someone tell me why i painted my face like THaT

haha hi dodie! i think ur makeup looks quite nice :]

hey man theres nothing wrong with a little bit of paint

PLEAE tell me a version of this is on the new album!! It’s so beautiful

Dodie clark
Im a huge fan
You said youd be able to chat in the comments?
Could we talk?

lmao i love how you watch your own videos so many years later

We love that you still watch your old videos aha, one of your best songs ❤


The lyrics are getting better and better, this is incredible.

Teary eyed.

This song sends chills down my spine thank you dodie xx

@Life of BriBry I agree! I especially love how at first it was just 'she's full of belonging and so full of love' and at the end, it was 'THEY'RE full of belonging and so full of love' :)


When i first heard this song i was so touched, it was so beautiful and of course i began crying because i'm a hopeless sap. Then i watched the "i'm angry" video, and so i needed to listen to this again, and oh my lord i began sobbing, angry sobbing for someone thinking it is okay to treat another human being like dodie was treated, angry because poppy isn't aloud to dance, sad because she does what she's told and stays by his side, so so happy when she finds sammy, when she starts dancing again, happy for Dodie, for finding herself again, i am officially a messy rollercoaster of emotions, leave me alone! a need to love this song in peace!

Anyone know where I can find that "I'm angry" video?

MNTS the worst part is, poppy is dodies nickname.

DODIE'S "OTHER" NAME IS POPPY I JUST REALISED

<b>insert username</b> WHAT? You mean THE Sammy? Sammy Paul?

*insert username* WHAT? You mean THE Sammy? Sammy Paul?

insert username Poppy is Dodies childhood nickname
So technically it was actually her name

*insert username* Poppy is Dodies childhood nickname
So technically it was actually her name

@Emma i'm guessing it is somewhat inspired by reality, since it is fairly close to the original story that she told in the angry video, of course only dodie knows the real answer to this

I feel like the song has context now, even though that's probably  not what its about


"And when push comes to shove" I WILL SEND A FULLY ARMED BATTALION TO REMIND YOU OF MY LOVE-

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@Jabba the Hutts Thicc Juicy Rolls YOU'LL BE THE ONE COMPLAINING WHEN I AM GOOOOOONE

YOU SAY OUR LOVE IS DRAINING AND YOU CANT GO OOOOOOOOOOOOOON

αуαмє~¢нαη LMAO YES

αуαмє~¢нαη LMAO YES

You're a beautiful person

ps: DA DA DADA DA DA DA DA DADI YA DAA

Macelline Wishes thank you for living tbh

Macelline Wishes I LITERALLY HAD THE EXACT SAME REACTION AFTER BAWLING MY EYES OUT AT THIS SONG


I don't really relate to this song, but every time I hear it, sing it, or think of it I cry so much.

Bee Movie ME TOO this song is too fricking much 😭


Listen Dodie, I know that this is your least favorite song but I Appreciate it so much you have no idea how much I relate to this song. this song has literally saved my life

<b>Cough cough</b> After Ever After 3 just came out.

*Cough cough* After Ever After 3 just came out.

Paint well well looks like someone can look into the future

Please please please! I need an ep of this

Sorry! this all is just happening because I made a reply saying that I was sad cause they weren't on good terms. I realise now that its really immature for me to do that. ill delete my speculating comments

Paint the 2nd EP is coming now so get on it

doddleoddle hrmmmmmmmmm I'm so proud of you, the feeeeeeeeeeelllllssss

Paint ok so we have the ep where is after ever after 3?!?

doddleoddle well the EP is out but, wheres after ever after 3 at???

I just seen this now, and the EP is out soon AHDHSBHAHQHHKAJSJAJWH

Jon please come out with ever after three soon!!! I need a doddleoddle ep

I will release EP when after ever after 3 comes out<br>(miss u!)

I will release EP when after ever after 3 comes out
(miss u!)


Me: Yo, pas de deux

Friend: You better not play trash

Me: plays this

Me: Yo, pas de deux

Friend: You better not play trash

Me: *plays this*

yo, pass the deux sounds like something Jesse would say..i. too much breaking bad

shiiiittttt i thought i was the only one who thought about this

Aesthetic Goals that's right, however, in this context it refers to a dance.

in this sense, it's supposed to be "pass the aux" but pas de deux, in french, directly translates to "not of two"

i'mTones what does pas de deux EVEN MEAN

i'mTones I always thought of this and wanted to post this

NO JOKE EVERY TIME I SEE THIS TITLE I READ IT AS 'PASS THE AUX'

TonyIsUnknown I DIDN'T <b>cries dramatically</b>

TonyIsUnknown I DIDN'T *cries dramatically*

TonyIsUnknown Don't worry, You're a genius

TonyIsUnknown It took me a moment but when I got it omg

Lucy I was scared people wouldnt get it lmao

TonyIsUnknown THIS IS MY FAVOURITE THING EVER YOU WIN THE INTERNET

TonyIsUnknown friend: Omg this is  so beautiful who is this lovely woman!?


I wish this song was on your Spotify, it’s in my top three of your songs! You are an amazing musician and songwriter. I can’t wait to hear more songs in 2020


watching his after hearing dodie talk about her own abuse story is so heartbreaking


I think it's important point out that this can happen to both genders.

I've had a girlfriend that tried her hardest to make me stop acting to the point where she was actually saying I was worthless, needless to say I broke up with her and now I'm going out with the most amazing girl ever, however it's left me with anxiety and depression

@Liam Callaghan I think it's just bc in general people tend to think of guys being the toxic ones, but you're right she never said that

jeez, i'm glad you got out of that situation

The Gamer Geek Of course. We're all human, toxicity has nothing to do with gender

You're right, but why even bring that up? She didn't say it couldn't. Anyway, I am very sorry to hear that she did that to you.


@Tessa Violet It's great to see the 2 of you signing together. What a great combo!:)

@doddleoddle My head might explode you are so amazing :) Not literally tho. I hope :/ Seriously, your song writing is beautiful, I can only hope that I will turn out to be half the music-y person you are <3


i've listened to this song so many times before but i've just now realized that she used the name poppy and in another video she's said that she used to use poppy as a "fake" name

the one where she says poppy is a name she uses for herself is "you got questions kid? i got answers"

Jane The Hedgie it's called angry, on doddlevloggle

she made a video about 'tommy' named angry on goddlevloggle


My little music brain noticed that even thought the walking on eggshells and walking on water choruses where the same melody, walking on water was higher, fitting with the line "he lifts her above."


"She's given up dancing. Tommy says she's too old." You are NEVER too old for your dreams!! Don't ever let anyone tell you different, you are gorgeous and beautiful and you matter!


Pas de deux  would be even greater with violin

wish she’d done a string version of it for BAP deluxe 😭

I may do it soon i just finished a kakariko village orchestral cover which ill upload soon and i love this song <3 ill cover it soon if yall interested subscribe to get notified when I upload it <3

Salima Sahraoui I actually played it on my violin and it does sound amazing!


Listening to this after her video "Angry" makes me feel really sad.

Emrys Yamanishi it was about her experience being in an abusive relationship

Anyone know where to find that video? I can't find it?

also in her "you got questions kid? i got answers" video she says she wishes her name was poppy and it's like her second name. made me cry

i literally just watched that video again and came back to this song

i was looking for this comment because I'm physically in pain right now with sadness :/

They're deleting Club Penguin... ;'( RIP!!

Destination Neverland would you please delete your comment, dodie has said that she doesn't want names written in the comments

in a Q&A she said that her mom wanted to nickname her Poppy

And it makes sense as when she was in Amsterdam she got called "Poppy" in starbucks so it could be where she got the idea to use Poppy as a name for her.

AislinnSmall AndMighty angry on doddlevloggle

@Iris Manning omg right I've had this account this I was 5 and honestly the nostalgia

+Zaina Soliman || Sorry to get off topic, but oml, your profile picture... #i-remeMBER

@Jason Cromwell Well...all of it basically

Makes you kinda wonder how much of it was autobiographical?

Yeah same, when I watch that video I kept thinking of this song.


this was the era that i found dodie and i was in a rlly rlly bad place then, and all of her songs were an oasis for me. 6th to 7th grade was when i really learned what it's like to never be happy. and im kind of going back to that  place, and so im coming back to these old videos and they're such a soothing spot for me to be.


Anytime I hear Dodie it's seriously like pure art pouring from her lips, it's so gorgeous and just so pleasing.. She's what I listen to while trying to get through stressful situations.


Who's here after her throwback livestream revisiting all the songs she played??


I think it's crazy a song so beautiful was made in the flat in which I live. So amazing. <3 💜

I still love this song even though it's so simple and I can in no way relate. So simple and yet so amazingly beautiful!

+Evan Edinger Why? Do you think it's not possible for such a pure song to come out of a flat that desperately needs cleaning? XD lol, just kidding.

@Ysabelle L You're allowed to ship whoever you want! It's your opinion, however Evan is kinda uncomfortable with people openly shipping it, so ship quietly please. 😊

@Izzy Rose You're allowed to ship them platonically any time I would say


But Tommy seemed like Sam in the beginning...they sort of always do.

+Tina Redwood well Dodie wrote a song about being "down" as well if you wanna check that out,

@Logan Brownell Yeah, but in the moment, you don't hear the difference.

I wrote that comment while I was a bit down, by the way. I understand the concept of the song- but thank you for pointing that out ^-^

Tommy: She's so full of belonging SHES so full of love

Sam: They're so full of belonging THEYRE so full of love


Oh my gosh dodie put a 2020 edit in the description XD we love u dodie either way! Stay awesome luv!


Dear 2020 edit of Dodie, <br>You're wrong, you look so pretty!!!!! 🥺💕

Dear 2020 edit of Dodie,
You're wrong, you look so pretty!!!!! 🥺💕


Whenever Dodie sings "now she's given up dancing" I break down sobbing. To have to give up something you love because of something else you think you need is horrible. I can't stand the thought of being held back from singing, or playing the piano, because I'm stuck in a crappy relationship. No matter what people say, keep doing what you love doing (as long as it's legal) and remember that love shouldn't keep you from doing what you're passionate about :)

if you love, then you love, and you love, because you can love. And you do love. and your sam is out there. every sam is out there.

