I think what i miss about school is feeling like you have a future.

In school, you're encouraged to pursue your dreams, teachers and peers encourage you. Then when you graduate, you don't really have as much encouragement. I for once have a  very encouraging family, but it's not like that for many other people.

^exactly. Because after you leave you are LIVING the future, and it's often not what you imagined it to be when you were in school.


i hate school. this made me appreciate it a little bit more.


I just had a fetus dodie marathon and I saw this video and clicked even though I've already watched it just to see how you've changed. You've grown so much and you're so much more confident in your own skin. I don't know, I just felt like I should say something. Love you dodes ❤❤

I'm having a general Dodie marathon. It's been going on for days now. Lol


I cried a little while watching this because you PERFECTLY articulated EVERYTHING that I've missed about school since I left.
The sense of community, the unexpected relief that you find in being told what your next steps will be, the losing your knack for spelling, handwriting getting messier, etc, etc, ALL OF IT.
I have thought and felt the EXACT SAME THINGS, and suffered from the EXACT SAME WORRIES AND PROBLEMS, and... I thought I was the only one.
THANK YOU FOR THIS VIDEO, DODIE <3 <3 <3
Because of you and this video, I feel less ridiculous, and less alone.


I like those things about school, but so many of my friends including myself get panic attacks or have developed depression or an anxiety disorder because of the high pressure the system puts on students to do well. So that just ruins school for me..

i've just finished High School and my mental health is totally damaged because of that pressure (bullying too tho)  because i was always thinking that i should be better, and when that thing didn't happened i was feeling like miserable... However, it's something that is still there even though this path ended, kinda like a war trauma, or something... I'm tired.
I can't go  the college i wanted to due i couldn't apply a scholarship there... my grades were low
and im watching all my friends making their dreams and i feel happy, because i'm really proud of them but also sad at the same time because i always thought that i should be better
but now i can see that i shouldn't be perfect, i have to be human.

Highschool Academy doesn't release that
They only like machines(at least here to obtain great rankings on a national exam here in Colombia)

Seriously though, for me what's worse is I can't even take days off from the fear of the amount of work I'd have to do the next day. Just makes me panic :/

That's what high school did to me, and somehow I managed to go to one of the best schools in my country- which has broken me down more than I thought it would.
However, you have to learn to see that you can take advantage of school in a way that builds you as a person not as only just a student.
I learned coming to such a competitive and intense university that you don't have to be the best to succeed. There will be very little times in life when you're the best anywhere because there will always be someone better than you. Your job is to do the best you can with what you've got and not leave any opportunity unturned! It's not be the best but do your best. I learned that the hard and painful way... But if done right and following what you perceive as success, it should pay off in the end :)

+Spøøpy Jim I'm glad you're doing better now and I hope it will stay that way

@Spøøpy Jim that's awful :( have you tried talking to anyone? Sometimes you just don't see that there are actually people who do care


"sometimes I can't hold a pen properly" haha, that weird feeling after summer vacation when you haven't written in like forever and your hand is just so slow and your letters look like you're in 1st grade. anyway...gonna start my last school year in about 3 days. I can't wait to finally get out since I hate it, but I'm really thankful for this video because I might try to enjoy it or make a list of things that are good about school

I agree on the pen thing. 😅 I feel like you'll miss school year from now. Hm. 🤷


I had an extreme love-hate relationship with school.  I would never go back in time to relive my high school days but I do occasionally look on them with happy nostalgia.  I think that's part of why I'm trying to become a high school French teacher, cuz that's the class I never really had problems with and enjoyed the most.


I would like school, but it stresses me out insanely, and so I think "oh, I can't wait till I graduate" but then I realize that once you graduate you're alone and sad and everything is so difficult. I'm constantly stuck in this loop where I have no idea if I'll ever be happy because I'm not happy now and I won't be happy then so I just regret not cherishing being younger, but I honestly don't think I was that happy then.<br>I wonder if I'll ever be happy in life.

I would like school, but it stresses me out insanely, and so I think "oh, I can't wait till I graduate" but then I realize that once you graduate you're alone and sad and everything is so difficult. I'm constantly stuck in this loop where I have no idea if I'll ever be happy because I'm not happy now and I won't be happy then so I just regret not cherishing being younger, but I honestly don't think I was that happy then.
I wonder if I'll ever be happy in life.

@Emelie Andersson I literally have the exact same thoughts. It's kind of scary to think about.

Ella majd, I feel the same, like I dream of when I can leave school because I am truly dying there but then I think about how it probably isn't the paradise I'm thinking of and that freaks me out a lot. I feel the same Thanks :D

well that's because you won't find happiness in the external world, happiness is inside you, and in the end it's up to you and only you to be happy within any circumstance. Remember, there's no key to happiness, but on the flip side, there's no lock, so you're good :)

Ella Majd Couldn't have said it better myself...

Ella Majd  now i wonder like When u get a job and u dont have a boyfriend or someone you live with and just meet your friends once Every Second week or so how lonley it would be. Like wtf are you supposed to DP When your home? Watch Netflix? Read a book? Like yeah you have some hours to do everything you wish you were able to do When you were a teenager but wont it eventually get boring? Doing the same things iver and over again ? How tf Will you be able to meet new people When all you do is work and then nothing? Gosh i gotta pull myself together

Ella Majd I'm going through the loneliness and sadness right now.

Ella Majd This is exactly how I feel like I'm not happy now, but I don't feel like there's anything to look forward to in life.


I absolutely loved school, the learning especially, the atmosphere, everything. So guess what - I'm becoming a teacher. School for life. Problem solved. 💁🏻


I hated school when I was there, but what I miss is being surrounded by friends and people all day every day. Which is weird because being around people now exhausts me most of the time, but I still feel incredibly lonely when I think about how I am not with lots of people. I'm 23 now and the adult world kinda sucks because all your friends have jobs and no one gets to see each other enough or no one is all available at the same time. I don't even have a group of friends, I have a few friends who I see one at a time. I miss having a big group of people to be around like I did in school.


The majority of things Dodie misses about school are the things I hate

+Jess I hated those things when I was in highschool, but I do miss them now...


I do not like to let go of the past. I have a diary and keep (and sort) pictures of my friends and save almost every picture I get sent. I keep chat logs and have a storage of things I've liked. I feel like this isn't normal but I just love to look back on things and especially at this time in my life, there are so many nice things happening and I don't want to ever forget it all.


live in the moment! we all forget to do this but it's so damn important :)


I might dislike school now, but I know that I'll miss it later! Your video broadened my perspective, thanks Dodie! I'm so glad you're doing VEDIM. I'm attempting VEDA this year and I'm very excited


i often come back to this video when i feel really burnt out on school. it's so helpful to just take a second and reframe my thoughts to focus on the positives. however, it does make me simultaneously panic about growing older and leaving behind school, but.. oh well. focus on the present, and focus on the bright side :)


Now I desperately want to consume every moment of my last two years in school.

John Risner Same I'm about to be in 11th grade, last two years

Well how was it two years later now and also this is my last two years coming up

Timetraveling360 last 5 weeks here, I'll miss friends n stuff but not exams


I know everyone always says you're a Hufflepuff, I always thought you were a Hufflepuff, I mean, your extrovert-ness is very Hufflepuff, but the want to show off knowledge that you described is a very dominant Ravenclaw trait. I know I have that want (it's like a need for me) and I'm practically the most Ravenclaw Ravenclaw that ever Ravenclawed.

No I ammmmmmmmm<br>Jk we can both be ravenclawey ravenclaws

No I ammmmmmmmm
Jk we can both be ravenclawey ravenclaws


Ohhhhh Dodie... You always make me think before I go to bed. Actually, you make me think all the time. I'll take your word and enjoy the present, no matter how awful it is at the moment. <3


See this is why I love your videos Dodie. They are like conversation or trains of thought that progress and eventually end at an unscripted conclusion. I feel like when I see the process of the moral it doesn't seem as forced, it is natural and genuine and relatable. You da bomb Dodie. <3


I love this.. I love when you just talk to us and tell us what you're feeling.. It's like listening to a close friend. 💕


I feel this so much. Thank you for making this Dodie. It explained to me all the feelings I've been having but didn't really have a way to describe them..


I love your videos. They always make my brain get out of its little box and really think about things.


I've always loved school. Until it wasn't about education anymore but more so about performance. And from there, even if I looked forward to be surrounded by my friends, I started dreading going to school and that's really unfortunate.


Maybe one day I'll miss school, but for now I feel trapped. I feel like I can't go out and do anything I want, they just want me to go school -> work -> retirement. I feel trapped by it. Am I meant to spend my whole life going through this process? What will it all be for?

I understand you I feel the same way. And it's sad so many other people do to. :( But then when u think about it, without going through that process  of school > uni > work > retirement, what is there to do ? Like I don't want to be all philosophical and everything but it just makes me wonder the meaning of life

you need to take your life into your own hands and do what you're passionate about. <br>(easier said than done, i know, but it doesn't hurt to try)

you need to take your life into your own hands and do what you're passionate about.
(easier said than done, i know, but it doesn't hurt to try)

bella b I feel you... I want to live my life, not be average.

This is exactly how I feel wow it's like you put my thoughts into a YouTube comment. And it scares me so much to think of the future, cause I don't want to be ordinary, I don't want to study, work, retire, die, and then that's it. I want to be different and I feel like society, parents, surroundings, all force me not to be.


missing school huh?<br>just the thought of p.e. makes me shiver

missing school huh?
just the thought of p.e. makes me shiver

I love your pfp and username.

