I don't even know if I'm depressed or not. I understand Dodie perfectly but I'm not diagnosed, plus I'm pretty young, so I'm just so confused and sad all the time I just need a peace of mind

uGh thanks for putting this into words; exactly how i feel.

uGh thanks for putting this into words; exactly how i feel.

what do you mean by she romanticise depression?

what do you mean by she romanticise depression?

that sounds a lot like bipolar but they shouldnt treat you differently this is the type of mind set i want to change with my videos.. you deserve t take care of your mental health... if we are not healthy on our brains how anything else would be ok?

Rian Lewis I felt the same way for a long time. But I’ve talked about my feelings, first to a councilor and then to one of my close friends. I am not diagnosed, and I don’t want to be, so I understand how hard it can be. But maybe talking to someone will help you. It’s helped me, and I am happier.

Me too. Obviously I'm not going to self-diagnose with something as complicated as depression, but even if I wanted to, I can't go to a therapist or anything until after I'm 18 because my "mom" doesn't care.

That being said, I don't even want to go to one because I don't want to face the fact that I may have it. Some days I'll wake up and feel completely numb. Sometimes there's a reason, but more often than not there isn't. I'll motivate myself to take a shower, but I don't usually eat much at all (or I eat LOADS) and don't want to do anything except lay in bed and stare at a wall, which I've done before for almost an hour straight.

I need to get myself help, but even when I turn 18 I know I'll be too scared to do it. After all, why face a monster when I can just avoid it?

Random Randoms mental illness does not depend on age and i hope you figure this all out you lovely person

Random Randoms mental illness does not depend on age and i hope you figure this all out you lovely person

Random Randoms i feel the same way i'm always very confused about my emotions and sometimes i feel as if i might actually be depressed but i don't know how my brain works

Sadie Oagile There is a H U G E difference between romanticizing a mental illness and being willing to talk about it openly. Practically nobody really wants to hear about it irl and I am so sick of it. Let her talk about how to deal with it in a healthy way for others

Sadie Oagile if you look up a few comments you will find that I was 'depressed' way before I watched dodie. She never confused me but maybe she did with others, that's fine with me

Raindrop ASMR that's a really good suggestion. I'll try to ask myself that, usually when I'm bored my mind goes hazy and the next thing I know I'm crying alone in my room

EMMA LAROSE Thanks! I'm feeling ok, not the best but I've talked to a counsellor once or twice. It wasn't very useful regarding my improvement in mindset, but it's good to let out some feelings. I hope you get better, don't let your demons win

L Lawliet I really hope that's what's happening to me.

L Lawliet I really hope that's what's happening to me.

DerpyTheBananaG Minecraft&More ahahahh heyy phandom

DerpyTheBananaG Minecraft&More ahahahh heyy phandom

Katelyn Fong I'm the same age and I'm not diagnosed.
But I've checked similar stuff and it's really scary how much I can relate to it.
Also depression in children IS possible, just that people forget about it.

all the depressed guys turn up bc people just assume you're gay or crazy, haha isn't that just fun

all the depressed guys turn up bc people just assume you're gay or crazy, haha isn't that just fun

Random Randoms ask yourself a question -- are you depressed or bored? Usually you're bored :(

Random Randoms ask yourself a question -- are you depressed or bored? Usually you're bored :(

SMILE BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE AN AMAZZING PERSON

SMILE BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE AN AMAZZING PERSON

Cerys D x I'm trying. I'm surrounding myself with happiness but the depressing feeling comes from my brain, not my surroundings. But there is a possibility it's because of my surroundings, so I'll be more aware. Thanks

Random Randoms stop surrounding yourself with depressing stuff. It's possible you're forcing it on yourself

Random Randoms stop surrounding yourself with depressing stuff. It's possible you're forcing it on yourself

I . Feel . The . Exact . Fucking . WAy .

I . Feel . The . Exact . Fucking . WAy .

It is perfectly normal to feel very low as a teenager, I think every teenager feels hopeless and depressed at various points. However, if it is affecting the majority of your days, and/or putting your health at risk, then it is always good to go to a doctor to see if it's something more serious. And, depressed or not, everyone should have a therapist!

Jojo Jojo don't dismiss mental health just because they're young.Young people with mental illnesses need to feel validated,not that their feelings don't matter because its puberty

I'm the same way. Not diagnosed but my therapist that my dad made me go to basically said that I'm depressed

I'm the same way. Not diagnosed but my therapist that my dad made me go to basically said that I'm depressed

So this is what people mean when they say she confuses her young audience because she 'romanticises' depression. It confused me for a while but you and this commnet of yours... I get it now.

Random Randoms I felt guilty about self diagnosis because I felt as though I was trying to be "edgy". I still feel guilty about it. We are happy and healthy beings! You are loved! Happy days, sad days for me seemed like a reason to make a scene out of myself. However, real depression and anxiety are different. I have minor anxiety from time to time but I promise you nothing is making you less human. ❤❤❤❤

Mega Fetus you perfectly described how I feel most of the time. I knew something was wrong with me, because everyone else was happy without forcing it, and I had to make myself smile all the time until it was a habit. Before I consulted someone about this, I wanted to diagnose myself with some form of illness but I never really felt like was in a certain category? Because of my age and stuff, I was really insecure about saying I had depression or anxiety so I didn't open up about it, and as a result, the signs got more and more obvious but I never acknowledged them, and it's even harder to accept it now

Random Randoms And depression can always be controlled and helped. You are loved! ❤❤❤

Random Randoms And depression can always be controlled and helped. You are loved! ❤❤❤

Random Randoms Someone I can relate to. I used to self diagnose mental disorders on myself and try to be correct about simple sad days. The glorification of mental illnesses made me feel like jumping to conclusions of what could be wrong with me was cool and edgy or whatever. I feel guilty about it. I do have anxiety sometimes and many people have anxiety or will face anxiety at some point. I don't have severe daily anxiety disorder attacks. We all have happy and sad days. I'm sorry I just had to say my "story" i guess. Stay strong we all have bad days! ❤

Random Randoms ive been depressed since 9 years old. Age had nothing to do with it ☺

Random Randoms ive been depressed since 9 years old. Age had nothing to do with it ☺

same. I actually cried today when I was depressed and I was usually the fun of our group circle so we were all quiet and they kept asking me and I was so sensitive and then at one point I made them guilty so I ran to the bathroom and bawled my eyes out because I'm just not worth talking to. and I'm still 11. yes, I'm v v fuvked up.

at age 10 i wasnt diagnosed but i knew i was depressed and later at 12 i was diagnosed so you should ask ur mum/dad/who takes care of you if you can get tested

at age 10 i wasnt diagnosed but i knew i was depressed and later at 12 i was diagnosed so you should ask ur mum/dad/who takes care of you if you can get tested

I'm like you. Everyone annoys me, nothing cheers me up, I want to cry and as I'm young I have to hide it. It sucks so much and I've never told anyone so yeah.

I'm like you. Everyone annoys me, nothing cheers me up, I want to cry and as I'm young I have to hide it. It sucks so much and I've never told anyone so yeah.

Bonnie omg I just realised my mistake, thanks for correcting me 😂

Bonnie omg I just realised my mistake, thanks for correcting me 😂

justine a YES PLEASE. I'm doing fine now, genuinely, but there are always days where I feel exhausted from life. How are you coping with this feeling?

justine a YES PLEASE. I'm doing fine now, genuinely, but there are always days where I feel exhausted from life. How are you coping with this feeling?

Ellie King only doctors can diagnose you, as depression manifests in lots of different ways, i know the NHS have questionnaires about depression, anxiety, etc.. <br>hope that helps you x

Ellie King only doctors can diagnose you, as depression manifests in lots of different ways, i know the NHS have questionnaires about depression, anxiety, etc..
hope that helps you x

holy fuck i get u so much. do u wanna talk? i feel like we could both discover some things, or at least feel not alone in this odd unclear Void of Sadness That You Are Unsure If It Is Depression Or Not. but your comment is 3 months old and i don't wanna touch up on anything kinda bad if you're in a good place right now. regardless, keep on killin it babe. i'm here and just as unsure as you are if you wanna hash it out xx

my mom has made a doctors appointment for me next week.

my mom has made a doctors appointment for me next week.

What happens to me is one minute I'll be full of energy and I'm excited and I love everything and then the next I'll be tired and just done I feel a heavy weight in my chest and my brain just goes off against me-- another thing that happens is I get irritated and angry very easily sometimes. I also get paranoid and have trouble sleeping most of the time but again I am young and have never talked to someone about it- I don't want people, especially my family, to treat me like I'm fragile or saying that I'm overreacting and that I have no reason for this

Same. But it's not just today, it's been at least a month.

