I truly missed you in the scene, true the fandom isn’t spotlighted but I still feel myself pulled to ponies to this day and I don’t know if I’ll ever truly stop
This fandom changed me so much, and I will never be able to leave it. It's an absolutely beautiful fandom, and I look forward to where we're going in the future.
Holy shit dude... That description hit me s fucking hard. I think I needed to see that, and I'm sure so many others as well. Best of luck with the jaw, man, and in the mean time, I look forward to the previously unreleased content. Regardless of if I upload pony content anymore or not (which has been the latter for the past few years), I'll always come back to watch your videos. Just because it's pony related doesn't mean shit when it's the man who took the time to refine my own music through google hangouts all those years ago. Those are precious memories I could never forget, and yeah, you're right, have shaped me to be a better person overall. Just as the show made me a brighter, more bubbly person overall to be around in my daily life. And I think that second part IS something I've forgotten about. So thank you for the reminder. Best of luck with your life and your health, whatever that entails. And no mater what, I will always be there to support your music. Always.
I was never horse famous. My biggest contribution to the fandom was that I beta’d My Little Dashie and “The Piano Man” and some of “Sweeties Mansion” that never got posted.
But I remember. A third of my subscriptions are MLP channels that have since been defunct or rebranded. I remember my one cringe class presentation on the brony fandom. I remember the music I still half know by heart, the tunes I whistle under my breath when I’m working or alone. Probably on my old laptop are the first three Brony for change music folders that I donated to get.
It was a special time. And it hurt to end. To have friends who just stopped logging on, artists and writers who never posted a new work. Drama and internet arguing souring emotions towards the fandom. It was easier to shut the door on all of it and step away instead of follow a fandom that hurt my heart with the bitter sweet memories.
And the fandom helped me to accept what came next. New friendships, deeper ones, meaningful ones. I wouldn’t have have as accepting and open as I was without Bronies.
So to... heh... to everypony reading this. Fans new and old, artists, writers, people.
Thank you. I had no idea what was possible with community and friendship. And because you shared it with me, I was able to carry it and share it. Thank you. May we meet again someday.
Infinite likes to your comment!! True bronies like you, who keep spreading the values of the show, are showing me that I'm not alone in still believing in the brony spirit (and using "everypony" all the time!) I can relate to what you wrote in your comment so much, especially the "Drama and internet arguing souring emotions towards the fandom" part. I still won't shut the door despite all the painful reminders and I'm still very involved in the community to this day, but it IS hard to keep going. But just like Rhyme and his song, fellow bronies like you and comments like these are reminding me that I'm not alone and we are strong together <3 *hugs you* Read my comment if you want for more details, but yeah I can totally get what you're saying and I'm loving your own message in response to this song <3 <3 <3 Much love! Keep spreading the brony spirit!! Brohoof as well /)
That's one hell of a description and an amazing song. It really brings me back through the years. Nowadays I don't check in on pony as often as I used to. The most pony I do nowadays is wear my Sunset Shimmer hoodie and even then, on cold days it's usually covered by a coat and hot days, left at home. As for content creation, I used to make pony memes and even hosted a podcast, but as old friends drifted away and disappeared and times changed, I guess I loosened my grip on everything pony and after that, life just took over. Heck, I hardly even use this account anymore as I've pretty much moved to my gaming one for everything. Only using this one here to pay respects. My avatar however at least remains the same across all channels, with my signature Vinyl Scratch hoodie that I still have to this day included in it and will never change.
Honestly nowadays, pony still remains in my mind just as it has through the nearly decade that I've been in the fandom. I still miss all the old friends in the fandom I used to have as it's the only reason I ever even had friends to begin with. Even if all the old is gone, I'm grateful that pony gave me my current best friend who is my only IRL friend that I keep in contact with as well as my fiance. Every now and then I miss making pony videos, and honestly if I felt my gaming channel didn't take up what little creativity time I have, I'd probably still make a few here and there. Maybe I'll make it a goal this year to make something once again.
