Depression is a widespread condition, affecting millions of people, Christians and non-Christians alike. Those suffering from depression can experience intense feelings of sadness, anger, hopelessness, fatigue, and a variety of other symptoms. They may begin to feel useless and even suicidal, losing interest in things and people that they once enjoyed. Depression is often triggered by life circumstances, such as a loss of job, death of a loved one, divorce, or psychological problems such as abuse or low self-esteem.

The Bible tells us to be filled with joy and praise (Philippians 4:4; Romans 15:11), so God apparently intends for us all to live joyful lives. This is not easy for someone suffering from situational depression, but it can be remedied through God’s gifts of prayer, Bible study and application, support groups, fellowship among believers, confession, forgiveness, and counseling. We must make the conscious effort to not be absorbed in ourselves, but to turn our efforts outward. Feelings of depression can often be solved when those suffering with depression move the focus from themselves to Christ and others.

Clinical depression is a physical condition that must be diagnosed by a physician. It may not be caused by unfortunate life circumstances, nor can the symptoms be alleviated by one’s own will. Contrary to what some in the Christian community believe, clinical depression is not always caused by sin. Depression can sometimes be caused by a physical disorder that needs to be treated with medication and/or counseling. Of course, God is able to cure any disease or disorder. However, in some cases, seeing a doctor for depression is no different than seeing a doctor for an injury.

There are some things that those who suffer from depression can do to alleviate their anxiety. They should make sure that they are staying in the Word, even when they do not feel like it. Emotions can lead us astray, but God’s Word stands firm and unchanging. We must maintain strong faith in God and hold even more tightly to Him when we undergo trials and temptations. The Bible tells us that God will never allow temptations into our lives that are too much for us to handle (1 Corinthians 10:13). Although being depressed is not a sin, one is still accountable for the response to the affliction, including getting the professional help that is needed. “Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise—the fruit of lips that confess his name” (Hebrews 13:15).

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I'm surprised I'm not seeing any comments advising against SSRIs


Hah I don't feel anything anymore no emotions like happiness or stress but my therapist says it's depression but I'm not sad or anything and she is going to talk to some other therapists so idk but because of this I have been able to stand up for myself with out feeling scared. There's a bonus. Everything gets better I know :)


Past generations:

2019: I'm depressed today

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Past generations:

2019: I'm depressed today

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I remember people telling me what is wrong with you are you depressed??? Are you sad??? Why are you always worried and low?? And I always used to deny it and say no!!!! I m happy, I am positive , I am fine. Today I realise I am not! I need help but I don't have the money, I am an Indian, Indian parents don't understand this illness they think I am just sad and stressed and will be fine, so they won't pay for treatment, I am scared!! I don't want to quit one day lay dead in bed and make my dad regret not paying attention to me. I hate him for not paying attention but I don't want him to blame him when I am gone. I still wish I am fine but I am clearly not.


Poor little thing, I am depressed my every fucking day


I don’t think many people are truly predisposed to depression, at least not as many as doctors tell us. I don’t believe your chemicals become unbalanced for no reason. I spent years thinking there was something wrong with my brain. Then I realised there were lifestyle factors that came into play. Being inside, away from natural light all day will depress you. Sitting/lying around all day will depress you. Being alone will depress you. How can you not overthink yourself into existential anxiety in that situation? It’s normal. Having low self esteem and self-defeating, fatalistic thought patterns will depress you. I know it’s hard to overcome all these habits when you’re depressed, but the thing is, they further contribute to your depression. We’re social creatures whose happy chemicals do a little dance when we’re in the sun, socialising, being active, being present, keeping busy, and being kind to ourselves. Diet is another thing that comes into play. Eating lots of sweets and carbs is depressing. Most of us don’t eat enough good fats. I wish doctors didn’t lie to us and say “oh some people are just born this way. Here’s an SSRI” without warning you of all the side effects these drugs often cause. I’m not opposed to antidepressants but I think people should at least try to be aware of their lifestyle habits before dumping drugs into their system for an artificial mood boost. I don’t know you and your story, and I’m not necessarily referencing you when I say all this. Just anyone who might be reading


I've been to a mental hospital and need anti depressents. But u really don't need to be checked if u have depression. Lololololololol


I'm going to a residential home cuz nothing's working and my mental state just keeps getting worse and worse it fucking sucks


hey dodie, what were you eating? I've never seen that in my life

No problem.. I just read that over and that was a very long winded comment. I suppose I lean towards writing long things. (:

They're edamame. It's a type of bean, and not sugar snap peas though they do look similar. The difference is mainly that you eat them cooked, and that they are not as sweet. (In fact they are typically served with salt to advance the non sweet taste) they are also not part of the pea family. Another difference is that you cannot eat the skin of an edamame bean, where you can on a sugar snap pea. You should try them with a bit of salt after being boiled, very tasty indeed. You pop the individual kernels out of the skin. (: also, if you wish to try sugar snap peas you can eat the skin as well. Some parts are a bit stringy. <br>Happy pea and bean eating!

They're edamame. It's a type of bean, and not sugar snap peas though they do look similar. The difference is mainly that you eat them cooked, and that they are not as sweet. (In fact they are typically served with salt to advance the non sweet taste) they are also not part of the pea family. Another difference is that you cannot eat the skin of an edamame bean, where you can on a sugar snap pea. You should try them with a bit of salt after being boiled, very tasty indeed. You pop the individual kernels out of the skin. (: also, if you wish to try sugar snap peas you can eat the skin as well. Some parts are a bit stringy.
Happy pea and bean eating!

@lea and I'm pretty sure I will never be able to find them here 😂

you have to try them!!! they're so good! especially with a little salt sprinkled over them!!! you eat the beans inside the pod!! they serve them at most japanese restaurants & have some in the frozen section of trader joes!

@Rebekah Gentry never heard of it in my entire life, wow

Tamires Almeida soybeans, they are called edamame.

It's edamame. I think they're technically young soybeans. They're really great

@Water Needed I think we both commented before watching the whole thing 😂

Tamires Almeida Yea I'm not sure haha (read edited previous comment <3)

@Water Needed she just said it was beans! now I'm confused

Tamires Almeida Im pretty sure they're Sugar Snap Peas! They're really nice with some salt or in a stir fry. :) EDIT; Sorry they are not actually that, they look like them though haha. She says what they are near the end, some sort of bean


im bored <b>*huh, lets be depressed today*</b>

im bored **huh, lets be depressed today**


I just watch this every day that I feel depressed just so I can feel that someones feels the same way. Thank you, Dodie.


I know exactly how this feels. I go through these at this level about once or twice a year. It's usually almost as bad throughout the year though... At least I've started therapy and medication which helped me a ton. I think you described these episodes really well. Thank you Dodie. <3


I've never related to you and felt so close to you than right now. You're so incredible. Thank you! ❤


nothing can help me feel so much less lost and unhappy as this video helps. thank you, dodie


Wow. I’ve never been able to explain what my depression feels like until now. It’s so weird and awesome to know that somebody out there feels nearly exactly the same way you feel. Makes you feel like you aren’t alone.. thank you for this. I woke up very depressed today, but this video eased it up a little bit.


Thanks for making this! Felt like you read out of my mind ❤


I watch this on every one of my bad days and I want to thank you for making it because this is how I feel and it's described so well. On some days even knowing you're understood helps even if it's the smallest bit of feeling better, even if you're a -1 on the scale of 1-10 of happiness, even if I get to a 0, it helps. It's still bad but slightly better and that's small victories. I don't know if I explained this well tho. Most importantly - thank you so so much, Dodie.


I love you dodie. I know you’re feeling okay now, but you’re okay. Everything’s okay. Depression episodes is okay. We’re okay <3


i constantly come back to this video when I'm depressed and it somehow helps a lot. makes me feel not as alone.


I needed this video so much. I feel alone in my feelings when I get depressed, this is helping me feel not so alone. Thank you. This perfectly describes everything i feel


this will always be one of my favorite dodie videos


I can express how good it feels to watch something so honest. To feel like I can be honest. I’ve recently been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and trying to figure it out has been so hard


I relate to this a lot! It's so hard to explain it to other people, they're always like don't be sad, everything is ok, you'll be fine, look at everything you have, do something that cheers you up, etc etc and they don't get it so finding people that feel the same way it's a good thing! thanks for sharing!


I zoned out for a sec and came back to you describing the exact feeling that I was having and it was perfect thank you


I love this so much. I shouldn't say that but I do. When you mentioned the longing that never get satisfied, I really just had a moment of such deep relating to that sentence.


4 months later and I'm rewatching it 💝💖💗💞💘💓💕 love you dodie, thank u soo much for everything! What would I do without you tbh


You made everything clear for me, I knew it wasn’t just my natural state I had been feeling for so long


Thank you for putting words on my feelings ❤


Whenever i try to explain what depression feels like to me i cant. And its really hard to get people who dont get it to get it. This video explained everything perfectly. idk you just said everything i try to say but cant quite find the words to. Thank you so much for making this video and i really hope you have less days like this


Im so glad you shared this, I think in this point I can really sympathize with you (not only in that but whatever). Thank you for the stuff you do. Bye


AMEN, this is the only thing today making me smile while being depressed. It's so accurate and even funny when you can relate


everything you said is so true, i’ve never known how to describe it but this is exactly it.


I’m proud of her. When I’m depressed I can barely even stand up and she’s making a YouTube video.


