i don't think i 'have' depersonalization but i definitely feel it from time to time, as a result of being sleep deprived and depressed for a few days. the day before i feel actually better not 'recovered' but just better than i was is just so spacey and i can't focus on words because my brain has shut down in order to repair itself.


depersonalization is terrifying. you seem like you're invisible, and everything is hazy. you start to see the world differently. everything feels like it's pulling up off the ground and you're floating but then there is a huge weight on your chest. it's just scary. at least that's what it's like for me.


I feel even afraid in the tub and showering and washing my hair bc I am alone in the bathroom.


How to cure Depersonalization in three simple steps.

Introduction:

Depersonalization is a state of mind where you feel unreal and emotionally numb. The environment around you seems unfamiliar, strange and almost fake as if it were made of plastic.

People then begin to feel changes in themselves, where they begin to question if anything is real or if anything exists. Eventually, they become so engrossed by these thoughts; they begin to believe them.

What causes these sensations?

A series of events may trigger this feeling of being 'unreal' that would varry from anxiety, panic attacks, mental trauma, etc. (e.g. a person may have witnessed a horrific incident that could cause him/her to feel this way, temporarily.)

How long does this last?

Not for very long. If you have previously experienced visual distortions, chances they have probably subsided by now. All that remains are worrying, intrusive thoughts that seem overwhelming and almost impossible to overcome.

If still experience visual distortions you are most likely still overwhelmed by these events and are overly anxious (constantly on edge). Regardless, both of these disturbances can be overcome very easily.

Why do people continue to feel this way?

Interestingly, this has much less to do with the root cause and more to do with the strange thoughts the person experiences on a frequent basis.

Here is the pattern:

1- Thought arises telling the person that nothing is real, nothing feels real.

2- The person then believes the thought and acknowledges it.

3- Then the person feels boggled and confused, questioning the validity of his thoughts.

The cycle repeats.

What do thoughts have to do with feeling unreal?

When you touch something, feel something, or say something, you would experience thoughts in your mind telling you what you are touching does not feel or seem real. When you are talking, the same thought arises telling you that it is not you speaking, that the words coming out of your mouth are automated and you have no control over it.

Some people believe these thoughts, even though they know they are not true.

Only when a person believes these thoughts does he become an observer. Which is something that many people complain about.

How do we cure Depersonalization and reduce the intensity of these thoughts?

There are three simple steps that should be taken when facing these situations. With daily use and practice they will become second nature.

1- Realize that these thoughts are not yours. (Any deceitful thoughts that would cause you mental pain, wasting of time, etc.) e.g. Thoughts of feeling unreal fit in all these categories.
(1- Deceitful = Not true 2- Mental Pain = Stress, Anxiety. 3- Wasteful = Analyzing and evaluating)

2- Don't believe the thoughts. (You might think theres something more, don't believe the thoughts, they are not true. They shouldn't be analyzed or evaluated, they will simply waste your time.)

3- Don't blame yourself for having these thoughts. (Self-blame will cause you to fall back into the viscous cycle, you will begin to feeldepressed > worrying thoughts arise > anxiety.

How does this help?

By implementing these 3 simple steps into your daily routine, you will eliminate the feeling of Depersonalization as well as anxiety.

1- You will not be troubled by the thoughts, because they don't belong to you. (Reduces thinking about thoughts)

2- You will not believe deceitful thoughts that only aim to cause you mental pain. (Reduces anxiety)

3- You will not blame yourself for having these thoughts and will learn to deal with them more effectively in a healthy way. (Reduces the likelihood of falling into a depressed state)

I hope this helps and benefits you all as much as it has helped me.


“I would fight it, but how can you fight it when the IT is what you’re using to fight with”


I feel like the memories I have are more precious than moments I live currently because everything from the past seems so perfect and colourful but when I live today it's all just black and white, I want to appreciate something I want to feel it but I just feel like I'm forcing myself to the point it's not natural. There are certain things I enjoy like time with friends and a good laugh but I can no longer experience the feelings I had long ago - the feeling of having a boyfriend (God I miss that), the amazing feeling of the sea and beach (which now feels like cold water and annoying sticky sand) and those nights where you just pop on a fleece and star gaze (which is now boring and time consuming). I feel like I've desensitised myself to beautiful complex feelings. Sure I feel happy, sad, glad, whatever - but where's the deeper feeling? I can feel but not FEEL. Everything is shallow, like I'm desperately trying to swim but staying on the bank. The hardest feeling to part with is the excitement of seeing my family.. they've all changed :( the cousins I knew to be cute and chubby and innocent now stay attached to their phones, put their noses up and dismiss the childlike sense of excitement they used to have. It's so depressing being a teenager, when those around you can only have fun drunk or high. TRUE fun comes from childhood wonder and innocence. Why is it that I feel so self conscious and hunched up with that feeling that whatever I say to that old family member might not strengthen the precious relationship I am losing grip of? Why can't I just hug them relentlessly, talk a lot, and just have a laugh? It's cause as years go by I'm detaching myself. I do it out of the lack of feeling, I have nothing to give to people so they can't give back. I'm lazy in the way I interact and it's impossible to tighten a bond that was just so amazing long ago. I roll my eyes back, stare into space, I don't feel anything! FEEL, Eliza, FEEL!!!! The past is so melancholic when you can't have something beautiful back. When you're a teenager you should be experiencing the new, having new relationships and boyfriends and sex and parties. But I just have everything I had as a kid, but less. It's all luke warm. It feels like I'm not moving on from childhood cause I'm too shy. I haven't transitioned to the stage beyond my comfort zone. So, is this me forever? Will I just go to uni and wonder through the corridors and grounds like a kid in a lost playground, move into my own home and have a job but treat it like I'm going to school? Visit my old grandparents desperately trying to make the most and get excited to go to their wonderful countryside village but just seeing  them all ill in a bed that's not their own?  Then when my parents die, what happens then? It's all gone. My childhood is gone. So I'm depressed, cause there's nothing of me nothing I have developed or grown into but that. I'm living alone eating sausage and beans with a cat. I go to parks then realise I'm too old.. I go to the seaside and realise it's too cold.. I meet with friends but why would I? They've all grown up, had kids, living life as they should. Life is just a black hole. Where's the light at this point. I'm 15 and I'm in the dark, but not the darkest dark just yet.

I can't think like this.. it's toxic. I want to feel that I do feel different and I'm not just a child losing everything. I actually do have a new life, with new emotion, new experience, new intention, new friends.. I mean, I do have friends! I have interests! I've improved in my art, my style.. there are things I can say I'm proud of: I helped out at my nursery, I've had a date (well, a year and a bit ago but it counts), I've been for walks with my guy and girl friends, I've done scary stuff like scaresville and talking to people. I completed a graphic novel course, in London, on my own (child me would've HATED that!) I went on a school residential abroad, I've had alcohol at a party (family party but whatever), I've gotten into Netflix series (skins! It's the best), I've learnt to horseride, I've had new crushes, I've been to see musicals.. in fact there's a lot I'm not even mentioning the best! I'm going to start my gcses this year as well and I know that that's something different and it's going to change my life. I am already excited for sixth form and meeting new people as well as having new teachers, I think I should think of the past a healthy amount and live life not dwell on life. I can't do this all the time I have depression. This is me forcing out everything happy me has told me when I'm not sad.


thank u for talking about this. mental health month, leggo


the hardest thing for me about mental illness is feeling unsure if I'm sad "enough". i think I've unconsciously done what you ate trying to do, live my life as well as i can with this. i just hope i can be strong enough to talk to someone

I struggled with the "but am i sad enough to be depressed" thing for a while. i think the best thing to do is probably seek a diagnosis from a doctor, which i didn't do - i just let it get worse and worse until i was definitely sad enough! please talk to someone :)


sometimes I go to wash my hands glimpse in the mirror and think "who the fuck is that" and stand in the mirror looking at myself and moving my arms and I'm like "is this me?" and yeah the movie life thing started happening to me like 2 years ago and if was so bad the first time that I literally controlled my body to walk over to my locker and then I broke out of it and was like "oh shit did I say anything weird to anyone??!!" I forgot everything I did


i feel exactly the same as you, it sucks to have a mental illness but im glad i can put a name to it which means i can get rid of it


ive commented about this once before and someone told me to get therapy for what i was feeling and i did online therapy and everything was turning good again but then recently ive just not felt anything good and i just cry until im numb and i feel like nothing is working inside me and i cant tell anyone fully because i feel like my problems arent as important as other people as my friends have experienced things much worse and mine just feel childish. i just dont want to feel this nothingness anymore but it just wont leave and i was so happy before and ive just ruined everything good i ever had because i feel like a shitty insensitive person because people have gone through worse but i just cant stop


I left my mental health for 3 years before I was forced to get help


I'm 16,male & have the exact same problem. It's so fucking weird and over the past year it's just hit me out the blue. I'm forgetting who I fucking am and I feel like I'm watching myself outside myself. Just completely fucking numb what do I do. I've forgotten what I want from life, what I like in life and even my own personality. Shit I need to sort this shit out, but being a 16 year old male I can't talk to the 'boys' about this😂. AHHHHHHHH

this is me holy shit imglad im not on my own (not that i wa nt anyone else to feel this)

Your not crazy use it to your advantage it sounds sooo silly but you will think everything is fake I take it so just make your own world out of this reality

yo i'm 16 and male and feeling like this, we should talk sometime if you're up for it, not knowing each other at all might make it easier <br>promise i'm not a 60 year old man haha

yo i'm 16 and male and feeling like this, we should talk sometime if you're up for it, not knowing each other at all might make it easier
promise i'm not a 60 year old man haha

+11ellie7 Telling someone to ignore their issues until they go away is bad advice.