Same. But it's not just today, it's been at least a month.

Thank you, I hope you do to! I started uni in a different city away from home this year, the friends that I have made here are amazing but I can't talk about that stuff to them, I just know they will not be able to relate. And I think talking about it is so important to stop it from taking over your whole mind. I am considering online therapy, if you're interested: https://www.betterhelp.com/
The first week is for free (:

Isabel Vda i literally can't explain how much i relate to your comment. 💕 you can get through this, you can find a way out. i can too.

Isabel Vda i literally can't explain how much i relate to your comment. 💕 you can get through this, you can find a way out. i can too.

I'm sorry but Doodie just made me laugh a lot

I'm sorry but Doodie just made me laugh a lot

I get it, and I also think age has nothing to do with it. It just makes it harder for you to explain to older people who will most of the time not take you seriously. I also don't know if I'm depressed. It's so irregular for me, some days I'm completely numb, I dont feel sad or happy, just empty. Some days I'm super emotional but other days, and I hope I can say most of the days, I'm 'fine'.  But I always feel like dodie tried to describe, in a total different world than other people. I just know that there is something very wrong and at this point I would really like to see a therapist but I also dont want to explain that to my parents.

thank you all for the sweet comments. it's surprising reassuring that so many people feel the same. thank you so much for the kind words. im trying to get better, and i hope you are too.

I could just copy paste this comment, this is me rn

I could just copy paste this comment, this is me rn

Elliot hulse made a great video on this topic. Anybody suffering from this should definitely check it out

Elliot hulse made a great video on this topic. Anybody suffering from this should definitely check it out

I started self harming at about age 13/14 because my granddad died and my parents separated when I was just about to turn 12. You're never too young to be depressed, it can happen at any age to anyone. CAMHS (Children and Adolescent Mental Health Services) are definitely something you should look in to. You can contact them or just try and talk to your doctor who can refer you, which is what I did. You'll get through it. Good luck

Random Randoms im 12 but medicaly depressed you cant be too young.

Random Randoms im 12 but medicaly depressed you cant be too young.

Random Randoms I know exactly how you feel, I hope you feel better and things turn around for you! ❤

Random Randoms I know exactly how you feel, I hope you feel better and things turn around for you! ❤

Shona Mc09 I actually found your joke funny

Shona Mc09 I actually found your joke funny

+Randoms Randoms sorry if I wasn't very sensitive, I was trying to lighten to mood I guess. I totally relate to your comment tho and I hope you feel better soon sweetie x

+Randoms Randoms sorry if I wasn't very sensitive, I was trying to lighten to mood I guess. I totally relate to your comment tho and I hope you feel better soon sweetie x

+Randoms Randoms I used to have a fish called peace of mind but he died so I don't have peace of mind either

+Randoms Randoms I used to have a fish called peace of mind but he died so I don't have peace of mind either

First of all, i hope that you feel better and happy. I hope you can get help and feel good about all of this. This is really sad and i really hope that you can get better and find someone to confide in.

Nothing will be perfect. But you can be kind to yourself. One step at a time ((:
(Please take care of yourself. I promise that things will be okay in the end. It's okay to take a moment. It's okay to not be okay. Just breathe.)

This was so relatable. It all feels too real and like everything is too much. Especially when nights are especially bad. I can't seem to properly sleep. I sleep at like 4 in the morning and bawl my eyes out every other night. It's easy to find things that kind of fill the hole i feel in my chest but it fades away far too quickly and i'm left chasing what seems to be happiness but in the end, i realize it's not. (If that makes any sense.) It's extremely difficult when i can feel the air passing through my lungs, but can't seem to feel like i'm actually breathing. Like my lungs don't exist and it's been stripped from my chest. I feel so lost all the time and find myself questioning everything about myself and everything i do. I can't get professionally diagnosed, either, as my parents both insist that mental illnesses are not real, and are just a choice. My mother even told me to kill myself, and it's not like i haven't thought about it either. Sorry for writing a novel, you probably don't care. But i guess i just needed to at least say it. (Again, if that makes any sense)

If anyone actually reads this far, i'd just like to say thank you. It means a lot. Xx

same, I'm always confused and glazed over and sad but i don't even know if theres something wrong

same, I'm always confused and glazed over and sad but i don't even know if theres something wrong

Random Randoms I feel  exactly  the  same

Random Randoms I feel  exactly  the  same

Random Randoms you're fantastic and you deserve to be happier all the time, so try to help yourself by finding help professionally?? wishing you the best

Random Randoms you're fantastic and you deserve to be happier all the time, so try to help yourself by finding help professionally?? wishing you the best

LG Is that supposed to be a hate comment towards Doodie? Because I had already felt this way before I started watching Doodie. She helps me a lot, and I feel less hopeless when I watch her

childish green subhuman Ive tried talking to adults and they don't understand me. How am I supposed to understand what's happening to myself when no one can help me? It just keeps going in a circle. I try to talk to adults, they tell me what I'm supposed to feel, I don't know what to do. People here at least understand a little, but the adults here don't

talk to a doctor or a parent or a counselor. not people on the internet. we may want to help but a lot of us are also young, or biased, or just uneducated. you will only confuse yourself more and possibly go along without getting any actual help by listening to strangers tell you "you're not too young" or "yup, you're probably depressed" when they have no idea what's actually going on. you do and if you think something's wrong, tell someone who knows you/ can provide actual help.

Random Randoms even if you are particularly young doesn't mean you can still be depressed...my parents got divorced when i was 10 almost 11 and i felt depressed so it doesn't depend on age

you can experience depression at a very young age. if you relate to/empathize with this video you probably have experienced it. I don't know how young you are but please get ahead of it as soon as you can. I wish younger me had sought help but I just didn't know what I was facing. don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. 💜💚

Don't feel like you can't have depression just because you're young and I suggest going to a therapist if you feel depressed most of the time

Don't feel like you can't have depression just because you're young and I suggest going to a therapist if you feel depressed most of the time

Random Randoms trust me just because your young doesn't mean you can't get depressedx

Random Randoms trust me just because your young doesn't mean you can't get depressedx

Random Randoms It'll be ok. Just try to appreciate the things you can, like great music and nice videos. Stay true to yourself and remember that people are here for you, including me. I wish you lots of luck.


Love the candor in this video. This is EXACTLY how I feel on my depressed days.

But I think having the mindfulness that it’s temporary and a “chemical thing” is huge.

“It feels like I can’t open my eyes wide enough” - so fricken relatable.


"this constant longing for something."
That is the one thing that has stuck around after my depressive episode after all the chaotic anxiety, sadness, hopelesness and despair faded.

It's hard to describe. The germans have a word that kinda encapsulates it. "Sehnsucht"
But it feels like a negative version of that. It's not about improving ones life in search of an ideal experience, but more like a mourning.
The only way I can describe it is like that feeling you get when you look at pictures of your grandparents and their dead friends when they were young. That feeling of sad melancholy about a period and time in a group of peoples lives that is gone. You'll never meet those people, they were and now they arent anymore. And it's a time, period and people you'll never experience.
That, but you feel that about your own life.
It's like living in past tense all the time.
All you can see is pasts. And they're everywhere. It's like you're taking on everyones regrets, missed opportunities, failures and falls from grace.
It's a really weird low-key hopeless feeling.


I love this video so much thank you for taking the time to talk about how you are feeling and sharing with us. It definitely gave me validation about the way I feel and specially the way you described how your brain doesn't feel that it's working and the lack of empathy between your functioning and depressed brains. I was relating so hard!

Thanks for making this and I hope you, me and others who are going through something similar find ways to cope with and manage this and are able to see life as vividly and be excited about it as before.


5:01 this is a timestamp for me because whenever my mind is really stuck in a current issue i always think "yeah... i don't know." so it's nice to hear dodie say the same thing too.


I wish. I wish I could just sit and talk with Dodie and her followers.
And we would just talk and talk and cry and laugh for hours. together.

*sigh* I feel so lonely

I wish. I wish I could just sit and talk with Dodie and her followers.
And we would just talk and talk and cry and laugh for hours. together.

