"Objectively I am fine, so why am I not?" I can relate

In the video Dodie said that as I read your comment

@Don’t mind me. I’m just afraid of everything. because This is a good description of depression your life is good you have good grades,friends ,games and good parents but you are not happy you don't know why,your hobbies also get boring

Don’t mind me. I’m just afraid of everything...

Carlos Morillo <br>WHY DOES THIS MAKE SO MUCH SENSE TO ME?!?!?!?!

Carlos Morillo
WHY DOES THIS MAKE SO MUCH SENSE TO ME?!?!?!?!


Sometimes I actually believe I'm a side character in a book.

hey, i know you’ve tried everything and nothing seems to work but i promise GOD can heal you and be the answer to your problems. HE designed us in a way that only HE can fill the void within, but despite that, we still run to things that actually destroy the body and soul. alcohol/drugs/weed etc - liver damage, brain damage, cancer, lowers your ‘vibrations’, alters your state of mind and become entranced, invites evil entities. partying/clubbing - drains the soul of energy, invites evil entities. sexual activities (sex,porn) - leaves you empty, disgusted with self, shameful, creates soul ties (e.g. 10 bodies = 10 soul ties with each individual you had sex with including oral, and whichever evil spirits they have, they become yours also), invites evil entities. secular music - affects your subconscious by its frequency, invites evil entities. i know you believe in a higher power but maybe you just don’t know who that higher power is, but imma tell you that it’s GOD. not no religion, that’s man made, but the creator of the heavens and the earth. you can get to know HIM today. you can begin your journey of faith & spirituality. all you need to do is to ask for forgiveness and accept JESUS as your messiah. once you do that, the Holy Spirit will guide you into all truth. the veil will be lifted 👁 and the truth shall set you free. you’ll become awakened into the reality of this world.. the irreversible gene altering vaccines, the poisoned food and water supply, the 5G frequency manipulation, the government and their agendas, big pharma, truth behind social media, fake news, freemasonry, satanic cabal elites, the pope and religion, the flat stationary earth, the nasa space hoax, the truth behind school and why they indoctrinate us at a young age, the truth behind 9 to 5 jobs, the live to work until death regime, heaven & hell, the spiritual realm where demonic entities and angels operate and all things spiritual. there’s a lot to uncover, unlearn and unpack but the journey to salvation is narrow and only a few make it. choose which pill you will take - the blue pill (accept your fate and live life as it is, walk in the wide path of destruction which many are on) or the red pill (awake to this satanic matrix beast system, walk in the narrow path with CHRIST as your light, lose friends and validation but gain the reward of everlasting life in heaven) .. it’s up to you.

I feel like this constantly. I know I'm not someone's favourite person and I dont feel important. I try really hard to be important and I make myself noticable but I still feel like a nothing. I don't get why I feel like this.

@Kristen Krause I'm so glad it helped and I'm so happy to hear you're doing better <3

@Mia S ( hopefully you see this, lol )[I know it's a tad late, lol but I saw this video awhile ago, and was reading some of the comments] I saw yours and really enjoyed it! Thank you so much! This was how I've been feeling about a couple months ago, I'm getting better each day but continue to work on myself. Thank you so much for the tips I think I will try them! Something new  to try! You have been wonderful! Thank you again! Let me know if you want to chat! Lol

@_violette_ This is everything I have been experiencing, glad I'm not the only one!

Jesus loves you, it's written in the Bible in the Gospel of John 3:16; For God loved the world so much that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. God loves you, and Jesus loves you, have a good day.

Youre not alone, i always feel like im that weirdo that no one can really relate to and not the main character smh😔

I relate to you so so much. I'll be sitting with people and it will hit me and never leave me. Especially with my best friend molly, I exist more in her life than mine. I'm 'molly's best friend' like in a story book and when i eventually think about me and my problems I think about how it effects her life and her story and the other peoples stories. And even weirder...I kinda like it. I don't want my own story I just want a little place in everyone else's, especially Molly's. She once said to me that maybe she had no friends so she made me up. and i LOVE that. I love that. I am an imaginary friend. but real. a real imaginary friend. :)

i feel similar in the way that i have loads of different worlds and characters that i can BE. it's weird. like the MC Of a world that doesn't exist when everything irl is going wrong.

I know you posted this a year ago but I still wanna share my experience with this incase it helps anyone.
I used to feel this. a lot. to the point where i genuinely thought I mattered so little to people that no one would notice if I just disappeared one day. it was honestly one of the worst parts of my life mental health wise and it kinda scares me to realise how bad I felt at the time. but it got better. after years of feeling shitty I reached out and went to a doctor. I went to therapy and two years later I'm honestly doing 10 times better than I was. I understand that therapy and seeing doctor's for this shit isn't always an option but I want you to know your are not alone. i know it's cheesy and everyone says it and it's so hard to believe when you're going through it but you are loved and you are important to people. i know this is quite possibly the last thing you want to hear right now but find some new people. people that care for you as much as you care for them. I know that sounds really hard but trust me there are some amazing people who you will meet one day who will make you feel valued and loved. whether that's online or irl.
also some stuff I find helped me cope:
1. journaling - scribble your thoughts and feelings down into a journal or on a document until you've written everything you need to get out. if it's not too triggering and doesn't make you feel shitty analyse it. see if you can work out why you feel that way. or destroy it. again it sounds cheesy but God it helped me a lot.
2. I know it's hard but know that it will get better. there are so many more people that love you and care for you than you can imagine right now.
speak to someone you're close to about it trust me it really helps to get it off your chest.
I know it's hard af right now but believe me you are the centre of your own story and it will begin again. this is a time that will undoubtedly teach you a lot about yourself and the world and how to treat others and will leave you a better person in the end.
I hope this is no longer needed but it's something I definitely would have wanted to hear when I was struggling and I hope you're doing well <3

I know you posted this a year ago but I still wanna share my experience with this incase it helps anyone.
I used to feel this. a lot. to the point where i genuinely thought I mattered so little to people that no one would notice if I just disappeared one day. it was honestly one of the worst parts of my life mental health wise and it kinda scares me to realise how bad I felt at the time. but it got better. after years of feeling shitty I reached out and went to a doctor. I went to therapy and two years later I'm honestly doing 10 times better than I was. I understand that therapy and seeing doctor's for this shit isn't always an option but I want you to know your are not alone. i know it's cheesy and everyone says it and it's so hard to believe when you're going through it but you are loved and you are important to people. i know this is quite possibly the last thing you want to hear right now but find some new people. people that care for you as much as you care for them. I know that sounds really hard but trust me there are some amazing people who you will meet one day who will make you feel valued and loved. whether that's online or irl.
also some stuff I find helped me cope:
1. journaling - scribble your thoughts and feelings down into a journal or on a document until you've written everything you need to get out. if it's not too triggering and doesn't make you feel shitty analyse it. see if you can work out *why* you feel that way. or destroy it. again it sounds cheesy but God it helped me a lot.
2. I know it's hard but know that it will get better. there are so many more people that love you and care for you than you can imagine right now.
speak to someone you're close to about it trust me it really helps to get it off your chest.
I know it's hard af right now but believe me you are the centre of your own story and it will begin again. this is a time that will undoubtedly teach you a lot about yourself and the world and how to treat others and will leave you a better person in the end.
I hope this is no longer needed but it's something I definitely would have wanted to hear when I was struggling and I hope you're doing well <3

WHAT HOW DO YOU?! GAH?! HUH?! ARE U IN MY BRAIN

that's why you are actually the main character of your book

im a side character in my own book. its okay though, the side characters are always the best ones. right?

carolines the best in tvd
fred and george are the best in hp

Minty Bliss yooooooo I think I’m someone who doesn’t even have a name, just a student in another persons book. Listen to BMC (be more chill)

Most of the time. . .i'm just a bystander.

jsjskksks when i was younger i used to genuinely believe that we lived in a book and we were all just characters.

Minty Bliss and that is okay! As long as it is not harming you, and you are happy and well. There’s no shame being the side character, just look at Hermione Granger!

I'm very late to this, but I always either feel like I'm the side character or the main one, depending on how I feel. I don't really feel like the world exists in the way it should, like my actions are being controlled and I can't resist certain impulses. I can't not push people away, and whatnot. I don't think I have a mental illness though I've never gotten tested. I think I'm just confused. My experiences seem so much more insignificant than others, that I can't help but feel like I'm faking it.

Minty Bliss that sounds like a weird feeling

Minty Bliss same, it’s like the main character can be anywhere in the world and your only purpose is to be 1 in the 7 billion just be be apart of the population count.

Maja Kaja there u go “im the author narrating the charactors story” if u havent gotten over this yet, whose the author, and why do u HAVE to narrate the story? Cant you just write the story and make mistakes? Thats how we learn. Idk love the edge🖤

I always feel like I’m in a movie that I’ve wrote. It’s really not ok and it’s terrifying. I sometimes have to just snap out of it, but then I fall back into it the next second. I’m getting better but it’s still awful.

Ok that's strange... I feel the same way. Sometimes I narrate what I do in my head. You may have meant something completely different but somwrimws I look at myself as if I am an author narraring a charachters story.

Everyone is they're own main character in their own books. It's a bit weird and actually really interesting that people see, think and live their lives differently. They have their own lives, they live their whole life through their own eyes. Nothing can change that. You will always be your own main character, in your book. We are all main characters, in our own books. and that's what's important to remember.

Minty Bliss That's alright friend, even sometimes the side characters become heroes at the end :)


Seeing that everyone is opening up about their own problems, I just want a huge group hug with everyone here

I'm a year late but I kinda wanna make this happen. Besides a regular group hug, of course, a mega-hug at some fan convention or something where everyone can feel loved anonymously ._. <br>The internet has too little love.

