You have no idea how comforting it is to know that I'm not the only one suffering from this shitty illness

It suucckkksss. Hope you're doing okay, take care.

Special Kay  just know that no matter what you're alive and you may not be having the best day but there cannot be a rainbow without rain

I agree with that as well, the only issue is idk if I actually am suffering from it or just have ridiculous mood swings. But i have notice that when I am surrounded with people who make me laugh especially I seem to be able to just focus on the moment in itself and not the other stuff. Those people are the ones who have their phones in their pocket instead of their face, and know how to socialize. I hope that all of you can find people like that in your lives as well.

Special Kay I know it's great but terrible 😫🙄

Cool beans. Never knew they supported that. Thx! :)

Googled Copy and paste font generator, typed in Maggie like "M a g g I e" with a space between each letter, then clicked my desired font, "small caps".

Maggie - How did you get your name like that? I am intrigued. :D

If you know and understand that your sadness comes from an imbalance of chemicals in your brain and you really want it to stop but you physically can't will it to, then you go onto anti-depressants to fixed the imbalance of chemicals. Anti-depressants often act as a temporary fix if you aren't mentally prepared to get better however if you are mentally prepared to fix yourself then often a 6 month course (that's all) can make you right as rain indefinitely. Ps the wonky side effects are incomparably small compared to depression.
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my private counsellor met me for the first time two days ago, and she told me something that really opened my eyes. she told me when you disassociate, it's your body's way of protecting itself. i have bad anxiety, and the body knows how painful and exhausting it is to constantly feel too much and in exchange coats everything in a gloopy numbing cream that makes everything blend into one. she said it was a coping mechanism, so before we can deal with the heaviness and unreality of living, you have to deal with the underlying emotion first. this is the only way i can picture feeling content the way i used to. x

Any time, I know its a rough and isolating experience. How long have you been in DP now and are you finding it easier to deal with? I've been in 1 year & 2 months, I'm still waiting for talk therapy to coincide with my meds in case I get a window in which to process, did you go private? sorry for all the questions, stay strong too :)

Reina Swift thank you so much! i’m currently on the right track to get the right therapist and it means a lot for you to respond. stay strong pal.

Yes, I can add weight to this. Treating and processing the underlying trauma is necessary to relieving the condition ultimately. You do have to be present enough to bring the pieces back together and process them though, so in a way its a bit of a catch22. Thats why medication & talk therapy together is recommended for DP/DR, even better if you go into therapy aware of what could have set it off. Best of luck and hope you can get into therapy too


On rewiring brains:
On the 18th I am going to hospital in London for 3 weeks. I will be there for intensive physiotherapy and regular therapy. I currently have a disease that means my nerves tell me that I'm in excruciating pain, that everything I touch is hurting me. The plan is that they will 'rewire' my brain to understand that nothing is hurting me, that my body is safe. The pain that I feel is real, but it is also not. I don't know if it will work. It's called desensitization training - training my body to not feel the pain by introducing it to new textures, temperatures and exercises. It will hurt an awful lot, and it will not make me better, but I'll be able to deal with the pain. It will teach me to cope and to work through the burning feeling under my skin, to not scream like I want to, but to tell myself that it's NOT REAL.
Rewiring a brain is difficult. Whether it can ever fully happen is debatable. But, with help and a whole lotta hard work, you can at least learn to get through the problem and cone out the other side.
There is no cure for my disease. There is no cure for depression. But, whoever you are, if you have read all of this, if you are scared that you will never recover from whatever you may be facing, please know that if you have no cure, no exit to your hell: you must fight your way out. You must fight through any pain you find, because there may be no exit but you can learn to at least stick your head out of the window and let the outside in. Good luck.

doddlevloggle thank you so much! That actually means a lot. You've helped me through a lot of crap.<br>But also, good fucking luck to you and your brain as well <3

doddlevloggle thank you so much! That actually means a lot. You've helped me through a lot of crap.
But also, good fucking luck to you and your brain as well <3

oh my GOD that sounds awful. good fucking luck! you can do it! your brain can do it!!!! <3


whoever is reading this, know that you are loved, you are accepted, you are intelligent, you are worth it, and you are enough.❤

Mermaid Sea then let me get to know you.  The only people I don't like not even hate is the right word because I still give them chances is my bullies. Yes not everybody may like you but give me a chance my best friend has gone through this before and it takes a while to get through but give me a social media or something to talk to you through so I can show you I care.  To many people I loved have died and it took a toll on me and I realised I need to help other people so their family doesn't have to go through what I did. Give me a chance to help you and show you I care please just let me show you before you end up doing something you regret and then I regret not helping you

well no, i am not accepted, i have been excluded from everything since I was 5, and I am not loved. Everyone hates me.

Samantha Schucker this deserves to be at the top of the comments so everyone can see this!

also you can take from this too because I suppose seeing so many people reading and liking it is your way of spreading happiness which in turn makes you happy!


dodie plz read this

*_we all love you_*


I had a day where I was really jet lagged and frustrated and I felt so... displaced. And I felt really de-personalised!

This was the very first, and hopefully last, time I've experienced it, and it was honestly terrifying.

I felt like there was a fog over my brain, like I had to shake my head and blink really hard to get it to go away, but it didn't until the next morning.

Now I understand how you feel a little more, and I feel even more empathy for you now. It made me feel so tense and ... weird, like I'd never be normal again. Just thought I'd share, luv u dodie💓💓


I wonder if it's because your brain was in R.E.M. And that's when your brain is calm and repairing itself, so like, it's a good thing that brain did that.
I'm working on feeling content in the present moment as well, and my doctor told me that one way to help feel that way is to start acknowledging random and sometimes subconscious things. When I can remember to that, it starts to help a little.
Like wow, that deep breath kinda made my chest collapse and my threat expand and that feels good. Or, wow the air feels cooler next to this tree and this fountain has that fountain smell that is always weirdly comforting because so many fountains smell like that.
When I think about it too much it gets overwhelming but eventually it started to kind of do it's own thing and yeah
Try it out.
Idk
Stay safe and sleep well while you're traveling 🌼🌻


Hi Dodie, I don't specifically suffer from depersonalisation, but I do deal with flatlined emotions (which is my form of depression) and anxiety. I've found that grounding myself in a moment and remembering a feeling helps. You don't have to remember the moment to try and recreate it, ground yourself in the moment so that your brain knows that being happy/joyful/excited is normal. The more you practice grounding yourself, the more normal it will become. I've suffered a lot of physical injuries, and my physiotherapist always asked me to think of my posture when I walked through a doorway. It seemed stupid to me, and it was hard to remember such a simple task, but now it's second nature and my body automatically adjusts. Sometimes our bodies (mental or physical) are stuck on autopilot but they're going to the wrong destination, so we have to take the wheel and steer it in the right direction before putting it on autopilot again.

DabblingEmmaDoc yes, that's a great tip! It's important to practice the little things, as hard as it is when you're depressed or dealing with depersonalisation or anxiety.

Ria Soames I think I've heard something similar to this...like when you're feeling sad or low or something you tend to look at the ground when you're walking about, the tip I heard is if you walk down the street look up and start counting chimneys or tv satellite dishes or similar. I do it from time to time (especially if I'm stressed or anxious) and even just for a little while it's a whole other perspective


I had a dream that Dodes, me and one of my friends were together after going to her concert in the Button Factory where we ran around the streets of Dublin and danced with random buskers and made friends in the middle of the night and it was so natural and so freeing and  it didn't matter that I got back to Uni and my scary mentor late the next day or that we didn't have phones and were worrying about us, it was just being, you know? Being alive and present and fulfilled.
I've always wanted to just go anywhere like that, where no one knows me and do what I want with no repercussions - sing on the street, run on the rooftops, laugh and cry and feel a hint of anxiety, that adrenaline, that makes everything more
real.


I AM HERE TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER DODIE AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING EXCEPT BE YOU


THE HARRY POTTER QUOTE AT THE END IM SCREAMING- "be in my room making no noise and pretending I don't exist"

YEsS!!! Happy #BackToHogwarts/nineteen years later!


CBT is great! Best of luck with it, it completely changed my life and has very much improved my way of thinking. Keep dreaming those content dreams 🍷


ahh dodie I understand you so much. 15 and on anxiety meds. I hate the pain so fucking much, therapy helped, not as much as i wanted. I hope cbt helps you as it did with me. The weight may stay with you but i have found ways to lift it. I hope you can love yourself soon and keep sharing your story to help others xxxx


Dodie I know you'll never see this, but you've helped me through so many things, you've helped me come to terms with my bisexuality in a homophobic household. With me in the closet and scared your videos make me feel safe and I can't thank you enough, dodie, thank you


i thought manager josh was drinking out of a ketchup bottle

No but this just made me burst into laughter

I thought the same thing! What is that, anyway?


I just think you're awesome......as a 42 yr old woman who suffers from depression and anxiety I wish you could see that you have no need to feel the way you do and just grab every cool opportunity and don't worry about life and the crap that goes on because life goes quickly. I have so many regrets and I wish I'd been braver and if I knew what I know now I would have jumped right in there and gone for it without worry or fear.......its easy to say I know......I question everything still everyday but you're so talented and your thoughts are so special, so remember that. Go for it, chill out, enjoy the ride..... Xxx

can't sorry have multiple mental illnesses xx

Mermaid Sea as in......life itself! Enjoy yours X

'enjoy the ride' well obviously at the moment she can't as she said she suffers from depersonalisation and feels depressed all the time and can't enjoy being in the moment.


Dodie if you do decide to run away from life and become a hippie feel free to stop in Canada and stay at my place for a while. Tbh I think most of ur subscribers wouldn't mind if you dropped by and took a night at there house lolol


Dp/dr is honestly the shittiest thing going! If you've never suffered from it you can't honestly say you understand what it is! It's the most horrible feeling in the world! Not feeling like you're actually here; feeling like you're dreaming all the time; feeling drunk all the time; not being able to enjoy yourself; always feeling spaced out.

