The last 3 seconds made my whole life xD I totally understand where you are coming from... I am your age (or at least I think so O.O I'm from the 95 hehe) and I am totally sure I would feel that way if I were not a free time coach for 11-15 year-old kids at my ex-school (I think that's how you'd call it..? It's like we organise and go to Summer camps with them, and also arrange plenty of activities for them during the rest of the year), and spending so much time with these kids just reminds you of how you were at their age, and how everything was not as "ideal" as you may remember now.

Sure, I had an absolutely fantastic time at school, but there were alse VERY rough times, and as well as young-adulthood has both its fantastic and its not-so-good parts, teenage years also had a bit of everything. Please PLEASE never forget that the past wasn't extremely great, Doddie, because that way of thinking will always leave you feeling unsatisfied with where you are today. And as I say this, I am also trying to convince myself of it >__<

If you want a tip on how to overcome nostalgia from someone who tends to think a lot like you, it would be to try and spend some time with younger people. Going to Summer camps as a coach is one of the best things I could have made. I thought it would make me even more nostalgic of my teenage years, but I firmly believe it has saved me from living in a permanent unhealthy nostalgia.

And joining a course is always a good idea too! You have no idea of how healing it can be for your mind to learn new things and be in the innocent-not knowing state you were at school :-D

Apart from that... You're just great, Doddie. I really hope you read this! You deserve all the love in the world. Sending you a great big hug from Spain <3


Please do some more asmr videos this Vedim 😊😊😊 they're really good!


This may have already been said, but you can totally do this stuff on your own time! there have been so many times where I would search for writing prompts on google and write essays on my own time (sometimes when I should have doing schoolwork lol).<br> So, yes, you can totally learn by your own will. Looking up worksheets for different subjects is quite easy as well. I hope you get out of this funk. Just realize that you can do and learn anything you want, whenever you want. The world is your oyster dude :D

This may have already been said, but you can totally do this stuff on your own time! there have been so many times where I would search for writing prompts on google and write essays on my own time (sometimes when I should have doing schoolwork lol).
 So, yes, you can totally learn by your own will. Looking up worksheets for different subjects is quite easy as well. I hope you get out of this funk. Just realize that you can do and learn anything you want, whenever you want. The world is your oyster dude :D


I feel exactly the same! I find myself constantly reminiscing on school and missing it :P I think I will feel it even more because I'm graduating this year - a little scary :S

+Moley-banter Aaand I just got to the moral. Thanks Dodie. This really helped at a time I needed it :)


You do not know how much this video applies to me. The bit about being an extrovert! I'm realllyy missing college because now I work at  home as a freelance photographer.  I don't see any of my old friends anymore because they've gone to uni! I feel ya Dodes.


I'll be 23 this year and I don't miss school at all for various reasons but as you said, it's different for everybody.<br>I kinda agree on the knowledge part tough, looking back at university! There's so much for us to learn :)

I'll be 23 this year and I don't miss school at all for various reasons but as you said, it's different for everybody.
I kinda agree on the knowledge part tough, looking back at university! There's so much for us to learn :)


Remember that you're looking back with rosy tinted glasses, you're a different person to who you were then and you're gonna be more mature and interested in other things, back then there was probably tons of things that made school difficult and crappy and you can still learn SOOO much without school maybe even more because you can actually live the things you learn rather then through a text book <3


Hiya Dodie.  Your random thoughts sounded a lot like stuff I find myself thinking about sometimes.  I kind of miss deep theoretical discussion of music and instant recall of stuff I learned in school too.  Now, I can look quite a ways back at high school, college, and my early career, and pinpoint several times when my head was stuck in the future instead of present in the present.  I think it's one of those human nature things that with time our memories get tinged with nostalgia.  Then it becomes tempting to become stuck in the past, but I guess we all need to slow down and enjoy where we are and who we are now.<br>I really enjoy your posts.  :)

Hiya Dodie.  Your random thoughts sounded a lot like stuff I find myself thinking about sometimes.  I kind of miss deep theoretical discussion of music and instant recall of stuff I learned in school too.  Now, I can look quite a ways back at high school, college, and my early career, and pinpoint several times when my head was stuck in the future instead of present in the present.  I think it's one of those human nature things that with time our memories get tinged with nostalgia.  Then it becomes tempting to become stuck in the past, but I guess we all need to slow down and enjoy where we are and who we are now.
I really enjoy your posts.  :)


I’m 11. I just finished primary school. At first I was like "YASS", but now I miss it. I miss my classmates, friends basically everyone in my class and I really wish I could go back there. I am going to secondary school in September..  🙍🏽♀😥

I'm 11 and I'm only going into 5th class? Lol


I was feeling like this recently, in school I was on the top set for most things and even when I wasn't doing well I felt smart, but now a lot of people I know are going to university and a lot of my friends are older than me and I feel less and less smart every day, even though I still read a lot and watch ted talks and whatnot, there's nowhere to really get that reassurance that you're intelligent.


Year 10 and 11 probably the best years of my life. I’d do anything to go back


I'm at my last year of school and I hate it. I know that in the future I'll possibly think the same as you dodes and regret taking school for granted. I am an introvert though so it's kind of hard for me to feel comfortable and enjoy everything in school :s love your videos!!<br><3

I'm at my last year of school and I hate it. I know that in the future I'll possibly think the same as you dodes and regret taking school for granted. I am an introvert though so it's kind of hard for me to feel comfortable and enjoy everything in school :s love your videos!!
<3


look me in the eyes and tell me a time Dodie didn't look so freaking cute


Dodie, my best friend taught me that one way around this is to always be a lifelong learner. Now, there are many ways to do this, but the way she does this is she will enroll herself in classes that won't cost much, but they are things that interest her. Those classes help give structure to her week, and that structure also helps her finish other projects (outside of her classes), because she is in a mode to get things done. From her, I learned I missed learning. Classes (post-university) help give structure to lifelong learning, and they help those of us that can get a bit off course without some structure. Best with figuring this all out. I struggle with this, too, -M


Jesus, most of the topics you upload about are just terrifically relatable. I am only 20, yet my story is odd, and it just makes me miss school. Baring in mind I was an army kid, so I moved every 2 years (sucked, but had it benefits) but for my "high school years" I stayed in one place, and it was honestly the best time in my life. Friendships, relationships, the weather... it was beyond perfect. But about 2 months into 6th form, (after high school finished) I had to move to come to Australia to live here. And now the people that had the biggest impact on my life and near enough showed me what a constant 100% happiness feels like, are now living on the other side of the planet.

There isn't a day in my life that I don't think about those people, or think about going back to my perfect little school.
Not to mention the school was an English school, in the north of Germany, that has now been handed back over to the Germans. It's also heart breaking that the school that made me who I am, will no longer be changing peoples lives and giving the experience that it gave me.

Congratulations for making it this far.


Agree with like all of these points. I'm literally like 2 months tops away from completely finishing uni and it's making me think a lot. The fact that in Years 7 and 8, heck, even all the way up to Year 13, there was a next step. There was always somewhere to move to next. It was comforting. I knew where I was going and what I was doing and then in Year 13 you get a choice which is great, but even then, there's a next step for you. I came to realise over the last couple of years that I only actually went to uni because it felt like a next step. It gave me a purpose and an end goal and so I applied because at least then I didn't have to make decisions myself. Now I've almost finished uni and the only thing stopping me from applying for a Post-Grad course is my absolute boredom of the educational system. I realise that now, there's a life ahead of me which is completely in my hands and it's flipping exciting but oH SO SCARY.


coming back to this because i'm a nostalgic mess and feel this so much.


I've been homeschooled my whole life so none of this relates to me haha


I'm 13 nearly (sort of) 14 and I'm in year nine. We have a lot of drama but over all its great? This Video made me feel even better about school x Thanks Dodie xxx


Feeling this so much at the moment - I've nearly finished my first year of uni but I miss school so much. I miss my friends and teachers and everything argh! But if someone had told me I'd be feeling that this time last year I would NEVER have believed them..


I connect with this so deeply, I'm becoming a teacher just because I miss school pretty much


I have a similar dilemma after graduating. I miss having professors advising me, pushing me to ask more critical, probing questions, I miss the opportunities to learn in a structured setting, where you're not merely a customer, but a student....


watching this as a graduate of 2020, my last day of school was in march and i never knew :( i actually loved school and had a great group of friends, i miss it a lot


I'm still in school, studying to become a teacher, so I'm in schools all the time, but one of the things I really miss studying is History. My subject is English, and I tutor in Math, but I never get to read about history or study world cultures any more.


If you like the whole nostalgia and sense of missing the past and the thought of dwelling and missing the present, you should watch Midnight In Paris !!


I want to get out of school, so I can feel more free, I can wear what I want, choose what I can eat, decorate my house however I want, but then I realize that then I have to make my own money, get a job, pay taxes, sure I'm "free" but what then?


I love your hair, Dodie! Could u do a hair tutorial thing in VEDM? :)


I have to say that I actually do miss wearing uniform, since I dont really express myself through what I wear so I didnt mind having to wear it, in fact it took a lot off me since now I feel like I have to wear a different outfit everyday and it has to be clean and im constantly worrying about being judged for what I wear but in school everyone wears the same thing so it just took that little extra edge off for me ^_^


I TOTALLY get you!!<br>I graduated last year, school was never my thing i was hardly there but now that I've left, occasionally i miss it, maybe its having a set schedule every day? Seeing and observing my fellow students everyday? that was always good for my writing. I think i miss everything except the actual study. This video was comforting im glad someone feels the same. School always felt like something i could fall back on when things were tough, it felt like an excuse to be a little bit messed up, still being in high school. now the world feels a whole lot bigger.

