AHH my fave ppl exist together as best buds yay happiness and friendship wahoohoo you both helped me to feel more confident and continue w existence wahoo love u both my frands yay buddies

boi not to be rude, its chill but video? viDEO? <br>V I D E O? ? ? ? ? ?

boi not to be rude, its chill but video? viDEO?
V I D E O? ? ? ? ? ?

i know y'all live far away but if you guys collab one day it would make me ridiculously happy

Yo Nathan gimmie your merch for free I have no monies


minus the panic, this sounds like a GREAT TIME who wants to take me on a DATE?!??

literally everyone but like i jus want a lil friendly date where we talk about life stuff and rant @ houseplants for being spoiled drama queens about their water

Conan Gray ah I love finding my king in doddle comments

Omg CONAN sooooooooooo late but cant wait for your new song

me. please omg like literally just wanna have a chat and bond lmao not even romantically ugh

i'd love to go here on a date because i wouldn't have to worry about looking nice

Hello i am your date/waiter/host, how are you?/are you ready to order?/ hope you enjoy your stay!


i'm amazed that you managed to stay and have a good time even after having a panic attack. i'm proud of you dodie!<br>i woulda congo lined straight out of there

i'm amazed that you managed to stay and have a good time even after having a panic attack. i'm proud of you dodie!
i woulda congo lined straight out of there


I have a panic disorder and if there's one thing I've learned from the whole ~experience~ (which is horrible btw do not recommend) is to always stick it out, engage, and never let your panic prevent you from living your life this is a very very hard thing to do though and it took me a loooong while to figure out how to not just run away from everything every time I got panicky so bravo Dodie YOU ARE SO STRONG AND BRAVE GIRL keep going and never give up ❤


whenever i am in the dark, my dissociation gets 100x worse so i could only imagine how it felt like but i'm really glad you had a supportive human being with you to ground you and make you feel more safe. it's hard to find someone who actually understands things so i think it's lovely

I don't have many friend bc of depersonalisation and anxiety so this is the longest convo I've ever had

Haha you're not crazy I have a friend who has 17 cats in her 2 bed house with her mum and dad and 2 dogs, and thx, you sound and probably are a really nice person thank you for talking

awww that's so adorable!! i know i might sound like a crazy cat lady but i literally got 8 cats all in my room, 4 of them are new borns and they're the most adorable babies i have ever seen! :)

thank you haha! :) I subbed back in case you ever post any videos :)

He's literally sitting on my lap as I read this, I will he's literally my best friend and is a life saver.... literally a life saver

that's honestly the cutest thing ever!!! aww bless that dog, tell ur dog i love them

Well everyone has there own ways of dealing with life I only find that helps bc my dog is trained to lick my hand when my heart beat goes up so it just reminds me of that!!

i tried doing that but it doesn't help :/ i found watching youtube videos help for some reason, like seeing people doing normal human things bring a little sense of reality to me

Fatima D- I find sticking my hand in cold water helps!!


Dodie, you are so incredibly brave for sharing these things. Thank you so much for doing this and normalizing panic attacks (though they are still very serious, they aren't shameful or weird.) it's really great to hear that other people have them and that the things that happen in your panic attacks are the same as what happen in mine. It makes me feel valid and good.
I would certainly encourage you to do this again if you get the chance. You should actively try to do it again if you can. That would prove to yourself that after you've done something scary once, it's far less scary the second time, if not perfectly fine. If you do that with enough things, maybe you'd nearly "cure" yourself of panic attacks forever! It would be really interesting to see.
I had/have a horrible fear of doctors and hospitals and medical settings, especially being nude or being touched. Then without any therapy or proper mental preparation (actually just 9 months of panicking on and off and crying my eyes out about it) I actually gave birth to a baby in a hospital and was fine. Like actually fine. I did not have a panic attack. Which I still cannot believe. I want another kid someday and I'm really interested to know if I'd do even better next time, or about the same. To be honest I can't imagine what it would be like. But I know I always imagine it's worse than it really is.
Anyway! Thanks again for making videos like these!!! Please keep uploading them! I want to hear all of your raw and real deepest darkest feelings and thoughts!!!! (If that isn't creepy... if it is I am soooo sorry.)

huh cool! Interesting. I will try and go back :) thank u!


Dodie makes a video with Panic! In the title when she has 666k subs. Coincidence?

<b>i write sins not tragedies, emparors new clothes intensifies</b>

*i write sins not tragedies, emparors new clothes intensifies*


"I guess the moral is to try new things and to stick it out when things are really scary because there are good things to take from bad situations, and it might just be worth it. And if it's not, at least you tried." <br>It's incredible how lately I'm randomly finding all of these thoughts that apply so perfectly to the situation I'm living right now. Thank you Dodie, for reminding me to keep going even when it gets tough.

"I guess the moral is to try new things and to stick it out when things are really scary because there are good things to take from bad situations, and it might just be worth it. And if it's not, at least you tried."
It's incredible how lately I'm randomly finding all of these thoughts that apply so perfectly to the situation I'm living right now. Thank you Dodie, for reminding me to keep going even when it gets tough.


About time is literally my favorite movie of all time!
This was so cool, Dodie!
I'm glad you were able to try it!
Hope you're aright!
Cheers~

Yess someone else who loves about time !!


My brain just went "imagine watching Brendon Urie in pitch black" then I remEMBEREd that Panic! is a real feeling lol

Same tho, I thought it was about panic! At the disco😂

ASMR Flutter  that’s exactly what I was thinking

I thought she would do a panic cover in the dark😂

ASMR Flutter i was expecting a parody or something :,)


Dodie, I'm really honestly proud of you that stuck it out. I definitely could have never done that, so good job. <3


honestly i thought this was going to be a panic! cover with dark lighting or something


Dodie Clark? More like Dodie Panics In The Dark.

You've heard about elf on the shelf, but you don't know about clark in the dark? Sorry


I love how she can tell an experience in her life without having to label it as a story time. Idk i just love dodie so much


I thought that this video would be dodie singing a panic! at the disco mashup, in the dark, with one candle

i thought it was gonna be her dancing in the dark singing p!atd lol oops

Gabriela Kolbe lol that would be amazing

Voldemort, what in the world are you doing here?

Gabriela Kolbe so did I and you know your profile pic is dodie yellow💛


Thank you dodie for sharing this. You reminded me that even when I feel like a failure for having anxiety, it is still an achievement for me to get through the panic attacks, thank you for making me feel less idiotic and alone.


I've always wanted to know what I look like from a strangers perspective, your dinner game sounds so fun! I'm sorry you panicked in the restaurant but it does sound like a bizarre yet cool experience❤


Louise & Dan being disasters in restaurants part two

Maybe it wouldn’t be such a good idea, he might literally just become one with the darkness and disappear from the world of light

Amazingsofiaisnotonfire !

i have no words

BlueSaturn imagine if he was there with Louise lol, the whole place would get destroyed


I love this so much. <3 Love you, Dodie. xo Sorry about the panick-y dissociative things getting you down, but thank you for sharing them because I relate so much and having good friends to ground you is so real.


you gave me the courage to accept that i'm bi, i haven't come out to my family yet but i have come out to my close friends. thank you so much dodie. i love you so much💛💛<br>edit - thank you so much for all the likes and support, it may not seem like it but it means so much to me❤❤

you gave me the courage to accept that i'm bi, i haven't come out to my family yet but i have come out to my close friends. thank you so much dodie. i love you so much💛💛
edit - thank you so much for all the likes and support, it may not seem like it but it means so much to me❤❤

phils.tounge Make sure you come out when you're ready, don't hurry it because there's no need to. Also if you do good luck and just try to explain to your mom it's not a "trend" . I'm still confused so I'm not going to come out probably for a while :)

WindSkit my mum thinks being bi is a trend so I'm scared to come out to her

Scuse me could you please leave that's exactly the same as me. it makes you bi because you like both genders and it doesn't matter which you prefer more❤❤

Scuse me could you please leave i feel the same way with trying to be friends with the popular kids. And I hope you the best

Ida Ploug Andersen Oh wow you're in Denmark! I'm in California but the more unaccepting parts that's known for its protests back whenever. I think we changed so we're more accepting but I only know one person who's bi and everyone else is straight so it's odd. Also I don't have many friends since I would try to befriend the popular people but they just seem to obnoxious to hang out with. I hope you can figure this out and if you do come out I hope you're accepted :)

Scuse me could you please leave that's exactly what I don't want to happen to me. I live in Denmark and I have never meet anyone that's is anything other than straight. And I would really stand out if I came out as bi. I already don't have that many friends so I'm scared it would just make it worse.

Ida Ploug Andersen oh my gosh this reminds me, in 6th grade my best friend came out as bi and I was accepting and happy for her but then in the end of 7th grade she said oh I'm straight now and a few days later she came out to my other friend and I was wondering why or if she's lying to me. Now she's bi I think, it's confusing.

Scuse me could you please leave my friend said she felt the same way wen she were younger (she felt she maybe liked girls) but now she's with a guys so she's like "it's just a phase" and that's just makes it so much more confusing

Ida Ploug Andersen I know I feel the exact same, if I come out as bi and turns out I'm not it would be odd to say actually I'm straight. People would probably just think I want attention or something. Also I'm no where near ready to come out since my parents might be homophobic but I'm not sure.

Scuse me could you please leave i feel the exact same way. And I'm also scared that's it's like a "I want to be bi" because I love like the LGBTQ+ community. I'm also just so confused. I don't wanna come out and stuff if it's just a faze. And I have never kissed or done anything with a girl so how would I know. I so confused

crybabymethalseyatthedisco withtøpandparamore it does but I'm just going to say I'm straight until I'm 100% sure :)

Scuse me could you please leave 😊 well, as long as your happy. Don't worry about it too much. Just do what you want because why not

Sabrina Olivera Thank you for this! I'm still going to identify myself as straight because I can't see myself dating a girl I just sometimes have a crush on one but I can't see me dating them, know what I mean? Also I feel like coming out isn't necessary for me since I'm confused, I'll figure it out :)

Actually same. I came out to a few of my close friends a few days ago, but not any of my family

Scuse me could you please leave I know that this question wasn't for me but. You don't have to like 50% of guys and 50% of girls. There's no rules to being who you are. Like 60 to 40 percent or 80 to 20 percent. As long as you 100% happy and 100% you. (Yes, I know that last sentence made you sum up to 200% but that's okay)

phils.tounge oh my god. I love this, much love and I wish you good luck when you come out to your family whenever your ready. Remember your brain makes it much worse than it is😊

phils.tounge I'm bi too b 💗 I'm proud of u!!

