My brain doesn't do the thinking thing very well so instead, I will talk out loud to myself. That doesn't work well in school or professional situations.


3:00 "you blew me up like,, a big balloon, far too soon..."


If your potential gallbladder surgery is anything like my endometriosis surgery, the gas dissipates over a couple of days but it gives you ridiculous pain in your shoulders for a couple of days. Also the recovery period for keyhole surgery is longer than you think 😔 but if it would help in the long run, it's totally worth it.

Also, Celia Hammond often has cats that are indoor cats, if you're in the right area for one of their shelters!


i had gallstones for a year and a half unknowingly like you not knowing what it was and also being gaslit by my gp and a&e being told it was my mental health and was referred for therapy and was also on every prozal tablet too! finally i moved gp when i changed bourgh and it was the first thing they suggested! but the pain continued and i ended up having these attacks at least once/twice a week and they finally scheduled me for surgery but this is where i’ll stop because the whole experience was traumatic because i ended up with side effects but if you ever wanna talk about the removal part i’m down lol! just remember everyone’s experience is different but if you get offered surgery again plsss take it! you deffo don’t want the episodes every week it’s absolutely debilitating and traumatic! 💓💓💓 ps 6 months on from the removal of my gallbladder and i’m sooo much better with out it 💪🏻


If your specialist is worth their salt they'll help you make the best decision for you. They won't make you get a procedure that isn't going to ultimately be good for you in the long run. Keep in touch with your specialist, keep an eye on it and if the lump gets bigger or your pain becomes more frequent then have the conversation again.


Some people naturally think in words they tend to be more intellectual based.
Some people naturally think in images they're usually more creative.
And some people naturally think in both and they're a even mix of both.

But just because someone naturally thinks in one way doesn't mean they can't if trying think in the other way it just means that it isn't their natural way of thinking.
I would expect a larger percentage of your audience to think either primarily in pictures or a mixture of both as you yourself are a creative person you attract  audience of similarly creative people.

You probably won't read this yourself but there's just a little psychological explanation for it.😊☺👍


coming here after build a problem dropped to discover she was referencing a song that hadn't come out yet at 3:42 !!!!


When you think of a more abstract concept, what do you picture? Like if you don't have sentences, what do you "see"?


Hi Dodie, what do you use to edit??? XD xo


3:31 sounds like dodies is kinda signing "so much"

another secret video project?


me realizing dodie's birthday is April 11th- a day after mine oh my word- I have the same birthday as Brendon Urie so if she had been born one day later and we also shared the same birthday- i'd sob because that would actually be the ultimate birthday


Can you do a vid of what you wear and where it’s from? I just really love your styleee! Woooo


dodie would make an amazing zoey on dear evan hansen


wow as a type 4 this whole video is like watching someone speak my brain thoughts and patterns


My internal monologue is soooo different of what comes out. The fact that people only hear what you say and do not know what you think is something i forget sometimes.


Oo same! I don't really think in full sentences, I just like "feel" a thought, and I have to try to find the words to properly capture what I think. So I'm very ineloquent(?uneloquent) and am pretty shitty at articulating my thoughts/finding accurate words for something. I think maybe you're more creative, hence you actually "think" in colours/music but for me it's more like just a thought condensed into a brief feeling.  I mean I cannn like try to formulate full sentences in my brain (for speaking or writing or imagining hypothetical conversations  like you said) but I would have to go over them and edit them and review and look for better words so I guess it's not as instant or flowy(?easy?) as just thinking normally and it also takes quite a bit of brain power and effort lol.
Like if I'm passing by a stranger I wouldn't think the whole sentence "Oh wow she is walking with so much purpose and her stride is so confident and whoa" I would mainly just feel the vibe of that thought in a passing "oh" thought and continue about my day haha. Or I would feel some vague feeling towards a topic and I would have to actually try to think and explain what I think/feel about it. I admit actually preparing hypothetical monologues about certain topics and saving it for future convos makes me a bit more articulate in such situations, but basically I just can't give good answers on the spot I guess.

(Is that not normal though? Doesn't it take a lot of time and effort to say out whole sentences in your brain? Like isn't it more efficient/suitable for lazy people like me to just think in phrases/feelings? Or was I actually normal and just not getting the point and people do still think like in short disjoint phrases but it's the thinking in feelings and memories/colours/sounds etc. that's not normal? )

(I'm using the word "normal" but who knows what normal even is idk)

(Sorry I don't normally comment like ever but watching this + reading the other comments just got me thinking)


Is having a running monologue not the norm 😯?


Just because you have a running monlogue in your head doesn't mean it makes sense or that the words are... good? Also bonus when you have anxiety and you're writing a book of things you could add to the conversation in your head, but your inner critic keeps commenting on your thoughts and how stupid they are so you completely shut down and not a single word comes out of your mouth:)


8:21 is she doing the song thing again??? maybe???? the “oh” sounded intentional 🤔

She sang 'it's not my fault' at 3:43 too

she also has a lil sing song at 10:30 :)


bodies are so inconvenient
i know when i see a specialist im going to have to decide whether i want surgery on my knee
and my bowel problems are back full and strong such fun and so much pain
bodies just get in the way so much


I don't have a running monologue but I do sometimes think sentence fragments. I think in images and concepts.


my brother had keyhole surgery to have his appendix out! he was terrified too. didn't hurt. didn't feel it!!! and didn't feel bloated at all. the air all goes!


Everyone here  is like 20-25 and i feel really young, im like 14😂


Do you know what makes me feel like a TERRIBLE person? And I know no one cares. The first time Dodie brought up her pain in a video I HAD MY GALLBLADDER TAKEN OUT A WEEK PRIOR. and I saw her video and I was like "wow that sounds similar to my pain before my surgery. I SHOULD COMMENT AND MENTION TO HAVE HER GET HER GALLBLADDER LOOKED AT" but I chickened out bc I didn't want anyone to think I was dumb. I COULD HAVE HELPED


So I started this video with the mii music playing in my head and ended with the mii music but also if I'm being honest and it might be driving me crazy


I had my gallbladder out a few years ago and surgery is never fun but not having that pain was sooooo worth it to me. After a few days i could eat normally and after a few weeks of feeling a bit sensitve and yucky i felt amazing. I have never had to change anything i eat. I eat heaps of fatty foods. My specialist said it is much easier for young people to adjust like normal to not having one. I have the tiniest little scars that have nearly completly faded. For me it was really great.

I hope you find a decision that is good for you and you feel less confused 💜


3:44 ITS NOT MY FAULT FOR I WAS PROMISED JUST THE SAAAME

this is actually the one from<br>special girl! the notes are slightly different in before the line

this is actually the one from
special girl! the notes are slightly different in before the line


Omg the same think happened to me and I ended up being in the hospital  for like 3 months


My sister is in vet school right now, and she and a lot of her peers actually believe that cats should probably be indoor-only animals! You should get a cat it does not need a garden


I understand where your coming from with the thoughts things but I have a running molouge and that mumbling mess but a lot of the time the mess overrides the thoughts and I completely forget what I'm on about


i usually think in words and sentences. i didn't know people didn't think like that. interesting.


I lost it at “I saw a doctor they say what the fuck is wrong?”


SOo I have an internal monologue but 90% of the time its not sentences i can actually say out loud. I often also have more than one sentence running at once that both cover the same though and I have to pick the acceptable bits out of the multiple sentences. I once described my brain as having several tabs open (I think part of that is anxiety tho) and when I'm having a thought its like I've got several research tabs open all of which are on dictate. I also always have at least one tab playing songs


I once went to A&E for a severe asthma attack that was also leading to an anxiety attack (if you’ve ever not been able to breathe you’ll know it’s terrifying) I couldn’t find my inhaler, it was 10pm. Finally around 11pm I saw a nurse they did the little lung capacity test thing. She kept telling me to do it again and again saying I wasn’t breathing hard enough. I FUCKING CANT BREATHE. Then saw a doctor around 12am and he’s like “you seem alright” ahhh yeah it’s been over 2hrs it’s kinda passing now thanks for nothing mate, I’ll be off   * tilts hat *


last time I was this early dodie still had short hair


I do think in sentences! It’s kind of a mixture between visual movies and sentences but I also see words as I say them or think them too??? Idk you’re right it’s impossible to explain


Are you planning another one of those videos where you have hidden your song in other videos? Definitely picked up on  some sung words.


I have aphantasia so I can't see pictures in my head :(
Wonder what it's like sometimes
But I don't have any possible way to know what it's like


What- I'm shook. How is there no talking in your mind? :O


I though the title was "i like cats and gallbladders"


i don’t understand how u can have an internal monologue without sentences. anyway my train of thought gets lost between my brain and my mouth because my brain goes faster than my mouth so it’s not amazing


Aw your talking about the way people think was really sweet.
For me personally, I only ever think in words. As if I'm talking to myself constantly. But not in a Psyco way??

If you ask me to visualise a picture in my head I really struggle but if you ask me to describe a the same picture I can start to build an image in my mind using a monologue. Then I feel I can visualise it.

on the other hand I feel like my emotions are separate from my thoughts? like right now I feel down but thats just a feeling in my chest/heart whatever.


You need a garden for a cat? I've never heard of that


i used to have horrific gallbladder pain just as you described...excruciating - and nobody takes you seriously because you're young. but one night a few years ago, i had the worst attack of my life where i blacked out from the pain...so much so that i had to miss one of my university exams the next day!!! i went to the hospital and they were like YEP YOU'RE FULLA STONES. and so i had it taken out, and let me tell you girl...i have been REBORN. no more pain!!! and the surgery isn't that bad...super non-invasive and a pretty easy recovery! about the not eating fat any more thing....your body can readjust - mine did! i can eat pretty much the same way i did before i had it out, it just takes time! i think you should get it out girl. i know what the pain is like and trust me, there is light on the other side. you don't need to feel this pain any longer.


