But depression isn't daily, its comes as monthly episodes, lasts for months

Lane Thomas read my other replies we’ve gone over this ??

@emma you're brave for sharing these things, i'm glad you feel better, you're right and have a nice day aswell :)

直美 Yes it is, but it is still different for everyone. Some people can’t even get out of bed, some people can still go about their days seemingly fine when really they are not.

NFA78 I’ve had depression myself. So i know what it is and what’s it’s like. I don’t think her intention with this video was to spread false information. I think the point of this video is that you can be depressed, but have worse days than others. Her wording wasn’t right, obviously. Because depression isn’t something you just feel one day and then don’t the next, but it is something that can be awful one day and not so much in the next few, if you understand what i’m saying. A few years ago i was extremely depressed to the point i contemplated suicide and even attempted. Now, I’m better. i’m no longer taking meds for depression and i’m all around happier, but there are days i feel down like i did when i WAS. I hope this clears up what i said better. have a nice day/evening. xo

Being depressed means not caring if you die, which causes you to not care about leaving the bed, eat, speak with people, drugs will be very attractive, strong feeling of guilt, lack of will power, anxiety, lack of energy, disruptive sleep and more, it lasts for months and it takes a really long time or sometimes never for the person to realize they're depressed, but it's noticable by others, now not all depression episodes come that strong, but it gets to that state if you continue with the same lifestyle or don't get treatment.
Basically you can never say, today im depresses or this week or this month, it will be false, its just you're doing many things wrong,
2 things can tell you if you're depressed :
1. You really haven't cared if you died for months( since the thought of death occurs more while depressed)
2. You notice that for several months you can't follow just one routine and can't control yourself and organize yourlife with an extreme feeling of guilt all the time even over small things.

@emma it's not tho, depression isn't felt daily, depression is a long-term struggle, not a daily mood


CoQ10 is great for head fog which counters feeling detached. Its just an OTC supplement.


Depression fucking sucks. That's all there is to say. I know it's different for everyone, but for me it feels like something that's constantly pushing down on me and looking over my shoulder. It's been progressively getting worse, despite my life is progressively getting better. I don't know. It just sucks. And there's nothing you can do about it sometimes. And she's totally right. You can't do anything. Everything feels boring. You're just in this void. And since there's nothing to do, you sit alone and think, which for those of you who aren't depressed, thinking alone while depressed can be harmful. So for me, I'm stuck with these negative thoughts about myself 100% of the time and nothing to do about it. And there are times when you feel like it might never get better. And that's fun because I've been this way since about August. There are sometimes things you can do to get your mind off of it, but there's not much. The best thing anyone can do is find someone who REALLY cares about you, and is willing to talk to you when you feel shit. It's those people who help the most


Watching this 2 years later, not wanting to leave bed unless for food. Feeling that no one wants me around. Sitting in a black room hoping everything and every thought stops. Life for some people is amazing but others life is a prison. I feel everything she says, therapists try really hard but nothing works I’m stuck in one place. Crying all night not getting sleep. My life has gone downhill and I don’t think it’s going back up.


I've gotten spaced out like four times? It's terrifying. I'd try splashing water on my face slap myself but nothing works you just have to live through it. Thankfully it goes away after I've slept I just understand dodie.


I’m going to end it all tomorrow. I wrote my suicide letters and have them away and my own letter is ready and on my table. I’ll finally have peace then. Thank you all and hope you figure out whatever you’re doing. ❤

@Darin Al-Faraj
You've been trough a lot already that unfair that a parent thinks of their child like that

You are ashamed of what you've done or because of what your entourage think of you ?
Reach out for associations or you probably have a public number to call in this case where you live no ?

Bakary K I’ve tried to talk out, but no one cares. I had 2 friends I really cared for, but they never cared for me, I could be dead and they won’t ever care to call me or ask me how I am. So I got rid of them and cut them off. They’re fake and poisonous people. My parents was really mean to me, they tortured me and beat me all the time I was a child. Hearing my mom telling my dad to “kill her, kill that whore” damaged me totally. I can’t trust anyone. I haven’t felt love and too scared to love anyone. I don’t even dare to get in a relationship. My whole life is a joke and a waste. I’m so ashamed of myself.

@Darin Al-Faraj Did you talk to your closest people about this ? Now you're just trying to convince yourself to do it <br>Please if you didn't do it already seek a little bit of strengh in you to talk you'll miss things in life that you'll probably like

@Darin Al-Faraj Did you talk to your closest people about this ? Now you're just trying to convince yourself to do it
Please if you didn't do it already seek a little bit of strengh in you to talk you'll miss things in life that you'll probably like

My life is just a waste and and I’m a complete shame.

I wish you the same, I don't know what happened to you to go that far but you don't deserve this<br> Think about the people who were there for you and know you like a friend or family... they still have love and attention to spread! Talk to them about your situation, I know this is not easy but they deserve to know your situation not too late...

I wish you the same, I don't know what happened to you to go that far but you don't deserve this
 Think about the people who were there for you and know you like a friend or family... they still have love and attention to spread! Talk to them about your situation, I know this is not easy but they deserve to know your situation not too late...


So I thought I didn’t have depression anymore...

I guess I was wrong


I’m depressed now and I want to make the heaviest chocolate cake


The disassociation is REAL.  I don’t feel real.  I don’t know how this will end.


I think this video is important because not everyone can be happy all the time


I literally did not get out of bed for 2 days, literally just watching YouTube


I didn’t know this is what depression was


I cant help but wonder if living with Hazel doesnt help. Hazel and Jack, as brilliant as they are, are happy. They appear to be SO happy, and I know from personal experience that being so close to a happy couple, makes your sadness feel bigger. On the outside, we barely ever see Hazel, which makes me wonder how much she is around for her roommate and friend. I cant help it. I cant help but be worried that Dodie isnt getting the love and support a person often needs from someone in their own home. Or is she always alone.


I stay in all day with a heavy feeling all on my body ,, I feel so filtered as if I’m in a dream ,,I almost feel as if my body will shut down somehow ,, i dUnno


Dodie watching Rick and Morty is my aesthetic


You have to let go. Understand the fact that you keep yourself ocupied with infinite loops, that consist of "why" questions. You ask them in hope of finding the answer to happines. When you feel depressed i don't think it's logical to find happiness if you don't feel it. Take it logicaly it will probably help you.


oh my gosh i wish this weren't so relatable


Hey Dodie can I write a song out of what you said I've been trying for so long trying to express what I've been feeling and this I exactly it

Cloe Dominguez can you comment the song when it done I think a lot of people would like to hear it ❤😘


I thought it's just me. Like going into a trance or something. The people around me thinks that i am cool, that they want to be like me they said. What they dont know is that i am just tired of being me. Just like in Billie's lyrics, "i wanna end me" is my motto. Keeps muttering "fuck" and "shit" all day for no apparent reasons. This video made me feel good and bad at the same time. I dont want this anymore. I dont know if im depressed or just completely tired or something? I really dont understand anything. I want to stop school and just crumble to dust. I am sooo tireeddd af. I want to be me. Because today, i am not feeling myself. Again.


I hope you know that depression is actually addictive. So if you have been depressed once, It's like quicksand. It will try to pull you down again and it is up to YOU, and ONLY YOU to NOT let it pull you down again. Depression is a very addictive and I mean VERY addictive, state of mind.


I watched this all the time and then I forgot it - "Out of sight out of mind"
Sad it's unlisted..

Edit: Yaaay :D
Now I can go back to being depressed again...


I can definitely relate, some days I just absolutely can't human. but I love u and I hope u know that u r never alone. I'm suicidal and I cope with music, and when I feel down I put on ur album and let myself b sad in a healthy way


I went on fluoxetine and it made me shit for like a month and then I felt normal. So that was good


"not my problem." that part, I swear it sounded like Al Pacino on scarface


Yeah I’m pretty depressed gonna see if I can end it soon good luck hopefully you can do better than me


👏  nice 👏 to 👏 meet you 👏 I’m 👏 depressed 👏


It's just a feeling and then fuel it with thoughts change thought pattern and focus


thats why I drink caffeine and alcohol. Coffee in the morning to make me happy and lift me up. Alcohol to numb myself in the evenings.


Here we go again. Mental breakdown is bacc and so I am here


i had really bad depression like last year but now im feeling better

whoever has to go through any kind of mental health,

you can do it. if i, a thirteen year old girl, can do it, so can you. days will be bad, but there will be a sunshine at the end!


The fact that you stopped watching and didn't finish it... Accurate. That's me.


I always thought maybe the older you are, the better my mindset will be but... in reality it's not at all


if i meet you in person & your depressed can i give you a hug even though you wont get much from it?

໒꒰ྀི ˊᗜˋ* ꒱ྀིა


<b>gives Dodie and everyone in the comments a big hug</b>

*gives Dodie and everyone in the comments a big hug*


Can you do a colab with Dan Howell about this plz❤❤


jeez that's literally what i feel that's 100% person me i mean i can't believe someone feels as i do


Yep.  No worries...its alway's the ass end of thing's that make us happy.<br>I havent figured it out either. 😎

Yep.  No worries...its alway's the ass end of thing's that make us happy.
I havent figured it out either. 😎


If you're stuck at the bottom, grow flowers there. Flowers may be edamame beans or comfy pajamas. You do not need to try and fix everything all at once, just be and take the little things that are somewhat okay. There will not always be an instant release, so donut get discouraged. Keep doin ya thing!


Do you think a dog could be a good friend?


Am I the only one who is relating to this way more than what's healthy?


Idk i think i really needed this idk thank you for making this


This year wasn't always the best for me my grandmother died then my oldest brother kicked my family out my sister almost was molested and now start having sex my two older brothers are ignorant and other is fool my mom and uncle died and my girlfriend moved to Maryland all I can say now is that god tried to make me happy


You can’t have a “daily” mood change so drastic that you called it depression. It’s sadness, you can’t say “oh yeah yesterday i was super happy, today im depressed”

@Beck Styles could it be I'm talking in general? Maybe

That's what I was thinking, this is what I call fake depression... Now everyone thinks they're depressed bc they feel sad one day...


