honestly dodie i love you i do and i love your openess with mental illness as a longterm sufferer of depression, anxiety, bulimia and psychotic episodes but i find myself theses days often skipping through your snapchats because i know that they're going to be so graphic and so oversharing and i worry for you about that. like you gotta keep some things to yourself because if your deepest most private thoughts become this massive public thing then its really really unhealthy for yourself and can be a bad influence on younger kids who i know watch ur vids. just be cautious darling. we all love you very much xxx


Thank you. This video really helped me a lot. Honestly Dodie, your music helps me a lot. This, this video.I have trouble putting it into words sometimes. This is really good.


i was just thinking the other day how much better i'm managing my depression and that i finally feel like i have a handle on it. your posts remind me a lot of how i felt before i had a handle on it, and it's very hard to read. i definitely understand the want to share how your feeling and get the feedback or support w/o looking into a face of pity, but i agree with many of the other commenters on how it would likely be beneficial to us and you to take a step back from social media when those urges arise and not to post while you in the depths. we unfortunately get the privilege of seeing the horror of your depression, a person many of us have grown to care deeply for, without feeling like we really get a chance to speak to/encourage you personally. we see the pain you're in and only get to post a semi-anonymous comment -- i'm just not sure that it's beneficial to either party. it's hard to answer a cry for help online, especially when so many of your fans are so young. ((i'm typing this as i see you've posted a follow-up!! lots of love to you, dodie, really))


We all need a Zannah to give us a reality check when we've over stepped!

Anyway, there really is such a thing as over sharing when you have an audience, especially a mostly young one. But in the moment it's not easy to filter yourself when you've come to rely on your methods of getting it out. In fact it can make you feel worse and even more trapped if you have to consciously keep stopping yourself from doing or saying certain things when you're in a bad headspace. And ultimately that leads to bottling everything up. It's much healthier to practise doing other things than it is to stop doing what you currently do, because then you'll naturally find better methods and move away from the unhealthy ones.

At the moment the amount you share isn't causing mass harm, just making some uncomfortable and hopefully like Hazel they are helping themselves by avoiding your snaps and videos. So while it's at that stage, it's easier to come back from, and it's good you're aware of it and you can now try to train yourself to go to people privately :) but that obviously doesn't mean you can't be honest. It's just better to do as Hazel said - discuss it when you're out of the worst of it and then you can be more constructive about it, too! You can discuss how you felt and how you dealt with it, because that's a lot more meaningful to your audience :)

doddlevloggle sing with peter Hollens please!!! He wants to and you should!!! You were just in America!

I sometimes talk to a stuffed animal, and even though it seems childish, it helps soooo much because you can make the stuffed animal say anything you want it to and often you know exactly what you need to hear but you just want to hear from another face. I don't do it that often only when I'm really anxiety ridden, but it helps a lot.

I also do this. I write long text or Facebook messages to someone who I am very close to and has helped me through a lot. It really helps with the aspect of that release of getting it out. I feel better having it written down and not just in my head. For me this acts in part to make me recognize this is the reality of the situation. It also helps me to better understand what is going on for myself sometimes. Making myself write it down makes me be able to explain some things that I find I hadn't really understood myself. It can turn a swirling mass of mental chaos into something more concrete for me to face. I also know that in the morning (as these are usually at night) or whenever they get the message they will reach out to me. This knowledge that someone knows and is going to reach out often helps a lot to allow me to calm down enough to sleep if it is at night.

I DO THIS TOO! When I'm feeling really anxious or down in the night I will message my partner because I know the sound of his phone won't wake him up. It feels like you're just airing your thoughts because the other person is asleep and won't reply

doddlevloggle no problem! I'd also like to add on, regarding the one-sidedness of talking to the camera, you can use that feeling to your advantage if you don't feel able to directly go to somebody in the moment. I know a huge part of it is throwing your feelings out into the void and seeing what voices come back, but you could still record yourself or write your posts, and instead of publishing them send them to your friend(s)! It's something I have been doing with my partner, especially when I have anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I don't want to wake him, and so I write him long FB messages and it helps me, but also then in the morning I get the right sort of cuddles :D haha

damnnn. Best comment. Thank you for this!


For the longest time, I struggled with anxiety without realizing it. I thought that having anxiety meant you were always a crazy bunch of nerves that couldn't handle anything. When I first stumbled across your videos, they helped soooooo much. I finally was able to accept  it, and begin to work on how to handle my anxiety in a healthy way. Thanks to your videos not only did I grasp a firmer understanding of it, I also saw that I wasn't alone. That is the best thing anyone could have done for me, thank you. You will never understand how grateful I am for your content


Just to add my two cents, I really appreciate everything you share online, and don't consider it over-sharing. Initially, I was shocked to see someone discussing things so frankly, but only because I was scared to talk about mental health myself. However I've taken so much comfort to see someone else going through similar things, and sharing them without the before-and-after 'I felt sh*t but now I'm better'. It's refreshingly honest, and seeing you continue to go out and make/do things while feeling like this encourages me to do the same. <br>Clearly some people find your posts too descriptive, but I think it's their choice to decide whether or not to continue watching/reading, you aren't forcing anyone. At the end of the day, you can share what you like online, and for some of us, it's been a huge help! X

Just to add my two cents, I really appreciate everything you share online, and don't consider it over-sharing. Initially, I was shocked to see someone discussing things so frankly, but only because I was scared to talk about mental health myself. However I've taken so much comfort to see someone else going through similar things, and sharing them without the before-and-after 'I felt sh*t but now I'm better'. It's refreshingly honest, and seeing you continue to go out and make/do things while feeling like this encourages me to do the same.
Clearly some people find your posts too descriptive, but I think it's their choice to decide whether or not to continue watching/reading, you aren't forcing anyone. At the end of the day, you can share what you like online, and for some of us, it's been a huge help! X


Hey Dodie, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. I know it's hard and we always ask ourselves whether we are bothering or annoying people with our problems. But for me it does help to hear other people who are going through similar things talk about it, about how they are feeling, how they manage, etc. So thank you, for raising awareness, for just talking about something so many people want to avoid. I hope it helps you, talking about it.


Dodie, thank you. When I feel down, I watch these videos and I don't feel so alone. I understand that I'm not the only one who feel like that. Thank you very much.


I also just wanted to point out that saying things like 'are we mentally ill because we create' can also be damaging bc ppl who arent mentally ill and create feel sort of obligated to be mentally ill... im v musical and love creativity but im mentally healthy and when i was 13/14 i sort of convinced myself i wasnt bc i wanted to be creatively sad too

I didn’t want to go to therapy for my depression and anxiety because I was afraid I’d lose my creativity..

Finally someone in the comments who admits they're mentally healthy. Literally 90% of Dodie teenage fans diagnose themselves with depression

Roezu oh I definitely think it's outrageous what people said and I do think she had no need to apologize. I was just saying not to be harsh is all, people do mess up but sometimes they mess up for lack of better understanding the situation or subject. Still does not excuse or condone their actions, just implying that explaining everything to them is more beneficial than telling them how wrong they are and being harsh. I don't mean any disrespect towards your message, just making sure lizzie and the other people who don't fully understand it see fully what you mean and not just pick up on anything that seems offensive or rude cause then that fuels them.

I'm not being judgemental. It is not okay to attack someone who is struggling EVER. Peoples response to this video ended in Dodie feeling guilty about having feelings ffs. Of course a content creator should be careful of what they post but it IS NOT up to Dodie to protect people who may be affected by this.

And it is DEFINITELY not okay that people made her feel guilty for struggling and sharing what's happening in her life.

Roezu I wouldn't be that judgmental of what lizzie was trying to say but I do stand by the fact it's her videos and not Lizzie's. People in the world need to realize how to manage and better build themselves and if lizzie thinks that this video can hurt others ,cause they will change themselves cause of it , then it's no better than if doddleoddle only made happy videos so everyone who was depressed would feel obligated to act happy and hide away their depression and never want to get help. I believe doddleoddle has a right to talk about herself in her own videos and it's up to the viewers to decide if they like the content of it or not. Just because a few people take the message in a wrong way doesn't mean the whole of everyone else should bend for them, if anyone finds this video to be counter productive to themselves then that's fine go watch something else but do not take it out on her. It's the same mentality people use when they blame video games for school shootings or blaming the gun and not the person who pulled the trigger. As Roezu said above, it's the viewer's responsibility wether they decided to watch the video or not. It is NOT doddleoddle's responsibility to ensure every viewer likes her videos, if she did that then she wouldn't be herself and she'd be a fake person who caters to other likings instead of being herself and no one should ever want that for themselves or someone else.

And as for young kids who MIGHT be affected by this (although honestly I doubt many young impressionable kids would watch a video like this) it IS NOT her responsiblity to stop them from watching videos like this, that is their parents job. As a creator, of course she should be careful of what she puts out there. BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT WHAT SHE IS DOING IS PROBLEMATIC. She's struggling, clearly. Let her be human for fuck sake.

She is struggling and questioning her sanity, not romanticising anything. <br>People need to stop jumping on the "THATS PROBLEMATIC" boat. This isn't problematic. This is helpful, things like this is what can help idiots who don't understand mental illness realise that it's not just 'being sad and worrying about nothing". Stop perpetuating the problem.