I TOTALLY get you!!
I graduated last year, school was never my thing i was hardly there but now that I've left, occasionally i miss it, maybe its having a set schedule every day? Seeing and observing my fellow students everyday? that was always good for my writing. I think i miss everything except the actual study. This video was comforting im glad someone feels the same. School always felt like something i could fall back on when things were tough, it felt like an excuse to be a little bit messed up, still being in high school. now the world feels a whole lot bigger.


This made me appreciate school more, I needed this motivation thanks :)


I KNEW YOUD MAKE THIS BECAUSE OF YOUR TWEETS


i do agree, i miss school sometimes because it was something to do and i met my friends every single day. but it's important to remember that the past will often seem better than it was. because that part of school i miss, was also the time when i started self harming and feeling suicidal. <br>so in general i think maybe we miss the good things, not just a specific time, idk. another example: i miss being with my ex, but i think i miss being loved and kissed and getting told i matter, coz i don't miss the anxiety and the lack of affection from her.  i hope you appreciate my thoughts on this, i like you a lot dodie

i do agree, i miss school sometimes because it was something to do and i met my friends every single day. but it's important to remember that the past will often seem better than it was. because that part of school i miss, was also the time when i started self harming and feeling suicidal.
so in general i think maybe we miss the good things, not just a specific time, idk. another example: i miss being with my ex, but i think i miss being loved and kissed and getting told i matter, coz i don't miss the anxiety and the lack of affection from her.  i hope you appreciate my thoughts on this, i like you a lot dodie


i'm a freshman but i feel this! i'm homeschooled/unschooled and for some points it's a bit similar. (most of it is things i've never experienced, but i wish i had, even though i would never want to be in public school)


The moral was really important to me! I tend to dwell on the past excessively and cry about it and get really frustrated that I can't go back..


I only left in like May after my A Levels, and I was so fucking happy then but now it's down to me, Life is up to me and I'm doing shit so far. I went to a great, liberal school where I could be myself (within reason). I get everything you're saying, I knew so much more! I studied US Politics and I found it so hard, but now I'm trying to learn it alone while it's happening and it's so much harder. <br>While I was there I couldn't wait to get away because at the time it was the number one thing fucking up my mental health, but now I'm out I'd give anything for fucking school to be my number one issue, not this hell I need to call my life (how fucking dramatic is that omG)

I only left in like May after my A Levels, and I was so fucking happy then but now it's down to me, Life is up to me and I'm doing shit so far. I went to a great, liberal school where I could be myself (within reason). I get everything you're saying, I knew so much more! I studied US Politics and I found it so hard, but now I'm trying to learn it alone while it's happening and it's so much harder.
While I was there I couldn't wait to get away because at the time it was the number one thing fucking up my mental health, but now I'm out I'd give anything for fucking school to be my number one issue, not this hell I need to call my life (how fucking dramatic is that omG)


this was actually a really smart vid dods


Do a uni course! Or theatre school! Or a singing academy! You'll be surrounded by people, told what to do and you'll learn more about your passions.


after watching this video I have definitely started to have little thoughts throughout school like "one day I won't do this again" (if that makes sense), and then I'll start to appreciate it a lot more.


I can understand missing school. At the moment, I'm in grade twelve, so I'm about to graduate, and I can feel that I'll miss it, but I won't miss the whole social drama and that kind of thing. The parents taking care of me and the teachers that I know and the friend group that I have.... that's what I'll miss.


ugh! vedim makes me so happy happy happy :) Love my daily dose of Dodie <3


I don't miss school but that's mostly cause I never went to school...


I'm ending my secondary school years right now as I'm in my senior year, and I'm really trying to appreciate it for what it is- the friends, the caring teachers, the parents to help keep me on track... and not having to pay for all that much myself is nice. It's so difficult, though, when I really just want to get away from this city, away from the people here who I'm not friends or family with (who typically don't like me very much, I've come to terms with), and just start anew. These past couple of years have not been easy. I've hurt myself, I've been hurt by other people... friends have up and left me with declarations of hatred for me or even ended their own lives for hatred of themselves.

Even still, there are good things now. There's my family, my pets. There's this one teacher of mine who really, truly cares about her students, who I intend to stay in contact with once I'm not at the school anymore. There are the friends who I've come to call family, who I know will actually stay with me. My best friend in particular- our relationship can essentially be summed up with Sick of Losing Soulmates. I don't know where I'd be or who I'd be if he hadn't stepped into my life. There's the creek beside my school that I have summer memories of playing with my guy friends in when we were younger (I was always a bit of a tomboy), hazy humid air and gnats flying all around us, climbing trees until our hands were raw. Cold Canadian winters sitting inside with my parents and my sister sitting inside drinking hot chocolate, watching Winnie the Pooh (usually The Wishing Bear episode). I've been reflecting on the past a lot lately, too, which can probably be attributed to a friend who took her own life about two weeks ago. It's hard not to think about how things used to be. That aside, though, these happy things going on and the happy things from the past are what I'm doing my best to focus on. It's just... difficult.

Sorry, this got awfully long, didn't it? Oh well. I think I'm in need of a good cry, too.

I'm ending my secondary school years right now as I'm in my senior year, and I'm really trying to appreciate it for what it is- the friends, the caring teachers, the parents to help keep me on track... and not having to pay for all that much myself is nice. It's so difficult, though, when I really just want to get away from this city, away from the people here who I'm *not* friends or family with (who typically don't like me very much, I've come to terms with), and just start anew. These past couple of years have not been easy. I've hurt myself, I've been hurt by other people... friends have up and left me with declarations of hatred for me or even ended their own lives for hatred of themselves.

Even still, there are good things now. There's my family, my pets. There's this one teacher of mine who really, truly cares about her students, who I intend to stay in contact with once I'm not at the school anymore. There are the friends who I've come to call family, who I know will actually stay with me. My best friend in particular- our relationship can essentially be summed up with Sick of Losing Soulmates. I don't know where I'd be or who I'd be if he hadn't stepped into my life. There's the creek beside my school that I have summer memories of playing with my guy friends in when we were younger (I was always a bit of a tomboy), hazy humid air and gnats flying all around us, climbing trees until our hands were raw. Cold Canadian winters sitting inside with my parents and my sister sitting inside drinking hot chocolate, watching Winnie the Pooh (usually The Wishing Bear episode). I've been reflecting on the past a lot lately, too, which can probably be attributed to a friend who took her own life about two weeks ago. It's hard not to think about how things used to be. That aside, though, these happy things going on and the happy things from the past are what I'm doing my best to focus on. It's just... difficult.

Sorry, this got awfully long, didn't it? Oh well. I think I'm in need of a good cry, too.


gosh, ive never related more to anything than this!
i finished school last summer and im now taking a gap year, and lately ive realised just how many things from school i miss.
i, an introvert, personally dont miss the large groups and many people, but i miss my small friendship group and seeing some of my really good friends every single day, like i probably only see them every 3rd month or something now.
i also really miss the learning part, i miss writing essays, i miss analysing short stories and i miss getting new knowledge!
thank god starting uni this summer!


this made me sad but it's also very important to talk about. thanks for sharing your thoughts dodes I will try to enjoy my last two years now.


It's never too late to do uni! Seriously I took a gap year, didn't intend on going to uni, but I missed learning so much. So off to uni I went and I love it!


I have never related to a video so much before.


I went to my old school too even though it's in Germany, which means I didn't had to wear a uniform.. I totally agree with you. I miss school so much with all the people you knew and some very good and funny teachers, even our headmistress was a very nice person. And I was so scared to leave school after 12 years of exactly knowing what to do and getting told what you need to do and getting supported anyway. When I think back it's like I used to feel secure and now it's scary because you need to take care of yourself, need to sort out your own life and I don't really feel capable of doing this most of the time.. I feel like this is way to big for me and I also feel that I have forgotten so many things I learned in school (history,biology,German grammar, not to speak of French...) I was a good stundent and I miss feeling intelligent too.. You described it nicely. Thumbs up for this. (:


Dodie, why don't you start a blog? You said you wanted write essays again and I feel you'd write amazing essays about books and movies and topics.


When I first read what this video was about I thought, "No way I don't miss high school high school sucked" but after hearing you talk about it I realize there are some things I miss. I never had to wear uniforms since like kindergarten but I always wished I did because I always felt so self conscious about my clothes. But I miss learning things I really liked and feeling like I was doing well. Now I'm in university and I don't feel the same excitement about learning stuff and I feel like I don't have time to take all the classes I'd like to and classes aren't so much fun because you just have to learn everything real quick along with 100 other people and I just don't get good grades because I'm not motivated to make myself do all the work I need to. So I kinda know what you mean is basically what I'm trying to say.


this is exactly how I feel but I'm homeschooled now. I miss being in a classroom with people so much :/

+Pei yeah I had really bad anxiety (it's better now!) and school was just a constant battle with panic attacks almost every week so I thought I would just switch to homeschooling and focus solely on my academics but I honestly just miss being in a class. like I find myself just missing people I was never even friends with just like missing their presence and comments and stuff?? idk I just miss being part of something I guess and homeschooling is just really isolating unless you're able to go out everyday and see your friends. after 2 years away from public school I'm planning to go back next year to graduate but it's still all very scary to me

+Jasmine Gonzalez SAME I'm glad you commented because I felt like I was the only one. I switched to online school my second semester of 9th grade and it's not good for me at all. I miss all the people at my school... even though there were some things I hated about it, it was worth it for all the good things. I'm going to go back to a real school for 10th grade. What about you? Also why'd you switch to homeschooling?


also maybe you can consider writing a book seeing as you love English and want something to occupy your time but also to get your brain up and running. idk like I'm not presuring at all but just a simple suggestion?