If you speak to anyone about it, don't let them convince you it's your age (being 16 and all). People say it gets better when you get older but it really doesn't if you ignore the issues you have now. Find someone you can have a serious conversation about it with.

Dude, you gotta find someone who you can trust and talk to honestly. It's super hard to work through things by yourself, and it can make it more stressful!! Even go ahead and visit a psychologist, they exist to help you with things like that. I'm 16 as well, and I struggle with a lot of depression and anxiety ))): but I've got a couple friends who I can talk to, and I see a psychologist from time to time and both of those things really really help! Try and sort something out soon, cause as dodie said it can get worse if you just bottle it up!! I hope everything goes well for you, you can get through this ((:

16 is a really difficult time for most teenagers, its that weird period of time where you brain is going crazy of all the changes.. But don't let being a men stop you from seeking help from others if you really need it :)


I have felt horrible lately, I've been really depressed and I feel like I'm not here at all ,school is starting and I'm scared because I'm going into a new school. I'm trying so hard to get better but it's so hard. I hope I get better


From what I hear I feel Borderline Personality Disorder and medication .


I feel so frustrated and annoyed that I can't properly phrase what anxiety and panic attack is to anyone that hasn't experienced it before. I wanna make sure that who I'm talking to can understand what I'm saying but I can't and I hate it


If there's anyone still on this video who has gone through the constant state of not feeling real and has passed it, please can you tell me how. I am so desperate at this point I just wanna know there's a light at the end of the tunnel, thank you


hi, i'm so sorry if i will vent my feelings here, i know all of you are not interested but i have to tell someone. i have to let this out of my chest and i have nobody to talk to so i thought you guys might understand.

i'm 14 years old, i live in the philippines (it's a small fucked up country somewhere in asia), and i'm currently in 10th grade. i've been suffering from severe depression for the past months. long story short, i f--king hate my life. i hate it. i'm surrounded by shitty toxic people who did nothing but pull me down. i've been constantly feeling like i'm drowning and most of the time i have a really hard time breathing. my family always fight specially at night. it's kinda been a routine, every night before i go to bed, i would close my bedroom door and play dodie's songs as loud as i can so that i won't be able to hear my parents fighting, my younger brother crying and whining, and my older sister screaming. it's always been like that. most of the times i just want to be invisible. i just want to runaway and go somewhere i'm alone. a place where i would want people to see me. a place where there's peace. a place where i'm happy. today i was just sitting on my bed and me and my sister had an argument. i ended up crying alone in the dark when she left my room. i hate people. is it normal to hate people so much? every little thing they do annoys me. i don't appreciate anything anymore. nothing makes me happy anymore. i'm drowning and soon enough i will run out of breathe. i hate my life. i hate everything. i wish i could grow old, earn my own money, buy/rent a house or a flat, be by myself, not deal with other's shit, and just be happy. damn, i just wanna be happy. is that too much to ask?

i'm depressed, but i guess i'm not suicidal. i would never want to end my own life but i am ready to die. i do know that one day all of this will come to an end. i only have three years of high school left and then i'll go to college. i swear i will study hard. i will have a good decent job. i will earn myself some money. i will buy my own house. i will find great friends. someday, i will be happy. i will work hard to get out of this place. if you're going through something right now, please hold on. let's fight this together. slowly. step by step. someday we will learn how to swim, or maybe someday we will discover that we're actually fucking mermaids and then we'll stop drowning. you decide.

stay alive |-/

Franchesca Grace I know it's rough, but you'll get through all of this. many people have gone through the same as you, and they've gotten through it. think of how amazing it'd be to feel normal again. or if you've never felt normal, just think of how good it'll feel to live a normal life. it's hard to go through all this as a kid, cause you can't run away from it. you can't move to a different state. I know it sounds messed up, but I always think of people who have it worse than me. know you're not alone, and you'll get through this. stay strong.

also, my family is broke as f--- and help for mental problems is not common and is really expensive here in my country so it's not that easy to say "just go and get some help". <b>sighs</b> i don't know what to do with my life at the moment

also, my family is broke as f--- and help for mental problems is not common and is really expensive here in my country so it's not that easy to say "just go and get some help". *sighs* i don't know what to do with my life at the moment


I always feel like am not me,  if that makes any sense. I feel like I'm watching myself in a tv show or something. I just don't feel like I'm me. I just feel like I'm just floating on threw life watching this person live their life and my just watching from a first person view. I've never talked about this with anyone and I don't even know why I'm commenting about it, I think I just really admire Dodie being able to tell us is so amazing.

I also find myself not relating to myself, I don't like my name but I don't like any other names. I feel like I'm just sitting and watching me on a screen or something. I only recently realized that I'm not me am just a viewers watch me. I think

I also fine myself drifting out of reality.I find myself more recently zoning out into my little made up imaginary world of my dreams and my future.


Wish I could text 5 friends to complain about how low I'm feeling. Oh wait, I don't have the privilege of having friends or making friends anymore because depression is real for me and has kept me isolated. But here you are, uploading videos daily and smiling in the majority of them (not this one since you have to play the part) saying depression has affected you. If you have depression then it stems from your desperate need for approval. Grow up, wish I had it as easy as you and so do people dealing with depression and other serious issues affecting their daily lives


See I have depression and depersonalisation disorder on and off. And I’m trying to get a diagnosis for anxiety and get therapy but my mum doesn’t take me seriously.

It’s like I’m trapped in my own head, like I’m looking Through a wall of water and everything I do feels like a dream and eveything is slow and moments just pass. I’ve had it 4 times and they always last for a week or two and everytime I feel like I’m never going to “wake up” again.

I can’t control what I say, how I move, what I do.
And I feel like I’m going mad, and I’m trying I’m fucking trying to get help and my mum jaut thinks it’s hormones and I can’t do this myself anymore. I can’t.


i don't know if i'm insane and just relate or if i am just making myself believe i can relate and it makes me feel terrible


Sad thing is, I personally believe that I have something wrong, but I can't go to the therapist because A-my parents where my dad says something about my situation being normal and my mom fretting over the fact that she loved me, B-money, C-I can't tell my parents what the bloody hell is wrong with me...


It hurts me to see that there are over 300 people out there that would take the time to dislike this video rather than liking it or just moving on but it is what it is I suppose.


I am pretty sure that none of us were going "just shut up and turn it off". I think a good large section of us were thinking "Oh God please talk to a professional you need support please we love you"

Hamish Woodland who other then yourself is a professional on yourself? Help is okay but when it comes to depersonalization the best way to deal with it is not to deal with it.

@***** No I had to look it up its something the Vlog Bros designed to put comments you agree with at the top

+Kayla :-/ watch the most recent vlogbrothers video

why do people keep putting + in comments

Yay okay good that was part of the plan. Phew.


depersonalization is a BITCH.   my mom recently passed away and i experienced a few episodes over the past month and it was the worst feeling i've ever felt.


i'm not the type of person who comments on things, it's probably the first and last time i'll be doing this, but i feel like i have to give you a HUGE thank you. i felt like i was going crazy for years. therapists also ignored the way i was feeling and since now i felt like i was making it up. i still struggle with this, but hearing you say that i am not alone, not even crazy, and what i'm feeling is valid and real is a huge help for me. more than anything, understanding that what i feel EXISTS and has a name is the biggest help i could ever receive. thank you so much for sharing your experience and thank you so much for helping other people's out with this hell.


"how can you fight 'it', when the 'it' is the thing you are using to fight with?"

Μαργαρίτα Δαρζ


I'm not aware of the diagnosis of depersonalisation but wonder if I have it /it happens to me! I definitely have anxiety and depression. I also go through the days acting normally but not really feeling there!! It's a very strange feeling, like my head has broken!!! (seriously) I really hope you get the help you need. It will get better, it will pass I'm sure. Don't panic about being strange. You're not. You just need help!!!! ❤❤❤


Been fighting DPDR since 10. Scary shit, especially when you grow up not knowing what you have and convinced one day your mind is gonna snap.

I’m 14 and feel like I’m going to have it for the rest of my life now :/


This is an old video , but sometimes I tend to want to comment , share how I feel on here or any video about dispersonlization + depression because i know that others most likely know what I'm referring to when I say I feel like I don't exist / or others most likely will understand but I end up deleting what I type of giving up because I feel that no one will reply or answer or relate or even care , I tend to feel that really it doesn't matter or it'll go away or it's not important,  it's just too much


I do believe i have depersonalization disorder. It doesn't happen to me as often as it used to but i do become dizzy and... well the best way i can explain it is i feel like im dreaming. It's been happening to me since i was little. I am 13 years old and the first time i remember it happened to me was before i was in kindergarten, when i was 5 or so. I was at the fair with my siblings and father. I remember getting on the swings for the very first time and it being so fun. My brother sat beside me. He asked, "Are you having fun?" and i responded with, "I feel like im dreaming." Naturally, you wouldn't assume much of the response at all because it seems like i meant something else than what i actually meant considering I was only 5. I've talked with my dad about it but it never came across him as a serious topic. He thought that it may be because i don't get enough sleep but i believe it may be something much more serious than that. It's scary to think about. I feel like no one understands me.


So ive had chronic derelization for about a year now with little episodes of depersonalization and lately forming sentences have been sorta hard to form.Well thats not fully true i can from sentences but it takes me a sec to do so and thus talking to people is hard. I can understand what people are saying but puting a response in to words in a normal amount of time is hard.