I don't sleep because I know tomorrow is another day... It always comes... The sun goes up the sun goes down, this shit will never end


looking on the bright side, you've managed to make yourself something to eat (which is even proper healthy) and you managed to wash your face before bedtime. that's some fucked up effort when depressed.


eating row beans what an idea :) I never tried


i was supposed to start seeing a therapist...now it feels like they don’t care about getting me my first session. they’re in shock that i feel this way.


I gotta stop checking. Also I’m now craving edamame


your voice looks like the Amy voice, I like it


Is that the sequel to pasta is good life is SAD

theraddestdude we need more ppl like u, lmao u cheered me up ❤

Spaghetti, ha, bbq chips and fig newtons.


@Tamara Miranda i know. what im meaning is that it's very easy to understand. like, im depressed and can't really explain it. i can't really explain it to people?? but she can.


I was too weak to feed myself today that was a low point. I am recovering badly from anorexia I travelled too long and now its too late to get food. I feel faint sometimes was under too much pressure. to remember to eat I feel crushed.


some girl in my grade tried to kill herself and even though i have depression (yes, i was diagnosed) i’ve never tried to kill myself and one day at school i was just having a huge depressive episode and i broke down all day and it was crazy. that girls (who tried to kill herself) best friend told me that if i was really depressed then i should kill myself. i-

Clover :3 aw no it’s fine i’m sorry it made you upset :(

This story made me upset I'm really sorry that happened.


Me throughout life
K-5th grade: fine
6th: DEPRESSED AS ALL HELL
7th: I'm half depressed and half anxious
8th: ANXIOUS AS ALL HELL

5th: no friends
6th: Jumping off the walls
7th: Jumping off the walls
8th: jumping off the walls
9th: reality, anxiety and depression enter

Me:
Until 7th: IM SO HAPPY
8th: ooo look at me I'm so cool gonna be a high schooler next year he he
9th: slow spiral into depression
10th: asks for help from a friend, goes to therapy, now feeling much better and really trying to take care of myself

My Name me:
6: deathly depressed and emo
7 and 8: depressed but hiding it
9: better but anxiety ridden
Start of 10th: sad and scared
Getting to the end of 10th: I feel way better and I love all of my friends

Me throughout the life I had so far:
Until 6th grade: ANGST ANGST ANGST and confusion.
7th and 8th grade: confused, still a bit angsty, insecure but happier.
9th grade: Awkward as hell, full of philosophical shit, depressed once or twice a month but mostly happy inside.

*Me throughout the life I had so far:*
*Until 6th grade:* ANGST ANGST ANGST and confusion.
*7th and 8th grade:* confused, still a bit angsty, insecure but happier.
*9th grade:* Awkward as hell, full of philosophical shit, depressed once or twice a month but mostly happy inside.

Mines like this...

K-6th grade: fine
7th: ANXIOUS SO BADLY
8th: WORSE THAN 7th, GREAT
9th: NOW ANXIOUS AND DEPRESSED, YAY

My Name lol me it all went to shit at 7th grade

My Name K-8 for me so far.....HAPPY AF. i am 97% happy, 2% sad, and 1% angry

joshdunwithlife seventh grade is when everything goes downhill for everyone, my friend

same except everything went downhill in 7th grade


I felt this and I don’t understand, I kinda know how I feel but I don’t know what to do about it


I thought I knew depression, till I took that test they couldn’t diagnose but now I’m gonna go to a doctor. I...am just a kid would I know what I’m doing? ╥﹏╥


Idk how many times i have watched this anymore


Honestly first video I have seen from your channel... I subscribed


I’d make ramen instead of sweet peas. yeah I know I’m so unhealthy


So, i'm not the only one. Thanks Doddie.


I would love to be your friend, I just love the way your brain works. I know im gnna have a shit week already and I don't even want to have a good week anymore.


sometimes I really just want to cry, but it just doesn't work & it's very frustrating because you do NOT know what do you want to do with yourself and your life..


i remember that when this was originally posted, i had no understanding of what she was explaining. i never finished the video because it made absolutely NO sense.

but now, after taking focalin for the first time, i completely understand. i was undoubtably the happiest girl on the planet during any social event, school day, or nights out with my friends. now im so scared that the way i feel now is how i was meant to feel. that my happiness was just a facade and i was just lying to myself and those around me. it scares me so much.

i had no other way of describing this feeling to my therapist, so thank you dodie clark for this description of how i feel, i really want this to go away and no 14 year old should have to go though this. no one should have to go through this.


It helps to investigate what triggers these changes.


i watched this video everyday for the past week


Interesting to see. When I am depressed (which is almost always) but I mean REALLY badly depressed, I won’t eat, maybe I’ll just lay there and roll around in my bed all day. My phone will ring, I won’t check who it is. Somebody comes to the door, I won’t answer. The only thing I get up to do is use the restroom. I don’t have enough energy to cry but I’m certainly sad enough to. It’s different to see how other people are on their bad days.


ah i keep coming back to this again this video is SO IMPORTANT.


I wish I ate vegetables when I was depressed 😔


I hate it when depression just starts creeping making you not wanna go out but just stay indoors ALL THE TIME because going out is too much of a hassle.


i’ve been suffer with depression for 5 years now ....


“Who paid for that goddamn chair? That’s not my chair”


I have never related this much to anything in my whole life


Rick and Morty is my cup of depressing tea


I find it so hard to make friends outside of school. I love school because I have so many friends and I get good grades and my teachers are nice to me. It’s summer and I have no one to hang out with, and nothing to do. Nothing anyone asks me to do is anything I can get myself excited about. I just want to wake up tomorrow and get ready. I want to go to school and see all of my friends. I don’t have anyone, and I feel so alone.


I was ready to reach a month clean of self cutting until yesterday happened....


100% the case with depersonilisation, 2 different selfs :D


I heard that it <b>could</b> be because you're lacking testosterones, I'm not sure though.  Maybe you can try this out?

I heard that it *could* be because you're lacking testosterones, I'm not sure though.  Maybe you can try this out?


Wait I'm lost. Do you have bipolar disorders to check everyday if you're depressed or not?


If this is how you are when you’re depressed, I would always want you depressed. jk be happy. Smile laugh be crazy


I wish my parents knew that i am depressed so they can take me to the doctor but i am scared i don't want them to worry so that's why i been keeping it all by myself


I've been struggling with these thought these exact thoughts. It's been so long it just feels like a part of my character and I don't know what to do. After at least two years of having this and having one really bad and long episode where it was so indescribable, I finally told someone. And it's just a crazy ride and I feel guilty about telling them and I'm trying so hard to just be happy but it's just so. I have moments where I want therapy, and others where I don't and I just don't know what to do anymore. My parents don't really think that highly of therapy either and I know if I told them they would tell me to just 'enjoy life' and I just don't know what to do anymore

car radiø You're feelings are valid, alright? Your age doesn't matter. I understand that it's hard but please try to talk to someone. Wish you look and hope you'll get better. xx

Its exactly how i feel right now and how it is... I would want to get threapy talk to my friends about it, but i cant i just... I live in a small town. If i would say it to my mom as how it is, she would say "dont worry ur not depressed, ur just 14 years old, you are just feeling sad, it will go away" also i dont feel like talking to my friends about it, kinda for the same reason, most of the times my friend jokes about these "young" people on the internet that pretend to be sad if they like broke up with their bf when they are 15 or something like that... im scared that if i tell him, he would just laugh.... plus we only meet on school he lives pretty far away from me.. My other friend lives even more far away... I dont really have anyone to spend a day with.. so i just exist somehow.

YAY! I think it will help you feel better!

Duck Puppet thank you <3 my school doesn't have a councilor I can talk to but I am definitely going to try talk to someone about it this month. Thank you so much <3

I hope things get better for you! If you are still in school you can try going to the  counselor there! Most of them won't tell anyone about your visits if you don't want them too (unless you are thinking about self harm). I went through a hard time in my life and I feel like things would have gotten a lot better for me a lot faster if I had gone to talk to someone! YOU ARE AMAZING AND THINGS WILL GET BETTER!

T. G. Good luck with that <3<br>yes, I do hope so, too. thank you! <3

T. G. Good luck with that <3
yes, I do hope so, too. thank you! <3

Lockenbarbie Becca thank you <3 I think I might try to talk to my parents about therapy this month. Or, at least, someone. I hope you can do the same too I hope we both can find a way through this thank you <3

T. G. I feel quite similar ... I haven't exactly told my parents but I have given hints and I think I want to tell them but also I don't because I don't want them to feel horrible. Also my mom seems to have problems with mentaly ill people, idk ...

And I really want to tell you: At least try. Try therapy. If it doesn't work for you, alright but at least you tried it out. It's worth it. Because there is a chance that it works for you.


I wish I could feel sad like I used to cuz now I’m just numb


Did anyone else hear the Mario intro at 0:18 ?


Same page with u girl.. I know exactly how u feel..


This is me everyday I deeply hate myself


What do you call it when I get highs and the lowest lows 10x in 1 day every day...


What are you going to do? Its not about your accomplishment when you feel happy but if you are still able to push in days like this one


I have the same problem. Everything feels blurry and fuzzy and far away. It’s so weird and I hate it. I’m having one of my good days tho


I personally like being depressed because I have an excuse to tell myself as to why I’m not achieving anything


Me everyday:

“I don’t give a DaMn! Well I kinda do...”


It seems everybody is depressed, and it seems to help with my depression ?