James Mc Gowan and she just wrote a book ! wow


I love your Vedim.I am in school, I am actually getting ready to go right now, but I don't really enjoy school that much. From this video, it's made me more open minded at least now I can actually appreciate and try to live in the moment. However, I do have really big tests next week so I dont want to live in the moment, right now.


ahh i've literally felt the same so much recently. i'm really missing being 14/15. even though i was in such a bad place (mentally) then. i miss going to school and seeing everyone, talking about rubbish and not really caring and the problems i had then just seem so small now. Nowadays I'm having to worry about work and rent, bills, money and trying to see all my family. i literally have like 2 friends now who i never see. i live with my girlfriend and even though it's great it feels like so much work trying to keep the flat clean. i have no idea how my mum used to do everything.

AHHHH i hate life.


I empathize with how you're feeling doddie. As someone who tends to be overly nostalgic myself I think that you are probably right about missing where you are right now later on in your life. I don't really miss high school at all, but I do feel extremely nostalgic about the community college and university I went to. Now, I am pursuing a masters degree which is wonderful of course, but since it is mostly online you don't really get that sense of community. Though I am very much an introvert I still miss this in a lot of ways. In my case nostalgia has gotten worse as time moves on. I'm 25 now, and feel nostalgia for where I was and who I was in my early twenties. I have difficulty thinking that I am closer to 30 than I am to 18. I still think of myself as being 20, but one has to realize that the person one was all those years ago no longer exists. I feel wiser in some ways, but more jaded. One learns not to dream so big. One loses some of the exuberance one once had for life, at least I have. Of course, I hope and pray things prove different for you Doddie, but as life has gone on for me it has become more lonely. I won't say that the twenties will be easy years at all. Really I think those nostalgic feelings can be great conaolations, at least they have been for me.


I love school, hate the system, God that sounded so pretentious


i am sort of strange in that i can almost never live in the present - i am always either thinking about something that happened a while ago or am looking ahead. currently, i'm a senior in high school in america, and i'm about to go to college in the fall. even starting as far back as last spring, i fell into this trap of constantly going through the old times and being scared of what was to come in the future. i'm about to perform in my last ever school production, and i'm so caught between missing last year's show and missing the one that hasn't even come yet in advance that i think i might not be appreciating the journey there. this year has just been flying by...i need to learn to live in the now and stop worrying about what's happened already and what hasn't yet. great video, dodie! i always love seeing your lovely face and hearing your beauteous voice. xxx

also - i really, really love school. pretty much everything about it, honestly, minus the excessive studying and stress sometimes. the fact that i know i'm going to miss it so much and the fact that all of my friends will be in different places has made it hard to live this year in the moment as well.


Hello Dodie, I'm an older (not creepy)fan of yours, (I like learning the Ukulele from watching you play) and I can say that your memories become a little more bittersweet with age and take on a warm fuzzy feeling as you go on.   Now I have a question I'd like to ask you, in some of your videos, you have a wall hanging behind you. It looks like a Dream-catcher.  I'm of Native American heritage and I'd like to know more about it and if there's any significant meaning to it. It's beautiful !


I finished school last year and I think I do not miss it because I felt overwhelmed and anxious because there were so much homework and new stuff I couldn't often understand. And when teachers are so harsh on you it's awful.  So,  I am definitely happy I am not in school anymore.


I feel ya Dodie. I really miss seeing my closest friends every day and having the weird inside jokes and when we skipped school to go ice skating #rebel lol but yeah I don't miss the homework and teachers at all oh fuck no they gave me panic attacks but like the social aspect of it all and I especially miss it even more now that I've had to move over 1,000 miles away from my best friends. oh well that's life, shit happens, focus on the present cool cool and fUCK I'm gonna be 18 in May and that's terrifying as hell


you and I are the same age and I have the exact same feelings you have about school. It's comforting to know I'm not alone


I'm in year 8 and I really enjoy school. I read and research further than the lesson but this made me fear how much information will slip from my mind.


Really insightful. Thanks for making this!


By year 10 & 11 I only showed up to school to fight with people or sell them drugs, don't miss the place at all


rewatching this after leaving year 11 and i can't agree more to what your saying. If you asked me earlier this year if I'd missed school I'd say no but I really do miss it...


Dodie, go to the library! There's clubs and books and that's basically school. And anyway, you can talk to other people like you there and make some more peers/friends. Find your people!


Hey Dodie!
This is actually so weird!
the other day I visited my old school. It was so weird to see all the old rooms I used to be in, they're so different now. The entire school is different, everything has changed. Other people are there. I mean that's normal and so on, but when I walked through my old school I realized that I miss learning. And i miss being a part of that school. It made me feel so weird when i saw how different it is now! I don't miss maths, just for the record, but I miss music and art and english and history and science... It just made me so sad because I knew that I can't go back to these times... Sure school wasn't always nice, I basically hated school! But now I just miss the feeling of sitting in class and listening to the teacher, learning something... I even miss homework! I used to write so much on an essay, I loved writing and sharing my opinion with the stuff I wrote. And I loved to know stuff and get to know new stuff and just to gain knowledge... I also miss being with my friends - I had a small group of friends I'd spend my time with. We're still in contact which is nice. But still, I miss the breaks and all the funny things that happened, the entire class being annoyed when the teacher announced an essay (tbh I was the only one who wasn't annoyed, I was alright with essays) the last year in school I had such a cool class, we all got along, I had awesome people around me. And even though some teachers were weird, it was such a good time. We had so many laughs. It's weird I've been thinking about that for a while now it makes me kinda sad.. also all the field trips we made, that was so much fun! And again, I just really miss learning. A friend of mine who still visits school was so shocked when I said that I miss learning. ^-^
Okay i'm sorry for rambling.
Everyone who still goes to school - I hope that you have a fantastic time. And I hope that you have a lot of fun. Stay awesome people. x


this video made me appreciate school a lot more, ty dods💞


+doddlevloggle OH MY GOD THATS MAKES SO MUCH SENSE <b>face palm</b>

+doddlevloggle OH MY GOD THATS MAKES SO MUCH SENSE *face palm*


i always watch dodie in the bath. shes calming. im currently in the bath now.


The more I watch your videos the more I want to be friends with you. The way you talk is so endearing and fun to listen to, I wish we could have a conversation. i hope this doesn't sound creepy haha b


I totally get the whole lack of friends thing, i'm 24 and i probably have maybe 10-20 people max that i regularly see and socialize with. But i see it as a good thing, as it's cut down to a small knit quality group of friends. School was full of clashing personalities, which is never healthy for sustaining friendships in my opinion! Happy VEDA


This is probably my favourite Dodie video


Videos every day in March<br>Oh my god I get it now

Videos every day in March
Oh my god I get it now


My second year of sixth form was definitely the best year ever. Years 7-9 for me we're hell but I miss my secondary so much because I've been there for seven years (From year 7 to the end of sixth form) I'm in university now and moving out of London was one of the scariest things ever. I've been here since September and have eight weeks of my first year left. It's scary how quickly it's gone. I do miss my childhood and the times I didn't have to worry about anything. I'll be 20 in October and nothing is as scary as thinking about how quickly my teen years have passed. Bring on adulthood.


I feel this too! Which is so weird because I was miserable in high school. But there's all these little things that I didn't realize would be different when I got older. Like you said, I hope I won't look back to now and see good things that current-me couldn't see.


I feel the same way! I just started getting home schooled in my last year of High school and I'm all alone so its really weird


my birthday is tomorrow and vedim is the best gift I could ever ask for


I have never related more to a video. I'm 23 and got my degree one year ago and now I'm so confused and scared about the future. I have no idea what to do next and this scares me terribly. I didn't even enjoy uni that much because it was so different from school and I really don't know what happened to me in the last few years but I feel like I'm numb all the time. School was so different. I was so good at doing what the teachers told me to, I was good at studying and I always did good on my tests. Of course I hated it sometimes and yes, I used to be dangerously anxious when I was in school. But it still had that order and routine that kept me sane somehow. And probably the thing I miss the most is being surrounded by people, just like you said. It really was like being part of a team. I was part of the drama club and it was probably the best part of school for me. I met amazing people there and I really had the time of my life with them. Now I don't have that anymore. I've been feeling really alone lately and overall pretty miserable to be honest so I think it's kind of normal for me to dwell this much on the past and feeling like school was the best period of my life. I don't know what I'm doing and I've never felt more anxious and scared and confused. And don't get me started on learning new things! This is something that I started appreciating too late and I miss it so bad now. The other day I searched for my old biology book, found it and read about atoms. It was nice. So yeah, I miss having a clear mandatory path to follow. However, as you said, it's important to stay focused on the present and this is what I'm trying to do (it's bloody hard though!). Not really achieving much yet, but I'm working on it. I feel like something went wrong at some point but I can't quite put my finger on what that is. I just woke up one day and my mind went "what the hell happened to you?". This is something that I've only recently noticed about me and I feel like I'm stuck. Everything is too overwhelming, literally everything. School was so easy compared to "adult" life! I wish I could go back, but at the same time I am too stubborn to let myself believe that school was the best part of my life and that the future is just a black hole of anxiety and loneliness. I've already let myself think that for too long and it's time I do something about it! I'm really working on it. :)

Wow, I had no idea this comment (more like a short novel at this point) was going in that direction. Sorry about that. But I really can't resist a good discussion on an interesting topic! Actually I had never commented on your videos before, probably because it's hard to express yourself in proper English on serious topics when English is not your first language haha! Plus I know I talk a lot and I would end up writing way too much. Ups. (sorry about that too)

Really love your videos and reeeeally liked this one! AND HAPPY VEDIM YES YES :D


I relate to basically every point you have stated. I left school at the end of 2013, and took a gap year before going to uni in 2015. During that year I felt so lonely and awful, and I missed being around people my own age so much. I don't feel that uni is really as community based as school - mainly because there are an insane amount of students and every one is doing their own thing - but within your main subjects there are always like-minded people who enjoy what you do, and who you can have intellectual conversations with, which helps you feel a part of something. ANYWAY - I was wondering if you would ever consider going to university? (sorry if you've addressed this already in another video!). I hope you have a great day :) <3


God, I feel this so much. I was in theatre and chorus in high school, doing stuff all the time. I miss that a lot.