She is struggling and questioning her sanity, not romanticising anything.
People need to stop jumping on the "THATS PROBLEMATIC" boat. This isn't problematic. This is helpful, things like this is what can help idiots who don't understand mental illness realise that it's not just 'being sad and worrying about nothing". Stop perpetuating the problem.

I'm sorry for the aggression but this whole thread of comments is bullshit and it upsets me quite a bit. No, that's not true at all. SOME people become lazy when depressed. Some people however, feel guilty about their depression and in turn will go bat shit trying to get things done so they don't feel like a failure. I would also like to add that what she said is actually factual, people with mental issues DO tend to be creative types. She wasn't saying that she is depressed because she is creative. This whole thread is claiming she's lying about her problems pretty much and it's disgusting.

+Lizzie K i totally get you but her fans won't listen, and honestly neither will she. She been getting this crit for a while now and shes only just kind of owning up to it?

+Roezu    I'm not saying that what she's going through is the same as many young kids- that's the point. Romanticizing what she's going through, even as a coping method, is actively damaging when she sells it on social media as 'it's just my creativity'. Young creative kids then begin to think that they are supposed to be mentally ill too to make their work better, since creators like Dodie say things like 'why do creators tend to be so mentally ill'  and 'are you mentally ill because you create' like that's super dangerous thing for preteens to hear and she needs to own up to that.  'Making stupid decisions' like no one wakes up and goes 'im going to pretend to be depressed!' but kids can start to see 'symptoms' when there are none and it helps no one in the long run. Sorry if this rambled a bit i just want to make sure my point is getting across

Roezu that's kind of an aggressive reply, there's no need 😂 and I didn't say emotional, I said depressed. By definition depressed people don't make art or produce anything ... cause they're depressed

I'm sorry but she's questioning her sanity not saying "I'm mentally I'll because I'm creative." There's a difference. Someone who creates a mental illness for themselves because they want whatever they're creating to be more "real" is NOT the same as what Dodi is going through. What you're talking about is young or uneducated people making stupid decisions.

I love her, but she is. She should stop.

Claire Riordan This thread fascinates me. When I was younger I too tried to convince myself that i was melancholy and sad because all the main characters in movies were always sad and angsty sitting on their rooftops and stuff. I don't know why I did this, because I wasn't sad, I was just bored or maybe subconsciously I was lonely, but it never had anything to do with being creative. Now I am older and I'm actually kinda messed up, and now I feel the urge to create. So I don't know if this theory is right, but definitely something wrong is  goin on here.

Lizzie K that's such a nice comment wow it's like mind blowing

I agree. For the longest time, I thought that I couldn't be a good writer because I don't struggle with mental illness, which isn't a good approach, but it took me a while to believe that I was capable of creating anything worth reading. There have been times when I'm almost relieved to be at a low point. I still have fingerprints of this mindset that I'm fighting against

Lizzie K I agree. For me I've created my best stuff when I've been at the lowest points in my mental state and it can really fuck with me as I feel like I can't properly create if I want to also be healthy. But it takes time, and it takes practice. I'm almost at a healthy equilibrium where I can properly create something I don't hate without having to go down a dark path. And I think I've always been that way, I don't necessarily think it's bc of the stigma - however, he stigma is very real and volatile.

I can't help but feel the same way. We have romanticised being mentally ill and creative so much that at one point you start feeling your art is not "good enough" if it isn't about these kind of struggles. But at the same time I also feel like what was said in the video, about how when we dig very deep to find inspiration we just take some things back to the top with us, rings true. So I guess while I was looking for inspiration, and sadly looking for something to be wrong, inevitably I found it.

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Also it's just inherently wrong <br>when I'm in a very depressed state I can't create anything, like physically cannot create any art whatsoever

Also it's just inherently wrong
when I'm in a very depressed state I can't create anything, like physically cannot create any art whatsoever

+ booooost she really shouldn't have said that lmao it was so insensitive

i agree!! I'm an artist and was mentally very healthy until I started feeling like my art had to be emotional to be important or meaningful. this was before I started watching dodie, but people associating mental illness with being creative and romanticizing the idea of using art as an outlet for mental illness had made me feel like if my art wasn't deep and about how depressed I was feeling, it wasn't good enough.

Lizzie K this. I literally wrote an essay when I was a freshman in high school about how I wished I had some sort of mental disorder so that I could find my creativity and inspiration. Flask forward 5 years and I deal with anxiety and depression and I've sure found some creativity but I struggle with finding motivation and purpose to actually do something about it. I feel most creative now when i feel healthy.


This is such an important and lovely video. I feel like it talks about a side of mental health we often don't discuss. Thank you so much for making and posting it <3


I cannot express how much you've helped me Dodie thank you so much for your Amazingly helpful Snapchat stories


well, I'm 14 and have been watching your videos for about two years, and I thought that I might as well share my opinion as I would be classed as the younger part of your audience. your experience and what you've shared online has really been one of the biggest influencers on how I view depression. a lot of what I know about it is based on content you've created. of course I keep an open mind and don't take your word as gospel, and I know it's different for everyone, but seeing as a lot of what you post about mental illness is negative I mostly view it as something that is hard to treat and difficult to get out of  and until recently I didn't realise that there was much hope at all if If someone or even I was to ever experience it. I completely understand how venting helps you personally but I think it does and has had an impact on me and probably others, so I do agree that keeping your audience in mind is an important point to bring up. at the end of the day you're obviously not forcing me to see your content and I am choosing to continue following it so I'm not pinning anything on you, but just saying what I think. :) much respect


I genuinely appreciate how much you share, in some weird way it helps me face my own problems. But I can understand why your friends might not think it's the best thing for you. Whatever you choose to do is up to you and we will love you either way ❤


I am watching this back cause of your recent podcast episode and it made me cry because of how much you have grown, and honestly how much I have grown. so i suppose here’s to growth and wellness my friends


I will say that personally, I watched your "I am depressed today" video one day when I was feeling SUPER low and it was SO comforting to me. I don't know what it was about it, but it made me feel like somebody else understands and I felt better after! Keep sharing whatever you feel comfortable with - it's not within your control how it makes others feel <3


This is one of the first videos I ever saw of yours haha. We're all here to support you Dodie :)


I really appreciate the sharing you do as I feel genuinely alone in my mental state and you've helped make me feel more normal in my own head, I can see the negative impacts of sharing and there will always be negative things and there will always be positives but somehow I feel stronger when media influencers share their real thoughts.


I think the oversharing thing is definitely a valid point and after reading a lot of the comments I think it's important to think about the effect that your words can have on your viewers and real-life friends, but I would just like to add one thing. I am extremely grateful that you do address your mental health problems. It has helped me tremendously knowing this is something other people are going through and it's made my (and I'm guessing many others') experience with mental illness so much less isolating. Your video "I am depressed today" resonated with me SO much that I still think about it constantly. A lot of people's descriptions of depression/depersonalization never really matched mine but what you said in that video was EXACTLY how I had been feeling for years. Just knowing I hadn't been completely making things up for the past 4 years and that other people experienced this same thing was such a relief. Since I don't have any friends with mental health issues, watching that video made me feel a hell of a lot less lonely than I had been for quite some time. I absolutely agree and think it is healthier to discuss your feelings and mental health issues with your friends as they are the ones who know you best and are able to give you feedback/help unlike most of your viewers. But I do hope you don't completely stop discussing mental health in your videos in an honest and real way (as long as doing so doesn't make you feel worse!) as I know firsthand how much less isolating it makes the experience of others. With that said, you should obviously put yourself first and make sure whatever capacity you are sharing in is as healthy as you can make it and you aren't hurting yourself in the long run.

The "I need a disclaimer" generation is naive and ignorant. Vlogging is about sharing your life, your true life. If it's "triggering" simply close the vid and if it's helpful keep watching... If you are battling mental health issues than it is always going to be up to YOU to identify your triggers and avoid them as well as take responsibility.


