way to live.

Sorry but I am just a psychology student and even I know that 'marked distress + significant impairment of daily life = mental disorder'. She has been diagnosed and is currently seeking treatment. What more do you want?

It's however, really helpful and healthy to analyze your feelings and making videos can be therapeutic. Yes, sometimes I have that, I space out, cry and just...exist without doing anything, but even for me, depression acts out in different ways. Some of my worst days I have fake  laughed, done stuff, talked to people and at the same time been on a verge of death, really. Symptoms vary even within yourself, coming from someone who has had different degrees of depression for over a decade now.  I do sometimes "envy" in a weird way people, who function with depression, but it's ridiculous in the end.

that bit of wisdom is also true and I AM over it. Why so much aggression in the replies? annoying.

depression acts different in everyone. get over it. aaaaaaa

Honestly you can do a lot of activities and still be depressed, you can be at a party, you be on a date, you can be alone at a park, you can go to work, etc. I used to do all those things and still feel depressed inside. My depression was constant and I traveled with it but now thankfully I'm ok but either way you can still do things and be depressed

Claudius Buser I get what you're saying,yeah it's true. But it's more than healthy to write or film about it because you're expressing yourself in some sort,and I find that helpful.

Claudius Buser there is a type called high-functioning depression

Marissa Swain again, I never said anything claiming HER depression is not valid. I'm just saying in general  if one of the main symptoms of major depression is you lack will to live or do anything and theses youtubers can even make videos about exactly that. Then logically deducible the cutout for major depressive episode isn't reached.
It's coincidence that I wrote this under one of her videos, could've written it about anyone's video or book or whatever about crippling depression.
But again I'm far from rating anyone's symptoms.

Buser, if you watched Dodie regularly you would see that this video was recorded and produced in a very different way than some of her other videos where she WASN'T in this state while working on them. There is a difference. Some people have high tolerances and can force themselves to do things. Especially since it's essentially her job to do so. I personally can't do shit other than lie in bed and eat junk when i'm going through a wave of depression but that doesn't mean her sickness isn't as valid as mine because she can express what she's going through in a productive way.

This comment is quite offensive to me.  Yes ofc that's what you want to do, but some people can't.  They have to get up and try their best to get through the day.

Yeah that's fair enough my bad for that.

SideOrderOfBeef I never claimed anything about her specific state. But I get that it could be interpreted like this. My "observation" was of a general nature about all these youtubers for example who can even turn their handicap into a business or something, which is a contradiction in my opinion.

In my opinion you can still do some things even when at the lowest of moods. All Dodie is doing here is talking to herself and a vague bit of editing. Both aren't being done to the highest of energy so I don't see how it means she has light depression? <br>This was uploaded around midnight so for all we know she had been in bed all day prior to this. Not saying you're wrong but I disagree with your opinion.

In my opinion you can still do some things even when at the lowest of moods. All Dodie is doing here is talking to herself and a vague bit of editing. Both aren't being done to the highest of energy so I don't see how it means she has light depression?
This was uploaded around midnight so for all we know she had been in bed all day prior to this. Not saying you're wrong but I disagree with your opinion.

That is obviously both true that we experience things differently cuz we are different people and that there are different types of depression. But these "helpful" commentators didn't get my point. But it is hard to convey.

It's almost like everyone's minds are different, and experience things differently. Crazy, I know.


Nooo I don’t like seeing the cry marks on your face 😞😞😢🧡I love you doodle


I think this is kind of irresponsible? I feel terrible for dodie, it's awful to feel this way and it's fine if she wants to talk about her problems and educate people, but she knows that she's got a massive audience who may well be in a vulnerable position, and saying all this without any advice or urge to get help or constructive ideas feels like she's ignoring her responsibility as a public figure. I know she may not be able to say anything positive right now, but she should also be aware of the influence she has on the well-being of others.

VL She has given lots of advice in many other videos, talked about therapy, how and where to find help from others and how to try to make yourself feel better.
This video, though, might not have given any kind of advice, but made me feel a little better in a way I cant really explain.
The bad days are exactly like this – pessimism feels like plain reality and trying to be positive just makes you feel worse, and that It's your fault that you feel pain because you are too weak to get better for your own sake.
So, I dont know, this kind of made me feel like I am not alone in this? Of course It's just my point of view.

She mentions IN THIS VIDEO that she's in therapy and has mentioned in many other videos that she is getting help and is in contact with medical professionals and is going to therapy regularly and is getting help.  So that message is there.  But even when you're getting help, you still have shit days.  This was her sharing hers and the reality that treatment is not a cure and that it can take a long time to find a plan that will actually help you get better.

She takes her influence on others very seriously and this video is a part of that.