@Shelby Leigh I know right? Or just listen to lots and lots of soundtracks and sing along. I usually do that to smile hehe :D

+Robbie Heslop omg, same! It's just not the same when you aren't in a room full of people who also know the words. Man, I feel like we need a support group or something lol.

@Shelby Leigh I totally agree! Even now listening to songs from musicals etc it just makes me feel really "meh" because I can feel the love for it but I don't do it any more.

+Shelby Leigh God, I miss theatre soooo much!

+Robbie Heslop Theatre is so fun! You really feel like a part of something and I miss that a looooot.

+Shelby Leigh I went to a private weekend theatre school as a child. I miss that so much :(


The fact that the people I find the most inspiring and motivational have no idea what they're doing either is really, really comforting


I don't want to leave school but I don't want to got to school. If that makes sense.


I had a little cry while you were talking because I can absolutely relate to what you said. Thanks for your video! :)


I feel this soooo much. I'm so glad I'm not the only one


Hey Dodie just genuinely wondering, would you consider going to university? I'm starting my MA here in London in September and I can't wait for it also because I miss the things that you listed. sure it's slightly different cause it's uni and not year 8 but what you said applies just the same. So I was thinking, is uni something you'd do? You're still very young and maybe you could make it work out and still do youtube at the same time? I don't want to get into detail cause obviously I know nothing about your choices and your private life haha. I guess what I'm trying to say is that learning is a beautiful thing and if you have the chance to carry on doing it and study something inspiring you might like going to university :)


you're awesome and I love hearing ur thoughts 😌


Dodie, I don't know if you'll see this but I feel exactly like this right now. And it's nice to know I'm not alone in feeling this way. So thank you.


I miss how easy school was for me. This degree I'm doing is so much more work, self motivation is hard.


as a second semester high school senior I can tell you right now. I will not be missing high school. learning things just for a test isn't fun and last night I had multiple panic attacks just trying to study for one class. I can't wait for college to pick out the studies and just learning things because I am interested in it.


Dodie, you do know that you do not need to make your videos click bait or anything closer to it to get us to watch them, we watch them because we like you not because of the thumbnail or name. (:


Doddlevloggle almost has 200k subscribers ahhh!

I agree. I like this channel quite a bit more than the main Doddleoddle channel.

+David William A. i feel like this is her main channel, as much as I love her covers and her songs, this channel is so much more in depth and I kind of really appreciate that, its nice to see a raw version of someone on this platform, yanno???

+OrigamiLester Her main channel has close to 400k subscribers. There's a little over half of the subs on here. :)


See I can imagine this being how I feel once I'm done with school. I can plan my way to uni but once I'm done there I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself it just seems like this stretch of time that I have no idea about and being the naturally lazy person I am I can't imagine it'll go very well :P


As someone who's homeschooled and have never been to a day of school in my entire life, I cannot relate to this at all ://


As somebody who's about to graduate college I totally feel this. I had a terrible time through elementary to high school but now, looking back on the 18 years or so, I realize how much I'll miss the safety net too.


Me too! I miss school so much (university more than grades k-12, though)! I love learning, and--as an extroverted sort of introvert--I miss that automatic social interaction because I really do enjoy it when it happens but don't necessarily seek it out as often. And I miss writing essays, and taking notes, and listening to all the different teachers and professors, and having learning/schoolwork being the main priority, rather than earning money and figuring out what's next in life. I miss the structure of it all. Plus, it doesn't hurt that I was pretty good at school, so I guess I also miss that ego boost. haha.


Wanna hear a joke about Brendon uries <br>forehead?

Wanna hear a joke about Brendon uries
forehead?

+undercover elf he has said that he doesn't like the jokes anymore. he compared it to making fun of somebody's height. you shouldn't make fun of things people can't help :))

+comicsanscacti he jokes about his own forehead m9

+comicsanscacti ok I won't say it. Do you want to hear a joke about pizza?

Brendon has said that he doesn't like the jokes about his forehead. Stop

+lauren oh hey that's cool. Which account?


Am I the only one who loves the way Dodie says "room," yeah, just me. Okay


It's so weird, there are so many things in my life, over which I can get nostalgic
 I guess it's because I know the complete story with its ups and downs, what's important and what is not
Whereas in the moment it is really hard to distinguish things, plus there is always that fear of unknown future, which nostalgia simply doesn't have


This is the most relatable thing I have ever read. I have these thoughts every day, I graduated high school 2 years ago and I'm currently in college.. which I'm dreading. it's nothing like high school, everyone seems dead and unhappy. I've been studying for two semesters and I have not made one friend. Everyone is so distant and it's awful...


I feel the second point so hard, even though I'm not out of school yet, and won't be for another handful of years. But oh man when I'm on vacation and stuff I get real bad sometimes 'cause... school provides a structure to your life. Otherwise i'd just be lying around trying to find the motivation to do.... SOMETHING. Yikes.


Hi Dodie, I don't usually comment on things but I just wanted to say how much happier you seem in this video in comparison to videos of the past. I know it's a nostalgic, reminiscent video, but you don't appear to be as heavy or down and it's really great to see someone I watch sort of go through the same things as me and get through them.
Sorry if I'm completely misinterpreting this and you're in a rough patch right now. I know how easy it can be to cover it up. But it means a lot to me to see you happier. You are great.

Also if you want to come back to NZ and have another meet up that would be great too lol. I had to miss the last one cause of responsibilities, but I did come to your show with Bry in June! I would love to properly meet you. They say don't meet your idols though. But then again I don't think I idolize you. Soz lol.


Incredible video, super relevant. I know what you mean about "being told what to do" . If someone did it now, you'd hate it too, but having all the responsibility for your future is nervewracking. I feel the same way as you do, I miss knowledge and science a LOT, I spend most of my time on the science part of youtube to make up for it. unlike you I miss the uniform at least a little, because i find picking out what to wear in the morning annoying. I hadnt realize it when I was a school, but I usually dont have near enough clothes not to repeat like crazy and that makes me not want to wear anything... So yeah I need either an uniform or a sugar daddy.. I love notebooks stationary and scientific calculators and I have legit 0 reasons to use them and that saddens me immensely. I make lists just to use notebooks... And use post it's around the house all the time as reminder notes. What you are saying about not being surrounded by that many people your age really is a problem. I at least have university, but the day I finish I dont know what im gonna do. I enjoy both being surrounded by people and being alone, I have like two sides. The thing is that my being alone side doesnt make me reach out to people and I dont even realize I might enjoy it or even need it. You should join a club or something. Language lessons are great. I started german last year and I love it, which is funny because it's something that I do just bc, i dont have a real use for it (Other than using notebooks and highlighters, which is a legit reason to go if you'd ask me)

+Rosina Merola Another thing I miss is, like you said the community, but I've been thinking about it and I hadnt realize the difference between my University and school. At school your community is formed of different people with different interests and different opinions and you learn to engage with them regardless. I love meeting people that love what I love and being able to be a nerd about it freely, but I miss feeling part of something even if we didnt have much in common, now it gets harder and harder for me to do the talking because Im just so used at being around people with similar interests.


Definitely enjoying the present when I'm locked outside of my house😂this was still inspirational though😊


if you run out of vedm ideas could you make a video about your musical background/history/education? i'm always interested in hearing people's musical journeys!


Doddie are you insane?! I hate my school but then again it's a rubbish school 😂


It's so ironic I find this video today.  I just woke up this morning dreading to go to school.  I tried everything to stay home.  But I want to try harder.  Thank you dodie


I feel the same way about school. Like, the whole grade became one big group of friends, except me and my friends.
A large part of the is because we (not me exactly, but more my friends) were heavily bullied by the other groups.
But I did wish we could be part of that (even if I think many of the are just plain idiots) one big thing.


Have you ever gone to university?  I feel like it's the best of both worlds because you get to be smart, be around people, and have some structure in your life, BUT you get to study what you want to study and, within reason, when you want to study.  If you decide that you can't get out of bed before noon, then you can have a class schedule that reflects that.  If you want to have some days off to work on your youtube, you can do that.  It's a beautiful thing.