3:32 is it just me or does it sound like she's singing when she talks? (Jk jk)


Dodie's blush is immaculate. I must know what it iiiis


as someone with a running monologue that does not shut up, I definitely do not find speaking easy and I literally can't read out loud and I stutter and stumble over words all the time aaa However!! i feel the same in terms of the internal monologue as you do but about the visualising things in your mind cause I cant do that at all and I'm so confused how people can just. see things in their brain like what kind of magic


Talking can still be hard with the running monologue because you can think faster than you can speak and then you stumble over words or lose your train of thought

Also if you write film scores that will be THE COOLEST THING EVER, can't wait for the new music


it’s not thinking the words as sentences as much as it is just like hearing someone speak but it’s just in your head. idk if that’s just because of my adhd but I honestly feel like sometimes my brain has a kid running around just babbling nonsense and asking questions. but then in other situations the kid turns into an adult and says something really intellectual and mature and I’m like “wow u right”


I sort of have a running monologue and most of the time I just sing lol to me it’s just like when you sit and think but it’s always going on I am normally aware that I am thinking and what is going on around me and life just feels like a game and it’s sort of pointless and I could just stop thinking but that might be bad because people need me I think and I don’t think they would cope with everything else in life because I’m normally the chill one and if they didn’t have me then everything would be manic but maybe it would stop everyone and just make them think about life and how they are not paying attention to it and just letting every little thing get to them xx


Okay but like about the surgery.... I could only think of "You blew me up like a big balloon, far too soon" <br>It is a prediction!!!

Okay but like about the surgery.... I could only think of "You blew me up like a big balloon, far too soon"
It is a prediction!!!


You can see an apple with your eyes closed the same as when they are open??!?? HOW HOW DO PEOPLE SEE THESE THINGS IT MAKES NO SENSE


Adenonymarosis... ARE WE CALLING IT ADAM OR ADEN?!?!


Idl if it’s just me, but when it comes to like actions I don’t think??? It’s like if I feel thirst, my body will just move to the fridge on its own??? I’ll even be like screaming in my thoughts “nO sToP tOo MaNy cArBs” but I’ll do it regardless- like my feelings, and my thoughts, and my body’s needs have all separated themselves to the point that I can’t really find them until they pop up


Look for a cat with FIV they can’t go outside and if you take care of them they live just as long as other cats. I live next to a main road and had to give away my last cat, we got this one and he is literally therapy.


Are you telling me you aren't having a dialogue with yourself all the time


a big change:<br>Honey carona is right around the corner

a big change:
Honey carona is right around the corner


Is that a framed photo of Emma Watson at 1:29? Cuz same


On ‘where does the gas go’- 1) they pump as much as possible out of you (through the holes they’ve already cut in you, before the stitch you up) and 2) they can’t get all of it out of you, and because it’s air it moves upward so it ends up in your chest and shoulders and hurts like HELL but only for about 24 hours (I don’t actually know what happens to the air after that but there’s no long term consequences)


since when do u need a garden for a cat??? vets and cat experts and behaviourists all agree that cats should be indoor only (except for walks on a harness or a catio/cat run but it’s NOT needed)


i think in monologues and i still can't say anything coherent for shit somehow


Anyone from 2021+ notice the special girl reference? 👀


that's fascinating

I think in at very least words (if not sentences - sometimes phrases, sometimes it's just words)
partly
specifically english ones which as a languages student kinda sucks when I'm meant to be communicating in french and/or my peers are just like "oh yeah I've been dreaming in my other language(s)"
but it's almost like that's the ...dominant line of thought?
as in there definitely seems to be some more abstract feelings and shit just it's more in the background?

but yeah, I refer to my brain as having "channels" anyway - if I can't think clearly I might try some music or something to do with my hands to "block" the "excess channels", essentially drowning out the noise made by the background thought that does sometimes get kinda chaotic
so I can put things into words a bit more easily than some people (eg my partner has multiple "native" languages and they don't really think in one particular language so I guess trying to catch hold of the impressions/feelings/images and put them into language (specifically English so I can understand) can be tricky sometimes)
but not always because sometimes I get distracted by background lines of thought

(if I ever want to retrain in a different area someone point me in the direction of something like psychology or anthropology humans are fascinating)


Rant: I have a running monologue of words, and all the colours and music and images and stuff in my mind, sometimes I literally just sit and think. Its rather nice and it's a huge part of my life, but often I get quite lonely because I the way I act in real life is not how I am in my head, I'm not fully myself because of society, I have great friends! But I'm not myself with them, I'm only really myself when I am alone. I think it's strange how you would live almost in first person, like your mind won't go, in words 'I should get some water' when your thirsty?

I think in second person. Youre thirsty arent you? You should get some water, you had soda for lunch with Sara. How did her recital go, you should ask her?


I dm'd you on insta about my gallbladder pain and having it removed on the 1st of the year lmao and yessss i was right it was ur gallbladder, it's a shitty thing, but hey, better to know that not know

also I'm an American, so please pray to the health genies that my health insurance covers the last pending $15K of my $45K hospital tab from my mean mean gallbladder

oh and about the gastric dumping that happens after surgery when the bile just dumps into ur stomach from ur liver ---- it's kind of annoying in the mornings when I drink water on an empty stomach it feels kinda icky, but still not very bad at all..... if you eat something really greasy it might be an issue, but like, 95% of the time I feel just fine

the air in the tummy isn't so bad, and I didn't feel anything for about a day after my surgery pain wise. The surgery is SO WORTH IT, the pain even at its worst was still less than the gallbladder pain. I got out of surgery, barfed, and then was able to walk all around the ward. @saltyweatherco on insta if you wanna chat some more about HOW AWFUL GALLBLADDER PAIN IS andddd HOW MUCH BETTER you'll feel after surgery - honestly it was so worth it ----- in the meantime though, stay away from fatty/greasy foods, because your poor gallbladder will be mean :(


wait people don't have a running monologue in their head ?? this is crazy


Adenomyomatosis>>
[ADD-IN-OH-MI-AHM-AH-TOE-SIS]  ;)


i have a house cat big man it’s healthier to keep them inside apparently


We have a cat and no garden, she wanders about the house and does whatever she likes. We have two litter boxes for her and four water bowls in different roomes. She's fine. She doesn't seem to care about going outside very much beyond sitting on the flat roof at the back of the house and then coming back in again. She used to be a stray so maybe she had her fill of being outside.


i have the running monologue thing, but i'm really bad at talking. cuz instead of there being the extra step of translating the thoughts into words, there's the extra step of SELF DOUBT


The book just sounds like DID with powers


it’s been a sec since we’ve seen you last


I don't think all cats need gardens. I had a cat who hated the outdoors. He much preferred to be inside and be lazy. You just gotta find the right cat! Good luck on ur cat finding journey, I want one soooo bad but I'm in college haha. Someday.


but dodie....THE RUNNING MONOLOGUE DOESN'T STOP


My mum's had her gall bladder out for a few years now, she has a bit of trouble with fatty foods, some kinds of fish and pork yanno. Um. She tends to be a bit sick like.. Vom sick but overall she's healthy and chipper. If you need to remove it, not too much will change is basically what I'm saying.. :) yeah.. Overall your choice tho.. xx


bruh this is the chaotic dodieness i missed


monologue thinkers: “i am thirsty, might get myself some oatmilk :)” me: “¿ [picture of oat milk] [memory of the texture of oat milk] bzzzz !”

please can you explain the picture thing to me, like do you see it like it’s actually there behind your eyelids?


You should right a song on the pain it could help people understand, well there's no need but it would make a good song


Oml I want to hear this new music so bad I desperately need new music to listen to.


I don’t know if this will reassure you or not, at the worst I hope the information will prove useful. My stepmum had to have her gall bladder removed and she didn’t have keyhole because this was like 15 years ago, and from this she developed a chronic illness caused sphincter of Oddi disfunction (look it up, it’s basically just your bile duct spasms a LOT) which changed her life. It’s pretty rare, there is only one specialist in the UK I believe (maybe two or three, but she ends up going to London quite often) but statistics say it is a LOT more common after open surgery than keyhole, so despite how horrific keyhole looks, please take some comfort that it is statistically safer 💜 you will be ok, and I know you’re considering just putting up with the pain, and if you’re happy with that choice then we’ll all support you, but pain of any kind, as you probably already know, rarely remains at a constant, and without treatment it tends to get worse  💜


I thought everyone kinda just.. thought... in both of these things?

Like.. I usually have the monologue thing.. but if I wanna think about any one thing I see it like.. idk.


med student here, you really need that taken out, it will increase your life quality and assuming they don’t massively screw up (and they won’t because it’s a quite basic surgery) you won’t be in constant pain or anything afterwards

and also they take all the CO2 out from one of the tiny holes at the end of the surgery don’t worry about that


Wait you don’t have a running monologue?<br>W H A T

Wait you don’t have a running monologue?
W H A T


My mum always wonders where I got my hairstyle inspo from I could never pinpoint it just now realised I full on stole dodies haircut


wait what wait do you not hear your thoughts at all? i hear a monologue and see the abstract images and feelings and stuff - i saw a tweet that said people either do one or the other and i thought it was a joke ??? what is going on


I mean I’m allergic to cats so I understand


i guess i do have an inner monologue. i talk to myself all the time. but i also do have pictures in my head and stuff like that. but i can’t think about two things at once, my mind only focuses on one thing. and it’s so many sentences. sometimes it exhausts me to think because i get tired talking out loud a lot easily, and thinking is just mentally talking for me. i think my mind sorta sees things like a movie. when i think of future events, that’s how i picture it. but when i plan things or i’m just thinking about something, it’s like my brain is talking to myself. i never really thought about that before...


ooo! I have a running monologue but it doesn't necessary flow logically like, words just kinda spiral around, and when trying to speak sometimes the idea I'm communicating, like the words are three paragraphs ahead in my mind and my mouth is stumbling over the 2nd sentence and so it comes out muddled and jumpy but like it's all words in my head


I won't tell you what to do. But i will tell you I've had 2 organs removed, and I'm fine.


Don’t do it, like you mentioned you’re not in chronic pain. This surgery may be more effective for those in pain almost everyday. You need a gallbladder, not having one, may cause more pain in the long run. You may have to go for other surgeries. Please take care! I hope you’re well


You don't need a garden for a cat! Indoor only cats exist and they're happy healthy friends. My kitty is indoor only and he's plenty happy, he likes to sit on the window sill and chatter at birds.