Hi. I am an extremely depressed and anxious person. Currently planning my death (don't worry I've never actually tried and never will I just need to fill this emptiness by making up completely random plans like hanging myself with helium balloons. I mean, come on, helium balloons?! That'd be a great way to go).<br>Anyway I am a person "in a vulnerable position" imo and seeing this video by Dodie makes me feel better. I know that someone else is going through the exact same things as me and that makes me want to die less. It is also a form of therapy for Dodie unbottling her problems so her brain doesn't explode. And what's more she gets loads of support from lovely people.

Hi. I am an extremely depressed and anxious person. Currently planning my death (don't worry I've never actually tried and never will I just need to fill this emptiness by making up completely random plans like hanging myself with helium balloons. I mean, come on, helium balloons?! That'd be a great way to go).
Anyway I am a person "in a vulnerable position" imo and seeing this video by Dodie makes me feel better. I know that someone else is going through the exact same things as me and that makes me want to die less. It is also a form of therapy for Dodie unbottling her problems so her brain doesn't explode. And what's more she gets loads of support from lovely people.

Rebecca Stenlake I agree that it's important for her to share her experiences and be honest, and I know that when I had depression I found it comforting to hear that other people felt the same way as I did, but I also know that if someone like dodie had just said at the end of their video "if you feel like this, please get some help" I would have got the support I needed and started getting better a lot sooner

Education is not faking. Education is showing both sides of a coin. Education is showing what else she can say even when at times she feels like this.<br>Do you really think now is the time to critisize her?

Education is not faking. Education is showing both sides of a coin. Education is showing what else she can say even when at times she feels like this.
Do you really think now is the time to critisize her?


Please stop making a MENTAL ILLNESS look like a cute, fun thing. You literally don’t take medication yet ( at the time this came out) so I mean you aren’t severely depressed are you Hun

She very clearly is not making it look “cute”

Papa John so you have to be severely depressed and taking medication or else you aren’t depressed? Seriously? Depression is different for everyone.

wait - just because you don't take medication doesn't mean you aren't depressed??

Papa John I don't think so. She likes to share how she feels with her audience and in my opinion I love it. It feels  nice to feel that you are not the only one. Everytime somebody talks about I don't know why you guys keep commenting OmG ShE iS sO fAkE yOu aRe nOt dEpReSsEd. You don't know how she feels You Cant read mind

Soozie Plays yes they’re awful, it’s my opinion hunty she acts like a 12 yr old going through their tumblr phase


Jesus guys. Give Jesus a chance to change your depression. Just try. Not church people, just Jesus. The Bible. Give him a chance.

I'm an atheist and could care less about religion.

Caitlin Morrison. It was just a suggestion. No reason to get upset. I did not say that Christians can't have depression, just that religion might help. Hope you have a blessed day

Racist Puff well i'm an atheist, so jesus and god don't really help?

Racist Puff, thank you. I do love Dodie, I support her channel, I do covers of her songs, and I all around just love what she is producing. I don't agree with her lifestyle, and I think Jesus could give her some relief. He gave me hope, love, and peace, so I suggest you check him out. I repeat, not church people, JESUS. He hung out with those he didn't agree with, and no one forced them to follow him. We are all living in sin and no one is perfect. I don't care what you are living in, what you support, or what you do in your life, JESUS CAME FOR YOU. He loves you if you're gay, bi, purple, or blue. I just shared some advice that has helped me, but people have come at me for it. Just like you have freedom of speech, I DO TOO. Christians should not be excluded for speaking their minds.

+Savannah Craft, listen, I'm all for practicing your religion and if God makes you live your life better, then all the power to you, but she wants medical help. MEDICAL. It doesn't seem like she wants Jesus. In other videos, she's talked about her inability and lack of desire for religion. That is fine. And as for her bisexuality, she isn't living in sin. lgbt+ people have had too many people tell us that we're in need of fixing, or we are sinners. And I hate to break it to ya, but if you refer to people who aren't cishets as 'living in sin' you're homophobic. Cut and dried.

rae He does. Jesus and God are the same. Jesus is the physical version (you could say) of God, who was on Earth and caused all of the jazzy snazzy stuff. I assure you, he is. <br>Also, I get depressed once in a while, but less than Dodie. In that time, I don't feel like doing ANYTHING but sleep and eat. It's decreased a lot. I've become much more positive, optimistic. Jesus gives me a lot of hope, and I'm not afraid of anything anymore (I used to be afraid of so much....)

rae He does. Jesus and God are the same. Jesus is the physical version (you could say) of God, who was on Earth and caused all of the jazzy snazzy stuff. I assure you, he is.
Also, I get depressed once in a while, but less than Dodie. In that time, I don't feel like doing ANYTHING but sleep and eat. It's decreased a lot. I've become much more positive, optimistic. Jesus gives me a lot of hope, and I'm not afraid of anything anymore (I used to be afraid of so much....)