Why did no one tell em derealisation and depersonalisation was a thing? Now I understand why I feel werid alot

emo shit very misunderstood disorder! Dm me on ig @dpdrhelp if you would like ♥


Sometimes I think I'm not actually on earth because when I try and talk to my friends no one listens to me and I just feel like I'm not really there and I ask myself "is this actually happening?" Ok sorry for being depressing be happy and smile 😊


I GET YOU SO MUCH ITS SCARY.i have moved into 4 houses of the past 4 years and i absoultly HATE change and one day i just got fed up of change.i wanted to be in my first house where live was good and i wasnt mental and had fits where no one sees me.i missed no still miss my room and my garden and i miss being best friends with girls i only talk to because our mothers are close.i just miss my old life and i want the good bits of my new life to mesh with the good bits of my old live.that would be lovely.


I hope everyone who is here feeling this finds help it’s hard to get out of this iv been in such a cycle I was getting better then it gets worse it’s back and forth I hate feeling like I’m not here. 😐


its fucking crazy to me that other 13 year olds are just like- stably happy. like imagine being happy and not worrying that at any moment you’re gonna break down crying in the middle of class. they’re so lucky and i’m so jealous.


sometimes i just feel like i literally cannot smile? like even if i focus all my energy into it i just cant. i end up just opening my lips and showing my teeth. its not even when im sad neccessarily, i just feel so disconnected from my body and whats happening around it that i just cant show or feel any emotion at all. luckily this feeling only comes in waves and it is not permanent, but its so scary when it happens and it always happens so suddenly.


It's like when I wake up sometimes I know what I should feel and what I should want to do and so I create this other me that I assume all day and it feels like I can't remember anything I did that day and I'm so so tired. That's another thing. Tired, so so so so tired. When I sit down in my bed alone I just like go into this like super glazed over me. The one my duplicate had been talking for all day and I look into myself to find nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'm just watching my life happen and I'm not involved at all, like a movie. It's really hard to talk to peoplr because its hard to figure out what I should feel. Like should I shrug or should I shake my head or should I just say no? Even something like that takes a little time to figure out. The best way to describe it is if one day you woke up and you like don't want to do anything but you have to predend you do. It sucks.


Watching this in 2021. I think you’re doing well. You are a robot. A get up and go bot. 😊


NO ONE THINKS YOUR MACKING IT UP!!! and if they do then they dont deserve to see your beautiful face  😢


I’m in a really bad place right now with my depression. I can’t get out of bed, not even to feed myself or go to the toilet, only get up when the pain in my stomach is unbearable, I sleep for hours and hours and when I’m about to wake up I feel like the world is turning around me and I’m the only thing that has stopped. I look around in my room and I recognize the things in it but everything feels strange, like I’m in some kind of set. When I go out of my house I feel like everyone is judging me, all eyes on me or not at all, they can’t even notice I’m there, no in between.

hey, listen to me :)
a couple years back i hit rock bottom, too. no one could ever say something to me that would make me feel better, i would just think ‘oh p*ss off, no one understands’. so because of that, this comment could mean absolutely nothing to you, but i’ll try anyway.
sometimes we dig ourselves in ruts, not purposely, but kind of accidentally. it’s a bloody viscous cycle, you feel worse, and worse, and worse. to get out of this rut there is simply, one solution; and the majority of the time it’s the hardest solution.
the solution is to get a routine again. start really really small, i mean really small. like sitting up in bed, getting out and walking around your room, then you can get back into bed again.
even small steps that seem pointless are always, always better than nothing.
smaller steps will turn into bigger steps. my best piece of advice is to always do something productive. it may not seem productive to anyone else, but other people don’t matter.
get out of the viscous cycle because trust me, really trust me here.... as soon as you’re out of it; no matter how hard it is to actually get out of it, things slowly start progressing from there.
i hope this helps you, remember you’re not alone :’)


I asked my dad about going to the doctors about anxiatu, but all he did was ask who wasinfluencing me to feel this. Oops


Sometimes I think it's so strange that there are people who don't panic after they say stuff and there are people who don't want to sleep constantly so they don't have to be //there//


ive been diagnosed with social anxiety and chronic anxiety induced depersonalisation and derealization and honestly it's the worst thing ive ever experienced, i hate having to deal with being disassociated every second of every day but seeing that im not alone and you feel the same honestly helps so much, it feels nice to know im not going insane and other people feel the same way xx luck and love to you and anyone else with similar issues


depersonalisation. i think i have that?? I've been feeling like this for over a year, everyone just told me it was just my depression messing with my head.


i don't actually think that i have related to anything more than this i swear


i haven't been diagnosed with anything but i am almost sure i suffer with depersonalisation and anxiety. i'm spaced out all the time and i'm so anxious about everything. the past few months i just haven't been happy. i'm just sad. i will keep telling myself "you are supposed to be happy" and "you have nothing to be sad about" which are both true but i'm just sad all the time. i don't know why and i want to know why. i try talking to people about it and they're just like "you're fine. just smile and you'll be okay" which i do because i am desperate to feel happy again but it doesn't work. i don't know what to do anymore

FallingOutOfYourTwentyOnePanicking!PilotsWithMCR get help. you've said it on the Internet, you can tell someone you love and trust like a friend or parent. Also remember there are people experiencing the same thing.


when dodie inspires you to go get urself some therapy


I can understand you girl. and I have called distress hotlines because I don't know what else t0 do. but also I  dating someone who has judged me and called me down whenever I try to improve my mental health. I've been very alone and every time I think I can't handle these thoughts anymore I push through it because I have my 2 babies. ever since I was in grade 5 I have dealt with depression due to abuse and when I had my first baby I went to a doctor to get he and she brushed me off nd told me she can't help me because I'm more at risk by using anti depressant so basically I am still dealing with the problem 3 years later but now I'm experience very bad depersonalisation and I'm getting scared.


i was trying so hard not to cry but when she pointed at the camera and said 'your problems are not insignificant' i broke into tears oh dear lord.


She is talking about depression and other mental illness and its so good and she is so cute :)


"a text to all my friends so they know how I feel in a big paragraph which also took me ages to think of"


i can really relate to when dodie was struggling not to cry when talking about this. i hate hate hate hate crying in front of people, and whenever i try to then talk about my problems with mental illnesses or things that have happened to me that have damaged me, it's like waterworks and i can't turn it off, which makes it really difficult to talk about things like this that truly are important. :////


You didn't seem weird at all.
    If you weren't able to acknowledge and admit the feelings and sensations you were going that would have been weird.
   You seem like an awesome normal human being that is going through a very difficult, strange and scary time and you knew you just wanted to feel normal and be a happy person.
   Hopefully your doing A LOT better now!


I don't depersonalize, but I have bipolar disorder, GAD, and BPD. I've been hallucinating every night before bed, and it is driving me insane. I don't feel fully manic, but I do feel a bit depressed, so maybe a bit mixed. I'm struggling with my meds at the moment, I see my therapist weekly, my psychiatrist every week or two, and have ECT once or twice a week. I've been to the psychiatric ward 17 times, locked up, and under supervision. I feel like I'm going crazy at the moment, and would love to get a grip on myself. The hallucinations are occurring at the moment, and it's difficult to get a hold of yourself in these situations.


These past few months I've felt like other people aren't really there?? Like they feel like all their movements are rehearsed, scripted maybe. They just feel like all their eyes are looking into my brain and they can hear my thoughts and it's so scary. It feels like this is all just a big, sick recreation of a stage, and someone put me in the middle and told me to start acting, except I don't know the lines or how I'm supposed to move. I keep seeing things like people passing by me but then I look and nothing is there. And I feel so crazy that I can't tell anyone about it.


my stepdad of 9 years broke up with my mother and left for another country. i cried when i said goodbye and ive cried since then also. but it wasnt because i was sad. i cried because i thought I should. its a normal reaction to cry so why didnt i? why must i force myself to cry just to feel some emotional releif?! why am i a pitiful mixture of sad and numb?

 a few of my friends left to go to another school, leaving me behind to deal with my problems. again, i forced myself to cry because i thought i should. when i go to school, i look forward to coming home, curling up into my dark room and listening to music while i force myself to cry.

i feel happiness in certain moments but its always bittersweet and fake because i know that it wont last. when i hang around my friends i cant help but think they dont want me there. that i am a nusiance and they only laugh and smile to be polite. i walk away from interacting with people and spend hours obsessing over how annoying and loud i sounded..

ive seen those show or cover snapchat stories marking me as the most obnoxious and least favourite person in my classes. i thought I would cry and moan and whine. instead, I felt cold and empty. I'm desperately longing for something but i dont know what it is or how to get it.

whats wrong with me?


I don't really know what to say because your positive attitude to the whole thing is pretty much everything I might have said. I just really hope that it all works out for you and then one day, hopefully soon, you'll make a video about how you're feeling so much better <3

oh oh oh actually i can think of something useful to say - you could try yoga! It's like moving meditation. If you get the right instructor, it's got all the benefits of mindfulness and awareness of yourself and the moment etc, but you're also getting the blood flowing and feel great for doing some exercise. Idk, i just find I prefer it to stuff like mediation cos I can't sit still, so I thought I'd recommend it :)


Only thing that keeps me going is seeing people smile. There's no better feeling than making someone smile or laugh.


my friend has depersonalization. please someone tell me how i can help her when she's having a panic attack!!!!!


I feel like I’m living in a different world too


today I'm going to my first therapy session after putting it off for so many weeks. I'm so very scared and I feel like I can't breath. I don't know how it will go and how my therapist will be and what she will say and I should say and it's just so very frightening and I feel like crying. I know it's important and necessary but all I want to do right now is tell her I can't go today and never speak to her again. I'm not doing that, I can't. I'll go and see how it goes, if I love it, great, if I hate it, that's fine. Wish me luck, I feel like I'm going to pass out.


sometimes i pretend i’m in a movie and i spend days acting as if i’m being filmed. i also make up random conversations in my head and start saying them out loud as if there was actually someone else standing in front of me, i do it out of no where and normally i don’t even notice i am until i look up and my sister is standing at my door looking at me weird. no one needed to know that, and this video is years old, i just feel so stupid about it


"you're entirely bonkers but i'll tell you a secret.. all the best people are"
Alice in wonderland
💛


Apparently you can’t breathe when your smiling

Jk you can, I just wanted you to smile

Don’t mind me. I’m just afraid of everything. I quoted this

Multiwolf <br>Did you quote this, or was this in the video?