I'm a year late but I kinda wanna make this happen. Besides a regular group hug, of course, a mega-hug at some fan convention or something where everyone can feel loved anonymously ._.
The internet has too little love.


"I just wanted to get into my old bed in my old room and feel normal again"

As I can't remember a time when I would like to go back to and know that's when I didn't have DP/DR I don't know this feeling of longing for that room/space in time when it was ok.

I felt that so hard cause I've moved over 10 times and I'm only 12. I've transfered school more than 7 times.

i heard her voice crack and i think i heard my heart crack along with it.

Jesus loves you, and God loves you, it's written the words of Jesus in the Gospel of John 3:16; For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. Jesus loves you.

I believe you CAN feel normal again, but definitely not by going backwards. Past is the past. You can feel normal again now or in the future..

:( I’ve been feeling this for the past year and I also can’t go back into that time, it’s heartbreaking.

Okay, but like, I have the empathy levels of a rock. Like, it's extremely rare for me to feel empathetic, and i FUCKING CRIED and had to take like a 30 minute break and cry before watching the rest of the video

NO THAT PART HURT MY SOUL, GOOD ORGANISM, DON’T PLEASE


I always get depersonalization at the most weird moments. I'll always be at a friend's house or out at the pool and I just can't function. It's not because of anxiety that I can put my finger on because I don't feel scared I just feel very blank. My eyes sort of glaze over and I end up sitting in a corner for the rest of the night. Sometimes I can barely talk because my words all get jumbled. It's very on and off though and it only occurs very rarely and only for about an hour or so.

@chels tui didn't!!!!!!! I mean it does make sense!!!!! Im soooo sorry!!!😅

Me too ah this has been happening to me since I was about 6 or 7 and it comes in waves and lasts id say 2 minutes but occurs often and idk it’s really hard to describe I tried telling my friends because I was finally ready to talk about it but they didn’t really get it but this video helped so much even though it’s from 2016😂🤧

Wait, this is also Depersonalization? When dodie describes it I’m like “that’s happened to me but it only last a short amount of time”. I thought I was just going crazy for a bit.

i feel ya. Its scary... Its with me all the time but not so strong always. Its hard to talk when you head is... I dunno.. Empty? Confused? I dunno..

Same, it always happens to me while traveling when everything around me is already strange enough !

hazz on fire that happens to me all the time. It's terrifying.


When dodie was trying not to cry it broke my heart :(

As soon as she said it, I burst into tears

me too. I know exactly what she is going through. I can't drive at night because I am unaware of my surroundings and I feel like I am in another world but yet still able to obey the speed limit. it is so scary

+IINotKawaii Thanks for the Video! Sorry for chiming in, I would appreciate your opinion. Have you heard the talk about - Lammywalness Erase Depression Guide (search on google)? It is a great one of a kind guide for beating depression without the headache. Ive heard some interesting things about it and my cooworker at very last got great success with it.

IINotKawaii same here I started sobbing when she cried


I know this video is really old, but I've been feeling the same lately and this just really helped me and made me feel less alone

Exactly the case for me too. But you know 1 year later.

Iris Venhuis yeah I fell the same iv felt the same for the past year and it's so annoying I wish it would stop but just know ur not alone 😊


I feel like im going schizophrenic, i cant stop having anxiety attacks, I’m so obsessed with my dpdr that I cant stop thinking about it. Quarantine isn’t helping at all. We can get through this. 😔

@David Jones hey man, i know it’s only been five months since i made this comment, but things have been so much better for me. i rarely depersonalize and things are almost back to normal, which i didn’t think was possible five months ago. it feels amazing to feel better :)

@♡piper♡ I had it for 3 months and I'm fully recovered now, don't worry, you can make it through it and be 100% back o normal again :)

@The SaddestDude this comment is helpful but it’s been like two weeks nonstop…i am never not depersonalizing and it’s terrifying

Don't worry i don't think you are turning schizophrenic at all, its a normal thing for people with DPDR so worry about, but DPDR is actually the bodies respons to Anxiety, its a defense mechanism that fails to go away or stays persistent becaus you are constantly on the edge. Alot of people worry that they are going isnane becaus it feels like it but its important to know that you are not, you are completely sane. I actually hear this alot when talking with others who have DPDR, and i myself even felt a bit like this, but at the same time i have had it for so long that it has become normal. But don't worry, anxiety attacks can be treated with therapy and if treated your DPDR will get better aswell. Actually its one of the disorders where most people recover and almost everybody has some recovery from it, just know that its not a permanent state of mind and it will get better, if you are in your teens its also important to know that anxiety usually becomes less severe once you start reaching your early 20s but this is only the majority, theres still lots of cases that manifest in people at a later age, and this is not cause for extra concern at all.

You will make it, it will get better trust me!


"When I'm visiting my old home, I'm not visiting 2012, I'm just visiting a house I used to live in. But it's 2016, I'm 21 - and I feel different now" 💔

Jesus loves, and God loves you, it's written the words of Jesus in the Gospel of John 3:16; For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. Jesus loves you, have a good day.


I'm not alone? Depersonalization is real?

I'm not alone? Depersonalization is real?

@B T How are you what did you do to get rid of it please

@Selina S yes, yes you are right for sure :-D

@Selina S yes, yes you are right for sure :-D

@Jan Kowalski Glad to hear that you stop wasting your time with me, so that i can do the same and continue going to therapy where there is someone who can actually help me because they know what they are talking about.

@Selina S of course I didn't. I won't lose energy on somebody who doesn't even seek help. I would lose energy and you wouldn't care. No, I don't do this kind of thing no more. Its waste of time to help somebody who don't want to gwt helped.<br>Its as easy as this.

@Selina S of course I didn't. I won't lose energy on somebody who doesn't even seek help. I would lose energy and you wouldn't care. No, I don't do this kind of thing no more. Its waste of time to help somebody who don't want to gwt helped.
Its as easy as this.

@Selina S can u feel emotion or awareness? can u still learn?

Oh wait im sorry i forgot - you didnt try to help, you actually just did not help me at all

@Selina S This is your problem - you tried. Like Yoda said "Do or do nkt. There is no try."which is very wise sentence. Its not about trying, its about doing. What is you is very philisophical question for which answer is not easy. You ain't even one living organism - but many in sone kind of symbiosis. So no reason to think about such abstract concepts. <br>Is not always about seeking atention - sone people like to have problems because tgis make feel important. Sad but most of the time - true. They feel better feeling worse. You are just one of those people. It can be change only if you deeply want to change this but your problem is - you don't want to.

@Selina S This is your problem - you tried. Like Yoda said "Do or do nkt. There is no try."which is very wise sentence. Its not about trying, its about doing. What is you is very philisophical question for which answer is not easy. You ain't even one living organism - but many in sone kind of symbiosis. So no reason to think about such abstract concepts.
Is not always about seeking atention - sone people like to have problems because tgis make feel important. Sad but most of the time - true. They feel better feeling worse. You are just one of those people. It can be change only if you deeply want to change this but your problem is - you don't want to.

@Jan Kowalski I´ve actually tried a couple of times to just accept that Im in this body now and I cant (or wont) change anything about it, but the feeling of for example when I look at my hands and then get reminded that this is supposed to be my body, so its supposed to be me or at least a part of me, never went away.  I have also tried to ignore this feeling (to "stop caring about it") for the last 5 years and it didnt work, in the last year it got even worse.<br>To make this clear, I hate this feeling and if it was easy to change it, I would just do that.  Im not doing it for attention if thats what you may think, actually noone around me knows about it. There is absolutely no reason for me to fake it so again, if it was easy, I would just "make it go away".

@Jan Kowalski I´ve actually tried a couple of times to just accept that Im in this body now and I cant (or wont) change anything about it, but the feeling of for example when I look at my hands and then get reminded that this is supposed to be my body, so its supposed to be me or at least a part of me, never went away.  I have also tried to ignore this feeling (to "stop caring about it") for the last 5 years and it didnt work, in the last year it got even worse.
To make this clear, I hate this feeling and if it was easy to change it, I would just do that.  Im not doing it for attention if thats what you may think, actually noone around me knows about it. There is absolutely no reason for me to fake it so again, if it was easy, I would just "make it go away".

@B T Im neither anxious nor depressed. If it was that simple to get rid of dp, it would have gone away sometime in the past 5 years. I have been suffering fom this for so long so please dont tell me it is "simple" if you dont have a specific tip or any advice at all.

its simple , anixety and depression gone , dp gone . and when you in dp state , you cant relax your brain

@Martini Ong that’s how it is. And then I got back to having anxiety

@Selina S Yes, I do not get why its an issue. If you feel like you live somebodys live then why don't you just acceot it? Whats the difference which life you live? :-)
Mirror isn't you - its just a reflection. Why to be scared of product of light? I'm sure you ain't afraid of sun or electric light, right? :-)

Did you ever try to think that maybe probolem isn't this alone but the fact that you care about this?
Stop care about everything and eventually you'll be happy. People care too much about things which doesn't matter.

Maybe its not your body and life - naybe you are bad spirit which took this body fron someone? If so - why care about this? You took tgis life so you should feel s a conqueror :-)

@Jan Kowalski so you dont get it that its an issue that I feel like I am living someone elses life in someone elses body? It scares me to look into the mirror because what I see doesnt feel like me. My hands feel like they arent mine. Im still living and „doing hard work“ because I have to go on but I dont really feel alive and its really hard to be happy while feeling that way.