Savannah Craft depression has to do with chemicals in your head, not with a god. Sometimes people don't need religion and thats okay.

+Lydia Winchester I understand where you're coming from. I love Dodie so much, but she is bisexual, and I don't agree with her. My Jesus came for those who are lost and in need of saving. When he came to earth, he hung with the people who were living in sin, not those who were already righteous. That doesn't mean you are a bad person if you are bisexual, but it does mean you are living in sin in God's eyes. I would do some Bible research and soul searching to find out if this is really a way God can use you to your full potential. Spread the love! - Savannah

Lydia Winchester me too, I have literally the same exact circumstances. I've just realized that He loves me no matter what, and should want me to be happy

So I'm Christian myself (well my parents are and I go to a Christian school but sometimes I just dont know what to believe) and I'm bi. But I know LGBT isnt really accepted, so I'm very curious what you think and if you have any tips for me. Love Lydia

+Beck Styles He is. And He loves you. If you did your research, you would know that he did exist on Earth and was a prophet by dictionary standards. Even if you don't believe it's the word of God, the Bible is one of the best-kept records of all time in terms of lineage and such. He loves you. He died for you. He can help you.

Savannah Craft I agree! when she was saying "longing for something" I kept thinking.. I use to be there! Until I found Jesus and everything made sense!


I don’t think it’s a good I can relate so freaking much oh well


not my chair, not my problem is what i say.


I fill the same all the time and tried to tell some one my friends said oh it's nothing and I always fell like crying and I'm so sad and I can't do anything about it p.s I cried seeing people sad herts me


Today I spent the whole day laying on the floor on my phone please help me


Can you get depression or can you only be born with it?

itsLilo You can develop it when traumatic events occur or just because of how your brain is dysfunctional


ur like dan howwel the girl version! he also spends everyday in bed! eat less food everyday! ok. thats nothing too put a "!" mark on each sentence


блять, как я здесь оказался,ахах?

блять, как я здесь оказался,ахах?


Hello my name is Sylvie and I’m depressed  E V E R Y day


After Pcos I feel depressed quite a lot and nobody can relate or understand. My husband is amazing but I can't help it uffff. Don't OK I guess. 😒


I can relate to this SO WELL but I just want you to know that when your anxiety , depersonalisation or depression really gets you down then just know that we’re here for you dodie and that we love you xxx


It's so interesting (for me, at least) to watch this when I'm feeling healthy and when I'm feeling really gross. The things that stick out to me are different and it's fascinating. I agree with everything you're saying. Right now, I'm feeling really good and excited for my future. Thank you for making this and for everything that you do! 💛


Thank you for making this! This is exactly how I feel and will continue to feel for a while. xo


Thank you for putting into words how I feel and being able to show my parents this, so they can somewhat understand how I feel xx


I've watched this video like 7 times and I always come back to it and I love it thanks Dodie for being sooo real


This is so good, when you talked about how you feel on depression days, I started crying. I thought I was the only one that felt that way a lot, and I know that's cliche and s***, but I really never thought that anyone else properly struggled with it.


i'm on a dodie marathon while drawing and it's... it's very calming. thank you dodie :)


I’ve been trying to explain to my parents how I’m feeling and I may send this video to them because it completely puts every single little feeling I’m feeling into words. Thank you dodie


I want to be a physiatrist/therapist when I'm older, your videos really help me with my work.<br>Also, my best friend has depression, you help me help her. ❤

I want to be a physiatrist/therapist when I'm older, your videos really help me with my work.
Also, my best friend has depression, you help me help her. ❤


Thank you so much for this Dodie. I want to show it to my dad so he can hopefully understand me better. People in my family have a tendency to assume I’m lazy. This will help. I love you.


It’s nice to know one of my idols also goes to therapy. Thank you for making this Dodie


Feely feeling. I love you Dodie. You have taught me so much


thank you for being so open about this. i love you so much. this is how i feel all the time (i have depression) and i just. GOD I'm so glad to hear someone expressing exactly what i'm feeling.


The entire time I was watching this I was like “YES YES EXACTLY” you explained it so well. I can never explain my depression. I’m the same way. Except maybe a bit more tears.


i can relate to this on so many levels..... thank you dodie!!! <3


I always come back to this video when im going through a dark day/time. Makes me feel less alone. Thankyou.


I'm going to show this to my parents. They're so amazing, but I just think this will help them even more. Thank you.