The surgery use CO2 to inflate your tummy, which creates a cavity for the doctor to do things; at then end of the surgery, they will drain the gas out before closing the wound, there will be minimal gas inside, but it will get absorbed easily


I have a cat and no yard! Shes fine! Keep trying!


pfft you don't need a garden for a cat, my cat has lived only inside our house for her entire life


My mom doesn't have a gallbladder anymore and she says it just hurts sometimes when she eats very greasy foods


other people don't have inner monologues? I'm bamboozled


the air is gonna be worked off in your body. you'll most likely have pain in your ribs, collarbones, shoulders, but its bearable and soo worth it if your somach pains are bad. i had keyhole surgery for endometriosis and the air moving up my body was uncomfortable, but it went away after a few days. oh, and i burped a lot lol. after surgery you gotta have easy nutrition tho, because you likely  won't feel like eating. i'd recomment juices and soft baked goods. anyway, good luck with everything!


I feel like I think in words often but it doesn’t make my thoughts less chaotic, they just happen to be words but 12 at a time yk?


“I’m like, itching for a big change” HAHA Covid babe. Covid.


when you have afenastia (sorry dont know how to spell it). and dodie talks a on going monologue wait y’all have that   cause i don’t hear anything ( besides what i think is my own voice or what my brain thinks my voice sounds like when like when typing ) or see anything it’s just  a blank blinking messed up brain. and i’m allergic to cats but i love them so much they’re so slinky and cat like how. and then feel bad cause you missed her upload cause you couldn’t find a link to the video and was to lazy to open youtube.

スパイダーマングレムリン


ok but indoor cats are a thing?? a lot of times the volunteer organizations i work with encourage people to keep their kitties indoors


I don't think in coherent sentences either, I don't think anyone does. Anyone who tells you they do is lying


Did they at any point give you IV morphine or oramorph at A&E? (and ignore that doctor who stressed its accident and emergency, what an idiot, pain is an emergency, especially abdo pain...). If you only have to have an a&e trip once every 6 months, it might be worth putting up with that than taking the risk of an operation (I am left with lifelong pain after a major abdo op). That said, gallbladder removal is the most common operation in the UK (but it's still an op!)

Good luck


2:13 is my teacher when I have a panic attack in lesson


The running monologue is nice but its like the difference between typing notes and writing them. I word vomit in my mind SO:
Question 1 - how much of it actually means anything or is worth keeping around?
Question 2 - What if I just word vomit filler words and never find a proper way to express what I'm feeling? There are discreet words and phrases but, again, they could mean nothing and I will have wasted sugar and calories.

Compare that to the slow and steady and explorative process of writing something on paper, something acoustic and tangible, and it's much more edited and refined and personal and meaningful. Which is what I feel you do very well.


Ahhh there it is. You said it. Gallbladder. It’s not a bad surgery. Had it six months ago. But figuring out what you CAN and CANT eat after is kind of a fun “gamble gas” game... is it gas...?or is it poo...? (sorry hahah)


My 8 year old brother got his gallbladder taken out as a baby so if you do you two can be buddies :)


If you look up BAM, that is what lots of peope get after Gallbladder removal.


a running monologue is convenient for talking and writing and such, but sometimes the monologue WILL NOT SHUT UP and then it's three am and you can't sleep because your brain is giving a ted talk about plants.


Itching for big change... hun we’re in lockdown now, i guess your wish worked !?


I didn’t have a garden for a while and I have two cats. Rather than going to shelters try websites like this https://www.pets4homes.co.uk/search/?type_id=2&location=NP442NW&advert_type=2&distance=30 as that’s how I got both of mine x


trust me you do not want an internal monologue it dOES NOT SHUT UP LIKE EVER


Are we sure that everybody is either an abstract thinker or has an inner dialogue? Because anyone I’ve talked to says that they guess they’re both and I really don’t know what I am??? Like I can’t remember thinking in sentences and I can think abstractly but if I wanna I can talk to myself in my head. Most of the time they aren’t entirely coherent sentences but I know what they mean but there is still definitely a voice  sometimes...maybe? So like I rlly don’t know🤷♀


Yea I have aphantasia. woo. thanks for telling me dodie :P


Anyone watching this now, I had keyhole surgery to take out my appendix, they suck out some of the air, but the rest of the air slowly diffuses into your intestines, and you fart it out.

Real big farts.


I love Dodie so much
Like
She is idk how to describe it
Familiar? Like not only can I relate and see parts of me in her personality, but I’ve been watching her videos forever and it’s really comforting to see her face or hear her voice.
Is that odd? Idk, I just really appreciate her and everything she does.

I love you Dodie!!!


I seriously cannot fathom NOT having sentences as thoughts? Like ofc I can visualize things but only as I actively try, it’s not what my thoughts automatically become. Or as I speak a lil movie plays over it? It’s hard to analyze my thoughts while I’m thinking about my thoughts lol.


"it's not my fault" at 3:43 time is weird but thats cool


About your gallbladder, I'm not a doctor,   but be sure if you have stones and if is really bad you may have to take it out, if bearable you can treat it with apples and apple juice and another treatment a spoon of olive oil, lemon and Epsom salt supplement.. just research for more info and discuss it with your doctor. My boyfriend had stones and a lot of pain, but manage to treat it with these things 😊 hope you get well!


YALL HAVE A RUNNING MONOLOGUE? HOW?

I’ll be vibing and I’ll think of a girl, but like, I’ll see her like a picture on my head. And then the color purple comes to mind. And then grapes. And then I’ll be like “oh I’m hungry” and this all happens in a blur of a few seconds. It’s never sentences unless I’m thinking of what to say to someone or what I should write. please explain how your thought process works!


When the sound of the string section came in I legit thought it was the Danny Elfman Batman theme


if you get it out you won't be able to eat big portions of full fat dairy, but you should get a cute little smiley scar under your bellybutton that'll make it look like Mike Wazowksi :P<br>I didn't change my diet that much after I had mine out and it's been smooth sailing for me. Get it gone, you'll thank yourself later if it's causing you this much pain, I did it for that reason <3

if you get it out you won't be able to eat big portions of full fat dairy, but you should get a cute little smiley scar under your bellybutton that'll make it look like Mike Wazowksi :P
I didn't change my diet that much after I had mine out and it's been smooth sailing for me. Get it gone, you'll thank yourself later if it's causing you this much pain, I did it for that reason <3


why do we have the same thought process lol


As someone who’s be diagnosed with gallbladder stones, I’m very nervous about surgery as well. I’ve done a lot of research about after surgery as well I’ve asked anyone I know without their gallbladder. There’s lots is good, since you’ll have to take on a low fat diet which is pretty much everything but butter and meat fat. But you can still eat normal food, it may take a while for your body to adjust to the more fatty, spicy foods. There may be some food s you just can’t adjust to, that just means the bathroom my become your best friend, not you have to stop eating it forever. There’s a chance you can get chronic diarrhea. It happens to 20% of people who get the gallbladder removed. But I still understand how you feel. I hate hospitals. I’ve never had surgery done before so the idea that I may have to and that my whole life style gonna change cause of it is really scary. If you were to ask me Dodie, I’d say do it, since problems with the gallbladder can lead to appendicitis. But in the end it’s up to you. I wish you good luck and I hope you get better.


3:32 did Dodie sang that part? Is this another Arms Unfolding moment?


I don't understand why you need a garden for a cat. Are you not allowed to keep it as a fully indoor cat? Seems odd to me to mandate that sort of thing, but then again I never understood letting cats roam around outside.


Im not saying whether you should get surgery or not, but when I did work experience when I was 15 (!?) I was in theatre as a patient underwent keyhole gall bladder surgery and honestly it seemed rather anticlimactic what with a whole organ being removed


You need to have a garden to have a cat?


legit i think the same way like i dont understand how the monologue people do that


I think in words, but my emotions aren’t in words, so it’s not like I can actually articulate things that well when it comes to emotion. I have been told o speak well though, so maybe that is related


The running monologue is the WORST. I have to LISTEN to myself CONSTANTLY. I just don't SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPP.

Yeah it's the worst. But I imagine speaking is way easier for me yes.


As someone who has had keyhole surgery, it is terrifying and kinda sucks because like you've gotta move and the air kinda sucks cos it makes you look pregnant. But yeah you've gotta keep moving and it's gonna feel really weird to touch but the keyhole surgery is better than big scars cos the scars are barely noticeable.the only minor thing is they itch. But I think all scars do.

Anyway. Get well soon. Being sick and pain in your chest hella hurts. We love ya xx


What? Get a cat. I thought the best bit about cats is that you DO NOT need a garden? I have 2 indoor cats, in a small apartment and they're fine. Get a cat. :)


Reference to special girl, I hope that was clear


I think this has to do with derealization? Like I think brains that are more prone to derealization are less prone to running in a coherent monologue. I’m grateful for when my brain isn’t providing a coherent monologue though; I think most of my more complex thoughts and emotions can only be processed in that more abstract, subconscious state. It’s a totally different experience of the world then when either a) I’m anxious and I’ve got a super-fast running dialogue of words or b) I’m tired and calm in a fatigued way and my thoughts turn into simple words that are meandering along


i have aphantasia which basically means i can’t physically visualize things. all of my thoughts are just sentences.


I love you dodieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


it's so weird to think people dont have a running monologue? but I am definitely not good at speaking, the words usually dont make much sense but I can definitely also make proper sentences in my mind? idk its weird


Ive had keyhole surgery and you burp and fart it all out!! If you do decide to have it done drink peppermint tea afterwards. Im not going to tell you either way whether to get it thats your choice, but if you do have it I can give you surgery tips. I have a running momologue and trust me its hard haha


wyndham’s novel the chrysalids sounds similar to what u’re tryna write!!!


Okay, so??? I actually have Aphantasia (the not being able to see objects in your mind) and I think in paragraphs and phrases. I have full on conversations in my brain about dumb stuff, to a very frustrating point. I don’t plan essays when writing them, but I am no good at writing either way haha. It’s weird, it kinda freaked me out to learn that people don’t think in sentences and can ‘see’ objects in their minds


3:11 that sounds so good i'm sorry ksgsjsh
3:32 too omg


My cat will go out for approximately three minutes before she gets scared and wants back in, so...


she's singing lyrics again guys, she's up to something <br>hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

she's singing lyrics again guys, she's up to something
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm


What are the cons of getting it removed?