@Brandon Topacio me too, age has nothing to do with it

@TheDauntlessGirlonFire this happens to me all the time

@Hannah Holmes Your response was a year ago as well... has it gone away for you yet? Mine used to be super bad when I was a teenager but I'm 24 now and it's been gone for about 2 years now xx

@JonnesTT it's okay just be more careful next time :)

@g f rip I wasn't thinking about that.<br>It's so easy to assume people deal with that shit the same way I do tbh ^^

@g f rip I wasn't thinking about that.
It's so easy to assume people deal with that shit the same way I do tbh ^^

@JonnesTT i appreciate the scifi stuff and the writing and all but do you understamd how damaging it can be to someone who's constantly dissociating to feel like they and the world theyre living in arent real. It can really make your symptoms a lot worse and it makes a lot of things more difficult. So cool comment, i appreciate the sentiment and stuff, but be careful about what you post, b/c you might trigger someone.

@Alex Molina same i was 13 when i wrote this

@Alex Molina same i was 13 when i wrote this

Oh my god. I haven't looked at this comment for 2 years. For some reason I haven't got any notifications for it.  But thank you. All of you. It really does get better when cared for correctly, and having a support system there ready to squeeze your hand when the you or the world start feeling sort of nonexistent. I still have my moments, but I'm so much better than I was when I wrote this. I am not alone. I'm real, and so are all of you. It may not feel like it sometimes, but you in the world in this moment, are real and you are <b>not</b> alone.

Oh my god. I haven't looked at this comment for 2 years. For some reason I haven't got any notifications for it.  But thank you. All of you. It really does get better when cared for correctly, and having a support system there ready to squeeze your hand when the you or the world start feeling sort of nonexistent. I still have my moments, but I'm so much better than I was when I wrote this. I am not alone. I'm real, and so are all of you. It may not feel like it sometimes, but you in the world in this moment, are real and you are *not* alone.

<b>You're never alone. Look behind you.</b>

Guys calm down; i had it too 7 years ago. The thing is, the moment you regulate your anxiety to a calm state, the symptoms start to disappear.

Then you have depression.

yes. though I don't think I have the disorder, I definitely have dissociative episodes where the world doesn't feel real, or I don't feel real, sometimes to the point where I panic and almost have a breakdown because nothing feels right, that this body doesn't belong to me

Jan Kowalski this is the most ignorant thing I’ve ever heard

Jose Molina I got it a week after I turned 14 and have struggled with depression and SAD GAD for about 2 years now

@14_Yin Xuan you can get into this state on psychedelics like LSD for example. And this is a good thing.

I sometimes get into a state of depersonalization. It's just sometimes tho.

Depersonalization? Are you serious people? If you want to know what really mean to lose your ego take LSD - for expierience you won't be related to all your problems in any way. That mean that you won't be deoressed and if you'll do it right you'll learn that you doesn't have to be depressed - psychedelics are great for spiritual experiences! But what is most important - depersonalization. What does this really mean? You change with every second - I mean physically. Your cells are dying, changing and being born. Moreover your character changes - maybe slower but it changes. People change. You won't be the same person forever. So what is this problem of depersonalization if it's sth normal? <br>And anxiety - everybody have an anxiety. But some people deal with this and others - they can't because they don't like hard work.

Depersonalization? Are you serious people? If you want to know what really mean to lose your ego take LSD - for expierience you won't be related to all your problems in any way. That mean that you won't be deoressed and if you'll do it right you'll learn that you doesn't have to be depressed - psychedelics are great for spiritual experiences! But what is most important - depersonalization. What does this really mean? You change with every second - I mean physically. Your cells are dying, changing and being born. Moreover your character changes - maybe slower but it changes. People change. You won't be the same person forever. So what is this problem of depersonalization if it's sth normal?
And anxiety - everybody have an anxiety. But some people deal with this and others - they can't because they don't like hard work.

I don't want to frighten you but, there are theories that real life is just a mega-simulation and we're just very very intricate NPCs.
That said if we are NPCs I do want for all NPCs to be given human rights because we resemble a human in experience, feelings and thought, therefore, we are human. Now all player characters will have to feel bad reading this and knowing I, a philosophically fellow human, will be stopped and therefor killed if this world is ever unloaded.
Unless they moved past philosophy and see the world in cold hard facts, then they are arsholes and I'd formerly request to be taken out of the simulation, by all means, necessary without consideration of the circumstances of my primary mode of existence.
My brain went places, I'm sorry but this reads to good to be deleted now ._.

Lavenderain4 Plays I don’t know is this will help you out or make you feel any better but at least I could try because that’s what I wanted when I felt like this. Anyways for me it did get better slowly. The best thing that I did was find someone to talk to and just distract myself. I know it’s sososo hard because the thoughts just take over your head but maybe just do something simple like for me it was making beaded bracelets with someone that I love and create a nice environment in your room. Like a fort or something. I can’t say that things like this would work for everyone but that just worked for me. Just try things and distract yourself. Don’t get yourself down if you feel like this is going to last forever, because it won’t. It may take a while but just don’t give up. It’s so scary but know that you are not alone❤❤❤❤

If it helps I thought I was going mad because of it, thought it would never go away, after 9 months of healthy food and exercise I barely notice it, the thing which helped me most out of all of it was embracing it fully, without resistance it almost seemed enjoyable like it changed my perspective on life

You are not alone.. I have that shit too.. Its scary

You are not alone.. I have that shit too.. Its scary

To all suffering of depersonalisation I think there is alot of good videos here on youtube, with really useful insights and tips.

@Hannah Holmes l feel the same way, and I'm hopeless. 😢😢😢

Action Cat I know this was a year ago but.. has your dispersonalization gone away yet? I feel like mine is never gonna go away :(


I've been having the "drunk" feeling for several months now. Almost like I'm numb and I find myself constantly feeling like this isn't real. <br>I feel like I'm losing my mind.

I've been having the "drunk" feeling for several months now. Almost like I'm numb and I find myself constantly feeling like this isn't real.
I feel like I'm losing my mind.

@♡piper♡ hit and miss. Somedays I feel fine, other days Im lost in the haze.

A big issue for me was caffeine. Once that was gone, my number of instances went down greatly.

@A Reluctant Ham Sandwich hey. how are you doing now?

@rosieroo I didnt get the notification 7 months ago but better late than never. It comes and goes in episodes now. I'm going through one right now actually.

I've had it since I was 18, it's getting better by the day. I feel mostly normal now. There is a cure, see a therapist!

A Reluctant Ham Sandwich has it gone away


You are not crazy. I feel the exact same. I can’t talk properly, I can’t recognize myself when I look in the mirror sometimes, and I feel detached from the world. A few days ago, my friend told me he had a panic attack. Then, I talked about it with my other friend. She told me to calm down and relax, because there’s nothing I can do about his panic attacks. But, I couldn’t, my heart has been pounding really fast and really hard lately. I don’t recognize myself anymore and I just feel like I’m in a dream. I don’t even know why I’m typing this right now. No ones gonna read it but I just wanted to tell someone. Bye, I hope it gets better.  Also, I’m really confused about my sexuality. I don’t even know if I like guys anymore. But do I like girls? Do I like everyone? Do I like different kinds of people? I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m sorry, to anyone reading this, if you have gotten this far. I just had to tell someone or at least know that I tried to.  I’m sorry <br>07/01/19

You are not crazy. I feel the exact same. I can’t talk properly, I can’t recognize myself when I look in the mirror sometimes, and I feel detached from the world. A few days ago, my friend told me he had a panic attack. Then, I talked about it with my other friend. She told me to calm down and relax, because there’s nothing I can do about his panic attacks. But, I couldn’t, my heart has been pounding really fast and really hard lately. I don’t recognize myself anymore and I just feel like I’m in a dream. I don’t even know why I’m typing this right now. No ones gonna read it but I just wanted to tell someone. Bye, I hope it gets better.  Also, I’m really confused about my sexuality. I don’t even know if I like guys anymore. But do I like girls? Do I like everyone? Do I like different kinds of people? I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m sorry, to anyone reading this, if you have gotten this far. I just had to tell someone or at least know that I tried to.  I’m sorry
07/01/19

I hope you have someone to talk to that often makes a huge difference.

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Konstantina Vasileiadi i feel same way. About sex drive' detachment and not talking right. I get word mix ups and dont know who i am.

Hey, I hope you got some help in the past few months. I hope you're feeling a bit better. I hope got some of the answers you're looking for, and that you're okay with the things you still don't know. Hang in there.

Hey, sorry to interfere, but um.... Does it count as not recognizing yourself if your brain knows it's you, your rational thinking says *that's me*,  but you expect your reflection to talk back? Like it's glass and you're looking through to a person you recognize but do not know?<br>Idkkkkk but this is how it feels for me! Maybe it's different for you....

Hey, sorry to interfere, but um.... Does it count as not recognizing yourself if your brain knows it's you, your rational thinking says *that's me*,  but you expect your reflection to talk back? Like it's glass and you're looking through to a person you recognize but do not know?
Idkkkkk but this is how it feels for me! Maybe it's different for you....

Luisa F it 100% makes sense. Sometimes, it’s scary to look in the mirror and see a stranger. I completely get you. But sometimes I am in my body, I see me but I don’t see the world. It feels like a dream. I can’t open my eyes wide enough and everything just really blurry but other times I can just see everything really clearly. Yep, I have officially gone insane. I’m sorry

Konstantina Vasileiadi hey, i completely relate to everything u said. I feel like I am mad sometime, I look in the mirror and can not recognize myself, When i am confused about something I think about it and then realize I do not know anything about myself. Who is this person? This probably does not make sense, i am sorry.


“I just wanted to get into my old bed in my old room and feel normal again.”