It's shit

It's certainly <b>one</b> of the shittiest things, yes.  I've briefly experienced de-realisation a few times, so I have a small window into what it would be like to suffer it chronically.  My own experience  with Avoidant Personalty Disorder, Generalised and Social Anxiety, plus the depression that goes with all of that, is no picnic either.

It's certainly *one* of the shittiest things, yes.  I've briefly experienced de-realisation a few times, so I have a small window into what it would be like to suffer it chronically.  My own experience  with Avoidant Personalty Disorder, Generalised and Social Anxiety, plus the depression that goes with all of that, is no picnic either.


I'm sorry you feel this way. I feel this way at times when I'm fed up with being alone, I want to go out in the world and have adventures every day, and making friends with people also. I'm sorry you still aren't feeling well. Maybe the dream you had when you were happy and pleasant maybe is trying to remind you that you can still feel that way. There must be a way! And I know you will get it! <br>I would recommend doing something opposite when you feel bad. Do something that makes you feel good. I feel like that would help. :)

I'm sorry you feel this way. I feel this way at times when I'm fed up with being alone, I want to go out in the world and have adventures every day, and making friends with people also. I'm sorry you still aren't feeling well. Maybe the dream you had when you were happy and pleasant maybe is trying to remind you that you can still feel that way. There must be a way! And I know you will get it!
I would recommend doing something opposite when you feel bad. Do something that makes you feel good. I feel like that would help. :)


Aww I know how you feel. 😔"There's always a rainbow after rain."  Hang in there Dodie, sending love your way.♥


holy shit thanks for reminding me that fun. exists, i had completely forgotten how much i loved their songs


DODIE WE LOVE YOU YOU'RE AMAZING HOPE EVERYTHING GETS BETTER WE LOVE YOU💜


I love you Dodie and I really hope you will find your true happiness and continue writing incredible songs ❤


It's so strange seeing her snapchats and that she's in America and then I watch her YouTube and she's not haha ❤

Ukelele Unicorn I was JUST THINKING THAT


Hi dodie! I just bought your new ep and I love it! Also that thing about imagining the best of the situation, I can relate.


im so glad that you're doing cbt!! id also recommend doing dbt bc I've found that it really helps with mindfulness and feeling present! best of luck to you and i rlly hope that things get better for you <3


I always feel the sudden Urge to hug Dodie when she talks about the fact she's struggling a bit. Keep strong, Gal x


I know it sounds stupid her but vids make me feel grounded ,safe and not alone thank you doddie ❤


Dodie just brings up my mood so much, whenever I'm feeling down or like a 6/10 I just watch her videos or listen to her songs and it just makes me feel so happy about life xoxoxox


If you find out how to rewire your brain, Plz spill because I'd much enjoy

I've tried therapy, meds and even been hooked up to actual wires designed to reward your brain for therapeutic brain waves but nothing seems to help I am constantly be wrung out by my anxiety and I feel there is no help

I've heard hypnotism has help some people

To add to this, you also have to practice. You have to literally forge a new path in your mind and so you just have to learn how to think helpfully (which is where a therapist comes in handy) and then just constantly practice this until it eventually becomes second nature

EstelleFoxy First, if you can, find a good therapist. If you are seeing one that you're not sure about, find a new one and only stick with them if you're sure that they are helping you. There are a lot of shitty therapists so you have to shop around but there are also a lot of really good ones. Make sure you tell your therapist what you want to work on and that you are on the same page. You also have to put the work in to see progress. Second, you have to be dedicated to getting better and putting in the work. Your not going to get anywhere if your half-assing things. I'm not going to lie to you, you're going to have to work your butt off and it's going to be hard. But it is doable and it is worth it. <br>I wish you the best! 💗

EstelleFoxy First, if you can, find a good therapist. If you are seeing one that you're not sure about, find a new one and only stick with them if you're sure that they are helping you. There are a lot of shitty therapists so you have to shop around but there are also a lot of really good ones. Make sure you tell your therapist what you want to work on and that you are on the same page. You also have to put the work in to see progress. Second, you have to be dedicated to getting better and putting in the work. Your not going to get anywhere if your half-assing things. I'm not going to lie to you, you're going to have to work your butt off and it's going to be hard. But it is doable and it is worth it.
I wish you the best! 💗


I love your videos it makes me realised that the strange overwhelming feelings I have are not unique.💙


Dodie is such an inspiration to me. One of the reasons she is, is because how open she is ❤


I had a friend that suffers from anxiety, and the things that you go through. I didn't know how to help her but I wanted to so much so I told her to watch your videos. That was about 2 months ago. She has got so much more confident since she started watching your videos and you're the reason that we are so confident to be ourselves. We love you so much Dodie!!! ❤❤❤


CBT was so amazing for me, it brought me a drop of clarity every now and again. And that's revolutionary


I get weirdly INFINITELY excited when Dodie makes a video like I'm seeing my twin for the first time in 72 years


I love this. You are so brave for sharing these things with us. Thank you. We love you 💕


Love you, Dodie. I'm going to see you at the meet and greet at VidCon. I just want to give you a giant hug and tell you and your brain that it will all be okay. 💖💖💖


I love when you make videos like this because it is so comforting. I spend lots of time rewatching the same handful of your videos because they make me feel so much better. Just knowing that someone exists in the same emotion as I find myself in makes me feel like I'm drinking a warm cup of tea. Your videos feel like home. I love you and your authenticity so much.


When I am tried of carrying around this weight of mental health, I usually listen to music, completely listening to every word. And for every song I think either of a really nice happy event in the past or the things that I wanna experience someday


I'm proud of you dodie!!!! you're wonderful. never stop being you and never stop taking care of you!!! you deserve the world <333


Watching your videos always makes me feel better. I'm always so stressed and I panic a lot. I guess I just over think things. I don't know. But thank you ❤


I'm feeling extremely depressed currently and seeing you upload today is very relieving bc you always give me such a calm feeling when I watch you. So thank you dodie <333


Watching this made my heart swell with so much love for you


i don't know the drill or that bullshit. i know dODIE

i love you a lot dodie, you're my idol. ((; <3


dodie singing along to some nights literally made my day when are we getting a cover


This is incredibly relatable. But you are so amazing Dodie! My favourite quote to feel a little less crap is "Everyone wants happiness nobody wants pain, but you can't have a rainbow without a little rain" 😊😚🌈🌈


I've missed you and your videos! Keep on keeping on! You can do it ❤


I always find myself with a cosy and content smile when I watch your videos. Which helps tremendously when I'm anxious, down or depersonalized.  So thank you for that Dodie! :)


first of all, love that there's a new dodie video! i've been having dodie withdrawals and it's been very hard to deal with. second of all, i've had similar thoughts about the "moments i've been dreaming of" i always imagine myself in these situations where i find myself and the reason why i feel this way. i have some sort of depression (i haven't been OFFICIALLY diagnosed so i don't really say that i have depression or anything) i try to  find ways to "fix" my mental health, but i always find a way to revert back into the mental state that i've been trying to avoid. i've passed through my fair share of friend groups, trying to find the perfect people to make me the best me i can possibly be(oh hey that rhymed) and also trying to be more open about my feelings and such. i've always felt that my feelings were much less important than others' i don't do it on purpose, but i can usually catch myself when i'm trying to help another person instead of myself. a friend of mine feels the same way, and sometimes he says things about it, and somehow i end up feeling like i shouldn't feel the same way, and the person doesn't want sympathy, because i don't want sympathy AH this is making no sense!!!!! i'm so sorry! i seriously have been trying to get into a better mental state, but i don't feel like it's bad enough that i should ask for help...... idk i guess i'm just trying to put my thoughts out there and tbh it kinda feels nice to know that i've said something even if it literally makes no sense to anyone but me. okay well bye


U touch the strings of my heart with every moment u describe in a video like this... Hope u Have a gud trip! 💪🏽


Dodie we all love you so much! Please,if you need a break,take one. You are so so strong and we're all so proud of you!! Love you Dodie!❤


I love when you talk about mental health, makes me feel a bit more.. i don't know grounded? you voice and thoughts are just so peaceful and make my head feel less chaotically full. :-)


YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I MISSED YOUR VIDEOS OH GOD 💓

Ju lia przepraszam za stalkowanie konta ale jeju ktoś z polski pod filmikiem dodie + supernatural 💓

+Ewa omg sameee i was complaining to my friends about how much i wanted dodie to upload lol. but im glad she took a break.


I hope you find the tools to get pass this illness and start fully  experiencing things. You deserve a life full of love and good things Dodie, ily 💛💛💛


I know how it feels to be depressed and anxious, I have severe depression and moderate anxiety. I hope you have an outlet, through writing, singing (of course), anything. Just, you can get though this. We believe in you ♡


@doddlevloggle I completely understand everything and empathize to the fullest extent. I am currently dealing with depression and depersonalization. All I want to say is thank you. Your videos have given me someone to relate with. Keep on going and know that everyone that is going through the same thing and everyone not it caring.


i went through cbt with camhs, it really helped me! gettin discharged therapy in 2 months! hope all goes well for you dodie bby x


I think you'll definitely find a way to love each moment in the future, Dodie! It just takes time, unfortunately..


I find it helps on nice days with some clouds, just to lay down somewhere and just watch the clouds go by, not forcing yourself to feel anything or think anything. Just relaxing without pressure and letting your worries float away


I'm so glad you're back dodie! I missed ya ♥


I might be going to Buffer fest and I hope sm that I can meet u ilysm! I cover your songs and try to learn them in my uke. You are really such an inspiration to me. Ever since u discovered you and your music I've felt a lot better about myself and my anxiety. Dodie, you are so so so sososo amazing.