WindSkit I'm only 14 too and dad is very anti-LGBT and my mum wouldn't react very well either. I've also only told a my most trusted friends, and my crush, who is also one of my closest friends (she came out  as pan to us at the same time as I did and says she feels the same way so it isn't so bad). Basically what in trying to say is, I feel your pain (also I'm not 100% sure if I'm bi or if I've got the "bi-dodie trendfection")

phils.tounge yay! Concrats!!!!
Ps
I love ur username😉😉

hello first off op that's so cool good for you! I wish you luck on coming out to your parents <3<br> I'm only out to my friends as bi but at the moment I have a crush on a non binary person so I'm tentatively using queer in my head if you get me. I'm planning on coming out to my parents pretty soon, but I'm worrying about how they'll take it in the sense that I am only fourteen? They are generally LGBT+ supportive, but on many times they have laughed when I inform them on other younger people coming out to their own parents (I have an acquaintance who is trans ftm and he told his parents a few months ago, I heard them discussing how "kids that age shouldn't make decisions on that type of thing"). Has anyone had a similar experience? And advice on how I should react if they tell me I am going through a phase or suchlike?

hello first off op that's so cool good for you! I wish you luck on coming out to your parents <3
 I'm only out to my friends as bi but at the moment I have a crush on a non binary person so I'm tentatively using queer in my head if you get me. I'm planning on coming out to my parents pretty soon, but I'm worrying about how they'll take it in the sense that I am only fourteen? They are generally LGBT+ supportive, but on many times they have laughed when I inform them on other younger people coming out to their own parents (I have an acquaintance who is trans ftm and he told his parents a few months ago, I heard them discussing how "kids that age shouldn't make decisions on that type of thing"). Has anyone had a similar experience? And advice on how I should react if they tell me I am going through a phase or suchlike?

Scuse me could you please leave // eitherway there's no need to put labels on urself, just live it

phils.tounge same here omg i haven't came out to my parents and i've only told my lovely friends <3

sad pancake Thanks you so much, I feel like I'm just going through a phase and don't want to come out unless I actually am bi.

Scuse me could you please leave// it technically does, but if you don't want to call yourself "bisexual" and prefer the term "heterosexual" that's also fine. you do you. also im super proud of u phils tongue :D

I'm in the exact same situation and Dodie was definitley a big role model and a part of that.<br>Also, the phandom is everywhere. We    are     eveywhere.

I'm in the exact same situation and Dodie was definitley a big role model and a part of that.
Also, the phandom is everywhere. We    are     eveywhere.

phils.tounge me too! I just came out to my best friend and I feel amazing!

Dude, that's amazing. Hope you get enough confidence in you to come out. I'm bi and I have come out to anyone but close friends

phils.tounge Agh I'm really confused, I usually prefer guys like 87% of the time and then like girls 13%, does this make me bi because honestly I don't know, help me lmao.


Dodie, this is beautiful! Thanks so much for sharing this with us even though it was a stressful experience for you. You still got through it and even enjoyed it! Now I really want to go to something like that.


I love dodie's honesty, it's part of what makes her so incredibly beautiful 💗


"help help help help help" well that's me when i couldn't handle dodie's cuteness.


It's interesting how you felt with the total darkness. I went to a temple in Japan (Zenko-ji for anyone interested) where there was a total darkness underground passageway that went under the temple. Going in was just how you described the entrance to the restaurant; completely overwhelming blackness where you couldn't tell if your eyes were open or not. You ran your hand along the wooden wall and walked through the curving tunnel for a good few minutes of total darkness. The purpose of it was to clear your mind and detach yourself, it was an interesting experience. A bit different to your experience but I can certainly see the depersonalization aspect and how it's unlike anything else!


i chime in, haven't you people ever heard of turning on the goddamn light


Hey dodie, Jacksfilms complimented you in his compliment track if you didn't know!

...except, he capitalized the 'd' in your name, so I'd ignore him.

I thinks she already knows, she replied to him on Twitter!

Lamp Flamingo<br>OH GOD MY LIFE IS A LIE

Dodie's Ukulele lmao the irony of your comment is that your username capitalises dodie 😂 I'm not attacking you or anything just pointing it out

Dodie's Ukulele i freaked out when he mentioned her because i love both of them! i'm sure she knows by now though since they're friendly on twitter :^)


A lot of adventures and stories come from you and Stevie (well we know about 2) which is exhilarating


this was so incredibly positive and I'm so happy that you stuck it out Dodie and had fun, even though it was hard. it shows that there's more to a person than mental illness I'm really happy you're making videos like these they're just as important as the ones where you speak about your journey to get better. thank you so much


Awww I'm so proud of you that you were able to get through the dinner and calm yourself and be scared but be present and find enjoyment in it. Yay Dodie! Getting through fears (like sky diving!)


"I'm just like ugly crying, pouring wine..."  relatable


4:06 I'm proud of you for keeping a  safe limit to what you talk about in depth, dodie 💕


I'm loving this type of editing. Simple yet beautiful


That was so inspiring, the way you pushed through your panic and had a good time :) you are an inspiration, Dodie, thank you so much for sharing!


i loved this story. a few months ago i went to a bar and had a panic attack followed by dissociating. similarly to your story, i came away from that night with good memories too. we danced with the dj and the girl working the bar as they closed and celebrated my friends birthday. i'm glad you have happy moments during a scary memory and those good connections are the ones that you can focus on more.


I've had such a bad brain day today, but watching Dodie soothes my soul💛

I had a bad brain day yesterday, I know how awful it is, feel better.💙


This video helped me so much dodie!
When you said to stick it it and that there are some bad things and a lot of good things that made my heart happy!
(I'm gunna go make some tea now...)

This video helped me so much dodie!
When you said to stick it it and that there are some bad things and a lot of good things *that made my heart happy!*
(I'm gunna go make some tea now...)


I loved hearing this story! Well done, you guys!


It's honestly so freaking awesome and inspiring to hear you talking about your mental health issues without perpetuating them - which can be half the battle sometimes. It's important to work on keeping a more healthy relationship with ones illnesses.  Remembering that the illness is not who you are, but it is still a part of you and your growth as a person.

much love oxox


that sound fantastic (the restaurant, not the panic attack), i love the dark. there is something really beautiful about it,i always think how it must have been for ancient man when at night all they had was fire or the shine from the stars and moon.


I'm glad you got over the panic and had fun. I'm so proud you stuck through


That sounds so cool!! I wanna try it with my friends but they would've got scared of how dark it is.


I really love these types of videos and it totally feels like VEDA. Thank you for a lovely story.


The thing you mentioned about having a panic attack while being stuck on a ride or having an injection at the dentist  was such a relief to hear someone had experienced something similar because I thought I had been going crazy when it happened! I had to get a referral the other day to get laughing gas because they couldn't give me a needle to freeze my mouth for a filling because I had a panic attack. The doctors were super rude to me about it but it's their loss I guess because I'm never going there again lol


i love darkisado
and time to fade
and midnight downpour

paula SAME I love the song This Is Darkness

paula my favorite is Don't Threaten Me With a Dark Time

O yes my fav songs by them are Dark of a Bachelor, Darkened Days, LA Darkness and Collar Dull XD

paula light/light/dark is my favourite song

paula L.A Darkvotee was my absolute favorite. It lit up my world.

when the night met the night is such a jam

paula omg I love their song the death of a lightbulb


About Time is SUCH a good film!!! I've wanted to try this ever since I saw it! Congrats on getting through it Dodie 💛


It's amazing how similar this sounds to sooo many of my experiences. Thanks so much for sharing.


This is so interesting to me! I volunteer at a school for blind and partially sighted children running a youth group and as part of our training I had to wear some glasses which imitated what  it's like to only have light perception. Oh my god was I freaking out!! The lady doing the training guided me around to show us how to guide the young people and she was asking me to do things like opening doors and grabbing her arm and I just panicked and was just like "I can't!" After that I had a little cry because the young people we work with are so incredible and they cope with that every day. <br>So yeah. I think I'd really like to experience that restaurant but also I would probably panic a lot. Eek.

This is so interesting to me! I volunteer at a school for blind and partially sighted children running a youth group and as part of our training I had to wear some glasses which imitated what  it's like to only have light perception. Oh my god was I freaking out!! The lady doing the training guided me around to show us how to guide the young people and she was asking me to do things like opening doors and grabbing her arm and I just panicked and was just like "I can't!" After that I had a little cry because the young people we work with are so incredible and they cope with that every day.
So yeah. I think I'd really like to experience that restaurant but also I would probably panic a lot. Eek.


I just showed my mother this video to give her more of an insight on my panic attacks, which are very similar! so thank you for putting this up! xo


About time is one of my favourite films!! I think I would react the same as you, I can't stand the 'not knowing' in the dark so I'd definitely find that hard but it does sound like an amazing experience!


Did the friends you made look anything like you imagined when you saw them in the light by the way dodie?? I too loved this concept since about time and share both your fear and excitement for the place!! As always you are so charming to listen to x


You should do more videos with Stevie! You guys are so funny together I love it!


I absolutely panic completely when people cover my eyes or im in the dark. Even listening to this story is making me breath quicker


Katie Hart why tf are you replying to legit every comment? this comment isn't even yours

Katie H<br>dodie yellow is a colour dodie "invented" kind of. its like a pale yellow, its on her EP album cover (you)

Katie H
dodie yellow is a colour dodie "invented" kind of. its like a pale yellow, its on her EP album cover (you)

What this thread turned into just warms my heart so much <3 You are all incredible

mik I'm just so grateful for the bit of vision that I do have and that I get some chance to see the world. Can't imagine being completely blind 💕

i have no peripheral or depth perception. i have a thing called coloboma which included everything ever oh my god

Hermione Granger I'm not sure what dodie yellow is. Is it to do with yellow eyeshadow? I can't tell if she's wearing eyeshadow 🙈

Katie H well, can you see/ have seen dodie yellow?