I'd just like to say that I love how honest and frank this video is. It's so great that you can both say what you're really feeling to each other and say what you think the other needs to improve on.
I really understand both sides of this. I've personally found a lot of comfort in your instagram posts and videos (haven't followed on snap so can't comment on that) because you DO articulate things so well and I find putting things into words one of the most helpful things as it helps me understand my feelings a bit more. Yeah, I guess I can see the side of people saying you romanticise it because the way you describe mental health can be very poetic (which i personally enjoy and I'm guessing makes you feel a lot better about it because you're creating something at the same time as spilling out your feelings and maybe makes it feel a bit more productive? That's definitely how I've felt about doing that in the past) but that doesn't mean you have to stop writing that stuff. What I do sometimes if I really feel the need to go into the extremes of how I'm feeling and wallow in it for a bit (which is okay to do sometimes, and it very necessary so you can process things and feel like you're not sweeping things under the rug. It's so important to give proper time and attention to all of your feelings!! That doesn't mean spending every waking moment thinking about it, just let yourself feel things when you do and then when you feel like it's past the point of being helpful and it more damaging, try your best to say "okay, that's enough for today" and try your very best to just distract yourself from it. That doesn't mean you have to be instantly happy or even stop feeling bad, just kind of accepting that's how you feel today and it's okay and then trying to get on with your day the best you can with those kind of feelings. I digress hahaha.) is writing that kind of stuff down in a diary or in my notes in my phone so that I can be brutally honest without having to worry about having a filter or whether or not what I'm saying will be damaging because no one is going to see it. It's also good if you do that when you have therapy so you will be able to bring up and work through how you were feeling at the time when you have your sessions if you're not feeling anything particularly extreme that day. Or even just making voice notes of how you're feeling so you can vent and talk and cry but you don't have to go through the effort of setting up a camera and talking to it if you don't feel like you can do it that day. Plus you can ugly cry as much as you want 'cause ain't nobody gonna see ya!
These are all reeeeeaaally difficult things to learn (even if you know they're true logically, actually feeling like they are true is a completely different kettle of fish.) and so it's okay if it doesn't happen immediately, because it most probably won't. Just try your best and know that's good enough.
I still think talking about mental health and being open about it is so so important as, it DOES break the stigma around talking about it and well, it IS inevitably a big part of your life. I think a lot of your posts do actually show how ugly mental health problems are which is important as well. It's very difficult to find a balance but yeah, I saw some other people saying at least 24 hours after creating to something to know whether to post it which I'd say is a good idea.
It's really really great that you're thinking about this though and that you're actually willing to be critical of yourself in a helpful way so that you can improve! Maaaassive props to you and I hope everything goes well. Lot's of support from me, even if that is empty calories hahaha. Mental health is a complete bitch and the fact that you're getting through it is amazing! Even if you're not coping with it well, you're still getting through it. You can doooo it, you go girl! x


Heyo Dodie I just started watching your videos.... Like yesterday...... And I just have to say I love everything you do!! The way you share so much and are just honest and kind and I really like that and I feel like a lot of people can enjoy and benefit from your videos❤


I know that through watching this, some people may have become stuck in their thoughts and emotions. Using social media as a crutch for help is unhealthy and can be damaging. Talk to a friend, talk to someone, even if you think it's too little of an issue or don't want anyone to worry, it'll do you more good.


I really admire you for stepping back and making this video. This is such an important thing to discuss and it's an issue many people have, not just you, so don't feel alone in it. As you said in the video, everyone's made that spur of the moment mental post. I hope your mental state improves soon as I love your work and know you deserve happiness ❤


We've both been wanting to reach out to you about your oversharing as well, but honestly, we were afraid we'd be backhanded as "haters" or "internet trolls"  who don't know you and therefore whose opinions are invalid. As Zannah and Hazel said, oversharing can be dangerous, both to you and to those you're oversharing to. The short-term fix you may get from the validation of your followers is no substitute to the long-term fix you may get from actually sorting out your issues. While shouting into the void that is snapchat may feel therapeutic, remember that it isn't a void, it is a direct pipeline to thousands of different individuals going through thousands of different hardships who may be harmed more than helped by these shouts. Just some food for thought.


thank you so much for this. i relate to SO MUCH and it's great to know im not alone. i love u dodie x


It's interesting because after this she deleted a lot of her darker videos.

dodie just uploaded a new video, where she said she unlisted them because they kept popping up in her and our reccomended. she also said she didn't want that to be someone's first impression of her. but that she kept it in a playlist so that we can still watch them! ^^
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vD_Zi867oPk&t=2m44s Sorry if this comment is too long haha.

i was just wondering where some of her videos went! maybe they're just unlisted like this one, i could only find it through a link. Anyhow, if she deleted/unlisted them im gonna respect that she doesnt want them to be seen anymore and im not going to keep on looking


when you talk about your mental illness it really helps me, i only have mild anxiety and a lil bit of depression but my mum on the other hand has most of the illnesses you have. it's difficult living with a mum who has bi polar, depression, anxiety , depersonalisation AND a personality disorder. i don't always know how to react in certain situations with her and when i here how you feel, as scary as it is, it helps me know how she feels and how i should respond ( even tho everyone's different). i also think that lots of people find it very disturbing in the way of, i sometimes feel like that does that make me ill too? a lot of kids are self diagnosing and it's a very fragile subject amongst young impressionable children . but you're breaking the stigma with each video and it's important to talk about subjects so if kids do feel this way they can reach out for help. maybe you overshare, maybe you shouldn't. but it helps me with my mum and recently that's been hard.


I'm so glad these comments are how they are. for the longest time I've felt isolated because everyone seemed to take comfort in hearing your stories and knowing they're not alone whereas they were immensely triggering to me. to hear people feel the same and even one of your best friends doesn't watch your snapchats has helped me feel less alone. i hope you take on the feedback in these comments- i know you will. I'm so grateful for this community. I've already watched this video three times. 💛


I personally really enjoy the amount you share. I think it's nice to finally have someone on this platform that speaks what's on their mind at the time you're thinking it. It sounds mental but it reminds me and I'm sure others too, that we aren't crazy! I respect you for how you talk to us about everything and that's one of the reasons I started watching you 2 years ago and why I still watch you to this day 💜


I'm a young person and watching your videos really helps me and my friend I really enjoy them! I like when people get into detail because I just relate so much whenever you talk about anxiety and other stuff, it's like having a friend to talk to and they understand you. I absolutely love your videos, from the happy ones to the serious ones!

Although I completely understand why people say it can be too much, and watching the 'follow up' video made me respect you so much, the fact that you can take criticism and learn!


you are both so amazing and huge inspiration to me !!.  Being creative is extremely draining  mentally and physically. I find i do this when I act , I get so I guess obsessed with a character that I'm playing and just immerse myself into  that character ( which is super dangerous) and creating art which is what you guys do takes a lot of work and all creators/ artists use pain , suffering , love , heart break , happiness , sadness all that beautiful human stuff to create magic and beauty, that what makes it so pure. But all of need to remember to take care of ourselves !!! love you xx


This was such a helpful message, thank you so much💛


i think it's important to find the right balance. sharing on social media can help you and also helps so many of us in so many ways but it might mean that you have to counter that by sharing things more in your real life(also I know this is easier said than done). we love youuu(and so do your friends)<3333

Maya Joy definitely a good idea, finding a happy medium


Thank you so much for putting yourself out there, and honestly. It helps me realize that I'm not alone. <3


i genuinely fell in love with your openness about it. i think your bravery is what we need in the mental health community, while people think it can be romanticizing, i really think for a lot of people it helps them. i understand where your friends were coming from with oversharing, and i also agree that a large part of your audience is very impressionable, therefore they may think they have certain mental illness or group themselves in a certain category that they don't really belong to or even understand. however, being someone who is in this community of being a fan of yours and also someone of mental health, i honestly find it very helpful that you put out these videos. i feel like somebody understands me finally and like theres somebody out there that actually listens.  i worry about you and i genuinely hope the best for you, dodie, and i want youtube/instagram/snapchat to be a safe platform for you. i love you and i hope the best for you. :)


Honestly, I don't think you are oversharing. I suffer from anxiety, depression, and body image issues, and to have someone like you openly talking about these things has really helped. The fact that you talk about them to such a large group of people makes me feel less embarrassed about my issues. And because of you, I started going to a therapist and dealing with my issues. Your videos, Snapchats, and songs make me feel less alone.


This video was simple and raw but amazing, has really spoken to me and really relatable! When I read or see your snapchat makes me feel a little less crazy so in a way thank you Dodie for sharing! We are on the same boat and will make it to the other side because we are strong souls!!


I can't find words to describe how much I love dodie. She has helped me with so much in my life and has helped me love myself. Dodie if you do or don't see this I just want you too know that I love you.... and I'm super excited about your book.


For my part, these type of videos really help me understand mental illnesses, since my best friend suffers from one of them. Although everyone is different, you have your own thoughts and she has her own, it truly helps me understand what she might be going through, and, in a way, it makes it possible for me to hear the words she doesn't dare say to me. I know opinions are very different especially on this topic, but personally I just wanna thank you for helping me and my friend <3


Personally, I love how much you share about your mental health because I can relate and it's so nice to see someone else going through what I go through. I also think it's really cool how you don't filter out your bad days and only show your good days. There's so many people on social media who won't show when they're feeling down and just try to act like life is perfect, but nobody's life is. I can see and understand how it could be triggering to some people but for me I really enjoy hearing about what you have to say about your mental state.


dodie, I live for your vlogs and snaps. they make me feel so much better that someone else who I look up to struggles like I do. It all helps me a lot a lot a lot


As someone who IS recovering from a multiple year depressive episode this is my input for anyone who cares.

Its good to acknowledge the depression and share how you're feeling. Its good to seek videos online and it can be reassuring to know you're not alone. Talking about it will help you feel better initially. But sharing your problems with others isn't the solution. It wont cure the depression. It is merely the acknowledgement that something is wrong and that first step towards fixing it.

If you want the depression to go away you need to stop dwelling on it. You must first PRETEND you are okay, this will eventually result in being okay. The best way to get over it is to stop thinking about it. Mindfulness, meditation and breathing exercises are a great help. Watch comedy. Smile in the mirror (The physical act of smiling helps to release endorphin's which will improve your mood).  Avoid too much alcohol, sugar or caffeine. Get Regular exercise and good diet. You don't need to do all of these and none act as a magical cure but they all help a little bit.