Omg, I start CBT this month too, in a few days actually. I'm pretty sceptical and very nervous about it, but I've done all sorts of other stuff so I figured I give it go! Just remember that these bad feelings never last forever. Even if the bad times seem to outweigh the good in time or in feeling, they never last forever, so don't let it dictate your life! You're amazing and I hope it works for you, Dodie! X


I did CBT and although it was stressful at first it helped me through a lot of issues with my mind. It helped me also come through so much. I hope it helps you. :) <3


Good luck with your cbt! I had cbt for my anxiety and trust me, it works! Just remember that you're beautiful, strong and nothing can stop you from feeling content again!


you are so precious dodie, hang in there. you r giving me a lot of strength and perspective on my own mental struggles so thank <br>you

you are so precious dodie, hang in there. you r giving me a lot of strength and perspective on my own mental struggles so thank
you


Missed you so much and Im hoping you'd feel better soon! well wishes <3


I completely understand what you're going through. I have depression too. Just know that you are never alone through this. 💗


Hey, I hope you are okay again soon. As someone who has suffered from feelings exactly like the ones you are describing I can say that exercise really helps me. Good luck and enjoy your busy September.


Hi dodie, I have suffered with depression and depersonalization on and off for about five years now, and the thing that has helped me the most was learning mindfulness and meditation, with therapy and medication being second and third most helpful. Whenever I start to feel like I'm spiraling out o control of the way my brain is working, I try to sit down and be aware of those thoughts and challenge them. I don't indulge in the feeling, but I step away from it and look at it directly. It is then that I am able to really ground myself in the present and find joy in being alive. When I was first told to do this by my therapist, I felt as though my feelings were being invalidated, but the truth is, we really do have some control in how we feel, and what thoughts we choose to indulge in. We can't control what intrusive ideas pop into our heads, but we can choose not to dwell on them, and fight to make ourselves present and focus on the positive, with the help of therapy, medication, a good support network, and most of all, our own self discipline. I'm so glad you got on the waitlist for CBT, and I really hope it will help you feel the best you can feel. You're a wonderful human being and you don't deserve anything less than good health 💙


I want you to know how much you are helping me, your videos, your music, I'm going through a really hard time, and I'm struggling really Badley but listening to you music helps keeps my mind of it for a while💕 I love you so much!!


I hope you get to try CBT and that it goes well! good luck with anything you're gonna do love you❤❤


I hope you feel content soon Dods. You're an inspiration to us all, even though you feel down you still manage to post videos that brighten your viewers day. I just wish we could do the same for you... I've adored you since I found your channel and I'll continue adore you always. You have helped me through a lot of sh1t these past few years and I'll forever be grateful.  Thank you for everything. AHHH HARRY POTTER REFRENCE AT THE END!! sorry...not sorry. Love yah! xxxxx


I just want to say that I started to watch you today and you've charmed me! Idk what you have inside you but it's pretty fucking cool. Thank's bye! <3


I've been going through a stage of depression recently and just repeat these words over and over and it actually begins to work! : "I am happy right now"


I've been learning more about my depersonalization and watching your videos is so comforting. I weirdly relate to the dream part. I'm going through the process of coming out/ being pulled away from my gf and last night I had a dream that I was dancing with her. It felt so real and I felt present and not numb for the first time in so long... I guess I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. And that what you're doing matters. So much. And that what you're doing helps. Thank you.


I sincerely hope you have time for CBT because it will really help you! And if it doesn't, there is always another orientation to be tried. Not every therapy is beneficial to everyone, and I hope you find the best fit ❤


thank you so much for making videos, it is so soothing for me. it's also encouraging me to start recording myself speaking about anything really. doubt ill ever upload it but it's therapeutic so thank you so much ♥


Dodie is the most relatable and beautiful human ever


THAT SONG BRING SO MANY MEMORIES FOR ME OHMYGOSH also dodie, I know you know this but I'm gonna say this anyway, you don't always need to be happy while traveling, I know that more often that not it feels that way but I promise you, it's not true. Take your time, I love you. So many people love you. You're beautiful and magical and things are going to be just fine💛


I love how Josh laughed at the question and then genuinely answered it


Dodie sending you love, lots and lots of love <3


My heart dropped when you said you were in D.C. I live in this wonderful crazy melting pot but never thought I'd have the chance to just talk to you like a dork and enthuse over the serendipity of life. I think everyone can relate to the feeling of just crying over the awesomeness of you and making us realise the absolute lovely beauty in everyone else. Playlist Live DC is all sold out but I am going to take my bike down to the hotel and listen to your mind-blowing music and cry and shout at the wind and freak out that I am breathing the same air as you and thank you a million times for writing songs that touch the very core of our souls. I didn't mean for this to be a story but damn it, I have been bitten by the writing bug. I hope wherever you are tonight and for all nights to come, you are surrounded by laughter, good mates, soft music, and that enigmatic little thing I like to call Hiraeth. I am going to learn to play in the middle with my High School Band because it encouraged me to tell the world that I am Bisexual and a struggling human with emotions and thoughts and feelings. I smile and yet I hurt. I wish you a sweet cup of tea, cozy socks, aromatherapy candles, and a snuggle. Thank you Dodie so incredibly much.


you seriously are my favorite human. you inspired me to start a channel and just keep going when I feel like I can't anymore. I love you, Dodes. If you ever need to talk then message me :)


I love what you've done with your nails Dodie! 😄


SOOOO relatable thank you dodie for talking about this. been following your journey with music and mental health and life for a while and as a sufferer of dp/dr it is very validating to hear you talk about all of this. thanks so much and hope you're well!


One thing that really helped me learn to carry my depression without struggling was hypnotherapy. I know it sounds odd and it is entirely dependent on dealing with past trauma but it really really helped me with confidence and learning to live and cope with it. It still gets to me, but for the most part I can actually get by now.


I've done EMDR in combination with CBT and found it super super helpful and the results speedier than other forms of therapy that I've done <3


the way you explain things hits so close to my heart. I just started university, and I was counting on it to fix me, but I still just feel distant and hazy. I'm trying to be content in the present moment, but it feels nearly impossible. thank you for this.


I hope that we make you happy and feel special because every time I watch your videos you make me fell safe and loved and special. The rough patches in life won't matter when you find your serenity and if that comes sooner or later, you will find it. I love soon much xx


Dodie I feel the same way. In my dreams I feel alive and present but when I wake up my brain switches to 'protection mode' which manifests itself as depersonalisation.


You should be so proud of how you keep going, even when you're not doing well mentally. You really are an inspiration to so many of your fans


I really understand what you mean by 'plodding along.' I get that so much when i'm at school and i'm doing the same old shit over and over. Anxiety doesn't help either. I'm a dancer so I dance alone to express my feelings and let all the crap out of my brain. Having a good cry every once in a while helps as well. I also just wire myself to my iTunes and let go to all the lyrics. It's hard to live life when you're stuck in a specific state of mind but I guarantee you that it's possible to handle and overcome. It all comes with experience! I love you so much and wish to meet you one day! xxx


I just love you so so much, you're an angle dodie♡


Happy to know that Dodie feels the same. I'm setting my mind on what I'm doing after high school. After high school, I'm taking a gap year to decide if I really want to do college. But also in that time, I'm moving to London with my best friend and starting a YouTube channel. My best friend and I want a new start, and moving to London will be the beginning of it. Right now I have my ass sat in Oregon, and I'm not happy. I want something more, I don't know what, I just want something more. I know people say to live in the moment, but thats not what I want to do. I want to living in my future. The one I'm building.


I always have the urge to change my name and move away so I get you Dodie, I hope you feel better and that you can feel as content as you were in your dream!


I can really relate to the daydreams of leaving behind everything you know. The only advice I can give you is what worked for me. Through meditation I learned how to stop craving and start accepting. It also makes you more mindful of the things you do and enjoy them more, which helps with the accepting. I'm probably not the first one to recommend you this, but I just wanted to say that it helps in the long run.


This makes me so sad! Like dodie, the most amazing person in the world has so much depression. If I could Bear all the depression and pain for her I would in an instant. That's how much this girl I have never met means to me. I love you dodie.


Dodie. My heart breaks seeing you in your mental state and seeing the discontentment that comes hand in hand with your depersonalisation. I'm not here to tell you a story and I know that this small jumble of letters constructed on a computer screen may be hidden in the abyss of comforting messages but what I want you to know is this. In the galaxy there is a tiny solar system that is home to 8 planets and only one (that we know of) holds life and that life is more commonly known as the human race. Our race isn't exactly perfect, there is discrimination and war and conflict and more tragically, there is sadness. Sadness comes in many forms such as grief and heart break, depression and anxiety and the feeling when you are in one place but your brain is off somewhere else. However, amidst the sorrow and sadness comes hope and life and love. These three things can be found in everything you just know where to look and I'm sorry dodie my darling but you might have lost your glasses. The glasses that help you to ground yourself with your body and the glasses that once they are on you can see the worlds beauty without having to look and squint your eyes because as we all know squinting hurts after a while and you don't deserve to be in pain dodie. I've been watching you for 3 and a half years and watching you battle depression and depersonalisation shows me that life isn't always perfect but we should never pretend it is. We should strive to find the glasses that show us that being ourself is what makes this small planet amazing. So dodie, wherever you go, whether a shop or a park, look around and find 5 things that are beautiful about your surroundings and hopefully you will feel very slightly more in your body and well practice makes perfect so do it everywhere and I mean everywhere.. your bathroom or even under a grimey old underpass but just remember dodie that we (your followers/friends) are honestly here to guide you and help you through anything. I love you ❤


Honestly, without trying to sound too cheesy, seeing you go through all of this, and have time to document it and edit it to viewable level, is so inspirational for someone who does suffer with mental health issues and is trying to make it through and make it. Starting 2nd year of uni in 2 weeks and I'm nervous because 1st year was a bit shit but seeing you achieve all of this, despite your dpd stuff just makes me feel like I can tackle anything. That I can beat this thing trying to takeover my brain, but even if I can't, I can still make #art and do what I love. Thank you :) <3