That alone made me almost start to cry but the way she sounded while she tried to fight back tears is what made me cry.

Praying for you Shanna.  Better days are ahead for you my friend.  Always remember, Jesus loves you deeply and passionately no matter what you're feeling or going through.  Call upon His name when things get dark.  Please take care of yourself.


I'm so afraid to feel like this one day. I know that most people get depressed these days and I'm scared that I will too. I see these videos and relate to a minimal amount of it and I'm happy about that. Just a little personal thing.<br>dodie is amazing and so strong! She's doing so well now! :')

I'm so afraid to feel like this one day. I know that most people get depressed these days and I'm scared that I will too. I see these videos and relate to a minimal amount of it and I'm happy about that. Just a little personal thing.
dodie is amazing and so strong! She's doing so well now! :')


4:06 broke my heart. i've had that exact same feeling. i think we all wish we could turn back time to when we were younger and things seemmed okay.

I don’t have this illness, thank god. But I also feel like somethings wrong and I just wish I could go back to when I was a kid and innocent and had no worries

I’m gonna vent~ when I was around seven my family would go to nature parks, invite my cousins over to our one story, cute, Florida house. We went to zoos, theme parks, and church every week. I had a next door neighbor named junior and I had a crush on him. He was my very best friend and I miss him a lot and we played everyday. But it scares me that my memories of these times are getting hazier and less vivid and happy as time goes on. I don’t want to forget my sleepovers, play dates, and bike rides. It’s hard to remember them because there’s no memories that have the same happy warm feeling to help make the old ones alive again. I don’t want to forget the feeling of pure happiness. I used to be a girl that hasn’t worried about things she can’t see yet. The most elaborate things she thinks about when she goes to bed is what she can draw her mom for her bed side wall. Her wall used to be covered in my sister’s and my colorful drawings of every person I met. I used to pray that everyone I knew could go to heaven but now I only worry about if one person will make it. Things were never not okay in my mind but now it takes me way longer to think if anything is okay

Oh wow John Green is applauding me

Astrid L <br>Yes. Especially when you could just talk to another kid and not get nervous. Now you have to worry about your hair, your clothes, is your tummy sticking out too much, is there food in your teeth, is there food on your face, and what if they talk about you behind your back to their friends? Back then we were so unaware of what was actually happening in the world. Way back in my old primary school years, we had lived in an apartment. Of course I thought it was cool because it was like a huge house with a bunch of people living in it. But we were actually broke at that time and I barely got to see my dad because he worked over hours. Looking back at it now it breaks my heart because I hadn't known about this bankruptcy time until recently. Back then, the worst insult was, "I don't want to play with you anymore!" And now, it's  completely different. Everything's different now

Astrid L
Yes. Especially when you could just talk to another kid and not get nervous. Now you have to worry about your hair, your clothes, is your tummy sticking out too much, is there food in your teeth, is there food on your face, and what if they talk about you behind your back to their friends? Back then we were so unaware of what was actually happening in the world. Way back in my old primary school years, we had lived in an apartment. Of course I thought it was cool because it was like a huge house with a bunch of people living in it. But we were actually broke at that time and I barely got to see my dad because he worked over hours. Looking back at it now it breaks my heart because I hadn't known about this bankruptcy time until recently. Back then, the worst insult was, "I don't want to play with you anymore!" And now, it's  completely different. Everything's different now

eve moon <br>Same, I miss the easy days of primary school when I had the courage to talk to everyone, when I had a constant positive and optimistic attitude about everything that ever happened. Before I hurt people and got ignored by the people closest to me. Before I questioned my sexuality and was just unaware of any romantic feelings. I miss those days so much it hurts.

eve moon
Same, I miss the easy days of primary school when I had the courage to talk to everyone, when I had a constant positive and optimistic attitude about everything that ever happened. Before I hurt people and got ignored by the people closest to me. Before I questioned my sexuality and was just unaware of any romantic feelings. I miss those days so much it hurts.

wish there ever were some times like these

I thought I was the only one to feel like this

eve moon why can't I like this 1000 over

My face was completely dry the whole time until I got there, then I just broke because it's so relatable.

sawyer moon almost every time I come back to this video I end up crying


When this video came out, I was in a really bad place too. Watching it now is so strange; I’m in a better place but I’m not properly better just yet. But thank you for making me feel less alone when I needed it Dodie


I know I'm five years late to this, but you described it perfectly. I've been feeling like this since a spike of anxiety a month ago. It's so tiring and so terrifying. I get the feeling I've died a couple of days ago and now I'm in some weird limbo.

did it get better? :( im the exact same, a had a massive panic attack about 3 months ago and its been awful ever since


i haven't felt really "off" these days because it mostly happens when i'm depressed but depersonalization is literally the worst thing... when i'm depressed i'm like depressed and spaced out and it's insane, i feel insane all the time and I just don't care about stuff, which is so terrible because i'm naturally an empath. so i guess it was even worse because of it. i just truly hate my depersonalization so much... i almost commited suicide more than twice because of it

it's like i go through these weird phases where sometimes i'm in a very anxious moment and it is torture so i get depressed because of it and it brings depersonalization and then i'm back to reality but then i get anxious again and it re starts and between all of this i eat and eat so much i just can't control it, I eat until i'm sick and i just hate it so much and i have all these weird behaviors... i just get obsessed with little behaviors that I just can't stop doing  (it isn't as bad as ocd tho) and get so paranoid and it makes me feel so crazy.<br> i mean i just hate all of it, i don't have a sense of self so i just can't love myself as i should.. i hate my brain and I hate that i hate it

it's like i go through these weird phases where sometimes i'm in a very anxious moment and it is torture so i get depressed because of it and it brings depersonalization and then i'm back to reality but then i get anxious again and it re starts and between all of this i eat and eat so much i just can't control it, I eat until i'm sick and i just hate it so much and i have all these weird behaviors... i just get obsessed with little behaviors that I just can't stop doing  (it isn't as bad as ocd tho) and get so paranoid and it makes me feel so crazy.
 i mean i just hate all of it, i don't have a sense of self so i just can't love myself as i should.. i hate my brain and I hate that i hate it


This video sounds like me when I tell my friends how I am feeling lmao. Fun fact: I study Psychology (I started before my anxiety kicked off) and I think it just makes things worse lol.

I wanto to know too, kinda ha having the same :( <br>Hope everything is okay.

I wanto to know too, kinda ha having the same :(
Hope everything is okay.

how do you feel right now? have you made your studies?


i get depersonalization every few months or so,usually when im really depressed.its the scariest thing ever,you feel like a ghost just watching a movie but that movie is your life and you cant feel or hear anything properly and anything you say sounds like its from a different person and you are so aware of what everyone thinks of you,,its terrifying

@madtingz ME TOO I WAS IN 6TH GRADE WHEN IT STARTED

@madtingz ME TOO I WAS IN 6TH GRADE WHEN IT STARTED

This is an old comment but YES THE IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL BUT I COULDN'T PUT IT IN WORDS

This is an old comment but YES THE IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL BUT I COULDN'T PUT IT IN WORDS

How are people so good at explaining things, like you damn. Especially where you feel like a ghost.

How are people so good at explaining things, like you damn. Especially where you feel like a ghost.

thelastofrobyn why it is just every few months it’s so weird. I feel mad.

thelastofrobyn why it is just every few months it’s so weird. I feel mad.

yes it is REALLY hard to live with, terrifying is exactly right

yes it is REALLY hard to live with, terrifying is exactly right

thelastofrobyn this is exactly what i have wow

thelastofrobyn this is exactly what i have wow

It's my first time and I'm so scared and I don't know what to do

It's my first time and I'm so scared and I don't know what to do

It's my first time and I'm so scared and I feel like I'm ready to break down at any moment

It's my first time and I'm so scared and I feel like I'm ready to break down at any moment

For me, I'm having a episode right now. And I just feel empty. I don't feel anything. I don't like anything of the things I do or I used to. I just cry a lot and take naps.

thelastofrobyn I can totally relate to this. I always think I'm feeling better every couple of months and then it comes back. It's just a cycle I hate

thelastofrobyn I can totally relate to this. I always think I'm feeling better every couple of months and then it comes back. It's just a cycle I hate

Until now I thought that was just me, I didn't know it was an actual disorder. I feel like this whenever I go out and have fun and it really just ruins everyone's mood, my mom thinks I'm weird and my whole family  never want to take me anywhere and honestly I don't blame them. I never knew other people felt like this to.

thelastofrobyn me too but I usually get it when I'm having fun and it ruins everything I'll just be all happy and then I'll feel fake and like I'm sitting back in my head watching my body moving on its own doing things I'm not doing and it's even wise having really bad anxiety and it causes anxiety attacks and my depression and then it all crashes down and I just don't want to exist it is the worst

Kirstin Belle what you described LITERALLY just happened to me and I'm crying and I'm confused and I have been confused for about 2-3 months seriously. And its 2:12 am so this probably doesn't make sense.

thelastofrobyn i totally agree, i've gotten depersonalization anxiety before and i just couldn't stop crying bc i was so confused and was so scared and i thought something was wrong with me. but it all turned out okay 🙂 and that happened like a few months ago

thelastofrobyn I didn't know I had this because I always felt this way ever since I was young(?) I thought everyone had this(?)

thelastofrobyn I didn't know I had this because I always felt this way ever since I was young(?) I thought everyone had this(?)

This happens to me pretty often and normally after being inebriated even more and I don't know what to do to help myself besides wait the few weeks to normal out.

This happens to me pretty often and normally after being inebriated even more and I don't know what to do to help myself besides wait the few weeks to normal out.

