i lov u. hope u find a cat that doesn’t need a garden and you two have many lovely adventures together 💘💘


The YouTube gods have spoken!! I was just thinking about looking up an old dodie talk video because I love them so much but I didnt and then today she posts !! I’m so excited !!


I have a constant monologue of thoughts, some days i feel like its driving me insane. It makes it harder to talk because i almost forget to, i get so absorbed in my internal monologue i forget i need to come outside.


I am one of those people who has an on going monologue with myself!! and yes I write down everything it’s saying :)


Had the same mind blowing realisation about the inner monologue a few weeks ago. You described exactly how my brain works! A song is always ALWAYS playing, literally constantly, it's often one of yours or one from a musical haha. Having an inner monologue seems like so much extra effort to me. I just don't need to put my thoughts into sentences when one word, a vague image and an emotion will do it just fine. I also sympathise re the cat. My family cat died last year and now I spend every day crying at other people's cats on twitter. It's a big mood.


I would listen to you rambeling about your thoughts and life like this vid for days


So happy to see a dodie video!!
As a person studying biology that bit about you shouldn't mess with this stuff stressed me out - like you take painkillers, medication, take your appendix out etc, surgery is no different really - you should mess with this stuff because we have advanced medical technology and we're not cave men! Obviously that takes nothing away from being scared of surgery that's a completely valid reason :)
I feel like I definitely have a monologue going on and even though I feel like maybe it easier to speak I feel like it maybe makes me less creative, and easier to overthink things because I will have the same phrase repeating, going around in my head for hours at a time


Ah Dodie I feel your pain, last summer I had my gallbladder removed after nearly a 1 1/2 years of pain, the doctors didn't know what was wrong with me for ages cos I'm in my 20s and not overweight (typically people with gallstones are middle aged overweight women). Yeah the surgery was scary but now I can eat whatever I want without constant fear I was gonna be violently throwing up in pain!! Also the gas disperses through your body most people get pain in their shoulder but that only lasts a couple days.


dodie i miss you so much!! hope you are staying safe in the internet but also hope i see you more often here


can we just appreciate how BEAUTIFUL dodie is


@7:54 Dodie, what you are trying to describe are your very intense human emotions, which is why they are hard for you to describe into words.
However, with practice, you will find that putting your emotions into accurately described words isn't as hard as you think that it is.
I know how to do that, but it is because I learn how to accurately describe my emotions through thorough analysis myself and what my emotions represent to me.
If you become more finely tuned with your emotions, then you will learn what they represent to you within a literal(defined) sense instead of a illiterate(undefined) sense~


Good to see you back on youtube! Just an fyi, if you want to get that big, hook-hanging thing off of the plants you have in the background, they’re usually only attached to the pot with some plastic clamps that you can kind of push down to detach them from the pot. That way you can save it and use it if you ever do want to hang them up. Just a tip, in case you didn’t know.


last year I had surgery because of my gallblader, thank god I did. I was just like you, it would come and go, but one day it was just UNBEAREABLE. I was as afraid as you of anesthesia, but is worth it. Surgery is like 30 minutes long, you wake up kinda dizzy but with no pain (Healthcare here in Chile is expensive but Im guessing in the uk is not(? so take advantage of that as well lol) Then I left next day in the morning, recovery is not so long either. If you don't want to or idk, just be careful with your meals and what you eat and take care of your body :(❤


Woo I've actually been watching older vids of yours the past couple of nights, nice to get a new one!<br>Also wtf who has just words streaming through their heads?? They can't have imagination??? Or????

Woo I've actually been watching older vids of yours the past couple of nights, nice to get a new one!
Also wtf who has just words streaming through their heads?? They can't have imagination??? Or????


MY BRAIN DOES THAT! I had a conversation with my roommate about it - she hears voices and has a running monologue, where my thoughts come in bursts and songs and yadda yadda. It’s wacky.


Hey dodie i had keyhole surgery for an appendectomy (get my appendix  removed) and the gas just leaves the way gas usually leaves lol. Basically after i felt gassy and bloated and not in any pain really. Plus the scars are tiny and heal fast.


SOBS this made me realize how much i miss her videos :( I dont really use social media so dodie has mostly disappeared for me and I miss her content a lot


I wish I could picture things in my mind.


I can only base this off my own experience, but I got mine out when I was 18, after having gallbladder attacks since I was 13. Currently 23 now, and it was the best decision of my life - yes the keyhole surgery hurts for about a week afterwards, and after the first 3 days the air in your tummy goes naturally (still very weird to feel like a bloated puffer fish). In terms of diet, I can’t eat McDonald’s chips, and if I do...then I’ll just need to use the bathroom....rather quickly. So you’re still able to eat what you would like! But just be a little more conscious of the quantity. BUT this is your body and your decision, do not let people sway you - you know what your body is saying! Just don’t live and put up with the pain, not worth it if its ruining your quality of life. You got this girl, if you have any questions lemme know ☺


The internal monologue thing blew my mind because someone had brought it up to be recently. I usually have a running monologue that I talk to, but not in place of all the jumbled mess, that's all still there. But for me st least it's not at all easier to speak my thoughts. I suck at that. Its like,, I'm trying to figure out what I think but I can't agree on what I'm feeling or thinking. Its whack.


Got my appendix out a couple of months ago, that air thats left comes out as farts over a while! But being put to sleep is fine, it's like sleeping except you don't feel like time has passed!


With the whole running monologue thing, I think in coherent sentences but my brain literally moves so fast from one topic to the next, and my sentences form themselves and then I have to think of what the sentence is that I literally just thought? It's so confusing but that's how it is for me


hi dodie, I have endometriosis and had to have this same operation last week. The thought of it is so much worse than what actually happens and trust me, you'll feel so much better afterwards. The gas is weird though because it resides in your shoulders, but after about 2 weeks bed rest you'll be back to normal and so grateful to your body for healing so quickly, hope this kinda helps as a recent experience idk

if you have anymore questions don't be afraid to ask me xo


i have had my gallbladder out years ago and it was the best thing i did I had Gaul stones which caused pancreatitis twice which was the worst pain i have ever had. I had it out in 1990 no more pain but i didn't have keyhole surgery due to the small gallstone i had,


As someone with an internal dialogue I feel like it sometimes makes me worst at talking cuz i can say it in my head perfect and clear and I understand it and then I go to stay it out loud and I get over excited and say it all wrong and then I feel bad


If you're having pain that often, have it taken out before it ruptures. It gets life-threatening an' shit when that happens, so better to have a calm and planned surgery than an emergency (mine blew up without warning so I had no choice). They do let you deflate after surgery but some little bit of air can remain and some people experience some discomfort/pain for a while a few days later; the body absorbs it pretty quickly though.  Certain probiotics can help get your digestive processes back to near normal afterward - ask your doctor.


you seem like a whole different person. it's weird because para-social relationships make you feel like you know some of the people you watch and i used to feel like i knew you and we hung out whenever i watched you - and now i feel like im watching someone i don't know. and im just now realizing that that's how it's always been. granted i used to be 16 when i thought that way and now im 20 so. it's actually weirder to think that i'm the age you were when you made the dear 25 yr old me video, because i remember watching it and you seemed so cool and wise. anyway this is weird. happy you're happy.

PS. also the whole thoughts thingy. i think fully in sentences HOWEVER if i want to, i can see images. they're kinda floating in space and faraway. they're a lil bit like the idea of the image and its vibe and whatever. however, i dont find it easier to speak AT all because even when you think in words, it's a whole different language. you string words together that just don't make sense together and use others that don't really mean what you're thinking of out loud but in the context of your mind it just makes sense. it's worse for me because i'm bilingual and i fully think in both languages at the same time, so my brain randomly picks words from either language as long as the concept it describes works best. so there's still quite a bit of translating, it's just.. different I guess.
and when it comes to impulses, you never really think about it? like the thirsty thing. it's just like you said, i just realize i'm thirsty and instinctly resolve it. i might debate myself on what to drink, but impulse and instinct still go first.