You're a truly wonderful person dodie. As soon as I discovered your videos and music you started to help me so much, when I never even knew I needed it. What you do and the way you have such a strong impact on others is really beautiful. Best of luck for everything and I hope it helps to know that you have lots of people (plus me) with you to support you every step of the way! :)


Honestly when you talk like this it makes me hopeful to know I am not the only one suffering so thank you Xxx I hope things get better soon :)


did you actually make a harry potter reference at the end because i'm already on the verge of tears from 19 years later and OF COURSE YOU DID


Dodie, you inspire me so much :) you're one of The reasons I still post my music on youtube even if I stay a small youtuber forever! Love you! You are The best ❤


Dodie! I'm sorry you feel like this, and honestly i can relate to the feeling of wanting to be content in the moment, but never getting there.
The only thing i feel like actually helps me is to just try and accept whatever i'm feeling - if it's sad or anxious or whatever, all i feel like i can do is just try to acknowledge the feeling and feel whatever's there and try not to label anything as 'bad' or 'good'. Feelings don't go away if you think about them more or try to push them down so i've been working to just try to let my brain feel what it needs to. It's frustrating and really easy to think that sadness or depression will never go away, but that's just not true. Emotions are never permanent and one day you'll feel okay again.
(Sorry if this was really crap advice bc it probs was but i hope it helped a tiny bit 😌❤❤❤)


Looking forward to seeing you in Australia! Hope you're doing alright with all this travelling around, it means a lot that you're coming all the way out to Melbourne for VidConAus!


i love you, i relate to you and im proud of how far you've come


you are such a wonderful human dodie :) i hope you have a lovely day , brains suck at times but you also have an incredible brain i mean look at all the songs and poems you created x


I feel the same thing from time to time.But it is in real life.I feel soo happy and like all my problems will go away,and I will feel like I felt once.Then something comes and tears me down. It is hard.But,lots of love to you Dodie,keep doing what you're doing ❤❤


The last thing that made me happy was when you liked my tweet earlier.

I died

I screamed for an hour

Thank you. That was the first time i have smiled genuinly in a while.


I'm currently reading "Uncovering Happiness" by Dr Elisha Goldstein. I would highly recommend this to anyone wanting to both educate themselves on why you feel like a shite, but also how to not feel AS shite. Vvv good stuff. Love you Dodie 💕


I started CBT a little while ago and its literally rewiring therapy! They explore your core thoughts (its horrible and terrifying BUT it helps in the long run). You dont get better in a few months, unfortunately, but i do hope that in a year or two im better. I hope.


I just think it's so sad to see a friend be so lonely & unhappy. I'm so grateful that I can say I truly don't understand what it's like as I've never had any serious mental health problems. But my heart aches for the people like dodie who constantly hurt. Here's to the hearts that ache, here's to the mess we make ✨✨✨


Those contempt moments will start to become the norm!! Your meds plus CBT will help you a tremendous amount I'm so excited for you! Just remember that it's still a long process but you notice yourself having those contempt moments (not ecstatic/manic) more and more and start to feel comfortable with being happy.


Right now I'm genuinely so so sooo happy and I wish for nothing more than for everyone to feel the same. Take it from someone who's been at the bottom of whatever dark hole depression is. There will be a time where things change for the better and it will quite literally ' all make sense again'<br>All the love and happiness i have to everyone needing it : )

Right now I'm genuinely so so sooo happy and I wish for nothing more than for everyone to feel the same. Take it from someone who's been at the bottom of whatever dark hole depression is. There will be a time where things change for the better and it will quite literally ' all make sense again'
All the love and happiness i have to everyone needing it : )


Hey dodie, I know you’re very busy but just the chance of you seeing this compels me to write. I just want you to know that there’s a whole community here to talk to and we all support you in any endeavor you choose to pursue (even if you want to quit YouTube and come to America). I hope you find yourself content in everything you do. I love you :)


the last bit made me smile :) (i also noticed your reaction to the drink- welcome to america, dodie. we overload everything with sugar and other "healthy things")


You and Josh singing along to Fun at the end made me happy 😊


When I'm not feeling content in the present moment and trying to, I usually go to watch your videos, dodie. Particularly, your ASMR one where I can just take a break and breath for two minutes. So, my advice to you dodie, would be to find your own dodie (lol) who helps mellow your soul... even just for a little while. :) xx


Your music and creativity is the medication for your depression


I have gone my whole life feeling a way i couldn't pin point. And after bingeing alot of your videos. I now have a name, i dont like to self diagnose, but at the very least its something to research more. Thank you for sharing, and creating. If you ever need a friend, ill be there. (sorry if thats weird)


my favorite cb therapist i've ever had moved away last year and i miss her everyday. she always recommended TEDtalks and vlogbrothers videos to me and she was just generally so fantastic with me and my brain. i hope you have the same experience ((or something similar bc i very much hope your doctor doesn't move offices)) ANYWAYS i love you so much xoxo


CBT! Yaas! Yeah it is basically brain rewiring 😆 Go you Dodie! I hope it works out for you 💛

Both me and my partner did it on the NHS and we've had v different experiences of it but it's literally been life changing.

My partner didn't get on with their first therapist and found the level of work too upsetting, but asked to change to a different one and got on much better and found some simpler techniques a lot more helpful.

I actually took well to the really structured and rigorous CBT methods and my therapist was pushing me as hard as she could. I think one time I told her it was too much and she did back off a bit and go a bit easier on me (there seems a bit of pressure to try to fit in as much therapy as they can). I still have to work at it, but it's really helped me - already even tho only 2 ppl know I've been doing it lots of folks have noticed I've been a lot calmer and less stressed.

But yeah, to anyone who does it: if it's not working out, please do try to tell them and ask to see a different therapist if you want (you're not there to please them, it's all about your needs not theirs!)


I'm glad you're working on feeling content in the present moment and i'm very confident that you will be. I've been working on that too, as I've been feeling a bit odd lately but I think it's because I have a lot going on before school next week and some friend stuff is bothering me a lot so I don't really know if I'm content in the present moment at this point in time but I know I'll get there, because one day, I won't have these worries and this stress. I'm really trying to focus on having a good time with my family and my friends and having those moments that I know I'll remember for the rest of my life. I really am, and I'm so happy you are too.


Great video Dodie! You are so talented and really pretty.


I know you have not been feeling great but the fact that you are pushing on and accomplishing so much despite that is very inspiring.  You make it so I feel like keeping on and not being defined by my mental state.


For me, Escitalopram changed my entire life. And a lot of people I love have had a similar experience with it or with the other type which its Citalopram. I think there is no shame going and getting medication for your illness. Antidepressants work, and although it can be hard to find the one that is best for you, don't give up. I swear to you, it will get better.


i really really hope CBT works as well for you as it has for me. love you.


Tip for CBT: you really have to practise it. It's not going to work if you don't put in the work. And it will be hard but you will be able to do it. I believe in you, Dodie. Love you 💗


i'm actually so grateful to have you on this planet


i didnt get my dream role in a musical that i wanted so badly, and ive cried every day for nearly two weeks. i love when you talk about the realer, sad side of your brain because it makes me feel not alone and less ridiculous when i have bad brain days.


I just replayed 4:22 her harmony to "still wake up" UUGGHH there are tears in my eyes😍😍


I love the lighting in this video. It's not like super bright and white like a lot of people have but it's soft and gentle and comforting and a contenting coulor


Whenever I'm really depressed I like to "escape" by just climbing out a window and walking as far as I need to until I feel better:)


In bio class sneaking this vid because it's Dodie


Happy thoughts is the perfect way to explain it. You can't get over it, obviously, but all you have to do is hope. Run away for a while. We all need to do that. See your fans and your friends, we all are with you and you can be content in the present. You help other people like me, so I want to help you.<br>Thank you Dodie xxx

Happy thoughts is the perfect way to explain it. You can't get over it, obviously, but all you have to do is hope. Run away for a while. We all need to do that. See your fans and your friends, we all are with you and you can be content in the present. You help other people like me, so I want to help you.
Thank you Dodie xxx


I relate sooo much. I'm always thinking up ways I'll "fix" myself and especially the one about running away. I've always wanted to move to some other country, but now I'm starting to think it's just another thing I think will make me happy and content. Sending my love and support to anyone out there who might need it<3


ive been on the NHS waiting list for CBT since april and they told me I'd get an appointment in september and im so glad that september is here !!!! good luck with ur CBT dodie


I have social anxiety and I get depersonalized when my anxiety attacks get really bad, it mostly happens during school ( being around people all day and trying to calm myself down all the time is mentally exhausting)

Hope you feel better dodie (love you!)


The part about traveing never being as good as you want it to, reminded me of a School of Life video: "The problem with traveling". I think they sum it up pretty nicely, you should watch it :) and take care of yourself on all these travels and tours<3


If it makes you feel any better, for the past couple days I've been listening to your awesome "You" album almost nonstop because it's amazing


For this whole video I was like, I relate. I relate so painfully hard. 💔 I'm so sorry to anyone else who does.


"Some nights I wish that this all would end, cause I could use some friends for a change." was the last line in this video and I find that ironically fitting. :)<br>Anyways, I hope you have a good time in DC, despite not knowing anyone!

"Some nights I wish that this all would end, cause I could use some friends for a change." was the last line in this video and I find that ironically fitting. :)
Anyways, I hope you have a good time in DC, despite not knowing anyone!