I always watch this when I’m on bad days and if people don’t understand how I am I get them to watch this .....it always helps


Personally, the hardest part of dealing with depression is watching my family trying their best to cheer me up while I just stand there completely empty and numb


I think Dodie is the most real YouTuber I know, and I love it 🖤🖤


Thank for being you I watch this whenever I'm feeling just as depressed as you in this video and it makes me laugh cause I relate way to much I love you


She gives me hope because she seems like the most positive depressed person I’ve seen😀


It’s so nice to know someone else feels this way


damn, I wish I was able to snack on healthy stuff like that when I’m feeling depressed. I usually end up binging and purging multiple times in a row. fun times


I always come to this video when i feel bad again, it makes me feel like i am not lonely


I originally watched this video when you first put it out and I didn't quite grasp it because I wasn't in a depressed sort of state at the time. I have depression and have for years. For me, it's one of those things where, when you're not depressed you don't know or really remeber how it feels. Then all at once it can hit you. Like you, it comes and goes and lately it's been pretty heavy and gross. Finding this video just opened my eyes and made me realize, it's truly not just me. Everything you said and described is exactly how I feel and how I get when I'm depressed. Thank you for sharing Doddie, I wish I could meet you and hug you and just have a deep conversation with you.


This is precious... i love u for making this bcuz this is how I feel some days (I never knew why tho), this clears things up so much and I love u so much


The way I describe depression (in my experience) is like being unwillingly inside a box and then after a few hours I just noticed I'm outside it and I'm free. Then the next day I wake up back inside the box and I have to wait an unspecific timer for me to miraculously go outside.


For some reason her voice and accent made me feel so happy and comfortable. And she literally didn’t even try and this video was still perfect I’m confused


I can relate to the longing part so much. I love performing and my dream is to make movies. But feeling hopless leaves me unable to even start working on anything really. I feel like I need things, but it feels like I will never get them. It used to feel temporary, but lately it's been my normal. And this is terryfing. I feel numb and just watch everything, I watch life pass me by. And the possibility of ruining my future because of that makes me also anxious. My dream is to get into acting/film school and I don't feel like I have the power in me to even try. This is so annoying.<br>Thank you for sharing that.

I can relate to the longing part so much. I love performing and my dream is to make movies. But feeling hopless leaves me unable to even start working on anything really. I feel like I need things, but it feels like I will never get them. It used to feel temporary, but lately it's been my normal. And this is terryfing. I feel numb and just watch everything, I watch life pass me by. And the possibility of ruining my future because of that makes me also anxious. My dream is to get into acting/film school and I don't feel like I have the power in me to even try. This is so annoying.
Thank you for sharing that.


i relate so much, you literally can feel it


ugh i relate to all of this so much...esp when you talked about derealization feeling like being blind. whenever im dissociated theres that feeling of not actually seeing anything thats in front of you!  horrible sensation, like you can never really Get At whats going on, you cant look hard enough to SEE


i usually can't relate to anyone around me, so its good being able to find comfort on a random person's words. thank you, doodle.


thanks for making this it helps me get through my depression


I understand this so much. I never had the words to articulate this feeling


I feel this 100% but I’m not diagnosed so I don’t feel like I can say I am depressed or depersonalized which only makes me feel worse. On top of that my friends bash me when I’m not happy and that just sinks me down more and it’s just all no bueno but hey at least I have your videos which help a  t o n, thank you for making these💖


I was feeling really bad today and this made me feel immediately better


This is amazing. Also everyone look up Childhood Emotional Neglect (CEN). It numbs you and blocks you from your own emotions, and emotions are what make you feel alive, more connected to yourself/others/the world, what makes the world seem more real and "vivid". I've struggled with both CEN and various dissociative disorders including derealization / depersonalization. The world seems distant, foggy, life is pointless, and people can seem like hallow machines. Can I connect with them? Are they even real? Is this world real? I don't feel connected to anything, not even my own sense of self (I've changed something major about my identity about 5 times in the past year). CEN is at the root of a lot of people's issues, even if you feel you had a happy childhood. It can be extremely subtle, thus the more sensitive you are by nature the more susceptible you are to developing CEN.  It's about receiving a lack of emotions growing up, not about active, direct abuse. But emotional neglect rewires, distorts, and rots your mind and soul. It can be healed though, it just can sometimes be hard to heal what we don't know is wrong. Emotional neglect/trauma is at the root so many problems in society.


This is so brave of you. Sometimes, on worse days, i grow quiet for so long that i forget how to form sentences .


Don’t be sad Dodie<br>We all love youuuuuuuuu

Don’t be sad Dodie
We all love youuuuuuuuu


Thank you for this. It also reminded me I need to take my meds tonight. I was about to go to sleep without taking them


Thank you for making this I’m watching this again because Ive been really <b>really</b> depressed lately again,thank you

Thank you for making this I’m watching this again because Ive been really *really* depressed lately again,thank you


i watch this every time i get a depressive/ anxiety episode and idk dodie putting into words EXACTLY what im feeling?! like i feel so so weird feeling these things (rotting! my brain really does feel rotting) i feel even more down bc im like wtf even are you but then i watch this and just knowing that im not the only one, as sad as it is that anybody else has to go through this, it just makes it... somehow more... medical? i guess? idk it just makes me feel more normal and sometimes i need this. also secrets for the mad always makes me cry when im like this so dodie just THANK YOU


You’ve posted this on my birthday. I feel you girl


“look at her-!” SUMMER YES.

that was literally my first instinct.

i hope you feel good, i love youuuu!


Thank you for your authenticity (and enduring creativity!).


this is pretty much my favorite video on the internet 💛


I adore your hair and this is a fab video 🌻❤


I love you. I know you will never read this comment but I love you. I truly eternally love you, Dodie. You are my idol and inspiration. I love you I love you I love you

♡ 𝕥𝟘𝕩𝕚𝕔𝕓𝕦𝕟𝕟𝕪 ♡


I feel exactly the same!!! Today was a good day and I hope that tomorrow will be good too, but to be honest: I have no idea if I will be able to go to school.....I hope so....

Greetings from Austria and than you for this Video! 😘


I feel this way some days too. There was one day in particular where it was so bad I did nothing to try and fix it.


One thing I caught myself feeling lately is the fear of not being depressed anymore. Which is weird and ridiculous. But when you have depression for so long you kinda get yourself lost in it, like, what is the mental illness and what is just part of my personality, y'know? And despite depression being awfull and I optimistically treating it, I wonder: who am I gonna be without it?


Funny or sad I don't know but your video has made me feel better because I feel depressed right now. I know exactly how you have explained.


I'm surprised at how much I relate to this.


For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

Isaiah 41:13 NIV

My soul longs, yes, faints for the courts of the Lord ; my heart and flesh sing for joy to the living God.

Psalms 84:2 ESV

God can help you through your depression. He helped me through mine. Trust Him. He loves you so much and wants you.


I went to the doctor today and she confirmed that I am depressed. I feel like something has been validated for me but at the same time I'm thinking "shit, now there's no way around it. I have something really wrong with me." It is really not a good feeling. I'm going to a psychiatrist soon to talk to me and see about anti-depressants, but I just feel like shit.


I don't know how many times I've watched this but it makes me realise I am not the only one and ahh dodes ily your so inspiring khvtssbj


So.... the way you explained the feeling of being depressed is honestly a bit scary to me. I feel like I've experienced the same things. Nothing seems real and all you can think of is the past when you had fun and then miss those times and want to be there...And long for those times to be real again, but they can't... I truly love you and your videos.... you are a person I look up to. You deserve far more than the most fancy-est teas in the world and the most joyous times. Keep trying to do things that make you happy. You have thousands of people who support and care about you. You do great, and you can't stop us from saying it.

May your days not always have a raincloud above them, and let some shine brighter than the sun.


You can be proud that you could actually get up, get food and make a video


When i watch i think eh i dont have depression. Then when im having an episode i don't even question it. Its just there.


These videos are helping me so much! Oh god i'm so sad right now...


I miss being a lil kid those were my happy moments.


I am drunk watching this and... the only thing that's hitting me is the fact that you've editted this to be beautiful still.... this is you... but it's still editted to be the better doddie... and I love it... Even though you are MESSED UP ... you still are able to fix it... to make a video about it... I'd love to do that one day...


"I'll go outside and I'll just feel hopeless. And like well this is shit. I don't want to be out when it's nice and feel nothing. I'll go back in!" Mood 2018 -Naila


I have depression, and a lot of the time I feel like I can <del>almost</del> relax, but there’s this thing, like this small gap that I always feel in my chest, and the fact that it’s always there means that I’m never happy. That’s the only way I can describe this, and still nobody gets it

I have depression, and a lot of the time I feel like I can -almost- relax, but there’s this thing, like this small gap that I always feel in my chest, and the fact that it’s always there means that I’m never happy. That’s the only way I can describe this, and still nobody gets it


Thank you so much for making this video!!!


I watch Rick & Morty when I'm depressed, too.


For all of you guys saying that's not "real depression" please take into consideration that depression is different for every single person. Please don't judge someone else's depression based on your own. Just shhh


i love you for being so sincere, but i'm so sad you have to deal with that bullsh*t


Thank you so much. I relate so much. Thank you


I didn’t have a ride to school today so I couldn’t go. It’s okay though because I really needed a break because I woke up and knew I was depressed. I’m very glad I got to have a free day and I’m not sure why but watching this makes me feel better when I feel like this.


This was the first video of Dodie I ever watched


I feel like you on your off day is me on a normal day. Which is kinda sad but I do try to find something to pick me up or help me feel better. Today wasn't one of those days so I searched for this video to see what it's like from another point of view. But even this wasn't the help needed. I have called hotlines and police stations looking for more help other than "suicide is not the answer" I have tried that and have come to that realization on my own but I feel down all the time because I am constantly getting picked on in my family. I am 27 and feel like I am not going to go anywhere or do anything important because I have only known this role of being the scapegoat or the "problem". All in all thank you for showing me another point of view.


