honesty for honesty, i can't do otherwise. I feel the same way, but the main difference between you and me is that i don't have a past happy me to go back, since i can remember i always dreamed of people who loved me, or finding a girl i love and just sharing my life with her, i spent my life chasing dreams with my mind but my body couldn't bother to move, so i'm alone and stuck and sad,but dreams are still driving me to not shut down completely, the healthy dreams are moving to England, start writing scripts and directing shorts and create a career and make art till i die.But there is the unhealthy dreams, already wrote this on twitter or comments, i'll explain better, every time i felt alone i used to create a connection with characters (from books, or tv, or animated shows), that resulted in me creating a connection with youtubers, i don't worship you, i don't think you are a superior being, i just think that you are interesting and understanding and someone i'd like to hang out with, and so i think of Hazel and Sammy and Jack and Dan ecc.... but this is the problem, you are real people, i know that if i'd talk to you you'd respond to me, and i just wish i could be friend with you guys, and create beautiful things with you, but that's wrong, it's something unreal and damaging, and i'm terrified that one day i'm just going to lose you and i'm going to be alone, even more. So why write all this? well i guess to say, dreaming of how you used to see the world around you, or running away from those weights attached to your chest is normal, better than else, i can assure you. I could talk to you forever but i'm going to shut the fuck up, i'm glad i'm not the only idiot who slips into fantasies to run from itself.


saw the thumbnail then spat my drink out and was like "is that syndicate" turns out it wasn't XD


i think that people who don't know whether they are feeling content or not, DO feel pretty content. maybe not fully but to the point where their brains don't bother them. it's like someone asking "how do i know if i have oily skin?" and someone with oily skin says "trust me, if you have to question that you probably don't have oily skin. you would have noticed by now and it would really bug you". do you know what i mean? i envy people who don't have these thoughts crossing their minds


fun. broke up the lead singer's been going solo for a while 👌


stop planning stuff. Keep doing stuff like, twitter so we know you're not dead, and maybe some sloppy covers on doddlevloggle like once every two weeks. Go to the doctor, live a normal life, play shows on the street just out of nowhere with your ukulele case open and asking for change in the tube. Do anything you want and is in the spur of a moment- try it for at least two or three months after the last thing you've planned (book tour i think), and just give yourself some reset time, please.


Love your bag lol IS IT DODIE YELLOW THO?! No really cuz I'm confused on what Dodie yellow reallynis


you're not gonna believe a word I say, what's the point of just drowning another day? And I get that I don't get it but the world will show you that you won't regret it. There WILL be a day where you can say you're okay and mean it. I PROMISE you, it'll all make sense again!! ~~ <br>You said that yourself Dodie in your beautiful song and it's inspired me so much with my mental health struggles so I'm reminding you of these hopeful words because I wholeheartedly believe you WILL be okay and you will be happy in the future, my dear <3 so much love xx

you're not gonna believe a word I say, what's the point of just drowning another day? And I get that I don't get it but the world will show you that you won't regret it. There WILL be a day where you can say you're okay and mean it. I PROMISE you, it'll all make sense again!! ~~
You said that yourself Dodie in your beautiful song and it's inspired me so much with my mental health struggles so I'm reminding you of these hopeful words because I wholeheartedly believe you WILL be okay and you will be happy in the future, my dear <3 so much love xx


dodie's intro for over a minute here y'all


Does it help referring to your brain as a separate entity? Not meaning to be intrusive, but just curious as to whether its worth giving it a try.


legit thought manager josh was downing the ketchup - especially after he started shaking the salt and pepper into his mouth lol


Dodz love! When you're coming on tour, will you be coming to America ?


I thought Manager Josh was drinking ketchup. I was genuinely concerned for him.


I can't go to vidcon Australia because too expensive and yet I'm still freaking out because DODIE is literally three hours down the road and AHADESFCWTHFSA

EDIT: and I know this video is about mental health and really important stuff but I just clicked on the most recent video 😅


please!!!! post a cover of some nights my life would be c o m p l e t e


anyone else hoping some nights playing in the airport inspired her to cover a song by fun for a future video??
no?
just me?
k


If you ever need to get away for a little vacation, know that there's a studio and a free tour of Athens waiting for you :)


dood i wish i could look good in those glasses


that moment at  4:15 when you think manager josh is legit drinking a bottle of ketchup, like.. whaa? :D


hey i caught that harry potter reference at the end. dont think i dont see you!

love ya dodie xx


LOVING the hp reference at the end there


"I'll probably be in my room makingnonoiseandpretendingidon't exist"  the harry potter fandom is everywhere...<br>I mean same 😂

"I'll probably be in my room makingnonoiseandpretendingidon't exist"  the harry potter fandom is everywhere...
I mean same 😂


I know this probably won't help beside you probably won't see this dodie but there is a book called "the chimp paradox" by Steven Peters and if you are on a lot of planes and traveling it is worth the read cause it may help you understand depersonalisation and ways to help it mentally idk :/ anyways ilysm❤ vmoa (videos most of August) was great ;)


Hey, how was that experimental magenetic thing treatment? It kinda slipped my mind. Did it help at all?


Dreams are fun to create and exist in. They can also become destructive if they seduce you as far as to start making the grass seem not only greener on the other side, but make your own grass look brown and dead. I'm a romantic in all of the ways, and it can be difficult to curb the habit of daydreaming of things that seem fun or ways that my day or life could go better. It was a major coping mechanism and mode of entertainment when I was growing up, so merging into adult life, which is not fun 95% of the time, it can be hard to move into the spaces where it's full of uncomfortable emotions and hard choices and feel at home. It's gotten easier as I've started to feel more confident in my ability to handle hard situations. Playing the role of and adult, so to say, can end up feeling really satisfying. It's different than fun and dreamy and perfect, but still good.

Wishing all the best! You're a lovely human being.

Aw thank you! :) I'm glad you recognized the pattern as well! Such a strange thing to fall into haha.

