Hi! My mom and two best friends have had their gallbladders out. Super not a big deal! And you do fart the air out. They pump air into you for most laparoscopic procedures, it's an alternative to slicing you all the way open. (I had a laparoscopy to remove endometriosis growths from my intestines/bowels and it's similar in terms of recovery etc) It's okay to be scared though!


Dodie: doesn't post for months, makes a video basically saying
'So yeah like cats and gallbladders''

Also Dodie: I feel pain.

Seriously though, I can imagine how scary this is to think about. You are very brave to share this kind of thing, and I really hope the best for you, and I hope you the best of luck. I love you so much 💕💕💕.


I made another comment, but I just want to add that no, having an inner monologue doesn’t make it easier to talk. So much is running through my head that there is absolutely no way to get it all out so I have to have a moment of carefully picking and choosing what thought I’ll tell and what bits and pieces I’ll keep to myself


ugH i completely relate on the whole thought thing, like it blew my mind that poeple have a running monologue in their heads, whereas i have like abstract thoughts

heckin wild


I have an internal monologue and can’t fathom thinking in not- words xD like I have images in my head too but unless it is intrusive I have to consciously recall the images. I’ve always had a thought about what if you never learn a language or are a baby, and how you could possibly think without language, but it turns out that a lot of people don’t think in words and sentences, and that blew my mind.

I can’t wait to hear the new music!


The idea of writing everything you’re thinking as a monologue of sorts is actually a writing style! It’s known as The Stream of Consciousness and was drawing on Freud’s theories on the human mind, primarily the Ego which was thought to be the ONLY conscious part in your mind. Stream of Consciousness was meant to represent the random way your mind floats from one thing to another, like you talked about. There are books written in this style, most notably Ulysses by James Joyce.


Watching her talking about her life just makes my heart hurt and make me feel i am so much more lucky than many people who are suffering out there. I just want to tell u, dodie, i love u and i want u to be happy and i respect every decision u make. Just stay happy and healthy and i will be happy and healthy.


omg i have heard so many people talking about different ways of thinking. i have this constant internal monologue. in theory that would make it easier for us to speak about our feelings but for me personally, i find it really hard to pinpoint a feeling because it's constantly running, does that make sense?! it's not exactly ordered but i think in sentences. wtf our brains are weird, ewwwwww


I personally have had my gallbladder out at 16, because of gallstones. I’m 20 now and I’m glad I did. It was causing me a lot of pain and the side effect are nothing compared to the pain. Sure my tummy gets upset when I eat greasy foods but you’ve just gotta pay attention to what you eat/ the pain from the greasy foods now it’s nothing compared to the pain my gallbladder was causing.


I have a running monologue in my head 😄 but that doesn't mean it's not messy, the music and the weird feelings are also there. Someone can relate ..?


Hey I feel you completely on the op I need my gallbladder out too, I don’t have the option not to have it as I have gallstones but I’m terrified! They’re hoping to do keyhole but due to some other complications I may have to have it open surgery instead. 😖 but it might come to some comfort for you I know 4 people who have had theirs out 3 being family and it’s all been okay and they get no issues now at all no more horrific pains (yay!) - take care!


I was just typing out about how I DO have a running monologue and then you started talking about it! But it doesn’t make talking or writing easy at all. The running monologue repeats sentences over and over slightly changing a word each time (which I find frustrating cause it’s like YES Emma you already had that thought why are you thinking it again) and it actually makes speaking out loud nerve wracking in case I pick the wrong version!


I had my gallbladder out a few months ago and I'm 25!!!! I feel so much better now. Seriously I do not regret having it out whatsoever. I don't have any trouble with foods (I did before I got it out though) my doc just said don't eat a hamburger, fries, and a milkshake all at once or it might upset me.

Before I got my gallbladder out eating food with less fat  helped me to should the pain. The diet was very boring though so I kept slipping up and being in pain again.

You get some gas in your shoulders and it hurts a bit but it's not so bad. Lasts about 2 days but if you walk around it gets better.

Sorry if you're scared right now. I hope you can feel a bit better with time. Whatever you decide I hope you are okay!


this video feels like catching up with your sister after a while of not seeing her


I had my gallbladder removed a year ago because of I had gall stones and the pain it caused was the most horrible thing I've ever felt. The nurses told me it's one of the worst pain that exist and it's worse than going through labor. I'm now missing an organ and the first few months weren't great digestive wise but it got better and it was never painful. The horrible pain will never come back and that's worth anything. The surgery is quick, I had the keyhole one you looked up and the worst thing about it was the gas being painful for a few days, it took a few weeks to feel completly normal and now a year later the scars are fading white. Do the surgery, you'll be grateful.


dodes it is so fine to have inside cats!! we kept our cats inside until they were two years old to train them to stay close to the house, and now they only go out in our garden on weekends. get lots of little kitty toys to keep her happy and entertained!!! u can take her out for little walks on a leash even!! plus having outdoor cats is pretty bad for wildlife, esp in australia. and they’re safe from cars and ticks and stuff. anyway dodie I want u to get a cat so bad 🥺🥺 love u


Oh dear, I've had pain like that a couple of times... I really hope it's not a lump too. I did change my diet too and it has helped a lot though...


I feel like she’s different... but in a happier way


nobody:

literally nobody:

lesbians when someone talks about how they just got someone's  number: 6:55

nobody:

literally nobody:

lesbians when someone talks about how they just got someone's  number: *6:55*


I have an internal dialogue. I never thought it could be different for other people. :D Yeah, I´m good at talking, but I´m also always being "talked at" by my mind and it´s not always high quality stuff. So imagine that you have somebody CONSTANTLY talk to you. About cat food and the color of your t-shirt and how sad the Joker movie was and that we are all a product of our surroundings and that suicide for some people seems like the only exit strategy from a very troublesome life and that they just discovered a new cat species in the south american jungle and that you haven´t made any art within 3 months even tho you should and that you wonder what your life would be like if you hadn´t had been bullied for years and how all of this inner monologue is useless if somebody verbally attacks you, because that is the only situation where your mind actually goes blank. Focusing with that happening every waking hour is hard.


I had my gallbladder taken out. Post op wasn’t too fun but I don’t have daily pain now. The gas you’re talking about gets dispersed and you kind of end up farting and burping it out. It’ll move up and you’ll get some shoulder pain but you have to keep moving and working it out.

Overall, it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. I had to change my diet but I ended up eating a lot healthier. No fast food, not tons of red meat, etc.


I have a monologue, and sometimes I speak it out loud and then I realise and i'm like what am I doing? then I stop like I just caught myself talking to myself, then the internal voice continues.


Greatest video on the internet since “pasta is good life is SAD” 😆😆


My mom got her gallbladder removed and she's doing totally fine and hadn't changed her diet and never has pain since.i think getting it removed is worth it.i also get how scary how getting put under is I have had multiple surgeries and have had to get put under for all of them I suggest get a stuff animal and have friends for support and as for how it feels it just feels like you're going to sleep I wish you the best hope things get better ❤


dodie when you said there was new music coming soon my heart stopped


If it was anything like my keyhole surgery you will feel so much relief when it’s removed!! It’s very simple procedure and you will spend a week burping up the air 😬


"I was a mess. I still am a mess."
Same Dodie. Same.
Still love you though🥰


i think it's strange that in the UK they require a garden/yard for cats. in the US (at least in big cities) you're encouraged to keep them inside.


FINALLY SOMEONE WHO LOVES TWILIGHT IM CRYINGGGGGG ITS SO GOOOOODDDD also i had surgery recently and the going to sleep thing is soooo freaky i’m glad i don’t remember the count down lol


I think in full sentences, but sometimes I like to speak what I'm thinking because it makes it easier to follow<br>And sometimes I only think of a "concept", and I have to consult my internal dictionary to see what word fits to express that concept.

I think in full sentences, but sometimes I like to speak what I'm thinking because it makes it easier to follow
And sometimes I only think of a "concept", and I have to consult my internal dictionary to see what word fits to express that concept.


"how does your brain know what is real and what isnt?.. well i mean, mine doesn't" RELATABLE.


dude rest assured nobody knows everything 100%. You held merit when you explained those things when you were 21 like you do now. These are your experiences!! PS Your thoughts age like fine wine.<br>Also, I've been feeling the same lately, about change. I miss my friends with the all the social-distancing but I high-key needed this isolation from school and friends just so I can stop distracting myself and actually learn how to cope with lack of motivation/passion, and just basically live out how I'm gonna be happy on my own (It's going good). Keep being honest dodiee its so fuckin inspiring ily

dude rest assured nobody knows everything 100%. You held merit when you explained those things when you were 21 like you do now. These are your experiences!! PS Your thoughts age like fine wine.
Also, I've been feeling the same lately, about change. I miss my friends with the all the social-distancing but I high-key needed this isolation from school and friends just so I can stop distracting myself and actually learn how to cope with lack of motivation/passion, and just basically live out how I'm gonna be happy on my own (It's going good). Keep being honest dodiee its so fuckin inspiring ily


Do it. I had keyhole surgery in December to remove my gallbladder. I had pain in my ribs and back. The pain is not bad. The air they put in you goes into your shoulders, it didn’t hurt much for me, just aching.


I literally thought “wait do I think in sentences” and then I realized that I did just that


Hi Dodie,
I had a gallbladder infection for over a year that was so debilitating that towards the end (spoiler: I got the surgery) I would just lay still because if anything moved the pain would go back to 10 (instead of a resting 6).
Sometimes when I get a bit of a stomachache now my brain goes, "oh no it's going to happen again" and then I remember that I don't have to feel that pain anymore and it's really comforting.
I'm telling you because the idea of missing a part of my body was very stressful for me, but I'm glad I got it done. I hope you come to the decision that's right for you without going through too much grief!


Yes it might be easier but I can't understand my feelings. I have a hard time identifying how I feel.


i cant imagine not having a running dialogue in my head lol


i was here when you put up the “dear 25 year old me” video and now i’m 20 WOWWWW life moves fast

Wow! Fair play! I was nearly 20 when she posted it so hello ! Haha.