This sounds rly dumb but whenever I’m feeling vry depressed and shitty I always just hear dodie’s voice when she’s like “GHHHH IM SO DEPRESSDDDD” in this vid and tbh same


Thx for making this when you were explaining how you feel when you know your depressed I  know how you feel cause I also do the same things


Coming back to this video when I feel down


Omg this is the first video I've watch and she's sooo adorable


I don't feel like living when I'm depressed.. no food! no sleep! no self-love! I just stay in my bed doing nthg and crying with no reason sometimes.. words can't describe more so have a nice day y'all


I'm feeling like this, now I feel something. Thanks :o, I feel something!


almost everyday I get these 'attacks' is what I call them...but I'm so unsure of what they are, I could get them at the most random times I just feel numb I feel like someone just pressed the 'shut down' button I feel so alone and like I don't wanna do anything sometimes...actually a lot of times I get them at school & when people ask me why I'm so sad I tell them "I'm fine, just a little tired" because I don't know how to explain it it's so hard, and this comment probably makes no sense but as I said I don't know how to explain it. (I know no one has the time to read this, but it just feels a bit better to put my feelings into words.)


I'm hoping you live happily ever after... if you love food plz come to Malaysian...


dear Dodie Clark, this is gonna be a good day and here's why


when you have depression sometimes you feel like you have an empty soul .. there is noting you can do and there is noting to cheer you up .. the only way for it to move on no matter what (copping with it)l


Depression is long moment sometimes even years,but please not one day


Feeling this way right now. Felt this way for forever..don’t know if it’s gonna get better and I’m thinking maybe it’s just my personality.


this is how i am all the time only i have way less energy


i relate a lot to this (seriously like the accuracy is weird) but i guess i don't have the visual part


It is bad that I feel like this all the time?


ive never related to something more in my entire life


LITERALLY ME DEFINED IN A VIDEO THIS IS SO REASSURING


So I know this video is a lil on the older side, but to everyone who drops by: what do you do for someone who’s depressed??


You could try fingerpainting. ..idk seeing lots of colours blend together gives me so much happiness... btw I'm just like you  .  Much love.


oh, that came at the perfect timing!!!!!


What fucks me up about depression is the constant overthinking, in those days I just want my brain to be stupid, to not thinking about anything but of course it is impossible.


If what she said in the video is depression... then I have been depressed for 2 months. Which is weird because my life is okay right now...


But depression isn't something that just comes and goes. You said you're depressed "today" but it doesn't work that way. Depression lasts at least 2 solid weeks. Otherwise it is just sadness.


this is the best video on this topic i have ever seen


I only got out of bed at 7h30PM today and my anxiety as at an all-time high. Blegh... and I'm bein forced to spend the weekend away from home, sharing a house with people I don't even freaking know. Kill me now.


Although I can’t relate to this 100% I came here for a reason
Sometimes my mind just makes up a perfect storm and when something minor that isn’t even that bad happens to me, I loose it. All the chemicals and emotions along with the fear and anxiety, I just go down into a black hole and I can’t get out one thought will lead to another until I pull out the worst in me and I go into a depressive phase where I just think everything is my fault and my life doesn’t have a purpose and nothing seems okay.

I don’t even know what I’m saying goodnight guys

Although I can’t relate to this 100% I came here for a reason
Sometimes my mind just makes up a perfect storm and when something minor that isn’t even that bad happens to me, I loose it. All the chemicals and emotions along with the fear and anxiety, I just go down into a black hole and I _can’t get out_ one thought will lead to another until I pull out the worst in me and I go into a depressive phase where I just think everything is my fault and my life doesn’t have a purpose and nothing seems okay.

I don’t even know what I’m saying goodnight guys

I’m back not cause I’m depressed but because I wanted to know what kind of beans she was eating cause they looked really good in this vid. I don’t rlly get depressed anymore thank god. This is character development lol

Oh hey I'm back again. I think I figured something out; I don't have depression, because on the days where I'm depressed there is a cause for it and I <i>know</i> why I feel this way.

Oh hey I'm back again. I think I figured something out; I don't have depression, because on the days where I'm depressed there is a cause for it and I _know_ why I feel this way.

Hey I'm back, you know what that means 😛☺♥💋☝😝💕🙏


oh nice. edamame are my go-to depression snack

it's fucking sad im back here, a year later, still depressed.
maybe a little more depressed this time.
but she put it into words. its comforting to know someone else feels the same way that i do. i truly love dodie.


“I am depressed today”
Me: cries cause dodie deserves to be happy

Next video suggested
“Daniel and depression”
me: cries cause dan is too special to be sad

if Phil comes out with a depression video I swear to god imma lose it

“I am depressed today”
Me: *cries cause dodie deserves to be happy*

Next video suggested
“Daniel and depression”
me: *cries cause dan is too special to be sad*

if Phil comes out with a depression video I swear to god imma lose it


I don't think i have depression or anxiety or any mental illnes like this.
I have a mixture of a few of them though.
There are days when i feel very close to what you describe here. One day i had a really bad day when this mixed with anxiety and stress and i spent hours crying feeling i am useless, worthless, know nothing, can't do anything properly, have no skills at anything.
Some days i feel perfectly normal. No sunshine any rainbows but also no storms and wind. Just a day. Calm.
Then i have confusing days. I go through so many moodswings i don't even know who i am at the end of the day. Usually when i wake up feeling really good, give it an hour or two and i'll be trying not to cry without a reason.
I have a few blocks(as i call them) in my mind. Those are things that i just try to avoid at any cost. For example, i start crying easily without a slight reason. The thing is, that i absolutely can't stand crying in front of people. That's a block fot me. My family knows it and we've made a rule that they won't mention when they see i'm about to cry. That really helps me keep the tears inside and feel less worthles. But when someone mentions it i just go into hysteria and start screaming at them. I have little to no control over this.
The crying has been a big problem for me. The thing is anytime i feel slightly uncomfortable or i don't understand something i become super desperate which leads to tears. This is preventing me from getting angry. I always start crying out of desperation before i get to feel anger. The problem is, everybody needs to vent anger sometimes. I don't get to. I'm terrified it's just building up in me and i'm a timed bomb now. I belive that this might be why i break into hysterical screaming.

Btw i recomend everyone, even those who feel good to write down something like i did. Like a summary of your mental state. It really helps you put things into perspective because you need to find a way to understanding them before you can put it into words that other people would understand.<br>Do not remind yourself of your mental state every day. Just once sum it up and it might help you find a way to cope with it or understand yourself (which makes you feel better)

Btw i recomend everyone, even those who feel good to write down something like i did. Like a summary of your mental state. It really helps you put things into perspective because you need to find a way to understanding them before you can put it into words that other people would understand.
Do not remind yourself of your mental state every day. Just once sum it up and it might help you find a way to cope with it or understand yourself (which makes you feel better)


I wish i could allow myself to treat myself softly and kindly but nope


@me when I don’t have my antidepressants


i love your video but you're either depressed in general or you're having a bad day. but you're not 'depressed today'.

anna lena sometimes people have depressive episodes
Not everyone's depression is the same
Sometimes with depressions, some days are a lot worse than others


I need to show this to people because Im just so bad at explaining this.


this made me cry, I'm 12 and I feel like I'm slowly getting depression, and I'm scared like hell, I should be enjoying my fricking childhood, yet I get panic attacks and cry myself to sleep, it sucks it really sucks. my best friend is parting away because she found another friend who (funnily enough was our enemy and is now my bully) my ex best friend is wanting to become my friends again and I'm having social problems. my teacher chose me as a main character of a play and I can't say my lines whitout stuttering even when I'm alone let alone in a stage. I've been fighting with my mom a lot and ah I hate life a lot now.

Hoang Thi Minh Anh oh, its not serious to THAT point, thank god. also thsnks fpr your concern, i appreciate it

Hoang Thi Minh Anh oh, its not serious to THAT point, thank god. also thsnks fpr your concern, i appreciate it

just nevermind, i can tell that's you felt better when you talked to the bully :)<br>At least, you make a step forward and i'm so glad that happened !!!

just nevermind, i can tell that's you felt better when you talked to the bully :)
At least, you make a step forward and i'm so glad that happened !!!

I just wonder if they could help, the bully

I just wonder if they could help, the bully

another update, I talked with my best friend, she explained that she felt like I didn't care for her and felt hurt. I also talked to my bully I told her please stop and stuff and she explained that she was jealous that I've got friends and she's lonely and yada yada. I'm trying to fix things and so far its working slightly. the sadness still blows over sometimes, but I'm better. thank you everyone for your advice and help! ❤

have you try to get help from the police?

have you try to get help from the police?

the bullying got worse and I can't enjoy my hobbies anymore, or anything really.

the bullying got worse and I can't enjoy my hobbies anymore, or anything really.

i am a miserable slytherin what happened??!!

i am a miserable slytherin what happened??!!

update,, things took a turn for the worse :))

update,, things took a turn for the worse :))

Keep your head up, you won't know what happen, that moment when you break down is when depression win.
I know it's hard, my fifteen ia a mess cause depresion. So does every ages that been through depressed.
You can't get up and the thing is i believe in you. You will see a whole new you after this.
Just prove those people that make you down, they are all wrong, you're precious person (yeah, i'm not know you but you know you know that yourself is precious)

Lord Voldemort no thanks voldy moldy, even tho I'm a Slytherin I ain't a death eater

Lord Voldemort no thanks voldy moldy, even tho I'm a Slytherin I ain't a death eater

i am a miserable slytherin same here, but I hope we can live through it

i am a miserable slytherin same here, but I hope we can live through it

i am a miserable slytherin I hope you feel better soon 😘 if you need to talk you can join me and my death eaters. We have cookies 🍪🍪

i am a miserable slytherin I hope you feel better soon 😘 if you need to talk you can join me and my death eaters. We have cookies 🍪🍪

maybe your friends could help you and you just don't know it?

maybe your friends could help you and you just don't know it?

i am so sorry :( i really really hope everything turns up and remember that you are cared for. (p.s. i love your profile pic :) scott the noodle is amazing)

Well, I'm kinda through this at the moment. They're days where I just feel like I don't matter and there's no point for me to be here but the way I cope is by just escaping into another by watching TV shows, anime, youtube, reading books, manga literally any form of escapism. Maybe that would work for you. I've also made some great friends due to these things as well.