About the thought thing, in my experience as a fuken adhd mess, i do think in sentences but it's the most chaotic thing ever. It's like a page in a notebook being written  but never erasing anything from it. Every time i get i coherent thought and try to write it, i instantly forget.


i feel like the running monologue is in words but it’s still abstract like i can talk to myself but i still can’t describe feelings in the same way that i think abt them if that makes any sense


I'm also exactly the same, in that I have a really strong minds eye, but my thoughts aren't in sentences, I feel validated


pardon my gay but how is one person singlehandedly so p r e t t y,, also i was very happy to see the notification for a new dodie vlog today, these are some of my favorite videos on the internet


The thing about the thinking: i ”think in sentences” but its not like that for me. Its kind of like reading the subtitles while watching a movie in a language you understand.
Also i cant image an apple,or anything actually.It especially sucks that I can never imagen faces, even of loved ones or a person i just looked at. Just a fun fact :)


Unrelated to the video but: my crush on Dodie is still going strong. thanks for listening


This is so weird! My thoughts are a full inner monologue all. The. Time.


I get annoyed at my "running monologue" cause I know what I am going to end up thinking before I finish my thought sentence so I'll try to cut myself off mid-sentence, which never works cause by the time I work hard enough to not think the words, the words have happened already, it sucks. however, I think it helps a lot when writing papers I don't want to put effort into.


I have like the narrator thing in my head where I have full sentence thoughts and when I was little I genuinely thought I had a person in my head that would tell me what to do and how I'm feeling ect.


Hi Dodie! It’s so frustrating going to the doctor and being handed pills instead of them trying to work out what the cause is or dismissing you because you weren’t experiencing pain at the time. It’s definitely scary having any kind of surgery, and you’re right that it’ll be painful for a few weeks. One of those “you’ll feel worse before you feel better”. <3 :( I think having your friends with you after you wake up is a great idea. Hopefully seeing familiar faces will help you feel less afraid. After your surgery, you could buy digestive enzymes to help your body digest fats. I would also suggest visiting an alternative or integrative medical practitioner in the future because their philosophy is based around finding the cause. It may be worth getting an opinion from a different viewpoint, especially if you’re not getting answers from one type of medical approach. I’ve also found that acupuncture has helped me heal from surgery quicker. Best wishes and lots of love. You’ve got this 💓


Hey dodie beautiful I can not take every fear away but leaving air is nothing bad your body will reabsorb it and alsoo the trouble digesting fats its not always!! Your body will still do it in a diferent way If you want me to explain I will.<br>Also its so nice to hear you again love to lisent to you while I study (medicine btw)

Hey dodie beautiful I can not take every fear away but leaving air is nothing bad your body will reabsorb it and alsoo the trouble digesting fats its not always!! Your body will still do it in a diferent way If you want me to explain I will.
Also its so nice to hear you again love to lisent to you while I study (medicine btw)


Dodie, it looked like that bit with the hospital phone calls took you ages and I really appreciate it.


hi dodie! my dad got his gallbladder removed because he had stones in it. and he literally eats regular after the surgery and has no problems. i’m not saying it will be exactly like that for you but i know the pain of surgery will be worth it


Wait wait wait wait, Dodie, do you not have an internal monologue? My thoughts are <b>absolutely</b> complete, coherent sentences in my own voice. (Have you read the articles going around lately about the realization that some people don't have internal monologues? It's only like 10% of people and it BAFFLES ME)

Wait wait wait wait, Dodie, do you not have an internal monologue? My thoughts are *absolutely* complete, coherent sentences in my own voice. (Have you read the articles going around lately about the realization that some people don't have internal monologues? It's only like 10% of people and it BAFFLES ME)

Ok..just unpaused the video and there's my answer. 😂


wait, you can't have a cat without it being able to go outside in the UK? In the states there are some places that won't let you adopt a cat if you DO let them go outside. I'm personally a big proponent of not letting cats outside.


just because i have a running monologue, doesnt mean the words that are in my head make sense. i still have to make them into coherent sentences sometimes, and its still difficult to talk


Um, hi. I'm trying to remember my life as it was. I used to watch Dodie's videos and leave comments. I got lost. So I think I have to do the things that I used to to get myself back. If anyone reads it, I'd appreciate it if you wanted to talk to me<br>Sidenote: I have stones in my gallbladder and I'll have to have a surgery to remove it someday

Um, hi. I'm trying to remember my life as it was. I used to watch Dodie's videos and leave comments. I got lost. So I think I have to do the things that I used to to get myself back. If anyone reads it, I'd appreciate it if you wanted to talk to me
Sidenote: I have stones in my gallbladder and I'll have to have a surgery to remove it someday


kind of grateful for my internal monologue now


I have an inner monologue but i still never manage to string sentences together half the time 😂 i stumble and stutter and it’s a messssss my thoughts are more coherent than what comes out of my mouth


About the thoughts? Same. Even when I’m trying to plan a sentence to say, I can’t fully hear a coherent sentence until I sit down and write it or say it.


I feel like you're confusing "thoughts" and "feelings" like the weird thirsty "mehmehmeh" thing is a feeling but "I'm thirsty ima go get water" is a thought, u get me?


I didn't realize till recently that people had inner voices and a running monologue because I don't I "see my thoughts" as images or feelings rather than hearing them and thought that's how everyone was but no 😆


I only discovered that some people don't have an internal monologue a few days ago, and now here's dodie saying she doesn't! How do you think?? your mind must be so peaceful and meditation must be so easy. I wouldn't say i have coherent sentences in my head but only because there's a bunch conversations going on at the same time. And when I'm thirsty, I do think "I'm thirsty, I should get a drink ugh but I don't wanna get up but I should." It's so wild to me that some people don't have thoughts like that!


It’s strange to me that others don’t have a running monologue. But I can assure you that it does not make speaking easier! My brain is constantly rambling on and unless I somehow don’t think about switching the flow of words to out of my mouth and talk without over thinking it, yeah I’m fine. When I’m with close friends, this is easy, but I end up rambling a lot. But  I don’t often do that. It is so difficult to think and speak at the same time. One always gets ahead of the other and then I end my sentence by meshing a bunch of words together. Or I’m speaking something I have already thought of and I focus all of my thoughts on speaking and not doing and can’t make eye contact or regulate my breath so I gasp for air midsentence and then realize how awkward I am the start thinking about that and repeat... maybe i just have social anxiety...


I didn't think it was possible to be able to picture an apple and not have an internal monologue. Figured those are intrinsically linked


My sister and my dad had it. It's actually an organ you don't technically need so you should be fine.


I think in sentences (not all the time but most) and yea, it comes in words, but to me it runs so fast that I can't really catch all the little bits, just the main idea. so ill think "ooh I want to drink a glass of orange juice" but then a whole bunch of other things "wash" some of the words away and the thought that lingers is just "orange juice". idk if this is confusing, anyway good luck with your pains and everything!! <3


i would love for you to do a walkthrough video of one of your songs logic sessions =)


The thing about hearing a monologue all the time it's, you can't make it stop. At least I can't. And it really doesn't likes to hear me when I feel like mmmm I don't like where this it's going. In my school, my absolute favourite teacher (literature) made us just write for like a minute without stopping and it came out absolutely a tangled mess bc my mind goes so much faster that what my body can go so I just end up really confused and the words doest feel right and its, it's just hard. So yeah, I guess it's different for everyone


My thoughts are the monologue and the random stuff at the same time. So that’s fun


hey dodie ! my mom got her gallbladder removed after not being able to digest even water, her body just rejected it and i was the one who called the ambulance. the doctor knew it was the best thing for her and for her health. she went on a strict BRAT diet for the first few weeks or so (bananas, rice, applesauce and toast!) and we cut down on acidic foods, spicy foods and fatty foods since that’s what her body has trouble with most. everyone is different tho (doing it together is easier than alone). my mom was a bit sore for a little while after surgery but that’s what pain medication is for, and she’s alright today :) i hope you found this helpful (or informative) and good luck!! <3


You absolutely don't need a garden to have a cat! Here in Melbourne we have cat curfew laws meaning that cats aren't allowed outside after a certain time and up in the mountains they're not allowed outside at all due to the environmental damage they do!