I guess in the end, I'll say that the fandom and the show are the best things to have happened to me in my life and while I'm not connected with it as I used to be, I'll never truly let go. And I hope that all of my old friends, whether they still remain in the fandom or retired to other things in life, are doing well. So thanks for coming back and releasing another great tune.
@Rhyme Flow I didn't see this- my heart hurts lol I listened to as much of her stuff as I could, what a wonderful, truly beautiful voice. I'm glad she's living well, wishing nothing but the best for her.
This music vid is absolutely lit i love it, amazing work!!!
I totally understand, this fandom is so amazing and it changed the lives of so many people, in fact i can't imagine what the world would be like without the mlp fandom or where everyone in it would be without it, for the mlp fandom isn't just a fandom it's a way of life!!!
If nothing else, the fandom gave me my online handle of Magical Trevor, lol. I still have friends who are bronies, and they're either on the fence or looking forward to what the next generation might hold for lore and the like. It definitely affected me, as I never would have been so outgoing or vocal online if not for the start of the fandom. May 21st of 2011, that's when I watched the first episode because tsitra360 wouldn't stop bugging me to watch the first episode. The rest is history. I don't bother trying to hide the past anyway, because it's the future we should focus on. So long as you're a better person tomorrow than you were today, that's a victory to be celebrated.
What a description, damn. I've been listening to a lot of your musics recently, and I love what you do, so here's hoping for more! I don't know what happened to you, but hopefully your jaw heals well <3
@Rhyme Flow I'm quite new to the fandom, been there for just a year now, so I'm still discovering new things everyday; and I gotta say, pretty much every song of yours I hear is a real banger; your ability to rap is insane, and I love your flow (no pun intended xd) ^-^
I certainly am enjoying your work, in fact I love trying to rap along with you :D I think "Apples of my eye" is my favorite one, but "On Hold" is by far the hardest one for me, I don't know how you manage to articulate soo much towards the end there xD (Tho the fact that my native language isn't english probably doesn't help me :p)
And finding out that you can both rap AND sing was also a crazy surprise ^^
Oh wow... Such a very meaningful song, spreading deep and heartfelt messages with that description, and I appreciate it so much and what you did with this... This is all so relatable even though the song isn't targeted at me, and I second you there. I'm still very much involved in the community to this day even after 7 years (with managing EQD's music section, Horse Music Herald, Cider Party... and simply checking out all the daily releases in pony music/art/PMVs), and for me spreading the brony spirit and affirming myself as a brony is second nature. But with some stuff that happened, some memories and emotions turned bittersweet and sour like cnakamur said in their comment, it sucks so much, and it IS hard to keep going despite all the painful reminders... I, as well, understand why some people left. It's getting harder to believe in the brony values I believed in ever since I found out about the community. But I will keep believing, and I will keep using "everypony" all the time even though I'm about the only one who still does it... Because every now and then, I get reminded that I'm not alone, and there are people like you releasing songs like these and writing such descriptions. On behalf of all the bronies, thank you for this. I hope that your message will spread wide and some people who "grew out" from the community like you said will hear your message and perhaps realize that about the community helping them and shaping them, and that they should be thankful for it, and nice to bronies who still stay involved in the community. Even if we are fewer... as long as we bronies remain together, we will be fine <3 *hugs you* I'll do my best to spread the word about this song. About the music in itself, I absolutely love that vocal part from Feather too, it's so catchy too. And those lyrics are carrying the message of the song so well... Really touching and emotional. Let us wish the best to all those who left, and carry on ponying on :) Stay brony, friend! I'm with you <3 Much love <3 PS: Almost forgot to comment about that, I hope your jaw will be better and that you'll be able to sing again <3 Don't lose hope <3
@Rhyme Flow AWWW <3 <3 <3 Thank you for such an in-depth and wonderful reply ^.^ I'm truly glad to know you and to have been (and continue to be) able to comment on your songs to express my gratitude and love and even interact with you like this. Comments sections are really a wonderful thing, a way to share positive emotions, love, and gratitude spirals like these <3 I edited my comment btw. And, of course I will stick around!! Stay awesome <3
Wow. This really takes me back when I was listening to some of your tracks while working on a construction site, welding stuff and carrying stuff and more. It's funny, cause it was prohibited (still is) to use the headphones while working, but I had that welder helmet that would cover my ears, so no one would notice, and I could tell those buysumappuls HSE officers to buck off and let me work. Anyway, it feels so good to know that somebody's still taking it as close to heart as I do. You be well there, buddy.
