That is the healthiest snack I've ever seen someone have when they are depressed.

Actually I eat cucumbers when I'm depressed😂😂😂 or belly peppers :/

It is kinda fun to eat too, like, it pops into your mouth.

Yeah. Pretty healthy. I suppose it is probably nice though as edamame bean pods have a nice crunch. Very satisfying.

Dustin Padgett right. I just ordered junk food to be delivered. I personally couldn’t make a video if I were depressed

I either eat everything I find or nothing.
Like I go to the fridge and take whatever I like. I eat cereal, bread, candy and especially chocolate
Or
I don’t have an appetite. That’s been happening recently. I can’t eat breakfast. I only eat a little bit for lunch and dinner. Snacks hardly. But I drink hot chocolate EVERY. DAY. I drink water less than hot chocolate.
Wow I’m so healthy omg 😮

I eat grapes when I’m depressed because eating unhealthy makes me hate myself and I can’t take anymore of that.

I literally eat so much when I get depressed lmfao 💀

My healthiest snack to eat while depressed is air lol i don't eat ANYTHING, its just the act, the physical PROCESS of eating is just too much, like I can't do it

Im suffering from Severe Depression and Im eating Seafood Scampi

Dustin Padgett I eat like popcorn and shit and she’s eating that damn that’s actually good for her

Hah I'm sat here on the floor in a depressive episode eating a chocolate Easter egg that I don't want to eat and I feel kind of sick and I just want to be ok

When I'm depressed I just don't want to eat and it happens a lot

For a lot of people, depression kind of makes everything taste the same, mentally. Like you can taste the difference, but you don't even care what it tastes like, you know? Because when you're depressed, you know that no matter how good the food tastes, it won't make things better. So you may as well eat healthy if you're not getting anything out of your ice cream experience.

@o ya I hear ya.. me too ..gained too much..which is why im trying to eat carrots instead of chips now. But i just figured out this morning ..ive gained 70 lbs. 😶

@Chelsea Padilla edamame beans in the pods. Yum

@Allison Bryant omg.. i just did that on saturday... ate em with tarragon basil salad dressing.but added the wasabi from my grocery store sushi i ate cuz i didnt feel like cooking.<br>But carrots have the best crunch.. like its interrupting the shit thoughts. It used to be a bag of chips but carrots are my healthy go to......and cheap as chips

@Allison Bryant omg.. i just did that on saturday... ate em with tarragon basil salad dressing.but added the wasabi from my grocery store sushi i ate cuz i didnt feel like cooking.
But carrots have the best crunch.. like its interrupting the shit thoughts. It used to be a bag of chips but carrots are my healthy go to......and cheap as chips

When I have my daily break downs I eat an entire jar of marmite lmao

Lilliana when I’m in a really bad place I either don’t eat at all or eat too much. I gained too much bcuz of it and then I started feeling insecure about my weight so I stopped eating

Ikr, when I'm in a depressed mood i eat cup noodles

When I'm deppressed I binge eat frozen peas...

When I'm deppressed I binge eat frozen peas...

mya i’m exactly the same. i’ll either spend the day sitting next to the fridge or the kitchen will become my worst enemy

honestly i do the same though. i mean everything tastes like nothin anyway. might as well be healthy

Dustin Padgett life hack: if you’re constantly depressed, put healthy snacks at the front of your fridge so you’ll eat those and not an entire jar of peanut butter

Exactly! I usually eat Doritos and Chips XD

Exactly! I usually eat Doritos and Chips XD

I can tell when I'm in a bad state of mind because I get the urge to go and buy bags and bags of candy. Just sitting on my couch, watching netflix and eating candy all day

@Chelsea Padilla Edamame beans. They are often used in asian cooking I think?

@Allison Bryant that actually sounds awesome

@Allison Bryant that actually sounds awesome

Lol true when I'm depressed I'm like very unhealthy I'm like eating lots of pizza and a can of coke or eat lots of cookies

Dodie: beans
Me: bucked of icecream, 10 muffins, 7 twinkies, 12 lollypops and 2 liters of chocolate milk (hot)
😛

then again, i would eat anything when i'm in a depressive episode.

I'm eating pancakes while having an existential crisis after barely eating for a few days because I'm so tired:)

im literally in a depressed mood and eating cheetos

Dustin Padgett I don’t think I’ve ever eaten anything while I’ve been in my worst state tbh. I tend to just not eat which Ik isn’t healthy. I’m so proud of dodie for being able to look after herself even when she feels so down because that’s one of the hardest things to do in my opinion

One time after I had a panic attack and ate an entire bag of carrots


"i'll just go outside and feel hopeless"
That part hit me so much.

*"i'll just go outside and feel hopeless"*
That part hit me so much.

It is better to go outside and look at the horizon. See that there is something bigger. Or observe a leaf flying in the wind, that is also nice:)

@Corona Virus The reaper will come for us all eventually

Just let the grim reaper take you all away the grim reaper will make y'all happy 🙂

4,108,624, 018 Seriously. I did that today. It was warm for the first time so I tried going to the park. Found everything grey and unmoving. Had to go back inside after a whike


Fun fact: every time I watch this, I pull out some frozen veggies and eat with you

That's like the most subtle supportive and empathetic thing

Every time? How much do you watch this 😂

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Whenever I start to feel that pit of depression looming in I just come to this video so that I can have something to relate to. It actually really helps to make me feel less alone and helpless. Thank you Dodie.

ahaha i forgot about this comment. I'm back for the same reason today :')

Jill Stephenson If you ever want to talk, I think i can help you. I’m here for you in those tough times.

I know this is an old comment, but dang this is what I do! Sometimes it just helps to know that someone else understands so clearly what you're going to. You know like someone to show that you're going to be okay even if your brain is being a jerk right now, but that what you're feeling right now is real and sucks.

Jill Stephenson
i do the same thing, and you know what? us dodie fans have to have each other’s back and i feel so lucky to be a part of such an open and loving fan base.

i hope you’re alright.


That 'clap, clap, clap, snap, clap' is the coolest signature move.

I love your honesty.
Finish your beans.
You're not alone.
Keep going. 🎸 🎸 🎸

I often do a clap-snap pattern when I’m frantically trying to remember something


i've never related to something so much in my entire life. i showed this video to my parents, and i think it really did help them understand my mental illness more. thank you dodie. i hope you're in a happy place.


i come back to this video everytime i have a day like this and it always seems to comfort me in just the right ways


this video brings me so much comfort and it always has and probably always will.


"Some days you wake up and your brain is so heavy, you can't help but notice it." <br>Wow, I've never had my depression described better. Amazing.

"Some days you wake up and your brain is so heavy, you can't help but notice it."
Wow, I've never had my depression described better. Amazing.

Mornings when I'm feeling bad are the worst. Everything feels heavy physically and emotionally, it's a miracle I even drag myself out of bed those days


This have been my comfort video for years now. Whenever I feel sad or depressed I just watch this while eating snacks. Please dodie never delete this 😭


anyone else sometimes feels so bad that you're certain you have depression but then you think you're faking it and you feel stupid bc there's people out there with the actual illness, but again you relate to so many symptoms and you have no clue of what's going on :c

anyone else sometimes feels so bad that you're certain you have depression but then you think you're faking it and you feel stupid bc there's people out there with the actual illness, but again you relate to so many symptoms and you have no clue of what's going on :c

okay. this is literally me. you state my whole life.

okay. this is literally me. you state my whole life.

Exactly. This is a reason to go to the doctors and get diagnosed.

Exactly. This is a reason to go to the doctors and get diagnosed.

Holy shit yes thank you for putting it into words

Holy shit yes thank you for putting it into words

me. i want to speak to someone but i know they'll say it isn't depression. i'm not sure if i even have depression. but it feels so much like it.

me. i want to speak to someone but i know they'll say it isn't depression. i'm not sure if i even have depression. but it feels so much like it.

I go between being hopelessly optimistic to sad over stupid things. Like grandma dies? Who cares. Drop my icecream? Mental breakdown. I diagnose myself with being self absorbed

I go between being hopelessly optimistic to sad over stupid things. Like grandma dies? Who cares. Drop my icecream? Mental breakdown. I diagnose myself with being self absorbed

Aaaannnd that was such a call out post for my life dude

Aaaannnd that was such a call out post for my life dude

that’s me, i just feel completely invalid

that’s me, i just feel completely invalid

i went on multiple certified depression quizzes - basically what therapists ask you and use to determine if they actually want to help you out
all said severely depressed and one redirected me to a suicide hotline list
i still think im faking it, other people have it worse. im probably just being sensitive and it's been so long surely it'll pass soon

jessica fernanda nahhhh 😢that hit me home

jessica fernanda nahhhh 😢that hit me home

My therapist told me that if you are worried about faking it, it means you're not and you're valid

My therapist told me that if you are worried about faking it, it means you're not and you're valid

jessica fernanda i thought i was the only one

jessica fernanda i thought i was the only one

Thank you I’ve been feeling this forever

Thank you I’ve been feeling this forever

i used to feel that way until i got diagnosed with depression. it's always better to go to a psychologist and check what's going on.

i used to feel that way until i got diagnosed with depression. it's always better to go to a psychologist and check what's going on.

literally taking antidepressants and still feel like i’m “faking it”

literally taking antidepressants and still feel like i’m “faking it”

Depression IS an illness. It's fucking terrifying how still it's a stigma in society and many make fun of it saying it's just a 'sadness' or 'overreaction to certain things'. Nooooo depression isn't a drama it's an actual illness just like heart disease, cancer, or hepatitis. MENTAL ILLNESS  IS AN ILLNESS. I don't understand how many more years would it take for society to ACCEPT this thing. 😭

jessica fernanda definitely see a psychiatrist if you feel like you’re depressed then take a clinical test

jessica fernanda definitely see a psychiatrist if you feel like you’re depressed then take a clinical test

jessica fernanda can anyone explain this for me

jessica fernanda can anyone explain this for me

I relate to this so much, thank you. I feel so stupid and alone when ever I start to think about why I am sad... it feels good to know that other people have the same sentiment.