I totally agree!!! Uni is so different from high school, and you learn so many things, not just from studying from books, but from the experiences of being a university student :)


I like how you said "i don't think i'd rather, i just miss it". It's so true! You can miss things but it doesn't mean you prefer them to the present. After many changes and phases in my life (school, gap year, bachelors, semester abroad, masters, ...) i miss every single part but i like how i is right now. After school, you can do so many things and decide for yourself, which i love. Also, uni is in a way similar to school, so it's a good substitute ;)


lol for our year it is compulsory to go to school until the age of 18

Elise I've seen you quite a few times! Heya! >♡<

Elise Same, I live in Australia. But I started school at four years old

LemonadePie where do you live? Because I plan to finish high school (13 years into education) but I will graduate being 17 just because of where my birthday is


I totally agree with you Dodie, and Im a senior in high school. I just know that I'm going to miss it so much, and that's the main reason why  I'm so scared to leave... I used to think it was because I didn't know what I wanted to study, but now I do (sort of) and I still don't whant to go. Recently I had a really good realization about how I'm actually looking foward to leaving because I started to think all the good stuff that are (suposly) waiting for me in the future, and it felt so good. It was actually great. But you made me realize that it's not that I fear the future because of the unknown, it's the present becomoing past that I dont want. I already miss the past now, what will I do when I have so much more past behind me?... I guess one just has to learn to live with that, I hope I learn to soon...


Thank you for this video, it makes me appreciate things so much more


Maybe you could do an OU course in English lit or something? I love being at university for all the reasons you say above, and I'm pretty sure I'll just go on to be an academic in Biology cos perpetual learning.


I really should be doing a report for work due tomorrow but instead I'm here watching Dodie cuz priorities <3


I have been "in school" (sort of) for hmmm 20 years now, finishing my PhD and already thinking about a postdoc, I cannot live without school. I love it. I would hug my uni if that was possible... I did try the walls are non-responsive to hugs :D I love the brain challenges, the tasks, the research, that feeling of joy and accomplishment when I finish a paper, or finding an answer to an annoying question stuck in my head. And oh, the stationary, I love it, all the notebooks and pens and papers, plus working at my uni means I get paid for doing what makes me happy, I really feel blessed each and every morning. Well, that was rant...


Hi Dodie I just watched let it be and i loved it ur such a good actor its amazing ahhhhhh soo good  :D  <3


i think something we all do is look back and remember the good parts of things and not the bad; like i fricken HATED high school (only just got out 3 months ago) but i already miss some aspects of being... not so independent? but all i wanted during highschool was to finally be independent. i guess it works both ways, we want the things out younger selves hated, and we hate the things our younger sleves wanted. ahhhhhhh life is just so confusing and awful sometimes.


Last year, I had phenomenal teachers. This year my teachers are crap. So essentially I understand this feeling while I'm still in school.


Dodie!!! If you wanna continue with learning a language, download Duolingo or use their website! It's completely free and helps me keep up with languages!


I've just realized that I am an extreme introvert. I was so happy and content as a little kid but nowadays I pray that when I'm home I can be alone and cuddle a cat and play music alone. I have friends and all, but only about 3 that I trust. And i have other friends that count me as one of their best friends but I find it hard to really trust people due to other people betraying me and shit. this video has just made me realize that even though I don't have a 'best friend' or someone I fully trust or have a real bond with, I should probably cherish not paying bills :)


I miss school so much :'( mostly my friends. I do stay in contact with them but it doesn't feel the same since we rarely see each other. this hit home so hard 😭


I really relate to this ahh! School wasn't always a fun place for me at all due to being quite badly bullied, major self esteem issues, boys problems and all that jazz but I really miss the good parts of school. That's what I really miss! All the things you listed! I miss my friend group, the feeling of community (I don't ever want to be an adult!) I miss silly lessons in year 7 mucking around (though I feel bad for the teachers now) I miss being silly with friends and talking about bands and Youtubers all through class and break haha, I miss my old teachers! I miss not having responsibilities and having teachers who really cared about you. So much of my time at school was spent feeling bitter, guess you don't know what you got.. 💜


You should volunteer at a library or something! That's what I do, even though I'm still in school but I go and help with the kids craft and I go to the adult art journaling and it's super fun


I'm in my last few months of high school right now and it's all to easy to embrace the "senioritis" and just look forward to leaving. But when I think about it, I will never be in this position ever again and it's a really special time in my life! I'm really gonna miss how comfortable I was at my school and hometown and the relationships I have built over these past 4 years with my friends and teachers. And I haven't really thought about the community aspect of it, but I'm going to miss that as well. I still have many years of school in my future, but I'm going to try and really appreciate this last trimester that's, in a way, the last few months of my "childhood."


"the past is gone and cannot harm you anymore, and while the future is fast coming for you, it always flinches first and settles in as the gentle present."


i know, i'm always worried that when i get older, it's gonna be harder to make friends.  i'm a very anxious person meeting ppl idk,  and school (as much as i dislike going) is such a good way to make friends :):


I often find myself panicking about the fact that I am now in charge of my life and could seriously screw it all up at any minute if i make a wrong move. Ive been out of education for less than a year... its such a sudden slap in the face.


I'm training to be a teacher right now and the fact that I missed school is one of the reasons why I'm doing it.


storytime!
i recently changed schools and now i'm attending this thing called 'lyceum' (maybe you have that in UK but it night mean something different)(i'm from Russia) where its like half-schools and half-university (????? does that make sense????). So technically i'm still in school but there is A LOT more of responsibility on me and as you said no one tells me what to do, I have to think for myself and i'm only 16 and it's so stressful and I relate to this video so much (i mean i know i still have my parents caring and paying for me and i don't have to look for jobs yet, so like obviously you've got more on your plate than me)
anyways, thanks a lot for the video, it's nice knowing someone feels the same way <3333


i'm in my second year in college, which is crazy. but anyways, i really hated high school when i was going to high school. our school was always included in the top high schools, and we constantly compared ourselves to each other. it actually resulted in a lot of suicides which is really sad. but looking back on it, it really wasn't all that bad.<br>i actually really really really miss choir. we went to europe twice and we went to disneyland and that was so amazing. i miss my lunch friends. i miss my teachers who cared so much about me and always helped me with everything. i miss not being an adult.

i'm in my second year in college, which is crazy. but anyways, i really hated high school when i was going to high school. our school was always included in the top high schools, and we constantly compared ourselves to each other. it actually resulted in a lot of suicides which is really sad. but looking back on it, it really wasn't all that bad.
i actually really really really miss choir. we went to europe twice and we went to disneyland and that was so amazing. i miss my lunch friends. i miss my teachers who cared so much about me and always helped me with everything. i miss not being an adult.


I left school not even a year ago but I basically miss it for the same reasons! I /did/ really appreciate my last few months but that makes me miss it even more. I used to see so many people a day which was tiring but way nicer than what I do atm which is sitting in an office with one other person 8-9 hours a day and only rarely really talking to them. I'm so excited for uni, it can only get better


i loved this video and not just because of the content (which was really good too) but idk you look all happy and smiley and it makes me happy and smiley!


I'll try to make the best time since I'm uni. and uni is just so different from high school. it feels great! i learned a lot. more than I've in the past. couldn't be more grateful to have this opportunity.


Why do I always end up crying when I watch dodies more deeper videos


I'm will be going for college for three years next semester and honestly I don't miss high school at all. I don't miss having all my classes every day for hours a day back to back. I don't miss not being able to nap between classes. I don't miss having to ask to go to the bathroom haha! Aw you're always so nostalgic and I get that way about fun experiences and although I had a good high school experience I don't miss it. I do know what you're talking about when you mention having to plan out things yourself. That's been the scariest part about college even though I still have assignments. It's so much easier to get behind and skip class and worrying about my future and majors and everything makes me nostalgic about when I could just finish tasks as a child and not have anything but playing on my mind. I miss Summer's filled with friends and fun not worrying about internships and summer classes and your gpa and major. I hate that being adult to me is feeling constantly behind


It's definitely interesting to see the differences in personality of people; you say you live too much in the past and I believe myself to be too focused in the future and in posibilities :) maybe we both just need to look around more and be more mindful


I've been off ill for a week now, and I never thought I'd say this but I really miss being at school.  I'm missing the pick-me-ups of certain friends and giggling at that group of girls that think they're better than everyone else. I miss eating salad sandwiches and mr Kipling cake for lunch, and I miss learning. I wanna go back :(((


I miss school too. I'm an introvert but I miss having someone teach me things. I chose a program in college that I loved so I loved what I was being taught and I didn't even mind the 8 am classes. .-.


If you miss school Dodie, you could always go back! On my English Literature course at University, there is a lot of discussion and debate amongst peers! Societies and extra curricula's! I relate to you on missing school though, looking back it was very much a safe space...


"The bullying was particularly bad in year 7 and 8"?