There are different kinds of depression. Looks like yours is young and mild. I have battled debilitating depression since I can remember. I just turned 58. When I'm in that dark place I can't even shower


I've been on various SSR1s for the past 3 years or so and I couldn't recommend them highly enough. I started out on Fluoxetine (Prozac) and six months down the line that wasn't working. Then I tried Citalopram which again, didn't work. but now I've been on Serteraline for about two years and I don't know where I would be without it. I'm not saying everyone should depend on meds for happiness, but if you're feeling low on a general basis then sometimes it can just help you get through the worst bit, and when you're feeling better you can ween off them (like I'm doing right now) just don't immediately discount the idea because it makes you seem "crazy" - there's no shame in needing a little help to lift your 'rock bottom' to a little bit higher. like the treading water metaphor you used, sometimes and SSRI can help you stay afloat a little bit better. but if the first one you try doesn't work, don't give up, try a different medication or a different dose and eventually you'll find one that works for you and you'll get there. I believe in you <3

Thanks for replying, maybe I can talk to my doctor about going up a bit, I just really want to find something that works, good luck with your reducing I hope it works out well for you

Lucy I've been on it for a couple of years now. I started at 20mg a day, then 50mg, then 100mg, but it didn't start having an effect on me until I increased the dose to 150mg (I've since brought it back down to 100mg and so far so good) so maybe you need to try a different dosage, the maximum is 200mg I believe

I went through the same path as you, first Fluoxetine, then Citalopram and now Serteraline (100mg per day), how long was your adjustment period? I've been on it for a few months now and I dont feel like its doing much for me, but I'm not sure if its because of the adjustment or if its just not working for me

holly definitely worth asking, it's just a case of trial and error until you find one that works with your own brain chemistry

I was first on Fluoxetine and now I'm on Citalopram but I feel like it's not longer working. Maybe I'll ask my doc for trying Setraline.

I started Fluoxetine in November and I don't feel like it's working that much :/ I don't know whether I should ask to try others or wait it out, it's my exams soon and I don't want to have another adjustment period as they're super important. :(

meme meme yes!! so many people don't want to try meds because they don't want 'false emotions' or to not feel like themselves but what a lot of people don't realise is that your mental illness is not you either. meds do make you feel more like yourself :D

yes!! I'm on sertraline atm and i feel so much more like myself!


Ice cream? No, ok. Well, ok... Feelings... Very good feelings


Oh god, how do you have energy for talking to the camera when you feel like that? I cant even make myself to write anything down in my journal. Ohh. And I don't even know what IT is, because i'm too scared to talk about this to my therapist so I just tell her random things about everyday life ugh


4:07!!! Yesss the only reason I’m depressed & scared!!!


You're the first person to put it into words....


I just had the biggest panic attack of my whole life like 30 minutes ago. I couldn’t even breath properly. The reason : I was depressed 2 years ago because of something really bad that happened. Since then, I hate myself. Like, I HATE myself. I can’t look at myself without wanting to throw up. There’s this boy I’m in love with and he found some pics of me when I had depression (I was fat as hell and I just looked reallyyyyy ugly in general). I was so ashamed of myself. I literally wanted to kill myself. He did tell me « you look amazing don’t worry » but I still got a really bad anxiety attack. I was about to hurt myself. I can’t describe the pain I’m going through right now and I feel like no one understands me. I have such a big obsession with the way I look and I can’t go out if I don’t wear makeup and jewellery and great clothes. I just feel like it’s gonna make me beautiful. I want people to tell me I am. Because that’s the only way I can feel a bit of confidence. I have no idea of what to do. Fuck.


Hey when you talk about this dark feeling of depression, is it like you have fog in your brain? Very random question but I really wanna know? Oh and this is a question to anyone I just...im lost (in myself) and I wanna know...?


Me, too, Dodie. I’m not even kidding. Let’s be depressed together!

Don’t mind me. I’m just afraid of everything.

Guys, I have bipolar I disorder. I’m always depressed. I’m always hopeless. I always feel nothing. I’ve been diagnosed. I’m not faking it. I was trying to be sarcastic. I’m sorry if you got it wrong.

@Trve Milk Maybe she was joking like.. She is depressed and joking kinda??.. Dunno.. Or it can be what you said

(glorifying mental illnesses is a real problem these days )if you do have one or more of them pls get a professional help and be better!!

An Intellectual She is depressed? She's not being edgy? What? Maybe you get a life?

Girl of Many Vloggities stop. Depression is not fun and edgy. Get a life.


If i am the root cause of your ailments... I apologize. If i had any part in your suffering... I apologize. I would like to put in footwork to make it better for you hear yet that might not be possible or realistic when all things are taken into account so i want to at least apologise. I may have had nothing to do with this yet i wouldn't be surprised if i overall had everything to do with it. I thought i was waking people up to what else is real out there and our disconnect here. I am used to my dreams beyond dreams and such and have been since a youngster if not also prior. I wish i took in the negative results that could take place though regarding my influences on others. I thought i was doing something good yet it seems i put you in a similar situation as myself. I do not relate to it all yet i worry i caused it all. I do not get the sight issues, maybe once in a blue moon yet i think i overall get non of that aspect. I tend to know when i am dreaming or awake yet i check the reality of that at times for sure. Much of that is do to me seeing and experiencing the future or past from my body or others or from anywhere out of body and all the other co-existing timelines and or dimensions don't likely help with bringing clarity.  I definitely have the visual disconnect at times yet i think i am more used to it, as far as detail, color, texture and definition goes... I still crave to see the beauty of what i know exists elsewhere yet in body here. I want to see that beauty in my waking life and i want others to too. I still dot on you by the way. I will always love you and you have a special place in my heart. I am very sorry if i brought you torment. I want you to be happy and healthy and i want you to feel forever fulfilled and loved. I wish and hope you at least are or become content and much more than that after.  I think i want to crash with you and hazel hayes some day. I might have dreamt with the lot of you and you both seem to be beautiful sweethearts and i could just see myself enjoying spending time with the likes of you both. I would be happy to spend time with either of you as well. I hope i haven't made life too much of a rollercoaster for you or anyone else and if i have i hope to change that as soon as possible... If i can and should. Ripple and butterfly effects and so forth hold me back from writing wrongs i want to because of other things and sometimes you could say it is just out of my hands if not something else because all have seemed to apply. I wish you the best and i love you. Thank you for the positive impact that you have had on my life. Sweet dreams to you, Love!


God derealization and depersonalization accompanied by anxiety/depression is the absolute worst and most uncomfortable

i'm feeling like this too and it's rare too see people feeling the same


5:03 I thought I was the only one who did this. Why do I do this?????


youre not depressed "today" youre depressed every day. its just hitting you harder on certain days. stop saying that depression is a once a week thing, or its something that everybody has once in a while. im tired of seeing everybody saying their depressed when really theyre having a bad day, or theyre sad. depression isnt a 1 day event.


I'm literly balling my eyes out I relate so much

please get help. nobody deserves to feel this way. i don't know your situation, but if there's a way you can find/receive help, please do it. speak to someone.<br>good luck lovely

please get help. nobody deserves to feel this way. i don't know your situation, but if there's a way you can find/receive help, please do it. speak to someone.
good luck lovely

I hope you have a way to get help and feel better soon ;-;


There will be a day where you can say you’re ok and mean it. I promise you.


this is just how i've been feeling these days.


I'm really really really sad right now cuz my dad's dog might die which he's been here with us for 12 or 13 years and he cant even move his body but his eyes and we all are sad and scared for him to die.😞😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢


i have days like today where i don't feel anything like sadness or happiness, etc but then i go in a spurt where i get really depressed and self harm and then a few minutes later i feel happy and then i go back to feeling nothing all in one day and i'm not really sure if i'm bipolar or something else because my mom won't take me to the doctors


the fact that dodie isn't happy makes me really sad  : (  dodes only deserves happiness


God is what's missing that will fill the whole that leaves the emptiness. He will complete the picture. Jesus is what you have been longing for without realizing. I truly hope that you recover from this and I hope the same for everyone in the comments. I was at my lowest point and God pulled me out of it.  I also hope this message isn't interpreted as a joke or is seen to be too formal or random or weird or all of the above because I realize there is this stereotype of Christians that causes people to dislike the religion for the people and not for God. I really hope this comment isn't interpreted in that way. Truly hope you feel better


sertraline is the loml, I think trying medication could be worth it :)


Oui I felt that so bad the other day,,, I went to an ice skating place and I LOVE ICE SKATING and I felt nothing I was just cold and I wanted to go home,,, I fell down and instead of laughing I got so pissed


I have the same problem I cant focus on anything I already failed two years of high school

See every year from the 8th grade I always had a bunch anxiety and that gave me this dream feeling like I'm not real than later I found out it was dp. High school came I started heavily getting into psychedelics benzos, and pain pill (I don't like saying opiates, it sounds harsh hehe). So I'm still going through that river but I think maybe one day I can get through it and I think you can too man. School fucking sucks and it's not an easy time but you can make it through.

Rovan Ibrahim, I just figured I would mention that I have ADD (attention deficit disorder) and it's basically where you can't focus. it's kind of making my life terrible right now and I probably have depression too, but I've started taking medicine for it (Strattera and Vayarin). I just want to say that I hope you're doing better!

I hope you get better Rovan. Sometimes it helps to go to a psychologist or psychiatrist. Just remember that you're strong and someday you will get through this. x

Rovan Ibrahim maybe try talking to your parents, older sibling, or a teacher whom you trust. i hope you'll get better soon!

Fanni Tóth I just looked it up and I have every symptom lol <br>thanks for your help

Fanni Tóth I just looked it up and I have every symptom lol
thanks for your help

It's not always neccessarily depression, you may have adhd or even some kind of learning disability which developed with age and you may feel the symptoms of that.<br>I'm not saying you're not valid because for sure you are, I'm just trying to help you so you can look these up and maybe that could help. (sorry if I didn't put it into words well, English can be tough sometimes as a foreign language :) )

It's not always neccessarily depression, you may have adhd or even some kind of learning disability which developed with age and you may feel the symptoms of that.
I'm not saying you're not valid because for sure you are, I'm just trying to help you so you can look these up and maybe that could help. (sorry if I didn't put it into words well, English can be tough sometimes as a foreign language :) )


Took the words that I couldn’t put together..