I relate to this so much, thank you. I feel so stupid and alone when ever I start to think about why I am sad... it feels good to know that other people have the same sentiment.

jessica fernanda wow i thought i was the only one tysm for putting this into words

jessica fernanda wow i thought i was the only one tysm for putting this into words

Same I was actually diagnosed but ignore everything because of the same

Same I was actually diagnosed but ignore everything because of the same

wow i thought i'm only like that. Kinda feel better there r more but still not happy bc more people feel that shit

wow i thought i'm only like that. Kinda feel better there r more but still not happy bc more people feel that shit

We  Are Like The Sea!  Low Tide,  High Tide!

We  Are Like The Sea!  Low Tide,  High Tide!

I’m sorry to hear, remember, if u have a  problem, weather it’s a diagnosed problem or not, no one should put u down about having a problem, that make sense?

I’m sorry to hear, remember, if u have a  problem, weather it’s a diagnosed problem or not, no one should put u down about having a problem, that make sense?

jessica fernanda and you’re scared to get diagnosed incase you’re wrong

jessica fernanda and you’re scared to get diagnosed incase you’re wrong

i feel like this with any bad feeling that i have felt and it just <br>RRRR

i feel like this with any bad feeling that i have felt and it just
RRRR

jessica fernanda yes I feel like this a lot like I have nothing really big to be depressed about but I am and my brain sometimes tells me I’m just calling for attention when I’m not it’s like my depression is depressed

jessica fernanda yes I feel like this a lot like I have nothing really big to be depressed about but I am and my brain sometimes tells me I’m just calling for attention when I’m not it’s like my depression is depressed

Then you feel selfish.

I don’t want to be selfish.

Then you feel selfish.

I don’t want to be selfish.

@Ella Wright but what if you feel this way and you constantly feel depressed anyways y'know what I mean..I'm a melancholy type i suppose but I also feel like I am taking it but I'm not? And those bouts you're talking about could be a type of manic or mania depression. But depression isn't always chronic. There is also situational depression but that's definetly not it it for me. Y'know I don't really know whats wrong with me bc I look up all of these things and i have these symptoms but don't want to talk to my mum about it bc I don't want her to think I'm faking or self diagnosising myself which I am but if I'm really feeling those symptoms wouldn't it make sense??!? And I feel like everything I'm self diagnosising is in contradiction to what I just looked at idk I'm weird and I'm sure there could be worse problems..

been feeling like this for a few years except its like a constant bad feeling

been feeling like this for a few years except its like a constant bad feeling

i feel like im faking it but then i think about it and i cant process the thought into my brain

i feel like im faking it but then i think about it and i cant process the thought into my brain

THANK YOUUUU I NEEDED THISS to think i thought i was alone😳😩😩

THANK YOUUUU I NEEDED THISS to think i thought i was alone😳😩😩

I've never read anything more relatable. Thank you!

I've never read anything more relatable. Thank you!

jessica fernanda Dang. I didn’t know that other people feel this? Cause honestly when I’m feeling down (I’m pretty sure I don’t have depression) I feel so stupid and “oh woe is me” cause I just... Ughh. I feel like my “self hate” is like a call for attention?... Even though I try to hide it more or less?... I bet I’m gonna remember this comment later and be like “stop faking you’re fine”. Cause like I am?... But I’m not?... ivkdysnsjak
I’m supposed to be fine. I bet I’m fine but my brain? I feel like I might have minor anxiety but then again, I feel like I shouldn’t assume that cause some people have major anxiety and mine is barely a problem? I just change my mind all the time either convincing myself that I’m fine, or feeling certain that I’m not...

Ok you know what, sorry. You can ignore this long rambly comment. ;w;
I feel stupid now.

jessica fernanda OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH CAN RELATE

jessica fernanda OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH CAN RELATE

jessica fernanda omg what i was thinking the same thing about myself as I read this...

jessica fernanda omg what i was thinking the same thing about myself as I read this...

and then i feel may be i have depression. 'cause everything i can think about happy times, is something when i'm really distracted. distracted through work. distracted through screens. distracted throughs sounds. but in my head it's always silence. a nothingness which feels so heavy. but then again, i think i'm faking it. 'cause real depression might not let me do that. it might not let me get distracted

YEaH!like okay ik this comment is from two years ago but i like it so idc. I've been diagnosed and have mdd, and have had mmmmmmselfharmmmmmissuesmmmm but i feel like i'm faking it and, idk i confused? I more just feel really really, REALLY sad, not confused or anything, but just super hopeless and awful, so just normal sadness ya know? SO YEAH I FEEL LIKE I"M FAKING IT AND-WhaTT. And i have a thyroid problem so I'm always really tired an i uugasflhdksghasfkj

IKR OMG AHHHHHHHHHH I JUST WANNA CRY AHHHHHHHHHH LIFE IS JUST SO BAD! WELL JUST SO STRESSFUL!!!

IKR OMG AHHHHHHHHHH I JUST WANNA CRY AHHHHHHHHHH LIFE IS JUST SO BAD! WELL JUST SO STRESSFUL!!!

i took a quiz on depression two months and it said i am severely depressed. now i have the best friends ever to help me and i love them and i love writing music and i still cant love my life. i hAtE iT

i took a quiz on depression two months and it said i am severely depressed. now i have the best friends ever to help me and i love them and i love writing music and i still cant love my life. i hAtE iT

Thank you 💗
This is exactly how I feel and it makes me feel so empty. I think that I have dysthymia but then again how do I know? So I just fall into a pit of despair. When I was eleven my mother had me put into guidance counselling at my school and at the end of the year my councillor suggested for me to continue to have counselling. I never told my mum. I thought that I wasn't worth it. To this day I am still uncertain of my condition. I can't get myself to believe that this is real.
I'm glad that I'm not the only one who feels this way.

Bless
💗💗

Yes, every day. I've felt like I'm probably depressed for a long time, years; and chronic depression runs in my family; but I always talked myself in circles about getting help for it for so long not thinking I was actually depressed and that it was self indulgent and an insult to people with "real" depression and I was/am being a horrible person and hopping on a bandwagon. It took a serious life event (unrelated) to get me into therapy where I then began to talk about this for real, and even though my therapist has diagnosed me with depression, I still constantly think I'm faking it or making it up. I have good days and think "well if you were able to do this why haven't you been doing it the whole time, lazy dumbass? You're not depressed."
Watching this video made me feel similarly because I didn't relate to all the same symptoms. I obsess over things I've done wrong / my flaws, feel a heavy feeling in my chest, am constantly tired and lacking energy and motivation even though I have a lot of goals, and cry at random times and just feel sad and bored, but things can still cheer me up, and I can still tune out to a good show or some music. I don't feel the "brain fog" aspect. I tell myself all the time that I'm just lazy, and I'm still not even sure that isn't my only problem. I have no problem looking at others experiencing the same things and saying it's clearly depression, but I just can't apply it to myself without feeling like a disingenuous fraud. For the benefit of the many people commenting here, see someone if you feel like this. Not having it as bad as someone else doesn't make your problem invalid, and sometimes these feelings are literally symptoms of depression. I was diagnosed with "persistent depressive disorder" and literally cried tears of joy at feeling like I could relate to something for once the first time I saw the definition, but I talked myself into the fact that NO, I was just attention seeking and rotten within a week and didn't get the help because I just needed to "get over it." It's such a frustrating feeling because you literally just feel like a shitty person for existing, like you can't use depression to describe yourself because you don't feel like you're entitled to, but you also don't feel normal or good.