Also, 100 percent agree with you I am just waiting until I can get a singing lesson in replace of p.e. 😂 my school does music lessons during the day so you skip a lesson. But they never seem to have any available lessons during p.e. >♡<


im currently in the ‘i just want it to be over’ stage and i really enjoy rewatching these types of videos. it reminds me to slow down and enjoy what’s happening in the moment. so thank you dodie!

ps. i just ordered your book, better late than never!


I REALLY cant relate to this. I'm so glad high school is over, I absolutely hated it. I had to spend time with people I disliked and who hated learning. University is great because you get to learn a lot more about things that are interesting to you and most people are friendly. I went back to my old high school once and I wanted to go home right away, I honestly don't know how you did it...

@Miniver Mortimer same !! btw you look gorgeous on your profile picture !

This is absolutely fair enough! Different loves, different opinions. Glad uni is good :D X

This is exactly how I felt, maybe it because we are enjoying uni. I can't associate high school with anything but bad things haha!


I agree about uniforms. I consider myself lucky that I was never required to wear a school uniform. I love that I was able to choose what I wanted to wear (and also wear something that's comfortable).


i love these types of existential crisis videos


This makes me appreciate school more, thanks doodie


Move to a retirement community! They may not be your age, but there's events, and they'll tell you what to do... :p

DiamondSaf most definitely, most young people don’t even realise it’s the time of their lives ! I wish I knew when I was in my 20s.   I was working on a job full time 14 hours a day all in my 20s.

@Hanniffy Dinn about the anime thing, ikr, cos like all the exciting stuff happens at the young age when the characters are still in school or smth :( getting older is a pain

Hanniffy Dinn I mean, she's also a singe-songwriter. That's incredibly successful....there's that too.

Doesn't really matter HOW you do it; You can be annoying as fuck but as long as it brings in the cash, well thne it doesnt really matter. A job is a job.

@Hanniffy Dinn Who cares about Pewdiepie....

Funny how a Job is often defined by something you do, in exchange for money.
Gasp Youtubers make videos, in exchange for money!? It's literarily a JOB?! WHAAaaT

Funny how a Job is often defined by something you do, in exchange for money.
*Gasp* Youtubers make videos, in exchange for money!? It's literarily a JOB?! WHAAaaT

@*****
It's a false reality, because it's not a proper job and pretty cushy lifestyle.
If you can get an audience and have a personality people like and don't mind talking to a camera all day on your own mostly.

@*****
For sure, that's why in Anime it's always focussed on School, College or University.  Because when it boils down to it.... well, it's the best part of your life.
After that it's all downhill in the rat-race.

Mind you job wise, being a you tuber isn't real life.
If I was younger, I'd focus on you tube, being in jobs is frankly no fun at all.

My advise would be stay in education as long as you can, then start a business.
It's best to be your own boss, even as a you tuber.

+doddlevloggle What did you order/eat at McDonald's?

Or just get a job.  You tubers live in a false reality.

... I genuinely wish this was an option.


its so hard to appreciate school when ur constantly bullied :( but ur videos always cheer me up!<br>thanks for existing dodie :)

its so hard to appreciate school when ur constantly bullied :( but ur videos always cheer me up!
thanks for existing dodie :)


5:00 - 5:26 This is LITERALLY my everyday life. Thank you so much, Dodie. Someone understands.


As a senior in high school I really needed to hear this. Thanks so much, Dodie! xoxo


I have almost finished my first year of secondary school and I feel some excitement from being around other people and I now think I'm an extrovert! I have watched some other videos on this sort of subject but this video has really changed my perspective on school. My Englishteacher hates my class in a friendly way and he always makes us do assessments, but i think now I'm going to try to enjoy them!           <br>thx Dodie for an insight to being an adult :-)

I have almost finished my first year of secondary school and I feel some excitement from being around other people and I now think I'm an extrovert! I have watched some other videos on this sort of subject but this video has really changed my perspective on school. My Englishteacher hates my class in a friendly way and he always makes us do assessments, but i think now I'm going to try to enjoy them!
thx Dodie for an insight to being an adult :-)


Thank you for this Dodie. With only a year and a quarter left of high school, I needed this reminder to enjoy it while I have it. Everything in my head is gearing up for college and I need to appreciate the here and now.


Thank you so much for this video, actually, because it makes me feel a lot more appreciative and motivated towards school. I can't say that I love going to school, because it's really not always great, but I do love learning, and I love how much is still out there for me to know. I don't necessarily like waking up early and going to school to face a bunch of shitty people, but there are some people that really are great, and this video has made me appreciate them a lot more, knowing that it'll be gone in 2 years when I go to college/uni. Thank you, Dodie, for this video. It helped me more than you may think <3


I'm with you 120% on this one Dodie, thinking about how I'll see now from the future is honestly a terrifying thought to me. I have no idea what I'll be like in a year or a decade from now, so I have no idea how future-me will think of present-me.Hopefully as long as we don't judge ourselves too harshly then a few nostalgic regrets is all we'll escape with <3


thanks for making this, it made me realize how great going to school is and even though it's super stressful right now, i'm happy that i'm surrounded by so many people and get to debate and talk with them all the time. i'm going to miss it  when i have to move away from it all


This hit me so hard, I miss school and choir and always having something going on! But i'm in uni now studying film and I love it and i'm going to appreciate every second of it like I appreciate you dodie and your intelligent thoughts xxx


That''s interesting how you combined the words pretentious and intelligence to describe what your feeling. Pretentiousness has nothing to do with intelligence, you are entitled to express your intelligence. I left university last year, i did 4 years and i now have a Masters degree in Fine Art & Visual Communication. I totally vibe with you on missing being surrounded by debate, beautiful intelligence and knowledge - i actually miss writing my dissertation, i genuinely do. I HATED doing it at the time, but looking back i have realised the reason i stressed out doing it  was because i was so passionate about what i was trying to convey. I wanted to tell the world my views, my theories and trley covey my knowledge on a topic, or even research to the point where i myself discover something completely new! I also feel like my general intelligence such as writing, spelling, reading and my overall vocabulary is just shit now. BUT my god it doesn't have to be that way! Just because you we are not in an educational environment, doesn't mean we have to stop education. What's stopping us from deciding to write an article, or research a subject, or discuss a topic with a group of friends, or conceptualise a piece of art. School has given us the tools to do it ourselves, we just gotta put it into practice. I am also very lazy - i have struggled to do anything but work, sleep, eat.  Great topic for a video Doddie. Sorry about this essay of a comment haha :) <3


Enjoyed the video :) I like analyzing stuff as well. If you wanted to, you could include this into your videos. Go through stories or whatever and give us your interpretation and the passages you liked most.


Thank you for making this video. I will now start to pay more attention to the little things going on RIGHT NOW. I love you, Dodie. You're so inspiring and creative❤


I just look at the past so much bc I can't believe how happy I was when I was younger. Growing up has really taken a toll on my mental health but I always go back to your videos and music to really relate and cry to. I love you so fucking much Dodie Clark


I  an Introvert and I don't miss my school in the slightest. It was full of teenage testoseterone, bad music, football (soccer) crazy, underage smoking idiots! And I was bullied, mainly due to having aspergers.

But I certainly miss my college days. I often feel nostalgic about that and would do anything to re-live those days.

Also, I know what you mean by taking everything I did for granted. Even little moments that were cool in your life and wondering if I miss where I am now and I started doing day out videos like TomSka does (not a plug!) so I have something to look back on when I'm older :)


Shame this is unlisted now. I remember liking this video a lot back in 12th grade. I had transferred to a new school (which I absolutely hated) and it felt like everything was going too fast. I didn't want to leave yet, and I was already missing my old school. This was a nice video, something I could relate to, putting my feelings into words. Though in your case it was more retrospective I guess :p


Videos like this make me feel like I know the person behind the camera personally. I think that is exactly how it should be with almost every vlog! Dodie does a wonderful job of making sure the audience feels this way.

Anyways, awesome video! Made me have a reality check that I have one moment to appreciate something before it's gone and just a memory. Thankyou.


This! This whole video spoke to me on so many levels! Well done Dodie 👏🏻


just what i needed to hear! I used to love school and learning but it has been so stressful lately bc a few guys tease my friends and i. thanks Dodie :)


Thank you so much for this video Dodie, it's really made me appreciate being in school still! I realise now all the good things I have now! :)


In a few days school will start for me again :(<br>But because of you I'll try to appreciate my teen years a little bit more. Thanks for being such a lovely person Dodie

In a few days school will start for me again :(
But because of you I'll try to appreciate my teen years a little bit more. Thanks for being such a lovely person Dodie


I'm in year 11 and I'm doing my GCSESs, and I have honestly never been happier. My friend group is massive and growing, I find my teachers interesting and I'm just really enjoying it all (apart from revision stress but ya know) thank you for this video, it reminds me to not take all of this for granted <3


This is exactly what I needed :) I am a student and am now taking some more music classes instead of all the maths and programming i'm there for. I've been hating the curve of difficulty and nearly lost all enjoyment for being in college, and this is right on point with what I am realizing. I need to make sure I enjoy every bit of it. Word.


As a college student, I loved this. I enjoy learning and I am so naturally curious, so college is perfect for me in that, but I often get overwhelmed by the stress and intensity of my college. But I also love it and how hard it's pressing me to be the best I can be.


I'd take my last two years of school over my university work in a heartbeat. Seriously, wtf, this is so much work.