The Amazing Liver Cleanse, Andreas Moritz I've done a bunch of flushes and my pain had subsided...good luck


I think in complete sentences but I still have an awful time speaking coherently and can't write long form at all.


and omg ur thought process makes you such an aries too love u


6:50 I do that I thought it was just meeeeee


My dad got this surgery and he said there was little to no pain. + while the gallbladder does technically help w/ digesting fats, my dad hasn’t made any dietary changes and he’s all good. and the keyhole surgery has a great success rate. I know it’s not my place to tell you what to do w/ ur body but I would go for it! the gallbladder is just a nothing organ like the appendix.


you don't need a garden if the cat is indoor and/or not used to having a garden......what is up with these shelters lol


i have a running monologue but also its like a movie, like i see myself in 3rd person???? idk if im explaining this properly<br>basically rn as i type this my brain is saying what i type and i have an image in my brain of me typing this  but its not pov its from the corner of the room or something aka like im in a movie

i have a running monologue but also its like a movie, like i see myself in 3rd person???? idk if im explaining this properly
basically rn as i type this my brain is saying what i type and i have an image in my brain of me typing this  but its not pov its from the corner of the room or something aka like im in a movie


See no I have an internal monologue but that doesn’t mean I understand my feelings 😂 like my own thoughts will just be like god what’s wrong with me


i hadn't really thought about it until this video but dodies like 7 years older than me damn, saying that sounds so weird


I got my GB out when i was 13 so i completely understand thats truggle xc


I hope it's not serious. A few years ago my wife had terrible abdominal pain after eating. After almost 9 months they found it was a gallbladder issue. They took it off through laparoscopic surgery (keyhole surgery) and it solved the issue.


I'm not a doctor, but before doing drastic stuff like removing your gallbladder, I'd try to experiment with diets. Maybe there is just something you sould not eat. Give it a thought.


i got a keyhole surgery and it’s not bad!! most of the air goes away thru your small wounds that they sew up, but some stays inside and they had me walk around to work it out and dissolve. you kinda get sore shoulders bc the air travels up and you get lil air bubbles. surgery isn’t that scary, it’s kinda cool bc you get to spend a night in a lil room where they give you food whenever you want and TV!


I don’t think in monologues but I also do? In that I don’t but I am always imagining telling someone what I’m thinking about, like a friend or a therapist or a talk show interviewer, because that’s what I do when I like formulate everything? But before that it’s just feelings and then like that’s the step between the feelings and analyzing them or talking I guess?


Why do you need a garden for a cat? They can’t just be an indoor pet?


hmmm my brain is very much a constant monologue, like a scattered, jumpy, fast monologue jumping between 4 ideas at once, because I have ADHD 😬 when I close my eyes I cant really see anything, i can see a vague blurry image of it, and then it goes away, but I could sit and describe to you in words how an apple tastes, what it looks like, how it feels, etc, etc.....I just cant like actually make a crisp picture in my brain.....like right now I can mentally taste an apple, and if you told me a certain type of apple i could describe in detail what it tastes like (ok mind u they're my fav fruit so)


Trust me having a running monologue in my stupid ass brain is NOT easy most of the times I just wish my mind would just shUT UPPP


She’s speaking in melodies again...secret song?


I have sentences in my head but they never make complete sense. I have to translate but I cannot visualize a picture in my head.


hehehehe I have aphantasia, nice. Thats the name for when you cant picture the stuffs in your head


try homeopathy for your stomach it really helps me lol


Okay is she doing ‘the hiding a song in my videos’ thing again cuz I swear when she said ‘so much’ at like 3:33 it sounded like she was singing


Wait, people don’t have a constant monologue in their head?-


I’m sorry if this sounds like a dumb idea, but there could be a organ donation option? It might be expensive or not even exist but it could reduce the risk of having no gall bladder at all? ☹


Get an indoor cat like a ragdoll. Mine is v cute


3:32 sounds like a hidden song lyric, or just me

so does 3:43, that one sounds so so so much like she's singing


When she said bout monologue thing, are we not supost to think in like straight lines of text. In like a monologue as she put it?


I had my gallbladder out 9 years ago. I was 20 and now almost 29. You’ll be fine :) within two weeks I was back to work


Oh my word! This was so nice to watch. :’) I know it won’t be often, but I’ve so dearly missed vlogs like this from dodie. 🥺


I've been really anxious and stressed and I kinda feel like...not here...like super zoned out.  Anyway this made me smile so thank you :)


ahhhh, i miss your videos sm, esp ones like these. it feels like talking w a friend even though no conversation is going on. i hope more videos like this come out soon! i’m looking forward for your response to 20 yr old dodie!!


I've literally missed videos like this so much.  Like I love Dodie's vlogs


I relate to this so much. I have never had a running monologue in my head, it's all just loose thoughts and pictures and emotions. And it's never coherent either. It's so hard to explain too... my mind is never still (mostly because there is always one tab open with music playing).


i had my gallbladder out when i was 18! i had complications after the keyhole surgery, but even with them the recovery went by really quick. i hope you get your pain sorted.


Dodie you are delightful. Thank you for the video! Good luck with everything !


aw i missed your rambling style videos so much! thank you for letting us in on your thoughts dodie ~


I was so happy to see a new video from you and very excited for new music! Sorry you're going through health things. That sounds like a scary decision for sure. I can tell you're worried about comments and criticisms here, so wanted to leave you a positive message saying I think you're great!


I like how you just casually threw in that you wrote a 13 piece score at the end of the video? Girl! Congrats! I’m not really a musician, but that sounds super hard and like you should be really proud!


just so you know your vids from when you were 20 helped me so much when i was 16 (acne, chins, memories, the excitement of becoming a young adult etc) and now i am 20 and SO EXCITED to watch your response to "sear 25 year old me". i haven`t rewatched it since 2016 and ohhhhhhhh wish you luck but also this gives me such a big reason to be excited and overwhelmed. thank you so much for all these years i`ve spent watching you and listening to your music. ahhhhhh


I can't wait to hear your new music ah and I know that whatever choice you make is the one that is best for you ♥♥♥♥ sending much love!


I just had my gallbladder taken out because of gallstones and it’s amazing not to be in pain so much. I can eat the same as I used to with little to no issues, and my recovery wasn’t bad at all. I wish you luck with everything whether you choose to have the surgery or not! 💕


Hey, i got my gallbladder taken out two years ago, at 19, i was absolutely terrified, panick attack scared, but had no option but to get it out and you know what? Doctors are my biggest fear, but man... after all the fuckin pain i suffered for years, the little pain of having like four two or three cms slashes on my stomach was perfectly fine, also the bloating is not as scary, once you wake up, most of it is gone, you feel a little ~gassy~ for like the next week and then you get your stitches removed and your life is so... Normal, other than the fact that you'll have to eat less fats, in general it's the same, minus the...  you know bending down in pain that creeps on you for hours and makes want to pass out just so you can fall asleep and not feel it anymore part, so i would say win win situation. Oh and also, the anesthesia part, i was never too freaked out about that, because i focus my panick on the pain part, BUT, you literally won't notice it, they tell you what you'll feel while they're doing it, and once they put it on you, give it three seconds and next thing you know, the surgery is done. Well i ended up writing way more than intended, but i just wish someone told me nice things when i was freaking out, so dodie if you're reading this, (or anyone that needs it) It'll be fine, is an extremely regular low risk surgery, and if you don't need to have surgery and somehow teach you'll gallbladder to not be a bitch, then that'll be fine too, now that you know what it is, you can fix it :)


I had my kidney removed a year ago through keyhole, and to answer where does the gas go, for me it travelled to my shoulder. The pain from the trapped gas was more painful than the recovery, which was very relatively fast, but they give you lots of loopy drugs and it’s okay. The scars are nice and small from keyhole which is good. You can see mine at @carinabarber no plug 😂 hope you get the pain under control. ❤


Its good you're able to come out and talk about this stuff and it's a good decision 🙂. Sorry I can't really help as I personally don't know what I'd do in those situations, except do what I thought was best for me (so unhelpful 🤦♂). It was really interesting to listen to 🙂


Dodie in this video is basically my inner monologue <br>also Dodie, just wanna let you know i love and cant wait to hear new things!

Dodie in this video is basically my inner monologue
also Dodie, just wanna let you know i love and cant wait to hear new things!


I’ve never related more to someone’s thought process till today wow. I relate to images and movie-like “memories” in my head. And it’s been so weird to me cause I thought every thought like this. Would also explain why I’m such a spazz and thoughts are never steady/consistent and all over the place


God I relate so much to your thoughtsss ughhhhhhh.,,, also lovely video editing ❤ it’s so creative In the minimalistic of ways❤ can’t wait for new music ☺


Also, my brain is REALLY SIMILAR! It's music, pictures, memories, and abstract feelings. In fact, most of my processing is done through daydreaming, like I will imagine myself discussing something with someone else. The only time there's a "voice" in my head is when I'm reading something (but not when I'm writing).


I have inner monologue thoughts and I literally never knew there were so many people who don’t. I can’t imagine what that must be like. But believe me talking it’s easier because the words in my mind move SO DAMN FAST that it comes out so jumbled or with a lot of filler lots of “um”s and “like”s.


This! The internal monologue stuff! so true, I have always thought it so inaccurate that people are depicted to have fully formed sentences in their minds, as usually, mine are just little words that pop up here and there or images for abstract concepts.