I've been having a bad day and i somehow found my way back to this video to feel validated, its so easy to think you're alone and no one would understand  how you're feeling but you make me feel understood and i wish i could explain my thoughts and feelings as well as you but no matter what i appreciate you and am so grateful for you and your videos


I remember when you posted this, I was really depressed during that period of time and I would go to this video so much. Ahh I'm starting to tear up just typing this, I'm gonna stop, but what I wanted to say out of that is, dodie... you've helped me more than you can imagine, it's still bad for me but you still help soooo much


The most relatable things I've ever seen after diagnosed with depression. Yeay! That's my life everyday now! Thanks Doddie. 😄<br>I wish I could just ask people to see this and understand my struggle.

The most relatable things I've ever seen after diagnosed with depression. Yeay! That's my life everyday now! Thanks Doddie. 😄
I wish I could just ask people to see this and understand my struggle.


To be honest, this is my favourite video by Dodie. 💖


currently feeling depressed all over again... watching this i realize that it’s okay to seek help. you’ve helped me realize i’m not alone. thank you, i love you!!!


I can relate to everything you’re saying, thank you for posting this


Oh my god I love you so much. All of us will always love you Dodieeee 💘


this video describes my situation perfectly thank you dodie


I adore the way you express yourself in the words you choose and how you see things. you’re such a beautiful person dodie <3


You just articulated every little thing. Like, holy shit. It just hit me that this is like a real standardized thing that other people feel the exact same way.


Idk why but whenever I feel depressed I always go click on one of Dodie’s videos,I don’t care which,just to hear her soft and lovely voice.


I couldn’t explain how I feel when I’m depressed but U perfectly explained it thank you


Gosh this entire video is such a good vocalization of chemical depression. I agreed with every single thing you said. It sucks feeling depressed and knowing there is no real reason for it, and not being able to change it. You know you're going to feel better again, and yet you can't actually convince yourself of it... even though you do know it's true? It's like having two brains.


Wow, this is so relatable because your describing it so well, and I feel like this way a lot too, to all the people think they know what depression is, or what it feels like you have no idea


This is absolutely what happens to me. Just recently I spent ALOT of money on a night out with my significant other and ended up being depersonalized the entire time. It really hurt to not enjoy something as much as I could have if it wasn't an off day. This happens so often I feel  like I'm at such a loss of what life could truly be. I blamed myself for it originally, but I am slowly coming to terms with this mental illness I've been stuck with. I'm grateful someone with such influence is willing to talk about depression and denationalization and educate the internet on mental illness. Thank you Dodie.


Thank you for posting this. I might just record myself talking on a bad day too... it could be a nice way to vent maybe??? This has been really nice to watch. Thank you again.


Just had a depressive episode.. this video somehow made me a bit happier and happier overtime :)


i too struggle with derealization and am currently in counseling, which helps, but yeah. some days i wake up and the world looks foggy and nothing seems real and some tea with edamame feels like the only thing that helps? it's weird how that works isn't it… so after watching this vid, i associate tea and edamame with comfort when i'm feeling particularly spaced out. thank you dodie <3


i have honestly never listened to/seen something so relatable and it's kinda sad but it's also kinda reassuring in a weird way.

at least there are good days sometimes


I just found this channel and I'm so happy I did this video made me feel really good!


I heard her song sick of losing soulmates and now I'm here. I love the style of her vlogs.


no ones ever explained my head as much as you have. that longing feeling never goes away


this is exactly what depression feels like. I have never heard it described so well.


I'm so thankful someone put it into words. Thank you


I relate to everything you said in this. Especially when you said you look ahead of you an everything looks ‘painted on’


Hey everyone,  I knew some of you have been feeling down or having negative emotions and have a hard time expressing how you feel into positive ways. That is why I have created an awareness project that brings light to these feelings and issues that are so prevalent into today’s society. If you are interested, or know someone who might be, you can go to my youtube channel and watch some of the videos that talk about these things. I  always have other social media platforms that you can find in the description under my first video “Suicide Awareness and Prevention Project”. Maybe some of the content will help you or someone you know! These are still new and so I am still working on uploading videos discussing different topics. But I hope this serves the public well! Stay strong everyone!


Love this video so much I love learning about mental illnesses and how they affect people


She looks so much happier in her recent video I’m so proud ❤


This reminds me of the first real depressed moment I remember. I went to John and hank green’s need con and it was supposed to be fun. But I was depressed that weekend and highly annoyed that I couldn’t find it fun.


This is exactly how I feel. I just wish I could tell someone.


This feeling and description it just relates to me on such a high level I can’t even believe it


i relate to this so much... some days im like that, empty and void, and others there is like a animal of negativity inside of me trying to burst through my skin...


it sucks that i relate to this but i do. thank you at least for sharing so all of us know we are not alone <3


There are days or moments when I would feel like this and just constantly space out even more than usual then I'd just try to hide it by saying that I'm feeling sick. I just didn't want to talk and explain to people because nothing could cheer me up anyways.. I always thought that "oh I'm just sad and overreacting. I'm far from depressed" but then I watched this and it hit me hard.. I don't want to say I'm depressed because I'm not yet diagnosed but what Dodie said was accurate..