The time I look back most fondly in my life. Being part of a community of artists who have yet to be outdone, I've never felt that welcomed anywhere else. Can't believe it's been so long.
@Rhyme Flow You too my man. I wish you only the best, no matter what comes next. Your music has been with me since then and it will be in the future. My gratitude will do the same for you.
Love the song. This fandom had a big impact on my life as well. The show may be over and I may have moved on, but I am thankful for what it gave me. I hope you get better.
I will never leave the Brony fandom, it is too much for me. 😢 I do not have any friends since childhood and my girlfriend left me 1 year ago, plus I think that I am the only Romanian brony who likes the show so much, the rest of Romanian people doesn't like it they hate it or didn't heard of it. If I weren't a Brony now, I would probably do something bad without any friends, without anything just feeling depressed all of my life... 😭 But the Brony fandom really changed my life, I made some great brony friends to talk to, to help me get through the problems as well as I help them with everything as best as l can and some brony friends that l do really care about. I also want to learn (I almost learned) how to make a poster in SFM (Source Filmmaker), they really likes it what l do with the SFM, even if I am new to this.
In conclusion, l am a brony since 2016 and I will NEVER leave the brony community for changing my life, for bringing these 4 years of joy, happiness and finally trying to make some great friends that l really care about! 🙏 (Btw, hope l wrote everything correctly...)
Heya buddy ♥️ /). A lot happened in my life and I just wanted to grow stronger so when I do come back I'll be a better person so I can provide more love for this community that took me in when I was at a rough spot in my life. Even when I'm gone I'll still be here ♥️♥️♥️
Consarn it... as if I didn't have enough reasons to continue working on my pony game... fandom is as fandom does, and now I have to DO something about it!
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It hurts. Unlike many, I was never trepidatious or embarrassed about pony back then. I'm a moody person by nature, and prone to anxiety. Yet I desperately yearn to be free of my dark jaded mood and just be joyful without fear. Pony allowed me that. I don't know why, but I was in the right mental place at the right time, back then on January 28, 2012 when I watched the first episode. I didn't flinch. I didn't cringe. I didn't even do that thing I often do in movies where I pause it to psyche myself up for an embarrassing moment a character is about to have. It was just me, and I was feeling completely open to it. I watched the intro and it was a thrill, just openly taking in the kind of thing I'd never given a chance - femininity, girliness, whatever you want to call it. I sat quietly and I allowed it to teach me. What a good female character was. Another perspective. And I can't tell you how much of a rush of freedom it was. Freedom from the soul-crushing cage of my own mind trying to protect me from embarrassment and anxiety. Don't say anything. Don't go anywhere. Don't be joyful, you look like an idiot and will be humiliated.
Bronies were like brilliant uninhibited bursts of light and color. No shackles, no fear, not ashamed. An explosion of beauty like flowers do, not humans afraid and small. We filled our world with joy, heedless, trying anything, expressing ourselves fully. Now we cringe. Now we feel shame. The clamps have slammed down twice as hard as they had before. It HURTS. It hurts as much as it felt like magic back then. It hurts because I'm not even certain I gained anything from it. I'm not at all certain I'm in a better place after than I was before. It made me buy a decent mic and start making music again, but I never managed to really parlay it into anything. I had an absolutely wonderful year or two, and I suppose that's something, but if I had known how painful it would be, I may well have stayed away.