This happens to me every couple of weeks and I thought that I was the only one, tho helped

This happens to me every couple of weeks and I thought that I was the only one, tho helped

this has happened to me a couple times and i never realized what it was but this is a perfect description omg

this has happened to me a couple times and i never realized what it was but this is a perfect description omg

thelastofrobyn I've had it for over a year, non stop... I'm literally dead inside.

thelastofrobyn I've had it for over a year, non stop... I'm literally dead inside.

thelastofrobyn Cheers for the video content! Sorry for butting in, I would love your thoughts. Have you researched - Lammywalness Erase Depression Guide (Have a quick look on google cant remember the place now)? It is a great one of a kind product for beating depression minus the hard work. Ive heard some unbelievable things about it and my buddy  got cool results with it.

thelastofrobyn yeah, you're so right, it's terrifying. When I'm going through hard-core, whatever this is.., I don't think that the person I am exists and that its just a corpse. When I look in the mirror I think "that's not me" and I shake, and my mind goes blurry, almost like I already don't exist. Then there are other times when my thoughts seem to disappear and I can't talk; almost like I disappeared. And I don't like living in a world that's not real
To me.
It should be real,
But it's not

Fawn I hope going back to school helps :) even if you don't feel like you can talk to your mom, maybe a friend would understand :) I was shocked to find a friend had gone through the same thing. keep your head up! :)

+Liz Casavan thank you :), I've been off the past two days which honestly made it worse because my mum doesn't understand and she never will be able to, and I don't want her too. But being stuck at home is worse and I already miss enough school as it is due to anxiety

+Fawn hey! I know what you're feeling. I felt like I was screaming at my friends trying to make them realize I was not ok. None of them knew what to say or do and I didn't feel like they were listening to me.

My suggestion is to take some deep breaths, think of things that make you feel alive, memories that bring you back to what you know is real and for me, being around close friends and family has helped bring me back as well.

Take a mental health day from school and responsibilities and sleep or feel everything that you need to feel. Write or paint or run or eat or what ever you do to just feel alive.

Try to remember who you are and what you want <3 You are not crazy, and you are important and beautiful and you can make it through this. Find me on facebook or write back on here if you need someone to talk to. <3

over the past couple of weeks I've been like this, and i'm not sure if i should go to a doctor or not cause I've told my friend and some family and they seem to think i'm going crazy and i just want to scream at something i'm not sure how to do this while being in school.

thelastofrobyn  it's literally the scariest thing ever right?!? I constantly have derealisation/depersonalisation and it sucks so bad! I never feel like I'm here, and I never feel like I can enjoy anything! Mine resulted from ptsd and insomnia, and even when I went to New York with my mum I didn't feel like I was there! I felt so bad cause she'd spent so much money to get us both there! Urgh the struggles😭

WOW you described it so well. I've had the hardest time describing this to my family/doctor.

WOW you described it so well. I've had the hardest time describing this to my family/doctor.

see I always thought something was wrong with me.... I got scans etc everything was good. wow I'm not alone thank you for the boost it helps so much.  Just know we are human and this is what were dealt so let's build together and conquer out disorder. much love brothers and sisters.

wow i would not like to have that i only have depression and anxiety which does suck but that seems so scary and i dint know that it was a thing until now and yea sorry for rambling ^_^

thelastofrobyn i sometimes feel like it's episodes of happiness more than depression

thelastofrobyn i sometimes feel like it's episodes of happiness more than depression

Wow I'm in shock that I found ppl that know exactly what it's like! !!!Because I'm 32 now but this happened to me around 17 after my sister who I loved dearly passed away....I was crying in a corner at home when my other sister knew something was wrong, so I go to hospital and then a psychologist who diagnosed me finally could do NOTHING other than tell me that if your aware of these strange dissociative feelings then your not crazy....ugh okay, so how do I fix it because it's exhausting trying "perform" out act how I thought I used to act while ignoring the alien surroundings which takes tremendous focus......but it seems there is a light at the end of the tunnel cuz this condition isn't just an isolated case and I'm not the only poor soul dealing with this on the daily!....Anyways I've been dealing with this everyday for 15 years all be it some days it's easier to ignore but for me it has been a constant battle!!!For people who don't have it here's an example of how this effects us. ......Imagine you're engaged in a conversation with someone who you actually really are interested in the topic BUT you can't help but notice the figurines on the table that you  know without a doubt are real but feel like they are a holographic projection of said figurine this scenario is as distracting as one's toddler child screaming at you while talking to this person...Yet we still manage to finish the conversation which is really hard to do just imagine the focus it takes us just to live our everyday lives! !......WE ARE THE STRONG WE ARE THE IN BETWEEN

How shit, I feel like that all the time, I always thought that it will go away, but it hasn't

How shit, I feel like that all the time, I always thought that it will go away, but it hasn't

thelastofrobyn I thought this was normal until I watched this video shit

thelastofrobyn I thought this was normal until I watched this video shit

thelastofrobyn kinda have it right now. I feel like I am floating and just observing my actions

thelastofrobyn kinda have it right now. I feel like I am floating and just observing my actions

It's kinda funny when you are sobbing and your brain is like "whoopdy doo lol i am cry huh look at that"

It's kinda funny when you are sobbing and your brain is like "whoopdy doo lol i am cry huh look at that"

i always say its kind of like youre playing a video game with a vr head set and you like touch things and see things and hear things but you arent really feeling it

i always say its kind of like youre playing a video game with a vr head set and you like touch things and see things and hear things but you arent really feeling it

I've had it to a certain degree since as long as I can remember. But the last three years it's been getting way worse.s

I've had it to a certain degree since as long as I can remember. But the last three years it's been getting way worse.s

Oh this mental state is actually a thing?! I actually just thought I was going insane or was soon about to leave earth x3 Thank you all for sharing your experiences with this illness! Since I've found it hard to speak for about a year now I undeveloped my language alot and struggles to find peace in my head so nothing disturbs me in a sentence... Can't look people in the eyes when talking- especially not those who knew me before this weird shit- and all that made me think as little as possible (to avoid crying over how stupid I feel), so now I don't know how to get help... Pills are not an oportunity, but no therapist has the time I need to open up and get my language to work OK, and I don't have my best friends around anymore since it seems like I've faithed out of everyone's life because I can't call people on the phone(anxiety!), I struggle to text, so when I finally answer ppl I don't have energy for replying back again- and my life is a mess, so I can't afford traveling to them and it's not guest friendly at my place :((( ....  How long does your therapy sessions last, and do you feel it is enough for you?

I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THIS WAS BUT YOU PUT IT PERFECTLY NOW I KNOW WHAT ITS CALLED THANK YOU

I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THIS WAS BUT YOU PUT IT PERFECTLY NOW I KNOW WHAT ITS CALLED THANK YOU

it got 792 likes and so many confirming same experience familiarity reply, I also say you placed it really well to words I have knwn this depersonalization sensation it is impossible to describe but very possible to recover. I am possitively amazed that people are truer with own self. It is the last thing one wold like to speak with others about and it used to be real taboo.

Kateraina Needs to sleep getting a therapist really helps too. People may look at you weird when you tell them you go to a therapist every week or so but it makes you feel tens times better ( unless the reason for the disorder are chemical imbalances in the brain, but there are medicines for that) and I've been through the same things. I've been wanting to try meditation too but I've had other things to do. I'll have to try it soon!

Angle Damion sir, I'm going to politely ask you and Kateraina to stop bickering. I acknowledge the fact that this is screen of which I know nothing of your life by looking upon it and your hateful words, but please, there is no need to be rude.

thelastofrobyn  I hope you get better Fren!! I love you!!! stay alive!!! |-/

thelastofrobyn  I hope you get better Fren!! I love you!!! stay alive!!! |-/

It's time to say goodbye to the addict with a pen

I have felt that maybe... twice? At loud parties. Usually at loud parties

I have felt that maybe... twice? At loud parties. Usually at loud parties

+Lgbtqa LoveIsLove when I was like 9 I got existential crisises all the time, and now I just get really annoyed when people who think they're being clever are like "what if ur actually in a coma and this whole world is a dream." I'm like "look, I've spent way too much of my childhood having panic attacks about death and existential shit, and I don't want to listen to your crap now. it's not clever or funny or deep, it's just annoying, and honesty rather triggering."

I know what you're going through, and I hope you know that it does get better. you're getting stronger every day, and you're never alone. I hope you're having a lovely day, and that you get through anything that tries to pull you down

omg I think I have that too, its weird I never knew how to explain, but u described it perfectly, i usually get that around the same time when an existencial crisis kicks in, which I have at least once ever 2 days

I never would have thought that so many people would be experiencing the same thing. Like here you are for years thiking that you should just avoid the entire world because you dont deserve to be part of it  because of this stuff, yet so many other people describe the same problem to a t.

I care. I am not going to force my opinion down your throat, but I care. And I hope that everyone who feels the same as I do, feels better.

I care. I am not going to force my opinion down your throat, but I care. And I hope that everyone who feels the same as I do, feels better.

I care. I feel the exact same way, and not a lot of people know about it. Only my siblings, and a few close friends. I am doing this on my own because if I tell anyone else, I feel like they wont believe me.

It is always good to know that others feel the same way.

It is always good to know that others feel the same way.

Sorry that was harsh. I'm just... sick of people who think that they can hurt others and get away with it. I didn't mean it. that you were the reason why society sucks. You aren't. I'm sure you're just having a bad day, or that you are feeling just as miserable as us. I'm sorry.

@Angle Damion people like you is the reason why our world sucks.     You feel like you have to bring anyone and everyone down. But its the internet! Nobody actually knows you, so the people you know (and acctually care about) won't know how much you hurt people. You are a cyber bully. I hope you realize this and stop. I hope that your life starts to be better so you don't feel the need to ruin others, too. Get better.