Omg! Thoose feelings are excatly what I’m feeling


Me. Every day. Ugh this is too relatable whyyyyyy


okay dodie before this even starts just know we all love you okay :(

alex Power aka, "I need to get my comment in while the number of comments are few enough that she'll respond" 😂


youtube recommended this to me. youtube knows me so well.


I have been so so bloated and it gets my down, I don’t know how to fix it, I hate my self. I just haven’t felt ok for along time


Today, i was really anxious and yeah.. Then i started to feel depressed and suddenly i felt like i was in a pit of depression. Im not very sure why.. I feel like.. Im scared of enotions and stuff and everything is just meh... Im scared that im faking it because.. I felt really good yesterday.. Well yeah... But today i realized stuff... It made me feel like a shit


Oh my goodness can you just microwave frozen peas  or whatever those green things are called in english<br>By the way you speak what's in my mind🙌

Oh my goodness can you just microwave frozen peas  or whatever those green things are called in english
By the way you speak what's in my mind🙌


Nine months later, watching this once again... yep, that happens


Yo but you can't be depressed for a day.....


And then after being at home all day being depressed and crying you are forced to go to a lesson with people you dont really like and have to make up a reason you didn't do the homework and try to pay attention to things that you dont give a damn about at the moment..


Vitamin D3 10000 iu a day helps SO MUCH with depression


“hello my name is dodie, <b>and i’m depressed today”</b>

“hello my name is dodie, *and i’m depressed today”*


I just snort hot cheetos when im depressed

Well i mean rip to your nose but whatever works i guess


I just idk feel like I’m screaming but nobody can hear me, I really don’t know why even my best friends don’t see how bad it is going for me, I know I have no real problems but I just don’t feel fine or feel at all to be honest I’m just existing


depressed (today)
u cant be depressed 1 day or under 1 week.
depression is something that lasts in months possibly years
Been depressed 7 years so i know what im talking about im 16 btw


I thought you were Sarah from buzzfeed at first x ur gorgeous


When are you guys going to decide to feel better? You can, you just aren’t.


I keep coming back to this when i am depressed because she just worded out everything in my brain which i don't wanna say cuz even that feels boring and useless at the end. This is comforting.


Hi Doddlevloggle, this is the first video that I stumbleupon when I typed in "I am depressed". To be honest at this moment I don't really care who reads this or anything. I just really want to put it down on writing or typing if you say so. I am honesty depressed. Honestly I free depressed because I don't know what I have in my life anymore. I have lost my path in life when my father passed away in high school. My father and I never really had a good relationship but I still considered him my father. Once my father passed away I really lost my way because I had not drive or even the money to go to college. So I took a gap year and just work. I finaly got into a community college and I was doing my best and was working at the same time. It was just not enough. I failed and left again and just ended up working. As I continued on with my life. I started doing stupid stuff because it was the only thing that made me happy such as drugs, alcohol, anything I can find. I was even more depressed when I received a DUI. I'm on my way to finishing up all the paperwork and everything on DUI so thats good. During that time thought I was lost and sad. To be honest  I felt the closest friends in my life are not even my closest friends. We label each other as best friends but I don't even feel that way. Even some friends in my close circle are starting to question it. The funny thing is that I even question that before. I really wish my mental illness was not part of me. It has been part of me since high school I am 23 years old now. I am just really lost in the world and I don't know what to do. There is more I want to say but I guess I'll stay end here. Thanks for sharing your video, I understand from your point of view.


Haha...I feel the same way every day. But it started to annoy me that depression stops me from doing things that any other person would just do without thinking if it's worth my effort or not.


I wish I could have days where I could just be depressed and not be so depressed I can barely function and still having to function


Oh shiiii that's what I feel. But I don't know If I was depressed


I can't tell between my happiness self and depression self, I think my depressed self is my always self. Idk, I've forgotten what different emotions feel like, I just want to die and curl up. I want to stay in bed and do nothing uck


I like this vid like it's small things that let u know someone was depressed their hair good vid


My brain will do this bc of a chemical imbalance


I am depressed at the moment. Not depression, just the actual definition of depressed.


I can't even explain how much this video means to me


I have Seasonal Depression and this winter has been the shittiest I've ever had.<br>My brain has been in like a loophole and I'm just sad for no reason. My dad has this as well, so I'm using a light and  I'm trying to get more sunshine, and I felt like just sleepy and just wanting to never do anything and my anxiety has been through the roof recently as well.

I have Seasonal Depression and this winter has been the shittiest I've ever had.
My brain has been in like a loophole and I'm just sad for no reason. My dad has this as well, so I'm using a light and  I'm trying to get more sunshine, and I felt like just sleepy and just wanting to never do anything and my anxiety has been through the roof recently as well.


Am I depressed if I feel bored and unmotivated to leave my bed every single day? Like I don’t enjoy anything like I used to


Yeah, sometimes when I wake up, I feel have no future, and that it'll be any day now before I take my own life. But I get good days, and sometimes I get neutral days, where it's kind of a mixture--like neapolitan icecream, you know? On those neutral days, my mood is so incredibly fickle. It could be carried off in any direction, from the smallest causes. I could be a little clumsy a few times one day, and it'd just destroy me for, like, 3/4 of that day. But sometimes you have those days where you wake up, and you just get sick of wallowing. You feel competitive, like you're in direct competition with yourself, and so you try to work up a rough list of things to do in your spare time--not necessarily a strict schedule, where you say: "I have to do this from exactly the mid-to-late afternoon". It's kind of more like: "Just do it when you're ready, but make sure you actually get it done before the end of the day". I find that I don't enjoy those actitivies nearly as much if I'm forcing myself to do them for the sake of a schedule, and enjoyment is sort of the key. You have fight in you, and you're ready to make a change, but without any outside support, like a family member or a friend, it becomes hard to continue listening to the supportive voice at the back of your head without getting sick of hearing it. It motivates you because it feels like someone else rooting for you, but you just get to that point where you can tell the difference between someone supporting you and you supporting you. You realize that it isn't someone else, but only yourself, and that only reminds you that you're alone. There's no one to see you where you are now, and there's no one to see you get passed it. It's fucking hard, and I wouldn't wish any of this on my worst enemy.

P.S. Here's a random poem:

I exist as I am, that is enough,
If no other in the world be aware I sit content,
And if each and all be aware I sit content.

(Walt Whitman)

Thank you. Stay alive for the gifts life has preserved for your future


I don't feel anything anymore. Only a few little things bring me some joy. But I miss the days when I was full of inspiration and excited about partying with friends, learning new stuff, doing things, traveling,... Now nothing interests me. Even relationships... Dating.. Intimacy...same patterns.. Same disappointments.. I don't even get heatbroken.. It all just bores me.


Elena Gibbons i’m eating them for the first time rn (i don’t like many vegetables) and they strangely taste like potatoes, which is good

amiablehacker huh. I still probably wouldn’t like them though 😂

@Elena Gibbons I think it's edamame, not snap peas? I'm not sure though.

Exactly. I don’t even like snap peas (I like frozen mini peas or whatever they are) but they look good.


it's do annoying having extreme seasonal depression because just one (1) gloomy fucking day can make you feel like you never want to get out of bed and then the next day it's all nice & sunny & you're like "hahahaha i love life!! wow!! this is amazing!!"


I have depression and most of the time my day goes like this:
Wakes up; I’m tired and I don’t want to leave
Breakfast; i hate breakfast
Morning; meh
Lunch; no
Let’s go outside? nope
Afternoon: I’m still tired
Diner: I guess I’ll have to eat something
Oh great my family is home now, so I can chat to them, cuz I’ve been home alone all day(I’m not going to school rn). Nope, don’t do that either
Night: I’m tired, but I can’t sleep

But I’ve started medication 2 days ago, and i might be going to a clinic. Soon? Idk. But I guess that’s pOsiTiVE


one day clean from self harm after 4 years


thank you thank you thank you for sharing this


The past couple of comments I’ve read are so kind and sweet or just plain funny best comment section ever


DODIE I AM IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMETHING AND HAD TO DROP WHAT I WAS DOING but I love you so it's all good 💖💖💖


Cant watch this right now or I'll be even more depressed


I’m not diagnosed and I’m to socially anxious to talk to someone about it but I’ll be fine at the beginning of the day and then all the sudden all the light will be sucked out of me. I won’t get excited and I’ll be unmotivated to do anything sooo yeah I’ll smile but my eyes are just kinda dead but yeah so idk what that means oh well


NOT MY CAR NOT MY PROBLEM WHAT A REFERENCE


Bit wary of everyone in the comments diagnosing themselves with depression :/ always always go and talk to someone before assuming there's something absolutely and definitely "wrong" with you. (Quotation marks because there is nothing wrong with being depressed)

just saying dude, but people dont go to therapy to be told that they have a problem, they go because they want it fixed. therapists won't just tell you that you're broken, you hand them the pieces and they'll put them back together with you. just saying.

xnox I'm sorry if I didn't take it the way you meant or if I came of as rude,i really am. I took it the wrong way,I'm sorry. But yes,I do have experience with metal illness,I just want you to know I'm not romanticising it. I'm truly sorry I didn't understand.

Tiz Rae
IM SORRY I DONT MEAN TO BE RUDE BUT
I don't need someone telling me how I feel on the inside. I know how I feel. I don't need to go to someone that I don't feel comfortable talking to about such deep things so they can tell me what I already know.
But I get your point. Sometimes people can think they're depressed because they might not know what depression really is. Or they can be attention seeking. I meant there's a lot that someone can misinterpret as depression. Maybe sometimes people overthink everything and they overthink their sadness. So it turns into this massive cloud of sadness that they've brought upon themselves.