Acknowledge and be happy about every little improvement you make because they are important. All the little improvements add upon each other to create a much bigger improvement over time. Depression can take months or even years to go away, but it will go away If you want it to.

Depression offers to embrace you with open arms, you must leave depression in the past and turn your back on it to be free.


the other day somebody asked me how I was in like a general greeting kinda way and I said 'i'm good' then started crying because I genuinely meant it and it freaked me out because this is the most 'good' ive felt in a long time- and most of that was due to you guys making me realise the 'bad' was real and then seeking help and managing it. thank you x

I have done a very similar thing. A close friend of mine commented on how the day was a good one. I replied, "Yeah, today was a good day..." and then I started crying and hugged them. that realization of having the first good day in a long time hit me hard then. Those days have started to come more often though and I hope they do/have for you as well.

As someone who has done the same thing, I have a secret...it gets better. Life actually gets better like all the annoying nondepressed people kept saying. So keep it up, keep supporting yourself so that you can support others and we can all make this world a little sunnier. Cheers!

TheCharleyparley this almost made ME cry, i'm so glad you're in a good place now babe xx


5:10 onwards sounds like a good idea for you dodie, wait until your not so down to post things, it gives you a chance to really think things through and question whether what you have to say is really helping you or your viewers.


Love to you both, I absolutely get what you guys are saying and how it's a lot to share but sometimes it needs to be shared because how else do your share such raw stuff! It's not always up to you to make sure that people don't do this or do that because of something you've posted. All your gotta do is try your best and educate and love and care. 💛💛💛


While your videos have helped me go through my bad days with anxiety, I do believe that you shouldn't let your mental health define you! Sharing a little bit is alright, but I know you have friends who care about you that would be more than willing to listen! But I know you will figure this out, Dodie! You're one of the strongest humans I know! 💛💛💛💛💛💛


I am happy you share- especially your mental health stories! You help a lot of people like me who suffer from that rare condition- thanks ♥


i feel like the mix of social media and bad mental health can become a nasty combination. it's something i've had to realize and deal with myself and i'm glad that you are too! (also i hope you're doing okay)

Tess Newman so true, I used to overshare during my manic bipolar episode with my self harm 😕 so baaaaddd, all my friends were like put down ur phoooneeeee. Eventually I did go to hospital and they confiscated it. At the same time, it's difficult when ur not completely lucid (not suggesting that Dodie isn't, she probably is as she just suffers with depression). But when ur not completely lucid u do things without being aware and then alienate urself hugely from society. This applies to things like psychosis, depersonalisation etc


Dodie you have our support ♥ I've never had anxiety but my depression has been pretty bad and I think it's good to talk about mental health and understand that it's hard sometimes but I everyone who understands, feels that way too. Everyone needs someone they can tell everything to, someone that can take it, no matter how much you think you're bugging them, they'll always be there.


I think its just easier to evoke an emotional reaction with sad art, so we delve into that side of our minds more often when creating as it feels more authentic. A band like Animal Collective with an album like Merriweather Post Pavilion manage to evoke emotion in very positive songs, such as Bluish or My Girls, so it certainly is possible, I just think its more difficult.


dodie, i just want you to know how important you have been to so many people... your openness about sexuality and mental health has helped so much with my life, knowing that there are other people like me out there. i cannot tell you how much this community and how much each individual cares about you, and i want to see us get better. thank you so much dodie


I am a studio art major in my 4th year of college... and sometimes it is very hard to get up and create and even do the things that I want to. but you are one of the two huge inspirations I have in my life that push me to go further in my medium of choice. <br>You make a big difference in my creative  life. so, thank you.

I am a studio art major in my 4th year of college... and sometimes it is very hard to get up and create and even do the things that I want to. but you are one of the two huge inspirations I have in my life that push me to go further in my medium of choice.
You make a big difference in my creative  life. so, thank you.


I understand the urge to vent over Snapchat or YouTube - after all, it's easier to chat to a camera lens. Thing is, I think just the act of venting in itself is catharsis enough. Switch on your camera, chat, get it all out - and then leave it. Watch it back later, or edit it, or delete it - do whatever you want with it, but don't upload it. That way, you still get to vent, and you can keep the video as validation, but you don't feel the guilt of oversharing. It also helps you clarify things in your head so that if you do decide to speak about your mental health to your audience, it feels less jumbled and jarring cos you've already talked about it to yourself. Think of it as a dress rehearsal! That's what I used to do (and still do!) before I felt comfortable enough to open up to my mam and friends. Either way, I'm so proud of you for addressing this, Dodie.


Thank you dodie for validating everything I feel. Ily💘


That was like a genuine podcast, enjoyed it so much :D


Dodie i love you and you make my heart feel a bit more alright by being authentic and talking about your actual life and problems and stuff. Everybody has their own opinion, but for me, youtube and social media and the real world are already full of people pretending to be fine and superhappy and yay-smiley-facing all day long. For me when i'm depressed there is nothing worse than feeling like i'm the only one feeling these ugly feelings. It is absolutely up to you, how much you want to share and i can't say, what is best for you, but just wanted to let you know, that your sad videos don't make me feel sad. They make me feel safe.


Hey Dodie, thanks for sharing this. For the past three weeks I've been sleeping all day and it sucks, I have no motivation, I sat down to play my favorite game and I couldn't even focus I just wanted to sleep. It fricken sucks.


dodie I don't follow your Instagram, Snapchat and Twitter (because my mum thinks if you use those you'll die) but I think I agree with hazel that you shouldn't put every single bad brain day on the internet. It's good to be vulnerable from time to time. But putting your heart and soul on the internet could harm you. Also don't keep it to yourself. As you said reach out to a friend they'll be there for you. I'm sure! You maybe keep a personal video diary, just so you could get it out there without oversharing. (And also as soon as I can convince my mom that I won't die from social media I'll follow you) I hope you'll feel better soon! xx


this video is so blatantly honest and it's exactly what i go through when i want to talk about it, but never end up doing it. dodie, when youre in your low times its around the same time i am too. what you say is "over sharing" to me, its a reminder that im not alone in this fight. we are not alone.


i appreciate how open you are!! it makes me feel like i'm not alone and i seriously want to help people like me. thank you, i love you


I've also gone to the hospital due to a panic attack :'( thanks for sharing, made me feel less alone, thank you so much <3


I love that you share everything. It makes you seem real and relatable and people can realise that everyone can be affected by mental illnesses


honestly dodie your videos about mental health, especially when you describe in detail what it is you're experiencing, have meant the world to me. as someone who has struggled intensely with my mental health there's often this aspect of sort of gaslighting myself (like is it really that bad? am I imagining it? did I make all of this up for attention) and having someone repeatedly and publicly go through what I go through has been so indescribably meaningful and validating. it gave me the confidence to seek help, to reach out to other and to be honest with myself. and for that I'm so, so grateful to you.

Emily Morgan her talking about her experiences make me feel less isolated, like I'm not the only one with a crazy brain. I appreciate it's a lot


I personally really love talking about my feeling to someone, and I'm guessing that Dodie's 'person' is mainly her audience. I think it's good to show people how you feel and that you're not always perfect (that's one of the things I love about Dodie, she is quite realistic), but then again if someone reads too much into another person they can feel sad and worried for them and over-obsess. I think maybe Dodie should consider sharing her depressing and sad things maybe once a week or something? That way the audience can see that she is actually happy aswell??


Dodie, I really like that you're very open minded to other perspectives. Thank you. I enjoyed this very much because It was very conversational. Anyway, have a nice day


I think the both of u r incredible for making this video! I love this video for the fact that I don't feel so much of an outsider as I had never considered the fact that others felt the same way as I have. For several years I have had a battle with mental health and no one has listened thus far because "I am a teenager" which in no way helps my condition but the fact that u had the guts to put this on the internet is AMAZING!!! Love u both!


I personally really appreciate your sad posts and Snapchats because I was going through the same thing and I was so alone. then I had discovered you and you sad posts and I realized that I wasn't alone in the world. I always though to myself "If Dodie can be open about her depression that so can I". so this caused me to open up so my friends and they helped me a lot. if I never would have opened up to then I probably wouldn't be alive right now. all of your depressing posts basically saved my life. I don't think you are over sharing. ❤❤


I admire you so much, not just because of your passion and talent, but because you're so emotional and open and it feels so good to feel that the person you look up to and admire isn't afraid to be human. I've been criticized for being too emotional and too open and you helped me realize that that's okay.

I'm a mess at the moment, too, and honestly, you have helped me (and many others) deal with depression so much just by being yourself. It comforts me to know that I'm not alone in how I feel. I cannot, for the life of me, talk to my friends either so what you do honestly helps.

Thank you so much. I love you.

(This whole comment is a mess because it's 3 a.m. where I'm at and I feel horribly sleepy.)