Hi just wanted to say you are a lovely human being and I am so glad you exist. This video was a delight through and through :)


Yes, my emotions come out very directly as a person with inner monologue. And so I’m often confused if people need minutes to describe their feelings as they don’t have that inner monologue. :)


I had keyhole surgery a few years ago when I had my appendix taken out and it was honestly the most painless thing ever (not appendicitis- the surgery). Tummy hurt a bit afterwards but I don't have any air still in me (I think) xx


Dodie, you just described my experience with my gallbladder last year. (Including the sobby nights, all the useless trips to A&E and the buckets of paracetamol and antacids - worst few months of my life, honestly.) <br>Chose to do the keyhole surgery and the recovery time is really quite amazing. You feel rubbish for about a week or two. You can only lie on your back at night and it hurts to laugh. But you can feel a real difference every day as you recover. I was on a plane a week later. (I was still taking it verrrry easy, but as a bonafide baby - I was amazed at myself.) It does hurt after surgery. Your shoulder hurts for a short while after, as the balloon inflating air gets trapped (but finally dissolves). but mostly it's a different hurt. I found the gallbladder pain to be a very sickening pain that stretched all over my back and chest, but the surgery pain is located to one spot and gets better in days. And it's amazing how tiny the keyhole scars are. Sorry for the long message. I just remember how frustrated and scared I was. (and also, how I googled keyhole surgery before like an idiot)

Dodie, you just described my experience with my gallbladder last year. (Including the sobby nights, all the useless trips to A&E and the buckets of paracetamol and antacids - worst few months of my life, honestly.)
Chose to do the keyhole surgery and the recovery time is really quite amazing. You feel rubbish for about a week or two. You can only lie on your back at night and it hurts to laugh. But you can feel a real difference every day as you recover. I was on a plane a week later. (I was still taking it verrrry easy, but as a bonafide baby - I was amazed at myself.) It does hurt after surgery. Your shoulder hurts for a short while after, as the balloon inflating air gets trapped (but finally dissolves). but mostly it's a different hurt. I found the gallbladder pain to be a very sickening pain that stretched all over my back and chest, but the surgery pain is located to one spot and gets better in days. And it's amazing how tiny the keyhole scars are. Sorry for the long message. I just remember how frustrated and scared I was. (and also, how I googled keyhole surgery before like an idiot)


My Brain works like your brain, dodie!! When you were describing how your thoughts work and couldn't, but i totally understand what you mean and what it feels like :D you ain't alone girl, my head is just as messy as yours <3


we loooove youuuuuuu <3 youre doin great my man dont worry about this corner of the internet we gotchu :)


why is it that dodie always manages to upload a video talking about literally whatever has been on my mind recently? it freaks me out does she have powers what is this


I have the same thing. Recently found it that it happens when I eat foods that are not whole wheat. It hurts SO MUCH. I think it also has something to do with stress though. Guess I'll never really know...


Omg I had pain like this for two days while on holiday, ended up in hospital and they did think at first that I had a gallbladder infection but eventually after like 8 hours they ruled it out along with appendicitis, they never found out what it was just that my stomach looked inflamed :(


Sometimes my thoughts are a monologue... but there are usually two or three layers. Four or five if I’m thinking about myself or rewriting something. I always have songs in my head... it gets really annoying because that’s usually the top or second layer. It’s second/third right now because I’m focusing on this... but underneath that I have my actual thoughts too. So: right now there’s •1•this •2•audio from this video and around me •3•songs •4•my actual thoughts. Once I finish writing this, the order will change.

Honestly same, except I don’t have a subconscious monologue lol.


Doddle, start a health and anatomy channel, or do more collabs with TomSka, this was gold (despite your gullbladder not being :(  )


I just got my gallbladder removed yesterday and let me tell you, you'll be fine. The surgery isn't that scary and they release most of the gas , the rest of it your body will dissolve. I do recommend having someone there to help you get up thought because you never realize how much you use your core until you have surgery.  Overall it will be worth it because you won't have those pains anymore.


You talked about a internal monologue and for me its like a mix of pictures and videos of memories and my voice talking to my current self (if that makes sense)


Adenomyomatosis
It’s actually not a diagnosis in itself, it’s caused by increased pressure in the gallbladder, probably an obstructing gallstone that you maybe passed out (you mentioned that the pain suddenly went away?) or just dislodged on it’s own (which means they should’ve seen the stone on the ultrasound). The reason why the doctor would suggest removing the gallbladder is that you mentioned that this was a recurrent thing, and complications are a possibility, i.e. the next time it happens, the stone might get stuck even further and then the gallbladder just gets really swollen and really inflammed (which means having to remove the gallbladder anyways).
The gallbladder isn’t the most important of organs anyway, when you think about it, it’s really just a storage vessel for your bile. When you get you gallbladder removed, your bile ducts can dilate as they try to fill in the function of storing bile (though it obviously won’t be as good as an intact gallbladder, it’s still something lol). ‘Tis the beauty of the human body :)


- i really enjoyed this video. missed chattin w u, ive always loved hearing u talk n i still do
- the hospital bit made me laugh esp how doctor dodie said “what the fuck is wrong” hhhh
- idk anything abt science but can they get rid of the lump without takin out ur whole gallbladder???
- if not idk bc on one hand you’ll never have to deal with the Night of Pain again but on the other hand you’ll constantly have to deal with ur new digestive system
- i think in words! it’s not a completely constant monologue, like, sometimes i can just feel without words, and my mind can be quiet (really only when i do mindfulness exercises in therapy and let my thoughts ~float~ by). but yeah for me i literally am like “wow i’m thirsty. gonna get water.” or “ugh i’m so late i gotta go” in my head hhh. my mind almost never stfu,,sometimes it’s bad bc then i overthink when i just need to get off my ass and do something, and then i dont get up to eat or go to class
- u can have a cat without a yard! (or “garden”) my two cats lived in my family’s apartment and we let them go on the balcony, but they never went outside outside
- i’m very very excited for the new music! especially for the new orchestral stuff you’ve been doing
- it was rly nice to see u. i hope you’re doing well <3

- i really enjoyed this video. missed chattin w u, ive always loved hearing u talk n i still do
- the hospital bit made me laugh esp how doctor dodie said “what the fuck is wrong” hhhh
- idk anything abt science but can they get rid of the lump without takin out ur whole gallbladder???
- if not idk bc on one hand you’ll never have to deal with the Night of Pain again but on the other hand you’ll constantly have to deal with ur new digestive system
- i think in words! it’s not a *completely* constant monologue, like, sometimes i can just *feel* without words, and my mind can be quiet (really only when i do mindfulness exercises in therapy and let my thoughts ~float~ by). but yeah for me i literally am like “wow i’m thirsty. gonna get water.” or “ugh i’m so late i gotta go” in my head hhh. my mind almost never stfu,,sometimes it’s bad bc then i overthink when i just need to get off my ass and do something, and then i dont get up to eat or go to class
- u can have a cat without a yard! (or “garden”) my two cats lived in my family’s apartment and we let them go on the balcony, but they never went *outside* outside
- i’m very very excited for the new music! especially for the new orchestral stuff you’ve been doing
- it was rly nice to see u. i hope you’re doing well <3


After my mom had her ovaries removed (for cysts) she just kept saying "my ovaries are in the trash!" starting when she first woke up and she still talks about it lol


dodie. u are so great. i love u. we all do. don't ever forget that.


dude, this was literally me for a good 3-4 years. i had gallstones though. they thought it was my asthma, but then i went to the ER (A&E) for like the 3rd or 4th time that month, and this doctor was like what the heck and did ultrasounds, x-rays, the works. He found the stones and made an appointment with a gastro surgeon. I had been having this pain since i was like 10 or 11. The surgery isn't that bad, the gas they pump into your stomach is the most limiting and painful thing about, dunno how the gas leaves, but you should stop being bloated after a week or so. The 3 incisions don't need any aftercare, just don't submerge them in water for a good week. after a couple days, the pain starts going away and the bloating lessens. if you're worried about dietary modifications, talk with your doctor, i didn't need to make changes, but that may be because i'm 14. i haven't felt the pain in 4 months (longest gap has been 2). good luck with the surgery!!!


My thoughts: im excited for the future im in a stage where change is going to happen and im excited but the thing im scared of is disappoiting  the people I love, disappoiting myself not being good enough, also that the path I choose is not the path for me.
Oh and not being loved by anyone, ive lost someone that truly cared about my (not dead) because of my anxiaty and insecurities and now he is with someone and happy and sometimes im just calm doing groceries or homework and this particular tought pops in my mind the terrible what If
I know that every thing happens for a reason but I tend to live in the past regreting the things I did or that I didnt, the things I said and the things I shut, the people who I pushed away and the ones who left because of the mess I am, but I think that everyone is a mess, just some people hide it better than others.
I dont think you dodie read this Nor anyone because its too freacking long but its good to let it out, im scared of taking this with friends or family bc I dont want to worry them.
But at the end of the day I know im gonna be alright.
We all are:)

"I think that everyone is a mess just some people hide it better than others"<br>My heart's going "aww" I really like this and agree. Virtual hugs to you! The future is scary, I hope yours is fab in every way you'd like it to be.

"I think that everyone is a mess just some people hide it better than others"
My heart's going "aww" I really like this and agree. Virtual hugs to you! The future is scary, I hope yours is fab in every way you'd like it to be.


i went through that gallblader surgery 3 years ago when I was 19
i had lumps in my gallblader since i was about 13, it took a really long time to detect because my doctor at the time didn't believe me when i said i was in pain after every meal

The after operation is weird but managable
on the first week I ate only safe and easy food to digest (no dairy, no fat stuff) but on week 2, i was able to eat cheese again (which is the most difficult thing to digest for me)
It took me about 3 months to understand how my digestion changed and about a year to really identify what food produces what effect on my body
For example, i can eat cheese and really greasy stuff, but not several times a week : i need like 2/3 days in between really fat food
sometimes i have pains like i had before the surgery (like the ones you described), but it's only when i eat a lot like for christmas for example

now, i'm fine most of the time, and the little restrictions i have are way better than feeling that pain everytime i eat

i'm really anxious and i cried before the anesthesia, luckily the nurses were all very reassuring and did a great job at calming me down
i also cried when i woke up, because it doesn't feel like you're sleeping, but more like you closed your eyes for 1 second and then boom you're in another room, and that freaked me out

it's a tough thing to go through, but you can do it

oh and for the gas : they pumped out everything and my tummy was a bit sore for a day, but then i didn't feel anything
it was a long time ago but i think my surgeon told me that the remaining gas was just eliminated naturally by the body  (i don't know if that means farts)

i have 4 really small scars on my belly, about 2/3 cm each, but it's fading out


I think in sentences, when I'm feeling something I can usually name it right away, but then I'm not really good at imagining pictures and my memories are all kinda hazy and blurry, like an old black and white movie.