Idk what I'm saying anymore.
You never know what's going on someone head. Don't assume that they are self diagnosing or that they aren't actually depressed.

Tiz Rae Disagree. I know my own brain well enough to KNOW that what I went through a few years ago was depression. I've spent months researching and the thing is my parents are the kind that would honestly yell at me if I told them about it much less asked to be diagnosed because I told them I had anxiety and they yelled at me.

one more like and you'll have 666 likes, someone like it

Tiz Rae No, I totally understand that. No harm done. We don't all have the same life situations granted we're not even from the same continent.

Kayla Richelle sorry, I guess I was more referring to my UK based experiences. I didn't mean to bash anything, just said I was "wary" of self-diagnosing. Didn't mean to offend anyone.

I would also like to say that some people can't afford to go talk to someone (in my case, my mom doesn't "believe in psychologists" AND we can't afford it). My point being, bashing on self diagnosis can tend to be a bit classist not everyone can afford that option.

I kind of agree but at the same time you're the only one who knows how you feel
Nobody else feels the exact same way as you do
Only you see the world the way you see and that's okay

the privilege of a professional diagnosis is pretty limited to like,,, white not poor (sometimes cishet) people. doctors are less likely to diagnose you with any mental illness if youre a person of color (ESPECIALLY if youre black), closeted kids cant always receive help without going into detail about what exactly makes them feel whatever way, if its coming from how people treat them because of thier orientation or internal feelings about it. poor people cant always afford therapy or meds or even taking time off of work. thinking self diagnosis is for idiots who read an article about depression once is very limiting. i was self diagnosed with depression for two years (as a still closeted girl of color with not very supportive parents) and i did a shit ton of research because i was so paranoid.

I get where you're coming from, but it's also often difficult to get a diagnosis (especially when you're a teen). For YEARS I was told I was just being a teenager and it's only after 4 years of counselling, daily panic attacks and two hospital admissions that I was FINALLY told I'd been suffering with severe anxiety. Yes, people should definitely see their doctor, but chances are if you think something's up - it probably is

Tiz Rae exactly! Like when people diagnose themselves with OCD or anxiety

Tiz Rae well. there is. it's an issue which needs to be checked up on.

Kirstin Huff Well, because if you slammed your finger in a car door, you cannot see what's going inside. You can google it and maybe have an idea, but unless you're a pro or have X-ray vision, you cannot know what you're dealing with.

If you're ill, you won't get better by self-diagnosing and creating treatments based on the Internet. Don't get me wrong, the Internet can give you really good tips, but here's the thing: what if you self-diagnosed yourself wrongly?

One of the most liberating moments of my life was getting diagnosed by a psychiatrist: with chronic deep clinical depression. I mean, it's hell and it comes and goes and when it comes, ITS HELL. But knowing what you have is the first step to recovery.

If you self-diagnose, you can never know. Only assume.

The DSM is extremely subjective and it doesn't take much to get a diagnosis from a doctor. If someone is truly feeling like something isn't right and no one they know is experiencing similar things, why can't they self-diagnose to some degree? Some people benefit from putting a label on things so why not let them have a small amount of comfort if they're truly hurting?

I mean I intended for it to be a joke. I am INCREDIBLY mentally unstable. However I am truly sorry if you found it upsetting, triggering or offensive in general. Thinking about it now I understand that you might be upset because I get quite upset when my class jokes about suicide.
Once again I am sorry and I hope you are okay.
Edit: I have deleted my previous comment. Sorry

I want to add that feeling depressed does not equal having a depression. Mental illness is never something to assume and self-diagnosing is so bad in so many ways

xnox no,as in youre not irregular or frightning or mental for having depression. Youre still a human.

"there is nothing wrong with being depressed"<br>of course there is.

"there is nothing wrong with being depressed"
of course there is.

Tiz Rae I absolutely see what you mean, and obviously it is preferable if you go see a mental health professional if you think you might be depressed. However, there are some people that can't access mental health services that easily for a variety of reasons, and their feelings aren't less valid or need any leas help - I honestly can't see any harm in recognizing symptoms in yourself if it means you can find coping methods for that specific illness online, and if you can find communities with similar problems that can support you. If you actively stay away from care because you prefer self-dxing, well, that might be a problem, but you aren't less depressed just because you can't afford treatment, for having parents who would disown you if you got in contact with mental health services (they exist) or because you are too scared to immediately talk to a doctor, for example.

Amanda S I know it's very common. However, no one should self-diagnose fully. It's very easy to go through something and relate to someone else, but that can be extremely hindering to continued mental health. All I said was you should talk to someone rather than


dodie was watching Rick and Morty just gotta put that out there


Jeez it’s like echoing my every day yeet


I just want to hug you, it will get better I promise, we are all here for you 💕


i’m 3 weeks clean today ..... i want to make it months


You choose depression. I dealt with it for over 7 years now and the answer it's very easy..be depressed again and again till you litterally get borred and realise that the answer in the universe IS YOU!


Some people think that just because they don't feel motivated enough they are depressed. You lool really depressed, but like I see in the comments, some people really like to think they are depressed when depression is a way worse and complex state. It does not come and go. It isn't for a short time. It's a state where you feel trapped in day and night, every, single, day. Even when you feel happy you still feel emptiness. Depression does NOT equal sadness. Depression is lack of enthusiasm and fuel for life. Depression is incredibly lonely and dark, and it is not easy to get out of. <br>To all of you 12 year olds that think they are depressed and post about it on instagram.

Some people think that just because they don't feel motivated enough they are depressed. You lool really depressed, but like I see in the comments, some people really like to think they are depressed when depression is a way worse and complex state. It does not come and go. It isn't for a short time. It's a state where you feel trapped in day and night, every, single, day. Even when you feel happy you still feel emptiness. Depression does NOT equal sadness. Depression is lack of enthusiasm and fuel for life. Depression is incredibly lonely and dark, and it is not easy to get out of.
To all of you 12 year olds that think they are depressed and post about it on instagram.


Me too!!!!!  Except like everyday :)  :)

Me too!!!!!  Except like everyday :)  :)


4:01 (but really this entire video)

some 👏 one 👏 said 👏 it👏


What are those beans called? My depression will last days upon days, and I will usually fall back on food, and its usually sweet food (Cinnamon Buns are my kryptonite), but I'd love to give healthy things a go instead.

I think they're snap peas or sugar peas. They're really good, I really like snapping them in half and eating the peas that are inside, it's kind of calming.


You know what I'm just going to get this out there that I have been in depression for 3 years and I'm 14. I feel like I'm not good enough and I doubt myself. I try to switch my life back around but I have no motivation to do so. It's like a trap that you can't escape. I had tried many times. I just want to change the way I am :/ sorry if this is cringie...


i fcking love the way u said it so fcking honest and simple<br>i hope today s the happy u:)

i fcking love the way u said it so fcking honest and simple
i hope today s the happy u:)


I watched this a while ago and I didn’t understand how she felt at all not one word but I watched it again now and I get it and it’s terrible and I wish I never had to understand


my way of describing my depression is:
I'm running a marathon. I don't know how many people are running with me. I don't know how long it is. I don't know how far I've run, nor how far I have to go. I can't go off the track. I can't really do anything except run. And at some point, I can't anymore. I collapse. I fall down. I don't have nearly enough strength to get up. People go past me. No-one helps me up. All of my cells start withering and fading and I start to crumble. I literally cannot do anything. More people run past, some muttering that 'you should get up, stop being so lazy. after all, if I can run this race, you should too. there's nothing stopping you.'
and i cant do anything.

Two other ways to describe it....

1.) You feel so tired and your like f*ck everyone and everything.... you just want to crawl into the corner and die (not kill yourself.... You just want to die slowly. Don't sleep don't eat and don't drink NOTHING)

2.) I feel like I am so tired but I'm stuck in a small room (cold) and it's dark but that one light. That one light burns you every time you go to touch it but then you hear laughter from a small window on the opposite wall and you go to look out and there is joy and happiness out there but your stuck in this small *ss box and you wish you weren't. The thing is there is no door and no way to break that window because when you touch it... It's like fire so your stuck there forever alone and in the dark

this comment made me cry because you and dodie are the only people who have described it so well

that is the best description I’ve ever heard

QueeenBeee this is so beautiful and definitely one of the best comments I’ve read. I can’t describe how much I relate to this. Good luck. And go off the track on an off day. Give yourself a break.


u still look cute tho. i look really ugly when i'm depressed.


When  i feel  depressed   its  hard  to  get  up  from   bed.


Depressed isn’t something you are for a day, wtf

That’s exactly what I was thinking holy fuck

Tilda Nilsson that’s not what she means. she has depression but some days she feels better but on this certain day she doesn’t feel good at all. a bit hard for me to explain lol.


as if u had read my mind :( depersonalization/derealisation is horrible, it has ruined so many beautiful things for me


2:08 Lol! I just skipped to that moment!


Depression makes me lazy and feel hopeless.  I hate it....i bought meds but I'm afaird of over dosing on it if I feel too shitty


Ok to start everyone gets depressed and wake up at odd hours for reasons they either don't want to understand or just can't do anything about. That's called clinical depression, you should ask your  doctor to have your blood pressure checked or get an EEG done.........usuallly the meds they put you on Clonezopams, losartans, (if you're lucky a 420) etc they help more than SSRIs


... i got diagnosed with depression 2 weeks ago :'/


I'm only depressed because I have a long distance relationship and I barely see her now I'm moving overseas so now its years before i see her


ok but I thought you were Steve Harrington from stranger things in the thumbnail


i am offended that you used a capital letter in the title


does anyone have any tips to not check how I'm feeling? please?


You have no idea how much i get this, but the sentence i am depressed today feels wrong to me. For me it's more like, on days that i function and feel again, i am sort of on top of my depression for a few moments, hours or days. All the other days are just covered with a big black messy cloud that ruins everything you touch. Nothing makes it more bearable, it is what it is.