Ive been exactly the same!!! I have to force myself to stop daydreaming about anything realistic because it was too destructive. Glad youre doing better!


Dodie! I want to help! Maybe you should try MEDITATION? i mean like the real deal boedha meditation, it's (shortly said) about being in the moment inside yourself by concentrating on your breating (at first) with the goal to "heal" yourself and the energy inside you. It takes some discipline but the effects are a general higher level of concentration and attention, lower level of stress, and some more great benefits! you can't do anything wrong with it :) YOGA could be an idea too and maybe less a step to take compared to like hardcore hippy meditation ;) lot of love and support! <3


The Harry Potter reference at the end, yes!


DO A COVER OF SOME NIGHTS MY LIFE WOULD BE COMPLETE


Lately, I've been very depersonalized. I'm not myself. I've been not caring about literally anyone or anything. My empathy for people is fake. My smiles are fake. My happy feelings are fake. I'm just very not here. I'm depressed very much so but I feel absolutely nothing but some agitation and anger. I don't understand and I don't seem to care. I can't get out of it but I don't seem to want help. I'm just going with the flow of life without actually trying or thinking or having emotions.


I really want to become content too, and I guess I am kind of working on it, but in a really subtle way because I'm on this new medication. I'm not sure where it's taking me, so I'm just kind of going with the flow. I'm not sure if I'm depressed to be honest, but my anxiety is DRAGGING me down from my potential of what I could ACTUALLY be doing. I've been so scared recently to do anything other than what I'm comfortable in. I guess my anxiety paralyzes me, or stops me in some parts of the day. And  to top it all off, my parents have gone over seas for three weeks and I'm in a completely different house. But it's a new environment, and it's fun, and I'm kind of happy here, away from the norm. Ughh! But I'm scared of trying my hardest and then failing, and then not knowing what to do from there because I've never made it that far. Like, what if I have so much devotion for it, and then it slips through my fingers...  I guess I can still enjoy the little moments and imperfections of it. And if I miss an opportunity, then a lot more will come around, and it's not the end of the world, to be fair. Yea, I'll be sad and disappointed, but if I learn to be kind to myself then it will all be okay in that moment.    But then again, what if I start to become blind to my insecurities, and then I never fix them, or what if I'm hurting someone and I don't know or don't want to admit it because "life's so great" or whatever. Haha! I guess, arguments are clearing the air and they will always happen no matter what, we're going to make mistakes no matter what. And I love to fix things when I'm not tired, I relate to people's emotions, so I can be there for them. And if they don't want me to and they leave... then they just didn't care enough and that's their problem. Wow, this escalated from hobbies and career to people and relationships. If you had the time to read this, thank you so much. As you can see, I am working on positive thinking, I am a positive person, but obviously not all the time. I guess I'm just becoming a realist. Okay, I'm scared now... figuring out things about myself that are permanent... shutting down... bad brain can't handle... goodbye


Where can I get information on the book tour?


Ikr the box has no idea how many letters you actually need to spell anything, I had to buy a whole new set of letters haha


Perhaps you could work with a Faster EFT (emotional freedom technique) practitioner. Faster EFT is a form of EFT that goes deeper and supposedly works more efficiently. EFT involves tapping with your fingers and hands on certain trigger point on your body whilst also using affirmation and its used for both releasing old thought forms, beliefs and emotions and also anchoring in new beliefs and emotions. If you search Faster EFT on youtube there will be tutorials. 💛

Also im guessing youve already done this but if you didnt know, there are many videos on here where people talk about how they overcame their depersonalisation and tips, although this isnt something i can speak to because i have not had it.


Mindfulness is the only way. Read "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle. Meditation is the only way to require your brain to live in the present moment, in my experience.


i thought josh was drinking out of a ketchup bottle. didn't think it was weird, just thought "i'd probably do that too".


That Harry Potter reference at the end though


The only tip I have for rewiring the brain is to distance yourself from the things that truly make you unhappy!

For example, I was very very unhappy for a very long time, and I needed a major change. And so, with very little forethought and at the slightest provocation, I picked through all of my belongings, packed about 10% of it all, and moved 1,900 miles away from where I was to begin the slow steady process of rebuilding, preeeeetty much at the drop of a hat. I said tearful goodbyes, I gave gifts, I received gifts, I promised to stay in touch, and I left everything and everyone I knew behind. Now, you probably don't have to do anything nearly this drastic; I had a whole lot of baggage holding me down and this was the easiest way for me to get it all out of the way so I could focus on being the person I wanted to be, rather than the shell I was that constantly felt crushed under the weight of various stresses. After being here for a month now, now that everything's settled and I'm starting to make real changes and get things on track, I can say it was the greatest mental health step I've ever taken. It was terrifying, it was hard, it was sad in its own ways, but once I got over that stuff and realized that the bad was gone and the good was always with me, I was able to truly move forward for the first time in years.

So, needlessly long story short, remember that the bad is temporary and only stays with you as long as you let it, but the good is always with you, even if some of it is in memory~ Don't be afraid to do the scary things in order to right your wrongs; scary things help us grow and learn how not to be as scared anymore <3

SIDENOTE:<br>Some would say I ran from my problems, and in a way I did. However, the problems I ran from were the sorts of problems you cannot fix. I ran from those problems and ran right into problems that I can fix, problems that when fixed, will make me a better person. Sometimes, escape is the only good option. There's no reason to repeatedly smash yourself into a brick wall because you don't see the value in walking around it and leaving it behind you~

SIDENOTE:
Some would say I ran from my problems, and in a way I did. However, the problems I ran from were the sorts of problems you cannot fix. I ran from those problems and ran right into problems that I can fix, problems that when fixed, will make me a better person. Sometimes, escape is the only good option. There's no reason to repeatedly smash yourself into a brick wall because you don't see the value in walking around it and leaving it behind you~


honestly thought josh was drinking ketchup for a second LOL


Dodie you have retainers?! I never knew xD


I THOUGHT MANAGER JOSH WAS DRINKING OUT OF A KETCHUP BOTTLE HAHAHA


pancake recipe for anyone who is feeling down :D

Ingredients:
1 cup bisquick mix
3 tsp. sugar
1 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp. vegetable oil
1/2 cup milk
1 egg
(makes 6-7 pancakes)