The cats at my parents place are all indoor cats and they thrive. My mum is a vet nurse and says that cats need enrichment in the form of toys and play. My cat Niamh goes out onto the deck at my place when she's scatty but that is completely supervised and she doesn't go out without supervision.

Basically, cats are totally fine to be indoors and if the right cat comes along you will have a purrfect companion 😸😸


I appreciate the bits with the hospital calls


You can get a cat if you have a flat! At least in my country it is okay if your flat is spacious. Specially if the cat has special needs, like a blind cat or a three legged cat (I know this sounds sad, but I have a friend who has a blind cat and he does his life mostly normally, his whiskers just fall quickly because he is always walking pushing them against the walls to feel the space around) I've read that it is good if they are in that kind of controlled environment.


you get some burps! My grandmother and mum got it out and they were good. your consultant will tell you stuff. My mum was pretty ruff for a few days after but she was good also.    DONT  g o o g l e


i'm very confused by this "you need a garden to have a cat" thing? like a back yard? aren't most cats indoor cats anyway? is this just a british thing? i'm from the US and very confused


i think in sentences... at least i perceive my thoughts to be like someone talking in my brain but i'm really bad at talking. i can't ever seem to actually make my thoughts into words even though in my head the are words???
also i definitely don't literally think "oh i'm hungry, i will make breakfast." but there are words and they make me think and do things... it's definitely not just pictures and memories...
weird. thank you for talking about it though because i've never thought about how i think this actively before


I got extremely anxious thinking about having to pay for an ambulance then not getting any treatment at the hospital.

Then I remembered you live in the UK


I have a running monolouge (i think!) and it runs as if im reading... do people without read words aloud in their head ?? how does the story manifest itself?


Its INSANE that you have just pictures and abstract thoughts in your head lmao. I could absolutely write down everything my brain says, its loud, its annoying, it sucks ass. Constant thoughts meaning constant words in my head. Lmao I hate it, because of my anxiety as well I usually need to be listening to music or else my thoughts get so loud and I get overwhelmed


it’s not always a running monologue, but if I’m actually thinking about something and not zoning out then it’s a monologue


I tend to think in like monologues or as a song because music is always but then I end up struggling to speak out loud


If i wrote down everything the monologue said id a) be very busy and b) in a mental hospital


I have a running monlogue of thoughts and until I saw your tweet the other day, I thought that was the only way people thought


i have the running monologue and basically exactly what you'd think???? when im talking and writing im just thinking of the words coming. Theres no images in my minds just the words.


I can’t see an apple in my mind but I have an inner monologue


I think in Sentences and when I talk it's like I'm reading what I'm going to say as I say it. But sometimes there's this disconnect from my brain to my mouth and I can't say a word I'd like to, and my brain keeps on going over and over that word. It's really frustrating at times especially when whoever I'm talking to explains how to say it, like I know how to say it but I just can't right now!


you just reminded me that I am now as old as you were when I started watching you five years ago aaaaaaaa


<b>what if i told you i’m one of those people who hears their thoughts in sentences</b>

*what if i told you i’m one of those people who hears their thoughts in sentences*


Hey, 22 year old without a gallbladder here. I had gallstones and obviously had to get the organ removed. Literally the best sleep you’ll ever have and when you wake up you won’t be in pain bc you’ll be high on painkillers. It’s great. Just hurts a bit after but it only feels like you’ve done about 10000 sit ups. Good luck x


Hey, Dodie. karate chops the air in front of you Those plants.
I'm sorry you can't have one of those cats. Maybe you'll find a nice cat that only likes staying inside and they can give you that one.

Hey, Dodie. *karate chops the air in front of you* Those plants.
I'm sorry you can't have one of those cats. Maybe you'll find a nice cat that only likes staying inside and they can give you that one.


do you vocalise when you read? like do you hear the words you're reading in your head as you're reading them? when I'm thinking about how I think, this is how I think but when I'm not thinking about thinking, it just happens subconsciously?? I think?? like breathing.

do people who have this "ongoing monologue" constantly have that voice in their head? or only when they think about it??


If that helps somehow, I have had "blow up surgery" and I am completly fine now and all the air was gone, when I woke up.


the thinking in words doesn't really work like that.. it's sentences, yeah.. but they don't always make perfect sense.. sometimes it's more than one sentence at a time and for me it's also sometimes in two different languages (since I'm German but I pretty much live on the internet where I almost exclusively consume content and communicate in english).. sometimes I even "trip over my tongue" in my thoughts even though I'm not even using my tongue..
it's also not always a monologue for me.. in fact, most of the time it's a dialogue with some person that I don't actually talk to irl but talk a lot to in my thoughts..or even with someone who doesn't actually exist, just a person who fits the "conversation" I'm having in my head.. also it never stops which means I can't just think something and then write it all down to analize it, because I will already be thinking something else and I can't memorize every single thing I think, there's just too much of it..
and there's also no way I can say everything I'm thinking.. thinking is so much faster than talking.. which actually often makes it hard to form sentences, because I'm already 10 sentences ahead in my head and have to constantly catch up with my mouth..  I also write waaay too much all the time when I chat with someone online, because I don't know when to stop, because the sentences in my head don't stop, because while we're still talking about whatever we're talking about I obviously will constantly be thinking about it but I can't write down every single sentence I think, because then every single message would be a novel and would just never end..
also just because I think a lot in sentences doesn't mean I only think in sentences.. there's also always a song playing in my head and pictures, multiple imaginary situations I'm "in" (in my head) and worries and random words or bits of unfinished sentences and... I'm gonna stop talking about it now or I will never stop 😅

the thinking in words doesn't really work like that.. it's sentences, yeah.. but they don't always make perfect sense.. sometimes it's more than one sentence at a time and for me it's also sometimes in two different languages (since I'm German but I pretty much live on the internet where I almost exclusively consume content and communicate in english).. sometimes I even "trip over my tongue" in my thoughts even though I'm not even using my tongue..
it's also not always a monologue for me.. in fact, most of the time it's a dialogue with some person that I don't actually talk to irl but talk a lot to in my thoughts..or even with someone who doesn't actually exist, just a person who fits the "conversation" I'm having in my head.. also it never stops which means I can't just think something and then write it all down to analize it, because I will already be thinking something else and I can't memorize every single thing I think, there's just too much of it..
and there's also no way I can say everything I'm thinking.. thinking is so much faster than talking.. which actually often makes it hard to form sentences, because I'm already 10 sentences ahead in my head and have to constantly catch up with my mouth..  I also write waaay too much all the time when I chat with someone online, because I don't know when to stop, because the sentences in my head don't stop, because while we're still talking about whatever we're talking about I obviously will constantly be thinking about it but I can't write down every single sentence I think, because then every single message would be a novel and would just never end..
also just because I think a lot in sentences doesn't mean I *only* think in sentences.. there's also always a song playing in my head and pictures, multiple imaginary situations I'm "in" (in my head) and worries and random words or bits of unfinished sentences and... I'm gonna stop talking about it now or I will never stop 😅


can anyone really have one internal monologue? i mean yes i have a constant stream of thoughts there's always like five different ones happening at the same time and pictures and memories and images playing in the background. how is it possible for someone to have just ONE constant stream of thought?


Your hairs grown so much!! It was so short last time I saw you !