@Kateraina Needs to sleep Thank you. I'm I really needed this.

@Kateraina Needs to sleep Thank you. I'm I really needed this.

@If Only Oh I'm sorry you have to go through that. I'm very similar to you, with a few add ons, lol. You'll feel better again, but right now, you just have to roll with the punches I guess. That's what I'm trying to do. Taking each day as it comes. I'm trying out mindfulness/meditation since it seems to help a lot for people with anxiety and/or depersonalization, so maybe try that out and hopefully it helps you! I'm glad you have a place where you feel human. Try to hold on to that. Attend choir and practice it, and hang out with the people from there. You'll feel better - maybe not today, maybe not tommorow, but you will feel better.  All the best xo

+Kateraina Needs to sleep  I cried when i saw this. I've had depression, depersonalization, and anxiety for a few years now. it started to get better during the summer, but I feel like I'm falling again. Most the time I don't feel emotion, unless its sadness, and it hurts. I feel like I'm just going through the days. The only time I feel human is during choir.

+Enthusiasm Fracture thank you! I know I just got pretty annoyed there because that person had no clue, I've calmed down now though that person is irrelevant lol!! I really hope no one takes to heart what they said

I got depersonalisation when I was 12 years old, it feels like nothing has really been right since then but it gets really bad when I'm stressed or having an anxiety attack. It's such a scary feeling like you're constantly an outside observer of your thoughts and everything seems so unreal

@Angle Damion You're obviously not minding your own business. Tale your own advice

@Angle Damion You're obviously not minding your own business. Tale your own advice

It took me about 3 years from the first day I had an panic/depersonalization attack to start feeling completely normal again. That's something most people don't mention, that it can take a long time to "recover". But good luck man, I hope everything gets better for you =)

@Kateraina Needs to sleep I don't care. If you're annoying you should just stop speaking.

@Kateraina Needs to sleep I don't care. If you're annoying you should just stop speaking.

I know right... at least you get a break form it. still looking for a way out..

I know right... at least you get a break form it. still looking for a way out..

Yes. and if people have never gone through it they don't understand man

Yes. and if people have never gone through it they don't understand man

you put it perfectly well done my friend

you put it perfectly well done my friend

The worst thing for me was being around people who've known me all of my life like my family because there's this expectation to be "someone" and when you literally feel like nothing, much less no one, it's just so terrifying because it's not even something you can explain, everything just feels alien and even the expectation to be yourself is too hard. Thank you for posting your comment, I thought I was alone but God bless human connection. I've missed that a lot. Thank you so much.


God I love this video.. I watch it at least once a day. In times when I feel terrible and depressed, I’ll just watch this and realize how much dodie has gone through. You’re so strong and amazing, keep doing what you😃


I feel you. I feel every word you said. I'm sending a HUGE hug from Portugal and I hope you feel better now. Don't feel ashamed, don't hide in a corner, seek help, go find your friends and treat yourself. It's my best advice.<br>Love you

I feel you. I feel every word you said. I'm sending a HUGE hug from Portugal and I hope you feel better now. Don't feel ashamed, don't hide in a corner, seek help, go find your friends and treat yourself. It's my best advice.
Love you


I'm so glad I found this video. I've been feeling the whole depersonalization thing for like 11 years. I'm 16 now, I didn't realize that what I was feeling was a problem until recently. It's honestly all I've ever known. This video made me feel a lot less alone. Thank you


I have this and I always thought I was  SOO different and everyone was gonna think I'm crazy. I'm happy I'm not alone


When you almost started crying I felt a bit of me die

Its okay, i will bring you the defibrilator!

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Now it should be back to life again! Can you feel it?

Its okay, i will bring you the defibrilator!

*CLEAR* BZzzZZZZZZZZZZzzz

Now it should be back to life again! Can you feel it?


I remember one day I woke up and ran into my parents room crying and asked them to say my name so it felt like I was real. I once heard it described as 'eavesdropping on a conversation you're part of'.


I just found out that I've had anxiety for 3 years, and sometimes I feel depressed too. I feel like the big things in life don't get to me at all, like I'm desensitized by them, but small things like social interaction or waking up too late feel like the weight of the world. I constantly feel like I've lost control, like my life is on autopilot and there's no way out. I waste every day by being unproductive and every night I find that I hate myself more for wasting my own time by staring at a screen. I can't even bring myself to tell my parents because I think they wouldn't care or wouldn't help me, just pity me and move on. I know it's not true, but something inside me is still holding me back.

Hey, I don't know you, but I hope you have been able to tell your parents or any other adult figure who can help you. More power, strength, and warmth to you. Take care.


This might be an old video, but it really helped me put that step towards seeking help. Even if it's just talking to friends about it. It's a step... Babysteps... It's more effort than i've made in my entire life since i've felt depressed or down about the way i feel. Thanks for that. Thanks a lot <3

May God be with you and show you His wonderful kindness and grace dear friend.
May the love of His Son Jesus surround you and embrace you warmly.
Please take care.


It's so sad that we can't explain our mental illness without trying to frantically explain that we aren't high or aren't on drugs. I dunno it's something I and others have had to say before when explaining how I feel. It's upsetting.

I understand. It's really frustrating. Something else that's happened to me before, is I take medication, and people have been like "OOOOH LUCKY!! I WISH I WAS ON THAT!" Or like, "Damn, what'd you say to your psychiatrist to get that?" And it's extremely invalidating.

Well, I'm just glad there are people like you who understand. :)

+Losers-With-Computers it really does suck. I've had to convince people I wasn't on drugs just because I felt things that they didn't.


I just want to come back after 5 years and say thank you for this video. I started experiencing depersonalization due to anxiety right before the pandemic, and having a name for it from watching your video helped me not feel like I was going crazy.


I suffer from schizoaffective disorder and along with that I suffer from Derealisation/depersonalisation day in, day out... sometimes it gets worse for short episodes but it’s there all the time. I made a video about it where I showed a clip of me in a bad episode and it’s weird to watch :/ I feel weird, I feel broken, I am tired of seeing and hearing things no one else can perceive and I am sick of being in this bloody dream world all the time. It sucks so I totally understand you...


I have been watching videos/vlogs on depression and anxiety all night and this one is the most real I've seen. Thank you for putting yourself out there for all to see. It's brave and inspiring. Thank you again from someone who knows how you feel. Thank you.  Side note, I didn't realize this was 3 years ago. I hope things have gotten easier and know that we are with you.


I'm 13 and I have depression, I only found that out a few months ago. All my symptoms started to make sense. It's so hard to come to school and put a mask on my face till I'm alone again, it's hard to believe things are real and it's hard to know if I'm awake or dreaming, my friends still think I'm that bubbly and happy girl I was in primary because I hide away in the school bathrooms when I feel like I'm going to break. I come close to crying in class but somehow I manage to suck it all in and say I'm fine I'm just tired and it's hard to keep this secret to myself

I came back to school and the only one that seem to the counselor

Same, I'm glad you found the word to define it so early on, I didn't know what "mental health" was until uni. When my "friends" in middle school ostracized me (2x in 2 diff. places), something just clicked in my brain, and I started being scared all the time of what people think of me, feeling lonely, and crying easily, but I hoped it would go away, hoped time would heal..but it didn't, I continued to feel like a shitty version of myself, and despite trying to pretend I'm still this very happy, bubbly girl for everyone around, I really hoped someone would see the truth and help me. But nobody took it seriously enough, dismissed it as "just teenage angst" probs, so now I'm trying to deal with it in my 20s (where have the past 14 years gone??) and it's so haard. Sticking together with people who understand helps, yes! <3


"How can you fight it when the it is the thing you're using to fight with?"
  - Dodie Clark

   This is going in my book of quotes


When you said "you're problems are not insignificant" i kinda just broke down


Can't believe how I've felt so moved by your words, I'm really struggling from persistent depressive disorder and the way you describe your feelings and your plans ...I definatly relate to the strange world, foggy mind, dream like state experience. You make so much sense to me.


it's taken me 4 years to accept that there was something wrong and to finally know about dpdr. one of the worst parts for me is the emotional numbess and the inability to cry. i managed to cry this year but it's still pretty few and unpredictable.  this video is one of the 5 things that has made me cry. i have watched this video many many times in the past month, and that part has made me weep so bad. what she says has been my life for 4 years - everyday. i want to get in my old bed, in my old room, and feel normal again all the time.

i’ve only recently started feeling this way & turned to dodie’s videos bc i knew she had experienced something similar — so i lost it as soon as she started crying.

@Prospector Nick "Come unto me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."(Matthew 11:28) Jesus is calling the broken hearted.

Vincent Lindhorn Really man? I understand you’re just trying to help, but come on. Don’t preach to a bunch of people when they’re down, that just shows that you’ve got nothing.

@Andrew Lewis stay strong
all of you
I know I can't tell anyone that I know what they feel like, I know that's not how it works. But I really hope and wish the best for you. it's gonna be fine

mackenzie frecloud I 100% feel that. All I want anymore is just to go home. That’s all I’ve wanted for 9 years but realistically I’m the only living member of my family left and everything is gone and there’s nothing there anymore.


"objectively I am fine, so why am I not?" is the question that has been running around in my head for years thank you for saying it out loud


Depersonalization is really really one of the worst conditions I know. Because you kinda function somehow normal but at the same time you live subjectively in hell...

Only thing that helps me is being pragmatic, not obsessing about existential thoughts and don't avoid situations because I don't feel good.

I wish you all the best dodie I can relate soo damn good.