Don’t get me wrong, I love you music (like sooo much), but it feels so sad that you barely ever post videos anymore. I loved your videos and they helped me through so much. Not just by giving advice, but also by talking about struggles, and not in a romanticizing way. I also felt like I knew you, and I’m not saying you owe me anything, but you feel more distant now. Sometimes I’m not even sure if I understand your songs as well as I used to. Or if I’m even allowed to enjoy your old videos because you’ve distanced yourself from them and grown up. New music and growing up is great and I above anything hope that you’re doing things you love, but I guess what I’d at least like is some sort of explanation of what this channel will be moving forwards so that I have realistic expectations. It can be as personal and detailed as you prefer, and it is up to you whether you even want to make it, but i needed to express this because I honestly feel very confused. So if you see this, please make a video explaining what you see/want for the future career wise and what we can expect. Hope this doesn’t come off rudely or ignorant, that is really not my intention! Lots of love<3


I do have like a distinct voice in my head and a lot of my thoughts are in full sentences, but for some reason that doesn't make it easier to speak, it makes it harder. I always feel like my own thoughts get in the way of my actual words and it takes me a long time to form proper sentences when i'm speaking. Add to that that I think in a different language than the one I speak most of the time and it feels like i need an hour to get through any sentence.


God I missed this shit I love you Dodie!!! 💛


I had gallstones that were SO PAINFUL when I had attacks, and they told me to wait because of these issues, and I ended up with pancreatitis three times and now fears of permanent pancreas damage, which is far more terrifying than the thought of keyhole I promise! I don’t know if adenomymodistwiwjo can lead to that, but sometimes it is truly worth just getting it removed and never having to worry about further horrific complications! I’ve just had it out, it was painful at first but now I am in no pain! There are digestive issues but I had no choice at that point anyway! Hope you get it sorted and are okay!


Hi Dodie!! I had my gallbladder removed via keyhole surgery and it wasn't too bad you just feel a little sore for about a week afterwards and abit bloated  Hope thats a little reassuring :) :)

 I sympathise with you having the horrible gallbladder pain its the worse :( xx


I recently found out that not everyone has an inner monologue at all, that would be a cool extra in the book/story I guess.


My friend recently had her gallbladder removed and she is feeling super fine now. No pain anymore and her body is dealing really great with fat. Maybe this gives you some confidence, probably not but anyways, her surgery went perfectly fine and I hope you have a great doctor who gives you proper advice and helps you. Sending love X


I've had 5 keyhole surgeries, the air is mostly removed before they end the surgery, but there is a fair amount left. It's slowly absorbed by your body and then you do fart it out essentially. You tend to get bad shoulder pain, it's referred pain from the gas by your diaphragm. Saying that, I've had excellent surgeries where it's almost all removed and you're just essentially bloated with some swelling too xxx


DODIE FINALLY I THOUGHT I WAS A WEIRD FREAK WITH ISSUES, I have that exact state of mind too, like I can hear words, they’re just not my thoughts, yanno?


Mine's an internal monologue, but if I focus a little more I can see images.

I always remember being somewhat confused by people who read books saying it was like a movie in their head, because that's not the case for me unless I put effort in.

Our brains are strange objects


My mom got her gallbladder out! It doesnt change anything about how you function, like diet and stuff. It Just hurts for a while, and you have to take things slow. But it’ll be fine! Not a big thing! :)


I know the strange feeling of missing an organ... I got my colon out last year 🤷🏼♀ best decision ever


My brain does both, or maybe all? I have an internal monologue going, but it’s so fast that I’m usually left with the meaning, but not the words. Unless I’m tired, then it slows down to a normal human pace. But then also I get those flashes like Dodie described, and then sometimes my internal monologue translates them. Also, I can picture things. Like when she talked about memories and theoreticals, I can see them playing out like a movie. I didn’t realize that people didn’t have all of this happening in their brain.


Omg I just found out people have an internal monologue too and I was MIND BLOWN like YEA I always thought italicized thoughts in books were an exaggeration


I have a running monologue in my head, I never knew that some people don't have that :'D


Well my Cat has a garden but she doesn't care about the possibility of going outside so there are definently cats out there that don't need a garden so don't worry. Lovely to listen to you again 💕


Good luck Dodie :) There are still people who genuinely care about your well-being on the internet, even amongst the shit-posters. If you need to take extended breaks from internet that's fair enough, but don't let it dampen your creative spirit. That's something too precious to waste. Hope you get better, in terms of the abdominal pain and the general life pain/depression that I think a lot of us are feeling at the moment and have been for a while. You're loved and nothing will stop you being special and valued, no matter what you do with your life. Your family, friends and this friendly portion of the online community will always be there for you, even if it's a para-social relationship, we do truly care regardless.  Hope you can find more time and passion for music, vlogs and videos going forward, I for one appreciate the update. This is one of my favourite channels (any chance of another coallab. with Thomas Sanders :P?) CSTxx


I have had keyhole for my appendix recently. My stomach swelled but I farted it all out. You'll get pain in your shoulders and be quite tender around your stomach but never unbearably. Some rest, tea and good reading material is all you'll need. By two weeks I was well enough to go back to normal life and by a month it was like it never happened.


I have a running inner monologue, which is brilliant for writing essays in a-levels because I can just word vomit into a page, but when I speak it just doesn’t all come out. I know exactly what I want to say and exactly how I mean it and I know exactly how I feel but it just doesn’t come out like I wanted it to in my head🤷♀


sometimes i find it hard to transcript my feelings and whats in my mind and it hurt that i may sometimes cry because of it ..someone know how to that ?!


We have an indoor cat and he’s totally fine. When he’s a bit older and fits his harness properly we’ll take him for adventures in the park. But for now he’s totally chill. He was here for three months before he was brave enough to explore the bathroom so I think if we had a garden for him he’d be terrified haha


I have had the same experience! For two years or so straight I tried my best to ignore it and felt like I could get through it, but GIRL NO GET IT CUT OUT! I did it here in the Netherlands (I’m american) hated the experience, but ITS LIFE CHANGING! The week or so of pain and hell that is 24 hours of surgery are NOTHING compared to the FREEDOM OF LIFE WITHOUT THAT DEVIL ORGAN! Get it out get it out get it out.

But I’ve had issues for 2 years and the pain became nightly.... so maybe I’m like biased haha I was ready to get that thing o u t

Also SO many people have no issues after removal. Maybe for a couple weeks, just introduce foods slowly! I only notice issues if I eat cakes lol... but it’s not bad, just like, oh, feeling a rumble here! Lol


my thoughts are like !!???!!@^@?? all the time, so it's acutally really nice to see someone having the same thing :) as for the surgery: don't listen to the internet (as in your viewers) but to your guts (pun intended). if they tell you 'pleeeaase remove THE ORGAN' than do so - if you're like 'mehhhh i'm not sure about this', than you shouldn't do it, I guess? but i don't know anything about gallbladders too sooo :)))


I definitely can only describe my thoughts as clumps of different feelings and sensations and this becomes slightly bothersome especially when I go to the doctor and all I can say is it feels like pain feeling. So unhelpful but I haven't got words it's a clump of feelings that I can't connect to my vocabulary


here in the US, in my experience, shelters require that you keep your cat indoors for safety... so i find it strange you need a garden in order to have a cat! >:(


i have the weird thoughts in lines of actual sentences(?) thing but i also have crippling anxiety so it's still hard to talk, i assure you


I know it's not likely that you'll see this, but with regards to your fear about getting keyhole surgery to get your gallbladder out, I had it just this summer been because I had 5 1cm gallstones (at 22 somehow!) and it is really not nearly so bad as you might first think.

They do fill you with air a bit, but they do also deflate you after. You will feel bloated and gross after, and there are kind of like- gas bubbles- but they get slowly absorbed by your body over the next couple of weeks, and it's all okay. They just get absorbed by like- your body tissue and it's all okay. It's so much better to be able to live without the pain and exhaustion an inflamed gallbladder can give.

I should also add that I'm one of the lucky people (this is the more common outcome, but it isn't the same for everyone of course) that can eat pretty much however I like post having surgery. I've had no digestive changes since surgery, and it's been great tbhhh.


My thoughts weirdly come to my mind with punctuation and all rules we have on portuguese (too much). i think it's probably because i'm constantly writing and reading and i'm studying languages in college, so it's a huge part of my life (as you said, usually there are lyrics and melody in your mind).

But really, sometimes my thoughts just go like: "today i'm going to college (comma) then i'll write some fanfiction (comma) and maybe cook something nice (dot). insane!


Dodie's video titles are so much better than any other work of literature.

Don't @ me.


There’s a concept in cognitive psychology called metacognition. Looking it up might help you understand and control your thoughts.


my mind does the running monologue sometimes and the thoughts that are hard to describe sometimes and i don't like the monologue. when my mind switches to the monologue it's hard to switch it back.<br>i'm happier and i feel more like myself when i don't have the monologue.

my mind does the running monologue sometimes and the thoughts that are hard to describe sometimes and i don't like the monologue. when my mind switches to the monologue it's hard to switch it back.
i'm happier and i feel more like myself when i don't have the monologue.


Medical student here. Listen to your doctor and try to find the best solution for you by discussing with them. People on the internet will have a million different opinions, but no insight to the specifics of your situation (and the specifics are oh so important). Hope you get well and get a kitty xo


this video is basically what my thoughts are like - just a constant stream of words and sentences that can mean nothing or everything


Ironically I had a dream of being put under and I control the music with my own thought.


Ohhhhh hunni, having a constant monologue doesn’t make it easy to speak at ALL!!! I find it’s the opposite actually.
There are SOOOOOOO many thoughts happening all at once (it’s like having 100 movies playing in your head at the same time) that trying to sort through them all to figure out which train of thought relates to what, is sooooooo tiring!!
Most of the time I cant figure out which words to say to whom about what, sometimes I assume I’ve said a bunch of stuff out loud but I haven’t and the person I’m speaking to can’t follow where I’m up to at all.

You know that thing where you say two words at once!? Imagine that x a thousand.