Ok so here’s the thing. I definitely have an inner monologue. But my inner monologue is like 8 different people talking all at once. Then there’s music in a background, maybe a couple arguing and a child throwing a tantrum. Not literally obiviously, but that’s the general vibe. Like in those tv shows where the character can hear thoughts, and the show makes the person overwhelmed with all the thoughts, that just my brain always, the only difference being all the people are me


I understand the fear of diet change. I found out I have a gluten allergy a few weeks ago, it's difficult because eating out is hard. I'm also vegetarian and lactose intolerant. I still eat dairy even though it hurts my body. I feel like I can't eat the things I enjoy, I feel so restricted. I'm sure it will be better in the long run, but I do know that it's hard to stay consistent when you want to eat things you like.


really feel u on what u said about the internet :( it’s getting worse and worse and it makes me want to distance myself so badly and yet i keep coming back


the verbalized thoughts thing IS SO FUCKIN WILD and I've had that exact thought about how speaking must be so easy because there is no translation. If you have sentences in your head, do you just never have the experience of not knowing how to say something??


my thoughts are full on sentences and i have simultaneously been listening to two songs inside my head, just because.


There's a book by James Joyce called "Ulysses" that plays with the idea of what our interiour monolgues look like. Everything' s comprised of images ,sounds, short sentences intermingled with each other. It's pretty difficult to read but I strongly recommend it.


Damn.... your voice is just so soothing.... please can you just talk to me while I fall asleep 😫


I haven't had my gallbladder since since 2017, and even though theres some tummy pain still its SO MUCH BETTER THAN B4 I was in constant tummy and back pain for like a year before it.

Also I stan a twilight stan 😍

Also also ive never heard an explanation of how my brain exists on a reg basis that's so perfect.


Good luck getting a cat! I have a few cats, but they don’t need a garden, they’re livin great lives with toys, indoor space to run around, and such. I hope it’ll work out for u :)


when i had appendicitis and got it removed, i had to get pumped with air like that so they could actually get around in there. it made me really bloated, and i couldn't really push to burp or fart bc of the incisions lol. so it escaped by moving through my skin?? it hurt my neck and back a lot and they said it was the gas escaping. i wish you the most luck in the world for your surgery love xxxx


My thoughts are like. A combination of images and moods while also simultaneously me reasoning with myself (A LOT A LOT). I feel like it just depends on the stimulus. BUT FR DODIE U REALLY GOT ME HERE  THINKING ABOUT HOW REAL APPLES LOOK IN MY HEAD AHAHA


I have that “running monologue” that she’s talking about, I think, but I think there’s something that people distinctly don’t understand. Quite frequently, the words in my head are basically useless. If I’m stressed, my brain usually isn’t giving me a detailed or helpful description of what’s up. A lot of the time, it’s much closer to this,
Brain: I feel bad. I feel very bad. This feels bad. I am having a bad feeling.
Me: What is the problem? Why do I feel bad?
My brain: I feel very bad!


The hand gesture and general facial expression of "this is the big worry" is a whole damn mood.


Oh my god- so I found out about the inner monologue too. I have anxiety and everything I do, my mind is narrating. Even if It's not "I'm thirsty I'm going to get a drink" its "I'm thirsty. God I gotta go downstairs and get water. Ugh but it's so faaaaar," and so on. But I SUCK, absolutely suck at speaking. I have to rehearse my speech all the time. Phone calls frickin scare me. I prefer writing novels, because I have time to think about dialogue and I can GO BACK AND CHANGE IT- and I can't in real life. So I rehearse words in my mind before I speak and it still sucks.


my dad recently had is gall bladder removed during emergency surgery since it got infected, it takes a while to recover but imp sure keyhole surgery will ensure a quicker recovery, however u can't eat a lot of stuff afterwards for a while eg spicy, fatty foods. But if it stops the pain forever  I say go for it!!


Im one of those people who have like an actual string of sentences in my thoughts. For me, its kind of an in between. Like Ill still have those moments when i want something, ill just instinctively go get it.  But honestly, most of the time im all "man, im hungry. Theres not much to eat here, i guess ill make do with a smoothie bowl and cereal" I think, because i do that, i have more time to think through my thoughts, have an idea of the emotions im feeling, and analyze why I am feeling a certain way or why I am not feeling a certain way.  Granted, i am also a dumb bitch sometimes and I act without having a bit of a convo to myself about why im gonna do what im gonna do and if it'll have any consequences that i really dont like. Its kind of like having a narator in your head you just agree with all the time.


The concept of thinking patterns truly baffles me. Hearing you talk about it made it feel less crazy cause I think about it a lot (ironic lol). I really felt the whole “you just can’t describe it” thing. I have real bad ADHD tho and am medicated for it so I observe my internal monologue quite often to know when meds are in effect. Does everyone observe them tho? Glad to hear I’m not alone 😂


wow actress dodie coming through with the re-enactment

but also i hope you get better


I'm so ready to hear your orchestra music that will be so beautiful


Dodie love, breathe, hope you get pain free either with your digestive bladder of gall or without my sweet spoonie, don't take any advice from the internet, especially regarding cats on the internet, and go out with me instead of covid after the social distancing is over, my crazy fancies yours hopefully yours fancies mine too ^_^


I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THE INNER MONOLOGUE THING THESE PAST FEW DAYS TOO ! I had this same realization !!!!! Its so crazy that the human brain functions in so many different ways a h


10/10 recommend gallbladder removal. it hurts less that gallbladder pain.

i think in sentences. i can also spin objects around in my mind in 3d.


My mom also needs a gallbladder surgery and she's been putting it off for two months pls dont be like my mom dodie


Wait other people don’t have an inner monologue where they hear words in their own voice in their head? I always assumed this is how everyone else processes thoughts....


I feel like it's crazy that they require a garden? Going outside is pretty dangerous for cats and the wildlife around them and basically all veterinarians reccomend keeping them indoors. As long as you provide your cat with enrichment and love, they'll be perfectly fine and healthy indoors!


I literally got my gallbladder out about a month ago. The air trapped is burped out a lot you have to walk around. It’s painful and the recovery can range from quick to a month later still hurting. Food is hard but it gets better. I am much happier bc I was going through the exact same thing and getting sick once a month that would get worse and go away. It was infuriating. Hope you feel better!


I had the chance to see most of both keyhole surgery and open surgery. It's amazing what you can do from those tiny holes! There are ways to cut off whole parts of the small intestine that are sick and then remove them from a tiny hole in the person's crotch, and then stitch the two parts of the intestine back! All without cutting the person open!

And yeah, the inflation with CO2 is pretty weird, but the animations exaggerate it. They only do enough to see their way around the abdomen through the camera hole (which is also where the gas comes from). They also don't want to put too much CO2 in because a some of it is absorbed by the abdominal wall.

There's also endoscopic surgery for a few things. There are ways to go into the mouth all the way to the stomach, then through the stomach wall to reach the abdominal cavity, and it's SO COOL! They basically cut hole and put an expanding wire tube to make a window so that they can see the pancreas or other stuff that's nearby.

Medicine is so cool


I love listening to her chat about life !!


I 💖Your glasses look great with face shape.<br>I hope you feel better soon🌞😍🙋🙆🌞🐞🌺🌈

I 💖Your glasses look great with face shape.
I hope you feel better soon🌞😍🙋🙆🌞🐞🌺🌈


have you tried digestive enzymes?? IT helps me so much if I can't digest food properly


I had to get my gallbladder removed. It's actually so much better now.


my thoughts do the same thing as you, they're like a choppy blend of feelings and some words and confusion


Dodie i love you so much !!! There was a video of you making pasta drunk, i can't find it any more 😱😭 it is one of my favourites especially that i am now going through the same thing you did in the video😣


Lol i wish it was that easy to talk. For someone with a non-stop internal monologue, i sure can't socialise for shit😂 i'll literally have full blown conversations w myself in my head but when it comes to other humans, nah lol


I actually have been dealing with extremely similar situation god I should see a doctor


my thoughts are a string of coherent sentences but i have a very hard time visualizing things which is hard when you want to be a writer because you just can't visualize ANY part of the story to save your life


I have one of those inner monologues of thinking, though that's not to say I don't have images and memories popping in as well, just my main method of thought is through language. That being said, I'm a writer so I might have cultivated it by using writing to think (since it slows me down and focuses me). Who knows? haha


Honestly having an inner monologue isn’t super great. Like you said that one can analyze it, which is true, but I usually go too far and start thinking about my thoughts instead of actually thinking them. I feel like my brain has a weird way of thinking where a thought starts in the back of my mind as a vague concept of a sentence and then my conscious mind will either pick it up and actively THINK it (at which point it enters my inner monologue) or just ignore it and it dissolves back into my brain. Then I start to analyze and think ABOUT the thought, which can honestly just get exhausting. It’s like a constant Socratic dialogue in my head of thinking a thing and then asking myself about it. When I’m anxious or stressed about smth it gets x10 worse.


I haven’t finished watching but I had the SAME thing happen to me... take some tums. It’s just you gallbladders freaking out. You have a crappy gallbladder!


This is my favourite video of yours i love it, its mad


Running monologue definitely doesn’t mean it’s coherent lmao but I feel like I do both?? If someone says “apple” I think of a ripe, red apple. So there’s obviously a sense of images there, too, and like you mentioned, there are some instances where you think in words! I think we all have a mix, but like, one is more dominant than the other?

Also, nice to see you back!


i hope the comment section has been nice:((( my thoughts are the exact same as yours. legit my mind is everywhere 24/7. like ill be thinking about my cat and my favorite movie and a video i watched recently and that book i was meaning to read why havent i read that book yet omg and ahh i miss my friends and did i water my plants oh hey what about this idea for a story where this happens what would be the best way to put it and oh yeah these lyrics would go great with this tune youve been thinking off but also dont forget you have too many blankets and-<br>i think you might know what i mean. anyways do what's best for you love! im glad you are making videos again. i hope that this can be a good and fun outlet again for you<3 okay this is too long of a comment byeeeee love you you bright and beautiful rainbow<3333

i hope the comment section has been nice:((( my thoughts are the exact same as yours. legit my mind is everywhere 24/7. like ill be thinking about my cat and my favorite movie and a video i watched recently and that book i was meaning to read why havent i read that book yet omg and ahh i miss my friends and did i water my plants oh hey what about this idea for a story where this happens what would be the best way to put it and oh yeah these lyrics would go great with this tune youve been thinking off but also dont forget you have too many blankets and-
i think you might know what i mean. anyways do what's best for you love! im glad you are making videos again. i hope that this can be a good and fun outlet again for you<3 okay this is too long of a comment byeeeee love you you bright and beautiful rainbow<3333


I’ve had keyhole surgery and weirdly the air basically just dissipates through your body. It mostly goes upwards into your neck and shoulders. That was the most challenging part of recovery for me. My shoulders and neck were super sore. But it only lasted a few days and with a heating pad calmed down a lot! Hopefully that makes you feel a little better or at least understand what you might feel.