Your songs have helped me immensely. Thank you for sharing


Honestly I'm so glad you made this video. I've been feeling all the things Zannah said for a few months now. Without wanting to be cruel, the internet isn't your personal diary. I defiantly feel like your Instagram was romanticising mental illness to much. Constantly talking about how awful everything is, just keeps you at an all time low. I unfollowed you on Snapchat because your videos were so intense and as an empathic person myself, I felt I was drawing your emotions/experience into my own life. When I was low a few months ago and you posted your depersonalisation video I really thought that maybe I had it too, when in fact it was just a difficult period in my life. I appreciate you breaking down the stigma but please do so in a more constructive way instead of just telling everyone how awful life it, I don't think that helps your audience or you. I love you videos and hope that now you're on the right track and feeling better 💛💛


Dear Dodie, I think you're exploring some important things for yourself. My first response to the title was that what's good for you and your brain determines whether or not you're oversharing. I know that part of you sharing your mental health journey has been very helpful. I know it's helped me identify and respond to the anxious feelings and low points in my life, whether they are clinically diagnosable mental disorders or not. But coping mechanisms, like sharing with a distant internet audience, can be as much bad for you as they can be good. Best wishes and much love as you figure out what will help your brain the most. :)


THANK YOU for uploading this <3 it's got me thinking about the way i open up and reach out myself, which i feel i really need to think over more


It's great for people with and without it to see and hear that it exists. But I think its also important to remember that theres a reason its a medical profession to hear it out and help. I don't think the romanticizing aspect is something that's the speakers fault, and it would go hand in hand with people being more aware of mental illness so its like everything, with positives and negatives. I think it's important to be able to regulate what you post though? Venting into a diary and then filtering it out as a message maybe instead of like the snapchat thing. Hard subject

That's exactly how I feel, but it also brings up the question of accuracy. How much editing can be done to your feelings to still allow an accurate portrayal of you at a certain moment as the finishing product? It just makes me think.

mmmmmmm "hand in hand with people being more aware of mental illness so its like everything, with positives and negatives" damnnn


dodie, i just want to say your amazing. You're the only other person i think would understand me and i admire you so much for going through hell and coming back with amazing music and videos and performances. i feel proud in a way i guess i love you! Your my actual definition of a hero


Personally, your videos help me through my journey with mental illness. On bad days, I can watch your videos or snapchats and feel a little less like I'm going through this alone. I don't understand why people are angry about you going into detail because I think it helps to reduce the stigma and turn people with depression into more than sad people, into real, suffering people. While I can see how some symptoms of depersonalisation and depression could be relatable to people who don't have a mental illness, making them think they do but at the same time, does that mean that you should stop making videos that are helping people suffering from mental illnesses because some people are self diagnosing themselves because of the many youtubers who are now open about the suffering they are going through? You can't always please everyone  but I'm extremely grateful for your openness as it's helping get rid of the stigma and makes me feel like there's someone else who I can relate to.


Dodie, whenever i get a notification of any sort having to do with you i can't wait to see what it is. Whether it is a photo on instagram or a youtube video it just brightens my day. I love hearing everything you have too say and reading your stories. Whenever i hear one of your songs or someone talking about you I'm always like "OH MY GOSH YOU KNOW DODIE!!!" and i just get so excited. So keep being you, your fan base is hear to listen, we all love you. ps... i dropped my laptop on my forehead while typing this; i now have a lump. <3


Honestly, I've been really enjoying hearing about dodie's mental health because no one talks about it openly usually and to just hear someone else feel like that made me understand myself better and made me feel less alone. I guess sharing that much all the time is too much for most people but i'd also be sad to not hear about it at all anymore...


I hope you're having a good day and if you aren't I hope it gets better Also it's ok to not be ok but I know it's not a fun feeling & I hope you feel yellow inside soon

Anna Pate this is so sweet!! Thank you :)


Genuine question - do you feel like the relationship between suffering and creating is pivotal? Do you feel that if you spent most of your time in a mentally healthy state your art would suffer? Do you feel like your art thrives when you are suffering? Or is it something else entirely?


hey I know this is an old video but it's helped a lot with my anxiety that I'm having. I've had this in my likes forever but rewatching it when I can't shut my brain off is very helpful. Just want to say thank you for this video and being so open about the really low times of mental health. ❤


hm... so i've been thinking about this for a few days and i still don't know my exact opinion on the matter. and i definitely don't think there's one right answer at this moment... social media is still too new and we do need the space to explore all of this.

that said... as someone who also struggles mentally in a lot of ways, your sharing of your experiences has been super helpful. you've been the sole representation of what i've been experiencing that i've interacted with and it's extremely comforting to know there's another person out there who knows what i'm feeling. but i'm also good about walking away when i realize that it gets to be TOO MUCH. i've can walk away when i'm relying on it too much, and i can walk away when it's getting too dark or i realize it may be triggering.

not everyone can walk away though, not everyone has the strength to do so. i feel like what you've done is extremely important, but i also think we all need to be more careful about how we go about sharing these experiences. i agree with hazel's opinion about not posting about it when you're in the pits of it and instead waiting for it to be more about reflection than a cry for help in the moment.

also reaching out for help from people you've connected with irl - whether that means someone you can actually hug or a true 'internet friend' half way across the world is extremely important. i'm terrible at this. more often than not my solution is disappearing off the face of the planet for the hour or week or whatever that i'm at my lowest. which also isn't healthy and is something i'm working on. nobody wants to feel like a burden, but i also try to think about it in the sense that i wouldn't mind if a friend came to me when they're struggling. in fact it makes me feel like i must be doing a good job as a friend if they feel comfortable enough to do so; ideally it would be the same when the situation is reversed.

so yeah, representation matters and unfortunately there's no perfect way to do it, especially when it comes to such delicate matters as these. this conversation is super important though, so thanks for bringing it up.


It's hard for me to enter this discussion because I can relate to dodie soooooo much, I just crave to let the world know how shitty things get when I'm in a bad place. I want to let my friends know, my family know, I even want my exes to know even though they have NOTHING to do with it. It's such an overpowering feeling when all you want is to share your thoughts, because you just want to be understood and it kills you that no one will ever understand it the way you do. I just don't get how some people don't have this (angsty teen voice: "it's not fair!!!!" lol) and I can't imagine how hard it must be for Dodie to have to deal with this in such a big way, ESPECIALLY while she's in a bad place.

It's hard for me to enter this discussion because I can relate to dodie soooooo much, I just *crave* to let the world know how shitty things get when I'm in a bad place. I want to let my friends know, my family know, I even want my exes to know even though they have NOTHING to do with it. It's such an overpowering feeling when all you want is to share your thoughts, because you just want to be _understood_ and it _kills_ you that no one will ever understand it the way you do. I just don't get how some people don't have this (angsty teen voice: "it's not fair!!!!" lol) and I can't imagine how hard it must be for Dodie to have to deal with this in such a big way, ESPECIALLY while she's in a bad place.


i think the "oh i'm not alone" thing can be great but also it's gotten to a point where even if i'm feeling mostly okay that day the way you share details about how bad you've been feeling/your  depression kind of nudges me in a downward direction which can be harmful since you have an impressionable and considerably large audience

somethingsoon completely agree. It's very dangerous


Can i just say i am so impressed with how respectfully everyone is expressing their opinions here, i'm so glad everyone is having a discussion about this, communication is so important, thinking deeply about these issues is so important, and i love that there's room here for all different opinions on this matter to be heard and respected, thankyou to all the other commenters for being so respectful and honest<br>and thank you dodie for opening this discussion

Can i just say i am so impressed with how respectfully everyone is expressing their opinions here, i'm so glad everyone is having a discussion about this, communication is so important, thinking deeply about these issues is so important, and i love that there's room here for all different opinions on this matter to be heard and respected, thankyou to all the other commenters for being so respectful and honest
and thank you dodie for opening this discussion


I'm so glad this video was made. I agree with both sides of what's happening and I think this conversation was so important. Shout out to Zannah for bringing it up. I love you Dodie, and I'm glad you are figuring all of this out.
I do the same type of thing; I pretend that I'm in movies when I'm sad. I wrote a poem about how it's so much easier to talk to a camera than someone. Just to pretend that I'm playing a part and that it's not actually happening to me.
This was so nice to see, thank you


i'm so glad you made this. i think it's important to be open about mental health but the way you can sometimes make it sound sometimes is almost romanticizing it, especially in a creator sense


i've become so much more comfortable with talking about my anxiety/depression but like learning when it's a good time to share or not is confusing and difficult, but i've learned a lot about my friends and how they're doing by opening up to them.


I thought the question of "do we create because we are mentally ill or are we mentally ill because we create?" was particularly interesting, and it resonated with me as a creative and mentally ill person. So I looked up this article on psychology today and basically it said that creative people tend to live much more stressful lives because they are generally more open to new experiences and so they don't have an automatic "filter" they can use to categorize experiences - rather, each experience is new and interesting and must be dealt with individually, which can be stressful whether you realize it happening or not. That made a lot of sense to me! So really I think the answer to that question is not that there is a direct link between mental illness and creativity, but that creative people tend to have certain traits that make them susceptible to mental illness.