Directions:
-Get bowl and whisk
-Mix   bisquick mix, baking soda, and sugar first
-Mix your eggs milk and veggie oil (and mashed bananas if you want)
-F U S I O N    H A (mix your ingredients together in a bowl, and try not to overmix it so the pancakes aren't too tough)
-Once the batter is nice n' smooth,  let it set while you get your pan, butter, and spatula then clean up the ingredients
-When you finish cleaning and setting up, get your pan and coat it with a lil' bit of butter
-Put on stove and let the butter melt (I set it to a 5 when melting the butter, and turn it to 3 and wait a bit before I make a pancake)
-Mix the batter around for 5 seconds to get rid of any bubbles
-Get a measuring spoon (1/4 cup is the best size if you want a consistent pancake shape) or a ladle and pour batter onto pan
-Wait for 60 seconds or however long it takes for your pancake to be a light brown by checking your pancake every 10 seconds, lifting the pancake if possible by only a little bit and flip if you think it's done
-Flip and wait 1/2 of how long you waited for your pancake's first side to finish and take off pan and into plate
-Repeat until batter is finished
-Enjoy and take care of yourself! :D

Tips:
-Buttermilk is better for pancakes, use it if you have any
-If you are adding bananas, there should be as many bananas as there are eggs


dodie looks sooooo different for some reason


Where can we order the glasses she was wearing?


I literally thought that Josh was drinking out of a ketchup bottle


HARRY POTTER REFERENCE AT THE END I LOVE YOU EVEN MØRE THAN I ALREADY DID!!!!!!


this video's title is painfully relatable


When fun. was playing I just got flashbacks to that one collab with panic! from like 2011.!


when you live in D.C but you still can't go to playlist because it's so expensive.


hippie here who just wants to say, one straw is unnecessary, let alone two. plastic straws are a big problem and big part of plastic pollution. plastic never goes away, it breaks apart into tiny pieces called micro beads.  if it hasn't gone into landfill, it gets into the environment & usually makes its way through gutters and rivers into the ocean. and by the time it's in the ocean, if it hasn't already been mistakenly  ingested by wildlife, it is infested by fish. no animal can process plastic whether whole or micro beads. so they die in one way or another -starvation usually.
these micro beads also attract toxic chemicals, literally becoming a poisonous pill. once inside the belly of the fish the chemicals enter the bloodstream. we then eat the fish and the chemicals are in out bodies.
don't mean to be greatly saddening but it needs to be known. i hope i don't sound preachy.
 there's a documentary called a plastic ocean which is much more informative.


that cheeky Harry Potter reference in the end lol


I really really really wish I could go to vidcon <br>forever sad

I really really really wish I could go to vidcon
forever sad


I know this video is important but I just can't ignore..."Happy thougts"


Who else thought josh was drinking from a ketchup bottle lmao


DODIE I JUST SAW UR SNAPCHAT STORY YES HALF OF THOSE PEOPLE ARE FROM MUSICALLY!


i missed you so much akljfsjlfjs im so happy youre back


I'm coming to see you in Newcastle and I'm So ExCiTeD!!!!!


love the lil harry potter reference at the end


If you wanna rewire your brain, do new stuff. ditch your friends, talk with random people, do the weirdest things youve never done before.


Guys at the end when dodie and her friend where at the food place I thought the guy was drinking KETCHUP


recently I just felt an extreme need to escape and it was v weird
like as if everything about me on the Internet just had to go
and so I deactivated my Instagram accounts and my Twitter accounts and like I kinda just dont go on snapchat anymore
so now I'm quite detached from the rest of the world
and everything
its quite nice being able to just not think about anything to do with anyone
I'd recommend it tbh ive become better at not checking social media and being here
still sad as fUCK tho can someone help me with that


ooo, You went to Cyprus? I go there nearly every year with my family; we normally go down to Paphos to The Hotel Cynthiana. I mean, my parents go because the rest of the family is going, I just go because of the cats. Just the cats... flipping love them.

REALLY? COOOOOLLLLLLLL! I wanted to jump off the rock, cliff, lion-king-slope thingy last year when I went, but I life guard told me off. But me being the rebellious freespirit-edgy-nerd-thing I am, I did anyway.<br>I sprained my ankle. oops

REALLY? COOOOOLLLLLLLL! I wanted to jump off the rock, cliff, lion-king-slope thingy last year when I went, but I life guard told me off. But me being the rebellious freespirit-edgy-nerd-thing I am, I did anyway.
I sprained my ankle. oops

WE STAYED THERE ONCEEEE and jumped off that little cliff bit


You probz wount read this but you are beautiful and amzing you dont need to change for anyone 🔥😍😘💞💙❣❤🦄🌍


What days will you be at the buffer festival?? I'm dying to meet you in Canada!!


Omg I thought he was drinking tomato sauce 😂


I wish I had some advice but tbh all I can think of that helps me is, instead of leaving your worries behind or dwelling on them, you should give them to God. That way you know somebody is taking care of them for you so they don't COMPLETELY disappear altogether (because of course that won't happen) but you don't need to constantly focus on them or have them eat you alive from the inside constantly. But I guess if you don't believe in God then you won't see this as an answer anyway sigggh but still, prayers xx


I know this might be a shallow answer, but diet and exercise is helping my brain a lot to rewire itself. Don't get me wrong, I am going through a lot of stuff especially when it comes to depression and anxiety, I barely get time for myself most days. But I have made it strict to bicycle to work everyday(no matter how much I feel I don't want to do it, or how much I complain that I don't have the time to do it, I have made it the most important thing and everything else doesn't matter). I am working on getting my diet proper, right now. I can go into details but please trust me on this, and I am not saying a light exercise should do it, just push your body to the limits and keep your goal really high. You might have tried it, if not please do. Once again this is just a suggestion, you know your condition better, i can just make a calculated guess for you. Take care Dodie, hope it helps.