So many things I wanted to comment on but I’m stuck on the fact that rescues there won’t give you a cat without a yard and rescues here would never give you a cat if you were going to let it outside...


1. the air most definitely leaves your body. you um... you fart. A LOT. and 2. surprisingly "losing" an organ like a gallbladder isn't all that painful. i had my partially ruptured appendix removed when i was 14 and i wasn't in any more pain than when i was admitted into the hospital. it's scary, but it's also not has horrible as you think it will be.


I guess I have a running monologue? Like when I think it's in sentences, but it's still really quite tricky to translate it into real life, or write it down, bc there's so much to say, and there's still the step of transferring it from head to mouth. I will though, have entire paragraphs I'll think about saying to someone in my head, and end up saying most of it in a real conversation later.


Me, a poor animation student: <b>CRYING AND REALLY HIGH PITCHED</b> dodie...,., please write the music for my thesis project..,,,... I'll hire you..,,,,.,,

Me, a poor animation student: *CRYING AND REALLY HIGH PITCHED* dodie...,., please write the music for my thesis project..,,,... I'll hire you..,,,,.,,


A dodie video that isn't a music video I'm crying I missed you


Pls don’t let the internet kill you. I love your content but I’d rather you drop off this platform completely and be happy n healthy


wow my thoughts are EXACTLY like urs and when people say “oh just write down what ur thinking :D” i’m like .... HOW?? they don’t make SENSE and only like 0.0001% of my thoughts are actual WORDS?


Adopt a cat with FIV, they are required to NOT have a garden and can't go outside, it's perfect, I did the same with my fur baby <3


you don't need a garden for a cat, that's a british thing. loads of people in other parts of the world keep cats indoors only and they're actually healthier than cats who go outside.


I got my gallbladder removed on new year's day. Gallstone attacks suck


in 2:24 a crazy lady or a crazy bitch? (jk, I had to add this lyric from Monster.)

You should definitely write something about that super-powered girl, I think that's a nice twist. I have a monologue, but it's all over the place, and images and a huge mess, a bit like yours but probably not exactly. I'd love that story either as a song, or a comic, or a book, or a sketch...


Do my eyes deceive me? dodie theirs a vlog on this channel in 2020? impossible


I guess I have both? Like both instant feelings and also a monologue?


6:34 waiitt wot. That’s not normal? I always have had different little sentences in my head and I speak/ write out what I want like in my head I see words like, for example,
“Hello!!” “Hi how are you”
And my then I just say what feels right. Usual if I’m being creative/doing art things, I think I pictures and words and sounds but when I’m talking or just thinking I just think full sentence


I don't think you need a garden for a cat.  I live in an apartment with no yard or anything and my cat is fine. If I had a yard coyotes might get him


3:43 you sang that; i swear i don’t trust you anymore, are you doing again? 🕵♀


I ALSO DON'T REALLY HAVE AN INTERNAL MONOLOGUE. I feel so crazy because of it


The inner monologue life is harder then it looks. My brain thinks a lot faster then I can talk or wright and most of the time I forget what I was originally thinking while I’m trying to catch up with myself. And sure I have a shit ton of words in my head and they all have feeling attached to them but my feelings attached to those words are different to your feeling attached to those words so I can’t just say what im thinking because it doesn’t translate correctly? Also my brain never ever ever shuts up which is pretty horrible when im anxious (which is always). And I have ADD so it’s not like im really thinking about what im doing all the time my mind wanders constantly to lots of random things.


my brother got his gallbladder removed cause he was being a dumb dumb going on a diet but not eating properly (had too much meat not enough of everything else) so he got gallstones. You don't need it basically.


Not all cats need gardens. Some people have house cats.


I am practically drooling over the alocasia zebrina in the backround


i kind of have an internal monologue but like 90% of the time it just makes no sense and also every other word is either a meme up or a curse word


Is the cat/garden requirement a think in the UK? Never heard that before. Just..make it an indoor cat..??


"this is not anything im ever gonna put online"<br>ahaha whoops

"this is not anything im ever gonna put online"
ahaha whoops


well. i love you. get a cat. why would it need a garden
also, take out the damn organ you hate that pain
lov u
bye


Except the monologue doesn’t stop running.


So... Lack of ability to visualise imagery is called aphantasia (not sure of the specifics but that's more or less  it). Also, WTF do y'all not have a running monologue in your minds? Is that a weird thing? Huh?


When my mum got expanded for keyhole she did indeed fart it out


DODIE YOU COULD GET A CAT WITH FELV! FELV CATS HAVE TO BE INOOR ONLY PETS! BECAUSE THEY HAVE COMPROMISED IMMUNE SYSTEMS! So like you could get a cat because you wouldn't need a garden for an indoor only cat!!


3:12 Vsauce just made a video about holes and how many your body has


noooo u don’t need a garden for cats!!!!! my cat is OBESE and LAZY and she never leaves the house and I love her :)))


Omg I was listening to Dear Evan Hansen too 🥺


My sister and I were literally just talking about this. Because she has a running monologue and I Just do things. And I was trying to explain it because it’s not like I’m impulsive but I just kinda do things.

how do you plan the future or consider stuff?


Why do you need a garden to get a cat? I cat sit for several friends only one has cats that <b>*ever*</b> go outside (they were outside cats when they got them)...and they rarely stay in the backyard (garden) for more than about 2 minutes before they wander around the neighborhood (and the garden is fenced in, but... CATS CLIMB) , you just can't keep them there. The neighborhood knows them, they always come back.

Why do you need a garden to get a cat? I cat sit for several friends only one has cats that **ever** go outside (they were outside cats when they got them)...and they rarely stay in the backyard (garden) for more than about 2 minutes before they wander around the neighborhood (and the garden is fenced in, but... CATS CLIMB) , you just can't keep them there. The neighborhood knows them, they always come back.


my boyfriend doesn't have a gallbladder and hes cool and fine but i know nothing other than that so


I have the same pain. It sucks and nobody knows what’s happening.


You could adopt a FIV cat who are not allowed outside? (feline HIV)?


You should react to your “Dear 25 Year Old Me” videooooooo


Wait, you don't think in sentences? Like I can do the picturing but only if I'm trying to. Normally I think in sentences.

As soon as I think, I forget what I said


Right, not a medical professional but since keyhole surgery involves putting small incisions in your abdomen wouldn't the air come out of them? Also I doubt they finish the surgery and don't then do something to remove the air, like I presume they do something to get rid of it rather than hoping it sorts itself out...


what about when you read?!?! is there no voice?!?!


WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DONT HAVE A RUNNING MONOLOGUE OMG
other people?? don't???? have a running monologue thought??????what???
okay you said you can't rly imagine what it's like so let me explain; it's kinda like listening to a super talkative person speak super super fast and change topics and subjects v v frequently, its way too fast to write down, sometimes too fast to even say out loud, sometimes it splits off into two monologues so it's like trying to listen to two people at once but it's YOUR OWN BRAIN and sometimes there's fkn, music playing in the background and sometimes it's completely empty and you realise you haven't spoken or thought in a while so you start to think about how your brain wasn't thinking for a little to fill the silence idk maybe I'm crazy but that's what my brains like for me haha
also I can't vividly See an apple in my brain like a memory like you said you do, but I can imagine like, it's like my brain draws it, like the words speak, so it's super faint and not coloured and I can't see it even if I close my eyes but my memories are like picture perfect and vivid y'know
okay that's my piece hope you enjoy and thanks for reading if you got this far stranger haha


i've had this surgery! it's honestly not that terrible. the gas is painful, but that's the worst part. and it goes away after a few days. i feel a lot better afterwards and I lost some weight but it's better than having a gallbladder that causes problems!


But words in your (my) head go faster than I'm able to process them(


9:09 hm hm hm hm best sound ^_^ but also that big change... GIRL. How you doin?