My mum had her gallbladder out with keyhole, now she lactose intolerant, I'm not sure its connect, basically she had gallstones which kinda suck. But like she's good now yay. Hope everything goes OK with you. Btw you the best x


dodes i honestly think you should write a song about cats. what’s stopping you?!


i have conscious monologues sometimes, pretty often but not all the time, but i think most of the time my brain is playing a scene, like in a film, or is just rambling through random words, tunes and images


I suffered with this pain for 6 years. What you are describing is exactly what I had. Anyway, fast forward 5 years after having my gallbladder removed and after 3 weeks recovery from the operation there has been no pain! I would highly recommend it and I would Never want to go back to that pain - it was worse than childbirth! So my advice is don't overthink the operation. Get your friends, or even better mum around you to support  you afterwards (take it really easy for a few weeks) and as for being knocked out it is like having the best sleep ever. I have had a general 3 times now and it's like new beginnings. So be brave and go for it. Otherwise that pesky little  problem will stay around causing you randomly unexpected pain forever. That is a long time.


Ok. So I don’t exactly have a running monologue of thoughts, but I can think certain sounds if that makes sense. If I’m really thinking about thinking (like when I’m writing or typing something), I can think in words, but in everyday life I don’t think in words. I think in feelings, pictures, and memories like you do. If I try to do it, I can “hear” different sounds in my head, such as a specific song that I’m trying to remember, or a laugh, or the sound of a flute. It’s basically my subconscious memory taking a memory of that sound and placing it in my conscious thoughts. But something weird is that I can think up words and then, on purpose, put them together in a sentence. Then I can almost make my brain “act”, so I can turn my thought into something being spoken by someone with a German accent, or a girl in a cheesy toy commercial. It doesn’t really make any sense, because if they are my own words thought up on the spot, how am I able to link them together in a specific voice without it being a memory? It’s really weird. I believe that everyone thinks in their own unique ways, depending on their own memories and personalities. Ok I’m done rambling lol

Edit: I’m not done haha, it’s been a couple days since I wrote this and I’ve really been thinking about the way that I process things. I’ve discovered that I actually do have a running monologue of thoughts, but if I were to try and write them down it would be impossible, since my brain moves a lot faster than I talk and even faster than I can write or type.


Also with the running monologue, I’m literally just speaking like normal in my head. And I say every sentence I’m about to say in my head first, unless I’m drunk lol and then i don’t. It’s crazy that you don’t have that, how do you tell if your tipsy? Wow crazy, everyone please share their thoughts I’m interested

Ok no ones shared yet, but I’ll elaborate on the monologue thing. Basically if I’m about to ask the teacher for something in my head I’ll say ‘sir can I have help’ and then literally immediately after I’ll say it out loud, but sometimes in my head I’ll say like ‘dad can I have help’ and I’ll actually freak out just as much as I would if I had said it out loud, that’s how real it is to me. I can’t really hear it because it’s actually basically me speaking. But as I said if I’m tipsy, I’ll just start to think about what I’m about to say before I let it out and most of the time in my head I’m like thinking very clearly but my ‘outside voice’ isn’t cooperating and says what ever it wants haha.


Your makeup looks so good! Any chance of an updated GWRM/Makeup video?


I have a running monologue but struggle to speak well as I my thoughts run faster than my mouth ever possibly could 😂


i missed u talking to us in the videos so much🥺 i will love it if u talk about loterally anything


So nice to have a dodie vid after a while BUT I found it super hard to focus on since I didn't see your eyes most of the time bc of the reflection on your glasses?? Didn't realise that such a small thing affects me so much 😅


I had abdominal surgery a while ago and they blew my belly up. After the surgery I had THE WORST pain in my shoulders and I didn't know why, but the nurse said it's normal and it's the air trapped in my abdomen disapating around the body. It just finds any nook and cranny it can to move to and it really fucking hurts but it does go away.


My mom had her gallbladder removed and it litterally saved her life


when dodie went "mah muh meh meeehh mer mm *sip*" I felt that.


if you’re gonna proceed with taking it out please consider doing it privately ! they usually help/ get it done soon. otherwise it’s a long painful process!! x


I can switch the Apple between all the different ways you can see it.

Edit: I have a running monologue and it doesn’t make me any less inarticulate lmao
It’s just consistent white noise in my brain really


I had keyhole surgery and they try to squeeze all of the air out. The little bits of air that they don't get out just rises to your shoulders and neck, which can be painful for a couple days but your body absorbs it relatively quickly


This whole thing of the running monologue vs more abstract thoughts is so confusing to me because I experience both? Depending on how I’m thinking? Like day to day when I’m more on like an auto pilot my thoughts are more like feelings and other things rather than words. But when I’m more alone with my thoughts they are a running monologue? Never realised that other people experience one or the other.


hey dodie, things with your physical health will get better, I promise. I'm struggling with ulcerative colitis and one day getting my large intestine removed will be an option. Bodies are weird and scary but it gets easier to get along with your body as time goes on. you've got this! <3


first a disclaimer: i am not a doctor but i am someone who has had their gallbladder removed. i had stones rather than what you have but the internet claims the symptoms are similar. this is just my personal experience. but please listen to your doctor and not a stranger on the internet.

a. the keyhole thing is really not bad. i am assuming they remove the air when they are done though i was bloated for a few days post surgery.
b. my diet was much more affected by having the gallbladder than they are now. essentially before surgery it got down to 1g of fat i could consume  before extreme pain struck. this was hard and i was miserable but i mean it was only 6 months but believe me i was so ready to get it out.
my post surgery diet is the same as it was pre gallstones. the only thing is if i eat a ton of fried foods my stomach (or i guess my liver?) will be mad.

if you are worried about diet changes the best thing would be to get it removed. but again chat with the doctor and listen to them.


I can’t see an apple, I can’t see anything :( I can dream though, so sometimes I get really confused between life and dreams


At first I read the title as "I dont like cats" and I was like who are you and what have you done with dodie


I have a running monologue in my brain, and genuinely didn’t know that that wasn’t,,, the norm,,? Like I’ve never thought other people don’t have that?? Like my brain would go “really need a drink, i should get a drink, okay going for drink now” ?? But i also see clear pictures of things? The brain is so weird


After watching the phantom of the opera twice all I can hear in my head is the music


Hey if you're having a hard time adopting a cat from a foster agency (they can be really demanding, they refused my family a new dog when at this point we've had a total of 5) try a public animal shelter! They just want people to take the animals. Especially kill shelters. Idk if they have those in the UK, but they're all over the place in America.


i definitely think in running sentences, but now ive started to wonder if i can ever stop and i don't think i can aaaaaaa help


Dear Dodie, the air comes out of your shoulders. If you need an explanation, I had the surgery, it hurts like hell when the air comes out. Feels like your shoulder has brain freeze. But it’s over quickly. It is not worse in the long term than the gallbladder pain.

9/10 would recommend the surgery.

I know it’s a terrible choice to have surgery. But I do not regret it.


So, when I was younger I used to think that if something was sad I would dislike the video to show that I didn’t support that sad thing.  I still feel bad for it because I probably disliked a video of a sick puppy.  Anyways, love the new video!


Omg I legit think in a running monologue I didn’t realise other people don’t


If you went to the evening performance of Dear Evan Hansen, I was also there!!! It was so good!!!!!!!


I don't have a constant internal monologue but Its more of a conversation with myself and my thoughts are still confusing


2:16 has strong stevie boebi vibes I love it


i have a running monologue in my head that wont shut up but most of it is bullshit, or like very incoherent, jumping between topics like an acrobat. but its also why i talk to myself a lot because i just say what my brain is currently yelling at me


The air is almost all let out the wound tract after the surgery is done. The tiny amount left trapped in there is naturally dissolved into the body and blood stream where you breath it out with your breath.


Wait... Other people don't think in dialogues? That is so wierd. I can't even imagine what that's like.


My mum doesn’t have a gall bladder and she is genuinely fine.<br> She just avoids fatty foods and her metabolism is slower. The surgery was one of the best she had as well because of it being key hole.

My mum doesn’t have a gall bladder and she is genuinely fine.
 She just avoids fatty foods and her metabolism is slower. The surgery was one of the best she had as well because of it being key hole.


I have a running monolouge and if it doesnt come out of my mouth then i have to repeat it over and over and over again


try looking a facebook for local vets, they often post stray cats; you can offer them a home and most of the time they dont ask for a garden. I'm an animal behaviourist and have 3 indoor cats, they dont go outside at all! As long as they have lots of enrichment, they will be happy!


Right as a chronically ill 20 year old who has been knocked out by the NHS many times for various procedures and surgeries, I promise it’s not as scary as you think! Easier said than done I know, and if I could I’d happily accompany you to the anaesthesia room/theatre and hold your hand 😂 I think the most important thing is that you ask as many questions as you can to your surgeon so you know exactly what’s happening if you do go ahead with it. I have a massive fear of the unknown so it definitely helps me stay calm when I have to have things done. Also cats are awesome and my cat gives you virtual cuddles 🐱 all the love 💛


Is she singing? Or just entertaining herself with odd speaking? Who knows? Dodie, dodie knows and I want to too


Is it just me or does it sound like she’s singing again? Like Arms Unfolding. Or maybe this is just me getting my hopes up


Woah that's weird. I sometimes feel like I dont have thoughts but at the same time I'm lost in my mind 24/h??? Its usually just visualls or music and when i realize i dont here words i start talking to myself in my head but it feels like its someone else talking or me in a fake scenario. Everyday i imagine myself somewhere else and i talk in my mind to someone that doesnt really exist?? Or sometimes i feel like my thoughts are just emotions portrated with abstract visualls and tones, its just a big mess of everything at once


I'm not about to tell you if you should or should not get the surgery, I feel like that would be a bit disingenuous lol. If it helps, though, my mum got her gallbladder out decades ago (cause when she was pregnant with my brother he kept kicking her and damaged it) and she has gone on to be an incredibly strong and healthy individual. <br>(Also happy early birthday! Welcome to the quarter century club lol)

I'm not about to tell you if you should or should not get the surgery, I feel like that would be a bit disingenuous lol. If it helps, though, my mum got her gallbladder out decades ago (cause when she was pregnant with my brother he kept kicking her and damaged it) and she has gone on to be an incredibly strong and healthy individual.
(Also happy early birthday! Welcome to the quarter century club lol)