Invisible Child me too I really do rn let’s give each other hugs

Invisible Child O NO THATS NOT GOOD MAY I GIVE YOU A HUG

Same at this point I don't love anyone more than music, probably all equally


Poppy = Dodie (she's said that Poppy is her 'fake name' that she uses when she gets coffee sometimes)
Tommy = Tom Law, Dodie's ex
Sam = Sammy Paul, Dodie's current boyfriend

I always thought Sammy was gay, I didn't think I'd made it up either but okAY

WTH?!? I never knew Dodie and Sam dated! OoO

+Juliette S sick of losing soulmates isn't about a relationship she's experienced it's her thinking about if she was in a relationship while in the mental state she was in when she wrote it how toxic it could be

for everyone's confusion -
Sick of Losing Soulmates is about Sammy and how he helped her cope with her toxic relationship with Tom. It's not about her being sad that they are no longer together,  it's about her being sad that Tom was pushing her away from her friends. Her dating Sammy wasn't something that was going to last forever, but she still wants to be friends with him because he helped her, he's her soulmate. (it's all in the explanation and tutorial video of the song on doddlevloggle)

"Dancing" doesn't have one meaning behind it, in my opinion. I personally think it's a mixture of things: Her friends, her music, and everything combined that makes her... her.

BoredwithYoutube_  you can look up "Tom Law and Dodie Clark" and you can find videos of them!

BoredwithYoutube_ he's on YouTube BTW. There are vids of him and dodie together. He has a channel

FrootTube i wish they were still dating, but im very happy they are good friends now.

Potter! At The Disco no, dodie actually dances. Well, she used to.

I just saw this comment and I think I'm gonna cry.

+Rachael Earl  yeah i was thinking yesterday and i thought maybe it has something to do with Social dance?

+Potterhead Lumos I think the dancing is sort of like a metaphor. Tom was controlling and told poppy she couldn't do what she wanted to do or be what she wanted be, where as sammy loved poppy for who she was and encouraged her to do what she wanted to do

But if Poppy's a dancer means Dodie's a singer, then does that mean "now she's given up singing, Tom says she's to old"? Or is it not about singing?

If any of you have watched "Blue Sushi" Written by:Bertie Gilbert, and Sammy Paul. One of the main character's actor's is Poppy Harold also, Dodie was part of the cast for this ;p Just a fun little thing that also relates to the song.

+CaffeinatedOwl I think 'dancing' is more being with friends. Dodie has said she's very much a people person and friends seem incredibly important. she's also said when she was in that abusive relationship, he isolated her from her friendship group and didn't want her to hang out with any of them and she felt really alone. so to me the part about going "back to the studio" is about returning to her friends and the part that she is "what's right" about hearts and bodies intertwined is about being with her friends again and just being overwhelmed by how much she loves them all and is enjoying her life so much more. idk tho that's just my interpretation

I think Poppy being a dancer is supposed to symbolize DODIE being a musician.

+FrootTube WAIT. Sammy's dating Dodie ???? Da fuq

+Janiya Nealey Dodie took ballet lessons for a second time (I think) when she played a character in a play :)

+alexa m.l (plunt) No its about being romantically involved with the guy that "saved" her from the manipulative relationship, they fell in love and broke up "lost another soulmate" and she's sick of losing her loved ones just because theyre not together anymore in a romantical way

+CaffeinatedOwl yeah, the girl i replied to was talking about it. i just wanted to tell her how dodie had explained the meaning of that song :)

I believe that's her other song, 'Sick of Losing Soulmates' ? I could be wrong though.

+cielt17  she explained that it was about her being sick of losing her best friends (her soulmates), and it was inspired by a bad, manipulative relationship she was in where her partner didn't allow her to be with her friends, and therefore she thought she was losing them

+Marlies Veenstra its more about losing friends after being romantically involved with them I think

aw Sammy and her aren't together anymore :((((

+Marlies Veenstra she did an explanation video about sick of losing soul mates on 'doddlevloggle'

@Hana wasnt that song about losing friends? She told that ones

yOU CRACKED THE CODE.<br>also she and Sammy broke up, but that's what "sick of lousing soulmates" is about.

yOU CRACKED THE CODE.
also she and Sammy broke up, but that's what "sick of lousing soulmates" is about.

+Hana Bryanne yeah, Dodie tweeted a while ago that they had broken up but they are still good friends :) <br>Xx

+Hana Bryanne yeah, Dodie tweeted a while ago that they had broken up but they are still good friends :)
Xx

I was thinking this, and maybe dancing was acting? She was in that sketch with Sammy. Although they've broken up now, it's still a cute story.


This song is absolutely beautiful! I think the fact that I am a ballet dancer definitely adds to the feeling that this song gives me.


I hope you’re ok. What you said is true. Just keep believing in yourself.

I don’t even know you, but seeing that made me swell with pride. Keep living for you <3


I just realized she recently uploaded a video of her and Sammy dancing. I know they're just friends, I just meant the comment as "Look, that's quite a cute coincidence." :)

You mean a coincidance I know it's two years late 😁

Iris Manning and they managed to stay friends

And then Sick of Losing Soulmates is about Dodie and Sam learning to stay friends after they broke up.

ya this is about the abusive relationship and then sammy and her dating afterwards

+Emma Sneden yes, The song sick of losing soulmates is about that

I believe she did date Sammy in the past though, didn't she?


"She's walking on rivers." Is she Jesus?

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THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD HAHAHAAHAHAHAA

Fr. What I first thought when I heard this line

i know im like a year late but mannnnn that made me laugh so much

Lilimena Mi Amore lol you commented this almost a year ago😂😂😂

Lilimena Mi Amore I believe it’s a reference to swan lake or another ballet


Firstly that was amazing. Those lyrics!

Also, such an emotional song and then this: 4:16

<3


You look like you could be on Doctor Who 😍😍😍 Btw I love the song.

Omg she looks so much like Amy pond please be the new companion!

Tanya Montana <br>I just had a Dalek blast through my hearts. I just imagined the Doctor listening to Dodie singing and just 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Tanya Montana
I just had a Dalek blast through my hearts. I just imagined the Doctor listening to Dodie singing and just 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

+Tanya “Terror” Montana DOCTOR X DODIE YASSSSSSS

DON'T IMAGINE HER SINGING HER FAVORITE SONGS S TO HERSELF IN THE T.A.R.D.I.S. AND THE DOCTOR LOOKING AT IN A LOVING WAY THINKING OF EVERY OTHER COMPANION. DON'T THINK OF HIM STARING AT HER EVERY SO OFTEN AND ALL SHE DOES IS SMILE AND SAY WHAT AND OH MY GOD IT HASN'T HAPPENED  BUT I SHIP IT

+Phil Lester omg she actually does! What?!

awdhgeilwiu4hb0[8a3htng  YES! anyone else think she sort of looks like Karen Gillan AKA Amy Pond?

Imagine her as the new companion. That would be awesome :3

If she was on Doctor who i would die of feels


Things get a bit louder, Tommy's focused on plants.

Hey it's Hayley Thats what i was gonna say omg

Blue Pancakes Genius minds think alike. 😉😂

omg. I thought about that before i saw your comment 😂😂😺

Hey it's Hayley OMG. The Phandom is EVERYWHERE!


I fully disagree with the 2020 edit. I think you look beautiful!


When I first heard this song I enjoyed it but couldn't relate to it until after my over two year unhealthy, awful relationship. I'm struggling to forget my "Tommy" but I'm getting so much better. I feel the guilt Poppy felt, yet relief. This song makes me cry yet feel so happy in a way. It's nice to listen to on replay


Can this be made into a properly produced song/out on spotify?!


I know this video was posted years ago, but I love these lyrics! They’re truly gorgeous and relatable, as a dancer. Hats off to you, Dodie. 💕


3:12 I love the way the mood of her singing changes.


All of dodie's songs give me the best tingling sensation and I love it so much! Will never stop watching ❤


I'm so jealous of your song writing abilities fuckkkk dodie this is good <3

@Rachel Mcbride We have the same goals then! WHY MUST THEY HAVE SUCH AN AWESOME FRIENDSHIP! or more importantly WHY DONT I HAVE AN AWESOME FRIENDSHIP LIKE THAT?!!?!!!!

@musicalbethan Both of you write bloody amazing songs :P


I'm watching this right after Dodie's vlog "angry" and I see this song more seriously than before and love it that much more. It spreads such an important message and Dodie, you are so brave for not only spreading your message through that vlog, but also into a beautiful song. I am so sorry you went through that horrible relationship and I am very proud of you for getting out of it. I wish you the best! :)


I go back to this song like 4 times a day. it gives me chills!


Back here like 6 years later and DODIE PLEASE GIVE THIS A GLOWUP. Like imagine it with a string section ooooooc


I loved this song when it first came out and I related to it purely because I was a dancer and I liked the song. I thought it was beautiful and well written.

2 years later I met my Tommy. I struggled for a year with Tommy, I quit dancing. I loved him with all my being to be awfully mistreated in return. I defined myself by him. It took drastic changes to get away.

8 months later, I met my Sam. I have just listened to this song again and related in a completely different way. I am truly touched and I have never sobbed over a song so much in my life. Thank you, Dodie, for this beautiful piece of art work which gives so many of us so much hope. ❤


Your voice suits this song so well, it is really a beautiful cover and shows how well you can play piano.

not really true. Stephen Sondheim wrote "A Very Nice Prince", which is for an operatic (female) soprano. not exactly the most flattering for his voice. dodie has a special ability to write songs that suit her.

Well it is an original created by her. It is only natural that it would suit her voice.

Haha no I jus commented too early and I thought it was soo good, basically professional song writing, so I didnt think it was Dodies

It's alright :) I thought I was the one mistaken, didn't meant to sound rude or anything if that's the way you took it (english is not my first lenguage so I have problems with this kind of thing)

I know I commented when she finished singing before she Dodie started talking and I thought it was sozzles.

It was a cover? It says original song (?)


You're going to release an album in 6 years. It'll be amazing and you've come so far.


I just watched the video you posted on doddlevloggle. All I can say is you are so brave and no one should have to go through what you went through.


After seeing her video on doddlevloggle called angry I came straight to this one and listened again. I know Dodie says some songs aren't based on reality or her but this song really struck a chord after seeing her new video. This made me cry the first time I saw it but I might be wrong and getting the wrong idea from her newest video on her vlog channel.


This is an older song but it’s my favorite, this will probably never be seen, but I’d love if Dodie would put this on Spotify!!🙂


Here after the 2020 throwback show in tears at how gorgeous this song is. I'M SO SAD AND NOSTALGIC.


When you know the full story it's even more heartbreaking


when she sang "she's walking on rivers" 3:39 you can see how genuinely happy + proud she is of poppy/dodie


i remember listening to this song when i was 13, thinking 16 was old. girl i have something to tell you-


Is it strange that the whole time I was thinking of My Kindergarten Boyfriend and I was just waiting for her to say, "Then he woke up".

Nati anne he was sweet, he said that I was smart (says no one to me ever) (except my parents)

Nati anne shoOT I JUST STARTED THINKING OF THAT

:(

Also, OMG SOMEONE ELSE KNOWS HEATHERS

I'm glad you watched Heathers.

Martha is more than..

Was it Ram?