I haven't been able to let it go. Hearing it described it as "cringe" is mortifying and crushing to me. I thought I was escaping anxiety, but now I've created yet more reason to be. It feels cruel. I'm desperate to get away from the pain, but I feel unable to have closure. I still read a couple of comics which I'm perfectly comfortable with, but at the same I just want to run and escape it. But I've filled my world with it, my videos, my commentary. I wish I understood what it all meant and what, if anything, it's done for me. The idea that it was a stupid thing that I grew out of, I find it impossible to deal with that idea emotionally. Are things really so cruel that the happiest and freest I've felt was simply a trick, a false thing? I feel I can't ever be that open again, but I don't believe that to be a good thing. I just can't accept that our destiny is to be grey, and to accept that fate and reject the "childish" uninhibited love is to be respectable and mature. I can't deal with that future.
I 100% second Rhyme's reply and give infinte likes to it!! Don't listen to those who say it's "cringe", base yourself from what you felt and still feel. I can read from your comment that you still care about what you felt and believed in, so keep clinging to it!! Even if you feel like it's too much pain or like you're the only one around with that problem! I can relate... It takes strength and determination to keep being involved and celebrate what makes this community unique in your eyes, but you can do it! It was all true, and it's still true if you choose to keep believing! You are not alone! If you need more positive "brony spirit" places to reassure you and show you that you're not the only one, I could show you (my music posts on EQD may be a good place to start, I always try to spread about the heartfelt pony fan works and spread some brony spirit and express my love to bronies). As Rhyme say, don't hesitate to reach out to any of us, my PMs are always open and I would love to know more about you and your story and maybe even help you with that issue and the pain. "I had known how painful it would be, I may well have stayed away" I may as well regret a few things, BUT nothing will ever take away from me the unique emotions that MLP and the community made me feel. All those things you've outlined that makes it special... and so much more... The magic IS here inside all of us..!! And it's up to us to keep spreading it and expressing it, trying to make this world a better world, more like Equestria!! That's the brony's way!! And if you would join me, I would love it! I KNOW it's tough when you feel like it's no use and the world won't change, and when you're struggling with pain from bad experiences... But even if I'm the last brony in the world, I will keep believing in that magic... from all those colorful horses and the fellow bronies who believed... and still believe... somewhere out there... Much love to you <3
Pony will never be cringe. It was sincere, and it was good, and it was bright, and it wasn't cynical or gritty. It was something special, and it still is. Stay strong.
Damn this is good. Really good to see you upload again. /)
I first got into pone in spring 2012. It was like a thunderbolt - it changed how I saw the world. And while I left the fandom in late '13, something about it stuck with me, and I came back a couple years later and found it was still something I loved. I haven't left since. Looking forward to G5, and while it's never going to be 2012 again, I hope some portion of the fandom stays - and that new people discover it, and felt what I felt nine years ago. For myself, I'm not going anywhere.
We all have many interests in our life, some short lasting, some longer lasting, some flash in the pan, and some on and off, but whatever changes mlp will be my absolute constant in life. My guidance in a world of negativity.
I hope you share similar opinions, because I'm not going anywhere :)
I truly missed you in the scene, true the fandom isn’t spotlighted but I still feel myself pulled to ponies to this day and I don’t know if I’ll ever truly stop
15 likesThis is lovely, and the story you told in the the description is very touching as well, thanks for sharing this <3
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Hello you
2 likesThis fandom changed me so much, and I will never be able to leave it. It's an absolutely beautiful fandom, and I look forward to where we're going in the future.
9 likesHoly shit dude... That description hit me s fucking hard. I think I needed to see that, and I'm sure so many others as well.