I know you probs have, but speak to witton re. Surgery. She seems savvy when it comes to making huge body decisions


we’re not going to tell you what to do with your body! do what feels right, love you dodie ❤


This was so nice to watch! I didn’t realize <br>how much I’d missed these little chats until now 💞

This was so nice to watch! I didn’t realize
how much I’d missed these little chats until now 💞


Missed u! Excited to see vids from you whenever you feel so inclined. Hope your tummy/gallbladder stuff gets sorted. Anyway, luv you 🖤


missed watching you talking! such a sincere, humbling and chill energy💓


As someone with a running monologue in my head, writing/expressing my feelings does come pretty easily to me.


Thanks for dipping your toes in the internet every now and again. You've put good out into the world in sharing those parts of yourself and have made a big difference to some of your audience, myself included. It's been fun growing and being able to relate to your growth and journey as well. I'm glad you're a content creator, and I love your work. Thank you ❤


13-Piece string composition??? Can't wait!!! From that small snippet and everything else you have done, it's surely going to be a wonderful piece of music!


i have forgotten how much i loved sitting down and hearing you talk. your presence, even though restricted by a screen, has always given me a sense of relief


You're awesome dodie i know you're going to be ok love you dodie glad they know what the pain is i hope they can sort out the pain


ahhhhh i love her so much! i missed these videos SO FREAKING MUCH THANK U SO MUCH


you make me feel less crazy about things and happenings so thank u dodie


At 7:50 you explained my mind perfectly. Also I've been feeling the wave of change too as I'm leading up to turning 25 in this new decade and leap year...it feels like I'm a Pokemon evolving or something. Thanks for sharing and making my feel less alone in the world 💖♓✨✌


this was exactly what i needed. I've been so stressed today, the past few days my brain has been a clusterfuck of disoriented focus. and im so tired


I'VE BEEN THERE! I had my gallbladder removed in college! I had gallstones and the most infected gallbladder my surgeon had ever seen. Best decision ever. You will get ghost pain even with it out, but not nearly as often and usually goes away with an alka seltzer heartburn tablet. And there are some scars but they're not that bad. I personally like scars. Shows how much my body has been able to go through :)


A 10 minute long Dodie video? I feel blessed <3


Thank you for posting this today. For some reason, I think these rant videos are incredibly soothing. I hope you’re having a good day.


your voice is very soft and relaxing. you were a pleasure to meet, thank you for the concert ☺


i believe that there are many kinds of love and i definitely do love you in some special way. don't be worried about the body stuff! it's normal for everyone to have problems. it'll all be good, you'll see💛


Omg the voiceover with the A&E part was awesome I love it <br>I am now crying at the strings that you faded in and I will be replaying it forever until you release the new music SO READY TO SOB AT IT

Omg the voiceover with the A&E part was awesome I love it
I am now crying at the strings that you faded in and I will be replaying it forever until you release the new music SO READY TO SOB AT IT


Loved this!! Your vlogs always calm me down :) I think that story idea is so cool! I have the running monologue type thoughts, so it'd be super cool to see how people's thoughts are without that and how you'd write that :) Also whenever your voice goes slightly singsongy my brain goes HIDDENSONGHIDDENSONG 😂 xxxxx


I saw her in concert in September and it changed my life omfg I love her


1) I’ve missed your videos like this 2) yes write another book!! Could literally be about anything and I’d read it 3) YES TWILIGHT IS AMAZING


Thank you for everything dodie, you help me so much with everything. And don't worry about keyhole surgery- I've had it and sure it's uncomfortable but it's way easier than you think. The air goes and so does the pain. Anyway I'd love to read that book- I relate so much to your perspective and journey. These little vids mean a lot to me. Good luck getting a cat btw! Also is it ok if I cover some of your music on my other channel? Sorry this is so long and crazy, stay safe xx


You are looking so good. Happy, healthy, mature. It's like you've grown into who you always have been. Your hair, your teeth (!), your make up, glasses, clothes. But also just the way you come across. You sound so bubbly, yet put together but still so relatable and authentic. I know it sounds like a weird thing to say, and I don't mean any of this in a patronising way. I just wanted to let you know that you are looking great. I'm pleased for you. X


You. Are. So. Flipping. Adorable. Welcome sorta-back, you've been missed! <3


I had my gallbladder removed two years ago and honestly was the best thing I ever did! The pain beforehand was completely unbearable, and yes afterwards it hurt and now I avoid fats and most dairy products but I’d take that any day! If you are offered the surgery please please seriously consider it! You will be completely fine!


I saw a meme about this the other day and it got me into researching about it and it turns out most people just fall into an spectrum between the two (visual and monologue thingking). Obviously, as in any type of spectrum, people can fall into one of the categories more than the other, but (according to the article I read, idk, I feel like no one really knows anything) everyone has the capacity for both. I was inclined to look it up because honestly I don't identify totally with neither. I kinda just think in either way depending on the situation (which is weird because any time I try to think about how I'm thinking it all goes black... but anyway)  yeah. This is just to say to anyone that is like me, non identifying with either, it's okay, you're okay. we're all okay. Have a nice day.


Okay this is my sign to get my own tummy issues checked out, maybe. My symptoms sound so very similar to yours, I've had them for years!! Also, this video was the BEST surprise today. Love u!! <3


Along with "can you visualise things?", which I guess you kind of touched on but that's something some people can't do, there's also "can you hear things in your head?" I can't which I guess is odd for a musically inclined person. I was shocked to find out that people can remember what their loved ones voices sound like. And yet I have no problem recognising them when I do hear them. I also still can't get over the fact that when people say they've got a song stuck in their head they can hear it. When I get a song stuck in my head it's just me being incapable of turning off my inner monologue and/or getting it to stop repeating the lyrics over and over.

On the note of cats, why not just not tell the shelter that you don't have a garden? Depending on what the roads are like near your house it might not be an issue to just let it roam around. Although that's probably different in London. Good luck on the cat hunt!


I had my gallbladder removed last summer! I was shitting myself too. I'd never had surgery before. But honestly the gas just slowly leaves through the skin. Like you won't know its doing it. And my stomach looked no different (except for the surgery incisions) so it will just create like an ache in your back/shoulders. And the drugs they give you tend to distract you from all that. After a week I was pretty much back to normal. And after a month I was 100% back to normal.

In regards to cats. It's a lie about needing a garden. Most older cats especially are house cats. A litter tray will do 👍🏻 if anything there is a growing movement for not allowing cats to roam freely for various reasons.


I also rlly hope things work out for ur gallbladder :)


1. Yes air can get out. I’ve had 2 C sections and they check your belly and you can’t eat until the nurse/Dr hear “gurgling”. I say go for the surgery.
2. My thoughts are 100% a monologue. Watching this i realized not all do???
3. Think of the cat as a child. You want your child to have a beautiful garden to play in.
4. Love you!


As far as the air pumping in your tummy - my OBGYN did the same for me when I had a diagnostic laparoscopy & excision. Some does stay stuck for a bit (and i wont lie, its uncomfortable and sometimes painful), and I honestly have no idea <b>how</b> it gets out, but it does! I had it for about a week post-op. My sister also had it happen for her when she had a procedure, and she suggested gas-x (phazyme, or whatever the British equivalent is lol) which helped IMMENSELY. Its definitely not nearly as bad as what you described of your pain at all! Probably one of the least of your worries tbh :)

As far as the air pumping in your tummy - my OBGYN did the same for me when I had a diagnostic laparoscopy & excision. Some does stay stuck for a bit (and i wont lie, its uncomfortable and sometimes painful), and I honestly have no idea *how* it gets out, but it does! I had it for about a week post-op. My sister also had it happen for her when she had a procedure, and she suggested gas-x (phazyme, or whatever the British equivalent is lol) which helped IMMENSELY. Its definitely not nearly as bad as what you described of your pain at all! Probably one of the least of your worries tbh :)


when the strings came in I swear I forgot how to breathe, I can’t wait for the release!!!


good luck with your gallbladder whatever you decide... so excited for the new tunesss! i'm heading to music college on violin in sept and honestly really hope I can get to play your string piece with a bunch of peeps eep.<br>hella lotta love xxx

good luck with your gallbladder whatever you decide... so excited for the new tunesss! i'm heading to music college on violin in sept and honestly really hope I can get to play your string piece with a bunch of peeps eep.
hella lotta love xxx


Thanks for posting :) can't wait to hear your new music!