In addition to previous, initially no one is able to do much when it comes to exercise. Just keep at it relentlessly, and one day you'll see yourself performing better than before. Get someone who is knowledgeable to help train you right and not over do things.


I love you. Can you please ask a couple (two) of your lovely subscribers to go check out the wonderful Muuchan ASMR? She is lovely and talented and is TWO subs shy of hitting a well-deserved 30k.  Thank you.


I've missed u so much oh my god my hEART


Airport alcohol is the best alcohol for some reason.


"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of the world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind..." (Romans 12:2a)


it took me way to long to realize that Josh wasn't drinking ketchup, that bottle is very misleading


Dodie please do a collab with Gabbie in the near future if you can because I saw you in her vlog and I've been watching you two for the same amount of time (since like February of something) and when I see you liking a pic of hers on Instagram vice Versa, and when I saw you in her vlog it made me feel so complete so plz do one (musically and normally)


Does somebody know where her glasses are from??


have you given any thought to anti depressant medication?


is josh drinking out of a ketchup bottle lmfao


HARRY POTTER REFRENCE - YES DODIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I feel like your book's never gonna come out, come ooon Novembeeer 😭


I THOUGHT JOSH WAS DRINKING KETCHUP OH MY FUCK


Okay but is that a Harry Potter reference I smell?? Because yes


I actually thought Josh was drinking ketchup ? ? ? is it just me


the moment present is a present for the moment


that harry potter reference at the end though


Do you know of a way to get yourself thearapy without having to tell your parents? I tried telling my mom that I would like to get tested for depression or anxiety and just anything that would tell me what's wrong with me but she didn't listen. She said my brother used that excuse when he was little and went along saying kids think they know everything and said we would talk about it later but we never did. They tend to do this thing that when you are feeling a way that it's your fault and you are making yourself like this. They are wonderful people my parents but you can't really talk about this stuff to them and they are already going through alot so I don't want to be inconsiderate and my dad thinks only he is right I am currently in my room because I tried to talk to him about how he talks to my mum and how he shouldn't say thoes things and he got upset and said it was bs and I have no logic and he stopped me from making my breakfast and yea anyway they have been through alot and I can't really talk to them but I would still like to get help. I enjoy watching your videos about it because I thought no one understood how it felt and you described it perfectly which helped in a way so thank you dodie


Booze may not be the right answer but it is an answer (☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞

don't drink kids

Booze may not be the right answer but it is an answer (☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞

*-don't drink kids-*


Dodie have you heard of ayahuasca? You should look it up and see if it might be of interest... It may help 🙏🏻 xx

sounds terrifying eeeek the idea of hallucinagenic stuff really scares me


DODIE YOU SNUCH THAT HARRY POTTER REFERENCE AT THE END YOU SNEAKY SNEK.


That was a hp reference at the end right? Or am I just too obsessed lol


Please go see The Gilded Lily at Buffer Festival!!


I wouldn't say that you are running away, you're just running to other things, idk


I have also been put on the NHS waiting list for camhs. Waiting for that letter.


HARRY POTTER REFRENCE - YES DODIE!!!!!!! :-D


HAPPY THOUGTS BOTHERED ME THE WHOLE TIME


*clap clap* *finger snap finger snap* you are looooved

**clap clap** **finger snap finger snap** you are looooved


Ketamine? MDMA? Shrooms? perhaps worth a try :P


wait book tour what did I miss someone please tell me


Ahahahahaha hp quote at the ends greattttt


Booze is the answer but I can't remember the question.


I'm so sorry but I legit thought Manager Josh was drinking a bottle of ketchup at first 🙈


IS THAT A HARRY POTTER CHAMBER OF SECRETS REFERENCE OR HAVE I FINALLY GONE MAD


I'LL BE AT THE CONVENTION IN DC AND I SIGNED UP FOR YOUR MEETUP DISJSHHSJHAA


If you know and understand that your sadness comes from an imbalance of chemicals in your brain and you really want it to stop but you physically can't will it to, then you go onto anti-depressants to fixed the imbalance of chemicals. Anti-depressants often act as a temporary fix if you aren't mentally prepared to get better however if you are mentally prepared to fix yourself then often a 6 month course (that's all) can make you right as rain indefinitely. Ps the wonky side effects are incomparably small compared to depression.


I read the title as 'I would love to love every comment'


Did I spy a cheeky lil Harry Potter reference in the end there? 😉


I thought Josh was drinking a bottle of hot sauce


i thought josh was drinking out of a ketchup bottle at first


That H that was there for a couple more seconds 😂


Have you tried some kind of medidation yet? :)


OMG ARE YOU GOING TO THE NATIONAL BOOK FESTIVAL?!?!


Tip on how to rewire your brain: check out Joe Dispenza. His stuff is all about this. It has really helped me a lot, but I get that it can be too good to be true when you just look it up. Please just give it a go :)


hi!! I don't know if you'll see this, but why not say it anyway:) If you are ever looking for a little town/city to stay in, you would totally love (I know it's far away) but the Troy/Rochester area in Michigan. There are plenty of smaller towns around it like Milford, royal oak, etc and many people are all about just enjoying life!! if you're not into that, Grand Haven, Michigan is beeeaatiiifffuuul and sooo relaxing. I hope you can make it out there sometime, it's verrrry nice and relaxing☺


Anyone know if Dodie will be at summer in the city?


It looks like manager josh was drinking ketchup and shaking salt directly into his mouth at the end


genuinely thought josh was drinking ketchup


I was 100% sure josh was drinking ketchup...