I swear every time Dodie uploads, I get so so happy. <3


i truly enjoy those plants in the back 🌱


i had my gallbladder out over a year ago. it was full of gallstones though. it got to the point that i could only eat crackers, quesadillas, and drink sprite. today i can eat a bigger variety of foods, but i still need sprite and crackers to help it. i still get excruciating pains where my gallbladder used to be. i still need to take meds everyday. but my body is healthier than it was. i cant eat the things that i could before and it sucks when people dont understand that a food makes me sick. so i guess im trying to say it will suck. it will hurt. but it will be okay and you learn to work with it.


i love ur plants so much omg I WANT MORE PLANTS


I missed you so much, pls pls make more vids <333333


ohgod, dodie ur so frickin fantastic, wow ur so pretty and these plants are aesthetic asf and ur mind is beautiful ur voice and the way u act and talk and omg ur just fucking perfect,( i mayyyhave a lil crush on u ), ur awesome and perfect eeeeeeeek <3


ok so my mom had this same surgery  so im gonna warn you, youre probably gonna suffer from acid reflex  and vomiting without your gallbladder when you eat greasy foods. HOWEVER this is just what happened with my mom and idk if its with everyone!


My friends had their gallbladder out all in the same year. He said the gas made his shoulder hurt, so there's that.  haha.


I was basically in the same boat. I had a low functioning gallbladder. It's fine now though. I mean I was in pain for like a year... Yeah...
I was in pain for a year trying to decide if I should get the surgery or not... There was a chance things would get worse and I'd need emergency surgery but... Eh. I waited it out. Haven't been in pain for like 8 months now though. 🤷♀ If it happens again I'll probably remove my silly organ. I'm a bit insane.
Also REALLY want a cat and keep looking at ones I could adopt online but my twin and I are both allergic. My twin more than me and says I should just get a cat. He'll deal. But I cant... it feels unfair. So yeah... Cats and gallbladders.


that's so weird to me that your thoughts are like that. my thoughts are pretty clear and I zone out a lot to think about future potential scenarios or about a past situation and I can just picture my memories so well. Like if I'm reading a book I eventually zone out so it's like watching a movie. Regarding the apple, I can imagine an apple but it's not really descriptive or clear just kind of a vague sense of an apple blending into the black of my closed eyes... that's so weird.


I have an inner monologue but what I think usually is better crafted or maybe just sounds better in my head than it does outloud. So I 'm still bad at talking lol


i have full blown conversations literally with my self
dude wth is wrong with you why did you do that...you don’t even know why
i don’t know why but people need to understand that..
people DONT and will never understand it okay

shit like that happens

i have full blown conversations literally with my self
*dude wth is wrong with you why did you do that...you don’t even know why*
*i don’t know why but people need to understand that..*
*people DONT and will never understand it okay*

shit like that happens


I'm just watching all of these videos rn! ❤😍


The air they use is primarily CO2, which your body knows how to release, so the air will be absorbed and will go out the same way all CO2 does (mostly through your breath).


I have a running monologue (when I choose to), but I can't imagine seeing that apple in my mind. I'm almost completely aphantasic. Complete black.


the thought thing i have both i think. the primal thoughts come in visions motions glimpses or similar but the more complex thoughts come in sentences and always in english. which is not my first language nor do i use it constantly verbally. apparently its easier to dissociate from emotions if its not in you native language. <b>who knows</b>

the thought thing i have both i think. the primal thoughts come in visions motions glimpses or similar but the more complex thoughts come in sentences and always in english. which is not my first language nor do i use it constantly verbally. apparently its easier to dissociate from emotions if its not in you native language. *who knows*


The coherent sentences is something that I have in my head and it doesn’t really make anything easier. I can’t translate what is in there

I’m reading the story of my life in my head and it’s quite odd

It’s the same with my photographic memory but that’s really weird lol

Skylar S there isn’t a person with photographic memory as of today but the thing o have is called an eidetic memory which means I can recall pictures in very good detail. For most people it only lasts a few seconds but for me it lasts a while with me slowly losing detail. It’s quite odd but my brain is like an iPhone camera


I have full sentences in my head but that doesnt always mean i can translate them out loud! Or remember what i was thinking 😅


Get an FIV positive cat! They have to be indoor cats so they don't infect other cats but they can have normal lives as indoor cats 😻


I'm a med student in Chile, where we have an abnormally high number of gallbladder issues, and I had heard that it was so weird in other countries that they didn't recognize it, but I thought it was an exaggeration, I mean, I still have 3 more years before becoming a doctor and i recognized your symptoms right away. I don't know where I'm going with this, it was just exiting to know what was going on xD


GET THE GALLBLADDER SURGERY!! All my life I couldn't have avocados or drink coffee or any sort of fat in my life, and it was awful. Long story short the healing process after surgery was a bit rough for me but D E F I N I T E L Y worth it. My life has literally been changed for the better after going along with the surgery.


the thought of anyone not having an inner monologue HURTS my brain. i literally find it so hard to watch movies and stuff because there’s just a constant stream of conversation in my mind

wow that would be so annoying! I can think words on purpose, but I don’t have random conversations going on in my head unless I’m trying to. Most of the time I just think in feelings and memories.


I had a similar situation but I had Gallbladder stones/gallstones. Same symptoms and I did in fact have to have my gallbladder removed. It wasn’t painful  as I was asleep and letting them do all the work. Forward to post surgery it was a week of laying in bed unable to laugh without pain but after that it got better. There is nothing wrong with taking out your gallbladder,  you can live fine without it in fact you don’t even realize it’s gone. No changes, no nothing so don’t worry about it doddie ❤


I do not have a running dialogue. It's just images and memories etc - but I do feel a compulsion to talk to myself out loud. It helps me process everything more easily. Right now, I live with people I don't feel comfortable with, so I'm quiet, and everything feels jumbled and shitty.


I have a co-worker who makes people feel telepathic for 7 1/2 hours a day.  From beginning to end, she says her whole train of thought aloud.  It got even more bizarre (and a little entertaining today when she was thinking aloud while with a mouth full of food.


As someone with a running monologue in their head, it’s like talking to someone but no one else is there. Idk if this is normal but I have like, conversations in my head? I know it’s all one person but it’s like “do I want a snack?” And the other voice says “no stfu and do you’re homework”. Other times when I’m actually talking it’s like my thoughts disappear, almost. Like I can’t talk and hear my thoughts at the same time


me: is studying

still me: uses her voice as a calming asmr


a friend of mine had her gallbladder removed last year and she said she did put on some weigth and has to make sure not to eat tooooo many fats but other than that she feels great! she's very healthy and all :) if you can't live with it, you can live without it in this case haha


i have the same thing dodge has - i don't have an inner monologue but the way i would describe it would be like this:

its they same way a dog would think. dogs don't 'speak a language' but they still think. they feel emotions and thoughts and i think that's the same way i think.


do dodie and i have the same brain ?? literally the way she describes her thoughts hit me so hard ... like that is ME !! wow.


Also I have a running monologue as to making decisions. I hear myself talk through most things. But I don't hear myself say "I want cereal" or things like that.


Gallbladder attacks are horrid. I remember lying on the floor of the shower in my university dorm building sobbing. I threw up a few times because the pain was so unbearable.
Removing my gallbladder was the best thing that could have happened for me. While the recovery did take a week or two, it was so worth it. The gas they pump you full of dissipates. While it is working it’s way out of your system, you will experience pretty bad cramping. I would say it feels similar to bad period cramps or a lesser gallbladder attack.
If you do it, I would recommend having a big pillow to hug for a few days while you recover. That kept me most comfortable.
After recovering, your digestion does change a bit, at least at first. You may experience food moving through your body a lot faster than normal. I didn’t find changing my diet was necessary. I did have to become more comfortable using a public restroom out of necessity.
I got mine removed several years ago, and at this point it seems like my body has gotten use to not having a gallbladder. I don’t notice any digestion issues at all anymore and not living in fear of that awful pain is such a relief.
Hope this helps in some way!


I had a similar situation but I had Gallbladder stones/gallstones. Same symptoms and I did in fact have to have my gallbladder removed. It wasn’t painful  as I was asleep and letting them do all the work. Forward to post surgery it was a week of laying in bed unable to laugh without pain but after that it got better. There is nothing wrong with taking out your gallbladder,  you can live fine without it in fact you don’t even realize it’s gone. No changes, no nothing so don’t worry about it dodie ❤


It's strange to me that they require a garden over there. I adopted a cat last month and I had to sign a form that he would strictly be an indoor cat.