(i am a miserable slytherin) hey!! it's okay! you're only twelve! 😊 I had this exact same problem when I was twelve and now I'm 16 and believe me, whatever it is that you're going through won't last a long time like you might think it will!!
talk to the friend who wants to be your friend again. Don't avoid them! If they really care about you, they'll do something about that bully of yours 😊 chin up

(i am a miserable slytherin) hey!! it's okay! you're only twelve! 😊 I had this exact same problem when I was twelve and now I'm 16 and believe me, whatever it is that you're going through *won't* last a long time like you might think it will!!
talk to the friend who wants to be your friend again. Don't avoid them! If they really care about you, they'll do something about that bully of yours 😊 chin up

i am a miserable slytherin :( so sad for someone has bestfriend but they feel like they weren't there even though they did

i am a miserable slytherin :( so sad for someone has bestfriend but they feel like they weren't there even though they did

Almost the same thing happened to me in 6th grade. My two best friends started hanging out without me and i felt alone. I'm not gonna try and give you advice bc idk the whole situation but when i started feeling depressed i didn't get help and everything in my life suffered. I totally shut down, I wouldn't go anywhere, post anything, my grades dropped. Thankfully, my mom cared enough to notice and get me diagnosed. It didn't make me completely better but i made new friends, and got everything back on track. It does get better. its only been 4 years but im happy where i am.

i am a miserable slytherin okay but i'm 12 too and i feel exactly the same. i've been feeling like this for a while. it's just a sudden sadness and a feeling of not wanting to do anything, not seeing the point of it. it probably is something about changes and shit, but it is really overwhelming. just, know that you're not alone going through this. let's just hope it goes away as soon as possible. and yeah, get as much help as possible, don't got through this alone.

Keegan thank you so much, that's great idea.

Keegan thank you so much, that's great idea.

hey, that must suck and i feel you from experience. i aint no therapist, but all i can say is keep it objective. dont let yourself feel like you are slowly digging yourself into a hole, because the further you dig the less you can see. i know this sounds kinda cheesy and futile, but believe me when i say it works. my hole was about 5 years deep, and i'm fourteen, but the euphoria i felt when i learnt to change my perspective is something everyone should feel one day. :))

I understand that it might not be depression that I'm going through now, but I've noticed that about a few months ago I would just feel overwhelming sadness for a couple of hours and then it just goes away every once in a while and now it happens more often

i am a miserable slytherin yeh okay, therapists help. talking to people helps . I'm 12 too, but I fortunately don't suffer from depression. however, I do know the effect it has on people. trust me, instead of self-diagnosing yourself, get professional help

Keep fighting I know it's not easy but it will be worth it <3 I've suffered from depression you just have to keep going.  Get help if you need to, it's okay to ask for help!  Keep fighting <3

i am a miserable slytherin Aw this honestly describes exactly how I felt at around 12-13 (I'm turning 15 in the beginning of April). I remember I would cry myself to sleep and in the shower I would collapse on the floor and just shatter. I had moved around a lot as a kid plus was homeschooled so I lost a lot of friends so I was incredibly painfully lonely. My stomach hurt because I just wanted a friend. And I didn't (still don't tbh) have the best relationship with my mom either). I hated myself I hated my life and I was cast as the lead in my first play since I was maybe 8 and would have panic attacks every day before rehearsal. It hurts. It's like being stabbed in chest over and over again with your own mind. But listen to me right now... it's been about a year since the last time I felt like that because of my mental health. I've had relapses of course, which is normal, but I don't cry myself to sleep because I hate myself. I went to this theatre camp and I made so many amazing wonderful friends that I text to this day. And although I wasn't the lead this time, I managed to stand on that stage and successfully immerse myself in my character. Because you'd think being the lead in a play is trying to get everything perfectly, but it's not. If you mess up your lines, no one else knows. For all they know, you did that on purpose. What matters is that you keep going and do what your character would do. It's the same with real life. No one knows if you mess up ok because you were perfectly cast in your role for life. If you believe in a director, whether that's a God or the universe or anything, you need to trust it because the director always knows what they're doing. I'm doing my third play since that first one with panic attacks, and although I'm not the lead, I am a main character. I don't cry or panic anymore with every rehearsal. Quite the opposite actually. I leave that rehearsal with the biggest smile on my face while I dance and sing to the songs in the play. Trust me when I say it gets better. You won't feel this way forever. I'll be supporting you through all of that. You are good enough. Your feelings are valid and real. You don't deserve those feelings. But you're strong and brave for dealing with them. You'll get through.

Panic attacks are the worst! Could you try seeing someone to help?

Panic attacks are the worst! Could you try seeing someone to help?

I remember when I was twelve, I had just switched schools, so I'd lost all my old friends and was struggling to make new ones. I had three friends total, but I didn't like them very much back then, because they were always fighting and we didn't fit in with the rest of the class. Due to this, I couldn't fall asleep at night because I kept myself up with obsessive compulsive behaviour (I've never been officially diagnosed with OCD, but that's the best way I can describe it) and I would often start shaking heavily. It got to a point where I cried at least once a week and I felt terrible almost all the time. I was so scared that I'd never be happy again.

But then I went to a therapist, I worked through that obsessive compulsive behaviour and now it doesn't bother me anymore. :) I also have quite a large group of friends now and we never fight with each other, we usually praise each other behind each other's backs. So don't worry, you'll definitely be happy again! I can't tell whether you have depression, but even if you do, you definitely won't feel like this forever, okay? I would advise you to see a therapist if you aren't seeing one yet, because whether you have depression or not, that can be so helpful, especially when you're also struggling with panic attacks.

i am a miserable slytherin kind of sounds like me around that age. never went to a doctor to check wether I actually have depression (it wouldn't be too odd, my brother actually has some kind of depression. He doesn't talk about it so I don't know what kind but he's seeing a therapist for it) but I honestly feel like it got better. maybe it was just hormones? maybe I was in a bad situation and just felt really alone? (I've never been close to friends and family) just stick through it. don't panic about missing out on things!! you'we still at the beginning of your teens, you're not wasting your life. just keep calm and it's gonna be okay

I kinda felt like this at your age and I have only one advice: tell someone. When I was younger I felt bad because of everything and would also cry to my sleep and feel terrible everyday, but I would lie to people and say I was okay. And doing this messed me up so much, today I just can't talk to people, because I got used to hiding things. So talk. Tell your friends, your parents, siblings (if you have any), your teacher, anyone. Just don't shut it down by keeping it to yourself.

thank you so much for the people above, I know it will get better and I know none of it will matter in a few months and such, but in the present I feel so shitty, I try to think and. be like okay listen you'll get better, get your stuff together.

thank god I don't feel suicidal, its just feeling constantly tired and not wanting to do anything,  NOT procrastinating just lost interest in life

thank god I don't feel suicidal, its just feeling constantly tired and not wanting to do anything,  NOT procrastinating just lost interest in life

Severus Snape professor I've felt like this for a long time

Severus Snape professor I've felt like this for a long time

this is completely unrelated to your actual comment but

DO I SEE A FELLOW PENTAHOLIC OR IS IT JUST ME?

this is completely unrelated to your actual comment but

DO I SEE A FELLOW PENTAHOLIC OR IS IT JUST ME?

dont worry youre not getting depression its just bc youre going into the teenager state and your hormones are messing up your way of looking at things in life dont worry almost the exact same thing happened to me when i was about 13 and i wouldnt cry i ould just lie on my bed throughout the night every night because i didnt really feel like closing my eyes

Dalia Ahmed (or anyone else who is young, depressed, and wants help please read this whole thing is long and it sounds sad at first, but not at the end. I really want to help) I can understand how you feel. I am 15 years old and I struggle with depression and anxiety. A lot of people I have talked to about depression simply call it "teenage angst". They don't realize though that I've felt this way since I was 9 and I am officially diagnosed with it. My dad is a doctor he knows I had symptoms and that depression is very common. So know that yes, you are very young to feel this way, but other people have felt the same way at the same age. Also, at the age of 12, your social life starts to change dramatically. I've lost friends and gained new friends. But know that if someone decides to hurt you emotional or physically in any way, that they are not worth your time. People make mistakes, their mistake was leaving you. If you feel lost and like nobody supports your or feels the same way, know that your have worth and are not alone on this journey. The first thing you need to do is push yourself to find someone you are comfortable talking to, then ASK FOR HELP. Even if it's not depression and it actually is just hormones, ask someone for advice on just how to handle properly. Every adult has been a teenager before and can relate. But If you feel like you are depressed you need to fix it. Its scary. But I asked for help and everything is so much better than I thought it would ever be. PLEASE REMEMER: You are important. you are supported. please find help because it WILL help. And know that you can get through this. There is know cure for depression, but that doesn't mean that you don't have the power to fight it. You are loved, supported, and not alone. Stay alive and don't hurt yourself. People care. I care.That was long but I've learned to live life happy since I was 9 and I hope this helps anyone who reads this. : )

Dalia Ahmed same here...I'm 13 and am siverely bullied. I have anxiety attacks and it's so scary. I'm going to counselling and therapy and stuff. I feel dead inside. I'm losing all hope and u just don't know anymore

when i was 13 i got depressed 4 real and i basically finished junior high school depressed. i know there are bad, dark, sad, awful disgusting days where you feel like nothing is ever gonna get better, i´ve been there, i was there for two years. but things do change. i'm 16 now and looking back i can really see that all that shit that i was so frightened about,,, it literally means nothing now. it's very hard going through depression when you are so young, and yes it feels like you are wasting your time, like it is running out and in the future your childhood memories will make you want to throw up. but i can assure you, and though it sounds kinda cheesy, the best is yet to come, things get better, and someday you will notice that the sad is gone, and it no longer is part of your body and your mind and your soul, and you will laugh more, and you'll do things that will make you feel like you are here for a reason. i didn't believe in this stuff, i really used to deny this thought of me being okay. but time can cure some stuff, and i really hope you pee the sadness away very soon, focus on the good things, and maybe you think there are none, but there are!!!! maybe hidden! but they'll come!!!! okay okayyy you'll be fine, i love you and i want you to get better.