Hermione Granger yes I have poor depth perception too and almost completely colourblind xx

i have ROP (retinopathy of prematurity), im light sensitive and have no depth perception, sooo pretty much colours and shapes. i also also have nystagmus...

Katie H oh cool! i don't know what the other two are, but i have nystagmus too!

mik optic nerve hypoplasia, photophobia and nystagmus x

Katie H oh cool! whats your condition? if you don't mind me asking...

M Wilson also! a lot of blind people aren't actually fully blind. usually blind people have a little light perception at most. im classified as blind, but i can see shapes and shadows. (this probs doesn't even make sense, im so sorry. my descriptions are horrid)

Even most blind people say that they 'watch' videos for them watching just means listening and maybe using voice over to read comments and the video description obviously it's not actually 'watching' but blind people are still her 'viewers'

also, i learned to type from a young age, so its pretty much muscle memory by now.

amaya schultz its a thing called a screenreader. basically reads all text on the screen (:

MrNorbo95 Voice typing is a thing you know

Francesca Conroy we are all the blind viewers... Blind to the truth.

Francesca Conroy i was going to comment this 😂

i'd suggest an iphone, theres a program called voiceover, its a screen reader.

i am losing my vision, so i've seen the keyboard before, i could use voiceover but im losing hearing as well... if you'd like to learn more about blind/deafness you can check out Rikki Poynter and Molly Burke (theyre on youtube)

How the hell you typing then?? Although tbf I suppose I can type without looking at the keyboard...

im blind lollll
no but seriously
actually

Not as in laughing at blind people just the phrase


I love just listening to you talk in videos like this your voice is so relaxing and sweet sounding and your stories...UGH judging by the way I am typing this I am a fan girl of yours apparently I just now discovered that...wow. Anyways I love you Dodie!


it actually sounds like a unique experience! I wish I could go to a place like that even though I would be so stressed! :)


Ah I love about time! I didn't realise it was a real restaurant oops silly me, it sounds like you kinda had fun in the end :) x


everything you say about depersonalization is so relatable for me. I feel like nobody else that I know really understands it, not even my therapist. I love you so much, you are such a good role model.


Great video! Such an amazing story. I hope your mental issues improve in the future. As long as you're happy and smiling I'm happy and smiling. Thank you for uploading, it makes me feel less anxious and far far happier. Will you please consider covering a Florence and the machine song? (Girl with one eye would really suit your voice.(I think.)) sorry if I bothered you. 💛☁

Evie Gower I didn't even think about my boy builds coffins! Yes! A uke cover would be cool too!

Lana Moore she did a shake it out cover with Zannah and Melanie baker but I think zannah removed it 😭 BUT YES OMG THEY ARE MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE BAND and they're so underrated I think she could do a good between two lungs cover

Lana Moore my boy builds coffins would be soooo good by dodie


listening to you describe the darkness already makes me panic a bit<br>i'm so scared/anxious when it's dark and i can't see anything

listening to you describe the darkness already makes me panic a bit
i'm so scared/anxious when it's dark and i can't see anything


The L word is always a good series to watch 💙💙 Also the restaurant experience sounds fun but scary,  also Dodie  = adorable😍


I stopped at 0:10 to make myself some tea too 😌 then I continued, and I wanna do this 'dinner in the dark thingyy' too!! so bad!! I set it on my list 'things to do before 2018' ❤


I am actually blind, and it makes my heart so happy to hear that you stuck this out. Even though it's super scary, imagine that being your daily life. I was born blind, so I'm used to the sight I do and don't have. But I am lucky enough to have light and dark perception so I'm not in that much darkness.


i see that panic! at the disco reference <br>(also thank you for your ep, it's helped me so much)

i see that panic! at the disco reference
(also thank you for your ep, it's helped me so much)


i've felt this disassociating panic since i was 10 or 11 years old. exactly how you described except it doesn't go away and i flee or almost pass out. i haven't been to a movie theatre or anywhere very dark since it started and lately it's becoming more frequent and less environment specific. you help me start searching online for answers and helped me realize i had anxiety and that this feeling that everyone told me i was crazy for was disassociating and probably derealization. so thank you for always talking so openly and unashamedly about your mental health and experiences babe. all the love <3 i hope things start looking up for both of us.


I've been to Mammoth Cave in Kentucky so I totally understand the darkness, Dodie. I'm so sorry about the panic attack, my love. I'm glad you can look back and learn (and laugh) at your past! <33


Dodie... when you make these videos... it gives me something to relate to... when you make videos about depression and anxiety... it's one more reason for me to stay on this earth... I love these kind of videos, I love you... 💞


This reminds me of an exhibit I went on during a trip to NYC. It was a "tour" of New York in which it was as black as Dodie was describing and we were giving canes to feel around and the tour guide was blind, so the whole thing was really enlightening.


I would love to do this!! For some reason when i am panicking that kind of dark calms me down a lot, but its really hard to achieve so idk. It would be interesting to see how i reacted to it


I had my first panic attack in school in food tec I was stressing because afterwards we had an end of year science test ( year 10) so I was very stressed and my hearing went and I felt like I couldn't breathe but now whenever I'm about to have one I listen to your ep and it really helps me thanks dodie x


I find different types of panic attacks very interesting. From your description of just the fact you could stay thee without many people noticing you seem relatively functioning during them (that's not to put down how difficult it is for you) and I personally don't get panic attacks that often but when I do they are very very noticeable just cause I shake a lot and other fun stuff. It must actually be really hard to feel that panic but because it is not expressed so physically people might not notice or prioritise gettingyou calm again? Idk this made no sense


I honestly can't explain how much I freakin love dodie 😭😭😭❤❤


i want to do this and i'm scared that if i did and i felt like a hair on my leg or something i would freak out and think it's a spider and i wouldn't be able to tell what it is and oh my god what if it was just dark because they were hiding dead bodies or they were hiding illegal drugs or they were hiding the hamilton bootleg or something

carly_fries “hiding the Hamilton bootleg” I’m fricking dying

carly_fries "the Hamilton bootleg" I'm wheezing


I never experienced complete darkness until I started learning film photography. The pitch darkness in the dark rooms can really be frustrating and scary from time to time.


Sometimes when i have high anxiety I just listen to dodie talk and it makes me so calm. Only person on youtube that does that for me


the continuous sips of tea make me feel like you're gossiping i love it


I had a panic attack at my school camp this year, and I've never been one to think I was scared of the dark and I don't even know if I am, but I was in my cabin and I couldn't keep myself from crying. I've shared a room with my little sister for the past 6 years of my life, and she's scared of the dark so ever since she was 3 and we started sharing the room we have a little night light to help her. So I guess being so used to this little light has just become so normal, and in the cabin, it was so dark and my brain just started panicking because I felt like I couldn't distinguish the difference between reality and the thoughts in my head. It was one AM and quiet, everyone fell asleep but my brain made it out to feel like this room was the loudest place I have ever been to. I don't even know how to describe it, its like inaudible words in my brain became louder and louder until it felt like it was screaming. I felt so small, so I went outside to breathe. A duck came near me ( honestly it wasn't even that close, it was a few meters away) and I must have been hella emotional because I poured my heart out. To a duck. I was all like 'thank you for being here, you make everything feel real again and you're so precious I love you'... But then the camp nightguard came to do his check up on the cabins to find me crying to a duck and made me walk in a straight line because he thought I was drinking and that's why I was so emotional. Oops, I guess? I went back to my cabin, and I ended up calming down because it started raining and I found it so much more relaxing. Camp was wild this year


I was at one of those places a few years ago from school and that's one of those experiences I can still remember pretty well although a long time has passed. when we got in and it got completly dark it was terrifying and I was starting to say that I wanna go out and didn't leave my teacher, but after some time I got used to it and I loved this whole experience, the man who guided us was really nice and it was cool seeing him in the light in the end. I would definitely do it again


I feel comforted by the dark idk why lmao. That sounds pretty fun!


I feel this because I would’ve freaked the fuck out. When it’s that dark, I feel claustrophobic, like I’m stuck in a very small dark box. Props to you for staying through the attack.. I would’ve just bOLTED and went outside and probably just gone home and slept... it’s inspiring that you got through it and you were able to calm down and have a good time. Cheers


Dodie is so amazingly brave, not only did she stay through the entire experience, she was able to control a panic(!) attack while still in the environment that caused the initial panic! Dodie is honestly a wonderful human being!


Whenever I watch Dodie, I make tea. It's just nice to sit on my bed, with no lights except for fairy lights, in my pajamas, and sip tea while being cozy under my covers. Her voice is just so nice and soothing.


My panic attacks occur in the same distressing situations as the ones you're describing like not being in control of our bodies... I can relate haha


This reminds me of when I went to Ireland last year -- as part of the program I was with, we went on an excursion to, among other places, Aillwee Cave. There was a bit during our tour of the cave where they shut off all the lights, and it was darkness like what you were describing, and it FREAKED. ME. OUT. Like everybody else around me was perfectly nonchalant when they turned the lights back on, but I was like... I literally lost my sight for a minute there, and it was like I felt this pressure in my head that isn't normally there??? It was really weird, and I just had this quiet stream of "no no no no no" going through my mind the entire time. I was thiiis close to grabbing onto one of my friends just to make sure that the world hadn't just disappeared.


I've only experienced a darkness that dark once (that I recall). My grade went on an outing to the Cradle of Humankind and we walked into depths of the caves and it was so dark that I literally could not see my hand in front of my face and everything around me was literally pitch black. I had maybe the exact opposite reaction as you did though - I thought it was insanely cool and I wanted to stay there for as long as I possibly could because I thought it was so calming. I have anxiety too but mine's more of a social anxiety disorder so maybe that explains the differences in our reactions? idk idk, great video dodie, it was really interesting hearing your thoughts 💛💛💛

I've only experienced a darkness that dark once (that I recall). My grade went on an outing to the Cradle of Humankind and we walked into depths of the caves and it was so dark that I *literally* could not see my hand in front of my face and everything around me was *literally* pitch black. I had maybe the exact opposite reaction as you did though - I thought it was insanely cool and I wanted to stay there for as long as I possibly could because I thought it was so calming. I have anxiety too but mine's more of a social anxiety disorder so maybe that explains the differences in our reactions? idk idk, great video dodie, it was really interesting hearing your thoughts 💛💛💛

I've done this too! I only shared your reaction because I was with others, but Im insanely afraid of the dark. Caving is so fun.