I found out about the thought thing a few weeks ago and I was just shocked some people don't have the monologue


yay dodie my god I miss just hearing you talk all the time. <3


I have a couple of things to say:

1. I had laparoscopy to get an ovary removed last summer and the whole gas in your belly thing is horrible. It was so painful in my shoulders I would not recommend that if you can avoid it.

2. It's weird because I'm the complete opposite to you - I can't see any images in my mind but my thought are in complete sentences


I shared this with my mother because she also had these mystery attacks of intense pain until they figured out it was her gallbladder. She also doesnt wanna be put under and doesnt like the idea of the surgery not removing the pain so it was nice for her to hear other people with the same dilemma/struggle


Awwww you glasses are amazing :) ould I ask where they are from so lovely:)!! Also I hope your tummy is okay x 🧡sending love x


Ok but why does dodie’s vlogd sound like my head monologue <br>It’s just... exactly that, a constant subject change with some existential crisis in the middle, all spoken by a calm voice

Ok but why does dodie’s vlogd sound like my head monologue
It’s just... exactly that, a constant subject change with some existential crisis in the middle, all spoken by a calm voice


I was recently diagnosed with inattentive add and part of it is incomplete thoughts, kinda like your describing, anyway you should look it up it’s kinda interesting


DODIE I still love Twilight too, completely unironically, and I always feel bad for loving it but like it was a huge part of my formative years??? So it's nice to know you love them too 🥰


Sending you lots of love. They use CO2 for blowing up your tummy which is reabsorbed by your body. Keyhole surgery is very minimally invasive so that you have the least pain possible after the surgery and recover rather fast. Of course, do your own research but the likelihood of having constant pain afterwards is rather low. You can do this! ❤


I just had keyhole surgery and had the same worries about the air and the instruments they use. The air escapes through your skin over a couple of days but you can’t even feel it! You’re gonna feel so much better, if I can do it so can you ❤❤❤


So as far as the inner thoughts go, I do have all the background emotional, abstract, visual stuff going on. But there's always a top layer of conscious thought that is in sentences as if I'm talking to myself. It doesn't help with speaking though because I can literally be thinking "What's the word I'm looking for? No that's not it" for a good while. And just now I had an argument with myself about whether I could be bothered to get a drink, which ended with me saying internally "I want tea, I should bloody get some tea".


oh DODIE i felt it when you said "you must find talking so easy because you don't have to translate feelings and abstract thought into words" SAME???? this is why so many people think i'm mad because my mind is a messy conceptual abstract mess and i struggle to translate quickly or coherently or at all 😭


Twilight is very well written!!! Terrific series!!! The movies are good in a different way, they fulfill all the teen girl dreams I had


dodie: you can probably talk so easily<br>me, dyspraxic: oh boy

dodie: you can probably talk so easily
me, dyspraxic: oh boy


the stream of consciousness thing is so weird. i do have coherent sentences, but a lot of times it's on another level because if i zone out, like really zone out, when i come back to i realize my brain has been making up a news story or something like that with many details and opinions


Omg that feeling when your thoughts are really clear in your head but impossible to put into words so then you try to explain that your thoughts are too complicated to put into words but you explain it in a complicated way and then everything just feels too complicated and you just wanna give up on life


btw having an internal monologue is great cuz yh thoughts are right there ready to be said. however it's annoying cuz sometimes it JUST WON'T SHUT UP so yh pros and cons luv ya


2:12 Love that doctor’s impression x))))


This makes me feel very strange I used to have the internal monologue and over a year ago I just slowly kind of lost it I feel like even more of a minority and now I’m in a weird place where I don’t have a monologue but I’m starting to get back in a very childlike way random words mostly nouns that don’t really form into sentences ahhh my brain is strange


WELCOME BACK WE HAVE MISSED YOU PLEASE UPLOAD MORE :((


when you said it had a name I literally thought you meant u'd named it like greg or something i can't stop laughing


when you were talking about how most people don’t have a running monologue of thoughts in their head I found that incredibly interesting since I do love with a running monologue. it’s pretty fine and all but what does tend to happen is that my inner monologue runs faster than my mouth can keep up with so I end up talking at such a high speed, no one ever understands what I’m saying!


Dodie, as someone who hears sentences in my head as my thoughts; I don't understand my feelings altogether, so everything I think is just bullshit XD So sadly, I cannot put all my feelings right out my mouth, because it doesn't make any sense.


woahhhh!!!!! i was rewatching your old vlogs lately because i missed you :(( and you’re back !! hi dodie ❤


As someone who recently had keyhole surgery and was put to sleep for it - it really is nothing to worry about. I was worried because I have anxiety and thought it would make every bad thought come forward - it actually just made me incredibly sleepy. I felt so rested and snuggled when I came around. I’m sure it’ll be fine for you!


these little acting bits you've added are so good !


funny thing is: I do have an internal monologue but it is still SO HARD to write it down or say it out loud, I swear to you! but i think that you not having an internal monologue and only “seeing” things and feeling makes it easier for you to write music and think of metaphors – because I couldn’t think of a decent metaphor to save my life, which makes me sad


So I talked about politics on Twitter today and blew up with some lovely hate. All in all quite pleased to see this right now. It’s improved my day and love the longer length.


Hey, ummm... you're the good part of the internet though. You help us escape the bad of the internet. Please continue to come back. 🙁


As an American it made me wanna cry hearing you accepted an ambulance - that could be $3,000 here


I have an internal monologue that just tries to explain all my feelings to me like: ooh I feel thirsty, am I thirsty? It this thirst? What could I do now? Can I go drink, am I just tired? What am I feeling? So I’m just in a constant state of questioning myself, my surroundings and the world! Yay...


Aw but we need a messy human to relate to! 😩


I have a running monologue... I literally sometimes think to myself “hmm. I could really do with a cup of tea...”


Apparently I’ve had adenometriosis for years but I never did anything about it because I was only experiencing crippling pain for two days every month or so, and it’s really easy going like ehhhh i’ll do something about it next month when you feel fine most of the time. I must say that life is a lot easier knowing that I won’t be throwing up all night or selling my soul to the devil and promising I’ll be a better person when the pain is gone. Sometimes solving a problem is scary, but that doesn’t mean it’s not worth it. Sometimes it means going pants off butt nakey pussy on display, sometimes it means removing an actual organ, I guess??


PLEASE RELEASE THE SHEET MUSIC FOR THE STRING PIECE!!! It sounds lovely and I want to play it :)


seeing this in my subscription box made me so happy


i literally talk to myself constantly in my head and get too lost in it it’s badddd


So...your gallbladder. The only pain I had was from the extra air being trapped. It sort of gets trapped around your shoulder. I also know people that had no issues afterward but I did have to change my diet a lot. Skipping a lunch or dinner is what causes me the most problems.


when i’m not disassociating i have a running monologue in my head but it is definitely NOT easy to talk for me. you’d think that because i have almost normal sentences in my head i could just say them out loud and they’d make sense but it’s actually really hard. idk if that’s cos i’m autistic or cos of my mild brain damage (sounds scary, don’t worry it’s not lol) or some complete other reason. i make sense to myself in my head but getting thoughts out in actual words is hard. and sometimes they don’t make sense. writing is the same but a little easier cos i don’t have to do it on the spot yknow? but yeah, i think in sentences. i even have song lyrics and poetry figured out completely but then when i write it down i can’t put down exactly what i’m thinking. brains are weird!