7 likesBest of luck with the jaw, man, and in the mean time, I look forward to the previously unreleased content. Regardless of if I upload pony content anymore or not (which has been the latter for the past few years), I'll always come back to watch your videos. Just because it's pony related doesn't mean shit when it's the man who took the time to refine my own music through google hangouts all those years ago.
Those are precious memories I could never forget, and yeah, you're right, have shaped me to be a better person overall.
Just as the show made me a brighter, more bubbly person overall to be around in my daily life.
And I think that second part IS something I've forgotten about.
So thank you for the reminder.
Best of luck with your life and your health, whatever that entails.
And no mater what, I will always be there to support your music. Always.
I was never horse famous. My biggest contribution to the fandom was that I beta’d My Little Dashie and “The Piano Man” and some of “Sweeties Mansion” that never got posted.
20 likesBut I remember. A third of my subscriptions are MLP channels that have since been defunct or rebranded. I remember my one cringe class presentation on the brony fandom. I remember the music I still half know by heart, the tunes I whistle under my breath when I’m working or alone. Probably on my old laptop are the first three Brony for change music folders that I donated to get.
It was a special time. And it hurt to end. To have friends who just stopped logging on, artists and writers who never posted a new work. Drama and internet arguing souring emotions towards the fandom. It was easier to shut the door on all of it and step away instead of follow a fandom that hurt my heart with the bitter sweet memories.
And the fandom helped me to accept what came next. New friendships, deeper ones, meaningful ones. I wouldn’t have have as accepting and open as I was without Bronies.
So to... heh... to everypony reading this. Fans new and old, artists, writers, people.
Thank you. I had no idea what was possible with community and friendship. And because you shared it with me, I was able to carry it and share it. Thank you. May we meet again someday.
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Infinite likes to your comment!! True bronies like you, who keep spreading the values of the show, are showing me that I'm not alone in still believing in the brony spirit (and using "everypony" all the time!) I can relate to what you wrote in your comment so much, especially the "Drama and internet arguing souring emotions towards the fandom" part. I still won't shut the door despite all the painful reminders and I'm still very involved in the community to this day, but it IS hard to keep going. But just like Rhyme and his song, fellow bronies like you and comments like these are reminding me that I'm not alone and we are strong together <3 *hugs you* Read my comment if you want for more details, but yeah I can totally get what you're saying and I'm loving your own message in response to this song <3 <3 <3 Much love! Keep spreading the brony spirit!! Brohoof as well /)
1 likeThat's one hell of a description and an amazing song. It really brings me back through the years. Nowadays I don't check in on pony as often as I used to. The most pony I do nowadays is wear my Sunset Shimmer hoodie and even then, on cold days it's usually covered by a coat and hot days, left at home. As for content creation, I used to make pony memes and even hosted a podcast, but as old friends drifted away and disappeared and times changed, I guess I loosened my grip on everything pony and after that, life just took over. Heck, I hardly even use this account anymore as I've pretty much moved to my gaming one for everything. Only using this one here to pay respects. My avatar however at least remains the same across all channels, with my signature Vinyl Scratch hoodie that I still have to this day included in it and will never change.
7 likesHonestly nowadays, pony still remains in my mind just as it has through the nearly decade that I've been in the fandom. I still miss all the old friends in the fandom I used to have as it's the only reason I ever even had friends to begin with. Even if all the old is gone, I'm grateful that pony gave me my current best friend who is my only IRL friend that I keep in contact with as well as my fiance. Every now and then I miss making pony videos, and honestly if I felt my gaming channel didn't take up what little creativity time I have, I'd probably still make a few here and there. Maybe I'll make it a goal this year to make something once again.
I guess in the end, I'll say that the fandom and the show are the best things to have happened to me in my life and while I'm not connected with it as I used to be, I'll never truly let go. And I hope that all of my old friends, whether they still remain in the fandom or retired to other things in life, are doing well. So thanks for coming back and releasing another great tune.