You always make such lovely, thought provoking videos! I sit here watching your video, procrastinating from doing some coursework, wishing I could leave school although I think I will feel like you in a few years time xx


LOVE this video. I miss that sense of community where everyone's in the same boat, learning new things and trying to better themselves. It's taken me years to realise it's okay to want those things still; to be renaissance-minded. The best person I've met was the same. Now I'm trying to convince myself that I can stop worrying, and start doing. Trying to convince myself that I'll get far more out of going to an art class, or studying coding online, instead of staring at my computer worrying about wanting to do those things. I'm realising that worrying makes my life harder than hard work, and worrying doesn't help me find a community of like-minded people. I really hope you do those essays about Candice's book <3


I am 25 now, and I feel like when we were young everything felt new. Our first expirences, once you experience something for the first time it's a lot more fun.

Plus conversing with other people.


I love the end message of this video to try and appreciate the moment you're in now. So many times we don't appreciate what we've got right now, but I always look back and think why the hell didn't I realise how lucky I was. Good message and a great video, I particularly agree with missing clubs and activities, I used to see them as such a chore but they were actually really fun looking back.


I feel the exact same way! Even though I'm in college, I miss how in high school I had such a large group of people that were all working towards the same thing that I was. (Being in band, chorus, and drama) There was such a huge sense of community and I absolutely miss that.


So glad you made this video! I thought I was weird being nostalgic for high school. I have these exact thoughts every time I panic about my future (which is basically every week). School It was such a simpler time when the biggest decisions you had to make were what you would get from the canteen at lunch.


this is probably real frickin weird but i love dodie's nose. its look like a cute little button and its just so adorable. i should stop.


I absolutely feel where you're coming from, although in school I was bullied rather harshly but I miss being able to learn something new every single day. I was filled with knowledge and memories every day of my life but now I'm just isolated and my class mates now live with their families and such. But knowing now that I'm not the only one that feels that way because I thought I was just crazy for missing school. So, thank you Dodie for reassuring my insanity 😝

<3 Love ya


This was such a good reminder to appreciate right now and not live in the good times of the past, thanks Dods🖤


i'm in lukio (high school in finland) and from what i've heard from this video and my friends who have studied in england your school system sounds both incredibly stressful - but also so cool! you guys have so many awesome clubs and activities you can participate in through school, and that isn't a thing here! i would definitely take that for granted given the chance


I'm in my last year of secondary school and I've doing 4 major research projects (in 4 separate classes) so needless to say I'm pretty stressed atm (and I'm a worrier, I get stressed over things very easily) but I am really enjoying knowing so much. I've always loved learning, you might say I'm a bit of a Hermione, and that is what makes all this studying and stress bearable, I am learning so many cool things. I think the one of the most important things to do in school is pick subjects that you enjoy because then even when it gets stressful you're still learning about things that interest and excite you.


I'm definitely with you on the nostalgia. I miss school for all the same reasons, then I missed freshers, then I missed my second year etc.. at first that revelation was very depressing, but then I had the realisation you did of 'hey, I'm going to miss this in the future, so I might as well appreciate it now!' and it's literally been so encouraging :) nostalgia always comes, but I find the best way to deal with it is to squeeze as much enjoyment out of the present as possible X


i love you dodie. great advice and i love your enthusiasm ! you inspire me with each video . you are my favorite youtuber


I'm so happy you're doing Vedim, this way I can procrastinate from my finals even more...<br>dammit.

I'm so happy you're doing Vedim, this way I can procrastinate from my finals even more...
dammit.


Personally, I was homeschooled for a lot of my school years and going back to school after it really helped me appreciate it. It's such a shock to suddenly be an adult and not have constant instruction.


I was bullied a lot at school so I don't want to go back haha, but what I do miss is that it was so much easier to hang out with your friends. You could just randomly say 'hey do you want to come to my house after school?' and your friends would be like 'woo sure!'. Whereas grown up's (ew) schedules are so bleh, it's like 'oh okay we're both free at lunchtime next Wednesday!' there's no spontaneity!


Dodie I just love you so much. All the little things about you just make me happy. Thanks for being someone I look up to and who makes me smile every day. You and your videos really mean a lot to me.


I can relate to this so much. Even though I am in my final year of uni and am constantly learning, it's all centered around the same topics and ideas. Although I am happy with the degree I have chosen, I really miss having knowledge on different subjects like modern history, biology, literature, art, geography etc. Nowadays I feel like I can't join in conversations without looking like an idiot because I legitimately don't know enough about the topic to contribute anything. I also don't have the time or patience to research/learn about these subjects again even though I would absolutely love to. Thanks for making this video Dodie, it's helpful to see there are others out there feeling the same. xx


If I didn't have to wear uniform and if I could dye my hair, and if there wasn't so much pressure,  I would love school. I love the structure it gives me, and I totally get your points about being around people and being a smarty pants- I can relate to this a lot, despite me still being at school


Oh wow I really needed this. I'm taking my first gap year and it's all so amazing and confusing and thrilling and scary. Getting jobs, finding out what I want to do in life, with my life. Traveling, moving out, losing friends, meeting new ones. It's all a bit overwhelming at times. And therefore I missed school tonight. You always knew what was coming next. But you are right! One day I'll totally miss this. Thank you, Dodie


I'm starting year 10 (second year of IGCSE) and this just hit me in the face. School has been such a constant in my life, even if I don't like some parts of it. The thought of losing this continuity and certainity of what's coming next is really terrifying. Thanks for the reality check Dodie, I'll be sure to cherish these moments. x


dodie i just want to say that i love love love your videos. you just always seem so real and genuine. like you dont seem like just a fake image on the internet that is perpetually happy all the time, youre actually like a real human with real emotions and i love it. i love seeing real people on youtube so thank you and keep doing what you're doing


I'm in school and I absolutely love it but that's what scares me. I know I'm gonna have to leave it and move on but having anxiety that freaks me out. I find change so hard and when you love something so much it makes it even harder. Anyone else feel the same???

That's the same as me, I only have the rest of the school year left and I'm terrified of what I will do after. I wish I appreciated school in the younger years because looking back now, they were the best!

I feel the same way! Although I only started loving school recently and have a few months left, I feel really comfortable with everyone and the school now. Looking back I regret not appreciating it more when I had loads of time left.


I love VEDIM. The best part of my day is coming home and watching Dodie's videos 😊


I really appreciate this video, it's making me think that maybe I should work on remembering and enjoying where I am right now. And I quick note, I came out today to my mom as Bi, and you were a major influence in helping me do that. Thank you so much, I've cried like six times today, and it's been a little crappy, but thank you for making content, and doing VEDIM so I know we can get through the tough times together


You could've have put what's in my head into words any better. Thank you for making me feel normal for missing school. I'm at uni, living far too far away from my family and friends, and I just miss the days of having so many people around me that I love! Ahhhhh, the feels!


I love school. I'm in 7th grade, in a school of 800 or so kids, and everyday I get too see my friends. I get to talk to people whenever I want, and someone will listen. I can make other's laugh, and they can make me laugh. It's a distraction from everything else. I smile, laugh, make jokes, and talk, more times in one day atschool, then a whole week at home. Without school, I wouldn't have known the people that I know now, who are so important in my life today. Also, I'm getting all of this for free. I don't have to pay my classmates to make me feel like I belong, like I'm important, like I'm needed, they do it without even noticing, and asking nothing in return. And my teachers, SURE...some of them I seriously wouldn't mind impaling, but other's have changed my life. I can talk to a few of them about whatever is bothering me, and they'll listen. Idk what my point is, but if there's anyone out there who hates school, just know that it's not all bad. If you get bullied, say something about it. try to be friendly to other people, and make them your friend. Learn to trust people, because in the end, if all the water runs out, and he food is gone, and your house just burned down, and your dog died, those things that walk on two legs, the things that you might find intimidating, or you would rather die than see, well... they're all you're gonna have left. and they're probably hundreds of people out there who wanna talk to you, because they relate to you. School can be amazing. It's changed me for the better.


After you spoke about highlighting and annotating sentences I grabbed a book and wrote tons. Thanks Dodie <3

Which is good because I have to revise but I'm so lazyyy


So I've just recently discovered your channel. I absolutely LOVE it and you and everything about everything. Anyway, I've always been an introvert and haven't really been one to put myself "out there". I've almost always gotten along with everyone, but since I got along with everyone I felt it was hard to commit to one group in particular. I only have 1 more year left of college (uni) and I'm afraid that once I graduate I won't have any motivation to go out and do things because a majority of my time I spend playing games online with friends across the country. I guess what I'm saying is that I can relate and I'm kinda worried about once I graduate and not being able to meet people.


Wow, what a refreshing video! I'm currently a high school senior in the US and I'm headed off to college this August to study chemical engineering, which will hopefully be my future career. As much of a STEM person as I am, a huge part of me loves the humanities and liberal arts in general. I think I forgot about how much I appreciate learning in general, whether it is about the sciences or history or literature, because of the overwhelming stress of the college application process in the past year. I lost focus of what I loved, science and history. I began questioning why I did what I did in school, but after I got the acceptance from my dream school, I remembered what I was doing this for. I'm going to college to learn more and become more educated and cultured. I'm doing this for myself. Because I'll be a better person for it. I'm so excited for college. Thank you, Dodie!