**sigh** I feel so lonely

Don’t worry in here for you #DODIECOMUNATY

Holy shit that would be amazing (late reaction but i love this vid)

same but i hate seeing her sad it breaks my heart but im happy she made this video and opened up to us a bit i actually love her and i feel for her and i know you do to

Tyra Lauren No problem! See you there :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING ONE ILY IM SORRY D':

WAH DUDES IM SORRY I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO TIME

I didn't see a link at all so I went ahead and made one. Hope you guys will join! Here's the link: https://discord.gg/ZcAgRZc


i’m glad she’s speaking out about her feelings, it’s radiating awareness and making the rest of us feel like we are not alone. thank you


I am here in 2020. This was the first video of dodie's I ever saw. I had been scrolling through YouTube trying to figure out why it felt like my brain was breaking. When I found this video I felt understood and not so alone. I now listen to all of dodie's music and love watching all of her content. We were both in a shit place then. I am glad you are doing well now dodie. I have also found my way with therapy and time, to a place where I can handle the heavy. Where I have a better understanding of why and how I went through what I did. Anyone watching this at any point in the future that is struggling, it will get better. I know it does not feel like it now, you do not have to suddenly be happy, but find the support where you can and know that you are cared for and not alone. Past, Present, and Future people will be where you are. Your feelings are valid, and you are worthy and loved.


this may be weird, but i think this may be my favorite dodie video. which is a very bold statement to make, as there are so many amazing dodie videos.
but something about this video - the pure, unfiltered honesty - makes me realize that life happens. things happen, and life isn't perfect. there are so many other people that our society idolizes who are so, so perfect and photoshopped in every way possible. life seems like it should be perfect when you look at them.
but this video brings me back down to earth. it makes me feel okay again, and not alone. thank you for this, dodie.

this may be weird, but i think this may be my favorite dodie video. which is a very bold statement to make, as there are so many amazing dodie videos.
but something about this video - the pure, unfiltered honesty - makes me realize that life happens. things happen, and life isn't perfect. there are so many other people that our society idolizes who are so, so perfect and photoshopped in every way possible. life seems like it _should_ be perfect when you look at them.
but this video brings me back down to earth. it makes me feel okay again, and not alone. thank you for this, dodie.


Watched this a few times and managed to both laugh and cry. Thank you, this was healing.


am i the only one that is now craving peas

@oli barnes No, that's a different thing. Edamame is soybean.

Who would of known i'd get this many likes omg

Dans Quiff  i went to the grocery store with my mum to get peas after this

she is eating edimame and it's amazing so in I sense I'm also craving peas...... I guess . no I just want edimame

Send Help i have a phobia of them. No joke

lil Potato TV NO YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE😂😂😂😀

lil Potato TV oh wow thanks for reminding me now I'm hungry 😂


I added this video to my “how to cope with my depression” playlist. I always come here when I’m feeling down and it helps me a lot! <br>Thanks, darling ❤

I added this video to my “how to cope with my depression” playlist. I always come here when I’m feeling down and it helps me a lot!
Thanks, darling ❤


I love this video.  I was just getting out my depression when I first watched it. I never felt so completely understood.


when this video came out i was at the lowest point in my life. i was so glad someone knew and understood what i was going through. it’s been about a year and i’ve never been so happy. i love you dodie, thank you for making me feel not so alone when i was depressed


this is my favorite video of yours. i love coming back to it remembering that i'm not alone ❤ i love you dodie


Lucy Glover actually yes! dark chocolate especially! Dark chocolate can boost serotonin levels from both the serotonin and L-tryptophan it contains, but also because it contains carbohydrates in the form of sugar! carbs/sugars can signal the body to produce more serotonin. so although it's not super significant like an SSRI, it is actually scientifically proven to help depression because of the serotonin! that's probably why J.K. included the chocolate bit ☺

JK actually wrote/created dementors after her own experiences with depression

regienaxo g very true, when u get the dementors eat chocolate :) it helps

<b>sigh</b> if only i'm not a muggle then i would expCETO PATRONUM ITS ASSSS

*sigh* if only i'm not a muggle then i would expCETO PATRONUM ITS ASSSS

autumn luna yeah,j.k's depression was inspiration for them. Basically the human(but not really human) incarnation of depression

autumn luna So we should all eat chocolate?

yup dementors were based on J.K. Rowling's depression when she lost her mother from multiple sclerosis complications... it's a very very good metaphor

Yeah, dementors are the best metaphor for depression. I find it's easier to explain depression when I compare it to dementors. Kudos to JK Rowling for creating them!

if i'm not wrong dementors were based on depression


This helped me so much. You literally described everything I've been feeling and it's so comforting to know I'm not alone in all of this


I hope she doesn't delete this video I come here everytime im depressed and I feel less alone


Please never delete this video. It’s helped so many of my friends. You’re amazing, Dodie ❤


Dark seems much brighter with people like you. Hopes and love for everyone friends! I will not successfully try to sleep


This is how I feel all the time. I feel like you’re having a conversation with me and it kinda helps. Thanks


this is really how I felt while my depression, thanks for therapy, medicine and your videos it almost passed away)


thankyouthankyouthankyou
this video is what made me realize i had depression
you were able to perfectly describe what was going on with my brain; i had thought i was just messed up
so now, i'm working with my doctor to find an anti-depressant that works for me, (prozac hasn't worked, we'll see)
i'm going to therapy every two weeks
i'm learning to be kinder to myself

thank you for kickstarting my recovery

Just Monika. reading is fundamental, use it.

@愛. 8 months late and this comment is so frustrating.. you have to have a sense of what's happening in your brain before seeing a psychiatrist. some people can't see someone for various reasons, and if you're feeling something, you're feeling it.

Just Monika. <br>read her whole comment. she’s working with her doctor. though i do agree people shouldn’t self diagnose, make sure they actually are before telling them not to.

Just Monika.
read her whole comment. she’s working with her doctor. though i do agree people shouldn’t self diagnose, make sure they actually are before telling them not to.

clare
yay!!! i hope you find something that works :)

also, i like your profile picture. studio ghibli is what i watch during depressive episodes.

no.
you don't understand.
i did see a psychiatrist, but you have to realize that something is wrong before you visit the doctor.
i am actually diagnosed.

Clare no,,, sweetie please don’t self diagnose ???? see a psychiatrist?????


It's incredible how you described exactly how I feel.


Depression is like having your body being present in the world but all of your senses feel there but they're numb, and your brain is just gone it's just empty

Idk if this is normal but mine feels wayyy sadder than everyone is describing :/

Eva Is not cool it’s so frustrating trying to explain it to people especially because for me i get so hyper and seemingly happy around people but in reality i always feel like i’m just in a really boring dream all the time

Eva Is not cool yes thank you for finally saying it for what it is. Its just really hard to explain it to people who don't have depression.

❤ ✨ Do agree 🙏very true.😔 trapped in place sometimes ..round and round xx

Eva Is not cool this is exactly how it feels

Now I know that I'm depressed. I just never really thought I was because so many people make it so mainstream.

Eva Is not cool I feel like I am in a labirent suddenly I am blind and cant see anything, I also cant talk and hear. I am asking for help but no one hears me and sees me like I hate this. Than I just sit there and give up. I feel so lonely.

when you're falling in a forest, and there's nobody around. all you want is for somebody to find you

Betty Zetty same its like im in a hole trying to get out but the darkness consumes me and and it seems like all of the world was going on around me but I can't pick myself up to do anything or prioritise anything that I should be doing

Eva Is not cool yes totally. I m depress

Eva Is not cool <br>Depression for me is like im drowning and asking for help but no one can see me or help me

Eva Is not cool
Depression for me is like im drowning and asking for help but no one can see me or help me


every time I’m depressed I watch this video and it helps me feel less empty and lonely. Thanks dodie 💞


Thank you for putting this into words. I hope you're feeling good and light today.

Also, such a mood watching rick&morty and eating beans


still so grateful this video exists. it’s nice to have somewhere where i’m understood when i’m feeling this way too. you put my feelings into words.


I come back to this video on the really bad days to feel like someone is expressing what I feel unable to express in the moment. Please don't ever take it down. (Even though I have it mostly memorized at this point.) Love you, dodie.


This is so fascinating and helpful. Thank you for sharing. I'm eternally optimistic and I've always had a hard time understanding depression because it's such an abstract idea for me. I've always wanted to empathize with those around me, but like your mother, I just do my best to cheer them up. But you really explain it so clearly. Thank you for that. I can't tell you how much I appreciate this. -Brian

I've had depression and anxiety ever since I was eight so I can relate but my parents didn't  understand.  Ugh I feel dead

Perfect Little Planet ||Very sensitive persons can feel depressed... Cause they think of everything and at the bad things SOMETIMES, you know.☺The thing that can make you feel better if you're depressed? DO SOMETHING. Anything. Phisical Exercise is good for mental health.😊||

<b>rubs your head</b> Gimme some of that eternal happiness. ; v ;

*rubs your head* Gimme some of that eternal happiness. ; v ;

Perfect Little Planet that's the same with me!