Same feelings Dodie,I know how it feels,<3


I feel a lot of this. I went through a period during my sophomore year of uni where I decided to cut negative people out of my life, and through that decided that I would give up social media. So, I cut out facebook and instagram and snapchat, and I think that I thought doing these things would make me more productive, which I suppose it sort of did, but I also felt like I gave up a lot of my creativity with it. I don't think I lived more in the moment, I think I just documented less of it. What I will say though, is though I returned to instagram, I never returned to facebook and snapchat. I think I face a lot of fomo and it really helps with that since I'm not constantly bombarded with what all my friends are doing all the time. I don't know. It's different for everyone, but I think its a good experiment, depriving yourself of social media. Certainly you find out the friends you really talk to and who you don't...


Hope your mental health gets better ! I can totally relate to what you're trying to say ❤


I'm so glad you're going to be having CBT. It is so worth it! It's not easy though (you're literally rewiring your brain to think in totally new ways) but I know you've got the strength to do it. I'm about to hit the halfway mark for my CBT sessions. The homework tasks aren't easy either but if they're easy they're not worth it. I felt sick and hella anxious when my therapist set one of my tasks. It was unpleasant but that reaction meant I was stepping out of my comfort zone into new territory and new ways of being and when I manage it, I felt chuffing great!

I too feel like running away sometimes. More recently I've just wanted to sell, throw or give away all of my possessions, my clothes too, and just start again. Every time I try to do it though, I think "oh, this might be useful one day" or "I spent money on that so I can't get rid of it" or "this is horrible/useless/ugly/makes me feel crap but it was a present so I have to keep it". Or the task is too daunting (I've accumulate a lot of crap over the years!) but I guess it's about fulfilling that desire in a controlled way. You're doing it by travelling. You can do it every day in small ways too by reading books or watching films and getting lost in them or by having a tech holiday where you switch off everything (just make sure people know about it and where you are).
To satisfy my need to get rid of EVERYTHING, I got a friend round to help me be a bit more ruthless with the stuff I've justified keeping and to sort my other stuff into more manageable sections that'll be easier to sift through.

This is way longer than I intended, soz! But I hope there's someone out there who benefited a little from reading it :)


this is not related to this video at all, but dodie! i need the uke chords for in the middle.

namjoon's rarely seen abs on soprano uke it’s (verse) g bb f eb f (chorus) g f g f c eb f

namjoon's rarely seen abs should be G, Bb, F, Eb throughout most of the song on a tenor uke

Aninja I think I've got it down 80% accurately. Will upload midi later because I'm too lazy to figure out what chords I play.

Oh right. Sorry. I do play the keyboard lots but I'm almost entirely self taught other than my dad teaching me a bit and I'm also only 12 XD Lots of the time I look stuff up on YouTube, if you search "death of a bachelor piano" you should be able to find a video of just a piano and like the colours and stuff falling and all that and I'm sure you could go off of that, while adding little bits and bobs yourself. I'm pretty sure that when Brendon Urie himself plays it on the piano, he uses a bunch of major7 and that kinda stuff too.

JaylaBean but that's not how dodie plays it! she has much more major7 and stuff like that in it :\

Aninja HEY the chords for death of the bachelor are on ultimate guitar (just look up "death of a bachelor chords") but if you can't find it then it's Dm G C for the verses, F Fm C Am D Dm G for the pre chorus, and then Am D F C for the chorus. :D

namjoon's rarely seen abs and i need the chords for her "death of a bachelor" cover

namjoon's rarely seen abs same you can probably look it up theres probably a YouTube tutorial


your videos always make me feel so much better. thank you.


Ughhhh, I can't get over the fact that ur use of language is so beautiful and sophisticated no matter what the circumstance 😍😍


I'm always a different person in my dreams, usually a boy which is weird. Also, CBT is really useful x


Ngl I quickly glanced at the screen when Josh was drinking and I thought it was a ketchup bottle omg


a way to live more in the moment is to focus on what you're doing (it works, just slowly, you get used to doing it more) it helps to focus on what's touching you, what you smell, what the weather feels like on your skin, what your toes feel like, basically checking in on all senses. i started doing this more last year and i've been able to live more in the moment so much and i highly suggest it's something you also do!!


I cant i just cant watch your stuff anymore its too gloomy i'm sorry. I love you and i'll still support your music because you're truly talented with every sense of the word. Many of your fans can relate to you right now because they share your journey, but i do not i'm still far behind and its a lot for me to handle. Love you babe


Dodie (and anyone else who might find this helpful), I've found meditation to be a great way at least to start to rewire your brain. Its almost like changing your entire thought process, which is difficult but with practice it gets easier and helps a bunch. Maybe try out little affirmations everyday, they seem stupid but they really do help after a while, by changing your thoughts you change your mental makeup.<br>I cannot stress this enough for anyone reading, and I mean this truly after many years of lost wondering and non-beliefs. Find a faith, not necessary a God, or an almighty being (and most definitely not money or the gov). But find a faith in something you can practice and that gives you purpose, whether it be a philosophy, spirituality or a religion, heck have faith in yourself and dedicate your "worshipping time" to self care. Regardless, find something that pushes you to further yourself and is something you can find calm in. This is the single best thing I have found to help with my mental health, I'm not saying it'll solve everything straight away, but it's helped me incredibly.

Dodie (and anyone else who might find this helpful), I've found meditation to be a great way at least to start to rewire your brain. Its almost like changing your entire thought process, which is difficult but with practice it gets easier and helps a bunch. Maybe try out little affirmations everyday, they seem stupid but they really do help after a while, by changing your thoughts you change your mental makeup.
I cannot stress this enough for anyone reading, and I mean this truly after many years of lost wondering and non-beliefs. Find a faith, not necessary a God, or an almighty being (and most definitely not money or the gov). But find a faith in something you can practice and that gives you purpose, whether it be a philosophy, spirituality or a religion, heck have faith in yourself and dedicate your "worshipping time" to self care. Regardless, find something that pushes you to further yourself and is something you can find calm in. This is the single best thing I have found to help with my mental health, I'm not saying it'll solve everything straight away, but it's helped me incredibly.


I'm going to my first pride tomorrow.🌈🌈🌈


For anyone in the comments struggling with mental illness, I find Noah Elkrief's videos incredibly helpful. He aims to rewire the way you confront your thoughts and that, paired with therapy, have given me more hope than I have had in years. Just remember that you are worth the time and effort and that there are so many people who care about you deeply. I know that's easier said than done, but I wish all you beautiful people the best!


The Harry Potter reference at the end killed me ❤ especially cuz September first and stuff... Happy 19 years later everyone!!!! Also, I really hope and believe that one day you'll reach that point of feeling contempt in the moment again and quitting worrying about unnecessary stuff, you're so strong and I believe that you can do it. Also I'm hating my life cuz you're gonna go to Australia and I just left... Oh well, have fun in the best country in the world anyway!!


Fantastic thing to come back to after a run. I would love to go mountain climbing but i cant as i always see the negative side of things


That Harry Potter ref at the end tho....😄😄😄 <br>Hope you're feeling well Dodie! Love you!

That Harry Potter ref at the end tho....😄😄😄
Hope you're feeling well Dodie! Love you!

Jas
There's a writing in the end and she says
I'll "probably" be in my room making no noise and pretending I don't exist

Jas
There's a writing in the end and she says
*I'll "probably" be in my room making no noise and pretending I don't exist*

Gale Thunder wait WOAH what Harrt Potter reference did she make?


Do you ever feel like how things used to be used to be when you were younger and not necessarily happier but hopeful and in a way more carefree? I dunno I feel a lot of the same things as you mentioned in this video and what strikes me most is just the overwhelming lack of hope I have now (as a recently turned 22 yo).


Do you meditate, I think especially once you do it for a while it really actually works to ground you. I never got the concept of meditating because I didn't know how to shut my brain up but there are things you can listen to, so you can focus on one thing, such as breathing, to ground you.

Love you Dodie, I hope everything gets better❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤


I was on CBT through the NHS for about a year and a half and it really worked for me.  As you were saying, you really do feel lighter. As long as you put as much effort as you possibly can into it, im sure it'll work for you too. Good luck


I wish i could talk about my feelings like you do


dodie making a Harry Potter reference on Epilogue Day makes my life

"be in my room makingnonoiseandpretendingidon't exist" #19YearsLater


Dodie: I have issues with depersonalization, depression, anxiety, PTSD, etc, and the one thing that has really worked for me, helped my depersonalization, and helped me "rewire my brain" is EMDR. It's a therapy that really helps you shift the things in your brain so they don't affect you so much


Hey Dodie, <br>I suffer from SAD-type depression and one thing that has made a MASSIVE difference to me has been going to the gym/ cycling more and trying to eat healthy (for me, that has been avoiding sugar and dairy haha). It's incredible how much getting fitter has improved my mood and I would really recommend it!

Hey Dodie,
I suffer from SAD-type depression and one thing that has made a MASSIVE difference to me has been going to the gym/ cycling more and trying to eat healthy (for me, that has been avoiding sugar and dairy haha). It's incredible how much getting fitter has improved my mood and I would really recommend it!


I was in a restaurant the other day and 6/10 came on and I just felt really proud I guess😂, yay for Dodie!!


Enjoy traveling and conventions and everything :)
There is CBT online (which in my opinion can work out better sometimes than NHS) and there are book and audiobooks, which ever you prefer or feel up to in the moment :)
Things get better :) they also get worse, but... look at the sunset :D it's always beautiful and it is an end of something.


5:00 omg I thought he was drinking ketchup 😂😂


Dodie, thank you, thank you for this video, ily.


take some time to find yourself <3 do what makes you feel good. dont feel obligated to make music or make videos your mental health is more important. just take as long as you need <3 (and eat some donuts :))


I wish I was at playlist! have a good time and make some fun memories! the best thing to do for rewiring your brain is to just wake up everyday and push that feeling out, it's harder than it sounds. I suffered with anxiety and still do but I just reminded myself that I needed to keep busy.