I think your brain will not be as it was but it will be good. It is going to be in a third phase: 1. good ol times 2. frightening shit happening all the time 3. frightening shit happened but not anymore or I don‘t know maybe I can deal with it now dunno but it‘s all ok


fun. is on a hiatus but Jack Antonoff is in a new band called Bleechers, they're pretty good


Manager josh is getting so into it lolll


was it just me or was the face she made  in the first couple seconds look like cassie from skins ??


Isn't basically what touring is?  Granted it's a part of the job, but it gives you an excuse to run away for anywhere from a couple of weeks to two years.  Anyway good luck.


Treatment takes commitment. The brutal truth is that you never seem to actually commit to a treatment. You plan trips (that you say make your brain feel bad) instead of staying home and getting a steady treatment.


dodieee walk around dc D: i'll be in dc! it would be lovely to run into you!


I thought Manager Josh™ was holding a ketchup bottle and then he drANK IT AND IT fReaKED ME OUT


josh looks like he's drinking ketchup lol


Canada will help you feel content. We have rainbow money, unlimited amounts of maple syrup goodies, and lots of looove and kindness <3


I can't with that Potter reference at the end.


Dodie come to America and be a hippy for a while it's great


I THOUGHT MANAGER JOSH WAS DRINKING TOMATO KETCHUP AT FIRST..


I loved this video and I'm still in the middle of the video but I wanted to know if you know what ennegram number you are? I have a hunch but I wanted to know to confirm or deny my hunch


I feel, except I don't have drealisation


WTF WTF WTF WTF Dodie I am from Peru, I live here and omfg I would've died if you actually came omg, you are like my idol and omg omg omg i'm like crying rn, I can't believe you almost came. :( Please come, even to Lima, please please, I love you so much. Ok bye :(


Maybe if you start journaling (if you don't) you'd have a place to dump all your baggage and it helps you learn stuff about yourself like therapy? Idk what I'm talking about or if you still do therapyyyyyy buuuut it helps me:))))


becoming a hippy...... becoming.. becoming dodie you the biggest hippy ever


lol I thought Josh was drinking ketchup at first


hi Dodie, please don't feel obliged to nod happily or think 'hey I'll give this a try' BUT I too had a period where I felt depressed and depersonalized. (I wrote a blog post about it here: https://paintingtheoceanblog.blogspot.co.uk/2017/06/right-now-how-its-not-going-to-be.html    ) ANYWAY, I was at a stage where I was just screaming to feel 'happy' and 'content' and just 'normal' again. And then there was one thing that helped me get through it, to hold hands with 'myself' again... (this is where everyone goes running) and that was God. I listened to this song - Trust in You by Lauren Daigle - and felt a peace like no other. I was crying for about an hour but they weren't tears of frustration or helplessness. I felt hope. Hope that I could get through this feeling. And guess what? I did. Sending you all the love in the world... Again, I completely understand if this wasn't what you wanted to hear :) I just have to share how knowing him makes me feel xx

and I truly believe that dream was a glimpse of your happy and full future <3


It looked like Josh was drinking out of a ketchup bottle


I hate to say it Dodie but overcoming your fears is the best way of 'rewiring' your brain. It's psychologically proven that the best way to treat someone with anxieties is to do the opposite of formulating a 'safe space'; you take them out of their comfort zone and gradually expose them to their fears. <br>People don't become less fearful, but rather more brave and self-assured. I sincerely hope this advice is useful to you.

I hate to say it Dodie but overcoming your fears is the best way of 'rewiring' your brain. It's psychologically proven that the best way to treat someone with anxieties is to do the opposite of formulating a 'safe space'; you take them out of their comfort zone and gradually expose them to their fears.
People don't become less fearful, but rather more brave and self-assured. I sincerely hope this advice is useful to you.


Tour? Anyone know where I can get tickets?


U could've made the light-up sign say thots '3'


Dodiee! What busker festival are you going to? the one in Toronto?


WAIT what's the festival in canada? is it in toronto? what's it called? ahhhhh!!


I thought Josh was drinking a bottle of curry ketchup!!


During your book tour do you happen to be coming to Ireland??


anybody notice the 'happy thougts' sign in the back?


Please for the love of god do a Fun. Cover one day oh my god

Also: "where on earth did they go"
Don't get me started Josh
Don't do it


DODIE YOU SNUCK THAT HARRY POTTER REFERENCE YOU SNEAKY SNEK.


Lol I thought the sign in the back said happy donuts. I see how that doesn't work now...


Well if you find out about the rewiring thing, let me know lol


As much as I love you, don't love to America. We're falling apart over here. Maybe Canada though.


love you dodie but I literally could not stop looking at your incorrectly spelled sign the entire time loll


I spy a Harry Potter reference at the end!!! :)


it 100% looked like manager josh was drinking ketchup??? in the last bit?


i thought josh was drinking a bottle of ketchup


are you coming to Germany for the book tour???


hey, if you ever want to try going to momentum or a festival like that, you could. just throwing ideas out there even if it is religious.


URGH I CANT WAIT TO SEE U LIVE IN NEWCASTLE SEE U THEN


even the auto-generated captions thought your name was jodie


UGH DC IS IN MY AREA I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GONNA MISS YOU


WAS THAT A HARRY POTTER REFERENCE AT THE END


i firmly believe that cbt rewires your brain, as a psychology nerd and as someone who has had their life fucking transformed by cbt. however... i was in therapy varying between talk therapy and cbt twice a week for 9 months.... and im stil in weekly therapy (mostly talk therapy). the thing is.. it takes time. all mental health solutions do. but let me tell u, after my therapist reminded me to be kind to myself, and stop negative self talk as soon as i recognize it, etc. i just wish u the best dodie and i wish i could give u my exact mental health resources/opportunity


is happy thoughts supposed to be spelt wrong?


I shouldn't be watching these videos bc they keep bringing back my negative thoughts bloody ell


Full cover of Some Nights w/manager Josh plz


if love could love love would love love?