In my experience, the nostalgic feelings do get stronger as you get older. I didn't particularly like high school, but I really miss college. That was when made a lot of long-term friendships and probably had the most fun of any time in my life. I'm still friends with a lot of those people and see/interact with them regularly, but I still wish I could go back to that time and relive those experiences. Of course, even if I could, it wouldn't be the same, since I've already lived them.Then again, in 20 years, I'll probably look back on where I am now and feel nostalgic for it.


I really like these small videos you do. They make me think and as I am still young and going through middle school, I have exams and projects rushing around my brain. So I don't get to think on these topics that you talk about very often. So thank you Dodie, for making me just a bit more thoughtful.


Hi! Thank you for this. I can definitely relate. Your videos make me smile and realize every little thing is going to be okay. :)


LOVE this, Dodie! If I could tell my past self anything, it would be to enjoy where she is, because she'll miss it in some way. So I try to tell my present self the same thing.


Dodie even though I am 13 and still at high school I think exactly how you do. I think about a thing, then think outside the box about that thing. I love English and art and I love analysing and debating and discussing things that are not usually discussed about. We literally have the same brain I love you Dodie ❤❤


this made me feel so nostalgic and sad, especially as I'm leaving my school in june and I'm already missing everything:( ps. your hair looks so nice at this length x

okay you just said 'sad nostalgic ache' and that sums it up perfectly!!


Damn dodie... I think I'm gonna add this video to my come back tos. I've been absolutely hating and resenting school lately but I feel the same way as you, I love feeling smart and that whole thing. I think I need to start looking at it differently again like I used to when it was easier. It's so hard now... But I need to find the good again. Thanks for this dodie. Really thank you


I love the quality of your videos,I don't know what makes it feel so like 'at home' and relaxing...the light or something...I just love it! <3


This had made me appreciate school so much. I'm in year seven and I already miss primary, who knows how I'll feel when I'm an adult. 💛


I miss school too! You've pretty much summed up what I miss about being at school. You make a very good point about living in the now rather than worrying about the past, cheered me up :) thanks :)


The same goes for the future as well - recently I've noticed that I spend a lot of time daydreaming about future plans, things I want to do, places I want to go, which is great and it's healthy in a way, but only when it's not at the expense of the moment you're in. I'm learning to do what Dodie said, when I notice myself not living in the moment, I give my daydream a little nod, put it aside and let myself enjoy where I am right now :)


I can relate to litteraly everything you said in this! Especially the losing the ability to spell and write. When I left school, I had a year off of college, then went onto an IT course, which is all typing and (mostly) programming, so I never needed to write stuff by hand. Then recently I bought myself a notepad to write my thoughts and issues in (which I suggest to everyone!), and my handwriting and spelling was awful... Nostalgia is (sometimes) a horrid thing! <br>So thank you Dodie, I am going to try to see the best in every day from now on :) :) :)

I can relate to litteraly everything you said in this! Especially the losing the ability to spell and write. When I left school, I had a year off of college, then went onto an IT course, which is all typing and (mostly) programming, so I never needed to write stuff by hand. Then recently I bought myself a notepad to write my thoughts and issues in (which I suggest to everyone!), and my handwriting and spelling was awful... Nostalgia is (sometimes) a horrid thing!
So thank you Dodie, I am going to try to see the best in every day from now on :) :) :)


I love this video and feel the same way ! :) it's great when you meet up with old school friends and talk about the old times makes you appreciate them and kinda relive them in your mind that I think is helpful and healthy 😇


I was reading my old blog posts way back in college and I suddenly wanted to go back to school! I also hated waking up early just to go to my Physics  class but now, I realized how much I miss learning things even if it's at 8 in the morning. I also miss discussing ideas with my classmates and teachers and like what you said, feeling intellectual. Right after college, I felt lost in this big world because no one's telling me what to do next. I also miss being surrounded by people and meeting new people because right now, I'm usually alone. It's quite nice to know that I'm not the only one missing school. Thanks for this wonderful video!


damn dodie this is what i needed right now. im at college (in the us, so uni i guess? lol) and im just finishing my third year. im a week away from exam time and im just so burnt out. i have a ten page art history paper to write and i have not had ANY motivation to write it AT ALL. i sat last night for three hours watching your videos on repeat because my brain is so tired and your content relaxes me... but this video reminded me that I LOVE ART HISTORY. i truly do, i love talking about the artists and their lives and what they did and why its important. i love discussing the formal aspects of art and being able to articulate why i like the work that i do and why i dont like other works. i love learning! i love discussion! i love college. i wouldnt be here if i didnt. i think people lose sight of that when school gets stressful, at this time for me especially since im just one year away from my degree. thanks for the reminder and the motivation, dodie. really means a lot to me.


I relate to this so much. I'm still in school, and I had always thought I was an introvert, but I recently discovered after the summer holidays that I was an extrovert. I love being surrounded by people and I enjoy talking to people and I began to miss it over the 6 week break. Being ill and away from school makes me upset and feel isolated, because I'm not being immersed in people and things that are happening


I'm currently in school and I'm so glad you made this video Dodie. I really don't like school and you talking about this made me realize how amazing of an opportunity school actually is and how much you should cherish it. I never realized that once I'm done with school I'll probably only be around a few people regularly that I actually know and that's a bit scary. So thank you Dodie. Thank you for making me realize how much of a gift the present really is.😊


I'm in my last year of high school, and I feel like all of the things you mentioned are the things I'm going to miss about high school in the future. I reeeeally miss elementary school, though. I remember grade 8 being one of the best school years I've had.


Oh, I'm so glad you're doing this every day! I really enjoyed this.


Thank you for brightening my day :') your personality is just so awesome


This video made me so nostalgic about leaving school and learning and I haven't even finished highschool yet😭and it also made me realize that instead of complaining everyday about all the work I have to do and all the things I have to learn I should appreciate the fact that I'm adding knowledge to my brain everytime I'm taught something new  Thank you so much for this video Dodie💗💗💗 It made me realize how appreciative I should be of my life right now


I adore this. Really, I think it's because what you're describing is exactly as I am now. And I this is really going to make me enjoy and think about everything I do :) thanks Dodie x


I feel all your feels Dodie! I'm in my gap year and sort of missing being so busy and having structure. But, it's ok cos I am going to uni next year and I'm sure I'll have a ball, but I'm also sure there will be times when I miss being free and being on a gap year when I have to study for exams next year and do assignments :) I think it's a good sign that we miss it, because it means we love to learn and that we haven't finished learning yet. It's healthy. Also, your videos now seem different since you've been having personal/ family shiz going down, but in a good way. I really enjoyed that video ^_^


This video came at a perfect time for me. ♥ I absolutely hated school, but now I'm in uni and I love it so much. I major in cultural studies, so I do basically exactly the things you mention all day everyday (analyzing movies and literature, picking apart art and cultural phenomena) and it's so much fun. However, in my personal life everything seems to be going wrong lately which makes it very hard to appreciate just how lucky and blessed and grateful I am to get to do this. Like on one hand, I feel like I'm genuinely the happiest I've ever been, but on the other hand, my mental state is a mess, my anxiety has never been worse, and I struggle with the uni workload WAY more than I should because of this.
When someone asks me how I am, I get so confused about this because I feel like I'm simultaneously the happiest and almost the most miserable I've ever been and I'm terrified that looking back on this later I will only be able to remember the misery, or I'll come to the conclusion that I let the misery overshadow my happiness and that I'll never be this happy again but I let my mental health problems overshadow is.

LOTS OF THINGS. Anyway. I started a bullet journal for this reason. Not the to-do-list versions, but just to quickly jot down every day all of the good things and the bad things that happened every day. Especially all of the fun little interactions with people that I would normally forget about within a month. I think it's helping because it really makes me see that misery and happiness aren't mutually exclusive, and that sometimes my worst days are directly followed by my best days.


I miss school and it’s only the summer holidays 😂 I’m going into year 8 btw and I love you Dodie!


i'm a high school senior about to graduate. i'm already feeling super nostalgic. the stress of trying to figure out college and what i want to do is awful. thanks for this, gives some good perspective.


I loved this video! I'm still in school but this inspired me to enjoy it and make the most of it. I love VEDIM and I can't wait for more


I'm almost done with my first year of university and I needed this little pick-me-up
I was just told by a professor that I have to take advantage of the wonderful opportunity I have attending the university I'm at ( because it's a really big deal school...). I spent so much time in the beginning of the year being miserable and feeling stupid and inferior here but it's such an amazing place and I haven't been taking advantage of it! I have 3 years left to make the best of it!
Stay awesome Dodie! :)

Oh! Comparative Literature and Psychology :) <br>( I'm maybe double majoring)

Oh! Comparative Literature and Psychology :)
( I'm maybe double majoring)

WrinkleinTime42 that sounds so cool what are you taking at university?


You're so wonderful dodie! I completely get everything that you're saying it's weird I feel like you're voicing my exact thoughts!


I'm so close to finishing school and every day it gets nearer and every day I get more and more scared, and I think what I'll miss the most is the routine! As you said, being told what to do and having structure in my day is the only thing that actually helps me work and I'm worried without I won't be able to


Right now I'm writing my thesis and recently I realized I was miserable working at home or going to the library by myself all the time. So I'm trying to go to the library with friends who are also studying, it helps!<br>I think that if I'm ever in the situation of "being my own boss" I'll get a spot in a co-working space. Even if you are doing your own work, it's nice to be around people.

Right now I'm writing my thesis and recently I realized I was miserable working at home or going to the library by myself all the time. So I'm trying to go to the library with friends who are also studying, it helps!
I think that if I'm ever in the situation of "being my own boss" I'll get a spot in a co-working space. Even if you are doing your own work, it's nice to be around people.