What really helps is just keeping your brain occupied and making sure to not let your mind wander. I'm only 13 but I hope this helps! I haven't had much experience but to anyone who is reading, have a lovely day! x


I needed this so much. I'm 16 years old and just I had my second mental breakdown in a week. I drove to school today, but I was just bawling and freaking out about the thought of having to face another day of school Our school counselor had to call my Dad to take me home and I'm not allowed to drive anymore.

I've been seeing a psychiatrist since May and I just had my third appointment with a therapist. I've been told by my psychiatrist that I show strong signs of major depressive disorder (MDD) and generalized anxiety disorder (GAD), although she hasn't definitively diagnosed me (bc usually a psychologist will do that). I'm trying so hard to get better, but it's such a long and hard journey and it's hard to know if you even want to keep going.

Thank you so much for your courage and strength to post about your mental health. Your posts have been so helpful for me when dealing with my own struggle. I pray that you would be able to keep fighting your own battles and to never give up. Even when the sun isn't shining and the moon is dark, the stars will still be shining. ❤


i've found it helps me to write something every single day as well as ((attempt)) to keep a bullet journal. the writing is sometimes thoughts and feelings, sometimes it's how i want to feel, sometimes its completely random and i write from my book of prompts. i'm not sure if that'll help you, but consistency is the key to re-wiring your brain. i also take lexapro everyday for my anxiety/depression/OCD and it has helped LOADS. meds aren't for everyone, therapy isn't for everyone. sometimes you just have to find something that at least helps a little bit and stick with it.<br>i hope that helps at least a little bit

i've found it helps me to write something every single day as well as ((attempt)) to keep a bullet journal. the writing is sometimes thoughts and feelings, sometimes it's how i want to feel, sometimes its completely random and i write from my book of prompts. i'm not sure if that'll help you, but consistency is the key to re-wiring your brain. i also take lexapro everyday for my anxiety/depression/OCD and it has helped LOADS. meds aren't for everyone, therapy isn't for everyone. sometimes you just have to find something that at least helps a little bit and stick with it.
i hope that helps at least a little bit


I LOVE your tour vlogs!! I will be so happy if you film somethings while you are on tour 💛💛💛


Im not great today but thank you dodie. You are so busy it is actually insane and if you stay relatively sane that will be an achievement lol. Especially with all the travelling that makes you feel worse, but nevertheless i hope you have a good time👍🏻


I loved that ending bit it was so cute 😭  I want to try doing VEDIS but I don't know if I can do it and I'm pretty sure I'll die but it lest i'll be trying right? 😂  I got the first video out today lets see how long this will last


i'm glad that you could be on a path towards feeling better (and that you're starting cbt! that's awesome i'm so happy for you). i really hope it works out for you. we all love you and are here to support you <3


Love you so much xx (just a little thing I saw in your description that you find it hard to mediate with your eyes closed. Maybe try with them open? I don't do it myself but a few of my friends swear by it and say they still really get the benefit of mindfulness) ❤


Yeah my brain does the same thing where it will think of a good thing to happen to make a good decision but ain't such a good idea so yes dodie  😂😊


Dodie, you are actually inspiring, do you know?


When u said it was September i was actually shocked because i realized that my birthday 6 days away🌻


im seeing u in 46 days and im so excited and i hope u feel a bit better then <3 ily u can get through anything my lovely Xx


I always feel like escaping too, I also deal with depersonalization and I always think traveling or doing exciting things other than uni would help me, but seeing that you travel so much and do so many exciting things and still feel like that is another way to remind me that this is something I have to work on   and I can't run away from it. I don't know if this realization makes me feel any better? But it is nice to know I'm not the only one.


Here are my personal tips for rewiring your brain, because I like your videos and I like your face and personality and singing :)  And who knows, maybe this will help some others that are reading the comments too :D  I hope it helps a lot of people.
First, let me start by saying I had pretty bad depression back in highschool and early college, still struggle with it sometimes, but I'm loads better now.  I refused any help from family or doctors because I felt that I wasn't deserving of it.  I felt I didn't deserve to be happy.  I was suicidal at one point, going as far as to make an attempt at it.  Over the years, I've gotten so much better.  I still have bad days, and I still fight with anxiety a lot, but I function so much better now, and I know how to push through the anxiety a good enough portion of the time that I get things done that I want done.

Now for my tips!
It's a long and hard road, but you can do it!  Everyone is capable of rewiring their brain.  Every. single. person.  So you're not allowed to say you can't.  Some days are extra hard, and some days you WILL say you can't.  But when you have those days, it's important to catch yourself and redirect yourself.
When you say "I can't do this,' catch yourself.  Tell yourself, "No.  I CAN do this, it's just really hard right now."  When you have moments where you're really down on yourself, turn it around and tell yourself something like "I'm awesome and I can get things done, even if I stumble a few times on the way there."  Even if you don't believe your own words, just telling yourself you can do it every day is so powerful, and you will eventually make yourself believe it.
Every morning (or night, whenever you wake up), look in the mirror, smile, and tell yourself you're beautiful.  Even if you don't believe it, start each day with something simple like this.  Start each day with a positive thought~
There will be bad days, and that's ok.  Everyone has them, what's important is what we do with them.  Have a nice meal or a nice cup of your favorite tea.  If it's an especially bad day, little happy things here and there are important!  Never forget to take care of yourself, because that's a decent part of what decides how we feel.
One thing that helped me a lot is to think of happiness as something that is made rather than found.  In order to be happy, you have to make happiness.  And making something takes work, sometimes a lot of hard work.  But the happiness that results from it is so very worth it.
An important thing to remember is that it can be a lengthy process.  It can take years, but each year will feel a little better than the last.  There will be times you'll fall and you might stay down for a while, and it's ok to take a rest if you need to.  But pick yourself back up and keep on trucking~  If you stumble, or if you fall, it's not a setback!  It's just taking a breather, catching your breath, resting your happy-making brain muscles.

In summary:
Brain rewiring can take a long time and lots of hard work in redirecting your thoughts.
Don't be your worst enemy.  I know it's super easy to fall into it.  Be nice to yourself, supportive of your own efforts.  Remember, look in the mirror and say something nice to yourself.  Smile at yourself.
Whenever you're feeling really bad, think to yourself, "Is feeling like this getting me anywhere or teaching me anything of use?"  It's ok to feel down sometimes, it's part of being human.  But don't forget to take a breath and focus on happier things to get through it.
If you fall down, it's not a setback.  You don't go back to square one.  You stay where you are on your path, so that you can keep going when you stand back up.
Make happiness!  Don't just look for it, actively try to create it.  Even if things don't go as expected, there will still be the experiences to look back on, to learn from.

Sorry if this was a bit lengthy XD  I wanted to be sure I got all of my points across~  I hope this helps you or anyone else in the comments :)


Ugh that feel when I see photos of my happy little kid self and just wish I had some FREAKING MAP to get back there- I think the fact of once being whole makes the brokenness all the more painful


Hey can you cover songs by kodaline? A few suggestions are all I want, high hopes, love like this, talk, brother

AnIndianGirl oh gosh high hopes would be amazing!!


Dodie, based on your videos about mental health, I think you and I have very similar anxiety and depersonalization. Watching your videos actually helped me to figure out that was what was wrong with me. I went on Fluoxetine (prozac) recently and it has changed my life. Please consider trying this because I want you to be as happy as I am now. I know its possible. Much love! <3


dodie much as i love your style of editing i would also appreciate it if you could please leave the text on the screen for slightly longer sometimes, i really can't read that fast lol. lov u


I'm getting this this where I almost feel present in the present (punintended), but whenever I look back on earlier in the year, month, week and more often than not day, I feel as if I've slept through months of my life, or groggily dragged myself through them? I don't know if it's a kind of depersonalization but so far you're the only person I've found that my experiences with my mental health relate to, lyl dodie 💕💕


Sometimes things just change one day on their own and you think that's a miracle but then the bad place catches up and that's hard to accept without falling behind a smokey screen again. We have to live for the good moments and spend a balanced amount of time distracted from, then  on par with reality.


I just want to say that you help me.  You help me a lot.  I love you.  Not in a creepy way.  In a 'I love your vids' way.


I hope you find your way back to how you used to feel, I've just accepted that I won't ever be the same and that change is just part of life. I don't think and feel the way I used to but it's not necessarily worse, just different.


i see your videos and i can relate to you so much, i have had mental health issues for 3 years and i am still struggling however things are getting much much better due to me finally finding a good reliable therapist. there will be underlying issues pointing to why you have these illnesses, to feel better you have to work through those issues first, as for the most part your mental health is a coping mechanism for them (im sure you're already very aware of this anyway). the best way to rewire your brain is through mindfulness and i would really recommend reading "the mindful way through depression" as it has really helped me understand my own brain better. i wish you all the best and i hope you find something that works for you. p.s im coming to see you in newcastle and i cant wait xo


Hey Dodie! When I heard you talking about travelling and still feeling sad, I thought about this Latin text by Seneca I once read in school. He is writing this to a dear friend.

"1. Do you suppose that you alone have had this experience? Are you surprised, as if it were a novelty, that after such long travel and so many changes of scene you have not been able to shake off the gloom and heaviness of your mind? You need a change of soul rather than a change of climate. Though you may cross vast spaces of sea, and though, as our Vergil remarks, Lands and cities are left astern, your faults will follow you whithersoever you travel.

2. Socrates made the same remark to one who complained; he said: "Why do you wonder that globe-trotting does not help you, seeing that you always take yourself with you? The reason which set you wandering is ever at your heels." What pleasure is there in seeing new lands? Or in surveying cities and spots of interest? All your bustle is useless. Do you ask why such flight does not help you? It is because you flee along with yourself. You must lay aside the burdens of the mind; until you do this, no place will satisfy you.