BOOK TOUR???? where can i get tickets???


I thought he was drinking tomato ketchup


COME TO AUSTRALIA AND EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER


This seems wrong, I am in like with a complete stranger. Any explanations?


The irony of the misspelling of 'thoughts' in the background... I feel so bad about it.


You should come to America so I can meet you 😁


It looks like manager Josh is drinking from a bottle of ketchup and it's very confusing


Watch Bob Ross, it's the best thing for anyone and made me very happy


I thought Manager Josh was drinking from a ketchup bottle oops


anyone else thought manager josh was drinking ketchup?


WHY DODIE??? WHY IS THOUGHTS SPELLED WRONG IN THE BACKGROUND?? WHYYYYYYY


next up on my autoplay... Kim Possible: Proof that Kim and Ron Liked Each Other
....
what

next up on my autoplay... *Kim Possible: Proof that Kim and Ron Liked Each Other*
....
what


Did Manager Josh just drink (alcoholic) ketchup?


why did I think Josh was drinking ketchup at first


waiT what does this mean when you said tour And book tour?? like did i miss something or


thoughts (behind her) is spelt wrong and im stressed


haha thats ok because i plan on running away to london whe im older!!!


sitting in my room making no noise pretending I don't exist - was that a Harry Potter reference or no? bc to me it was


for your tour you should come to michigan ;))


does anyone know what she's doing in LA? im soooo out of the loop save me


OMG DODIE JUST MADE A HARRY POTTER REFERENCE


Hmmmmm.......try looking at Nicky Case's video about neurons and rewiring your brain n' shiz. If it enlightens you and makes you motivated enough to make getting better a project in your life, you should let them know.


I thought that guy was drinking ketchup haha!


My tip is to not indulge the thoughts of depression and depersonalisation. Don't indulge them. Don't let them grow bigger than they have to. Back in 2014, I would sit alone and really, really indulge them. Write about them, cry about them, moan to my mum and friends about them. But the minute I started trying to be creative about other things, on purpose, forcing myself, something shifted. Slowly but gradually it shifted. Now, I still feel that way, of course, but I banish it as much as I can. I create a fairytale fantasy. I write about it but in an indirect way, so it can't sneaky up on me. But, I know this does not work for everyone. The thing about mental illnesses is just that; they are mental. There are mental tricks you can play. Maybe. I suppose. The mind is a complicated, intricate, wonderful, beautiful thing.


Genuinely thought the light box said "daddy issues"


wait sorry a book tour!!!! pls come to swansea ahhhh


Pretty sure the laptop has 'thoughts' spelled wrong lololol


sorry but it looked like Josh was straight up drinking from a bottle of ketchup xD


Your nose looks so cute and full of freckles aah :-)


if you ever wanna run away, run to lafayette, louisiana. it has realistic southern and cajun culture and music as well as delicious food. i have a queen size bed in a small apartment that you can crash on. you can change your name and prefect an american accent and write about your silly little journeys throughout the city.

but in all seriousness, i hope you feel better soon. everything will be okay.


Which busker festival dodie??!? And where is it, Toronto?? Cause that would be wonderful


Jordan Peterson talks about our dreams possibly being our brains trying to work problems out. so it makes sense that you have been having depersonalization dreams.


That sign in the back is just too ironic.


lol was that a harry potter reference at the end


i will be at your show tonight not that you will see this till after if you do but just want you to know if i see you i have one sentence i want you to hear from my lips so i will try and talk to you between my screaming sisters i will only say that one thing to you it might even help you with your question here.


yo im cypriot!! represent🇨🇾🇨🇾🇨🇾 hope ur ok <3


Please please PLEASEEEEE

Come to Cyprus again ;-;


Have you ever read the untethered soul by Michael alan singer? He writes about what describe here


I thought he was drinking ketchup... Am I the only one or?


The chef boyardee is in the microwave now.


Omg I'm going to college in ny you were in my state for a coupla hours WOW


what spot cream do you use and does it work??

doddlevloggle gurl you're so pretty (and everyone loves pizza anyway lol) thank you tho i shall try it out !

it's like a sulfur mask? i mean it apparently doesn't work cause i still have pizza face but it's good u know


There is no geographical cure. And that sucks 😂


this is completely unrelated but the fact that "thoughts" was spelled wrong in the background really confused me lol i had to check


Was. A Potter  That. Harry. Reference <br>D O D I Eee omg

Was. A Potter  That. Harry. Reference
D O D I Eee omg


I love you Dodie but why do you try to do things like Veda when you know you can't, why don't you just post videos when you want to without putting the pressure on it and then you won't feel like you've failed


what day are you going to be in Toronto for Bufferfest and are you going to do a meet up? (pleeaassee do a meet up!)


''making no noise and pretending i don't exist'' omg was that a harry potter reference?? from the philosophers stone?


Is the end screen a Harry Potter reference??!??


Lisa and Lena used one of your songs on musical.ly!! 😂


ARE YOU COMING TO AMERICA FOR YOUR BOOK TOUR


Who else thought that the red alcohol bottle was ketchup


Idk what's wrong with me but I can't deal with the fact that the sign behind you says <b>Happy Thougts</b> Where did the H goooo

Idk what's wrong with me but I can't deal with the fact that the sign behind you says *Happy Thougts* Where did the H goooo


if you're bored in DC you could do a meet up for peeps who didn't buy tickets (oops


PLEASE GO TO LIVERPOOL FOR YOUR BOOK TOUR PLEASEEEE


I LITERALLY AM SO CLOSE TO WASHINGTON BUT I CANT GOOO


I get that the fast flashing text is kinda funny but when it's in every video I find it kinda annoying


What festival are you going to in Canada?


ok but if you go to peru can you PLEASE come to argentina


But do you REALLY want to move to America, REALLY


yay canada! it's our 150 this year! xoxo


You should be thinking of moving to Canada instead. Probably safer than 'Murica at the moment.