Yes, every day. I've felt like I'm probably depressed for a long time, years; and chronic depression runs in my family; but I always talked myself in circles about getting help for it for so long not thinking I was actually depressed and that it was self indulgent and an insult to people with "real" depression and I was/am being a horrible person and hopping on a bandwagon. It took a serious life event (unrelated) to get me into therapy where I then began to talk about this for real, and even though my therapist has diagnosed me with depression, I still constantly think I'm faking it or making it up. I have good days and think "well if you were able to do this why haven't you been doing it the whole time, lazy dumbass? You're not depressed."
Watching this video made me feel similarly because I didn't relate to all the same symptoms. I obsess over things I've done wrong / my flaws, feel a heavy feeling in my chest, am constantly tired and lacking energy and motivation even though I have a lot of goals, and cry at random times and just feel *sad* and bored, but things can still cheer me up, and I can still tune out to a good show or some music. I don't feel the "brain fog" aspect. I tell myself all the time that I'm just lazy, and I'm still not even sure that isn't my only problem. I have no problem looking at others experiencing the same things and saying it's clearly depression, but I just can't apply it to myself without feeling like a disingenuous fraud. For the benefit of the many people commenting here, see someone if you feel like this. Not having it as bad as someone else doesn't make your problem invalid, and sometimes these feelings are literally symptoms of depression. I was diagnosed with "persistent depressive disorder" and literally cried tears of joy at feeling like I could relate to something for once the first time I saw the definition, but I talked myself into the fact that NO, I was just attention seeking and rotten within a week and didn't get the help because I just needed to "get over it." It's such a frustrating feeling because you literally just feel like a shitty person for existing, like you can't use depression to describe yourself because you don't feel like you're entitled to, but you also don't feel normal or good.

exactly, and it doesn’t help that once i caught my friend talking behind my back saying that she thought i was faking it and i feel like every now and then she drops kind of rude subtle hints at me about it and it doesn’t make me feel better at all

exactly, and it doesn’t help that once i caught my friend talking behind my back saying that she thought i was faking it and i feel like every now and then she drops kind of rude subtle hints at me about it and it doesn’t make me feel better at all

you might actually have some kind of depression but idk

you might actually have some kind of depression but idk

jessica fernanda Yeah<br>I feel numb all the time but I always tell myself that I just don't know how to identify emotions, "of course that video made me happy, it makes everyone happy, you aren't numb, this is happiness... Totally" when I smile I can never tell if I actually want to and it's because I'm happy or if it just happened because I'm so used to faking them.

jessica fernanda Yeah
I feel numb all the time but I always tell myself that I just don't know how to identify emotions, "of course that video made me happy, it makes everyone happy, you aren't numb, this is happiness... Totally" when I smile I can never tell if I actually want to and it's because I'm happy or if it just happened because I'm so used to faking them.

the most relatable thing I've ever read, exactly that

the most relatable thing I've ever read, exactly that

Oh my god, I really did feel stupid about  it and to see that many people can relate to your comment blows my mind.

Oh my god, I really did feel stupid about  it and to see that many people can relate to your comment blows my mind.

I get anxiety worrying about if my anxiety is over dramatic and I just don't know what to think of myself.

I get anxiety worrying about if my anxiety is over dramatic and I just don't know what to think of myself.

jessica fernanda oh god you describe me 24/u

jessica fernanda oh god you describe me 24/u

jessica fernanda um yes. All the time. I feel that way about everything: depression, anxiety, ptsd, ADHD. Am i faking it? No. But I'm always afraid that I am

jessica fernanda um yes. All the time. I feel that way about everything: depression, anxiety, ptsd, ADHD. Am i faking it? No. But I'm always afraid that I am

thank you thank you thank you I'm not alone

thank you thank you thank you I'm not alone

same. I need a therapist tho or something because i actually got the strong urge to hurt myself earlier today so maybe im not faking it. idk

same. I need a therapist tho or something because i actually got the strong urge to hurt myself earlier today so maybe im not faking it. idk

you have no idea how relieved i am that i am not the only one who gets this, also, it does help now i am actually diagnosed, but before i got this all the time

you have no idea how relieved i am that i am not the only one who gets this, also, it does help now i am actually diagnosed, but before i got this all the time

Vane happy It's embarrassing and scary yes, but your parents fucking love you. they want you to get help. would you rather tell your parents you need help or let them find out in some other way that you needed help? grow up and ask for help. i told my parents when i was 15 and im 21 now. ive made a lot of change in my life and my parents have been there for me. it changed my life, it will change yours.

and it's worst when you can't go to get diagnose because you don't know how will your parents react if you tell them "can i go to a psycologist?"

and it's worst when you can't go to get diagnose because you don't know how will your parents react if you tell them "can i go to a psycologist?"

This is what I think everytime I have a panic attack or just start randomly crying. Like why the fuck are you crying? You have no reason to be crying while other people do so stop acting like this. I am on antidepressants but they don't work and then I end up thinking like it's because you aren't actually depressed. Others could use this more than you and you're just wasting it. Like all those bad things.

jessica fernanda Go see a doctor. Don't be scared to get help.

jessica fernanda Go see a doctor. Don't be scared to get help.

this is me rn. it's 6am. i've been spilling out my feelings in my journal/diary for the past hour.
i decided to watch different vids/ read diff sites to see if i am actually depressed.
i think it's safe to say that- i do not know.

this is me rn. it's 6am. i've been spilling out my feelings in my journal/diary for the past hour.
i decided to watch different vids/ read diff sites to see if i am actually depressed.
i think it's safe to say that- i do not know.

painfully true, and it doesn't help when other people tell you you're "being dramatic" or "thinking to deep into it" because let's say I actually DO have something wrong, I'm not going to take the steps to get better because I listen to those people and then it just... gets worse

painfully true, and it doesn't help when other people tell you you're "being dramatic" or "thinking to deep into it" because let's say I actually DO have something wrong, I'm not going to take the steps to get better because I listen to those people and then it just... gets worse

Oh god I thought I was the only one! I talked about it to my parents but my dad is completely sure nothing's wrong but my mom says even she wasn't feeling this bad when she was younger and she had a lot of 'depressing' (she didn't have depression, but it was close) days so I don't know but I'll talk to a doctor soon

Oh god I thought I was the only one! I talked about it to my parents but my dad is completely sure nothing's wrong but my mom says even she wasn't feeling this bad when she was younger and she had a lot of 'depressing' (she didn't have depression, but it was close) days so I don't know but I'll talk to a doctor soon

jessica fernanda Omfg I know what you're talking about

jessica fernanda Omfg I know what you're talking about

Yes, I always feel like that!! I’m glad to know I’m not the only one, oh my goodness!

Yes, I always feel like that!! I’m glad to know I’m not the only one, oh my goodness!

okay you just explained my thoughts just now wow

okay you just explained my thoughts just now wow

jessica fernanda situational depression is a thing 👉👉

jessica fernanda situational depression is a thing 👉👉

jessica fernanda yes thank you so much for putting it into words sometimes i wish that i was diagnosed with it just so that i was 100% aware of what exactly is wrong with me, if anything, because i really cant tell if I'm faking it or not which makes me feel even worse

jessica fernanda yes thank you so much for putting it into words sometimes i wish that i was diagnosed with it just so that i was 100% aware of what exactly is wrong with me, if anything, because i really cant tell if I'm faking it or not which makes me feel even worse

jessica fernanda yeah, that's happened to me where I stayed in bed for like 5 days and I was sad for no reason and felt like shit but I knew I never had depression and the same with anxiety, at school the counselor was saying things about they were worried I have anxiety but I didn't believe it until a few days ago when I actually looked up anxiety to see what it is on a base level and I was like, "Wait, so people don't freak out about these things?"

jessica fernanda every time I get out of a funk, I feel like I was faking the whole time and that I'm not actually depressed :((

jessica fernanda every time I get out of a funk, I feel like I was faking the whole time and that I'm not actually depressed :((

jessica fernanda, I feel the same exact way.

jessica fernanda, I feel the same exact way.

I really didn't know other people felt like this. Thank you

I really didn't know other people felt like this. Thank you

I feel like this and its kind of comforting that other people feel the same way but I also want to hug you all 💕💕

I feel like this and its kind of comforting that other people feel the same way but I also want to hug you all 💕💕

Even as someone who has been officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I still get this all of the time. My therapist said it's actually one of the big symptoms of a lot of mental illnesses, which is part of the reason a lot of people don't seek help.

Even as someone who has been officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I still get this all of the time. My therapist said it's actually one of the big symptoms of a lot of mental illnesses, which is part of the reason a lot of people don't seek help.