Marissa Swain ah that's okay sorry I hadn't realised. All I'll say is that although there isn't currently a cure for mental illness I hope you can at least see that there are many things that can help. Things that can break that cycle maybe not forever but at least for a little while. It's probably the depression talking when you can see no way out of it. But there are steps you can take to relieve it a little

Also I hadn't seen the part where you said you had been dealing with some issues for a long time yourself, until now. Sorry about that. I hope you're able to overcome whatever things that you've been going through one day. x

Hey Hannah, sorry I hadn't even seen your comment. I was replying to Tara really, not you. But yes obviously not every person with a healthy brain is happy. I know that. We all have things that we go through. I'm simply saying that by having a healthy brain, you do have the ABILITY to be happy. After going through something difficult, it is more probable that you will be able to feel better again in a shorter amount of time, in comparison to someone dealing with a mental illness. Which isn't a bad thing, it's a great thing. And I don't have any animosity towards people without mental illness. I have it towards the world itself lol. I won't pretend i'm not bitter about it. But I wouldn't wish the torture on a mental illness on anyone. That's why I was trying to explain that in my original comment, I wasn't saying that I wish EVERYONE felt depressed. I was saying I wish NO ONE was.

Marissa Swain that's fine but I just want to make sure you understand that just because I have a healthy brain it doesn't mean I'm happy or am guaranteed to have a happy life. Just because I'm not depressed it doesn't not mean I'm not sad. Heathy people are not always happy. Not every poor person can feel fulfilled nor can every stick person fully come to terms with their illness. Through the way you have commented it seems you have a lot of animosity towards people who are not depressed which I do have to question.

Ah but the difference is that you can literally conquer EVERY OTHER PROBLEM in the world if you have a healthy brain. Literally. There are people who are poor, but are still happy, and therefore are living a fulfilled life. There are people with physical diseases, but have strong minds, therefore the ability to be happy even whilst sick. Not to mention someone who is poor may one day have money, and someone who is sick MAY find a cure to their illness. But there is no cure for mental illness. It either kills you in some way or you suffer until you're dead. So i'm going to have to correct you and state again that actually yes, it IS a privilege to not have a mental illness. If you have a healthy brain, you can find peace, no matter how bad life is for you. If you have an unhealthy brain, you will never find peace, no matter how GOOD life is to you. It is a literal curse. Sure, maybe she'll feel better soon. But then she'll feel bad again. And then worse. And then better. This cycle continues forever and there is no way around it. I'm pretty sure she's said this herself before. So. There's that.

I understand what is being said by both sides here. It must be as difficult to comprehend someone not understanding depression as it is for me to understand depression. I do agree that everyone has their own struggles though. Just because I don't suffer with depression doesn't make me privileged. I have my own issues that I have been working on for years now and I wouldn't wish them on anyone. It's hard because the way I get through things is to always try and think positively and I want to give that advice but for depressed people it doesn't work. This is why I can't understand it, it's why I can't really help even though I only have good intentions. It's why I tend to stay away from subjects like mental illness because I don't want to say something wrong and make people worse

@Tara I DO understand, you just completely misinterpreted my comment lol. I'm creeped out because it's weird that something is so hard to understand for some, while it's a daily part of life for others. I'm angry that some people have to feel like this while there are others in the world who have the privilege of NOT feeling like this. And no, I never have been in a situation where I felt like I couldn't understand what a depressed friend was going through. But I can still appreciate that people who CAN'T understand what their friends are going through, are trying to understand them better to help. Never said I had a problem with that. I just think it's sad that any of us need help at all. It's not fair that illnesses like this exist. Good people shouldn't have to feel bad every day, even when they have every reason to feel good. People like Dodie. That's why i'm angry.

It is extremely to understand until you experience it. I'm glad people like you are around who want to understand because I'm so sick of people telling me 'there's no reason for you to be depressed! Your life's great! Be happy!' When it's  an illness just like any other illness. My best advice to you would be to let the individual know that you are there for them and check up on them when you can (trust me a 'how are you' is enough) and try to get them to get help.

Sylvyi, can you read? Lol. I said I wish NO ONE had to feel depressed.

Marissa Swain... uh, so you want other people to feel depressed? What the hell?

@Tara, no of course not. Quite the opposite, I wish no one had to feel depressed.

These comments creep me out honestly lol. The idea that there are some people that live their lives and haven't experienced feeling the way Dodie feels in this video creeps me out. And makes me a little angry, to be honest. Lol. But I mean good for you guys for wanting to have empathy for the people around you. That's nice.

Noah Thank you for the added advice. And in the future if you need a life preserver, just come back to this thread. I'm here for you. -Brian

Just telling a depressed friend/loved one that you're there and along for the ride is helpful. It's okay to ask if there's something in particular they need, but just ask them in the moment. Thinking ahead can be scary or impossible during a depressive period. Knowing that there's someone around during even the crappiest times (when usually a depressed person feels worthless and unloveable on top of the rest of things) is really helpful over the long term. It doesn't make depression go away, but it's like a little life preserver holding us up when it feels like the depths want to take us. Signed, A Person with Over a Decade of Depression experienced

Perfect Little Planet yes ! I'm the same I can never quite understand depression but this video really helped. I always just want to cheer people up but I know it doesn't really work 😕 just wish I could help


i just ran across this video and I love it, simply because you just put into words exactly what I'm feeling currently. I genuinely searched 'I am sad' on youtube, and this video popped up. I feel seen, which is the most cliche phrase ever, but right now, it feels nice. It's good to know that I'm not alone (even though I know I'm not). Thank you.


I just love the vibe of your videos. Your voice, the environment you film in and the way you tell stories is so relaxing and makes me feel so chill and happy💖


I love that this video is back. It describes my feelings so well and I come back to it every ones in a while to feel less alone in this. We love this girl ❤


Dodie,<br>I know you're doing amazing things and you'll probably never see this, but I want you to know that this video helps me when I'm depressed feel just a tad less alone. I know you put this video on private and then unlisted it, but I just want you to know I appreciate this. I feel like I have someone to feel things with.

Dodie,
I know you're doing amazing things and you'll probably never see this, but I want you to know that this video helps me when I'm depressed feel just a tad less alone. I know you put this video on private and then unlisted it, but I just want you to know I appreciate this. I feel like I have someone to feel things with.


my favourite kind of people are those who can put into words things that i can't


ive watched this video several times when i feel depressed , and its given me so much strength and i realise I'm not the only one in this situation. i love you dodie , thank you xxxx


Whenever I feel sad I just snack on beans and have a cup of tea with Dodie ❤


Thanks Dodie for explaining depression at the best of your ability. So relatable. You are so amazing!


i haven't been on this channel in a few years, but this video is something i'll never forget. i remember when it first got uploaded, and while i've never been diagnosed with anything, i could really resonate with what you were saying - it made me feel heard, like i wasn't alone, and i'll always feel grateful for that. sometimes when i'm sad, i'll check on your channel and look for this video again though with no luck. much to my surprise, i just found it's been unlisted and you can't imagine how happy i was to find it again! even if i'm not in the same place i was all those years ago, even if i am doing much better than before, knowing this video is still around and available feels like a huge safe place. i know this was random, but thank you sm and i hope you too are doing better. {:


I was at a friend's birthday party yesterday, and the entire time I was there I felt awkward and uncomfortable. Everyone was laughing and screaming and I felt like I wasn't really there. Then about halfway through the party, I snapped and completely shut down. We were all sitting in the living room and watching a movie, and I felt like I was having an out of body experience. I was staring at the TV screen, I could hear what the characters were saying, I understood everything that was going on, and I could hear everyone laughing and joking around and I just felt so detached. One of my friends asked me what was wrong and I could hear her but I felt so distant so I just kept nodding and saying I was fine but I was so spaced out that I couldn't even bring myself back like I'm usually able to and it was one of the worst feelings ever because I felt like I was ruining my friend's birthday party with my detachment. I just wanted to be at home, and I felt so lonely, despite being in a room full of people.

I really understand you. It only happens sometimes so I know I don't have depersonalisation, but it sucks

This literally happened at my friends birthday party/sleepover to me and I broke down and cried, I tried to explain but I couldn't, I think one friend kinda understood but idk, I had just been hyper aware all day, alert to everything and it was a lot to process<br> (i have Aspergers) I guess it was too much because my brain switched off and stopped processing information. I felt very detatched and isolated but I felt better after I had cried, had some food, talked to my friends. I felt shaky for a while but everything kinda went back to normal again.

This literally happened at my friends birthday party/sleepover to me and I broke down and cried, I tried to explain but I couldn't, I think one friend kinda understood but idk, I had just been hyper aware all day, alert to everything and it was a lot to process
 (i have Aspergers) I guess it was too much because my brain switched off and stopped processing information. I felt very detatched and isolated but I felt better after I had cried, had some food, talked to my friends. I felt shaky for a while but everything kinda went back to normal again.