4:15 Dodie just explaining the things I learned in 7th grade science


The inner monolog thing doesn't really make talking easier because you can often think faster than you speak so by the time I get round to speaking I've already had about 4 full fledged conversations in my head or 3 different sentences being spoken at the same time or a song just pops in mid sentence etc etc. When I speak I often mentally shut up and just talk otherwise that's A LOT of things happening at once, oof!


hey dodie or anyone else who is listening with gallbladder issues, i know this video was way earlier this year but when this video was uploaded i was in hospital having my gallbladder out. if you're a bit freaked out by hospital talk maybe dont read this but i wanted to share my experience a bit if it helps anyone. it is totally your decision whether or not to go forward with medical stuff it's not for me to advise, but for me personally it helped so much to have it taken out. i got really ill as i'd had the problem for about 5 years waiting for surgery and things and it was agony in that time, i lost about 5 stone as i couldn't eat barely anything and kept being sick and having gallbladder attacks where i would end up in huge pain and having cold sweats for hours. i had the tiny stones in my gallbladder like sludge as well and a gallstone was blocking my bile duct, that stone got taken out under sedation but after that i'd been waiting so long for the proper surgery that my gallbladder finally gave up completely and ended up perforating and i got two abscesses (one of which was totally solid so that was difficult to deal with). mine was probably a one in a million case of being left far too long and stuff but i am so glad i got it taken out because i have no problems with food now, although they did say gallstones can still form in the bile ducts even without a gallbladder so i may have to have another gallstone sedation removal thing in future if another one forms but that wouldn't be for another 5-10 years if at all. but the main point of my comment was to say that i ended up in hospital 3 times in the process of having it removed and spent about a month in total there - in all the wards i was probably 80% of the other people on the ward were young women, all around early to mid 20's, having their gallbladders taken out. it seems to be a massive problem for young women and i'm not sure why. so particularly just to highlight if you're a young woman in this position it's not your fault, who knows maybe some research will come out in future to explain why this is happening to otherwise healthy young women but yeah. so far the gallbladder free life has been great for me xD but that's not to say it will be the same for everyone as everyone has differing levels of how managable it is and different medical histories etc etc. loads of love to anyone suffering with gallbladder problems :( <3

Oh man I'm so sorry, that sounds horrendous. I had gallstones and cholecystitis (inflammation of the gallbladder incase anyone reading doesn't know) a while back and it didn't take nearly as long to recover, thankfully. I read that hormones might be why it's so common in women so that's fun I guess. <br>I agree though, the gallbladder free life is great and honestly, surgery didn't hurt as much as some of the attacks did.

Oh man I'm so sorry, that sounds horrendous. I had gallstones and cholecystitis (inflammation of the gallbladder incase anyone reading doesn't know) a while back and it didn't take nearly as long to recover, thankfully. I read that hormones might be why it's so common in women so that's fun I guess.
I agree though, the gallbladder free life is great and honestly, surgery didn't hurt as much as some of the attacks did.


I do not have a running monologue in my head, but I don't know how to describe what my thoughts are actually like because as soon as I try to observe them they switch to a monologue. I can feel the difference so I know that's not what they are always like but I couldn't tell you what their default mode is. Probably something like you: a mix of images and feelings and words. That said, I do not struggle at all to translate my thoughts into words. I can think by writing or speaking and it comes out coherent so I don't know if having the running monologue is necessarily connected to that ability. Or maybe it is and I'm just weird.


To the inner  monologue thing: whenever I'm aware that I'm thinking abt smt it's an inner monologue but if not it's just weird intangible concepts kind of? Usually in my head I'm pretending I'm in a talk show tho lmao


Today I learn that not everyones internal thoughts are a constant monologue. I don't think in images and feelings, I think in sentences.


it seems so weird to me that people dont have a constant monologue in there head like if Im thirsty I think I want a water rn


I feel like body air would just slowly release through your skin. And  there's oxygen in your blood, that's air, kinda


SO.. I had gallstones for 3 years, ignored 1 year of symptoms and ended up in serious trouble. Liver damage, sepsis the works. Two years later I got key hole surgery. Released 2 hours after surgery, spent a week on bed/couch rest purely cause They had to cut an extra hole through my ribs for my liver damage repair stuff so my ribs were extremely tender. But I went to a concert 4 days post surgery with minimal pain.


alli speed had to get her gull bladder removed i am so sorry that you had to be in so much pain before they found this

at least you have answers now and things hopefully get fixed soon


instead of calling your lump adenomymatosis, just call them andy :)


dodie!! i actually had my gallbladder removed last december and it wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. i have HORRIBLE anxiety so i was freaking out about everything. it was emergency surgery so i didnt have much of a choice, but the recovery period was really not long at all, they let me leave the same day!! ive had a similar excruciating pain like you described, and i only dealt with it for a week before going to the er, i have no idea how you handle it every six months. if you do go through with it, its relatively safe and by a month you should be back to your old self!!! best wishes either way :)


I have no garden for my cat, and I have indoor plants. My cat is a very happy boy 🌻 You can train cats to not eat your plants or if they can't resist, have a room for plants that are bad for them that they can't go in. Also giving them a plant of their own makes them less likely to eat yours. The only thing is that the cats need lots of things to climb/scratch on and perch from, and a variety of different toys for stimulation. My cat prefers indoor living, especially if I'm home a lot. <br>Lots of love Dodie 💕

I have no garden for my cat, and I have indoor plants. My cat is a very happy boy 🌻 You can train cats to not eat your plants or if they can't resist, have a room for plants that are bad for them that they can't go in. Also giving them a plant of their own makes them less likely to eat yours. The only thing is that the cats need lots of things to climb/scratch on and perch from, and a variety of different toys for stimulation. My cat prefers indoor living, especially if I'm home a lot.
Lots of love Dodie 💕


i have an inner monologue and it's quite nice, because i can tell the difference between if it's myself talking or my depression by what pronouns are being used. i used i for myself in my head, while my depression says you


YES YES YES I'VE BEEN SO EXCITED FOR THE REACTION TO THE DEAR 25 YEAR OLD DODIE VIDEO


How is it that you talking about literally anything, can be so cute?


I have an internal monologue but trust me it does not mean my thoughts aren't jumbled and confusing and I certainly cannot talk perfectly lmao


Running monologue in my head equals no filter so I think it I say it lol gets worse when I'm drunk it's pretty instantaneous 😅


I'm a trainwreck too xD 😂😂😂 when you said fart, I laughed so loud. I'm so childish. 😂


literally went to my pre admission appointment for gallbladder removal like 3 hours ago. surgery on monday 😂


I too have anxiety about being put to sleep for operations. However, do not worry as they will give you a pre med which will mean you will be awake but in a trance like state when you go to theatre. You will have no anxiety and fear. They will do the procedure and you will be fine.<br>Keep being you and doing what you do. x

I too have anxiety about being put to sleep for operations. However, do not worry as they will give you a pre med which will mean you will be awake but in a trance like state when you go to theatre. You will have no anxiety and fear. They will do the procedure and you will be fine.
Keep being you and doing what you do. x


I didnt remember how much I like her videos


I had my gallbladder out 1 yea the pain never completely goes away lol that’s due to me not changing my diet it honestly it’s just small nagging and not at all as bad as it was keeping it in it was pretty fast healing and wasn’t a big deal normally I freak out about everything but it was ok<br>And I only have 3 tiny little un noticeable scars on my tummy from keyhole witch is better then a giant slash on your stomach

I had my gallbladder out 1 yea the pain never completely goes away lol that’s due to me not changing my diet it honestly it’s just small nagging and not at all as bad as it was keeping it in it was pretty fast healing and wasn’t a big deal normally I freak out about everything but it was ok
And I only have 3 tiny little un noticeable scars on my tummy from keyhole witch is better then a giant slash on your stomach


IM LATE FOR SCHOOL BUT IMMA WATCH THIS VIDEO INSTEAD HELL YEAH LOVE YOU DODIE


WHY IS NO ONE COMMENTING ABOUT HOW DODIE WROTE A WHOLE 13 STRING PIECE!! I WOULD CRY IF YOU WROTE A FILM SCORE


we missed you!!!! feel free to come back anytime


my thoughts are in sentences, but when i talk they kind of stop being in coherent sentences in the heat of the moment but then once im just thinking to myself again theyre back in proper sentences.


girl. i just think in sentences how do you not?? abstract thought? what. sometimes my brain be funky but i talk in my head. and sometimes it’s just like a video.


i only think in sentences when i’m imagining having a conversation / talking to someone/ myself / an audience lol?? also yes there is always a song playing

yes! i love finding other people who think in concepts, it's so difficult to explain to monologue thinkers the effort of translating and how you can have constant thought-noise without actual words (and yes, the looping songs/sound bites do get terribly annoying - i had a 15 second melody that played on loop for <b>8 hrs</b> the other day)

yes! i love finding other people who think in concepts, it's so difficult to explain to monologue thinkers the effort of translating and how you can have constant thought-noise without actual words (and yes, the looping songs/sound bites do get terribly annoying - i had a 15 second melody that played on loop for *8 hrs* the other day)


I had the same pain and it took a year for anyone to identity it as gallbladder stones. Long story short, I had mine removed and the recovery isn’t the most comfortable for about a month. I still have trouble digesting BBQ, but that’s pretty much it. Most people don’t have to change their diet that much, most go back to eating whatever they ate before.

And the gas you do fart out, the nurses made it seem very important to fart after the surgery. It was celebrated.


I've never related to anyone so bad about how they think


Doctor: what the fuck is wrong<br>pls can all doctors be like dodie that was so weirdly calming

Doctor: what the fuck is wrong
pls can all doctors be like dodie that was so weirdly calming


i think in sentences most of the time, but when i'm tired or stressed it's less cogent.


so what I’m hearing is

you HAVE an internal monologue

it’s just Goblin Dodie


I think almost entirely in words. The biggest issue is when you are trying to think about something and then you forget a crucial word and you suddenly don't know what you're thinking any more because you can''t put it into words in your own head.