AHH THE DESCRIPTION

I’m so glad you didn’t take this down I love this song

You also look really cute


Heard this song while in an abusive relationship without realizing it. Told myself over and over again it was just me being an empath to this song. I dumped him and now I’m talking to a new boy almost a year later. This song means the world to me. Thank you dodie


"Poppys a dancer,just turned 16" THATS ME IM SOBBING HELP 😭


Dodie literally has the most polite fan base ever I love it.


i’m just here to say that i’ve found my “sam” and he’s so kind and gentle and oh so funny. we’ve both been damaged by our own “tommy” but together we’re learning how to love again. i’ve never been happier or healthier than i am.

Yay! I'm so glad you guys found each other :)


Finally found the strength to leave my "Tommy" after two years right before I turned 16. I've since found my "Sam" and I couldn't be happier with her. We're even about to move in together 😊


back after she’s played this for the last time on live :,)


Dodie please don't be ashamed of your appearance choices from so long ago. You were just in a process of finding your identity! That's so normal and it got you to where you are now and love yourself <3


Am I the only one who got kinda sad when Dodie said this was probably her least favorite song she’s made?


I came here after watching your "Angry" video. When I watched that video I kept thinking of this song and how it has more meaning now knowing it's based off a personal experience. I am sorry you went through that Dodie and I am glad you had amazing people in your life help you get out of it and are still there for you. I wish you the best ❤


Shakes me up that something so tender can be so strong in its meaning. Adore you. x


I have listened to this song so many times I just love the meaning and piano playing. And can I just say your voice is AMAZING!! I strongly suggest you should put this on Spotify or something so I can listen to it everywhere not just on youtube.


Petition to release pas de deux as a single or have it on the next album


This song means the world to me and if you sang it on a live god Dodie 🥺🥰🤍


my girlfriend showed me this beautiful song and the more I listen, the more meaningful it gets, but in a much happier way. plus makes me wanna go have a little twirl and dance with my female version of Sammy, also known as buttercup. so exited to see dodie live in two days!


This was so so so incredible & beautiful!


this will always be one I'm my favorite songs by you.


This has so much more depth to me after 'angry' on her your channel. Casually sat here sobbing 😢


you do NOT look hideous in this video !!! >:(


This was the first song I ever heard by dodie, and it introduced me into this whole world of hers and it has truly taken me on an adventure in and of itself alongside the adventure that is life. I was obsessed with this when it was released, but as more music was released i forgot about it and it fell behind. Now, years later and with tons of new experiences I've lived through including an abusive relationship with a Tommy and finding my Sammy but losing him, I remembered this song. As soon as I played it I started crying. It's insane to think of how this song went from being something simple and pretty to suddenly holding all this deep meaning that I didn't notice at first. And it's amazing to see how far dodie has come too. It's comforting in a way. We have grown and risen above our problems together, somehow. Thanks to this song, dodie was intertwined with my life in a way that shaped me into who I am in many ways. Thank you Dodie, I love you ❤


"And when push comes to shove"

I WILL SEND AN ARMY OF BATTALIONS TO REMIND YOU OF MY LOVE

DADADADAT-DA DATDADATDADAAAYYYADA DA DA


I want this music on Spotify! You just sound sooo great and lovely and soft

I just came here for this comment, i want this song on Spotify sooo bad!


This is still one of my favorite songs that she's ever written.


This is so beautiful! Can't stop listening to this x


I can't get through this song without crying so hard which doesn't make sense because I can't relate

I can relate and that's why its so sad...

Same, I learnt it on the piano and I always end up teary eyed by the end.

I guess it's just because it sounds kinda sad.. I had the same thing.

+FarmerMayhem actually that's the DEFINITION of sympathy rather than empathy (Because he can't relate to it it isn't empathy.)

+Abigail Palmer that happened to me, I haven't experienced what poppy has been through but I still cried

+Abigail Palmer Gosh I i feel so relatable. :(


Watching this after her "angry" video on her vlog channel is truly beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time.


This song is so amazing, I can't stop listening to it... The words and music is beautiful and so original and true... You're so talented!


I never realised why it hurt so much to sing this until I got out of the relationship. I was truly very in love with her and she hurt me deeply. She told me i couldn’t do theatre anymore because I had to kiss people on the stage and that wasn’t allowed and I’d be cheating on her and I trusted her. As usual I was wrong. It got to the point she wouldn’t let me leave the house and I was googling how to cover up bruises. It was only when my little sister got into a similar relationship did I realise there was something wrong. so i broke up with her so Clara would do the same. And I hate that it came to that. I miss her. Every day. But my life’s better without her in it. I’ve said goodbye to my tommy, but I haven’t met my Sam yet.. fingers crossed.


I love this song so much.  You're amazing, dodie. It has such a strong message and a lovely tune.


My friend just showed me this song. I just got out of a very abusive relationship about 5 months ago and what gave me the strength to break it off was seeing my aunt and uncle and their relationship and mine was nothing like it. And I'm now talking to this extremely amazing guy and it's totally different. So this fits my story very well and this is my new favorite song!!!! ♥♥♥

+Emma Backer thank you! It's gotten a lot better, can only go up from where I was! Btw, I'm in love with you picture!!!

+Kaylene Kales good luck on your future gorgeous xx

+Aisling Johnson they are. Very much so. Thank you.

+Kaylene Kales I hope things are better? ☺

Good luck on your future, beautiful girl! (:


This song is so beautiful. One of my favourites from dodie! 💕


Dodie I want you to know that this song helped me through so much yesterday. Thank you for doing what you do.


This story is heart-breaking and lovely. What a redemptive story. Thank you for getting me through so many rough times. <3


I can see this fitting in perfectly in a musical it's so gorgeous


I still think this is one of my favorite dodie songs and I'm not really sure why but it just is


The tune makes me think of "Toy Story" at times. So beautiful, been listening through the playlist of your songs. But I keep coming back to this one.❤ So talented. Come to Ireland sometime.


This song reminded me that my relationship was unhealthy and it's helped me realize that it wasn't okay and that's not what real, true love is like. Thank you dodie. I love you 💛


2020 edit - you look great, then and now. honestly.


I’m not sure what enormous pool of emotions and creativity this comes from, but please please please don’t ever stop drawing from it.  Like ever.


This song is one of my all time favourites. It kind of grounds me and the story just resonates with me really well. Which is why I just had to play it as an opening for the performance I had to do for my graduation party. (I filmed and uploaded it btw, if anyone wants to see/hear it. It's part of last month's VEDJ)


I was searching for Tchaikovsky's Pas de deux from the Nutcracker.

I do not regret clicking here. 👍


I heard this song and I inmediatly thought of one of my best friends, who just got out of a really unhealthy and toxic relationship. I absolutly adored the song and I wished I could play the piano so I could perform it to her. I'll guess I'll send her the link and maybe sing it. Thanks for making this song, it was great as always <3


This is one of my favorite songs you've written - okay all of your songs are my favorite. Each one is so beautiful. Thank you


this song gives me vibes of a rainy sunday afternoon. this is so beautiful, i've been listening to this (+ dodies new ep!) all day!


You're so talented thank you for being so amazing my friend showed me this and this really is helping me through a rough time in my life right now so thank you <3


This is still my favourite video of yours. Always make me both happy and sad at the same time. You are so talented


If you're thinking about doing a studio version of any of your old songs on your next EP, I'd love to have this one on Spotify! It's so emotional and beautiful! But I can understand if it's too painful.


This is the first song I learned how to play in the piano I just learned today :)) thanks dodie🖤


this is one of my oldest favorites ❤ still love it a lot!! it's crazy how much older she sounds now though


This will forever be one of my favourite songs written by you. I love it so much. Stories like this happen to so many people and it is such powerful message and so inspiring (I mean the last few verses). It makes me happy. Thank you so much <3


"He doesn't wear glasses, but he loves how she dances and he'll hold her hand" one of the cutest and sweetest lyrics of all time ❤


i think this is my new favorite. less of "you" and "i" but more of a story which i really enjoy.<br>thank you so much for this one... two years late

i think this is my new favorite. less of "you" and "i" but more of a story which i really enjoy.
thank you so much for this one... two years late


This song made me cry. You are so talented, and this so really sheds light on how shitty emotionally abusive relationships are. Thank you for this.


I freaking love this one so much and you're so strong Dodie. I love you xx


This song made me cry from sadness and then happiness when poppy found Sam and I love your song so much ad you're voice is so amazing and beautiful and calming which is great because I have minor anxiety and a family full of mental health issues.  I came out to my family today about being bi and it was actually fine :) I'm so happy!!! Thank you for all your music and I love you so much! 💜💜💜


why do we overlook this song so much nowadays


This is the type of song that sounds happy until you really listen to the lyrics, then it's a really tragic story, an amazing song, one of my favorites by you!


I jus checked out Rise Above and I love it so much!! Thank you for sharing it with us, I feel so much better after spending time looking through some of their stuff. Thank you!!! 💖💖


This killed me now, bye. This is too beautiful and precious im dead💜


I've never cried because of a song before. I cried because of this one. Thank you for creating something so beautiful, heartfelt, and important. This is something that everybody should hear.


I love this song so much. The lyrics are so beautiful. I cried


2019 anybody?
Of course you are, because we still have this situation reaching into every heart.
❤
Absolutely magical dodie x


I love this song so much!!! When I heard Dodie is coming out with a new EP I started praying that this is on! Beautiful song!! ❤


This is one of my favorite songs Dodie! It's amazing!


This song gives me dear Evan Hansen vibes

Pretty Chicken I WAS JUST THINKING THAT.. LIN MANUEL BETTER GET ON THAT

ugh still writing and i have a few years till college idk how this will work

How is the challange going? It sounds too good to be true.

I'm doing a degree in musical theatre can I be in it?

+Hey There Lucy YES I'M GONNA BE A FILM MAJOR SO I'LL TRY TO MAKE A MOVIE WITH MOST OF HER SONGS

so basically, challenge accepted

+Hey There Lucy THIS NEEDS TO HAPPEN THO CMON GUYS

THIS IS A GREAT THREAD
I LIKE THIS THREAD
I SUPPORT THIS THREAD

+Hey There Lucy Has this happened yet? It would be amazing, can feel the love for it already :')

So did anyone make this a story? Cuz if nobody else wants to I will. My wattpad is itskitkatkatrina

+Hey There Lucy I'd love to write this as a story/fanfiction, but unfortunately my english isn't the best. Are you planning to write it? Cause if so, I'd love to read! <3

+Riley Poll what's your wattpad? I have 2, L_A_Helio and MissLucyM :D

I'll start writing a plot😏 on wattpad tho

+Hey There Lucy how's the plot going ;) that was legit the best idea ever <333

+Abena Abban YES WE ARE DOING THIS I NEED A PLOT GUYS HELP

@Hey There Lucy Why aren't we doing this? I'm all in.