Tyla Z From what I've looked up, it's called Depersonalization. Derealization is also connected with it as well, but not everyone experiences both.

Adia Ivory what the fuck taht happens to me ive never heard of anyone talk about this before, do you know what it is???

Cerys D x I'm positive I don't have Depression or anything like that, I just wouldn't consider how I'm feeling an off day because this happens very frequently

Adia Ivory that's called an off day. Definitely doesn't mean you have depression.

I've been looking into that for quite a bit in the past month, and it lines up perfectly with how I feel. Not sure where to go from here, but it's comforting to be close to having a label; a reminder that what I'm feeling isn't my fault.

Adia Ivory that's a lil thing called depersonalization

a potato I'm so glad I'm not the only one!!!


I always manage to find my way back to this video, and every time I'm simply astounded at the idea of green beans as a comfort food.

Seph Kennedy <br>actually, they’re edamame beans :) you can buy them in single serving bags. you empty them into a bowl, salt them as much as you please, and then microwave them and they’re a good snack for a healthy diet or when you’re depressed. i highly recommend them

Seph Kennedy
actually, they’re edamame beans :) you can buy them in single serving bags. you empty them into a bowl, salt them as much as you please, and then microwave them and they’re a good snack for a healthy diet or when you’re depressed. i highly recommend them


i always come to this video when i’m feeling this type of depression like i know it’s chemical-based and not an over exaggeration of a situation i’d be going through. idk why but i feel less alone and feel a bit better when i watch this so thank you dodie <3


You're so relatable and true, in a way just so pure and lovely.


Oh my god. I’ve never heard someone put into words exactly what I was feeling, especially when you were talking about how physical the depression feels, like you can feel the chemical changes in your brain. I tried explaining this to so many doctors and they didn’t understand me. Thank you so much for this.


I can relate to most of what you said.  I haven't been to a psychiatrist nor have I been diagnosed, but I have days just like this (today was one of them).  Dodie, thank you for sharing your experiences and thoughts with us, I think there definitely needs to be more awareness of mental illness.  Though, I am sorry you are going through this, I am glad you can give some awareness to people.  You may help other's who are struggling and aren't sure what's wrong find some help by maybe going to see a psychiatrist or something.  Thank you!


Thank you dodie for describing what you feel so well. It really helps me, thank you


you're describing exactly how I feel Dodie. thank you for this video


This is super relatable and it's cool that she posted this because it makes me feel less alone


Ive probably already said this but<br>thank you for this video. I watch it when I’m having a depressed day and I empathize completely. So well explained. Just so well. Hope you’re having a good day.

Ive probably already said this but
thank you for this video. I watch it when I’m having a depressed day and I empathize completely. So well explained. Just so well. Hope you’re having a good day.


I’m watching this for the 400th time because today was one of my bad days yet again. Just felt like commenting into the void that this is how I feel today and I need to remind myself that it’s okay to feel this way.


I love how real this video is. I honestly feel like this most days. Probably a bit selfish but it’s interesting to see someone else going through similar things. Makes me feel less alone.


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i have watched this so many times, i already know what she will say and say it with her while i eat my edamame beans and drink sum tea.<br>it doesn't magically make me feel better but it does give me some to distract myself with and not feel so alone.

i have watched this so many times, i already know what she will say and say it with her while i eat my edamame beans and drink sum tea.
it doesn't magically make me feel better but it does give me some to distract myself with and not feel so alone.


lmao when i get depressed i dont wanna get dressed or showered, or out of bed and so i don't, until my anxiety goes um everyone is gonna think you're gross and lazy so i'm like FUKC SAK E

When I'm depressed, I just have a full on existential crisis and don't get out of bed.

Zoe H same, I literally got up at 2 pm today and only cause I was scared my mum would think I'm lazy.

Same. And i feel so gross bc i havent showered in like three days all ive been doing is laying in bed and its so horrible. Like Im so depressed i feel numb and i dont even feel like an actual person anymore.

Neil Mcinnis you obviously never struggled with depression... depression doesn't just disappear when you decide to go on a walk or go out to eat!! Whether or not you are struggling with something in life, depression will come unannounced.It doesn't just disappear just because your mom is planning a trip!!! Depression is of course different for all people. People with depression ARENT SPOILED BRATS!!!!!!!!!

depression, social phobia. if perfectionism prevents you from doing your tasks, your mind goes crazy, you panic, your body is affected in every possible way, heart racing, you want to vomit. you're afraid you won't keep up to your self-made too high expectations. in the end you've done nothing, not even the easiest task and feel like a failure..and that's another story

i'd like to point out to you that every single depression is different. some depressions last life times, some comes in waves. please decide to educate yourself even slightly on a topic before trying to tell people that they are wrong for something they may have experience with :)

you do realise that not a single person here said that they are only sad for one day?

Zoe H yeah. too tired to accomplish something, too anxious not to feel pressured to.

Zoe H yeah that's me right now. I just ran because I thought that could help for some reason and now I'm just gonna not shower and lay staring at my ceiling for hours. I hate the contrast between depression and anxiety because I want to just lay in my bed forever but I know that if I don't shower right now I'm gonna have acne and I hate it ugh

Zoe H im always depressed. depression is like a normal too me

Zoe H For some reason, even though I'm extremely tired, I always have to take a really long shower when I'm depressed. Just because I'd rather feel depressed and clean then be depressed an smell like vagina

when I'm feeling particularly depressed i dont wanna do anything. it's like I'm too physically weak to do anything. I also can't feel anything other than a kind of heaviness and weakness. it's weird how it takes all my energy to do nothing. literally nothing. I could sit on the floor and just be exhausted.

Zoe H I can strongly relate because being depressed just like takes all your energy until your left like a lump on the floor and i don't want to do anything...i'm a particularly depressed rn so yeah....honestly i don't want to do anything but of course i have to go to my dad's🤦🏽♀wish me luck😓

legit this so much i come across as functioning most of the time but inside i'm just like 'lol fuck this everything is shit'

Zoe H The worst part is you feel heavy and don't wanna move even though you really want to.

Zoe H that's actually really interesting tbh.when my depression is really bad i feel the need to do everything like showering or chores over and over again just so something feels normal


I've been dealing with my depression since I was 13 years. I totally get where you are coming from.


“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." - Jesus ( Matthew 11:28)


You're literally the First person ever that would actually understand how I feel. My mom is really kind and helps me a lot with my depression but she doesn’t understand... Im sorry that you have to feel like that but I'm relieved that im not the only one who feels like that


i know that this video was made in a dark place. and it was made years ago. and she doesn’t want people to see this side of her first off. but i watch this every time i feel depressed or just kind of sad in general. and it brings me a little bit up. so thank you for this video. i cry every time i watch it, but it’s good. i get something out of this video. and in case you ever see this, thank you.


I remember when they played a clip of this video in a panel at vidcon. You and three other people were talking about your impact on the youtube space. It was one of the most emotional days of my life. Once you saw the clip you cried, as it reminded you that you were depressed, and i couldnt handle it. I burst out crying, i was shaking, trying not to be loud. You looked over, saw me, and asked if i was okay with the best smile you could do. Thankyou dodie for making me cry. It may not seem like a good thing, but feeling something was really what i needed then. I love you and your videos, please feel better (everythin will be ok)

I love her so much, she can forget about her own troubles to make sure others are ok :)


I work six days a week, and how you described what your brain feels like is exactly how I felt yesterday on my day off. I've been feeling fine the whole week, and had a bunch of stuff planned that I needed to get done I just woke up totally in a different head space and exactly as you described.. I wish I could control my brain 😢 but I also remind myself that it's okay to be kind to myself on those days and just go through the motions


Dotty, thank you for this video. I haven’t watched your videos in a while because life is crazy but this video has always stuck out to me. I personally do not have any diagnosed mental illnesses, nor do I believe I have any, but knowing someone I have looked up to and admired has rough days/weeks/months/etc  really helps me when I have a rough day/week/month/etc.


i can't thank you enough for sharing this video!!!  it makes me feel so much less alone with what i feel almost every day:)


i watch this video everytime i feel like this because in those moments i can relate to almost every single thing you're saying lol. makes me feel a little better, thanks


actually today im 3 months clean from self harm

actually today im 3 months clean from self harm

Very late but congrats :) I hope you're keeping it up! How are you doing? <3

Woop woop 🙌🏻🙌🏻 that's so amazing:)) like u :)

Woop woop 🙌🏻🙌🏻 that's so amazing:)) like u :)

@Ziggorro I'm trying not to so I promise

@Ziggorro I'm trying not to so I promise

That's amazing! I'm late on this, but I hope you're still going strong!!! That's a very, very hard thing to do. You have my respect

I self harmed today after being clean for more than 1 year. I usually dont write these things in social media but...I'm depressed and I don't care.