Very interesting, thank you for sharing :)


This feels oddly more raw than the dark videos where you talk about what you're actually feeling. I just want to add that, as audience members, what we want most is for you to be great people, in every sense of the word. Of course we want you to be successful, but we also want you to be happy and healthy and self aware as much as you can be, and if that means sharing all your emotions, that's fine. But also if that means never sharing those things, we'll respect and support that too. It was truly touching to see you talk about this experience so honestly. I hope you make a choice that you're content with. We'll support you whatever you decide.


Thank you so much for making this video!! I feel like mental health needs to be addressed, but, like you said, sometimes it can be triggering. One time when I was on instagram when I was at a particularly depressed point in my life, I saw one of my mutuals post self harming images and everything they felt at that moment and it triggered me. I didn't even notice that I got triggered. I'm not gonna lie and say I haven't posted things similar to that before because I have. And like you said in the video, it's like empty calories. I've learned today to be more open with the people around me!! Btw, thank you so much for laughing in this video because it made me laugh and smile too!!


I understand what your friends are saying and I agree, I love you and a lot of people do and are here to support you in your mental health journey and we love to hear when your doing okay and that your not alone but it gets to a point where it just becomes toxic and doesn't do anyone any good, people get too invested in your negativity and problems and it creates problems for themselves especially if they are already struggling with mental health. It is good spreading mental health Awareness and how people can get help and I know the negativity is reality for you, as it is for a lot of people but this is supposed to be a positive place people can come to away from their own problems not having to see everything that is going wrong in your life. If you wish to bring mental health awareness u need to do it in the right way by speaking out about how people can get help and positively about how this wont be life forever or it defeats the point. Mental health illnesses are often selfish illnesses so I can understand why you feel the need to over share for support I don't want you to ever feel alone or sometimes you tend to come across as the only one ever struggling with these types of problems and sometimes it gets too much. Always remember u can do this and u have a lot of lovely people supporting you and if it's not okay it's not the end and everything will work out in its own time never give up dodie you are a diamond in the rough.


I like to see you opening up and I know how it feels when you have no one to explain your feelings too. If you were to make a new snapchat or Instagram where you opened up whenever you wanted to, it would help those who are struggling and look up to you, without bothering the people who want to get away from it all. I'd personally love you to carry on opening up because it helps me to realise that not everything is bad. When you are upset, you still somehow manage to say positive things and when I'm going through similar situations I think about your snapchats and videos being so balanced between negative and positive thoughts. I suffer from depression and anxiety so I know how it feels to be sat alone, not being able to talk about it. I am 13 years old, therefore, I do not always have someone to open up to and tbh it's like walking on eggshells. You can't talk about it too much because you don't want to be called an attention seeker but you're going through so much pain that you wish that word was forgotten so you could tell somebody how you really felt. If you were to continue opening up, it would help a lot of people. Maybe post a warning on your snapchat story before talking so if people want to listen they can and if people don't want to, they can skip.


I feel as though all of these messages saying people love you is absolutely wonderful but likely will not be helping you :-( I love this video, the thing about empty calories really stands true. I've been the hugest fan of you since around 2015, and you've changed so much. That is a good thing, but I feel as though this is getting too concerning. The tone I get from you and your words and posts and videos has changed so much recently. These type of situations are so different and difficult for everyone who experience them, so I don't know if any of this will actually help you, but I've had anxiety depression and a dissociative disorder since I was around 10 and I've found that the absolute best thing that helps me when I feel the way of the tone of this video, is to be very exaggerative? Like I'll watch something a video or show or something, and like actively try to smile or laugh instead of just dully trying to fill my void with shallow entertainment. I try my best to just move on, to speak of things and thoughts that pain me only in sacred moments. Today my favorite cat in the world died. Leukemia and kidney failure. Today I cleaned my room and made apple cheescake to cheer up my family. Today I watched a familiar youtuber that used to bring me so much energy and excitement for the world and that of myself. And today I did see that talented sweet angel peek through her pain. I would suggest trying the fake it till you make it! It feels silly and pointless but trust me it will work eventually. Things will get better sweetheart. 💖

Aubrey C That is brilliant advice, it's scientifically proven that smiling more (even fake) will improve ones overall mood. Exaggeration I never thought of though, will definitely try it.


I love this a lot, it resonates so much!


It’s kind fo heartwarming to see how much she’s grown since posting this video. These days she steers away from talking about mental illness and honestly she seems a lot happier. I’m so proud of her and how far she’s come 💙


Dodie I'm really happy to  hear you talk so openly about your mentel health! It's really helping me and probably other people to feel less alone!
I think you should share as much as you feel/ think you should.
I hope your feeling better ❤


i love your honesty
i love your self awareness
i love your openness
i love you dodie


I think it would be a good idea to have a small & private online journal/blog, that just you can see, where you can pour out all these thoughts and feelings in a similar manner, without the backlash of social media. I personally have an online "mental health journal" that just I can see, and it's helped a lot with venting, and if i feel the need, i can show my friends or post it, but if i don't, i can just continue to keep it on that private platform. which is okay. i can also show these to my therapist, instead of feeling on the spot and scared in that chair. she can just read those, and know exactly how i felt in that moment.

I don't think that would help - because she mentions that she likes the part that someone might ask how she is and reassure her - it might make her feel worse if no one can see how she feels and 'not believe' her like she says. I'm sure she's tried journalling before though :L

Sabrina I should do that.. Do you have any place where I could make a website for free??

Julia Peake yup, that Tumblr blog you allow no one to see :)


When I was younger I thought I had depression, online it is so romantisied and just seen everywhere and I just thought that some sadness was depression. However, people like Dodie have actually changed my way of thinking about illness and made me realise I do have a pretty healthy brain (weird way to put it ik) <br>I can honestly tell that she isn't trying to romanticise it, because she is a creator and so many other artists do the same as her. It's her way of getting it out there and even though things are shit, she is still trying to stay remotely postive for her audience. But i do know that this can come across in the completely wrong way. I support Dodie but i can also understand why people think she's oversharing and should stop.

When I was younger I thought I had depression, online it is so romantisied and just seen everywhere and I just thought that some sadness was depression. However, people like Dodie have actually changed my way of thinking about illness and made me realise I do have a pretty healthy brain (weird way to put it ik)
I can honestly tell that she isn't trying to romanticise it, because she is a creator and so many other artists do the same as her. It's her way of getting it out there and even though things are shit, she is still trying to stay remotely postive for her audience. But i do know that this can come across in the completely wrong way. I support Dodie but i can also understand why people think she's oversharing and should stop.


I also suffer from depression and seeing your channel lead me to your snapchat and it's helped me to see other people suffer as well 💛 it's made me feel a lot better and I have learnt to talk to people about how I am feeling 💛 thank you 💖💛


It's so great to watch this video + follow up later and see how she's changed her openness, vibe, and brand. She still had awareness videos, but they are a lot less, "look at me and the shitty problem i have" and a lot more, "i have a shitty problem and here is how im fixing it". It's all so nice and positive, and I think it's all for the best. xx


"it's easier when your  physically sick" I've thought that so many times. It seems nearly impossible to get the courage to talk to someone because it's like, you don't even know if people will believe you or understand the situation. Thank you for sharing this conversation.


This is a very interested video. I feel like another problem with mental health is that if you talk about it with your friend, it's scary to think that your friend might not even be able to help you. And then you bothered them for no reason and/or made them feel like shit

Arno goes Online yes! This! I have plenty of friends who say I can talk to them anytime but ultimately I feel like Im just ranting at them or wasting their time etc so I usually dont. Or I might reach out to them but I dont talk about me, just ask them what they are doing and how they are because it feels too awkward to open up. Its so much easier to talk to people you dont know online.

it can definitely be scary but you'll never get a response if you don't speak up first

SO TRUE. It's like you don't want to be a burden, but you don't know where else to go. Keeping it inside is the shittiest feeling ever.


I love it (not that you are suffering from mental illness, obviously!); it's realistic. We are your friends. You should talk to us about the way you're feeling - you are an authentic human being. I can relate to you on many levels and that's what draws me (and I'm sure many others) to your videos. I do agree you should have trigger warnings about some subjects but just because some subjects are triggering for certain people does not mean that it won't help somebody else. You and I have a lot of the same thoughts and habits and it's comforting to know I am not alone. I would rather sit and watch you talk about your dark, honest feelings than watch a fake smile rant on. Love you!


Honestly, when you are honest with how you are feeling, it helps my mental health. It makes me feel less alone and less fucked because I know that others are feeling what I feel. It makes me feel like I have a sort of "friend" who understands. I want to give you a hug so much. It's why I love your music. It's honest and real. I don't think your realize how much your videos and music helps people. I want so badly to be your friend because I want to help you feel the love and support I've recieved from watching your videos. You don't overshare. You tell the truth.