Christ what a description. Hits hard, glad to see an upload, let alone one featuring Feather
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@Rhyme Flow I didn't see this- my heart hurts lol
1 likeI listened to as much of her stuff as I could, what a wonderful, truly beautiful voice. I'm glad she's living well, wishing nothing but the best for her.
This music vid is absolutely lit i love it, amazing work!!!
4 likesI totally understand, this fandom is so amazing and it changed the lives of so many people, in fact i can't imagine what the world would be like without the mlp fandom or where everyone in it would be without it, for the mlp fandom isn't just a fandom it's a way of life!!!
If nothing else, the fandom gave me my online handle of Magical Trevor, lol. I still have friends who are bronies, and they're either on the fence or looking forward to what the next generation might hold for lore and the like. It definitely affected me, as I never would have been so outgoing or vocal online if not for the start of the fandom. May 21st of 2011, that's when I watched the first episode because tsitra360 wouldn't stop bugging me to watch the first episode. The rest is history. I don't bother trying to hide the past anyway, because it's the future we should focus on. So long as you're a better person tomorrow than you were today, that's a victory to be celebrated.
4 likesWhat a description, damn. I've been listening to a lot of your musics recently, and I love what you do, so here's hoping for more! I don't know what happened to you, but hopefully your jaw heals well <3
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@Rhyme Flow I'm quite new to the fandom, been there for just a year now, so I'm still discovering new things everyday; and I gotta say, pretty much every song of yours I hear is a real banger; your ability to rap is insane, and I love your flow (no pun intended xd) ^-^
1 likeI certainly am enjoying your work, in fact I love trying to rap along with you :D I think "Apples of my eye" is my favorite one, but "On Hold" is by far the hardest one for me, I don't know how you manage to articulate soo much towards the end there xD (Tho the fact that my native language isn't english probably doesn't help me :p)
And finding out that you can both rap AND sing was also a crazy surprise ^^
@Rhyme Flow Thank you for the encouragement ^-^ I'm from France :D
1 likeOh wow... Such a very meaningful song, spreading deep and heartfelt messages with that description, and I appreciate it so much and what you did with this... This is all so relatable even though the song isn't targeted at me, and I second you there. I'm still very much involved in the community to this day even after 7 years (with managing EQD's music section, Horse Music Herald, Cider Party... and simply checking out all the daily releases in pony music/art/PMVs), and for me spreading the brony spirit and affirming myself as a brony is second nature. But with some stuff that happened, some memories and emotions turned bittersweet and sour like cnakamur said in their comment, it sucks so much, and it IS hard to keep going despite all the painful reminders... I, as well, understand why some people left. It's getting harder to believe in the brony values I believed in ever since I found out about the community. But I will keep believing, and I will keep using "everypony" all the time even though I'm about the only one who still does it... Because every now and then, I get reminded that I'm not alone, and there are people like you releasing songs like these and writing such descriptions. On behalf of all the bronies, thank you for this. I hope that your message will spread wide and some people who "grew out" from the community like you said will hear your message and perhaps realize that about the community helping them and shaping them, and that they should be thankful for it, and nice to bronies who still stay involved in the community. Even if we are fewer... as long as we bronies remain together, we will be fine <3 *hugs you* I'll do my best to spread the word about this song. About the music in itself, I absolutely love that vocal part from Feather too, it's so catchy too. And those lyrics are carrying the message of the song so well... Really touching and emotional. Let us wish the best to all those who left, and carry on ponying on :) Stay brony, friend! I'm with you <3 Much love <3
5 likesPS: Almost forgot to comment about that, I hope your jaw will be better and that you'll be able to sing again <3 Don't lose hope <3
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@Rhyme Flow AWWW <3 <3 <3 Thank you for such an in-depth and wonderful reply ^.^ I'm truly glad to know you and to have been (and continue to be) able to comment on your songs to express my gratitude and love and even interact with you like this. Comments sections are really a wonderful thing, a way to share positive emotions, love, and gratitude spirals like these <3 I edited my comment btw. And, of course I will stick around!! Stay awesome <3
2 likesWow. This really takes me back when I was listening to some of your tracks while working on a construction site, welding stuff and carrying stuff and more. It's funny, cause it was prohibited (still is) to use the headphones while working, but I had that welder helmet that would cover my ears, so no one would notice, and I could tell those buysumappuls HSE officers to buck off and let me work. Anyway, it feels so good to know that somebody's still taking it as close to heart as I do. You be well there, buddy.