When it comes to the moral of your story, I wish I had someone to tell me that years ago. I never appreciated what I had until it was gone.


You're an extrovert?! I never would've guessed from your videos! ^^

Have you learned about socionics? It is basically like an mbti expansion and it redefines a lot of functions that mbti got wrong, for example Si isn't really about learning from the past, in fact most introverted functions relate to the past in different ways. Si is more about remembering physical sensations and being attentive to the physical confort of your atmosphere, and in ESE (ESFj) it is more of a focus on making it comfortable for others. I still agree with your ESFj typing though.

cannot relate anymore but still love u dodie :)

I'm INTP whoop but i enjoy company in limitation. It's compulsory at my school to do a two day hike where you are literally with the same 6 people for two days straight in a pressurised environment, and I loved it but only the outdoorsy part. The amount of people constantly there drained me loads and I remember sitting in the tent with my other introverted friend listening to everyone else playing cards and just trying to gain energy off that

ENFPs and ENTPs are the most introverted extroverts because they're Ne dominant

Quikie93 forgot to mention that dodie's fear of the future is indicative of her being a sensor and not intuitive

Quikie93 of course you can be an enfp and dwell on nostalgia, but someone who does this AND lives in the past AND struggles to see the potential of the future is NOT an Ne-dom. what's your reasoning for her being an Ne-dom or an enfp?

That's not necessarily true. You can definitly be a ENFP and dwell a LOOT on nostalgia, it's very easy to happen in fact. There's more to MBTI than this.

woodland weirdo her intuition is not that great tho, and enfps have very good intuition. a real enfp would embrace change and not give two shits about the past and nostalgia. dodie cares waaaayyyy too much about both those things to be any type of intuitive

K.Walmisley Productions pretty sure she's an esfj. i'm highkey obsessed with mbti, and she's functionally an esfj.

her obsession with living in the past instead of the present or future is definitely indicative of some sort of sj type - along with the fact that she's definitely emotive enough to be a feeler and that she identifies as an extravert, this makes her an esfj.

ESFP I think, but not sure I find it quite difficult to figure out people's type that I don't personally know.

E/infp here :D! Any of you guys got any guesses for Dodie's mbti type?

@Quikie93 Ah that's cool, I love seeing other INTJs! I guess I'm not really talkative with people, small talk wise, but I do talk with people I'm comfortable with. I just talk a lot in class - like answering and stuff.

My best friend  - who's an INTJ is really not talkative. He's talkative with me - and when he needs to - but generarily speaking he prefers not to talk too much

I'm an INTJ, but I'm definitely a leader and I'm pretty talkative, but I'm also DEFINITELY introverted.

+Quikie93 yess and enfps are the most introverted of the extroverts

+Shana Van Dyck Very well aware of MBTI, I myself am a ENFP - and I know that there's a lot more to it than "Extroverts are loud and introverts are shy" - but it's a stereotype that one, often unawarely judge people by, even if you "know" the "real fact" of how it is.<br>MBTI is awesome~

+Shana Van Dyck Very well aware of MBTI, I myself am a ENFP - and I know that there's a lot more to it than "Extroverts are loud and introverts are shy" - but it's a stereotype that one, often unawarely judge people by, even if you "know" the "real fact" of how it is.
MBTI is awesome~

+Quikie93 I think a lot of the times there is a misconception about extroverts and introverts. Introverts are shy and don't speak to a lot of people and extroverts are loud etc.. But that is not true! If you want to know more about it you should look op mbti. It's really interesting


This made me super nostalgic for my old school days. I still think about them a good bit. It wasn't all good, and I definitely didn't get to enjoy such a nice variety of recreational and elective activities like swimming, orchestra and so on, but I enjoyed the comfort of knowing what was going to happen tomorrow. I enjoyed not having to worry about every tiny little irritating detail of my life. I enjoyed learning things just by going to classroom. Yes, you can learn things online, but it's tedious and requires some self-sufficiency, so it's easy to just not do get into it. With school, you had to learn. Some of it sucked, but the good bits (like English Science for me personally) were great to be able to go and learn about everyday.

Not a lot of good in my life right now, so it's difficult not to just reminisce about my school days. Things weren't great then, but I can't say they were worse. The months leading up to graduation were the scariest, worst days of my entire school career. Having to suddenly "adult" was mortifying, and I certainly don't feel much better about it now since I'm doing an absolutely awful job at it. I'd might as well still be 17.

I thought I was going somewhere with this, but now I've just gone on a tangent about life being kind of lame now which was not my intention. I sure know how to ramble on incessantly.


absolutely LOVED this. i miss school so much too, we definitely take those moments for granted. i miss getting to see my friends everyday and the amount of people i knew like i'm in uni now which is obviously much bigger but there are more strangers than people i know. also i miss the relationship we had with teachers and all the bants we would have. it makes me sad to look back on but it also makes me appreciate how good i had it. i went to a great school and had some wonderful friends and i'm so glad i had an experience so good that makes me miss it this much. But yeah i definitely need to focus on the now too bc i know there will be a time when i wish i was here again. and that's a good thing to think about bc it means that this time was/is pretty great! 😊


always get me feeling nostalgic, Dodie aww


This is something I've been thinking about so much lately! Spot on, Dodie!


oh my gosh thank you for this- I've been holding a lot about the past and this has really opened my eyes


yeah, I know how you feel Dodie. I miss middle school whenever I think about it. I was so sad about leaving to high school because I knew that that period of my life was closing and I could never get it back. But that's just part of growing up, I think I've realized. Because I've grown to like high school just as much, even though it's not the same as middle school. So if you think of it like that (like you said in the video) you should enjoy the good parts of the stage of life you're in right now!


Wish we could turn back time to the good old days...


thank you dodie for always giving he best advice ❤


Last year when I started uni I found out that I actually love studying and learning (which I hadn't before when I was in school). In the summer I miss learning so much that I read academic books. I can't imagine not going to class because I love it soooo much!


I've been trying to apply this to my life and it's hard but now I've noticed so many wonderful things about my life and my school. No matter how much I worry and complain about school I'm truly enjoying it. My friends are amazing, the teachers are interesting, and I find the subject matter fascinating. I don't want to stay in high school forever or anything like that but I'm quite content with things the way they are right now.


Augh I'm going through the exact same thing! I appreciated school as it was happening because I knew it only got worse. However, I did not understand how helpless I would feel. Being an adult with a business and a house and a husband and trying not to mess it all up is hard! This video really touched a nerve, glad to hear it come through someone else's mouth.

I am! Like you said, I'll probably look back on these years and nostalgically remember how simple they were. Thanks for your replying! It was my first YouTube comment ever! ☺

<333 you sound like you now is doing well though!


i felt so identified with this one dodie
i spent 2 years in a super rough and difficult program in high school and i was used to that amount of work everyday. when I got into college i realized i was super tired from all the hard work and decided to take a year off college.
and here i am, 9 months after making that decision and as you said, i miss school, and feeling intelectual, and getting to know lots of people and basically everything you said, i 100% agree
good things is that when I get back to school i will be super excited and craving food for my brain
lots of love dodie, great video


I love the end of this video. Because it is so true - the past is gone and it's healthier to focus on whats now. <br>That's often really hard to understand and to live, but if you leave school...that's just what you got to do. Because being an adult is so much harder that being in school! But you're also much more liberated.

I love the end of this video. Because it is so true - the past is gone and it's healthier to focus on whats now.
That's often really hard to understand and to live, but if you leave school...that's just what you got to do. Because being an adult is so much harder that being in school! But you're also much more liberated.


It's weird to hear someone else's view of this. I recently moved to a brand new city after finishing uni, and yeah it's scary how different life is after education. Also in my head London is a place with loads of young people doing things, but I guess that is just a case of the grass is always greener.


these are pretty much the same reasons why i love school now! thinking about it, i really hate the thought of leaving. im going to miss the community the most. im in choir, concert band, glee, chamber singers, and was in a mini musical last year so i have a lot of friends who are as young as 4/5 years younger than me. theyre practically my tiny precious sisters. im essentially the big sister to the whole music community at my school. i love them all literally so much i am kinda contemplating not moving city so i can visit them after i graduate even though the only degree i really can do in order to get where i want to be is an 8 and a half hour drive away. im going to be such a mess at our graduation thing :( im really dreading graduating so much. if i had the choice i would definitely stay in school for like another 5 or 6 years


I really  loved high school. Yes, at that time there were moments where I felt like shit, but I think that is part of growing up. I went to a really progressive high school, and when I look back I remember it as really happy times during my life. I finished high school 3 years ago now, and many of the things I hold on to, and happy memories are related some how to that. I made my closest friends there, and I've changed so much during those years, it was almost like a 180 to me. There was a whole new world in front on me and that molded my little mind coming from my primary school. I remember learning a lot, and just being able to see the world with different eyes. I'm so greatful fo being able to experienced that. I know for everyone is different, but I think everyone has there time and there place to learn, grow, and change. For some is in high school, but it could be anytime in your life. Loved the vid doddie.


I would say try to read for fun! It'll improve your writing and knowledge. I'm currently majoring in anthropology and have just fallen in love with learning and discussion and such. If you ever want some recommendations, let me know and I can shoot book recommendations your way :)


If you'd made this video when I was in year 7 I would 100% appreciate school more but now I'm 3 months from exam time in year 11 and I'm like damn why did I not appreciate school ugh. But really this is a brilliant video Dods!!