Multiwolf
Did you quote this, or was this in the video?


I have this same disorder. It's terrifying.


I relate so much.. I miss my apartment too and the hacienda


My eyes hurt from crying so much. I'm trying to stop because I'm a functioning human with things to do BUT I CAN'T HELP BUT THINK THERE'S SERIOUSLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME. It's just probably only anxiety because it just builds up and I break down. So many people are going through so much worse I'm just extremely emotional and anxious and overthinking about so much. Thank you for whoever who read this, even though this is from 3 years ago.

you'll be okay, i promise it will pass with time!! and don't belittle your struggles, they are just as valid as everyone elses. all my love to u !


I kinda relate.....Lately I've honestly been so anxious lately. I haven't had a break from feeling nervous, on edge, like something bad is going to happen, and just awful for probably 2-3 weeks nonstop. I'm used to dealing with anxiety but recently it's gotten so much worse. Every second of everyday I'm on edge and nervous and I don't even know why or about what. Mostly it's school stuff, did I do my homework? Well yes, but let me just check 500 more times. What if I forgot something? What if I fail everything? What if I made a minor mistake on my homework and now that teacher hates me? What if the school burns down and I die today? I worry about being so worried that I won't be able to concentrate or I'll just go mad. I constantly worry and overthink every single thing I do and say, every move I make. I constantly worry that every single person hates me, and for no logical reason. This stuff has gotten so bad that I literally feel nauseous before Spanish because I forgot to ask for a book and even something as small as that makes me feel as though my world is going to implode. I'm always just SO scared and worried and I'm SICK of it. I just can't anymore I just want to get out of my brain, I just want to be normal. I just want to go to school and be with friends and and finish homework and do normal things without always feeling like the roof will come crashing down. I just want it to stop and it won't. My brain won't shut up no matter how hard I try. I don't even know WHY I'm so anxious....I just am.

I am praying for you dear friend.  May the love of Jesus surround you and embrace you warmly, just like He did for me.  Remember Rosemary, He is only a prayer away, and He loves to hear from the hurting.  Please take care.


I would like to die, every day is a struggle I rely on alcohol to cope with struggles. I love your channel please be safe and yourself you are amazing.


i feel like i'm watching my own life on a screen and it's a really boring movie and i'm playing games on my phone instead of really paying attention.


When you started crying i realy wanted to hug u..then i relized this was a year and a half ago and i love in another country.😂 <b>internet hugs</b>

When you started crying i realy wanted to hug u..then i relized this was a year and a half ago and i love in another country.😂 *internet hugs*


Dear Dodie,
I keep looking back on this video because
I feel like something is wrong with me and I feel like I need to just get it out. Basically, early 2016 I was doing research on all of this because I had read some stuff saying that "depression is beautiful" and me being dumb and ignorant I started searching for reasons on why I might have depression and anxiety. I ended up digging and convincing myself so much that I was depressed, then I stumbled upon this video. You were right, now that I had been convinced all these years that I had depression, I feel like it's taken over me and now, I have no idea how to feel. I tell myself that I'm happy and that there is nothing wrong with me but there is always I voice inside my head telling me there is something wrong and that I'm mad. Honestly, I don't know which feelings are real or fake because it's all just a jumbled mess. Most times I'm happy and laughing like normal person, but when I'm alone I always think and fight with my feelings because my mind keeps trying to figure out which side of me is real and which one has been morphed and pushed into my brain by society. Please, if anyone can help me try to understand all of this, it would be a miracle.

I'm no doctor at all, but maybe you've made yourself feel this feelings?
I'd advice you to go to a therapist. Do what you need to do to get yourself fixed :)
Also, remember: you're in control of your own brain :)


There are these moments where I'm just tired but I can't sleep, I look in the mirror and a whole new person is starting back at me, I feel like the rest of the human race are robots, I don't know who or where I am and I don't eat as much or sleep, I feel like my insides are buzzing and I freak out and cry about it I've seen multiple doctors but they don't know. Does anyone know what this is called or does anyone else feel something like this?


I'm going through the exact same shit as you right now as I'm writing this. You are not alone. I'm Aya, I'm 15, hi


Was brought to tears by this, fuck, I feel so so so helpless


I feel like this is what's wrong with me, but I'm not sure as it's not as full grown, I can feel some of the things you mentioned, but not at the same time


I honestly dont know if you're going to see this but please dont focus on what a grup of people might think because maybe people that aren't  or haven't gone through what you are please dont think we dont sympathize with you because we might know ore than you think and I personally know more and i just want you to know that you dont sound crazy you are going through though things and an accumulation of many feeling ( I believe) and that in some sort of way has happen to everyone. Also one last thing , I might not know you personally but as a fan of yours i care a lot about you and i'm glad you are seeking help for what you are going through <br>p.s. English is not my first language so this might not be well written also this is a very very late response but I felt like I needed to say this I hope that's okay

I honestly dont know if you're going to see this but please dont focus on what a grup of people might think because maybe people that aren't  or haven't gone through what you are please dont think we dont sympathize with you because we might know ore than you think and I personally know more and i just want you to know that you dont sound crazy you are going through though things and an accumulation of many feeling ( I believe) and that in some sort of way has happen to everyone. Also one last thing , I might not know you personally but as a fan of yours i care a lot about you and i'm glad you are seeking help for what you are going through
p.s. English is not my first language so this might not be well written also this is a very very late response but I felt like I needed to say this I hope that's okay


I felt this way off and on since i was 3 years old. Antidepressant paxil worked awesome for five years. Then it quit working. Now this crap returned worse than ever. My memories are like dreams that are hard to remember.. i feel like everything has a grey color, i get nervouse scared. I don't wanna do anything go anywhere, when i do i feel like we need to hurry up and get back home.. light seems to make me worse like the lights around me have lost there purpose. Its the weirdest damn thing. Anyone else have this? Sorry for my poor writing.


it bothers me how people actually think that you can CONTROL HOW YOU THINK. when you tell your brain to stop thinking about something it just continues to think about it. it's hard to stop thinking about something. I'm probably the only one who thinks that but I don't have any control over suicidal thought, depressing thought, anxious thoughts, scary thoughts, etc.


off topic: i'm very young (between 11-13) i don't feel like specifying because i hate the stereotype of the 12 year old (even though i'm turning 13 soon) and i am about 185lbs. i have been trying to loose weight (keep in mind i have anxiety and depression) but i can't and people always tell you to love yourself but how can you love yourself when yourself is 100 pounds heavier than what you should be? i don't know what to do. i've been suicidal and (long story short for about 2 years i was seriously bullied) self-harming for a long time and i just don't know what to do. i don't want help but i don't know what i should do send help

jamiewlulu ' hey, I hope you are doing better today.


Well, I got depression since last year, and I feel horrible and this is the roughest part of my entire life honestly. Do I feel ok? No.
Then I decided to tell my mom that I think I need to see a doctor (because I'm still 17 by now and I can't go to the doctor alone).
But guess what she say, she said that I don't need a doctor. She said I have no reason to be depressed and I supposed to be grateful and happy.
Believe me or not, I've tried that. I tried to "throw away" my depression, think positively, and tried to be "happy". When I did that, honestly I can function normally, but I feel like I'm hiding something while doing that. And if I do that, I'll get overwhelmed at the next week/month.
I'm tired. It's just getting over and over again.
I have to wait until I reach my adult age so I can go to a doctor by myself. But, you know, I want to get out of here really quick. I can't stand it anymore honestly.
The thing I've learned about depression is that I try to survive everyday not because of other people or other creature or anything else, it's because of me. I try to survive from myself (I have the most toxic relationship with myself like suicide thoughts etc.) every single day, and it was damn tiring🗿.


I started off just being anxious.
Then someone who i thought was my best friend completely abandoned me, which has just destroyed me.
My anxiety is higher than ever before, everything i'm feeling points towards me probably having depression too, i think about killing myself, i can't trust anyone and nothing seems real anymore, everything just seems like a figment of my imagination or a dream.
It's torture but i can't even bring myself to tell my parents so i can get help because of how my Mum acted when i told her about JUST my anxiety, she freaked out. I don't wanna do that to her


I feel like im in a dream all the time and never wake up  i cant feel myself .i cant focus with reality..im in my imagination all the time


dodie, it's totally ok if you can't make many videos. everyone understands. your mental health is much more important than your fans entertainment.


I'm only 14, my parents will never believe me, I don't know what to do I didn't even told my friends about it I'm so ashamed...


Do I have anxiety?<br>I am a huge worrier, I worry 24/7, I overthink basically everything I do, if I'm left alone in silence I drift into a dark place in my mind. I tend to bottle up my feelings because a lot of my friends are fake. I have trust issues. I feel like I'm describing what every edgy tumblr girl says these days but that is truly how I'm feeling lately. Sometimes I don't do certain things because I keep thinking of all the things that could go wrong, it holds me back. I feel like people will think that I'm saying all of these things just for attention, so I say nothing. Whenever I go to school I feel like everyone is staring at me and judging me. I feel insecure all the time, even though people tell me that I shouldn't. My friends will not understand and I'm to shy to go to a professional. I feel that the only place I am comfortable to share this is on the internet, where no one really knows who I actually am.