@Hey There Lucy i am all for this, why are we not funding this


this is one of my favorite songs by dodie because the music and lyrics are so sweet....


i've been playing this on replay for hours on end and it reminds me of still hurting from "the last five years"


this song is from ages ago but i'm so obsessed the story you tell here just amazing

i want to play this at my wedding


Watching this for the first time in a while, and since before I listened to it before I knew what the lyrics were talking about, but I didn't really know what they MEANT. Everything changes you, you can be made cold by an experience, or made better. 'Poppy' was definitely made better. Beautiful song, beautiful lyrics, beautiful meaning, all by a beautiful woman. Love you Dodie <3


You might have forgotten me but I certainly haven't forgotten you Dorothy Clark. I always feel inclined to pop back to see how your doing and it looks like your doing pretty well! Keep it up Dodie your doing so well, plus your looking amazingly beautiful there too! Keep going Dodo ;)

Lol will how could I forget you<br>Miss you! Hope you're good :D <3

Lol will how could I forget you
Miss you! Hope you're good :D <3


I LOVE this! This is one of my favourites!


can we just have a moment of appreciation for dodie's little laugh at the beginning?


Beautiful song🖤 so in love with it💜 it is so calming and perfect🖤


I used to be in a relationship with someone all my friends said was emotionally abusive, I left them and am now with someone who treats me better than I could have ever imagined, and this song describes exactly how I've felt, many tears rn


Dodie this is brilliant! I may have teary eyes now :')

@Laura Wales promise im not stalking you or anything i just seem to find you everywhereeeeee ;)

Thank you very much Lily! You're so lovely💗 @Lily's Library

I love your channel Laura 💕 you're one of my favourite youtubers 💗


Im almost 2 years late but that was extremely amazing! Dodie this is amazing and amazing and all I can say is that this is amazing❤😂


I love crying when listening to music because it’s so beautiful, and meaningful and sad at the same time


Dodie, words cannot express how much this song means to me. I remember listening to this and crying for quite some time. Your words and captivating voice gave me the strength to leave my abusive boyfriend. I cannot even begin to thank you for this. You mean so much to me Dodie 💘


this will always be one of my favourite songs of yours.


Whyyyy is the top comment about your piano technique?!? This song made me cry both from sadness and joy, seriously one of the best songs I have ever heard <3 <3 thanks!


dodie was in this sort of realationship at one point and im just thinking about how much of this is based on her experiences, not dancing but other stuff...also watching this after her video on doddlevloggle 'angry' made me almost cry


I just finished Dodie’s book.
I’m going through and listening to the songs she put in the book.
I might be crying a little.


I still listen to this song all the time. Please put on Spotify🥺


This song made me cry. Like wow. I have never been in an abusive relationship but somehow I can have empathy towards this and I'm not sure how. Dodie, your songs somehow are capable of emitting me emotions that I haven't felt in a long time. Your songs often bring me to different places in different parts of my mind that I cannot describe. You are so incredibly brave. Thank you.


I love your music so much especially all of your original songs. There's a few that I've listened to about a dozen times and they're just so lovely and calming and wonderful and sad. This one made my heart ache. You're voice is so moving and your lyrics are always descriptive and whenever I listen to you sing I can imagine the story in my head.

Just wanted to let you know that. C:

I feel exactly the same! This song creates suuucccchhhh vivid imagery! beautiful story!


I’m sobbing so hard this is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen


¡Me encantó la canción! ❤ da un gran mensaje ;)


I fell in love with this song as soon as I heard it, about a year ago, and could not help but listen to on repeat for hours. It is incredibly written, and I love the story endlessly.
A few nights ago, I couldn't sleep and was just laying in my bed, with this song filling my mind. This was the product. I do hope you like it ×

There once was an eleven year old girl named Poppy, and she was a dancer. Everyday, she would sit on the steps outside her family's flat in London, and would just watch the world pass. Eventually, she got into the habit of watching one particular boy, who would walk down the street every day with his mother. He wore high socks, shiny black shoes, brown corduroy trousers, and a white button down shirt. The one thing that always caught Poppy's eyes were his glasses. They were far too large for his face, and he was always pushing them up his nose with his index finger. She learned that the boy's name was Tommy, and began to become close with him. By the time they were both sixteen, they had been together for three years, four months, and seventeen days. Poppy wore red lipstick often, as her mother usually did before she had passed away nine months earlier. She had large hazel eyes that, during the winter, would turn a mixture of gray and dark green. Her light brown hair went down to her waist, and she was complimented on it frequently. She was slightly taller than average for a girl her age, being 5'9, but her hands could fit into the mittens of a child. Tommy had developed broad shoulders and a large chest, but his face still resembled that of his mother's. His eyes were a spectacular blue, and still hidden behind a pair of specs, which he had come to grow in to. His hair was as golden as grain, and swept to the right across his forehead. They were a lovely couple. On many nights, they would go out into the city in which they lived and simply admire their surroundings. She would hold his hand tightly, as he let his fingers dangle between hers. She would often catch him staring at the night sky, lost in his own mind, while hers was utterly focused on him. This didn't bother her, as she knew his thoughts were almost always occupied with plans. Plans of the future, of his career, of anything but where he was at the very moment. As time passed, Tommy's childlike smile was replaced with an aggressive face, and he instead spent his nights responding to emails, rather than with her. He had decided that Poppy should give up dancing, for she was too old, and she should rather focus on him, on them. Of course she disagreed, but she did as she was told. However, one day, she decided that he could not control her any longer. So she went back to her old studio.
And she danced.
Poppy decided to say goodbye to Tommy, and to finally be free.
Then, one day as she was sitting on the front steps of her new flat in Birmingham, a young man named Sam, who kept messy brown hair that fell just above his cheeks, and the deepest, most gentle brown eyes she had ever seen, approached her, and began a conversation.


Dodie you are so extraordinarily talented! I love all of your songs but this is my very favorite song. You are just so amazing ❤❤❤


This has to be the most beautifully written underrated song ever I love it so much I cry every time

Yeah... For most of her songs, the Onion King comes in my room and slices 10 million onions. That's why I'm crying. NOT BECAUSE HER SONGS ARE SO AMAZINGLY WRITTEN.....


Dodie PLEASE put this on spotify!!! It's sooo beautiful!!! I'm crying


Every time I listen to this song I cry. Thank you for this song!


While reading your book I just looked up this song and I love it so much, not only am I a dancer but the lyrics are so meaningful when hearing your story behind it. Love this song.


Absolutely beautiful, as a dancer this brought me to tears....<3


One of the very few songs that makes me cry every time I listen. ❤


your songs give me shivers, I just found your channel but I've already fallen in love with your original songs, I doubt you'll see this comment but I really hope you keep on writing and singing songs, I love your voice!


Having gotten out of an abusive relationship, this song is so beautiful to me because it's such a real thing for me


this reflects how i feel in my marriage at the moment. brought my heart to tears. thanks for being the words that my emotions couldnt say.

@Jade bannister that is such a beautiful way to put any song 'the words that my emotions couldn't say' <br>I hope you find happiness

@Jade bannister that is such a beautiful way to put any song 'the words that my emotions couldn't say'
I hope you find happiness

jade :"( i really hope you're okay ♥ I understand xoxo


Dodie said that this was her least fav song of hers it’s so beautiful


I still love this song! It is also wonderful seeing dance terms in songs, pretty casual.


Dodie you're so powerful. I love your music💕


Gaaaahhh your voice is so amazing!! I can't stop listening to your stuff!! :)


Beautiful song Dodie :') I loved it its one of those songs that gets to your heart <3 and your voice is so soft and calm ugh I love it. Also may I suggest that you put the lyrics on the description? Idk I think it would be nice for all of us whose first language isn't english, anyway I'm so proud of you

Agh yes! Will do once I'm at a laptop :)♥♥


Please please please include this in your next ep or album, I LOVE IT SO MUCH. You touch my heart.


So relatable to what I've been through. Never loose yourself for someone else. Be strong and keep you as you. Never let someone else define you. You have more power than you realise


reading your book and listening to this now makes my heart melt💞 i love you miss dodie, thank you


Remembered watching this when I was in a pretty bad place. I can still relate to it now, and I'm glad I got out of it. but I still feel angry and disappointed in myself for letting myself be in a relationship like that for so long. I don't think I ever said thank you for writing a song that helped confirm my feelings at the time. So, thank you.


<b>goes to play a chord at the end of the song but decides against it</b> smooth Dodie <3

*goes to play a chord at the end of the song but decides against it* smooth Dodie <3


wish dodie would make a studio version of this;(


Probably my favorite out of all of her songs I listened to


I just found this channel, i've cried twice in 15 minutes you're amazing


this tells such a beautiful story/lesson/song <3 you're such a great writer dodie!! thank you


Shouldn't have listened while putting on makeup. I wish I didn't relate as much as I do. Beautiful. Thanks for this, Dodie 💛


Please make an EP, this is so lovely, I think 8 speak for lots of people when I say it would be grand to have a bit of this song


this song makes me cry and gives me chills i hope dodie sings it again one day


When I first heard this song, I realized how much it applied to my situation. When you're in an emotionally abusive relationship, a lot of times you think it's okay because they don't physically harm you. Listening to this song for the first time gave me more confirmation that my relationship was unhealthy, and I can't thank you enough for writing this song and opening my eyes to the abuse. I've ended the relationship and I'm now with someone who doesn't make me walk on eggshells anymore :).


kaischronicles my childhood toy keyboard is bigger than my future

+xXKTRemixes Xx I just assumed because the keys looked like a keyboard's, my mistake :)

it's a piano which is why it sounds so fucking amazing but I'll let it go :)


I sung this song for an assessment and 4 people started crying they where so touched I love you so much dodie


"My mom called me 'Poppy', I often use it as a fake name." - Dodie. Also her past of dancing... Breaks my heart, but brings meaning.


Thissss is always gonna be one of my fave songs by you it's just so perfect wowee hoo


Dodie's voice makes my brother with cerebral palsy feel more calmed and laugh and I'm honestly so thankful for that bc it's very hard to get him to be relaxed and smile. Thanks a lot, Dodie :)


you have a great voice miss:) wish you the best!


I have seriously listened to this song so many times and it is still my favourite. Ever!
Probably relate to this the most out of any song, almost identical story to my own, though I'm not a dancer!
Love the time and the work you put into your music, definitely my favourite artist of all time! ❤


Every single time I watch this video I tear up at some point. This is the most beautiful thing ❤ Thank you.


This has to be one of my favourite Dodie songs ever


@emmablackery @doddleoddle ok now I really want to see a collab video or like a music collab between you aw that would be fab


This was the first song that I heard of yours, yes when it first came out and I've fallen down the doddleoddle pit of amazingness, you've given me so much happiness dodie. Thank you.