I went to a summer camp where we went caving.  About 5 minutes in, we all sat down in a room and turned off our headlamps.  It was completely black but I still felt like I could see my hand, which was weird.  I also found it very relaxing.

Rea Keebz we went to belgium for a history trip a few years ago with my year at school and we went in these underground trenches and it was also pitch black like literally there was no light my eyes felt weird and empty

Know/remember film cameras?  My 'work experience' way back in 1988 was spending a couple of weeks with a company that processed peoples' film rolls into photos for them.  Part of that had me just sitting in one of the DARK rooms they used for getting the film out of the housing it's in whilst in a camera and onto a roll drum with lots of other rolls for further processing.  I was just sitting whilst someone with experience was doing the actual work.

Given the film was still light-sensitive and undeveloped at this stage that room was *D*A*R*K*. Kind of felt like the darkness was pressing in on my eyeballs.

I also have vague memories of some cave where the lights got turned out. It is indeed a little freaky to be "looking around" but seeing no difference, including when waving your hand in front of your face.

Know/remember film cameras?  My 'work experience' way back in 1988 was spending a couple of weeks with a company that processed peoples' film rolls into photos for them.  Part of that had me just sitting in one of the *DARK* rooms they used for getting the film out of the housing it's in whilst in a camera and onto a roll drum with lots of other rolls for further processing.  I was just sitting whilst someone with experience was doing the actual work.

Given the film was still light-sensitive and undeveloped at this stage that room was *D*A*R*K*. Kind of felt like the darkness was pressing in on my eyeballs.

I also have vague memories of some cave where the lights got turned out. It is indeed a little freaky to be "looking around" but seeing no difference, including when waving your hand in front of your face.

Oh that's interesting! I have had an experience in this kind of darkness too once : it was in an amusement park, we were led by blind people who showed us how it feels to explore without seeing. I think I remember that it felt really weird, not scary but confusing...


I experienced this when I visited Mammoth Cave! It was super cool. I get anxious about a lot of stupid things, but thankfully the dark is not (usually) one of them.


i had a very bad day today, thank you for making this video you always calm me down


Yup I would of panic too, proud of you dodie! 💛💛💛


can i just say i really like the clever title in this video hahaha, anyway, im glad despite having a panic attack you still got to enjoy the event dodie :)


Had a bad day, your video made it better. Thank you so much dodie, I love you


It feels the same way developing film in a darkroom! Very scary and exciting at the same time. :)


I'm horrified of the dark. I have a nightlight in my room and I have to have someone with me at all times whenever I'm in any sort of darkness or I start panicking. I can totally understand your fear, and honestly I would have left that place as soon as it got to the point that I couldn't see anything around me. I'm happy that you stuck it through and it ended up being a decent experience!


Dodie can I just say how much I love your videos. No matter what anybody says you are amazing and if you see this please remember that even if your upset you’ve got so many people that love you. So thanks for everything you do.


you had me at 'panic!'. i mean you have me anyway. but you had me more this time. you had me plus an extra leg. you had a three legged me.


I love panic! at the dark they're are my favorite band!1!1!!11!


"I guess the moral is to try new things, and to stick it out when things get really scary"  this was perfect, especially since i decided to try some new classes this year! (Not to mention it just means that i should just power through when my classes get difficult! )


Well done Dodie, you stuck through and did it xxx


this video was really reasurring, like I tell myself all the time that I can do the scary stuff but it's nice to have someone else say it


Going to one of those restaurants has been on my bucket list since I first watched About Time!


I'm pretty much going in the dark within two weeks to move into student accommodation with strangers - ahh. This was a nice reminder that it's good to do the scary stuff! :)


i just panicked hearing you describing the situation omggg i feel like that every time i’m in total dark. sometimes the lights goes out while i’m asleep and i just wake up DYING


I had a panic attack today and I'm in such a bad mood. I mean I was but this actually made me feel better and calm ❤ Thanks Dodie


dodie!! i'm proud of u for staying at the restaurant even though you were panicking at first ! ilusm


My parents did this! It's very much an experience and not a relaxing social dinner. I would probably have a panic attack too, but I do kind of want to try it.


Lol imagine having a friend who is as understanding as Dodie's ! So wholesome!! Mine just call me weird if I show any anxiety symptom haha


Good on you for sticking it out, so proud of you.


I've been in absolute darkness before it honestly was so strange, I hated that my eyes never adjusted to the dark, it was terrifying because I am so scared of the dark. I sleep with the light on and two cats on my bed so I don't feel alone. The fact my dog was next to me in the absolute darkness (I was in a cave btw) was the only reason I didn't freak out.


I had a similar experience when I was in a cave and the guide switched off the flash light in the middle of the visit during lunch... it was quite trippy. It was like a black hole kinda black, like Vantablack, and the silence... was deafening... like I could hear my pulse kinda silence. The guide tapped the cave walls for us the feel the vibrations when he wanted to talk... cuz he didn't want anyone to have a heart attack. It sounds kinda scary but it wasn't really and loved it! :D


I actually got to experience something similar like,, it was a bunch of rooms with different stuff in them and the darkness felt exactly like you described, everyone was yelling and I just totally spaced out, stopped paying attention to the screams and it felt like I was floating in the space or something. truly a magical experience


i would absolutely love to try this! i'm not an anxious/panic attack person but i do get kinda scared when i'm in the dark and i think there's something behind me and i get all paranoid and i'm just like paralyzed.. but at the same time i'd like to see how i react knowing i'm surrounded by people and stuff... sounds like a very interesting experience!


That sounds like my worst nightmare ahahaha you did amazing x


I love About Time!! I'm proud of you for trying that restaurant and glad that you enjoyed it!


Ilysm dodie💛thanks for the little life lesson at the end. I'll keep it in mind 😊


Ok, this is the last time I'll ask this. I would love to have the new EP on CD and vinyl, will there be more copies? It's currently sold out,


I went to a restaurant like that in Vancouver and it was an amazing experience, I swear the food tasted better because all I could focus on was the taste (it was super unnerving though, it took quite a while to get used to it)


I can already hear the panic! Fans coming....

Angelica Flores <b>gross sobbing</b> HEY MOON DON'T YOU GO DOWN

Angelica Flores *gross sobbing* HEY MOON DON'T YOU GO DOWN

+lilacsockerinos HEY MOON PLZ FALL DOWN GODDAMNIT

Lindsey_ 234 and I thought I was being quiet...

if all our life is but a dream
fantastic posing greed
and we should feed our jewelry to the sea
for diamonds do appear to be, just like broken glass to me.

and then she said she cant believe, genius only comes along in tales of fabled foreign tounges.
dripping eyes and flooded lungs
northern downpour sends its love

Lindsey_ 234 I CHIMED IN WITH HAVEN'T YOU PEOPLE EVER HEARD OF

what's a blurryface *who is blurryface your eyes are the size of the mmoooonnn

Madeline Julia WE WERE BORN TO SHIP VICTURI

Pepe YOU COULD CAUSE YOU CAN SO YOU DOOOO

what's a blurryface *who is blurryface and your eyes are the size of the moooooonnnnn

what's a blurryface <b>who is blurryface, DO DO *DOOOO</b>

what's a blurryface *who is blurryface, DO DO *DOOOO*

Lindsey_ 234 cause it's nine in the affteerrrnnooooooonn


I love this video. It really turned my day around :) also! Dodie I would love if you could answer this in a snap video or something idk but Is your new book going to be sold at Chapters?


I went to a restaurant called "O noir" in Montréa back when I was in high school. It was the same concept, and I quite enjoyed myself! :) I found it extremely hard to eat with a fork though... ended up eating with my hands close to the end. XD


I once went to an experience thingy where we walked as a group in complete darkness (so yeah I get what you mean when you said your optic nerve was chopped off suddenly) through like a series of terrains (like through a simulation of the city, a bedroom, across a bridge etc) and it was really cool but super scary because you never know where your next step would take you but it was a good thing to experience how blind people experienced the world, while getting to converse and know them (they hired visually impaired people to be guides) and yeah sure it was scary af but I think it really helps build on my compassion


i had such a similar experience when i did an escape room. it was risky for me because i purposefully avoid situations like that. they put us in these shackles so i couldn't move my hands and it never got super dark but it did get pretty dark and i started panicking immediately because even though i knew that i could leave whenever the idea of an escape room is that you're trapped and my brain was like NO THANKS. but i stuck it out to the end and i'm glad i did


the lights in the background are always perfect😍😍


I did this once with my grandmother and my aunt.. I casually came out as bi while we were sitting in this overwhelming darkness...<br>Also, you couldn't really tell whether you still had food on your plate or not, so we just ate with our fingers and let me tell you something, it was the most delicious dinner I've ever had

I did this once with my grandmother and my aunt.. I casually came out as bi while we were sitting in this overwhelming darkness...
Also, you couldn't really tell whether you still had food on your plate or not, so we just ate with our fingers and let me tell you something, it was the most delicious dinner I've ever had


M8 well done you for sticking out the evening! The worst feeling is going somewhere, feeling hella uncomfortable and it taking over the evening.

Also

THAT GAME SOUNDS SO COOL.


I went to a dark cafe once and my brain suddenly thought the rooms was spinning although I knew it wasn't and after like half a minute I felt so nauseous I thought I would throw up. But I kinda survived it lol


Dear dodie, as someone who has panic attacks as well, its really nice to know how others react to and deal with panic attacks.


Lord Voldemort I think I might have found it at bnm actually but I'm not sure where one is in London but it was £2 something sorry I can't remember 😂💙

Chloe Armitage do you know how much it is and where one in London is??