YES. A lot of the time. Also especially with my anxiety. It takes everything (and sometimes it still doesn't convince me enough) to tell myself that I have this, it's real, let's ride it through. I woke up in a panic attack today. What a thrill... So thankful it was short-lived and I could get out of my apartment and do something exciting. That doesn't always work, but it sure did today. #bulletdodged

jessica fernanda yeah I hate that when you feel the littlest bit better you feel so guilty because you question if it's real

jessica fernanda yeah I hate that when you feel the littlest bit better you feel so guilty because you question if it's real

jessica fernanda YES I was waiting for something like this SO RELATABLE

jessica fernanda YES I was waiting for something like this SO RELATABLE

jessica fernanda that's a sign of depression

jessica fernanda that's a sign of depression

T H A N K Y O U!!! oh my goshhh i relate soooomuch

T H A N K Y O U!!! oh my goshhh i relate soooomuch

Fuck this is my mental state in a nutshell

Fuck this is my mental state in a nutshell

OH MY GOD, YOU PUT IT IN WRITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD, YOU PUT IT IN WRITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jessica fernanda not even kidding, this describes me perfectly.

jessica fernanda not even kidding, this describes me perfectly.

jessica fernanda I can honestly relate to this so much. I'm afraid I'm just overthinking all of these signs and/or symptoms and I don't know anymore 😔

jessica fernanda I can honestly relate to this so much. I'm afraid I'm just overthinking all of these signs and/or symptoms and I don't know anymore 😔

I opened up to my friend ONCE and her response was that I was overreacting. After that I convinced myself that I was being dramatic and that I shouldn't compare myself to people who actually have mental illnesses

I opened up to my friend ONCE and her response was that I was overreacting. After that I convinced myself that I was being dramatic and that I shouldn't compare myself to people who actually have mental illnesses

Hey! yeah! (I'm sorry for my terrible english)
I felt like that for 6 years.
Then I met my current boyfriend who studies mental illness and explained to me that whatever you feel, you can get help for it. 'cause even when it's in fact not depression but you feel like shit without a reason (or with a reason), you can get help.
Even when you do it for attention (I was always affraid that, that was me) you can get help because there must be a reason why you subconsciously (I don't even know if that's a word) feel like you have a lack of attention.
I am now under treatment and further research for a disorder called borderline. It's still not going great but I finally have the feeling that I'm taken seriously and problebly the most important thing. I am recently allowing myself, to take myself serious.
That's the message I guess xD Take yourself serious and get help.  Love you all!!

Yeah... all the time... but trust me, it's worth talking so someone. My friends had been telling me for a few months to talk to someone so I FINALLY talked to the school psych. My boyfriend had to practically drag me in. I was sitting in the library sobbing into his shoulder before the appointment all "I'm fine I don't need a psych please don't make me she'll just say I'm being silly". Anyway, he kinda half forced me to go in, and I pretty much just cried in front of her for an hour, took some tests she gave me, and came out tentatively diagnosed as severely depressed.

Soooo it's worth it :D

jessica fernanda Oh dear that's actually me I didn't think other people feel this too

jessica fernanda Oh dear that's actually me I didn't think other people feel this too

i'm experiencing so many symptoms of depression but i don't want to make my family worry about me because i'd feel hella guilty if i did

i'm experiencing so many symptoms of depression but i don't want to make my family worry about me because i'd feel hella guilty if i did

i do, i have friends who have much worse depression than me (i think) and i always question whether i actually have depression and worry that i'm not just faking it

i do, i have friends who have much worse depression than me (i think) and i always question whether i actually have depression and worry that i'm not just faking it

That happens to me all the time but all my friends and family keep telling me that im making it up and that everyone goes through it so im scared of going to a psychologist because im afraid its true and im actually faking it but unconsciously

That happens to me all the time but all my friends and family keep telling me that im making it up and that everyone goes through it so im scared of going to a psychologist because im afraid its true and im actually faking it but unconsciously

that's me for the past three years but there are times when I'm so happy it's abnormal lmao what to do

that's me for the past three years but there are times when I'm so happy it's abnormal lmao what to do

i sure am socially anxious and it plays with my mood a LOT, i'm not even doubting that i am (socially anxious) but same with depression :(

i sure am socially anxious and it plays with my mood a LOT, i'm not even doubting that i am (socially anxious) but same with depression :(

i have anxiety so crippling that i sometimes cant go to work/school but somehow at the same time im convinced that im faking it

i have anxiety so crippling that i sometimes cant go to work/school but somehow at the same time im convinced that im faking it

uhhhhg it"s awful i really hate it wen it happens. And i feel like i am going crazy.

uhhhhg it"s awful i really hate it wen it happens. And i feel like i am going crazy.

i feel like this is me with anxiety stuff :')

i feel like this is me with anxiety stuff :')

hey, i struggled with depression for about 8 years before i actually got help because i kept doubting myself and telling myself what i was experiencing wasn't real or wasn't "serious enough". you know yourself better than anyone and if you think something's not quite right, seek help if you can - book an appointment with your doctor, or your school or college counsellor. it might be nothing, but it also might be something. mental illnesses are extremely common, especially depression. it's not fun having one, but also having a diagnosis was extremely validating for me. plus everyone experiences mental illness differently and there are varying levels of it, so just because you don't feel exactly like other people do doesn't mean you're not valid.

jessica fernanda <br>Jupp just about now actually...

jessica fernanda
Jupp just about now actually...

jessica fernanda that is exactly what i feel like

jessica fernanda that is exactly what i feel like

someone once said to me people have front teeth problems and back teeth problems. People can always see the front ones and help them out. but everyone especially people with (invisible illnesses like) depression, cant be seen in the back. one day those people that don't get it will experience what we will do or really learn about how it really is from someone close to them and realise that you can't  just think yourself happy.

Shantel Potter Yes, absolutely. That is a huge part of depression. Does anybody know? Have you spoken to friends or family? Like I said to natalie roy, try and arrange to talk about it rather than mentioning it in passing, and see a doctor. You can take some notes because remembering all the things is hard. Take a friend if you need to as well. They're allowed to come into the consultation room with you if you want them there, and if you've spoken to them about how you've been feeling they might be able to help you put it into words. Take care x

natalie roy If it's been that long I'd go and see a doctor. Have you spoken to any friends or family about how you feel? Maybe they could go with you. If you haven't spoken to anyone, try and have a real conversation about it. Don't just mention it in passing. Arrange a time and say there's something you're struggling with or finding confusing and you need to talk about it. I hope things look up soon. Look after yourself xx

jessica fernanda I definitely suffer from depression. It's been diagnosed and is being treated but I still feel like I'm faking it sometimes. Write down some notes on how you feel and how often and go speak to your doctor. They may offer advice on how to deal with those thoughts and feelings or they may say you're having a rough patch and want to check in with you in a month or two. Either way, going to see your GP will help. It can be scary but just the act of seeking help can lift so much of that weight. If you're not sure enough to see your doctor, seek out friends or family who suffer with it and just talk. Again, just getting things off your chest can help so much. I hope you're all okay. Be kind to yourself and take care x

you put my thoughts into words I feel like this about depression and anxiety

you put my thoughts into words I feel like this about depression and anxiety

jessica fernanda yes :c idk what i am sometimes

jessica fernanda yes :c idk what i am sometimes

xoxo Itzel and this is how I am! Most of the time I feel like shit but then I have an hour of happiness and then I go back to feeling numb and spaced out. This makes me doubt what's actually wrong we me, or makes me think is there anything wrong in the first place? Like I doubt myself and think I'm just making it up?

I was just like that and ended up getting diagnosed with a form of depression (called dysthymia). I think you should see a psychiatrist about that. It's like, it your throat hurts, it doesn't mean you have strep, but you'd still go to a doctor, right?

I was just like that and ended up getting diagnosed with a form of depression (called dysthymia). I think you should see a psychiatrist about that. It's like, it your throat hurts, it doesn't mean you have strep, but you'd still go to a doctor, right?

jessica fernanda usually when you suspect depression, you may have some form of depression. Perhaps go see a doctor, it might help to talk to someone. I waited too long and fell really far down the well and it's so important to start early with therapy bc it helps

jessica fernanda usually when you suspect depression, you may have some form of depression. Perhaps go see a doctor, it might help to talk to someone. I waited too long and fell really far down the well and it's so important to start early with therapy bc it helps

I felt/feel like that, but then I realised one day......me denying that I have depression is kind of a depressing trait itself, because it's just reinforcing the idea that I'm not important and that I'm a sucky person for faking it.

it was that thought that push me to go see a GP, because they'd be able to say if it was just an over reaction or something actual. he explained that sometime there doesn't need to be a big reason, it could be something faulty in your genes that produces too less/too little of something. I always knew this, I just never could apply it to me (which, again, sign of depression/anxiety! )

so yeah, chances are, you aren't faking it and depression doesn't always need clean cut reasons. but if you are, it doesn't hurt to get a little more professional insight into it. worse comes to worse, they say you don't have it and things will just stay the same - which seems bad, but it can't get worse right?

I think that I might have depression but I'm really not sure. It's like what Dodie said, it feels as though everything goes dark in my head and as though it will be like it forever. I start to feel heavy in my chest and my breathing slows down and I breath heavy. But whenever I tell my family that I'm feeling like this, I always say "but it's not depression or anything". I know what normal sad is and this is different. But the problem is that I always tell myself that there's nothing wrong and now I'm worried if I tell my family, they might think that I'm faking it something.