I very much relate to this video even while at school, whenever there's break between semesters I miss school and the people even if I don't have close friends it's the familiar faces and the work and the books and the exam and the familiar feeling of tutoring and library schedules that keep me happy even if I'm swamped with studying 💫💌📖


This is something I've really been worrying about a lot lately, lovely vid Dodie 😍


I'm an exchange student right now and I totally agree with the "appreciate the present" part of this. I sometimes think that everything is going to fast and my time on exchange is running out and I keep thinking about my return home (and how much I don't wanna come back home) and that makes me not appreciate the present as much


oh man the nostalgic aches are real! i remember in my senior year everything started to speed up but also slow down? like i felt that it was ending, that grad was slowly approaching, there was all this build up and then nothing! it's over! and it's hard to realize you're technically an adult when you still feel like a kid. it's this weird sort of limbo that i'm learning to be ok with, but every once in a while it really catches up with me


Although I'm only in year nine I can kind of relate to this because last year I was in this special thing in my school called waterbound which was a munchers smaller group than all other classes and focused a lot on history and nature and while I was in it I didn't really enjoy it because we also had a lot of projects and presentations and public speaking (which I am absolutely terrified/shit at) but we also had amazing trips to the woods nearby every other week and great teachers and a really close knit class. And now that I'm in a normal class I really miss always being with those people and doing amazing things and learning in creative ways (last year history involved making tools from that time period and dressing up and debating, now it's literally a PowerPoint every day)


The thing about the present is that we're all too caught up in it to appreciate it. <br>To be conscious, is the real struggle isn't it?

The thing about the present is that we're all too caught up in it to appreciate it.
To be conscious, is the real struggle isn't it?


I'm the same about school! I used to feel like I hated it going to the same place everyday surrounded by people who didn't particularly like me and I didn't particularly like, restrained with all these rules when I just wanted to be free hah. But now I really miss some of the lessons and the teachers and the little events and dramas that would happen - and seeing all my best friends every day. However, I'm at uni now and I enjoy this a lot more. I realized recently what you said at the end of the video, that we should not take what we have for granted. Everyone says that uni years are the best of your life, so I've started making the most of it now and started going out every week and meeting new people, it's great :) thanks for this video Dodie x


I'm mid-way through my gap year before starting uni. I'm working full time at the local council and this whole video completely sums up how I feel. Yes, I have a line manager etc that give me work to do but there is no direction, no structure. The closest to school life that I've come is when my manager wanted a report by the end of the day instead of the next week. I felt like I'd left my homework to the last minute, and was racing to get it done.
I'm absolutely itching to start uni in September, but everyone else here is happy and settled in what they're doing. I'm the only one jumping ship, the only one who doesnt see this job as their long term plan.
It's odd, as I didn't enjoy being around people during school - im very introverted - and I still hate being around so many people at work, but I miss the school community, the vast group of people that I might not have consciously seen as my friends, but I could talk to them, i knew their names and things about them...I've been at this job two months and I still don't know a lot of people's names. I have no idea how things are done, i have to hunt around on the intranet to find rules and policies and procedures to keep me sane.
We have a flexible working policy and most days I find myself leaving at lunch to work from home. We have an open office with 70ish people in. It's always loud and theres a billion conversations at once that my head can't focus on and by 1pm I'm drained. If I was not in a position to up and leave, go home to an empty house and work in silence i don't know that I'd cope.
I know I'm going to miss this job when I'm at uni but I can't stop myself wishing the time away.


I miss University all the time. All of the sudden you have to learn on your own and find your own lesson material and mentors.

"..focus on what's good now." YUUUUUUUSSSS


I'm only in school like once or twice a week now, so I kind of feel this. I don't know any of my classmates and I'm not there often enough to really get connected with them. I miss my old classmates, we were a very small class entirely made up of girls, we'd have a lot of great discussions and we all bonded so well. Now I don't have that, I only have a select few friends whom I trust.<br>One thing that's made me feel better has been volunteering at my local animal shelter, most of the volunteers are around my age so we have great chats when we work together. It's also great to be with animals, they make me feel a lot less lonely.

I'm only in school like once or twice a week now, so I kind of feel this. I don't know any of my classmates and I'm not there often enough to really get connected with them. I miss my old classmates, we were a very small class entirely made up of girls, we'd have a lot of great discussions and we all bonded so well. Now I don't have that, I only have a select few friends whom I trust.
One thing that's made me feel better has been volunteering at my local animal shelter, most of the volunteers are around my age so we have great chats when we work together. It's also great to be with animals, they make me feel a lot less lonely.


I am absolutely LOVING vedim so far :) As a senior in their final 100 days (!!!) of high school, it's definitely not the funnest time in my life. But I know I'm going to miss it and I know that it'll likely be the best time of my life, regardless of how much stress I'm under right now. As excited as I am to leave, I really can't bear the thought of never being in the kind of environment I'm in right now ever again.


I can somewhat relate to this being in my last year of uni! Life is crazy and Ive just learn in recent years to appreciate it all more in various ways!


Dodie, I really relate to this feeling. School, college, university, it's all people like you and not like you all at once. A place where our only job is to learn. There's a nice simplicity to that.


This is crazy because I just got back home from youth group and that was what they were talking about. Not specifically, but, what they were talking about got me thinking about how much I desire for me and those around me. <br>Though being ambitious is a quality and a flaw I would say I have, it gets in the way sometimes. I am in high school and I'm rushing to finish up earlier than my peers because I want to go to college already. Maybe I should calm down a bit and be grateful and pay attention and appreciate everything that's happening and everyone around me. Thanks, Dodie.

This is crazy because I just got back home from youth group and that was what they were talking about. Not specifically, but, what they were talking about got me thinking about how much I desire for me and those around me.
Though being ambitious is a quality and a flaw I would say I have, it gets in the way sometimes. I am in high school and I'm rushing to finish up earlier than my peers because I want to go to college already. Maybe I should calm down a bit and be grateful and pay attention and appreciate everything that's happening and everyone around me. Thanks, Dodie.


Thanks for saying what we need to hear! Its true. unless you're home educated you grow up from nursery to uni with your peers. Groups of people who have a lot in common and are stimulating. Then you get a job or not, and it pretty much stops. Solutions = join a commune / live in shared housing / do another uni course / face up to the shit that a lot of the good stuff just passes. But. Other doors may open. Massive respect! Really, massive!!


For some reason I like hearing the tapping in the background, it makes me feel at peace?? Plus I can totally relate to Dodie in this video, I love her videos so much ugh I'm addicted


It's like an odd maths. Thoughts in my head + sensible part of brain vocalised - a lot of the random stuff (not all) + some structure (just a drop) = This video. Loved it!


This resonated with me because I constantly look back at 'old times' and get all nostalgic, especially like 'oh this time last year I was doing this' etc etc. and I'll discount the present simply because it 'wasn't like' the past, even though at the time I was doing the same thing with another past memory!!


I'm at school at the moment and GCSE stress is starting to hit but it's so nice to be reminded of everything I have at the moment! thanks Dodiee :)xx


I'm only a junior in high school and i can connect with this from grade school. Looking back and reading my diary from then I constantly say things are boring but when I look back on it I had so many close friends and we did things every weekend and now I don't have the time to enjoy because of school and stuff. I can't imagine being out of college and thinking back on my years in high school. Ahh I'm stressing out about the future now! Thanks Dodie!


Do you miss teachers? I know we hate some but sometimes there is just that one who makes your day


This speaks to me so much and I started crying half way through the video. Everything Dodie said was exactly how I felt and I tend to look back to the past and regret taking it for granted and not giving my all and basically just surviving my teenage life. Now i'm 20 and I want to go back to being a kid who only worried about what game to play next instead of bills to pay and work to finish.


I can relate, but for different reasons! I really loved the social aspect of school and university, and I do miss that bit, but now that's I'm graduated I really really like having time to pursue things that interest me. When you're writing three papers in a week, going to theatre practice and hanging out with friends, there really isn't much time to chase after what gets you really excited and curious! But now that I'm done with "formal education", I can follow my interests and dedicate time to painting and reading about Edwardian England and teaching myself hand-lettering. It's all in your perspective!

And as far as remembering the present goes - I have a little Moleskine agenda/planner book where I write a couple sentences about each day of 2016, to remind me of the little things that make me happy/sad/intrigued. I found last year that 365 days had passed and I didn't really have any small memories to show for it, so I started this project - to remember the little things. It's working out well so far!


Oohhh man! I so know what you mean about that nostalgia, but yes you definitely have to move on from it and look to the future, and appreciate the moments in the present. Otherwise you'll go mad.  By the way, I love how you do your videos! In a way, they have their own nostalgic feeling to them... like an old friend. :)


I've always had these worries in the back of my mind about when we leave school; the structure of my days will be totally gone, I won't be seeing my friends as much (maybe not even at all) or just groups of people in general anymore-I won't be seeing my year group together as a group  anymore, I'll have to decide and do literally everything for myself (I mean there's no teachers or parents on your back reminding you to get things done or keeping you stimulated all the time). And while this all sounds exciting, it's seriously terrifying. And I guess you just voiced my ideas of why I've always been pretty scared of the idea of leaving school.


regarding your love of debate and academic discussion, would you ever consider going to uni? idk this video just makes it seem like you'd like it, just an idea :)


I'm in year eight right now and I really loved this video. Maybe school isn't as bad as I make it out to be... Anyway, I love your videos Dodie xx (also I absolutely loved let it be, oh my god)


I don't know... I guess, like you said, it depends on who you are and how your experience in school is/was. For me, I was never bullied or anything like that, but it's been a very low, dark time for me, and if I can get through this and reach a point in my life where my surroundings and current life don't make me feel sad and unhappy, I know I'll be better, and doubt I'd miss a point in my life where I really was unhappy. Also, as an introvert, I don't always like being around so many people, and I never had a strong connection to my school, so the worst part of leaving school is leaving my closest, friends, but I know I'll stay in touch with them.