I have adhd and I feel like I have multiple trains of thoughts, like I’ll be thinking about what I’m talking about as I’m saying it while also noticing things going on in the room and thinking about those


Hi! I'm one of those people who always tweeted you 'get ur gallbladder checked!!' when you would post about your pain. I got mine out two years ago this week!! after a few years of unbearable pain. Yes, you will get diarrhoea after fatty foods and dairy. Yes you will get cramps sometimes. but trust me!!!!! it is NOTHING compared to gallbladder pain. i thought my life was going to end before my surgery and... its just the same after! I would honestly urge you to do it, especially since gallbladders can infect easily and be fatal! best of luck to you, i know its tough, but you will be ok


omg my mum had her appendix out last month (which is a kinda similar procedure) - don't fret bc you will defo feel a lot better after the pAIN ;)


just asked my mum about the thought thing, and YEAH APPARENTLY some people have constant monologues and that’s so weird to me


I’ve never heard of a cat needing a garden here in the US. Maybe get a cat at the end of your next tour in the states?


Is it just me, or is her sing songy speaking back? “So much” “it’s not my fault”

I’m probably just looking for things that aren’t there lol glad you’re back, Dodie!


hi i love u. thanks that’s all i want to say. pls stay safe and healthy. ♡


gallbladder surgery is a scary thing to go through- i had mine at 17. but as long as you have good support around you during the healing time, everything should be fine! i did have to change my diet, just cutting back on greasy/fatty type things worked for me :) if you decided to do the surgery just know someone out here GETS IT! sending love 💖


That. Was the fastest 10 minutes of my LIFE DODIE (ps see you on the 28th AH 🥰)


Why are you actually so scared of the internet now? I'm curious. Was there like a toxic Fandom that you had? I've always been a silent viewer and I've always really liked listening to your thoughts. I wish you the best of luck with new music and your gallbladder 🤞. Hope to hear from you soon!<br>Oh, and BTW, I find it strange that shelters require people to have gardens in order to adopt. It sometimes depends on the cat, but there are lots of cats that are perfectly happy as indoor cats. In Poland there are no such requirements, they just do a solid background check and interview. The only requirement is for the person to be responsible and sensible.

Why are you actually so scared of the internet now? I'm curious. Was there like a toxic Fandom that you had? I've always been a silent viewer and I've always really liked listening to your thoughts. I wish you the best of luck with new music and your gallbladder 🤞. Hope to hear from you soon!
Oh, and BTW, I find it strange that shelters require people to have gardens in order to adopt. It sometimes depends on the cat, but there are lots of cats that are perfectly happy as indoor cats. In Poland there are no such requirements, they just do a solid background check and interview. The only requirement is for the person to be responsible and sensible.


I have a strictly indoors cat, with the occasional adventure into the fenced front yard with close supervision, and many shelters around me will not adopt if a cat is going to be outside (I live in the US).


...can't tell if this is dodie being naturally melodic or if she's doing another one of those sneaky composite song video thingies...


make a video explaining and going over your tattoos please :(( <3


Maybe if you could reach out to other people who decided to get the procedure and those who didn't that would help you, Dodie? As supportive strangers from the internet, I just don't think this audience should tell you what to do. On another note, good to see you back here, even if it's slightly odd since it's been awhile. Nice chat :)


I'm hearing my own voice in my head and ow boy talking is not easy at all. Like when you want to think about what to say, you can actually practice it a little bit but usually you don't have time to do it. So it is still stressful. And in most conversations I don't really think how to speak. I just speak. And then I'm like "wtf am I saying". I get how to think by using imagination. I can see pictures and objects. But it is harder to me to imagine the way Dodie thinks. Is it like a feeling or need? Maybe I get it a little bit but I can't explain it in English well. Or maybe I can actually do it but I don't really pay attention to it. Well, it's bizarre.


The twilight book series is amazing..the films however🥴😂


dodie clark, most relatable person on the planet,


"and i look at pictures of a cat.....and i cryyyyyy" <-----me


I had gallstones taken out via keyhole. It was all good. The trapped air after surgery hurts a little, but nothing like what you’ve already been having. It works itself out.


I think in words and sentences and I will tell you it can be poetic in ways but 90% of the time its EXHAUSTING. I have a constant internal monologue and in combination with anxiety and depression it can be very overwhelming. I constantly wish I could just turn it down a bit but allass i was destined to think in words and not in images or feeling like you. I also have a constant ~big worry~ in the back of my head.

sidenote: So fucking hyped for your new music!! can't wait till you're scoring big blockbuster films!


as someone who has a running monologue it is NOT easy to talk, at least for me lol. my brain thoughts run at 2x the speed that my mouth can so i just end up saying brainfarts. also HOW IS THE APPLE THAT VIVID I DONT FREAKING UNDERSTAND


I had gas and air during 3 attempted lumbar punctures and made friends with a space shark called terry.


Bro you know when you just... vibe<br>Because I sure am

Bro you know when you just... vibe
Because I sure am


thank you for also liking Twilight  lol i loved  them too 😊


I just had my gallbladder taken out! It’s not that bad the worst pain is the gas in your tummy. And yes you do definitely fart it out but after about 4 days it stops! Hope this helps!


I usually think with words, but I'm really bad in thinking in images. When she said "imagine an apple", I can think about the idea of an apple, but I can't see it in my head...


Hi! A gallbladder-less person here. I can't tell you if you should do the surgery or not, but I can share my experience and I hope it'll help:
I only had two pain attacks, and they were pretty short - like ten minutes - and it was HORRIBLE. I went into surgery two weeks after the second one. And like, yeah, surgeries aren't a very pleasant experience, but it wasn't really that bad. I only had to stay one night at the hospital, and it took me like two weeks before I could use my stomach muscles without any pains (luckily, I'm not a very sporty person, so it wasn't that big of a problem. I did, however, have to avoid my little brother for that entire time because he is the funniest person I know and laughing really hurt).
As for the diet changes, I did start having some trouble with fatty foods and I started getting heartburn quite often. Again, not very pleasant, but I'm actually kinda happy that it happened because my eating habits weren't very healthy before (maybe that's why I had problems with my gallbladder in the first place, woopsie) and it felt like my body was making me listen to what it was trying to tell me I should and shouldn't eat, and I feel much better and healthier now.
And I also can't chew gum anymore without feeling sick, so that's a bit weird. But I love my four tiny belly scars, they kinda look like butterflies and I think they're really neat!
That's about everything I have to contribute, I hope you're happy with whatever decision you make :)


So I think I have a more or less running monologue in my head, and like speaking? What is that?


Also im so sorry about your pain !! Thats awful but that recreation skit was so fuckin funny


I do have an internal monologue<br>Most times I just don't need it

I do have an internal monologue
Most times I just don't need it


your body is actually NOT air tight..  you do 'breathe' through your skin.    but i'm sure they will let the air back out the same way it went in anyway. :)


This combo of thumbnail and title was too intriguing to not click!


WAIT people ACTUALLY think in a coherent monologue form??? crazyyyyy


Like most of the time I think in sentences, but they are like sometimes just really silent in the back of my head (Sometimes i dunno if they are even sentences or just abrstract stuff) and then I have like a middle voice which basically makes my thoughts clearer and is the norm and then the loudest one is my reading voice or when I am focusing on my thoughts. Its really weird.