It's also accompanied by a propensity to waffle.


the monologue thing gave me a crisis at 1 am last night I had no idea people actually saw things when they were picturing stuff I just get the feeling of it and basic descriptive words no images


My thoughts are weird like I'll need something and I'll just talk to myself (in my head) like a proper conversation. The weirdest thing is that I'll be in a conversation, I'll think of what to say but it sounds so real that I'm not sure if I said it or not, so periodically I have to ask if I said something (yes I get quite a few dogey looks) it's even worse if I actually say it and then ask. I really don't like it, it makes me feel really disconnected from reality and the conversation that I'm in. (I think that's everything 😅) self rant over


THE THING ABOUT YOUR BRAIN - I WAS THINKING ABOUT THAT ALL WEEK!!!!! it must be so easy for them to write songs. maybe thats why people can freestyle so well. I stutter a lot and forget what im saying in the middle of talking and i think its because i dont think like that.

very interesting...


just today i was thinking about how much i miss you and this style of video!! <br>i hope you’re well lovely <3

just today i was thinking about how much i miss you and this style of video!!
i hope you’re well lovely <3


there has literally never not been a running monologue in my head diuuuude its so tiring


Wait. That’s so interesting. Like your thoughts aren’t sentences? I’ve always wondered if ppl think the same.  For me I feel like my thoughts are an extra filter on my mind, so there’s the mess of memories splurged with emotions and feeling. And Then there’s like my processor part where I listen to that and think “hm yes that day was fun” or whatever. The problem is thoughts are impossible to record because they’re far more fluid in your mind but when I try to write them down I have to think harder. Yeah strange.


what’s it like going to the emergency room<br>and not going into debt with a huge bill? I’m sorry that’s all I can think of when you mentioned ambulance and A&E

what’s it like going to the emergency room
and not going into debt with a huge bill? I’m sorry that’s all I can think of when you mentioned ambulance and A&E


Should we listen to you when you tell us not to listen to you? I had my gall bladder removed. I have had no pain since.


hahaha i saw those things on tumblr. personally i dont see the apple well and also i usually have coherent sentences but i'm not really aware of it. i guess it helps me talk? but i have to plan the sentences before and make sure it makes sense and doesn't sound stupid. by the way you could totally have a house cat :)<br>edit to add more detail: i can see the apple but it's fuzzy and i struggle to focus on it.

hahaha i saw those things on tumblr. personally i dont see the apple well and also i usually have coherent sentences but i'm not really aware of it. i guess it helps me talk? but i have to plan the sentences before and make sure it makes sense and doesn't sound stupid. by the way you could totally have a house cat :)
edit to add more detail: i can see the apple but it's fuzzy and i struggle to focus on it.


I have a running monologue but talking is still extremely hard for me. I can never concentrate, and never know how I want to say things.


In the US most shelters and rescues actually don't want the cats to be indoor/outdoor. I hope you get a kitty. Mine makes me so happy! I went to the local shelter and he had been there for a few months. He's changed my life for the better.


my friends all think i'm weird as i think in sentences like some sort of monologue or book.<br>i honestly thought that all people thought like that until my friends told me otherwise.

my friends all think i'm weird as i think in sentences like some sort of monologue or book.
i honestly thought that all people thought like that until my friends told me otherwise.


also, Dodie I'm pretty sure the air in your body ig, would come out like in farts, it'll be okay!!💜


I don't have an internal monologue. But I think that makes it easier for me to think in different languages. I just translate the moving pictures and melodies and the non-linguistic mush in my mind into my second, third or fourth language.


I think I have a mixture of monologue and not. Sometimes I think in sentences, and that's easier to notice. The rest of the time it's just like a vibe or pah pah pah du du etc sorta things


Okay you know how sometimes you read a book too fast and before you know it you're at the end of a page and you can't remember anything the entire page said and you have to go back and read it slower? That's kind of how it is having the sentences in your head so it doesn't always make it easier to talk it's like sometimes my brain is being dyslexic but instead of reading words and having them be jumbled it's like I'm trying to say them and my brain just jumps around to different words, like when you're skimming a page and certain words jump out at you so you know the general idea of how you want to say things but sometimes it just comes out in a mess


honestly when someone says "imagine an apple" i see the word written out in my head! sometimes when i listen to ppl talk my mind's eye like types it out in front of me if that makes sense?? like having subtitles for irl convos lol

Omg same!! Thought I was the only person that did this

ashleigh ok same like when someone says imagine something the first thing I think is the spelling idk why I’m weird we’re weird 😂


OoOoOo Doooodie!! You are doing the singing thing again! Which means two things 1.) You makin' another scrapbook song yee & 2.) you will be posting more videos :))))))) thassa a win win all around right there!


literally writhing in pain as i’m watching this


OMYDAYS I HAD EXACTLY the same with the gallbladder thing, but mine was just overproducing stones, had keyhole surgery to remove my gallbladder if you want a patient perspective ;) some air is often left behind, it hurts get a bunch of ginger ale or something like that that helps it. after i came out of surgery and was a bit delirious and I asked whether my gallbladder was ok and to made sure he wasnt alone.

and you really dont notice it, the living without an organ thing


Not sure that you’ll read this but - my gallbladder was fulllll of stones and i had those pain episodes you describe but more and more frequently and getting the removal was the best decision of my LIFE.

Your body can properly get rid of any air that gets left behind, but I had my gallbladder out that way and will say I had very manageable pain from the actual removal but sharp pains in my shoulder from a little leftover air pushing on nerves in my diaphragm before it was disposed of by my body (few days later).  That shoulder pain was the worst result of the surgery for me.

Also, I’m just one person, but my fat digestion is still very normal unless I eat past fullness on all fried food then I will run to the toilet.  (And several years later this has remained the case)

Best of luck with whatever happens going forward with your gallbladder!


I can't see things in my mind. I've spoken to a lot of people about it, I kind of feel like I'm missing out. Dreams are more like feelings in response to a situation and recalling how I felt, rather than actually seeing it. My memory is shocking and I think that's because recall is visual as much as anything else? A lot of people are really curious and confused about it when I ask people to try and see what it's like from their perspective. I can't think of a family members face, but I know what they look like. But I don't know any different so it's okay :)

may i just say, this was beautifully written

Same! It's crazy that some people can SEE in their MIND

Shauna B  i have aphantasia as well and i was so shocked when i discovered that people can actually vividly imagine things!


I had my gallbladder removed and hear about needing to have a low fat diet. However more than 6 months after the operation I have all the fat I want and still have my original diet and am completely fine and rarely feel any pain close to that off gallbladder pain. (maybe just a small stomach ache that will go away from paracetamol if I eat a whole block of cheese in one go and even then it’s rare). The air from keyhole surgery goes away in a few days, you may just be bloated for the first two or so days which may also just be due to swelling around the area. Hope this helps.


My thoughts are like 50 google tabs open , half of them won’t load and I can’t work out where the musics coming from . Also with the operation, get it if you think it’s best , because I know you feel like your not meant to be messing around with organs and stuff but your also not meant to be in that much pain regularly . But yeah it’s your body so your really the only person who can decide . Good luck ! ❤


Dodie? the twilight series? a masterpiece? excuse me? we have no choice but to unstan 🤧🤧🤧


My inner monologue is kind of like a book? I don't feel like its on all the time, like if I'm focusing on work it kind of turns off, but when it is on it definitely speaks in sentences, like dialogue. Also RE: cats - cats who have feline AIDS or were brought up as house cats will occasionally be allowed to be kept as house cats, but only some rescue places will offer that, and only on specific cats :)


I got severe tummy pain the day after christmas in 2015 and went to the hospital and got my gallbladder out in february 2016 and it was VERY easy recovery. march 2016 I got my tonsils out (and it wasn't good recovery) but I needed them out. I got both surgeries within a month of each other before my insurance stopped when I turned 26 in march. america. -_-


4:53 "cut me open right now and blow me up like a balloon"

I CANNOT WITH YOU 🤣🤣🤣


i specifically thought to myself earlier..."wow, I'm thirsty, I should get some water." huh!


DODIE IVE MISSED YOU THANKYOU FOR RETURNING YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN<br>wait hold up you don’t have a running monologue in your brain? mine literally goes on constantly. sometimes different sides of my personality have arguments over decisions i should make teeheerawr

DODIE IVE MISSED YOU THANKYOU FOR RETURNING YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN
wait hold up you don’t have a running monologue in your brain? mine literally goes on constantly. sometimes different sides of my personality have arguments over decisions i should make teeheerawr


Hi Dodie, I'm 21 and I'm booked to have my gallbladder removed on the 9th of September (they found huge gallstones and I'm in pain a lot rn) and I just wanted to say that the doctors I spoke to said it's very possible I wouldn't need to make any significant diet changes after the operation! I also spoke to my distant cousin who is an anaesthetist, and he explained how the whole process worked, because I was worried I would have some degree of awareness during the surgery and it was giving me panic attacks haha, but I've been assured by him that they constantly monitor you during the whole thing and if there's even the slightest chance you could be aware they call the whole thing off straightaway. Anyway basically what I'm trying to say is that you are totally not alone in having to make difficult body decisions, I was listening to you talk about it and I completely resonated with everything you said, from the difficulty of getting diagnosed (I was having pain on and off for 4 years) to the fears about the operation and everything else. If you'd ever like to you can absolutely send me a message, my insta is _ amy.harrison.99 _  (without the spaces) - we can commiserate about our failing tummies and if you ever want reassurance or more information about stuff, I would be very happy to help if I can. I hope you have been pain-free since this video, and I hope you're keeping well in general. All the best 💕

Hi just coming back to say that I had the operation a year and a half ago (Sept 2020) and I feel so so much better! I got to the point where I could barely stand with the pain and they were worried the gallbladder could rupture and I would die LMAO but anyway they took it out and it worked! I am pain-free! I have not had any major digestive issues since, just the odd upset tummy (particularly in the first few months after surgery, I think it was probably just my body adjusting). If I have a massive takeaway it can upset my tummy but that rarely happens these days. In general I eat pretty healthy and it's fine. No one who has had it done will deny that it was painful right after the operation - after all, they are doing surgery - but I honestly noticed a difference straightaway. Rather than being in constant internal burning pain I was just dealing with the superficial pain of the wounds and the stitches blah blah blah ANYWAY to cut a very long story short please don't deny yourself the chance of a pain-free existence just because you are afraid of the surgery! Of course it's your call but if being afraid of the op itself is all that's holding you back I hope I can reassure you slightly that it's actually okay! I hope you continue to be pain free and are doing well! All the best <3


I have an internal monologue and yet I fall over my words all the time.


Dodie, have you ever heard the song Old Lovers in Dressing Rooms by Keaton Henson? It is so beautiful. I wept when I first heard it. Hope you give it a listen.


I have both a monologue and pictures and memories and abstract things in my head. The monologue is exhausting. I also have ADD and OCD so my brain can be quite messy. However, when I’m thinking about the future and the past OR math my monologue shuts off a little. The future thing happens because I visualize scenarios and also have a visual calendar in my head. The past also because I’m visualizing. Math shuts off my monologue because it’s just concepts and I sometimes think about a number line or I can visually do geometry in my head if I think hard enough.