I love how you can hear her smiling when she sings


This song is so amazing it's so simple yet emotional.


You are amazing and I'm so happy I found you :) Keep it up, girl! Love from Massachusetts xoxo


this song made me cry, dodie you are truly a bright soul. ok i love you so much. you're so helpful to everyone!!! im just rambling now but i love youuu


I just left my very own "Tommy" and this song has helped me more then words could ever describe, Thank you.


I have a whole music video in my head every time I listen to this song, I wish I could see it irl


It's 2017 and still waiting for an EP, because this deserves to be an EP


This song's message and tune is so beautiful! Singing and playing it on guitar is super fun aswell. <3

+Kat Wallis aww omg it's crazy how you recognized me from my videos.. thank you sm!

Omg hi kristina! You are an absolutely amazing singer and also I love your hair!!

+Shairi Punatar I made a tab on Ultimate Guitar, you can just search Pas De Deux :)


This is already a sad song, take into account how true it is and it's absolutely heratbreaking


I love songs that tell stories, especially when they have names


honestly, i don't personally relate to this song but everytime i hear it i just get so lost. its such a beautiful tune and gives me so much emotion. Dodie, your song writing is truly phenomenal, please never stop. you are such an inspiring human being.


Anyone watching this in 2020? Also lol Dodie the makeup is quite something but I wouldn't say it's hideous 😂 (video description)


Me: *drawing while hearing this

Song: "when push comes to shove-"

Me: perks up "HAMILTON-"

Me: *drawing while hearing this

Song: "when push comes to shove-"

Me: perks up *"HAMILTON-"*


This is my favorite song by far and I've listened to it countless times and the like "He doesn't wear glasses but he loves how she dances" gets me every time


This made me a little sad and cry a little because of my 2 past relationship. Thank yoh for this song 💜


Oh my. This was so amazing! I literally cried.


I've just realized how much this reminds me of Regina Spektor. In particular, this sounds to me like her songs 'Samson' or 'Braille', and I don't think I could pay you a higher compliment. Gorgeous tone and accompaniment, and the lyrics are pure poetry. Love, love, love.

this is like the best compliment ever thank you <3 omofomfmfm


This is really beautiful, you should be proud dodie


Please please put this on I tunes, literally I need it in my life all the time!


IT HAS BEEN FOUR FRICKIN YEARS AND I STILL CRY EVERY GODDAMN TIME


I've been going through a lot of your original songs and golly gee I am so in love with this song, i have such a soft spot for storytelling songs and you've written this so beautifully! Thank you for sharing your ideas and for singing to us all! 💛


I still think this is one of my favourite songs of yours! 😊😊


I am one of the many people who would love this to be on Spotify


I love this! it would make a lovely contemporary duet or trio!


This song is so beautiful...and it stabs me right through the heart. I got out of an unhealthy relationship last year and now I'm waiting for my Sam.

But falling in love is hard and it hurts...


this is why i listen to your originals playlist whenever i'm feeling down or overwhelmed by school or just want to feel nice. i love all of your music so much, you're amazing ❤❤❤

@Katinthebox i didn't know this was still running! thank you!!! xoxo

@hpispwn98 I found where you can download her songs! ^__^ https://dodieclark.bandcamp.com/

@Abbie Weir wahhh your reply made me smile! i love all of the love on this channel ^_^

i love this comment, so lovely and sweet xxxxx


I can relate so much I got out of a situation so similar a few years back.. this song means alot and performing has always been and is still my escape it makes me feel funny warm inside so when I went dance when I go to dance I feel safe and loved


Listening to this five years later, and it hurts even more than the first time I heard it. It’s still absolutely gorgeous though💓


I love how she took the "my" from SamMY to Tom. This is just so clever, I love dodie.


I used to come to this song to cry
Cry about the friendship I had that hurt me and messed me up for years
I used to cry about never being able to find someone who could care enough as Sam
A year later here I am
I have best friends who Love me for who I am and a outstanding girlfriend I found my Sam
I can come here to cry for who I am today instead of who my abuser was

That's awful that you had to go through that but I'm so glad that you're happy now :)


Please if you even make an album, make it acoustic. You don't need any bullshit added pretend-sounds this is perfect.


mY HEART. This song is so emotional and you can see the passion in dodie's eyes as shes singing and agh! She handles tough subjects so well through her music. Its truly beautiful.


this is so deep, how did i never see this? love you dodie 💗😘


this was in my head for my entire 10 hour art exam. thanks for getting me through


The tone of this song is very similar to Still Hurting from Five years. Both bring a tear to your eye.


This song is so beautiful and I'm maybe crying I love you Dodie

it's soooo beautiful isn't it! I love it so much!!


this was the first video of dodie's i ever watched and I still watch it like 20 times a day


Don't know if you will ever see this, but after seeing your video about your previously relationship, I can see and feel your emotion in your words more than I did when I first heard this song.
I hope and pray that you will always be full of belonging and always be full of love (by everyone you come across, from now until forever)
It makes me sad that you've had to go through that kind of thing and I hope you can find a place to be happy again soon. I know stuff is tough for you (after seeing your snapchats and Twitter) but don't lose hope, even if it may be difficult for you now, it's not going to last forever.
don't forget you're an amazing person and people value you so much.
love, Rosie :)✨


I just read through this section/these lyrics in your book and had to go back to listen to the song. Means so much more to me now <3


awwww you are so brave to come out to talk about the hard things you went through and i'm glad you are so much happier this song is really more than just a song it's a story and i am happy that you shared it i'm listening to it on 2017 and i'm literally in tears dodie you're a amazing person  don't let anyone define you again i love you dodess ❤❤❤


I straight up cried 3 different times this is so god damn beautiful


Yes poppy’s a dancer,
With plans of her own,
You’ll see her and her parter, performing a Pas de  deux, in the old studio


3 years later and I'm still crying. It's so beautiful


Can you please do a video on songwriting your songs are absolutely AMAZING!


The only relationship I'm in is with a lovely man called Luke. He's a ukulele. A little uke. A Luke. Get it?

No hate people. Us singles need to mingle with the jingles :)

As to you and your marvelous ukulele!<br>xD

As to you and your marvelous ukulele!
xD

@StrawHatLuffy :D I am genuinely so happy for you and your fabulous violin!

Lmao, and I'm in a happy relationship with my fandom and Xavier. <br>Who is my fabulous violin :)

Lmao, and I'm in a happy relationship with my fandom and Xavier.
Who is my fabulous violin :)

+Samantha Escalera yay!! let's all be friends xD

+Funsize Beauty my uke is called luke too... Luke the uke :D

My ukulele is called Billy the blue ukulele :)

@RandomDudeVlogs hehe, well thank you! I have actually posted a few original songs on my channel :)

Someone needs to write a song with those words. I wish I had more talent....

@Alita Vargas I have a cello named Ruby!!

My cello's named Tommy :3 I haven't named my keyboard yet, though. Probably the only thing in my house that I haven't named haha

@alittlebitbroadway After reading these comments, I really need to name my uke. Iwantalititude wrote a really cute song about her ukulele but she took it down!

@Kayleyisbadatanimating :3 thank you!! :)

@alittlebitbroadway YES! That sounds amazing

@Kayleyisbadatanimating :3 sssaaaaaamee! :) I'm hopefully going to get a black ukulele and then get apple stickers or paint apples on it :) Ryuk the Uke!

@alittlebitbroadway He's one of my favourite anime characters ever! He's so adorable in a creepy way I love it :3

@Kayleyisbadatanimating :3 yes!! You know Ryuk!!

@alittlebitbroadway The Shinigami from Death Note? Because his name is very close ^-^

@Kayleyisbadatanimating :3 My next ukulele is going to be called "Ryuk" (pronunced ree-uke) after one of my favourite anime characters!

@alittlebitbroadway I've named my keyboard Dandie, a mixture between Dodie and Dan (Danisnotonfire, another YouTuber) who both inspired me to get it. I plan on naming my ukulele (when I get it) Kay, after my best friend who inspired me to get one. ^-^ I love instruments.

@Nicthestick aww, that's so sweet - I love the name x

@alittlebitbroadway My electric guitar is called Dot, my acoustic is called Frankie, but i havn't yet got a name for my ukulele haha :D

@alittlebitbroadway I named my Piano Eva. She's my baby.

@alittlebitbroadway my friend has a ukulele called luke! mines called stitch (from lilo and stitch)

@***** That's beautiful. I wish you every happiness :) Here's to starting little families of ukuleles everywhere :)


This song is amazing!<br>It inspired me two write another book

This song is amazing!
It inspired me two write another book


I'd really love to see a music video of this one with ballet dancers and all. it's so amazing :)


I'm actually crying so hard, this is beautiful


I'm increasingly frequently finding myself going on a Dodie music binge when a little emotionally wobbly for a pick-me-up or a wallow. You are the best musical therapy 4 me Ms Doddle, so thank you very much


Thank you so much! I love this song and I needed it :)


I am a dancer with a similar struggle. This was beautiful. Thank you :)


For some reason I thought I'd already seen this video but I guess I got it mixed up with a different one because I just clicked on it for a little throwback and realised I'd never seen it before! This is such a beautiful song, I got chills. ♥ Also you were in New Zealand ohmygod I wish I'd found out earlier! Lots of love


THIS NEEDS TO HEARD BY EVERY SINGLE PERSON ON THE EARTH!!!!!!!!


Back after 5 years because I finally find it relatable and this gives me hope ♥


this gives me goosebumps every single time i listen to it


I have to carefully plan when I listen to a new dodie song because I know if I watch it I'll be singing it for the rest of the day .🙇🏽😍


Do another tour in Australia plz I want to hear u sing so live and see you so badly ur one of the most talented person on YouTube and one of my fav youtubers ur song make me smile and I love you 😄


I memorized this song on the piano and I was so proud of myself. This is like, my favorite thing ever. I suck at singing this song but OH WELL. <br>I'm still in love with it :)

I memorized this song on the piano and I was so proud of myself. This is like, my favorite thing ever. I suck at singing this song but OH WELL.
I'm still in love with it :)


i came here because of the livestream and I just saw the edit LOL. you still look beautiful :)


How are you such an amazing songwriter?! Wow


The day I learned this beauty on my piano, I finally freed myself from an abusive relationship


I put off watching this because I was told I would cry and they were right. DODIE </3


Why am I crying so much right nowwww<br>Dodie why you slay my heart so hard all the time

Why am I crying so much right nowwww
Dodie why you slay my heart so hard all the time


Why can't i find this one on Spotify?  I love this song, please, please make it happen, love you doodie (:


The best part of this song (in my opinion) is from 2:33 to 2:45 during the 9th verse when the melody is rising and falling and Dodie's singing so beautifully and I don't know about anyone else but I may have just found my new favorite song


Please do a studio version or something because I really need to buy this on iunes!!