Anyone else here from quarantine? I don't think I'm depressed but like I'm sitting here eating frozen corn and this is such a MOOD


If a couple is depressed will they be together or leave?


@doddlevloggle is this a random occurrence or can this be caused by something bothering you for a while now. I mean to ask, do you kinda know why you feel this way and are afraid to admit it to yourself or anyone else why it's so? Cause I feel so sometimes

Try doing some research and you can find lots of information about depression and the causes and affects.


I had brain surgery last year, and I've since been diagnosed with derealisation, anxiety and ptsd. I've been on a sick note for well over a year now and I've only just decided to go back to work. I'm so fricken scared! Some days I can't physically get out of bed because I don't sleep due to insomnia from my ptsd nightmares! I don't know what to do at all, and some days I do feel really depressed even though I've not been diagnosed... I don't want to be one of those ignorant people who diagnoses them self with a mental illness, and I don't particularly wanna have another one! They suck so hard, but I literally can't do anything some days! I'm on medication for my anxiety, but it's also an anti depressant! I don't know whether they're making me feel more depressed because I know they're specifically for depression... HALP

Special Kay wow if you dont mind me asking what happened during the surgery that gave you PTSD?

Maybe your antidepressants are not the right ones? I think sometimes you have to try different ones till you find the ones that are working


Oh my gosh, I definitely got triggered watching this. I felt every word and it took me BACK. 🥺


Why I still don't have a microwave? I would at least eat sth XD


4:37 wowowowow i wish i could have that much positivity when i'm in a depressive pisode bcs when i am and remember those times when i was out of it and happy and wonder if i'll ever feel like that again i just want to kill myself bcs i feel like it's impossible huehep


The only thing I hate about being depressed is that people often tell me I can't be depressed because "You have it so much better than other people". And like, yeah, I do. But if we take the same theory and apply it to happiness, it changes perspectives.
Someone else might have won the lottery today. Somebody, somewhere has just gotten their first job, or gotten a promotion. Someone just got to hold their newborn child for the first time, and someone probably got married today too. These people have it so much better than me, so I don't deserve to be happy. Doesn't quite feel right when you compare them, does it?
Happiness or sadness is a personal feeling, and is entirely based on that persons situation. So, if you have a bad day, don't worry about it :) If we didn't have bad days, we'd never know when the good ones came around! ^_^


I’m always negative but I’m not necessarily always sad. I don’t say “I feel sad” I just flick it off. But then I have days in which I know I’m depressed, I wake up and my first thought is “fuck I woke up” and then I eat uncontrollably and cry for the rest of the day.


How can she talk about her depression and get all these views and when we all try to off our selves all we get is put in a damn hospital for a week? Where's the fairness?

What? She's a professional musician, so of course she is going to get views. If she attempted suicide she would likely get put in a hospital too. She's just expressing herself and people watched it.


i wonder if i actually have depression
i’ve never been diagnosed with depression but it’s clear that i probably have depression and it’s really bad
and i don’t wanna do anything but die and cry and stay in my bed all day and listen to songs and make myself feel worse but i can’t because i have school and stuff and other stupid things i have to do all the time
and i rarely feel happy
people say it’ll get better, but it never does, i always feel sad, cold, empty and alone and i don’t wanna do anything
and whenever depression will come up in a conversation my mom just says “can’t they just decide to be happy?” and no that’s not how it works, do you think they want to feel terrible? No, they don’t want to
and now i’m gonna start crying because i feel like a failure and it’s taken me 2 hours to do my math homework and it’s not even hard
life is great


<b>Sigh</b> when this is your normal state


I think I need some help......

I always wake up in the morning and feel like I’ve been betrayed, depressed and exhausted...
I’ve been going through some weird and tough times....
I feel depressed for no reason and just constantly eating ice and listening to sad music (if you think I mean ice cream well I don’t I mean ice like literally frozen water)
I sometimes go outside at night lie on the lawn and look at the sky and count stars and when I lose count of them I get up and get some ice....is that weird or not?


I've been so depressed lately just from doing nothing, being sick, crying, puffed up eyes, not being able to see, stuffed nose, I just feel so terrible. =(


it was my biggest fault to think that whenever i'm stressed or anxious i shouldn't make that a 'big deal' because "oh it's just a common stress you will get over it!!" "you are a teenager so it's normal and just ignore it!!" i don't know that that mindset means whenever i'm feeling down i have to push and force myself to ignore (which is impossible) because 'it is not a big deal'. i stress because acne, friends, things i shouldn't worry about, anxiety and many more. every sunday i will get anxious automatically since the second i woke up until night because "tomorrow is the start of your anxiety". i used to try so hard to not absent in school but now i just want to fake my sickness so i won't go to school. the reason is never because i'm lazy but school is like the source of all of my problems. i found no one around me acts like me, feels like me or maybe i just don't know but that makes me so alone. i worry too much about past that people 99.9% doesn't even remember, i think about other people's feelings too much until i forget my own. "i shouldn't say that.. am i too harsh? they must think bad of me.. people will hate me... i'm a failure" one small mistake that no one cares can leads me to those careless thoughts. people think i'm overreacting and at first i thought so too but no i was wrong they are wrong they just don't understand

I find that unless u have it you probably aren't going to u Der stand what it's like


ISRS are really helpful, consider it. It's not like the happiness pill, otherwise everybody would take it. It's like you one day stop watching things so so so wrong, I mean, the world still sucks, but you don't wanna die for that. Just 6 months while you do other 'natural' things to feel better. At the begging I was scared I was going to stop being so sensitive, because that's my particular cause of depression, but no, I started to think clearer, maybe less emotional and more reasonable; but still sensitive.


𝗔 𝘃𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗼  : exists

𝘆𝗼𝘂𝘁𝘂𝗯𝗲 (three years after ) : your recommends!!!

❤ʟᴏᴠᴇʟʏ ʙᴇᴀɴ❤


<b>warning.. talks about self harm</b> I get like this a lot, but I have to go to school everyday. Idk how I do it. A few weeks ago I didn’t go to school for a week bc I felt so shit, but then it catches up on me because I have to catch up on the work I missed so I feel stressed and emotionally drained. I’ve reached out to school for help before but they’re not qualified and don’t help. Nothing feels real for me either; it’s like I’m seeing everything and experiencing everything but it’s just not real and like a dream or being high or something but I’ve dealt with depressive episodes for 3/4 years and for about a year I’ve felt numb and it really frustrates me because I don’t know how to feel and then I start spiralling and thinking about self harm. At the start of my “depression” (I haven’t yet been diagnosed) self harm was very much apparent and suicide has always been an escape for me, but I’ve learned to deal with it and realise how upsetting it would be for my family. I know I am loved and I have very supportive family and friends, but nothing seems to help. Some days I feel happier, but I’m ALWAYS feeling like I’m in a dream. Whereas other days I struggle to get out of bed, force myself for school, and then zone out in loud lessons, to the point where I can no longer hear and feel like I’m not there or in my body and someone has to snap me out of it. I have eczema which is not that big of a deal but I scratch when Im feeling sad or frustrated and I don’t even notice I’m doing it half the time until I start bleeding 🥺

*warning.. talks about self harm* I get like this a lot, but I have to go to school everyday. Idk how I do it. A few weeks ago I didn’t go to school for a week bc I felt so shit, but then it catches up on me because I have to catch up on the work I missed so I feel stressed and emotionally drained. I’ve reached out to school for help before but they’re not qualified and don’t help. Nothing feels real for me either; it’s like I’m seeing everything and experiencing everything but it’s just not real and like a dream or being high or something but I’ve dealt with depressive episodes for 3/4 years and for about a year I’ve felt numb and it really frustrates me because I don’t know how to feel and then I start spiralling and thinking about self harm. At the start of my “depression” (I haven’t yet been diagnosed) self harm was very much apparent and suicide has always been an escape for me, but I’ve learned to deal with it and realise how upsetting it would be for my family. I know I am loved and I have very supportive family and friends, but nothing seems to help. Some days I feel happier, but I’m ALWAYS feeling like I’m in a dream. Whereas other days I struggle to get out of bed, force myself for school, and then zone out in loud lessons, to the point where I can no longer hear and feel like I’m not there or in my body and someone has to snap me out of it. I have eczema which is not that big of a deal but I scratch when Im feeling sad or frustrated and I don’t even notice I’m doing it half the time until I start bleeding 🥺


... Am I the only one who heard the Mamrie Hart "Ah Oh!" @3:50


Have any of you felt so low, so so low that nothing scares you anymore. Your nightmare can stand in front of you, stare you down and you just don’t give a shit?. So low that care is not part of you? Pls I need someone to relate too.


I resonated with every single word. Holy shit.


depression isn't a mood, you're not depressed one day and then another day yes, it's always there, you can't say ''I'm depressed TODAY'' I don't understand you lol..

You can be depressed on days. Some days your brain doesn't work right and nothing feels normal. She didn't say it was a mood, but you can have episodes of depression that come and go. I think it's just clinical depression that never goes away. People can feel depressed and different people can be diagnosed with depression. They can be separate.

raxahax at the begging of the video she mentioned that she wakes up everyday feeling like this.... <br>Then when she stopped checking in she wasnt realizing it to this extent as often. Then today she didn’t even have to check in she just New that today specifically would be one of those days where it was to that extent.

raxahax at the begging of the video she mentioned that she wakes up everyday feeling like this....
Then when she stopped checking in she wasnt realizing it to this extent as often. Then today she didn’t even have to check in she just New that today specifically would be one of those days where it was to that extent.


“Look how depressed I am I don’t even care about the background”  well if that isn’t the most millennial thing I’ve heard

It does say a lot tho for a YouTuber obsessed with aesthetic and having everything beautiful


Same here.<br>I feel tired of tying to h happy

Same here.
I feel tired of tying to h happy


I’m always depressed I’m just empty and heavy Everyday


That penguin in the background looks like he gives good hugs.