As for the effects on your audience, perhaps a certain tag or even a different channel could be used to protect the younger and more easily influenced members of your audience. Your mental health videos help me, as I relate to everything you've spoken about. Heck, you're depersonalisation video helped me explain myself to doctors.


i was always so nervous when watching your snapchats because i knew it would make me feel sad just having to watch you struggle so much and not be able to comfort you. it was almost like guilt which caused me to empathise with you and feel similarly to how you were feeling. this video really cleared my mind and i applaud you for being so honest. i understand that just talking about it, even to a camera can make it feel better but for the people on the other side of the screen it has the chance of making things worse. this does not change the fact that i love you to bits and enjoy and appreciate your videos ❤ xx


There is a lot of talk about this becoming part of Dodie's "Brand"- and there is some truth to this, it's the case for other Youtubers as well. But this goes deeper than just a 'brand'. I have depression and anxiety- diagnosed and medicated and all that. I was having a conversation with a friend who had suffered with bad depression but was doing better. She pointed out the hard truth: I didn't want to get better. I don't know how to. Sure, I want relief from my symptoms. But I have been depressed for ten years- and I don't know who I am without it. My mental illness has somehow become part of my personality, part of who I am. When I am feeling up, I have a hard time telling people because I know it's going to go down again and I don't want them to lose sympathy for me. I need them to know I'm depressed, because I need them to treat me that way to cope. I literally have no clue who I am without my depression. How could I possibly have a conversation or an experience which isn't tainted by my mental illness? It just feels like a part of me that has been around so long I forget I wasn't born with it sometimes. When depression becomes so all consuming, you forget yourself without it. I'm scared to get better because I'm scared of what I'll find on the other side. I don't know if Dodie's like this, I don't know if it applies to her at all- but I understand the problem of it leaking into every aspect of life. That said- I am a much more private person, I do NOT have a huge audience, and I don't ever talk to people under my age range these days. But, still.

i agree with this so so much. it's scary, getting "better". i still deal with depression and all but for the longest time when i was younger i just didnt want to get better, i went on and on about how i was fighting but i wasn't. i created things, dark things that were loved by people. it was ironically the only really positive thing in my life at the time and damn if i was going to actually let it go. i didnt know who in was without it. i was afraid of who i was without it. would people stop finding me interesting? would i still create anything? could i? i didnt really think there was anything else "special" about me. that's why dodie's comment about art and mental illness lowkey disappointed me because it is such a bad stereotype and certainly not true. i'm doing sooooo much better and i'm still just as much a writer as i was then. even better perhaps lol. but it just creates this really negative trendy culture that i hate for a new generation to come up and want to be a part of.

Really appreciate this thoughtful comment.

hippopajamas I agree with this quite a bit.

agreed, however sometimes oversharing gets to the point where you only associate the person with the mental illness and the other way around. from what i've read, there are a lot of people that think that's how this is hurting her. xx


We're here for you, Dodie and Hazel. While I think you're right saying you bring stuff back up when you create, I think I create because I'm mentally ill. It's an outlet for me and while it does sometimes add to my mental illness because I bring up stuff, it helps to get it out.


I know it probably doesn't mean much but you have my support Dodie!!❤❤


i struggle with a lot of the same things you do, and i find it comforting to know i'm not alone. i like to see the contrast of you being honest about your mental health and then you going to therapy. you do want to make a difference, and that's so important. when i'm down, all i am is down. there is no up, no hope, so i can relate to the "this is all there is and it's horrible" feeling. but i think it's important to talk about your suffering when you aren't suffering too, so you yourself can grasp that there is more to your mind than pain


reading you're posts on instagram, i never really took the time to think how your true real life friends feel reading that. since you recently started posting about being depressed A LOT on instagram, i've been thinking you're definitely oversharing, and that you don't need to put every time you're down online, and not reach out to friends. but i totally get why you've done it now, and i am so thankful you made this video.


Okay... people might get mad at me for this<br>But if you have the means of getting help, and you want help, you'll get it. Those who suffer like this, myself included, want to get better as soon as possible. I don't doubt Dodie wants to feel better, but to wallow in it and borderline romanticize it is damaging to herself and to those who watch her. I was desperate to go to therapy when my anxiety was at its peak... it's true everyone is different but Dodie seems more like she is using her mental illness as a way to (don't hate me) get attention. I don't think she's faking (at all), but I do think she is glorifying being ill a bit. It's one thing to talk about mental illness and another to use the pain for art...

Okay... people might get mad at me for this
But if you have the means of getting help, and you want help, you'll get it. Those who suffer like this, myself included, want to get better as soon as possible. I don't doubt Dodie wants to feel better, but to wallow in it and borderline romanticize it is damaging to herself and to those who watch her. I was desperate to go to therapy when my anxiety was at its peak... it's true everyone is different but Dodie seems more like she is using her mental illness as a way to (don't hate me) get attention. I don't think she's faking (at all), but I do think she is glorifying being ill a bit. It's one thing to talk about mental illness and another to use the pain for art...


Firstly I think that it really is a great thing for you to be so open to your audience and admit that, say, you have mental health issues. I personally don't get affected by your rather "negative" content, but perhaps the Internet isn't the best place to spill every single bit of our problems. A diary of some sort might help, (I myself have an isolated instagram just for ranting and it just makes me fell better to let my feelings and thoughts out without necessarily sharing it with others,) friends are also a great choice, but I suppose it's just not too appropriate to spill absolutely everything about how you're feeling to social media. But Dodie, remember, we're all here for you and we love you no matter what❤


I appreciate it. It’s like someone is putting my own feelings into words. I can’t explain it well but dodie you’re very good with words so if someone is asking about how something feels I’ll just link them a video 🤣


i really liked this video and i love you both girls ! <3 I know mental illness is a really sensitive subject and it is always difficult to find people around you that can really understand , even if they are your best friends sometimes people don't get it, so i understand the need to talk about it on social media. And it helps a lot sometimes and other times it's really not good. It's something you can not really provide. Anyway, i love you both and i hope you are all good today xxx


even though i am SURE you aren't meaning too, i feel that your snaps do come across as a romanticized portrayal of mental illness. as someone who has gone through depression and anxiety and depersonalization, i know what it can be like, and so in your snaps i see the rawness of your emotions being released, you are a creative person, and so it is understandable that you let your feelings out in  almost a beautiful way.

but.

i have a younger sister who doesn't fully understand mental illness  (i feel you really do have to go through it to truly understand it) and she also watches your videos and follows your snap stories. and it does make me worried that she will a. get a distorted and romanticized view of mental illness. and b. when she is feeling down, (in a non mentally ill way) or if  (god forbid) she experiences mental illness, she will then have trouble dealing with it because her main exposure to mental illness has been witnessing you going through it. i don't want her, or anyone, to misdiagnose themselves after somwhat relating to the emotions in your snaps, or to come across others with mental illness and not know how to correctly help/support them.

i love you a lot dodie and you've helped me deal w a lot of stuff so thank you. please just take care of yourself!!

Couldn’t have put it better myself, this is so true. A few years ago I found my ex-  bestfriend at school. We were exactly alike. We looked like twins, same hair, same personality, same mental health issues. Except I’d been dealing with my problems from a very young age whereas her problems began when she was exposed to mental illness on social media. She kept it to herself and her family (and me) when it all began. And I distinctly remember as time went on some of the things she was saying and the way she was describing her feelings were almost exact quotes from dodie videos and snapchats. We no longer talk and that was one of the problems that resulted in our breakup as friends.

Amber P. I feel like a lot of young people watching dodie feel like they are depressed because of being so submerged into her problems and finding some way to identify with dodie. Because they think she's cool and admirable. Very very influenceable. I think personally that she needs to focus on setting an example to young viewers rather than her own mental health and improvement through YouTube (which sounds horrible but it's true)


that was an amazingly insightful video, Ive never thought about a lot of these things. Im glad you have someone like Zannah to bring you back to earth and 'show you the light.'


I remember when I was younger a lot of youtubers I watched made lots of videos about self-confidence and anxiety and panic attacks. I remember trying to relate with them and doubting things. I became really awkward and anxious and even though I was quite a confident and humorous person beforehand. As I was watching these videos when I was around 12 they sort of influenced my persona. It's hard, it's good you talk about these things and don't just hide the fact you're human and have down days, sometimes lots of negative videos can make impressionable viewers feel hopeless, even though they were quite happy before hand. Love you both though, just a thought


I think it's great that you've put this discussion here. I think it's healthy to reflect on your actions and either learn from your mistakes or carry on with the same action, but that reflection is necessary to see whether it's going well or not. I personally struggle to talk to just anyone because I hate the idea of someone judging or putting their two cents in when it's not overly necessary; I'd rather talk to a therapist, mainly because I've been seeing one on and off for at least 8-9 years, but also they don't judge, they allow us to see things from a different perspective and give constructive suggestions. I think that it's great that you are open about mental health, truly, I think that it can help a lot of people, especially as you're very influential, but a balance needs to be struck about how much you share, mainly for your wellbeing. Sharing too much and regretting it afterwards is a hard burden to bear, but letting it out and thinking about it before you share with the world might be beneficial for you, that is, if you don't have a therapist/close family member or friend to talk to.


actually, that was really really helpful! thank you, dodie and hazel


i love you, dodie. these comments don't get noticed or get any likes but i just wanted to clarify this to the world.


Dodie if you feel talking about your mental health online helps then keep doing it. At the end of the day if it helps you then it's worth it <3


I like the fact that you share things, it's nice to know someone is out there going through the same thing and you really do help me, even if you are talking about something serious, I think people should be able to be real on the Internet, the world isn't all happy and okay, and I think you express the real issues with mental health, also I love you Dodie you are amazing and I'm so proud of you and I hope to one day meet you cause you are a wonderful person 💖💖


Honestly bless you this is exactly how I've been feeling and just yes


You have been one of the most influential people in my life and such an inspiration to me, but I can now only listen to the happier songs of yours because the sad ones only give me bad memories and worse feelings.