Dalia Ahmed Hey there, sweetie. It sounds like your panic attacks are more connected to anxiety. What do you think about getting ahead of your issues and going to get some professional help? Maybe you can speak with your school counselor? If you don't really like how your session goes, don't give up. Find ANOTHER counselor. Ask for a recommendation from a teacher or your parents.

If you feel like you're going somewhere you don't want to go emotionally, you can stop that journey and turn it towards a different direction. YOU have that power. All you have to do is know how to use it. Good luck!

i'm 14 and i've been just like that for 2 years. i've realized that it has been easier to not have social interactions with people when you are feeling depressed. experiment with it and you will find a thing to do that will make it slightly easier.

Stay Alive

Dalia Ahmed u won't believe me now, but in a few months none of it will matter.

Dalia Ahmed u won't believe me now, but in a few months none of it will matter.

Dalia Ahmed I was like you when I was your age and honestly  not much has changed since for me but I can tell you that it's normal for kids around your age to get depressed. you're not alone. Find friends that make you happy and motivate you to be the best version of yourself. Don't get caught up in toxic environments because you'll regret it later.

Tell your mom what's going on. These exact words and how it makes you feel

Tell your mom what's going on. These exact words and how it makes you feel

The number one thing to remember is that you haven't even come close to starting life, there is so much left in life. I'm 21 and I haven't started life yet.

The number one thing to remember is that you haven't even come close to starting life, there is so much left in life. I'm 21 and I haven't started life yet.

Dalia Ahmed a lot of young people are experiencing depression and anxiety and thst is including me. Im eleven and i feel like giving up but theres a lot of people there for you and just think positive. good luck!

Hey darling, remember that it might be just your hormones coming up as you're going into puberty. But it's good if you'd talk to someone. Cause at your age it's hard to know where a grumpy teen mood ends and depression starts. And well, talking always helps:)<br>Stay strong!

Hey darling, remember that it might be just your hormones coming up as you're going into puberty. But it's good if you'd talk to someone. Cause at your age it's hard to know where a grumpy teen mood ends and depression starts. And well, talking always helps:)
Stay strong!

Dalia Ahmed you're profile pic goals, and so life goals, you can retire now xd

Dalia Ahmed you're profile pic goals, and so life goals, you can retire now xd

It's normal for 12 year olds to feel upset. When I was that age I thought I had depression. It went away, so I guess I didn't.

It's normal for 12 year olds to feel upset. When I was that age I thought I had depression. It went away, so I guess I didn't.

"I don't think I can tell my parents either, thanks peeps. you're the best but my parents are judgemental af"

STOP, dont think like this, never, ever, dont, stop, right now.
Please talk to your parents and try to get a therapist or some kind of help, for the love of god.
Btw this is coming from a 16 year old that experienced a "closet" (hidden) depression from ages 9 to 15, suicidal at 10, So I believe I know a thing or two about hidding depression, it is NEVER,ever a good idea to try and deal with a mental illness yourself (not saying you have one) or any type of mental stress, you're not a trained professional in dealing with these kind of problem nor anyone online is trust worthy to listen to 100%, including myself you can choose to not trust what I am saying, however if you do, then please tell your parents, becuase if only I spoke at age 9 my depression wouldn't have lasted 6 years, because I didn't speak it lasted to long, I was my own "therapist" and caused more damage than actually helping myself for about 5 years, seeing a professional help will greatly help you, so please, seek help, talk to your parents, explain them you're problem.

I don't think I can tell my parents either, thanks peeps. you're the best but my parents are judgemental af

I don't think I can tell my parents either, thanks peeps. you're the best but my parents are judgemental af

Tamara Williams internet makes me happy, my frienda are better than the friends I have irl

Tamara Williams internet makes me happy, my frienda are better than the friends I have irl

please go and see a doctor about this: I had depression a while back and I just didn't realise that it wasn't normal to constantly feel that way so I didn't get the help I needed... after I went to the doctors and had an action plan, everything immediately started getting better. if you don't feel 100%, you deserve to get help to feel great again!!x

Dalia Ahmed Friendship thing: Almost same thing for me. STAY STRONG FREN! 😊

Dalia Ahmed Friendship thing: Almost same thing for me. STAY STRONG FREN! 😊

it'll be okay! i know it doesn't seem like that now, but push on through and there will be light. I was in your situation at that age, not to devalue your emotions but puberty is dang hard. So don't be scared that you have depression, you're obviously going through a very tough time right now and your body and mind is reacting accordingly. Remember there is no evidence that this will last! Maybe talk to your teacher about the play if you can, there is no shame in being uncomfortable on stage! They are there to help you, as is your mom even though you've been fighting. Please try and talk to someone about how you're feeling and keep going my love xxx

Dalia Ahmed you should probably spend less time on the internet

Dalia Ahmed you should probably spend less time on the internet

Hi sweetheart! Don't be afraid, I was there when I was your age too. Deep breath, stay calm... think about every little things that make life so beautiful. Sun is out, you are able to walk, to talk, to see. You are here. Feel blessed for that. If you feel so terrible, talk to your parents, go to a terapist... it's really useful. My terapist saved me life! I'm 27 now, I didn't have an easy and fricking childhood or teenage years BUT I'm who I am today because of that, and I'm grateful for that too. A big hug to you! Seek for help if you need it!

Please seek some help - go to a counselor at school or your doctor. Depression is very common and there are tools available to you to help you get through this difficult time! Being your age can really suck, but as a 20 year old who was depressed as a young teen I just want I express how important it is that you not attempt to go through any of this alone. It won't work and it's not worth it. Find a healthy therapeutic outlet and talk to a professional. Best of luck

Dalia Ahmed try to keep going,      try to enjoy little things even if it doesn't work most of the time
I think a lot that while I want something to be over already, I don't want my time to rush away as well. If you find something you enjoy for yourself between the horrible things, I think it helps.
Honestly I can see how overwhelming your problems are. You can do it and they will pass, there will be new things that make life hard but you will get better at handling them until there will be no more tears.
I discovered that most of my nights crying were because I valued opinions of others about me more than my own opinion. They still occur but the realization helped me? I know every situation is different, but maybe it will help you too


lol now I what depression is feels like and now I realize I have it

Rachel Elizabeth Lovegood don’t self diagnose


I have this every day.i feel bad and not ok.


Relatable<br>I'm scared that may I won't be able to go back again. 😔😔😔😔

Relatable
I'm scared that may I won't be able to go back again. 😔😔😔😔


are dodie and dan like distant cousins or something cause thEYRE SO SIMILAR


I just realized my Queen was watching Rick and Morty


I'm rarely depressed, but when I am, I'm tired, hungry, tired, sad, aching in my stomach and chest, and I don't have motivation to do anything that I find fun. Also, Im tired when I'm depressed. One day of depression caused me to find reading not very fun. Whyy. Mine is more of a physical depression than a mental depression...


I completly agree in what or how she isexplaining this feeling of depression but i think that she just shouldnt only talk about how it feel bad but show or do something to cope with it and help others to get out of that state..i make videos for people who dont know what it is and want to learn in how to live a live happier with a good mental health and also my videos are for those who struggle with any mental health issue.... through vlogs i can make u smile or through a talking video i can teach u something that i have learned .... sooo keep it up but use your voice to help people not unly understand but to get off a depression. loves and kisses


when I feel like I am sad I take off my pants and get under a blanket eat ice cream and if that dose not work get in the shower and cry then get out dress but don’t put your pants on


Congratulations, keep it up! We're all here for you and your journey.


What r you eating dodie, looks healthy. Is it?


GO ON DRUGS! I'm amazed it's taken you so long. I'm on Sertraline and honest to god I've never felt better and I totally understand the whole feeling blind thing- and drugs sort that out entirely!!! You will look back on these videos and laugh, honestly!

I was worried you meant drugs like cocaine and stuff, thankfully you didn't mean that. xD

Don't dismiss them entirely though. There's SO MANY individual and combos of drugs and everyone's chemistry is different. Don't let your bad experience deter you.

Ah see, Sertraline had the opposite effect. It was horrible and made everything worse, and I functioned even less. Works for some, deffffinitely doesn't work for others :P It's always worth a trial run I suppose. I imagine when it does work it's great.

I'm on sertraline 125mg and propanolol 40mg, they are helping me out to a point but I'm still really struggling with leaving my house and my feelings and basic function. What dosage are you on?

Cassie Leigh James yea I'm on Zoloft(?i think) and so far it has sorta been helping at least more than the other pills I've had but regardless u should try meds because even though it doesn't fix everything but it makes things more manageable:,)

Meds helped me at some point, then didn't. So, yeah, some people need meds, some don't. Some meds work on certain people, some don't. In my experience, meds don't do all the work. They help to a certain point, but you always have to work to sort out your stuff.

yes!! i agree. they can definitely be super helpful but not necessarily. they're not a cure, but if they can help you get through everyday life, that's a fantastic thing!

to those saying drugs don't do anything: stop. Drugs may be Dodie's (or others reading these comments!) answer, as they were mine. If they don't work, then that is fine, but THEY MIGHT. don't try and put people off trying an important avenue of treatment x

im on sertraline for anxiety snd its amazing!!!