I also found the same one in B&M if that's helpful!

douglasings if you're in England it's from home bargains and is v cheap 💛


Ugh i know ive already commented this on her last video but dodie you are my idol, you have helped me through more than i can explain  and i didnt get a ticket to your concert in dublin and im heartbroken :( love you !


This was a very interesting and cool story!! Thanks for sharing!


I looooooove these storytime videos dodes !!!


i've been a couple times in a dark bar and it's AMAZING! also, the waiters are a married blind couple and they're soooooo cuuuuuute


I'm fucked up is this real or are you just messing people because you said "band"

Anneliese Jones I see father frank in your pfp...yee

WE ARE e v e r y w h e r e WERE TAKING OVER MY DUDES

Dalien Howlter first Dan now Brendon...WHO WILL THE REBRANDING MONSTER TAKE NEXT


This was a great video. I can't explain why. It was just great.


ahhh i wanna do this, it sounds so cool!! not on my own though bc i hate darkness when i'm alone lol


I'm starting college in four days and the moral of this story was much needed today thank you <3


I had a horrible experience where I was followed by a guy and approached today who wouldn't leave me alone and I just watched nearly all your songs to calm me down as I keep thinking about what could have happened if I hadn't gotten away. So thank you for helping even though you will never know it xx


Sometimes I feel disconnected from reality, like I'm almost floating while I walk, like a ghost. Or sometimes my head spins around and around like I'm in a hanging chair


The title sounds like an emo teen's youtube username


this sounds like such a cool experience?? i love the movie 'about time' and desperately want to go to a restaurant like that!


I went to this "dark room" with my class once, which is based on the same concept but it's not a restaurant so we just walked around with our blind leader in the pitch black (i can't explain it better than you did it really was so dark that my mind started making up things that i couldn't see but somehow i thought i did and at some point i had to genuinely think about if i had my eyes open or closed) and it was very scary because they placed objects in the middle of the path on purpose so we would stumble because that was "a part of the experience" but after all i survived so yay


I want to do that because experience, but between my anxiety around alcohol, darkness, and all my food restrictions, that sounds like an absolute nightmare. I'm really glad you pushed through it Dodie 💛 keep up the you


i TOTALLY get what you meant about the freakishly dark thing! I went in a restaurant like that and i forgot to blink, I started seeing stars and swirls and panicked too so dont be worried for the experience you had


Have literally just booked a table there now you've reminded me of the film!! very excited :D


This is the most real, honest channel I've ever seen. I need this.


a lil french tip: the "s" at the end of most words isn't pronounced at all UNLESSSS there's a vowel at the start of the word after it. (the letter h also counts as a vowel I guess)


Hey Dodie, this is a bit random and I know I don't really know you as a person but I just want to say that you really seem like a wonderful person.
Your videos can really calm me down sometimes and when I need it, even make me cry. Like I said, in reality, I don't know you, but I just wanted to say that somehow you've calmed me  down and I'm really grateful for that.
Thank you, from Roan


When I was younger I went to dialogue in the dark (that's what it's called where I live) it's when you walk through different rooms that should recreate different scenarios like a market or a bar or something similar. Everything was fine until we were at the bar. I didn't really know where my parents were but I could hear them when we ordered our drinks. We then had to go around a corner to sit down but I kind of lost everyone and had a little panic attack so I can completely feel how you have felt in that situation. I started crying pretty heavily and the blind guy who guided us through the rooms noticed it and asked if someone knew who was crying. So my parents told them that it was me and he found me and was very friendly but I don't want to do it again. Maybe I will in a few years but I've never felt this lost in my entire life.


I feel like I should do something like this. I get panic attacks from stuff like that. I wanna prove I can stick it out with something like this.


About Time is such an underrated movie! I'm so glad you mentioned it and it's so cool that this place exists in real life. :)


Wow I sure love the new album from Panic! In The Dark


About is one of my favourite movies ever!<br>Would love to do the blind eating thing aswell somewhen! :D

About is one of my favourite movies ever!
Would love to do the blind eating thing aswell somewhen! :D


honestly i think its really cool that you stuck it out despite having a literal actual panic attack


I love when you do Veda. I like seeing these short cute videos all the time


"my brain was making silver spirals."
slurp

omg i love this so much

"my brain was making silver spirals."
*slurp*

omg i love this so much


this absolutely sounds like something i want to do but i know that at least one of my friends would freak out and not be able to handle it.


I want to hear how you and stevie described each other because I feel like you two were sweet and adorable as always andIlowkeyshipit


I've taken film photography classes and to develop the film you have to take it out of the little canister and wrap it around a spool, then into a light-proof tin where you can put the chemicals and such to develop it. But the transfer has to happen in a darkroom so the film doesn't get exposed. Every time I went into those darkrooms it was just like you described, like your optic nerve has been disconnected. I just kept blinking looking for any light and there's none, and then you realize it doesn't matter if your eyes are open or shut because it's pitch black either way! So freaky.


i remember one night as a child, there was a tornado watch so my family slept in the basement. my sister and i slept in this little area under the stairs. there was a little light attached to the wall that you push down on to turn on. i remember waking up and seeing just pitch darkness and not knowing if my eyes were open (as weird as that sounds lol) and i thought i might've been dreaming. it freaked me out a bit. the "opening your eyes made no difference" part made me think of this


There is a place near where i live, where you go into a pitch black room with the sticks that blind people have and experience different situations like a blind person. In one part you are in a boat, in another you are riding the tram and you pass through a park and its very interesting cause all the people helping you through the course are actually blind and at the end you get to ask them some questions. Me as a very shy person normally somehow just became social butterfly because i couldnt see at all and i was really surprised because i could easily talk to people i was intimidated by before. it was a really cool experience.


i've been there and also i went to a blind play which was the coolest thing ever bc it was literally pitch black, you couldn't see any light or movement but you could hear the voices of the actors and it was v v cool


"This darkness is unlike any darkness I've ever experienced." This is... ADVANCED DARKNESS.


one time I went camping with my family to sequoia and we went to a very  cool cave. It was very well lit and and relaxing to see nature untouched, but then they offered to turn of the lights for a a few minutes. I was very excited to see what it would look like, and to my surprise I couldn't. see. a. thing. I felt what dodie said about blinking and not seeing the difference and it was very disorienting because it was like your eyes weren't working and I was about to start panicking but the light came back on before anything else could happen but I realized that going blind is one of my worse fears


You're literally my favourite person ever. You just radiate sunshine and daisys..idek... :)


i want to find a compilation of dofie's intros i just find the clicks and snaps and claps so satisfying


How much I love Dodie. I've seen this story twice on her Snapchat and stayed for this video.
Side Note: 666k subscriber. Dodie what is this?!!

How much I love Dodie. I've seen this story twice on her Snapchat and stayed for this video.
*Side Note:* 666k subscriber. Dodie what is this?!!


I feel you with the out of control of your body panic attacks. Especially with the mouth numbing at the dentist


There is something about this video that makes it the sweetest thing!!


I want to do this !!!! I know I'd be scared as fuck and the idea of it makes me terribly nervous but yes to trying new things !!!


I've done that before, the blind dining!!!  It was very fun


I think one thing I kind of always struggle with is that not all experiences in life have to be one thing. In fact most of the time its a mix of emotions, like you said things can be so scary and yet interesting and fun, and one can over think trying to feel just one way


I know what you mean with the extreme darkness. I went to a museum that shows you what it's like to be blind and you go through different situations in the dark. I didn't get a panic attack but I felt kind of numb and my eyes hurt,it was freaky. That's obviously not comparable,but I get what you mean


This happens at work sometimes i break into panic after my shift or if I'm very unlucky during my shift. I have sensory processing so any large amount of sensory overload shocks me and i break into panic, i work as a carryout and host and theres so much noise from the phone ringing and kitchen and people talking its hard to focus ever. Once my ears shut down and my anxiety goes so does my memory and trying to explain this to my boss is impossible, disociation for me has always erasure from any recent memories or creating blockage around important. Its scary thats why i avoid these places to have a little more control. If i could quit my job work a different one and still afford college i would.


I had 3 or 4 panic attacks today. I went on my first rollercoaster. It was terrifying. Especially when my family pushed me onto rides when I felt too ill. While it was a fun and good experience, I wish they would have respected my boundaries and didn't push me.. Anxiety sucks!


YOU LOOK SO CUTE AND YOUR EYEBROWS LOOK AMAZING (making the front of them lighter really works on you)


Honestly since I began having  DPDR I had gained so so many fears. I used to have hardly any (apart from when I was actually in danger) but now I am scared of the dark, heights (I used to love heights), vehicles, some animals, and so much. I used to love climbing trees so much but the other day my dad climbed a tree and I was super panicked and my sister went on  a bike ramp and I could barely look


They have the same thing here in Toronto called O Noir. Unfortunately my friends were extra and tried to be clumsy but I really want to go again and have a real try at it because it was so unique and I feel like I would have enjoyed it more had I been with people who took it more seriously


This is a great video but how did you do that snapping part?<br>That was amazing

This is a great video but how did you do that snapping part?
That was amazing


This makes me feel so many things.. this might be random but I'm currently by myself right now in a foreign country for the first time, and I had like 2 or 3 really really great days but then also 2 days that were kinda shit and I started "feeling bad for feeling bad" or more like "feeling bad for having intrusive thoughts, for being sensitive, for having a mental illness".. and dodie, you kinda remind me that it's possible to be a bit crazy and still have a good time <b>and that being down sometimes doesn't devalidate the entire experience</b> which is my main point here. anyway. great veda. I enjoyed it<3

This makes me feel so many things.. this might be random but I'm currently by myself right now in a foreign country for the first time, and I had like 2 or 3 really really great days but then also 2 days that were kinda shit and I started "feeling bad for feeling bad" or more like "feeling bad for having intrusive thoughts, for being sensitive, for having a mental illness".. and dodie, you kinda remind me that it's possible to be a bit crazy and still have a good time *and that being down sometimes doesn't devalidate the entire experience* which is my main point here. anyway. great veda. I enjoyed it<3


Panic! In the dark, the hit new band watch out for I write sins not lanterns and vegas lamps


i need this so much rigt now. I started a new job yesterday and ive been crying just by the thought of going back there today. It's so scary but i'll stick it out


I went to an art exhibition with a friend the other day and the final installation was fully participation based. So i though oh this could be a cool experience (probably should mention that I struggle with panic attacks too lol). So they put blindfold on and noise cancelling headphones and lead us into a room to be alone with our thoughts without any possible distractions. The second I lost sense of hearing and seeing I started having a panic attack. Conclusion- fuck modern art.