I'm proud of you Dodie. It takes a lot to be honest about stuff like this, let alone do so in front of an audience. I can assure you that so many people feel exactly the same way you do,  so just know that every nostalgic tear your shed is backed by a mass of equally nostalgic tears from your viewers. Thank you for posting 😊.


this now makes me feel scared to leave school because I love analysing stories and I'm also an extrovert, I'm scared of missing it minus the stress :((


wow now i've got a sudden desire to study thank you dodie 💕


the one thing i know i'm gonna miss from school is all of the learning. i love learning and knowing things and having more things running through my head than just "what should i have for tea", and despite my slight hatred for how things are taught i know i'm going to miss it. i wish that there was some way to make school enjoyable for everybody, i don't have the solution but i know that i only ever make myself learn things so i can pass an exam- this shouldn't be what school is about, it shouldn't be about structured answers and writing the exact words the examiner wants to hear, it should be about using the knowledge you gain to expand your thoughts and think outside the box. some people are made for structured exam answers and distinct rights and wrongs, others are made for learning everything and then deciding themselves how they will use this knowledge. how are kids ever going to make groundbreaking discoveries if they all follow the same education path and never learn to think for themselves? if we teach kids like they are being trained for the military, strictly and with structure, they're going to grow up to be exactly like one another and never anything different.

also i've only realized how much i actually love learning in my final year of school, which sucks balls. i hated every day at my school since the moment i came in to the school in year 7 and knew absolutely nobody, all through the years of suckish mental illness and letting other people get me down,  to about 5 months ago when i realized that i just needed to focus on making the best out of the situation and taking what i wanted from school. if you're in a lower year and just feel like everything sucks, it probably does and that's okay, just don't let yourself waste however many years of your life being miserable- either try to get yourself a whole bigger brain because of it, or try to take advantage of the access you have to easily making friends and always having adults you can ask for help off of and whatever else makes the day a little better for you.


Wow. I literally know exactly how you feel. I am taking your advice - a 19 year old x


I loved this video! I'm still 100% convinced I will never ever miss school. I really really hate it. I find it incredibly hard to get up in the morning because of school and I just hate this place so much and ugh I could give you a ton of reasons why I hate school. I'm not that "stuck in the past" tbh but I'm v scared of the future. But then again, I'm excited too. Especially about the fact I won't have to go to school anymore. A lot of things you said can be seen as advantages (for example: nobody tells you what to do anymore). Idek where I was going with this comment but ya I find it so interesting and uplifting to hear things like this about school so thanks so much!


I think about appreciating things a lot and it makes me much more motivated to do the things i really don't enjoy but then i think and im like "im going to miss this in the future so just do it"


That moment when you go to the same school that Dodie went to


I'm currently in my last year of school and i'm going to miss it so much! I'm excited to go to university and get out of my town, but I'm scared about leaving my comfort zone. I also feel sick from stress probably every day, because if I don't get into university I have no back up plan, and no career options that are achievable without going to uni. So I can definitely see how someone lIke Dodie who didn't go to university can look back on school fondly, and I wish i could do the same!

i feel you, though it's a bit of a different process in america. i'm just so nervous about leaving it all behind...agh. xxx


I also walked by my old school today and got this huge wave of nostalgia and i kinda wanted to cry not necessarily out of sadness or happiness but out of a flood of emotions and memories.


Your hair is growing out. It looks really pretty! ❤


I agree. There's just those certain moments that really bring back some good memories. I think it's interesting that while attending school, you might tell yourself you don't like everyone in your class because they get on your nerves, or everyone's separated into different friend groups, but then you graduate together and these feelings come in like we were all a group that did this together. That class was full of people that maybe weren't your best friends but dang it, they were part of YOUR class and no one else's. Other grades/classes didn't have that goofball Tommy, but your class sure did. Am I even making sense? Oh well...

Also, I miss being part of band class. I was good at my instrument and I loved playing it and creating such wonderful music with a group of people. Music is still a huge part of my life today, but I doubt I even remember how to play my instrument as I haven't picked it up in over 4 years and that makes me sad.


EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS VIDEO IS GOALS!!! You're so beautiful.💓💓- Melody


I am still in school, and lately I haven't been enjoying it very much. I dread it even, but this video has put it in perspective. You made many great points and it gave me an epiphany almost. I have come to the conclusion that although it may suck to me now, and although I don't enjoy it, it is going to be some of my best memories. I looked back on just today and thought about all the good things that happened, and this video has made me appreciate them more. Thank you.


I'm in my first year of my psychology degree and yeah I feel the same. I miss the fun I had in classes with my friends and at lunch time . I miss having a lot of people I was friends with and familiar with. I miss having a laugh with teachers and having actual friendships with them that you just don't get at uni. Uni is pretty lonely . I dunno, I guess I just really really miss school.


I went back to my high school a couple of weeks ago and this is exactly how I felt. If you had told fifteen year old me I would miss high school one day I would have never believed it o.o


Loved the moral! I feel the same about school😭 although I'm 21 and I'm still studying at Uni


Oh, I totally feel the same. I still go to Uni, so it's not that bad but I miss school a lot. I miss hanging out with so many different people without having to make an effort. Maybe you can guest listen to some literature classes at uni? That's one of the things that brightens my days usually. Going to a seminar about poetry and taking it apart and talking about it with other people.


This made me cry.

But thank you for helping me realize how much I actually love the present.


I honestly have such a hard time with nostalgia, I'm constantly thinking about the past and always trying to save memories in anyway I can. I'll think about things that I use to hate but now have fondness towards because it was in the past and it was me in a different time. It's really hard for me to think about the future without worry and stress building up, and thinking about the past makes me feel warm yet melancholy. Trying to appreciate the present is quite hard for me, because I constantly think, "This moment will be over and then in the past, and I might not remember it later." It scares me a bit when I think about how I could explain all of last year in maybe 30 min to an hour, when thats 365 days all in the past, that I lived and experienced. One of my favorite videos that you made is "A few Nostalgic Tears" because I relate and feel so much every time I watch it, and it always gives me the inspiration to write in my journal, or take more pictures, or film more. I'm kinda just rambling at this point but it feel nice to write this down and to know that someone that I look up to so dearly feels similarly to me, and that I'm not all alone in this constant state of reminiscing in the past.
Thanks to anyone who read my ramblings.
-Autumn


Nostalgia is a powerful feeling, being forced to re-visit a past version of yourself also forces you to come to terms with everything that has changed in your life. Whether it's for the better or the worst change can be really scary, and you don't always notice the way all those little changes add up, but when you hear that song that takes you right back to being 16, it hits hard.


I never thought about it that way. School makes me really miserable and depressed and I really look forward to be done with it finally, but I never thought about the progess you do at school, it was always just the exams and all the pressure.


I really wish I watched this video whilst I was still at school, because now thinking about it I miss school too. I'm in my 2nd year of college so it's not like it's been ages or anything, but I understand and relate to everything you said in this video.


I try to appreciate school but it's just hard.


This was such a well put video. Super relate-able.  I'm moving to Boston on the first of next month, and I'm shitting myself with nerves. I graduated from high school in 2014 and I'm only 20 and I don't know what the hell I'm doing, I'm kind of just doing what I'm supposed to be doing if I'm not going to college???? Life. Agh.


I 100000% do agree that to focus on the present and appreciate it while it's happening is the best thing to do in life because although loss has darkened my past and though I do miss old traditions and things I always think "there are always more and more experiences I'm going to have in my life, I'm grateful those things happened in the past and I'm glad I got to know that person so well before they left for good" life is ever moving and changing and I used to get stuck in the past and tortured myself with nostalgia trying to run backwards instead of forwards...ever evolving and ever moving. that's what our world does and so that is what we must do as well.


Hey Dodie, hope you're well. I feel the same way as you do, I'd dwell on the past and if I wasn't doing that, I was worrying about the future until I read this book called 'The Power of Now' by Eckhart Tolle, it's all about... Oh wow, I'm watching your video as I'm writing this comment and you just mentioned "enjoy the present" haha. Thats what the book's all about, it's about being in control of your mind, rather than letting your mind control you (which is what happens to the majority of us on a day to day basis without us knowing about it) and enjoying the present. He does actually mention depression also. I'm a massive worrier, I worry about every little thing, especially when it comes to the future. I'm still reading the book (almost finished), but it really has helped me from what I've read so far in terms of appreciating and being happy in life and also with having a positive attitude whilst going through hard times. I hope it helps you in the same way. Love you! - Yousaf


As much as I hate school right now, I know I'll miss it when I'm older... I'm terrified of not knowing many people D: I love being surrounded by people my age...