I've never had someone describe exactly how I feel.


this is such a good video, i dont even like dodie but this was great


I swear she explains it So Fricking well I understand exactly how she feels and now I understand my emotions


I never knew how to describe it and wow, this is exactly it


could you make more videos about depersonalisation and derealisation? because all I ever hear about is, people having it in phases. I have it for 2 years straight now.. like chronical. And I'm so curious how you deal with it, considering you've got it for 4 years now.

Also I'm really enjoying your videos. You're the cutest girl ever :)

Love from germany xoxo


I have to admit, around 4:20 (hahaha) I couldn’t help but to burst out sobbing. All day I’ve just felt absolutely awful for no good reason and just to have this feeling I didn’t even know I was feeling put into words was so.... relieving. I feel like dodie speaking about her feelings just helps me realize my own and just.... thank u dodie.... you’re the bisexuality + mental health awareness icon we deserve ❤❤


this is the best video on the internet.. fight me. she literally described me on certain days


Thanks for taking the time to make this. Really needed to see it.


I don’t feel like going into detail, but my friend attempted suicide two weeks ago and I was there. I was there through everything, right after she texted that she took two bottles of pills. I won’t get to see her until November 15, aka about another month. I was already depressed but now I’m also longing for something I cant have, and I relate to this so much, and this is literally my entire thought process to a tee and it’s scary how much I relate to you.


I've come across people in my life who say that being depressed is 'stupid' and just your way of getting attention from people but that's not true. I suffer through depression and it's not a easy thing to deal with but hearing your story and my other favourite YouTubers (Mainly Dan Howell) helps me see that having depression is just a part of you that will always live and something that is okay to have. My friends have depression worse than I do and I try to help (which leads to my own problems) them. I know this is really late but thank you for posting this. Whenever I get depressed I know who to watch - From a huge ball of mess Ella


This is so amazing. I started showing signs of depression in 3rd grade. I’m serious. My mom’s mom has bipolar depression (i didn’t know that till i was probably almost 16.) My mom had to live with it her whole life, she very very much didn’t want me to fall down the same path (her mom was so gone, she doesn’t even realize something is wrong. It’s the saddest thing ever. I wish I could help. My mom at 6 started COOKING her own dinner, she made eggs a lot.) She also knew, kids when they hit the beginning of puberty can experience depressive episodes due to hormones and putting those kids on antidepressants can make their brain rely on them, when their brain will fix itself all by itself when it gets the hormones under control. Sooooo, my mom kinda ignored/tried to get me to do stuff when i was going through this. I understand now what she was doing, but when it was happening i felt very misunderstood. That poem by Sabrina B(something) about depression when she says “MOM ITS NOT THAT EASY TO HAVE FUN WHEN YOU DONT REALLY WANT TO HAVE FUN” (something like that) me 2 all day. I spent basically a year and a half of my life in my room (my mom tried so hard she really did this was on me) and then i wanted to kill myself so bad. She finally sat me down
what do you feel most of the time?
nothing
how often a day do you get happy?
not every day? and when i do it only lasts about 5 seconds, i try really hard for you to make you happy, but sometimes i can’t
okay, i know baby, how many days a week do you feel happy feelings? 3 maybe 4 on a good week
when was the last time you really truly felt happy, i know you know how real happy feels?
before 3rd grade?

then she gave me a long talk about how it wasn’t my fault and it’s like how a diabetic doesn’t make insulin
i soon after was put on antidepressants

i was SOOOO happy my mom would cry and say she hadn’t seen me that happy in YEARS

i would still have “depressed” days, i didn’t understand. I was taking my meds like i was supposed to, what’s wrong? I found out it’s normal, when i have those days though it’s hard for me to continue taking them. I had a struggle with that for maybe a year. I’m better now. I also still have just “sad” days. It’s the sad I used to get before being depressed.

This explains so well what depression felt like for me. I hope whomever is reading this never feels what depression feels like, it’s so heavy and tiring. At the same time, nothing at all, throw anxiety in (my mom doesn’t believe in medicating anxiety, so i deal with panic attacks etc myself,) you also feel anxiety about nothing that you don’t care about. It’s terrible, please don’t romanticize it.


I relate so much and I don’t know what to do about it most of the time


You're making depression look like a good thing. I find this video really problematic and it made me really angry.


this made me cry because I feel everything about this especially about wanting to go back and feeling everything when you feel nothing anymore. my feelings are so forced now as if im trying to be happy for other people but when im alone im just blank, like a mannequin or something absolutely no emotion.


Dodie...have you ever tried natural medicines like medicinal marijuana?