How on earth can you say that. Oh my god. I have ADHD. And I hate my drugs. It's like living in a shell. I think of something but my body does something else. I've stopped taking drugs and they're better. My brother has depression and he hates the fact he has to take drugs in the morning. NEVER say useless shit like thay

not necessarily, drugs don't work for everyone


can someone help me?
first of all, im 11, i dont know if this is to do with hormones or something but i need help

i dont think the way im feeling is normal, if i do anything wrong or bad, i literally beat myself up for it, i feel so bad and guilty if i get, or do something wrong. today
its not only that, some days i feel completely empty, nothing but sadness, my favorite bands like panic! at the disco and mcr dont help, paramore and all time low dont help, fall out boy and the brobecks dont help, neither do yellowcard and blink-182, not even twenty one pilots. it feels like im going on and on and on in my own thoughts and it wont stop, i feel like i never do anything right and im a waste of a life, i feel like if i never existed id never would have to feel this way and if i were nothingness, i wouldnt have emotions so i couldnt be sad. im ugly, im self-consious and im even embarrassed of my sexuality: bi. theres no point in living life, going to school, going to university, getting a job and then dying, eventually we'll all be dead and we'll all be forgotten.  i cant have normal conversations with people without regretting everything i say, because i think i come off as i think everything is about me, even online, and im always chosen before people. looking up to people and having idols is hard, because i realise that they're better than me in every single aspect and are talented enough to lead a successful life, which i feel i cant do, i have no hobbies that im good at - im a disgraceful ukulele player (even after 6 months) according to my 15 year old brother, who is doing music for gcse's and is in a band, im a bad artist - turns out it stresses me even more because i cant do anything right, school is bad, i cant cook, i cant play sports because my co-ordination is bad and i have asthma, i cant dance and my anxiety is so bad i could never perform infront of people, i cant act, because im too shy, i cant even look after my hamsters properly. i dont want to live a wasted life, i dont want to be boring. but here i am, sitting infront of a computer screen in search of something that can make me feel better. my head hurts all the time because all i do is overthink and i think and think and think and i cant get myself out of the hole i have dug myself into. im so confused and sad all the time and i question reality and if this is all in my head and it never ever stops. smiling feels wrong and takes effort and im trapped inside my head and i cant just sit back and relax and relapse again because im trying so desperately hard to get out of my mind. i feel so spaced out from everything and anything and it doesnt even seem like my body belongs to me anymore, it feels like im just controlling it and its like a numb feeling but so terrifying. like dodie described, i feel like im longing for something, but im not getting it, my head feels black and it feels very physical. nothing feels real
i dont even feel things, things that usually make me laugh just makes me.. i dont even know.. i feel bored but like i deserve that, but what did i do wrong? everything. Remember that time where you fucked up so badly!!! why does it all come back when i feel as shit as this
why cant i just not feel emptiness while my head is about to burst and just enjoy the tiny and insignificant life im living
i dont have the courage to talk to my family about this, i probably never will, they take depression as sadness because everyone uses it as a daily word and if i was depressed my parents would just say to ''be happy' but how the fuck am i supposed to be happy when my mind wants me to not be

honestly, its worrying how i can relate to dodie, its even more worrying how i have so much more to say, worrying how i cant put this into words

if anyone reads it this far, thankyou, i apologise for wasting your time on something that you'll forget about in the next 24 hours

You need to speak to someone. A counselor, a parent, a grandparent, etc. Please, get help. You aren't crazy. This sounds like depression.


I know this is off topic but those green beans sound and look good but I hate green beans


You're not depressed, you just need a guy to make you feel like a woman again.


depressed today?<br>depression is not for a day

depressed today?
depression is not for a day


I just feel so lost. But I never acknowledge it because I feel like if I say I’m depressed, it’s disrespectful to people who are going through worse situations. I don’t have any real world problems. My family is pretty ok. My friends are pretty ok. But I feel like there isn’t a point in anything. I have to give an important exam in a month and I am not prepared, but I don’t even want to be prepared because what is the point. I can’t get anything done. I’m a slightly above average person who has slightly above average achievements and that’s all my life will ever be.


If this is where someone’s normal brain should be at then where is mine


I have bad days most of the time but sometimes I have a good day and I feel like I shouldn’t be able to have those good days I feel guilty for having a good day and I have no idea why

I agree. I swear, everytime I catch myself laughing I feel guilty for it, even though most of the time I feel pretty shit.


nunjoon And so does using sensible ways.

Jessica is a Messica That's a bit mean but yeah.

thats like saying vines cure depression lol

It depends on where you put the bananas. : /


pet i cried over a kfc i think ive got it worse


This is EXACTLY how I feel and it sucks so much. I absolutely hate it, but hating it isn’t going to help. My parents won’t take me to a therapist and I’ve considered hurting myself before. I don’t want to die, but I just want to disappear sometimes. Sometimes I just feel so empty and I feel like nothing matters. It is such a horrible feeling and I wish so much that it would go away. Anyone dealing with depression and/or any other mental disorder, please talk to a trusted adult to get help and don’t make the same mistakes I’m making. You’re amazing!! ❤


I'm depressed today, it's my birthday and literally no one gives a fuck. I even woke up and said "oh it's my birthday" it just doesn't feel the same anymore, people don't even acknowledge the fact that it's my birthday anymore. My mum has this shit job that works her from 4:30am-8:30pm so i didn't even see her when i woke up, like i use too. I went to school and i had no one to go around with,  my friends were not there for me and i just want to cry. Also this girl who i had fallen out with, decided to ignore me and block me out. but today, she wishes me a happy birthday. i should be happy and thankful, but I'm not... because of the fact she ignored me all this time but then wishes me a happy birthday.  I hate my life and i have no idea what I'm doing anymore, people ask me what are you going to do after sixth form and i really haven't got a clue. I feel like I'm just here for the ride. Anyways rant over.

sophie leanne thats me for all my birthdays (つд⊂)ｴｰﾝ its tough

sophie leanne thats me for all my birthdays (つд⊂)ｴｰﾝ its tough

i cried the day i turned 14 q few days ago, your not by yourself

i cried the day i turned 14 q few days ago, your not by yourself

That freaking sucks. I honestly relate to that story too much. Happy Birthday, girl! Stay strong xoxo

sophie leanne Happy birthday!! Everything's gonna be okay. Sending virtual hugggg! xx

sophie leanne it's a few days late, but you know what? Birthdays are the most important day of your life, and next birthday, just take the time so not worry about the future or the past or anything stressful, just focus on your wellbeing. Also, happy belated birthday, here's a little emoji cake, sorry it's not the real thing, but I don't know where you live. 🎂. Blow you the candles, hope your wish comes true

sophie leanne Im late but happy birthday! And everything will be fine in time, promise🤞🏼 always try to stay positive❤

My birthday is in 2 days and I'm depressed. I dont want to wake up that day because I know its gonna suck and Im gonna be reminded of how excited I was before on my past birthdays. I dno.

sophie leanne happy birthday!! I know you feel this happened to me to but know that there's always someone who cares sometimes it someone small like the old lady you said Hi to today never forget and keep fighting!!

happy belated birthday!!!! I'm so sorry you feel like this right now and I'm sending a massive hug to you!! Look after yourself as best you can dear x

hey; hAPPY BIRTHDAY! 🎉🎈🎂🍾 even tho it seems you've had a crap day just.. take some time to just enjoy yourself? cuz i bet you're AMAZING. i know it sucks because i've been there - i've been in almost the exact situation. but time will pass and things will get better and you'll find people who care about you and appreciate you for the amazing being that you are. and until thr days get better, it doesn't have to suck. make sure you take time to just do whatever. treat yourself. stay in bed all day watching youtube. eat 4 pieces of cake. this time in your life will shape you into an incredible person. just make sure you take moments to just.. experience the journey and have some down days but also have some up days where you just do what you like. idk. this is what i'm learning. i genuinely hope your year gets better and by your next birthday things will be very different in a good way. xxx

sophie leanne this is late but HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i want you to know that i give a fuck and so do many other people, as you can see from all these wishes. i hope you're feeling better and that things look up for you. love you.

hey i do give a fuck<br>happy birthday sweetie <3 i promise you things will get better. try to stay safe and treat yourself kindly. <3

hey i do give a fuck
happy birthday sweetie <3 i promise you things will get better. try to stay safe and treat yourself kindly. <3

sophie leanne a very happy birthday to you.❤ I hope you have a great year ahead, and stay strong, life gets better. 💙

sophie leanne Happy birthday, it's okay to not know what you're going to do after sixth form, you have so much time to decide x

happy birthday my dude! this community is always here for you!

happy birthday my dude! this community is always here for you!

sophie leanne HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! If it's any comfort all of us are here for you and will send you smiley face emojis and cake. 😊😊😊🎂🎂🎂

I'm so sorry sophie happy late birthday bby get well

I'm so sorry sophie happy late birthday bby get well

sophie leanne HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

sophie leanne HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

sophie leanne Happy birthday! I know how tuff it can be when people ignore you and you don't feel valued🙁 but just know you are loved by someone out there even if you don't know them💖🎂🎊

sophie leanne I care it's you're birthday<br>HAPPY BIRTHDAY🎉🎉have a gudden x

sophie leanne I care it's you're birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY🎉🎉have a gudden x

sophie leanne happy birthday! i really wish you an incredible life. please please please treat yourself, and do not be hard on yourself. there really is light at the end of the tunnel.

sophie leanne HEY ITS MY B DAY TO AND I CARE B DAY BUDDY

sophie leanne HEY ITS MY B DAY TO AND I CARE B DAY BUDDY

sophie leanne happy birthday beautiful!!  i'm glad you exist ❤✨💕

sophie leanne happy birthday beautiful!!  i'm glad you exist ❤✨💕

sophie leanne Happy birthday!!! Sending birthday hugs! 💕🙂

sophie leanne Happy birthday!!! Sending birthday hugs! 💕🙂

Aw, I'm glad we all helped!! Have a wonderful day!! We all luv ya!! ;)> XD

Aw, I'm glad we all helped!! Have a wonderful day!! We all luv ya!! ;)> XD

always remember how even if you don't think people care around you there's others that do xxxxxxxxxxx

sophie leanne happy birthday! You are valued and loved and always remember that

Happy Birthday! I don't know how you feel, but if you need anyone to talk to, you can ask me :)

sophie leanne I am glad that we could cheer you up <3 <br>Happy birthday again!!! <3333333

sophie leanne I am glad that we could cheer you up <3
Happy birthday again!!! <3333333

guys i can't thank you enough, really. you've all made me feel loved, i find it amazing how people I've never met or even talked too can make me so happy. Thank you so much.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

sophie leanne happy birthday and I'm so sorry...I don't know if this matters since I'm just a random stranger, but I'm here for you