Yay!!!! It's been almost a year. But recently I have a feeling that it won't be long before I start again.

Two years later. How are you feeling? Still clean? It’s okay if not, we can always start again. Let me know, I’m curious. Xx

How r u now? Did u ever go back? I need some advice bout it

How r u now? Did u ever go back? I need some advice bout it

Ninidude, great job! Hope I can make it there too!

Ninidude, great job! Hope I can make it there too!

that's amazing. I really hope you keep it up.

that's amazing. I really hope you keep it up.

Wow lovey! Hope you’re still doing well!

Wow lovey! Hope you’re still doing well!

Ninidude I am so proud of you. Keep going. You got this !

Ninidude I am so proud of you. Keep going. You got this !

WELL FUCKING DONE! IM SO PROUD! ALL MY POTATOS ARE PROUD TOO!

WELL FUCKING DONE! IM SO PROUD! ALL MY POTATOS ARE PROUD TOO!

i know this was 2 years ago but congrats!! hope you're doing well <3

i know this was 2 years ago but congrats!! hope you're doing well <3

Replying 2 years in advance, hope you're still keeping this up. I've been there <3

Ninidude <br>yay! i hope you’re feeling okay now, and if not i hope you get there one day. i’m not clean from self harm but i’m trying to quit.

Ninidude
yay! i hope you’re feeling okay now, and if not i hope you get there one day. i’m not clean from self harm but i’m trying to quit.

Ninidude I hope you made it clean still today but it’s ok to have bad days, we all have them

Just remember your are not alone and it will be ok ❤ even if you didn’t make it to a year I’m proud of you <3

i don't know how you're doing now but

im still so proud of you

i don't know how you're doing now but

im still so proud of you

Hang in there u are loved and you can love. Give yourself one thing to focus on. A food, a book, something to keep you here. You can do it! <3

Ninidude welldone it’s tough but your getting through it very proud x

Just keep fighting the depression monster and use the power of prayer, ask God to carry you.

This is the most positive comment thread I've seen on this site. It's been a year! I hope you're doing well

Congrats for all the people who are getting clean! <i>i am</i> very proud of yall

Congrats for all the people who are getting clean! _i am_ very proud of yall

Ninidude this is incredible, keep going!! You can do this:)))

Ninidude this is incredible, keep going!! You can do this:)))

thewewguy8t88 no, never do that. so many people would be devastated if you did that. i would be devastated. dont let people do that to u. just block them haters out, if they really say those things, their opinion shouldnt matter.

I'm so proud of you! Keep going, you are important! 💗

I'm so proud of you! Keep going, you are important! 💗

This is amazing. Keep going you can do that. You can be proud.

This is amazing. Keep going you can do that. You can be proud.

That's amazing, I'm soo happy for you! ✨

That's amazing, I'm soo happy for you! ✨

that's amazing oh my gosh well done <333

that's amazing oh my gosh well done <333

Ninidude congratulations I'm so happy for you

Ninidude congratulations I'm so happy for you

well you seem to be the only one who seems to care.

well you seem to be the only one who seems to care.

Ninidude I'm 2 years! Well done. keep it up ☺

Ninidude I'm 2 years! Well done. keep it up ☺

Ninidude I'm so proud of you, today is my 220th day and some days I don't even think about it <3

It's been about a year for me :) It is possible, and I fully believe in you ❤#WeAreStrong

Ninidude Good going! I'm really happy for you.

Ninidude Good going! I'm really happy for you.

i've been seven months clean and broke it yesterday. this video described all my feelings. i am so proud of you for being clean, i hope it continues. much love 🌬💕

heh. I'm almost a month clean, and nothing has ever helped me through this as much as Dodie's videos have.

Ninidude I'm almost 2 weeks clean! Congrats :))

Ninidude I'm almost 2 weeks clean! Congrats :))

Ninidude I was two weeks clean today but stuff...happened

Ninidude I was two weeks clean today but stuff...happened

I know this because next month I'm 2 years clean

I know this because next month I'm 2 years clean

So proud of you xxxxxx I know how difficult it is to stop self harming but trust me, as soon as you hit a year of no self harm it some how becomes the easiest thing.

Ninidude nice!! I'm close to 6 months free of most types of self harm

Ninidude nice!! I'm close to 6 months free of most types of self harm

THATS FRICKEN GREAT! i've been a year clean and it feels amazing! every little milestone is a little closer to feeling yay about yourself and that is amazing

Ninidude congratulations that's huge!! The beginning is the hardest part and you've done it, there is no doubt you'll be able to keep it up❤❤

Ninidude Congrats!!! That's absolutely wonderful, good for you <3

Ninidude Congrats!!! That's absolutely wonderful, good for you <3

That is AWESOME. You must be so proud of yourself for keeping this fight until now. Keep going my friend :)

Ninidude good job hon! I'm proud of you!

Ninidude good job hon! I'm proud of you!

That's so awesome! Keep at it I know it's difficult but you can do it!! Well done so far! 😄

today i am 8 months clean <3 stay strong

today i am 8 months clean <3 stay strong

Ninidude even though I do not know you, you seem like a good person. congrats and keep up the good work!❤

Ninidude i'm so proud of you!!! that's amazing <3

Ninidude i'm so proud of you!!! that's amazing <3

I'm 3 years clean!!! You're doing so great!!!

I'm 3 years clean!!! You're doing so great!!!

You are so strong and amazing ahhh I'm so happy for you yes you can do it and before you know it, it'll be a year clean :)

Ninidude congrats!!!!!!! I'm really happy for you even though I don't know you

Ninidude good job fren I'm proud stay alive

Ninidude good job fren I'm proud stay alive

good for you! I hope you feel proud of yourself. you deserve it. you should treat yourself :) you are so strong and you should celebrate progress no matter how big or small:)

That's amazing! I don't know you, but you're amazing and I'm proud of you. You are so strong, things get better. Best of luck! xx

Ninidude hell yeah!!!! Good for you buddy

Ninidude hell yeah!!!! Good for you buddy

even though i don't know you i am so proud of you and i hope one day i can say the same for myself. <3

Ninidude amazing job!!! I've been about 3 years clean. I used to self harm when I was younger and I'm so proud of everyone who is at least 1 day clean!!

Oh my goodness congrats!!! I'm really proud

Oh my goodness congrats!!! I'm really proud

Ninidude omg im so proud of you stay strong and know you are AMAZING

Ninidude omg im so proud of you stay strong and know you are AMAZING

I don't even know you but I'm proud of you. That's so brave of you. You're so strong.

Ninidude Congratulations! Keep going! I believe in you. :)

Ninidude Congratulations! Keep going! I believe in you. :)

Ninidude YAY im so proud of you, even thought i dont know you❤

Ninidude YAY im so proud of you, even thought i dont know you❤

That's incredible! Congratulations! You're so strong!

That's incredible! Congratulations! You're so strong!

That's amazing. I hope you're proud of yourself because I don't even know you and I am. You must be so strong keep going! <3

Ninidude that's awesome! Congratulations!!

Ninidude that's awesome! Congratulations!!


Your singing my life with your words. PTSD is the troll on my shoulder. Thanks for sharing your experience. ✌❤


I watch this same video everytime I'm in the middle of a depressive mindset, and it helps somewhat, thank you so much😘😔


this video always gives me an open space to feel and feel a little less isolated in my experience, even though they’re different. thanks 💛


It’s very phisical the sensation for me too. Specially when I feel right again, I can actually notice my brain feeling different, like itching even lol.


I don't have depression. At least I don't think so. At least... Well I'm not sure. But I get days when I'm just so.... So unmotivated to do anything. Everything is a hassle, and I feel like I'm bored, and empty, and nothing can fill that feeling.

I started to watch this video and once you started describing how you felt, I had to pause the video because I started to tear up. Because that's how I feel sometimes. That's how I feel right now. So I wrote this comment.

So thank you for this video Dodie, it's already making me feel better because it feels like you know exactly how my brain is feeling and you are talking about it. And I'm enjoying your voice, and listening to you, so thank you 💕

@jillyfish hi :) nice to hear that it's going at least a bit better, and university sounds exciting! Using their resources is a great idea! I wish you all the best :)

@lenjaminbang hi there :) I never saw all these replies on my comment until now. I still haven't done anything, but I'm about to go to university so I may pursue some resources there. I'm not quite as bad as I was before, but it's still not good. Thank you for being so kind and checking in

Jill Stephenson I feel the same exact way

@sleepyheadvinyl i hope u will be okay soon

@sleepyheadvinyl u should never ignore the way u feel, mental health is so important, u need to talk to anyone about this, you're worth, beautiful, smart and ENOUGH just the way u are, u deserve to be the most happy YOU, u deserve all the happiness in the world, don't let anyone tell u that u don't

@sleepyheadvinyl u should talk to anyone u trust, it may be teacher, friend, sibling, school's psychologists, literally anyone, u should tell them about the way u feel, tell them everything that will come to your mind

me too i kept tearing up as she described some things which happen to me ❤

You are depressed, you're literally starring depression in its face

I hope your alright, remember that its okay to feel sad sometimes and that its all going to be alright in the end. you are loved and you are valued. love from the other side of the world.