This is so relatable. If people just say, oh watch your favourite movie or eat your favourite snack, but you can't. Anything that makes you feel happy and excited, has no effect on you when you're depressed. You always just feel sad and meh. But I got over it. And I hope everyone gets through it too!! Xxx 😊💕❤


I'm not depressed, but after watching this I related A LOT. Maybe a little more than I should've. Especially since I'm a very happy person half of the time. Do you have some advice to deal with this?


i'm reading secrets for the mad and i just finished reading this and i can just imagine this dodie writing it


I have an under-active thyroid and my doctor said that was probably the reason I felt so shitty yay. I always wonder, if it was just a situational factor, such as my mum trying to kill herself (that happened twice, yay), would it be easier to climb out of the hole?
It's in my brain, it's deep down into my genetic code, so how the hell do I escape it? Depression and mental illness is literally a part of my DNA, so how do I escape? If it was purely situational, would I be able to think "okay, I can escape the black"?
:)


“My working head and my not working head are so different and they don’t have EMPATHY for each other at all” I feel this on so many levels.


wow this is so relatable thanks for making this


This is exactly like me. I really wish I could meet you and be best friends with you 😞


I just about lost my shit at "not my chair not my problem," I haven't heard a Drinking Out of Cups reference in years hahaha


1:30 I started tearing up in front of my friends cause I feel that way almost everyday, yes I’m with my friends because they drag me out of my house


"Problem is, today, I didn't have to check" The way she said that and the tone of her voice has me crying in the club


this is how I'm feeling today for sure. 4pm. haven't left my bed.


And this video was only earlier this year... :_( I hope everything's okay now Dodie <3


i am very depressed and suicidal at the moment, but i have a quick question for anyone who would like to answer. is it normal to not be able to cry sometimes? like your so sad but you just can't cry?


thank you so much for describing my thoughts.


"My working head and my not working head....and they don't have empathy for each other at all" TRUTH.


Sometimes I feel like I'm not awake and everything feels really weird and when it happens I start feeling really sad because It's like this cloud of weird dreamyness has sucked the fun out of everything but I don't think I'm depressed because it only happens when I'm in the middle of doing something really fun and it lasts for 15mins to 1hr and I don't really know what to do 🙃😞


Omg I relate so much but I have trouble communicating it so I showed this to my mom to have her understand


I love u dodie, i hope u know that, u actually have no idea who i am. I wish the best for u.


hEY LET'S RANT
So, the way Dodie describes her perspectives and thoughts and just how it feels to be her and in her mind when she's in this state- that's how I feel all of the time. Every now and then I have these little moments of clarity, but normally everything is just a giant mass of bland. I don't get "happy", I don't get "sad". I just get "ugh". I always feel so dazed and uncomfortable, and I just can't pull satisfaction from anything. You know when you're a kid and you have those nightmares where there's nothing particularly scary going on, but everything seems distorted and obscure and scary? that's how i feel all the time. and my mind is like a split universe. i'll have two separate trains of thought going at the same time. one will be responsible and positive while the other is just like a blanket of negativity thrown over my head. and i'm annoyingly laughy and jokey at school, with my friends, and i know that i'm annoying. the only reason i put on that front is because if i don't, i'll just be so blank and so uncomfortable and paranoid and if that's how i present myself, i'll be alone and sad and aaaa. i remember one time at school in sixth grade, i was giggling like mad over barely anything just to seem normal, to try and make myself feel like i was "happy", and looking beside me to see the one friend i had just giving me an awful stare. i knew at that moment that i was truly a mess, because for the first time in a while the bland, numb feeling sort of broke, and i just started to cry. i felt like i had physical weights on my chest. i had to get up and leave, and pretend that i was sick so that my poor mother could leave work despite her boss screaming at her to come and get me. ugh. just- how do you express these feelings to someone just to know that someone knows about it and seemingly cares, even if it's just them trying to be nice, without being an attention whore? i get enough attention, i don't want people to be troubled over me at all when they have to worry about themselves and the people that deserve affection and understanding, but am i wrong to want some for myself? i don't know, i guess i wish that i had someone who could make me feel anything but this, but i know that it isn't a storybook, that can't happen, it's me and my mind and no single human can fix that. nobody can fix the fact that i always feel like everything around me is moving at double speed and i'm stuck in slow motion. i feel like i can't focus and i don't feel like the things around me aren't real- i feel like i'm the one that isn't real. i feel like i'm just part of someone, and i can't function normally. i don't understand myself or who i am, and everything is too much and i'm such an immature child about this.

wow why is that my brain typed up in a youtube comments section goddamn oops


everytime i try to tell my mum i feel depressed, or literally anything about my mental health, her answer is "you're just going through puberty. maybe you're just gonna get your period again soon." she doesn't understand mental health issues. i have a brother, and he has mental issues as well and all my parents do to try and help him is take him to doctors and take medicines. im 5 years younger so they don't take my issues as seriously and it makes life ten times more painful when i don't have anyone to come to for help.