I've been through emotional abuse from my father (note: I'm 15) and ever since 13 I've had depression like you know puberty frontal lobe etc that's the time where most mental illnesses start to take place. Now at the present moment, I don't really know how I feel for example my father doesn't really affect me anymore too much in a negative way I can openly talk about it. But I'm not happy either I can't find joy in things I used to when I was a kid. And I was discussing depression with one of my friends the other day and it made me contemplate whether it's actual genetic depression. My father, mother and uncle have all had or have depression. My mother doesn't anymore but my dad and uncle still do.. And I also relate to what you're talking about. The one thing I hate about it is you never know when it's going to be a bad day, or week, or month. It always comes randomly and it's unpredictable. It's making me too tired and exhausted to do school work and when I have a wave I just can't be motivated to care about anything. Please, can someone discuss this with me also sorry for the long paragraph.

jessica fernanda that is exactly what I'm like. I'm so scared to open up because if I get sad/depressed I'm worried people will think I've overreacted over nothing or that they think I'm  asking for attention so I'm just so scared to tell people now because it's that or told off for feeling this way. <br>People just get so angry about my sadness but I can't help it

jessica fernanda that is exactly what I'm like. I'm so scared to open up because if I get sad/depressed I'm worried people will think I've overreacted over nothing or that they think I'm  asking for attention so I'm just so scared to tell people now because it's that or told off for feeling this way.
People just get so angry about my sadness but I can't help it

Yeah.. I was told by a teacher I talked to about it "I don't usually think this but I think your just putting on a front for attention" and that downed me even more. I get bad days constantly and the only "front" or "mask" I put on is a confident, crazy girl because under that mask, they wouldn't like what they would see.

I thought I was alone. This comment and all the replies have helped me feel less deserted

I thought I was alone. This comment and all the replies have helped me feel less deserted

For me its like certain days of emptiness. Like a blackhole inside my bod that sucks the energy out of me. Then there are the days that are like "I'm feeling kinda depressed" But then its like "No your not stop devaluating people with actual depression, you're just calling for attention shut up" and that sucks.

For me its like certain days of emptiness. Like a blackhole inside my bod that sucks the energy out of me. Then there are the days that are like "I'm feeling kinda depressed" But then its like "No your not stop devaluating people with actual depression, you're just calling for attention shut up" and that sucks.

this thread. 💕 even just by seeing people agreeing to the main comment already feels enough to comfort me. what I tend to do now, now that I'm not so serious, though I still have my phases; is tell myself that it's okay. it's okay to feel like shit and it's okay if you don't seem "depressed enough" to fit to the label, because any ounce of it it's just not what anyone should go through. and things will be alright in the end.

Sarah Marko SEE SOMEONE! I finally got diagnosed with depression and anxiety THANK GOD, but I'm still so anxious and have so little trust in everyone including myself, that I don't say enough to for people to understand what's going on. And with depersonalization I really REALLY HAGE BEEN STRUGGLING THIS MONTH AND LAST MONTH, and I'm still not diagnosed, so I keep telling myself I'm faking it just because I want to give myself excuses , when in reality it's probably much more likely that something is actually going on mentally that isn't in my control.

I FEEL THIS LITERALLY EVERY SECOND OF EVERDAY AND I LITERALLY CONVINCED MYSELF THAT I WAS ACTUALLY FAKING IT BUT IM SO GLAD IM NOT THE ONLY ONE SO I KNOW THAT ITS JUST MY STUPID BRAIN

I FEEL THIS LITERALLY EVERY SECOND OF EVERDAY AND I LITERALLY CONVINCED MYSELF THAT I WAS ACTUALLY FAKING IT BUT IM SO GLAD IM NOT THE ONLY ONE SO I KNOW THAT ITS JUST MY STUPID BRAIN

jessica fernanda I do it's so scary. But I went to the doctors and it turns out I have depression and anxiety so it's definitely worth a try if you relate to symptoms.

jessica fernanda I do it's so scary. But I went to the doctors and it turns out I have depression and anxiety so it's definitely worth a try if you relate to symptoms.

jessica fernanda Yes I tend to think that my problems are irrelevant and no one cares and that I'm making a big deal out of it. I just don't know anymore.

jessica fernanda Yes I tend to think that my problems are irrelevant and no one cares and that I'm making a big deal out of it. I just don't know anymore.

jessica fernanda I RELATE OMFG I RELATE AND I HATE IT

jessica fernanda I RELATE OMFG I RELATE AND I HATE IT

I feel the same and it's so fucking annoying I never talk about how I feel because I make myself think that I'm faking it and that I'm fine but at the same time I'm not fine ugh

I feel the same and it's so fucking annoying I never talk about how I feel because I make myself think that I'm faking it and that I'm fine but at the same time I'm not fine ugh

I've been officially diagnosed with chronic depression and I still feel like this

I've been officially diagnosed with chronic depression and I still feel like this

jessica fernanda I just had one of those moments where you read something that's been so perfectly put in words, that you've been subconsciously trying to for so long but haven't been able to. Thanks, and you're not alone. But, hey, at least we've got things like Dodie's videos and Viria's art to cheer us up.

jessica fernanda I just had one of those moments where you read something that's been so perfectly put in words, that you've been subconsciously trying to for so long but haven't been able to. Thanks, and you're not alone. But, hey, at least we've got things like Dodie's videos and Viria's art to cheer us up.

jessica fernanda that's literally my entire train of thought during this video. Like today I was super tired and for a while 6  of school I felt terrible and then i felt happy for an hour and then I went back to sadness and i feel like if I were depressed I wouldn't have moments of happiness?? Like does that make sense? I don't know but basically all im saying is me too.

THANK YOU SO MUCH. I thought I was the only one feeling this way... like I was crazy or something...... I feel like this all the time.

THANK YOU SO MUCH. I thought I was the only one feeling this way... like I was crazy or something...... I feel like this all the time.

yeah pretty much like right now actually. infact most people think these comments are for attention since i am trying to sort of express how i feel but quite frankly if i express myself i get told to kill myself/stop feeling this way/ignore the kill myself comments. i also get told disstract myself from feeling this way or stay away from anyone that upsets you and if that thing is not something you can stay away from ignore it.

yeah i feel like people think that about me all the time.

yeah i feel like people think that about me all the time.

natalie roy same I feel the exact same way! Like I could be wanting to burst out with tears but I can't because I'm feeling nothing, just emptiness and void. And sometimes after that I'm decent and feel okay but then I just go right back

natalie roy same I feel the exact same way! Like I could be wanting to burst out with tears but I can't because I'm feeling nothing, just emptiness and void. And sometimes after that I'm decent and feel okay but then I just go right back

jessica fernada- I thought that too until my parents got me a therapist for other things and she diagnosed me with depression. Now I am on meds and trying to figure how to become normal again. Whatever you do don't ever devalue your feelings.

jessica fernada- I thought that too until my parents got me a therapist for other things and she diagnosed me with depression. Now I am on meds and trying to figure how to become normal again. Whatever you do don't ever devalue your feelings.

mine feels a bit different but i definitely relate to those feelings a lot!! ive noticed lately i go from one complete extreme to another mentally, sometimes just within hours which really freaks me out uhg. when im in a down mood it feels exactly like what you said and i just wanna cry all the time but i cant bc i feel so empty, and sometimes that lasts for awhile but then sometimes i feel like decent right after?!? its really weird and really extreme this got really long oops sorry but idk what to do either sadly :/ watching youtubers and tv helps really forget about everything for awhile for me and forcing myself to get a complete 8 hours of sleep is really helpful!

natalie roy I've been like this for about 3/4 years and I honestly don't know what to do. Like do you guys feel this emptiness, constant numbness and the feeling of nothing inside you all the time? Like you'd rather not do anything at all but sleep?

natalie roy I've been like this for about 3/4 years and I honestly don't know what to do. Like do you guys feel this emptiness, constant numbness and the feeling of nothing inside you all the time? Like you'd rather not do anything at all but sleep?

been feeling this way for the past 5 months ://

been feeling this way for the past 5 months ://

jessica fernanda SAME LITERALLY ME ALWAYS

jessica fernanda SAME LITERALLY ME ALWAYS

jessica fernanda it happens to me with anxiety and depersonalisation my brain just goes like "shut up you're just trying to call attention" and I hate the fact that I maybe am.

jessica fernanda it happens to me with anxiety and depersonalisation my brain just goes like "shut up you're just trying to call attention" and I hate the fact that I maybe am.

Also: bouts of low mood (if you feel that's what you may be experiencing) can be just as valid and debilitating as depression itself, so don't think you are stupid xx

Also: bouts of low mood (if you feel that's what you may be experiencing) can be just as valid and debilitating as depression itself, so don't think you are stupid xx

sometimes there can be a difference between feeling depressed and suffering from bouts of depressed / low mood, and 'depression' itself as a chronic illness. Nevertheless, if you experience symptoms of depression so severely or constantly that you wonder if you might have it, it might be worth seeing a doctor just to discuss? Hope you feel better xx

jessica fernanda thank you thank you thank you for putting this into words

jessica fernanda thank you thank you thank you for putting this into words


why is this video so calming, I've never really struggled with severe depression or mental illness, something about this video is just so relaxing


the part where you talked about going outside and still feeling depressed hit me hard. i love taking walks and i love looking up at the sky and seeing so many beautiful colors but when im feeling especially depressed that day, i try to take a walk but fails. nothing will motivate me like how the beautiful sky did the other day.


I’m a maladaptive daydreamer and it’s been taking over my life. I can’t do anything else but daydream. My parents don’t believe that being a maladaptive daydreamer is even a thing, let alone a problem. It’s been making me really depressed because all I’m able to do is just waste away my day in a daydream. I can’t focus in school or at home.