6:12 same I'm just like there's nothing to say


do i want to leave a comment here ? hmmmmm. yea sure why not nobody gives a damn , they will help u , maybe not . just go for it and don’t be so obsessive over small things .

that was my thought process before typing this. is that normal ? maybe i don’t know , i’ve never talked to anyone about my problems , i just listen to theirs. this video means a lot to me because i realised i’m sad too. a lot. i never really want to do anything. it’s not really like who i used to be. i feel like someone flicked a switch and now i’m sad. a yea ago i was in a toxic friendship , she always blackmailed me with her ‘mental health issues’ i say that with quotation marks because she faked it i’m pretty sure .. yes i’m sure she did .. maybe i’m not sure but anyway she told me that if i didn’t hang out with her she would kill her self and she would self harm. i’m not friends with her anymore but i still see her in school and give her a warm smile but all i want to do is tell her how much she messed me up. one day i fell out with her. i told her that i couldn’t trust her (which i should have found out sooner with bucket fulls of red flags) and then she said that she was going to commit suicide. this hit me hard , not only because she was going to kill herself but because she blamed it on me. i found myself being roped back into that friendship again and i couldn’t bare it anymore so i finally called it off and it was really hard because we did have our good times but most were toxic and smokey , none were really fun and fresh. anyway now that i’m out of that friendship i’m very proud of myself for making the decision and i have moved on but there is this little- no sorry - massive part of my brain that always reminds me that i can’t do anything and i should stay at home and sometimes i can’t ignore it. i thought it was part of growing up and i’m only 13 but i feel like this part of me will never disappear and  i will be this girl forever.

i want to get help but i can’t talk to my parents about it because they won’t understand , my friends think i’m faking it, and my cousin who i’m closest to in the world doesn’t care... or well she tells me listening to other people’s mental health problems is draining and she can’t bare it. not even for her own cousin. i’m really sorry about this but it might be healthy for me to put this out there and i would like it if people could talk to me about this because i feel drained and i need help and i know i do but i can’t find the right people .

a little sum up for the people who couldn’t be bothered to read this in detail : i’m sad a lot i feel drained and i was in a toxic friendship in which the “friend” piled all of her problems on me and blackmailed me saying if i left her then she would cut herself and one day she told me she was going to commit suicide because of me and that has stayed in my mind for a year now. i want to get help but people don’t understand and if i start to tell them then they just tell me it’s an age thing ( i’m 13) but i don’t feel like it is , i would say i’m much more mature than any of my friends and classmates , sometimes i say i should be 40 instead of 13 but anyway i just need someone to understand.

katie x


She's crying.. and I'm 2 years late again.


So I know I have depression but sometimes I think omg what if I’m faking it..how would I know like what if I’m over reacting and I’m going to get told that I’m lying, so yeahhh


a depression clinic/treatment/thing ad just popped up on the video omg youtube you did that


I'm here f9r you we are all cause we love you!!!!


Do you know the feeling that you really need a hug but you don't want to ask for it, because your friends would be worried so you just pretend to be okay, which leads to not getting the comforting hug you need so bad?

I hate being too good at lying about how I feel. I wish I could tell them that I really feel ugly and not good enough. When they tell me that I'm beautiful, I don't believe them. I want to believe them, I want to believe them so bad. But then I look in the mirror and my tiny confidence crumbles to pieces a disappears. I don't want to die but I don't want to live either.

Little Bangtan Direction
same
It feels shit


I just found you and just here me out loud: I am depressed. I have tried starting a happy mindset, but just please life! Hand me something good for once. I always feel that one piece missing, in my heart. I always feel like life is an illusion, and one day I just won’t exist. I have sadly met depression at a very young age. I was in third grade and I felt like crap. I was scared, and I told my friend. I just want everyone to try to be the happiest you and just be you. I have learned that recently. 😌 I feel like I can just trust everyone here, and just be happy. Have a splendid day, ok?


What I hate the most is when I feel depressed during holidays. I've been in a low for about 2-3 weeks now and it's getting so bad. i'm basically in bed all day, i'm so fucking tired and i can't sleep during the night which is greeat. life feels so pointless right now. i wake up, feel like shit, eat something, go to bed again and after a few hours my mom comes in and complains that all i do is laying in bed.
it just sucks because i just live. i wake up and the first thought i have is 'shit now i have to do that again' i have no motivation for anything and i'm really so scared that i won't be able to sleep tonight.
wish me luck guys

Anytime Lea .Good Luck #LEA THE CHAMPION.

Danny wow thank you so much. It really means a lot that you took the time to read my comment and to reply.
This is what I needed to hear. Thank you. I'm feeling a bit more hopeful now and I will try to get up now and do something useful.
You are so right, I can't let my depression win. I'm more than this. Thank you again mate xx
I hope you're doing well, take care

Lea Potter Hang in there Lea . You have been struggling for so long but you are still fighting. Depression is a liar . Do not believe it . You have to get up and say F Depression. This is your life . Be that change . Get up call your Doctor and tell him what’s going on . Talk to someone you trust . Celebrate the irreplaceable person you are .You have to have the will to get better . Do not let depression win . Go Volunteer or help out others and you will start to feel better . Eat foods that are high in b vitamins and healthy fats , Protein and greens . Do something that you are passionate about . Live your life like you are in charge . Depression is an unwanted guest and it needs to be kicked out .Love you . Danny


i dont even do that much. i dont get off bed. havent in 2 months. i havent seen anyone in 2months or talked


You should step out of yourself go help other people..learn to love yourself..there are beautiful things in this world and it is your responsibility to find them...


“Look how depressed I am.” -Dodie Clark. I feel like in this video you’re romanticizing depression. As someone who suffers from depression, I don’t like this video.


Seems interesting but I can't stand people who talk and chew at the same time. Arg.


Don't take anti depressents. I've been depressed since i was 12 and I refuse to take anti depressents. 4 of my friends are on anti depressants and they have all god worse. I think the medication does something quite bad to you and you still feel depressed while on them so I try mindfulness that actually helps. Please give mindfulness a try, there is an app called Headspace that has guided meditation which really helps. Meditation is really hard to do but if you keep at it it will eventually work and it will be amazing! Better than putting chemicals in your body that either make you worse or don't help. Use your brain against your brain to help you.
You can even message me and I'll help You, I'm always up for helping people because I know how it feels so I'll understand you completly :)

I hope you're well. Keep your chin up, you're doing amazing!

@Dionne Clelland You obviously didn't have patience to read through the antidepressant's instructions, since they are designed to help people and they indeed do their job if the one taking them actually puts his/her mind into it and reads drugs' description.

@DaMihiMortem

You might have done different techniques but doesn't mean you done them right or even took other mindful habits into consideration. From what you're saying it looks like you done some meditation and didn't take your time to actually sit and properly meditate. The brain is such an amazing organ, you can and will help depression with meditation, you just have to have patience. It seems you didn't have patience which is why you feel meditation won't help depression. The brain can work wonders. (Through mindfulness and meditation)

@Dionne Clelland I know what I am talking about. I did a lot of meditation in the past using various techniques and I know that it won't help fight with depression. At least not without proper medication. So don't tell me I don't know what I'm talking about. You're the one spreading fake information.

@DaMihiMortem

You clearly have no clue what you're talking about and don't know one single benefit of meditation. Which is fine, a lot of people don't but don't sit and tell someone they are wrong when you have no idea what you're talking about. That's dangerous.

@DaMihiMortem

What is it you're trying to say here? Is it that medication is better for you than meditation, because if that's what you're trying to say you're dreaming.

"Don't take medicine but use this app for meditation". You and your friends are just failing at simple task of taking the medicine properly. Same as Dodie, who drank alcohol after taking antidepressants. And then you complain how bad influence it is. Jesus Christ.


Hi depressed peeps! Just a lil reminder, you are full of worth soon you’ll find it


I been feeling depressed for at least 2 week now it just doesn't seem like it get better I been trying to get myself to go out and do things but it not really same like it helping


I felt like nobody could actually relate to exactly this


I just be as depressed as I can be till that gets boring.


<b>all the enneagram type fours in the chat</b>

*all the enneagram type fours in the chat*


can anyone help me? i kind of understand and experience this, the blackness dodie talks about near the beginning but i don't think i have depression. i've never been diagnosed, i mildly self harmed years ago but it was barely anything terrible. and this blackness only gets triggered when things not even terribly bad, but do get in my way, and i feel low. i get the whole longing thing, and i usually get "low" over things like exams and my potential to fail, sometimes social events, the fact that i'm not good enough for a specific thing, body image issues, not really having anyone to talk to about anything, and missing my friends because i moved. sometimes i just get low for really trivial reasons. i feel like i'm easily put down by small things. so what is that? is it just common sadness? if it is, i'd feel even more pathetic for commenting. rip me

justine a You should seek professional help. It won't hurt to just talk to a nice person in real life. ❤ Much Love.


i am very depressed. I hate it when people say they are depressed and they just say oh, im so sad. i have to blah blah blah.<br>when in reality they have no idea how hard it is to be dragged down constantly by sadness and fear, its like being in a cage that is unlocked but you cannot get out because you have trapped yourself. I feel like my friend pretends to be sad for others not to feel bad because they say they are depressed but they are not. Depression sucks. for anyone who says that you are depressed, do research on depression because you might not even be depressed.

i am very depressed. I hate it when people say they are depressed and they just say oh, im so sad. i have to blah blah blah.
when in reality they have no idea how hard it is to be dragged down constantly by sadness and fear, its like being in a cage that is unlocked but you cannot get out because you have trapped yourself. I feel like my friend pretends to be sad for others not to feel bad because they say they are depressed but they are not. Depression sucks. for anyone who says that you are depressed, do research on depression because you might not even be depressed.


i only watch her because shes beautiful.