3:28 once my parents tried to cheer me up when I was depressed, they took me to go see the ocean and to go see the city, and I felt like an asshole when I didn't want to leave the car and i didn't get anything good and fun from that trip, I felt really bad


When I’m feeling depressed, I’m not really where I am physically emotionally. For example, at school, I’m there, I talk to my friends and stuff, but I just feel so disconnected, like I’m just walking through life instead experiencing it. I don’t eat, I barely talk unless I have to (Like when my friends start talking to me), and I just..I don’t know. I can’t really put in all into words..


I have literally watched this 3 times now


crap i relate to this too much right now


To me, depression is like a 500pound object is sitting on me that I can not even breath or enjoy anything. Even worse is when people try to help and ask what is the reason, but you don't even know. Its just there, following you dragging you where ever you go. If Im feeling happy, laughing or enjoying something even for 10 seconds I am grateful even when its gone. It sucks. It really sucks.


i also feel like i’m in a dream and weird


i feel like this a lot. But one of my friends said that maybe its because i am comparing myself to Dodie or trying to be like her since i look up to her so much. i do not know what is going on with me or my mind. Sometimes i just feel nothing or unsatisfaction with little droplets of sadness, then my dad gets mad at me. It usually happens when i have martial arts class that my dad teaches, and it always sucks because i just feel so empty and he gets mad at me because i look like a "zombie". If i try to explain it he will just get mad and confused because i don't really know how to explain it and he will think its a phase or i am watching too many videos or something. But the fact that i know a lot about mental health for my age should be a bit concerning or the fact that i have brought up suicide or major deppressive disorders or different mental health dissorders and issues should probably concern him at least a tad to think of my mental state. or at least i would think so


I've never related to something more in my life


i don't suffer from depression. any mental illness at all. it's just that, today, after smiling at everything, out of nowhere, my brain just starts thinking about everything else technically irrelevant in my short life. out of nowhere i want to talk to someone, the topic doesn't really matter, i want to feel surrounded. i am currently upstairs, listening to "paris" by the 1975 on loop, i don't want to go downstairs, i don't want to practice guitar for a presentation i'll be doing. i want to feel "full".


I'm sorry you feel bad, but you're reeeeaally selling me on those beans.


For those who dont know what real depression is. This is it. Its not just feeling sad. Its feeling tired And hopeless. Sad is not even close to being depressed, depression makes you feel like you arent really here. I have depression. And its never that im sad. Theres nothing to be sad about. Im just tired, feeling like the things or people around me arent actually there. And feeling hopeless and then i end up crying(sometimes) because of it. Ugh it sucks honestly.


I usually eat plain slices of bread when I’m on a depressed day<br>What do other people eat

I usually eat plain slices of bread when I’m on a depressed day
What do other people eat


How can you be depress if you were watching rick and morty? <br>Look at me

How can you be depress if you were watching rick and morty?
Look at me


I have an eating disorder, and sometimes I wake up, and I just want to lay back down and sleep the whole day away because I feel disgusting and fat.
But I can’t do that, because I have to go to school, and I have to take tests, and I have to get up.
I recently went to my therapist and she got on the subject of how it might have started.
I had told her before “I don’t really think anything happened.” But because I was so depressed and felt so gross, I realized, there was that starting place.
My sister with autism, eats plenty of food, sometimes way more than needed, and she gained weight. I got scared. My mother was watching a show with skinny girls and said that that can only be achieved by oatmeal and apples a day. My mother told me I’d never be as skinny as my friend because that’s not my body.
So me falling into this disorder, was me controlling myself, and basically saying “I’ll show you.”
I am writing this, and feeling silly, hoping no one sees this, hoping no one notices me because I don’t want others to see my silly moments.
But I’m writing this, because I want someone to see this.
Now I am quite conflicted and annoyed with myself for this vent or whatever this is...
~Sincerly, Jay D.
P.S. If you’ve read this...hello


no way is this relatable... you're depressed, and i totally understand that as someone who also suffers. but, this is not a 9-5 job where you HAVE to wake up and follow that strict routine. i have mornings where i don't want to, but i know i have to... so, learn about that actual routine. you can wake up, have this feeling and be allowed to have space to take care of yourself... maybe record a video... or tweet that you can't. what about us that are living the socially "normal" life? what about us that must wake up, deal with depression and get on with work....


Ew, there are some really disgusting people on the comments. I can’t wrap my head around how people think that dodie is romanticising this, or over reacting. I don’t understand how people don’t believe you are depressed. It’s really gross


I wish I saw this at 12. Youtube literally launched the year I turned 12.