I went on vacation with my family and I was in an Air-B&B and I had the biggest anxiety attack I've ever had.<br>I legit almost passed out. It was interesting and I understand anxiety attacks so much more because of it

I went on vacation with my family and I was in an Air-B&B and I had the biggest anxiety attack I've ever had.
I legit almost passed out. It was interesting and I understand anxiety attacks so much more because of it


My husband and I had our first date at Dans Le Noir seven years ago! <3 I loooooved it and spilt food all over my face

We went back for our anniversary but this time went in Barcelona and that was SO much harder because when the waiters try to explain what's going on they're speaking Spanish so I felt TOTALLY in the dark!


I love dodie and veda.  But them both together 😀😀😀😀😀


there was this thing i went for when i was younger called dialogue in the dark i think?? and it was kind of similar like there was a whole set of different places and settings but everything was pitch black and our tour guide was blind!! it was so coooool


This is the second wild story involving Stevie. I want to be friends with Stevie now (and dodie, but that's been known)


Wow that sounds so cool, I'd love to try new stuff like that but I just don't know how.


At my school a few years back we began to host an event like this in our gym for the high schoolers in collaboration with the Blind Cafe. It's honestly one of the most interesting, eye opening, (and super fun) experiences I've ever had. We got to sit and make friends with totally random students in the school without visual stereotyping, learn more about the blind community, and we were even treated to some spoken word poetry and a music performance. And because of the club I'm in at my school, I got to help contribute to setting up the entire event! It's a nice way to put things into perspective. But I can understand why it can cause someone such panic. I got to see the logistics of the entire set up, so I understood why the room was so dark and how it worked. Plus, being with a room full of your acquaintances makes it a little less nerve wracking. But I'm glad you were able to enjoy some of the experience and would like to go again! :)


This is what happened when all your band members leave


My favorite thing to do is sit with my friend in her room in the pitch black darkness and just talk. I really really really want to do this one day


that sounds like such a cool experience, i would love to go there someday


i sleep with my blinds and curtains shut and cover any source of light in my room, so every night my room is as black as you're describing. and i sleep with a mask on. so i love that kind of darkness lol but i think it would be interesting to try to eat in that environment, i'd be afraid i'd miss my face hahah


as someone that has a big fear of the dark, i would probably never be able to do this, but goddamn i really really want to


i think what you describe is technically called an anxiety attack--when the reaction occurs in response to a stressor and when you're removed from the situation you don't have one. whereas panic attacks occur "willy-nilly" as you say haha. just thought it might help when explaining to others what you're experiencing! great vid dodie!


(Thanks dodie for kind of helping me calm down bc I was kind of in the middleofrelapsingbc I thought I'd have most of the day off so I had work mentally planned to do and my dad took me to see the eclipse bc I'm in America and instead of seeing it and driving home he made me go to an aquarium with him too and there was tons of traffic and I didn't get home until 10:30 and so i basically have to stay up till like the AM getting everything done and I was panicking and angry and I took a bit of a break to watch this and I'm a bit better thank you)


I recently did something kind of similar.. For one of my friends birthdays she invited me and some other girls to an escape room. I have anxiety and dissociate when I'm not in crontrol or I'm trapped in a situation but I really wanted to go to the birthday party. So I went. They blindfolded us and we had to form a line. I was holding on to one of my friends shoulders and my best friend was holding on to mine. It slowly got darker as we walked into this tiny dark space I couldn't see. I felt my heart beating so fast and my mind was on a loop of 'I can't do this' and 'get the hell out of here'. But my friends were excited and it was too late to leave without ruining it for everyone. And even though it was really scary solving the puzzles and the exhilarating feeling when we finally escaped was worth it. I love the message of the video because it's so true. Avoiding stuff just plays into the hands of my mental illness and I can still get out and have fun!


I've hated the dark since a traumatic year 5 camping trip with a laser pointer ahah my friends thought it was fun to pull a prank on lil 9 year old me. They told me if the laser went in my face I would be blinded ahhh how terrible I thought. We were in a shack with no lights, and with no torches it was pitch black. So they put the laser near ma face and then <del>bam</del> all torches off no light oh dear. I thought I was blind I was like flailing round crashing into walls wailing, lol, till late at night (like 10 but hush). Then, a mum came in - and woah it was like the gates to heaven so much sight flooded my eyes. It was ''sooooo funny'' to everyone else but it was quite a scarring experience if I do say so myself.

I've hated the dark since a traumatic year 5 camping trip with a laser pointer ahah my friends thought it was fun to pull a prank on lil 9 year old me. They told me if the laser went in my face I would be blinded ahhh how terrible I thought. We were in a shack with no lights, and with no torches it was pitch black. So they put the laser near ma face and then -bam- all torches off no light oh dear. I thought I was blind I was like flailing round crashing into walls wailing, lol, till late at night (like 10 but hush). Then, a mum came in - and woah it was like the gates to heaven so much sight flooded my eyes. It was ''sooooo funny'' to everyone else but it was quite a scarring experience if I do say so myself.


Tbh i relate to you so much with the depersonalization dodie, mine has been awful and even last year when my depression finally let up i couldnt bring myself back to reality. i think i've been depersonalized every day consistently for the past 2 (maybe soon to be 3) years honestly, except for those 'flashes or reality' you described. I hope it lets up for you soon. That experience sounded really scary but i'm glad you were still able to have a good time too, and that not all of the experience was bad :)


About Time is amazing! My first kiss happened while me and my boyfriend were watching it on Valentine's day.


About a movie i watched about your videos and you’re so beautiful like wtf!! 😍😍😍

Helena Salvi april, august and vedif for February

no its almost because she's not quite posting a video every day, hence why they put 'almost' after the 'e' xx

Is it almost because veda usually is vlogging everyday in april? Sorry I'm new to the channel, and I'm used to veda only in april on other channels 😅

About a movie NOA PLEASE DO VEDA TOO!! or I guess it would be vedis, but please do it I love your channel and I think it would be good for your channel and you (and me)! Obviously, you don't have to, but it would be super cool!!


Dodie, your beautiful even if no one can see you. No panic, just beauty. ily


Hanna Holland Yea but did Snapchat see she's at 666k subs? 😭😭😭


I've never thought that you and Hedy look much alike but when you said "good on you, pat pat pat," you suddenly looked exactly like her to me and it was strange and cool.


Something I find helpful in grounding myself is wearing either a strong perfume or scented hand cream and smelling it when I feel myself starting to dissociate. You might look a bit weird sniffing yourself but it's really helped me.


i have a hUGE fear of the dark, that only recently got huge because of me being wayyy more anxious all the time than before, and this sounds like a horror story to me lmao. ive been in that pitch blackness before and I couldn't see my hand and panicked so much, luckily it wasn't dark for long. I don't even remember what happened I just remembered the darkness

also its funny that I prefer darkness and nighttime yet I'm so scared of it


Dodie I love you and I find you very inspiring


Please do another tour soon, I didn't get tickets too see you in London and I love your album so much! Please 😌☀


i already saw this on snapchat but i'm still coming to watch this


i totally get the panic attack thing when you're not in control that's why i avoid roller coasters completely but ive always been interesting in sensory deprivation tanks because it seems interesting, maybe i'll check out this place the next time im in london :)


What does she use to edit her thumbnails/videos 😍

I just discovered this channel btw. You’re super cool. And your voice 😍😍


i feel like the way you edited this with the zooming is very good at making me feel tense about an experience i haven't even had... maybe it would freak me out too if i went.


I thought you were going to sing a panic! mashup in the dark lmao BUT THIS WAS SO COOL. I WANNA GO THERE AND GIVE MYSELF A PANIC ATTACK AND THEN CALM DOWN AND MEET FRIENDS AND PLAY THAT GAME. Sounds fun (well ofc not the panic attack part, but i'm kind of intrigued to see how you felt?)


i will never get over your vibe, it's so calming!


You should try sensory deprivation tanks. It has actually worked to help some people with anxiety or depression, and once you get past the panic attack it might be really good for you! I have a friend with anxiety and he has disassociation issues as well and he is thinking about trying one to see how it feels.


Lol like a couple hours after watching this video I had a panic attack. I was watching a video about some weird experience with pizza and the topic of death came up in my head and I began to panic thinking about how we were all going to die and that I was going to die and it just...! I was not ok.


aw, i remember watching this video on the first day of school, waiting for my bus to get there. what a good time xx


Yeah that feeling when u dissociate so hard u override ur panic attack and it's just like ???? this is fine ????


I had a really similar experience in a blind museum. One of the worst rest panic attacks of my life.


About Time is one of my favorite movies! When you snapped about going to do that, I immediately thought of the movie.


I would freak oh my gosh.😖😭😂lol I love the quick sips of tea cause the anxiety, I can totally relate.


i’d chime in with a haven’t you people ever heard of, closing the goddamn door?

I was gonna make a joke but couldn’t come up with anything..

*i’d chime in with a haven’t you people ever heard of, closing the goddamn door?*

I was gonna make a joke but couldn’t come up with anything..


I just freaked the fuck out at this video because I have never heard of this restaurant & live in the US, yet I had a dream a few months ago where everything you just described happened to me except instead I was on a date with someone and my panic attack woke me up... I'm kinda shook rn and this is the strangest experience ever


It's interesting. I have DPD (depersonalization). Like it's major. Like major depersonalization. But when I went to this place called Dialog in the Dark, I was the bomb at it. Like I loved it. My other senses had to kick in, and my hearing is very good, so I was like the leader and loved it. Whatever, yay.


looove this!! About time is my favorite movie and now I reaaaally really want to do it! Is it very very pricey?