Man, why is this such a common thing? I know for a fact that 8th grade was the only year I ever experienced really intense bullying and other people have said the same thing. Paul Graham wrote about this on his blog.


ive been homeschooled for a year and i feel the same. im more depressed, i dont feel as smart, i feel more lazy, i feel unneeded and forgotten and unwanted. i didnt feel this way before...


that is so true! Appreciate the present. I've thought about that many times. The past always looks better, but it's not, really. 😁


this will sound kinda sad but one of the things I really like about school is the teacher support network. I have an amazing group of friends who I love to bits, but I also struggle to talk to my parents so teachers are such a help to me and I will never not appreciate that


I used to feel the exact same way. I went straight to college right after I graduated high school. It was a lot of fun but my program was only for a year (Culinary Arts). I started working at a restaurant afterwards and it made me feel really anxious and sad. I couldn't talk to anybody because a) I was the youngest b) I was the only woman in the kitchen. I couldn't relate to anybody. They all looked down on me and they were sexist. My boss once asked me if I was planning on going back to school and I said yes and that I want to go to film school or do something more creative. He laughed at me and said that nobody really gets into that industry. I worked at that restaurant for 3 shitty months but it made me realize so many things about myself. Before culinary school and working at the restaurant, I did a play, I was in a competitive dance team, I was in a writer's craft class, I made films, did improv, and I was in the student council. I didn't even realize how healthy and fulfilling my life was because I took it for granted. I just thought I'd always be surrounded by a lot of people and always have somebody to hang out with. When I finally left the restaurant, I didn't work for 7 months. I was writing, reading, and doing something creative every day but even though I was doing things that I love, I felt like I had no direction in life. I didn't really know what I was doing. I also didn't go out much because I wasn't making any money so I felt depressed. After the summertime, I decided to look for a part-time job that's not related to cooking so now I work part-time in a retail store. During my days off, I write, read, film, and take pictures. I'm also applying for a graphic design program at the same college that I went to two years ago. On top of that, I just started dating my best friend of six years and we talk about films all the time which is super nice. I feel like things are finally picking up for me but I know I'm gonna get that same feeling again down the road because we are only in our twenties and we are still in that process of transitioning into the ~ adult world ~. We just gotta keep going and do our best at everything to get the most out of this wonderful (and sometimes shitty) life. It's gonna be really hard but the feeling of being able to get through an obstacle is gonna taste oh so sweet :)


I’m a senior right now and with all of the COVID 19 stuff this video rlly hits


Hi Dodie! I usually never comment, but just wanted to say two things:
First, I thoroughly enjoy your videos and think you are very talented :)
Second, I just wanted to let you know that I decided to read Candice's poetry book (since I'm a fan of poetry myself) and truly couldn't tear my eyes away from it. I loved her vivid, thought-provoking use of imagery, as well as, her simple honesty that is portrayed throughout. If you happen to read this, please give her a 'well-done' hug for me :) Also, let her know that I really loved 'Ice Cream', it was my favorite <3 Thanks!

Isn't it lovely?!?! Thank you so much! :) I'll let her know ^_^ X


The third point I don't relate to so much because I'm in university, but the first one! I miss high school so much for those reasons. I miss seeing my friends everyday without having to struggle to fit plans into a busy life and I miss feeling part of something like I did at school, my uni is too big for me to get that feeling. I may go have a little cry now too.


I don't really miss high school, the only thing I really miss is being in theater and learning French since that was a huge part of my life then. I graduated in 2013 and now that I've moved on to a university,I do think I'm going to miss being in college when I graduate next year, because I love the environment and the people that I have met and being somewhat on my own. I love learning about things that I wouldn't have learned in high school specifically for what I want to do and I think that's neat. I won't miss the amount of stress that I have from schoolwork though. I'll never miss that.


Dodie this comment isn't related to the video but I wanted to tell you that you were brilliant in Let it Be! You passed my expectations of your acting abilities (that were already very high) by a lot and really helped me to understand the film. I just wanted to let you know that I enjoy every single one of your videos and that you (by far) are my favourite YouTuber and are my role model. You had a rough time ( and somethings are still going through it) but you are able to do what you enjoy and be amazing at it! Thank you for being amazing!


I've been out of school as long as some of you have been alive (eep)! School wasn't the best situation - I wasn't bullied in high school - but a few really awful things did happen to me. However, sometimes I wish that my only responsibility was to go to school and do homework... and not pay bills, go to work everyday and adult. I wish I could spend all day learning. I can say this because I've been both a child and adult... and I say with confidence that although being an adult doesn't always suck... some days one just really wants to be a student again.


I am so surprised that Dodie is an extrovert! I couldn't believe it!<br>Maybe I'll grow up to be more extroverted because I've really been trying to talk more and be more social around friends and family.

I am so surprised that Dodie is an extrovert! I couldn't believe it!
Maybe I'll grow up to be more extroverted because I've really been trying to talk more and be more social around friends and family.


I think that you can educate yourself much better when you're out of school. There is really nothing stopping you from writing that essay, Dodie. You have that freedom and you are free from those dreadful deadlines and due-dates that make school (uni) for me so dreadful and restricting. As a creative person, that's what's killing my motivation.


Rose-tinted spectacles. You're missing out the hours of stress and anxiety in favour of the moments of interest, understanding and achievement. There's plenty you can do now, do it with friends and hold each other accountable. Stop longing for a time that didn't really exist, at least not in the way you remember it. You can't detach a time and place in your life from all the other things that were happening. you have work now, you have responsibilities your parents and teachers took care of. Don't feel guilty for having moved on to another stage of your life, instead try and be grateful for the time you had in education and hopeful for the future of a national education service :) I'm in yr 2 of a physics degree and I desperately want to do something creative. Education can straight-jacket you as well as give you opportunities. Don't forget that.


I feel exactly the same rn, fresh out of school and waiting for uni to begin. these few months have been the most free I've ever been and yet the most helplessly bored as well. I have to think and plan things on my own. if I want things to happen I have to be the one to make it happen. ironically though, during school I always wished I was out of it so that I could have the proper time and energy to be myself and to do my own things. now that I am here, out of school, I'm just too lazy to do anything hahaha


I loved primary school, probably the best time of my life ever, but I hated secondary school. I was never bullied but I was very bored and frustrated most of the time, plus I didn't get on well with most of the other pupils. I did enjoy year 13 though because I was just doing the subjects I liked by then and I could go home in my free periods :-) But yeh, generally hated it.


i started writing a journal earlier this year, for this exact reason. in the future, i will miss where i am at the moment, and i probably wont even remember all of it. i want to be able to look back and see everything i did and everyone i knew and everything that i fussed over. i want to know this feeling and treasure it, because this is one of the best times of my life, and i need to treasure it. (i am twelve years old, by the way.)


I'm in school rn and honestly I really love it I love learning I love the people I love being a part of it all but sometimes I get scared about a time in the future when I won't be in school like school is really important to me and I'm "the smart girl" so it's a part of my identity and I wonder if it'll always be or if I'll move on and be okay without it

we'll see I guess ¯\(ツ)/¯

I'm in school rn and honestly I really love it I love learning I love the people I love being a part of it all but sometimes I get scared about a time in the future when I won't be in school like school is really important to me and I'm "the smart girl" so it's a part of my identity and I wonder if it'll always be or if I'll move on and be okay without it

we'll see I guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯


I´m graduating in a few months and now I wish I had appreciated those things earlier. Oh my god, I don´t want to leave!
Don´t worry I´ll be fine, I´m just going to study maths, then it´ll be better.
(Awesome that you had german as a subject! I don´t know why schools want to let their pupils suffer so much, aber ich hoffe du fandest es nicht so schlimm xD)


I completely agree with all of the things you said you miss. I only just finished school but have a while before I start uni and I already miss so much about school. I don't think I didn't appreciate it at the time though because I've always said I love school.


I miss school too!  The main thing I miss is band.  Music used to be a huge part of my life and now I'm at the point where I haven't even played my clarinet in like 3 years... Sadness... DX


A quote I think you may like if you haven't heard it already (short and sweet): live in the here and now.


Thank you so much for this is really made me think more about how fun school can be.


After having recently visited my old school I miss school too, but not the bullying from grades 5-9. I miss being able to see my friends everyday and have debates with our teachers. I miss our parking lot shenanigans like car surfing, putting other people's cars in neutral to move them, snowball fights, drifting, and park like an asshole day. I miss building things in our shop class. I miss pulling pranks our teachers and knowing that we were equal to them. I miss being on the FFA Fish and Wildlife team with underclass men who looked to us upperclassmen for guidance.


You should do your work in a cool creative shared workspace! Editing and emails and stuff. :)

I'd really love to! Where ? I'll look into it ^_^


at 6:05 i had just finished a bowl of pasta and was scrolling around only half-listening so i thought dodie said "the pasta's gone, and you need to focus on what's good now" hahaha


You play(ed) clarinet?? Omg you are my friend Melissa! You two are so similar!


I FEEL EXACTLY THE SAME!! Being an adult is so shit :((((


I agree. So much agree to EVERYTHING!! I feel exactly the same.


It's scary to think one day I could miss a time I didn't enjoy. That my life could get worse and I would miss the times that I always hoped were just temporary setbacks.


Our school has about 3,000 kids and we have 3 orchestras with about 70 people per orchestra and I love that. It's such a beautiful community we're creating and ugh I wish I could stay in this orchestra with these people for longer than four years ughugh


I'm still in school, year 8, and when I'm not at school, I do nothing, and I love the fact that at school I was productive for 6 hours!

i think there is a crow curled up inside my skull


whenever my hand gets sore from writing essays for college in HNC art and design, I get glue tack and wrap it round my pencil, hope this helps =)  or if you prefer a different texture you could get some pillow stuffing and snazzy material and a glue-gunn, get creative, don't work hard work smart and make your very own hand cushion for your pen =) ;)


I can't wait to leave school, go to college and do a course in law. Some of the things we do in school is just overly pointless, we can't be individual and I just don't have a group of people that I like


I love vedim so freaking much because you enjoy doing it so much. I love listening to you talking about stuff, just stuff. thank you for making me realize how important my last year of school is. Thanks. Bye. I love you


I hated every moment of school, including A level years (at the same school). At Uni now though and I'm really enjoying it. I'm probably exactly the opposite to you dodie. ^^


im out of education and since ive been out school ive just felt so bored, i miss doing stuff. this vedim is so truthful


dodie i love love love your makeup and hair so much!