I've had these similar feelings when I was 13, that was 2 years ago and I feel like this has still been in my head ever since. I went to therapy for it but I just felt like it was hard to explain anything and I was afraid I was wasting my time. Ever since I have been supressing it, the feeling of anything is real or not and feeling like a robot who is subconsciously doing everything without feeling anything, I want to feel alive again, be able to see the world like I used to and see everything for the reality that it is, every once in a while I get a few seconds of a glimpse of what everything used to feel like but I go right back to feeling this way. I don't what to do :(


I always had this feeling that I wasn’t there and I wasn’t really in my body. I never new what it was and I always wanted to put a name to it. This has helped me realise that I have depersonalisation and derealisation. This is why I love Dodie so much💛💛💛


Depersonalisation is the worst feeling in the world, I still suffer from it today at times when I get really anxious or worried. I thought I was going mental for ages until I researched into what was happening. I thought I felt lightheaded but I realise now it's completely different. It feels like your observing yourself from outside of your body and it's not nice at all because you know your talking but you can't register that you are. It's like your part of yourself but your not. I've found ways to cope now, basically I make sure that I stay hydrated all the time if I'm in a social situation and I try to find things around me to stabilise myself to make sure I "stay in my own head" like I make sure I don't panic when it kicks in, I make sure I look around me and see the room I want to stay in. I felt like this before I ever felt drunk so I never realised the similarities until the first time I got drunk, then I freaked out. Trust me when I say this

Ash i tought i felt lightheaded too im 14

+Wra8h That's completely and utterly not true. it's impossible dp is just a "feeling" nobody is capable of feeling this forever a while maybe but not forever I'm sorry you've lost hope.

You're probably suffering from episodes not the disorder. it's fucking horrible I know, but when it has turned into the f disorder you're already in. there's no way out because it's a lifetime feeling, you're IT. all the time, it's your reality you don't know how else it is, not anymore. and the horrible huge part about DPD: medication doesn't work.

It will pass and you're not alone, you're not crazy at all! You will feel like yourself again, I know it doesn't feel like you will be now but you will. Take time to feel yourself again and take time out to chill you deserve it and everyone will understand, lots of love xxx


Just stumbled across this. Wow. Thank you for opening up and being honest and talking about such a difficult subject. Mental health is important, and people take ot for granted until they spiral down. I'm currently struggling with anxiety and depression. They are very difficult to explain to people that havent experienced it. Thank you for putting yourself out there and reminding us that no one is perfect, but everyone deserves love and respect.


When dodie said, "I just want to get into my old bed and be normal again." I cried so hard. Like, I can't relate, but it makes me so heartbroken that there are people who have to feel like that.


you know, i dont usually cry, and when people tell me the things theyre experiencing, even if they are exactly the same things i am experiencing, my mind finds some way to say to me: no. youre different. youre not worth it, and youre never going to get better. So thank you for this video. Because I cried my eyes out and i felt so understood and ive been looking for that understanding for about a year now. I'll try to continue my life with the thought that I am not crazy, that I am a person worthy of attention, and that i am good enough. I hope you will find your happy place soon, I really hope you do. Until then, I hope youre proud of yourself, and the fact that youve helped so many people by the stories you tell


This is the best description of derealization ive heard. this is me.


i remember watching this video for the first time several years ago, when i was still in high school. i was crying so hard because i was feeling everything you were saying on such a deep level. i was so scared, and i still am sometimes. the first time i recognized that i was experiencing derealization/depersonalization, i think i was around 9 or 10. i of course had no idea what it was called, i didn’t figure that out until i watched this video for the first time. but, i remember telling my mom about it. i said i felt like i was dreaming, but she didn’t know what it was or what to say so she just kind of brushed it off. i’ve been struggling with this at varying levels throughout the years and it’s never fully gone away. i’m 19, so i’ve felt like this for half of my life. i was so young when it started that i can’t even remember what it felt like before. anyways, i just wanted to write this here to kind of get it off of my chest, and maybe someone reading the comments will be able to relate to it and feel a little less alone in their struggle. also, thank you for sharing your experience dodie, it’s made feel a lot less alone and a little less scared. x


Depersonalization is actually how I’m feeling


dodie I love you so much, I hope you can stay strong an get through this, we are all here for you, your subscriber, family, friends and all that jaazzity jazz, really I do hope you feel better soon... love you! <3


Thank you! I thought I was going crazy. I sometimes feel like my hands aren't my own, like looking at them through a window. I didn't know there was a name for it. Thank you for your honesty and openness in your vlogs.


You are not nearly crazy.
Thank you so much for sharing this means a lot to a lot of teens struggling and thank you for letting us know about you and sharing yourself.
I hope you are doing okay, I hope you can be okay <3

And good for you for standing up and taking action, you're very strong for a hard struggle


I know exactly that feeling and have gone through it twice in my life. I know this video is super old but it is nice to not be alone in that experience and just know so truly that your experience is the same as someone else's. Hope you got through it as I did <3


I relate to Dodie so much. I feel we have similar features, ones I’ve struggled to love before. And we both have similar mental difficulties and similar issues. It’s so comforting to hear her talk about this. Because something I felt so alone in really isn’t


Thank you so so much for this. I’m collecting mental illness diagnosis’s like Pokémon. And I always feel wrong in the world and crazy. So thank you ❤


I am watching this in 2019. I have never ever ever ever related to a video and ever found a video to describe how I am feeling better than this one. Thank you!


4:00-5:00 is EXACTLY how I’ve been feeling lately. You couldn’t have said it any better. Derealization always makes me feel extremely nostalgic.


I saw this when it came out and related to it but i've been going through a really tough few weeks lately and this was comforting to come back and watch. Thank you for sharing dodie.


I know what you are going through, I've been through anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts all at once and Im eleven, the only thing that gets me through it is you music and my favorite youtuber, Jacksepticeye.


I've been going and continue to go through this. You have helped me feel a little less insane, and god bless you beautiful girl, I don't know how it is for you personally but for me it's mind fracturing and scary. Learning of psychic distance has helped me a little bit.


I've dealt with derealisastion and depersonalisation my whole life. I always felt like my life was a movie but I could tell who I was and everything, I was pretty much fine.It really got worse when my dad died, but the weird part is, the only time when I've ever truly felt I was in my body was when I was crying at his funeral. Everything was real and vivid, and as soon as I stepped out of there, it was like a dream. I've never gotten out of this dream, I can kind of tell I'm here, but it feels as though I'm not controlling myself. It's hard to explain, it if you've ever felt it you would understand. I hate it and sometimes I wish I could experience the world as it is and not like I'm looking through a bad quality camera. Playing guitar and watching your videos bring me into the world a little more, but I'm never truly here.

+doddlevloggle Thank you for making this video, I've never felt like I could relate to someone about this. I think it will help a lot of people.


dodie, you took the words right out of my mouth.

thank you! 💕

I can't explain how much this means to me..just...I'm at a loss for words! We're freakishly similar 😂


the way i keep coming back to dodie for music and mental health because their videos and songs make my dpdr consumed brain feel like it’s allowed to exist :’’’’’)

cried so hard at 4:14, sigh
i just wanna go back in time to my old room and lie on my old bed with the light reflecting off of those orange walls and although dissociation was almost a daily occurrence, it didn’t consume me then like it has the past few years. i wanna be 15 again. i want that sense of normalcy, i want to feel like i’m not going insane, i want to look at the mirror and not be scared (because goddamn depersonalisation makes that so bad), i wanna be able to watch tv and be able to stay sane in my reality, i want to stop seeing things from the outside, i want to stop floating in dream-like states. i want to wake up one day and actually.wake. up.

dodie’s videos were how i found out about dissociation/dpdr. my entire life - my entire freaking life - made more sense. i wasn’t going insane. there was a name to what i felt. i wish i reached out for help then. i wish i didn’t wait for things to get too bad before taking my mental health seriously. i was barely living by the time i actually got help, but getting a diagnosis did give me a lot of clarity.

to everyone who struggles with dpdr/dissociative disorders/other mental health conditions: i see you. i goddamn see you. hang in there. i know it feels like you’re alone, but you’re not. you’re actually not. there are a lot of us out here. don’t hesitate to talk or get help. and live your life as much as you can - truth be told, i don’t know if i’m ever going to stop feeling this way. but i’m tired of not living cause of it. there will be ups and downs, but all you can do is keep going, cause there are things in life that are worth it. worth all of this. if you don’t think there is, you just haven’t found it. keep searching, my love. keep going.


I've watched you for years honestly and recently I've had a bit of a tumble in the brain department, to a whole new level than normal. Pretty sure I have c-ptsd after a lot of (healthy to the best possible extent) research. Thank you so much for all your content on dissociation it's honestly so so so bloody helpful!!!!


I totally felt like this for like a month and I finally got the help I need. Thanks for sharing your experiences.