@Olivia Gass I found where you can download it! ^__^ https://dodieclark.bandcamp.com/

@Pippa Longstockings I found where you can download it! ^__^ https://dodieclark.bandcamp.com/


I might be the only one but I’m gonna need this on ITUNES THIS IS AMAZING 💛💛💛


"well she does as she's told" shows the exact dynamic of the relationship between poppy and tommy


Why did my mind just imagine a whole ballett scene?? Her storytelling is just extraordinary


This is one of the most beautiful and important songs that I've heard in a long while. I fricken love you Dodie, you brought up such an important thing in such a beautiful way and I just love it so much! Please don't ever stop writing songs, especially like these <3


This has got to be one of my favourite songs!


I just learned this on the piano & honestly girl u a genius


If I could describe my relationship with my brother (minus the romantic element obviously we're not the blossoms) this song would be it


Kinda reminds me of the last five years, but I'm musical theatre trash, so...<br>But actually, this is a great song and I'm crying a bit.

Kinda reminds me of the last five years, but I'm musical theatre trash, so...
But actually, this is a great song and I'm crying a bit.


I like to look back on these videos and see how much dodie has grown. How much more comfortable and real she is now rather than forced. Don't get me wrong I know (assume) her intentions were to keep a positive outlet for sad people but I much prefer the "real" dodie if you will. No matter what mood I'm in. Love her to death.


when i was with tommy i was listening to all of your old music. coming back to this song made me cry because i now relate to it in a different way. we've been apart for quite some time, but I've found my sam and i truly know what it feels like to dance.


Still one of my favorite songs from you.


I understand the story, especially after your video about it. I love you Dodie :3


I nearly screeched when you said you're in New Zealand.. I live there and I adore it :3


its been three years and this still gives me chills


The reliability of this song is unbelievable, describes my relationship last year. A lot of people don't talk about the warning signs it's just "if he hits you leave him" but it builds up to that, with controlling and restricting  and like you said walking on egg shells. Thankyou for another beautiful song xxx


i relate to this song so much. a few months ago, i was in a relationship with someone i did not love, but i convinced myself that i did. he was emotionally abusive to me, and every word he said broke my heart in pieces, because i thought he loved me. i eventually got out of that relationship. this makes me cry every time i hear it.


Okay... I'm just... Wow, that was AMAZING!


I'm starting to believe she can literally sing one verse of a song and it'd be my favourite


Clarissa meyer oh just wait till you see more. Welcome!


there is serious mastery in the way you use your voice like an instrument, and use words to jump around notes like a little bird. and beyond all that BS, your music is just so nice :)


I didn't truly realize the power of music until this moment in time I can't why am tearing up and why is your voice so beautiful


years later, the line “he doesn’t wear glasses, but he loves how she dances” still makes me weep


Dodie, this is absolutely beautiful. I've been dealing with so much negativity in my life. With parents, friends leaving, feeling that my life is crumbling to complete pieces, I always turn to your music. I need a light, and music always gives that to me. I'm desperate for any help that comes my way. I need a friend. Someone to care for me. Yet I've never found that. I sit here crying, this song playing softly in the background, the tears flow as I'm reminded by violent whispers of how much of a failure I am. Sorry for that, I'm just broken. Your music brings out the true me, the me that I really need to express. And it's beautiful. Again. I apologize.


please please please put a studio version of this song into a new EP. i would absolutely love it!!!!


can u please put this on google music or like include it in your next album??? i rlly wanna jam in the shower


This song hit home in so many ways(: Thanks.


This made me cry. I'm currently just binge watching all of dodies's original music. It's all so amazing❤


Aww this is so amazing! I love you dodie!! Xx


this is still one of my favourite songs xx


This song always makes me cry but I can't help but listen to it so often


hi dodie!! i just wanted to say thank you. i know this song isn't very recent but sometimes i like to show some of your music to my mum (i don't talk much so once i start talking about something/someone i love it's hard to stop me). i showed her this song during the time that her and her partner were going through some bad things. she was really upset and scared to stay in the house around him. i showed her this song and at the lyrics "his smile's replaced with an aggressive face but she'll still hold his hand. now she's given up dancing." made her completely break down. i won't overshadow but a day later she ended up telling him to move out for a month to let her calm down. they're still in love but just don't argue like a married couple who have spent too much time together haha. i think your music has a huge impact on her. thank you ukulele mum. i hope i can be an inspiration like you someday; tiny (but actually tall) emotional bean with a ukulele wearing yellow. see you at sitc:)) xo


I learnt this on ukulele are you proud Dodie


I know I'm listening late but I really love this song ❤


Dodie is the only musician that can ALWAYS make me cry or feel something.


this still makes me cry it's so beautiful :'


From 2:27 is my favourite part, the singing is so good omfg


Girl you are amazing!! And dont be silly you look stunning as ever. 5 years and you look no older ?? Pure goddess, kept strong. Tom oh and thank Even for the sub on here and spotify. Thank you for everything you create it's just breathtaking outstanding please keep it going and I'll be listening out. Pure goddess


I love that she laughs like if she just noticed she's in New Zealand ❤😂


Here after Dodies recent video, you're incredible dodes💙


You are beautiful, Dodie. Inside and out. That’s what makes your music so bloody fantastic.


I like how she's like "I'm in New Zealand!" Then laughs like 'how did that happen?'


I love how she looks so happy at the last chorus 😄 really tells the story


I love how she smiles as she says "Hello to Sam."


I don't know how you can be so cute and happy and them write such sad and relatable songs!


When she says 'Goodbye to Tommy,and welcome to Sam' she seemed so happy it makes me cry 😭


Here after the "favourite friend" video. I think this is a good song.


when i first listened to this song was before my first proper relationship. i became poppy, guilted by suicide threats and anger. it was always my fault, i was never trying hard enough. i’ve broken it off and for the past 3 months i’ve been the most free i’ve ever been. it gets better


This my favourite song of yours, for incredible reasons


I'd read this story/watch this movie on a rainy day. <br>Seriously, this is beautiful.

I'd read this story/watch this movie on a rainy day.
Seriously, this is beautiful.


I'm so in love with this song,I heard it something like 20 times😅


Great performance and song. Thanks for sharing your lovely original Pas De Deux.


Am I the  only one who's in love with her accent when she talks?❤


please re-record this with instrument background, violin and cello and all <3


As a lover of songs that tell stories, this is literally all I could ever hope for in a song. The lyrics are absolutely incredible and the whole metaphor of the Pas De Deux is beautiful and it's just all absolutely amazing x


this song gives me the chills every single time


"His smiles are replaced with an aggressive face. But she'll still hold his hand." That part just tears my heart in half.


This song... Sadly I can relate... thank you. 💕


It's been years after this came up. I watched this before I'd been in a relationship, and now after being out of that one, I realize he was quite a Tommy sometimes. Thankfully, there's a Sam coming into the picture I believe(:


I kinda just broke down listening to this because it reminded me so much of a relationship I got out of about a year ago. I am grateful this song exists<3


Dodie this is so pretty. Also, that little cameo from your avatar was possibly the best thing ever. Beautiful stuff all round! :)


this is my favorite song to listen to when im sad.


This song is absolutely beautiful. You did such a good job!

+I Worship Satan And Gay Couples Side note: I just creepily checked out your channel, and you're quite the mythical human being. Gotta love Dan and Phil ✌

let us begin our meeting on how to make teenagers sob over our faces


Such a simple melody but it's so perfect


I'm a dancer and I need to do a choreography on this song 😍


Not a big fan with the lyrics (as Im not much of a romance kind of guy) but I really love the piano accompaniment!


I've listened to this so much in the past but tonight it made me cry so hard for some reason


this is what makes me want to keep writing songs


A few years ago two girls performed this song together at my school, for a performance night. One on piano, the other singing. Funny thing is that one of the girls is named Poppy. It made me cry then, and it still makes me cry now. It's such a beautiful song. And for you to right a song so emotional and pure is incredible. You have a lot of talent Xxx


dodie this is absolutely incredible if you play this on tour i will be in tears


This song has so much meaning.. my baby sister has her heart set on being a dancer and I swear if she meets a tommy...


Please put this on patreon omg it's beautiful


waits for a video of two people performing a pas de duex to this song

@***** I've put this forward for my Pas De Deux!!x


This song always made me cry but I havent listened to it since before I got out of an abuseive relationship. Its been almost 2 years and I'm with someone who treats me right so when I tell you I bawled listening to this song again I BAWLED. this is such a good song.


I was singing this in my dream and I woke up to watch it and yeah, its 2:04 am but I have no regrets


this song now means so much more to me than it did when I first watched it and now I'm super emotional


I’ve watched this so many times. The story is so unbearably honest and i can relate to it in the saddest way. Im so sorry about your Tommy and your pas de deux. It leaves a hole that it takes time to fill and your brain just kind of... stops. No human mind or heart was meant to carry that kind of weight or withstand that amount of abuse. And i know it was years ago, (mine was too) but it’s horribly amazing how many memories can be tainted by those relationships. It creates a jagged line of before and after, especially when there’s other heartbreaking things weighing you down all around. 💗💗💗


This is so beautiful. It kind of sounds like a Disney song


I can't express how proud of her I am and how much she's grown.


I revisited this after someone pointing out its relevance. Holy moly this is beautiful and I think I am gonna cry.  <3


iT'S ALMOST BEEN A YEAR SINCE THIS WAS FIRST UPLOADED AND I'M REAL EMOTIONAL


Watching this after her 'Angry' video is really telling...


i never thought that i would come to the point that i can relate to some of these lyrics. lately i feel like ive been walking on eggshells and i feel lke everything i do in our relationship is wrong... i dont know what to do anymore. i dont want to leave him though...


This. Is. So. Good. How have I not listened to this one yet?


When there is a clear sense of storytelling in the lyrics it really makes you focus in more and this was so beautifully done aaawwwww <3333


I keep going back to this. This was uploaded when my  "Tommy" had me in her grasp. I dismissed these lyrics and the feelings they brought with them. No, that isn't me. But it was. It's been a year that "Tommy" has been gone. I think I've found my Sam but time will tell. This song has helped me so much. Thank you.