Whenever you sing a word or a phrase im VERY AWARE OF IT and i no longer trust you, IS THERE A HIDDEN SONG IN THIS WHO KNOWS also pls come back to norway pls and thx lol


Okay but like my thoughts are like one kinda less dominant monologue constantly going and racing and repeating and changing  and then there's a louder monologue over the top that's being controlled by the quieter one, the louder one is more coherent I guess cos it sounds just like my speaking voice, and the quieter one could even be described as a couple monologues cos it goes so fast and I have to concentrate if I want to keep track of it instead of my main one? Idk if that makes any sense lol


7:56 I know what you mean I have the same thing, kind of abstract impulses of thought to perform an action.


wait, what the heck, you REQURE a garden to adopt a cat? presumably this means that all cats are expected to be outdoor at some point? i'm curious, are all cats adopted out spayed/neutered? in my city (i live in canada), it is against bylaw for cats to be outside unleashed in urban areas. i used to work as an adoption agent for a rescue and it was a required conversation to potential cat adopters that we explain this and the expectation that all cats would be indoor cats.


I have a shorter leg and my mom had to make the decision of if she should AMPUTATE or not. the doctors who said that had no fucking clue what they were talking about, and when we went to see the doctor I'm currently with, he demanded to know who said that. But basically, at, like 13 years old, I was given the decision to have leg lengthening surgery. What they do is break your femur, put a rod in it, and you have to use a magnet every day for a year to make it grow just a little bit, and then they break your leg again and take it out. I have already broken the ankle on that leg in two places. I already have arthritis to worry about. So, after thinking about it a lot, I had to decide not to because of the fact that i would have arthritis on my entire leg, even though there's a possibility of it being in my hips because they're uneven (but it's not guaranteed.) I've dealt with this kind of decision before, and I know it's incredibly hard. Especially when you have mental illnesses to deal with on top of it. You were one of the main reasons I pushed for help as hard as I could, and now I'm seeing a therapist and psychiatrist and have been diagnosed with 3 mental illnesses. This kind of turned into a rant, but yeah. Just know that you're not alone.


dodie not wanting to be turned off reminds me of Janet in the Good Place and how she begs not to be turned off, it's just a defence mechanism


I feel like I time travelled to three years ago


I didn't know people didn't monologue in their minds


You play with your hair a lot, pretty cute O///O


Hello! im gonna tell you a quick story, and I hope itll be helpful and not scary. My dad got his gallbladder removed when I was very little. The doctor didn't do it right (which is super rare, doesn't ever happen, don't be freaked out by that) so he got sick and had to have a second surgery. And that was... i think 15 years ago? And he's okay! He's happy, he can still do all he did before and eat like he did before. Sure things changed a bit and all that, but just a reminder that you will be alright. Yes it's scary, but everyone around you will help with whatever you need. Plus, bright side, you won't have to have it removed while dealing with a five year old daughter and two year old me. That's probably the worst it could be. But anyway. It's okay to be scared and it's okay to do it anyway! And i'm hoping you get a cat. If need be, I can come give you mine. He's old but he can't go outside and likes cuddles :)


Cats most definitely do not need a garden....in fact, they kill so many birds while outdoors that the conservationist in me wonders how the heck that's a requirement of shelters in the UK! Wild. Hope you find one you can adopt soon, it's truly life changing!


What’s the update on your derealization, I also have it and I have hope that maybe I can completely get rid of it someday


oh my god gallbladder pain is the WORST! literally nothing helps. medication just gives me a whisper of relief. my crazy self went on with it for 2 weeks until i started crying at work because it hurt so much i could barely move. i have an appointment tomorrow with my specialist to decide what to do with mine bc i have polyps in mine.


i have both monologue and mess? like i kinda narrate my life in my brain sometimes in a weird way it’s kinda fun???? idk


If you like the mind reading stuff you should def read the True Blood novels. Vampires and other magical creatures and mind reading.


my mums getting her gallbladder removed soon which shes excited for🎉


omg do people NOT have monologues???? i literally do i thought everyone did


Gallbladder pain is the worst pain I've ever been in. I'm so sorry you're going through it, too. My spasms were triggered by fatty foods or foods with a fat content of more than like...2 grams. So when I'm anxious about an attack, I'll eat fruit smoothies, egg whites, steamed veggies, beans, and lentils for a while until I can handle anything else. I really hope you find a solution 💛


I donated a kidney with “keyhole” surgery and it really wasn’t bad.  Surgery on a Monday, home by Thursday, walking five (slow, not all at once) miles by Friday.  Acetaminophen for pain instead of Rx also by Friday.  Surgeries always pose risks.  So does getting out of bed.  Driving.  Being a passenger.  Being a pedestrian.  Talk realistically and honestly with your doc and it will help you decide what is right for you.


It’s not air, but carbon dioxide that they use in keyhole surgery - that enables the surrounding tissues to eventually absorb it and expel it out with your breath. :)


I freakin wish the monologue in my brain would shut up oh man


HI I’m so sorry I forgot to caption this!! Doing so now plz bare with!!! :)

Asif your comment on your own channel got buried.. <3


DODIE UR NOT SUPPOSED TO LOOK UP THE SURGERY ye im the one on twitter who had the surgery IT WILL COME OUT I PROMISE THEY JUST LEAVE A TINY BIT IN TO HEAL N IT COMES OUT IDK HOW BUT I SWEAR IT DOES


"I love the twilight books"<br>dodie why


sorry for being the internet... I guess...  in the end it comes down to what you feel like doing, not us...


Honestly fuck what the internet thinks. (Also fyi you don't need a garden for cats. I have two indoor cats who are absolutely fine- and also YEP I do exactlyyyyy the same thing with cats)


why do you need a garden for your cat, there are cats that stay inside all the time...


dear god i missed u on this godforsaken website


Dodie, do the surgery. cholecystectomy is a simple procedure. you are discharged on the same day and you will no longer feel pain. youll only need to decrease your fat intake to avoid diarrhea.


wanderershaven_as on Instagram sometimes has indoor cats up for adoption


dodie kinda looks like elsa from jojo rabbit for some reason :)))


Anybody else hear the singy bits throughout the video? Another secret song maybe??🤔🤔


unrelated but DODIE you have gotten SO PRETTY you were already fucking HOT but WOWIE YOU'RE SO SO PRETTY I think it's the longer hair my dude and also I am drunk


Dodie write a musical dodie write a musical dodie write a-


Just do it so you don’t need to call 111 again


An outside garden for a cat? Cats shouldn't go outside it's dangerous!! No no you can have a cat what the heck. Get a cat!!!


I don't have a running monologue just feelings and images and stuff


There are loads of stray cats on bushey road off barking road in east london, there are about 30 now. Cecilia hammond can't find them homes as they already have 300 cats to find homes for. But if you want to visit there, there are loads of strays. I have 3 of them in my flat and I am feeding 2 more that are getting really tame. There is one that sleeps in the bin outside these 2 peoples house, I have been feeding him but the other day they rang the police on me for putting cat food outside their house


3:44 are you hiding a song in your videos again??


Wait

People don't speak in full sentences????


maam you need to stop being so relatable or imma call the froggy police


You were telling me that my monologue inside my head is not normal???


this is the youtube-iest youtube video i have seen in a long long time


Dodie. I can’t see the Apple? What Apple. I can’t do it.


“so much” “it’s not my fault” were kind of sing songy (a new song? another “lyrics hidden in a video” song?)


All the gas kinda dissipates? You’ll have some shoulder pain as the gas moves throughout your body.


my dad got his gall bladder taken out coz he had a stone (like a kidney stone but its in his gall bladder) yeah so he doesnt have  a gall bladder and they had to postpone his surgery 2 times bcoz his BP was tooooo high and he cried a lot before his surgery coz he felt super old. it was weird seeing my 50yr old pop crying coz he was getting surgery AND THE SURGERY WASN'T EVEN RISKYYY !! anyway he's fine now

also he eats normal food and he's fine even tho the doc was like you'll have to control this control that but he did that only for a few months and came back to normal eating, keep in mind he has diabetes so he doesnt eat sweet stuff