Hey how's it going now? Did you talk to your parents or go to see a doctor?

Jill Stephenson I relate 100% to this comment. I still really need to talk to my parents about it cuz I really need help. It's getting worse I think. I'm starting to think of ways I could die, and imagining the whole thing. I even think about hurting myself but I don't.


You seem to be the only youtuber who records their audio separately, and I appreciate that.


I am depressed today. I remembered about this video. I watched it. I remembered I'm not alone. <br>Thank you Dodie. I'm going to go to bed now and try again tomorrow. x

I am depressed today. I remembered about this video. I watched it. I remembered I'm not alone.
Thank you Dodie. I'm going to go to bed now and try again tomorrow. x


"nothing is easy" GOSH that's exactly how i feel when i'm depresssed it's so suffocating it's ROUGH but i'm glad i'm not alone and that other people also feel this way


Dude, thanks for this! My therapist tells me not to fixate on my depression as well. I still need a lot of work but the medicine helps


I absolutley love you. I listen to your music when i need to calm down. I remember you being so shy and unsure of yourself and then you gained all this confidence and became a star❤❤

Janet Devlin i watch your audition whenever I'm anxious and need to calm down. Your voice is one of my favorites ever and I absolutely love you

Janet Devlin hey Janet :) love ya and I needed this to

Janet Devlin didn't think I'd see you here!

Janet Devlin Didn't think I would see you here.Hello :)


For every friend I’ve reached out to, Ive described the heavy feeling I’ve had and nobody got it. And you described it exactly how I have. And now I know. Thank you.


I like watching these videos dodie makes on her anxiety and depression, helps me put things in perception and helps me think about what I’m going through when I need to.


This is exactly how I feel on my down days. Thankfully not very often now but today is one. I'm sitting on the couch drinking tea. That's all I'll be doing today! Hopefully tomorrow will be back to  normal!


thank you for talking about your mental health stuff. i really needed a reminder today that i’m not alone in what i’m feeling. i know i’m depressed, i just never know how to describe how it feels. i feel like this will definitely help me communicate with my therapist. thank you again❤


Desde que vi esse vídeo pela primeira vez sinto uma vontade absurda de legendar. Ele é necessário, sou apaixonada por ele.


Honestly this video helps me... it is what I feel sometimes and of course I don't want others to experience depression, but there is comfort in seeing I'm not alone. It was very kind of you to share ❤


A year ago when I saw this video ,I had depression but didn’t really understand it but now after watching this again i feel a sense of fulfillment since the way you described it made me recognize that that’s exactly what I’m feeling so thank you


i relate to this so much. i’ve never felt so understood.


Guys, if you think you have depression and you really don't fit into every single detail Dodie is describing, it's still possible you may have depression.

You can have depression and get cheered up by things or not.

It just depends on you.

Everyone's different.

But before you come to conclusions, ask a therapist.

I've been told by multiple counselors, multiple suicide hotline people and almost everyone that I talk to...

@A3NA67 yea. If so many people would stop pretending, the depressed people would have more people to talk to. Someone happy to shine a light near them. At least that's how I feel about the whole situation.

Nah y’all don’t have depression stop thinking it’s cool

Definitely. People can have less severe or more severe kind of depression than she's going through. All valid. It's hard defining depression other than feeling blue, or feeling like giving up. When watching her, I'm like good for you, you got up and got yourself a healthy snack. You're miles ahead of me and my progress.


shit this brought me to tears. i’ve never heard someone so accurately explain what clinical depression feels like


This feels like this is the best description of how I feel most of the days
I feel understood right now
Thanks :)


I love this and I have much love for you for verbalizing what seems to be such a difficult thing to do! Much appreciation to you love


i dont think i'd have the energy to make a video on a bad day like this....major props


I found this video oddly comforting. I’m having a really low day and my depression seems to have crept up on me again, and it’s nice to see a video of someone just accepting that they are depressed and that it’s okay. I felt when I was watching it that you were like a depressed friend and we could just be depressed together. There are an abundance of videos out there on how to help depression, but sometimes I feel the need to just sit in my depression for a bit in order to move on. This video was helpful for that.


I come back to this a lot. I find eating the beans does help a lil


i love this video so much.. it is so comforting to know im not the only one who feels this way lol im so glad i saved it to a playlist some years ago i was sad i couldnt find it


what a great, great video!! just wow, this is extremely well done - i was able to really understand what you were talking about although i never suffered from depression etc. this was so good... :)


- i hated "choose happiness" when i was depressed because i was like THIS DOESN'T APPLY TO ME but now i realize that when you're not depressed this is actually a useful and valid saying!!!
- i reallllllly felt the waterslide thing - thats the worst though, when you're home alone in bed, at least there are no expectations of happiness but when you're out surrounded by people who find happiness in the surroundings it just makes you feel more out of place & broken than your normal depressed self feels
- i know that scared feeling that you'll never feel joy again & its so scary cause depression is so unpredictable

anyway, if going on medication is scaring you, (and you've tried everything else) i highly recommend it. they start you off on a low dose & if you're feeling okay they will increase it a bit. i went on zoloft (which is an SSRI) and it worked incredibly well for me!!! i'm not on it anymore & am no longer depressed!

i really really know how you're feeling, you're certainly not alone in these thoughts (which is something i wish i knew when i was going through this) and listen to your happy self & know that things will get better - life is a rollercoaster but when you're depressed the "downs" feel TOO DEEP thats why its SO important that you are ACTIVELY SEEKING help!!!

i don't know if you believe in God or not, but i do & i'm praying for you! <3

Solid Gold nope sertraline was not my friend...fluoxetine did nothing for me either 😂 guess im just not a meds person ☺

hanzib31 ive only ever taken sertraline so i dont know much about other antidepressants. seems like your body really didnt like the zoloft though. we all react differently to medication i guess!

Solid Gold i took 20mg which is a normalish starting dose. within 30mins of taking it I was feeling off...within 2 hours i was vomiting....my friend was started on 100mg (WAY too high) and was a total mess from the beginning. so mamy drs dont know enough about these things..
when my friend took the overdose the hospital ended up writing a letter of complaint to the dr for giving her such a high dose.

patients themselves need to do more research before taking these things as drs sometimes mess up unfortunately.

i think i was just unlucky...

I agree so much with this, for those with depression you cannot simply choose to be happy and so it just makes you hate yourself more when people say that you're not trying to be positive

hanzib31 wow, to have such horrid side effects on sertraline might be the doctors fault for not Starting her off slow with small doses and slowly go up. thats what i did and all i had was a bit of headache for a week or two. its still a quite “soft“ medication, but you have to build it up

lea i went on zoloft (called sertraline usually in the UK) last year and it was the worst thing ive ever done. it DESTROYED my sleep (i literally slept about 1hr a night), i had horrific panic attacks (which werent a symptom of mine originally), i vomited, and i was unable to get out of bed for like 4 weeks.

medications unfortunately arent a quick fix for most people...they can be horrofically damaging and actually make thing worse.

my friend recently got given sertraline and she was similar to me. she was really ill for about 6 weeks....then she took an overdose of the pills as she felt suicidal.

please please please be careful with ssris. for a hell of a lot of people they are a TERRIBLE idea. stay in close contact with any dr that prescribes you, notice any worsening of symptoms...they say it takes about a month to get used to a med but dont put up with feeling like death for too long. if youre getting severe side effects then it probably isnt doing you much good.

look into the link between the gut mkcrobiota and depression....its really interesting and has some promising finds. focussing on my diet and thinking about my gut composition has really helped my mood recently.