I did the exact same thing in Tel Aviv, Israel, and it was amazing. Except, so the whole idea is that you can't see so you really appreciate your other senses and the taste of the food, but I happened to be very sick, with a blocked nose. So I couldn't see, smell, or taste the food, and instead of appreciating the food without my sense of sight, the pasta just felt slimy and weird. Still amazing experience though haha :P


"Dans Le Noir" is the most creative name for an in-the-dark restaurant considering it literally translates to "In The Black/Dark"


Who else already knows what happens because of dodies Snapchat story 😂


I had a panic attack last night and this helped. :)


When you already saw it on snapchat and you feel special that you know it


You are absolutely beautiful Dodie. I love you!


I got my shirt today. I'm in love with it!!!


I went to this blind experience museum type thing and I'm very glad I wasn't alone.


I honestly don't care that it's not actually VEDA. The point of it is that I get to see more Dodie!! Which <b>is</b> happening, so I am happy. :) <3

I honestly don't care that it's not actually VEDA. The point of it is that I get to see more Dodie!! Which *is* happening, so I am happy. :) <3


I have had a random panicky thing like that before

I was laughing and crying at the same time, because I was laughing at myself, but

ya know

but it was in the light near everyone i know :')


I once went to a similar thing. Inside a house they had built typical every day situations like a market and I think a small bridge and trees (can't remember too well. that was maybe 10 years ago). We were also led by a blind guide. It was pitch black and the only orientation we had were sounds. I can remember that I was really impressed because even though I couldn't see a thing with my eyes, my brain had a pretty vivid idea of what my surrounding looked like. At the end of the tour we got to a Café in the dark that had little booths to sit in. My best friend was in front of me and somehow I felt like I saw her sit down to the right, so I sat next to her. The bench was rather hard and uncomfortable. That's what we thought until our lovely guide told us that we were sitting on the table :D All in all I'd love to do something like that again!


about a month ago i went on vacation to florida and we had to stay the night at a house id never been in before and the thing with me is that every time i sleep i have some sort of light on like i have fairy lights in my room and when i'm not home i like to have the curtains of whatever room i'm sleeping in open. but with the house we stayed in, the curtains didn't open, and it was so dark that i had the literal exact same reaction, i was panicking so so badly because i was holding my hand right in front of my eyes but i couldn't see it and blinking hard and seeing no difference. it's the most panicked i have been in a long while and i had almost forgotten about it but this reminded me. i'm sorry that you had to feel that same panic, dodie


I used to go to a college for the blind and we used to do this for people and it was awesome, I'm blind so the blind viewers bit made me laugh but I'm sorry you had a panic attack... I have night blindness which means that dark you experienced is the dark I experience after a certain level of darkness so it's interesting to see what your experience was :)


I've never had, like, a panic attack where I'm hyperventilating and stuff like that, but when I got my ears pierced my body slowly started going, "Crap! No! Something's wrong. We've been shot! We've been shot! Man down! Man down!" and I started to get really woozy and I almost fainted. Luckily my mum managed to get me to a coffee shop so I could sit down before I did. She got me an iced chocolate and I just sat there sipping it, focusing so much on trying not to pass out and being like, "No, it's okay, it's okay. Calm down, it's fine," while my mum went to buy the medicated oil I needed to put on my ears for the next month or so. I didn't end up passing out, thank goodness. But the kid at the table next to mine was looking at me weird so I must have looked extremely pale. I also got really dizzy and brain panicky when I took my earrings out once only to find that the hole was still bleeding. Again, my brain went, "No! This is wrong! Man down! Man down!" And I couldn't put the earring all the way through at first so it was also like, "Crap! Are we gonna have to do that all over again?!?!" So I lay down on my bed and put some of the oil on my ear (cause apparently that helps and it did, I got the earring back in). Also, before the first story, I'd never almost fainted before so that was a bit scary.


I saw this on your snapchat story!! Ilysm Dodie ❤


I just want her and stevie to become a thing because what a power couple they'd be


Diamond Rose i hope so! Everytime she mentions Stevie is so adorable and when she says she's skinny and slim she looks so happy


Dodie:I could feel my heart racing
Dodie-has fingers on pulse on neck....
😂


omg i went to this it was absolutely amazing, the food was crazy aswell! ❤❤


Im very afraid of the dark but i think knowing my friends are there may help


I just read her teacup and I'm so proud of myself:

IT'S "LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL", IN CASE ANYONE WAS WONDERINGGGGG


it's a bit early [in germany] and I first thought this is a video about 'dancing in the park' and fastly woke up causd I was so happy about such a video and the next look I saw...oh.


When you said how the person with you described how you look like i started analysing your face AND IT MADE ME REALISE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE AND ALL YOUR FACIAL DETAILS AND AHH 💛


I THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA BE A PANIC! COVER!!!!!!! DO ANOTHER ONE PLZZZZZ


"I know I'm safe,my body is freaking out for no reason "  story of my lifeeee😫😫


This is irrelevant:
but can we get a You Deluxe version plx

with party tattoos and I knew you once.

Would be nice.
thanks.


I remember my worst panic attack was on a plane, as you said you get panic attacks when your body isn't in control that's what my body was like. My hearing went completely and my older sister was trying to talk me down from it but I couldn't hear anything until we where up in the air and she finally talked me down. I'd never had a panic attack where it's caused me to loose my hearing temporarily so I thought for a second that I'd gone deaf. It was horrific and I've never been on a plane since, I've always been scared of flying hut that just tipped me over the edge.


just imagine being sat in there and dodie just comes to sit next to you


love how she points out that blind "viewer" cannot actually view the videos, but only in text


I had the exact same experience going into a similar restaurant. Only problem is - I get truth bombs when I'm in panic attacks.


DODIE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY BUT I LOVE YOU ALOT A A A A A <3 <3 <3


I feel like I know which dark it is. I feel like you're wrapped in dark, like a dark blanket. I guess...?


I get a panic attack whenever I get squeamish and it's terrifying. It's a mix of loosing all of the blood in my head and loosing all of my senses


saw the title and thought you were gonna sing a panic song in the dark,,, anyway, i had an experience like this recently. not in a dark restaurant but i had done this sort of zip line obstacle course thing?? it was very long and high up. at first it was alright but as i had continued, it started to get more precarious and the obstacles were less stable and smaller and just generally terrifying omg. i had to quit halfway though because my brain just kept saying "i don't like this i don't like this i don't like this". but i was proud that i at least tried it and got halfway through. i think it's very important to be proud of yourself for trying something you normally wouldn't, even if you do panic. i'm happy that you're proud of yourself and happy that you stuck through. that's definitely something to be proud of, because it's difficult to stick through something when you're panicking because all you want to do is get out of the situation. idk but this video made me happy 💛


Fun fact for you, Dodie! The reason you get a panic attack when you get a novocaine injection at the dentist ISN'T (probably) because of the injection process, but more likely because of the fact that novocaine contains adrenaline. I didn't know this until I became chronically ill and had to be concerned with things that effect my heart rate and my doctor was like "oh yeah, if you go to the dentist, ask for the novocaine that doesn't have adrenaline in it." and I was like "excUSE ME!?" because I'd always wondered why I always got all panic-y at the dentist when I'm generally a very calm person. NOW I KNOW WHY! SO yes, obvi being in an uncomfortable weird poke-y situation can be panic inducing, BUT it might also be the ADRENALINE THEY JUST SHOT INTO YOUR GUMS. OK, end novocaine rant. Back to the video...


Yo should do One for the road for Veda, it's one of my favorite songs


I've just started rowing and I'm so nervous to go in a proper single scull for the first time. But this really helped calm my nerves even though it's in 2 days. The thought of me making a fool out of myself terrifies me. The thought of embarrassing myself in front of the people I am trying to impress makes me nauseous, which CLEARLY isn't helpful when you're in a boat that's thinner than your are.


Im the same kind of person when it comes to panic attacks, i only have them when i cant control my body


when I had camp earlier this year, we sort of hiked through this cave and were in this giant room called the ballroom I think and it's honestly so fucking big and the ceiling (well, stalactites and rock) is so high above us and it's so beautiful and we played games where we all put our torches in a line further away that where we were sitting in the sand/ground and turned them off and held hands in a big circle of like almost 20 people and walked in the circle but like we couldn't see where we ended up to know where the torches were (I tried moving my body to face the area of the torches while the circle went around, and it worked the second time we did it! I found a torch first !) and after the game we all sat in a circle and they told us that we're all going to turn them off again and were going to sit there in pitch black + total silence for two minutes and ohmygoD I was so excited because I absolutely love that and so we turned them all off and I laid back from a sitting position and looked up and it's literally completely black, and your eyes are trying to find things to see and your brain starts making stuff out of nothing but the s i l e n c e oh my god it was fascinating ?? lying there with no sound apart from your own breathing and not even being able to see or sense your hand in front of your face, and I could just imagine myself anywhere but it was crazy because there was another 19 people in that room but you couldn't tell because they didn't make a noise, and you'd start to question if maybe you were actually alone and every time it gets almost pitch black now I try to feel it again but I can't and it makes me a lil sad and I sort of crave it now, maybe a sensory deprivation tank would be similar but the cave was so impossibly big even without seeing it so I feel like it wouldn't be the same. well ye that's my story. Without sound as well as without light is absolutely amazing, and if you can get past panic attacks and just lying there and pushing every worry out of your head, it's the most amazing experience you'll ever have

it'd be cool if you ever saw this lol but I assume you won't


I panic when I get the injections too, can't wait to get them tomorrow. (Yay) 😭😭

Frank Dinie I get what you mean I was the exact same but tea really helped me ahah. Tea help all anxiety for me really 😂

Mkkio Harts when you get the gel ask to put the injection in straight after. The gel isn't the best but it does work a lot at the start

Bryony The Overthinking Pigeon I get the gas and air with the injections it really works ahah.