3. (...)
You wander hither and yon, to rid yourself of the burden that rests upon you, though it becomes more troublesome by reason of your very restlessness, just as in a ship the cargo when stationary makes no trouble, but when it shifts to this side or that, it causes the vessel to heel more quickly in the direction where it has settled. Anything you do tells against you, and you hurt yourself by your very unrest; for you are shaking up a sick man.

4. That trouble once removed, all change of scene will become pleasant; though you may be driven to the uttermost ends of the earth, in whatever corner of a savage land you may find yourself, that place, however forbidding, will be to you a hospitable abode. The person you are matters more than the place to which you go; for that reason we should not make the mind a bondsman to any one place. Live in this belief: "I am not born for any one corner of the universe; this whole world is my country."

5. If you saw this fact clearly, you would not be surprised at getting no benefit from the fresh scenes to which you roam each time through weariness of the old scenes. For the first would have pleased you in each case, had you believed it wholly yours. As it is, however, you are not journeying; you are drifting and being driven, only exchanging one place for another, although that which you seek, – to live well, – is found everywhere. (...)"

I hope you are doing well soon

Xx


Emma October I'm too uncool, it's a song from the musical


Tips: fight the negative voice and the obsessive thoughts. Convince yourself you're ok. Fight the cycle of thoughts. It helped me heaps


I always try to imagine how amazing it would be to go back to past before "x" happened, before everything changed, before this, before that.

but I'm trying to accept the fact that I am not the same person as I was when I was 4, 9, 15, or even a year ago. We are bond to change, and it's almost impossible to be the person who you were before because there are elements in your life that changed you. and that's okay.

I know it's hard, but accepting the fact that you're now a different person but still be able to love yourself, accept yourself, and validate yourself if you're going through a rough time, it's okay to feel out of place, depressed, anxious, etc. The same way you changed when you were younger, you will change the older you get and hopefully we can all look back and say "thank fuck i stayed alive to see this good side of life"


I remember in 2015 when I have already been depressed for a year and have forgotten what happiness feels like I had this dream that I girl I was in love with at the time said that she felt the same way. And my body just filled with this unspeakable joy. I felt light again, with no worries dragging me down, just like a year ago. I remembered what happiness felt like. And then I woke up. And it was just g o n e. It was so painful diving back to sadness again
It was in July of this year and I was on the swings, the sky was electric blue and bigger than I have even seen, when I felt it again, in real life. But not because of a person. At that moment while I was on the swings I was happy. Just because I was. I existed. I was. That was enough. I somehow managed not to scare it away, I just enjoyed it for as long as it lasted
Of course it didn't last forever. Today I feel okay, not fine, but okay, alright, content, it takes time. But I hold on to that moment on the swings as a reminder that I can indeed be happy. And you can. You will <3


it's weird it's comforting to know that other people feel this way


Does anyone know if dodies coming to New Zealand on her tour?

Sophie's Creativenessness aww ikr I wish she would come to NZ too

Sophie's Creativenessness It's just a uk tour


love love love this style of video, more pls xxxx


I wish there was a way we could help you when it comes to this... I send you all my love 💓💓💓💓💓


i started crying when you talked about how you felt content in your dream and wished you could find a way to feel like that in a conscious state; it really resonated with me. i understand how that feels, i've had nights where i've woken up from a dream that took place when i was a kid and i sit in bed for a while thinking about how i may have not really been happy, but i was content-- and i really wish i still felt like that. i've had days where i come home from school and i'll think about my childhood and start crying, not because it was bad, but because i wasn't anxious or sad. i'll think back to when i was a toddler and when my parents were still together and they were still happy too. and i actually feel bad saying that it's comforting to know you understand to some degree how i feel, because i would never want someone to have a similar mental state as me. but your videos talking about your mental health really make me feel so much better. they remind me that there are other people who face similar problems as i do and that i don't need to hate myself over my mental health because so many people fight through it too. and it's kind of silly that i'm writing this all out to you as if you were my pen pal, but how much you share makes me feel like that there's someone there to talk to. but i guess that's good because tricking myself into thinking someone's there is the only way i could write this much, and i guess there is someone there. someone's bound to read this and i'll be expressing how i feel to someone. i should just end by saying thank you. so that's what i'll do. thanks dodie.


too real. i think ive recently been experiencing dp/dr and i'm scared to death that i'm never going feel like myself again. it's so hard to explain it but i can't think of anything more scary than the thought of being in this state forever. i hope to all of you out there suffering with these kinds of things too that we can all figure out how to rewire and be well. <3


she's probably got the most comforting voice out of,,,, everyone


I look up to your tenacity and your determination, you will find a method that will help you cope, that will come in time, the better things in life are unexpected.

Question, will you be performing while in LA? Or is it purely business stuff?


you're teeth are so beautiful like how the hell,, this is my 3rd year of braces and i'm only 13,,,

isla I had braces for 5 years, I'm 13 I just got them off 2 months ago

isla I'm about to be on my third year of braces and I'm 14


Nice to know someone else feels just entirely fed up with having to deal with mental illness day to day. Its so hard just waiting for treatment and watching days go by.


Oh my god I forgot about FUN I used to listen to them all the time. Anyway hope you're feeling better, and if not I hope you can feel some kind of peace soon enough!


dodie!! you should do a proper cover of some nights, i think you're voice is good for it


uh was that a cheeky harry potter reference in the end text???

I am literally re-reading Harry Potter and the philosopher's stone rn

Hannah Lewis OMG I'M A HARDCORE POTTERHEAD


I really missed you
God bless you gorgeous
I love you and I hope you feel better soon ❤


I reeeaally want to meet you one day but I never have the money or the time, I'm always doing something, there's always something planned... but it's on my bucket list ♡ love you Dodie


Whenever I'm in a depressive episode I get the urge to delete all my social media and all my apps from my phone lmao


You know what dodie. I look at you and girls similar to you and I think "o so I'm gay?" and I keep denying it but no I am attracted to girls like you. Okay woah. Yea, okay just wanted to say that thank you. I love you, have a nice everyday Idk okay.


Hey Dodie. I know a bit about fighting depression, anxiety and my own stubborn panic disorder. It's not easy, and I've been fighting it since I became symptomatic 10 years ago. It's not easy finding the right treatment(s) that work for each individual, but I swear, if you keep looking, you'll find what's right for you like I have.

In the meantime, just please never forget that you have friends and family who love you, and at least a million folks (like me) whose life you made a bit more enjoyable because of your videos. I'm not much of a "hugger," but I'm making an exception... (BIG HUG).


it's comforting yet incredibly sad that I know I am not alone and that I am not going mad and that other people go through these feelings and thoughts as well but I also wish that none of us would go through it. It's all a bit shit yet heartwarming


DODIE THAT HARMONY YOU DID TO FUN. WAS AMAZING


So Josh is drinking from a bottle of ketchup ...


I totally understand you not posting everyday and that life happens which makes posting something low on your priority list. You are a very resilient, intelligent, and capable human and I trust that when you're on hiatus it's because you need to be. Glad you're back for now Dodie!! 💕


Can definitely relate on the mental illness front ;-; I've finally gotten through to a counselling service (starting on Monday) so here's hoping! ^_^


Honestly, most of my anxiety could be helped if I could stop talking to myself in such a negative way when I fuck up. My therapist is going to help me with this because it's very hard to feel like you have a little alien floating outside your head that hates you and everything you are doing.


hearing dodie say "fucking" for the first time made my day so bright! :)


DODIE! Your sign in the background is spelt wrong - it says " happy thougts" but it should be "happy thoughts" :/ (soz for the tangent lol)

Reuben at the intro of the video there's like this 1sec text that says that she only got two h with the product


In regards to mindfulness, I get what you mean about how having your eyes closed fucks you up. I have a hard time with that too cause I find I get dizzy, which triggers panic attacks. So maybe try like lightly focusing on something in the general area or just focus on how your body feels, on your breath? It sometimes helps me when I'm having a bad panic attack and trying to bring myself back to the moment to stop the negative brain cycle.


I too feel like this with my depression and stuff but my way to go since not so long ago is that I just focus on the positive, let go of the negative, don't look back or too forward and don't let negative thoughts get in the way of my potential happiness cause it's a waste of time and energy when I could be doing anything that makes me a little happier. I guess part of feeling better is training your brain to think he is already on his way. Anyway, love you Dodie♥


PLEASE DON'T BECOME A HIPPY DODIE I NEED YOUR VIDEOS TO CHEER ME UP


woah this is the first time i'm actually early to a video


I've already mentioned this a couple times when you've asked about mental health things, but CBD oil has helped me pretty well.  It's been shown to be effective with depression and anxiety in some empirical studies with few side effects, and I've seen one mention of someone with depersonalization using it.  I don't think that's been studied though.  Other than that I'm sure anything I have to say you've heard before. Mindfulness meditation, tai chi, breathing exercises, etc.  One thing I also reccomend looking into now that I think of it, if I recall correctly at some point you said you think you might be suffering from complex-ptsd. If so one thing that might help with that is eye movement desensitization and reprocessing. Hope you find the right help for you and that your mental health starts to weigh on you less.  <3


I always feel how I did as a kid in dreams. Just kind of crazy and out of control and not caring about consequence it's weird.


Once I read in a book (Three Times at Dawn) that when we start over we never do it because we want to change ourselves. Instead, we mean to change card table, since we can never change our actual cards. But I think that sometimes when we lose, it's not only because our cards are kinda crap, but because understanding how to use them in the game is very, very complicated. However, we can learn to do better, we can win if we look at them in the right way, for the right amount of time. It can be depressing- to stare at something that is dragging you down. But it's not about staring at them, it's about trying to figure them out and focusing on the good cards we have.  We can use so many different strategies. <br>There has to be a way to improve what we are doing. I can't let myself believe there isn't.