So in history we learn of the invisible hand
It's basically where a higher power brings you down when you're high. And brings you up on your low
Invisible hand it is keeping you in balance ig.  So like it'll bring you down when you get your hopes up. But it will lift you up when you have no hope left
But the thing about it is, when it drags you down, it eventually has to pick you back up

yessss I was just about to comment something extremely similar to this. bless you jesus freak! :D


i am depressed as well. i also suffer from ptsd ...i just want to thank you you are the reason i am seeing a therapist now .it was hard to accept that i had a problem i didnt think normal people needed someone to talk to so i held it all in and every once in a while i would have a bad "freak out" and lost alot of friends ...i just want you to know i love you so much for making these vids ! keep making them if you can! thank you dodie


i am crying now because i realize that i’m not alone in my head, thank you for sharing your experience, much love ❤


watched this multiple times now. everytime i feel depressed i watch this and i feel less lonely knowing i am not the only one feeling this way


every time I have one of these days I watch this video and its more comforting than you'll ever know


The thing that upsets me most about my depression/anxiety is the fact that I know that when I get better I'm going to have to fix the mess I made (friendships that are going to shit and me messing up two years of uni). Of course I want to get better but thinking about the mess I'm going to have to clean up makes me anxious af.

leahkarlijn this is why I need to believe in a higher power. I don’t believe I can do a damn thing by myself. So I have to have faith that God is going to help me with these things and comfort me. It works for me. I don’t feel like I’m living this life by myself.

sometimes i'm like that, I'm not depressed but I occasionally do feel bouts of depression. And then I just want to slip into that mental state forever because what's the point? If I try and stop it, I'll feel stress and sadness and anguish and irritation and guilt. Sometimes, it feels like I'd just rather feel nothing. I guess I haven't felt proper depression before.

one of my firneds went through something similar...we haven't seen each other for ages but I dont think our friendship has gone to shit, because I understand it's super hard for her to keep in touch.Ill be here for her when she's ready. I expect theres people there for you too, please dont worry. your health comes before everything.

Exactly me right now (and me on and off for the past several years)

leahkarlijn my depression took away a good portion of my childhood, and now being 15, and in high school, my anxiety and the aftermath (and on going) of my depression is fucking up this part of my life. It doesn't matter how optimistic I am, my mind is constantly at war with its self. I hope you are ok, you will be ok. Love from Australia.

you put what i feel in to words so perfectly 👏🏻

leahkarlijn i feel the exact same, i'm losing one of my best friends and failed this school year and i know that these things won't go awaywhen i don't have depression and anxiety anymore and it scares me


I relate to this on a spiritual level. I feel like Im always trying to recreate the past cause I was so happy then and I felt so excited about everything...


you’re so funny ❤and i can relate - sometimes the heaviness in my chest is too much


I have been in a really really depressed state for 2 weeks (which is not me usually) so thank you for releasing this. It brings comfort ❤


this video honestly helped me so much, theres just something so oddly therapeutic about someone describing exactly how you feel on the inside but at the same time knowing that if it will get better for them, it will get better for you. that's all.


Every time I go back to being depressed, I always watch this video because it helps me feel like I have someone else who knows how I feel


This video really helped me understand my friend a lot more! Thank you so much for making this video!


"Today, i didnt have to check"
And
"Its very chemical. It feels very physical."
Spot fucking on.


i know this video isn't very positive. but everytime i feel lost i watch this, and somehow it's kind of calming me down, because dodie can just talk about it.


Thanks for being so open, this actually kind of helped. I decided to try just opening up voice memos on my phone and pretending to have a conversation about why I'm feeling so down and I feel a bit better now. Anyone out there who doesn't have a friend to listen to them atm maybe try this. let me know how it goes, you'll be okay.


you just put
everything I've felt and everything that I'm feeling
Into words

Especially when you said "like I can't open my eyes wide enough" I FEEL THAT EXACTLY WHEN IM GOING THROUGH DPDR! It's like you're blind, you've put it exactly how I've tried to express it before 💓


my best friend recommended that i watch some of your videos on anxiety/depression after i had a panic attack in the bathroom at work the other day because i LITERALLY said the exact same thing you said at 2:25 to her and she told me i need to have empathy for myself so here i am crying at 12:30 am on a friday night and i’m just very thankful for this vulnerable video


You explain and portray depression so well in this video that i keep coming back to it when ever I am depressed just to relate and be understood


I relate to this soooo much! Thanks for being so honest. I just started my own channel to talk about my own experience depression.


This video was amazing, randomly popped up in my recommended and I just feel so bad for you, I don’t suffer from depression, well I hope I don’t but in some ways I felt and experienced what you said spiritually and I can only hope you get better and maintain for the rest of your life, may God bless you


I always thought I knew what depression was but...I realized that I have NO idea 😐

You can never fully understand until you feel it yourself

Sometimes it feels terrible and you become afraid of yourself and your mind. Other days you can’t feel at all and beg yourself to feel something, even pain. Then there are days where you completely check out and can’t even come to conclusions, you just sit there staring at a wall not moving for an hour b/c you’re too gone or you don’t feel like your capable. The worse days too me are where you dissociate/depersonalize and can’t recognize yourself in the mirror. Those days I can’t even look at myself and I don’t feel present- it just feels like complete and utter nothingness. At that point there’s no good reason to live. Anyways have a nice day :)

Don't feel bad for not knowing if you did. I used to think I knew what depression was until it hit me and I didn't even understand what was happening to me. I was an Ahole to several people I didn't realize were just crying for help. I thought they were just weird and being drama queens.. If I knew then what I know now.. It eats at me when i'm down too. People say to focus on the good but when you're at a low, it is almost impossible to do. All you think of are the bad things that have happened to you or that you've done. Because how can you possibly be worth anything. You're worthless and want to know someone cares, but you hide in your house and mask how you feel when your friends or family call or text because you don't want to scare them away or be a downer so often that they don't want to be around you anymore (which happens sometimes, at least in my experience.) Then before you know it, people stop calling and texting because you've been like this for years and they don't know why you aren't around anymore. Well that just makes those bad thoughts cement. It all must be true. Nobody cares about me right? I'll just continue to be alone. Sometimes you can feel like this for minutes, or sometimes days on end. I wouldn't wish the feeling on my worst enemy. In fact, my "best friend" supposedly struggled too and now I get to wonder if our friendship ended because they were actually a narcissistic snake like I want to think and like I called them, or if they were just in the same place I was and we tore eachother apart out of hurt. That's depression how i've come to know it, and that's the short version.

you're one lucky girl if you hadn't an idea what depression was. it sucks.

Same here, I know it now and it's difficult to figure out.

lazy laiah also, Dodie has dpd (depersonalisation disorder or it’s at least something like that) which also means that it will amplify it for her and a lot of what she described was that

Laiah Clay it’s when your body just doesn’t obey you, like you’re trapped and forced to be sad no matter how bad you want to be happy as you are chained down by chemicals. It’s so weird and crazy.

That's the thing, those who don't suffer from it simply can't understand what it feels like

Yeah, it’s really not fun :( but it’s good that you are educating yourself about it

Thanks for educating yourself, it's important to know what to do for others❤

that's EXACTLY how i feel you put it into words so well. i've always described it as like im an npc in a video game with no control or feel of what im doing, im just doing what i was like. programmed to do

It's terrible, I'm at a really low point and I'm actually about to try to tell someone about it right after this. I have no idea how to explain it other then it's like I'm a piece in a board game and I'm being moved around and reacting to things but I'm not the player who's making the decisions and feeling the emotions.

Laiah Clay well it's always good to educate yourself, there's nothing wrong with figuring out what exactly it is and recognizing it when it happens


i used to watch this video so much to cope up with my depressive episodes & i haven't watched this in a while and now i'm bacc but things are surprisingly better than it was before


I'm so glad YouTube recommend this video to me because I feel exactly like you are describing here and your words kind of helped filling the void.


Is it odd that I watch this, and it’s slightly therapeutic?
Like I always find myself watching this when I’m not feeling my best, and having her talk about all this openly genuinely helps me.
It reminds me I’m not the only one feeling all these bad things, and that it will go by eventually and sometimes it’s okay for it to just be there.


Thank you for sharing this. It’s nice being able to relate.


This video is so great it’s just a calm relaxing video to watch. I love this.


I'm 5 months sober and 2 months clean from self-harm and I got tattoos recently to conceal them damn scars... Not symptom-free but still going with my therapy. Love you guys.


I have depression and this was really relatable. I have been having a depression episode off and on lately, right now included. I am a guy in my twenties btw, people tend to think it's just women or middle aged people. Nope. I feel so stupid all the time, sometimes there's even feelings of guilt. really it doesn't matter if they are justified, the feeling won't go away.


I come back to this video regularly because it helps me feel comforted, like a huge 😊💓


Almost feels like listening to myself. Honestly didn't know these feelings were linked to depression for years :| Thanks for sharing.


i remembered vaguely seeing this a bit ago but i didn’t watch it, however now that im really feeling the affects of this particular depressive episode i decided id give it a watch and ive never felt so understood. thank you for making this


This is how I feel daily. For the past almost 10 years I’ve felt more this way than not. It’s a miserable feeling for me.


I always come back to this video when I'm feeling depressed because it feels so good do have someone to relate to.