Ellen Claire honestly the first few seconds is the worst just concentrate on your breathing and then it starts to get numb and it gets so much better so quickly and afterwards just have a lot of tea/coffee/ warm drink, it really soothes your gums.ahah I hope that helps

Ari ohtheplaceswewillroll Omg thanks you so much and I believe in you too my grandma used to work in hospitals so I met a lot of her patients and they all seemed so sad but you seem very joyful and knowing that you can still se happiness make me happier in a way if that even makes sense. But continue to be strong💖💪x

omg I have mine on the 31st of august and am soooooo scared

Ravenclawesome I know  it's such a nice thing and thanks

You've got this! I have life threatening chronic illness and disabilities and am pretty much always watching Dodie's lovely videos from my hospital room she really does help me. Just breathe remember H.O.P.E hold on pain ends and it'll be over in two seconds. It's really not even the needle itself I think it's people just overly freaking out about it that is the biggest part. It helps if someone scratches your hand or maybe gently pinches your hand to divert your attention(Being chronically ill my entire life eventually I had no choice but to just get used to constant surgeries poking prodding etc. I have basically like a permanent IV called a central line that's surgically tunneled into my chest and goes straight to my heart since I can't eat and rely on IV nutrition called TPN and it definitely took some getting used to but I did and if I can get used to permanent tubes and lines and hospitals I pinky promise you can get through a few quick injections I believe in you! 💖💪🏻🌼🙏🏻

I just had mine today and it was not as bad as my brain was telling me.But I do have high anxiety when it comes to needles

Oh god I have the most intense phobia of needles, I really do feel your pain! I really hope you can get through it, but if not, depending on where you live I think you can have them done with anaesthetic so you don't feel it so it makes it easier <3 wishing you a lotta luck and love


I've repeated  the intro like 500 times before really watching the whole video.. <br>Give me your mic dodie

I've repeated  the intro like 500 times before really watching the whole video..
Give me your mic dodie


DODIE doesn't panic. But when she does, she panics in the dark

I don't mean to be offensive don't take this seriously >♡<


"Panic in the dark" ah one of my many past times👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻


i thought this was gonna be a mashup of a panic! song and writer in the dark LMAO but i loved this vid!!!


less panic! more forehead I LOVE WATERPARKS I GOT TO SEE THEM ON TOUR WITH ALL TIME LOW

Panic! I wasn't invited to the disco LUCKY FUCK


Hey. Brilliant story. Sounds like a really interesting experience.


When you watched Dodie's snapchat story & watched it all happen in real time! :))


I wanted to go here so badly when I visited London this past summer!!! But my brother didn't want to :( It sounds so cool!!


I am so terrified of the dark oml I just start shaking when I turn off the light in the hallway


IS SHE DATING STEVIE????? I SHIP IT<br>(also I'M WATCHING THE L WORD TOO what the hell)

IS SHE DATING STEVIE????? I SHIP IT
(also I'M WATCHING THE L WORD TOO what the hell)


my dad always says to feel the fear and do it anyway and that's helped me to do loads like this summer on NCS I did high ropes and climbed through tiny tunnels and stuff and I hate small spaces and heights but thinking that helped me


There is the same Dans le noir restaurant in Montreal Canada and I can't wait to go. I forgot it was even a thing and I'm so glad this reminded me. I feel like it'd be great to go with a new boyfriend or smt to really get to know them. I'm gonna work on that first lol


Going on a date in a dark restaurant, guess you could call that a "BLIND" date!

Has someone already made that joke? Ill go home.


I'm sorry dodie, but you look absolutely gorgeous in this video xx


She looked really panic! on her snapchat story with Stevie. I just knew this video was coming 😂


When I go over to my grandma's I have to sleep in the room in the basement, which has no windows and when I turn off the lights it looks the same as when I close my eyes and I think that's the darkest dark I've ever seen


That sounds so cool and weird! I want to go there.


We have sth similar in Poland - The Invisible Exhibition. It's an amazing experience, totally recommend!


I get very realistic hallucinations when in the dark and I am in general terrified of the dark, yet this sounds so interesting. I want to but realistically if I don't want to faint then I probably shouldn't. I'm still going to debate it though.


I've been to one of those places!! I actually really liked it.


such a good way to end my summer vacation!


I got a panic attack at that same restaurant like a year ago .. I was crying on the floor in the bar drinking orange juice.. Fun times..


before I watch the video my guess is:

they gatecrash a party
take off their shirts
get given sparkly props
have a great time


I'm going to London for my birthday in December!!! I would love to go to that restaurant, although I'll probably be vv scared.


I really wanna go to a cafe like this one day, but I get claustrophobic in pitch black so god knows how that would work 😂😂


This sounds like the most awesome yet scary restaurant ever


Ooo, I love About Time but I'm too chicken to go to a restaurant like that! I usually make a mess when I eat with the lights on, so I don't think it would go well!


honestly i think that this sort of thing would probably make talking to people much easier for me? i have very bad social anxiety and eye contact in particular makes me nervous (i always feel that i'm making too much or too little) so having that extra pressure taken out of the equation would probably be quite reassuring. idk...


I’ve been to a place similar to that in Los Angeles and I had a MAJOR panic attack and just had to leave. I wish I had done what you did.


Just hearing about that makes my chest squeeze and heart race

Александра Полянская


It wasn't just darkness, It was ADVANCED DARKNESS


That had happen to me once I was in the pitch dark at camp during a camp and I freak out eat time


My mind screamed when she mentioned About time bc I was thinking about that movie when she was talking about that restaurant, which seems great


I recently realised I get nearly panic attacks for similar reasons, especially internal pain. Basically anytime I get really bad period cramps (that cause me to feel nauseous) I'm curled in a ball crying and wailing for my mum and I can't breathe but luckily it isn't every cycle. The same happened when I got food poisoning because I almost fainted and my brain couldn't understand what was happening. It's like, with a cut you can see what's causing the pain, you can see that the bleeding is slowing or whatever, but this is I just know something is wrong but not *what*.
er i guess i had to get that off my chest lol

I recently realised I get nearly panic attacks for similar reasons, especially internal pain. Basically anytime I get really bad period cramps (that cause me to feel nauseous) I'm curled in a ball crying and wailing for my mum and I can't breathe but luckily it isn't every cycle. The same happened when I got food poisoning because I almost fainted and my brain couldn't understand what was happening. It's like, with a cut you can see what's causing the pain, you can see that the bleeding is slowing or whatever, but this is I just know *something* is wrong but not *what*.
er i guess i had to get that off my chest lol

Oh and also I've definitely been in pitch black darkness and had the exact same panic from 'I can't tell if my eyes are open or not it's the same both ways I'll never see again!!!11!' (rip when it's because it's at someone else's house and that's how they like it)


This place sounds like a good idea if you're going on a blind date


I've never been this early whaddup! Also, I'm glad you're okay Dodie


Sounds so freaking interesting but at the same time i know that i would be really fucked up because almost everytime im in the dark, i start to feel really weird and i get scared about my body because i usually think that my brain it's going to stop functioning and that freaks me out and it gets worse if i cant see and sometimes i'm also very scared thinking that something paranormal it's going to happen even knowing that aLL OF THOSE THINGS AREN'T TRUE dammit


man i am sO afraid of the dark,, like to the point where i've acc stayed up till 5am for like three nights in a row just so that the sun will come up and i can feel safe😎 anyway this sounds terrifying rip


i wouldve loved to go into that place w nightvision goggles and just watch everyone wobbling around


This would work great for a blind date! Hahaha not for me though XD


i literally gasped when i saw the title bc i am a yeemo


ok, you mentioned about time and triggered me so much. everytime i watch that movie i end up sobbing, so cute, so cute.


Added it to my bucket list xx. Sounds terrifying because ... quite the same as you actually. But I think it’ll be a very different experience than anything


M8 you say you were nervous and panicky the whole time and all that, but I would encourage you to notice the way you talked about your new friends and how the experience was unique to that place, because that is the epitome of living in the moment, and I understand it being so easy to forget the good, but,from your words it sounds like you were a lot more present than you think in retrospect, which is great and it's great to notice things that are great.


Who else has been in dans le noir & loved it!


i feel like with my depersonalisation at least, whenever i start talking about it, i feel it start happening? it's like i remember the feeling of it so vividly that it brings it on.


I would never be able to do that I'm terrified of the dark because it feels like you're in a very small box


OMG DODIE THAT MUG IS THE BEST THING EVER I WANTED TO BUY IT BUT I WASNT ALLOWED ANYMORE MUGS. BUT ITS AMAZING A* TASTE IN MUGS 💛💛💛💛💛💛


Who else freaked when they saw "panic!" in the title?


6/10 is in Spotify's own playlist Mellow Pop - very niiiiccceeee


Dodie, I don't know if you'll ever see or read this comment but I am so thankful I found your channel because I struggle with the same zoned-out-not-really-there-but-still-there thing as you and I never really knew what it was or how to describe it and it really freaked me out. I first got it when I was camping in 5th grade. I remember I was looking at a plate of cheese and suddenly I just felt kind of dulled. I was confused and I thought 'maybe I'm just tired' or 'maybe it's something I ate' and I asked my mum what to do and she told me she didn't know what I was talking about and that nothing was wrong and I really freaked out. I convinced myself that it would go away over night but it didn't. Eventually it disappeared about 2ish years later but I still get it from time to time for no reason and it goes away.


if i were you i'd have involuntarily freaked out too! maybe if it comes back though, there used to be a night in London called No Lights No Lycra where you turn up and dance for an hour in the dark, which means no-one can see you do your most embarrassing moves. that's more my kind of dark room activity haha!


omg, I'd love to try that! I feel like I would have to go to the toilet just before so that there were no risks of me embarrassing myself xD<br>(not that that happens anyway)

omg, I'd love to try that! I feel like I would have to go to the toilet just before so that there were no risks of me embarrassing myself xD
(not that that happens anyway)


If anyone knows where dodie got her glasses from please can you let me know ♥


I Love that your eyebrows are moving while you're talking😂❤


Fun fact - there's adrenaline in the anaesthetic they give you at the dentist to make it work faster. So that also prob contributes to the panic attacks. Like, why dentists. Adrenaline. At the dentist. Why.


just like panic!, with '!' and only consist 1 member


I could never do this my anxiety would be through the roof


this is random but petition for Dodie to make covers of holiday songs!


did anyone else think this video was gonna be her singing p!atd in the dark haha


Who else thought she was gonna sing a panic! At the disco song 😂


i would go if i had one around here! except i’m allergic to some food items and i’d be kind of nervous that i’d have a bad reaction to something ;(