Look at Dodie with this pretty make up and lovely glasses and smart talk


To your question about the gas: they try and get out what they can but any excess will rise to your shoulder area and can cause some gas pain. From what I’ve been told by others who’ve the procedure, the gas pain is the only kind crap part about recovery. Just take a bunch of gasx and a heat pad can help!


I can think coherent sentences in my head, but if I try to say them  out loud my brain just goes “you were thinking? What?” And I end up rambling jhdfds. I think writing them is easier though.


you were almost completely right. the bile go's the the duodenum! I am just going to say i'm not a doctor i'm a 2nd year Klinical technologie student. But i would say the pain is probably comming directly from the stretching of your gal ways. If it is removed you will not experiance this pain anymore. There are some definate food-pattern regulations you are going to have to hold on after the removal. But it wil remove the source of your pain. <br>don't take this to sereously of course i am 7 years away from a health proffesional. But i can deffinatally say the pros in your hospital want the best for you. Communicate with them!! give them as much info as you can give them.

you were almost completely right. the bile go's the the duodenum! I am just going to say i'm not a doctor i'm a 2nd year Klinical technologie student. But i would say the pain is probably comming directly from the stretching of your gal ways. If it is removed you will not experiance this pain anymore. There are some definate food-pattern regulations you are going to have to hold on after the removal. But it wil remove the source of your pain.
don't take this to sereously of course i am 7 years away from a health proffesional. But i can deffinatally say the pros in your hospital want the best for you. Communicate with them!! give them as much info as you can give them.


2:00 yo that’s a weirdass vape you got there

Your profile photo is literally a gay human saying drugs, this is perfect

Ahhhhahahahahahahaa, this comment made my day


my cats are indoors only. my vets have always said indoor only is generally healthier unless they're a really energetic breed that needs to run off some of their energy outside


My dad had his gallbladder removed because of the same issue and he's been better ever since, no problems at all.
The gallbladder was useful in stone age times, when humans needed to digest huge amounts of food with loads of fats and carbs in a short amount oft time after they hunted a mammoth or something. There was no such thing as fridges and small portions, you couldn't eat for days and then when there was food you had to eat a shit ton of it at once to survive.
In our modern days our gallbladder does hardly any work, especially if you don't eat a lot of meat etc.
Most people could do without the gallbladder just fine :)
Btw, fun side fact: horses don't even have a gallbladder :D


Hi Dodie! Hope all is well. Just wanted to hop on here and tell a tale. I had my gallbladder removed when I was 15 because of the same thing! The pain is UNBEARABLE. My doctor compared it to childbirth, which is mind blowing. Unfortunately, the pin only got worse and more frequent for me- yuck! Anywho, surgery was definitely worth it. Now there is some pain here and there after eating lots of fatty foods, but other than that we are a pretty penny! Wishing you the best of luck :)


Imagine thinking Twilight had good writing


Dodieeeee I love your makeupppp it’s so glowy and prettyyyy


Okay so I have that "running monologue" you're talking about but it's not that simple! There's still lots of feelings and overlapping things and images and abstract stuff mixed in. Like I think about a lot of things that I don't have words for, and I think about lots of things at once. But yes it is mostly in words and I can imagine someone "reading" my mind in a way where they'd get at least a lot of it, if not all of it.


I can't believe it's been 5 yrs since that vid 😮💕


I have IBS, but they checked, like, everything before coming to that conclusion. Sometimes its really bad. After the last "flare" i had, I haven't been quite the same but i'm a lot better than what i was. it was the worst thing ever, i hear u dodie. They checked my gallbladder. Checked my intestines  by using a camera up my bum (colonscopy). Checked if i'm lactose intolerant. Checked if i'm gluten intolerant or whatever. All of these things checked and apparently i'm fine so it's slapped with IBS. On the brightside, I have pictures of the insides of my colon and idk how many people can say that.


Watching this with my stupid brain monologue going and then you get to the brain monologue bit was so trippy, i mean idk about /healthy/ people by my brain monologue (that's what i'm callig it now) has to do with my DID/Dissociation and it's annoying af because it will. never. shut. up. like i've given myself (temporary thankgod) hearing loss multiple times cause of trying to drown it out and ugh yeah, brains are weird

Also as far as analyzing it, you ever seen those old cartoons of the train going reallly fast the the character like laying down track as fast as possible while on the train? It's a lot like the opposite of that! Like the words just fall into the abyss maybe like 5 seconds max after they're thought?


Having a running commentary in your head is actually incredibly annoying 😂😂😂 it’s like trying to tell yourself to just shhhh for a few seconds so there’s a bit of peace but your inner voice doesn’t keep quiet 😂 while there’s a song playing from start to finish in the background


2:12 your impression of the doctor saying "what the fuck is wrong" is my sexuality


I get severe stomach pain, from time to time, and I just take two or three calcium carbonate tablets, to knock it out. I don't it surprising that it takes two or three to work.


I knew dodie was someone who didnt have a monologue inside their heads. She just looks like she doesnt. Anyway it feels good most of the time but it's not as easy to bring this sentences into the real world or the paper as you might think. Sometimes it's very frustating because you have a perfect sentence in your head and a perfect idea but you just C A N  N O T For the life of you articulate it in a way that people will understand. That's probably the worst part.


Sis as someone who deals with chronic pain (and also spend many nights with pain induced insomnia) and has gotten her gallbladder out when I was 22 trust me it’s so worth just getting it out ♥

Ps. I, too think twilight is a phenomenal series and after jogging my memory I have NO SHAME and at 28 I will be re reading it as soon as my brain fog from said pain dissipates a bit.

Pps, the air they pump in definitely gets farted out, that’s one of the reasons while the hospital always asks if you have passed gas or pooped since waking up from surgery. The anesthesia also slows down things like your stomach, intestines, bladder, etc. so they just keep you long enough to make sure everything is back in working order and your pain is controlled by pills for you to get discharged ☺ and I’m not sure about the UK but here in the US if you’re anxious  about being put under you can talk to your team and they can get you something to calm your nerves a bit before they bring you in ♥I have a shit ton of other tips a tricks since I’ve had 10+ surgeries and procedures so if you have any questions please please feel free to tweet/dm me @spoonieswiftie91


Oh, and how to pronounce Adenomymatosis cause I'm bored: Uh-Den(as in beaver den)-Uh-Mee-Muh-Toe-sis
Edit: I am one of the monologue people you're talking about for thoughts, and no, we don't find it ridiculously easy to talk. Well, I don't anyway. But I have never had to plan out writing assignments, nor am I ever stressed to just come up with something on the spot. I mean, it feels like I can hear my thoughts and they're pretty clear. My mind is just good at simulating certain stuff. I don't have perfect pitch (unfortunately) but I can simulate everything from a snap in an echo-y room to the strum of a guitar in a music studio
Edit again: Kitten season is coming up and if you get a kitten, you can train them to be an indoor cat as long as you're careful enough to keep 'em inside

@IeuanX, this observation makes me want to write a haiku with "adenomymatosis" as the middle line...

Ow, my stomach hurts.
Adenomymatosis
is a fucking bitch.

Because adenomatosis has seven syllables

I read this comment then immediately got distracted thinking about sept-tuplets then 7/8 to the point where the video ended, I'm still counting beats while slapping my legs and the last thing I remember Dodie saying was red apple

Whats the name of this phenomenon? I think I might have it too? but also kinda not? I really need to learn about it.


Ask people who have had the operation to ask how they live without it afterwards. Also people who haven't had the operation also would they be able to just remove the lump????


It totally understand it! Its like you´d never be able to describe how your thoughts and imaginations feel like. For example litterly annyone is able to see a fckn apple in 3D in their minds BUT I CANT its so sad and theres no way to explain  it just is like that. (I btw always thought its normal to not be able to see images really clear in ur head BUT IT IS wth)


Glad my Biology revision can be done for today.


omg that brain thingy messes with me so bad.. My brain always has many layers like Dodie described; a worry, a memory, and at all times a song (and many more) and for sure none of them have a running monologue of perfect sentences, but they all have some words. and everything just goes together and I can never finish a sentence in my brain or hear one of them bc their all in one big mess and then theres a song lyrics at all times.. god bless anyone that could read my mind.


Ayy she's back<br>I missed these little rants so much

Ayy she's back
I missed these little rants so much


The cat garden thing is so strange because that's so specifically cultural. Like in the US, I bet 90+% of cats are only indoor and never ever go outside even into fenced areas.


Tbf the lack of eyeballs really adds to the YouTuber-ness of the gall bladder story


You can totally get a cat without having a garden. Some rescue cats are actually indoor cats! #getdodieacat


My running monologue is: <b>ohmygodeveryonehatesyouyou’renevergonnabelovedbecauseallyoudoismessupandlookyoucantevenloveyourselfdohowcouldanyoneelse</b>

My running monologue is: *ohmygodeveryonehatesyouyou’renevergonnabelovedbecauseallyoudoismessupandlookyoucantevenloveyourselfdohowcouldanyoneelse*

You’ve gotten through 100% of your hardest days, you can do this 💞 so proud you’re still here y’know?

I'm sorry you feel like this but I also hope you know that you're not alone with this! sending loads of love and strength <3


ME FREAKING OUT BECAUSE I HAD MY GALLBLADDER REMOVED LIKE IN OCTOBER,,, I'm 15 and so I know it's super hard. I had a mall function gallbladder that was producing stones when it shouldn't have. I had the surgery and it's okay. The pain hurts in your shoulders for a couple of days but it's okay. I've been horrified of to be put under. You'll be thankful to have its removed. You're a big inspiration to me and I relate to you a lot, and as someone who literally had a panic attack and ripped out their own IV tube out of their hand  when being put under I can confirm that the doctor can help you if you're anxious going under again. I hope the best for dodie


I get u about the inner thoughts. I don't normally get like lines of text as a thought process, it's normally a bit of a mess lol. Writing helps me to process + organise it sometimes , can't always whip out a notebook in an exam or whatever tho lol

Also, hope that the gallbladder problem resolves in the way you want it to 💜


bro bro last time I saw one of your sit down videos I was recently diagnosed with ptsd and had derealisation and I searched it and found ✨you✨ - that was a lil around 2 yrs ago teehee


Air from keyhole surgery just kind of makes its way out? Like it feels uncomfortable and you get achy spots for a few days, but most of it goes in surgery. I think. I had my appendix removed through key hole and honestly it wasn't horrendous, but it was kind of weird when they explained everything that they were going to do (whilst I was on diamorphine or something funky)


dodie I had a cat and he ran away and I'm missing him, what do you do when you really want a cat and ur sad?