I feel you. It's my birthday too, eventhough it started pretty good, when my friends came over this afternoon someone made a bad joke that reminded me of this senslessness of life and my depression just hit me again. Birthdays are normal days, they pass by and there will be "another day of sun". Not today, maybe not tomorrow, but there will be happy days, where you see a sense in life. So Happy Birthday, if this means anything to you ♥

sophie leanne Happy birthday dear <3 <br>I now how you feel. I'm felling literally the same a great amount of time. If you ever feel like shit dodie's community will be there for you. I promise. <33333

sophie leanne Happy birthday dear <3
I now how you feel. I'm felling literally the same a great amount of time. If you ever feel like shit dodie's community will be there for you. I promise. <33333

sophie leanne happy birthday!!! I wish i could be friends with you! I love you

Happy birthday !! though it won't seems like it at the time every cloud has a silver lining. I believe things can get better if you keep looking forward

i just got yelled at all day on my birthday (it was the 8th). im cyberschooled now so i dont ever have anyone to talk to :///

Happy Birthday! I understand what you mean, I remember I was with my family at Christmas and all I could think about was suicide. You're not alone! I hope you have a better birthday!!!

hey honey, happy birthday!! everything will be better, I promise. (and I really really mean this!)

Don't worry my dear! I have no idea what going through depression is like, so I don't know if any of this will be at all helpful, BUT STAY POSITIVE! There are people out there who are there for you and do love you, including random strangers who message you back on the internet!! You are a unique wild beautiful human being and you should be proud of that! Life's rough and is always going to be a bumpy ride, and you're never for sure gonna know what's going to happen next. But keep with it, take everyday as a challenge to show love to others and to notice when others are giving it.  You're not always going to be happy, but you can always make the effort to love yourself and love others. I have no idea where I'm going with this, but I'm praying for you and I hope your day turns around, you beautiful human you! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! P.S. none of my friends said anything about my past birthday either, but it was still a wonderful day, just celebrate you! I am so stinking bad at this xP

happy birthday love. someone will care about you

happy birthday love. someone will care about you

sophie leanne happy bday ! I know the feeling lol :,(

sophie leanne happy bday ! I know the feeling lol :,(


Our Brains Are Sick & That's Okay.<br>|-/

@N/ A <br>Our minds are the most crucial

+Milla Grace it is literally mental ILLNESS. And there's nothing wrong with that

Milla Grace mental illnesses should not be romanticized they are an illness, ill = sick; our brains are sick...but that is okay and we can fight through it

Milla Grace He says "our" and he says that it's okay.

Xquavius Ellison Exactly! Thank you! Why is it as human beings, we expect that other parts of our body will need help at some point but never our brain? Stomach hurts, take some medicine, etc. But yet we expect our brains to run for years without help at all?? That makes no sense to me. We need to end the stigma. It's okay to need help for our brains too.

Jaz man i hate f*cking stories they're taking over all the internet

that used to be my whatsapp status until whatsapp decides to have a freaking 24hr story which has z e r o use to it. anyways<br>|-/

that used to be my whatsapp status until whatsapp decides to have a freaking 24hr story which has z e r o use to it. anyways
|-/

Oh yeah I'm not alone in this!!! My best friend{who is also depressed} and I just really want to find a forest nearby where we can just go and scream as loud as we want without freaking people out

I scream this when I'm driving and listening to vessel because it's true and there's nothing we can do about it for the most part! Plus screaming is somewhat therapeutic for me b/c part of my depression comes from feeling invisible and not heard so yeah screaming helps even if no one can hear it


Oh fuck.. I don't want to be that guy but I pretty much think I'm depressed. I also know that there will be happy times but I also know that after them there will be bad times again. I procrastinate and not just on the average level even though I know that it will only make me feel worse. I just watch random things while only being half-present until I hit this breaking point and somehow can put myself to work. But when working I panic about all the stuff I procrastinate and think of fictional scenarios where I am in school and my teacher holds a high horse speech again, I tell her to cut it short because I want to only sit again on my chair and stop thinking about my classmates thinking how idiotic my behaviour is (I know it but in that moment I don't care) and I trigger exactly that. That happens in school and I don't know how to end my thoughts when working or just doing anything. I'm not suicidal, it isn't really helping, we are all going to die soon enough and speeding it up does nothing. Something like this happens in a cycle with different lengths and I would like to hear your stories and maybe tips on how to concentrate. This video in general is a gold mine and is already helping!


i just realized that she was watching rick and morty


I haven’t been diagnosed by a doctor but i’ve taken test by depression and anxiety websites and they have all come back with mild depression
i’m not gonna lie i’m happy at school
but when i get home i just feel useless i don’t do sports cause i get anxiety i sit in my room alone watching videos then i’m in the shower and want to cry but the tears don’t want to come i make my self think i’m doing it for attention that i’m just a faker and i’m making up everything i just don’t want to do it anymore i just get sick off myself


ok i didnt realise it was a sad video sry - i just saw rick and morty lol


emily renae I've been watching her since I posted that comment( lol addicted )and yeah I caught on 😂 but thanks

Lolita yes! It's called "Sick Of Losing Soulmates" and it's on her "Intertwined" ep :) 💛


Uhgggg I have literally 60 problems on a test I have to correct but Dodie uploaded so.... Guess which one I chose<br>Edit:I've only done 5....

Uhgggg I have literally 60 problems on a test I have to correct but Dodie uploaded so.... Guess which one I chose
Edit:I've only done 5....


two months ago i was diagnosed with anxiety..it was bothering me for maybe 4/5 years and I was quiet,I wasn't trying to find help.and then, in December it got serious and I started having panick attacks.at first I had them once a month, than 3 times a month, than a 6 times a month and than at least once a week.i am actually doing a test for depression in two days and I'm going to a psychiatrist for the first time so that they can give some medicine and I'm scared..I feel kinda alone and lonely because there's a lot of people that don't believe me!and there's one girl in my class that also has anxiety and panick attacks so at first we were really good friends bcs we are both new at the school we're going to.but..i didn't really get to know her very well.sadly, she is that mean girl that every class has..she talks lies about me, how I pretend I have anxiety and panick attack just because she is jealous or what idk?and she is so sure I am faking even tho my psychologist diagnosed me and I'm pretty sure she wouldn't send me to a psychiatrist if I didn't have anxiety...and now I'm scared to go back to school..idk what to do..

+Kaitlyn M thank you so much for your advise.it is REALLY hard for me to not speak trash about her and to stay quiet but i'm doing good haha i don't know if you're religious but there's one quote, one sentence that Jesus said when he was on the Cross and it goes something like this "God, please forgive them, they don't know what they're doing.". and it helps me..it makes me realise that she and the other classmates who are brainwashed by her (because she has to make sure I don't get any support haha) don't know me actually and instead of talking to me and asking me if that's true they chose to be her minions.but that's okay, they chose that and I'm not going to judge bcs just like they don't know me, I don't know them. I have my really good friends, the bestest friend you could ever find and my family and I believe that's all I need..it's not like they're necessary in my life :)

some people are just like that. I was the new kid a lot in elementary and I kind of got used to it so I was lucky because now I'm in high school and it doesn't bother me as much as it would if I had not learned to just let it go. nobody else knows what goes through your head, so they can NOT decide whether or not your anxiety is "fake". this girl may have been getting more attention due to people wanting to help her with her anxiety and now you have it too so it takes away from her "spotlight". I think the best thing you can do is just forget what she says, laugh about how she doesn't know what shes talking about, and make sure not to stoop to her level by talking trash about her. it might be hard now, but I promise it will get easier with time.


When I'm depressed I lock myself in the toilet and just cry and debate if I should drink the bleach near me


i’m late but omg

RICK AND MORTY—

this is relatable what


lol I can't sleep and I have school tomorrow ahhhhhh


Hi, I have been wary of saying this so pls don't hate. I have a very happy life right now and I'm so grateful and lucky. How do I not get depression in future, because rn it seems like it's inevitable and there's no cause. I'm scared. I want to stay happy. Help pls.

the best way to avoid become depressed is to treat your body, mind and self with the utmost respect. get a good amount of sleep, exercise and eat well, and try to tell yourself you deserve good things. i know lack of confidence is something we all struggle with, and my constant berating of myself and fear of uncertainty has lead to a pretty heavy two years of anxiety. basically treat yourself with care. also, an important part of being mentally healthy is not worrying about the future (i should know lmao). don't worry about becoming depressed in the future. you're not depressed now, and that's what matters, that's all you need to focus on--how you're feeling now. don't look to the future and worry about all the what ifs, take it from me, it only fucks you up more. learning to be content in where you are in the present moment is what will help you :)

Hey I don't know if you will still read this, but I still wanted to give you this. You will never really be able to prevent yourself from getting a mental illness, but what you can do is to find our what you really need. Always, and I mean always, know what you need in certain situations. If what you do doesn't fit what you'll need you will be unhappy. <br>So always take care of yourself. Remeber. You always have to care for yourself first. It might seem selfish, but you also have to see that you cannot help other if you can't help yourself. So always try to do what you need in that moment. :)

Hey I don't know if you will still read this, but I still wanted to give you this. You will never really be able to prevent yourself from getting a mental illness, but what you can do is to find our what you really need. Always, and I mean always, know what you need in certain situations. If what you do doesn't fit what you'll need you will be unhappy.
So always take care of yourself. Remeber. You always have to care for yourself first. It might seem selfish, but you also have to see that you cannot help other if you can't help yourself. So always try to do what you need in that moment. :)

LAUREN  Thanks Lauren, I am really happy to hear that

ParadigmRabbit thank you so much. this really helped me. I hope that you're happy now and in future as well :)

Hello, in my opinion and experience, there are some things that you can do that have a high risk of messing up your equilibrium either all at once, or gradually, and other things you can do that can help you maintain it it. I can't speak to chemical depression and purely chemical induced states, but some experiences can change you in ways you might not want. The high risk things I would watch out for mainly revolve around relationships. Here's the advice:

1. Don't continue seeing anyone that you don't have an intuitively great gut feeling about. There is a reason for intuition, and your mind usually takes a while to catch up. Trust it. What you do can hurt others or hurt yourself if you are not careful. There are consequences that can last lifelong. Your intuition is the best tool for helping you to judge an uncertain situation.