1 likeThe time I look back most fondly in my life. Being part of a community of artists who have yet to be outdone, I've never felt that welcomed anywhere else. Can't believe it's been so long.
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@Rhyme Flow You too my man. I wish you only the best, no matter what comes next. Your music has been with me since then and it will be in the future. My gratitude will do the same for you.
1 likeLove the song. This fandom had a big impact on my life as well. The show may be over and I may have moved on, but I am thankful for what it gave me. I hope you get better.
1 likeI will never leave the Brony fandom, it is too much for me. 😢
6 likesI do not have any friends since childhood and my girlfriend left me 1 year ago, plus I think that I am the only Romanian brony who likes the show so much, the rest of Romanian people doesn't like it they hate it or didn't heard of it. If I weren't a Brony now, I would probably do something bad without any friends, without anything just feeling depressed all of my life... 😭
But the Brony fandom really changed my life, I made some great brony friends to talk to, to help me get through the problems as well as I help them with everything as best as l can and some brony friends that l do really care about. I also want to learn (I almost learned) how to make a poster in SFM (Source Filmmaker), they really likes it what l do with the SFM, even if I am new to this.
In conclusion, l am a brony since 2016 and I will NEVER leave the brony community for changing my life, for bringing these 4 years of joy, happiness and finally trying to make some great friends that l really care about! 🙏
(Btw, hope l wrote everything correctly...)
Great song.
2 likesI love this!!! It kind of sounds like Hamilton!!
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@Rhyme Flow Well you are incredibly talented! Shout and Yell! just blew me away.
1 likeHeya buddy ♥️ /). A lot happened in my life and I just wanted to grow stronger so when I do come back I'll be a better person so I can provide more love for this community that took me in when I was at a rough spot in my life. Even when I'm gone I'll still be here ♥️♥️♥️
3 likesConsarn it... as if I didn't have enough reasons to continue working on my pony game... fandom is as fandom does, and now I have to DO something about it!
3 likesIt hurts. Unlike many, I was never trepidatious or embarrassed about pony back then. I'm a moody person by nature, and prone to anxiety. Yet I desperately yearn to be free of my dark jaded mood and just be joyful without fear. Pony allowed me that. I don't know why, but I was in the right mental place at the right time, back then on January 28, 2012 when I watched the first episode. I didn't flinch. I didn't cringe. I didn't even do that thing I often do in movies where I pause it to psyche myself up for an embarrassing moment a character is about to have. It was just me, and I was feeling completely open to it. I watched the intro and it was a thrill, just openly taking in the kind of thing I'd never given a chance - femininity, girliness, whatever you want to call it. I sat quietly and I allowed it to teach me. What a good female character was. Another perspective. And I can't tell you how much of a rush of freedom it was. Freedom from the soul-crushing cage of my own mind trying to protect me from embarrassment and anxiety. Don't say anything. Don't go anywhere. Don't be joyful, you look like an idiot and will be humiliated.
5 likesBronies were like brilliant uninhibited bursts of light and color. No shackles, no fear, not ashamed. An explosion of beauty like flowers do, not humans afraid and small. We filled our world with joy, heedless, trying anything, expressing ourselves fully. Now we cringe. Now we feel shame. The clamps have slammed down twice as hard as they had before. It HURTS. It hurts as much as it felt like magic back then. It hurts because I'm not even certain I gained anything from it. I'm not at all certain I'm in a better place after than I was before. It made me buy a decent mic and start making music again, but I never managed to really parlay it into anything. I had an absolutely wonderful year or two, and I suppose that's something, but if I had known how painful it would be, I may well have stayed away.