I kind of have something similar to this with my old best friend. We were inseparable for a year, he was super supportive and sweet and we are so similar its unbelievable and just got on like a house on fire.
But more recently I met this guy at a party and we sorta hit it off. A couple weeks later this guy started messaging me and we just talked for hours on end and he was funny, hes in a band, kinda cute, nice guy. We just talked. The best friend saw these messages and asked what this guy wanted from me, because apparently hes the only guy who can be friends with a girl. I said I didnt know what he wanted, and I just liked talking to him, but the best friend was insisting that he was trying to get in my pants and asked 'if he asked you out, what would you say?' I said I didnt know.
That was it, he lost it, he got really upset, said that this wasnt how he planned things and that he couldnt stand the idea of me with some guy.. I was shocked. I knew he had a little bit of a crush, he always sat just a bit too close you know? But I had told him from the beginning that me and him wouldnt work as a couple.
And in previous conversations I told him about all the relationships I regretted being in (three our of three) and how I always just said yes because I had no reason why not. He always told me 'you dont need a reason to not want to BE with someone. Sometimes it just isnt there'.. So it really cut me when I said we wouldnt work as a couple and he said 'why the hell not?'.

Since then hes just been really angry at me all the time.. We reconsiled a little but then that guy posted a picture me that him had taken together (fully dressed, no physical contact) on snapchat and someone who knows the best friend saw it and asked him about it.
So that was it, I wasnt allowed to talk to him (or any guy for that matter) who might want to date me, I wasnt to be seen with them, by anyone.. I hated it.

Needless to say we dont talk anymore, but I really miss my best friend.


OMG I FINALLY BLOODY GET IT OMG DODIES BEEN THROUGH SH!T


Just watched this again and it's so beautiful


brought tears to my eyes, this was beautiful dodie <3


Please do a newer version that is full of instruments. I SUPER love this song! The lyrics... <3 <3 <3


OMG i loved it 🥰🥰 i can't believe that i just discovered this song


Oops I'm crying. Thank you for making this ❤


It took me a lot of courage to leave my “tommy” because I was so scared of being alone, I was full of belonging. And I’ve just found my “sam”. ♥


I love how your hand was ready to give the end a bass note but then you were like actually nope never mind


I love her so much and this song makes me cry. I was in a situation with a boy who thought he had power over me. At the time he did. He's out of my life now and I couldn't be happier.


TOMmy is a damn fool for ever mistreating the lovely and wonderful Dodie Clark. 💕💜


I love this song this is my new fave song thank you so much. You should have this song on ITunes


I didn’t expect to feel so much in 4 minutes but here I am, crying and re thinking my whole life


This song is so GOOD I hope she puts it on her next EP


Last year, a boyfriend told me to stop daydreaming and to give up my dancing. A year on, he's out of the picture, and my dancing got me through it, and next year I will be applying to become a ballet teacher - this song really touched me Dodie ☺ beautiful!


This
Was
So
Beautiful :')
I can't
Describe
How amazing this was
Mmmmmmmmmmmmm


I cannot express how much this song has spoken to me, thank you Dodie, you talent


"I won't be defined by him anymore" literally makes me cry everytiem


i'm really crying, i left my tommy a while ago and found my sam and i couldn't be happier


This song sort of reminds me of the book "All the Bright Places." Idk why but it just does. This song is absolutely amazing though. I'm currently trying to get over a breakup and this has definitely helped me think more for my own good. :)


Only Dodie's fans that watched her old videos knows the outro music <333

It's Absolutely Smitten <3 :*


i would download and loop this bc i can listen to this for hours


I first listened to this song 7 years ago when it first came out and here I am in 2022 and was randomly remembering this song .... listening to it again brought back so much memories and I love it 🥰🥰❤❤❤


You are very beautiful and very talented!


I think this is my favorite song by dod. loooooove. so emotional now


GIRL THATS IT AND THIS SONG IS BEAUTIFUL❤👊


This song gets me every time. My "Tommy" affected me so much that I can't believe I'm now with someone so pure and so loving and someone who really cares about me and wants me in his life. I...I don't know. It makes me angry how someone can be so selfish and such an asshole with their partner.
People out there who are in a relationship of any kind with a toxic person, speak. Don't let them consume you and make you feel like you don't deserve to be loved and happy.
You're important. ❤ always remember that.


This is such a lovely song sad but still absolutely beautiful


dodie.. you have officialy inspired me to try out for my schools show chior.... i have just been too nervous to do it... i love you!!!


I wish this was on Spotify or something.


Such a lovely song and such an important message to get across with it! Well done, Dodie. ^.^


I’ve just realised that his song goes hand in hand with sick of loosing soulmates. Wow


i kept on coming back to this song and i think I've finally realised why because i cant relate to the relationship side of things. with my family i feel full of belonging but i'm not sure how full of love i am. i sort of feel like i'm walking on eggshells around them and i cant open up to them or be myself. i feel i have to be careful with everything i do, my family argues all the time and i don't want to cause an argument or listen to shouting. i have good friends though which makes up for it.<br>this song basically reminds me of my family and after listening so many times to this song I've finally realised why.

i kept on coming back to this song and i think I've finally realised why because i cant relate to the relationship side of things. with my family i feel full of belonging but i'm not sure how full of love i am. i sort of feel like i'm walking on eggshells around them and i cant open up to them or be myself. i feel i have to be careful with everything i do, my family argues all the time and i don't want to cause an argument or listen to shouting. i have good friends though which makes up for it.
this song basically reminds me of my family and after listening so many times to this song I've finally realised why.


This song is so meaningful. I’m a dancer just turning 16 and haven’t had a relationship yet. So talented and beautiful.


My friend did this song for the talent show today anD SHE ROCKED IT AHHHH


i try really hard not to cry every time i listen to you sing because you're so lovely it makes me emotional


How is this dodies least favourite dodie song? ( other than wybsk)
Its lovelyyyyy!
Lol see ya tommy


The lyrics "his smile's replaced with an aggressive face, but she'll still hold his hand" gets me every time. Wow


this song reminds me of a Disney short clip! someone should make a tiny short film of this song of poppy, it would be so cute!


frack this song gave me so many goosebumps.  It's so great


This is so beautiful. Why haven't I discovered this song before?


Well isn't this so damn relatable. I listened to this when she first posted it. It made me question my relationship. Because of this song, I realised the relationship was very abusive and I ended it. I still listen from time to time.


So I was listening to dodie whilst reading "secrets for the mad" and I couldn't help but feel touched by the fact I read the sentence " After 2 years of walking on eggshells..." On page 149 in the book just as dodie sang the line about walking on egg shells. Idk, I just thought it was a pretty cute coincidence and it grounded me a bit tonight as I was feeling quite dissociated and was seeking a bit of comfort in dodie's incredible art...that's just what I found. Thank you dodie, for being so amazingly raw and real, it really helped me tonight x


3 of my friends did this song for a school concert and i cried in an assembly when they performed it again 😂

+Livs xx Just realised that "Sam" is Sammy :))


It's sad because she said in a video that she used Poppy as a fake name then it brought me back to her video names 'angry' and my heart hurts for her. Dodie is basically my sun and I look up to her so much because she handles things so beautifully and turns it into art. Bless her.


This is such a beautiful song so if it has made you sad turn on subtitles.


Oh god it took me far too long to realize the
Tommy=tom Sam=Sammy
thing


i’m doing this song for my english homework and i really hope my english teacher comes to look at it bc she’s missing out if not


who here is coming back after hearing her call this her least favorite song? haha

WHAT she said that? I thought she said Would You Be So Kind was her least favorite


I can play this entire song on piano I'm so proud


the way her mood changes with the lyrics makes the song even better (if it can possibly gat any better)


Incredible!! If is the dream wake up to the sound of it. Danke, youre amazing, cutie!!!!


I know I'm so late, this song came out over a year ago but this may be the most beautiful song I've ever heard in my life. I could vividly see Poppy, Tommy, and Sam. I'm so so impressed Dodie. You are lovely.


i first heard this song it 2017. i had never been in a serious relationship before. in 2019 i entered a toxic relationship with a guy who told me all my interests were shit and told me to stop doing them. i left that relationship in july 2019. i entered another relationship august of this year and they were my sam. i listened to this song for the first time since 2017 and absolutely sobbed. ive never connected to a song more.


This song makes me go through the biggest emotional roller coaster ever.


When she says "Hello to Sam" it  makes me think of Supernatural and I get emotional and want to write fanfics.

Anne Marie Rasmussen <br>Yes! Supernatural fandom unite here ! Carry On My Wayward Son

Anne Marie Rasmussen
Yes! Supernatural fandom unite here ! Carry On My Wayward Son


"Now she's given up dancing
Tommy says she's too old
He says focus on me but she disagrees
While she does as she's told

Are you walking on eggshells
And when push comes to shove
Are you full of belonging
But not full of love"

IM NOT CRYING YOU ARE SHUSH


'And when push comes to shove' I WILL SEND A FULLY ARMED BETALION TO REMIND YOU OF MY LOVE DADADAADADAAAAS


after hearing “burnt out” and watching “angry” and hearing this it hurts and i feel so sorry and i’m scared someone i love could be trapped this way


For those curious pas de deux is French for "no two" and is typically a dance between two people, typically lovers.


YES Dodie this is amazing! <3 I left an abusive relationship last year, he stopped me from doing the things I love the most and it's such a soul crushing thing to go through. Now I'm free from it, I realise how much I CAN do with my life and it's like everything is finally in colour after being in black and white for so long

;; Thank you so much Dodie <3 I want to make a video about my experiences to help other girls who are in the position I was in... Think I'm almost ready.

oh my GOSH I love this comment! So glad for you <3


Just figured out who Dodie reminds me of...  Vienna Teng. The piano seals it. When she opens up her pipes, she hits the same pitch.

Dodie, if you’re listening check out VTs “Lullaby for a Stormy Night” It’s lovely and I think it’s a match if you’re looking for another cover.


I just got out of an abusive relationship. This song hits home so much. I feel so free now. I'm my own person again. I do the things I love, for myself. I was trapped in doing what the other person wanted me to do or be. The saddest thing is they don't recognize what they did to me. They think i'm just exaggerating everything. I was hit, manipulated, and hurt. I'm my own person now. Dodie has really helped me. I know this is all so cheesy but she went through a similar situation and look at her now. She is glowing. I aspire to be like that. But for now, i'm okay. I feel good. Content with life. 💖


stumbled on this song when it was first uploaded and i somehow found my way back 5 years later. i'm a different person now with a different interpretation of this song but this was a pleasant reminder of all that i was.


coming back to this song was so emotional. when this song came out i was just together with my first boyfriend. we ended 5 months ago. it lasted 5 years.. he didn't fit me and i stopped myself from acting and being how i wanted.The relationship ended with him leaving me for another girl. He broke into my facebook account for 3 months after the relationship trying to figure out who i was seeing. He had glasses too and now  i am happily together with someone who fits me right and i realise now how trapped i was. my boyfriend now doesn't wear glasses. this song hit me right in that spot even more than 5 years ago.