2. If someone says, "trust me", it is quite possible that you shouldn't. Trust is earned, not given because someone asks for it. Trust yourself and what your intuition is telling you instead.

3. know/learn about yourself - spend some time to write down what your goals and boundaries are - boundaries so that you know what is ok and not ok with you. If you define them in advance and make them a priority, it will be harder for people to hurt you as they try to get things in life that they want for themselves. For goals, if you can figure out what it is that you want - e.g. go to a good school, stay happy, become an artist, anything, then you can make steps to achieve it. I think that setting and achieving goals of things that you truly want, deep down inside of you, will make you feel like you are on track with your destiny. I think if people feel like they are not living up to their potential, it is easy to feel sad, and this can compound and become more serious over time.

4. Be careful about drugs and drinking, or spending time with people that have a lifestyle that goes in this direction..drugs each have different qualities, and some can damage your mind. If your mind is damaged, your thinking and life will be altered too.

So all that I am saying is that bad-mediocre relationships and substances are the high risk things. To minimize risk to the maximum extent, avoid them - there are so many beautiful ways to spend time when you are happy. Enjoy the subtleties and build on the positive. It is much, much easier to build on happiness than to try to get it back once you have lost it.

I have way more advice but this is already a novel. I hope something in here might help you or someone. :) Best!

I'm glad that you're happy right now, that is really great and I hope you keep that positivity throughout your life. Depression is a mental illness, which cannot really be prevented; you may start to have it in the future, and you may not. 1/5 people have some sort of mental illness, so the odds are that you probably won't. I hope that you stay happy!


How on earth do you pronounce your yt name??


I completely followed what you're talking about :/


Literally every time i’m depressed I watch this and it really helps to know i’m not alone ❤ It motivates me to keep living - thanks for sharing dodie ❤


Thank you so much for this, it's exactly what I needed. Never understood what or why I was feeling this and thought that I was the only one. So thank you Dodie, you truly are a magnificent human being.


Thank you for making this. Thank you for making something that I can go back to when I feel like what I feel isn't real. Thank you for creating a little place in the video where I don't feel so alone. Just...thank you.


I’ve watched this video at least about 30 times now. I watch it whenever I’m having a depressed day and it helps so much. I think I’ve watched it enough to already know what you’re going to say in the next moment, but I still come back because it gives me a sense of familiarity and a sense of being empathized with. So thank you dodie for explaining your feelings on this stuff


Dodie, thank you for making this video. What you're going through isn't pleasant but it's really helpful to hear that what I'm feeling be validated. Sometimes you just need to hear that you're not alone in how alone you feel


This helped me so much. Thank you Dodie.


Ive felt exactly like this a lot recently. I've felt alone in what I'm going through. Relating to something this much is like finding a new friend with the same hobbies as you. It's not something happy exactly, but just the feeling of not being alone is helpful beyond what I can explain. I've found self-recognition through this. This video was like a good therapy session. Thank you.


When I'm depressed I come here and I watch this video and I feel less lonely. Thank you dodie, you help me to make order in my mind.


I feel so much respect for you, dear dodie. It kills me to see you hurting. Thank you for being so open and so honest, some of us can relate to this more than you think, and personally, by watching your videos I've began to understand things about me that weren't completely clear. So thanks for your help...<br>Big hug for you❤

I feel so much respect for you, dear dodie. It kills me to see you hurting. Thank you for being so open and so honest, some of us can relate to this more than you think, and personally, by watching your videos I've began to understand things about me that weren't completely clear. So thanks for your help...
Big hug for you❤


i’m so glad that i discovered your channel. your authenticity is so important and helpful. i find so much comfort in listening to others talk about how they’re feeling because suddenly i’m not the only person that feels this way. thank you for being vulnerable for us. thank you


Dodie I love you so much thank you I'm so down right now and all of these videos are so helpful to know I'm not the only one that feels this


I'm so glad that there is someone else besides me on this Earth that makes lots of face expressions while talking. THANK GOD! THANK YOU DODIE FOR EXISTING! <3


It's so great that you can talk about it in such a objective and sort of "up" way. I'm glad you're better now(judging by your instagram feed). Keep trying to do things that bring you a feeling of contentment and if you ever feel like it's to much, it is okay to look for help. There's plenty of people out there for you. Including us!


I just love how you never are the only person with different feelings. It makes me feel better somehow.


Omg ive never been able to describe how i feel yet you did it so perfectly!!!


It's amazing how you can put the right word to this very peculiar feeling. Anyway, thanks for this video, it's making more aware that I'm not the only one in this situation, more listening to my body and its response to my failures, and ... it's actually motivating me to make a song about it (because whynot).<br>Ps : I've just discovered your channel and what you do is amazing. Keep going, you're great ;)

It's amazing how you can put the right word to this very peculiar feeling. Anyway, thanks for this video, it's making more aware that I'm not the only one in this situation, more listening to my body and its response to my failures, and ... it's actually motivating me to make a song about it (because whynot).
Ps : I've just discovered your channel and what you do is amazing. Keep going, you're great ;)


I found your videos today and have watched about 20 of them then this came up... It's the most"true"video I've watched in a long time.  I've only recently started to learn about depression (after a recent back operation) and your videos were seriously helpful.

Best way I can explain it is that I desperately wish I could be a fly on the wall to watch someone like you for a week and know that the way I sometimes feel IS OK and know OTHER PEOPLE GO THROUGH IT TOO so your regular videos will now be a staple in my mental healthcare plan....

This is a rambling way to just say thank you! Really... Thank you!

G


This video helped me so much so I hope that knowing that makes you happy for a second  in some way ❤


Thank you so so so much for this video I watch it every day that I feel depressed and it always makes me feel better . I’ve seen this video a total of probably 20 times at least and I love every second of it and of you❤❤❤❤


This video was very informative for me and it helps so much understand my friends around me dealing with this.


Dodie I stayed home from school today because of a lot of things, but my mental health was so shit and this describes what I'm feeling today thank you


i relate so hard. ive had the roughest months of my life lately but im still here. treading water even though i dont want to. may 2018 give us all a break.


I was having a bad day. Thank you for making me feel less alone.


I feel this.Also I'm proud of you taking care of yourself


You are so effortlessly, naturally beautiful, prettiest person I've seen this year by a mile !


I didn't know this is how depression is. I've had moments like this lately and i keep denying myself that i am depressed and that i'm just lonely but yeah, this is exactly what i've been feeling lately lol


Today I watched this video and now I understand depression-days are normal in my life. Thank you.


My heart died a bit when Dodie said 'please don't let me be depressed for tour'. But for some reason it made me feel grateful for the fact that I would never know what she is going through


This is so real and very relatable and everything you said about trying to be happy to push through the depressed state. It’s horrible I know. Taking pills is not something I wanted to do ever. But after going through three crazy horrible things in three months I had to because I was literally going crazy in my mind. And it was the best thing I ever did. I’m on sertraline tablets and I’ve never been more thankful for them, I feel so much better. I hate being depressed and not finding anything fun..  I am so glad you made this video but it’s finally shown the real side to it that no one sees. Thank you. 💗💗


My big thing with depression is my body feeling very heavy. Especially my feet and head. The head part, you explained. I got these really high quality boots this weekend. They're very waterproof and warm which is great because when I walk to the bus for school my feet aren't wet and I'm not miserable. These boots are Thicc though, so I'm kind of always dragging my feet and my steps are clompy and I always trip on stairs. But I've had days like that in normal shoes, too. If anyone out there has worn new heavy boots that's kind of what depression feels like except you can take off the boots whenever you like


I thought I knew what depression was i thought it was extreme like crying and wanting to die and then I realised I get the same feeling as Dodie once or twice a week which is quite worrying tbh


ever since this video, edamame and tea have become my favorite little munchie to have while im writing


Watching this made me relise. Even Dodie needs hugs and pickle jars full of tea <b>oo yess</b> and someone to understand

Watching this made me relise. Even Dodie needs hugs and pickle jars full of tea *oo yess* and someone to understand


Very relatable. 1:10 - 2:08 was just on point. But it kinda makes me feel a bit better and less "insane" when I make myself clear that this is just my head messing around with me.


I'm a native Spanish speaker, I'm also a fan of mental health and those things... Weird, uh? I love your videos, and I love how you describe how things work out in your body and mind.


anytime i am feeling d  o  w  n, i just watch on of your videos. after that, i would be a smol happy bean! :D


Ok but in all seriousness now tho even tho I’m super late and no one will see this but still, u r not alone Dodie we are all here for you and we love you so much. Be happy for us and live your happy life and live good okay? We love you so much! ❤❤❤❤


Thank you so much for sharing ♥ makes me feel not so alone


Now watching this I wonder how many people are actually depressed. You explained it really well and to the people who are sad and say “I’m depressed” aren’t really most of the time. Dodie is just me most days tbh. This video is me


This is better than watching a movie right now. It's so raw, real life. I like it <3


thank you so much for this and for all you do.


I love this so much I have a therapist too and people judge me and I don’t know why but it really helps


This.
THIS.
THIS.
How has she perfectly described it?
This is exactly how I feel like, 90% of the time. Which is shit but whatever. And this was perfect.

This.
THIS.
*THIS.*
How has she perfectly described it?
This is exactly how I feel like, 90% of the time. Which is shit but whatever. And this was perfect.