Once I read in a book (Three Times at Dawn) that when we start over we never do it because we want to change ourselves. Instead, we mean to change card table, since we can never change our actual cards. But I think that sometimes when we lose, it's not only because our cards are kinda crap, but because understanding how to use them in the game is very, very complicated. However, we can learn to do better, we can win if we look at them in the right way, for the right amount of time. It can be depressing- to stare at something that is dragging you down. But it's not about staring at them, it's about trying to figure them out and focusing on the good cards we have.  We can use so many different strategies.
There has to be a way to improve what we are doing. I can't let myself believe there isn't.


i always have this fantasy of running away and changing my name and being liable to nobody but that's just not how the world works. might have come from me watching skins a lot when i was younger and becoming fixated on these characters and why and how they ever felt free lol


Last time I was this early the uk was still in the European Union


My derealization went away for a while and I was so happy! I focused on not focusing (ha) on the issue and the intrusive thoughts and after months and months, it worked. Then summer came. I spent most of it in my room, which I'm not even upset about. Recently my family went on a week long trip. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to leave the house and travel places I've never been before. It was fun at first, then it wasn't. I started to get irritable. I hated everyone around me. Every little noise bugged me. For an entire day I refused to leave the van. When we got a hotel, I obsessively cleaned everything. The thoughts I managed to get rid of came back and I couldn't stop them. Nothing is real. Nothing matters. At night I would go into the hotel bathroom and cry. <br>My derealisation came back. It fucking sucks. And I don't know if I can last the months it's going to take to get rid of it again.

My derealization went away for a while and I was so happy! I focused on not focusing (ha) on the issue and the intrusive thoughts and after months and months, it worked. Then summer came. I spent most of it in my room, which I'm not even upset about. Recently my family went on a week long trip. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to leave the house and travel places I've never been before. It was fun at first, then it wasn't. I started to get irritable. I hated everyone around me. Every little noise bugged me. For an entire day I refused to leave the van. When we got a hotel, I obsessively cleaned everything. The thoughts I managed to get rid of came back and I couldn't stop them. Nothing is real. Nothing matters. At night I would go into the hotel bathroom and cry.
My derealisation came back. It fucking sucks. And I don't know if I can last the months it's going to take to get rid of it again.


I know this is a serious vid and all and I'm very very very very glad that you're attempting to be content in every moment (which is extremely healthy and helpful btw), BUT THE HARRY POTTER REFERENCE AT THE END I CANNOT CONTAIN MYSELF


I had a dream thing. Every so often I dream I can fly. When I'm depressed I don't have the flying dreams. Despite currently being depressed, I had one last night, and it felt so real I woke up and expected to be able to fly. I can remember the dream clearly. I can remember the way flying felt and the way air moved around me. In the dream I told someone what flying felt like "the weightlessness of swimming but I can breathe". I think it was my brain sort of reminding me that I wasn't always depressed, and that I won't always be. That I will be able to fly again.


You don't get happy, being happy is something you have to work on continuously. It is a journey, not a destination. You just gotta do it. (Just do it)


Moonith Monday's ayeee whatdup squad fam


hey dodie, i've related a lot to your struggles mentally, i also have anxiety and derealisation/depersonalisation and i fell into depression. i went to CBT for a while but it didn't really do much for me. recently i found a psychotherapist instead of a CBT therapist and she has helped me change my life. She wasn't on the NHS, she is private but luckily she has affordable prices. I hope CBT works for you, but if it doesn't (like me) I suggest looking into psychotherapists near you. It's completely different to CBT and I can't explain how much it's helping me through this. Thank you for being so honest through all of this I wish you the best 💕


Hi Dodie, I struggle with depersonalization too, alongside restless legs syndrome. Recently I read Norman Doige's "The Brain's Way of Healing." Experts in the book recommend patients to engage in vivid visualization when experiencing pain as a means of rewiring neural pathways to put a permanent end to chronic pain. The book mentions that depression can be cured in a similar method and I've been trying it out for my depersonalization and RLS. Hope this is helpful, and I wish you all the best (because you deserve it 😇)


dodie, I definitely recommend you read the book "The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma". I know it's mainly on trauma but one of the symptoms is deperosnalisation. The guy who wrote this basically describes different methods of therapy not including drugs and dunno maybe you'll find it interesting or helpful and try sth new like EMDR or I hear yoga really grounds you. wish u the best tho!!


Can you do a full cover of the song at the end aghhh you'd sound so gooodddd


I HOPE CBT IS GREAT MAKE SURE THEY TALK ABOUT THE CBT TRIANGLE ITS HELPED ME SO MUCH


Can't remember the last time I had 'that moment'. One of the worst things about depression imo is not only believing that you'll never be happy, but that you've never been happy either. Oh well. Life goes on.


I hope you can eventually feel the way you used to but I hope you still enjoy your time in America despite what's happening in your brain and dont feel bad if it seems like you are running away because honestly doing fun things for yourself might help I know it helps me to be doing things I typically enjoy even if I don't enjoy it as much because of my mind it still helps a bit


These kinda vids and reading comments of people who share the same struggles are so comforting. You're never alone. <3


for those signs there are only two letters for each letter. so she couldn't put a thougHts because there wasn't another h. I have the same sign and you can change what it says on it :)

she got it half price cos of the missing  H

There were only 2 H's in the pack she got (watch the very beginning of the vid again)

Kaya Donah I think there were not enough space ! 😂


listening to fun. brings back happier memories for me :)


about ur description: you don't necessarily have to close your eyes! I've done mindfulness too and closing my eyes made me freak out so my therapists told me I had to focus on one specific thing, for example a picture on the wall or something outside. It really helped for me!! maybe you can try it :) xx


If there's any specific places in your home that are connected to memories of being extremely depressed/depersonalized then try to switch the, around a bit and make it feel like a complete different place. While you're traveling currently think of places in some of your happiest memories and do some things to make each hotel/place you stay seem familiar and happier. Something that might help also is keeping a tiny notebook of some sort and carry it around with you throughout the day. Document the best parts of the day with as much detail as you can and also document your lows. At the end of the day go through them and remember all the lovely times of the day and go through the worst parts and try to think of ways you could prevent getting yourself into those situations tomorrow !

(This isn't very good advice and I'm no expert on helping people feel better, but I hope this helps someone anyway ?)


That Harry Potter reference tho. Love you dodie! 💛


+Alberto Droguett<br>holy cheese! are you ok?

+Alberto Droguett
holy cheese! are you ok?

Grace well I live near DC so I'ma bout to look into it


Dodie, you're probably never going to read this but I just need to say that you are so, so strong. I'm not just saying that because I watch your videos and your super talented, I'm saying this because I see beauty and strength in people and there is a lot in you. With all this madness in your head you are still such a lovely and coping person. It may not seem like your coping well, but your here and reading this right now. You're breathing, you have made it through another day and that's enough. Keep staying strong and we all love you.

Also if you could give this a like for Dodie to hopefully read this and maybe make her day that would be lovely thank you so much x


I've read that some mindfulness exercises (like closing your eyes and trying to relax) don't work for people with dissociation (and exacerbate it) so you might want to be careful about that


hey i really liked this kind of just you talking to us + the casual hanging out with josh in the end :) have fun in D.C.!! love u


God I've had a crush on you for such a long time, I wish I could re-wire your brain for you so badly I love you so so so much you don't even know🌻  also thanks for not going on that trip and coming to SITC as i got to meet you and that was the best moment in my entire life ❤ thank you for existing lol


with all the travels coming up, it may be easier to be in the present and really enjoy the next adventure. but with that said, it's important to take a step back and really notice where you are. just noticing and witnessing it without setting out to change your mental state is a good first step to being in the moment and appreciating who you are. i'd say that the rest of that comes later, but i can't say for sure based of my experiences. but good luck and do what you gotta do, girl!


I'm still finish to watch this video but I had to say how real you are. You're amazing. I wanna be your friend lel


To help rewire your brain, you can do some things you did as a child. It will make you remember how you felt in that moment.


Hi Dodie, Ive been dealing with anxiety for six years now( which sometimes leads me to have depressive episodes) and I can relate with the feeling of needing to run away from life and wanting to start fresh like mental illness will go away like magic. One thing that definitely helps is to accept that you have your mental illness and that you are not feeling ok, and not try to think i should happy, i shouldnt be feeling this way, etc. You can accept it and learn how to live with it by your side, since is something you can't make Go away. Doing so really helped me learn how to cope better with anxiety and panic attacks. Once you take that pressure out of yourself of needing to be better, ironically it makes you feel better. That doesnt mean letting It consume you, but more as If keep working on It but without trying to push It away. I know it sounds weird, but in a way, you need to be friends with your depression, because the more you try to push It aside the harder It is to heal it. And know that you have to be your friend during this period, and not Beat yourself down for feeling this. Accepting isnt easy, but with time and practice it will be and It makes dealing with it so much easier. I Hope my explanation wasn't to confusing. Stay strong Dodie, know that you can get through this hard period of your life.


Remember that CBT is a process! Your brain has been this way for years-- it's going to take a lot of time to rewire it! But it CAN be rewired! I've been going to therapy since March and putting the time in on the homework the therapist gives me really does help. Sometimes it's as simple as acknowledging your emotions and the physical state of your body to ground yourself and then to talk through in your brain whether your assumption about the world which is informing your actions is true. Love you lots! Hope the Con goes better than expected.


I wish that I could be happy with whatever comes to me that i can just see the best in everything that happens but it's not easy sometimes.


I wish I knew what the answer is, Dodie. I would tell you if I did! I don't suffer from depersonalization, but I could still relate to most of what you said in this video. Thank you for making it! It made me feel less lonely with these thoughts. <b>hugs</b> <3

I wish I knew what the answer is, Dodie. I would tell you if I did! I don't suffer from depersonalization, but I could still relate to most of what you said in this video. Thank you for making it! It made me feel less lonely with these thoughts. *hugs* <3