I've missed your little youtube corner sooo much!


i know you wont read this but when you were talking about thoughts i realise that i'm exactly the opposite??? i have a constant interior monologue that seemingly never stops but when i actually try to say things and express my thoughts they never come out coherently, especially if i think and try to process it properly??? i just sorta stutter and make strange noises and entirely a mess. my words only ever seem to translate well in writing because every ounce of meaning is there while in comparison when i try to verbally express myself it comes out in very discombobulated ways and all sorts of directions. idk just some word vomit into a comment okay have a nice dayyyyy :)


i will say, doctor dodie be hitting different... that was a Look(TM)


7:03 okay, this needs explaining
i think i have an inner monologue?? and it does NOT make it easier to form a goddamn coherent sentence in real life. maybe it's because i'm autistic and it's like there's this permanent wall between what i think and i say, but nope, it's not easy at all


5:38 'how does your brain kNOw' maybe we've all gone cray but I swear she sang know


i kind of.. don't believe that not everyone has a constant monologue going on? do you know what i mean.. like i do believe it but i don't because i'm always talking to myself in my head, like always always


I don't know how many people have a full running monologue. Sometimes I do, but that usually means I'm having a really awesome creative moment that I need to capture immediately or more often, it means that I am ruminating because I have depression. Typically, though, my thoughts are a collection of words, phrases, song fragments, images, and raw emotion that I can force into words if I want. I thought that's how most people think, but maybe not, and maybe that's why I can't always articulate myself as fluidly as most people.


I feel like most people don't constantly have a running monologue? Like some people never hear their thoughts? And some of us do sometimes?


Look on Cat Rescue UK Facebook page, there's lots of people having to give away their indoor cats because of personal circumstances, I'd recommend it over animal shelters


you don't have a constant inner dialogue? i've been thinking about tis a lot recently and its insane to think that people don’t have a constant inner dialogue


Mind reading is about intention, empathy, and mutual memories, like stories or films you’ve both happened to watch, or experiences you’ve both been through. If they’re thinking about something, you’ll start to think about those things subconsciously. You can keep following the feeling in your gut if you want to actually try mind reading. But yeah, it’s impossible to straight up read someone’s mind because of the nature of thought lol. It’s so cool.


I am one of those people who think in sentences and let me tell you it is NOT easy to talk for me! In my mind my sentences are coherent and make sense and when I try to speak it never comes out the way I thought it. When I speak my sentences are much shorter and sometimes somehow lose the meaning my thoughts had before, so I often don't say what I really meant or sometimes don't even make sense at all. So yeah.


Your body will absorb the air they pump into you. Lots of people will have gas pain for 24-72 hours after as their body absorbs it. Walking and movement help your body absorb the gas quicker so the docs I work with usually recommend moving as much as you’re allowed to help alleviate the gas pain.


i have a running monologue in my head always and I'm absolutely horrible at talking and socialising


My mind is mostly graphical, rarely I think in words or sounds or whatevs.

I can perfectly visualize and imagine things in an imaginary space, and make them transform and shift into realistic or abstract things.
That's why in most of math-related, or better geometry-related, things I was good, 'cause I could imagine shapes and transformations pretty well, and link them to memorized formulas.
But I think I'm more a creative, and so artistic, mind than a logical math guy, I always was a dreamer and fantasize about things rather than be an academic persona...

Forgot to add that I'm a very thoughtful person, and discuss with myself pretty often to clarify my positions on things that are going on around me.<br>I usually appear silent and one that minds his own buisness just because I tend to discuss ONLY with myself, to have a coherent and solid opinion when in future that could help me in a convo. But most of the time, that doesn't happen  'cause it reveals to be a one-time thing people talked about and never ever took in consideration again... so there's that.

Forgot to add that I'm a very thoughtful person, and discuss with myself pretty often to clarify my positions on things that are going on around me.
I usually appear silent and one that minds his own buisness just because I tend to discuss ONLY with myself, to have a coherent and solid opinion when in future that could help me in a convo. But most of the time, that doesn't happen  'cause it reveals to be a one-time thing people talked about and never ever took in consideration again... so there's that.


I'm not sure if you already know this, you probably do so sorry if I'm telling you something you know lol but! If you're worried about freaking out for the anaesthetic, they can and will offer you a pre-med which basically makes you super chill and not stressed. I had an op in november, they gave me a pre-med, and I ended up dabbing the entire way down to the operating room, so I will recommend lol


yeah i can only think words when i make myself think them


OH GOD I MISSED THIS TOO MUCH WHAT THE FUC


hi i'm the girl from twitter who had her gallbladder out last monday! so as far as the gas goes they pump out as much as they can and what's left you can't even see you don't look ballooney at all. the small amount that's left goes up to your shoulders while your body like absorbs and dissolves it i think? idk i'm not good at body stuff haha, but the pain from the gas that's leftover doesn't cause pain that's too bad it only lasted like maybe three days and it went away with a heating pad!


Dodie are you doing another one of those hiding a song in your videos tings ?


If you wanna find a cat try gumtree that’s where I got my kittens


My thoughts go in all different directions like that but it’s like words. So there’s just a lot of words flying around


There is inside cats, right? My cat is inside all winter and would probably be fine being inside in the summer too.


Please tell me your string orchestra has more than one bass. I play upright bass. Bassists, at least from my experience, are pack animals.


i sort of go between running monologue n what dodie described so it’s like doing it with the odd word thrown in there but the word probably doesn’t rlly go with the actions idk actually


Like I have a running monologue thing in my brain. But like, I am TERRIBLE at speaking. Like. my mind completely is coherent and is like "Yeah, say it, ya got this." And I try, the words are just word vomit. It's great.<br>As for the gallbladder ;w; I dunno. That sounds scary. You got this though! <3 we love you!

Like I have a running monologue thing in my brain. But like, I am TERRIBLE at speaking. Like. my mind completely is coherent and is like "Yeah, say it, ya got this." And I try, the words are just word vomit. It's great.
As for the gallbladder ;w; I dunno. That sounds scary. You got this though! <3 we love you!


3:31 , 3:43 and 9:06
Dodie, are you hiding another song in your videos?

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i kinda have a running monologue/ kinda dont. typically its just a jumble of thoughts and emotions and feelings and words but ig i do have a monologue sometimes. Maybe? Idk? who knows


Instead of adopting a cat, can you adopt me???

Question mark?


i had my appendix removed last month! was terrible but not unbearable


my mum had hers removed and I dont think she changed her diet and she doesn't miss it. Its a fairly small organ


Why would you need a yard to have a cat? What? I have 6 cats. I only ever let two outside because the person I got them from kept them outside WHEN IT WAS WAY TOO HOT FOR THEM (which is why he got rid of them). The rest of my cats would probably get lost or run out in the street or something scary. I don't know. They're all happy and fine without a yard.


Mhmm my running monolog just throws me for a loop, I really bug myself with my own voice. Like just stfu brain and be silent.


i thought you meant a physical apple in your brain


im really confused because in every like movie thing I watch, people think about what their going to say before they say it and what they're going to write before they write it? so are you telling me in the only one that can talk to myself in my head if i really wanted to to say full sentences in my head or am i thinking about a different kind of thinking that's different? I cant imagine things either, the red apple doesn't show in my head, it takes immense concentration to make even any sort of cohearant shape in my head. Im so confused rn bro

I mean seriously how do people read? HOW DO YOU READ A BOOK WITHOUT HAVING THE WORDS PALY IN YOUR HEAD?

To clarify? HOW DO YALL <i>READ</i> WITHOUT A RUNNING MONOLOGUE IN MY HEAD. IM SO FUCKING CONFUSED BRO BECAUSE WHEN I READ I CAN READ IT IN MY HEAD? WTF

To clarify? HOW DO YALL _READ_ WITHOUT A RUNNING MONOLOGUE IN MY HEAD. IM SO FUCKING CONFUSED BRO BECAUSE WHEN I READ I CAN READ IT IN MY HEAD? WTF


Yknow what, if you wait, then the older you get the worse you’ll get and the harder it’ll be for you to heal yourself after surgery. If you want it, get it as soon as you can. It, might not be as bad as you think and will probably be able to live almost normally.


I have a monologue... because of social anxiety✌


So the thing for me is that while it should he easy to talk i would say my running train of thought is way faster than like how I can speak and ALSO I have like probably 5 or 6 different like streams of thoughts at one time so I'll have like a song and like a vague aaaahhhhhh and like all that but it's all words


wait, why do u need a garden for the cats???


Hello I have an internal monologue and I am genuinely incapable of talking. Also if I try to think of it I can only think about thinking about it


I have a running monologue I think, but it goes over all of the other shit.


3:43 Dodies hiding another song in her vids I'm calling it right now


This was a trip because my inner monologue like had the conversation with u real time about inner monologues and that was WEIRD


film score ??? WOW LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT


Why do cats need a garden? I live in the US and my cats are not allowed to go outside! We got them as feral kittens so if we let them outside they would probably not come back! Also there's a bunch of stray cats in my neighborhood so it would be dangerous! Weird!


But why do your cats need gardens??  I'm literally not allowed to let my cat outside where I am, it's illegal. Cats have to be indoor for us - but you can buy cat grass plants, surely that's all you need?


I have a running dialogue in my head but trying to just right it down wouldnt work I dont think.even though im sort of doing it nooow.its just wrighting like its no longer just a thought in your head. You would be concentrating on what your wrighting amd there for write about that.


I learnt from this video that I have aphantasia as I can't visualise the apple


dodie you dont have an inner monologue? what?


Hi, were did you get your glasses, or what brand are they?


Please do a makeup video and fashion I love your fashion Sense


DUDE THAT'S ACID REFLUX!!! TAKE PRILOSEC EVERY DAY FOR 7 DAYS AND SEE IF THAT HELPS! LEGIT FEEL THE EXACT SAME WAY I GOTCHU FAM!

oh nvm u don't have acid reflux I should really watch the whole video........

and those awkward "pain is gone now oops" hospital visits have happened to me twice now so I totally understand