I haven't been able to let it go. Hearing it described it as "cringe" is mortifying and crushing to me. I thought I was escaping anxiety, but now I've created yet more reason to be. It feels cruel. I'm desperate to get away from the pain, but I feel unable to have closure. I still read a couple of comics which I'm perfectly comfortable with, but at the same I just want to run and escape it. But I've filled my world with it, my videos, my commentary. I wish I understood what it all meant and what, if anything, it's done for me. The idea that it was a stupid thing that I grew out of, I find it impossible to deal with that idea emotionally. Are things really so cruel that the happiest and freest I've felt was simply a trick, a false thing? I feel I can't ever be that open again, but I don't believe that to be a good thing. I just can't accept that our destiny is to be grey, and to accept that fate and reject the "childish" uninhibited love is to be respectable and mature. I can't deal with that future.
I just don't understand and it hurts.
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I 100% second Rhyme's reply and give infinte likes to it!! Don't listen to those who say it's "cringe", base yourself from what you felt and still feel. I can read from your comment that you still care about what you felt and believed in, so keep clinging to it!! Even if you feel like it's too much pain or like you're the only one around with that problem! I can relate... It takes strength and determination to keep being involved and celebrate what makes this community unique in your eyes, but you can do it! It was all true, and it's still true if you choose to keep believing! You are not alone! If you need more positive "brony spirit" places to reassure you and show you that you're not the only one, I could show you (my music posts on EQD may be a good place to start, I always try to spread about the heartfelt pony fan works and spread some brony spirit and express my love to bronies). As Rhyme say, don't hesitate to reach out to any of us, my PMs are always open and I would love to know more about you and your story and maybe even help you with that issue and the pain. "I had known how painful it would be, I may well have stayed away" I may as well regret a few things, BUT nothing will ever take away from me the unique emotions that MLP and the community made me feel. All those things you've outlined that makes it special... and so much more... The magic IS here inside all of us..!! And it's up to us to keep spreading it and expressing it, trying to make this world a better world, more like Equestria!! That's the brony's way!! And if you would join me, I would love it! I KNOW it's tough when you feel like it's no use and the world won't change, and when you're struggling with pain from bad experiences... But even if I'm the last brony in the world, I will keep believing in that magic... from all those colorful horses and the fellow bronies who believed... and still believe... somewhere out there...
0 likesMuch love to you <3
Pony will never be cringe. It was sincere, and it was good, and it was bright, and it wasn't cynical or gritty. It was something special, and it still is. Stay strong.
2 likesDamn this is good. Really good to see you upload again. /)
0 likesI first got into pone in spring 2012. It was like a thunderbolt - it changed how I saw the world. And while I left the fandom in late '13, something about it stuck with me, and I came back a couple years later and found it was still something I loved. I haven't left since. Looking forward to G5, and while it's never going to be 2012 again, I hope some portion of the fandom stays - and that new people discover it, and felt what I felt nine years ago. For myself, I'm not going anywhere.
Life's been weird. Hope you've been doin' okay.
7 likesWas surprised to see you in my subfeed
Feather is life
2 likesWe all have many interests in our life, some short lasting, some longer lasting, some flash in the pan, and some on and off, but whatever changes mlp will be my absolute constant in life. My guidance in a world of negativity.
2 likesI hope you share similar opinions, because I'm not going anywhere :)
Why doesn't this have more views??
0 likes[Sigh...] Another one bites the dust...
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@Rhyme Flow Another content creator I subscribed to who is no longer putting out content and has more or less quit. A good one, too, no less.
0 likesQuite a few of those in the last couple years
Dude where have you been? Why don't you ever hit me up on discord?
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