People don’t realize what a problem it is.

ugh, me too. not that severe, but it distracts me from everyday life. i hate it. i want it to stop. i can't tell anyone about it, not even my therapist, because i also have severe social anxiety.<br>i accepted it, but i want it to stop.

ugh, me too. not that severe, but it distracts me from everyday life. i hate it. i want it to stop. i can't tell anyone about it, not even my therapist, because i also have severe social anxiety.
i accepted it, but i want it to stop.

It's hard live with that no one care abaut this and no one think that this is a problem

Omg Same....I thought that’s normal ...I have this like always I don’t even have a day where I don’t do this...shit

Its hard being 'addicted' to daydreaming because to quit any addiction you need motivation. But each time you daydream it's so easy to convince yourself it it isn't harmful, because it literally isn't in the short term, it's the long term that is the problem. So that has to be the motivation. I've read stories about people in their 50s still stuck in this shit - unmarried, no social life, crappy job, just wait till the end of the day till they get back to their apartment to pace again till they collapse into their bed. Repeat next day. It's too late for them. Do you want that to be your life? You need to cut it the fuck out NOW and never look back. Or you're just gonna say I'll do it 'one more time' for the rest of your life.

Easier said than done? Yeah I know I can't quit either lol

To all Maladaptive Daydreamers and everyone who knows them "ITS A REAL THING" please get help, please learn about this disorder, learn coping strategies, keep a diary and try to figure what are your triggers, if you understand what your up against you can learn  how to live and stay in reality, trust me, "I KNOW ITS HARD", BUT YOUR STRONGER THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE, PUSH YOURSELF OUT OF YOURSELF. Please don't be so hard on yourself it's ok your gonna get better. I wish I could hold your hand and walk out......

That's what I do all the time just drift and day dream I feel so alone no friends family don't CARE

Thank you so much for writing this comment. Since I can remember, I've been daydreaming intensely in many different scopes of my life and I've always thought that maybe I had attention deficit disorder. When I read this, I got immediately identified with it. I've done some research and I think I should tell my therapist about it. I hope it has a solution: my life is drifting before me cause instead of living I prefer to imagine. Cheer up. You are not alone :)

There's no way out for me that's If why I have so many scars

I think i have the same thing..i didnt really know there was a name for it because i thought i was just being weird & making up scenarios in my head but watching them play out in real life but in my mind.

Alyssa L this might be inappropriate but I promise I’m not making fun or anything, I’m just curious if you are a Pisces? Ik it’s a dumbass question 😅

Hey, If you ever want to talk, i can help you. I’ve been through a lot. Don’t worry, you’re opinion matters, not anyone elses.

it's exactly the same for me, my ma doesn't really believe it's a thing, (and she's a psychiatrist, so jeez, what am I supposed to believe), and i guess the worst parts are that i've set the standard so high in my daydreams, how am i supposed to make them real (cause i always strive for that) and when reality just fkin slaps you in the face, and it's just too much. My advice, strive to make your dreams a reality. And when you start feeling better with your own self, try to step outside of the dream, let it go for a moment, and you'll see it's all still there, within you. Definitely have a creative outlet, whatever that may be, (for me, music helped a lot, it's the perfect balance of real and not real). Main point is, somehow try to feel better with yourself and your own life, regain some sort of control. Anyhow, sorry for the long comment, hope i helped even a little bit- you're not alone

I also had the same problem... if you haven't done this yet I would advise you to go to a therapist... that's what helped me.<br>I was daydreaming so much I couldn't even concentrate on people talking with me anymore... it was literally destroying my life.

I also had the same problem... if you haven't done this yet I would advise you to go to a therapist... that's what helped me.
I was daydreaming so much I couldn't even concentrate on people talking with me anymore... it was literally destroying my life.

Camron Stewart <br>that makes sense. i dissociate because of stress and self hatred+the desire to harm myself. my brain turned itself off one day and said “yo, i’m not coming back til you accept yourself” and i responded “okay, then goodbye forever.”

Camron Stewart
that makes sense. i dissociate because of stress and self hatred+the desire to harm myself. my brain turned itself off one day and said “yo, i’m not coming back til you accept yourself” and i responded “okay, then goodbye forever.”

Em Wiebe I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety with other things but the main mental illnesses are those two and they affect me more than anything . Recently I was told that I was dissociating as well which I never really thought but it makes a lot of sense to me . I’m thinking maybe the daydreaming could be the way I disassociate from either stress or memories or anything of the sort .

I have attention deficit disorder. Anxiety. And depression. This all contributes to the cute little universes in my brain. Or just scenarios. Really anything that could happen has been played through in my head a thousand times over. Sometimes I can’t sleep because of it. Sometimes I waste my morning or day because of it. So I get you man. I’m medicated for my anxiety and ADD but it still happens sometimes.<br>So Here’s to the daydreamers club. I hope you get the help you need for it, weather it be a therapist, meds or just a friend. I can fill in on the last part if you’d like.

I have attention deficit disorder. Anxiety. And depression. This all contributes to the cute little universes in my brain. Or just scenarios. Really anything that could happen has been played through in my head a thousand times over. Sometimes I can’t sleep because of it. Sometimes I waste my morning or day because of it. So I get you man. I’m medicated for my anxiety and ADD but it still happens sometimes.
So Here’s to the daydreamers club. I hope you get the help you need for it, weather it be a therapist, meds or just a friend. I can fill in on the last part if you’d like.

i used to think i was a maladaptive daydreamer, because i showed all the symptoms.

turns out the depression i had prior was causing me to dissociate a lot and i wasn’t daydreaming, i was just spacing out and thinking sad things :)

so basically i don’t have what i thought it had, so a year ago i would’ve written a comment saying i could relate sO mUcH, but i can’t. i don’t know what you’re dealing with. i hope you’re okay.

Alyssa L literally same; i just started seeing a therapist to help with/actually diagnose my anxiety, and i really want to bring this up but i’m scared, and it just takes up so much of my life and it’s so frustrating and i’m so sick of it, and i know i can do better than how i’m doing now, but i just feel like i’m drowning all the time and i don’t know how to deal with it hdkslzjdkls sorry that was so long


Hey person scrolling

Take care of yourself okay? You'll get through it

It's 6-32 in the morning here as I scroll now, and thank you.

When I started scrolling, I didn't expect to cry (but, like, in a good way)

I’ll try. It’s not going to get me back to college, though.

Don’t mind me. I’m just afraid of everything.

Jessica Ramoganyaka thank you, I don’t think I will though.

I won't. Life is shit. You won't. Life is shit. Embrace misanthropy and depression.

Jessica Ramoganyaka thank you❤ take care yourself

Its funny when you feel so alone that a simple comment can make you smile, thanks random internet user

Thanks, that one actually helped me a bit... I needed that today

@Daisy dupe this made me tear. Even what you going through you still somewhat sound strong though i hope things get better and you can see you parents more. Things will work out soon or later

@Aleksander Kulewski i hope things work out for you eventually. <br>I wish you the best regardless of what you going through you'll get through it even though you feel the world is not on your side

@Aleksander Kulewski i hope things work out for you eventually.
I wish you the best regardless of what you going through you'll get through it even though you feel the world is not on your side

thankyou I just feel like time is what weighs me down. I'm scared of the time passing by and watching people leave. Our time is short, and i look back in the past and see how happy I was. I'm scared of time cause I don't  spent time with my parents much cause they have to work all the time and I always wanted them to quit even if we didn't have money we are still together. My parents don't spent much time together  cause my dad works in different areas of the country. my parents are deeply in love but separate from each other so we can have money to support ourselves plus both my parents had a terrible childhood with abuse and now they found love but they have to leave each other because of their children so they can support them. Of course they don't say that but I blame myself for what they go through and so I think I should pay them back with my life I have many dreams but I won't fulfil them so I can prepay my gracious and kind hearted parents.

Jessica Ramoganyaka 😢thank you, that actually made me tear up.

Thank you.
You’ve honestly bought me to tears.
God, I feel so bad.

Thanks, I read it just in a moment when I feel like my life is going straight to fcked up :/ U created a small smile on my face <3

stop saying that like HOWS T HAT GOJNA HEKP

the ‘okay’ made me cringe, but thank you

Thanks... im going thru my years im elleven and i really needed that thanks (deppresion)


Am I the only one who's in a constant discussion with myself?

Am I the only one who's in a constant discussion with myself?

Thirstyspirit SAME OMG i only talk to my self lmao

Thirstyspirit SAME OMG i only talk to my self lmao

To anyone who’s depressed or otherwise feeling down: you are strong, you are not alone, there is help, and it’s gonna get better. I’m mentally sending u lots of love ❤

@Francesca I mean I relate to litterly everything of what you've said lmao and I don't really think that was dramatic but I am now really surprised cuz I thought you were not gonna reply to me because you commented that 3 YEARS ago

Israa Nairi omg lol 3 years ago I posted that and I’ve just read it now and I was so dramatic

@Francesca omg I relate so much to you and I don't why but I kept laughing the whole time bcz of how you described it

no im constantly discussing shit with myself

no im constantly discussing shit with myself

Straight up. Always been like that. Constant internal monologue.