I can definitely relate to your spelling point. I'm in my 3rd year of a maths degree (hated all of it) and currently writing my dissertation. I haven't wrote an essay since I was 16 and I used to be really good with grammar and spelling but now D: can't spell, can't do punctuation, don't know which witch or their there they're, da fauk is a semi colon for anyways?! I just hoy them in somewhere when I get bored of commas


watching this on the very last week of education was very moving :((


I'm really scared about not having the security of school and having people around me who want to work. I am defiantly a naturally lazy person and I'm scared that when I don't have my family nearby and teachers who are a lot more involved that I will just sink into a hole that I can't dig myself out of. That was really cheerful 😅 thank you dodie for all the fab vids you make xxx


I love learing and just school in general, but the pressure the system puts on you, and just thinking of being anxious because of projects and exams and homework just make me dread going back


have you ever thought about studying music at college? you could be a teacher at high school (:


I think with the learning thing, I think it's only because you're not working in a job where you have to always use what you've learnt in school


This video honestly makes me feel strange cuz I feel like I'm the only one who enjoys being in school but everyone seems to hate it. I'm in year 9 and I go to a really big school and I love it because I just feel so small and I always have something to do but I also feel safe. I don't know matey I'm just weird but I can't imagine not being in school


im feeling a little bit like this at the moment. i'm irish and in Transition year (i'm 15) and now there tWO MONTHS LEFT????? i feel like i'm not enjoying myself enough. i know i will miss it when it's over but i don't know what more to do and i would almost rather not appreciate it and be sad about it later than be sad about it now and later. my ty musical has its final night next week and i'm going to ball my eyes out. at the end of every rehearsal i'm exhausted and ready for bed but then thats one less afternoon enjoying myself and i wasted it being tired. i've had a ball and next year will be work work work work work. i'm so full of emotions that i feel like i'm over flowing. i don't know what the point of this paragraph is but i guess it's out there now. looking forward to the rest of vidim dodie.


I was bullied in high school years 7 and 8 and I also had to deal with a solid 7 years of self-loathing because I am gay and that wasn't "acceptable" in my high school. So years 7 to 11 were terrible and years 12 and 13 were better but I still wasn't "out". When I started uni, I forced myself to come out on the first day and these last 2-3 years have been infinitely better because of that. I hated school and I think it's the only thing I have ever said I "hate" because I don't like the strength of that word. Uni is so much more mature and if someone wants to do that but hated school, I would still urge them to try it!


I think about this a lot because I know I'm going to feel like this in the future. It's really weird cause I'm shy so I find it hard to make friends anyway so school is not fun for me a lot of the time, like I'm in my first year of uni and I struggled with making friends at first and now the only reason I have any friends at all is because I've had classes with someone I was kind of friends with in high school so I just hung out with her and made friends with her friends. I still don't have any close friends at school so I'm alone a lot which sucks but it's going to be even worse once I'm out of school, especially considering how shit I am at maintaining friendships that require effort beyond sitting with them during class, plus I'm also headed towards a very lonely career as an artist so there won't even be that work environment with people around. I've got a lonely life ahead of me!


Would you ever consider doing a video on gcse's/options? I have to chose mine by next week


I'm in my first year at uni and I don't miss school at all. I miss having to see people everyday, I guess, but even then I prefer my own company. I hated school, I wasn't bullied or anything, I just hated it. It made me so miserable and I'd spend all my time waiting for it to end, living for weekends and holidays and then not even enjoying them, because it would still be school soon. The day I finished was the best.


"Now I have to do it all myself and I am very scared."<br>^^^Literally my entire life right now. I turned 21 last month, and I'm still refusing to acknowledge it. I cannot be 21. I am not old enough to be 21. Being 21 means doing proper grown-up adult shit. I don't know how to do that! No-one's told me how! I went shopping yesterday and instead of getting food for meals I bought a pretty top and some doughnuts that were on offer and a box set of my favourite TV show and then spent ten minutes on the way home talking to a cat! Who let this happen??

"Now I have to do it all myself and I am very scared."
^^^Literally my entire life right now. I turned 21 last month, and I'm still refusing to acknowledge it. I cannot be 21. I am not old enough to be 21. Being 21 means doing proper grown-up adult shit. I don't know how to do that! No-one's told me how! I went shopping yesterday and instead of getting food for meals I bought a pretty top and some doughnuts that were on offer and a box set of my favourite TV show and then spent ten minutes on the way home talking to a cat! Who let this happen??


I love school,my friends,my teachers,learning,I feel safe and comfortable at school and there are people I felt safe with,we have our own little jokes and pranks we play and we all stand up for each other and even if it sounds stupid we do all love each other and everything we do we do together,I love absorbing knowledge and even though I'm not very good at that,I love having something to do and waking up every morning knowing I have something to do,I love debates and I love being so fucking pretentious and kinda smart.Something I really hate is that through school I've developed depression and anxiety,it stinks and sometimes there's too much people but people are always there for me and I know that.Im nervous and feel nothing and I'm not even sure but at school I feel safe.I just wish that we weren't pressured as much.


Being your own boss sounds great at first, but, well, I summarized running a one man project by saying that my project manager was an insensitive slavedriver and the project member was a noncooperative underachiever.....


Uni is a good intermediate step between school and life tbh. It has the education, the community feeling, the people around, but only a vague sense of what you need to do. It's up to you /how/ you do it. Maybe you miss school more than most because you haven't gone to uni so the transition has been less gradual? Food for thought :)


you could do a video of you speaking some of the foreign languages that you know because like, when you learn a foreign language and you stop learning about it for a little while, you think you forget more than you actually have, and i think it'd be fun to watch


I'm leaving school in 16 days and then I'll only have four exams left and I'll be done with it and this video really made me feel like I should appreciate the last 12 days at school. But what I have left really isn't like school anymore because it's this "it's over soon anyway so why should I do anything" feeling all around and we're not learning anymore and most people just skip a lot of classes


Honestly sounds like you should go to University! My experience has been a lot of the things you seem to miss :)


School was cool for me, the low pressure environment, the fun and the friends were definitely cool, but MAN, COLLEGE! College has just been a rollercoaster of emotions. I ended last year on the verge of depression, and now a new year has started and I'm loving it! Everyone says this is the hardest year, but I'm having a blast. I really appreciate how much I have improved as a person, and still I see a lot of new and exciting things to do and learn in the future.
I really hope I'll never peak; people say they peaked in high school, or college, but I really want to improve everyday, and achieve greater and greater goals. I want to be 80 and still look forwand to the next big project.
Who knows, maybe next month I'll be dreading my life and considering the pros and cons of drinking myself into a coma. But for now, I really appreciate where I am in life.


This really made me think... Because education is compulsory, we tend to spend the rest of out lives living in reaction to that by not learning. Maybe I should 'enroll' myself in my own personalized school where I spend maybe two hours a day learning...


Ive been feeling similar to this for ages. I miss knowing lots of people and having the option to be friends with people. If I didn't want to be friends with one person I could make friends with someone else. Recently I've got so sick of people I know/ am friends with. So now I have one friend I hardly see because she works all the time, and my boyfriend. And I don't know how to make other friends, and I sometimes need to talk to someone so I'm not alone with my own thoughts and I can't do that now... So I feel so alone most of the time. Watching people like you makes me feel less alone. Also I miss music too! I loved playing percussion!!! I played drum kit in soul band and jazz band and I played timpani in concert band and orchestra! And I did African drumming and percussion ensemble!!! And singing 70s and 80s songs with soul band. Any music groups I can join now I'm almost 20, are too serious and I don't have good enough music skill anymore to join them :(((( i miss HS music :(


It's videos like this which make me love your videos, they just make you sit and think and wow


i ranted on twitter (@gryxion ayyy) about this but now i dont letter limitations so lets go okay so i think the biggest thing i miss about school is the sense of construct. you have a reason to wake up in the morning. you need to get to school and see your friends and finish up that homework you were meant to do last night but didnt (oops). you need to be somewhere, it makes you feel important. you have obligations to fulfill, you have purpose. you wont forget to eat lunch or do any work, they wouldnt let you. you get up to see friends, or turn in that essay youre so very proud of, or practice for the play next month, or meet with the art club. you are getting up and getting stuff done, and thats what i miss the most. another thing i miss is (like you said) knowing and being surrounded so many people. im an introvert but there is only so much loneliness you can take before it drives you mad. sure you can see your flatmate or family but its really not quite the same.  you see different faces all the time and makes life so much more... interesting!! and i miss knowledge. i miss learning more and more. i hated it at the time but i miss writing essays and the satisfaction of getting a good grade and i miss getting ink on my hands from that old felt tip that really should be replaced. i really miss learning and being rewarded for it, whether it was from myself or a teacher. i just miss school so much, which is something i never thought i would say.

omg my comment is so long im sorry for any inevitable typos and just this whole thing in general aaaaaa


im in school at the moment, and it's interesting because I feel like I experience it differently because I am highly introverted and also yeah being told what to do next is nice but teachers and career advisors are always like 'right work really hard in maths and german and historyand you'll get straight As' firstly im not straight so there's no way my As will be, and the fact is they always assume our idea of success is making lots of money and they tell us to get good jobs and achieve our dream of being rich as fuck but really my dream is to live in a city and busk and write and work in a café and visit art galleries and museums in my spare time. but they're constantly invalidating my dreams like I talked to the career advisor and she was like 'okay but what job do you actually want? think realistically, of something you can live off' I AM ALRIGHT WITH HAVING NEXT TO NO MONEY AND NOT BEING ABLE TO LOOK THE LANDLORD IN THE EYE SO LONG AS I AM HAPPY i guess the mentality and snobbery of school is the worst part. also you're right, knowing stuff is rad, and i really love English lit and science so yeah


I started sixth form in september and i didnt realise how much i missed school until last weekend when someone had a house party and it was kinda like a school reunion and it was so lovely, i miss it


If you want to get better at spelling easily, read more books - I thought my spelling was going downhill, but when I read loads more books, it really worked❤


I don't love school but I do love learning. I've currently got offers to study English Lit at University, I'm so excited. After that, I plan to train as a teacher and spend the rest of my life in a primary school :')


As someone who is incredibly introverted, school is pretty hellish. Around 6 hours of being forced to work with people, and talk to people, and generally be in the presence of other people, wears me very thin. I love learning and making friends, but we all need breaks. Best I can do is ask to go to the washroom, and spend 5 minutes wondering the halls hoping I don't get caught.