Also do you remember my ig comment where I was like PuNCtuAtiON dODiE? That'd be cool if u did, ur like a god or something to so many people  and I'll maybe cry a little if you see this because even though I don't want to be THAT PERSON I kind of do :)

Oh and I think 'if I'm being honest' was secretly about ur surgery subconsciously like I think u can see the future plot twist dun dun dunnn oh look my PuNCtuAtiON and spelling are both gone down the toilet WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME


I too... am ITCHIN for CHANGE ugh I'm taking a year off of schooling and dude my life has never been more structured and boring, I need a better routine where I actually interact with people and learn things ughhhh


I thought this was normal but this is how I think

"man I'm super thirsty I have to go refill my water bottle. REFILL IT. DONT FORGET."

I think in full sentences. Is there anyone who thinks in images or spurts?


i just realized at 3:43 she sings special girl LOLL


omg i’ve missed these kinds of videos !!


if anyone hasn’t asked you yet how was your day today?

bts saved my life well i hope you have great tomorrow

@amii thanks! it´s almost over soo... thats good :)

bts saved my life it was good thank you i hope your day gets better :)

terrible. but i appreciate u asking, how was yours? :)


Dodie I understand my autism makes me think that way it is like no focus or when my BPD kicks it it can become 5 thoughts all at once instead of 5 random different thoughts

So you have the song plus the what should I have for lunch thought plus something else

When I have good days it is the song then switches to something else and all very fast no slow down time for me

I dont do well with slowing down


I have the same gut pain and i dont think in words. Facts and knowledge


I've had keyholes surgery, you don't feel it. I was always scared of anaesthetic but you don't know they are giving you it, then the next minute you're waking up like WTF happened? XD


I guess I’m one of those people who have a constant running monologue? I’ve never heard of anything otherwise, it’s mesmerising to me that people don’t think in sentences 🤨Xx


she back! lovvvveee your vids!!! also when you said "so much" at 3:32.... was that another arms unfolding moment.... but for a new song?? and again at 3:44

at 3:44 it kinda sounded like her singing the chorus bit of ain't my fault by zara larsson


Wait I'm confused I thought I was the norm but I don't think I have a running monologue, and there's often days where I just struggle completely to form any coherent sentences and I stutter a lot, and my brain just kinda.. Doesn't work? 😂😅


My mom had her gallbladder removed and she felt so much better after. She used to get pain like that too.


get a cat if you think you can take care of it!  find a street cat whatever you need to do, as long as your living situation allows it be happy and have a cat. I love your ramblings and it makes me think about a lot of things (inner monologue ) I hope you life is going well do your best and you will succeed  I believe in you!


I have an inner monologue going constantly with fully formed words and no it’s not good. it makes it super hard to speak because you end up hyper planning you’re exact wording and then can’t say it. i stutter and straight up can’t speak sometimes because of it. my thoughts get super overpowering too, they feel like a hyperactive toddler constantly running towards different things and i get confused about what i’m actually thinking. it’s super annoying honestly. vague ideas would be easier to put into words for me than all this junk.


Lol. Not sure what was braver…admitting your health issues, or admitting you like Twilight! 😁


lol a big change~ a month later the world just said “hahaha dodie,, you want a change? here’s the biggest one i can conjure”


Dunno if that's your type of thing, but if you like reading books that make you feel like the times you really made your Maths professor proud and are still interested in the whole thoughts thing, you gotta read Tractatus logico-philosophico by Wittgenstein


welcome back even if it’s just for now you’re doing great


No no no no no no no Dodie running monologue brain is HELL for communication. It's like, constantly second guessing your phrasing for anything and being concerned you're just bullshitting up a storm and trying to make the monologue more interesting whenever something comes up in your mind. It's a lot of having exactly the right words for something and then saying them out loud and nobody understands because they haven't been writing a series of essays on it during every subway ride or bathroom break of their life or whatever, so you have to painstakingly go back on each word and try to find out what did or didn't make sense and basically I think we're all kind of screwed somehow. It does make writing a bit easier though- even with the constant second guessing.


I normally think with words but sometimes I just remember/think of the feeling of doing something (normally of reading something or eating something but that's like almost flavor too) and I just think wait what was that until I figure out which book or we toon or food etc


oh my gOD i've missed your vlogs !! the clap in the beginning of the vid made me nostalgic lol


I have a running monologue in my head but when I try to speak my mind. It all turns to sh*t😂. While my brain is talking I also hear a song, I see pictures of family and friends, I have some worry to one side of my brain making me uneasy for no reason. But my running monologue is probably the loudest thing in my brain. I honestly hate it. It just gives my  𝑎𝑛𝑥𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑦 a platform to control my thoughts all the time. Then I’m in an awkward mood all day where I feel gross and lost. But my mind keeps monologuing and sometimes the things I think make me feel stupid and like I am annoying. So yeah that was a dumb explanation of my thoughts. This probably didn’t make sense. I will say that your music has a special was of quieting my thoughts down and wrapping them in a warm blanket. Sometimes your music makes me melancholy when my anxiety and depression takes over. Your music has helped me cry it out. Thanks.


your thoughts on thoughts (👉👉) are my thoughts exactly!! people ask me what language i think in and i'm like wtf, can't relate


I have the internal monologue thing but writing it down is SO MUCH easier than talking bc then I have to not only explain what I'm thinking but WHY and what it MEANS. When I'm writing, I don't expect anyone else to read or understand it so I just....word vomit


Okay I literally have the same exact rib back pain and it behaves almost the same exact way. It's seriously the worst pain


Yeah, life is basically like Scrubs, and it IS super easy to talk.


i promise you just bc there is a running monologue doesnt mean that i can easily translate it into real human words


are there really people who constantly have full coherent sentences? i’ll just be thirsty on literally the only thing in my mind is “t h o r s t”


6:58 i have this and it isn't easy to talk it actually really annoying


2:57 You blew me up like a big balloon far too soon—


Dodie... the video of the stomach blowing up was so awful and almost comedic that I spit my porridge out over my screen ahahahahah


DODIE IS THE “ITS NOT MY FAULT” FROM SPECIAL GIRL? (or was this too long ago? lol)


As a person who has an internal monologue, it does not make it easier to speak. I'm worrying about word choice and sometimes then the words I want don't come to me or I forget what I wanted to say.


Keyhole surgery is amazing compared to what they would have done before they started this method! You’ll be fine.


“How does your brain know the difference between what’e real and what’s not? Mine doesn’t” thats a big depersonalization mood.


With that internal monologue thing I feel like I’m in between, like it’s not coherent straight forward thinking in that I could write everything down exactly how I think it, but in my head it is coherent? Like to me it makes sense but on paper it doesn’t; but then also when I’m really awake and have my shit together I totally have a coherent thought pattern and it is exactly how you described it but I think in the third person which is really weird I know, and ANNOYING as heck but like idk is that even possible it’s like I’m thinking on top of myself lmao


yo i had gallstones and felt the SAME pain its unreal, had to take surgery and im only able to drink 1-2 cups of coffee before i get painful diarrhea B(


Cats shouldn’t be outside unless they’ve lived outside for a good portion of their life before. My senior cat was an outdoor cat for most of his life but my ladies who I’ve had since they were kittens don’t go outside and are perfectly content.


I JUST REALIZED SHE SANG BEGINNING ITS NOT MY FAULT LYRIC IN SPECIAL GIRL OMG HEHEHEH


I had keyhole surgery, it’s a weird recovery, when I farted they were really excited lol. You feel like your quite full I think, and the air slowly goes


ok so like i had my gallbladder yeeted out like a year and a half ago because that boi was not working anymore and i instantly felt A MILLION TIMES BETTER


the way you described how you think is crazy, i never realised not everyone has a running monologue in their brain, lemme tell you tho its defo not easier to translate my thoughts into actual sentences


I can not see an apple in my head and it CONSTANTLY causes me distress because I thought it was normal, but then found it wasn't. AND THE THING IS I am an artist- like the visual kind- so I feel like I now have a handicap with art because I can not see things in my head.


4:13 dodie really coming out here with that gcse biology knowledge


Everything’s like “2 seconds ago” and it is an entirely new experience


i mean. i have a mix of a word monologue or like conversations in my head but like its mixed with memories and pictures and imaginary things like dream stuff.... but like its never like on top of one each other its like a straight line of thoughts but like they are like a bunch of things. and like each thought is like a car of a huge train and when i have quiet moments in my head is like in between trains, so ... but i have social anxiety so its hard for me to talk to people but like in a way of i dont want to let everything im thinking out because i feel like im going to be judged for it or i dont understand how im feeling because for me emotions arent paired with thoughts all the time they are separate most the time so like i will feel a feeling emotionally but like its not attached to thoughts so its hard for me to verbalize it for those reasons if that makes sense.


Man, I have a running dialogue and I kind of hate it, to be honest. Like when I think about stuff, it has to be "spoken" as words for me to process it, but it's so slow sometimes because your brain can only "speak" so quickly. Gah!


WE MUST PROTECT THIS WOMAN AT ALL COSTS SHE IS TOO PRECIOUS.


When you were talking about hearing thoughts all I thought about was chaos walking.


My mum had keyhole surgery, you will be fine, you’ll have a few little scars around but mostly you will never even know it happened.


i understand the abstract thought that is my brain too its so hard to describe lmao


My bro had gallbladder problems. he had to get it removed. hope all is well


I sometimes have a monologue but most of the time it's jumbled


Dodie saying she's old.... 😒 Try being in the 40+ club and not just having a mind with a mind of it's own, but also a body that starts to betray...