It is good if you try to understand yourself better:)

It is good if you try to understand yourself better:)

I have conversations with myself or people I imagine so no.

I have conversations with myself or people I imagine so no.

Yes! I'm starting to think it's not good, but part of me takes pride in this self consciousness, I dont know if it's good or bad xD

Holy fucking shit I thought I was the only one who felt this way

that is literally me..do you have insta? maybe we can chat

that is literally me..do you have insta? maybe we can chat

MysticVids you know what you need to raise up

MysticVids you know what you need to raise up

I am talking to myself right now as I am writing this

I am talking to myself right now as I am writing this

Im so glad more people are being open about this because Ive felt so weird my whole life lol

It's like i'm telling myself bad things. And then battling myself from the bad things that i am telling myself. Doe sthat make sense???

No, I do it too. It's I have 20 little me's in my head with different mindsets in constant arguments over what I should do.

The doctors say I'm normal in that regard so...

Me too. Glad to know I’m not the only one

Me too. Glad to know I’m not the only one

write things down.You cam get some fascinating things that you can be proud of out of it.I sure am fascinated about what i think about when im alone in the night.

I always talk to myself and ask myself things and I would answer out loud when I’m alone and I always felt like it was creepy but I couldn’t like not talk to myself.

No u're not LMAO  I talk to myself outloud its like there is another person with me but its just me and I have really serious conversations with myself XXXD sometimes I be like wait imma tell what happened or wait imma explain like that inner me is someone else omg u know what I mean right

I guess depression has many angles to it.

I guess depression has many angles to it.

My brain doesn’t switch off. I’ve thought any though possible to think. I’m surprised my brain hasn’t collapsed in on itself and created a black hole. Actually I think it has...

My self in my head bullies me they are all my unfiltered thoughts towards myself so it kinda feels like it is somenone else

MysticVids meeeee like my mind is like "bitch what are you doing" that's my bestfriend up there

I'm the only person I talk to and get scared because sometimes I think I'm thinking out loud

Every single minute of the day, my head starts to hurt because I'm always talking to myself in my head and the other part of my head keeps replying and it's CONSTANT.

Yes omg especially when I'm feeling my worst my mind won't shut up and I'm just thinking to myself in deep conversation and on the verge of tears when from the outside it looks like I'm doing normal daily activities like I'm literally washing the dishes or something lmao

Francesca Conroy. ohmy goD i really thought i was the only one who split my brain into two parts like me and myself and ill talk to myself all the time like its a seperate person but part of myself

No I do that all the time like my mind doesn't shut up and I make this thing where I'm talking to myself although I'm aware I'm not 2 in 1 but I'll spend hours talking to myself in the bathroom about the struggles as if I have a YouTube channel when I don't.

I verbalize my inner dialogue out loud while alone in public places to avoid any possible social interaction with others because I'm already clearly in a deep conversation with myself. It's strategic word vomit. Also it just kinda happens, I just like that excuse.

what nots I do that all the time! Especially the makeup thing.

what nots I do that all the time! Especially the makeup thing.

to feel less lonely ill memorize scenes from my favorite musicals and act them out- and when i do my makeup, I always act like the mirror is a camera, as if i'm taking a video of myself doing a makeup look. which means i talk to myself 24/7. idk

MysticVids check out A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle, he will really help! It's a book btw ☺

in fact. that's exactly how thoughts work so all of you saying how relatable this is... it's because you're a human with thoughts. congratulations.

MysticVids that's kinda how thoughts work yeah

MysticVids that's kinda how thoughts work yeah

Yeah I catch my self thinking "I've literally been dead inside for two weeks" and then my regular self is like "Woah, wtf who  am I?" . Noice.

MysticVids I kind of have this too- more internally when I evaluate what I've done and often two parts of my brain conflict with exhorted it's weird idk

MysticVids omg yes I feel like my self and my brain are separated they are constantly talking and my brain wants to notice every single thing in the room and it doesn't shut up I can't even control myself sometimes because of everything around me I try to shut it out but my brain just won't shut up and stop thinking I can't function normally and Ihave to act my whole life to seem normal I don't even remember who I am anymore it's so annoying having to constantly try to override your brain thoughts to seem normal, I just want it to end, I'm not going to end it all because I need to meet dodie first, she helps so much with this and a few weeks ago I started living in the now I'm finding it easier to act happy, I still don't know where I am though x

Yes! sometimes it feels like i am my own best friend???

Yes! sometimes it feels like i am my own best friend???

MysticVids technically any thought you think you speak to yourself in your brain. But also yes. I feel you.

I swear i talk to myself more than any other person on a daily basis... glad im not the only one lol

I feel like I ask myself a lot of things, that I do not have the answers to. But someone mentioned to me today, that I have the answers. I am just waiting for someone to ask the right questions. Make sense? I do not know. lol

No, I talk to myself almost all day, most of the time I'll have the conversations in my mind.

MysticVids you put it in a sentence. Thank you 😅

MysticVids you put it in a sentence. Thank you 😅


Oh my god. I couldn’t find this video for over a year because it was unlisted... I just found it again... I use it to feel normal when I feel the exact opposite for all the same reasons she talks about... I need this video sometimes. I’m so so so thankful for it. Thank you Dodie.


To anyone who’s depressed or otherwise feeling down: you are strong, you are not alone, there is help, and it’s gonna get better. I’m mentally sending u lots of love ❤


@olive green olive I love u more than the world u wonderful person

@Chris Rendon you can maybe find it in this playlists, where all her videos are - https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL31nh1C8jGJAFLr8NlO_vYI25vaIchgMQ

or specifically this:
https://youtu.be/LaNmw6Jesiw

I can’t find her la la land vid I miss it

@shira n it feels like talking to someone who just understands how you feel.. and God knows how comforting it is to hear that you're not the only person in the world that feels like shit.

Ikr I literally watched it almost every time I felt really depressed. It helps kind od

@phia she made this video private, then turned public again


when I'm depressed I put on a comfy sweater get my edamame beans and watch this video. its not necessary uplifting but it makes me feel so much more understood then anything else which is really what I need.

thank you


Dodie.  How are you???  I hope you are doing better. Please post and let us know.  We love you.  I love you.  Im an old lady (52) and I fell in love with you accidentally as I was researching about La La Land and I found your awesome post about how much you love that movie.  You remind me of my daughter.  I see you have not posted in a week or so since this post, so please let us know how you are doing.

Mary Barbachano This is kind of unrelated, but hot damn, if only I could look that good at 52! You're not an oldie at all though :)

aaww I fell in love with dodi also.. and I said I was an oldie.. 45. I'm glad to see someone of similar age bracket here x

Mary Carroll you sound so lovely, i dont have anyone to talk to i wish my family, friends (not even one) and ugh i am just going towards this point shes at.

Mary Carroll You seem like a truly lovely person. I hope you are doing well too.

Dan's Hobbit Hair I have seen u in Dan's comments

i dont want to be a downer but i'm not sure shes happier than ever, as dodie says travelling makes her a little disassociated. altho i do believe she is better than this video so thats definitely good <3 depression will always be a struggle once you have had it, you are aware you have the capability to go to that place. which is scary. however of course there are highs and lows so, there are definitely good days to live for <3

yeah she's fine<br>shes actually more than fine bc she's in japan touring so i think she's happier than ever

yeah she's fine
shes actually more than fine bc she's in japan touring so i think she's happier than ever

Daniel Lawson...have you heard from Dodie? Is she ok? lol  Thanks for your comment.  I just love that cute Brit!!!


I always go back to this video when I'm in a really hard time because it helps me feel less alone. thank you so much for putting this back up and sharing it with us.


I just watched your recent video, a classic beatles cover warmed my heart, but you said that you started to private or unlist your videos and I'm so thankful that you've only unlisted this one.<br>Whenever I'm depressed, like today, I come back to your channel and especially this video because it's so comforting to hear you talk about this so openly and explain depression in the ways I want to. When I told my dad I felt like I had depression, I sent him this video to explain how I felt and he understood and I just- Thank you so much for sharing your life with us and I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch right now with how you feel you've portrayed yourself on the internet, but the portrayal of yourself that you've shared has helped me so much. xo

I just watched your recent video, a classic beatles cover warmed my heart, but you said that you started to private or unlist your videos and I'm so thankful that you've only unlisted this one.
Whenever I'm depressed, like today, I come back to your channel and especially this video because it's so comforting to hear you talk about this so openly and explain depression in the ways I want to. When I told my dad I felt like I had depression, I sent him this video to explain how I felt and he understood and I just- Thank you so much for sharing your life with us and I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch right now with how you feel you've portrayed yourself on the internet, but the portrayal of yourself that you've shared has helped me so much. xo


Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Attitudes are caring,
And so are you.

Orchids are white,
Ghost ones are rare,
Rapidity is amazing,
And so is your hair.

Magnolia grows,
With buds like eggs,
Surfaces are smooth,
And so are your legs.

Sunflowers reach,
Up to the skies,
The house is beautiful,
And so are your eyes.

Foxgloves in hedges,
Surround the farms,
Hands are skinny,
And so are your arms.

Daisies are pretty,
Daffies have style,
Your atmosphere is friendly,
And so is your smile.