Do I have anxiety?
I am a huge worrier, I worry 24/7, I overthink basically everything I do, if I'm left alone in silence I drift into a dark place in my mind. I tend to bottle up my feelings because a lot of my friends are fake. I have trust issues. I feel like I'm describing what every edgy tumblr girl says these days but that is truly how I'm feeling lately. Sometimes I don't do certain things because I keep thinking of all the things that could go wrong, it holds me back. I feel like people will think that I'm saying all of these things just for attention, so I say nothing. Whenever I go to school I feel like everyone is staring at me and judging me. I feel insecure all the time, even though people tell me that I shouldn't. My friends will not understand and I'm to shy to go to a professional. I feel that the only place I am comfortable to share this is on the internet, where no one really knows who I actually am.


6:35 this may sound extreme but LSD might legitimately help. I’m not a psychiatrist so talk to one about the effects but idk


Everyone keeps saying it’s just because I’m teen and that’s how you feel


I hope you're feeling better now, but in case you aren't (or if you experience this again in the future), I'll share a piece of advice I picked up from Jenny Lawson aka the Bloggess:  depression lies. It tells you horrible things, like you're worthless and crazy and no one cares, that the world would be better without you. It's terrifying what we tell ourselves in those times.

So if your depression ever tells you things like this, remember that depression lies... these things just aren't true. I wish I had better advice, something more helpful to share, but it sounds like you were working with a good plan.

And remember that you aren't alone. hugs

I hope you're feeling better now, but in case you aren't (or if you experience this again in the future), I'll share a piece of advice I picked up from Jenny Lawson aka the Bloggess:  depression lies. It tells you horrible things, like you're worthless and crazy and no one cares, that the world would be better without you. It's terrifying what we tell ourselves in those times.

So if your depression ever tells you things like this, remember that depression lies... these things just aren't true. I wish I had better advice, something more helpful to share, but it sounds like you were working with a good plan.

And remember that you aren't alone. *hugs*


What if I can't go to the doctor, I don't think my parents will believe me at all. Anyone have advice?


So I've never experienced this (severely) (but like I'm a teenager I get sad sometimes but I do not have mental illness) but this really reminds me of something that happened in second grade STORY TIME HELL YEAHHH

Ok so anyway in second grade I had a friend (let's call her Julie) and we were sitting on the carpet learning about I forgot what we were learning about, and Julie had her head in her hands and me and my friend group (little second grade cliques SO CUTE) were like "YO ARE YOU OK" and she was like "I feel like I'm not real, I feel like I'm not here, I feel like I'm a ghost." And naturally, we all started freaking out. We were like "MMK GIRL GO TO THE NURSE MRS N SHE DOESNT FEEL GOOD HEELLPP," (everyone in our class had little jobs to do everyday mine was unplugging the lamp before we went home) the girl in our friend group who had the job of walking ppl to the nurse went to go walk Julie down to the nurse but like a minute later she came back and was like "JULIE CANT WALK SHE SAID HER LEGS FEEL WOBBLY," and then we had to delay class and mrs n had to LITERALLY CARRY HER TO THE NURSES OFFICE and she went home. I just thought she had a really bad fever but like A SEVEN YEAR OLD SAYING THAT THATS sCaRyYyYyYyYyYYYYYYYYYYYYYY


Everyone tries to label me, or tell me whats wrong, I don't know if this helps me, personally, or if it just gives me an excuse or a reason or, i don't know, something to say to people when i haven't got anything else to say. i have a great support network and all my friends are AMAZING but i always feel bad when i message them like, "plz save me i think i'm drowning in my own head" because i don't want to dump it all on them and i don't want that to be something that they dread. i cant get counselling coz my mother is slightly demented and wont let me but i've got this teacher who is always there only i hate emailing he in the holidays even though she tells me to because i feel like this is her time and she doesn't need  student dumping all their sh*t on her. i don't know why i commented this...sorry...ok i'm done. luv u dodie, thank you.


Darkness called...
...but I was on the phone, so I missed him. I tried to *69 Darkness, but his machine picked up. I yelled, "PICK UP THE PHONE, DARKNESS!", but he ignored me.

...Darkness must have been screening his calls.


At the moment for the past two weeks I've felt like I wasting here & everything that is happening wasn't and isn't real . like a dream. Like Everything and everyone was moving really fast and I was hardly moving at all .

S.A.M.V.T.F.O.N I've been experiencing this as well, you're not alone in this!

+S.A.M.V.T.F.O.N hey email me at @***** I'm gonna help you through this

(Yes I know I replying to my self) I don't really know what's going on and I haven't really thought about it ( & I probably should) or talked about it yeah I go to therapy but she doesn't think anything is wrong witch I guess is a good thing but if nothing wrong y do I feel this way and y don't I feel like I'm here & I still have these bad daymares I still over think (I know everyone one always overthinkings ) but it's what I think about)


I feel the exact same for two years non stop. there is something fucked up in my mind, I know it, but because I'm 11 years old everyone tell me it's ok. Nothing is ok. I feel like reality isn't real for TWO YEARS, I have anxiety problems, and I am sooooo confused.


I know what depression and anxiety is (cause I relate to it a lot) but I don't know what depersonalisation is. <br>Could someone please explain??

I know what depression and anxiety is (cause I relate to it a lot) but I don't know what depersonalisation is.
Could someone please explain??


I’m just annoyed because there’s no way to tell when you’re okay again. I feel like it’s been constantly there for a year and a half but in reality I know it hasn’t. If I tell myself that I’m actually okay then my brain tells me that I’m lying to myself but if I’m spaced out then I’m doing it on purpose. I haven’t had a bad episode in a while so I don’t know if I’m better or not and I know it’s not as simple as just saying this means you’re okay and this means you’re not, but if there’s not a problem then I’m creating one and worrying unnecessarily, and if there is then I’m ignoring it and that never ends well. Does anyone have any advice?


i sleep all the time
like all the time
unhealthily
i get home from school at 4, sleep till 7, eat dinner, and then go to sleep about 9
i get panic attacks at least once a week over school and being a failure and the end of the world
i go through these episodes of deep sadness and emptiness where i know i can’t do anything useful so why should i try
i apologise to everyone all the time to the point where my friends are getting annoyed about it
i have my a level exams in two weeks and i’m so terrified because i feel like i can’t function properly
i told my friend once that it feels like i’m in a bubble when i’m with my friends and i can only leave it when someone asks me something but everyone’s voices are muffled so i miss questions and jokes and conversations
i had the same feelings about two years ago and thought i had depression
my now ex best friend told me i was being stupid and that i was making it up because she’d suffered with depression and it was different to how she felt
i self harmed for about a year and haven’t since i was 15 (i’m now 17 turning 18 next month)
i recently tried to get therapy on the nhs
i had an assessment
and i was finally officially told that i have ‘moderate to severe depression and severe anxiety’


Check out Claire Weekes answer to this issue!..... it has helped me A LOT.


Already got my tissues from the title.
ily
hope your ok! 💕💕🐙


Since everybody is talking about ther experience i think im gona say  mine to
So it started in high school i just was around people that were dicks and i didn't helpe that 100% were boys but i was bullied 6 months kick, made fun of,got hit and then 2 people got expelled for some violent acts in school,but that left the other 2 and sometimes others joined in so i felt sad for 2 years and the previous 4 for the same reason. Tryed to tell my family but that lead to nowhere so back to my 18 year old self final found some friends 3 of them and for 2 years it was normal still sad felt like i was worthless,pussy ...
And then for no reason at all i get nervous ,anxious and started  thinking this weird thought for 8h in my bed and when i sleep for 1h and woke up i put my glasses on i couldn't see everything was blurry and i start panicking after a week of that a ajusting to my new vision i started to get mone sad but no just sad just empty like when i looked at my body its like i was looking and some wired skit type monster i watche a movie and thought it was reality i was in my room white no one in my house for 3 h contemplating life myself and all that the next 6 months i was a mess in school i was loud and annoying couldn't remember the days before or what was thought in school and finally got myself together and FINISHED high school and took 3 months of rest before getting my driver's license still hade problama remember stuff and oh beings in a car with wishion like im drunk was terrifying. Got my driver's  license(still bad a driving) started an internship in a mechanic stor 1 and a half year working white a abusive  asshole of a machinist hit me 1 time and every day just yells at me for the most smallest thing my hand written,my inability to count fast,to understand the things  he is teaching me and i broke my drawing arm on the job but i still got to go to work because if you don't you don't get payed or you get laid off if you don't come to work and yeah its still and internship so i started fixing my arm,eating health,sleeping normally,started drawing more and meditation.So after all of this i got a loooooooong way to go before in right in the upstairs think box but im trying to maximize on the good thing in life one day at s time

                     FIN


The only problem with going to seek help to someone is that then it feels real; like something really is wrong and I’m not just making things up to myself


You're not alone. To me it's the worst illness on earth but we are not alone ! And we can do it. We can get better or learn to live with it. It's okay and we don't have to be ashamed for being like that. And if we're crazy, than we're crazy together ^^


I wake up and just think about my bed all day, i struggle to see the good side of things, i dont smile even when i am happy, i struggle to see the future and i have no idea how i got to this point in life and have done the things im doing and have done. I also get so bored of things so quickly. Only things i want is to be in bed reading a book listening to music. Oh yeah, i also struggle with social situations.

I also think i cant go to a dr because of my job and the job i want


So many relatable comments :(

I totally get being worried about taken seriously. Also, I never want to get help because that kind of makes it more 'real', if that makes sense?


i've read the book "every day" by david levithan and that shit messed me up cause I sometimes wonder if yesterday I was me or if that was someone else and i just think it was me and idk


You are the first youtuber I have ever related to so much. thank you for existing


Thank you so much for making this video!


After my girlfriend passed away, then my grandpa and my grandma, and 3 other friends in a short period, i hid my emotions, i spent my time alone, always wanting to help others to smile, but i havent been able to myself for years, i just want to be a kid again, be happy, and have the girl i love back, its been 4 years, but its always stuck in my mind, and i just want to be happy again, i want someone in my life rather than making others happy and forgetting about myself


I have all three, ive completely lost my Libido, and the worst feeling of all is knowing im probably going to spend the rest of my life on my own


Idk if I have depersonalization, but sometimes i feel like im watching a video, or looking at someone elses perspective, and i know im moving and doing things but it doesnt really feel that way.. like im a robot on automatic  or something


when i look at the comments, i see most of them are about “i just wanted to get into my old bed in my old room and feel normal again” and everybody relates to this, but i don’t. i truly don’t. i don’t have a past of feeling normal, i never felt like i was a “normal” person in a “normal” life. i can’t go back to my old bed, because if i will i’d have a panic attack that would send me to the hospital. i feel numb most of the time, i don’t feel “anything”. i don’t have a safe place, my house isn’t a home, i don’t have a place or a person i can call home. and it’s killing me.


it'd be very hard for some younger people to try and get a therapist or so since some parents usually say "know you don't have that, you're happy. I'm giving you shelter and food " and such. cri

@india pearl Thats so good! I see my new one soon and I hope I've found the right one this time. <b>fingers crossed</b>

@india pearl Thats so good! I see my new one soon and I hope I've found the right one this time. *fingers crossed*

@I'mallout ofGin Thanks! I've seen a lot of therapists and I have found one that helps me, not discourages me.

@XthecadburykidX I'm really happy to hear from someone who can relate. I think that saying we don't have a problem (no matter how big or small) is not always the solution. I really hope you're able to become more confident and feel better! It's definitely about finding the right person to talk to.

My mum keeps telling me I want to be sad. Exercise and healthy food will make me happy.

@XthecadburykidX Therapists like that can make it really difficult to see that they can help. Obviously not that particular one, but if you can try another therapist (obviously you may not be able to) I think that would be a good thing to try.<br>Being shy can be really rough especially teamed with anxiety. :( I hope that you can get some help with it. :)

@XthecadburykidX Therapists like that can make it really difficult to see that they can help. Obviously not that particular one, but if you can try another therapist (obviously you may not be able to) I think that would be a good thing to try.
Being shy can be really rough especially teamed with anxiety. :( I hope that you can get some help with it. :)

@india pearl I'm sorry that happened to you. Please try not to feel too disheartened. It took me a long time to realise that not every therapist will be the right fit for you. If you can, I would suggest trying a different one. Maybe even get a referral from a GP that knows you and may know a therapist that would suit you. Obviously this may not be available to you but I hope it is. <br>I hope your confidence issues improve. :)

@india pearl I'm sorry that happened to you. Please try not to feel too disheartened. It took me a long time to realise that not every therapist will be the right fit for you. If you can, I would suggest trying a different one. Maybe even get a referral from a GP that knows you and may know a therapist that would suit you. Obviously this may not be available to you but I hope it is.
I hope your confidence issues improve. :)

+india pearl mine told me the same when I told him I was shy. He said that I had introduced myself confidently and he disagreed. I told him I had taught myself to do that because people judge you when you first meet them, and pointed out that I hadn't been able to make eye contact since that initial introduction. Needless to say I never went back to him. I wanted help with not being so shy and anxious, not for him to tell me I'm not.

That is true. Not everyone has access to the services that would help them whether that is due to age, location or even money for the therapy. If you or anyone you know needs a bit of help, I try using this check list to get me started. (If you need further help you can always call a hotline - you'll have to google to find one for your area though.)

Check list;
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My therapist even said that I didn't have confidence issues. I do not even think she can evaluate that. (She said that because I said that I thought I was good at soccer)


After watching this video, a lot of things make sense now... Depersonalization... it just sort of clicked when you described it...  It just soon much clicked.. And i am 10000000% stuck in the past and honestly it messes me up so much but idk how to fix it.. There so much I want to say and describe and talk about but idk how and I'm almost just too tired to.  idk I'm in a weird place rn i guess. hello anyone reading this. Hope your day is going alright. Drink water, take a breath, listen to your fave song, pet something fluffy. Just do nice things for / to yourself.

Id also like to add (because its super important to me rn) that graduating made everything a billion times worse and I'm am defiantly just looking for something to feel familiar and comfortable again. I literally carry old keychains I made for the Killjoys characters (book by Gerard Way) just because they can make me think of good things and stuff in the book – not whatever I'm doing/feeling. Idk when you said you just want to feel familiar things again it just really clicked with me..


My (maybe) problem is: I don't think that it actually IS a problem. I feel bad living with it but thinking about it I come to the result that it is just a normal life crisis. Ok, maybe mine are a little more long term than those of others...


this made me so sad because i feel like im going crazy because i cant describe the way i feel to anyone but at the same time i feel like its not bad enough to go to the doctors im scared that this is normal but i dont want to deal with this i feel so awful and like im insulting people with actual mental illnesses if theres nothing wrong with me i need help

+caitlinistotallylame oh god see thats what im scared of but maybe ill try

I live in the UK and my counsellor at uni is amazing. maybe you can find clinics for under 25s that offer counselling for free?

Yeah by all means go but if you live in England don't expect much, at least with all the GPs I've seen about my depressive disorders have basically said "make some friends & eat even more healthily". I had to see a psychologist before I was diagnosed and got a counsellor.

yes i completely understand what you mean. there doesn't have to be a particular reason for what you're feeling, not a reason that you can figure out anyway thats why we need professionals. its sort of like if you had a really really painful and reoccurring stomach pain and its not that time of the month and you didn't eat anything dodgy that you know, you don't really know why its hurting, however not knowing what it is doesn't stop you going to the doctor right? thats the reason we go. <br>tell your doctor that you've been afraid of going because you don't think its serious enough but that friends are worried for you and wanted you to seek help because you're not behaving like you used to and then tell the doctor how you feel, you don't have to tell them why, thats their job :)

yes i completely understand what you mean. there doesn't have to be a particular reason for what you're feeling, not a reason that you can figure out anyway thats why we need professionals. its sort of like if you had a really really painful and reoccurring stomach pain and its not that time of the month and you didn't eat anything dodgy that you know, you don't really know why its hurting, however not knowing what it is doesn't stop you going to the doctor right? thats the reason we go.
tell your doctor that you've been afraid of going because you don't think its serious enough but that friends are worried for you and wanted you to seek help because you're not behaving like you used to and then tell the doctor how you feel, you don't have to tell them why, thats their job :)

+Sara Botero thank you, but im just scared that what im feeling isnt bad enough to get help if you know what i mean, im worried im exaggerating my problems because i cant see any particular reason why im feeling this way and i feel terrible for it

Go get help, I felt exactly the same way and I felt like shit for nearly a year and then when I hit bottom I got help and it's taken a while but I feel so much better and I think I could have got help a year ago and saved myself a lot of grief but oh well, please save yourself a lot of grief and get help ^^

but i totally relate to the childhood home thing theres nothing i want more in the world than to go back to 2007 in my old house in my old bed and to never leave. i find it really really distressing that i cant relive the moments i so desperately want to and never leave. i feel trapped in growing up if that makes any sense and i hate it. i just dont want to be like this but i feel guilty and i dont know why. im crazy.


Please never forget how to speak again, your voice and speech is so god damn cute girl! :)


also a little psa for those dealing with this. drugs like Marijuana can trigger depersonalization and make it worse.


I know what you mean by you feel crazy. And when you said people are going to think you're on drugs it just kind of clicked lol. I've had weeks where Ive been acting so weird I can feel it but I can't stop, because everything feels so fake and I can't make myself believe that any of it matters. But I was told that one of my friends mums thinks I'm on drugs because of how I'm acting?? But it just feels wrong to pretend that life is normal


Sometimes I feel like I'm not physically where I am and I feel like I'm just going through the motions in a bit of clear glue. I'm also very scared. I don't feel like trying at anything in the present because I feel like I can't do the future. It's weird.


Try Sunglasses they really help me to the point where its now impossible to go out without them.

i also use sunglasses when everything is bright. I still dissociative, but it's bareable


When she said go to the doctor before it manifests I couldn't help but just cry because I have a family that thinks I'm a condescending lier and would never believe me if I told them I'm ill and need medical care. They only believe physical pain is the only pain and that I'm a attention seeker and they said it themselves. I would go myself but I'm 13 and although in my head I'm convinced that I'm 18 I'm not, and the void of reality would suck me back inside but I would still have my foot on the flip side of things.


I feel like expecially now alott of young people amd teens have depression amd otherental illnesses due to how forcefull things can be. And how things are more presurred then they were yearrrsss ago


I feel like i'm going mad, I barely feel emotion anymore


i love you so much and i hope life is okay.


I’ve always wanted to be an engineer in the navy but they won’t let you do it if you have had depression in the last three years. I need help badly but if I go to a doctor and they say that I have depression then I’ll never achieve my dream.


Has she been through anything traumatic? That can often cause depersonalisation as the brain disassociates to avoid reliving or remembering the event(s)

Aoife is a social disappointment she was in an emotionally abuse relationship and she went though other things aswell like her gran dying


That thing that you said about not being here, do you know what it is because I am always like that. I'm really scared and it really messes up my life in lessons and talking and basically everything. This isn't worded properly and it probably doesn't make sense but I am really scared that it's going to get worse.


I had it aswel and wen i learned its harmless and its more like a mindstate i didnt think so much about it n it went away


I have so many mental illnesses.
Its terrible, I have major depressive order (Just depression but on a life threatening level), OCD (Obsessive Compulsive disorder- The one where you obsess over things and people, not the organizing one), Bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder, panic attack, insomnia, I have sleep paralysis, and I have a eating disorder where I don't eat.

I haven't gotten any help at all. I don't know how. Therapy cost money, right? My family can't even spare any for simple things let alone take care me and me being over emotional and dramatic.


i'm 13 today(and probably going to get mugged in the comments), and i match with most of the depression symptoms on the web. although i know you can't believe blindly the web,  in every page i encounter the symptoms always match with me.
is this teen depression?
am i making this up for attention?
am i supposed to chin up because this thing i have is only imaginary and that i'm supposed to live a life because i have been given one, and so not be depressed because others have it more difficult?
that's why i don't want to get therapy. i don't want to tell anybody.
i stopped talking to my friends for fear of being busted, for fear of not being the good actor, and masquerading my phase.
i have brought up to my mum mental ilness diagnoses with a smile, in hope i will get a clearer perspective of my situation.
but for now, i'm in limbo. i'm attached to my body with a cord, and i look at my body living through life smiling, laughing, whilst i am here, in the nowhere.

and i'm afraid to seek help. not only because it's a waste of time for everybody, but also because on the internet, in communities, with my social anxiety, comes the fear of being judged, criticized and mugged for "making this up", "live your life, other people are more depressed than you, you must appreciate living" and so forth.

and i'm afraid. afraid of seeking help, and getting slapped in return. and i have dealed enough in the real life, to deal with internet trolls.

i'm mildly afraid of writing this, my hands are shaking, i'm afraid i will get judged. because i will.

the only reason i'm writing, is because i have that hope, that small hope every human has, on the cliff, toes lying on nothing, eyes gazing in the ocean, and thinking: give life a shot.

so here i am.

insult me. mug me.

i don't care anymore.

itisnotafriday Ok listen I’m thirteen as well, I was in your exact situation when I was around twelve. For me I didn’t even know I could get help and I though I was making it up but don’t think that! When you start therapy they give you this test to see what your kinda mental state is and for each mental illness there is a graph from 0-100 if you are over 50 you get diagnosed with it. I was 75 with depression. Even if you are making it up if you keep thinking that, it helps so much! I have had to deal with my abusive dad my whole life and even recently there was a court case against him for it and we lost so I have to see him. Even if I say I don’t want to he says he will stop my school fees. So I’m kinda forced to see him but even though I take his punches and everything I try and talk to friends and even though I don’t do therapy anymore it definitely did help. I’ve also been diagnosed with depersonalisation which is harder to deal with for me, admittedly but I’m still trying. Don’t give up hope. Also with my friends one of them literally told me he though I was faking about suicidal thoughts and I was just like ‘what?’ and we had a long talk about it and he is quite supportive now. Hope your situation gets better. 💙


okay so I think I may have a problem.. 2 years ago I sufferd from a lot of panic attacks and I started getting sessions from a therapist but as another one of my problems was social anxiety and just talking to people in general I didn't feel comfortable opening up so the sessions didn't really help (well they didn't feel like they were). however by the following year I had considerably less panic attacks but I also started to not care that much. I ended up not caring about anything at all. and I sort of switched to depression.. maybe. I'm not sure though and I'm still not confident to get help from a professional. I have been getting a lot of suicidal thoughts but that's normal right? I mean I'm 15 now. and don't all teens go through the whole I want to die thing?. currently I haven't felt like I'd ever actually do anything but I have spent some bad nights with a blade pressed to my skin. I never actually cut tho. I never go through with it so I'm okay right? I'm not so sure..


I have major depression but my mom doesn't believe in medication or therapy. Dodie please help me. You know how I feel. You know how hard it is. PLEASE help me. I haven't laughed in so long and all I can do is keep a straight face. I feel like I have no emotion. I feel like I'm not here. I feel empty. I NEED help.


I am not okay. I know that this is just another comment down here but I really need some help, and need to know that someone cares. Please Dodie, help me. I'm only 13, and I've have severe panic attacks for just about the last two years, and recently, I found that I'm extremely depressed as well. I just really don't know how to 'shake this off' I suppose. And I feel that if I tell anyone, they will tell me I'm making it up, and that my problems are insignificant. I can't stop having 'existential crisis' at all. Even just walking down the halls at school, I can't help but wonder if there is really a point. I'm scared. I'm so scared Dodie. Please help me, anyway you can. Even a like on this comment would brighten up my day. I love you so much, and believe you can get through this tough time. Good luck on your path to happiness!


i know this is a very old video but i need to comment this because i don't have anyone else to say it to, and maybe someone else that experiences this will read it. i found out today (not a full diagnosis, more of that i researched it myself) that i experience really bad derealization and depersonalization. i feel empty, and i don't know what's real or fake. i have "theories" about the world, why humans are here, etc. and of course with most of those thoughts come the same way of thinking with myself as the lead. i thought that these were just me being religiously ambiguous, or maybe just quirky. but it's escalated recently to the point where i thought i had religious psychosis. i felt pulled away from myself and away from everyone else, i didn't feel like a person. turns out this isn't normal at all but. i dont know what to do about it, so im just gonna deal 🤷🏼♀


Dodie (sorry if i spelled it wrong i just started watching you) ik this is a late comment on this vid but check out I Wanna Go Back  by David Dunn. I think you'll like it gl with your life, God Bless.


I needed this right now, I need some sort of release

@I'mallout ofGin thank you I will keep that in mind :D

I hope you are okay. <3 Please remember it does get better. :)

+Amber Dobby I hope that you feel better soon. Keep on fighting ❤

@shoug alharbi thank you I just really needed to tell someone rather than bottling it all up ♥

+Amber Dobby I hope you're okay rn 💜💜 just stay strong and know that everything is going to be okay. Maybe not rn but in the end it is 💜💜

Don't know how but I managed to have like three panic attacks on Sunday and jeez it is horrific


I went to a therapist about my eating disorder and depression and it was so awkward and I'm never going there again


it broke me to see the way she tripped over words and couldnt figure our how to speak right because she was so spaced out...


When meditate how do you do it? What has helped you?


Ok I'm two minutes in but I have to type I'm so excited by this topic coming up: I HAVE DEREALISATION!!! It sounds like you're describing derealisation not depersonalisation? Depersonalisation is more outer body type experience, it's what my ex had, whereas derealisation is what I have, where I can't access the info of what one side of the room looks like by the time my eyes have gone to the other side of the room, it's like being blind but it's my brain that's not taking in the information, nothing wrong with my eyes, and it feels like brain blindness, not eye blindness, I can tell the difference! (I once went blind for 3 minutes when someone threw a snowball with a rock at my face in high school. Lol. Shit happens. So yeah, they are distinctly different feelings, in case anyone wants to question that). Anyway, so yeah, back to describing my derealisation... my mind has just chosen to shut down and go on autopilot because it finds the outside world too stressful, and I can't get it back into manual, and I'm just awake enough to be aware of it, but lacking the control I would normally otherwise have, and I'm doing and saying very strange things. I thought I'd gone crazy. it's so sad to me now that it took me months to build up the courage to google my symptoms because I thought I'd lost it and might end up in a mental asylum if I told anyone. Turns out it's just a symptom of severe anxiety! Started getting derealisation 5 years ago now, but it's almost gone! MINDFULNESS! Strongly recommend it. Let go of the past, don't worry about the future, and live in the here and now <3 <3 <3 It's been 5 years since I was living in peak anxiety, but I'm now getting there, it takes a while for your brain to stop freaking out at the slightest thing, 5 years and I still get it occasionally. I was waking up and going to sleep still in derealisation, and didn't stop feeling nausea whatsoever for a period of 3 entire months though, so I figure that's got to be pretty extreme, no wonder I still suffer. Naturally, I was a total trainwreck at the time as I'm sure you can imagine xD I'm still on Citalopram, but doing so so well for me! I'm even moving to London soon to pursue my dreams of being a singer-songwriter (what stressed me out in the first place). I'm going to keep going back to Wales to pick up my prescriptions, as they're free here haha. Hope you feel better soon, Dodie. The mental health system is fucked, the first doctor I went to said he was "sceptical as to the existence of derealisation." Makes me angry, frustrated, sad, disappointed, and restless just thinking about it, I burst into tears in the doctor's surgery. I wish I could get him written off, he upset me so, so deeply. Thanks for sharing this :) You're a bit of an idol tbh, you keep talking about all the right things such as mental health, and also write epic tunes. Also, I'm a total hippie now as an aside, it's brought me peace :D :D So I love that you're wearing a hippie top hahaha. Namaste, girlfriend ;) xxxxx :*

@Mel Mull Oh yeah, I have an anxiety disorder, yeah. It's slowly getting better though, I have to have faith that it will go, just like it came. Hope you have that faith too. You must, it will do you the world of good in recovery. As the good Buddha says, the mind is what you make of it. X

I've had it for 10 years. It only stays around for this long when you have anxiety disorder which I do.

I'd love to hear more about the differences between depersonalisation and derealisation if you fancy talking about yours more. I'm sure you know which one you have, sorry, didn't mean to question your judgment xD :P


Baby have you checked your vitamin D, iron, vitamin b12 levels? You know these together or one in extreme causes these mental issues? Been there.


Ur symptoms and mine same , just happened with me from August 2021


I know this is old but I woke up late today and my mom was yelling at me and said she was going to take my phone away and I said my phone isn’t the problem and she said to take responsibility of my problems and not to make excuses as metal heath being an excuse and she said that people have bigger problems than me and that basically my problems are insignificant and i know they are but I still don’t understand why they control me so much then


About 6:00 that's what my brain is telling me 24/7 but I don't know what about.