Nothing in this video sounded like you were trying to just get attention...thank you for validating your fan's problems...but please know that your problems are valid as well. You are so brave and I'm so impressed by you

Well done Dodie! We know it's hard, and you're trying. We support you. Take time off if you need. Mental health issues are a real thing, as important and real as physical health issues - we believe you. Well done for keeping trying. Whatever you need to get better. ❤❤❤

+doddlevloggle thank you for sharing this with us. Do whatever you need for you. if it means taking time off for yourself do it we understand. sending lots of love and thoughts your way <3

I hope you see my comment above. And I hope it helps. <3


Hearing this really helps me feel understood. I struggle with the same depersonalization issue and its really scary. Thank you


I've been there (I still am kinda), I know how all that feels, and I  also know mental illness is important and needs to be treated right. But what REALLY has helped me to feel so much better is stop trying to fight against it all the time. The more you fight against it, and try to feel "normal" (we're still normal), the bigger the feeling will get. All those symptoms need to drain of our bodies, if we just try aaaall the time to put it off and don't actually face it and say "ok, let's feel it and then let it go" (as terrifies as it sounds) it just will keep getting bigger and worse. Just try as hard as you can to not think all the time about how horrible it is, and how you wish you feel normal like before, try with all your strength to keep doing your life with all these symptoms and bad feelings, and just let them be so then they can't leave you alone. <br>Another thing that helps me, it's not saying "I'm this" you are not depression, you are not anxiety, you are not whatever process you are going through. You are just at a  phase of your life where your body and mind are speaking and telling you something through symptoms/illness, and we gotta listen them and change what it's causing us so much damage. Everything changes, and life is a rollercoaster, maybe right now you feel only going down.....but one day it will start going up and up......hope all this can help someone ♡

I've been there (I still am kinda), I know how all that feels, and I  also know mental illness is important and needs to be treated right. But what REALLY has helped me to feel so much better is stop trying to fight against it all the time. The more you fight against it, and try to feel "normal" (we're still normal), the bigger the feeling will get. All those symptoms need to drain of our bodies, if we just try aaaall the time to put it off and don't actually face it and say "ok, let's feel it and then let it go" (as terrifies as it sounds) it just will keep getting bigger and worse. Just try as hard as you can to not think all the time about how horrible it is, and how you wish you feel normal like before, try with all your strength to keep doing your life with all these symptoms and bad feelings, and just let them be so then they can't leave you alone.
Another thing that helps me, it's not saying "I'm this" you are not depression, you are not anxiety, you are not whatever process you are going through. You are just at a  phase of your life where your body and mind are speaking and telling you something through symptoms/illness, and we gotta listen them and change what it's causing us so much damage. Everything changes, and life is a rollercoaster, maybe right now you feel only going down.....but one day it will start going up and up......hope all this can help someone ♡


Is it anxiety and depression when every time you try to talk about your feelings, it's like they are shoved into the walls of your throat so you keep your mouth cemented shut to stop you from bursting? Is it anxiety and depression when you have to scribble circles or lines or dots on your homework and then jab yourself in the hand with the same pen during class? Is it anxiety and depression when you are constantly in a dreamscape and all the lights are too bright and every single thing is buzzing around you but you know you can't be in it so you'd rather be invisible? Is it anxiety and depression when you you keep these negative words in your head that you keep chanting to yourself whenever your put in a situation where you know you're not good enough? Is it anxiety and depression when once everyone sees you crying and begins to ask if your ok, your knees give way and you collapse because all of your emotions are working at once and they're weighing you down like there's a cannonball in your backpack?

Is it anxiety and depression when you have to build a wall of false positivity to shelter your insecurities whilst trying to keep your friends close by, but really, you just keep adding more and more bricks to it and it's just separating you from them...

And your worst fear...

Is losing them?


Thank you so much for sharing these videos about your struggles with mental health, there’s just not enough videos with people who I can relate to but I’m happy to find this


Dodie I don't know if this helps, but I love you :) you inspire me and make me feel so much more confident about myself and I feel bad that there is nothing that I can do but I can tell you that you are so beautiful, gorgeous, inspiring, and you make a shit ton of people happy. It makes me upset that you are not well, but stay strong, do your best, I know you have been doing that this whole time but keep it up. God I love you so much!

Dodie I just can't even explain how much you mean to me, like ugh I wish I could.

I don't know of you will read this but I hope you do ^^


Thank you for making this. It’s so helpful to so many people.4:15 made me cry :( I know 100% how you feel.


I'm so proud of you for actually doing stuff when you're feeling like this...i can't make myself go for a run or make a video or eating breakfast or whatever..


I literally relate so hard that I'm close to tears. ~*hugs*~, it'll all be okay, Dodie <3


I just wanted to say that I am so grateful and appreciative of this and other videos as this is the only thing I've truly related to for a long time now and it's so reassuring knowing that I'm not the only one who feels this way. Thank you so much xxx


Man I feel this so much. I went to the doctors 3 times in one day before because I got told Anxiety wasn't a big enough problem and I wept on the walk home. It's so so hard to describe to someone what it's like, everything is huge. You opening up is literally amazing I don't wanna sound patronising but that's fab. Honestly. Use the people around you, it's okay to. That's what they are there for. Remember we're all here. I don't know what more I can say. Also random but if anyone is Uni age and applying for DSA and needs help hit me up (message me or something) I'm here to help :) I've gone through almost every shitty part xxx

I'm really sorry this happened to you. anxiety is real and valid and for me crippling.

+Ruby Woods Yup, such a sweet community...! :o

:D well fab wouldn't be possible without you!

ALSO I keep saying more but you are all fab too, like Dodie's fans/support are the sweetest, gentlest peeps I've got to know <3

Basically we all love you, please remember that when you feel alone xxx


"I know I sound insane, I feel like I am insane" - exactly what I say every time I talk to myself about myself


Watching these videos helps so much! I came to this video because I was freaking out about what’s going on in my head and whether I’ll ever get back to normal, but seeing other people saying how they feel, and it being how I feel is so helpful and makes me feel less alone, even though my brain says I am


I don't have a mental illness - which I am so incredibly grateful for, mind you - and it absolutely breaks my heart that lovely human beings like Dodie, or even people who don't have fanbases of hundreds of thousands of other human beings, who just have hearts of gold are cursed to live their lives in brains that do have mental illnesses. It always seems like the best people have these illnesses, and it just seems unfair. And I see videos like this of genuine sweethearts talking about these experiences that seem so unthinkable to my 'normal' brain, but I still try to think about what it would be like. And I always feel bad talking about things like this, because I feel like I'll say something wrong or inconsiderate about it, and I really don't want to. I would feel horrible. And I feel bad even writing this comment, because I know that my pity and misunderstanding of this subject will not do anything for anyone, yet here I am, and I'm sorry to whoever's still reading. I don't even know what the point of this comment was. I think that I wanted to say that it isn't fair for anyone, even the worst of people, to be... cursed, I suppose, with this burden. I'm sorry again to whoever's reading this, because you're just wasting your time reading my rambling about a topic I'm ignorant of. If anyone seeing this knows more about mental health, feel free to inform me about why this type of thing happens, because I really want to learn more.
Maybe this comment doesn't make sense because I've been writing this at 1:00 a.m. in my bed for the last ten or so minutes. Or because I'm literally eleven. Again, sorry, this information has no importance to you. Have a nice day. ❤


Even though this was posted almost a year ago, I still feel so freaking proud that Dodie felt able to make and post this video. <br>Thank you Dodie, you're beautiful and amazing xx

Even though this was posted almost a year ago, I still feel so freaking proud that Dodie felt able to make and post this video.
Thank you Dodie, you're beautiful and amazing xx


I am so happy you've uploaded a video about this!! Makes people aware of depersonalisation and how u shouldn't feel crazy or weird because the brain is just odd and sometimes u can't help what u think

p.s daily meditation really really helped me, stick with it, make it a routine like brushing your teeth!!


Thank you so much dodie
I’ve been going to therapy for the past few weeks and I’ve been trying to explain what’s going on (and been doing it horribly) I felt like it was just me and I was going crazy
This video sincerely helped me and I’m now on the right track on getting back to get normal and happy 😊


For me depersonalization started when I was sick over my summer break which wasn’t to long ago and I really don’t want to stress anyone in my family about it and they ask me how I feel and I don’t know how to respond because I personally don’t know how I feel I really do feel like I’m not alive and I still to this day do not know what to do and it really does make me upset because I want to be able to feel things again how I used to so I can completely relate to this video i have not had this for a year I’ve only had it for almost 2 months now


This video broke my heart. I honestly, sincerely hope you will start to feel better and find the help you need. We love you, don't forget that. Stay safe, you can do this! <b>Huggggs</b>

This video broke my heart. I honestly, sincerely hope you will start to feel better and find the help you need. We love you, don't forget that. Stay safe, you can do this! *Huggggs*


Watching this video for the first time in four years. Still resonates.


I want to give everyone who's commented here a hug ok?
ok
I can't go through and say this to everyone personally, but I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry that you're going through everything that you are and I hate that you have to deal with everything
so here have the idea of a hug from a stranger on the internet, ok?
It's gonna be okay eventually, I promise- someday you'll figure it out and everything will be, if not entirely wonderful, at least tolerable and okay and better than it is now. And maybe it will be wonderful.
But I promise it'll get better.
I don't know if that helped and I also don't know if that was just me telling myself that it'll be okay, but this applies to you too.


When i'm "sad" (as my mum calls it) She says "Why can't you be a NORMAL child!?" "be happy!" "smile!" "act happy!" <br>a c t... Right.. She gives out to me for being "sad"

When i'm "sad" (as my mum calls it) She says "Why can't you be a NORMAL child!?" "be happy!" "smile!" "act happy!"
a c t... Right.. She gives out to me for being "sad"

Phils Bubble Tea y’know I feel this way with my mum. I love her and all but sometimes the things she says really hurts me and I just have to nod and smile. I hope you’re okay dude I’m here for you. <3


I’ve been feeling very out of it lately, and I relate to the depersonalization/derealization stuff. I don’t have depression (I was healed of that), but I think this is tied to the level of anxiety I’ve been feeling. My last track season ended, I graduated hs, I turned 18, and I’ve been pressuring myself to start my life. Help, I can’t stop stressing


I felt every bit of that . Described how I feel down to a T. I can barely look at pictures of myself before I became mentally ill without bursting into tears. Feel like I’ve lost me.