Roses are beautiful,
Just like you.

hope this cheers u up took me hours to make

Sorry it took you hours because it didn't help

This person got the poem from this link, in which he did not take hours, but just minutes: https://www.poem-generator.org.uk
Good luck proving me wrong.

That’s fine just seek out what makes u happy

And good luck with your adventure to recovery

i'm so sorry.. it doesn't work sorry ;-;

I'm thinking a lot of things about this... none of which make me happy. I'm sorry... truly I am.


Why are her eating noises so pure and adorable?!
😱😱😱

*Why are her eating noises so pure and adorable?!*
😱😱😱

omg i asked myself why i am not annoyed by the sound even though usually i get mad at sounds like these even if it‘s only someone who breathes loudly


Sometimes i can literally feel it but after it’s over i can never understand or remember the feeling of it

Hey guys i commented this a while ago and i remembered it the other day and spent hours looking for it lol. i just wanted to say that if you related to my comment at all, or this video at all it really does get better. I never thought it would for me but it did, just keep up with healthy coping mechanisms that work for you! Love you all! Stay safe!

This is the most relatable comment omggg. I hope you are fine💖

FUCK. You put it into words! I’m sorry for cussing but your comment hit me like a truck

Macey King same with me it’s so hard to understand the feeling of it once it’s over & to remember it. While you are depressed it’s hard to talk to someone too because the feeling of it overwhelms with numbness and sorrow. :(

Some days the feeling is there,and other days it’s like it never happened,but deep down you know you experienced the feeling,you know?

Macey King omg that’s creepy it’s the exact same with me

Micka Lieta Yeah, I think it's dissociation. Happened when my dog died (I was a pretty huge dog person and pretty much loved my dog more than friends lol). I was surprisingly calm and apathetic about it all. I even tried to cry but just couldn't. Which was really weird cause I have an abnormally low threshold for tears normally and seeing my mom and sister crying should have made it easy. After about a week, I forgot what it was like to even have her around. It was absolutely strange and unexpected. Does this actually happen to people?

HOLY SHIT. Yes..... You don't even understand how much better this comments thread me feel. I have doubted my depression was even real so many times because of this. It was literally the number 1 reason why I never went to therapy. Can't believe other people are the same....

Happens to me all the time as well. I guess our brain is trying to block out the bad memories a little bit? That’s my case I think as I literally lose any memory of traumatic situations like almost instantly after they pass

Yeah, this is exactly what i think. I'm not alone anymore, thanks!

Yeah that happens to me as well. Which is why I normally describe what I’m feeling in my notes on my phone. I have pages and pages of just stuff that I’ve written whenever I’m feeling terrible. It’s almost become therapeutic in a way. I highly recommend it!

I have the same problem so when I'm going through an episode I'll write memos or record memos of how I feel the best way I know how and then read/play it out for my therapist at the appointment. It's easier than me not remembering.

dear god I think that is the first time I see someone writing this and it is so true so fleeping true. Good god I am not as alone as my brain keeps telling me thank you

WOAH SAME okay I’m writing this comment down lol bc I can never explain it

same! and when i try to explain it to my therapist, i never know what to say because I CAN’T REMEMBER UGH


Thanks for this, Dodie. I have depression and C-PTSD and some days I just feel trapped in shit. It’s really hard sometimes but I have good days and bad days. This is definitely what I feel like when I’m having a bad day, and I love you for making this to show what it’s really like. ❤


i've come back to watch this video about four or five times since i was diagnosed with depression almost two years ago

when i'm feeling depressed and everything that usually makes me feel something just makes me mind-numbingly bored, it's comforting to hear that i'm not alone in this state of seemingly-endless emptiness

i've come back to watch this video about four or five times since i was diagnosed with depression almost two years ago

when i'm feeling depressed and everything that usually makes me feel _something_ just makes me mind-numbingly bored, it's comforting to hear that i'm not alone in this state of seemingly-endless emptiness

yo i'm back

and this time my dad's watching with me because i wanted him to know what depression is like and also what dodie is like yeet


watched this video after dodie reacting to her 20 year old self. i’m so glad she’s doing a million times better than where she was around this time. she’s so successful and happy and content and she’s proud of where she is. i think we’re all proud of where she is today. <33


I've watched this video so many times throughout the years and I still come back here whenever I feel really low, it's like you remind me that you just just have to sway with depression and you're gonna be okay.


this is the most relatable video I've ever watched. Thank you so much for this.


I made a metaphor for depression for my friend and I figured I should put it here for those of you that haven’t experienced it.

Imagine your life is like climbing a mountain. The top is your dreams and goals, happiness, marriage, whatever your final goal is. You climb the mountain with tools you have forged yourself, they are made of happiness, happy emotions, happy memories, all forged carefully to make your tools to climb the mountain, they are one of a kind, unique to everything else in the world.

You’re climbing the mountain will your tools, all is going well. Nothing in your life has disrupted you to climb the mountain and reach your ultimate goal. Then suddenly, without warning, something traumatic happens, an event, something somebody said, and you see a crack in one of your tools. You carry on, you think that one crack won’t do anything, but before you can climb even 3 metres higher the tool that was thought to be only cracked starts to crumble away. And then another traumatic event happens, your second tool cracks and again you try to climb again, and again it breaks and shatters. You look below you, into the mist and you can’t see the base of the mountain so you carry on, however your tools keep breaking and there’s nothing you can do about it. You can’t find the ingredients to forge more tools and there’s no way of getting to the top. You think about how far you’ve come and in one desperate last struggle you try to climb the rocks with your bare hands, and it happens. You slip.

You go tumbling back down the mountain, all those years of climbing, lost. You land at the bottom. It’s pitch black. Suddenly you can’t feel anything other than sadness. And you sit there, you have no energy other to lie at the bottom. You might try to find the emotions to make more tools and climb back up, but you can’t find any. Even if you do the forging is harder and more time-consuming than before. The tool ends up not even working. This is depression.

However, one day something happens, and you realise you can do it. And after millions of failed attempts at making a tool, you finally made one that works, you stare at it, you’ve forgotten the beauty of them, you marvel at it. And it happens again, you make another tool that’s good enough for the climb, eventually you gain back all the tools and the darkness begins to fade. However, your tools are different from before, they seem to show the scars of your time at the bottom, however these scars only make it stronger. And with refound strength you climb the mountain once again, from the bottom. But this time it’s different, this time you climb it a changed person.

You can overcome depression.

Thank you.

@Sergio S. Yeah. Agreed. I don't struggle so badly anymore, but I still have my days though that really come without warning. I don't need somebody or something to trigger it. It just happens. I promise you though, as hard as it is to get up and do it, finding some help can really improve your quality of life. I recieved treatment and it honestly changed my life, and I think it could really help you.

Okay I just cried. And will print it or something.

In my case, it's different, though. You talk about a traumatic moment, something that happened or something that someone said... In my case, nothing happened. I don't remember a specific day but suddenly, I just became like this, feeling empty, nothing matters and every day looks the same and nothing will ever change. I won't kill myself but if I knew that I would die soon, I would feel relieved. In the meantime, I try to distract myself, I try to "not be there". I've talked with people about this and they all say "get help, go to a doctor. They have come up with good medecine nowadays, this could change your life". I don't disagree but have you forgotten that I'm depressed and being depressed means that I don't have the energy in me to get up, get ready, go to a doctor and then open up to him, find the courage to say the word "depression" (I know that nowadays, it's more accepted, better understood but still, I'm still afraid that someone might look at me and say or think "Really?! Stop being lazy and move your ass, just like everybody else. You're not special!") So yeah, I'll just stay here and keep watching Youtube videos. It helps to "disconnect" and "not be there".


This video is f***ing brilliant. Just the raw "here I am, and this is happening, and I have just enough presence of mind to film it." I appreciate that lots. Personally, I found SSRI's helpful. I mean, at first they just turned me into a big ball of numb, but after awhile that wore off. And then I didn't take them for a week, because I forgot to refill my prescription, and my brain was on the war path. So, I realized just how helpful the medication really is.


I was recently diagnosed with depression but every now and then I come to this video to feel less lonely. I love you, Dodie.


When I’m depressed and get nothing out of everything, I always come back to this video for comfort ❤


This is looks like me writing in my journal everyday. Depression sucks.


The beautiful irony in this video is how you assert that you are giving the viewer nothing, providing them with numb nothingness, when really for everyone that watches this and relates to it feels like you are giving them so much and I hope in at least some small way that can make you feel a little lighter when you are depressed and speak your mind


Ever since this video, tea and edamame is my sad snack that I have when I don't feel like eating due to sadness but I have to give myself some kind of nutrients :') Warm tea is very lovely and honestly helps in its own way uwu


I’ve had DPDR for 7 years. I totally feel everything you’re saying. Feeling drunk all the time. I also can’t take antidepressants because I get all the terrible side effects. Through the years I’ve learned to live with it. Some days I feel “70% clear” others I’m just holding on by a thread. But being a mother of twins has made me push myself and get better. I have hope now whereas before I didn’t.

Brittney Dawn you must be a strong women give yourself that.