I love her music and her honest videos I read her insta posts and watch her snapchat story's but I've tried to read less of them for myself. I went through a bad patch of mental health in December and I got over it (luckily) I didn't have it as bad as Dodie but I found her videos and music relieving but as I got over anxiety I decided it would be better if I looked at her videos from her point of view as her videos would sometimes make me feel a little more down but I still love dodies music and can't wait for her book will buy as soon as it comes out!! <br>And agreed with Hazel and Zannahs comments xxx

I love her music and her honest videos I read her insta posts and watch her snapchat story's but I've tried to read less of them for myself. I went through a bad patch of mental health in December and I got over it (luckily) I didn't have it as bad as Dodie but I found her videos and music relieving but as I got over anxiety I decided it would be better if I looked at her videos from her point of view as her videos would sometimes make me feel a little more down but I still love dodies music and can't wait for her book will buy as soon as it comes out!!
And agreed with Hazel and Zannahs comments xxx


I loved this, please make more videos with Hazel x


The creativity thing is so true, I go through phases of creating stuff, then it starts driving me crazy and I have to take a break from it. I start to base my self worth on my productivity and it's suuuper unhealthy haha. Don't feel like you have to make videos/blog posts to feel better xx


You guys are so lucky to have each other ☺🤗 So sweet ❤


I also think, about the social media and oversharing thing, that it is true. Sometimes it can get too much and as beings of empathy it can even affect your audience. Furthermore, I think you can become too reliant on it sometimes like to the point it becomes a practice or a bit addictive even because it's like a cry for help but without any embarrassment you may experience from directly asking your friends. I think sometimes we need to be sad by ourselves in that we need to get through it by sorting our own thoughts out. Other times, directly asking your friends is necessary when you can't deal with it on your own, and oftentimes that's the way we should go. Just practice defeating the barriers of self-doubt and self-consciousness when asking for help. Realise that your friends will support you when you need it. And even though maybe what they say when you're at your lowest (like what zannah did when u posted that snap) may not be the best thing for you to hear at the time, it isn't necessarily the worst thing. Practice realising your brain is being irrational and at least acknowledging it when you're feeling shitty, and then practice forcing yourself to act on what you know instead of what you fear. Sharing your experiences online with your audience can be very beneficial for both sides of the equation, but in moderation. I know emotions don't take a break and mental health/well-being isn't something you can control, but we all need a break sometimes. It's good to tackle issues once in a while but it's also good to let yourself and your audience take a break. I'm not saying your mental health isn't something we'd like to know about - in fact, id say some of us can be too adamant and obsessive over your mental health because we care, but since, and especially, most of your audience is young, we're more easily affected by such emotionally charged content. While taking care of yourself, you also sorta have a responsibility, I suppose, to care for your audience in more roundabout ways and factoring them into what you put out there. Everything in moderation, dodie, or at least try to show the world that. I'm not saying you should be dishonest with who you are and how you're feeling, but your public persona should be a persona with edits and thoughts into every piece of content, to benefit both yourself and your audience. <br>O shit that was long soz and thanks if u read until this line lol

I also think, about the social media and oversharing thing, that it is true. Sometimes it can get too much and as beings of empathy it can even affect your audience. Furthermore, I think you can become too reliant on it sometimes like to the point it becomes a practice or a bit addictive even because it's like a cry for help but without any embarrassment you may experience from directly asking your friends. I think sometimes we need to be sad by ourselves in that we need to get through it by sorting our own thoughts out. Other times, directly asking your friends is necessary when you can't deal with it on your own, and oftentimes that's the way we should go. Just practice defeating the barriers of self-doubt and self-consciousness when asking for help. Realise that your friends will support you when you need it. And even though maybe what they say when you're at your lowest (like what zannah did when u posted that snap) may not be the best thing for you to hear at the time, it isn't necessarily the worst thing. Practice realising your brain is being irrational and at least acknowledging it when you're feeling shitty, and then practice forcing yourself to act on what you know instead of what you fear. Sharing your experiences online with your audience can be very beneficial for both sides of the equation, but in moderation. I know emotions don't take a break and mental health/well-being isn't something you can control, but we all need a break sometimes. It's good to tackle issues once in a while but it's also good to let yourself and your audience take a break. I'm not saying your mental health isn't something we'd like to know about - in fact, id say some of us can be too adamant and obsessive over your mental health because we care, but since, and especially, most of your audience is young, we're more easily affected by such emotionally charged content. While taking care of yourself, you also sorta have a responsibility, I suppose, to care for your audience in more roundabout ways and factoring them into what you put out there. Everything in moderation, dodie, or at least try to show the world that. I'm not saying you should be dishonest with who you are and how you're feeling, but your public persona should be a persona with edits and thoughts into every piece of content, to benefit both yourself and your audience.
O shit that was long soz and thanks if u read until this line lol

doddlevloggle omg sorry for the essay-long thingy also if I didn't make sense in parts it's because it's 3am sozzzzzz


I have been thinking about this for a while as I've been watching you for a while, and on my own mental health bumpy road. I'm really glad you're bringing it up and open to discussion! I think my issues with your raw sharing are about the most sensitive topics and the effect on your audience. I had an issue with you updating how you felt after every therapy session or 'zapping' session because for me at least meds took at least a month to take effect and I was in therapy for 6 months before I felt comfortable reflecting on 'results' or how far I had come. Getting help is often framed in a negative way and I think it's important to talk about your experiences with it in a constructive way, idk. Another thing is, i know it's your life and your truth and sometimes you feel shitty about yourself, but I think there's something very harmful about saying 'ah man I look like shit' all the time because then your fans will compare themselves to you and they're so enamored with you they'll see themselves in such a negative light. I think that can be a really tricky situation. Idk, I myself have had to step away from your social media at times bc there are so many things I want to say to build you up when you're down but we don't know each other personally and there's no garuntee I'll even directly reach you. So that's a bit of emotional labor for me personally. Just some thoughts. Again, I think it's good that you show all the sides of you. And that's something I've respected you for for a long time. But there's a gray area and there's an amount of responsibility, I would just think about how you at 14 would respond every time you post something. Love u!

Also; this is a long shot and obviously you're reading hundreds of comments but if you have any questions about what I'm saying pls dm me! My Twitter is @coreyholt96. I'm 21 and I've gone through some similar stuff and this stuff means a lot to me so I'd love to talk if you're at all interested.


I firstly just want to say that you're both incredible and a healthy amount of discussion surrounding mental health is a huge step forward in combating the stigma, and embarrassment you discussed when opening up to loved ones.
however, i'd really like to provide an example of when your sharing can become damaging to your following.
her deep and inquisitive angle has always been a drawing for many to dodie, and she wouldn't be the same creative we all know and love without it, but as a 16 year old who has enjoyed her content for a number of years, her recent and more persistent discussion and documentation of bad periods are intensely damaging, and slightly disrespectful to her audience -(i'm sorry if this sounds attacking by the way, I honestly do not mean it like that)
ive watched both dodie and hazel for many years, and they're both key figures in my 'growing up', but there's definitely a strong air of romanticisation from the way dodie in particular has shown her struggles. whether intentional or not, it creates a desire to be the same, to want to fit in. I've always been a happy person, speaking generally of course, but in recent months have found myself overplaying or falsifying mental health issues without even noticing. it will only be after a dramatic breakdown to a friend that I will realise. obviously, o b v i o u s l y not all the blame lies with dodie in this instance, but this realisation has turned into genuine self hatred and the creation of real mental health issues.
again, i'm not attacking- but this sharing has real ramifications and its not the service an audience should provide.


your vids on dpdr help me out so much - i was diagnosed nearly two weeks ago and have been suffering for about a year and a half. as much as i love dodie I do feel like there's some stuff that just doesn't need to be shared? obviously it can be very helpful in moderation but sometimes i think you do romanticise mental health a little bit. venting is great, but i don't think the internet is a great place to do it.


that was beautiful. inspiring. relatable. true. and just helpful. thank you girls❤❤


I always listen to your snapchats. Especially late at night, often I am feeling the same thing and have been feeling the same thing, and much in the way of you saying it's like reaching out without having to bother any of your friends or just getting it off your chest, watching your snapchats is the validation that someone else feels like this. Thanks dodes


Dodie, I love you so much you're so precious and hazel looks cute and you're both beautiful 💕


i don't think i have ever related to anything more in my whole entire life.... i am crying watching dodie and hazel, i love you both, so much, i hurt with you❤


We all love you and will always be here for you!! <3


I absolutely love your videos and music, and i really like that you talk about mental health. I havent ever felt that your videos overshare or are too negative and i do think it's so important to spread awareness about mental illness. Then again, i havent ever had a mental illness, and having a mental illness probably changes the impact of your videos considerably. I don't have snapchat, so i dont know whether you do overshare on sc. But you do have to remember that you have a very large audience that looks up to you, and that you should be careful about what you say regarding mental illness. ❤❤❤