........ Oh my god I got the same pain and at the hospital it was the same experience ... The pain has disappear XD But so far I have nothing in my body.. Maybe later we will found something ^^'<br>And it's the same things as you in my head ... SO MANY THOUGHT :') And many conversations/songs/words ahah

........ Oh my god I got the same pain and at the hospital it was the same experience ... The pain has disappear XD But so far I have nothing in my body.. Maybe later we will found something ^^'
And it's the same things as you in my head ... SO MANY THOUGHT :') And many conversations/songs/words ahah


you should get a cat with fiv!!! (feline version of HIV basically). they have weakened immune systems so have to be indoor cats but they can still live happy healthy lives, and there are usually loads that need adopting as it's commonly transferred among strays and also lots of people are put off by the idea of adopting a sick cat (even tho they're not inherently sick, just more fragile). i have an fiv cat and he's the sweetest, friendliest, craziest boy in the world, 10/10 would recommend.


I had my gallbladder taken out and the worst thing that happened was that I became allergic to dairy. Moreso allergic to how it is processed in the states because when I went to the Ireland and Spain I was able to eat any and all dairy.  When eating just decide if the food is worth the suffering. For me cheese is.


Speaking of cats
Look into indoor cats if you want one
My cats indoor and is extremely content in life


nO my running monologue does not always translate to words, especially when I'm stressed that monologue likes to hide and I can't remember what it was saying to me two minutes ago. But I always have a song playing in my head especially when trying to sleep, but my head just won't shut up and it won't stop running when I wish it would.


As a person who has sentences as thoughts and not pictures. I would say that it is very nice and I do tend to speak well, however I have troubles with imagining places and images. So when someone says "go to your happy place, imagine a beach and go there in your mind" I just see the black behind my eyelids and I can only see fleeting images of elements of the beach if i concentrate as hard as I can.


Weird that you have to have a garden to have a cat. Here it’s probably the opposite. The rescues would rather you didn’t let them outside. I have had cats all my life and they were always indoors. I felt weird when I let my cat outside for the first time. I was afraid of any number of things that could happen to him. I now have two indoor pet cats, but have moved to a farm. I probably will eventually have outdoor cats, but they won’t be “pets” they will be farm cats. Those type of cats don’t live as long as indoor cats though.


My mum had her gallbladder removed 12 years ago and she hasn’t changed her diet but she does get bloated after she eats a meal


I love love love love cats but I'm also allergic :(


Yes, I've been to the ER (North American A&E) twice this week.

Terrible, unexplained pain. Different area each time. By the time I'm seen, birds chirp, and my pain has gone down. And, I almost feel like a burden for improving by myself! Everyone's always helpful though, no hate for the ER staff.

Getting... Old!


but like there are those monologues where they jump all over the place and never actually finish the sentences you know? so there’s that, that’s me


"Fuck it, send me an ambulance" is a luxury Americans could only dream of


I don’t know HOW I would get by without an internal monologue? I actually have two (somehow) one is like a back burner where I go over stuff I need to do like long term and<br> then there’s like a Front Of Mind? one that’s like “god I’m hungry” “oo that’s so pretty!” Idk how I’d get by with a sorta sound n color system but it’s really interesting to try

I don’t know HOW I would get by without an internal monologue? I actually have two (somehow) one is like a back burner where I go over stuff I need to do like long term and
 then there’s like a Front Of Mind? one that’s like “god I’m hungry” “oo that’s so pretty!” Idk how I’d get by with a sorta sound n color system but it’s really interesting to try


"please don't listen to anything I say"
looks down at my lavender tattoo
oop

"please don't listen to anything I say"
*looks down at my lavender tattoo*
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I had a crap load of Gall Stones and didn't like the idea of the operation. But best thing I did in the end it is life changing for the better.


I have a running monologue, but i can't put words in order out loud. I sound like an idiot when im speaking. But in my head everything makes sense


LMAO NO it's not easier if you think in sentences. and there's still a lot of thoughts that are just BAM but my brain is usually like, do we need to expand on this or no, and i don't really choose to expand on it or not, it just happens a lot


the constant internal monologue does not at all help me talk bc it so often is just my feelings and stuff. i think it's why i'm a constant oversharer (^::


I feel like I'm not always aware of the running monologue, and I will say, though I love being able to analyze my own thoughts, I also forget whatever I was thinking way too quickly since I'm a purely visual learner. So it's a bit of a give and take for me 😅 I feel like the monologue also causes issues sometimes, as I don't get a lot of silence. Only a few times do I not hear the monologue or the monologue actually stops, but I suppose I do enjoy the times I get that type of peace. I mostly speak in sentences like this, and sound out words in my head as I type. I'm saying all of this in my head as I type, in fact. I'm rambling, can you tell? Lol anyway I suppose there are pros and cons, and though it's mostly in full sentences the sentences can be forgotten halfway through and distractions come easy to the conversations with myself.

As for the apple, I see a flat red apple if my eyes are open and I'm creating a fleeting image, but if I close my eyes I can make it 3D. But I suppose that comes with teaching myself visual learning techniques and mind palace things.

Okay thanks for listening to the rambles of my enneagram 4w5 brain lol. Have a lovely night

Update: I have ADHD (just diagnosed) so maybe that is why my brain is the way it is lol OOF


as an australian.. the fact that you need a garden to have a cat is DUMB. keep your cats inside ya weirdos.


i’ve got a running monologue but there’s absolutely no filter to it so it’s just sentences and sentences of something random and then some more sentences of a random things that i think about in that moment !


I think a lot of my running monologue just has to do with ADHD, but it is not fun


all of my thoughts are said out as if i was saying them to someone else, but im actually very bad at talking. ironic, i know.


We’ve got ragdoll cats so luckily they don’t really need to go outside they like the indoors so we just take them out on their leads.  And we have loads of plants just keep them out the way ours have never tried eating them, they just knock them over instead


ima try and explain the running monologue thing
btw i’m not at all professional i’m just going to explain my mind
so, like basically right now i’m saying what i’m about to type in my head about 1 second before i write it.
also, it sometimes isn’t great because the voice in my head likes to remind me of things i’d rather forget or make me a bit paranoid
but yeah basically, it’s like you’re talking out loud but not moving your mouth and only you can hear it, i think it helps me like process situations quite well

also please can someone explain the apple thing to me, like when i close my eyes and try to imagine an apple i see nothing

agcitrusstudios i’ve just recently figured out what it is, it’s called aphantasia so basically i can’t use the minds eye

agcitrusstudios i don’t see the words infront of me, more like when you’re reading to yourself, you talk to yourself on your head

Well, can you picture anything else? (Other than an apple). Can you picture a zebra? A car? I don’t understand how you can’t imagine something physical, since clearly you can imagine words because you typed that comment.


dodie, ur like, a cartoon character, your face and the way your mouth and eyebrows move when you talk is so endearing and cartoonish and its briliant. Its probably the glasses and the way you animatedly move about but its really cool . Its raining, thats nice.


it’s so strange that you’re talking about the inner monologue thing because I literally was talking about this to my friends and two of them were like wait you can see things- like you can see objects in your mind and I’m like lmao yeah?? it was INSANE to learn how other people think differently than you. (I myself have a crazy loud inner monologue.)


Oh dear Dorothy Clark how I’ve missed you


You talk so fast and crazy like, but for some reason it makes me relax.

Can I get 100 subs by posting one video?


I cannot see an apple in my mind. I can’t see anything in my mind. I guess I have a aphantasia?? Not so much of a self-diagnoser but I’m on the aphantasia subreddit and IT ME


So strange. I think in full sentences but cannot conjure the image of an apple in my mind. I don’t really experience “mental images”. <br>Brains are weird. 🤷🏼♀

So strange. I think in full sentences but cannot conjure the image of an apple in my mind. I don’t really experience “mental images”.
Brains are weird. 🤷🏼♀


Now I’m really thinking <br>I have the monologue thinking thing.

Now I’m really thinking
I have the monologue thinking thing.


u ever think about how absolutely insane thinking is and then get freaked about by thinking about thinking

that was me rn


your skin looks fucking amazing wowwww she said <b>glowing</b>

your skin looks fucking amazing wowwww she said *glowing*


I THOUGHT SHE SAID VEGAN PAINT I WAS SO COMFISED SHSHDHD


Get a cat with HIV. They're super safe for humans, but they're not allowed to go outside. They just need a couple extra trips to the vet every now and then. My friend has one called Biff and he's a big ol' sweety 💕


the main pain you’ll feel from keyhole is pain in your shoulder tips it’s the gas they put in you, it goes away. i had a 6cm ovarian cyst removed from keyhole and it’s daunting but the worst of it is the shoulder pain


I have a inner monologue and it's annoying. Ecspecially when I'm trying to sleep and the voice of worry gets louder siiiighs


hear me out 3:43 she sings "its not my fault" ..... is that special girl we hear?????


I have a running monologue. Its basically like im narrating or writing a book about life, all the time.


My internal monologue is the worst. I feel like when I talk I have to 'listen' to the internal monologue, speak two or so words behind, then listen to my speech to check I said the thing. This is not a reliable system and often results in “filled pauses” and sometimes I can't be sure what I have actually said to someone.


I generally think how you described your thoughts and a monologue. Oops.

I also have incredibly vivid imagination.


Yupp I had keyhole!!!!! Worst part is the gas stays in your body for a few days and you get shoulder and chest pain. But when it goes away it's a relief cuz you know you wont have any pain again 😌

And also! You kinda fart the gas out? But it mostly just wares off day by day.


Not sure if this helps
But I've had same the surgery (albeit for gallstones) when i was 18 and I am also a medical student.
When I was done with the surgery and woke up, i was in unbearable pain and regretted getting the surgery at all because as you said the other pain was occasional and this was constant. But they pumped me with pain killers then it was alright. I didn't even need pain killers 2 days later. In the end i was glad i got the surgery because that meant i didn't have to constantly be on edge and afraid of the pain hitting anytime.
And about the complications of surgery: Never underestimate what your body can do. It can adapt unimaginably! There's sphincters that control the flow of bile into your intestines. Even if you remove the gallbladder, bile won't be trickling down 24/7 because of the sphincter. And it only opens up when you've eaten something.
It's been around 6 years since i've had my surgery and i function normally just like anybody with a gallbladder. If i didn't know that i was missing a gallbladder i honestly wouldn't be able to tell the difference!

Goodluck!


<b>you blew me up like a big balloon far too soon</b>

*you blew me up like a big balloon far too soon*