MmmmmmmugggHHHH I've been telling myself all day I'm just In a mood but fuck im depressed. Don't worry it's not just based on this video I have this feeling a lot and it was great to listen to someone be depressed with me but fuCK I'm depressed. Also I'm writing an informative essay on you because you're a huge inspiration to me


I relate to this s omuch an evryhting you said jus really made me feel understood and less alone. thanks so much


My feelings are weird. Everyday seems like a dream and that everything i Have is not enough and that my life is just a boring floating dream. i feel worthless and sad all the time yet i can laugh like a normal person, i just can’t be happy. I stay in my head, daydreaming situations like a dream inside of a dream. Everything is just so painted and fake and nothing ever feels like it is enough. Like there is something that was taken away. i don’t feel heavy, i just feel it at the front of my mind, nagging, but like a screen. It’s so weird and hard and i constantly feel like that’s how it’s always going to feel. Like I’m forcing that on myself. And you want to know what’s worse. My brain keeps wanting all the bad things. All the good things in life now seem plain and unneeded. My brains saying, “Depression would be better, it will make you needed. You need it” Everyday it says that i would be better off suffering from a mental or physical illness. Someone tell me if you feel this too.<br> i don’t want to be alone.

My feelings are weird. Everyday seems like a dream and that everything i Have is not enough and that my life is just a boring floating dream. i feel worthless and sad all the time yet i can laugh like a normal person, i just can’t be happy. I stay in my head, daydreaming situations like a dream inside of a dream. Everything is just so painted and fake and nothing ever feels like it is enough. Like there is something that was taken away. i don’t feel heavy, i just feel it at the front of my mind, nagging, but like a screen. It’s so weird and hard and i constantly feel like that’s how it’s always going to feel. Like I’m forcing that on myself. And you want to know what’s worse. My brain keeps wanting all the bad things. All the good things in life now seem plain and unneeded. My brains saying, “Depression would be better, it will make you needed. You need it” Everyday it says that i would be better off suffering from a mental or physical illness. Someone tell me if you feel this too.
 i don’t want to be alone.


I’m feeling really depressed right now and it’s so close to Christmas I’m scared I won’t enjoy it


Completely straying from the topic of this video, but I just realized Dodie was watching Rick and Morty at the beginning of this... yeah


I have never related to a video so much before


I can tell by her eyes she has been crying...


how do i know if im depressed? i feel like this on my bad days, but depression is such a tabu and i dont wanna be that "teenager". So how?


I wanna eat peas now AND I DON'T HAVE ANY


Technically, depression is not a feeling or something that can ever go away. If you actually have the mental illness, you always have it and will always have it once you develop it. Also, it is not sadness or feeling down. It's very different. So, if you have depression, you don't feel it just one day of your life. That means you don't have depression, you're just sad/feeling down. Yes, you don't feel it every single day, but if you have it you don't just feel it once or twice or every once in a while.


I could never agree more and I'm so relating to this.

Same it seems like I'm crazy,chill or just basically drunk as fuck


i love you<br>stay safely grounded you amazing anteater

i love you
stay safely grounded you amazing anteater


Omgggggggg u speak my mind!!!  Ahahhaahah sorry it’s shouldn’t be funny, but when i find someone speaking what my mind does, it feels like an inner joke for me. N it makes me laugh.... its like talking to one of my friend who have it too...... ermmmmm...oookaaay..Im being all weird now. Anyway, nice to meet you!


You can't just be depressed for just a day it's not on or off its there and it stays there....but no hate :/


Wait..... sometimes I felt this like just I....feel gross  just I am.. just a other world like...space


Did a non love song get inspiration from this?


0:06 i think ur depressed from setting up these camera angles


I'm happy u don't cut like me dodie he the best u make me happy


I didn't think other people felt like me....mmh


today was a bad day for me, for no reason. it’s like i fell into a dark whole a couple years ago and i still haven’t found my way out. i just stay in bed all day, bored out of my mind but unsatisfied by everything. i can’t even bring myself to make food, open my curtains, take a shower, brush my teeth. it sucks. i just cry until i have none left to give and then i feel guilty, but i still can’t get out of bed. it really sucks.


I have a few things to say...
I'm craving beans which I had for lunch but I want more
I'm depressed and usually I have a few people to talk to but I feel alone at this point
I can't be bothered doing much atm, tomorrow is supposed to be great but I'm feeling anxious and unexcited about it
Please kill me
I need professional help but last time I approached my mum about it she thought I was just really sad and didn't believe me so I'm still stuck in this low

11 months later and i'm worse, in a different situation. i'm lonely and scared and i don't have anyone left to really call a friend and the ones i do are teetering on a line and if we slip it's over.

Oh and don't say try talk to my dad because he will just get mad at me like he does about everything serious I feel (: