don't entertain the thoughts that don't make you feel good about yourself there not from God we have good voices and bad ones, silence the bad ones and let God's voice speak to you, I promise you I've been where you were but I cried out and was not disappointed and i still struggle with it ,before I even didn't go out for a year and a half and I throw myself into how God sees me/us and it's awesome!!!! God made you PERFECT you are PERFECT, he gave you such a wonderful personality and you are beautiful and so  creative!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! positive thoughts and prayers coming your way from me.


Slam Poem written about this:
I don’t care. I don’t care.
I spend so long each day telling myself that I don’t care.
That I'm beginning to obsess over why I do.
Because I do care.
I am riddled with anxiety over everything and anything.
School deadlines, the fact I forgot to buy the milk my mum asked me too, why my stomach hangs the way it does.
How many calories in this? Have I met the word limit yet? Why does she look at me like that?
Will I loose it all now I'm loosing myself?
I am in a dream world.
A toy-world where my decision matter but not very much, determinism was right. We are on a set path.
Free-will is a thing of the past.
My path is clear and ahead of me.
I can see it in the distance. Only it's not so distant anymore.
The dark horizon is looming closer and I can't stop it.
So I carry on.
I binge I purge I stress I think what it would be like to just do it and kill myself because I am no longer myself.
I wonder how many times a day I fuck up and wonder how many times I should have.
I think about me. It's all about me.
Because when what you are fighting is what is inside you, you become the center of your world.
And people notice. Or you think they do.
That you aren't really there anymore, that you're wrapped up in your own shit.
So you lie and cry and smile and dance.
You take drugs and hook up with random girls just to get out of your head for one second.
To be wrapped up in the world around you rather than yourself.
But then you come down and it's no longer about the world.
The swirling lights stay and they enter your brain and they run away with you, or the you that you now are.
Gradually people realise you're mental.
And they leave.
Like any normal person would.
And you don’t care.
Because you're not normal.
Well you say you don’t care because inside it eats you alive taking everything you love and every part of you that was good until you are a shell.
I am mental.
I am not me.
I am alive and breathing and that should be enough but it is not anymore.
Life is tough when you aren't you, anymore.


I have a therapist but I haven't been able to talk to them for a while and I'm getting really stressed and anxious because I think I'm dealing with anxiety (I'm not diagnosed or anything but I'm definitely not shy) and I have a test coming up and then I have like swimming lesson but I hate wearing a swim suit and I have to write a speech about how I would solve one of the world's problems if I was a superhero which means we have to dress up all silly. I just need to share this because if I don't I feel like I'll break because no one listens to me, my mum doesn't understand and my best friend doesn't know how to respond. I've had about five panic attacks since in the past 7 days all of which I've been alone in my room with only my horrible thoughts, i feel like such a mess and i don't know what to do.

Salutations, My name is [Megan],  if you can't see your therapist because of scheduling/money issues or something like that you can always call a crisis hotline and have a good cry/talk there (or maybe you can even call your therapist and have a session that way). It's not quite the same as actually talking face to face but it can help a lot. If you feel like you can't talk to your therapist then maybe the two of you aren't a good fit (it happens) and it would be better if you try to find a new one.
You could also open up to a teacher you trust or the school nurse, a lot of schools offer free counselling for their students or have programs where you can meet up with others, who feel the same way, and talk about your problems (or something similar). Just know that you are not alone and there are people there who'll listen and try to help you if you reach out. And even if your best friend doesn't understand or know how to help (don't be mad at her, it's hard to understand) I'm sure they wouldn't mind just being there for you, so you can pour your heart out to them.

And I'm also sure that you can find a solution for your school work. Who decided that superheroes can't wear a comfortable pair of jeans and a cool T-shirt? Or some sportswear (super comfy and also practical for running, fighting and saving the world?

Salutations, My name is [Megan],  if you can't see your therapist because of scheduling/money issues or something like that you can always call a crisis hotline and have a good cry/talk there (or maybe you can even call your therapist and have a session that way). It's not quite the same as actually talking face to face but it can help a lot. If you *feel* like you can't talk to your therapist then maybe the two of you aren't a good fit (it happens) and it would be better if you try to find a new one.
You could also open up to a teacher you trust or the school nurse, a lot of schools offer free counselling for their students or have programs where you can meet up with others, who feel the same way, and talk about your problems (or something similar). Just know that you are not alone and there are people there who'll listen and try to help you if you reach out. And even if your best friend doesn't understand or know how to help (don't be mad at her, it's hard to understand) I'm sure they wouldn't mind just being there for you, so you can pour your heart out to them.

And I'm also sure that you can find a solution for your school work. Who decided that superheroes can't wear a comfortable pair of jeans and a cool T-shirt? Or some sportswear (super comfy and also practical for running, fighting and saving the world?


i think it helps to be your own best friend


But what if I'm scared of going to therapy? First, I know I won't be able to tell my problems to a stranger. I can't even go to a shop and ask how much is something. And secondly, the doctors in my town are such idiots. I went last year because I was dizzy (for a month!) and she didn't give me a solution. I had to discover by myself that I needed glasses. Glasses! Simple as that. So I don't believe in doctors anymore. What can I do?

We've all considered once to get some therapy at some point , but trust me it won't help at all maybe at first but then after getting a shit ton of drugs things might get even worse cuz you'll get used to it and then you'll not be able to live normally without it, what I recommend,is to give  yourself some time, your mind will get tired of overthinking about everything and that will put you in a state where you just live practically doing your own shit, minding your own business, and depression will progressively fade away. good luck ;)

I said to my mum that I want to go to a therapist and she said «It's not that bad».


My parents don't believe anxiety is real and they think I'm making it up and it just makes everything worse. I had an anxiety attack and they thought it was my fault and said to calm down and 'turn it off.' It's just making everything worse and I don't know what to do


I hate my anxiety. I feel like it isn't real because I've never been diagnosed even my friend said it doesn't count but I know have anxiety. There's always a thought in my mind saying everyone hates you they are laughing at you she doesn't want to be your friend anymore she doesn't like you they don't like you they don't care about you and it freaks me<br>Out that I think these things and i have these attacks where I'll be sitting and get into my head and all hell breaks lose and I shake and I cry and I can't breathe and it's awful and I don't know how to deal with it

I hate my anxiety. I feel like it isn't real because I've never been diagnosed even my friend said it doesn't count but I know have anxiety. There's always a thought in my mind saying everyone hates you they are laughing at you she doesn't want to be your friend anymore she doesn't like you they don't like you they don't care about you and it freaks me
Out that I think these things and i have these attacks where I'll be sitting and get into my head and all hell breaks lose and I shake and I cry and I can't breathe and it's awful and I don't know how to deal with it


I have been sitting aroud doing NOTHING. Apathy 100 percent.


i need to rant and where better to do it then a youtube comment section !! i had a mental breakdown 2 weeks ago in front of my mom and only shared like 20% of my issues. she then offered me therapy !! my sister is in therapy and they put her on meds that made her issues even worse and she wasn't herself. i'd like to get help but i don't want to get meds that ive seen make people unlike themselves. so without even thinking it through i just immediately told my mom it's depressing for me, a 14 year old, to be such a fuck up in the head and going to therapy at my age was depressing. i definitely don't actually think that, you can get help at any age. but i said it as a split second decision thinking about how it would only make everything worse with some medicine they'd give me or a doctor thinking its hormones. i need help but i don't know what to do. do i get therapy and try to see if it helps or is it better to not go through pills and tears in an attempt to fix my unfixable problems?? i don't know and maybe some random stranger on the internet may give me advice on my life !!!


i cant seek help, in need to go to my parents, that will probably say its ridiculous, that we will have some fun and it will go away.
i dont think they understand what im going through, i dont think they understand what depression is really. i wish i could just go and ask them but im too scared, and the saddest thing? thats the only place that i can share without being judged, or somebody saying to me "its gonna be ok" because it wont. and somebody giving some shitty advice to just breathe or something, or to do something fun,. i just know whats coming and the fact that i have no where to go to is the thing i hate most.
thank you for reading this, if you did, i really needed to say that somewhere.


I have the exact same issues. it really pains me to see dodie like this because i know personally how confusing it is when you don't know what's wrong with yourself, but you try so hard to be okay and make everything alright because life just isn't going to stop and wait for you to WILL your mental illness away. depersonalization is the hardest thing to deal with personally because all you can do is try, and if that doesn't work, then you try harder. im still struggling with all of these symptoms, but im seeking help from a professional soon. thank you dodie for making it easier for me to cope.


can someone plz help calm me down this disorder has ruined my life I'm 14 and my parents don't believe me and the doctors don't but I don't feel anything I feel like I'm in a dream


Hey dodie you probably won't see this but I just want your opinion. I have chronic headaches which means a headache that doesn't go away for 4 years now. I want to die. Honestly I'm not sure what to do to combat this because I'm on medication and I have a therapist but nothing is helping. I just was wondering if you have any advice to help me stop this feeling.


I have this problem that I just don't care about anything like I didn't care about school so I got a shitty degree I didn't care about my friends now I almost got none left and I didn't care about food so I'm underweight now but I don't know what will help me start caring again it's like it doesn't matter what happens to me because I don't really feel things anymore and I feel like I'd rather watch everybody else live their life instead of living my own and I feel like if my life was a movie I wouldn't be the main character .. Probably not even the side character but just someone in the background


I haven’t related more to a video ever. I promise I’m not feeling like this for attention. I just don’t know what to do. I’m so tired and yet I never do anything productive ever. I feel like such a garbage human. I don’t know anything anymore. I just wish, just one wish to go back in time and prevent my mom and dad from fucking that one night so I did not exist. I’m so, so sad and feel like I don’t exist and it’s so scary.


I think I have this, but I am 12 and I don't know how to tell my parents. Can someone please help?


Whu ever is reading this comment may your day be blessed good luck in your dialy life what ever you do think about it to remember our lord whu gave his life for you! tell him my freind tell him in prayer how you feel


'objectively, I am fine, so why am I NOT????'


can you help me to talk about depression for my degree assignment ? I hope you will reply my comment 😭


I've watched this so many times now and I only just heard the lil "Marge Simpson"


couldn't relate to anything as much as to this.


I thought when depersonalisation happens it is short periods not long periods

Just watched the derealisation one know I get it


Objectively people look fine but end up killing themselves☹


I`m 16. I don`t see the point of living. Not because I haven`t find it yet or whatever, but because there is no point. If you want to laugh just look at the way this damn world is made. Life is the biggest joke ever, sorry if I sound very cliche, but it`s true. I don`t ever feel happy, not for a moment, I always go back to the thought that i`m just tired of everything. Yes, i am loved, respected and have good family. I don`t have any problems at school, where i`m also very much loved by teachers. But it`s not nearly enough, when life doesn`t have a point. I feel, I will end this all eventually.


I hate it when Jesus rides velociraptors in my kitchen


I'm coming from future - i mean from 2018 lol - and i love you


I go trow depression and anxiety and since I was 5


NIACIN 200mg in two doses, youre welcome


Why did you say "Marge Simpson" after crying? 😂


I have been dealing with it for 20 years, it’s not a good feeling, I hate it, I am from Saudi Arabia

نزار السالمي


Hi this is a bit random but i have a problem but i dont have friends to talk to so im gonna say it here ok ok ty.

Ok soooooo...I became friends with a girl ( Lets call her Eva for now xD) because she had a crush with my friend, we would talk for hours and hours but the topic was always about her crush a.k.a my friend. 2 or 3 months later someone messaged Eva asking what her problem was with my group of friends so i asked her if she did something bad to my friends she sad no and i believed it. A week later someone messaged her again asking the same question so since i was friends with the people who were asking Eva I decided to ask them why they're asking her they then said that my other friend (lets call her Gwen cuz its fucking confusing when i just keep calling her my other friend so ya) said that Eva said that my group of friend are really mean since Eva was my friend i didnt believe it so Eva got angry at my group of friends but i was dumb so I got angry at them too. Later that day my friend said I've changed (lets call her Lea). I said ok. Lea said I became mean because of Eva so I decided to kind of ignore Eva but everytime I try to ignore her she gets angry and i get scared so I cant stay away from her. Once in class she passed a paper to me asking if I was mad at her I said No please stop we're in class, she got angry and I got scared so I said sorry. My problem is that Lea thinks Ive changed so i told her that I would try my best to stay away from eva BUT I JUST FUCKING CANT SHE MAKES ME HAPPY BUT LEA ISNT EVEN THERE WHEN IM SAD ONLY EVA I JUST CANT STAY AWAY FROM HER HELP ME PLEASE! I CANT DEAL WITH THIS PROBLEM BY MY OWN IF NO ONE HELPS ME I HAVE NO  CHOICE BUT TO KILL MYSELF jk i still have to achieve my goals

Hi this is a bit random but i have a problem but i dont have friends to talk to so im gonna say it here ok ok ty.

Ok soooooo...I became friends with a girl ( Lets call her Eva for now xD) because she had a crush with my friend, we would talk for hours and hours but the topic was always about her crush a.k.a my friend. 2 or 3 months later someone messaged Eva asking what her problem was with my group of friends so i asked her if she did something bad to my friends she sad no and i believed it. A week later someone messaged her again asking the same question so since i was friends with the people who were asking Eva I decided to ask them why they're asking her they then said that my other friend (lets call her Gwen cuz its fucking confusing when i just keep calling her my other friend so ya) said that Eva said that my group of friend are really mean since Eva was my friend i didnt believe it so Eva got angry at my group of friends but i was dumb so I got angry at them too. Later that day my friend said I've changed (lets call her Lea). I said ok. Lea said I became mean because of Eva so I decided to kind of ignore Eva but everytime I try to ignore her she gets angry and i get scared so I cant stay away from her. Once in class she passed a paper to me asking if I was mad at her I said No please stop we're in class, she got angry and I got scared so I said sorry. My problem is that Lea thinks Ive changed so i told her that I would try my best to stay away from eva BUT I JUST FUCKING CANT SHE MAKES ME HAPPY BUT LEA ISNT EVEN THERE WHEN IM SAD ONLY EVA I JUST CANT STAY AWAY FROM HER HELP ME PLEASE! I CANT DEAL WITH THIS PROBLEM BY MY OWN IF NO ONE HELPS ME I HAVE NO  CHOICE BUT TO KILL MYSELF *jk i still have to achieve my goals*


The thing you said about the bed really got me. When I started feeling like I was 'going insane' (then went to the doctor, got meds for anxiety/depression and started counselling, getting there) I would also be lying in my room surrounded by all my things and cry my eyes out because I just wanted to 'go home' to my previous rented apartment.


I want to cry watching this, because it's exactly what I've been going through. You are not crazy. Thank you for being so open about this.


I've had severe depression, DP/DR since I was 15, I've been suffering for a long time. I truly empathize with you, and lots of what you say resonates with me.


Hey, I'd just like to thank you for making this. I quite recently got DPD myself but for the first 2 months or so i genuinely thought I was going mad. You made me realize that this is an actual thing that exists and that even though there's something wrong with both of us, we'll be ok :) I really hope you'll get better soon. I will certainly try :)


I love how you try to help people even when you're the one needing help. You are a wonderful person . Keep it up! I hope it gets better. Greetings from Argentina :)


Thank you Dodie. This was so incredibly brave of you to talk about on such a public platform, and it really is important to talk about these things. I wish you all the best.


Thank you for making this video, after 4 years I fell back into my mental issues and got an extra: anxiety! Wiehoe. You talking about it makes me feel less alone, makes it more real and will help me explain to people in my surroundings!


Dodie thank you so much for sharing this. I can imagine it is a difficult thing to do but it such a comfort for me to be able to turn to the internet on my darkest days and find people who understand the struggle of mental illness. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Really. this video came at just the right time for me.


thank you for being so brave and sharing this. you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. i suffer from anxiety too. you're not alone


I'm so proud of you and the way you are approaching this! I hope you start to work this out and feel better soon, you deserve to feel happy and normal! <3


Oh my goodness. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, you're such a beautiful and talented person and in every video you make you're always so adorable and genuine, and I'm not even saying that to sugarcoat things. You're honestly the person I go to if I need a pick-me-up. I really wish you didn't feel this way, no one deserves this. I'm happy to hear that you're going to find a therapist because I think that'll help a lot. I hope you get better really soon. <3


Dodie, thank you so much for opening up like this. Please try to stay strong, even if you have to cry. ♡


I just started watching your videos recently, and I'm really glad I did. I just graduated high school, and my senior year was the happiest year of my life. Right after graduation my family and I moved closer to where my dad worked and closer to where I'm going to college this fall. It's so weird, because I recall feeling something like this years ago but not quite like this, it felt like things I've felt before but more urgent, complex, real. And it's really terrifying that depersonalization is part of a mental health issue in and of itself because I've been experiencing that and I didn't want it to happen again. It's usually easier for me to find a way to claw back to a positive mental state and I'd always been able to be confident that even when my anxiety peeked I had the knowledge that there would come a time soon where it would pass and I'd feel better. But I'd felt what it feels like to feel changed forever and scared that I'd never feel better or like I used to again. I even started to change my opinions on several topics, it was strange, I felt like I was seeing things from another point of view and worried I would never truly saw anything for what it was or if anyone did. It was scary. I didn't know there was a word for it, and it didn't feel like just depression. I'd felt that numb feeling and lack of passion before but this was not it. I guess as you get more complex as a person through life, so does your psyche.


This is the realest thing I've ever watched. I've been trying to convince myself to go to therapy for weeks but whenever I get close I talk myself out of it. I feel like I'm constantly in a dream, and I can't remember the last time I was genuinely excited about something.  Thanks for your authenticity.


Get well soon, Dodie. I had a monstrous depression for most of my life and only just solved it recently. You are far too talented, smart, pretty and clever! You will get the help you need and I swear if I ever find that doctor who told you you were "making it up" I will slap them so hard they'll feel it two years from now!!


Thank you for posting such an honest video, I know it's difficult to open up about depression and anxiety issues because basically everyone who deals with them has heard people dismissing them. Seeing videos like this always makes me feel slightly less insane for the way my own brain works. I hope that you're having brighter days now, and I hope that if you're not this comment is at least positive enough to help a little.


this is my new favorite video it good to know that someone actually understands and can put feelings into words. I hope that every thing is okay with you please do a update


this helped me a lot, just hearing someone who's going through it talk about it


I feel the same as you and it's honestly so conforming to know that someone else feels the same way as I do like I actually thought I was going insane but apparently not? so thank you so much for making this dodie I'll forever appreciate it


Dodie, I just wanna thank you for making this video. For awhile I've felt that feeling of depersonalisation but I just didn't have a word for it neither did I know it was an actual thing that people experienced. I thought I was going mad just like you described in your video. Therefore, I am so glad I found this video on your channel because it has really made me feel less panicky about my situation but also made me think about how I treat my own emotions and that I'm way too quick on judging them because I simply feel  ashamed for having them. I just wanted you to know that you have a helped me during a still going and scary process into being a less lonely one.

I'm very proud of being one of your subscribers<3


Watching your videos makes me feel connected. So thank you for helping me with my own slice of DPD.


when i first discovered depersonalization i was very relieved too! it was something that i always tried to describe to people but never knew how


hey dodie, thankyou for making videos like this. you are part of the reason i had the courage to make a documentary about my experience of depression and talk about it with people! you are awesome and lovely and thanks for dodying


I get it dodie and I really hope you get the support you need to carry on. Thank you for being so open and talking about it as it has really helped me with my depression and the self hate I have for myself xx We all love you dodie!


I've been gone with no access to YouTube for a while and I just watched this video now. I just want to say how relieving it is to know that the people you admire and look up to struggle with the same isues I do. Ever since I started watching you videos, I've related to you and everything you've said. What you said in this video, specifically the texts at the beginning, remonds me of me so much it's crazy. I think your amazing and thank you so much for making this video ❤


Thank you so much for saying this. You are so lovely and brave and thank you for how much you have helped me through this. I really hope you can feel better soon. I know that sounds shallow and superficial but I hope you feel a lot better soon. xxx


I know just how you're feeling. I've been experiencing depersonalization for years now, and I'm only 13! The way you described it is relatively similar to the way it feels for me: it's almost like the world around me is moving too fast, but also too slow (if that makes any sense). I can see, feel, hear, smell, and taste just like usual, but nothing feels truly real. It's a bit like having a veil that separates me from the rest of the world, a veil that nobody can see but myself. It makes it hard to properly focus on anything, because it almost feels like everything in the world could disappear at any given moment, and it makes talking more difficult because I feel like I'm not in control of the words that come out of my mouth, even though I am. In my case, I think it comes more from my anxiety than depression, and I've never really been in a constant state of depersonalization lasting for more than one day.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I hope you're going well/better! :D
Ciao!


Thank you so much.. I honestly think I'm insane sometimes. I think I over think too much and you explain everything I feel so perfectly and I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels like this. I'm glad to know I'm not alone. And I'm happy that you have this plan to cure your mind. I think an important tip I can offer is paying attention to small details and little things in your life that make moments matter most. I find in these moments to be very helpful and very present which I lack there of most of the time. gratitude is also another thing that helps, doing small things for people on the daily and reading to keep your mind busy and out of your thoughts can help too. These are just small things I apply in my life when I over think and I lack sleep and I feel consumed by my own thoughts and feelings. even exercising can help with depression. but regardless I believe in you and I believe you will be okay. Find your mantra and just relax. just let it be.


hope you're doing alright, dodie! this too shall pass. ♡


4:15 "i just wanted to get into my old bed in my old room and feel normal again..." This line really spoke to me. After I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, I cried myself to sleep/couldn't sleep so many times, and I was lying in my bed, in my bedroom, in my family home - the ones I've had for 10 years. It's just as bad having all those familiar things around you and knowing that the problem is you, you're not "normal" anymore.


oh man i went through this about five years ago and I'm so sad that other people have felt like this and are feeling this and this video brought back every single memory of the emotions and pain was going through


Thank you for being so honest and I wish you the best in terms of getting back on your feet <3


never have I ever related so much to a youtuber before. I'm in high school, and I'm mentally ill. it's not every day you see someone you admire talking about mental illness. you are very, very brave to speak openly about your own experiences like this. thank you for making this video <3


thank you for talking about all of this because everything you talked about hit spot on to what I'm going through. so thank you and even if  you feel a little mad, don't worry just remember there's someone else out there just as mad as you<3


when you almost started crying I broke I love you Dodie <3


tbh teared up a little when you did. sending lots of love, dodie!!<3


Thank you <3. Love you and everything you do. Stay strong. Always keep fighting and all that. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you xxxxxxx


Going back to places you one loved and seeing how small, decrepit and overgrow they look is so symbolic and fills me with a profound sadness. Why does this always seem to happen?


Thank you 🙂 I'm 17 and have been dealing with depression for maybe about 4 years and I've always felt internally concious and anxious about my entire life and the way I operate. I don't really want to think about that way but I do its just the way I work. I recently broke up with my girlfriend feel so empty and completely disinterested in most of the activities I normally do..I'm finally gonna go to therapy tomorrow after years of ignoring it due to my pride getting away with me thinking that everything will be fine and I could do it all by myself because I do want to get better... I really do.. I was quite nervous about but after watching this and seeing your lovable energy and nature bursts through, I find it very admirable and I now feel more confident in finally getting a hold of myself for once in my fucking life 😂


i hope you overcome this soon dodie <333 we love you <33333


I've had depression for most of my life, starting at the age of 10. It's hard as hell. It can be isolating, exhausting, and demoralizing. In all likelihood, I will be fighting it for the remainder of my life. I know that a lot of the time I won't be okay. I know that even right now I'm on the edge of not being okay. But I also know that I've been okay before, and logically I probably will again. There are moments of genuine happiness that I can remember and look forward to. My point is, I'm going to get through this, and you are too. <3


I've felt exactly like what you've described in this video and I tried to go to my school's psychiatrist. They called my mum and she basically accused me of making it up to get attention.


Hi Dodie :) Glad you make such open videos, it makes everyone else know that other people are going through the same thing & aren't alone. I just wanted to recommend something that maybe you'd like to try.... My brother found this doctor who successfully treated lots of patients with mental health disorders using Niacin (vitamin B3). I dunno if you've ever taken this before? It makes you 'flush' (go red & feel a bit hot & prickly), but only for a little while. I'm currently taking it myself because I have some mental health issues of my own - depersonalisation, like you (which is why I was so surprised & happy that you made this video!), & also misophonia & depression etc... If you do wanna try taking the niacin, apparently it's completely safe to take, as long as you don't get the 'non-flushing' type - make sure to get the proper 'flushing' type. I got the Solgar one, which you can find in Bodywise :) Start off with their recommended dose on the back, & increase when you get used to it, until you feel it's helping :)

Anyways, I hope you see my comment, I just want to help :) & also eating healthily (I.e. fresh fruit, veg, nuts, seeds, raw organic milk, cheese, butter, etc..) really helps a lot :) I hope you feel better soon.


Hey dodie and to everyone dealing with this or something similar! I've had pretty severe depression and especially in the last few weeks strong anxiety and panic attacks and as a lot of you was/am quite reluctant to go to a psychologist! I didn't even leave my house anymore! But for the panic attacks I found a book and some short introductory YouTube videos by David Carbonell Ph.D. and also by Barry McDonagh that really saved me/helped me deal and understand what is going on with my mind and body! Both of them described my feelings dreads and worries to a t!!!! Finally I feel a little better! So I just wanted to share this, cause I know how hard it is and personally would have wished for someone to point me to something! Hopefully this will help some of you!!!!


Thank you so much for making this video and for opening up so that others may have a chance to at least try to understand what's going on in their heads.. I think you should manage expectation for finding a "cure".. going to a doctor and thinking they can make "it" go away can be so disheartening when you realise that they too, are just a person. Focus instead on feeling as good as you can every day and forgive yourself when you cant muster the energy to get out of bed or to feel like the ends of your fingers belong to the same body and brain that is making you feel like you're not here. The recovery and the ability to master ways to overcome frustration and nothingness and doubt is going to take a long time. Thinking about how lucky you are to be in the position that you are in rarely ever helps, it only fuels the voice telling you that it's not real, that you should settle into the rut you're in because it's just easier to sleep than to be awake, with your eyes open, feeling nothing.. You can be okay again, and as this comments section proves, you have so many people who are willing to offer a hand to you while you're journeying, and to help you feel like a human being again (whatever that means)


I'm so happy I came across this video. I'm sorry you've had to go through this and it sucks, but I think it helps to know that you aren't the only one and that there are people willing to talk about it. And seeing someone going through something similar to what I am and seeing them be able to not only have the mindset to want to get better, but actively trying is so relieving. Thank you for posting this, we're that much closer to wanting to get better


Go for it ! I just started therapy  my self.. And it helps ! And you saying exactly what I fell make me feel les alone, and strange., thx


you put this into such good words, i always feel like this but i never know how to deal with it, i just wait until time passes and then i eventually feel better


I've had derealization for about 5/6 years. My doctor hadn't even heard of it and the psychiatrist in my area has a two year waiting list that you only qualify for if you're suicidal. Joy.


I've felt the same way ever since I was 12. (I'm 14 now.) I've wanted to maybe see a doctor about it, but then I'd have to tell my mom and I know she wouldn't believe. She never does. So I've just kept it to myself.


well done and be strong , were all here !! love you !!


Thank you so much for making this video. I have had this for a month, and even though it hasn't been that much time, it ruined me. Not like I wan't to kill myself (because I don't, I don't have the courage to do that) but it simply affects me. It mostly affects my sleep (I get really weird dreams, and I wake up in the middle of the night a lot from depersonalisation) and it also affects my capacity of speaking to other human beings. Before, I'd feel this but it would go away if I went to sleep. But once, from being sleep deprived, I had a panic attack. I went to the doctors, and came back home. I felt like I wasn't a part of this world, that I wasn't there. Since I was sleep deprived that day, I decided to go to sleep. I slept for about 21/22 hours because that's how much sleep deprived I was. I didn't feel that weird feeling at first, but within a couple of hours I started to feel it again, and it simply wouldn't go away. And I've had it until now. That makes it a total of a month or a month and a half.
This is awful. Some days I felt like I was getting better, but other days I was as depressed as it can be. The only thing that would "cure" me temporarily or make me forget it, was riding horses, because that's by far my favorite thing to do (I'm an equestrian). Also sometimes I feel like I want someone to hold me tight and to say that it is alright. That I will get better. I know I will get better though.
I have a couple of tips for who is suffering from this like me.
Firstly, try to ignore it and enjoy life. I know it's hard, trust me. But it really makes it better.
Secondly, do some exercise (exercise makes your mind connect with your body, since you are having to make all that effort) or something you love. Distract yourself. For me that was riding horses, reading books, watching videos, etc.
I feel myself quite better from doing all of those things. Also, don't search about it, pretend it isn't there. If you give into the depersonalisation, and if you keep thinking about it, more it will be active. Enjoy your friends, family. Overall, enjoy life. Don't consume yourself with this thing. Enjoy life, you only have one.
Also, remember that this is just a feeling. You will get better. This can't actually harm you. And also, you are not alone. We're all in the same boat.
It's impossible that you will have this all your life. The only reason that there's people who have had this for 10/20 years, it's because back then they didn't knew what this was, but now they do. You will get out of this. Be positive.
I know it's easier said than done, but try.

Good Luck people! I hope you can get out of this really soon.


When you first posted this video, I kinda went 'oh poor Dodie :( I want her to be happy' but also I'm really glad you made this video? Because not long after this I started going through a similar thing (feeling detached, none of my memories felt like they belonged to me, etc) and I would feel 100% shittier about it if I didn't know what it was (at first I thought it was dissociation, then I remembered this video and what you said about it)


I have recently gone through this for the last 3 weeks and I have felt the same way. I started taking liquid vitamin D3 and Lemon flavor fish oil, (it doesn't taste like fish) you can get it on Amazon or CostCo. These two things have really helped me although it takes awhile to work, maybe a week or so. Also keeping to a routine helps me. I know its hard but hang in there and try natural things instead of pills...Also, Not to scare anyone but virus and autoimmune disease can cause what might look and feel like mental illness but it actually the inflammation in the brain causing bouts of anxiety and depression.


Stay strong sweetie ilysm and I am here for you ..btw I think I'm going crazy too 😝


I might be wrong but, in the past few months after this video, you said you were getting a bit better. I think a long with that your skin got better!  It looks brighter and cleaner, even under makeup in recent videos.💜💜💜💜💜💜I love you, Dodie


It's so sad to hear that someone you care about, regardless of whether they're a friend or a youtuber you watch, is going through something that sounds so similar to your situation. But at the same time this video has given me a lot of comfort, to know that if someone else feels this way - then you can't be mad because you're not the only one. Thank you for sharing, I feel a lot less alone now. And I hope we both, and everyone else who has felt this or something similar, will get through it <3


This hit me so hard as this has been happening to me for almost two years now. Like I used to get depersonalisation when I was a kid and oh my god now I'm crying. Anyway, two years I've been feeling this way ever since I had my first extreme panic attack at 3am after I got drunk at a party. Literally thought I was dying… called an ambulance and the whole thing was just fucked and ever since then I get really bad anxiety and panic attacks. It's incredibly scary when you get into that state where you feel all bubbly and weird and unfocused and you feel like you're not actually here… I always thought that I was the only one. I would never wish this upon anyone, it's bloody terrifying.


As someone who has struggled with mental illness, you don't sound crazy and I really relate to how a thought or feeling can become a spiraling obsession. <br>But things can get better! Good luck!! Sending as many positive vibes your way as I can :)

As someone who has struggled with mental illness, you don't sound crazy and I really relate to how a thought or feeling can become a spiraling obsession.
But things can get better! Good luck!! Sending as many positive vibes your way as I can :)


Oh Dodie, I completely understand all of this. So damn well. There's nothing I want more than to go back in time, but Dodie we just need to try our best and find new things to love that can replace the old things we loved! This doesn't mean anything relationship wise, but a song or movie, or a friend, or a spot in the city. Something that you can love now, in the moment. We're all here for you and some of us are going through this too. Just know I'm here for you ❤❤


watching this had made me realise that the way I've been acting the past few months is not normal, not right, I've ignored my friends telling me the same thing but this video just kind of ?? This is the first video of yours I've really watched. I need to see a doctor and get help before I alienate myself from everyone.


I can relate so much to this, but when I try to explain it to my friends and my family they just ignore it like it will go away... But it won't. Its not so bad as it was the beginning of the year its getting better.. I generally think that school (or at least my school) is part of the problem its just so negative and fake and basically hell... You inspire me to stay strong and not because of your talent or your job as a youtuber but because your not perfect, no one is really, and you know that and you stop underating imperfectionous (thats not a word is it?) and thats why I love you as a person! <3 Thank you so much for making my year just the tad bit better! xx Stay strong Dodie x


"[...] nothing is the same again an everything feels a little bit different, because you can't go back in time"

Up at this point I was holding my tears but as soon as you said this I just started sobbing. Ever since I moved from my homecountry everything's been weird and different and nothing's ever been okay again
It's been years since I've felt at home, or like my own self


I cant tell you how, but just know that i know the feeling and that your not alone. Thank you for making that video. It may sound crazy but it really helps to know that your not alone in having such thoughts. I just started therapy myself (thanks free university psykologist!) and i am already learning more about myself and what i live with. I am finally dealing with the problems that have followed me for several years now.


I have depersonalization since I can remember. Started on  medication on 2013 after telling my doctor how I felt (or not felt) and the diagnosis was depression. Last year I thought I was cured so I stopped taking the meds. Actually I just stopped thinking about it. My depression went away but the depersonalization is so strong, and I can't find time anymore to see a doctor because of work. I feel like I'm losing it, I just Hope there's a cure for it


Craziest thing stumbling upon this video. I subscribed to you about a month ago and randomly found this. I have "depersonalization disoder." I had it for years. Fortunately, medication helped me overcome it. It was pure anxiety causing it, I guess. Unfortunately, I'm still retaining a lot of the emotion I lost and every month or so, I have a bad panic attack after releasing all of the anxiety that has built up :( Overall, life has improved. The world is bright and beautiful. I can think clearly and critically, and no longer feel "robotic." Hope you're doing better!


I had anxiety and my dad suffered from depression and what we both tried to do was to find what was wrong, and try to change it, like for my dad then if unfortunately stopping to play music for a little bit but he does play again now. and for me it was finding a new socal group. you have to find the things that make you unhappy and change them.


You spoke exactly what my mind thinks. You are so wonderful & so beautiful. Much love.


I can relate to this video...thank you for your honesty...you're Adorable


You're really heart warming and beautiful, stay strong..


It makes me so angry how many young people are dissuaded from seeking help by their doctors. Pretty much everyone I know with a severe mental illness (and myself; I have bipolar disorder) was called a liar, ungrateful, or an attention-seeker by their GPs when they tried to get help as teenagers. Like literally EVERY other illness, if it's caught early it can be treated before it gets too unmanageable.

I really hope the NHS can help you, Dodie, but they can be utterly shit towards adults, too. If you can, think about investing in a private psychiatrist and therapist. The UK's MH service is basically a postcode lottery and if you're not happy with your treatment you can't really go elsewhere. Private therapy would be best for depersonalisation, IMO, because it's a deeply-rooted problem and they'll give you as much time as you're happy to pay for, as opposed to the NHS's attitude of, "Here's a six-week course of CBT and if you're not happy with that... Well, bye!"


Crying in the first 40 minutes. Please stay strong :( <3


Is there any update on this Dodie? I deal with depersonalisation and it's so hard to deal with and I want to start therapy but it's really hard


My mom thought I was feeling anxious and depressed simply "for attention" and she told me to my face that I was making it up for a good 4 months until I almost attempted suicide and went to my school counselor with the support of my best friend and needless to say I was sent to the hospital for 5 days in result. I'm not completely better, but I'm not in that deep dark well that I was in a few weeks ago, and I'm getting the help that I need now, so I'm very grateful.


5:39 My friend also said that to me. That a cough turns into a deadly illness if you search for it.

It is quite bizarre that you also understand how that feels.. I saw one of your recent videos and immediately "liked" your videos. I was mainly just intrueged by the way you speak and acted.. Not sure if it is possible to pick something like this up immediately like that?

Anyway. hug

5:39 My friend also said that to me. That a cough turns into a deadly illness if you search for it.

It is quite bizarre that you also understand how that feels.. I saw one of your recent videos and immediately "liked" your videos. I was mainly just intrueged by the way you speak and acted.. Not sure if it is possible to pick something like this up immediately like that?

Anyway. *hug*


i have depersonalisation - derealization disorder and this is so life affirming thank you so much


I have never known someone to make a video that was so true. I don't even know how this video was suggested to me. I can relate so much to EVERY word that is coming out your mouth.


Maybe it's a part of you realizing that you're becoming a self-sufficient adult and that you will have to depend on your self for everything. That can be scary in itself ("you can never go home again") - but it's a growing, evolving process. You're a wonderful person and it's very important that you can talk bout this - watch your own videos and it can be self-therapy too! Remember that we love you and admire and respect the wonderful young woman that you are!  Do something radical (but safe) - cut your hair short - you would look marvelous with short hair - (but please keep it dk brown!)  Love K  - ever since I saw you with Tessa a few weeks ago.


It's very weird watching this video after the one you posted today, "Angry".  Especially when you mentioned the part about "not feeling normal since 17."  My best advice is there is someone perfect everyone, and mental illness does suck.  Because it is totally independent of any normal emotion, and then it ramps up every emotion.  Do you in life, and don't be afraid.  Everyone I know has depression, but as I like to say, "I'm just less good at hiding it."


It's ok I totally understand I have never felt like that before but I understand because my mom is a therapist so I totally understand so you can work through this it will be ok I believe in you!!


I can relate to that sooooo much. Ive been told that I just make everything up. That I just want attention and that nothing is wrong with me. I just don't know anymore. But this isn't normal. I often feel on the brink of a mental breakdown and have broken down many times. I am loosing interest in things that i have loved before. I am just not sure whats wrong. I'm too scared and too confused to go seek help and i know thats bad. I know i should seek help but then again what if what they say is right. I'm just a bundle of nerves and confusion atm.


Do what you need to. You are the most important person your life and you come first. I'm very impressed at what you've been able to do so far with everything that you've been dealing with. Just take care of yourself the best you can and let those that love you help you if you need it. We support you.


It's been getting better now, but I started having depersonalization in fourth grade and I thought nothing of it.  Once I got to seventh grade I finally googled it and realized it was an actual thing.  There was one point where for almost an entire month I almost had derealization or depersonalization nonstop and I searched everywhere for a cure and I just wanted to die.


I know how you feel my lovely <3 Best wishes Love you C:


I had depersonalization for the longest time. From about my freshman year of high school until my senior year. It is hands down the WORST thing I've ever gone through. It's worse than a prison. You are worse than trapped. It's utterly terrifying. I would lay awake for hours and hours at night repeating the alphabet, spelling my own name, saying things over and over again because none of it felt REAL. Which sounds insane to people. How can something not feel real to you? How can you look at your own hands and not feel like they're a part of your body? Or you legs or feet? How can you speak words and feel as if you're just observing yourself saying these words? I thought I was utterly crazy and that's not even the tip of the iceberg. Most people experience depersonalization at some point in their lives. It's like being at a crowded restaurant and suddenly the noise and all the people overwhelm you and you suddenly feel out of it, not all together there, everything is loud and bright but foggy and far away. But this usually goes away. I went to bed and woke up with it and INSTANTLY knew something was wrong. Instantly thought I was crazy. I kept waiting and waiting for it to go away and wear off but it just didn't. Luckily a quick google search told me what it was, but it was also linked to schizophrenia and other mental illnesses that scared the shit out of me. My thoughts became obsessive. I could never not think about it. I sobbed about it on end, told my mom who listened to every word, went to a therapist but no one really knew what it was at the time, not chronically at least, so I couldn't find help. I read books, which did help. Made me feel less alone. Made me feel understood at a time where I didn't feel anything other than crazy. I learned to just live with it, tho not a day went by that I didn't think or obsesses about it. I knew what caused it. Most people get trigged by traumatic accidents/occurrences (car accident/rape/abuse/family deaths/etc). Its your body's way of protecting you and disassociating itself from these feelings. But it doesn't really work because it disassociates your own brain, from your thoughts, so you just feel fuckin mental. Mine was not traumatic in that traditional sense. I was just having a lot, a lot, a lot of anxiety attacks, which at the time I didn't realize was being fueled by my sudden introduction and love for coffee, which was full of caffeine which I've found I'm very sensitive to. I had a lot of stress in my life and then on top of this new intense wave of extra anxiety, my brain disassociated itself from the anxiety. And it worked. I immediately stopped having anxiety attacks after that. Not a single one. Because I didn't feel anything. I didn't feel real once I got the depersonalization. It was an awful trade of which I would not ever let someone choose no matter how appealing that sounds. It's not. It's obsessive thinking and pure hell. I finally got rid of it one day with I decided to take a bath and listen to a guided meditation. I closed my eyes, listened all the way through, and when I opened them again everything was suddenly different. I can't even describe the feeling. I was suddenly PRESENT again. If you haven't experienced this I cannot explain it in words. The best I can say is that imagine suddenly having to live your life under water, to see things, hear things, even your own thoughts and feelings, from under water, completely distorted and distant and then to suddenly come to the surface again and see and feel and experience the world again. I can't explain the utter, blissful, excruciating relief I felt. And the complete terror at it only being temporary. Luckily, I am 23 years old now and have not gotten it back. I have had little tiny pieces of it for a night or a few minutes, but it's always left again. I'll never be the same. I still question reality. Is this how i felt before the depersonalization or just a better version of it? What is reality? I try not to think too much about it anymore just for fear of it coming back. But I do get anxiety attacks now and then again, which I'll gladly take, but I avoid caffeine like nobody's business and just try to accept me for myself. I still fear going "crazy" later in life, but I try not to dwell. If anyone has ever had these thoughts or wishes to know more (as I've only scratched the surface) feel free to contact me. I'm an open ear. Or Dodie, if you ever read this, I'm a new viewer to your channel but if you need to talk to someone who actually, honestly, 100% knows what you're feeling and experiencing, feel free to contact me. I will listen. And share. And be there. Cheers, MJ.


Dodie, please can you film a minute insta video telling me (Rosanna) that life is going to be ok. that mental health won't kill everyone i care about. i love you and you are amazing x such an inspiration


My boyfriend broke up with me because of my depression. Now I have to deal with not only depression and anxiety but also a broken heart


I dont know how to thank you in a way that does not say like "oh im so you", but fuck this made me feel like i am not weird.  I've tried so hard to explain this, just this, to my friends and family, and they just do not understand, they say that is my fault that i feel that way, told me to just act normal. And the only thing that I wanted to do was just that, to enjoy life, and laugh, and happy stuff, i couldnt. There was something in my head that reminded me all day about my problems, and how wrong were the things that i did, and why i was trying to act normal if a normal person doesnt have to "try" and, everything really confusing.
That happened about 4 years now, i tried a fucking ton to heal it just like a pre-teen would do, like cuts and punchs and ice and cold showers. I was so afraid of me, and no one could really help me because anyone knew about these things
My point is thank you, and god damn you're smart on getting medical atention, I should have done that a long time ago. Now i am feeling wonderful because of this, of course im still with panic attacks but nothing compared to before, i'm able to enjoy the grass, the sun, the little things that a couldn't feel before.


oh dodie,
i feel you. everyone always says "you look sick, are you ok?" "are you getting enough sleep?" and i just don't know an answer honestly? i'm definetly not ok in my brain but i can't tell anyone because no one fucking understands and everyone thinks that i'm just this little short idiot that no one cares about and it's just gotten worse and i know it will feel worse but the worse fucking part is, is that i can't get any help in a place that's so easy to get to at the moment because anyone who actually fucking gets what i'm going through is on the internet. and there's just this sort of, fake connection? like you know that everyone is there, but they're like illegally downloaded helpers. it's just, everyone says i'm so great and sweet and helpful but i'm NOT and i will stop talking now but yeah, you're right. it is so more than cats and rainbows

tldr; colleen relates and feels like a peice of shit


hey there... I hope that your best got you the help that you truly deserve. And, if it has not yet paid off, please keep asking; it often takes awhile for the right help to be granted, but you are so worth it and I really hope that it is working out! I know the NHS issues quite well myself. x


i found a simple solution to all my anxieties and depressed thoughts,  and i found it in psychedelic substances, in a way they're kind of like a teacher, because they can rip into everything you think you know. In a way they lift a veil that seems to be blinding us in ordinary life, and it's through venturing into my own mind that i was able to realize that a lot of my own emotions are down to my ego, which everyone has. and it's because of this ego that we have bad things such as war, because we all have our own ideologies that we think are right, the same as in society we are told that you shouldn't feel good about yourself unless you're (insert certain weight) or unless you're perceived as good looking under the social constructs that we have built. so of course it's almost impossible to be happy when as people we've set impossible standards and ideals. But through psychedelics it's almost like you can see clearly because you get to look at your life through a new perspective, through the perspective of someone else almost. you see the world rid of greed, and self loathing and sadness because how can you be upset when you don't even know who you really are as a person anymore, your emotions seem almost ridiculous you'll find yourself unite with your enemies, because without the ego you realize that we are all just magnificent brains that can work together to create extraordinary things and move forward with society as one, and i truly think the more people come to this realization the sooner we will all find world peace and happiness. I'm not condoning any use of elicit substances and it's not always a wise move to use substances to help cope with things like depression these are purely my own opinions. There is a channel i found called Psyched Substance which really goes into more details about psychedelic and gives safety guides for using such substances if you so choose to venture down that rabbit hole. (Be safe, Test your substances)

Of course not everyone who takes psychedelics will have these epiphanies as each Epiphany will be personal to you however you will learn some interesting life lessons.


Thank you for making this video. Thank you.


No one knows I have anxiety and I'm way too anxious to tell anyone...

And I cried when dodie cried.


What's she's going through here is how I feel right now


Nothing lately feels real, and at the same time so real. I feel everything and nothing at the same time. Nothing is as clear as things used to be. I went to camp and was "happy" and did things I know I love and I felt the feeling "love", but for so reason it didn't feel real or clear. I just feel as though I am here but my mind is somewhere else. <br>I want to thank you for posting this. I felt really alone and crazy. I was losing it. I wouldn't leave my room, eat or even sit up from bed. Then I went off to camp and watched this (again) This time around it gave me a little more insight so thank you!

Nothing lately feels real, and at the same time so real. I feel everything and nothing at the same time. Nothing is as clear as things used to be. I went to camp and was "happy" and did things I know I love and I felt the feeling "love", but for so reason it didn't feel real or clear. I just feel as though I am here but my mind is somewhere else.
I want to thank you for posting this. I felt really alone and crazy. I was losing it. I wouldn't leave my room, eat or even sit up from bed. Then I went off to camp and watched this (again) This time around it gave me a little more insight so thank you!


I'm in the exact same situation, you feel like a different person and not you anymore and don't know how that could happen so quickly


Take care Dodie. You are taking all the right steps xx.


this is so real, i hope i can be this open. i'm a doctor and people have no idea


Thankyou, such a honest great video, just so true.


The most surprising part of this video was the bit where you highlighted that you thought that we might be judging you and tell you to just turn it off and think of cats. I have never suffered from any kind of illness but cannot consider a world where you would be lying about this. Well done for talking. I'm glad you're going to seek help. It's awful that a doctor told you you were making it up. Unfortunately we have to battle through the shit doctors to find people who will help us.


hey dodie im sure you wont see this comment, but i just watched your video about your experiences with emotional and sexual abuse, and i want to mention that disassociation occurs when ur brain is afraid and is trying to protect itself. and since you endured long term abuse its highly probably your dissociation can stem from that. i think you should def mention that to your therapist if you havent!! sorry if this isnt my place to say but i was just giving my 2 cents


WoW I feel like I just got sucker punched. . .this video very randomly came up in my feed, I don't know why I decided to watch it. . . when she began read the text to Sammy I almost cried. I experience it (what I now just learned is derealization) in every social setting in my life. I've chalked it up to being an "introvert" I had NO idea others felt that way specifically. I'm so grateful to watch this and begin my journey to learning more


Well I'm a bit late..but I just wanted to share this. I suffered depression for 3 years, and although I'm better it still comes back now and then (because let's be honest, depression never really fully goes away) I was bullied from k-6 and I hated every second of school, I wanted all of it to be over. Although I never self-harmed myself because of my paranoia + sensitivity, I'd still wonder what the world would be like if I was dead, would anyone even care? I don't really remember the years when I was depressed, it's such a blur, but I still do remember some memories that break my heart, memories I don't wanna remember. I actually don't really know how I became better, I never took anti-depressants, but somehow I survived all the pain and I became better. As cliche` as this sounds, it really does get better. If you're dealing w/depression, please please please don't lose hope, because you can win this war. Hell if an unsocial potato like me can do it, you can too <3

Well I'm a bit late..but I just wanted to share this. I suffered depression for 3 years, and although I'm better it still comes back now and then (because let's be honest, depression never really fully goes away) I was bullied from k-6 and I hated every second of school, I wanted all of it to be over. Although I never self-harmed myself because of my paranoia + sensitivity, I'd still wonder what the world would be like if I was dead, would anyone even care? I don't really remember the years when I was depressed, it's such a blur, but I still do remember some memories that break my heart, memories I don't wanna remember. I actually don't really know how I became better, I never took anti-depressants, but somehow I survived all the pain and I became *better.* As cliche` as this sounds, it *really does get better.* If you're dealing w/depression, please please please don't lose hope, because you can win this war. Hell if an unsocial potato like me can do it, you can too <3


Dodie, you don't know how thankful I am for this video. Nobody understands how complex it is. I suffer from anxiety in a non-textbook way. My friend once thought she was helping by giving me a 'How To Deal With Panic Attacks' book. It's full of the techniques that people think 'work'. 1. Breathe deeply 2. Remember, everything will be okay 3. Remember, nobody is judging you. But when I'm battling the constant worry of health problems and dying, breathing deeply is impossible. Nothing seems like it will be okay because death is what I think awaits me so soon. And I couldn't care less that I may be being judged. It's so much bigger than a bad thought. Because when people ask "why can't you just switch it off?" Or say "but just stop thinking about it" they don't realise that it's the mental illness that blocks the rational thoughts. I can't stop thinking about something which comes more naturally to me than sleeping or eating. It becomes bigger than the person you are. Terrifyingly so.


this made me cry so much because i can relate and ugh. i hope you feel better soon :-(


I never got diagnosed or went to the doctor because I didn't know how to explain it to anyone. I thought I was just being dramatic and going crazy. I remember in the eight grade I was struck with this feeling in school. I went to the nurses office, but I wasn't physically sick. I chose to go home because of the anxiety I felt, but it's not something she could've fixed. The scariest thing was knowing that the nurse couldn't give me ice or medicine to fix the problem. The worst was explaining the way I felt but feeling like I was crazy. I do get depersonalization time to time and it is the scariest thing. I have never been drunk before, but I it's like the feeling you get after getting laughing gas at the dentists. It may not sound so bad to someone who doesn't have it, but imagine feeling as though nothing is real. You are almost stuck in your own world where nothing makes sense. Your surroundings and sense of time is warped. You feel like you have no control over your mind.


I started crying when she started talking about her 'home home'. :(


i have the exact same thing and built up the courage to go to the doctors and when i got there i chickened out and rambled about my fatigue and idk what to do now huh


i really wish i could make a video like this, just talking about all that's been bothering me sigh


I love you and I can't stop crying and I love you I can totally relate to you and I love you and I can't stop crying and I love you ❤


I don't have anything like this, but it made me cry seeing my idol upset. It upsets me to see someone I love so much feel so bad, and out of yourself. I really hope any therapy you are having helps, I don't know anything about this but I wanna just say we all love you, and we are all here, take a break if you need. Hopefully you feel slightly better as you seemed fine at sitc when I met you, I hope you had the time of your life performing main stage. You'll never see this but I love you loads <3


There should be a few gold stars for you here. ⭐⭐⭐⭐.  Best of luck with what you try and I hope it helps you.
I have been feeling a similar way, while I don't know what you are going through I do think I understand.
hugs as long as you can keep that attitude of wanting to make it ok and keep seeking it I believe (as much as that means from a stranger) it will be ok. Don't forget your towel.

<3 @};~

There should be a few gold stars for you here. ⭐⭐⭐⭐.  Best of luck with what you try and I hope it helps you.
I have been feeling a similar way, while I don't know what you are going through I do think I understand.
*hugs* as long as you can keep that attitude of wanting to make it ok and keep seeking it I believe (as much as that means from a stranger) it will be ok. Don't forget your towel.

<3 @};~


Ok so i don't know if you will reply to this or even read it because of all the other comments, but I just wanted to tell you that you're one of my favourite people in the whole world. I've seen this video over 10 times because of how much it relates to me and I really appreciate how honest you are. I don't know you but I already feel like you are my friend and I appreciate that dodie, I really do. Thank you. Sorry if my english is bad. I'm from Ecuador btw


i have the same issues .. i graduated in 2012 and it started ... i have the same reaction to everything if someone died i think that their better off dead. my mother said i might be given the evil eye by someone thats jealous or that i am hexed or cursed by a known old lady in our family circle doctors say its exactly depression anxiety depersonalization. Every time if do something thats stressful or needs mental effort i have a breakdown. <br>The years before 2012 were different like parallel universe of something. What i know helped a little is praying , living a healthy lifestyle and not force my self do things that stress me out like unnecessary traveling. I hope you feel better

i have the same issues .. i graduated in 2012 and it started ... i have the same reaction to everything if someone died i think that their better off dead. my mother said i might be given the evil eye by someone thats jealous or that i am hexed or cursed by a known old lady in our family circle doctors say its exactly depression anxiety depersonalization. Every time if do something thats stressful or needs mental effort i have a breakdown.
The years before 2012 were different like parallel universe of something. What i know helped a little is praying , living a healthy lifestyle and not force my self do things that stress me out like unnecessary traveling. I hope you feel better


Dear dodie , I hope you are feeling a little better , and I think it's really good you are talking about how you're feeling . I kind of relate to what your saying - every few months for around 2 weeks I feel really empty. Sometimes is happens every days , I don't feel like I know who I am anymore and that I've lost the people that I used to me and I'm pointless. Hearing someone talk about something similar really made me feel like I'm not alone. Thanks dodie , we love you :)💗💗


If only my family understood but they've never dealt with this. I wonder if it's OK to go see a therapist when you're 17 in the UK, because I don't want my parents to know and think as usual that I'm over dramatic when I've had several breakdowns this summer and the only thing that helps is exercise and meditation for me. I'm a bottler so I bottle things up and it's bad, really bad. But then i think, people have had worse, which is what my sisters always say to me when I'm being "overdramatic" . Also I never like saying that I have anxiety or depression because what if I'm just being a teenager, I don't want to assume I have it or self diagnose myself


Dodoie ( if that's how u spell it ) I have watched this vid 5 times already and I sereously feel for u so bad. You can push though because I believe in u. I really love u and I can't relate but I can in a way?? ://))

You make me feel so good and yeah ummmmm I just really think ur so cool and keep up with the hard work (I subscribe to u by the way) ;)


I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I have been through so much shit and I more than anything I just want everyone else to be okay. I don't want anyone else to go through this. I'm so sorry. I haven't been through what you have been through because my mental illness is due to genetics. Probably not entirely due to genetics but that's what I tell myself. I never got help because I was convinced that everyone else had it worse. I just want to be happy. But I feel like no matter what changes in my life, no matter how many bad things go away, the feelings will stay. I feel like I'll never be happy.


Take care of yourself...allow yourself time. Time & the help your searching  for (doctors & therapist) will yet you get well. Best Wishes, a new subscriber.


what i would like to note is that you're not going crazy, dodie (or anyone else). derealization and other dissosiative things are just a way for your body to tell you something is not right, which may seem kind of obvious, but it's not an attack. it's a protection mechanism. it's your brain saying 'hold on, this is dangerous for you'. i read somewhere you should try and accept it as normal. try not to think about it as much. think to yourself, 'no i'm not going mad, this is what reality is like'. it's easier the less severe you have it and i've been struggling with this but i''m trying. also a good thought: it's not actually harmful and it won't kill you. it's just going to be there and that's alright even if it seems kind of scary.<br>i've had pretty bad chronic derealization and depersonalization for about 2 years (so, the weird movie sensation where nothing looks or feels real, but also something that's messed with my sense of personality leaving me bland and confused and feeling dissociated from my name/reflection in the mirror) there is not a lot of research done on dpdr compared to more common things like depression and anxiety, but trying to fight it will not help you. everyone is different. one man got dpdr because his t levels were too low and other dude smoked too much weed and was cured by realizing it was just anxiety. if you get there early, it will be alright. it will be alright even if you don't get there early. the worst thing you can do is turn it into a battle. i hope you get the help you need dodie, and i was glad someone familiar was feeling the same way as me honestly. (sorry that was long)

what i would like to note is that you're not going crazy, dodie (or anyone else). derealization and other dissosiative things are just a way for your body to tell you something is not right, which may seem kind of obvious, but it's not an attack. it's a protection mechanism. it's your brain saying 'hold on, this is dangerous for you'. i read somewhere you should try and accept it as normal. try not to think about it as much. think to yourself, 'no i'm not going mad, this is what reality is like'. it's easier the less severe you have it and i've been struggling with this but i''m trying. also a good thought: it's not actually harmful and it won't kill you. it's just going to be there and that's alright even if it seems kind of scary.
i've had pretty bad chronic derealization and depersonalization for about 2 years (so, the weird movie sensation where nothing looks or feels real, but also something that's messed with my sense of personality leaving me bland and confused and feeling dissociated from my name/reflection in the mirror) there is not a lot of research done on dpdr compared to more common things like depression and anxiety, but trying to fight it will not help you. everyone is different. one man got dpdr because his t levels were too low and other dude smoked too much weed and was cured by realizing it was just anxiety. if you get there early, it will be alright. it will be alright even if you don't get there early. the worst thing you can do is turn it into a battle. i hope you get the help you need dodie, and i was glad someone familiar was feeling the same way as me honestly. (sorry that was long)


Depersonalization sucks. And it's really hard to find professionals who understand this symptom/know anything about treating it :/ Good luck, though. Thank you for being open and just know that you're not alone and treatments exist


omg you poor girl. i have bipolar and i know just what u r saying. i now have antidepressant, antianxiety drugs and mood stabilisers. i am also havibg therapy and i feel sooo much better. seek help! much love to you


there isn't necessarily a cure for mental illness, theres just coping and managing the symptoms.
I've come to the realisation that (for me at least, from my experiences with severe depression) that I'm never completely going to "free" or "cured" of my mental health problems (esp my ADD ahaha)

I hope things improve for you Dodie 💖 and that you start to get better


if you're on drugs talking about this then I am too. you aren't alone, dodie.


please tell me someone figured out how to cure this... ive been dealing with this for 5 months now and its just too much to deal with


Dodie please just know that your not the only one feeling this way lots of people including me feel like this me personally i have anxiety , depression ,depesonilisation and social anxiety if that last one counts but my point is that we all love you so so much even if we haven't met you personally but please please please know that we are here and we will listen and be patient because lots of us understand what you going through <br>I know I'm very late but i hope you see this

Dodie please just know that your not the only one feeling this way lots of people including me feel like this me personally i have anxiety , depression ,depesonilisation and social anxiety if that last one counts but my point is that we all love you so so much even if we haven't met you personally but please please please know that we are here and we will listen and be patient because lots of us understand what you going through
I know I'm very late but i hope you see this


i felt depersonalisation a few months ago. i guess i got over it. i guess. more or less just content about the word and life now.


You're brave and you're beautiful and you're vulnerable and you're human.


The only thing I wanted while watching this video was to be a qualified person to help you or maybe not so much qualified and just hug you and console you...


When someone asks "how are you" i never say "i'm good" or "i'm fine" because i'm not. It's like my own personal rule. I refuse to lie and say that i'm okay when i'm not. If anything most of my days i feel.. Neutral. I don't feel anything. I don't feel like i'm living if that makes any sense? I feel as though i am just... A lifeless person going through a bland life... Like i have no goals, or no future to look forward to. I'm unsure of how to describe it.

I always say "i'm alright" because that is what i am. I am not good.. I am not necessarily feeling terrible. I'm just alright. I'm making it by. I am breathing, my heart is beating, my blood is pumping so i'm alright. At the very least i'm alive.


hi I doubt you will read this because its pretty early, I honestly thought I was crazy I cant explain what is wrong mainly the fact that I feel like my life is a dream and its really scary because I don't know how to explain it to my friends I have other mental illnesses but this is reallu scary I was considering the fact that I could be possessed and I know I am not thankyou so much for this video I rewatched recently and it is very relatable and reassuring x


I'm 17. I finally got a mental health orientated therapist who gave me a diagnosis. Today I got scared and cancelled all my appointments so discharged myself. Regret. regret, regret.


I could relate to that first message way too much.


Ayyy
finally someone else that has anxiety and depersonalisation.
This is difficult to say, but it feels like this body isn't mine. It sounds weird, and I think if I told my friends they'd be like "it's just because you're trans!" but no. It's like there's more than one person living in my head. Like i borrowed this body. when something happens, sometimes I can't remember if it's real or not. All I know is that I'm borrowing this body and that there's so many people in here. There's the body, An, there's me, Mikey, (I think the one borrowing the body) and Debbie,  all the anxiety and depression in one voice,  talking me down. Uh, yeah, help


I told one of my friends that I self harm and are really sad at 13 then they judged me and said I was aattention seeker.
I told my family that I was just so sad I cried everynight and cut myself everynight. They didn't do anything but one meeting with a GP doctor. They told me I was just self harming for no fucking reason and just attention seeking.
And why the fuck would I be self harming for attention when I'm still cutting myself at 15 and starting to feel numb with no tears left. I try to tell myself I don't have depression... Cause apparently it's attention seeking.


tip: if you catch yourself thinking 'maybe im faking it' chances are, you're not


There are a lot of mental illnesses, disabilities, etc. The list is long. I really doubt there is a person who knows all of them. lots of similar and different symptoms. You have to separate them to know what your working with. Can't sit there and say someone is making something up because you don't believe what their saying. That makes a person feel worse than they already are. Help them go through what their going through. You may learn new things helping them. I have my problems. We all do. How can you go an entire life on this planet without developing something. You can't. Not with how this world works. We all live in our own little worlds. Our worlds collide with others and their worlds. Some will be around a short time. Their world moves on and so does ours. They may collide again later on but not always. Some worlds stay together our whole lives. Each little world interacting together. Those worlds growing bigger.  Our personal worlds always stay small. That's our space to do things on our own time. To get away from things time and time again. Then we join our friends, family, etc. in their worlds. Becoming a bigger world once again. Help each other grow. Be better people. Hurting others makes things worse. I work on my problems everyday. Sometimes I mess up. I hope I made sense in some way. You are a great person. Love your songs, Dodie. Anything you set your mind to you can accomplish. Have an awesome day.


Hey. Im really sorry you're going through this. Please don't think there is anything wrong with you or with depression. Sometimes its just our brains saying 'whoa slow down' and trying to care for us. Take time to heal, to really feel how you feel, and to go to all those 'ugly' places. You don't have to pretend or to try to be happy right now, because you are no longer capable of being okay and taking care of yourself is your priority right now. Just remember that you deserve patience and love and understanding. And give those bad feelings as much love as 'good' feelings because our feelings are just trying to talk to us and our bodies want the best for us. Best of luck. X


My problem with depersonallization is that nothing feels like it matters because nothing feels real. Like how am I supposed to do work or keep up relationships or take showers when nothing matters and nothing is real? ugh


Hello I can relate your story to mine. My boyfriend is my world my soulmate and my my future husband. We met up 4 weeks ago and stayed to his place for 5 days! We celebrate out first anniversary. But now he just broke up with me that he couldn't handle the pressure of being in a relationship and that he doesn't want to be with me! I felt to shocked and cried a lot! He still calls me but never message. I don't know what to do! Anyone please help me what to do! Because I know this is not him! I know he is the loving guy I saw 4 weeks ago and we were so close! Is the depression something to do with this? Or is it just me? I'm truly lost. Need your advice I appreciate it! Thank you!


Dodie! Consider watching boyinaband's video about how he responded to his depression! I think, even if you don't take his suggestion, it's worth considering.


6:10 made me cry because I just want to give you a hug


I am shocked. I was absolutely shocked scrolling down my YouTube home and just almost passing past the video because it's another video about anxiety and depression that I've watched enough videos about and it's all over YouTube. and then, I read "depersonalization" What??? the horrible disgusting illness I struggle of and think about with every breath my body takes. I'm sad and devastated! Not another fucking human [me here!]!!!!! and SHE?? fuckkkk. I don't know what to say, I've always thought theres no such thing AS "the worst thing could happen to anyone" but with DPD, it is. I'm gonna go finish the video now


I want to comment on this, but I'm not sure how. I completely relate what you're describing on the text to Jon, but it's only really around people. Maybe it social anxiety or something But I love my friends and I'm a pretty happy person I think.. Well, honestly I'm not really sure. Can you be only a tiny bit depressed?


my parents said I need to quit with my attitude problem and I try explaining without sounding whiney or like backtalk, does that make sense


I can't afford therapy nor am I in a country that pays attention to mental illnesses, so I have no access to decent mental healthcare... For years, I've been feeling this... I'm terrified about it and I don't even want to go on Google and self diagnose myself with depression, I don't wanna be attention seeking, I don't want to have that word "depressed" define me. I tried to push that word to the back of my mind, maybe I'm just weird and sad for only this moment and not a moment longer. But why I end up on the bathroom floor crying or in a crowd, feeling detached but at the same time suffocating as I realised I'm about to have a panic attack... where is the smile that would reach my eyes? You know what's worst? I find comfort in it, as if it's an old friend there to greet, a familiar cold blanket that hugs me. I wish you the best in your road to recovery... And that I envy that you can find help somewhere. thanks for sharing, dodie, much love to you.


the saddest part is when you could hear her voice break while talking about the bed :(


it's the worst thing to realize that after you've moved out you can't just go back because your home has changed too and you have changed of course so nothing is the way it used to be. Plus that Doctor you went to, oh my god how can she say "you're making it up" ?? did she expect you to say "ah yes, thanks for pointing it out, I know it now and I will just stop."


I literally want to reach in and give you the biggest hug with kittens and rainbows and unicorns


Depersonalisation is so horrible - everything feels surreal, bright and just uncomfortable. I suffer from panic attacks but depersonalisation is what I find the hardest, you feel like you'll never  feel the way you used to again but I promise it will get better!


Bunları izleyerek kendimi dahada üzmemeliyim ya :(


I feel like I might have bipolar  for a while but no one wants to believes me and my mental state is just getting worst and I'm struggling with school and truancy and I just feel like such a bad person and that something is wrong with me. I feel like a mental case or a felon :(


You can spend your whole life acknowledging the symptoms but you will never achieve anything UNTIL YOU FACE YOUR PROBLEMS THAT APPLY TO YOU AND NO ONE ELSE.

+Carolyn Perkins mainly because these 'insane' people are actually just the same as everyone but they have more of a demonic presence.

+Carolyn Perkins The job of doctoring this problem has become more like maintaining a prison and hiding the problem (not finding a solution).

@***** I suppose you think pumping them full of drugs is a better solution than what I've said.

@***** Yes. But if you break some commandments. You should still compensate by fighting others who do. Even if it means hypocrisy.

@***** The truths that we are faced with nearly everyday. And we turn them away?

@***** no. I think it is not following the truth that was given to us through those books of worship.

+Carolyn Perkins I'm glad you think that.
Since I've overcame all my mental illnesses (lies).  And I guarantee I had a worse case of any the mental illnesses you have.
And now my mind is ordered. It sickens me to see so many of you who won't even try to fight this.
You want it because it feeds you.
But little do you know, it is you that feeds it.


my friend had depression and she's not responding to my messages im really freaked out she lives all the way across the country and I'm just really upset


Hey Dodie, I don't really have anyone I can talk to about it but I am feeling the same way. I just feel like I am going through the motions I don't really know where I'm going with this comment so nrvm


its like the bloddy hell when youre like im turning crazy and you try doing normal things and you dont feel like you and its just asdfghjk


hun depression is a illness, your not a freak or weird  , you would get better soon x


watch this while listening to 6/10 quietly in the background my heart oml


I once had a patient who thought they were batman, so you will be better, if batman figuered it out, you will!


Okay, so I can't really relate to this; I mean I do get sad and worried and anxious about things sometimes and just want to be alone and shut everyone out for a while but it's exactly that: for a while. I'd say I'm a happy person. I have great friends, great parents, a great school and overall a really good life. So when I see things like this, or hear about friends saying they're depressed: I can't relate. I wish I could sometimes. Not as in "I want to feel bad myself" way, more like I want to be able to say something that... Helps? I have a really good friend who suffers from panic attacks, depression and anxiety. And I really really want to help. Just do something. Anything. But I don't know how? I don't know what it's like, and I feel bad for the people that do. I want to know but I don't want to. And for someone who just wants to understand and help, it's heartbreaking to see anyone suffering like this. I don't even know why I'm commenting this. I just hope that you're all okay.


I watch this crying, at 3:15 a.m. and I have no idea why and it hurts to breathe and think and I want it to stop and I can't figure my own mind out


depression and anxiety are NOT obsessive disorders. an obsessive disorder is like OCD. something i and many other people deal with. please do not compare those disorders. OCD is extremely difficult. but its been heavily stereotyped by the media to make it seem like its all about being 'clean' when its actually about intrusive thoughts and these threats being lashed at you by your own brain. its not fun. but neither is depression and anxiety. i also struggle with anxiety. it feeds my OCD as again, many others do. anyways. get well soon Dodie. we all love you :) you can get through this.


I relate to all of this and it really sucks because no one takes me seriously except for my Doctor, who grew concerned at the results of a mental health test they made me take. people think you're just going through a phase or that you need to get out more to feel better but that's not how it works. that's not how any of it works.


Oh my god. This is me, only difference is that I don't tell anyone because they don't understand.


Is it wrong to want more? To not be okay with you just having a cozy life,  food, school, water,  the basic stuff?  I feel bad and spoiled for being depressed while having all of that.  But is it wrong? I want to feel good not just have the basics,  I'm a human being meaning not just fisical stuff affect me but also psychological and sentimental stuff. Why do I have to judge myself for my own feelings


Do you think the fact that women are more comfortable with crying , compared to men, would make it easier for them to cope with depression?


Say goodbye to videos like these thanks to the new YouTube rules


The reason why I don't go to the doctor is because I'm afraid that he won't take me serious. I thought about getting help so many times but I'm just too scared of telling anyone because to other people I seem like a happy person and therefore no one would belive me. I just don't know what to do :l


Can't even read the comments because they all seem far too fantastical and worded much too flowery.  Hope you can find a way to deal, though.  Even though you know you're shit, I like you.  Peace x


I have this thing where I don't <b>feel</b> anything where I can tell myself I'm happy and I think I'm happy and come up with reasons why I'm happy but the I can say I am sad and feel horrible and come up with reasons why I am sad but if I ask myself how am I feeling right now I don't know I don't feel anything I'm just neutral and idk if everyone anyone nobody feels like this too I just kinda feel empty and idk

I have this thing where I don't *feel* anything where I can tell myself I'm happy and I think I'm happy and come up with reasons why I'm happy but the I can say I am sad and feel horrible and come up with reasons why I am sad but if I ask myself how am I feeling right now I don't know I don't feel anything I'm just neutral and idk if everyone anyone nobody feels like this too I just kinda feel empty and idk


I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are mad :)


I really hope the comments are never like what you described them as being :(


i'm 13 and i'm so so so confused about my sexuality my mental health and if my friends my rly like me, sometimes i wish i could talk and talk and not stop till i've lifted  all the weight on my chest, but everyone i talk to seem to disregard my feelings or say something like i understand but how can they understand, i want to see the counselor but i don't know her i worried that they might tell school or my parents, people will judge me, im worried im going mental i seem to be very happy a bd cheery one moment and very sullen and mean the next i seem to be rly happy around friends so i try to surround myself with them  but as im an only child and my friendship with parent ain't that strong i have no one to talk to and i still feel like they will nvr understand a smidgen of what i'm thinking and over that im worried that i do have mental illness and my friends secretly dislike and im so afraid of the world and all the consequences of being a feminist and supporting lgbt+ and so much more, i feel like one day i ould explode and no one  will be there to pick up the pieces,m so worried that all these insecurities are nothing and that its just me thinking weirdly. im afraid ppl won't like or see me in a different light because i was once called depressing and many other sad things im so scared of myself and im so scared of realising that all of my feelings are real hey crus me and so so so so despratley want someone to talk to someone who won't judge or analyse me.... im so afraid of the world problems i also feel so  sorry and sad for all the suffering and i want to help it all but i now i cant and the things i cant help is going to crush me i feel so alone but when i realise have friends that make me happy im fine  i just fall into a spiral on and on of ym own thoughts sometimes happy mostly bad and i afraid of if someone comments back itll be insensitive i feel so worried, but not all the time...

sorry i needed to get rid of somethings ive been thinking and it all spurgled out of me


From my experience GPs are the worst for mental health issues. Best thing to do is to get them to refer you to a mental health specialist ASAP.


Hey can you please give me a shoutout I really want others to see other younger people going through this!!!!!


I hate it when I become depressed, it consumes me and makes me into a completely different person.


If you sound crazy then I must be too haha


I don't know if i have a mental illness because i don't think it is as serious as other people's, but sometimes i just feel really down and i just want a car to hit me or some other accident to happen to me. But other days i feel pretty normal and happy. I don't want to kill myself, but if i was to die tomorrow, i wouldn't care.  I have also self harmed a few times. I haven't told anyone because i just feel like it is so pathetic because i always act tough around others. Can anyone help me out?


I keep telling my therepist that im suicidal and they keep telling me im not and i dont want to go back

siobhan murray i would but its really difficult to get anybody to listen cause in the uk they pretty much dont care until youre 18 they wont diagnose me or give me any type of medication cause om not 18 thia therepst is the only one i can get for another 3 years til im 18

Is there any way you can get a new therapist? Clearly they're not good enough if they can't do their one task: listening to you. <br>Pls get help and don't be afraid to talk to someone you trust. I know that's easier said than done but it can literally be the difference between life and death:) stay alive

Is there any way you can get a new therapist? Clearly they're not good enough if they can't do their one task: listening to you.
Pls get help and don't be afraid to talk to someone you trust. I know that's easier said than done but it can literally be the difference between life and death:) stay alive


what kind of fucking doctor tells you you're making something up<br> genuinely pisses at this

what kind of fucking doctor tells you you're making something up
 genuinely pisses at this


I've really been struggling with body dysmorphia, and I don't know what to do.. I feel like I can't talk about it to anyone I know without sounding selfish idk if that makes sense :/


This happened to me when I was 15. It took me 5 years to recover. So, it gets better with time. I hope you recover sooner rather than later. It gets better!!!