RUN AWAY TO SEATTLE THERE ARE SO MANY HIPPIES HERE


Ik ur in DC rn for Playlist Live! I live 30 minutes away!!!! I wish I could visit 😭😭


Oo I noticed that small Harry potter reference at the end


I WANT TO GO TO BUFFER BUT ITS JUST NOT A THING THAT CAN HAPPEN????


it looks like josh's drinking out of a kechup bottle...


where are you going in Australia?? <br>plsss come to Adelaide ^-^

where are you going in Australia??
plsss come to Adelaide ^-^


Please don't move to Los Angeles though.. It tends to make people sad and lonely.


you brought up the Coca-Cola ads. I TOLD YOU NOT TO FUCKING DO THAT. Bad memories for all of us.


hey maybe after vidcon australia you could pop over to nz and we can drink tea and talk and cry PLeAsE I wANt tO MeEt yOU


My dumbass thought that the thing in the background said 'happy nuggets'


Dodie ya done misspelled THOUGHTS in the background


u should meet up w Elijah & Loey that's all thank u


I so want to go to vidcon but I can't cause I live in Perth....


IF YOU ARE MOVING TO AMERICA MOVE TO COLORADO WITH ME, DODIE


Are you oversharing? Are you comfortable with this video? idk, you have struggled with this, so I'm just worried. keep an eye out for your oversharing. If you are comfortable with this video, then nvm.


DONT FUCKIN MOVE TO AMERICA PLS SAVE YOURSELF


Move to midlothian, illinois we can feed ducks and pull each other out of dissociative episodes in the forest preserves


Please come to Las Vegas. Please come to Las Vegas. I cannot stress how much I would love for you to come to Las Vegas.


Pray, I don’t think you are a Christian... and I know u won’t see this. But it’s the best I can do. I had major depression less than a year ago and praying about it changed my life.. I’m just saying, you have nothing to lose :) love u dodie, and commenters (this can apply to anyone)


Did anyone else see the video of the girl twerking on crutches and thought...IsthatDodie?


Omg it says thougts in the background. Lol it's thoughts though.


I can't go to vidcon AUS and I'm very sad


Try smoking weed if you haven't, no lie it's really great


wait is thoughts really spelled like thougts?? What's going on?

Aha there it is! :p sorry, sometimes the click-y stuff goes really fast and I didn't feel like pausing


I know you probably don't want to hear this but honestly God id the answer. Just pray! Pray that the depression is just taken off of you and the worries will flee! I know you might not be a Christian or might not be anything, but what do you have to lose? If you're at rock bottom than praying can only help or not make a difference. Also I'll pray for you. I suffered from depression and God is the one and only answer. Noting on this earth will last, but God is eternal! Have a wonderful (happy) day Doddie :)


"Any tips on rewiring your brain" I shit you not, but LSD, in very low doses of course


Who's coming to the Manchester shoowwww?!!!?


She is at playlist D.C. I am stuck at home wishing I could meet her and she is not that far but I have no money and I am to young to drive 😭😭😭😭


You're talking about moving to America to make you happy, but why America what about it would make you happier? I'm seriously asking because I live in America and I've always wanted to live in London and maybe that'll make me happy. Maybe the city I just live in is awful but I don't like living here that much.


its annoying me that thoughts isnt spelt thoughts


not to be rude but the word "thoughts" is misspelled in the background


okay if you move anywhere, do NOT move to the US. We're shit.


THERES 666 comments so I'm gonna be jesus :3


Today's is the first day of school at hogwarts!!!


Is anyone else annoyed that thoughts is spelled wrong on the sign behind dodie? Sorry but it's so distracting 😂


does anyone see the h that stays on the screen at the beginning of the video?? 😂


hi there harry potter reference at the end


Come to america. Live in Columbus, you are always welcome here.


Nvm I'll just look it up after this video


Look at this like/dislike ratio whooooaaaaoooo


please please PLEASE come to sydney if u come to australia


Literally every comment is just like TL:DR


hello dodie!! i love you and your channel and your music!! 💛💛


I love you dodie! And I really like when you do such honest videos like this :)


Much love being sent your way Dodie! I love you much! And you're not alone in this journey you're on❤❤we are all so proud of you xx


i'm proud of you for sharing i love you dodie thank you for trusting us <3


I LOVE THESE VIDEOS SO MUCH! Dodie, you're so talented and beautiful! Keep it up!

I love how honest you are to us and I love how much you trust us as fans!


dodes I love you so much and you're doing so well, keep moving forward and don't give up on yourself 💙


I love these little talks and updates on your mental state. It's nice to hear something that is a lot like my state every once and a while❤❤


love you dodie, your such an inspiration to me, and you make me so happy


Dodie!! You were the reason I cut my hair short and I love it! ❤❤❤


This is completely relatable dodie. Lots of love xx


Every video is so aesthetically pleasing I'm in love😍


dodie is so fricking cute. i love her so much, and i love that she talks to us about what shes feeling. it makes me feel so much less alone.


My day is instantly better with dodie in it. She just makes me feel...understood in a way. Seen, like I'm not alone


Hey you're so awesome and I love you I ordered an ukulele so I can learn your songs!💚💚💚


dodie is the best and most relatable, heart warming, talented, loving, caring and more to all of us. she shows us care, love, kindness when we see her. It's a shame when we know so much about her that she doesn't know anything about us! so i really hope one day that dodie will do a world tour and i live in british columbia and most singers rarely go there and it would be nice for a change when you visit! AND update with my name, i'm glad to say i don't have to deal with them anymore because i'm moving high schools! so ye


Hope you had a great holiday dodes ❤ ilysm


Yes Doddddiiie I have missed you, you beautiful human. So happy for a new video!

Take good care of yourself and remember how loved you are. Keep looking up and out <3


Much love from the Philippines, Dodie <3


Glad you took a vacation!  Even happier you're back! <3 <3


I'm on the train and I'm just watching with my headphones bc dodie is priority


Love your videos sm and hope you get well


Love you Dodie, hope you feel better soon.