Ferrisvfx how about you watch her for her talent and stop focusing on her outer appearance. She is gorgeous inside and out and has a incredible singing voice. It’s kinda toxic to only be around for appearances.


U cant be depressed for 1 fking day and the other day ur not depressed


is binging on dodie vids all day waits for an upload leaves to get food dodie posts

*is binging on dodie vids all day* *waits for an upload* *leaves to get food* *dodie posts*

but aww dodie i always hope that with these videos you're getting happier because i truly want you to be happy you are such a positive influence in my life


Me too 😩 I feel horrible. I hope they can fix me because I cannot live like this. I have derealization, depression because of it, anxious everyday.


Im sad and it’s not okay i swear it’s not okay and it’s not okay to be not okay


Oh man do I know those little whimperings hahah depression is a crappy friend and it'd be cool if he didn't want to hang out so much.


Am I the only one that loves those soybeans shes eating except I peel the thin skin off after I squeezed the bean outta the pod?


Does anyone get it where you feel depressed and you know you're depressed but you force yourself to do things (and hate it). But then you feel bad for feeling bad because its sunny and it would be a waste of a good day. But its not a good day because everything seems dull and uncomfortable, like you're out of your element even though everything's the same. I need to know if I'm alone in this. That's how I've felt all day and I hate it. Send help


this is actually exactly what i've been feeling lately put into words


I feel so depressed rn and to be honest I just want to die but at least I only have like 9 hours left of my life


So, if I feel like this a lot should I be seeing a therapist? I mean I feel like this the majority of my life, so should I get help or... Just work my way through it? I don't know on days like this my parents just think I'm being emotional, and after watching this and realizing that, yeah, I have depression. How will I let them know that like I might actually need help for this? I don't know anymore, I'll probably just work through it so they don't have to worry about me more than they already do.

I'd say, if your unsure get a therapist. It's better to work your way though something with a supporter, than alone.

Irmak Genc Thank you so much! You cleared up a lot of things for me, I'll talk to them about it and see what they think I should do. Once again, thank you!

And just a quick addition, if things aren't seriously destroying your life or impairing your ability to function, you don't absolutely have to go to therapy so please go if you want to and believe that it can help you becoming a better person, not because you feel obliged to. 😊😊😊

Ella Hertzenberg Obviously you don't HAVE to do anything, but it certainly helps. I've been seeing a therapist for over a year now, and I didn't go to therapy for a specific diagnosis and haven't been diagosed with anything. I judt felt like it would improve my "life quality" (if that's the right term) It helps you understand yourself on a much deeper level and provides a certain sense of comfort that you can't get from anything else. You can confide in them about anything as they don't know anyone you might talk about so they are able to analyse the situation objectively and they always ask the right questions as it is their job. Coming to the convincing your parents however, that is slightly trickier, but still possible. I think the most important thing is expressing how normal therapy is and how even high functioning people who don't have any sort of mental illness    can go to therapist for stress relief and such. There's a lot of stigma around therapy so make sure that they understand that not just severely ill and "crazy" <del>a nonsensical but common word that others tend to associate with therapy</del> seek psychological counseling. I'm 16, and at the beginning my mum was pretty sceptical about whether simple talking would solve my problems and she felt hurt because she thought I didn't trust her enough to talk about my issues with her. Making sure that your parents understand therapy isn't a chat with someone that you pay a lot of money for is crucial. Therapists are trained professionals, so they can make you comprehend and reveal things about yourself using several techniques that a mundane person cannot. It is also important to mention that there's no shame in going to therapy. You don't have to take medication, or have a proper diagnosis to need some guidance. I'm sure your parents will understand how it'll benefit you and allow you to try it out if you genuinely believe that it'll help and you express yourself honestly. Sorry for the length of this message, hope this helps xx

Ella Hertzenberg Obviously you don't HAVE to do anything, but it certainly helps. I've been seeing a therapist for over a year now, and I didn't go to therapy for a specific diagnosis and haven't been diagosed with anything. I judt felt like it would improve my "life quality" (if that's the right term) It helps you understand yourself on a much deeper level and provides a certain sense of comfort that you can't get from anything else. You can confide in them about anything as they don't know anyone you might talk about so they are able to analyse the situation objectively and they always ask the right questions as it is their job. Coming to the convincing your parents however, that is slightly trickier, but still possible. I think the most important thing is expressing how normal therapy is and how even high functioning people who don't have any sort of mental illness    can go to therapist for stress relief and such. There's a lot of stigma around therapy so make sure that they understand that not just severely ill and "crazy" -a nonsensical but common word that others tend to associate with therapy- seek psychological counseling. I'm 16, and at the beginning my mum was pretty sceptical about whether simple talking would solve my problems and she felt hurt because she thought I didn't trust her enough to talk about my issues with her. Making sure that your parents understand therapy isn't a chat with someone that you pay a lot of money for is crucial. Therapists are trained professionals, so they can make you comprehend and reveal things about yourself using several techniques that a mundane person cannot. It is also important to mention that there's no shame in going to therapy. You don't have to take medication, or have a proper diagnosis to need some guidance. I'm sure your parents will understand how it'll benefit you and allow you to try it out if you genuinely believe that it'll help and you express yourself honestly. Sorry for the length of this message, hope this helps xx


I’m depressed..I told my “wife” Mia and it was she was disappointed in me for being depressed..any advice

Depression comes naturally your wife should understand you cant help it neither can she try to understand eachother and remember its not in your hand and if you can afford go to therapy


depressed yet she still has the motivation to make a video


I am not sure if I am depressed. To be really honest - and I know this sounds like complete bullshit and probably is but anyways - I somehow <i>want</i> to be depressed. I don't know why. To identify my problems? To get attention? To have an excuse for my laziness? I don't know.

I am not sure if I am depressed. To be really honest - and I know this sounds like complete bullshit and probably is but anyways - I somehow _want_ to be depressed. I don't know why. To identify my problems? To get attention? To have an excuse for my laziness? I don't know.


welcome to another episode of why is this on my recommended does youtube know something?


This "WHEEO" at 3:52 really confuses me... I have no idea where it's coming from...
anyway - we all love you so much! And we'll always listen and will always be here for you! xx


wtf XD I dont check my anxiety I just know >.>


You are depressed, yet you make a video about it. Legit as fuck.

@amiablehacker And how many of them brag about their depression every few minutes? How many of them admit that they need it? I bet not many.

@DaMihiMortem LOTS of musicians and artists alike have used their bad mental state to create art. Songs, books, paintings, etc. She's not the only one.

FireAndFlame
Yes, no one with depression wants it, obviously! She doesn’t want it, she just uses it for her art, there’s a big difference. It’s not like someone with depression can just go ‘you know what, I need to be depressed so I can use this emotion’ it’s more like ‘I’m feeling this way and I can’t help it but I can use this emotion for something’
Btw, going back to why she is making a video on this here is a direct quote from the oversharing video:
It’s easier to talk to a camera. It’s like I wanna open up. I am talking and getting it out there technically to people but I’m talking to myself. I can’t see anyone’s reaction.

@Georgia In one video she literally said that she needs her depression for her "art". She admitted it. Ask anyone with depression if they feel like they need it for some reason. No one wants that. Yet she wants and makes her persona all about it. Which person with depression acts like her?

FireAndFlame she has made a full video about over sharing on social media. She explains it in why she shares so much

Also she speaks about her mental health journey a lot and has actually shown her journey with the different approaches she has taken to combat it including drugs and therapy. She’s not going to be lying about all that. No one would carry on that narrative for so long

@Georgia She shares shit because she demands attention. YouTube is her outlet? Don't forget about snapchat, twitter and instagram. She's the definition of oversharing.
First words in this video: "Look how depressed I am." - highlighting to make people feel sorry about her.
She's so depressed that she puts efford into making this movie and lies about it in the movie itself.

FireAndFlame dodie has spoken before about how youtube is her outlet for how she is feeling. She wants to share to make people feel less alone and to make herself feel better. No human would pretend to be depressed.


It can get better and you can find yourself healed from that illness(that image can be not possible to even see, I understand I remembered this exact thought and I couldn't in any way belive or imagine that I could wake up in calm and safety).<br>It's worth this unfair hard work to be healed and function and feel loved.

It can get better and you can find yourself healed from that illness(that image can be not possible to even see, I understand I remembered this exact thought and I couldn't in any way belive or imagine that I could wake up in calm and safety).
It's worth this unfair hard work to be healed and function and feel loved.


My worst mistake was turning to drugs. Legal drugs, but drugs no less. Drugs that make you dissociate... and I have a dissociative disorder. These drugs have since brought to the surface a panic disorder I haven’t experienced in years, and social anxiety which I didn’t think I experienced (I have GAD). I personally think some people need drugs when they’re depressed to be able to feel again, just so it motivates them to continue with the battle. I just managed to get myself addicted. And of course, professionals only want to treat the addiction first, and not the underlying issues


I am crying everything like every single thing. I can't find my pants i sit and cry, i can't pratice drawing,dance or music (which i love them so much) i sit and cry. My mom usually doesn't see me crying cause i don't want to make her upset. I can't talk with people anymore. This year was my first year in high school but i chouldn't feel like having friends at all. I am so fucking lonley. I didn't talk with any friend of mine for whole holiday. I stared to go fine art school which i work my ass of for geting there but i can't feel happy. I feel tired all the time i can't finish the things i stared to make. I feel scared and dirty. My family says "What happend your light in your eyes please don't be like this." İt's not like i wanted to be like this! Sometimes i just want to go as far i can so i can be alone. I feel like idiot cause i think that i am like this cause i just want attention. No one see how i actually feel. At nights i can't sleep cause i am thinking so much,when i almost sleep my hearts strats beat like crazy and my body starts to falter then i wake up. I stop trying to be happy. When people asks me like "What is the happiest moment in your life?' I can't anwser. Am i going to be ok? İs this normal?


Huh. Don't think I should have watched this. I feel even worse. What a shit day. X(