I moved to a foreign country recently. Aside from trying (and failing) to fit it with this new community and culture, i miss my old friends and all our inside jokes and all the hangout spots we used to go. I still talked to them everyday after school but i miss their company


I can relate, and I'm still in school. I wake up everyday dreading the day of school. There are parts I like, I LOVE my French class. The people in there are so sweet and the teacher is really great and i just love geography and culture. I like learning.  But the part of school that I don't like that most people do, is Break and lunchtime. Now I don't have very many friends that I can be with in real life, I don't have school friends. I mean I do but they all have someone better, and the one person that i absolutely love from school is a lovely girl by the name of Elizabeth, I met her in the beginning of the year and then schedules changed and we don't have any classes together anymore. So i miss her honestly. and i seem to go on lots of rants in Dodie's videos... oops.


Just want to tell you that this video might be my favorite of all your videos so far :) Keep it up!


I only graduated college (uni) almost a year ago, and I kind of miss it for the same reasons you were saying that you miss school. I love reading and analyzing and writing and creating and participating in things. But I also like the freedom to focus on what I enjoy rather than just having to do things that I'm told by a certain date because my grades depend on it. So I write essays for fun (I've started taking notes on the film Metropolis so I can write one on that), I read and research things that interest me for fun, and I make things that I want to make on my own schedule (my degree was in fashion design, so my projects in school didn't have the same creative freedom that they have now).

To be fair, I realized when I was very young that I enjoyed the things that I was doing in school, especially if I was given the freedom to do what I want with it, so it's been a natural transition, but if you want to do something, go for it! If you want to read poetry and highlight it, do so. If you want to write essays, go for it. You don't have to join a club, although it might be easier for you to do so, since you are an extrovert (I'm an introvert), but there are blogs and communities online that help each other make things and write together and discuss things intellectually -as I know you've experienced on youtube.


i really don't enjoy school at all. i mean when you don't have friends it's difficult to


I miss popular students picking on me and teachers yelling and being told that we're all useless little shits and learning nothing useful at all (like how a blast furnice works, WHEN AM I EVER GONNA USE THAT HUH) and educational staff making us all hate our desire to learn and oh wait. No I don't.
I don't miss school at all, I'm glad for all the people who had inspirational teachers and nice classmates and had fun in school, but I sure as fuck don't miss that hell-hole. I have never been researching and learning as much (voluntarily) as I have since I have been out of school, and in those years I have gathered more valuable knowledge than anyone had ever taught me in school.
Btw love that you're doing VEDM Dodie, Always looking forward to your videos. :)


I love your advice and your channel so much and I just love you Dodie


this is really relevant to my life rn. I'm going through what are going to be the final few months of my schooling as we speak (med school)<br>And i keep thinking about how much the learning part of it i will miss too </3

this is really relevant to my life rn. I'm going through what are going to be the final few months of my schooling as we speak (med school)
And i keep thinking about how much the learning part of it i will miss too </3


I missed school as well when I took a gap year between high school and uni and I'm so glad to be surrounded by the people I am now and to have the discourse that I do.


This made me realize that I only go to school for music and my friends


Good points! I can see missing school for all these reasons. I've never gone back to any of my old schools once I left them, except in my dreams. I wonder if I'd feel nostalgic? Hmm. I enjoyed the vlog! :)


Leaving University was like that for me. I think what I miss most is the camaraderie. Because like you said, we were all in the same boat and wanted to help each other out. And now we're all pursuing things in different directions and we all feel the ache and the long to be together again, but for some reason we can't. I miss learning too and having the potential to make new friends in these classes. Basically I just don't know what to do or where to go so in the way of camaraderie, it's nice to know that everyone else my age (no matter where in the world they are), are feeling the same things that I am.


I think about this a lot too! I'm currently in my gap year and every time I go to my school for an exam of my friend ( in theater, singing or dancing) I really miss it. I really feel a lot more lonely this year and I even feel a lot more stressed out all the time. School man, school :(


Dodie I had no clue you went to Leventhorpe, that's one of the local schools that was in my cache, I went to St Mary's. The Leventhorpe uniform was way better than ours though girl.


First year uni student here and i miss my school. It was a nice school, with my friends who i got to see every day, and i, well, i DID things every day, quite a lot of things in comparison to now. But here's the thing - i had much less choice over what those things were than i do now, so now i can basically do whatever i want with my time as long as the uni work gets done along the way. Essentially to me this year feels like i'm trying to learn the art of being self motivated and productive, but maybe as i go through life i'll find that every year, either way this still makes for a damn good year.<br>Enjoy school, miss school, then enjoy the next thing, whatever that may be.

First year uni student here and i miss my school. It was a nice school, with my friends who i got to see every day, and i, well, i DID things every day, quite a lot of things in comparison to now. But here's the thing - i had much less choice over what those things were than i do now, so now i can basically do whatever i want with my time as long as the uni work gets done along the way. Essentially to me this year feels like i'm trying to learn the art of being self motivated and productive, but maybe as i go through life i'll find that every year, either way this still makes for a damn good year.
Enjoy school, miss school, then enjoy the next thing, whatever that may be.


In recent months, through horrid experiences with old friends, I've come to the conclusion that everything is temporary and whenever there is a good part in my life, I enjoy it as much as possible until events cause me to not do it anymore, which always happens.

At the moment, it's going to gym and driving there and back with a friend I like. She sings to any weird song she plays on the radio, and any song I don't like she tells me to "shut up and enjoy it or else", so I do. It's absolutely my favourite thing at the moment, and I couldn't ask for anything better.


i'm still in school, and when i think deeply about it, i realize that when i'm older and graduated, i'm definitely gonna miss being in school no matter how much i stress out and dislike it. i'm going to enjoy the present, and not freak out about how there's UIL for band tomorrow :))))))


i'm in my last year of sixth form and i miss doing 'real subjects', as i keep saying, like maths and science because all i do is act (drama) sing (music) and read (lit), because i was really quite good at those subjects too, and also i totally love being in a group that likes discussion too, like today in registration we got randomly discussing racism and feminism at 9am and i was just like 'yes yes let us all discuss this very good nice points' what am i saying i am tired interesting video dodie


6:04 "the pastas gone"

SOMEONE STOLE DODIES PASTA

+Emily B honestly the only thing i heard

Well now I can't hear anything else.  Good work, +Emily B


You can still learn Dodie! There's loads of interesting stuff in the world, google things you find interesting and read wikipedia articles and then bore your friends to death with all the pointless but really cool stuff you found out, just because you're out of school doesn't mean you have to stop learning!


I actually thought your hair looked really nice haha

I was making a colour coordinated mind map for the first essay I've had to write in ages and it took me back to revising for GCSE's which, apart from the stress of the exams, I actually enjoyed :P If i looked at the exam questions I had to answer I would probably not remember a thing, I can't believe i used to know so much and now it is just gone! Or it's lying dormant and waiting for me to like... relearn... but... effort...


dodie ! I feel exactly the same as you ! you took the words out of my mouth !!! :,)


This is so relatable- especially the part about being surrounded by people your age! I was actually reflecting on this earlier today. The nostalgia is so real.


Honestly everytime I watch a video when yoir nostalgic, I try to appreciate school but its so hard :(


Recently I've been wishing my time away and wanting to be out of school and it's restrictions but crap, this has made me realise how much I will miss now, because I'm a nostalgic person and I do love looking back on things so now I'm wondering if in the future I'll look back on me now and think "why did I wish away the time and not pay attention to the actual things around me". idk this has just made me think a lot xx


I got anxiety in the 5th grade (I'm now in 8th) and something really frustrating about it is that I can only remember embarrassing things from elementary school. I know it was fun sometimes and I was actually living pretty great in the first five years, but now I only have bad memories of it. Sometimes my friends will be laughing about something that happened in elementary school and I can just barely remember it, sometimes not at all. It makes me feel kind of... dull because I know that it was a great part of my life that I'll never live again, but moreover I can't even think back and revisit it.


Part of your teachers' job was to try to make their students into lifelong learners, and it looks like they succeeded with you!<br>I agree with pretty much everything you said. I went to uni and now work as a flight attendant, which is hard work and you have to think a lot but mainly with your memory. I've felt like my cognitive abilities are wearing away so I've started a project reading these books called Very Short Introductions (look on Amazon). They are quite academic in tone so I read very slowly because I've not dealt with that in a while. I'm trying to make videos about it, saying 'What I Learned About [Topic]', but it's so hard when you're not used to talking to a camera and editing it afterwards! Trying to edit one on Leadership and the next one I'm reading is on Anxiety, if you fancy reading with me!

Part of your teachers' job was to try to make their students into lifelong learners, and it looks like they succeeded with you!
I agree with pretty much everything you said. I went to uni and now work as a flight attendant, which is hard work and you have to think a lot but mainly with your memory. I've felt like my cognitive abilities are wearing away so I've started a project reading these books called Very Short Introductions (look on Amazon). They are quite academic in tone so I read very slowly because I've not dealt with that in a while. I'm trying to make videos about it, saying 'What I Learned About [Topic]', but it's so hard when you're not used to talking to a camera and editing it afterwards! Trying to edit one on Leadership and the next one I'm reading is on Anxiety, if you fancy reading with me!


Dodie you're still the weird kid. That's why you're one of my favorite YouTubers. :)


Love youuuuu. We can start a study group any time you want


OMG Dodie YES I graduated from school 3 years ago and I still have all those nostalgic feels all the time!


i finished school last year and i totally understand what you are talking about..i really miss the times but at the same time i think we have to leave these moments in the past to appreciate them completely


i love you so much dodie. you are my role model in life


if you're missing school and learning and knowing about lots of different things (like i am too haaaa...), maybe something you could do is ask your fans and followers to share links and websites and videos and things that they're using for their education or studies which they find really cool? that way you could get to learn about lots of rad things in your free time :)