No tips on re-wiring your brain but I can say that I love you and know you will work through this xx 😊


i love you, dodie. you always have our support.

rip me, i can't go to playlist damn.


A beautiful human who deserves everything


Love you soooooo much dodie you mean so much to me xxxxx ♥♥♥😍😍😍


this makes me feel like im not the only one who suffers with this shit

i love you so much


cant to wait to see you live ! are you doing a meet and great? dont feel presured to do one though xx love you so much and your such an inspiration to me


i love to love each moment of your videos


I LOVE YOU DODIE I HOPE YOURE HAVING A WONDERFUL DAY AND IF NOT I WANT TO HUG YOU AND YOULL BE OKAY I PROMISE


My life is like a shower when you can't get the right temperature but then someone turns on a tap and the water goes freezing cold👍🏻


To whoever is reading this  -you are beautiful
You are strong
And you can overcome anything . 💖


you are precious. you are kind. you deserve the world.


Omg I wish I had gone on a holiday this summer ❤


HI DODIE IT ME CAN YOU PLS SHOW THIS ON SNAPCHAT??? I LOVE YOU DUDE YOURE GREAT


'oh shit, it is september'
that is probably one of the most relatable things i've heard in a while
time needs to slow down ee


I had my bike stolen today so that sucks but at least Dodie can make me feel better ♥


Could've been on time but my mum wanted me to write down every single number in her phone... Only in my life


23andMe is doing a research thing (mainly for depression and mental illness) that I'm taking a part of where you take a survey every month and then  play games for nine months after spitting in a tube. It's to help people in the future and to help understand and best treat it. Just letting you know in case you were interested.


I love you will my whole earthly and spiritual being but you spelled thoughts wrong lovely


Hey to whoevers reading this your a beautiful person 😊


I CANT WATCH THIS IM AT SCHOOL BUT I LOVE YOU


i got this notif and automatically started crying what the hell


Legend has it if you are early Dodie will reply (ps I look up to you so much)


IM IN ASDA RIGHT NOW AND IM SAT IN THE TOILETS WATCHING THIS


there's earthquakes currently happening in my state but hey dodie uploaded i am okay


omg i actually made it to a dodie video earlyish


Dods please come to Ottawa when you're in Canada bc I can't come to Toronto. ilysm 💞


Dodie will you be having a meet and greet in canada


It looks like Josh is drinking ketchup out of the red bottle at the end...


Are u coming to Toronto? Please! Please! Please! It would make me so so happy


I'm in a restaurant but this is more important


Omg yes please move to America specifically New York ilysm


it would be amazing if you moved to America lol


I can't believe that you are coming to Australia and you're not coming to Perth. I wish i could fly to Melbourne :(


also i cried when u said you were going to vidcon AU bc im a broke bitch who cant afford it, dont know if I'll ever be able to go to one D:


You changed your font! At the beginning! No one notice? Ok 😌


12 views, 629 likes, 124 comments. good job YouTube


I'm jelous of your problems. Not in a mean way at all but I think you need to re-evaluate how much better your life is than so many other people's and realise you have what a lot of others wish they did.

klarabella I get that a mental illness isn't a problem I have a lot of mental illnesses myself but when I look at dodies life I'm extremely jelous and what I'm saying is I dont think she realises what a great life she has. And I'm sure it's not just me who looks at her life and wishes theirs was like it and that she dosent get how un tragic her life really is.

Amy Rose they're not 'problems' lmao she has mental illnesses... like regardless of how good someone's life is they can get ill, both physically & mentally ya kno???


306 views and 816 likes YouTube is drunk again 😂


awesome queen Happy Birthdayyyyy! <b>*showers you with presents and glitter*</b>

awesome queen Happy Birthdayyyyy! **showers you with presents and glitter**


Also dodie you spelt thoughts wrong on your light box


i hate to nitpick and i dont wanna be rude but whats a 'happy thougt'


see my dreams are weird as fuck soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo


Tips for rewiring your brain...look up The Wim Hof Method. That guy has changed my life.


Who else just scrolls through this comment section subbing to fellow damaged, mentally ill peeps to not feel lonely?


lmao when YouTube tells u 12 views, but 726 likes -- y u lie fam


if you're going to run away, i don't  recommend america.


Bored of my mental state, if that isn't me.

But hopefully I'll be at BUFF Fest, hopefully! So I might meet dodie. Okay who am I kidding, if I have the chance to meet dodie, I will take anything.


IF YOU WANT TO BECOME A HIPPIE IN AMERICA COME TO JACKSONVILLE, FLORIDA PLS


"pretendingidon'texist" Hey, tis mi hobby.


I get why you would run away but why to America


Why America tho? Come to Norway. Social interactions are not required


you really really need to stop saying things like "my brain does this thing" or "my brain can't do this" etc. It insinuates that you and your brain are entirely seperate. That kind of mentalily lets you believe that you have no control over your brain and how it functions, when in fact of course you have control, mental illness just makes it much harder. Try not to phrase things that way. Say "I do this thing" and "I can't do this". It'll make you question yourself "why not?". You'll seem more in control. Hope this helps.


ARE THERE ANY PERUVIAN SUBSCIBERS OUT HERE OR AM I THE ONLY ONE PLS I HOPE IM NOT


❤❤❤ I LOVE U ❤❤❤

❤❤❤ I LOVE U ❤❤❤


not trying to be mean but why do you keep trying to do things like veda if you never finish them? why not set a more realistic goal especially if you know you'll be busy traveling. it'll be easier on you and more enjoyable for us bc as a viewer i was excited for veda but disappointed that you only got halfway through

im sorry u were disappointed! honestly i set it as a goal for myself just as a sort of structure to help me create again. I forgave myself that i missed some vids because i succeeded in what I really wanted to do - make stuff :)


Maybe you should take the easy way out 🅱