I've watched dodies angry video and now I understand where this song came from, utter heartbreak for me 😢


Dancing is such a freeing thing, it’s so difficult but so beautiful and fulfilling. If someone is forcing you to put away parts of you to make them happy, drop them.


hey i looooooooooooooooooooove this song and your music and i need to know what kind of music maker thingy idk what its called ! thank you and AGAIN i love your music


there has to be a combination of Dodie's songs that could describe my current love life. If you can help me make a playlist I would love you but this is a long story so read on if you dare!

I had to break up with my bf of 8 months because he was emotionally manipulative (but I hate losing people in my life so we reconciled and are now friends), then I met this amazing guy almost immediately and yes I was in pain but after that relationship he just made me laugh without even trying and we got along really well. One of my best friends was at my house when we met and she tried to hook up with him when she knew I liked him and she lied to me and said he had a gf. I talked to him and he told me what she was doing and she lied about him having a girlfriend and I told him i liked him and he said he liked me. Me and her are no longer friends (for other reasons as well but I'll stop there). So me and him dated for a bit, we were very cuddly and cute and then like a week into it he said he loved me (which yes is fast but I've heard it faster) and I didn't say it back, I said i wanted to take it slow. Anyway, my mom started getting on his back about getting a job and being able to support me and then his dad started yelling at him and he thought my family hated him and he got a job where he would work all day and then go home and sleep and he didn't want to make me feel like he didn't care so he instead broke up with me (dafuq). He said he said he loved me too quickly, that he needs to focus on getting his life together and his education, that I'm going to go far in life and he doesn't want to hold me back. 2 weeks. Believe it or not, my second longest relationship, guys usually get bored of me or realize they can do better after 1 week. We agreed to be friends but he's so busy and stressed that he doesn't really talk to me, the only way I get news about him is through his best friend who is like another brother to me. My birthday is coming up and he is supposed to come over. I don't know why my heart chose him the way it did, all my friends say that he doesn't care enough so I should move on but I just can't.

got any songs for That?

bless you if you read this far. I hope you get a life sometime soon.

XD jk I love you so so much ♡♡


I was so happy when she said she was in new zealand like "hey yeah we are a country" 😁


thisbis so damn beautiful and it makes me cry


I listened to this song maybe once or twice before i read dodies book in November, i always skipped passed the pas de deux page until a few weeks ago, i read it and sobbed, its strange, i cant listen to the song without sobbing, it opens old wounds but the song is so pretty


Man, this song makes so much more sense and a much larger impact after the video: angry... wow


i noticed that when the volume is louder the piano and dodie's voice surround me when im wearing headphones and i think i'm going deaf from how loud i made the volume but it's so worth it


And at this point all of us were ready to fight Tom Law

Grace Torrance and then after reading secrets for the mad, everyone was double ready to fight him


This is amazing!  I'm not crying at all... nope 😭


Dodies voice just gives me goosebumps ahh


Les chansons que tu écris sont tellement belles tu as énormément de talent ! C'est magnifique


also: you can see the disappointment in dodie's face when poppy gives up dancing she's like
poppy how could you you traitor
just kidding ily poppy :D

also: you can see the disappointment in dodie's face when poppy gives up dancing she's like
*poppy how could you you traitor*
just kidding ily poppy :D


dodie i am sobbing<br>also really really proud

dodie i am sobbing
also really really proud


This song makes me want to go back to ballet


Are you not able to put your songs on iTunes? I really love this song, and I want to download it


You look gorgeous in this. Like seriously my self esteem is dangerously low now lol


just came here after reading the chapter in dodie's book about the relationship this song is most likely about and the lyrics and song hit so much harder now


I love how it sounds when you say "Doddleoddle" xD


I feel like 99.9% of your fans are fans of Dan and Phil

Their Dnp and dodge are both British and aren't as fake as other you tubers, so idk it calls the same people

I ship dodie and Phil don’t judge just my opinion

I ship dodie and Phil don’t judge just my opinion

Queen Sunflower what? N O O O I ' M N O T

Queen Sunflower what? *_N O O O I ' M N O T_*

sweats uhm, what ?? haha ... no ? sweats intensively

*sweats* uhm, what ?? haha ... no ? *sweats intensively*

Queen Sunflower <b>sweats</b> waaaaaaaat... no....

Queen Sunflower *sweats* waaaaaaaat... no....

Queen Sunflower what gave it away <del>sweats furiously</del>

Queen Sunflower what gave it away -sweats furiously-

Queen Sunflower I guess I'm apart of the 00.1%

Queen Sunflower I guess I'm apart of the 00.1%

Queen Sunflower what im not a phan of dan and Phil?! What are you talking about?!?! Dang I'm going to go craft and have an existential crisis now and cry into a slice of pizza because you said that...

pfft idk what you mean <b>deletes search history</b>

pfft idk what you mean *deletes search history*

Queen Sunflower We are not fans we are Phans and we are part of the Phandom

I'm not a fan! i mean I'm subscribed and i watch all their videos and buy their merch (that's selling like a god church) and watch every video edit of them and have a fanpage and know personal information about them but I'm not a fan.

Queen Sunflower ngl i think 99.9% of everybody's fans are fans of Dan and Phil, we are everywhere like not even kidding😂

No I find phans annoying because they mention dan and phil on videos that aren't about dan and phil.

Your comment is so right it's soft and neat

Your comment is so right it's soft and neat

Queen Sunflower yeah I'm in the phandom but I love dodie and them

Queen Sunflower Thats because Dodie is amazing and talented and she makes me happy ☺

hey sup
dan and phil?
pff who even are these two individuals
no idea, i swear im not lying just dont read my name

Queen Sunflower DID SOMEONE SAY SMOL BEANSTALKS

Queen Sunflower DID SOMEONE SAY SMOL BEANSTALKS

I've come from the depths of hell and phan smut. you called? ;D

Queen Sunflower That's so true because I am too

Queen Sunflower That's so true because I am too

@Charella haha, I guess you're  that one percent

@Charella haha, I guess you're  that one percent

tørtør is trash Oh, whoops. It's hard to read sarcasm over the internet, sorry!

tørtør is trash Woah, chill. Everyone has their own tastes, and if they don't care for Dan and Phil, that's fine.

+AllTimeMyChemicalPanic!AtTheFallOut |-/ first of all great username lmao second great profile picture third as a part of the phandom i can agree that a lot of us are extremely annoying but don't generalize the entire phandom please thank you 😊

Queen Sunflower Shoot, we've been found out. But, I started watching Dodie before Dan and Phil, so...

+Liana Mark ooookay that makes sense!! Just wanted to know if I missed out on something!!!💖

+Alivia Hough Two years ago, they were in YouTube Rewind . Dan tweeted a picture of Phil on set and Dodie photo bombed it so he @ her.

+Liana Mark when did Dan tweet about her??????

+Liana Mark when did Dan tweet about her??????

I found out about her because Dan tweeted her, but I found all three of them in the same year so.

i mean I wouldn't have found Dodie without a Dan and Phil fanfiction

95% of people on YouTube are Dan and Phil fans...

95% of people on YouTube are Dan and Phil fans...

@Paige Ho I understand that some of the phandom members aren't like that, but tons are. That's not the only problem that I have with the two, though. I just would rather not get into it because I don't feel like being attacked.

+AllTimeMyChemicalPanic!AtTheFallOut l-/ As part of the phandom, I can agree with some of what you're saying. It can get a bit over-the-top at some points. However, generalizing the entire phandom is not the best way to put them in your mind. Some of us aren't like that, and don't shove the shipping down their throats, etc., etc. Just a word of advice, since I don't want any crazies going after you for voicing your opinion.

@Gracie Maryee I just don't like them, and the phandom ruins it too. I honestly feel like the phandom is swaying them in the wrong direction, y'know? It's just, getting old. Everyone expects Dan to be this antisocial, band obsessed, relatable guy, and Phil is this happy, sunshiny, manchild. It's just irritating. By this point certain things seem like an act for their subscribers, and I wouldn't blame them. And don't even get me started on the whole shipping thing...

Dan and Phil, I'm sure they're great. I'd love to chat with them. They seem nice, however, the fans have totally ruined it for me and after taking a step back I kind of realized somethings that I don't want to say because I'll get tons of hate.

+AllTimeMyChemicalPanic!AtTheFallOut l-/ How??? They're perfectly imperfect???

+Queen Sunflower you're fine!! xD easy mistake

+Queen Sunflower you're fine!! xD easy mistake

+Gracie Maryee omg my mistake, I just saw you in my notification and didn't see the +username. . . btw I'm blind as a bat

+Queen Sunflower I was talking to Abbz haha

+Queen Sunflower I was talking to Abbz haha

+Gracie Maryee oh I'm already a fan of them, I just wanted to point it out since all I see is Dan & Phil profile pics and usernames, lol

+Abbz Join us, haha. They're amazing Youtubers, just like Dodie. The reason many people are fans of both D&P and Dodie is we all have very good taste. ;) xD

i actually started watching dodie first because of her amazing cover of death of a bachelor and then found dan and phil later

I like the idea of fanfiction as about Dodie and Dan being siblings ok bye

@Trust Salvatore lol😁, don't worry I'm a fan of them too

What  no what do you mean <b>hides Dan and Phil merch</b>

What  no what do you mean *hides Dan and Phil merch*


when I saw the title I thought of two things
1) Pas De Cheval by Panic! at the disco
2) Folie a deux by Fall out boy


THANK YOU FOR COMING TO OUR COUNTRY!!!!!! 😍💙


Every time I get sad I come straight to this video so currently in a Starbucks trying not to cry but I’ve got this


This is really what I needed and I'm crying.


I'm literally obsessed with this song, I don't think that the number of times that I've watched this is healthy.


I used to listen to this constantly at 15/16 and found it so romantic … now I’m 21 and SOBBING. <br>It’s always stuck in my head and found a quote of It in a diary I kept at the start of my last relationship  from years ago which was not very poggers.

I used to listen to this constantly at 15/16 and found it so romantic … now I’m 21 and SOBBING.
It’s always stuck in my head and found a quote of It in a diary I kept at the start of my last relationship  from years ago which was not very poggers.


This makes much more sense after her "angry" vlog......incredibly sad but beautiful and sends a lovely message <3


Cant wait for this to get a music video/ gets put on a new album


I taught myself this on the piano and when I thought no one was home I played it and sang it really passionately then my mum came down stairs in tears telling me how proud she was of me for being so talented. I want to thankyou for that. Me and my mum never had the best relationship due to her mental illness but I think by playing that song we kind of became friends? Idk. But thankyou you made my week xxx


I still cry every time I listen to this.


Girl, you don't look hideous here at all. I was just admiring how pretty you look and I was shocked to read your comment about yourself. Please be kind to yourself. You deserve it. ❤


watched this about 20 times and gets better every time


"He doesn't wear glasses, but he loves how she dances and he'll hold her hand" This part makes me so emotional