One thing I regret not doing at school is getting more involved in all the clubs/extra curricular activities... I rlly wanted to be more involved in music and drama and science but never was because I was always worried about what other ppl would think


these are all the reasons why I love school, but only view of my friends seem to understand that... they always tell me that the only thing about school they like is being around friends all day 😕


Am I the only one who feels just like Dodie expect I'm still in school? I'm not even expecially good in most subjects and maths and sciences really really do stress me out, but still, I just wouldn't know what to do without school in my life, as weird as that sounds? Like, I get up super early and seize the entire day, I socialize and talk to so many lovely people, I try to focus my energy and motivation on the subjects I love so I feel like i'm spending my time usefully, I even quite like most of my teachers, I just feel like school is a little world on its own that gives a point to my life, as cheesy as that sounds. Without it, I'd just be missing out on so many little things that make me happy, like seeing the sunrise in the morning when I'm on the bus, uncontrolable laughing fits with my best friends, getting lost in topics that are genuinely interesting, getting a test back and realizing that for once you've actually done well, and so on. And even just thinking about having to graduate one day makes me feel absolutely scared, like to a point where it actually makes me cry, because I honestly don't know what to do with my life afterwards. As Dodie said in the video, not having somewhere to go to, or someone to talk, or just something to do, must feel like you're completely lost and I'm not sure whether I could deal with that. Anyways, I just realized how long this has already got, oops, sorry. Just wanted to get that out there! :)


"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"~someone who says good things idek


I'm in 8th grade and I already understand you actually, like I'll look back to even just last year and I'm like, " Why can't it be that way now? Where have all of the people gone? " Then again, I did move schools and I honestly love it in the new place but.. Meh. It's not the same you know? Different people, new experiences. <br>I'm rambling, I need to stop rambling. Well then. I'll just.. go now..

I'm in 8th grade and I already understand you actually, like I'll look back to even just last year and I'm like, " Why can't it be that way now? Where have all of the people gone? " Then again, I did move schools and I honestly love it in the new place but.. Meh. It's not the same you know? Different people, new experiences.
I'm rambling, I need to stop rambling. Well then. I'll just.. go now..


I'm pretty much every week at my old school because I just... really miss it?! I actually hate high schoolers now, they bother me a lot and sometimes all I wanna do is punch them in the face, but I kind of miss the feeling of being surronded by people your own age and who share most of the same interests. A lot of people in my university are older and looking for other things in life. Although interesting, it's kind of scary. I miss high school, I miss my senior year so much, I miss my prom and I miss everything.<br>But I'm happy that I got past it and got into this stupid adulthood. It was a great period of my life, now it's time to make a new one.

I'm pretty much every week at my old school because I just... really miss it?! I actually hate high schoolers now, they bother me a lot and sometimes all I wanna do is punch them in the face, but I kind of miss the feeling of being surronded by people your own age and who share most of the same interests. A lot of people in my university are older and looking for other things in life. Although interesting, it's kind of scary. I miss high school, I miss my senior year so much, I miss my prom and I miss everything.
But I'm happy that I got past it and got into this stupid adulthood. It was a great period of my life, now it's time to make a new one.


This hit me hard as I'm currently a junior in highschool and senior year is coming up and im scared as hell to not have school anymore


Oh my god this x1000<br>Never say you didn't appreciate it enough though, any happy period of time is only happy because you didn't worry about liking it enough or things getting worse one day.

Oh my god this x1000
Never say you didn't appreciate it enough though, any happy period of time is only happy because you didn't worry about liking it enough or things getting worse one day.


this video kind of gives  me hope as I currently hate school. my anxiety has gotten quite bad and school just make it worse (but anyway) watching this video has allowed me to realise that although i can't imagine myself ever missing this "phase" of my life, maybe one day i will and that i should be appreciative. and now that i think about it, it's not school that i hate.. i love being in class and i mostly always get A's but perhaps it's just the people that i don't like. not sure, thanks anyway dodie

Same for all of this. Apart from the mostly A's. I'm kind of miserable at school but luckily I finish in 2017. When do you finish?


I miss secondary school so much. I hated it at the time because I was bullied up until the end of year 9 and my teachers never helped me when it came to my anxiety. But I had an amazing group of friends who I used to hang out with a lot, and there would be so many opportunities to go abroad and learn new things - I miss it so much. Sixth form and college just doesn't feel the same way at all. What's worse is that my age is starting to show more because I go to college with school leavers and I'm an adult. They seem to still be in that kind of "honeymoon phase" of leaving school and I'm just sat in the corner with a couple other adults just not really saying anything. Even though I'm an introvert, I do miss socialising so much.


Dodie I stopped writing my essay to watch this and I can I say it was worth it. Yes I did my 13 years of compulsory education too and now I am in college studying Applied Bioscience. I don't miss school at all really. I too woke up everyday feeling like crap and by my last two year I was done, I just wanted to be finished and out of that school. I was a terribly annoying First Year (aged 12) and that persona stuck with me for the 5 years even through I completely changed as a person, but yet they still saw me as the annoying 12 year old.
The only thing I miss from school is music! I was a higher music student, was part of two choirs and was teaching myself instruments. Now I feel like people look down on me when I'm writing melodies over my molecule and what not. I actually made a video about it on my channel.
Basically I don't know what I'm trying to say but I just wanted to write something!


Damn,,,I never really thought of how when I graduate high school I won't be apart of an orchestra... I love my fellow orchadorks, Damn :-((


Yeah no I'm totally aware of this stuff at the age of 14 and it's terrifying. Even over breaks. I'm not good at regulating sleep-y stuff and all that jazz. Although I plan on working at a company of some sort and be an engineer or work in theatre tech or something. I'm not really a people person, but I love being with a ton of people trying to achieve a goal and making things.


Preach girl! I'm a 27 year old woman with a degree and a job and i still don't feel like I'm very good at adulting!


I'm currently in the 7th grade. I really hate some of my teachers and obnoxious peers and being surrounded by them for 7 hours, 5 days a week. I hate some subjects and waking up, I hate the idea that some kids are being bullied around me. I hate the anxiety and stress that comes with my school work.
This being said, I really love learning, I love writing so much and analyzing and essays and just absorbing everything around me. I love the idea of having a schedule and taking my art class and playing my flute and just existing, right next to 250 of my peers. I'm an introvert, but I have made some of the best friends at my school and can't imagine not being around them and always having something to share.  I love having things to do and being productive.
And you are right. I take all of the things I love about school for granted. Mainly because of the trend surrounding hating school. I'm not sure how I'm going to react to not having so many people that I know at the same time. I'm not sure I'm going to be with so much freedom and independence, and it terrifies me. I'm so afraid that leaving school will mean leaving school and everything that I won't pick up the things I love (such as writing) again.


i know exactly what you mean, i really miss school too! it was fun, honestly, i loved going to my art lessons :/ i made great friends that i saw everyday, now i hardly see my friends anymore. i don't have a best friend anymore, and it's really sad. school just made life easier ??? like it makes me sad when people say 'i can't wait to leave school!' it's sad to see people wish their life away :-(


But you just spilled out the solution for yourself: go join a club for your interests. Take group classes in what you love, and can't you take a university class that piques your interest? For kicks and giggles.

Because you're very smart, and at 20ish you achieved more than many others have done in a life time.

You're incredibly awesome in every way; be nicer to yourself


I totally get what you're saying here, BUT you don't have to stop learning and doing things just because you're no longer in school! Due to the internet, we have the ability more so than any previous generations to continue learning and exploring the world around us beyond any formal education. I know that it's often difficult to self motivate, but it's so worth it!


the only problem about school is that sometimes it makes you feel like crap.<br>education and learning should be fun, but the way they do it ruins that whole ideia, and it makes you feel dumb

the only problem about school is that sometimes it makes you feel like crap.
education and learning should be fun, but the way they do it ruins that whole ideia, and it makes you feel dumb


I graduated 2 days ago and now I've finished school forever. The gap between exams and graduation gave me time to think about things and so when I was saying goodbye to everyone for the very last time I didn't get emotional, and I felt odd because of that. But I'm sure there will be another night where I lay awake at 2AM wondering where time went and what all of my ex-classmates are doing now and I'll probably cry and wish it never ended.


I miss school too, I love learning.
But I still do learn, I read books, watch documentaries and do crosswords. And I discuss politics and history with my mum.
I also love cooking so im always learning new recipes, and ingredients to improve my cooking.
I was bullied to, not necessarily because i was weird but because i was an easy target.
Thing is that I have cut myself of from the bad parts of school, so i remember them but i don't feel anything about them. whereas the positive things I do.


I kinda have the feeling that everyone on here is that community and maybe even better (especially this channel bc everyone is so nice:)