My depression feels like I died 2 years ago


Seriously the realist thing I have heard in a while. People don't understand. They think you're just making it up for attention, or having a pity party. Its neither of those things. Its a constant battle.


Has your experience changed since then? <b>Now being 2020</b>

Has your experience changed since then? *Now being 2020*


Obviously everyone is different but your explanation is so accurate and exact. It turned out I had a sleep disorder that didn't let me get into deep sleep and caused me to feel like shit and off and unpresent and bored but terrible this numb numb numb agitated feeling. It also turned out that this sleep disorder was caused by vitamin D   deficiency and luckily for me THAT HAPPENED TO BE MY PROBLEM AND THATFIXED MY SLEEP DISORDER AND I FEEL SO LUCKY THAT THAT HAPPENED TO BE MY ISSUE AND I HAPPENED TO DISCOVER IT. I am aware this is not everybodys problem for me it was and I just wanted to share in case the cause was the same for some random person out there.


I don't know if this counts as depersonalization, and it probably doesn't,  since it's only happened once, and I don't plan on self-diagnosing myself. but the one time it happened, I was at a track meet. I don't know if it was induced by too much social interaction, or something. But I was just having a normal conversation with two of my friends, and we suddenly just stopped talking. guess we ran out of things to say. so I started looking around, to feel less awkward. then it suddenly felt like I was just sucked out of my regular life. everything just turned to white noise, and I started freaking out inside. I don't know if it looked like I was on the outside. my friends started talking again, but I couldn't concentrate on them. I just stared at them for a bit, confused, not knowing what was happening, then suddenly thought "no". I closed my eyes briefly, and opened them, and I was fine. I was me again. but even before then I felt off. people have asked me if I'm okay, and I say yes. why do I keep lying?


I know that weird bright fuzzy dream feeling very, very well.


someone please help. recently, whenever i would have a drive around with my mom, i start to feel sick in my stomach and i start to breath heavily since i couldn’t feel like i could breath normall and i cry along with it not knowing why. i thought it was a one time thing and after that day, i felt okay. but in the afternoon, my head started to feel like crap, and pain in different parts of my body just appeared and i cried the whole day, feeling guilty as a person for not being good enough. i just kept saying “sorry, sorry” in my mind to my mom since she would always be stressed and it bugged me so much that i just want to sleep. i don’t lnow what to do, i can’t tell myself to do anything, everything hurts.


I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I can see your pain. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.


I really believe everyone has a mental illness. Most people just hide it because they don't like saying it. I'm so proud of the people who can talk about it.... but sadly, the only people at my school who do talk about it only talk about it negatively and make everyone else upset.


I feel that. I feel all of this but I’m scared to go to the doctor. Cus I’m know I’m bunkers but i don’t need someone else to tell me I’m bunkers. You know?


You are so right, if anyone is feeling this way, seek help as soon as possible. You might think you are getting over it but it can come back if you don't deal with it fully x


Ugh I've written about this so much that it just feels useless. But here we go... Okay so I'm just not here, and I'm not me? Whatever me is, I feel like I'm living in a shell of myself bc me and myself are completely different things. I'm just watching my life roll past me with blurry eyes and it's so scary  bc I'm just floating and I CAN'T FEEL I WANT TO FEEL SOMEONE JUST HELP ME FEEL. I'M SO STUCK IN MY HEAD AND I DO NOTHING ALL DAY BC THERE'S NOTHING IN MY TOWN AND IT'S ALL USELESS AND I GET THESE SCARY THOUGHTS THAT I SHOULD JUST DIE BC IF I CAN'T FEEL WHAT GOOD AM I?? I'M JUST STUCK BETWEEN THE WALLS AND I'M POUNDING SO HARD BUT NO ONE CAN HEAR ME AND MY HANDS ARE BLEEDING FROM POUNDING. BUT IT'S TOO HARD TO EXPLAIN TO PEOPLE THAT YOU FEEL LIKE AIR. AND LIKE EVERYTHING IS JUST A BIG PAINTING. AND I DON'T RECOGNIZE MY FACE OR MY HANDS AND I'M JUST STUCK. I'M GLUED TO THIS FUCKING FLOOR YET I'M SOMEHOW STILL FLOATING AROUND MYSELF AND I'VE BEEN THIS WAY FOR SO LONG THAT IT'S JUST ME. BUT I'M SICK OF IT, I JUST WANT TO DIE. THE OTHER DAY I WAS TALKING WITH MY PARENTS AND I NEVER REALIZED THAT I'VE NEVER REALLY NOTICED THEM?? LIKE THEY'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE BUT THEY'VE JUST BEEN BLURRY. DO YOU KNOW HOW SCARY IT IS TO NOT RECOGNIZE YOUR OWN PARENTS??? SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME

I'm just a bitch, what more can I say? OK I have been in your exact situation when I was 12 and had been dealing with my dads abuse and I attempted suicide and at that point I went to see a therapist and was diagnosed with depression and depersonalisation. I think that is what you have based on the not noticing part 💛


Dodie, it's actually amazing how vocal you are about all of this, not a lot of people could do that, we're proud of you! <3


pause the video and cry because it is good to have a cry and yt can wait I promise, we want you to be happy


It makes me so sad and angry that you go to a doctor or psychologist so you can deal with these problems you are facing and they either look at you or make it out to not be as big of an issue as you say it is. Well let me tell you something, if there's something going on in your head that you're having to deal with that causes you pain or anxiety, it is NOBODY'S right to tell you that it isn't a real problem. No one can feel what you feel, so nobody, ESPECIALLY a trained doctor should tell you otherwise. Their job is to make you feel better, not to make you reevaluate and doubt yourself. <br>I have been dealing with depersonalization for a year now, have made some stupid mistakes that made it go worse but now I'm on the right path. Good lock to all of you

It makes me so sad and angry that you go to a doctor or psychologist so you can deal with these problems you are facing and they either look at you or make it out to not be as big of an issue as you say it is. Well let me tell you something, if there's something going on in your head that you're having to deal with that causes you pain or anxiety, it is NOBODY'S right to tell you that it isn't a real problem. No one can feel what you feel, so nobody, ESPECIALLY a trained doctor should tell you otherwise. Their job is to make you feel better, not to make you reevaluate and doubt yourself.
I have been dealing with depersonalization for a year now, have made some stupid mistakes that made it go worse but now I'm on the right path. Good lock to all of you


Thinking (ego thinking) lead to discontinuity & disconnection to the
 continuity of life. Thinking less, allows to live continuously &
connected with the continuity of life. I practice empty minding along
deep continuous breath serving me also as a distraction allowing me to
not think but feel, and regain connection with the continuity of life.


I wasn't planning on crying again today.


i went to the doctor, and she said i have mild depression and severe anxiety. i'm not making up this shit.


I had depersonalization for 2 years 24/7..


I wish I could tell my mom that i'm anxious and depressed.
But in my mind the results is: "your a kid your not even ready for depression."
Idk how did I got my depression and anxiety but in 5th grade I started feeling that I'm useless and hopeless and no one loves, everyone is laughing at me, they think I'm crazy bla bla bla.
And stop saying "DePrEsSiOn CaN oNlY gEt TeEnS" not only teens can get depression.
Adults can be depressed even kids.
So shut up.


So I might just be a figment of your imagination, but if you'll take it from me, you're real.


omg that old house and old school thing relates to me i get it. doesn't make sense when i type it down guess you need a whole lot of context


im not here, im crying, i drink to feel normal. im not the same person.


Sadly thinks so relatable, I feel so bad for u I know exsactly how u feel and it freaks me out and just makes me so depressed I can't socialise when I'm like this and people think I'm jut doing it for attention but I'm not also I'm 13 (14 in 4 days aha)


yeeet well umm i started IB about 4(?) weeks ago and my anxiety has just been off the charts and recently i started getting paranoid that i was going insane ? like at dinner, my food just seemed kinda flat and 2D and i got scared bc i started to feel like im not real yknow? and its kinda dumb but i felt like i was in a simulator or a book or something and i panicked cuz i thought i was going crazy like erGH! it felt like i wasnt real and it made me want to hurt my legs or arms to convince myself that i AM real  and it sucks and it made me even more anxious cuz i didn't know why i was feeling that way and enghh just thank you so so much for putting a name to it.


I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety/social anxiety, panic attacks, mild autism, suicidal, ptsd and I also think I have depersonalisation, I feel like I'm not here and I don't belong here. It's a huuuuge struggle every single bloody day.

I also have PTSD and depersonalization is a symptom of PTSD.

believe in Jesus Christ he will set us free amen.

same as all of you guys ... i wishi knew people like me where i live i feel like being able to hang out with people like that and talk and all that would be so much relief because i feel so alone i want to die sometimes. Thanks to music to being here because it seems that its the only thing that bring me a little bit of peace and joy

I'm deeply sorry for what you're going through. I can feel what you're going through because it's what I'm going through at the moment. Now, I know this is like 3 months late but is there anyway I could contact you? I hope to talk to you if it's not too late, I want to talk to someone who is going through the same thing. Instagram: @rubirosettee

chanelnadia I'm so sorry, that's so terrible. I have existential depression and it's crushing (kinda like depersonalization mixed with fast anxiety and existential thoughts) idk how you handle it

chanelnadia damn same with me;( can i email u?


The "it" is the thing you're using to fight with, very wise.


I have depersonalization / derealization , and it's horrible I don't know what to do anymore , it's so hard to deal with.


I hate derealization my break up made me feel this again


i wish i had free health care where i live i have no money and my insurance doesn't cover therapy and i have so many mental health questions that i need answered by a professional